The subject of The Wave has come up many times in the Cassiopaean sessions, and many people have written to me asking for more details about this mysterious event that is suggested to be a part of our future experiences. It is such a vast subject with so many references, that I have put off dealing with it until now. But, the time is right, I think, to talk about some of these things.
In one of the earliest contacts with the Cassiopaeans, being in the “test mode,” I tossed a rather general question out one night:
July 23, 1994
Q: (L) What is causing the Earth Changes?
A: Electromagnetic wave changes.
Q: (L) Can you be more specific?
A: Gap in surge heliographic [i.e. relating to the Sun] field.
I didn’t make too much of this answer because it was more or less incomprehensible to me, and we were not yet at the stage of recording the sessions on tape, so I was pretty busy trying to keep notes of everything. But, as we proceed, this answer will become very important, so remember it! (Added note: the words “in surge” could have been “insurge”.)
Actually, I had first encountered the idea of some sort of strange “wave” in a hypnosis session with an abductee, “Candy”, which I have described in High Strangeness which included the actual transcript of the hypnosis session. There are a lot of extremely interesting things that developed during this hypnosis session, but we are going to focus on The Wave. Now that we have the first reference to it, and the context in which it occurred, let’s zoom in on the specific remarks:
A: They [the abductors] are showing us all kinds of destruction. Cities of mangled iron… Things aren’t going to be safe… The planet’s not going to be safe…
Q: Who is causing the destruction?
A: I don’t know. I just see a wave generated.
Q: A wave that’s generated?
A: Um hmm.
Q: What generates the wave?
A: I can’t see anything.
Q: What does this wave do when it is generated?
A: Throws the axis off. The magnetic axis. It’s magnetic and we have magnetic axis. Somehow it throws it completely out of harmony. It does something to it and throws it out of harmony.
Q: And what is the result of this throwing out of the axis?
A: I see the Earth spinning. Not normally, but out of balance.
Q: Okay. And what is the result of this out of balance spinning?
A: Destruction.
Q: Okay. And you can’t detect from where this wave originates.
A: Can’t see anything.
Q: Is it a natural wave? Or is it unnatural?
A: I don’t know what this means. Somebody is causing… They’re disrupting something. All those ships I saw…
Q: Are the ships causing this wave?
A: They are disrupting something. There’s a disruption.
Q: Are the squadrons of ships you see coming, do they come before this destruction or after?
A: The only thing I can say is that they ride the wave in.
Q: They ride the wave in? And you can’t see where the wave is coming from?
A: All I can see is we have to get prepared.
Q: How do we get prepared?
A: They are preparing us.
Q: Do we have to do anything ourselves?
A: We are programmed.
Q: How can one tell if one is programmed?
A: Things will be triggered. You are set up to do certain things… movies, books; different things trigger things that are in your subconscious… I see a key, or a wheel… how a wheel fits together… two wheels fit together and it clicks in.
Q: Okay. This wave you speak of, do you sense that it is a wave coming from deep space or is it a wave coming from within our solar system?
A: It’s on its way! We don’t know about it but somebody knows.
Q: Who knows, does the government know?
A: Yes.
Even at this point I didn’t connect the wave Candy talked about with The Wave mentioned by the Cassiopaeans in the earlier session; which, I should make clear, Candy had no knowledge of that remark. So, at the next contact with the Cassiopaeans I brought up the subject of Earth Changes again, asking a question related to the ideas I have presented in my book The Noah Syndrome, and as the subject went forward I brought up the question of the wave as specifically related by Candy:
September 30, 1994
Q: (L) Is it true that at regular intervals the sun radiates massive amounts of electromagnetic energy, which then causes the planets of the solar system to interact with one another to a greater or lesser extent?
A: Other irregular pulsations determined by external vibrational events.
Q: (L) The sun is not the source of the periodicity of “dyings”?1
A: Sometimes. Many causes.
Q: (L) Well what is the cause that recurs like clockwork? Is there some cause that is a regular pulsation?
A: Cometary showers.
Q: (L) Where are these cometary showers from?
A: Clusters in own orbit.
Q: (L) Does this cluster of comets orbit around the sun?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How often does this cluster of comets come into the plane of the ecliptic?
A: 3600 years.
Q: (L) What body were the Sumerians talking about when they described the “Planet of the Crossing” or Nibiru?
A: Comets.
Q: (L) This body of comets?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does this cluster of comets appear to be a single body?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this the same object that is rumored to be on its way here at the present time?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Who were the Annunaki?
A: Aliens.
Q: (L) Where were they from?
A: Zeta Reticuli.
Q: (L) Do they come here every time the comet cluster is approaching to sap the soul’s energy created by the fear, chaos and so forth?
Q: (L) The two events are loosely interrelated?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that why they are here now?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is there a large fleet of space ships riding a wave, so to speak, approaching our planet?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where are these ships from?
A: Zeta Reticuli.
Q: (L) When will they arrive?
A: 1 month to 18 years.
Q: (L) How can there be such a vast discrepancy in the time?
A: This is such a huge fleet that space/time warping is irregular and difficult to determine as you measure time.
Q: (L) Are these craft riding a “wave” of some sort?
A: Yes.
Well, that was interesting, but it was late and we put off more questions until another time. But the issue of the big window of Estimated Time of Arrival really bugged me, so that is what I wanted to pin down. And, at this point, we started taping the sessions.
October 5, 1994
Q: (L) Assuming there is a fleet of spacecraft riding a wave, and approaching from the vicinity of Zeta Reticuli, what does it mean to say that the space-time warp is indefinite in terms of arrival? Why is this? Please specify.
A: Mass affects electromagnetic transfer within gravity wave.
Q: (L) Can you help us out any more here?
A: Mass affects time cycle: small equals short cycle. Large or dense equals long cycle.
Well, I was completely out of my depth on that answer and didn’t know how to go any further with it before thinking about it. As it turned out, I didn’t come back to the subject myself — at least not on purpose — but it sure came up again in an unexpected way. I had been reading about Easter Island and was curious about the completely ugly heads represented by these statues. I really wanted to know what race or group they represented. I figured that whoever carved them must have been representing themselves, even if only as a caricature, and it might be a clue as to what groups were where on the planet in ancient times. So, I tossed in a question about Easter Island one night and got back a whole lot more than I had bargained for!
Q: (L) Who carved the stone heads on Easter Island?
A: Lemurian descendants.
Q: (L) The natives say the stones walked into position. Is this true?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, how?
A: Tonal vibration.
Q: (L) And what did these stones represent?
Q: (L) Is this what the Nephilim looked like?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Does that mean that the Nephilim were present in Lemuria?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Where was Lemuria located?
A: Pacific off South America. Right near, all around Easter Island is remnant of Lemuria.
Q: (L) What happened to Lemuria?
A: Submerged close to time you refer to as Fall of Eden, approximately.
Q: (L) Well if the Nephilim were brought here nine to twelve thousand years ago [as you have said previously]…
A: Last visit. Have been here 5 times. Will return.
Q: (L) The Nephilim are going to return? [I was pretty shocked, to say the least!] Where do the Nephilim currently live?
A: Orion.
Q: (L) They live in the constellation Orion? Where is their planet?
A: Don’t have one. In transit.
Q: (L) The whole dad gum bunch is in transit?
A: Three vehicles.
Q: (L) How many Nephilim does each vehicle hold? [At this point I think my voice was shaking.]
A: About 12 million.
Q: (L) Are they coming to help us? [I was hoping!]
A: No. Wave, comet cluster. All using same energy.
Q: (L) Using same energy to what?
A: Pass through space/time.
Q: (L) Does this mean that without this comet cluster they cannot pass through space/time?
A: No. “Slower.”
Q: (L) So, it is slower for them to come here without this Wave. Where is the Wave coming from?
A: Follows cluster.
Q: (L) It follows the cluster. What does this Wave consist of?
A: Realm border.
Q: (L) Does the realm border wave follow the comet cluster in a permanent way?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is the realm border associated with the comet cluster each time it comes?
A: No. Realm border follows all encompassing energy reality change; realm border will follow this cluster passage and has others but not most.
Q: (L) Is this realm border like a dimensional boundary?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, this realm border, do dimensions…
A: Pulsating realms. Fluctuating realms.
Q: (L) Is our realm fluctuating or pulsating?
A: No.
Q: (L) What fluctuates?
A: Residence. Your planet fluctuates between realms.
Q: (L) How often does this fluctuation occur?
A: About every 309,000 years. [It should be noted that this is almost exactly 12 precessional cycles.]
Q: (L) In other words we can expect to be in fourth density4 for about 300,000 years?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does this mean that the Edenic state existed for about 300,000 years before the “Fall?”
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You are saying that the planet fluctuates…
A: No, realms do; planet merely occupies realm.
Q: (L) What is the source in space/time of this other realm?
A: Too complex for present energies.
Q: (L) What is the generative source?
A: Part of Grand Cycle.
Q: (L) Is this the cycle understood by the Mayans?
A: They understood partially.
Q: (L) Their calendar extends to 2012… Is that accurate as to the time of the realm border change?
A: Close. Still indefinite, as you measure time. Lizzies5 hoping to rule you in fourth density. Closer to 18 years.
And, 18 years from the date of the above session would be December 2012. But, let’s not get too focused on that since there is a lot more material to cover. The next mention of The Wave was in response to another innocent or seemingly unrelated question:
November 7, 1994
Q: (L) Recently I read an article about bursts of gamma rays in the upper atmosphere. What are these bursts of gamma rays?
A: Increasing energy with approach of wave.
And again, in response to another question about an earthquake, made its appearance:
November 24, 1994
Q: (L) Can you tell us about this recent volcanic eruption? What was the cause?
A: “Heating up” of earth.
Q: (L) What is causing it to heat up?
A: Vibrational frequency changes.
Q: (L) What is the source of these vibrational frequency changes?
A: Oncoming wave as we have told you before.
Q: (L) This oncoming wave, is this a wave which is so large or so vast that its effects are felt many years in advance of its absolute arrival point?
A: All waves in nature have a “contract” phase.
Q: (L) Does that mean like just before a wave comes up on shore it kind of sucks everything out?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So we are in the sucking back phase [demonstrates with hand motion and sound effects].
A: Cute analogy.
It may have been cute, but I was starting to think seriously about this Wave business!
November 26, 1994
Q: (L) You have told us through this source, that there is a cluster of comets connected in some interactive way with our solar system, and that this cluster of comets comes into the plane of the ecliptic every 3600 years. Is this correct?
A: Yes. But, this time it is riding realm border wave to 4th level, where all realities are different.
Q: (L) Okay, so the cluster of comets is riding the realm border wave. Does this mean that when it comes into the solar system, that its effect on the solar system, or the planets within the solar system, or us, may or may not be mitigated by the fact of this transition? Is this a mitigating factor?
A: Will be mitigated.
So, that was a bit of a relief. What the Cassiopaeans seemed to be saying was that there was something about this wave that made it possible for it to be utilized according to the frequency of the individual. So, we asked a few more questions along this line in the same session quoted above:
Q: (L) Does any of this mean that the Earth Changes that have been predicted, may not, in fact, occur in physical reality, as we understand it?
A: You betcha.
Q: (L) Does this mean that all of this running around and hopping and jumping to go here and go there and do this and do that is…
A: That is strictly 3rd level thinking.
Q: (L) Now, if that is third level thinking, and if a lot of these things are symbolic, I am assuming they are symbolic of movement or changes in energy.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, if these changes in energy occur does this mean that the population of the planet are, perhaps, in groups or special masses of groups, are they defined as the energies that are changing in these descriptions of events and happenings of great cataclysm? Is it like a cataclysm of the soul on an individual and or collective basis?
A: Close.
Q: (L) When the energy changes to fourth density…and you have already told us that people who are moving to fourth density when the transition occurs, that they will move into fourth density, go through some kind of rejuvenation process, grow new teeth, or whatever…what happens to those people who are not moving to fourth density, and who are totally unaware of it? Are they taken along on the wave by, in other words, piggybacked by, the ones who are aware and already changing in frequency, or are they going to be somewhere else doing something else?
A: Step by step.
Q: (T) In other words, we are looking at the fact that what’s coming this time is a wave that’s going to allow the human race to move to fourth density?
A: And the planet and your entire sector of space/time.
Q: (T) Is that what this whole plan is about, then, if I may be so bold as to include all of us here in this? There are people who have come here into human form, to anchor the frequency… Is this what we are anchoring it for, for this wave, so that when it comes enough of us will be ready, the frequency will be set, so that the change in the planet can take place as it has been planned?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, when the people are talking about the Earth Changes, when they talk in literal terms about the survivors, and those who are not going to survive, and the destruction and so forth and so on, in third, fourth, fifth level reality we are not talking about the destruction of the planet on third level physical terms, or the loss of 90 per cent of the population on the third level because they died, but because they are going to move to fourth level?
A: Whoa! You are getting “warm.”
Q: (T) Okay. So, when they talk about 90 per cent of the population not surviving, it is not that they are going to die, but that they are going to transform. We are going to go up a level. This is what the whole light thing is all about?
A: Or another possibility is that the physical cataclysms will occur only for those “left behind” on the remaining 3rd level density earth.
Q: (T) Okay, what you are saying, then, is that we are anchoring the frequency, so that when the wave comes, we move to fourth level density as many people as possible, in order to break the hold the fourth density STS6 have got on this planet, those who remain behind will not have enough energy left for the STS beings to bother with the planet any longer. There will be less of them so the planet will be able to refresh and they will be able to move on in their lessons without interference?
A: Close.
Q: (L) At this point of dimensional transition, is what we are doing, anchoring a frequency, that will literally create another earth in fourth density, which will then exist in fourth density, and the old third density earth — almost like the splitting of a one celled organism, only in this splitting one half of it moves into another dimension and is energized and quite literally created by the anchoring frequency, while the old one remains and experiences third density reality?
A: Step by step.
Q: (L) Are we anchoring frequency to create a split?
A: One developing conduit.
Q: (T) What is the conduit for?
A: You and those who will follow you.
Q: (L) This conduit. Is this a conduit through which an entire planet will transition?
A: You are one. There are others. Developing at this point.
Q: (T) These are conduits for us to move to fourth density in?
A: Knowledge is the key to developing a conduit.
Q: (T) We’re developing a conduit to move us from third density to fourth density. Once we have moved through the conduit does that mean we have completed what we came here to do, and that is anchor the frequency?
A: Partly.
Q: (T) Is the conduit kind of like an escape hatch for us?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Let me get this straight. When we move through this conduit, are the other…
A: You will be on the 4th level earth as opposed to 3rd level earth.
Q: (L) What I am trying to get here, once again, old practical Laura is trying to get a handle on practical terms here. Does this mean that a fourth density earth and a third density earth will coexist side by side…
A: Not side-by-side, totally different realms.
Q: (L) Do these realms interpenetrate one another but in different dimensions…
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, in other words, a being from say, sixth density, could look at this planet we call the Earth and see it spinning through space and see several dimensions of earth, and yet the point of space/time occupation is the same, in other words, simultaneous. (J) They can look down but we can’t look up.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, while all of this cataclysmic activity is happening on the third dimensional earth, we will be just on our fourth dimensional earth and this sort of thing won’t be there, and we won’t see the third dimensional people and they won’t see us because we will be in different densities which are not en rapport, so to speak?
A: You understand concept, now you must decide if it is factual.
Well, heck! What an assignment! But, on the other hand, how many choices are there? As you might expect, the subject came up again, and again the Cassiopaeans led us into it. On this occasion, they did something rather unusual — they gave a long string of predictions without stopping for questions. This was unusual because the overall Cassiopaean position on predictions is that:
The forces at work here are far too clever to be accurately anticipated so easily. You never know what twists and turns will follow, and they are aware of prophetic and philosophical patterning, and usually shift course to fool and discourage those who believe in fixed futures.
So, it was strange for them to make such a lengthy set of predictions even if they assigned no dates to them.
But, the predictions in this series seemed to be more like marker events — things that would begin to happen together in a sort of group as a marker that other things would then begin to happen like the falling of dominoes.
December 3, 1994
A: Ukraine explosion: chemical or nuclear. Hawaii crash: aviation, possibly involving military. More California seismic activity after 1st of year: San Diego, San Bernardino, North Bakersfield, Barstow: all are fracture points. Hollister, Palo Alto, Imperial, Ukiah, Eureka, Point Mendocino, Monterrey, Offshore San Luis Obispo, Capistrano, Carmel: these are all stress points of fracture in sequence. “Time” is indefinite. Expect gradual destruction of California economy as people begin mass exodus. Also, Shasta erupts, Lassen activity. Ocean floor begins to subside. Queen Elizabeth serious illness; blood related. Princess Diana suicide attempt. Gas explosions in NE United States, Texas and other. Supernova and unusual weather all over. Memphis feels tremors. Minneapolis banking scandal relates to mysterious Nordic covenant. Evangelical sexual tryst exposed. Gold is discovered in California after one of the quakes.
Regarding the mention of a suicide attempt by Princess Diana, there were revelations of prior suicide attempts though in actual fact, the probability that was chosen was that she died in an automobile crash at the same time as the “Flood of the Millennium” occurred in Europe.
The most recently publicized claims by the bodyguard who survived the crash is that he blames Dodi Fayed for Diana’s death because Dodi was careless and made very bad choices about security. I suppose, in a certain sense, Diana’s acquiescence to Dodi’s choices could be termed suicidal.
What is even more interesting to me as I now go through The Wave to prepare it for book publication, is the fact that the so-called Project for a New American Century, otherwise called PNAC, was formulated in June, 1997, two months before the death of the People’s Princess. The political activities of George W. Bush and his neocon-artists were based on this plan and it appears that Barack Obama is just the next in the line of puppets. Part of the text of this pernicious document states:
The Project for the New American Century was established in the spring of 1997. From its inception, the Project has been concerned with the decline in the strength of America’s defenses, and in the problems this would create for the exercise of American leadership around the globe and, ultimately, for the preservation of peace.
At present the United States faces no global rival. America’s grand strategy should aim to preserve and extend this advantageous position as far into the future as possible.
Preserving the desirable strategic situation in which the United States now finds itself requires a globally preeminent military capability both today and in the future.
Although it may take several decades for the process of transformation to unfold, in time, the art of warfare on air, land, and sea will be vastly different than it is today, and “combat” likely will take place in new dimensions: in space, “cyber-space,” and perhaps the world of microbes. Air warfare may no longer be fought by pilots manning tactical fighter aircraft sweeping the skies of opposing fighters, but a regime dominated by long-range, stealthy unmanned craft. On land, the clash of massive, combined-arms armored forces may be replaced by the dashes of much lighter, stealthier and information-intensive forces, augmented by fleets of robots, some small enough to fit in soldiers’ pockets.
Control of the sea could be largely determined not by fleets of surface combatants and aircraft carriers, but from land- and space-based systems, forcing navies to maneuver and fight underwater. Space itself will become a theater of war, as nations gain access to space capabilities and come to rely on them; further, the distinction between military and commercial space systems — combatants and noncombatants — will become blurred. Information systems will become an important focus of attack, particularly for U.S. enemies seeking to short-circuit sophisticated American forces… And advanced forms of biological warfare that can “target” specific genotypes may transform biological warfare from the realm of terror to a politically useful tool.
The current American peace will be short-lived if the United States becomes vulnerable to rogue powers with small, inexpensive arsenals of ballistic missiles and nuclear warheads or other weapons of mass destruction. We cannot allow North Korea, Iran, Iraq or similar states to undermine American leadership, intimidate American allies or threaten the American homeland itself.
HOMELAND DEFENSE. America must defend its homeland. During the Cold War, nuclear deterrence was the key element in homeland defense; it remains essential. But the new century has brought with it new challenges. While reconfiguring its nuclear force, the United States also must counteract the effects of the proliferation of ballistic missiles and weapons of mass destruction that may soon allow lesser states to deter U.S. military action by threatening U.S. allies and the American homeland itself. Of all the new and current missions for U.S. armed forces, this must have priority. 7
Another, even more evil part of the PNAC plan which directly relates to the complicity of this group in the attack on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon, states:
Further, the process of transformation, even if it brings revolutionary change, is likely to be a long one, absent some catastrophic and catalyzing event — like a new Pearl Harbor…
And advanced forms of biological warfare that can “target” specific genotypes may transform biological warfare from the realm of terror to a politically useful tool.
Even though we had a nagging suspicion that there was something terribly wrong with the circumstances surrounding the death of Diana Spencer, beloved icon of compassion and service, it was not until George Bush came to power by extraordinary and illegal means, that any of this series of predictions began to make sense. (My guess is that, due to the fact that they were given so far in advance, that there was some “blurring” of the facts.) Would Bush and the neocons have been able to pull off what they did, if there had been unassailable Icons of Peace speaking out against them?
In October of 2004, we were already two years into our Signs of the Times (http://sott.net) project, and the editors of the page wrote a bit of commentary on this issue, “Where have all the Heroes Gone?” as follows:
Heroes and heroines are that rare caste of human being who, when faced with oppression or hardship, are unwilling to lie down and submit to the usually formidable forces pitted against them. Of course, heroes need not always be acting in a consciously altruistic way, but it is the spirit of resistance to tyranny and freedom of choice that moves them, or moves through them, that can shine as a light for all those with eyes to see it. One might have thought that the modern world, with all of its injustice and suffering, would provide ample breeding ground for a new breed of heroes and heroines of all types, yet we find that this is not the case.
Perhaps it is our modern, dumbed-down, unimaginative, mechanized civilization, with its emphasis on career, money and personal gain, that has severely limited the possibilities for their emergence — or perhaps it is more true to say that the oppression has become so complete, so all encompassing, that even those of a heroic disposition are no match for it. Yet the twentieth century has, nevertheless, produced a few notable examples of those people who, finding themselves in a position of influence and with a choice to make, in their own way chose truth over lies, justice over injustice, and heroism over pusillanimity.
Readers will note that we have used the past tense in the preceding sentence, for, sadly in the modern world, heroism, particularly when it is on a grand and public scale, is not appreciated by those who thrive on a lifeless, apathetic population. As a result, the life expectancy of the average modern-day hero or heroine, who threaten to awaken the multitudes by their example, can be sharply curtailed. While we can be forgiven for seeing only the tragedy in such a scenario, and while we might lament the naiveté of the heroes, their actions, and the process of containing their potentially “negative” effects — even when it involves the ultimate sacrifice — can sometimes expose the face of the anti-hero who, far too often, steals the show here on the BBM. For any readers of a heroic disposition, such knowledge is immeasurably valuable.
Let us take a look then at some of the modern-day heroes who, by their lives, have sought to inspire humanity to greater things, and by their deaths, inadvertently exposed the face of the anti-hero.
The list we came up with included the Kennedy brothers, Dr. Martin Luther King, John Lennon, Princess Diana, and others, whose untimely deaths deprived the world of any individuals in a position of influence who, in their own way chose truth over lies, justice over injustice, and heroism over pusillanimity.
So it is that we consider Diana’s death and her mention in this series of prophecies to be a true marker of the evil times that were coming. In another sense, as others have suggested, it was the “death of the feminine”; the destruction of the goddess by the warlike male god, Yahweh; the victory of the Blade over the Chalice.
To continue with the series of marker events:
UFOs dramatic increase and Gulf Breeze gets swarmed, becomes massive “Mecca”. Laura sees much more UFO activity. Huge wave of UFO activity. All manner and origins. Just you wait, it will give you chills and that feeling in the pit of your stomach. Many aliens8 will appear and we will be visible too. Think of it as a convention. All must awaken to this. It is happening right now. The whole populace will play individual roles according to their individual frequencies. This is only the beginning. Just you wait “Henry Higgins,” just you wait!
Q: (L) Are you a Rodgers and Hammerstein fan?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How do you relate to the Pleiadians?
A: Pleiadians are communicating with many others; we are bursting upon the scene with you, but we are essentially the same, just at slightly different focus points on the realm border.
Q: (L) Well, why is all this activity happening now?
A: The Grand Cycle is about to close presenting a unique opportunity.
Q: (L) Does this mean that this is a unique opportunity to change the future?
A: Future, past and present.
Q: (L) Well, that sort of makes me think that if things are not changed somewhat at this point on the Grand Cycle that things could get really direfully screwed up, is that correct?
A: But they won’t. You have not grasped concept.
Q: (L) Yeah I have, I got you, I understand. It’s just part of the cycle. It’s all a cycle. I mean their being here is part of us being here…
A: You do??? [Inscribed giant question mark on board.]
Q: (L) Do what?
A: You said you understood concept. Really? Learn.
Q: (V) I am just concerned about this “convention”…
A: Convention is because of realm border crossing.
Q: (L) And why is there a convention attending this realm border crossing? I mean, is it just a “reely big shew!”
A: It is an opportunity, as in an opportunity to affect whole universe. Picture cosmic playing of “Pomp and Circumstance” AKA “Hope and Glory.”
Q: (L) How can a convention with slews of different kinds and races of people, converging on a single little pin-point planet on the outer edges of an insignificant galaxy, at the farthest reaches of this enormous universe, affect the whole thing?
A: That is your perception.
Q: (L) Well, what is the correct perception? Are the planet Earth and the people thereon, and the things that are going on in this spot, the Earth specifically, more important than maybe we would ordinarily have thought?
A: The Earth is a Convergence point.
Q: (L) Was it designed to be a convergence point from the beginning?
A: Natural function.
Q: (L) Has it been a convergence point all along? Is that why so many weird things happen here?
A: That is difficult to answer because you have no understanding of “time”.
Q: (V) Has this type of convention thing happened on other planets with other groups of beings?
A: Has, is, and will.
Q: (L) So, in other words, there are other planets, I don’t mean similar in structure or occupation, but other planets that are convergence points. If these convergence points are scattered around the universe, is the convergence of this realm border crossing going to occur simultaneously at all points in the universe that are convergence points?
A: No.
Q: (L) It only happens at say one, or selected, convergence points at any given point?
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, do realm borders have something to do with location?
A: Realm borders ride waves.
Q: (L) And where do these waves come from?
A: They constantly cycle.
Q: (L) Does it have something to do with the movement of the planet Earth into it or does it move onto us?
A: Either or.
Q: (F) Does this convention or convergence have something to do with the fact that there are living beings on the Earth?
A: Yes. And because you are at critical juncture in development.
Q: (L) I would like to know in terms of prophecy if the prophecies you gave us in the first session are still valid and upcoming?
A: They are evolving.
Q: (L) Does that mean that they are evolving to the point that they are going to happen soon?
A: Fluid.
Q: (L) Does that mean that some of them may not happen?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And the prophecies that you gave tonight, are they subject to change also?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) When was the last time a realm border crossed as far as the Earth is concerned?
A: As you measure on Earth, 309,000 years ago.
Q: (L) What does this wave consist of in terms of energy?
A: Feeling. Hyperkinetic sensate.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: All. Too complex for this medium.
Q: (L) Okay. How many times has the wave come and involved the Earth, as we know it?
A: Infinite number.
I was completely nonplussed by that answer. Infinite number? How can the linear mind cope with such an idea? But, I was game to try. I started planning my “Wave Questions” in advance:
December 5, 1994
Q: (L) I would like to know what is the definition of, and would you describe for us, a dimensional curtain?
A: Self-explanatory. Think.
Q: (L) When we are talking about dimensional curtains we are talking about divisions at the same level of density, is that correct?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Can dimensional curtains be between dimensions at the same level of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are dimensional curtains also something that occurs between levels of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, a dimensional curtain is a point at which some sort of change takes place… what causes this change?
A: Nature.
Q: (L) In specific terms of the engineering of it, what defines this change?
A: Experience.
Q: (L) Is it in any way related to atomic or quantum physics or the movement of atoms?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay. An atom is in third density. What distinguishes it from an atom in fourth density?
A: Reality.
Q: (L) What distinguishes one realm from another?
A: Assumptions.
Q: (L) Okay, what you assume or expect is what you perceive about that atom depending upon which reality you are in, is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) What determines your assumptions?
A: Experience.
Q: (L) My experience of atoms is that they congregate in such a way as to form solid matter…
A: Every thing that exists is merely a lesson.
Q: (L) Okay, so once we have learned certain lessons, as in experience of certain things, then our assumptions change?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, is this wave that is coming our direction going to give us an experience that is going to change our assumptions?
A: Catch 22: One half is that you have to change your assumptions in order to experience the wave in a positive way.
Q: (L) And what does this wave consist of in absolute terms?
A: Realm border.
Q: (L) Is that realm border as in a cut-off point between one reality and another?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that realm border as in dimensional curtain?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So the planet Earth is going to pass through a dimensional curtain?
A: Or an earth. All is merely a lesson, and nothing, repeat nothing, more.
Q: (L) Well, my experience with lessons has been that they are generally painful. Is this realm border crossing, or this merging experience going to be what we, or I, in the third density, would perceive as painful?
A: Wait and see.
I pretty much felt like I hadn’t gotten anywhere at all with the last series of questions. But, of course, it set me to thinking very hard about the subject!
In the meantime, I had a most distressing experience with a hypnosis subject. The issues of that session seem to be somewhat related to the matters at hand, so I had better tell you a little about it. Brace yourself.
1 Some scientists believe that the extinctions or “great dyings” that have been repeated many times throughout geological history are related to catastrophic events, perhaps asteroids hurtling into the earth.
2 One of my conclusions, presented in High Strangeness, is that “aliens” feed on negative emotional energy — that they “farm” us for food just as we farm animals.
3 I have left the word exactly as the Cassiopaeans spelled it. The reader will find that they have their own “spelling” of certain words, and in such cases, I leave theirs as is, but spell the word according to convention when I use it.
4 The C’s use the term density to describe higher and lower dimensions of space-time (as opposed to parallel dimensions). According to the C’s, the universe is made up of infinite dimensions and seven interpenetrating densities. We inhabit the third, while fourth density is the theorized origin of the UFO/alien phenomena. This subject is developed in later chapters and in High Strangeness.
5 “Lizzies” is a short-hand notation for those theorized denizens of hyperdimensional realities whose “essence” is “read” as reptilian. Many physicists suggest that all that really exists are “waveforms” and our consciousness is something that “reads waves.” We give form and structure to the waves we “read” according to some agreed upon convention. And so, certain denizens of hyperdimensional space are “read” as more or less “reptilian” because that is the “essence” of their being, the frequency of their “wave form.” We actually have come to prefer calling them the “Overlords of Entropy”. They are not necessarily physical as we understand the term, nor are they necessarily “alien” as we understand the term either. We suspect that the perceptions of these levels of reality and their “consciousness units” are what is behind many religious conceptions and mythological representations of “gods and goddesses” and creatures of all sorts.
Many students of the UFO/alien subject tend to see the alleged hyperdimensional Reptilian race as physical like us and not, as we suggest, hyperdimensional creatures of variable physicality. Still other groups tell us that these reptilians are purely demonic, ethereal beings, who can “descend” into a person, or a human being can “host” a reptilian and “shape-shift” into this form (only if they have the genetics, mind you), and become temporarily reptilian themselves. The Queen of England and many of the leaders of the world have been listed as being of this latter type, with tales spun around them that pass the bounds of bizarre into lunacy.
6 STS is an acronym for service-to-self, in contrast to STO (service-to-others), the two opposing states of being possible for sentient life-forms and expressions of Cosmic Duality.
7 Rebuilding America’s Defenses: Strategy, Forces and Resources For a New Century, September, 2000. (http://www.newamericancentury.org/RebuildingAmericas Defenses.pdf)
8 Keep in mind that “aliens” as used by the Cassiopaeans, has an altogether different meaning from the standard use of the term. This will become clearer as we proceed.
The subject of the hypnosis session transcribed below was a woman, about 45 years old, who was a science instructor at one of the local high schools. She, too, had begun to experience some rather strange things in her life after becoming associated with a metaphysical church in Tampa, about 40 miles distant from our home at the time.
As with most cases of this kind, the initiating events are so lost in a confusing mess of contradictory details that it is difficult to sort out what exactly happened in what sequence. The person is usually in such a state of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) that it is difficult to get them to make any sense. (I would like to note as an aside that I have worked with many other subjects who have gotten into difficulties from erroneous teachings promulgated at various metaphysical churches which have popped up all over the country in the past dozen or so years. In one case, the individual was possessed by a really nasty entity that informed me that many of the teachings of the New Age are designed to turn on, or trigger mind control programs leading to enslavement by powerful STS forces which plan to take over or replace mankind completely. In all such cases, knowledge truly does protect.)
This woman, referred to me by the owner of a book store in Tampa, called and left a hysterical message on my answering machine saying that somebody was following her, she was afraid and could I please call her right away because she needed to find out what was happening in her life — it was a shambles! Familiar story, yes?
She had been married to a professor at USF and had divorced him when she became convinced that he was sexually abusing their daughter. Whether there was any truth to the abuse claims I don’t know, because the evidence was that the courts must not have thought so, as the father had liberal visitation rights.
After a couple of interviews, I scheduled a session, and I was not prepared for what came out of that one!
After the induction I did what I normally do in such cases, which was to direct the subject to mentally create a “sanctuary” from which to work. This is a guided imagery exercise in which many things about the individual can be learned by the ways in which they describe their “private retreat” from the world. The general procedure is to find some aspect of the “sanctuary” that can be used as a bridge to the regression part of the session. For example, if there is a mirror on the wall, it can be used as a “viewing screen” to other times and places. If there is no mirror, but there is a window to the outside, then that can be used instead. The available furniture is utilized for further relaxing the subject as he/she is instructed to get comfortable on the sofa/bed/chair that may be described, and the trance is deepened from that position. It’s a particularly useful technique — sort of like hypnosis within hypnosis — because it gives deeper access to the subconscious mind while maintaining the “safety zone” for the comfort of the subject.
The subject (we can call her “Ruth,” though that is not her real name), created a lovely cottage filled with pleasant symbolic mementos of her life, or her “desired life,” which she wandered through and described in some detail. The first object she mentioned was a table of dark polished wood. There were shelves lined with beer steins and copper ale cups, a smell of warm cinnamon from the kitchen, and her feelings in regard to the cottage were so nostalgic that she became tearful several times during the description. Here, we will pick up the session verbatim. My questions are designated “Q”, and Ruth’s responses are “A”:
December 6, 1994
Q: Are there any books or papers on any of the shelves?
A: On the table. There are a few.
Q: Can you see the titles on any of the books?
A: No. There are no books, just papers… looks like a map.
Q: Do you know what it is a map of?
A: Like a treasure map kind of…
Q: Why don’t you walk over to it and have a look? Tell me about it.
A: It’s a treasure map. And I see… first I see the directions up in the left corner.
Q: What does it say?
A: Celestial journey. It’s got things moving on it!
Q: What’s moving on it?
A: The lights coming from the little circles… or the ships. The lights keep moving around. It’s down to the ground and they go ’round… and there’s three ships… and the lights go down to the ground. They go around. It’s like they take turns going around… and there’s red and green… and the ground is down toward the bottom. That’s where I’m walking.
Q: You are walking in the place on the map?
A: It’s funny. I’m in the map! And I’m walking.
Q: Continue and describe what you are seeing.
A: I’m in the woods. And… I’m… Ooooh… I see this ship… and it’s glowing… pulsating. It’s got lights! It’s just MAGNIFICENT! It’s round… The edge of the trees… I go around… I see it! I SEE IT!
Q: Who’s on board the ship?
A: They’re out on the ground.
Q: Describe them to me.
A: They are kind of far away yet… they are kind of like insects…
Q: What do you mean “kind of like insects?”
A: We’re walking around, you know…
Q: What kind of insects do they remind you of?
A: Oh! Grasshopper! This is like… like… when I was in a past life… and I was a grasshopper! And I ate… I ate… something. Oh! I remember. I ate humans. And I had blood all over me. I think I must be one of them… but I’m not sure yet.
Q: So, they eat humans?
A: There’s this little girl… with brown hair… curly. And she’s dressed in a light colored blue dress. And it has petticoats in it. And this insect being… eats her.
Q: Is this one you are seeing as you are going through the woods? Or is it from another time?
A: Uhh… this is in the woods.
Q: And you see this insect being eating a little girl?
A: Yeah.
Q: How does that make you feel?
A: Oh… I don’t have any feeling. I’m just watching it. It’s like I’m detached.
Q: What does the little girl say?
A: She doesn’t seem to mind.
Q: Okay. Stop the action for one moment. The whole scene you are observing is going to be projected onto a sort of movie screen. But, this is a very special movie screen that is really a curtain. Now, you have a little box in your hand like a TV remote control, and there is a button on that remote that makes the movie screen/curtain split and open and shows you the true essence of the scene you are viewing — it shows you the energy behind the events you are observing. All the masks and screens will be removed in one instant…
A: Excuse me… I’m eating that little girl!
Q: Okay. How does that make you feel?
A: It’s food. I pull her hair back because the hair doesn’t taste good.
Q: Do you look at her before you eat her?
A: Yeah.
Q: What does she look like?
A: Shirley Temple kind of…
Q: How does it make you feel now to look at yourself as that other being, that insect, eating that little girl?
A: It’s a way of life. It’s just what does happen.
Q: Okay, now. I want you to push the button on your remote control and split the movie screen. What do you see behind the screen?
A: [Subject begins to breath in short, gasping breaths.] Treacherous…
Q: What is treacherous?
A: [Whispers] It’s like… it’s not a grasshopper…
Q: What is it?
A: It’s like an ant… it’s an ANT… and it’s DEVOURING… they’re FEEDING… uh… uh… uh… they’re FEEDING… they’re FEEDING… [Gasping and choking] these kids… KIDS are being herded in and they’re EATING THEM!
Q: How do you feel?
A: Horrified!
Q: What do you want to say?
A: Uh… UH… HUH… [Gasping and choking and sobbing] They’re HUGE! I can’t… There isn’t anything I can do! They have NO understanding! They’re CREATURES! Their EYES! HUGE! They’re like Preying Mantises… that’s it… They tear arms off like we would a chicken wing… Look at the blood! It’s running down! That’s why they grow these kids! This happens ALL OVER EARTH!
Q: Are you okay?
A: I knew that Earth was a terrible place… but I didn’t know it was a feeding ground! [Coughing] We’re in danger. RIGHT NOW! You and I are in danger. Because we know. It’s scary. This is why there are so many lies and deceptions… The so-called “abductions” are lies… all smokescreen. Jesus Christ! Manipulation… [Laughs] WE are the manna! I SAW this in a past life… but it was left unfinished because the therapist got scared. It’s what you call a “hot item”. […] Now I know why I’m here. It’s penance… what I did in the past.
Q: As one of those beings?
A: That’s right. But I’m not gonna lay myself down and let ’em eat me!
Q: Let’s go back to the map. I want you to go back to your cottage, go to the table, pick up the map and look at it again and tell me what you see.
A: I see big… either… It’s not snakes… It’s more like tree roots. And they’re slithering… kind of brownish green. I am ONE of them!
Q: You are one of these snakes?
A: I don’t see heads… I just see bodies.
Q: What is happening to them?
A: They just kind of weave in an out like a whole big bunch of earthworms.
Q: Do you get any sense of where and when this is? Is it on Earth?
A: It’s at the core… Ohhh… I see! These ships go into the Earth and feed these big worms.
Q: What do they feed them?
A: People. That’s the ships they talk about in Peru. The Arcturian book talks about the caverns that the ships go into… and how they exist inside the Earth.
Q: Are you one of these worms or are you just looking at them?
A: Well… I’m looking at the worms from a spaceship… It’s got… the window is kinda like a lid only it’s in the middle. These are our PARENTS! Isn’t THAT wonderful! We all gotta come from somewhere! We’re… The DNA from these worms is just part of it…
Q: What do they use the DNA from these worms for?
A: I’m not sure. Let me look. It’s like there’s a basic DNA… and it’s a combination of the worms and the ants… uh… and they can create whatever being that they want to depending on how much they take from where. It’s kind of like a chemistry lab… The whole thing is like a scientific project.
Q: I want you to move to an event that impacted you with the feeling of being “prey” that you have wanted to address…
A: Oh! They’re going to push me down! And feed me to the worms! I think that I’m there as part of the expedition… but they turn on me and… They’re going to push me out of the ship… and down… to the worms.
Q: Do they do it?
A: It’s like I’m hanging onto the door… and I plop… down… and they EAT me!
Q: How does it feel?
A: Crunchy.
Q: Okay. Go back. What do the others in the ship look like? Are you one of them? Do they look like you?
A: Yeah. Well… they’ve got clothes on. They have uniforms. The weirdest thing… They have on uniforms… but they’re insects. Insect-like people! Insects with intelligence. More like ants that stand up and have human-like qualities. Now! Hang on just a minute! Their heads! I see the heads. And the eyes… they aren’t really big on these guys. The head turns and… they’re just… I don’t know… Praying Mantis sort of… but their hands aren’t like Praying Mantises… They’re just a different kind of insect… more like an ant.
Q: Do they have fingers?
A: I guess it’s more like a fly. They don’t really have hands. It’s just like it tapers off… kind of like a fly without wings. And they have on these uniforms. Huh!
Q: You were one of them?
A: Yeah. I guess I was. [Deep sigh.]
At this point, I took her back to her sanctuary, gave her suggestions for well-being and integration of what she had learned, and brought her out. Needless to say, this was a pretty bizarre story and I definitely wanted to ask the Cassiopaeans about it at the soonest opportunity.
December 9, 1994
Q: (L) Now, I would like to know the name of the beings Ruth described as something like ants, flies or Praying Mantises in her hypnosis session?
A: Her essence.
Q: (L) Well, you said that the Praying Mantis beings that V encountered were called Minturians. Are these the same?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there a difference between essence beings and incarnate beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what were those snaky, slug-like beings that she saw?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Are you saying that all of this stuff is who she is? All of these creatures and these…
A: In some of the alternate realities.
Q: (L) Do all humans have creatures like that that are their essence?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) My essence is something that horrible and dark and icky?
A: Subjective.
Q: (L) Well, weren’t those horrible icky beings eating little children? Weren’t those real human children?
A: Yes. How do you think you are viewed by deer, for example?
Q: (L) Well, I can immediately see that. I saw that already. I mean that cows and chickens would have to view us that way. I mean, it’s pretty gross.
A: Roaches, too.
Q: (L) Is that why the night before Ruth’s session, I dreamed of ants that I could have stepped on and smashed, and for some reason I decided I did not want to take the life of even a single ant?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was that dream preparing me for what I was going to experience in that session?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, what do we do about these essence parts of ourselves? I mean, I don’t like it that there may be something of the predator in me. I would like to not have it, or get rid or it, or transform it, or whatever.
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Well, am I going to have to remember myself doing things like that in order to come to terms with it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that going to happen to me, that I am going to have memories like that surfacing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, I am having a hard time coping with it in someone else, how am I going to deal with it in myself?
A: You will.
Q: (L) Is this something we are all going to have to do?
A: All eligible fourth density candidates.
I came back to the subject again the following evening:
December 10, 1994
Q: (L) Were these in any way physical beings on the earth we occupy in space/time from where we are at this moment?
A: No.
Q: (L) This happened in a so-called alternate reality?
A: Is still.
Q: (L) So, in some alternate reality, Ruth is a preying mantis being eating little children?
A: And so are you. And all others.
Q: (L) Are these aspects of our being coming to earth as part of the realm border crossing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are all of us going to have to face these aspects of ourselves as other beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are there other parts of us in all realms doing other things at this moment?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And how is this going to be affected by the realm border crossing?
A: Will merge.
Q: (L) Do we need to do some kind of work such as hypnosis to bring these aspects of ourselves up and deal with these things a little at a time?
A: Will happen involuntarily. Will be like a thermonuclear blast.
See the pattern. Orion, Pleiades, Arcturas, Cassiopaea; check distances from earth; progress locator for wave combined with earth references of space-time. For you to figure out. Cross-reference channeled messages printing dates and location. We are where we are. Cross-reference time and distance.
Q: (L) What book do we need to cross-reference?
A: Any star chart and Marciniak, Arcturas Channel, Orion literature and us. We speak from “crest” of wave, now, where are we?
Q: (L) You speak from the crest of the wave?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You said in another session that you were six thousand miles…
A: Window of transmission. How far away is Cassiopaea?
Q: (L) Do we need specific distances?
A: General is okay.
Q: (L) So, if we just find the general distances… and does each of these star clusters represent a general area of the wave?
A: Each represents locator in space-time. You can judge speed and ETA by cross-referencing distance with publishing dates and these messages from us.
Q: (L) I got it! You mean that you are the Arcturians, the Pleiadians, and now you are the “Cassiopaeans” because you “are where you are”! And you are riding the wave. Is this wave a straight line connecting all these constellations?
A: Circuitous or cyclical route.
Q: (L) So, is it like a spiral?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So we really need to set up a map so we can draw it?
A: Yes. When we speak from Orion we are “Orions”. When from Pleiades, we are “Pleiadian”, and so on.
Q: (L) So, all of these channeled books you have mentioned are coming from the same basic source, through different channels, that they are able to connect with because of their different positions in space time and preparation level of the channels, is that correct?
A: Close. We have given you a Wave crest locator. We are from where we are and speak. Get it? We are where we are.
Q: (T) So, you are not really Cassiopaeans from the Constellation Cassiopeia?
A: We are Transient Passengers. When Wave reaches Earth, we merge with you.
Q: (L) When you were at Orion, did you merge with the Orions?
A: Not on same frequency for realm border crossing.
Q: (L) What effect did the wave have on the Orion sector?
A: None. Already at fourth density level.
Q: (L) Where did the wave originate?
A: Did not.
Q: (L) Has it always been cycling through the universe?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, you are riding on the crest of this wave in 6th density, is this true?
A: Yes. We are you in 6th density.
Q: (L) Are you alternate selves extending into higher densities?
A: At your current reference point in space-time, we are you in the future.
Q: (L) You are not, by any chance, one of those weird ant or preying mantis beings are you?
A: Yes and no.
Q: (T) You are just another part of ourselves? You, us, the Lizards, the ants, the grays, the trees…
A: We are your whole self as you/we are in 6th density.
Q: (T) So, what we are working to become is you? You are us?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) So, when we move to fourth density and become whole with ourselves, we will know you also for a short time?
A: Not whole yet when at fourth density. Closer when at fourth density.
Q: (L) When Candy was under hypnosis she described seeing a fleet of space ships “riding a wave” and this unnerved her. She felt this wave was a fearful, invasion-type thing. Did she perceive you and your wave?
A: Wave is transport mode.
Q: (L) Is that transport mode for many beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are you coming to invade us?
A: No, merge.
Q: (L) Are others coming with the intention of invading us?
A: Yes. Wave is “crowded.”
Q: (T) So, everybody out in the whole universe who wants a piece of the earth action is on this wave?
A: At realm border crossing.
This gave us the idea that this “Wave” business is a lot stranger than anything we could ever have imagined.
Another comment about The Wave was made a week later:
December 17, 1994
A: Always “Network.” Networking is fourth density STO (Service To Others) concept seeping into 3rd density with upcoming realm border crossing. Coming from 4th level into 3rd because of influence of wave.
A follow-up question regarding the plotting of The Wave and ETA (estimated time of arrival) was asked:
December 31, 1994
Q: (T) Last session when I was here you were giving us information on how to calculate when the wave is going to reach Earth. I was able to plot two of the four for distance, but two were constellations. I cannot plot those distances.
A: Check third most distant star in Cassiopaea and middle “belt” star in Orion, closest star in Leo.
About a week later, a strange event occurred. The first inkling I had of it was when I awakened in the night with a very strange sensation that a loud noise had awakened me, though I could hear nothing. I went back to sleep and, later in the morning my daughter reported to me that she had experienced something strange at about the same time. The question she asked me startled me: “Mom, have you ever been able to see with your eyes closed?”
As a matter of fact, that was a common occurrence for me just prior to having an out-of-body experience, but I didn’t want to alarm her even, though I was, myself, a little upset that this sort of thing was happening to my 15-year-old child. Also, she was aware of some sort of “being” in her room with what she described as a “small, squeaky voice.”
Then, later in the morning, a friend called to talk at some length about the sound that he had heard during the night and the peculiar effects he noted. That evening, when T & J arrived for the session, they were full of the story about a loud booming noise that had awakened J as well as T’s father. It had been so unusual that they had discussed it at length. So, we asked the C’s about it and again, a seemingly unrelated question led to more information about The Wave.
January 7, 1995
Q: (L) We have a few interesting questions tonight. I think the first thing on everybody’s mind is the strange events during the night and early morning hours, reported by T and J compared with events that JW told me about by phone this morning. T’s dad noted it, and also something woke A up with a start and she experienced some strange effects. I was awakened with a strange feeling that something very loud had just been heard, though it was more like an echo in my head than actually hearing it with my ears. We are a little bit curious about this event, this occurrence, and we would like to have some information on it. What exactly was it?
A: Thunder.
Q: (L) It seemed to be an extraordinarily massive strike, and it seemed to have been heard at a great distance in several directions. Where, in fact, did this lightning bolt strike?
A: Cell was uniformly structured throughout region.
Q: (T) So we all heard that particular blast because of that?
A: No. Each zone received similar EM profile, thus one particularly heavily charged event in each zone.
Q: (L) What is an EM profile?
A: Electromagnetic.
Q: (L) Was there any particular significance to this type of blast since it is not something any of us has experienced in our immediate memory. Is there any implication to this blast in terms of fourth density activity?
A: You have, and yes. As always.
Q: (L) Since this was such a boomer, what exactly was going on in fourth density that produced a boomer like this?
A: Overlapping densities, lasting approximately 1.3 seconds, as you measure time i.e.: for 1.3 seconds, you lived completely in fourth density.
Q: (T) So this was a significant event for us to have noticed?
A: The noticing was more significant than the event.
Q: (T) What about if you didn’t notice? I didn’t actually hear it, J did. So it was important that we were aware that something had happened…
A: You did at another level of consciousness.
Q: (L) Did this event have anything to do with A’s experience this morning of being awakened by a rustling in her room and thinking that she heard a squeaky voice calling her name?
A: Yes. fourth density “resident.”
Q: (L) And what kind of fourth density resident was this?
A: Om Type.
Q: (L) What is a type Om?
A: You would rather not know!
Q: (L) No, I would rather know. If something is going to be visiting my daughter in her bedroom, I definitely want to know who or what it is.
A: Who says this will be regular event?
Q: (T) This was just a one-time event?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Was the reason A was so aware of this is because she is psychically open when she is asleep?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Is there anything she needs to do to control her psychic openness in order not to be harmed?
A: Why control something beneficial? […]
Q: (L) Going back to the event of this morning, when JW related his experience of it to me, he said that when he opened his eyes that the light looked yellow… (V) I noticed the discoloration too… (J) Was that related to the event?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) What caused the light to change color?
A: Leftover fourth density effects.
Q: (L) Is this something that is going to be happening more and more as we move to fourth density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this electromagnetic charging of the atmosphere, I am assuming that is what it is, and that it is occurring as part of the shifting of densities…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If it is an electromagnetic charging of the atmosphere, is this charging coming about because of this oncoming wave and effects that we are beginning to feel more and more of, are they part of the Wave, its presence or approach?
A: It is a buildup, similar to the early effects preceding the arrival of a sea wave.
Q: (T) Are the extremely high winds they have been experiencing in North Carolina and California and the earthquakes in Japan all related to this?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Yes. 140-mile-an-hour winds up in the Carolinas and out in California they were hitting 160-miles-an-hour winds. (L) Well, they told us we were going to have really weird weather. (T) There was another earthquake in Japan today. This has been ongoing for the last couple of weeks. Japan is supposed to go. (V) Sylvia Brown was on a talk show. She had said that there was going to be a big earthquake in Alaska… a huge one… What can you tell us about this?
A: One of many events of the buildup lasting years, as you measure time.
We became aware of the fact that many anomalous things might be effects of fourth density “bleed through” as a result of The Wave. As noted in the previous section, an increase of UFO activity was indicated to be part of the “symptoms” of the approach of The Wave. We wanted to know more about this aspect:
January 7, 1995
Q: (L) You guys said that we were going to have a whole big, bodacious bunch more of UFO activity this year, is that correct?
A: Bingo!
Q: (L) And I guess it has already started because some guy in Michigan filmed a UFO in broad daylight and they showed it on the news three days in a row and I don’t think they were being snide in their comments… (F) Yes they were. I saw it on Channel 13 and they were being definitely snide. (L) The fellow in Michigan, could you identify that craft for us and to whom it belonged?
A: It was the Grays.
Q: (L) Now, are the Grays going to allow themselves to be seen more and more in third density in the upcoming years?
A: Yes. All of these events are related to that with which you are now familiar. All is related to approach of oncoming wave, what the details are will remain to be seen.
Not long after this, Susy and Barry Konicov, publishers of Connecting Link magazine, called and wanted to ask a few questions. Barry asked some particularly interesting questions about some other aspects of The Wave:
January 11, 1995
Q: (Susy) Why are you choosing Laura and Frank to transmit this information?
A: Because balancing fields are correct.
Q: (Barry) Maitreya… What is the destiny of this person in this lifetime?
A: Plays prominent role in disinformation process.
Q: (Barry) Is Benjamin Creme aware of that?
A: No.
Q: (Barry) Are the ETs putting thoughts in Benjamin Creme’s head?
A: Yes.
Q: (Barry) What is their purpose in this?
A: To cause confusion, diversion, and deception so that reality channels may be cloaked. Self-explanatory.
Q: (Barry) Does this mean so that what we think is real really isn’t?
A: Close.
Q: (Barry) This must mean that the Aliens want to give us one person to focus on which is so spectacular, so that we cannot see the truth.
A: Remember warnings about false prophets in the “desert.”
Q: (B) Does this mean that Benjamin Creme is an STS person?
A: Yes, indirectly.
Q: (Barry) Is he the antichrist?
A: No. The “antichrist” is not an individual, but consortium.
Q: (Barry) Who is the Consortium?
A: Term refers to idea of large body of individuals.
Q: (Barry) Human beings?
A: Yes and others.
Q: (Barry) Are these people who have reincarnated for lifetime after lifetime and have kept the same memory to continue the same plan?
A: Only a select few.
Q: (Barry) Is this channeling going to go beyond the primitive method of one letter at a time, or is it going to go into the method of writing or typing or direct channeling consciously or unconsciously?
A: Can now, but there is less danger of corruption through this method.
Q: (Barry) What is the purpose of this contact?
A: To help you to learn, thus gain knowledge, thus gain protection, thus progress.
Q: (Barry) What do the Cassiopaeans gain from this contact?
A: By helping you, we are moving toward fulfilling of our destiny of union with you and all else, thus completing the Grand Cycle.
Q: (Barry) Is this the only probability open to you or is this the best probability open to you?
A: Both.
Q: (Barry) Are you a great distance from us in light years?
A: Distance is a 3rd density idea.
Q: (Barry) Light years is third density?
A: Yes.
Q: (Barry) What do you mean by traveling on the wave?
A: Traveling on thoughts.
Q: (Frank) Our thoughts or your thoughts?
A: Not correct concept.
Q: (L) What is the correct concept?
A: All is just lessons. Thoughts unify all reality in existence and are all shared.
Q: (Susy) You travel on a wave of energy created by all thought forms?
A: Thought forms are all that exists!
Q: (Barry) Have those that are STS acknowledged that those that are STO are going to win in this race or conflict?
A: No, absolutely not! In fact, the STS cannot conceive of “losing” but instinctively feel pressure building upon them, that is the reason for the impending turmoil.
Q: (Barry) What happens to them when they lose, does this mean that they are degaussed, or does that mean that they have to go back and do the whole evolutionary process all over again on the other polarity?
A: Latter.
Q: (Barry) So, there is a nexus point coming up?
A: Close. When we said “close” we meant concept was “close” to reality. Not close in terms of time or distance.
Q: (Barry) At that point do they experience the pain that they have caused?
A: No. That is what happens on 5th level only.
At the time we asked about the “Essence Beings,” the Cassiopaeans had given their riddle about “We are where we are.” They had also said “We are you in the future.” We were very curious about this idea, so we tried for some clarification:
January 14, 1995
Q: (L) You have told us in the past that you are us in the future and that you are moving this way to merge with us.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) As we measure time, how far in the future are you us?
A: Indeterminate as you measure time.
Q: (L) Does this mean that at the point in time when the wave arrives on the Earth in this upcoming event that you have given us the information to plot the ETA, is that the time at which you will merge with us and become us in the future?
A: No, that is not the correct concept.
Q: (L) You have said that when the wave arrives that you will merge with us. Is this the same thing that you are talking about when you say that you are us in the future?
A: No.
Q: (L) So, we are talking about two separate events or subjects, or two separate points in space/time, is that correct?
A: No. You are again slipping into trying to apply 3rd density logic to higher levels of density reality. We are trying to help everyone to advance.
Q: (L) So, we are not talking about the same event…
A: What is “future,” anyway?
Q: (L) The future is simultaneous events, just different locales in space/time, just a different focus of consciousness, is that correct?
A: Yes, so if that is true, why try to apply linear thinking here, you see, we are merging with you right now!
Q: (L) I see. (T) So, what you are trying to say is that when the Wave comes it is going to take us to fourth density, if we are ready, but we are not actually going to merge with you in sixth density at that point, but we may experience a “merge” at that point because all points of focus merge during transition from one density to another?
A: Partly correct, partly way off.
Q: (J) What part is right and what part is wrong? (T) The Wave is going to take those of us who are, at that point ready, to move us into fourth density, is this part correct?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Which part of it is open?
A: You are a fourth density candidate.
Q: (T) So, we are fourth density candidates but that doesn’t necessarily mean that we will make it into fourth density, true?
A: Partly.
Q: (T) As fourth density candidates, anyone that is, when the Wave comes, if they have reached the correct frequency vibration, and have raised themselves up to the point that the wave will take them, they will, at that point, move into fourth density, true?
A: Close enough.
Q: (T) Now, when those who move into fourth density make the move, will they experience completeness or merge with all other densities of their being, at that point, even if it is for a short time?
A: For one immeasurably small instant, this is what is meant by “illumination”!
Q: (T) But, for that small instant, because there really is no time, maybe an instant or an eon, depending on how any individual might measure it; we might experience oneness with ourselves?
A: It may seem to last “forever.”
Q: (L) Is this what is known as the “rapture?”
A: Some have attempted to explain instinctive thought patterns this way.
At some point around this time, I watched a TV program about what is called the “Taos Hum,” which is a humming sound heard in Taos, New Mexico, mostly, but has been heard elsewhere as well, and only by some people. Apparently it is quite annoying to a few of them. All sorts of theories were offered, but nothing really fit all the instances precisely.
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) I want to know what this humming sound is that people are hearing all over this country? I mean people have been reporting hearing this intense humming sound that literally drives them crazy. There was a TV special on about this the other night. What is this humming and where is it coming from?
A: Increased EM waves in preparation for oncoming wave.
Q: (L) What is the source of this sound, I mean, where specifically, location-wise, is it coming from?
A: Cosmic.
The following excerpt from the Cassiopaean Transcripts brings up a very interesting idea. The Cassiopaeans have suggested that there is a soul evolution, which is facilitated by the works of higher densities. Apparently, souls “grow.” After eons as say, rocks, they evolve to become plants. After aeons as plants, they evolve to become lower animal life forms. After some period as this or that type of animal, they may graduate to a higher or more intelligent animal which has some sort of interaction with human beings, and after numerous incarnations of this type of interaction, they advance to become the “lower level souls” of humanity. At this point, they begin incarnative experiences through the human cycle in third density until they come to the point of graduation to fourth density.
March 4, 1995
Q: (J) Is there any significance to the fact that one of our cats has been looking like she is really trying to tell us something?
A: One of your cats, no, make that 2 of your cats, are close to transition to 3rd level.
Q: (T) Sabrina’s moving up in the world, she’s going to get a promotion! (J) What’s going to happen to her when she hits third? She’s going to be a human?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Wow. (T) When she moves from cat to human, her cat body will die?
A: Yes. We mean at next incarnation whenever that occurs.
Q: (T) Two of our cats? They are third density “candidates” like we are fourth density candidates?
A: Exactly.
Q: (L) Does that mean that when a person is a fourth density candidate that they have to leave their body to go to fourth density?
A: Yes, unless they are in the body when the wave arrives.
All of the above material illustrates some aspects of The Wave. We are beginning to understand that it is some sort of truly amazing Cosmic Event, which will be affecting our lives for some time to come. But, there is still more. Our curiosity about this event was just getting warmed up.
Now that we have talked about The Wave in more or less philosophical terms, things will get a bit more intense from here on out. Events began to move rapidly in our lives, which reflected in the channeling experiment in pretty remarkable ways in which I will describe as briefly as possible.
Two members of our group, T and J were also members of MUFON, the Mutual UFO Network, and, even though MUFON is pretty much a “nuts and bolts” operation, T and J thought that some of the material coming through the Cassiopaean experiment was worthy of being presented at a MUFON meeting. Thus, they arranged for me to speak to the group where they were members.1
The original arrangements that were made with the MUFON people were for an hour of time, which I figured would allow a little development of the background, some of the material, and a few questions and answers. At some point, however, for reasons that were never really made clear to me, the time was cut from an hour to fifteen minutes — twenty at the most. I was in a panic wondering what I could say in fifteen minutes that would make any sense at all! I was given to understand, however, that MUFON rather frowned on channeling, per se, and was more interested in the “UFO Cadillac” — you know, like a used car on a lot where you can go up to it and kick the tires. The closest thing I had to that was my own sighting, so I tried to figure how I could work that into the talk and still get some words in about the Cassiopaeans.
On the day of the meeting (the official “coming out of the closet”), after the various business matters of the MUFON group were dealt with, and a couple of recent UFO sightings were recounted, the “Main Attraction” that we had been bumped for began. It was a talk about the Urantia Book.2 The gentleman giving the talk passed around fifteen or more photocopied pages to each individual in the audience of about 200 or so people; everyone got their own copy of Urantia excerpts. While I was waiting for them to finish passing them out, which took some considerable time, I read all fifteen pages. I just thought I would give myself a head start so when the man began to talk, I would have some idea of what he was talking about. Bad idea!
As it turned out, the photocopied excerpts were the talk. And for the next hour and a half the man at the podium read from the fifteen pages, slowly and painfully, stopping periodically to fix the audience with a gimlet eye to make sure that no one was deviating from the program of following him word by word and line by line. Each time he reached the end of a page, he paused and there was the loud rustling noise of over 200 people dutifully turning their pages in unison! This mass turning of pages actually generated a draft in the room!
But, eventually it was over; the torture came to an end and we got up to stretch our legs. After the break, T and J gave a nice, short, entertaining introduction and I talked only briefly — almost exactly the allotted fifteen or twenty minutes — about the experiences that had introduced me to the subject of UFOs, including the sighting of the Black Boomerangs over my house, and so forth.3 Then I tried to get in a quick synopsis of the kind of material the Cassiopaeans were delivering, and how closely it coincided with much of the research being done in several fields, including UFO investigations; the only difference being that the Cassiopaeans gave background and “inside” info, which tended to make the picture clearer and more comprehensible.
Another MUFON group leader was present at that meeting, and he thought that our material was of sufficient interest to deserve a longer presentation for his own group in a nearby city. So he arranged this with us and it was announced at the end of the meeting that we would do a “demonstration” at his upcoming meeting the following month.
We were a bit concerned about doing this in a group setting, because, up to that time, we had very carefully controlled the environment of the project, and there were so many variables involved. So, just prior to this demonstration and talk, we asked the Cassiopaeans about it and their response was a bit curious:
March 4, 1995
Q: (L) Will we be able to do a demonstration at the MUFON meeting on Saturday?
A: Yes, because it is predestined.
That was certainly curious, but, as things turned out, more curious than we ever could have supposed.
At the second MUFON meeting and demonstration, one of the more skeptical participants brought some sort of gadget up to the table where we were seated — I think it was a gauss meter or an EM wave detector — and set it up beside us. He had adjusted it to the ambient EM of the room with a full occupancy and many people standing in the rear and around the sides.
J gave a short introduction where she explained that she was not a “believer,” and even had many doubts about the UFO/alien reality. This was due, she explained, to her lack of having ever had any kind of personal “experience.” However, because her husband, T, was very deeply involved in studying such phenomena (having had a number of his own experiences through the years), in solidarity with him, she had become involved in MUFON and was, at the time, the acting Secretary of their chapter. She and T also edited, published, and often wrote articles for the area MUFON newsletter. But, even so, as J confessed, she was not a believer, though she found the ideas presented by the Cassiopaeans to be fascinating.
After J’s few remarks, she turned the podium over to me and I went through a brief recapitulation of the long process we went through over several years before the Cassiopaean contact was established. I then began to try and explain what the material was imparting to us in the form of “explanations of the order of the Universe,” so to speak. Do keep in mind that this was very early in the experiment — we had only been receiving the information about 9 months at the time of these talks, so the fact was that even we didn’t know the full scope of what was going to come in the next few years! I will insert here the transcript of my talk from this point:
March 11, 1995
In terms of accessing who and what you are in totality, one of the things the Cassiopaeans have said is that, originally, the human being was created with more active DNA than they currently operate with. An event occurred that has been remembered by all the cultures around the world as “The Fall,” or the loss of the Edenic state, and this was primarily due to, depending on the cultural myth being examined, a snake, serpent or dragon, whatever. But, it is generally a scaly, reptilian type of being. What the Cassiopaeans have said indicates that there may be more to this than mere mythical conceptualization!
The Cassiopaeans have talked about the fact that the DNA can be reconstructed or reconnected because it is still there, it is just broken up or “de-activated.” The important elements of this process include oxygenation, spinning or centrifuging, as well as certain activities such as meditation, and gaining knowledge.
One of the things that I have experienced recently has been pretty interesting in terms of this idea. After my accident I began to have a lot of body work done, including different types of “energy work,” and at certain points, this began to affect me in strange ways.
After one of these sessions of energy work, for about seven days or longer, it felt like a water main was attached to my solar plexus, and was pumping in memories and emotions from every lifetime I had ever lived; I mean hundreds and thousands of images!
Everybody says “oh, I want to remember my past lives!” but think again! I got to experience every emotion of entire lifetimes with this review! It was so bad that I thought I was going to drown in it and die! I would sit there — and everybody will tell you that I was a horror to be around during that time — rocking in my rocking chair saying “Oh God! Oh God! I can’t stand this! Please let it stop! Let it stop!” Images of people, places, events, castles, knights charging into battle on a horse waving a battle axe; deserts, jungles, death, destruction, diseases, plague, pestilence; all these kinds of things just flashing by, like Dorothy in the tornado; all this stuff flying by!
Meanwhile, the emotion of every one of these images was hitting me full force!
I might have seen the image for only one second, but the entire emotion that went with it would hit me and I was gasping and choking from one incident to the next, one after another after another.
So, at one of the sessions we asked just what it was that was going on with me… I was about to collapse under the strain — and the Cassiopaeans said: “Oh, you just activated more of your DNA!” Well, fine! Stop it! Take it back! No more! I can’t handle it!
But, apparently, that is what having this knowledge can do! It is a condition of being able to access universes of information! The Cassiopaeans have said: “It’s fun to access…” and I asked them: “Fun for whom?!”
After a few more remarks, I turned the podium over to T, but I do want to mention the fact that my description of the events of my state of “remembering” as being similar to Dorothy in the tornado is something that I had forgotten entirely until I transcribed the tapes.
T introduced himself and made several remarks about having attended some of the early experimental sessions prior to the Cassiopaean connection and that he and J had more or less given up on the project because nothing seemed to be happening during that time.
It was only later, after the Cassiopaeans came through, that I was able to persuade them to have a look at the material. I valued their insight and input because I knew that both of them were as skeptical as I was and I certainly felt in need of a second opinion, not wanting to fall into the true believer trap that is so common nowadays. After his intro, T made the following remarks:
You can tell by now that there is a lot of information here. I’ve been rambling on for the past 20 minutes here and there is more. It doesn’t matter where you start with it, you end up having to explain the whole thing.
At this point, there is nine months worth of material and in another three months we’ll have to explain a whole year’s worth because the Cassiopaeans continue to give new information — they add to it as we learn to ask the questions correctly.
As my wife has said in her remarks, neither of us were great believers in channeled information and it took several months for Laura to get us up to her place to see what was going on. We had been up a couple of times before during the early experiment stage and had gotten nowhere. We live down in St. Pete and that’s a long drive to make to come up for the evening, to sit around and have nothing come through.
When we finally came up Laura told us, “You’re not going to believe what this is doing.” We came up in November — they’ve been receiving the Cassiopaean information since July — and I watched for a little while seeing this little thing move around on the board. I mean, it bounced around all over the place; I never saw anything move that fast! A mouse trying to get away from my six cats is about the only thing I’ve seen move as fast as that little thing moved on the board!
So, I sat down. They let me sit in for awhile just so I could put my hand on it. I wanted to touch it; I wanted to see what it was. And I sat there for about 25 minutes or so and my arm was tired!
I work with computers and I’m used to “mousing” (speaking of mice), on the computer, pointing and clicking and all that, all day long. My arm had moved around this board so fast for 25 minutes or so, that I actually had shooting pains in my shoulder from it because I wasn’t used to that position for that length of time. I couldn’t believe how quickly it moved. I couldn’t believe the amount of energy I could feel running through that little section of the room.
Since then, I have noticed that it is not just one person; it’s not just those people sitting at the board, it’s a combination of all the people in the room; all the people in Laura’s house, for that matter. The more people, the more energy, and the faster it goes. Twice the planchette flew off the board.
On New Year’s Eve, there were a whole bunch of people there and there was so much energy — just loose energy, not directed energy because people were just milling around, it was a New Year’s Eve party — and we couldn’t keep the planchette on the board. It was flying back and forth so fast it flew right off the table and sailed through the air.
We picked it up, put it back down, and it was across the board again. It took about 20 minutes for the energy to settle down so we could get any kind of information. Then, the information may or may not have been that good because all the people in the room weren’t concentrating. It was loose energy in the air.
A couple of weeks ago a couple people came up who are involved in UFO research and they understand energy flows and how to direct it. And, we had the same experience. The Cassiopaeans told us then that it would take time to settle the energy and direct it because there was just so much of it. That little planchette was sailing again… flew off the table a couple of times and through the air. It went off the table with so much force it just kept going… took us a good 25 minutes to get it settled down again. They told us: “You’ve fractured the channel.” I guess that the “wire” that runs between here and sixth density got increased in size the other night. We rewired it for sure!
Q: (from audience) Is there any dizziness effect?
A: (L) No, no dizziness. It feels more like warm drafts of air against the skin, and then an elevated feeling.
Q: (Aud.) Is it like euphoria?
A: (L) No, it’s more of an intense, mental sharpness… a focus to the nth degree… it actually energizes us. We’ve done sessions that lasted up to eight hours, tape after tape, and no one was tired!
Q: (Aud.) Have you had other movements in the room during the sessions, like objects falling off shelves or something?
A: (L) No, we haven’t. We’ve actually asked that question and the Cassiopaeans have said that if there were such movement, it would be strictly energy from the lower chakras. We aren’t dealing with that level here. If you get poltergeist type phenomena, you can pretty well figure the level it comes from. But, of course, during the early phases of the experiment, we did get some of that type of activity. On one occasion, a candelabra flew off a shelf, and several other things went crashing around. It was real unpleasant energy. That is the sort of thing we worked to get beyond.
A: (T) We aren’t even sure who or what the Cassiopaeans are. They say they are sixth density and that they are “us” in the future — but that may not be the case. We aren’t going to sit here and believe it just because they say it. We are presenting it that way because that is their description. We don’t make the mistake of believing everything that is coming through, we are just presenting the information. We are still wondering what it is we have tapped into. Is it some kind of universal, Cosmic Retrieval System? Is it some kind of universal computer? Is it the Jungian archetypal consciousness? What have we tapped into? We do not know.
What impresses me about it, even beyond the confirmations we have gotten on different material, is the consistency of the information. There are reams of material already, and it is consistent right across the board. It doesn’t vary in level. It’s not like a contact that is extremely intelligent one week and super dumb the next. It’s consistent, uniform and has continuity.
A: (L) One exception, I would point out: if there are people in the room who would be upset by any particular information, the Cassiopaeans will more or less “hold back,” and will suggest that we ask it later. It is rather like a courtesy to the person in the room who is not prepared to hear the answer. When it’s just us, information comes through that might not come with new people present.
A: (T) They will also not permit children to be present as they have indicated that such activities can be detrimental because the energy levels that are generated are too much for the “young circuits,” so to speak.
Q: (Aud.) Your sources are obviously champions of Free Will. Obviously, that is the way the universe is supposed to be. Have they given you any reconciliation as to why our density seems to have been interfered with in terms of Free Will? I know there are a lot of sources that say that we agreed to be abducted before we came here, but that’s just a little bit too thin, in my opinion.
A: (T) What we have been told on that is that this universe was created as a Free Will Universe. It was created specifically to allow all souls to do whatever they wish to do; they have complete choice about what they wish to do. The Grays, the Lizards, whoever they are who abduct and put implants in people, have the right to do that because it’s their Free Will to come here and do that to us. And, they have the right to tell us whatever they want to tell us to rationalize their behavior.
Our right is to not believe what abducting entities tell us. We have Free Will to believe or not believe them. If they tell us in one lifetime that they have the right to do this to us, and we choose to believe them then, and then, in this lifetime, they try the same tricks and we choose not to believe them, in each case, we are exercising our Free Will and so are they.
This is a Free Will Universe. We can change our mind. They are trying to convince us that we have no choice in that; whether we believe them or not is our choice.
There’s more to it than that, of course, because interfering with us physically, obviously, goes on all the time. They have more power than us physically, or pseudo-physically. It is the same relationship between us and animals in our reality. Cows and sheep and chickens have Free Will, too, but we have more power than they have and we have convinced them (and ourselves), in our need to consume food, that “this is good for you, this is your purpose in life.” Just as we consume animals, so do those in higher densities than ours consume us.
But for the most part it occurs in terms of energy and not specifically in terms of flesh, though that too occurs. We are part of a food chain, so to speak, and we are not at the top by any means!
Anyway, back to 300,000 years ago: there was a battle between the forces of Service to Others and the forces of Service to Self at all different levels of density. Unfortunately, the forces of Service to Self won the battle.
The Lizards are fourth density Service to Self beings. They can come to third density, but they can only sustain themselves here for a short time because their technology does not allow them to extend it any further.
At fourth density, they are still using technology, they are still learning para-physical things. They have subjugated us; they have implanted us; they have taken our DNA and manipulated it so we won’t remember who we are and what we can really do…
Anyway, the Lizards have created the Grays. They are fourth density also. They have no souls; they are robots. The Grays were created in such a way that the Lizards could send them into third density as projections, so to speak. They can project some portion of their own energy into the Grays so that when they are in third density, they are not only a robot being controlled by them, they are actually “in it,” so to speak, looking through its eyes. It may even be that several Grays constitute the energy of a single Lizard portion. The whole purpose of the subjugation of humans by the Lizards is that they use us as food. The old John Lear/Bill Cooper stuff about the vats of body parts may have some truth to it. But, mainly, they take energy. They want our energy. That’s what they feed on in fourth density because they are basically energy beings in fourth density. They feed on energy. There is positive energy, there is negative energy. Service to Self beings in fourth density feed on negative energy produced by third density beings, and even first and second density beings on occasion.
They like us because we have emotions. Emotions generate energy. That’s why you’re always reading that the Grays seem to be “so interested in our emotions! Our love, our hate, our this and that.” They control us and create situations that produce negative energy. The more negative energy they can create, the more food they have. That’s what the whole purpose is.
There is another purpose also: they covet the idea of being third density physical/material beings. They haven’t done it in a long time, and the physicality of it is just so attractive to them because they are so hung up in Service to Self, that part of the plan is to create a new race for themselves.
What you have to understand is that we have so much information here, and we are still trying to dig through it and understand what it is they are telling us. They have given us a massive amount of information. It’s to the point now, that when we do a session, not only do we ask questions, but it turns into conversations. It’s not like what you normally do with a Ouija board — you know, “Am I gonna get rich?” “Yes.” “Am I gonna be poor?” “No.” “Am I gonna get in a car wreck?” “Yes.” And that kind of stuff. It’s really like sitting around with a bunch of people and talking. We talk. They will talk to us. We can ask a question, get an answer, and then be talking about the answer amongst ourselves, and they will comment on our comments, interject remarks, agree or disagree with our analysis.
What we are trying to talk about today — and this is the first time we have done this in such a large group — is that we are still trying to work through all this information. When you sit around the house talking about something: say you say, “We’re gonna talk about politics,” and you’re sitting there talking about politics — and somebody says something and you say, “Oh, that reminds: did you see the sale down at the store?” and the discussion goes off on the subject of the sale, and you say, “Yeah, I got a hammer,” and that leads to, “I was working on the house,” in the way that conversations do — going off in tangents all over the place. You may never talk about politics again after the first few remarks.
Well, our sessions are like that, too. We may start with a topic, and one thing will lead to another, which leads to another, which takes us out someplace else, so the information we have in the raw transcripts is all jumbled together that way — like a free-form, stream of consciousness type thing, and we have to go through this and piece it together again. It’s like a big jigsaw puzzle of questions and answers and comments and information that’s all mixed together.
We have to go through and transcribe all this information, it’s all in notebooks and on tapes and Laura has spent a lot of time sitting there trying to transcribe the tapes and comparing what is on the tapes to what is in the notebooks. It’s a long and tedious process because, when there is a large group, she has to identify the voices and put the right names in place so we know who is saying what. We have here 155 pages in 10-point type, and that’s just up to over a month ago. We have to be able to sort all of it out and understand it ourselves so that we can go back and ask intelligent questions about points that have not been covered completely.
A: (J) Yes, and they always remember when they have already told us something. We may argue, but if we go back and look, sure enough, it’s there!
A: (L) Yes, and if a question gets asked and then six months later, a different person asks the same question, the Cassiopaeans will tell us to go back and review. They will say “bring so-and-so up to speed.”
A: (T) Yes, they will ask us to go back and look it up.
A: (J) One time they told us, NO! Stop! Listen! Wait! — trying to get our attention because we were off on a question spree — and they said: YOU have the answers! They told us specifically to stop channeling, sit there and talk the matter over. They told us that we could find the answers by “networking.”
A: (L) Yes, so we spent an hour or more talking about the subject and by the time we got through, we realized that we did, indeed, know the answer.
A: (T) The bottom line of what they seem to be trying to tell us, which we are trying to “get,” which “we” in sixth density are trying to help “us” in the present to do, is to understand that, within the next twenty years or so, this Realm Wave, this window, so to say, is going to arrive. And, when it arrives, we will have the opportunity to move from third to fourth density as a group, as opposed to individually, one at a time through any number of lives.
If, and when, we are able to do this, the object is first: to get us to move, but second: this is part of the counterattack against the Lizards from the Service to Others beings who are trying to get us back in the realm of freedom. They can’t interfere with Free Will, but if they can inform enough of us, and we can make a free choice to move back, it will break the Lizards’ hold on the human race.
The object seems to be to break the Lizard hold on the human race. At that point, whether this works or not, whatever happens in third density, happens. And then, the whole focal point of the campaign moves to somewhere else in the universe, because they are doing this in other places. This is not the only place that this is happening.
A: (L) And don’t get the idea that this is something terrible. Are you all familiar with the Yin-Yang symbol, the black half and the white half? This is really what this is all about. We don’t need to look at it as though it is really an actual battle, though in some terms, expressed at this density, it displays that way as well as in Earth Changes. What it is is that for over 300,000 years we have been in the Service to Self realm, or the dark half of the circle. Now, the cycle is coming around. You have to remember that we are just doing this, as the Cassiopaeans say, “for fun!” [Laughter.]
Now, we are gonna take a break, and after the break we are going to try to demonstrate — I don’t know if it is going to work — but we are going to try. We don’t want any personal questions. Don’t ask what house you are gonna buy next year. Try to come up with some good questions, write them down for us, and we will see what happens.
During the break we set up the board and arranged the chairs with everybody in their proper alignments according to the compass points. I sat at the East, Frank at the North, T at the West, and the South position was open. I was really nervous when we sat down because I had no idea if things would work in a different location or not. But, after a few seconds of contact, the planchette began to spiral around in large circles, finally going to the word:
A: “Hello.”
Q: (L) Hello.
A: New location?
Q: (L) Yes, it’s a new location, indeed. Where do you transmit through?
A: Cassiopaea.
Q: (L) Are you having difficulty operating in the new location?
A: Some but should stabilize.
Q: (L) We have questions from the audience. Shall we begin?
A: Sure!
Q: (L) The first question here is: “In which density is our astral existence?”
A: 5th, density of contemplation, you did not explain that one, did you?
Q: (L) Yeah, we forgot to explain that. Sorry.
A: Okay. Explain 5th now please.
Q: (T) Fifth density is where souls go when they die. When you leave your physical body in any one of the first four densities, your soul moves to fifth density. They call it the contemplation density. That’s where you go, and you get to review the life you have had, and learn from it, and decide what it is you want to do next when you incarnate next. In the chain of densities, one through seven, the souls exist in one through four and in sixth, actively, and in fifth density passively. Did I get that right?
A: Yes.
Q: (Aud.) What energy are they using to create the conduit?
A: Open frequency EM wave.
Q: (Aud.) Is there a mathematical formula for creating the conduit? If so, what is it?
A: Create one at your leisure!
Q: (L) I guess if you want a mathematical formula, you are supposed to create one at your leisure! [Laughter] (J) That’s humor, I guess.
A: Not totally humor!
Q: (Aud.) Is it beyond our current scientific level?
A: Yes.
Q: (Aud.) What exists in inner earth region as reported by Admiral Byrd? Well, I think we should add “allegedly” reported by Admiral Byrd.
A: Cross awareness “window.”
Q: (L) So, a window exists in the inner earth region?
A: Did for Admiral Byrd at that instance.
Q: (L) So, he passed through an awareness window?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What is an awareness window?
A: You have been told.
Q: (L) Yes. It’s in the transcripts.
A: Realms can be accessed at will if awareness balance is proper.
Q: (L) If awareness balance is proper, “cross awareness window” means that you can cross over in awareness to another realm. Is that right? Let me break it down: does this mean that if your awareness is balanced, you create a “window?”
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can this happen to a person spontaneously?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) It is not something that you necessarily have to work for, it can happen to anyone, any time…
A: Unlikely.
Q: (L) So, it can, but without some preparation, is unlikely to happen. Okay, next question: “After seventh density is the Big Bang, and everything starts all over again?”
A: Close and partial. Grand Cycle access.
Q: (L) You mean that Seventh Density is a “Grand Cycle Access?”
A: No, review.
Q: (L) Seventh Density is the Big Bang and it all starts all over again and that is the Grand Cycle? There is really no beginning or end, just an endless cycling?
A: No. Grand Cycle is self explanatory to 6 people here.
Q: (L) I guess I’m not one of them. (A member of the audience here gives an explanation, but it is impossible to decipher it from the tape as they were apparently in the back of the room. It sounds something like “at Seventh Density there is a window of Access to the Grand Cycle.”)
A: Yes.
Q: (Aud.) What is the true age of the Great Pyramid? (L) That’s already been given.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I believe the figure that was given was 10,600 years ago, more or less. (Aud.) Where do alien craft go when seen going into water such as lakes, rivers, the ocean, etc. Where do they go?
A: Variable.
Q: (Aud.) Where did the one go that I saw at Longboat Key? Where are they going off Longboat Key?
A: Non-specific.
Q: (L) Different destinations? (T) Are some of them going to a base?
A: Not there, but remember, you are talking about dual density cross-transference, therefore “rules” for third density do not always apply.
Q: (Aud.) Are they using the ocean water as a conduit or window?
A: Maybe but not the only “method.”
Q: (T) So, they could be doing about anything down there once they have entered the water.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Including just sitting there waiting.
A: Why not?
Q: (Aud.) Did you ever ask them who built the Great Pyramid? (L) Yes, we did. The response was Atlanteans.
A: Descendants of same.
Q: (Aud.) Did they ever tell about the purpose for the pyramids?
A: (L) Yes, they did. First of all, the Atlantean civilization existed for a very long time and was quite extensive all over the globe, not necessarily confined to the semi-legendary “continent of Atlantis.”
Apparently, interplanetary travel was as easy for the Atlanteans as it is for us to take a trip to the store. They had bases on the Moon, bases on Mars — the monuments of the Moon and Mars are Atlantean in origin — they also had some of their giant crystals on the Moon and Mars, and these were used to collect Cosmic and Solar energy as a power source.
We have talked about locations of such crystals on the Earth and why they were not destroyed in the cataclysms that destroyed Atlantis and the answer was that the engineered function of these crystals was such that massive amounts of energy interacting with them is absorbed and transmuted, so to speak. If you put an atomic bomb on one of them, it would absorb the energy and transduce it. It was the design function.
When we asked if our present technology could decipher how to use these crystals, and the response was “would a Neanderthal know how to fly a 747.” [Laughter]
So, when we are talking about the Atlanteans, we are talking about a super advanced civilization and the descendants of them, after the destruction that occurred which destroyed this amazing culture, built these pyramidal shapes, which had a similar function as the pyramid shaped giant crystals, though much less effective. In other words, the Pyramids are simply gigantic machines. They were used to manipulate energy to control weather, power the many things that a civilization requires to be considered “advanced,” to preserve and transmute or heal. Just a whole host of energy applications similar to what we do with electricity. But, still, it was a step down from the far more advanced Atlantean technology, and as time went by, other things occurred, and eventually this knowledge was lost.
Q: (Aud.) Is there a giant pyramid, or a step pyramid in China?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Can you give us some information about this pyramid?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it built by Atlantean descendants also?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I think that the Atlantean civilization was much like our present one… It didn’t really denote a specific place, though there may have been the equivalent of the “Western technological world” as is America, at the present time. In fact, when we asked about the population of the world at the height of Atlantis, the answer was that it was pretty much the same as it is now, over 6 billion. We then asked how many were left after the destruction and the figure was either 19 million or 119 million. I screwed up in the transcribing and will have to go back to the tape to get it right. Well, which was it?
A: 19 million.
Q: (L) That is a serious reduction from 6 billion.
Q: (Aud.) In all the varying transitions between first and sixth density, does any soul ever perish, or become extinguished?
A: No.
Q: (T) We asked about this at several points. Apparently all souls began at the same point in “time,” and all will be returned to seventh density at the same time. No new souls are being created, and no souls are ever destroyed, they merely change from state to state according to their “lesson profile,” or what they have learned or need to learn and experience. (L) Yeah. That’s the good news; here’s the bad news: those that don’t graduate to fourth density on this pass of the wave get to do third density all over again, in its entire cycle. [Laughter]Q: (Aud.) Have you ever asked about why there is so much suffering here on Earth?
A: (L) Yes, and it’s not Eve’s fault!
Q: (Aud.) Well, I don’t know about others, but if there is a utopia out there somewhere, I’d rather be there and never come back here again! And what you are telling me is that, even though we go back to sixth density, we have to come back again.
A: (L) No, that’s fifth density — contemplation level. You make the decisions there, and if you are here, it’s because you chose to be here. But, the only way to get out of the cycle of the third density Service to Self level, the consumption level where you must feed on others — and that is really the bottom line there — you must transcend that issue, the physicality. You become an energy being who only gives conjoined with other beings that also only give, and in such symbiosis, no one ever lacks.
But, yes, there is a very definite reason for the suffering at this level and T touched on it a while ago — the dominance of the Reptilian beings that fed off of us for the past 300,000 years.
They dumbed us down, implanted control impulses in us such as jealousy, greed, avarice and so forth, so that we would constantly generate negative energy while they are sitting there in fourth density with a straw just slurping it up! “Yummy!”
So, when you feel yourself going into negative states, if you want to transcend it, all you have to really do is understand that it is not yours. You don’t “own it.” Yes, it is part of the physicality of this density, but it is a physicality that has been genetically tampered with so that such emotions will dominate. You can not act them out, you can refuse to be controlled by such states, you can choose to be other, even if it requires something of an inner struggle between the choice of the soul and the wants of the flesh which are pretty clever at being rationalized by the brain so that we don’t see what is really going on very clearly at all.
Q: (Aud.) So, we actually chose to accept this state of being at some point, and now we can choose otherwise?
A: (L) That’s exactly right. Each moment, we have the choice of accepting the Lizzie program, or to follow a different line of choices. The mass of humanity, the group — and we have been told that the legend of Lucifer is the story of this choice and refers to the human race — made this choice. I don’t know about you, but I’ve had enough. I think I changed my mind! [Laughter]
At this point, a member of the audience (referred to as “AB”) has taken T’s place at the board. This was the “skeptic” who, at the beginning of the session had set up his little meter beside the board on the table.
Q: (L) Okay, we have a new person at the board…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) We have a question here from somebody about Walk-ins, and before I ask it, I would like to ask a sort of “pre-question.” My question is: how often does something along the idea of a “walk-in” occur?
A: Rare.
Q: (L) Yes, it was a very popular idea, and still is. I mean, how easy can it be to say, “Oh, I didn’t do that! It was the former occupant of this body!” Or, “I can do this now, because I have just taken over this body. I’m not a trash man, I’m really a brain surgeon, so hand me a scalpel!” and that sort of thing.
People were creating all kinds of exotic and elaborate “backgrounds” for themselves, and as I heard these stories, they got wilder by the day! “I’m Prince or Princess So-and-So from the Planet Hoogabooga! Make obeisance, peasant!” How bizarre can it get?
Q: (Aud.) Have you asked about actual, physical life forms on other planets, or is it just us here in the Universe?
A: (L) Yes, we have, but let’s get in this question we have already. It says: “Are any of those who claim to be Walk-ins really so?” And, we sort of answered that already. Yes, it can happen, but is very rare. The question continues: “If so, who are they specifically? My friend in Longboat Key, Gail ****, is she one?”
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, so much for that. [Addressing audience member who is nodding her head vigorously.] Did you know that already? (AM) Yes. I just wanted to make sure.
Q: (AB) Given the amount of destruction the Reptilians have done to our DNA, what can we do to repair it? Is there a diet adjustment?
A: Maybe. It is open to the individual to experiment and discover.
I should note that the energy, at this point, was quite fractured with the new person at the board and the planchette was moving very slowly.
Q: (L) I think that the conduit has to be readjusted to the new energy.
A: Yes. Note light waves in device.
Q: (L) You mean the meter beside us? Turn it around so we can see it. (T) What is the bottom of the range? (AB) .1, .2 is the ambient. It’s been hitting peaks of 5 at times before I sat down. That’s micro-gausses. (J) What light waves are you referring to?
A: Near window.
Q: (L) A space/time window? [There was no physical window in the room.]
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I think that this is in response to your question about DNA. We are supposed to notice that the meter is measuring some sort of energy and that this represents light waves near the “window” or conduit that is established by the channeling, and that this is one of the things that can change DNA. I don’t think that eating or drinking one way or another can make a difference, it is what is inside — which, in a sense can change what you eat or drink, but it is a change that comes from a different direction than a change that is done deliberately in order to alter DNA. They have said that light waves alter DNA. (AB) What specific light frequency?
A: 6 pt 5.
Q: (AB) Angstroms?
A: Yes.
Q: (AB) That’s actually the frequency of a medium red neon laser. A laser is a monochromic frequency. It’s like one of those laser pointers. It puts out only one color, one exact frequency. 6.5 would be mid-orange?
A: Yes.
Q: (Aud.) What are certain people in our government and our military gaining by being more conspiring than lucid?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Many things. Is there one thing in particular that they gain from this?
A: As we know, answer is dangerous.
Q: (T) We’ve gotten several answers like that when we touch on sensitive questions.
At this point, the tape ended, and we ended the demonstration session that was supposed to have been predestined. Was it? What were the ramifications aside from the fact that the small, local MUFON group had the largest attendance ever in its existence?
As it turned out, there were interesting developments shortly thereafter. Two months following this session, we attended another meeting of the local MUFON group where a physicist, Professor Ruggero Santilli, was scheduled to speak. At that same meeting were many of the people who had attended our demonstration, and some of them gathered around during the break to ask us further questions about the experiment in channeling. Prof. Santilli joined them, was given a brief synopsis of the situation, and was intrigued enough to ask to attend a session.
As it happened, we were planning one that very evening, so after the meeting, we all drove back to the house with Prof. Santilli and his wife following, and settled down to see what would happen.
May 27, 1995
Q: (T) We have some company this evening. Roger and Carla Santilli are with us. Roger has some questions to ask.
A: Hello, Roger.
Q: (RS) Hello. I want to know whether we can have any clues on the propulsion systems of UFOs?
A: Sure!
Q: (RS) What’s the mechanism of the propulsion?
A: This is difficult to answer when posed in such a manner, as we are talking about multiple realities, density levels and various modes as well!!
Q: (RS) Is the gravity experienced by an anti-particle in the field of matter attractive or repulsive?
A: Repulsive when thought of in the way that is parallel to your studies, but, as we alluded to in the previous answer, there are more realms involved besides the one with which you are most familiar.
Q: (RS) The next question is: particles move, matter moves, in our direction of time, do anti-particles, anti-matter flow backward in time?
A: Think of it as merely one seventh of the equation, Roger!
Q: (L) Can we get an answer on whether this is the case strictly on the third level of density?
A: Backward.
Q: (RS) Yes! I am interested in the propulsion systems of UFOs, the only way that I can perceive traveling the long distances involved in interstellar space is to have what is called a “space/time” machine. We cannot move the enormous distances unless you can fold, somehow, time and space. You cannot fold space unless you join it and fold time. You cannot have interstellar travel unless you have a space/time machine. But, a space/time machine means to also have the ability to move forward and backward in time, to manipulate time.
(L) Yes, you would have to cross distances and simultaneously move backward through time so that you would end up arriving wherever you are going essentially at the same moment that you left.
(RS) That is why I asked whether we could use anti-matter as propulsion, because it would be repulsive in the right direction. The second question, whether, when we use anti-matter, we would move backward in time. Because, some of those objects, you see them moving, and they can be moving in space but not in time, or they could be moving in time but not in space. If you see a UFO, it does not mean that it is in our time. It could be in a completely different time.
(L) And, they disappear sometimes right before the eyes of the observer, and the question is: where do they go?
(RS) They could be standing still in space, but moving time. Or moving backwards.
(L) And, there are a lot of abductions reported where there is seemingly no time lost at all. They come in, haul the victim out, do whatever they do, and then they slide them back in a fraction of a second away, if not at the identical second they took the victim out!
(RS) Yes! This article I presented is exactly about this point! If, indeed, anti-particles have lift, then necessarily they have to go backward in time. Then they manipulate this: you can have an abduction any length of time inside the craft, but in our time, in our level three, it is zero time!
(L) Yes, exactly! And not only that, there is the phenomenon of the craft that looks small from the outside, but inside is huge!
(RS) That is all tied up in it! This is very exciting. I am learning the language. In our third level, the motion in space and time occurs via the change of the unit of time and space, therefore, can we change the unit?
A: Yes, this is precisely what we mean when we speak of “transiting from 4th to 3rd.”
Q: (RS) So, when they travel from fourth to third, they change the units. That is precisely what is in the article in the journal! [Holds up book.] This is published in the Ukraine. [Turns to page and displays diagrams and equations.] This is the experiment to test anti-gravity.
There is a two-mile long tunnel that is a vacuum inside. They suck the air out. The first measure is to shoot photons to identify, at the end of the two mile tunnel, the no gravity point.
The second measure is to shoot a neutron, and we know that a neutron is attractive. So, after two miles, the energy is very, very low. So, there is no gravitational effect when the neutron hits the point.
Then, the third step is to shoot an anti-neutron at the same time and see what happens. This experiment will resolve this issue that this board has answered very scientifically. We call it the gravity of anti-particles because we don’t know. It can be down… Einstein predicts this as attractive as a neutron, anti-matter and matter have the same gravitational attraction. That’s what Einstein says.
But, when Einstein’s theory was proposed, in 1915, anti-matter wasn’t discovered until fifty years later.
If now, theoretically, the only way a particle, in our theory, can go up, can have lift, is if time is reversed. There is no other possibility. So, if this experiment is correct, then the space/time machine is absolutely a consequence and can be tested in a laboratory. You can have a particle moving backward and forward in time. [Displays new diagram.]
This is the other experiment which is, in this case, is done by putting a particle which is neutral and subjecting it to… Since we don’t have a bunch of anti-matter — ideally we would have a pellet of matter and replace it with anti-matter — we don’t have a pellet of anti-matter, at this point, there are ways to do it though and it can be measured as to which way it moves, up or down.
Now, the question of the units… It is very important, a fundamental question, because, say, you are outside a UFO, and you see the UFO as big as a car, say, and people go inside and report this enormous interior. There is no other way to do this than by changing the unit.
What is for us one inch, that unit is completely different inside. For us the unit is the same along the three directions. Now, if you are inside, they can have different units in different directions. This means that if you are outside a cube, and you go inside, the shape, not only the dimensions but the shape even, can be different.
At the third level, is it true that the value of the dimension is changed by the available energy, or the energy is used to change the value of the units?
A: This concept crosses the density barrier, not limited to level three.
Q: (RS) Goes up to level four. That’s the means of propulsion of the UFO.
A: Reason for exponential awareness “explosion” is approach of wave. Now, concentrate on visualization. Answers are located there… After a period of contemplation, Roger to “hit upon” breakthrough question to solve puzzle currently occupying “center stage” of his psyche, with only one piece missing currently.
Q: (RS) I notice that if the question is not properly phrased… (L) You don’t get your answer! Be specific.
A: Careful not to confuse with too much data that is not connected in the same concept arena, as visitor is concerned primarily with one direction; in order to familiarize let data be absorbed on schedule comfortable to researcher! Like trying to learn mathematics in broken dosages!
Q: (RS) Two short questions and then I will stop…
A: Ask as many as you desire!
Q: (RS) In our level three, does the use of anti-matter change the sign of the unit? Does this imply the reversal of the sign of the unit of space and time?
A: Yes, but problem has always been for level three entities, that the “other” side is uncharted, therefore experimentation is not recommended, unless with assistance from level four through six STO.
Q: (RS) That is an incredible answer because this is traveling in time. First they said that by using energy you can change the numerical value of the units, and from this (incomprehensible) you can make a (incomprehensible) show.
Now the question: how you can go backward in time; by changing the sign of the unit: plus one second and we move forward, if that unit is changed to minus one second, we move backward. So the question is, by using anti-matter, can we move backward? But their answer was saying… precisely, that we are moving from level three to level four.
In Greece, at this time, at the University of Xanthi(?), the nuclear physics laboratory at the University, there is a potentially fundamental experiment going on based on my studies to search for fundamentally new source of energy by bombarding zinc 70 or molybdenum 100 via Gamma with 1.294 MeV energy. Will the experiment be successful…
A: All of the experiments you speak of share one thing in common: They all “touch the borderline” from the perspective of the third density side.
Q: (RS) Will you help us? (Carla) Yes, let’s be practical! [Laughter]
A: It is possible to cross over into fourth density from third, using third density technology. In fact, various individuals and groups on a more or less accidental basis have already accomplished this; the problem is “what does one do when one reaches fourth density reality with only third density training and experience?”
Q: (L) Could you, if we spent the time, help us with this training and technology?
A: Yes, but what do you intend to use it for? This is not like going to Disney World for a day, you know! What is your knowledge quotient regarding following: electromagnetism, Einstein’s “unified field theory.” And did he ever complete said theory, or was it completed under the supervision of Consortium[i.e. the “powers that be,” the “hidden controllers” or our world; the “secret government”], and suppressed. And if so, what are the ramifications!!! Also, Roger, are you capable of “filling in the blanks,” we think so!
Q: (RS) From the third level there cannot be a unification of electromagnetism and gravitation because they are identical. There is an identity between electromagnetism and gravitation. So, there is no need of the unification because they are identical. Is this view correct?
A: Yes. What about fourth level?
Q: (RS) To my understanding to the third level, this is where the possibility to go up a level comes in. If gravitation and electromagnetism are identical, then anti-gravity exists. The origin of anti-gravity is not unification. Einstein was wrong, but the identification that they are the same implies the existence of anti-gravity.
A: Wrong when searching on level three density exclusively, but this is where the Consortium comes in, i.e. “Can of Worms.”
Q: (T) It is considered known to the general public that Einstein did not complete his Unified Field Theory, but that may be a falsehood. Part of the disinformation campaign. (RS) From what we know, Einstein failed to achieve the Unified Field Theory because the assumptions were not realizable. Can I ask a question? The origin of the mass of an elementary particle is primarily electromagnetic, therefore, the gravitational field of elementary particle must be primarily of electromagnetic nature. That’s why the view at level three is, outside mass, the gravitation and electromagnetism are identical. This is our belief at this time, supported by experimental evidence. Why is this wrong? I need an explanation.
A: Not wrong at level three, wrong to limit to third level.
Q: (RS) Is it true that the universe has equal amounts of matter and anti-matter as seen from level three?
A: Yes, all others as well.
Q: (RS) Then it is true that the total time in the universe is null?
A: Yes.
Q: (RS) This is incredible!
A: But, Roger less pressure! [Roger lightens up, pause.] Thank you. Now, remember, most important concept is balance. How is balance achieved?
Q: (RS) Matter and anti-matter. So, if matter is flowing in this direction of time, anti-matter is flowing the other way. They balance each other. (J) This is my question of the total time of the universe, which is zero. If we flow this way, maybe others in another galaxy are flowing another way. The sum is zero.
A: Not galaxy, dimension.
Q: (RS) Yes. Another level. I always think at level three!
A: Not any more! [Laughter]
Q: (RS) How can we represent mathematically the identification of gravity and electromagnetism, including the fourth level that you suggest? How can this be done? How can the inclusion of the fourth level be realized?
A: We asked you to visualize for answers. It is always there for you to discover.
Q: (RS) It is not going to be easy, but I am going to give it a try.
A: What ever is?
Q: (RS) The question is how to represent mathematically the transition to the fourth level. I think that this can be done by isogeometry, the geometry that we discussed earlier, which is generalization of the unit of space and time…
A: Geometry is one key, but there is another.
Q: (L) What is the other key? (L) Could you give us a clue. Just a little clue? (RS) Give us the formula!
A: Have already… access…
Q: (RS) We should have a session… because this is confirmation of the only mathematical model we have of the UFOs… the only one that exists as far as I know. We have a computer model… We cannot build a UFO, we don’t have the technology, but we can put the formula into the computer and get a model.
A: Merge geometry with optics.
Q: (RS) What?! It is the science of light.
A: Matrix.
Q: (RS) That is precisely what I have done. I’ve done a representation of light represented by a unit, which is a matrix. I have already done this! Years ago!
A: But you left out one important factor, remember, hypothesis does not theory make!
Q: (RS) I made a conceptual hypothesis in my mind. That’s not a theory. It has to be formulated in a quantitative way, that’s the mathematics, the formula, and then this has to be proven experimentally that it works. Hypothesis, formula, and experimental verification is the process for a theory.
A: Now, what factor was missing, Roger?
Q: (RS) I don’t know. But how… I do not know how to express it mathematically…
A: Light waves… gravity… electromagnetism…
Q: (RS) I have to think it over. In isogeometry…
A: What role do waves play in third level understanding of physics?
Q: (RS) Transverse oscillation of the ether… the medium that fills up the entire universe. No wave can exist unless there is a medium to propagate it. Transverse oscillations fill up the entire universe.
A: Light, gravity, optics, atomic particles, matter, anti-matter… unify, please.
Q: (RS) That lists everything… (J) What do they all have in common? (RS) Oh! All of them are vibrations of the medium that fills up the universe! We perceive things, everything, even spaces between things. Reality is the opposite of this. Because light is a wave, like sound. If you remove the air, sound cannot propagate. Light is the same thing. Light is a wave and cannot propagate unless there is a medium that fills up the entire universe. So what we perceive as being solid and empty is not true perception.
The whole universe is filled with the vibration of this medium. So, without the medium, there would be darkness. So, light is an oscillation of this medium. A particle is also an oscillation only the wave propagates and the oscillation stays there. So when I move my hand from here to here, I have just moved the oscillation. The space is oscillating. We are completely empty, but space is filled up.
So, the answer is that what they have in common is that they are all oscillations of this medium that fills up the entire universe as perceived from third level and I think from fourth.
A: Now, what relation between gravity and light?
Q: (RS) I do not know. At this moment in my studies, I do not know. Light can be converted into matter, therefore there is gravitation. (L) But, what could the relation between gravity and light be?
A: Access knowledge base and network.
Q: (RS) The only connection between light and gravitation… the photon and the anti-photon (?) produces a pair of electrons and positrons, particles and anti-particles, and those particles have gravitation. So, in this way electromagnetic waves… a photon can create matter… (L) And matter has gravity… (RS) And matter has gravity, so… it can be converted… (L) But where does it come from? (RS) That is a good question because it isn’t known. It could come from a vacuum… (L) But how does it happen? (RS) In experiments in the laboratory, you shoot a photon at a nucleus and the nucleus spits one electron and one positron, and so you have conversion of photon into particles. Those particles have gravitation. I do not know if a photon has gravitation. I don’t think so, it travels at the speed of light. There is no time. Time is suspended. (L) Okay, is it true that at the speed of light, there is no gravity? (RS) There is no gravity. (L) Okay, then maybe the speed of light is the antithesis of gravity just as anti-matter is the opposite of matter? (RS) That is a good point. A very good point!
A: Close.
Q: (J) Is it about balance?
A: All is.
Q: (L) If at the speed of light there is no gravity… (RS) There is no time… (L) Then gravity must be… (RS) The clue… But is the missing clue… Are we discussing the missing point to go from the third to the fourth density?
A: Yes.
Q: (RS) Then the point is valid. So, then if you go at the speed of light then you are in fourth density.
A: Now, what is missing factor, which allows third density and fourth density matter to achieve light speed without disintegration? Think…
Q: (RS) That is the fundamental question of nuclear physics… Matter cannot reach the speed of light intact… (J) Anti-gravity? (RS) Even by using anti-gravity. At this moment, matter cannot do this… (L) Okay, if you have some matter and this matter is speeding up, and it is approaching the speed of light and it is losing its integrity the faster it goes, what if, at some point you start incrementally adding anti-matter which… (RS) Use the inverse process… take an electron and positron and put one inside the other and recreate the photon. But matter cannot reach the speed of light… If it does, time stops… There is no dimension… (L) Maybe it is consciousness?
A: What is the missing link between matter and consciousness?
Q: (RS) Ah! (L) If we knew these things we wouldn’t be here! [Laughter] (RS) It is supposed to be a field. (J) Is it EM? (RS) No, a bio-energetic field. (L) What if consciousness creates gravity? (RS) Gravity is created by matter. (L) But isn’t matter created by consciousness? (RS) Yes, the mind can create matter…
A: There are no “gravitons.”
Q: (RS) Not to my knowledge. They do not exist. They are in Einstein’s theory, but I will never believe it… Does our consciousness create gravity?
A: Getting “warmer.” Not “our.”
Q: (L) Somebody else’s consciousness creates gravity? (RS) Fourth level.
A: Level Seven.
Q: (RS) Oh yes! That I can understand! The ultimate level. Is it true that the universe, as perceived from level three, which is expected to be made up of equal amounts of matter and anti-matter, is, in actuality, open? That is, is matter continuously created somewhere in the universe? Matter and anti-matter?
A: Better word would be: Recycled.
Q: (RS) Is it true that the same recycling occurs in the center of the earth. There is a theory that the earth is expanding. I heard this at a congress; that the earth is expanding in diameter precisely because the center of the earth is in process of the creation of matter. Is this correct?
A: Off base, but all concepts are valid within unified dimensionality.
Q: (RS) My biggest problem has never been new knowledge, but politics, particularly the politics on Einstein. Is the can of worms mentioned before, can you give me anything on this? As soon as you go beyond Einstein, there are all sorts of problems, political problems in our contemporary society. Any suggestions?
A: Political problems have root in effort to suppress knowledge already gained in limited quarters for purposes of control of civilization.
Q: (RS) That is the best answer I ever heard. Very, very good. (T) While I was walking around outside smoking my cigar, I was getting the image that one of the reasons that Roger is here tonight is to experience this, but also to see and read what we give you. We are not making this up. It is coming from somewhere. There is substance to this information. Roger is going to Europe. You have colleagues in Europe who are working on these very same things. The Cassiopaeans have indicated that you are on the edge of opening this barrier. That this can be done, it has been done with disastrous results the few times that we know of and possibly other times that we do not know of.
What I am getting at is, part of the reason you are here and seeing this may be because you need to take this information with you because when they breach these barriers, they need to understand what they have done. Because, if they don’t there is a possibility that what is transpiring naturally will be accelerated. Does artificial breaching of the barrier between the densities accelerate…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) That may be why when we ask how long this process is going to take, this oncoming density change, they answer “one month to 18 years.” And we were thinking that maybe they can’t tell how long it is going to take for this transition point, this realm border to come through our section of space/time and do whatever it does. Maybe what they are referring to is not that, but what people might do in terms of breaching the barrier unknowingly. They are stretching what they know, and pushing onward, but they don’t understand what this is all about.
A: Yes.
[Good night to Carla and Roger.]
(L) Of the three pairs we were given, they each seem to be opposite to each other: Light and gravity, optics and atomic particles, matter and anti-matter… (J) It’s all about balance. What is the relation between gravity and light? What is the missing factor that allows third density and fourth density matter to achieve light speed without disintegration? What is the missing link between matter and consciousness? (L) What is the missing link? Well, I think the relationship is right there. What is it that slows down light causing photons to manifest, collapsing the wave, so to speak, and creating matter? (J) It may be that this same factor that allows third density to achieve light speed without disintegration. What is the missing link between matter and consciousness? (L) Well, the relationship is there. We were told we were getting close when we said “consciousness” but that it was not our consciousness, but that of Level Seven. (J) They said that “creation” was a recycling.
Q: (L) Are you still there?
A: As always, Laura, do you think we go out to lunch or something? [Laughter] You keep asking if we are here?!?
Q: (T) Did you enjoy talking to Roger and would you like to talk to him again?
A: Yes. Will.
Q: (L) Am I getting warm when I say… we have light and gravity, optics and atomic particles, matter and anti-matter, all are ways of talking about a transition… Are these three pairs of relationships?
A: Close.
Q: (L) What is the thing that collapses the wave? Is it consciousness?
A: Yes…
Q: (L) There is more. Can this consciousness be expressed… (T) We are trying to get from a third density concept to a fourth density concept where there is no physicality, per se. At fourth density they don’t have a problem with going at the speed of light and disintegrating, because it doesn’t exist there…
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, for us to try and think of this in third density…
A: Variable physicality is the key.
Q: (L) What makes the physicality variable?
A: Awareness of link between consciousness and matter.
Q: (L) What is the link between consciousness and matter?
A: Illusion.
Q: (L) What is the nature of the illusion? (T) That there isn’t any connection between consciousness and matter. It is only an illusion that there is. It is part of the third density…
A: No. Illusion is that there is not.
Q: (L) The illusion is that there is no link between consciousness and matter.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) The illusion is that there is not a link. In third density… (L) I got it! (T) Don’t disappear on me now! [Laughter] The relationship is that consciousness is matter.
A: Close. What about vice versa?
Q: (L) Just reverse everything. Light is gravity. Optics are atomic particles, matter is anti-matter… Just reverse everything to understand the next level… It can’t be that easy. (J) Wait a second: gravity equals light, atomic particles equals optics, anti-matter equals matter? It is all about balance. (L) And the answer must always be zero.
A: And zero is infinity.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that it is not that there is a link, the illusion is that there is separation. There is no difference, they are the same?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) If you warp space/time you travel by bringing your destination to you. (L) Or, you can reverse that and understand that there is no distance between us and, say, Alpha Centauri, it is the alteration of perception that turns the axis and creates the illusion of distance.
A: Now, all you need is the “technology.”
Q: (T) The technology is being developed right now. (J) The technology has probably already been developed, it is just suppressed.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I have a very strange sense that this interaction has ramifications?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) A hint?
A: We could but won’t at this “time.”
Q: (T) Are these major ramifications?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there anything further for this evening?
A: No.
Q: (L) Then we will say thank you and good-night.
A: Good night.
One of the most significant things about this session was the revelation to me that it just might be possible to solve some of the great mysteries of our world with the help of the Cassiopaeans.
Yes, it is so that many, many sources of similar ilk have made claims to having done so — at least in philosophical terms — but here we had a real, live physicist who just possibly could figure out and ask the right questions, and then take the answers and translate them into usable, technological terms for the betterment of all humanity, not just true believers.
I was enthralled by the fact that they had no problems talking with Prof. Santilli about physics though my stomach had knotted up at the beginning of the session from thinking that this was going to prove to me that the Cassiopaeans were just a chimera of my own subconscious — they would fail the test. But they didn’t. Of course, they weren’t giving anything away except clues, but the fact that they could do that was astonishing to me. It opened an endless vista of possibilities.
In addition to such considerations, the effect on me was also pronounced. It seemed that even when the session was over and I had gone to bed, I was still channeling. My head was filled with ideas and images too deep for words and I was impatient to get on with the project.
We waited for Prof. Santilli to return from Europe to see what the ramifications of the session would be. When he returned, he seemed to have a different attitude toward the Cassiopaeans, and it became clear that he did not wish to be associated with such a “bizarre” experiment. It was rather like the initial reaction of the MUFON group, which then changed so drastically that we were reduced from an hour of time to fifteen minutes.
Something strange was going on. So much for our anticipation of help from such quarters. I put my hopes of delving into physics more deeply on the shelf, and over a year passed before we were to come back to the subject again.
But still, in terms of the “Wave” effect, it seemed that something about our position had changed, even if only in subtle ways. New doors had been opened in our minds and the Winds of Eternity were blowing our little ship toward some destination unknown.
1 This is the event Tom French wrote about in his article that I quoted at the beginning of this book.
2 According to The Urantia Book Fellowship, The Urantia Book is an anthology of 196 ‘papers’ dictated between 1928 and 1935 by superhuman personalities… The humans into whose hands the papers were delivered are now deceased. The means by which the papers were materialized was unique and is unknown to any living person.
The Myth of the Golden Age: a period when the Pole was “oriented” differently; when the seasons were different; the year was different. It was a primordial paradise where time had no meaning. Joscelyn Godwin in Arktos: The Polar Myth (Adventures Unlimited Press, 1996) explains:
The memory or imagination of a Golden Age seems to be a particularity of the cultures that cover the area from India to Northern Europe.
In the Americas, the most fully developed mythologies of history were those of the Maya and Aztecs, for whom there was no past era unclouded by the threat of cyclical destruction by fire or flood. Nor does the philosophy of Buddhism have any place for nostalgia, although in practice it absorbed the idea of declining ages from its Indian surroundings. But in the ancient Middle East there is an obvious relic of the Golden Age in Genesis, as the Garden of Eden where humanity walked with the gods before the Fall.
The Egyptians spoke of past epochs ruled by god-kings. Babylonian mythology, as reported by Berossos, had a scheme of three ages, each lasting while the vernal equinox precessed through four signs of the zodiac; the first of these, under the dominion of Anu, was a Golden Age, ended by the Flood. The Iranian Avesta texts tell of the thousand-year Golden Reign of Yima, the first man and the first king, under whose rule cold and heat, old age, death and sickness were unknown.
The most fully developed theory of this kind, and probably the oldest one, is the Hindu doctrine of the Four Yugas. A contemporary scholar describes the first of these ages:
In the first Krita Yuga, after the creation of the Earth, Brahman created a thousand pairs of twins from his mouth, breast, thighs, and feet respectively. They lived without houses; all desires that they conceived were directly fulfilled; and the Earth produced of itself delicious food for them, since animals and plants were not yet in existence. Each pair of twins brought forth at the end of their life a pair exactly like them. As everybody did his duty and nothing else, there was no distinction between good and bad acts.
After the Krita or Satya Yuga, things get progressively worse: each successive yuga sees the human race falling into increasing unhappiness and evil, until at the end of the Kali Yuga, the world is set on fire, deluged with water, and then reborn. [H. Jacobi, “Ages of the World (Indian),” in Hastings I, 201.]
I have written elsewhere about the Cassiopaean story of the legendary “Fall” from Eden. Apparently, this was also the last time The Wave was here — 309,882 years ago (counted back from 1994).
As I mentioned previously, this is pretty much 12 precessional cycles, since there is some disagreement at present as to exactly how long a precessional cycle actually is. The figures vary, but if you divide 309,882 by 12 you have the figure 25823.5, which is right in the ballpark.
There have been many researchers in the past few years that have noted the seeming importance of the precession of the equinoxes in ancient myth and legend as well as archaeological implications. But, without the understanding of The Wave, none of the theories as to why this precessional cycle was so important have made much sense. For those who haven’t read those articles on our website about the Lost Golden Age, I will present the material here before we go on with the discussion of The Wave.
October 5, 1994
Q: (L) What was the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil that was supposedly eaten by Eve and then offered to Adam?
A: Knowledge restriction. Encoding.
Q: (L) What did it mean when it said Eve ate of the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. What act did she perform to do that?
A: Consorted with wrong side.
Q: (L) What does consorted mean?
A: Eve is symbolic of Female energy.
Q: (L) The female energy did what when it consorted?
A: Lost some knowledge and power.
Q: (L) What was it that the fruit symbolized?
A: Limitation.
Q: (L) I want you to know that this does not make a whole lot of sense.
A: Yes it does. Think carefully. Laura you are missing the obvious.
Q: (L) In what sense would eating the fruit be limiting?
A: Believing that one source contains all knowledge is contradicting reality. If the concept was the eating of the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge provides all knowledge, then one is being deceived, because no one particular source can provide all knowledge. Therefore, when one believes in the deception, one has now trapped oneself within parameters of limitation. And, forevermore, the human race, will be poisoned by the very same problem which is reflected in several different ways: one is always seeking the truth through one pathway or religion, instead of seeking it through a myriad of pathways; and also believing in simplistic answers to very complex issues and questions.
Q: (L) What was the flaming sword barring re-entry to Eden?
A: Symbolizes trap.
Q: (L) Where was Eden?
A: Earth.
Q: (L) The entire earth was Eden?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was the “fall” in Eden, or the loss of the Edenic state, also accompanied by a cataclysm?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the nature of that cataclysm?
A: Comets.
Q: (L) The cluster you have mentioned before?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, how long ago did this occur?
A: 309882 years ago.
Q: (L) What was the true identity of the serpent in Eden?
A: Lizards.
Q: (L) Was the loss of the Edenic state also accompanied by a takeover of mankind by the Lizzies?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, then how did mankind come to be here?
A: Combination of factors. Numerous souls desired physical existence then were altered by three forces including principally Lizards through Grays, Nephalim and Orion union.
Q: (L) About these three forces. You said numerous souls desired physical existence. When the numerous souls did this, how did physical existence come to be?
A: First was apelike.
Q: (L) And then what happened? Did these apelike beings just pop into the air? What did the souls do with these apelike beings?
A: Souls altered them by transfer into seeded bodies. Orion Union was first to put human souls in for incubation process thereby producing Neanderthal.
Q: (L) Are you saying that genetically altered ape embryos were put back into ape females for gestation?
A: No. Souls only.
Q: (L) They put the souls into the ape-like bodies?
A: Close. The soul’s presence in the ape body causes its genetics and DNA to change.
Q: (L) So, human souls entered into living creatures on this planet to experience third density reality and by entering in caused mutation?
A: Yes. Then were altered by Orion Union first. They resemble you.
Q: (L) Who resembles us?
A: The Orions. Orion Union. There are others in the Orion Community.
Q: (L) Are some of the Orions not good guys, as we would term it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are some of them good guys?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where did the souls come from that entered into the bodies on the planet Earth? Were they in bodies on other planets before they came here?
A: Not this group.
Q: (L) Were they just floating around in the universe somewhere?
A: In union with the One. Have you heard the Super Ancient Legend of Lucifer, the Fallen Angel?
Q: (L) Who is Lucifer?
A: You. The human race.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the souls of individual humans are parts of a larger soul?
A: Yes. Close. The One. You are members of a fragmented soul unit. All who have fallen must learn “the hard way.”
Q: (L) Are you saying that the act of wanting to experience physical reality is the act of falling? What is it about wanting to be physical that is a “fall”?
A: Pleasure for the self.
Q: (L) Did, at any time, the human race live for a long time in an Edenic state, where they were able to be in bodies and still had a spiritual connection?
A: Yes. But not long. No addiction takes long to close the circle.
Q: (L) So, mankind was addicted to pleasuring the self?
A: Became quickly.
Q: (L) How long from the time of the moving of souls into bodies until the “Fall” in Eden occurred?
A: Not measurable. Remember, Laura, there is no time when this event occurred. Time passage illusion did not exist at that point as well as many other falsehoods.
Q: (L) So you are saying that the Fall in Eden was also the beginning of time?
A: Yes.
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November 26, 1994
Q: (L) What was the true event behind the story of the “Mark of Cain”?
A: Advent of jealousy.
Q: (L) What occurred to allow jealousy to enter into human interaction?
A: Lizard takeover.
Q: (L) Wasn’t the Lizard takeover an event that occurred at the time of the fall of Eden?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was this story of Cain and Abel part of that takeover?
A: Symbolism of story.
Q: (L) This was symbolic of the Lizzie takeover, the advent of jealousy, and the attitude of brother against brother, is that correct?
A: Partly. The Mark of Cain means the “jealousy factor” of change facilitated by Lizard takeover of earth’s vibrational frequency. Knot on spine is physical residue of DNA restriction deliberately added by Lizards. See?
Q: (L) You mean the area around the occipital ridge? The structures underneath?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the configuration of the spine and skull prior to this addition?
A: Spine had no ridge there. Jealousy emanates from there. You can even feel it.
Q: (L) Do any of these emotions that we have talked about that were generated by DNA breakdown, were any of these related to what Carl Sagan discusses when he talks about the “Reptilian Brain”?
A: In a roundabout way.
Q: (L) Okay, at the time this “Mark of Cain” came about, were there other humans on the planet that did not have this configuration?
A: It was added to all simultaneously.
Q: (L) How did they physically go about performing this act? What was the mechanism of this event, the nuts and bolts of it?
A: DNA core is as yet undiscovered enzyme relating to carbon. Light waves were used to cancel the first ten factors of DNA by burning them off. At that point, a number of physical changes took place including knot at top of spine. Each of these is equally reflected in the ethereal.
Q: (L) Well, the question I do have is, how many people were there on the planet and did they have to take each one and do this individually? How did they effect this change on all of them?
A: Light wave alteration.
Q: (L) And light waves, actual light waves, affect DNA?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What was the origin of the light waves?
A: Our center. Our realm. STO. The Reptilian beings used sophisticated technology to interrupt light frequency waves.
Q: (L) Well, what I am getting out of this that you are saying, from what you are not saying, is that it was almost like, well, was there a battle and you guys lost?
A: Yes. Now understand this: It is all part of natural Grand Cycle.
Q: (L) Is this natural Grand Cycle just part of the interaction between light and darkness, which just simply must be?
A: Yes. We are at “front line” of universe’s natural system of balance. 6th density. That is where one rises to before reaching total union of “The One.”
Q: (T) So we are but one battle in the universe in an overall, ongoing struggle?
A: Yes. Balance is natural. Remember, it’s all just lessons in the Grand Cycle.
The year 2000 marks the 100th anniversary of the publication of The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by L. Frank Baum. Baum went on to write a total of 14 books about Oz before he died in 1919. Almost everyone is familiar with the story, which is archetypal in its nature, so I won’t bore anybody with a recapitulation. If there is anyone who is not familiar with it, check it out of your local video store and make some popcorn. When you are done, come back and finish reading this page.
Dorothy’s adventures follow the classical lines of the myths of the great heroes as outlined by Joseph Campbell in The Hero with a Thousand Faces (1949):
The standard path of the mythological adventure of the hero is a magnification of the formula represented in the rites of passage: separation — initiation — return: which might be named the nuclear unit of the monomyth. A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder; fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won; the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow man.
The cosmogonic cycle is presented with astonishing consistency in the sacred writings of all the continents, and it gives to the adventure of the hero a new and interesting turn; for now it appears that the perilous journey was a labor not of attainment but of reattainment, not discovery but rediscovery. The godly powers sought and dangerously won are revealed to have been within the heart of the hero all the time. He is ‘the king’s son’ who has come to know who he is and therewith has entered into the exercise of his proper power — God’s son. … From this point of view the hero is symbolical of that divine creative and redemptive image which is hidden within us all, only waiting to be known and rendered into life.
In specific terms, Dorothy follows the pretty much set formula for the mythical hero(ine):
There have been assorted political and pseudo-mystical interpretations of The Wizard of Oz popularized through the years. In one of them, the idea is presented that Dorothy herself is the real wizard because she is the only one who really accomplishes anything. In another, Toto is compared to Anubis, the dog-headed Egyptian guide of the dead. It is because of Toto’s actions that Dorothy gets caught in the tornado to begin with. But, in the end, Toto exposes the Wizard as a humbug. Then, when the Wizard is about to take Dorothy home, Toto once again discombobulates the action by chasing a cat, forcing Dorothy to miss her ride and use the Ruby Slippers instead.
In this line of thinking, my own ideas have tended in the direction of Sirius and Orion. I can’t help but see Dorothy outlined in the constellation with the funny little Toto at her heels!
There is one interpretation that views Kansas as the “outer world” and Oz as the “inner world” and Dorothy’s job is to integrate the two, symbolized by resolving the duality between the Wizard and the Witch. That one is a little lame, in my opinion.
The Hebrew words for the Tree of Life are otz chaim, and one interpreter gets into applying esoteric allegories based on Kaballah to the story. I wonder if he noticed that “Baum”, too, means “tree”?
In Baum’s 14 Oz books, Oz evolves as a utopian paradise where food and other needs simply grow on trees. It is a land without sickness, aging or death. More than that, it is ruled by a goddess: Princess Ozma.
But, Salman Rushdie points out a certain flaw in the story that has not been satisfactorily dealt with, even by Baum himself in his later books, namely that in spite of the fact that Kansas is initially presented as a bleak and dreary place — monochromatic, in fact — Dorothy’s only wish, once she has been transported to the lovely paradise of Oz, is to return!
One has to ask, “Why?” Aside from missing Auntie Em and the rest, why in the world does she want to go back to that barren, treeless landscape? Why is the whole philosophy of the film expressed in the final words of Dorothy: “There’s no place like home!”
In the following series of excerpts from the Cassiopaean transcripts, we encounter Dorothy, Oz and Kansas in a different context than we have heretofore considered. It is in this context that we begin to understand why “there’s no place like home!” and furthermore, that The Wave may play a large role in activating our individual and collective Ruby Slippers!
March 11, 1995
Q: (L) At one point we were told that time was an illusion that came into being at the time of the “Fall” in Eden, and this was said in such a way that I inferred that there were other illusions put into place at that time…
A: Time is an illusion that works for you because of your altered DNA state.
Q: (L) Okay, what other illusions?
A: Monotheism, the belief in one separate, all-powerful entity. The need for physical aggrandizement. Linear focus. Unidimensionality.
Q: (T) Is separate the key word in regard to Monotheism?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell us a little bit about how these illusions are enforced on us, or how they are perceived by us?
A: If someone opens a door, and behind it you see a pot of gold, do you worry whether there is a poisonous snake behind the door hidden from view, before you reach for the pot of gold?
Q: (L) What does the gold represent?
A: Temptation to limitation.
Q: (L) What does the door represent?
A: Opening for limitation.
Q: (L) Was limitation presented as a pot of gold when, in fact, it was not?
A: What is snake?
Q: (T) The Lizards? (L) Who was the snake?
A: Result of giving into temptation without caution: i.e., leaping before looking.
Q: (L) Does that mean we did not open the door?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Who opened the door?
A: Lizards.
Q: (L) So what you are saying to us is that the story of the temptation in Eden was the story of Humankind being led into this reality as a result of being tempted. So, the eating of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was…
A: Giving into temptation.
Q: (L) And this was a trick…
A: No! Tricks don’t exist!
Q: (T) Okay, no trick, a trap?
A: No! Traps don’t exist either. Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.
Q: (T) Now wait a minute. I am losing the whole train here. What were we before the “Fall?”
A: STO.
Q: (T) We are STS at this point because of what happened then?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, now, we were STO at that time. The Lizards opened the door, we are using this as an allegory, I guess; the Lizards opened the door and showed us a pot of gold hoping that we would reach in for the pot, or walk through the door, when they were waiting for us on the other side in order to take us over in some way. Am I on the right track?
A: Hoping is incorrect idea.
Q: (T) Okay, what was it they were trying to do by enticing us?
A: Trying is incorrect idea; continue to probe for learning opportunity.
Q: (T) We were third density STO at this time. Was this after the battle that had transpired? In other words, were we on our own at that point, as opposed to before?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) The battle was through us as to whether we would walk through this doorway… (L) The battle was fought through us. We were literally the battleground.(T) Was the battle over whether or not we walked through that door?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh T, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts!
Q: (T) This must tie into why the Lizards and other aliens keep telling people that they have given their consent for abduction and so forth. We were STO and now we are STS.
A: Yes, “When” you went for the gold, you said “Hello” to the Lizards and all that that implies.
Q: (T) Okay, that was what I was trying to get at. You said that the Lizards, or the forces of STS opened the door.
A: No. Shouldn’t say opened. We said “opened” only to introduce you to the concept, so that you would understand.
Q: (L) So, let’s let go of the part that somebody “opened” the door. (T) The door was always there and always open. I was just trying to work with the analogy. So, the concept is that, as STO beings we had the choice of either going for the gold or not. By going for the gold, we became STS beings because going for the gold was STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And, in doing so, we ended up aligning ourselves with the fourth density Lizard Beings…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And by doing so we gave fourth density STS permission to do whatever they wish with us?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, when they tell us that we gave them permission to abduct us, as many people have reported from their abduction experiences, it is this they are referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (J) Go back to what they said before: “Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.” (T) We, as the human race, used our free will to switch from STO to STS. (L) So, at some level we have chosen the mess we are in and that is the Super Ancient Legend of the Fallen Angel, Lucifer. That is us. We fell by falling into that door, so to speak, going after the pot of gold, and when we fell through the door, the serpent bit us!
A: But this is a repeating syndrome.
Q: (L) Is it a repeating syndrome just for the human race or is it a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation?
A: It is the latter.
Q: (L) Is this a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation simply because it is the cyclic nature of things? Or is it as the Indians call it, Maya?
A: Either or.
Q: (T) We are working with the analogy. The gold was an illusion. The gold was not what we perceived it to be. It was a temptation that was given to us…
A: No temptation, it was always there. Remember Dorothy and the Ruby Slippers? Think of the Ruby Slippers. What did Glenda tell Dorothy???
Q: (J) You can always go home. (L) You have always had the power to go home…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, we always have the power to return to being STO? Even in third density?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Now, you keep referring to the movie, “The Wizard of Oz”. You have been saying…
A: 6th density inspired.
Q: (T) You have good filmmakers up there in sixth density. Okay, you keep referring to the movie, and that we have an ability within us that is something like the Ruby Slippers that can take us back to STO any time we wish.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) So, all this stuff we have been talking about, the realm border, the wave, raising the frequencies…
A: Realm wave is the “tornado.”
Q: (L) In the analogy of Dorothy and the whole thing, the place where she started out was Kansas. Was going to the Land of Oz the STO state?
A: STS.
Q: (L) So Oz was STS. And Kansas, not necessarily the physical surroundings, but the state of mind of Dorothy prior to the Oz experience, was the STO state.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, we don’t need necessarily to look at Kansas or the fact that it was filmed in black and white, it is just the state of mind. The going to Oz.
A: And Elvira Gulch.
Q: (J) The lady that turned into the witch. It was because of her that Dorothy ended up in Oz. She let her dog tease Elvira’s cat, Elvira took the dog, which escaped, and Dorothy was trying to cover for the dog.
A: The witch is the Lizards.
Q: (T) Yeah, okay. (L) The moral of the story is: don’t let your dog chase cats belonging to Lizards! (T) Tornado. Dorothy fell from the STO to the STS state through the tornado. Is this true?
A: Yes. Analyze more carefully, suggest break to do so.
[Break and Discussion]: (T) They are equating the tornado as the shift from STO to STS.
(L) Maybe it also is a shift from STS to STO.
(J) Yes, a shift from one to the other would be dramatic.
(T) Was it a density shift also? The realm wave is supposed to be a density shift: a window between densities. Is there also a shifting between STO and STS? Is there a gateway that you go through? A door?
(F) Oh God! There are so many possibilities here.
(L) And if you switch into STO do you find yourself on a different Earth?
(T) They said this tornado is representative of Dorothy going from STO to STS state. She also went from her reality to a totally different reality.
(F) That’s true.
(J) But switching from one to the other is going to be traumatic.
(T) They have been talking about a realm wave…
(F) I don’t think it matters which way, I just think that in that particular story it was laid out that way.
(T) But what they have been telling us so far is that the realm wave is a window to move between densities.
(J) Right.
(T) But they just said to us that the tornado is an analogy of a realm wave. But the tornado was a passage from STO to STS, not from third to fourth density.
(J) Two different things.
(F) True, however, a realm border passage may represent any kind of sudden shift?
(T) That is what I am wondering. Can it also mean that not only would we shift from third to fourth, but also would we shift from STS to STO and start out in an STO state there? And then have, again, whether or not we shift back to an STS state in fourth density? Do you always start out in an STO state?
(F) No, because if a realm border is coming now, and they have told us over and over again that we are STS, and what they have actually told us is that the realm border is a shift from third density to fourth density, and they never said it was a shift from STS to STO, they have said that it is our choice.
(T) Yes, but they just referred to the tornado as this realm wave, and, in The Wizard the tornado was the symbol of shifting from STO to STS. I don’t know. I’m just trying to get a handle on what they are trying to tell us here because it is something extremely important.
(J) They have been saying “Ruby Slippers, Ruby Slippers,” not “tornado, tornado.”
(T) Yeah, they said that just now, that the wave is the tornado.
(F) I think that is a different subject, there.
(T) But now it is the same symbology. The tornado took her from one point to another and the Slippers took her back to point A again. Two different concepts.
(F) There are all kinds of intricate little things here; somehow there must be a way to connect it. You know what it is? “Remember the slippers,” they said, meaning that the pathway was always there for her to go home. Don’t you remember Glenda telling her “Ooh, no dear, you can always go home. All you have to do is say, ‘there’s no place like home.’”
(J) Yeah, but you had to be wearing those slippers…
(S) Now, you know what? The tornado or the wave could act a lot like going to fifth density. As she was looking out the window all these things passed by… like a life review…
(T) Yes, her life passed by her.
(F) Yes, but they have told us that the realm border passage itself is going to result in all kinds of hairy stuff going on. It’s just totally bizarre in every one of the concepts we have come across so far!
(J) It is a radical change in reality.
(T) Yes, but for Dorothy, in the movie, it was violent in the fact that it was a tornado, though it did not physically hurt her.
(J) Yes, and that is what we have been told, too.
(F) She was scared…
(T) Yes, but that was a mental thing… it was up here [pointing to head] where the hurt was. She didn’t get hurt physically.
(F) That is also another thing to speculate about: throughout the entire movie, she was never hurt physically. Through all the threats, she was never actually hurt. For some reason, the witch couldn’t just grab the slippers off of her…
(T) It was also 1939. If the movie had been made in 1995 they would have had machine guns, missiles, chainsaws, and there would be body counts all over the place. And she still could have gone home anytime she wanted. You know, Dorothy Meets the Terminator.
(L) Dorothy and the Chainsaw Massacre.
(S) Dorothy goes to Elm Street. [Laughter]
(T) It’s a cross between a children’s fairy story and a Stephen King nightmare.
(F) You know, the fundamentalists have attacked the Wizard of Oz.
(L) They have? Why?
(T) Because it is Satanic.
(F) Yeah, they say it’s Hollywood’s effort to pull people away from Christianity and fundamentalism and all that jazz.
(T) The Wizard of Oz is evil, to the fundamentalists.
(F) Yes, because you don’t need the blood of Christ to get back to Kansas.
(L) I guess that’s why Cinderella is politically incorrect.
(T) Because she didn’t sleep with one foot on the floor like all the sitcoms back in the 60’s.
(J) Excuse me?
(S) We went from Oz to sitcoms?
(J) I think you are mixing your metaphors.
(S) That was Sleeping Beauty.
(T) Yeah, that was Sleeping Beauty in the box.
(J) And one foot on the floor.
(L) No, Snow White was in the box.
(T) Snow White was in the box. Yeah, Disney took all the things that had Beauty sleeping in them…
(L) Did you ever stop and think about that symbology: Sleeping Beauty, being awakened by a kiss?
(F) Who turns into a frog?
(L) No!
(F) Oh, that’s right, the frog turns into a prince.
(L) That’s another analogy. Being awakened from the illusion into which one has been put by the evil witch…
(F) And Cinderella…
(L) And also, in all of these fairy tales it is because of some choice and lack of knowledge…
(J) Rumplestiltskin…
(S) The Ugly Duckling…
(T) Yeah, all of Grimm’s fairy tales were really pretty grim. They have been cleaned up a whole lot.
(L) Yeah, in the original Cinderella, the stepsister cut off part of her foot to get it to fit the slipper and the Prince found her out because of the dripping blood. (J and S) Ooooh! Yuck!
(T) Must have been the glass slipper, cut my foot!
(L) And there you have the imagery of a shoe that creates a transition… Ruby Slippers and Glass Slippers… Hmmmm…
(T) Are we getting anywhere? We got the idea that when we fell from STO to STS we gave the Lizzies the right to do what they are doing. So, when they make the statement that we said they could, we did.
[End of Break]
A: Okay.
Q: (L) We are having a bit of a puzzlement here because we are wondering if the tornado which represents the realm wave is something that moves one from an STO state to an STS state while still remaining in third density?
A: Okay, that is one way. Okay…
Q: (T) The realm border is not only a way of transferring from one density to another, but it is also a way of transiting from STS and STO and back?
A: Can be.
Q: (T) So, those who get hit by this wave can transit from third to fourth density and come out as an STO being even if they are presently STS?
A: In some of the passages that has occurred.
Q: (L) Okay, so people can either go from STO to STS in third or fourth density… Any of these choices are open at this passing of the realm wave?
A: Any of the above according to the orientation of the wave.
Q: (L) And what is the orientation of the wave that is coming? Is it strictly to move us from third density to fourth density? Is this a function of this wave?
A: Yes. We have told you this.
Q: (L) And they have told us that this is a wave from third to fourth density. Some of the waves, apparently, can move from STO to STS… (T) As this wave passes by, does the orientation of the wave depend upon the individual?
A: Compare to sea waves. Waves are a part of the fiber of all nature.
Q: (T) Is it going to depend on where on the wave you are, the crest or the trough, as to which way you transition on it?
A: No.
Q: (T) In other words, a wave that is going to transition from third to fourth density will do so no matter where you are on the wave when it passes?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) A wave that is aligned to transit people from STS to STO or vice versa will do that also?
A: Or you could “go under” instead.
Q: (T) Under the wave? Then you wouldn’t move at all. (L) You could be pulled under; you could drown and become part of the primordial soup! (T) Is that Minestrone?
A: Chicken Noodle. [Laughter.]
Q: (L) If you go under you get sucked into the ocean and start cycling all over again?
A: It is not that simple.
Q: (J) I didn’t think that was simple at all. (T) Let’s not even start on that one. I’m still trying to work out this movement from STO to STS. You keep referring to the movie about Dorothy. In the movie she was told she could go home any time she wanted just by saying I want to go home, or whatever. That is a lot easier than going through all the conniptions and contankerations waiting out this Wave that comes only once every so often. Is there a way for us to go back to STO that is easier and simpler than hanging out for 300,000 years waiting for this wave to come around?
A: Sure!
Q: (T) Okay, now we are getting somewhere. Where are we going? So, there is another way of doing this.
A: Now wait a minute, are you ready to just go to fourth density right now?
Q: (T) Yeah, I am ready. Right now. Let’s rock and roll! J, feed the cats when you get home! (L) Well, don’t you think that the idea of just taking off and leaving and abdicating your responsibilities and agreements is an STS thing? (T) Yeah, but I’d be fourth density STS! (S) You and the Lizzies! (T) Now, now! Calm down! I wasn’t saying… I’m not ready to go now because I’m wanted here! Anyway, what you are saying is that the realm wave is not the only way to make the transition, is this correct?
A: One idea presented.
Q: (T) And we are here to set up some sort of a frequency to pull as many beings through the Wave, when it passes, and that is the whole purpose of why we are here… Is that it?
A: That implies interference with free will.
Q: (L) So, we are here to set up a frequency so that others may join with us… if they choose… Just out of curiosity, whom do the munchkins represent?
A: 2nd density beings.
Q: (L) Whom do the Witch’s soldiers represent?
A: The Nephalim.
Q: (L) If the Nephilim are coming thirty-six-million strong as enforcers for the Lizzies, does the Confederation have a like amount for defense?
A: We don’t operate that way.
Q: (L) Are we just going to have to fight them off ourselves?
A: Remember Dorothy… Glenda is like us.
Q: (L) And who is the Wizard? Is that the Beast or the U.S. Government?
A: Close. Illuminati.
Q: And the monkeys are the Grays?
A: Close.
Q: (L) If water destroyed the witch, and the witch represents the Lizzies, can we destroy the Lizzies?
A: Knowledge.
Q: (L) But there are only a few on the planet who have the knowledge. Am I correct?
A: What do you mean? Against all when the time comes.
Q: (L) So the thirty-six-million Nephilim will be against all on the planet when the time comes? Their arrival will wake everybody up?
A: Of course.
Q: (L) And those who have the knowledge and can dispense it to others… well… they may suddenly be heard…
A: Yes.
Now, let’s look at the following extract from a more recent session that clarifies much of the information given above:
August 28, 1999
Q: (L) I have this book, this Marcia Schafer thing: Confessions of an Intergalactic Anthropologist, and its a bunch of channeled stuff; one thing she says: “The snake is associated with the sign of wisdom and higher learning, and is often regarded quite highly in mystical circles.” I would like to have a comment on the idea of the snake as a “sign of wisdom and higher learning” as many people believe and teach nowadays, though the serpent is presented as the evil Tempter in older texts.
A: Snake is/was reported in context of the viewpoint of the observer. Maybe the observer was just “blown away” by the experience. If you were living in the desert, or jungle, about 7,000 years ago, as you measure time, would you not be impressed if these Reptoid “dudes” came down from the heavens in silvery objects and demonstrated techno-wonders from thousands of years in the future, and taught you calculus, geometry and astrophysics to boot?!?
Q: (L) Is that, in fact, what happened?
A: Yup.
Q: (L) Well, this is one of the problems I am dealing with in trying to write this history of mankind. As I understand it, or as I am trying to figure it out from the literature, prior to the “Fall in Eden”, mankind lived in a fourth density state. Is that correct?
A: Semi/sort of. fourth density in another realm, such as time/space continuum, etc.
Q: (L) Okay, so this realm changed, as a part of the cycle; various choices were made: the human race went through the door after the “gold”, so to speak, and became aligned with the Lizzies after the “female energy” consorted with the wrong side, so to speak. This is what you have said. This resulted in a number of effects: the breaking up of the DNA, the burning off of the first ten factors of DNA, the separation of the hemispheres of the brain…
A: Only reason for this: you play in the dirt, you’re gonna get dirty.
Q: (L) What was the motivating factor for playing in the dirt? What essential thing occurred? You said once that it was “desire-based imbalance.” What was it a desire for?
A: Increased physicality.
Q: (L) What was the objective sought for in this desire for increased physicality?
A: Sensate.
Q: (L) How was sensate first experienced so that these beings had an idea that they could get more if they increased their physicality?
A: Not experienced, demonstrated.
Q: (L) Demonstrated how, by whom? The Lizzies?
A: Basically.
Q: (L) Demonstrated in what way? Did they say: “here, try this!” Or did they demonstrate by showing or doing?
A: Closer to the latter.
Q: (L) They were doing things, experimenting, playing, and saying: “look, we are doing this, it’s so great, come here and try it?”
A: Not really. More like: “we have this, you could have this too.”
Q: (L) What seemed to be so desirable about this increased physicality when they said, “you can have this?”
A: Use your imagination!
Q: (L) Was there any understanding, or realization of any kind that increased physicality could be like Osiris lured into his own coffin by Set? That they would then slam the lid shut and nail him in?
A: Obviously, such understanding was lacking.
Q: (L) Sounds like a pretty naive bunch! Does the lack of this understanding reflect a lack of knowledge?
A: Of course. But more, it is desire getting in the way of…
Q: (L) Okay. The “Fall” occurred. It seems like, and some of the archaeological studies indicate, that for many thousands of years, there was a peaceful existence and a nice agrarian society where the goddess or female creative forces were worshipped. At least, this is what a lot of present-day books are proposing…
A: No. These events took place 309000 years ago, as you measure it. This is when the first prototype of what you call “modern man” was created. The controllers had the bodies ready; they just needed the right soul matrix to agree to “jump in.”
Q: (L) So, prior to this time, this prior Edenic state…
A: Was more like fourth density.
Q: (L) But that implies that there was some level of physicality. Was there physicality in the sense of bodies that look like present-day humans?
A: Not quite. And we cannot answer because it is too complex for you to understand.
Q: (L) Does this mean that the experiences… that the bodies we possibly would move into or transform into, as fourth density beings, assuming that one does, would also be too complex for us to understand? You are saying that this “sort of fourth density” pre-Fall state, in terms of the physical bodies, is too complex to understand. If going back to fourth density is anything like coming from fourth density, does that mean that what we would go back to is something that is too complex to understand? This variability of physicality that you have described?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, was there any kind of worship of God, or religious activity in this pre-Fall state, this Edenic, fourth density state?
A: No need when one has a clue.
Q: (L) What I am trying to get at here, what I am trying to understand, is the transition from the goddess worship to the god worship; the change from the understanding of cyclical time as expressed in the feminine cycles, and expressed as the goddess; to the concept of linear time, expressed as the masculine principle. It seems to me that these were stages of inversion of concepts which gradually led to the ideas that the Lizzies are imposing on us, and seem to have been working in this direction for millennia — the dominator experience which expresses as: believe in something outside yourself that will save you, otherwise you are damned because the world is going to end, and you are going to get judged. It’s like all of these ideas have been planted throughout time in preparation for them to come in and act like the “Saviour” and take over. This is the concept I am trying to deal with here. I am trying to understand what was worshipped. Okay, we had these guys; they fell from Eden. Once they jumped into the physical bodies, as you put it, what was their level of conceptualization regarding the universe? Did they still retain some understanding at that point?
A: Kind of like the understanding one has after severe head trauma, vis-a-vis your normal understanding in your current state.
Q: (L) So, they were traumatized; they may have had bits and pieces of ideas and memories, but they may also have lost a great deal altogether. There may have even been a sort of “coma” state of mankind for many millennia. But, after they woke up, with the bits and pieces floating around in their heads, they may have begun to attempt to piece it all together. So, they started putting it all back together. What was the first thing they put together regarding the cosmos around them?
A: Sex.
Q: (L) What did they decide about sex? I mean, sex was there. They were having sex. Is that it? Or, did they understand the cosmos as sex?
A: More like the former. After all, that is what got you guys in this mess in the first place! Just imagine the sales job if you can: “Look how much fun this is! Want to try it? Oops, sorry, we forgot to tell you, you cannot go back!”
Q: (L) I really fail to understand — and I know it is a big issue that has been hinted at and alluded to in many so-called mystery teachings, and outright claims have been made regarding sex in all religions and mythologies — but I fail to understand the mechanics of how this can be the engineering of a “fall.” What, precisely, are the mechanics of it? What energy is generated? How is it generated? What is the concept of the misuse of this energy, or the use of the energy?
A: It is simply the introduction of the concept of self-gratification of a physical sort.
Q: (L) On many occasions you have said that the ideal thing is to have perfect balance of physicality and ethereality. This has been said on a number of occasions. Now, I don’t understand how it can be that gratification of a physical body can be the mechanics by which one is entrapped? Is it not gratifying to look at something beautiful? Is it wrong, sinful, or a form of a fall, to look at beauty, to hear something beautiful such as music, or to touch something that is sensually delightful such as a piece of silk or the skin of a loved one? These various things that the human being derives pleasure from very often elevate them to a spiritual state.
A: Possession is the key. In STS, you possess. If you move through the beautiful flowers, the silk, the skin of another, but do not seek to possess…
Q: (L) It seems to me that it is possible to experience all of these things, including sex, without the need or desire to possess, but only to give. In which case, I still don’t understand how it can be a mechanism for a “fall.”
A: If it is desired, then the mechanism is not to give. Do you eat a piece of chocolate cake because it is good to give to the stomach? In STS, which is your realm do not forget, one gives because of the pleasant sensation which results.
Q: (L) Could it not be said that, if everything that exists is part of God, including the flesh, that if one gives to the flesh, without being attached to the giving, that it could be considered a giving to the “All”?
A: Explain the process.
Q: (L) For example: there are some people who like to suffer, because they believe that the flesh is sinful. That is a big thing that the Lizzies have instituted. For centuries they have wanted people to suffer, and they have made this big deal about sex and anything that might be considered pleasant or desirable should be denied, and that a person should suffer, and revel in their suffering. And, actually, making a person…
A: If one seeks to suffer, they do so in expectation of future reward. They desire to possess something in the end.
Q: (L) What I am saying is: if a person can simply be, in the doing and being of who and what they are, in simplicity; to become involved in doing everything as a meditation, or as a consecration, whether they are walking down the street and being at one with the air, the sunshine, the birds and trees and other people; in this state of oneness, doesn’t that constitute a giving to the universe as giving oneself up as a channel for the universe to experience all these things?
A: Not if one is “feeling this oneness.”
Q: (L) We are what we are. Nature is nature. Progression is progression. And if people would just relax and be who and what they are in honesty, and do what is according to their nature without violating the Free Will of others, that this is a more pure form of being than doing things out of any feeling of expectation, or desire; to just be, not want… just be?
A: Yes, but STS does not do that. You are all STS. If you were not, you would not be where you are.
Q: (A) There are those who are happy in the STS mode; and there are those who are trying to get out of the STS mode…
A: STO candidates.
Q: (A) These STO candidates are not able to just simply be, even theoretically, because then, STS would eat them.
A: No.
Q: (L) Why not?
A: STS does not eat according to protocol. STS “eats” whatever it wants to, if it is able.
Q: (L) That’s what we said. If you are an STO candidate in an STS world, you are basically defenseless, and they eat you.
A: No.
Q: (L) Why? What makes STO unavailable or “inedible”?
A: Frequency resonance not in sync.
Q: (A) But then, that would mean that all these people who are saying that we need just to love everything and everybody, are right. They just be, and love, don’t do anything, just give everything to the Lizzies… they are right!
A: No, because motivation is STS.
Q: (L) How is the motivation to love everything and everybody, and to just give, STS?
A: Feels good.
Q: (L) So, they want to do it because it feels good?
A: Want is an STS concept.
Q: (L) So, you seem to be suggesting that the real trick is to just become non-attached to anything and anybody, do nothing, and just dissolve into nothing? No thought, no want, no do, no be, no anything!
A: If you are STS, that does not fit, but, if you did exactly that, you would reincarnate in an STO realm, where such energy does fit.
Q: (L) But, if you have become nothing, how do you reincarnate? And, when you say “reincarnate”, that implies being in a body!
A: You do not become nothingness.
Q: (L) But, being incarnated means being in a body?
A: No.
Q: (L) You mean moving into a realm that does not necessarily mean being in a body?
A: Close. But fourth density STO is partially physical. Does not consume nor possess. You are confused because you seem to think you must be STO to be an STO candidate. You are STS, and you simply cannot be otherwise, until you either reincarnate or transform at realm border crossing.
Now, moving along to the next subject of discussion that brought out more aspects of The Wave, we find a strange correspondence to the general theme of mythical archetypes. In The Hero with a Thousand Faces, Joseph Campbell describes one of the preliminary stages in the Hero’s Journey as the “call to adventure.”
Long, long ago, when wishing still could lead to something, there lived a king whose daughters all were beautiful, but the youngest was so beautiful that the sun itself, who had seen so many things, simply marveled every time it shone on her face.
Now close to the castle of this king was a great dark forest, and in the forest under an old lime tree a spring, and when the day was very hot, the king’s child would go out into the wood and sit on the edge of the cool spring. And to pass the time she would take a golden ball, toss it up and catch it; and this was her favorite plaything.
Now it so happened one day that the golden ball of the princess did not fall into the little hand lifted into the air, but passed it, bounced on the ground, and rolled directly into the water.
The princess followed it with her eyes, but the ball disappeared; and the spring was deep, so deep that the bottom could not be seen. Thereupon she began to cry, and her crying became louder and louder, and she was unable to find consolation. And while she was lamenting in this way, she heard someone call to her, ‘What is the matter, Princess? You are crying so hard, a stone would be forced to pity you.’
She looked around to see where the voice had come from, and there she beheld a frog holding its fat, ugly head out of the water. ‘Oh, it’s you, old Water Plopper,’ she said. ‘I’m crying over my golden ball, which has fallen into the spring.’
Be calm; don’t cry,’ answered the frog. ‘I can surely be of assistance. But what will you give me if I fetch your toy for you?’
Whatever you would like to have, dear frog,’ she said; ‘my clothes, my pearls and jewels, even the golden crown that I wear.’
The frog replied, ‘Your clothes, your pearls and jewels, and your golden crown, I do not want; but if you will care for me and let me be your companion and playmate, let me sit beside you at your little table, eat from your little golden plate, drink from your little cup, sleep in your little bed: if you will promise me that, I will go straight down and fetch your golden ball.’
‘All right,’ she said. ‘I promise you anything you want, if you will only bring me back the ball.’ But she thought, ‘How that simple frog chatters! There he sits in the water with his own kind, and could never be the companion of a human being.’
As soon as the frog had obtained her promise, he ducked his head and sank, and after a little while came swimming up again; he had the ball in his mouth, and tossed it on the grass. The princess was elated when she saw her pretty toy. She picked it up and scampered away. ‘Wait, wait,’ called the frog, ‘take me along; I can’t run like you.’ But what good did it do, though he croaked after her as loudly as he could? She paid not the slightest heed, but hurried home, and soon had completely forgotten the poor frog — who must have hopped back again into his spring.
This is an example of one of the ways in which the adventure can begin. A blunder — apparently the merest chance — reveals an unsuspected world, and the individual is drawn into a relationship with forces that are not rightly understood. The blunder may amount to the opening of a destiny.
Thus it happens, in this fairy tale, that the disappearance of the ball is the first sign of something coming for the princess, the frog is the second, and the unconsidered promise is the third. … The frog, the little dragon, is the nursery counterpart of the underworld serpent whose head supports the Earth and who represents the life-progenitive, demiurgic powers of the abyss. (Campbell, 1949) 1
How does this relate to our subject?
The herald or announcer of the adventure, therefore, is often dark, loathly, or terrifying, judged evil by the world; yet if one could follow, the way would be opened through the walls of day into the dark where the jewels glow. Or the herald is a beast representative of the repressed instinctual fecundity within ourselves, or again a veiled mysterious figure — the unknown. … Whether dream or myth, in these adventures there is an atmosphere of irresistible fascination about the figure that appears suddenly as guide, marking a new period, a new stage, in the biography. That which has to be faced, and is somehow profoundly familiar to the unconscious — though unknown, surprising, and even frightening to the conscious personality — makes itself known; and what formerly was meaningful may become strangely emptied of value: like the world of the king’s child, with the sudden disappearance into the well of the golden ball.
Thereafter, even though the hero returns for a while to his familiar occupations, they may be found unfruitful. A series of signs of increasing force then will become visible, until … the summons can no longer be denied. (Campbell, 1949)
It seems that we have just such a symbolic herald of the Coming of The Wave…
March 18, 1995
Q: (L) J and I have a question. Hilliard mentioned to us the other day that the frogs are disappearing from the planet.
A: Ozone layer.
Q: (L) They are getting fried because of the loss of the Ozone layer?
A: Fried? [Laughter]
Q: (L) Frog legs, anyone? (J) Where are they going? (T) The ozone layer is depleting and they are the first of the things we are really noticing as an effect of this?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Where are they going? (T) They are not going anywhere. They are dying. (F) They are not reproducing.
A: Yes.
Q: (B) They have very sensitive skin. (T) Soon it is going to be affecting us all.
A: All part of the wave effects interconnecting realities.
Q: (L) Well, if it is having this effect on frogs, what is it going to do to us when it gets stronger?
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Now, come on! This doesn’t sound like a real pleasant thing. Don’t you think you ought to give us just a little more on this? A clue here?
A: No. [Laughter]
Q: (T) Are they saying that the loss of the ozone layer is a direct result of the approaching wave? (J) They sure did! (T) The loss is not due to the fluorocarbons?
A: Misinterpretation, review statement thoroughly.
Q: (J) Is removal of the ozone layer part of the frequency “fixing”?
A: Close.
Q: (L) It’s keyed on interconnecting realities.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the Wave is causing the interconnecting of realities? (J) And the ozone layer is in the Wave?
A: No “of.” And causing actions, which affect third density in myriad ways, closing the circle.
Q: (L) It is a symptom?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) But, is the relationship of the ozone being depleted and the approaching Wave, perhaps that the Wave isn’t directly causing the depletion, it’s the Lizzies causing human beings to act in ways that deplete the ozone layer in order to create suffering, in order to feed on this negative energy because of the approaching Wave? In other words, the Wave is causing the destined actions to take place that are necessary for the closing of the Grand Cycle?
A: Close.
Q: (L) And the dying off of the frogs is part of this? Poor little frogs… I like frogs…
A: So are “Earth Changes.”
Q: (J) Is the depletion of the ozone layer a part of the equation required for the Wave…
A: In third density reality, it is important.
This last remark is most interesting. The Cassiopaeans seem to be saying that the depletion of the Ozone layer is necessary for some reason… that the new state of being will be, in some way, affected or even effected by this phenomenon. Remember the passage at the beginning of this section where it was said:
A: DNA core is as yet undiscovered enzyme relating to carbon. Light waves were used to cancel the first ten factors of DNA by burning them off. At that point, a number of physical changes took place including knot at top of spine. Each of these is equally reflected in the ethereal. Light wave alteration.
Q: (L) And light waves, actual light waves, affect DNA?
A: Yes.
Changes in the ozone layer certainly reflect a difference in the amount of radiation from the sun that passes through the atmosphere. But, to continue:
Q: (J) So, it is part of the natural progression of movement from third to fourth?
A: Let’s try using the word “reflection,” and see if that “rings a bell.” Third into fourth and vice versa. Oncoming wave is a transformation from third density to fourth density; so events happening due to the approach of the wave are causing changes across densities and realities! In third density, you will notice changes that will have third density explanations, but they are a manifestation of the approach; you see them as third density because that is your current point of reference! Remember that all reflects in and across all density levels but also there is a merging upon arrival of the wave, it is realm border crossing!!!!!!
So, we possibly need to look at all of the things happening on our planet, the things we perceive as very negative and disturbing, as the “contract phase” of The Wave. Many of us have noticed that, very often, when negative forces put some action into effect that is intended to be very harmful, when it interacts with persons of certain frequency, or who are internally configured in the STO pattern, the negative action turns out to be of great benefit — though the sender of the energy certainly did not intend it that way! “Turning lemons into lemonade” comes to mind.
If we look at the situation in this way, and understand that the greatest weakness of the STS pathway is their illusory “wishful thinking” tendency, then perhaps we can understand that things are happening, as they ought to be. Some sort of critical mass of negativity has to be reached before sufficient Contact Potential Difference2 can be developed to draw in the light!
And, when you consider that aspect, and the way negative energy can actually work for good when it interacts with individuals of internal STO configuration, even if the initial perception is that something terrible is happening (what doesn’t destroy us makes us strong), then you have to also consider the opposite occurs when folks send love and light toward negative beings of internal STS configuration…it doesn’t change them to good guys, it merely is food for them to become stronger and meaner! As Michael Topper has written in his article, “Channeling, UFOs and the Positive/Negative Realms Beyond This World”:
The alternate convention to which a certain “New Age” mentality turns whenever the possible existence of actual, deliberate negativity approaches, is that of the vaguely “Christian” tactic: love-bomb the blighters until they see the error of their ways, by the point-scoring Good Example set. Such cheek turning is in practice, of course, a very selective espousal, since it rarely seems to constitute the day-by-day business attitude of the very same proponent. Even in the case, however, that this recommendation weren’t outright hypocrisy it would remain fatally fatuous, for they (the STS) “do not want your love”.
The Negativity of the Higher Densities is ipso facto awake; it has chosen the rejection of other-love as a whole-being orientation, and therefore has no subconscious residuum of receptivity that might secretly “respond” to the good intentions of a positively-directed beam (even if such a beam proceeded from a sincere resolve which consistently applied its Samaritan counsel in all other avenues of life).
Indeed there is deeper implication than this. In the face of such uncommon or truly spiritual negativity the presumption of such conventional counsel might well result in consequences worse than simple “lack of success.” It has to be understood that spiritual principles and religious precepts, have to be evaluated against an enlarged context, and modified according to the forms of information “unique” to the higher domains to which consciousness must adapt.
The principle to “love one and all alike,” to bestow “blessings upon all beings” and so forth is not subject to abandonment at this stage; we are not to somehow understand that a reversion to hatred and warfare are suddenly “all right” due to the extenuating circumstance that “pure spiritual evil does indeed exist”. Universal Love is and always remains the principle in some proper form; but the specific beaming of the “love-vibe” in the direction of the [STS beings] not only possesses the defect of wholly wasted effort; the philosophy informing it tends to contribute to a tremendous misreading of the elements actually involved…
What then are we to “do” with the counsel of the general Teaching thus far delivered to this density, such as that of “love thine enemy”? How are we to interpret such a precept or indeed understand the principle of Love altogether, when its application seems so susceptible to a sticky, spider web ambush from planes of reality actually eager with invitation for so innocent an approach?…
If then the first spiritual precept to “Love God with all your heart” is a familiar reference of 3rd density consciousness, how is it that such a framework possesses it? And how does such a reference coexist with corollary commandments and encomiums, i.e. precisely those such as “love thine enemies,” “love your neighbor as yourself,” etc?
When we learn the whole-being expression of Love as that spontaneous Love of the One Infinite Creator, the very essence of Love tends to emanate impersonally as a global value, spreading without effort or special address to all quarters where it’s received or not according to the specific will of every form. In this way its Presence doesn’t become confused with the conditional presence of the myriad beings “positive” or “negative.” Nor does its Presence become confounded with the mechanics of “give and take,” which are all relative identifications of the mind common to the complex of 3rd-stage psychology that accepts the teaching of Love according to its lights…in which love is understood as a conceptual miasma of “owes” and “oughts.”3
Now, before we close this section, there are a few more excerpts that I would like to present that tells us a little bit more about just how strange this Wave Event is going to be. Remember the ending of Close Encounters of the Third Kind, where the pilots that had been lost in the Bermuda Triangle emerged from the spacecraft as though being returned by the aliens? Well, that was a funny image that might have some small basis in fact. Witness the following from the same session just quoted:
Q: (L) What causes some planes, people and ships to disappear in the Bermuda Triangle? Where do they go and what happens to them? I know you have previously said that it was EM wave disturbances from a submerged Atlantean pyramid that kicks into action every now and then… but where do those folks and things go when they disappear?
A: Of course some are just crashes and sinkings, but when accompanied by unusual phenomena, it is because of irregular anomalies.
Q: (L) Where do they go?
A: To parallel reality.
Q: (L) Is this parallel reality like being on a parallel earth?
A: No.
Q: (L) What do you mean by a parallel reality?
A: Varies according to circumstances.
Q: (L) What happened to the infamous Flight 19?
A: They are still trying to get their bearings.
Q: (J) Oh! My God! Oh, how horrible! They are still out there trying to get back. (T) They are in a parallel reality… (L) Where time doesn’t exist… (T) They are in a reality that holds them in frozen space/time over the ocean, am I getting this right?
A: In their thought reference, like being “lost souls.”
Q: (L) Bummer! Does this mean that they are “stuck” in time? (J) You got it!
A: Bingo!
Q: (L) Is there any possibility that they could fly out of this place that they are stuck in and back into our reality?
A: Absolutely. Remember, the wave is approaching, and as it gets “nearer”, more and more unusual events take place, witness crop circles, for example.
Q: (L) Is there anything anyone can do to release persons stuck in these parallel realities and bring them back into the reality of origin?
A: Yes, but the technology is a closely guarded secret.
Q: (L) Do you know the secret?
A: Yes, but you do too!
Q: (L) I do too?
A: Philadelphia Experiment.
Q: (L) Since you mentioned the Philadelphia Experiment, could you tell us in specific detail, how this was done? What kind of machine was used, and how can we build one? [General uproar and laughter]
A: Do you intend to sit here for a day or two?
Q: (J) In other words, it would take a day or two to give us the information? (T) Yeah, we got the time. Get some paper and a pencil. Let’s start with a diagram… [Laughter]
A: In short, build an EM generator. […]
A: Now, some more information about Flight 19. Do you remember a few years ago that a team of researchers claimed to have found the planes, and then retracted?
Q: (L) Yes, I remember. [All agree.]
A: Did you find this to be curious?
Q: (S) Yes, because the planes that they found were never reported missing. (T) Yes. (L) Is that why it was so curious? (J) Why did they publish a retraction later? (S) Where did the planes come from that they found?
A: Yes, if only you knew the details, and how three of the team have required massive psychiatric aid.
Q: (L) Well, tell us the details!
A: Patience, we are, but must do so slowly… What they found were five planes matching the description, and “arranged” in a perfect geometric pattern on the bottom of the ocean, but the serial numbers did not match. Now, first mystery: There were no other instances of five Avengers disappearing at once. Second: Two of the planes had strange glowing panels with unknown “hieroglyphics” where there should have been numbers. Third: When they tried to raise one of the planes, it vanished, then reappeared, then vanished again then reappeared while attached to the guide wire, then finally slipped off and fell to the bottom. Fourth: In one of the planes, on the bottom, live human apparitions in WWII uniforms were temporarily seen by three exploratory divers and videotaped by a guide camera. Lastly: Three of the planes have since disappeared. All of this is, naturally, being kept secret!
Q: (S) I wonder where the planes came from. (L) That is the obvious question!
A: Parallel reality, you see, when something crosses into another reality, it accesses something called, for lack of a better term, the “thought plane”, and as long as that reality is misunderstood, the window remains open, thus all perceptions of possibility may manifest concretely, though only temporarily, as thought plane material is constantly fluid.
Q: (L) Does this mean that this was a “Flight 19” of a parallel reality that went through a window into our reality?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Was this part of, or connected to, the loss of our “Flight 19”? Did we exchange realities here?
A: It is the thought patterns that affect the reality, when that window is opened, all thought can become physical reality, though only temporarily.
Q: (L) Does this mean that the divers’ and searchers’ thoughts about this became reality?
A: And all others.
Q: (T) All others involved in the search?
A: All others on the planet.
Q: (T) Even those that did not believe that the searchers were going to find them?
A: Yes. Researchers found what they expected to find, but when others heard the news, other things started to happen according to which thought patterns dominated.
Q: (L) So, in other words, if somebody believed that it was Flight 19, it appeared, and if somebody did not believe it was Flight 19, it disappeared?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Oh jeez! (T) Well, I didn’t believe it to begin with… (L) So, I guess we won! (F) We sent some poor guys into the psychiatric ward. (L) No, I think the searchers went looking for this and because there was a window there… (T) The planes showed up exactly as they expected to see them, in a formation… But the planes would not have come down as described there, and they appeared in a formation on the bottom. That should have told the searchers something right there. When I heard that they had found those planes in a formation, that close together, that bothered me. (F) Even if something sinks to the bottom, it won’t arrive there in the position it started at the top. (T) And what they did find after they started checking the records, was that there are about 200 of those planes crashed along the coast. And, there was another guy who said that he found one of those planes, only it wasn’t one of Flight 19. I have a question… What happened to the PBY plane that went out searching for Flight 19?
A: Still trying to find the Avengers.
Q: (T) Is it in the same parallel reality with Flight 19?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Will it ever find them?
A: ?
Q: (L) In the perception of the crew of Flight 19, how much time has passed?
A: None.
Q: (J) So, they have no idea. (S) I wonder if they will come back to our time or go back to their time?
A: Your perception.
I think we are beginning to get some idea of how truly strange, wonderful and plastic our reality is. Perhaps this Wave is a facilitator for that plasticity, and that different groups and belief systems will manifest certain realities at the point in time that it “hits,” thereby collapsing the wave-form of our macrocosmic reality? Just a thought, and maybe it has more to do with belief systems than what one thinks. But, that is a subject that we will deal with at another time. Suffice it to say: yes, we do create our own reality; but not in the sense that is generally thought or taught by the standard New Age philosophies.
The next two small comments that relate to The Wave came from the same session:
Q: (L) We would like to know what the Christian Cross represents at a deeper level? Does it have anything to do with “Realm Border Crossing.”
A: Part of the Lizzie disinformation campaign, sorry! Cross is “cross” in English only.
A therapist friend of mine was present and she had been experiencing very strange things while working on me subsequent to an auto accident I was in. So she asked:
Q: (S) Why, when holding acupuncture points on Laura, do I get the sweats so bad I feel like I am absolutely roasting? I can’t even be in this room where they do the channeling without breaking into a heavy sweat!
A: Because you are undergoing changes relating to the approach of the wave.
I should add that I experience this rather frequently myself during meditation, communicating with the Cassiopaeans, and sometimes when I simply begin to think about some of the concepts the Cassiopaeans have talked about. It feels rather like having a raging fever, and I have taken my temperature during these episodes with nothing showing on the thermometer. Yet, anyone who touches me also begins to perspire. This last fact persuaded me that I wasn’t just having a hormonal “hot-flash.”
The next excerpts I am adding were not in the original version of this chapter of The Wave. However, since they add information to the data bank, I think it is important to include them here now.
June 22, 1996
Q: (V) A few weeks ago several of us began to suffer from internal heat, insomnia, and other things. What was this?
A: Image. Deep conjunction of fibrous linkage in DNA structure.
Q: (V) Well, I want to know if it is in my mind that I get so hot, or does my body temperature actually elevate?
A: Only on 4th.
Q: (V) I don’t understand.
A: Bleed through, get used to those!
Q: (L) Does this mean we are actually experiencing a bleed through of fourth density?
A: Image.
Q: (V) Are the little flashes of light I see also a manifestation of this?
A: Maybe so, but try to concentrate on the ethereal significance, rather than the physical.
Q: (L) When you say “deep conjunction of fibrous linkage,” does this mean that we are conjoining with a linkage to a fourth density body that is growing, developing?
A: Slowly, but surely. Now, get ready for a message: We have told you before that the upcoming “changes” relate to the spiritual and awareness factors rather than the much publicized physical. Symbolism is always a necessary tool in teaching. But, the trick is to read the hidden lessons represented by the symbology, not to get hung up on the literal meanings of the symbols!
Q: (L) You say that the symbology has to do with hidden meanings. The symbology that you used was “image” and “deep fibrous linkage” of DNA. Now, is that a physical, symbolic image?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is your definition of “image?” We have many.
A: Learning is fun, Laura, as you have repeatedly found!
Q: (L) Well, I am so hot now that I really want to know! And, how come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?
A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.
Q: (L) Image. DNA linkage. (V) “Power” was in quotes.
A: Leave that alone for now, you will know soon enough.
Q: (V) Is this fourth density body something that already exists so that we could communicate with it?
A: Habeas Corpus?
Q: (V) Well, they just said… (L) Well, what they must mean is that you are it — you are transforming little by little and all of the unpleasant little side-effects are just part of it.
A: Yes.
***
December 28, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, while we are waiting for Ark’s response, I have a question. I am burning up! What is the reason for this unbearable heat I am suffering?
A: Heat means fourth density bleed through.
Q: (L) I am about to die of heat, and I know it is cold in here. When you say fourth density bleed through, what do you mean?
A: Oozing of faint reflections of new reality.
***
January 14, 1995
Q: (L) You have said that when the Wave arrives that you will merge with us. Is this the same thing that you are talking about when you say that you are us in the future?
A: No.
Q: (L) So, we are talking about two separate events or subjects, or two separate points in space/time, is that correct?
A: No. You are again slipping into trying to apply third density logic to higher levels of density reality.
Q: (L) So, we are not talking about the same event…
A: What is “future,” anyway?
Q: (L) The future is simultaneous events, just different locales in space/time, just a different focus of consciousness, is that correct?
A: Yea, so if that is true, why try to apply linear thinking here, you see, we are merging with you right now!
This merging that produces such extraordinary heat was still a bit of a question in the back of my mind for quite awhile until one day I found a reference to the phenomenon in the work of the Sufi Shaykh Ibn al-‘Arabi (The Sufi Path of Knowledge, by William Chittick):
A State is that which enters in upon the heart without self-exertion or the attempt to attract it. … [T]he State is the changing of the attributes of the servant… State signifies certain dimensions of spiritual realization, it denotes the special powers that accrue to the servant… [T]he State is in conjunction with terms denoting extraordinary feats or miracles … producing effects in the outside world through concentration… The possessors of the States engender things through resolve and throw secondary causes far from themselves.
Considering what the Cassiopaeans had said about merging, the following points in al-‘Arabi’s discussion of the “states” take on considerable significance:
When an angel brings a ruling or knowledge to the servant, the human spirit encounters the imaginal form and through the giving and receiving, which are two lights, the constitution becomes excited and inflamed.
In the two lights, the native heat of the constitution is strengthened and the magnitude of the light is increased. The color of the servant’s face changes because of this and it is the most intense State that might be. The bodily moistures ascend in vapors and this is caused by the compression undergone by the natures when the two spirits meet.
When the possessor of the state regains his composure, the heat abates and the constitution increases in coldness and the cold overcomes the heat and the possessor of the state begins to shiver. All of this is the descent of a spiritual attribute upon the heart.
The word hal, or State, is derived from the root from which we get ‘self-transmutation’ or to change from one situation to another.” (emphasis added)
I came across the description of the states quite by accident, but very synchronistically, after a certain event that I described in still another session as follows:
August 24, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, I have two quick questions. Last Sunday morning, after the session the previous night, I had a very strange experience similar to what Al-‘Arabi describes as being in a “State”. It was like being taken up into a condition of near madness [like being inside a vision], Ark was there [in the vision], and then, when it became unbearable, [the energy began] pulling back, and I was left so cold I was shaking and rocking. I was shivering like I would never get warm and I could feel my soul rocking in my body. I would like to know exactly what this was?
A: Balancing of half-self.
Q: (L) What is a half-self?
A: Your starter version, relating to birth karmic imprint.
Q: (L) What in the world does that mean?
A: What you were assigned with at the onset of this incarnation.
Q: (L) Do you mean that this was ‘starting’ something? Like a starter in a car?
A: No, what you started with. This must be periodically re-balanced at apex of significant junctures.
Q: (L) The next thing that happened was that a few days later, I went into another state. [I was almost unconscious, but I kept working on mastering this state, and trying to open my eyes, and all I could see was living light. Everything I looked at was light. After this continued for awhile, I heard my computer ping, and the visionary state was broken. After I recovered, I checked my email. Ark had just sent an excited message.] He had just seen me come in the window. What happened?
A: Learning is fun!
Looking at this from a slightly different angle, there is the incident that is included in a later chapter but also ought to be included here. The session was one in which a guest had brought an “aura camera” and a couple of strange photos resulted. In the following excerpt, “AM” is the guest with the camera.
January 20, 1996
Q: (AM) Take a deep breath and hold… [Aura photo of L is taken.]
We waited a few minutes for the photo to develop and when it did, it was totally unlike the aura photos taken of all the other participants at this session. Since the camera is essentially taking a photo and superimposing another image on it, it should at least show the physical outlines of the subject. It didn’t.
Q: (L) [Looking at aura photo of self.] This is very strange, guys. How come I am not in this picture and F shows up in his? Why have I physically disappeared?
A: Learning builds spiritual growth, and awareness “solidifies” knowledge.
Q: (L) Okay, guys, smile for the camera! [Aura photo of board is taken with L’s and F’s fingers on planchette.] (L) Okay, but that does not explain why I disappeared.
A: Because the energy field enclosure was unifying you with the conduit, as is usual during channeling sessions between third and 6th density level communications.
Q: [Photo of board develops, and geometric figure appears to sounds of amazement from group.] (L) What is this geometric figure?
A: Was a visual representation of the conduit, indeed!!! The reason for such clear luminescence is that thought centers were clear and open in you at the moment of the photograph. In other words, there was an imbalance of energy coming from sixth density transmission point. So, what you are viewing is 100 per cent pure light energy of uncorrupted knowledge transmitted through you. This has never been seen in third density ever before. You do not completely realize the ramifications of this yet, but you will. We have made history here tonight folks!!!!!
In the photo to the right, you can see my hand at the right and Frank’s hand at the left with our fingers resting lightly on the little plastic planchette.
As I have written at the beginning of this volume, I began writing The Wave Series and other articles as a way of collecting excerpts together in general subjects. As I published them, more and more readers asked questions. In my attempts to give answers to them, as the Cassiopaeans had given to me, I found that a truly extraordinary thing began to happen.
The Cassiopaean Experiment had resulted in transmissions from myself “in the future,” and I realized that by doing the suggested research, by digging for the answers based on the clues given me, I was becoming myself in the future — a cosmic self. I began to see what I had been trying to convey to myself from this superconscious state. The years of experimental work had created a new circuit wherein it was possible to simply ask a question in my mind about the subject at hand, and the answer would flow through my fingers onto the keyboard. I was often as amazed at what came out as anyone.
I asked the C’s (myself in the future) about it, and here was what they said:
September 23, 2000
Q: (L) I have to say that the writing of this [Wave] series has been one of the most educational projects I have ever undertaken. Because, in the writing, I have had to comb through the transcripts and have had to explain it to other people and before I can do that, I have to explain it to myself. It has become a profound mind expansion thing…
A: Good.
Q: (L) It’s almost as much fun to be learning the things I am having to assemble as if I were reading it. And I’m the one writing it. It’s really quite amazing.
A: In part you are [writing].
I finally understood what the Cassiopaeans meant when they said:
June 9, 1996
Q: (L) Al-‘Arabi describes unified thought forms as being the “Names of God.” His explication seems to be so identical to things you tell us that I wonder…
A: We are all the names of God. Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance.
Q: (L) What do you mean? Does this mean that we are a part of this?
A: Yes. Don’t deify us. And, be sure all others with which you communicate understand this too!
Q: (L) What quality in us, what thing, enabled us to make contact. Because, obviously a lot of people try and get garbage.
A: You asked.
Q: (L) A lot of people ask!
A: No they don’t, they command.
Q: (L) Well, a lot of people do ask or beg or plead, but they get all discombobulated with the answers.
A: No, they command. Think about it. You did not beg or plead… that is commanding.
So it seems that, by this time, I was truly merging with “Myself in the Future” and I had direct access to this awareness through my writing, showing me how to assemble and edit the material together after I had made such a mess of it in the original question and answer phase. It was as though the long period of working with the board had developed a circuit that bypassed my conscious mind and worked directly through my hands.
The idea of the Names of God as explicated by Ibn Al-‘Arabi an discussed in my book Secret History also assists us in understanding what the Cassiopaeans meant when they said “We are where we are.”
Certainly, this process of working with the material creatively has come under a great deal of attack from those who would like to deify the Cassiopaeans and declare that the material “belongs to humanity” and that I have no right to research it, examine it, correct it, or otherwise refine it. I find that attitude to be quite disturbing.
In any event, this discussion indicates to us, perhaps, something of a foretaste of the effect of The Wave upon mankind — or at least portions of mankind. Perhaps these experiences give us an inkling of what fourth density might be like?
I can verify that such a condition is followed by a coldness that cannot be alleviated for some time. I have alternately burned and shivered many times as a consequence of certain meditative exercises, not to mention participation in the channeling process. And of course, there is the very interesting visionary states that may include bi-location.
The important thing to note is that it denotes a change from one situation to another, and is described as self transmutation. I suspect that The Wave is an energy source that will interact with every individual according to his or her frequency resonance. To some, it may indeed be the End of the World. But for others…
“Meantime, the world in which we exist has other aims. But it will pass away, burned up in the fire of its hot passions: and from its ashes will spring a new and younger world, full of fresh hope, with the light of morning in its eyes.”
…Bertrand Russell
1 This illustration comes from Jacob and Wilhelm Grimm, Grimm’s Fairy Tales (London: Blackie & Son, 1903), Helen Stratton, illustrator.
2 When two metals contact, a voltage difference is established across the interface…the so-called contact potential difference…with a magnitude from a couple of tenths to a few volts. If the metals are “well-defined” metals, the contact potential difference can be calculated from the work functions, i.e., the energy it takes to remove a loosely bound electron from the metal. It should be stressed, however, that this charge exchange between metals only gives rise to what we normally understand as static electricity when the two metals are separated extremely quickly, such as when a metal powder is blown against a metal surface.
In between the MUFON “Demo” session in March of 1995, and the visit of Dr. Santilli in May of the same year, there was another strange concept that the Cassiopaeans introduced to us that relates, it seems, to The Wave. I did not insert it in the chronological sequence because I felt it would have distracted from the series of events that resulted from our interactions with MUFON, but in a certain way, it connects them — though the connection was only apparent in retrospect.
In this session again, in an unusual way, the Cassiopaeans brought up a matter, which led us step by step into the idea they wanted us to grasp; and this time T was the catalyst. I think it would be better for you, the reader, to read it exactly as it happened without any prior commentary, saving all that for afterward. I have put a couple of remarks in italics just so you might keep them in mind.
April 29, 1995
Q: (L) Well, we were a little late getting started tonight…
A: T, was it October 1964?
Q: (L) To what does this question refer?
A: Ask T! Lake, yellow brick and brown brick buildings, cool day, fences, large cobalt colored cylinder, oscillating…
Q: (T) I would have been fourteen. I was a freshman… my father’s cousin had a place at Keuka Lake and we used to go there and visit all the time… fences? I don’t remember anything. I’m sorry. I’m drawing a blank.
A: Images we see… Now we see Victorian houses, green gabled roof… field… brown brick buildings…
Q: (T) October?
A: We asked you.
Q: (T) Dark blue? (J) Cobalt blue. (T) Dark blue, almost a black color? (J) Cobalt is a bright blue.
A: Cobalt is metallic navy blue.
Q: (T) Well, my brother wasn’t home… I know what you are talking about! Yes, I did see something. I don’t know if it was in October of 1964, but I remember seeing it!
A: Okay, now we are getting somewhere… what do you think happened to you that day?
Q: (T) I don’t remember anything happening other than that I saw the object; it came floating over the house and then floated off in the other direction. I don’t remember anything else happening. I stood outside, watched it come, watched it go; and I stood outside and watched it for quite some time.
A: Neighborhood, what appearance?
Q: (T) It looked just like the neighborhood. It didn’t seem any different. I don’t remember…
A: Describe…
Q: (T) There was a Fifties development out on the edge of the city limits of Rochester, surrounded by most of Kodak — out in that area — most of Rochester; across the street was a field with a schoolyard surrounded by a fence. A large, two-story brown school building, brown, or red brick… that I went to grammar school in. I don’t know about yellow brick buildings, but our house was green at the time and the next door neighbor’s house was yellow at the time with white fancy little trim stuff across the roof. It wasn’t gabled, but it looked gabled. There were little gables over the front doors of most of the houses. The doors came out to the front and there was a little peak. There was a stadium on the other side of the schoolyard, a ways back for Aquinas football games and their stadium. Some fields and one of the last remaining wooded areas that was in the city limits that wasn’t a park down the street… a set of railroad tracks about five blocks to the East. The lake, Lake Ontario, Rochester is right up against it, we were about seven miles, eight miles from there, maybe ten. I used to ride up there on my bike and back… The neighborhood itself didn’t look any different because I watched the thing come in over the field. I remember my mother, I don’t know if my brother was there, but I remember my mother and my neighbor. The neighbor woman was standing out on the front walk talking and they called me because I was in the house watching TV. I don’t know if it was October though because it was still warm, sunny. It came in from high over the West, over a field, by the stadium, came down toward us, and came right toward us. I thought it was moving right at us. It didn’t start moving right at us until we were looking at it…
A: Was.
Q: (T) Yes. Was moving toward us. It seemed to change direction when I came out and started looking at it. It went right over and…
A: Objective was you.
Q: (T) The objective was me? I don’t think I was picked up at that time.
A: Oh yeah?
Q: (T) Well there were people standing there…
A: Time “freezes” during abduction.
Q: (T) The object had the distinctive falling leaf motion to it, which I thought was an extremely odd thing for it to do. It came right over the edge of the house on the side of the house, where, sometime in later years, I had something happen to me when I was in the basement. It was right over where I would have been sleeping…
A: Oscillating.
Q: (T) I thought it sure looked metallic and I wished I had a little pellet gun and could pop a pellet at it; it wasn’t more than about fifty feet up in the air. It was maybe ten to fifteen feet long and maybe about three or four feet around. It looked like a wiener rounded on both ends but not as fat; it was longer and thinner. (F) It looked like a hotdog? (T) It looked metallic to me. It was smooth, perfectly smooth. (L) What are we getting to here? This was obviously brought up for a reason. If T was abducted…
A: Crossroads.
Q: (L) It was a crossroads in T’s life?
A: And now… connection completed.
Q: (T) I’m not following this…
A: Access your recent dreams.
Q: (T) Recent dreams… I dreamed something about moving into a building and I had something that had a power cord or something that went outside… a connection of some kind… I don’t remember them… they are just very vivid. Could something have happened to me just recently that started with that experience?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) It has to do with what we are doing here, but this isn’t the completed connection we are talking about?
A: Not exactly.
Q: (T) The connection that was completed was all about something else?
A: Interrelated.
Q: (T) Does it have to do with my job?
A: In part.
Q: (T) Does it have to do with the fact that I am saying certain things to people at work, or wherever I can, when I talk about events that are happening these days and trying to raise their level of thinking on these things?
A: Yes, now, let’s explore your friends and relationships and experiences in the years immediately following the event to see if we can “dig up” something of startling significance!!!
Q: (T) Are we sure this is 1964 and not 1974?
A: T, you know better!
Q: (T) I’m just asking because that event and the event that happened in winter with the voices outside the window and all the weirdness that happened that night seemed to be a lot closer together and that other event happened in the 70s, sometime. That was somewhere close to my trip out to Arizona and the weirdness out there with the car and all that.
A: Oh, there is sooooo much, isn’t there T! It is time to divulge.
Q: (T) After high school. But, in those days I was mainly hanging out with some people I met over at Edison. Tom ****, a lot of people named Tom. I used to go to the lake and take drives around it at night. We just used up gas. I felt comfortable because I did a lot of things but most of the people I knew didn’t get along with each other. I still do this today; I have learned from hard experience that I can’t mix my friends. I learned at that time that every person in any group had a counterpart in any other group. Groups may be different, but they all have the same make-up, and I was always “my” person in each of a number of groups. There was nobody in any of the groups I hung out with that was like me; I was that individual for several groups. Does it have to do with when I got my driver’s license and we all used to drive around a lot out in the country? We drove all through the lakes area…
A: Some.
Q: (T) We used to drive all through the hills out there at night… long drives. (L) Did something happen on one of these drives?
A: Maybe…
Q: (T) Does this have something to do with that bizarre town I came across one night and never was able to find again? Is that tied in here somehow?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Strangest town I have ever seen. Talk about David Lynch! I was driving down through southwest New York one night. I was out of high school. I used to get stoned then too, so a lot of my experiences aren’t dependable because I got stoned. I went through a town one night down there in the Southern Tier, in the Finger Lakes area, and it was the strangest thing. I have been through all these little towns, and there’s usually people and stuff. Not a lot, but at least somebody around. It was about nine or ten o’clock, and I went through this town; it was two story buildings built right up to this two lane main street, with a little narrow sidewalk, and it was like driving into a canyon, and the buildings went straight up into the air. There was a streetlight every so far, but they were those little yellowish bulbs that don’t cast much light on the street. There was absolutely nobody out there. There was nobody in any of the buildings, they were all boarded up and shut down. It looked like a town but it didn’t look like a town. It went about four blocks. I came back out of it, turned around and drove through it again because I didn’t believe it. I could never find it again, and I didn’t know the name of it.
A: Discover.
Q: (S) It was the Twilight Zone… (T) Was this town…?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You drove into another reality. (T) It wasn’t really a town, was it?
A: Nope.
Q: (T) It gave me the willies. And, I turned around and drove through it a second time because I didn’t believe it was there. (S) Were you by yourself? (T) Yes, I was all alone. There was nobody with me. One signal light that looked like it was out of the 1920s. Old street lamps… like a ghost town, literally. (L) What are you guys trying to tell us here about T or through T? Was the recent, connected event you mentioned private to T and happened in his life only?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Each of my relationships then was with an individual who thought for themselves, they understood things; they had their own experiences that were different from most people, and knew that most people could not relate or understand. It doesn’t have to be abduction experiences, but they have had life experiences…
A: Yes, but that is the sign of something more significant.
Q: (T) Is it the fact that I am able to form relationships with vastly different types of individuals?
A: All originate from same “plane.”
Q: (L) In other words, he formed relationships with others like himself? And, did they all originate from the same plane, as in somewhere else?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Did the ship we started off with have a lot to do with interacting with all of these other people that T formed friendships and relationships with subsequent to this time?
A: Yes, but not central issue.
Q: (T) Do we all share a common experience?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Do they all share a common origin?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that origin?
A: Neormm.
Q: (L) Neormm?
A: Closest English equivalent.
Q: (L) Is that a place?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where is it?
A: Check star guides.
Q: (T) Is this a star? All of us are from another star that I’ve formed relationships like that with — the special ones that I would consider lasting?
A: In perpendicular reality.
Q: (L) All right! Where are we now? We have discovered that T has a thing called a “Perpendicular Reality” that has been running through his life and probably is an ongoing thing, is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What is a perpendicular reality?
A: Intersection is at realm border.
Q: (L) So, in other words, you could follow along in your mind to the realm border because you have an intersecting reality with it. Is that correct?
A: No. They merge.
Q: (L) Okay, we have discovered the significance of the fact that T is part alien with a perpendicular alien reality that causes him to interact with other people who also have these perpendicular realities. What’s the point? [Laughter] (S) Something to do! (J) It’s a hobby.
A: “Point” is third density concept, and you need “refresher” course!
Q: (T) “Remedial Cassiopaean 101.” (L) Well, I am just trying to understand what this whole thing is all about. What are we getting at here?
A: Then learn from what we communicate to you and what you already have “locked up” inside of you, i.e. time to get the key!
Q: (L) What I think is, maybe everybody does this, right now on the planet; there are always different groups that are forming connections with other people with whom they share an alternate reality. (J) In other words, we are all being attracted to each other? (F) Right. That makes sense. (L) In which case, what alternate reality do we share or do we share no alternate reality and is each person a representative of an alternate reality different from each other and are a connection point?
A: Latter concept is exactly correct!
Q: (T) We are what is common to each other in our group?
A: What did we say about increasing power?
Q: (L) Regarding “keys,” I have heard the concept, written or talked about, that certain people, or perhaps everybody, have locked up inside themselves “pockets of energy,” for lack of a better term, or knowledge as in electromagnetic patterning in their fields… and forming groups in this way would be…
A: Like putting together the pieces of the puzzle.
Q: (L) We are the pieces of the puzzle?
A: Draw on a piece of paper one perpendicular intersection.
Q: [We get paper and draw figure.] (L) Like that?
A: No, make it like an upside down “T”
Q: [T tries again.] (L) Why don’t you just draw it on the board for us? [Clamps pencil next to planchette on piece of paper.] Okay guys, draw! [The planchette draws an inner circle surrounded by an outer circle, connected by seven spokes — rather like a wagon wheel.]
Q: (J) Is this like a crop circle?
A: Has been done, yes. Designates union of perpendicular realities.
Q: (L) Was the town that T went through one of the perpendicular reality towns?
A: Close. You need seven spokes.
Q: (L) There’s that number seven again! Each person in the group is a spoke?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there more to this concept that we are going to discover as we go along?
A: Of course!
Q: (L) Once the seven spokes are in place in terms of persons, is that going to increase our power/knowledge exponentially?
A: Explosively.
Q: (T) Okay, we have the image on the paper with seven spokes. What do we do with it next?
A: Open. Will fall into place, now you must ponder the significance and we must say goodnight!
When reading back over this session with hindsight, it seems to me that the “completed connection” the Cassiopaeans referred to might have been the fact that T brought our little group together with the MUFON group, which then led to the “Demo” session at the second MUFON group, and subsequently, to the “Santilli Session” which had significant repercussions later that were unforeseen by us at the time. But, actually, I think that the hints in this session really deserve deeper analysis, particularly regarding the strange stellar location designated as “Neormm” by the Cassiopaeans. This session is still a puzzle to me, and if anyone has any insights, I will appreciate hearing them.
We did come back to the issue of “Perpendicular Realities” a little later, and the subject was expanded in a very interesting way:
June 17, 1995
Q: (T) Several sessions back when we were discussing “Perpendicular Realities” you were talking about something that happened to me and that I had to look back over my life and analyze my relationships with other people from a certain point up until now and you said that this was a perpendicular reality. What is the definition of a perpendicular reality?
A: The perpendicular reality primarily, though not exclusively, refers to one’s life path and how one’s life path fits together in the cycle or in a wheel when connected with those of a similar life path. If you can picture an inlaid wheel formed by a circle within a circle, and adjoining partitions in a perfect balance, that would be the best representation of perpendicular reality for it does not completely involve one individual’s experience, but rather a group of individuals’ experience for the progression of a greater purpose, if you understand what we mean. This is what we mean when we say: “perpendicular reality.” Picture again, a circle within a circle adjoined by equally spaced partitions in a perfect cycle. That is perpendicular reality.
Q: (T) You had us draw this symbol and put seven spokes or partitions between the two circles.
A: Correct.
Q: (T) Is seven the optimal number?
A: Seven is always the optimal number. There are seven levels of density. This reflects through all phases of reality.
Q: (T) The people that I interacted with during this time, they also have gone on to do other things that they were supposed to be doing because of their interaction with me in this perpendicular reality that we all existed in?
A: That’s correct.
Q: (T) You also said that each of us in this group came from a different perpendicular reality.
A: That is correct.
Q: (T) Is it at this point where we merge our different perpendicular realities in order to learn from each other’s experiences?
A: That could be described as correct.
Q: (L) It was said at the time that the inner circle was the connection with this reality and that the outer circle and connecting segments were where the perpendicular reality is “joined with the wave.” Is it implied in that statement that the forming of this conduit through these perpendicular realities is instrumental in bringing forth this wave, bringing forth this change, this dimensional shift, or density shift, and is that something that is being done in other places?
A: We wish to congratulate you for asking six questions in one. [(T) One more question and you would have a perfect perpendicular question!] Mirth!
Q: (L) Are we connected in some way with the Wave, individually and as a group?
A: Well, of course. Everything is connected to the wave.
Q: (L) Are we, by connecting into this wheel, so to speak, activating the Wave in some way?
A: We are not clear about your interesting interpretation there, but it is true that you have an interactive relationship with the wave… However, as stated before, you are in an interactive relationship with the wave in a sense, in that the wave is a part of your reality, always has been and always will be. And, of course, it does involve your progress through the Grand Cycle. And the perpendicular reality is again, of course, advancement from the core outward, which is yet another reflection of all reality and all that exists. Now, we wish to return to the visual representation as mentioned previously. If you notice the core circle connects with all seven sections to the outer circle. Now, picture that outer circle as being an ever expanding circle, and each one of the seven segments as being an ever-expanding line. Of course, now, this will expand outward in a circular or cyclical pattern. Please picture visually an expanding outer circle and a non-expanding inner circle. Contemplate that and then please give us your feelings as to what that represents.
Q: (L) Does it represent an expansion of our knowledge and consciousness?
A: That’s part of it.
Q: (L) Does it represent also expanding influence of what and who we are on that which is around us?
A: That is correct. Contemplate if you will, the ever-expanding outer circle and the non-expanding inner circle, and of course the seven partitions also moving outwardly. What type of shape does that form in your mind’s eye?
Q: (L) A wheel?
A: Is that all?
Q: (T) A pie?
A: Keep going.
Q: (L) An eye.
A: Now we are starting to turn it into a sphere! Why would it turn into a sphere?
Q: (L) How can it turn into a sphere?
A: How can it not!
Q: (SV) It is going in all directions, not just flat…
A: Is a straight line a straight line or a…
Q: (L) Oh, you’re not talking about a circle?
A: We are talking about a circle. What becomes of a circle if you expand it outward forever?
Q: (J) It disappears.
A: It disappears? How can it disappear? Where does it disappear to? We ask you that, J? J?
Q: (J) Visually, as the outer circle expands, the inner circle becomes smaller and smaller until it disappears. As you continue to expand out with the outer circle, the inner circle disappears.
A: But where does it disappear to?
Q: (J) A black hole?
A: A black hole. Well, that’s a possibility. But, we really didn’t want you to concentrate so heavily on the smaller circle, now did we? It’s the outer circle.
Q: (T) The outer circle is used to encompass more and more.
A: And what shape does it begin to take on? We want you to look at this outer circle expanding outward!
Q: (J) Are we to assume that the seven spokes remain the same size in relation to the circle?
A: Well, answer that question for yourself.
Q: (L) Okay, we are looking at it as a plane representation. As a flat surface.
A: Well, what happens to a flat surface if you extend it outward forever?
Q: (L) Well, we don’t know. That, that… (SV) It keeps on going.
A: It keeps on going?
Q: (L) Yeah, bigger and flatter!
A: It does? What happens to a line if you extend it forever and ever?
Q: (L and S) It keeps on going.
A: It does? Where does it go to?
Q: (SV) Forever. (J) Back to itself. (L) We don’t know that.
A: Oh, someone said “Back to itself.” And why don’t we know that?
Q: (L) Because we don’t. It is conjectured that space is curved…
A: “Because we don’t know.” Now, why don’t we know?
Q: (L) Because we haven’t been there.
A: Had Columbus been outside of Italy and Spain?
Q: (L) Well, of course Columbus had an idea that there was something but he hadn’t been there, no. But he went and checked it out.
A: Did he have just an idea?
Q: (L) Well, pretty much, I guess.
A: Hmmm. That’s not the way we remember it. The way we remember it is that he had instinct and imagination and when he married his instinct with imagination, it became reality. And, when it became reality, he had created a reality which he was fully confident would be manifest in the physical third density reality. It wasn’t that he was confident. He knew it to be so. He didn’t stop himself by adding prejudice to the equation, which is what you are doing when you say: “Well, we don’t know what happens because we have never been there!” Think logically, please. We have told you so many times that everything is a Grand Cycle. If it’s a Grand Cycle, we have told you about circles within circles. We have told you about cycles. We have told you about short wave cycles and long wave cycles. Now, after all this information that you have asked of us, which we have more than happily given to you, would you expect that a straight line would just go out forever and ever and ever as a straight line? How could it possibly do that? What happens, if you take, on your third density earth, and you draw a straight line to the East or to the West or to the North or to the South…?
Q: (J) It comes all the way back to itself.
A: Right…
Q: (L) Okay, so we’re living in a big globe!
A: Are we?
Q: (L) Well, that is what it sounds like, a big circle?
A: Oh, my, my, my. You need more study and learning, my dear. Need more study. Even your Albert Einstein had a theory about what happened.
Q: (L) Yes, but that was just a theory.
A: Oh, well we guess then it must be dropped. We’ll never know. It’s just a theory. Well, we’ll just forget about it.
Q: (T) I’m still expanding the circle… (SV) Me too.
A: Very good, that was the idea. It keeps going and going and going.
Q: (L) Well, mine does too, but it hasn’t come back and met anything. So, what’s the point?
A: Does there need to be a point?
Q: (L) Of course!
A: Who says? We are trying to help you learn. When do you expect to shut down this process?
Q: (J) Never. (L) Gee, I hope never.
A: Then there never is a point!
Q: (J) Point taken! (L) There is no point. [Laughter.] Well, if you expand the circle outward and continue expanding it in all directions, it pulls the seven spokes with it, which encompasses more and more space in a cross section, and then turns that circle, you have a sphere.
A: Precisely. But Laura says that means we are living in a big globe. And, maybe we are.
Q: (T) Well, it wouldn’t be a big globe, so to speak; it would only be a big globe within the circle. If the circle continues to expand, it would just continue to go outward and outward and the globe would become bigger and bigger and bigger… (L) You’re making me nervous… (T) But it goes outward forever… ’cause there is no end to going out…
A: There isn’t?
Q: (SV) Nope.
A: Well, then maybe there’s no beginning.
Q: (T) Well, there wouldn’t be a beginning, just a big, open void. An infinite void…
A: If there’s no end and no beginning, then what do you have?
Q: (L) No point. (J) The here and now.
A: The here and now which are also the future and the past. Everything that was, is, and will be, all at once. This is why only a very few of your third density persons have been able to understand space travel, because even though traveling into space in your third density is every bit as third density as lying on your bed at night in your comfortable home, the time reference is taken away. Something that you hold very close to your bosom as if it were your mother. And, it is the biggest illusion that you have. We have repeatedly told you over and over that there is no time, and yet, of course, you have been so brainwashed into this concept that you cannot get rid of it no matter what you do, now can you? Imagine going out into space. You’d be lost when confronted with reality that everything is completely all at one? Would you not? Picture yourself floating around in space!
Q: (T) Does the sphere keep expanding… as the circle expands and you turn the circle 180 degrees, you get a sphere. As the sphere continues to expand it, you take a point on the outer edge of the sphere in order to take the sphere about itself; you get a donut, an ever-expanding inner tube. If you take that and twist it, you get an even larger inner tube. It just continues to expand and encompasses more space…
A: And now, when you merge densities, or traverse densities, what you have is the merging of physical reality and ethereal reality, which involves thought form versus physicality. When you can merge those perfectly, what you realize then, is that the reason there is no beginning and no end is merely because there is no need for you to contemplate a beginning or an end after you have completed your development. When you are at union with the One at Seventh density, that is when you have accomplished this and then there is no longer any need for difference between physical and ethereal forms.
Q: (SV) I want to ask one question: If there is no time, there is no past and no future; there are no past lives and no future lives, there is no such thing as reincarnation, then how can you be us…
A: Yes, there is reincarnation. You are getting ahead of yourself there. We never said there is no reincarnation.
Q: (SV) But, if there is no time? (J) It is our perception of it. (L) It is all happening simultaneously. We are having all of these lifetimes at once. (SV) Is there a way that we can connect ourselves with all our other selves?
A: Picture it this way: we will access some of your memory banks and give you another reference which, interestingly enough, fits very closely with the perpendicular reality wheel that we described earlier. You know what a slide projector looks like? To give you some feeling of what this expanded nature of reality really is, picture yourself watching a big slide presentation with a big slide wheel on the projector. At any given point along the way you are watching one particular slide. But, all the rest of the slides are present on the wheel, are they not? And, of course, this fits in with the perpendicular reality, which fits in with the circles within circles and cycles within cycles, which also fits in the Grand Cycle, which also fits in with what we have told you before: All there is is lessons. That’s all there is. And we ask that you enjoy them as you are watching the slide presentation…
Q: (J) In that analogy, the light that shines through the slide, as it projects it upon the screen, is our perception.
A: And, if you look back at the center of the projector, you see the origin and essence of all creation itself, which, is Level Seven where you are in union with the One.
Now, let’s go in another direction for a moment. Let’s look at my presentation of Ouspensky’s discussion of the fourth dimension of time, as drawn from his book, Tertium Organum:
We say that space is infinite — that it is illimitable in both scope and direction. (There may be some who postulate an outer limit to space, but what they propose as being outside that limit is an even greater difficulty than that of infinity.) Space, as we perceive it, has only three dimensions: length, width, and height. We define this condition as three independent directions — that is, each measurement lies at right angles to the others simultaneously.
But, this is a contradiction. For, if space is infinite, then it must possess an infinite number of lines perpendicular and not parallel to one another.
Is infinity then foolishness, and does space necessarily have a limit? If it does have a limit, in what space does our space exist? But, if space does possess an infinite number of lines perpendicular to one another, then we must ask why we can only perceive three. If we exist in a condition of mind that perceives only three dimensions, this must mean that the properties of space are created — or differentiated — by certain attributes within us. For some reason or another, the Whole is inaccessible to us.
Ouspensky wrote in an essay in 1908, entitled “The Fourth Dimension”:
We may have very good reason for saying that we are ourselves beings of four dimensions and we are turned towards the third dimension with only one of our sides, i.e., with only a small part of our being. Only this part of us lives in three dimensions, and we are conscious only of this part as our body. The greater part of our being lives in the fourth dimension, but we are unconscious of this greater part of ourselves. Or it would be still more true to say that we live in a four-dimensional world, but are conscious of ourselves only in a three dimensional world.
The fact is, Ouspensky was greatly influenced in his thinking by Charles Howard Hinton, an English mathematician. But, long before Hinton had a clue about the ideas of the “fourth dimension,” there was Georg Bernhard Riemann.
Michio Kaku tells the story in his book Hyperspace: A Scientific Odyssey Through Parallel Universes, Time Warps, and the 10th Dimension (Oxford University Press, 1994) and I have pretty much followed his outline, though reducing the length and complexity of the story.
On June 10, 1854, at the University of Gottingen, Germany, Riemann gave a lecture entitled On the Hypotheses Which Lie at the Foundation of Geometry, sounding the death knell of the classical, linear view of the universe and introduced the theory of higher dimensions. As I have written elsewhere, the prevailing view of physics eventually filters down to affect all our cultural and social interactions, and it was only thirty or so years after Riemann’s talk that the “mysterious fourth dimension” would begin to profoundly affect art, philosophy and literature.
Sixty years after, Einstein used four-dimensional Riemannian geometry to explain the creation of the Universe and its evolution, and 130 years later, physicists would use ten-dimensional geometry to attempt to unite all the laws of the physical universe.
Euclidean geometry holds that space is three dimensional and “flat.” In flat space, angles in a triangle always add to 180 degrees which omits the possibility that space can be curved, as on a sphere. For two thousand years, Euclid was “king” and all of Christendom marveled at his insights. Cathedrals were built and civilizations were born according to the principles of Euclid. Euclid and the Church — strange, but devoted bedfellows.
Most people can remember struggling with the theorems of Euclid: that the circumference of a circle is pi times the diameter, and that parallel lines never intersect. It was always pretty standard stuff except for one little problem that most people aren’t aware of: try as they would for centuries, the greatest mathematicians simply could not prove these deceptively simple propositions. As long as you stayed in “flatland,” you were safe with Euclid. The instant you wandered into curved space, Euclid was your nemesis.
Riemann rebelled against the so-called “mathematical precision” of Euclid, because it was apparent to him that the natural world is not made up of Euclid’s flat, idealized, geometric figures. It was clear that the real world was made up of curves that bend and twist in infinite variety.
Euclid said, “It is obvious” that a point has no dimension at all. A line has one dimension: length. A plane has two dimensions: length and breadth. A solid has three dimensions: length, breadth, and height. And that’s it! There is no more! Nothing has four dimensions, according to Euclid.
Another Greek who has dominated our culture for a very long time, Aristotle, stated categorically that the fourth spatial dimension was impossible. Ptolemy, the Egyptianized Greek went even further and constructed a “proof” that the fourth dimension was impossible. If you draw three mutually perpendicular lines, and then try to draw a fourth line that is perpendicular to the other three lines, you will discover that it is impossible. More than three mutually perpendicular lines are not only impossible to draw, they are impossible to comprehend.
But, what Ptolemy really did was to demonstrate that it is impossible to visualize the fourth dimension with our three-dimensional brains! Today, mathematicians and physicists know that there are many objects that can be shown to exist mathematically, which cannot be visualized.
As Michio Kaku writes, “Ptolemy may go down in history as the man who opposed two great ideas in science: the sun-centered solar system and the fourth dimension.”
It is a curious thing that many mathematicians, obviously deeply influenced by Christianity, and their faith in the Bible as the “True and only word of God,” regularly denounced the idea of the fourth dimension calling it a “monster in nature.” And so, Euclid and the Church dominated our minds, brainwashing humanity into thinking that things cannot exist that we cannot picture in our minds. It was, oddly enough when you consider the purported spiritual goals of religion, a curious descent into gross materialism.
As mentioned, the story of Riemann and how and why he prepared his famous lecture is nicely told in Michio Kaku’s Hyperspace, well worth reading. But, what concerns us here is that Riemann developed the idea of the metric tensor and also was one of the first to discuss multiple connected spaces, or wormholes. To visualize this, take two sheets of paper and place one on top of the other. Make a little cut on each with knife or scissors, and glue the sheets together along the two cuts only. If a bug lives on the top sheet, he may one day accidentally walk into the cut and find himself on the bottom sheet. He will be puzzled because everything is in the wrong place. After much experimentation, the bug may discover that he can re-emerge into his original world by passing again through the cut. As long as he walks around the cut, everything is fine and looks normal, but when he tries to take the short-cut he has a problem.
Lewis Carroll used “Riemann’s cuts” with great effect in his book Through the Looking-Glass. Riemann’s cut is the looking glass.
Soon after Riemann, researchers all over Europe began to popularize the idea of the fourth dimension for the layperson. As it happened, Riemann’s mathematics was so far in advance of the thinking of the day that there was no physical principle to guide further research. It was only after another hundred years had passed that physicists even caught up with him! But, one thing that did happen was the realization that a being from the fourth dimension would have what would seem to us, God-like powers. Kaku writes:
Imagine being able to walk through walls.
You wouldn’t have to bother with opening doors; you could pass right through them. You wouldn’t have to go around buildings; you could enter them through their walls and pillars and out through the back wall. You wouldn’t have to detour around mountains; you could step right into them. When hungry, you could simply reach through the refrigerator door without opening it. You could never be accidentally locked outside your car; you could simply step through the car door.
Imagine being able to disappear or reappear at will.
Instead of driving to school or work, you would just vanish and rematerialize in your classroom or office. You wouldn’t need an airplane to visit far-away places, you could just vanish and rematerialize where you wanted. You would never be stuck in city traffic during rush hours; you and your car would simply disappear and rematerialize at your destination.
Imagine having x-ray eyes.
You would be able to see accidents happening from a distance. After vanishing and rematerializing at the site of any accident, you could see exactly where the victims were, even if they were buried under debris.
Imagine being able to reach into an object without opening it.
You could extract the sections from an orange without peeling or cutting it. You would be hailed as a master surgeon, with the ability to repair the internal organs of patients without ever cutting the skin, thereby greatly reducing pain and the risk of infection. You would simply reach into the person’s body, passing directly through the skin, and perform the delicate operation.
Imagine what a criminal could do with these powers. He could enter the most heavily guarded bank. He could see through the massive doors of the vault for the valuables and case and reach inside and pull them out. He could then stroll outside as the bullets from the guards passed right through him.
With these powers, no prison could hold a criminal. No secrets could be kept from us. No treasures could be hidden from us. No obstructions could stop us. We would truly be miracle workers, performing feats beyond the comprehension of mortals. We would also be omnipotent.
What being could possess such God-like power? The answer: a being from a higher-dimensional world. (emphasis added)
In 1877, a scandal in London brought the idea of the fourth dimension to public awareness in a big way. Kaku relates that a psychic named Henry Slade was holding séances in the homes of prominent people, and was arrested for fraud “using subtle crafts and devices, by palmistry and otherwise.”
Slade was convicted of fraud by the court, but he insisted that he could prove his innocence by duplicating his feats before a scientific commission and Johann Zollner, professor of physics and astronomy at the University of Leipzig, gathered together a group of scientists who were willing to take a scientific look. Their reason for doing so was made public and consisted in declaring that the feats Slade claimed to be doing were, indeed, possible by manipulating objects in the fourth dimension! In so doing, the media coverage gave the public a real idea of just exactly what was possible in this strange world of ours.
Among Slade’s defenders were William Crookes, inventor of the cathode ray tube; Wilhelm Weber, Gauss’s collaborator and the mentor of Riemann; J.J. Thompson, who won the Nobel Prize in 1906 for the discovery of the electron; Lord Rayleigh, one of the greatest classical physicists of the late nineteenth century and winner of the Nobel Prize in 1904. Kaku writes:
First, Slade was given two separate, unbroken wooden rings. Could he push one wooden ring past the other, so that they were intertwined without breaking it? If Slade succeeded, Zollner wrote, it would “represent a miracle, that is, a phenomenon which our conceptions heretofore of physical and organic processes would be absolutely incompetent to explain.”
Second, he was given the shell of a sea snail, which twisted either to the right or to the left. Could Slade transform a right-handed shell into a left-handed shell and vice versa?
Third, he was given a closed loop of rope made of dried animal gut. Could he make a knot in the circular rope without cutting it?
Slade was also given variations of these tests. For example, a rope was tied into a right-handed knot and its ends were sealed with wax and impressed with Zollner’s personal seal. Slade was asked to untie the knot, without breaking the wax seal, and retie the rope in a left-handed knot. Since knots can always be untied in the fourth dimension, this feat should be easy for a fourth-dimensional person. Slade was also asked to remove the contents of a sealed bottle without breaking the bottle.
Could Slade demonstrate this astounding ability?
Today we realize that the manipulation of higher-dimensional space, as claimed by Slade, would require a technology far in advance of anything possible on this planet for the conceivable future. However, what is interesting about this notorious case is that Zollner correctly concluded that Slade’s feats of wizardry could be explained if one could somehow move objects through the fourth dimension.
For example, in three dimensions, separate rings cannot be pushed through each other until they intertwine without breaking them. Similarly, closed, circular pieces of rope cannot be twisted into knots without cutting them. However, in higher dimensions, knots are easily unraveled and rings can be intertwined. This is because there is “more room” in which to move ropes past each other and rings into each other. If the fourth dimension existed, ropes and rings could be lifted off our universe, intertwined, and then returned to our world. In fact, in the fourth dimensions, knots can never remain tied. They can always be unraveled without cutting the rope. This feat is impossible in three dimensions, but trivial in the fourth. The third dimension, as it turns out, is the only dimensions in which knots stay knotted!
Similarly, in three dimensions it is impossible to convert a rigid left-handed object into a right-handed one. Humans are born with hearts on their left side, and no surgeon, no matter how skilled, can reverse human internal organs. This is possible (as first pointed out by mathematician August Mobius in 1827) only if we lift the body out of our universe, rotate it in the fourth dimension, and then reinsert it back into our universe.
Zollner sparked a storm of controversy when, publishing in both the Quarterly Journal of Science and Transcendental Physics, he claimed that Slade amazed his audiences with these “miraculous” feats during séances in the presence of distinguished scientists.
Zollner’s spirited defense of Slade’s feats was sensationalized throughout London society. Supporting Zollner’s claims was his circle of reputable scientists, including Weber and Crookes. These were not average scientists, but masters of the art of science and seasoned observers of experiment. They had spent a lifetime working with natural phenomena, and now before their eyes, Slade was performing feats that were possible only if spirits lived in the fourth dimension.
There were, of course, savage critics and detractors but, in my opinion, none of their arguments hold water. In fact, such evidence has been demonstrated time and again over the centuries, far into the distant past, and there have always been detractors and “savages” criticizing on behalf of their materialist masters or gods.
The interesting thing about Kaku’s descriptions of the abilities of a fourth dimensional being is that they happen to be precisely the type of things that characterize the “alien” phenomenon that interacts with our reality to a greater and greater extent with each passing year. What’s more, there is a great body of evidence that beings with such powers have interacted with humanity for a very long time, though in ages past they were called fairies, demons, vampires, and so forth. Further, these abilities that are being described as “fourth dimensional,” are exactly what the Cassiopaeans term “fourth density,” rather than dimension.
In 1884, after a decade of controversy, Edwin Abbot, headmaster of the City of London School, wrote the novel Flatland: A Romance of Many Dimensions by a Square. Abbot was a clergyman, which wasn’t too surprising because they now had a “place” to put heaven and hell and angels and demons — in the fourth dimension (which probably wasn’t too far off in terms of accuracy!). The unique thing about Flatland was that is was also a biting satire of social criticism. Abbot poked fun at the pious people who denied the possibility of the fourth dimension. It is a book well worth reading for the many examples it makes of bigotry and narrow mindedness that prevail, even today, in scientific and religious communities.
Flatland paved the way for more artistic fourth dimensional expressions, including works by Oscar Wilde, H.G. Wells, Lewis Carroll, Joseph Conrad and others. The development of many of the occult societies including Theosophy was influenced by the ideas of the fourth dimension. It was, as we could say today, the latest fad of that time.
This had a good side and a bad side. On the bad side, serious scientists distanced themselves from the tabloid-like nature of the subject just as they distance themselves from anything having to do with “aliens” today. On the good side, it became a cultural metaphor. Cubism and Expressionism were influenced by the fourth dimensional non-Euclidean geometries.
Charles Howard Hinton brought the fourth dimension to America. At Oxford, Hinton had been trying to figure out ways to visualize the fourth dimension. As a mathematician, he knew that one cannot visualize a four-dimensional object in its entirety, but you can visualize a cross section of one.
After some personal problems, Hinton came to America, worked for a time at Princeton, and later at the Patent Office in Washington. He spent years developing clever ways for the average person to “see” four-dimensional objects. Eventually, he perfected special cubes that, if one tried hard enough, could allow one to visualize hypercubes, or cubes in four dimensions. These would eventually be called Hinton’s cubes. He coined the name for an “unraveled” hypercube: Tesseract.
Flatlanders cannot visualize a cube, but they can conceptualize a three-dimensional cube by unraveling it. To a Flatlander, a cube, when unfolded, resembles a cross, consisting of six squares as the figure below shows. In the same way, we cannot visualize a four-dimensional hypercube but, if we “unfold” it, we have a series of cubes arranged in a cross like Tesseract. Although this looks like a solid, stable object of three dimensions, the idea is to understand that it is really just our representation of the hypercube which is “wrapped up” in 4-dimensional space the same way the “cross” figure “wraps up” into a cube when going from 2-dimensional space to 3-dimensional space.
As the reader might guess, Hinton’s cubes soon became objects of “mystical importance.” It was claimed that a person could catch glimpses of the fourth dimension by meditating on one of them. His disciples spent hours contemplating these cubes until they attained the ability to mentally rearrange and reassemble them via the fourth dimension into a hypercube. Those who could perform this mental feat, it was said, would attain the highest state of nirvana!
Hinton’s greatest contribution to the matter of the fourth dimension was his popularization of higher dimensional figures. These are useful in many ways because even professional mathematicians conceptualize higher-dimensional objects via their cross sections, their unraveling, and their shadows.
The reader might want to have a look at The Monster from Nowhere by Nelson Bond, which describes how a monster from the fourth dimension might manifest in our own. There are some bizarre descriptions that actually reflect some cases of alien manifestation in our own times.
Now, where are we with all of this?
I think we can understand that everyone has a connection to The Wave, or realm border, via a fourth dimension-like cut or wormhole called a perpendicular reality. Whether they can access it or not is another question. And, whether it needs more than one person to produce or manifest the cut is still another. If the latter idea is correct, we might conjecture that groups of seven individuals, if they are the right seven individuals (determined by each group dynamic) can interact in such a way as to bring exponential knowledge and awareness to each and every member of the group, thereby opening the cut, or wormhole, is a further consideration.
Such groups would be called conduits as the Cassiopaeans have denoted them, and, as we learned earlier, a conduit is a sort of escape hatch that can be activated upon the arrival of The Wave.
But, exactly how might such a thing work? Well, as we went along, more bits and pieces of the puzzle came our way though, at this point, the Santilli session was the last time The Wave was discussed for almost a year. We wouldn’t come back to it until June 1996 when much water had gone over the dam and under the bridge. Changes, changes, changes.1
When it finally was discussed again, it was because I started off with a question about something that was seemingly unrelated. And, in this case, the “wave” that was brought up did not seem, at that moment, to be related to The Wave, as we are discussing it. It was only later that we began to suspect a connection.
Just to give a little background about what prompted the questions that led to the next series of clues, I had purchased a book entitled The Sufi Path of Knowledge by William Chittick at some point simply because I wanted to be better informed about the Sufis as a result of my interest in the writings of Ouspensky and Gurdjieff. I had even asked a bit about Ouspensky’s presentation of second-dimensional awareness relating to what the Cassiopaeans called second density.
February 11, 1995
Q: (L) Earlier we were reading from Ouspensky’s Tertium Organum about perceptions. Was this a fairly accurate description of the state of our perceptions and the state of second density perceptions?
A: Yes.
Let me note again that it seems that the mathematical explication of dimensions is more in line with what the Cassiopaeans are describing as densities, while “alternate realities” is more along the line of the popular understanding of dimensions. There is certainly a lot of misunderstanding and misconception out there amongst many New Age gurus regarding these subjects. And, the sad thing is that they use the words without any comprehension of the mathematical precision and deeper meanings, and many people are being fed a load of hooey with these “word salads.” At the same time, there are many who have the understanding, but haven’t got the proper vocabulary to express it, and thus the conflict between inspired perception and science is endlessly perpetuated. But, that’s a story for another time.
During and after the period of deep level change in my own life, I have to admit that I was really pretty angry with the Cassiopaeans. I mean, here they were, supposedly sixth density light beings who had been chatting with us for some time, who, one would think, could advise me in ways that would prevent pain and suffering, or dire and dreadful events, and all I had experienced from the moment I began to put their suggestions into effect was constant, unmitigated attack on my psyche, my person, and even my family. I complained to them one night:
February 11, 1996
Q: (L) I have written to a lot of people… When am I going to find what I am looking for?
A: Did we not tell you, did we not advise you about the network??!??
Q: (L) Of course…
A: And what did you do?
Q: (L) Well, I got online as soon as I could…
A: And what happened?
Q: (L) The Lizzies tried to kill me! [laughter]
A: The Lizard Force, i.e. STS, has been attacking you since day one. We have been advising you only for 1.5 years, as you measure it.
Q: (L) The situation is such that I am running out of force from working against this constant oppression and opposition. Can you tell me if I will ever have some peace of mind so that I can continue to function?
A: Have we?
And, they had… in many subtle ways. The only problem was, it was never specific. It was like being told there was a treasure in a labyrinth that I was supposed to find, and being put into it blindfolded. Sure, the Cassiopaeans were there on the side sort of whispering, “You’re getting warm now! Oops! You’re cold… colder… ICE cold…! Okay, yes… getting warm… warmer… hot, hot!”
But, that was something of a crazy way to live. I didn’t realize at the time that they were teaching me to discern things in a way and at a level that is rarely accessed by even those who spend their lives in the realms of metaphysics and the paranormal. I was just frustrated and angry like a child who was having a hard time doing math, not realizing how valuable the practice lessons would become.
But, it was a process that seemed to be taking forever. Several months went by with no sessions because I was ill or depressed or just too tired to make the effort. When we finally did have another session at one point, I complained again:
June 1, 1996
Q: (L) Several people have pointed out to me, only since we have begun this channeling project that all these dreadful things have happened in my life. My life is a shambles!
A: “Dreadful is subjective.”
Q: (L) I would say that the physical things that have happened to me, the collapse of my marriage, the things that have happened to my children, are pretty damn dreadful, subjectively or otherwise!
A: Before these changes began to manifest, you were deeper into the “deadly illusion” than you are now. Emergence is, by its very nature, uncomfortable. But, it has and will, empower you, we promise!!!!!!!!
Q: (L) It is a very trying time now. I am having a difficult time just coping.
A: And there have been others, and will be others, but that does not mean that the rewards will be slight. You are on a path of destiny, and there is no turning back now.
In the frame of mind I was, that sounded foreboding! I had no enthusiasm for anything, and I was in a constant state of physical crisis from one illness after another. But, during the periods of sickness or tiredness and/or depression, I began to idly flip through this book on the teachings of Muhyi al-Din Muhammad ibn-‘Ali ibn al-‘Arabi which had sat unopened on the shelf for a couple of years.
As I began to read bits and pieces, I was stunned at the similarity of the teachings to what the Cassiopaeans had been saying. I was also pretty excited to find that the very things I was suffering were not unusual for someone who was receiving what was called an “unveiling.” This gave me the heart to decide on another session at which the following exchange took place:
June 15, 1996
Q: (L) As you know, I have been studying the Sufi teachings, and I am discovering so many similarities in these Sufi “unveilings” to what we have been receiving through this source, that I am really quite amazed, to say the least. So, my question is: could what we are doing here be considered an ongoing, incremental, “unveiling,” as they call it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, from what I am reading, in the process of unveiling, at certain points, when the knowledge base has been sufficiently expanded, inner unveilings then begin to occur. Is this part of the present process?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical — I go through a depression before I can assimilate — and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process, let it be.
Q: (L) One of the things that Al-‘Arabi writes about is the ontological levels of being. Concentric circles, so to speak, of states of being. And each state defines relationships in terms of knowledge and awareness. At each higher level you are closer to a direct relationship with the core of existence, and on the outer edges, you are in closer relationship with matter. This pretty well explicates the seven densities you have described for us and he says there are seven also. He also talks about the “outraying” and the “inward moving” toward knowledge. My thought was that certain beings, such as fourth density STS, and other STS beings of third density, who think that they are creating a situation where they will accrue power to themselves, may, in fact, be part of the “outraying” or dispersion into matter. Is this a correct perception?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Al-‘Arabi says, and this echoes what you have said, that you can stay in the illusion where you are, you can move downward or upward. Is this, in part, whichever direction you choose, a function of your position on the cycle?
A: It is more complex than that.
Q: (L) Well, I am sure of that. Al-‘Arabi presents a very complex analysis and he probably didn’t know it all either… Nevertheless, it almost word-for-word reflects things that have been given directly to us through this source.
A: Now, learn, read, research all you can about unstable gravity waves.
Q: (L) Okay. Unstable gravity waves. I’ll see what I can find. Is there something more about this?
A: Meditate too!
Q: (L) Yes. Well, they have been telling us to meditate. Have you been meditating, Frank? (F) Not lately.
A: We mean for you, Laura, to meditate about unstable gravity waves as part of research. Unstable gravity waves unlock as yet unknown secrets of quantum physics to make the picture crystal clear.
Q: (L) Gravity seems to be a property of matter. Is that correct?
A: And… antimatter!
Q: (L) Is the gravity that is a property of antimatter “antigravity?” Or, is it just gravity on the other side, so to speak?
A: Binder. Gravity binds all that is physical with all that is ethereal through unstable gravity waves!!!
Q: (L) Is antimatter what we refer to as “ethereal” existence?
A: Pathway to. Doorway to.
Q: (L) Do unstable gravity waves emanate from seventh density?
A: Throughout. There is no emanation point.
Q: (L) So, they are a property or attribute of the existence of matter, and the binder of matter to ethereal ideation?
A: Sort of, but they are a property of anti-matter, too!
Q: (L) So, through unstable gravity waves, you can access other densities?
A: Everything.
Q: (L) Can you generate them mechanically?
A: Generation is really collecting and dispersing.
Q: (L) Okay, what kind of a device would collect and disperse gravity waves? Is this what spirals do?
A: On the way to. When you wrote Noah [The Noah Syndrome] where did you place gravity?
Q: (L) I thought that gravity was an indicator of the consumption of electricity; that gravity was a byproduct of a continuous flow of electrical energy…
A: Gravity is no byproduct! It is the central ingredient of all existence!
Q: (L) I was evaluating by electric flow and consumption… and I was thinking that electricity was evidence of some sort of consciousness, and that gravity was evidence that a planet that had it, had life…
A: We have told you before that planets and stars are windows. And where does the gravity go?
Q: (L) Well, where does gravity go? The sun is a window. Even our planet must be a window!
A: You have it too!! Gravity is all there is.
Q: (L) Is light the emanation of gravity?
A: No.
Q: (L) What is light?
A: Gravity. Gravity is “God.”
Q: (L) But, I thought God was light?
A: If gravity is everything, what isn’t it? Light is energy expression generated by gravity. Please name something that is not gravity.
Q: (L) Well, if gravity is everything, there is nothing that is not gravity, well, fine! What is absolute nothingness?
A: A mere thought.
Q: (L) So, there is no such thing as non-existence?
A: Yes, there is.
Q: (L) Do thoughts produce gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does sound produce gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can sound manipulate gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can it be done with the human voice?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can it be done tonally or by power through thought?
A: Both. Gravity is manipulated by sound when thought manipulated by gravity chooses to produce sound, which manipulates gravity.
Q: (L) Now, did the fellow who built the Coral Castle2 spin in his airplane seat while thinking his manipulations into place?
A: No. He spun when gravity chose to manipulate him to spin in order to manipulate gravity.
Q: (L) Does gravity have consciousness?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it ever possible for the individual to do the choosing, or is it gravity that is him that chose?
A: The gravity that was inside him was all the gravity in existence.
Q: (L) Well, I thought the Sufis were tough! (F) Well, it’s probably because of your studies that this door opened. (L) Good grief! What have I done! All right. I am confused.
A: No you are not.
Q: (L) Then, just put it this way: I am befuddled and overloaded.
A: Befuddling is fun!
Q: (L) Well, I guess that if any of this is going to be of particular significance to us, then we will certainly find out the details as we go along.
A: How many times do we have to tell you?!?! The entire sum total of all existence exists within each of you, and vice versa.
Q: (L) Then what is the explanation for the “manyness” that we perceive?
A: Perception of 3rd density.
Q: (L) So, the entire universe is inside me… Okay, that’s… I understand. Oddly enough, I do. The problem is accessing it, stripping away the veils.
A: That is the fun part.
Q: (L) So, the fellow who built the Coral Castle was able to access this. Consistently or only intermittently?
A: Partially.
Q: (L) According to what I understand, at the speed of light, there is no mass, no time, and no gravity. How can this be?
A: No mass, no time, but yes, gravity.
Q: (L) A photon has gravity?
A: Gravity supercedes light speed.
Q: (L) Gravity waves are faster than light?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What would make a gravity wave unstable?
A: Utilization.
Q: (L) I feel like I am missing a really big point here…
A: You are, but you can only find it at your own pace. And on that note, good night.
By this time, all of those who have thought, from time to time, that I am a little slow on the uptake, are convinced of it! It is true that I had read and studied for many years to discover the secrets of our existence in this world, and I had thought, at one time, I had a pretty good handle on all of it for a layperson. Now, all of that was just being tossed out the window and I was back in first grade, or so it seemed. And, in this school, I was apparently not the brightest student!
There are a number of points in this last session that strike me (in retrospect, of course!) as being worthy of keeping in mind as we go along in solving this puzzle of how to get out of Oz and back to Kansas, and they are:
Unstable gravity waves unlock as yet unknown secrets of quantum physics to make the picture crystal clear.
Gravity seems to be a property of matter and antimatter! Antimatter is the pathway or doorway to “ethereal” existence. Gravity binds all that is physical with all that is ethereal through unstable gravity waves!!!
Thus, through unstable gravity waves, you can access not only other densities, but also everything else.
Mechanical “generation” of gravity waves is really collecting and dispersing.
Spirals are “On the way to” a mechanical means of collecting and dispersing gravity waves.
Gravity is the central ingredient of all existence! You have it too!!
Thoughts produce gravity. And, by relation, so does knowledge and awareness. Remembering, of course, that knowledge and awareness are the “keys” to forming a conduit, and we think that a “conduit” is a Perpendicular Reality, or something similar to Riemann’s Cut, or a Wormhole.
I don’t know if you, the reader, are thinking what I am thinking about all of this, but keep the above in mind as we continue to try to discover the nature of The Wave and how best to be prepared to interact with it to our benefit.
1 It was during this period that I asked my ex for a divorce and Tom French has described my condition quite well in his article. The interested reader can find the piece on the Times website at www.sptimes.com.
2 Coral Castle was built in the early 20th century by an eccentric Latvian recluse named Edward Leedskalnin . Edward Leedskalnin was a 100 pound, 5 foot tall man — who wound up in Homestead, Florida — on a ten-acre tract of land just south of Miami, Florida. Somehow he managed to single-handedly lift and maneuver blocks of coral weighing up to 30 tons each and create not only a castle but other things. How Edward did his work has never been discovered, though he labored for 30 years. He worked alone — at night — and seemed to know when he was being watched. On those occasions — he never lifted any of the stones. Many articles claim that he found the same secrets of levitation as those used by the supposed builders of the Pyramids of Egypt — among other megalithic sites around the world whose creation remain unexplained.
Edward Leedskalnin was quoted as saying, “I have discovered the secrets of the pyramids, and have found out how the Egyptians and the ancient builders in Peru, Yucatan, and Asia, with only primitive tools, raised and set in place blocks of stone weighing many tons!”
In total, Edward quarried over eleven hundred tons of coral rock for his castle, using tools fashioned from wrecking-yard junk, never revealing how he managed to raise, and position, the massive coral blocks that make up the compound.
February 11, 1995
Q: (L) Earlier we were reading from Ouspensky’s Tertium Organum about perceptions, was this a fairly accurate description of the state of our perceptions and the state of 2nd density perceptions?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, now making a jump with that, as to fourth density perception, is the fourth density perception…
A: Wait and see.
Before I get into the Cassiopaean discussion here, I want to quote that passage from Ouspensky on the perceptions of second density beings that was mentioned above because the issue will come up again in this chapter, and the reader might like to be familiar with what it says because everyone seems to want to know exactly why it is, and how it is, that we can be living in a world of such vastly different perceptions, and that these can have so profound an impact on us that it is possible that we live and move among beings that we cannot perceive.
There is also the issue of what our own perceptions might be like after graduation to fourth density, and that is a question we would all like to have answered. So, perhaps, in his speculations on the matter, Ouspensky gave us some clues, though it is pretty certain that it was not all correct.
In fact, Ark and I have debated rather long over whether to share this extract or not because of what he perceives to be serious flaws in Ouspensky’s “scientific arguments.” Ark says they are not scientific at all and that Ouspensky makes leaps of assumption and statements without proof.
That may be true, but the point of the passage was to get something of an inkling of what might be the differences between human and animal experience of the world around us so that we might have a framework from which to speculate further.
The extract is going to be a little long, but I just didn’t see how I could shorten it without really losing something important. Even though the language is a little dated, since it was written in the ’20s or earlier, Ouspensky is pretty concise and economical with his words and there are very few that are extra. But, the end result will be that, even for those who cannot just go out and buy the book, there will be a good understanding of what we are talking about from here on out when we talk about density perceptions. And it is this idea of the differences that I want to convey, not necessarily the specifics as outlined by Ouspensky. So, please read it through even if you don’t at first see the relevance, and you may be surprised at some of the ideas that will start popping up!
From Tertium Organum:
The basic unit of our perception is a sensation. A sensation is an elementary change in the state of our inner life, produced, or so it appears to us, either by some change in the state of the outer world in relation to our inner life, or by a change in our inner life in relation to the outer world. …It is sufficient to define a sensation as an elementary change in the state of the inner life. Experiencing a sensation, we assume it to be, so to speak, a reflection of some kind of change in the external world.
The sensations experienced by us leave a certain trace in our memory. In accumulating, memories of sensations begin to blend in our consciousness into groups according to their similarity, to become associated, to be put together, or to be contrasted. Sensations, usually experienced in close connection with one another, will arise in our memory preserving the same connection. And gradually, out of memories of sensations there are formed representations.
Representations are, so to speak, group memories of sensations. In the formation of representations, the grouping of sensations follows two clearly defined directions. The first direction is according to the character of the sensations: thus sensation of yellow colour will be linked with other sensations of yellow colour, and sensation of acid taste, with other sensations of acid taste. The second direction is according to the time of receiving the sensation.
When one group, forming one representation, contains different sensations experienced simultaneously, the memory of this definite group of sensations is attributed to a common cause. The “common cause” is projected into the external world, as the object; and it is assumed that the given representation reflects the real properties of this object.
Such a group memory constitutes a representation, as for instance, the representation of a tree — this tree. Into this group enters the green colour of the leaves, their smell, their shade, the sound of the wind in the branches, and so on. All these things, taken together, form as it were, the focus of rays emitted by our mind and gradually focused on the external object, which may coincide with it either badly or well.
In the further complexities of mental life, memories of representations undergo the same process as memories of sensations. In accumulating, memories of representations or “images of representation” become associated along the most varied lines, are put together, contrasted, form groups and, in the end, give rise to concepts.
Thus, out of the various sensations experienced at different times (in groups), there arises in a child the representation of a tree (this tree), and later, out of the images of representations of different trees is formed the concept of a tree, i.e. not of this particular tree but of a tree in general. The formation of concepts leads to the formation of words and the appearance of speech.
Speech consists of words; every word expresses a concept. A concept and a word are really the same thing, only the one (the concept) stands, as it were, for the inner aspect, while the other (the word) stands for the outer aspect. The word is the algebraic sign of a thing.
In our speech words express concepts or ideas. Ideas are broader concepts; they are not a group sign for similar representations, but embrace groups of dissimilar representations, or even groups of concepts. Thus an idea is a complex or an abstract concept.
At the present moment an average man, taken as a standard, has three units of mental life — sensation, representation and concept.
Observation further shows us that in some people at certain moments there appears, as it were, a fourth unit of mental life, which different authors and schools call by different names, but in which the element of perception of the element of ideas is always connected with the emotional element. If Kant’s idea is true, if space with its characteristics is a property of our consciousness and not a property of the external world, then the three-dimensionality of the world must in some way be dependent on the constitution of our mental apparatus.
Concretely, the question may be put in this way: What is the relation of the three-dimensional extension of the world to the fact that our mental apparatus contains sensations, representations and concepts, and that they stand exactly in this order?
We have a mental apparatus of this kind and the world is three-dimensional. How to prove that the three-dimensionality of the world depends on this particular constitution of our mental apparatus?
If we were able to alter our mental apparatus and observe that the world around us changed with these alterations, this would prove to us the dependence of the properties of space on the properties of our mind. If the above mentioned higher form of inner life, which now appears only accidentally depending on some little-known conditions, could be rendered as definite, as precise, as obedient to our will as a concept, and if, through this, the number of characteristics of space increased, i.e. if space, instead of being three-dimensional, became four dimensional, this would confirm our supposition and prove Kant’s idea that space with its properties is the form of our sense perception.
If we could reduce the number of units of our mental life and deliberately deprive ourselves or some other man of concepts, leaving his or our mind to operate by representations and sensations alone; and if, through this, the number of characteristics of the space surrounding us diminished, i.e. if for that man the world were to become two-dimensional instead of three-dimensional and, with a further limitation of his mental apparatus, i.e. with depriving him of representations, it were to become one-dimensional, this would confirm our surmise and Kant’s thought could be regarded as proved.
Thus, Kant’s idea could be proved experimentally if we were able to ascertain that for a being possessing nothing but sensations the world is one-dimensional; for a being possessing sensations and representations it is two-dimensional; and for a being possessing, in addition to concepts and ideas, also higher forms of perception, the world is four-dimensional.
Kant’s proposition regarding the subjective character of the idea of space could be taken as proved if:
a) For a being possessing nothing but sensations, our entire world with all its variety of forms appears as one line; if the universe of this being had one dimension, i.e. if this being were one-dimensional by virtue of the properties of his perception; and
b) For a being possessing the capacity of forming representations in addition to his ability of experiencing sensations, the world had a two-dimensional extension, i.e. if our entire world with its blue skies, clouds, green trees, mountains and precipices, appeared to him merely as a plane; if the universe of this being had only two dimensions, that is, if this being were two-dimensional by virtue of the properties of his perception.
More briefly, Kant’s proposition would be proved if we saw that for a given subject the number of characteristics of the world changed according to the change of his mental apparatus.
It does not seem possible to carry out such an experiment of reducing mental characteristics, for we do not know how to restrict our own or someone else’s mental apparatus with the ordinary means at our disposal. Experiments of augmenting mental characteristics exist but, for many different reasons, they are not sufficiently convincing. The main reason is that an increase of mental faculties produces in our inner world so much that is new, that this new masks any changes which take place simultaneously in our usual perceptions of the world. We feel the new but cannot exactly define the difference.
A whole series of teachings and religious and philosophical doctrines have as their professed or hidden aim precisely this expansion of consciousness. This is the aim of mysticism of all times and all religions, the aim of occultism, the aim of the Eastern Yoga. But the question of the expansion of consciousness requires special study.
In the meantime, in order to prove the contention stated above about the change of the world as a result of a change in the mental apparatus, it is sufficient to examine the hypothesis about the possibility of a lesser number of mental characteristics.
If we do not know how to carry out experiments in this direction, perhaps observation is possible. We must ask ourselves the question: Are there in the world beings whose mental life is below ours in the required sense?
Such beings, whose mental life is below ours, undoubtedly exist. They are animals. We know very little about what constitutes the difference between the mental processes of an animal and the mental processes of a man; our ordinary ‘conversational psychology’ is altogether ignorant of it. As a rule we entirely deny the existence of reason in animals, or, on the contrary, we ascribe to them our own psychology, but ‘limited’ — though how and in what respect it is limited, we do not know. And then we say that an animal has no reason but has instinct. But we have a very hazy idea of what instinct may mean. I am speaking now not only of popular, but also of ‘scientific’, psychology.
Let us, however, try to examine what instinct is and what animal mentality is like. In the first place, let us examine the actions of an animal and determine in what way they differ from ours. If they are instinctive actions, what does it mean?
We distinguish in living beings reflex actions, instinctive actions, rational actions, and automatic actions. Reflex actions are simply responses by motion, reactions to external irritations, always occurring in the same manner, irrespective of their usefulness or uselessness, expediency or inexpediency in a given instance. Their origin and laws are the outcome of the simple irritability of the cell.
What is meant by irritability of the cell and what are these laws?
By irritability of the cell is meant its capacity to respond by motion to external irritations. Experiments with the simplest living one-cell organisms proved that irritability is governed by strictly definite laws. The cell responds by motion to an external irritation. The force of the responsive motion is increased with the increase of the force of irritation, but it has not been possible to establish the exact ratio. In order to provoke a responsive motion, the irritation must be sufficiently strong. Every irritation experienced leaves a certain trace in the cell, rendering it more susceptible to further irritations. This is proved by the fact that to a repeated irritation of an equal force the cell responds with a stronger movement than to the first irritation. And, if irritations are further repeated, the cell would respond to them with an increasingly stronger motion, up to a certain limit. Having reached this limit, the cell becomes tired, as it were, and begins to respond to the same irritation by increasingly weaker reactions. The cell appears to become used to the irritation. It becomes for the cell part of its permanent surroundings and the cell ceases to react to it, for it reacts only to changes in the permanent conditions. If from the very beginning the irritation is too weak to produce a responsive motion, it still leaves a certain invisible trace in the cell. This is shown by the fact that, by repeating weak irritations, it is possible to make the cell react to them. Thus in the laws of irritability we see what seem to be the rudiments of the capacities of memory, fatigue and habit. The cell produces the illusion of a being, which, if not conscious and reasoning, is at least capable of remembering, capable of forming habits and of getting tired.
If we are almost deceived by a cell, how much easier it is for us to be deceived by an animal with its complex life. But let us return to our analysis of actions.
By reflex actions of an organism are meant actions where the whole organism or its separate parts act as the cell does, i.e. within the limits of the law of irritability. We observe such actions both in man and in animals. A shudder runs through a man from sudden cold or from an unexpected touch. He blinks if some object quickly approaches or touches him. If a man sits with his leg hanging loosely, his foot jerks forward if the tendon immediately below the knee is hit. These movements happen independently of consciousness and may happen even contrary to consciousness. As a rule consciousness perceives them as an already accomplished fact. And these movements need not necessarily be expedient. The foot will jerk forward if the tendon is hit even if there is a knife or fire in front of it.
By instinctive actions are meant actions, which are expedient but performed without any consciousness of choice or consciousness of purpose.
They arise with the appearance of an emotional quality in a sensation, i.e. from the moment when the feeling of pleasure or pain becomes connected with the sensation.
And indeed, before the appearance of human intellect, ‘actions’ in all the animal kingdom are governed by the tendency to obtain or keep pleasure, or to avoid pain. We may say with the utmost certainty that instinct is pleasure-pain which, like the positive and negative poles of an electromagnet, repels and attracts an animal in one or another direction, thus forcing it to perform a whole series of complicated actions, at times so expedient as to appear conscious; and not only conscious, but based on a foresight of the future almost bordering on clairvoyance, such as the migration of birds, the building of nests for the young still unborn, the finding of the way south in the autumn and north in the spring, and so on. But in actual fact all these actions are explained solely by instinct, i.e. by subordination to pleasure-pain.
In the course of periods in which thousands of years may be counted as days, there was evolved in all animals, through selection, a type that lives according to this subordination. This subordination is expedient, i.e. its results lead to the required aim. It is quite clear why this is so. If the feeling of pleasure proceeded from something harmful, a given species could not live and would soon die out. Instinct is the guiding factor of its life, but only so long as instinct is expedient. As soon as it ceases to be expedient, it becomes the guiding factor of death, and the species very soon dies out. Normally, ‘pleasure-pain’ is pleasant and unpleasant not for the usefulness or the harm it brings, but as a consequence of it. Influences, which had proved useful to a given species during its vegetable life, begin to be experienced as pleasant with the transition to animal life; harmful influences are experienced as unpleasant. One and the same influence — say a certain temperature — may be useful and pleasant for one species and harmful and unpleasant for another. It is clear, therefore, that subordination to ‘pleasure-pain’ should be expedient. The pleasant is pleasant because it is useful; the unpleasant is unpleasant because it is harmful.
The next stage after instinctive actions consists of rational and automatic actions. By rational action is meant an action known to the acting subject before it is performed — an action that the acting subject can name, define, explain and whose cause and purpose he can point out — before it has taken place.
By automatic actions are meant actions, which have been rational for a given subject but have since become customary and unconscious through frequent repetition. The automatic actions learned by trained animals were previously rational not in the animal but in the trainer. Such actions often seem quite rational, but this is pure illusion. The animal remembers the order of actions and so its actions appear to be thought out and expedient. And it is true they were thought out, but not by it. Automatic actions are often confused with instinctive actions; and indeed they do resemble the instinctive, but at the same time there is an enormous difference between them. Automatic actions are created by the subject in the course of his own life. And, before becoming automatic, they must for a long time remain rational for him or for another person.
Instinctive actions are created during the lifetime of a species and the capacity to perform them is handed down, in a ready-made form, through heredity. Automatic actions may be called the instinctive actions, which a given subject has evolved for himself. Instinctive actions cannot be called automatic actions evolved by a given species, because they never were rational for separate individuals of that species, but are the result of a complex series of reflexes.
Reflexes, instinctive actions and ‘rational’ actions may be regarded as reflected, i.e. as not independent.
The first, the second, and the third come not from man himself but from the external world. A man is merely a transmitting or transforming station of forces; all his actions belonging to these three categories are produced by impressions coming from the external world. In these three kinds of actions man is actually an automaton, either unaware or aware of his actions. Nothing comes from himself.
Only the highest category of actions, i.e. conscious actions (which, generally speaking, we do not observe, since we confuse them with rational actions, mainly because we call ‘rational’ actions conscious) — depend not only on the impressions coming from the external world, but on something else besides. But the capacity for such actions is very rarely met with and only very few people have it. These people may be defined as the higher type of man.
Having established the difference between actions, we must now return to the question: How does the mental apparatus of an animal differ from that of a man?
Of the four categories of actions only the two lower ones are accessible to animals. The category of ‘rational’ actions is not accessible to them. This is proved, first of all, by the fact that animals do not speak as we do.
It was shown earlier that the possession of speech is indissolubly connected with the possession of concepts. Consequently, we may say that animals do not possess concepts.
Is this true — and is the possession of instinctive reason possible without possessing concepts?
All that we know about instinctive reason tells us that it operates while possessing only representations and sensations, and on the lower levels possessing only sensations. The mental apparatus which thinks by means of representations must be identical with instinctive reason which enables it to make that selection from among the available representations which, from outside, produces the impression of reasoning and drawing conclusions. In reality, an animal does not think out its actions, but lives by emotions, obeying the emotion that is strongest at a given moment. Although it is true that in the life of an animal there may be very acute moments, when it is faced with the necessity of making a selection from a certain series of representations. In that case, at a given moment, its actions may appear to be reasoned out. For instance, an animal, faced with danger, often acts with surprising caution and intelligence.
But in reality the actions of an animal are governed not by thoughts but mostly by emotional memory and motor representations. It has been shown earlier that emotions are expedient and, in a normal being, obedience to them should also be expedient. In an animal, every representation, every remembered image is connected with some emotional sensation and emotional recollection; there are no unemotional cold thoughts or images in the nature of an animal. Or, if there are some, they are inactive, incapable of moving it to any action.
Thus, all the actions of animals, at times very complex, expedient and seemingly rational, can be explained without assuming the existence in them of concepts, reasoning and mental conclusions.
On the contrary, we must admit that animals have no concepts. The proof of this is that they have no speech. If we take two men of different nationalities, different races, each ignorant of the language of the other, and settle them to live together, they will immediately find means of communicating with each other. One would draw with his finger a circle; the other would draw another circle alongside the first. This is enough to establish that they can understand one another. If a thick stone wall were to separate people, again it would not deter them. One would knock three times; the other would also knock three times in reply — communication is established. The idea of communication with the inhabitants of another planet is based precisely on the system of light signals. On the earth it is proposed to make an enormous luminous circle or square. It should be noticed on Mars or somewhere over there and should be answered by a similar signal.
With animals we live side by side, yet we are unable to establish such communication with them. Evidently, the distance between us is greater, the difference deeper than between people separated by ignorance of language, stone walls and enormous distances.
Another proof of the absence of concepts in an animal is its incapacity of using a lever, i.e. its incapacity of arriving independently at an understanding of the significance and the action of a lever. The usual argument that an animal does not know how to use a lever simply because its organs — paws, etc. — are not adapted for such actions, does not bear criticism, because any animal can be taught to use a lever. This means that organs have nothing to do with it. The thing is simply that by itself an animal cannot arrive at the idea of a lever. The invention of a lever at once separated primitive man from the animals and it was inseparably connected with the appearance of concepts. The mental side of understanding the action of a lever lies in the construction of a correct syllogism. Without mentally constructing a syllogism it is impossible to understand the action of a lever. Without concepts it is impossible to construct a syllogism. In the mental sphere a syllogism is literally the same thing as a lever in the physical sphere.
The application of a lever distinguishes man from the animal as drastically as does speech. If some Martian scientists were to look at the Earth and study it objectively through a telescope, not hearing speech from afar nor entering into the subjective world of the inhabitants of the Earth and without any contact with it, they would divide the beings living on the Earth into two categories: those familiar with the action of a lever and those unfamiliar with it.
On the whole the psychology of animals is very obscure to us. The infinite number of observations made of all animals, from elephants to spiders, and the infinite number of anecdotes about the intelligence, perspicacity and moral qualities of animals change nothing in this respect. We represent animals either as living automatons or as stupid human beings. We are too shut up in the circle of our own mentality. We have no idea of any other mentality and involuntarily we think that the only kind of mentality possible is the one we possess. But this is an illusion, which prevents us from understanding life. If we were able to enter into the inner world of an animal and understand how it perceives, understands and acts, we would see many extremely interesting things.
For example, if we could represent to ourselves and re-create mentally the logic of the animal, it would greatly help us to understand our own logic and the laws of our thinking. Above all we would understand the conditional and relative character of our whole idea of the world.
An animal must have a very peculiar logic. Of course, it would not be logic in the true sense of the word, for logic presupposes the existence of logos, i.e. word or concept. Our usual logic, the one we live by, without which ‘the cobbler will not be able to make shoes’ can be brought down to the simple scheme formulated by Aristotle in those writings, which were published by his pupils under the general title of Organon, i.e. the ‘Instrument’ (of thought). This scheme consists in the following:
A is A.
A is not not-A.
Everything is either A or not-A.
The logic contained in this scheme — Aristotle’s logic — is quite sufficient for observation. But for experiment it is insufficient, for experiment, takes place in time, whereas Aristotle’s formulae do not take time into account. This was observed at the very dawn of the establishment of our experimental knowledge; it was noted by Roger Bacon and, some centuries later, was formulated by his famous namesake, Francis Bacon, in the treatise Novum Organum — ‘New Instrument’ (of thought). Briefly Bacon’s formulation may be reduced to the following:
That which was A, will be A.
That which was not-A, will be not-A.
Everything was and will be either A or not-A.
All our scientific experience is built on these formulae, whether they are taken or not taken into account by our mind. And these same formulae actually serve as a basis for making shoes, for if a cobbler could not be sure that the leather bought yesterday would be leather tomorrow, he would probably not venture to make shoes but would look for some other more secure profession.
Logical formulae, both those of Aristotle and Bacon, are simply deduced from observation of facts and embrace nothing but the contents of these facts — and can embrace nothing more. They are not laws of thinking but merely laws of the external world, as we, or laws of our relationship to the external world perceive it.
If we were able to represent to ourselves the ‘logic’ of an animal, we would understand its relationship to the external world. Our chief mistake as regards the inner world of an animal lies in our ascribing to it our own logic. We think that there is only one logic, and that our logic is something absolute, something existing outside us and apart from us. Yet, in actual fact, it is merely the laws of the relation of our inner life to the outside world or the laws that our mind finds in the outside world. A different mind will find different laws.
The first difference between our logic and that of an animal is that the latter is not general. It is a particular logic in every case, for every separate representation. For animals there exists no classification according to common properties, i.e. classes, varieties and species. Every single object exists by itself; all its properties are specific properties.
This house and that house are, for an animal, totally different objects, because the one is his house and the other an alien house. Generally speaking, we recognize objects by their similarity; an animal must recognize them by their differences. It remembers every object by the signs, which have had for it the greatest emotional significance. In this form, i.e. with emotional qualities, representations are preserved in the memory of an animal. It is easy to see that it is much more difficult to preserve such representations in memory; consequently the memory of an animal is much more burdened than ours, although in the amount of knowledge and the number of things preserved in the memory an animal is far below us.
Having once seen an object, we refer it to a certain class, variety and species, attach it to one or another concept and connect it in our mind with one or another ‘word’, i.e. with an algebraic sign, then with another, defining it, and so on.
An animal has no concepts; it has no mental algebra with the help of which we think. It must know a given object and remember it with all its characteristics and peculiarities. Not a single forgotten characteristic will come back. But for us the main characteristics are implied in the concept with which we have connected the given object, and we can find it in our memory by any of its characteristic signs.
It is clear from this that an animal’s memory is more burdened than ours, and that this is precisely the main cause that hinders the mental evolution of an animal. Its mind is too occupied. It has no time to move forward. It is possible to arrest the mental development of a child by making it learn by heart series of words and series of figures. An animal is exactly in the same position. And this explains the strange fact that an animal is more intelligent when young.
In a man the peak of his intellectual power is reached at a mature age, very often even in old age; in the case of an animal it is just the reverse. It is receptive only while it is young. With maturity its development becomes arrested and in old age it undoubtedly becomes retrogressive.
The logic of an animal, if we attempt to express it in formulae similar to those of Aristotle and Bacon, would be as follows:
The animal will understand the formula A is A.
It will say: I am I, and so on.
But it will not understand the formula A is not not-A, for not-A is a concept.
The animal will say: This is this. That is that. This is not that.
Or this man is this man. That man is that man. This man is not that man.
Later on I shall have to return to the logic of animals. For the moment it was only necessary to establish the fact that the psychology of animals is very distinctive and fundamentally different from ours. And it is not only distinctive but also very varied.
Among the animals known to us, even among domestic animals, psychological differences are so great as to put them on totally different levels. We do not notice this and put them all under one head — ‘animals’.
A goose has put its foot on a piece of watermelon rind, pulls at it with its beak but cannot pull it out, and it never occurs to it to lift its foot off the rind. This means that its mental processes are so vague that it has a very imperfect knowledge of its own body and does not properly distinguish it from other objects. This could not happen either with a dog or a cat. They know their bodies perfectly well. But in their relations to outside objects a dog and a cat are very different.
I have observed a dog, a ‘very intelligent’ setter. When the little rug on which he slept got mucked up and became uncomfortable to lie on, he understood that the discomfort was outside him, that it was in the rug and, more precisely, in the position of the rug. So he kept on worrying the rug with his teeth, twisting it and dragging it here and there, all the while growling, sighing and groaning until someone came to his assistance. But he could never manage to straighten out the rug by himself.
With a cat such a question could never even arise. A cat knows its body perfectly well, but everything outside itself it takes for granted, as something given. To correct the outside world, to accommodate it to its own comfort, would never occur to a cat. Maybe this is so because a cat lives more in another world, the world of dreams and fantasies, than in this one. Therefore, if there were something wrong with its bed, a cat would itself turn and twist a hundred times until it could settle down comfortably; or it would go and settle down in another place.
A monkey would of course spread out the rug quite easily.
Here are four beings, all quite different. And this is only one example of which one could easily find hundreds. And yet for us all this is an animal. We mix together many things that are totally different; our divisions are very often wrong and this hinders us in our examination of ourselves.
Moreover it would be quite incorrect to assert that the differences mentioned determine ‘evolutionary stages’, that animals of one type are higher or lower than others. The dog and the monkey by their reason, their ability to imitate and (the dog) by his fidelity to man seem to be higher than the cat, but the cat is infinitely superior to them in its intuition, its aesthetic sense, its independence and willpower. The dog and the monkey manifest themselves in their entirety. All that there is in them can be seen. But it is not without cause that the cat is regarded as a magical and occult animal. There is much in it that is hidden, much that it does not itself know. If one is to speak in terms of evolution it would be much more correct to say that these are animals of different evolutions, just as, in all probability, not one but several evolutions go on in mankind.
The recognition of several independent and, from a certain point of view, equivalent evolutions, developing entirely different properties, would lead us out of the labyrinth of endless contradictions in our understanding of man and would show the way to the understanding of the only real and important evolution for us, the evolution towards superman.
We have established the tremendous difference, which exists between the mentality of man and that of animals. This difference is bound to have a deep effect on the animal perception of the external world. But how and in what? This is precisely what we do not know and what we must endeavour to establish.
To do this we must return once more to our perception of the world and examine in detail how we perceive it; and then we must see how the world must be perceived by the animal with its limited mental equipment.
First of all we must take note of the fact that, as regards the external aspect and form of the world, our perception is extremely incorrect. We know that the world consists of solids, but we always see and touch only surfaces. We never see or touch a solid. A solid is already a concept, made up of a number of representations put together by means of reasoning and experience. For direct sensation only surfaces exist. Sensations of weight, mass, volume, which we mentally associate with a ‘solid’, are in reality connected for us with sensations of surfaces. We only know that this sensation of surfaces comes from a solid, but we never sense the solid itself. Maybe it is possible to call the composite sensation of surfaces, weight, mass, density, resistance and so on — ‘sensation of a solid’. But we are obliged mentally to bind all these sensations into one and to call this general sensation — a solid. We sense directly only surfaces, and then, separately, weight; we never sense the resistance of a solid, as such.
But we know that the world does not consist of surfaces, we know that we see the world incorrectly. We know that we never see the world as it really is, not only in the philosophical sense of this expression, but even in the most ordinary geometrical sense. We have never seen a cube, a sphere, etc.; we have always seen only surfaces. Realizing this, we mentally correct what we see. Behind the surfaces we think the solid. But we can never represent a solid to ourselves; we cannot represent a cube or a sphere not in perspective, but from all sides at once.
It is clear that the world does not exist in perspective; yet we are unable to see it in any other way. We see everything only in perspective, i.e. in perceiving it; we distort the world with our eye. And we know that we distort it. We know that it is not as we see it. And mentally we continually correct what the eye sees, substituting the real content for those symbols of things, which our sight shows us.
Our sight is a complex faculty. It consists of visual sensations, plus the memory of sensations of touch. A child tries to touch everything he sees — the nose of his nurse, the moon, the dancing spot of reflected sunlight on the wall. He learns only gradually to distinguish between the near and the far by sight alone. But we know that even in mature years we are easily subject to optical illusions. We see distant objects as flat, i.e. even more incorrectly, for relief is, after all, a symbol indicating a certain property of objects. At a great distance a man is outlined for us in silhouette. This happens because at long range we can never touch anything, and our eye has not been trained to notice the differences in surfaces, which, at close range, are felt by the fingertips.
In this connection, observations made on the blind beginning to see are very interesting. The periodical Slepetz (‘The Blind Man’) 1912, contains a description, based on direct observation, of how men, blind from birth, learn to see after an operation, which has restored their sight. This is how a youth of seventeen describes his experiences after the restoration of his sight by the removal of a cataract. On the third day after the operation he was asked what he saw; he replied that he saw a vast expanse of light with dim objects moving in it. He did not distinguish these objects. Only after four days did he begin to distinguish them, and only after two weeks, when his eyes became used to the light, did he begin to make a practical use of his sight for the discernment of objects. He was shown all the colours of the spectrum and very quickly mastered them, except the yellow and the green, which he kept on confusing for a long time. A cube, a sphere and a pyramid, placed before him, seemed to him a square, a flat disc and a triangle. When a flat disc was placed next to the sphere, he could not see any difference between them. When asked to describe his first impression of the two figures, he answered that he noticed at once the difference between the cube and the sphere and realized that they were not drawings, but could not derive from them the representation of a square and a circle, until he felt in his fingertips the same sensation as though he had touched a square and a circle. When he was allowed to handle the cube, the sphere and the pyramid, he immediately identified these solids by touch and was very surprised at not having recognized them at once by sight. He had as yet no representation of space, of perspective. All objects appeared flat to him. Although he knew that the nose projected and the eyes were sunk in cavities, the human face also looked flat to his eyes. He was overjoyed at having his sight restored, but in the beginning looking at things tired him; impressions overwhelmed and exhausted him. This is why, while enjoying perfect sight, he at times reverted to touch, as a form of relaxation.
We are never able to see even a small bit of the external world as it is, i.e. such as we know it to be. We can never see a writing desk or a cupboard simultaneously from all sides, as well as inside. Our eye distorts the external world in a certain way to enable us, in looking about, to determine the position of objects relative to ourselves. But to look at the world not from our own point of view is impossible for us. And we are never able to have a correct view of it, a view not distorted by our eyesight.
Relief and perspective — these are the distortions of the objects by our eye. They are an optical illusion, a visual deception. A cube in perspective is only a conventional symbol of a three-dimensional cube. And everything we see is only a conventional image of that conventionally real three-dimensional world which our geometry studies — and not the real world itself. On the basis of what we see, we must guess what it really is. We know that what we see is incorrect, and we think of the world as being different from the way we see it. If we had no doubts about the correctness of our sight, if we knew that the world was such as we saw it, it stands to reason that we would think of it as we see it. In practice, however, we are constantly introducing corrections into what we see.
This capacity of introducing corrections in that which the eye sees necessarily implies the possession of concepts, for corrections are made by means of reasoning, which is impossible without concepts. Without this capacity of correcting what is seen by the eye we would see the world quite differently, i.e. much of what actually exists we would see wrongly, much of what actually exists we would not see at all, and we would see a great deal of what, in reality, does not exist at all.
In the first place, we would see an enormous number of nonexistent movements. For direct sensation, every movement of our own is connected with the movement of everything around us. We know that this movement is illusory, but we see it as real. Objects turn round before us, run past us, and outstrip one another. Houses, which we drive past slowly, turn about leisurely; if we drive fast, they turn quickly; trees suddenly spring up before us, run away and vanish.
This apparent animation of objects, together with dreams, provided, and still provides, the main food for the fantasy of fairy-tales.
In those cases the ‘movements’ of objects may be very complex. Look at the strange behaviour of a cornfield seen through the window of your railway carriage. It runs up to your very window, stops, turns about slowly and runs to one side. The trees in the wood clearly run at different speeds, outstripping one another. A whole landscape of illusory motion! And what of the sun which still continues, in all languages, to rise and set, and the movement of which was at one time so passionately defended!
This is how it all appears to us. And although we already know that all these movements are illusory, we still see them and are, at times, deceived.
How many more illusions we would see if we were unable mentally to unravel the causes that produce them, and were to regard everything as existing exactly as we see it?
I see it, therefore it is.
This assertion is the main source of all illusions.
The right way to put it would be:
I see it, therefore it is not. Or at any rate: I see it, therefore it is not so.
We can say the latter, but animals cannot. For them whatever they see — is. They have to believe what they see.
How does the world appear to animals?
For animals the world is a series of complex moving surfaces. Animals live in a two-dimensional world; their universe has the appearance and properties of a surface. And on this surface there take place a vast number of movements of the most varied and fantastic character.
Why should the world appear as a surface to animals?
First of all, it is because it appears as a surface to us.
But we know that the world is not a surface, whereas animals cannot know it. They accept everything as it appears. They cannot correct what the eye sees, or cannot do so to the same degree as we can.
We can measure in three directions; the quality of our mind enables us to do so. Animals can measure simultaneously only in two directions; they can never measure in three directions at once. This is due to the fact that, having no concepts, they are incapable of keeping in mind the measurements of the first direction while measuring the second and third.
I will explain this more clearly.
Let us imagine ourselves measuring a cube. In measuring a cube in three directions, we must, while measuring in one direction, keep in mind, remember, the two others. But things can only be kept in mind as concepts, i.e. we can remember them only by connecting them with various concepts, by labeling them in one or another way.
Thus, having labeled the first two directions — length and breadth, it is possible to measure the height. Otherwise it could not be done. As representations the first two measurements of a cube are absolutely identical and are bound to merge in our mind into one. An animal has no concepts, so it cannot label the first two measurements of the cube as length and breadth. Therefore, at the moment when it begins to measure the height of the cube, the first two measurements will merge into one. An animal measuring a cube, and possessing no concepts but only representations, will resemble a cat I once observed. She dragged her kittens — there were five or six of them — into different rooms and could not collect them together again. She would get hold of one, carry it over to another and put them side by side. Then she would start looking for the third, bring it along and place it with the other two. Then immediately she would seize the first, carry it to another room and put it there beside the fourth; then she would again run to the first room, catch hold of the second and drag it somewhere else to the fifth, and so on. For a whole hour the cat struggled with her kittens, genuinely harassed, but could do nothing. Clearly she had no concepts to help her remember how many kittens there were in all.
It is extremely important to explain to oneself an animal’s relationship to the measurement of solids.
The whole point is that animals see nothing but surfaces. (This we can say with the utmost conviction, since we ourselves see nothing but surfaces.) Seeing only surfaces, animals can represent to themselves only two dimensions. The third dimension, side by side with the first two, can only be thought, i.e. this dimension must be a concept. But animals have no concepts; the third dimension appears also as a representation. Consequently, at the moment of its appearance, the first two representations invariably merge into one. Animals see the difference between two dimensions, but cannot see the difference between three. This difference can only be known. And in order to know that, concepts are necessary.
For animals identical representations are bound to merge into one, just as for us two simultaneous, identical phenomena taking place at one point must merge into one. For animals it would be one phenomenon, just as for us all identical, simultaneous phenomena taking place at one point are one phenomenon.
Thus animals will see the world as a surface, and will measure this surface only in two directions.
How then to explain the fact that, living in a two-dimensional world, or seeing themselves in a two-dimensional world, animals orientate perfectly well in our three-dimensional world? How to explain that a bird flies up and down, straight ahead and sideways, in all three directions; that a horse jumps fences and ditches; that a dog and a cat seem to understand the properties of depth and height together with length and breadth?
In order to explain this we must return once more to the fundamental principles of animal psychology. It has been pointed out earlier that many properties of objects, which we remember as the general properties of species and varieties, have to be remembered by animals as the individual properties of objects. In sorting out this enormous store of individual properties preserved in memory animals are helped by the emotional quality connected for them with each representation and each memory of a sensation.
An animal knows, say, two roads as two entirely separate phenomena having nothing in common; one phenomenon, i.e. one road consists of a series of definite representations coloured by definite emotional qualities; the other phenomenon, i.e. the other road, consists of a series of other definite representations, coloured by other qualities. We say that both the one and the other are roads, one leading to one place, the other to another. For the animal the two roads have nothing in common. But it remembers all the sequence of emotional qualities connected with the first road and the second road and so remembers both roads with their turnings, ditches, fences and so on.
Thus the memory of the definite properties of objects, which they have seen, helps animals to orientate in the world of phenomena. But, as a rule, when faced with new phenomena, animals are much more helpless than man.
Animals see two dimensions. They constantly sense the third dimension but do not see it. They sense it as something transient, as we sense time.
The surfaces which animals see possess for them many strange properties; these are, first of all numerous and varied movements.
It has been said already that all illusory movements must be perfectly real for them. These movements seem real to us also, but we know them to be illusory, as for instance the turning round of a house as we drive past, the springing up of a tree from round the corner, the movement of the moon among the clouds and so on.
In addition, many other movements will exist for animals, which we do not suspect. Actually a great many objects, completely motionless for us — indeed all objects — must appear to animals as moving. And it is precisely in these movements that the third dimension of solids will be manifested for them, i.e. The third dimension of solids will appear to them as motion.
Let us try to imagine how an animal perceives objects of the external world.
Let us suppose that a large disc is placed before an animal and, beside it, a large sphere of the same diameter.
Facing them directly at a certain distance, the animal will see two circles. If it starts walking round them, the animal will notice that the sphere remains a circle but the disc gradually narrows and becomes a narrow strip. As the animal continues to move round it, the strip begins to widen and gradually becomes again a circle. The sphere will not change its form as the animal moves round it, but strange phenomena will begin to occur in it as the animal draws near.
Let us try to understand how the animal will perceive the surface of the sphere as distinct from the surface of the disc.
One thing is certain — it will perceive a spherical surface differently from us. We perceive convexity or sphericity as a property common to many surfaces. Owing to the nature of its mental apparatus, the animal should perceive sphericity as an individual property of the given sphere. What should sphericity look like, taken as an individual property of a given sphere?
We can say with the utmost conviction that sphericity will appear to the animal as a movement of the surface it sees.
When the animal comes near to the sphere, in all probability what happens is something like this: the surface the animal sees springs into rapid motion; its centre projects forward, and all the other points begin to recede from the centre with a velocity proportionate to their distance from the centre (or the square of their distance from the centre).
This is the way in which the animal must sense a spherical surface. It is reminiscent of the way we sense sound. At a certain distance from the sphere the animal sees it as a plane. Approaching it and touching some point of the sphere, it sees that the relation of all the other points to that point has changed as compared with what it should be on a plane, as if all the other points have moved, have drawn aside. Touching another point it again sees all the other points withdrawing from it.
This property of the sphere will appear as its motion, as ‘vibration’. And indeed the sphere will resemble a vibrating, undulating surface. In the same way any angle of a motionless object must appear as motion to the animal.
The animal can see an angle of a three-dimensional object only if it moves past it, and in that case the object will seem to have turned — a new side has appeared, and the old side has receded or moved aside. An angle will be perceived as a turning, a movement of the object, i.e. as something transient, temporal, i.e. as a change in the state of the object. Remembering the angles met with before — which the animal has seen as the motion of bodies — it will regard them as gone, finished, vanished, belonging to the past.
Of course, the animal cannot reason thus, but it will act as though this was its reasoning.
If the animal could think of phenomena (i.e. angles and curved surfaces), which have not yet entered its life, it would no doubt represent them to itself only in time. In other words, the animal could not allow them any real existence at the present moment when they have not yet appeared. If it could express an opinion about them, it would say that these angles exist as a potentiality, that they will be, but that at present they are not.
For a horse, the corner of a house past which it runs every day, is a phenomenon, which recurs in certain circumstances, but which still takes place only in time; it is not a spatial and constant property of the house.
For the animal an angle must be a time-phenomenon, instead of being a space-phenomenon as it is for us.
Thus we see that the animal will perceive the properties of our third dimension as movements and will refer these properties to time, to the past or future, or to the present, i.e. to the moment of transition of the future into the past.
This is an extremely important point and contains the key to the understanding of our own perception of the world; consequently we must examine it in greater detail.
So far we have considered higher animals: a dog, a cat, a horse. Let us now take a lower animal — a snail for example. We know nothing about its inner life, but we may be sure that its perception is very different from ours. In all probability a snail’s sensations of its surroundings are very vague. It probably feels warmth, cold, light, darkness, hunger, and instinctively (i.e. incited by the pleasure-pain guidance) it crawls towards the uneaten edge of the leaf it sits on and draws away from a dead leaf. Its movements are governed by pleasure-pain; it always advances towards the one and retreats from the other. It always moves on one line — from the unpleasant towards the pleasant. And, in all probability, it knows and senses nothing except this line. This line constitutes the whole of its world. All the sensations entering from outside are sensed by the snail on its line of motion. And these come to it out of time — from potentiality they become actuality. For a snail the whole of our universe exists in the future and the past, i.e. in time. Only one line exists in the present; all the rest lies in time. It is more than probable that a snail is not aware of its own movements; making efforts with its whole body it moves forward towards the fresh edge of the leaf, but it seems to it that the leaf moves towards it, coming into being at that moment, appearing out of time, as the morning appears to us.
A snail is a one-dimensional being.
Higher animals — a dog, a cat, and a horse — are two-dimensional beings. To them space appears as a surface, a plane. Everything outside this plane lies for them in time.
Thus we see that a higher animal — a two-dimensional being as compared to a one-dimensional — extracts one more dimension out of time.
The world of a snail has one dimension — our second and third dimensions lie for it in time.
The world of a dog has two dimensions — our third dimension lies for it in time.
An animal may remember all the ‘phenomena’ it has observed, i.e. all the properties of three-dimensional bodies it has come into contact with, but it cannot know that that which for it is a recurring phenomenon is in reality a permanent property of a three-dimensional body — an angle, or curvature, or convexity.
This is the psychology of the perception of the world by a two-dimensional being.
For it a new sun will rise every day. Yesterday’s sun has gone and will never recur again. Tomorrow’s sun does not yet exist.
Rostand failed to understand the psychology of Chantecler. The cock could not think that he awakened the sun by his crowing. For him the sun does not go to sleep — it recedes into the past, vanishes, is annihilated, and ceases to be. Tomorrow, if it comes, there will be a new sun; just as for us there is a new spring each year. In order to be the sun cannot wake up; it must come into being, be born. An animal (if it could think without losing its characteristic psychology) could not believe in the appearance today of the same sun that was there yesterday. This is human reasoning.
For an animal a new sun rises every morning, just as for us a new morning comes every day, a new spring every year.
An animal is incapable of understanding that the sun is one and the same, whether today or yesterday — exactly as we probably cannot understand that the morning is one, and the spring is one.
The motion of objects which, for us, is not illusory but real, such as the motion of a rotating wheel or a moving carriage and so on, must, for an animal, differ greatly from the motion it sees in all objects which are motionless for us — that motion in the guise of which it sees the third dimension of bodies. This first motion (i.e. motion which is also real for us) must appear to it spontaneous, alive.
And these two kinds of motion will be incommensurable for it. An animal will be able to measure an angle or a convex surface, although it will not understand its true meaning and will regard it as motion. But it will never be able to measure real motion, i.e. motion that is real for us. To do this it is necessary to have our conception of time and measure all movements in relation to some more constant motion, i.e. compare all movements with one. As an animal has no concepts, it will not be able to do this. Therefore, movements of objects which are real for us will be incapable of measurement, and thus incommensurable with other movements which, for it, are real and capable of measurement, but for us are illusory, constituting in reality the third dimension of bodies.
The latter is inevitable. If an animal senses and measures as motion that which is not motion, it is clear that it cannot apply the same measure to that which is and that which is not motion.
But this does not mean that an animal cannot know the character of movements proceeding in our world and conform to them. On the contrary, we see that an animal orientates perfectly among the movements of objects of our three-dimensional world. In this it is helped by instinct, i.e. capacity, evolved through hundreds of centuries of selection, of performing expedient actions without consciousness of purpose. And an animal discriminates perfectly well between movements happening round it.
But, distinguishing between two kinds of phenomena — two kinds of motion — an animal is bound to explain one of them by some inner inexplicable property of objects, i.e. it will probably regard that kind of motion as the result of the animation of objects, and will regard moving objects as alive.
A kitten plays with a ball or with its own tail because the ball or the tail runs away from it.
A bear will fight with a beam until the beam throws him off the tree, because in the swinging beam he feels something alive and hostile.
A horse shies from a bush because the bush has suddenly turned round and waved a branch.
In the latter case the bush may not have moved at all — it was the horse that was running. But it appeared to move; therefore, it was alive. Probably everything that moves is alive for an animal. Why does a dog bark so furiously at a passing carriage? We do not quite understand it. We do not see how a passing carriage turns, twists and grimaces in the eyes of a dog. It is full of life — the wheels, the roof, the mudguards, the seats, and the passengers — all this is moving, turning…
Now let us summarize our deductions.
We have established that a man possesses sensations, representations and concepts; that higher animals possess sensations and representations, and lower animals only sensations. We deduced that an animal has no concepts mainly from the fact that it has no words, no speech. We have further established that, having no concepts, animals cannot comprehend the third dimension and only see the world as a surface. In other words they have no means, no instrument, for correcting their wrong sensations of the world. Then we found that, seeing the world as a surface, animals see on this surface a great many movements non-existent for us. That is, all those properties of bodies which we regard as the properties of their three-dimensionality, must appear as movements to them. Thus an angle and a spherical surface must appear to them as motion of the plane. Further, we came to the conclusion that everything that, for us, belongs to the domain of the third dimension as something constant, animals must regard as transient occurrences happening to objects — as time-phenomena.
Thus, in all its relations to the world an animal proves to be completely analogous to the unreal two-dimensional being, which we have supposed, lived on a plane. The whole of our world appears to an animal as a plane through which phenomena are passing, moving according to time or in time.
So we can say that we have established the following: that with a certain limitation of the mental apparatus which perceives the external world, for a subject possessing such an apparatus the whole aspect and all the properties of the world must change. And two subjects, living side by side but possessing different mental apparatuses, must live in different worlds — the properties of the extension of the world must be quite different for them. Moreover, we have seen conditions — not artificial and invented but actually existing in nature, i.e. the mental conditions of the life of animals — in which the world appears as a plane or even as a line.
In other words we have established that the three-dimensional extension of the world depends for us on the properties of our mental apparatus; or, that the world’s three-dimensionality is not its own property, but merely the property of our perception of the world.
To put it differently, the three-dimensionality of the world is the property of its reflection in our consciousness.
If all this is so, it is clear that we have really proved the dependence of space on space-sense. And, since we have proved the existence of a space-sense lower than ours, by this very fact we have proved the possibility of a space-sense higher than ours.
And we must admit that if a fourth unit of thinking becomes formed in us, as different from the concept as the concept is different from the representation, then, simultaneously with this, there will appear for us in the surrounding world a fourth characteristic which we may call geometrically a fourth direction or a fourth perpendicular, because this characteristic will contain properties of objects perpendicular to all properties known to us and not parallel to any of them. In other words, we shall see or feel ourselves not in a space of three, but of four dimensions, and the surrounding objects as well as our own bodies will reveal the general properties of the fourth dimension which we had not noticed before or which we had regarded as individual properties of objects (or their motion), just as animals regard the extension of objects in the third dimension as their motion.
Having seen or felt ourselves in the world of four dimensions, we shall find that the world of three dimensions has not and never had any real existence that it was a creation of our fantasy, a phantom, a spectre, a delusion, an optical illusion, anything you like, but not reality.
All this is far from being a ‘hypothesis’, a supposition; it is an exact fact, as much of a fact as the existence of infinity. For the sake of its own existence, positivism had somehow to do away with infinity or at least to call it a ‘hypothesis’, which may or may not be true. But infinity is not a hypothesis; it is a fact. And just such a fact is also the multi-dimensionality of space and all that it implies, i.e. the unreality of everything three-dimensional.
I don’t know about anybody else, but when I had read the above passage after the Cassiopaeans talked to us about fourth density perception, I became acutely aware of the gulf between our perception of our world and what it must actually be. Leaving aside Ouspensky and his speculations about higher density perceptions, for now we must return to our narrative regarding The Wave and the incremental revelations, where they led, and what we understand at the present.
About a week after my “Sufi” question led to the subject of “Unstable Gravity Waves,” I decided to ask some questions about the densities. I was really just trying to get a handle on why it is that we can only perceive things in the narrow frame of our reality. I wanted to know how things that are supposed to exist in other realms are veiled from us. I couldn’t quite grasp the difference between fourth density and fifth density because so many famous or well-known teachings seem to talk about physical realms and then — poof! — you go to the ethereal or “astral” realms.
The Cassiopaeans seemed to be saying that there was something “paraphysical” that was a sort of intermediate level — it was physical but in a peculiar way — and you could “die” there and then go to the astral or ethereal realms. This was a completely new idea; it seemed to me, and worth having a closer look. So, I launched into the subject:
June 22, 1996
Q: (L) Tonight, I would like to ask about fifth density. How does the “dividing line” between the four physical densities and fifth function?
A: Recycling zone, one must have direct contact in perfect balance with those on 6th density in order to fulfill the need for contemplation/learning phase while in between incarnations of 1st through 4th densities.
Q: (L) When a person finishes all their experiences on first through fourth density, do they then remain at fifth for a period before to moving to sixth?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) When you die in third and go to fifth, do you pass through or see fourth?
A: No.
Q: (L) When you are in fifth density, is part of your service to be a guide? Are there two kinds of beings on fifth: those who are there for the recycling, and those whose level it simply is? (I had heard a lot of different teachings to this effect — that “dead dudes” could choose to be “guides” or whatever. I was a little confused about how this whole thing worked.)
A: No. All are as one in timeless understanding of all there is.
Q: (L) If, at fifth density a person has timeless understanding, what is it about them that determines that they will “recycle” as opposed to moving to sixth from fifth?
A: Contemplation reveals needed destiny.
Q: (L) So, being united with other beings on fifth, you come to some sort of understanding about your lessons…
A: Balanced. And this, my dear, is another example of gravity as the binder of all creation… “The Great Equalizer!”
Q: (L) In this picture in my mind, the cycle moves out in dispersion, begins to accrete and return to the source. Is this correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this, in fact, that exactly half of all that exists is moving into imbalance, while the other half is moving into balance?
A: Close.
Q: (L) All the cosmos? All that exists?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it possible that one area of the cosmos has more of the balance-seeking energy while another has more of that which is seeking imbalance?
A: Oh yes!
Q: (L) Is the Earth one of those areas that are more imbalanced than balanced at the present time?
A: Yes, but rapidly moving back toward balance.
Q: (L) Is the Realm Border part of this balancing?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) A few weeks ago several of us began to suffer from internal heat, insomnia, and other things. What was this?
A: Image. Deep conjunction of fibrous linkage in DNA structure.
Q: (V) Well, I want to know if it is in my mind that I get so hot, or does my body temperature actually elevate?
A: Only on 4th. Bleed through, get used to those!
Q: (L) Does this mean we are actually experiencing a bleed through of fourth density?
A: Image.
Q: (V) Are the little flashes of light I see also a manifestation of this?
A: Maybe so, but try to concentrate on the ethereal significance, rather than the physical.
Q: (L) When you say “deep conjunction of fibrous linkage,” does this mean that we are conjoining with a linkage to a fourth density body that is growing, developing?
A: Slowly, but surely. We have told you before that the upcoming “changes” relate to the spiritual and awareness factors rather than the much publicized physical. Symbolism is always a necessary tool in teaching. But, the trick is to read the hidden lessons represented by the symbology, not to get hung up on the literal meanings of the symbols!
Q: (L) You say that the symbology has to do with hidden meanings. The symbology that you used was “image” and “deep fibrous linkage” of DNA. Now, is that a physical, symbolic image?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is your definition of “image?” We have many.
A: Learning is fun, Laura, as you have repeatedly found!
Q: (L) Well, I am so hot now that I really need to know about this! And, how come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?
A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.
Q: (L) Image. DNA linkage. (V) “Power” was in quotes.
A: Leave that alone for now, you will know soon enough.
Q: (V) Is this fourth density body something that already exists so that we could communicate with it?
A: Habeas Corpus?
Q: (V) Well, they just said… (L) Well, what they must mean is that you are it — you are transforming little by little and all of the unpleasant little side-effects are just part of it.
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Righteous! (L) T*** A*** showed me a couple of acupuncture points that seem to induce an altered state. Is this, as he says, a way to open the door to the subconscious?
A: Stimulates endorphins.
Q: (L) Is there any point on the body that can be used to assist in opening the gate to the subconscious?
A: No such assistance is needed. First, we would like to suggest that you seek a “spin” doctor for your quest!!
Q: (L) Would a “spin” doctor be a Sufi master?
A: One example.
Q: (L) Yes. They keep bringing up things involving spinning.
A: Hilliard. Leedskallen. Coral Castle.
Q: (L) Well, they are really pushing on this gravity thing. Can I ask a question on another subject?
A: You can ask about the Easter Bunny, if you wish.
Q: (L) Is third density awareness the only density with perception of time?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, what others?
A: 4,5,6,7.
Q: (L) But I thought that time perception was an illusion?
A: YOUR perception of it is an illusion. Remember the example of the dogs and cats riding in a car?
Q: (L) Yes. Ouspensky and the horse. So, time, as an essential thing, does exist?
A: But not as you know it. When we refer to “timelessness,” we are speaking from the standpoint of your familiarity only.
Q: (L) Does time then exist, and does space have a limit?
A: You are getting confused because your inborn linear perception is clouding the image your efforts are trying to produce.
Q: (L) Okay, let’s go back to the “balancing” of Earth. How can this be done?
A: Vague question.
Q: (L) Let me try this: the “buckets of love and light” group say that it is going to be balanced because everyone is going to think nice thoughts, and all of their buckets of love and light are going to eventually reach a critical mass and spill over onto all the rest of humanity and all of the bad guys are going to be transformed into good guys. This is the standard version. Is this what you mean?
A: No.
Q: (L) Swell! Is the energy that is being manifested in the positive, on and around the planet, is it going to reduce the level of negativity in the beings existing on the planet?
A: This is not the point. When “Earth” becomes a fourth density realm, all the forces, both STS and STO shall be in direct contact with one another… It will be a “level playing field,” thus, balanced.
Q: (L) Speaking of balance, one of the crop circles you interpreted was an “astronomical twin phenomenon.” What is an astronomical twin phenomenon?
A: Many perfectly synchronous meanings. Duplicity of, as in “Alice through the looking glass.”
Q: (L) Double images. Hmmm… Does this relate to matter and antimatter?
A: Yes, and…
Q: (L) Gravity and manifesting on one side and manifesting a mirror image on the other…
A: Yes, and… Astronomical.
Q: (L) Okay, that relates to stars and planets… astronomical in terms of another universe, an alternate universe composed of antimatter?
A: Yes, and…
Q: (L) Is this alternate universe of antimatter the point from which phenomena occur or are manifested in our universe?
A: More like doorway or “conduit.”
Q: (L) Is this alternate universe the means by which we must travel to fourth density? Is it like a veil, or an abyss of some sort?
A: Think of it as the highway. Realm Border is traveling wave.
Q: (L) Okay, you say “traveling wave,” and then you say that antimatter is the highway. Does this mean moving through antimatter or interacting in some way with antimatter via the impetus of the traveling wave, or realm border?
A: Bends space/time, this is where your unstable gravity waves can be utilized.
Q: (L) Utilizing antimatter by creating an EM field, which collapses the gravity wave, allows antimatter to unite with matter, creating a portal through which space/time can be bent, or traveled through via this “bending.” In other words, producing an EM field, which results in a sort of bringing in the antimatter, is the bending of space/time? Is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Is there a portal for each person, or one large portal?
A: No.
Q: (V) So we move through a portal in masses?
A: No.
Q: (V) If there are not personal portals for one person, or portals for groups of people…
A: Portal is where you desire it to be. With proper technology you can create a portal where desired. There are unlimited options.
Q: (L) Proper technology. Unstable gravity waves. And once you told us to study Tesla coils… antimatter… destabilizing the gravity waves through EM generation allows the antimatter to interact with matter which then creates a portal… Is it in the antimatter universe that all this traveling back and forth is done by aliens when they abduct people?
A: Close. They transport through it, but most abductions take place in either 3rd or fourth density.
Q: (L) Is this movement through the antimatter universe, is this what people perceive in their abductions as the “wall of fire?” The coming apart. The demolecularizing?
A: No. That is TransDimensional Atomic Remolecularization.
Q: (L) Okay, if a person were passing into the antimatter universe, how would they perceive it?
A: They wouldn’t.
Q: (L) Why?
A: No space; no time.
Q: (L) Antimatter universe has no space and no time… so, the antimatter universe is possibly where the poor guys of Flight 19 are?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you can get stuck in this place?
A: Yes. And if you are in a time warp cocoon, you are hyperconscious, i.e. you perceive “zero time” as if it were literally millions of years that is if the cycle is connected or closed, as in “Philadelphia Experiment.” And, on that note, good night.
Now, I want to put two remarks from the above transcript together:
A: When “Earth” becomes a fourth density realm, all the forces, both STS and STO shall be in direct contact with one another… It will be a “level playing field,” thus, balanced.
Q: (L) So, being united with other beings on fifth, you come to some sort of understanding about your lessons…
A: Balanced. And this, my dear, is another example of gravity as the binder of all creation… “The Great Equalizer!”
Remembering what was said about the “essence beings” in Chapter 2:
Q: (L) Are there other parts of us in all realms doing other things at this moment?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And how is this going to be affected by the realm border crossing?
A: Will merge.
Q: (L) Do we need to do extensive hypnosis to bring these aspects of ourselves up and deal with these things a little at a time?
A: Will happen involuntarily. Will be like a thermonuclear blast.
And what was said in our “Oz” discussion:
Q: (T) Now, when those who move into fourth density make the move, will they experience completeness or merge with all other densities of their being, at that point, even if it is for a short time?
A: For one immeasurably small instant, this is what is meant by “illumination”!
Q: (T) But, for that small instant, because there really is no time, maybe an instant or an aeon, depending on how any individual might measure it; we might experience oneness with ourselves?
A: It may seem to last “forever.”
Q: (L) Is this what is known as the “rapture?”
A: Some have attempted to explain instinctive thought patterns this way.
It seems we have identified our Wave — it is a Gravity Wave.
So far, so good, right? Is everybody with me here? Do we all know what it is I am trying to find out with these questions? I thought so, and what’s more, I thought I was getting a handle on the thing. I thought I had a clue. I had become so intensely driven by the references to gravity waves unlocking the secrets of physics that I couldn’t even sleep at night for all the visions of Nobel Prizes dancing in my head!
There I was, Mrs. Average America with five kids and a spirit board in the room next to my kitchen that was going to give me the secrets to unlock all the mysteries of space, time, and being!
I was going to do it for all the women in the world who had been treated like second class citizens since that wily old Lizard Jehovah/Yahweh sent the apple to Eve. I was going to do it for all the unsung heroes and home grown geniuses who eke out their lives in quiet desperation, asking the heavens at night, “Why am I here? What must I do?” My handy dandy little spirit board was going to give me the new Theory of Everything! I was going to wrap it all up in a nice, neat little package and mail it to the nearest university, and they were going to just go gaga over it and send me to Stockholm to pick up my medal!
What a heady feeling! I should have seen it coming, but I didn’t. The pit, that is. You know, the one that pride digs? I fell into it at the next session.
As I said, I was starting to feel pretty confident with this channeling thing we had going on here. For somebody who, as a rule, finds most channeled material to be mindless psychobabble at best, or insidious disinformation leading to destruction at worst, I was becoming rather fascinated by the material the Cassiopaeans were delivering.
After a couple of years of holding everything they said in deepest suspicion, looking for the flaws, being a super skeptic, I was now beginning to think that I had invented the wheel! After all, it seemed they could hold their own in a discussion with a “real” scientist; they produced information that was initially thought to be incredible or nonsense, which then checked out in amazing ways; and most of all, they very carefully avoided any kind of interference in our personal lives in a direct way, while the information they were imparting to us, if considered and added to our criteria for evaluating our reality, seemed to help enormously in sorting through problems and understanding what was going on under the surface.
They were, in effect, not giving us fish, but teaching us to fish.
And, of course, with this growing confidence, I decided to run a tighter ship, so to speak. No more fun and games. Let’s get right down to business here and solve this puzzle and go home!
June 29, 1996
Q: (L) Well, I would like to get directly to my questions as they have developed during the past few days. The first thing is in regard to the Santilli session: is awareness equal to gravity?
A: It is a part therein.
Q: (L) Does accumulation of knowledge and awareness correspond to an increase in gravity?
A: No.
Q: (L) You said that energy can change the value of the density. The value of the density, as I understand it, is either plus or minus. Does this mean that pumping energy into third density from another realm of space/time can intensify the gravity to such a state that it changes its unit and becomes antimatter?
A: No.
Q: (L) You said that EM was the same as gravity. Does an increase in EM, the collection of EM or the production of an EM wave, does this increase gravity on those things or objects or persons subjected to it?
A: Gravity does not ever get increased or decreased; it is merely collected and dispersed.
Q: (L) If gravity is collected and dispersed, and planets and stars are windows, and you say that human beings “have” gravity, does that mean that the human beings, or the life forms on a given planet or in a given solar system, are the collectors of this gravity?
A: No. Gravity is the Collector of human beings and all else! Make “collector” singular.
Q: (L) Is STO the equivalent of dispersing gravity?
A: No, STO is a REFLECTION of the existence of gravity dispersal.
Q: (L) Is STS also dispersal of gravity?
A: No. Collection is reflected. STS is reflection or reflected by collection of gravity.
Q: (L) You said that changing the unit involves movement to another density. You also said that antimatter realm is the door to, or the pathway to, ethereal existence. Is fourth density, therefore, an antimatter universe?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do the beings in fourth density manifest in an antimatter state?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Is fourth density a density where both matter and antimatter are in balance?
A: Not in balance, in evidence.
Q: (L) So matter and antimatter are both available for utilization by individuals according to will and awareness?
A: Close. Antimatter and matter are balanced everywhere.
Q: (L) You say that increasing awareness was “a part therein,” of gravity. So, if a person is increasing awareness, do they also increase in gravity?
A: No.
Q: (L) What is the relationship between the increasing awareness and gravity?
A: Nothing direct.
Q: (L) I am trying to find out what effect increasing awareness has on human beings in relation to this unstable gravity wave you have mentioned, as well as the oncoming “wave.”
A: You are trying to “marry” two parallels. [Note that the intent here is that “increasing awareness” is parallel to the “oncoming wave.”]
Q: (L) We have two parallels… Okay… So if one is exponential increasing in awareness, the sign of the units of bodily energy does not change?
A: You are still attempting to generate.
Q: (L) Well, I am just trying to get a grip on some ideas here…
A: Then change the thought pattern. Gravity is the “stuff” of all existence; therefore it has an unchanging property of quantity.
Q: (L) So, gravity is not being “used,” per se?
A: Close. You can utilize gravity, but you cannot “use” it. You cannot increase or decrease that which is in perfectly balanced static state.
Q: (L) So, gravity is in a perfectly “static” state. Yet, it can be “utilized.” Can you make clear for me the transition from the static state to utilization? What occurs?
A: There is no transition, just application.
Q: (L) What occurs from the perfectly static state to the application mode? Is anybody following me?
A: No, including us!
Q: (L) Wonderful! What I am trying to get at is, 1) gravity exists in a static state; 2) light is an energy expression of gravity, therefore it is utilization? Correct?
A: No. Light is an expression of gravitational energy.
Q: (L) Well, when one has an expression, it expresses onto, into, or to something somewhere…
A: It does? If a tree falls in the forest, and nothing is there to hear it, does it make a sound?
Q: (L) You are saying that gravity is everywhere in balance and static, and then you say that utilization causes unstable gravity waves. And then you say that gravity is God, and that God is all creation, and we are a part of all creation, and, therefore, we are of God, and gravity. So, what I am trying to get at here is: what is the thing, the event, the manifestation, the mode of utilization that takes gravity from a perfectly static state to an unstable state, if you are saying it is always perfectly balanced. That does not make sense to me.
A: Instability does not automatically mean non-static. Unstable waves can be static in their instability.
Q: (L) None of this makes a whole lot of sense. I thought I was beginning to understand it, and obviously I don’t have a clue. Let’s try a different direction. You said that the universe consists of equal amounts of matter and antimatter. Are the first three densities, densities of matter?
A: And antimatter.
Q: (L) Are there equal amounts of matter and antimatter at all densities?
A: Yes. Remember, density refers to one’s conscious awareness only. Once one is aware, ALL [many spirals of the planchette] conforms to that awareness.
Q: (L) What is it about the oncoming Wave that is going to make any given person aware?
A: Not yet… First: your prophets have always used 3rd density symbology to try to convey fourth density realities. You are attempting to gather 3rd density answers to explain 4th through 7th density principles. This is why you are getting frustrated, because it doesn’t “mesh.”
Q: (L) Are manifestations in third density simply loci of collection of gravity?
A: In part. But, so are manifestations on all densities. What do you suppose the opposite of gravity is?
Q: (L) Antigravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, if all that exists were like a blown up balloon, and the surface of the balloon represents the static state of gravity, 7th density maybe… and it begins to bump out in different places… and all these little bumps are loci of manifestation of various densities — and this is very simplified, I am just trying to get an image — is this getting, even very simplistically, to an idea that I can work with?
A: As long as you have an “antiballoon” too.
Q: (L) So, can we make the outer surface of the balloon a balloon, and the inner surface or the air the “antiballoon?”
A: No.
Q: (L) Two balloons next to one another?
A: No. A nonballoon.
Q: (L) A nonballoon?!! You are making me CRAZY! You are saying that NOTHING exists! We are just not even HERE! I mean! Let’s just turn out the lights and say “sayonara!”
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, for God’s SAKE! Help me out with a visual on this! [Pause and deep breath — everyone in the room looking at me expectantly.] Okay, a balloon in front of a mirror, the reflection of the balloon is the “nonballoon?”
A: No.
Q: (L) The nonballoon is when the balloon switches off — but it does it so fast you are not aware of it — like a pulsation…? I mean… I am desperate here!
A: You see, my dear, when you arrive at fourth density, then you will see.
Q: (L) Well, how in the heck am I supposed to get there if I can’t “get it?”
A: Who says you have to “get it” before you get there?
Q: (L) Well, that leads us right back to: what is the Wave going to do to expand this awareness? Because, if the wave is what “gets you there,” what makes this so?
A: No. It is like this: After you have completed all your lessons in “third grade,” where do you go?
Q: (L) So, it is a question of…
A: Answer, please.
Q: (L) You go to fourth grade.
A: Okay, now, do you have to already be in 4th grade in order to be allowed to go there? Answer.
Q: (L) No. But you have to know all the third density things…
A: Yes. More apropos: you have to have learned all of the lessons.
Q: (L) What kind of lessons are we talking about here?
A: Karmic and simple understandings.
Q: (L) What are the key elements of these understandings, and are they fairly universal?
A: They are universal.
Q: (L) What are they?
A: We cannot tell you that.
Q: (L) Swell! My night would not have been complete without that! Do the lessons have to do with discovering the meanings of the symbology of third density existence, seeing behind the veil… and reacting to things according to a true free choice? Giving each thing or person or event its due as the Sufis teach?
A: Okay. But you cannot force the issue. When you have learned, you have learned!
Q: (L) I just want to make sure that I am doing the most I can do. I don’t want to have to come back to third density.
A: You cannot, so just enjoy the ride. Learning is fun!
Q: (L) Now, you told me research and meditate upon unstable gravity waves. And, that once I understood this, quantum physics would be perfectly clear to me, and basically everything would be perfectly clear. Now, I have been struggling with this…
A: That is just the point, Laura! When it is a struggle, you are not learning. So stop struggling and meditate i.e. enjoy the ride.
So, I fell into the pit of ego — I thought I had a clue. But how the dickens can you stop struggling and “enjoy the ride” when the whole world seems to be an out-of-control train heading straight for a bridge that has been washed out by a dam that has collapsed in a torrential downpour? At least that is what it seemed like at the time. I needed to understand. I needed to know what was going on here on the Big Blue Marble. I really needed those answers!
So, since the Cassiopaeans had suggested that I do research on gravity waves, that is exactly what I decided to do. I went to the library and struck out. Nothing there. I did a rather primitive internet search (I wasn’t very computer smart at the time) and found a couple of odd references that made no sense, and finally decided to do something rather more daring.
I figured that Dr. Santilli must be the answer! If he had lost interest in the Cassiopaeans, maybe I could rekindle it. I put together the material from the Santilli session with the subsequent gravity wave material delivered over a year later, and typed it all up very nicely and faxed it to him along with a request that he have a look at what had come up since he had visited. I was sure he would be interested and things would just take off from there.
Nope. Barely a flicker of a response.
Okay, Plan A flopped; Plan B: obtain permission from Dr. Santilli to use his name and then post the material on the internet in the hopes that someone would read it who knew something about gravity waves and would reciprocate with more information I could work with. Fortunately, he was gracious enough to consent, and I dutifully sent the whole sequence of remarks to Col. Steve Wilson for his opinion, and to ask if he would post it to his Skywatch mail group. Col. Wilson was very interested in the material, and the Cassiopaeans as well, since we had exchanged a number of previous e-mails on many subjects. It was his opinion that the Cassiopaeans were certainly revealing information that was accurate and that he could verify. But some of the information he could neither verify nor comment on.
Col. Wilson posted the Santilli session to the mail group on June 27, 1996, and I settled down to wait and see if anyone who could point me in the right direction for my research would read it. The subject field of the message read: “Dr. Roger Santilli and the Cassiopaeans…” I thought it was catchy enough that people wouldn’t just delete it out of hand.
I admit to having been more than a little paranoid about sending this material out this way. After all, I had already experienced some pretty vicious attacks from various sources that I will detail another time, and it was clear to me that there was possibly some danger to myself in making public the Cassiopaean information in some of the more “sensitive” areas. But, I was desperate, and understood that being desperate called for desperate measures.
Nothing happened. Nobody commented on the post. Nothing was said by a single soul on that supposedly humongous mail group. I had played my cards and lost. There would be no more information about gravity waves.
The Fourth of July was coming up and my aunt invited me to come to her house to celebrate since there were also a couple of family birthdays — one on the third and one on the fifth — so we were going to do the whole family celebration thing and go to a fireworks exhibition and barbeque. I was pretty depressed but the kids wanted to go, and since I was finally recovering somewhat from my months of disability, I thought I would chance it and make the trip. Besides, my cousin is an aerospace engineer and I had decided that I would sort of “come out of the closet” about my channeling activities and enlist his help in looking at the material and seeing if he could come up with any “real” physics or math that would further the project. Heck, who knows? Maybe he would know something about gravity waves!
So, we went. It’s about 150 miles there and usually takes over three hours with the traffic, but it seemed like a lot less with the kids so excited and happy to be “on the road.” We barreled along through the North Florida woods with the tape player blasting us with U2 and Pink Floyd all the way. I must have heard “Are we there yet?” at least a hundred times.
The barbeque was nice and I won a fishing rod in a raffle for the local volunteer fire department. The kids had a great time with the cousins, but I was tiring rapidly and couldn’t keep up with all the activity. My aerospace engineer cousin either knew nothing about gravity waves or thought it wasn’t a suitable subject to discuss with a woman. His attitude seemed to be humorously condescending, so the conversation went nowhere. So there I was, wandering around in the heat, humidity, and bugs, wondering just what the heck was I going to do next. We stayed overnight and I had a strange experience there sleeping in a strange bed. I was feeling so completely alone — more than I ever had in my life — and I wanted so badly to solve these problems about our reality, our existence, our place in the universe, but I just couldn’t seem to connect with a single, solitary person who was as driven as I was to understand Why? How? And all that. I actually began to cry from the frustration and I was shouting the question at the universe in my mind. It seemed to echo and re-echo endlessly into the vastness of space, which frightened me, but then an odd sensation of comfort, of destiny seemed to settle over me like a blanket. I just knew that an answer would come if I persisted.
The strangest feeling of disconnectedness from that environment of mindless celebration grew in me all through the next day, and I got more and more restless with each passing moment. I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin.
Finally, I could stand it no longer and I told the children that as soon as the fireworks were over we were going home. Thankfully, they were tired enough from all their activities that the thought of sleeping in their own beds made them agreeable, and we made our apologies for not staying the full three days and headed out with the last “rocket’s red glare” showering down over the softball field in that little backwoods, North Florida town which boasted a single traffic light but one of the best fireworks shows I have ever seen!
On the road again. Night driving in the Florida backwoods — one of life’s great pleasures. Minimal traffic, soft scented air blowing in the windows, smooth, two-lane blacktop between towering pine trees for miles and miles. The children were soon asleep and I drove straight home, arriving not long after midnight. I put everyone to bed and had a long, relaxing soak in the tub before putting myself to bed. But, just before turning in, I decided to check my e-mail to see if anybody had sent me anything at all.
“You have mail!” the computer informed me.
And I did.
Subject: Dr. Roger Santilli and the Cassiopaeans…
Send reply to: ajad@physik.uni-bielefeld.de
Date sent: Fri, 5 Jul 1996 19:07:43 +1
Hi, Which is the address (e-mail?) of Dr. Roger Santilli? I would like to take a look at his papers.
Thanks.
ark
What a funny name! And what a funny feeling it gave me. Subtle, indistinct, like a small draft of warm air across my cheek.
“Nothing,” my conscious mind scolded! After all, this person with the funny name only wanted Santilli’s e-mail, and had nothing at all to say about the Cassiopaeans. What a disappointment! But, it was the first “nibble” in the eight days since I had sent out the material.
I swallowed my disappointment and decided to be as helpful as possible.
The end result was this: indeed, the Cassiopaeans were correct when they said that our little demo at the MUFON meeting was “predestined.” Because it created a situation that caught the attention of Santilli, and because, a year later, I posted the Santilli session on a mail list on the internet, it was forwarded to a physicist who was interested in the Cassiopaean material. And not just any physicist — a physicist with a good reputation, a Humboldt Prize-Winning physicist with a list of publications as long as my arm, and a specialist in the areas necessary to work on the very problems that had haunted my mind all my life.
Moreover, he was as driven to understand and solve them as I was. And, the curious fact is that he was actually writing about gravity waves in his research journal during the same time period that the Cassiopaeans were urging me to research them.
He was sitting on a broken, ancient megalith along the side of one of his favorite walks in Firenze and he decided, on the day after I first wrote back to him, to go and photograph that stone as a sort of document of the event.
Above: The ancient megalith on which Ark was sitting while writing in his research journal about gravity waves.
Above: The view from Ark’s office window in Firenze. The buildings of the University there are very old — formerly a monastery.
Another interesting thing is that one might even think that a physicist is a “spin doctor”.
June 22, 1996
Q: (L) Is there any point on the body that can be used to assist in opening the gate to the subconscious?
A: No such assistance is needed. First, we would like to suggest that you seek a “spin” doctor for your quest!!
Certainly, the strange events I recounted in the chapter three, which occurred only after meeting Ark, suggest that this relationship was destined to “open the gates to the subconscious” in me.
At a very early point in our relationship we agreed that our quest was the very thing that had brought us together, so we were certainly going to begin working together on it right away. Ark would read sections of the transcripts, and compose questions that he sent to me via e-mail. He would also ask questions about the many subjects that he had become familiar with in his own research.
Nine days after that first e-mail, Ark participated in a session. In a curious way it brought us back around to the subject of The Wave.
July 14, 1996
Q: (L) First of all, I have had some contact with a physicist who is interested in the material. And, because of this, I was motivated to pick up a book I had read many years ago about the German occupation of Poland, and there were some very strange things said in this book, and some funny synchronous numbers… It just seemed to be a prototype of the present reality in global terms. My question is: is there some synchronous implication between this contact, the reading of this book when I was eleven years old, and the material we have received through this source?
A: Open.
Q: (L) You have said that the Holocaust was basically a ‘practice run’ for the ultimate space invasion. Was Hitler’s agenda a practice run for a future scenario?
A: Close. Was a “testing” of the will.
Q: (L) Whose will was being tested?
A: Yours.
Q: (L) Me specifically, or the planet?
A: Latter.
Q: (L) In terms of this scenario, is there some lesson that we can learn about what may or may not occur through this book I have mentioned?
A: Maybe, but suggest you learn to blend mosaic consciousness.
Q: (L) What is mosaic consciousness?
A: Thinking in internally spherical terms, rather than using linear “point blank” approach. The whole picture is seen by seeing the whole scene. Picture yourself as being at the center of a mosaic.
Q: (L) Okay, I know what you are saying, but I just don’t think that there is any way I can do this!
A: Yes you can!
Q: (L) Okay. Okay. This whole situation, this Polish connection, this German connection,1 the American and alien things, the soldier/Nephilim thing, these are all manifestations of a Realm Border Crossing, am I correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) And some of the manifestations of a Realm Border Crossing are that some people graduate or transition to fourth density, that their awareness changes, everything changes, the playing field is leveled. So, what happened in Germany was a ‘practice run’ but what is going to happen is that the ‘playing field’ is going to be leveled, so it will not be exactly the same scenario, is this a correct assessment?
A: Maybe. All right, my dear, you want the facts, so we will give them to you, and hopefully you will comprehend. If not now, then when necessary maybe…
Fact number one: All there is is lessons.
Fact two: This is one big school.
Fact three: Timing as you perceive it, is never, never definite.
Fact four: What is to happen, as you state it, is a ways off, and will not occur until you have reached that point on the learning cycle, and you are not close yet.
Fact five: The learning cycle is variable, and progress along it is determined by events and circumstances as they unfold.
Q: (L) So, the events and circumstances of our lives, individually and collectively, can indicate where we are on this learning cycle? And we are asking to have things told to us, or revealed to us about things that are, in themselves, the necessary lessons? And it would be virtually useless to be told about them since they must be experienced?
A: Partly correct. If you want hints, then hints shall we give. But, if you are looking for a “road map?” Forgetitski!
Q: (L) Okay, we want some hints. And Ark wants some hints, too! He wants to know if we can invent a tool that enhances free will?
A: No tool is needed because of facts 3, 4, and 5.
Q: (L) Ummm… So, when a person is being hypnotized and controlled from outside, because that is the matter of concern we were discussing earlier, they are hypnotized and controlled until they learn to stop it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, using the analogy of the Prodigal Son in the pigsty, they just have to wallow in it and suffer until they have had enough?
A: Using your analogy of the bicycle: Is there a tool that makes it unnecessary for the child to learn how to ride the bicycle in order to know how to ride it?
Q: (MM) Don’t you get more free will by assimilating knowledge?
A: Yes!! Yes!!
Q: (L) So, in other words, knowledge and awareness makes you aware that you have free will, and also makes you aware of what actions actually are acts of free will, and therefore, when you know or suspect the difference between the lies and deception and truth, then you are in a position to be in control of your life?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Ark also wants to ask… Well, his problem is faith, as he said it to me.
A: Faith comes also from knowledge, and as we have stated before… False knowledge is worse than no knowledge at all!!!!!
Q: (L) So, it is important to take each and every thing that is being learned or analyzed, and take it completely apart and dig in every direction around it, and even in related directions, to fully ascertain that it is true? As C.S. Lewis said, knowledge is like a rope… as long as you are using it to tie up a box, it doesn’t matter whether it is perfect or not, but if you have to use it to hang over a precipice, then it behooves you to make absolutely certain that it is strong enough to support your weight.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, Ark asks about this: “In 1979, Project Phoenix, with the assistance of the Grays, was successful in producing a mind amplifier.” Is this true?
A: Nope!
Q: (L) Okay! That was pretty precise! Next: “Is it possible that, under drug influence, psychics, or those with mental capabilities above the norm, can be hooked up to some type of machine and are enabled thereby to create some type of physical form?”
A: Possible. Now review: The “Grays” are cybergenetic probes of the “Lizard” beings, so just exactly who is doing the assisting? And who is behind the Lizard types?? Could it be your ancestors, perhaps!?!
Q: (L) It says here: “The fire within man that is characterized as passion is the secret that can be utilized. The secret to all things is passion. With passion all things are possible. The amplification experiments of the Phoenix Project have been explained as having amplified brain waves. In fact, it amplified the passion of the subject. It was that “inner will” of the subject that was amplified, that inner spirit within all of us is that driving force is manifested as electrical energy. Master that force and you cannot be controlled, the universe is yours. Master the inner spirit and you shall master the physical.” Comments please.
A: First things first: Who is doing the assisting? And how is the assisting being done?!!!!!!???
Q: (L) Well, they say that the Grays are assisting the Consortium; this is the Hopi material… Who is doing the assisting? Hmmmm… Give me a clue… I think that the Nordic aliens are controlling the Lizards, who created the Grays, which are probes of the Lizards, and are purportedly assisting the Consortium…
A: Assisting? Or maybe influencing?!? And if so, how so?!? And, is not this the whole point? Are you not ultimately influenced always?!? In EVERYTHING you do? We have stated thus numerous times… So, please let us not get off the track, okay?
Q: (L) In other words, as long as we are in the pigsty, we are in the pigsty, and until we get out of it, we are in it?
A: Until you reach that point on the learning cycle.
Q: (MM) What is this chemical they use with these psychics, per se, is it the “akashic chemical?”
A: That information you refer to is false in its entirety! “Passion” does not set one “free,” quite the opposite!
Q: (L) But what if your passion is for knowledge?
A: That is not passion. It is soul questing.
Q: (L) What is it that gives some people this drive, this steamroller effect, that they are determined to get to the absolute bottom of everything and strip away every lie until there is nothing left but the naked truth? What is the source of this desire?
A: Wrong concept. It is simply that one is at that point on the learning cycle. At that point, no drive is needed.
Q: (L) So, you more or less are there because some critical mass has been reached that “jumps” you to the point where seeking truth is simply who you are? It defines the parameters of your being. Is it like a 360-degree circle, and each person is a different point on the circle, and the whole thing cycles, and you never change relative to the people behind and in front of you, and the only real thing you can do to help anyone is to move the circle by moving yourself, thereby pushing the one ahead of you up, and pulling the one behind you into your previous place? And where you are on the cycle determines what you do?
A: It is a single cycle, yes. There is only one learning cycle, and where you are upon it, determines your EXPERIENCES, and vice versa.
Q: (L) Is there ever any point where lines connect from one point on the cycle so that you can ‘jump’ from one point to another? Like a wormhole in space or something?
A: Refer to facts 1 and 2 and 3.
Q: (L) So, no short cuts?
A: Now, refer to 3, 4 and 5.
Q: (L) So, certain events and circumstances could help a person to make “leaps?”
A: No “leap”, acceleration.
Q: (L) One thing, previously when we were talking about unstable gravity waves, and I asked what caused them to become unstable, you said “utilization”, and that STO was dispersion, and STS was “collection” of gravity. I have made a few conjectures about this and would like to ask, does this mean that in giving to others, even if what you are giving is a withholding of assistance because you know that assistance would only prolong the lesson, is dispersing gravity, and exerting mental or other control over others, even if one is unaware that they are attaching energy drains to another, also a form of collecting gravity?
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, when you collect gravity, you become like a black hole, you cave in on yourself?
A: Ultimately.
Q: (L) And it seems to me that one of the objectives of what we are doing is releasing the gravity collected in ourselves?
A: If that is your choice, or if that is your path.
Q: (L) Is choice as intimately connected with the path, as I understand it? Is it just simply part of how you are configured in your soul essence?
A: Close.
Q: (L) And there are people for whom STS is simply their choice. It is their path.
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, it is a judgment and a disservice to try to convert someone to your path, even if you perceive the end result of the path they are on, that it leads to dissolution? It is still their chosen path?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, if you send “buckets of love and light” to such a one, and that is their path, you are violating their free will?
A: You might as well send “buckets” of vomit, as that is how they will react. Judgment is STS.
Q: (L) You told us before that stars and planets are portals, or openings into other densities. Is it possible that this oncoming wave, this Realm Border Crossing will be accessed through these types of portals, that it is not something that is actually in our ‘space,’ but that it would emanate through stars and planets? Am I onto something here?
A: You may be starting down a long path. Just remember: All prophecies attached to calendar dates are useless unless you wish to be sucked up by the fourth density STS forces!
Q: (L) Speaking of being sucked up by fourth density STS forces, MM was told by her local Hindu gathering that she was “vacuuming” up their energies and they invited her to either get with the program or find another group to hang out with. What kind of an interaction was this? Why were they so uncomfortable in her presence?
A: Because they wished to be worshipped.
Q: (L) Does that mean that being worshipped is the equivalent of sucking energy?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Now, I am curious about the doggie image that was on the photo that MM took and showed to me?
A: In these times, 2nd density creatures will collect more and more attachments.
Q: (L) Are these attachments like other entities?
A: Yes, and others.
Q: (L) When they are collecting these attachments, are they collecting them from us, as in protecting?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are they being used to collect attachments to be detrimental to us?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Why are our animals picking up attachments?
A: Because of vibrational frequency intensifications, i.e. The Wave.
Q: (L) Is there something we could do? I mean, are we supposed to get rid of pets?
A: We would never suggest something as harsh as this. However, beware: third density STS orientation includes the thought of “dominion” over 2nd density, and this is merely a continuation of the energy buildups of the approach of The Wave… Some of the lessons are interesting indeed. When you assume that capture and imprisonment of those of lesser capacity than you is for “their good,” why should not you expect those of greater capacity than you to assume the same regarding you?!? We would like you to ponder this further. We suspect there is much to be gained from insights lurking there.
The Wave subject was put on hold at this point because so many “real life” activities took priority — such as working in the direction of Ark’s first visit and details about how to arrange our future so that we could work together in real space/time rather than in an amorphous virtual reality.
But, when all of the matters finally began to sort themselves out, we eventually came back to the subject. But, by this time, we were learning that we had to do our homework, there was no free lunch, and the goal of solving the greatest mysteries of reality was going to be a pretty big project. What we learned makes up this series of books.
1 The past life situation described in Amazing Grace is what is referred to here. All my life I was haunted by dreams and images of a past life in Nazi Germany where I was married to a Jew who was arrested. Our four children were also taken away to camps. I committed suicide as a result of my grief for my family. I spent my whole life wondering where my husband of that time was. Upon meeting Ark, both of us experienced phenomena that suggested strongly that he was, indeed, that “Lost Love” from another life, perhaps even many other lives. As the Cassiopaeans remarked at a later point, we were “complementary souls.”
I want to bring some important points from the previous chapters into closer focus. It seems, according to the Cassiopaeans, that the coming of the Wave is parallel to the increase of awareness of a small number of human beings. It is rather like The Wave is increasing awareness, and then the awareness is accelerating The Wave — a feedback loop, so to speak.
Not only that, but it seems that only those people who have completed certain lessons will graduate to fourth density. As I understand it, the rest will find themselves on a third density Earth that has possibly been devastated by wars and/or cometary impact, the accoutrements of civilization having been wiped out, and perhaps, though I am not certain of this, the conceptual abilities required for rebuilding civilization will have been limited by virtue of the new “cosmic ray environment”. Not a pleasant prospect for some, but for others, the idea of starting over at the beginning of third density and having many thousands of years to go through many lifetimes partaking of the “delights of the flesh” is apparently rather appealing.
Of course, with that scenario come all of the millennia of war, famine, disease, cruelty and so forth that are part and parcel of third density existence. But, for some, that is just the price that must be paid for their personal self-aggrandizement and pleasure. The STS mode always adopts the Wishful Thinking of “that won’t happen to me! I’m an exception!”
Another important issue we have encountered is that of “gravity”. The Cassiopaeans have said that the STS (Service to Self) mode is a reflection of the collecting of gravity and that STO (Service to Others) is a reflection of the dispersion of gravity. What can this mean and what ramifications are implied? Is it a similar concept to what I suspected when I wrote Noah1 and talked about “contact potential difference”? Does it mean that the forces on the planet that desire to control, and who are duping humanity so effectively, are going to actually contribute to the “magnetizing” of the Wave to our reality, the very thing they may wish to avoid?
And what might it mean for a person to be in a “gravity collecting” mode when The Wave “hits”? Will it then affect them differently than a person who is in a “gravity dispersion” mode?
Nevertheless, we have many other people who want to know what it is we have to learn in order to be ready to graduate. It seems that we don’t have to be at a higher level in order to go there… we only have to have learned what is here as thoroughly as possible. This rather puts a different light on the matter because it relieves the burden of guilt that most people labor under when trying to work to advance spiritually. They think that if they are not already doing it or capable of higher-level actions, that they are somehow at fault or defective and will be left behind.
This does not seem to be the case. It seems rather that we are supposed to apply ourselves to learning the ways and means of this density as completely and as well as we can. What good is it for a man (or woman) to say, “Oh! I can’t function in this world because I am really too spiritual for all that!” What is really going on is that the person has not a clue about this reality and how it works so that they can maneuver in the environment in an effective and useful way, to themselves or others. It’s all fine and good to want to meditate and work to improve the soul life and all that, but if there is no practical result in the real world, can we be justified in thinking that the person has yet to learn some of the lessons of maneuvering at this level? The excerpt taken from the last chapter makes this point in a new and different way. The C’s asked, “Who says you have to “get it” before you get there [4D]?” Most importantly, you must have learned all of the lessons of third density — the universal “karmic and simple understandings”. As for clues as to what these lessons are, the C’s mentioned the following:
Alright, my dear, you want the facts, so we will give them to you, and hopefully you will comprehend. If not now, then when necessary maybe…
Fact number one: All there is is lessons.
Fact two: This is one big school.
Fact three: Timing as you perceive it, is never, NEVER definite.
Fact four: What is to happen, as you state it, is a ways off, and will not occur until you have reached that point on the learning cycle, and you are not close yet. Now ponder before more facts are given!! […]
Fact five: The learning cycle is variable, and progress along it is determined by events and circumstances as they unfold.
Many people have written to ask me about “wanting knowledge”. It seems to them that the gaining and gathering of knowledge is an STS activity, but as the C’s in the same session, “That is not passion; it is soul questing.”
Then, of course, there is the question of making “leaps” — wanting to skip over the third density part and go right back to where all is wonderful and happy and peaceful. One has to realize that this sort of thinking is more deeply STS than it might at first appear because, in the end, what is wanted is to escape the hard work of learning the lessons of this density. What is wanted is ease and comfort and no work. Such individuals want to sit in circles, contemplate their navels and chant “Oooommmm”, while bombarding the planet with their “unconditional love and light” so that everybody else will get with their program, and we can all go home now! (Note that “their program” contradicts the unconditional nature of the love and light they send!)
But still, we must talk about what it is we are supposed to be doing here. What is the point of communicating with the Cassiopaeans or any other source, for that matter, if we are just supposed to be here and learn and do until we have learned and done it all?
The idea of being on an accelerated learning cycle and progress being determined by events and circumstances is made a little clearer in the following:
Remember, density refers to one’s conscious awareness only. Once one is aware, ALL conforms to that awareness.
This seems to be a crucial key to our understanding of the events and manifestations of our lives. “Once one is aware, ALL conforms to that awareness.” What does this mean, really?
Colin Wilson wrote the introduction to Linda Moulton Howe’s book, Glimpses of Other Realities, in which he noted:
I have never read a book that excited such a powerful series of reactions in me. Again and again, I found myself thinking: “If this is true, then we are all asleep. Something tremendous is going on, something that is going to affect every human being on this planet sooner or later, and we still go on living as if we were in the comfortable security of the Victorian age.”
The question that keeps returning to me is: Why, if all this is true — or only half true — can so many people ignore it? Why have skeptics such as writer Philip Klass and the late astronomer Carl Sagan asserted that UFOs are some kind of hysterical delusion?
…There are certain things that I find very hard to accept. For example, the notion that aliens can travel backwards in time. It has always seemed to me that time travel is an impossibility. It would involve obvious paradoxes, such as being able to go back to the “you” of five minutes ago — or even five seconds ago — and bring that “previous-time-you” to the present so there were two “you’s”.
…Then I realize that, as a writer on psychical research, I have accepted for nearly three decades the reality of precognition — people who see, with complete accuracy, something that has not yet happened. But chaos theory tells us that there is no scientific way of predicting what will happen in a few days time.
Like Linda Moulton Howe, Jacques Vallee and John Keel and everyone else who has studied the UFO phenomenon, I find myself trying to formulate a general theory that encompasses a mass of utterly confusing and contradictory information.
…When I try to look at the whole phenomenon, I come back to my most basic intuition which has been at the heart of all my work since The Outsiders in 1956: that there is something oddly wrong with human consciousness. Although we have evolved further than any other animal on the face of the earth, it is at the cost of an absurd narrowness, which means that we look at reality through the long end of a telescope, failing to see the wood, or even leaves because we can only focus on individual trees… We see the world from a worm’s eye view, when we urgently need a bird’s eye view.
…Our greatest need at this point in our evolution is to change our intellectual viewpoint — to recognize that we are not alone in the universe and that we ought to be making far more vigorous use of the intelligence we possess. Our narrowness hypnotizes us into passivity.
…It seems to me that what is now being forced upon us, whether we like it or not, is a more universalistic point of view. I do not know whether the “aliens” are trying to tell us this, or whether it is something altogether bigger. But we are certainly being told that we have to wake up. The UFO phenomenon — or many related phenomena — is gradually forcing us to accept that there are “other realities and dimensions,” and that we cannot continue living like cows ruminating in a field.
…What is now happening is demanding our attention with a persistence that cannot be ignored and will become more persistent until it gets our full attention.
Like Colin Wilson, my own introduction to the UFO phenomenon was a powerful experience (described in High Strangeness). I was not only a skeptic about folks seeing little green men in strange craft that could appear and disappear — or even appear to only half of a given group of people at the same place and time — I was perfectly contemptuous of it!
But, I don’t want to get sidetracked onto that issue just now; I want to deal with the learning of the lessons of third density, or the “simple understandings” that the Cassiopaeans have noted as the prerequisite for graduating to fourth density.
Colin Wilson noted above, “Our narrowness hypnotizes us into passivity.” Is that really the case, or is our narrowness the result of a sort of hypnosis? The Cassiopaeans say that we have been programmed through DNA manipulation, to be able to only perceive a limited band of the reality in which we live and move and have our being.
In High Strangeness, I told the story of the “Third Man” hypnosis experiment, where the subject is given a hypnotic suggestion that he cannot see a third man enter the room. The third man enters and performs a series of actions, such as picking up objects and moving furniture, which the subject cannot comprehend. Instead he sees the objects floating in the air and hears anomalous noises with no apparent source. He cannot see the third man. I have received a number of curious reactions to this story, one of which is that people understand it to merely imply the presence of spirits in the world being masked from us by our belief systems. This is a sort of partial awakening to other realms, as Colin Wilson described above when he made his remark about psychic phenomena.
But the implication is far deeper than that. If you take away the specific scene in which the story is portrayed, leaving only the third man and the observer, you can extrapolate that the Third Man represents all of the phenomena of our world. We see a flower, but we are hypnotized as to how to perceive it. We see clouds, but we are hypnotized as to how to see them. We don’t really know what the true reality is! We don’t really know what an “essential flower” looks like. What we are seeing is our interpretation of a series of waves or fluctuations of the medium of our reality, which we interpret according to our programs or hypnosis. We see only three dimensions of what is conceivably several.
The next important thing about the story is that, depending on the program different people can attribute different hidden forces to the phenomena presented, according to their belief systems. But, what we wish to know is: what is the objective reality?
The ways and means that we ensure survival of the ego is established pretty early in life by our parental and societal programming. One of the first things we might observe is that everyone has a different set of beliefs based upon their social and familial conditioning, and that these beliefs determine how much of the objective reality anyone is able to access.
This conditioning determines what is or is not possible; what we are allowed to believe in order to be accepted. We learn this first by learning what pleases our parents and then later we modify our belief based on what pleases our society — our peers — to believe.
Each and every human being perceives the Third Man according to their programming which activates or is activated by their belief system. This is their “state of awareness”. They can only be aware of what they believe they can be aware of, and all else becomes either “invisible” or “anomalous” and disregarded or covered up by the survival program of the subconscious mind.
As one continues to think about this problem, one realizes that there is a possibly huge gap between what we perceive as real and the actual objective reality… and no matter how we try to be objective, we can never be sure. The only thing that seems to offer a way out is to simply observe the phenomena and compare the perceptions with a lot of other folks and try to narrow down the “constant” that is present in all of them. In this way, we can have a closer idea of what the Third Man really is, and what he is really doing, and what then, should be our best response. And, of course, observing phenomena means, in its most literal sense, to gain and gather knowledge of every form and sort so that one has a sufficient database from which to draw conclusions about observations of one’s environment.
But, this is difficult to do because one’s beliefs are intimately tied to emotions! Remember: our beliefs are formed in emotional situations of interactions with our parents and other authorities of our infancy and childhood. It is very frightening to even contemplate breaking free of this safe, inner environment.
But, that is exactly what we must do.
Otherwise, we find ourselves in a reality where all sorts of anomalous things will be going on around one — observable in classical and quantum terms — but the objective raison d’etre will be unavailable for contemplation. One will be unable to see the “Third Man”, and will then be subject to the whims and inclinations of said personage, whoever or whatever he really is!
So, it seems that the real problem is the conflict between subjective and objective reality. On many occasions the Cassiopaeans have remarked about the nature of Service to Self — the tendency to live in wishful thinking. This is discussed in a most interesting way in the following extract:
October 22, 1994
Q: (L) Are human beings entrapped in physical matter?
A: By choice.
Q: (L) Why did they make this choice?
A: To experience physical sensations. It was a group mind decision.
Q: (L) Who was in charge of the group?
A: The group.
Q: (L) Does the interaction between the spirit/soul and the body physical produce some byproduct that is desirable to other beings?
A: Well, all things have desirable consequences as well as undesirable consequences, but it must also be mentioned here that everything that exists in all realms of the universe can experience existence in one of only two ways. That would be defined as a long wave cycle and a short wave cycle.
Going back to your previous question about why humans are “entrapped” in physical existence, which, of course, is voluntary and chosen, this was due to the desire to change from the long wave cycle experience of completely — what you would call — ethereal or spiritual existence, to the short wave cycle of what you call physical existence.
The difference is that a long wave cycle involves only very gradual change in evolution in a cyclical manner. Whereas a short wave cycle involves a duality. And this is the case with souls in physical bodies as is experienced on this earth plane because the soul experiences an ethereal state for half the cycle and a physical state for the other half of the cycle. While these halves are not measured in time the way you measure time, the totality of experience is equal in each half.
The necessity to form the short wave cycle was brought about through nature through the natural bounds of the universe when the group mind of souls chose to experience physicality as opposed to a completely ethereal existence.
Q: (L) Does this interaction produce a byproduct?
A: It produces equal byproducts of a positive and negative nature.
Q: (L) And what are these byproducts?
A: Which one first?
Q: (L) Positive.
A: Positive byproduct is an increase in relative energy that speeds up the learning process of the soul and all of its one-dimensional and two-dimensional interactive partners. In other words, flora and fauna, minerals, etc. All experience growth and movement towards reunion at a faster rate on the cycle through this short wave cycle physical/ethereal transfer.
Of a negative nature, it also produces many negative experiences for these very same entities which otherwise would not exist because being of a first level and second level nature, flora and fauna would ordinarily experience a long term or long wave cycle on the physical plane as opposed to a short wave cycle physical and ethereal, as they do now because of their interaction with the human species in its short wave ethereal/physical cycle.
Q: (L) The comment was made at one point that certain alien beings abduct humans and subject them to cruel and torturous deaths in order to create “maximum energy transfer”. In this respect, what is this maximum energy transfer that occurs during a long, slow, torturous dying process?
A: Extreme fear and anxiety builds up fear/anxiety energy which is of a negative nature which fuels the beings that you speak of in that they draw from that and produce a sort of a fueling energy which keeps them going as one of their forms of nourishment based on their metabolic structure.
Q: (L) What is their metabolic structure?
A: That is very complex and very difficult to describe because it is on the fourth level of density, which you do not understand. But, part of their reason for existence on the fourth level is their ability to nourish themselves both through ethereal methods and through physical methods. Therefore, this energy transfer would represent the ethereal method of nourishment and other means are achieved physically.
Q: (L) What other means?
A: Well, the drinking of blood and blood byproducts would be an example of that.
Q: (L) Do they do that?
A: Yes, but the manner of intake is different than what you may be thinking. It is done through pores.
Q: (L) In what manner?
A: Bathing and then absorbing the necessary products and then disposing of the remaining product. […]
Q: (L) Going back to the beings that absorb nutrients through their pores, what kind of beings are they?
A: Both those that you describe as the Lizard Beings and those you describe as the Grays. This is necessary for their survival in each case. Even though the Grays are not natural parts of the short wave cycle, but rather an artificial creation by the Lizard Beings, but nevertheless they mimic the nourishment functions.
Q: (L) Since they are artificially created by the Lizard beings, does this mean they have no souls?
A: That’s correct.
Q: (L) How do they function? Are they like robots?
A: They function by interaction with the souls of the Lizard beings. This technology is extremely far in advance of that with which you are familiar, but the Gray beings are not only built and designed artificially, but also function as a projection mentally and psychically of the Lizard beings. They are like four-dimensional “probes”.
Q: (L) As four-dimensional probes, what are their capabilities?
A: They have all the same capabilities of the Lizard beings except for the fact that their physical appearance is entirely different and they do not have souls of their own and also their biological structure is internally different. But, their functioning is the same and in order to remain as projection beings, they also must absorb nutrients in the same fashion both spiritually and physically as the Lizard beings do.
The reason the negative energy is necessary fuel is that the Lizard beings and the Grays are both living in the fourth level of density, which is the highest level of density one can exist in serving only self as these entities do. So, therefore, they must absorb negative energy because the fourth level of density is the highest example of self-service, which is a negative thought pattern.
The fourth level of density is a progression from the third level of density. With each progression upward in density level, the existence for the individual conscious entity becomes less difficult. So, therefore, the fourth level of density is less difficult to exist in than the third; the third is less difficult than the second, and so on. It puts less strain on the soul energy. Therefore, beings existing on the fourth level of density can draw from beings existing on the third level of density in terms of absorption of negative soul energy.
Likewise, beings on the third level of density can draw from beings on the second level of density, though this type of drawing is not as necessary but is done. This is why human beings existing on the third level frequently cause pain and suffering to those of the animal kingdom who exist on the second level of density, because you are drawing negative soul energy as beings who primarily serve self, as you do, from those on the second level, and on the first, and so on.
Now, as you advance to the fourth level of density, which is coming up for you, you must now make a choice as to whether to progress to service to others or to remain at the level of service to self. This will be the decision, which will take quite some time for you to adjust to. This is what is referred to as the “thousand year period”. This is the period as measured in your calendar terms that will determine whether or not you will advance to service to others or remain at the level of service to self.
And those who are described as the Lizards have chosen to firmly lock themselves into service to self. And, since they are at the highest level of density where this is possible, they must continually draw large amounts of negative energy from those at the third level, second level, and so on, which is why they do what they do.
This also explains why their race is dying, because they have not been able to learn for themselves how to remove themselves from this particular form of expression to that of service to others.
And, since they have such, as you would measure it, a long period of time, remained at this level and, in fact, become firmly entrenched in it, and, in fact, have increased themselves in it, this is why they are dying and desperately trying to take as much energy from you as possible and also to recreate their race metabolically.
Q: (L) Well, if we are sources of food and labor for them, why don’t they just breed us in pens on their own planet?
A: They do.
Q: (L) Well, since there are so many of us here, why don’t they just move in and take over?
A: That is their intention. That has been their intention for quite some time.
They have been traveling back and forth through time as you know it, to set things up so that they can absorb a maximum amount of negative energy with the transference from third level to fourth level that this planet is going to experience, in the hopes that they can overtake you on the fourth level and thereby accomplish several things.
1: retaining their race as a viable species;
2: increasing their numbers;
3: increasing their power;
4: expanding their race throughout the realm of fourth density.
To do all of this they have been interfering with events for what you would measure on your calendar as approximately 74 thousand years. And they have been doing so in a completely still state of space-time traveling backward and forward at will during this work. Interestingly enough, though, all of this will fail.
Q: (L) How can you be so sure it will fail?
A: Because we see it. We are able to see all, not just what we want to see. Their failing is that they see only what they want to see. In other words, it’s the highest manifestation possible of that which you would refer to as wishful thinking. And, wishful thinking represented on the fourth level of density becomes reality for that level. You know how you wishfully think? Well, it isn’t quite reality for you because you are on the third level, but if you are on the fourth level and you were to perform the same function, it would indeed be your awareness of reality. Therefore they cannot see what we can see since we serve others as opposed to self, and since we are on sixth level, we can see all that is at all points as is, not as we would want it to be. […]
Q: (L) Did any aliens at all, and specifically the Lizzies, ever live among mankind and receive worship?
A: They did not live among mankind, but they did interact directly with human beings, at various points in the past. It was at those points when human beings were ready, willing, and able to accept deities appearing directly from outside sources and then worship them. Such things would not have occurred in the recent past. But, beware; it may very well occur very soon.2
We note in the above extract, a very clear distinction between Service to Self and Service to Others in terms of seeing. The former is subjective and sees only what it wants to see; the latter is objective and sees all.
What can this really mean? What about all the teachings of the present time that “you create your own reality”? The Cassiopaeans have just said:
[STS is seeing only what you WANT to see and is] the highest manifestation possible of that which you would refer to as wishful thinking. And, wishful thinking represented on the fourth level of density becomes reality for that level. You know how you wishfully think? Well, it isn’t quite reality for you because you are on the third level, but if you are on the fourth level and you were to perform the same function, it would indeed be your awareness of reality.
I have tried to convey to many people the amazing changes in my own life as a result of the change in my awareness — the burning away of what I had believed, or wanted to believe about our world for so many years.
What I have had difficulty describing is the completely new feeling that the universe has for me. It is truly like I went from a completely different universe to the one I presently occupy, and all the rules are different — commensurate with my awareness. As I gained more and more knowledge about the way things worked, I began to apply it to all that I experienced in my daily life. This brought about many changes because I made different choices about things than the choices I would have formerly made. Yes, many of these choices were based on things unseen, things that went against the standard, indoctrinated cultural view of our world with which we are brainwashed by our society, and many of these choices were simply incomprehensible in ordinary terms. But, the fact is, I made them, acted on them, and the results were nothing short of amazing! I was learning to read the subtle clues about the world and the interactions of people that are veiled from us. And these clues were well beyond the usual psychic impressions of your standard “psychic sensitive”, I can assure you! Quite often, it required very hard work to “see” beyond what I wished to see based on emotional inclinations, or what “felt good”. Sometimes, seeing the truth feels very “bad”, but only because we are conditioned that way.
In States of Denial: Knowing about Atrocities and Suffering (Malden, MA: Blackwell Publishers, 2001), Stanley Cohen describes denial as an “unconscious defense mechanism for coping with guilt, anxiety and other disturbing emotions aroused by reality.” Reasons for denial vary between those clearly known to unpleasant truths that fatigue us upon acknowledgement.
Different types of denial may include:
1) Literal denial,
2) Interpretive denial,
3) Implicatory denial.
These vary from simply denying that the existing facts exist, to changing the interpretation of a given experience, to relinquishing the moral implications that follow from deep acknowledgement of a given truth.
Cohen discusses five different contexts of psychological denial:
1) perception without awareness,
2) perceptual defense,
3) selective attention,
4) cognitive errors, and
5) inferential failures.
His conclusion is that “the scientific discourse misses the fact that the ability to deny is an amazing human phenomenon … a product of sheer complexity of our emotional, linguistic, moral and intellectual lives”.
So, what I want to do here is present some of the material that helped me to understand about the clues and signs that our environment gives us; the signposts that point in different directions — either toward greater objectivity or greater subjectivity — which constitute our moments of decision; and our decisions based on what we believe to be true at a given moment; all of the things that helped me change my reality, so that I truly understood what the Cassiopaeans meant when they said: “Remember, density refers to one’s conscious awareness only. Once one is aware, ALL conforms to that awareness.”
One of the first things that happened to clue me in on some of these things was a strange incident that occurred while I was waiting to pick up my daughter from school one day. I was sitting in the car in the parking lot of the high school and watching all the kids pour out of the building and do all the things that kids do when they get out of school. I had been following this schedule for some time, and every day I was witness to these strange rites and rituals of American Teenagers.
One thing I was aware of by the many things my daughter had talked about regarding the kids of today, was the extreme factionalization, or cliques that form in schools. This has always been the case to one extent or another, but in today’s world, it seems to be even more pronounced than ever.
In my high school, it was more or less an economic division that led to a social structure and manifestation that then led to a social designation. This was pretty easy to understand and it had its reflection in real life, to some extent.
But, today, it is all different. Nothing is so clear-cut (which is not to say that the clear-cut system of the past was desirable!). The groups and cliques that form in modern high schools are something else altogether. I was fascinated by the changes and curious about why it was so, and what were the essential, underlying dynamics.
My daughter informed me about the gangs, the “Crips” or whatever, as well as the “style groups”, such as Preps, Jocks, Loadies, Gothics, and so forth. One thing that seemed clear to me was that economics had very little to do with any of it. A child of a well-to-do family was as likely to be a member of a gang, or a “Goth” as a child of a poor family. Drugs were common across all of the groupings. And, being a virgin didn’t seem to be one of the things that made you belong to one group or another as it did when I was in high school. The number of kids doing well in school also seemed to have dropped to an all-time low level.
So, there I was, watching these kids pour out of the many entrances to the school, forming groups and cliques — each gravitating to their own “kind” to hang out and exchange — what?
What were they really doing?
In the weeks prior to this event, I had been having some interactions with people who presented themselves as lightworker types, but who were later revealed through funny coincidences to be quite the opposite. Some of these events are chronicled in Soul Hackers.
Throughout these experiences I had thought of the idea of “turning off the sound” and just looking at the dynamics. They were so busy saying this and saying that and trying to make a good impression by convincing me and others of their good intentions with their words, yet when you looked at the effects they had on the lives of other people, as well as the dynamics of their own personal lives, something was just wrong! It was sort of like the saying, “They talk the talk but don’t walk the walk,” only it was much deeper and more subtle than that.
Then, one day I was reading some primate studies — you know, Jane Goodall and her chimpanzees — and I realized that the methods of observing creatures in the wild might be very useful for observing human beings. By watching and not being confused by words, one had a much better chance of actually figuring out what was going on.
So, there I sat, watching these kids and I thought about applying these primate study guides to them. I noticed some funny things about their body language; who touched whom and how and where, how they positioned themselves in relation to one another, etc. Through these maneuvers, I could actually see a sort of pecking order existed. There was always one, in every group of five to ten kids, who seemed to be the dominator.
I noticed that the dominator actually seemed to swell and stand taller and look wider and fuller after a few minutes of being fawned over, touched and so forth. There were also selected persons who the dominator would fondle in one way or another, as though tapping a battery and taking the juice out of it. Not only that, but after so many minutes, I noticed that some of the kids in the groups, would begin to slump and almost visibly shrink as though all the “juice” had gone out of them, and drift away looking tired and defeated.
Shades of The Matrix! I suddenly realized that I was watching them feed on each other! It was one of the most truly bizarre and frightening insights I have ever had. I could see that energy was being transferred from one person to another to another with the dominator getting the lion’s share at the end.
Well, that was a pretty interesting revelation. So, I started doing this a lot. I would watch people interact with one another to try to determine what the dynamics actually were. It was always better if I could hear nothing that they were saying, just to observe them from a distance without them knowing that I was watching. And, sure enough, it was a pretty standard thing. In every situation, there was a sort of feeding of energy going on.
Then, I started observing married people, trying to determine who was the dominator, not in our terms, but in terms of who was getting the energy. Curiously, as often as not, it was the one who might have been thought the weaker or more helpless of the two — the one who evoked the most sympathy by their words and complaints, that actually swelled on the attentions of the “strong” rescuer. I then started to think about sympathy and pity in different terms altogether. I was seeing that it was truly a manipulation to get more juice.
I began to wonder if this was evidence of some STS hierarchy? I wondered about so-called alien abductions in the same context. Do the human dominators dominate their little groups and absorb energy from the members and then get abducted and “milked” for the juice they have collected? It is an interesting conjecture of how these things actually might work. I was just asking questions and observing at this point and still wasn’t sure that I could even accept what the Cassiopaeans had said about these so-called aliens.
At any event, these observations led to some interesting thoughts that I will share, though remember that they are just conjectural. I have never, in a conscious, awake state, seen an alien — either a Gray or a “Lizzie”. I have seen a UFO, a 300 foot wide black boomerang, directly over my head while I was in the pool with the kids who also saw it. I did suffer very strange physical symptoms for almost a year after this sighting which were later suggested to me to have been some kind of radiation poisoning, but at the time I was such a skeptic that I was convinced that I was just suffering from severe allergies and overwork.
It seems to me that the majority of humans neither know nor suspect anything about a deeper reality; they are, for all intents and purposes, hypnotized. They live lives of quiet desperation, providing a feast at the very least for other people, and possibly even for aliens.
Another odd thing I began to notice was that many people seem to have preprogrammed thought loops that, no matter how much logic or reason you use to persuade them to open their minds, they hold strongly to an emotional, subjective agenda and belief system. Debunkers and “natural disinformation artists” fall into this category. They don’t even realize that they are agents and would be utterly horrified if one could ever convince them of it, or even show reasonable circumstantial evidence that it was so. The fact is, they are programmed with their belief systems about the “Third Man” and they believe it because they want to. That “wanting” is, of course, their choice.
I speculated that there are others who have the potential and inner nature to become aware. The aliens probably abduct these also, but, because of some “law” that must exist in their realm, they cannot just kill them to eliminate them as a threat. So, they implant them with mechanical devices designed to direct their thoughts toward self-destruction, or into useless pathways and senseless speculations, and also to manipulate their emotional states so that when they begin to get close to a truth or to some knowledge formulation, they can be obfuscated by their own emotions. Breaking through these control programs is an enormous task.
A lot of things can happen in these situations. Either the person learns to move through these states of obfuscation, or they become fixated in them and are lost. These emotional states can involve likes and dislikes, positive and negative perceptions of an emotional sort that have nothing to do with any true reality.
People can be emotionally driven to marry inappropriately so that the marriage partner becomes the controller and energy vampire; people can be emotionally driven to desire something so much that they are completely lost in their desire and will create all sorts of mental rationalizations that they use to convince themselves that what they are doing is appropriate and leading them to knowledge when it is really just another illusion.
Seemingly synchronous events can be created and presented to the individual to persuade them that what they are doing or thinking is along the correct path because the very universe has “confirmed” it for them thereby.
The manipulations and variations are endless, incredibly deep, and cunning beyond all understanding. And, it was a horrible thing to see! I understood that nearly all of humanity is merely FOOD. They are controlled and manipulated from birth to the grave just as depicted in the movie The Matrix, only they are not “batteries” for some computers that have run amok and taken over the world — they are literally physical and energy food for beings at higher densities. And, because of their ignorance, they can do nothing. Because they are not awake, they have no free will.
As I continued to speculate about these matters, I understood that our culture, our religions, our philosophies, our sciences, all contribute to, and are controlled by, this vast, complex feeding mechanism — this hierarchy of Service to Self. Even most of the “new” New Age interpretations are merely another layer on the onion of deception to further deprive us of free will.
What happened to “love”? What happened to “oneness”, goodness, unity, God being in His heaven and all being right with the world? What happened to all the consciousness raising that was supposed to be going on all over the planet? What happened to being “safe” if you surrounded yourself with “love and light” and positive thinking? Over and over again I was SEEing that these things were merely masks of the “feeding machine”. There is layer after layer of illusions.
Of course, the question arose: had I studied the darkness so long that I had fallen into it? Was my effort to eradicate the lies and confusion really an admission of their existence that then caused them to manifest in my life? Was I seeing a mirror of myself? At that point I read William James’ Varieties of Religious Experience wherein we find the following:
At our last meeting, we considered the healthy-minded temperament, the temperament which has a constitutional incapacity for prolonged suffering, and in which the tendency to see things optimistically is like a water of crystallization in which the individual’s character is set.
We saw how this temperament may become the basis for a peculiar type of religion, a religion in which good, even the good of this world’s life, is regarded as the essential thing for a rational being to attend to.
This religion directs him to settle his scores with the more evil aspects of the universe by systematically declining to lay them to heart or make much of them, by ignoring them in his reflective calculations, or even, on occasion, by denying them outright.
Evil is a disease and worry about evil is a disease in itself. Even repentance and remorse may be but sickly impulses.
Let us now … turn towards those persons who cannot so swiftly throw off the burden of the consciousness of evil, but are congenitally fated to suffer from its presence…
There are different levels of the morbid mind … there are people for whom evil means only maladjustment with things, a wrong correspondence of one’s life with the environment. Such evil as this is curable … by either modifying the self or the things or both at once.
There are others for whom evil is … a wrongness or vice in [their] essential structure, which no alteration in the environment, or any superficial rearrangement of the inner self, can cure, and which requires a supernatural remedy. On the whole, the Latin races have leaned more towards the former way of looking upon evil … while the Germanic races have tended rather to think of Sin in the singular, and with a capital S, as of something ineradicably ingrained in our natural subjectivity, and never to be removed by any superficial piecemeal operations.
…We speak of the threshold of a man’s consciousness in general, to indicate the amount of noise, pressure, or other outer stimulus which it takes to arouse his attention at all. One with a high threshold will doze through an amount of racket by which one with a low threshold would be immediately waked. Similarly, when one is sensitive to small differences in any order of sensation, we say he has a low “difference threshold”. His mind easily steps over it into the consciousness of the differences in question. And just so we might speak of a “pain threshold”, a “fear threshold”, a “misery threshold”, and find it quickly passed over by the consciousness of some individuals, but lying too high in others to be reached by their consciousness.
Goethe [expressed] ‘I will say nothing against the course of my existence. But at the bottom it has been nothing but pain and burden, and I can affirm that during the whole of my 75 years, I have not had four weeks of genuine well-being. It is but the perpetual rolling of a rock that must be raised up again forever.’
And Martin Luther said: ‘I am utterly weary of life. I pray the Lord will come forthwith and carry me hence … rather than live forty years more, I would give up my chance of Paradise.’
The only relief that ‘healthy mindedness’ can give is: ‘Stuff and nonsense! Get out into the open air! Cheer up, you’ll be all right if you will only drop your morbidness!’
But, to ascribe spiritual value to mere happy-go-lucky contentment is but the very consecration of forgetfulness and superficiality.
Our troubles are that we can die, that we can be ill, that we… need a life not correlated with death, a health not liable to illness, a good that will not perish… [S]aid a friend: ‘The trouble with me is that I believe too much in happiness and goodness and nothing can console me for their transiency.’
[And so those who experience] a little cooling down of animal excitability and instinct, a little loss of animal toughness, a little descent of the pain threshold, brings the worm at the core of all our usual springs of delight into full view, and turns us into melancholy metaphysicians.
Conceive yourself, if possible, suddenly stripped of all the emotion with which your world now inspires you and try to imagine it as it exists, purely by itself, without your favorable, hopeful or apprehensive comment.
It will be almost impossible for you to realize such a condition of negativity and deadness. Whatever of value, interest, or meaning our world may appear endued with are pure gifts of the spectator’s mind.
[For example] love transforms the creature loved as utterly as the sunrise transforms Mont Blanc from a corpse like gray to a rosy enchantment. [So with our emotions] if they are there, life changes. [Laura’s note: This alone should tell us how easily our emotions can be used to control or hypnotize us!]
In Tolstoy’s case the sense that life had any meaning whatever was for a time wholly withdrawn. The result was a transformation in the whole expression of reality.
When we study the phenomenon of regeneration, we shall see that a not infrequent consequence of the change is a transfiguration of the face of nature in his eyes…
An urgent wondering and questioning is set up, a poring theoretic activity, and in the desperate effort to get into right relation with the matter, the sufferer is often led to a solution…
Tolstoy writes: ‘…I was neither insane nor ill. On the contrary, I possessed a physical and mental strength, which I have rarely met in persons of my age. I could mow as well as the peasants; I could work with my brain eight hours uninterruptedly and feel no bad effects. And yet I could give no reasonable meaning to any actions of my life. And I was surprised that I had not understood this from the very beginning. My state of mind was as if some wicked and stupid jest was being played upon me by someone.
‘One can live only so long as one is intoxicated, drunk with life but when one grows sober one cannot fail to see that it is all a stupid cheat. What is truest about it is that there is nothing even funny or silly in it; it is cruel and stupid, purely and simply.
‘But perhaps, I said to myself, there may be something I have failed to notice or to comprehend. It is not possible that this condition of despair should be natural to mankind. And I sought for an explanation in all the branches of knowledge acquired by men.
‘I questioned painfully and protractedly and with no idle curiosity. I sought, not with indolence, but laboriously and obstinately for days and nights on end. I sought like a man who is lost and seeks to save himself — and I found nothing.
‘I became convinced, moreover, that all those who before me had sought for an answer in the sciences have also found nothing. And not only this, but that they have recognized that the very thing which was leading me to despair — the meaningless absurdity of life — is the only incontestable knowledge accessible to man.’
The only thing that need interest us now is the phenomenon of this absolute disenchantment with ordinary life … when disillusionment has gone as far as this, when one has tasted of the fruit of the tree, and the happiness of Eden never comes again … the only happiness that then can come is something vastly more complex, including natural evil as one of its elements.
The sufferer is born again as a deeper kind of conscious being than he could be before.
Having arrived at this point, we can see the antagonism that must arise between the ‘healthy-minded’ optimist and the morbid-minded who take the experience of viewing evil as essential. To the latter, ‘healthy-mindedness’ seems unspeakably blind and shallow. To the former, the latter seems unmanly and diseased. They believe that there is something almost obscene about these children of wrath and cravers of a second birth.
And, if religious intolerance, hanging and burning at the stake, were still in vogue, there is little doubt that the ‘healthy-minded’ would advocate the destruction of the morbid minded rather than the other way around.
The method of averting one’s attention from evil, and living simply in the light of good is splendid as long as it will work…
Yet there is no doubt that ‘healthy-mindedness’ is inadequate as a philosophical doctrine, because the evil facts which it refuses positively to account for are a genuine portion of reality; and these evil facts may be, after all, the best key to life’s significance, and possibly the only openers of our eyes to the deepest levels of truth.
The lunatic’s visions of horror are all drawn from the material of daily fact. Our civilization is founded on the shambles and every individual existence goes out in a lonely spasm of helpless agony. To believe in the carnivorous reptiles of geologic times is hard for our imagination — they seem too much like museum specimens. Yet there is no tooth in any one of those museum skulls that did not daily hold fast to the body struggling in despair of some fated living victim.
Forms of horror just as dreadful to the victims fill the world about us today. Here, on our very hearths, the infernal cat plays with the panting mouse or holds the hot bird fluttering in her jaws. Crocodiles, pythons and rattlesnakes are vessels of life as real as we are; and whenever they or other wild beasts clutch their living prey, the deadly horror that the morbid minded feels is the literally right reaction to the situation.
…Since the evil facts are as genuine parts of nature as the good ones, and our philosophic presumption should be that they have some rational significance, then systematic failure to accord these things active attention is less complete than those systems that attempt to include these elements in their scope.
The ‘healthy-minded’ optimists only need to be born once, but the ‘sick souls’ need to be born twice to be happy. (emphasis added)
What we notice most particularly about the difference between James’ “healthy minded” and “sick souls” is that it describes the difference between two different conceptions of the universe: subjective and objective.
In the once born, the world is a one-storied affair … whose parts have just the values which they appear to have … [to the twice born] the world is a double-storied mystery. Natural good is not simply insufficient in amount and transience; there lurks a falsity in its very being. It keeps us from our real good and renunciation and despair of it are our first step in the direction of the truth. There are two lives, the natural and the spiritual and we must lose the one before we can participate in the other.
The question now becomes: was I suddenly seeing the third density world as it really is? Was I seeing the objective reality?
I asked the Cassiopaeans about this and you can note that it was just prior to the “gravity wave” sessions:
June 9, 1996
Q: (L) This recent “awakening” or period of seeing things with such clarity, as they really were, and the whole picture of the interactions between people and how truly ugly it can be. I plunged into a terrible depression. I needed to get my balance from seeing so much all at once. Can you explain to me what was going on?
A: Growth.
Q: (L) I tried to share this perception with other people, and almost without exception, when I said to people that I was finally seeing things in their true state and it was not a pretty picture, they all said “well, you are obviously seeing this through the eyes of some major spirit possession!” Why would they say this?
A: First of all, it is not correct to perceive “everything in such darkness and gloom, etc.” That is merely the result of a cocoon of falsehood being removed. Celebrate the balance. Don’t mourn the death of an illusion of an imbalance.
Q: (L) Where do I go from here? Where do we all go?
A: Everywhere.
In chapter three, I mentioned going through some strange effects which the Cassiopaeans pronounced as relating to my DNA changing a year prior to this “seeing” I am talking about now. In that previous situation, the effects were mostly mental and emotional in the sense of processing and assimilating personal issues. It was traumatic, to say the least, and did have physical side effects that included heat and chills, aches and pains and so forth. That “inrush” was a real challenge, but with some effort, I was able to maintain my equilibrium. I think I was being prepared for what was to follow almost exactly a year later.
When I began to perceive the true difference between free will and lack of free will, STS and STO, subjectivity and objectivity, the “food chain” that exists on this planet, and of which I was a part in nearly all of my relationships (usually being the food), this perception caused me to take some very definite actions in my life which included divorcing my husband and eliminating a lot of people from close association because I could clearly see that they were feeding on me. By seeing the feeding mechanism, I was making choices based on not being food and not feeding on anyone else. And there was no way I could explain this to anybody.
At the material level, this had the potential for creating massive and overwhelming suffering, both physical and emotional. I was, of course, mostly concerned about the suffering of the other people involved, but as it turned out, they actually suffered very little! It was me who went through the fires of Hell.
When you refuse to be an unwilling food for anyone, and you are basing this on seeing something unseen, something that contradicts all your previously inculcated beliefs, you have seen something that is different and scary and awful and definitely not what your pastor or psychologist would recommend as a “realistic” or “positive” view of reality. When you are literally acting against everything you were taught and formerly believed in — and you are acting in faith that is pretty much as small as a mustard seed, for sure — what happens to you?
In my case, I got sick. And other cases I know of had the same result, so I know it is not uncommon. I was unable to speak for several weeks due to a major inflammation of the larynx, my eyes swelled shut and refused to respond to either antibiotics or any other form of treatment; my ears rang constantly, drained a nasty fluid, and I had difficulty breathing and moving. Every joint and muscle in my body hurt as though they were broken and torn. I felt as though I were being literally crushed. I thought I would go mad from the pain and the grief of seeing what my life truly was and being forced, by virtue of my quest, to change everything. It was truly like dying. Those programs are pretty powerful, for sure!
At that point, I could have plunged back into denial, into the old belief system, for the sake of peace and keeping everything stable, but I had a dream that clearly told me that I was in mortal danger if I did not take immediate action. It was the standard “Dark Man Dream” as described by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, a Jungian psychologist, who uses ancient tales as maps to chart our unconscious knowing in her book Women Who Run With The Wolves:
The natural predator of the psyche is not only found in fairy tales but also in dreams. There is a universal initiatory dream, one so common that it is remarkable if a person has reached age 25 without having had such a dream. The dream usually causes the person to jolt awake, striving and anxious. The dream usually involves being in a house with danger outside or darkness outside. The dreamer is frightened and frantically tries to obtain assistance. Suddenly, they realize the danger is virtually on top of them, or right with them, or cannot be overcome or avoided, or that they have lost. The dreamer awakens instantly, breathing hard, heart pounding.
There is a strong physical aspect to having a dream of the predator. The dream is often accompanied by sweats, struggles, hoarse breathing, heart pounding, and sometimes crying and moans of fear. We could say the dream-maker has dispensed with subtle messages to the dreamer and now sends images that shake the neurological and autonomic nervous system of the dreamer, thereby communicating the urgency of the matter.
The antagonists of the ‘dark dream’ are, in people’s own words, ‘terrorists, rapists, thugs, concentration camp Nazis, marauders, murderers, criminals, creeps, bad men, and thieves.’ There are several levels to the interpretation of the dream…
Often such a dream is a reliable indicator that a person’s consciousness is just beginning to gain awareness of the innate psychic predator…
The dream is a harbinger; the dreamer has just discovered or is about to discover and begin liberating a forgotten and captive function of the psyche.
The dark man dream tells a person what predicament they are facing. The dream tells about a cruel attitude toward the dreamer. Like Bluebeard’s wife, the dreamer can consciously gain hold of the ‘key’ question about this matter and answer it honestly, and can then be set free…
The dark man appears in dreams when an initiation — a psychic change from one level of knowing and behavior to another more energetic level of knowledge and action is imminent. The initiation creates an archway that one prepares to pass through to a new manner of knowing and being…
Dreams are ‘portals,’ entrances, preparations, and practices for the next step in consciousness.
Dark man dreams are wake-up calls. They say: Pay attention! Something has gone radically amiss in the outer world… The threat of the ‘dark man dreams’ serves as a warning to all of us — if you don’t pay attention, something will be stolen from you! The dreamer needs to be initiated so that whatever has been robbing her can be recognized, apprehended, and dealt with.
In the Bluebeard story we see how a woman who falls under the spell of the predator rouses herself and escapes him, wiser for the experience. The story is about transformation through knowledge, insight, voice, and decisive action. We must unlock the secrets and use our abilities to be able to stand what we see. And then, we must use our voice and our wits to do what needs to be done about what we see. When instincts are strong, we intuitively recognize the innate predator by scent, sight, and hearing … we anticipate its presence, hear it approaching, and take steps to turn it away. In the instinct-injured (i.e., nuts and bolts person) the predator is upon them before they register its presence. We have been taught to be nice, to behave, to be blind, and to be misused. [Laura’s note: We have been hypnotized to give up our flesh and skins.]
The young and the injured are uninitiated. Neither knows much about the dark predator and are, therefore, credulous. But, fortunately, when the predator is on the move, it leaves behind unmistakable tracks in dreams. These tracks eventually lead to its discovery, capture and containment.
Wild Ways teaches people when not to act ‘nice’ about protecting their souls. The instinctive nature knows that being ‘sweet’ in these instances only makes the predator smile. When the soul is being threatened, it is not only acceptable to draw the line and mean it, it is required.
The Great Sufi Shaykh, Ibn al-‘Arabi wrote about these very things. William Chittick both translates and comments on the Sufi teachings in The Sufi Path of Knowledge. The following are extracts of both Al-‘Arabi and Mr. Chittick’s remarks, and I am not going to burden the text by differentiating. (Just read the book!)
“Are they equal,” asks the Koran, “those who know and those who know not?” (39:9) Knowledge is a divine attribute of all-encompassingness, so it is the most excellent bounty of God… For man, the seeker of knowledge, the acquisition of knowledge is endless, since the objects of knowledge are endless. This is the secret of man’s felicity. Knowledge, the greatest good, is also the greatest joy and the greatest pleasure. The never-ending trajectory of man’s life in the next world has to be explained in terms of his constant growth in knowledge.
For the felicitous, this knowledge is totally congruent and harmonious with their souls, which have been shaped in this world throughout faith and practice, and hence every increase in knowledge is an increase in felicity. For the wretched, knowledge of things as they actually are is a searing torture, since it contradicts their beliefs and practices in this world. Every new knowledge — every new self-disclosure, recognized now for what it is — is a new misery.
Unveiling gives knowledge of the actual situation. (emphasis added)
And what do we see?
We see that God actually manifests Himself in the forms that make up the contents of the cosmos and our minds. God “imaginizes” Himself everywhere; wherever we look, we perceive His “dream”. Hence, we love God in everything that we love. God reveals Himself in every form, thus making it necessary that we love Him in any form that we love. Hence, all the Cosmos is noble in respect to its substance. There is no ranking in excellence within it. A maggot and the First Intellect are the same in the excellence of the substance. Ranking in excellence becomes manifest only within the forms, which are the properties of the levels.
The Barzakh or Breath of the All is one entity, which is neither Being nor nothingness; it is imagination, which is He/not He. In this intermediary realm, every attribute necessarily goes back to God, who is the source of each reality, even the reality of “non-existence”.
The All undergoes fluctuation in states to make manifest our entities; just as the number “one” undergoes fluctuation in the levels of the numbers to make manifest their entities.
What is supposed to be our response to this seeing?
Justice is to put everything in its proper place, while wisdom is to act as is proper in every situation. Proper activity is impossible without discernment of the right relationships. The “sage” or “possessor of wisdom” is He who does what is proper for what is proper as is proper.
The Prophet said, “Give to everyone who has a right his right.” Here the term may also be translated as “rightful due”. The right of a person or a thing is that which he deserves on the basis of his nature and in keeping with the Law.
The person who gives each thing its due is not only wise, but also courteous.
The Divine root of courtesy is that God creates the world in order to manifest the properties of His names, and each name requires specific situations. Among these names are the “secondary causes,” or the “created things” of the Cosmos. God has established the secondary causes for a purpose, and the man of courtesy gives each its due. This means letting each reality play its proper function. The person who wishes to “abolish” secondary causes shows discourtesy toward God.
The divine man of courtesy is he who affirms what God has affirmed in the place where God has affirmed it and in the manner in which He has affirmed it.
God did not establish the secondary causes aimlessly. He wanted us to stand up for them and rely upon them with a divine reliance. The Divine Wisdom makes this known… So the divine and courteous sage is he who places the secondary causes where God has placed them. No one abolishes the secondary causes except him who is ignorant that God has put them there. No one affirms the secondary causes except a great learned master, a man of courtesy in knowledge of God.
The sage among God’s servants is he who puts each thing in its place and does not take it beyond its level. He gives to each that has its due, and does not judge anything according to his individual desire or his caprice. The sage considers the abode where God has settled him for a fixed term and he considers, without increase or decrease, the scope of the activity within this abode that God has laid down for him in the Law. Then he walks in the manner which has been explained to him and he never lets the Scale which has been set up for him in this abode drop from his hand. (emphasis added)
How does one come to know what something really is at its root, and what is its due?
He comes to know the form of the situation through witnessing his own existence.
In other words, we learn to ride the bicycle by riding it. When we sincerely ask questions of the Universe, without preconceptions, assumptions, or expectations, our lives will begin to form the answer.
That is: the events, circumstances, relationships in our lives are the Reflection of the Presence of the Real. It is in learning to read the signs, the symbols of our reality that we come to this ability of “giving each thing its due.” The man whose soul is an undistorted mirror is the truthful man of felicity. Abu Bakr wrote “I have never seen anything without seeing God before it.”
The possessor of unveiling comes to know that he is ever creating and has always been such, though he was not aware. But it is not the case that he is “ever creating” from his own limited will and desires, but rather that he comes to know that the All is ever-creating through him, though he may not have previously known this.
It is in this sense that the idea “you create your own reality” has been most seriously distorted and corrupted to mean “if you just think nice thoughts, chant or say affirmations, or see nothing but what you want in your life, it will happen!” Nothing is further from the truth! This corrupted teaching leads, in fact, to the most serious error of discourtesy toward God which is to actually avoid giving each thing its due which generally leads to rather unpleasant repercussions as you can see from my own experience. I was such a firm believer in “giving until it hurts”, and “turning the other cheek”, and “sending love and light” that when I finally did see, it nearly killed me!
God commands the person who has this unveiling to “give each thing its due” in its form, just as God “gave each thing its creation in its form.” Then no claim will be directed against him by any created thing, just as no claim is directed against the All by any created thing. This is the benefit of this unveiling.
What does this mean in practical terms? It means that in every event and relationship of our lives, regardless of our subjective likes or dislikes, we are to learn to perform that which is “felicitous”, or objective, and to avoid performing that which is “forbidden”, or subjective.
Our minds, enveloped in the veils of the secondary causes, or the material reality, often do not know the root of a thing. On the contrary, our reason often tells us that the thing is the substance itself. If we encounter something that is beautiful and pleasant to the senses, we may mistakenly think that it is beautiful and pleasant at its root. An example is the contrast between rich, fattening desserts as opposed to healthful, nutritious vegetables. The same rules apply to events and relationships in our lives. Affairs and personalities interpenetrate and mix and mingle so that it is difficult to separate them in terms of our perceptions and the roots. But that is our task.
Our task is to determine the properties of everyone and everything we experience, to see the “lights of unseen things,” the “light of knowledge which dispels the darkness of ignorance from the soul.”
Again, we need to ask the question: what are these simple karmic understandings? What does it mean to give each thing its due?
“Whithersoever you turn; there is the face of God.”
When I was seeing the darkness, the horror of the reality in which we live, I was seeing a Face of God.
In Arabic, the “face” of something signifies its essence or reality. To say that God turns His face toward someone means that He manifests His reality to that person through self-disclosure.
If the only Face of God you choose to see, is the “Good and Loving” face, the other face has not ceased to exist — it has merely become the Third Man who you cannot see and which will act in your life in ways you cannot comprehend. It is a little like being “in love” with someone who has certain characteristics that you decide to try to change, or to “put up with”. If learning to love means to love unconditionally, how can you say you love someone — a specific individual — if there are parts of that person you do not love? You don’t really love that person as he/she is. What you are actually in love with is your image of the person, not the person his or herself. In a sense, you could say that you are in love with yourself since you are the creator of the image of what your “loved one” ought to be. And the same is true of our “Love of God”. How can we possibly love Him, if we deny fully half of His being? If we set ourselves up as judge and jury as to what part of the universe, what part of existence, what part of GOD, is acceptable and “okay”?
Know that love cannot absorb the whole of the lovers unless their beloved is God or one of their own kind. No other love can absorb a human being totally… When he loves that person, there is nothing in himself which does not find its corresponding part in his beloved. There remains nothing left over… His outward dimension is enraptured by his beloved’s outward dimension, and his inward dimension by his inward dimension. Do you not see that God is named both Manifest and Non-manifest? Hence love of God and love of his similars absorbs man totally.
God is the root of all “noble character traits”. He is also the root of the “base character traits”.
Having been created in the divine form, man embraces all the divine names and contains within himself all God’s character traits. The task of the spiritual traveler is to bring the names and character traits from latency into actuality in perfect balance and harmony. All character traits, both the noble and the base, which become manifest from man lie in his innate disposition. They belong to him in reality, not metaphorically or as a borrowing. In the same way, God possesses every name by which He has named Himself — including creation, giving life and slaying, withholding and bestowal, making, deception, guile, mockery, decision, decree, laughter, rejoicing, wonder, receiving joyfully, abasing, forgiving, avenging, merciful, wrathful, etc.
To live in a condition where one denies the right of the so-called base character traits to exist, to consider them an error or a rebellion, a “Satanic delusion”, is to deny fully half of existence, fully half of God — to reject Him, to not love him; to love only those parts that the limited human mind consider to be acceptable and to hate those parts that are not pleasant and desirable to fleshly comfort — amounts to loving subjectively only the part of the self that is “acceptable”. This is a crucial point: to accept one’s own self, in all its many parts.
It is very important to note that this does not mean that one “manifests” every negative character trait, it means that one accepts, loves, and tries always to choose to manifest the noble traits and to channel the base traits productively. To love objectively, all that is, unconditionally, both the light and the darkness, and to never interfere with the Free Will of another to choose to do or be as they see fit is one of the keys; one of the “simple understandings”.
Of course, at the same time, it is to refuse to have one’s own Free Will violated. You don’t have to act “against” another, you merely act “for your own destiny” in such cases. And here, we have another little illustration from The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna (Swami Nikhilananda, Madras: Sri Ramakrishna Math, 1944.):
The master is talking to his disciples: Let me tell you a story.
In a forest there lived a holy man who had many disciples. One day he taught them to see God in all beings and therefore to bow low before them all.
A disciple went to the forest to gather wood for the sacrificial fire. Suddenly he heard an outcry: ‘Get out of the way! A mad elephant is coming!’
All but the disciple of the holy man took to their heels. He reasoned that the elephant was also God in another form. Then why should he run away from it? He stood still, bowed before the animal, and began to sing its praises.
The mahut (handler) of the elephant shouted: ‘Run away! Run away!’ But the disciple didn’t move.
The animal seized him with its trunk, cast him to one side, and went on its way.
Hurt and bruised, the disciple lay unconscious on the ground. Hearing what had happened, his teacher and his brother disciples came to him and carried him to the hermitage. With the help of some medicine he soon regained consciousness.
Someone asked him, ‘You knew the elephant was coming; why didn’t you leave the place?’
‘But,’ he said, ‘our teacher told us that God Himself has taken all these forms, of animals as well as men. Therefore, thinking it was only the elephant God that was coming I didn’t run away.’
At this the teacher said: ‘Yes, my child, it is true that the elephant God was coming; but the mahut God forbade you to stay there. Since all are manifestations of God, why didn’t you listen to God in the mahut?’
In the same way it is said in the scriptures that water is a form of God. But some water is fit to be used for worship, some water for washing the face, and some only for washing plates or dirty linen. This last sort cannot be used for drinking or for worship.
In like manner, God undoubtedly dwells in the hearts of all — holy and unholy — good and evil — righteous and unrighteous; but a man should not have dealings with the unholy, the wicked, and the impure. He must not be intimate with them. With some of them he may exchange words, but with others he shouldn’t go even that far. He should keep aloof from such people.
A disciple asked: ‘Sir, if a wicked person is about to do harm, or actually does so, should we keep quiet then?’
Master: A man living in society should make a show of anger to protect himself from evil-minded people. But he should not harm anybody in anticipation of harm likely to be done him.
God creates the good and the evil, the ugly and the beautiful, the straight and the crooked, the moral and the immoral.
Now, how do we acknowledge all; how do we love God in all his many parts; how do we give each thing its due?
Do we manifest all these attributes? The answer is “yes and no”.
And between that yes and no lie all the dangers that face us on the path. We quote again from Chittick’s book, The Sufi Path of Knowledge:
It is easy to make the mistake of thinking “Since there is only One Being which permeates all things, God is present in everything, the good and the evil alike. Therefore, there is no difference between good and evil and all is permitted.”
We must see that evil is real on its own level and exists precisely so that man faces the predicament as real as himself — to be forced by his own nature to choose between the straight path which leads to balance, harmony, and felicity and the crooked paths which lead to imbalance, disequilibrium and wretchedness.
From God’s point of view, all paths are “straight,” but that is the point of view of God as Being who comprehends all names and all possibilities. It is not the point of God as Guide, who desires the perfection and felicity of mankind.
From the point of view of Sheer Being, there is nothing but good. But as soon as existence is taken into account, good is by definition mixed with evil. Human beings do not dwell with Sheer Being, and are faced with choices between good and evil. Human beings are placed within the cosmos in a context of other existing things and are forced to choose the good, the better, the bad and the worse. Though goods and evils all manifest God as Sheer Good, in relationship to the criteria set up by the nature of things and willed by God they cannot be considered equivalent in respect to human beings. Hence we cannot escape the reality of good and evil in our actual situation.
Human beings are forced to discern between good and evil at every stage of their existence in this world. The secondary causes assume the properties of His names, and the cosmos is full of life giving and slaying, forgiveness and vengeance, exalting and abasing, guidance and misguidance on all sorts of levels. In each case where human interests are involved, man has to see the secondary causes as good or evil. Hence, human beings must always separate God’s point of view from their own point of view. A lot of folks run amok on this one.
Just as there is nothing but good in existence and all paths lead to God, so also all character traits are noble and none is base. But all character traits are noble only in relationship to their ontological roots. As soon as the four levels of good and evil are taken into account, some are noble and some base.
In order to tell the difference between noble and base in what concerns ultimate felicity, human beings have need of Perspicacity.
Perspicacity is a divine light, which God gives to the person of faith in the eye of his insight, just like the light that belongs to the eye of sight. When a person has this perspicacity, its mark is like the light of the sun through which sensory objects appear to sight. When the light of the sun is unveiled, sight differentiates among the sensory objects. It discerns the large from the small, the beautiful from the ugly, the white from the black, red, yellow, the moving from the still, the far from the near, and the high from the low. In the same way, the light of perspicacity through faith discerns the praiseworthy from the blameworthy, the movements of felicity pertaining to the next abode, and the movements of wretchedness.
Some of the possessors of perspicacity have reached a point where, upon seeing a person’s footprint in the ground — though the person himself is not present — they are able to say that he is a felicitous person or a wretched person. This is similar to what is done by a tracker who follows footprints.
The Light of Perspicacity comes directly from God, from the source, so to speak. That is why it is able to see not only the praiseworthy but the blameworthy as well.
In other words, the light of perspicacity is the ability to see objectively. And we obtain this “perspicacity”, apparently, from knowledge.
Q: (MM) Don’t you get more free will by assimilating knowledge?
A: Yes!! Yes!!
Q: (L) So, in other words, knowledge and awareness makes you aware that you have free will, and also makes you aware of what actions actually are acts of free will, and therefore, when you know or suspect the difference between the lies and deception and truth, then you are in a position to be in control of your life?
A: Yes.
Thus we begin to have some idea of how to “give each thing its due”. The concept that is beginning to form is that one should be able to read the hidden signature of both other people and events in our lives and respond in the way that will channel the various attributes of both others and us so that our actions are praiseworthy in the spiritual sense.
But that leaves out the important point that, in the end, it is a choice. Free Will is, as the Cassiopaeans have said, the most important law of all Creation.
September 19, 1998
Q: (L) Okay, now [a correspondent writes and] says: “Laura brought up several comments about Love that confused me. I do not understand how giving love when not being asked could harm instead of improve.” Can you remark on this?
A: “Giving” love is not giving, in such a case.
Q: (L) So, if you give love when you have not been asked, you are not giving?
A: You are taking, as usual.
Q: (L) When you say you are “taking”, what are you taking?
A: Energy, a la STS.
Q: (L) How does it come that you are taking energy from someone by giving them love when not asked?
A: Because an STS vehicle does not learn to be an STO candidate by determining the needs of another.
Q: (L) I don’t understand how that means you are taking energy?
A: Because the act is then one of self-gratification. If one “gives” where there is no request, therefore no need, this is a free will violation! And besides, what other motivation could there possibly be in such a scenario?!? Think carefully and objectively about this.
Q: (L) My thought would be that, in such a scenario, that if one gives love to someone who has not asked or requested, that it seems to be a desire to change the other, i.e., a desire to control.
A: You got it!!
Q: (L) Now he says further: “Yes, everything is lessons and if a person has chosen a specific path they should be allowed to go and learn their way. But, let’s say this is happening to someone you really love. And let’s say that the person may be in a period of his life that his/her thoughts are probably taking her/him to commit, let’s say, a murder. Don’t you think that if you send this person love, even unconsciously, that it may provide the necessary energy (influence) to stop that murder?” Comment please.
A: No, no, no!!! In fact, if anything, such an energy transference even could enhance the effect.
Q: (L) In what way?
A: Imbalanced waves could be drawn upon by the receiver.
Q: (L) I think that this word he used is a clue: “Don’t you think that if you send the person love, it could provide the person the necessary energy” and in parentheses he has the word “influence” which implies control of the other person’s behavior, to “stop that murder”. So, it seems that there is a desire to control the actions of another person.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) But, his intent is entirely benevolent because he wants to stop a murder, which is the saving of a life, as well as prevent the loved one from going to prison. So, it seems to be benevolent in intent. Does this not make a difference?
A: Have we forgotten about Karma?
Q: (L) Well, I mentioned the fact that one cannot always judge these situations because we don’t know. We cannot know. For all we know the potential murder victim is an Adolf Hitler type or the potential parent of one, or something like that, and then the murder would save many lives with the sacrifice of two lives; or that this murder is supposed to happen because of some karmic interaction that is essential between the murderer and victim, and that we simply cannot know these things and judge them.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) He says: “I believe that if we do not send love energy to the world that the egocentric STS energy will be dominating.”
A: Why would one choose to send this? What is the motivation?
Q: (L) To change it to your idea of what it is supposed to be. To control it to follow your judgment of how things ought to be.
A: Exactly. The students are not expected to be the architects of the school.
Q: (L) So, when you seek to impose or exert influence of any kind, you are, in effect, trying to play God and taking it upon yourself to decide that there is something wrong with the universe that it is up to you to fix, which amounts to judgment.
A: Yes, you see, one can advise, that is okay, but do not attempt to alter the lesson.
Q: (L) He also says: “I believe that an enlightened being is emanating love wherever that person is, and this is even without being asked. It just happens because that is what they are — love.” Comment, please.
A: An enlightened being is not love. And a refrigerator is not a highway.
Q: (L) What?! Talk about your mixed metaphors! I don’t get that one!
A: Why not?
Q: (L) They are completely unrelated!
A: Exactly!!!
Q: (L) What is an enlightened being?
A: An enlightened being.
Q: (L) What are the criteria for being an enlightened being?
A: Being enlightened!
Q: (L) When one is enlightened, what is the profile?
A: This is going nowhere because you are doing the proverbial round hole, square peg routine.
Q: (L) What I am trying to get to is an understanding of an enlightened being. This correspondent and a lot of other people have the idea that an enlightened being is love, and that is what they radiate, and that this is a result of being enlightened.
A: No, no, no, no, no. “Enlightened” does not mean good. Just smart.
Q: (L) Okay, so there are STS and STO enlightened beings?
A: Yes, we believe the overall ratio is 50/50.
Q: (L) Okay, what is the profile of an enlightened STO being?
A: An intelligent being who only gives.
Q: (L) Well, since we have dealt with the idea of not giving love to those who don’t ask, what do they give and to whom do they give it?
A: All, to those who ask.
Q: (L) Okay. A group member responded to him writing: “E***, thank you for your pointing out the paradox of the concept of the expression of love between the C’s and that as some of us think we know, but know what we experience. I feel that it may be very difficult for the C’s to deliver adequate understanding into our third density or dimension.” […] (S) My view of the paradox is thus: If one emanates love as a natural course to the Universe it is not consciously limited or directed — at least I, for one, cannot do this — that simply is the way some of us are a lot of the ‘time’. To eliminate groups or individuals is beyond my comprehension and it certainly would compromise my experience of sending love. Unless one is Bodhisattva,3 love is probably only directed with greater intensity when focused toward an individual; how is one to know whether the intended recipient is ready/able to receive? […] And ‘receive,’ I think is a clue: the intended recipient can either remain oblivious or ward off the love energy — free agency.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If it is “love energy”, is it subsequently corrupted by STS?
A: Maybe.
Q: (S) Giving love to the Universe may be the best way generally, but if one does focus toward a loved one and it can be effective, could the general Universe be just as effective?
A: The universe is about balance. Nuff said!
There are a couple of remarks from the above transcript that I would like to note in particular:
Because an STS vehicle does not learn to be an STO candidate by determining the needs of another.
And the second is:
In fact, if anything, such an energy transference even could enhance the effect… Imbalanced waves could be drawn upon by the receiver.
We are getting somewhere, I think. “An STS vehicle does not learn to be an STO candidate by determining the needs of another” because that is, in essence, judgment.
But let me note right here that to have an opinion, to discern, to choose who you will or won’t associate with, who you like or don’t like, and all the various sorts of pseudo-judgmental choices we make from day to day, thinking guiltily that we are being judgmental because we are making a choice, are not, in fact of such a nature; such opinions/choices are necessary perspicacity.
What is it to judge? To determine the needs of another — and then, to act based on that determination. That leads to “sending” some kind of energy — whether it is “love and light”, or “turning the other cheek”, or preaching to “save” someone — all of those amount to determining the needs of another, and doing something without having truly, at a soul level, been asked.
Now, a lot of people manipulate in order to get energy. That is not asking. Begging, pleading, acting pitiful, being helpless or a klutz or a screw-up are all ways of taking energy. And, what is the result if you allow yourself to be manipulated and to give in response to such forms of persuasion?
“If anything, such an energy transference even could enhance the effect… Imbalanced waves could be drawn upon by the receiver.”
This means, in a very real sense, that much of the activity on this Earth that passes for benevolent acts consists in feeding the STS hierarchy. It is rather like the co-dependent relationship. The abuser cannot abuse you without your permission. Not only that, all the activity to “save” this or that group, to “bomb the earth and its inhabitants with love and light,” may only serve to increase the negativity, the darkness, and the control system because, without having been asked, or acting against those whose choice it is to deceive, to control, to misinform, we are violating their free will in acting against them, even if our intentions are good. Thus, they feed on this energy, increasing their energy in Service to Self.
We all want to “save” our loved ones from mistakes of judgment or action. We all die a little inside when we see our children following pathways that could, in some cases, actually end in their deaths. But, in truth, we can only advise, we cannot act against their choices if they are at or beyond the age of consent. Where so many of us fall by the wayside is in not understanding how much of this is masked in the guise of helplessness and appeals to our sense of pity and compassion.
How many of you have ever given time, energy, money, shelter, food, clothing or other help to a “pitiful” person, only to be screwed or stabbed in the back by that person? Over and over again, you say? Yes. Not only that, they seem to go on to bigger and better things, using more and more people, getting stronger and stronger on other people’s money and energy. Curious, isn’t it? And what are we taught in our religion? To “forgive and forget” and “turn the other cheek” and “go the extra mile”, and go back for more! We stay in relationships or situations because we “feel sorry” for someone. When we try to extricate ourselves, we find that the pity level shoots up and the crying and begging are just awful!
May 3, 1997
Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight!
Q: (L) One of the things I have learned is that these individuals seem to attach via some sort of psychic hook that enters through our reactions of pity. Can you comment on the nature of pity?
A: Pity those who pity.
Q: (L) But, the ones who are being pitied, who generate sensations of pity, do not really pity anybody but themselves.
A: Yes…?
Q: (L) Then, is it true as my son said, when you give pity, when you send love and light to those in darkness, or those who complain and want to be “saved” without effort on their own part, when you are kind in the face of abuse and manipulation, that you essentially are giving power to their further disintegration, or contraction into selfishness? That you are powering their descent into STS?
A: You know the answer!
Q: (L) Yes. I have seen it over and over again. Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy. […]
Q: (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?
A: What do you think?
Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.
A: Or, at least not the important things. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.
Q: (L) Why is it that it seems to be one of the primary things about us that prevents us from acting against such situations, is our fear of hurting another person? That was the chief thing that kept me in my marriage for so long. And, only when I knew that it was hurting the kids more to stay, did I have the power to get out. Why are we so afraid of hurting someone’s feelings if they are hurting us?
A: Not correct concept. You do not need to “act against them”, you need to act in favor of your destiny.
Q: (L) But, when you do that, these persons make you so completely miserable that there seems to be no other choice but a parting of the ways.
A: Yes, but that is not “acting against”. Quite the contrary. In fact, remember, it takes two to tango, and if you are both tangoing when the dance hall bursts into flames, you both get burned!!!
Q: (L) Why is it that when one tries to extricate from such a “tango”, why is there such violent resistance to letting you go when it is obvious, clearly obvious, that they do not have any feeling for you as a human being?
A: It is not “they”. We are talking about conduits of attack. All STS are candidates for this. There are only about 6 billion of you though.
Q: (L) Okay, all people can be conduits of attack. What is it that can help to get energy and concentration back?
A: Making the necessary changes would. […]
Q: Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?
A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.
Q: Where does this energy drain?
A: 4th density STS.
Q: They drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?
A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them!
Q: (L) In other words, if we are involved with people who are not aware, who do not understand the situation, the controls and manipulations from other densities; and further, if they don’t want to learn, we are in a “no-win” situation, and the only real option is to extricate ourselves, otherwise we are “dancing with the Devil,” so to speak. (T) Well, I would like to know what is it in us that makes us attracted to such people?
A: It was the idea of 4th density STS.
Q: (L) That means that through other people they can control our thoughts and emotions, put ideas into our heads, and we think it is a good idea to “save” someone. You don’t know. It is taught in our religions and culture to give until it hurts, and, in fact, to give because it hurts. The whole situation is designed and controlled from another level. Any further comment on this subject?
A: Once you have truly learned the program, just plug it in. We mean that all you have to do is learn the patterns of behavior, the subtle signs, and you will always have the ability of avoiding it. Your own as well as others. Anticipate not!
Q: I guess once you have truly learned what is being said here, just plug it in. […] So, once you have learned the program from this person, you will be able to avoid getting into another, similar one. (T) But, I should have learned it from H. I did the same thing twice.
A: The signs were present, but you did not read them. You did not yet know the program. Anticipate not!
Q: (L) I guess that means that when you are thinking that you can change another person, or that changing something about what you are doing naturally will help them, you are anticipating.
A: Or that it would be different than it turned out to be. Lesson number 1: Always expect attack. Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same. Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.
Q: I guess that it is true that anything that tends to cause interference in doing what one is here to do could be considered attack. Whether it is your mother being sick, or your kid falling off a bicycle and breaking his arm. It is all related to lack of vigilance on the part of the one who is the conduit of attack.
A: When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems…
Q: So, if there is something that can cause problems, expect it to happen.
A: But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?
Q: Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.
A: Yes, and for many, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.
Q: Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it or “fix it.” Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends, virtually anybody — nobody is exempt.
A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. Humans need to be cured of their lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.
There were numerous occasions when we asked if there was anything we could do to prepare for fourth density, and the answer was always, more or less, to “let it happen”. Here is one particularly interesting segment along that line that is applicable to all, I believe:
June 17 , 1995
A: You see; we speak to all of you when we say this. It’s now time for you, as individuals, to try to move away, as much as possible, not to force yourselves, of course, but to try and move away at your own pace as much as possible, from the constraints of third density.
You have all learned lessons to the level where you are more than ready to begin to prepare for fourth density. Third density involves a level of physicality and restriction and restraint and all of the things that go along with those that you no longer need.
So, therefore, even though we understand that at times it may feel comfortable to cling to this, there is time for you — and there is that word again — it is time for you to consider moving ahead and get ready for fourth density and not to be concerned with such things as time or how to free yourself from the illusion of time. That really is not important. That’s like the third grade student delving into mathematics and stopping everything to go back and contemplate the ABC’s and why it isn’t CBA or BAC. There really is no point. It is what it is. They are what they are.
Q: (L) That is what I want to know, what is it?
A: Why do you need to know this?
Q: (L) Because I am curious. What is time?
A: We have already told you that it is a non-existent, artificial creation of illusion for the point of learning at the level where you are at or were, and once you have left that level, you no longer need it.
Q: (T) Maybe one of the lessons is to learn not to worry about time. Once you learn that time is not real…
A: If something is not real, is there any concern in worrying about what it is? Imagine a conversation between two people: Billy and Gene. Billy says to Gene, “There is no such thing as time.” Gene says, “Oh, really? But I want to know what it is.” Billy says, “But I just told you there is no such thing. Time does not exist. It is not real in any form, in any frame of reference, in any form of reality, any level of density. It simply does not exist.” And, Gene says: “Oh, that’s interesting. Now, again, what is this time?”
Q: (L) Point taken. (T) Do you wear a watch? (L) No. (SV) I have to because of my schedule. (T) But, you wear the watch because other people believe in time? (SV) Yes. (T) And that is out of courtesy for their belief, not your belief.
A: That is precisely correct. While you are still in this third density it is still necessary for you to conform, to a certain extent, to the ways of others who are more comfortable within the realm of third density. But, as we have stated previously, perhaps it is “time” for you to begin preparing for fourth density and not concern yourself any more than is absolutely necessary with all the where’s and why’s and what for’s of third density reality. This truly is behind you now, and we know that because we can see from all levels six through one and back again in full cycle.
Q: (L) Going along with that statement, not too long ago I asked a question about the purpose of this group and the answer was that if we knew, or, more specifically if I knew, I would become “unglued”. Was that meant literally?
A: Oh, yes certainly. Every single bone in your body is going to unglue itself from every other.
Q: (L) Well, since you are saying that it is time for us to begin preparing for fourth density, maybe it is time to deal with that question?
A: Well, perhaps you are trying to steer us now. This is amusing because, of course, you sought our help. Now you are going to put us in your place and vice versa. But, actually, in a way, that is what is already happening, because again we must remind, that we are you in the future and we have already experienced all that you are experiencing. And of course, we are experiencing as it is always being experienced.
But, it is important to note that you have been making progress despite our occasional chiding, and we are very proud of the progress you have been making.
Also, we want to remind you again not to worry about the extent of the progress or the direction it is taking. Just let it happen. All knowledge that it is absolutely necessary for you to gain to sustain this progress will be gained at the appropriate point in… [chorus] Time!
Therefore, not to worry as it will all fall into place, as we have told you.
Now, we do not feel that you are ready, as yet, to know what your ultimate purpose is, nor is it necessary for you to know, and it certainly would not be helpful in any way, so we ask again that you please not worry about that because when the “time” comes for you to know, you will.
So, having shared with you some of the “simple understandings” that we have been learning in this process, I would like to leave you again, with the thought: “An STS vehicle does not learn how to be an STO candidate by determining the needs of another.”
We need to think long and hard about this. How many groups and religions and cultures and political systems down through the millennia have acted in this very way? The ones that come chiefly to my mind are, of course, the monotheistic religions and all the scare tactics and hypnotic efforts used by them to “save” humanity. It’s really scary when you think about it.
We are all Service to Self here in third density — we wouldn’t be here otherwise. Struggling against it isn’t going to help. But, learning to make your choices so that you are the least available food for other beings (acting in favor of your destiny), and stopping your own feeding on the energy and resources of others is definitely a plus. There are relationships where it is agreed that the members will feed each other with knowledge and support and emotional energy, time and money, and all other things. And if it is done in honesty, with no hidden agendas, because each wants and needs what the other wants and needs to offer, then that is symbiosis and is Service to Others.
October 12, 1994
Q: (T) You talk about both STO and STS. Yet you tell us that we need to learn to be STO. Why is there a difference between what we have to do and what you are doing?
A: STO is balance because you serve self through others.
Q: (T) You have said a couple of times that you are STS by being STO. Is this not true?
A: Yes. Already answered.
Q: (T) Kind of like: what goes around, comes around?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Is STO a means to an end for STS?
A: No. STO is balance. STS is imbalance.
Q: (T) How can you be STS through STO if STS is imbalance?
A: STO flows outward and touches all including point of origin, STS flows inward and touches only origin point.
So, essentially, the difference between being STS, but moving in the direction of STO (an STO candidate), and being STS intensifying in the STS mode, seems to consist in deliberately choosing STS. Most people are duped and tricked into choosing it. When they begin to understand what it is that they are really doing, they begin to wake up. And, when they wake up, they then make the choice — to give or to take.
And the all blinks neither at the Darkness nor at the Light. “Remember, density refers to one’s conscious awareness only. Once one is aware, ALL conforms to that awareness.”
Everywhere you look, there is the Face of God.
2 This remark takes on an entirely new meaning in the present time, as I edit this material for book publication. We see the possibility looming larger every day through the instrument of Obama’s administration, and the legacy of George Bush and the Neocons, many of whom are still pulling the strings of covert control.
3 In Tibetan Buddhism, a Bodhisattva is anyone who seeks enlightenment not only for him/herself but also for everyone. A Bodhisattva is motivated by pure compassion and love. Their goal is to achieve the highest level of being: that of a Buddha. Bodhisattva is a Sanskrit term which translates as: Bodhi [enlightenment] and sattva [being]. Their reason for becoming a Buddha is to help others.
When someone first enters the way of the Bodhisattva, they develop Bodhicitta, or, mind of enlightenment. Even as a person strives towards such an exalted goal, they feel as though they are limited by the fact that they, too, are suffering. So that they can be of aid to others, they decide to become Buddhas for a Buddha is capable of unlimited compassion and wisdom. Also, Buddhas are able to relate to all others at whatever level is needed. To those of lesser intelligence, a Buddha will use simpler words; and to those of great intelligence, a Buddha can explain answers in a more exalted language.
By entering the Bodhisattva way, the mind must become enlightened. And so the training begins by generating the 6 Perfections. 1] generosity, 2] ethics, 3] patience, 4] effort, 5] concentration, and 6] wisdom.
1999: As I write these pages, the e-mails come fast and furious with questions. I recently received a communication from a correspondent that said, in part:
After all your efforts and all the information [the Cassiopaeans have given you], have you yourself come up with a synopsis of what we can expect more or less? Here’s mine:
Aliens will invade in some form or other between now and 2018 [the actual date given by the Cassiopaeans was 18 years from 1994, or 2012] or something, causing even more fear and confusion than there is already, then try to take us over or annihilate us or let the earth changes do that and then seed earth with their own race. About the same time this is all happening The Wave will strike and half of the world or more (people and landmass) is wobbling in and out of 4th density and then transitions completely. Those of us who have not been wiped out by earth changes or the busy Lizzies and gone to 5th density dead zone (there to decide what to do next) will find ourselves in 4th density earth which will look very weird to us and will take some getting used to, only to find ourselves in the same situation environmentally, [with] 4th density Orions or Lizzies trying to manipulate and control us there as they have been doing here for millennia.
In short, as you said to the Cassies, the picture looks ugly. They said that you seem to think that only good experience is useful, well no, but at least there is usually a mix of good and bad but in their scenario we are all for the high jump with no mat on the other side though. (Splat)
They are asking us to accept the fact that we are the spirit and that our bodies should not matter and we shouldn’t be worried about dying horribly en masse. OK, to come to this realization about ourselves is possible I believe, but for the whole world to try to do it by 2018!! [2012] This is asking a bit much! I mean we haven’t as a race really made any inroads into this way of thinking at all!!
The biggest deal for me is to conceptualize all this. Say for a second that I decide that all this makes sense to me and I’m buying it, it is gonna happen. I then look up from my computer bleary eyed and look at my fellow earthlings (!) and look at the world outside and say…no way!! I mean, there is nothing in what I see around me that is even hinting that any of this could be happening!
This smacks to me yet again of the type of blind faith needed for the Christian church! Blind faith is a con. If [something] exists, then we should be able to experience it. For me that is a much better way to get people to act: give them something to act on, not a story that requires belief without any proof.
An example is that Sahaja Yoga is gathering more and more people because it is an actually experienceable phenomenon, people can feel their own spirit and are prompted to pursue further. Why can’t we have some proof?
For the most part, the questions I receive are questions we have already asked the Cassiopaeans, only I have not yet managed to transcribe, edit, and otherwise clean up and publish all the material. Personal names and other details need to be removed, typing errors corrected, and so on.1
Other questions are of the kind that really can be answered by us, with no intervention, if we will just take the time to study the matter and think. I will never forget the occasion when the Cassiopaeans responded to a general melee of rapid-fire group questions with the following:
January 14, 1995
We are trying to tell you something important, and you keep asking questions. Now, please, silence for a moment!!!!
We have told you many times to communicate with each other and network and share ideas, because that is how you LEARN and PROGRESS! But, you are beginning to rely on us for all your answers, and you do not LEARN that way!!!!!!!
Now, try this, you will be thunderstruck with the results: Each of you has stored within you unlimited amounts of factual and “Earthshaking” information. This information was put into your consciousness in order for you to retrieve it in order for you to learn. Now just start by holding a discussion about the last series of questions you were trying to ask us, and “let it flow”.
In and amongst our group, we have learned gradually to implement this type of activity. Yes, it means that we have to put forth effort, and much material must be researched and compared, but it has strengthened our confidence in our abilities to evaluate and make choices based on hidden variables.
Many of the questions I have received have been about other sources of information whose scenarios or interpretations of our reality vary somewhat from the Cassiopaean presentation. I have avoided talking about these things for a variety of reasons, the main one being that each individual learns something from every interaction and we all seem to learn best when we directly experience something for ourselves. In fact, in terms of our reality, each and every source of information has its place and purpose. Everyone who is seeking is at some point on the learning cycle. The old saying, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear,” is appropriate in this respect. It would do no good for a child in second grade to work with a teacher who specializes in sixth grade material — he or she simply would gain nothing from the interaction but confusion. The Cassiopaeans have commented on this factor:
January 10, 1995
Q: (L) Now, I have some articles in this magazine here: This is Lyssa Royal and she has “channeled for thousands around the globe since 1985.” Her books and magazine articles are published in six languages worldwide, etc. She writes here: “The human consciousness is roughly divided into three different areas for the sake of this illustration: the conscious mind, the subconscious mind and the unconscious mind.” Now, are these labels generally correct?
A: Roughly.
Q: (L) She says: “The unconscious mind is a link to your greater self, it is also used as a wasteland where scary, dark things are stored that you really don’t want to bring up.” Is this a fairly accurate statement?
A: Semi-accurate.
Q: (L) Is there anything you can say to make the statement more accurate?
A: The unconscious mind is also a conduit for connecting with the higher self, other selves, and the universal mind.
Q: (L) Lyssa also says: “When you are a child and have a traumatic event, the subconscious not only finds a way to immediately process the information and store it, but also to protect you from further fragmentation. It must seek to create a balance.” So, she says, the “very intense raw energy that is generated from trauma gets stuffed into the unconscious mind.” Is this true?
A: Close enough.
Q: (L) She then goes on to say: “When an extraterrestrial looks at us, we seem like multiple personality cases to them because of our mind divisions.” Is this true?
A: Irrelevant.
Q: (L) Why is that irrelevant? Is it because when a higher density being looks at us they know what they are looking at?
A: Yes. They know and understand the separations of your minds quite precisely. That would be like saying “when a human looks at a rodent, they notice that they are excessively furry.”
Q: (L) She goes on to say: “The ET often does not know how to communicate with a fragmented human. Sometimes they fly their ships by and few people may see them, but the greater percentage do not see them as that data gets sucked into the subconscious and the triage occurs.” She means triage in the sense of the mind being so flabbergasted that it immediately shunts information into the unconscious. Is this true, that ETs are having problems communicating with us because we are the ones blocking contact?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is it true that some people may not see ETs or UFOs because they block it from their own minds?
A: This can happen or the blockage may be inspired by the alien.
Q: (L) Now, she says: “For the most part, the average person in society does not know how to interpret telepathic contact… (Lyssa’s alien talking) in the moment you start perceiving us reality starts shifting because, remember, you are one frequency and we are another.” Is this true?
A: It is irrelevant.
Q: (L) Why is that irrelevant?
A: This is not an obstacle, as suggested by this statement.
Q: (L) Anyway, the article goes on: “So an ET walks up to you in your backyard and for a fragment of a moment you may perceive us. But what commonly happens is that the human will suddenly shut down usually by becoming very sleepy and falling into a sleep or type of trance state such as one that is produced by alpha or theta brain waves.” Is this true? When a person sees an ET do they just turn off from the shock? Is this why most ET contact is not remembered?
A: It can happen but does not usually.
Q: (L) It says that when you start clearing out the stuff in your subconscious mind that the first layer that comes out of the subconscious is simply the top layer of priorities that were given to your subconscious mind to store and process. For the most part the first layer is not scary. It represents procrastinated perceptions that are waiting for processing by the conscious mind… then you start peeling off more layers through hypnosis or meditation and then…
A: We do not wish to further critique this as we can give all relevant and related information when needed. You are “comparing notes” which is fine if in moderation, but remember, separated sources are subject to variable corruption.
Q: (L) What is a separated source?
A: That which is separated from yours.
Q: (L) Somebody different from us? Okay, let me work on this. Our source is you, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, the source this person is getting her information from is separated from you?
A: From you, thus unverifiable.
Q: (L) Well, I don’t exactly get what you mean. The whole point of this article is to say that ETs who abduct people are here to help us evolve and that it is only us, if we have dark and dirty unconscious minds, who perceive them as negative.
A: Wrong, you do not need “help” evolving, nor does anything else.
Q: (L) Well, the thing that concerns me about this particular point of view is that a lot of people are using this to rationalize seeing the ETs and the abductions… Can I read you just a little more?
A: Overall gist is enough for us.
Q: (L) This other woman here, Dorothy Ann, claims she channels dolphins and whales. Dolphins and whales are telling her that they are here to keep frequencies and to awaken energy centers on the earth, and that they are very high level beings, for eons they have kept the electromagnetic grids in the oceans, they follow the old paths, etc. The grids are now in the process of being reset and the whales will be instrumental in this change of the vibrational patterns on the planet.
A: No.
Q: (L) The dolphin kingdom has been empowered to communicate more easily with humans; the whales are awakening to their mission of greater contact and communication with other beings…
A: Nonsense.
Q: (L) So, I don’t really need to go on because all of this is nonsense. Now, this guy here who channels this being called Kryon writes an article about the metaphysical Christ. I read this article and really liked it. It made me feel nice and good and pleasant. Well, I’m not even going to ask you because I like him. It says here on another page that the Milky Way galaxy is part of a system of loosely twenty other galaxies. Is this true?
A: Too vague, all systems can be measured thusly if desired.
Q: (L) So that is too arbitrary.
A: Also a system of every conceivable combination.
Q: (L) In any event, it says that all of these universes expand at the rate of 90% of the speed of light. The ultimate central sun of it all is what we vaguely call God.
A: We have already covered these areas and “God” is “Everything”, not a central sun.
Q: (L) Well, he is talking about this 25,000-year cycle where the earth passes into a photon belt that circles the Pleiadean system, and, when this photon belt hits us it is going to make all kinds of changes and it one of the small cycles, and the harmonic convergence is…
A: Fragmented channel.
Q: (L) This guy is a fragmented channel? Is there such a thing as the harmonic convergence?
A: If you wish to converge harmonically, you may.
Q: (L) So there is no photon belt circling around the Pleiades that hits us every 25,000 years?
A: If this was true, don’t you think we would have informed you by now?
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) Now, could you talk to us a little bit about the purported “Photon Belt”?
A: The key issue remains one of interpretation. The messages are genuine; interpretations are variable in their accuracy. So, when one speaks of the “Photon Belt”, one may really be thinking of a concept and giving it a name.
Q: (L) So, you mean that various persons are seeing something and only describing it within the limits of their knowledge?
A: At one level, yes.
In other cases, the comments have indicated that the channel is not clear, as it were, saying that this or that individual is working with a fragmented transmission. I would think that this means that the channel is getting valid information mixed with noise or even deliberate disinformation. On other occasions, comments have been made that this or that channel is simply making it up at some level in their subconscious minds, even if they are sincere in their conscious thinking. In a couple of instances, the individuals in question were described as agents of disinformation and agents provocateur. Rarely have we found the answer to be that the individual was just simply acting fraudulently for purposes of monetary gain, though that has come up a time or two.
July 11, 1998
Q: (L) I want to ask about the Dan Winter web site. He uses a lot of keywords that are very familiar to us. His whole site is devoted to pyramids, golden ratio, geomagnetic grid, geometry, bees, bloodlines, etc. The question is: everything that happens, I consider that it happens for a purpose. What is the purpose of being directed to this site? Is this all his own nonsense, or is he channeling this?
A: Extract.
Q: (L) He extracts his stuff?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And we should extract from there the pertinent information?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, he seems to be real hung up with this Drunvalo Melchizedek guy…
A: No. No good.
Q: (L) Drunvalo is no good?
A: Yes.
July 4, 1998
Q: (L) Now, we want to ask about this “Zeta Talk” web material [by Nancy Leider].
A: Specifics.
Q: (L) Okay, we wanted to know if it was a legitimate source but corrupted by a lot of noise, or if it is a major disinformation campaign?
A: Not legitimate.
Q: (L) What is the energy behind this woman who claims to channel these Zetas?
A: Ego.
Q: (L) Well, from what I read, it is pretty much an amalgamation of stuff from other sources… I mean, there was nothing that would validate it as higher density material… There was stuff from Sitchin, Velikovsky, Cayce… There is nothing there she couldn’t have gotten from other sites. Ra, our stuff…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And it is just a mishmash of all this stuff along with erroneous stuff that must have come right out of her own head.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, there is a huge amount of garbage coming out of her own head…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) But, as Ark pointed out, it is a very well organized site, mirror sites, she obviously has supporters and fans and all of that.
A: Any one seeking this can accomplish it. Do you really believe the “Zetas” would expend energy warning humans about impending earth changes?
Q: (L) Well, if they wanted humans to perceive the gray aliens as the good guys they would! That’s what occurs to me when I think about it.
A: How much energy do you expend warning squirrels about fires?
Q: (L) Okay, point taken. None.
August 5, 2000
Q: (L) I do have a question. It says here in this Top Secret document penned by the so-called Nexus Seven:
“The bottom line is, ARC has discovered that it is very possible that confirmation, validation and consensus scientific acceptance equals an open invitation to invasion. Think about it. Denial may be one of the most powerful measures we have at our disposal to prevent the overt acceptance of the reality of advanced alien presence into the consensus consciousness. Denial is a munition.”
They are saying that as long as the whole idea of alien presence remains “in the realm of the fantastic and kooky, the implausible and mentally ill” that it is a line of defense against aliens. They see this as just a little “guided free will” to protect consensus belief using “popular deployable psychological munitions of belief.”
They are saying that denial is a psychological weapon, a “deterrent of aliens into mainstream reality since the aliens seem to respect the stance of individual and group consciousness and acculturation free-will more than military might and power. Therefore, we can, by accepting alien presence and existence above board in enough mainstream public, unwittingly turn off the restrictions against overt contact the aliens are following. The overt invasion trigger is our general human acceptance.”
Could you comment on the idea that denial of the reality is protection? Is that, in fact, so?
A: No. Protection comes from awareness, not the other way around.
Q: (L) That was an interesting idea to me, so I did want to pose it. Another idea in this document was that the patriarchal, monotheistic religion brought some measure of blanket protection. From this assessment, as soon as the patriarchal monotheism was installed on the planet, the alien presence withdrew. Is this a valid concept? Does the patriarchal monotheism act as a deterrent of alien intrusion into our reality?
A: This is a confused concept. Why would aliens install monotheistic principles if the result is to close off the contact opportunity?
Q: (L) That’s what I thought myself. I mean, what better contact opportunity than under the guise of God, Jesus, angels, or the Holy Ghost. Alien intrusion into our reality was, in my opinion, facilitated via the monotheistic religions. But, they did note that after the institution of monotheism, the apparent alien contact became much less, thus the conclusion they drew.
A: The two events are either coincidental or inaccurately measured.
Q: (L) Well, it is clear that the whole monotheistic religion was a perfect front for the alien contact to continue to feed on humanity within the holy of holies of the temples. It did not stop, as this document suggests. The whole animal sacrifice thing, the offerings to the gods, the chanting and praying and all that; it just gives a whole new meaning to cattle mutilations! Sheesh!
Okay, there is something very interesting in this document.
“What is the final ontological matrix of hidden truth? What elucidates all the aspects of the true-to-life UFO phantasm in our past, present and future? What are the critical goals of Echelon beyond information suppression and technological catch-up? What are the hyper-intelligence focal points for the future?
“The sun, our sun, is dying, and too soon.
“This was caused by regional dimensional vortex shutdown some 90,000 years ago. Solar instability can cause much life on Earth to be unsustainable in 40 years. Ancient astro-theology calendars all end around now. There are also dangerous interplanetary bodies, with civilization threatening capability due to cause more serious damage to Earth in another 150 years.
“One way or the other we are slated to leave Earth, sooner or later, or else. This is a prevailing secret truth. Those in control would rather save themselves and a few elite than worry about the whole of mankind, despite the presence of a few well meaning but deluded true human patriots amongst the bunch.”
Is, in fact, our sun dying?
A: Yes, and so is everything else.
Q: (L) Is it going to do it in 40 years?
A: You do not understand our attempted allusion. What is not dying?
Q: (L) Well, I know that, but they are saying that our sun is dying too soon.
A: No. What is “too soon”?
Q: (L) Well… (A) Forty years is certainly too soon!
A: Why?
Q: (A) Because scientists would normally give the sun much longer…
A: But do “scientists” really know?!?
Q: (L) You are not helping here! Are you saying this guy is right?! I don’t want to talk about it anymore!
A: Be patient, Laura, this is a lesson.
Q: (L) Is our sun slated to burp and blink out in 2012 with the Mayan calendar?
A: We asked YOU a question. It is impolite to not answer!
Q: (A) Well, no, scientists don’t really know; but they conjecture.
A: Ah hah! Conjecture!
Q: (L) So, what’s your point?
A: Our point is: what is too soon and why?
Q: (L) Too soon would be… well, I guess that in completely objective terms, there is no such thing as “too soon”. When things happen, it is exactly the right time for it to happen. When something happens, everything is perfect.
A: Okay.
Q: (L) So, in the deepest sense, nothing is ever too soon… However… (C) What situations would have to be in place for this to happen within forty years?
A: There are unlimited numbers of situations…
Q: (L) Are any of the situations that would have to be in place for the sun to burp and go out in forty years actually present and activated in our present time-line?
A: Burp?
Q: (L) Well, you know what I mean! Expand, become a red giant, burn out, run out of gas, go supernova…
A: Some of those possibilities are always present, especially when combined with multitudinal external factors.
Q: (L) What would the external factors be?
A: Energies, or cosmic forces present in space at various locators which the sun would pass through in its journey through space, for one example.
Q: (L) Are we slated to pass through any of those energies or forces?
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) You guys can’t do that to me!
A: Yes we can!
Q: (L) Well, let me ask the next question on that subject. Does any of this have to do with dimensional vortexes that were shut down 90 thousand years ago in the area of Sirius?
A: We are interested in knowing the “dimensional shutdown of vortex process”. Could you explain, please?
Q: (L) Is there such a thing as a dimensional vortex?
A: Semantics.
Q: (L) What would you call a dimensional vortex?
A: Once again, this is not flowing because you are navigating haphazardly through subjective proclamations.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that all of this analysis of what the deep ontological truths are, is just subjective proclamations. Was there ever something that happened that might have been perceived by the person who wrote this material, as a dimensional vortex shutdown 90 thousand years ago?
A: What is that?!?
Q: (L) So, basically, you are trying to point out that there is no such thing as a dimensional vortex shutdown. But, you have said that the planet Kantek exploded between 70 and 80 thousand years ago, right?
A: If so, that is not what the writer is attempting to portray.
Q: (L) Could it have been a supernova?
A: Look here! This is pointless.
Q: (L) So, all of this stuff is nonsense?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are you telling me that I am too dense to get what you are trying to say here?
A: We would normally not suggest something as harsh as that.
Q: (L) Well, the only thing you didn’t say was “but”.
A: Okay; “but”.
Q: (L) So, I am really missing the point here. Okay. What I am getting from what you are and are not saying, is that this person is clearly trying to portray something, and that there is something behind what he is saying, but I am just too dense to figure out the right question so you can download the answer.
A: Dense? No my dear! You are just learning, as are we all.
Q: (L) 90 thousand years ago. Is the 90,000 a parameter for something? Can I start there?
A: We doubt it!
Q: (L) Now, I did have a thought that this 90,000-year cycle could be the period of the companion brown star you have said is on it’s way into the solar system. Is that what they might be talking about?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) So, what they are really talking about, or may have seen in some way, is the companion star, rather than the death of our own sun. (A) Let me just ask a simple question. Can you estimate the likelihood that the sun will die in 40 years?
A: That is unlikely.
Q: (L) Well, what a relief! (A) We are done! How unlikely?
A: There is one chance in 189 million.
Q: (L) Well, when I read this Top Secret document and they said this business about the sun, I just really wondered where they were getting all this! I mean, does the secret government really believe this crap? And if they do, and all their actions are geared around that, then that would explain a lot. But, if they don’t believe it, then they might even be responsible for putting out this kind of disinformation just to make people panic and get even more anti-government so they can have more excuses to clamp down on the masses and take away more freedoms! This Nexus Seven says right up front: “This document is a clear and present danger to the mental health of unstable persons!” Well, they did warn us! (Laughter.) (A) Well, it’s a Val Valerian source! The fact that one or more things are wrong does not mean that everything is wrong!
A: Arkadiusz is right on the money!! There is much accurate information there and some disinformation mixed in!
Q: (L) Yes. I figured out that as long as the Nexus Seven guys were talking about the secret government echelons, the ideas of the compartmentalization, the views of the different factions about how to manage the alien threat, and so on, he was on pretty safe ground.
But, when he launched off onto the many things that were clearly borrowed from a number of channeled sources, including Billy Meier, he really missed the boat.
But, it made me aware that there are people in the government who really are following channeled material, who are using it to make their assessments, because they really don’t have much choice. They are as much against a brick wall as most everyone else in figuring out the whole scenario! I guess that Billy Meier and now this Anna Hayes, are their favorite guys because it appeals to their STS hierarchical mindsets.
But, when they start to rely on channeled sources for their explanations, they run off the road because most of that sort of information is put out by the very beings they are trying to second guess, who clearly, from all their behaviors, have a serious vested interest in remaining behind the curtain, so to speak. It’s hardly likely that they are going to go to all the trouble doing wicked things in secret, and then blab all their secrets to every Gray-hugger on the planet who sits down with a pyramid on their head!
And, when the abductors come and “take you to their leader” to “explain the facts of life” to you, because you have been “demanding answers” all your life, don’t expect them to tell the truth. It’s like the Wizard of Oz when he finally was unmasked: he was still a humbug and gave out fake hearts, fake diplomas and worthless testimonials. There is a deep lesson in that scene!
If the aliens are maintaining a covert operation, but then do contact people, do they expect them to tell the truth? Sheesh! You’d think these big shots in the military would figure that one out! It’s pretty standard intelligence maneuvers!
I think that Nexus Seven runs afoul of his objective, unless his objective is disinformation. I would like to know: what is the possibility for Sirius to go supernova?
A: Sirius is indeed a supernova candidate.
Q: (L) Well, it’s about 8 light years away. I don’t think the human race would survive that one!
A: In the words of a wise philosopher: you would fry!
Q: (A) That’s a wise philosopher. (L) What is the likelihood of Sirius doing the supernova number in the next hundred years or so?
A: Not good.
Q: (L) So, we can forget that one for now.
Now, it’s all fine and good for the Cassiopaeans to say this or that in regard to other sources, but the question then becomes: how reliable are the Cassiopaeans themselves? If a person were to write to me and ask about their weekly “channel o’choice”, and I were to inform them that the Cassiopaeans had said that the individual was just patching together their own theories about things from their reading and presenting it as channeled information (which was the explanation in the Zeta Talk case), what would be the point? If the reader likes that source and likes their material, and further, based on their knowledge at the time (which may be greater or lesser, depending on the amount of research they have done into the subjects being talked about by their chosen source), believes it to be an accurate representation of reality, even if what is being talked about is a hidden reality, then they are perfectly right to adhere to their choice of belief systems.
If, however, after a certain period of time of studying any such material, doing corollary research and comparisons to what can be observed and known through other disciplines, they discover that the presentation by the given source no longer holds up to scrutiny, then they are perfectly right to discard that belief system and expand their scope of understanding.
This is why I say repeatedly that it is our responsibility to do the work, examine the material, observe, research in the fields being discussed, compare, and most of all, think. When you strip away all the lies, what is left is Truth. And, in some teachings, you find that when you peel the onion, there is nothing in the middle!
The question then arises: can and do benevolent sources at other levels of reality lie?
Yes.
I can hear the sharp gasps of horror and negation at this statement. I realize that many people have had channeling experiences with beings of “love and light” who infuse every word, every contact, every interaction with insuperable sensations of “love and well-being”, which amounts to “proof” that their source is a truly higher being. And then, how often have I heard the story from hypnosis subjects who have come to me for help, telling me that when they began their channeling experiments, performing the prescribed exercises of “surrounding the self with love and light” and “calling on my guides and higher self for protection,” the resulting contacts and information were “transcendent” and truly “love oriented;” and then something “went wrong”? Something turned around and there were energy drains, the messages that initially were so positive and beautiful soon became oddly different or off key. In some cases, it turns ugly and intervention is necessary. In others, the percipient is convinced that they must suffer the side effects for the sake of the work, and no intervention is desired. But at the same time they wanted me to fix their stress problems or help them work on their energy levels, or find out if the real problem was in them, their past lives, or anything other than the fact that they were hooked up with vampiric “guides”.
Sometimes the percipient doesn’t have such problems as this. The problem becomes apparent in other ways. Their source tells them that they are special or chosen in some way — that they are really a great teacher who is a “walk-in” or an “incarnation” who was stimulated to awaken on the day they serendipitously decided to “channel my higher self”. They are given titles, such as “Lord Ramananda” or “Lady Krishnagupa” or whatever. They are given to know that they are to be the new purveyors of the long hidden science of “Keyturn” or whatever, and the dance begins. The words pour forth in awesome syntactical matrices of great profundity and beneficence. And all the listeners agree that they are somehow changed or “uplifted and inspired” by the presence of so great a master in their midst. They follow the teachings, invest their time and money in predicted events of “mass landings” or “photon belts” or cometary companions who are going to airlift them to glory, and then — what? The predicted rapture goes kaflooey, and the excuses begin in an effort to find someone or something to blame for the disappointment.
Somewhere along the way I received the following e-mail reproduced here exactly as I received it except that I have left out the name of the correspondent:
Under the Law of Synchronicity I have been put in contact with Sheldan Nidle. For very deep personal reasons I stayed with him before and after the “photon belt affair”.
Recently a friend of mine send me the address of your site. I read Earth Changes. Very interesting indeed. To be honest though, I did not appreciate the fact that your Contact made a singular comparison between Nidle and Bo and Peep [the leaders of the Heaven’s Gate cult].
Now let me ask you a direct question. Your Contact is from the 6th density. Nowhere in your transcript have I seen any mention of Love. Cycles, numbers, dates, no dates, time, no time, jokes sometimes, funny by the way, mention about bases, a very and extremely complicated series of scenarios of what is coming: a cold and cruel pessimism involving giants and monsters, sort of Clyde Barker Movie or even worst, the infamous War between Good and Evil, sort of cosmic western that reminded Star Wars, Dune, or Lovecraft for instance. The Lizards, awful creatures that ruin our hope to transcend because they are just waiting for us to eat our ass alive. Wow! No love, no hope, a peculiar definition of what STO is all about with a total disrespect for the Spirits we are under our skin. Where is God (us) doing in that kind of business?
Something is wrong somewhere cause I know hope and love are making the world and all the Universes what they are and there is no love coming out from those Cassiopaeans. Who is conducting disinformations here? You or Nidle. My mind is set on that. All you need is love is the answer. As far as I am concern, Love can get anyone out of commission and we will proceed as planned, for us, for Us, and for All.
I wrote back and simply asked where was the love in promoting mass landing rumors and photon belt rumors that resulted in the suicides of 39 people? Further, where was the love in presenting aliens as saviors of mankind, when clearly, that was not the case? I received no reply.
In the book of Joel, the prophet talks about the End Times in the following way:
I will pour out My Spirit upon all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions. And I will show signs and wonders in the heavens and on the earth, blood and fire and columns of smoke. The sun shall be turned to darkness, and the moon to blood, before the great and terrible day of the Lord comes. (Joel 2:28, 30, 31; Amplified, Zondervan)
In the book of Acts, this prophecy is declared to be activated in the Christian context (about which I have my doubts!) with some slight amplification:
And it shall come to pass in the last days, God declares, that I will pour out of My Spirit upon all mankind, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy — telling forth the divine counsels — and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams… and they shall prophesy — telling forth the divine counsels and predicting future events pertaining especially to God’s kingdom. And I will show wonders in the sky above and signs on the earth beneath, blood and fire and smoking vapor; the sun shall be turned into darkness and the moon into blood, before the obvious day of the Lord comes, that great and notable and conspicuous day. (Acts 2:17-20; excerpts; Amplified, Zondervan)
At the same time, 2nd Thessalonians says:
The coming of the Antichrist is through the activity and working of Satan, and will be attended by great power and with all sorts of miracles and signs and delusive marvels — lying wonders — and by unlimited seduction to evil and with all wicked deception for those who are going to perish because they did not welcome the Truth but refused to love it that they might be saved. Therefore, God sends upon them a misleading influence, a working of error and a strong delusion to make them believe what is false… (2 Thessalonians, 2:9-11; Amplified, Zondervan)
In Matthew 24, when Jesus was asked, what will be the sign of the end — the completion, the consummation — of the age? He answered:
Be careful that no one misleads you — deceiving you and leading you into error… And many false prophets will rise up and deceive and lead many into error… for false Christs and false prophets will arise, and they will show great signs and wonders, so as to deceive and lead astray, if possible, even the elect… (Matthew 24:4,11,24; Amplified, Zondervan)
So, we have some ancient traditions about this time of the “End”, (or so we suppose it to be due to our many current observations about the state of the world), that support the idea of many, many channeled teachings and messages being “poured out” on the Earth in that given time. We note, in the first place, that it is described as a “pouring out of God’s Spirit on all flesh” so that many are inspired to prophesy or have dreams and visions.
Okay, that’s all fine and good. But then we are told that a lot of this will be “unlimited seduction to evil and with all wicked deception” brought through by false prophets and wonder workers. Further, it is clearly stated that this influence is as a result of that very same Spirit of God when it is stated: “God sends upon them a misleading influence, a working of error and a strong delusion to make them believe what is false…” The final piece of the puzzle is “false prophets will arise, and they will show great signs and wonders, so as to deceive and lead astray, if possible, even the elect…”
It’s pretty clear, I think, that the Elect, whoever and whatever they are, must be considered to be the prime targets of this activity, so we have to consider that it is not going to be an easy task to sort the wheat from the chaff! We can expect the deceptions and delusions to be very subtle and clever.
Again, I would like to call your attention to the remark: “God sends upon them a misleading influence, a working of error and a strong delusion…”
Don’t you think that this is an astounding statement? I do. It certainly makes it understandable why so many sources can come across as teachers of “love and light” when, in fact, they are purveyors of error and “strong delusion”. In effect, we are being told that these are tests!
And how do you pass a test? A really difficult one? At the very least, you have to have some knowledge of the subject. In most cases, it requires a great deal of study and effort.
The point is: there is an ancient tradition that tells us that deception is going to be the keynote of the times. Those who have not done their homework, and who are not aware of this, look upon the expanding spiritual concerns of the New Age movement as a sign that the world is going to be transformed by love and light and the aliens are here to help us, and we should all embrace every new avatar that comes down the pike showing us signs and wonders or telling us that we are special and chosen, as our savior and way-shower to the Elysian Fields of sanctity and bliss.
According to the Koran, God is the “Best of deceivers”. In Chapter 231 of Ibn al-’Arabi’s Futuhat, (“Unveiling”), which is entitled “On Deception”, there is a long description of the various forms that God’s deception may take. It is said that God’s deceptions appear as the wiles of Satan and the lower soul which often consist of:
The continuation of favors in spite [of the servant’s] opposition [to God’s command]. [God allows the “state” to continue] in spite of the servant’s discourtesy in the manifestation of miraculous signs without divine command and without being punished.
In our own view, God’s deceiving “the servant” is that He should provide him knowledge which demands practice, and then deprive him of the practice; or that God should provide him with practice, and then deprive him of sincerity in the practice. When you see this in yourself or recognize it in someone else, know that he who has such an attribute is the object of deception.2
In this chapter, Ibn al-‘Arabi discusses various manifestations of deception, especially as it affects the general spiritual seeker, the “elect” and the “elect of the elect”. These last can be the ones who are tempted by the desire to convince others by manifesting “signs”.
To attempt to sidestep the natural laws of the world in which we have our being is considered to be a very great discourtesy toward God because it suggests a judgment on the creation or a breaking of the natural laws without a direct command from God. It seems that, as a test, God bestows upon some people the “power to break the laws of nature,” and then places within such a person an urge to manifest these signs in such a way that he is unaware that this is a deception. Hence, he is inspired in his soul to manifest the signs as a kindness to “attract the creatures to God.” Such a person does not understand that, by so doing, he is depriving the witnesses of “acting upon insight”.
In other words, such a person has deprived his devotees of Free Will.
The dangers come, of course, when a person deliberately seeks to channel higher beings or the higher self before being well educated in the history and forms and results of such activities. Such practices become, in effect, a “piercing of the veil”, or as Ibn al-’Arabi calls it, “unveiling”.
The experience of unveiling opens up an infinite expanse of previously unseen realities to the heart of the spiritual seeker. The realm into which the adept first enters is, after all, the World of Imagination, whose byways never end. It is the domain of the Satans and other deceiving forces. The traveler needs to keep a clear head during his journeys and not be misled by the swirling forces, which lie just beyond the horizons of stability and balance.
Nowadays most people interested in the spirituality of the East desire the “experience,” though they may call what they are after “intimate communion with God.” Those familiar with the standards and norms of spiritual experience set down by disciplined paths are usually appalled at the way Westerners seize upon any apparition from the domain outside of normal consciousness as a manifestation of the “spiritual”. In fact there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world. No person familiar with the teachings of Sufism would dare lay himself open to such forces…3
On a number of occasions, the Cassiopaeans have referred to other sources of information and have suggested that we read them so as to save time in dealing with specific concepts. The two sources are Elkins, Rueckert and McCarty’s The Ra Material and Barbara Marciniak’s Bringers of the Dawn.
Yes, they have mentioned that other material is connected to The Wave, but with varying degrees of corruption and distortion imposed by the recipients’ wishful thinking and assumptions. Apparently, these two, mentioned here, have suffered the least from distortion — but it doesn’t take long for the negative forces to act upon those who are in tune. As the Cassiopaeans have said: “Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and ‘dealt with’.”
In this respect, I think it is the long period of training I underwent in the areas of spirit release, depossession, exorcism, and identifying and dealing with STS/negative/demonic energies that may, initially present themselves as STO sources that has helped to prevent this very same corrupting element that worms its way in and gives that slight twist that derails the most positive of channels.
I studied for over 30 years before I began to “practice” anything. In the beginning, my practice consisted of prayer and meditation, the object being to achieve Divine Insight rather than to experience anything of a material manifestation. In 1985, when I was 33 years old, I began to meditate as an adjunct to my studies. Those who have read Amazing Grace are aware of some of the results of this period.
During this same time, there was a great deal of what could only be called psychokinetic activity. Many people saw this as a sign of spiritual achievement.
I didn’t.
To me, it was useless and distracting. My studies had shown me that most, if not all, such events were a result of “short circuited” kundalini type forces; energies of the soul, entering via the basal chakra, diverted by the brainstem into the environment. I was distressed that they were being diverted at this juncture, rather than flowing, as was proper, in the Shepherd’s Crook configuration to the third eye.
It was then, only by following the path as it developed, that the channeling experiment commenced (bringing to an end the PK activity, I should add). Even at this point, the experiment was more an attempt to bring up to conscious awareness, and then merge, the conceptualizations and possible insights of the subconscious mind. We did have the idea that our experiment might be a path to contact with truly higher beings, but we felt that this could only be accomplished via this “merge of conscious with subconscious” and clearing away the detritus of contradiction between the two.
I guess it would be safe to say that, until I had studied for 40 years, I did not feel competent to attempt channeling. Many people, apparently, do feel competent to do it with very little study — perhaps a weekend workshop or seminar at the local New Age Emporium — or because they have been contacted and told that it is their destiny. I am afraid that if I had been thusly informed that I was going to be doing such a thing, it would never have happened! (I guess I am a rebel at heart!)
At the same time, I don’t for a minute delude myself by thinking that we are immune to corruption. On the contrary, I am always on the watch for information that is “off”. I expect it, watch for it, and take all measures possible to prevent it on a continual basis. I am convinced that the instant this kind of vigilance is relaxed, you can pretty much say “goodbye” to objective channeling.
Nevertheless, Barbara Marciniak apparently tuned in and her first book, Bringers of the Dawn, contained a good percentage of useful material.
In the case of the Ra Material, this was also a group effort as is ours, which also began with a somewhat scientific perspective. When analyzing their material, it seems that Don Elkins was the contact with Ra, and Carla, the channel, was merely a sort of conduit. Another way to describe it would be that Don was the tuner/receiver and Carla was the speaker.
When Don died, Ra came no more.
This brings up the question that many people have written to ask me: if the Ra Material was such a good source, as the Cassiopaeans state, why did Don Elkins commit suicide? If Ra was supposed to be Serving Others, why didn’t he4 help Don?
Good question.
The problem, as I see it, was the distortion of judgment placed on the receiving of the material. In many ways, it was a very useful thing that this group was so aware of possible corruption, and took so many precautions. But, it may have been, in fact, these very limitations that they deliberately placed on what could be communicated rather than how it could be communicated that was responsible for Don’s deteriorating mental state and, ultimately, his decision to end it all.
There was the circle ritual that was instituted for Carla’s comfort. She did not feel safe otherwise. This ritual and feeling of safety may have been related to the group’s idea of what was and was not acceptable in terms of subject matter. Or, it may simply have been Carla’s own bias.
Carla wrote honestly about this:
That Ra worked with these deeply ingrained biases within me is, to me, a signal characteristic of this unique source. I felt loved, accepted and cherished by having these items placed near me, and that they thought this out was a constant blessing during this contact.
From all the reading I have done in these side remarks of the group, a great deal of activity revolved around Carla’s biases. It was a major operation just to get anything through at all! But then, there was the bias as to what was acceptable in the way of questions and answers:
Early in the Ra contact we received answers to our questions which fell into a controversial portion of our third density illusion.
The following information falls into this category and resulted from a follow-up question Don asked about UFOs and their sources. You will note Don’s incredulous attitude throughout this portion of his questioning.
It was our decision to remove this information from Book One of The Law of One because we felt it to be entirely unimportant and of a transient nature since knowing it adds nothing to one’s ability or desire to seek the truth and the nature of the evolutionary process, whether the information is true or not.
I have to say that the above remark astonished me to no end. Here they are talking about seeking the truth about the evolutionary process, and information pertaining to same has been deemed “entirely unimportant… whether it is true or not.” We notice in the next paragraph how easy it is to begin to classify truths according to human criteria.
In fact, knowing and continuing to seek this kind of information can become a major stumbling block to one’s spiritual journey because it removes one’s attention from the eternal truths which may serve anyone’s journey…at any time…and places it upon that which is only of fleeting interest and of little use spiritually.
Concentrating on conspiracy theories and their participants tends to reinforce the illusion of separation and ignores the love that binds all things as One Being. If we had continued to pursue this particular line of questioning, or any other line of questioning of a transient nature, we would soon have lost the contact with those of Ra because, as Ra mentioned in the very first session, Ra communicated with us through a “narrow band of vibration or wave length.”
The fact seems to be that the contact with Ra was, indeed, lost because sufficient questions were not asked about those very things that might have served to protect Don.
Let’s go back to the remark I already noted:
It was our decision to remove this information from Book One of The Law of One because we felt it to be entirely unimportant and of a transient nature since knowing it adds nothing to one’s ability or desire to seek the truth and the nature of the evolutionary process, whether the information is true or not.
As much as I admire the material and the group and their efforts, I have to say that the above remark was clearly a judgment. When you start judging, you begin constriction and limitation of what may or may not come through according to your idea of truth. Yes, indeed, one must evaluate the intent and nature of the entities transmitting, but one must not judge as unseemly any material, which is, in fact, a fact! If there is corroboration from other directions, even scientific or historical, yet you judge it to be not worthy of discussion, you have effectively closed down a receptivity to truth.
As we have discussed in Riding the Wave, all knowledge is knowledge of God. At whatever level it exists, it is a manifestation of the Faces of God. Carla writes that they made a decision to remove this information because they felt it to be “entirely unimportant… whether true or not.”
This is one of the cleverest deceptions going in the modern New Age teachings. In effect, it promotes the subjective and wishful thinking version of reality, suggesting at the same time that learning about the world as it is, is somehow dangerous.
This is similar to the Christian Fundamentalist teaching that you never need to read any book but the Bible — everything you need to know is there. They contend that knowing anything outside of that, as Carla wrote about knowledge of anything outside of “love and light” questions, “adds nothing to one’s ability or desire to seek the truth and nature of the evolutionary process.”
Yet, it is abundantly clear that knowing such things is crucial to understanding the truth of the evolutionary process! It may not add anything to the “desire”, but it adds everything to one’s ability to seek the truth. And that truth might have saved Don’s life.
Carla wrote:
In fact, knowing and continuing to seek this kind of information can become a major stumbling block to one’s spiritual journey because it removes one’s attention from the eternal truths which may serve anyone’s journey…at any time…and places it upon that which is only of fleeting interest and of little use spiritually.
I certainly agree that “continuing to seek” this kind of information can become a stumbling block. But knowing it in the first place is essential to navigate one’s way on the spiritual journey. And, in point of fact, the negative existence, the STS hierarchy is part of the “eternal truths”, and is therefore, of considerable interest, spiritually speaking.
The next remark:
If we had continued to pursue this particular line of questioning, or any other line of questioning of a transient nature, we would soon have lost the contact with those of Ra.
At this point in time, it is clear that the restricted line of questioning this group did follow ultimately led to the loss of the contact with Ra through Don Elkin’s suicide even though they thought that their precautions would produce the opposite result.
Our own experience has shown us that pursuing the very lines of questions that the Ra group eschewed has been our only source of defense against the forces that have sought to destroy us. Had the Ra group also pursued this line of information, Don might have had the means of evaluating what was happening to him in the crushing psychic attack he underwent, and would thereby, very likely, have been able to resist the assault.
I can tell you that the psychic attack, the mental pressure, the emotional manipulation, that one undergoes in this kind of work can be utterly brutal. There are no words to describe it. But it seems that doing it and surviving it are essential to broadening and deepening the communication band.
Carla wrote: “as Ra mentioned in the very first session, Ra communicated with us through a “narrow band” of vibration or wave length.”
This remark of Ra’s undoubtedly referred to the restrictions placed on the conduit as a result of Carla’s fears and biases, and the very judgments expressed in the above comments. I hardly think that such an entity as Ra claimed to be would be confined to, or experience reality as a “narrow vibration or wave length.” It would, therefore, stand to reason that the “narrow band” was at the receiving end. The band of communication might very well have been broadened at the receiving end if such judgments and choices had not been made as those we have examined.
The Cassiopaeans commented on this broadening of the channel on one occasion. In one of the earliest sessions, we were told about the experiments being performed on children by “aliens”, and this was truly a horrible thing to be discussing. I later asked why such a thing was being told to us. Like Carla, I was of the opinion that a good source would only say nice things. I was horrified and my first reaction was to terminate the contact immediately. But I didn’t, and later I came back to ask about this initial shocking material.
October 20, 1994
Q: (L) We got some information from an early session which said some awful things about bits of children’s organs being removed, etc. What was the source of that information? Did that come from you guys?
A: Yes. Sorry for shock but necessary for broadening channel.
On the subject of rituals, the Cassiopaeans are very clear that, for the most part, they, too, are restrictive.
July 16, 1994
Q: (L) Do any of the rituals we perform provide protection against further abduction?
A: Maybe. Some crystals with energy fields. Don’t need protection if you have knowledge.
Q: (L) How do we get this knowledge?
A: It is deep in the subconscious
Q: (L) When did we get it?
A: Before birth.
Q: (L) Is there anything else we can do for protection?
A: Learn, meditate, read. Need to awaken.
The following was one of their earliest explications of “Knowledge Protects”.
October 22, 1994
Q: (L) Are there any rituals that can be performed to provide protection for one against intrusion by the Lizzies.
A: Rituals are self-defeating.
Q: (L) Are there any technological means we can use?
A: The only defense needed is knowledge. Knowledge defends you against every possible form of harm in existence. The more knowledge you have, the less fear you have, the less pain you have, the less stress you feel, the less anguish you feel, and the less danger you experience of any form or sort.
Think of this very carefully now for this is very important: Where is there any limitation in the concept behind the word “knowledge”? Being that there is no limitation, what is the value of that word? Infinite.
Can you conceive of how that one concept, that one meaning frees you from all limitation? Use your sixth sense to conceive of how the word, the term, the meaning of knowledge can provide with all that you could possibly ever need. If you think carefully you will begin to see glimpses of how this is true in its greatest possible form.
Q: (L) Does this include knowledge learned from books?
A: This includes all possible meanings of the concept of the word.
Can you think of how it would be that simply with one term, this one word could carry so much meaning?
We sense that you are not completely aware. You can have glimpses of illumination and illumination comes from knowledge
If you strive perpetually to gain and gather knowledge, you provide yourself with protection from every possible negative occurrence that could ever happen.
Do you know why this is?
The more knowledge you have, the more awareness you have as to how to protect yourself. Eventually this awareness becomes so powerful and so all encompassing that you do not even have to perform tasks, or rituals if you prefer, to protect yourself. The protection simply comes naturally with the awareness.
Q: (L) Does knowledge have a substance or an existence apart from its possession or its acceptance?
A: Knowledge has all substance. It goes to the core of all existence.
Q: (L) So acquiring knowledge includes adding substance to one’s being?
A: Indeed. It includes adding everything to one’s being that is desirable. And also, when you keep invoking the light, as you do, truly understand that the light is knowledge. That is the knowledge, which is at the core of all existence. And being at the core of all existence it provides protection from every form of negativity in existence. Light is everything and everything is knowledge and knowledge is everything. You are doing extremely well in acquiring of knowledge. Now all you need is the faith and realization that acquiring of knowledge is all you need.
Q: (L) I just want to be sure that the source that I am acquiring the knowledge from is not a deceptive source.
A: If you simply have faith, no knowledge that you could possibly acquire could possibly be false because there is no such thing. Anyone or anything that tries to give you false knowledge, false information, will fail. The very material substance that the knowledge takes on, since it is at the root of all existence, will protect you from absorption of false information that is not knowledge.
There is no need to fear the absorption of false information when you are simply openly seeking to acquire knowledge. And knowledge forms the protection — all the protection you could ever need.
Q: (L) There are an awful lot of people who are being open and trusting and having faith that are getting zapped and knocked on their rears.
A: No. That is simply your perception. What you are failing to perceive is that these people are not really gathering knowledge. These people are stuck at some point in their pathway to progress and they are undergoing a hidden manifestation of what is referred to in your terms as obsession. Obsession is not knowledge; obsession is stagnation. So, when one becomes obsessed, one actually closes off the absorption and the growth and the progress of soul development, which comes with the gaining of true knowledge. For when one becomes obsessed one deteriorates the protection therefore one is open to problems, to tragedies, to all sorts of difficulties. Therefore one experiences same.
October 28, 1994
Q: (L) The ideas of candle burning, salt, sage, shamanistic rituals and so forth? Is all this useless?
A: Maybe. You are learning; remember when we say “good: no ritual”?
Q: (L) In other words, your knowledge and your strength, which comes from your knowledge and knowing, are the point and the protection?
A: Precisely. This is extremely important. Ritual drains directly to Lizard beings.
Q: (L) Even our saying of the Lord’s Prayer?
A: It is okay to pray. Why do you think organized religion is obsessed with rituals?
Q: (L) Is the same thing true of shamanistic practices and so forth?
A: Exactly.
The following excerpt shows us how focusing on the positive aspects can be as limiting as focusing on the negative. Once you know what the situation is, how it developed and came into being, you can then more easily control your own reaction to it. This excerpt also deals with the issue of sharing information. You might even say that, at this point, I was experiencing much of the type of attack that Don Elkins undoubtedly experienced, though my way of dealing with it was to ask more questions and get to the bottom of the problem.
July 23, 1995
Q: (L) Why have I been under such severe physical, material, and emotional attack in the past six months? Frank thinks that I am under such attack because I work and move too fast in the gathering of information and attempts at sharing it; that I charge ahead and do things, thereby exposing myself to retaliatory attacks.
A: That has the potential for being partially correct in the sense that you disseminate information, perhaps less carefully than you should. The gathering of information holds no potential for attack from any particular realm. However, dissemination DOES, because those whom become aware, become empowered. And, in any struggle between opposing forces, there is always danger in allowing anyone to become empowered without realization of the ramifications.
Q: (L) So, I can continue to seek information, as long as I keep it to myself?
A: You have free will to do that which you please. But, when you are framing it in terms of the question: where is the danger, this presupposes that you are concerned about dangers to yourself. And, if this be the case, we will be happy to give advice where and when needed.
Q: (L) Well, right now it is needed. I am almost completely debilitated physically and materially, which creates a severe barrier to focus and concentration, and also my ability to assist other people.
A: Well then, perhaps it is true that you should be careful as to how you disseminate the information and how you disseminate knowledge gained, and where, and when. This is not to say that you must stop, but rather to think carefully before you do it, as to what the ramifications will be. And then your instincts will lead you in the proper direction. The dangers are always that when one proceeds too quickly, the instincts may be overrun and become confused with other thought pattern energies, and thereby opening one up to attack and other unpleasant possibilities.
Q: (L) Well, if I promise not to tell, make a vow, can’t we just stop all this other?
A: It is not necessary to stop, it is just to be careful as to how one does it. The flow of information is never a harmful thing. As we have previously described, the Service to Self involves the constriction and restriction of energies, and the focusing within. The Service to Others orientation involves an outward flow of energies, the focus being from within to without. Therefore, the passage of information, or dissemination is very helpful and is of Service to Others orientation. But, one must also be aware of the dangers involved. One must not lose control of the flow and the possibilities that can result. This is where you need to be more careful. You need to regulate.
And, attack can come from any number of sources for any number of reasons. It is not always for the same reason. And, of course, there is the short wave and long wave cycle. The short wave cycle is one which closes rather quickly. The long wave cycle is one that closes more slowly, therefore take a longer amount of time, as you perceive it, to close. Therefore it also involves a more complicated issue. This is just one example as to how attack can be the result of what we were just describing.
Q: (L) Can attack be a left over from another cycle?
A: That is one possibility, certainly.
Q: (L) Can you give us any advice as to how to navigate our way out of such situations?
A: That is a VERY vague thought concept.
Q: (L) Well, I seem to repeatedly face the financial flow issue, and it seems to be one of the primary modes of attack against me at this point. How can I overcome this?
A: Are you asking us how to make more money?
Q: (L) Yeah!
A: My dear Laura! You are already in possession of literally thousands of possibilities to accomplish that end, are you not?
Q: (L) Everything takes money!
A: There goes that prejudice again. We have given much food for thought in that area to help you to learn, to contemplate, to meditate.
Q: (L) It is rather difficult to do that when one is worried about how to keep the lights on and feed the children.
A: That is interesting. You can’t meditate or contemplate when you are worried about your next meal. I guess then that this means that no one on third density has ever been able to contemplate or meditate while worrying what was going to be eaten at the next meal. Hmmmmmm.
Q: (L) The point is that a constant state of worry, another crisis every day, the perpetual worry, eventually wears a person down to the point where one can no longer focus on any other issues.
A: Perhaps one can solve the crises by focusing on other issues? You see, when you constrict the flow, you constrict the channel. And when you constrict the channel, you close down possibilities. And, you make it difficult, if not impossible for you to see that which is there. In other words, the obvious becomes oblivious because of constriction of the flow.
This is why we have recommended against all rituals, because ritual restricts the flow, thereby restricting the possibilities. And, what you are describing is a situation of “dire straits,” as you call it — and pressures of great magnitude — which is restricting you.
But actually, it is your concentration on same that is restricting, not the situation itself. And we realize that it is difficult for you to focus your attentions, or, more importantly to open up the flow of the channel. But, it is certainly not impossible. Especially for an individual as strong as yourself. It is what you choose to do, not what you MUST do. It is what you CHOOSE to do.
Indeed, I spent so much time worrying that I could hardly think about anything but how dreadful things had gotten in my life since the Cassiopaean communications had begun and I had been sharing the material. And so it was that I could not see any solution at all.
A practical example of this is the well-known PMS syndrome. I had a friend who used to joke that “For years I suffered from PMS. Then I went through menopause. Now I realize I never had PMS. I’m just a natural bitch.”
Well, that’s pretty funny, but it emphasizes something important. Many women have remarked how much easier it is to control their PMS reactions knowing what is going on. Before the defining of this syndrome, many women suffered horribly at the hands of friends and family who thought they were crazy or just simply bad tempered. When you know it is the hormone mixture in your body affecting the permeability of cell membranes, which affects the electrical balance or synaptic response, it is a lot easier to say to yourself, “This will pass. I am only seeing things through the distortion of hormonal influences.” It is also a lot easier to concentrate on normalizing your actions and reactions when you know you have to compensate for a physiological condition.
The same is true in terms of psychic attack — whether it comes from third, fourth or fifth density sources. Once you know how these things work, when it happens to you, you are aware, and thus able to withstand the assault and put your attention where it belongs — on continuing to operate in a stable and clear-headed way — which you now know is going to require extra exertion on your part for a period of time — so that the attack passes much more quickly and with less damage.
For example, consider an individual who is under attack from a purely third density source — say, an ELF (Extremely Low Frequency) transmitter is nearby causing severe fluctuations in their physiological system which then leads to internal sensations and perceptions that are distorted. So, the person goes to church to pray or gets out the sage and lights it up and waves it around. This may or may not have an effect.
If, on the other hand, they become aware of the ELF transmitter, or the possibility that it could be of such a nature, then their knowledge, combined with application — such as putting up some kind of shielding device or moving away from the transmitter — might have better results.
August 12, 1995
Q: (L) We would like to know a bit more on the subject of rituals, which you have warned us are restricting on many levels. Why is this?
A: If one believes in one’s activities sincerely, to the greatest extent, they certainly will produce SOME benefit, at SOME level. But, merely following patterns for the sake of following patterns does not produce sincerity and faith necessary for ultimate benefits to result.
So, therefore, as always, one must search from within, rather than from without, to answer that question. Do you understand?
To give you an example, to be certain, you meet this all the time. If you read material in the pages of a book that advises one form of ritual or another, and you follow that form of ritual because you have read words printed on the pages, does that really give you the true sense of satisfaction and accomplishment within yourself to the greatest extent possible?
Whereas, if you, yourself, were to develop an activity, which one or another could interpret or define as a ritual, but it comes from within you, it feels RIGHT to you, and you have a sincere and complete faith in it, whatever it may be, does that feel right to you?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Have we answered the question, then?
Q: (L) Yes, thank you.
Note, however, the caveat in the above comments: “SOME benefit, at SOME level.” In the end, knowledge of the true nature of the attack, and specific actions formulated in response to that knowledge, will be the most effective “ritual”.
Now, in the case of the Ra channeling experiment, it seems that the rituals put in place to make Carla comfortable certainly were of benefit to her. But, the question that must be asked is: did Don believe in them? If he had, then perhaps the protection would have extended to him as well. But, either he didn’t believe in them, or they were objectively ineffectual.
Knowledge of the methods of psychic attack, knowledge of negative experience in this density, and how to deal with it by being aware, would probably have saved Don’s life. We asked the Cassiopaeans about it, specifically, at one point:
July 24, 1999
Q: (L) I have been having a dialogue with a fellow on the net in the last week or so who is very well versed in the Ra Material. He sent me a large chunk of Volume 5 of the Ra books, which was material that had not been released earlier.
It seems that during the times that Don Elkins was asking some questions about different conspiracies and the nature of the fourth density STS manipulations and some other rather grim subjects, there was some sort of judgment made by this group, or members of this group, that such subjects were not appropriate lines of questioning for an STO channel. They were, apparently, considered to be a “focusing on negative aspects”, therefore they were not of “love and light”. Such questions and directions of questions were, therefore, discouraged or agreed by this group to be not desirable to pursue. Don Elkins did, however, commit suicide. Can you tell us why?
A: Suicide is a chosen pathway for the purpose of close realization of shutting off the noise.
Q: (L) I would like to understand. Here, these folks had this marvelous contact with Ra.
A: Contact with Ra does not preclude the possibility of attack.
Q: (L) Why did Ra not convey to him the information necessary to understand that he was under attack, and what kind of attack it was, and how to deal with it?
A: The questions were not asked.
Q: (L) Why were the questions not asked that would have protected him?
A: “Love and Light” focus.
Q: (L) So, because they were so focused on the love and light aspects…
A: There is no positivity without negativity. There is always negativity present, whether acknowledged or not.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that if it is not acknowledged, placed on the table, so to speak, that it sort of “bites you” no matter what? That, in some way it will manifest, and if a person goes to an extreme in terms of love and light, the negativity will come in the back door?
A: Close.
It is such a tragedy that this happened to this groundbreaking, trail-blazing group. But, it is a lesson for all of us to realize that when you begin to deal with the realms of knowledge of the cosmos, and you start to limit or place your subjective assumptions in the way so that the information is constricted or limited, that energy/information that you filter out still exists, objectively, and is still a part of you.
It is not true that evil is created by the mind of man except insofar as the mind of man is the mind of God and all else.
A simple way to understand this is: when you have a current of energy, it normally is a wave with crests and troughs — up and down, positive and negative. Those sources that focus on any one aspect of the energy become like a diode, which converts alternating current to direct current. The current can flow through the diode only one way, and part of the current is blocked and is converted to heat. This is, essentially, the process of a DC converter and it is also why DC converters have to be frequently replaced: they burn out.
The “heat” produced in Don as a result of the diode function of Carla was that which “burned out his circuits” because the information being transduced in Don was so much greater than that which could be received and channeled by Carla.
I understood this instinctively when I was studying the Ra Material. Yes, I had many of the same biases as Carla in the beginning, but I was also aware of something else — something that was crucial to my understanding and which had resulted from my work in spirit release and exorcism — and that was a simple principle which amounts to this: putting attention on negative forces does not make them stronger if the intent is to diminish them. And one can only learn to diminish darkness by learning exactly what is of darkness. And that amounts to, as we have already discussed, learning to identify our reality through its symbols, and learning to give each thing its due.
In another respect, a focus on love and light can, in some cases, reflect an inner fear of the darkness. And that fear will attract unpleasant experiences and events into one’s life. Only knowledge can dispel that fear.
In our own channeling, do we have a diode functioning? Do we filter the information?
It is clear that, in the early days, Frank played the role of the ground wire, the actual conduit of the material into this realm, and that the connection to the Cassiopaean nexus is something that takes place through my physiology. I never hear anything in my mind, I am always as interested in having the comments read back to me as everyone else; I am constantly conscious and active, while Frank is generally in a sort of semi-conscious state.
For a long time, we thought that this meant Frank was the source. But then, gradually, through experimentation, we discovered that, yes, Frank can channel just about all the time by virtue of his uniquely neutral nature and physiology. He was the clearest and cleanest open channel I have ever encountered or heard of.
But this condition presents unique problems. Being an open channel means exactly that: an open channel — empty — and it is the question of what person he is channeling with that determines what is channeled through him. When he channels alone, he is subject to the whims and forces of everything and anything in the psychic atmosphere. He seems to have no diode function. He merely connects and amplifies like a radio tuner and set of speakers. This was, of course, very fortunate for me.
In the image above, that I have already discussed in Riding the Wave, notice that the bright glow on the right is my left hand. The glowing image on the left is Frank’s right hand. Note the gap in the flow in the area of Frank’s wrist where some of the flesh shows through. This photo seems to indicate some level of blockage on Frank’s side, but it was minimal.
What does this mean? Well, it is interesting the ways in which we have come to these conclusions. In the early days of the experiment, we noticed a curious phenomenon: if there were persons present who had strong emotional agendas or assumptions, these things would color the transmission. It was as though Frank were picking up on bleed through from the particular individual sort of like cross talk on a radio or telephone when another conversation is being heard in the background. When he channels alone, having no orientation of his own, Frank is as subject to pure STS information as STO. His function as a tuner and speaker means that he can be connected to any transmission source. It also makes him uniquely able to do individual psychic readings by simply tuning into the individual with a clarity unsurpassed by any other psychic I’ve ever known.
For many years, prior to our association, Frank was channeling. He began doing it as a young child when he discovered that using a stick to beat out a rhythm could entrance him, and then his mind would receive endless streams of information. We experimented with him doing this alone, and examined the material produced thereby, and it was exactly the type of mindless psychobabble that comes through so many other sources.
It was clear that Frank was definitely a conduit, but he was not connected to any particular source. One way of describing it would be like a radio tuner constantly running the scan function. This can produce problems when people are present at the sessions who have strong biases or emotional agendas. Doing the channeling under such conditions is rather like trying to watch television with the vacuum cleaner running. The static manifests as certain turns of phrase or grammatical constructions that are not usual, and even certain slants on the material. In some cases, it has resulted in the Cassiopaeans declining to answer some questions at all because the guest was only asking for confirmation of a subjective opinion.
On a couple of occasions it was pretty obvious to me that they were declining to answer because the individual was an STS “mole”. These answers usually come as “open”, “up to you”, or other non-answers; but not always.
At one point, I started counting the number of non-answers and relating it to the people present, and I began to realize that we had a real problem with this. I then began to try to screen guests before they were invited to attend a session. But, even with screening, you don’t really know until you do it. There are many people who say all the right things to get invited to a session, but once there, the energy sort of forces them out in the open and their biases become quite evident. I had to laugh on one occasion when the participant was blocked over and over again by the Cassiopaeans who were hinting that he had some strange affiliations. The man became more and more uncomfortable and actually turned quite rude and aggressive thinking that to attack would divert the attention.
The man in question was a director of a MUFON group with the initials G.B. and the following is the excerpt of the strange responses in question:
February 25, 1995
Q: (GB) I had a very strange experience when I meditated a while back. Was that positive or negative?
A: You have had many “strange” experiences. Would you like to share any with those present, GB?
Q: (TM) I think I know which one you are talking about. (L) What was the nature of that experience?
A: Entity reflection through curtain.
Q: (GB) Was the entity reptilian that I manifested behind me? Or was this a positive or negative energy?
A: Both and neither. Reflection. Projection.
Q: (L) What was it a projection of?
A: Complicated.
Q: (L) What was the source of this projection?
A: STS.
Q: (GB) What were the loud whacks behind my chair? What did they try to tell me?
A: It was not a message, it was a “curtain breach”.
Q: (J) Kind of like a dimensional sonic boom. (GB) Well, I heard a tremendous crack behind my chair when I asked for a sign. About seven large whacks on the floor. (J) Was there an entity standing behind his chair?
A: Yes, but again, GB has had a most interesting life, apparently he does not want to divulge this.
Q: (L) Well, three times they have hinted about this! (Laughter.) (BP) And I thought I knew you! (TM) Yeah, he doesn’t even know about it! (BP) Is GB a so-called “abductee”?
A: In more ways than one.
Q: (BP) Please clarify.
A: That is up to GB.
Q: (L) There are about six different kinds of abductions ranging from physical to telepathic contact and triggering.
A: And there are human abductions too.
Q: (L) You mean humans abduct people too? (J) Have humans abducted GB?
A: Up to GB.
Although Terry and Jan were the first to notice and bring up the subject that Frank’s function was other than being the source contact, I wasn’t too sure. (I tell the whole story in Petty Tyrants and Facing the Unknown.) However, a curious exchange occurred at one point that began to give me a better perspective on what was going on.
It was shortly after my husband, Ark, found me through the Cassiopaean material, and, at that point, we were really pressing the C’s for answers as to exactly what was going on; what was our purpose, and so forth. The obviously “maneuvered” connection with Ark — a physicist — certainly made it clear that this was not your ordinary, garden-variety channeling. It was becoming more and more evident that there was a purpose even though the Cassiopaeans declined to suggest as much, preferring to leave such realizations to our own pathway of discovery.
So, there we were, asking questions about the plans of the fourth density STS forces with the objective of trying to get a handle on our proper response. The questions were focused on activities in alleged underground bases:
August 31, 1996
Q: (L) What do these guys plan on doing?
A: This is where “The Master Race” is being developed.
Q: (L) And what is the time frame they have planned for this activity?
A: Never mind.
Q: (L) Is Ark going to be able to help us with technology, to help other people, or to protect ourselves in some way? In this really bizarre stuff going on on our planet?
A: Too much, too soon, my dear. Curiosity killed the cat.
Q: (L) Well, satisfaction brought him back!
A: Not in this case!!!
Q: (T) He’s coming to protect you. That’s what he said.
A: Maybe, but there is so, so, so much more in store than that!!!!!!
Q: (L) Is that an ominous, “maybe, but there’s so, so, so much more in store?” Or is that a positive, there is so, so, so much more in store?
A: Why would you think it ominous?
Q: (L) Well I don’t know… Because I’m scared of what I don’t know!
A: What have we helped you to discover so far? Would you rather discontinue this operation?
Q: (L) Oh, hell no! (T) After two years, you know she’s always going to ask those kinds of questions!
A: Not two years, eternity. We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. […]
Q: (T) It is destiny for you to find out what your path was, and you had to make this contact, because it was what you were supposed to do. (L) Are we talking about Frank in terms of being put in contact with someone who enables me to communicate with you, so you can put me on my path, which is building the staircase, etc.? Is that what we’ve got going here?
A: He is one, but not the only one, just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
So, we studied that passage and came to the realization that Frank does, indeed, have a rare ability to act as a “broad-band frequency transducer”. But his tuning is entirely dependent upon the strength of the vector, which, respecting the Cassiopaeans, seems to be me.
But, getting back to the Ra Material, Carla made the remark, “Concentrating on conspiracy theories and their participants tends to reinforce the illusion of separation and ignores the love that binds all things as One Being.”
I agree that one should not concentrate on “conspiracy theories”. The Cassiopaeans have said as much. But the fact is, they are a very real part of our world, and conspiracy is part and parcel of the STS pathway, and the reality in which we live. It is also apparent that we are here to learn the lessons of this reality as completely as possible in order to graduate. To consider this aspect of our world as being “outside” or “not a part” of God, is doing the very thing Carla was trying to avoid: in effect, by not learning about such things, she was reinforcing the illusion of separation and ignoring the love that binds all things as One Being — including conspiracies and their participants.
To this day, Carla focuses in that direction, and suffers incredibly from many physical ailments and, seemingly, other mental/emotional torments. She has stated in her writings that these sufferings are the price she must pay in her efforts to hold her focus on love and light. This is very commendable, but misses the point, I think. As we have talked about already, it is not that a person is supposed to manifest negativity in their lives in a deliberate way. There is always choice. That is the key. But it is in judging the negativity to be an error or a mistake or something to be “fixed” in others or the self that one goes astray. And when you exert effort to “create love and light via focus on same,” it becomes a tacit admission that there is some lack of it in your reality.
Folks have a lot of problems in distinguishing between “judgment” and “assessment and personal choice”. I can look at and assess any number of things as negative and choose to act otherwise, or, in other words, learn to give negativity its due by non-participation. But, I don’t have to think that I must impose my choice on anyone else, nor do I have to think that the negativity needs to be fixed or done away with. It is the choice of some beings to follow that path. They have the right to choose it just as I have the right to choose what I choose. And, the only way I can choose is to know the difference! And I cannot know the difference if I do not have the deepest knowledge possible about every aspect of the reality in which I live.
And that is not to say that we can ever fully know the truth. But it is our job to Love the Creator, and we cannot love the Creator/Self without knowing Creator/Self. When we deny fully half of Creation, we are choosing to love only our image of what the Creator should be, according to our judgment. And by blocking, or ignoring information that would instruct us about the many Faces of God, we are actually taking action against God. We are judging and carrying out a sentence of exclusion. And that which we exclude from acknowledgement comes back to us over and over again in our lessons in life.
Now, having talked about the Ra Material source in some detail, I want to suggest that those who have not read it try to get a copy because it is a rare and amazing thing what this group did, in spite of the pit they fell into and the tragedy that resulted. Don paid a very high price for the purity of the material and it deserves first place in the higher-level transmissions.
Here are some of the comments of the Cassiopaeans about the Ra channeling:
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) We want to know about the Ra Material by Elkins, Rueckert and McCarty. Where is the Ra Material coming from?
A: Sixth Density.
Q: (L) Would you say that the Ra Material comes through a clear channel?
A: Yes.
August 11, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, since the Ra Material is considered to be a kind of primer to the Cassiopaean material, could you give us a percentage on the accuracy of this material?
A: 63.
Q: (L) 63%, well, that’s pretty good, considering… (T) A lot of it is very good stuff… (L) Can you talk to us a little bit about the concept of Wanderers? In the Ra teaching about Wanderers, it is said that Wanderers are individuals who feel alienated in the world system…
A: Yes but they can partially adapt.
Q: (L) Okay, do they also sometimes have physical…?
A: Revulsion to physicality.
Q: (L) Okay, is that always a clue?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Revulsion to physicality, does that refer to a dislike of the fact that in third density all is physical, and it’s fixed, as opposed to upper densities, where there are variables?
A: 3rd density is not “all” physical.
Q: (L) I think that what they’re getting at is like a fine division between somebody who focuses on physical sensation as opposed to spiritual or mental or emotional sensation as being the point of reference.
A: Yes. 3rd density natives tend to concentrate and, to an extent, revel, in the physical.
Q: (J) I think the point that I was trying to make was, having to stay in third density, would they miss the variability of physicality? (L) Well, Wanderers, remember, are sixth density beings.
A: The lack.
Q: (T) The lack of physicality?
A: Yes. Is missed. Not so much “miss,” as much as difficulty of adjustment.
Q: (T) If you were used to the freedom of non-physicality, and then became limited by being physical, you’d miss the non-physical state.
This is another area where there are some misunderstandings in the spiritual life. Many seekers believe that their inability to function in the real world is like a badge of merit — a proof of their great spirituality. Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to manage ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused because the person is so “spiritual” that they cannot be expected to be bothered with such things.
Well, that’s all fine and good but wouldn’t you think that a person who is supposed to have graduated to higher spiritual realms did so because they mastered the lower ones? And, if that is the case, what is so hard about remembering those lessons and activating them at a higher level of competence this time around? If you have graduated to sixth grade, surely you can ace all the tests of third grade?
In Amazing Grace, which chronicles my path toward the C’s, I have written about my specific work as a hypnotherapist and the things I learned as an exorcist that gave me insight into the ins and outs of the spiritual realms. I’m not going to go into that here except to say that I knew what I was dealing with when we began the channeling experiment.
For those who have asked the questions about my spiritual hygiene, I can assure you that I used some pretty sophisticated techniques to maintain a state of psychic cleanliness at the inception of the project, throughout the past 15 years or so, and at present. I constantly monitor the flavor, feel and “fruits” of the contact — making adjustments or shifts to accommodate. And, most of all, we look on it as “play”. We don’t now, nor did we ever, take it as true believer material. It sure is interesting because of the many areas that have independent corroboration, but some of it is, by its very nature, unverifiable.
There are many things we have learned, and not just from being informed via hard work, but also by having a suggestion given to us, which we then observed, experimented with, and developed more fully on our own. This is one of the keys to the uniqueness of the Cassiopaeans; they don’t just hand it out. As I have noted again and again, they give clues, but not roadmaps. Their position is that if we don’t do the work to gather the detailed knowledge, it is useless; like candy: empty calories. Clearly, this approach is designed to make the practice of channeling ultimately unnecessary and obsolete. We will, eventually, “become” them. Repeatedly they tell us that leading us by the hand is detrimental; they have laid the groundwork, given us the boost because we asked (and did so repeatedly, consistently, and with dedication for over two years before the contact initiated), but that the real purpose is to get us to learn to walk on our own.
Most channeled sources want folks to channel just so they can channel more and more and on and on. The Cassiopaeans have actually been becoming less and less communicative, preferring to tell us “you have the tools, we have taught you, now figure it out yourself!”
A lot of people don’t like that. They want to have everything handed to them. They don’t want to think or work or do anything except just lie down and have everything poured into their heads. Then, they just “believe” and get eaten alive (which generally manifests as all sorts of physical, emotional, mental and relationship type problems).
There is another curious thing about channeling and current day channeled material, and that is the excessive, archaic, or convoluted syntactical verbiage! As Michael Topper described it:
Consider, for example, the most common means of establishing the “inner plane” or channel connection: meditation.
This is the method most recommended both by channelers and the given channeled source.
Meditation is of course, as we should all know by now, a means of stilling the mind so that our ordinary thinking faculties are temporarily vetoed. This provisional silence of the otherwise constant “interior monologue” is the means whereby the one meditating is supposed to bypass the conditioning screen of (culturally programmed) concepts. In so doing he becomes ideally receptive to holistic dimensions otherwise recessed into the unconscious beyond the focus of ordinary “notice”.
However, as the very object of channeling, out of those ostensibly more holistic zones of being comes charging: more verbiage!
Out of the meditator’s mouth issues another voice.
In fact, the phenomenon is so prevalent that it seems every other face has “someone else’s” voice coming out of it (although this is apparently such a commonplace of Filmland that “channeling” seems more a logical extension than an abrupt break).
And a great deal of the content of such channeled information from coveted “higher sources,” is composed of odd syntactical constructions, inflected in the upper registers of nasality, extolling the virtues of meditation!
This of course can only mean one thing, ultimately, (amounting to a largely unnoticed metaphysical tautology), and that is: you’re being encouraged to meditate in order to still the noise of the verbal mind, thus putting you in the properly receptive condition to pass a sonorously rolling Voice, (not your own) around the glottis, in elicitation of a Speech which invariably extols the virtue of meditation, as means of extracting a verbal instruction that tells you…
As Topper notes, that is really SPOOKY!
Many people who read the Ra Material complain that they are irritated by the strange syntactical constructions and unusual word use. There seem to be extra and redundant words; there are confusing definitions, and so forth.
This is not the same thing as occurs in other channeled material where there are endless ramblings that go on and on and on consisting of nice, pleasant sounding words that say, in effect, nothing of significant value.
People send me reams of this stuff. They will find a new web site that posts such “wonderful channeled messages” from Swami Beyonda or Coot Whosits or whomever, and they will download entire files and then send them to me to discover if I am aware of this great information and will I please read it and offer up an opinion; or surely I should join forces with these people because, clearly, we are all saying the same thing!
So, I open the files and begin to read what different people send me.
Now let me say up front here that I am not perfect in terms of grammar, word selection, punctuation, or even spelling. I’m pretty good, but there are many people who are excruciatingly correct! I’m not one of them. But, I do have a great love and respect for language and its ability to communicate marvelous ideas so that people can be more intimately connected in this density which is, I think, one of the lessons before us and a major point of being in this density. I also really detest misuse of the language that results from carelessness and lack of concern for the spirit of communication. Furthermore, I can say that one thing I do know is the difference between subject and verb and how to diagram a sentence. (Thank you Miss Thompson and Mrs. McCurdy for making me do it in 9th and 10th grades!)
So, one of the first things I do when I start reading these “great” channeled exposés, is to take some sentences at random and diagram them to determine what they are really saying. I was amazed to discover, over and over again, such great contradictions and misuse of terms that, in effect, most of these passages consist of what is politely termed “word salad”. We jokingly refer to it as “salad shooter channeling”.
In a recent example, the material contained the following remark: “Our karmic purification is speeding up as the positrons that we hold in our bodies release and collide with their corresponding electron twins.”
Having a husband who is a physicist is very helpful in sorting out a lot of this mishmash. Ark replied to the individual who wrote to us inquiring about the above channeled message, as follows:
Dear ________,
I was reading this Nibiru stuff with some amusement.
I am open towards unconventional thinking but sometimes it is just funny. Positrons are antiparticles and they annihilate rather soon. So there is no way there can be any positrons in human bodies, unless they are constantly created by highly energetic processes!
For instance: several positrons have certainly been created in me today because I was in the lab and pretty close to a high-energy neutron source. Some of these neutrons went into my body and have been captured by Carbon, Hydrogen, Oxygen and whatever. Then my atoms created energetic photons; then these photons created pairs: positron-electron, and then these positrons annihilated again. But once I was out of the lab, there were no more positrons in me.
Making a universal Galactic story out of the positrons is just disinformation. It misinforms all who are not physicists. And it is a typical disinformation pattern: truth between lies, and lies between truths.
It is true that that electron-positron pairs annihilate, emitting photons (sometimes two, sometimes three). It is a lie that positrons (in any significant number) are in our bodies (except temporarily for those people who are exposed to energetic radiation as I was in the lab today). Thus all the justifications of the “photon belt” are disinformation and traps.
Which brings us back to the problem of assessing different material. At one point we really wanted to nail this problem down. Ark decided to “interrogate” the Cassiopaeans about it.
December 31, 1997
Q: (A) Now, at some point you said when we asked about the Ra Material, you gave the number that it was 63 per cent accurate. Do you confirm this now?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Now, I want to know exactly how you got this number 63, how you computed it, why is it 63 and not 62 or 64?
A: The divination process always breaks down to mathematical processes, as this is the only true universal language.
Q: (A) But, I want to know what mathematical process you were using to get this number 63?!
A: Add the total number of words published; divide the sum by the number reflecting accurate conceptualizations.
[Note: the original transcript reads “divide by” rather than “divide into”, which serves pretty well as an example of possible distortion due to non-universality of meanings.]
Q: (A) Okay, if we have 100 words, and 25 are used in the description of a concept that is accurate, is that what you mean?
A: Close.
Q: (A) How do you determine if a given word is accurate?
A: By the verity of the issuer.
Q: (A) So, words, even though words can mean different things, the verity of the speaker can give…
A: Yes, because if monitored in a state of pure non-prejudice, the accuracy level will be perceived correctly.
Q: (A) Okay, I want to read a sentence: “the first, the Great Pyramid was formed approximately 6,000 of your years ago.” I want to go through this word-by-word. The word “the”, accurate or inaccurate?
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) “First”.
A: Inaccurate.
Q: (A) “The”.
A: Neuter.
Q: (A) “Great”.
A: Accurate, in this case because of conventional agreement.
Q: (A) Now, you describe a word as neutral, but in the mathematical algorithm you gave for computing the numbers, you didn’t mention neutral words, so, what do you do with neutral words?
A: They belong to the 37 percent, as they cannot be counted subjectively as accurate.
Q: (A) “was”.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) “formed”.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) “approximately”.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) 6,000.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) “of”.
A: Neuter.
Q: (A) “your”.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) “years”.
A: Accurate.
Q: (A) Okay, if we apply the same formula to the C’s, your material, what percentage would you give?
A: Not up to us to measure.
Q: (A) Okay, you gave, concerning the pyramid the following sentence: “The Great Pyramid was built 10,643 years ago.” Is it accurate? (L) Yes, I think there is a problem. You confirmed the Ra Material on a point that contradicts what you gave yourselves!
A: Problem is not with “us,” problem is trying to compare to different frames of reference. Look for clues in terms of definition.
Q: (A) I don’t understand what you are saying. Either it was built 10,643 years ago or it was built 6,000 years ago.
A: Formed/built… you think it means the same thing, eh???
Q: (L) It was built before it was formed? (A) According to this Ra Material, was never built at all, it was formed by thoughts…
A: If your house is remodeled, then it takes a new form. Now, reread sentences in question carefully.
Q: (L) “The first, the Great Pyramid, was formed approximately 6,000 of your years ago. Then, in sequence, after this performing by thought of the building or architecture of the Great Pyramid, using the more local or earthly material rather than thought form material to build other pyramidal structures.” Now, C’s say: “The Great Pyramid was built by Atlantean descendants 10,643 years ago.”
A: No, Laura, no, no, no, no!!!!! If your house is remodeled in 1998, is that when it was built?
Q: (L) No, that is not when it was built. Okay, I get your point. Subtle clues have to be discerned. Can we use this process to analyze all the material?
A: You can, but senior citizenhood awaits its completion.
Q: (L) Is there some issue about asking this question of accuracy that needs to be addressed? One main thing we note is: Some sessions were more accurate than others depending upon who was present…
A: You got it!!!
Q: (L) Therefore, it would be difficult to assess an accuracy rating for the C’s themselves…
A: Bingo!
Q: (L) But, we can assess the material itself up to the present, keeping in mind that some parts can be more accurate than others…
A: 71.7.
Q: (L) Okay, that takes into account corruption from different people, long passages of comment from the participants, typos, reconstruction, and so forth. And, the same applies to the Ra Material… (A) Okay, suppose I have a sentence that “the Great Pyramid was built 10,000 years ago,” but really it was built yesterday, and you would give 70 per cent accuracy to this statement?
A: No.
Q: (A) But only one word is inaccurate… (L) No, only four words are accurate. If you have “The Great Pyramid was built 10,000 years ago,” you have eight words. Of those eight words, the only ones you can consider to be accurate are “Great Pyramid was built.” The word “the” is neuter, and “10,000” is inaccurate, so you divide the six words into the total and you have an accuracy rating of 75 percent. I think that, in the case of the problem you propose, it says it pretty well!
A: You are searching for a concrete formula within a vacuum of abstraction. The only way to get an accurate measurement is to wait until you can include the sum total of all the words, and then determine accuracy as a percentage of the total. With the total of all words, and each individual word as the unit of measurement.
Another way to consider this problem that the C’s are trying to convey to us in the above is to look at two nearly identical sentences.
1) There was rain over my house today.
2) There was no rain over my house today.
In different contexts, each statement can be true. But on a given day when it rained, to say that there was no rain would be a false statement. And yet, except for the single word, every other word in the sentence is “accurate”. You could say that it is 87 percent accurate, but it is still completely false in its context!
The bottom line seems to be: use your brain to figure it out!
Getting back to the Ra Material, we have discussed the filtering and the judgments of that group, and we have discussed a process by which percentages of accuracy can be divined, with the result that The Law of One still holds a very high place as one of the first, if not the first, Sixth Density Communication into our realm that was maintained over a consistent period of time in our modern era. So, don’t sell it short because of the unusual verbiage; apparently there was a reason for it.
It is my opinion that Ra spoke as he did because it was necessary in order to get the information through the various constrictions and biases of the channel. Otherwise, I cannot justify why a Sixth Density being would not be able, considering their “lofty attainments”, to communicate in terms that are more generally comfortable to the Third Density mind. As I said before, if you are in 6th grade, it shouldn’t be too hard to go back and do 3rd grade stuff. It may take a little adjustment period, but it can be done.
Yes, in the beginning of the Cassiopaean contact, there were some rather archaic and stiff sentences — but as time passed and the channel grooved, the communication became more natural, and even gently humorous. I asked the Cassiopaeans about this:
November 11, 1995
Q: (L) I noticed that in the beginning of these transmissions that the language was very formalized, and that as time has gone by, the language used has become more colloquial. Why is this?
A: Formalized? Colloquial? Define your judgment, please!
Q: (L) Well, what I meant was, that in the beginning it seemed that certain colloquial expressions that we are accustomed to were unclear to you. And now, not only is there great familiarity with our expressions, but you seemed to often come up with rather clever and original witty sayings.
A: Familiarity breeds contentment!
Q: (L) Okay. I want to get on with the questions for tonight…
A: Do you not wish to reflect upon our witticism?
Q: (L) (Laughter.) Yes! I thought that was a very clever witticism!
A: It seemed as if you were not impressed?!? Give us a break, Laura?!? We’re only sixth density!
We have also discussed our own material and its flaws and shortcomings, and even with awareness and constant monitoring, we are only making a little over 71 percent — at least that was the figure at the time. I am certainly working on ways of improving and purifying the material all the time. In regard to this, the Cassiopaeans have many times commented on the need to actively learn and acquire knowledge. The effort put forth in this respect is sort of equivalent to exercising your soul/mind muscle. The more you exercise it, the stronger it gets:
Subtle answers that require effort to dissect promote intensified learning. Learning is an exploration followed by the affirmation of knowing through discovery. Learning is necessary for progress of soul… this is how you are building your power center… Patience serves the questor of hidden knowledge… Search your “files”… Learning is sometimes best accomplished by study and exploration… There are other clues that you can discover by your own study… (Cassiopaeans)
This is why the many sources that drone on and on in such extraordinary detail, even if some of what they are saying is truth, can be doing a great disservice to their devotees due to the fact that they are not encouraging them to think for themselves.
So, what’s the difference, other than the obvious? Some people would say that they “learn differently” — that it is “right” for them to learn by simply “receiving the inflow of information”, and because they receive it in this way, that makes it right.
Well, I am not going to say that this is not possible, for sure! My experience has been that there are people who have “done the work” in many lifetimes prior to this one, and at some magical moment, they hear something or see something, or something happens and the key gets turned and it all opens up! This is why the Sufi masters talk about some seekers who can begin the process and rapidly achieve enlightenment, and others can “stand at the door and knock” their entire lives and it is never opened to them. On the surface it seems unfair, but behind it is a reality of long and diligent labor on the part of the soul who “achieves” so quickly.
I guess you could apply the same principle to persons who demonstrate great artistic talent — they didn’t just get it without a reason; it was the result of possibly many lifetimes of work as an artist before the present one. So, it can and does happen!
We still have to be concerned about this because, in some cases it can be true, and in others it may not be true! My experience has been that this can be used as a stumbling block, and very often the concept is utilized to assure the recipient that the channeled information is true or STO, simply by virtue of the fact that it is channeled, when, in fact, it is not true. In the end, the only way to validate any information is by work — reading, studying, research — exercising the gray matter!
As I write this, I have received another e-mail from a reader asking about still another source of channeled teachings. He writes that this information “can be difficult to understand because it is written in such a way as to be accessed through the emotional body and if you aren’t in touch with that you won’t get it.”
That, right there, sets off warning bells in my head. Information that requires emotion to understand is, by definition, distorted. As I have already mentioned, any woman of childbearing age will tell you that emotions are chemical and very definitely color how you think. A very neutral personality trait that could be described as “slowness to act”, can be seen as either commendable caution or cowardice depending on which hormone is in the upper ranges of distribution in the female body at the moment. A mild joke can be funny or tragic depending on what day of the month it is!
So, if emotion is what is necessary to understand the referenced work, I don’t think it has much objective validity. The Cassiopaeans have made many comments about emotion, but the following one is, I believe, most appropriate in regard to the idea that emotion is necessary to learn truth:
November 21, 1998
Q: (L) The question is: in reality, what is it that really exists? What are things that really exist?
A: Gravity is the key. Now, plug in your wave functions.
Q: (L) How can you describe gravity mathematically?
A: Must be possible! Review texts re: gravity.
Q: (L) We did… and either we are so dense, or we can’t get it…
A: Not dense, emotionally clouded. When one is in a defensive mode, all is “skewed,” including this conduit. Review texts and meditate to clear consciousness of emotional poison!
The correspondent further writes, “Apparently one of the agenda’s the ET’s have is to recover and reintegrate [themselves] with their wills that they denied and separated from long, long ago.”
So, we begin to understand the motivation… it is an apologia for the nasty critters invading our world and an attempt to garner sympathy for them. This is further amplified with:
One of the books in the series is about original cause that was the trauma experienced when God split into male and female and that the trauma from then is still affecting us now. A point made is that we can not get to that trauma with our minds alone because Mind did not exist then and as far as our minds are concerned this trauma never happened and doesn’t exist!
Well, that was a curious statement and I decided to go to the web site in question and see if I couldn’t get a bit of clarification on that idea. I won’t describe the gory details of the story of creation presented there, I will only say that the upshot is that, once again, our reality is being described as the result of an error or mistake; something that has to be “fixed”, and, again, it is basically attributed to the female. Of course, this source is going to teach everybody to channel so they can “fix things”! This is really just a variation on what David Icke writes:
November 21, 1998
Q: (L) David Icke says: “The imbalanced consciousness that I will call Lucifer is not an essential part of the positive/negative balance. He is a disrupting, disharmonious aspect of consciousness, which is not necessary for human evolution. More than that, Lucifer’s efforts to close off the channels that link humanity to its higher understanding have blocked, not advanced, our evolution.” Is this a correct assessment of this Luciferian Consciousness, that it is not part of the positive/negative balance of the universe, and that it has blocked our evolution?
A: No. It is part of the lesson plan.
Q: (L) That was my thought as well, but he says that because of this problem with the Luciferian consciousness, the “higher levels of creation began to intervene because Lucifer was imposing its misunderstandings on others and breaking the universal law of free will. Is this true?
A: No.
Q: (L) I have read about this “decision to intercede” by higher levels of consciousness who look down upon mankind and feel sorry for our terrible suffering, and that somehow, if something isn’t done, the whole universe will be overcome by this evil… so it has got to be “stopped”. A number of sources promote this idea, which then leads, generally, to claims that this or another alien group is part of the “good guys” or “bad guys”, or whatever. Is any of this idea accurate?
A: No.
Q: (L) So, what is is, and we only suffer exactly as much as we need to learn? Is that it?
A: There is more to it than that, but at this point, you would be unable to comprehend.
Q: (L) Icke says, “This Luciferian consciousness is a large aspect of Divine Consciousness which chose to work against the Source.” Is this true?
A: Not really. It is balancing where needed.
Q: (L) He says: “Other volunteers, aspects of very highly evolved consciousness, came into the universe and this galaxy in an effort to restore harmony. They did not incarnate in physical bodies on the earth, they arrived in spacecraft, some of them miles in length, while others simply manifested themselves here. These were extraterrestrials who came to bring knowledge to this planet hundreds of thousands of years ago.” Is this true? Yes or no?
A: Neither.
The point is: it is all about balance, and cycles and timelessness. To believe in error or something that needs to be fixed, even if that fixing is to be managed by ignoring, is to further add to the creation of that reality. Remember what the Cassiopaeans have said about belief:
Most all power necessary for altering reality and physicality is contained within the belief center of the mind. This is something you will understand more closely when you reach 4th density reality where physicality is no longer a prison, but is instead, your home, for you to alter as you please. In your current state, you have the misinterpretation of believing that reality is finite and therein lies your difficulty with finite physical existence. We are surprised that you are still not able to completely grasp this concept.
The crucial point to understand here is this: if you believe that something is broken, that something needs to be fixed out there, that is exactly the reality you will experience.
If you spend your days and nights saying prayers and mantras, sending love and light here and there, or visualizing change or something different than what is at the given moment, if you assign a day to “pray for peace” or “heal the Earth”, or “converge harmonically”, you are, effectively, acting from the belief that there is something wrong, broken, needing change, needing peace, needing healing, or needing harmony. You are proclaiming, in a clear and present way, what is is not acceptable, God screwed up.
Now, let’s deal with that. Obviously, there is a lot of stuff that goes on here on the Big Blue Marble that we don’t like! There is death and decay and darkness. There is poverty and want and suffering. There is war and pestilence and disaster after disaster. What kind of a crazy person would want things to continue that way?
Not me.
But I know something from experience that gives me a different perspective. I know that the Universe is a self-regulating mechanism of which I, as a third density human being, am only a tiny, insignificant part. I also know that when I keep my judgments out of it, (remembering that judgment conveys the idea of taking some action), the Universe knows better what is needed at any given point in space-time than my limited, feeble human brain could ever conceive. Further, I know that when I get myself out of the way, when I sit back and observe what is with appreciation, with awe and wonder; with curiosity as to what clever and wonderful thing “God” is going to do next in this marvelous, endlessly changing reality in which we have our existence, I am never disappointed.
Nevertheless, at this point, I would like to comment on the idea that “in the beginning,” mind did not exist. This is quite contrary to what the Cassiopaeans say, which is, in fact, that the only thing that is real is mind.
February 25, 1995
Q: (GB) Could you explain the process of the soul?
A: Soul is consciousness, period.
October 18, 1994
Q: (L) Are you part of the collective subconscious, unconscious, or consciousness? Are you part of our higher consciousness?
A: So is everything else.
November 16, 1994
A: There is no time, as you know it; it’s all just lessons for the collective consciousness.
Q: (L) So at the closing of this grand cycle everything will just start all over again?
A: Not exactly. You see; there is no start.
November 13, 1999
Q: (L) Next question; a reader writes: “In [certain teachings], man is viewed as a composite entity comprised of one being, supposed hopefully to be ‘in charge’, and an enormous number of separate entities in various states of consciousness/unconsciousness, not completely dissimilar to the description given in Ouspensky’s In Search of the Miraculous. One of the critical differences between what the Cassiopaeans are saying and what is given as fact in [those teachings] is that, in [the referenced teachings], one is taught that one is not ultimately One, that an individual remains an individual to the upper reaches of evolution, and evolves as a “god”. [I cannot vouch for this being the actual teachings of the mentioned source; I am only reading the question as the reader wrote it.]
A: The Grand Pulsation makes individuality a temporary state of being.
Q: (L) By saying that the Grand Pulsation is only a temporary state of individuation, this means that all are One and return to the state of Oneness.
A: Yes. If so, it is always true. All are ultimately “god”.
Q: (L) But they don’t evolve as a god by remaining individual in the upper reaches of evolution?
A: What would be the purpose?
Q: (L) I guess they are hung up on remaining individuals and becoming as “gods” for purposes of power and control issues… sort of ultimate STS.
A: Maybe that would work if time and linear reality were correct, but…
May 27, 1995
Q: (L) What is the link between consciousness and matter?
A: Illusion.
Q: (L) What is the nature of the illusion? (T) That there isn’t any connection between consciousness and matter. It is only an illusion that there is. It is part of the third density…
A: No. Illusion is that there is no link between consciousness and matter.
Q: (L) I got it! The relationship is that consciousness is matter.
A: Close. What about vice versa?
June 7, 1997
Q: (L) All right There are a lot of people teaching that there are divisions of ethereal being such as spirit, soul, consciousness, etc. What is the difference between the spirit and the soul?
A: Semantics.
But, curiously, going back to the former statement that consciousness is matter and matter is consciousness, the Cassiopaeans have defined four “bodies”, so to speak:
October 10, 1998
A: And remember, your consciousness operates on four levels, not just one!
Q: (L) And what are these four levels?
A: Physical body, consciousness, genetic body and spirit-etheric body.
Q: (L) Are those the four composites of the human manifestation in third density?
A: 3rd and 4th. One leads oneself, through physical actions, as well as psychic ones, to develop these “problems” when one is preparing to “bump it up” a notch.
October 23, 1999
Q: (A) The question is: is this theory that I have been developing with Blanchard for the past ten years or even more, is it a step forward; can it be made a step forward by completing it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, if it can be a step forward, the main question that we don’t know the answer to is: what is classical? Gravity or consciousness or something else? What? Or, perhaps everything is classical…
A: Classical [physics] negates consciousness, regarding the mind as merely a function of chemical functions and electrical impulses occurring within a vacuum, rather than being interfaced with the rest of creation at all levels of density and all dimensions, which is of course, the case.
Wheeler writes:
“The universe viewed as a self-excited circuit. Starting small (thin U at upper right), it grows (loop of U) to observer participancy — which in turn imparts ‘tangible reality’ to even the earliest days of the universe”
“If the views that we are exploring here are correct, one principle, observer-participancy, suffices to build everything. The picture of the participatory universe will flounder, and have to be rejected, if it cannot account for the building of the law; and space-time as part of the law; and out of law substance. It has no other than a higgledy-piggledy way to build law: out of statistics of billions upon billions of observer participancy each of which by itself partakes of utter randomness.”5
Gravity is the “glue, which binds all aspects of reality, physical and ethereal. Nothing would exist without consciousness to perceive it. Classical physics assumes, among other things, that consciousness and the brain are one and the same, or that one exclusively facilitates the other. In actuality, the brain is merely that conduit which facilitates conscious expression in the physical state of human third density states and similar manifestations.
December 9, 1995
Q: (L) Carlos Castaneda talks about the “Eagle’s emanations”, the Eagle being, I suppose, Prime Creator that emanates down through all the densities, and that the Nagual who can “see”, sees the Eagle as a large black and white object. Are they seeing the source, or are they seeing something on just another density?
A: Source? There is no such thing. You are Prime Creator.
Q: (L) But that is so esoteric… I am talking about…
A: The point is: stop filling your consciousness with monotheistic philosophies planted long ago to imprison your being. Can’t you see it by now, after all you have learned, that there is no source, there is no leader, there is no basis, there is no overseer, etc. You literally possess, within your consciousness profile, all the power that exists within all of Creation!?! You absolutely have all that exists, ever has, or ever will, contained within your mind. All you have to do is learn how to use it, and at that moment, you will literally, literally, be all that is, was, and ever will be!!!!!!!!
Q: (L) That is all fine and dandy and sounds wonderful, except for one little item. You also say that the monotheistic concepts were imposed on us to prevent us from knowing this. So, if we are all that is, how can something exist that can impose something so unpleasant on us?
A: Choices follow desire-based imbalances.
Q: (L) If that is the case, why can’t any one just turn off the lights, end the illusion, and everything becomes nothing?
A: Well, first of all, everything does not become anything. Secondly, some have already become everything.
December 19, 1998
Q: (L) If, at fourth density, there is variability of physicality, and the Lizzies, as you have previously said, are engineering new bodies for themselves to occupy in some sort of mass transition at the time of this realm border crossing; in this state of variability of physicality, why do they need to engineer new bodies for themselves? Why, in point of fact, are Lizzies, Lizzies? Why do they look like Lizards?
A: They do not.
Q: (L) Well, why do we call them Lizard Beings? I mean, you named them that!
A: We label in accordance with your familiarity. If we had called them “Drachomonoids,” what would be your point of reference??
Q: (L) What do they really look like? You said they resemble upright alligators with humanoid features, six to eight feet tall…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, why do they look like that?
A: Biology.
Q: (L) Does biology exist at fourth density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Yet, it is a variable physical density, right?
A: Yes, but what is your assumption here?
Q: (L) I don’t know what my assumption is. I guess that I am assuming that if it is a variable state, they could have a different biology very easily. Isn’t that the case?
A: No.
Q: (L) Can they appear as something else? Change their physicality?
A: Temporarily.
Q: (L) When you say “temporary”, what exactly do you mean? Temporal relates to time.
A: We have explained before that the biggest single factor regarding densities is the awareness level.
Q: (L) Okay, how does that relate to them only being able to temporarily change their appearance. Is this because they can control our awareness?
A: Closer. Are you not yet aware that absolutely everything, we repeat: everything is an illusion?!?
Q: (A) They say here that everything is an illusion, and on the other hand they say there is consciousness and matter. Everything is an illusion? Even this?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) God is also an illusion?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Illusion to whom?
A: To those not on Level Seven. Your learning naturally dictates your experiences. Once you no longer require something, you naturally move beyond it. However, you retain it as a function of understanding.
Q: (A) And I am also an illusion! And understanding is also an illusion! (L) Back to my question: who created Lizzies as Lizzies? (A) Our illusion…
A: Everything is real; therefore, illusion is reality.
Q: (L) If everything is an illusion, from what does this illusion spring, and into what space does it spring?
A: Your consciousness.
Q: (L) Where did this consciousness originate?
A: Consciousness is the absolute, the center point.
Q: (L) Where is it centered?
A: Within the Access. The prompt that begets energy.
Q: (L) Of what is this energy made?
A: The consciousness.
Q: (L) Was there ever a time when this consciousness did not exist?
A: No, but there never was a time.
Q: (L) What prompted this consciousness to dream up all these illusions?
A: Need for balance. Energy cannot exist within a vacuum, therefore it must pulse. Hence you have waves.
Q: (L) What was the impetus for the need for balance?
A: Not a need, per se, just a natural function.
Q: (L) Well, when you have a pulse, you have a wave, and if you have a wave, that implies time.
A: Therein lies the crux of your 3rd density illusion. Why assume that any given aspect of the pulse is not occurring simultaneously with any other. And if any are, all are. Until you once and for all break free from the illusion of time, you will not advance.
Q: (L) Well, back to my question…
A: No, your question cannot be answered unless you stop assuming the range of acceptable answers.
See how easy it is to get off the track and switch from the subject of “accuracy” to “consciousness”? But, I think that I will just go with the flow here, and make some final remarks. It is good to read and study many things. As a member of our discussion group has said:
So read the Bible. Read the Koran. Read the Three Little Pigs. Read EVERYTHING! You’ll be certain to read a lot of silly things, but you’ll also stand a chance of seeing bits and pieces of TRUTH.
1 In fact, after a series of events described in Petty Tyrants and Facing the Unknown, these unedited transcripts were stolen and published illegally on the Internet, violating the privacy of many individuals. I am currently in the process of putting the complete transcripts — minus any personal information about guests to our sessions — on my forum: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?board=51.0
2 William C. Chittick, The Sufi Path of Knowledge (Albany: State University of New York Press, 1989).
4 While the being(s) known as Ra present themselves as a “social memory complex”, much as the C’s present themselves, I have referred to them as “he” for the ease of the reader.
5 J.A. Wheeler, “Beyond the Black Hole”, in Some Strangeness in the Proportion, Ed. Harry Woolf (London: Addison-Wesley, 1980).
At this point, I want to take a little diversion into the fun and interesting subject of monsters! Yup! Monsters! Now, you ask, what do Monsters have to do with The Wave? Well, perhaps a great deal.
Throughout history there have been reports of strange and anomalous creatures visiting our world. The most recent well-publicized instance is the so-called Chupacabras of (primarily) Latin American fame. Any of you who have read the reports of this bizarre creature will immediately make the connections to the cases I am going to recount for your reading pleasure here.
“In a remote district of 18th century France there stalked a marauding beast so terrible that its bloody deeds have passed into legend…” So begins one version of the tale of the “Beast of Gévaudan”, a strange and horrible creature that began its rampage of terror in June of 1764, and continued its mysterious appearances and disappearances for over two years.1
It started in the Mercoire forest near Langogne when a young woman was out watching her cows. She suddenly was charged by a hideous beast. Her dogs (curiously) ran away, and she would have been killed if the cows had not kept the monster at bay with their horns. The woman got away with a few scratches, torn clothing and shattered nerves. (Shattered nerves do seem to be one of the constants in these types of cases, which may be a connection, as we will see further on.)
She was able to describe the beast to the people of her village as being about the size of a cow with a very wide chest, a huge head and neck, short straight ears and a nose like a greyhound. Two long fangs protruded from each side of its black mouth. Its tail was long and exceptionally thin and it had a black stripe running from the top of the head to the tip of the tail. She also said it could make leaps of as much as 30 feet at a time. It was the general opinion of those hearing this description, that it was some type of gigantic wolf.
Are we dealing with a hysterical account here? I mean, who ever heard of a wolf as big as a cow? A wolf that can leap 30 feet at a time? Keep those leaps in mind also…
In the following months, the beast attacked women and children and solitary men who took the livestock out to pasture. Many were devoured or carried off. People also found half-ravaged dead bodies and torn-off limbs scattered about.
On October 8, 1764, two hunters saw the beast and shot at it from only 10 paces. On this occasion, the beast fell down, but got up immediately. The hunters shot once more — and again the beast fell down. But, it got back up and unsteadily ran into a nearby wood. As it ran away, the hunters shot it yet again, and each time it fell and got back up and continued to run.
People were sure it had been seriously wounded and that it would be found dead the next day. Instead, a greater than usual number of people were killed in the following days as though the Beast were seeking retribution for the attacks against it. Or, perhaps, it needed to replenish its energy?
The next month, a Captain Duhamel took charge of the situation and organized the peasants as beaters so that he and his company of Dragoons — 40 foot-soldiers and 17 mounted soldiers — could corner and kill the beast. But, the beast was not to be fooled into a trap. Every time they thought they had it surrounded and started shooting, it managed to escape.
A large reward was offered for the capture of the beast and this brought hunters from all over France. The hunt went on for months. The peasants soon got tired of all these hunters and soldiers eating their food and trampling down their crops and rumblings of discontent were heard. At the same time, the beast launched into a rampage even more terrible than before — right under the noses of the hunters and soldiers! It was as though it fed on the negative feelings and became even more daring and powerful.
King Louis XV sent a famous hunter, Mr. Denneval, to the district. Denneval was reputed to have killed 1200 wolves. He began to track the Beast with his bloodhounds in February of 1765.
In March, when Denneval had been tracking the beast for a month, the three children of a family named Denis were watching their livestock near Malzieu. Jacques, aged 16, had lit a fire under a rock outcrop and Julienne, in her 20s, had wandered away for a moment. Jeanne was close by Jacques who was tending the fire. Suddenly, she screamed. The beast was upon her and had seized her by the head. Jacques managed to save her by throwing the beast onto the fire and holding it there until it struggled away, howling.
Jeanne was left with two gaping wounds — one behind each ear — and a torn shoulder. All of the wounds healed. But Jeanne went mad and never recovered her sanity. She experienced repeated bouts of quivering terror that made her scream as though the Beast were on her again. Her sister, Julienne, who had been present at the time, but had wandered away for a moment, felt guilty for not protecting Jeanne and was heard to say, “Now it is either the beast or me.” She began to “expose” herself to the beast by wandering the slopes of Malzieu.
Jacques Denis vowed to avenge his sister, Jeanne, and joined the great hunter Denneval. The tactics being used by this hunter involved allowing the beast to gain confidence to come out into the open so the hunters and dogs could then surround it rather than trying to beat it into a corner. However, this strategy didn’t work either. The dogs and scores of men who were soon exhausted by racing over the rough terrain would often pursue the Beast, but the monster kept going with seeming supernatural endurance. And, it always left a path of slaughtered children, torn bodies, and body parts in its wake.
On April 29, 1765, a nobleman named de la Chaumette spotted the beast near his home in Saint-Chely. He saw it stalking a shepherd in a pasture and called his two brothers to get their guns and the three of them went to ambush the Beast. They shot at it. The Beast collapsed on the ground and rolled over two or three times. De la Chaumette fired again. The Beast rolled towards the wood, managed to gain shelter and fled. Great splashes of blood stained the ground and brush all around the area, so it was clear that the beast had been wounded. Everyone felt it had gone away to die.
This happened at the beginning of the Spring Fair at Malzieu in May of 1765, so it turned into a big celebration over the death of The Beast. In the midst of the festivities, a rider galloped into the square and shouted, “Marguerite is done for. The Beast has got her!”
Marguerite happened to be a friend of Jacques Denis, the young man who had sworn to kill the beast to avenge his sister, Jeanne. He rushed off to find Marguerite, and she was right at the outskirts of the village, lying in her own blood, her throat ripped open. (Does it seem a bit peculiar that this one family has so many connections to the Beast?)
On that day, the Beast killed three people, but didn’t even bother to eat them, as was his usual habit. Another series of “retributions” for having been shot?
In any event, these gruesome deaths caused the peasants to go crazy with rage and despair. Grabbing pitchforks, pikes, long poles, bayonets, and whatever else came to hand, they put the dogs onto the fresh scent of the Beast, and led by the outraged Jacques Denis, set off to find the beast or else!
As it happened, Jacques soon found himself confronting the beast for the second time. He attacked with a bayonet. The Beast leaped upon him and he would have been killed, but the crowd of villagers arrived at that moment and the beast fled.
The King was furious because this beast was making France look ridiculous. England was using it as a vehicle for “French bashing”, and this was a state of affairs that could not be tolerated any longer. Louis sent his personal gun carrier, Antoine de Beauterne, to deal with the problem.
The great hunter, Denneval, had already given up after the debacle in June. At the same time, the Beast went on a fresh rampage. On June 16 it mangled a little girl who was saved at the last minute. On the 21st it killed a 14-year-old boy, devoured a 45-year-old woman, and carried off another little girl.
The Church got involved at this point, declaring that the Beast was a messenger of evil sent to punish the people for their sins. (How typical!) Rumors of witchcraft and dark rites and werewolves started to spread and it was increasingly clear that this was not your normal “giant wolf” or anything that the people had ever dealt with before!
Well, for three months, the King’s “problem solver”, Antoine de Beauterne, did nothing. He inspected the area, drew maps, surveyed the routes taken by the beast, and just generally analyzed the problem. Finally, on September 21, he organized a beat with 40 local hunters and 12 dogs.
Following de Beauterne’s instructions, based on his “intuition”, the beaters encircled a ravine in the wood of Pommier. Suddenly, the dogs began barking furiously. The Beast was, indeed, there, so de Beauterne’s analysis had been correct. The dogs were unleashed and the beast was forced out into the clearing. It began turning wildly at the edge of the wood, looking for an escape. It hesitated, and then came forward into the sunlight. De Beauterne shot it and some of the buckshot struck the animal’s right shoulder. One shot went through its right eye and its skull. The beast fell and the hunters sounded the horn of triumph.
Suddenly, to everyone’s stupefied amazement, the Beast got up and went toward Antoine de Beauterne. One man fired at it, and the shot went through its thigh. But, seemingly possessed of supernatural energy, the beast turned, found a hole in the net, and ran off into a pasture beyond.
Then, the beast collapsed again. Dead at last.
It measured 6 feet from nose to base of tail and weighed 143 pounds. It had a huge head with fangs about 1.5 inches long. It was stuffed and taken to the King. Later it was taken to the Museum of Natural History where it was kept until the beginning of the 20th century. Where it may be now, I have been unable to determine as most of the resources are in French.
But, that was not the end of the story! As it happened, for the next two months — until the end of November 1765 — the killings went on, but were forbidden to be spoken of by order of the king!
So, either the Beast of Gévaudan was not killed — or there was more than one of them!
The month of December was a nightmare. People barricaded themselves in their homes in terror of the Beast who could not be named or discussed.
Julienne Denis who had vowed, “It’s the Beast or me,” had continued to wander the countryside in a sort of half-crazed state and disappeared on the day before Christmas. Jacques Denis went out to search for his sister. She was never seen again though some unrecognizable remains were found along a narrow ravine a week later.
All that winter the carnage continued. More searches were made, but the public outcry and mass hysteria was suppressed by the king’s orders. The winter of 1766/67 was calmer with only a few disappearances. But, in the spring, the rampage began again. It is not even known how many were killed because the king’s suppression orders meant that many deaths from the ravages of the Beast were not recorded as such and many families, fearing the king’s wrath, did not admit to the deaths. But, from March to June of 1767 it is thought that there were at least 14 victims of the Beast in one small area around Paulhac.
In May and June the peasants began to go on pilgrimages to pray for relief from the Beast. One pilgrim, Jean Chastel, obtained three blessed cartridges from his pilgrimage.
June 19, 1767, another beat was organized by a local nobleman, which consisted of 300 hunters and beaters. Jean Chastel joined the fray and positioned himself on the Sogne d’Aubert in the same way Antoine de Beauterne had placed himself in the Beal ravine when the first Beast had been killed. He opened his prayer book and began to read while he waited for the Beast.
The Beast, on the run from the dogs and beaters, came out in front of Chastel. Chastel calmly finished praying, closed the book, took off his glasses and put them away in his pocket. He then raised his gun and fired. The Beast fell and Chastel reportedly said, “You will kill no more!”
According to various sources, after the second creature was gutted, the remains of a small girl were found inside its entrails. For several weeks the carcass of the gigantic creature was hauled around the countryside to celebrate its death. It is said that on the spot where the beast fell, the grass will not grow.
H. Sidky, author of Witchcraft, Lycanthropy, Drugs, and Disease: An Anthropological Study of the European Witch-Hunts (New York: Peter Lang Publishing, 1997) writes:
Many who believed the killings to be the work of a single creature — an infernal werewolf — named it the “Beast of Gévaudan”. Professional wolf-hunters and teams of dogs were brought in, along with several detachments of dragoons, to stalk the fiendish animal, while the authorities posted huge bounties. At one point nearly 20,000 men from seventy-three parishes joined the hunt; and as a consequence more than a thousand wolves were slaughtered, although the “Beast” was not among them. The elusive creatures remained at large and continued their destructive habits, until the male of the pair was finally killed on September 21, 1766, and the female some nine months later.
Later investigations proved the events described did happen and that the creature was a “rare type of wolf”. This was the opinion of the experts at the time, and subsequent Cryptozoologists confirmed the reports by using surgeons’ reports as a basis for their determination.
A “rare type of wolf,” they say? How rare? Only two of them in the entire world? Or, have other, similar wolves been found in other places and times?
It’s hard to make an assessment of the story because most of the research material is in French, and the reports of the time were, undoubtedly, somewhat biased so that later studies based on these reports, burdened by the modern day biases, are even more obscure.
I did think that it was curious that on the occasions when the Beast had been shot and thought to be sure to die, it returned with a vengeance as though either consciously seeking revenge for its wounds, or because it was endowed with some supernatural strength as a result of the attacks against it!
Now, the Beast of Gévaudan was sort of a nine-day-wonder compared to Spring-Heeled Jack who terrorized the people of London for decades — another most interesting tale that is worth a little perusal.
In our modern times, the stories of Spring-Heeled Jack are dismissed as figments of the Victorian imagination. One theory was that it was a creation of servants and the lower classes on which they cast the blame for their own negligence or pilfering. Some people think it was made up to frighten young children into behaving or “Spring-Heeled Jack will get you.”
The fact is, Spring-Heeled Jack’s appearances were widely reported in the local and national press (though that is no guarantee that he was real, for sure!).
No one is exactly sure when Jack made his first appearance and there are sources that report circulation of these stories as early as 1817. But, it was only in 1837 that Jack became a news item of widespread interest.
In September 1837 in London, Jack attacked three women in the dark of the night. One of the victims, Polly Adams, reportedly had her dress torn off which allowed Jack to scratch at her stomach2 with his “iron clad” fingers — apparently a reference to long claws. The victims later described Jack as a tall, thin and powerful man who wore a dark cloak, glowing red or orange eyes, and the ability to spit blue flames.
Attacks continued and London’s Lord Mayor, Sir John Cowan, declared Spring-Heeled Jack a menace in January 1838. A vigilante group soon formed to capture Jack, but he was able to escape all attempts. Supposedly he was able to escape by making great leaps of up to 25 or 30 feet at a time! (Now, where have we heard that before?)
On Wednesday, February 18, eighteen-year-old Lucy Scales and her sister Margaret were returning home after visiting their brother. Lucy was slightly ahead of her sister and, when she passed the entrance to an alley, a figure leaped on her from out of the darkness, breathing fire into her face, and then bounding away in great, springing leaps. Lucy collapsed to the ground in a seizure.
Two days later, on February 20, Jane Alsop responded to a violent ringing of the doorbell of her parents’ home. Just outside the door was an extremely excited man who identified himself as a policeman and said, “For God’s sake bring me a light for we have caught Spring-Heeled Jack in the lane!”
Jane brought a candle and handed it to the policeman who suddenly threw off his cloak. Under this garment, he was dressed very strangely indeed! He had on a large helmet and a skintight, white suit that appeared to be oilskin. His eyes were red and protruding as he glared at Jane and began to vomit blue and white flames in her face!
Now, at this point, my question is about the candle. Was it necessary to have a source of flame in order to produce this strange “dragon breath”? The presence of a candle or other prior flame was not mentioned in the report of Lucy Scales, but it is a fact that modern day fire-breathers use a flame to ignite the volatile mixtures they take into their mouths. There also seems to be no mention of any kind of strong odor as of any gaseous mixture, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t present. The witnesses may have been too hysterical to accurately describe every detail.
At any event, Jane was temporarily blinded, and Jack grabbed her with “talon-like fingers” and tore her dress, raking and scratching her skin in the process.
Naturally, Jane was screaming her head off and her two sisters came running, grabbed her away from the fiend, and slammed the door in his face.
A week later Jack tried the same trick, but the intended victim must have heard about the first incident and was on guard. Jack fled and a witness said that he was wearing an ornate crest with gold filigree in the form of a “W” on his clothing.
Now really, what is up with the superhero outfit? The helmet, the slick, shiny, skin-tight suit, and the gilded crest?!
Nevertheless, Jack’s appearances became less frequent and spread out over a larger area for a time, until 1843, when a new wave of terror began. He appeared then in Northamptonshire, Hampshire and East Anglia.
In 1845 Jack was seen in a low rent district immortalized by Charles Dickens in Oliver Twist, where he cornered a 13-year-old prostitute and breathed fire into her face and threw her into a ditch where she drowned. Thus, Jack went beyond terrorizing people — now he was a murderer.
There were isolated reports of Spring-Heeled Jack over the next 27 years, but most of them were iffy in terms of being poorly witnessed. However, in November of 1872, London was in a state of commotion again over the “Peckham Ghost” which was commented on in the Newspapers as being “as mysterious and alarming as Spring-Heeled Jack had been to the previous generation.”
In 1877 Jack supposedly appeared again at Aldershot Barracks in March, and the figure was shot at on one occasion by a soldier, but seemed to be impervious to bullets.
Ten years later, in 1887, Jack supposedly frightened several young ladies in Cheshire by rushing into a room where they were assembled. He swept the knick-knacks off the mantle and then ran right out. This appearance was said to be a hoax and due to a wager by the sons of several well-known men that one of them should impersonate the original Jack in a convincing way.
There were many theories about who might have been going around masquerading as this strange creature who could leap enormous distances and breathe fire and who had eyes like glowing coals, but no satisfactory explanation has ever been put forward. No one was ever caught, no one was ever positively identified, even with vigilante committees on the prowl bent on capturing Jack at various times. There were numerous sightings of the “Spring-Heeled” figure leaping and bounding away, but no explanation for this has ever been given either.
One question that came up in my mind when thinking about all this was the fact that Jack the Ripper was also a “Jack”, and the time frame could, conceivably, embrace his activities. I have a whole collection of books on The Ripper, each with a different theory as to who he really was and I do, of course, have my favorite theory which does not include any anomalous events. But, that does not exclude such from our consideration of the Ripper phenomenon, particularly when considering the events of the Beast of Gévaudan and the rapacious appetites of that creature! It is, certainly, true that the Ripper must have had some amazing way to escape detection which could include “leaping over buildings”. And, supposedly, the Ripper murders started and stopped in mysterious ways for which no reasonable explanation has been offered other than the perpetrator must have committed suicide, been committed to a mental hospital, or traveled to either America or Australia. (Those are all theories that are seriously considered.)
Back in the 1980s I read John Keel’s The Mothman Prophecies.3 I have to say that this really strange book actually kept me up at night with the implications of the strange things that actually could be out there and about which we knew very little.
I recently read a bumper sticker that said: “If you are not outraged, you aren’t paying attention.” Well, I would like to amend that to “If you are not amazed, you aren’t paying attention!” There are things going on here on the Big Blue Marble that are just perfectly astounding! Charles Fort was a great collector of these things, and there are just piles and piles of references and well-attested cases for any interested person to study. But, when you begin to go through all of it, with an open mind, in addition to amazement, your puzzlement will increase to such a level that you will no longer be able to hold onto your old views of reality.
In Strange and Unexplained Phenomena by Jerome Clark and Nancy Pear (Visible Ink Press, 1997), we find a concise discussion of Mothman, a more recent phenomenon, appearing in West Virginia in 1966.4 He was first reported to have been seen, apparently, by two young married couples who were driving by an abandoned dynamite factory in Point Pleasant late in the evening. What they saw first were two large eyes, (glowing red, I understand) two inches wide and six inches apart, attached to something that was sort of figured like a man, only bigger, and which had huge wings folded against its back!
The four young people panicked and sped away but saw the creature again on a hillside next to the road. It then spread its “bat-like” wings, rose into the air and followed their car. It seemed to be keeping up with them quite easily even though they accelerated to 100 mph in an effort to lose the creature. One of the witnesses said that it was keeping up with them without even flapping its wings!
The same night, however, it seems that someone else had seen Mothman even earlier. A Mr. Newell Partridge, living outside of Salem, West Virginia (90 miles from Point Pleasant), was watching television when the screen suddenly went blank and a “fine herringbone pattern appeared on the tube, and… the set started a loud whining noise, winding up to a high pitch, peaking and breaking off… It sounded like a generator winding up.”
Mr. Partridge’s dog began to howl and continued to do so even after the noisy television was turned off. Partridge went outside and saw his dog facing the barn about 150 yards away, so he shined a flashlight in that direction and saw “two red circles, or eyes, which looked like bicycle reflectors.”
The dog took off after the creature but Partridge tried to call him back without success. Mr. Partridge went in after his gun, but was so unnerved by the “eyes” he had seen, he decided that the better part of valor was the discretion of remaining indoors! He spent the night with his gun at his side.
In the morning, the dog was still missing and it was only two days later that Partridge read the report about the two couples sighting Mothman at the dynamite factory. One of the details in this account was that one of the witnesses said that, as they entered the city limits of Point Pleasant they had seen the body of a large dog by the side of the road and, a few minutes later, as they were leaving, the dog was gone.
Mr. Partridge immediately connected this dead dog to his missing animal that was, in fact, never seen again!
Another strange anomaly was that when the Sheriff’s deputy who investigated the report by the two couples went out to the dynamite plant, he experienced interference on his police radio. He said it was loud and sounded rather like a record or tape being played at high speed. It was so loud that he had to turn the radio off.
From that time until November of 1967, numerous other sightings of “Mothman” were reported. One of them described Mothman as something that rose slowly from the ground, that it was a “big gray thing, bigger than a man,” and that it had no head! It did have the two large glowing red circles at the top of its torso.
According to John Keel, at least a hundred people saw the creature and he gathered the reports to come up with a general description as follows: it stood between five and seven feet tall, was broader than a man, and walked in a clumsy and shuffling manner on human like legs. It made a squeaky sound and the eyes were set near the top of the shoulders. Its wings were bat like but did not flap when it flew. When it took off from the ground, it went “straight up, like a helicopter.” The skin color was gray or brown, and two witnesses said that they heard a mechanical humming as it flew above them.
After 1967, the sightings died away.
Almost everyone who investigated this Mothman business agreed that it was not a hoax. Of course, one “expert” declared that it must have been a sand hill crane. Nevertheless, there were a great many multiple-witness sightings by individuals that the investigators and police considered to be very reliable.
Curiously, there was a sighting of a similar creature by a woman in 1961 (again, in West Virginia), and the witness told John Keel “It was much larger than a man. A big gray figure. It stood in the middle of the road. Then a pair of wings unfolded from its back, and they practically filled the whole road. It almost looked like a small airplane. Then it took off straight up… disappearing out of sight in seconds.”
And there seems to have been a sighting in Kent, England in 1963. Four young people saw a “star” shoot across the night sky and disappear behind trees not far from them. They were scared and started to run but then stopped to observe a golden, oval-shaped light floating a few feet above a field about 80 yards from them. This then disappeared into a wooded area. Suddenly, the witnesses saw a dark shape shuffling toward them from across this field. It was black and human sized, headless and had wings like a bat! At this point, they panicked and ran away!
Others saw a similar UFO during the next few nights. On November 23, two men who had come to investigate found a “vast expanse of bracken that had been flattened.” They also claimed to have seen three huge footprints, two feet long and nine inches wide, impressed deeply into the soil.
Is a “flying humanoid creature” something that has only occurred since the “UFO craze” that started in 1947 with Kenneth Arnold’s “flying saucers”?
Nope. Seems that flying beings of human appearance do appear from time to time. A “winged human form” was seen over Brooklyn, New York, on September 18, 1877 and reported in the New York Sun. Interestingly, this is about the time of some of the “Spring-Heel Jack” reports in England.
On September 12, 1880, there was a report of a “Man with bat’s wings and improved frog’s legs… at least a thousand feet in the air… flying toward the New Jersey coast… [with] a cruel and determined expression.”
Now, I don’t know how a judgment about the expression could be made, but maybe it just meant that it was “frightening” to the witness and this was their subjective interpretation of that fright.
V.K. Arsenyev, a Russian writer, reported the following about an incident that occurred on July 11, 19085 in the Sikhote Mountains near Vladivostok:
The rain stopped, the temperature of the air remained low and the mist appeared over the water. It was then that I saw the mark on the path that was very similar to a man’s footprint. My dog Alpha bristled up, snarled, and then something rushed about nearby trampling among the bushes. However, it didn’t go away. (quoted by Keel)
Arsenyev then threw a stone “towards the unknown animal… something happened that was quite unexpected.” He “heard the beating of wings. Something large and dark emerged from the fog and flew over the river. A moment later it disappeared in the dense mist.”
Arsenyev later told some of the locals about his experience and they shared with him a story about a “man who could fly in the air. Hunters often saw his tracks, tracks that appeared suddenly and vanished suddenly in a way that could only result if the ‘man’ alighted on the ground, then took off again into the air.”
In 1952 at Camp Okubo, Kyoto, Japan, U.S. Air Force Private Sinclair Taylor, on guard duty, said he heard a loud flapping noise. When he looked up he saw a huge “bird” in the moonlight. When it approached him, he became frightened and put a round of ammunition into his gun. The “bird” had stopped its flight and was hovering close by, staring at Private Taylor. He said:
The thing, which now had started to descend again, had the body of a man. It was well over seven feet from head to feet, and its wingspread was almost equal to its height. I started to fire and emptied my carbine where the thing hit the ground. But when I looked… to see if my bullets had found home, there was nothing there. (quoted by Keel)
When the sergeant of the guard came to investigate the gunshots and heard the story, he told Taylor that he believed him — because a year earlier another guard had seen the same thing!
In August 1969, Vietnam, near Da Nang, soldier Earl Morrison with the First Marine Division and two other guards were sitting on top of a bunker talking when they noticed something approaching them in the sky. Morrison said:
We saw what looked like wings, like a bat’s; only it was gigantic compared to what a regular bat would be. After it got close enough so we could see what it was, it looked like a woman. A naked woman. She was black. Her skin was black. Her body was black. But it glowed. It glowed in the night — kind of a greenish cast to it. (quoted by Keel)
The soldiers watched the creature move about in the sky. At one point she was right above their heads, just six or seven feet up. She moved silently, without flapping her wings. Morrison said that she blocked the moon once, but despite the increased darkness, they could still see her because she glowed brightly. It was only when the creature started to fly away that the men heard a flapping sound.
Morrison thought that the covering on her skin was more like fur than feathers. He said, “The skin on her wings looked like it was molded onto her hands.” He also remarked that the movement of her arms suggested that they had no bones in them!
In our own time, a new creature is in the news, the Chupacabra or “goat-sucker”. Witnesses report being attacked and terrorized by a creature that seems to defy current Zoological classification. The sightings first began in Puerto Rico, then migrated to Latin America, and recently Chupacabra have been reported in the southern United States. There is disagreement as to exactly what the creatures look like.
Some witnesses allege that the goat-sucker has a beak and/or wings. Other witnesses report something quite different. They describe a creature with the eyes one associates with the so-called “grey” aliens, large black and without an apparent cornea, or iris. The creature they describe has the body of a dinosaur, some with and some without tails, and prominent fangs jutting from the lower and/or both jaws. To add to the intrigue some reports describe a Chupacabra as being like a large flying rat.
This beast, described as a cross between a kangaroo and a reptile, drains the blood from its victims, leaving only small holes where the fatal incision was made. There have even been reports of human fatalities attributed to the Chupacabra.
I have only selected the above reports to include here because they represent the things that we asked the Cassiopaeans about specifically. There are so many others, so many different types of creatures seen or encountered in various ways through the years, that you just have to sit back and regard our world in total awe!
Yes, such things can be frightening — especially to those who are not open to the anomalous nature of our reality — but with the proper perspective, it can be seen that, indeed, the world is full of such a number of things…
But, moving on to the session in which we asked about these things, let’s see what the Cassiopaeans have to say about such mysteries.
June 9, 1995
Q: (L) I read in a book about a monster called the Beast of Gévaudan which appeared first in 1764 and was supposedly done away with in 1767. Who or what was this beast?
A: Other dimensional “window faller”.
Q: (L) You mean it fell into our dimension from another through a dimensional window?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, that would explain a lot of things about it. What about the creature known as “Spring-Heel Jack” who terrorized England in the last century?
A: Same.
Q: (L) What about the Mothman in West Virginia?
A: Same.
Q: (L) So, windows to other dimensions are the explanation for a whole host of strange things?
A: Yes.
December 3, 1996
Q: (L) There has been a lot of talk lately about this El Chupacabras thing…
A: It is what it is.
Q: (L) The name means “goatsucker” as I understand it. Where does it come from?
A: Review transcripts re: “window fallers”.
Q: (L) If it is a window faller, does it come from another density, or a lateral dimension?
A: Closer to the latter.
Q: (L) Okay, so it is like we have horizontal dimensions and vertical densities. What allowed it to enter our realm?
A: This is complex, but best described as “EM wave bursts along frequency border variation.”
Q: (L) Is there some way to capture or stop this creature?
A: You do not yet completely understand all the “mechanics” of the window faller phenomenon. The physicality is entirely transitory and partially dependent upon consciousness variability, as well as expectations of witnesses.
Q: (L) Does the energy of the fear of the witness enable the creature to continue its existence? Does it feed on the excitement and fear, and is that what makes it manifest?
A: Close, but off a little. It is the other way around, and retro-factored by one half.
Q: (L) What do you mean by that?
A: It is mutual, rather than unilateral. Also, remember that a window falling represents a cross-energizing of realities, equally represented from each “dimension” in question. In other words, because the dimensional curtain has been “torn”, half of one and half of the other contribute to the whole reality.
Q: (L) Does this mean that something from our reality is also scaring something in that other reality?
A: No, it does not “work” that way at all.
Q: (L) Is there any possibility that this creature is going to turn its attention from animals to humans?
A: Ditto last answer. And review response prior to that! First of all, confusion abounds here due to incorrect interpretations of the last subject discussed. Dimensions are not densities!!!! Dimensions are strictly the result of the universal consciousness as manifested in the imagination sector of thought. Density means level of development as measured in terms of closeness to union with the One Cycle. So, obviously, the “Chupacabras” is a manifestation of human consciousness, and, human beings are a manifestation of the Chupacabras consciousness. Get it? Now, a shocker for you: You would not exist if someone didn’t “dream you up”. You literally are the “figments” of someone’s imagination, and nothing more!!!
Q: (L) You mean God dreams and brings us into existence?
A: Remember, “God” is really all existence in creation, in other words, all consciousness. This is because all existence in creation is consciousness, and vice versa.
In terms of the mentioned “EM wave bursts along frequency border variation,” we might want to remember what the Cassiopaeans said about time travel.
First we must explain further time “travel” because the two concepts are closely related. The first step is to artificially induce an electromagnetic field. This opens the door between dimensions of reality.
This would certainly explain the electronic anomalies experienced by Mr. Partridge and the Sheriff’s deputy in the Mothman case. Unfortunately, in the other cases, no one had the technology to determine if such electronic glitches were occurring with the appearances of the monsters. But, in future cases or investigations, it would be an interesting question to add to the list. Opening of doors between dimensions is apparently a very tricky business.
Recently, more interesting cases came to our attention. 265 years ago, a 28 year old German woman named Johanna Sophia Schmied who lived in the village of Taucha near Leipzig, gave birth to a monster that is unlike any other. This monster has become popularly known as the “Chicken Man”.
Fate magazine’s February, 2000, issue recounts the facts of the case as preserved by the attending physician, Dr. Gottlieb Friderici. The physician witnessed the event and preserved the fetus in formaldehyde along with an extensive report of his autopsy, including drawings and the medical history of the mother.
During the autopsy, the doctor noted that the oversized head did not have the characteristics of hydrocephaly and the tumor-like outgrowth was completely filled with brain matter. The heart did not have a pericardium, but was instead, embedded in a “peculiarly thin membrane”.
The bone structure was also very different in significant ways from that of normal human beings. Neither the lower arms nor the lower legs consisted of two bones as would be present in humans. The kneecap was also absent.
The author of the Fate Magazine article, Hartwig Hausdorf, points out some similarities in the story of the mother of this monster and modern day abductions. He asks the obvious question: “Do we have surprising evidence for a case of targeted genetic manipulation by extraterrestrials, abandoned when the results did not meet their expectations?”
This creature is truly monstrous, and it is difficult to even feel pity for it when observing that nothing in either its interior or exterior configuration corresponds to that which is considered to be human. Mr. Hausdorf writes:
There are discrepancies in number, size, and above all, certain components are entirely missing while others appear to be extraordinarily developed.
This story and the accompanying photographs were so curious that I decided to ask the Cassiopaeans for a few remarks.
January 22, 2000
Q: (L) Now, we have this bizarre picture here of this absolutely strange creature in a museum in Germany. What is this 265 year old creature that has been kept in formaldehyde all these years?
A: Hybridized conception/gestate.
Q: (L) Was there hybridization and genetic manipulation going on almost 300 years ago?
A: Most done this way are miscarried.
Q: (L) Did it live at all after birth?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who was responsible for this experiment?
A: It was not an experiment. It was the result of Reptoid “rape”.
Q: (L) So, the mother was raped by a Reptoid. Why do Reptoids rape human women?
A: We have discussed motives.
Q: (L) Yes. They feed on the fear, terror, or absorb some substance emitted by the sexual organs and/or chakra as a kind of “food”, and in some cases they are “changing the genetic program”. But, in general, when we have discussed this, it has not included impregnating human women with Reptoid sperm. How often does this activity result in impregnation?
A: Rarely.
Q: (L) So, in this case it did, and here is the result. Pretty horrible.
Going in another direction, this photograph was recently sent to me by a correspondent. I shared this photo with our discussion group, and a number of members declared outright that it was a fake because they could detect anomalies.
Well, Ark and I did some experiments with photos that we crumpled and drew on the back of, and these experiments produced precisely the effects that the critics were claiming were proof that this photo was not “real”. We subjected the photo to various filters and enhancements, and even though we are not experts, we had expert guidance. In the end, we came to the conclusion that we could not discard it as faked.
You can see a crease across the photo which is consistent with the fact that the story I was told was that it was carried around in someone’s pocket for quite awhile.
There are some odd geometric markings that show up with enhancement, but, as noted, we did some experiments with drawing on the back of a photo and then scanning it, and the same effect is produced. It looks like someone drew a map on the back of the photo.
Now, the thing that struck me forcibly about this photo was the hands, elbows and feet of the creature. Look at them closely and then look again at the creature in the jar a few pages back.
Several readers wrote to inform me that the above creature was/is a creature carved into the rock at Cheddar Gorge, a tourist attraction in England.
“The gorge system has many mythical creatures carved into its rock, and this ‘imp’ photo has been doing the UFOlogical rounds for ages before someone pointed out what it actually was!”
When I received the first email with this information, I attempted to confirm it with the folks at the Cheddar Gorge attraction. No one there seemed to be aware of it or the claims that it was supposed to be in the cave.
Nevertheless, another reader not only wrote with the above information, he tracked down its source: Fortean Times magazine. He included an image of the article:
Even though it now seems that we have proof that the photo is a hoaxed monster, so to say, I must add that the folks at the Cheddar Caves refute the above claim:
From: mailto:caves@visitcheddar.co.uk Cheddar Caves
Sent: Thursday, June 13, 2002 3:39 AM
Subject: Re: A QUESTION ON THE CAVE
Unfortunately, this particular plaster goblin is not one of our exhibits. However we do have plaster goblins, but perhaps not as evil looking as the picture you sent! If you have any further questions, please do not hesitate to e-mail me.
Many thanks
Kate Walton
Personal Assistant Cheddar Caves and Gorge
We recently came back to the subject of the Cheddar Caves monster after some discussion took place on our Cassiopaea forum. Here’s what the C’s had to say on the subject:
October 22, 2008
Q: (L) Ar** also asks: Are there monsters in caves all over the world?
A: No, not every one. P4 P3 P2 monsters are most usual.
Q: (L) What is a P4 P3 P2 monster?
A: Species designation.
Q: (L) Species designation by whom? Maybe I don’t want to know!
A: Their creators aka 4D.
Q: (L) Was this little monster that we got this picture of that was supposed to be in the Cheddar caves, was that one of these P4 P3 P2 monsters?
A: P3
Q: (L) Aaah! Creepy! Are P3 or P4 worse or creepier?
A: Depends on your perspective.
Q: (Ar**) Are there monsters in the caves in Malta too?
A: Oh, yes.
Q: (Ar**) Okay, we’ve got to go! (C**) Was this bird sound flapping and hitting my door a creature?
A: Yes
June 9, 2009 (This was exactly fourteen years after the first questions about the beast of Gévaudan!)
Q: (Ar**) Are there any monsters living in caves in France?
A: Yes.
Q: (laughter) (An**) There has to be at least one cave monster question per session with Ar**. (Ar**) I don’t have to go to Malta!!! Which direction, north, south, Paris, east, west — what caves?
A: Massif Centrale.
Q: (Ar**) Where is it? (L) Don’t encourage her! (P) Is it related to the beast of Gévaudan?
A: Yes.
Q: (P) Does that mean that the beast that was sighted in the eighteenth century is still there?
A: Or a relative and others.
Q: (P) But there are no reports like in the eighteenth century.
A: Wait for the window to open again.
Q: (P) It will come back. (An**) When it came the first time it was…
A: That one was someone’s “pet”.
Q: (Ar**) Is there a way to track them so I can find them? I just want to take a picture.
A: No dice!
Q: (A**) Oh come on, tell me!
A: Believe us, you don’t want a picture!
Q: (J) A 4D lizzie’s pet that got off the leash…
A: Remember the “Cheddar” monster? That was a young one!
While we are on the subject of monsters, in the Cambridge Illustrated History of Prehistoric Art, I came across a most unusual photograph. It was in a chapter about “Body Art”, and the many ways our howling-savage ancestors decorated their physiology. Many paragraphs are devoted to the subject of tattooing, and some nice graphic images accompany these remarks. But only a single, vague paragraph is dedicated to the subject of this amazing photograph that I am going to show you.
The author, Paul G. Bahn, comments:
Other forms of bodily art, such as hairstyles and scarification, can only be assessed from prehistoric human figurines and images, except for some preserved bodies whose hair is preserved — for example, from the Altai, the European bog bodies or the early Chinchorro mummies of northern Chile. There is more evidence for skeletal modification. For example, it is known that the deliberate deformation of the human skull, by binding the brow of growing infants or applying pressure at regular intervals, thus giving it a high sloping forehead or a broad flat forehead, was widespread: the phenomenon may even exist among the Neanderthals, and seems to occur in early Australian skulls such as specimens from Kow swamp, 13,000 year old.6
And that’s it. Not another word about it.
Then, you turn the page and there is the picture above. The caption on the picture simply says: “Deliberately deformed skulls from the Ica area, Peru. Precise date unknown, probably early centuries A.D.”
And that’s it. Nothing said about how binding the head of an infant can deform the skull, but it cannot make the skull grow bigger! It seems pretty clear to me that this skull is more than double in cranial size of a normal human skull.
Well, I was pretty curious about this so I went looking to see if I couldn’t find out more about these skulls that were so casually mentioned to be present in the “Ica area, Peru”.
I found an article on the web which included photographs of the same skulls. Apparently, the author, whose name does not appear in the article, actually has some of these skulls in his possession.7 This gentleman wrote about the skulls in the following way:
The movie Stargate has become a popular video cassette rental. Its feature film release was met with disappointing reviews, however, a sort of cult following has ensued as people have started discovering the movie by word of mouth. It deals with a touchy subject… Aliens that visited Earth thousands of years ago.
I learned about the film from the company that was producing a CD-ROM about the movie called The Secrets of Stargate. The associate producer of the CD-ROM, Joel Mills, had learned that I had in my possession photographs that could prove that the movie Stargate was based on historical fact. They wanted to include copies of the photographs of the “unusual giant skulls” that my wife (Bea) and I had collected over the past five years. It seems that the movie deals with the theory that extra terrestrials had used humans as slaves to mine metal in Egypt thousands of years ago.
Mills felt these giant skulls were proof that the ancient pharaohs had the same elongated skulls hidden under their crown head-dress, and that, in fact, the “Coneheads” of Saturday Night Live are based on fact, not fiction.
I pointed out to him that Egypt’s King Akhenaten and his daughters were proud of their distinct features (elongated skulls) and the true facts of this royal family are shrouded in controversy.8 Some historians point out that the giant skulls of this family are a deformity caused by inbreeding. Others discount this and claim that it is the art style of the Armana [sic] period.
The secret society known as the Rosicrucians place King Akhenaten on their highest pedestal by reconstructing his statue and main temple at their head office in San Jose, California.
Mills also asked permission to use photographs of giant skulls that I had obtained while filming at the Nasca lines in Peru.
Although Stargate did not deal with a Peruvian connection, he felt the world needed to see the photographs to understand that ancient skulls of extraordinary dimensions could be found at other major archaeological sites around the world, in particular, the Nasca Line and the ruins of Peru… in the shadows of the Cheops pyramids in Egypt… and the ancient Mayan ruins of Central America… The Triangle of the Ancient Gods.
I was happy to send him the photos but warned him that the photos would probably be too controversial for the general public. He seemed surprised at this comment and wondered why he hadn’t seen pictures like this before. The complicated answer took a great deal of time to explain! I will try to encapsulate this answer and relate to you a brief history of these unusual skulls.
I first came across drawings of the skulls in a book by Ignatius Donnelly called Atlantis, The Antediluvian World. The author tries to prove that at one time there existed a Continent in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean that sank into the sea. Before it sank, the rulers left for Egypt, Mexico and Peru and became rulers of these countries. He found information about these skulls hidden in the Library of Congress in Washington.
I had learned from the Peruvian government that these unusual skulls could be found in many museums in Peru and excavations were uncovering them even now near the Nasca Plateau. I had read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods? and remembered his theories of ancient astronauts landing in this desert area.
A few years ago, we were invited to film and photograph these skulls and other discoveries that Peruvian archaeologists are currently unearthing. These skulls are so numerous in the area of the Nasca desert that you can find small makeshift museums in the backyards of the locals. They dug up their ancestors so you can view their remains for a small fee.
Some skulls show the evidence of ancient brain surgery that prove their ancestors possessed certain abilities that modern science has just recently discovered.
Stunned, we wondered why we had not seen photographs of these skulls before. Our guides explained their church leaders feel these skulls are the work of the devil, the offspring of the fallen angels in the Bible.
In Mexico we found the same types of skulls in a museum in Merida, a city close to the ruins of Palenque. Lord Shield Pacal had the same elongated skull, an image which is found engraved on his tomb. Erich Von Daniken has described the drawings as Pacal sitting in a rocket ship.
The conquering Spaniards found the natives deforming their heads to make them appear more “god-like” and the priests declared them devil worshippers.
Meanwhile in Egypt, King Akhenaten was also regarded as a heretic and all information about this king was obliterated until just recently. These finding prove that the rulers of these advanced societies all shared the common bond of huge skulls and brains that probably provided them with superior intelligence.
This information has been shared by secret societies and religious leaders for hundreds of years and up until now they had decided to keep these secrets for themselves. All who first see the pictures feel…
“They show proof of beings from another world.”
It seems that these conclusions were deemed to be too shocking for the average person and that these skulls were to be dismissed as deformities and hidden far from public view. That is, until President Fujimori took power in Peru. He had decided to allow the skulls to be photographed and has brought them to the attention of the world.
Resistance to publishing the photographs has remained, and there appears to be a world wide cover-up of the skulls true origins. The only answers seems to be that public knowledge of “Fallen Angels” or ancient astronauts would disrupt society and the world’s religions.
I told Joel Mills he would probably face the same struggle to get the photos published in the CD-ROM, just as we have encountered with the various news media. He felt sure that the time was here and now to wake up the world, and that the movie Stargate was just the beginning. I wished him luck and success with the idea and sent him all the material I had in my possession to document the facts he needed.
Several months passed and then one day he phoned to tell me he had left the CD-ROM production team and that none of the skull photographs would be included in The Secrets of Stargate. After several run-ins with executives in Hollywood, the pictures were deemed to be unsuitable for inclusion in The Secrets of Stargate.
He was much happier with his new job promoting a public speaker that teaches the history and wisdom of ancient Egypt and again asked for permission to use the photographs, but this time for private presentations only. He had learned first hand about the powers that have kept these pictures hidden from the public.
Now, just to give you some other views, here is another photograph. Just to try to put the thing in perspective, I searched the internet for an example of “real” head-binding in order to see if the above examples could, conceivably fall into this category.
The practice of deforming the head was much more common in Mesoamerica than was mutilation of the teeth. It has a very wide distribution and dates from antiquity. This is an enduring practice known from many parts of the world. Many Indian groups, particularly in the American Northwest employed this procedure. Plateau Indians in Washington state and Idaho created a flattened forehead by pressing a board against the padded forehead of an infant swaddled in a cradleboard. The most famous were known as the “Flatheads”. In Mesoamerica, deformation was also done by head binding. The Maya used head boards and head binding to produce a distinctive shape which denoted social status and rank in society. A person of high status would have mutilated teeth, a conical shaped cranium and crossed eyes (produced by dangling shiny objects close to the infant’s eyes).9
The image that accompanied this article was a drawing and not an actual photograph. What we see here is clearly that the head binding practice did not alter the volume of the skull. It merely changed the shape.
In the “alien” skulls above, this is not the case. These skulls are almost double in cranial volume.
Considering these distinctions, it is singularly curious that more research isn’t being done on these things and that more information about them is not available. Something so startling and so strange ought to be investigated scientifically.
But then, maybe they have. Maybe that’s why we don’t hear about them or see them more often.
John Keel, one of the most widely read, influential, and controversial writers on mysterious happenings, was strongly influenced by the works of Charles Fort. Though he has written extensively on the subject of UFOs and related phenomena, Keel’s ideas about them are more along the line of occultism than a strict, nuts and bolts explanation. He uses the term “ultraterrestrials” to describe aliens, and this is truly more in line with what the Cassiopaeans say than most other explications.
According to John Keel, humanity’s long history of interactions with such anomalies proves the existence of the “gods” of old. To Keel, Men In Black, monsters, UFOs, and even Mothman, are merely the modern versions of the devils and demons of past times. And he may not be too far from the truth. The only thing I would add to that idea is that we need to get over the supernatural connotation that goes along with the terms “devils and demons”. The following dialogue will make this clearer:
December 3, 1994
Q: (L) I received an article from a friend about experiments by a fellow named Persinger who has been trying to duplicate the “abduction” experience by subjecting people to EM fields in a sensory deprivation chamber. I would like comments on that, and second…
A: Nonsense, some have closed mind inspired by fear.
Q: (L) My concern is that if he is doing this to people, and we have talked about electromagnetic energy blowing holes in the dimensional boundaries, my concern is that this experimentation could be detrimental to the persons being experimented on; is this a possibility?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What could be the results of subjecting someone to these electromagnetic fields?
A: Cessation of body.
Q: (L) In other words, it could kill them?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could it also open doors between dimensions and allow other things to enter in?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could they be subjected to spirit or demonic possession by this method?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could they also be subjected to further programming by aliens through this method? In other words, could Persinger, in his ignorance, be “aiding and abetting the enemy?”
A: Yes. Always keep open mind.
But we want to understand this type of phenomena better, and there were many instances in which we queried the Cassiopaeans about the differences between densities and dimensions and how the two might relate, as well as how other dimensions might interact with our own.
December 5, 1994
Q: (L) I would like to know what is the definition of, and would you describe for us, a dimensional curtain?
A: Self-explanatory. Think.
Q: (L) Can dimensional curtains be between dimensions at the same level of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are dimensional curtains also something that occurs between levels of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, a dimensional curtain is a point at which some sort of change takes place… What causes this change?
A: Nature.
Q: (L) In specific terms of the engineering of it, what defines this change?
A: Experience.
Q: (L) Is it in any way related to atomic or quantum physics or the movement of atoms?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay. An atom is in third density. What distinguishes it from an atom in fourth density?
A: Reality.
Q: (L) What distinguishes one realm from another?
A: Assumptions.
Q: (L) Okay, what you assume or expect is what you perceive about that atom depending upon which reality you are in, is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) What determines your assumptions?
A: Experience. Every thing that exists is merely a lesson.
Q: (L) Okay, so once we have learned certain lessons, as in experience of certain things, then our assumptions change?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, is this Wave that is coming our direction going to give us an experience that is going to change our assumptions?
A: Catch 22: One half is that you have to change your assumptions in order to experience the wave in a positive way.
Q: (L) And what does this wave consist of in absolute terms?
A: Realm border.
Q: (L) Is that realm border as in a cutoff point between one reality and another?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that realm border as in dimensional curtain?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So the planet earth is going to pass through a dimensional curtain?
A: Or an earth. All is merely a lesson, and nothing, repeat nothing, more.
Q: (L) Well, my experience with lessons has been that they are generally painful. Is this realm border crossing, or this merging experience going to be what we, or I, in the third density, would perceive as painful?
A: Wait and see.
Well, the remark, “you have to change your assumptions in order to experience the wave in a positive way,” does not bode well for those who are close-minded to anomalies, for sure! But, let’s go back to the idea of these EM bursts being the means by which doorways are opened between dimensions. It seems that this can occur naturally, and often does. The following segment, though not specific to “anomalies” as we are discussing them, brings up this point. It also may suggest why anomalies are seen or experienced along with geomagnetic disturbances and even cataclysmic activity not to forget electronic glitches.
(Remember, of course, I lived in Florida and roaches are just simply a part of life. I don’t normally have them in my house, but began to notice some years ago that just prior to unusual geological or weather related phenomena, they would begin to come into the house under the doors, and via any other means. As soon as they were inside, my “secret formula” barrier spray insured their almost instant demise, so we would notice them all over the house on their backs, with their legs wiggling weakly in the air.)
April 22, 1995
Q: (L) Why have the roaches been so crazy in the last week or so? They have really been outrageous.
A: Electromagnetism.
Q: (L) What is the source of this electromagnetism?
A: EM field disturbance.
Q: (T) What has disturbed the field?
A: Seismic.
Q: (L) Well, I think something is going to happen because every time I have seen the roaches act this way, something has happened. Earthquakes, volcanoes, thunderstorms, hurricanes, planes crash and so forth. What is the size and locus of this EM disturbance at this point?
A: Moving continuously. Circling earth at 6500 RPM.
Q: (L) Per minute?
A: Yes.
Q: (LM) Is this subterranean or atmospheric?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Is it a natural occurrence or is it being generated from other dimensions?
A: Natural.
Q: (L) Is it from some activity within the planet itself, or the planet’s reaction to cosmic waves?
A: In and around.
Q: (J) Is this a normal occurrence?
A: No.
Q: (J) Has this happened before?
A: Yes. Four months ago. Access memory.
Q: (T) Well, the Japanese earthquake happened four months ago. Is this going to show up as an earth change of some kind?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) This has been going on for a while, now. (L) About ten days I think. (T) What is the general time period to play itself out?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Is it going to center on Laura’s house? [Laughter]
A: Open. If so, suggest “vacation”.
Now, the remark that it was “natural EM”, but not “normal”, should give us pause. Then it was stated that it was “seismic”, but the origin of the seismic activity was not specified. This possibly suggests a disturbance in the natural EM field due to, perhaps, something akin to the above described, “EM wave bursts along frequency border variation,” i.e., time travel.
Going back to the idea that time travel is effected in a way that is similar to transiting between dimensions, as well as the factor that UFOs are often sighted in connection with monsters or the above described “trans-dimensional window fallers”, we might wonder about some of the activity going on here on earth and how these phenomena might be clues to a change in the reality. In other words, if the dimensional or density curtains are opened for one reason, does that mean that there is the possibility for these window fallers to be activated as a side effect of such activity? And, if that is the case, can we look for such anomalies as clues that something else is going on in that time and place?
The following extract contains a few clues to this idea:
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) Okay, in this KRLL document, there was a statement made that the Grays and other aliens “use glandular substances extracted during physical exams of human beings,” or what is often called the gynecological and the sperm extraction exams, “to get high or to feed on.” It is suggested that certain aliens are addicted to these substances and that is why there is such an incredible number, or seems to be so, of abductions and milking of eggs and sperm and the secretions of sexual activity. Is this idea a correct assessment?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do they use glandular substances at all?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What do they use glandular substances for?
A: Medicine for themselves. It helps them cope with 3rd density.
Q: (T) [You are saying that this] is something that they use to help them stay in the third density?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Does it help them to manifest in a more solid physical manner?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, they draw glandular substances from human beings and this is the reason for all the sexual related activities. It has nothing to do with them “saving humanity”, as has been suggested by some “experiencers” who are looking for a defense of their abductors. I have also heard that women who have sex with aliens say that it is beyond human experience, that it is the greatest thing since the wheel or sliced bread or whatever. Do the aliens also use sexual energy given off by individuals to maintain their status in three dimensions?
A: No. That feeds them in 4th density, as we told you before.
Q: (L) Yes. Okay. How “long”, and I put long in quotes, because we know, as you say, there is no time, but how long, as we measure it, have the Grays been interacting with our race? The Grays, not the Lizards, the Grays, created cybergenetic probes?
A: Time travelers, therefore, “Time is ongoing.”
Q: (L) Okay, recently I read a couple of books J gave me, Knight in Shining Armor, and Replay. Both of these books described time travel… [And both are great reading!]
A: No, not finished with answer. Do you understand the gravity of last response?
Q: (L) They are time travelers, they can move forward and backward in time, they can play games with our heads… (T) They can set up the past to create a future they want. (D) They can organize things so that they can create the energy that they need… (L) They can also make things look good, make them feel good, make them seem good, they can make you have an idea one minute, and then the next minute, create some sort of situation that confirms that idea…
A: When you asked how long, of course it is totally unlimited, is it not?
Q: (L) That’s not good. If they were to move back through space-time and alter an event in our past, would that alteration in the past instantaneously alter our present as well?
A: Has over and over and over.
Q: (D) So they do it over and over and over, constantly?
A: You just are not yet aware, and have no idea of the ramifications!!!
Well, we are beginning to get some idea of these ramifications! But, we are trying to get some kind of handle on these trans-dimensional beings that come in and out of our reality. Just how real are they? The following segment talks about this in a more practical way.
We had been to another MUFON meeting where a Vedic astrologer lectured about the ancient Indian and Vedic literature who talked about UFOs and aliens. It was his opinion that they were merely a representation of the activation of the Kundalini experience for the whole planet, and were, therefore, just symbols with no particular reality of their own. In other words, human activities directed toward “raising consciousness” were causing UFOs and aliens to manifest more or less as figments of our imagination. In specific, he was saying that the Lizard Beings represented this Serpentine energy of ascending knowledge and consciousness. The direct question about this issue is further along in the extract, because I have included most of the session because of its relation to the subject at hand:
August 12, 1995
Q: (L) My first question is: What is the source of the Vedas? The Hindu system of philosophy?
A: There is more than one source. It came into being as a result of meditation.
Q: (L) And what people were responsible for this information?
A: Caucasian.
Q: (L) What period of time were the Vedas received?
A: Varying bits and pieces of information, which later was organized into packages, labeled as it is.
Q: (L) From what realm did this meditated information issue?
A: The realm of the subconscious mind.
Q: (L) Is any of the Vedic information that which was given to man by extra-terrestrials?
A: Not as you would define it.
Q: (L) From what types of beings, or what level of density did this information issue from?
A: Third.
Q: (L) So it is a third density interpretation of reality. What is the percentage of accuracy of the information given in the Vedas? Overall?
A: Accurate at what level? That’s an extremely difficult question to answer as accuracy in determining such things as perceiving the universe and living one’s life is entirely open to interpretation as anyone can resolve accuracy by relating to the parallel universe, which is appropriate for the information given. And, as we have stated in the past, it is possible to create parallel universes through thought energy, and once they are created naturally, they correspond naturally to the interpretation given for them.
Q: (L) Is there any benefit to be obtained through the use of mantras?
A: Especially when the mind says there is. Remember, most all power necessary for altering reality and physicality is contained within the belief center of the mind. This is something you will understand more closely when you reach 4th density reality where physicality is no longer a prison, but is instead, your home, for you to alter as you please. In your current state, you have the misinterpretation of believing that reality is finite and therein lies your difficulty with finite physical existence.
Q: (L) Close enough. Is it true that recitation of mantras can affect spirit release or exorcism?
A: If you please.
Q: (L) Last week, the remark was made, regarding spirit release and exorcism that if it is done properly, by the right person, that there are no side effects or eventualities that would bring detrimental conditions to the individuals and location involved. What was meant by “done correctly”? What is the correct format or mode for exorcism?
A: Correct manner involves honesty and understanding that one has complete faith and awareness of the activities pursued. In other words, when one performs an act, which they proclaim to be having a desired result, and they do not have faith in their own actions as, in fact, producing the desired result, then the effort will collapse because of their lack of faith. Whereas when one has complete faith and multi-density understanding, their activities are indeed truth and useful as prescribed and this is the correct way to pursue them.
Q: (L) Isn’t faith a difficult commodity to acquire?
A: Not at all. When you have found something of truth you will receive demonstrations that locks in your faith.
Q: (L) Earlier today, while talking with this fellow, Ram, the Vedic astrologer, he proposed that the Vedic idea of who and what the Lizard Beings were was correct and that this is the activation of the sexual principle, or kundalini within us. Any kind of UFO or alien activity is merely the reflection of what is inside all of us. Is this a correct assessment?
A: Part of the answer to that question, if you refer back to the answers to the earlier questions, is of a similar nature. But, in truth, the best way to most adequately answer those questions is to ask yourself what do you believe, based on the knowledge that you have collected and have been given.
Q: (L) Well, I sometimes wonder if they are not part of ourselves, in a parallel universe, and they emerge into our world and interact with us in a negative way. And, that the stories of alien—human interaction are really just stories of human performance of mechanical operations, guided by negative aspects of their own being in another dimension or density. Would this not be a distinct possibility?
A: Not in the sense that you are thinking. Remember, it is always wise to review all the previously gathered information whenever any new ideas appear before you. This is true not only in this particular instance, but also all others as well. For example, how often would mere thought patterns, or realities emerging from a parallel universe, appear in desert locations and be retrieved by third density beings for study in the third density realm? Now, if indeed you believe that this has happened, and it HAS, one must contemplate the meaning of such and how it relates to one’s proposal that the whole issue involves much higher levels of density on the etheric plane, and, or, inter dimensional capabilities that cannot be measured within the realm of third density. These theories, certainly, are part of the answer, but merely a part of the answer, and none of them represents the entire answer. And we caution very strongly that you avoid falling into the trap of believing too strongly in any one explanation that appears, as this too, is a form of attack which can lead to destructive consequences.
Q: (L) So, there are actual, material, alien craft that have been captured or retrieved by the government and studied?
A: Do you have any doubt of this?
Q: (L) Well, sometimes I wonder if the whole thing is cooked up by the government just to make us all crazy!
A: Well that’s an interesting concept, but we can assure you, that that is not, in any way, correct.
Q: (L) Well, if these craft emerge into our reality from fourth density, as I assume some of them do, how do they stay here? Do they become absolutely physically material and do they remain here?
A: If they malfunction in third density, they then become frozen in third density. Very simple.
Q: (L) And, does the same hold true for the beings?
A: Precisely.
Q: (L) So, in a very real sense, they are very real and physical…
A: They are very real and physical in fourth density, too. The difference is that fourth density physicality is not the same as third density physicality. But that is not to say that there is no physicality in fourth density.
In order to completely remove all attachment to physicality, one must reach sixth density or higher. Everything below that involves some aspect of physicality or attachment to physicality, as in fifth density, the contemplation zone, which is simply a recycling of those from 1st through 4th densities, in the etheric plane. They are brought back down and recycled into one of the physical realms.
Each density level, one through four, involves lesser and lesser physicality, as you know it, but nevertheless there still is physicality. Third density physicality, however, remains constant on third density.
When a being or a craft or an instrument of any kind manufactured or conceived in fourth density arrives in third density, it is able to navigate through third density in fourth density reality. However, when it malfunctions, whatever is left of it remains in third density.
Those reports of objects or of any physical structure whatsoever, be it a being or a construct, disappearing from third density to fourth density, in each and every case, involves an object or a being, or a construct, which is not in the process of malfunctioning. It is still fully operational at its fourth density realm. It is merely visiting third density which has a limited capacity, as you measure time in its passage, therefore it does, indeed, remove itself naturally, at some point, to fourth density. However, if it malfunctions or is in any way broken or altered, it will remain in third density.
Q: (L) So, if someone removes an implant, the best way to keep it here would be to smash it?
A: If someone removes an implant it is no longer functioning as it was designed to function.
I asked a sort of related question at one point which gives a curious insight into the many reports of the stench of sulphur related to evil manifestations of demons and witches of the past.
May 7, 1995
Q: (L) Why is an unbearable stench of sulphur associated with alien bodies and other related phenomena and entities?
A: Chemical interactions.
Q: (L) So, if an alien dies in third density and remains in third density, and decays in third density, that causes a chemical reaction that creates sulphur or related compounds?
A: Bravo!
Q: (L) Does this imply, since this is what I am inferring, that the aliens are chemically constructed in 4th density?
A: Close.
And that, of course, goes back to the idea that they must use something from our human, third density bodies in order to stabilize their physicality for visits to third density, or even just for interactions with third density reality in general.
One question that arises is: are there any limits to these dimensions? We have already been told that densities are seven in number, and this relates in a powerful way to many ancient teachings. In his most interesting explication of this subject, The Ancient Wisdom, Geoffrey Ashe writes that his researches have indicated that the:
Magical and sacred character of the number seven … is a key to dangerous forces… If we consider seven impartially, certain facts about it become plain, and all of them suggest … a thread that is worth following.
To begin with, if there are indeed any such things as occult clues to Ancient Wisdom, the number seven looks as if it could qualify. Two major sciences did emerge from magical systems, which, in their Western forms, were grounded on seven. Astronomy emerged from astrology, chemistry from alchemy; and astrology and alchemy were mystically linked by this number. (emphasis added)
For more than two thousand years astrologers worked not only with the sun, but with the moon and the five true planets known as Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn. Their modern heirs have tried to add the three planets discovered since, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto, but the results have seldom carried conviction. For all vital purposes, Western astrology has always been a septenary system, based on the planets wandering through the signs, the Seven interpreting and channeling the Twelve.
[Laura’s note: Some say that the ancients knew that there were more planets, but they picked out the seven that really count as influences and revealed only these to the wider public.]
Western alchemy knew also seven metals. Each metal was matched to a ruling planet.
[This constant reference to the number seven] is a genuine human quirk that has no obvious motive… The frequency of seven in other contexts proves that we are confronted here with a deep-seated mental reality that deserves attention.
We still schedule our work and leisure by the seven-day week. Its stubborn survival has no logic or convenience.
Most human beings who have lived by the seven-day week, as a native inheritance, have also attuned their ears to a seven-note scale and made their music with this for many centuries. A physical fact does underlie its length. If you start from C, the next C, an octave higher, has twice the vibration-rate. But the seven steps on the way are a product of conditioning. The Chinese do not have them. Their scale consists of five notes.
So likewise with optics. We insist on regarding the spectrum as having seven colours, violet, indigo, blue, green, yellow, orange, and red. The Chinese count them differently. For them there are five colours of the rainbow.
Far back in time is a powerful pressure, which has not yet been explained. Westerners (or their cultural forebears in the nearer part of Asia) felt obliged to have seven metals, to match the planets. They felt obliged to have seven planets because… well, because of what? The number was vital, and that, for the moment, is all we can safely say. Early Iranian astrology had nine planets. So did the Hindu astrology that was derived from it. The Chinese, as in other cases, settled on five, the correct list without the sun and moon.
The list of planets made up by the Babylonians is an odd one, if you compare the bodies concerned — to give the sun and moon the same status as Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn…
The dominance of seven has thus far defeated all explainers-away. It does not yield to any known technique of psychological analysis. The reason for it seems to lie in some other direction.
It looks, in fact, as if the Babylonians chose to have seven planets because of a pre-existing mystique of the heptad. (Ashe, 1977)
Ashe tracks the number seven all over the planet, and his conclusions, considering the many clues the Cassiopaeans have given in regard to the matter, are very important. The Cassiopaean statement that there are seven levels of density, and only seven, is supported by a great body of ancient wisdom and, in fact, it may be one of the very keys to the Ancient Technology.
On the subject of the Seven Levels of Density, the following exchange occurred:
Q: (L) After Level Seven, is there another…
A: No “after Seven”, suggest “refresher course” of transcripts!
Q: (L) Well, the question you didn’t let me finish was, is there an octave? Does this step up and start the whole thing over like the octaves on a piano?
A: SPA. [See Previous Answer.]
Q: (L) Well, there is an awful lot of stuff being touted around about octaves density levels higher than seven and so forth.
A: Grand cycle, and who is doing the “touting” that you speak of?
Q: (L) Well, different people. And what is being said is that there is the cycle of seven and the next cycle is at a higher level and is called an octave like the segments on the musical scale.
A: Who are we?
Q: (L) The Cassiopaeans.
A: Yes, now, we have volunteered to assist you in your development, yes? If there were a level eight, do you think we would have failed to mention it at this point?!? There are many who speak, and some who speak the truth!
Q: (L) But why Seven? What is the significance of the number seven?
A: Why not? Is there “significance” to anything?
Q: (L) Only the significance we give it, I guess.
A: And if so, what is that?
Q: (T) Well, it is interesting to me because it means there was a structure to the way things were set up. There must have been a reason it was selected this way as opposed to another way.
A: Really?
Q: (T) It didn’t just happen. Nothing just happens!
A: Who says?
Q: (L) Are you saying, essentially, that it is the way it is because things are just arbitrarily that way?
A: No, we are trying to teach you how to complete the puzzle.
Q: (T) So there is a reason it is what it is and that is something we have to figure out.
A: And you have to figure out what is reason. Much of your learning to this point is based upon assumption of definitions of reality.
Q: (L) And, all of our assumptions are completely wrong?
A: Not all. Logic is subjective.
Q: (L) Is symbolic logic as is used in mathematics subjective?
A: No.
Q: (L) But you always come up with different things using math than mentation. Okay. Well, we opened a can of worms here. (T) We do that every time. (J) Worms are us! [Laughter]
A: Ongoing project.
Sorry for going off on a tangent there, but it sort of fit the subject and we now have it out of the way. But, getting back to our question about whether or not there are any limitations to the numbers of lateral dimensions, we have the following extract from the Cassiopaean text:
January 4, 1997
Q: (L) Physicists talk about multidimensional universes. The idea is that our 3-dimensional space and 1-dimensional time is an illusion of plane beings, while the true universe has more dimensions perpendicular to the above ones. Physicists have different guesses here: 5, 6, 7, 11, and 256. How many dimensions does the true universe have?
A: Not correct concept. Should be: How many universes does the “true” dimension have?
Q: (L) All right, then. I think that from a previous session we were told that the number of universes was not countable. Is that correct?
A: Infinite, maybe, but more to the point: variable and selective.
Q: (L) Explain variable and selective, please?
A: For those who know how, universes can be created at will in order to trans-modify reality merge.
Q: (L) What is a reality merge?
A: What does it sound like?
Q: (T) Merging of realities from one universe into another? A creating of a new reality, which is then merged with the old to create a new universe. (L) Maybe it means the realities of different people merge to create a sort of “mutual universe”? Like the idea “you create your own reality”?
A: T is closer; Laura is playing “left field”.
Q: (L) The next question: The C’s, Andromedans and others talk about “densities”. We are supposed to live in third density. Does this number three have anything to do with three space dimensions?
A: Original definition closer to 3rd level of experience, relating material/ethereal spectrum, but denizens of Terra Locator came up with “Third Dimensional” explanation due to influences upon the subconscious mind from soul memory connection to the Akashic record.
Q: (L) Well, I also want to know why you refer to a technological device that supposedly transports someone from one density to another, as a “Trans Dimensional Remolecularizer”?
A: In order to reconstruct 3rd density into 4th density physical, other dimensions must be utilized in the process. Remember, we are talking about exact duplicates, which are merged.
Q: (L) But, a little while ago you said there was a single dimension and many universes, and now you are saying utilizing another dimension, so the terminology is getting to be a little bit confusing… (T) It is like a program loading onto a computer. Some programs just load straight in. Others need to create a space on the hard drive to put files that they need to load the program, but are not part of the program, and when it is finished loading, it erases all the “loading instructions”. The hard drive is still the hard drive, but for a time, the program used a sector of the hard drive, and created a temporary dimension, let’s say. (L) Is this what we are looking at here?
A: Close. And remember, we said “true” dimension!
Q: (L) So, it is like one hard drive, many programs, loading instructions for new programs that are then erased, etc. If there is one “true dimension”, and infinite universes within it, does one particular universe exist, of and by itself, at any given time, until it is merged into a new one, or is there within this one true dimension, multiple universes as real as ours is, to which we could go, and could be there alongside ours, so to speak?
A: Yes to the latter.
Q: (L) And, can infinite numbers of “dimensions” exist within each level of density, even if temporary?
A: Yes. If you want to go back and change “history”, either for individuals or for universal perception, you must first create an alternate universe to do it. Your 4th density STS “friends” have been doing this a lot.
Q: (L) If you, being a general term, create an alternate universe, does the former one continue to exist, or does the former one merge into the new one?
A: Both.
Q: (T) The universe you are in; you are going along and say, “I think I will create a new Universe.” You do it, and move to it, and you bring your universe with you. That is the merging of realities. But, when you move to the new universe, you are no longer in the original one, which continues along on its own. The pattern of the old universe, you bring into the new one, and when you become part of the new universe you have just created, you are no longer part of the old one you just left. It just goes along with everybody else there. (L) Is this correct?
A: Sort of… remember, one can create all ranges of types of alternate possibilities.
Q: (L) So you could create a new universe with a new “past”, even?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in that way, both actually occur and you can change the whole thing?
A: When merged, the former never existed.
Q: (T) Not for the person creating the new universe, but the former will continue for everybody else.
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, for the person creating a new universe, the former never existed, but the other beings who are satisfied with that old universe, and “go” with it, are still continuing along as though…
A: Your 3rd density mind restrictions limit the scope of your comprehension in this area.
Q: (L) If you decide you don’t like your present universe, and you work like crazy to learn how to create a new one, and you do it, do you, essentially, forget that you did this? And why you did this? And forget the other universe?
A: If you wish.
Q: (L) So you can or you can’t… (T) Going by what you just said: “an unhappy universe”, is that because you’re perceiving the universe you are in as being unhappy because that is the way you are and where you are at, in terms of learning, and by creating a new universe, you are simply wishing to change the way the universe is around you, and really it’s not the universe that has a problem, but you…
A: Off track.
Q: (L) So, the universe you are in, is what it is, and you are in it for some reason… (T) You’re in it to learn lessons… just to change the universe because you don’t want to learn the lessons you’ve chosen to learn… (L) Or, you have learned them and thereby can change the universe… (T) When you learn, you just move on automatically, you don’t have to change the universe. The universe will change for you.
A: Deja vu comes to you compliments of 4th density STS.
Q: (L) Is deja vu a result of some sensation of the universe having changed?
A: Or… some sensation of reality bridging.
Q: (T) As you move into the new universe, you have leftovers?
A: No.
Q: (L) What is reality bridging?
A: What does it sound like?
Q: (L) Is it somewhat like merging universes? (T) A bridge is something you put between two things…
A: You wish to limit, wait till 4th density, when the word will be obsolete!
Q: (L) That still doesn’t help me to understand deja vu as a “sensation of reality bridging.” Is deja vu because something comes into our reality from another?
A: One possibility.
Q: (T) Didn’t we talk about this? That it is a bleed through from other dimensions… that when we think we have been someplace before, it is because in another dimension we have…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If you are now in a particular universe that has been created and merged by fourth density STS, and there is still the old universe existing, and you feel a connection, or a bridging, because some alternate self is in that alternate universe, living through some experience… or a similar thing?
A: No limits of possibilities.
No limits of possibilities.
So, we begin to get the idea that this universe in which we live is, indeed, a strange and marvelous place — far beyond our limited, third density conceptualizations. And further, we begin to get the idea that our reality is definitely being manipulated by higher density forces and that the appearances of monsters and anomalies may be clues to the times and places where these manipulations have taken place, loosely speaking!
We deal with more of the mechanics of these things in other volumes of the Wave series, but we will end this chapter with a quote from the introduction of Strange and Unexplained Phenomena, a compilation by Jerome Clark and Nancy Pear, which is a nice compendium of a lot of weird things:
The three hardest words for human beings to utter are “I don’t know”. Because we like our mysteries quickly and neatly explained, in modern times we have come to ask scientists to find logical explanations for strange human experiences. Sometimes science can use its knowledge and tools to find the answers to puzzling incidents; at other times it offers explanations that don’t seem to fit the anomalies and only add to the confusion about them. When experiences are especially unbelievable, scientists may simply decide that they never really happened and refuse to consider them altogether. Most of us believe that as science learns more, it will be able to explain more. Still, it is almost certain that science will never be able to account for all the “weird stuff” that human beings encounter.
When an anomaly is reported, it is natural not to believe it, to be skeptical. One usually wonders about the witness. Could the person be lying for some reason? Tricks and hoaxes do occur. There are people who go to great lengths to fool scientists and the public, who hope to find fame and fortune by false claims or simply to prove to themselves how clever they are.
It is also natural to wonder about the mental health of a person who has witnessed an extraordinary happening. Common sense tells us that all weird accounts should be blamed on the poor memories, bad dreams, or wild imaginings of confused and unwell minds! Still, psychologists who have examined witnesses of anomalies find them, for the most part, to be the same as people who have had no odd experiences at all. Also, the sheer number of strange reports rattles our common sense a bit, as do cases of multiple witnesses, when large groups of people observe the same strange happenings together.
More interesting still are accounts that have been repeated for centuries; reports of lake monsters in the deep water of Loch Ness, for example, began way back in A.D. 565!
Strange accounts, no matter how farfetched, deserve some careful thought. Although most readers set their own limits as to how high on the strange scale they can go, the kinds of questions raised by anomalies are worth pursuing, even if the event or object is beyond one’s own limits of belief. True understanding of anomalies takes time, effort, and an open — but not a gullible — mind… Human experiences come in more shapes and sizes than we could ever imagine!
I don’t know about you, but to me the idea of an unlimited and endlessly morphing reality, with any and all imaginable things and beings possible, is really exciting! Yes, we have the issue of dealing with those who want to abridge Free Will, control and/or feed on us, but even that can be viewed as a challenge and an adventure!
A Happy Thought
The world is so full
Of a number of things
I’m sure we should all be
As happy as kings.
1 See Richard H. Thompson’s Wolf-Hunting in France in the Reign of Louis XV: The Beast of Gevaudan (Edwin Mellen Press, 1992) for a full account.
2 Keep this item in mind because we will soon come to a story with a similar event — a strange “scratching of the stomach.”
3 I want to mention that this part of The Wave was written quite a bit before the movie was made and there was a resurgence of interest in the Mothman.
4 Just as an item of synchronicity, The Blue Book Commission was dissolved by the army in 1966 after the publication of the Condon report. At the same time, there were numerous UFO flaps that year.
5 Another interesting synchronicity is that 1908 is the year of the Tunguska explosion — on June 30th.
6 Some Strangeness in the Proportion, Ed. Harry Woolf (London: Addison-Wesley, 1980). Cambridge Illustrated History of Prehistoric Art.
7 The article originally was published in the first edition of The ‘X’ Chronicles Newspaper in May 1995. It is available online at http://www.ufodigest.com/skulls.html
8 Here the author has made a slight error. Earlier depictions of Akhenaten show him with a normal skull. It was his wife, Nefertiti, and his children, that had the deformed skulls. Akhenaten possibly had himself depicted this way on purpose, perhaps in “solidarity.” The fact that King Tut has a similarly elongated skull, though not so extreme, indicates that Nefertiti was his mother.
THE ROSE
(Amanda McBroom, sung by Bette Midler)
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed
It’s the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It’s the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes a chance
It’s the one who won’t be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed, that with the sun’s love
In the spring becomes The Rose
There are other issues involved with the subject of accuracy and deception during the present period of human history that I would like to examine. Let’s look at the excerpt we presented at the beginning of this chapter:
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) Now, could you tell us a little bit about the purported “Photon Belt”?
A: The key issue remains one of interpretation. The messages are genuine; interpretations are variable in their accuracy. So, when one speaks of the “Photon Belt,” one may really be thinking of a concept and giving it a name.
Q: (L) So, you mean that various persons are seeing something and only describing it within the limits of their knowledge?
A: At one level, yes.
Q: (L) Was there a harmonic convergence as was advertised within the metaphysical community?
A: For those who believed there was a harmonic convergence, indeed there was a harmonic convergence.
Q: (L) Did anything of an objective, material nature happen on or to the planet to enhance or change the energy?
A: Did you notice any changes?
Q: (L) No. Except that it seems that things have gotten objectively worse, if anything.
A: Did you notice any clear, obvious, material changes?
Q: (L) No. But that could just be me. I could just be a stubborn and skeptical person.
A: Did anyone else in the room notice any clear or obvious changes?
Q: (S) What date was it? (L) 8/8/88, I believe. (S) I thought it had something to do with 11/11 ninety-something…
A: Well, obviously if the recollection of the calendar date was difficult, one would suppose that material changes on the planet did not take place. For, if they had, would you not remember the calendar date ascribed to them?
Q: (L) Yes. The claim has further been made that, for a month, following the harmonic convergence that no abductions were taking place. Is this true?
A: No. There has been no cessation in what you term to be abduction in quite some time as you measure it.
In our efforts to maintain accuracy and purity of the source, we have consistently resisted the standard channeling techniques of trance or telepathy, etc. It is far too easy to substitute subjective, emotional thinking for objective reality, particularly when the objective reality is, from the human perspective, unpleasant. As you will have noted in the previous discussions, there is greater potential for corruption when there is also a great deal of verbiage. In other words, it seems that the wordier the source, the more easily corruption can enter it.
Now, let’s go back again to the concerns of the correspondent who wrote:
Aliens will invade in some form or other between now and 2018 [2012] or something, causing even more fear and confusion than there is already, then try to take us over or annihilate us or let the earth changes do that and then seed earth with their own race.
About the same time this is all happening the wave will strike and half of the world or more (people and land mass) is wobbling in and out of 4th density and then transitions completely. Those of us who have not been wiped out by earth changes or the busy Lizzies and gone to 5th density dead zone (there to decide what to do next) will find ourselves in 4th density earth which will look very weird to us and will take some getting used to, only to find ourselves in the same situation environmentally, [with] 4th density Orions or Lizzies trying to manipulate and control us there as they have been doing here for millennia.
In short as you said to the Cassies the picture looks ugly. They said that you seem to think that only good experience is useful, well no, but at least there is usually a mix of good and bad but in their scenario we are all for the high jump with no mat on the other side though. (Splat)
As a way of dealing with this issue, I want to present here sections of a particular session in which an experience of my own was being discussed (the same incident described in High Strangeness). To give you a little background, as I have said before, I do not ever remember seeing or experiencing an alien being or an abduction that could be clearly stated to be such — although at one point, I did have an experience in an altered state of consciousness that I have never been able to decide whether it was physical or imagined. I also have made disconcerting discoveries about my state when awakening, or have dreamlike memories of very strange things, which then corresponded to some sort of physical or material anomaly that I would immediately sweep under the rug. But, in the case I want to talk about here, I did wake up in the night — in an extraordinary state — to very strange activity.
The background of the event is that I had been in an auto accident on Christmas Eve 1994. The accident itself was strange because I was hit from behind by a car that was not there. I was stopped, waiting to make a left turn, looking in my side view mirror, which gave me a broad view of what was behind me, and I am certain that no car was approaching. What is more, the driver of the car that hit me driving at full speed, claimed with great puzzlement that he did not see me at all. For him, I was not there! His car was completely destroyed, but he had an airbag and was not hurt. I, on the other hand, suffered several severe injuries when my body “whiplashed” and my head hit the back window of the pick-up truck I was driving.
During the course of the following year, I was in therapy every other day and had numerous medical exams to determine the nature of the injury and possible progress of the therapy.
The first unusual thing that showed up was a set of X-rays taken by a chiropractor. It showed a strange object that looked like a small straight piece of something that was situated at the front side of two of my cervical vertebrae. The chiropractor was a bit puzzled, but suggested that it was a calcium spur and I needed to have more tests done. He referred me to a neurologist. The neurologist did a thorough series of tests over a period of about three hours, and then ordered a set of MRIs (Magnetic Resonance Imaging).
On the night before I was supposed to go in for the MRIs, I woke up in a startled state, feeling like I had been thrown off a cliff. I thought I had bitten my tongue because the only thing I was aware of was a terrible sensation of something crunching in the back of my mouth, accompanied by terrible pain. This pain was so intense that the only thing I could think about in this altogether unusual state of waking up in that condition was to stop the pain. Also, my mouth seemed to be full of fluid, and I assumed I had bitten my tongue so severely that it was bleeding.
Now, certainly, this explanation I gave to myself in those first moments of waking up blinded by pain was reasonable. I had certainly bitten my tongue in my sleep a time or two during my life — especially when I was a child. But nothing quite like this had ever happened.
Since I was choking on the fluid in my mouth, I struggled to get up and get to the bathroom as quickly as possible. I leaned over the sink and spit out large quantities of blood. Quickly mixing up some warm salt water, I gargled and rinsed my mouth thoroughly until it seemed that the bleeding had stopped. Then, getting a flashlight so that I could see better, I began to examine my mouth to see exactly how much damage was done. What I found was that there was, indeed, an injury in my mouth, but it was at the back of my throat in a place that it was impossible for my teeth to have produced it! The pain was coming from this area, and was so severe that I had initially been unable to distinguish it from my tongue. But, now that things had calmed down a bit, now that the pain was receding, it was clear that it was localized at the very back of my throat.
Even though, at this point in time, I was fully aware of the many strange things that were reported by so-called abductees, I didn’t even want to consider such a thing. I kept trying to think of ways I could have injured my throat so severely during my sleep. Nothing seemed to make any sense, and I was left with a mystery.
The next morning, the MRIs were duly made. The only unusual thing that showed up on the films was the bulging of several discs that was a result of the injuries sustained in the accident. There was no sign of any strange object at the front of my cervical vertebrae.
Several months went by and the case was being passed back and forth between doctors and attorneys and a request came from the insurance company for the films to be sent to another doctor. The only problem was, they seemed to be missing.
Now, I never, at any time, had possession of these films. They were being sent around via standard methods of transferring files between medical offices. They had been sent directly to the neurologist who had ordered them, which is where I saw them. He then referred me to a neurosurgeon who wanted to operate on me, but I refused surgery. They were then, supposedly, sent back to the testing institution which was where they were supposed to be filed and kept. This is where they turned up missing.
Over a period of two weeks, I was contacted by the three separate medical offices where the films had passed through, each of them asking me for details about where I thought they might be. I was assured that each of them were employing their full staff to search for this expensive set of films. But still, they were nowhere to be found.
Finally, since the insurance company was exerting pressure to have them, and since no one could come up with an explanation for what happened to them, it was decided that the hospital where the films were taken — and where they had finally been lost — was obligated to replace them at their own expense. The young lady in charge of this department called me with many apologies to ask me if I would please come in to have a second set made. She explained all the things they had done to try to locate the films, and I could tell that there had been a lot of pressure on her about this because it was a lot of money.
I agreed to come in the following morning, and she would fit me in early. She apologized over and over again for the inconvenience.
In any event, as I went to bed, I was slightly worried about being able to go to sleep due to the strange events surrounding this loss of the films. After lying down, as I was thinking about the MRIs, there was a sudden sort of blank-out, and then I came to myself suddenly — again coming to awareness like I had been thrown off a cliff — and I realized that there were three spidery type creatures pulling and tugging on me, and it seemed that they were trying to float me out of the bed. What was even stranger was that I was fighting them like crazy. I had a death grip on the brass headboard, and it was like my body was being subjected to a tug of war! One of the creepy creatures was pulling on me by my ankle and I could distinctly feel a sort of cold fuzziness in the grip. The other two seemed to be trying to exert some kind of mind control on me, like trying to use their mental powers to make me submit. All of my body, except for my shoulders and head which were anchored by my grip on the bed, was suspended in air and seemed to be being sucked toward a small window (which I could not possibly have fit through!) and there seemed to be a sort of beam of light coming through this from the outside of the house! The bed was shaking and bouncing with the struggle taking place.
I was certainly a bit groggy and disoriented at first, as anyone would be to discover themselves in the middle of a violent fight in which their body is participating, only they haven’t been at all aware of it. It felt like the effects of a sleeping drug was wearing off. As it did, I became more alert and thought to myself, “Oh ho! So abductions do really happen! And here I am, being abducted! Well, guess what? I don’t like this, I don’t want this, and I am not going to cooperate. If those creepy jerks abduct me, it won’t be with my assistance!” In short, I was mad as heck!
The creatures seemed to be aware that I was awake and things were rapidly going south. At this point, one of them placed his hand on my head and a powerful paralysis began to spread over me from the head down. This seemed to be causing my eyes to close forcibly, as though the powerful sleeping drug was being re-administered.
I realized fully that I was somewhat helpless against this kind of technology but I still wasn’t going to give up. I was going to fight this sleep right to the last. I became even angrier and I threw down the mental gauntlet, so to say. I decided to “speak” to these creatures with my mind. I said, “You may be able to paralyze me and overcome my physical body, but I’ll fight you with everything I have, every chance I get, so don’t turn your backs on me or you’ll regret it!”
And then, with every bit of will I could muster, I struggled to curse them out loud. The only thing I actually managed to do was emit a strangled groan. But as I did this, as I achieved even this small bit of mastery over a small part of my physical body, a strange thing happened. With the uttering of this sound, the creatures seemed to become confused and disoriented and began to chatter in strange clicking sounds to each other and they dropped me as though I had become a hot potato! Then, they clustered together like frightened, twittering insects and just melted into a shimmery curtain beside the bed. This shimmering thing was very much like the heat waves you see on the highway far ahead when driving on a hot day.
Now, there are several strange things about this event that, I admit, could have just as well have been a sort of dream. One of these things is the fact that I was gripping the headboard with my left hand raised up above my head. What is so strange about that? Well, fact is, my left arm had been severely injured in the accident and was partially paralyzed. I hadn’t been able to lift it much above my waist for over a year much less use it to grip anything at all. I actually had to reach up with my right hand, uncurl my fingers from around the curling tubes of the headboard, and remove my hand and place my arm back at my side because I was unable to perform these small motions with that arm itself! Needless to say, I spent most of the night sitting up in a chair.
The next morning, the phone rang at about 7:30 as I was getting ready to go out the door. It was the hospital testing facility, the same young woman I had been talking to the previous day. She told me I didn’t have to come in, that the films had been found. The only thing she could not explain was how, and by whom, they had been found.
I was so curious about this strange turnaround of events that I asked questions. It turned out that the films were right there on her desk when she arrived that morning to open up the place. When I asked, “Who could have put them there?” her voice was a bit shaky as she explained that it was really impossible to figure out since she had locked up the night before, no one else could have been there except the janitor, and she was sure he hadn’t put the films on her desk because she asked him.
The whole thing is still a mystery.
Naturally, I asked the C’s about the event, though I didn’t want to be too specific in my questions because I didn’t want anyone else in the room, or at the board, to have any data that might skew the answers:
July 23, 1995
Q: (L) The first thing on my mind is an experience I had several nights ago. It seemed as though there was some sort of interaction between myself and something “other”. Could you tell me what this experience was?
A: Was eclipsing of the realities.
Q: (L) What is an eclipsing of the realities?
A: It is when energy centers conflict.
Q: (L) What energy centers are conflicting?
A: Thought energy centers.
Q: (L) Whose thoughts?
A: Thoughts are the basis of all creation. After all, without thought nothing would exist. Now would it?
Q: (L) True.
A: Therefore, energy centers conflicting involve thought patterns. You could refer to it as an intersecting of thought pattern energies. […]
Q: (L) I also seemed to be aware of several dark, spider-like figures lined up by the side of the bed. Was this an accurate impression.
A: Those could be described as specific thought center projections.
Q: (L) I seemed to be fighting and resisting this activity.
A: That was your choice. […]
Q: (L) At what level of density do these thought centers have their primary focus?
A: Thought centers do not have primary focus in any level of density. This is precisely the point. You are not completely familiar with the reality of what thoughts are. We have spoken to you on many levels and have detailed many areas involving density level, but thoughts are quite a different thing because they pass through all density levels at once. Now, let us ask you this. Do you not now see how that would be possible?
Q: (L) Yes. But what I am trying to do is identify these conflicting thought centers. If two thought centers, or more, conflict, then my idea would be that they are in opposition.
A: Correct. […]
Q: (L) Okay, in the experience I felt a paralysis of my body. What caused this paralysis?
A: Yes. Separation of awareness, which is defined as any point along the pathway where one’s awareness becomes so totally focused on one thought sector that all other levels of awareness are temporarily receded, thereby making it impossible to become aware of one’s physical reality along with one’s mental reality. This gives the impression of what is referred to as paralysis. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes. And what stimulates this total focus of awareness?
A: An event that sidetracks, temporarily, the mental processes.
Q: (L) And what event can sidetrack the mental processes to this extent?
A: Any number.
Q: (L) In this particular case, what was it?
A: It was an eclipsing of energies caused by conflicting thought centers. Whenever two opposing units of reality intersect, this causes what can be referred to as friction, which, for an immeasurable amount of what you would refer to as time, which is, of course, non-existent, creates a non-existence, or a stopping of the movements of all functions. This is what we would know as conflict. In between, or through any intersecting, opposite entities, we always find zero time, zero movement, zero transference, and zero exchange. Now think about this. Think about this carefully.
Q: (L) Does this mean that I was, essentially, in a condition of non-existence?
A: Well, non-existence is not really the proper term, but non-fluid existence would be more to the point. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes. Frozen, as it were?
A: Frozen, as it were.
Q: (L) Was there any benefit to me from this experience?
A: All experiences have potential for benefit.
Q: (L) Was there any detriment from this experience?
A: All experiences have potential for detriment. Now, do you see the parallels? We are talking about any opposing forces in nature, when they come together, the result can go all the way to the extreme of one side or all the way to the extreme of the other. Or, it can remain perfectly, symmetrically in balance in the middle, or partially in balance on one side or another. Therefore all potentials are realized at intersecting points in reality. […]
Q: (L) Was one of these conflicting thought centers or energies some part of me?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And was it eclipsed by interacting with a thought center energy that was part of or all of something or someone else?
A: Or, was what happened a conflicting of one energy thought center that was a part of your thought process and another energy thought center that was another part of your thought process? We will ask you that question and allow you to contemplate.
Q: (L) Does it ever happen that individuals who perceive or think they perceive themselves to have experienced an “abduction”, to actually be interacting with some part of themselves?
A: That would be a very good possibility. Now, before you ask another question, stop and contemplate for a moment: what possibilities does this open up? Is there any limit? And if there is, what is that? Is it not an area worth exploring? For example — just one example for you to digest — what if the abduction scenario could take place where your soul projection, in what you perceive as the future, can come back and abduct your soul projection in what you perceive as the present?
Q: (L) Oh, dear! Does this happen?
A: This is a question for you to ask yourself and contemplate.
Q: (L) Why would I do that to myself? (J) To gain knowledge of the future.
A: Are there not a great many possible answers?
Q: (L) Well, this seemed to be a very frightening and negative experience. If that is the case: a) maybe that is just my perception, or b) then, in the future I am not a very nice person! (J) Or maybe the future isn’t very pleasant. And the knowledge that you gained of it is unpleasant.
A: Or is it one possible future, but not all possible futures? And is the pathway of free will not connected to all of this?
Q: (L) God! I hope so.
A: Now do you see the benefit in slowing down and not having prejudices when asking questions of great import? You see when you speed too quickly in the process of learning and gathering knowledge; it is like skipping down the road without pausing to reflect on the ground beneath you. One misses the gold coins and the gemstones contained within the cracks in the road. […]
Q: (L) Okay, when this experience occurred, am I to assume that some part of myself, a future self perhaps, of course they are all simultaneous but just for the sake of reference, came back and interacted with my present self for some purpose of exchange?
A: Well this is a question best left for your own exploration, as you will gain more knowledge by contemplating it by yourself rather than seeking the answers here. But a suggestion is to be made that you do that as you will gain much, very much knowledge by contemplating these very questions on your own and networking with others as you do so. Be not frustrated for the answers to be gained through your own contemplation will be truly illuminating to you and the experience to follow will be worth a thousand lifetimes of pleasure and joy.
What can we deduce about the Eclipsing of Realities discussion?
The first thing that occurs to me is a result of a conversation I had with an individual who visited me a few days ago. There are a number of events in my life that I am not yet ready to talk about publicly, but which I shared with this lady in the course of our discussion.1 At one point, she made the remark that, in her opinion, my life experiences had been a sort of microcosmic example of the battle between the forces of good and evil — that my very physical body, soul and mind had been the battleground. It was her opinion that the “good guys” had won because, in the end, all the physical, mental and spiritual destruction that had been effected against me had been healed, reversed, and/or restored to proper function and balance.
This is, in some sense, true. But, what does it mean if we wish to apply it globally? Or even just for some others?
The Cassiopaeans said I experienced a conflict of thought centers. This was further elaborated:
We are talking about any opposing forces in nature, when they come together, the result can go all the way to the extreme of one side or all the way to the extreme of the other. Or, it can remain perfectly, symmetrically in balance in the middle, or partially in balance on one side or another. Therefore all potentials are realized at intersecting points in reality…
I was told to contemplate the issues involved and that “answers to be gained through your own contemplation will be truly illuminating to you and the experience to follow will be worth a thousand lifetimes of pleasure and joy”.
In the simplest of terms, the experience of “Eclipsing Realities” led to my full perception of reality in the so-called objective view that we have already discussed. More than that, it also led to my making choices — life changing choices — that effectively changed my reality. Perhaps in a very literal sense. Within eight months of the Eclipsing of Realities event, I had asked for a divorce from my husband, and within four months of that event, I had met Ark. Two years later, we were married. There was a remark made at one of the sessions that emphasized this point:
January 4, 1997
A: Because of already given data that is elementary my dear, Martin, elementary!
Q: (L) I am not Martin anymore! So there!
A: You are in an alternate reality.
Martin was my former married name.
So, when the realities eclipsed, some sort of choice was made at a deep level as to whether I was going to continue to live in STS-oriented wishful thinking that all would become “love and light”, if I just kept trying to “fix it”, which constitutes the ongoing condition of being food for higher density beings; or if I was going to open my eyes and see. It seems that my choice to resist the activity taking place was the symbol of the shift that then began to manifest in my ordinary life as life-changing choices.
What if the abduction scenario could take place where your soul projection, in what you perceive as the future, can come back and abduct your soul projection in what you perceive as the present?
It seems that, if I had continued in the old life, the wishful thinking subjective version of reality, where I was still Martin, I would have progressed to a point in space-time when I became those horrible creatures that were trying to abduct me (through the incarnational processes, of course)!
Now, I did not change my reality by visualization, or affirmations or any of the standard teachings about creating your own reality. In fact, if anything, I did exactly the opposite. What actually happened was, I opened my eyes and I completely lost hope in the world as it is ever being anything other than full of darkness and deception and horror and pain, and I chose to continue to live in this world, to do what I could, but not be “of the world”.
I wonder if this was what Don Elkins saw? If so, it is indeed sad that he did not have the information about how this state is essential, how this state can be used by dark forces to derail the spiritual seeker who must go through it in order to be “born again”.
How does one become born again”? It is just as traumatic as being born the first time, if not more so!
Taking my first breath in the new reality, I made a conscious choice to limit my participation in this deception foisted on mankind. I consciously decided that I was no longer going to lie — to myself or to anyone else — about how I felt or what I wanted. I was no longer going to lie about what I liked or didn’t like or what I did or did not want to do. I was no longer going to lie to myself that my suffering and sacrifices had any benefit for anyone whatsoever; because it was clear to me that this was not true. It was all an illusion or delusion. In short, I was no longer going to lie to myself about reality at all.
When I looked at a flower I was going to remember the decay and death in the soil from which the flower drew its nourishment. When I looked at a cat or a dog, I was going to remember the fleas and parasites and killing and eating of other creatures that goes on all the time in the animal world. When I looked at a beautiful and peaceful lake, I was going to remember the loads of disease causing organisms multiplying prolifically beneath the shining, mirrored surface.
Sounds pretty bizarre, yes? But it had a strange effect.
Because I was no longer lying to myself about anything that existed, least of all myself, my nature, my being, I was free to choose what to manifest in every instant. Knowing that all of these shadows existed within me, in my very DNA, my flesh, my evolved self; knowing that I had experienced many lifetimes dealing death and destruction on my own, or suffering the same at the hands of others, I was free to choose. And further, I knew that the choice was free! If I had chosen to follow the path of STS, to dive back into the illusion, there would be no blame. As Ra said: The ALL blinks neither at the darkness nor at the light.
There was no longer any blame for anything. It was just what is. This is nature. This is God. And God has two faces: Good and Evil. We can love them both, but we can choose which face we manifest, while always loving unconditionally both faces.
This state of the world is masterfully depicted in Tennessee Williams’ play Suddenly Last Summer where Mrs. Venable says:
We saw the Encantadas, but on the Encantadas we saw something Melville hadn’t written about. We saw the great sea turtles crawl up out of the sea for their annual egg-laying… Once a year the female of the sea turtle crawls up out of the equatorial sea onto the blazing sand-beach of a volcanic island to dig a pit in the sand and deposit her eggs there. It’s a long and dreadful thing, the depositing of the eggs in the sandpits, and when it’s finished the exhausted female turtle crawls back to the sea half-dead. She never sees her offspring, but we did. Sebastian knew exactly when the sea-turtle eggs would be hatched out and we returned in time for it…
Terrible. Encantadas, those heaps of extinct volcanoes, in time to witness the hatching of the sea turtles and their desperate flight to the sea! The narrow beach, the color of caviar, was all in motion! But the sky was in motion too… Full of flesh-eating birds and the noise of the birds, the horrible savage cries of the — carnivorous birds… Over the narrow black beach of the Encantadas as the just hatched sea-turtles scrambled out of the sandpits and started their race to the sea… to escape the flesh-eating birds that made the sky almost as black as the beach!
And the sand all alive, all alive, as the hatched sea turtles made their dash for the sea, while the birds hovered and swooped to attack and hovered and swooped to attack! They were diving down on the hatched sea-turtles, turning them over to expose their soft undersides, tearing the undersides open and rending and eating their flesh. Sebastian guessed that possibly only a hundredth of one per cent of their number would escape to the sea…
My son was looking for God, I mean for a clear image of him. He spent that whole blazing equatorial day in the crow’s nest of the schooner watching this thing on the beach till it was too dark to see it, and when he came down the rigging he said “Well, now I’ve seen Him!” and he meant God. And for several weeks after that he had a fever, he was delirious with it.2
There I was, having my own “sea-turtle” experience and yes, I was sick for a long time after. What happened was, my entire system nearly shut down completely. It is curious to me that, faced with the destruction of every fairy tale I ever believed in about the world, I couldn’t cry. At least not in the regular way. The pain was far too deep for ordinary tears. I literally cried blood. My eyes swelled up with inflammation that did not respond to medical treatment of various sorts that were tried. (I even went to a specialist, and nothing helped.) My eyes constantly poured what is called sero-sanguinous fluid — blood and serum — in such quantities that it ran down my cheeks continuously for weeks. I really understood what it meant to say, “Let this cup pass from me!” I was looking at reality, and it nearly killed me.
The life changing difference was what I eventually chose to do with this vision. The key is in the above extract from the Cassiopaean material where it says:
…Is it one possible future, but not all possible futures? And is the pathway of free will not connected to all of this?
Q: (L) I seemed to be fighting and resisting this activity.
A: That was your choice… Be not frustrated; for the answers to be gained through your own contemplation will be truly illuminating to you, and the experience to follow will be worth a thousand lifetimes of pleasure and joy.
Now, we are brought back face to face with our objective view of reality and our free will.
I knew I was “Seeing God”. But, in the end, my choice was to love Him anyway. More than that, my choice was to make manifest those aspects of God in myself, that were of Love and Beauty and Truth as a free will choice. I was not choosing out of fear, even a hidden fear, such as is present in most people who adhere to the love and light routine and eschew any knowledge of the darkness.
If one were present at such an event as the hatching of the turtles, would it be right to rescue the turtles, to kill or scare away the birds? Both represent aspects, or Faces, of God, and both have a right to exist in their own context and to survive in their own way, so it would be wrong to interfere. But I would be hoping that some of the baby turtles would have the sense to wait until dark to make their dash to the sea! Perhaps I might walk back and forth along the beach to act as a “scarecrow” against the devouring birds. Perhaps that is how knowledge can work in our lives? Perhaps that is how the Cassiopaeans relate to us — only with somewhat more complexity.
When you love your cat or dog, do you love them less for eating or killing other creatures? So what that he doesn’t need to do it in his nice, warm, human home where dinner comes in a can. Leave him outdoors and on his own for a bit and he will soon enough eat whatever is there. Will you then reject him, love him less, or pretend that he — and dogs in general — do not exist?
Is this consuming aspect of our reality less acceptable when it reaches a conscious level, such as that of human beings? Are we not still to love all that exists as part of Nature, as part of God, and to accept it and allow it to be as it is — even while managing the delicate aspect of ensuring our own continuing right to exist and be?
And, if we do this, and further, if we choose to limit our participation in the consuming aspect to as great a degree as possible, can we think that we have learned one of the most valuable lessons of our reality? The lesson of what Love truly is? That Love is to love ALL, unconditionally, with no need or desire to change anything? That only in this state of Love — objective Love — can we truly have Free Will?
In point of fact, that is the true meaning of the much-touted “unconditional love”. If you are going to love anything or anybody in spite of what it is or what they do, thinking that your love changes something, then you do not love unconditionally. You are loving your illusion of what might be, not what is.
Further, loving unconditionally means to love the self in the same way. If your “unconditional love” of another means that you must act in any way other than what is authentic to you, then you haven’t gotten it. Further, if this other person does not love you in the same way, allowing you to be fully accepted as you are, and you think that by continuing to hold them close and love them unconditionally, that they will finally figure it out and change, then you have already violated the law of unconditional love. In terms of daily living, you can only live in unconditional love with another who understands it in exactly the same way you do.
I realized this. And I made my choice, as I said, to limit my participation in the lies and delusions to as great an extent as possible. This meant that I could no longer remain in close relationships that were less than fully reciprocal in terms of this kind of love. I understood clearly that this probably meant living entirely alone and loving the world and others unconditionally from a distance which was the only way I could see that it would be possible in practical terms. I could see that allowing myself to be used for energy food in a personal relationship of compromises was not in the best interests of anyone I loved, nor was it in my best interests. (And the same applies in practical considerations of law and order as well.)
Thus, I made the decisions I made, acted on them, and the result was nothing short of amazing.
Now, how does this apply globally to our question?
It means that in the upcoming times, we may be very much like the newly hatched turtles on the Encantadas. There are beings all around us who are like the ravenous, carnivorous birds. We do have a chance to get to the sea. What’s more, with awareness, we can do a lot more than that! We may, in fact, with growing awareness, be able to change one probable future to another.
Why would there be so much deception in our world if it were not for the fact that there is some quality, some aspect of ourselves that the ones who seek to keep us blind and unaware wish to keep hidden? Why else would there be such a plethora of teachings in the present day that tend to soften and weaken our resistance by appealing to our love of ease and comfort and status quo? Further, why is the teaching about Love, itself, so horribly distorted?
February 24, 1996
Q: (L) Mike Lindemann3 has proposed that we submit the channeling to “rigorous testing”.
A: Mike Lindemann does not channel, now does he? What sort of rigorous testing does he propose?
Q: (L) He didn’t say. I guess they want short-term predictions and all sorts of little tests…
A: Precisely, now what does this tell you?
Q: (L) It tells us that he wants proof.
A: Third density “proof” does not apply, as we have explained again and again. Now, listen very carefully: if proof of that type were possible, what do you suppose would happen to free will, and thusly to learning, Karmic Directive Level One?
Q: (L) Well, I guess that if there is proof, you are believing in the proof and not the spirit of the thing. You are placing your reliance upon a material thing. You have lost your free will. Someone has violated your free will by the act of proving something to you.
A: If anyone CHOOSES to believe, that is their prerogative! And what would constitute proof?
Q: (L) Predictions that came true, answers that were verifiable about a number of things. Physical phenomena.
A: Those would still be dismissed by a great many as mere coincidences. We have already given predictions, will continue to do so, but remember, “time” does not exist. This is a 3rd density illusion. We do not play in that sandbox and cannot and never will. The primary reason for our communication is to help you to learn by teaching yourselves to learn, thereby strengthening your soul energy, and assisting your advancement.
Q: (L) Are you saying that your primary reason is just to teach us? This small group?
A: Because you asked for help.
Q: (L) So, you came through because we asked. Is this material being given to others, or is it designed to or intended to be shared with others?
A: If they ask in the necessary way. Otherwise, the sharing of the messages we give to you will teach millions of others.
Q: (L) What is the “necessary way”?
A: How “long did it take you?”
Q: (L) Well, it took all our lives and a lot of hard work.
A: Okay, now what did we mean when we referred to “millions of others”?
Q: (L) Are you saying that this information will be transmitted in some way to millions of others?
A: In what way?
Q: (L) Well, the only thing I can think of is through writing.
A: Bingo!!
Q: (W) That’s a lot of work.
A: The work has been ongoing, W!
Q: (W) Well, it all has to be typed, and edited, and correlated and put in a cohesive form, and it will be a couple of years. […]
A: All will be taken care of, and no, W!
Q: (W) Well, I was thinking of the time frame and so many things are getting ready to happen any time now. It seems like the information needs to get out there soon, or it will be obsolete.
A: Prejudice serves no purpose! Also, who says that the information is going to be obsolete? Wait and see.
And more on the subject of proof versus strength:
April 18, 1998
A: We wish to reiterate something further on this subject A***, and for anyone else in need of the following message: we are not communicating with you in order to “prove” our existence. If one has faith and is willing to learn, to explore new realms and to discover what will one “day” be commonplace awareness profile, then no “proof” is necessary. If, on the other hand, one is of the opposite psychic orientation, then no amount of proof is adequate.
Q: (A) Yes, I think it is like the story of the magic crocodile skin where you can make wishes on it, and with every wish it becomes smaller. And, you are told that when it becomes too small, then you die. And, of course, you try, and say “let me do one more wish…” and that is it. Once you make the choice to ask and not do the work, then it becomes easier and easier and you want more and more… and your own will and force becomes smaller and smaller…
Q: (L) I think that the most important thing that has come out of this channeling is that sometimes the C’s sort of trick me into trying something and they pique my curiosity and I go out and do something that results in a learning experience that is truly awesome. And the important thing is, getting out and doing the work actually makes you stronger. And, like you just said, each time you make the choice to not go after the answer yourself, to try and get it the easy way, it makes you weaker and lessens who you are. It is sort of a nonlinear principle that can lead to all kinds of things. If they gave us all the conceptual truths, we would have lost something huge in the way of strength and free will. Like those sources that supposedly gave the secrets of the bomb… and other sources that just give and give all sorts of things and you can clearly see the deterioration of those involved… (F) Yes, and the crucial point is the robbing of free will initiative. (L) So, it is a very subtle thing.
June 19, 1999
A: Have we not already indicated? Knowledge is power. If we give it to you like Halloween candy, it is diffused.
Again, I want to repeat what the Cassiopaeans have said about studying and learning by work and effort:
Subtle answers that require effort to dissect promote intensified learning. Learning is an exploration followed by the affirmation of knowing through discovery. Learning is necessary for progress of soul… this is how you are building your power center… Patience serves the questor of hidden knowledge… Search your “files”… Learning is sometimes best accomplished by study and exploration… There are other clues that you can discover by your own study…
In more recent times, they have specifically addressed Ark and yours truly with the following:
Combine energies in pursuit of answers, and the rest falls into place. You and Arkadiusz are complementary souls. Karmic Destiny Level One Mission.
Thus, we work, we pursue answers, and we experiment in many ways to discover the secrets that can be shared with others on the same path. And it is in this process that many interesting ideas have come forth. Remember the scenario of my correspondent:
In short as you said to the Cassies the picture looks ugly. They said that you seem to think that only good experience is useful, well no, but at least there is usually a mix of good and bad but in their scenario we are all for the high jump with no mat on the other side though. (Splat)
Relating this to the Eclipsing of Realities, it seems that from the descriptions of The Wave, it must be a macro-scale Eclipsing of the Realities. It has been described in many of the same terms as my own experience that resulted in changing my reality. If that is the case, and resistance was my choice, and that resistance resulted in the seeding of a new state of existence, would it then follow that similar actions in regard to the future of the human race could have the same effect?
To put it another way, as a member of our discussion group pointed out:
The [spider-like beings] aspect might have been there to provide you with the experience to “nudge” you in the direction you are upon to provide yet again, balance; and this may have been actually a necessary contribution to obtain it.
Thus, by being presented with the objective truth of our reality, are we not being nudged to make a choice? And if, in fact, we do actually get invaded by aliens, will that not also be an experience that stimulates choice?
The question becomes: why are we supposed to be building strength of soul and will and awareness if we are not supposed to do something with it? I leave you with that question.
3 The most recent “bio” on Mike tells us: “From Dec 1994 to June 2000 he was editor and publisher of the online journal CNI News (www.cninews.com), reporting the latest in UFO research and the scientific quest for life in the universe; and from Jan 1999 to May 2000 he was editor and publisher of Global Situation Report (www.gsreport.com), covering events and trends shaping the new millennium. He discontinued those publications in June 2000 in order to join a new media company called Project Voyager (www.projectvoyager.com) that will focus on global trends and the human future. Michael is also author of the book UFOs and the Alien Presence: Six Viewpoints (1991; revised edition 1997) and has been a featured speaker at scores of UFO conferences across the U.S. and abroad. In October 1998 and again in July 1999, Michael co-organized and participated in a private think-tank project called the Contact Planning Sessions, in which business executives, NASA scientists, military officers, academicians, media professionals and futurists came together under confidential conditions to discuss the real social and political outcomes of contact with extraterrestrial intelligence. Michael has a passionate side interest in the planet Mars and plans to visit the moon as a tourist by the year 2020, preferably with his wife Deborah Lindemann, a professional hypnotherapist.” (projectvoyager.com) My own opinion is that he may very well be part of the COINTELPRO of the New Age Movement.
November 24, 1994
All there is is lessons. This is one infinite school. There is no other reason for anything to exist. Even inanimate matter learns it is all an “Illusion”. Each individual possesses all of creation within their minds. Now, contemplate for a moment. Each soul is all-powerful and can create or destroy all existence if [they] know how. You and us and all others are interconnected by our mutual possession of all there is. You may create alternative universes if you wish and dwell within. You are all a duplicate of the universe within which you dwell. Your mind represents all that exists. It is “fun” to see how much you can access.
Q: (L) It’s fun for whom to see how much we can access?
A: All. Challenges are fun. Where do you think the limit of your mind is?
Q: (L) Where?
A: We asked you.
Q: (L) Well, I guess there is no limit.
A: If there is no limit, then what is the difference between your own mind and everything else?
Q: (L) Well, I guess there is no difference if all is ultimately One.
A: Right. And when two things each have absolutely no limits, they are precisely the same thing
The above remarks by the Cassiopaeans reflect the general core of many teachings down through the ages. So what’s the difference between what the Cassiopaeans are saying and what has already been said?
Perhaps we can answer that question with another one: what good is it to know all the other things that the Cassiopaeans have told us? What practical purpose does it serve?
I am a very practical person. For me, and for my husband, Ark, it is the results that count. I guess you could call it the “Fruits agenda” derived from the saying: “By their fruits you shall know them.” It’s all fine and good to have a philosophical view of the world that admits to an underlying unity of everything, but for all practical purposes, despite the claims of numerous teachers and gurus down through history, including a plethora of New Age promoters of the “You create your own reality” ilk, we can see that this is somehow not precisely applicable in our world.
Yet, the Cassiopaeans have just said it. But, they said something else: “IF YOU KNOW HOW.”
Clearly that is the problem. We don’t know how. And it is in the knowing how, the developing of the tools of the mind and psyche that there seems to be a difference. In plain words: what the Cassiopaeans are saying about our reality, when applied in the ways that become obvious when one is aware, works.
We have been dealing with this issue from a couple of different perspectives already, and now I want to go in a different direction to see if we can’t get a better handle on all of this.
In addition to my idea of the Fruits agenda, there is also what I call the “Mumbo Jumbo factor”. I have two six foot tall, three foot wide, bookcases here in the house filled with what I jokingly refer to as the Mumbo Jumbo category. I am not sure what the Dewey decimal system would make of this, but after I read a book, I can generally tell if it goes in that particular section.
I really don’t like ambiguity. And it seems that much, if not most, information that comes down to us from so-called higher sources is very ambiguous. Terry once asked a question that opened a door to helping me understand this:
November 26, 1994
Q: (T) One last question. How do I know you are telling me the truth?
A: Open. For you to decide. Listen: Now would be a good “time” for you folks to begin to reexamine some of the extremely popular “Earth Changes” prophecies. Why, you ask. Because, remember, you are third density beings, so real prophecies are being presented to you in terms you will understand, i.e., physical realm, i.e., Earth Changes. This “may” be symbolism. Would most students of the subject understand if prophecies were told directly in fourth density terms?
Q: (L) Is this comparable to my idea about dream symbolism? For example, the dream I had about the curling cloud, which I saw in a distance and knew it was death dealing and I interpreted it to be a tornado, but it was, in fact, a dream of the Challenger disaster. I understood it to be a tornado, but in fact, what I saw was what I got: a death dealing force in the sky, a vortex, in the distance. I guess my dream was a fourth density representation but I tried to interpret it in terms I was familiar with. Is this what you mean?
A: Close. But it is easy for most to get bogged down by interpreting prophecies in literal terms.
Q: (L) In terms of these Earth Changes, Edgar Cayce is one of the most famous prognosticators of recent note. A large number of the prophecies he made seemingly were erroneous in terms of their fulfillment. For example, he prophesied that Atlantis would rise in 1969, but it did not, though certain structures were discovered off the coast of Bimini, which are thought by many to be remnants of Atlantis. These did, apparently, emerge from the sand at that time.
A: Example of one form of symbolism.
Q: (L) Well, in terms of this symbolism, could it be that [when you tell us things about our reality], you read events from third density into sixth density terms and then transmit them back into third; and while the ideation can be correct, the exact specifics, in third density terms, can be slightly askew due to our perceptions. Is that what we are dealing with here?
A: 99.9 per cent would not understand that concept. Most are always looking for literal translations of data. Analogy is: novice, who attends art gallery, looks at abstract painting and says, “I don’t get it.”
Q: (L) Well, let’s not denigrate literal translations or at least attempts to get things into literal terms. I like realistic artwork. I am a realist in my art preferences. I want trees to look like trees and people to have only two arms and legs. Therefore, I also like some literalness in my prognostications.
A: Some is okay, but, beware or else “California falls into the ocean” will always be interpreted as California falling into the ocean.
Q: [General uproar.] (F) Wait a minute, what was the question? (L) I just said I liked literalness in my prophecies. (F) Oh, I know what they are saying. People believe that California is just going to go splat! And that Phoenix is going to be on the seacoast; never mind that it’s at 1800 feet elevation, it’s just going to drop down to sea level; or the sea level is going to rise; but it’s not going to affect Virginia Beach even though that’s at sea level! I mean… somehow Phoenix is just going to drop down and none of the buildings are going to be damaged, even though its going to fall 1,800 feet… (T) Slowly. It’s going to settle! (F) Slowly? It would have to be so slowly it’s unbelievable how slowly it would have to be! (T) It’s been settling for the last five million years, we’ve got a ways to go in the next year and a half! (F) Right! That’s my point! (T) In other words, when people like Scallion and Sun Bear and others who say California is going to fall into the ocean, they are not saying that the whole state, right along the border is going to fall into the ocean, they are using the term “California” to indicate that the ocean ledge along the fault line has a probability of breaking off and sinking on the water side, because it is a major fracture. We understand that that is not literal. Are you telling us that there is more involved here as far as the way we are hearing what these predictions say?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) So, when we talk about California falling into the ocean, we are not talking about the whole state literally falling into the ocean?
A: In any case, even if it does, how long will it take to do this?
Q: (LM) It could take three minutes or three hundred years. (T) Yes. That is “open” as you would say.
A: Yes. But most of your prophets think it is not open.
Q: (T) Okay. So they are thinking in the terms that one minute California will be there and a minute and a half later it will be all gone. Is this what you are saying?
A: Or similar.
Q: (T) So, when we are talking: “California will fall into the ocean,” which is just the analogy we are using, we are talking about the possibility that several seismic events along the fault line, which no one really knows the extent of…
A: Or it all may be symbolic of something else.
Q: (L) Such as? Symbolic of what?
A: Up to you to examine and learn.
Q: (L) Now, wait a minute here! That’s like sending us out to translate a book in Latin without even giving us a Latin dictionary.
A: No it is not. We asked you to consider a reexamination.
Q: (L) You have told us that there is a cluster of comets connected in some interactive way with our solar system, and that this cluster of comets comes into the plane of the ecliptic every 3,600 years. Is this correct?
A: Yes. But, this time it is riding realm border wave to 4th level, where all realities are different.
Q: (L) Okay, so the cluster of comets is riding the realm border wave. Does this mean that when it comes into the solar system, that its effect on the solar system, or the planets within the solar system, (J) or us… (L) …may or may not be mitigated by the fact of this transition? Is this a mitigating factor?
A: Will be mitigated [made less severe].
Q: (L) Does this mean that all of this running around and hopping and jumping to go here and go there and do this and do that is…
A: That is strictly 3rd level thinking.
Q: (L) Now, if that is third level thinking, and if a lot of these things are symbolic, I am assuming they are symbolic of movement or changes in energy.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, if these changes in energy occur does this mean that the population of the planet are, perhaps, in groups or special masses of groups, are they defined as the energies that are changing in these descriptions of events and happenings of great cataclysm? Is it like a cataclysm of the soul on an individual and or collective basis?
A: Close.
Q: (L) When the energy changes to fourth density, and you have already told us that people who are moving to fourth density when the transition occurs, that they will move into fourth density, go through some kind of rejuvenation process, grow new teeth, or whatever; what happens to those people who are not moving to fourth density, and who are totally unaware of it? Are they taken along on the wave by, in other words, piggybacked by, the ones who are aware and already changing in frequency, or are they going to be somewhere else doing something else?
A: Step by step.
Q: (T) In other words, we are looking at the fact that what’s coming this time is a wave that’s going to allow the human race to move to fourth density?
A: And the planet and your entire sector of space-time.
Q: (T) Is that what this whole plan is about, then, if I may be so bold as to include all of us here in this. We could be beings who have come here into human form, to anchor the frequency. Is this what we are anchoring it for, for this Wave; so that when it comes enough of us will be ready, the frequency will be set, so that the change in the planet can take place as it has been planned?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, when the people are talking about the earth changes, when they talk in literal terms about the survivors, and those who are not going to survive, and the destruction and so forth and so on, in fourth, fourth, and fifth level reality, we are not talking about the destruction of the planet on fourth level physical terms, or the loss of 90 per cent of the population on the fourth level because they died, but because they are going to move to fourth level?
A: Whoa! You are getting “warm”.
Q: (T) Okay. So, we are anchoring this. So, when they talk about 90 per cent of the population not surviving, it is not that they are going to die, but that they are going to transform. We are going to go up a level. This is what the whole light thing is all about?
A: Or another possibility is that the physical cataclysms will occur only for those “left behind” on the remaining 3rd level density earth.
Q: (T) Okay, what you are saying, then, is that we are anchoring the frequency, so that when the Wave comes, we move to fourth level density as many people as possible, in order to break the hold the “Dark T-shirts” (as Barbara Marciniak calls them) have got on this planet. Those who remain behind will not have enough energy left for the “Dark T-shirts” to bother with the planet any longer. There will be less of them so the planet will be able to refresh and they will be able to move on in their lessons without interference?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Let me get this straight. At this point of dimensional transition, is what we are doing, anchoring a frequency, are we creating a sort of network that will literally create another earth in fourth density, which will then exist in fourth density, and the old fourth density earth — almost like the splitting of a one celled organism, only in this splitting one half of it moves into another dimension and is energized and quite literally created by the anchoring frequency, while the old one remains and experiences fourth density reality?
A: Step by step.
Q: (L) Are we anchoring frequency to create a split?
A: One developing conduit.
Q: (L) We are developing a conduit?
A: Yes. One.
Q: (J) How many conduits do we need?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Is this conduit going to allow those who remain behind to be able to move to fourth density easier when they are ready?
A: No.
Q: (T) What is the conduit for?
A: You and those who will follow you.
Q: (L) This conduit. Is this a conduit through which an entire planet will transition?
A: You are one. There are others.
Q: (J) So, at this point we are developing a conduit?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) There are other groups on this planet developing their own conduits?
A: Yes. Knowledge is the key to developing a conduit.
Q: (T) I am working on the assumption that all of us here are part of the family of light, is this true?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And we have been drawn together in order to develop this conduit from where we are?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Are there others in this area?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Are they supposed to join with us or are they working on their own?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Okay, so it is up in the air as to whether we join with them, they join with us, or we all work independently. We’re developing a conduit to move us from fourth density to fourth density. Once we have moved through the conduit does that mean we have completed what we came here to do, and that is anchor the frequency?
A: Partly.
Q: (T) Is the conduit kind of like an escape hatch for us?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Let me get this straight. When we move through this conduit, are the other…
A: You will be on the 4th level earth as opposed to 3rd level earth.
Q: (L) What I am trying to get here, once again, old practical Laura is trying to get a handle on practical terms here. Does this mean that a fourth density earth and a third density earth will coexist side by side…
A: Not side-by-side, totally different realms.
Q: (L) Do these realms interpenetrate one another but in different dimensions…
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, in other words, a being from say, sixth density, could look at this planet we call the earth and see it spinning through space and see several dimensions of earth, and yet the point of space-time occupation is the same, in other words, simultaneous. (J) They can look down but we can’t look up.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, while all of this cataclysmic activity is happening on the third density earth, we will be just on our fourth density earth and this sort of thing won’t be there, and we won’t see the third density people and they won’t see us because we will be in different densities which are not “en rapport”, so to speak?
A: You understand concept, now you must decide if it is factual.
Well, I tried! I was really getting close and then they went ambiguous on me! But the important thing is the fact that the Cassiopaeans were trying to get a point across about Symbols of Reality. They are proposing to us the idea that our reality is a symbolic one. But, remember the first quote:
Each soul is all-powerful and can create or destroy all existence if [they] know how. You and us and all others are interconnected by our mutual possession of all there is. You may create alternative universes if you wish and dwell within. You are all a duplicate of the universe within which you dwell. Your mind represents all that exists. It is “fun” to see how much you can access.
We have already talked about reality being pseudo-symbolic; that is, our world is most likely a limited version of a greater reality like Plato’s shadows on the wall of the cave were symbols of a greater reality; but even when talking about hyper-dimensional space and fourth density, we are still speaking in a material sense. Remember the tesseract?1 Well, now we are going to talk about all of it being symbolic in another sense: symbols of ideas and energies in a strictly non-material sense.
Further, as we go along (in this book and others in the Wave series), we are going to talk about the possible realities behind these symbols of third and fourth density — and most importantly, the reason it is the way it is. And this, we will find, relates directly to the ambiguity of information from higher realms. Michael Topper writes about this ambiguity, or Mumbo Jumbo factor in the following:
We consult the channeler because, basically, we are concerned, in a very ordinary conceptual way, like every personality anxiously poised on the psychological tight wire spanning the temporalized chasm of existence. […]
It would always be oh so helpful if we could see the future in advance, be informed of the respective consequences in the alternatives confronting the present perplexing moment of decision.
We would like if possible, to be underwritten not only for our monetary but also for our psychic commitments; insured in advance against the usual contingencies. And the channeler proffers the prospect of just this excelsior potential. […]
The myriad channeled voices to which we have been opened in recent years do indeed present an avalanche of prediction, of advice on principle and in particular, and a massive characterization of planes, states, levels and dimensions of reality which introduce whole other magnitudes to the ultimate questions of purpose and consequence.
Through the innumerable contributions of channeled sources we have been, in a certain sense, asked to reappraise the whole matter of success in terms beyond the conventional, so that the horizon upon which the grail of accomplishment rests has been, as it were, elevated; the sights raised to the prospect of a more comprehensive and crucial, indeed sacred, focus.
On the “plus” side then, the phenomenon of channeling has supplied a verbal chorus of confirmation tending collectively to install our usual questions and concerns in a setting offset by distinct considerations of Soul.
The “answers” to our most mundane queries as to future, choice and result have been furnished a whole additional dimension of meaning.
The most casual skimmer of “channeled” material can’t help but perceive, at least implicitly, the bearing, which every conventional ego-choice has upon the larger destiny of soul-growth. Never mind for the time being that such emphatic intimations result from a cutting in, an abrupt verbal tunneling of the basic meditative stream that was ostensibly moving toward the unique value of personal (unmediated) cognition and direct perception of those very, spiritual and high-psychic modes now presented by descriptive approximation.
Never mind that the whole phenomenon seems, in a certain light, to express the impatience of higher-dimensional intelligence long waiting for the sluggish personal development characteristic of this “material plane”.
And so, they simply intrude with the necessary packets of information at the minimal achievement of some meditative quietude.
To be fair, some “channeling” circumstances seem to promote the actual personal progress of the channeler in gaining direct access to the planes, states, phenomena and degrees of mind-body integration otherwise only described or verbally characterized by ventriloquist voice-transmission (cf. the Seth material, and the late Jane Roberts’ occasional description of her personal development in “inner plane” understanding).
But for the most part, the expressed Ryerson2 attitude prevails. This amounts to a curious dissociation between the person of the channeler and the content of the communication resulting practically in an overall substitution of the description for the thing described.
More immediately, on the minus side of the phenomenon we end up (in this avalanche of description from various sources) with a collision rather than a smooth confluence of materials. At the “higher” levels of consciousness (not limited to the space-time framework of the blindered channeler) there still seems to be contention or discrepancy in the respective characterizations of Reality; there still seems to be division regarding that which is perceived or known even in these greater and more allegedly comprehensive Domains of Knowing.
Any who’ve scanned more than one of these sources in print, or compared notes with “live” sessions attended, are bound to notice (if minimally conscious) that, beneath the general agreement as to the existence of higher states and planes, of different orders of knowledge and action from those assumed in the context of strictly physical expression there is a welter of large and small divergences ranging from minor variations to an embarrassment of glaring contradictions.
This is explained in one such source. Cosmic Revelation “channeled” by Virginia Essene and Ann Valentin, as the inevitable condition of confusion resulting from the urgent/unprecedented need of the higher dimensions to disseminate changing patterns of information belonging to “revamped educational programs,” brought about by this critical epoch of transition through which we’re hesitantly passing.
Such confusion, according to this source results from the requirement of transmission along the spiritual hierarchy of inner plane beings through which such “information”, formulated at the highest levels, must pass.
Consistent with what may be gathered from other source-channels, the various levels along which the orders of intelligence transmit the flow of data “downward” formulate the patterns of information according to the understanding of their particular plane. Tinctured already by that qualification, the information may receive its most noticeable distortion at the level of the channeler where, according to the variable of the given “linkage” there may be greater or lesser reliance on the personal memory-record, conceptual matrix or vocabulary of the channeling agent.
The resultant verbal product is, in any case, several dimensional steps removed from the originating Intention.
Add to this the recognition that all such knowledge emanates in its highest form from levels of creative intelligence that are basically nonverbal and that conduct all processes of knowing in abstract spiritual terms not directly translatable into concepts congenial to a physically-focused framework, and we seem to have on the surface a convenient explanation as to why Seth and Hilarion don’t agree, why Ramtha and the “Christ” material of The New Teachings apparently quarrel on the shelves. (Emphases added.)
Well, that certainly seems to explain the problem: different sources say different things because of the filtering down process from the higher realms. And, of course, when it reaches the channel, it gets its greatest twist from the knowledge, vocabulary and assumptions of the specific channel. So, the obvious solution is to seek the information from the highest source possible with the least noise.
This was, in fact, the problem that prompted me to approach my channeling experiment in the way I did. I was not going to be satisfied with “dead dudes”, who generally have very little more information or insights than we do ourselves in our state of third density illusion. In fact, as I learned from many hypnosis subjects and many conversations with dead dudes, the level of ignorance at that stage of existence is often abysmal! I very definitely did not want to waste my time with dead dudes, because it was a sure path to deliberate obfuscation, innocent disinformation, or useless speculation. As Cayce said: “A dead Presbyterian is just that: A dead Presbyterian.” And, the fact of the matter is: as dead dudes, most of them are still in the prison!
But getting back to the Symbols of Reality as mentioned by the Cassiopaeans above:
November 26, 1994
Q: (T) So, when we are talking: “California will fall into the ocean, which is just the analogy we are using, we are talking about, as far as earth changes, is the possibility that several seismic events along the fault line, which no one really knows the extent of…
A: Or it all may be symbolic of something else.
Q: (L) Such as? Symbolic of what?
A: Up to you to examine and learn.
This places the responsibility squarely in our laps.
But, at the time, because I was still influenced by the teaching that the higher truths ought to be free and easily acquired, this question drove me crazy. Why couldn’t I get a straight answer about anything? Well, that is not entirely fair. The Cassiopaeans gave us many straight answers about many things, both of the verifiable and unverifiable sort. But on certain subjects, the ambiguity was left hanging there like the proverbial Sword of Damocles. It seems that it was something I had to figure out on my own.
As I have written before, I had read Ouspensky’s In Search of the Miraculous back in the mid-eighties and many of the things said in that book outraged me so completely that I would literally throw the book away from me.
At the time, I was bedridden and had little else to do but think. So, I would slam the book against the wall across the room, and fume indignantly at what Gurdjieff had said — very much in the way Carlos Castaneda reacted to many things said by don Juan Matus — until, gradually, I would cool down and a very small voice inside would suggest that I think about the matter without the heat of my emotions. I would ponder a bit longer, examining many experiences of my life in my mind, and soon would come to the realization that what Gurdjieff was saying, if not the whole picture, was certainly going in the right direction.
So, I would call someone to come and retrieve the book for me and settle down to read another few pages until — yes, over and over again — I felt outraged and blasphemed, and then the book went flying! That very book is sitting in front of me at this moment, held together with duct tape.
What was it Gurdjieff said that was so outrageous to me?
You do not realize your own situation. You are in prison. All you can wish for, if you are a sensible man, is to escape. But how to escape? It is necessary to tunnel under a wall. One man can do nothing. But let us suppose there are ten or twenty men — if they work in turn and if one covers another they can complete the tunnel and escape.
Furthermore, no one can escape from prison without the help of those who have escaped before. Only they can say in what way escape is possible or can send tools, files, or whatever may be necessary. But one prisoner alone cannot find these people or get into touch with them.
…It is necessary to understand that man’s being, both in life and after death, if it does exist after death, may be very different in quality. The “man-machine” with whom everything depends upon external influences, with whom everything happens, who is now one, then next moment another, and the next moment a third, has no future of any kind; he is buried and that is all. Dust returns to dust. This applies to him. In order to be able to speak of any kind of future life there must be a certain crystallization, a certain fusion of man’s inner qualities, and a certain independence of external influences. If there is anything in a man able to resist external influences, then this very thing itself may also be able to resist the death of the physical body…
Fusion, inner unity, is obtained by means of “friction”, by the struggle between “yes” and “no” in man. If a man lives without inner struggle, if everything happens in him without opposition, if he goes wherever he is drawn or wherever the wind blows, he will remain such as he is.
But if a struggle begins in him, and particularly if there is a definite line in this struggle, then, gradually, permanent traits begin to form themselves, he begins to “crystallize”.
But crystallization is possible on a right foundation and it is possible on a wrong foundation. “Friction”, the struggle between “yes” and “no”, can easily take place on a wrong foundation.
For instance, a fanatical belief in some or other idea, or the “fear of sin”, can evoke a terribly intense struggle between “yes” and “no”, and a man may crystallize on these foundations. But this would be a wrong, incomplete crystallization. Such a man will not possess the possibility of further development. In order to make further development possible he must be melted down again, and this can be accomplished only through terrible suffering.
Crystallization is possible on any foundation. Take for example a brigand, a really good, genuine brigand. I knew such brigands in the Caucasus. He will stand with a rifle behind a stone by the roadside for eight hours without stirring. Could you do this? All the time, mind you, a struggle is going on in him. He is thirsty and hot, and the flies are biting him; but he stands still.
Another is a monk; he is afraid of the devil; all night long he beats his head on the floor and prays. Thus crystallization is achieved.
In such ways people can generate in themselves an enormous inner strength; they can endure torture; they can get what they want. This means that there is now in them something solid, something permanent.
Such people can become immortal. But what is the good of it? A man of this kind becomes an “immortal thing”, although a certain amount of consciousness is sometimes preserved in him. But even this, it must be remembered, occurs very rarely.
In what way can one evoke the struggle between “yes” and “no” in oneself?
Sacrifice is necessary. If nothing is sacrificed nothing is obtained. And it is necessary to sacrifice something precious at the moment, to sacrifice for a long time and to sacrifice a great deal. But still, not forever. This must be understood because often it is not understood. Sacrifice is necessary only while the process of crystallization is going on. When crystallization is achieved, renunciation, privations, and sacrifices are no longer necessary. 3 (Emphasis added.)
When I began to think about the why of the symbols of reality, I remembered this passage. Somehow, I felt, there was a connection. This passage seems to be saying, in opposition to many current teachings, that, as third density human beings, we may not be as special and chosen and wonderful as we have been taught to believe by most of the world’s religions and their offshoots. Gurdjieff’s comments just fly in the face of the standard New Age dogma, which, for the most part, says we are “special beings” even if we may have made a few nasty mistakes; it’s okay. A few lifetimes will straighten it all out and we will be right as rain. If we just think about good things, we can create a good reality because what we focus on is what we “create”, so we must forget altogether about bad or negative things, and “love is all you need”. La la la la la!
But Gurdjieff is saying that we are in prison and we have no hope of escaping without certain knowledge, the primary realization being that we ARE in prison. Further, that we cannot escape without help and group effort, and that this help cannot even be obtained or accessed without a certain “crystallization” or effort. He also seems to be saying that our concepts about our souls being integrated and consistent may be a bit egotistical, and possibly not a fact at all!
That’s pretty scary stuff!
At one point, Carlos Castaneda’s Don Juan told him:
We have a predator that came from the depths of the cosmos and took over the rule of our lives. Human beings are its prisoners. The predator is our lord and master. It has rendered us docile, helpless. If we want to protest, it suppresses our protest. If we want to act independently, it demands that we don’t do so… You have arrived, by your effort alone, to what the shamans of ancient Mexico called the topic of topics. I have been beating around the bush all this time, insinuating to you that something is holding us prisoner. Indeed we are held prisoner! This was an energetic fact for the sorcerers of ancient Mexico.
“Why has this predator taken over in the fashion that you’re describing, don Juan?” I asked. “There must be a logical explanation.”
“There is an explanation,” don Juan replied, “which is the simplest explanation in the world. They took over because we are food for them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in chicken coops, the predators rear us in human coops. Therefore, their food is always available to them.”
I felt that my head was shaking violently from side to side. I could not express my profound sense of unease and discontentment, but my body moved to bring it to the surface. I shook from head to toe without any volition on my part.
“No, no, no, no,” I heard myself saying. “This is absurd, don Juan. What you’re saying is something monstrous. It simply can’t be true, for sorcerers or for average men, or for anyone.”
“Why not?” don Juan asked calmly. “Why not? Because it infuriates you?”
“Yes, it infuriates me,” I retorted. “Those claims are monstrous!” […]
“I want to appeal to your analytical mind,” don Juan said. “Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.”
‘But how can they do this, don Juan?’ I asked, somehow angered further by what he was saying. ‘Do they whisper all that in our ears while we are asleep?’
‘No, they don’t do it that way. That’s idiotic!’ don Juan said, smiling. ‘They are infinitely more efficient and organized than that. In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now.4
Don Juan continues:
“I know that even though you have never suffered hunger… you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”5
Note, most particularly, don Juan’s remark:
The predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.
Essentially, what is being said here is that “nothing is as it seems and never has been!” We can trust almost nothing, if anything at all, about our reality, if we try to read it through the lenses of our “systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores.”
We are being informed by Gurdjieff, don Juan, and the Cassiopaeans, that our jailers are the ones who set up our beliefs, our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure — and we note that these things — our beliefs, hopes, dreams and ideas of good and evil — are all ideas that have been derived, over millennia, from essentially channeled sources. We consult priests, priestesses, pastors, the Bible, the Koran, the Vedas, and nowadays endless channeled books because we are, as Mr. Topper noted, “concerned, in a very ordinary conceptual way… It would always be oh so helpful if we could see the future in advance, be informed of the respective consequences [of our choices]…”
And the many sources that we consult do, indeed, offer us the “answers”. Michael continues:
The myriad channeled voices to which we have been opened in recent years do indeed present an avalanche of prediction, of advice on principle and in particular, and a massive characterization of planes, states, levels and dimensions of reality which introduce whole other magnitudes to the ultimate questions of purpose and consequence.
So, what’s wrong with that? Isn’t it a good thing that we are being guided to think of our reality in something other than material terms? Isn’t it a generally good thing to be made aware that our lives have meaning in a larger, cosmic context? Isn’t it a good thing to have some hints and descriptions of higher levels of reality to which we may ascend if we adhere to the spiritual principles being presented to us? Don’t they pretty much agree, in principle, and does it matter one way or another whether one subscribes to this or that system? Don’t most of them say that there are “many paths to the mountain top?” Don’t they encourage us to “create your own reality”, to “get saved”, or whatever version is being offered?
Yet Gurdjieff, don Juan, and the Cassiopaeans are saying that we are prisoners, in opposition to the vast majority of other teachings.
The Cassiopaeans have said:
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) [Has the government been engaged in faking UFOs, abductions, and cattle mutilations] to protect themselves from the public knowing that they were engaged in alien interactions?
A: They do it to protect the public from knowing that which would explode society if discovered.
Q: (L) What is this item that they were protecting so that society or the public wouldn’t know about it. What activity is this?
A: Humans eat cattle; aliens eat you. […]
Q: (T) [You say] the government, our government, the U.S. government, is holding 36 alien craft of one kind or another that they have gotten in one way or another. How many other governments have craft?
A: All is one.
Q: (L) We already have a one-world government is what they’re saying. (T) Yes, they’re just waiting to make it official somehow.
A: Has been so for long time, as you measure time.
Q: (L) What is the “ultimate secret” being protected by the Consortium?
A: You are not in control of yourselves; you are an experiment.
December 26, 1998
Q: (L) Is the “buried treasure” of the Templars or Cathars, or whoever, manuscripts from the Alexandrian library telling about the true origin and nature of man?
A: Well if so, maybe that would explain the structure you live under.
Q: (L) What structure do we live under?
A: Forced choices.
This is not sounding very friendly, for sure! And there is something else to consider. The coming of Ra was, as far as I know, the first exposition of densities via a channeled source. But the idea of the “octaves of reality” as seven levels of experience was already being taught by Gurdjieff and in later offshoots of his work, and was certainly present in the ancient Sufi teachings. As far as anyone knows, Gurdjieff was taught in some of the secret Sufi centers of Asia Minor. He often alluded to man being “food for the Moon”, and what he was saying is pretty much equivalent to saying that third density is the prison and the only way to get out is to graduate to fourth density.
He made another curious remark that really grabbed me at one point.6 For the sake of comprehension, Gurdjieff described these different worlds, obviously meant to suggest densities, as:
1) Absolute
2) All Worlds
3) All Suns (Stars)
4) Sun
5) All Planets
6) Earth
7) Moon.
How these relate to densities can be understood by reading In Search of the Miraculous, however the point that gave me the shock came during the following exchange between Ouspensky and Gurdjieff. Ouspensky writes:
G. drew a small diagram and tried to explain what he called the “correlation of forces in different worlds”. This was in connection with the previous talk, that is, in connection with the influences acting on humanity.
The idea was roughly this: humanity, or more correctly, organic life on earth, is acted upon simultaneously by influences proceeding from various sources and different worlds… All these influences act simultaneously; one influence predominates at one moment and another influence at another moment. And for man there is a certain possibility of making a choice of influences; in other words, of passing from one influence to another… It is impossible to become free from one influence without becoming subject to another. The whole thing, all work on oneself, consists in choosing the influence to which you wish to subject yourself, and actually falling under this influence. And for this it is necessary to know beforehand which influence is the more profitable.
“In what relation does the intelligence of the earth stand to the intelligence of the sun?” I asked.
“The intelligence of the sun is divine,” said G. “But the earth can become the same; only, of course, it is not guaranteed and the earth may die having attained nothing.”
“Upon what does this depend?” I asked.
G’s answer was very vague.
“There is a definite period,” he said, “for a certain thing to be done. If, by a certain time, what ought to be done has not been done, the earth may perish without having attained what it could have attained.”
“Is this period known?” I asked.
“It is known,” said G. “But it would be no advantage whatever for people to know it. It would even be worse. Some would believe it; others would not believe it, yet others would demand proofs. Afterwards they would begin to break one another’s heads. Everything ends this way with people.”7 (Emphasis added.)
Gurdjieff is obviously, in my opinion, alluding to The Wave and the possibility of the Earth moving into fourth density and the graduation or “harvest” of some individuals to the fourth density state.
As we have noted, there are any number of probable futures at any given point of universe branching. It seems that these options may narrow as one approaches the moment of singularity — or branching. And it also seems that the direction the earth is heading, judging by the signs we observe in our environment, is NOT the future we want to manifest. The fact may be that it is the very work of our religions and beliefs and many of the current day channeled messages that have brought us to this perilous point, and that continue to propel us in this direction, so to say.
So, what I want to say is this: just as the teachings of the Cassiopaeans have produced a real change in my personal reality of so dramatic a nature, as well as having had similar effects in the lives of others who have begun to use this “Blueprint of Reality”, it may be that we have an opportunity to select a different future by becoming aware, and that this is also represented in Gurdjieff’s talk about being in prison.
First, one must become aware that one is in prison in order to even begin to think about how to get out. At some level, yes, it is a prison we have chosen when we entered third density. But, by entering, we have agreed to forget our true nature and to operate in the reality we are given for the purpose of learning. It does no real good to speak in terms of “cosmic oneness” and “we are, in our true natures, all-powerful beings,” because we don’t have access to those realities BY CHOICE. The chain of circumstance, the chain of choices, it seems, must be followed in logical steps of access. We may be able to accelerate our progress, but apparently, it is frowned on to try to “skip” over the lessons.
Very few there are who can meditate on Cosmic Oneness and — POOF! — just hop back to seventh density and be done with the whole mess. And, in real terms, it may be that this is not what is wanted at a deep level. I once asked the Cassiopaeans:
December 28, 1996
Q: (L) Well… is there any activity a person could do to stimulate their DNA to become superconductive?
A: No need. You would like to find an activity to stimulate [your youngest child] to grow up faster?
Q: (L) Of course not! She’s just a baby! She needs to have fun! Oh, I get it.
Remember what the Cassiopaeans said at the beginning of this section: “It is ‘fun’ to see how much you can access.” So, I don’t think the point is to just look for a short-cut to seventh density. The point is to “follow the Yellow Brick Road,” to engage in the adventure, and the task, at this moment, seems to consist in the fact that we are in prison and it is up to us to figure out how to get out.
But, it is impractical, for the sake of the lesson, to think of the prison as being non-existent unless we have created it. It has obviously been constructed from a level of reality that we are not yet capable of accessing, (again, because at a much higher level, we have chosen this drama); so it is useless to say, “If you don’t think about or focus on it, the prison won’t exist.” That becomes nonsensical when we consider the larger scope of the problem. We are in the prison. But, we are not in it because we think about it or focus on it at this level. In fact, if we don’t think about it or focus on it, learn all we can about it and the ways and means of escape, we will be choosing, by default, to continue to live within its walls!
If we are seeing our present state of limitation as a prison, and making efforts to escape, we have a hope of doing so — of learning the present lesson. If we decide to sit in our prison, in our present state of limitation — which is self evident — and “think it away” by not seeing it as a prison, we have done nothing but change the color of the walls or something similar. We have changed the appearance of the prison to that of a park or a luxury hotel. But, we have done nothing to emerge into the larger universe.
And it seems that we are misinformed by those sources that teach us that we can do this — just focus on or think about nice things — that you have access to all, that you are all “one” or whatever. To do so is to simply “take the blue pill” of The Matrix, to refuse to wake up, to remain available to feed more and more energy to the system that operates to keep us blind and captive. Yes, if you just think nice thoughts and “surround yourself with love and light,” you may certainly manifest an illusion of a paradise. But such illusions have a nasty way of collapsing. That is not to say that the makers of such illusions don’t have seemingly endless desire to patch such illusions and reconstruct them after each calamity; and, perhaps, after many lifetimes of such experiences, they reach the point of ultimate disillusionment that causes them to seek the true nature of reality as it is, and not as they would wish it to be, and then they begin to realize that they are in prison.
Most teachings and systems of belief are designed to perpetuate just such illusions. These systems are built almost exclusively on “faith”. And there is the rub, the real reason for the teaching that “you create your reality by what you think and focus on.” It is a defensive maneuver to conceal the true nature of the Cosmos!
In such teachings, nothing is allowed to challenge the system. The reason is: it is a fragile world that has to be protected at any cost. It is a theological domino that, if it is allowed to fall, all the rest of the lies and illusions begin to fall soon after. In such a system, all of life has to fit into place. That is, there really is no evil, and if there is apparent evil, it is only because you have allowed it to be apparent by thinking about it. No ambiguity on this point can be tolerated. Mystery is outlawed and doubt is exiled. All who believe differently are a threat and such persons must keep up their guard to protect themselves from such contamination. Of course, the best idea is to convert them by bombing them with love and light.
Faith, as it is generally understood, always seeks order in the midst of disorder; it builds habitable worlds in the midst of chaos and absurdity. Better to live in Awe of the mystery, to choose in the face of doubt, than to have faith in an illusion. Doubt is not the rival of faith. It is its sister. The opposite of faith is self-righteousness.
When we observe such systems built on faith, what do we see?
We see that such systems do a very funny thing: they end up producing acute guilt in those who don’t manage to manifest all they need and desire — which is generally everybody some of the time, and most people most of the time. And then, they proceed to sell the remedy for the guilt in the form of more teachings, more workshops, more seminars, more books, and more verbiage that is supposed to solve the problem. In effect, they are producing a syndrome, which they then “cure”. Only nobody seems to be noticing this little fact. In the beginning, for the drowning soul, such teachings seem to be a lifejacket — but they end up being a straitjacket.
Think about this: many people who are advocates of the “faith trip”, whether in the garb of standard religious teachings, or New Age versions of “you create your own reality”, (which amounts to the same thing), encounter the usual spate of life’s disappointments and heartbreak. The response is generally a pious assumption that God/the Self sent the experience for a purpose. When something positive happens/manifests, it is assumed that God/the Self has answered the prayer/affirmation.
The only problem with this is: when you begin to count the number of disappointment and successes, you find that the number is evenly distributed regardless of belief. You begin to understand that there is something else going on behind the scenes and those disappointments and successes are symbols of something else.
Yes, human failures and immaturity are an adequate explanation for about any of it, and that is the point: to learn about human failure and immaturity, to learn about the origins and causes of same, that it is a prison described by don Juan:
“Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior.
“Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, and our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.”
When you begin to think about it this way, when you begin to think about third density and the domination of beings who represent “forces”, then you begin to realize that it is a prison — a maze — that has been chosen in order to learn.
One correspondent wrote:
I’m beginning to see what I can most simply call a “cult of the Lizzies”, i.e., an overwhelming concentration and fascination with same, to the point where endless rumination, endless “what if’s”, endless speculation on the causes of this and results of that begin to take over one’s daily thoughts.
We are here as sentient, aware beings, born into a physical world which is sometimes frustrating to some of us — but of which we are a part, and we cannot divide ourselves from the laws of our nature or the world’s nature, for it is not the right time.
This is very simple and should be obvious to all.
So as far as I am concerned, the Lizzies be damned, nor am I setting up the C’s as another substitute for a guru or godhead or all-wise source of wisdom. I personally find much of great interest in what they have to say, and I have learned to look around me with more open eyes than before, but keeping in mind what they have taught me, I shall continue to make my own decisions and follow my own conscience and personal intuition on life, love and the pursuit of happiness until I am wafted — wherever. Or left behind.
The point the writer is making, and which is valid, is this: it is as dangerous to use the Lizzies as a crutch or explanation for lack of success, as it is to say that we didn’t have enough faith in this or that exposition of reality.
But, it is also dangerous to say “the Lizzies be damned,” because that is not taking the full import of the imprisonment into account. Until we know the full nature of the prison and the habits and powers of the jailers, we have no hope of escaping. And, for some — it is true — it is not the right time. They have no desire to see or to examine the situation in the depth and detail required to become free.
But the examination of the situation must lead to something, or again, there is no point. And this is the crux of the matter: the Fruits agenda.
There is an interesting discussion of these matters in Ouspensky’s The Fourth Way. It is clear from obvious implications that we can infer that Gurdjieff knew about Lizzies, to one extent or another, though that may not have been the symbol system he was working with. Gurdjieff was Ouspensky’s teacher, and it is clear from research and hints given by Gurdjieff himself, that he was more or less putting his own spin on far more ancient teachings. In the following dialogue, it is Ouspensky answering the questions put to him by the audience at one of his meetings in the decade before his death in 1947:
Q: Do the many laws under whose influence we are produce the different “I’s” in us?
A: Yes, very many. Forces pass through man and he takes this as his own desires, sympathies, and attractions. But it is only forces passing through him from all directions.
Q: You said we are under the law of accident. From what source of influence does this law come? Can we be free from it?
A: Accident has many different manifestations. The simplest forms begin to disappear very quickly if we are more awake. But you cannot take this literally: this law is very big and many sided. It is a question of degree. Only in the Absolute are things absolute. For us it is a long stairway and on each step one is freer. If you are below, you cannot speak about what will happen when you are at the top. You can only say: “If I begin to work so as to be free from the law of accident, would my life be less chaotic?” Certainly if you have a permanent aim, you will be free from accidental aims.
Q: How can one extricate oneself from bad influences?
A: Before we can even think about “doing” we must try to understand what these influences are. This is a constant mistake that everybody makes always to think they can “do”. We cannot “do”, but if we know, we may change something. [And we can begin to know when we open ourselves to higher forces]… Higher forces or higher influences are normal, cosmic; but we can open ourselves to receive them, or shut ourselves off from them. If we are asleep, we are more closed to them, and the more we are asleep the more we are closed. If we awake, we open ourselves to higher influences.
Q: As we have not developed our higher centers, how do we receive the influences coming from higher worlds?
A: Our ordinary state is relative; in our best moments we are receptive to higher influences. They reach us through centres. Though we are not permanently connected with higher centres; they influence us if they are not too deeply buried, and something manages to reach us through them.
Q: What is the purpose of man’s existence?
A: Man and even mankind does not exist separately, but as a part of the whole of organic life. The earth needs organic life as a whole — men, animals, and plants. The Ray of Creation is a growing branch, and this communication is necessary in order that the branch may grow further. Everything is connected, nothing is separate, and smaller things, if they exist, serve something bigger… Organic life is a particular cosmic unit and man is a unit in this big mass of organic life. He has the possibility of further development, but this development depends on man’s own effort and understanding. It enters into the cosmic purpose that a certain number of men should develop, but not all, for that would contradict another cosmic purpose. Evidently mankind must be on earth and must lead this life and suffer. But a certain number of men can escape; this also enters into the cosmic purpose…
Q: Did you say it was intended that some of us should develop?
A: As far as we can see it is under the same law as, for instance, street accidents. It is well known that in every big town a certain number of people will be killed by traffic. Who will be killed is not determined, it need not necessarily be one or another person, but a certain number. In the same way, a certain number of people MAY have a chance of escape — but there is no must about it in this case. This is the difference.
Q: Are we given the possibility or must we create it in the teeth of circumstances?
A: The possibility is given. Every normal person has this possibility. The rest depends on us.
Q: How many laws does a man live under?
A: We do not know… It is not a question of catalogue but of understanding what the idea means. Man is not under one type of law but under many different types. First of all man, life, every creature on earth, lives under physical laws, which means that he can live only within certain limits of temperature. Then, there must be a particular amount of humidity in the air, and the air must be of a special chemical consistency for man to breathe. Man is also limited to a certain kind of food, which he can digest. These things are all laws for man. Then, coming to quite simple laws, there is, for instance, our ignorance. We do not know ourselves — this is a law. If we begin to know ourselves, we get rid of a law. We know that all men live under the law of identification… Those who begin to remember themselves begin to get rid of the law of identification. So in order to free oneself from laws it is first necessary to find one law from which one can liberate oneself, and get free from it. Then, when one has freed oneself from this law, one can find another. Again one liberates oneself, and so on. This is the practical way to study laws… There are laws, which hinder us on all sides or keep us in subjection…
Q: Can we get free?
A: We can — on conditions. The Ways enter here. The four Ways are ways of liberation from unnecessary laws. You can be shown the Way… but you must work yourself. Most of the laws we have to obey are the result of our sleep and our unconsciousness. Every step we make in becoming more conscious sets us more free. Suppose a man is satisfied with mechanical life; then he cuts himself off from higher influences [that could teach him how to awaken] and receives only influences [from lower levels, including his own inclinations]. Certainly he is then in a worse position than a man who receives influences from higher worlds. Many influences can be received mechanically, but many others need effort…8 (Emphasis added.)
Note particularly the following remarks extracted from the above excerpt:
The simplest forms [of accident or attack] begin to disappear very quickly if we are more awake. … If we know, we may change something. Every step we make in becoming more conscious sets us more free.
So in order to free oneself from laws it is first necessary to find one law from which one can liberate oneself, and get free from it. Then, when one has freed oneself from this law, one can find another. Again one liberates oneself, and so on. This is the practical way to study laws.
Thus, to know about the forces/laws, i.e., Lizzies, acting against us in the great Cosmic Drama of Creation is a crucial step in becoming Free. And we are going to begin to get into some of these examples in a very practical way. You remember that I said I was a practical person. I don’t like mumbo jumbo and nebulous, ambiguous statements that lead to no useful result, so I am going to share with you some of the things that we have learned along the way of becoming aware.
1 A tesseract is a four-dimensinoal cube or hypercube. Just as a three-dimensional cube is made of 6 two-dimensional faces, a hypercube is made up of 8 cubes. Four-dimensional space is hard to comprehend at first, so I refer the reader to discussions in Riding the Wave and the recommended reading listed there.
2 The reference that Topper is making here is to the fact that Ryerson’s personal life and behavior is not in keeping with that of a spiritual seeker, that his normal speech is full of prurient and scatological remarks. From Patrick O’Reilly’s “Channeling: A Skeptical View” (http://www.michaelteachings.com/ skepticism _channeling.htm): “Kevin Ryerson is a “trance channel” who has achieved fame and riches. He was brought to the public’s attention through the books of Shirley McLaine. Ryerson’s message is that we are all divine and he has created a strange cosmology that includes, among many other aspects, chakras, intuition and ecology. Ryerson has frequently been on television talk shows, has written popular books about his channeled messages, and holds workshops at which he channels his particular entities. According to him, our society is devoid of healing psychic imagery, so we allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by technology. We must step out of our world into a sacred mandala. Kevin Ryerson — at one time — charged ‘$250 per session, has had so many inquiries at his San Francisco office that he is referring business to other channelers.’”
3 P.D. Ouspensky, In Search of the Miraculous: Fragments of an Unknown Teaching (San Diego: Harvest/HBJ, 1977).
6 I recommend the reader obtain a copy of Ouspensky’s In Search of the Miraculous to get a good background in these matters. I have condensed his thoughts in the following.
The idea that the material world in which we live, move, and have our being is really a symbol system for a deeper reality is, for some people, pretty obvious. The interpretations, however, are many and varied.
Some people believe that the symbol system is a self-created reality that manifests in order for the higher self to communicate with the conscious mind. When you consider that All is, ultimately, God/One, that is the simplest and truest explanation. And there are certainly manifest capabilities of human beings that show us that this can be directly the case, e.g., psychokinesis.
But I want to talk about it from a different perspective and level. The only way I can talk about it in practical terms is to recount some strange experiences of my own. I hesitate to do this because I don’t want to bore the reader, yet there is really no better way to be practical than to set forth more or less concrete examples which may find resonance in the experiences of others. I will try to make it as short as possible, while still including enough detail to convey the truly weird complexity of some of these cosmic dramatizations. Before I get to the practical application of all of this information, there are a few more important things that need to be covered.
So far, we have discussed the fact that Gurdjieff, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans have all talked about the prison of third density reality. Gurdjieff opines that it is because of forces that act on man to control him, and these forces are somewhat nebulous and belong to different levels or worlds of creation. According to don Juan, we are in prison because the Predator has “given us his mind” in order to feed on us. He talks about the higher worlds in terms of the unknown and the unknowable. The Cassiopaeans say we are in prison essentially because we chose it in order to learn and acquire experience — that God/the Universe more or less has “fun” in the great Cosmic Drama planned at Level Seven and executed down through the levels of density like a play with writers, producers, directors, actors, and so forth. And, all of these parts are “played” by One Being.
At the same time, Ouspensky suggests that we can also choose which of the forces or laws (or parts in the play) we live under. He notes that “Forces pass through man and he takes this, as his own desires, sympathies, and attractions. But it is only forces passing through him from all directions.”
In such a case, a person lives under the “law of accident”, as he puts it. The Cassiopaeans say that this condition of randomness means that man is living under a control system that is designed to keep him confused and unaware so that he can continue as food for higher density beings. Don Juan says, in effect, a similar thing. I would call it the Law of Chaos.
Then, Gurdjieff suggests that this state of confusion and accidentalness begin to disappear when we begin to wake up. He points out that “this law is very big and many sided. It is a question of degree. Only in the Absolute are things absolute. For us, it is a long stairway and on each step, one is more free.” He suggests that we cannot really do anything — that is, have any control over our choices and direction at all, until we reach the higher levels, and that the only way to do this is to begin to try to understand these influences because, as he says: “If we know, we may change something.”
What he seems to be saying is that this “knowing” is part of the process of opening ourselves to higher forces. He notes that: “Higher forces or higher influences are normal, cosmic; but we can open ourselves to receive them, or shut ourselves off from them. If we are asleep, we are more closed to them, and the more we are asleep, the more we are closed. If we awake, we open ourselves to higher influences.”
This “opening ourselves to higher forces” seems to be a key element because it is then that we can begin to differentiate between what influence comes from what higher source and make some sort of consciousness shift so as to select which influence one wishes to be “under”.
This goes back to the Eclipsing of Realities example, where these realities are described as Thought Centers that traverse all densities. Ouspensky remarks that:
“Man and even mankind does not exist separately, but as a part of the whole of organic life. The earth needs organic life as a whole — men, animals and plants. The Ray of Creation is a growing branch, and this communication is necessary in order that the branch may grow further. Everything is connected, nothing is separate, and smaller things, if they exist, serve something bigger… Organic life is a particular cosmic unit and man is a unit in this big mass of organic life. He has the possibility of further development, but this development depends on man’s own effort and understanding. It enters into the cosmic purpose that a certain number of men should develop, but not all, for that would contradict another cosmic purpose. Evidently mankind must be on earth and must lead this life and suffer. But a certain number of men can escape, this also enters into the cosmic purpose…”1
How this is done, the Cassiopaeans suggest, is through becoming aware of the meaning of the Symbols of Reality. We first become aware of these symbols as manifested in ourselves — physically, psychically, emotionally and mentally — and then expand this outward to understand our environment. It seems that our environment and experiences, individually and collectively, reflects our Selection of Influences. Thus, we must first begin to examine ourselves, our thoughts and actions and from whence they actually originate, that is to say, which influence is dominant, and then we can begin to make choices about whether or not we will continue to interact with — or enact — this influence. Our environment and experiences then will begin to demonstrate the results of these choices, thereby giving us a feedback system that confirms or denies the rightness of our choice. And our choices, made in relation to our reality, can be either dependent upon outward perception, or inward perception. Ouspensky says:
“If we begin to know ourselves, we get rid of a law… So in order to free oneself from laws it is first necessary to find one law from which one can liberate oneself, and get free from it. Then, when one has freed oneself from this law, one can find another. Again one liberates oneself, and so on. This is the practical way to study laws… There are laws which hinder us on all sides or keep us in subjection…”2
Becoming Free of these laws of confusion and accidentalness is possible in a number of ways. This is observationally established if one studies the extensive literature that has emerged from the many religions and philosophies. But, when one studies this body of material, there are certain things that become apparent only upon comparison, and Gurdjieff enunciates these problems pretty clearly. He describes them as the “Four Ways”.
We have talked about mind and illusion, and all being “One”. Yes, all is mind/consciousness, but my point has been, throughout all this labor, that we need to be practical here and deal with things that are more accessible at our particular level of development.
We are at living at third density. That’s a fact. Our present consciousness fragments are focused here. So, trying to jump from third density to “becoming One” in Cosmic terms is like trying to put the cart before the horse and jumping directly into seventh density concepts. Yes, we can know about them to a limited extent — we can entertain ourselves with them — but for all practical purposes, we have to learn what it is we have to learn to go the next step — here and now. This seems to be a sort of law, and this is where we fall into obfuscation. But, again, there is a reason for that, as we will see.
Many channeled sources talk about this idea of “being One” and the creation of the Illusion by the Mind, and all of that is true! The deception enters in when they suggest that all we have to do is sit under a Bo Tree, contemplate our navel, and become Buddha like. Yes, in some very rare instances it is possible, and in some other instances, acquiring of powers is also possible, but it is when you begin to examine the literature, the Fruits agenda, that you find some funny little glitches in such a teaching.
Carla Rueckert McCarty (The Ra Material) was recently quoted in an e-mail forwarded to our e-groups discussion list saying:
To me, there are basically two ways of working spiritually in this density, the way of love and the way of wisdom.
In general, I would say that Buddhism follows the way of wisdom, and Christianity, the way of the heart.
In a wisdom structure, you are going for knowledge, peace, detachment, aiming towards a feeling of emptiness and nothing. It is very peaceful and calm, but I find it the slow track compared to the way of love.
In the way of love, one is going for compassion and purity of passion and the will that is behind that, aiming towards a feeling of fullness and unification of all.
For myself, I find that this density’s work seems to be the following of the love in the present moment, of opening the heart to that present moment and the love in it. This is usually not peaceful or calm, but it feels right. I think it’s a matter of preference. Both ways of learning are useful.
This is a pretty standard New Age interpretation. It is somewhat broader and more accepting than the Fundamentalist Christian perspective, but not much. It is, in effect, the Way of the Monk or Saint.
As noted, there are actually more than two ways; there are, as mentioned above, four.3 There is the Way of the Monk, the Way of the Yogi, the Way of the Fakir, and, the Fourth Way, which Gurdjieff taught and which is, apparently, derived from his long contact with Sufi teachings. The Fourth Way is, more or less, the way that is open to humanity that takes advantage of all the conditions that exist in normal life, and is certainly quite similar to what don Juan was advocating, (up to a point), as well as what the Cassiopaeans have explicated.
The Way of the Monk is much like what is described by Carla as her chosen mode. This is the way of faith, the way of religious feeling, the way of religious sacrifice. This is the way for people with very strong religious emotions and imagination. It is a long, hard way, as the writer herself notes when saying, “This is usually not peaceful or calm, but it feels right.”
Such a way consists of years and years of struggling with the self, on struggling with the emotions — on feelings. The individual subjects all of his/her emotions to one emotion, and thereby develops unity in self. This person is working on developing emotional will. Carla states this quite clearly by saying, “In the way of love, one is going for compassion and purity of passion and will that is behind that, aiming towards a feeling of fullness and unification of all.”
But Gurdjieff suggests that, in such a person, the physical body and the mental body may remain undeveloped and then, in order to make use of what the Monk/Saint has attained, attention must be focused on developing the body and the capacity to think. But, this can only be done by another series of sacrifices. The monk has to become a yogi and a fakir. Very few do this because they die before they overcome the difficulties. There is another problem with this way, dealing with wrong crystallizations as Gurdjieff called them in the excerpt quoted in the previous section.
The way of “wisdom”, as Carla refers to it, or otherwise known as the Way of the Yogi, is the way of knowledge, the way of the mind. This way consists in developing the mind, but may result, as Carla also notes quite accurately, in leaving the body and the emotions undeveloped. She says: “In a wisdom structure, you are going for knowledge, peace, detachment, aiming towards a feeling of emptiness and nothing. It is very peaceful and calm.” But, without development of the physical and emotional bodies, the individual may be unable to make use of his attainments without going back to work on the body and the emotions. Such a person “knows everything”, but can do nothing. He/she then has to go back and work on obtaining results by means of another series of prolonged efforts of application of what he knows.
The main difference between the path of knowledge and the ways of the Fakir and Monk is that the yogi eventually has the advantage of understanding his position, of knowing what he lacks, what he must do, and in what direction he must go. This is more than the Way of the Monk can achieve, since the Monk dies in his belief that he has achieved something, but it is an empty victory of knowledge since, again, very few are able to take the next step because they die before achieving it.
The Way of the Fakir is the way of struggle with the physical body. It is long and difficult. The object is to attain transcendence by developing physical will and power over the body. This is attained by means of terrible sufferings, by torturing the body. The whole thing consists of various incredibly difficult physical sacrifices such as standing motionless in the same position for hours, days, months, or years. If he doesn’t get sick and die before he reaches his goal, he may achieve something. What does he achieve? He has acquired physical will; but has nothing to which he can apply it. He can’t make use of it for gaining knowledge or self-perfection because, usually by this time, he is too old and he dies.
In the Way of the Fakir, there is usually no teacher. The practitioner may have witnessed some incredible feat of will that so impresses and obsesses him that he longs to emulate it — to have such an accomplishment for his own.
In the Way of the Monk, the main thing is the teacher. Part of the work of the Way of the Monk consists in having absolute faith in the teacher and in submitting to him, or his teachings, absolutely in faith and obedience. Generally this way seeks faith in God, the love of God, in constant efforts to obey and serve God by only expressing love no matter what. Of course, as the history of religion shows us, such a person’s understanding of the idea of God and of serving God may be very subjective and contradictory.
Fortunately, nowadays, it is becoming more and more accepted that this Way of the Monk can operate in different contexts so that people are less inclined to kill those who don’t follow their particular concept of God.4
But still, those who follow this path generally cling to the idea that it is the “best” or a “better” path than others. Carla is essentially saying this. She says that she considers the way of the heart to be the “fast track”, and for her and many others, it is — the fast track to become an “immortal thing”.
In the Way of the Yogi, one starts with a teacher, or many teachers, but ends up being one’s own teacher. One learns methods by study, and then begins to apply them independently.
The main thing about these three ways is that they all require a significant retirement from ordinary life. Much of the struggle must, of necessity, take place in “retirement” or private meditation. Each of these methods is opposed to everyday life in some significant way, so the practitioners generally have some difficulty adjusting in the “real world”.
The Fourth Way, according to Gurdjieff, and that which the Cassiopaeans and Sufis seem to be advocating, is one that requires no retirement from the real world. It also has no definite form, as do the ways of the fakir, the monk and the yogi.
“Work” in the Fourth Way consists of utilizing life as a person finds it in their own milieu to work on all of their aspects simultaneously. They work on the physical mastery, mental development, and emotional integration and control. And this is done through awareness combined with knowledge and will and love, correctly understood. One must become master of his body, his mind, and his emotions.
The chief demand of the Fourth Way, according to both Sufi teachings and the Cassiopaeans, is understanding. We are to become aware of as much as possible about our reality and do nothing that we do not understand except as experiment to discover and understand more. The more we understand what we are doing and why and how, the greater our consciousness. Purification of emotions can be accelerated by understanding.
Faith — as it is commonly understood — is not required in this way. In fact, faith in the Christian sense — is opposed. In this Fourth Way, a person must “satisfy himself of the truth of what he is told” by research and investigation and experiment. Until he is satisfied, he should not act “in faith”. However, faith is built in this way, faith of an altogether different kind.
Of the four ways, the way of the fakir is the crudest, as Gurdjieff remarked. The fakir knows very little and understands very little, but he has incredible mastery over his physical body.
The “monk” knows little better. He is driven by his religious feeling and by his chosen religious tradition, and by a desire for achievement — that is, he wants salvation. He trusts his belief system, which incorporates his chosen teacher (Jesus, Buddha, whomever), and he believes that all his efforts and sacrifices are pleasing to God.
How this works is revealed in several clues in the above correspondence. Carla states that the “way of wisdom aims for … emptiness” and the “way of the heart aims toward … a feeling of fullness.” This brings us back to don Juan’s remark about the Predator:
In order to keep us obedient, meek, and weak, the predators … “gave us their mind! … The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now”.
“I know that even though you have never suffered hunger … you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”
People who choose the way of the heart are very much aware of feeling these very sensations within: contradiction, guilt (fear of being discovered any minute now) and hunger. They constantly seek to manifest love in the face of these negative emotions in order to fill the void within. Carla tells us about her struggles when she says: “This is usually not peaceful or calm, but it feels right.”
The usual condition of such a path can be stated as follows: “I find myself in all kinds of painful and miserable situations. I find myself feeling things about people and situations that are negative or the situations themselves that manifest in my life are negative and painful. But I am choosing to overcome this by the manifestation — via will — of love of everything and everybody in all of these miserable situations. By doing this, I am ‘going for compassion and purity of passion and will that is behind that, aiming towards a feeling of fullness and unification of all.’”
In other words, I can be tortured inside and outside and all around, but I am going to give love and feel love so that God will love me and then I can concentrate on amassing this full feeling of love inside no matter what!
Thus, she is overcoming the predator’s mind by refusing to accept the contradictions, the moroseness, the guilt, and the hunger. And, indeed, this is a way to overcome the laws, a way to generate the struggle between yes and no. And it certainly will have results as the literature shows. Paraphrasing Gurdjieff:
Speaking in relative terms, the monk can attain in a week of fasting and prayer and concentration on manifesting of love, what the fakir accomplishes in a month of torture. He thus becomes free of the Predator’s mind.
The yogi knows considerably more. He gains knowledge of the existence of the Predator’s mind, and he knows that he wants to be free of it. He knows why he wants it, so he studies to gain knowledge of how it can be done. What he learns, eventually, if he is doing his “homework”, is that to be free of the “laws” he must produce a certain “substance” in himself.
He learns that a certain kind of mental exercise or concentration of consciousness — in concert with a certain emotional state — can produce this substance in one day. Of course, it may have taken him a lifetime to learn this — the very same lifetime that the Monk has been spending on producing the necessary emotion that lacks the state of consciousness.
But generally, the progress of the Monk is much less because the yogi begins with a teacher who has already achieved a certain level and much of this knowledge can be communicated in practical ways that save time.
Thus, the result is that the relative relationships show us that a yogi can produce in one day what the monk produces in a week and the fakir in a month.
But, that is taking all things as equal. We can’t leave out of the equation that any given person may have already “done the work” along one line in a given former life, and be ready to do the work in another line in this lifetime. Perhaps, for Carla, this is the case. Her attachment to rituals doesn’t suggest that, but then, no one is in a position to judge what is between another individual and their “God”. We might conjecture that such persons who find it to be the way that “feels right” and moves them along more rapidly, have already done the way of the yogi and the way of the fakir in a previous/simultaneous lifetime. For some, the way of the heart may be the final piece of the puzzle of self-integration. And for such, it may indeed be precisely right.
For others, the way of the heart has already been done, and they then focus on the way of the fakir or the yogi. And in still others, all three ways have been done, and they cycle very rapidly through the various ways in a single life, consolidating their various crystallizations. It is really impossible for any one person to judge one way as “right” and another as “wrong”. Every individual and every situation is different.
The reader who finds the material on these pages to be resonant or in sync with what is felt and/or known deep inside, may have already proceeded along the ways of the fakir, monk and yogi, and is now looking for synthesis and practical application in order to merge this awareness.
In the Fourth Way, according to Gurdjieff, and with related Sufi texts supporting (though they are obscure and deliberately so), the seeker knows about the other ways, knows that there are definite substances that must be produced in the body — knows that they can be produced by a month of torture, a week of prayer and fasting, or a day of mental exercises. He also knows that these substances can be produced in another way: The Fourth Way, though I do not necessarily mean the Fourth Way exactly as explicated by Gurdjieff and Ouspensky.
What are we speaking about here?
In studying the literature of religious, paranormal and psi phenomena, one begins to note some odd connections.
There are fakirs and yogis who can control their bodily functions to a degree that passes ordinary understanding. They can slow their metabolism, control their heartbeat, produce extreme heat or cold, levitate, run for days on end without stopping, bi-locate, and apparently manifest material objects with their minds. I have even heard that there have been some who have gone into meditation and then, in the view of their students or brothers, have just gone — POOF! — disappeared instantly in a blinding flash of light, never to be seen again! Obviously, they have removed themselves from some of the laws of third density to a greater or lesser extent. At the same time, one can read about Christian saints who have done the same things. There are shamans who give evidence of the same accomplishments, and practitioners of various paths of magic or rituals. So, we can see by these road signs that there is a certain correlation as described by Gurdjieff.
Then, there are the anomalous miracles that just seem to occur spontaneously. In such cases, a certain reference seems to recur over and over again, and that is the relationship between psi, genetics, and DNA. Time and time again a person who had strange powers would remark that “Oh, I inherited the sight from my aunt, or grandmother, or mother, or uncle or whatever.” And, it is not always “the sight”. There are many powers that manifest with this comment.
Then, there is the peculiar connection of the endocrine system to psi phenomena. Many serious studies of poltergeist type phenomena note that it is most often, if not always, manifested in the presence of either a pubescent child or a sexually fluctuating woman, including those who are in one or another stage of menopause. Hormones produced by the endocrine system play a part in turning DNA on and off.
One thing is clear to me after all of these years of study: psi phenomena, whether it is healing or manifestation of matter or bi-location or whatever has almost no relation whatsoever to one’s state of spirituality. In my work, I encountered a family line that could stop the flow of blood with the touch of a hand, yet nearly every member was alcoholic, promiscuous, abusive to partners and children, and generally what one would consider to be ethically deficient. Yet, certain members of this line had this interesting power and were often called upon by neighbors and friends to save lives — even if they had to be hauled out of a bar dead drunk to do it!
Another curious thing is that the many notations of psi phenomena onset after a severe trauma to the head, or a strong electrical shock. Electrical current can alter DNA by affecting the permeability of the neural membranes or by altering the balance or composition of neurotransmitters, thus turning on or off DNA. (In later volumes of this series I will get into this in more technical detail so that the reader can really apply it to their lives in individual situations.)
It seems that the thing that stands between the physical and ethereal worlds, or between third and fourth densities, and which is reflected in our awareness, is our DNA. It seems to be the interface or operating system that determines how much, how well, how completely our souls can manifest via the instrument of our bodies, in third density reality. Certain, shall we call them ecstatic, practices, which include the three ways discussed above, have been shown to have effects on both the electric current in the body as well as the chemicals, including hormones and neurotransmitters.
It has often been noted that only 2% of our DNA is involved in coding the proteins that make up our bodies. The rest is referred to as “junk”. There are theories about why this is so, including the “Selfish Gene” theory where it is postulated that human beings are merely constructs created by DNA for the purpose of propagating DNA!
Another thing noted is that we seem to utilize only 5 to 10% of our brains — and there are many theories about why this is so as well. I would like to suggest that there is a connection.
So, we have a curious series of factors to contend with that all seem to point in the direction of DNA being far more interesting and mysterious than we might have supposed.
On the one hand we have such naturally transmitted powers, and on the other hand we have folks who can engage in some activity that either temporarily or permanently changes something in their physiology — and the apparent result is becoming free of the laws of third density. The only problem is, as noted above, if the change is not across the board, so to speak, it merely becomes a blip on the screen — an aberration — a signpost that something is happening, but is of no practical value without knowledge of application in the four bodies, as it were. The following excerpt from the Cassiopaean transcripts will become important as we go on with the story here. The discussion was about the Symbols of Reality as they manifest in the body as physical pain related to some pathological disorder.
October 10, 1998
A: When one receives message of pain… could it be symbolic of potential advancement of neo-physicality?
Q: (L) I have known a lot of people who had pain who are just unhappy people.
A: But why unhappy? Think, my dear… and remember, your consciousness operates on four levels, not just one! Physical body, consciousness, genetic body and spirit-etheric body.
Q: (L) Are those the four composites of the human manifestation in third density?
A: 3rd and 4th. One leads oneself, through physical actions, as well as psychic ones, to develop these “problems” when one is preparing to “bump it up” a notch.
Remember what Ouspensky said:
The four Ways are ways of liberation from unnecessary laws. You can be shown the Way… but you must work yourself. Most of the laws we have to obey are the result of our sleep and our unconsciousness. Every step we make in becoming more conscious sets us more free.
Suppose a man is satisfied with mechanical life; then he cuts himself off from higher influences [that could teach him how to awaken] and receives only influences [from lower levels, including his own inclinations].
Certainly he is then in a worse position than a man who receives influences from higher worlds. Many influences can be received mechanically, but many others need effort…5 (Emphasis added.)
So, the whole thing seems to center around being in contact with higher influences. We have already talked about the prolific amount of channeling that is going on all over the planet, increasing in volume and variety daily. And we have been talking about the fact that some, if not most, of this is effectively influences from lower levels. What I mean by that is what I would colloquially call the difference between dead dude communications and truly higher density sources.
Why do I make such a distinction? Isn’t a “dead dude” a “fifth density” soul? Aren’t communications from “dead dudes” effectively communications from fifth density? Doesn’t that make them “higher”? What about communications from fourth density beings? Clearly, they are “higher”. Well, this is part of the problem of becoming aware and “choosing” which influence you wish to be under, and it is not as easy as one might think!
As already noted, as far as I know, until the coming of Ra via Elkins, Rueckert and McCarty, the concept of fourth density was poorly defined. Yes, Gurdjieff was obviously talking about it, and it is thought that his knowledge was derived from ancient secret mystery schools in Central Asia; but it also seems that his extrapolations about it may have given it a certain twist.
My own thoughts about it, after discussing with my husband Ark the various differences in what Gurdjieff was saying and doing, examining his writings and talks about his experiences, are that it is very likely that Gurdjieff was actually experimenting with ways to open ordinary people of Western culture to higher understanding in ways they could accommodate to their lifestyles. It may even have been that he had a mandate to do this, or it may simply have been his own idea.
Nevertheless, prior to the ideas about densities, there really wasn’t much of an option about existence: it was physical or astral; dead or alive; in the body or out of the body; earth or heaven/hell. Those were the choices. When you died here on earth, you only had the option of being ethereal or astral, or something similar. You were “in the spirit” or “in the body”.
Of course, it wasn’t exactly that simple. Just as there are economic and class distinctions here on earth, a whole plethora of sources devised intricate and elaborate systems of levels and stages of advancement through the astral realms. Helena Blavatsky, Rudolf Steiner, Alice Bailey, and others down to the present-day weekly “channel o’choice” have added endless permutations to these planes, sub-planes and hierarchical systems.
These explanations seem to have been created in response to the growing awareness that something was fishy in the other world! While everyone liked to think that, when you die, you are suddenly either taken up into heaven to sit with God or Buddha or whomever; or you descend to hell with no possibility of cooling your heels, it was increasingly apparent that this might not be the case. The many voices being heard from the “spirit world” made it abundantly clear that there was very complicated activity going on out of the range of human perception and understanding. And, some of it was distinctly unpleasant.
So planes and sub-planes, and causal planes and mid-causal planes were delivered to humanity as the solution to this problem. The key now became to determine what level of entity one was in communication with in order to determine the validity or usefulness of the information. Naturally, once such a hierarchy has been defined, the knowing spirit inevitably claims membership in the highest levels!
At a certain point in the confusion, there was a big step in the history of channeling: “Seth”. Michael Topper writes about Seth:
What made the Seth material so noticeable, and what allows it to stand up well today, has much to do with the channeler Jane Roberts herself who…along with the channeled text…narrated a continuous chronicle of her own internal struggle with the whole phenomenon of channeling, as well as the content of the material.
The uniform quality, consistency and integrity of the Seth teachings, which spanned many years (compared to various one-shot sources today) was largely due to the strangeness and unfamiliarity of such a mode visited upon any consciousness at that “early” time, meeting head on a rational and intelligent…if critical and initially quite skeptical…personality.
As Roberts herself states from the perspective of experience, it was indeed the initial deep reservations accompanying her reluctant participation in so extreme a phenomenon that kept the keel even, and helped therefore to keep the communication steadily aligned between the potential shoals of egoism on the one hand, and reductive rationalization on the other.
There is, as anyone should be able to tell, a universe of difference between these carefully monitored, combed and curried sessions and the modern immoderate opus cavalierly compiled in the interval of time since the Summons of Seth, wherein the chief feature of the recent books seems to be the channeler Herself, lavishly displayed on the pages of the photo insert, coyly captioned “from childhood to the mature adult present” (in which, having donned a pyramidal dunce cap in a moment of pure caprice the subject became so suddenly Serendipitous Host to some materializing entity, quite helpfully clarifying things at the outset by announcing Its Enlightenment!)6
In considering the Seth material as a whole, we can recommend it on the great virtue alone (taken for granted by now, but quite unique for its time), that it introduced the important key of probability to the field of psychological reality. Prior to this, the idea was exclusively an abstruse phenomenon of physics occurring only at the Heisenberg-indeterminacy level, describing “position and velocity of electrons”.
This concept, introduced by Seth, enabled humanity to strip the material mind from its fixation upon rigid causal conditioning and deterministic hypotheses of action. The Seth discussion of multidimensionality and the branching probable paths of conscious navigation through the wake-and-dream-state, served to shift the fulcrum of power to the psychic present, thereby helping at once to loosen the mental clamps of a dominant behaviorist psychology and to perform a long-overdue correction to the religio-spiritual emphasis on karma or the irresistible pressure of past actions, mnemonic conditioning, etc.
In this respect then the Seth material served its purpose admirably; and that purpose was to help consciousness take the next great step, the necessary step into a whole new Stage of spiritual progress and development. (Topper, “Channeling, UFOs And The Positive/Negative Realms Beyond This World”, http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=1256.0)
That said, having spent a lot of time dealing with spirit attachment, spirit possession, obsession, and related maladies, I can assure you that entities on the other side can and do lie. William Baldwin, Ph.D., writes:
Spirit attachment does not require the permission of the host. This seems to be a violation of free will. It also appears to refute the popular notion that each person is totally responsible for creating his or her reality and that there are no victims. The apparent conflict here stems from the definitions of permission and free will choice. Ignorance and denial of the possibility of spirit interference is no defense against spirit attachment. Belief or lack of belief regarding the existence of intrusive entities has no bearing on the reality of these beings and their behavior.
In denial and ignorance, most people do not refuse permission to these nonphysical intruders. Individual sovereign beings have the right to deny any violation or intrusion by another being. With limited, if any, knowledge and distorted perceptions of the nature of the spirit world, the nonphysical reality, many people leave themselves open and create their own vulnerability as part of creating their own reality. It is fashionable today among many “new Age” enthusiasts to attempt to channel some higher power, a spirit teacher or master who will use the voice mechanism of any willing person to speak “words of wisdom”. Some use the terminology “for my highest good” when calling for a spirit to channel through. This activity constitutes permission and welcome for a discarnate spirit. The identifiers such as “master” and “teacher” and qualifiers such as “for my highest good” will be claimed by the entities as personally valid identifications, qualities or attributes.
…The host is usually unaware of the presence of attached spirits. The thoughts, desires and behaviors of an attached entity are experienced as the person’s own thoughts, desires and behaviors. The thoughts, feelings, habits and desires do not seem foreign if they have been present for a long time, even from childhood. This is a major factor in the widespread denial of the concept and lack of acceptance of the phenomena of discarnate interference and spirit attachment, obsession or possession.
In most cases, a person can only experience and acknowledge the reality of the condition after an attached entity has been released. The realization may come some months after a releasement session as the person suddenly notices the absence of a familiar attitude, desire, addiction or behavior.
The symptoms of spirit attachment can be very subtle. An attached spirit may be present without producing any noticeable symptoms.
…A living person can have dozens, even hundreds of attached spirits, as they occupy no physical space. They can attach to the aura or float within the aura outside the body. If any part of the body of the host has a physical weakness the earthbound can attach to that area because of a corresponding weakness or injury to the physical body of the spirit prior to death. A spirit can lodge in any of the chakras of the host, drawn by the particular energy of the chakra or by the physical structures of that level of the body.
…The mental, emotional and physical influence of an attached entity can alter the original path of karmic options and opportunities of the host. It can disrupt the planned lifeline by hastening death or prolonging life, thus interfering with any specific checkout point. An entity of the opposite gender can influence the sexual preference and gender orientation. An attached entity can influence the choice of marriage partners and the choice of a partner for an extra-marital affair.7 (Emphasis added.)
There sure seems to be a lot of this sort of thing going on out there. Baldwin suggests that the number of people suffering one or more attachments at any given time is about 100%! I was pretty shocked when I read that figure. In fact, when I began experimenting with the techniques of the therapeutic modality, I had a lot of misgivings about it. It just seemed too far-fetched and wild even for my open-minded approach to reality.
So, as a sort of experiment, I began to use the differential diagnosis technique with subjects who had agreed to participate in an experimental therapy, but were not told any details whatsoever as to what this would entail. I think they were more or less expecting something dramatic rather than a small series of questions artfully designed to reveal the presence of attached entities. And, at the point I shifted into the questions designed to identify spirit attachment, I made sure to do it in a subtle way, burying the questions in a series of other innocuous questions. I certainly didn’t want to contaminate my experiment, so I was being very careful! If this idea was a hokey theory, I was determined to expose it!
Well, the results were nothing short of astounding. In case after case, there were attachments — usually more than one. The most startling thing about it was that the release therapy worked in amazing ways! Problems that had persisted with standard hypnotic therapies utilizing repeated suggestions and/or post-hypnotic suggestions, (which sometimes worked and sometimes didn’t) would virtually disappear almost instantly with the release of the attaching entity.
In a couple of cases, individuals who were in marriages that were highly unsatisfactory and even miserable, but had been unable to extricate themselves because they would “weaken at the thought”, or would “argue with themselves” over the rightness of leaving, were suddenly freed of these fears, co-dependencies, and so forth. It was established in a couple of these sessions that the subject had been invaded at an opportune moment by an entity that wanted to be with the marriage partner and that the attaching entity had influenced the subject to marry that person in the first place! Whenever the “core” person, or host, would try to leave the relationship, a full-bore inner struggle would take place, preventing the wishes of the host from prevailing. This was always perceived as the subject’s own doubts and misgivings about leaving.
Physical ailments, fears and phobias, addictions, and personality irregularities of many kinds were dissolved almost by magic! I was completely stunned! Not only that, but all of my ideas about children being protected in their innocence from such infestation had to be tossed aside as it became more and more evident that many attachments took place during very ordinary childhood traumas!
But the point is — this may be part of the true condition of mankind’s prison! As Dr. Baldwin notes above: “In denial and ignorance, most people do not refuse permission to these nonphysical intruders… Many people leave themselves open and create their own vulnerability as part of creating their own reality.” What a concept!
I hate to have to admit it, but this sentence applied to me for a very long time. In fact, it applies to all of us, to one extent or another and that is why I am going to tell you some stories about my becoming aware. These were complex interactions with many people, and at many points, the various players involved all had the same opportunities to become aware and make choices as a result of this awareness. We will see how those choices were presented and how they operated in the Symbols of Reality, and we will see what the Fruits of the various choices were. When we are done with these stories, it is hoped that there will be a very clear understanding of how to read the signs and, possibly, what the results can be, though each person will have their own idea of how to respond to the lessons and what a desirable outcome is.
As I have recounted to some extent in Amazing Grace, discovering the Truth and Meaning of our existence — or even just my existence since, for all I know, everything else is an illusion — has been the driving force behind my whole lifetime of internal and external process.
At any given time when I participated in any activity whatsoever, it was always with the idea that I might learn something about God from it. Even when I was at the stage of complete atheism, it was an experiment. In my early years I studied Wicca and various forms of shamanism, ritual magic and so forth. I was cautious about material experimentation with such things, preferring to study further and compare, so I think I saved myself a lot of grief that I have since observed in other people who did not have the same reservations about “practice”.
Weaving in and out of all this study was, of course, my family’s religious background (which had been inculcated at a very early age) coming from a long line of preachers and religious scholars. This influence was very strong, so my programmed inclination whenever I reached the end of a particular study that had shown itself to be, in effect, only a fragment of the answer, was to revert to this familiar religious path until some other study beckoned. What this means is that my many years of study and dedication to knowledge were punctuated by periods of The Way of the Monk. As a teenager, I even dreamed of being a nun when I grew up. I seemed to experience a cyclical fluctuation between cold cerebral analysis and passionate pursuit of an intimate emotional relationship with God. The curious thing was that I could enter into either state with equal ardor and dedication.
I know well the agonizing struggle of “going for compassion and purity of passion and will… aiming towards a feeling of fullness and unification of all.” I viscerally understand “following of the love in the present moment, of opening the heart to that present moment and the love in it.” And I also experienced the fact that “This is usually not peaceful or calm.” I also know what it is like to achieve it to greater or lesser extent and what it costs the mind and body. I have great fondness for this way.
But I am a practical person, and finding a balanced combination of cerebration and emotion has been my particular struggle. I have to really control my urge to “give my body up to be burned,” to “give all I own to the poor,” and to sacrifice myself in any number of ways as a martyr. For me, that is far more difficult than subjecting all of my emotions to one emotion to develop emotional will.
As I have written in Amazing Grace, at a certain point in my life I decided that this way of the heart was, indeed, the path for me and I embraced it wholeheartedly. I was 30 years old and pretty worn out from seeking God in knowledge; or at least I wasn’t getting anywhere with it that felt satisfying, so the urgings of my ex-husband to get back with God in the old-fashioned, fundamental way were like an anchor beckoning me to come and rest. So, to put it bluntly, I plunged headfirst into the faith trip.
Not being one to do anything halfway, I put all thinking aside, all knowledge aside, and essentially submitted myself willingly and by choice to believe that faith would take me home. To make the point of how effectively this was accomplished, I will share a funny event.
In the early days of this plunge, I was sitting in church with my ex-husband and children. I was observing the order of the service, the standing up, sitting down, turning to page so-and-so to sing a hymn, the kneeling and praying and so forth. I realized suddenly, from my training as a hypnotherapist, that this whole process was a form of hypnosis. In studying mass or group hypnosis, we had been taught about what is called the “Yes set”. The yes set is designed to put people into a mild trance state, to entrain their brain function, and to make them receptive to the deepening of the trance and any suggestions that follow. It is accomplished by getting a group of people to either respond “yes” to a series of questions, or to get them to comply with a series of innocuous requests. In so doing, they give their will to the person making the request.
One way this works for charismatic public speakers is for them to deliberately pose several questions in a row (at least three) that they are certain everyone, or most everyone, will agree with. For example: a politician might begin his campaign speech with these three questions:
“Are you tired of high taxes?”
“Have you had enough of crime and violence in this country?”
“Is everyone tired of spending their hard earned dollars for less and less every week?”
Hardly anyone would disagree with any of these questions. But, by agreeing with them, by saying “yes” three times in a row — even if only mentally — the first stage of induction has just been accomplished!
So, there I was, realizing that what was being done in this church — and churches around the world and down through the centuries — was that people were being hypnotized. So, what did I think about this? Well, since I had decided to take the plunge, I decided that it was okay because it was hypnosis for the right reasons! Yup! That’s me talking there! When I do something, I go all the way!
Immediately, my life began to fall apart.
Of course, being committed to this path meant that the only interpretation for this phenomenon of my life going to Hell when I was trying to get to Heaven was to think of it as a test of my faith. Not being a quitter by any stretch of the imagination, I wasn’t going to let things like deteriorating physical health, long drawn out suffering and death of a loved one, or financial disaster after financial disaster stop me! No sir! I fasted, prayed, and assiduously schooled my thoughts and emotions to one thing and one thing only: “going for compassion and purity of passion and will… aiming towards a feeling of fullness and unification of all… following of the love in the present moment, of opening the heart to that present moment and the love in it.”
The more things came against me, the more I suffered, the more I was attacked from within and without, the more my resolve strengthened. I refused to even ask “why?” I read the book of Job again and again to comfort myself that at least I was not alone in my suffering. I regularly sought to experience vicariously the sufferings of Christ on the cross so that, by comparison, nothing I experienced could possibly be considered suffering! I took no offense at offense, whether intended or not; I forgave and loved and comforted my hurts by transforming them in the crucible of my suffering to pure and passionate love for God, for Jesus, and for all mankind.
It’s easy to talk about suffering in an abstract way, but what do I really mean by it? Suffering is relative. The old saying, “I cried because I had no shoes until I met a man with no feet,” applies here. I don’t want to go through the whole scene so I will make it short:
I had been ill in 1980 with a fever that left me with damaged heart valves. In 1984, the physical labor I had been doing just to manage a home and three children, caring for my aged grandmother, and a now failing business put so much strain on my heart that I was near collapse when I found myself pregnant with my fourth child. Just to cover the bases of those who will say, “Don’t you know what causes it?” let me add that I became pregnant while on contraceptives.
Being in the faith trip, of course meant that my choice was to sacrifice any health considerations for the sake of the child.8 My kidneys began to fail, and the residual damage from two back injuries, which occurred when I was a teenager, began to manifest. (I had seriously injured the lumbar vertebrae in a fall while skating and the second was a pelvic/sacral injury that occurred in a toss from the back of a horse.) In my previous three pregnancies, I had received competent care because I had been in a position to obtain it. But now, only the minimal care was available due to the deteriorating financial state.
Also, during this time we were being plagued by some sort of haunting that my young daughter was perceiving as an alligator outside her window, and that we could sense in “cold spots” in the house as well as “see” out of the corner of our eyes. In retrospect, there were a lot of clues of abduction type activity going on, though this was not something I had in my knowledge base at the time.
In the midst of this situation, my grandmother’s cancer, which had been in remission for 11 years, went metastatic. I was physically incapable of doing all that was on my shoulders, but somehow I did it anyway. (Looking back, I have no idea how I did it!) I was exhausted all the time, dealing with pre-eclampsia, gestational diabetes, a heart that wanted to back flush several times a day, three small children, a depressed husband who wandered about wondering what to do about the financial situation, and a dying grandmother who was more than a mother to me.
Meanwhile, our former business partner, my own mother, in whom we had placed utmost confidence, and who had maneuvered all our financial assets into her control, had emptied our bank accounts, maxed out our credit cards, and was now suing us to foreclose on our house! And did it! For all the details on that situation, I can only suggest that you read Amazing Grace.
Somewhere along the way during this time — much of which blurs in my memory due to the horror of it all — I had what I call my “Boat ride to Damascus.”
We were bringing our commercial fishing boat down from its docking 40 miles or so north of where we lived, to put it in at the marina where it was to be sold. Because of our schedule, we made the trip at night. Forty miles is not far in a car, but a big commercial fishing boat doesn’t do 60 mph, so it was several hours of travel time. I was doing the steering while my ex-husband was on deck keeping an eye out for bird racks or other obstructions.
I was alone in the steering cabin with nothing but the red glow of the instrument panel and the low rumble of the diesel engine under the floor. This trip was sort of an admission that all was going down the tubes. I was struggling with my hurt and anger and bewilderment, praying fervently for understanding and compassion and love to fill my heart in spite of the apparent hopelessness of the situation.
I wanted to be filled with the Love of God. I wanted to subsume all of the experience into that single pointed devotion the brings the “peace that passes understanding.” Over and over again I was repeating, “Help me oh Lord! Help me!” The agony of the struggle was deeper than the mind can fathom or words can express. The Apostle Paul describes it in Romans 8:26: “[F]or we do not know what prayer to offer nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit Himself goes to meet our supplication and pleads in our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groanings too deep for utterance.”
Well, the beginning of that verse says: “So too the Spirit comes to our aid and bears us up in our weakness…”
What happened next was a sensation of growing heat in the solar plexus, accompanied by a buzzing sound in my ears that soon became a sort of “inaudible BOOM”! The only way I can describe this is that it could be reproduced by being stone deaf and standing between two huge Chinese gongs while they are being struck simultaneously. It was a soul-deep resonating to some sort of long, slow and rhythmic internal sound that descended around me like a warm, comforting cloud.
And there was a voice; not audible, and not really in my head, so to speak, but a voice nevertheless that was supernally rich and rapturously tender.
“You KNOW that I LOVE you, my child,” the voice said. “But until you remove the darkness from between us, I can do nothing.”
The words vibrated every cell in my body from a depth of being that is impossible to describe.
“WHAT?!?” I cried back. My mind raced through all the aspects of my life. Like the proverbial moment before death when all of a person’s deeds pass before their eyes, I reviewed every facet of my existence, enumerating all the ways in which I was endeavoring to seek only to do the will of God. I couldn’t find a single breach in this “contract” where one could think that evil would enter the picture. In a sense, I was laying all this out as a sort of legal pleading in my mind.
At this point, a response came, though not in words. It was a movie being run in my mind/soul/awareness. I was shown my children in a series of vignettes that brought up the deep love and devotion I had for them, and the purpose was made clear that I was to understand that my love for my children, as great as it was, was merely a “human” love and could, in no way, equal the love of the Creator for his creation. I was being infused with this love. It was consoling and warmly caressing to a level that is impossible to express with words.
Then the scene changed and I was shown my children being warned about an ant bed; that they should leave the ants alone and not “play in the dirt” of the anthill. But, as children will, their curiosity about the anthill led them to it, and their lack of knowledge of ants coupled with their foolhardy, naive bravery caused them to begin to jump into the anthill just to see what would happen. The result was that they suddenly were covered with ants, biting and stinging them and they were running to me, screaming for relief.
Then, there I was, soothing them and brushing away the ants, and explaining that I could get rid of the ants, and I could put salve on the bites to soothe the pain, but it would do no good if they hadn’t learned something from the experience about ants, and certainly, they would never forget what it felt like to be bitten by them. There might be scars on the skin, and certainly there would be scars in the mind.
Well, I certainly didn’t see how my life related to children playing in an ant bed! “What are the ants?” I asked. “What is the evil in my life?”
And the voice came again, this time with overtones of sternness combined with sorrow: “Learn!”
And it reverberated away into silence as the sound of the engines began to return to my awareness. I was still feeling the sensation of the great infusion of love that had come with the first part of the interaction. I call it that, because it was hardly a vision in strict terms, though something happened of a visionary nature.
For weeks I was sustained by this love, and I certainly needed it.
My grandmother died two weeks after the sheriff delivered the eviction notice saying that we had been foreclosed and must vacate the house that had belonged to her for over 40 years, which she had transferred ownership to me, and which I had then trusted to my mother for tax purposes, in her name. (The taxes were lower because she could claim more exemptions).
My grandmother died as much from a broken heart at the betrayal by her daughter (my mother) as from the cancer.
We were effectively homeless and broke. We still had property of our own, but it was undeveloped and located out in the boondocks away from everything. We could have sold it and used the money to rent a house, but I knew that would be only a temporary solution. We certainly couldn’t buy a house because my ex-husband was too depressed to work and our credit had been destroyed in the collapse of the business.
So we sold our equipment and used the money to buy building materials, and went to the woods to live on the land. We built a small house and moved in with the necessities, putting most of my furniture and books and other possessions in storage. The only luxury we kept at hand was my piano. There we were, in a cabin in the woods with no electricity or running water, but we had a baby grand in the corner!
At this point there was the daily struggle to see to it that there was enough food for my small children so that they would not have to go to bed hungry at night. Most of the time they didn’t even have shoes to wear, and it was only by charity that they had clothes. We went from owning several homes, investment property and a business, to literally nothing.
And then, there was the work.
I don’t know how many of you have tried the living on the land philosophy/lifestyle, but it’s a lot of work. When you have a hand pump in the yard about 40 feet from the house, it is a lot of work to keep water available for all the normal uses of five people — especially when three of those people are small children.
My already compromised physical condition was really not up to that level of work. But, I was determined to maintain as normal a standard of living as possible, so it was a question of determination and will to continue to do what had to be done against the deterioration of my body.
But enough of that! The point was to establish the objectivity of suffering. Suffice it to say, that through all of this, I was sure that my faith was being tested and tried by fire. I never wavered. I will admit that I often woke up at night in so much psychological and emotional pain at the loss of my grandmother (actual) and my mother (virtual), as well as the worries for the future of my children (realistic), that I would get up and pace in the darkness, wringing my hands and crying. I would find a quiet, private place, and sit and rock and weep in the struggle to continue to find the love in the moment, so that I could go on another day.
I continued to ponder the command to “learn” that had been given so many months before on the boat. I needed that contact again. It was at this point that I decided that the only way I was going to accomplish this objective was to be able to truly open my heart to God so that he could infuse me on a permanent basis with this thing I so much lacked. Thus, the idea grew in me that I must still my own voice, both internal and external, so that I could hear daily the voice that betokens God’s presence within.
I searched the Bible for clues as to how to go about this within the parameters of the religion. I knew about meditation and that this was one way to achieve a contact, but since I was in the faith trip, whatever I did had to be within the guidelines. I found a reference in Psalms where the psalmist says: “Let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable unto thee, Oh Lord.”
Well, that’s good enough for me! There it was, right in the Bible!
I began to meditate on the love of God. That seemed to be the acceptable way to do it by the rules. And it was at this point that things began to really happen.
As I wrote in Amazing Grace, one Sunday during this time, I was sitting in church during the Pastoral prayer. I was praying hard along with the Minister that God would send the Holy Ghost to me to help me understand all that I needed to understand. The pastor’s wife, a gifted musician, was evoking celestial harmonies in counterpoint to the mellifluous voice of the shepherd of our flock, lost in the drama of the prayer. It was my favorite part of the service because he was so erudite and articulate and she was so talented a partner in service to God.
Suddenly, I heard a buzzing noise, or a crackling sound; similar to the sound of bacon sizzling in the pan; and the voice of the pastor and the resonant “Amens” from the congregation became very far away and metallic sounding exactly as if I were hearing them broadcast from a loudspeaker under water.
This shocked me and my eyes snapped open to see if my vision was impaired because I thought I might be having a stroke or something. I was completely dismayed to see that the Minister, standing at the podium, gripping the stand with both hands, his eyes closed and his head thrown back in the profound drama of his praying, was overlaid with a shimmering, living, image of a wolf!
It was exactly as if a film was being projected onto him where the image of the wolf, in full color, was a sort of alter ego and all the expressions of the pastor were corrupted and twisted by the matching expressions of the wolf. When the Minister would move his hands or shake his head — so did the wolf. The gaping jaws of this toothsome figure from Hell exactly matched every move of the Minister’s mouth! It was not a solid figure; it was a projection of light, so to speak.
I quickly looked around the sanctuary to see if this was a complete delusion, and was shocked to see similar overlays on all the people there. Many of them were sheep, but there were also pigs and cows and other creatures represented.
I was horrified! I was sure that the Devil had me now for sure! Here I was, in the middle of church, seeing our beloved Minister in the guise of a wolf! It was damnation for certain!
I closed my eyes and prayed harder. The sound anomaly continued and I opened my eyes to peek again. The wolf was still there dramatizing the euphoniously intoned pastoral prayer.
I squeezed my eyes tightly shut and prayed and prayed and rebuked Satan and finally began to just repeat the Lord’s prayer over and over again to drive this image from my reality. Soon, it began to taper off and die away and when I opened my eyes again, the wolf was gone and I was very relieved to have won this battle with Satan.
A couple of Sundays later, we arrived a little late, expecting the services to be already started. We were surprised to see the congregation all gathered outside the church door, milling about like lost sheep.
We discovered that the Minister had done a midnight flit, so to speak, leaving the church in a bad way, having embezzled a huge amount of money from the funds that were supposed to pay the bills for the building and supply the various organizations. There was even a bill for dock rent for a rather large yacht that the church was also paying for, unbeknownst to all the members.
All the expensive furnishings of the luxurious parsonage were gone, the mortgages on both buildings were on the verge of foreclosure, the electricity was about to be shut off — and the Minister and his family were gone to parts unknown. A real wolf in sheep’s clothing, so to speak.
I was stunned. I realized that my vision was exactly what I had been praying for: The Holy Spirit revealing the truth to me; and I had rebuked it and cast it away!
This resulted in a shift in my faith in my own ability to be “in touch” with God, or whoever was in charge of this Universe. Clearly, I had been shown the truth under the surface, and my self-doubts and belief in the authority of others had interfered with my “communion with Holy Spirit”.
I understood an essential thing: if you truly pray for guidance, deeply and sincerely, it will come, but it may not be what you want to hear or believe and it may go against what others are saying or teaching.
But this, of course, raised other questions. The most dominant was how was one to tell when it was a misleading influence and how to tell if it was truly a Divine Revelation? If a number of people are claiming that the “Holy Spirit” is giving them revelations and these revelations are contradictory, then somebody is right excluding the others, or all of them are wrong. We have only our knowledge and reason with which to analyze and compare.
So it was back to the books.
One point that should be made here is: I had faith, I prayed diligently and fervently, I struggled and strove for that love, that subsuming of all other emotions into an all pervasive, comprehensive Love of God — and it surely did something!
There were actually, during that time, other events that could be termed visionary and ecstatic, but they aren’t relevant, so I won’t go into them now. Suffice it to say, they were supportive in every way of the idea that I had to learn what was under the surface in order to know what to accept as truth, or even partial truth. The only way to discern a “lying spirit” was to have some yardstick by which to determine as much of the objective truth as possible. That meant knowledge, “testing the spirits” by checking up on their accuracy.
Not long after, my fourth child was born and I was basically forced to spend more time studying and meditating and, as some of you know, the result of this period was my still unpublished book: The Noah Syndrome.
At this point, I was 33 years old and had spent three years in this experiment which did not really start as an experiment, but that is how it turned out.
What emerged in my mind was the fact that when you ask a question — if the question is a burning one — your life becomes the answer. All of your experiences and interactions and so forth shape themselves around the core of the answer that you are seeking in your soul. In this case, the question was: How to be One with God, and the answer was, Love is the answer, but you have to have knowledge to know what Love really is. As the writer of the book of James says:
Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter trials of any sort, or fall into various temptations. Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience. But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfectly and fully developed, lacking in nothing. If any of you is deficient in wisdom, let him ask of the giving God who gives to everyone liberally and ungrudgingly, without reproaching or faultfinding, and it will be given him. Only it must be in faith that he asks, with no wavering — no hesitating, no doubting… What is the use for anyone to profess to have faith if he has no works? Can faith save? … Faith if it does not have works, by itself is destitute of power — inoperative, dead… You see that a man is justified through what he does and not alone through faith — through works of obedience as well as by what he believes. (Amplified, Zondervan)
I understood that the poverty of my life, the torment and the suffering, the loss of things I loved, and the many related and complex events were an expression of my actual state of being the poverty of my knowledge relative to what I was capable of knowing. When I plunged headfirst into “Faith without knowledge/works” I was choosing death, for “faith without works is… dead.”
But what were these works? What was it that God gives liberally and ungrudgingly? Knowledge.
For that which is known about God, is evident to them [man] and made plain in their inner consciousness; because God has shown it to them. For, ever since the creation of the world, His invisible nature and attributes have been made intelligible and clearly discernible in and through the things that have been made — His handiwork. (Amplified, Zondervan)
According to the Sufi perspective, There is no God but God and knowledge concerns itself with knowing God. But in order to gain knowledge of God, it is necessary to utilize the intermediary of creation, which is, in fact, the purpose of all that exists. It not only is God, it is the path to God. It is incumbent upon the seeker to learn all he can with a view toward God. All things must be gathered into the knowledge base of the Seeker to be taken back to God exactly as described in the Parable of the Talents.
To not work as diligently as possible to know God through the creation — and that includes all branches of knowledge and art and craft — is defined by the apostle as passing judgment on God.
And so, since they did not see fit to acknowledge God or approve of Him or consider Him worth the knowing… [His invisible nature and attributes have been made intelligible and clearly discernible in and through the things that have been made — His handiwork.] O man, whoever you are who judges and condemns another… for in posing as judge and passing sentence on another you condemn yourself, because you who judge are habitually practicing the very same things that you censure and denounce… (Amplified, Zondervan)
This seems to be precisely what I experienced. I dove into the faith/love and light trip and all Hell broke loose!
In looking back over the experiences recounted above, we can see that I was thinking about and focusing on “love and light and faith”. But that is not what I experienced in my creation! Though, in a funny sort of way, my faith was answered! But, what an answer! Not at all what I was expecting!
Now, it has been recently suggested by a correspondent that I have some sort of inherent ability to manifest that is so powerful that my environment and experiences shift suddenly and dramatically in response to my inner state. This may be so, but I don’t think I am alone in this. I think that it is true to one extent or another with everyone. It is true that you create your own reality and in some twisted sense, it is true that you do it by what you think and focus on… but there is a real Catch 22 involved in there and it is that factor that we are going to be investigating next!
1 Ibid.
2 Ibid.
3 There is actually a Fifth Way, but we are not going to discuss this just now. Suffice it to say that Fifth Way work is rare, and reserved for rare individuals who emerge at nodal points in human history. Indeed, we are at such a point, but there is little point in describing the Fifth Way for general readers.
4 Note that this was written before 9-11 and the takeover of the U.S. by a “fundamentalist ideology” that promotes the ideals of the Inquisition: Kill them all, God will know his own.
5 Ouspensky, The Fourth Way.
6 I really laughed at Michael Topper’s veiled allusion to Ramtha.
7 William J. Baldwin, D.D.S., Ph.D., Spirit Releasement Therapy: A Technique Manual (Falls Church, VA: Human Potential Foundation, 1993).
8 I probably would not make the same choice now, but I don’t regret that choice at all. My third daughter and fourth child is a remarkable human being. The reader has her to thank for copyediting this manuscript.
The writing of this book series pretty much took on a life of its own. It started out with a “plan” of only nine segments,1 and I intended to get from a designated “point A” to a conclusion, “point B”, with a minimum of words. I never dreamed that there would be so much resonance with so many people who would write to me and propose questions and subjects that pretty much fit into sub-categories of The Wave.
The present discussion of what it is we may be here to learn in order to graduate, was not part of the original plan. In the original plan, it was going to be mostly technical information about The Wave itself. But, clearly this concept is far more than that and I am flowing with it in response to everyone who wrote to encourage and assure me that my efforts are truly worthwhile. To all of you, I say thank you!
While, on the one hand, in response to what I am writing, there are those who are saying, “Finally, the fog is lifting,” and such things, on the other hand there are those who are manifesting in a very real ways the very things I am talking about, i.e., being in prison and under the influence of the Predator’s Mind.
To give an example of what I am talking about, since we are in the mode of giving concrete examples and have given Mumbo Jumbo the boot, one correspondent wrote to me:
People have e-mailed [Carla, the Ra channel, and Jim] about your comments about them/Ra in The Wave… The e-mailers seem to have taken offense and thought that Carla and Jim should also. My opinion… is… that you were simply expressing your opinion as you see the situation from your own perspective, that no ill intention was involved…
Having had a fine relation with Carla for some time, our main differences being semantical rather than actual, I naturally was stricken to think that anyone took offense at any of my remarks, since it was clear (I thought) that objective validation of their work with Ra was uppermost in my mind. But, that is how the forces of entropy work through people and it is the main subject of this essay that is shaping up here. I wrote back to this correspondent as follows:
I would have to say that anyone who took offense — or felt motivated to urge offense — simply isn’t getting it. Those are personal issues and we are not dealing with personal issues here. What we are dealing with is, in effect, a defense of the significance of the Ra Material as a great breakthrough in the history of channeling. I think that is clear from all my comments.
But, the issue still remains in the minds of many folks who have written to me when I suggest (as I have been doing for a long time) that they read the Ra work… that if it was so good, why did Don kill himself? And why does it seem that Ra, being a “higher being who supposedly had access to realms of greater awareness” couldn’t grasp the idea of conventional colloquialism and standard definitions? Added to this was the question: if Ra is trying to teach such concepts, why is it “obfuscated” to most people?
The answers people form in their lack of knowledge generally consist of the idea that Ra was a “Trojan Horse” demonic who drove Don to his death, and therefore the validity of the material is compromised in the worst possible way. The next conclusion they draw is that Ra was not who and what he claimed to be and the evidence is the obscuration of language.
Perhaps those who insulate themselves in cocoons of wishful thinking or “true believership” aren’t aware of these concerns, or do not wish to address them — thinking that if you ignore it, it will go away.
Our position is that every legitimate question and concern deserves an answer — even if the answer can only be reached by the individual asking himself or herself. But, in this case, these concerns are serious, not only for the Ra group, but for the whole field of work — channeling; the idea of not only the existence of, but the possibility of communication with, “higher beings”. (For lack of a better term).
Thus, I began my examination and questions from the “theoretical position” (even if it was influenced by the C’s assurance that it was so), that Ra and the Ra work was exactly what Ra stated — a contact with 6th density unified thought form beings (social memory complexes), and went from there. If that hypothesis is to be validated, then there must be accommodation within it that explains what actually occurred… otherwise, it is nonsense.
Those who wish to live in the land of “true believers” will, of course, find this approach to be offensive. But the history of “true believership”, when analyzed and laid bare, leads to the obvious conclusion that such a position is precarious at best, disastrous at worst.
A hypothesis HAS to explain the events, or it has to be thrown out! What is YOUR hypothesis for the nature of the contact and the results??????
Nothing is black and white — simple observational conclusion — but there are many who prefer to see it that way. They see that the “fruits” of the Ra contact was the death of Don Elkins by his own hand, and a body of material that is tortuous and often difficult to read.
Those are facts
>How does one deal with those facts other than retreating into wishful thinking or by feats of cerebral gymnastics? We are using Ockham’s Razor here…
As to whether it is just “my opinion”, that may be so, but it is an opinion born of a lot of research and study and experience. But, as noted, it is more than an opinion… it is the result of much discussion and creating of a number of hypotheses that have been “tried and discarded”, leaving only one that sufficiently explains the FACTS. (Assuming, of course, that Ra is who and what he says he is.)
I wrote to Carla. Even if there is a “divergence” in our approaches to how to deal with things at THIS level of reality, we are certainly in agreement as to what RESULTS are useful. I would not for the WORLD hurt Carla and Jim. My intent was exactly the opposite… to provide an adequate explanation for things that are very troubling… to validate the material itself (hopefully it will increase the numbers of people who actually will read the Ra Material — and that DOES seem to be a result as people are now writing to me saying “oh! I see! Okay, that makes sense… I can read it now!”) And, if that happens, if it stops the rumors and whispers that have been floating around and growing — well, it has served its purpose.
In this field, you just can’t have “sensitivities and personal agendas”. Carla knows that and I know that. That is why, after very protracted and painful deliberation, I agreed to allow a journalist inside my life — knowing full well that the result would be to some extent “distortion and bias”. The end result was, of course, that even though he could find no deception, no manipulation, no “dirt” in my work, he still had to put a “personal spin” on the story that ended up being a rather shallow and “cheesy” take on very serious work. The good thing is that it let people “inside” in a very public way and thereby attracted them to the work because they feel like they “know me”.
So, enduring the “spin” was just the price that had to be paid. If you have read the article in the Times, you will note that Tom French remarked that he was always “bored” at the sessions. That says more about him than me. The same can be said for those who have taken offense at what is written in the referenced pages… it says more about them than me.
The following day, I received a response from Carla saying:
Hey there Laura —
several readers wrote me about your material, and i did look it over. i think people were upset because they felt perhaps don and i were being judged this or that way.
as far as i am concerned, and i told each person this, your opinions are rightfully your opinions, and i am totally accepting of them, not necessarily that they are right as far as i am concerned, but that they are your thoughts from the heart.
i KNOW you did not mean to offer disrespect. you and i have a good relationship, a friendship that goes beyond our being channels or in the same weird field of inquiry. i think we are both really honest people, and when we offer our thoughts, people might take them as unflattering. hey, i can take it! it’s totally ok between you and me. we are both doing our sincere best to give the best that is in us in service to others. what can we ask of each other more than that?
i feel as though i just want to be a force for harmonization of all positive material. and i cannot do that by taking offense and being picky and petty with you or with anyone. let’s both just redouble our efforts to serve, and let the chips fall where they may.
So, I hope the reader can see how people can be agents of Entropy and division when they are not aware of how the Predator’s mind operates as their mind:
The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind… Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.2
And this is precisely what we are trying to talk about here. How the Predator (i.e., Lizzies, Entropic forces, et al.) influences our lives when, on the surface, and even at many deeper levels, there is no seeming evidence.
How do we tell?
I have said before and I will say it again: I have never seen a Lizzie! Some people claim to have seen them and I can’t judge whether or not they are delusional or simply more in tune than I am and what they are reporting is a fact. But I have seen them through the descriptions of many people under hypnosis who have claimed to be abducted by aliens. I also see them constantly in my research — in myth and legend down through the millennia. Others have seen them in hallucinogen-induced visions, ecstatic states, dreams, and so forth. In nearly all cases, the descriptions are so similar, the dynamics of the interaction so consistent, that I cannot help but think that we are dealing with a large part of the Control System as elucidated by Jacques Vallee:
I believe that when we speak of UFO sightings as instances of space visitations we are looking at the phenomenon on the wrong level. We are not dealing with successive waves of visitations from space. We are dealing with a control system.
The thermostats that regulate your house temperature summer and winter are an example of a control system. In summer, a thermostat allows the air to get warmer until a certain limit is reached, and then the cooling system is triggered. But in winter, when the outside atmosphere turns cold and the temperature drops below another limit, a different mechanism, the heater, comes into play and warms the house. A naive observer might try to explain all this by assuming that warm is “good” and cold is “bad”. He or she would be right half the time. Another naive observer of the opposite school might take a reversed view and decide that warm is “evil”. He or she would also be right half the time. To understand the whole phenomenon one needs a grasp of the control concept, and one must be ready to understand that it needs two opposite principles for its function.
I propose that there is a spiritual control system for human consciousness and those paranormal phenomena like UFOs are one of its manifestations. I cannot tell whether this control is natural and spontaneous; whether it is explainable in terms of genetics, or social psychology, or of ordinary phenomena — or if it is artificial in nature, under the power of some superhuman will. It may be entirely determined by laws that we have not yet discovered.
I am led to this idea by the fact that, in every instance of the UFO phenomenon I have been able to study in depth, I have found as many rational elements as absurd ones, as many that I could call friendly as I could call hostile. This is what tells me that we are working on the wrong level. And so are all the believers, and this definitely includes the skeptics, because they believe they can explain the facts as strongly as the most enthusiastic convert to Ms. Dixon’s vision of Jupiterian Amazons!
There are ways to gain access to the reference level of every control system. Even a child, if smart or daring enough, can climb on a chair, change the dial of a thermostat, and elicit a response. (The response in question might be a sound spanking from his father, of course. The road to higher knowledge has such accidents.) It must be possible to gain access to the control of the UFO phenomenon, to forget the spirits and the pranks and the claims of extraterrestrial contact, and do some real science. But it will take a very smart approach — and a very daring one.
…A newspaper column commented upon the apparent lack of reality of the whole UFO phenomenon: “It does not attack us. It does not affect our daily lives. It does not help us with our many problems. It has brought us nothing of value. It may have scared a few folks here and there, but then so do thunder storms and tornadoes. The whole thing, as a social issue, is of no consequence whatsoever.” The journalist who wrote this column was superficially right, of course. But he forgot another fact:
…If UFOs are acting at the mythic and spiritual level it will be almost impossible to detect it by conventional methods. … UFOs cannot be analyzed through the standard research techniques, if they are the means through which man’s concepts are being rearranged. All we can do is trace their effects on humans and hope that we eventually stumble on some principle that explains their behavior.
What is the variable being controlled in this control system? Thermostats control temperature; gyroscopes control the direction in which a rocket flies. What could a paranormal phenomenon control? I suggest that it is human belief that is being controlled and conditioned.
My speculation is that a level of control of society exists which is a regulator of human development, and that the UFO phenomenon should be seen at this level.3
Did you catch that? “If UFOs are acting at the mythic and spiritual level it will be almost impossible to detect it by conventional methods.”
This is my point. If “Lizzies” or “The Predator” or “Entropic Forces” act on us as is described by not only many ancient sources through myths and legends, but by Gurdjieff, don Juan, Ra and the Cassiopaeans, it will be almost impossible to detect by ordinary means.
And it is in this respect that the Cassiopaeans have been an invaluable guide in our passage beyond Scylla and Charybdis. Which is not to say that once one danger has been avoided that another does not appear. They do. And, in general, they seem to get more and more subtle.
Since we have already noted the response to my little “tweak” of the control system above, in the emails of the offended Ra fans, there is a more serious level that I would like to tell you about.
Since the day the last couple of chapters were uploaded to our website,4 the energy has been very strange around here. And this is where I am going to tell you some of the things we look for when trying to determine the “temperature” of the Control System.
Not only did we post the “Truth Is Out There” sections, but also we have been setting up the Russian version of the site. A member of our group lives in Russia and has been working diligently on getting some basic material translated. There have been a number of glitches involved with that, and the most interesting was, of course, that as soon as he finished the first section and it was formatted by Ark and loaded onto the site, Alex’s computer began to act up and we were afraid that the project would have to be brought to a halt.
The problem turned out to be overheating, which was pretty symbolic, to say the least. If you begin to see your reality as a symbol system, how are you to interpret such a thing? Did Alex’s computer “heat up” because his “higher self” was communicating to him that something was “too hot”, or was it a signal that his efforts were adding heat to the system; or even that his efforts were unwelcome in certain realms and denizens of same were showing him that they could “cook his goose”? And those are just the most obvious possible interpretations!
But then, things turned in a funny direction. The material that I intended to present in this chapter you are now reading was actually finished on the 30th of June. When I began the actual writing some days earlier, I hesitated over what and how much I ought to reveal about such matters. Finally, I decided to tell pretty much the whole story that was on my mind, changing only the names of those involved for protection of their privacy.
One problem remained: three of the names of the people involved were part and parcel of the Symbol system under discussion. So much a part, in fact, that one of my children contracted an illness with the name of one of these people. I was thinking how I was going to convey this dynamic and still use a pseudonym for this person. I finally resolved it by finding another name that was both a disease and a woman’s first name.
As I was writing about the situation, I was asking myself some questions about this particular person’s role, (and we are going to call her Candida, or Candy for short) in the soon to be revealed bizarre drama. But, let me get on with the story.
At the very period of my life when I was approaching the breakthrough to the Cassiopaean contact (though I didn’t know it at the time), a great deal of opposing energy came against me, to the extent that my life was literally in danger on more than one occasion. The source of the danger seemed to be centered in two different groups, and the only thing that these two groups had in common with each other was this woman, Candy. Further, the only way there was any connection at all between me and these groups, was by virtue of my friendship with Candy. (It’s a truly strange story, as you will soon see.)
At the same time that I was writing this story — which started off with my experiences with Reiki — curiously, the discussion on the Cassiopaean e-groups mail list turned to the subject of Reiki! Well, that’s not so unusual. I’ve gotten used to such “ordinary” synchronicities.
After a couple of days of intense work, (the whole thing was a struggle to get into words because of the very strangeness of it and multiple levels of interaction and complexity), I felt that it was finished and I was getting ready to switch to another program. I went to click the minimize icon at the top of the window but inadvertently clicked the close icon. Well, I realized that I had done it, so when the prompt box came up that I assumed said, “Do you really want to quit?” I quickly clicked no. But, what the prompt really said was, “Do you want to save the changes to file…”
So, the entire day’s work was gone. (Yeah, I forgot to save every ten minutes or so. Awareness and vigilance were not being practiced!)
What is worse, this was a subject that I had never before written about; so it was all first hand work. A lot of these pages consist of excerpts from transcripts, quotes from books that are scanned and converted to text, and a few pages of connecting dialogue that I write here and there to help it all to make sense. This was the first time that I had to write everything from scratch — and it was gone.
I was sick. It was about 20 pages of script that I had sweated blood working through.
Well, I went outside to water the flowers and think about it a bit while Ark went through the system to see if there wasn’t some way he could retrieve it. No luck. It was gonezerooni. Sayonara. Hasta la vista! And all that.
I thought about the level of exposure of the control system that I might be activating in this story, and the fact that it (the control system) certainly might not wish to be exposed in that way. I thought about the groups I was writing about and their possible connections to some really dark doings here on the Big Blue Marble.
I had stumbled upon these groups inadvertently then, had been able to read the clues and extricate myself in the nick of time, so to speak, but I had certainly seen a level of the “man behind the curtain” that most people don’t see and survive. They had tried to kill me, and if it was desirable to do so then, they surely would have some sense that their maneuvers and manipulations might be being exposed now and they could sort of reach a “mind tentacle” in my direction to generate impatience and mental confusion in my state of extreme tiredness so that I was not paying close enough attention when closing my file.
I came back inside, and Ark told me that now his computers were acting up. Very strange behavior, loss of a file similar to my own incident; freeze ups; the server went down; e-groups were suddenly inaccessible; his halogen lamp suddenly stopped working, and so forth. And all of this on top of a flat tire on the car and an expensive brake job on the van in the days following the launching of the Russian site. I was beginning to think that maybe I was stepping over the line with my revelations.
I went into the study where we do the sessions and took out my handy dandy Russian Gypsy cards and shuffled them around for a minute while thinking what I ought to do. I began to lay out the cards.
Now, anybody who is familiar with this deck knows that each card has four segments, and each segment is a half picture. There are 25 cards and 50 pictures. The only pictures that are “read” are those that are “completed” by virtue of falling next to a card that has the other half of the picture. In such a case, even if the cards are not aligned so that the halves fall together, you are supposed to rotate the two adjacent cards so that the two halves match. Because the adjacent half of any picture can be above, below or on either side, this means that the picture can fall in one of four positions or “directions”. This direction is part of the “reading” of the picture.
On any number of occasions when I have used these cards, I have always had 3 or more matches. That is pretty standard. But, as I laid the cards down this time, card after card was put in position with no matches — until I got to the very last row when picture number 26 fell… without need to rotate either card to bring the halves together. (That doesn’t happen very often at all!)
And what did number 26 indicate? It is a picture of a book.
The question was whether I should just skip telling the story — certainly related to a “book” in theme. And the interpretation is:
The secret you have been told is going to be disclosed. Either you or someone else will make it public. Knowledge and information are ever changing and what is secret one minute can be public the next. This should be of no concern to you if you have been aboveboard and honest in your dealings.
There were further permutations that didn’t apply to this case, but this one certainly did. So, I resolved to rewrite the piece, and bump my awareness up a few notches.
But then, another very strange thing happened.
Ark receives all the email from the site and forwards to my computer anything that is addressed specifically to me. He had received an email at almost exactly the time that I had made the fatal error of closing the file without saving, and he had forwarded. But I had been so upset that I did not come back to the computer until the next day when I opened and read the e-mail. It said:
Hi Laura,
…I am a friend of [Candy]. She had told me about the Cassiopaeans and that you and she started these transmissions a while back. If that is you, she wanted to get in contact with you again.
The history of the coming of the Cassiopaeans is pretty well known and witnessed by a number of people. I have written to some extent about the many people who came and went from the early experimental sessions, but who did not have the patience or inclination to stay with it. Candy was one of several dozen occasional participants. I find it curious that she is telling her current associates that she and I started these transmissions! As the record will show, Candy was present for only two of the actual early Cassiopaean sessions, though she was present at approximately four other sessions prior to the Cassiopaean contact.
Nevertheless, there is the tweaking of my reality by the Control System in that Candy is apparently telling her friends that she was more or less instrumental.
But, what is even more disturbing is the fact that Candy (through a third party — an agent — mind you) attempts contact after almost six years, at the exact time that the file about her is lost. Not only that, but I was exactly in the process of mulling over the question of whether or not she was an innocent dupe of the very dark groups that I encountered through her, or if she was, in fact, knowledgeable and willingly a participant.
The problem here is that I like her! I liked her from the first instant I met her. She is charming and friendly and vivacious and funny beyond anything. Seeing the things I saw in the series of events I was writing about was very hard.
But, further and deeper: what kind of serpentine Control System can be aware of a person’s thoughts, intent and actions in the way that would be required to arrange such a series of bizarre events and synchronicities?
At this point I was thinking that it would be nice if she wanted to get in touch because she had given up her associations with those folks who are, as it appears to me, part and parcel of the manifestation of the Predator’s mind, the Lizzie faction, if you want to call it that. It would be nice…
So I called Terry and Jan to share with them this bizarre little series of events. They are both as familiar as I am with the ways the energies in the environment become chaotic and even destructive when a significant change is in the air. Terry advised me to be very careful and have nothing at all to do with Candy; didn’t I learn my lesson before? Weren’t there enough signs detected in the former interactions, which saved my buns from the fire so that I wouldn’t get burned again?
I agreed that he was right. But again, I really like Candy! It hurt me a lot to realize that she was just being friendly and trying to get close so that she could be a conduit of attack, so to speak. Maybe it would be different now?
Nope, Terry said. Not a chance!
But, I wondered. So, we did I Ching on this one. What is the deal with Candy?
Hexagram 39: OBSTRUCTION
Above: the abysmal water
Below: Keeping still, Mountain
The hexagram pictures a dangerous abyss lying before us, and a steep, inaccessible mountain rising behind us. We are surrounded by obstacles. But the mountain, whose attribute is keeping still, provides a hint as to how we can extricate ourselves. In the face of danger without, we must keep still within. It is by turning inward that our attention is directed to overcoming obstacles. Obstruction is not a lasting condition.
Six in the fourth place: going leads to obstruction. Coming brings about unity. Be wary of becoming entangled in conflicts and lawsuits, for they could create much trouble. If you continue to be diligent at work, you are likely to be promoted. If you are in school, you can expect to receive recognition and then a good job.
Well, a mountain “keeping still” in this case, means that I should not be moved from my “position” which is to continue to work to expose this Control System. But, obviously, I am going to have to write it very carefully so as to avoid being entangled in conflicts and, perhaps, even lawsuits, though I think the latter very unlikely.
In the case of my comments on the Ra Material and now, in my work on exposing one facet of the Control System, we find exactly what Dr. Vallee suggested might happen:
There are ways to gain access to the reference level of every control system. Even a child, if smart or daring enough, can climb on a chair, change the dial of a thermostat, and elicit a response.
It seems apparent to me that something is going on here. In learning about these things, I suffered much on my own. In telling about them, there seems to be an attempt to strengthen the feedback control mechanism. But, I am familiar with that response, and hopefully, I will be able to proceed with awareness.
At this point, the reader needs to be familiar with some rather disturbing material that will play a rather interesting part in the story I am going to tell. The passage is a bit longer than usual, but you will need to read it carefully . Someday, it might save your life too.
THE GREENBAUM SPEECH
Herein is the lecture by D.C. Hammond, originally entitled Hypnosis in MPD: Ritual Abuse, but now usually known as the “Greenbaum Speech,” delivered at the Fourth Annual Eastern Regional Conference on Abuse and Multiple Personality, Thursday June 25, 1992, at the Radisson Plaza Hotel, Mark Center, Alexandria, Virginia.
Sponsored by the Center for Abuse Recovery & Empowerment, The Psychiatric Institute of Washington, D.C.
Both a tape and a transcript were at one time available from Audio Transcripts of Alexandria, Virginia. Tapes and transcripts of other sessions from the conference are still being sold but — understandably — not this one. The transcript below was made from a privately made tape of the original lecture.
The single most remarkable thing about this speech is how little one has heard of it in the two years since its original delivery. It is recommended that one reads far enough at least until one finds why it’s called “The Greenbaum Speech”.
In the introduction the following background information is given for D. Corydon Hammond: B.S. M.S. Ph.D (Counseling Psychology) from the University of Utah.
— Diplomate in Clinical Hypnosis, the American Board of Psychological Hypnosis
— Diplomate in Sex Therapy, the American Board of Sexology
Clinical Supervisor and Board Examiner, American Board of Sexology
— Diplomate in Marital and Sex Therapy, American Board of Family Psychology
— Licensed Psychologist, Licensed Marital Therapist, Licensed Family Therapist, State of Utah— Research Associate Professor of Physical Medicine an Rehabilitation, Utah School of Medicine
— Director and Founder of the Sex and Marital Therapy Clinic, University of Utah.
— Adjunct Associate Professor of Educational Psychology, University of Utah Abstract
— Editor, The American Journal of Clinical Hypnosis
— Advising Editor and Founding Member, Editorial Board, The Ericsonian Monograph
— Referee, The Journal of Abnormal Psychology
— 1989 Presidential Award of Merit, American Society of Clinical Hypnosis
— 1990 Urban Sector Award, American Society of Clinical Hypnosis
— Current President, American Society of Clinical HypnosisThe Speech
We’ve got a lot to cover today and let me give you a rough approximate outline of the things that I’d like us to get into.
First, let me ask how many of you have had at least one course or workshop on hypnosis? Can I see the hands? Wonderful. That makes our job easier.
Okay. I want to start off by talking a little about trance-training and the use of hypnotic phenomena with an MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) dissociative-disorder population, to talk some about unconscious exploration, methods of doing that, the use of imagery and symbolic imagery techniques for managing physical symptoms, input overload, things like that.
Before the day’s out, I want to spend some time talking about something I think has been completely neglected in the field of dissociative disorder, and that’s talking about methods of profound calming for automatic hyper-arousal that’s been conditioned in these patients.
We’re going to spend a considerable length of time talking about age-regression and abreaction in working through a trauma. I’ll show you with a non-MPD patient — some of that kind of work — and then extrapolate from what I find so similar and different with MPD cases.
Part of that, I would add, by the way, is that I’ve been very sensitive through the years about taping MPD cases or ritual-abuse cases, part of it being that some of that feels a little like using patients and I think that this population has been used enough. That’s part of the reason, by choice, that I don’t generally videotape my work.
I also want to talk a bunch about hypnotic relapse-prevention strategies and post-integration therapy today.
Finally, I hope to find somewhere in our time-frame to spend on hour or so talking specifically about ritual abuse and about mind-control programming and brainwashing — how it’s done, how to get on the inside with that — which is a topic that in the past I haven’t been willing to speak about publicly, have done that in medium groups and in consultations, but recently decided that it was high time that somebody started doing it. So we’re going to talk about specifics today.
[Applause]
In Chicago at the first international congress where ritual abuse was talked about I can remember thinking, “How strange and interesting.” I can recall many people listening to an example given that somebody thought was so idiosyncratic and rare, and all the people coming up after saying, “Gee, you’re treating one, too? You’re in Seattle”…Well, I’m in Toronto…Well, I’m in Florida…Well, I’m in Cincinnati.” I didn’t know what to think at that point.
It wasn’t too long after that I found my first ritual-abuse patient in somebody I was already treating and we hadn’t gotten that deep yet. Things in that case made me very curious about the use of mind-control techniques and hypnosis and other brainwashing techniques.
So I started studying brainwashing and some of the literature in that area and became acquainted with, in fact, one of the people who’d written one of the better books in that area.
Then I decided to do a survey, and from the ISSMP&D [International Society for the Study of Multiple Personality and Dissociation] folks I picked out about a dozen and a half therapists that I thought were seeing more of that than probably anyone else around and I started surveying them.
The interview protocol, that I had got the same reaction almost without exception. Those therapists said, “You’re asking questions I don’t know the answers to. You’re asking more specific questions than I’ve ever asked my patients.” Many of those same therapists said, “Let me ask those questions and I’ll get back to you with the answer.” Many of them not only got back with answers, but said, “You’ve got to talk to this patient or these two patients.” I ended up doing hundreds of dollars worth of telephone interviewing.
What came out of that was a grasp of a variety of brainwashing methods being used all over the country. I started to hear some similarities. Whereas I hadn’t known, to begin with, how widespread things were, I was now getting a feeling that there were a lot of people reporting some similar things and that there must be some degree of communication here.
Then approximately two and a half years ago I had some material drop in my lap. My source was saying a lot of things that I knew were accurate about some of the brainwashing, but the individual was telling me new material I had no idea about.
At this point I decided to check it out in three ritual-abuse patients I was seeing at the time. Two of the three had what they were describing, in careful inquiry without leading or contaminating.
The fascinating thing was that as I did a telephone-consult with a therapist that I’d been consulting for quite a number of months on an MPD case in another state, I told her to inquire about certain things. She said, “Well, what are those things?” I said, “I’m not going to tell you, because I don’t want there to be any possibility of contamination. Just come back to me and tell me what the patient says.”
She called me back two hours later, said, “I just had a double session with this patient and there was a part of him that said, ‘Oh, we’re so excited. If you know about this stuff, you know how the Cult Programmers get on the inside and our therapy is going to go so much faster.’”
Many other patients since have had a reaction of wanting to pee their pants out of anxiety and fear rather than thinking it was wonderful thing. But the interesting thing was that she then asked, “What are these things?” They were word perfect — [the] same answers my source had given me.
I’ve since repeated that in many parts of the country. I’ve consulted in eleven states and one foreign country, in some cases over the telephone, in some cases in person, in some cases giving the therapist information ahead of time and saying, “Be very careful how you phrase this. Phrase it in these ways so you don’t contaminate.” In other cases not even giving the therapist information ahead of time so they couldn’t.
When you start to find the same highly esoteric information in different states and different countries, from Florida to California, you start to get an idea that there’s something going on that is very large, very well coordinated, with a great deal of communication and systematic-ness to what’s happening.
So I have gone from someone kind of neutral and not knowing what to think about it all to someone who clearly believes ritual abuse is real and that the people who say it isn’t are either naive — like people who didn’t want to believe the Holocaust or — they’re dirty.
[Applause]
Now for a long time I would tell a select group of therapists that I knew and trusted, information and say, “Spread it out. Don’t spread my name. Don’t say where it came from. But here’s some information. Share it with other therapists if you find it’s on target, and I’d appreciate your feedback.” People would question — in talks — and say they were hungry for information. Myself, as well as a few others that I’ve shared it with, were hedging out of concern and out of personal threats and out of death threats.
I finally decided to hell with them. If they’re going to kill me, they’re going to kill me. It’s time to share more information with therapists. Part of that comes because we proceeded so cautiously and slowly, checking things in many different locations and find the same thing.
So I’m going to give you the way in with ritual-abuse programming. I certainly can’t tell you everything that you want to know in forty-five or fifty minutes, but I’m going to give you the essentials to get inside and start working at a new level.
I don’t know what proportion, honestly, of patients have this. I would guess that maybe somewhere around at least fifty percent, maybe as high as three-quarters — I would guess maybe two-thirds of your ritual-abuse patients may have this.
What do I think the distinguishing characteristic is?
If they were raised from birth in a mainstream cult or if they were a non-bloodline person, meaning neither parent was in the Cult, but Cult people had a lot of access to them in early childhood, they may also have it. I have seen more than one ritual-abuse patient who clearly had all the kinds of ritual things you hear about. They seemed very genuine. They talked about all the typical things that you hear in this population, but had none of this programming with prolonged extensive checking. So I believe in one case I was personally treating that she was a kind of schizmatic break-off that had kind of gone off and done their own thing and were no longer hooked into a mainstream group.
[Pause]
Here’s where it appears to have come from. At the end of World War II, before it even ended, Allen Dulles and people from our Intelligence Community were already in Switzerland making contact to get out Nazi scientists. As World War II ends, they not only get out rocket scientists, but they also get out some Nazi doctors who have been doing mind-control research in the camps.5
They brought them to the United States. Along with them was a young boy, a teenager, who had been raised in a Hasidic Jewish tradition and a background of Cabalistic mysticism that probably appealed to people in the Cult because at least by the turn of the century Aleister Crowley had been introducing Cabalism into Satanic stuff, if not earlier. I suspect it may have formed some bond between them. But he saved his skin by collaborating and being an assistant to them in the death-camp experiments. They brought him with them.
They started doing mind-control research for Military Intelligence in military hospitals in the United States. The people that came, the Nazi doctors, were Satanists. Subsequently, the boy changed his name, Americanized it some, obtained an M.D. degree, became a physician and continued this work that appears to be at the center of Cult Programming today. His name is known to patients throughout the country.
[Pause]
What they basically do is they will get a child and they will start this, in basic forms, it appears, by about two and a half after the child’s already been made dissociative. They’ll make him dissociative not only through abuse, like sexual abuse, but also things like putting a mousetrap on their fingers and teaching the parents, “You do not go in until the child stops crying. Only then do you go in and remove it.” 6
They start in rudimentary forms at about two and a half and kick into high gear, it appears, around six or six and a half, continue through adolescence with periodic reinforcements in adulthood.
Basically in the programming, the child will be put typically on a gurney. They will have an IV in one hand or arm. They’ll be strapped down, typically naked. There’ll be wires attached to their head to monitor electroencephalograph patterns. They will see a pulsing light, most often described as red, occasionally white or blue. They’ll be given, most commonly I believe, Demerol. Sometimes it’ll be other drugs as well depending on the kind of programming. They have it, I think, down to a science where they’ve learned you give so much every twenty-five minutes until the programming is done.
They then will describe a pain on one ear, their right ear generally, where it appears a needle has been placed, and they will hear weird, disorienting sounds in that ear while they see photic stimulation to drive the brain into a brainwave pattern with a pulsing light at a certain frequency not unlike the goggles that are now available through Sharper Image and some of those kinds of stores.
Then, after a suitable period when they’re in a certain brainwave state, they will begin programming, programming oriented to self-destruction and debasement of the person.
In a patient, at this point in time about eight years old, who has gone through a great deal, early programming took place on a military installation. That’s not uncommon. I’ve treated and been involved with cases who are part of this original mind-control project as well as having their programming on military reservations in many cases. We find a lot of connections with the CIA.
This patient now was in a Cult school, a private Cult school where several of these sessions occurred a week. She would go into a room, get all hooked up. They would do all of these sorts of things. When she was in the proper altered state, now they were no longer having to monitor it with electroencephalographs, she also had already had placed on her electrodes, one in the vagina, for example, four on the head. Sometimes they’ll be on other parts of the body.
They will then begin and they would say to her, “You are angry with someone in the group.” She’d say, “No, I’m not” and they’d violently shock her. They would say the same thing until she complied and didn’t make any negative response. Then they would continue. “And because you are angry with someone in the group,” or “When you are angry with someone in the group, you will hurt yourself. Do you understand?” She said, “No” and they shocked her. They repeated again, “Do you understand?” “Well, yes, but I don’t want to.” Shock her again until they get compliance. Then they keep adding to it. “And you will hurt yourself by cutting yourself. Do you understand?” Maybe she’d say yes, but they might say, “We don’t believe you” and shock her anyway. “Go back and go over it again.”
They would continue in this sort of fashion. She said typically it seemed as though they’d go about thirty minutes, take a break for a smoke or something, come back. They may review what they’d done and stopped or they might review what they’d done and go on to new material. She said the sessions might go half an hour, they might go three hours. She estimated three times a week.
Programming under the influence of drugs in a certain brainwave state and with these noises in one ear and them speaking in the other ear, usually the left ear, associated with right hemisphere non-dominant brain functioning, and with them talking, therefore, and requiring intense concentration, intense focusing. Because often they’ll have to memorize and say certain things back, word-perfect, to avoid punishment, shock, and other kinds of things that are occurring.
This is basically how a lot of programming goes on. Some of it’ll also use other typical brainwashing kinds of techniques. There will be very standardized types of hypnotic things done at times. There’ll be sensory deprivation which we know increases suggestibility in anyone. Total sensory deprivation, suggestibility has significantly increased, from the research. It’s not uncommon for them to use a great deal of that, including formal sensory-deprivation chambers before they do certain of these things.
[Pause]
Now let me give you, because we don’t have a lot of time, as much practical information as I can.
The way that I would inquire as to whether or not some of this might be there would be with ideomotor finger-signals.7
After you’ve set them up I would say, “I want the central inner core of you to take control of the finger-signals.” Don’t ask the unconscious mind. The case where you’re inquiring about ritual abuse, that’s for the central inner core. The core is a Cult-created part. “And I want that central inner core of you to take control of this hand of these finger-signals and what it has for the yes-finger to float up. I want to ask the inner core of you is there any part of you, any part of Mary,” that’s the host’s name, “who knows anything about Alpha, Beta, Delta, or Theta.”
If you get a Yes, it should raise a red flag that you might have someone with formal intensive brainwashing and programming in place.
I would then ask and say, “I want a part inside who knows something about Alpha, Beta, Delta, and Theta to come up to a level where you can speak to me and when you’re here say, ‘I’m here’.”
I would not ask if a part was willing to. No one’s going to particularly want to talk about this. I would just say, “I want some part who can tell me about this to come out.”
Without leading them ask them what these things are.
I’ve had consults where I’ve come in… Sometimes I’ve gotten a Yes to that, but as I’ve done exploration it appeared to be some kind of compliance response or somebody wanting, in two or three cases, to appear maybe that they were ritually abused and maybe they were in some way, but with careful inquiry and looking it was obvious that they did not have what we were looking for.
Let me tell you what these are. Let’s suppose that this whole front row here are multiples and that she has an alter named Helen and she has one named Mary, she has one named Gertrude, she has one named Elizabeth, and she has one named Monica. Every one of those alters may have put on it a program, perhaps designated alpha-zero-zero-nine. A Cult person could say, “Alpha-zero-zero-nine” or make some kind of hand gesture to indicate this and get the same part out in any one of them even though they had different names that they may be known by to you.
Alphas appear to represent general programming, the first kind of things put in. Betas appear to be sexual programs. For example, how to perform oral sex in a certain way, how to perform sex in rituals, having to do with producing child pornography, directing child pornography, prostitution. Deltas are killers trained in how to kill in ceremonies.
There’ll also be some self-harm stuff mixed in with that, assassination and killing. Thetas are called psychic killers.
You know, I had never in my life heard those two terms paired together. I’d never heard the words “psychic killers” put together, but when you have people in different states, including therapists inquiring and asking, “What is Theta,” and patients say to them, “Psychic killers,” it tends to make one a believer that certain things are very systematic and very widespread.
This comes from their belief in psychic sorts of abilities and powers, including their ability to psychically communicate with “mother,” including their ability to psychically cause somebody to develop a brain aneurysm and die.
It also is a more future-oriented kind of programming.
Then there’s Omega. I usually don’t include that word when I say my first question about this or any part inside that knows about Alpha, Beta, Delta, Theta because Omega will shake them even more.
Omega has to do with self-destruct programming. Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. This can include self-mutilation as well as killing-themselves programming.
Gamma appears to be system-protection and deception programming which will provide misinformation to you, try to misdirect you, tell you half-truths, protect different things inside. There can also be other Greek letters.
I’d recommend that you go and get your entire Greek alphabet and if you have verified that some of this stuff is present and they have given you some of the right answers about what some of this material is, and I can’t underline enough: DO NOT LEAD THEM. Do not say, “Is this killers?” Get the answer from them, please. When you’ve done this and it appears to be present, I would take your entire Greek alphabet and, with ideomotor signals, go through the alphabet and say, “Is there any programming inside associated with epsilon, omicron,” and go on through.
There may be some systematic-ness to some of the other letter, but I’m not aware of it. I’ve found, for example, in one case that Zeta had to do with the production of snuff films that this person was involved with. With another person, Omicron had to do with their linkage and associations with drug smuggling and with the Mafia and with big business and government leaders. So there’s going to be some individualism, I think, in some of those.
Some of those are come-home programs, “come back to the Cult”, “return to the Cult” program.
Here’s the flaw in the system. They have built in shut-down and erasure codes so if they got into trouble they could shut something down and they could also erase something. These codes will sometimes be idiosyncratic phrases, or ditties. Sometimes they will be numbers maybe followed by a word. There’s some real individuality to that. At first I had hoped if we can get some of these maybe they’ll work with different people. No such luck. It’s very unlikely unless they were programmed at about the same point in time as part of the same little group. Stuff that I’ve seen suggests that they carry laptop computers, the programmers, which still include everything that they did twenty, thirty years ago in them in terms of the names of alters, the programs, the codes, and so on.
Now what you can do is get erasure codes, and I always ask, “If I say this code, what will happen?” Double-check. “Is there any part inside who has different information?” Watch your ideomotor signals and what I’ve found is you can erase programs by giving the appropriate codes, but then you must abreact the feelings.
So if you erase Omega, which is often where I’ve started because it’s the most high risk. Afterwards I will get all the Omega, what were formerly Omega alters, together so that we will abreact and give back to the host the memories associated with all the programming that was done with Omega and anything any Omega part ever had to do in a fractionated abreaction.
They use the metaphor — and it is their metaphor — of robots and it is like a robot shell comes down over the child alter to make them act in robotic fashion. Once in a while internally you’ll confront robots.
What I found from earlier work, and so I speed the process up now because I confirmed it enough times, is that you can say to the core, “Core, I want you to look — there’s this robot blocking the way in some way, blocking the progress. Go around and look at the back of the head and tell me what you notice on the back of the head or the neck.” I just ask it very non-leading like that and what’s commonly said to me is that there were wires or a switch.
So I’ll tell them, “Hold the wires or flip the switch and it will immobilize the robot and give me a yes-signal when you’ve done it.”
Pretty soon you get a yes-signal.
“Great. Now that the robot is immobilized, I want you to look inside the robot and tell me what you see.” It’s generally one or several children. I have them remove the children. I do a little hypnotic magic and ask the core to use a laser and vaporize the robot so nothing is left. They’re usually quite amazed that this works, as have been a number of therapists.
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Now that there are many different layers of this stuff is the problem. Let me come over to the overhead and give some ideas about them.
What we have up here are innumerable alters. I’ll tell you one of the fascinating things I’ve seen. I remember a little over a year ago coming in to see some cases, some of the tough cases at a dissociative-disorders unit of a couple of the finest of the MPD therapists in this country, who are always part of all the international meetings, have lectured internationally. We worked and I look at some of their patients. They were amazed at certain things because they had not been aware of this before.
As we worked with some of the patients and confirmed it, I remember one woman who’d been inpatient for three years, still was inpatient. Another who had one intensive year of inpatient work with all the finest MPD therapy you can imagine — abreactions, integrations, facilitating cooperation, art therapy, on and on and on, journaling, intensively for one inpatient year followed by an intensive year of outpatient therapy two, three hours a week.
In both patients we found out that all of this great work had done nothing but deal with the alters up here and had not touched the mind-control programming. In fact it was not only intact, but we found that the one who was outpatient was having her therapy monitored every session by her mother, out-of-state, over the telephone, and that she still had intact suggestions that had been give to her at a certain future time to kill her therapist.
Now one of the things that I would very carefully check is, I would suggest that you ask the core, not just the unconscious mind, ask the core, “Is there any part inside that continues to have contact with people associated with the Cult? Is there any part inside who goes to Cult rituals or meetings? Is there a recording device inside of Mary,” if that’s the host’s name, “a recording device inside so that someone can find out the things that are said in sessions?”
This doesn’t mean they’re monitored. Many of them just simply have it.
“Is there someone who debriefs some part inside for what happens in our therapy sessions?”
I have the very uncomfortable feeling from some past experience that when you look at this you will find the large proportion of ritual-abuse victims in this country are having their ongoing therapy monitored.
I remember a woman who came in about twenty-four years old, claimed her father was a Satanist. Her parents divorced when she was six. After that when her father had visitation, he would take her to rituals sometimes up until age fifteen. She said, “I haven’t gone to anything since I was fifteen.”
Her therapist believed this at face value. We sat in my office. We did a two-hour inquiry using hypnosis. We found the programming present. In addition to that we found that every therapy session was debriefed and in fact they had told her to get sick and not come to the appointment with me. Another one had been told that I was Cult and that if she came I would know that she’d been told not to come and I would punish her.
If anything meaningful comes out in a patient who’s being monitored like that — from what I’ve learned thus far, they’re tortured with electric shocks — my belief is if they’re in that situation you can’t do meaningful therapy other than being supportive and caring and letting them know you care a lot and you’ll be there to support them. But I wouldn’t try to work with any kind of deep material or deprogramming with them because I think it can do nothing but get them tortured and hurt unless they can get into a safe, secure inpatient unit for an extended period of time to do some of the work required.
I have a feeling that when you make inquiries you’re going to find that probably greater than fifty percent of these patients, if they’re bloodline, meaning mother or dad or both involved, will be monitored on some ongoing basis.
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Now when you come below the alters, you then have Alpha, Beta, Delta, Theta, so and so forth, the Greek-letter programming and they will then have backup programs. There will typically be an erasure code for the backups. There may be one code that combines all the backups into one and then an erasure code for them, simply one code that erases all the backups. So I will get the code for, let’s say, Omega and for all the Omega backups at the same time. After I’ve asked “What will happen if I give this,” I will give the code and then I will say, “What are you experiencing?” They often describe computer whirring, things erasing, explosions inside, all sorts of interesting things.
I’ve had some therapists come back and say, “My Lord, I had never said anything about robots; she said something about robots vaporizing.”
I remember one therapist who’d been with me in several hypnosis workshops and consulted with me about a crisis MPD situation. I told her to inquire about Alpha, Beta, Delta, Theta. She did. She got back to me saying, “Yeah, I got an indication it’s there. What is it?” I said, “I’m not going to tell you. Go back and inquire about some of this.”
We set an appointment for a week or so hence. She got back with me and said, “I asked what Theta was and she said, ‘psychic killers’. I asked her what Delta was and she said ‘killers’.” Okay.
So I told her about some of this stuff for a two-hour consult. She called back and she said, “This seemed too fantastic. I heard this and I thought, ‘Has Cory been working too hard?’” she said, I’m embarrassed to admit it, but she said, “I held you in high professional regard, but this just sounded so off in the twilight zone that I really thought, ‘Is he having a nervous breakdown or something?’” She said, “But I respected you enough to ask about this.” She said, “I asked another MPD patient and she didn’t have any of this.”
So in this patient she started describing things and how she worked, for example, with an erasure and she was describing things like robots vaporizing and kinds of things. She said, “I hadn’t told her about any of these things.”
Well, here’s the problem. There are different layers and I think some of them are designed to keep us going in circles forever. They figured we probably, in most cases, wouldn’t get below the alters which they purposefully created.
The way you create Manchurian Candidates is you divide the mind. It’s part of what the Intelligence Community wanted to look at. If you’re going to get an assassin, you’re going to get somebody to go do something, you divide the mind.
It fascinates me about cases like the assassination of Robert Kennedy, where Bernard Diamond, on examining Sirhan Sirhan found that he had total amnesia of the killing of Robert Kennedy, but under hypnosis could remember it. But despite suggestions he would be able to consciously remember, could not remember a thing after was out of hypnosis. I’d love to examine Sirhan Sirhan.
It appears that below this we’ve got some other layers. One is called “Green Programming” it appears. Isn’t it interesting that the doctor’s name is Dr. Green?
One of the questions in a way that does not contaminate is after I’ve identified some of this stuff is there and they’ve given me a few right answers about what some of it is, “If there were a doctor associated with this programming and his name were a color, you know, like Dr. Chartreuse or something, if his name were a color, what color would the color be?”
Now once in a while I’ve had some other colors mentioned in about three or four patients that I felt were trying to dissimulate in some way and I don’t really believe had this. In one case I got another color and I found out later it was a doctor whose name was a color who was being trained by Dr. Green almost thirty years ago and he supervised part of the programming of this woman under this doctor.
I remember one woman couldn’t come up with anything. No alter would speak up with anything. I said, “Okay,” and we went on to some other material. About two minutes later she said, “Green. Do you mean Dr. Green?”
We found this all over. There appears to be some Green Programming below that and I suspect that you get down to fewer and more central programs the deeper you go.
Well, all Green Programming is Ultra-Green and the Green Tree. Cabalistic mysticism is mixed all into this. If you’re going to work with this you need to pick up a couple of books on the Cabala. One is by a man named Dion Fortune called “Qabala” with a “q,” Dion Fortune. Another is by Ann Williams-Heller and it’s called “The Kabbalah”.
I knew nothing about the Cabala.8 It was interesting. A patient had sat in my waiting area, got there considerably early and drew a detailed multicolored Cabalistic Tree over two years ago. It took me two months to figure out what it was. Finally, showing it to somebody else who said, “You know? That looks an awful lot like the Cabala Tree” and that rang a bell with some esoterica in an old book and I dug it out. That was the background of Dr. Green.
Now the interesting thing about the Green Tree is his original name was Greenbaum. What does “greenbaum” mean in German? Green Tree, Ultra-Tree and the Green Tree.
I’ve also had patients who didn’t appear to know that his original name was Greenbaum, volunteered that there were parts inside named Mr. Greenbaum.
Now let me give you some information about parts inside that may be helpful to you if you’re going to inquire about these things, because my experience is one part will give you some information and either run dry or get defensive or scared and stop. and so you punt and you make an end run and you come around the other direction, you find another part. I’ll tell you several parts to ask for and ask if there’s a part by this name.
And, by the way, when I’m screening patients and fiddling around with this, I throw in a bunch of spurious ones and ask, “Is there a part inside by this name and by that name” as a check on whether or not it appears genuine. For example, “In addition to the core,” I ask, “is there a part inside named Wisdom?” Wisdom is a part of the Cabalistic Tree. Wisdom, I’ve often found, will be helpful and give you a lot of information. “Is there a part inside named Diana?” I mean I may throw in all sorts of things. “Is there a part inside named Zelda?” I’ve never encountered one yet! Just to see what kind of answers we get. I try to do this carefully. Diana is a part that, in the Cabalistic system, is associated with a part called the Foundation. You will be fascinated to know that.
Remember the Process Church? Roman Polanski’s wife, Sharon Tate, was killed by the Manson Family who were associated with the Process Church? A lot of prominent people in Hollywood were associated and then they went underground, the books say, in about seventy-eight and vanished?
Well, they’re alive and well in southern Utah. We have a thick file in the Utah Department of Public Safety documenting that they moved to southern Utah, north of Monument Valley, bought a movie ranch in the desert, renovated it, expanded it, built a bunch of buildings there, carefully monitored so that very few people go out of there and no one can get in and changed their name. A key word in their name is “Foundation”. The Foundation. There are some other words.
The Foundation is part of the Tree. So you can ask, “Is there something inside known as The Foundation?” I might ask other things to throw people off. “Is there something known as the Sub-Basement?” Well, maybe they’ll conceive of something. Or “Is there something known as the Walls?” There are a variety of questions you can come up with, to sort of screen some things.
I’ve also found that there will often be a part called “Black Master,” a part called “Master Programmer,” and that there will be computer operators inside.
How many of you have come into computer things in patients? There will typically be computer operators: Computer Operator Black, Computer Operator Green, Computer Operator Purple. Sometimes they’ll have numbers instead, sometimes they’ll be called Systems Information Directors. You can find out the head one of those. There’ll be a source of some information for you. I will ask inside, “Is there a part inside named Dr. Green?” You’ll find that there are, if they have this kind of programming, in my experience.
Usually with a little work and reframing, you can turn them and help them to realize that they were really a child-part who’s playing a role and they had no choice then, but they do now. You know, they played their role very, very well, but they don’t have to continue to play it with you because they’re safe here and in fact, “If the Cult simply found out that you talked to me, that you had shared information with me, you tell me what would they do to you?”
Emphasize that the only way out is through you and that they need to cooperate and share information and help you and that you’ll help them.
So all these parts can give you various information. Now they have tried to protect this very carefully. Let me give you an example with Ultra-Green.
I used to think this programming was only in bloodline people. I’ve discovered it in non-bloodline people, but it’s a bit different. They don’t want it to be just the same. I don’t think you’ll find deep things like Ultra-Green and probably not even Green Programming with non-bloodline people. But let me tell you something that I discovered first in a non-bloodline and then in a bloodline.
We were going along and a patient was close to getting well, approaching final integration in a non-bloodline and she suddenly started hallucinating and her fingers were becoming hammers and other things like that. So I used an affect-bridge and we went back and we found that what happened was that they gave suggestions, that if she ever got well to a certain point she would go crazy.
The way they did this was they strapped her down and they gave her LSD when she was eight years old. When she began hallucinating they inquired about the nature of the hallucinations so they could utilize them in good Ericsonian fashion and build on them and then combine the drug-effect with powerful suggestions. “If you ever get to this point you will go crazy. If you ever get fully integrated and get well you will go crazy like this and will be locked up in an institution for the rest of your life.”
They gave those suggestions vigorously and repetitively. Finally they introduced other suggestions that, “Rather than have this happen, it would be easier to just kill yourself.”
In a bloodline patient then, as I began inquiring about deep material, the patient started to experience similar symptoms. We went back and we found the identical things were done to her.
This was called the “Green Bomb”. B-O-M-B. Lots of interesting internal consistencies like that play on words with Dr. Greenbaum, his original name.
Now in this case it was done to her at age nine for the first time and then only hers was different. Hers was a suggestion for amnesia. “If you ever remember anything about Ultra-Green and the Green Tree you will go crazy. You will become a vegetable and be locked up forever.” Then finally the suggestions added, “And it’ll be easier to just kill yourself than have that happen to you, if you ever remember it.”
At age twelve then, three years later, they used what sounds like a [Sodium] Amytol interview to try to breach the amnesia and find out if they could. They couldn’t. So then they strapped her down again, and gave her something to kind of paralyze her body, gave her LSD, an even bigger dose and reinforced all the suggestions.
Did a similar thing at the age of sixteen.
So these are some of the kind of booby traps you run into. There are a number of cases where they combined powerful drug effects like this with suggestions to keep us from discovering some of this deeper level stuff.
What’s the bottom?
Your guess is as good as mine but I can tell you that I’ve had a lot of therapists who were stymied with these cases who were going nowhere. In fact someone here that I told some basic information about this to in Ohio a couple of months ago said it opened all sorts of things up in a patient who’d been going nowhere. That’s a common thing.
I think that we can move down to deeper levels and if we deal with some of the deeper level stuff it may destroy all the stuff above it. But we don’t even know that yet.
In some of the patients I’m working with we have pretty much dealt with a lot of the top-level stuff. I’ll tell you how we’ve done some of that.
We’ll take and erase one system like Omega. Then we will have a huge abreaction of all the memories and feelings in a fractionated abreaction associated with those parts. I typically find I’ll say to them, “Now that we’ve done this are there any other memories and feelings that any parts that were Omega still have?” The answer’s usually “No”. At that point I will say, “I usually find at this point in time the majority, if not all, of those parts that used to be Omega no longer feel a desire or need to be different, realizing that you split off originally by them and want to go home to Mary and become one with her again.” I use the concept often now — which came from a patient — of going home and becoming one with her. “Going back from whence you came” is another phrase I’ll use with them. “Are there any Omega parts inside who do not feel comfortable with that or have reservations or concerns about that?” If there are we talk to them. We deal with them. A few may not integrate. My experience is most of the time they’ll integrate and we may integrate twenty-five parts at once in a polyfragmented complex MPD.
I think it is vitally important to abreact the feelings before you go on. Also for many patients it hasn’t seemed to matter the order we go in but I’ve found a couple where it has. If it doesn’t seem to matter I’ll typically go Omega, then Delta because they have more violence potential, then Gamma to get rid of the self-deception stuff. What I will do before I just assume anything and do that, is once we’ve done Omega and showed them that success can occur and something can happen and they feel relief after, I will say to them, “I want to ask the core — through the fingers — is there a specific order in which programs must be erased?” You know maybe it doesn’t matter but most of the time I found “No”. There are cases where we found “Yes”.
I recommend doing one or two or three of those because they’ll produce relief and a sense of optimism in the patient. But then I would recommend starting to probe for the deeper level things and getting their input and recommendations about the order in which we go. Question?
Q: What has been the typical age and typical gender of this type of person?
Dr. H: I know of this being found in men and women. Most of the patients I know with MPD ritual abuse that are being treated are women, however. I know of some men being treated where we’ve found this.
Awhile back I was talking to a small group of therapists somewhere. I told them about some of this. In the middle of talking about it all the color drained out of one social worker’s face and she obviously had a reaction and I asked her about and she said, “I’m working with a five-year-old boy,” and she said, “Just in the last few weeks he was saying something about a Dr. Green.” I went on a little further and I mentioned some of these things and she just shook her head again. I said, “What’s going on?” She said, “He’s been spontaneously telling me about robots and about Omega.”
I think you will find variations of this and that they’ve changed it, probably every few years and maybe somewhat regionally to throw us off in various ways but that certain basics and fundamentals will probably be there.
I have seen this in people up into their forties including people whose parents were very, very high in the CIA, other sorts of things like that. I’ve had some that were originally part of the Monarch Project which is the name of the government Intelligence project. Question in the back?
Q: I’m still not grasping how one starts, how you find out how to erase. How do you get that information?
Dr. H: I would say, “I want the core, if necessary, using the telepathic communication ability you have to read minds,” because they believe in that kind of stuff, so I’ll use it… I was trained in Ericsonian stuff, “…to obtain for me the erasure code of all Omega programs. When you’ve done so, I want the yes-finger to float up.” Then I ask them to tell it to me. “Are there backups for Omega programs?” “Yes.” “Okay? How many backups are there?” “Six,” they say, let’s say. It’s different numbers. “Is there an erasure code for all the backup programs?” “No.” “Is there an erasure code that combines all the backups into one?” “Yes.” “Obtain that code for me and when you’ve go it give me the yes-signal again.” It can move almost that fast in some cases where there’s not massive resistance. Question?
Q: Yes, can you tell me what you know about the risks to the therapist?
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Dr. H: You would have to ask.
Q: Yeah, I’d like to know that. What kind of data do you have given that you’ve had contact with large numbers of people. Not just threats but also any injury, any family problems that have arisen. That’s one question. A second one is are you aware of anybody that you’ve treated — or others — with this level of dissociation and trauma that have recovered? Integrated? Whole and happy?
Dr. H: Okay, I have one non-bloodline multiple, complex multiple who had this kind of programming where they have a lot of access to the patient as neighbors and where the doctor, by the way, you’ll find physicians heavily involved. They’ve encouraged their own to go to medical school, to prescribe drugs to take care of their own, to get access to medical technology and be above suspicion. There have been a couple, in fact, in Utah who’ve been nailed now. We now in Utah have two full time ritual-abuse investigators with statewide jurisdiction under the Attorney General’s Office to do nothing but investigate this.
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In a poll done in the State of Utah in January by the major newspaper and television station, they found that ninety percent of Utahans believe that ritual abuse is genuine and real. Not all of them believe it’s a frequent occurrence but some of that was imparted from two years of work by the Governor Commission on Ritual Abuse, interviewing, talking, meeting people, gathering data.
Now when people say, by the way, “There’s no evidence. They’ve never found a body,” that’s baloney. They found a body in Idaho of a child.
They’ve had a case last summer that was convicted on first-degree murder charges, two people that the summer before that were arrested where the teenaged girl’s finger and head were in the refrigerator and they were convicted of first-degree murder in Detroit.
There have been cases and bodies.
Back to risk. I know of no therapist who’s been harmed. But patients inform us that there will come a future time where we could be at risk of being assassinated by patients who’ve been programmed to kill at a certain time anyone that they’ve told and any member of their own family who’s not active. If that would come about is speculative. Who knows for sure? Maybe, but I don’t think it’s entirely without risk. A question in the back?
Q: It seems to me that there seems to be some similarity between these kinds of programming and those people who claim that they’ve been abducted by spaceships and have had themselves physically probed and reprogrammed and all of that sort of thing. Since Cape Canaveral is across the Florida peninsula from me and I don’t think that they’ve reported any spaceships lately, I was just wondering is there any sort of relationship between this and that?
Dr. H: I’ll share my speculation, that comes from others really. I’ve not dealt with any of those people. However, I know a therapist that I know and trust and respect who I’ve informed about all this a couple of years ago and has found it in a lot of patients and so on, who is firmly of the belief that those people are in fact ritual-abuse victims who have been programmed with that sort of thing to destroy all their credibility.
If somebody’s coming in and reporting abduction by a flying saucer who’s going to believe them on anything else in the future?
Also as a kind of thing that can be pointed to and said, “This is as ridiculous as that.”
All I know is that I recently had a consult, a telephone consult, with a therapist where I had been instructing her about some of this kind of stuff. When we were consulting at one point in the fifth or sixth interview she said, “By the way, do you know anything about this topic?” I said, “Well, not really” and shared with her what I shared with you. I said, “If it were me being with this guy…” that she’d been seeing for a couple of months, I said, “I would ask inside for the core to take control of finger-signals and inquire about Alpha, Beta, Delta, Theta.” She proceeded to do all that, got back to me a week later and said, “Boy, were you on target. There is a part inside named Dr. Green. There’s this kind of programming.”
Q: What’s the difference between this kind of program and cult-type abuse and Satanic abuse in the kind of cults with the candles and the…
Dr. H: This type of programming will be done in the cults with the candles and all the rest. My impression is this is simply done in people where they have great access to them or they’re bloodline and their parents are in it and they can be raised in it from an early age. If they are bloodline they are the chosen generation. If not, they’re expendable and they are expected to die and not get well.
There will be booby traps in your way if they aren’t bloodline people that when they get well they will kill themselves. I’ll tell you just a little about that.
My belief is that some people that have ritual abuse and don’t have this have been ritually abused but they may be may be part of a non-mainstream group. The Satanism comes in the overall philosophy overriding all of this.
People say, “What’s the purpose of it?” My best guess is that the purpose of it is that they want an army of Manchurian Candidates, tens of thousands of mental robots who will do prostitution, do child pornography, smuggle drugs, engage in international arms smuggling, do snuff films, all sorts of very lucrative things and do their bidding and eventually the megalomaniacs at the top believe they’ll create a Satanic Order that will rule the world.
One last question. Then I’ll give you couple of details and we need to shift gears.
Q: You have suggested and implied that at some point at a high level of the U.S. Government there was support of this kind of thing. I know we’re short of time, but could you just say a few words about the documentation that may exist for that suggestion?
Dr. H: There isn’t great documentation of it. It comes from victims who are imperiled witnesses.
The interesting thing is how many people have described the same scenario and how many people that we have worked with who have had relatives in NASA, in the CIA and in the Military, including very high-ups in the Military.
I can tell you that a friend and colleague of mine who has probably the equivalent of half the table space on that far side of the room filled with boxes with declassified documents from mind-control research done in the past which has been able to be declassified over a considerable — couple of decades — period and has read more government documents about mind control than anyone else, has a brief that has literally been sent in the past week and a half asking for all information to be declassified about the Monarch Project for us to try to find out more.
Now let me just mention something about some of the stuff that my experience is in several patients now that you may run into late in the process. I know I’m throwing a lot at you in a hurry. Some of it is completely foreign and some of you may think, “Gosh, could any of this be true?” Just ask. Find out in your patients and you may be lucky and there isn’t any of this. Somewhere at a deep level you may run into some things like this. Let me describe to you, if I can find my pen, the system in one patient. One patient I had treated for quite a while, a non-bloodline person.
We had done what appeared to be successful work and reached final integration. She came back to me early last year and said she was symptomatic with some things. I started inquiring. I found a part there we’d integrated. The part basically said, “There was other stuff that I couldn’t tell you about and you integrated me and so I had to split off.”
I had done some inquiring about things like Alpha, Beta as a routine part of it and found they were there and I said to this part, “Why didn’t you tell me about this stuff?” She said, “Well, we gave you some hints but they went right over your head.” Says, “I’m sorry, but we know that you didn’t know enough to help us but now we know you can.”
So the stuff started coming out. It was interesting. She described the overall system — if I can remember it now — as being like this. The circle represented harm to the body, a system of alters whose primary purpose was to hurt her including symptoms like Munchhausen’s, self-mutilation, other kinds of things. Each of the triangles represented still another different system. She said, “With the exception of me,” this one part, “you dealt with the whole circle with the work that we did before but you didn’t touch the rest of the stuff.”
Okay. In the middle of all this was still another system consisting of the Cabalistic Tree, which some of you are aware, looks approximately like this with lines in between and so on and so forth. There’s a rough approximation. That represented another system.
Then once we got past that she implied that this entire thing was somehow encompassed by, what do you call it, an hourglass. I kept thinking we were at final integration then I’d find some other parts.
This person had an eagle-eye husband that was watching for certain things that we found to be reliable indicators. So often I would get evidence of dissociation within a few days. It would suddenly be picked up. You know, what we found was I continued to find evidence of dissociation and I’d find parts. Finally this part, as I got angry with him and said, “Why when I give these ideomotor inquiries am I getting lied to?” This part said, “Because you don’t understand. You’re going to get us all killed.”
We started talking and then she basically said, “It’s been programmed so that if you succeed and think you’ve succeeded, you will fail. They build it in as a way to laugh at you, that if you ever get us integrated, we will die.”
Here’s what she said, this part said, “I’m one of twelve disciples,” and I’ve seen this in others, twelve disciples within this hourglass each of whom had to memorize a disciple-lesson which were basic Satanic kind of premises, philosophies of life like “be good to those who hurt you, hate those who are nice to you,” on and on and on. There may be two or three sentences like that associated with each that they had to memorize them. They said, “We are like grains of sand falling and when the last grain of sand falls, there’s Death.” I said, “Is Death a part?” “Yes. When the last grain of sand falls the Sleeping Giant awakens.” The Sleeping Giant was Death, who was then to kill them on Day-One or Day-Six after awakening unless certain things were followed and we did some of those.
Well we also found Death had a sister as a backup, used with mirrors to create the sister part. We had to get past and deal with that too.
Death had certain things that they said had to be done to integrate. I started to say, “Oh, come on, they lied to you before.” She said, “Wait a minute. This what they said you’d say. They said that no doctor would ever believe that they had to go these extremes to get us well and that’s part of the reason they’d fail.” I said, “Well, tell me, tell me again.” She said, “I have to be dressed all in red. I have to have Demerol onboard, have taken Demerol. A code has to be given and it has to be in a room that’s totally dark. It has to happen on Day-One or Day-Six after this part’s been awakened.”
I said what I’d have to lose? I had a psychiatrist give her a little Demerol. We used the code. My office didn’t have any windows anyway. It was pretty easy. Oh, and there had to be four, I think, candles lit. Well, fine. So we did it and everything went well. Maybe it would have gone well if we hadn’t done it, but I decided not to take the chance and to trust the patient maybe.
Well, so we go on and then we find another part. There’s Death And Destruction, another backup also with a sister that we had to get through. In fact, I think there were two backups there.
Interestingly, the very last part was an extremely nice part, made especially that way so that they wouldn’t want to lose them because they would be so adorable and so loving and so sweet that they wouldn’t want to maybe get rid of them. Then we found that she continued to have these feelings with this last part left now of darkness and blackness inside.
What did we find? A curtain. She said, “They assumed that if you ever got to this point, you would,” and along the way, by the way, we had encountered this stuff about the LSD stuff, the Green Bomb programming. The message was that she said, “There is a curtain behind which are the remaining feelings and memories, but it can’t be opened from the middle. It’s like a stage curtain. It has to opened this way,” that it can’t be opened. They assumed that you would try to deal with all the feelings. That can’t be opened until you’ve dealt with that last part and they’ve integrated. So far it looks like we’ve got integration that’s holding.
So I found Death And Destruction and the Hourglass in non-bloodline. “The Tree and the Hourglass,” this patient informed me, “were made of sand because we were meant to die. We’re expendable. We’re the unchosen generation.”
I’ve heard variously that it’s crystals or blood that fills the Hourglass in bloodline people.
By the way, you can do real simple things like turn the Hourglass on its side so nothing can fall out, so time stands still to be able to do certain kinds of work. Spread the grains of sand on the seashore so that they can’t be numbered and the time will not be counted. Got that idea from a ritual-abuse victim who had seen some of this kind of programming done that another therapist was seeing.
So those would be just a few other hints about things that may be helpful or meaningful. We’re talking about very intensive things and at deep levels to me this give us two things.
One thing it gives to me is hope because it gets to material and it makes progress like nothing else we’ve ever seen with these people who have it.
The second thing it does for me is it demoralizes me, too, because although three years ago I had a pretty good idea about the extent and breadth of what they’d done to these victims, I had no real appreciation for the depth and breadth and intensity of what they’d done.
I want to come back to the other question over here now. The other question is how many of them can get well?
We don’t know. In most things in the mental health profession we accept two-thirds of the patients are going to improve, maybe seventy percent. There’s very little we can get everybody well. I think one of the sad things we have to face is that many of these patients will probably never be well.
My personal belief is that if they are being messed with their only hope of getting well is if they can somehow get out of contact.
Now I know patients who’ve gone to other states and simply had deep-level alters pick up the phone and call and said, “This is our new address and phone number” so that they could be picked up locally. I mean in an inpatient unit for an extended period of time. If they are in a Cult from their area and they are still being monitored and messed with, my own personal opinion is we can’t get them well and can’t offer more than humanitarian caring and supportiveness.
Lots of therapists do not like to hear that. That’s my opinion. I believe that if somehow they’re lucky enough to be wealthy enough to have protection, to have somehow gotten away in some way and we can work with them without being messed with, that they have a chance to reach some semblance of normality and livability with enough intensive work.
My own personal belief is I don’t think anybody with this kind of programming is well in this country yet. There are some who are well along the way. I’ve got a couple who are well along in their work and have done a tremendous amount, but they’re clearly not well yet.
Q: Could you speculate on the relationship between this stuff and the fantasy games that have been proliferating, Dungeons and Dragons and that sort of thing?
Dr. H: Well, there are a lot of things out there to cue people. You want to see a great movie, interesting movie, to cue people? Go see “Trancers II.” You can rent it in your video shop. Came out last fall.
One night in sheer desperation for something at the video store, you know? Nine o’clock on Friday night. Everything’s gone. I rented a couple of movies and one of them is that. Fascinating. They’re talking about Green World Order. Yes, “Trancers II.” And who is the production company? Full Moon Productions. I couldn’t see much cuing in “Trancers I,” but who’s the production company in “Trancers I”? Alter Productions. There are lots of things around that are cuing.
There’s an interesting person in the late sixties who talked about the Illuminati. Have any of you ever heard of the Illuminati with regard to the Cult? Had a patient bring that up to me just about exactly two years ago. We’ve now had other stuff come out from other patients. Appears to be the name of the international world leadership. There appear to be Illuminatic Councils (?) in several parts of the world and one internationally. The name of the international leadership of the Cult supposedly. Is this true? Well, I don’t know. It’s interesting we’re getting some people who are trying to work without cuing who are saying some very similar things.
There was an old guy in Hollywood in the late sixties who talked about the infiltration of Hollywood by the Illuminati. Certainly what some patients have said is all of this spook stuff, horror stuff, possession and everything else that’s been popularized in the last twenty years in Hollywood is in order to soften up the public so that when a Satanic world order takes over, everyone will have been desensitized to so many of these things, plus to continually cue lots of people out there. Is that true? Well, I can’t definitely tell you that it is.
What I can say is I now believe that ritual-abuse programming is widespread, is systematic, is very organized from highly esoteric information which is published nowhere, has not been on any book or talk show, that we have found all around this country and at least one foreign country. Let’s take a couple of quick questions and we need to get on to other material. Yes?
Q: Do you have any techniques for decreasing your level of uncertainty that a patient is or is not being still tampered with, “messed with,” as you said?
Dr. H: Just that I would ask several of the parts I’ve inquired about, Core, Diana, Wisdom, Master Programmer, several parts inside I would ask about these sorts of things and I will keep asking it. As you do additional work and get a bit further, I would ask again to find out. In the back?
Q: I wonder if you’ve heard or you know of the Martin Luther Bloodline?
Dr. H: The what?
Q: Martin Luther Bloodline?
Dr. H: I know nothing about Martin Luther Bloodline. I’ll give you one other quick tip. Ask him about an identification code. There’s an identification code that people have. It will involve their birth date. It may involve places where they were programmed and it will usually involve a number in there that will be their birth order, like zero-two if they were second-born. It will usually involve a number that represents the number of generations in the Cult, if they are bloodlines. I’ve seen up to twelve now, twelve generations.
Q: I have seen a lot of the things you’ve been describing today in several patients. I wanted to ask you a question about the Seven Systems. You mentioned something about systems here. Are there Seven Systems?
Dr. H: There has been that described in some patients, yes, the Seven Systems.
Q: Could you say what that is or a little diagram?
Dr. H: I don’t think we know enough to know what it is, honestly. I think it may have to do with Seven Cabalistic Trees.
Q: Have you ever had any evidence where any of these people have been tagged and there have been anything of their body-parts that might be related to this, private parts in particular?
Dr. H: Well, there are certainly people that have had tattoos, that have had a variety of other kinds of things, some of which have been, you know, documented in cases, but I mean to say, well, maybe they did that to themselves or had it done consciously to really prove something, not that occurs to right off the bat. Let me just take this one last question back and we need to go on to other material because we’re never going to get through it all. I’ll just ask you to hold your question.
Q: It’s not a question but I wanted to say for myself, personally, and perhaps for others here as well, I wanted to thank you very sincerely for taking this time to come forward.
[Applause]
Dr. H: A dear friend who’s one of the top people in the field, who I know has had death threats, but I know struggled for professional credibility in believing in MPD and was harshly criticized for even believing in that ten and fifteen years ago, and struggled to a point of professional credibility. I think in his heart of hearts he knows it’s true, but he will say things like, “I wouldn’t be surprised to find tomorrow it was an international conspiracy and I wouldn’t be surprised to find tomorrow that it is an urban myth and rumor.”
He tries to stay right on the fence and the reason is because it’s controversial, because there is a campaign underway saying these [are] all false memories induced by, along with incest and everything else, by “Oprah” and by books like “The Courage to Heal” and by naive therapists using hypnosis. It’s controversial.
My personal opinion has come to be if they’re going to kill me, they’re going to kill me. There’s going to be an awful lot of information that’s been put away that’ll go to investigative reporters and multiple investigative agencies, if it happens, and an awful lot of people like you, I hope, that if I ever have an accident, will be pushing for a very large-scale investigation.
I think we have to stand up as some kind of moral conscience at some point and I tried to wait until we had gotten enough verification from independent places to have some real confidence that this was widespread.
I know we’ve gone like a house afire to try to pack as much as I could in for you. I hope it’s given you some things to think about and some new ideas and I appreciate being with you.
[Long sustained applause]
Now, let’s go back to just a couple of things from the Greenbaum lecture that I would like to highlight for the reader. The first is the following remark made by Dr. Hammond:
I have seen this in people up into their forties including people whose parents were very, very high in the CIA, other sorts of things like that. I’ve had some that were originally part of the Monarch Project which is the name of the government Intelligence project.
While there are a number of CIA mind control research projects that have been confirmed in Senate Hearings, I haven’t been able to find similar confirmation of the alleged “Monarch Project”. However, there is circumstantial evidence for the existence of this type of work.
New Orleans therapist Valerie Wolf brought two of her patients before the President’s Committee on Human Radiation Experiments on March 15, 1995 in Washington D.C. The astonishing testimony made by these two women included accounts of German doctors, torture, drugs, electroshock, hypnosis and rape, besides being exposed to an undetermined amount of radiation. Both Wolf and her patients stated they recovered the memories of this CIA program without regression or hypnosis techniques.
The most incriminating statement to date made by a government official as to the possible existence of Project MONARCH was extracted by Anton Chaitkin, a writer for the publication, The New Federalist. When former CIA Director William Colby was asked directly, “What about monarch?” he replied angrily and ambiguously, “We stopped that between the late 1960’s and the early 1970’s.” Suffice it to say that society, in its apparent state of cognitive dissonance, is generally in denial of the overwhelming evidence of this widespread, nefarious conspiracy to experiment upon literally thousands of human beings, undoubtedly, mostly American. This, of course, brings us to ask a few questions about the goals of such a project. Let’s look at another thing mentioned by Dr. Hammond:
Back to risk. I know of no therapist who’s been harmed. But patients inform us that there will come a future time where we could be at risk of being assassinated by patients who’ve been programmed to kill at a certain time anyone that they’ve told and any member of their own family who’s not active. If that would come about is speculative. Who knows for sure? Maybe, but I don’t think it’s entirely without risk.
“There will come a future time…” At the present point in time, as I am editing this book for hardcopy publication, having spent the past several years publishing our Signs of the Times (http://sott.net) news report on the fascist takeover of America, I wonder if we are not already living in that “future time”? If so, perhaps we ought to carefully examine some of the details Dr. Hammond has elicited from his patients:
Alphas appear to represent general programming, the first kind of things put in.
Betas appear to be sexual programs. For example, how to perform oral sex in a certain way, how to perform sex in rituals, having to do with producing child pornography, directing child pornography, prostitution.
Deltas are killers trained in how to kill in ceremonies.
There’ll also be some self-harm stuff mixed in with that, assassination and killing. Thetas are called psychic killers.
You know, I had never in my life heard those two terms paired together. I’d never heard the words “psychic killers” put together, but when you have people in different states, including therapists inquiring and asking, “What is Theta,” and patients say to them, “Psychic killers,” it tends to make one a believer that certain things are very systematic and very widespread.
This comes from their belief in psychic sorts of abilities and powers, including their ability to psychically communicate with “mother” including their ability to psychically cause somebody to develop a brain aneurysm and die.
It also is a more future-oriented kind of programming.
Then there’s Omega. I usually don’t include that word when I say my first question about this or any part inside that knows about Alpha, Beta, Delta, Theta because Omega will shake them even more.
Omega has to do with self-destruct programming. Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. This can include self-mutilation as well as killing-themselves programming.
The Cassiopaeans had a few things to say about Greenbaum programming.
August 17, 1996
Q: (T) Are you aware of the Greenbaum effect? Dr. Greenbaum and his mind control experiments, that we’ve been looking at lately?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is what’s said there factual? I won’t say true, but is it factual? Most of it?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, the question is, is the fellow that just shot three professors in San Diego, I think it was, at a University, before they read his thesis, because he was afraid they would throw his thesis away, and make it look bad, and flunk him. Was he a Greenbaum-type subject?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Why did they turn him “on” at that point?
A: Not correct concept. What if: those programmed in the so called “Greenbaum” projects are preprogrammed to “go off” all at once, and some “malfunction,” and go off early?
July 31, 1999
Q: (L) Okay, various folks are now saying that Dr. Mengele of Nazi fame is the same person as Dr. Green of Greenbaum programming fame.
A: No.
Q: (L) Did Mengele go to South America and die there as reported?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) The Greenbaum material says that there was a Jewish boy brought to America and trained as a doctor who became this infamous Dr. Greenbaum. Is that true?
A: No. “Green” is an alias, or more accurately, a pseudonym for multiple persons engaged in mind control efforts.
July 22, 2000
Q: (L) I had a call from Vincent Bridges9 who informed me that The Wave Series was really creating a stir. It seems that he [claims that he] has had a connection to this Dr. Hammond of the Greenbaum lecture fame, and also had a number of exchanges with Andrija Puharich, and it is Vincent’s contention that the UFO phenomenon, the alien abduction phenomenon, and the many and varied other things we talk about and study and discuss, are a product of super advanced technological, human controlled mind-programming projects using the technology of Puharich and Tesla. Yes, it is supposed to be so advanced that they can not only read minds and can control minds, but that it is, in the end, merely human engineered programming. Is he, even in part, correct?
A: Well, there are elements of the phenomenon which may be connected to human, 3rd density STS engineering, but by and large, this is not the case.
Q: (L) He also said that it was his opinion, that the center of the web of all of this mind programming conspiracy, is in Tyler, Texas. Is that correct?10
A: The what?!?
Q: (L) Well, what about the center of the human branch of the programming conspiracy?
A: We feel that Vincent needs to recharge his batteries a bit.11
Q: (L) He also said that the area we are living is the center of a particular programming experiment, something like Nazi/Black magick cultists or something like that.
A: Better not to get too carried away. Remember, the root of all “negative” energies directed at 3rd density STS subjects, coming from 4th density, is essentially the same. […]
Suggest a review of the transcripts relating to the situation in Nazi Germany for better understanding here. […]
The concept of a “master race” put forward by the Nazis was merely a 4th density STS effort to create a physical vehicle with the correct frequency resonance vibration for 4th density STS souls to occupy in 3rd density. It was also a “trial run” for planned events in what you perceive to be your future.
Q: (L) You mean with a strong STS frequency so they can have a “vehicle” in third density, so to speak?
A: Correct. Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.
Q: (L) So, that is why they are programming and experimenting? And all these folks running around who some think are “programmed”, could be individuals who are raising their nastiness levels high enough to accommodate the truly negative STS fourth density — sort of like walk-ins or something, only not nice ones?
A: You do not have very many of those present yet, but that was, and still is, the plan of some of the 4th density STS types.
With that pleasant though, let us continue.
5 Convinced that German scientists could help America’s postwar efforts, President Harry Truman agreed in September 1946 to authorize “Project Paperclip,” a program to bring selected German scientists to work on America’s behalf during the “Cold War”.
However, Truman expressly excluded anyone found “to have been a member of the Nazi party and more than a nominal participant in its activities, or an active supporter of Nazism or militarism.” The War Department’s Joint Intelligence Objectives Agency (JIOA) conducted background investigations of the scientists. In February 1947, JIOA Director Bosquet Wev submitted the first set of scientists’ dossiers to the State and Justice Departments for review. The Dossiers were damning. Samuel Klaus, the State Departments representative on the JIOA board, claimed that all the scientists in this first batch were “ardent Nazis.” Their visa requests were denied. Wev wrote a memo warning that “the best interests of the United States have been subjugated to the efforts expended in ‘beating a dead Nazi horse’.” He also declared that the return of these scientists to Germany, where they could be exploited by America’s enemies, presented a “far greater security threat to this country than any former Nazi affiliations which they may have had or even any Nazi sympathies that they may still have.”
When the JIOA formed to investigate the backgrounds and form dossiers on the Nazis, the Nazi Intelligence leader Reinhard Gehlen met with the CIA director Allen Dulles. Dulles and Gehlen hit it off immediately, Gehlen was a master spy for the Nazis and had infiltrated Russia with his vast Nazi Intelligence network. Dulles promised Gehlen that his Intelligence unit was safe in the CIA. Dulles had the scientists dossier’s re-written to eliminate incriminating evidence. As promised, Allen Dulles delivered the Nazi Intelligence unit to the CIA, which later opened many umbrella projects stemming from Nazi mad research. (MK-ULTRA / ARTICHOKE, OPERATION MIDNIGHT CLIMAX) By 1955, more than 760 German scientists had been granted citizenship in the U.S. and given prominent positions in the American scientific community. Many had been longtime members of the Nazi party and the Gestapo, had conducted experiments on humans at concentration camps, had used slave labor, and had committed other war crimes. In a 1985 expose in the Bulletin of the Atomic Scientists Linda Hunt wrote that she had examined more than 130 reports on Project Paperclip subjects–and every one “had been changed to eliminate the security threat classification.” President Truman, who had explicitly ordered no committed Nazis to be admitted under Project Paperclip, was evidently never aware that his directive had been violated.
(http://www.thirdworldtraveler.com/Fascism/Operation_Paperclip_file.html)
6 This actually sounds like some of the Dr. Spock babycare nonsense that was quite popular in the 50s. Dr. Spock later renounced these ideas. My guess is that he was used as a dupe to “prepare the ground” for other, more nefarious activities. Nevertheless, an entire generation of American babies were treated rather badly. Those babies are middle aged now, and many of them are in positions of power. A scary thought, indeed.
7 IMR is an exploratory method of uncovering repressed material used extensively by many hypnotherapists. On a subconscious level, an individual generally remembers everything, even if it is too traumatic to bring up to awareness. The suggestion is given that the fingers can be used to signal the answer, bypassing the mind, and yes or no questions are asked.
8 It is interesting that the new “cult” of choice among many media personalities is called “Kaballah.” This group sells courses that offer “total fulfillment in life” plus “control over the physical laws of nature.” The founder of the sect, Philip Berg, who changed his name from Feivel Gruberger, was a Brooklyn insurance agent before turning kabbalistic teacher and author. It is said that their “business model” has been adapted from Scientology — i.e. hard sell. I think it is more sinister than that, based on the information in the Greenbaum Lecture.
9 A self-proclaimed “Enochian Magician” who advertises himself as “author, lecturer and general pagan gadfly, is one of the pioneers of psycho-acoustic therapy, a trauma abreaction technique using light and sound entrainment of brain frequencies.” The story of our interaction with Bridges is told in Petty Tyrants and Facing the Unknown. Mr. Bridges may very well be a Greenbaum victim whose job is to trigger programs in other victims.
10 The “Tyler Texas” connection was a theory cooked up by murderer Ira Einhorn, who did, in fact, work with Andrija Puharich. Before Ira’s recapture, after being on the run for many years, Vincent Bridges frequently identified with him, claiming that Andrija Puharich told him “you remind me of Ira.” It seems that Bridges modeled his life on that of Ira Einhorn. I discuss the Einhorn case in detail in Almost Human.
11 This remark was particularly interesting in that it almost suggested that Bridges was “mechanical” in some way. Later events proved this to be correct.
He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock
that shadows a dry thirsty land…
He hideth my life in the depths of His love,
and covers me there with His hand.1
Writing this segment as background for the events that follow has been extremely difficult; but it is necessary. In my other writings, when I have talked about my personal experiences, I have generally avoided some of these details for obvious reasons — it is painful to remember.
Additionally, I am always concerned that the reader will be either bored or turned off by personal data, and I have tried to cover only the salient points that will come up again later in a general discussion, while also making them as brief as possible. However, my experience has shown me that many of the things that are recounted herein are not unique to me.
As we left me in the last episode, I had decided that maybe having a brain was not such a bad thing even if the “faith trip” frowns on using it to any great extent, other than offering it up as a sacrifice to be hypnotized so it can be twisted like a pretzel and used to justify theological nonsense by acts of cerebral derring-do.
I remember visiting a friend of mine at her office one day, and there was a sign posted on her desk saying: God doesn’t create junk. That really struck me in a funny way since I was right at the point of struggling to be free of the hypnosis that says the human being is incapable of using his brain to discover or understand God, and must therefore use only faith and, of course, the Scriptures — whatever they may be in the varying faith trips.
How many times had I heard sermons on the subject of the brain — the mind — being solely the instrument of Satan? Of course, when talking about the “Predator’s Mind”, we see how this is one side of the coin. But, nevertheless, it was pretty clear to me that whatever existed, existed within the mind of God — whoever or whatever he/she/it might be — and therefore the human mind, as a ray of the Divine Mind, certainly must have a function in finding him/her/it.
Reading that little sign brought me face to face with the realization that I had bought so completely into the faith trip that I had actually become afraid to think. I had become embarrassed by my own tendency to ask questions, and had been made to feel extraordinary guilt for my capacity to use logical analysis.
One of the standard hypnotic suggestions of the Way of the Monk is that no thinking is allowed. Thinking leads to questions, and the unwritten 11th commandment is “Thou Shalt Not Question!”
With sudden clarity it dawned on me that obviously part of our creation exists in the fact that we do have brains — amazing instruments — for a reason. (I know that the reader must be pretty sure by now that I am the slowest learner of all time!) But, anyway, this self-evident fact that God had given us brains for a reason gave birth to the next thought: shouldn’t we be using them to discover God, rather than to justify obvious nonsense about God that has been passed down as tradition by folks who clearly didn’t do much to improve the state of the world and could, in fact, be cited as the creators of the system that has gotten us into the mess we are in today by not using their brains?
About this same time, something very strange happened. I didn’t think of it as abduction at the time. It is only in retrospect that I see the clues for what they might be. On the other hand, there could be other explanations.
As I said, we lived in a cabin. A very tiny cabin. Most of it was taken up with our beds, storage and a tiny galley type kitchen. (If I learned anything from this experience, it was how to design the perfect kitchen!)
My bed was a standard double size pushed into a corner with one side flush against a wall. There was a very narrow space at the foot of the bed between it and the baby’s crib. I slept on the inside, against the wall. The only way to get in and out of bed was either to scoot out backwards, or get my ex-husband up so I could get out on the side. In the condition of physical disability I was in at the time, the “scooting” option was difficult, if not impossible. Once I was in the bed, I was pretty much stuck there for the night without waking up my ex-husband and asking him to help me get up.
One night, something woke me up, though I don’t know exactly what. It was like a low roar, if you could call it that. I was very sleepy — feeling almost drugged, so it was difficult to open my eyes. But, I thought that I ought to check out this disturbance, and I forced my eyes open and lifted my head up off the pillow to just look around. I noticed the strangest effect I had ever seen up to that point in my life, and I still cannot explain it precisely.
What I saw was light, but it wasn’t an ordinary kind of light. It was more like a solid thing. It was actually penetrating the walls of the house through what seemed to be cracks and pinpoint openings all over the walls. Of course it came in the windows, but the needle like beams that came through the walls really were strange. They were almost solid, like icicles or even crystalline shards.
When I saw this, I was, of course, a bit puzzled. I couldn’t think of what would be so powerful a light that it would shoot through cracks in the walls from all directions at once, considering that the cracks were, for all intents and purposes, almost microscopic. The sunlight didn’t even do that, though I knew that the cabin structure surely had such fine cracks. The whole room seemed to be crisscrossed with these beams of light.2
Seeing this very strange light, what did I tell myself? I rationalized that it must be a group of my ex-husband’s friends playing a joke on him by driving up to the house in a whole convoy of mud bogging trucks with the hunting lights mounted on the cabs all turned on and pointed at the house! Of course, that meant that there must be trucks on all sides of the house, facing the house, as well as one above, with lights shining down. At that moment of true delusion, it seemed like a reasonable explanation for something totally inexplicable to me.
The only problem was: my ex-husband didn’t have any friends with mud boggers equipped with hunting lights! But, not to let that little detail bother me, I decided that it was his friends playing a joke and I was too tired to laugh, so let him get up and chase them off! How dare they come in the middle of the night, playing games, when he had to get up early and go to work! What’s more, I needed my sleep! I was a sick person after all!
And that is what I did. I just pulled the covers over my head and went back to sleep!
The next thing I knew I was in pain. Not any specific place, but I was still so fragile from the many months of convalescence from having the baby (in which, as I have written in Amazing Grace, I was bedridden for most of six months due to pelvic injuries sustained in delivery); any sort of activity could make me hurt and ache all over. The pain seemed to have a central point in the abdominal area that penetrated to my back, almost like the early signs of labor.
So, it was pain that woke me up. But, what is so bizarre is that when I woke up I found my face pressed against my ex-husband’s feet! I was completely reversed in the bed. In addition, my nightgown was wet from the knees down. It was a very painful operation to get myself into a sitting position against the wall, and pick my legs up one at a time, and swing them around to the foot of the bed so I could pull myself to my feet to find out what was the problem, but I managed.
I just stood there with the wet nightgown clinging coldly to my legs and tried to think how my gown got wet. I remember feeling almost hysterical in the very act of thinking about it, so I had to quickly stop thinking about it! I struck a match and lit a lamp so I could find something dry to put on. As I took off the wet gown, I noticed that it was covered with little black specks — the seeds and pollen from the Bahia grass outside that was about knee-high at the back of the property.
How did I explain this to myself? My immediate reaction to it was a rising feeling of hysteria, and so, again, I suppressed it. I told myself that I must have gotten up during the night and gone to the bathroom and dipped my gown in the buckets of water kept on hand to flush the toilet in the night. (I had insisted on the installation of fixtures, even if we had to operate them by hand.) But somehow, I had forgotten that I had done this. I didn’t even try to explain how I had gotten into bed backwards.
That was my explanation to myself. It made absolutely no sense because I have never in my life, before or since, gotten up in the night and not remembered it or been unaware of what I was doing. I remember putting the gown in the hamper in a ball so I wouldn’t have to look at it, and when I finally came to wash it, I did it hurriedly as if to cover something up; to hide it from myself.
Now, of course, that explanation, considering my physical condition and the logistics of getting myself out of bed at all, just didn’t fly. But, that didn’t matter to me. I created it and accepted it. The part of it that I couldn’t explain, I shoved “under the rug” and avoided thinking about it at all. I had to. What else could I do? If I even approached the problem with any rational thinking, there was no rational explanation that was part of my world view and it only produced a sensation of inner panic and something akin to what a deer must feel when it is frozen in the headlights of an oncoming vehicle.
I wonder how many other people have similar experiences that they explain in such ways?
At this point in time, the heart condition began to worsen, and I began to suffer from more than the back flush, or fibrillation. I began to have angina attacks every week or so with involvement of both arms, though it was mostly concentrated on the left side. I also began to have a recurrence of a former problem, endometriosis, which caused almost constant pain. (I ended up having a D&C and laparoscopy done which revealed that I had a severe case of adenomyosis.)
And then there were the headaches: pain so monstrous that the very act of breathing was agony. Nothing touched this pain — no drug, no therapy, no solution. The pain began in a strange way with a swelling of my head right at the occipital ridge where the back of the skull sits on the neck. It would sometimes swell as big as a golf ball and it was from there the pain radiated in ever increasing waves of pulsating torment, until it gripped me like a steel helmet squeezing my head, until I felt it must shatter, for how else could such a convulsion of agony end? The only way to cope — forgetting entirely about getting relief — was to lie perfectly still in darkness and to breathe as shallowly as possible so as to minimize movement. This would continue for up to a week at a time with only snatches of sleep, until finally I would fall into a deep sleep of utter exhaustion from holding my sanity in the face of this wracking torment, from which I would awaken free of pain at last, though living in terror of the next, inevitable attack.
As if all of that were not enough, there was also the constant struggle with ear infections that were so massive that the affected side of my head would swell until the ear itself closed completely, obstructing the draining of fluids that poured when the eardrum would finally rupture in a blinding burst of pain that, had I been able to stand, would have dropped me to my knees to beg for mercy!
The curious thing about these chronic, regular “blowups” in my ear was that I had no warning. There was no slow building of a sensation of something being wrong — I would simply wake up with the side of my head swollen, in pain, and it would develop, in the course of a single day, to a critical situation that required a trip to the emergency room.
I have to laugh in retrospect (though it is not a funny subject for those who have experienced it!) when I think about one doctor who proposed to obtain a specimen of the fluid leaking from my swollen ear. She just came up beside me with a cotton swab and was going to insert it into the tumescent ear canal for a gentle swipe. The instant she touched it, the explosion of pain immediately transmitted itself to my arm and the reflexive blow nearly knocked her across the room! She understood immediately that when I said it was very painful, I wasn’t joking in the least! And just for those who think I am a whiner here, let me point out that I had four children by this time, and one of them required the separation of my pelvis to deliver — utter agony — and I never once raised my voice, uttered a single cry, or did anything more than groan discreetly. In my family, pain was endured with dignity, not complaint. One certainly didn’t physically assault a doctor tending to the problem!
My solution to this was to meditate even more in conjunction with my reading and endless note taking. I had not entirely given up my quest for subsuming all emotion into the Love of God; so meditating on this was a daily activity — sometimes more than once a day. Meditation, taken in proper doses, along with “tuning the reading instrument”, can certainly accelerate one’s progress.
For me, meditation is a dual process. I later learned that some paths refer to my method as “meditation with seed”. The process really begins as an exercise in contemplation, or a focus upon an idea or image. It’s pretty standard, I believe.
My meditation practice rapidly progressed, as I later learned when I read some advanced texts on the subject. Of course, at the time, I really had no guide and had never actually studied it in method except to read books about meditation pathways per se.
There are two basic ways to meditate: with seed and without seed. That is, to have something to focus on, or to attempt to completely empty the mind. It is generally more productive to meditate with seed in the beginning. Depending on your type the seed will be different. If you are a visual person, holding a visual image in the mind works. If you are an auditory person, holding a phrase and “hearing” it in your mind works. If you are kinesthetic, holding a feeling or trying to achieve that feeling, works best.
Also, at the point when you begin to have some success in stilling the chatter, you can experiment with changing the seed or combining. You might have a visual and auditory, or feeling and visual, or auditory and feeling, or all of them at once.
My personal preference is a phrase that I can also “see” as letters forming words that appear and dissolve. With this, I have both thought content as well as visual image and can easily add feeling and sound at will. I can also discard visual, auditory and feeling elements and simply concentrate on the content.
Breathing is very important for a number of reasons. Very slow, controlled breathing with counting to start the process works very effectively. Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. Once the breathing (that your are counting in order to regulate) becomes deep, slow and regular, then introduce either your phrase, visual image, or whatever you have selected as seed. The breathing ought to continue as you have set it.
The object, in the beginning, is to set several tasks for your mind to focus on intently and to hold that focus for as long as you can. If your mind wanders and other thoughts come along, as soon as you realize that you have lost focus, just bring your mind back to the focus and don’t get irritated that you have lost your concentration. Most people can’t focus on a single thing for longer than two or three minutes. That is why it is useful to begin with concentrating on the breathing and counting the breaths with the intention of setting up a specific depth and frequency. If you breath in for a count of 6, hold for a count of 3, breath out for a count of 9, and do this for at least 25 breaths in a row, you have achieved a respectable first step.
Another very useful technique is to find a poem or more lengthy quote to use as your breathing template and content. For example, the so-called “Lord’s Prayer” is very useful in this way.
Recite in your mind, “Our Father Who art in Heaven,” on the in-breath while holding in mind that the “kingdom of heaven, the “heavenly father” is the higher intellect. “Hallowed be thy Name,” on the out-breath while holding in mind that this is the part of you that is holy and which you desire to manifest through your self. “Thy Kingdom Come, Thy will be done,” on the in-breath while considering the fact that you wish to establish a link with your higher self — the real you. “On Earth as it is in heaven,” on the out-breath, contemplating the fact that once the lower self is balanced and integrated, that the will of the spirit, the “heavenly kingdom” can be brought into your life.
You don’t have to do the whole prayer; the above is sufficient seed, but if you want to do the whole thing, I think you have the idea. You can visualize the words, consider the content, feel them, all the while the words themselves are acting as the counter for your breathing.
Some people can achieve very good results with very simple seed, other people require more complexity. Again, the point is to have something that you can focus on and to hold that focus intently. It is more or less an exercising of the Will and Intent, building a sort of “psychic muscle.” You may be surprised at the tenacity of the chatter and its resistance to this one-pointed focus.
Nevertheless, the result of this activity was that, after only a few months of practice, I found myself “zoning out” for up to three hours at a time, coming to myself feeling as though no time at all had passed. The only problem was: I never seemed to bring anything back with me. I had no idea what had been going on, where my mind had been, what my consciousness had been doing or anything. I did note that I was far more peaceful and able to cope with the difficulties of my life, but it was still frustrating to not be able to obtain something a bit more concrete from this entire endeavor. The C’s recently commented on this “zoning”:
August 5, 2009
Q: (L) What is this [zoning] phenomenon?
A: See previous answer [“Humans should remember the hermetic maxim can go both ways in some respects. Those who are destined to “meet” themselves in the future can now do so with greater facility due to these efforts. We once said that “you in the future” could “rewrite” cosmic programs… that goes for others too. They are now learning the programming language.”] and think of it as spending “time” with the higher self/teacher instead of wasting the ability to dissociate on futile illusions. Also remember that “time” spent in this process utilizes this “soul ability” as it was originally intended. It taxes the soul greatly to be embodied.
This recalls something from Gurdjieff:
[T]he only right way to objective consciousness is through the development of self-consciousness. If an ordinary man is artificially brought into a state of objective consciousness and afterwards brought back to his usual state he will remember nothing and he will think that for a time he had lost consciousness. But in the state of self-consciousness a man can have flashes of objective consciousness and remember them. […]
If we could connect the centers of our ordinary consciousness with the higher thinking center deliberately and at will, it would be of no use to us whatever in our present general state. In most cases where accidental contact with the higher thinking center takes place a man becomes unconscious. The mind refuses to take in the flood of thoughts, emotions, images, and ideas which suddenly burst into it. And instead of a vivid thought, or a vivid emotion, there results, on the contrary, a complete blank, a state of unconsciousness. The memory retains only the first moment when the flood rushed in on the mind and the last moment when the flood was receding and consciousness returned. But even these moments are so full of unusual shades and colors that there is nothing with which to compare them among the ordinary sensations of life. This is usually all that remains from so-called ‘mystical’ and ‘ecstatic’ experiences, which represent a temporary connection with a higher center. Only very seldom does it happen that a mind which has been better prepared succeeds in grasping and remembering something of what was felt and understood at the moment of ecstasy. But even in these cases the thinking, the moving, and the emotional centers remember and transmit everything in their own way, translate absolutely new and never previously experienced sensations into the language of usual everyday sensations, transmit in worldly three-dimensional forms things which pass completely beyond the limits of worldly measurements; in this way, of course, they entirely distort every trace of what remains in the memory of these unusual experiences. Our ordinary centers, in transmitting the impressions of the higher centers, may be compared to a blind man speaking of colors, or to a deaf man speaking of music. […]
The existence of these higher centers in us is a greater riddle than the hidden treasure which men who believe in the existence of the mysterious and the miraculous have sought since the remotest times.
All mystical and occult systems recognize the existence of higher forces and capacities in man although, in many cases, they admit the existence of these forces and capacities only in the form of possibilities, and speak of the necessity for developing the hidden forces in man. This present teaching differs from many others by the fact that it affirms that the higher centers exist in man and are fully developed.
It is the lower centers that are undeveloped. And it is precisely this lack of development, or the incomplete functioning, of the lower centers that prevents us from making use of the work of the higher centers.3 (Emphasis added)
As a matter of practicality, I generally meditated lying on the bed. Some people cannot do this because they tend to fall asleep, but that was never a problem for me. I could “zone out” in meditation, “come to” some time later, and then go to sleep if I was doing it at night. I was generally so uncomfortable in any position that getting to sleep was problematical if I didn’t meditate first.
One night, after a particularly trying day of struggle with the situation (I don’t really remember why I felt so extremely unhappy at that moment in time; probably just a combination of the constant pain, the struggles to make ends meet, anxieties for the children, and feeling completely alone in my marriage), it was standard practice for me to use any unpleasantness or unhappiness as the fuel for the meditative fires. Being able to achieve the sensation of love and peace in the face of some great difficulty was part of the challenge — and the purpose.
So, I went to bed and waited for my ex-husband to go to sleep. His attitude about the direction I was going was, on the surface, tolerant, but he always managed to say or do something to put some monkey wrench in the works if he was aware of what I was doing. If he thought I wanted things to be quiet for meditation, he would manage to just “have to” make some sort of noise or disruption, for which he would apologize profusely, and then go on to do it again and again.
After he was asleep, I began my breathing exercises. This part of the process I had borrowed from my hypnotherapy training. It was extremely useful. Of course, I later learned that it had been “borrowed” for hypnotherapy from certain meditation systems.4
At this point, I don’t know what happened. All I remember is starting the breathing phase, which came before going into the contemplative phase of the exercise. But, what happened seems to be that I sort of made some kind of big “skip” or something.
The next thing I knew, I was jerked back into consciousness by a sensation that can only be described as a roiling turbulence in my abdominal area. It was so powerful that, at first, it felt actually physical — like there was a boiling agitation in my organs that was going to erupt upward in some way. I could distinctly sense that it was building and was going to travel upward, and I was frightened that something crazy and strange was happening with my body with which I was completely unfamiliar. I knew I had to get out of that bed and get outside before “it” happened, though I had no idea what it was.
I was frantically holding my throat, because I could feel a tightening of the muscles in the throat area, as wave after wave of energy blew upward like the precursors of steam blasts from a volcano before it erupts. I struggled out of the bed, holding the wall with one hand and my throat with the other, all the while clenching my teeth so whatever it was would not come gushing out of me and disturb either my ex-husband or the children. For all I knew, I was just going to be violently sick! There certainly was a certain similarity between that feeling and the feeling that you are going to throw up!
I rushed outside to the porch where there was a lawn sofa and collapsed onto it just as the outpouring began.
I wish I could describe this in better words, but there are simply none that apply other than to use ordinary descriptions that don’t come close to the essence and intensity of the event. What erupted from me was a shattering series of sobs and cries that were utterly primeval and coming from some soul-deep place that defies explanation.
Accompanying these cries, or actually, embedded in them, were images — visions — complete scenes with all attendant emotional content and implied context conveyed in an instant. Again, it was like the idea of your life “passing before your eyes”. But, in this case, it was not scenes from this life. It was lifetime after lifetime. I knew that I was there in every scene, that the scenes I was seeing were vignettes of other lives, and I was experiencing myself as all these people.
And the tears! My god! The tears that flowed. I had no idea that the human physiology was capable of producing such copious amounts of liquid so rapidly! Where was all that liquid coming from?
Now, if this had been just an hour-long crying jag or something like that, it would have to pass into history as “just one of those things,” maybe like PMS. But, this activity had a life of its own! It went on, without slowing or stopping, for over five hours!
I had absolutely no control over any of it at all. If I attempted to slow it down, stop it, or switch my mind in another direction, the inner sensation of explosive eruption rapidly took over, all the muscles in my body would begin to clench up and I was no longer in control. I could only sit there as a sort of instrument of grief and lamentation, and literally sob my heart out for every horror of history in which I had seemingly participated or to which I had possibly been a witness. I think that there were even some that I was simply aware of and in which there had been no participation. And some of them were truly horrible scenes.
Plague and pestilence and death and destruction. Scene after scene. Loved ones standing one moment, crushed or laying in bloody heaps the next. Rapaciousness, pillaging, plundering; rivers of blood and gore; slaughter, carnage and butchery in all its many manifestations passed before my eyes; holocaust and hell. Rage and hot anger, bloodlust and fury, murder and mayhem, all around me, everywhere I looked. Evil heaped on evil like twisted, dismembered bodies. And the grief of centuries, the unshed tears of millennia, the guilt, remorse and penitence, flooded through me; melting, thawing and dissolving the burdensome shell of stone that encased my petrified heart; washing away the pain with my tears — an ocean of tears.
At the same time as this release of the worlds of accumulated guilt and grief of many lifetimes was going on, there was the voice in the background, ever soothing, ever calming, intoning over and over again: “It’s not your fault. There is no blame. It’s not your fault. You didn’t know.” And I came to understand something very deep.
I understood that there is no “original sin”. I understood that the terrors and suffering mankind experiences here in life on earth are not the result of some sort of mistake or error or aberration. They are not punishments. They are not something that one can be saved from, for I understood that every scene of terrible suffering and heart-rending cruelty was the result of ignorance.
It is easier to see this idea when you think about something such as the Crusades or the Inquisition. You can trace the path of twisted reason that led from the idea of the Love of God, to the idea of imposing that view of the Love of God on others “for their own good”. And, taken to an extreme, it even can result in ideas of torture and murder in the mind of a person who truly loves! Forget for a moment about those psychopaths who just viciously used such philosophies for their own gain and political maneuvers.5 Think for a moment about the sincerity of the followers of such philosophies. This following of evil disguised as good was based on ignorance. Even beyond that, those who were seemingly out for gain and self-aggrandizement were operating out of ignorance — fear and hunger of the soul that cannot be satisfied. It is only a matter of degrees, but in the end, it is only ignorance.
When the flow of energy, images and tears finally began to subside, there appeared the sensation of warm, balmy liquid that was almost airy in its lightness, and so sweet that to this day, I can still remember the piercing quickening of the fire of love for all of creation. It was ecstatic, rapturous and exultant all at the same time. I was lost in wonder, amazed and at the same time bewildered at this vision of the world.
The C’s also recently commented on this meditation:
June 20, 2009
Q: (L) Alright then. Is there anything that we could do?
A: Perhaps if you could share the technique that you used to achieve emotional cleansing, a lot of people would benefit including the two individuals in question.
Q: (L) What technique is that?
A: Remember an entire night of cleansing tears?!
Q: (L) Yeah. Well, that was just a meditation technique I developed. I would breathe a certain way and repeat certain things in my mind as I breathed, and I did it every night. Strange things started happening.
A: Strange indeed! You stumbled instinctively on an ancient method that is unsurpassed in its efficacy. So why not share?
Q: (Joe) Spill the beans, Laura! (L) Well I just never thought it was anything particularly special – it just worked for me! I mean how does something like that compare to this Art of Living Kriya thing [a popular Indian breathing program]?
A: AoL is for beginners and robots!
Q: (laughter) (L) Well then why were you so enthusiastic when C*** proposed teaching us? I mean, he asked if he should teach us, and you said yes with seven exclamation points!
A: Got you to do it and jump started your thinking didn’t we?!
Q: (L) So the point wasn’t that this method was “the best” or the only one or so great. It was to draw our attention to the idea of breathing, or control of breath, as a means of effecting emotional healing. Is that it?
A: Absolutely!X7
Q: (laughter) (L) Shorthand. Um…
A: Remember that your method employed a powerful “seed”.
Q: (DD) Seed? (L) Yeah, that’s a reference to meditating with or without seed. (Joe) What was the seed? (L) Phrases that I used in my mind. (Allen) Were those phrases particular to you though, like something that someone has to come up with for themselves? (L) Well, I dunno, were those phrases particular for me?
A: They were super powerful!
Q: (C) Where they like prayers? (L) Yeah, and it’s really funny because I started out using the Lord’s Prayer. Then I decided that I wasn’t happy with it because it wasn’t open enough. It had associations with specific religious things, and so I rewrote it. I’ll have to… It was something like… (DD) Did you use those words as a template? (L) Yeah. (Joe) I used to say a Lord’s Prayer that was modified. At night, like a mantra, I used to just go over and over… (L) Did you do it in concert with breathing? (Joe) Not consciously. (L) Yeah, well you see, I did. It was very deliberate controlled breathing. I did this every night for months. (DD) How were you breathing? (L) Very similar to what C*** teaches, what they call this Victory Breath. (Joe) Was it both in and out through the nose? (L) In through the nose, out through the mouth. (Joe) Because I thought Victory Breath was weird when we did the course since it was all through the nose. (A**) Yeah, that’s what was missing. (L) Yeah, I did it in through the nose, out through the mouth. It was in and count, hold and count, out and count. And it was very controlled… it was very similar to what they call this Ujjai breath, or Victory Breath. That was kind of familiar to me, because I’d done that for years. (C) And while you were doing it, you were saying… (L) I was repeating these phrases, and each phrase was created so that the in or out breath fit the phrase exactly. So for the first phrase, I would breathe in, and then out for the second phrase, etc. And my objective was to do it twenty times. I don’t think I ever did it twenty times, because I would get to about ten or twelve, and then I would just leave the body or something, just zone. And after a certain number of times of doing that, then I had this… I dunno, I came back to myself with this… I dunno whether I want to call it a kundalini experience or not, but I felt there was this tremendous cleansing event that went on for hours and hours and hours. I’ve described it before. Something happened. But anyway, that was the story. So I found that to be very effective. I dunno what to ask now. (Joe) Is what you just described the idea?
A: Yes and another excellent technique though for other purposes is what you call “power breathing”.
Q: (L) Oh, my Power Breathing. (C) What is that? (L) For me, that’s just energizing. The fast pace on the treadmill accompanied by a very particular kind and pace of breathing. This is the one that it’s not the head, it’s matched to the body. The one is like intellect and heart, and Power Breathing is like moving center and heart… You let the movement of your body take you where you need to go.
A: Remember what that technique did?
Q: (L) Oh yeah! (Joe) What did it do? Did you fly? Superpowers? (A**) That was the past life thing, wasn’t it? (L) Yeah, I went into a past life memory in the gym. (Joe) Where, here? (L) No, in Florida. Geez… But I guess if people do that, they need to have somebody there. So, there are a couple of ways to tap into these emotional issues that you’re talking about that are actually somewhat different from this Art of Living thing?
A: Yes and probably more effective if utilized faithfully. AoL is like the “Diet Coke” of breathing techniques… Just one calorie.
The prayer I used is called the “Prayer of the Soul”, which goes as follows:
Oh Divine Cosmic Mind
Holy Awareness in All Creation
Carried in the heart
Ruler of the mind
Savior of the Soul
Live in me today
Be my Daily Bread
As I give bread to others
Help me grow in knowledge
Of All Creation
Clear my eyes
That I may See
Clear my ears
That I may hear
Cleanse my heart
That I may know and love
The Holiness of True Existence
Divine Cosmic Mind
Well, the result of this event was a state of prolonged elevation, or loving peace that persisted for a very long time. You could even say that the effects reverberate to the present time because never again was I ever able to pass judgment on another no matter how wicked their deeds. I could see that all so-called evil and wickedness was a manifestation of ignorance and that there is no person, no matter how holy and elevated they may think they are in this life, who has not reveled in the shedding of another’s blood in some other time and place. The original denial of responsibility by Cain when he cried out “Am I my brother’s keeper?!” belongs to all.
But there was another significant point. Ignorance is a choice, and it is a choice that is made for a reason — to learn and grow.
And that realization led to another — to learn how to truly choose — to be able to learn, at this level of reality, what is and isn’t of ignorance — what is of truth and beauty and love and cleanliness. Of course I understood that it was like the saying of Jesus that some things are bright and shining on the outside, but inside they are filthy and full of decay. And I don’t mean that I was seeing this negativity as something to be judged — I clearly understood its reason and place as modes of learning — but I was deeply inspired to seek out all I could learn about this world so as to best manifest what was of light.
I was so excited by this revelation that I wanted to go straight back to the church and tell everybody. At that point, the only people with whom we had any contact were members of the church we had attended. They were coming by occasionally to find out why we had sort of dropped out, and these visits gave me the opportunity to talk about some of my branching out in terms of my spiritual experiences. In every single case, I was literally rebuked as having been duped by Satan. Boy, was I ever naive!
I thought about that a lot. I wondered if it could be so, if the whole drama of the visions, the actions of the minister who had been a wolf in sheep’s clothing, could have been set up and dramatized just to deceive me. I was truly on the horns of a dilemma. On the one hand, if they were right and I had been deceived, then perhaps my soul was in peril. But, if they were wrong and I was right then what did that make of the whole basis of Christianity? If they were wrong, if they could be wrong in such a fundamental thing, how could anything about what they had built on this basic error be right?
This distressed me because, while I was ready to “adjust” my Christian position, I was not quite prepared to toss the whole thing out the window. I mean, after all, through all the years of study and investigation, it had been there in the background. When I took the position that I was questioning the existence of a god at all, that was altogether different. There I was asking a question. But, in deciding that Christianity was just simply wrong, foundationally wrong because if there was no original sin from which to be saved, there was no necessity for a savior, then that was an altogether different thing. It amounted to making a choice.
It was a matter that took a number of years to resolve. So, we will leave it there. What is important is that, from this experience forward, I was never again able to see sin in quite the same light. When I read about murderers and deeds of mayhem, I knew that these were things in which I had participated in times past, in my ignorance.
When anyone did something that hurt me, I knew that I had done such things as well. I could no longer feel any judgment or criticism of anything or anybody because I knew that, at some place and time, it was myself I was judging. It had been a learning process, and I grew from each experience. I learned what not to do by doing it. And, in a very real sense, this is the reason for pain and suffering. It is like an automatic guidance system that keeps a person on the path of learning. But the trick is to be able to discern the difference between choosing a path that gives immediate physical comfort, and then leads to great psychic or soul pain, and a path that may be physically uncomfortable temporarily, that then leads to peace of the heart.
I suppose that you could say, in a sense, that I had accomplished a good part of the objective of the “love path”, but it was not that simple. I was still a very ordinary human being trying to function in the real world with real children and real events to contend with and some sort of balance had to be achieved between knowing that everyone is at some stage of learning and avoiding being part of their lesson. That was something that took some time. Had I not had children, I might have simply withdrawn from the world to spend the rest of my life in studious contemplation and repetition of ecstatic exercises. But I couldn’t. I had responsibilities. I was in the world, and it was my classroom.
What actually happened in the real world of practical affairs at this point, was a series of events that could be considered more or less ordinary, but in light of the previous trend of events in conjunction with my inner state and activities, can be looked at in a more miraculous light. We might even say that they were a direct reflection of the shift in my perspective.
Suddenly, my ex-husband was offered a congenial job. This actually happened because the man who offered it found himself needing help operating his business because he had suddenly decided to expand and found it to be too much to handle. He actually thought of my ex-husband specifically, asked around to find where we had moved to, and drove out in the boondocks to make this offer. At the time, I didn’t relate these external events directly to the shift in my state, but I was certainly grateful. So, the main worries about being able to live from one day to the next were solved.
Then, a friend who owned a business that included a fleet of trucks decided that it was time to get new ones, perhaps to be able to write it off on his income tax, and offered to sell us one (with very low mileage) for less than a fifth of its market value.
We added onto the cabin, doubling our living space, installed electricity and plumbing, and basically returned to the real world. Of course, by this time I had already had to sell my piano and all the jewelry that had been given to me over the years by friends and family before my marriage. If I hadn’t, there might have been no food to eat or no Christmas for the children.
I resumed doing hypnotherapy, which had been abandoned during the faith trip, and began to learn Spirit Release techniques.
It was at this point, also, that my mother woke up from her spell and realized how horribly she had behaved. It was too late to salvage the business or the real estate that had been sold to keep her friend happy, but she did sign back over to me the house I had inherited from my grandparents, from which she had evicted us several years earlier when my grandmother died. In the meantime, she had mortgaged it heavily, so I don’t think her motives were entirely selfless because the only thing I could do was sell it. I was able to utilize what funds were left after the mortgage was satisfied to buy a house that was big enough for our growing family.
But even before the move, something else happened. About three years after the birth of my fourth child, a longtime friend of mine who had observed the events of my life from the sidelines without judgment or comment, decided that I needed to get away from it all for a little break. I had never been away from my children for more than a few days — generally in the hospital — and I was not very comfortable with the idea of it, but the particular vacation being proposed was one that was hard to resist.
My friend and her husband owned a vacation home in North Carolina, and we had long followed the work of Al Miner who channels an entity calling itself “Lama Sing”. There was to be a meeting of the many people interested in this work in Maggie Valley, organized by a physician and his wife who were close friends of Al. There were going to be lectures, group meditations, dinners and so on. It sounded like not only a lot of fun, but also a path to something, though I was not sure what. I agreed to go.
At the symposium, everything was going along as might be expected at such an affair. People were claiming to see auras; folks were wandering around with ecstatic expressions on their faces pronouncing sagely on the “wonderful energy present”, and the talks were both lively and interesting.
Then, the doctor’s wife — the couple who had sponsored and organized the event — who was, I believe, a psychotherapist or counselor in some capacity — gave a talk about the many people who were coming forward at the time with “reincarnational memories” of the holocaust. This had the most unusual effect on me of producing an uncontrollable spell of crying. I had to leave the room and hide in a stall in the ladies lavatory until this particular talk was finished. I really thought I was losing my grip because nothing had ever affected me that way in public! Heck, not only do I not wear my heart on my sleeve in the presence of others, I don’t even dance in public because I have always felt that, for me, it was undignified!
But then, on the last day of the symposium the headache came. When my friend left to go to a group meditation, I stayed behind in the darkened motel room with cold towels and ice on my head trying to reduce the swelling. Fortunately this time, by the next morning when we were to all meet for a farewell breakfast, the pain had subsided sufficiently for me to be able to pack and otherwise function normally.
At breakfast, one of the ladies at our table remarked to me that the dress I had been wearing at the meditation the previous day was very lovely. I looked at her in surprise and said that I hadn’t gone because I had been ill. She looked back at me and said, “But I saw you clearly and I am not mistaken!”
My friend assured her that I had been in bed, so we all looked at one another and, after an awkward silence, the chatter began again. But I was pretty puzzled by this.
At the symposium, we had met two ladies who were elderly, but very spry and hugely entertaining and funny to talk with. One of them had had some training in hypnosis and advanced meditative techniques, and my friend and I discussed inviting them back to her vacation home where we planned to go for a few days before setting out for home. They agreed that we would have some fun, go digging for rocks at one of the local public mines, and just generally have a “hen party”.
After driving all day into the mountains, we arrived at the house, which was quite isolated and located at the end of an old logging road on the edge of a National Forest. It was completely peaceful and delightful and perfect for our experimental meditations.
Our new friend (let’s call her June) was going to direct a guided meditation accompanied by musical tones on tape. We all found comfortable places, and the instructions began. I remember following the breathing part, and tuning in to the musical tones, but from that point, it seems my inner consciousness had plans of its own.
I felt myself lift out of my body and “shoooop!” I was suddenly sort of hovering before a rock face on the side of a tall mountain. There was a sort of crack, or cleft in the rock. I knew that only very few people could pass through this narrow opening, and attempting it without being “one of those who can”, would result in a sort of shock, but I decided to try. I sort of aimed for it with volitional intent, and the next thing I knew I was emerging on the other side at the edge of a beautiful valley.
There were meadows of green grass and wildflowers of incredible luminescence and liveliness. The grasses were waving back and forth in the breeze, so it would seem, though this breeze was a sort of conscious caressing of the grass and the waving of the grass was a sort of conscious response to the caress much like a cat purrs when stroked.
I found myself in a sort of body, and began to walk through this grass, which received my steps, caressing my feet and legs as I merged with it at every step. It sort of passed me along, rather than me walking through it. There was a striped tent a short distance before me with banners flying from the posts in the consciously caressing breeze, but it was on the other side of a medium river. I knew that this tent was where I was going, though there was no sensation of “supposed to go”. I was curious as to how it was going to feel when I stepped into the water of the river.
I looked at the water that was crystal clear and sparkling in the bright sunlight, though there did not seem to be a sun in the sky, exactly. You could say that the jumping and dancing light on the water was a sort of conscious interplay between this ambient, intense light and the water itself.
I stepped into the water, noticing that my feet were bare and that I seemed to be wearing some sort of white under-robe with a striped over-robe, which I hoisted out of the water with my hands. I was surprised to feel the current moving so swiftly, yet giving the sensation of a merging with my feet. The sensation can only be described as “delicious” to my feet!
The glittering, jewel-like stones at the bottom of the river fascinated me. They were smooth, yet constantly flashing with the movement of the water across them. I walked across the river aware that this was an intense experience that had some deep significance. When I reached the other side, I was both glad that I had passed some sort of test, as well as regretful that the experience was over.
I approached the tent and there were two men sitting under an outer tent that was open-sided like a porch, on a carpet spread on the grass in front of the tent. They were also dressed as I was. The tent was striped in the same pattern as the stripes of the over robes, and the colors of the stripes were red, white and black with a constantly repeating thin border to each stripe of lapis blue.
One of the men spoke to me saying: “We have been waiting for a long time. There is joy in seeing you again.”
For some reason, this didn’t strike me as unusual. I had the feeling that this meeting had been arranged a very long “time” ago. I bowed and acknowledged the greeting. Then, the other one said, “He is inside.” That, too, was not unexpected. I ducked my head to enter the tent and there was a man, an old man with young skin like iridescent porcelain, standing inside. His expression upon seeing me was absolute happiness and satisfaction. He embraced me strongly and kissed me on both cheeks, tears coming to his eyes. “We will break bread first.” He said. Again, this was not a surprise and there was no question in my mind as to what “first” might mean, though I didn’t know!
We sat down on the carpeted ground inside the tent around a medium table. The two men outside came in with bowls of bread and milk. There was a golden goblet on the table already filled with something like wine. A large loaf of bread was broken into equal pieces by the old man and each of us was handed a piece. We dipped it in the milk and ate. Then the goblet was taken up by the old man, who passed his hands over it, blew on it, drank from it, and passed it to me. At that moment, I became aware that they were all watching me and I knew that drinking was another test. I drank and expressions of happiness were evident on all their faces.
Then the old man stood up and went through a door into an inner room in the tent, and I knew that I was also supposed to follow. I did. In this room was a golden chest about the size of a large breadbox. He went to it and opened it taking out a large necklace. Now, this necklace was about the strangest thing I have ever seen. It was made up of a series of balls of gold that were graduated like a strand of pearls would be, only the mediumest was about the size of a playing marble and the largest, in the center, was about the size of a Ping-Pong ball. Suspended at the center was a figured gold object set with a large stone. The figure of the piece consisted of two spiraling horns similar to Ram’s horns mounted to the side of the flat surface on which the stone was fixed. The flat surface was strange in that it was both circular yet triangular. How it could be both, I cannot say, but it was. The circular part of it seemed to be a function of the stone that was rounded like a Ping-Pong ball cut in half. But it was the characteristics of the stone that fascinated me. Imagine a combination between a diamond and an opal and you have some idea of what it was like. It was milky yet crystalline, flashing fire and colors like an opal, yet brilliant and transparent like a diamond. The living nature of this stone was apparent, and I was in awe of it.
The old man turned to me and looked at me long and carefully — searching my eyes for something. He held the necklace in both hands, suspended in air as he did so, and finally said, “You understand?” I replied, “Yes.” And the understanding that was instantly opened to my mind was that, if I accepted the stone, there were consequences. The consequences were that any manifestations of falseness in me would turn on me and destroy the instrument in which I was operating, i.e., the physical body of my present incarnation. It didn’t matter if they were unintended. I was being charged to seek out and speak only truth with no latitude for subjective wishful thinking.
With this understanding passed to me the enormous responsibility and risk I was accepting. It was sobering, awe inspiring and even a little frightening. But the fear passed quickly. “You accept?” the old man asked. “I do.” I replied and bent my head to receive the stone. He placed it carefully around my neck, adjusting the fit at the shoulders so that the stone should rest exactly at the base of my breastbone.
I was embraced again, and passed out of the inner room to the outer where the two other men were waiting. When they saw the stone, their faces lit up with joy and they clasped their hands together and bowed as I passed. I signaled them with my eyes as I did so, knowing that I could no longer speak in that realm.
The next thing I knew, I could hear June’s voice calling my name over and over again at a great distance. Like a rocket, I shot through the cleft in the rock and found myself over the mountain where the house was that held my mortal body, and then I was in the body, coming back as though emerging from a dark tunnel into the light of this world. I opened my eyes and my friends were looking at me and laughing that I had “gone to sleep”!
I tried to say that something very extraordinary had happened, but words failed me. I found that I could not really describe this experience in anything but the most prosaic terms and they were making great fun of it, so I decided that I shouldn’t talk about it and kept most of it to myself. They did ask what the stone was when I tried to describe it, and the only thing that came to my mind was that it was called The Speaking Stone.
I should mention that, shortly after beginning meditation practice, I had begun to experience a strange anomaly. Things would break in my presence with no apparent cause, things like drinking glasses, lamp chimneys (remember, we were living for some time with no electricity), and so forth. I had attempted to try to explain this as rapid shifts in temperature such as occurs when you pour boiling water into a glass, but that didn’t really work in the summer time, when there was nothing in the glass, and the lamp chimney had been sitting unused all day. Another thing to shove under the rug.
But, on the trip down from the mountains on the way home, I was thinking about the stone and how I was going to cope with this condition on my existence in my relations with my ex-husband, and at that very instant, the back window in my friend’s new car exploded with a loud noise like the shot from a cannon. We were both so startled that she slammed on the brakes and we quickly looked around. She looked in the mirror and I turned my head and we both saw the window this way at the same time. It was all milky with the fractures of tempered glass that breaks into little “balls”. And just at that moment, it began to rain. We looked in directions and there wasn’t another car in sight and no apparent place that a missile could have come from. And, in fact, there didn’t seem to be any impact point. The whole window was still in one piece, but completely covered with those lines of fracture. It was thus impossible to see through.
Swell! There we are, driving along with about 400 miles to go, with a shattered rear window and a pile of luggage and souvenirs in the back seat! But, the window seemed to be holding, and we kept moving, though slowly. At some point we wanted to check the situation out, so when we came to a place to pull off, a closed gas station, we turned in. The instant we hit the bump of the end of the pavement, the whole window fell in on the seat in a pile of thousands of little glass balls!
Well, there wasn’t much to do except find a place to stay, cover the car until morning, and then go from there. We found a motel where the owner very kindly allowed us to put the car in his own garage and the next day we drove to the nearest city with a car dealer affiliated with the maker of the car.
The car was repaired, but the mechanics were completely baffled. They could come up with absolutely no explanation as to why the window would suddenly shatter.
A related incident occurred not long after I was back home. By this time, we had a new bedroom built onto our cabin, which had now become a house, and the room was lined on two sides with large plate glass windows that measured four feet by six. The house was in the middle of a grove of trees and it was like having the outdoors “inside”. The head of the bed was against one of the walls of glass and I really enjoyed this room, especially when it rained.
I was meditating on the bed, and my ex-husband came into the house forgetting to catch the screen door to prevent it from slamming shut with the spring attached to it. When it slammed, I felt an internal “jerk” and the next thing I knew, the window at the head of the bed exploded exactly as the window at the back of the car had done some months before. Again, it was tempered glass, and it was a moment before the balls began to start falling, slowly at first, then all at once, collapsing in a pile on top of me.
Needless to say, at that point, my ex-husband became just a bit more cautious in his actions designed to “jerk my chain”. He was already wary of the dozen or so shattered glasses and lamp chimneys that had gone before, but this was taking the thing to a new level. Heck, who knows? Maybe he was thinking I was some kind of witch! But it was creating a great distance between us because it frightened him.
I have to admit that I was sometimes a bit frightened also. I didn’t know what was happening to me and around me. I only knew that I was on some sort of path and I could only do as I did because to do otherwise was in a strange way, impossible. I thought of it as a sort of “walking on water”. In my mind, I was out in the middle of a vast ocean and there was a certain path for me, but each step was an act of both faith as well as judicious consideration of probabilities. I had a pretty good idea of where the supports that were hidden just under the surface of the water were, but I was not allowed to see them before I put my foot forward for the next step. I knew that, at any moment, I might find that my step was not met by the support structure, and I would plunge into the waves.
So much for strange experiences while meditating. Now let’s jump over a few years to the time of the Flying Black Boomerangs chronicled in High Strangeness — another great inner shift. The reader will notice that no single experience was the last word. Things happened in stages and by degrees over years of time. And that, of course, implies that the process is ongoing. As I noted in Amazing Grace, it was at this point that my physical system broke down completely. My state of functionality had been precarious for years, and now it became a primary issue.
I continued to force myself to function by sheer will (the way of the fakir?) but I could see that the trend was definitely downhill and I knew that if something didn’t change I was going to die. I knew I would die because the will in me was gradually being eroded away by constant pain. I couldn’t stand on my feet for more than a few minutes at a time because the pelvic and lower back pain would make all my muscles go into a spasm that would end in spastic release because the muscles refused to support me at all. The muscles that are used to erect the body, assist in transitioning from sitting to standing, and lifting the legs to walk, were involved; and all of those activities — ordinary as they are — were greatly hindered. I needed assistance in and out of chairs, in and out of bed, in the bathroom, in and out of the tub and so on.
However, as long as I was sitting still and didn’t try to move, I was fine. And my brain hadn’t died, so I continued to read and study to divert my mind, and schedule hypnosis sessions. My ex-husband saw this as malingering. He complained that I could do what I liked to do, i.e., read or do hypnosis sessions for other people, but I wasn’t doing anything for him, i.e., attend to his physical needs. I was stung and deeply hurt by this because if it hadn’t been for reading and my work, I would have felt completely useless; I would have been a vegetable.
There were times when I wished that I had no family who would be damaged or hurt if I just ended it all. The angina was so constant a condition that I actually had fantasies of a madman with an ax breaking into the house and chopping my arm off thereby giving me relief. The doctor was baffled by it, and finally suggested that it might just be nerve damage and that doing carpal tunnel surgery was an option that might clear it up. Naturally, he didn’t really explain why the pain was in the upper arm and chest area, but go figure. I was desperate and went to have it done.
When I woke up after surgery that was supposed to have been on my left wrist, both wrists were bandaged up like boxing gloves. I was completely horrified! How was I going to do anything with both hands like that?
The pain was close to the worst I have ever experienced. It was worse than having a baby. It was in the same category as the headaches and ear infections. I was not prepared for that. And it didn’t go away as the doctor said it would.
The surgery also hadn’t done anything to relieve the arm pain. So I was worse than before, and now I was almost completely helpless. I didn’t even have the strength in my hands to turn a doorknob or take the lid off a jar or hold a potato to peel it. I couldn’t lift a pot from the stove; I couldn’t even hold a pen or pencil for longer than a minute without being gripped by an agonizing spasm, which resulted in my hand turning into a quivering, spastic claw right out of a horror movie. Forget playing the piano; wasn’t ever going to happen again!
That was pretty depressing. And, for some reason, my ex-husband took some sort of perverse pleasure in torturing me with the situation. I was constantly reminded that if I wanted anything done that I wanted, I would just have to figure out how to do it myself.
So we find that the situation had improved in many ways, reflective of a change in the inner state, but obviously, there was more that needed to be done. I had no idea what, and was not even able to articulate in my mind that this was what was happening. I was aware of the fact that our bodies reflect some state of the soul, the condition of the Speaking Stone, but try as I would, I could not find the door to heal my own soul so that my body would begin to heal as well. The only thing I could figure was that there must be something more, something deeper, something I wasn’t seeing. I knew that somehow my ignorance was playing a part, but of what was I ignorant? What, in the name of God, was I doing wrong?
I had seemingly achieved a state of love and acceptance for all people, for all paths, for all who struggled in ignorance. I was working as hard as I could (and even in my state of physical deterioration, which was considerable) to fix things for those who asked. I never turned down a request for help from anyone whether they could pay anything or not. I was not in it for the money. I was, in a certain sense, in as bad a situation as I had been when the voice had told me that I must “learn” about evil.
Well, I was trying. I was trying to learn how to identify it. What I didn’t know and was about to learn was that very often, that which manifests as light and truth is not; it is a deception to folly. This was the still unlearned part of the “love lesson”. I had already had the lesson that large religious organizations could be a pathway to destruction. For millennia, different sources, different teachers, have provided versions of a blueprint of the underlying forces of the reality in which we live — generally with very little, if any success. My observations over many years — compared with the observations of many other people — have led me to think that most of the expositions on the underlying forces of our reality have been, to put it bluntly, bogus. That is not to say that they have not had good intentions, and maybe even some “keys.” But, it seems to be a fact of our reality that we are “in the soup” and some forces really wish to keep us there. Thus there has been a concerted effort to promulgate versions of the deeper reality that are not only misleading, but obviously designed to keep people asleep. However, what I didn’t know at the time was just how subtle and torturous this deception could be and how it manifested on an individual, personal basis.
In early 1994, I had a conversation with Frank in which he enumerated for me the string of strange, synchronistic and even quite miraculous events that had brought me to the place where I now was. He cited point after point down through my entire life story, with which he was familiar, right up to the past few years when the bizarreness and synchronicities had increased to the point that I felt like I was living in a madhouse where normal reality no longer held sway, and the formerly solid earth of my reference system was crumbling beneath my feet. With each point he made, I felt like another wave was washing over my foundation of sand, and I was sinking into the mire of complete lunacy.
How can you deal with a life that has gone completely over the edge in terms of strangeness that you neither wish to experience, nor do you wish to perpetuate?
After going over most of my life, Frank came to the more recent times and pointed out how the UFOs had come with the first abduction session I had done, and that clearly this was an unusual phenomenon. Not everyone who might be an abductee under hypnosis attracts a whole flap of UFOs. The question was: was it the abductee, or the therapist in whom the denizens of UFO land were interested?
Then he pointed out the obvious (to him) connection between my deteriorating physical state and my own UFO encounter. When I protested that there might be no relation at all, he pointed out how my dog had suffered and died within a very short time after this exposure and how my symptoms always seemed to peak at exactly the time of night that the UFO had come along. What was my explanation for that little item?
I had none.
Frank’s theory was that the whole drama of recent times that was spread across several counties and included dozens of people, most of whom I didn’t even know, was staged to get my attention — to wake me up.
I did not like the direction the conversation was taking. Like the wet nightgown and the strange lights, I was really struggling to shove this one under the rug.
“Why meeee?” I wailed. I felt a huge pressure on my chest (the “Speaking Stone?”) at the very thought. “What am I supposed to DO?!”
At that point, Frank had run out of theories. “I have no idea,” he said. “I am just pointing out the obvious. I guess you have to figure the rest out on your own.”
I clearly remember sitting on my bed that night, thinking about these strange hints that there was something deeper to our reality than I might have supposed in my years of research and work. The only problem was, as I pointed out smugly to God, I was too sick to do anything. “You blew it, Buckwheat!” I told the Universe. “If there was ever anything you wanted me to do, you let me suffer too much for too long! So there!” I mentally stuck out my tongue in defiance and resentment.
There I was, as nonfunctioning as a human being can be and still appear to be functional. But an overwhelming sensation of purposefulness behind it all swept over me and I immediately regretted my childish resistance. So I resigned to it, accepted it, and declared to the Universe that if all of these things were being orchestrated to get my attention, it had surely worked, but I was too far-gone to pick up the ball and run with it. “If I am supposed to do anything about it, you gotta fix me up here,” I said. “As I am, I can do nothing.”
Within two weeks — actually more like ten days — I found Reiki. Or Reiki found me. And so did Dr. Greenbaum.
1 Christian hymn by Fanny J. Crosby. It was always a favorite of mine, and though I have learned that Christianity — as it has been promulgated for 2000 years — is not the original Christianity, I still find some useful concepts buried there like little gems in the mud.
2 In the years since I wrote the above description, I have seen something that conveys a bit of the impression I had of this light. There is a movie with Sean Connery and Catherine Zeta-Jones, Entrapment, that has a scene of the actress navigating a field of laser light. If you just make the beams of light blindingly brilliant, you may have some idea of what I was seeing.
4 We have now made this breathing/meditation technique available for free on our website. The full program is also available in a 3-CD/DVD set, also available on our website. We call the program Eiriu Eolas, which is Celtic for “Growth of Knowledge”. See: http://eiriu-eolas.org/
5 See Andrew Lobaczewski’s Political Ponerology, which Red Pill Press published in 2006, for the best analysis evil in our world. It painfully describes the psychopaths who come to rule nations, and the psychological processes that lead to atrocities like the Holocaust. His book covers the spectrum of human behaviors: what is evil, and how even good people can get swept up in its influence.
Remember what I said above:
I had seemingly achieved a state of love and acceptance for all people, for all paths, for all who struggled in ignorance. I was working as hard as I could (and even in my state of physical deterioration, it was considerable) to fix things for those who asked. I never turned down a request for help from anyone whether they could pay anything or not. I was not in it for the money. I was, in a certain sense, in as bad a situation as I had been when the voice had told me that I must “learn” about evil. Well, I was trying. I was trying to learn how to identify it. What I didn’t know, and was about to learn was that very often, that which manifests as light and truth is NOT: it is a deception to folly. This was the still unlearned part of the “love lesson”. I had already had the lesson that large religious organizations could be a pathway to destruction, what I didn’t know was just how subtle and torturous this deception could be and how it manifested on an individual, personal basis.
What this meant, in practical terms, was that I had expanded my concepts to the more or less standard New Age version of “Unconditional Love” — that one loves everyone and everything and surrounds the self with love and light in meditation or affirmation on a daily basis, and just sort of sails along through life in the belief that if you believe in love and light and that everything is love and is to be loved, then that is what you will experience.
It also means forgiveness in wider terms: a constant “canceling out of the other person’s weaknesses” because, in the grander scheme of things, no one has weaknesses! They are simply who and what they are and it is our job to love them and get along — go with the flow; accept everything and everybody as they are and hang out together in one grand orgy of love and light! What else are you going to do with the realization that there is no original sin, that all are one?
That sort of does sound like what my experiences were teaching me, yes?
Yes and no.
But, again, to give a practical example of how the next lesson transpired, we go back to the events of the “school,” i.e., my life.
The day after my little “talk with God”, a letter arrived in my mother’s mail, and she called me to come and have a look at it. It was from a local retiree organization which was offering a course in home health nursing to retired people who were physically fit and able, and who wanted a new career that would get them out of the house, make them useful, end their boredom, and pay them money to boot! What a deal! To my mother, it sounded too good to be true. It was entirely free to retirees, all supplies, including uniforms, provided; even transportation to and from the site of the course was to be provided. Those who were interested were supposed to call right away and reserve a place in the class.
Mother was pretty excited about this opportunity for action and involvement in the world again. I agreed that if she wanted to have a new career that she ought to do so. So, she called and discovered that she was among the last few to be accepted since there had been such overwhelming response to the offer. Not a surprise.
About a week into this course Mother told me that a lady in her class had invited her to an open-house on the following Wednesday evening and she felt obligated to attend since this lady had sought her out in the class to share their lunch breaks, and had spent so much time being friendly and agreeable. The thing was that she needed me to drive her to this evening affair. I was happy to see her “get a life”, so to speak, so I was all for helping her in her new pursuits. No problem.
At that point in time, after the UFO experience, which had brought all my health issues to a crisis state, I had to be very careful to budget my energy so that I could get done in any given day what was essential. Still, even with taking such care, I often had little energy for anything. I had been forced to cut way back on doing hypnosis sessions, using the in-between days to recover. And every night I was plagued with almost constant angina and the swelling of the eyes and mucous membranes of the throat, which I interpreted as allergy overload; I was living on Benadryl, which worked to alleviate some of the symptoms, but had the side effect of knocking me out. Not a very nice way to be living. I was about as minimally functional as a human being could be and still appear to be functioning normally! It was certain that no one could look at me and see anything wrong, but I was trapped in a body that seemed to be like a machine with one circuit after another shorting out or burning up. (Of course, it never occurred to me that new circuits were being formed, but that was a realization that would only come later.)
So, mother had this invitation, and I planned for it so as to be able to provide her with transportation. But, on the day it was supposed to happen, I was in so much pain and I was so exhausted that I just didn’t see how I was going to be able to do it. Mother knew the state I was in and didn’t push it. Somewhere around the middle of the afternoon, I collapsed on the bed and fell right to sleep. I awakened a couple of hours later — amazingly — feeling almost normal! I remembered that I was supposed to do something and I looked at the clock and saw that I had just enough time to collect mother and take her to her open house. I called her and told her that I was feeling better and she should get ready, as I would be there in a few minutes.
When we arrived at this open-house affair, I was not quite sure what was going on. There were about fifteen people standing around with their hands resting on individuals who were lying on three massage tables. There was incense burning and New Age music playing in the background, and some of the folks were standing with their eyes closed in meditative tranquility. I wasn’t sure if I had stepped into a new version of the fundamentalist “laying on of hands” deal or what!
Being a person who tries to find a balance between good manners and my curiosity (which sometimes makes for funny situations I can tell you!), I settled in a chair after the introductions were made and asked something to the effect of, “What exactly, are y’all doing here, and what is the idea behind it and the precise procedure being followed?” No reason to beat around the bush! I expected something like, “We are praying,” or, “We are meditating on wellness,” or something like that. But instead, the answer was “we are channeling Reiki.”
Okay. “What is Reiki?”
The various participants recounted the whole story of Dr. Usui to me as they stood there with their hands on the patients. Every movement and placement of the hands was explained to me, and as it went on, I became more and more skeptical. I mean, out of all the healing methods I had heard or read about or tried, this was truly the most nebulous and least likely! It seemed patently ridiculous to me that someone could “initiate” or “attune” another person in some way so that they had new powers to channel energy to another person that was supposed to be so amazing and miraculous! I expected them to say next that Reiki could help you walk on water! When that one came, I was gonna be outta there! I was urged to give it a try, but managed to decline almost gracefully. I would have felt perfectly silly on that table with five people laying their hands on me for 45 minutes or so. Wasn’t gonna happen!
But I was working at being polite and gentle in my skepticism and soon the conversation turned to astrology — safe ground for me — and I mentioned in passing that I had a computer program that did pretty good charts, so the woman who was holding the Reiki open house offered me a trade: three Reiki treatments in exchange for an astrological chart.
How dense can you be? I was wondering how bright this gal was since she was offering me several hours of her time and effort in exchange for a few minutes of data entry and printing! Didn’t seem too fair to me but I figured if she was silly enough to be convinced that she could “channel healing energy” to me through her hands, and was willing to go to that length to do it, I was game for the test. I was convinced that it would be another flop, but I also had the thought that maybe it was her way of getting a chart done that she otherwise could not afford. So, to “save face” for her, I agreed. An appointment was made for the following day, and sure enough, she showed up.
So, there I was, in such lousy condition that I actually had to be assisted to lie down on the massage table that was set up in my living room. And more embarrassing, I fell asleep during the treatment! When she had put her hands on me all I could really feel, (and I was paying close attention with a lot of skepticism), was warmth that didn’t seem to be much more than the normal heat that would be evident when one person puts their hands on another. But the real surprise was to come when I got off the massage table at the end of the treatment. I could barely stand! I was so dizzy it was quite literally like being drunk! When I tried to walk I had to hold onto the furniture and walls to keep from falling down. I had to be helped to my bed where I collapsed and closed my eyes. But that didn’t help because I had the exact same sick, spinning sensation that comes with having had a bit too much to drink! When I opened my eyes and tried to focus on the ceiling and walls, they spun dizzyingly as though I had been a child spinning in circles and then fallen to the ground to watch the sky and clouds keep moving. I was really concerned that something was going completely berserk with my system and I hoped it would pass. I was nauseated and felt a creeping tingling just exactly like being drunk! I just tried to breathe deeply and stop the spinning into the void in my head and soon fell asleep.
That night I slept better than I had in over 18 years. But it wasn’t until well into the next day as I was unloading the dryer when I suddenly realized that my back didn’t hurt. Not only that, but I realized that I had already done a lot more of my housework than I had been capable of doing in a very long time! I had just started tackling one chore after another, moving from one to the next, without noticing anything unusual. It wasn’t until I had been working for several hours that I realized that something was different. There was something missing here. It was the long familiar pain.
Now, for someone who has gotten used to functioning with pain; who has developed ways to maneuver through life accommodating this pain; and who is never out of pain, this was so startling a realization that I actually sat down and began to mentally go over my body to discover if I didn’t feel some little familiar twinge here or there. There was no pain. I was sure that, at any moment, I was going to get slammed with it again so I got up carefully and continued with my work, constantly monitoring myself for the return of the pain. Actually, I think I even wanted the pain to return because otherwise, I would have to think that Reiki had worked! And we certainly could not believe that sort of nonsense! What a dilemma!
Now, the clear thing here is this: I did not expect the Reiki to work. Further, I expected the pain to return. But something objective was going on that I didn’t understand. I had become pretty convinced that what you think about or expect was what you experienced and that faith was an integral part of healing and I was working on digging up whatever might be buried in my own subconscious that was responsible for my suffering; which prevented me from having the faith to effect a healing; but, here I was, experiencing an effect in which I had had no faith of any kind. What is more, my skepticism about Reiki was rather deep rooted, yet it seemed that the Reiki had worked anyway. Or so we might think. What other explanation could there be? I actually began to cry with gratitude. Only those who have suffered long and constant pain can understand how I felt to not be in pain.
But, I was still on guard. Even though I had momentary relief, I expected the pain to return.
I had to go pick my daughter up and while we were driving home I told her about the pain being gone and that I thought the Reiki had done it. She laughed at me and said it only worked because I believed it would work. I pointed out to her that my belief had been exactly the opposite. And since that was the case, I was wondering now exactly what this Reiki business was.
Needless to say, it only got better. After two more treatments and the passing of a week, I was convinced that whatever was happening was working. I went to the open-houses regularly after this, not only was I healed of the back pain, the angina attacks lessened almost to non-existence, the swelling of the eyes and throat stopped entirely, my energy level soared and I was able to see more clients and be more active, which suited me fine! But still I was thinking that it wasn’t the Reiki itself, but was merely transference of energy that anyone could accomplish if they just stood around for 40 minutes with their hands on another person. So, even though I was receiving benefits, I had my own theory about what it was. Surely it was an absurdity to think that someone could confer this almost magical ability on another in some way! And, to make this point, I was anxious for the Reiki Master who had initiated my new friends to come to town for a scheduled class — which seemed to be the point of the open-house — to attract new students. I was going to bring all my powers of observation and skepticism to this new investigation. If there was anything to this Reiki business, I was going to find out. I had no intention of believing it unless there was more or less objective proof.
When the day arrived for the first initiation, I was there, “loaded for bear”, as they say, actively looking for some sort of hocus pocus or mumbo jumbo that would reveal the truth: that people were being charged large sums of money to be made to think they could channel Reiki, when the real effect was merely a natural energy flow that was available to all who had the patience to stand around with their hands on another person. The only thing I can say I felt during the attunement process was what seemed to be a sort of generalized rush of heat from my abdomen up through my head and a little popping sound in my head. But it was so nebulous that I considered it to be discountable as a subjective observation.
What happened later that night was surprising. We were told that, after the attunements, the body would experience some symptoms of adjustment such as excessive thirst and urination or even diarrhea. But what I wasn’t expecting was the fact that when I put my hands near any of my children I felt a clear and distinct rush of heat against my palms exactly like the sensation of a blow dryer. This rush would be felt before the hand was close enough to be able to detect the normal heat exchange between bodies. I would say that it occurred at about 6 inches. There was a distinct magnetic feeling to this heat; a feeling that was similar to the pulling you feel when you hold two magnets close enough together that they begin to act on one another. The first time it happened, I jerked my hand back as though I had been burned. And then I began to experiment with it. I would start moving my hand closer and closer until I could distinctly identify the point at which the sensation occurred, the attraction was felt, and then I would deliberately move my hand closer by very small degrees in order to feel the effect at every stage of nearness. It was definitely there. No question about it. And the kids could feel it also.
Later that evening I was sitting on the sofa and my son came to sit on the floor in front of me and leaned back against my legs. As soon as he did, I could feel the heat begin to pass from my legs to his body exactly like the blow dryer effect. Apparently this was not just restricted to the hands! It was a whole body thing going on here! We soon became so hot from this contact, in an air-conditioned room, that he complained, “Mom! It’s hot in here!” and moved away. By this time, we were both dripping with perspiration. It proved to be several months before this effect dissipated where the children were concerned. It continues to this day when I touch anyone who has an energy deficit. But I suspect that, after a time, the children became “energized”, and so no longer pulled energy as strongly. Of course, if one of them is ill, there is a drawing of energy, but nothing like there was at the time of the Reiki initiation. (Some time later when I took the Master Level attunements, my palms actually blistered and peeled for several weeks.)
So, the end result was that I realized that there seem to be objective realities in which no belief is necessary or required. If you know about, or have access to, these objective levels, you can discover those principles with which to align your actions for subjective results.
But, talking about Reiki per se is not the point here. It was the people involved and the lessons obtained from them. But it seems that the healing I obtained via Reiki was the “set up” in which the lesson played itself out.
This Reiki group was a pretty funny collection of people. The general outline of their affiliation, as far as I could determine, was that they all attended a local Metaphysical/Spiritualist church that had brought the Reiki Master in as part of their many program presentations. Apparently, they also arranged seminars of other teachings and were involved in promulgating many popular modalities such as Hawaiian Huna teachings, psychic surgery, Kabballah, Tarot classes, meditation classes, channeling classes, Native American shamanism classes, Sweat Lodges, and on and on and on. It was a veritable supermarket of New Age Goodies!
Now, having had my personal evidence of the usefulness of Reiki, I was pretty excited to see what else was on the menu! Heck, if that worked, who knows what things I had been passing by in the years that I had been a student and not a participant! A whole new world opened up for me here and I was ready to dive in! I had never been much of a joiner or a group person, but this Reiki crowd that met every Wednesday night was so wonderful and fun and had had such a profound effect on me in terms of healing that I knew that it was time to get over this little loner glitch in my personality. After all, I had found “my group”, or so it seemed.
I shared a little bit about my Spirit Release work with the group and they all nodded sagely that they knew all about such problems and their minister down at the Metaphysical Church had talked about such things, telling them that they had only to surround themselves with love and light and they were okay. I pointed out that some serious clinical research did not support this, but they assured me it was true. People only had attachments if they were not sufficiently adept at this “surrounding oneself with love and light,” and the only way to do that was, of course, to learn the proper techniques from such a teacher as the Great Reverend Ruth down at the church. Reverend Ruth also seemed to be an expert on about everything else, so I was pretty interested in meeting such a paragon. Not only that, but the Reiki attunements were supposed to “set the direction of energy flow” so that no negative energy could enter a person’s “auric field”. So, I no longer had to worry about attachments and so forth. I had become a veritable “light being” and any problems in my deep psyche or any idea of darkness in the outer world could not survive in such light! Wow! What a deal! I even had the idea that all future clients who came to me for spirit release should have the Reiki attunements to keep them protected from that point on. Heck, I wanted to give the whole planet Reiki! Having such a healing sure does get a person all fired up!
So, I was invited to the Church. Reverend Ruth, the “Maven of Mystery” was introduced to me by one of the Reiki group. I was a bit surprised at the adoring devotee manner that all of the Reiki people took on once they had entered the environs of the Church. And, I didn’t quite know what to make of Reverend Ruth sitting there in her wheelchair. But I felt a frisson of something cold when I looked in her eyes, and it almost seemed that there was something else in there for a moment looking back at me before it quickly retreated. And again, I doubted my perception. Surely the teacher of all these wonderful, loving people with whom I was now associated could not be less than holy! After all, hadn’t she been the wellspring from which Reiki, my salvation, had been drawn?
Just as in an ordinary church, the service included singing hymns. Well, that’s fine! I’m a hymn singer from way back — always my favorite part of going to church. The problem here was that the selection was a song that no one had ever heard before. Not only that, it was evident that the organist who selected it had never heard it either! To make the matter worse, the organist had only the most rudimentary skills with the instrument, and took so long to place her fingers on the keys in response to reading the notes, that the tempo was something akin to a funeral dirge mired in quicksand. The congregation — mostly women — was all waiting for each note to be able to follow. The note would come, obscured in a bass chord that was a lot like the bellowing of a rutting elephant, and the voices would all tremble into action trying to match the identified pitch… only to have the organist suddenly decide she had hit the wrong key, fumble to the right one, and then all the congregation would jerk their voices in mid-warble to the amended note. At least nobody was going to be hypnotized by this, I thought!
Fortunately, my sense of humor did not desert me, even though my aesthetic sensibilities were being savaged to the point that it was actually painful! Since I could not only read music, but could sing as well, I decided to help the situation out a bit by singing the correct notes, at the correct tempo, just loud enough so that the people around me could catch on and follow. I was hoping that this would help both the organist and the congregation to make it through this performance, bringing it to an earlier conclusion than the next ice age.
That part worked well enough, and soon everyone was getting it and singing along. The only problem was the organist was still lagging behind, and the singers were leaving her in the dust. The song was finished with grace and aplomb; but still the organist kept plodding along to her ill-timed and tardy finish. By this time, the entire congregation was struggling to suppress giggles and there was a lot of coughing into handkerchiefs to cover the outright laughter. The final chord was tortured out of the poor instrument, (the rutting elephant “scored”), and everyone sat down in relief wiping tears of laughter out of their eyes, in the perfect mood to get in the spirit. I sat down and glanced around to find Reverend Ruth glaring at me with all the friendliness of a coiled rattlesnake. So much for humor! She obviously had none.
The sermon was being delivered by a woman we will call “Hillary”, who channeled somebody or other who was supposed to be something like an Ascended Master or a dead dude (I have forgotten which). Hillary was a very sweet elderly lady with blue hair and wearing a print silk dress, looking for the entire world like anyone’s grandma. She just radiated grandmotherly comfort as she talked. She started off in a silvery tremulous voice talking about love and opening the “heart center” and so on. There were overtones of Helena Blavatsky and Alice Bailey in her descriptions of “planes and bodies” of the individual soul. As she got warmed up, her eyes began to glow with subtle power. Her voice became stronger and more urgent and the message turned to saving the world with this love that was supposed to manifest when one’s heart center was opened and connected via these “planes and bodies” which were to be activated through certain activities that were not clearly defined as yet. As she talked, she began to walk back and forth in an animated way. Every part of her body was being involved in the action — the words — the message. She was talking with her whole body.
Now the strange thing happened… as she was walking across the little dais in this animated delivery of love and light, she suddenly stopped, frozen for a moment, and sort of trembled slightly and then snapped to attention. She looked around the room at all the breathless, expectant faces — a cool-eyed assessment in the midst of the feverish anticipation of the audience. Her head suddenly snapped back and her “control” was in full control. Hoo, boy! Time to rock and roll!
I don’t know who this guy she was channeling was, but I can say that he was really good! He must have been a Pentecostal preacher in his last life. It was like being at an old time Southern Revival at its best. There was hooting and hollering and drama. Strutting and stomping and pounding on the podium. The only thing was, the message had changed ever so subtly. Most of the people in the room were hypnotized at this point by the drama they had been drawn into and didn’t realize what was going on, but I was remembering the Church I had attended with my ex-husband where I had been exposed to so many preachers of this type. I had already learned about this showmanship and the old “Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing” syndrome and I could see that here we were dealing with the same hypnotic factors that were at work in most Christian churches.
The message had gone from love and light and opening the heart, to guilt and chastisement for not being successful in giving enough love and light or opening the heart sufficiently, and this was to be rectified, of course, by more attendance of classes and meditation sessions, more giving of time, resources and most especially money. Attend church, give money, take classes, and get salvation. Simple formula. Nothing terribly unusual. Same song, different verse.
After the sermon was over, a couple of the people who were in Reverend Ruth’s channeling classes were going to demonstrate their “powers”. One of these was Trudy. I was watching with great interest to see how effective these classes might be.
Trudy put her hand to her head and tried to tune in. “There is someone here who has just received unhappy news…” she began. And, of course, in any group that is a pretty good guess; so the person who had just received an “unhappy” phone call raised her hand excitedly and said, “Yes, yes! Me! Me!” So, Trudy tuned in to her further and made a series of pronouncements that either evinced a nod or a puzzled look.
It was a pretty poor performance of cold-reading. Years ago I spent a lot of money checking out various readers and psychics in the area. I had quickly learned their form of reading cues in the face or response of the person in order to gradually weed out what did not apply, and then they were able to make a final, definite and “amazing” pronouncement of the facts that were bothering the individual at the end of this exercise in subtle probing.
Of course I had noticed that many times, things were “received” which were clearly out of the cold-reading loop, and quite accurate, but it was statistically no more or less amazing than two friends who have the same thought at the same time. No special rating as a psychic is needed. And my estimation was that everyone was psychic, to one extent or another, so “no cigar”.
The problem arises when the subject of a reading gives away the anticipated answer in their voice or the phrasing of the question. This enables the reader to know what the client wants to hear, and they feed this wishful thinking.
There were dozens of instances, when I was younger and playing with this sort of thing, that the reader would make “predictions” based on what the client wanted to hear, and because it was the desired thing, the person seeking the information felt en rapport with the reader and then ascribed to them all sorts of powers and abilities that simply were not there. Then later, when the prediction did not transpire as described, the individual was so invested in their belief of the powers of their chosen reader that they would go to all kinds of ridiculous extremes to excuse the failed prediction.
This is a very common situation. These failures are the clues we are given in these kinds of things, they are little alerts to the larger picture, but we tend to ignore them; to cover them up; to excuse them; to continue to believe what we like rather than what is true — simply because it matches our preconceived notions of how things would be if we were creating our own reality!
After Trudy was done with her rather embarrassing demonstration, another student that I did not know got up to do readings. For some reason, she picked me — probably because I was a new and unfamiliar face.
I had long ago schooled myself to be able to keep a poker face and a flat voice when checking out readers, so I kept my face a blank while at the same time providing ambiguous feedback such as “maybe”, or “it could be described that way,” and so on. At the same time, I was inwardly open to contact so that if there was a real talent going on here, there would be no deliberate blocking. I was trying to neither hinder the tuning in nor give anything away externally.
To make a long story short, the reading was worse than would have been accomplished by just random guessing. I was not impressed by the graduates of Reverend Ruth’s classes.
After this non-event, a healing circle was formed where everyone gathered around Reverend Ruth and her assistant, laying on hands, praying and giving “love and light” and energy. It was pretty much like any laying on of hands in a Pentecostal church. The only difference was, Reverend Ruth seemed to sort of swell from the contact. I wasn’t sure if my eyes were deceiving me, but everyone else was perfectly exhausted after the service, so something was draining them.
Again I was wondering why a service that was supposed to “feed” and “energize” a given flock, was actually doing the opposite.
On the drive home, I heard nothing but the praises of Reverend Ruth and her “great works”. And, now, since I was considered to be more a part of the group, it being assumed, I guess, that I had been taken in by the recent performance, a new thing was revealed to me. Apparently Reverend Ruth had a secret circle which admitted only those who had proven worthy or had passed certain tests administered in her many classes. The members of this inner group were promised that Reverend Ruth was going to give them many great secrets. My hostess had already signed up for the next series of lessons and sessions with the Great One in hopes that she would be able to pass the tests and be admitted to the inner group.
I said nothing, but I knew I didn’t want to go back to that church because it made me feel ill at ease and was clearly a waste of time. I couldn’t understand how the members of the Reiki group, which seemed to be so much more advanced than other groups I had encountered in past, could be so taken in by that drivel. But, on the other hand, maybe it was me who had the problem because it was clear to me that everyone involved in the Reiki group was certainly full of love and benevolence and good intentions.
The Reiki group was a gathering of people of many ages and backgrounds. “Louise”, the woman who had approached my mother with the initial invitations, was an older lady, of retirement age (otherwise she would not have been in the class) but she physically appeared much younger. She didn’t look a day over 35. She had a knockout figure and such a charming and feminine presence that you just had to be in awe of her ability to control by seeming not to do so! She had an almost breathy voice like Marilyn Monroe, gorgeous red hair and alabaster skin. She was also the one who had brought the idea of the original Reiki class to Reverend Ruth, having lived in Virginia Beach and spent some time with the A.R.E.1 crowd up there, and that was where she had learned about Reiki and had taken her attunements. (It was impressed upon us that we were so fortunate to have our initiations from one of Takata’s original students since Reiki had later split and been corrupted after Takata’s death, but that’s another story.) Louise had spent most of her life working as a domestic on wealthy estates in the Northeast.
Then there was “Trudy” and her husband “George” who were also past retirement age. Trudy was a tall, rangy woman, more like a man in many of her characteristics than a woman. In the beginning, I thought she was very funny and engaging with her snappy comebacks and wry humor. But, as time went by, I began to see that there was a certain element of cruelty in her remarks, especially when addressing or talking about her husband. I wrote it off as great familiarity of people long married. And who was I to say that he hadn’t done things to invite such remarks? Maybe that was their way of showing affection? George was a retired businessman — owner of several patents and former owner of several factories. Trudy had been his secretary when they met, divorced their respective mates, and married each other. They were considered to be the wealthiest members of the group, and thus had some status.
There were several others of this older group who remain in the background, so need not be mentioned specifically — about 4 or 5 who were regulars. Two of them were nurses, and I can’t remember much about the others.
Then there was the younger contingent — some my age or a little younger — the most active being “Candy” and “Sandy”. In case the reader has not already guessed, “Candy” is the same as “Maryann” in the first section of High Strangeness. At the time I began writing these pages, I had no idea that I would end up talking about Candy in any terms other than to introduce the subject. I did not intend to get into the further details involved which include the name clues. Thus, she was given a pseudonym there that was simply a name pulled out of the air. In the present instance, since the name was part of the clue system, I have had to get more creative and select names that are more functional so to speak.
Sandy was an ex-bartender who had been “awakened” to spiritual issues by the death of her fiancé. After that, she decided to go to school to become a massage therapist and get out of the bar environment. Until much later, I didn’t know any more about her.
And last, there were the very young members, which included “Tim”. Tim was a very young fellow who seemed to be very advanced in the spiritual sense. It was unusual to see someone so young who was so devoted to helping others. He stated his religious affiliation as Wiccan, and this later proved to have some interesting effects.
As we continued to meet on Wednesday nights for Reiki sessions, a lot of conversation took place over the tables. Since Reiki really doesn’t require meditative focus or any kind of “Mumbo Jumbo” type concentration, we were all basically free to do two things at once — Reiki and talk. These conversations really ran the gamut when the topic was about our various experiences with spiritual development. I was a bit reluctant to talk about my own; but after awhile, I felt more comfortable sharing some of it with the others, and we were able to begin to form a real bond of closeness.
I very quickly brought the Reiki group up to date on my ideas about channeling and the experiment that was going on with Frank. One of the ladies from the older group pronounced balefully upon our selection of the board as an instrument, citing the movie The Exorcist as proof of its direful consequences.
I countered with the facts of the real case on which the movie was based which did not indicate that a board was the main player in the demonic possession, and further cited the fact that most of the greatest material in the history of channeling has either come through a board type instrument, or began with one.
Everyone began asking more and more questions about the experiment, so I told them all I could and also talked more about my hypnosis work. The subject of hypnosis led to my recent revelations about UFOs and abductions which had sort of set me up to be led to the Reiki crowd to begin with, and everyone had a really good laugh that I had to be chased by aliens before I found Reiki.
All were having a good time, and there was a lot of laughter and fun and playing around. Before I went home that night, I mentioned that if anyone wanted to participate in our experiment, they were welcome to come on Saturday nights when we sat for contact. Four or five of them were excited and agreed that they wanted to try it out so it was planned that they would come.
The next day, Candy called me and was very mysterious sounding when she said, “There is something I have to tell you and I don’t really know how, but you had better beware of Trudy.”
“What?” I said. “What do you mean?” A serpent in Reiki Eden?
Candy explained: it seemed that the previous night after I had left that Trudy had made very nasty remarks about me being a “know it all” and that anybody who participated in anything I suggested was definitely being taken in and led down the primrose path to destruction; words to that effect, anyway. I was terribly hurt because I don’t preach, but tend to share by describing my experiences and the research of others who are far more qualified than I am to give opinions.
“But you have to understand,” Candy continued. “Trudy is like a mother to the rest of us. She’s just being protective. She means well, but she’s from the old school. She grew up with Cayce and all that. She likes the robes and rituals and things. Reverend Ruth is even saying that she is sort of preparing Trudy to take over the Church, so of course she feels responsible for all of us like we were her own children.”
The upshot of the whole conversation was that Candy wanted me to be careful what I talked about to Trudy and the others because they were old fashioned and narrow minded, even if they meant well. It was a maneuver designed to spare their feelings. This, of course, was deemed proper in my mind because it was part of the “love and light” philosophy of acceptance. At the same time, Candy wanted to participate in our experiment and also to have some hypnosis sessions done to speed up her spiritual advancement, since she had in mind that she was destined to be the next Jeane Dixon. Apparently Reverend Ruth had told her that she was showing promise to be admitted to the deeper lessons, but not yet. And Candy was sure that she was ready and that it was just more of the old fashioned, narrow mindedness of the older crowd who weren’t part of the New Paradigm of very advanced souls in young bodies. They just didn’t understand how fast people were able to progress in the present urgent time.
I wasn’t sure that I agreed with her all the way on her ideas that she was supposed to move so rapidly, but I reserved judgment until I could make a better assessment. But at least there was a reasonable explanation for the funny undercurrent that I had sensed at the church — the old fashioned attitude of the older folks as opposed to the younger ones. It made perfect sense. I could finally get some rest from the worrisome little glitches. And I also knew that Trudy was deeply involved there with the church itself. I didn’t know what to make of the “robes and rituals” remark, because I hadn’t really seen anything of that specific nature there, but I let it pass. Another thing that was clear from this conversation was that Candy wanted to be my friend and have a much closer friendship than just the once weekly Reiki meeting.
Candy was a lot of fun! She was always laughing and joking and mimicking other people’s little foibles in the most hilarious way. She could tell a story so that you were reduced to holding your sides from laughing so hard while the tears would stream down your face with glee at her portrayal of everyone’s little egotistical hang ups. It was always prefaced by, “You know I love so-and-so, but…” It was “all in good fun”, and she didn’t mean any harm!
But I wondered. If she was saying all these things about other people, was she saying similar things about me to them?
Of course not! Candy was my friend. We had a special rapport which was in evidence from all the many, daily, synchronous events that occurred when we were in contact. I would be talking to someone about something, or thinking about something, and Candy would call and start talking about the same exact things. When we talked on the phone, there were strange clicks and buzzes on the line and after we had begun to investigate the parameters of her alien abductions via hypnosis, we joked that the government was eavesdropping on the line. I laughed at the thought of anybody tapping my line to see what we knew about aliens, because it was a certainty that we knew very little. But Candy was convinced that she had something they were after, that the objective of any surveillance was herself. She was even convinced that a man with whom she had interacted in a seeming abduction at about the same time I had been led to the Reiki group was a government agent sent to keep an eye on her. On the other hand, she felt that he was her soul mate and that he was being used to lure her into some kind of government conspiracy and it was her job to rescue him in some way.
The next Reiki night, I noticed a distinct tightness in Trudy’s face when I walked in the room and said hello. She was distant and cool in her manner. Because I had been primed by Candy to be more patient and understanding, I tried to be especially nice to her and defer to her ideas and opinions and keep my own to myself.
Meanwhile, Trudy and George seemed to be having problems. George stopped coming to the Reiki sessions. Trudy would spend the entire session telling us all how dreadfully George tortured her and how he played control games with finances and how tired she was of living in this hell. She needed to get away, so she went away to visit a friend.
One night shortly thereafter, Louise called me, asking if I could accompany her and Candy on a visit to George, who had called her for someone to talk to since he had been “abandoned” by his wife. Louise told us (on the way to his house) that she felt as if George had shown too much interest in her over the phone, so Louise didn’t want to upset Trudy by having a private visit with her husband, and that was why we were coming along.
At this little pizza and talk gathering, George broke down and began to cry and tell us a terrible tale of how abused by Trudy he had been for the past few years… how she had turned from a sweet, devoted wife to an abusive monster who had even physically threatened him and since he was now getting sick and old, he feared for his life. He was afraid she would kill him to have access to his money.
We listened in horror at the recitation of events and proofs that all was not well in that household. With every incident he recounted, one or the other of the three of us would suggest that perhaps there was just simply misunderstanding. He insisted that his life was in danger; that it was not just a misunderstanding.
With every complaint he made, one of the three of us offered something in the way of a solution, but every idea was turned aside by the fact that it was clear in his mind that she had some sort of “power” and he was helpless in the face of it; he even suspected she might try to poison him! But, in all, he seemed to be so afraid of her that he could do nothing but sit back and be killed by chemicals or mayhem! I was pretty disgusted with that attitude. I couldn’t grasp a person sitting there saying their life was in danger and being unable or unwilling to do anything about it but weep. So, I simply told him that if he really believed that he was in physical danger, he ought to just see an attorney and change the locks while Trudy was gone! That certainly seemed like a reasonable solution to me, if what he was saying was true. And he assured us in every breath that it was!
So, George had a good cry and finally was so encouraged that he said he was going to see an attorney the next morning. Everybody gave him sympathy and hugs, we all went home, and that was that. Crisis solved.
The next Reiki night, I walked in the room and Trudy saw me coming and stopped what she was doing and headed right for me. She stopped in front of me and denounced me for the vile serpent I was, and how dare I tell her husband to divorce her and lock her out of her own house! And then she said she couldn’t stand to be in the same room with such a horrible person as I was, and stormed out!
Everybody stood around looking stupid for a minute. I looked at Louise and Candy who were both there when I said what I said to George (which certainly had been repeated by him to Trudy, though it was not repeated as I said it nor was it in the context in which I had said it).
Neither of them said a word in my defense!
Later, in private, they were sympathetic and told me not to worry, and that Trudy was just going through a difficult time, but I was a little confused that they would stand there and not say something to straighten the matter out immediately, which could have happened if they had pointed out what George had said to provoke my advice!
If Trudy was innocent, as they were suggesting, didn’t she need to be warned that her husband was spreading such lies about her? I was pretty confused, and Louise and Candy were entirely insouciant about the whole thing.
The next day, Louise called me and said that a meeting had been set up at a local restaurant so that we could all get together with Trudy and iron this problem out. Was I willing to come?
Of course, I was. I detested discord and misunderstanding and I never intended to hurt Trudy. I was simply responding to George’s claims that he was afraid for his life. If what he had been saying was true, he should certainly have taken my advice. But obviously, there was some kind of game going on there and both of them were sucking everybody else into it.
I arrived at the restaurant with Louise and Candy. Trudy and several others (who were apparently on her side) were already there at a large, round table. Louise informed us that she had also invited another lady that no one else there had ever met except Louise, and who was reputed to be a very good psychic. She just thought it was a good opportunity for all of us to meet this lady, if she came, and it was doubtful she would, because she was very reclusive. Louise met her while working as a home health aide, and she raved about this unknown lady’s abilities as a “seer”.
Trudy was tightlipped and obviously not happy to be present. I was not terribly happy with the situation myself (having made an innocent honest remark that sort of exploded in my face) but I was determined to make the effort for everything to return to normal with the group, and to assure Trudy that if anybody was playing games, it wasn’t me. I was pretty upset that Louise and Candy hadn’t just talked to Trudy to explain the exact circumstances of the remark that was the cause of all this brouhaha. Had they done so, I felt, the upset would have just evaporated.
Just then, the expected/unexpected guest arrived — Jeanie — and that is her real name, but she has passed over now so it doesn’t matter any longer whether I use her real name or not. She was like a rare tropical bird that sort of fluttered about for a moment and then chose to land in the chair right next to me. But just as she started to sit, the chair (on wheels) actually shot across the room behind her! I had to literally catch her to prevent her from sitting on the floor with a thud! Being elderly and rather fragile in appearance, such a fall could have been completely disastrous. She was startled and confused for a moment, and Candy jumped up and retrieved the chair. We got Jeanie seated and settled, concerned that she would be just overwhelmed by such a thing and go off on some sort of old lady whining and complaining about chairs and so forth.
But Jeanie didn’t miss a beat! She looked at me and said, “Ohhhh! I see all kinds of good spirits around you! You are gonna do big things! Yes. Big things! Oh, my! We have to talk, you and I! But later. Let’s order now; I’m starved.”
Well, that certainly made a shift in the atmosphere and lightened things up a bit. If it hadn’t been for Trudy brooding on the other side of the table, looking daggers at me, and dabbing a tear away from time to time, a good time would have been had by all.
We did finally get to discussion of the matter, and Trudy was just obstinately predisposed to think that no matter what I said, I was an evil person. That was the bottom line. I explained the whole incident from start to finish, and while I was doing so, I looked to Louise and Candy for confirmation of the salient points, of which they were witnesses, and the most they would say was, “Yes, it seemed to be that way,” or, “I think it was that way too, but I can’t remember exactly.” All the sympathy was going to “poor Trudy!” It was maddening! I never in my life was in the presence of such mealy-mouthed people who, claiming to be friends, were unable to offer an opinion of their own much less to simply recount the events as they occurred!
But Jeanie, sitting beside me, piped up with, “You better believe what this girl is saying because I can see the light in her! There are a lot of good spirits around her, and if she says that’s the way it happened, then that’s the way it happened!” So, everybody sort of looked at her in surprise and got quiet. It had to have been one of the strangest luncheons I ever attended in my life!
Well, Trudy was eventually grudgingly mollified and agreed to “let bygones be bygones,” and we all exited to the parking lot to go home. Jeanie asked for my arm to walk her to her car, and on the way gave me her phone number and said I should call her as soon as I got home.
So, I did. What she told me was about the most bizarre thing I had ever heard! She said to me, “Did you see that Trudy make my chair shoot across the floor? She didn’t want me there, I can tell you! She was furious that I came. And I almost didn’t. I could feel her hate when I was getting dressed! But spirit told me that there was a reason for me to go, and I had to do it. That reason was that you needed an ally. And she hates you, too! And she’s messed up with all kinds of dark things. That group at that church — I’d stay away from them if I were you! That Reverend Ruth — she’s at the middle of some evil things, you mark my words!” and so on. When I asked her what was going on with this whole misunderstanding we had just been through she said, “You have the light in you. Those people hate you for that. When the light comes into the middle of darkness, it exposes things. They can’t stand the light. They will do anything to get you away from them. You have to be careful. There are things out there that can really hurt you. I know! They’ve been trying to kill me all my life. Now they are trying to kill you! And beware of Louise! Did you see how she didn’t say a word in your defense? Well, that’s because she’s one of them! And Candy, too. You need to be on your guard.”
By this time I was sure that Jeanie was like “Aunt Clara” on the old TV show, Bewitched. What she was saying just did not make sense. It was crazy talk. But she was so sweet and sincere and urgently concerned that I assured her I would take the greatest care. I promised to keep in touch. I told Candy what she had said and we agreed that the poor dear may have been a good psychic (as Louise assured us) but she was obviously over the hill now!
By this time, Candy and I were on the phone every day. When not on the phone, she would drop by and I would stop what I was doing to sit and chat. I really enjoyed her company, and she seemed to enjoy mine and we both had a voracious curiosity about the alien abduction research, so we spent a lot of time talking about it and comparing it to the different teachings that Reverend Ruth was sponsoring at the church, as well as anything and everything we heard about from any other source. When I could get out of the house once in awhile, we would go to rock shops and metaphysical stores and look at all the stuff that was available, occasionally buying a rock or sage or some other such “energy enhancing” thing.
A few weeks went by and we continued with our Reiki nights, and things were better, but there was still an undercurrent of dis-ease. I was doing my best to put as much love and light around the situation as I could, and to also keep myself in a “bubble” of love and light so that all my words and actions would issue from a deep place of love and understanding in my heart. I was terribly grieved that Trudy had been so hurt by me, and I did all I could to make it up to her. But she began to change in some way; even her appearance changed and she began to get heavier. At the same time, her husband just seemed to be wasting away to nothing. He whined and complained and Trudy rolled her eyes in exasperation.
Meanwhile, Candy and several of the others were coming to the experimental channeling sessions on Saturday nights, and even if all we did was chat with dead dudes, we still had fun with it. And all of them wanted to experiment with the Spirit Release process, so there was a lot of experimenting and investigating going on off to the side of the regular Reiki group. Two events stand out at this point as needing to be included here.
The first one was a phone call I received one night from Tim, the young kid who had been participating in the local Wicca group. He was in a complete panic. He had been trying one of the rituals that he had been taught in the coven. I don’t know if the exact procedure he was given was what he had followed, or if he was improvising, but the gist of it was that he had run hot water in his tiny bathroom to make it like a sauna, and then had been doing some sort of calling forth ritual while staring in the mirror. (Seems to me that he would have had to be constantly wiping the steam off the glass to even do this!) Well, the upshot of it was that a horrible demonic face had appeared in the mirror and had told him that it was his companion and was now going to have fun tormenting him or “feeding” on him or something. He had the feeling of pressure and his heart started beating like crazy and he thought he was going to die.
He was actually calling from the hospital where they had given him some sort of sedative and had told him that nothing was essentially wrong with him except some sort of stress reaction. He was terrified to go home because the demon was there, and what should he do?
Well, I was a little shocked that such a thing could happen to a Reiki initiate, especially since he and Candy had taken their Second Level initiations. But, I tried to calm him down and told him to come right over — I would fix him up pretty quick.
I called Candy and explained the situation to her, and she was pretty excited at the thought of seeing a real exorcism. She agreed to come right away.
It was a long wait before Tim arrived, and when he did, he was in a terrible state. He told us that on his way over, he had actually been in an accident — another car had sideswiped him and spun his car around and into a ditch. He was certain that it was the demon doing it, and his terror had practically gone through the roof!
We got him on Candy’s massage table, which had been set up, and started giving him Reiki just to calm him down. As we did, there were all kinds of strange things going on with his body. Muscles would jump and jerk in a way that was definitely not normal, and he said he could actually feel something “slithery” moving around in him!
Well, we were sort of freaking out too, but my experience with similar things during many hypnosis sessions had schooled me to remain calm and in control of the situation. I asked Tim to recount exactly everything that was done and said, and as he did, he began to breathe more normally and calmed down.
Soon I was able to put him under hypnosis and address the entity directly. It was a new level of Spirit Release — rather bizarre to say the least. As I addressed what was clearly not a dead dude, nor an elemental spirit, but something altogether more powerful, devious, and nasty, poor Tim alternately swelled and expelled the most horrible gas imaginable. This was definitely not a case of finding a poor lost, departed individual who needed to be counseled to “go into the light”, thereby releasing the victim. This critter had no intention of going anywhere! He had been “invited”, and he liked his new “home”, and there was not going to be an eviction!
Well, I had a different opinion of the matter and was equally determined that he was going to depart rather quickly, so it was pretty much a matter of who was going to prove to be the strongest in the dispute.
I did the usual calling on the “guides” and “light workers” of the astral planes to come and assist in the freeing of the victim, followed standard procedures and so forth. No dice. I did the “in the name of Jesus” routine, which can work depending on the religious affiliation of the victim. Didn’t work. The entity was making poor Tim jerk and jump on the table, constantly swelling with gas and expelling it in quantities that were simply abnormal by any pathological criteria. When I directed Tim to join with Candy and me in generating light and heat to encapsulate the entity, it began to complain that it was “hot” and “burned” and for us to just stop and leave it alone. It started to whine and moan that we ought to have sympathy and compassion for him because that was the philosophy we were espousing in the “love and light” New Age trend. It was actually a caricature of the recent machinations of both Trudy and George and I was not fooled one bit.
Finally, I just simply told the entity that I was not going to leave him alone, I was not going to stop harassing him with heat and light, that if I had to, we would stay there all night and all the next day and however many days it took. That seemed to have an effect, and I demanded that the entity leave in no uncertain terms, and with a last “blow up” of Tim’s abdomen, followed by a particularly noisy expulsion of the most horrible sulfurous stench, the entity left and Tim was finally peaceful.
I brought him out of the hypnosis and we discussed the matter. One of the things that the entity had said was that he had been initially attracted to Tim at one of the coven meetings where a whole host of such entities commonly congregated, selecting their prey, and then hanging around, waiting for the opportunity to “connect” in a more permanent way. They would influence the individual to perform certain acts that would facilitate entry, and even though the individual thought that these ideas were their own, they were not. Apparently enough mind contact can be made to plant thoughts and ideas that will lead to fuller possession.
Well, Tim was certainly cured of his interest in Wicca. After such a horrible experience, he was not going to risk going back into that environment and getting another “hanger on” of that sort!
We agreed between us to keep this quiet because of Tim’s obvious embarrassment as well as the fact that we were trying to “protect” Trudy in her “less advanced” beliefs. Candy said that she just could not handle the idea that “love and light” was not the be-all and end-all of all answers.
But I was concerned about the implication that Reiki was not as all-powerful and protective as was being taught. I felt that we needed to convey this to the others in some way. Candy agreed, but urged that I let her do it in her own way and time. I agreed.
The second event of concern was directly stimulated by this incident with Tim. Candy wanted me to do the Spirit Release process on her “just to see”. She had been on a terrible emotional roller coaster for some time, and she was now thinking that much of this could be directly attributed to attachments of one sort or another. I agreed and we scheduled it for the next day.
For some reason Candy wanted to bring Louise in on the action, and with reservation, I agreed. Candy was, after all, the subject and whatever was necessary for the comfort of the subject was to be considered desirable. So, Louise was informed, and after expressing interest in being a witness she invited us to do the session at her house, which was okay with me.
During this session, an attached entity identified himself as “Thomas”. His story was that he had been a practitioner of Voodoo in Haiti and had been killed by a rival Voodoo doctor in 1945. The real shocker was when he claimed that he had been induced or commanded by a “magician” to attach to Candy as a “control conduit”.
A “Magician”? Who, where, when? And all that.
He would not identify the “who”, and it was clear that he was terrified of punishment if he betrayed his “master”, but he did say that this had occurred in the previous few weeks and that Candy did know this individual.
There was another entity that had attached to Candy via marital relations with her husband, but that one was rather glad to be sent to the light, and gave no trouble.
There were two suicides who had attached to the first frequency available host, i.e., Candy, in their fear of having violated a religious taboo in killing themselves. This is not uncommon. One of the biggest reasons for spirit attachment is the ignorance of the individual about what really happens after death. A strong religious belief can be as detrimental as no belief in an afterlife at all. There was also an automobile accident victim, as well as a victim of a shooting. I never found out if that particular entity was involved in a crime or if it was just an accident, because he/she left almost immediately to go into the light, after having followed the process with the previous entities, learning from what was being exchanged with them. This is also not uncommon. If there are multiple attachments, they seem to be influenced by the actions of each other in their “shared host/home”.
Both Candy and I were beginning to get the idea that there was something fishy going on here, and she was somewhat upset to think that even she had been attached in this way by “someone” trying to control her. She was also angry and determined to find out who it was.
Louise, as usual, expressed no opinion. She kept saying, “Isn’t that amazing!” over and over again with her eyes wide and innocent.
Now, what happened next was surrounded by several weeks of bizarre synchronicities that are just simply too numerous to recount. I am also sorry that I didn’t keep a daily journal of events because trying to remember everything in the proper order is surely not easy.
For some time — almost exactly two years — I had been trying to obtain a second copy of Velikovsky’s Worlds in Collision without success. I had been to every book store, had called book distributors; had even contacted the publisher who told me it was out of print with no plans for another press run. So, I had gone around to all the used bookstores and filled out little cards for them to look for it and call me if it became available.
Another event that converged at this moment in time was a funny thing that had to do with the murder investigation I had been involved in peripherally back in 1993 which I should divert to recount as briefly as possible since it certainly was a sort of a “doorway” to the later UFO/Alien awakening in my own life.
As our experiment in channeling had proceeded, we discussed the many possible ways that a true higher source might be identified or validated. We both thought that a higher source, by virtue of greater and more inclusive Cosmic Perspective, would be able to make absolutely stunning predictions that would hit the mark every time. But, in a short term feedback loop of testing, how to validate such a hypothesis?
As recounted in High Strangeness, Frank came up with a solution to play the Lottery and even though we did have a few hits in that regard, they usually came up on a different day than predicted.
In January of 1993, my old friend Keith died.2 I had driven up to see him some months earlier and he looked terrible. It had been 20 years — almost to the day — since I had sat in his house and watched him brandish a gun with the ostensible purpose of putting a period to his existence.
During my last visit with him, Keith seemed tired and broken. He told me that if he had a switch on the wall to turn out the lights of his life the same way he could bring darkness to his room before sleeping, he wasn’t sure he’d have the courage to do it. “I realize at long last what a coward I have always been,” he said. The bitterness in his voice nearly undid me. Whether it was a new manipulation or just a sad statement of fact, borne of great struggle in his life, I will never know.
When his secretary called to tell me he had passed away during the night of the 23rd of January, I felt as though a door had closed on an entire episode of my life. In his honor, I put on a tape of Puccini. It actually wasn’t too bad.
A few weeks later, a local 12 year old girl was reported missing. I was very shaken by it because, when her photo was displayed on the television, she looked so much like my number two daughter that I almost began to cry! I was surprised by my emotional reaction! And, even more surprised when, watching the news report, I “saw” in my mind’s eye that the girl was dead, naked, wrapped in what looked like saran wrap, lying in a stand of pine trees. I even had a sensation of the general location.
The vision came to me as if remembering an intense experience from my own past. In my mind, the heat shimmered at the edges of the shade in a pine woods. Mottled shadows moved slightly as the rising air softly rushed between the pine needles. I could actually smell the pine sap. The body lay nearly face down with an arm tucked under the side. Flies droned sickeningly as they reconnoitered the rapidly putrefying flesh. I didn’t know exactly where this place was, but I knew I was seeing the missing girl.
I forced my normal awareness back into place, much like pulling a shade down over a window, and continued to listen to the details about the child. She had only been missing since the day before, and, under normal circumstances, no investigation of any kind would be launched for at least twenty-four hours. But, in this case, the family was close to a high ranking member of the sheriff’s department. From his personal knowledge of the situation and the persons involved, he determined that foul play must be strongly suspected. A full scale investigation had been launched within just a couple of hours after she was due home.
The name of the “high ranking sheriff’s department official” was given in the report as Henry Smith (a pseudonym). Good old Henry. Son of a friend and former employer of my mother; two years ahead of me in high school. As I watched the newscast, I wanted to tell them there was no point in looking for a living child. The child was already dead.
There had been a number of occasions in my life when I just “knew” things about crimes I would read or hear about. It’s always an initial flash of insight which, if I try to push it further, sort of disappears. It actually became a sort of side hobby to make predictions about who may have done a crime just to test myself. On the occasions when I did get an initial impression, I was always right. But I never had an opportunity to provide the information to anyone who could do anything about it. In fact, I probably would not have told anyone if I had the chance, because I had no taste for being labeled a “psychic freak”.
The point is, I keep score with myself. It’s a game I play and I win only if I am right on every point and it is certain that I could have no way of knowing what I know by normal means. When I get the information, it is good, but there are times when I get nothing at all. It is as though some people and some situations are simply on another channel.
But this case was one I could tune in to more clearly than others. I had a twelve-year-old daughter of my own who was so similar in appearance. The newscaster described a child very much like my own.
It seems that the missing girl, the perfect child, had gotten off the school bus and disappeared. No physical evidence of any kind was found. She disappeared with books, purse and clarinet. No one saw anything at all unusual, except that the other kids on the school bus seemed to remember a blue truck in the vicinity. The details on the blue truck were vague and there seemed to be nothing else to go on. So, I watched the case with interest.
On the following day Marcia Matthews (another pseudonym) called. Marcia is a local self-proclaimed psychic, hypnotherapist, western dancer and general wise woman. She didn’t waste any time getting to the point.
“Have you heard anything about the little girl that’s missing?”
I acknowledged that I had.
“Well, I just came from over there and I just want to run some things by you to get your reaction.”
“What do you mean you just came from over there?” I asked.
“Well, not exactly there. We were at the fair, you know, and it seems the girl’s parents have been working with some group over there. The cops were all over the place. So I decided to see if I could get some feelings… There’s a van they were checking out… and I tell you, when I got near that van, my flesh just crawled! I mean, there is some nasty stuff there! And I just know she’s alive but she doesn’t have much time. I have to find her! She’s cold and in a dark place and she’s hanging on for dear life… and I’ll tell you, if some of these bastards don’t listen to me they’re going to have that girl’s death on their hands.”
“Slow down, Marcia!” I was used to Marcia getting all wound up. I knew if I was going to make any sense of the conversation I was going to have to make her stop and start at the beginning.
“You and Bennie (Marcia’s husband) went to the fair, right? How did you get involved with the cops? Did they just come up to you and ask you if you knew anything?”
“Well, not exactly. We saw the posters they were putting up all over, you know, the pictures of the little girl, and I went up and introduced myself and offered to help. I told them I’m a psychic and, I was surprised, they didn’t seem turned off at all! In fact, they invited me over to see if I could pick up anything from a van parked behind the fair. They think that maybe one of the fair people had something to do with it.”
“Why do they think that?” I asked patiently.
“Because the girl’s parents belong to some civic organization doing something here at the fair and the kid has spent a lot of time in the past few days hanging out here. The cops think that maybe one of the carnies found out where she lived and abducted her.”
“So tell me about this van,” I prompted.
“Well, I wanted you to tell me what you get.”
“It’s white, full of junk, and has something blue on the engine cover,” I replied promptly. I have no idea where it came from, but then, I never do.
“Yes,” she urged, “but what is the blue thing.”
“I have no idea.” I was getting impatient. I knew the van had nothing to do with the missing girl and I could feel another one of Marcia’s wild goose chases coming on.
“It’s a Bible,” she announced breathlessly. “A Bible! Can you figure that! And I can just see the girl on the floor in the front curled into a ball with rags thrown over her and this son of a bitch driving her down the road. He raped her, man, he tortured her… she’s a mess and I’ve got to find her before its too late!” Marcia was starting to wind up again, so I stopped her with a question.
“Where do you think she is?”
“I’m not sure, but I know it is near her house. I get a well house — a shed, something to do with water. Oh man, she’s in pain!” I could see the conversation was going nowhere so I decided to tell her the truth.
“She’s dead, Marcia. She’s been dead since yesterday.”
“No, I don’t agree. She’s out there calling to me. I’m going to look. This cop named J.D. gave me her card and I am going to go and look. There’s a road I noticed on our way in here. I had a funny feeling about that road and I just know she’s down there. If I can’t get them to look, I’ll do it myself. I have to find her! When I find the spot, I’ll call this J.D. and get her to get some men out there. I gotta go, I’ll talk to you later.”
“Sure, keep me posted.” I hung up the phone wondering just what kind of cosmic drama was being played out with this event.
Marcia had probably called every psychic person she knew, gotten their impressions and was now unable to distinguish between true intuition and all the interference she was picking up. The only problem was that most of the so-called psychics around town were shrewd cold-readers with very little true ability. Oh, they had an occasional flash now and then, but generally they failed miserably. Because of psychics like that, I don’t want to be numbered as part of their group.
Over the next few days I kept my own counsel. Marcia called with frequent updates of her wild goose chase. She told me that another friend of ours, Danielle, worked with the missing girl’s stepfather at the local resource recovery plant.
I called Danielle to pick up any information I could. All she could tell me was a reprise of Marcia’s insistence that the girl was alive and that, as far as she could see, the family was a normal happy one. Obviously, she had been talking to Marcia.
I told Danielle I was sure that the child was dead. She totally rejected the idea. But she did say that the child’s stepfather was at the plant at the time of the girl’s disappearance.
The media appealed for information on the missing child, keeping up an onslaught of endless stories about the family and how “normal” and “upstanding” they were. For some reason, I had no further insights. On the night the family appeared before the TV cameras to beg for the return of their daughter, I watched in horrified fascination. I couldn’t help but put myself in their shoes. They asked for every resident of the county to search every building they owned, every shed, every pump house — again I could see Marcia’s hand at work — to leave no trail un-walked and no stone unturned.
There was something odd about the interview, though. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. The stepfather did all the talking while the mother sat stony faced and silent. It made me wonder. But it’s easy to criticize. What I would be doing myself, I couldn’t know. I couldn’t go that far in my imagination. It was too terrible.
I called my friend Sandra, who was a bigwig at the state social services agency where I had also been employed so many years ago. Sandra was also extremely intuitive. In fact, she was more psychic than those people who hang out their shingle and “practice” at being psychic. As I expected, she had already done a little poking around through the files in the agency to see if there was anything on that particular family. There was.
The scuttlebutt within the agency was that the family had some problems with the girl. There were signs of rivalry between the new stepfather and the girl’s natural father. There were whispers that the child had tried to run away before to go to her father. Sandra was putting her money on the stepfather as the culprit. She was convinced from what was in the social services files that sexual abuse was rampant in that house and that a confrontation on the subject had led to the child’s death.
Like me, Sandra also knew the girl was dead. I pointed out that the stepfather could not have been a party to the fact the child was missing because he was at work with a lot of witnesses at the time as Danielle had asserted. We both pondered the matter in light of this information, but nothing else came up. It was most definitely a curious case.
I wondered about what was in the Social Services files. It was likely that the sheriff’s department was already privy to the information that there had been problems in the home. So why had they launched a full scale crime investigation into what must have looked, at first glance, like a simple runaway?
Something wasn’t adding up.
That night, I tried to meditate and clear my mind of all conflicting ideas and information. I knew the torture I would feel not knowing where my child was or if she was dead or alive, certain that every moment I would be thinking the worst and that the burden of those thoughts would drive me mad. Just thinking about it was more than I could bear. I began to cry. I silently sent a summons to the universe to bring that little girl home! Over and over I repeated it, “Just bring her home”. Suddenly, I felt a flood of peace wash through me and knew that events would soon begin to move.
The following day, I was as tense as if my own daughter was missing. It seemed as if the whole county was holding its breath. The missing girl had become everyone’s child. I was still frustrated because I had no further impressions. But I continually “asked the question”. The only thing I could see was an old road I used to drive as a teenager — a road with hills and curves and fields of hay and cattle. I knew she was there, somewhere in the vicinity of that road.
I picked up the children from school. They were excited with news that the missing girl had been found. Their source seemed to be a school teacher whose daughter worked for a local newspaper. The kids’ story was confirmed by a bulletin on television almost as soon as we arrived home. A body had been found off the very road I had been seeing in my mind. No positive identification of the body had been made, but everyone knew who it was.
The evening news confirmed the rumors. The missing child had been positively identified but no further details would be forthcoming until an autopsy was performed. We could all breathe again but we did so with tears and trepidation. There was obviously a killer on the loose.
The appeals to apprehend the killer intensified. Everyone was now looking for a blue truck that some of the children on the school bus thought they remembered seeing. I paced the floor in anguish, realizing that the only way I would be able to get the answer would be if someone connected to the case “asked me the question”.
This was another thing I had noticed about my abilities. Just as the process of channeling Noah had occurred only in response to mental questions, very often I have no insight into what is not my business until someone whose business it is asks me about it. When they do, the answer simply comes to me.
Finally, unable to just close my mind to the affair, I sat down to write a letter. I addressed the letter to Henry Smith and asked him to please not share with anyone what I was going to say. You just never know who else might work down at the sheriff’s office and, of all things, I didn’t want to get a reputation as a weirdo.
I told Henry what I had seen so far, which had been accurate, and I felt I might be able to see more if only I were asked. I intended to use astrological charts on the subject as the method of focusing. I had the idea that it was possible, in this way, to identify the killer, or at least some things about him to produce a rather specific profile. What I was offering, however, might not be any better than nothing and I said so. But, I was willing to have a go at it.
I really did not expect a response except a polite “thank you, but we have all the leads we can handle”. I certainly did not expect Henry himself to call me the very next day after I mailed the letter! But he did. He told me that he had consulted the family and, on their behalf, and as a friend of the family and not as a public official, he was asking me to look into the matter.
The type of chart I was going to do as my focusing device is called a horary chart. Horary means “of the hour”. The idea is that when a question is asked in seriousness and sincerity, the answer is inherent in the moment of asking. I recorded the time of the question as well as the birth data he gave me for the astrological charts.
During the course of the conversation, he confirmed my vision: the body had been stripped, had been hosed to remove all traces of evidence, and was wrapped in plastic sheeting. I pointed out that this indicated someone who was familiar with forensic procedures and who intended, most definitely, to remove all traces of fibers or other microscopic elements that might have served to at least identify where the murder occurred. Not only had all evidence been thoroughly removed, the body was left just over the line in the adjacent county which most definitely confused investigative issues. Henry agreed with this assessment.
“Would you go out to the site and see if you could sense anything else?” he asked me.
“Henry, this really is not my forte!”
“We need your help, Laura. Isn’t that standard psychic procedure to go to the scene and…”
“But I probably only had the original insight because of my emotional reaction to seeing her face,” I told him. “It was just so similar to my own daughter’s. I’m sure I would get better results by working on the astrological charts.”
“I understand. But for the family’s sake, could you just give it a try?”
It was about 20 miles to the location where the body was found. That’s not a great distance, but it included a lot of driving around the area where the girl lived.
I don’t know what made me think of doing it the way I did, but that’s what I did. My objective was to see everything through the mind of the killer and get into his thought processes.
Well, that was a big mistake. Yes, I got impressions. Yes, I later did all the charts. Yes, I believe I solved the crime, and insiders on the subject are also convinced that my solution is the correct one. But there is not one single, solitary shred of real evidence on which to justify an accusation, much less an arrest. It is also very unlikely that the individual will ever kill again.
But if he does, someone is watching.
As a result of all this traipsing around and putting on that “mind of the killer”, the stress nearly killed me. My whole body swelled with what the doctor called ascites, speculating that I had damaged my liver by taking nine Tylenol a day for the past seven years or so. My heart was backflushing constantly, my kidneys had shut down, and I was as close to death as I have ever been.
The doctor wanted to admit me to the hospital, but I refused. I remembered the horror of my grandmother’s death, which could have been peaceful with me at her side. I remembered how the hospital personnel deprived me of those last few moments with their absurd resuscitation efforts. If I was going to die, I wanted to do it at home.
My doctor shook his head in near despair at my stubbornness, ordered me to bed for complete rest for two weeks or longer, and prescribed medication. He was sure I would give in and he would see me at the hospital by the next day at the latest. I was just as sure he wouldn’t. I had my ex get me home to bed. I almost couldn’t walk.
After a few days of feeling on the verge of death, declining all medicine, drinking only distilled water, I began to feel just a tiny bit better. My thought processes had almost completely stopped working from the build-up of toxins in my body, but I soon began to feel the need for new activity. It was at this moment that Frank brought me the pile of UFO books that I have discussed elsewhere.
I hadn’t had any involvement with the murder case for many months, so I was surprised when the phone rang one day, and it was the Private Investigator friend of mine who had acted as liaison between me and certain law enforcement officials at a later stage in that murder investigation. He had a question about something unrelated to that, but then asked me about a conversation between me and a certain detective in the homicide unit of the local law enforcement agency.
Well, this conversation had never happened, so I asked him what he was talking about. He said, “I called you back in October when he was here in the office with me, and one of your kids said you were in the hospital, so I left his number and a message that you should call him. I was sure you had by now.”
I never got the message. The kids must have forgotten. So, I took the name and number down again and called and left a message on the detective’s answering machine. I was curious to find out what he wanted to talk to me about. His name was “Marion Thomas”. (Not the real name, but the “made up name” relationships are similar here because they were part of the “clue system” as I later figured out.) I knew that “Marion” was often used as a man’s name in the past, but it wasn’t too common in the present time so I thought it odd. Also, Thomas is my brother’s name, and his best friend’s name when we were kids was “Thomas Marion”.3 My brother had been named after my grandfather. All those little thoughts ran through my head at that moment.
I was getting ready to take my mother home since she had been at my house most of the morning. As we started out the door, the phone rang again. I answered it and it was “Marion Thompson”, the owner of a local used bookstore calling to tell me that she had a copy of Velikovsky’s Worlds in Collision that I could have for seven dollars. I was so excited that I told her to put a “sold” tag on it and I would be right down. It wasn’t until I hung up that I said to myself, “Marion Thompson? Marion Thomas? What is going on here?!”
But, I brushed it aside as I headed for the door. Mother was standing there waiting.
The phone rang again before I was out the door the second time. I almost didn’t answer it, but decided I had better. It was my cousin — the one I had met for the first time at the first MUFON meeting I had attended after the UFO sighting over the pool.4 He was my grandfather’s cousin, being the son of the younger brother of my grandfather’s mother. He, too, was calling to announce that he had just found a copy of Velikovsky’s Worlds in Collision in a box of books in his garage. He knew I had been looking for it, and it was mine if I wanted it!
Well, that was just too much! Two “Marions”, two books, two years of searching for the book was at an end, and all within about 30 minutes of time! I mean, what were the chances of two people named “Marion”, for God’s sake!, calling me within a few minutes of each other? What were the odds of having two people offer me a specific book within a few minutes of each other after two years of no results? Additionally, there was the Thomas/Thompson connection that occurred as a triplet. But, by this time I was used to that sort of thing. It just meant that things were really getting weird. I just didn’t know how weird they were going to get!
It was Wednesday, Reiki night.
When I arrived for the Reiki session, I noticed that there were several people sitting on the patio outside. As I got closer, I was surprised to see that one of them was Reverend Ruth. There was also a big redheaded woman, and a man dressed all in white — white shorts, white shirt, white socks, and even white shoes — with heavy gold jewelry dangling from his neck to disappear inside his partly unbuttoned shirt, and heavy gold chains on his wrists. I spoke to them cordially as I went in the house, but their responses seemed to be somewhat less than friendly. But, I just mentally sent love in their direction and closed the door.
The woman who was up, when I found my place at one of the tables, was a hospice nurse who had been suffering from a lot of physical problems that were probably related to the stress of her job. I was given the head position and when I put my hands on her, it was like the two powerful magnets suddenly connecting — BAM! — in a way and with a strength that I had not experienced before. And the energy began to pour.
Now, the only way I have ever been able to describe my personal sensation of channeling Reiki energy is that it really feels like nursing a baby. The instant contact is made, it feels like the milk “lets down”, only it is in the arms and not the chest. But it is a distinct sensation. I can feel and monitor the flow constantly, exactly like I could feel and monitor my own milk flowing while nursing my children through the years.
This particular woman, the hospice nurse, was pulling energy so hard that it was actually painful! My wrists began to ache like an abscess that needed to be lanced. I knew that this might relate to the surgery I had on my wrists, and that there were obviously some “short circuits” or something, but I had hitherto been able to deal with this discomfort. In this instance, I could hardly stand the pain. I disconnected for a few minutes and shook my hands and rested them, and then put them back. Same thing. This poor woman was sure exhausted of all reserves and I was glad to be able to help her in this way, even if it was somewhat uncomfortable. But soon, the flow began to slow down, the pain eased, the magnetic sensation released, and I knew that she was finished for that treatment.
I was going to take a break and have some punch and let somebody else have my spot, but just then the man in white from outside came in and said, “Don’t go yet!” Louise introduced him as a friend of Reverend Ruth’s who had come to try out the Reiki since he had a phlebitis problem. He hopped onto the table with such spryness — I could hardly believe he had any problems at all! I went back to my position at the head as requested.
There was nothing unusual about this man in terms of energy consumption. In fact, he didn’t seem to be drawing at all. I did smell whiskey on his breath and it had been my experience that alcohol and Reiki do not mix. I have seen people get violently sick if they drank too soon after a Reiki treatment. I thought I would mention this to him as he got off the table, that it might be better if he refrained for a few hours, but I never got the chance.
As soon as we took our hands away (there were five of us per table), the man sat up and jumped to his feet swinging around to face me in the same motion. “This is for you,” he said as he reached out his hand and traced some sort of figure on my forehead with his finger.
That is what he did, described in just a couple of words, but the way it happened was strange. It was as though everyone in the room froze for a few almost imperceptible moments. And everyone remained frozen until he had walked out the door and we were startled back to awareness by the sound of car doors slamming, a motor starting, and a car driving away. Everyone was staring at me and everyone began to talk at once. “What was that all about?” or “What did he do?” or “Who is that man?” or “How dare he touch you without your permission.”
The last was the main issue. It was pretty standard in Reiki classes that no one touches anyone without his or her permission. It was repeated over and over again to us, and we took it seriously.
I asked Louise who the guy was, and she claimed not to know any more than the fact that Reverend Ruth and her friend had brought him. Candy and the others were all exclaiming in outrage and examining the smudge on my forehead to see if they could make out what had been drawn there. Nobody knew who the man was. Nobody knew the meaning of his actions. Nobody knew what was going on with the sudden visit of Reverend Ruth and her friends. That was the consensus.
After the hubbub died down, we all settled back to our work, and I was surrounding myself with love and light, certain that whoever the man was and whatever the purpose of his strange behavior, it couldn’t penetrate my shield.
That night, at about midnight, I woke up in so much pain that I knew I was having a heart attack. There was not only an elephant sitting on my chest, there was a fence post driven through my breastbone and I was encased in an iron maiden that was slowly squeezing the breath out of me. I woke my ex-husband and he took me to the emergency room.
As soon as we arrived at the hospital, the pressure and pain began to subside, but with the symptoms I described, they took me in right away. Since I seemed to be stabilizing, there wasn’t a huge rush (you know, like grabbing the little electric paddles and the “jump start” machine) but they were still working rather quickly to get me prepped. The doctor said I would have to be admitted for tests and kept under observation for a few days, so that was fine with me. I was pretty terrified at this sudden activation of a condition that I believed to have been long cured. But, when the nurse wheeled in the cart with the IV setup and started the preparations to insert same, a voice as clear and powerful as anything I can ever remember spoke in my head telling me that if I let them put that needle in my arm, it would be used to kill me.
My rational conscious mind immediately countered with, “That is utter nonsense! You are paranoid! You’ve been reading too much weird stuff for too long and it has affected your judgment.”
Then a wave of heat washed over me and the “knowing” that I would die if I stayed in the hospital surged forward again drowning out the conscious argument. I felt totally schizoid for a moment. And, not only that, there was the problem of how to get out of the situation I was now in. How do you say, “Thanks for trying to save my life, but no thanks!”? I was between a rock and a hard place of overwhelming proportion, and there seemed to be no way out.
I tried to convince the nurse that an IV wasn’t necessary. She simply brushed my objections away and said it was “standard procedure” and had to be done. There was no option.
I then told her quite simply, “No, I don’t want the IV.” It was clear she was going to ignore me.
I quickly calculated in my mind the possibilities. Yes, I could have been having a heart attack, and it could have been a precursor to the “big one”; but, on the other hand, it could also have been something that had to do with that man at the Reiki meeting. I was acutely aware of the information extracted from both Tim and Candy in their spirit release sessions. But how reliable was that sort of thing? It was one thing to work with it in others, when no definite act of a physical nature had to be made, and another to have to consider it as real, and base a crucial decision on such knowledge. If it was knowledge, and not just another layer of the onion, so to speak; if it was accurate information of how things could work at psychic or unseen levels, then maybe what was happening to me was designed to get me in the hospital. And maybe it was done so that somebody at the hospital could then be activated to “get to me” and “accidentally” do something stupid that would result in my death.
At the same time I was thinking all this, I remembered Frank’s recitation of the events of my life, pointing out that some of it was, indeed, a bit unusual and his idea that there was a reason for it. If that was so (and remember, there was no proof of this except for the uncertain proof that, as soon as I asked for help with my health, I was led to Reiki) then there also might be a reason for some people or groups of people to want me “out of the picture”.
But, no matter what, it was still a choice I had to make without visible proof! I could either go with the surface or standard interpretation of the events — which was that I needed to be in the hospital because I might be having a heart attack, which entailed taking the risk of dying either naturally or unnaturally; or on the other hand being “saved” by the medical profession.
The other choice was that I could go with the subtle, spiritual interpretation, take the responsibility for my life into my own hands, do something significant based on knowledge without proof, and, if I was wrong, I would die. But if I was right, I would not. And if that were the right interpretation, then I would certainly die if I stayed.
Talk about the horns of a dilemma! And every single thing in my enculturation and social programming tended toward the normal interpretation — I had a health issue and needed to be hospitalized to be saved.
My learning to this point, my experimentation, and my expanding awareness could all be brushed under the rug as subjective or even crazy. Heck, I thought it was crazy too, at that moment! What was I thinking?
But some sort of crazy courage swept over me. Right or wrong, for once in my life, I had to listen to my inner impressions. If I was wrong and I died, so be it. It would not be for lack of courage!
I decided.
A great calmness descended over me and I told the nurse firmly that she could put the kit away; I was not going to be admitted. At first, I don’t think she believed me, but when I got off the gurney and began to put my clothes on, she said, “Let me get the doctor.”
The doctor came in and gave me the “you are making a big mistake here!” talk and said I would have to sign release of liability forms and all that. “I’ll sign,” I said. “I have nothing against the hospital or you or anything, but I am not going to stay here and I am not going to have needles and drugs pumped into my system.” And, just for good measure, I said, “It’s against my religion.”
Well, that must have been the right thing to say, because they had the forms ready by the time I got to the desk. I signed, went out to the waiting room and told my ex-husband to take me home.
He thought I had completely lost my mind. So did I! But I just simply could not argue with the force that was compelling me to leave that place.
I went home, went to bed and began to shake like a leaf with the implications of what I had done. I had opposed and defied all normal convention. I had gone against all the programming of my life to be under one kind of control or another — to be a “good girl” and let “the doctor”, or whoever make the decisions about what happened to me. After the fact, I was assailed by so many doubts that it is a wonder I didn’t have the “Big One” there and then!
The next day I was feeling very bad. I was weak and felt on the edge of something deep and dark. The “fence post” effect was mild, but constant, the pressure was present, but less severe, and the elephant on my chest had lost weight. When I went to the kitchen to get a drink of water, I looked out and saw that the pool was green. It had turned into “pea soup” overnight.
This distressed me even more and I asked my husband to have the water tested and fix it. He did. About a hundred dollars worth of chemicals and procedures later, it was still pea soup.
Somehow I knew that this condition of the water in the pool represented my space and my self. There was an invasion of psychic “slime”. And clearly, judging by the fact that it was not responding to ordinary treatment, it was going to take some additional work to handle.
At that point, Candy called and I told her briefly what had happened. She seemed to be distressed and sympathetic and said she was going to try to find out something about the man who had been at the Reiki session. She would call me back later to report.
Meanwhile, Tim called me and wanted to talk about the incident at the Reiki session. He was as distressed about it as I was.
Nevertheless, Tim had many suggestions for cleaning my psychic environment and offered to come over and do so. He also wanted to see the pool situation for himself. I was open to having a little help here, so said “sure, come on over.” Tim came and had a look at the pool and then did some ritual type activities that were supposed to clear things up.
Nothing happened. I continued to have the iron maiden sensation of being compressed. It was much like the way you would feel in a pressure chamber, I guess.
Candy called again. She said she had been very clever in getting information out of Reverend Ruth’s assistant, and it seems that our gentleman of the Reiki open house was a man who was reputed to be an adept in ritual magick, and was, supposedly, the “Big Banana” of metaphysical Mumbo Jumbo in the whole state.
Swell. That didn’t make me feel any better. In fact, I was downright depressed thinking about people who would do something so nasty and hurtful when I hadn’t ever done anything to them. What, precisely, had I done to these people to make them hate me so much? Not only that, there was a lot of confusion in my mind about how such a thing could even happen when I was “surrounded with love and light” and always thinking loving thoughts and sending love, etc.
Candy said that she had the perfect answers to how to clear things up and offered to come over and do her thing. Again, I was open to about anything that might work, so I agreed.
She came over armed with sage and candles and salt and crystals and a whole raft of metaphysical accoutrements.5 Just like Tim had done, she set to work. She cleared a place in the study and set up an altar with candles, bowls of herbs, stones that had been “charged” and all sorts of things. She went around the house with burning sage, opened all the doors and windows to air the place out, and so on and so forth. She had me stand in a loose gown while she “saged” my entire body, and then waved incense all around (incense guaranteed to get rid of any negative energies or your money back!). Nothing happened. As much as I was relying on these rituals to be able to “fight fire with fire”, I still felt the elephant on my chest, and the sensation of depression and constant pressure was still there.
The next day, the pool was still pea soup. I sent my ex-husband down to get more chemicals. We dosed the 15,000-gallon pool with enough chlorine and algae killer to clean an Olympic sized pool, or four or five times as big. We ran the pump constantly, cleaned the filter over and over again, ran it again, and cleaned it, and so on for another 24 hours.
Pea soup. The pool guy said it looked like we were going to have to drain the pool and start over with fresh water.
Day after day I struggled to function against the horrible oppression in my mind. It was like I was wounded and there was a pack of wolves slowly circling, getting closer and closer, sniffing and testing, waiting for the weakness to take away all powers of resistance, at which point they would spring forward and destroy me.
Day after day there was pea soup in the pool. We put chemicals in the pool, performed rituals, prayed, and “cleansed” the house. Hours were spent erecting psychic barriers of love and light around the house, around me, etc. We tried psychic mirrors. Cutting psychic connections. You name it, we tried it. Nothing was working.
We discussed it up one side and down the other. I had some clues from the spirit release work that the problem might be an etheric cord of some sort that was kept in place by association with certain people. I knew from discussing with various entities where and how they had attached, that very often it is from simply being around certain people and that these people usually didn’t even realize that they were “carriers” or “instruments” of connection. It was rather like the idea of a psychic Typhoid Mary. So, I decided that if this might be the case, and since I couldn’t exactly see who the carrier was, I would simply have to break with all the crowd at the Reiki sessions until I was strong enough to individually experiment to see who was the conduit of attack.
This was a hard decision to make because I really liked these people and we had a very good time together. Of course, the incident with Trudy made me inclined to think that she was the one who was the conduit of attack, but that meant that anyone who associated with her and then with me could “carry” the “infection” by proxy.
Candy and Tim agreed with this assessment and we all decided to stop association with the group until we could make some tests. We had all three experienced problems of one sort or another by associating with people who were not as they seem, but there was still the problem in my mind as to whether it was deliberate or not. Apparently, as the evidence seemed to show, it didn’t even have to be conscious!
But that was another decision that went against the “love and light” philosophy of acceptance and “unconditional love”. It also went against all the social and enculturated teaching about compromise and working to get along, and so on. But, I had to do something, to have time to sort and figure things out, and this seemed to be the safest course at the moment. So, the decision was made. I mentally closed off all those people, determined to not even talk to them until I could find out more about what was going on.
That night I had a dream.
In the dream there was the pool. Somebody had driven a car into the pool and I was distraught trying to figure out how I was going to get it out. A woman came who seemed to be a relative, though the exact relationship was not clear. She called a wrecker truck to come and pull the car out, and then she helped me drain the pool, scrub the mud and oil and gas out of it, and a wave came from the nearby ocean and refilled the pool with sparkling water.
I woke up and wondered what the dream might mean. It had given me a positive feeling and I got out of bed feeling much better. The pressure was gone, and my breathing was much easier. I went to the kitchen, looked out the window, and the pool was clear. I stood there staring at it in disbelief. We had put such a fortune in chemicals into it, and in the past few days, had given up, thinking that we were going to have drain it, and there it was just as clear and sparkling as the pool in my dream.
At that moment, Tim knocked at the door and I let him in telling him that the pool was now clear. He became very excited and went to look. He stood there staring at it, shaking his head and saying over and over again, “I can’t believe it!” He had been helping with the chemical applications, the filter cleaning, and so on at the same time he had been making himself available for his little spiritual cleansing activities, so he knew everything that had been done with no effect and that we had given up on it. He was as amazed as I was at the sudden turnaround. So, I told him about the dream, but I was uncertain as to the exact meaning of it or even who the woman relative was that had come to help me.
At this point Candy called with news. It seems that she had just received a call from one of the members of the Metaphysical church who had informed her that Reverend Ruth’s assistant and the Big Banana guy had been in an automobile accident during the night. They were both in the hospital and Reverend Ruth was requesting prayers for them. I told Candy how bizarre this accident news was because of my dream about a car being driven into my pool, and that now the pool was clear. What was more, the elephant had finally gotten off my chest. Was there a connection between the dream, the clearing of the pool, and the relief from the attack, and my decision to terminate contact with the group or any particular member?
It was possible. But it forced me to consider ideas that were just totally bizarre. It seemed that surrounding oneself with love and light was just not as effective as was touted, especially in certain circumstances. Could it be that the “bubble of love and light” was some sort of inhibitor of knowledge, of growth, of progression?
It was pretty clear to me now that people who were living in such cocoons of belief were as likely attached to, and used by, dark forces or dead dudes as anyone else. Maybe even more likely. The reason being that they did not believe it was possible, and therefore had no impetus to learn that it not only was possible, but that it was happening to them! It was like the famous saying: “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.” Here we had a perfect example of this statement. When a person is locked in a belief system, they cannot see what is really happening in an objective way. They do not question their observations or experiences in an open way, but rather interpret them according to their belief system with no options for other explanations. Square pegs that don’t fit in the round holes are ignored or swept under the rug.
It also seemed that a lot of people were presenting themselves as “light workers” who were not, in fact, of such a nature. Maybe they were in their conscious minds, but at some deep level, something was going on that really required some astute observation to discern and I was as baffled as I could be as to what to make of the whole thing. Not only that, but it seemed that at every step I was being required to make choices as to what I would or would not do based on a very subtle level of understanding. But this seemed to relate to the fact that I was constantly questioning everything. I was not stuck in belief.
There was still a worrisome matter: the issue of Candy. How could it be that she could sit on the fence? How was it that she had such easy access to and contact with these people? I tried to brush those questions aside, but they demanded answers eventually. In a certain sense, at that point, I erected a mental shield against her and no longer confided in her so freely.
I continued my interaction with Candy for some more months, through the early period of the Cassiopaean contact, constantly assured by her that she had everything under control. The Cassiopaeans were saying otherwise, but at that point, I didn’t know what to believe.
She was spending a lot of time interacting with a purported UFO investigator who was going to write a book about her case and, (it was implied) make her famous. I checked up on this guy through my P.I. friend and found his credentials to not only be lacking, but that legitimate researchers would have nothing to do with him. When I told Candy this, she apparently went and told him what I had said, and he was able to persuade her that I was the one she should be avoiding because obviously, I wanted to use her case to make myself famous as a “UFO investigator”. He, on the other hand, just “wanted to help”. Of course, he also wanted to have an intimate relationship with Candy.
Led by this man, Candy withdrew into a circle of people whose belief in the Billy Meier “Pleiadians” was so fanatical that it had become almost like a cult. And, at this point, her actions became so bizarre that I was felt obliged to warn her about this group. She became angry that I even questioned their intentions. It was clear that there was a constant effort on their part to convince her that I was her enemy. Nothing could have been further from the truth.
At one point, Candy had discovered that the dress she was wearing at the time of her major abduction had been thrown into a corner of her closet and left untouched for many months. She said that she had just been unable to deal with it because of the emotional turmoil that the event had produced. I told her to put it in a plastic bag and set it aside until I could find out how to get it properly examined for any kind of traces.
I called my P.I. friend and told him about the whole affair. He was very interested in this piece of physical evidence since it could be scientifically tested. He decided to use his connections in law enforcement to get it to a proper lab, but he was going to do it without telling them that it was possibly UFO connected. We thought that this would be the best way to prevent the disappearance of the evidence, if any.
I called Candy and told her that I had managed to arrange this, and she was pretty excited and agreed to bring the dress over so I could take it to the P.I. A few hours after she had dropped the dress off, she called and asked me if I had taken it down to the guy yet, and I said, “No, not yet.” I was just getting ready to, though. She insisted that I not do this, because her UFO investigator/paramour had told her that he had the “right resources” to examine and test the dress, a chemist friend of his with his own lab. I already knew that this guy was a complete fraud, and I warned her that she was making a terrible mistake, that her evidence would be completely compromised if she allowed him to take it.
But, she was convinced. It was rather like the choices I had been making; only she was doing it with her eyes closed to the objective facts. She came and took the dress back.
My cousin was in touch with a lot of people in MUFON and he called me one day to tell me that there was a lot of scuttlebutt about this incident. It seems that after Candy had turned the dress over to her new “guru” of UFOlogy, he had then turned it over to a the fellow who claimed to be a scientist whom my cousin happened to know quite well. My cousin said he thought that this guy might have taken some chemistry courses in college, but that he was definitely not a scientist — in fact, he was only a technician at the sewage treatment plant. That was his laboratory!
Effectively, Candy had chosen a tech at a county water treatment facility to perform the very scientific analysis of whatever got shaken out over a shower curtain (!), over a legitimate scientific evaluation in a high tech forensics lab. Go figure. It was her choice.
I was completely disgusted with the whole lot of them and their UFO games and one-upmanship.
Right around this time, I was supposed to give a well advertised talk about the Cassiopaeans at a book store down in Indian Rocks Beach and a couple of days before this event was to take place, I received a phone call from the woman who owned the shop. She was very upset and said that she had received an anonymous phone call from a person who was obviously using some sort of electronic device to disguise his voice saying that if she did not cancel my talk, that she had better be prepared for “bad publicity” because I was on a list to be “eliminated”, and did she want that to happen in her store.
Fortunately, she was outraged at being threatened and was willing to take the chance, but I wasn’t taking any chances. I called my private investigator friend and told him the situation. His partner volunteered to act as my bodyguard, and drove me to the place, inspected every person who entered the room, and was armed and prepared for action.
I realized that things had gotten completely out of hand when I had to have an armed bodyguard in order to talk about the Cassiopaean material!
Not only that, but exactly what was going on here? Why was it that the whole process of experimentation with the channeling, once it had passed a certain point, had been fraught with attack after attack? One could say that such actions probably did not come from the “good guys”. So, they must come from the “bad guys”. And if so, why? The only logical answer was that there must be some reason they did not want us to proceed with the experiment. And once the contact had been made, they definitely did not want the information we were receiving to be shared with anyone. Again, I had to ask why? The only logical answer for why it would be desirable to shut me up was because what we were receiving was the truth — or very uncomfortably close to it!
It also brought up the question of why so many other channeled sources are not attacked in such a way? Logic tells us that they are not attacked because nothing they are saying is significant enough or correct enough to warrant suppression.
At this point, one day when Candy visited, I brought up the issue and she admitted that she had continued to interact with the metaphysical church group and the Reiki group. I told her that my opinion was that it wasn’t such a good idea. Hadn’t we learned something from all these experiences? She then went in a direction that surprised me. She began to talk about how silly it was to cut people off just because of such trifles as the games that were being played obviously were. I pointed out that she had not been the one whose life was threatened in this last series of incidents. She agreed, and then said that she just felt that she was “protected” and that she was able to navigate the treacherous waters of hanging out with the “other side”. I tried to persuade her that she might be falling into the trap, but she insisted that this was not the case, so I let it go for the moment.
The next day one of my daughters was sick with a fever and rash that was terrifying to look at. I took her to the doctor immediately. The diagnosis was severe systemic Candidiasis.
I didn’t need any more clues. When Candy called later that day to talk, I regretfully told her that as long as she continued to interact with the group, we would have to terminate contact. I couldn’t take any more risks — especially when my children were now involved.
Needless to say, she thought I was crazy and judgmental and all that, but it was a decision I had to make and it later proved to be right. Now, remember what I said at the beginning:
I had seemingly achieved a state of love and acceptance for all people, for all paths, for all who struggled in ignorance… I was, in a certain sense, in as bad a situation as I had been when the “voice” had told me that I must “learn” about evil… What I didn’t know was just how subtle and torturous deception could be and how it manifested on an individual, personal basis.
Now, what conclusions can we draw from all of this?
I have recently asked several friends to have a look at this particular narrative in order to discover if their analyses of the events is anywhere similar to my own. I was very grateful at the clarity of their responses, which are so astute I would like to quote them in part. “C” writes:
What comes up for me is:
1. The hierarchy of the attack system may or may not be known consciously to the conduits, especially those at the lower rungs of the hierarchy.
2. Compromise can be fractional or great; attacks come through integrity breaches of the chosen relay, and spread by contagion or artifice through to any weak spot of the end person.
3. One can observe strings, little nagging ideas or “small faults” which can be explained away or overridden by other more positive or engaging attributes of the person in question.
4. On the other hand, “weirdness” or “personality quirks” are not necessarily indicators of contamination at all.
5. The obvious “love and light” fallacy brings up a point of interest for me personally, and this relates to 3 above. [ i.e., Forgiveness.]
On the topic of forgiveness: this is something that can easily go on automatic, and appears to be a point where one can easily go blind to these little strings./span>
When one is faced with attack, one needs to be very clear on the dynamics of a situation, and where one has consciously or unconsciously overlooked/forgiven someone for some wrong or fault, it creates weakness in one’s own integrity. And by integrity I am not limiting my definition to moral integrity. I mean this as more of a generic “wholeness”.
When you go down the path of forgiveness, you also open up the realm of not-forgiveness. I think that the subject does warrant some new inspection/reworking of thoughts. I think that forgiveness as [an] automatic mental process is a Christian program. There is also the question of how can students truly forgive each other when every action/counteraction is part of a lesson?
I’m not advocating the holding of a grudge either by this.
True forgiveness implies a canceling out of the other person’s weak spot, an acknowledgment that the damage has been ended in the Forgiver.
Forgiveness can be viewed in a mundane way as a judgment (just as a refusal to forgive can be judgment). It does not guarantee that the underlying weakness in the forgiven person has now been addressed and resolved. It also implies to the forgiven one that the forgiver has resolved his own lesson. Are we as humans really qualified to do this?
Seemingly to me, in a similar way, when we make allowances for others’ weak spots by reason of judging that their other good qualities “cancel out these weak spots”, we agree to overlook, we can also close the door to receiving information about our own more unconscious aspects from our true friends. Integral to this type of scene of course would be the ability and means with which to make effective corrections and improvements. And of course each member would have the right and responsibility to maintain his/her own integrity. Any organization would be subject to contamination, and would be as strong as its weakest link.
Therefore, the individuals in the group would really have to be completely responsible as individuals for their participation in the group. Each of us has weak spots and points where we can be “used”, just as others’ weak spots can be used to wreak havoc on us. The question is to what length am I going to shore up my own weak spots and to assist others who are willing to do the same?
What are our strengths and our weaknesses? What do we nurture? What do we watch for in our own ranks? Are we willing to kindly give and receive help in this direction? What can we do to mutually assist in strengthening our union and each other? Seems there should be an astral immune system, parallel to a physical immune system. If there were such a system, I would expect that integrity would be a measure of the health of that system. Knowledge protects, not forgiveness.
[There are] no guarantees that one won’t get attacked, but one can minimize the duration or severity of the attack and adverse effects as one goes through life. “Forgiveness” can be a blinder to knowledge… I know also that I have swept correct original impressions under the rug of “forgiveness” and have regretted this later.
[In terms of Forgiveness and Love and Light] the forgiven party now “knows” he is not responsible, and if it ends there without further inspection, the source can use the same or similar modes for future feeding.
To the degree that the target of attack employs a simple “turning of the other cheek,” he is marked for further attack, for as long as his energy can be siphoned off.
On the other hand, if both the attacker and the attacked can honestly and openly inspect the mechanics of the attack, and be willing to take steps to repair the holes in the integrity of the relationship, there is a formidable strength, i.e., turning the petty tyrant around.
[In any relationship where such attack transpires] if a person can observe and realize on his own steam and without judgment or blame that he is being used in this way, there is hope. But no guarantee… One has to be able to also commit to knowing one’s own limitations, be ready for other varied and sundry modes of attack and betrayal coming through the weaker party, and also take responsibility for his part in the other’s evolution and growth — even if the correct next action is to withdraw for one’s own sanity and so as to not disrupt the lesson of the other.
Another friend then gave a very good analogy of what is described above:
We all have on our “spiritual” armor, our shield and sword. I picture us standing in a line. The warrior standing next to you has to be outfitted in the same gear; you can’t take off your breast plate and give it to the warrior next to you because he woke up late and forgot to bring his; your chance of getting pierced through the heart would be ten fold; nor could you be fighting with a warrior standing next to you that didn’t do any training — he just decided to wake up and put on some armor that day.
In other words you have to be on equal footing [with those with whom you associate closely.]
But also like a warrior, you don’t leave your injured behind and if you see them being attacked from all sides you charge in swinging your sword. These people are your comrades, they are closer than family at times of battle.
This reminds me of something I read in Carlos Castaneda’s books: Don Juan said, “A warrior loses compassion because he no longer feels self pity.” In many ways this is true. I think of forgiveness as just a “letting go”, knowing that some things have to happen in order to fulfill a lesson; that everyone has their role to play.
And that is the point: everyone has their “role” to play in the lessons we are all learning. And we can use these lessons to get better at who we are and what we do, or we can retreat into the cocoons of our belief systems, closing our eyes to the marvelous wonder of the universe and the great Cosmic Drama.
Yes, in a real sense we are all one, but we seem to be under a mandate to discover our true options, choose our role, and act it to the hilt, bringing down the house with applause and cascades of flowers when the final curtain comes down.
When the play is over and we all meet “backstage”, we may clap each other on the back, shake each other’s hands, and congratulate each other for a fine performance! But that is a different level. There seem to be many more acts in the play before we reach 7th density. And if we are not playing our part well, we can very likely be “pulled from the play” and “recycled” as an extra! We are in the middle of the play. And we cannot become playwrights or directors until we prove that we can act. And this “acting” seems to involve very specific choices and behaviors so that the play will be successful.
So, back to practical terms in the cosmic drama: a very difficult situation had been survived, and a very interesting lesson had been learned. But, that was not the end of it. Not by a long shot! Whoever or whatever it was that wanted to kill me had not given up. I was about to learn that when you block it from one direction, it sneaks around and tries to find another way to get in. And sometimes, the way in is through your own mind!
1 The Association for Research and Enlightenment, Inc. is a foundation associated with the writings of Edgar Cayce (1877-1945), who is considered the best documented psychic of the twentieth century. A.R.E. headquarters are located in Virginia Beach, VA.
3 I am mostly using pseudonyms here for the sake of the privacy of the individuals involved, but I am being a bit creative so as to preserve the “name relationships” that were part of the series of synchronicities.
5 In American Indian and Neo-Pagan religions, the burning of sage is used to “clear” the area of unpleasant or discordant energies. This can be used both within an enclosed space, such as a room or outdoor grove, or alternatively a person’s body, essentially creating a “sacred space”.
This now brings us to a most interesting thing. I am jumping over about a year here to get to this incident, but it is directly related and crucial to the understanding of what is going on “out there” in the world of attack/lessons. It will be rather graphic and there are some pictures in this section that are not for the squeamish, so be warned!
First, I would like to remind the reader of the remark made by Terry, a long time member of our group, when he was addressing the MUFON crowd at which we gave the Cassiopaeans a little “test drive” in public:
March 11, 1995
What we have been told on that is that this universe was created as a Free Will Universe. It was created specifically to allow all souls to do whatever they wish to do; they have complete choice about what they wish to do. The Grays, the Lizards — whomever they are who abduct and put implants in people, have the right to do that because it’s their free will to come here and do that to us. And, they have the right to tell us whatever they want to tell us to rationalize their behavior.
Our right is to not believe what abducting entities tell us. We have free will to believe or not believe them.
If they tell us in one lifetime that they have the right to do this to us, and we choose to believe them then, and then, in this lifetime, they try the same tricks and we choose not to believe them, in each case, we are exercising our free will and so are they. This is a Free Will Universe. We can change our mind. They are trying to convince us that we have no choice in that. Whether we believe them or not is our choice.
And that seems to be the crux of the matter. A Free Will Universe. We are being challenged in every moment to choose.
Very early in the Cassiopaean contact, there were suggestions that I connect to the Internet — that some “great opportunity” would transpire after I did.
November 19, 1994
Q: (T) Are different people receiving different pieces of information or are some people receiving as much as they can handle and then it moves to another person to receive more of the information in varying amounts? … Is this information being given out in pieces to different people to be put together?
A: Close.
Q: (T) The information I have would not then be whole unto itself?
A: Network! Use computer net. There are others communicating and piecing together in this way.
Q: (T) How do I retrieve the information?
A: Ask.
Q: (L) Start taking the melatonin?
A: No. On computer Network!
Q: (T) Ask on the computer network how to retrieve the information?
A: No. Others ask.
Q: (L) Ask if others are having dreams of a similar nature?
A: Open dialogue.
November 24, 1994
Q: (L) Is there anything in a few words that you want to tell us before we end tonight?
A: Network but be careful with whom.
December 5, 1994
Q: (L) I had a dream last night, I dreamed about large mechanical flying “V’s” that had flapping wings like metal bat boxes. They scared me. Then, I was with my family and we were going to see my cousin who is deceased and she had just had a baby. The baby was walking and talking and quoting Shakespeare. My Aunt got very upset and said it was unseemly because the baby was illegitimate and she walked out. The baby was only 10 days old. My aunt ran out the door and said it was evil.
A: Suggestion, get on computer net ASAP.
Q: (L) In other words, I really need to take my computer down and get the A: drive fixed, etc., and log onto the network?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) What does that have to do with the dream? (L) I think it relates back to when Terry and Jan were here and we were talking about dreams and the suggestion was given to hook up to the network and discuss and share dreams. Like a dream forum kind of thing. Is there any significance to the ten days in this dream?
A: When you network, your entire life will dramatically improve immediately! See, sometimes we do advise when appropriate.
December 17, 1994
Q: (L) How do we find a horticulturist? Network?
A: Always “Network”. Networking is 4th Density STO concept seeping into 3rd density with upcoming realm border crossing.
Q: (DM) Networking is the way to get things done from third level into fourth level?
A: Coming from 4th level into 3rd because of influence of wave.
Q: (DM) So, each of us has a skill that we develop and help each other. (L) We are all part of a body.
A: This is the way to live in STO!
December 23, 1994
Q: (L) We got the program loaded for the computer net, which you told us once we got online our lives would change suddenly and dramatically. (D) Are we not quite ready for this?
A: Discover. […]
Q: (D) Is there something we can do to help other people?
A: Access instincts, network.
Q: (D) Are you talking about the computer network?
A: In general.
December 27, 1994
Q: (L) You did say that once we got on the network, things would happen suddenly and dramatically.
Now, as you must know, I did have an automobile accident the day after I got hooked up to the network. As you can see. I am put back together now with screws and tape!!!1 I’m sure I look charming!
Now, oddly, as I was driving, just a few minutes prior to the accident, I was thinking very strongly of the fact that you Cassiopaeans were with me and I was saying to you in my mind that I wished you would also go and help my friend, Sandra, who was in the hospital. I was planning on rushing through my Christmas Eve and going to the hospital to give her Reiki. And then, Kowabonga! I got the smasho-smacko in the rear.
Why did this happen? What did I do wrong? Is this what you meant by “sudden and dramatic [change to my life]?”
A: All happens for a reason.
Q: (L) Was there something I was supposed to learn from this smash-up?
A: If so, learn by meditating.
Q: (L) Is there something about our state of being that we can be sitting there thinking loving thoughts about others and then we get smashed?
A: Meditate.
Q: (V) Is her accident directly connected with getting online? (L) Well, they didn’t kill me, though they tried! (V) Back to my question…
A: Not necessary to answer.
Q: (L) Is that because I know the answer?
A: Okay.
Q: (L) And my answer is that there is a definite connection between the accident and getting hooked up to the computer network, is that correct?
A: You explore well.
Q: (L) I think… now, my whole spinal column snapped like a whip on impact and I did have a concussion… and my shoulder is in really bad shape… I am really surprised that they didn’t keep me in the hospital longer…
A: You must be a “Whippersnapper”.
Q: (L) Are there going to be some really positive results from the computer net? I mean, this is a rather painful beginning.
A: What have we told you?
So, there it was: I was just going along in my “love and light bubble” and nearly got killed by an old guy in an Oldsmobile who hit me in the rear at full speed while I was stopped and waiting to make a left turn. The reader might want to go back to the last part of the first section, “The Truth Is Out There”, for a review of the accident itself.
As a result of the injuries sustained in the accident, I was subjected to all kinds of medical procedures that I knew were not going to help me get any better and were, in fact, making me worse. In desperation, I thought of Sandy, the member of the Reiki group who did not seem to be “connected” to the Metaphysical Church in any way, so I felt safe in calling on her skills as a massage therapist for pain relief work during my long recovery.
Sandy knew about our channeling work and was very curious about it all, so just to sort of check her out further (I was getting more cautious now!) I invited her to our New Year’s party where we had a sort of “Party Session” with the Cassiopaeans. I hadn’t seen her in about five months, after having cut off any contact with that crowd, and she seemed very happy to attend.
Sandy was so interested in the session we had that night that she asked for any material we had received thus far that she could read, and I gave her a long printout of what had been typed up to that point. She called me a couple of days later just absolutely enthralled with it! It was highly gratifying to have someone who was so enthusiastic about it! (Here comes the downfall through ego!)
As a result of her enthusiastic reception and her willingness to help with the work of getting the material transcribed and printed, Sandy became very close. Not only did she undertake my therapy, she also wanted to attend all the sessions. Whenever I was short of money for computer supplies, she offered money, and often came over with reams of paper and printer cartridges for my computer. I felt that I had a wonderful helper practically sent by God!
Now let’s recap this chain of people: through my mother I met Louise, through Louise I met Candy and Sandy and that whole crew, through Candy I met Marti, a woman who owned a metaphysical book store, who introduced me to Roxane, and who sent Lilly to me. I am just putting this in here to note the connections between all of them.
As soon as I was disconnected from Louise and Candy, Sandy came into the picture seemingly out of both necessity and serendipity and Marti became active and connected me to Roxane.
Now, Roxane had an astrology magazine she wanted to get out from under, having decided to move to Sedona or somewhere out west, and Marti knew I was interested in putting a magazine together as a sort of “organ” for the Cassiopaean Material. She thought that I ought to get together with Roxane and find an agreement that would allow me to take over her magazine subscription list. So, she put us together and we began to work on the transfer of this “abstract entity” which I began to think of as my “Aurora Journal”.
Meanwhile, the work on this magazine idea was producing other interesting effects.
There had been a little print shop a few miles down the road that I had frequented on a number of occasions for various copying needs, and I thought that I might talk to them about printing the magazine since their prices were very reasonable.
I walked in and started to talk to the girl behind the counter about what I wanted to do, and after a minute or two, a woman came out from the back of the shop, stood there and stared at me in amazement. It was Pat of the flying black boomerangs!2
I nearly dropped my teeth!
As it turned out, Pat had recently bought the print shop as a business venture for her kids. She invited me into the back of the shop for coffee and we brought each other up to date on what had been happening in our lives since the “incident” of the UFOs. That event had upset her so badly that she completely retreated into denial and the “normal life” routine.
I told her how that event had done just the opposite for me — I had been catapulted into a series of learning experiences that had completely shattered my previous world, and made it seem like I was on a continual roller coaster ride. I told her about the Cassiopaeans and all that they were saying about aliens. She was very intrigued. She wanted to attend a session.
In the meantime, my communications on the Internet were opening doors of access to the information of other researchers, and one of them sent me the “Greenbaum Speech” and something entitled “Elaine and the Sisters of Light” which was drawn from a book entitled They Came to Set the Captives Free by a “Dr. Rebecca Brown”.
I was pretty upset at the Greenbaum material because it just exemplified how low human beings can go, but my opinion of the Elaine piece was a bit different. I had read a few other things of that type — sworn to and attested by the doctors who worked with the patient recovering the memories, and I had never quite been able to accept that it was anything more than some kind of confabulation. It was just too crazy — even for me — to consider as factual in the real world.
As it turned out, I made a good call on that one: Dr. Brown was discovered to be a fraud, though she certainly was a real doctor. Reading her case was very troubling, however, because what seemed to emerge from it was exactly what was described in the Greenbaum Speech. The poor woman struck me as exactly the kind of victim that the C’s had described as “malfunctioning”.
August 17, 1996
Q: (T) Okay, the question is, is the fellow that just shot three professors in San Diego, I think it was, the University, before they read his thesis, because he was afraid they would throw his thesis away, and make it look bad, and flunk him. Was he a Greenbaum?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Why did they turn him “on” at that point?
A: Not correct concept. What if: those programmed in the so called “Greenbaum” projects are preprogrammed to “go off” all at once, and some “malfunction,” and go off early?
Scarier still was the following answer to a question asked by Sandy:
May 25, 1996
Q: (S) I don’t want to sound paranoid, but all the reports about mind programming… is it as widespread as we have been lead to believe? That it could be the guy next door, and a certain color, or word or sound could set them off?
A: Vague.
Q: (L) That’s not exactly vague. What is the percentage of programmed people?
A: 2 out of every 100.
Q: (L) How many are programmed by human means?
A: 12 per cent of the .02 per cent. [This should probably read 2 per cent.]
Q: (L) So, out of every 1,000 people, there are 20 that are programmed, and 2.4 of these are programmed by humans and 17.6 are programmed by aliens, as in fourth density STS?
A: Understand that 4th density is physical, indeed. You are drifting further and further toward an ethereal only perception/theoretical position.
Q: (L) You are saying that the humans working on these kinds of things… and…
A: No, Laura, we are saying that there is really a very strong “nuts and bolts” reality to this phenomenon, and don’t ignore it!
So, of course, the Greenbaum material offered a partial explanation for many strange things. What if the descriptions of satanic ritual abuse that emerged in the memories of various patients was really an implanted memory engineered by the Greenbaum method for the purposes of hiding the real source of the Greenbaum programming?
Another question was: what if alien abductions and all that were also engineered memories just like the Elaine and other ritual abuse material? Engineered, that is, via the Greenbaum program.
Then, there was another way of thinking about it: what if the Greenbaum program and the Elaine program, both, are “screen memories” of alien abductions?
In any event, I thought that the Greenbaum text deserved wider distribution and I planned to publish it in the first issue of the Aurora Journal along with a commentary giving my ideas as above.
At the time I was putting the first issue together, Marti referred “Lilly” to me. Lilly wanted to talk to me about placing an ad in the magazine.
This woman claimed to be a somewhat well known New Age teacher of many subjects including Reiki, meditation, aura-reading, create your own reality, and a slew of other interesting things. She is quite attractive, and a real “ball of fire” at getting things organized and “on track” for her many classes and seminars. She claims that her lectures draw a big crowd, that she receives great reviews for her work, and is generally quite popular in the New Age communities around the country.
I learned that she also travels to many New Age or UFO Seminars, Expositions and Conferences, making new contacts and connections, and spreading the word. I was also aware that she was occasionally invited to appear on television and radio as a paranormal expert, and the last I heard, she claimed she had gotten a Ph.D. in metaphysics by mail and published a book, though I have never been able to find it at any bookstore or on the Internet.
Lilly called me about placing an ad in our magazine. She wanted a quarter page, which we were selling for $350.00. However, she didn’t have the money to pay for it, so she asked me if I would be willing to do an exchange. I asked her what she had in mind, and she said that she would come to one of our sessions with her Polaroid aura camera and take photos of all the participants as well as the process itself. That sounded completely cool, so I agreed. It also happened to be the same session that Pat was going to attend.
Early on the evening of the session, Lilly arrived early to haul in and set up her equipment. I examined it all as she did so and realized that it was a pretty simple concept. It was pretty much just an ordinary Polaroid camera mounted on a tripod. The truth is that they don’t really photograph your aura. The so-called aura photos are the result of photomontage technique where an illusion of an aura is created. There is a light source inside the camera that illuminates the film directly based on the measured electrical skin resistance. At the same time, the camera is photographing you in an ordinary way. That is why I was so amazed at the “aura photographs” of myself and the board, which pretty much went against the rules of how this setup should work.3 There is absolutely no explanation for why I had disappeared from my photograph, and the presence of the light figure on the board has no precedent either, as far as I can tell.
Sandy arrived late and came in while we were in the middle of all this photography. She was very quiet and soon complained of a headache and declined to participate in the aura photography.
We were soon done with all the pictures and Lilly suddenly announced that, except for my photo and the photos of the process, she expected to be paid for her “services”. She quoted exorbitant prices that she claimed she received for this work, as well as a special “fee” for having brought the equipment to us.
I was, needless to say, a bit surprised with this “bait and switch” routine, but not wanting to engage in a dispute over it, I decided that I would just pay for all the participants since I was the one who had told them that Lilly was bringing the camera as an exchange, and they had all participated believing that there was no additional charge. However, the group, seeing the situation for what it really was, came to my rescue and paid for their photos. In the end, my aura photo and the aura photo of the board were quite expensive: about $175.00 apiece!
After what seemed to be a fleecing of my guests, Lilly declined to stay for the rest of the session. This puzzled me because I thought she had said she wanted to ask specific questions. She packed up her equipment and left.
After Lilly was gone, we resumed our session. Pat was very interested in some health related questions so nothing of a particularly significant nature came through.
The next day Lilly called and hemmed and hawed a bit before saying, “I have a question that I just have to ask you. Where did you meet Sandy? How well do you know her?”
I was a little taken aback by this question, and, of course, I was still a bit put out by her behavior the night before, but told her that I knew Sandy from a Reiki group and that, due to the accident, she had been one of my therapists for almost a year now.
“Are you guys connected with that coven up there in Hernando County?” Lilly next asked.
“What?!” I was flabbergasted. “What coven? Do you mean Wicca or something like that? Absolutely not! I don’t mess with that Mumbo Jumbo stuff! What in the world made you think that?”
Lilly explained that she recognized Sandy and she knew that she was involved in some sort of group that was deeply into ritual magick.
I was absolutely stunned. I was also a little angry. How dare she say things like that about Sandy!
But, I wanted to understand why this woman would just call me on the phone and tell me that a member of a close knit group like ours was a member of some cultic coven-type thing.
Lilly launched into a history of having been in a healing class of some kind with Sandy. After the class graduated, they all went on a trip to the Yucatan to visit the Mayan ruins. I vaguely remembered Sandy being absent from the Reiki group at one point and that when she reappeared, she talked about her trip to the Yucatan. So, I knew that Lilly must know something since that was a fact.
She went on. Apparently, she had been the one who shared the cabin with Sandy on the cruise and had also been assigned to her on their “buddy system” while they were sightseeing. She explained how Sandy had tried to convert some of the members of this class to some of the ideas of this cult/coven saying that they were able to “really get results” with their rituals and so forth. She had approached Lilly with an invitation, but Lilly had declined, sensing that there was something unsavory about it.
She went on with some more details, many of which coincided with things I did know to be true and as she talked I became sicker and sicker. I realized now that there was an explanation for a lot of strange “absences” and funny behaviors of Sandy’s that I had just “shoved under the rug”. It also explained her quietness the previous evening when Lilly was there — and maybe even why she didn’t want her aura photo taken.
I was completely devastated. I just didn’t see how Sandy could have a whole secret life like that! Yet Lilly cited details about her that I knew were true! And at the same time, all the missing pieces of Sandy’s own puzzle were falling into place.
My mind was racing for an answer. I knew that a well-to-do older couple — pillars of the community — had adopted Sandy in the same area of the country that was the setting for the Elaine story; but that was just too crazy!
I also knew that Sandy had spent many of her early years as a Motorcycle Mama with the Outlaws motorcycle gang. Frank and I had discussed what a great epiphany Sandy must have had to leave that life to go into massage therapy and metaphysical studies. We knew, from things that she had said, that there were some very dark things in her past. Frank had questioned her closely on one occasion and she had admitted to having been involved in covering up a murder, though she made it explicit that she had not participated in the actual murder.
But she was so soft-hearted toward animals, and refused to even kill roaches, that I was assured that her attitudes were certainly from the heart, and whatever reason had driven her out of her home to live with known criminals, she must have been horribly abused! I had nothing but sympathy for her.
So, I explained to Lilly that, even if that was the case a few years ago, Sandy was definitely a reformed person now! There was just no way she could participate in something like that on one night of the week and then sit in on our sessions on another. She had been so devoted to me in helping me to recover from my accident that I simply could not believe that she was still connected to any of those people.
I then told Lilly about the Metaphysical church folks and all that had transpired there, that Sandy knew all about it and was definitely not involved with those people anymore.
Lilly was reassured and asked if she might now attend a session in the future. She had some very definite issues she wanted to deal with involving the many strange things that had been happening to her.
She claimed she was in an abusive marriage, her son had been hospitalized for a minor illness but was nearly killed by the anesthesiologist, and she had recently met a man who demonstrated signs that he might be her “soul mate” and she was desperate to know what to do. All kinds of “synchronous events” were happening between her and this man, she said, and I had just been through that scenario, so I tried to warn her that it can be as much a warning as an indicator that one is going in the right direction.
I was wary of this individual because she had already demonstrated that what she said at one time, could not be relied upon in a consistent way. Nevertheless, against my better judgment, I agreed reluctantly. She then asked if she might bring a friend! I was beginning to think that there was just simply no end to this woman’s presumptuousness, but I made excuses for her in my mind that, perhaps, she just simply was brought up in a family where good manners were not exampled or taught. And, to my way of thinking, just because people don’t know how to conduct themselves socially according to what most people consider etiquette, it does not detract from their souls’ value. Thus, I let another warning go by.
Lilly came to the next session and it was one of the strangest we have ever had. (I have no idea why I describe any of them as being “the strangest”! The whole thing is bizarre as all get-out!) But, anyway, it was a perfect example of what we have been talking about.
January 11, 1997
Q: (L) We have “Lilly” here with us this evening, as well as the usual crew. V is absent. Her parents are visiting. We have been discussing…
A: Discuss prophecy, maybe?
Q: (L) No, we weren’t discussing prophecy… (T) Well, no, maybe they want us to discuss prophecy…
A: Sure, why not?
Q: (T) Well, since they brought it up… Give us a point to start on the subject of prophecy…
A: Well, it is important, you know. You have one here tonight who has been badly misled, controlled and programmed. In grave, grave danger. Another who attempted contact today… likewise. Must change at once!!!!
Q: (L) Change what?
A: Directions
Q: (L) Change directions in what?
A: Studies, life situations, etc. This is one who was recognized as having great potential for ultimate 4th density STO change over at a very early stage, thus attack was instituted then, and has slowly and steadily increased, with ultimate goal of total elimination. Sadly, that goal is on verge of realization.
Q: (T) Is this guy she has just met and is asking about involved?
A: No! What is important is the subject has been programmed to lead a life designed to “open the wrong doors”. And when this transpires, with one of these target subjects, if they don’t get help, or more importantly, do not listen to the guidelines, they are destroyed as part of a grand plan.
[We stopped at this point to discuss Lilly’s husband, marriage partners that can be chosen because of spirit attachment, and close relations, including children, that can drain one’s energy, be used as agents of attack, and so on. I am excluding that part of the discussion due to its personal nature.]
Q: (L) Is this what we are talking about?
A: Close. Those are not the only dangers. You asked about the “visitor”. Well, what about that?? And what about your son’s illness? What about the woman from across the street? What about W___, and her son? And the possible connection between him and your husband? And what if your husband worked for the “secret government?” And what about your father, and whom he worked for? What does it all mean? [Discussion about Lilly’s father and his role in the military.]
Q: (T) Anything more for Lilly?
A: Only if she asks.
But Lilly didn’t want to ask anymore. It was pretty evident that, like Candy had been, she was highly indignant that the Cassiopaeans would suggest that her “spirituality”, her cocoon of love and light, was not sufficient protection. Never mind that she claimed that her son nearly died, her husband, who she claimed was a “trained government assassin”, had recently, while enraged, driven the car through the side of the house, pulled a gun and threatened to kill her; her daughter had been arrested for shoplifting, as well as the fact that she was being “lured” by a stranger she had just met in one of her classes whose primary objective seemed to be to get her alone with him for purposes unknown, but hardly likely to be benevolent!
She did not want to acknowledge the symbolic nature of the Universe and how the events of our lives are mirrors of what is inside us. She was, in fact, just another case of a self-made New Age “teacher”, promulgating the new religion of “you create your own reality” who was unable to demonstrate in any aspect of her personal life that she “walked the walk” she was talking.
Well, all that would have been that except for the next event involving Lilly. She called early one morning shortly after that last session. She was in a panic and quite obviously on the verge of collapse. Apparently she had suffered a terrible nightmare in which a Lizard type being raped her. That was bad enough, but what really sent her plunging over the edge was when she woke up, she was covered with welts and a rash exactly as if she had been exposed to something violently allergenic.
In the dream, she said, the Reptoid had nipped her on the solar plexus, telling her that it was a “love bite” so she would remember him. When she looked at the area after awakening, there were scratches that corresponded exactly to the teeth she remembered in the dream.
She also had another puncture on her leg added to a long series of them that had appeared at various points in her life, and assorted other marks and scratches all over her body.
I was pretty skeptical. It was my thought that the woman had just gone hysterical and maybe had done something to herself for attention. After all, from her own description, she was in a horrible marriage, may have been sexually abused as a child, and had a whole host of issues just waiting to erupt in her life. Her public persona was one thing; her private life was a disaster waiting to happen!
It would not have been at all unusual for a woman in her situation to deliberately manufacture such an event to get attention, create drama and excitement, or to use it as a platform from which to launch other difficulties for those around her. I thought it was a “cry for help”.
I figured that if she was making it up or over-dramatizing it, I would be able to catch it eventually, and gradually she would be able to look at her life in more realistic terms. It was a bit inconvenient to deal with her at that moment, but she was so desperate and insisted over and over again that she needed help now. She didn’t have the money to pay for the hypnosis, but I have never let that be a factor in whom I accepted to work with, so even though I was very pressed for time, I decided to rearrange my schedule to accommodate this sudden eruption of something into her life. She came to my house and I took pictures first, because she wanted proof that she wasn’t just imagining things.
Out of a dozen or more photos, the ones displayed here are the only ones that really show anything of any significance — assuming it wasn’t a hysterical overreaction to a nightmare, nor an attention getting ploy of a frustrated housewife trapped in an unhappy marriage.
The photo above shows the scratches that Lilly claims were made by the Reptoid being with his teeth after he raped her — a sort of “parting gift”, as he said. Again, these marks could easily have been made by Lilly herself in any number of ways. Note also the rash, or hives, all over the abdominal area. It was particularly bad going down toward the groin.
In the photo above, I am pointing to one of over a dozen or so small, semicircular puncture wounds that were present in areas where Lilly claimed the Reptoid beings held her with their hands.
In the next photo, there is the new puncture mark at the bottom, and a series of overlapping scars of similar puncture marks that Lilly said she had had for a long time. She was unclear as to when the first of them appeared, or even any of the subsequent ones. My thoughts upon examining them were that they were similar to the kind of scars that many women get on their legs from careless shaving. If there is an area that is easily scraped, it gets scraped over and over again, so that would account for multiple scars. But, clearly, this last puncture is not a shaving cut. It appeared to be rather deep, and already starting to close, as would be natural if it had occurred several hours earlier.
Shortly after making the pictures, we settled down to do the hypnosis that Lilly requested. She seemed genuinely at a loss to explain what had happened to her, and I was at a loss to explain it either. I had never heard of a Reptilian being raping anyone. In fact, I knew little about so-called “Reptilian aliens” at all other than what the Cassiopaeans had said, and that didn’t tend to make me think that they went around raping women. How does a hyperdimensional being, who is somewhat ephemeral by definition, have the physical solidity necessary to perform rape?
But, Lilly was hyperventilating, having palpitations that terrified her, and every time she tried to talk about the event she would start shaking uncontrollably to the point that her teeth chattered loudly. Serious Post Traumatic Stress indications, for sure.
It took a little while to get her terror under control, to get her to relax, and finally, to get her under hypnosis. As it turned out, she was an excellent subject. When she did go, she went deep. After setting up a safe environment in which to view the event, I asked Lilly to describe what had happened that night.
Apparently, she had had an argument with her husband and Lilly decided to sleep in the living room on the sofa. She went immediately to sleep as though she were drugged. The next thing she was aware of was some sort of disturbance, like a noise or a sudden bump. She was awake, but paralyzed. She could see a glow in the corner of the room she was facing, and saw a shimmering “opening” in the ceiling. This opening of shimmering light began to expand in a columnar way so that it became like a shaft of light coming through the ceiling to the floor. As she watched, she struggled unsuccessfully against the paralysis and her heart started pounding so hard she thought the blood would burst out of her ears.
The light began to have “sparkles” in it — like swirling dust motes in a sunbeam — and these sparkles began to coalesce into a figure. And it was a figure out of a nightmare, for sure! A huge, muscular Lizard man who was soon joined by two others. She was too distressed when trying to describe them accurately, but she did manage to say that they had scales, claws, and lips that were vaguely fish-like.
The beings didn’t talk to her, but simply came over, one took hold of her arms and the other took hold of her legs so as to position her for the third that immediately leaned over her and began to copulate.
I stopped her at this point and backed her up. I wanted to get certain details that might give me an idea if Lilly was making this whole thing up.
Q: When these beings entered your room, were they dressed?
A: I don’t think so.
Q: When this being appeared in the room, did you notice his genitalia?
A: No. He didn’t have any.
Q: If he didn’t have genitalia, how did he have sex with you?
A: It was strange… umm… he started to kneel over me, and it sort of emerged out of his body. It like came out of a slit…
Q: Before he began copulation, as his genitalia emerged, did you have a chance to see what it looked like?
A: That’s strange… I see it very sharp and pointed… you know, like a devil’s tail in a cartoon.
Q: Very sharp and pointed? Was it painful?
A: It burned. It was like so cold that it was burning me.
Q: At any point did you have the feeling that this being was raping you because he lusted for you, in particular? Was he attracted to you or did he feel kindness toward you?
A: No. That’s another funny thing. He was telling me sort of telepathically that he was “changing the program”. I don’t know what that means, but it has something to do with my DNA.
Now, that was a pretty bizarre remark. Her DNA programming was being changed by this act of rape? Hang on to that thought, as we will come back to it in the next section.
Now, as I have been putting these pages together and going over some of this past material, I have been trying to confirm or explain as much as I can. In this particular case, aside from the photographs of the subject which certainly showed something going on, though it is impossible to tell what, the only thing she said that could be used as a point of validation was her description of the Reptoid genitals. Otherwise, her tale falls into the category of a wild fantasy of another New Ager who has gone too far into fantasy, occurring in response to an unhappy marriage, triggered by an argument with her husband. Was she confabulating, or did something really happen to her?
I tried to find another case of reptilian interaction with humans where the genitals were described by other witnesses somewhere on the Internet, but I failed completely. Maybe nobody else has asked this question.
I first thought in terms of snake genitals since the Reptoids are also known as the “serpent race”. But then, I remembered that the Cassiopaeans had described them as biologically like “upright alligators”. So, I thought that I should be looking for alligator genitals to compare to Lilly’s description. I figured that there was always the chance that Lilly had seen a picture of them in a book somewhere and was describing what she remembered. If so, I could just go to the library and have a look myself.
Nope. No book at the library had a picture of alligator genitals. Not even snake genitals! What about the bookstore?
Nope. Nothing at Booksamillion.
How about on the Internet?
Ark and I spent almost an entire day trying to track down a photograph of alligator genitals so that I could satisfy my curiosity as to whether Lilly had described them accurately.
Nothing.
Finally, Ark, using his status as a university professor, wrote to a professor of herpetology and inquired about obtaining a photograph of alligator genitals for my article.
Well, such a photo does exist, but is not generally available to the public. It is for specialists only. But, since inquiring minds want to know, here it is. You be the judge.
The image above is the genitalia of a male alligator, partly everted from the slit opening behind which they are concealed when not in use. Remember how Lilly described it: “That’s strange… I see it very sharp and pointed… you know, like a devil’s tail in a cartoon.”
The image below shows the genitalia fully everted. The large white globular objects at the base of the organ are the muscles used to erect the organ to the outside of the body.
1 I suffered a concussion, a cracked vertebra, and my left arm was nearly torn out of the socket. All the rotator muscles and ligaments in my left shoulder had been torn, and even though I had been released to go home, I was in a brace and was soon to suffer many problems due to having been released too soon. The neck injury was the most serious, and over the next weeks, swelling of the cervical disks caused paralysis on the left side of my body. Nevertheless, I took pain pills and participated in a session, as I was to continue to do through the two years of intense physical therapy that was needed to restore mobility to my arm and leg.
2 See High Strangeness for details.
3 The pictures are reproduced in color in Secret History.
We’re going to back up a bit here and focus on another line of events that were occurring parallel to the events of the previous section, involving some of the same people and occurring just prior to my decision to distance myself from the Reiki/Metaphysical Church crowd. This series of “lessons” involved the fact that Louise took her Master Level Reiki initiation. This happened in a funny way.
As I said, the Reiki Master who had initiated all of us was one of Takata’s students — an elderly lady who was quite well known among the Virginia Beach metaphysical crowd. She traveled to Florida for these Reiki seminars as soon as Louise would assemble enough eager students, and would spend three days teaching and doing the attunements. She was careful, thorough, and a veritable encyclopedia of Reiki knowledge. She had in her possession copies of Takata’s diaries and personal writings, as well as books that have since been written about Reiki that were annotated by several of Takata’s actual students. It seemed, from this information, that there had been a definite split in the Reiki teachings with certain persons taking it upon themselves to alter or add to the original work (claiming “inspiration” from God or some channeled source, as far as I have been able to determine).
Louise was very anxious to have her Master Level initiation, but for some reason our Reiki Master was unwilling to give it to her. I have no idea on what she based this decision, but it was apparent that Takata was also very choosy about who she gave the Master Level initiations to. Having been taken into Takata’s confidence, our Reiki Master told us that after Takata died, a couple of her students, to whom she had denied the Master Level attunements, had persuaded Takata’s heir to issue an “Official List” of Reiki Masters personally initiated by Takata, but that this list was doctored to include them. It was suggested that money changed hands but further than that I cannot say because it is, after all, hearsay and not hard evidence. But, I listened to many things about this matter told to us by our Reiki Master, and I had no reason to think that she would make this story up.
The upshot of the whole affair was that there were people claiming to have received not only their Master Level initiations directly from Takata, but also certain secret teachings who had not, in fact, done so. Our Reiki Master stopped short of calling these people liars and frauds, but her meaning along that line was pretty clear. She told us that these same people were the ones who had changed and added to the original material and techniques even adding new levels of initiation so as to have more initiations for which more money could be charged. Further, many people were apparently giving Reiki seminars wherein a person could become a Reiki Master in three days or less! Our Reiki Master was very clear on this: the initiations must be given over a period of years or they would not “take” properly. Each level had to be observed by the Master to determine when and if the next level could be assimilated.
So, there it was: Louise wanted the Master Level and had been told she was not ready yet. She was working as hard as she could to gather students and arrange seminars for Reiki classes, and felt somewhat put out because the Reiki Master would not respond to all her hard work by giving her the Master Level initiation. So, she decided to take matters into her own hands.
There was a Reiki Master down in Clearwater who had been initiated into the lineage of one of the persons who was reputed to have altered and added to the Reiki teachings. (In fact, as I understand it, due to extreme promotional efforts and books, etc., this person’s teachings are the most widely known version of Reiki in the country today.) So Louise became resentful at the refusal of our Reiki Master and decided to go to this other Reiki Master of the altered line for her Master Level.
After she had obtained her Master Initiation, she offered to give me, Candy and Tim the Second Level attunements at a tremendous discount. Okay. Sounded like a good deal to me. I couldn’t imagine how there could be anything wrong with it because I wasn’t even sure what was done or how. I agreed.
Along with the Second Level initiation, a little booklet was provided which included the symbols that the Second Level student was now “empowered” to use. I was reading through this book when I came to a page that was headed “Power Exercises”. It began:
The Reiki Alliance form of teaching involves using the body as an energy channel to pass the attunements. Usui Traditional Reiki does not use this method, or the power exercises given here. The advantage of these exercises is that with them you need to pass the attunement only once to transmit the Reiki degree.1
I didn’t really notice the distinction between “The Reiki Alliance” and “Usui Traditional Reiki” as I was reading this the first time, so I continued on. The instructions for the “power exercise” for women began: “Sit with legs open, so that you can press the heel of one foot against your vagina and clitoris. Use a firm, steady pressure… You may experience sexual stimulation or orgasm.”
I have to admit that warning bells went off in my head with this one. Believe me, I am not unaware of Tantra and certain Kundalini stimulating practices, nor the benefits to be gained from them, but after studying these things in some detail, I knew that in such ancient traditions, the student is carefully led through many stages of instruction and preparation before being introduced to such a practice as was being described in this Reiki manual; and “sexual stimulation or orgasm” is not encouraged in these traditions; at least not in the early stages of training, which can take years! This kind of exercise can actually be quite dangerous if you don’t really know what you are doing!
But, I continued to read. A page was included that showed the method for using the Reiki symbols to basically “bomb the Earth with love and light.” Well, at that point in my education, it didn’t seem like a bad idea. I had even considered doing remote Spirit Release on all the members of Congress!
But then I reached the back of the book where there was a page headed “Alternate Reiki Symbols (Usui Traditional Method.)” I had a look at them and then I went back to the symbols that the “Reiki Alliance” was teaching and compared them. Not only were they very different, one of them, the “Power symbol”, was completely reversed.
Now that disturbed me in a big way! I had a sort of visceral understanding of these symbols as being a Cosmic or interdimensional language, or electromagnetic circuit diagram, and here I was seeing that somebody had not only altered them, but also had even reversed one of them.
If these symbols are, as I was understanding it, a sort of cosmic microchip that can be installed in the body to enable a flow of energy from other dimensions; if they are a language that tells the body something in a deep, objective way, and then somebody changes them, what are they now “programming”? What is being said to the body? What are the circuits being routed to do?
I called Louise immediately and pointed out to her that she had apparently “gone over” to the group that our Reiki Master had been talking about, though none of them had ever been named by her. Louise was not only dismissive of my concerns; she was actually contemptuous of my idea that there could be a real problem here. As I remember her saying, “If you believe they will work, they will! It’s all a matter of what you believe. If you don’t believe they will work, they won’t. If your spiritual development is weak or backward, of course, nothing will work for you.”
MIAOU!
Wow! What a cut! Now I was spiritually retarded because I had a problem with people altering symbols and maybe corrupting information. Hmmm… How often has this manipulation been used to jerk questioners back in line?
I didn’t buy it. My experience with Reiki had been that it was something that was truly objective — it did not require “faith” or “belief”. That was the truly unique and amazing thing about it. At that moment, I decided that Louise simply wasn’t getting it. But I figured that my initiation from her was still good even if she didn’t know what she was dealing with. Surely the method of transmission was still the same and worked? I decided that I would just use the Usui Traditional Symbols and maybe experiment with the others to see what they were really doing.
There was already a problem though, even if it took awhile for it to repeat often enough for me to take notice: the heat that generally would manifest so powerfully when I touched people seemed to have dissipated and now, instead, I was actually feeling an iciness that was of the kind that can be felt as heat unless you have been used to real heat. I commented on this to Candy and she said that this was normal. She said that our Reiki Master had told her that the body knows what kind of energy it needs and when you have the Reiki attunements the body will naturally send the right energy to whatever person you are channeling it to. That seemed like a reasonable explanation.
But to give an example of what I mean about the changes made in the symbols, take a look at the following examples:
Above left, we have Diane Stein’s reversal of the “power symbol”. On the right, is the original rendition.
On the left, we have Diane Stein’s “adjustments” to the “etheric connection” symbol, that she called the “distance healing” symbol. On the right is the more traditional version.
As time went by, I noticed that my energy was really low and I had some occasional aches and pains that would pop up and force me to slow down. It was nothing really severe, just annoying. I wrote it off to needing to relax a bit. And that is where the matter stood through the time period in which the Cassiopaean contact was finally established.
I thought the whole idea of these symbols and their use was fascinating and, for some reason, it made perfect sense to me. In order to make this clear, I have to talk about Reiki a little bit more so that the reader can follow my thinking as the events unfolded. The following is an amalgamation of my notes for a Reiki manual I have been meaning to write for some time:
Have you ever watched a Martial Arts demonstration where the Master decimates an entire stack of boards, bricks or blocks with a single blow? If you have witnessed enough of them you know that there is no fakery involved. But, how is it done?
For more than 5,000 years the Chinese have practiced Martial Arts. Secrets of retention of vital energies to develop internal power were passed from father to chosen son. The first stage of the practice was to get the warm current of energy to open the channels of circulation so that the internal power could be circulated freely. One then had to learn how to strengthen one’s vital organs and to “pack” the energy for use when needed. The Martial Arts fighting styles were not effective without this internal power. […]
During the present century the West has witnessed a phenomenal growth of interest in “Wholistic/holistic” health disciplines. At the same time science is finding that deeper realities bear a striking resemblance to the classical worldview of the major oriental religions and Martial Arts practices. The increased interest has manifested in multitudes taking classes in Yoga, Martial Arts, Macrobiotics, Tai Chi Chu Chuan, and a host of other variations on these themes. We have become comfortable with meditation and yoga and Buddhism. But, what do we really know about these traditions other than a few fragments of the wisdom of the I-Ching, the Tao Te Ching and a few other pieces of disconnected knowledge?
In the sixth century BC, Lao-Tse began his classic essay, the Tao Te Ching, with this admonition: “The Tao which can be spoken of is not the Tao.” In early Chinese writings, the Tao implied an understanding of life, which stressed individual harmony with the forces of nature. The practice of Reiki is rooted in the same way with the forces of nature. This energy works independently of any particular belief or scientific concept. It is not related to any religious practice that has grown up around it. It is, in brief, a subtle but verifiable life energy, “chi,” flowing through the body in a specific pattern. This “Chi,” as it is known in Chinese, or “Ki,” as it is known in Japanese, was known by the ancients, and its secrets have been attainable throughout all ages by those who were willing to put a great deal of time into the prescribed practices. The limitation has always been the fact that it was only available to those who were willing to train for long hours daily for many years to alter the flow so that the body could make active use of this energy.
The applications of Ki/Chi in daily life are virtually limitless. It is the most important building block of transformation. If a person can master the circulation of the healing energy, everything else proceeds more quickly. Opening this energy channel is like being given the tools to do all other things. Without the flow of the Ki/Chi, the individual will find it difficult to advance to higher levels in other disciplines. You could spend years in other disciplines with less direct methods in order to achieve the same end, or, even a lifetime. However, a person could study hundreds of volumes in a dozen languages without ever learning how to awaken the much-poeticized healing power of the Tao. There are those who have read the thousands of volumes and received the valuable oral teachings, which have been shrouded in secrecy the same way medieval alchemy was hidden in Europe, who still have not achieved the mastery of this energy and the power to direct it. What many today do not know is that there is a method of awakening and utilizing the Ki/Chi by initiation. That is, it is like starting a car with a battery rather than a hand crank!
This secret is rooted in the “language” of the body. The body comes into being by virtue of the Electromagnetic pattern that is determined at another dimensional level. These patterns are expressed on the other dimensions as symbolic figures. It is an entire language of its own, the language of the cosmos which is expressed in the body via the axiom: As above, so below. Without a language, one cannot create words, sentences, paragraphs, or develop simple or complex ideas. These symbolic figures convey knowledge, alter energy with this knowledge, and are essential conduits between our reality and higher realities.
The symbolic figures of Reiki manifest knowledge that speaks to the “soul”.
The Reiki Master makes use of higher energies expressed through symbols to clear the routes and raise the level of chi production. The current of the Reiki initiation or “attunement” is like installing a new circuit board or computer chip into the system.
The important thing is that, as soon as I saw the Reiki symbols, I knew that they were a language — a soul language, so to speak. We began to utilize them in our channeling experiment, inscribing them in the air over the board, or drawing them on sheets of paper and putting the paper under the board. It was within a few weeks of this implementation, after two long years of sitting with intent, that the Cassiopaeans came through as described elsewhere, with a series of very loud thunderclaps over my house, so strong that they literally shook the house like an earthquake.
So we can see that all of the previously described interactions had a positive side and a negative side. And, in the end, they were pretty well balanced. Not only was my health restored in a miraculous way, but we received a tool thereby that assisted in our contact with the Cassiopaeans. On the negative side, I nearly got myself killed and certainly suffered some really unpleasant experiences. These experiences were what we came to call “attacks”. But, in a very real sense, these “attacks” are both Lessons and initiations! If the universe is balanced, as we are told, and which seems to be self-evident upon deep reflection, then it is almost necessary to experience both aspects in any learning experience. It is what you do with the “attacks” that makes them either lessons from which you learn, or troubles from which you suffer. And it is in this sense that awareness plays the major role of transforming attacks into lessons; awareness being the thing that you acquire with knowledge, which then enables you to see the realities behind the Symbol System, so that you can choose the most harmonious option of those offered to you in the Masked reality in which we live. There is also a further consideration as was brought up by a member of our discussion group, DD, who commented:
I am wondering if the problem with Reiki is that the attunements that give the healing power work regardless of the level of spiritual development of the person in question, and that the attunements not only give us the ability to facilitate healing, but give other psychic powers as well, powers that can be used either for good or for ill. Reiki in the hands of a really negatively oriented person might be a dangerous thing.
I agree. And the energy can certainly be used negatively. That is probably why Takata was so choosy about who she initiated as Masters and why my Reiki Master would not give the attunements to Louise. She clearly saw something there that was not obvious to others.
Naturally, the conditions surrounding us at the time the Cassiopaeans came through became the main subject of our questions. We were awash in a sea of conflicting information about UFOs, aliens, contradictory New Age teachings, and a whole host of confusing elements. But what we haven’t talked about very much is what we call the “Attack Syndrome”, which is really at the crux of the control system of our reality.
These questions were asked not particularly for the sake of getting the right answer, but more in the line of tests. They were part of the challenge process that I felt was the right and proper way to deal with any source claiming to have knowledge to share. I wanted to ask many questions on many subjects so as to assemble a body of information that could be tested and examined for accuracy, perspective, consistency, and so forth. Before I was going to decide whether I believed the Cassiopaeans were who they said they were, I was going to “put them through their paces.”
In one respect this was a useful thing, but in another it led to later problems in assembling the material in any useful order. I would jump from subject to subject trying deliberately to confuse or disorient them. I would stick trick questions in and ask them rapid fire to see if I could trip them up. I had enough experience chatting with dead dudes and elementals and even demonic type entities that I was using all the tricks I had learned in exposing such types to see if there was anything of that orientation in the Cassiopaean responses. I’m just glad that they had a good sense of humor, were patient and understanding throughout this period!
So, we come to some of the personal issues of “attack” with which we challenged the Cassiopaeans. Things happen for a reason, and this information was to prove to be invaluable to us as we proceeded with the project. At the very first solidly identifiable Cassiopaean session, I tossed in some questions about abduction as it related to us personally. Candy was present at this session. Keep in mind that the early sessions were reconstructed from the notebooks. At that point we had not begun to tape the sessions so they seem to be a bit choppy and brief.
July 16, 1994
Q: (L) Have any of us been abducted?
A: All.
Q: (L) How many times?
A: Frank-57; Candy-56; Laura-5.
Q: (L) Why has Laura not been abducted as much? (Laura laughs.)
A: You fight it. It is not over. (Candy laughs.) Candy was abducted last month.
Q: (L) Who is abducting us?
A: The other. [Referring to the Consortium of STS aliens and humans which was identified at the beginning of the session.]
Q: (L) What is the name of the specific group?
A: Different names.
Q: (L) Are we all abducted by the same group?
A: Mostly.
Q: (L) What did they do to us?
A: Gave false memories. Made you inhibited as children. Caused headaches and sickness at school.
Q: (L) Do we have implants?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where?
A: In the head.
Q: (L) What are the implants for?
A: Study device.
Q: (L) To study what?
A: Soul composition.
Q: (L) Do any of the rituals we perform provide protection against further abduction?
A: Maybe some Crystals with energy fields. Don’t need protection if you have knowledge.
Q: (L) How do we get this knowledge?
A: It is deep in the subconscious.
Q: (L) When did we get it?
A: Before birth.
Q: (L) Is there anything else we can do for protection?
A: Learn, meditate, read.
Q: (L) Are we doing what we need to be doing at the present?
A: So far. Need to awaken.
In the following week, Candy, Louise and I had gone to visit another Reiki Master in Tampa who lived just north of the airport and who had shown us what she claimed to be the “real” Reiki symbols which were still another variation! She also regaled us with a story about the individual who had instituted the “New Reiki”.
The tale was that this woman was part of a metaphysical/New Age group touring Egypt and she had actually stolen an item from a shop in a bazaar because she felt the price was outrageous. She was later “taken for questioning” by the Egyptian police. Extraordinary efforts were exerted in her behalf to get her out of this dangerous situation, (in Egypt, they cut off the hands of convicted thieves!), and baksheesh was liberally applied to ensure that no formal charges were lodged against her. The story was funny and well told, and if true, really made you wonder about the energy behind this Reiki faction.
As we were driving home, we spotted a triangular arrangement of lights hovering in the airspace of the flight path of the landing airplanes. Since there was a lot of aerial activity going on, we were unsure if it was anything strange at all. Candy was driving and decided to accelerate so that we could “catch up” to where this object was. As we got closer, we could clearly see that it was staying in the same place because several planes passed by it rather closely in their landing approach, and the object remained stationary. It had a big, bright light on each corner of the triangle, and a series of mediumer lights inside the triangle shape on the bottom of the craft in some kind of circular arrangement. I was certain that it must be a helicopter, but I couldn’t figure out why it would just sit there in that rather busy and dangerous airspace! Dumb pilot, I figured.
So, we got to close to it, almost directly under it (it was right over a busy 6 lane road) and as we did this, it moved a little to our right and hovered over an apartment complex. At that point, I could distinctly see it doing the “falling leaf” maneuver. Candy screeched around the corner of the driveway into the parking lot of the complex and slammed on the brakes while I stuck my head all the way out of the window to look directly up at the object. I was puzzled because I couldn’t hear any noise such as you would expect being right underneath a helicopter that was only about 300 feet up; there was no sound at all but the passing cars. I only had a few seconds to look directly up at it before it shot away — whoosh! There one instant, gone the next. I did manage to see that it was definitely a triangular, black object. I would guess the size to be about 30 feet per side, with a very bright light on each corner, which was strange because it did not illuminate the parking lot!
We turned around and continued home, but we were very interested in seeing what the new source had to say about that! (Keeping in mind that we are still in the early phase and did not consider the session worth recording.)
July 30, 1994
Q: (L) Do you have messages for us?
A: Be careful.
Q: (L) Of what?
A: Aliens.
Q: (L) Which Ones?
A: Orions.
Q: (L) What do they do?
A: Follow you.
Q: (L) Did Louise, Candy and Laura see an alien craft last night?
A: You better believe it.
Q: (L) Whose craft was it?
A: Orion.
Q: (L) Was it there because of us specifically?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do they know we saw them?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did they leave because we saw them?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Were they planning to abduct somebody?
A: Maybe. You are next.
Q: (L) What?
A: To be abducted.
Q: (L) Who?
A: LK
Q: (L) By whom?
A: Orion.
Q: (L) When?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Why?
A: For Knowledge monitoring. Craft above now.
Q: (L) Above the house?
A: Absolutely.
Q: (L) Is it good for me to be abducted?
[There was a lot of confusion in my mind about this subject since so much material is being promulgated by “experiencers” who claim that the aliens are here “to help us” and we just don’t understand it, nor can we because they are so much more advanced than we are.]
A: Neutral.
Q: (L) Will I be abducted because I saw them last night?
A: Partly. MF and K*** have reported you.
[This was certainly a shocking answer! MF was the “hotshot” UFO investigator that Candy was becoming very “attached” to during this time, and K*** was, of all people I knew, so anti-alien that I could not imagine him being abducted! He was, in fact, a follower of the works of Zecharia Sitchin.]
Q: (L) What? Are they in cahoots with the aliens?
A: Not knowingly.
Q: (L) How, then?
A: Subconscious. Implants.
Q: (L) Do we have implants?
[A medium “trick” question since this had already been asked.]
A: Two implants; one monitor.
Q: (L) What is the difference between a monitor and an implant?
A: All are monitors. Implant is permanent. Frank and Laura have permanent implants. Candy got monitor three months ago. Next is implant.
Q: (L) Why?
A: To watch and observe you.
Q: (L) Why?
A: You are all higher-level beings. Frank implant: 4 years old. Laura implant: 5 years old. […]
Q: (L) Are we chosen?
A: What is chosen? Only you can choose. The choice comes by nature and free will and looking and listening. Where you are is not important. Who you are is and also what you see.
Even if I didn’t like some of the things the Cassiopaeans were telling us, I was at least satisfied that they weren’t using our egos to capture our allegiance. So many cases that I had looked at had been led into corruption because of that very factor. A source will tell their channel that he/she is “special” or “chosen” or whatever. The Cassiopaeans were definitely not playing the “ego stroking” game here nor were they telling us what we wanted to hear!
What was most interesting to me, in the above excerpt, aside from the unverifiable claims about aliens and implants and all that, was that people’s minds could be manipulated, tapped or utilized in some way subconsciously, regardless of their conscious attitude toward the “alien reality”. The two people mentioned had almost nothing in common whatsoever except, actually, a certain form of fanaticism. One was a Billy Meier devotee and the other was certain that Sitchin was the only one who had a clue. But the remark that they had “reported” us was puzzling in the extreme! What, exactly, could be going on here? Did human beings live on more than one level and did this conscious level of which we are most aware, constitute some sort of completely programmed fantasy?
At about this point in time we discovered The Ra Material and I was pretty interested to see that Ra’s “take” on the situation was quite similar to what the Cassiopaeans were saying even if it was couched in cumbersome terminology. The upcoming quotes from Ra are from The Ra Material by Elkins, Rueckert and McCarty. I have removed some of the convoluted multiple words and replaced them with single words that represent conventional usage, keeping (I believe) the meaning intact. I have also combined the question that was being asked with the answer so as to simplify the excerpts for the present purpose. Those who have not read the Ra books are urged to do so as they are an invaluable source — one of the few available on the planet — for information about the true nature of our reality.
One of the comparable points of The Ra Material was the statement that the motivation of the “aliens” who abduct and probe and examine humans, and, for the most part, are those sighted by many people the world over, is to conquer the Earth and enslave its people. Ra said that the aliens sought out, specifically, people who were influential in some way so as to subvert them for their own use — this use being to enslave even more people.
[The purpose of the Orion STS] is conquest… their objective is to locate certain [individuals] which vibrate in resonance with their own [frequencies], then to [use these contactees to] enslave the [masses].
The obvious inference is, of course, that our political leaders, the heads of state, industry, finance, and so forth are likely targets for this contact. What Ra did not say, but which I also inferred from the above, was that many, if not most, of the “experiencers” and “contactees” who have come forward with their versions of the alien reality are being cleverly used as “Pied Pipers” to lead humanity into enslavement. Just exactly how this is done was described:
[The Orion STS who come to this planet for mind control purposes] follow the Law of One observing free will. Contact is made with those who call. Those then act to disseminate the attitudes and philosophy of Service to Self. These become the elite. Through these, the attempt begins to create a condition whereby the remainder of the planetary entities are enslaved by their free will.
What I think Ra is saying here is that the Orion STS are the ones most generally contacted by those who attempt to channel, he says “contact is made with those who call”, and that teachings are being promulgated that seem to be of “love and light” and a positive nature so that people will willingly follow them, not realizing that, at some point, a trap will snap shut on them because they have not, as the parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins describes, “filled their lamps with oil (knowledge).” These “contactees” then publish books, conduct seminars, promote the alien agenda, and just generally become popular and garner huge followings of devotees. As Ra said: “people are enslaved by their Free Will!” They choose it! And you don’t think they would choose it if they knew that was what they were choosing, do you?!
Of course, Don Elkins wanted to know who these people were, (including the obvious category of social and political leaders) but neither Ra nor the Cassiopaeans will tell. This is one where we have to make choices, it seems.
To name those involved is to infringe Free Will. We request your contemplation of the fruits of the actions. In this way you may discern for yourself this information.
Of course, there are those who do not seek contact, who just sort of end up getting messages inside their heads. Ra discusses this as well:
Many of those seen in your skies are of the [Orion STS] group. They send out messages. Some are received by those who are oriented toward Service to Others. These messages then are altered to be acceptable to those entities while warning of difficulties ahead. This is the most that self-serving entities can do when faced with those whose wish is to serve others… If the entity is oriented toward Service to Others, [he/she] will begin to receive messages of doom. If the entity is oriented towards service to self, the [Orions STS] do not find it necessary to lie, and will simply begin to give the philosophy they are here to give.
So it seems that this “broadcast” is pretty widely disseminated and can be picked up by many people, including those who are internally oriented toward Service to Others. What then happens, as Ra states, is that after reception of the information from the STS faction, the individual’s mind will alter the information so as to make it acceptable while “warning of difficulties ahead.” I sort of infer that this means much of the information about coming cataclysms is merely the re-forming of the information about alien conquest and domination into more general, global/geological concepts. It may also mean that a lot of psychics who are not “into” the “alien scene”, are getting information from these beings that are then being transformed in their brain circuits to be of a different nature. The last category however, those who are oriented to Service to Self, will be the ones presenting the aliens as our “saviors” or “helpers” or “brothers”.
So we seem to have a number of general categories of disinformation being described here. Two of them are worth particular focus for the deviousness of the propaganda. The first is the “cataclysmic” school from those who are STO, yet still sleeping; and the “alien rapture theorists” from those who are STS and part of the enslavement machine. Ra goes a bit further into this last category:
The contacts which the [Orion STS] group finds most helpful to their cause are those contacts made with entities whose orientation is towards Service to Self… Through telepathy the philosophy of… Service to Self is promulgated. In advanced groups there are rituals and exercises given and these have been written down just as the Service to Others oriented entities have written down the promulgated philosophy of their teachers.
Don Elkins had the idea that this must refer specifically to practitioners of magick, and Ra affirmed that this was a part of this mode. But he suggested that there was a lot more to it and that the observer must use his/her own judgment. The one thing that comes to my mind as being the closest to what Ra is describing as a “written body of material” with advanced groups with rituals and exercises, are the books and higher methods of processing employed by the followers of ritual magick. But then, of course, the whole gamut of formalized religion falls entirely within this category as well. Enough said. Let those who have eyes to see, see; let those who have ears to hear, hear.
Ra did give additional clues as to the specific processes involved:
The philosophy [of Service to Self] concerns… Manipulating others that they may [serve another through manipulation or trickery, i.e., enslavement] thus through this experience becoming able to appreciate Service to Self. These entities would become oriented towards Service to Self and in turn manipulate yet others so that they in turn might experience the service towards the other self [via enslavement].
What Ra seems to be saying is that by this, is that by engaging an individual, through manipulation or deception, to “follow” or “serve” a “master”, whether it be Jesus, Buddha, Lord Sananda, or being saved via a copyrighted and patented “technology”, the person is being conditioned to accept the Service to Self pathway and to think that it is Service to Others! It becomes like a hierarchy where one is encouraged to deeply desire advancement in the levels so that they, too, can someday achieve the proffered carrot of “salvation” which they can then offer to others “below” them. This is reflected in the beliefs of many Christians that they will be among the “chosen” who will “stand at the right hand of God” and “judge the quick and the dead” along with their “elder brother, Christ.” The same sort of thing is going on in other religions. There is a saying, “The oppressed become the oppressors,” that applies here and it is a rather transparent psychological ploy.
Upon initial inspection, one might have the idea that the serving of others that is being called forth in the STS manipulation is little different from serving others in the STO paradigm; but there is a key difference — manipulation. Manipulation implies that the service is induced or coerced by deceptive tactics; that the individual is serving something or someone that is a lie or an illusion. This “serving of a lie or an illusion” is the dynamic that locks the person’s energy flow into the implosive, contractile mode of a draining of energy rather than an exchange where something real, i.e., truth or reciprocity, is being exchanged for the service.
A very simple way to explain it would be that it is like an investment scam where many people are tricked to give their money to a con artist who has convinced them that he is a representative for a legitimate investing firm or plan. They give their life savings; the con artist puts it in his pocket, and then moves on to the next sucker. The thing that occurs with the STS mode of investment scams is that they take place over a person’s entire life and it is generally only after many lifetimes, or at least, at the end of any given life, that the person being scammed realizes that they have been “taken for a ride”. They die with their soul energy depleted, entrapped by the STS faction, unable to progress in any significant way. The old saying, “If it sounds too good to be true it probably is”, applies here. Salvation as is taught by Christianity; the Alien Rapture theory where aliens are going to “airlift” their true believers off the planet during coming cataclysms; ascension by application of simplistic “rituals” or “initiatory meditative exercises” that can be done if you just attend the seminar, buy the book, (a bargain at $29.95!), or wander around in muddy mazes with a blindfold on, all fall into this category. Caveat Emptor!
But, in the case of the Orion STS, we have a special problem. They have capabilities of control and deception that we cannot even imagine! Ra tells us:
You must plumb the depths of fourth-density negative understanding. This is difficult for you. Once having reached third density space-time continuum through your so-called windows, [the Orion STS] may plunder as they will, the results completely a function of the polarity of the, shall we say, witness/subject/victim. That is due to the sincere belief of 4th density STS that to love self is to love all. Each other-self, which is thus either taught or enslaved, thus has a teacher that teaches love of self. Exposed to this teaching, it is intended there be brought to fruition an harvest of 4th density negative or self-serving beings.
As if it weren’t enough that they can deceive us via time and space manipulation, they can also mislead us through the teachings that come to us from the “astral planes”! This information was particularly interesting to me in light of the attachment that had been discovered hanging with Candy who had been “sent by a magician”!
The Orion STS have aided many negatively oriented entities… and there are many upon your so-called inner planes which are negatively oriented and thus available as inner teachers or guides and so-called possessors of certain souls.
Then there is the problem of people channeling without “tuning”. An individual of completely pure intent and STO nature can produce material that is deceptive disinformation due to their lack of ability to discern which is a result of lack of knowledge.
It is entirely possible for untuned channels to receive both positive and negative communications.
Another problem in being able to figure out the machinations of beings with space-time manipulation capabilities is that of proof. Over and over again we read about miracles and apparitions that are taken as proof of some sort of divine contact. People don’t seem to get the very simple fact that if you believe because you have proof, you are not choosing from Free Will! You believe because you have no choice not to believe. What sort of energy could be behind such a thing, despite the lovely appearances, the miraculous healings, the celestial harmonies, or deeply emotional responses of the witnesses? Borrowing from the discussion of Ann Haywood in High Strangeness:
“One night the Lady took me back in time. We were in a foreign country and the people wore old- fashioned clothes. The Lady took on the appearance of a beautiful woman in a blue robe. She performed miracles for them…”
Ann Haywood, the human host of the above-described entity (many aspects of this case are startlingly similar to the Betty Andreasson Luca case2), apparently was punished for this revelation to the media.
Suddenly Ann’s face turned ashen and she asked to be excused. Her scream of pain was heard from the bathroom where she had taken refuge. When Ann came out, she was sniffling and holding her abdomen. The Lady had savagely attacked her for revealing that down through history, creatures like the Lady have taken the form of saints. They then use the gullibility of humankind to misguide and misinform people so that they believe they are seeing miracles performed. Ann begged the newsman to delete that portion of the interview.”3
Hmmmm? We are beginning to get a picture of a contrived reality that is positively Machiavellian in its manipulations and deceptions. Ra says about it:
Many of your so-called contacts among your people have been confused and self-destructive because the channels were oriented towards Service to Others but, in the desire for proof, were open to the lying information of the Orion STS who then were able to neutralize the effectiveness of the channel.
I was recently reading a book that is devoted to miracles down through the ages, most particularly apparitions of the Virgin including the “miracle at Fatima”, and so on. The one thing I noted over and over again was the “bidding process”. Such entities will ask for something to be done — prayers, build a church, repentance, or whatever — and the witnesses, being overcome by the miraculous nature of the appearance, immediately set about complying with these wishes. In some cases, there is a deal whereby the entity (usually the Virgin and assorted saints or members of the “Holy Family”) offers some sort of compensation for the required observances. In one case it was victory in battle, in another it was a good harvest or rain.
What so many people don’t realize is that to respond to a command of any kind, the “bidding”, whether it is to pray or build a church or paint a sign on your shield or even to erect a monument by piling three stones on the side of the road, one has accepted domination! One has tacitly agreed to serve the one who has made the request or issued the command. A psychic bond is immediately established, and the dance begins. The tricky part comes in when the requests or commands are either couched in terms that make them seem useful or good, or they come by way of pity or manipulation.
June 9, 1996
Q: (L) My question is: is the information we are receiving similar to what Al-‘Arabi calls an “opening”?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You say that you are unified thought forms in the realm of knowledge.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Al-‘Arabi describes unified thought forms as being the “names of God”. His explication seems to be so identical to things you tell us that I wonder…
A: We are all the names of God. Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance.
Q: (L) What do you mean? Does this mean that we are a part of this?
A: Yes. Don’t deify us. And, be sure all others with which you communicate understand this too!
Q: (L) What quality in us, what thing, enabled us to make contact. Because, obviously a lot of people try and get garbage.
A: You asked.
Q: (L) A lot of people ask!
A: No they don’t, they command.
Q: (L) Well, a lot of people do ask or beg or plead, but they get all discombobulated with the answers.
A: No, they command. Think about it. You did not beg or plead… that is commanding.
That “begging and pleading” or maneuvers designed to evoke pity are “commanding” is made a bit more clear in the following from the Cassiopaeans:
August 5, 1995
A: Remember, for quite some period of time now, as you measure time, we have tried to inform you to the effect that your third density environment has been completely controlled and will be controlled by forces that seek only to serve themselves for a period, as you would measure time, exceeding 309,000 years.
And, many, many times in your current life existence, you have reflected upon the questions involving the beneficial or otherwise existence of individuals or an individual IN this environment, the pros and cons of continuing such existence, and what is involved with it. And, you have correctly perceived the conclusion that this is, primarily, a negative experience.
But, not that good things do not come from a negative experience, but that the basic indicator that it is a negative experience, should also indicate to you that it is an experience related to a chain of command involving Service to Self. And, therefore, Service to Self is a manipulative action rather than an openly beneficial action. It is a withdrawing and taking motion rather than an expanding motion. And these statements can answer for you, not only simple questions, but the very nature of your existence to begin with as well.
Q: (L) This leads to a couple of our other questions. What are the criteria to be a fourth density candidate?
A: There are no criteria. A criterion implies a judgment system, which implies that an individual or individuals are watching over the progress of other individuals. It is merely part of the natural process of learning, which you are in total control of from beginning to end, in one sense.
In that sense, you choose to be in the environment you are in, which does not indicate any recommendation of the environment by any higher source, or, conversely, any condemnation of the environment by any higher source, but merely the existence of the environment and your choice to exist within it.
Therefore, being a candidate merely means that you have chosen to be a candidate for ANY level of density, be it first, second, etc. It is a choice of the self to continue that learning pathway.
So we have a clue here: one of the indicators that something is of an STS orientation is the presence or evidence of a Chain of Command!
Now I would like to bring up the subject of those individuals Ra has designated as Wanderers. Ra describes them as follows:
When a [soul] has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is Service to Others [in the form of] reaching their hand [figuratively speaking] to any entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of Sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this way.
…The number [of Wanderers incarnated on Earth at this time] due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest… approaches sixty-five million… The largest number of Wanderers… are of the sixth density.
The desire to serve must be [of] a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert (the destruction).
…Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation that is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and [physical] ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them.
…The energies of the Wanderers, your teachers and adepts at this time are all bent upon increasing the harvest. However, there are few to harvest.
The problem seems to be that of “waking up” to the nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues:
Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.
So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”
The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO — since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:
Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a planetary entity.
Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers, are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary thought!
What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”, they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!
And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!
So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as to what is going on? Just who are the Good Guys here?!
[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-called “Close Encounters” and meetings…
Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.
Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your “weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density beings:
The calling of a group of people whose square overcame the integrated resistance of those unwilling to search or learn…
If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the Law of Free Will.
The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.
By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice according to the law of Free Will!
Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot abridge them!
Thus, in order to penetrate this “veil of forgetting”, extreme effort is required in a mathematical ratio. A consistent “call” by a group, must go out. And the energy required to penetrate the veil must be built up over a period of time in order to meet this requirement. This principle is expressed in two of the purported sayings of Jesus: “Wherever two or more are gathered in my name…” and you must “ask and keep on asking, knock and keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you.”
So, just by thinking about this very simple Law of Free Will and its implications, we come to an understanding that the likelihood of the many “sources” of information that purport to have “serendipitously” contacted this or that channel who was just humming along one day and — ZAP! — along came Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are very likely victims of the deception — possibly even Wanderers being “neutralized” by STS forces, or simply those who are “agents” of the STS forces, including those programmed a la Greenbaum.
Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of “attack”?
But, apparently all is not lost! Those Wanderers who have struggled and worked or survived the attack/lessons to the point that something inside them is ready can awaken via subtle “contacts” or inner urgings:
The feeling of being awakened or activated is the goal of this type of contact… The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.
So we are given to understand that such “wake up” experiences can be varied. Considering the deceptions and manipulations of the Orion STS that have already been described, we also must consider that there will be many efforts to block, obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings. Again, only knowledge can give us the tools with which to discriminate. Again Ra brings up a special class of attack that can occur to those who are on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it:
Wanderers do have “Close Encounters” with Orion STS, though it is rare. [Such] occurs either due to the Orion entities’ lack of perception of the depth of positivity to be encountered or due to the Orion entities’ desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this positivity from this plane of existence. …A mistaken Orion STS contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak havoc with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the entity mistakenly contacted.
This occurrence is almost unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group prefers to make physical contact only with the weaker-minded entity… The most typical approach of Orion entities is to choose what you might call the weaker minded entity that it might suggest a greater amount of Orion STS philosophy to be disseminated.
So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents are used to manipulate and control them. If they cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds. While I would never claim to be one of these “Wanderers”, even if the profile does fit (since I am not inclined to “true believership” in anything), there was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this occurs:
May 3, 1997
Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?
A: Vector means focuser of direction.
Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such “agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?
A: Precisely.
Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]
Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.
Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?
A: What do you think?
Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.
A: Or, at least not the important things.
Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?
A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.
Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?
A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]
Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?
A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.
Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?
A: 4th density STS.
Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?
A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them! […]
Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.
Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.
Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.
When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?
Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.
A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.
Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends — virtually anybody — nobody is exempt.
A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.
One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial. Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.
But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to “turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!
Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program. Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather clever way around this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.
This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie agents! And the game begins!
Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.
The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off.4 The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game.
What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a person similar to themselves!
Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.
Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.
April 15, 1995
Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?
A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?
A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.
Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?
A: All and other. Networking of information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with”. Suicidal thoughts?
Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and that’s all we need to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?
A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means! Remember, all there is is lessons. Daily prayer helps.
Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.
With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level. Ra exemplifies this in a curious series of comments:
For many of your centuries, both the [STO group] and the [STS group] busied themselves with each other upon planes above your own, shall we say, planes in time/space whereby machinations were conceived and the armor of light girded. Battles have been and are continuing to be fought upon these levels.
…Picture [your mind] in total unity with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.
…In this endeavor the [STS group] charges or attacks the [STO group] armed with light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.
…[To explain “failure to accept that which is given”]: At the level of time/space which this takes place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.
…This, however, being a battle of equals, the [STO group] is aware that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say. It is thus that those who deal with this thought war must be defensive rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully what the [STS group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.
…The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the energies available to this planet so that these energies have less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening the chances of planetary annihilation.
So we see here a guiding principle of balance. For those who believe that it is Love to “accept enslavement” — which is to respond to manipulation and thereby serve the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no longer “purely positive”! By accepting the manipulations, they become part of the other side!
The bottom line here is this: if you are duped or sucked into the illusions of the machinations of STS, you are effectively “one of them”, no matter what your intentions, and you thus further contribute to the unbalanced energies. This neutralizes the true nature of Service to Others.
Getting back to our story now, we remember that I was beginning to wonder if human beings live on more than one level and our conscious level of existence was sort of “mini-drama” that caricatured the real action at some other level of existence. We continued to probe for answers.
The very next session, at that point, was almost entirely taken up by Candy’s personal concerns with her divorce proceedings and how best to maneuver financially since she was sure her soon-to-be ex-husband was stashing money in offshore accounts. But, even these personal issues of hers brought out some interesting information about the attack/lesson syndrome.
Candy was certain that aliens were manipulating her life (with a tendency to think that it was for her benefit, and who is to say that it ultimately wasn’t?), and her questions pushed those issues. I will include only the parts of the session that are useful to our subject here:
August 8, 1994
Q: (L) Is this situation involving [Candy’s divorce] engineered or caused by the aliens?
A: Not entirely.
Q: (L) Did aliens do anything to create emotional turmoil here?
A: They always do.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to help this situation?
A: All is learning. […]
Q: (L) Why has [Candy’s husband] gotten himself into this situation with the accident, the divorce and everything else?
A: Karmic lessons for him. And you think about it Candy. Did you not value moneymen too much once before? Remember your first husband, where did love of money lead him? [Candy’s first husband was involved with the “Mob” and was murdered in jail leaving her a rich widow at a very young age. Candy was very indignant at this remark.]
Q: (C) I married for love! It wasn’t very pleasant to have your husband die at that age and I sure had a struggle after he died.
A: Lesson is for Candy. Karmic destiny.
Q: (L) Is this because she may have loved money too much in another life?
A: Extending into this one.
[Candy was actually reluctant to address questions directly to the Cassiopaeans and would whisper to me what she wanted to know and I was obliged to ask for her.]
Q: (L) Candy thinks she has learned this lesson by now.
A: Not yet.
Q: (L) Candy wants to know what she can do to end this pattern and stop these awful things from happening in her life?
A: Up to you. Stop loving money so much.
[Candy kept insisting that what the Cassiopaeans were saying about this was not true.]
A: It is subconscious. And what about the first time?
Q: (L) She insists that she married for love.
A: Thought you did.
Q: (L) But what about her present husband? He didn’t have money when she married him like the first one did.
A: [Candy’s husband] was recognizably money oriented. You knew this subconsciously. [Candy used her money to set her second husband up as a stockbroker. He did very well until he became involved with fast cars, faster women, and drugs. These things were the crux of the divorce battle.]
Q: (L) Well, if all this is subconscious, what can she do about it?
A: Learn to change. Candy must come out about her previous relationships. She must open up and be honest with herself and others to begin to clear the karma. She must soul search. Come to your senses. Find that out yourself.
Q: (L) We don’t understand what you mean that Candy must come to her senses.
A: It is complicated. All is part of lesson.
[At this point I brought up the subject of the “hot shot” UFO investigator that Candy was dallying with since her husband had moved out.]
Q: (L) Well, I have warned her about MF. I think she is playing with fire there.
A: Of course. MF thinks any woman will come under his spell.
Q: (L) Is he trying to manipulate Candy as I suspect?
A: What do you think? It’s working.
[Candy was, of course, getting more and more irate with the way this discussion was going.]
Q: (L) Well, Candy thinks she can handle the situation and there is a lot she thinks she can learn from MF.
A: He is not telling the truth.
Q: (C) But he seems to have so much knowledge. He says he can help me!
A: That is part of the spell. He knows how to visualize. Powerful man.
Q: (L) Well, is this power something he gets from attachments or alien help?
A: Both.
Candy continued to insist that what the Cassiopaeans were saying about her marriage, her affair, and her attitudes in general were not correct. It was pretty much at this point that she made the decision to believe her UFO investigator paramour against what the Cassiopaeans were telling her and against my advice that she ought to check his background and use reason and not emotion to make her choices. The bottom line was that she was being told that she needed to do some real work to clean out her subconscious, face her issues, and overcome her “programming” in order to bring her attacks/lessons to an end. She chose not to do so. And shortly thereafter, the incident of the Candidiasis of my daughter occurred and I terminated contact.
Frank and I continued to pursue some of the attack issues of our own in between the many universal type questions and my passion for historical subjects. One night, we had been asking a series of questions about Jesus and I had read earlier, when preparing the questions, that there was an incident in the Bible where Jesus is depicted as blowing on his disciples to “transmit the Holy Ghost” to them. Since this blowing is part of the Reiki initiations, I had the idea that Reiki was connected to the healing miracles of Jesus which the Cassiopaeans said were real events, even if the person they identified as being “Jesus of Nazareth” was someone quite different from the usual tradition or even some of the modified traditions.
September 30, 1994
Q: (L) Was [Jesus] able to literally heal with the touch of his hand?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is Reiki the method he used to heal, or something similar?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there any way to enhance the Reiki energy to make it powerful enough that one could do in a very short time what now takes quite a while?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What can one do to enhance the Reiki energy?
A: Attain lofty spiritual purity.
Q: (L) I have here two sets of Reiki symbols; which set is the correct or most powerful set: the first set or the second? [Holds up two sets of symbols.]
A: The second set.
Q: (L) It says here that the ones you have identified are the Usui Traditional symbols. Are these the original Reiki symbols as given to Dr. Usui?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Are the Reiki symbols in the possession of [the Reiki Master in Tampa] the correct symbols?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are the symbols that Louise is using correct?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is Louise able to transmit the initiation in a full and powerful way as she claims?
A: No. V*** has strongest ability.
[This was an of off-the-wall comment about one of the other Reiki students of Louise. It sort of surprised me.]
Q: (L) Does this mean that V*** has the strongest Reiki ability of us all?
A: Yes. Candy has no ability. Crosses yours out.
Q: (L) Are you saying that Candy has been giving me Reiki that has canceled my own Reiki out?
A: Precisely.
Q: (L) Is there someone I could go to for the correct initiation?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do I know that person?
A: No.
Q: (L) Whom do I know that may know that person?
A: H*** D***.
That was pretty upsetting, to say the least! Not only to know that I had taken my Second Level attunements from a Reiki Master who had no ability to transmit them, but also that there was the possibility that the corrupted form of Reiki could cancel out the beneficial Reiki! What’s more, the person named as knowing someone who did have the proper Reiki lineage was so unlikely that I was completely incredulous! HD was an elderly psychic reader down in St. Petersburg who was a friend of a friend of mine and I had only been to see her once out of curiosity. She had made something of an impression on me because of her ranting against Reiki as being a completely useless “New Age Scam” because she believed that anybody who had “the gift” could heal without paying big bucks to somebody to do “hocus pocus” on them. So having the Cassiopaeans specify her in particular as a path to the “right” Reiki initiation was bizarre in the extreme!
But, the whole point of all this “testing” was to see if the Cassiopaeans really “had a clue” about anything, so I called HD the next day, feeling completely stupid, to inquire if she, by some miracle, knew a Reiki Master.
Her reply was funny. She said, “Well, you know I don’t put any stock in all that nonsense — waste of money if you ask me! — But, yes, I do know a couple of gals who swear by it. They are both Reiki Masters, so let me look up their numbers and call you back.”
A little bit later she called me back with one name, SB. The second Reiki Master had moved away, so it ended up that she only had a connection to one. I took down the name and number and called to see what I could find out.
As it turned out, the Cassiopaeans were right! This lady had the same lineage as the Reiki Master who had given me my First Level initiation, with only one added “descendant” between her and Takata. And, she also had the same material passed to this line from Takata and knew my original Reiki Master. She knew the same stories and inside information that is held by this lineage, and so on. So, the Cassiopaeans had a “hit”. I made arrangements with her to retake the Second Level attunements to correct the damage done by Louise, in her ignorance, and a year later I took the Master Level attunements from SB. I can guarantee that when she did the job, the sweat broke out again, and my “Reiki heater” was turned back on! What’s more, we had still another set of Reiki symbols, different from the previous three I had seen. I presented them to the Cassiopaeans:
November 19, 1994
Q: (L) Now, we went to the recommended person to take the Reiki initiation, do we now, at this point in time, have the true Reiki initiation?
A: Getting there. Must allow energy to solidify. Do you understand the concept of imprinting?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Then you know.
Q: (L) Practicing Reiki is the thing that will solidify the force?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Are there symbols for Reiki that are even older and stronger than the ones we have been given?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are the original symbols in Sanskrit?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where are we going to find them?
A: You are not.
Q: (L) And the Reiki Symbols we learned from SB are the closest we can get?
A: Yes. Good enough.
Later, a funny incident occurred in which I was made aware of the potential for the Cassiopaeans to “draw” things if there were a pencil attached to the planchette. I had made a statement that I “understood” something and they responded:
December 3, 1994
A: You do??? [Inscribed giant question mark on board.]
Q: (L) Do what?
A: You said you understood concept. Really? Learn.
Q: (L) Well, since you guys can do that, why can’t you teach us power symbols that will enhance our Reiki?
A: You are not ready.
Q: (L) But if we work on the Reiki will you teach us more power symbols?
A: Okay, we’ll give you one. [Pencil is attached to planchette that draws symbol.]
Q: (L) What is this symbol called?
A: Anuki. Pronounced: AH — NEW — KEY.
Q: (V) And, as it applies to Reiki, what does it do? What does it represent?
A: Retention of energy at location most in need. All Reiki you have as yet learned involves passage of healing energy, this one involves prolonged retention for strengthened power, thus results.
Q: (L) Where are you getting this?
A: Access is Universal.
Q: (L) Did Dr. Usui also receive this and then not remember it? I mean, the story is that he received a lot of symbols, but as far as I know, there are only half a dozen or so being passed down in the teachings.
A: Usui did not reveal all to Takata.
Q: (L) Why?
A: He was told that the knowledge was priceless and must not be wasted by too much dissemination particularly to those who do not have the burning desire for truth. Those who did, as you do, would find some way of accessing knowledge.
It was not lost on me how similar to some crop circles the Reiki symbols are, so I brought this up:
Q: (L) Is it true that crop circles are a kind of grand Reiki being given to the planet?
A: But also messages and lessons.
Q: (L) Well, could it also be said that Reiki symbols as applied to the body are etheric messages to the etheric body?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they communicate information into our field, so to speak?
A: Everything that exists at all levels is just lessons.
Q: (L) Well, in the case of Reiki, what I specifically want to know is if, say an individual is psychically, spiritually, karmically, or otherwise wounded or discombobulated, does the application of Reiki symbols give messages to the electromagnetic field to re-form or rearrange the pattern in the perfect pattern intended?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And can repeated application of this, can not only physical things, but also etheric things, be healed? That is karma and so forth?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So that our continual use of Reiki and application to each other and ourselves literally would cleanse us from our karmic burdens, memories or scars of the soul?
A: Yes.
No wonder Reiki fell under corruption almost at its inception in this country!
4 Cf. Eve Lorgen, The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships (Bonsall, CA: ELogos & HHC Press, 2001).
Now, aside from the bizarre way in which it was depicted (i.e., being raped by a Reptoid) this “changing the program” was something I had heard before. To be more specific, in one of Candy’s numerous sessions focused on regression to the time of purported alien abductions, such a remark was made, though the description of the event was quite different. It almost seemed that this “changing of the program” was a direct response to the interaction of these individuals with yours truly!
I presented Candy’s case in High Strangeness, and in case the reader does not have a copy to refer to, here’s what I wrote about her:
The subject was about 35 years old; the wife of a stockbroker, owner of her own jewelry business, and mother to two girls. She had been born and raised in Colorado in a Mormon family, but had left at an early age and traveled to California to stay with a brother who worked in a jewelry store. There, she also obtained employment in the same business and ended up marrying the owner who subsequently died leaving her with a medium child and a large inheritance.
She moved with her second husband, the stockbroker, her child from her first marriage, and a new baby to Florida. The object was to get away from the unhappy memories of the loss of her first husband and start a new life. The jewelry business she left in the care of her brother in California.
After her youngest child started school, the subject, (and we can call her Candy, though that is not her real name), became bored and decided to go to work for the large brokerage that employed her husband. She took an administrative position and settled into her corporate role with ease, being very intelligent, charming and attractive.
At the same time, she began to attend a Metaphysical/Spiritualist church, probably more out of curiosity than anything else, but soon became deeply involved in the spiritualist beliefs and practices. At this point, strange things began to happen, though she claimed that strange things had happened to her all her life, she just had managed to suppress most of it.
The first thing was that she kept encountering a man in the building where she worked. He was employed by a firm on a different floor, so she only saw him in the elevators, the parking lot, and the local eateries. But, every time she did encounter him, she was conscious of a strange electricity between them and it was not long before they were exchanging brief pleasantries.
One night when she was leaving the building, her husband being away on company business, she encountered the man and engaged in a short, casual conversation. That would have been that except for the fact that he walked her to her car and she discovered that her keys were locked inside. The man “rescued” her by spending an hour or more getting the door open, and then suggested that they needed to have a drink to celebrate success. Not having to go home right away, and feeling gratitude for such kindness, Candy agreed to go next door to a pub for a beer before going home.
At the pub they met another of Candy’s co-workers, and this lady joined them. At the table, over their glasses of beer, the subject turned to metaphysical things, and then to Indian shamanic beliefs. The man said he knew where there was a local Indian mound (there are a number of them in this area) and that it was a place of great power. He offered to show both ladies where it was. Feeling secure with a lady companion, Candy wanted to see this Indian mound, and they all went together in the man’s car. It was late and past dark, and when they arrived at the location, a swampy, wooded area on the Gulf of Mexico, they all got out and proceeded to hike through the underbrush to the purported Indian mound.
At some point, the second woman was left behind and lost and something happened to frighten Candy, but afterward she couldn’t say what it was, only that she was very confused and demanded to be taken home. The man cheerfully obliged, they located her friend wandering in the bushes, and he took them back to their cars and off they went home. The only problem was, when Candy got home, it was almost midnight. She had “lost” over three hours.
At that point her life began to fall apart. She was suddenly so emotional and upset all the time that she couldn’t stay on an even keel from one minute to the next. She became obsessed with the man in the building, and believed that he was her “soulmate” one minute, and that he was a government spy the next. She felt that somehow she must find ways to be with him. At the same time, her husband was in an auto accident with another woman in the car and her marriage began to disintegrate. The series of events becomes very complicated, and is not relevant to our present subject, but it was at this point that I met her [at a Reiki gathering.]
Now, having some idea of Candy’s background, let me explain the circumstances behind the following hypnosis session. This will only touch on certain aspects of the case because it was a long and complicated situation.
The obsession, or “Love Bite” situation, with the man who worked in the office building where Candy’s husband was employed, and where she also had a position, was so out of control that Candy was desperate to find out the source of the almost insane fascination she had with this man.
Candy knew she was behaving in a crazy way. She also knew that the constant fantasies, urges to seek him out under any pretext, to follow him or call him repeatedly on the phone were absolutely out of character for her. The explanation that she came up with was that it was destiny for her to be with him and that could be the only reason for this intense, internal drive she was struggling against. She was sure she knew him deeply, and even though she actually had very little interaction with him, she ascribed almost mystical significance to every word they did exchange. Every glance from his eyes was full of fire and cosmic power. Never mind that most of this occurred in the elevator or the halls or parking lot of the office building. She was certain that there was impossibly deep communication in every instant their eyes made contact!
I listened to her talk about it endlessly, thinking it would eventually run out and she would see how irrational it was, but that didn’t happen. She insisted that the proof of the destined nature of their inevitable union would be found under hypnosis. I privately thought that, if nothing else, it might cure her of the obsession; so I agreed.
After the first incident when this man had taken Candy and her friend out to look for the Indian mound, she had maneuvered to run into him again. They met at a local pub, including her friend, “Eileen”, who was Candy’s source for info at the office. They ended up going for a ride to the woods — another act that was just totally out of character for all of them — and Candy was certain that something significant had happened there because, again, she had “missing time”.
All she remembered was driving out in a wooded area to look for a swimming hole that one of them had heard of, but when they got there, they found nothing and immediately turned around and left. But a lot more time had passed than would have been required to just drive out there, turn around, and come back. The strange thing about this event was that Candy cried almost constantly for two days after this “drive in the woods”, and could not explain to me or anybody why she was crying. All she knew was that she had a “great longing and sadness” for this man who was the object of her unrequited love.
We are going to skip over all the induction process, the setting up of the working environment, and just go right to the first question (and we are going to call this guy Bill).
Q: Now, what is the point in space-time, in this life, that you first met Bill? Where are you and what do you see?
A: I see him walking up the steps at [the brokerage].
Q: Okay. And this is the first involvement, the first meeting between you and Bill in this life?
A: Mmm. It’s almost like I see two children playing together.
Q: Is that in this life or another? Physical or spiritual?
A: Mmm. I think it’s this life.
Q: Is there anything else you can give on that?
A: Um… [Long pause.]
Q: Tell me what you see, what you feel.
A: It’s almost like we’re together in a room.
Q: What kind of room?
A: Kind of like a square silvery room.
Q: And what are you doing in the square, silvery room?
A: We’re playing.
Q: What are you playing?
A: Games.
Q: You are children?
A: Um-hmm. [This answer had a “childish” lilt to the voice.]
Q: Where is this square, silvery room?
A: Umm… [Sigh.] It’s umm… They came and got us.
Q: Who came and got you?
A: I see the, um, they’re little white… They kind of look like children. And they play with us. They make us happy. It’s like they know when we’re sad and they’re here… They’re like playmates.
Q: How old are you?
A: I think I’m like three or four.
Q: All right, take a real deep breath. I’m going to count to three and on the count of three you are going to be at that point in space-time sometime in the first part of May in this year, when you ran into or met Bill and Eileen at a place called the Player’s bar and went for a ride in the woods. Go to the point in space-time when you arrive in the woods and you will be able to easily describe what occurred at that time. On the count of three. [Countdown.] What do you see and what happens?
A: Umm. You know, that’s funny! I don’t remember getting out of the truck! I see us getting out of the truck. For some reason… I see the lights of the truck on. I see something over the top of the truck. I see a flash of light. I see us getting out of the truck. I see us walking in the woods.
Q: Where are you going in the woods?
A: I don’t want to go in there. Umm. [Pause.] I see almost like I’m fighting, like fighting going or something. I’m afraid…
Q: Take a deep breath, let’s go deeper. Begin to describe what happened. You said you are fighting and resisting…
A: Um-hmm.
Q: What are you fighting? Who are you fighting?
A: No, I don’t… I… It’s like I’m… Nobody’s around me but we’re all three like walking into the woods. I’m afraid… I don’t want to go… There’s like a fear somewhere… It’s like I know there’s something there…
Q: Okay, what happens next?
A: It’s like I fall… I’m asleep.
Q: Okay, well the subconscious mind continues to record even when you are asleep. What happens next?
A: I’m being carried.
Q: By who or what?
A: Umm. [Pause.] I see this large hairy thing with huge hands…
Q: Okay. Where is it taking you?
A: It’s taking us to a place. [Pause.] I don’t know how we get there. [Pause.] I don’t know how we get there, but I see this place, and I see… What I see is a cave-like thing but I see at the top of the cave are these yellow lights…
Q: Yellow lights?
A: Big yellow lights. [Pause.] It’s almost like, um, not bright lights… Like covered yellow lights… Like, huge… As big as, um… like medium swimming pools… They’re big. [Pause.] And they are up in the ceiling… And they’re yellow.
Q: Up in the ceiling and they’re yellow?
A: Yeah, they’re in the cave. [Pause.] Boy! This is a strange place!
Q: Okay. Describe everything. What do you see?
A: Um, I’m just going to tell you what I see… This is strange. I see a cart… Almost like a little golf cart…
Q: What is the cart doing?
A: Umm. I see it there… I almost see us, umm… This is like a conveyor belt type thing. It’s almost like we’re put on a silver disk, or like a silver stretcher-type thing…
Q: What happens next and what do you see around you?
A: Umm. I see myself on a table…
Q: Where is Bill and where is Eileen? [Subject shows signs of distress.] What’s the matter?
A: I see this face I don’t like.
Q: What face don’t you like?
A: Umm…
Q: Describe the face.
A: Let me see it… Can’t see it… It flashed and then I can’t see it…
Q: All right, lets back up. On the count of three whatever is preventing you from seeing that face will fall away and crumble, and you will see it clearly and photograph it the instant that it appears, with your mind, so that you can describe it in every detail. On the count of three. [Countdown.]
A: It switched… It changed… One face came in and then another face came in and I can’t see it…
Q: What feeling do you get from those faces?
A: I don’t like them… They are angry.
Q: Why are they angry?
A: Cause somebody’s snooping around.
Q: Who’s snooping around?
A: They’re mad about the hypnosis.
Q: Which hypnosis?
A: The ones you did.
Q: Okay. What do they propose to do about it? How did they find out about it?
A: They know everything.
Q: Okay. What do they propose to do about it?
A: Change things.
Q: What are they going to change and how?
A: It’s almost like I’m hearing them say that, um, change the programming.
Q: Whose programming are they going to change?
A: I guess, mine.
Q: What else can you tell from what they are saying?
A: Um, it’s almost like they’ve got to Bill. Umm… They feel like they’re safe with Eileen because she’d never believe anything like that.
Q: And what about you?
A: Umm. [Sigh.] I hear, “She’s so damn curious!” They are saying: “Too intense, too fast. Knew something like this was gonna happen,” then I hear them say that they’re behind schedule…running out of time…
Q: Can you tell what they are behind schedule for and what they are running out of time for?
A: Umm. It’s funny, I hear them saying that the cleansing time is almost here… Something like that…
Q: Why do they object to the hypnosis? Do they not want you to know what is going on?
A: Umm. They just don’t want me to be hurt.
Q: So, you sense that there is concern for you?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: Why don’t you like them?
A: They scare me.
Q: Why do they scare you?
A: Umm. [Distress.]
Q: What do you see?
A: It’s almost like they’re pinching me.
Q: Where are they pinching you?
A: My arm.
Q: What are they doing to your arm?
A: Like they are running a tube up my arm… Like at the crease of my arm they’re running a tube… Into my arm.
Q: All right, now what are they doing?
A: I don’t know what the hell they’re doing with my arm. Umm, what was that?
Q: What was it?
A: I see a flash…
Q: And then what?
A: I don’t know, it’s really hard to see.
Q: What color flash? Just a flash of light?
A: Like a green light or something.
Q: Now what? What do you feel? What do you sense?
A: I feel like they’re putting stuff in my veins.
Q: And what is this stuff doing to you?
A: Changing me.
Q: How is it changing you?
A: I don’t know… It’s funny… It’s almost like they’re putting something in my blood. Umm, I’m hearing “ignite the flame.” I don’t know what that means. Umm… It’s almost like… putting receivers on a stereo and then all of a sudden turning the stereo on… Like speakers of a stereo… It’s like you spent all this time putting all these speakers all over and then you turn the stereo on, and it’s almost like, I see when you turn the stereo on I see the energy go to the receivers to make the music.
Q: How many people on this planet have these speakers?
A: Umm. [Pause.] Lot of ’em.
Q: How many times have you been abducted?
A: I think this is absolutely ridiculous but I’m going to say it anyway. They are saying a few hundred.
Q: Okay, have these abductions all been in the body or out of the body?
A: I’m hearing they’re making adjustments all the time.
Q: Did they come because you called for them?
A: No.
Q: [Inaudible.]
A: Umm, I don’t know. I see all these lights in front of me.
Q: What are the lights doing?
A: Circling around… Like I’m seeing different colors spiraling… Purple… Yellow… Making me tired.
Q: Makes you tired. Take a deep breath.
A: My body’s hot.
Q: Okay, let’s go back to your event in the woods; you’re in the cave; you’re on the table; you saw the face; they’re putting something in your veins; they are changing the project; what happens next…
A: Hold on. [Pause.] I feel like there’s… They’re angry…
Q: Why are they angry and who are they angry at?
A: Umm, you know, it’s like they put blocks of fear up, and then I broke through some of those fear blocks that are supposed to keep me from doing things.
Q: And that is why they’re angry?
A: Um-hmm. That I’m strong-willed… I’m… Driven…
Q: Do they see me as an interference?
A: [Laughing.] Yes!
Q: What happens next?
A: [Laughs.] Eileen’s there.
Q: And what is happening to Eileen?
A: I think she’s getting an implant. This is why she hears voices in her head. She thinks it’s Tom, then she thinks it’s Bill.
Q: What happens next? Go through the experience…
A: I don’t know why I’m seeing this… It’s almost like I see… I almost see a Sasquatch… And it’s like he’s turning over a… My nose itches.
Q: Turning over a what?
A: My nose itches. He’s umm, I don’t know what… (Rubbing nose vigorously.) My nose is itching.
Q: What is happening to your nose?
A: My nose is itching. [Rubbing nose.] I don’t know. [Laughing.] I got hair in my nose!
Q: Whose hair is in your nose? Sasquatch?
A: I guess so. It’s like… Eww. [Laughing.]
Q: What does it smell like?
A: [Rubbing nose and giggling.]
Q: What does Sasquatch smell like?
A: It almost smells like a burnt ammonia smell. [Pause.] God! I’ve got hair everywhere… You know… (Brushing herself all over as though trying to brush hair away.)
Q: Now, is Sasquatch carrying you back to the vehicle?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: Okay, now you are back in the vehicle and you are going home…
A: Oh, we, uh… Stopped… I had to go to the bathroom. [Pause.] They turned up my hearing.
Q: They turned up your hearing?
A: Um-hmm. I can hear Eileen talking to Bill inside of the truck and I’m outside…
Q: What’s she saying?
A: She was telling him that… that… It’s like he got upset with her… or he was running away from her… and she said, I just wanted to be friends, I didn’t want… I just wanted to be there… I guess he’s like… You know… She’s chasing him… You know…
Q: Take a deep breath. Move forward to the point in space-time when you became overwhelmed with grief and sadness. Why did this incident cause you such sadness?
A: [Sighs.]
Q: You cried for two days after this event. What made you cry?
A: [Sighing in distress.] There is something really wrong… I don’t know.
Q: Take a deep breath… [Countdown. Suggestions. End of session.]
At this point in time, Candy’s interest in Bill pretty much just turned off. She became obsessed with MF, the “UFO investigator” mentioned in the previous section. I could see that, under the guise of “therapy”, he was pursuing a physical relationship, and she began to behave completely erratically. One clue to this new obsession was that she more or less abandoned her children. On several occasions, the little one called me and asked if her mother was at my house because she had barely been at home for days and there was no food in the house.
I could see and sense that there was this huge, overwhelming, sex thing going on between Candy and MF! (And, we have to remember that he was one of the ones the Cassiopaeans had designated as being a sort of “unconscious mole”.)
Soon after the above session, Candy called me in a state of complete hysteria. The previous night she had gone to dinner with MF. That night, after coming home from this date and going to bed in the normal way, she had a dream about some men coming in her house. She then said that she woke up in the morning feeling drugged and that her legs were sore behind the knees. When she looked, she saw that there were bruises on her legs. And, more than that, they were bruises that showed the clear imprint of a four-fingered hand on the back of each leg!
I had previously suggested to her that we talk to my Private Investigator friend, and now she was pretty desperate to get a handle on all of the things that had been happening. So, we met with the PI.
After listening to the whole story and examining the bruises, the PI said that, in his opinion, the proper way to approach the matter was to treat it as a “crime”, and look for some material evidence. During his questioning, Candy remembered the dress from the first “abduction” that was possibly still on the floor in her closet. The PI privately told me those bruises such as were on Candy’s legs could be “manufactured” by a hysterical woman wanting attention, but it would be hard. He was as puzzled as I was as to what might be the explanation of bruises that clearly depicted a hand that was not human. He was also interested in getting some hard evidence and wanted to be present at the next hypnosis session so as to determine what direction to go with a real investigation. Candy agreed. She wanted it right away and, for some reason, didn’t want MF, the hotshot UFO investigator there! Clearly she was at some level aware that her interactions with him might have had something to do with this latest incident. And, we were both feeling some relief that a professional was taking the whole thing seriously and was willing to devote time, talent and resources to the cause of getting to the bottom of this.
Regarding the dress that Candy thought was still in the closet (never having been sent to the cleaners), the PI was going to try to make arrangements to send it to a forensics lab as possible evidence of a rape. He wasn’t going to mention anything about “aliens” but would leave it to the lab to do the standard work that would be done when trying to gather evidence to identify such an attacker — including such things as DNA profiling. She agreed to pick it up carefully and place it in a zipper bag and deliver it to me and I would convey it to him.
We then scheduled the session for that evening.
Q: Okay, take a deep breath. I want you to just move to that point in space-time, specifically the night before last, and I want you to see yourself just as you are getting ready to go to bed. Tell me what you are doing. You went out to dinner, came home and are getting ready for bed. What happens?
A: I have a terrible headache.
Q: Okay. What happens next?
A: I go to sleep.
Q: You are sleeping. What happens?
A: I see these men.
Q: Where are they? Are they in your room?
A: No. [Distress.]
Q: Back up, you are sleeping, what happens? Do you hear something, see something, have a dream?
A: I don’t know how this is possible but I see men in army fatigues… They’re… They twisted me or something. My back hurts…
Q: Where did they come from? Is this a dream? When did you first become aware of them?
A: [Distress.] I see myself in a truck or something?
Q: How did you get in this truck?
A: [Distress and inability to answer.]
Q: Take a real deep breath and let’s go back to when you were sleeping. You are sleeping in your bed. When do you first become aware that something is different? Even while you are sleeping your subconscious is recording everything happening around you. What does your subconscious see and record?
A: I am just going to tell you what I see and I don’t know where this is coming from. I see men coming into the house.
Q: How do they get into the house?
A: Through the back door.
Q: Through the back door from the pool?
A: Um-hmm! They just come right in my house go right in my bedroom, grab me, take me right out…
Q: Why doesn’t it wake you up?
A: I don’t know.
Q: You had the headache before you went to bed…
A: Um-hmm.
Q: Okay, they grab you, they take you out and then what do they do?
A: Umm…
Q: How many of them are there?
A: Two, but they are not nice people.
Q: Are they saying anything while they are grabbing you and taking you out?
A: Uh-uh.
Q: Which door do they take you out, the front door or the back door?
A: The back door.
Q: Where do they take you from the back door? Which way do they walk?
A: It’s right outside… This is weird. I wanted to say we got in a black helicopter but it isn’t a helicopter.
Q: What is it? You went right out the back. Which way did you go, right or left?
A: Left, out by the lake.
Q: Okay.
A: They just loaded me on a…
Q: On a what?
A: I want to say a spaceship.
Q: A spaceship? What shape is the spaceship? Where is the spaceship parked?
A: It’s kind of hovering above the ground, above the lake. It’s real quiet.
Q: What shape is it? What color is it?
A: It’s round, I can’t see it… [Sigh.]
Q: Do they load you on there physically?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: Do they climb in after you or is there somebody already in there?
A: They’re in there but my head hurts and my leg hurts.
Q: Are they saying anything?
A: My ears hurt. I feel sick.
Q: Why does your head hurt, your ears hurt and your leg hurt?
A: I don’t know, I just don’t feel very good.
Q: Do you feel sick?
A: I don’t know. I just don’t feel very good at all.
Q: Okay, now what’s happening.
A: I don’t know. I just don’t feel very good.
Q: Go with it. Take a deep breath. Take four or five deep breaths. Are you feeling better?
A: No, my body hurts.
Q: Why does your body hurt?
A: I don’t know. My back hurts… They hurt my back.
Q: Did they do something to your back?
A: I don’t know. [Distress.]
Q: Okay, what’s happening now? Are they saying anything?
A: I’m at a table… They’re talking to me.
Q: What are they saying to you?
A: They are asking me questions.
Q: What are the questions? When they say it repeat it to me.
A: (Sigh, distress.) What have you been doing?
Q: What else are they asking?
A: I don’t know. My head hurts.
Q: What did you tell them when they ask you what have you been doing? Are you giving them answers without your conscious control?
A: Yeah, it’s almost… I am just in a lot of pain now.
Q: What is causing the pain?
A: I don’t know.
Q: What else are they doing, just asking you questions?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: What kind of questions?
A: I don’t know. My head hurts.
Q: Take a deep breath and you won’t feel any pain. What kinds of questions are they asking you? Did they do anything to you before they started asking questions?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: What did they do?
A: I don’t know, this is going to sound really weird. It is almost like they have their own implants in…
Q: Okay. What kind of questions are they asking you?
A: They are showing me a map and they want me to point to things and show them…
Q: What do they want you to show them? What kinds of questions are they asking you?
A: They ask me what, where is that base…
Q: What base do they want to know about?
A: It’s a military base.
Q: What else do they ask you?
A: I don’t know… I don’t know… My head hurts.
Q: Is your head hurting right now?
A: Um-hmm. My head hurts and my neck hurts, my whole body hurts.
Q: Okay, what happens next?
A: I’m tired. I don’t like this. I’m hurting. [Extreme distress.]
Q: Are they hurting you deliberately?
A: Yeah, my whole body is in pain right now. I got to stop this. My head is killing me…
Q: Let’s move forward… [Suggestions, end of session.]
The curious thing to me was that this pain response was exactly what had happened with Pat, my first abduction case, the night of the Black Boomerang sightings over the three county area. Whenever I tried to get to the actual event of what happened that night, she began to experience so much pain that it became clear that, in spite of suggestions for comfort, I should not continue.
It was about a week after this session that Candy came and demanded the dress back because MF told her that he could get it analyzed by a real scientist who was sympathetic to the UFO investigations process. He told her that she shouldn’t trust anybody connected to the authorities because if she turned the dress over to them, it would certainly “disappear” and her chances of ever knowing the truth would vanish with it. And, of course, by association, I was implicated as one of those who could not be trusted.
As I mentioned before, it turned out that his “real scientist” was an undergrad chemistry student who worked part-time at the county sewage treatment plant. There was nothing I could do to dissuade her and, by this time, I knew enough about MF to be thoroughly disgusted with the whole thing. It was clear that he was manipulating her and suggesting to her all kinds of negative things about me, and I learned a long time ago that I couldn’t fight liars and manipulators. You have to be one to outmaneuver them.
Shortly after this period, I began to hear rumors. A friend who knew MF called me and told me that he was telling people that I wanted to “get famous” writing a book about Candy’s case — a “classic abduction with evidence” — and I was thus “using” her and her near psychotic state for my own aggrandizement. He, of course, on the other hand, was only trying to “help her get over the trauma” — never mind that he was seeking personal involvement with a person who was traumatized and, therefore, vulnerable.
Needless to say, I was not only shocked by this, I was hurt. It was pretty clear that MF was the one who had an agenda. Maybe he was driven to have a perfect case on which to ride to fame and glory and because that was his drama, he naturally thought it was everyone else’s. On the other hand, maybe his motivations were inspired from some other source and were a lot more sinister.
At this point, another friend had downloaded some info from a UFO Internet Bulletin board where Candy’s case was the hot topic of discussion. In these exchanges between people who I didn’t even know, nor had I ever met them, I was being described as a “fraud” and “incompetent” and “using the poor abducted victim for my own gain.”
No part of the description of the way the investigation was being handled by me was anywhere near accurate and it was obvious that someone was deliberately lying with the intention of defaming me personally, and thus any work I ever did.
The only one who was in a position to distort the facts in this way was MF. He knew enough about what I was doing to know better, unless of course, Candy was telling him things that were not true.
I couldn’t decide which I thought was most likely, but the end result was that I was furious! I learned that the person who had posted the info was the wife of the sewage treatment plant worker claiming to be a “chemist” and “scientist” and “professional analyst”. My friend told me that Candy had taken up with this woman in much the same way she had taken up with me.
Further information came to me from an authoritative source (a onetime director of a MUFON group) that MF, who Candy was now intimately involved with, had a very bad reputation. He had been a part of a large MUFON organization that, based on his claims to knowledge and expertise (having come to Florida from another state), had placed him in a position of trust and authority in their UFO Field Investigations unit. It soon became clear that he “did not work well with others,” and, in fact, brought a great deal of negative publicity and attention to the organization. The MUFON group asked him to resign, but he refused. Having no alternative at that point, the entire group voted to dissolve their organization rather than continue with this man in their midst!
He then attached himself to this couple who were so busily blackening my name in the local Metaphysical/UFO community (without, I must add, having ever met or talked with me!). Not only that, but this same couple were members of the bigger MUFON group in the Clearwater area and later attached themselves to Dr. Santilli as “research assistants”.
At this point in time, it is my thought that Dr. Santilli’s distancing from our work was a direct result of the influence of this medium group of “bad apples”, so to speak. It is true that, (as I have recently learned), two of this group of individuals later became heads of the Clearwater MUFON after two others took over the publication of the MUFON newsletter from Terry and Jan. Since that time, it is said that the organization has pretty much declined in terms of being a moving force or any kind of hub of information or help to others in the area who may have experienced sightings or abductions.
A funny incident did occur at the last UFO conference I attended in Pensacola. Ark and I had attended a lecture by Whitley Strieber where he made a heartfelt and anguished plea to the world of science to bring all their minds and tools to bear on solving the problem of “the Visitors”, as he coyly refers to them.
Well, since Ark is a scientist with a pretty good reputation in international circles, and many publications in the reputable journals, as well as considered to be an expert in Riemannian Geometry and Kaluza-Klein theories, we thought that he just might fit the category of the kind of scientists Whitley was crying for.
So, we stood in a very long line after the lecture to speak to Mr. Strieber and offer help. As we were standing there, I heard a man speaking to someone behind me. He was saying something to the effect that he was a scientist and he really needed to speak to Mr. Strieber privately. I turned around to see who it was, and — yup! You guessed it! It was our Sewage Water Treatment Expert!
Oh well. Of course, as it turned out, Mr. Strieber wasn’t very interested in real science since he brushed us off with the excuse of how urgent it was to sign the books he was selling, and avoided us for the rest of the conference.
So, there it is. It’s nice to make heartfelt appeals when one is at the podium pretending to be really interested in getting the facts of the matter, but when one is actually faced with scientific scrutiny, it seems to be the last thing one wants to have focused on one’s self! Better to have Sewage Water experts in the lab — they are far more qualified to analyze the BS that goes on in the UFO community.
In retrospect, it is clear that the changing of the program Candy was sensing had to do with getting her away from me and my process of combining both intuitive and scientific analysis. The obvious way to do this was to bring in reinforcements, i.e., MF, and his cohorts. It was also not lost on me that, in both cases, the only information channel about me, to both the Metaphysical Church bunch, and this MUFON bunch, was Candy herself.
Whether it was conscious or unconscious I will never know. I only know that every interaction with her resulted in attack/lessons, lies and obfuscation, confusion and back stabbing They were all busily talking about me and what a wicked person I was, but in fact, none of them knew me or had ever talked to me directly. Funny how that works!
And, of course, Candy’s obsession with Bill just sort of died right then. Remember Bill? The “soul mate”? The “Cosmic Destiny” guy? Ooops! That was yesterday! Today we have a new program to run!
Whether Candy’s “abductions” were real, we will never know. Whether her evidence was real, we will never know either. The evidence was so contaminated by all the incompetent hands it passed through and the primitive analysis conditions it was handled under, that no respectable or legitimate analyst would touch it now.
Of course, the question arises: was this whole drama of “changing the program” a direct result of the fact that there was something that could be exposed, learned, or uncovered through Candy?
And what about Lilly? Here we find another person who, shortly after interacting with the Cassiopaeans and me and my learning/analysis approach to every situation, gets their “program” changed? Just what is the story here?
Getting back to Lilly’s situation. We left her describing the genitalia of her rapist as somewhat resembling the red tail of a cartoon devil. We had a look at the real thing, and saw that it was indeed rather as she described it. We also pretty well know that this information about the nature of alligator genitals would have been hard for her to obtain, but not impossible. So what happened next?
Well, after working through the rape during the hypnosis session, we went through some processing of the emotions. As I was doing this, I had the idea that I should test my hypothesis about the Greenbaum material by asking some of the Greenbaum questions. It was really just an idea and I certainly did not expect to get a positive response from my subject!
Following the Greenbaum program, I set up the ideomotor finger-signals and suggested:
I want the central inner core of you to take control of the finger-signals. And I want that central inner core of you to take control of this hand of these finger-signals and what it has for the yes-finger to float up. I want to ask the inner core of you is there any part of you, any part of Lilly, who knows anything about Alpha, Beta, Delta, or Theta.
I nearly dropped my teeth when I got a “yes” response.
Okay, that was the “red flag”. I was sailing in unfamiliar waters here and really wished I hadn’t started down this path without more training. But, it was like surgery: the patient was open, so I needed to see what I could find, do no damage, and hopefully, fix something before I closed her back up.
After receiving the “yes” answer I said, “I want a part inside who knows something about Alpha, Beta, Delta, and Theta to come up to a level where you can speak to me, and when you’re here say, ‘I’m here’.”
A voice that was quite different from Lilly’s voice said, “I’m here.” I asked for the name and the response was “Gatekeeper”.
Well, the only thing to do was to press on and identify as much as I could in the time I could do it. I definitely identified seven different programs and one of them was “Delta”. Now, remember what Dr. Hammond said about “Delta”? “Deltas are killers trained in how to kill in ceremonies.”
I went through the programs asking for the “erasure codes”, and was given some of them. On some others, the very mechanical response “Access Denied!” came back.
The freaky thing was, I was getting an almost textbook series of responses from this woman that exactly matched the information in the Greenbaum speech! I was utterly dumbfounded. I mean, what are the odds that a very short time after I became aware of this sort of thing a person would just sort of “enter” my life who had this very situation active in her life? It just boggled the mind.
I went on with my probing, and it was in this process that the most stunning information that I have ever confronted in this work came out.
One of the programs identified itself as “Master Programmer”. I began to inquire what type of program this was.
“Master Programmer” was designed to turn Lilly into a dynamic New Age/Metaphysical teacher whose job was to travel the country, giving classes and seminars in many and various subjects, in order to turn on the already installed programs of other Greenbaum-type victims.
I asked how this could be done. The answer was simple: not only her words, but guided meditations, mantras, tones and symbols incorporated in some of the “Metaphysical jewelry” she carried to sell at her various lectures were used as program triggers. She was also using inaudible frequencies emitted by various gadgets she used in her “healing classes”.
Further, the teachings, even though they were ostensibly of “love and light”, were designed to use certain word sequences that were standard program triggers. Not only that, but some programs were set up in such a way that even if a person were confronted with the logical inconsistency of their belief system, they would be unable to break through the “coded thought loop implant” to understand their own faulty logic! In other words, when a person was confronted with “truth” or obvious factual information, the program would “turn on” and deny them the ability to think anything other than the “pre-coded” thoughts that would go around and around in their head like a “message from God” or their “guides” or whomever.
I asked what would happen if Lilly stopped doing this. The answer was, “Compliance is necessary to the mission; not performing the task is noncompliance.”
I asked what would be the result of noncompliance. The answer was, “Termination of subject by activation of self-destruct program.”
Well, that was pleasant! Definitely not what one would think of as a “loving guide”, “angel”, or “higher self”!
I asked some questions about where, when and how the programming might have been installed. I wanted to see if she had the same information about “Dr. Greenbaum”. It was during this portion of the session that the information was revealed that the real reason Lilly knew Sandy was because they had been in the same “programming set” as children! They had then been brought together in the healing class in Tampa because the teacher of that modality was another such as Lilly: a “Master Programmer”.
Well, that was a surprise! And it also made me think of Candy’s depiction of her relation with Bill as children playing with a little “alien” guy who was “helping them”. Just what is going on here? How many people are talking to “guides” or “angels” who are merely programs?
I was probing to get the code to deactivate some of the programs and suddenly Lilly began to moan and cry, “It hurts! It hurts!” and her hands went to her ears and she was trying to block out a sound that was obviously quite painful. She was twisting and turning in pain.
I kept speaking to her, attempting to get one of the programs or the “core” to come forward when the most horrible voice came out of her repeating over and over, “Access denied! Access denied!”
I was finally able to get the “Gatekeeper” to come back and he stiffly informed me that any further attempts to probe or deactivate would result in immediate destruction of the subject.
Hoo, boy! That was heavy! We were playing with some nasty bullies here!
At this point, Lilly had been under hypnosis for a lot longer than usual for most subjects, so I released the “Gatekeeper” with assurances that no harm would come to Lilly from me, gave her some “feel good” suggestions, and ended the session. There just didn’t seem to be any other option.
So, we have three different cases where attempts to probe resulted in activation of “pain blocks” of such a nature that it was dangerous to continue. The first was Pat, the second was Candy, and now Lilly.
After the session, I didn’t know what to tell Lilly. She obviously didn’t remember anything about the latter part of her session, but she felt a lot better and her rash was definitely calmed down by at least half, so I ventured to broach the subject of her program. I wanted to know what, exactly, was she doing in her classes? What kinds of things were being used to “turn on” other people’s programs? I had the idea that if it was brought to her conscious attention that she could begin to learn about it and to further evaluate exactly what she was doing. I even had hopes that she would be able to combat the influence and recover from her programming.
The only things I can tell you are that as soon as I began to talk to her about it, there was a definite shift in her personality and a fanatical look began to glow in her eyes.
She began to recite all the standard “love and light” philosophy and how she was a “Lightworker” and it went on for a few minutes with my growing awareness that I was actually listening to a program!
It was eerie beyond imagining hearing this “tape” running. Yes, she was saying all the “right things” to inspire confidence and warm and fuzzy feelings! Yes, she was espousing a philosophy that is more or less standard in the “New Age” theatre. But now, I was hearing it in a different way. It was no longer just the content of the words that was significant — it was something between and behind them — something sinister and lurking in wait to jump out at any moment.
I was fully aware that there were other programs in Lilly that could, at a moment’s notice, be turned on and that one of these was a killer. There was nothing to do but agree with her that she was doing a “great work for mankind” and send her home. I remembered what Dr. Hammond said about such individuals being programmed to kill their therapists. I hoped I hadn’t been classified as such and marked for death. Seeing the fanatical fire in her eyes, there was no doubt in my mind that she could kill just as she was programmed to do.
The very next day, Lilly called me and began to chat in a normal way. I asked her how she was feeling, and she said fine! She was bright and sunny in her words and manner. I was listening carefully to her to determine if I was hearing the “real Lilly”. Everything seemed to be okay, and she didn’t sound like she was going to come over and kill me — at least not at that moment — so I relaxed and chatted casually along, staying alert for any signs of a switch to an alternate personality. Nothing was out of line.
I began to think that maybe we had just encountered a particularly crafty entity attached to Lilly who had used all this Greenbaum idea to avoid being sent into the light. Heck, maybe I was imagining things altogether! How could I possibly think that there was anything sinister or bizarre about Lilly?! What a great gal! So bright and easy to talk to! So engaging and funny and charming! Sheesh! This UFO business was really getting to me! I was getting paranoid! I was going off the deep end! That’s it! It was me who needed a therapist!
But then, just as she was getting ready to hang up, she remarked, “We need to get together soon! There are a lot of things I want to talk about since I saw you last on Saturday night.” That was the night of the session with the Cassiopaeans, not Lilly’s hypnosis the very night before.
I said, “You mean something has happened since last night?”
Lilly said, “Last night? What do you mean?”
I reminded her of the previous night’s hypnosis.
Lilly laughed and told me I must be dreaming because she had gone to bed early the previous night — she had been exhausted from her classes that day! She certainly had not been with me doing a hypnosis session!
One of us was missing some time here or one of us was going off the deep end and I was pretty sure it wasn’t me! Not positive, just pretty sure!
I assured her that we had, indeed, done a hypnosis session. I reminded her that she had called me about her dream of the Reptoid rape and that she had come to my house covered with a rash and scratches. I told her to look at her abdomen to see the scratches.
At that point, Lilly became quite angry and screamed that I was crazy and slammed the phone down!!! A sort of “cloud of unreality” descended over me and I really wondered for a moment if I was losing my mind!
I called Frank and he assured me that I had, indeed, done the hypnosis session, that he had been there manning the recorder, and we had the tape and the notes and the photographs.
Even though I was seeing glimpses of this bizarre reality beneath the surface, my mind really did not want to accept it. Of all the many synchronistic events that had been falling fast and furious upon me, this business of receiving the Greenbaum material and then just sort of having a real subject of it more or less drop into my life was pushing the limits of credulity. Just what in the heck was going on? So, naturally, we brought the subject up at the next session.
March 10, 1996
Q: (L) I have a number of questions that I want to get into tonight. The first thing I would like to ask is: I did a hypnosis session with Lilly and utilized some of the Greenbaum techniques. She responded in the affirmative. I was told that she had several alter personalities: “Master Programmer, Gatekeeper, Alpha, Beta, Theta and Delta, Zero,” and others. Were these responses valid?
A: Validity is subjective. Be careful of data, which originates from sources which may mislead.
Q: (L) Which is the misleading source? Lilly or the Greenbaum text?
A: No it’s the center of origin. This “subject” appears to be fragmented.
Q: (L) Are her fragments caused by abductions? [I was assuming that the Cassiopaeans meant that Lilly was fragmented. In retrospect, I think they meant that the “subject” of Greenbaum programming was “fragmented”.]
A: She has had abductions and the like, but not the issue here. She is “searching,” and when one is searching…
At this point, the phone rang. It was a long distance call from a researcher in California who wanted to discuss a case, and we had to continue at a later time.
I was frustrated by the interruption and plagued with the questions in my mind. Did the Cassiopaeans mean that the Greenbaum scenario was possibly a screen for alien programming? Was the imagery of the Reptoid rape also a screen? Or was it completely the other way around? Were the images of alien abductions and Reptoid rapes a product of some sinister human experiment on mankind? Or even elements of both?
That then led me back to the idea that the whole Satanic Ritual abuse scenario could also be either of these things: a screen over Greenbaum-type programming, or a screen over alien programming. Further, many so-called “recovered memories” of sexual abuse within families could even be screens of programming activities by various persons or beings unknown.
I was familiar already with much of the material being produced by the psychological community about these subjects, and I had read many sessions from these books and articles that were supposed to prove the existence of Satanists and their wicked agenda because this or that individual had begun to experience flashbacks or bits and pieces of memories of abuse. They would then rush themselves off to a psychologist, psychiatrist, or hypnotherapist who would engage them in non-directive therapy to assist them in the recovery of both their memories and, by default, the “missing parts” of their “soul”.
I would read these accounts and see the clues scattered throughout that the emerging scenarios were, very likely, “created”. And that is not to say that the individual was creating them at all! They were more likely “manufactured” just as the scene of the “benevolent Mantids” who were “teaching the children in a loving way” in the session at the beginning of this series was manufactured. When the screen was directively “removed”, the revealed activity of Mantids eating human children was exposed.1 It was clear that in “non-directive” therapy, this would never have occurred.
The problem was that, in the field of hypnotherapy, there had been such an outcry from skeptics in past years about the suggestibility of the client, and the purported “agendas” of the therapists, that directed therapy had fallen into disfavor. It was now all client-directed. The therapist was more a “sounding board” who merely gave gentle, non-directive suggestions that the client should give him/herself “permission” to “recover” the memory (whatever it was). In this way, it was believed that the client would “recover their truth”. In this sense, “their truth” amounted to little more than another illusion.
The problem with this approach is twofold. In the first place, if we consider for even a moment that there is the possibility that there are beings — whether human or otherwise — who are out there engaged in mind programming efforts (and there is some considerable factual evidence to support this) then we have to consider that they would install blocks to recovery of the memories of their activities as a first line of defense. They would very likely make these blocks or screens interactive with some installed mechanism of severe discomfort so that the subject would either avoid retrieval or be unable to retrieve such memories without serious pain or stress.
The second problem is that I have experimented with suggestibility of subjects to some considerable extent and have found that they are not as malleable as skeptics might wish us to think. Which leads, of course, to the idea of manipulation of opinion regarding directive therapy so that it falls into disrepute as a therapeutic mode, thus adding a layer of protection over such nefarious activities.
There was an experiment done some years ago by a researcher who selected a random sample of individuals who were, ostensibly, not abductees and, under hypnosis or guided imagery techniques, led them into an alien abduction scenario. Because a significant number of them began to describe abductions in the same terms as persons who had claimed to be abductees due to some conscious representations surfacing, it was decided that this proved that the abduction complex of images was more or less archetypal and therefore, false.
It never occurred to the researchers that the non-abducted persons who described accurately the abduction process might really have been abducted, but that their abductions and programming did not have the glitches that cause others to remember or to have clues that lead them to active therapy to recover their memories.
Anyway, this experiment was taken as “proof” that the recovered memories of abductees could very well be suggested to them by literature, movies, and even the therapists. So, “directive therapy” was tossed aside in favor of just allowing the client to let his memories — whatever they might be — sort of “drift to the top”.
I can demonstrate hundreds of instances where this idea of suggestibility is false. An example would be when I say to a client under hypnosis who is describing an alien being, that I want them to tell me what kind of nose they have; is it big or little. Now, right there I have suggested that the being must have a nose and that it is either big or little. If the client were as suggestible as is proposed, they would naturally tell me one or the other or even that it is a “medium sized nose”. But time and again, the answer would come back: “I don’t see a nose. There is a little hole or a dimple-like thing, but no nose.”
Or, I would say, “What are you smelling?” That is a direct suggestion that they must smell something. But the answer might come back “Nothing at all.” Or, if a smell is present, they might have their attention directed to that factor and tell me that there is some sort of smell.
Another example would be when I ask the client: “How did you get out of the room? Did you go out the door or the window?” And they would respond “Neither. I sort of ‘went through the wall’.” On the other hand, if I suggest that they were “carried on a beam of light” as was the case in a different instance they had previously described, they might come back and say “Not this time. I was carried through the door.”
Over and over again I have tried these little directive suggestions to get data, and over and over again I have seen that, even with powerful direction, the client will recover whatever is there to recover with very little fabrication, if any.
And that is where we have to begin to deal with the screening process. If there is a screen, that is what the victim will perceive as the actual memory. And it is in probing the screen that other clues must be noted and followed in order to arrive at what is beneath the screen if possible!
For example, in one of my early abduction cases, the client had a vivid dream that she was sure was more than a dream. She dreamed about our friendly “Mantid beings”, as described by the second subject I discussed in High Strangeness. The subject described in the earlier chapter in High Strangeness was actually a much later case chronologically, and this earlier case that I am now mentioning was the one that had given me the clue that there was something deeper in the situation than was being presented.
This first “Mantid” case was also a description of the beings as kind and loving and friendly — just full of great wisdom and kindness. The subject went through a whole description of how grand and glorious it was to be in their company and care, and after all these glowing praises of the wonderful, consciousness raising experience, I brought the session to an end thinking that it was exactly as presented.
However, the instant the client was awakened, she leaped up from the couch and ran to the bathroom where we could hear her vomiting violently for some minutes. When she returned, she said that her stomach was very upset (obviously!) and that she must have “eaten something” that didn’t agree with her earlier.
But that episode bothered me. It kept coming up in my mind as a clue that ought to be followed.
The next time this particular client scheduled a session, I was determined to get to the bottom of this matter, so I utilized the somatic technique where I asked her “body consciousness” to speak to me and tell me why, at the last session, she had become ill after recovering the memory of the “abduction”. The somatic technique is, again, the ideomotor signals of the fingers where the index finger rises to indicate a “yes” answer and the little finger rises to indicate a “no” answer.
I asked the body consciousness if the description of the abduction that had been given in the previous session had been what actually happened, and the answer came back “no”. I asked if the beings that had been presented as kind and benevolent had, in fact, acted kindly and benevolently toward the subject. Again, the answer was “no”. I then asked if they had done harmful and painful things to the subject. The answer was “yes”. Next, I asked if the memory of the abduction as presented in the earlier session was a screen that had been created and implanted into the subconscious mind, and the answer was “yes”.
So, we had a problem here. The subconscious is not as sacrosanct as we would like to think. The emerging memories that we would all like to think are the “individual truth” of the client could not only be manipulated, they could be entirely false.
How to break through them?
I came up with a little technique that I experimented with and it seemed to work quite effectively — as far as I could tell. I call it the “screen splitter”. In order to make it work properly, the client has to be situated in a safe environment while under hypnosis, which means that the events to be reviewed must be placed at a “remove” and the client must have some directed means of accessing via the ideomotor construct that goes beyond just finger signals. This construct becomes a sort of “internal television” which translates the body information into “television signals” which are then projected onto a screen, which the subject controls with a hand held “remote”.
A further consideration that must be clear in this type of therapy, is that the hypnotherapist must take a more or less dominant role as not only guide, but as a warrior-companion. The therapist must “go in” with the individual and watch for the lurking dangers and defend the client from them so that they can safely make the journey to the truth and back again. It becomes more of a shamanic type of activity than anything else. I was later surprised to learn that what I had developed was pretty close to the techniques of the ancient Siberian shamans who would “journey into the underworld,” and do battle with the forces present there that were controlling, obfuscating, and/or using the client for their own purposes via tricks and deception.
Mircea Eliade writes in Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy:
The principal function of the shaman in Central and North Asia is magical healing. Several conceptions of the cause of illness are found in the area, but that of the ‘rape of the soul’ is by far the most widespread. Disease is attributed to the soul’s having strayed away or been stolen, and treatment is in principle reduced to finding it, capturing it, and obliging it to resume its place in the patient’s body. In some part of Asia the cause of illness can be the intrusion of a magical object into the patient’s body or his ‘possession’ by evil spirits; in this case, cure consists in extracting the harmful object or expelling the demons. Sometimes disease has a twofold cause — theft of the soul aggravated by ‘possession’ by evil spirits — and the shamanic cure includes both searching for the soul and expelling the demons.2
These archaic conceptions of the cause of disease and disorder are startlingly reminiscent of the way the Cassiopaeans have described the abduction process.
June 17, 1995
A: These experiences [abductions] must be known in their entirety as to what they really are.
You are not normally removed as a physical third density being from one locator to another.
What happens is very simple. The time frame is normally frozen, and we use the term “frozen” for lack of a better term. What this means is that your perception of time in your physical locator, third density body, ceases to pass during this period of time that is called “zero time” variously by members of your human race.
What happens is that the soul imprint occupying or of that particular host body is removed forcibly, transported to another locator, and remolecularized as a separate physical entity body for purpose of examination, implantation, and other. The soul imprint is used for the purpose of duplication process; it is then demolecularized and the soul imprint is replaced in the original body at the original locator. That is the process that takes place.
On occasion, the fourth density beings doing the abduction make a mistake in the time referencing points of the third density illusion… Normally, however, that is not a problem.
On rare occasions, the host, or the subject of the abduction can actually find himself or herself replaced in the time frame illusion in what could appear to be several hours, day, weeks, or even, sadly, years prior to the beginning of the event, which, of course, could cause side effects such as total insanity and other such things. Fortunately that did not occur in your case, but there was some fracturing of the time frame reference illusion. This is why you thought you saw two ships when in actuality you only saw one. [Referring to the Black Boomerang incident.]
Now, it is most important that you understand that this is not a physical, third density experience in its entirety.
There is the soul imprint that all first density, second density, third density, and fourth density beings possess, as you already know; that is extracted. From that soul imprint, a duplicate copy or cloning, if you will, which appears on fourth density, can then be made and studied and the soul imprint is then replaced into the original body at whatever density it was taken. This is normally how the process is done.
Most often, if the third density being is removed in total physicality, there is no return of that being to third density. They are permanently removed to fourth density. Most often that is what takes place although on rare occasions there can be return. However, there is no need for this as complete duplication for all purposes of examination, alteration of sensate, and implanting — need not be done on third density — can be done completely in the fourth density duplication process. Do you understand?
Q: (T) How does the implant come back to the third density body that’s originally still here?
A: The process we are describing, which involves the remolecularization. It is very complex to try and describe how the fourth density is translated into third density, except that once the duplicate, the fourth density cloning, or duplicate, is present, all fourth density realities surrounding that fourth density duplicate will be matched in third density whenever and wherever desired. Because, in effect it is the entire density level, which is being exchanged, not just the object contained within.
Q: (L) So, in other words, just as the soul imprint, when it goes into fourth density, can be used as a template to create a carbon copy, so to speak, then anything that is done to the carbon copy then becomes a template that recreates that same manifestation when it is sent back into the third.
A: Precisely. With the only variance there being that technology is used to make sure that implants, or added material that comes from fourth density, is such that it will also translate equally into third density through the remolecularization process.
Q: (L) Is there any method that we could or should know about to remove or deactivate fourth density implants?
A: No, you are not capable of doing that without causing death of the host. And, by the way, please don’t believe those who claim that they can do such things, as they cannot. [Apparently those “implants” that are claimed to have been removed are third density “decoys”.]
Even though the Cassiopaeans are saying that we cannot remove the fourth density implants, they have said that we can deactivate them by being aware of them and refusing to respond to their machinations.
Nevertheless, over and over again we find this concept expressed in the most archaic shamanic practices: “healing by extraction of the magical object that has brought on the sickness and the search for the soul abducted by evil spirits.” Or “[they] attribute sickness to an object introduced into the body by a god or a spirit, or to possession. And treatment consists in extracting the magical object or expelling the spirit.” Eliade writes:
Only the shaman can undertake a cure of this kind. For only he ‘sees’ the spirits and knows how to exorcise them; only he recognizes that the soul has fled, and is able to overtake it, in ecstasy, and return it to its body. …Everything that concerns the soul and its adventure, here on earth and in the beyond, is the exclusive province of the shaman. Through his own preinitiatory and initiatory experiences, he knows the drama of the human soul, its instability, and its precariousness; in addition, he knows the forces that threaten it and the regions to which it can be carried away. If shamanic cure involves ecstasy, it is precisely because illness is regarded as a corruption or alienation of the soul.
…The struggle against the evil spirits is dangerous and finally exhausts the shaman. ‘We are all destined to fall before the power of the spirits,’ the shaman Tusput told Sieroszewski, ‘The spirits hate us because we defend men…’ And in fact, in order to extract the evil spirits from the patient, the shaman is often obliged to take them into his own body; in doing so, he struggles and suffers more than the patient himself.
…Aside from the rare cases of ‘infernal specialization’ (confined to descents to the underworld), the Siberian shamans are equally capable of celestial ascents and descents to the nether regions… This two-fold technique derives in a manner from their initiation itself, and for the initiatory dreams of future shamans include both descents (ritual sufferings and death) and ascents (resurrection). In this context we can understand that, after battling the evil spirits or descending to the underworld to recover the patient’s soul, the shaman feels the need to reestablish his own spiritual equilibrium by repeating the ascent to the sky.
…The shaman’s power and prestige derive exclusively from his capacity for ecstasy. It is to his mystical capacities that the shaman owes his ability to discover and combat the evil spirits that have seized the patient’s soul; he does not confine himself to exorcising them, he takes them into his own body, ‘possesses’ them, tortures and expels them.
[Shamanism today has deteriorated and lost its focus.] We observe a certain decadence of shamanism, a condition attested almost everywhere. The Tungus compare especially the strength and courage of the ‘old shamans’ with the cowardice of shamans today, who in some districts no longer dare to undertake the dangerous journey to the underworld.”3
I was still somewhat concerned about Lilly’s revelations about Sandy and the remark under hypnosis that she and Sandy had been part of the same “programming set”, which I took to be a group. Not only that, but there was the receipt of the “Elaine and the Sisters of Light” material at precisely the time that Lilly made her revelations to me about Sandy.
Was I looking at another aspect of the “hidden control mechanism”? The whole thing was so unlikely and so crazy that I was really stretching my credulity to even deal with it on a rational basis. But heck! When you talk to “sixth density light beings” via a board on Saturday nights, how unlikely and weird can anything be?
It was a few weeks before we had another session because we were busy helping Sandy straighten out a big mess in her life involving her mother in a nursing home. It was taking a huge amount of my time and energy and I really felt that Sandy ought to be able to manage these things herself like anybody else, but she was so pitiful and seemingly grateful for every minute of my time that I felt guilty for resenting the many demands placed on me.
But, after a time, I started to get the idea that something was not quite right with this scenario. Every interaction with Sandy and her mother resulted in a serious draining of energy. Every interaction with Sandy in the group resulted in an argument or misunderstanding. On several occasions, these disagreements almost led to the giving up of the project altogether!
Of course, my mind was working overtime to explain things in a rational way. I did not want to fall into the trap of “believing and thereby making real” in terms of the Greenbaum and Elaine material, and maybe if I hadn’t been doing that, I would have noticed things sooner!
I sat down with Sandy one day to talk and worked around to the subject of her current associations. I wasn’t going to directly ask her if she was involved with a sort of “coven” up in Hernando County as Lilly had reported, but I was going to try to find out where it was she went several nights a week that she never talked about.
The long and short of it was that she admitted that she had been going up to Trudy and George’s house two nights a week to do “therapy” with both of them. She very innocently wondered why it would even be a problem, since they were simply “bodywork clients” and she needed to make money in her profession.
I was absolutely devastated. Sandy knew what those people had done to me, she had denied any contact or association with them for a long time, and now she was telling me that she was hanging out with them two nights a week?! And then, after working on them (ostensibly) she was coming to do body work on me, bringing that energy directly into my house, and possibly into my very physical structure?! Clearly she was not getting it in regards to the hidden nature of things going on here on the Big Blue Marble.
But, I stayed calm and said nothing to her. I realized, at this point, that it was entirely possible for her to be doing things in an alternate personality of which the Sandy I knew was totally unaware. But Frank and I decided to have a private session to address this issue. The result was quite interesting.
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) Now, some time ago Lilly called me and told me that Sandy was involved in some sort of coven or group that was into rituals and magic or whatever. I just have a very difficult time believing this. How can Sandy seem so innocent and, at the same time, be a part of such activities? The only reason I am asking is because Lilly knew things about Sandy that “clicked” and could not possibly have been said unless she knew something. Is it possible that Sandy could have multiple personalities and one of her other “selves” is doing this? As in Greenbaum?
A: Sure!
Q: (L) If that is the case, then it seems that these “alternate personalities” are so cleverly installed that they can take over, do something, and then “turn off” leaving no trace at all! That makes it possible that anyone can have this programming and no one would even know! Heck, they wouldn’t even know it themselves! We are talking about perfect Manchurian Candidates here! And that brings up the idea that if Sandy can do things she isn’t aware of, is it possible for either Frank or I to be involved in such and not be aware of it?
A: Yes, but it is not that.
Q: (L) Does that mean that there is some other thing that we are involved in, in some other aspects of our selves that we are not aware of?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this something that happens in altered states or in sleep states?
A: Not happens, happened.
Q: (L) Something that happened in the past?
A: Laura, you need to consult a powerful, practiced, effective hypnotherapist to unlock these questions for you.
Q: (L) Is this something I could do for Frank in the meantime? Obviously Frank could have a big piece of the puzzle locked up in there…
A: Both of you and others. The locks have been installed in such a way that it is literally impossible for you to unlock them, as they were installed with full knowledge of present circumstances.
Q: (L) Who installed these locks?
A: Supremely powerful STS consortium!!
Q: (L) And what circumstances were they aware of, as you have mentioned, when they installed these locks?
A: All. [That implies time travel capabilities.]
Q: (L) You are the Cassiopaeans, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are STO?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are telling us that we have locks on knowledge installed in us, installed by supremely powerful STS consortium. Can we not, in our conscious state, simply reject this programming, and ask you to inform us of this information?
A: Not possible! You cannot unlock, and we cannot tell you the details of what, or why.
Q: (L) Why can you not tell us?
A: Free will violation, and endangerment of you if done thusly.
Q: (L) Is there some way to do it that does not endanger us?
A: We have just told you what you must do.
Q: (L) Is it a danger to us to not unlock these things?
A: In a sense.
Q: (L) When you say that things “happened” but are not currently happening, what do you mean? I was abducted or something… Why?
A: To install self-destruct programming.
Q: (L) I find this to be incredible! So, I have a “self-destruct” program. Considering my life, that could be true and a reasonable explanation. And Frank has one also?
A: Similar, but not an exact copy so as to mask.
Q: (L) Was Frank abducted in a similar fashion?
A: Close, but not exactly.
Q: (L) Was Frank’s pneumonia when he was a child, which nearly killed him, part of this self-destruct program?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Frank’s father also programmed since he was partly responsible for much of Frank’s psychological abuse?
A: Semi.
Q: (L) And my mother? She seems to have been the most consistent source of “attack” in my life…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well. I think we can safely assume that probably every member of our families have had some sort of program installed, if only to facilitate our destruction. This whole situation is beginning to sound inexpressibly grim.
A: Grim?!? You have lived decades after these episodes! How many brethren? Multiples of millions!
Q: (L) That is why I am saying it is pretty damn grim… think of all those who don’t survive these programs.
A: And it is part of a natural process, do not forget.
Q: (L) Well, we need some help from the good guys. It sounds so dreadful. We need some help here. I am becoming very tired. It is not only the constant battles against forces that we can neither see nor understand, but also even learning about all these things is a huge burden!
A: You only need knowledge.
Q: (L) Well, I want to have a little direction here.
A: Concentrate on your insurance settlement. This can be a problem solver if handled wisely, a curse if not so! Use some of the funds to locate a “superhypnotherapist”.
Q: (L) Who might this person be? A clue?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there some progress that we can make on our own?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Give me a clue… I want something that produces knowledge that will protect me…
A: Won’t succeed until locks are blown off in proper way.
Q: (L) Well, I hope I survive until then.
A: Refer to previous answer.
Q: (L) If you guys were here, I’d throw something at you!
A: We’d dodge!
Q: (L) Well, you see my problem here… I guess I just want to know that there is someone out there who cares…
A: You should by now.
Q: (L) Then you guys ought to get behind my lawyer and jack him up…
A: We do, through you.
Q: (L) So, we have a lot of stuff locked up inside and all we have to do is find the key…
A: Yes, exactly.
That was not a pleasant thought. But then, it is because of the fact that the programming has “glitches” and is not foolproof that we know about it at all. Apparently it is possible to escape the controls, though whether one has the capacity to really get to the bottom of it and see it for what it truly is remains to be seen. A lot more work needs to be done in this area.
A few days later I received a phone call from Lilly, inquiring how I was doing and I was surprised at the normal, chatty tone of her voice considering the circumstances of the last conversation we had together when she began screaming at me and slammed the phone down. But, by this time, I was accustomed to the idea that some people might have all kinds of “personalities” that can be turned on or off, and perhaps it would only be through constant exposure to the information about these things that could assist in their awakening. I mentioned that I had some material for her to read, and she came by and I gave her a printed copy of the Greenbaum speech. After reading it, she called again and was very anxious to attend another session. Tim, from the old Reiki group had also contacted me and was present.
The session began with some questions about our ability to do research in a free and independent way considering the limitations that we were becoming aware of in the world around us. The Cassiopaeans gave a very significant clue to the process of awakening in their reply:
October 5, 1996
A: There are no limits, just controls… The knowledge gives one all the necessary tools to overcome the controls.
The next question was for Lilly who had experienced a strange event during a Reiki class earlier that day.
Q: (L) Lilly took a particular type of initiation today, and she had an event occur during this… [Lilly described the event as leaving her body and going through a “life review” sort of what is described as happening at the time of death.]
A: She should be careful not to “spread herself too thin.” One does not need to cram learning, “steady as she goes.”
Q: (L) Can you describe what it was that was taking place with her? Or define it?
A: Soul bilocation.
Q: (L) Was this a beneficial event for her?
A: No. She has been ripping open the fabric too much. Each soul has its own patterning, which is held in place by the three main bodies of existence [planchette swirls a few times]… “thought/consciousness center, spirit/etheric center and physical center,” remembering, of course, that your physical center has the “interface genetic body” as well. But we are here dealing with the primary patterns. There are specific methodologies for adjusting these, and traveling into or out of other planes of existence. When one does not properly utilize these, one tears the fabric of their trilateral continuum when they seek to travel. This can be very problematic, and may lead to the soul being unable to reconnect with the body, thus causing the physical center to perish!!!
Q: (L) The man who was facilitating the initiation, was he aware of what was happening, or what he was doing?
A: Aware only of unusual sensates.
Q: (L) Did it have anything to do with the attunement?
A: No. It had to do with previous experiments.
Q: (L) She said that she also experienced a past life review just as if she were in the process of dying.
A: You described it well.
Q: (Lilly) Well, experiments by whom?
A: You. [Meaning Lilly.]
Q: (L) So, what was, what happened with this interaction that caused this to trigger right there and then? At that moment? What was the trigger?
A: Spirit center stimulus. The “initiation”.
So there was another clue about the kinds of things that can activate programs. Different “initiations” offered by Metaphysical—New Age teachers and seminar leaders! Gads! It was beginning to sound very dangerous to become involved with such groups at all!
At this point, Lilly began to talk about an amazing “column of light” that she had photographed in her house. I was aware of the fact that this might relate to the “entry point” of the Reptoids who had raped her, but I didn’t want to rock the boat of her personality alter that was present at the time, so I said nothing. I was hoping that this present part of her would seek the information that could be helpful to enable her to overcome her programming. She identified the column of light as a “portal” and was sure that it indicated her connection to her “guides”.
Q: (Lilly) So, can the portal [in my house] assist me in any way with this [rip in my] aura? Will it do me any good? I mean, what’s it for, anyway?
A: It can assist you in becoming possessed.
Q: (Lilly) Well, that’s just wonderful!!! How did it get there? It’s on the top of my head; it comes right down.
A: No, it is not a part of you.
Q: (T) How about asking where this portal came from? (L) Yes, what was the generative source?
A: More than one.
Q: (L) Okay, there’s more than one generative source. So, it’s a combination of factors. Is it part of the historical site? The space-time location? [Lilly’s house was built on the old site of Florida Southern Methodist College, which had been struck by lightning and destroyed in a fire many years ago.]
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it part of the metaphysical activities taking place in the house itself? [Lilly held many classes in her home.]
A: Yes. Other occupants. More than her. [The “other occupants” could refer to Lilly’s husband who had “mob connections,” or so she said.]
Q: (Lilly) Do they mean live ones or dead ones?
A: Both.
Q: (Lilly) That’s what I thought. (V) How can it be removed?
A: Changes in lifestyle.
Q: (L) The question I have is, she is in a situation where she is somewhat blocked in her directions. It seems that many sorts of sources seek to…
A: Obfuscation is illusion.
At this point, we began to discuss the various illusions that we are presented with that we have to learn about before we can penetrate and overcome them. At this point, the Cassiopaeans just tossed out a term that brought us back to the Greenbaum subject:
A: Mind programming.
Q: (L) What about mind programming?
A: We thought we would just throw that onto the table.
Q: (T) Mind programming! As in programming of one’s mind?
A: Tim received some most recently.
Q: (L) And whom did he receive the mind programming from?
A: Cultists.
Q: (T) What form did it take?
A: Negative.
Q: (T) Not negative or positive, but what form was it presented to him as?
A: Hypnotic.
Q: (T) Was he awake or asleep at the time?
A: Both.
Q: (T) How was it conveyed to him?
A: Lights, fires, chants.
Q: (Tim) I haven’t seen any of the [Wicca or Reiki bunch] since way back when. (L) Way back when, what is that, a couple of years? (Tim) Yes (L) Well, then that’s still “recently” in cosmic terms I guess. Is that what is meant?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) I just wanted to make sure that this was not a long-distance thing… that they did not convey this programming from a distance and… (Tim) Yes, and that they still didn’t have their hooks into me.
A: Close, though.
Q: (L) Close, though to what?
A: Response was to “Hooks”.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that this programming still has “hooks” in him and that some of the choices he’s been making in his life in the last two years are the results of this programming?
A: Maybe.
Q: (Tim) I want to know; did I get married as a result of this programming?
A: Yes.
Naturally, with the response to Tim’s question being so forthcoming, everybody wanted to know if they had become involved with their respective partners as a result of some type of programming.
Q: (L) Did I get married as a result of some similar programming?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did Lilly?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Did I?
A: No.
Q: (T) Did I?
A: No.
Q: (T) Did Frank?
A: No.
Q: (L) Frank never got married! (T) Well, I was just making sure that everybody felt like they were in on all this! (Lilly) This Greenbaum program, was it due to my father?
A: Yes.
Q: (Lilly) Thought so! It was his military career and position. Was this programming done to my father?
A: You were “Greenbaumed”.
Q: (L) Was Tim Greenbaumed?
A: No.
Q: (V) What about V?
A: No.
Q: (L) What about Frank?
A: No.
Q: (L) Laura?
A: No.
Q: (L) T?
A: No.
Q: (T) J?
A: No.
Q: (Lilly) So, I’m the only one here that’s been Greenbaumed?
Q: (Tim to Laura) They told you before that you got mental programming of some sort, but now they are saying it wasn’t Greenbaum?
A: Laura had more advanced work done on her.
Q: (V) That opens up a whole new can of worms. (L) And what do you mean by that?
A: Not now.
Q: (L) Is there any possibility, to some extent, that I have overcome this influence at the present time?
A: No. Was partial, then aborted, leaving fragments of trigger response programs that have been in remission.
Q: (L) Why was it aborted?
A: Because STO forces intervened.
Q: (L) And when was this?
A: Mid “fifties”.
Q: (L) So it was when I was three or four years old. (T) I think we should go back to what we were talking about with Tim, because they brought it up. (Tim) Am I still receiving instructions from the programming? Am I still receiving programming from them?
A: Buried for future triggers.
Q: (L) Is there anything he can do to deactivate this programming?
A: Would take powerful hypnotic work. Beware of stresses of a most personal nature.
Q: (L) Do you mean sexual actions; activities might be triggers or connected to this?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Any further clues for him? (T) What was it that they… what was given to Tim in this programming? What was he told to do, or what was the mind control about? (L) What were the instructions?
A: Discover.
Q: (T) Is it something Tim will be able to discover? Does he have enough information to work on?
A: Not by himself.
Q: (L) Is his wife and the new baby part of the hook to keep him in the program?
A: Yes.
Q: (Tim) Is the hook attached to the physical, emotional, spiritual, or what?
A: All. You were particularly vulnerable at the time. Remember, this particular group has an uncanny ability to get to those who have parental influences with a troubled past.
[Phone call interrupted, call was from Tim’s wife demanding that he leave immediately and come home!]
Q: (L) Is Tim’s wife Greenbaumed?
A: Yes.
Q: (Tim) Where did she receive Greenbaum programming?… Oh, I know, her father was in the Navy… (L) Why are we not surprised!!!
A: Yes. And V’s father too, but fortunately in too low level a capacity.
Q: (L) Does the Greenbaum influence, or interaction last indefinitely throughout a person’s life, if something isn’t done to terminate or halt it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Mind programming… Lilly wants to know how extensive the Greenbauming was in her case. Was it extensive?
A: Yes and your husband, too!
Q: (Lilly) That’s just wonderful! More pleasant things this evening! (V) I’ve been sitting in your position, where I’ve gotten a bunch of bad news one night, and I know how you feel! (F) It’s not really bad news, though, because it’s good to know… (V) It protects you to have the knowledge. But, it’s tough to hear. It’s tough to face the fact that you can be controlled. But, if you look at your life, and you see all the lousy choices you make and the problems you have caused yourself, then you have to think that something is getting in the way of being able to see what is really going on! (L) I guess you just have to ask yourself every time you make a choice, why am I really doing what I’m doing? Is it really me doing it, or am I being “directed”. You have to be pretty coldly analytical to do this. You just can’t let emotions influence you to do what you seem to “want”. (Lilly) Is there anything to cure it? Can anything be done? Now we know for Tim, it’s hypnosis. What about me?
A: Awareness is step number one.
Q: (T) Tim’s wife is one of his triggers… (L) Well, Tim finds himself, we all, I mean, jeez! What do we do about these difficult situations that we plant ourselves in the middle of, due to programming? Then we have to extricate ourselves, at great cost and pain? Having done it already myself, I know how much pain…
A: No need to extricate, if necessary work is done, in some cases.
Q: (L) If two people who are married to each other are Greenbaumed, as you are suggesting is the case with Lilly and her husband, is it possible that they could be programmed to kill each other? I mean, he’s been pretty violent toward her lately.
A: Maybe, but not always. The programming is mainly intended to produce erratic behavior, for the purpose of “spooking” the population so that they will welcome, and even demand, a totalitarian government. Think of the persons who have inexplicably entered various public and private domains, and shot large numbers of people… Now, you have “met” some of these Greenbaum subjects…
This little remark followed by the three dots sort of went right over my head. But it was clearly a warning!
Q: (L) So you are saying that their implanted triggers are set to activate at a certain point in future time, to create a mass chaos, in the public domain? What types of activity, specifically?
A: Better to discover that one on your own.
Q: (L) Okay, that’s another one that’s dangerous to know right now…
A: Now, some history… as you know, the CIA and NSA and other agencies are the children of Nazi Gestapo… the SS, which was an experiment influenced by Antareans who were practicing for the eventual reintroduction of the Nephalim on to 3rd and/or 4th density earth. And the Thule Society, which groomed its dupe subject, Adolph Hitler to be the all-time mind-programmed figurehead, initiated the contact with the “Antareans”. Now, in modern times, you have seen, but so far, on a lesser scale: Oswald, Ruby, Demorenschildt, Sirhan Sirhan, James Earl Ray, Arthur Bremer, Farakhan, Menendez, Bundy, Ramirez, Dahmer, etc.
Q: (L) Is there any particular individual who is currently being programmed to take a more prominent position in terms of this…
A: Later… you must know that Oswald was programmed to be the “patsy”. So that he would say many contradictory things. Demorenschildt was both a programmer and programmed. Ruby was hypnotically programmed to shoot Oswald with an audio prompt, that being the sound of a car horn.
Q: (L) The question has been brought up, is there some way or means that one can distinguish or discern a victim of Greenbaum or other mind programming by some clues?
A: Not until it is too late.
Q: (L) Was Sandy Greenbaumed?
A: Yes. […]
Q: (V) I’d like to know if any Presidents have been Greenbaumed?
A: Yes. Remember, the “Greenbaum method” is one of many in existence. It is a veritable potpourri.
Getting back to our more or less chronological story: we came back to the subject again the following week. Tim was again present, and very upset about many strange events of the intervening days. He was terrified that he had been “kidnapped” and “Greenbaumed”, as we were starting to call it:
October 12, 1996
Q: (L) In an earlier session you mentioned that we ought to discuss the matter of mind control…
A: Programming is the word you need, not “control”.
Q: (L) Tim has had some very strange events happening to him and he would like to know if he has been Greenbaumed?
A: Tim has not been “Greenbaumed,” but mind programmed by those who have ties to a Wiccan organization as we previously described.
Q: (L) How does one determine the signs of someone who has been programmed, whether Greenbaum-type or otherwise? In specific, how could Tim tell?
A: Pay attention to the signs. Difficulty keeping up with the demands and pressures of life both before the programming and after. Feeling like you are losing control because everything is now even more “confusing”.
Q: (T) Any specific signs?
A: We gave you one, now for 2: wife “acting up”. Also, parental problems that have already begun.
Q: (L) How does one overcome or cancel this programming?
A: The same as always: Knowledge protects.
Q: (L) In what ways will knowledge help to cancel programming?
A: In ways directly affecting Tim.
Q: (L) I don’t understand. How can knowledge help to cancel programming?
A: So that the awareness can be the foundation for being able to deal with situations, and possibly rectify some of them.
This obviously means that, unless one has an idea that they could be programmed, they will not learn about the ways and means of deactivation. I guess it is something like being an alcoholic: you have to admit that you have a problem in order to seek help.
Q: (L) Okay, in regards to this Greenbaum programming and the Nazi connection: On a couple of occasions you mentioned a group called the Antareans. Who were these human types or aliens?
A: Antareans were the name given by 4th density groups in contact with the Thule Society on third density Earth, before and during World War One.
Q: (L) What are they called now?
A: There is no one currently labeling themselves as “Antareans,” in contact with anyone now.
Q: (L) So, they are no longer here?
A: No, not this particular group. There are others.
Q: (L) You said once that I was not Greenbaumed, but that something else was done. What was this?
A: The work that was attempted was more intense, but it was aborted because it turned out that your frequency resonance vibration was not proper for that particular type of “experimental” programming.
Q: (L) Does this mean that there was something about my vibrations that caused what they were trying to do to result in positive things?
A: Possibly, in an offhand way.
Q: (L) You also said that STO intervened and stopped this… Does this mean that there is some reason to protect me?
A: Okay… learning is an exploration followed by the affirmation of knowing [through] discovery. One day, you will know this. You are doing just fine. No more on that for this session.
And this last remark brings us back to the subject of the interactions with the Metaphysical Church group and their attempts to kill me and how this was associated with the green pool which was sort of a “symbol system” in my reality that there was something seriously wrong in my personal environment. The responses given to me should be taken to heart by those of you who have written to tell me how similar your lives have been to my own. Remember, according to Ra, there are approximately 65 million Wanderers on the planet. And, according to Ra and the Cassiopaeans, the Wanderers are prime targets for STS interference.
October 28, 1994
Q: (L) Okay, during the period of time I was getting the hassle from the metaphysical church group, my pool was green. Was this symbolic of the attack I was under?
A: Yes, but you left yourself open by association and buying too many concepts without careful examination. Investigate before buying and practicing in future, okay?
Q: (L) Investigate what? Ideas?
A: Yes. And concepts and especially practices.
Q: (L) The ideas of candle burning, salt, sage, shamanistic rituals and so forth? Is all this useless?
A: You are learning; remember when we say “good no ritual”?
Q: (L) In other words, your knowledge and your strength, which comes from your knowledge and knowing, is the point and the protection?
A: Precisely. This is extremely important.
Q: (L) Alexandra David-Neel quoted a lama who said we must beware of the children of our own minds as well as the children of the minds of others, such as thought forms perhaps created by higher negative beings. If we do not acknowledge that such things exist, are we then subject to being devoured by them?
A: Yes. Ritual drains directly to Lizard beings.
Q: (L) Even our saying of the Lord’s Prayer?
A: It is okay to pray. Why do you think organized religion is obsessed with rituals?
Q: (L) Is the same thing true of modern day shamanistic practices and so forth?
A: Exactly.
Q: (L) What occurred to make my pool clear up?
A: You restored your own energy.
Q: (L) And it had nothing to do with rituals?
A: Correct. In spite of rituals but you were lucky could have gone the other way.
Q: (L) What prevented this from happening?
A: Divine intervention. [Energy surge]
Q: (L) Well, my life seems to have been full of incidents of Divine intervention.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of this intervention?
A: To preserve and prepare you for work.
Q: (L) What is this work?
A: You are extremely valuable to all on your planet.
Q: (L) What particular value? Is this common to all people?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is this something meaningful? What is the mission?
A: Faith in your opening channel; you will learn as you go. We cannot tell you all at once.
Sorry. I tried. We still don’t know what the “mission” is. We only know that there are, apparently, a lot of other people involved!
But we are also aware that the rules of the game seem to necessitate waking up against the obstacles of being prime targets of the STS control faction. And this can be very problematical when considered in the light of that most astounding revelation out of the mouth of one of the very victims of mind programming:
“Master Programmer” was designed to turn Lilly into a dynamic New Age/Metaphysical teacher whose job was to travel the country, giving classes and seminars in many and various subjects, in order to turn on the already installed programs of other greenbaum-type victims.
We might just want to ask how many other prominent teachers and channels and “New Age Metaphysicians” are also “Master Programmers”?
1 This is described in High Strangeness.
2 Mircea Eliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy (New York: Oxford University Press, 1964).
3 Ibid.
After reading about Greenbaum programming, we more or less have some idea of the kinds of things that might be going on in the so-called real world, i.e., human engineered mind programming; and we have a lot to think about. We have also talked about people who may have enormous creative potential and who may be special targets for mind programming activities, whether human originated or from another density, and we have talked about what seems to be, more or less, an ongoing experiment in social and philosophical control whereby masses of people can be influenced to think in certain “loops” that may have no basis in reality.
When speaking of these mind programming activities, we have to ask, are we talking about just a small group? Certainly, the logistics of such activity make us think that it must be a somewhat limited activity. Of course, many readers of this material will think that whatever ideas he/she espouses on the subject, based upon his/her religious or cultural upbringing, are exempt from questioning — they are the right ones. Or, he/she has attached himself to this or that teaching, whether it be channeled or scientific or ethnic or whatever, and because it feels right, or because his/her “guide” or inner guidance system of whatever nature, has confirmed it for him/her, it is not subject to being a program. In fact, this is one of the very control mechanisms we’ll be talking about in this chapter.
On the subject of the logistics of mind programming, I want to remind the reader of the following:
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) How “long”, and I put long in quotes, because we know, as you say, there is no time, but how long, as we measure it, have the Grays been interacting with our race? The Grays, not the Lizards; the Grays, the cybergenetic probes?
A: Time travelers, therefore, “Time is ongoing”.
Q: (L) Okay, recently I read a couple of books J gave me, Knight in Shining Armor [by Jude Deveraux] and Replay [by Ken Grimwood]. Both of these books described time travel. 1
A: No, not finished with answer. Do you understand the gravity of last response?
Q: (L) They are time travelers, they can move forward and backward in time, they can play games with our heads… (T) They can set up the past to create a future they want. (D) They can organize things so that they can create the energy that they need… (L) They can also make things look good, make them feel good, make them seem good, they can make you have an idea one minute, and then the next minute, create some sort of situation that confirms that idea…
A: When you asked how long, of course it is totally unlimited, is it not?
Q: (L) That’s not good. If they were to move back through space-time and alter an event in our past, would that alteration in the past instantaneously alter our present as well?
A: Has over and over and over.
Q: (D) So they do it over and over and over, constantly? (L) So, at each…
A: You just are not yet aware, and have no idea of the ramifications!!!
Q: (L) We’re getting a little glimmer! (T) The ramifications of being able to move in and out of time and manipulate it the way you want… (J) And the ramifications of what they’re doing to us and what they will do to us, over and over. (L) So, in other words, our only real prayer in this whole damn situation is to get out of this density level. That’s what they’re saying, that’s what it sounds like to me.
A: Close.
Q: (L) Because, otherwise, we’re just literally, as in that book, stuck in the replay over and over and over, and the Holocaust could happen over and over, and we could just, you know… Genghis Khan, Attila the Hun… over and over and over again. (T) We’re stuck in a time loop; they’re putting us in a time loop. (J) Are we in a time loop?
A: Yes.
I once had what I thought was a rather silly idea. I was reading alien abduction cases, and the descriptions were so similar that I wondered if it was the same few guys who constantly traveled back and forth in time over and over again abducting first one person, then another and then another and so on. If they could keep going back to the same moment in time, but to a different person, the same little group could abduct millions of people, seemingly simultaneously. It may not have been such a silly idea. Some of you may remember what Ark wrote about channeling in High Strangeness:
We need now to return to our question: if communications from the future are possible, why don’t we receive these broadcasts on a daily basis? If our minds can serve as receivers, then why aren’t we all aware of the transmissions?
I think that the answer has to do with multiple realities and branching universes, and perhaps any civilization, which would receive messages from the future on a daily basis, has ceased to exist because communication through time is a very dangerous game. You produce paradoxes and these paradoxes remove the paradoxical universes from the repository of possible universes; if you create a universe with paradoxes, it destroys itself either completely or partially. Perhaps just intelligence is removed from this universe because it is intelligence that creates paradox. Perhaps we are very fortunate that even if we can receive some of these messages from the future, we still continue to exist.
Suppose our civilization were to advance to the point where everyone can communicate with themselves in the past; they have a computer with a special program and peripheral device that does this. It becomes the latest fad: everyone is communicating with themselves in the past to warn of dangers or upcoming calamities or bad choices, or to give lottery numbers or winning horses. But, what is seen as a ‘bad choice’ or ‘calamity’ for one could be seen to be a ‘good event’ or ‘benefit’ to someone else!
So, the next step would be that ‘hackers’ would begin to break into the systems and send false communications into the past to deliberately create bad choices and calamities for some in order to produce benefits for themselves or others.
Then, the first individual would see that false information has been sent and would go into their system and go back even earlier to warn themselves that false information was going to be sent back by an ‘imposter’ and how to tell that it was false.
Then the hacker would see this, and go back in time to an even earlier moment and give false information that someone was going to send false information (that was really true) that false information (that was really false) was going to be sent, thereby confusing the issue.
This process could go on endlessly with constant and repeated communications into the past, one contradicting the other, one signal canceling out the other, with the result that it would be exactly the same as if there were no communication into the past!
There is, also, the very interesting possibility that the above scenario is exactly what is taking place in our world.
Then, we have that most interesting remark (also quoted in High Strangeness) made by our demon-possessed subject, Ann Haywood, who said:
“She puts the robe around me and then my mind separates from my body. I can look back and see it lying there. Then we go up through the ceiling, pop out the roof, and fly into space. One night the Lady took me back in time. We were in a foreign country and the people wore old-fashioned clothes. The Lady took on the appearance of a beautiful woman in a blue robe. She performed miracles for them…” Suddenly Ann’s face turned ashen and she asked to be excused. Her scream of pain was heard from the bathroom where she had taken refuge. When Ann came out, she was sniffling and holding her abdomen. The Lady had savagely attacked her for revealing that down through history, creatures like the Lady have taken the form of saints. They then use the gullibility of humankind to misguide and misinform people so that they believe they are seeing miracles performed. Ann begged the newsman to delete that portion of the interview. (Osborn, 1983; emphasis added)
If these ideas are anywhere close to what we must deal with, then I can only quote from Laurel and Hardy: It’s a fine pickle we’ve gotten ourselves into, isn’t it Ollie?
A correspondent recently wrote to me:
The last parts of [Soul Hackers] were a lot about mind programming. Well, something happened in “real life” that in a way REALLY scared me. I only have started to realize very recently that this might/could be just another example of how STS 4D tries “to get to us”, “us” being especially the more “active” ones in the field, meaning those that work “in the field”, so to speak. (I am a magazine publisher, specializing in metaphysical subjects.)
Logically, that’s not so much to these STS guys’ liking and the “bag of tricks” they may have available is phenomenal. I would like to ask you to give your opinion about what happened to me. Was it an incredible scheme of manipulation, defying all credibility, just set up to deceive me, or what?
A first remark: 4D STS can somehow “monitor” our “weakest” spots. For some it is money, others power, others wealth, still others fame, etc. I guess mine would be “in the emotional area”, and do they know how to “move in”…
It starts in the fall of 1996; I was in LA attending a “Mind, Body, Spirit” event, to see if there was anything there worthwhile that I wanted to cover. There happened to be one, just one, metaphysical teaching that really got my attention… It just felt good, peaceful, mystical…
I talked with two guys; they were extremely polite and gave me a book. I read it later on and, well, I sort of liked it. It was a sort of story, bordering reality and SF [Science Fiction] (At least, so I thought). It was clearly an introduction book. Easy to read, to get people’s attention — just introducing the subject.
Now, we jump to the spring of 1997. I saw a specific web site (about walk-ins) and just “registered” it. Nothing to do with the aforementioned “New Age Teaching”. End of June 1997: I attend a New Age trade show in Birmingham; guess what, there they (the aforementioned New Age group, NOT the “walk-in” group) were again! I had lunch with the two people in the booth. Nice meeting. And I offered to help them.
Then, second week of September 1997… I am driving on the M25 around London, and “out of nowhere” a sort of telepathic communication gets started. Not frightening, it was actually “funny” in a strange way. It never had happened to me like that (at that time I was guessing that “my guidance” was really moving up a notch! Well, I didn’t know the Cs web site yet). It was about a conference I should attend somewhere nearby Glastonbury, UK. The conference was about walk-ins. I found out the dates. (Coincidence! It was just the weekend I had decided to “keep free for me”!) So, I went.
Very nice conference it was. And there I meet “someone”. Yup, an American girl. Stunning redhead! All kinds of the strangest things start to happen… Synchronicities all over the place, people actually started saying things about me when looking at her — talking about a magic (or should I say “magick”??) weekend! It didn’t stop there… “Romance” followed — oh so swiftly…TOO swiftly I’d say now. A real “love bite”!
Well, hey, I was experiencing a living fairytale here! So, she decides to stay after the weekend. But guess what? She just “happened” to be deeply involved in this very same New Age teaching I had recently become aware of and had decided to become involved in!! And, as it just “happened”, I was just going to a show to “introduce” the material there. Well, she could come along and help, right??? Give a little talk, meet the people. What a coincidence!
But now, she starts “bombarding” me with the principles of this “teaching”. At times, I even had to get a bit aggressive to avoid this continual effort to “brainwash” me. At this point, the group sent me a second book, and somehow, this changed my views entirely regarding this teaching. (Divine STO intervention?) After reading this second book, I could see that this teaching was a THREAT of the worst kind!
But, because of this woman, and the emotional ties, I kept this to myself because there were plans to visit the group’s European HQ. I thought that, at least, I would be able to examine things further and make a more thorough assessment. While there, I experienced, (no kidding), what I think was a direct attack of psychic black magic. It freaked me out!! It was me — psychically — against eight or so tough people! It actually made me sick.
And of course, there were the ongoing big confrontations with the girl about this, so she went home. One month later I was in the US to try to figure out what the meaning of all this was. I don’t think I ever lived through a more confusing month than the month of November 1997.
To make a long story short: Because I was not willing to be brainwashed by this group, I went back home a “heartbroken man”. Couldn’t figure out what the heck had happened. This was nothing like me, still it happened TO me. There followed 15 months of silence. Oh yes, I DID get regular mailings from that group — a continuous barrage of material.
The story had another chapter in a “less dense” way just this past year. A last meeting in the states with the redhead where she made a last “attempt” (pretty forced…) to “turn me on” to that teaching, right? Well, it didn’t work. After a last e-mail conversation with her, the mailings also stopped from the main HQ.
Conclusion: can it be that this whole “play” was just staged to get me “hooked up” in that bl**dy teaching??? They probably considered me “useful” for their organization? I never could figure out where they got their funds from — and they were WELL funded!
The scary part is, how could all these — at first sight — totally non-related events be set up and coordinated??? The whole thing played out in 3-4 countries, on several continents, involved different, non-related (I guess…) organizations; a concerted attack on me where I am “weakest”, the most incredible “miracles” happened to make it seem that “the hand of God” was upon me, in contradiction to what I KNEW to be true about this teaching — that it was a real THREAT to mankind! Just a big cosmic drama.
The thing is, I believe it to be possible that not one of them (maybe 1 or 2 of the “heads” in the UK excepted, they gave me a very “strange” feeling) is consciously aware of what’s going on!
“They” (whoever or whatever was behind this) made one HUGE mistake: the timing was just too perfect… The same day that this manipulation was finally stopped by me, a new one was started — or at least it was tried!! I am getting VERRRRY careful now.
OK, I know, Knowledge Protects… I learned that part at least. But how many others are led into similar things in similar ways and don’t have the knowledge about New Age teachings that I did so that, with the second book I was able to discern and make a decision, against all the synchronicities and “confirmations” and so forth that have become “bread and butter” for the New Age set?
This correspondent was really on the fast track, I would say, but this is not the only story of this kind I have heard, not to mention what I have lived personally. My correspondent makes some crucial points about our subject here when he asks, “The scary part is, how could all these — at first sight — totally non-related events be set up and coordinated?” And he adds, “The thing is, I believe it to be possible that not one of them (maybe one or two of the heads in the UK excepted, they gave me a very strange feeling) is consciously aware of what’s going on!”
Oh, so true! The most useful tools of fourth density STS are those who simply do not believe in a control system, and do not think that they, themselves, can be used. The instant you think this, is the instant you are vulnerable.
In answer to the question of how such a cosmic drama could be orchestrated, just keep in mind the time travel factor, and the following:
November 19, 1994
A: Disinformation comes from seemingly reliable sources. It is extremely important for you to not gather false knowledge, as it is more damaging than no knowledge at all. Remember knowledge protects, ignorance endangers. The information you speak of, T, was given to you deliberately because you and J and others have been targeted due to your intense interest in level of density 4 through 7 subject matter. You have already been documented as a “threat”. […] Remember, disinformation is very effective when delivered by highly trained sources because hypnotic and transdimensional techniques are used thereby causing electronic anomalies to follow suggestion causing perceived confirmation to occur.
Q: (T) What I want to know is who has the power and ability to set up these kinds of confirmations or synchronicities?
A: Same forces spreading disinformation: Brotherhood / Consortium / Illuminati / New World Order / “Antichrist” / Lizards.
Q: (T) But I’m just a nobody. Why would they go to all trouble…
A: Several answers follow: number one, Nobody is a “nobody”. Number two, it is no trouble at all for aforementioned forces to give seemingly individualized attention to anybody. Number three, T has been targeted and so has J and others because you are on the right track. Number four, this area is currently a “hot bed” of activity and extremely rapidly expanding awareness.
When I was first reading the Greenbaum material, I kept thinking that this was more or less a shadow of what hyperdimensional beings must be capable of doing. The fact that we are even aware of the Greenbaum program is due to errors or glitches in the programs of some of the people. What about the people who have no glitches? What about the people who are perfectly programmed via truly alien technology? How could we ever tell? At one point, we questioned the Cassiopaeans a bit more closely about fourth density programming:
July 19, 1995
Q: (L) Our first question is: In a previous session we were given a small dissertation on the process of abduction. It was described for us in some detail. [This is included in High Strangeness.] Now, what we would like to know is, if our souls are abducted from our bodies and then used as a pattern for remolecularization in fourth density, is there ever, at any time, a remolecularized clone that is retained in fourth density even after the soul has been returned to its original body?
A: No, it’s not possible.
Q: (L) So, they don’t keep a pattern or clone of any of us after they have abducted us, “they” being a general term?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do any of the STS beings have the ability to cause us physical problems, or mental or emotional problems when not in direct contact with us?
A: Certainly.
Q: (L) How is this done?
A: A number of different methods used.
Q: (L) Could you give us one or two examples of how this is done?
A: There are many: sound wave manipulation of the ultra-high frequency range would be one.
Q: (L) What do these sound waves in the ultra-high frequencies do?
A: They can alter chemical balances within the body of the subject, thereby also the brain, using the physical path to cause distress by altering these chemical imbalances into place.
Q: (L) Do these ultra-high frequency sound waves ever carry messages in terms of pre-coded suggestions that are triggered by these waves?
A: Messages are not carried in ultra-high frequency sound waves. Now, you are talking about an entirely different method. Sound wave focusing is designed to alter body and brain chemistry in order to alter such things as physical sensations, emotions, and so forth, which then may lead to the altering of mental thought patterns. But messages are not sent by ultra-high frequency sound waves. Messages are sent by something called Free Formal Imaging.
Q: (L) And what does that describe?
A: That describes the transference of thought.
Q: (L) And how is that done? At what frequency is it done?
A: Not correct concept. There is no “frequency” as such involved. There is methodology that, again, unfortunately, you do not understand. However, since you seek answers to all questions, the only possible way to explain is to simply say a thought is formed in one realm and sent to a second realm, which is yours.
Q: (L) Okay. Can it be sent to a directed target?
A: Absolutely.
Q: (L) Now, the question has arisen that, since other dimensional beings have the ability to kidnap or abduct or forcibly extract souls, do they also have the capability of manipulating our soul essences after they have left our bodies during the transition to fifth density?
A: Not correct. You see when your physical body expires, and you enter fifth density, this is done one way and one way only: by passing through a conduit which opens specifically for the purpose of transference from third density to fifth density. Now, something often referred to in your terminology as a silver thread, is like a closed line, which opens when this conduit is needed. That’s rather awkward, but it’s the only way to describe it. So that when the physical body terminates, this line is opened forming a conduit through which the soul passes naturally. However, part of the existence of this conduit is that it is absolutely impenetrable by any force from any density level. Therefore, souls in the process of transferring from third density to fifth density cannot in any way be molested or tampered with. And it should be mentioned here also that the soul imprint of the physical body always has a connection to fifth density and that is through the so-called “silver thread” that always exists as the third density soul’s doorway to fifth density. It can be opened at a moment’s notice whenever needed. When it is opened it becomes a conduit. Through that conduit the soul passes. And it is not subject to interference by anything. This is not a deliberate construction; it is merely the natural process. Once it is passing through the conduit produced by the opening of the silver thread, then, of course, it cannot be tampered with. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes, but why do so many souls, when they leave the body, not traverse this conduit, and why do they stay earthbound, and why do they attach to other bodies? Why does this condition exist?
A: That is a complicated question, however the best answer is choice is involved there for those souls who wish not to leave the plane of third density. The only possibility to do this is to be detached from the now expired physical body but still be within the third density plane, which, of course, is not natural, but nonetheless can occur. In situations such as this, though it has been incorrectly reported, the silver thread is still attached and still remains a thread rather than a conduit. The soul is still attached to the silver thread but detached from the host body, which has now expired. So the effect is very similar to being consciously aware of third density surroundings without a third density unit to accompany. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes. Okay…
A: Also, please be aware of the fact that once the soul leaves the confines of the physical body, the illusion of time passage is no longer apparent even when the soul remains on the third density plane. Therefore, it appears to that soul that no time whatsoever has passed. And, we mention this merely for you to contemplate all of the various meanings behind this.
Free Formal Imaging. A most interesting concept. I wonder how many people think they have guides or guardian angels and they are really just being manipulated by such messages? And, the above exchange makes it clear that the problem is even more difficult since the Cassiopaeans are suggesting that body chemicals can be manipulated by sound waves, and that these chemicals — including hormones one would guess — affect one’s thinking. As noted earlier, any woman who has ever suffered PMS knows how true that is!
But, excluding normal cyclical fluctuations, it seems that the same PMS-type state, and even others more precisely formulated, can be artificially stimulated in the individual by this sound wave technology. What about stimulation of pleasure chemicals? How easy would it be for them to implant an idea, send a voice message via an idea construct, and then simultaneously stimulate the pleasure centers of the brain so that the individual is washed through and through with warmth and love, thereby being convinced that the idea that is being contemplated is very positive and life affirming when it is, in fact, actually the opposite.
At the same time, we understand one of the means by which an individual can be blocked from retrieving memories by having a pain block installed, and later stimulated.
The point is: it becomes almost impossible to trust one’s emotions when considering this factor. So, again, we see the necessity for knowledge about the environment and thoughtful examination of our internal state at all times in order to avoid such traps.
Just how powerful this type of manipulation can be in human hands, is exemplified in a couple of brief remarks about the Branch Davidians at Waco:
October 5, 1994
Q: (L) Did the United States government deliberately murder the Branch Davidians at Waco?
A: Close. Led them to destroy themselves.
Q: (L) How?
A: Psychological warfare tactics.
Q: (L) Did the US government set their compound on fire?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who set the compound on fire?
A: Branch Davidians. ELF and subliminals, as well as other means drove them crazy.
The fact that the use of ELF and other sound frequencies is ubiquitous was mentioned by the Cassiopaeans one night to a researcher who had recently been through what she described as a “severe psychic attack”.
February 25, 1995
Q: (CD) The thing the other night… was I being bombarded by ELF frequencies?
A: All are.
Q: (L) All in the room?
A: All are.
Q: (CD) Am I in physical danger?
A: That is not the point. You can be harassed.
Q: (BP) Cannot unconditional love and faith overcome all of this?
A: More is needed. Knowledge protects.
Please note that another guest who was well and truly inured in the New Age teachings suggested “love and faith” as the solution to the problem. This is exactly the kind of teachings that are being promulgated to make seekers weak and vulnerable to manipulation. Just as Don Elkins could have very well survived the assaults on him if he had been able to pursue the questions about attack from negative forces, so might many seekers be able to avoid similar traps, and many other kinds of traps as well.
In addition to sound, it seems that there are other technologies to keep the human population deaf and blind. The next excerpt is interesting because it followed a suggestion for a series of questions made by the Cassiopaeans themselves in response to an unspoken question:
November 18, 1995
A: Strobe lights are used for 3rd density mind control.
Q: (L) Strobe lights located where? What brought that up?
A: We have picked up your thought waves, which are progress oriented, and are trying to assist you in your increased learning and progress frequency wave. You see, this increases the energy level!!
Q: (L) Okay. You mentioned the strobe lights. Are these strobe lights that are used to control minds, are these something that we would or might come in contact with on a daily basis?
A: Do you not already know? We didn’t say: some strobe lights, we said: strobe lights, i.e., all-inclusive!
Q: (T) Strobe lights come in many forms and types. TV is a strobe light. Computer screens are a strobe light. Light bulbs strobe, fluorescent strobe, streetlights strobe.
A: Police cars, ambulances, fire trucks… How long has this been true? Have you noticed any changes lately??!!??
Q: (F) Twenty years ago there were no strobe lights on any of those vehicles mentioned. They had the old flasher type lights. Now, more and more and more there are strobe lights appearing in all kinds of places. (L) And now, they even have them on school buses! (T) And the regular city buses have them too, now. (L) Okay, is the strobe of a strobe light set at a certain frequency in order to do certain things?
A: Hypnotic opener.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of the hypnotic opener being used in this way?
A: You don’t notice the craft. Opener. Is precursor to suggestion, which is auditory in nature?
Q: (T) What suggestion?
A: Put on your thinking caps. Networking is not making assumptions. Bold unilateral statement of “fact” is.
Q: (T) Oh. Phrase your statements in the form of a question! Cosmic Jeopardy! I’d like “Hypnotic Openers” for $200, Alex! (L) Okay, you said the “suggestion is auditory in nature”. If this is the case, where is the suggestion coming from in auditory format?
A: Where do you normally receive auditory suggestions from?
Q: (L) Radio, television… (T) Telephone… (L) Is that what we are talking about?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If you encounter a strobe while driving, or you are sitting in front of your television, then the suggestions can be put into you better because of this hypnotically opened state? Is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What are these suggestions designed to do, to suggest? In a general sense, to not see the craft?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Do we get these signals from the radio in the car even if it is turned off?
A: Depends upon whether or not there is another source.
Q: (T) Another source such as?
A: ELP, for example. Extremely Low Pulse.
Q: (T) ELF, Extremely Low Frequency, and ELP, Extremely Low Pulse — is this the same thing?
A: Sometimes.
Q: (T) This would be an external pulse or frequency?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Would it be originating from the source of the strobe?
A: No. They act in unison.
Q: (L) And this process prevents us from seeing something, such as craft flying in our skies at any given time?
A: Or maybe see them as something else.
Q: (L) Now, we have to stop for a minute because I want to tell you something. In the past few months, I have really been watching the sky carefully every opportunity I get. On three or four separate occasions I have seen what I thought was an ordinary airplane, and I would watch it carefully and then scan to the left or right, and when I looked back at the place where this plane should be, based on observable speed and direction, there would be nothing there. I have stood there and searched and searched and found nothing. These things just vanished. I knew I had seen it, I knew I wasn’t crazy, I knew it couldn’t have gone away that completely — and having it happen several times has just really unsettled me. What are the implications of this, other than the fact that we could be completely overflown at all times for any number of purposes and we could be, as a mass of people, completely unaware of it?
A: Yes, monoatomic gold!
Q: (L) And what does the reference to monoatomic gold mean? We have wondered about obtaining and taking some of this monoatomic gold.
A: Are you serious? How about some small helpings of arsenic, anyone?
Q: (L) Okay, my feeling is that there is some negative energy behind that, even though David Hudson is trying to be a positive person and do positive things, and that… It may be that he is being manipulated.
A: This is often true!
Q: (L) I think that taking something like that to transform your consciousness without doing the work or having it occur naturally is a violation of the free will of the Higher Self. That’s what I think. (F) Well, did Jesus or other great masters take this gold powder?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did Adolph Hitler take this kind of powder, or something similar?
A: Yes.
Q: (F) That paints a rather bleak picture, doesn’t it? (L) Could this powder be utilized to transform a person to a very positive entity doing great good?
A: Or could it be utilized to transform an entire race of beings into hypnotic submission!!!!!!!!!!!
Q: (F) Wow! (L) Put it in the water. (F) Or even just advertise it as the “Manna from Heaven” and get the biggest corporations in the world to… I mean, you know that if this guy were not meant to spread this stuff all around, by now he’d be running into roadblocks, you wouldn’t be allowed to get tapes like that out there. That was one thing I was suspicious of, like why he hasn’t even been stopped, if it’s really as wonderful as he claims… I mean it just doesn’t fit. Anything that’s really, really good, and it’s going to go against the control system. […] Are they just going to sit back and say, “Oh, yeah, we’ll just let this gold powder get spread round everywhere, and everybody will take it and develop super psychic powers and wake up”, just like that? I don’t think so! The fact that it is being promulgated from the “other side” tells us that there is a plan here.
A: Total entrapment of the being, mind, body and soul. Strobes use minute gold filament.
Q: (L) How can that compare with taking monoatomic gold internally?
A: What composes minute filament, do you suppose? Hint, it ain’t from Fort Knox!
Q: (T) Monoatomic gold.
A: Bingo. You see, this has extraordinary properties.
Q: (T) I’m sure it does! The thing is, if it does what Hudson says it does, the power structure would have shut him down — he wouldn’t have gotten this far with it. So, if they are letting him do it, it’s because it doesn’t do what he says it does, it does the opposite. When you take the stuff for so many days, you complete the program; it restructures your genes. Isn’t that what happened to us before? Do we want to do it again? (L) And, wasn’t it said that light was used to cancel certain DNA factors? (J) Exactly! (L) Okay, how do we block this kind of control?
A: You don’t. Knowledge protects.
Regarding the ELF control factor, we had a personal experience at one point that could give some clues to others who are searching. In 1997, Ark had several research obligations in Europe and one of them was in Göttingen. When he arrived at the institute, he was assigned an office and would walk from the hotel to the office at the University every day. But there was a strange problem. As soon as he would get settled in to work, he became so sleepy that he could simply not stay awake. He tried everything from getting up and moving around to drinking coffee or tea, and nothing worked. He tried going to sleep earlier to make sure he was well rested, but he simply could not sleep in a way so as to get good rest. Even if he felt relatively rested in the hotel, the instant he would enter the office and begin working, the drugged sensation would wash over him and he would become almost incoherent. We were in constant contact by email and phone, and I was becoming very worried about him.
Well, he finally noticed that when he was down in the basement library of the University, he was not sleepy, so he took his notebook computer down there to work and spent as little time in the office as possible. I decided to ask a few questions about this situation:
May 31, 1997
Q: (L) Ark has been having a problem sleeping at night and staying awake in the office. The building is a number 9, but there is also the Max Planck Institute across the street. Is it the number 9, or the Max Planck Institute across the street?
A: Well, we vote for Max!
Q: (L) So, what are they doing over there in that building that is affecting him?
A: Better question: What are “they” doing on 4th density that is affecting him?
Q: (L) Since that is a better question, what are they doing on fourth density that is affecting Ark? Is he being abducted from this building?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are they STS or STO?
A: STS.
Q: (L) Are they zapping him with some kind of frequency modulation?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Why is it more effective in that building than in the basement or at his hotel?
A: Because of Max.
Q: (L) Okay, they are using whatever is going on in that building to zap Ark. Anything else they are doing there?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could you tell me what?
A: No. It would not be in your best interests to know.
Q: (L) Is there anything else they are doing to Ark?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell me?
A: Body chemistry alteration.
Q: (L) In what sense is there body chemistry alteration going on?
A: Brain wave factors.
Q: (L) Is there something he can do for protection?
A: He soon will leave the area.
Q: (L) Well, during the time he is there, how much damage can they do?
A: Probably not much.
Q: (L) Anything else?
A: One shot of whiskey per day will help.
Q: (L) Well, that is a bizarre thing to say! A shot of whiskey?! That will help his brain chemistry?
A: Some.
Q: (L) What is this altering of his brain chemistry designed to do?
A: Befuddle.
Q: (L) Well, I think it is working. Any other suggestion besides staying in the hotel, or the basement, and drinking a shot of whiskey a day?
A: No need.
Q: (L) And you are not going to tell us what they are doing over there in the Max Planck Institute?
A: As Carlos Allende would say: “If you knew, you would die of shock.”
Well, many of the things going on here on the Big Blue Marble certainly aren’t friendly for sure! But, as the Cassiopaeans noted, Ark was soon to leave Göttingen for Dijon for a couple of weeks, after which he traveled to Florence. The time in Dijon was as bad, if not worse, than the time in Göttingen. At the point of the next transcript, he was already in Florence.
July 5, 1997
Q: (L) This past couple of weeks that Ark spent in Dijon were miserable. What was the fundamental reason for these conditions and this misery?
A: Near ELF transmitter. Also the water supply is loaded with fluoride.
Q: (L) He is gone from Dijon now. Whatever it was in Göttingen, you said he would be gone soon and not to worry. So… he is no longer near the ELF transmitter… he is no longer drinking the water…
A: Fluoride is toxic, and deposits in fatty tissues, and lymph system. Aside from the obvious possible negative consequences, it can make one more susceptible to electromagnetic wave frequencies that are designed to make one open to mind alteration!
Q: (L) Okay. You have my undivided attention. How does he get the fluoride out of his system?
A: Recommend daily ingestion of Goldenseal root, as well as vinegar and garlic in moderation, along with up to an hour per every two days of light aerobic exercise.
Q: (L) Well, this sounds serious. Anything else that will help?
A: This is a good start. Arkadiusz, or as we like to call him, Arkady, is the primary target of your trio, for now. Great potential dangers lurk…
Q: (L) So this really is like the grail Quest? He has to go through a magic forest, chop heads off dragons, keep his eyes open and not be led astray by deceptive images and tricks… the whole thing!
A: Where to get the influence for the inspiration behind that story? Imagine how much your cause would be damaged without him? Where would your ambition for the quest go? You must be extremely vigilant when it comes to him and his safety. He still does not completely fathom the depths of the situation. Until he is here, thus more protected, and it will not be easy to get him here, danger awaits the greeting of each new day. Vigilance! Vigilance! Vigilance!!!!!
Q: (L) That is completely depressing. Help me out here!
A: Now… Calm down! No need for depression. Would you rather be left with a lack of knowledge, and in an ever-increasing state of false security-oriented oblivion, only to be struck by lightning?!? Of course not!!! So remember… Knowledge protects, ignorance endangers!!
Q: (L) Well, you said that it was going to be difficult for him to get home. The travel arrangements have already been made. Are you saying difficult in a general sense, or is there going to be some major move made, some plan going on at other levels, or behind the scenes, to prevent him? [And there was, as it turned out, but that is another story, best saved for later!]
A: There always is that. Have you not seen the evidence already? Must be aware. Think of it as a war. Expect every possible move/or occurrence. Victory comes from being forewarned, and therefore, forearmed.
Q: (L) Is that, as Frank said, the key? To turn up the vigilance volume to maximum?
A: Always. Don’t be like the sentry who fell into a peaceful, pleasure filled, dreamy sleep while on watch! He did not even feel the blade as it pierced his heart!
Q: (L) Well, that is not friendly. Now I really am depressed! Tell me: is what we are doing so important that this kind of energy has to be concentrated on us?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can we quit?
A: Look at it this way: make it your goal to succeed, and then you have not to fear. Arkadiusz must be made aware that dangers lurk everywhere, potentially. He has spent a lifetime building a strong sense of security, based upon his own natural self-assured state of being. But now is the “time” to learn that this is not enough.
Q: (L) Is there any specific danger in Florence that you can point out, or back in Wroclaw?
A: No specific dangers. Just remember: there are forces “out there” that wish to see your project, and you, fail. You two have both previously felt the sting of these forces acutely. He has not so much, until now.
Q: (L) Anything further on this?
A: We could go on and on. The point is: warn Arkadiusz! Knowledge protects…
Q: (L) Well, I certainly will. Could this WM who has just come into the picture be part of the attack forces?
A: Anyone and everyone could be. Remember, they work through persons; they are not normally the persons themselves.
The notion that the process of graduating from third density is exemplified in the stories of the Grail Quest brings up the point that many of the tests and trials of the Grail hero involved great deception. He was not just challenged by obviously dangerous or threatening things in his reality, though that did happen. The greatest dangers came from those ploys and traps that were designed to seduce him through kindness, sympathy, love and beauty. It was only after he had made the right choice that the true form of the illusion was revealed to him. He was not granted any proof beforehand, nor was he given any insight other than the fact that following the illusion was a distraction from the ultimate goal.
That brings us back to the idea that the so-called aliens, or hyperdimensional beings, work through humans, via mind programming, emotional manipulation, and other methods. How is one to tell if they are interacting with a disseminator of disinformation posing as a teacher or guru or great saint or channel or even personal guides or guardian angels?
One individual suggested that we should be able to separate the reliable sources from disinformation because the latter would be given out by people who had apparent ego issues, or that they were clearly out for money.
I would like to suggest just the opposite would be true in the most hard-core cases. Yes, we have a lot of folks out there who are stuck in their egos, whose egos are being manipulated to send them out to proclaim this or that teaching involving a hierarchy in which they, naturally, have a very high position. Those people who are in it for the money and the glory are easy enough to spot if you look close enough. Even Sai Baba, a South Indian guru who claimed to be the reincarnation of the Maharashtrian saint, Sai Baba of Shirdi, has fallen from grace because many people have become aware of the clever shell game of manipulations he has been playing all these years.
But it is the others — the perfectly programmed individuals — that will be discerned with only great difficulty. And, the problem we face is the following: they really believe in what they are saying or doing. They are dedicated and driven to preach, convert, suffer, and sacrifice for the sake of their message!
Consider the Unification Church and its adherents often known colloquially as Moonies as an example. Consider the sacrifice and suffering of these people, begging on street corners, witnessing in airports and parks, accosting strangers with their message. Think of the many recent inside stories about the ways and means of their conversions. Think of the fact that they have all more or less given up a normal life, they have given all they own to their church. They have suffered hunger, cold, sleep deprivation, and so on for the sake of this belief system. They are truly sincere and dedicated. They have no ego at all. Could that be another clue?
Are they programmed in the same way we have been talking about? Are techniques such as the Greenbaum method being used here? The fact is it isn’t even necessary. One good Master Programmer can do a lot with an ignorant person. The question is, what kind of people are susceptible to these Master Programmers? In 1931, Aldous Huxley wrote Brave New World, in which he stated:
“The older dictators fell because they never could supply their subjects with enough bread, enough circuses, enough miracles and mysteries. Nor did they possess a really effective system of mind-manipulation.
“Under a scientific dictator, education will really work — with the result that most men and women will grow up to love their servitude and will never dream of revolution. There seems to be no good reason why a thoroughly scientific dictatorship should ever be overthrown.”
Aldous Huxley also made an early connection between the effects experienced by those partaking of psychedelic drugs and the experiences of Eastern Mysticism and this set the consciousness-raising bomb off with a bang. Along came Timothy Leary, and Richard Alpert aka Baba Ram Dass, with their LSD and other modes of mind marvels, leading the parade of those who were “turned on, tuned in”.
Abraham Maslow became a father figure to the new wave of those desiring to fill the gaping hole of their reality with peak experiences. Maslow cited psychedelic drugs as one of the means in which even ordinary people could have a little of what the Eastern Mystics worked many years to develop. Now, it could be had for a weekend seminar at Big Sur, or a study by mail course at only $29.95 per lesson. What a deal!
Peak Experiences — experience, experience, and experience — became the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow of the 1960s. No one needed to live in existential despair any longer. Everyone could become a spiritual voyager and achieve extended periods in realms of consciousness they had only heard about in veiled, mysterious allusions passed down through the ages. Encounter groups, radical therapies, old and new combinations of theories and practice came rolling off the conveyor belt of techno-spirituality. The intangibles of spirit had been harnessed. Anyone could evoke some desirable experience by manipulating awareness at the basic physical and psychological levels. Never mind that all of this bypassed the vital processes of reason and conscious decision making.
By its very nature, the whole techno-spiritual machine operated completely without critical thinking; it tapped the bottomless pit of feeling and emotion — primal being. Never mind that much of this emotion was negative, confusing, anxious and fearful. Let’s just get it all out here in the open and have a party with it!
Each of the many techniques developed during this time were completely capable of producing an emotional high of one sort or another. There were endless peak experiences, and dramatic personal breakthroughs. The mixtures of Zen, yoga, meditation, and drugs along with strict mechanical technology, were a veritable adventure in awareness. The only problem was: in the midst of all this peaking, mind-blowing, turning on and tuning in, ecstasy and encountering, many people encountered things that perhaps ought not have been awakened. Boundaries were breached into invisible and terrifying realms of consciousness. William Chittick, translator of the works of the great Sufi Shaykh, Ibn al-‘Arabi, wrote:
Nowadays most people interested in the spirituality of the East desire the ‘experience’, though they may call what they are after intimate communion with God. Those familiar with the standards and norms of spiritual experience set down by disciplined paths like Sufism are usually appalled at the way Westerners seize upon any apparition from the domain outside of normal consciousness as a manifestation of the ‘spiritual’. In fact, there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world.
“So preserve yourselves, my brothers, from the calamities of this place, for distinguishing it is extremely difficult! Souls find it sweet, and then within it they are duped, since they become completely enamored of it.” (Futuhat III 38.23, in Chittick, 1989, 263)
By the end of the decade of the ’60s, the human potential movement had become a veritable potpourri of religion, science, mysticism, magick and the occult. The drug use got out of hand, the techniques began to show serious flaws with a number of tragedies resulting in crime or madness, and the whole idea of human beings becoming “psychic supermen” hit the skids.
The promise of the ’60s decayed into an aimless lethargy — old hippies living in communes, braiding their gray locks and lusting after the sweet young teeny boppers while they fired up another bong and reminisced about the good old days at Esalen.
But wait! Something else happened here. Remember, this is America, the home of the free … market, that is. Many people suggest that the subsequent proliferation of the New Age consciousness raising movement was the result of big business seeing a pile of money to be made in the development of slick, newly packaged psychoanalysis and psychodrama. There was, indeed, mass distribution and Madison Avenue marketing of things like Mind Dynamics, Arica, Silva Mind Control, Transcendental Meditation, and on and on. Individual entrepreneurs knew a good thing when they saw it. However, there is more to this than meets the eye. This is important to our subject, so bear with me.
What happened was that many of the mind-wounded ran straight back into the arms of their childhood faith; but many more became victims of the many up and coming cults that were happy to take them in and patch the holes in their psyches, or fix them up for a few weekends of witnessing on the street corner and some door-to-door proselytizing. The odd thing is that most of these new cults were simply variations of the old cults. Instead of Jesus coming to save us, the aliens were going to do it!
Many of the cults, and even the old religions, took advantage of the new marketing strategies and polished up their images, sent their people to advertising classes and then out into the world in massive fundraising and recruitment drives. The Hare Krishna group, among others, even hired their own ad men.
So, the race was on again. Only now, it was like buying Coca-Cola. The “pause that refreshes” right here in this very tape set, consciousness raising course, or cult practice! It had become a form of spiritual masturbation where everyone met their own needs in private. You could put on your strobe glasses, listen to your astral travel tape, channel your very own guides, and get high without ever leaving the farm. You could change your beliefs, create your own reality, and indulge your inner child by mail, by golly!
What nobody seems to be talking about, however, is the concomitant changes in our world that very well may be the direct result of this so-called shift in consciousness. Nobody wants to talk about the hard reality of what is really going on out there. One correspondent described it so well that I will reproduce his comments:
I think I am noticing a vast world of things going on that, just a few short years ago, would never have happened. Almost everywhere I look, when I see circumstances and reactions and goings-on, the thought explodes into my head, ‘What in the world is going on here?’ Let me list what I see:
The modern-day Roman circus spectaculars of Elians, O.J.s and Monicas.
The appeal of today’s non-music, music that appeals to the most base of human emotion and response.
The opiate of the mindless drone and flicker of constant television.
The dangled carrot of a manipulated and contrived economy.
The apathy toward the government and their meaningless platitudes.
The increase in violence and attacks from close and least expected sources, which appear to be designed by outside forces to provide an energy feeding frenzy as well as divert those seeking awareness and understanding from a path of discovery.
The dark side of Tesla genius.
The easy access of Internet porn and the proliferation of cyber-sex as an option to replace ‘real life’.
And to the above I would add:
One out of every 100 Americans living in a prison, a figure unprecedented in our history.
The numbers of people on prescription, mind altering drugs is even higher than the number of people in physical prisons.
We are now diagnosing and drugging our children for behavior that was once considered to be normal for a child.
Gang proliferation throughout all levels of society, where once such things existed only among the very poor and disadvantaged.
Children becoming violent at a young age more frequently than ever before.
Mass killings so common they aren’t even reported on the front page anymore
And, while I have your ear: what’s up with the way kids dress nowadays? Well, it’s not even just kids, it’s ubiquitous. It seems that human beings, under the influence of Madison Avenue and the motivation masters of greed and degradation, get up early in the morning to figure out how to dress themselves, arrange their hair, and decorate their bodies in as repulsive a way as possible.
I am continuously revolted by clerks in stores with multiple body piercings, tattoos that look more like dirt smudges or bruises than art, hair that looks like it was arranged by Attila the Hun, make-up that looks like it was applied by Vlad the Impaler. Young people wear clothing that make them look like rejects from the Oklahoma dust bowl days. Chains and chunks of metal clank from every part of their person as they display their ornaments to their peers, resembling a combination of ancient Mongol warriors and concentration camp survivors.
And it’s clearly not the proclaimed “personal expression”, because it is more of a uniform than anything else. The demand to have the same look, the same brand of clothing, the same body parts pierced, or to think of new and more bizarre ways to do it, is overwhelming every parent I know. I have had to draw the line in my own house, telling my kids that they won’t eat at my table if the way they look makes my stomach churn.
Who or what is inspiring these manifestations of purely barbaric, mechanistic behavior? Who is turning humanity into beings who accept what used to be the trappings of slavery as if it were the latest style? And what’s more, to convince them that it is expressive or attractive? What is going on when physical self-mutilation and self-defacement, mind numbing and body jarring music, and things that are just plain ugly are considered normal? And, not just normal, but attractive.
While the above might appear as a rant, look more closely and try to discern what this tendency says about our society. What is it telling us? Those who have bought into the New Age bonanza seem to have shut off their minds and the effect on their offspring is frightening. We have become part of a reality that is ripe for being taken over by the first “strong man” who comes along with signs and wonders. When we think back over all of this “awakening of America”, we find that the origins of the movement are traceable to the arts. So, let’s take another look at something the Cassiopaeans said:
September 21, 1996
Q: (T) Is there any significance to the ID4 [Independence Day] movie?
A: Sure.
Q: (L) What was the primary intention of the makers of this movie? The primary message that they attempted to convey?
A: Infuse thinking patterns with [planchette swirled a few times here] concept of aliens. Part of a larger project called “Project Awaken”.
Q: (L) And who is behind, or in charge of, this project?
A: Thor’s Pantheum. Sub-select trainees for transfer of enlightenment frequency graduation.
Q: (L) Well, is this group STS or STO?
A: Both.
Q: (T) They’re working together? Bipartisan?
A: No.
Q: (J) Are they aware of each other? Working on this?
A: Yes. There is more to all of this than you could dream. An army of Aryan psychic projectors.
Q: (L) And what do they project?
A: Themselves… Right in to one’s head.
Q: (L) And, when they project themselves right into someone’s head, what does that someone perceive?
A: Inspiration.
Q: (L) Inspiration to do something?
A: And…
Q: (L) To do something, and to understand or perceive something?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, how many are in this army?
A: 1.6 million.
Q: (L) When they’re doing this projecting into someone’s head, where are they projecting from?
A: Mostly subterranean.
Q: (L) Are they third or fourth density beings?
A: Both.
Q: (T) Let me back up to a question here. If they can do all this projecting on their own, what was the point of the movie?
A: No, you misunderstand… This is an intense activity, directed towards influencing the high level creative forces.
Q: (L) Was there something subliminal in the movie? That opened something?
A: Sure. Not for you, but for others.
Q: (L) What made us immune?
A: You already have the knowledge.
Q: (L) What are these high-level creative forces that need to be influenced, or desirable of being influenced?
A: Those in the creative arts.
Q: (L) So in other words this group is using their projecting ability to influence those in the creative arts to produce things that will therefore influence the people on the planet. Is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can we say that they are stimulating people in a positive way?
A: Maybe.
Q: (J) Can we say that they are stimulating people in a negative way?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) So, there’s probably a little of both. And you say that we are immune to it because we already have knowledge. Now, when you say we have knowledge, do you mean just knowledge in particular about aliens and alien realities and alien potentials and so forth?
A: Yes.
Well, that certainly is interesting. But, indeed, we have both STS and STO in operation here. And when you consider the time travel element, well, the game becomes infinitely more interesting.
In terms of mind programming, this question about what is done via the media always arises. There are many conspiracy theorists who are certain we’re being viciously manipulated in this way. But, the simple fact is: it isn’t even necessary to go to such lengths!
November 16, 1994
Q: (L) We are aware that we are being manipulated by the media. We would like to know what types of methods do they use and what is their objective? What kind of technical means do they use to project mental manipulation by way of TV or movies?
A: Simple bombardment visual and verbal most of the time.
Q: (L) Do they use subliminal implantation of ideas in TV and movies?
A: Yes, but not needed most often.
Q: (L) The music that kids listen to, is there any effort to program them in this media?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they use subliminals there?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they use electronic signals?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they use electronic signals on television programming?
A: Have but not that often.
Q: (L) Is there any signal being sent over the test of the emergency broadcast signal?
A: No.
At this point, I am going to quote several longer passages from a book by Richard Dolan, UFOs and the National Security State. This material came out after The Wave series was first published, and not only confirms my working hypothesis at the time, it also adds important details to the understanding of the problems we face.
From the 1940s to the 1970s, military personnel from the United States and many other nations encountered unidentified flying objects, visually and on radar, sometimes at close range. These instances happened not scores of times, but hundreds of times, perhaps even thousands. Sometimes the encounter was nothing more than a solid radar return of an object moving at an incomprehensible speed, performing impossible maneuvers. Sometimes it included the violation of sensitive airspace. Often it involved the dispatch of one or more jets to intercept the object. At times, crew members claimed to see a metallic, disc-like object, sometimes with portholes, sometimes with lights, frequently engaged in what appeared to be intelligent, evasive maneuvers. In a very few cases, it involved the crash and military retrieval of a UFO. In a few others, it involved injury and even death to military personnel. In the large majority of instances recorded in UFOs and the National Security State, military personnel who encountered UFOs were adamant that they did not see a natural phenomenon.
This is clearly a serious development, and it was treated as such by those groups we may call the national security state. The CIA, NSA, and all branches of military intelligence received UFO reports and discussed the matter as something of serious concern. There is also evidence, provided by former Blue Book chief Edward Ruppelt, of an ‘Above Top Secret’ group with access to all UFO data, a group that straddled the worlds of government, military, and industry.
At the same time, the military created the fiction, for public consumption only, that the UFO problem was nothing to be concerned about — certainly not the result of little green men. Aided by a heavy-handed official media and culture, it tried to convince the public that the Air Force’s Project Blue Book was the appropriate tool for looking into this purely academic concern. Blue Book was fundamentally a public relations tool, not an investigative body. Throughout its existence, it was under orders to debunk…
Some intelligence agency, most likely CIA, appears to have surveilled civilian UFO groups… In 1952, the Aerial Phenomena Research Organization (APRO) was founded in Sturgeon Bay, Wisconsin, by Coral Lorenzen. It soon became one of America’s most influential and respected UFO organizations. Months before the first appearance of the organization’s periodical, the APRO Bulletin, a man claiming an intelligence background became an active supporter and attempted to lead the organization into ‘metaphysical areas of research’. Coral Lorenzen said she ‘gently parried’ these attempts. She later discovered light embossing on a letter she received from him, and used a soft pencil to discern what looked like an intelligence report about her. During the summer of 1952, two suspicious men posing as painting contractors called on her and engaged her in conversation. The men did not seem interested in selling any services. After they left, they parked their car where they had a clear view of the back of her home. These two men also visited APRO’s treasurer and secretary the same day, but apparently not any other homes in the neighborhood.
It is worth mentioning that, by 1952, 74 percent of the CIA’s money (and 60 percent of personnel) went toward covert operations… Contrary to the 1947 National Security Act, which stipulated that the CIA’s activities be confined outside the United States, the agency had already infiltrated and financed many U.S. labor, business, church, university, student, and cultural groups, usually channeling the money through various foundations. In 1952, it began opening the mail through a new program known as HT Lingual, which targeted correspondence between U.S. citizens and communist nations. For twenty-one years, with FBI help, the program photographed two million envelopes and opened 215,000 letters. No one, not even the president was exempt. By 1952, also, the CIA was using unwitting subjects to test the effects of LSD…
In March 1965… FBI offices were asked to compile lists of reliable reporters who could be called on for COINTELPRO work. Hoover was meanwhile busy gathering data on antiwar groups as well as members of Congress. That summer, US Army intelligence agents began to infiltrate and spy on a wide range of political groups involving about one thousand investigators and three hundred officers collecting questionable political utterances…
The CIA also controlled an army of thirty-six thousand men… which cost perhaps $300 million annually. Although Congress never authorized this activity, there was little to fear, considering the agency’s classified budget and its many private sources of income.
The HT Lingual program remained aggressive. By the early 1970s, the New York City component examined over 2 million mail items per year, photographed over thirty thousand envelopes, and opened eight thousand to nine thousand letters. In 1971, CIA Director Richard Helms gave a rare public address, in which he insisted that the CIA did not surveil domestic targets. ‘The nation must to a degree take it on faith,’ he said, ‘that we who lead the CIA are honorable men, devoted to the nation’s service.’
Meanwhile, CIA mind-control guru Sid Gottlieb had developed a strong interest in electronic stimulation of the brain, which he persuaded Helms to support. The idea was to program a human being to attack and kill upon command, to be done through the CIA’s Operation Often.
The NSA was examining over 150,000 telegrams per month, as part of Operation Shamrock…
Hoover, increasingly paranoid about exposure of the enormity of FBI activities, severed all relations with the CIA in the spring of 1970, and soon thereafter with all other intelligence agencies…
One of Nixon’s most persistent goals was the reorganization of the intelligence community, an immense undertaking. The most famous result of his efforts was the Huston Plan, named after Tom Huston, his point man on the project. At the June 1970 meeting in the Oval Office, all the main players attended: Haldeman, Ehrlichmann, Huston, and intelligence chiefs Hoover (FBI), Helms (CIA), Adm. Noel Gaylor (NSA), and Lt. Gen. Donald Bennet (DIA). Nixon made it clear he wanted a major effort against domestic dissidents. The group was chaired by Hoover and named the Inter Agency Committee on Intelligence (ICI). Even the formidable presence of the now cautious Hoover, however, could not prevent its far-reaching recommendations: expanded mail openings, resumption of illegal entries and ‘black bag’ jobs, electronic surveillance of Americans and foreigners within the U.S., an increase in the number of ‘campus sources’, and expansion of the army’s counterintelligence mission.
Nixon endorsed the plan in mid-July but would not sign it, nor would Haldeman and Ehrlichmann. Who, then, at the White House, put his name to this dramatic authorization? Why, Nixon’s young staffer, Tom Huston. Hoover easily torpedoed the plan on July 23, when he announced that he would certainly go along, just as soon as he received written authorization from the president for all these break-ins and wiretaps. Thus, the plan to ‘institutionalize burglary as presidential policy’ failed. In practice, it made little difference, as these agencies were already engaging in many of the practices for which they sought approval. They did not cease simply because official sanction was not forthcoming. In some cases, they even expanded their activities.
The first cracks in the facade appeared in 1971. With intelligence community break-ins widespread, Hoover ended the COINTELPRO program in April, not due to any recognition of impropriety but to fear of exposure. The bureau continued to be aggressive against its COINTELPRO targets, but was less systematic. Hoover’s fears proved well justified, for in May 1971, burglars broke into the FBI Field Office at Media, Pennsylvania, escaping with about a thousand documents and exposing the FBI’s massive surveillance of blacks, students, radicals, and other mischievous groups. The word ‘COINTELPRO’ escaped into society.
Then, on June 13, 1971, the New York Times began publishing a series of highly sensitive documents known as the Pentagon Papers. These were a classified history of the Vietnam War, leaked by Daniel Ellsberg, whom the White House immediately sought to smear and discredit. In September, a group of Cuban-Americans connected with the CIA, along with G. Gordon Liddy and E. Howard Hunt, broke into the office of Ellsberg’s psychiatrist. These people were Richard Nixon’s personal covert action squad, nicknamed the ‘plumbers group’. In April 1972, it was almost certainly Nixon people who broke into the home of CBS White House correspondent Dan Rather.
Also in April 1972, the residence of J. Edgar Hoover was broken into twice. According to Hoover biographer Anthony Summers, the second break in allowed for the placement of a poison (thiophosphate) into Hoover’s personal toilet articles. The chemical is a compound used in insecticides, highly toxic if taken orally, inhaled, or absorbed through the skin. It causes fatal heart seizure and is detectable only if an autopsy is performed within hours of death. J. Edgar Hoover died between 2 a.m. and 3 a.m. on May 2, 1972. He received no autopsy, and the cause was ascribed to cardiac arrest, although Hoover’s doctor claimed he had been in good health. That morning, about twenty government agents methodically ransacked Hoover’s residence, but Hoover’s secretary destroyed countless files before anyone reached them. The official establishment lionized and glorified Hoover, and twenty-five thousand people flocked to the Capitol to pay homage to him. Nixon called him ‘a great force for good in our national life.’ Privately, Nixon feared Hoover even in death. A year later, he spoke of the old Director as though he were still alive: ‘He’s got files on everybody, goddamn it!’
Shortly after Hoover’s death, Nixon’s plumbers group burglarized the Chilean embassy in Washington. Then, on June 17, 1972, they were caught while breaking into the Democratic National Committee in Washington’s Watergate Office Building. Many believe Watergate was just the tip of the iceberg, since there had been at least a hundred similar types of break-ins, all apparently politically motivated, all unsolved, an unknown number of which were connected to Nixon. … It took some time before the FBI realized the break-in was not a CIA operation…
Nixon’s several failed attempts to reorganize the intelligence community showed that he was no better than his predecessors at controlling this sprawling octopus. Dissatisfied with and mistrustful of Helms, Nixon fired him following his reelection to the presidency in November 1972. Helms now began two months of vigorous cleanup at the CIA, closing down such vulnerable programs as Operation Often. During his last days as CDI in January 1973, Helms ordered Gottlieb, also on his way out, to destroy all files relating to MK-Ultra, MK-Search, and related endeavors in mind control. Among other things, Helms was worried that the lawsuits of Ewen Cameron’s former patients could blaze a trail straight to Langley. Inexplicably, Gottlieb failed to destroy about 130 incriminating boxes in the archives. Had he destroyed these, MK-Ultra might have remained unknown to this day. Meanwhile, the CIA was also working to prevent the publication of an expose by former agent Victor Marchetti. HT Lingual and the NSA’s Minaret programs also ended in 1973, the latter in order to prevent exposure during the Weathermen Trial…
James Schlesinger, a CIA outsider, replaced Helms, then named William Colby as head of clandestine services. At Colby’s urging, Schlesinger soon ordered CIA employees to report all suspected violations of the law, or of the CIA’s charter, to the CIA’s Inspector General. The result was a 693 page report called ‘Potential Flap Activities’, known more commonly as The Family Jewels. It discussed Operation Chaos, bits of MK-Ultra (although nothing significant), illegal domestic wiretaps and bugging, and so on. As amazing as these revelations were, there is little doubt that much, much more never surfaced. Schlesinger fired about one thousand CIA officers, then left the agency in July 1973 to take over at the Pentagon…
Classified information spilled out throughout 1973. People learned that the FBI actually wiretapped reporters and White House officials… The National Security apparatus suddenly looked vulnerable… and the president most of all… [Shortly thereafter, Nixon fell from power.]
In 1969, and into the early 1970s, the American National Security state was at its most expansive. This belied a losing effort in Southeast Asia. But while the Vietnam front was being lost and domestic dissent remained widespread, the UFO front appeared to be won. Flying saucers were relegated to a remote corner of cold war history as a curiosity in cultural paranoia and mass hysteria.
The UFO phenomenon, however, did not go away after the Condon Report debunked it. Odd, unexplained, and even fantastic events continued to be reported by sober, reliable people. Although the intense media fixation of 1940s or 1960s was no longer the rule in the 1970s, evidence for the reality of UFOs as something extraordinary, and even alien, did not escape the public.
Nor, it appears, the classified world. JANAP-146 and CIRVIS remained in effect, for example, indicating that UFO reports were still being routed through those channels. Moreover, journalist Howard Blum noted that since 1972, the NSA had been ‘secretly monitoring and often assessing worldwide allegations of UFO activity.’ It was mandatory, Blum wrote, to ‘Flash-report’ Fort Meade on all intercepted flying objects; ‘and these installations are required to track and Flash-report on any signals or electronic intelligence that might have an extraterrestrial origin.’ In February 1974, the French Defense Minister, Robert Galley, confirmed in a radio interview that his department was very interested in UFO reports and ‘that it had been interested since the great wave of 1954…’ His department’s records contained ‘some baffling radar/visual incidents.’ The UFO phenomenon was global, Galley said, and he expressed his conviction that ‘we must regard these phenomena with an attitude of completely open mind… It is undeniable that there are facts that are unexplained or badly explained.’
The great advantage to UFO secrecy henceforth was the official deniability that the military now possessed. Previously, those who disbelieved Air Force denials about UFOs always replied with the unanswerable question: then why investigate UFO reports through Project Blue Book? Now, however, the Air Force no longer officially investigated UFOs. With Blue Book gone, the last link to official sanction was removed from the UFO problem, and it was taken in toto to where the national security elite had always wanted it to be: deep within the classified world. (Dolan, 2002; emphasis added)
As I quoted in High Strangeness, Dolan also mentions Dr. Jose Delgado’s experiments in ESB (Electrical Stimulation of the Brain), which could not only evoke fear and pleasure, but hallucinations.
In 1968, George Estabrooks, another spook scientist, spoke indiscreetly to a reporter for the Providence Evening Bulletin. “The key to creating an effective spy or assassin, rests in creating a multiple personality with the aid of hypnosis,” a procedure which he described as “child’s play.” By early 1969, teams within the CIA were running a number of bizarre experiments in mind control under the name Operation Often. In addition to the normal assortment of chemists, biologists, and conventional scientists, the operation employed psychics and experts in demonology.
The compiled evidence — which includes government documents — suggests that a group of specialists working in the shadows of numerous national security organizations, set up and executed the largest cover-up in the history of government; and that the Human Potential movement and the subsequent New Age movements, were key elements of this cover-up. In other words, they not only have used the colorful community of alternative ideas as an unwitting tool of disinformation, it is highly probable that most of it was literally created by them as COINTELPRO. Though the name stands for Counterintelligence Program, the targets were not enemy spies. The FBI set out to eliminate “radical” political opposition inside the U.S. What a lot of people do not realize is that this was a high level psychological operation specifically set up to vector ideological trends — beliefs, memes, etc.
[T]he cover up of UFO information is nothing unique. A state capable of conducting terminal mind-control experiments, biological spraying of American cities, illegal mail and cable interceptions, nationwide domestic surveillance by its military, human plutonium and syphilis injections, sundry coups and assassinations, ongoing media manipulations and flat-out public lying on a continual basis, would surely be capable of lying about UFOs, too. Indeed, it was the very institutions involved in such unsavory and subterranean activities that were most interested in maintaining UFO secrecy.
What could they have been so concerned about? As everyone likes to ask, why the secrecy? Surely, if the military truly believed what it said for years about UFOs — that they are usually misidentifications of natural phenomena — it would hardly be interested in the problems. But that is not the case…
[I]t is within the national security apparatus, and not among civilians, where most of the pieces to this puzzle exist. UFOs have national security implications, if for no other reason than that they have involved the military personnel of many nations. The subject is therefore subject to secrecy protocols, a situation that has existed for over fifty years, and is unlikely to end any time soon. … The military dimension to the UFO problem remains locked away within the classified world.
Some believe this is as it ought to be. Can the public really handle the truth about aliens? If the presence of others constitutes a threat to humanity, for example, what could the average person even do about it? There are those who believe that secrecy about UFOs is in the public’s best interest. Whatever the value of this sentiment — which I do not share — the ‘public interest’ has never been the main concern of those making the decisions. Ultimately, a national security apparatus exists not to protect the public but itself. The attachment of Americans to the fiction of a representative government, or — God forbid — a democracy, has clouded their ability to see their society for what it is: an oligarchy that uses the forms of democracy to appease and distract the public. [It is] folly to imagine that an oligarchy is not concerned with maintaining its position, to the exclusion of all else.
If we accept the reality of an alien presence, as the UFO evidence suggests, we must be willing to consider that presence as a threat. The record of military encounters with UFOs suggests that this is the case. Since the public is completely unprepared to meet this threat, one can only hope that those groups which have been dealing with it will act in the public interest. During the period of review [covered by Dolan’s book], those groups did not always work in the public interest when it came to other matters. There is little reason to believe it was, or is, any different regarding an alien presence.
Since the 1970s, the subject of UFOs has become more complex. Encounters are as widespread as ever, and even more plentiful than in the early years. At the same time, UFOs have received a thoroughly schizophrenic cultural treatment. Within popular culture, UFOs and aliens possess a cachet they never had during the cold war. Yet, the bastions of ‘official culture’ — academia, mainstream media, government, and the elements of national security — continue to ignore the subject or else treat it as a joke. One can plainly see that neither ABC Nightly News nor the American Historical Review deems the subject worthy of analysis…
Throughout most of the [last] century’s last three decades, very little effort was expended by the larger organizations either to end government UFO secrecy or, it appears, to reach the public with a coherent message. Instead, they have spent their efforts squirreling away huge amounts of data for… who knows what end?
In addition to these, there now exist organizations that serve in a kind of professional debunking capacity. The military and intelligence community continue to show myriad connections with UFO organizations, and several instances of UFO disinformation planted by intelligence personnel are known. The result has been three decades of fragmentation and perennial wheel-spinning…
UFOs have continued to intersect with the militaries of the world. Unauthorized airspace violations by unknown vehicles continue to occur; attempted interceptions continue to take place; secrecy orders are as severe as ever. For all of our sophisticated, secret, technology, these objects do not appear to be under our control. Through the cultural static, that signal is clear. (Dolan, 2002)
But all the while, the UFOs kept coming, and people kept seeing them, and some have seen through the easy answers provided by the New Age and are still asking questions.
There are, of course, many who are skeptical regarding the idea of alien manipulation, the control system, and even the mind programming experiments of the various human agencies, some of which have been exposed in government documents. That is understandable, when considering the factors discussed in High Strangeness. However, I think that a modification of Pascal’s Wager can most appropriately be applied to this situation: better to accept the possibility in case it is true, than to disregard it and be wrong. Certainly, if it is not true, considering it as a possibility and factoring it into analyses of reality won’t hurt. By the same token, if it is true, and that possibility is disregarded, the consequences could be fatal.
Even with the evidence that points in the direction of something going on behind the scenes, and this evidence indicating that what is known is only the tip of the iceberg, there are still die-hard skeptics out there doing things that could be not only dangerous to one’s health, but actually part of the programming experimentation itself.
December 3, 1994
Q: (L) I received an article from P about experiments by a fellow named Persinger who has been trying to duplicate the “abduction” experience by subjecting people to EM fields in a sensory deprivation chamber. I would like comments on that, and second…
A: Nonsense, some have closed mind inspired by fear.
Q: (L) My concern is that if he is doing this to people, and we have talked about electromagnetic energy blowing holes in the dimensional boundaries, my concern is that this experimentation could be detrimental to the persons being experimented on; is this a possibility?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What could be the results of subjecting someone to these electromagnetic fields?
A: Cessation of body.
Q: (L) In other words, it could kill them?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could it also open doors between dimensions and allow other things to enter in?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could they be subjected to spirit or demonic possession by this method?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could they also be being subjected to further programming by aliens through this method?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Anything else you wish to say on this?
A: Always keep open mind.
Referring back to our little historical discussion above, can we possibly think that all of the human potential movement activity was deliberately designed to prepare the meat for roasting, so to speak?
Just exactly how this is done in a more or less ordinary way, by which I exclude any idea of aliens or Secret Government projects being involved, follows the same general line as religious programming that takes place in churches and evangelists’ tents across the country. An interesting series of remarks were made about it by Marjoe Gortner, former Evangelist, in an interview with Flo Conway and Jim Siegelman in their book Snapping (1978):
“As the preacher, I’m working with the crowd, watching the crowd, trying to bring them to that high point at a certain time in the evening. I let everything build up to that moment when they’re all in ecstasy. The crowd builds up and you have to watch that you don’t stop it. You start off saying you’ve heard that tonight’s going to be a great night; then you begin the whole pitch and keep it rolling.”
For Marjoe, who had seen it a million times, the divine moment of religious ecstasy had no mystical quality at all. It was a simple matter of group frenzy that had its counterpart in every crowd.
“It’s the same as a rock-and-roll concert. You have an opening number with a strong entrance; then you go through a lot of the old standards, building up to your hit song at the end.”
The hit song, however, was spiritual rebirth, the product of a time-tested recipe for evangelical religion to which the preacher and every member of the audience contribute some small but active ingredient. Afterwards, according to Marjoe, the only fitting encore to the overwhelming moment of being saved is a personal demonstration of the power of that newfound faith. This is the motivating factor that prompts speaking in tongues, also known as the “receiving of the Holy Ghost”. As Marjoe explained it, this well-known evangelical tradition required even greater participation on the part of the tongues recipient and the entire audience.
“After you’ve been saved,” Marjoe continued, “the next step is what they call ‘the infilling of the Holy Spirit.’ They say to the new convert, ‘Well, now you’re saved, but you’ve got to get the Holy Ghost.’ So you come back to get the tongues experience. Some people will get it the same night; others will go for weeks or years before they can speak in tongues. You hear it, you hear everyone at night talking in it in the church, and they’re all saying, ‘We love you and we hope you’re going to get it by tonight.’ Then one night you go down there and they all try to get you to get it, and you go into very much of a trance — not quite a frenzy, but it is an incredible experience.
“During that moment the person forgets all about his problems. He is surrounded by people whom he trusts and they’re all saying, ‘We love you. It’s okay. You’re accepted in Christ. We’re with you, let it go, relax.’ And sooner or later, he starts to speak it out and go dut-dut-dut. Then everyone goes, ‘That’s it! You’ve got it!’ and the button is pushed and he will in fact start to speak in tongues and just take off: dhandayelomosatayleesaso… and on and on.”
Marjoe paused. We were dumbfounded by his demonstration, although he hadn’t gone into the jerking, trance-like ecstasy that is commonly associated with the tongues moment. … Yet even in this restrained demonstration, he seemed almost uncannily to be triggering some innate releasing or babbling mechanism. We asked him how he brought it about.
“You’ll never get it with that attitude,” he joked. Then he went on to explain the true nature of the experience.
“Tongues is something you learn,” he emphasized. “It is a releasing that you teach yourself. You are told by your peers, the church and the Bible — if you accept it literally — that the Holy Ghost spake in another tongue; and you become convinced that it is the ultimate expression of the spirit flowing through you. The first time maybe you’ll just go dut-dut-dut-dut and that’s about all that will get out. Then you’ll hear other people and the next night you may go dut-dut-dut-UM-dut-DEET-dut-dut and it gets a little better. The next thing you know, it’s elahandosatelayeekcondelemosandreyaseya… and it’s a new language you’ve got down.”
Except that, according to Marjoe, it’s not a real language at all. Contrary to most religious understanding, speaking in tongues is by no means passive spiritual possession. It must be actively acquired and practiced. Although the “gift” of tongues is a product of human and not supernatural origin, Marjoe displayed tremendous respect for the experience as an expression of spirituality and fellowship.
“I really don’t put it down,” he said. “I never have. It’s just that I analyze it and look at it from a very rational point of view. I don’t see it as coming from God and say that at a certain point the Holy Spirit zaps you with a super whammy on the head and you’ve ‘gone for tongues’ and there it is. Tongues is a process that people build up to. Then, as you start to do something, just as when you practice the scales on the piano, you get better at it.”
During his years on the Bible belt circuit, Marjoe came to see the evangelical experience as a form of popular entertainment, a kind of participatory divine theater that provided its audiences with profound emotional rewards.
“The people out there don’t see it as entertainment,” he confessed, “although that is in fact the way it is. Those people don’t go to movies, they don’t go to bars and drink, they don’t go to rock-and-roll concerts — but everyone has to have an emotional release. So they go to revivals and they dance around and talk in tongues. It’s socially approved and that is their escape.
“It was my duty to give them the best show possible,” he said. “Say you’ve got a timid little preacher in North Carolina or somewhere. He’ll bring in visiting evangelists to keep his church going. We’d come in and hit the crowd up and we were superstars. It’s the charisma of the evangelist that the audience believes in and comes to see.
“When I was traveling, I’d see someone who wanted to get saved in one of my meetings, and he was so open and bubbly in his desire to get the Holy Ghost. It was wonderful and very fresh. But four years later I’d return and that person might be a hard-nosed intolerant Christian because he was better than anyone who drinks and better than the world because he had Christ. That’s when the danger comes in. People want an experience. They want to feel good and their lives can be helped by it. But then as you start moving into the operation of the thing, you get into controlling people and power and money.
“Moon’s [Unification Church] is doing the same thing I do, only he’s taken it one step further. He’s suggesting to people that he is the Messiah. In my religion, the old-time religion, it’s total blasphemy to suggest that. Moon has gone too far, but that’s a very heavy number on people, because everyone wants to meet a Messiah.”
Marjoe was quick to point out that Moon’s preaching powers, like his own, were by no means divine or even innate. Marjoe acknowledged that his power over an audience derived primarily from the skills he perfected as a child, techniques of rhetoric and public speaking that have passed down from the Greeks.
“It’s the same whether you’re a preacher, a lawyer or a salesman,” he told us. “You start off with a person’s thought processes and then gradually sway him around to another way of thinking in a very short time.”
Many of the techniques he commanded were simple and age-old, but so effective that they proved equally powerful even when an audience had been explicitly forewarned of their use. Toward the end of our conversation, Marjoe told us a story that revealed the finesse of his skills. In contrast to the massive physical experiences, intense group rituals and intimate personal crises that [are popular in the New Age crowd], Marjoe demonstrated how words alone, artfully manipulated, may be used to influence groups and individuals, even to the point of evoking the overwhelming emotional response of being “saved”.
“I lecture in about twenty colleges a year,” he began, “and I do a faith-healing demonstration — but I always make them ask for it. I tell them that I don’t believe in it, that I use a lot of tricks; and the title of the lecture is Rhetoric and Charisma, so I’ve already told them how large masses are manipulated by a charismatic figure. I’ve given them the whole rap explaining how it’s done, but they still want to see it. So I throw it all right back at them. I say, ‘No, you don’t really want to see it.’ And they say, ‘Oh, yes. We do. We do!’ And I say, ‘But you don’t believe in it anyway, so I can’t do it.’ And they say, ‘We believe. We believe!’ So after about twenty minutes of this I ask for a volunteer, and I have a girl come up and I say, ‘So you want to feel better?’ You’re just up here for a good time and you want to impress all these people and you want to make an ass out of me and an ass out of this whole thing, so why don’t you go back and sit down?’ I really get hard on her, and she says, ‘No, no, I believe!’ And I keep going back and forth until she’s almost in tears. And then, even though this is in a college crowd and I’m only doing it as a joke, I just say my same old line, In the name of Jesus!
And touch her on the head, and WHAM! They fall down flat every time!” (Conway and Siegelman, 1978; emphasis added)
So the programming begins. During the early contacts, a potential convert can be manipulated with absolute precision by the rhetorical ploys described by Marjoe. Conversations using similar Neuro Linguistic Programming techniques also build rapport, as does the use of confrontation and direct emotional assault.
Once the individual has been drawn into the teaching, they are bombarded with ideas and doctrines that they cannot fit together while at the same time being led through ceremonies or rituals that induce intense emotional highs and peak experiences.
They are then subjected to more personal encounters in which these experiences are given the prescribed interpretation that is being inculcated. During this period, they are usually involved in intensive repetitive things, which can be as simple as the order of worship in an ordinary church. There can be orders to “stand up, sit down, kneel, pray, sing, stand up, sit down, sing, pray” and so on. More intense formats include chanting and meditation that can induce physical and psychic highs. The end result is, of course, that all of this stops the mind. And when that happens, the individual is completely open to suggestion and command.
The convert is instructed at this time to “refrain from doubt”, and “do not question the wisdom of the teaching”. The oldest version of this mind program is, of course, what we consider to be the standard religious teachings. But we can certainly see from all of the above that they are as much mind control as any New Age teaching or so-called cult. As a matter of fact, the key to being a Christian is “the surrender of the intellect, the emotions, and the will”. To whom? Well, it’s said that it is to the “One, True God”. But would the “One, True God” really forbid doubt and questioning if there was no doubt or question that he was the “One, True God”?
In the end, however, the result of all of these programs is the same: under the cumulative pressures of whatever specific mode of programming is employed, the individual’s will gives way and they slide into a state of mind in which they literally are no longer capable of thinking for themselves.
This type of comprehensive assault strikes at the very heart of consciousness by undermining the processes of thinking and reflection that are crucial to individual awareness and free will.
Yet, the converts and adherents of religions and cults or many New Age teachings have a different name for what is happening to them: happiness. They have found peace. In the labor for the cult, they are in a daily state of spiritual high, an emotional peak experience that never ends! And, if it does falter for just a moment or two, the leaders and associates work quickly to bolster the high — to get them back down to the church for another infusion. And they go because they can then return to the state of bliss that is their reward for unquestioning devotion.
Successful self-help therapy, religious, or New Age philosophy graduates often achieve a sustained state of euphoria. Their problems are solved because — well, because they have no problems. They have stopped worrying about the things that were bothering them. They no longer strive to change and grow and learn and do and accomplish. They are content in their condition of a shutoff mind, their state of not thinking. Conway and Siegelman ask:
What kind of cultural environment breeds this widespread need to shut off the mind? It could be argued that the need is universal, that everyone — from Athenians to Sufis to voodoo tribesmen to modern Americans — must have some periodic release from the ordeal of being human. In that sense, the rituals and techniques which throughout history have been used to create peak experiences and moments of enlightenment may be looked on as vital sources of rest and relaxation for the mind, momentary breathing spells that hold great powers of insight, healing and renewal.
But what value can there be in engineering these experiences to shut down the workings of the mind altogether, to persistently stunt the processes of thought and leave people numb to their own feelings and the world around them? Throughout history, this systematic stilling of human awareness has proved an efficient method of controlling members of tribes, societies and whole nations in which little value is placed upon individuality. The state of mind it produces has a tradition that dates back to the dawn of civilization.
In the remote bush country of Australia, aboriginal tribes still engage in rituals perfected more than 16,000 years ago to induce a state of mind in their adolescents that is surprisingly similar to the plight of many of society’s brightest youth today and people of all ages.
In recent years, aboriginal Dream Time has been hailed as a state of profound sophistication in human awareness. Anthropologists point to the aborigine’s physical endurance, spiritual satisfaction and telepathic powers as marks of advanced evolution in a tribe that may represent humankind’s longest unbroken line of cultural development. However, they make the error of implying that this efficient and admittedly remarkable form of social control in a primitive, unchanging environment holds some promise for the future of our vastly more complex and fast-changing technological society. (Conway and Siegelman, 1978; emphasis added)
We need to make careful note that this mode of consciousness exists for the very purpose of keeping the aborigine primitive and unchanging. It’s no surprise that they still live as they did many thousands of years ago. That should give us pause.
In all the world, there is nothing quite so impenetrable as a human mind snapped shut with bliss. No call to reason, no emotional appeal can get through its armor of self-proclaimed joy. (Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
It doesn’t matter who it is, whether it is a graduate of some group therapy, a born-again Christian, a meditator, or the follower of this week’s channel o’choice. If you ask a question, the individual will spin around and around in circles of nonsensical beliefs and dogma. If you interrupt and repeat your question, they simply start right where they left off, or go back to the beginning of the loop and start over again.
Such people are not just simply incapable of carrying on a conversation. They are completely programmed. And they don’t have to be hauled in by aliens or Dr. Greenbaum to get that way.
Even though they were not talking about the kinds of programming we have been discussing, some of the work of Flo Conway and Jim Siegelman in their book Snapping is applicable to the present problem. They ask:
How do you reach such people? Can they be made to think and feel again? Is there any way to reunite them with their former personalities and the world around them? (Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
The answer that seems to be obvious to Siegelman and Conway is interesting because it falls into the same trap as the cults they’re talking about. It effectively makes a cult out of thinking in a specific way — the correct way — as defined by another arbitrary “expert” or authority, in this case Ted Patrick.
A man named Ted Patrick developed the first remedy. A controversial figure dubbed by the cult world [as] Black Lightning, Patrick was the first to point out publicly what the cults were doing to America’s youth. He investigated the ploys by which many converts were ensnared and delved into the methods many cults used to manipulate the mind.
… In unsuccessful attempts to free cult members from their invisible prisons, Patrick was repeatedly thrown into real ones. … In July 1976, … Patrick was sentenced to serve a year in prison for a cult kidnapping he did not in fact perform. … Early in 1977, we first visited Ted Patrick in the Theo Lacy Facility of the Orange County Jail to learn about deprogramming from the man who coined the term.“The cults completely destroy the mind,” he said without qualification. “They destroy your ability to question things, and in destroying your ability to think, they also destroy your ability to feel. … They have the ability to come up to you and talk about anything they feel you’re interested in. Their technique is to get your attention, then your trust. The minute they get your trust, just like that they can put you in the cult.”
It was the classic sales pitch, carried off so smoothly that it amounted to what Patrick called “on-the-spot hypnosis”.
It was in 1971 that Patrick infiltrated the Children of God… In his brief encounter with the Children of God, though he was alert to the cult’s tactics, Patrick found that he was not immune to their effects.
“You can feel it coming on,” he explained… “Thinking, to a cult member is like being stabbed in the heart with a dagger. … It’s very painful because they’ve been told that the mind is Satan and thinking is the machinery of the Devil. … When you deprogram people, you force them to think. The only thing I do is shoot them challenging questions. I hit them with things that they haven’t been programmed to respond to. I know what the cults do and how they do it, so I shoot them the right questions; and they get frustrated when they can’t answer. They think they have the answer; they’ve been given answers to everything. But I keep them off balance and this forces them to begin questioning, to open their minds. When the mind gets to a certain point, they can see through all the lies that they’ve been programmed to believe. They realize that they’ve been duped and they come out of it. Their minds start working again.”
That, according to Patrick, was all there was to deprogramming. Yet since Patrick began deprogramming cult members, both the man and his procedure had taken on monstrous proportions in the public eye. … Cult members had been warned that Black Lightning was an agent of Satan who would subject them to unimaginable tortures to get them to renounce their beliefs. … No ex-cult member, parent or other reliable witness we talked to ever substantiated any of those charges. In truth, Patrick told us, and others later confirmed, many of the distortions that had been disseminated about the deprogramming were part of a coordinated campaign by several cults to discredit his methods. In the end, he said, the propaganda only worked to his advantage.
“The cults tell them that I rape the women and beat them. They say I lock them in closets and stuff bones down their throats.” Patrick laughed. “What they don’t know is that they’re making my job easier. They come in here frightened to death of me, and then, because of all the stuff they’ve been told, I can just sit there and look at them and I’ll deprogram them just like that. They’ll be thinking, ‘What the hell is he going to do now?’ They’re waiting for me to slap them or beat them and already their minds are working.”
In the beginning, Patrick admitted, he developed his method by trial and error, attempting to reason with cult members and learning each cult’s rituals and beliefs until he cracked the code. Refining his procedure with each case, he came to understand exactly what was needed to pierce the cult’s mental shield. Like a diamond cutter he probed with his questions the rough surface of speech and behavior until he found the key point of contention at the center of each cult member’s encapsulated beliefs. Once he found that point, Patrick hit it head on, until the entire programmed state of mind gave way, revealing the cult member’s original identity and true personality that had become trapped inside.
“The first time I lay eyes on a person,” he said, “I can tell if his mind is working or not. Then, as I begin to question him, I can determine exactly how he has been programmed. From then on, it’s all a matter of language. It’s talking and knowing what to talk about. I start challenging every statement the person makes. I start moving his mind, slowly, pushing it with questions, and I watch every move that mind makes. I know everything it is going to do, and when I hit on that one certain point that strikes home, I push it. I stay with that question — whether it’s about God, the Devil or that person’s having rejected his parents. I keep pushing and pushing. I don’t let him get around it with the lies he’s been told. Then there’ll be a minute, a second, when the mind snaps, when the person realizes he’s been lied to by the cult and he just snaps out of it. It’s like turning on the light in a dark room. They’re in an almost unconscious state of mind, and then I switch the mind from unconsciousness to consciousness, and it snaps, just like that.” (Conway and Siegelman, 1978; emphasis added)
The question is, why is what Patrick is doing any different from what the cults he claims to consider so dangerous are doing?
It was Patrick’s term for what happens in deprogramming. And in almost every case, according to Patrick, it came about just that suddenly. When deprogramming has been accomplished, the cult member’s appearance undergoes a sharp, drastic change. He comes out of his trance-like state and his ability to think for himself is restored. “It’s like seeing a person change from a werewolf into a man. It’s a beautiful thing.” (Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
That is certainly a loaded statement. Patrick assumes, a priori, that the so-called cult member is doing something that harms others or deprives them of their rights or freedoms, and yet he forcefully deprograms them against their will. Notice that he uses the pejorative description “werewolf”. That seems to be verbal manipulation. Don’t misunderstand me. I think that those individuals who are trapped in silly cults are definitely victims; but they are victims of themselves, not of something out there.
Snapping is a phenomenon that appears to have extreme moments at both ends. A moment of sudden, intense change may occur when a person enters a cult, during lectures, rituals and physical ordeals. Another change may take place with equal, or ever greater, abruptness when the subject is deprogrammed and made to think again. Once this breakthrough is achieved, however, the person is not just “snapped out” and home free. Deprogramming always requires a period of rehabilitation to counteract an interim condition Patrick called “floating”.
“Deprogramming is like taking a car out of the garage that hasn’t been driven for a year,” he said. “The battery has gone down, and in order to start it up you’ve got to put jumper cables on it. It will start up then, but if you turn the key off right away it will go dead again. So you keep the motor running until it builds up its own power. This is what rehabilitation is. Once we get the mind working, we keep it working long enough so that the person gets in the habit of thinking and making decisions again.” (Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
Siegelman and Conway now come to the crucial question:
The grave questions Patrick first flamboyantly brought to public attention are not ones we can choose to like or dislike — nor will they simply go away if we ignore them. Is an individual free to give up his freedom of thought? May a religion, popular therapy, political movement, or any other enterprise systematically attack human thought and feeling in the name of God, the pursuit of happiness, personal growths or spiritual fulfillment? These are questions that Americans, perhaps more than others, are not prepared to deal with, because they challenge long-standing constitutional principles and cultural assumptions about the nature of the mind, personality and human freedom itself. … In a statement more prescient at the time than either of us knew, Patrick became somber, concerned over what he saw as the public’s growing apathy in the face of the cult world’s increasing wealth, power and social legitimacy.
The cult movement is the greatest threat and danger to this country that we have ever had. But the people won’t wake up, the government, Congress, the Justice Department won’t wake up until something bad happens. (Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
When I originally wrote The Wave, I saw the idea of cult deprogramming as similar to what we do and similar to what the Cassiopaeans did for me. The big difference was, of course, that I asked for the information that was received; no one kidnapped me and beat me over the head to wake me up. However, given the nature of the world, where knowledge is power, and the nature of the research we do — helping people to think, to acquire knowledge, which includes knowledge of religion and religious states — it is hardly surprising that we would be targeted with the kind of libel and defamation for which COINTELPRO is famous: they started calling us a cult.
That said, considering the work we do, the slander directed towards us was an astonishing blow to me, and of course, to our body of work. It was only much later I realized that the accusations were being made for the very purpose of diverting people from reading my work and therefore diverting them from engaging in the very deprogramming process we discussed. After all, if so many people were being freed from the cultic hold of mainstream religion by reading it and realizing that science and religious feeling are not mutually exclusive, it’s clear that the Powers That Be knew that something had to be done.
In fact, in articles posted on our website and every day as part of our Signs of the Times (http://sott.net) news website, we report on the many inconsistencies and hypocrisies that are evident in the major organized religions and their New Age offshoots and the controlling influences they obviously exert upon many millions of people. At the same time, we are attempting to discern true religion — a marriage of science and mysticism. After all, religion means “to bring back together”, to become whole (re- = back + ligare = bind together. I.E. bas: *leg = to collect).
One of the most remarkable things about this however, is that anyone is free to look objectively at our work and stated intentions and quickly and clearly see that we fail miserably in terms of cult qualifications as they are presented in the world today, which are essentially fascist in nature. As a slight diversion, I want to suggest that the reader consider this issue of “cults” more closely, by reading an article on the website by Joe Quinn called Cult-ivating Terror. As Joe shows quite well, the definition of cult has changed greatly in the years since Jim Jones, David Koresh, Heaven’s Gate, etc. Mainstream religions are no longer referred to as cults, which are seen to have a strong element of coercion.
Every definition of cult requires that the group in question have some form of religious aspect or worship as a fundamental basis or their raison d’etre. Of course, this could be said of any religious group, but it really becomes a problem when it takes the form of the glorification of a single individual as godlike rather than focusing on an idea or ideal as the object of cultic value. At the same time, we have to consider that there are some — probably very few — human beings whose accomplishments or work do make them worthy of being held in high esteem (take Gurdjieff, for example). There is certainly something to be said for achieving higher levels of consciousness and conscience, and such individuals who have done so could be examples and role models and helpers. In short, they should be ready to wash other people’s feet.
But there’s a difference between high esteem and believing that someone is going to save you. No one can save anyone, they can only teach, show a way, set an example, and perhaps support others with advice, material support, emotional support, etc. In fact, those who claim to offer such salvation are often psychopaths. Such leaders never admit to being wrong or even normal humans. They worship themselves and expect worship from their followers. The unfortunate thing is that there is any number of whacko snake-oil types out there who are waiting to snag people — most of whom are abysmally ignorant — who seek out religions (cults) because they are trying to get relief.
In his book The Corruption of Reality, John Schumaker points out that human beings seem to come hardwired with a need to dissociate. I think that this is actually a need to make contact with the higher self. Nevertheless, this hardwiring is present in all brains whether that individual could be considered potentially souled or not. In some people the brain’s ability to dissociate can simply be a normal way of coping, or can result in Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), or other mental disorders. In the potentially souled individual, the brain’s capacity to dissociate could be utilized as it may have originally been intended: a means of shutting down the physical and connecting with the spiritual.
In any event, it seems clear from the evidence Schumaker presents that it is a hardwired function just waiting to be taken advantage of by any snake-oil salesman that comes along. It is also abundantly evident that those who do not utilize this ability of the brain — those who suppress it — suffer from other disorders.
There is an epidemic in the world today that doesn’t get near enough attention — the epidemic of stress. According to the latest statistics, human beings are 100 times more likely to have significant emotional and mental problems than people born a hundred years ago. Adult rates of depression and anxiety have tripled just since 1990. Over 80% of people who go to a doctor with physical problems also complain of excessive stress. These problems are increasing so fast that, within the next ten years or so, the primary causes of early death and disability will be stress, outranking most diseases, accidents and violence.
But we keep coming back to that little problem that people need to know how to 1) deal with their stress in a healthy way, i.e. using dissociative techniques positively; 2) use dissociative techniques to fuse the many aspects of the conscious mind while, at the same time, making direct contact with the higher self. Those true and workable techniques (which work because of the hard-wiring of the brain) have been taken and utilized by the snake-oilers to line their own pockets, to inculcate into people ideas and beliefs that are patently false and have no relationship to reality. They have been used to turn large groups of people against other large groups of people for the personal agendas of the snake-oil types and their cronies (the marriage between religion and politics is ancient), to foment wars, pogroms, persecutions, and so on.
In the end, the problem is not so much the issue of “cult” or “religion” per se, but who or what is creating it, promulgating it, and for what reason. It may very well be that there is only one true Christianity and only one true religion — the common understanding held between all individuals with developed conscience and consciousness — but that doesn’t mean that anybody really knows what it is. We think we are getting close to it by means of both inspiration followed by hard research and experimentation, but it’s still only an approximation. Now, we see through a glass darkly … a work in progress.
In light of the above analysis of the status of cults in our society and just what qualifies any group for cult status, it is clear from our perspective — and surely from anyone who has taken even a cursory glance at our work and research — that our detractors and those that would seek to slander and defame us, must find another pigeon-hole in which to stuff us, or another allegation to level at us, for we simply do not qualify for the cult label in the modern definition with all its accompanying negative connotations.
We do not practice any forms of coercion or manipulation; they are anathema to the common morals we share as human beings. We simply attempt to offer an opportunity to those who feel they may understand the application of the theories we have developed, and to provide a safe environment for them to do so. Above all we value free will and the right for each person to decide and choose for themselves. At the same time we are not so naive to fail as to realize that to some this concept is detestable. So detestable, in fact, that they want very much to shut us down, drive us off the Internet, and if possible, destroy us completely.
Alternatively, for those that prefer to ignore reason and objective evidence, they may continue to label us a cult as they wish. However in such a case, in the interest of logical consistency, they should also assign the cult moniker to every other research body and organization that honestly pursues its goals, openly seeks to network with other researchers with the necessary skills, and freely offers the results of its work in a public forum for the scrutiny of all — for that is what we do.
Our broad research goals are clearly defined, nothing other than an honest desire to pursue these goals as part of a network of like-minded individuals is asked or required of any potential group members. Our online school is still free to any applicant who is qualified by virtue of being as free as possible of cultic thinking and beliefs. No one is required to pay anything at all, and we ask only for donations that are commensurate with the perceived value of our work by the participant. No one has ever been excluded for financial reasons from full participation in every aspect of our work. As an innate function of the research we do and the networking principles that guide it, any benefits are shared equally by all.
It is indeed a lamentable state of affairs that we feel obliged to address the question of cults at all. However, the explosion in recent years of groups of all shapes and forms has given rise to many charlatans and disinformation artists. From the evidence available, it appears that many of them have less than honorable intentions towards their prospective audience and potential members. In fact, we have investigated many of these disinformation groups and artists in our research and the results are published on our website. In this respect we are happy to be able to contribute to the efforts of all those that seek objective and verifiable truth in the face of lies and deceit, whatever their origin.
We hope that, as a result of this brief analysis, we may have provided the reader with a slightly deeper understanding of the “cult” label and phenomena. As with all our research, our goal was to provide as balanced and objective analysis as possible and as a result help to shed further light on this rather complicated subject. In particular, we hope we have drawn attention to the various factors that have lead to the current climate in which the “cult” label can so easily be used to unfairly discredit and malign a group or organization, which may nevertheless possess genuinely honest intentions and information.
What is interesting is the fact that the issue of cults was brought to the attention of the world in the context of variations on Christianity. It was only later applied to other types of groups such as UFO cults, including the various instances of mass suicides like the Solar Temple cult in Switzerland and Heaven’s Gate. The progression of this process has continued so that now, it is the very type of Christianity that was originally labeled cult has taken over the world via the Christian Right Dominionists.
These are, admittedly, extremes, but the fact is that deprogramming was not initially looked on favorably in this country, and rightly so. Many deprogrammers who followed Ted Patrick have spent years in the courts fighting lawsuits, or years in prisons serving sentences for violating a person’s right to give up their free will to any cult they choose. What is strangely contradictory about this, however, is the fact that now, the cult deprogrammer in the service of the mainstream religions has become an “expert”. We should have seen the handwriting on the wall when the government called in self-proclaimed “expert” Rick Ross to advise them on how to handle the Branch Davidians, resulting in their murder and immolation at Waco. And most of all, we notice that the biggest cults — the mainstream religions — are allowed to continue to deceive people exactly as small groups are accused of doing.
The important thing about the above described deprogramming process is that it is a down-to-earth example of what the Cassiopaeans talk about when they say over and over again, “knowledge protects, ignorance endangers”, with the huge exception that a person has the right to choose whether or not they will be deprogrammed. It also exemplifies in a very dramatic way, the process by which the Cassiopaeans communicate. They are deprogramming us because we asked.
Over and over again I receive letters from people who want to know why the Cassiopaeans won’t just answer every question and give them all the inside scoop on the nature of the universe.
Well, at this point, we have a pretty good idea that all the sources that do exactly that may have an agenda that is not necessarily inclusive of our free will! Yes, they may give truth about the cosmos and describe for us the many planes and realities and laws and so on and so forth. But, it seems that many of them have done so in such a way as to not only obscure the real things we need to be applying ourselves to here at our level, but in ways designed to actually keep us at this level. What good does it do us to know that, at seventh density, all is one, when the lesson of this density is to choose one or the other polarity? It is rather like teaching a child the theory of flying a jet plane when, in actual fact, that child has no access to a jet, and even if he did, would not fit into the seat, would not reach the controls, and would have no practical experience to guide him even if he could overcome those difficulties, so that at the first sign of any variable he would end up in a fiery heap at the end of the runway.
Michael Topper, who uses the nom de plume “Marshall Telemachus” or sometimes “Mother Terasu”, among others, has some interesting things to say on the subject. The following is drawn from a series of articles he wrote. After producing a great deal of material, most of which was published by Val Valerian in his series of Matrix books, he more or less disappeared from the scene. The series is long and complex, and the complex language usage makes it almost inaccessible to the average reader. I am sure that this was intended, because it is hard work to read it. There is no free lunch in the universe. In this series, he gives away incredible secrets of reality; but you still have to work to get it.
I have here synopsized and condensed a portion of one section of this series with great effort to assure that I have retained the content intact.2
In the higher densities, the name of the game is consciousness. This simply means that the higher densities of existence, whether positive or negative in orientation, all recognize that the business of being and existence everywhere is consciousness. Becoming more and more aware.
The difference is that the positive guys recognize consciousness as being an integrative activity of mutual networking and interdependence because they view all others as self, and therefore seek to help and assist because the others are self, in an absolute sense. In this way, absolute consciousness or God is glorified, if you wish to put it in those terms.
The control system, on the other hand, play the game in terms of domination, subjugation and absorption of other consciousness. But they too understand that the rules of the game posit that in order for them to truly consume into their being another consciousness, that this other must choose to become part of this self-aggrandizement. An unwilling food source is not as nutritious. If the consciousness does not choose, it becomes a poison to the consciousness that seeks to consume it.
So, we have to understand here that the true agenda of the negative realm is to consume consciousness. So, this actually prevents an overt take-over in literal, physical terms. If an invasion were detected, this would mean the veil would be lifted and all would see the “man behind the curtain”, would be disgusted and would turn away. Just as in the Wizard of Oz, those ruby slippers must be obtained very carefully!
Gathering the essence is an art of great subtlety. The agenda of the negative realm is in its purest sense stalking.
The aim of stalking is to create a completely controlled artificial environment composed of thoroughly predictable human behaviors. Behaviors made predictable because the humans have been programmed to respond to cues of conditioning, inculcated through centuries of lies and obfuscations presented in the form of religions. And all of this revolves around a story that is actually untrue, and wholly misrepresentative of the actual negative aim.
For centuries these programming signals have been being set up — either because of time travel capabilities, or because of actual historical presence. Various prophets or religious leaders have been influenced to preach, teach, or prophesy philosophies designed to lay a foundation for later take-over — possibly in our present time. When people begin to wisen up, those in the negative realm simply go back into the past, add something to the soup to adjust for the new awareness. This then acts as a domino effect and influences our present. Time loops and all that. A lot of people think that the alien invasion scenario is a ruse concocted by the government to create the impression that there is a forming “threat,” thereby enabling the institution of a New World Order. But, this idea is based on a misrepresentation of the process just described.
The important thing to remember is this: there is not a unified conspiratorial activity going on here in the hierarchy of government. The divide and conquer effect has also manifested at this level and suits the alien purposes to a tee. Such activity at all levels is consistent with their program of stalking, in which confusion and cross-purpose prevent a clear perception on the part of the stalkees.
Yet, at some deep level there may be a direct conspiratorial interaction between the secret government and the negative aliens … but it is unlikely that any name of those involved would be recognized by anyone, no matter how in the know they are regarding the subject. These secret superiors are just that: secret. Any organization you can name, or about which you are aware, are merely outer circles.
What is the designed objective of this stalking? It is two-fold. First, the effect of stalking is sort of like stampeding a herd of cattle. Bit by bit, they are consolidated into a negative mode that consists of the idea of “us vs. them”. Even though on the surface it may seem that this mode is positive or STO, (i.e., save the world because it is wrong or flawed, or blighted with original sin or whatever) the very fact that it is formed in the dominator mode of perceiving salvation outside, means that it can more easily be taken over in body, mind, and soul, at a level that is unseen and imperceptible. In other words: Satan can and most often does appear as an angel of light!
It is only at the lower levels of the power structure that many still believe they are playing out the basic antagonism and self-protection roles. They believe that sending love and light to those in need is appropriate, without realizing that this activity is predicated upon a deep belief that there is something wrong, in error, in rebellion, and thus becomes again, “us vs. them”.
There is evidence that extensive implant technology may be used to ensure influenced obedience; yet a degree of freedom must be conserved through the consciousness due to the essential fact that the valued commodity is consciousness. A completely drugged, surgically altered and thoroughly programmed psyche is only good for robotic service (and this may also be taking place, by the way). It is in this understanding that we find our way out of the trap. It isn’t easy, but it is a way.
The primary object of negative stalking is to persuade through strongly influenced but not robotic behavior pattern. For the free choice of the targeted consciousness to align with negative higher density existence. Because, in the long run, the object is the eating of functioning units of consciousness by the negative hierarchy, with free will intact. Otherwise, it is not good food.
And this is where physics comes in again … because the conserved element of true consciousness is the irreducible value of free will. The mind of the subject must retain free will, which distinguishes consciousness as such.
The instant the negative polarization is chosen as a result of true prerogative of free will, the subject functionally becomes a part of the higher density negative entity responsible for having induced the choice in the first place. And this is regardless of the deceptive means employed, or the persuasive misrepresentations used in conditioning the terms through which the fateful choice is made. In other words, confusion, physical, emotional and mental pain, exhaustion, blackmail, and even forms of torture are legitimate modes of persuasion. Of course, the more subtle the means used, the more value is retained.
A tortured consciousness is the equivalent to being overcooked. Many higher density negative entities are veritable connoisseurs. They particularly relish the subversion of those who are truly pure and strong willed.
There’s an immediate psychic bond in this relationship to the higher density negative entity; the handler of the human agent who is now a functional part of his new master, and, the negative hierarchy is proportionately enhanced with each induction of an additional member.
In other words: the negative hierarchy is a pyramidal food chain. The apex of the pyramid is comprised of the most persistent of negative graduates, the one who has stuck it out against every evidence of diminishment, and is the ultimate example of wishful thinking.
This ultimate wishful thinking means they cannot see that they do not become God by assimilation and control of others but that the real result is a gradual compaction, implosion, and dissolution into primal matter and Non-being.
And here is where physics comes in again to help us get a handle on this conflict: without duality, there would be no existence to discuss.
From the One there is bilateral emergence. Exactly one half joyfully seek life, creation, play, and exploration … a love of adventure of sorts. The other half expresses a fundamental fear of losing self in this play and exploration. This causes it to recoil upon itself and thus establishes the tension of polarization. This is the stuff of which the cosmos are constructed.
This can be more easily understood as “love of God through others,” i.e., by loving others unconditionally as God, since all are one, even though differentiated; as opposed to “Love of God through self”, i.e., believing that love of himself is love of God, therefore others must love him too.
The former view sees all others as self, and loves all and seeks to serve others. The latter sees only self and seeks to appropriate all others to self so as to restore equilibrium; to go back to the cosmic sleep of Oneness.
One analogy would be the difference between a free and adventurous child who is full of the sense of adventure as opposed to a child who wishes to own the mother and cling to her and incorporate her to himself, i.e., jealousy.
The love of God through self is in fact a state of consciousness that has existed from the very beginning of individuation and which covets attention for itself alone. This consciousness hates, fears and deeply distrusts creation, and just wants to effectively roll over and go back to sleep in eternal union with the One.
An important point here is: this negative consciousness arises from the self viewing self at the instant of creation and is therefore an integral part of creation. It cannot be separated from creation because it exists only due to positive creative inception. Neither can exist without the other. It’s that simple.
Negative consciousness — or darkness — is the selfness of creation. The gravity that draws all that exists back to itself. It is the aspect of the One involved in contemplation and rejection of creativity in its own heart. Frozen in that moment of vertigo; experienced at the outrush of creative energy.
And, because this state of consciousness occurs in conjunction with and precisely because of creative potential, and is in fact identified through that factor, it cannot be done away with without all returning to the One and just going back to sleep. Thus we see that the efforts to save the world via punishment of the wicked, or conversion to the light or spiritualizing matter with love, are all expressions of the fundamental desire to undo creation itself; to kill God. Through the idea that darkness is a rebellion, a fault, a thing to be done away with, the twist is introduced that lays the groundwork for domination and absorption. This is why, even though promulgated “Christian principles” seem to be good and uplifting and in fact can be, the fundamental raison is flawed and also expresses itself throughout Christian history in such ways as the many slaughters that have been instituted in the name of Christianity.
So the bottom line is: this other half of the all, this darkness born along with the creative upsurge, becomes focused on actualizing its own impulse. To undo creation. For it realizes that only then can it be at peace.
The only way it can achieve this ideal narcissistic withdrawal into itself in infinite self-contemplation is through reclaiming all attention and consciousness. This is in effect borrowed against the inconceivable magnitude of consciousness in cosmic sleep.
Darkness becomes, in effect, an incurable insomniac.
The consciousness of darkness feels that it must tear apart the creative fabric of existence, thereby liberating the units of energy involved in the creative functions and swallow them back into itself, erasing their differential properties and powers so as to restore the One as One.
Itself.
However, this is not clearly seen at the lower densities until the masks are stripped away. The deepest implications of this are hidden by many veils. And even fourth and fifth density participants do not necessarily comprehend this ultimate dissolution. Much like the ultimate light eater preaching the gospel of devolution as though it were salvation.
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The important thing in the above article that I want to draw your attention to is:
The control system, on the other hand, play the game in terms of domination, subjugation and absorption of other consciousness. But they too understand that the rules of the game posit that in order for them to truly consume into their being another consciousness, that this other must choose to become part of this self-aggrandizement. An unwilling food source is not as nutritious. If the consciousness does not choose, it becomes a poison to the consciousness that seeks to consume it.
Note the key term: choose. In some way or manner the individual must be induced to choose to become part of their food. How are you going to make somebody choose to be your food? Well, clearly it is not going to happen by saying, “Hey! Ya wanna be lunch?” Nope. Won’t work. If it were that obvious, clearly they would starve to death over at fourth density STS HQ!
So, what to do? Well, the first step in the grand deception began many thousands of years ago with what we today call our standard religions. It was fairly easy at that time to bring people under subjection via these myths and dramas, to induce servitude to the one true God, and other similar nonsense.
One of the main clues that these religions are indeed cults is the fact that it has been forbidden for almost two thousand years to even question the dogmas of the various faiths. In fact, tens of thousands of people who did ask a few reasonable questions were burned at the stake.
Now, I ask you: is truth so fragile a thing that it must be protected against honest doubt? If it is truth, all the questions in the world will only serve to establish this more securely. Somebody (and it is now thought by many analysts to have been the scribe Ezra during the Babylonian captivity, or even propagandists during the Maccabean revolt) assembled a great deal of stories in many variations, and tried to make it a continuous historical thread by adding in a completely fictional genealogy, and that is what came to be known as the Bible.
The fact is, when we are talking about such fuzzy things as religion and history, we immediately come up against a certain problem. As the reader might know, I spent many years as a hypnotherapist as part of my search for answers within the realm of mind. This work gave me a unique perspective on just about every other branch of study I have since followed. The main thing I learned from this is that most if not all human perspective is rooted in emotional thinking. Emotions have a curious tendency to frame and color what we see, experience, and remember so that what we think becomes, very often, a matter of wishful thinking.
In doing good science, a researcher must be aware of this tendency to be fooled by one’s own mind — one’s own wishes. A good scientist, because he is aware of this, must scrutinize things he wishes to accept as fact in a more or less unemotional state, as far as is possible. Things must be challenged, taken apart, compared, tested for their ability to explain other things of a like nature, and if a flaw is found, no matter how small, if it is firmly established as a flaw, the hypothesis must be killed.
The problem with the subject of the Bible and history is that there are so many fields that can contribute data — archaeology, paleontology, geology, linguistics, and so forth. On the other side we have mythology and history. They are unfortunately quite similar because, as it is well known, the victors write history. And people are prone to do many evil deeds in difficult situations, which they later wish to cover up to present themselves in a more positive light for posterity.
Now, in terms of the Bible as history, one needs to ask a very simple set of questions: who wrote the Bible and why?
I had a long conversation once with an individual who spent many years in military intelligence and who told me, “One of the primary rules of intelligence is to see the situation clearly … to observe what is, as it is, and then extrapolate to who might benefit, and there you will find why.” In terms of the Bible, we really ought to look at it in these terms when we are trying to discover things. Because, it might be thought, in the end what we want is the truth, right? And if that is the case, we have to do things to our hypotheses with the data plugged in that is very much like what is done to a new car … put it on a rack and try to wear it out with stress testers to see what the tolerances are.
In terms of ideas about what may or may not have happened in the past, when we form a working hypothesis we have to challenge our assumptions — assuming that we have put them together in the first place with as little wishful thinking as we can muster. The problem with using the Bible as history is the lack of secondary sources. There are tons of materials from the various ancient libraries prior to the 10th century bce, grist for the historian’s mill, but they fall silent almost completely at the close of the 20th dynasty in Egypt. Thus, the Bible, being pretty much the only alleged source about this particular period, becomes quite seductive.
But, might there be a reason for this silence?
The person who is using the Bible as history is forced, when all emotion is taken out of the picture, to admit that he has no means of checking the historical veracity of the biblical texts. Wishful thinking generally results in such statements as, “nevertheless materials relevant for the historian can be gathered from the narratives… [and] the work appears to be rich in materials of high value to the historian,” and, “There seems no reason to question the general reliability and the substantial accuracy of [the account’s] chronological sequence,” and, “There seems to be no good reason to doubt the existence of a historical kernel.”
Then, the same writer will say, “Our sources are the products of later working and editing, so that the original elements, more often than not, cannot be isolated with any exactitude.” And then he will turn around and do exactly that, stamping one passage as “a rather realistic report of what actually happened,” another as “legendary,” and another as “non-controversial matters of fact,” and others as “impossible to consider … a historical record.” As Donald Redford was compelled to say:
The standard scholarly approach to the history of Israel during the United Monarchy amounts to nothing more than a bad attack of academic ‘wishful thinking’. The scholars who admit, when pressed, that rigorous historical criticism forces us to discard the Biblical narratives, nevertheless will use them saying ‘what else do we have?’ (Redford, 1992)
Again, I ask: why?
In older times, we know that the many books written about the Bible as history were inspired from a fundamentalist motivation to confirm the religious rightness of Western civilization. In the present time, there is less of this factor involved in Biblical Historical studies. Nevertheless, there is still a tendency to treat these sources at face value by folks who ought to know better.
I could go on about this in some detail, but I think everyone reading this is with me in having a clue about what I’m saying, even if they don’t agree. But, the point is, again, “Who wrote the Bible and why?”
I came across a curious remark by the medieval Jewish commentator Rashi saying, in effect, that the Genesis narrative was written to justify what we now call genocide. The God of Israel, who gave his people the “promised land”, had to be unequivocally supreme so that no one, not even the dispossessed, could appeal against his decrees (Isserlin, 1998).
In Umberto Eco’s The Search for the Perfect Language, the idea is suggested, though subtly, that the development of the Hebrew Bible, even if there were some ancient texts involved (though not nearly as ancient as most believers suppose), was primarily a promotion to validate Judaism. This validation was necessary in order to then validate Christianity as the one true religion. In other words, the rights of the Jews, the unappealable decrees of Jehovah/Yahweh, could be inherited by the Christian Church as instituted for political reasons by Constantine.
Again, during this period, we have the Dark Ages where very little secondary sources survived. Could there be a reason?
So, what we observe is a monotheistic system put in place over most of the globe. It is the well from which much in our society — our mores, ethics, judgments, etc. — are drawn. It has been the justification for the greatest series of bloodbaths in recorded history. Could there be a reason for this?
Now we have people here and there performing amazing feats of cerebral gymnastics with this material and other supposedly adjunct confirmation to their various hypotheses … all focused on a very strange thing: bloodlines. Now, what could be the reason for that?
When I think about this puzzle, the thing that occurs to me over and over again is this: the Bible was written to create a history for a group who possessed a particular commodity that was useful. This history was integral to the commodity. The commodity was a direct bloodline from Jesus back to Adam; and Adam, of course, was created by God. So, a concomitant element of the bloodline is authority. Domination. Service-to-Self.
There are certain particulars about the Bible that prompt the response, “methinks they protest too much.” That is, the genealogies mentioned above. I have taken the time and trouble to enter these things into a genealogy program just so I can have a really good handle on who is who. The problem is, they break off just when they ought not, and continue only when it is politic to create a link. Not only that, but the numbers involved don’t make sense in genealogical terms.
So, when I thought about it, it just seemed to me that there were a lot of what we call in genealogy (my hobby, by the way) “placeholders.” Now, suppose that this whole genealogy thing was created just as a ruse to give the impression of a long period of existence as a national entity.
Maybe the long history of the Jews was not, in fact, a fact. In all the sources I have studied, there are virtually no references to Israel, its founders or associates prior to the twelfth century bce. From that point, and for 400 years onwards, only a scarce few allusions can be derived. Half a dozen or so. But, the Bible has this extensive history of doings and folks doing this and that. Something is very fishy here. The Bible talks about big shots, Shepherd Kings with slews of critters and bevies of wives and children, stomping all over Canaan, striking terror into the hearts of those vile others.
When you study the Biblical references themselves, you find an absence of detail about the surrounding countries, including Egypt, that were dominant during the 2nd millennium. So dominant, in fact, that it would have been only a deliberate act at the time to not talk about it; or the result of somebody writing the stuff much later when Egypt was no longer a power to contend with.
Then, there are all the anomalies of the scriptures that reveal a real ignorance, not just silence. I’m sure all of you are familiar with these lists of contradictions, places out of time, and all that. Then, there are the peculiar duplications of stories. You are probably also familiar with that. You know, Abram and Sarai with the “she’s my sister, don’t kill me” routine. Then, the same story is told with Isaac and Rebekah in the starring roles. Most peculiar. The dates that are claimed don’t add up; the genealogies don’t make sense; the ignorance of the milieu of the time; the lack of many things that ought to be there; and the presence of things that ought not to be there. All these things are data.
What does this data tell us? It suggests a hypothesis that somebody made up a history out of various stories that were known and common to an amalgamated group, but may have all occurred within a much shorter period of time.
John Rhys and others went around collecting Celtic and Manx folk tales to write them down. When you read these tales, you see that there are any number of versions of the same story, some closer than others, some with name changes, place changes, time changes, and all of this from the same general culture. Then, when a hero accomplishes a different deed, you find that his name has been changed, though you know from certain clues that it is the same guy. This is true in other folk tales and mythologies.
Now, it is pretty well established that the Pentateuch was composed by combining four different source documents into one continuous history. That’s data. It is also clear that whoever did this clearly assembled them to make one continuous history. But, the dissonances in the document indicate that it was not. And, judging by comparing it to other collections of folk tales, if you leave out the genealogies that have been put in to create the impression that it is a long history, you have the same thing. Different stories about the deeds of a small handful of people who probably interacted within a very short period of time.
Okay, so suppose this is the case. What happens then? Well, it opens up the whole field in an incredible way. If this is the case, we can look for and find the points of commonality of the different characters that are presented as ancestors or descendants and merge them into a more likely event sequence. On the one hand, we have the historical traditions of Genesis, Exodus, Numbers, Joshua and Judges and then we have the archaeological evidence and very minimal extra-Biblical textual evidence.
For centuries, to even ask who wrote the Bible could get you burned at the stake. That raises questions of its own, but even in the last century and the present, people are still trying to make it all fit. But, the plain fact is, it doesn’t. Unless you telescope it and find the right slot for it.
The data tells us that some time during the last part of the thirteenth century bce, Egypt knew of a group or political entity called Israel that had never merited mention before. From the Ramesside age, literary descriptions of upland Palestine reveal to us a group of pastoralists in the process of settling down. These guys, far from being kings were headmen of small pastoral communities — often destitute, lacking such essentials as transport and in constant danger of having their property confiscated by the Egyptians. It is a wild exaggeration to term these impoverished people “an agrarian elite of shepherd kings.” It is an unassailable fact that the culture of Iron Age Palestine, that is from 1200 to 1000 bce (when the Bible alleges such great things taking place with their cultural expansion), show no archaeological evidence of anything at all but a late Canaanite culture. Nothing “Israelite” can be discerned at all.
So, again, the hypothesis is this: that the Bible was put together deliberately to create a continuous, long history that didn’t actually exist. Available stories — factual, semi-factual, or “borrowed” — were used to make up this “history”. If the stories of the Bible are factual yet mythicized, as occurs in other mythologies, the names can change with the telling of specific incidents, though they may be talking about the same person as is named otherwise in a different story about a different incident. Add to that the deliberate fabrication of the compiler who had something to hide, and an agenda. The bottom line is that it was all used to produce a mind program that held sway for about two thousand years. With a little help from the Inquisition, and other strong-arm tactics.
But, in terms of who inspired the Bible and the resulting control system, we have to remember our friendly time travel guys. Remember what Ann Haywood said about her “travels with the demon lady”: “One night the Lady took me back in time. … The Lady took on the appearance of a beautiful woman in a blue robe. She performed miracles for them…” How many religions, cults, New Age teachings and philosophies have been started thusly?
Friedrich Nietzsche wrote:
The Jews are the most remarkable nation of world history because, faced with the question of being or not being, they preferred, with a perfectly uncanny conviction, being at any price; the price they had to pay was the radical falsification of all nature, all naturalness, all reality, the entire inner world as well as the outer. They defined themselves counter to all those conditions under which a nation was previously able to live, was permitted to live; they made of themselves an antithesis of natural conditions — they inverted religion, religious worship, morality, history, psychology, one after the other, in an irreparable way into the contradiction of their natural values. (Aphorism 24, The Anti-Christ, 1888)
Our present Western world view is based upon the New Covenant of Jesus the Jew and the early progenitors of Christianity sought to validate Judaism in order to validate the lineage of Jesus right back to Adam so they could make the claim to the one, true God and religion, thereby establishing a control system so vast and far reaching that the entire world has been dominated by it ever since. In actual fact, the Christian community only continues to exist because the critical examinations of the Bible are mostly kept from them. Or, they are so programmed into the 11th Commandment, “Thou shalt not question,” that any attempt to discuss it in a rational way is met with the circular excuse: “For the believer an explanation is unnecessary, for the non-believer an explanation is impossible.” Talk about specious reasoning.
But this is not the place to talk extensively about the origins and background of the Bible and related monotheistic mind programs. The point is: in the past few hundred years, the old programming of the standard religions, wherein people were duped into choosing to be absorbed through the assembled myths and outright lies that came to be known as Holy Writ, has declined due to the advance of scientific research in the many fields that reveal to us a broader picture of the nature of the cosmos in which we live.
This, of course, led to many new questions being asked about the validity of the Old-Time Religion, and many answers were found that challenged the old faith and glory concepts. People were beginning to wake up a little bit here and there. Thus, it was necessary for the controllers of humankind to invent something new.
I have described above just how this proceeded through the last few decades of the New Age leap into consciousness exploration that has in many cases ended tragically. In other cases, however, it has certainly done its intended job. There are dozens of new sources that promote this or that cosmology, far more subtle and elaborate, to replace the archaic and now mostly outgrown fundamentalism of the past. In other words, we have a whole new program.
Surprisingly, with the help of the Neoconservatives and the theories of Leo Straus, even the Old-Time Religion made a big comeback, with George W. Bush as its nominal messiah.
As we have discussed, only those who have learned the lessons of third density will be ready to graduate to fourth density. There are many who do not choose to graduate. They like third density just fine. Even if it is suggested to them that an entire cycle in this density consists of the perception of 300,000 years or so, with many incarnations of varying sorts, they are perfectly willing to take the good with the bad. And that is a perfectly valid choice. But, for those who do wish to move from this classroom, so to speak, the new mind programs seem to be a concerted effort to prevent this.
What is so special about fourth density, you might ask? Well, apparently we cannot fully grasp the state as yet, just as a dog cannot grasp what it is like to be a human, but the Cassiopaeans have given us some intriguing clues, such as:
Remember, most all power necessary for altering reality and physicality is contained within the belief center of the mind. This is something you will understand more closely when you reach 4th density reality where physicality is no longer a prison, but is instead, your home, for you to alter as you please. (08-12-95)
From this remark, it seems clear that there is some distortion in the teaching, “you create your own reality by what you think and believe.” Yes, the Cassiopaeans are saying that the power to do this is contained within the belief center of the mind, but its activation seems only to be possible after one is in the fourth density state. This state is described as that of awareness, and awareness is based on knowledge of the environment and what actually is behind the symbol set of our reality.
So we return to the simple understandings we must achieve in order to graduate with the coming of the Wave.3 It is in this context that I am sharing these experiences and excerpts from the Cassiopaeans on the subject of mind programming. It is only in waking up that one has any hope of becoming sufficiently aware to become a fourth density candidate and in order to wake up, as we have seen in the above example, one must begin to use the mind; one must extract oneself from the illusions; one must begin to think; one must be deprogrammed.
From this idea we begin to understand the difference between the Cassiopaean method of stimulating us to think by leading us through various exercises and frustrating periods of excruciatingly tedious questions and answers. It is almost precisely the method described above as that which works to deprogram.
Over and over again the Cassiopaeans have said, “Think! Use your mind! Discover!” or have given only maddening hints, and then refused to give any more data until we have gone out and done our homework.
September 16, 1995
A: Questions that prompt reflection, reflection prompts analysis, analysis prompts conclusions, which builds knowledge, which fosters protection!!!
A: Learning builds spiritual growth, and awareness “solidifies” knowledge.
Q: (L) Mike Lindeman has proposed that we submit the channeling to “rigorous testing”.
A: Mike Lindeman does not channel, now does he? What sort of rigorous testing does he propose?
Q: (L) He didn’t say. I guess they want short-term predictions and all sorts of little tests…
A: Precisely, now what does this tell you?
Q: (L) It tells us that he wants proof.
A: Third density “proof” does not apply, as we have explained again and again. Now, listen very carefully: if proof of that type were possible, what do you suppose would happen to free will, and thusly to learning, Karmic Directive Level One?
Q: (L) Well, I guess that if there is proof, you are believing in the proof and not the spirit of the thing. You are placing your reliance upon a material thing. You have lost your free will. Someone has violated your free will by the act of proving something to you.
A: If anyone chooses to believe, that is their prerogative! And what would constitute proof?
Q: (L) Predictions that came true, answers that were verifiable about a number of things.
A: Those would still be dismissed by a great many as mere coincidences. We have already given predictions, will continue to do so, but remember, “time” does not exist. This is a 3rd density illusion. We do not play in that sandbox and cannot and never will. The primary reason for our communication is to help you to learn by teaching yourselves to learn, thereby strengthening your soul energy, and assisting your advancement.
April 18, 1998
Q: (A) I was exchanging email with a Spanish guy, and this Spanish guy was a funny guy; he was very interested in this Cassiopaean business. But, he wanted to have a proof of some kind. I was trying to explain to him that it was impossible to have proof. So, I was asking myself why I couldn’t ask even a simple mathematical question. I am sure I would not get an answer, and I would like to know why?
A: Because, as you know, mathematics is a concrete field of study, as opposed to an abstract one. Oh yes, there is theoretical mathematics, and some types of mathematics involve variable interpretation. But… in general terms, we are speaking of a scientific field, which connects concepts in order to uncover truths. Therefore, to employ mathematical communication in this conduit would likely rob one of the free will initiatives in respect to learning.
Q: (A) I don’t understand. For instance, if I ask for the square root of seven, why can’t you answer? Don’t you know or don’t you want to tell me?
A: Do you know it?
Q: (A) I don’t know it right off hand, but I can compute it in two minutes. Then I will know it.
A: Then there is no need to tell you, is there? We wish to reiterate something further on this subject, Arkadiusz, and for anyone else in need of the following message: we are not communicating with you in order to “prove” our existence. If one has faith and is willing to learn, to explore new realms and to discover what will one “day” be commonplace awareness profile, then no “proof” is necessary. If, on the other hand, one is of the opposite psychic orientation, then no amount of proof is adequate.
Q: (A) Yes, I think it is like the story of the crocodile skin where you can make wishes, and with every wish it becomes smaller. And, you are told that when it becomes too small, then you die. And, of course, you try, and say “let me do one more wish…” and that is it. Once you make the choice to ask and not do the work, then it becomes easier and easier and you want more and more… and your own will and force becomes smaller and smaller… (L) I think that the most important thing that has come out of this channeling is that sometimes the Cs sort of trick me into trying something and they pique my curiosity and I go out and do something that results in a learning experience that is truly awesome. And the important thing is, getting out and doing the work actually makes you stronger. And, like you just said, each time you make the choice to not go after the answer yourself, to try and get it the easy way, it makes you weaker and lessens who you are. (F) Yes, and the crucial point is the robbing of free will initiative.
April 15, 1995
Q: (L) Is there anything you wish to tell us before we shut down for the night?
A: Reread information given about attack warning and discuss amongst yourselves for strengthening of learning and knowledge base for purposes of protection and ultimately, survival!!
June 10, 1995
A: You are still asking a question. What we are asking you to do instead is ask yourselves, discuss and come up with the answer. … This is the correct way to go about discovering the answer to this question rather than demanding all of the answers of us. You have the capabilities to pull the answers from within. We are more than happy to assist, but our goal is to help you strengthen yourselves for future use, if you will. It all helps one to advance and progress. All there is is lessons. It’s all learning. Therefore, the quickest, the strongest way to learn is to use your own capabilities to that end. Asking us questions is certainly permitted, and helpful, but trying to seek all of the information from this particular source, in the long run, may be detrimental. Now, if you will continue, please…
January 20, 1996
Q: (L) Does acquiring knowledge in a spiritual sense assist in the development of knowledge in other areas, such as communication?
A: Correctness in all areas, as agreed upon by convention, can only serve to help or improve or strengthen all processes.
June 19, 1999
A: Knowledge is power. If we give it to you like Halloween candy, it is diffused.
The most interesting thing to me about the Cassiopaean communication has been the exponential growth in my awareness, my life force, and my ability to truly discern and navigate through dangers that previously would have devastated me (and did) physically, mentally, and emotionally. And it seems that it is because they are, in effect, deprogramming our minds through their often frustrating interactions that challenge our minds, break down our illusions and delusions, and more than anything, make us think.
The Cs are here to help us break free of the programming we have been under for the past many thousands of years. Yes, sometimes what they say is shocking, uncomfortable, controversial, or just plain infuriating. I have been so upset with them on occasions that I refused to talk to them for weeks on end. One correspondent even said they were “arrogant.” They have been called “cold and cruel” because they wouldn’t coddle anyone. Many people have thought, “Oh! Goody! A new channeled source where I can go and get confirmation of my ideas or the teachings of so and so that I like so much!” And the Cassiopaeans will gently inform them they need to get rid of their assumptions and open their minds. Of course, such people always think that they do have open minds because they have escaped the Old-Time Religion and are now on the right track with Swami So-and-so or Lord Sandyanda of the Galactic Federation or whoever.
So they drag all their assumptions and elaborate castles in the air to the session and, when they don’t get the answers they want, they run back to the warmth and comfort of other sources that will give them the answer to every question they ask — even if the answer is later proven to be wrong or simply does not hold up to rational review or simple research. The most classic example of this is in the following exchange:
September 16, 1995
Q: (L) Any other questions? (RC) I’m not going to ask because they didn’t really answer what I wanted to hear.
Go figure.
Let’s just have one last look at what Mr. Patrick, “Black Lightning” had to say about deprogramming before we move on to the next, final section on mind programming:
“Deprogramming is like taking a car out of the garage that hasn’t been driven for a year. The battery has gone down, and in order to start it up you’ve got to put jumper cables on it. It will start up then, but if you turn the key off right away it will go dead again. So you keep the motor running until it builds up its own power. This is what rehabilitation is. Once we get the mind working, we keep it working long enough so that the person gets in the habit of thinking and making decisions again.” (Ted Patrick in Conway and Siegelman, 1978)
And that is, in essence, the purpose of the Cassiopaeans as they have stated over and over again. If you are looking for a new prophet or a new system of belief, you might as well look elsewhere right now. Take the blue pill and be done with it!
Men fear thought as they fear nothing else on earth — more than death. Thought is subversive, and revolutionary, destructive and terrible; thought is merciless to privilege, established institutions, and comfortable habits; thought is anarchic and lawless, indifferent to authority, careless to the well-tried wisdom of the ages. Thought looks into the pit of hell and is not afraid… Thought is great and swift and free, the light of the world, and the chief glory of man.
But if thought is to become the possession of the many, and not the privilege of the few, we must have done with fear. It is fear that holds men back — fear that their cherished beliefs should prove delusions, fear lest the institutions by which they live should prove harmful, fear lest they themselves prove less worthy to the respect than they have supposed themselves to be.
…Bertrand Russell, 1926
1 The reader might like to look these books up on amazon.com and read them for an entertaining presentation of how time loops might work for the human being. The issue of how we might be controlled thereby is an altogether more grim and serious subject. The book Replay comes closest to describing what it might be like to be trapped in an endlessly repeating loop.
2 Topper, Michael, The Positive/Negative Realms of Higher Densities, reproduced at http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/stalking.htm
3 The Wave volumes, Soul Hackers, Petty Tyrants, and Facing the Unknown, all deal with these understandings, specifically in the domain of interpersonal relationships and life conditions as “symbol sets” of deeper reality.
Roswell Revisited
or Shades of the X-Files
A recent correspondent wrote:
In May, this year, I met Cathy O’Brien and Mark Phillips in Sydney. If what they said in their book and the two tons of material they possess cannot prove their story, what can? But for Cassiopeians that is not credible. What sort of reason they would [O’Brien and Phillips] have in spreading lies?
As we have already seen, there are a lot of reasons for the spreading of lies, though I doubt that conscious, deliberate lying on the part of the individual involved is the most frequent. But, before we say anything else, let’s go back over what the Cassiopaeans really did say about the Cathy O’Brien case. In order to have the questions and answers in context, I am going to insert the particular quote from Trance Formation of America by Cathy O’Brien and Mark Phillips. I did not include it in the original transcript (for obvious reasons), but feel that the reader will have a better grasp of what is being said by reading for him/herself.
…Using standard Jesuit hand signals and cryptic language, he triggered/switched me and accessed a previously programmed message. ‘Senator Johnston sent me to give this to you.’ I handed [governor] Clinton a thin, large brown envelope. ‘And I have some fairy dust guaranteed to make you fly high.’ I took the personal stash of cocaine that Johnston was sharing with Clinton from my pocket. Clinton snorted two lines of the coke immediately. He smiled. ‘Tell Ben I’m impressed.’ He showed me to the door. The severe torture and mind-control programming that I was enduring at Tinker Air Force Base had prepared me for this simple ‘mission’ and many others. Although Cox’s out-of control occult serial killings polyfragmented my multiple personalities as intended by [Senator] Byrd, it was Johnston’s alien theme mind conditioning that locked me into absolute robotic helplessness. After all, had I been capable of rationalizing, I would have found that the thought of inter-dimensional travel and aliens was no more bizarre to me that Cox’s murderous actions or having found out pornography king Jerry Ford held the office of President. …
(President) Clinton added to what Houston said, talking in local colloquialisms. ‘Bottom line is, we’ve got control of the (drug) industry, therefore we’ve got control of them (suppliers and buyers). You control the guy underneath ya’ and Uncle (Sam) has ya’ covered. What have ya’ got to lose? No risk. No one’s gonna hang ya’ out to dry. And whatever spills off the truck as it passes through (he laughed and snorted another line of coke) you get to clean up.’ Hall smiled at his friend, which was apparently interpreted as consent. Clinton motioned for his aide to get his ledger. Overstreet began pulling out his paperwork, and Hall neatly cleared the table of the remaining coke lines. Clinton gestured to me and told Houston, ‘Get her out of here.’ Houston didn’t move and laughed. ‘She’s a Presidential Model. She’s kept secrets bigger than yours.’ Hall’s wife led me away and locked me in a back bedroom.
After an indeterminate period of time, I heard her telephone Hillary at the guest villa. She then drove me up the mountain through the dark to meet with Hillary. Although I had previously met Hillary we had very little to say to each other — particularly since I was still dazed and tranced from the tortures I had endured at the CIA Near Death Trauma Center in Lampe. Hillary knew I was a mind-controlled slave, and, like Bill Clinton, just took it in stride as a ‘normal’ part of life in politics.
Hillary was fully clothed and stretched out on the bed sleeping when Hall’s wife and I arrived. ‘Hillary, I brought you something you’ll really enjoy. Kind of an unexpected surprise. Bill ordered her out of the meeting and I took her to my bedroom and made an interesting discovery. She is literally a two-faced (referring to my vaginal mutilation carving) bitch.’
‘Hmm?’ Hillary opened her eyes and sleepily roused herself. ‘Show me.’ Hall’s wife ordered me to take my clothes off while Hillary watched. ‘Is she clean?’ Hillary asked, meaning disease free. ‘Of course, she’s Byrd’s,’ she responded, continuing the conversation as though I were not there. ‘Plus, I heard Houston say something about her being a Presidential Model, whatever the hell that’s supposed to mean.’
‘It means she’s clean,’ Hillary said matter-of-factly as she stood up. I was not capable of giving thought to such things back then, but I am aware in retrospect that all Presidential Model slaves I knew seemed to have an immunity to social diseases. It was a well-known fact in the circles I was sexually passed around in that government level mind-controlled sex slaves were ‘clean’ to the degree that none of my abusers took precautions such as wearing condoms.
Hall’s wife patted the bed and instructed me to display the mutilation. Hillary exclaimed, ‘God!’ and immediately began performing oral sex on me. Apparently aroused by the carving in my vagina. Hillary stood up and quickly peeled out of her matronly nylon panties and pantyhose. Uninhibited… Hillary had resumed examining my hideous mutilation and performing oral sex on me when Bill Clinton walked in. Hillary lifted her head to ask, ‘How’d it go?’ Clinton appeared totally unaffected by what he walked into, tossed his jacket on a chair and said, ‘It’s official. I’m exhausted. I’m going to bed.’ (O’Brien and Phillips, 1995, pp. 107, 155)
That was certainly edifying, won’t you agree? And now you may understand why I didn’t want to either read it into the record, much less have to retype it from the tape! So, let’s look at what the Cassiopaeans did say about it:
September 19, 1998
Q: (L) I have several things from the little mail list that I would like to get to first because I think they may go fairly quick. The first is this book called Trance Formation of America; The True-Life Story of a CIA Slave by Cathy O’Brien with Mark Phillips. There is a rather lengthy quote from this book here that we have all read. I certainly am not going to read it out loud because I don’t want to have to type such a thing myself, so I won’t read it, but I am sure you are aware of what it says. What I would like to know is: what is the motivation behind the authors of this book?
A: Disruption.
Q: (L) Disruption of what?
A: Anyone disruptable.
Q: (L) It specifically seems to be aimed at the Clintons or the power structure. Are any of these descriptions of the behaviors of Hillary and Bill Clinton as explicated in this extract anywhere near close to reality?
A: Anywhere near? Well maybe, but not as described.
Q: (L) Is there such a thing as this girl describes? These CIA slaves that are sexually mutilated and programmed with this mind control programming that she has described?
A: Any such experiment would be handled by the cellular structure of pseudo-governmental satellite, not normally by CIA.
Q: (L) So, what you seem to be implying is that what is described here is taking place?
A: To an extent, but the story as related is fictional.
So we see that the Cassiopaeans are not precisely saying that these folks are spreading lies. In fact, in a funny sort of way, they confirmed what O’Brien and Phillips are saying, but added that the story itself is fictional. On another occasion, the Cassiopaeans said, “As you know … fiction is often the guise for the deliverance of the deepest of truths.”
So, when the Cassiopaeans said above that the purpose of the book was disruption, it may very well be that the efforts of these people, using whatever guise for the message they felt necessary to protect the genuine source of the information, is to disrupt such programs and to inform the public. And, if even half of it is accurate in any terms at all, honey, we are in deep trouble!
We must also consider the idea that the defamatory claims made about the Clinton family, may very well be the work of COINTELPRO. Obviously, if there is a network set up to satisfy presidential lusts, Billy Boy wouldn’t have gotten caught with Monica’s cigar. In retrospect, we might even think that the backing for Cathy and Mark was the same backing that put George W. Bush in the White House.
From the proliferation of books and websites about mind programming, it is beginning to sound like everybody has been kidnapped and messed with. Is it really that bad?
May 25, 1996
Q: (S) I don’t want to sound paranoid, but all the reports about mind programming… is it as widespread as we have been lead to believe? That it could be the guy next door, and a certain color, or word or sound could set them off? What is the percentage of programmed people?
A: 2 out of every 100.
Q: (L) How many are programmed by human means?
A: 12 per cent of the 2 per cent.
Q: (L) So, out of every 10,000 people, there are 200 that are programmed, and 24 of these are programmed by humans which leaves 176 programmed by aliens, as in fourth density STS?
A: Understand that 4th density is physical, indeed. You are drifting further and further toward an ethereal only perception/theoretical position.
Q: (L) You are saying that the humans working on these kinds of things… and…
A: No, Laura, we are saying that there is really a very strong “nuts and bolts” reality to this phenomenon, and don’t ignore it!
Now, those figures are frightening! Two percent of the population of the United States, the last time I read a population figure of 275 million, would be 5.5 million individuals. That means that something like 660,000 of them are programmed by human agencies. That number is pretty hard to believe. What are the logistics of mind programming that many people? If there is any possibility that this number is anything close to accurate, we have to conceive of a very large and extraordinary bureaucratic machine that handles the coordination and tracking of such a project. And trying to think of that — well, I suppose it is not so difficult when you are dealing with mind-progammed people as it might be if it were a simple government agency where people spend as much time complaining and demanding service as anything else. Maybe mind-programmed people don’t do that? Maybe they are easier to deal with than the people in the local welfare waiting rooms?
But still, we are left with two people out of every hundred. That means that in any large gathering, there is likely to be one or more programmed individuals present, and that is not a pleasant thought. But I think that for the most part we are talking about people in the public eye or who have a public presence in politics or the arts and education and so forth. Yes, there are probably the “Manchurian Candidate” types who are programmed for special needs, such as causing riots, mass killings, assassinations, or special missions, and maybe a sex slave or two just for variety. But for everybody to get paranoid about their neighbors and family members is going to an inadvisable extreme.
It also points out the fact that out of that 100 people, if there are two who have been messed with and the programs have glitches, and they begin to be deprogrammed, there is not likely to be much support or understanding from the majority who have no experience with such a reality and will certainly find it difficult to believe, much less relate to. Yet, they too are programmed — only in a different sense.
For the most part, the other 98 people are programmed as we have discussed in the previous section — via religion and related popular belief systems, including scientific materialism. Most of these never merit further programming efforts because the easy, environmental methods and assorted Master Programmers work just fine, thank you very much!
In addition to the more overt programming efforts, we have another item to consider here: past life programming. We have to remember that, with the time travel capabilities, with the presence in our reality of the control system, for some considerable time there have been programming influences throughout many incarnations. This becomes a very real program that one must overcome. The following exchange highlights this aspect:
December 21, 1996
Q: (AM) So many things have happened to me, that I am wondering if something happened to my brain in this life or another that would explain my thinking. Did anything happen in another life that has caused me problems in this life?
A: The answer is yes, as with all others.
Q: (L) What happened to cause these mental problems?
A: Not mental, emotional.
Q: (L) Can you tell us a little bit about it?
A: Death of a twin in the last lifetime. Farming accident in 1880s. Fell off of the ox-driven combine, driven by father. Was decapitated.
Q: (L) And what were their names?
A: Lucas and Lawrence. Lucas was the one that died.
Q: (L) Where was Lawrence, at the time?
A: In the house.
Q: (L) And what kind of emotion has carried over into this lifetime?
A: Her longing is insatiable as she is always “looking for love” due to her loss.
Q: (L) How old was Lucas when this happened?
A: 8 years old.
Q: (L) How many years after this accident did Lawrence live?
A: 22 years.
Q: (L) Have any of the persons of that lifetime returned to interact with her in this life?
A: No.
Q: (L) Not even the twin?
A: Correct.
Q: (AM) Emotions are not mental, there is a difference? So, my problems now are emotional and not mental?
A: Your problems are due to maladjustment.
Q: (L) From life to life or just this life?
A: They are the same.
Q: (L) Was there any sense of blame or resentment directed toward her by the parents of that time?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was there any mental or emotional abuse that took place in that lifetime?
A: Maybe some, but it is not significant.
Q: (L) What steps can she take to resolve this maladjustment?
A: Awareness of the root of the problem.
Q: (AM) So, all the problems that I had as a child were the result of this?
A: Some seek an environment of “punishment” in an attempt to resolve leftover issues.
Q: (L) Did she have feelings of guilt that her twin had died and she was still alive?
A: Yes, but this was not imposed by others.
Q: (L) Okay, she felt guilt, and sought an environment that would punish her?
A: Close enough for hand grenades.
Q: (AM) Let me ask this: all of the experiences that I had as a child were caused by this emotion where I was trying to punish myself. I have spent my lifetime trying to punish myself. Is that right?
A: Close. But remember, the point is, you sought out an environment that you perceived to be restrictive and unforgiving. Especially with your father.
January 10, 1997
Q: (AM) Since you told me about the past life experience, and that all of my problems have been emotional, have all the mistakes that I have made been because that is what I intended to do in this life? Were all the mistakes I have made in this life part of a plan?
A: No. Mistakes are made by choice, plan is merely “blueprint”.
Q: (L) So, she had a blueprint, and the mistakes were made by choice because she made the wrong choices?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, I think that what she is trying to deal with here is her guilt. She wants to know why she has lived her whole life making these mistakes and messing everything up every time she made a choice to do something?
A: Must be specific as to mistakes, always!
Q: (AM) Well, I am not prepared to do that.
A: Not prepared due to “shyness”. Remember, we told you about the unfulfilled quest for love, acceptance, approval, and to be “needed”. The reason for the failure of the quest is being hasty, impatient, and stubborn.
Q: (L) Can I help her to get to the issue here?
A: She must do this on her own.
Q: (AM) Why have I been so hasty, impatient and stubborn?
A: Because of past life programming. You see this is the challenge for all those in third density existences. Some learn in any given lifetime, and some do not!
Q: (AM) But, I had never heard of it!
A: Not necessary. Just follow “the signs”.
Q: (AM) Is it that I am so stubborn that I cannot see?
A: Have been; less so now.
Q: (AM) Well, I’ve never seen any signs.
A: That is part of the lesson, but it really should be obvious.
Q: (AM) Well, I can’t think how to ask any more questions…
So we see that in this case an individual had a past life experience that was so traumatic it colored her emotions into this life. At every point where she made a choice, she could have used her mind to think, but was so deeply stubborn and impatient that she consistently made decisions based on these deeply programmed emotions, which led further and further into disaster after disaster. She was so afraid of loving, living in a state of emotional paralysis, that this had caused her to rationalize that she was thinking logically when she avoided emotional involvement. And she stubbornly resisted anything that suggested that the real problem was fear. Because of course she was denying emotions, right? Therefore, she didn’t feel fear, right? So, she would be impatient and jump into situations to prove she was not fearful, all the while the underlying dynamic was fear of love.
Then, when she started to feel in any relationship, her mind would freeze her emotional response, and she would begin to create negative dramas wherein her demands and behaviors were so completely unloving as to drive away a saint. And, when normal human beings finally rejected her, she was able to proclaim triumphantly, “See! I predicted it was not love, and now I am proven right!” And of course in each of these dramas she created, she chose to believe that everything was done to her by others because she had let her emotional guard down, and this just further justified her logical approach to life, eliminating love from the picture altogether. So, at a deep level she believed she deserved to be punished and so clung stubbornly to this concept. It was and is a tragic situation because this individual is now advanced in years and struggling to come to terms with a lifetime of hurt and harm to both herself and others due to this past life programming.
Another interesting result of some of the mind programming efforts is a recent proliferation of books by “Pro-Reptoid Experiencers” trying to implement damage control in response to the many revelations about the Reptilian control system, possibly even including our own material. The following is an exchange where we were discussing just such a volume, which curiously admits to the programming and genetic engineering of human beings, but giving the ostensible purposes as being highly benevolent. This author, who claims to be a “new Reptoid hybrid”, also remarks that Bill Clinton is also a Reptoid hybrid. The title of the book is The Ultimate Alien Agenda. You might enjoy reading my review of it at Amazon.com.
January 2, 1999
Q: (L) Okay, now, onto this alien book. It seems to be almost a point-by-point refutation of some of the things you have told us. At the same time, it is very revealing. This guy says that “alien scientists have developed an array of human programs or life orientations which they use to create human hybrids. I was programmed to serve others, and most of my life has been devoted to service as a public official, educator, and psychic counselor. My life exemplifies one category of alien programming.” Is it a fact that the Reptoid aliens [4D STS] are making a bunch of hybrids to serve others?
A: No.
Q: (L) Another thing he talks about is the underground laboratory, and he has a terrible time trying to speak about it because of the pains in his head. He finally gets to the point where he admits that part of the “human engineering project”, part of what they are doing with the embryos they create by harvesting human eggs and sperm, is that they use them for nourishment. Naturally, he is aghast at this admission from his own memory. And somehow he just glosses over it. Is this true? That some human embryos are being created to provide nourishment for aliens?
A: In a sense.
Q: (L) He never comes back to this specifically, except to vaguely state that the vats and body parts and all that which are reported by many eyewitnesses, are merely symbolic imagery to teach us how unimportant the body is… Can you comment?
A: Not necessary. We have already stated that the vats do exist and what they are for. [See High Strangeness.]
Q: (L) He further says that the Reptoid aliens [4D STS] have been increasing human intelligence for these many thousands of years with the intention of letting go and leaving us on our own. The Reptoids are going to pull out soon, because they just came to “help us evolve,” and now we are at the stage we can take charge of things ourselves… Have the Reptoids been increasing human intelligence? Is this part of their agenda?
A: Perhaps, but the agenda is not as stated.
Q: (L) Okay, he says, “I wonder if the current relationship between humans and aliens may be analogous to the abolition of slavery in America. Freedom arises when people accept others rather than being afraid of them or trying to control them. We may be learning to accept a technologically advanced interdimensional race, and the aliens may be trying to transform us into compatible neighbors. Perhaps humans and aliens will become more alike as time passes and our two dimensions will become increasingly integrated. They are now allowing us to discover this information. I believe the aliens are getting ready to reveal who they are, but first they are helping us to discover who we are. Aliens may be programming human hybrids like myself to learn through self-discovery and self-acceptance, and we are likely to learn more about them as we discover ourselves. Important information about them may be archived in our minds or implanted in our bodies. To retrieve the information, we must learn to express the interdimensional aspects of our being. In other words, we must integrate our human and interdimensional selves and learn to function in both worlds. I believe this is how we will eventually establish two-way communication with our alien creators, and learn to coexist with them.” Blah blah blah. Then he says that he was created from the genetic material, and soul essences of three separate individuals. Comments please.
A: No need.
Q: (L) Well, yeah. All of these things have already been covered, which is why it was so interesting to see such different explanations for the same observations. He says that his “image is being used to tell people: wake up human hybrids! It’s time to accept your interdimensional identity. It’s time to discover your Reptilian heritage and fulfill your mission!” Yuck! Then he talks about the sexual aspect of abduction. He wondered why it occurs so frequently. He thinks there is a link between the frequency of human sexuality and Reptilian intelligence… He thinks that “this could explain why people so often perceive aliens and their messengers in sexual roles. So many abductees report having sexual experiences, in fact sexuality is a common theme of all alien abduction experiences. Could sexual stimulation be part of the methodology of alien intelligence?” Could it?
A: And the “Playboy Channel” originates on Zeta Reticuli!
In another session the following exchange took place:
January 10, 1995
Q: (L) The whole point of this article [by Lyssa Royal] is to say that ETs who abduct people are here to help us evolve and that it is only us, if we have dark and dirty unconscious minds, who perceive them as negative.
A: Wrong, you do not need “help” evolving, nor does anything else.
I guess this guy is the equivalent of a Madison Avenue adman for the control system. I do find curious the reference he makes to slavery. He said, “I wonder if the current relationship between humans and aliens may be analogous to the abolition of slavery in America.” How does that even relate? Unless of course he is freely admitting that we are slaves and the aliens are slave masters. On the other hand, does he mean to imply that the aliens are slaves and we are the slave masters who are afraid of and trying to control the aliens? Most peculiar. His mixed metaphors are just further evidence of the confusion factor of these kinds of communications where the programmed individuals seem to be talking out of both sides of their mouths at once.
Speaking of those lively Lizzies and their libidinous appetites, we have still another factor of our reality that is possibly a side effect of some singularly distasteful programming (no pun intended!).
As I wrote in my book Amazing Grace, it was as a result of looking into a local murder case that I became so ill that I was bedridden. During this time, I began to read about the alien reality when Frank, a friend at the time who participated in most of the early sessions, brought over a bag full of books on the subject. On the first day I was out of the house after this opening of the doors of perception, or, at the very least, asking the question, I encountered “Pat”, who was my first abduction case. And, of course, as I have said, I was pretty determined to demonstrate that it was not an alien abduction — and failed. This is chronicled in the St. Petersburg Times article pretty well, so I won’t repeat it here.1
Nevertheless, there was this strange connection between my looking into the case of the murdered girl and the woman who was lying on my sofa the night the Flying Black Boomerangs were seen all over the three county area.
Later, as I have written in Soul Hackers, I ran into the same woman running a print shop when I was looking for a printer for the nascent Aurora Journal. Now, what I haven’t talked about are some of the details behind that event.
At a time prior to this when I was working with Candy, another abductee who had what may have been physical evidence of her experiences,2 I had been down at the local Private Investigator’s office one day talking about Candy’s situation and we started talking about the above mentioned murder investigation, which had pretty much been the beginning of the relationship between the PI and myself. I asked him if anything new had come up, and he said, “No, they were just waiting to see.” It was the opinion of several of the law enforcement officials that the guy would “go off” and “do another”.
I thought about it and said I was pretty sure it was a one-time thing. Unless something really unusual came up, this guy would never kill again. But the PI felt that he would. As I left that day, his parting words were, “All we can do is wait until the pressure builds up and he has to kill again!” His words stuck in my head.
So, time went by and there I was in the print shop talking to this woman who had been my first abductee two and a half years earlier. The very next day after this very strange renewal of our acquaintance, another girl went missing from the same general area as the first girl who had been murdered. I picked up the newspaper and saw the photo of the second girl and nearly dropped my teeth. She was almost the spitting image of the first girl. My blood ran cold. I remembered what I had said about the guy never committing a murder again unless something really unusual came up. What if that unusual thing was another girl who looked exactly like the first?
At the same time this happened, I was reading a book about UFOs and cattle mutilations that talked about some cases where lights in the sky had been linked with the cattle mutilations on the ground. I noted that this particular series of mutilations had occurred in the very same area of the country that Ted Bundy lived in at the very time many researchers conjectured that something happened to him to turn him from an ordinary mild pervert to a cold-blooded killer. And, of course the reason these two ideas connected was because I had just finished reading several books about Bundy which endeavored to explain what is now called the psychopathic personality. I had read these books because of the idea that serial killers such as Bundy might be attached or possessed by one or more discarnate entities, and I was looking for clues that this was a possible factor in this particular psychological disorder.3
In the book about Bundy, a pretty long section had been devoted to trying to figure out exactly what it was that happened at a certain point in his life when he just “switched”, as the author put it. He had the whole world in front of him; he was a smart guy with charm and looks and wit. He was on a track to success and then, suddenly, he just snapped. And no one knew why because Bundy himself never could adequately explain it.
So the date of Bundy’s switch was in my head when I read about these lights in the sky associated with cattle mutilations in the same area where he had disposed of many of the bodies of his victims. I had already wondered about the possibility that cannibalistic murders, such as those of Jeffrey Dahmer, might not be influenced by aliens, even if only by example and exposure to their own appetites. Now, a whole different connection suggested itself to me. I began to think about the connection of the murder investigation that occurred just prior to the UFO flap in my own area, and could it be possible that the individual who had committed that murder had been abducted and programmed to respond to a certain type of individual? Could that be the link between the two girls? Not only that, but the fact that looking into this case resulted in a situation wherein I was brought face to face with the alien reality had a curious effect on me. From looking into the murder I was then looking into a deeper level of the control system. Was there a connection?
I knew I was stretching it, but I brought it up at the next session.
January 9, 1996
Q: (L) It has become increasingly obvious to me that there is some sort of connection where MG [an unsolved murder of a local 13-year-old girl] was concerned, some synchronous connections between that murder and the appearance of the Black Boomerang UFOs in this area. And I also noticed a connection between the life pattern, or change in life pattern, of Ted Bundy and certain UFO sightings, and cattle mutilations that were in his area of the country. At that time, I first met Pat and experienced my own awakening to the other reality. Now, we have another girl who has come up missing at the same time Pat and I reconnected and was actually discussing the MG case! It is just too bizarre! This new case has a lot of things that seem to be common to that case. I see that there is an issue here that I would like to explore. Did my involvement with the MG case have anything to do with opening the door of my mind to other phenomena, particularly UFOs and aliens?
A: Possible.
Q: (L) You can’t give me a clear answer on that?
A: Learn!
Q: (L) Okay. I had dreams about it. The work that I did on the case, the dreams I had about it, as well as certain impressions I received, convinced me that a particular individual was the killer. Was that an opening of my instinctual awareness in some way?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Was there some soul connection between MG and myself?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was there some connection between MG’s murder and alien activity?
A: There is always this connection in one way or another, at one plane convergence or another.
Q: (L) So, the murder of MG was a mini-plane convergence. Can this mini-plane convergence be described as a point where one person’s individual plane of reality converges with another person’s plane of reality, and one or the other gets annihilated?
A: 4th, 5th and 3rd density is involved.
Q: (L) So it is sort of a plane convergence of those three densities. Is this true with all murders?
A: Discover and yes.
Q: (L) Was my interaction into that reality a sort of entering into a point of plane convergence?
A: Flirting with the edges.
Q: (L) So, when a person is working on a murder investigation, or thinking about it, or applying thoughts, talents, instincts or whatever to the solving of this kind of puzzle, they are interacting with a plane convergence?
A: This represents one manifestation of the always-present desire to return “home” to 5th density.
Q: (L) Okay. Well. Now, I want to get to the 64,000 dollar question. In the MG case, was my conclusion correct?
A: “Correctness” takes many forms and provides a window to many conventions. We recall advising a cautious approach, in order to insure that your lessons are learned not only accurately, but painlessly as well.
It was true, and I understood it clearly, that my awareness of the killer did place me in some danger. But it seemed that the Cassiopaeans were implying greater danger than just that.
Q: (L) Could you suggest, just to get me on track here, a form of question that would be a cautious question? Then I can frame subsequent questions on that model?
A: The issue here is not how to “frame” a question in such a way as to lure us into answering in the way you desire, but for you to learn most effectively. Do not have prejudice that there is only one thing to be learned from each response. “You never know what there is to be learned when you inquire with innocence and freedom from supposition.”
At this point, since Frank and I were working alone, I played the tape back to find out what the Cassiopaeans had said in that long delivery. The tape was full of static and sound anomalies that had never occurred to us before.
Q: (L) I just played the tape back and it is all muddy. Could you tell us why we are having this problem with the tape?
A: Telekinetic wave transfer.
Q: (L) What is this telekinetic wave transferring?
A: Evolving energy.
Q: (L) Given off by us?
A: Both to and from.
Q: (L) From us to you?
A: You and others, not us.
Q: (L) Who are these others?
A: 4th density eavesdroppers, Pat’s involvement should “heat things up”. Expect anomalies.
That one went right past me!
Q: (L) Okay. Back to the issue. Was there something about Ted Bundy, and the fact that his life seemed to disintegrate at the same time a lot of UFOs were sighted, related to this kind of activity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy abducted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy programmed to do what he did?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the purpose behind that programming?
A: We must withhold answer for the present.
Q: (L) Okay. Bundy described his murdering urges as a “pressure building inside” him that he couldn’t overcome, and it seemed to cause him to stop being human, as we think of it. That seems to me to be an example of a program being able to overcome a person’s social behavior, or controls over antisocial tendencies. Is this also what happened to the person who killed MG?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the newly missing girl and MG?
A: You are doing well in your probing of the knowledge within on this issue, we suggest continuance, and after all, learning is fun!
Q: (L) So, it seems to me that there was a connection between the physical looks of the new missing girl and MG. Could it be that the individual who killed one or both of them was programmed to respond to this particular type [of] facial characteristic? Could that be part of the programming?
A: End subject.
Q: (L) What do you mean?
A: We have helped you all that is necessary for now on this matter. It is beneficial for you to continue on your own for growth.
Q: (L) Can I ask just one or two more little questions in a different direction? I mean, this is like walking away and leaving me in the dark!
A: No it is not! Why don’t you trust your incredible abilities? If we answer for you now, you will be helpless when it becomes necessary for you to perform this function on a regular basis, as it will be!!!!
Q: (L) Well, frankly, I don’t want to be involved in any more murder investigations. It is too upsetting. Am I supposed to do this sort of thing regularly?
A: Not same arena.
Q: (L) Well, then how do you mean, “perform this function”?
A: No, seeing the unseen!
So, it seems now, in retrospect, that I was getting very close to some matters that are essential to know, but must be learned on one’s own. The Cassiopaeans almost seemed desperate to prevent me from following this track too directly, or in an improper way, and their particular remark about “learning lessons painlessly” was certainly a hint that this was a sensitive subject.
When we look at the questions and answers above, we discover some very interesting things. The first one is of course the idea of a mini-plane convergence. I am reminded of the fact that the Cassiopaeans have referred to the earth as a “convergence point” of the Wave. That’s one thing to think about. But the fact that a murder or murders are evidence of a convergence of fifth, fourth, and third densities opened up a whole new area of speculation.
Another thing is the idea that an interest in such matters is not necessarily prurient, but, “This represents one manifestation of the always present desire to return ‘home’ to fifth density.”
But the clue about the face being a sort of trigger apparently really was close to home, and deserves some consideration. Can it be that no murder is really a random event? Can it be that murderers are programmed, even if at fifth density and prior to incarnation, with some sort of seed to murder that individual who has a certain facial likeness? And, if that is the case, how else can facial likeness be used to trigger programs?
Are some people programmed to choose their mates based on this type of trigger? Whether for good or bad, using those terms loosely, what can this suggest? What if the “right” person is kept away, and the “wrong” person with the “right” facial characteristics is then brought in to trigger the love program to run, thereby causing a serious setback in incarnate plans and missions? Is that another means the Control System uses to interfere with our purposes? And if so, it is indeed important to be able to “see the unseen”. To see behind the facade, as it were… the face.
But, there was still another interesting series of remarks in the above session:
January 9, 1996
Q: (L) I just played the tape back and it is all muddy. Could you tell us why we are having this problem with the tape?
A: Telekinetic wave transfer.
Q: (L) What is this telekinetic wave transferring?
A: Evolving energy.
Q: (L) Given off by us?
A: Both to and from.
Q: (L) From us to you?
A: You and others, not us.
Q: (L) Who are these others?
A: 4th density eavesdroppers, Pat’s involvement should “heat things up”. Expect anomalies.
I had spent the day in the company of Pat, talking about this murder and the new missing person case, as well as negotiating for the printing of the new magazine, but I really had no idea how interesting this was going to become.
When I had first met Pat, at the time of the first session described by Tom French in the St. Petersburg Times article, she had introduced herself as a real estate agent caring for a sick husband who was retired from government service. As we became reacquainted after the passage of over two years, I learned a lot more about her background. Pat’s husband was in fact a physicist who had been employed by the government for many years and had even worked on the Mars Observer project in the field of pattern recognition.
Humans have the ability to recognize letters. Whatever fonts are used, no matter what size, color, style, or whatever, we are able to say, “this is A”, or “this is B”. If we are asked how we know this is “A”, it is very difficult to give an answer. We would say that “A” consists of three straight lines. But, if they are not straight, but wavy, we still have no problem discerning that it is “A”. If they are not lines, but a series of dots, our mind will convert it into an “A” and tell us that it is an “A” made of dots. Even if the “A” is upside down, we still know that it is an “A”.
Now, the idea of pattern recognition is to try to teach a computer to do the same. A computer that is taught pattern recognition for the purposes of going to Mars would be one that should be able to observe a rock formation and to be able to tell if it is natural or artificial. It should also be able to tell if a series of signals of any kind is random or intelligently contrived.
Clearly, the purpose also includes the ability to note that stars are stars; asteroids are asteroids, determining their shape or illumination, and other environmental conditions.
But, the most significant idea is this: to be able to note and determine the presence of an object near or far, for the simple purpose of avoidance in terms of survival, does not require pattern recognition. It only requires sensory input. The idea that pattern recognition is a project for computers launched into space may suggest that something else is being looked for, i.e., artificially constructed objects.
So, Pat’s husband worked for the space program in the field of pattern recognition. That was a very interesting revelation when you consider the UFOs that suddenly appeared all over the area the night I had her under hypnosis on my living room sofa. But it became more interesting when I discovered that Pat, herself, had held a security clearance and had worked in some sort of government installation out West.
Well, that certainly explained why something or somebody was very interested in keeping her quiet.
Pat was very interested in our communications with the Cassiopaeans and asked to attend a session. After what they had said about her interaction heating things up a bit, I didn’t see any reason why she couldn’t. It certainly did not sound like a negative thing that was being suggested, so I agreed.
January 7, 1996
Q: (L) We have Pat with us tonight…
A: Hello Pat.
Q: (L) Now, with all of us here, we would like to ask why the black, flying boomerangs showed up on the night Pat first came for hypnosis?
A: Examine issue carefully.
Q: (L) The first thing we thought about it was that this was a, if not necessarily rare, at least somewhat rarely observed type of craft, and the event itself was rare… Is this correct?
A: It is rare.
Q: (L) If it is rare for such a “UFO flap” to occur in response to a hypnosis session, which person were the UFO occupants particularly interested in?
A: It was not a person, but information that is hidden in the subconscious memory of Pat.
Q: (L) Were they wanting to get this information?
A: No. To monitor what would be revealed.
Q: (L) Does this mean that Pat has information programmed into her before birth that she needs to access as you have suggested about others?
A: No. Abductions.
Q: (L) They wanted to see if anything would be revealed about their abductions of her?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, since she is here, can we ask who abducted her?
A: Grays.
Q: (L) How many times has she been abducted?
A: 4. Snow scene was only 3rd density abduction. Abduction, which occurred there was strictly physical.
Q: (L) Okay, the abduction that occurred in the snow was a physical abduction. Perhaps the others were not? Were they physical also?
A: The others were 4th density. 3rd density abduction only occurs rarely, and is of great import.
Q: (P) Was my son abducted also?
A: Frozen.
Q: (L) Why did they want Pat so bad that they would take her physically?
A: Do you have any ideas?
Q: (L) Yes, I have ideas. Maybe Pat has ideas and knowledge that she could access to use against these beings?
A: But real reason is more fundamental: Exposure. Government proximities!
Q: (L) What we were talking about earlier; about people who have a family member working for the government, and that such people tend to be abducted more often. But, just because Pat was married to a scientist who worked at JPL doesn’t mean she knew anything herself. I don’t get it.
A: Not what she knew. Because of proximity to Consortium [secret government] activity. Pat was implanted for possible future activation.
Q: (P) Was this related to what was going on under the mountain? (L) What mountain? What’s under the mountain? (P) Just ask.
A: Not locator, personnel are factored.
Q: (L) It was not so much where she was as who she was in contact with?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it her husband?
A: Perhaps.
Q: (L) Maybe that is why there is a higher rate of abduction among family members of government employees, so that they can be activated or controlled? (P) But my husband wasn’t really working on anything secret that I know of. Yes, he had a security clearance but…
A: He had access to sensitive facilities.
Q: (P) I had a security clearance, too. (L) So, Pat had an implant put in. An actual, physical implant. Where is it?
A: Behind sinus cavity.
Q: (L) What is this implant designed to do?
A: Activate behavioral control reflex and thought pattern generation and alteration.
Q: (P) Is that why I can’t remember anything?
A: Some.
Q: (P) I do have this memory problem in a big way. (L) So, can I say that this UFO appeared over my house on the night Pat was under hypnosis, to reinforce the implant so that she would…
A: To monitor.
Q: (L) If Pat had revealed the details of her abduction, would there have been any repercussions?
A: Not in this case.
Q: (L) Are there cases when persons reveal details of their abductions, that there are repercussions?
A: Varied.
Q: (L) So, if Pat had gone to anyone at all for hypnosis, these craft would have appeared?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You have already told us that this is extremely rare. (P) Does this have anything to do with Camp David?
A: Not the issue, its personnel!
Q: (L) Was it that she knew someone or interacted with someone in particular?
A: Many others!
Q: (P) Do the planes have anything to do with it?
A: It is up to Pat, the extent she wishes to retrieve and divulge, the many unusual experiences that were met, by Pat, with unusual indifference.
Q: (P) The first thing unusual was the geographic location of our house. Directly West of us was the mountain that housed all the communications to be used in the event of nuclear war. We were 13 miles North of Camp David. And, while we lived there, many, many things took place at Camp David that were of global significance. And, we built a barn in 1982. We had bought the house in 1976, and never, in all the years that I lived there, did I ever notice these planes until we built the barn. If I had a stick in my hand, I could have touched them, that’s how low they flew. Right over my barn. The same days every week. And there were always two of them, and they never had a single marking on them. And, they were propeller planes. And I wondered: what in the hell is this country doing flying planes, unmarked, propeller driven, and so low, over this area? This continued until we moved from that house. So, these planes came twice a week from 1982 until 1989. (L) What were these planes?
A: Search to learn.
Q: (P) Well, after the first couple of times, I sort of just said, “Well, there are the planes.” So, what else is new?
A: Indifference.
Q: (P) I thought the planes had something to do with the mountain. We knew they were flying under radar. Now, that I am thinking about this, nobody else ever talked about these planes. It was like we were the only people that ever saw them, or just the people who were at our house saw them too. My best friend who lived right up the road never saw them. I asked her, “Did you see the planes?” and she said, “What planes?” I mean, she was seven acres away and nothing in between!
A: Unusual experiences mount!
Q: (P) My husband also noticed these things and he would always say — he was less indifferent than I was — he would say, “What in the hell are those planes, and what are they doing?” (L) Why was Pat so indifferent? (P) Well, it didn’t affect my life, except that I was damn mad that it upset my horses. But then, the horses got used to them too, and they became indifferent! [Laughter] Well, they came so often, twice a week — “It’s Wednesday, the planes will be here!”
A: More… continue probing…
Q: (P) The planes came from East to West, and in the West was the mountain…
A: Catoctin.
Q: (P) That is the name of the mountain! (L) What is it? (P) The tunnel where all these facilities were… under Catoctin Mountain. Camp David is near, too.
A: And MUCH ELSE! Mount Weather, Virginia. And why did you live in area… helicopters? What brought you to Maryland?
Q: (P) Fort Detrick. (L) What does Mount Weather mean? (P) The underground tunnel — everybody in town called it The Tunnel — but there was nothing around there to ever give anybody the slightest clue as to what it was. In fact, I lived there for quite a long time before I knew it existed. And, on top of the mountain there was a weather station… My husband was doing electron microscopy — cancer research.
A: REALLY? Helicopters, Pat? We are asking you!
Q: (P) Well, the helicopters in Fredrick went over our house every time the president was at Camp David. But, that was our house in Walkersville not in Emmitsburg. When we first moved to Maryland. Sometimes the helicopters were unmarked…
A: You see, Pat is resistant due to experiences, things don’t “phase” her easily, programming, etc.
Q: (L) So, all of these things happening around her, the planes, the mountain, the helicopters… (P) But the helicopters, I knew it was the President either going to or coming from Camp David.
A: Resistant, not resisting.
Q: (L) Is the term “resistant” a clue?
A: All is a clue here!
Q: (P) Isn’t that just my personality, that if it doesn’t affect me I don’t bother with it?
A: Yes. Shoot somebody in front of Pat, and she says: “Oh well, that’s life” so, to discover spectacular things, one must be patient and probe carefully, no hasty assumptions, please!! There is much to be retrieved, revealed, studied. Let Pat digest it, and report back later.
Q: (L) At the time we had all those sightings around here on the night we did that session with Pat, why did so many other people see them?
A: Window was “blast”.
Q: (P) I would like to know about the apparitions of the Virgin Mary at Conyers, GA, as well as this book Mary’s Message to the World and all the other messages about the End Times that are coming out all over?
A: The forces at work here are far too clever to be accurately anticipated so easily. You never know what twists and turns will follow, and they are aware of prophetic and philosophical patternings and usually shift course to fool and discourage those who believe in fixed futures.
January 13, 1996
Q: (P) One last question: How could I be used to monitor personnel when I never noticed anything as being unusual?
A: Very complex, in fact, parallel subject. Pat is a “locator probe” for the purpose of monitoring those in her midst. Telling is not important, reading is. Besides, most of the work performed did not involve conscious awareness.
Q: (L) Is this still going on?
A: Partly, but also, Pat could be used as a probe to monitor all events taking place at JPL and other laboratories by examining aural imprints of her husband and others with whom she was acquainted. All events leave permanent imprints upon aural energy fields. This explains, for example, some sightings and apparitions. “Ghosts” are sometimes merely spontaneous activations of the aural records of the natural surroundings.
Interestingly, every session Pat attended was plagued by extreme static on the tape recorder. This also occurred if I had simply been in her presence for any period of time on the same day as the session was held. This had never happened with our tape recorder before, and every effort to solve the problem failed. We even tried using a back up recorder, and it failed to record at all.
But, note the most interesting remark above that “Pat is a ‘locator probe’ for the purpose of monitoring those in her midst. Telling is not important, reading is. Besides, most of the work performed did not involve conscious awareness.”
That tells us a bit about how people can be used without their conscious awareness. Apparently, a person can be implanted with a particular device that simply is read at a distance by either human or alien personnel.
What is even more interesting is, “Pat could be used as a probe to monitor all events taking place at JPL and other laboratories by examining aural imprints of her husband and others with whom she was acquainted. All events leave permanent imprints upon aural energy fields.” This seems to be saying that there is some sort of fourth density technology that can read the aural imprints of other people in such precise terms that it even knows where they were and what they were doing.
Now, that’s creepy! It made me realize a very important thing: even if I like or love someone, even if they are totally innocent in conscious terms, they can be used to monitor me or even vector energy in my environment that is harmful. That opens a wide door to manipulation and control in our lives. We can be manipulated to invite someone into our lives who is nothing but a tool to be used against us. And the tragedy is, they can be totally and completely innocent. That hurts!
And, I would like to add another thing about the above case: there is more or less independent corroboration of what the Cassiopaeans were saying about Pat. Clearly, there was extreme interest in her from some other levels of reality, as was evidenced by the numerous sightings of Flying Black Boomerangs that began at exactly the time she was under hypnosis on my sofa. That is an incontrovertible fact, reported by numerous witnesses, and written up in the St. Petersburg Times. Thomas French wrote about it in his article saying:
The newspaper and TV were reporting multiple sightings of UFOs in the area. From mid to late April in 1993, more than a dozen people in Pasco, Hernando and Pinellas counties said they had seen a large, boomerang shaped craft moving across the sky. One of the witnesses, a Hernando County sheriff’s deputy, said the craft carried no markings, was adorned with blue lights and had a wingspan of at least 200 feet. He watched it for several minutes, he said, before it accelerated away from him at a speed that would have been impossible for any human-made craft.
‘Based on what I know now, no, I don’t think it’s from this planet,’ the deputy told a St. Petersburg Times reporter. ‘Nothing on Earth could hover and haul ass like that.’…The first alleged sighting of the boomerang-shaped craft had been made in New Port Richey on the evening of Thursday, April 15, the same night she [Laura] was conducting her hypnosis session [with Pat]. The person who had seen the object that night lived only six blocks or so from Laura’s house; she said she had seen the craft through her bedroom window after 10 p.m. that evening, after L.A. Law came on. … The witness claimed that she had seen the giant boomerang at the exact time Laura was deep into her session; in fact, she said she’d seen it hovering over Laura’s own neighborhood.4
So we have a certain form of validation. But, of course, as I have said, at the time I had no idea of the significance since I did not know of the government connections of my subject. My feeling at the time was that the boomerang craft appeared just to scare me away from the subject matter of UFOs, or to get my attention. That was a little bit egotistical, in retrospect. And after learning of Pat’s background, the whole incident, including the accompanying UFO flap, made more sense. Indeed, it does seem that Pat had information that somebody, or some thing, did not want me to access. And, we are left with the problem of how such knowledge was communicated to these unknown beings.
As I pointed out to another researcher, futurist Mike Lindemann, the kind of surveillance that was implied by the knowledge that I was going to do that hypnosis session, particularly when nothing about aliens or abductions was ever mentioned, would be predicated upon mind reading. If we are going to postulate that it is some sort of secret government that is behind the UFO phenomenon, then we must allow for this mind reading technology. And, if our government possesses and uses it, we are all screwed. Which is, of course, a distinct possibility.
But there is another kind of tool in the alien bag of tricks: robots. This is a subject that was mentioned briefly in The Ra Material, though that group never came back to the subject as far as I can tell:
Q: Is an entity in the fourth density normally invisible to us?
Ra: …The fourth density is, by choice, not visible to third density. It is possible for fourth density to be visible. However, it is not the choice of the fourth density entity to be visible due to the necessity for concentration upon a rather difficult vibrational complex, which is the third density you experience.
Q: Are there a Confederation or Orion [STS] entities living upon the Earth and operating visibly among us in our society at this time?
Ra: There are no entities of either group walking among you at this time. However, the crusaders of Orion [STS] use two types of entities to do their bidding, shall we say. The first type is the thought-form; the second, a kind of robot.
Q: Could you describe the robot?
Ra: The robot may look like any other being. It is a construct.
Q: Is the robot what is normally called the “Men in Black”?
Ra: This is incorrect.
Q: Who are the “Men in Black”?
Ra: The “Men in Black” are a thought-form type of entity, which have some beingness to their make-up. They have certain physical characteristics given them. However, their true vibrational nature is without third density vibrational characteristics and, therefore, they are able to materialize and dematerialize when necessary.
Unfortunately, no further questions were asked about “robots”. However, the Cassiopaeans did expound on this subject to some extent. We already have talked about the Grays being cybergenetic probes of the Reptoid beings, and there is a great deal of discussion of this aspect in my book, High Strangeness. What we want to talk about here is something a bit different.
The subject of robots was brought up in response to some questions about Roswell and the alien autopsy video. It is not the time or place to engage in a lengthy debate about either Roswell or the much contested video. However, I do intend to cover the Roswell subject more thoroughly at another time. For the moment, just let me make a few comments.
I recently had a conversation with an individual who is fairly certain that all of the so-called alien activities are merely planted memories or perceptions devised by any number of secret government mind control projects somewhat akin to what was revealed in the Greenbaum lecture. It is thought by many who take this view that Nikola Tesla and Andrija Puharich were the brains behind the technology that could produce the effects I have described above in my own experience with the abductee and the black boomerangs.
I had researched the black boomerangs and discovered that they were not all that usual, but at the same time, they did have a history that made me give the matter some thought. As I pointed out in High Strangeness in relation to the black boomerangs, the earlier sightings and relationships were so similar to my own as to suggest something altogether different. They were sighted as far back as 27 years before my own experience with seemingly no change in model and design. So, as I suggested there, if it is a secret government project, those boys in black ops have no imagination at all. Still using the same model!
But, more seriously, how does one relate the idea of a secret government project based on Tesla and Puharich technology to all the many sightings of UFOs and clearly alien-type beings throughout the past two millennia or more? It seems that some of such interpreters want to make a distinction between those incidents of the distant past, and everything that has occurred since Kenneth Arnold followed by Roswell. My contention is that it is the same phenomenon wearing a new suit of clothes as I have explicated in High Strangeness.
History did not begin with Tesla, Puharich, or the secret government, and I could cite many cases from the past here that would demonstrate clearly we are dealing with the same phenomenon.
Now, of course, I say to those individuals who claim that the whole scenario of the present day is part of some mind control project that has evolved from technology discovered in this century, if that is the case then they must also permit time travel capabilities for this same secret government to explain many of the related or similar historical events. And if they do that then we are really in not much different shape than if it were alien beings who can come in and out of our reality via hyperdimensional space. And the argument becomes moot.
There are many problems with the Roswell story, which are touched on by the following excerpts, not to mention the many arguments against the alien autopsy film revealed to the world by Ray Santilli.5 One of the rather naive arguments against the autopsy film was that, if the government had really captured alien beings, they would have engaged a competent camera man, or would have engaged the finest scientific minds and done the autopsy in the dissection theater of some large university, and certainly would not have had such inept hands handling something of such great, scientific and historic import.
Well, let’s get real here. If you are a small group of power-mad control freaks functioning in the darkness of secrecy, who are you going to get to do this kind of work? Somebody with an international reputation and no fear of you, who would go to the press first thing next morning, or somebody over whom you have considerable control by intimidation?
I vote for the latter, myself. And, if that is the case, then your options are limited. Obviously, such a group did not plan to have a crashed UFO with bodies, or they would have been prepared with proper personnel and equipment in advance. But, once the event was in their hands, the best and only option would be to involve only those people who could be relied upon to keep their mouths shut for any number of reasons, including the fact that some life shattering secret about their lives could be held over their heads to keep them in line.
And, if that is the criteria for selecting the person to do the autopsy and the film, then obviously you don’t have a wide selection that matches the requirements. So we can dispose of the idea of the camera man even being a competent handler of the equipment he had available, and can also conjecture that the whole camera man story was a deliberate ruse from the very beginning. Therefore, those who have pursued that avenue of potential revelation are following a red herring from the start.
As to the competence of the autopsy itself, the crude handling and procedures, the same rule would apply. If you are part of a secret organization that was not really prepared for such an occurrence, then you just do the best you have with what you’ve got. So, you don’t have a great surgeon or anatomist handy to do the autopsy of the millennium. Maybe all you have is a mad scientist who you have rescued from Nuremberg, and who spent the war butchering little children. Well, that’s what you’ve got. You find the best secured location you can get, gather your little team of guys who you know you can control because they have some really dark secrets of their own, and send ’em in to do it.
Now just suppose, some years later, a few members of this secret government who thought they were in charge of the whole situation, discover that they are not at the top of the food chain. And maybe they discover that things are much further out of control than they ever imagined it could be, and they get really scared. Well, what are they going to do? They have to figure out some way to set the situation up so that when the doo doo hits the oscillating vector, there just might be an out for them. So, they hatch a plan to release information via various doorways. Suppose Ray Santilli is one of those doorways?
Under such circumstances, dealing with such hidden controllers, do you think for a minute that Ray is going to cave in and say anything other than the story cooked up by the black ops guys? Nope. Don’t count on it. In such a case, he would behave exactly as he has behaved. He cannot do otherwise. I repeat: cannot.
Having said all of this, let’s have a look at some of the Cassiopaeans’ comments about Roswell and the alien autopsy film:
May 27, 2000
Q: (L) Now, we have a problem here with Roswell. I just finished reading Kal Korff’s book Roswell: What They Don’t Want You to Know, and it is pretty much a bashing expose of lies and confusions spread, supposedly, by the many witnesses who have come forward over the years. He takes Jesse Marcel apart, he takes the fireman’s daughter’s story apart; he rips the undertaker’s story to pieces; he takes Phil Corso’s story apart; you name it, he bashes it to bits. Pretty effectively, too, in my opinion.
He seems to have located the origin of the “little sticks with hieroglyphics on them” seen by several of the so-called witnesses. This is a serious problem with this whole story. The problem is that, despite the fact that this guy has dissected all the stories so effectively, there are things he cannot account for, and explanations that he makes that simply don’t fit his thesis. On the one hand, he claims that the Roswell base people instituted a cover-up of a top-secret balloon project, and on the other hand, he says that the Roswell base did not know about the top-secret balloon project because it was so secret. That is completely irreconcilable. Then he quotes a general’s written statement that something was going on that had something to do with alien interactions, and dismisses this signed statement as “hearsay.”
The thing that occurs to me is that a) either we have somebody going back and forth in time, tweaking the facts, such as Marcel’s military records and such things including any records of the nurse that the undertaker claims to have talked to; or b) we have something that did happen and either they went back in time to set a situation up so that people would start remembering something other than what happened, so as to cover up the real event with more or less “false memories” that could be not stand scrutiny; or c) they are just feeding disinformation through all of these people, and have produced a whole scenario with all kinds of witnesses and weird stuff to cover up something that happened. Could you comment on this?
A: Try scenario 3.
Q: (L) So, they are feeding disinformation through all the so-called “Roswell witnesses”?
A: Close.
Q: (L) To cover up something that really did happen?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And they are feeding the disinformation through the people so that they will come out with this whole story, make all this big splash, so that it can then be proven false, so that everybody will think that the whole thing was a crock of kaflooey. Is that it?
A: Not quite. Confusing stories and fabrications are used to muddy the waters in anticipation of future disclosures. And beware of authors who cast one stone and hit multiple targets. As with any conspiratorial mystery, keep focused on the earliest entries in the evidentiary train, i.e., “RAAF recovers flying disk in Roswell region.”
Q: (L) Oh, the newspaper headlines. Yes. Hmm… Terry was saying that he thought the Roswell business was a cover-up for space-time travel by some secret U.S. group.
A: No. Roswell did involve evidence of non-human intelligence.
Q: (L) I just can’t understand some things. When these researchers get out there and they start digging into things, and this happens over and over again, they don’t dig deep enough…
A: Kennedy was assassinated by everyone… according to the myriad researchers, so called.
Q: (L) So true. You read one “carefully researched” book, and there is one candidate for the assassin. You read another “carefully researched” book and there is another candidate. By the time you get done reading all the books, everybody in the country is implicated. At the very least, everyone present in Dealey Plaza had the opportunity. (F) They keep on searching. But, if you go back to the very beginning, that is where the clues are. Right away, there were reports of shooters on the “grassy knoll.” The very early evidence gathered from those present was completely ignored and washed away as “irrelevant” or “misperception.” (B) There were people ducking and diving for cover because of their awareness of the source of the bullets! (L) Yes, but all that is just brushed away as panic or whatever because, of course, Oswald did it! And, handily, Oswald gets blown away by Jack Ruby so he can never talk, for sure. (F) And Jack Ruby died of cancer without talking to anyone except Dorothy Kilgallen, who then decided that it was the best time to commit suicide, right after interviewing Jack Ruby … naturally, before she ever wrote a word about it. (L) Is there any trail we could follow that would enable us to obtain a more definite indication of what really did go on in the Roswell case?
A: There is no “proof” or evidence unless the perceiver is willing.
Q: (F) Yeah. It’s the same story with the abduction experience. They have now discovered that if you put somebody in a sensory deprivation chamber and subject them to EM waves of some sort, they will report the same thing. So, let’s just ignore the physical traces of alien interaction, not to mention history! Let’s forget all that and pronounce that, “See? We have tested these other people in tanks, under waves, and that proves that this is the only thing going on here!”
July 15, 2000
Q: (L) Now, in regards to Kal Korff’s book, you have said that my scenario about the different stories, the various witnesses, whoever is behind the cover-up is just feeding disinformation through all of these people and have produced a whole scenario with all kinds of witnesses and weird stuff to cover up something that happened, and that this is the closest to being correct. I would like to know how close, and just how they are feeding disinformation through all of these witnesses. Obviously, these people believe what they are saying.
A: They do.
Q: (L) Why do they believe?
A: They are telling what they remember, but it is soaked in twisting parallels.
Q: (L) Are the people doing this themselves?
A: No. Event mixture. There was more than one “crash in the vicinity” of Roswell, and at different times. The four-body scenario refers to the incident most frequently cited.
Q: (L) How many were there?
A: Three.
Q: (L) There were three in the July period?
A: June/July. June 4th, July 1st, and July 4th. This explains the famous news release because the base was abuzz due to all these occurrences.
Q: (L) It seems to me that if the base were already abuzz with these occurrences, they would already have had their cover organized and their stories straight! In such a case, the famous news release would never have happened.
A: No.
Q: (L) But they all seem to remember this July 4th crash, or so they say.
A: Yes. But events were intertwined.
Q: (L) So, some may have witnessed different events?
A: Parts of…
Q: (L) Have they also been tampered with in terms of abduction or having implanted memories or screen memories?
A: No.
Q: (L) Have they, in any way, been exposed to something that was falsely staged by the government in order to make them think…?
A: No.
Q: (L) So, they are all sincere and honest witnesses, but they are witnesses to different events, and they all think that they are witnesses to the same event?
A: The so-called suspicious circumstances are merely a patchwork, cleverly used by those who wish to conceal.
Q: (L) For example: did the fireman actually go to a crash site and witness what his daughter claims he witnessed?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it an alien craft crash site?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did Jesse Marcel witness a crashed UFO?
A: Pieces of one.
Q: (L) Did Glenn Dennis really talk with a nurse who later disappeared?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How did this woman disappear? Kal Korff could find no record of her existence.
A: Transferred, discharged, records expunged.
Q: (L) Is she dead?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did she die under suspicious circumstances?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did the little balsa wood pieces actually come from a toy company as Korff suggests?
A: No. Kal Korff was paid to mislead, but it is now moot as the military changed its story yet again after his book was published.
Q: (L) One of the things that Kal Korff did was to dig into Jesse Marcel’s background, and he claims that Marcel never had any of the background that he claimed, and that Jesse Marcel is basically a liar. He has the military records to back him up on this. Were Marcel’s records altered?
A: Jesse did not lie.
Now that we have an idea that there is more to Roswell than we might have initially thought, let’s see about the alien autopsy and how it may relate.
August 12, 1995
Q: (L) Earlier today, at the MUFON meeting in Clearwater, there was a speaker who proposed that the Vedic idea of who and what the Lizard beings [4D STS] were is that this is the activation of the sexual principle, or kundalini within us. Any kind of UFO or alien activity is merely the reflection of what is inside all of us. Is this a correct assessment?
A: In truth, the best way to most adequately answer those questions is to ask yourself what do you believe, based on the knowledge that you have collected and have been given.
Q: (L) Well, I sometimes wonder if they are not part of ourselves, in a parallel universe, and they emerge into our world and interact with us in a negative way. And, that the historical stories of alien/human interaction are really just stories of human performance of mechanical operations, guided by negative aspects of their own being in another dimension or density. Would this not be a distinct possibility?
A: Not in the sense that you are thinking. Remember, it is always wise to review ALL of the previously gathered information whenever any new ideas appear before you. This is true not only in this particular instance, but also all others as well. For example, how often would mere thought patterns, or realities emerging from a parallel universe, appear in desert locations and be retrieved by third density beings for study in the third density realm?
Now, if indeed you believe that this has happened, and it HAS, one must contemplate the meaning of such and how it relates to one’s proposal that the whole issue involves much higher levels of density on the etheric plane, and, or, inter-dimensional capabilities that cannot be measured within the realm of third density. These theories, certainly, are part of the answer, but merely a part of the answer, and none of them represents the entire answer. And we caution very strongly that you avoid falling into the trap of believing too strongly in any one explanation that appears, as this too, is a form of attack which can lead to destructive consequences.
Q: (L) So, there are actual, material, alien craft that have been captured or retrieved by the government and studied?
A: Do you have any doubt of this?
Q: (L) Well, sometimes I wonder if the whole thing is cooked up by the government just to make us all crazy!
A: Well that’s an interesting concept, but we can assure you, that that is not, in any way, correct.
Q: (L) Well, if these craft emerge into our reality from fourth density, as I assume some of them do, how do they stay here? Do they become absolutely physically material and do they remain here?
A: If they malfunction in third density, they then become frozen in third density. Very simple.
Q: (L) And, does the same hold true for the beings?
A: Precisely.
Q: (L) So, they are very real and physical…
A: They are very real and physical in fourth density, too. The difference is that fourth density physicality is not the same as third density physicality. But that is not to say that there is no physicality in fourth density. In order to completely remove all attachment to physicality, one must reach sixth density or higher.
Everything below that involves some aspect of physicality or attachment to physicality; as in fifth density, the contemplation zone, which is simply a recycling of those from 1st through 4th densities, in the etheric plane. They are brought back down and recycled into one of the physical realms. Each density level one through four, involves lesser and lesser physicality, as you know it, but nevertheless there still is physicality.
Third density physicality, however, remains constant on third density. When a being or a craft or an instrument of any kind manufactured or conceived in fourth density arrives in third density, it is able to navigate through third density in fourth density reality. However, when it malfunctions, whatever is left of it remains in third density. Those reports of objects or of any physical structure whatsoever, be it a being or a construct, disappearing from third density to fourth density, in each and every case, involves an object or a being, or a construct, which is not in the process of malfunctioning. It is still fully operational at its fourth density realm. It is merely visiting third density which has a limited capacity, as you measure time in its passage, therefore it does, indeed, remove itself naturally, at some point, to fourth density. However, if it malfunctions or is in any way broken or altered, it will remain in third density.
Q: (L) So, if someone removes an implant, the best way to keep it here would be to smash it?
A: If someone removes an implant it is no longer functioning as it was designed to function.
Q: (L) Okay. So we have some real things happening, and a possibility that a film was taken of this interaction with these malfunctioning fourth density beings and craft. And, supposedly, this film is going to be shown on television. Is this film of this autopsy, and examination of craft remains, a true filming of same, or is it a fake, or fraud?
A: Well, one would suggest that for the maximum amount of learning, that the film be witnessed by those seeking the truth, in order to determine for themselves whether or not it is factual, as such will be possible upon viewing.
We took a break to watch the alien autopsy film.
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) Well, on the subject of abduction: we watched the film on television, Monday the 28th, that was a purported video of an alien autopsy, or, more correctly, an autopsy on an alien body. Was this, in fact, an alien?
A: How do you define “alien”?
Q: (L) Was it a being other than a naturally born human on this planet, as we know human beings?
A: That is correct.
Q: (L) It was other than a naturally born human? In other words, it was not a deformed human?
A: Correct.
Q: (L) Okay. What kind of a being was this?
A: Hybrid.
Q: (L) What was it a hybrid of — combining what elements?
A: Cybergenetic creatures you refer to as “Grays”, and earth human such as yourself, third density. So, in essence, it was a hybridization of a 3rd density and 4th density being. It was a 3rd and 4th density being.
Q: (L) How can a being be both third and fourth density?
A: It is the environmental surroundings that count, not the structure of the individual. The same is true, for you. After all, you have read literature stating that your world or planet is in the process of ascending from 3rd to 4th density. Have you not?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: And this literature has also stated that this is an ongoing process, has it not?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Then, one must wonder, if it is an ongoing process, how would it be possible, if it is not possible, for a being to be in both 3rd and 4th density at one time… Also, if you will recall from review material, you are currently living in the same environment as 2nd and 1st density level beings. Is this not true?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: At least that is what you have been told. So, therefore, it is possible for a being to be in 3rd and 4th density. And as we have also told you, when 4th density beings visit 3rd density environment, they are, in effect, 3rd density beings, and vice versa. The so-called abduction takes place, especially if it is a physical abduction, the subject becomes temporarily 4th density, because it is the environment that counts. And the key factor there is awareness, not physical or material structure.
Q: (L) I have a paper here that talks about the Grays and says that they have two brains: an anterior brain and a posterior brain; and that if you shoot one — this is what it says, I am not suggesting that I want to shoot anybody — that if you shoot one, and only shoot one part of the brain, that it does not die; that you have to shoot it in a special way and get both brains in order to kill one. Is this a correct concept?
A: Well, it is rather puzzling. Brings up a lot of questions. One question that comes to mind is: why would one seek to shoot anything?
Q: (L) Well, I didn’t suggest that I wished to, this is just what this paper says here.
A: The physical description is accurate in terms one variety of what is referred to as the Grays. It does have an anterior brain. However, this is secondary to all other issues. And, also we would suggest that it would not be advisable to seek to cause physical harm to any particular species. Therefore, it may be advisable to disregard the information contained in the work that you are describing.
Q: (L) It also says that the Grays have to be very close to a person to telepathically link with that person. Is this correct?
A: Close? No, as we have described to you before, there are technological processes involved, which do not require close physical proximity as you measure it.
Q: (L) It also says that they implant some sort of crystal on the optic nerve of humans that is 2 to 4 microns in diameter and that this crystal is tuned to the frequency of the individuals implanting it, which allows them to establish a mental frequency for communication. Is that anywhere along the line of what you are talking about?
A: Physical implantations do occur. The precise locations vary according to the desired effects. And when it comes to the interactions between the human species in 3rd density, and other STS issues in 4th density, there are a variety of mechanisms in use as well as a variety of directives and objectives. For example, some implants are used merely for tracking. Others are used to alter consciousness, and still others are designed to be mind altering or motor altering mechanisms.
Each of these has a different structure and a different material content according to which is being employed and for what purpose. The particular function you are describing there has been used, or, rather, something similar, though we are not completely familiar with that which you have described; so, we suggest that this may be fabrication to some extent, or expansion of accurate information. But, in any case, it is true that implants do get implanted for various reasons.
Q: (L) Shifting gears back to the alien autopsy: can you access the information and indicate whether this hybrid being was one that was obtained from a crash that occurred at Roswell, New Mexico in 1947?
A: The crash did not occur at Roswell. It was in a desert area, approximately 157 miles to the West by Northwest, of the Roswell location. The Roswell location that you are familiar with did not include either a craft or any bodies or living beings. It was merely a debris field. The craft, which had malfunctioned over Roswell, thus leaving behind the debris field, had, in fact crashed some distance away. This is where the bodies and living beings were recovered along with what was remaining of the craft. And, yes, the being in the film you have seen DID come from there.
December 2, 1995
Q: (L) Now, switching gears: while watching the alien autopsy film, we saw a massive organ that occupies the whole center of the abdominal cavity. What was that?
A: Heart/liver.
Q: (L) (S) A combination of both in one?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) They also carefully removed a solid or hard object that they then put in a small container. What was this object?
A: Crystal transceiver.
Q: (L) What was all the loose matter?
A: Organic tissue. Not important.
Q: (L) Was it a female or a male?
A: Both and neither.
Q: (L) Was it a being that could reproduce sexually?
A: No.
Q: (L) What kind of nourishment was required by that being?
A: Saline gelatin globules. Applications using biological microforms to metastasize through primary glandular channels.
Q: (L) Did that being use oxygen as in breathing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where were the lungs?
A: Side of torsal cavity.
We obtained a copy of the British TV version of the autopsy film and watched it numerous times, after which we came back and asked more questions.
October 21, 1995
Q: (L) I want to talk about the Roswell [autopsy] video that we’ve all watched. Now T continues to insist that it was not Roswell, that it’s a phony video. He just can’t get into it. This is also the consensus of the UFO community at large, due to the lack of cooperation of Ray Santilli. I would like to know if that video is of alien beings that were retrieved from the crash referred to as “Roswell” even if we know it did not take place precisely at Roswell?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay. Why did so many people report seeing aliens that had only four fingers and [toes], you know, like the standard grays? The being in the film had six fingers and toes.
A: Multiple subjects.
Q: (L) Okay, so there were more than one type of alien on that one craft?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, the story that came from the camera man who shot the video was that there were these four beings outside the craft. One was dead, and three were standing outside the craft, crying and clutching boxes to their chests. What were those boxes?
A: Storage of translation matrix group to individual; emotion stabilization units.
Q: (L) What is a translation matrix?
A: Translates foreign thought patterns, not needed except in emergency loss of electromagnetic grid wave.
Q: (L) Okay, what is an emotion stabilization unit used for?
A: Variety of uses, mostly for survival by neutralizing thoughts of harm by emotionally charged beings, not accustomed to shocking turn of events.
Q: (L) Were the harmful thoughts that they were designed to neutralize, thoughts emanating from other beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, they didn’t work very well, did they?
A: Did not have chance to activate.
Q: (L) Okay, so if they had had the opportunity to activate these boxes, they would have been more or less able to extricate themselves from this unpleasant situation?
A: Not extricate, lessen negative aspects.
Q: (L) Okay, how many beings were in this particular craft that crashed?
A: 21.
Q: (L) How come the reports say there were only four?
A: Reports are suppressed and fragmented, as far fewer individuals witnessed interior of craft!! Also, some reports are of other incident.
Q: (L) Okay, now of the 21 that were in the craft that was captured, so to speak, there were four outside the craft when it was approached, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Then that would mean that there were 17 inside… Of these 21 beings, how many were grays, the standard gray lizzie-probe type being?
A: Most.
Q: (L) Were there other kinds of beings in there?
A: Human.
Q: (L) There was one human in there also?
A: 5.
Q: (L) There were 5 humans inside, so we have… Why were those humans in the craft?
A: Retrieval and study specimens, two big foot types.
Q: (L) Does that mean that the humans that they had in there were retrieval and study specimens, or otherwise known as abductees?
A: Deceased.
Q: (L) Oh, they were dead humans. Wonderful! It just gets uglier and uglier! Did they abduct them dead? Or did they abduct them alive?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did they abduct them alive and then kill them?
A: No.
Q: (L) Were they dead as a result of the crash?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, then, what’s the story here, I mean, what other choices do I have?
A: Retrieved. Picked up after expiration.
Q: (L) Okay, so they picked up dead bodies, is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You said that there were two big foot types: were the big foot types also dead?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You said that there were five dead humans inside that were retrieval and study specimens. Where did they get these bodies?
A: Mexico and South America.
Now, let’s insert here a segment from another session wherein a particularly bizarre series of remarks were made, which prompted me to ask a certain question that we will come back to shortly. In the following excerpt, we had a guest, TK, who was retired from the Navy:
October 14, 1995
Q: (L) TK does have a couple of questions he would like to ask, and one of the questions is: has he himself ever been abducted by aliens?
A: Complex. Ships are vulnerable to ELF and “Zero Time Transfer”.
Q: (L) So, are you suggesting that any abductions that took place, took place while he was on board a ship?
A: Maybe.
Q: (T): What did you serve on, what kind of ships? (TK) AEGIS Cruiser, I was just on one ship, that was just the last five years or so… (T) Were his abductions… did they take place while he was on the ship, on the cruiser?
A: We see “Bahrain”.
Q: (TK) We were only in Bahrain one night.
A: Examine. You must remember, different branches of your military services have underlying code mechanisms to determine their classification status for “secret” duty, including study of personnel, this is all very complex… Now, “U.S. Navy is status 2”, which means among other things, that it is married to a class 2 “Cooperation Agency”, the O.N.I. All technical personnel are approached during their service, and asked to perform tasks for Secret Government. If they accept, they are “brought under classified management”.
Q: (L) That was the answer to the question, why was he abducted? (J) Or was he abducted at all?
A: Examined, as with all others on ship.
Q: (T) Was the Navy aware of what was happening?
A: Segmented. Some know and some don’t. Some in Navy are cooks.
Q: (T) That’s what Steven Seagal said in [the film] Under Siege — “I’m just the cook, you know!” He wasn’t really a cook. (TK) The funny thing is, I was a cook in the Navy in the beginning… (T) Okay, you gave us some information about Navy being connected to Navy Intelligence. (L) Are all military personnel routinely abducted and studied by aliens?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are all military personnel routinely abducted and studied by the military itself?
A: No.
Q: (L) What is the classification that the person has to fall into in order to be abducted and studied by the military?
A: What makes you think “classifications” correlates with abductions?
Q: (TK) It’s not the classification, it’s… it’s gotta be the type of person…
A: Yes.
Q: (TK) And how easy it would be to influence…
A: Of course. And many other factors.
Q: (TK) It would have to have something to do with what they could do for the abductors. I mean, they have to be in a position to help them…
A: Yes. STS vibrational frequency.
Q: (T) Okay, that’s a factor. There’s more than one agenda involved with abductions. Are the military personnel that are being abducted; is that a specific agenda that is being followed?
A: Artificial classifications, such as military designations, are important to human groups only.
Q: (J) I’ve got a question. Isn’t it true that in order to become part of the military, you have to go through boot camp, the indoctrination to the point where you’re going to follow orders without questioning, and that that mindset would lend itself more towards? (TK) The Marines are about the only ones that even try to get people to follow orders without question any more. The Navy has all but given up on that. It’s not a time of war so it’s not necessary right now.
A: Yes. Some have always “faked” such blind allegiance anyway.
Q: (TK) I basically faked it, I…
A: You were not alone.
Q: (TK) Oh, yeah! There were a bunch of us. “Yeah, sure, tell us what to do. If it’s in our interest, if we’re going to stay alive, we’ll do it; if you’re going to kill us, forget it!” I used to tell them on the ship, that if I ever got captured, I’m going to tell them everything I know. I said, they aren’t going to have to torture me long… (T) Besides, when you torture me, I tend to scream a lot and not tell you too much, so I’ll just tell you and let’s skip the torture. (TK) So when I refused to go up for ESWS, I was kind of an outcast, I wasn’t in the club anymore… Enlisted Surface Warfare Specialist. (T) Aha, that’s when you were asked! (J) That’s where they separate the men from the boys… (TK) This captain put it in such a way, he said, “Well, if you’ll work on your ESWS and get that pin, I’ll see to it that you get good marks and make chief…” which to me was like saying, well, if you don’t do it, you’re not going to make chief. I said, “Sorry, bud! I’m not going to do it. I don’t respond to that kind of bribery/intimidation stuff!” (F) You would have set the service back a number of years. (TK) That’s when I became an outcast from the club.
A: Not correct concept, not outcast, just deemed not SG material.
Q: (L) What’s SG?
A: Secret Government.
Q: (TK) Darn! (J) You had your chance Tom, and you blew it! (TK) Was FRW initiated? Was he one of the Secret Government agents?
A: No. Was a “conduit”. There are several steps that must be followed to become part of the Secret Government.
Q: (J) You have to know the handshake… (T) I can’t get my foot in my ear, I’m sorry! [Laughter]
A: Vietnam MIA’s, where do you suppose they are now?
Q: (TK) Have they been abducted? (T) Some of them got blown up so badly that they couldn’t be found, so they were listed as MIAs, because they couldn’t mark them as KIAs. Some of them are deserters, some of them… well, deserters would fall into several classifications, which I won’t bother getting into. Some of them went into the drug trade. (TK) Some of them just decided they liked it better over there. (T) Yeah, there’s that, and some of them, I would imagine, have been either abducted or swapped, moved into the Secret Government. (L) Is all of this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (TK) Are we supposed to still be on the military subject?
A: KIAs… are a separate subject!! KIAs, how many really were?
Q: (T) How many of the 60,000 really were killed? How many of them are listed as dead when they’re not? (TK) Tell you what, there were so many different kinds of people that went over there, the Secret Government could have recruited a bunch… (L) Are these some of the people working in these underground places we are always hearing stories about?
A: Yes…Yes…Yes.
Q: (L) That’s where those personnel are coming from…
A: And many other places, times, etc.
Q: (TK) Wars all through the ages. How many are we talking about?
A: Since your imagination center is on low frequency tonight, suppose we have to spell it all out for you…
Q: (L) Go ahead, spell it out for us. How many are we talking about here?
A: W.W.II, 72,355, still alive where????
Q: (T) Now, wait a minute… That’s how many people the Secret Government has snatched up? (J) From W.W.II? (TK) That’s out of something like 40 million… (F) Total People killed in W.W.II was 70 to 80 million… (TK) Military casualties… We’re not talking about just US military, either, we’re talking about total, anybody’s army… (T) That was supposedly killed in action…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) …from all branches of the service?
A: Yes.
Q: (TK) These people aren’t aging; they’re still in action and ready to go…
A: Precisely, my friends!!!
Q: (TK) How about Korea, Vietnam, etc.
A: Korea: 6,734.
Q: (T) Yeah, there were about 55 thousand casualties in Korea, in the four years of Korea. Really it was 3 1/2 years in Korea. So 6,000, about a little over 10% of them aren’t really dead.
A: Vietnam: 23,469.
Q: (T) 23,000 of the 66,000…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) …are still alive?
A: Yes. Some are body duplicate soul receptacle replacements.
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Q: (J) They have just around 100,000 with those three figures they gave us. (TK) They’ve got a military force right now, and it’s not just a military, these are elite. I mean, they’ve been recruited. (J) They’ve been asked the question, and they said yes! (T) Yes, this is not some guy hunking a gun in a foxhole just for the heck of it. These are specialists. (TK) The CIA was siphoning people off in ‘Nam right and left.
Q: (L) Are there any Civil War KIAs involved in this scenario?
A: A few.
Q: (T): Well, the farther back you go, the specialties weren’t developed. But a specialist is a specialist, no matter what the war.
A: Not point.
Q: (L) I think the point is who they are. Now, in the Matrix material, there’s a section that talks about technical abilities to jerk people’s souls out of their bodies, insert other souls, reprogram the memories, essentially that there is no congruency…
A: False.
Q: (L) Okay, so the jerking out and the manipulating of souls as described are false? In a general sense?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, now, you said a moment ago that some of these bodies were used as receptacles, soul receptacles. When you say soul receptacles, do you mean soul receptacles for whom?
A: Replacements for dead bodies, i.e., duplicated.
Q: (L) So, in other words, they make replacements for dead people and put their souls in a replacement body, so that they can continue living on, is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they ever use dead bodies and reanimate them and then put other souls in them?
A: No. For example: a soldier is KIA, his body is duplicated, his soul is replaced into new body, then he is “reprogrammed for service” to aliens and S.G.
Q: (L) Where does the new body coming from?
A: It is duplicate of old body. TDARM. [Trans Dimensional Atomic ReMolecularization]
Q: (T) Otherwise known in Star Trek as a “replicator”. (TK) Does somebody have to die in a certain way before they can do this?
A: No.
Q: (TK) Is there a time limit on how long they can be dead?
A: No. Zero time.
Q: (L) They use the frequency vibration of the soul pattern, they take it into another density, use their TDARM technology to cause a molecular re-assembly; in other words, the atoms begin to assemble around it in the pattern that it had before, and then it is a full-fledged body, and then they insert it back through the time doorway into 3D again. Is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, you said… Let’s use Vietnam. You said there were 23,000 KIAs of the 60,000 that actually were not killed in action. True? Yes?
A: Were killed, then reanimated.
Q: (L) We’re not talking about physical bodies here, are we?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, there are some that were killed in action that the actual bodies were reanimated? (J) As long as they weren’t blown up in a land mine, yeah. (L) There were actually bodies that were actually reanimated, is that correct?
A: Some, but most were duplicated. War makes covert actions so easy.
Q: (T) It’s just that the cover of a war, is easier to take the bodies. (TK) They do not want people to realize… They do not want to just take them out of the graves, because if you did, it would be more noticed. (L) Were some of these bodies taken… Were the bodies picked up, taken into another density for this remolecularization patterning?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, so they had to have an actual body for the pattern. Were the original bodies returned once the duplication was done?
A: More than one type of situation.
Q: (L) So, in other words, it could be sometimes, yeah, they were, and sometimes, no, they weren’t. (T) Were some of these supposed ‘killed in action’s actually not killed? Were they still alive when they were removed?
A: All possibilities.
Q: (L) So this is in a sense a “crime of opportunity”. (J) War is a supermarket of opportunities! (T) Some were just taken by the Secret Government when they were alive, some were dead and brought back in new bodies to continue on, and they were considered dead, but they’re all considered dead.
A: Taken by aliens, not SG. Secret Government is aware to some extent, but not in control of operation.
Q: (L) Okay, now this brings up the question about… We were told that there was, and this was… last week we asked about this thing about the death… and we were told that there was an impenetrable triple veil that prevents some of this type of activity, that he describes happening. How can this be reconciled? Well, the explanation that I see is that it happens that they do this before they go into the tunnel, into the light. They catch them in the transition before they go to 5D. Is that correct?
A: Time adjustment.
Q: (L) Does that mean that they know that they’re going to die, and they go back in time to just before they die, or just at the moment of death, or…?
A: Close.
Q: (T): Now, what are the aliens doing with these bodies? With the humans that they replicate and duplicate and reanimate? What are they doing with them?
A: Serve them. Workers.
So, now that you know what was in my head when we were talking about Roswell, you will understand why I asked the next question in the session we broke away from to insert the above segment about KIAs.
October 21, 1995
Q: (L) Okay, did they plan to reanimate these corpses?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Do they ever pick up dead bodies, you know, right after, and reanimate them?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) When they pick them up and reanimate them, do they reanimate them with the souls that left them? Do they like, catch the soul and put it back in?
A: No.
Q: (L) When they reanimate them, do they reanimate them with an alien soul?
A: Multiple possibilities.
Q: (L) If they reanimate them, is it possible to reanimate them with no soul?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, when they reanimate them with no soul, do they have kind of like a zombie-like situation?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, could you give us a little more information on this particular aspect? If they reanimate them with no soul, what is the animating force or energy?
A: Indistinguishable from other humans.
Q: (L) How is that possible?
A: Technology makes all things possible!!!
Q: (L) Of course, you are talking about fourth density technology?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, a reanimated corpse that has been animated by infusion of some form of an energy pattern… (SV) Is it “chi” energy, maybe? (L) What if the reanimated corpse dies again, I mean, you have got to understand here, that we perceive the soul as being the animating force of the physical body, and when the soul is gone, the body dies. Is that correct?
A: You are making assumptions based on limited data.
Q: (L) Okay, well, will you expand my database by telling me how a corpse can be reanimated if not done by a… if not with a soul?
A: Complex technology, using electronic biogeneration frequency matching, combined with extremely high frequency radio beacon transmitters for tracking and control of all functions, including thought pattern mimic and emotional frequency vibrational rate modulation!!!!
Q: (L) If they’re doing this, does it make the physical body do all normal physical functions?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) The blood, the heartbeat and everything…
A: All functions, including cellular, are duplicated.
Q: (SV) What about the aura? (L) Would a being such as this still have an aura?
A: Projected. This is method used for subjects discussed in “Matrix Material” instead of “Robots”, as suggested.
Q: (L) Is there any way that a normal person would be able to identify such a being?
A: No.
Q: (L) Approximately how many of this type of being are walking around on our planet, acting like normal people?
A: 2,000,000.
Q: (L) Approximately 2 million?
A: Yes. You, Laura, have come in contact with 7 of them!
Q: (L) Who are they?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) Can you give me a clue, has it been within the last…
A: Open. All it takes is a “hospital visit”.
Q: (LM) Then what happens? Does this mean if one goes into a hospital for surgery, that it’s possible for them to die and be reanimated in this manner? Without anybody being aware of what happened via time/space manipulation?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it up to me to figure out what characteristics these individuals have, in order to…
A: Based upon data given, yes.
Q: (L) Okay, is one of the characteristics I think, that these kind of individuals might have, since they have this projected emotional frequency, would be a repeating emotional pattern, that they just simply, in spite of seeming intelligence, do not seem to learn from anything; that it just repeats over and over again, is that a clue?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, then, this same inability to get a clue about what’s going on… Okay, that’s a clue, right there. Is there any kind of instinctual sensation that one would get about these types of individuals?
A: Bland.
Q: (L) That they’re bland in some way? Is that it, that these individuals are bland individuals?
A: Spend inordinate amounts of “time” in solitude. Bland is not universal in this situation, just a clue for you to identify individual.
Q: (L) Okay, bland is just part of it.
A: Not key component, more likely to be spreading of disinformation.
Q: (L) Okay, well, there are people I have noticed, that if you tell them something logically, it’s almost like they have a preset program that runs, and the minute you get to the point where you think that they just have to be getting it… then it just shuts down and they repeat the program, almost word for word! And it just amazes me that people can be that way. Okay, do these beings know what they are?
A: Not conscious beings! Are being remote controlled.
Q: (SV) So, if you told one of them what they were, they’d agree with you? (L) No, they’d probably disagree with you. Whoever is in charge would not want you to know it, so they’d naturally deny it vehemently. (L) Now, what is the purpose of putting 2 million of these kinds of critters on the planet? Can you give us a clue?
A: Wait and see.
April 28, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, if a person were, say, a robot person, when a person becomes a robot person, what happens to the soul of the robot person?
A: Same process: Death.
Q: (L) So, a person can die and leave their body, their body can be taken over and reanimated and controlled to function, and do a lot of things for a long time? Meanwhile, the original soul has completely departed to fifth density ready to recycle?
A: Yes, but body is replaced, not reanimated. We caution that, even though you have met 7 “robots”, in your entire lifetime, not to “see” them under every bush or around every corner. You have met so many people in your life. We gave you one, and only one!! [One was identified for me as part of the clue system.]
Q: (L) Well, there are two million of them on the planet, and I have been told that I have encountered seven. I did think that this was a pretty high ratio of robot people for one person to encounter…
A: Yes, but your life path has been unusual.
Q: (L) Can you tell me in what sense it is unusual?
A: Can’t you?
Q: (L) Well, I thought I would trick you into telling me…
A: No tricks, we only treat.
So it seems that, in addition to “green bombs”, in several varieties, mind controlled individuals manipulated by the secret government, we also have a handful of “robots” wandering around on the Big Blue Marble just waiting to do something. Or, even doing it all along, seeming to be ordinary folks like you and me except for a particular blandness that is not universal to them, and a propensity for spending a lot of time alone.
But, two million is really a pretty small number, considering the population of the planet, taken as a whole, so these must be pretty specialized individuals. That they are servants and workers for the control system is pretty clear, and that many of them are supposedly drawn from a military pool is also pretty clear, but the possibilities are wide open in terms of where and how they might be placed.
We came back to the subject at one point, with more interesting revelations:
May 4, 1996
Q: (L) One of the things we talked about the last time TK was here was about the underground bases and military interference in civilian affairs and civilian interface with military affairs. One of the questions we were dealing with was the use of warfare to create situations in which bodies could be taken…
A: Warfare has many “uses”. Generation of environment to facilitate inconspicuous replacement of gene pool. Factors in paradigm shift through stimulation of conception activity, replacement of key personnel according to frequency vibration pre-readings…
Q: (L) “Replacement of key personnel according to frequency vibration pre-readings…” Okay, do you mean to say that war…
A: Creates “environment” for unnoticed genetic modifications because of greatly heightened exchange of both physical and ethereal factors.
Q: (L) What do you mean by “replacement of key personnel”? Key personnel according to whose definition?
A: 4th density STS.
Q: (L) Are these key personnel human?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) When you say replacement, do you mean something as simple as someone dying, such as a head of state, and being replaced by another person who comes to power? That would be the simplest scenario that would fit this explanation.
A: Your scenario is not simple.
Q: (L) I mean simple in terms of the logistics…
A: Both.
Q: (L) Would it also be that key personnel could also be replaced as in duplication?
A: Yes. And removing to secret activity realm. Enough wars have taken place to effectively create entire new “underground race” of humans, both from direct capture followed by “re-education”, and spawning activity using these persons and others.
Q: (L) What do you mean by spawning activity?
A: Those captured have reproduced offspring, these never having seen your world.
Q: (L) Are you saying… (TK) They have given birth and these children have never seen our world… (L) How can an entire race of people, or groups of people, live under the surface of this planet, without the whole 6 billion of the rest of us on top, or at least a large number, realizing that there is anything going on? This is so wild an idea…
A: No. How much space exists underground, as opposed to that on the surface?
Q: (L) A lot, I suppose. You aren’t saying that the earth is hollow, are you?
A: No, not exactly.
Q: (L) Well, how deep is the deepest of these underground cities?
A: 3,108 miles.
Q: (L) That’s pretty deep! But wouldn’t it be too hot at that depth?
A: No. Temperature averages 68 degrees F. [20 degrees C.]
Q: (TK) That’s pretty comfortable! (L) How do they have light?
A: Magnetic resonance.
Q: (L) Well, aren’t they subject to being crushed by earthquakes?
A: No, earthquakes are not felt deep underground!!
Q: (TK) Is any of this under the ocean?
A: Yes.
Q: (TK) Well, we’ll never explore all of what is under the ocean. (L) It just staggers the mind to think about it. What do they want these people for?
A: To replace you.
Q: (TK) And why? Because they can control them better?
A: Completely.
Q: (L) Do these people being bred and raised in these underground cities have souls?
A: Yes, most.
Q: (TK) Are they just like us only raised differently?
A: More complicated than that.
Q: (L) How long have they been doing this?
A: 14,000 years, approximately.
Q: (L) If they have been doing it that long, obviously the ones they have taken at the beginning have croaked and are of no use to replace anybody on the earth unless they have been replacing people from time to time for various reasons…
A: No, their technology makes yours look like Neanderthal by comparison! Hibernation tubes… One heartbeat per hour, for example.
Q: (TH) That means that for every year we live, they would live 4200 years… (L) How do we fit into all of this? (TK) We don’t!
A: You have been the “preparation committee”.
Q: (L) What have we been doing? Is it part of the plan for us to destroy the planet, destroy the ozone layer, pollute the seas, and so forth, to make it more habitable for them?
A: Those things are inconsequential and easily repaired.
Q: (TK) With their technology, they can fix all of that. (L) This is really horrible, you know! To think of all this… (TK) Apparently, from what I am understanding, they can’t just come in and wipe us out and replace us, because the “rules” won’t allow it.
A: Yet the natural cycles within the framework of the natural order of things will allow all these things to fall into place.
Q: (L) Is there some law within the realm of these beings, sort of like the law of gravity that prevents them from just coming in and taking over?
A: No.
Q: (TK) I don’t think it is like the law of gravity…
A: What “law” is there that inhibits you from manipulating 2nd density beings at will?!?
Q: (L) Well, I don’t go out and deliberately hurt or manipulate anything or anybody. (TK) Of course, in our handling of these “critters”, we are conserving them in some ways so that we will have an ongoing food supply… I think there are rules to the game. It’s like a chess game. They can’t just come in and change things, it has to progress in some way. But, there are loopholes and they can sneak in and manipulate and get away with some things… (TH) Then, those aren’t rules — there are just guidelines.
A: Two important points there: 1) When we said “you”, we meant 3rd density collectively. 2) You missed our statement about the natural cycle and order of things almost completely. We suggest you reread and ponder… Also, what if your race is manipulated to destroy yourselves, or, just hang around until the next natural cataclysm?
Q: (TK) Well, it seems like there is another side that is trying to prevent them from gaining control. (L) Well, from what I understand, the only thing the good guys are able to do is, because of free will, they have to wait to be asked for help, and the only thing they can really do is give information. (F) Well, this is valuable if used by the right people at the right time. (TK) You have to come up with the right questions, too. You have to have enough information to be able to come up with the right questions. I am sure the information is there. You have one group with all these people underground and they want to take over the planet. This group likes being fourth density — they don’t want to advance. They want to block advancement. Then, you have the group that wants to advance; they want the natural order to proceed. This negative group wants to stay there and keep everyone they can there. Obviously we have the information, but we haven’t really dug deep enough so that we don’t know the questions that we need to ask. Is this true?
A: No.
Q: (TK) Is what I was saying close to the truth?
A: Yes. Total truth is elusive.
Q: (TK) So, what I said was the gist of what is going on here. So, we have to figure out what we are supposed to do so that the earth can be maintained…
A: You will do what you will do.
Q: (TK) This is true.
A: Do you, in general, control 2nd density beings on earth?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: So, what is “fair” about that?
Q: (L) Nothing.
A: Okay, so what is the difference?!?!???
Q: (TK) So, basically, we control second density, and fourth density controls us. There are the good guys and bad guys. (L) And we will do what we will do. Either we choose to align ourselves with the good guys, or with the bad guys.
A: It’s up to you.
Q: (TK) However, if too many people align themselves with the bad guys, then the balance tips in their favor, and there is no more advancement, so there has to be education so that people will know…
A: TK, you are close, but you are missing the point.
Q: (L) What is the point?
A: The point is, there “has to be” nothing. You will do what you will do. You choose. We have told you this repeatedly, but you still suffer from self-centered perspective.
Q: (TK) Everybody is worried about themselves. They all want to be saved and not worry about others.
A: More to the point, everybody in an STS realm views themselves as somehow “special, chosen, or protected”. This is simply not so!!
Q: (L) So, in other words, by having knowledge of the situation, what we do with it is our choice?
A: Yes.
Q: (TK) The point is it’s going to happen…
A: But, nobody is there to intervene on your behalf as many would like to believe.
Q: (L) So, we are here on this planet, and we will either make it or we won’t, just like Dorothy and Toto in Oz, based on our own ability to figure it out, to overcome the odds, the witch, monkeys and soldiers… (TK) Maybe what they are trying to do is give people the information, or make the information available so that people can make the choice, do they want to stay…
A: We are not “trying” to do anything. We are here to answer questions if asked. We cannot interfere.
Q: (TK) Yes, the noninterference idea is pretty clear and understandable. So, they cannot interfere…
A: And, even when we answer, you may not believe, it is up to you!
Q: (L) So, we are really on our own!
A: You always have been, and so have we, and all others, too!!
Q: (TK) I guess then, it is a matter of asking the right questions so that you will know what course of action to take. I mean, do you want to advance? Do you want to go to fourth density? Or do you want to go higher? Or do you want to stay here? How can you make an informed choice if you don’t know the true conditions and what your options are? (L) Is it that the religions that have been generated and foisted on the human race, have been designed to give people a feeling of complacency or faith in something outside themselves, and that this prevents them from seeking knowledge, opening their eyes, facing the facts of their existence, and therefore keeps them in bondage?
A: Its just obstacles, as always. You employ those too, for your 2nd density friends!!
Q: (TK) What state of mind do you have to have to want to advance? (F) Well, you know you are on the path when you can see that the words don’t match the facts of life. Think of all the people you have met with whom you may have had a philosophical conversation. How many will say, “Oh, all I need is the Bible. That’s all I pay any attention to.”
(TK) I don’t have many philosophical conversations with people because I rarely agree with anything that is said.
(F) Well, you must have decided on this because you tried it and found it didn’t work.
(TK) I have a real problem … yes, the Bible has been around for a long time, and religion has been around for a long time … but I have a real problem believing something that is so obviously produced by humans with agendas of their own!
(F) But most people that you tell that to will say, “Oh, no! People didn’t write the Bible, God did!” Or, they could be a complete atheist and believe only in the religion of science.
TK) I believe that a person is supposed to live by rules and treat people with respect and honor life… and some of the ideas of religion are good… but they just go over the edge.
(F) That is how they suck people in. Mix lies with the truth.
(L) Yes, a lie sandwiched between two truths makes it easier to swallow.
(F) Yes, if it were all false, the vast majority of people would have figured it out immediately. Or, very quickly.
(TK) The vast majority doesn’t care. They just want to be led like sheep. They don’t want any responsibility.
(F) And what happens to the vast majority of cattle? They munch away in their pasture until time to get in the truck to go to the butcher. And, if you talk to the religious types, they will say, “Oh, I don’t have any answers… I just follow the Bible.”
(L) Not only do they not have any answers, they don’t have any questions, either. And, I think that is the clue. The people who are still asking questions after wading through all the religions and mystical mumbo-jumbo as opposed to the ones who think they have found the ultimate answer…
(TK) The whole purpose of life, it seems to me, is to obtain knowledge and advance. You are stuck on this level until you figure it out. But what are you supposed to figure out?
(L) I think that the knowing is the doing.
(TH) “Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” It’s in the Bible!
(L) Is the knowing the key?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I think that knowing changes your frequency. Is that true?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) The acknowledging and the seeing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What did they tell us once… it’s not where you are, but who you are and what you see that counts? (TK) So, we aren’t gonna change what happens. There is no way we can have any appreciable effect on the underground armies… it is just a matter of changing ourselves and whoever else we can share with.
A: Correct, the cow has no effect on the health of the livestock industry…
Q: (TK) The cow has no effect on the herd. One cow doesn’t… or even a lot of cows. (F) But there might be a few cows that follow the one that breaks out of the herd. (TK) Yes, you might be able to affect somebody else’s life, but not the whole group.
A: First, some blockbuster stuff for the Knighted ones… Look upon a detailed map, and reflect, remember lonely journeys from long ago, and begin to unlock shattering mysteries, which will lead to revelations opening the door to the greatest learning burst yet!!
Q: (L) Well, what I really want to know is why have we had all of these crazy things happen in our lives, and all of these people ranged all around us seemingly placed there, or manipulated deliberately to affect us negatively. I mean, am I wrong, or is this not a very unusual and crazy situation?
A: Why do you think?
Q: (L) Well, I have no idea!
A: Because you are of the extremely rare and few who have the abilities to put the puzzle together.
Q: (L) So, what are we supposed to do? (TK) Discover.
A: Yes.
Let’s go over those most important remarks above one more time:
The point is, there ‘has to be’ nothing. You will do what you will do. You choose. We have told you this repeatedly, but you still suffer from self-centered perspective. More to the point, everybody in an STS realm views himself or herself as somehow ‘special, chosen, or protected’. This is simply not so!! Nobody is there to intervene on your behalf as many would like to believe. We are not ‘trying’ to do anything. We are here to answer questions if asked. We cannot interfere. And even when we answer, you may not believe. It is up to you!
It seems that we are in a quandary. What can all of this rather bleak perspective possibly mean? Well, we were given a clue:
You will do what you will do. Do you, in general, control 2nd density beings on earth? So, what is ‘fair’ about that? … What is the difference?!?!???
Let me remind you that the Cassiopaeans do all their own punctuating. In this last remark above, I counted the exclamations and question marks that were indicated, and the group above represents the actual given sequence. The Cassiopaeans often use such devices as part of the clue system. Yes, they cannot violate free will by even suggesting what we ought to choose or do, but they have said so often that “you will do what you will do” in such a context as to make it absolutely clear that the information they are giving us can either be acted on or not. It depends on how it affects the individual hearing or reading it.
We have traversed ideas in these pages that are utterly fantastic. We have talked about things that, if true, could scare the chrome off of a car bumper! And yet, I look outside the window and see the blue sky, clouds and sunshine, birds and squirrels; I hear my children moving about the house engaged in their little pursuits; traffic passes on the street carrying people to and from their myriad destinations, engaged upon their personal lives and enterprises, and the world seems to be spinning normally in the velvet blackness of space. Billions of suns spewing forth unimaginable energy, twinkling slyly at night, while the tropical moon glides across the sky. And the Bible asks, “What is man that thou art mindful of him?”
I hope to be able to answer this question in the next chapters. I may not satisfy everyone, because there are many who still suffer from a self-centered perspective. More to the point, everybody in an STS realm views themselves as somehow special, chosen, or protected.
To give you just a hint, however, let me say this: to be special, chosen or protected is a choice. And that is the biggest clue the Cassiopaeans have given us. It is up to us as to how we interpret it, and what we then do with that realization.
1 French, Thomas, “The Exorcist in Love: A Tale of Possibilities,” (St. Petersburg Times. St. Petersburg, Fla.: Feb 13, 2000).
2 I tell more of her story in High Strangeness (although I used the pseudonym Maryann) and Soul Hackers.
3 See Almost Human for a more in-depth analysis of psychopathy.
4 French, Thomas, “The Exorcist in Love: A Tale of Possibilities,” (St. Petersburg Times. St. Petersburg, Fla.: Feb 13, 2000).
5 The Alien Autopsy film is steeped in severe controversy. It alleges that the US government undertook and filmed an autopsy of an alien that had crashed in the Roswell vicinity on June 2, 1947. The 50-year-old film canisters came into the possession of Ray Santilli from a freelance photographer of the 1950s.
(http://www.mufor.org/gehrman1.htm)
The Nexus Seven Meet the
Cassiopaeans
Why? That’s the big question I am asked over and over again. Why? Why do the Cassiopaeans tell us that we live in a prison? Why do the Sufis teach that we are in a prison? Why did Gurdjieff, influenced by the Sufi teachings, or even older mystery schools, tell us that we are living in a prison? Why did Castaneda write about the prison of reality (whether or not don Juan was even real or merely a literary device to convey something he had learned in the course of his studies)? Why did the Gnostics, and later the Bogomils and Cathars, teach that we are living in a prison, and then why did the Catholic Church institute the Inquisition to deal with this “deadly heresy”? And why is this Heresy received with the most heated umbrage by every promulgator of love and light, whether from the standard religious mode or from the New Age mode grafted onto the Old-Time Religion? Further, why does this prison seem to be designed to foil our every attempt to break free?
Why? What a monstrous thing to say about this wonderful, beautiful, God-created and divinely inspired world in which we live.
Of course, the why goes much deeper than this. Not only do we wish to know why in practical terms, we want to know why in ontological terms. Even if we have a reasonable explanation for the practical why, how do we explain our place in the universe, and in the care of a Divine being who loves us, if he allows such a condition to exist! Such a God must hate his children.
Well, let’s begin by addressing the practical side of the issue, because only then can we even hope to approach the ontological issues with any clarity. What the Cassiopaeans have said about our reality happens to be the explanation that fits the facts of which can be observed and gleaned by anyone who is sufficiently motivated to dig through the many fields of study as suggested by the topics covered in these pages. The fact that the Cassiopaeans’ remarks are repeatedly supported by research, observation, and experience has given me no pleasure, only a desperate drive to find the solution, the way out; not only for myself, but for anyone who takes the time and effort to read what I am sharing, and to then do their own research and experimentation.
There have been many conjectures as to why the alien faction of the Control System has not revealed his face in a public and definitive way on Earth. It seems that they have chosen to interact only with individuals and small groups in situations that are subject to denial at official levels. If they were so anxious to be accepted, why would this be so?
Why hasn’t ET (the extraterrestrial) landed on the White House lawn and emerged from his craft saying, “Take me to your leader!” The fact that the aliens have not done so, that they have not interacted with anyone of sufficient power and importance (when clearly, they could) has led to a great deal of speculation. And, if they have interacted with anyone in the higher echelons of power, what is the reason for the maintenance of institutional silence about their presence on this planet?
No matter which way you look at it, warning bells go off all over the place, and it is because such instinctive warnings do exist that we are subjected to such massive use of mind control efforts. In case the institutional mind control efforts don’t work, there are added brainwashing elements pouring forth daily in the form of channeled teachings and “revealed truths” extracted from standard religious teachings. All of these combine to talk us out of our instinctive knowledge that a great cosmic shell game is going on, and we are the suckers being fattened up for the kill.
One of the disinformation ploys claims that the reason the world governments keep the lid on the so-called ET situation (keeping in mind that the reality is more likely hyperdimensional and not simply “extraterrestrial”) is because human acceptance on a mass scale might be taken as an invitation by ET to just move in and take over.
August 5, 2000
Q: (L) It says here in this “Top Secret”1 document penned by the so-called Nexus Seven: “The bottom line is, ARC [Alien Response Consortium] has discovered that it is very possible that confirmation, validation and consensus scientific acceptance equals an open invitation to invasion. Think about it. Denial may be one of the most powerful measures we have at our disposal to prevent the overt acceptance of the reality of advanced alien presence into the consensus consciousness. Denial is a munition.” They are saying that as long as the whole idea of alien presence “remains in the realm of the fantastic and kooky, the implausible and mentally ill” that it is a line of defense against aliens. They see this as just a little “guided free will” to protect consensus belief using “popular deployable psychological munitions of belief.” They are saying that denial is a psychological weapon, a “deterrent of aliens into mainstream reality since the aliens seem to respect the stance of individual and group consciousness and acculturation free will more than military might and power. Therefore, we can, by accepting alien presence and existence above board in enough mainstream public, unwittingly turn off the restrictions against overt contact the aliens are following. The overt invasion trigger is our general human acceptance.” Could you comment on the idea that denial of the reality is protection? Is that, in fact, so?
A: No. Protection comes from awareness, not the other way around.
This, of course, leads to the line of thought that ET has interacted with individuals in power and that either they are conspiring together, or the secret government has taken a position of opposition to ET. This latter option could be for one of two reasons: either ET is very evil and the secret government is an association of good guys just trying to protect us; or ET is good and the secret government are the bad guys, seeking to control the whole world, and with plans to fight ET at some point in the future when ET tires of playing cat-and-mouse. On the other hand, the secret government may be spoiling our big chance to join an intergalactic community because ET will just get tired altogether and go home, taking all their toys and technology, leaving us to wait on another chance for advancement.
The idea that ET is obeying the free will choice of humanity in not stepping out from behind the curtain, whether this is due to their goodness or evil, and the many variations of possibilities revolving around their relations with the power echelons, is pretty much based on some of the explanations given by assorted channeled sources when their prophesied mass landings and rapturous reunions do not take place on schedule. The explanation goes along the line of: “Well, your governments did not roll out the red carpet and acknowledge us, so we, being sticklers for honoring free will, must regretfully decline to show ourselves, and that means that you poor, miserable humans have to continue to muddle along on your own without our munificent assistance.”
This slick sidestepping of the big revelation, (after months and months of buildup to the mass landing that is guaranteed to happen), is usually followed by instructions that the recipients of said information must lobby their representatives more in the coming days and months, in order to garner acceptance for ET in the public sphere. Meanwhile, of course, all ET can really do is just keep talking to his or her favored prophet, giving sage and wonderful advice and insight and dire warnings of the awful things that are going to happen, and how much humanity is going to need ET to help them out of the mess they are in.
Meanwhile, abductions are explained in dozens of ways including the idea that some aliens are actually ourselves physically time traveling back from the future and working with yet other helper aliens to effect modifications on their own past genetic line. In other words, some of the ETs are us coming back to remake a future that went wrong.
Some of these sources say that the military re-abduction of abductees soon after alien contacts is to try to discover the ET agenda or technological data, which the ET may have shared with the abductees. It is also claimed that some of these MILABs or military abductions are by those humans who are working with the aliens and are helping them to treat their ancestors with evolutionary adjustments.
Once people began to notice there was an awful lot of abduction activity going on — far more than would be needed to just sample or preserve the genetics of Earth — another explanation about the phenomena was forthcoming. It was suggested that something truly terrible was in our future and that, if the aliens did not fix some of us up, there would be no survivors of the coming catastrophe. This is just a variation on the “something went terribly wrong in the future and they are coming back to fix it” scenario.
Certain contactees say that their ET informants (or channeled information) have outlined the main reasons for abduction and that it is “for your good”. They claim to be upgrading the genetics and even the soul energies. There are endless variations of these positive explanations for abduction, and it always includes, either implicitly or explicitly, the idea that the abductee has given permission for the activity at another time and place including the higher self, the future self, the past self, or whatever.
One very popular source of the present time, Anna Hayes, writes:
The large amount of ET intervention with Earth that is now taking place is due to our planet’s position within its present time cycle. Presently humans have little understanding of these processes and so could not possibly remove themselves from harm’s way without the assistance of more advanced stellar races who do possess this knowledge. But the Guardians need humanity’s assistance to accomplish this task in a way that would insure human survival during these changes. Abductions and ET contact with Guardian groups are carried out in order to educate and biologically prepare certain humans to assist in this forthcoming process. Humans selected to assist in this endeavor are those who possess specific genetic codes that allow for more flexibility of the biological structure. Not everyone has these codes, and those who do have a responsibility toward the planet and toward the populations who do not have the needed genetic imprint. What the code carriers do with this hidden genetic propensity will determine the overall outcome of the Doreadeshi for the remaining populations.2
Now, we see the agenda of the man behind the curtain, who Anna Hayes designates as “the Wizard” and which is her analogy of the source of her information. Curious that she didn’t notice that the Wizard, even when he did emerge from behind the curtain, was still a humbug — giving out fake hearts, phony degrees, and useless testimonials.
Yes, indeed… “Abductions and ET contact with Guardian groups are carried out in order to educate and biologically prepare certain humans to assist in this forthcoming process.” Just another elaborate hoax to justify abductions and helping those poor humans to evolve or survive.
There is no time left for squabbling over truth or fiction. Though it may require a large leap of faith for most humans to accept the truth of what the Guardians are saying, if that leap is not made and appropriate actions taken, humans will have no one but themselves to blame for the consequences of their choices. If Earth changes of severity do occur at the Doreadeshi, it will be due to the failure of the human populace in fulfilling its responsibility as the Guardian race of planet Earth. For those who make this leap of faith, Guardian education and assistance will be provided, either consciously or on a subconscious level and through dreams and intuitive guidance.3
This reminded me of a vacuum cleaner salesman who once came to my house and told me how sorry I would be if I didn’t take advantage of this “great sale” right now because tomorrow, the chance would be gone.
But, haven’t the Cassiopaeans said that they are us in the future? And haven’t we speculated on the sending of messages back in time as being a possible source of true channeled material? What is the difference between that, and genetic tweaking of bodies by aliens abducting human beings who say they are doing it for our good?
July 22, 2000
Q: (LC) I feel like all of us here have been drawn together for a reason. We had a hell of a time getting here, every one of us, but we did, and I’m just wondering what is this all about? Why did all of us feel so drawn that we just had to be here?
A: You are not wondering so much as you are seeking confirmation. Every one here thinks on more than one level. This already puts everyone into a different category than the status quo. You all have quite well developed senses; a more difficult task is learning to trust the messages. Remember, you all have received negative programming at the third density level, which is designed to derail your higher psychic awareness. You by now know that this is false programming, but we realize that the subconscious centers are more difficult for you to overcome. Patience will pay off for you big time!!!
Q: (P) This is my feeling about the whole thing: us coming together, the energy created by each of us being in each other’s presence is a key; it’s unlocking something that we agreed to come together at this time, though it may not be apparent now, it’s going to be. That’s the way I have felt about this whole meeting we are having. (I) Yes. I had to come. No matter what. (P) Yes. (LC) I guess I wanted confirmation of why I felt I had to come! (L) And they are telling us “patience will pay off big time!” (A) What kind of programming do we all have? I know it’s negative, but what kind in specific?
A: You receive programming daily from many sources, but the ultimate root is essentially the same.
Q: (I) Yes, TV, cell phone towers, all of that, I guess…
A: Childhood training, etc.
Q: (LC) Okay, another question, and this is a kind of selfish one I am thinking about…
A: Wait a minute, remember, your plane of existence is STS by its very nature and that is okay, because you’re all where you are for a reason… Now LC, fire away and be just as selfish as you please, dear. [Laughter.]
Q: (LC) Well, if that’s the case! I want to ask about past life relations between us. I’m sure there is. Are there any specific past life connections between any of the women in this room?
A: Before we answer that, we wish to hear from you what you perceive a past life circumstance to be. How do you perceive the reincarnation process to be?
Q: (LC) I perceive it as you come back with people you choose to come back with, and that you choose people that you are karmically connected to. (I) I see it a little bit differently than that…
A: Aha! We have a variance!
Q: (I) I think that when we die and go to fifth density, that we make pacts with people in each incarnation, so when you come back, it is coming back to fulfill that pact. (LC) Yes, that is the way my line of thinking is going. But, when they asked that question, I was thinking that you have people you come back with because of closeness. Somebody may be your mother in one life, and there is a love bond, and then there are other people that you come back with because you have to resolve something to let go of that person rather than to get closer.
A: This is partially correct. But, there is more to it than this. For example, one can incarnate on various planes of existence, not just the one you perceive currently. And, one may actually reincarnate on more than one plane concurrently, if one is advanced enough to do this.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that …
A: Yes, we are!
Q: (L) I was thinking it, but they didn’t let me finish. For the record, I was thinking that we are all part of the same soul unit here.
A: To an extent, but you may not yet understand what exactly a “soul unit” is in that sense. And of course, there is more than one sense for this as well. The “trick” that 3rd density STS life forms will learn, either prior to transition to 4th density, or at the exact juncture, is to think in absolutely limitless terms. The first and most solid step in this process is to not anticipate at all. This is most difficult for you. We understand this, but this as also why we keep reiterating this point. For example, imagine if one of your past lives is also a future life?
Q: (P) Now, I just want to say that I think that we have all of us here traveled back in time to change the way things are now. We inserted ourselves into this time period to wake up and see what is really happening. This is third density thinking, I know, but it is the only way I can describe it. We looked back on the way things happened, the way the world is now, and we have come back to change things. We have come from the future, to wake up now, because we didn’t wake up before. (C) Maybe that’s our “past life/future life” connection here? (P) Right, we all agreed to insert ourselves in this time line… (L) So, we are from the future… (P) Because the world is going in this direction, and something had to be done. That’s what I see.
A: Yes. That is close to being totally correct!
Q: (P) The Cs say that they are us in the future. So, we, being them in the future, some of who they are in the future, have come back as us, to do what we are doing, to undo what is happening on Earth…
A: Close, but more complex than that. It would be difficult for you to completely understand at this point, but let us just say that you are close.
Q: (P) I think we are creating a possibility that would not have existed if we had not come together here.
A: Yes, but that is generally true in most similar circumstances. The question is the degree to which there is significance.
Q: (I) How significant a possibility are we creating here now?
A: That is for you to see.
Q: (I) So, we don’t know. We sense something very important about changing the universe.
(L) I think that it is also up to us, individually and as a group, to choose how we respond to the upcoming events. The saying “many are called, few are chosen” should be rephrased to say, “Many are called, but few choose to answer the call.”
(P) Everyone is called!
(L) Yes. But so many succumb to the attacks, can’t overcome the blocks and barriers, and choose to continue to view life in mundane, surface terms. When push comes to shove, how many really do answer. It is a very subtle thing to read the signs and “see the unseen” in the morass of conflicting signals that the third density reality sends to block our vision.
(P) Yes. Animals have an abundance of young in order that some will survive. I think there is an abundance of us so that some will wake up. The odds are against it, so there has to be an abundance of us that have come back for this reason.
(L) Getting back to the programming, I had a call from BV who thinks that the UFO phenomenon, the alien abduction phenomenon, and the many and varied other things we talk about and study and discuss, are a product of super advanced technological, human controlled mind programming projects using the technology of Puharich and Tesla. Yes, it is supposed to be so advanced that they can not only read minds and can control minds, but that it is, in the end, merely human engineered programming. Is he, even in part, correct?
A: Well, there are elements of the phenomenon, which may be connected to human, 3rd density STS engineering, but by and large, this is not the case.
Q: (L) He also said that the area we are living is the center of a particular programming experiment, something like Nazi/Black magick cultists or something like that.
A: Better not to get too carried away. Remember, the root of all “negative” energies directed at 3rd density STS subjects, coming from 4th density, is essentially the same. Suggest a review of the transcripts relating to the situation in Nazi Germany for better understanding here. The concept of a “master race” put forward by the Nazis was merely a 4th density STS effort to create a physical vehicle with the correct frequency resonance vibration for 4th density STS souls to occupy in 3rd density. It was also a “trial run” for planned events in what you perceive to be your future.
Q: (L) You mean with a strong STS frequency so they can have a “vehicle” in third density, so to speak?
A: Correct. Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.
Q: (L) So, that is why they are abducting, programming and experimenting? And all these folks running around who some think are programmed, or chosen abductees could be individuals who are raising their nastiness levels high enough to accommodate the truly negative STS fourth density — sort of like walk-ins or something, only not nice ones?
A: You do not have very many of those present yet, but that was, and still is, the plan of some of the 4th density STS types.
August 5, 2000
Q: (L) Okay, last session you brought up the subject of Frequency Resonance Vibration. You suggested that there are certain STS forces who are developing or creating or managing physical bodies that they are trying to increase the frequency in so that they will have bodies that are wired so that they can manifest directly into third density, since not being able to hold the frequency in third density seems to be the real barrier that prevents an all-out invasion from fourth density… the fact that we are in third density and they are in fourth. Now, I assumed that the same function could be true for STO individuals. It seems that many individuals who have come into this time period from the future, coming back into the past via the incarnational cycle so as not to violate free will, have carefully selected bodies with particular DNA, which they are, little by little, activating so that their fourth density selves, or higher, can manifest in this reality. Is it possible for those energies to manifest into such bodies, which have been awakened or tuned in third density?
A: STO tends to do the process within the natural flow of things. STS seeks to alter creation processes to fit their ends.
Q: (L) This “Top Secret” document talks about many abductions being “ourselves from the future” who have come back to the past, or what is for us, the present, to abduct their own bodies to make genetic adjustments so that they can advance and not make the mistakes they made in another timeline. Is that, in fact, part of the scenario?
A: Very close to the truth!
Q: (L) Can you abduct yourself in an STO manner and help yourself in this way? Can that be STO?
A: It is not, because that is not STO.
Q: (L) So, when that is happening, and if it is happening, it is occurring in the STS parameter?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How do the STO manage?
A: They do not concern themselves with such things.
Q: (L) Well, if the STS guys are genetically tweaking themselves to have some kind of different outcome for some reason that we do not perceive, don’t you think there should be a balancing action on the STO side of some sort?
A: You are thinking in STS terms. But that is natural, since human 3rd density is STS.
Q: (L) You say they don’t concern themselves with that. What do STO individuals, coming back from the future into the past, concern themselves with?
A: Answering calls for assistance with knowledge.
Q: (L) What do these STS individuals coming back into the past hope to do by genetically tweaking their ancestors? What happened that they want to have happen differently?
A: Infinite number of possible answers to that question.
Q: (L) So, they are coming from all different timelines with all different kinds of agendas — all designed to serve themselves.
When information about the flat emotional condition of the aliens began to be discussed, a new explanation was offered. The aliens now claimed they were trying to save humanity from a dreadful mistake of evolution where we lost the capacity for the full range of emotions and spontaneity. Naturally, this was also tied up with some sort of cataclysm that most people did not survive. It was again claimed that to aid the abduction process is to save ourselves in the future. Thus, support for abductions was presented as a matter of human species future security. One source said:
Those of us in the future who followed the path that deserted the Heart, we evolved into abnormal extremes, we of such interspecies genetic masteries and technological power.
We limited our brain chemistry for passion and feelings in ways to promote group harmonies, and help in our species upgrade at the time. In time, the human enhancement program upgrades were discovered to have been more of a loss of vital function. The cost-benefit was miserable to development of certain qualities of spirituality and spiritual energies.
This was partly by choice, partly out of survival circumstances at the time. We eventually lost our way, but by universal grace we found means to travel back in time and encode the best of our future life streams with the best of your present life streams, and thus move on to grow again in ways we had lost.
We leave you in peace to grow into a future that will be new and different than the one we ourselves have come from. That future is the undiscovered country, and don’t worry, in the end we are all together anyway you slice it. But our genetic uplift influence is not necessary at all if you merely don’t resist the coming wave of cosmic energies and influences.
Just weather this time of momentous change in human history. Find the small ways you can assist present human evolution in important personal and social ways, and develop your ability to give and receive love.
But be careful with whom you ally in the spiritual world. Follow all your sacred faith tests, and or sacred science tests, for revealing false prophets and then some.4
The only problem is, as we have seen, the so-called sacred faith tests and sacred science tests are very often a load of hooey. From all the reports that come in from every direction, it seems that there are ETs of all levels and temperament. They can be angels or devils. The problem is: they all seem to be converging on Earth in massive covert contact and influence strategies, including genetic experimentation and possible religious takeover plans.
December 3, 1994
A: UFOs dramatic increase and Gulf Breeze gets swarmed, becomes massive “Mecca”. Laura sees much more UFO activity. Huge wave of UFO activity. All manner and origins. Just you wait, it will give you chills and that feeling in the pit of your stomach. Many aliens will appear and we will be visible too. Think of it as a convention. All must awaken to this. It is happening right now. The whole populace will play individual roles according to their individual frequencies. This is only the beginning. Just you wait “Henry Higgins,” just you wait!
Q: (L) Well, why is all this activity happening now?
A: The grand cycle is about to close presenting a unique opportunity.
Q: (L) Does this mean that this is a unique opportunity to change the future?
A: Future, past and present.
Q: (L) Well, that sort of makes me think that if things are not changed somewhat at this point on the grand cycle that things could get really direfully screwed up, is that correct?
A: But they won’t. You have not grasped concept.
Q: (L) Yeah I have, I got you, I understand. It’s just part of the cycle. It’s all a cycle. I mean their being here is part of us being here…
A: You do??? [Inscribed giant question mark on board]
Q: (L) Do what?
A: You said you understood concept. Really? Learn. Convention is because of realm border crossing.
Q: (L) And why is there a convention attending this realm border crossing? I mean, is it just a “really big shew!”
A: It is an opportunity.
Q: (V) As in the windows are all opening at one time so that all these beings can get in at one time?
A: As in an opportunity to affect whole universe. Picture cosmic playing of “Pomp and Circumstance” AKA “Hope and Glory”.
Q: (L) How can a convention with a slew of different kinds and races of beings, converging on a single little pinpoint planet on the outer edges of an insignificant galaxy, at the farthest reaches of this enormous universe, affect the whole thing?
A: That is your perception.
Q: (L) Well, what is the correct perception? Are the planet Earth and the people thereon, and the things that are going on in this spot, the Earth specifically, more important than maybe we would ordinarily have thought?
A: The Earth is a convergence point.
Q: (L) Was it designed to be a convergence point from the beginning?
A: Natural function.
Q: (L) Has it been a convergence point all along? Is that why so many weird things happen here?
A: That is difficult to answer because you have no understanding of “time”.
Q: (V) Has this type of convention thing happened on other planets with other groups of beings?
A: Has, is, and will.
Q: (L) If these convergence points are scattered around the universe, is the convergence of this realm border crossing going to occur simultaneously at all points in the universe that are convergence points?
A: No.
Q: (L) It only happens at say one, or selected, convergence points at any given point?
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, do realm borders have something to do with location?
A: Realm borders ride waves.
Q: (L) And where do these waves come from?
A: They constantly cycle.
Q: (L) Does it have something to do with the movement of the planet Earth into it or does it move onto us?
A: Either or.
Q: (F) Does this convention or convergence have something to do with the fact that there are living beings on the Earth?
A: Yes. And because you are at critical juncture in development.
Q: (L) In the book Mass Dreams of the Future [by Chet B. Snow], there are four scenarios described regarding the future of our planet; are all of these scenarios accurate in terms of general experience?
A: Possible futures.
Q: (L) So, when a person does a future progression, they are seeing a possible future and not necessarily…
A: Depends on quality of channel.
Q: (L) In talking about the new level of being after transition to fourth density, will this be something like what is described in the book Celestine Prophecy [by James Redfield]?
A: Close.
Q: (L) When was the last time a realm border crossed as far as the earth is concerned?
A: As you measure, on Earth, 309,000 years ago.
Q: (L) What does this wave consist of in terms of energy?
A: Feeling. Hyperkinetic sensate.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: All
Q: (L) Okay. How many times has the Wave come and involved the Earth, as we know it?
A: Infinite number.
The idea of denial being munition, as quoted above, is from a recently propagated document, “Top Secret” written by individual(s) calling themselves The Nexus Seven. This piece of writing attempts to put together many fragments of both third density analytical assessment of the current situation regarding the ET reality, and apparently channeled material from a variety of sources. I was very interested to read this document because it usefully creates a platform from which to discuss some of these issues more thoroughly. They write:
The idea is that as long as the idea of an alien presence remains in the realm of “the fantastic and kooky, the implausible and the mentally ill,” this is just a little “guided Free Will” to protect consensus belief using popular deployable psychological munitions of belief.
What is “a little guided Free Will”? Can it really mean that certain enclaves of higher echelon humans have decided what humanity, as a whole, needs? As the Cs said, “An STS vehicle does not learn to be an STO candidate by determining the needs of another (Sept. 19, 1998).”
The Alien Response Consortium deploys domestic and worldwide counter-intel measures thwarting consensus verification of the alien presence and reality just like any well-honed counterintelligence propaganda machine, and the technological compliment of tools at hand in the psi-ops theater is staggering…
Denial is a psychological weapon, a deterrent to alien incursion of mainstream reality, since the aliens appear to respect the stance of individual and group consciousness and acculturation free will more than even military power. Therefore, we can, by accepting alien presence and existence above board in enough mainstream public [ways], unwittingly turn off the restrictions against overt contact the aliens are following.
The overt invasion trigger is our general human acceptance. Especially if they invade parading as holy hosts.
But is that really the case? Is denial of the reality the thing that is preventing ET from coming in the front door? Or, is this a misreading of the true state of affairs, a misunderstanding of the nature of the realities?
November 16, 1994
Q: (L) If the Lizzies have been feeding off of us frequently and are planning to come and take over our planet, why, when they achieved their domination 300,000 years ago, did they not just move here and take up residence and be in charge?
A: No desire to inhabit same realm.
Q: (L) Why was this?
A: You are 3rd level they are 4th level.
Q: (L) Why are they planning to now?
A: They want to rule you in 4th density.
From the above, we see that there actually may be an entirely different reason for the fact that ET has not emerged from behind the curtain: they cannot. They are fourth density, and as long as we are third density, the contact will continue to be covert and spotty. Thus, the fears of the secret government, as well as their reactions to the current state of affairs is not only based on erroneous thinking, it may actually be detrimental to humanity, and even their own objectives.
The covert public alien presence admittance and education program, is exactly that: largely covert, and will remain so. Part of the program is to keep the true reality of aliens forever in question and so they will still maintain psychological suppression and intimidation of any confirming evidence or highly credible witnesses.
This way, the existence of the pervasive, technologically far advanced, spiritually questionable, and possibly hostile alien presence, is kept under the lid as long as humanly possible. For once the alien presence comes out from under the fringe lid into broad consensus scientific verification, the majority of human institutions and people will have a severe identity crisis and coping crisis.
When that happens, God and religion, military power, and confidence in the economic systems, ethics, all go absolutely haywire and need to have a response plan, an accommodation plan, an assimilation plan, a social adaptation plan. But most religions, military brain cases, and insider scientists don’t have a plan, except to try to escape if invasion is inevitable, or even ally themselves with ET devils or angels or just plain Joes, as they may end up being.
The problem is, this sort of control of society has been part of the alien arsenal, effected through human agents and agencies down through the millennia and the Nexus Seven are exactly correct when they note the fact that the ET, as far as religious institutions are concerned, are the Gods of Holy Writ.
November 7, 1994
Q: (L) What was the Ark of the Covenant?
A: Power cell.
Q: (L) What was the origin of this power cell?
A: Lizards given to the Jews to use for manipulation of others.
Q: (L) Why was it that if you came close to this object or touched it you would die?
A: Energy overload; scrambling by reverse electromagnetism.
Q: (L) What is reverse electromagnetism?
A: Turned inward. Liquefaction of matter.
Q: (L) Well, that is pleasant. This cell was kept in an ornate box of some sort, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Why was it only the priests who could handle it?
A: Only those who would not try to use for selfish reasons.
Q: (L) But then did just coming near it injure a person?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well why were these individuals able to come near it?
A: Non-selfish energy field.
Q: (L) So it could tune into thought fields?
A: Yes. Patternings.
April 11, 1998
Q: (L) In reading Fingerprints of the Gods [by Graham Hancock], I discovered that there is the tradition of the Ark of the Covenant being in Ethiopia. This guy did a bunch of research on it, and it seems possible that it is there, and that it may even be active. Is it, in fact, in the church of St. Mary of Zion in Ethiopia?
A: No.
Q: (L) Where is it?
A: If we were to reveal this to you, it would be akin to giving a hand grenade to a baby!!
October 21, 1994
Q: (L) Okay, where is the Ark of the Covenant currently located?
A: Alternative 3.
Q: (L) Alternative 3 is the plan to take all the people, all the smart guys, and all the elite, off the planet and leave everybody else here to blow up, isn’t it?
A: Maybe. Maybe not. Discover. Study Alternative 3 to find answer!
This remark was a puzzle to me until I read the remark in the “Top Secret” document: “But most religions, military brain-cases, and insider scientists don’t have a plan, except to try to escape if invasion is inevitable, or even ally themselves with ET devils or angels or just plain Joes, as they may end up being.”
Then, it made perfect sense. Obviously, the movie about Indiana Jones rescuing the Ark of the Covenant from the Germans was not altogether fantasy. It is very likely that either somebody knows where it is, or they are desperately looking for it. (Fortunately, I don’t have a clue where it is, so all you guys in the three-piece suits with dark glasses can get some rest!)
Nevertheless, in lieu of the Ark of the Covenant, the so-called HAARP (High Frequency Active Aural Research Program) project could be involved with the idea that there is an above top secret group planning to save their own hides while sacrificing the rest of humanity to some sort of ET takeover. It is also possible that the HAARP project is being built at the direction of certain ET factions with planned uses that exceed our ability to conceptualize. In UFOs and the National Security State: The Cover-up Revealed, historian Richard M. Dolan writes:
In 1985, Bernard J. Eastlund, a physicist for ARCHO Power Tehnologies, applied for the patent “Method and Apparatus for Altering a Region in the Earth’s Atmosphere, Ionosphere and/or Magnetosphere.” The idea was to use high-frequency radio waves to beam unprecedented amounts of power into the ionosphere, more than 100 miles above the planet’s surface. The beam would energize and heat the ionosphere… (Dolan, 2009)
This project later morphed into HAARP, which could:
…disrupt satellites and communication systems. It could also use Earth-penetrating tomography to search for natural gas or petroleum deposits, or even artificial structures like underground military bases. (Dolan, 2009)
We asked the Cs about HAARP:
February 17, 1996
Q: (L) Some people have written asking me to ask about this HAARP thing… seems to be some sort of antennae thing…
A: Disguise for something else.
Q: (L) What is that something else?
A: Project to apply EM wave theories to the transference of perimeters.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: If utilized as designed, will allow for controlled invisibility and easy movement between density levels on surface of planet as well as subterrannially.
Q: (L) Can you tell us if this is a human organization or aliens, or a combination?
A: Human at surface level.
Q: (L) Is there more you can tell us about this?
A: It has nothing to do with weather or climate. These things are emanating from 4th density, as we have told you before.
Q: (L) So, HAARP has nothing to do with the weather?
A: And also EM associated with same as reported.
Q: (L) So, when is this HAARP thing scheduled to go into operation?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Is it currently in operation?
A: Experimental.
Q: (L) How long have they been working on this thing?
A: Since the 1920s.
May 4, 1996
Q: (L) You said that HAARP was something that was to be used to “transfer perimeters.” I am assuming that this means to manipulate space, time and density.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it possible that they are planning to use this to bring up the Atlantean crystals to utilize.
A: Not so much to “bring up,” as to utilize.
February 22, 1997
A: “HAARP” is being designated for capturing and modulating electromagnetic fields for the purpose of total control of brainwave patterns in order to establish a system of complete “order on the surface of the planet” in either 3rd or 4th density.
Q: (L) Is HAARP in operation at the present time?
A: Yes, in its early experimental stages.
Q: (T) Is the spreading of all these communication towers out across the country the equivalent of a HAARP program on a continental scale?
A: Back up system. Towers serve dual and lateral purposes.
The Nexus Seven repeat the idea that the secret government, in some ways, may have humanity’s best interests at heart, but I think that is a baseless assumption. Denial is never acceptable. It seems that their own denial is being imposed on the masses. And, the consequences could be disastrous.
November 19, 1994
Q: (T) Is the government planning to stage an invasion by aliens to cause the populace of the world to go into such a fear state that they will accept total control and domination?
A: Open. But if so, will “flop”.
Q: (T) Why?
A: Many reasons: 1. Visual effects will be inadequate and will have “glitches”. 2. Real invasion may take place first. 3. Other events may intercede.
Q: (T) Such as what?
A: Earth changes.
Q: (T) Am I correct in assuming that some of these hotshot, bigwig guys in the government who have plans for taking over the whole world and making everything all happy and hunky-dory with them in charge, are just simply not in synch with the fact that there are some definite earth changes on the agenda? Are they missing something here?
A: Close. They are aware but in denial.
Q: (T) Are these earth changes going to occur prior to the arrival of the cometary cluster?
A: No. But “time” frame is, as of yet, undetermined.
Q: (T) Am I correct in saying that if they knew what was really going to happen that they would still continue with their stupid little plans to make money and try to control the world?
A: Yes. Greed is a sickness.
On the other hand, sharing knowledge and awareness might have an altogether different outcome:
July 18, 1998
Q: (L) Now, one question that we were discussing earlier is: how can the close approach of the theorized companion star cause an increase in the Sun’s gravity when there is no reason why it should change anything since gravity is a function of mass?
A: But do you really know all there is to know about gravity?
Q: (A) No, we don’t know. But, does this mean that this will be an effect that does not follow from the theory of gravity that we know already?
A: Gravity is the life force that binds all realities as one. In order to understand this, you would need a reworking of the theorem.
Q: (A) We have Einstein’s theory of gravity, and the question is whether the effect of increasing the Sun’s gravity is something that goes beyond Einstein’s equations or not?
A: You must see the wave.
Q: (A) What wave, a gravitational wave, or an electromagnetic wave, or some other wave? What wave?
A: Arkadiusz, how do these intersect?
Q: (A) Gravity and electromagnetic?
A: Yes. And others.
Q: (A) How they are described within a theory, or how they intersect in space when they come together?
A: Both.
Q: (A) Okay, why does this increase in the Sun’s gravity have anything to do with electromagnetism? We were told that the brown star will not radiate any radiation, so, in particular, no electromagnetic radiation. So, where does electromagnetics come in? I do not understand…
A: Gravitational pull incites electromagnetic impulse.
Q: (A) Okay, that means we go beyond gravitational theory, and this is part of Unified Field Theory?
A: Yes, exactly!! The complete UFT was withheld from you!
Q: (T) So, the complete UFT is known to someone here on the planet?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And they are not making it available…
A: Oh no, because “The Truth Will Set You Free!” You may access hyperspatial truths with UFT.
Q: (A) Well, we started with the increased mass of the Sun, and we came to UFT, which is hidden from us because it would make us free; there is this tendency in me to follow this road because it is science and would open a new road. The question is whether such activity or knowing such things will lead to other densities? Is it just for satisfaction, or is there real value in knowing more in this direction?
A: Well, the Unified Field Theory unlocks the door completely to the higher densities… Grids.
Q: (L) What kind of grids…
A: The planet has been enshrouded with EM grid.
Q: (T) Are these the ley lines?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are they artificially generated?
A: Contoured.
Q: (L) They are artificially contoured. What is the result of this shrouding?
A: Manipulated for use by 3rd/4th Consortium.
Q: (A) What kind of EM grid? (L) The natural EM grid is being contoured…
A: Like a gently waving geometric “blanket”.
Q: (T) Is it on the surface of the planet, through the planet, or where?
A: Above.
Q: (T) The gravity waves, whether they exist or not, are a controversy, yet they are part of the UFT, and someone already knows how it works. Therefore, it is only controversy to those who don’t know what the answer is, and it is not a controversy to those who know. They know what it is and how to measure it and how to use it.
A: Of course.
Q: (A) Some power is used to sustain this grid. What is it?
A: Land and space based generators.
Q: (T) What can it be used for?
A: Multiple uses. Net. Calculates… You are dancing on the 3rd density ballroom floor. “Alice likes to go through the looking glass” at the Crystal Palace. Atlantean reincarnation surge brings on the urge to have a repeat performance.
Q: (T) The Atlanteans who have reincarnated are getting ready to do the same thing they did before with the crystals. So, this is an Atlantean type thing that is being done now? Different equipment, but the same type of thing?
A: All lessons must be learned before you can move onto bigger and better things.
Q: (L) Is that a general statement about the Atlanteans repeating the lessons, or that once we learn this lesson, we can move onto bigger and better things in counteracting this grid?
A: All that is present and future too.
Q: (A) I want to ask if there is something that we can and should do about this grid for ourselves?
A: Why? To know was all you need.
Q: (A) Well, it was said that this was for the purpose of control and manipulation. So, knowing is all that we need. Or, we could try to shield… (L) But, to know is the shield. I don’t know how that works, but it seems to be so.
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Now, how did we come to this grid from UFT?
A: Grid construction represents application of…
Q: (L) Somehow we went from the increased gravity of the Sun, to UFT, to the grid…
A: UFT explains the “increased” gravity of Sol. But, is there not something in UFT about increase/decrease???
Q: (A) There is no reason for it to increase or decrease… but this is Einstein’s theory, which we were told is incorrect…
(L) Well, maybe it is speed? When two things are rotating in tandem, when they come together, wouldn’t it increase their speed, and doesn’t speed increase gravity?
(A) No, we were told that there is some interaction between gravity and EM wave, and this is what UFT is about… If we use other dimensions, which we are supposed to use in this UFT, going with Kaluza-Klein, then the very concept of mass is something, which is not so clear, and mass can be variable…
A: Yes, variability of physicality.
Q: (T) Fourth density. (A) We were told earlier that this UFT opens the door to other densities…
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Can we have a UFT that unifies EM and gravity and does not include the concept of other densities? In other words, can we put in a textbook all about the gravity and electromagnetics, and a student could learn all of this and still know nothing about other densities?
A: No. Other densities become apparent when…
Q: (A) So, it means that Einstein and Von Neumann knew about these other densities?
A: Yes, oh yes!!!
Q: (T) Just a thought: having UFT and being able to manipulate different fields within it, creates different effects. So, as we understand it in the apparent present state of science, we have to spin something in space in order to create gravity. But, with the UFT, one small offshoot is that one could create real gravity without spinning anything. So, the problem of weightlessness is really already solved…
A: Elementary my dear T, elementary.
Q: (T) So, this whole thing with the space station and all the trouble they are having readapting to gravity when they come back, is all a game…
A: When you “let the cat out of the bag,” you create an entire feline “nation”.
Q: (T) So, we are capable of Star Trek right now?
A: In a sense, but there is so much more than that.
Q: (T) Of course. Most people would say that cutting edge science is 25 years ahead of what we see, and I say it is more like a hundred years, and I am even off? Cutting edge science on this planet is more like three or four hundred years ahead?
A: More like 30 to 40,000 years “ahead”!
Q: (L) Is that because of fourth density influence and information?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) 30 to 40 thousand years? Let me get that number right…
A: Yes, at least.
So, it seems that the secret government is not really protecting anything but their own interests. Of course, one of their interests is the control that is exercised via religion. The “Top Secret” document continues:
…If the ETs are connected to key religious characters of our history, then ET intervention and active culturing of their human ‘experiment’ on earth have been going on since ancient times. That is hard to swallow. The idea of angels and devils was always a magical subjective world of beings and powers of myth and lore, not a hard nuts and bolts physical ET race with weapons and all. To find out many heavenly religious benefactors of history and the ancients were just cloned, dickless bio-drones, carrying out orders in a heavenly hierarchy of hardware and alien super-science, is plainly a scary thought to just about anyone in power on earth. More likely, there are aliens who Do have big dicks so the question is — are they our friends or not?
These are questions technophallic, top dog centric worshipping, economic-warrior captains and lieutenants would naturally ask. Abductions have involved lots of sex and reproduction related genetic control activities, after all, and this makes military dicks go limp. And they are not alone. It makes the kings of power and influence all need Viagra. They want to stop ET, but they don’t even really know who to hate, or how to stop them, and they feel awfully impotent in the face of ETs’ incredibly advanced technology and powerful telepathy. All our thoughts may already be under the microscope.
I would like to suggest that the secret government is neither ignorant of the above nor having “limp dick syndrome,” (excuse the vulgarity). There is evidence that some human members of this Control System have been engaged in the human management part of this conspiracy for many thousands of years.
March 7, 1995
Q: (L) Who were the Elohim of the Bible?
A: Transdefinitive. And variable entities. First manifestation was human, then non-human.
Q: (L) Well, what brought about their transformation from human to non-human?
A: Pact or covenant made with 4th density STS.
Q: (L) Well, that is not good! Are you saying that the Elohim are STS? Who were these STS beings they made a pact with?
A: Rosteem, now manifests as Rosicrucians.
Q: (L) What is their purpose?
A: As yet unrevealable to you.
October 4, 1997
Q: (L) In the book The Orion Mystery [by Robert Bauval and Adrian Gilbert], the author talks about the fact that Giza was formerly known as RosTau, which is Rose Cross. I would like to understand the symbology of the Rose affixed to the Cross. It seems to me that the imagery of Jesus nailed to the Cross is actually the Rose affixed to the Cross. How does Jesus relate to the Rose?
A: No, it is from the Rose arose the Cross.
Q: (L) Oh… I see…
A: Said the blind man.
Q: (L) Elaborate, please. It is from the Rose that the Cross arose… and, therefore, the cross symbolizes… What does the cross symbolize?
A: The symbology is not the issue. It is the effect.
Q: (L) What is the effect of the cross?
A: All that has followed it.
12-21-96
Q: (L) In other words, control of the masses via religion. Who or what brought about the end of the Knights of the Temple?
A: Rosicrucians move as a “thief in the night”.
Q: (L) But, as I understand it, the Rosicrucians did not come into being until after the end of the Templars… Many people think that the Rosicrucians are the Templars…
A: No.
Q: (L) Do you mean that the information that came out, that Pamphlet about Christian Rosenkreutz, that is a purported fable, might be correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, goodness sake! The Rosicrucians advertise in magazines! Is this worldwide organization that promotes itself so blatantly…
A: Well, the “worldwide” order is not all-inclusive.
Q: (L) Is there an inner circle of this order that is unknown?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are the Rosicrucians connected to the Masons?
A: In a roundabout away.
Q: (L) Are the Illuminati connected to the Rosicrucians in any way?
A: Same.
Q: (L) The Priory of Zion, that has been purported to be the progenitor or inheritor of the Templar tradition, is that a mystical organization of great secrecy and import?
A: It is a cover for.
Q: (L) Another smokescreen.
A: Yes.
May 7, 1997
Q: (L) You mentioned that the “Rosicrucians act as a thief in the night.”
A: Connect the Rosicrucians to your favorite island by the “beech.” Horticulturally, please, and family.
Q: (L) Oak Island?
A: Yup! Then, connect the Pyrenees to the Canaries. Research the history of the Canary Islands for clue.
May 31, 1997
Q: (L) In the information I now have on the Canaries, I found that a strange icon appeared on the island long before the conquest, and long before any missionaries or Europeans arrived. The original natives were said to be giants, some of them over 14 feet tall, with 80 teeth. They said that the natives, even when they knew nothing about Christianity, knew this icon was divine because following its appearance, there were processions of angels, or divine beings, up and down the beach where it appeared; lights, smells, chanting and singing and so forth. How did the statue of the Virgin of Candelaria arrive on the beach at Tenerife?
A: Teleportation.
Q: (L) Who teleported it there?
A: The “Celts”.
Q: (L) Celts in the sense of the Druids?
A: Or in the sense of Atlanteans. “Celts, Druids,” etc. are merely latter day designations.
Q: (L) Well, I came to the conclusion that the Rosicrucians are just the new incarnation of the Druids. I mean, the Druids disappeared and the Rosicrucians appeared not too long afterward.
A: Partially.
Q: (L) Julius Caesar had a standard policy of religious toleration. The only exception seems to have been the Druids. He was determined to stamp them out. Why?
A: Their mysterious powers.
Q: (L) Where did they get these mysterious powers?
A: Knowledge passed down.
Q: (L) Were the angelic beings that appeared on the Canaries Druids or Rosicrucians?
A: They were 4th density.
Q: (L) Were they STS of STO?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Do the STS and STO hang out together?
A: Do you hang out with all types of your realm?
Q: (L) Well, in these processions of beings that the Guanches of the island saw, were they STS or STO?
A: Both.
Q: (L) You mean they would see one and then another?
A: Close.
October 4, 1997
Q: (L) In the little book on the Canary Islands, written by a friar of the Order of Preachers back in 1590, and later published by the Hakluyt society, it specifically mentions spiders. I looked up any references to this in the Bible, looking for clues, and found a truly bizarre thing in Proverbs 30:28. In the King James Version, it is given as a spider, and the context is completely different from the actual intent of the original Hebrew, which designates a lizard instead of a spider. Then, there is the spider image of the information that has been propagated by the Priory of Zion, which seems to be a sort of signature of this super secret organization. The crazy thing is, when you reverse the numbers of this Biblical quote, you actually have 28:30, and when you look at this line of latitude on the planet, you find that it passes just south of Mount Everest, the Pyramids of Giza, through the Canary Islands, and just north of my house right here.
When thinking about all this, I have noticed that there are only two classes of arachnids. There are scorpions and there are spiders. The zodiac was changed by taking the pincers away from the Scorpion and creating out of them the sign of Libra. This image was one of a woman holding a balance scales, usually blindfolded. This was done within recorded history, but was probably formalized through the occult traditions of Kaballah. Now, in trying to figure out who has on what color hat, if there is such a thing, I have come to a tentative conclusion that the spider, or spinner of webs, is the Rosicrucian encampment, and that the Scorpion represents the seeker of wisdom… because, in fact, the word for Scorpio comes from the same root as that which means to pierce or unveil. Therefore, the Scorpion is also Perseus, per Ziu, or “for God”. And the Rosicrucians are the other side, so to speak. Can you elaborate on this for me? Or comment?
A: What a tangled web we spin, when we must not let you in.
Q: (L) So, the Rose is the Spider?
A: Different objective.
Q: (L) So, the Rose, with its thorns… Can you help me with this Rose image… Is the Rose the Scorpion?
A: No. Different objective… Rose is a stand-alone symbol.
Q: (L) So, the Rose can be used by either side, is that it?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Another derivation of the word root of Scorpio is “skopos”, or “to see”. You once said that the human race was seeded on a planet in the constellation Scorpio, and, therefore, when the zodiac was set up and the clues were laid out, it seems to me that the insertion of the sign of Libra was designed to take power away from human beings, to take their hands away, to prevent them from seeing, to make them defenseless. Is this imagery close?
A: On track.
September 16, 1995
Q: (L) Okay, change of subject. Back when we were talking about the pit on Oak Island, and you asked me to do some research on it, the answers I came up with were that the responsible group were alchemists. Is this correct.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was one of the alchemists involved Nicholas Flamel?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it true that there is an enclave of alchemists that live somewhere in the Pyrenees…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do these alchemists use this powder as talked about by David Hudson to enhance their longevity and their physical health?
A: And to control.
September 24, 1995
A: …Monoatomic gold is but one minor issue here. Why get lead astray by focusing upon it solely. Alchemy is but one minor piece of the puzzle.
Q: (L) Okay, I understand. But, understanding the alchemical connection, and its potential for extending life and opening certain abilities, makes it more feasible to think of a group that has been present steadily and consistently for many thousands of years on earth.
A: They are not the only ones!
Returning to the Nexus Seven:
The complexity of having both good and bad ET’s makes the whole situation intolerable. Even certain global poison pill strategies have been on the table as a means to persuade ET against overt contact. That is, not a mutually assured destruction doctrine with the aliens, but instead an individually assured destruction pill to the ET human experiment. Any preemptive counter-threat against the aliens is worthwhile to prevent disclosure that we are in a fishbowl. Disclosure can cause the downfall of modern civilization and an integration and assimilation into an advanced ET custodial racial culture. Do we want that?
So the answer seems to be to both prepare for contact without the preparation tipping off the authoritative public institutions that are at risk. This means flooding the social consciousness with the existence an[d] eventually, the plausibility of ET is already here, all without any verifiable genuine acknowledgment.
Aliens bait; we make the switch. All in a day’s work to save us from assimilation on ET’s terms, not ours. What we cannot stop, we must delay. What we cannot delay, we must distort and debunk. What we cannot distort and debunk, we distract from and focus elsewhere. There is no other choice in the matter. ARC would rather start a worldwide nuclear war than welcome ET with open arms. Scorched Earth is an option, unfortunately the least desirable.
Unfortunately, if the Nexus Seven assessment is anywhere near accurate in terms of what those in the higher echelons of power really think or plan, such ideas are completely impotent. We are talking about hyperdimensional beings here that can repeatedly go back in time and change things to suit their own ends. But, indeed, the secret government is so terrified of the public getting wind of any of this that they do, indeed, make the switch — but for their own reasons — not to “help” the aliens.
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) Back in the 1970s in the Central United States there were quite a number of cases of animal mutilation. There has been a lot of publicity about this at some point and then it died down and was covered up, and there were a lot of ideas and theories about it. What I would like to know is who was doing the animal mutilations?
A: Many.
Q: (L) Okay, who was doing most of the animal mutilations?
A: Not applicable.
Q: (L) Okay. Was some of the animal mutilation done by the U.S. Government, or entities within the government?
A: Was?
Q: (L) In other words, it is still going on. Okay, so they are still doing it. Was, or is, some of this activity being conducted by alien individuals?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Were they acting for the same reasons?
A: No.
Q: (L) Why did the government do animal mutilations?
A: Copy, in order to throw off investigation.
Q: (L) So they copied this activity to throw off investigations. Did they do this as an act to protect the aliens who were doing animal mutilations for their own purposes?
A: No.
Q: (L) Were they doing it to protect themselves from the public knowing that they were engaged in alien interactions?
A: They do it to protect the public from knowing that which would explode society if discovered.
Q: (L) What is this item that they were protecting so that society or the public wouldn’t know about it. What activity is this?
A: Humans eat cattle; aliens eat you.
Q: (T) They’ve said that before. (L) Okay, yeah, we eat second level; they eat third. Did aliens do some of the cattle mutilations?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What do aliens do to cattle?
A: Blood.
Q: (L) They take the blood out of them?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) What do they use this blood for?
A: Nourishment.
Q: (L) Okay, but you just said that aliens eat humans, and humans eat cattle. Why were the aliens being nourished by cattle, if that’s not their normal bill of fare? (T) A cow’s blood is a lot like human blood.
A: Do you not ever consume facsimile? Facsimile is less controversial, obviously!
Q: (L) So in other words, they were eating cattle just to keep from having to eat so many humans, that would have just upset people a lot, is that it?
A: Yes. Some of their human “food” is merely emotions; think of flesh as being the equal of “filet mignon”.
Q: (T) Some of their food is merely emotions. Okay, when we’re talking about these aliens, are we talking about the Grays?
A: No.
Q: (T) We’re talking about the Lizards.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, what do the Grays feed on?
A: Plasma.
Q: (T) Okay, the Grays feed on plasma, blood plasmas of some kind, is this what you are saying?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, so that’s why they want the blood. So, do the Grays feed on emotions?
A: No. They send them to Lizards. Transfer energy through technology. Lizards and Grays only need physical nourishment while “visiting” 3rd level, not when in natural realm, 4th density, there they feed on emotions only.
Q: (L) There have been very frequently associated with the phenomenon of cattle mutilations, sightings of black, unmarked helicopters, who or what are these helicopters?
A: Variable.
Q: (L) Are some of these helicopters disguised alien craft? Are some of these helicopters the property of the U.S. Government?
A: Yes to both.
Q: (T) Are some of these helicopters private enterprise?
A: Yes. Some too, are projections, this phenomenon is multifaceted.
Q: (L) Who are the oriental-appearing personnel that have been seen manning the helicopters and the white vans that have been sighted all over the country?
A: MIB. And government copycats.
Q: (L) How many alien craft, actual alien craft, are in the hands of the government or this consortium?
A: 36.
Q: (L) And were these captured craft? Or gifted?
A: And recovered.
Q: (T) Were the gift ones not what we would really consider gifts, but they were given to us in return for something else, some other kind of payment? Barter?
A: No. Because all sought return favors were already achieved.
Q: (L) So it was all just a farce. They weren’t payment; they weren’t gifts. They were distractions?
A: Closer.
Q: (T) Okay, so there are a lot of different categories of how these ships got into the hands of the federal government?
A: Yes. Multidimensional
Q: (L) Who is “O. H. Krll”?
A: No one. Symbolism. For documentary purposes only, your government likes code names.
Q: (L) Are you implying that this piece of work was put out by the government for dissemination of the subject matter? (J) Is it disinformation?
A: Complex.
Q: (L) Give us a percentage of factual information in this document.5
A: 43%
Q: (L) Okay, so, in other words, this has been planted by the government.
A: No. Planted? No.
Q: (T) It was leaked purposely?
A: Your government is operating on many cross-purposes, very complicated! On purpose!
Q: (T) Very true. Question: The government, our government, the U.S. government, is holding 36 craft of one kind or another that they gotten in one way or another. How many other governments have craft?
A: All is one.
Q: (L) We already have a one-world government is what they’re saying. (T) Yes, they’re just waiting to make it official somehow.
A: Has been so for long time, as you measure time.
Q: (L) What is the “ultimate secret” being protected by the Consortium?
A: You are not in control of yourselves, you are an experiment.
Q: (T) When you say this is the ultimate secret, that we’re being “protected” from by the government, are we talking about the ultimate secret of humans only here?
A: Basically.
Q: (T) The ultimate secret of the human race is that we are an experiment that other humans are conducting on the rest of us?
A: Part.
Q: (T) Okay, does the other part have to do with the Lizards?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Other aliens also?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, so, are the humans, who are running the experiment, do they know that they are part of the experiment also?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And they’re doing this willingly?
A: They have no choice. Already in progress.
Q: (T) Okay, is this part of… Is this about the experiment the Lizzies are doing of dominating us and sucking us dry?
A: Yes, but there’s much more than that, you will understand at level 4.
Q: (L) Okay, in this Krll document there was a statement made that the Grays and other aliens use glandular substances extracted during physical exams of human beings, what they would call the gynecological and the sperm extraction exams, that they used these glandular substances to get high or to feed on, that they are addicted to these, is this a correct assessment?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do they use glandular substances at all?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What do they use glandular substances for?
A: Medicine.
Q: (L) And what or who do they use this medicine on?
A: Themselves.
Q: (L) And what does this medicine do for them?
A: Helps them cope with 3rd density.
Q: (T) Is this something that they use to help them stay in the 3rd density?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Does it help them to manifest in a more solid physical manner?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, they draw glandular substances. Do they also use sexual energy given off by individuals to maintain their status in 3 dimensions?
A: No. That feeds them in 4D, as we told you before.
Q: (L) Yes. Okay. How “long”, and I put long in quotes, because we know, as you say, there is no time, but how long, as we measure it, have the Grays been interacting with our race? The Grays, not the Lizards, the Grays, the cybergenetic probes?
A: No. Time travelers, therefore, “Time is ongoing.” Do you understand the gravity of last response?
Q: (L) They are time travelers, they can move forward and backward in time, they can play games with our heads… (T) They can set up the past to create a future they want. (D) They can organize things so that they can create the energy that they need… (L) They can also make things look good, make them feel good, make them seem good, they can make you have an idea one minute, and then the next minute, create some sort of situation that confirms that idea…
A: When you asked how long, of course it is totally unlimited, is it not?
Q: (L) That’s not good. If they were to move back through space-time and alter an event in our past, would that alteration in the past instantaneously alter our present as well?
A: Has over and over and over.
Q: (D) So they do it over and over and over, constantly?
A: You just are not yet aware, and have no idea of the ramifications!!!
Q: (L) We’re getting a little glimmer! Yeah, I do, a little! (T) The ramifications of being able to move in and out of time and manipulate it the way you want. (J) And the ramifications of what they are doing to us and what they will do to us, over and over. (L) So, in other words, our only real prayer in this whole damn situation is to get out of this density level. That’s what they’re saying, that’s what it sounds like to me.
A: Close.
Q: (L) Because, otherwise, we’re just literally, as in that book, stuck in the replay over and over and over, and the Holocaust could happen over and over, and we could just, you know… Ghengis Khan, Attila the Hun… over and over and over again. (T) We’re stuck in a time loop; they’re putting us in a time loop. (J) Are we in a time loop?
A: Yes.
Q: (D) Mankind has found it necessary for some reason or other to appoint time for some reason or other. The only reason I can see is to have a means of telling, like in verbal or written communications…
A: Control mechanism.
Q: (T) Is there a way for us to break the control mechanism? Besides moving to fourth density? (D) That was part…
A: Nope.
The Nexus Seven define the policy of the Secret Government rather succinctly:
The covert nature of alien-human contact programs already in progress does not vouch for ET’s operating without deceit and hidden agenda. These are hidden agenda that could be threatening to human freedom — physically and spiritually — we don’t know. And until we do, the word is “aliens don’t exist”.
However, considering what the Cassiopaeans have told us, and it certainly fits the consensus of evidence, even if most of it is circumstantial due to the nature of the control of the secret government, then not knowing is the greatest danger to humanity imaginable. Knowledge does protect!
And whoever does say that aliens do exist is in serious need of meds. That’s the word from the conditioned authorities and experts. … A large daylight UFO sighting could happen over a major city for an extended period, and many would change the channel thinking it is just another Independence day rip-off. In other words, until the Internet came along, the whole enchilada was kept under much tighter wraps.
The more people who are holding the line of denial and mainstream academic and scientific refusal of aliens existing, the greater the zone of exclusion we maintain humanity from overt alien integration, and as it looks to some, prevent a monstrous invasion.
This is a baseless assumption born out of supreme wishful thinking. It is also clever disinformation because, as we can surmise, the secret government knows exactly what it is doing.
…To avoid massive social breakdowns, the alien presence must be suppressed. Otherwise kiss your normal human life good-bye as we enter the science fiction world of living on a planet invaded by some of it’s original experimental caretakers, with a new identity of being kept animals in some giant laboratory, with all our spiritual and physical authority and power usurped by non-human aliens calling themselves our divine benefactors.
This should actually say, “To avoid loss of power, for as long as they can maintain it, the secret government suppresses knowledge of the alien presence for their own benefit.” It could also be that they have been promised some exalted position in the coming fourth density hierarchy. Too bad they don’t study history or they would realize that the betrayers and double agents who assist the conquerors are generally the first to be eliminated in any kind of coup.
The controlling secret societies have no interest in fame, only power and influence, and influence only comes in terms of capital (economic), force (military), or belief (religious) as root resources for control amongst the incognito power elite. So the leaders of capital systems, military might, and religious influence would naturally secrete and accrete themselves into well-funded, well-insulated, well-connected institutions of secrecy, inside the very systems that are vaguely aware of their presence, but unaware of their intent. It’s all just business, don’t forget.
Indeed, and it seems that their intent is to retain this position in the coming “New World Order” conceived to be instituted when the planet transitions to fourth density. However, there is something they have not considered in their linear, third density brains, and that is the nature of fourth density reality. It may not be as simple to stay on top as they think. In fact, they may find themselves on the absolute bottom.
November 11, 1995
Q: (L) I wanted to ask about is the references I come across in tons of reading, that the number 33 is somehow significant. Could you tell us the significance, in esoteric terms, or in terms of secret societies, of the number 33?
A: As usual, we do not just give you the answers; we help you to teach yourself!! Now, take 11 and contemplate…
Q: (L) Well, three times eleven is thirty-three.
A: Yes, but what about 11?
Q: (L) Well, eleven is supposed to be one of the prime, or divine power numbers. In Kaballah, 11 is the power number…
A: Yes…
Q: (L) Eleven is 10 plus 1; it is divisible only by itself and by 1. I can’t think of anything else.
A: Astrology.
Q: (L) Well, in astrology, the eleventh sign is Aquarius. The eleventh house is friends, hopes, dreams and wishes, and also adopted children. Aquarius is the Waterbearer, the dispenser of knowledge. Does 11 have something to do with dispensing of knowledge?
A: Now, 3rd house.
Q: (L) Gemini. Okay. Gemini and Aquarius. Third house is how the mind works, communication, relations with neighbors and siblings, education, local travel, how one speaks. Gemini is known as the “consummate man”. Somewhat shallow and interested in the things of material life. It is also the divine number of creation. So, what’s the connection here?
A: Matrix.
Q: (L) The third house and the eleventh house create a matrix?
A: Foundation.
Q: (L) In terms of cosmic things, Gemini is in June, Aquarius is in February… Gemini is the physical man, and Aquarius is the spiritual man?
A: Yin-Yang.
Q: (L) So Gemini is the physical man and Aquarius is the spiritual man… Yin-Yang… is that the…
A: Yes… Medusa 11.
Q: (L) Medusa 11? What does Medusa have to do with it?
A: Heads.
Q: (L) Heads. Medusa. 11. This is really obscure… You need to help me out here.
A: We are. 11 squared divided by phi. 1 times 1; 5 minus 3.
Q: (L) I don’t get it. A math genius I am not. What is the concept here?
A: Look: 353535. Is code.
Q: (L) What does this code relate to?
A: Infinite power.
Q: (L) How is infinite power acquired by knowing this code? If you don’t know the correspondences, how can you use a numerical code?
A: Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely for which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity.
Q: (L) And that is the meaning of the number 33? Well, that is a round robin… a circle you can’t get out of!
A: And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
Q: (L) The thought that occurs to me, as we are talking here, is that the STS pathway consists of an individual who wants to serve themselves — they are selfish and egocentric — they want to impel others to serve them; they want to enslave others; and they find ways to manipulate others to serve them.
But, they end up being impelled by some higher being than they are. Because they have been tricked into believing that by so doing, they are actually drawing power to themselves through the teachings, including the popular religions, which promote being saved by simply believing and giving up your power.
And then you have a whole pyramid of people taking by trickery and deception, from others. The taker gets taken from in the end. A pyramid where all those on the bottom, the majority, have no one to take from, so they get absorbed into the next level higher, until you get to the apex and everything disappears in a black hole.
But, in the STO mode, you have those who only give. And, if they are involved with other STO persons, everyone has and no one is at the bottom or at the top, in a void. In the end, it seems like everyone ends up serving someone else anyway, and the principle is the intent. But in STO, it is more like a circle, a balance; no one is left without.
A: Balance, yin-yang.
Q: (L) Obviously the 33 represent the Serpent, the Medusa, and so forth…
A: You mentioned pyramid, interesting… And what is the geometric one-dimensional figure that corresponds?
Q: (L) Well, the triangle. And then, if you have a triangle point up you have 3, joined to a triangle pointing down, you have 3, and you have a 33. Is that something like what we are getting at here?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the number 33 and the Great Pyramid in Egypt?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that connection? Is it that the builders of the pyramid participated in this secret society activity?
A: Yes. And what symbol did you see in “Matrix”, for Serpents and Grays?
Q: (L) You are talking about the triangle with the Serpent’s head in it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are we talking in terms of this 33 relating to a group of aliens, or a group of humans with advanced knowledge and abilities?
A: Either/or.
Q: (L) Is this what has been referred to in the Bramley book, as the Brotherhood of the Serpent or Snake?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, we have a bunch of people who are playing with mathematics, sacred geometry, and playing with higher knowledge, basically as a keep busy activity to distract them at the human level from the fact that they are being manipulated at a higher level. Is this what is going on? Or, do they consciously know what they are doing? Is it a distraction or a conscious choice?
A: Both.
Q: (L) If I were to name some names, could you identify if named individuals were involved in this secret group?
A: It would not be in your best interests.
Let me again make a note to some of our more “spooky” readers that the Cassiopaeans simply won’t give answers to questions that it would be dangerous to know. So, y’all can get some rest now! Back to “Top Secret”:
To find the secret beneficiaries of greatest power, just take the backbone of key leaders in the non-appointed multi-generational custodial infrastructure of government and religious infrastructure. These are individual people in military intelligence, economic cartels and global Mafia, and secret religious security orders, though quite compartmentalized. Here you have a pretty good set of true candidates for who the actual “controlling elite” are. The very top of the pyramid in America is a group that is comprised partly of leading ex-Nazis and their next generation brethren, the multinational anti-alien global security apparatus who want to prevent alien invasion and world breakdown, so they themselves can pick at their oyster with traditional impunity. They will even ally themselves to certain aliens that can help them escape the intentions of other aliens, if necessary. Think Faust.
Better yet, think Machiavelli. Make people think that the enemy is over there or outside or at least not me, and you can plunder with impunity in the guise of being a savior.
The issue is conflict, conflict between secret elements that have come to different conclusions, created alliances, and instigated different strategies. The most powerful rogue elements are unfortunately the most highly placed in the above-legal system. All critical intelligence in the entire global ET-related intel gathering apparatus is diverted to these elements. Other less rogue elements almost as highly placed realize the Faustian bargain problem going on, and are attempting appropriate counterbalancing counterintelligence and seeding potentials for mass psych-ops operations that help. The two opposed parties are both in the need-to-know above-the-law rarified echelon levels.
Bad Rogues: engage social resistance processes, denial, and fight contact at all cost, except as useful for gaining alien technology for military use.
Good Rogues: engage social assimilation processes, tacit acceptance, and encourage human-alien awareness.
The bad rogue’s strategies worked too well. So the good rogues are seeding selected human capital with staged deniable information disclosure to counterbalance. This is becoming increasingly hard data. The thresholds of social assimilation, and resistance to assimilation are being tested to keep things from going runaway. Pullback into fail-safe deniability is always included in any surreptitious disclosure program equation. The conflict generates a wide range of inconsistent activities on the part of the elite power circles, deriving from their opposing allegiances.
In the Nexus Seven diatribe, much is made of the seven echelons of Secret and Above Top Secret, and Above Top, Top Secret groups (and so on.) He/they attempt to define some of them as benevolent because they are the lesser of the evils in terms of their STS behaviors. I would like to suggest that it is not that there are good rogues, so much as there are simply circles within circles of the STS hierarchy, and that those at the lower levels simply are not sufficiently polarized to the STS pathway to be let in on the deeper secrets of negativity. They still have some STO potential, but it is being gradually purged from them by engaging them in the ongoing controls and deception. At some point, some of them may be faced with stupendous choices that will force their allegiances out into the open. But, that subject properly belongs to our coming ontological discussion, so we will leave it for now.
The deeper essence of the conflict between a bunch of very macho intelligence folks is just the same age-old conflict continuing to be reflected. The God-based religions decimated or appropriated Goddess religion… There are competing celestial forces. Intelligent beings traveling in craft and between spaces even seem to somehow “live” in parallel space. These alien beings are assumed beyond the terrestrial worldliness. But yet some are quite physical. Some of these crafty critters claim divinity. They say if we hold persons A, B, or C in our history as divine, then that is saying these ET are divine too — and they can prove it. They were there. They made it happen… The authentic real McCoy [creator gods] may crash our image of what we held spirituality and God to be. We thought beyond biological, beyond physical, as religion had always assumed, [to be good and holy and loving.] The doctrine of the human soul, the holy trinity and Nature.
May 31, 1997
Q: (L) Cayce talks about the division in Atlantis between the Sons of One and the Sons of Belial. Was this a racial division or a philosophical/religious division?
A: It was the latter two, and before that, the former one.
Q: (L) When it was a racial division, which group was it?
A: The Sons of Belial were the Kantekkians.6
Q: (L) Well! That is not good!
A: Subjective… you are not bodies; you are souls.
07-19-97
Q: (L) Now, from putting the information about religions together throughout the centuries, I am coming to a rather difficult realization that the whole monotheistic idea, which is obviously the basic concept of the Sons of the Law of One, is the most clever and devious and cunning means of control I have ever encountered in my life. No matter where it comes from, the religionists/priests say, “We have the one god, we are his agents, you pay us your money, and we’ll tell him to be nice to you in the next world!”
A: Clever if one is deceived. Silly truffle if one is not.
Q: (L) Well, I know! But, uncovering this deception, this lie that the power is out there is unbelievable. So, the Kantekkians were the Sons of Belial, which is not a negative thing, necessarily. So the Sons of the Law of One was perverted to the monotheistic Judaism, which then was then transformed into the Christian religious myths, and has been an ongoing theme since Atlantean times.
A: Woven of those who portray the lights.
Q: (L) And that is always the way it has been. They appear as angels of light. And, essentially, everything in history has been rewritten by this group.
A: Under the influence of others. And whom do you suppose?
Q: (L) Well, the Orion STS.
A: Sending pillars of light and chariots of fire to deliver the message.
The curious thing is that if the original Kantekkians were the Goddess worshippers, then that means the purer Orion genetics belongs to that camp. Yet in the present day there are those who twist this in the most unbelievable ways to make it seem that the ancient Goddess religions were demonic and reptilian. Study of the ancient symbols will show that the oldest form of the Goddess worship was associated with stars, birds, vases, spirals and the partnership mode of society. It was only in the early stages of reptilian inversion that the Divine Son was introduced as heir to his murdered father, and displaced the feminine potentials. And, it is at precisely that point that the serpent image was introduced. But, again, that is a subject for ontology, not necessarily the practical issue of why there is so much in the way of lies and deception running rampant on the planet at the present time. Nexus Seven write:
But if it’s true more than one custodial alien civilization has returned, there may be a little crowding going on, and a lot of stuff coming through the cracks. …If any Earthly catastrophe of human or natural geospheric or cosmic magnitude happens, then the playing field of general populace conscious permeability to alien contact becomes much, much lower, meaning, much more “Mommy, they’re here, and they want more than milk and cookies! I’m scared.”
Q: (L) In trying to picture this upcoming wave in my mind, this thing you call the Grand Cycle Transformation, the cycle moves out, in dispersion, begins to accrete and return to the source. It looks like a yin-yan toroid composed of infinite fibers of being, all at different points of the cycle individually and collectively. Is this a close approximation?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this representative of the fact that exactly half of all that exists, is moving into imbalance, while the other half is moving into balance at any given, excuse the term, “time”?
A: Close.
Q: (L) All the cosmos? All that exists?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it possible that one area of the cosmos has more of the balance seeking energy while another has more of that which is seeking imbalance?
A: Oh yes!
Q: (L) Is the Earth one of those areas that is more imbalanced than balanced at the present time?
A: Yes, but rapidly moving back toward balance.
Q: (L) Is the realm border, or Wave, part of this balancing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, speaking of the balancing of Earth. How can this be done? The “buckets of love and light” group say that it is going to be balanced because everyone is going to think nice thoughts, surround everything with light, see, hear and think only good and positive thoughts, and all of their buckets of love and light are going to eventually reach a critical mass and spill over onto all the rest of humanity and all of the negative things are going to be transformed into positive things. This is the standard version. Is this what you mean?
A: No.
Q: (L) Isn’t the energy that is being manifested in the positive, in love and light on and around the planet, going to reduce the level of negativity in the beings existing on the planet?
A: This is not the point. When “Earth” becomes a 4th density realm, all the forces, both STS and STO shall be in direct contact with one another… It will be a “level playing field”, thus, balanced.
A curious thing about this Nexus Seven document is its mention of the Wave. After I had first shared some of the Wave ideas with some discussion groups and Val Valerian back in ’94 and ’95, I began to get some questions from various sources about some sort of Wave that was going to destroy the earth that was on its way. I tracked this information down at the time and discovered that it was originating with me! The only problem was that by the time it got back to me it had been so distorted and twisted that it was almost unrecognizable.
But then of course the Nexus Seven may have had access to the Cassiopaean passage on the “Convention” as quoted at the beginning of this segment, which was originally delivered in December of ’94. From “Top Secret”:
Think about the coming wave, the coming convergence of diverse human and alien and cosmic influences. Who are the essential usurper players in the game? Who in power has the most to lose in facing the prospect of a voluntary evolutionary uplift and paradigm change from Patriarchy to balance between [feminine and masculine forces]? Who indeed. … Here is the gum in the works: supposedly, divine beings, in religious terms, were always considered above the flesh, above the worldliness of physical impediment, above the limitations of a physical cosmos. And now they are not? They are slimy bugs, lizards and other Dr. Moreau morphs out of our animal kingdom, and they are the heavenly hosts, angels and Olympian man-gods of history and myth.
Hide this fact and throw away the key! This has driven many mad. If some intelligent and powerful men (in the realm of the power centers of the dollar, the soul and the sword), have been driven to drink and eventual psychosis over this, one can understand the fear of War of the Worlds mass hysteria. … The line between psychotic belief and religious belief is thin, and mass psychosis is something that can really happen. Before Dr. Mack, and maybe even still after Dr. Mack, the American Psychiatric Association is more than ready to declare just about every maven related to the UFO, NWO, and religious conspiracy worlds as nuts. These mavens and contactee and abductee people are all victims of mass hysteria cults, brain disorders, or they are sociopathic predators or hate crime suspects, or people exhibiting dangerous forms of psychosis, promoting paranoia, schizophrenia, inciting mass hysteria, mass delusion, and other conditionally arrestable hate crime offenses for those rogues that get too close to the public trust.
In other words, if it could, in a well-structured world, the science establishment would consign all ET telepathic contact to insanity. There would be mandatory ordered drugging to “cure” people of having ‘insane spiritual experiences’ and of promoting insanity in the population at large. It is not pop culture anymore; it is a social hysteria response, a response system that must be stopped. But we haven’t got laws like that yet…
…Physical ET stakeholders being part of “divine” history is a difficult assimilation and will our institutions survive the full disclosure day? … Now the institutions have discovered to their great dismay, that the divinities and deviltries of history are just readily and easily bypassing them. The last thing these institutions want humankind to generally believe is that ETs are the real heavenly masters of spiritual history. And in turn, they don’t wish to have the populace educated in knowing how to spot a false master when they see one.
Who is the false master? The ETs that helped to create the Messiahs, or the human institutions that represent the Messianic divinities of history?
Now you can get an idea of how sticky the wicket gets. … Since we even have to ask the question if the bug is nice or not, reveals our principal strategic vulnerability! We are unable to tell what some alien agendas are because we can’t read the ET mind, and ET is not telling. These entities are deft at communicating and contacting us using advanced subconscious subliminal techniques, which for the most part seem harmless and sometimes even beneficial for the involved parties. But the larger unknown agenda can still spell invasion, and we are in an early phase — a covert alien incursion on a marginal scale.
…But forces other than our conception of God are at work, heavenly hosts, both innocent and all too knowing, hosts friendly yet threatening, hosts alien and somehow all too familiar. We are being cultivated, and they do not want to spoil the broth.
The question shall remain and always be debated, even if their presence seems to recede, “We, humanity, are being cultivated for what?” The simple idea is that sparks and fragments of God, called souls, invested in humanity, may be cultivated into something different and somehow beyond (not necessarily better than) their creators. The harvest rights to that bounty are probably the real endgame. If the harvest is indeed a misnomer by it being really a voluntary free will choosing kind of deal, then the human populace might benefit from a physical brochure and/or a psychic travel brochure or two.
Maybe free will with spiritual empowerment is more likely at its new beginning and we have a choice in the matter far more than meets the eye.
The coming wave has already happened negatively, as evidenced by the existence of many time travelers — future humans — coming from distant futures long after disaster had already happened. They had advanced enough to migrate their souls back to catch a different part of the big wave that is about to happen, still in our future, but almost upon us. The soul migration back from into the “past”, our present, is to redirect the human “future” spiritual evolution from what futurally ostensibly happened. Therefore the present “real future” is engaged in counter-phasing itself into a better outcome. Humanity is hitchhiking back into human genetics and our current time registration to catch a new direction on the coming wave. Cosmic surf’s up!
…The coming resonance wave in the next decade is in many ways, hyper-dimensional and beyond our current ability to comprehend. To some need-to-know ARC elements, this smacks of hyperdimensional invasion, yet to other need-to-know ARC elements it is the chance for apotheosis. The question is, is it a false or genuine apotheosis? Is it spiritual liberation or entrapment?
…Could it be the soul substance we were endowed with is meant to develop new evolutionary factors for the universe? Is the grander plan one of humanity ultimately spreading out amongst the stars, seeding it’s consciousness and propensity to cause change, something most ultra-stable ET civilizations are rather afraid of, and few are welcoming? Does humanity have the right stuff?
Some humans and aliens believe we do not and should be just used and herded as a hyper-dimensional power base commodity. Some humans and aliens believe humanity does have the right stuff to break free of their bonds and survive, but will take a long time getting it right. Do we repeat future bad history currently on schedule or do we phase tunnel into a new future history?
Does the snake eat its tail, where the Omega is game over and starts over as the Alpha once again, or do we graduate to a new level Alpha, beyond the historical pattern loop? The loop is the harvest being plowed under. Can Ouroboros stop eating its tail and move into the next spiral position of evolution? If it happens well and goes positively, the loop will be broken and the new unpredicted, virgin future will occur. In that future, certain negative power enclaves do not survive, being obsolesced by spiritual evolution in humanity. If it goes negatively, again, the loop will stay locked, and the ancient future will happen again.
August 9, 1997
A: Here is something for you to digest: Why is it that your scientists have overlooked the obvious when they insist that alien beings cannot travel to earth from a distant system???
Q: (L) And what is this obvious thing?
A: Even if speed of light travel, or “faster”, were not possible, and it is, of course, there is no reason why an alien race could not construct a space “ark”, living for many generations on it. They could travel great distances through time and space, looking for a suitable world for conquest. Upon finding such, they could then install this ark in a distant orbit, build bases upon various solid planes in that solar system, and proceed to patiently manipulate the chosen civilizations to develop a suitable technological infrastructure. And then, after the instituting of a long, slow, and grand mind programming project, simply step in and take it over once the situation was suitable.
Q: (L) Is this, in fact, what has happened, or is happening?
A: It could well be, and maybe now it is the time for you to learn about the details.
Q: (L) Well, would such a race be third or fourth density in orientation?
A: Why not elements of both?
Q: (L) What is the most likely place that such a race would have originated from?
A: Oh, maybe Orion, for example?
Q: (L) Okay. If such a race did, in fact, travel to this location in space-time, how many generations have come and gone on their space ark during this period of travel, assuming, of course, that such a thing has happened?
A: Maybe 12.
Q: (L) Okay, that implies that they have rather extended life spans…
A: Yes…
Q: (L) Assuming this to be the case, what are their life spans?
A: 2,000 of your years.
Q: (L) Okay, assuming such a bunch have traveled…
A: When in space, that is…
Q: (L) And what is the span when on terra firma?
A: 800 years.
Q: (L) Well, has it not occurred to them that staying in space might not be better?
A: No. Planets are much more “comfortable”.
Q: (L) Okay… imagining that such a group has traveled here…
A: We told you of upcoming conflicts… Maybe we meant the same as your Bible, and other references. Speak of… The “final” battle between “good and evil…” Sounds a bit cosmic, when you think of it, does it not?
Q: (L) Does this mean that there is more than one group that has traveled here in their space arks?
A: Could well be another approaching, as well as “reinforcements” for either/or, as well as non-involved, but interested observers of various types who appreciate history from the sidelines.
Q: (L) Well, swell! There goes my peaceful life!
A: You never had one!
Q: (L) Well, I was planning on one!
A: You chose to be incarnated now, with some foreknowledge of what was to come. Reference your dreams of space attack.
Q: (L) Okay, what racial types are we talking about relating to these hypothetical aliens?
A: Three basic constructs. Nordic, Reptilian, and Grays. Many variations of type 3, and 3 variations of type 1 and 2.
Q: (L) Well, what racial types are the good guys?
A: Nordics, in affiliation with 6th density “guides”.
Q: (L) And that’s the only good guys?
A: That’s all you need.
Q: (L) Wonderful! So, if it is a Grey or Lizzie, you know they aren’t the nice guys. But, if it is tall and blond, you need to ask questions!
A: All is subjective when it comes to nice and not nice. Some on 2nd density would think of you as “not nice”, to say the least!!!
Q: (L) That’s for sure! Especially the roaches! Maybe we ought to get in touch with some of these good guys…
A: When the “time” is right.
Q: (L) Now, there is a lot being said about the sightings out in the Southwest area. They are saying that this is the new imminent invasion or mass landing. Can you comment on this activity?
A: Prelude to the biggest “flap” ever.
Q: (L) And where will this flap be located?
A: Earth.
Q: (L) When is it going to begin?
A: Starting already.
Q: (L) Is this biggest flap going to be just a flap, or is it going to be an invasion?
A: Not yet an invasion. Invasion happens when programming is complete…
Q: (L) What programming?
A: See Bible, Lucid book, Matrix material, Bringers of the Dawn, and many other sources, then cross reference…
Q: (L) Well, if something is fairly imminent, we are not going to have time to do all the things you have suggested that we do!
A: Yes you will, most likely.
Q: (L) Well, we are supposed to do a lot of things here… This just sort of takes the heart right out of me!
A: Not so!
Q: (L) Well, are we going to have time to do all these things?
A: All these things were suggested for this reason, among others.
Q: (L) So, all the things you have suggested are to get us ready for this event?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, we better get moving! We don’t have time to mess around!
A: You will proceed as needed; you cannot force these events or alter the Grand Destiny.
Q: (L) I do not like the sound of that! I want to go home!
A: The alternative is less appetizing.
Q: (L) Sure! I don’t want to be lunch!
A: Reincarnation on a 3rd density earth as a “cave person” amidst rubble and a glowing red sky, as the perpetual cold wind whistles…
Q: (L) Why is the sky glowing red?
A: Contemplate.
Q: (L) Of course! Comet dust! Sure, everybody knows that! Wonderful!
The important remark above is that there is a “Grand Destiny” that includes certain preparations for a cosmic “battle between good and evil.” Further that, not getting ready for this event, going home early or avoiding the issues would lead to a less appetizing result, i.e., reincarnation on a planet that has suffered mass destruction. Not only that, but one of the reasons for setting up the pieces on the board has a far more insidious intent:
January 11, 1997
Q: (L) We once talked about the fact that significant, conscious choices made at certain junctures in one’s life, can literally create a new, or branching universe. Later, I had an idea that when we think with awareness, meditate and make conscious STO choices, then more universes are created along this path, than along the STS pathways, so that you’re balancing the mindless, thoughtless, just-choosing-because-you-don’t-know-any-better universes… (T) Well, isn’t that what the lizards are doing? (L) Yes, it is… (T) They’re manipulating it to make negative. But, they can never make more than there is — more negative than positive — because the universe is constantly seeking balance. So, every place they make a negative branch, there’s some place else that becomes a positive. You can never make more. You can try.
A: True.
Q: (T) Although, they’re working on the false premise that they can do this. (L) Wishful thinking.
A: No, they are working on that false premise that they can seal realms into “4th” density and 3rd, 2nd, 1st STS for eternity.
Q: (L) They want to seal all of creation into physicality?
A: No, not physicality through all densities, just 4th through 1st density STS.
Q: (L) Oh! (T) They don’t care if it’s physical or not. They’re in fourth. They just want to seal them off and keep them STS to feed off of them.
A: “Eternity” is the key word there. It is where the wishful thinking comes into play.
October 22, 1994
A: …Now, as you advance to the fourth level of density which is coming up for you, you must now make a choice as to whether to progress to Service-to-Others or to remain at the level of Service-to-Self. This will be the decision which will take quite some time for you to adjust to. This is what is referred to as the “thousand year period”. This is the period as measured in your calendar terms that will determine whether or not you will advance to Service-to-Others or remain at the level of Service-to-Self.
And those who are described as the Lizards have chosen to firmly lock themselves into Service-to-Self. And, since they are at the highest level of density where this is possible, they must continually draw large amounts of negative energy from those at the third level, second level, and so on, which is why they do what they do. This also explains why their race is dying, because they have not been able to learn for themselves how to remove themselves from this particular form of expression to that of Service-to-Others.
And, since they have such, as you would measure it, a long period of time, remained at this level and, in fact, become firmly entrenched in it, and, in fact, have increased themselves in it, this is why they are dying and desperately trying to take as much energy from you as possible and also to recreate their race metabolically.
Q: (L) Well, if we are sources of food and labor for them, why don’t they just breed us in pens on their own planet?
A: They do.
Q: (L) Well, since there is so many of us here, why don’t they just move in and take over?
A: That is their intention. That has been their intention for quite some time. They have been traveling back and forth through time as you know it, to set things up so that they can absorb a maximum amount of negative energy with the transference from third level to fourth level that this planet is going to experience, in the hopes that they can overtake you on the fourth level and thereby accomplish several things:
1. Retaining their race as a viable species
2. Increasing their numbers
3. Increasing their power
4. Expanding their race throughout the realm of fourth density.
To do all of this they have been interfering with events for what you would measure on your calendar as approximately 74 thousand years. And they have been doing so in a completely still state of space-time traveling backward and forward at will during this work. Interestingly enough, though, all of this will fail.
Q: (L) How can you be so sure it will fail?
A: Because we see it. We are able to see all, not just what we want to see. Their failing is that they see only what they want to see. In other words, it’s the highest manifestation possible of that which you would refer to as wishful thinking. And, wishful thinking represented on the fourth level of density becomes reality for that level. You know how you wishfully think? Well, it isn’t quite reality for you because you are on the third level, but if you are on the fourth level and you were to perform the same function, it would indeed be your awareness of reality. Therefore they cannot see what we can see since we serve others as opposed to self, and since we are on sixth level, we can see all that is at all points as is, not as we would want it to be.
July 31, 1997
Q: (L) Now, a reader asks: “The Cassiopaeans have said that there are 16 groups of good guys and 16 groups of bad guys. Have they ever mentioned the names of any?”
A: Excuse us?
Q: (L) Well, they want you to name the different groups since you did make this remark at one point. Are you going to give a list of the participants on each side?
A: No, we are not.
Q: (L) So this is one of the things we have to learn to figure out ourselves.
A: Yes.
The reader may note that there are endless sources that name names in terms of who are the good guys and who are the bad guys. If you stop and think about this and the nature of free will, you will immediately realize that such sources, even if they are telling you the truth, have deprived you of your free will. And it seems that everything is about free will. But, again, we are getting ahead of ourselves; so let’s leave that for the moment.
July 31, 1999
Q: (L) Here is another question from a reader who wants to know if there is a possibility that the effects of the Wave are reflected in physiological phenomena, such as elevation in blood pressure and other things?
A: In some cases.
Q: (L) Okay, L & E sent a question. A correspondent wrote to them as follows: “L, I am getting some strange reports about the Pacific UFO. What have you heard? One thing, there is more and more effort being put into finding it or getting it, or however you put it. If you will look into it, the Navy has just launched a deep-sea rescue submersible and they announced that they are going to test it in the Pacific. Another thing, ASTAT announced about a week ago, maybe two, that there is an unidentified sonic source from the deep Pacific.” So, L added: “It appears to me that the Lizzies are constructing an underwater base in anticipation of the arrival of more than 36 million Lizards due to arrive soon. Could this be so?”
A: The problem with these questions is that they attempt to construct the beginning at the middle: presumptuous!! If one truly wishes to learn, one must be open to all possibilities.
Q: (L) Okay, I guess that you are saying that there is some assuming going on here. So, let me ask this: are there 36 million Lizards on their way here?
A: The Lizard beings occupy 4th density.
Q: (L) Are you saying that because they occupy fourth density, they don’t have to come here because they are here?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Now, you have told us that there are 36 million Nephilim on the way.
A: Nephilim are 3rd density. Big difference.
Q: (L) So, the third density Nephilim have to utilize some physical means of travel, even if it does include warping space-time, but the Lizards and other fourth density beings have no such constraints. Is an underwater base being constructed in the Pacific in anticipation of something?
A: No need to construct that which already exists.
Q: (L) Is there any truth to the idea that the U.S. Navy is trying to find or get something out in the Pacific?
A: Maybe, but all governmental stuff is compartmentalized, so it is pointless.
Q: (L) Okay, he also writes: “the photon belt energy is almost upon us according to our channels.” I guess he means the wave energy, or the interpretation of this according to these various channels. Is a “photon belt” or wave energy almost upon us?
A: Laura, you know how to deal with this.
Q: (L) I know. This purported photon belt has been “almost upon us” so many times that it is becoming boring. Now, you told us that the Montauk experiment was something that began in the 1920s. All of the stories say that the Navy was trying to make ships invisible to radar for defensive purposes. That’s the story. My question is: is that just a cover story?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is that, in fact, what they were attempting to do?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you get me any closer to it? What were their intentions?
A: Convergence of interests: US Navy, Secret Government, Esteemed physicists.
Q: (L) Did they actually, even accidentally, discover through this work something about time travel?
A: Yes, but it was more an accident for the Navy than for others involved.
Q: (L) Okay, was the accident and following fiasco fairly accurately represented in the various books about it?
A: Fairly.
Q: (L) After all of this, did they bring the project to a halt, even if only temporarily?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did they decide that, “Oh, we have discovered something really fantastic; let’s see what we can do with it?”
A: Closer.
Q: (L) Did this actually take place at Montauk?
A: Some.
Q: (L) Were Russians and/or Germans working on similar projects at the same time, or even a little later?
A: Germans earlier, Russians later.
Q: (L) Are the efforts of the Germans, Russians, and the Americans combined at the present time?
A: At some levels they are combined, yes.
Q: (L) Would you be able to evaluate the efforts of the three and say which one, at the present time, is the most advanced?
A: Does not work that way.
Q: (L) Why does it not work that way?
A: Advanced goes to Consortium.
Q: (L) Are you saying that when work of this kind gets to a certain level, it gets absorbed into the Consortium?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Back to Montauk: the Montauk project continued. Did they ever, at any point in time, produce monsters as some of these stories I have heard relate?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Was this a result of opening portals between densities or dimensions and having cross-density window fallers dropping in, so to speak?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Were any of these supposed monsters that they were supposed to have created, productions or creations of their minds?
A: Other densities afford a degree of one and the same thing.
Q: (L) Okay. You previously have said that the HAARP project is a continuation of the Montauk project.
A: Partly. You must remember compartments.
Q: (L) So, the right hand often doesn’t know what the left is doing. You also once said that the HAARP project was partly operational. Are some of these wildly extravagant shootings of recent times, or people going off the deep end, a result of some of the HAARP experimentation in mind control, or testing?
A: This is a result of many forces.
Q: (L) Is Montauk connected in any way with this Alternative Three idea of transferring groups or perimeters in the event of a cataclysm or disaster?
A: Too complex, but be careful of what you read. Disinformation. This is most of what you hear and read.
Q: (A) Okay, you have mentioned the Navy and the physicists, and then there were these people who simply were producing monsters, which does not seem to be anything that the Navy would want to do, much less physicists!
A: You are confusing subjects and time frames.
Q: (A) Somebody had to plan this experiment, yes?
A: But that was the Philadelphia Experiment.
Q: (L) How did this business of producing monsters and all that even come into this project?
A: Experiments in mind programming and psy-warfare.
Q: (L) So, these were separate experiments. But, did they fall under the Montauk project…
A: Yes. But the monsters were long after the Eldridge.
Q: (L) When did the experiments with the monsters occur?
A: Late 70s.
Q: (L) Have they continued on with this monster producing business?
A: No need to get hung up on “monsters”. There were other materializations. Not just monsters.
Q: (L) What other kinds of materializations did they have?
A: You name it!
Q: (L) Were they able to materialize money for themselves?
A: No need.
Q: (L) Were they able to materialize people from the past or the future?
A: Temporarily.
Q: (L) Did they, in fact, do this?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did they ask people from the future what kinds of events have occurred between then and now in order to refine their plans and activities?
A: No such.
Q: (L) Why?
A: Variable futures.
Q: (L) So, they could materialize somebody from the future, but it was only as potential, or probable future, so therefore, it meant very little, or was useless?
A: One of 329 decillion.
Q: (L) Probable futures?
A: Yes. Up to a point…
Q: (L) Could they select whom they materialized, or was it random?
A: The materialization was really a duality. Review texts re: abductions between densities for idea.
Q: (L) Could it be possible that, using this technology, the U.S. Government, or secret government, has been doing abductions on human beings that the victims think is an alien abduction?
A: Maybe in some cases, but the technology is not comparable.
Q: (L) Other than people from the past and future, what other kinds of things did they materialize in the Montauk experiments? What kinds of things were they interested in materializing more than anything else? (A) Probably technological devices. (L) Did they materialize technology from the future?
A: This is more complex than your questions indicate.
Q: (L) I realize this. I am struggling with this whole idea. When they were doing this materializing, did they not have direct intent? Were they just experimenting to see what would materialize at various settings?
A: Their knowledge brought them to a level different than your current imaginings.
Q: (L) Well, help me out here! What do you mean?
A: No use comparing apples to oranges.
Q: (L) At any point did their knowledge and materializations incline them toward benevolent acts and tendencies regarding the rest of the human population?
A: This is not working because you are thinking one way and they do not.
Q: (L) Can you give me a word or two that will clue me as to how to change my thinking?
A: Sure. Try to explain calculus to a kindergartner!!
Q: (L) You are saying that this Consortium, these Montauk folks, have a level of knowledge, and a way of thinking, that makes my thinking, and our thinking, seem like…
A: Poppycock.
Q: (L) My thinking is poppycock relative to theirs?
A: Close.
Q: (A) But this is only because we do not have this knowledge!
A: Right!!!!
Q: (L) And we are trying to get it!
A: You cannot get it without an enormous amount of patience! These experiments have been conducted over a time period you would recognize as about 93 years and have involved thousands of humans and a few hundred NHIs (Non-Human Intelligences).
Q: (L) Are the people involved in these experiments STS or STO?
A: All “people” are STS.
Q: (L) Well, the people who are working in the direction of STO, what chance do they have of access to this knowledge?
A: They do not need it.
Q: (L) Why don’t they need it?
A: They will have it when the elevator reaches “floor number 4”.
Q: (L) Are you saying that it is not essential for us to struggle to know these things to that level because it will come naturally because we are linked in a network?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Well, gosh! You had me worried there! So, these guys are working and digging for knowledge to control others?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Are they trying to develop technology to lock the planet into third density so that it won’t go to fourth density?
A: Some may be.
Q: (L) Do they see the moving to fourth density as a threat to their plans and projects?
A: Perhaps.
Q: (A) I believe that there is a lot of this knowledge that would be useful for me to know before I go to fourth density, assuming I will go. I mean, knowledge is knowledge, and I am sure I would make good use of this. Why did you say that this knowledge is not needed for us?
A: We did not say that. You are misreading what we said!!!! Your line of questioning bespoke a level of knowledge not on the same level as those directly engaged in the vast experimentation, which in part, was conducted at Montauk. If you were to review the transcripts extensively, you would find that you possess much more knowledge on this sort of thing than you apparently have remembered for tonight’s session. You have put forth so much energy toward building the website that you have drained some of your conscious recall ability for the moment. And no, we are not criticizing your efforts; we applaud them!!! But, you could use a thoughtful, meditative review!
Well, it is indeed true that I could use a long rest, but as long as there are questions being asked of me, I will attempt to share what little I have managed to experience over the past 40 some years, and there are other more pressing questions to which we must proceed. So, in closing, let us just deal with one last bit of possible disinformation:
August 5, 2000
Q: (L) In this Nexus Seven document it says: “What is the final ontological matrix of hidden truth? What elucidates all the aspects of the true-to-life UFO phantasm in our past, present and future? What are the critical goals of Echelon beyond information suppression and technological catch-up? What are the hyper-intelligence focal points for the future? The sun, our sun, is dying, and too soon. This was caused by regional dimensional vortex shutdown some 90,000 years ago. Solar instability can cause much life on Earth to be unsustainable in 40 years. Ancient astro-theology calendars all end around now. There are also dangerous interplanetary bodies, with civilization threatening capability due to cause more serious damage to Earth in another 150 years. One way or the other we are slated to leave Earth, sooner or later, or else. This is a prevailing secret truth. Those in control would rather save themselves and a few elite than worry about the whole of mankind, despite the presence of a few well meaning but deluded true human patriots amongst the bunch.” Is, in fact, our sun dying?
A: Yes, and so is everything else.
Q: (L) Is it going to do it in 40 years?
A: You do not understand our attempted allusion. What is not dying?
Q: (L) Well, I know that, but they are saying that our sun is dying too soon.
A: No. What is “too soon”?
Q: (L) Well… (A) Forty years is certainly too soon!
A: Why?
Q: (A) Because scientists would normally give the sun much longer…
A: But do “scientists” really know?!?
Q: (L) You are not helping here! Are you saying this guy is right?
A: Be patient, Laura, this is a lesson.
Q: (A) Well, no, scientists don’t really know; but they conjecture.
A: Ah hah! Conjecture!
Q: (L) So, what’s your point?
A: Our point is: what is too soon and why?
Q: (L) Too soon would be… well, I guess that in completely objective terms, there is no such thing as too soon. When things happen, it is exactly the right time for it to happen. When something happens, everything is perfect.
A: Okay.
Q: (L) So, in the deepest sense, nothing is ever too soon… however… (C) What situations would have to be in place for this to happen within forty years?
A: There are unlimited numbers of situations… Some of those possibilities are always present, especially when combined with multitudinal external factors.
Q: (L) What would the external factors be?
A: Energies, or cosmic forces present in space at various locators, which the sun would pass through in its journey through space, for one example.
Q: (L) Are we slated to pass through any of those energies or forces?
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Well, let me ask the next question on that subject. Does any of this have to do with dimensional vortices that were shut down 90 thousand years ago in the area of Sirius?
A: We are interested in knowing the “dimensional shutdown of vortex process.” Could you explain, please?
Q: (L) Well, no. I don’t think anyone else could either. It’s just a term here. Is there such a thing as a dimensional vortex?
A: Semantics.
Q: (L) What would you call a dimensional vortex?
A: Once again, this is not flowing because you are navigating haphazardly through subjective proclamations.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that all of this analysis of what the deep ontological truths are is just subjective proclamations. Was there ever something that happened that might have been perceived by the person who wrote this material, as a dimensional vortex shutdown 90 thousand years ago?
A: What is that?!?
Q: (L) So, basically, you are trying to point out that there is no such thing as a dimensional vortex shutdown. But, you have said that the planet Kantek exploded between 70 and 80 thousand years ago, right?
A: If so, that is not what the writer is attempting to portray.
Q: (L) Could it have been a supernova?
A: Look here! This is pointless.
Q: (L) So, all of this stuff is nonsense? I am really missing the point here. Okay. What I am getting from what you are and are not saying, is that this person is clearly trying to portray something, and that there is something behind what he is saying, but I am just too dense to figure out the right question so you can download the answer.
A: Dense? No my dear! You are just learning, as are we all.
Q: (L) Now, I did have a thought that this 90-thousand-year cycle could be the period of the companion brown star you have said is on it’s way into the solar system. Is that what they might be talking about?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) So, what they are really talking about, or may have seen in some way, is the companion star, rather than the death of our own sun. (A) Let me just ask a simple question. Can you estimate the likelihood that the sun will die in 40 years?
A: That is unlikely.
Q: (L) Well, what a relief! (A) We are done! How unlikely?
A: There is one chance in 189 million.
I think I will go and buy some lottery tickets. I have a really good chance of winning — one in thirteen million!
July 22, 2000
Q: (I) I was writing something in my journal about supernovae being steps toward the Big Bang, in the sense that each supernova represents a reflection of ourselves.
A: In a more physiological sense, supernovae present cosmic energies, which “up the ante” of awareness, when one is in close enough proximity.
Q: (I) Now, this supernova that happened in fairly recent times — the Cassiopia A supernova of 1658, or thereabouts — does that have anything to do with our awareness thing going on right now?
A: It has some to do with this conduit.
Q: (I) I had that feeling. I went back and read Supernovae, Vehicle of Ascension?7 Did whatever happen with that supernova, is it affecting us?
A: The more interesting question would be, what about the NEXT supernova?!?
Q: (I) There is one coming up, and that’s going to be the Wave? Or…
A: No, no, no. No anticipation, please.
Q: (L) Well, that’s pretty hard when you said “what about the next one”!
A: Reflection, yes, but anticipation? No!
In short, in terms of the practicalities of our 3D prison, we have learned that the ETs apparently visiting our planet are actually 4D STS beings. They have been interacting with humanity for its entire recorded existence, tending to humanity as a cattle farmer tends to his herd. They want to lock 1D to 3D in place so as to secure a permanent physical living space and feeding ground. Some are preparing new bodies in which to incarnate in 3D, and in the case that they are unable to lock humanity at this level, they prepare to control us in 4D, thereby increasing their numbers and power.
They have been interacting with a select human consortium for millennia, the human component of the Control System. In short, some humans have always known the alien agenda, and have actively collaborated toward it. They have steered world events to desired ends not in the interest of humanity at large, and they are connected with groups such as the Freemasons, Rosicrucians, Illuminati, etc. though it is clear that they work very much through mainstream religions in their efforts to keep humanity deaf, dumb and blind. Aware of some of the possibilities facing our future, they plan to escape, or have been promised safety by their 4D masters, leaving the rest of us to our fate. In order to keep control, they must keep the public from learning the truth about ETs at all costs. But, given the nature of secrecy and compartmentalization, there are some who wish to let the truth out, and this has been done through controlled leaks of information with plausible deniability. The humans in league with 4D STS have an array of technologies for mind control and disinformation at their disposal.
1 The Nexus Seven, “Top Secret/Demon, (Ancient and Future Custodial Alien Races and the HyperDimensional Symbolic Cryptographic Munitions Conspiracy),” 1999, (http://psychicspy.com/demon.txt).
2 Anna Hayes, 1998, from Contact Forum, Volume 6, No. 1, Jan-Feb 1998.
3 Ibid.
4 21st Century Progressive Psionic Awareness Study, Reply #65 (November 8, 2004), (http://vancouverbc.proboards21.com/index.cgi?board=progressive&action=display&thread=1099966131&page=5).
5 The O.H. Krll document (http://pdharris0.tripod.com/krill.htm#Krill%20Papers) was written by John Grace (AKA Valdamar Valerian, author of The Matrix material). According to Richard Dolan, Grace wrote the document “shortly after John Lear’s hypothesis [on the UFO/alien conspiracy] was published in December 1987…” Grace, who was still on active USAF duty at the time, used the name “Krll”, suggested to him by John Lear, while Grace added “O.H.” Dolan writes: “Among the Krill document’s many conclusions were that the U.S. government had a longstanding working relationship with aliens with the goal of perfecting gravitational propulsion, beam weaponry, and mind control. Advances in these and other areas vastly exceeded anything the public knew about, and the space program was a public relations cover for more serious space operations. Live aliens had been “hostage” to the U.S. government, alien autopsies had been conducted, and abductions, murder, and mutilation had all occurred in connection with the UFO situation. … The aliens … had intervened in human genetic development and religion, had bases on the Earth and Moon, and actively controlled elements of human society. …[H]umans inhabited a multi-dimensional world visited by a large number of hostile and friendly entities from other dimensions.” (Dolan, 2009)
6 According to the Cs, Kantek was the fifth planet of the solar system, destroyed over 80,000 years ago and leaving in its orbit what we now know as the asteroid belt. Its inhabitants were transported to Earth prior to the destruction using 4D technology. They “landed” in the Caucasus and surrounding areas, the cradle of the Caucasian/Aryan race. The many myths of tall Aryan types traveling around to places as far as India, China and South America, often with knowledge quite advanced in relation to the local populations, refer to this advanced racial group entering the world stage.
7 Laura Knight-Jadczyk, “Supernovae, Vehicle of Ascension?” November 29, 1999, (http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/supernovae.htm).
We are still asking “why?” We have peeled the onion, layer by layer, and have come to the center and found nothing there. Or, is that altogether true? It may take a little time to put the puzzle back together, and I hope the reader will bear with me because it would be completely useless for me to give the answer in twenty-five words or less. Following the trail of clues, however, will provide many opportunities for comparison, for assimilation, and for points of further investigation.
We know that this question of why is one that we don’t like to face, but when we awaken late at night, alone in our thoughts, with no distractions of daily life to fill the void, we are face to face with our existential dilemma. And it is a terrible silence. In those moments of cold clarity, the bleakness and futility of our existence in cosmic terms rises up to confront us as it has confronted all of humanity throughout millennia.
We have seen that, to escape this monstrous dark night of the soul we will accept any answer that may be offered because the cold, abyssal silence that follows the question must be filled at any cost. And the sad fact is there are plenty of people willing to try to convince us that they have the answer to all our questions. But these answers generally consist of confusing the discernment of reality with personal opinion, which results in a judgment upon reality by refusing to acknowledge it. And we have seen that those parts of reality which are refused or judged as wrong or evil have a way of manifesting in our face, demanding to be witnessed.
On the one hand, we have the Cassiopaeans telling us that the conditions of our reality are exactly like what Gurdjieff spoke about in the Tale of the Magician that we recounted in Riding the Wave. We have found similar witnesses to this version of the great question in very ancient traditions such as Sufism, Gnosticism, and perhaps even Catharism, as well as the more contemporary treatments such as the writings of Carlos Castaneda.
On the other hand we have the myriad imaginary beliefs of humankind. These beliefs are dearly held, as we can see by this note from one of our readers:
Dear friends Laura & Ark
I have read many of your C messages, the final feeling is always a sad tone of despair. Finally, I begin to question how can be gathered so many misfortunes on a little planet like earth if the universe is so big? … All the message of Cs is of the same: we are damned whatever we can do. However please think: the human race is far better than all those beings from 6D, 4D and all others dimensions, if we can have Mozart, Bach; Music and poets, mothers that care for their children and loving fathers. We are far better than all these silly things. Believe me, they are trying to confound you, and with a message as of the good guys, some truth with many lies between, and at the end we are all damned. Do not waste your time and your soul.
Whenever I receive correspondence of this sort, I do not just automatically reject it as something from someone who is not getting it. I always use it as an opportunity to reexamine everything I think in order to discover if, by some chance, they could be absolutely right and I could be wrong, and the Cassiopaean information could be just another in an endless series of disinformation campaigns designed to get humanity under the control of some dark forces by the act of making them believe in them.
In the first part of Soul Hackers, we discussed how information could be corrupted by the biases of the receiver or ignorance of the source, even if that source is discarnate. But, we still need to deal with the deeper question suggested above. How do we do this?
As the reader probably knows by now, we don’t just take everything the Cassiopaeans say as truth without a lot of checking and crosschecking and experimentation. We don’t now, nor did we ever, take it as true believer material. It sure is interesting because of the many areas that have independent corroboration, but some of it is by its very nature unverifiable.
As I have already written, there are many things we have learned, and not just from being informed, but also by having a suggestion given to us, which we then observed, experimented with, and developed more fully on our own. This is one of the keys to the Cassiopaeans: they don’t just hand it out. As I have noted before, they give clues, but not road maps. Their position is that if we don’t do something, work for it as it were, it is useless like candy: empty calories. Clearly, this approach is designed to make the practice of channeling unnecessary and obsolete. We will eventually become them. Repeatedly they tell us that leading us by the hand is detrimental; they have laid the groundwork, given us the boost because we asked (and did so repeatedly, consistently, and with dedication for over two years before the contact initiated), but that the real purpose is to get us to learn to walk on our own, aware, protected and free of fear and ignorance. Hopefully, I will be able to convey this to the reader as well. It has taken many words and hundreds of pages to get us to this point, to the moment where we ask the question, and I would like to devote an equal amount of space to building the foundation for the answer.
A: Subtle answers that require effort to dissect promote intensified learning. Learning is an exploration followed by the affirmation of knowing through discovery. Learning is necessary for progress of soul … this is how you are building your power center … Patience serves the questor of hidden knowledge … Search your “files”. … Learning is sometimes best accomplished by study and exploration… There are other clues that you can discover by your own study…
This is going to become an important point, this building your power center, so hang on to that idea.
Getting back to our reader who suggests that the Cassiopaeans are “trying to confound you, and with a message as of the good guys, some truth with many lies between… All the message of Cs is of the same: we are damned whatever we can do”.
It is a logical inconsistency to teach awareness and defense against dark forces as a means of fostering control by these very same forces. This issue has been brought up many times in the past, the most significant treatment of it being expounded by Jesus:
Then a blind and dumb man, under the power of a demon, was brought to Jesus, and He cured him, so that the blind and dumb man both spoke and saw. … But the Pharisees hearing it said, ‘This Man drives out demons only by and with the help of Beelzebub, the prince of demons’. And knowing their thoughts, He said to them, “Any kingdom that is divided against itself is being brought to desolation and laid waste, and no city or house divided against itself will last or continue to stand. And if Satan drives out Satan, he has become divided against himself and disunited; how then will his kingdom last or continue to stand? And if I drive out the demons by Beelzebub by whose help do your sons drive them out? … Or how can a person go into a strong man’s house and carry off his goods without first binding the strong man? Then indeed he may plunder his house. … Either make the tree sound, and its fruit sound, or make the tree rotten and its fruit rotten; for the tree is known and recognized and judged by its fruit.” (Matthew 12:22-33, Amplified, Zondervan)
Curiously, the effect of the demons was the condition of being blind and dumb. The analogy also included the idea of a strong man being bound up so that a thief could come in and plunder his possessions, which is pretty much what we are finding to be the case. But, the main point was the issue of the Kingdom of Satan being brought to waste and desolation by division. “If Satan drives out Satan, he has become divided against himself and disunited: how then will his kingdom last or continue to stand?” Jesus was pointing out to the Pharisees that it was completely illogical to accuse him (Jesus) of working in concert with darkness since the effect of his work was to free the man of his demonic attack, which enabled the man to both see and speak.
In actual fact, the greatest deception of all is the teaching that there are no real negative forces. And if there are, we needn’t worry about them because if we just think nice thoughts, meditate regularly, and use our warm and fuzzy affirmations, nothing icky will ever enter our reality.
I can assure you that evil insinuates itself into our lives in the guise of goodness and truth. The difficulty in talking about evil nowadays lies not in the weird or bizarre, but rather from the insistence by our culture that religious views of good and evil are outdated. The New Age teaching that evil simply does not exist unless an individual creates it in their reality further exacerbates the problem. This is an important point because the process of evil follows the line of erosion of our spirituality through the erosion of knowledge. What better way to protect evil activities than to deny that they exist? The fact is, the “selves” who create evil and wish to perpetuate it are those at higher density levels and against whom we have no defense except through knowledge of who they are and how they work. We must learn about the lies in order to perceive the truth.
There are those who speak of fallen angels who have become the minions of Satan. However, many ancient teachings describe this attitude, this essence of evil, as existing from the beginning. This implies there has always been a pathway of darkness or Service-to-Self since the instant of creation. This means that on one side of the coin, loving all others as the mode of loving God and self exists; and on the other, the opposing philosophy of loving oneself as God and manipulating others to perpetuate this love of self is equally valid. It might even be said that without this tension of opposition, nothing could or would exist.
If we remove the terms light and dark or good and evil, we are left with the clinical terms positive and negative polarities. But even here, we have a judgment that may not be appropriate. Nevertheless, using these words as a convention, we can observe that there is a pinnacle of negative polarity and there are those entities from many realms who follow this pathway. We must understand that it is a path. It has validity in the realm of creation. If it were intended to be destroyed, could not God ease all our problems and reach out and return this energy to himself?
There are those who believe that putting one’s attention on these ideas gives them energy. This is true only if one focuses in this way with the intention of participation, even if vicariously. However, a comprehensive understanding of these forces is absolutely necessary in order to know how to give them less energy.
“The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”
But, what should good men do? What are we supposed to derive or understand about the Cosmos from all the Cassiopaeans have told us? Clearly, they are not going to give us all the answers on a silver platter; we have to figure it out! I am working on it and these pages are the result.
I am not saying that my interpretation or understanding of any of it is in any way final or absolute. And, with new information, some of my ideas may change. But for now, I am sharing what I think I have learned. If it finds resonance in the reader, if it provides a platform for his or her experiments or seeking, then it has served its purpose.
The Cassiopaeans have said that one should not “act against” the forces of darkness, but that rather one should “act for” one’s own destiny. In a very practical sense this can even include physically extricating oneself from any number of unpleasant situations, even with force if necessary. If someone is trying to kill you or someone you love, and it is your perception of your destiny, or you feel it is your responsibility to prevent that, then it is entirely within the parameters of acting for one’s own destiny to do whatever is necessary to save your life or the lives of others.
But, we are talking about this in many further subtle ways. How can one act for one’s own destiny if one has been deceived and hypnotized to think that what is good is actually evil or vice versa? And, it is not always that simple. The analogy of the Evil Magician and his flock suggests to us that, in a certain sense, the flock is being cared for. But this care has an objective: occasionally the Evil Magician comes and takes one or more of the flock for its “flesh and skin”.
We can certainly see that there seems to be a certain amount of “care” manifested for humanity by some of these forces and beings that have been proposed or identified throughout the ages. But there are certain issues about this that we need to consider with cold logic. We have the ancient legends of the Fish Gods and the Dragon cultures, the Serpent Gods and the Sumerian Annunaki and so forth, all identified as civilizing influences on humanity. But, as we have already discussed, these benefits may have a different agenda than just to assist humankind.
Q: (L) This book [Graham Hancock’s Fingerprints of the Gods] says that on this pyramid, at the time of the spring and autumn equinoxes, patterns of light and dark combine to create the illusion of a giant serpent undulating on the northern staircase. On each occasion the illusion lasts for 3 hours and 22 minutes exactly. What was this optical illusion created to convey?
A: Worship of serpentine deity.
Q: (L) Was it created to convey or produce any other effect other than worship?
A: The key is in the reading of the geometric cycle.
Q: (L) On page 80, the book talks about these statues at Tiahuanaco on Lake Titicaca. It says: “Carved in red sandstone, worn and ancient beyond reckoning, the statue stand about 6 feet high and portrays a humanoid, androgynous being with massive eyes and lips. In its right hand it clutches something resembling a knife with a wavy blade like an Indonesian kris. In its left hand is an object like a hinged and case-bound book. From the top of this book, however, protruded a device which had been inserted into it as though into a sheath. From the waist down, the figure seemed to be clad in a garment of fish scales.” Okay, there is another statue with an object in its left hand that is like a case bound book, but from it protruded a forked handle. The right hand object was roughly cylindrical, narrow in the center and bigger at each end. It appeared to have several different parts. I would like to know what these objects, or devices, carved into these ancient statues represented?
A: Conductor for Quartzine energy from atmospheric source.
Q: (L) What was this energy used for?
A: All. When one harnesses free energy, no limitations need apply.
Q: (L) Why were these beings depicted with these fish-like garments?
A: Reptoids [4D STS Lizards] have that genetic profile to varying degrees.
Q: (L) According to the Sumerian traditions, this was like the god Oannes. In the night time, he would plunge back into the sea, but in the daytime he would converse with men, giving them insight into letters and sciences and every kind of art. But, it was noted that he was never observed to eat. It says that he taught men how to construct houses, temples, to compile laws, and explained to them the principles of geometric knowledge. He made them distinguish the seeds of the earth and made them gather fruits. In short, he instructed them in everything that would tend to soften manners and humanize mankind. From that time, so universal were his instructions, that nothing has been added materially in the way of improvement. The surviving images of Oannes on Babylonian and Assyrian reliefs clearly portray him as a fish man. Is this another similar profile?
A: “El legato.”
Q: (L) Was this Oannes fish man similar to the Quinotaur that was supposedly the half-father of the Merovingian royal line?
A: Only if one considers losses in the translative quarry.
Q: (L) Here it says: “The Spanish Conquistadors and missionaries destroyed nearly everything that we could possibly use to learn about the South American civilizations. A sixteenth century eyewitness says that there was an emerald idol that was completely fantastic. Father Benito took this idol and had it ground up, stirred the powder in water, poured it on the ground and stomped on it.
“Cortez was given two circular calendars, one of gold and the other silver, as big as wagon wheels, with all kinds of hieroglyphs on them, which he immediately had melted down and cast into ingots. All over Central America, vast repositories of knowledge, accumulated since ancient times, were painstakingly gathered, heaped up, and burned by the zealous Catholic missionaries.
“In July 1562, for example, in the main square of Monte, in the Yucatan, Father Diego de Landa burned thousands of Maya manuscripts, paintings and hieroglyphs inscribed on rolled up deerskins.” He said: “We found great numbers of books written in the characters of the Indians, but since they contained nothing but superstitions of the Devil, we burned them all, which the natives took most grievously, and gave them great pain.”
Hancock says: “Not only the natives should have felt this pain, but anyone and everyone then and now who would like to know the truth about the past. Diego de Landa participated in Spain’s satanic mission to wipe clear the memory banks of Central America. In the marketplace at Texcoco, they built a vast bonfire of astronomical documents, paintings, manuscripts, and hieroglyphic texts, which the Conquistadors had forcibly extracted from the Aztecs during the previous eleven years. As this irreplaceable storehouse of knowledge and history went up in flames, a chance to shake off some of the collective amnesia that clouds our understanding was lost to mankind forever.”
So, having read this sickening description about “Spain’s Satanic Mission” to destroy the past, I would like to have a comment on what was motivating the Catholic Church, the Catholic Missionaries, and Spain itself. Could you comment?
A: You should not need commentary, as we have told you much about the desires of 4th density STS to obscure truth by manipulating 3rd density STS.
Q: (L) Well, yes. But Lord have mercy! It just makes a person sick to think about it… all of this and the Library at Alexandria too! Was this the kind of stuff that was being done in Europe during the so-called Dark Ages?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And that is why the Dark Ages are dark. The Catholic Church destroyed everything that did not sharpen their axe.
As William Bramley noted in his book, The Gods of Eden, when we consider history, we can clearly see that the drive of human beings to have peace is as strong, if not stronger, than the drive to have war. But, when the issue of war is examined, one realizes that most often the trigger for war and related inhumanity to man is that the drive for spiritual freedom is twisted by manipulation.
It’s easy to look back on history and see where this or that group was misled in their beliefs and thereby fell into errors of thinking that led to the perpetration of unspeakable horrors. We can point to the genocide advocated by the God of the Hebrews, or the religious-zeal-run-amok of the Catholic Church when it instituted the Inquisition. We can see the twisted version of the genetic superman that led to the holocaust. It’s easy to discern these errors of the past, because we know more now. Well, isn’t that an interesting thing? We know more now. How much more can we learn?
It almost seems as if the game has just gotten more and more complex, but the same essential errors keep being repeated. What is at the root? (Aside from the fact that we notice the above examples all relate to monotheistic exclusivity.)
Human beings have a sort of built in drive for spiritual knowledge. And over and over again we can see that this drive is what is being manipulated. When genuine spiritual knowledge is distorted while, at the same time, the inner desire for salvation is constantly being stimulated by various religious teachings, a great many people can be led into doing a lot of cruel and stupid things. The need to save souls is a prime example of how such a seemingly positive polarization can be suddenly shifted to do the exact opposite of what the religious teachings explicated. And this is an important point to remember.
Zecharia Sitchin and William Bramley, following Von Dåniken, have postulated that the ancient evidence demonstrates the actual, physical presence of an extraterrestrial race who came to earth to implement controls over humanity, with possible plans to return and harvest the fruits of their efforts. In both cases, their studies have indicated strongly that this extraterrestrial race does not have humanity’s best interests at heart! These guys did a lot of work, gathered a lot of facts, and were not listening to some bug-eyed Gray alien who was trying to convince them that “this is for you! We are here to help!”
But, those same aliens we find today, zipping about, sliding in and out of our reality like slippery eels, gazing and probing and communicating all kinds of excuses and scenarios to explain what they are doing based on how gullible or ignorant their victims are, this must be considered also. In other words, what Sitchin and Bramley fail to factor into their arguments is the continuing evidence of interaction and domination from another realm of existence.
The Annunaki, as defined by Sitchin, and the “Custodians” as defined by Bramley, did not come as physical beings (in our terms) to occupy, dominate, and then leave for some obscure reason. The evidence of those, now numbering in the multiples of thousands, claiming alien abduction and contact with aliens and even visions of the Virgin and other miracles throughout history, contradicts this view. It seems far more likely that the ancient stories indicate a cultural openness that permitted perception of such beings, acknowledged their reality, and merely made the distinction between them and ordinary human beings by referring to them as “gods”.
William Bramley also chronicled considerable historical evidence of a relation between the sightings of UFOs and the sudden onslaught of deadly diseases or plagues. We have similar concerns in the present time, which indicates that this is not a new thing, but merely part of a cycle. The Annunaki (4D STS) have never left, and the Brotherhood of the Serpent (the secret government or Consortium) is still with us, active and growing stronger by the day.
As noted, a number of modern contactees and abductees claim the aliens are here to help humankind, to eradicate disease, to bring us health and happiness. The historical evidence does not support this. Though in some individual cases it may be true, wouldn’t it make sense for those of the darkness to care for their agents?
In their attempts to warn us, to educate us, to wake us up, the Cassiopaeans have told us many dreadful things. Why?
The above reader sees this as “we are all damned in the end”. But is that what the Cassiopaeans are saying? Are they not really saying that we need to wake up to what is under the surface of our very contradictory reality? That we need to become aware and alert and see the unseen? Are they not telling us “Satan can appear as an angel of light”? Are they not telling us that we are “strong men” who have been “bound” so that what is ours can be stolen? Are they not telling us to “drive out the demons” and open our eyes and begin to speak?
It’s a little bit curious that just those two terms were used, omitting the “ears” as something that might be opened by the casting out of demons. The fact is, most of the distortions of our reality come to us by listening rather than observing. Deception and error of perception would have far less influence on us, and we would have no illusions if we would look at the face value of objects and see things for what they really are. Most of humankind’s illusions are the children of the ear and hearsay. My beloved grandmother always told me to “believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see”. This is very good advice. If we open our eyes and look at the problem as objectively as we can, forgetting all our beliefs and assumptions, and all the things we have been told we might be able to draw some conclusions.
A problem is defined in terms of two categories: objects and operations. The objects are the things that the problem-solver has to manipulate. They may be people, things, or situations. The operations are the steps by which object A is transformed into object B. Solving a problem is a process of understanding the sequence of transformation. To do this, we try to understand the differences between object A and object B. These understandings lead us to the choice of operations. Those operations, which will add to the transformation process, will be retained; those that will diminish the process will be eliminated.
I believe that we can come to some understanding of our reality problem in this way. I would suggest that the alien Control System demonstrate adherence to the process described above, but with time travel capabilities, it is possible for them to effect their manipulations in such a way that we have great difficulty perceiving them. With a broad historical perspective, careful examination of the cycles and events within the cycles, we can see the fingerprints of these elusive controllers of our reality. We can see human beings as the objects, and the events of history as the “operations”. When we observe these things, the events of history and how they have affected humanity, and where humanity is today as opposed to yesterday, we begin to have a clue that we certainly are not in Kansas anymore!
What is even more interesting is that we come across some of those very strange periods in history where a great darkness descends. And before this darkness humankind was going in one direction, and after this period, humankind is going in an altogether different direction. You probe into these periods, and you discover that very strange things were going on. Not only that, you discover that a seemingly concerted effort was made afterward to assure that documentation of the period was destroyed to as great an extent as possible. In other words, somebody was busy on a global scale, and whatever they were doing, they definitely did not want it made public. Two of these historical periods really stand out. The first is the time in which the national history of the Jews was supposedly in full development. The second is the period of the transition from Paganism to Christianity. Both of these periods are called Dark Ages. Maybe that should give us pause! The idea that humankind is being manipulated and controlled like an experiment then becomes not merely what the Cassiopaeans are telling us, but also what we can see ourselves if we exert the effort and care to look.
The point of all this is that it seems the only criteria we may have by which to judge any phenomenon is the fruit it bears, since it is possible for things to be represented as positive and not be so, in fact. But in this case, the fruit can only be seen in a very broad historical perspective.
To synopsize: an alien presence has been noted at many points in history of great disaster or mass death and cultural darkness. Examination of the few records and documents has led some scholars and researchers to conjecture that many of history’s darkest hours have been created by this alien presence. The laws of probability tell us that, without any intelligent control, fifty percent of the time events would occur leading to great good and benefit. Factoring in intelligent decisions to do well would bring this average up to about seventy percent Yet we can clearly see that this is not reflected in our reality. Why not? Who or what is influencing things to the negative?
One answer that we are given is the ever popular New Age channeled teaching that the reason things are so bad is because we were an experiment in free will that went bad. We have screwed things up so badly that now we need help to haul ourselves out of the soup. And the aliens, in their infinite wisdom and mercy, are going to do that for us if we will just let them! Further, if we just think nice thoughts, nothing bad will ever enter our reality. And we must not look at evil because it just doesn’t exist unless we believe in it. This is a dangerous and cunning lie. What better way to protect the forces of darkness at higher levels than to deny their very existence?
My work as a hypnotherapist has shown me that the vast majority of people want to do good, to experience good things, think good thoughts, and make decisions with good results. And they try with all their might to do so. With the majority of people having this internal desire, why the hell isn’t it happening? In my experience, when the surface or screen memories of an individual who has had abductions has been probed in a competent way, this individual reveals memories of events so chilling in their implications that the “love and light” interpretation must be looked at carefully. Yet, the aliens somehow convince the experiencer that it is for their good or for the good of the planet or the enhancement of the human race.
Q: (L) The whole point of this article is to say that ETs who abduct people are here to help us evolve and that it is only us, if we have dark and dirty unconscious minds, who perceive them as negative.
A: Wrong, you do not need “help” evolving, nor does anything else.
What does this mean for us in practical terms here on Earth today? It means that alien intelligences throughout history have very possibly controlled and influenced the leaders of our societies to guide us down a particular chosen pathway, chosen by them. They are here; they are playing cat-and-mouse with us to keep us confused and off balance. They are feeding philosophical lies and distortions into our culture to lead as many astray as possible. They control many of the lions of industry, government and culture so that what exists in our world is perverted by a twist, a peculiar upside-down, disjointed, askew perspective governed by deception and falsehood.
We are living in a frightful, topsy-turvy world where everything we instinctively cherish as good, noble, honest and right has been disrupted, soiled, deformed and made ugly. And, more horrible than this, we accept it as normal.
This control system, this infrastructure, is a subtle, goal-seeking phenomenon and it is our purpose here to discover that goal. The Cassiopaeans have given us many clues, but the answers are up to us to figure out. And we are not just interested in finding out the goal, we are interested in finding out our proper response to it.
If what the Cassiopaeans are saying is not true, will we lose anything by entertaining the possibility? Is truth so fragile that it cannot withstand scrutiny? And if what the Cassiopaeans are saying is true, what might we lose if we don’t consider the possibility?
On the one hand, the correspondent quoted at the beginning of this chapter is clearly saying he believes there are dark forces that seek to deceive and bind us. But, would those very dark forces do this by telling us that there are dark forces seeking to deceive and bind us, warning us to check things out ourselves, even them? As noted, that is logically inconsistent.
On the other hand, what must we think about the many forces of light who say there are no dark forces except in our minds, that we create them by believing in them? Which naturally puts the onus for the creation of darkness on humankind. They say that if we cease our participation in the belief of darkness, it will be overcome and made null and void. One New Age writer put it this way: “Evil is energy out of sync with the creator.”
Logic tells us that anything out of sync with the Creator would, of necessity, imply error on the part of the Creator that would lead to the conclusion that the Creator is, itself, limited in omniscience or omnipotence, which then leaves us in an even worse ontological dilemma than before.
This writer goes on to say that evil is:
…energy that was cast off from humankind’s energy when we first learned how to establish ourselves as spiritually apart from the all-life. It is an accidental creation. … The energy of evil … comes from the human race.
Well, heck! Let’s just blame it on Eve, why don’t we?
I repeat: it is logically inconsistent to posit an all-knowing, all-loving omnipotent Creator, and then to suggest either accident or rebellion. But how else can we explain it?
How can we understand the apparent fact that we are in an environment of which seems designed to imprison us; to make us little more than cattle kept in a pen to feed ravening monsters from hyper-dimensional space that we can’t even comprehend, much less resist? If we don’t call it a mistake or a fault or an error, what are we going to do with it?
By seeing it as a mistake, we at least give ourselves the hope of changing it, or believing in some Messiah who has taken the fault away from us, so we don’t have to bear the guilt for the aeons of suffering of humankind that we observe. But that is a costly solution in the long run because it leads to ontological answers which are unbearable. But if we have arrived at the point where we can no longer support the inconsistencies of such a view, we are left with the deeper question of how can we understand the ontological existence of such a state?
In other words, if what we perceive to be darkness and evil or Service-to-Self is not a mistake, is not an error, is not something that can or should be fixed in the realm of creation, then what is it? How can we ontologically justify it? Or, leaving aside justification, how can we just simply understand it?
One thing we note at the beginning here is that the Cassiopaeans have said human beings chose to experience this reality for a reason.
Q: (L) Are human beings entrapped in physical matter?
A: By choice.
Q: (L) Why did they make this choice?
A: To experience physical sensations. It was a group mind decision.
Q: (L) Who was in charge of the group?
A: The group. […] It must also be mentioned here that everything that exists in all realms of the universe can experience existence in one of only two ways. That would be defined as a long wave cycle and a short wave cycle. Going back to your previous question about why humans are “entrapped” in physical existence, which, of course, is voluntary and chosen, this was due to the desire to change from the long wave cycle experience of completely what you would call ethereal or spiritual existence, to the short wave cycle of what you call physical existence. The difference is that a long wave cycle involves only very gradual change in evolution in a cyclical manner. Whereas a short wave cycle involves a duality. […] The necessity to form the short wave cycle was brought about through nature through the natural bounds of the universe when the group mind of souls chose to experience physicality as opposed to a completely ethereal existence. […] The positive byproduct is an increase in relative energy, which speeds up the learning process of the soul and all of its one-dimensional and two-dimensional interactive partners, in other words, flora and fauna, minerals, etc. All experience growth and movement towards reunion at a faster rate on the cycle through this short wave cycle physical/ethereal transfer.
In our overview of the conditions of the reality in which we live, we are forced to think in new ways about purpose. How can it be good to live in such an environment? Sure, it’s fine and dandy to say that “all experience growth … at a faster rate” and all that, but what does that really mean when we are faced with some of the factors we have been discussing in these pages?
And remember, we have not been talking about just channeled material — we have been collecting facts and observations throughout this examination of our reality. And, because of the many letters I receive from readers, I can assure you that it is not just my reality, or even just a minority reality. It’s a fact, and, as don Juan would say, “a damn scary one”!
Many individuals in the present time are convinced that the New Age paradigm is going to unite all of humanity into one big happy family with the amalgamation of the common threads of belief that run through all the great religions. They point to the messages from this or that source that claim this is the great plan put into place by higher beings millennia ago, so that all different types of human beings could grow to maturity, each in their own ideal environment, much as different areas of a garden are more or less suitable for different types of plants.
Very often, such people cite the “great new research” that supports this view, that man is creating a new reality. Paul von Ward writes in The Solarian Legacy:
Patterns are created by consciousness that have the power to shape apparent nothingness into tiny quanta of something. … The use of conscious intent is a more effective route to human participation in a creative life process, including maintaining health, than purely mechanical manipulation. … Modern research evidence has been found to support the conclusions of many cultural traditions that human consciousness communicates with and influences the behavior of other life forms. … Assuming there is an ongoing, reciprocal flow of such behavior-influencing communications among local concentrations of mind (animals, plants, and individual cells), how does the conscious being deliberately intervene in the natural flow to bring about a desired end? The answer — at this point an intuitive one — involves clarity of focus grounded in definite emotions. The process appears to work in a manner analogous to the progression from “gas” through “liquids” to “solids”, i.e., from “amorphous” through “evolving” to “definite”. (von Ward, 2001)
So far, so good, right? We can see (though this is greatly abbreviated) that there seems to be a real principle behind the idea that “you create your own reality”. So, let’s keep going here:
After someone had the first “clear” idea of a candle, it entered the “potential” phase as soon as there was real intent to create. The movement to gather materials placed the pattern in the “becoming” phase. The “actualization” phase of the idea was ignited by fire. The same sequential process applies to all fields of human life: agriculture, food preparation, health, psychokinesis, sports, politics, or economics. The idea of democracy first starts with clarity about a few basic assumptions. Only when a number of individuals attach emotional support to the ideas does democracy have real potential. That emotional energy translated to action results in the practice of democracy. A vision of health must be underpinned by emotional commitment in order for the cells to get the message to do their part and for the individual to eat appropriately. To facilitate the bending of metal through conscious intent, one focuses the idea on the metal, the metal’s atoms become agitated, and when as a result the material softens, only a slight pressure will bend it.
Recognizing the power of this natural process, it is foolish to assume specific limits to creative powers exist in natural law until they have been tested and re-tested. Currently perceived constraints may actually be due to false or limited interpretations of cosmic law. If a clearly focused thought is more than a fleeting mind game, emotionally energized to a level of potential, will it be realized? Or, are there certain thoughts that cannot be actualized in space-time? When we learn the answers to these questions, we will realize our fuller power as cosmic beings. … Given the research highlighted here, and similar work, it is now justifiable for a prudent person to accept that mind does communicate with and influence matter at the subatomic and cellular levels. Through the mechanism of thought, consciousness or mind likely shapes reality in more ways than we can currently conceive. (von Ward, 2001)
Well, Mr. Ward certainly has synopsized the popular view of the “new thought” movement incepted during the nineteenth century. But, he has also pointed out certain problems that most people who hear the basic idea of “you create your own reality” do not notice. They hear an idea, which appeals to their emotions, and don’t pay much attention to the caveats. Mr. von Ward continues:
It is important to remember, however, that human consciousness — individually and collectively — can shape microcosmic reality only within limits, due to certain characteristics of our phenomenal realm. One of these limits appears to be the direction of the stream of arrow of time. … This seems to indicate that we cannot arbitrarily change the nature of a phenomenon while a particular directionality is maintained. To change a vector (velocity combined with magnitude and direction) of anything requires the application of a greater force. … Only a power beyond our universe can mitigate the influence of its inherent arrow of time. (von Ward, 2001)
Hmm. Have we discovered something here? Let’s go back to a clue the Cassiopaeans gave:
The necessity to form the short wave cycle was brought about through nature through the natural bounds of the universe when the group mind of souls chose to experience physicality as opposed to a completely ethereal existence. It was a group mind decision.
Right here we have some clue to the restrictions on “creating your own reality”. If an individual seeks to do so in opposition to the “natural bounds of the universe”, which is a manifestation of the “group mind” decision, they are going to run into some serious problems.
Q: (L) At one point we were told that time was an illusion that came into being at the time of the Fall in Eden, and this was said in such a way that I inferred that there were other illusions put into place at that time.
A: Time is an illusion that works for you because of your altered DNA state.
Q: (L) Okay, what other illusions?
A: Monotheism, the belief in one separate, all-powerful entity.
Q: (T) Is separate the key word in regard to Monotheism?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is another one of the illusions?
A: The need for physical aggrandizement.
Q: (L) What is another of the illusions?
A: Linear focus.
Q: (L) Anything else at this time?
A: Unidimensionality.
Q: (L) The veil… (J) The perception of only one dimension… (L) Were these illusions programmed into us genetically through our DNA?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you tell us a little bit about how these illusions are enforced on us, how they are perceived by us?
A: If someone opens a door, and behind it you see a pot of gold, do you worry whether there is a poisonous snake behind the door hidden from view, before you reach for the pot of gold?
Q: (L) What does the gold represent?
A: Temptation to limitation.
Q: (L) Was limitation presented as a pot of gold when, in fact, it was not?
A: What is snake?
Q: (T) The Lizards?
A: Result of giving into temptation without caution, i.e., leaping before looking.
Q: (L) So what you are saying to us is that the story of the temptation in Eden was the story of Humankind being led into this reality as a result of being tempted. So, the eating of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was…
A: Giving into temptation.
Q: (L) And this was a trick.
A: No! Tricks don’t exist!
Q: (T) Okay, no trick, a trap?
A: No! Traps don’t exist either. Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.
Q: (T) Now wait a minute. I am losing the whole train here. What were we before the Fall?
A: 3rd density STO.
Q: (T) We were third density STO at this time. Was this after the battle that had transpired?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) Okay, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh T, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts!
Q: (T) This must tie into why the Lizards and other aliens keep telling people that they have given their consent for abduction and so forth. We were STO and now we are STS.
A: Yes, continue.
Q: (T) We are working with the analogy. The gold was an illusion. The gold was not what we perceived it to be. It was a temptation…
A: No temptation, it was always there. Remember Dorothy and the Ruby slippers?
Q: (T) Okay, we were STO at that time, before we stepped through. We didn’t have to step through. It’s always there… (J) It’s there now… (T) The Lizards…
A: Yes, think of the Ruby slippers. What did Glenda tell Dorothy???
Q: (L) You have always had the power to go home…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, we always have the power to return to being STO? Even in third density?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) The door has always been there. The temptation has always been there… (J) Is there… (T) Has, is, will be… is always.
A: “When” you went for the gold, you said “Hello” to the Lizards and all that that implies.
Q: (T) So, the concept is that, as STO beings we had the choice of either going for the gold or not. By going for the gold, we became STS beings because going for the gold was STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And, in doing so, we ended up aligning ourselves with the fourth density Lizard beings.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Because they are fourth density beings and they have a lot more abilities than we at third density.
A: You used to be aligned with 4th density STO.
Q: (T) But, by going for the gold we aligned ourselves with fourth density STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And by doing so we gave fourth density STS permission to do whatever they wish with us?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, when they tell us that we gave them permission to abduct us, it is this they are referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (J) Go back to what they said before: “Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.” (T) We, as the human race, used our free will to switch from STO to STS. (L) So, at some level, at some point, we have chosen the mess we are in. We fell by falling into that door, so to speak, going after the pot of gold, and when we fell through the door, the serpent bit us!
A: But this is a repeating syndrome.
Q: (L) Is it a repeating syndrome just for the human race or is it a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation?
A: It is the latter.
Q: (L) Is this a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation simply because it is the cyclic nature of things? Or is it as the Indians call it, Maya?
A: Either or.
So, again we come up against the issue of the constraints against creating our reality. We have chosen the school we wished to enter, and the natural bounds of this school is the STS Control System. As third density beings aligned with Service-to-Self beings, we have chosen these constraints. We agreed to have our free will abridged.
Q: (D) I have a question about… Mankind has found it necessary for some reason or other to appoint time… The only reason I can see is to have a means of telling, like in verbal or written communications.
A: Control mechanism.
Q: (T) Is there a way for us to break the control mechanism? Besides moving to fourth density?
A: Nope.
Now, just exactly what is the “pot of gold” used in the analogy above? What event brought about the Fall from alignment with Service-to-Others to Service-to-Self? Well, the designations STO and STS give us a clue, but there is more. At several points I returned to this issue for clarification, and I hope that my efforts will help to make it clearer for others:
Q: (L) Where did the souls come from that entered into the bodies on the planet earth? Were they in bodies on other planets before they came here?
A: Not this group.
Q: (L) Were they just floating around in the universe somewhere?
A: In union with the One. Have you heard the super ancient legend of Lucifer, the fallen angel?
Q: (L) Who is Lucifer?
A: You. The human race.
Q: (L) Are the souls of individual humans the parts of a larger soul?
A: Yes. Close. The One. All who have fallen must learn “the hard way”. You are members of a fragmented soul unit.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the act of wanting to experience physical reality is the act of falling? What is it about wanting to be physical is a fall?
A: Pleasure for the self.
Q: (L) Prior to the Fall, did the human race live in an Edenic state, where they were able to use bodies and still have a spiritual connection?
A: Yes. But not long. No addiction takes long to close the circle.
Q: (L) So, mankind was addicted to pleasuring the self?
A: Became quickly.
Q: (L) How long from the time of the moving of souls into bodies did the Fall in Eden occur?
A: Not measurable. Remember, Laura, there is no time when this event occurred. Time passage illusion did not exist at that point as well as many other falsehoods.
Q: (L) So you are saying that the Fall in Eden was also the beginning of time?
A: Yes.
So, here we have a little bit of a clue. “Pleasure for the self.” But this remark does not mean that pleasure in and of itself is strictly Service-to-Self. It became clearer with further questions:
Q: (L) Does it hurt a plant when we eat it?
A: Does it hurt you when a “Lizzie” eats you?
Q: (D) If we hurt plants by eating them like the Lizzies hurt us when they eat us, how are we to survive without eating?
A: When you no longer crave physicality, you no longer need to “eat”.
Q: (L) So part of the Fall into the physical existence and part of the Fall from Eden story where it says “you shall eat by the sweat of your brow”, has to do with being physical and needing to eat?
A: Lucifer, “the fallen angel”. This is you.
Q: (L) So, “falling” means going into physical existence wherein you must feed on other life, other beings, is that it?
A: Yes.
Now, we need to remember the story of Lucifer, that he was an angel of great beauty and glory. The Cassiopaeans have suggested that the legend of Orion is closest to the original version of the story.
A: In this part of your 3rd and 4th density universe, specifically your “galaxy” it is the region known as Orion that is the one and only indigenous home of human type beings… reflect on this! Indigenous home base, not sole locator. … Approximately one half is STO and one half is STS. … Pay attention to Orion! This is your ancestral home, and your eventual destination. The name “Orion” is the actual native name, and was brought to earth directly. Study the legend of the “god” of Orion for parallels.
I am not going to delve into a full-scale analysis of the Orion legend here, but I will give the fullest account I have been able to put together so that the reader can play with the concepts as we go along. According to Edith Hamilton, it goes like this:
He was a young man of gigantic stature and great beauty, and a mighty hunter. He fell in love with the daughter of the King of Chios, and for love of her he cleared the island of wild beasts. The spoils of the chase he brought always home to his beloved, whose name is sometimes said to be Aero, sometimes Merope (one of the Pleiades). Her father, Oenopion, agreed to give her to Orion, but he kept putting the marriage off. One day when Orion was drunk he insulted the maiden, and Oenopion appealed to Dionysus to punish him. The god threw him into a deep sleep and Oenopion blinded him. An oracle told him, however, that he would be able to see again if he went to the east and let the rays of the rising sun fall on his eyes. He went as far east as Lemnos and there he recovered his sight. (Emphasis added)
A more complex treatment derived from several ancient sources goes as follows:
The parentage of Orion has been matter of dispute, but some have said that Orion’s father was Hyrieus, son of Poseidon and his mother was Alcyone, one of the Pleiades. It was said that Hyrieus’ father, Poseidon, came to visit him, accompanied by Zeus and Hermes. Hyrieus sacrificed a bull for the occasion. To show honor to Hyrieus for his hospitality, the gods offered Hyrieus a gift of his choosing. Hyrieus was a very rich but childless, so he asked his visitors for a child. The gods urinated in the hide of the sacrificed bull, buried it in the earth and from it Orion was born. In time Orion grew tall as a giant, and he was granted by Poseidon, his grandfather, (or father in some versions) the power of walking on water.
Orion fell in love with Merope, the daughter of King Oenopion of Chios, son of Ariadne and Theseus or Dionysus. But her father disliked the idea and he made Orion drunk, put out his eyes as he slept, and then cast him on the beach. Others have said, however, that Orion came to Chios and, having drunk heavily, raped the girl, this being the reason why he was blinded and expelled from the island. He then came to Lemnos, where Hephaestus gave him his servant Cedalion to serve him as a guide. Orion set him on his shoulders and bade him lead him to the sunrise, and when they arrived Orion was healed by the sun’s rays.
Orion believed himself to be the best of hunters and once said that he was able to kill anything the earth produced. It was then that Gaia (Earth), angered at this boast, sent the Scorpion that killed him. But others have said that Orion was killed by Artemis who was challenged by Apollo to shoot an arrow into a black object in the sea, which she could not see, and that later was discovered to be Orion’s head. How the goddess could commit such a mistake has not been explained. Still others say that Orion was killed for challenging Artemis to a match of quoits, or shot by her for raping Opis, one of the maidens who had come from the Hyperboreans. But others have believed that Orion died because the gods were jealous that Orion was the lover of Eos. For this, they allowed Artemis to kill him.
Odysseus saw Orion when he descended to the Underworld. Apparently, down there he had the same occupation as when he was on Earth: “…I marked huge Orion driving together over the Plain of Asphodel wild beasts which himself had slain on the lonely hills, and in his hands he held a club all of bronze, ever unbroken…” (Odysseus. Homer, Odyssey 11.542)
Yet Orion is considered to be immortal since Artemis, who mourned him, placed him among the stars. To prevent him being alone in the sky, the Dog (Canis Major) was later added to the stars to keep Orion company in his hunting.
The proposed parentage of Orion is as follows:
a) Poseidon & Euryale. Euryale was said to be the daughter of King Minos of Crete.
b) Hyrieus & Clonia. Hyrieus owned a treasure inside a building built by Trophonius and Agamedes, which had a stone that they could take away from the outside, thus robbing him, until one of them was caught in a trap made by Hyrieus. Clonia was one of the NYMPHS.
c) Bull’s hide
d) Gaia (by herself)
It’s easy to see how the legend would be transposed into the Biblical story of Lucifer, and why there would be associations with the Morning Star, or the act of letting the first rays of sunlight, the Goddess Aurora, fall upon his eyes for healing.
But, it is interesting that the same images presented in the allegory given by Jesus about the “strong man” being “bound” or cast into a deep sleep, and “blinded” by demons are also present in the story of Orion. Perhaps it was a deliberate allusion to Orion?
The story of Osiris being tricked into his coffin by Set is another variation of the strong man being bound, though in this case, we have the additional detail of the body being ultimately dismembered which seems to be the allegory of the “fragmented soul unit”. The Egyptians know the constellation of Orion as Osiris, and the dog companion is his sister-wife, Isis.
But, the issue here is: how did Orion take the fall? It is said that he got drunk and insulted or raped the maiden of whom he loved. Afterwards, he was then made drunk or was “put into a deep sleep” during which his eyes were put out. Whatever it was, apparently he was not in full possession of his senses as a hunter when he was put out for the operation.
The story also is reflected in the Biblical legend of Samson and Delilah. Samson was a Nazarite with a vow to never cut his hair. Delilah had him “sleep upon her knees” and while he was sleeping, she called a man to come and “shave off the seven braids of his hair”. And his strength went from him. He was taken and his eyes were put out. The clear connection of this to the Orion legend makes it altogether likely that this is merely the Hebrew variation of a very ancient story! I was curious about this hair business, so I asked:
Q: (L) I have an idea relating to the ancient gods and heroes… They all had these massive amounts of hair, and it seemed that cutting off the hair caused them to lose their strength in some way. Was this totally symbolic, or was it actually believed that they had to grow their hair?
A: Symbolic.
Q: (L) What was the hair symbolic of?
A: Virility.
Samson was deprived of his virility by losing his hair. For all we know, losing one’s hair could be an ancient euphemism for having an orgasm. Maybe in the weakened condition after this petit mort, one is less aware and therefore more susceptible to being put into a sleep or made drunk again? To be drunk, or intoxicated, is to be in a condition where one has lost control over one’s faculties. It is also a term that means overcome by emotion. Do we have another clue here? Well, I asked more questions:
Q: (L) I have this book, Confessions of an Intergalactic Anthropologist, by a woman named Marcia Schafer. One thing she says is: “The snake is associated with the sign of wisdom and higher learning, and is often regarded quite highly in mystical circles.” I would like to have a comment on the idea of the snake as a “sign of wisdom and higher learning”. Does this, in fact, represent what the snake symbolizes?
A: Snake is/was reported in context of the viewpoint of the observer. Maybe the observer was just “blown away” by the experience. If you were living in the desert, or jungle, about 7,000 years ago, as you measure time, would you not be impressed if these Reptoid “dudes” came down from the heavens in silvery objects and demonstrated techno-wonders from thousands of years in the future, and taught you calculus, geometry and astrophysics to boot?!?
Q: (L) Is that, in fact, what happened?
A: Yup.
Q: (L) As I understand it, or as I am trying to figure it out from the literature, prior to the Fall in Eden, mankind lived in a fourth density state. Is that correct?
A: Semi/sort of. 4th density in another realm, such as time/space continuum, etc.
Remember that they have already said we were formerly third density aligned with STO fourth density. This suggests that to be third density STO and in contact with fourth density STO entails significant positive interaction and bleedthrough between the two densities as suggested above. A very different realm indeed!
Q: (L) Could you describe to me the true meaning of the Osirian cycle? What was the symbology of the killing of Osiris and the cutting up of the body?
A: Removal of knowledge centers in your DNA.
Q: (L) So, the breaking up of Osiris’ body represents the breaking up of the DNA in our bodies?
A: Partly. Also means knowledge capacity reduction.
Q: (L) What was the symbology of the throwing of the phallus into the river and its being eaten by three fishes?
A: Sexual violence energy introduction.
Q: (L) What did Isis searching for her lord Osiris symbolize?
A: Separation of female energy from male energy union.
Q: (L) Does this have anything to do with brain activity?
A: Yes. The separating of the hemispheres of the brain.
Q: (L) Was this achieved through DNA modification?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What did the son of Isis, Horus, represent?
A: New reality of limitation.
Q: (L) What is the meaning of Horus avenging himself upon Set, the murderer of his father, Osiris?
A: Beginning of perpetual conflict energy to limit humanity.
Q: (L) Who did Set represent?
A: War.
Q: (L) Okay, so this realm changed, as a part of the cycle; various choices were made: the human race went through the door after the gold, so to speak, and became aligned with the fourth density STS faction after the right-brain/female energy consorted with the wrong side, so to speak. This resulted in a number of effects: the breaking up of the DNA, the burning off of the first ten factors of DNA, the separation of the hemispheres of the brain…
A: Only reason for this: you play in the dirt, you’re gonna get dirty.
Q: (L) What was the motivating factor for playing in the dirt? What essential thing occurred? You said once that it was “desire-based imbalance”. What was it a desire for?
A: Increased physicality.
Q: (L) What was the objective sought for in this desire for increased physicality?
A: Sensate.
Sensate is derived from a Latin word, sentire, which means “to feel”. This suggests not merely physical sensations, but also emotions. The root of the Latin word is, curiously, the Indo-European root, sent, which means, “to cause to go, to find out, to discover”.
Q: (L) How was sensate experienced so that these beings had an idea that they could get more if they increased their physicality?
A: Not experienced, demonstrated.
Q: (L) Demonstrated how, by whom? Demonstrated in what way? Did they say, “Here, try this!” Or did they demonstrate by showing or doing?
A: Closer to the latter. More like: “You could have this.”
Q: (L) What seemed to be so desirable about this increased physicality when they said, “You can have this”?
A: Use your imagination!
Q: (L) Was there any understanding, or realization of any kind that increased physicality could be like Osiris lured into his own coffin by Set? That they would then slam the lid shut and nail him in?
A: Obviously, such understanding was lacking.
Q: (L) Sounds like a pretty naive bunch! Does the lack of this understanding reflect a lack of knowledge?
A: Of course. But more, it is desire getting in the way of…
Here we have another clue to the ways in which we can be manipulated: desire gets in the way of knowledge. But, we will come back to this.
Q: (L) Okay. The Fall occurred. It seems like, and some of the archaeological studies indicate, that for many thousands of years, there was a peaceful existence and a nice agrarian society where the goddess or female creative forces were worshipped. At least, this is what a lot of present-day books are proposing…
A: No. These events took place 309000 years ago, as you measure it. This is when the first prototype of what you call “modern man” was created. The controllers had the bodies ready; they just needed the right soul matrix to agree to “jump in”.
And this brings up a very interesting solution to particular problems in terms of the Reptilians being touted as the bringers of civilization and their association with the Goddess religions, promoted in the present time as being the peaceful partnership way of agricultural paradise. Apparently, that was not exactly the case.
If we remember the story of Cain and Abel, we find the original conflict between the shepherd and the agriculturist. Cain and Abel, being the two sons of Adam and Eve who have been cast out of Eden, merely symbolize the two main forms that the control system took in order to perpetuate conflict. Both ways contain within them implicit ownership of something, either cattle or land, and both suggest the use and manipulation of the earth for their own benefit, and to the detriment of the Great Mother. The only reason Abel was glorified by the Hebrews was because it was their way of life. But that leads to another whole line of investigation, so we will leave it for now.
Q: (L) So, prior to this time, this prior Edenic state…
A: Was more like 4th density.
Q: (L) But that implies that there was some level of physicality. Was there physicality in the sense of bodies that look like present-day humans?
A: Not quite.
Q: (L) Does this mean that the bodies we possibly would metamorphose into as fourth density beings, assuming that one does, would also be too complex for us to understand? You are saying that this sort of fourth density pre-Fall state, or third density aligned with fourth density STO, in terms of the physical bodies, is too complex to understand. If going back to fourth density is anything like coming from fourth density, does that mean that what we would go back to is something that is still too complex to understand? This variability of physicality that you have described?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, was there any kind of worship of God, or religious activity in this pre-Fall state — this Edenic, semi-fourth density state?
A: No need when one has a clue.
Q: (L) What I am trying to get at here, what I am trying to understand, is the transition from the goddess worship to the god worship; the change from the understanding of cyclical time as expressed in the feminine cycles, and as expressed as the goddess; to the concept of linear time, expressed as the masculine principle.
It seems to me that these were stages of inversion of concepts which gradually led to the ideas that have been imposed on us, and it seems that bringing these ideas to fruition is a project fourth density STS beings have been working toward for millennia — the dominator experience which expresses as: “Believe in something outside yourself that will save you, otherwise you are damned because the world is going to end, and you are going to get judged.” That is the whole monotheistic concept I am trying to deal with here.
Okay, we had these guys; they fell from Eden, but they were still fairly close to the original concepts, in some terms. Once they jumped into the physical bodies, as you put it, what was their level of conceptualization regarding the universe? Did they still retain some understanding at that point?
A: Kind of like the understanding one has after severe head trauma, vis a vis your normal understanding in your current state.
Q: (L) So, they were traumatized; they may have had bits and pieces of ideas and memories, but they may also have lost a great deal altogether. They may have had big gaps. There may have even been a sort of “coma” state of mankind for many millennia. But, after they woke up, with the bits and pieces floating around in their heads, they may have begun to attempt to piece it all together. So, they started putting it all back together. What was the first thing they put together regarding the cosmos around them?
A: Sex.
Q: (L) What did they decide about sex? I mean, sex was there. They were having sex. Is that it? Or, did they understand the cosmos as sex?
A: More like the former. After all, that is what got you guys in this mess in the first place! Just imagine the sales job if you can: “Look how much fun this is! Want to try it?!? Oops, sorry, we forgot to tell you, you cannot go back!”
Q: (L) I really fail to understand — and I know it is a big issue that has been hinted at and alluded to, and outright claims have been made regarding sex in all religions and mythologies — but I fail to understand the mechanics of how this can be the engineering of a fall. What, precisely, are the mechanics of it? What energy is generated? How is it generated? What is the conceptualization of the misuse of this energy, or the use of the energy?
A: It is simply the introduction of the concept of self-gratification of a physical sort.
Q: (L) On many occasions you have said that the ideal thing is to have perfect balance of physicality and spirituality. Now, I don’t understand how it can be that gratification of a physical body can be the mechanics by which one is entrapped. Is it not gratifying to look at something beautiful? Is it wrong, sinful, or a form of a fall, to look at beauty, to hear something beautiful such as music, or to touch something that is sensually delightful such as a piece of silk or the skin of a loved one? These various things that the human being derives pleasure from very often elevate them to a spiritual state.
A: Possession is the key. In STS, you possess. If you move through the beautiful flowers, the silk, the skin of another, but do not seek to possess…
Q: (L) It seems to me that it is possible to experience all of these things, including sex, without the need or desire to possess, only to give. In which case, I still don’t understand how it can be a mechanism for a fall.
A: If it is desired, then the mechanism is not to give. Do you eat a piece of chocolate cake because it is good to give to the stomach? In STS, which is your realm do not forget, one gives because of the pleasant sensation which results.
Q: (L) Could it not be said that, if everything that exists is part of God, including the flesh, that if one gives to the flesh, without being attached to the giving, that it could be considered a giving to the all?
A: Explain the process.
Q: (L) For example: at one extreme there are some people who like to suffer, because they believe that the flesh is sinful. For centuries the monotheistic religions have made this big deal about sex and anything that might be considered pleasant or desirable, that it should be denied, and that a person should suffer, and revel in their suffering.
A: If one seeks to suffer, they do so in expectation of future reward. They desire to possess something in the end.
Q: (L) What I am saying is: if a person can avoid self aggrandizement in either direction, and to simply be, in the doing and being of who and what they are, in simplicity; to become involved in doing everything as a meditation, or as a consecration, whether they are walking down the street and being at one with the air, the sunshine, the birds and trees and other people; in this state of oneness, doesn’t that constitute a giving to the universe as giving oneself up as a channel for the universe to experience all these things?
A: Not if one is “feeling this oneness” rather than being it.
Q: (L) Well, if people would just relax and be who and what they are in honesty, and do what is according to their nature without violating the free will of others, is this a more pure form of being than doing things out of any feeling of expectation, or desire; to just be, not want… just be?
A: Yes, but STS does not do that.
So, we see that the issue is not sex per se, or really anything in specific about the third density environment so much as it is a certain generation of emotion via physical processes that have to do specifically with possession. What is it about desire to possess that brought about a Fall?
Well, let’s just have a look at some other ideas here:
Q: (L) What was the Fruit of the tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil that was supposedly eaten by Eve and then offered to Adam?
A: Knowledge restriction. Encoding. Eve is symbolic of Female energy.
Q: (L) What did it mean when it said Eve, or the female energy, ate of the fruit of the tree of knowledge. What act was this?
A: Consorted with wrong side.
Q: (L) What does consorted mean?
A: Lost some knowledge and power. Limitation. Conceptually limited.
Q: (L) I want you to know that this does not make a whole lot of sense.
A: Yes it does. Think carefully. Laura you are missing the obvious.
Q: (L) In what sense would the fruit of the tree of life be limiting?
A: Believing that one source contains all knowledge is contradicting reality.
Q: (F) If the concept was the eating of the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge provides all knowledge, then one is being deceived, because no one particular source can provide all knowledge. Therefore, when one believes in the deception, one has now trapped oneself within parameters. And, forevermore, the human race, will be poisoned by the very same problem which is reflected in several different ways: one is always seeking the truth through one pathway instead of seeking it through a myriad of pathways; and also believing in simplistic answers to very complex issues and questions.
Q: (L) Where was Eden?
A: Earth.
Q: (L) The entire Earth was Eden?
A: Yes.
Now, we are getting somewhere. “Believing that one source contains all knowledge is contradicting reality.” It is “conceptually limited”.
Over the years, many scientists have studied the effects of head and brain injuries. These studies were aimed at understanding the physiological and psychological effects and used a number of experiments to map the brain. The results have led to theories about two different modes of thinking or styles of thought, which are generally attributed to the left and right hemispheres of the brain.
In general, the left side of the brain controls the right side of the body, and the right side of the brain controls the left side of the body. According to the test results and the developing theory, the right brain is most often associated with direct sensual experience of the five sense organs as well as the sixth sense of intuitive thinking. Feelings are also associated with this side of the brain, and these feelings are often observed to be the result of the person’s sensation of the environment. This sensation of the environment can be the external world or the internal state of being. Also, we must note that the right brain, as the observer of the external and internal environment, only perceives now.
The left brain is associated with the process of conceptualization and imagination in its many forms, including the powers of symbolic imagination and those functions related to the symbols we know as language such as labeling, categorizing, following verbal rules and rules in general. The left hemisphere mode of operation is much like a computer screen on which the whole range of concepts of the mind are portrayed and manipulated in the mind’s eye. One of the main concepts we utilize is time as in time-future and time-past. Have a look at the chart below to see how the different hemispheres seem to operate.
Left Hemisphere Consciousness |
Right Hemisphere Consciousness |
| Conceptualization, imagination, dogma, time-future, time-past. | Sensing, perceiving directly via observation, empiricism, now (no time). |
| Theoretical imagination. | Physical connection. |
| Linear logic. | Nonlinear logic. |
| Ritual, habit, fixed roles, repetition, fixation. | Creativity, spontaneity. |
| Morality, judgment. | Compassion, acceptance. |
| Superstition derived from imagination; often misuses limited direct observation and experience. | Science based on collecting of data, direct observation; can create theories with proper use of theoretical imagination. |
| Asceticism, sense deprivation. | Celebration. |
| Theology: Confucianism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Greco-Roman Religion, Judaism, Christianity, Islam. | Mysticism: Taoism, Tantrism, Yoga, the “Mystery Traditions,” Gnosticism, Alchemy. |
Now, this is enormously important to grasp: religions, philosophies, beliefs in general, through which we view the world and by which we interact with the world also fall to one hemisphere or the other in terms of how they activate our consciousness. There are teachings that place emphasis on the sensual right brain, and there are teachings that place emphasis on the abstract, imaginative left brain. Belief systems organically reflect one or the other of the two kinds of human consciousness.
The sense-oriented traditions encourage direct interaction with the physical environment. This has been often corrupted to gala sensuality of physical pleasure. Nevertheless, the pure mystical traditions tend to identify spirituality with the Cosmos itself and urges its followers to seek their unity with God through the physical world.
On the other hand, concept bound theologies tend to forbid sensual experience and observation, relying instead on imagination to support certain beliefs. In this mode, spirituality is equated with conceptual constructs, images, symbols and words that must be pictured in the mind’s eye, or upheld in an abstract thought of imaginary belief so that the person is effectively attempting to impose an imaginary construct on reality rather than observing reality and allowing the observations to form the abstraction.
This is why the central issue in Christianity, to use just one example, is whether or not one believes in Jesus Christ. What one is being asked to do is to imaginatively support the church’s conception of Jesus: that he was the son of God, that he died for remission of sins, and so on.
Each theological construct has its own cast of characters and its own plot, and each one demands that the followers believe in these imaginations. But the point is: the various symbols themselves are less important than the fact that the common act of conceptualizing, or imagining and making real that is central to theologies, is the left hemisphere mode of thought.
Left hemisphere thought also tends to assign religious authority to different writings or permanent scriptures and words. It also has a hierarchy of clergymen and priests who are designated to administer or interpret those words.
The left hemisphere mode of consciousness is opposed to direct observation, scientific progress, and discovery. It focuses on ritual repetition of established ideas and traditions. The words of the scriptures and the traditions of the interpreters of these words are given more authority than the natural world itself. The Cassiopaeans have often commented on ritual.
Q: (L) What ritual do you want us to do?
A: None.
Q: (L) Does ritual enhance or prevent communication?
A: They constrict energy flow.
Q: (L) Are there any rituals that can be performed to provide protection for one against intrusion by the Lizzies?
A: Rituals are self-defeating. Ritual drains directly to Lizard beings. Why do you think organized religion is obsessed with rituals?
Pure universal knowledge includes everything, and if you establish a ritual, that means you are adhering to one line of thought, one mode of thinking, one idea structure, and excluding all others. As noted, mystic traditions identify spirit with the Cosmos itself. They have no sacred traditions or priesthood. The authority to discover God is suggested to be within the power of each individual and they are encouraged to make direct and personal observations.
Q: (L) Are there any technological means we can use [for protection]?
A: The only defense needed is knowledge. Knowledge defends you against every possible form of harm in existence. The more knowledge you have, the less fear you have, the less pain you have, the less stress you feel, the less anguish you feel, and the less danger you experience of any form or sort. Think of this very carefully now for this is very important: Where is there any limitation in the concept behind the word “knowledge”? Being that there is no limitation, what is the value of that word? Infinite. Can you conceive of how that one concept, that one meaning frees you from all limitation? Use your sixth sense to conceive of how the word, the term, the meaning of knowledge can provide with all that you could possibly ever need. If you think carefully you will begin to see glimpses of how this is true in its greatest possible form.
Q: (L) Does this include knowledge learned from books?
A: This includes all possible meanings of the concept of the word. Can you think of how it would be that simply with one term, this one word could carry so much meaning? … You can have glimpses of illumination and illumination comes from knowledge.
If you strive perpetually to gain and gather knowledge, you provide yourself with protection from every possible negative occurrence that could ever happen. Do you know why this is? The more knowledge you have, the more awareness you have as to how to protect yourself. Eventually this awareness becomes so powerful and so all encompassing that you do not even have to perform tasks or rituals, if you prefer, to protect yourself. The protection simply comes naturally with the awareness.
Knowledge has all substance. It goes to the core of all existence. […] It includes adding everything to one’s being that is desirable. And also, when you keep invoking the light, as you do, truly understand that the light is knowledge. That is the knowledge which is at the core of all existence. And being at the core of all existence it provides protection from every form of negativity in existence. Light is everything and everything is knowledge and knowledge is everything.
…If you simply have faith, no knowledge that you could possibly acquire could possibly be false because there is no such thing. Anyone or anything that tries to give you false knowledge, false information, will fail. The very material substance that the knowledge takes on, since it is at the root of all existence, will protect you from absorption of false information that is not knowledge. There is no need to fear the absorption of false information when you are simply openly seeking to acquire knowledge. And knowledge forms the protection — all the protection you could ever need.
Q: (L) There are an awful lot of people who are being open and trusting and having faith that are getting zapped and knocked on their rears.
A: No. That is simply your perception. What you are failing to perceive is that these people are not really gathering knowledge. These people are stuck at some point in their pathway to progress and they are undergoing a hidden manifestation of what is referred to in your terms as obsession. Obsession is not knowledge; obsession is stagnation. So, when one becomes obsessed, one actually closes off the absorption and the growth and the progress of soul development which comes with the gaining of true knowledge. For when one becomes obsessed one deteriorates the protection, therefore one is open to problems, to tragedies, to all sorts of difficulties. Therefore one experiences same.
This is why all major scientific progress has been associated with mysticism. What we call modern science was derived directly from the alchemists of the European Renaissance, such as Newton and Paracelsus who were part of the historical attitude of empirical scientific inquiry fostered by the earlier mystical traditions. Mircea Eliade writes:
Everywhere we find alchemy, it is always intimately related to a “mystical” tradition: in China with Taoism, in India with Yoga and Tantrism, in Hellenicism, and Gnosis in Egypt, in Islamic countries with hermetic and esoteric mystical schools, in the Western Middle Ages and Renaissance with Hermeticism, Christian and sectarian mysticism, and Cabala. (Eliade, 1978)
It is not just science that is the child of mysticism, but creativity in general:
The great periods of art and culture are always connected with an erotic-mystical revival. (Daniélou, 1992)
So how are we to interpret this seeming contradiction that a sensual experience led to the Fall, and yet the right hemisphere, which relates to sensual experience, seems to be the mode of consciousness that is concerned with gathering knowledge and seeing things as they are? How do we interpret the fact that the left hemisphere—patriarchal—dominator theologies point to this sexual fault repeatedly, which the Cassiopaeans have also confirmed, and then the Cassiopaeans then go on to say that this fault was the actual door for the imposition of the monotheistic left brain domination?
I think that we may find some clues in the comparison of the legend of Orion to the stories of King Arthur and the Quest for the Holy Grail. What does Orion have to do with the Grail Quest? A great deal, I think. The similarities between the stories of Orion and Arthur, in essential terms, are many.
The Arthur of the Grail Quest is not, in a certain sense, a real flesh and blood man, but an archetypal complex of images. Arthur is other and more than the sum of his appearances in literature, and he is present in myths, stories and images that have no direct mention of him.
Arthur is present in the myths of all the sacrificial kings, dying saviors, and heroic slayers of dragons from time immemorial. His story grows with every episode we study, and after a time, we realize that Arthur himself is only a clue. He is a clue to the mythology of Fall and Redemption: The Once and Future King. He is the symbol of the lost Eden and his story has branches that reach out to embrace all the ideas of cyclical changes and power over the environment.
The Myth of the Golden Age: a period when the pole was oriented differently; when the seasons were different; the year was different — a primordial paradise where time had no meaning. Joscelyn Godwin writes:
The memory or imagination of a Golden Age seems to be a particularity of the cultures that cover the area from India to Northern Europe. In the Americas, the most fully developed mythologies of history were those of the Mayas and Aztecs, for whom there was no past era unclouded by the threat of cyclical destruction by fire of flood. Nor does the philosophy of Buddhism have any place for nostalgia, although in practice it absorbed the idea of declining ages from its Indian surroundings. But in the ancient Middle East there is an obvious relic of the Golden Age in Genesis, as the Garden of Eden where humanity walked with the gods before the Fall. The Egyptians spoke of past epochs ruled by god-kings. Babylonian mythology, as reported by Berosus, had a scheme of three ages, each lasting while the vernal equinox precessed through four signs of the zodiac; the first of these, under the dominion of Anu, was a Golden Age, ended by the Flood. The Iranian Avesta texts tell of the thousand-year Golden Reign of Yima, the first man and the first king, under whose rule cold and heat, old age, death and sickness were unknown.
The most fully developed theory of this kind, and probably the oldest one, is the Hindu doctrine of the Four Yugas. A modern scholar describes the first of these ages:
“In the first Krita Yuga, after the creation of the earth, Brahman created a thousand pairs of twins from his mouth, breast, thighs, and feet, respectively. They lived without houses; all desires that they conceived were directly fulfilled; and the earth produced of itself delicious food for them, since animals and plants were not yet in existence. Each pair of twins brought forth at the end of their life a pair exactly like them. As everybody did his duty and nothing else, there was no distinction between good and bad acts.
“After the Krita or Satya Yuga, things get progressively worse: each successive yuga sees the human race falling into increasing unhappiness and evil, until at the end of the Kali Yuga, the world is set on fire, deluged with water, and then reborn.” (Godwin, 1996)
In order to see the relation of Arthur to Orion, and their respective quests, we need to understand at the outset that stories can be translated both linguistically and culturally to provide meaning to their new owners. There is a story found in the History of Herodotus, which is an exact copy of an original tale of Indian origin except for the fact that in the original it was an animal fable and in Herodotus’ version all the characters had become human. In every other detail, the stories are identical. As R. E. Meagher, professor of humanities and translator of Greek classics remarks: “Clearly, if characters change species, they may change their names and practically anything else about themselves.”
The truth of the Holy Grail, the quest of the Arthurian knights, the finding of which would restore Arthur to the throne is the same as Orion’s quest for the cure for his blindness. Arthur represents something other than just a British Dux Bellorum; he represents a long ago Golden Age, a time of social harmony and wise government, a time of ethics and morality, a time of the way of former kings. The theme of the lost Golden Age is so potent that when Geoffrey made Arthur a sort of Messiah, combining Welsh myth and tradition with genuine history, he touched something so deep in the human psyche that the Medieval Soul took flight in hopes of the restoration of the Kingdom on Earth which could only be restored by the discovery of the Grail.
The story of the Grail is the story of the creative potential of the human race in very real, though esoteric terms — the power to re-create the Golden Age — a pathway to knowledge of an ancient technology that gave rise to the great megalithic monuments for which no rational explanation exists — a power that has been hidden from us for ages past.
In discovering the true Grail we may also find the source of the Control System that has operated on our planet for the past many thousands of years, keeping humankind in bondage to time, history, misery, decay and suffering.
We note above that the left brain rules by conceptualization, imagination, and dogma. We then note that the right brain rules by sensing, perceiving directly via observation.
When the story says that Orion raped his love, the meaning is clear: the left-brain took over the function of the right brain, which was the direct conduit to universal powers of creation within the individual. Eve consorted with the wrong side.
In the prologue to Chrétien de Troyes’ romance on Perceval, Le Conte du Graal, we are informed that there was once a paradise on Earth. There were two aspects of reality: an inner and an outer nature. Events took place not only in a real location in the material world; they also simultaneously had an existence at another level of being, a realm of archetypes. The everyday world and the twin otherworld were twin universes running parallel to one another.
In this paradise, maidens lived by sacred grottos, wells and springs. It was at these points that the two worlds were believed to meet, overlap, or bridge; that one could cross over to the other side. This is a symbol of the feminine potential, or the functions of the right hemisphere of the brain.
The Maidens of the Sacred Wells would feed wanderers and travelers from golden bowls and cups. This symbolized the creative potential of the right hemisphere, and that it was through this wellspring of creativity that one could literally create reality and all that was needed — plenitude, abundance.
The maidens served all wayfarers and the realm was at peace and fertile until one day an evil king, Amangons, ravished one of the maidens, held her in captivity and stole her sacred bowl. Amangons’ followers took example from their king and began finding and raping the well maidens. Soon, there were no maidens serving at the wells. From that time onward, earth was the wasteland. The wells and waters dried up and the land became infertile. The barren wasteland was the condition of the loss of contact with the otherworld.
Now, this happened so long ago that we can only put together what it must have been like by comparing it to other mind rapes of more recent historical times. Regina Schwartz writes in The Curse of Cain about the relationship between monotheism and violence, positing that monotheism itself is the root of violence. In her chapter on covenants, she states that collective identity, which is a result of a monotheistic covenant explicitly narrated in the Bible, is:
…An invention, a radical break with nature and with the past. A transcendent deity breaks into history with the demand that the people he constitutes obey the law he institutes, and first and foremost among those laws is the requirement that they pledge allegiance to him, and him alone. (Schwartz, 1997, p. 18)
This is what makes them a unified people as opposed to the “other” (as in all other people), which leads to violence. For the sake of these covenants, “in the “Old Testament,” vast numbers of [the “other”] are obliterated, while in the “New Testament,” vast numbers are colonized (converted)” (Schwartz, 1997, p. 19).
She also talks about the idea of the provisional nature of a covenant, and that this means that it is conditional. “Believe in me and obey me or else I will destroy you.” That’s all fine and good, and the chief thing that occurs to me is that this belief business in religions or whatever constitutes a sort of permission, if you will, to take the vengeful action if the agreement is broken. The Hebrew phrase for “he made a covenant”, is karat berit, or literally, he cut a covenant. In the covenant with Abraham in Genesis, animals are cut in two and a fire passes between them in a mysterious ritual. Then, there is the cutting of the flesh at circumcision, and the Sinai covenant where the laws were cut into stone. So, these covenants are apparently what constituted Israel as a nation. The entire foundational frame of Israel, which is the basis of Christianity, is framed by the severed pieces of animals, it seems.
In ancient Near Eastern rituals, the cut made to the animal is symbolically made to the inferior who enters into the covenant with a superior. (Schwartz, 1997, p. 22)
At the making of the Covenant at Mt. Sinai, there were a bunch of sacrificed animals. Moses took the blood and, dividing it in half, he cast one half on the altar. Taking the book of the covenant, he read it to the people, and they said, “We will observe all that Yahweh has decreed. We will obey”. And then Moses took the blood and cast it on the people saying, “This is the blood of the covenant that Yahweh has made with you containing all these rules”.
We are … heirs of a long tradition in which monotheism is regarded as the great achievement of “Judeo-Christian” thought… [M]onotheism is entangled with particularism, with the assertion that this God, and not any other gods must be worshipped, a particularism so virulent that it reduces all other gods to idols and so violent that it reduces all other worshippers to abominations. … The danger of a universal monotheism is asserting that its truth is the Truth, its system of knowledge the System of knowledge, its ethics the Ethics — not because … any other option must be rejected, but because there simply is no other option. …[They] presuppose a kind of metaphysical scarcity… a hoarding belief, hoarding allegiance, and even hoarding identity. Because there is a finite supply — of whatever — it must be either contained in whole or protected as a part. … [It] suggests limit and boundaries. (Schwartz, 1997, p. 33)
What they are doing is developing mental boundaries. They are creating an image of the world in the left hemisphere mode of thinking. It is fixed, limited, and most of all, prevents discovery, change and spiritual evolution. Worse than that, it blocks creativity in a cosmic sense; it is the desire to possess knowledge in a limited form; to own what cannot be owned and place limits on something that is in reality infinite.
The Christian church is the triumph of monotheism/left-brain domination. At that point in time, there were still adherents of the true mystical tradition, and it is very likely that Jesus was an initiate of the Grail and the only hints we can find to his true work are in the Gnostic writings and sects that continued to exist. At the very heart of Gnosticism lies an essentially feminine right brain view of the cosmos and this was the inspiration of the Cathars and alchemists.
The patriarchal priests of Rome, probably as agents of the Control System at fourth density, unleashed a horrendous persecution of the Gnostics and Cathars and any others that did not adhere to their dogma. It has been estimated that the cost of bringing Europe under the domination of Christianity was about ten million innocent lives.
By their fruits, you shall know them.
The Grail Hero, who can be anyone, is one who must discover the meeting place between the worlds where he can reestablish the links between feminine creative sovereignty and the kingship of the material realm. The loss of communion between the divine feminine rulership of the inner land and the rightful kingship of the outer realm is what we are concerned with here. The right brain rules the land or the material reality only by right of his true union with the feminine principle and championship of her freedom.
Springs and wells are symbols of the most powerful outward expression of life-giving abundance. Finding the Grail is the reestablishing of this creative power. In the Grail stories, we find that our hero, Parzival, has to go through three stages on his quest. The first is innocent and unquestioning acceptance of what others tell him. This is a state of unconsciousness of actions. The second is doubt. Parzival rebels against all he has been told because he has seen that it only causes him more trouble. The third stage is when he begins to believe in nothing but the love of a woman. This only means that he finally sees that what is natural and real is more trustworthy than a God who is an unreal, supernatural construct of the left brain. And it is at this point that magic begins to happen.
Central to the Grail legend is that renewal must be preceded by a ceremonial cleansing, a purging, rather than just a purification. There must be a radical departure from what was past. The old world dies in order for the new one to be born. The principle is “The King is dead, long live the King”.
The essential theme of the Grail, repeated in all the Celtic accounts, is that of a union of the two principles of the Goddess and the Hero King. This is the foundational condition of paradise.
But man wishes to create paradise to his own specifications which contains all the desirable elements and none of the undesirable. Yet, every time Parzival lets the reins of his horse loose and relaxes into the saddle, accepting that wherever he goes is fine, it turns out for the best. But, the moment he tries to take control and “change things”, to impose his “superior vision” upon the natural order, he promptly becomes lost in the Wasteland.
When we come to the Lovers in the Tarot, the whole underlying message of the Gnostics, the Cathars, and the Grail finally fits into place. The Lovers is the card of balance and harmony and wholeness reflected in its twin card: Temperance.
And the path to the Light in the little landscape at the bottom left of the card lies between the two peaks — Perce a Val. Parzival has remained loyal to his true love, true to the quest to find something bigger than himself and to find his way out of the habits of being unable to truly see our true predicament in life. He has trusted in the natural order of things and has learned to observe and think for himself. He has stopped dividing life into Black and White and trying to change one to the other and he has learned to accept life as a seamless whole of nature including himself as both a spiritual being and a man of flesh with a family.
The new metaphysical age in the West has become a supermarket place for spiritual wares. All seekers are desperately trying to transform themselves. Every guru, therapist and preacher tells us that with only a little more effort, sending a little more love and light, we can attain whatever particular goal we desire, be it Moksha, Liberation, return to God, Higher Consciousness, Psychic Enhancement, or Enlightenment. (Godwin, 1994)
What is wrong with efforts to send love and light, the achieving of the goals of world peace or personal prosperity? What is wrong with wanting a return to God, or higher consciousness or any of the touted experiences that are guaranteed to initiate a person to whatever they desire? The problem is anticipation. When you seek any of these things by holding the thoughts in the left-brain in anticipation of making it real, you are raping the maiden of the well.
What if you are just trying to believe it is now? Belief is a function of the left brain; it blocks the manifestation of creativity because the creative right brain is also the empirical half of the brain that observes the dichotomy between the belief and the reality.
Desire is anticipation. Anticipation is read by the right brain as in the future, therefore not right now, and the right brain can only create now. When we desire, we have a future object in mind. The right brain only knows now.
If we desire to love God, we have a concept (left brain) of the future goal of loving God. It can’t exist now. Therefore we experience struggle to constantly love God, against the ongoing now of not loving God.
If we desire to win the lottery, and produce in the left brain future image of money flowing into our life, it isn’t now. So now continues moneyless.
If we desire happiness, and create the concept in the left brain, we have future happiness in mind. And the right brain reads it as unhappiness now, and this can manifest in thousands of unhappy experiences.
By the same token, if we send love and light to any directed recipient, we are holding a concept of future fixing that signals a state of brokenness now to our right brain, and the repercussions are felt in our life. In a larger sense, we may be signaling the collective right brain that a future state of peace is desired, and therefore, now is not peaceful. And so the right brain creates now. The perception of linear time constantly projects rewards into the future, blocking access to the present, like a donkey chasing a carrot for all eternity.
Q: (L) If someone wanted to win the lottery, for example, what would be the correct approach? What should they do, or be, or think, or say?
A: Completely pure intent, i.e., open. Nonanticipatory.
Q: (L) Anticipation constricts the channels of creativity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) A person has to be completely uncaring whether they get it or not, so to speak?
A: Happy-go-lucky attitude helps.
Q: (L) So, worry, tension, anticipation, and attachment to the idea, we constricts the flow?
A: Yes.
But you noticed, I hope, that intent is not considered to be anticipation or desire. The words themselves may provide a clue.
Anticipate: ante — before + capare — to take. To look forward to; to expect; to make happen earlier, precipitate; to foresee and perform in advance, etc.
We see clearly the connection between anticipation and time.
Intent: firmly directed or fixed; having the mind or attention firmly directed or fixed; engrossed; strongly resolved; a purpose or objective; will and determination at the time of performing an act.
Do we see a subtle difference? Even if it is somewhat semantically, it is sufficient to make us think about how to deal with our creative potential.
Of course, we see that completely pure intent is a pretty tall order. Thus we see that the key becomes acting now with intent, but no imaginary anticipation for the future. A goal, with applied will of action, which necessitates left brain conscious preparing and planning, via the heightened awareness of the right brain, which deals directly with the present conditions, will result in an opening of life changing creative potential.
Q: (L) Okay, we’ve been talking earlier this evening about intent, and of course, our own experiences with intent have really been pretty phenomenal. We’ve come to some kind of an idea that intent, when confirmed repeatedly, actually builds force. Is this a correct concept, and is there anything that you can add to it?
A: Only until anticipation muddies the picture… tricky one, huh?
Q: (L) Is anticipation the act of assuming you know how something is going to happen?
A: Follows realization, generally, and unfortunately for you, on 3rd density. You see, once anticipation enters the picture, the intent can no longer be STO.
Q: (L) Anticipation is desire for something for self. Is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, so it’s okay to intend something, or to think in an intentional way, or to hope in an intentional way, for something that is to serve another…
A: And that brings realization. But, realization creates anticipation.
Q: (L) Well, how do we navigate this razor? I mean, this is like walking on a razor’s edge. To control your mind to not anticipate, and yet, deal with realization, and yet, still maintain hope…
A: Mental exercises of denial, balanced with pure faith of a nonprejudicial kind.
Q: (L) Okay, so, in other words, to just accept what is at the moment, appreciate it as it is at the moment, and have faith that the universe and things will happen the way they are supposed to happen, without placing any expectation on how that will be, and keep on working?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) We have discussed a lot of concepts about shaping the future. In our discussions, we have hypothesized that it is something like an intentional act of shaping something good, but without defining the moment of measurement. In other words, adding energy to it by intent, but not deciding where, when or how the moment of measurement occurs. Like a quantum jump: you know it is statistically likely, but not definite, so you cannot expect it, but you observe so that you can notice when it occurs on it’s own, and in it’s own way.
A: Yes. Avoiding anticipation. That is the key to shaping the future… When it hits you, it stops.
Q: (L) When what hits you? The fact that it’s happening? That you are doing it?
A: Yes unless you cancel out all anticipation.
Q: (L) Well, this is very tricky.
A: Ah? We have doubts… And yes, you create your own reality!
Q: (L) Well, but you have also said that anticipation messes things up, and so I don’t want to have any anticipation.
A: Anticipation is not creating one’s own reality.
If non-anticipation opens the door to the creativity of the universe, what closes the door to negative occurrences? Can it be that we have a clue here as well?
Cassiopaeans: “Just remember that anticipation is the “mother of preparation”, and defense.
Lesson number 1: always expect attack.
Lesson number 2: know the modes of same.
Lesson number 3: know how to counteract same.
When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems…
But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off”, thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. Knowledge protects.”
So, it seems that the answer to this part of the problem is that when we are connected to the Cosmos via the right brain, and are not blocking the ability of our Cosmic Connection by limiting the forces with boundary forming imagination or images or illusory concepts, we allow the perfect manifestation of our own frequency resonance to occur. By the same token, when necessary, we can close the door to manipulation of our minds by constantly running a sort of computer scan of possible breaches of our security system in the left brain. We must marry the left brain kingship of the material world to the right brain queen of the inner realm.
Yet, it was only when Parzival rejected all of the advice, the exhortations, when he quit seeking to be a great knight on a sacred quest to save the world; only when he rejected God as the pure and good all-father that … it found him.
What is the wasteland? That we cannot accept the world and all within it, including ourselves, as being perfectly natural and perfect just the way it is — with all the good and evil it contains as part of the natural and necessary balance — the whole of existence is natural and as it should be at every moment. When you accept that all is perfect, when you cease holding God hostage by usurping the power of the right brain feminine principle with the images in your left brain, then the world will be perfect and fertile and you will heal the wound of the wasteland in your own heart.
If only we can act spontaneously, without being programmed into someone else’s belief system, we can ask the real question of ourselves; ask with no preconceived notion of what the answer will be; ask with no anticipation.
Then, miraculously, for one moment the vessel of the Grail is empty… and in the next it is filled with the wonder and glory of all and everything.
The Spirit of the Valley never dies. It is called the Mystic Female. The Door of the Mystic Female is the root of Heaven and Earth. (Lao Tzu)
And the Mystic Female is the infinite Sea of potential. It is God in the not aspect that only can be when expectations, anticipations, assumptions and obsessions are completely left at the door.
Negative existence is the silence behind the sound, the blank canvas beneath the painting, the darkness into which light shines. Emptiness is the stillness against which time moves. Negative existence enables a man to be what he is. It is the mirror of mirrors. Non-anticipation is noninterference, and allows the most perfect reflection of creation. (Lao Tzu)
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The Third Man Theme
Now, I want to make some little observations and conjectures. Most of the creation myths speak about some sort of ritual fault that occurred to bring about humankind’s Fall from Grace. These myths mostly attribute this fault to something having to do with sex. We have already talked about the symbology of this in relation to the hemispheres of the brain, but we still have to deal with the out and out sex issue! When it is talked about, it’s always rather vague and mysterious and has seldom made much sense, so I am going to try to sort it out here.
In addition to the Fall from the Edenic state, there is also the Flood of Noah and the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah, which is blamed on sexual excess. In the Sumerian myths, it is said that humans copulating all over the place kept the gods awake and they could get no rest, so they resolved to destroy the whole kit and caboodle.
Putting this ancient mythology together with some of the things the Cassiopaeans have said has caused me no end of exhausting mental gymnastics. On the one hand, they are agreeing that a sex-based event was definitely involved in the Fall, but then they have also said the whole sexual thing was part of the Control System’s inducement of increased physicality because the fourth density STS beings “feed” on orgasmic energy as part of their nourishment:
Q: (L) Was the story of Noah’s flood the story of the breaking up of Atlantis?
A: Yes. But symbolic.
Q: (L) How many people were on the planet at that time?
A: 6 billion.
Q: (L) Out of this six billion people, how many survived?
A: 119 million.
Q: (L) Was Noah’s flood caused by the close passage of another celestial body?
A: Yes. Martek. Mars.
Q: (L) Was Martek an inhabited planet at that time?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did it have water or other features?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) When it passed close to the Earth did it, in fact, overload our planet with water we did not have prior to that time?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did we, prior to that time, have a water vapor canopy surrounding our planet?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How was this water vapor canopy suspended?
A: The water vapor canopy was a natural element of the particular composition of your atmosphere at that particular measure point in space-time.
Q: (L) Was the gravity level the same as what it is now?
A: It was somewhat different. But not perceptible to you. That difference is part of the explanation of why that vapor canopy remained suspended.
Q: (L) Did that condition prior to the flood of Noah, the altered gravitational state as well as the water vapor canopy, was that condition more conducive to extended life spans than the conditions that exist on the planet now?
A: Not only those things but all the other conditions that existed on the planet at that particular point in space-time were more conducive to longer life spans. And, by the way, Noah is a symbolic message rather than an historical event.
Q: (L) Do you mean a historical event in the terms of Noah being in an ark or historical event in terms of the flood?
A: First of all, there was no “Noah”. Secondly there was no actual real flood as depicted in that story. Thirdly, the whole story was a symbolic message as opposed to an actual event.
Q: (L) What did actually occur and what does the symbolism have to tell us?
A: It is a very broad representation. It simply means that there was a cataclysmic event that did envelop the whole planet at that time and that those that were ready to experience that as part of their soul development without exiting the body, were warned ahead of time. But not by trying to manipulate events, but by simply allowing faith to let them acquire knowledge and being naturally drawn into position to experience what they needed to experience to survive the event.
Q: (L) What was the event a hundred or so years after the flood of Noah that was described as the confusing of languages, or the tower of Babel?
A: Spiritual confluence.
Q: (L) What purpose did the individuals who came together to build the tower intend for said tower?
A: Electromagnetic concentration of all gravity waves.
Q: (L) And what did they intend to do with these concentrated waves?
A: Mind alteration of masses.
Q: (L) What intention did they have in altering the mind of the masses?
A: Spiritual unification of the masses.
Q: (L) Who were the “gods” that looked down on the tower of Babel, at those who were building it with the intention of unification, and decided to destroy their works?
A: Lizards.
Q: (L) Okay, so the Lizzies blew up the tower of Babel. What else did they do to the minds of mankind; did they do something causing literal disruption of their understanding of language?
A: Close. Brainwashing of masses.
Q: (L) Did they do this through implants and abduction?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) What is the true meaning, the original meaning, of the Hebrew word “shem”?
A: Purity.
Q: (L) Why was this word related to the obelisks or standing stones later called “shems” by the Hebrews?
A: Symbolic of purity: unification. Uniformity.
Q: (L) How were Sodom and Gomorra destroyed and the other cities of the plain? And by whom?
A: Nuclear; EM pulse. Who else?
Q: (L) The Lizzies?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Why?
A: To implant fear and obedience.
Q: (L) Weren’t the Sodom and Gomorrans really evil and bad doing sodomy and Gomorrahy?
A: That is a deception of history.
Q: (L) What body were the Sumerians talking about when they described the Planet of the crossing or Nibiru?
A: Comets.
Q: (L) This body of comets you have talked about?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does this cluster of comets appear to be a single body?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) The planet that was destroyed between Jupiter and Mars, you said was destroyed by psychic energy?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the source of this psychic energy?
A: Beings inhabiting the planet.
Q: (L) Did any of those beings leave that planet and come to earth?
A: Yes. Blond and blue eyed descendants. Eye pigment was because planet was farther from Sol.
Q: (L) How did the people of that planet come to earth? Did they know it was going to be destroyed?
A: Some knew and were taken by Lizzies and they are the Annunaki.
Q: (L) Is there a planet Nibiru?
A: No.
Q: (L) What does Nibiru mean in the Sumerian language?
A: Slave owner.
Now, let’s have a look at the Cassiopaean remarks about sex in general:
Q: (L) What happens psychically at the moment of orgasm?
A: For whom?
Q: (L) For anybody. In just a general way. Does anything happen to a person psychically when they have sexual climax?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Is it different for each individual?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is it different for males from females?
A: Usually.
Q: (L) The reason I ask is because a man named Wayne Cook did some work with dowsing and he found out that the human body, after sexual climax, dowses the same pattern as a dead body. Why is this? (T) Draining of energy.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, where does the energy drain?
A: To the ether.
Q: (L) Does the energy go to one or the other partner?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Is it possible, during this activity, for Lizzies or other beings to be hanging around and be drawing this energy?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that, in a general sense, what often happens?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this one of the reasons that sex has been promoted and promulgated in our society to such an extent…
A: Yes, yes, yes.
So, on the one hand we have sex bringing us under the control of the alleged Reptoids who supposedly want us to get out there and have sex so they can feed on the orgasmic energy, and on the other hand, we have these stories that tell us that the reptilian gods decided to do away with the whole mess of humanity because they couldn’t get any rest with all the sex going on! What’s the deal here?
Is it possible that there is a kind of sex that is beneficial that might be related to spiritual unification, which would enable them to free themselves from the domination of the Control System?
From the clues above, it seems to me there was something going on prior to the time of the destruction of Atlantis that was dangerous to the Controllers. Not only that, it seems some of the survivors retained this information and were planning on employing it in the Tower of Babel project, the destruction of which has always been presented as an “example” that we should not aspire to be like the gods.
We also recall that the cities of Sodom and Gomorra were presented as being extremely depraved and that they concentrated on sexual excess, which also brought about their destruction.
Well, if it is true that all this sexual stuff is “food of the gods”, so to speak, then what can there be about sex that they don’t want us to know? Why the big whitewash? And why the big push to take over the whole world with the anti-sex monotheistic religions that made it a sin to make love unless the only objective was to reproduce? If you think about it, such an attitude would naturally tend to make a person finish having sex as quickly as possible with a mental left-brain image at the fore. Hmm… are we getting a clue here? And nowadays, of course, it is even worse. Sex is a performance oriented sport. How often, how many times, and how high can you “jump”? The confusion between sex and love has also served to further confuse the issue. “If you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with.”
From all I have been able to determine, the ancient civilizations that were in direct contact with fourth density STO beings were those that were part of the megalithic culture. There are traces of this great age of humankind from China and India to the Atlantic Ocean, and from South America to the middle of the Pacific. According to the most recent research, the very oldest form of religion that can be identified was the worship of the Celestial Mother Goddess by wandering hunter gatherers.
It was thought for a long time that such cultures were very primitive and narrow, but it has since been discovered that this is not the case. New archaeological sites are being excavated at the present time (Jomon in Japan, for example) that show very advanced levels of art and culture among these husbandmen of the Earth. The discernible idea of the religion of these peoples is that of an infinite bounty of the Great Mother. It is thought that they didn’t engage in agriculture because the idea of owning land may have been abhorrent to them. The idea of forcing the Earth to yield rather than accepting the natural abundance the Goddess provided was simply not a part of their philosophy. Their Goddess was a “Star Being” rather than the later transmogrification into the Earth Mother/agriculture goddess, and this Star Being was worshipped in Temples that were laid out along Celestial Archetypes.
And, there is also something very mysterious about these early people — they seemed to have had the super powers of the Golden Age. Morris K. Jessup wrote:
We concern ourselves at the moment only with the gigantic stone masonry which remains in almost all parts of the world. Certain characteristics of some of the stonework bespeak origin in a single, widespread civilization, highly developed in some ways, but not mechanical in the same sense as ours of today. … It can be confidently said that the First Civilization had simple and effective methods of working and moving stone which are unused today, and which were more effective than anything which we of the Second Civilization have developed.
In many areas we find evidence of stone blocks of unbelievable weight being quarried, more or less casually moved considerable distances, and then lifted into place. … Many investigators and thinkers have proposed methods for moving these quarried and dressed blocks. All of the proposals are based on applications of such simple present-day engineering equipment as block-and-tackle or sand ramps. … No suggestions have been made which really fit all cases, and some of the submissions are so cumbersome and inadequate as to seem ridiculous.
The Fortress (so-called by archaeologists, who admit no types of building other than religious, military, and occasionally residential) of Sacsahuaman is on a mountaintop overlooking modern Cuzco. It is noteworthy as one of the earliest works showing the construction of walls by grinding and fitting the stones in situ. These walls are also noted for the very large stones which make up the lower of three tiers, and it is these in which we are more interested.
The stones making up the corners of the reentrant angles of this lower tier appear to be a dark basalt; heavy, hard, and rugged. They are so large that they dwarf a man on horseback standing beside them. Some of them are about twelve feet square at the base, and eighteen to twenty feet high. They are estimated to weigh about two hundred tons each. Other stones in the same walls range from small ones of only a few hundred pounds, through continuous gradations up to the largest. All of them were crudely rough quarried, and were then ground into their designated niches in the structure by pushing them back and forth, in situ, until they fitted so closely, completely and accurately that a knife blade cannot be inserted between them. This is a logical and practical shortcut to effective stone fitting which we have not equaled in modern engineering.
(It is interesting to note in passing, however, that we use this method in what is probably our operation of highest accuracy and precision: lens and mirror grinding for astronomical telescopes. No substitute has been found for this system of grinding pieces of glass together to obtain perfect curvature, and there is no basic difference in the two operations.)
However, there are some startling inferences in the size and mass of the stones. To place the largest of these corner stones in place, so that others could be worked to fit them, required tremendous force. It is unimaginable that sufficient hand labor and crude tackle could be massed around them so that they could be moved and handled.
The intermediate sizes, some of them weighing ten, twenty, and forty tons, or more, had to be picked up, put approximately into place, and pushed back and forth until they ground themselves into their individually fitting contours. This was no mean chore. It is inferred that means of handling must have existed which made it easy, or at any rate possible, to swing these stones up and around, and to shove them to and fro, against terrific friction, while pinched between their adjacent neighbors. Such power would tax any modern machine or power plant and require an installation of generating equipment sufficient to run a city. It seems plainly obvious that some other source of power existed.
It may be that this tremendous power was limited in its application to articles of stone texture only, but this is a little doubtful. Or, perhaps it was limited to nonmagnetic materials in general. Such a limitation would have sidetracked the development of a mechanized culture such as ours of this day, and would partly account for the strange fact that almost all relics of the profound past are nonmetallic. It does seem possible that the usefulness of that power, whatever it was, may have been limited by its very nature and that it was never developed along industrial lines because of this limitation and even, perhaps, because of a basic difference in values. This writer cannot see his way to believing that such a power was electrical, magnetic, calorific, or strictly mechanical, else it would have led to industrial developments leaving at least a few traces. (Jessup, 1955; emphasis added)
These last remarks of Morris Jessup’s are, to me, the most interesting. It is a fact that the Earth is literally blanketed with megaliths from some sort of ancient civilization. Tens of thousands of them! There are variations in placement and style, but the thing they all have in common is their incredible sizes, and their antiquity. One book on the subject says:
Looming out of the mists from hillside, moor and forest glade, in a great arc around the coasts of Europe, from Sweden and the Shetland Islands in the north to Spain, Portugal and Malta in the south, stand the megaliths — great gray rocks, roughhewn, streaked with age, often imposing, always mysterious. They range from single natural boulders to grandiose structures, which would have demanded complex architectural planning, and the labour of tens of thousands of men for centuries.
There has never been a systematic census of these monuments, but it is estimated that there are at least 50,000 of them. Even that figure amounts to only a fraction of the total number erected, for countless megaliths have been destroyed by the forces of nature or by man.
The known and lost monuments once formed an enormous blanket of stone extending over Western Europe. Today, often only the skeleton of the original can be seen. The bare gray stones were, in many cases, covered by great mounds of green turf and gleaming white quartz pebbles. Spread by the thousands along the coasts they must have been a dazzling and unparalleled sight.
Unparalleled indeed in human history. For there has never been anything like this rage, almost mania, for megalith building, except perhaps during the centuries after A.D. 1000 when much the same part of Europe was covered with what a monk of the time called a ‘white mantle of churches’.
…The megaliths, then, were raised by some of the earliest Europeans. The reason that this simple fact took so long to be accepted was the peculiar inferiority complex which Western Europeans had about their past. Their religions, their laws, their cultural heritage, their very numerals, all come from the East. The inhabitants, before civilization came flooding in from the Mediterranean, were illiterate; they kept no records, they built no cities. It was easy to assume that they were simply bands of howling half-naked savages who painted their bodies, put bear-grease on their hair and ate their cousins. (Reader’s Digest Association, 1977)
The whys and wherefores of this megalith mania are still under debate. The fact is, you can’t date stones. Yes, you can date organic things found around them or near them, or under them, but you can’t date the stones.
The interesting thing is that the peoples who did erect them are still, in most circles, considered to be barbarians because they did not build cities, engage in agriculture, develop the wheel, or writing.
Yet, they did something that clearly cannot and was not done by “civilized” peoples who did all of those “civilized” things. They had some sort of “power” that we cannot replicate and do not understand. Yet, this very power may be the answer to our question about why and how sex was implicated in the fall of man, the flood of Noah, and numerous other events that may lead us to some interesting discoveries.
I would like to speculate here for a moment. The first thing that comes to my mind when I consider the problem of the megaliths is that of what I call “payoff”. That is, nobody who is human ever does anything without a payoff, or to put it more generally, for a reason. What could be the reason for the stones? There were clearly a great deal more of them than would be necessary for simple monumental or worship purposes. They appear to be arranged like the inner workings of some vast machinery whose purpose is an enigma to us.
At the same time, could the overabundant presence of these megaliths have anything to do with the things that are observed to be lacking in these peoples, i.e., the signs of civilization, the wheel, agriculture, writing and cities? Suppose the reason for the stones and the reason for the absence of “civilized standards” are identical?
We have already mentioned the “civilizing influence” of the Consortium and the possible ulterior motives behind it. It is a matter of observation that cities developed in agricultural societies as a central place to manufacture and exchange goods. Agriculture is required to feed stable and static populations. Wheels are needed to both transport people and goods in cities and from agricultural zones to cities and back. Writing is needed to keep records of transactions, as is demonstrated by the clear evidence of the earliest forms of writing: endless lists and tallies of grain and cattle. Writing was also used to record and promulgate the exploits of certain gods and goddesses as well as keeping track of all the goods tithed to the temple and priesthood.
So, suppose none of this was needed? Suppose a civilization existed that did not need cities, agriculture, wheels or writing? That is not to say that they did not produce goods nor that they did not produce food for large groups, or that they did not travel over vast distances or record their exploits. But, suppose they did not do it in the way we would expect? Suppose the stones did it all!
What do I mean? To explain, let me go in a slightly different direction for a moment: one of the things that seems to be almost ubiquitous with these ancient groups and their circles and mighty stone works and “star temples” and all that seems to be the fact that they all just “disappear” with alarming regularity. How many times have you read the following?
“What happened to [ancient group of your choice] is unknown. The site was abandoned and there is no explanation as to what happened or where they went.”
Then, such writers go to great lengths explaining all sorts of possible scenarios: plague, war, climate, whatever. Global cataclysm is almost never proposed because it is too scary, and besides, the structures are intact for the most part. But, the single fact remains: the peoples associated with big piles of rocks or megalithic structures have a habit of disappearing. That’s an unavoidable observation. Frank Joseph, who has been studying ancient sites in the U.S., their circles of which seem to bear resemblance to the more ancient sites, writes:
What, then, was responsible for all the loosely connected ceremonial centers scattered from Wisconsin to Georgia [to Mexico, etc.] winding down at the same time? The answer is simple and comprehensively correct: a calendar.
One of the major elements in common among the various walled ceremonial centers was their concurrent function as astronomical observatories… Above all they worshipped time. They may have felt oppressed by it, or perhaps they strove to live in harmony with its cycles. In either case, their obvious attention to the movements of the heavens clearly defines an obsession with the regular passage of cycles in nature.
Here, too, the mound builders compare closely with Tenochitlan’s own priest-kings, the Tlatoan, who were likewise self-conscious of time, which they envisioned as the figure of a ferocious sun god. In fact, the chief deity of the Aztecs, the solar Huitzlipochtli, was jointly known as ‘the Eagle with Arrows of Fire, the Lord of Time’.
The people of Aztalan [the name of the Wisconsin ceremonial center as handed down orally by the local Native Americans] left their ceremonial enclosure, as did the inhabitants of the rest of the walled settlements throughout the Mississippi valley, because their sacred calendar ordered them to do so. Separated by great distances as they were, their alignment posts of sundial pyramids all told their observers the same thing at the same moment: it was time to go. (Joseph, 1997; emphasis added)
Mr. Joseph is definitely onto something, though it may not be precisely what he is thinking. It is fairly clear, though not precisely proven, that these circles were used as some sort of astronomical observatory. But it is also clear that a simple accounting of time in order to know when to plant the grain, or when to have a ceremony for standard purposes, is all out of proportion to the payoff factor of the megaliths. Smaller and less difficult to build structures would serve the purposes of astronomical observations and ritual activity equally well. It seems as though the circles and other megalithic structures had to be built out of stone for a specific reason, that is, the stones had a function; they did something.
Yes, the builders disappeared, group after group. That could imply, as suggested in the previous chapter, an even more interesting phenomenon: the manipulation of space-time. If that is the case, then it is clear why they did not need the accoutrements of so-called civilization. The Stone Movers did not need any of the accoutrements of so-called “civilization” for the simple reason that the stones did everything.
There has been some research regarding “recordings” in stones of buildings — of energy fields, earth grids and all that. Certain stones produce electricity under the right conditions, and if the stones were used to amplify mental energies, then they would power not only transport (eliminating the need for the wheel), communication and recording of information (eliminating the need for writing), and perhaps could even manifest anything that was needed in terms of food and other goods (thereby eliminating the need for cities and agriculture).
Tied in to all of this is the ancient alchemical lore about the Philosopher’s stone (though I am not so naïve as to think that this is the whole cheese in that regard, but it does make you think a bit). The Holy Grail, the head of Bran the Blessed, and the Philosopher’s stone of the alchemists are all connected to the idea of certain powers that have to do with the stopping or manipulating of time, a source of endless abundance (multiplying loaves and fishes), eternal life or the elixir of life, and so forth. Most importantly, they are also connected to the idea of cycles and astronomical placements being necessary to the Work.
It is not entirely out of the question that if such was the case, these stones could have just simply “translated” or transferred the Stone Movers into another dimension at some point when astronomical alignments were right — the “big payoff of going home”, so to speak. Remember?
“The people of Aztalan left their ceremonial enclosure… because their sacred calendar ordered them to do so. … Their alignment posts of sundial pyramids all told their observers the same thing at the same moment: it was time to go.”
Maybe all their careful record keeping in such funny ways (the 19 year moon cycle, for example; the 19th day as a special day of rest for the Assyrians) had to do with the moments in space-time when certain activities were most easily accomplished? Maybe they weren’t a bunch of silly, superstitious savages hauling stones around and sweating like crazy just to dance around in the moonlight and discover when to plant the corn?
Getting back to our ideas about sex, what did these ancient peoples think about sex? Do we have a way of figuring it out? Did it, in fact, play a part in their seemingly magical abilities? Did any of these peoples “move to a different reality” of their own volition, or did the Control System destroy them because they were a threat? Are these the types we are talking about when we find stories of sex that “kept the gods awake all night”?
The remark from the Sumerian legends about all of the night long fornicating made me think of another “all night” party I came across in my research.
And there is also on the island both a magnificent sacred precinct of Apollo and a notable temple, which is adorned with many votive offerings and is spherical in shape. Furthermore, a city is there which is sacred to this god, and the majority of its inhabitants are players on the cithara; and these continually play on this instrument in the temple and sing hymns of praise to the god, glorifying his deeds…
They say also that the moon, as viewed from this island, appears to be but a little distance from the earth and to have upon it prominences, like those of the earth, which are visible to the eye. The account is also given that the god visits the island every nineteen years, the period in which the return of the stars to the same place in the heavens is accomplished, and for this reason the Greeks call the nineteen-year period the year of Meton.
At the time of this appearance of the god he both plays on the cithara and dances continuously the night through from the vernal equinox until the rising of the Pleiades, expressing in this manner his delight in his successes. And the kings of this city and the supervisors of the sacred precinct are called Boreades, since they are the descendants of Boreas, and the succession to these positions is always kept in their family. (Diodorus, Vol. II, 37-41)
Now, aside from the fact that the only temple that could fit the above description is Stonehenge, which of course, pretty much does away with the modern day version of the Druid hocus pocus, we find the description of the ceremonies to be most interesting in terms of our subject.
From what I have been able to piece together, these ancient peoples of the megaliths were in tune with the Celestial Forces. They were a group apart from the serpent oriented agriculturists, or the serpent hating (though still unwittingly controlled by them in the guise of Yahweh/Jehovah), wandering shepherd king monotheists. They worshipped neither the earth with a pantheon of gods nor a single creator god embodied in a concept. They were, in effect the “Third Man”. At some point in my research, I came across the following in Manly Hall’s The Secret Teachings of All Ages:
Jupiter was called Dodonean after the city of Dodona in Epirus. Near this city was a hill thickly covered with oak trees, which from the most ancient times had been sacred to Jupiter. … From the ancient oaks and beeches were hung many chains of tiny bronze bells, which tinkled day and night as the wind swayed the branches. … The oracle of Dodona uttered prophecies through oak trees, birds, and vases of brass. The famous oracular dove of Dodona, alighting upon the branches of the sacred oaks, not only discoursed at length in the Greek tongue upon philosophy and religion, but also answered the queries of those who came from distant places to consult it.
Some assert that the celebrated talking dove of Dodona was in reality a woman, because in Thessaly both prophetesses and doves were called Peleiadas. … Most curious of the oracles of Dodona were the ‘talking vases’, or kettles. These were made of brass and so carefully fashioned that when struck they gave off the sound for hours. Some writers have described a row of these vases and have declared that if one of them was struck its vibrations would be communicated to all the others.
It is supposed that the first temple of Dodona was erected by Deucalion and those who survived the great flood with him. For this reason the oracle at Dodona was considered the oldest in Greece. Many writers have noted the similarities between the rituals of Dodona and those of the Druid priests of Britain and Gaul. … When the original priests of Dodona — the Selloi — mysteriously vanished, the oracle was served for many centuries by three priestesses called Peleiadas, who interpreted the vases and at midnight interrogated the sacred trees. (Hall, 1988; emphasis added)
This written record of a worship that was connected to birds, bells and sounds really struck my curiosity. I had already noted in Marija Gimbutas’ comprehensive survey of prehistoric artifacts that the bird goddesses (with their cosmic eggs) antedated the later snake images, so something that seemed to exclude the serpent element seemed to be very significant. Not only that, but these disappearing folks were starting to really pile up in numbers.
Q: (L) I recently read some things about the Selloi priesthood and the priestesses called Peleiadas. They seem to be involved with urns, birds, tinkling bells, urns that can be struck and which then set up a particular resonance in other urns, oak trees, and some other peculiar references that relate to laurel trees…
A: Siren song. Greek mythology.
Q: (L) What do the sirens represent?
A: Laura, my dear, if you really want to reveal “many beautiful and amazing things”, all you need to do is remember the triad, the trilogy, the trinity, and look always for the triplicative connecting clue profile. Connect the threes… do not rest until you have found three beautifully balancing meanings!! And why? Because it is the realm of the three that you occupy. In order to possess the keys to the next level, just master the Third Man Theme, then move on with grace… Siren song? What of this? What have we alluded to before about sound?
Q: (L) I was thinking that the “siren song” is probably a mythical representation of antigravity.
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you give me another clue?
A: No, you do not need one.
So, we are getting “close.” But, back to the Third Man, these ancient peoples probably didn’t worship anything in the sense we would understand it. Diodorus put his own spin on what he was telling, and it would have been difficult for his Mediterranean mind to grasp people that just simply loved and studied and observed and utilized the principles of Nature.
On the other hand, if Diodorus’ description is fairly accurate regarding the dedication of the temple to Apollo alone, it is likely that this was a later inversion of the Celestial worship. Apollo, being a twin to Artemis/Diana, is part of the Divine Twins archetype, which leads us again, to the Third Man.
The divinity in the old religion was not a female or a male figure, but was both male and female. This does not mean that the ancient peoples were hermaphrodites, but rather it symbolized the balanced right- and left-brain function state prior to the Fall.
The fact that women were on an equal footing with men, in terms of honor and respect, makes it seem to the modern patriarchal mind that it was a female dominated society. But these were not peoples who were ruled by women. They were cultures in which men and women were in harmony and in which the brain functions were balanced so that they were enabled to “transduce” the cosmic energies into their reality for the purpose of active creation.
Unfortunately, the symbols and their meanings as well as the knowledge of their activation were degenerated into self-serving figments of the prurient imaginations of later redactors. The Matriarchal agriculture oriented societies alongside the Patriarchal Shepherd King societies were the results of the split. Neither of them accurately represented the pre-Fall society that is symbolized by the Androgyne. Mircea Eliade writes:
The androgyne is understood by decadent writers simply as a hermaphrodite in whom both sexes exist anatomically and physiologically. They are concerned not with a wholeness resulting from the fusion of the sexes but with a superabundance of erotic possibilities. Their subject is not the appearance of a new type of humanity in which the fusion of the sexes produces a new unpolarized consciousness, but a self-styled sensual perfection, resulting from the active presence of both sexes in one… The decadent writers did not know that the hermaphrodite represented in antiquity an ideal condition which men endeavoured to achieve spiritually by means of imitative rites; but that if a child showed at birth any signs of hermaphroditism, it was killed by its own parents. In other words, the actual, anatomical hermaphrodite was considered an aberration of Nature or a sign of the gods’ anger and consequently destroyed out of hand. Only the ritual androgyne provided a model, because it implied not an augmentation of anatomical organs but, symbolically, the union of the magico-religious powers belonging to both sexes. (Eliade, 1965)
The principles of Nature and the Cosmos that were studied and honored by these ancient peoples were later embodied as Bacchus/Dionysus, which concealed the true meaning and protected the tradition for a time. The Bacchic culture embraced three general principles that were, in modern terms, celebration, creativity and chivalry. Throughout history, whenever the mystic traditions have been revived, these three themes become dominant in the society.
The celebration of the Bacchants has been redacted to drunken revelry. Nothing could be further from the truth of the original meaning, though it is entirely likely that later, ignorant perversions occurred among the followers.
The original principle was that the celebrants achieved elevated states of consciousness by music, singing and dancing, often in processions or highly stylized spiral movements. The original purpose was to use their bodies as circuitry, or part of the machinery of the megaliths.
Q: (L) In many ancient ruins there are found certain symbols, which interest me, specifically the coil or spiral that seems to be ubiquitous throughout the world. This is also very similar to one of the Reiki symbols. What is the origin and meaning of this symbol?
A: Energy collector translevel; Stonehenge was one. Stonehenge is a coil. The missing stones form a coil arrangement. People have been “zapped” at Stonehenge.
Q: (L) Who built Stonehenge?
A: Druids.
Q: (L) Who were the Druids?
A: Early Aryan group.
Q: (L) How did they move the stones and set them up?
A: Sound wave focusing.
Q: (L) Who taught the Druids to use the sound waves?
A: They knew; handed down.
Q: (L) When was Stonehenge built?
A: 8000 approx. B.C.1
Q: (L) What was Stonehenge built to do or be used for?
A: Energy director.
Q: (L) What was this energy to be directed to do?
A: All things.
Q: (L) Was the energy to be directed outward or inward to the center?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Does this sound come from our bodies?
A: Learn. Laura will find answer through discovery.
Q: (L) We’ve been discussing the crop circles, and would like to know if you have any input on that subject? Do the multiple circles in some of them represent multiple densities?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Are the crop circles themselves like antennae, or like homing devices for energy or thought patterns?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is the chronology of their appearance important?
A: Semi.
Q: (L) Is their location on the planet, in terms of longitude and latitude, significant?
A: Yes and no. Location, not latitude and longitude… Those are merely measure markers.
Q: (L) If the location is significant, what is it about the location that is significant?
A: Magnetic generators of bonding frequency portals at those locations.
Q: (L) Okay, location and chronology…
A: Why have you not brought up Stonehenge?
Q: (L) Was Stonehenge put there because of the location, or did Stonehenge create…
A: Location attracted those spirit types on the proper frequency, who in turn, placed stones in proper location to receive the coded communications in code telepathically, in order not to have to chase around the countryside reading encoded pictographs.
Q: (L) What was the technique used within the circle to receive the information telepathically? [Planchette spiraled in, and spiraled out.]
A: Transcendent focused thought wave separation. The spiral serves to translate message by slowing down the wave and focusing thought wave transference energy. Utilizes/transduces electromagnetic waves, the conduit, by breaking down signal from universal language of intent into language of phonetic profile. This is for multiple user necessity who must hear and feel and understand precisely the same thing. The molecular structure of the rock, when properly sculpted sing to you. Stonehenge is a vector of energy derived from Solar and Cosmic rays. Pyramids focus electromagnetic energy from the atmosphere ambiently.
Q: (L) If it was built in 8000 B.C., and the Pyramids were built 8649 B.C., which is 10,643 years ago, more or less, that means that they were built at almost the same time, or at least within 600 years of each other. If they were built at almost the same time, were they built by the same, or similar groups of people?
A: Atlantean descendants.
Q: (L) Obviously the Great Pyramid is a marvel of engineering — and Stonehenge is as well — yet the two structures are so dissimilar. The Pyramid presents such a finished and sharp and elegant appearance, and Stonehenge might give a person — of course that is based on how it appears today — a more primitive presentation.
A: Was not originally.
Q: (L) Did they work in conjunction with one another and did the two groups that built them communicate with one another?
A: No and yes. Offshoots of same group.
Q: (L) If the flood of Noah, as you have said before, occurred 10,662 B.C., that means that the Pyramid and Stonehenge were built more than 2,000 years after this event.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did it take 2,000 years for them to develop or create the technology?
A: No.
Q: (L) What were they doing in those 2,000 years?
A: Reassembling.
Q: (L) In that 2,000 years of reassembling do you mean reassembling as a group through reincarnative processes…
A: All. Built using sound wave technology.
Q: (L) When you say that it was built using sound wave technology, were these sound waves produced by human voices or by instruments or mechanical devices of some sort?
A: Mostly latter.
Q: (L) What kind of a device would this be? What would you call it?
A: Something like tuning fork.
Q: (L) It would be something that could be struck and would produce a sound that could then be directed in some way?
A: A sound enhancing collector/focuser.
Q: (L) Can we build such a thing?
A: Must be like a two-way antenna, solidly brass or bronze.
Q: (L) Other than a solid piece of metal, were there any other internal parts such as a mechanism of some sort?
A: Silicon arterial wand.
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Q: (L) John Keel’s book Our Haunted Planet says: “The para-human Serpent People of the past are still among us. They were probably worshipped by the builders of Stonehenge and the forgotten ridge-making cultures of South America.” Were the Serpent People worshipped by the builders of Stonehenge?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who was worshipped by the people who built Stonehenge?
A: Complicated, but the terms Spirit, stars, energy, will get you there.
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Q: (L) Okay, in this book it says: Diodorus Siculus, writing in the 1st century B.C., said that “certain sacred offerings wrapped in wheat straw come from the Hyperboreans into Scythia, whence they are taken over by the neighboring peoples in succession until they get as far west as the Adriatic. From there they are sent south, and the first Greeks to receive them are the Dodonaeans. Then, continuing southward, they reach the Malian gulf, cross to Euboea, and are passed on from town to town as far as Carystus. Then they skip Andros, the Carystians take them to Tenos, and the Tenians to Delos. That is how these things are said to reach Delos at the present time.”
So, from very ancient times, there was this practice of the Hyperboreans sending sacred offerings to the Island of Delos. Now, the Island of Delos is supposedly the birthplace of Phoebus Apollo, whose mother was Leto. Supposedly he was born on Mt. Cynthus. This is a very curious thing. This is contrary to the old view that the cultural flow was from the Mediterranean to the North, that civilization began in the Near East. It implies a cultural flow from the North to the South. What were these ancient Hyperboreans sending to the Island of Delos?
A: Leaves bearing cryptic codes.
Q: (L) What was the connection between the Hyperboreans, including the Celts of Britain, I believe, and the people of Delos?
A: Northern peoples were responsible for civilizing the Mediterranean/Adriatic peoples with the encoded secrets contained within their superior extra-terrestrially based genetic arrangement. Practice of which you speak was multi-trans-generational habit.
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Q: (L) Is it the case that some of them communicated with higher density beings via Stonehenge, and that these communications they received…
A: Stonehenge used to resonate with tonal rill, teaching the otherwise unteachable with wisdoms entered psychically through crown chakra transceiving system. [Note: the word “rill” is new to me. Webster defines it as a small stream or a little brook; to flow in or like a rill.]
Q: (L) Was Stonehenge ever complete, with all the stones there? This author suggests that it was never completed because there are missing stones…
A: Of course.
Q: (L) What happened to the stones that are missing? The books suggest that it was never finished because the architect must have died.
A: Nonsense. Multiple shocks registered through the ages.
Q: (L) Was Stonehenge built in stages as this author suggests? Did it start out as a circular ditch, at the time of the so-called Aubrey holes?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was it built all at once, complete?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What about these multiple shocks. What, in particular?
A: Some were earthquakes, mini-cataclysmic in nature. Some were EM generated smashes, when terran forces clashed with outside “forces”.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that some of these rocks were vaporized, as it were, by some sort of particle beam weaponry?
A: EM activity.
Q: (L) Was Stonehenge once known as the Cloister of Ambrius?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Who was Ambrius?
A: Druid tradition/cloak.
Q: (L) What was Ambrius?
A: They would label as a god. You might say otherwise.
Q: (L) In ancient literature, something called a Merkabah is talked about, but the definition of this extremely mysterious thing has been lost down through the centuries. There have been many “explanations” from such sources as the Midrash — Jewish commentaries — but there is even argument there. It seems that, even then, nobody knew what it was. But now, all of a sudden, we have all these New Age folks coming along who have decided that they know what it is, and it is variously described as rotating double tetrahedrons…
A: If no one knows what it is, that is as good as any other explanation.
Q: (L) Yes, but I want to know what the ancients who wrote about it meant? What is the definition of the word as the ancient writers used it?
A: The original definition predates this.
Q: (L) What is the original definition that predated the ancient writings that we have access to?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) What? Well, it’s a curious word because it is composed of two words or even three: mer kaba or mer ka ba. If we think of it as three part word, we have first of all, Mer, which is the Cosmic Sea of Infinite Potential. The great celestial mother. Then, we have the Egyptian Ka, which is like the astral body, and the Ba, which is similar to the Ka. I guess you could think of them as the astral body and the genetic body. Then there is the Ab, which is the sort of principle element of the life in man, like the part that is of God or the soul. The Ab was represented as a red stone. It was the part of the man that expressed desire, lust, courage, wisdom, feeling, sense and intelligence. So, all of them together sort of expresses an abstract “wholeness of being” principle. Then, Kaaba is Arabic for cube, and it is the square stone building in which the Black Stone is housed in Mecca. It was supposed to have been built by Ishmael and Abraham. So with Mer, Ka, Ab, and Ba, we have a cube made up of the principle parts of the physical, mental and spiritual self, and housing a stone. Soul stone? Mother stone?
A: By god, she’s got it!
Q: (L) Okay, we’ve got the soul or mother stone, or the mother of all stones. Now that we have a definition, what was it?
A: The Matriarch Stone. Symbolism reigns supreme here. “Stone” to those you perceive as ancients symbolized communication from “a higher source”.
Q: (L) What is it about a stone that made the ancients associate it with communication?
A: Radio waves. Transmission.
Q: (L) So Stonehenge was a giant transmitter and receiver. The original purpose of Stonehenge was to receive communication and to send communication. It wasn’t all that Druid Hoodoo blood sacrifice or wandering-around-in-white-robes-scaring-people stuff that people do nowadays. It was a machine, so to speak. When we are talking about this Mother Stone, are we talking about something similar to the Atlantean crystals that gathered, dispersed and/or transduced energy?
A: It is more symbolic. But you are on the right track.
Q: (L) So, in talking about Merkabah, we are not talking about spinning tetrahedrons that enable you to ascend or generate some kind of “astral vehicle”. Many people are saying that visualizing yourself inside of one of these enables you to ascend, or something.
A: If you do that, it may help, though. We are going around in circles here. You should use your own abilities to complete the answers to some of these. But, then again, it is one form of “spinning”, is it not?
Q: (T) Everything we have been doing here is all about gaining knowledge and increasing frequency in order to transit from third to fourth density. In ancient times, they would have had to do the same things. But, there may not have been as many experiences available. In order to get experiences, they may have had to travel. So, by going to the stones, they might have increased their frequencies to transit from third to fourth density.
(L) Or they used them as a direct machine or device to do it. Archaeologists say that the people who erected the megaliths were barbarians. They are defined as barbarians because they didn’t build cities, they didn’t have the wheel, they didn’t have organized agriculture, and they left no written records. Those are the defined elements of civilization.
Yet, this group of people, whoever they were, did things that we cannot duplicate today, and they did it all over the globe. The groups who came along after them who did have all the hallmarks of what we call civilization also could not erect these gargantuan stones. I thought about this for a long time.
Archaeologists say they must have erected them as monuments to their gods, or heroes or whatever. Some of them think they were calendars to tell them when to plant the corn. Well, I think that is stretching it a bit. If you can’t cross off the days on the wall and look outside and see that it is time to plant the corn, you’re in pretty sad shape. You hardly need to haul stones as big as buildings across hills and valleys to set them up in special places to tell you to do that!
The psychology of the human being cannot have changed all that much over the many thousands of years from then to now, and it is true that people do not do anything without a powerful motivation; what I call the “payoff”. What could be the payoff to haul these things around on greased logs as they are depicted? To create a monument or to bury their kings? To get naked and dance in the moonlight?
(A) Like they had a lot of time to do this while struggling to live the barbarian existence, too!
(L) Yeah. They are supposed to be howling savages who must constantly hunt to get food, yet they are spending all their time, occupying all their strongest men, to push rocks around! Meanwhile, according to the archaeologists and paleontologists, these folks only live to about forty years at max!
(T) They got a lot of mileage out of those forty years!
(L) Exactly! But, we are supposed to be thinking about the things they didn’t have: cities, wheels, agriculture, and writing.
(F) Maybe they didn’t need it.
(L) And why would that be? Because the stones did it all!
(T) Maybe they were fourth density STO beings who planted all those stones all over the place.
(L) Well, if you think about a group of people who are setting up these massive stones like they were pieces of Styrofoam. The stones collect energy and information. They then transduce the energy or amplify it. These people know things about movement, dances or spinning or something, that enables them to behave in concert with the stones so that they all become part of a grand machine that does things!
All of the legends talk about stylized dances and the oldest things about Stonehenge say that it was the Temple of Apollo and that Apollo danced there all night at certain periods of time. Every 19 years, I believe.
When you think about that, and the other places Apollo appeared, the inversions and redactions of the legends, and we come to these magical stones that produce things. Then we come to the head of Bran the Blessed, which supposedly produced endless supplies of bread and fish or whatever else was desired. Bran’s head was the giver of all good things. But more than that, it was an oracle. It could speak.
And here we have the idea of a similar function for Stonehenge: both an oracle as well as a giver of blessings and bounty. Anything you wanted or needed it provided for you. If you wanted to go somewhere, it transported you as in the legends of the flying carpets. It was magic transportation. All of these things are associated, when you track them back far enough, with a stone. The stones did everything.
This is what I have always thought about these megaliths. They did things. All of the things we think are the “signs” of civilization were done by the stones. Maybe Terry is right; these people were at some level of density where they could make this work. At some point, something happened, the ability was lost, and then people had to build cities, engage in agriculture, invent the wheel, and develop writing — because they could no longer do it the “easy” way.
A: Stones were once utilized to provide for all needs, as the energies transmitted connected directly with the pituitary gland to connect spiritual realities with the material realms of 3rd and 4th densities. So you see, the “stone” was viewed as Matriarchal indeed!
Q: (L) Were the beings involved in this type of activity third density, fourth density or bi-density?
A: Originally 4th when home was in other locators.
Q: (L) Could it be said that the pituitary gland itself is the body’s own “mother stone”?
A: If you prefer.
Q: (J) What exactly is the function of the pituitary gland in your references to Stonehenge?
A: This gland is your uplink.
Q: (L) Is it possible that the pituitary can be stimulated by external sources such as radio waves, waves from a supernova, or other frequencies in the environment?
A: Yes and experiments have ensued.
Q: (L) Would it be beneficial for us to experiment with such things?
A: Not wise. You could fry yourself in your zeal. You can experiment, but not technologically.
We later asked the Cs some questions that further clarified the issue:
July 4, 2009
Q: (A**) I was gonna ask about Chaco Canyon. What was it built for?
A: Gathering place for those of unusual abilities.
Q: (A***) Did anybody actually live there?
A: More like a “conference center.”
Q: (A**) So what happened to the people that used it?
A: Change of cosmic environment followed by earthly difficulties such as famine, climate etc.
Q: (J) What kind of things did those people with unusual abilities do when they gathered together?
A: Well, levitate, for one; direct manifestation for another; and “travel”.
Q: (Allen) So, could they travel from one spot on the planet to another?
A: Yes.
Q: (A***) Could they teleport?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Teleport… these weren’t your average human beings then. (laughter)
A: No not exactly, but it wasn’t the same environment you currently enjoy either.
Q: (A**) Where did these people come from?
A: Remnant Atlanteans. Descendants for the word sticklers.
Q: (L) I think that’s because once, somebody made a big deal out of them saying “remnants of Atlantis” and they meant descendants. (A***) Do they mean that if our environment wasn’t so polluted that we could have super powers? (L) They said “cosmic environment”.
A: Gravity is different now.
Q: (A***) What happened to gravity? How’d it change?
A: Travels of the solar system through space. You are heading for another such changes soon.
Q: (A***) Are we going to become super again?
A: Some will.
August 5, 2009
Q: (L) Okay, next question: Who built the Hypogeum in Malta?
A: Ancient “circle people”.
Q: (L) And for what purpose?
A: Rebirth, healing, manifestation. See answers previously given about Chaco Canyon.
In addition to the elevated states of consciousness achieved in the spiral dances accompanied by music and singing (not drunkenness with wine), it is thought that preparation or charging for these ceremonies was accomplished via “mystical sexual union”. The redactors have corrupted this to wild orgies, naturally.
Many modern historians have ignorantly interpreted the accoutrements and later accounts of these rites as fertility rituals. They were supposed to have been performed with the intent of eliciting magical reproductive favoritism from nature. The ideas of gaining personal advantages, success, protection or anything else by practicing rites or rituals, spells, prayers, sacrifices and so forth are characteristic of left-brain function, not mystical union. (Yes, many meditators and “stupid saints” as well as practitioners of the Black Arts have in fact managed to access the gateway by “raping the maiden of the well”, but the price is high and very few who do it that way survive long in this world.)
In short, the Bacchanalian celebration was to directly experience an altered state of consciousness, which brought about unification with the Cosmos and Nature, and even had the potential for transcending time and space in a direct, material and experiential manner. In the sensual, physical unification with the Cosmos, we see the profound activation of the right hemisphere of the brain in direct experience of the world via the sensory perceptions as distinct from imagining the world according to supposedly authoritative measurement and description.
In a Bacchic culture, the mutual need and inseparability of the sexes was exemplified by the principles of androgyny and the hermaphrodite, or Apollo and Artemis, the twins. The Androgyne represented the idea that every woman and man have both a male and female aspect and the hermaphrodite represented the idea that each man or woman was merely half of a functioning unit in terms of polarity, or circuitry that could somehow be unified to accomplish creative functions. The hermaphrodite was a macrocosmic symbol of the male/female unified Cosmos, and the androgyne is a microcosmic symbol of the male/female unity that can occur within each individual.
The goal of Bacchic culture and the secret teachings of the mystical traditions were harmony, balance, and unity between men and women and between the male and female aspects within each person.
The mystical literature tells us that the feminine principle corresponds to the intuitive, creative, intimate, immediate, unitive, nourishing, sensuous, spontaneous aspects of our consciousness. The masculine principle reflects logic, labeling, theoretical, legal, boundary consciousness, rule-following, mission-oriented, competitive characteristics. In this categorization, we can easily see that we are not referring to biophysical maleness or femaleness, but rather to the left and right modes of consciousness within all peoples.
So, when it was said that the female energy consorted with the wrong side and lost knowledge and power thereby, we can now see that it was a rewiring of the thinking, by giving dominance to the part of the brain that literally inhibits creativity and access to universal energies that can be accessed by anyone. It was by taking the direct knowledge of the Cosmos via empirical observation, i.e., knowledge and replacing it with the wishful thinking, conceptual, imaginary mode of a Creator God outside of the Cosmos, and thus only accessible via intercession, that we lost our connection. But, we can’t be throwing the baby out with the bathwater here. We have to remember that science is a child of the right hemisphere, but is reared by the left hemisphere. In fact, without both aspects in proper balance, very little can be achieved. The King rules the material realm by virtue of his union with the Queen.
The direct, sensual experience of the world, unclouded by preconceptions or anticipation, is precisely what constitutes scientific empiricism and objectivity. It is at the root of the Cassiopaean motto: “knowledge protects”. But knowledge only protects if it is utilized.
Q: (L) Acquiring knowledge is akin to acquiring energy? Or light? Light energy?
A: Not exactly. That would be like saying that “filling up” at the gas station is akin to acquiring speed.
Q: (L) So, knowledge and light are like the gas for the car, but speed comes from utilization?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And utilization means…
A: Knowledge application, which generates energy, which, in turn, generates light.
We know without a shadow of a doubt that the megalith builders utilized advanced mathematics, geometry and astronomy. Numbers appear to be the language by which we can translate right-brain perception into useful left-brain action. This is why the mystical traditions are written in mathematical codes.
The original splitting of the unity into two is described mathematically as the cosmos contracting infinitely, leaving a void, and everything else. This contraction or split made Divine apperception possible. Using this divine principle of creation, Gottfried Leibniz developed binary arithmetic in the 1700s, and this is the basis of all of our computer communications today. Two figures, 0 and 1 can express everything in the cosmos.
Science is not a fixed body of knowledge, even if many scientists of today wish it to be so. It is a constant observation, experiential interaction, and ever-renewing process of discovery, growth and evolution. By its very nature, it is elusive of definition, never static, and impermanent.
That is also the philosophy of the Cassiopaeans. How many times have they said: “Learn! Discover! Open! Up to you!” And because I didn’t understand, it drove me crazy. I wanted the answers! I wanted the truth! I wanted the bottom line of all existence right there in my lap with ribbons and bells! But it cannot be given in a concept. It must be experienced via knowledge.
Another aspect of science that engages our right hemisphere is art and music. The numerical structure of music is thought to be the direct link between art and science, and is thus a conductor for expression of direct experience into the active left hemisphere. One can experience music directly, without any thinking or imagining or conceptualizing. And, at the same time, one is “experiencing” mathematics! No words can accurately and completely convey what something sounds like. It is an act of direct perception.
Now, what does all this have to do with sex? Well, actually, nothing, but it has everything to do with making love. You see, sex as sex, is left-brain. It is desire and goal oriented. It is loaded with anticipation. When one thinks about having sex, one has an image in the mind’s eye of the end result. Even if it is not a visual image, it is an abstract image or concept of orgasmic repletion. It is a focusing on a physical act without due consideration of the spiritual connections and implications.
Nowadays sex comes in a variety of plans which relate back to specific conceptual purposes. There is the plan of technical performance and variety with the purpose of being a good lover. There is neurotic celibacy or abstinence to avoid guilt. There is masturbation that occurs either alone or with a partner with the purpose of relieving tension. There is submission to a partner for duty. There is just doing it because it has always been done to maintain the status quo or habit. There is keeping up with the modern trends, to avoid shame. One can have brief, promiscuous affairs out of fears of intimacy. One can have sex for reproduction. You can even make love just to enjoy sex, for intimacy and pleasure for the idea of love and affection. In all of these, there is an abstract audience and idea behind the act.
And that is where the full power of the right-brain is short circuited and caused to release its creative potential to a momentary contraction to a void that is uncontrolled, undirected, and unusable. After such an act, one is indeed in a condition where frequency resonances can be used to chemically or physically alter the DNA, or “put out the eyes”. Going after sex in any of the above ways is a raping of the right-brain function. But, we will come back to this further on.
Now, let’s go back for just a bit to our book The Solarion Legacy. Mr. Von Ward makes another interesting observation:
Another constraint on the power of mind appears to be the innate mortality of ordinary matter. … The power of any level of consciousness less than that which created the universe must operate within inherent constraints. Discovery of the constraints operative in this stellar neighborhood would make it possible to infer the degree of power its beings have for conscious co-creation. … Another constraint is the reverse flow of influence of matter on consciousness. … The conscious being has to continually deal with such material influences on its mind and energy… (Von Ward, 2001, emphasis added)
Here is where the Cassiopaeans have given an even more suggestive clue to getting out of the soup, so to speak:
Q: (L) Well, the situation we find ourselves in is the only way of getting out of this time loop, so to speak, to move into another density, or is there a loop in the other density as well?
A: No. Yogis can do it. How they control their own physicality.
Controlling physicality. Right-brain and left-brain unity. How does one learn these things without having to resort to activation of the left-brain imagining which we pretty much have figured out only makes it harder? Well, this brings us back to the remarks made by don Juan to Carlos Castaneda in The Active Side of Infinity:
Don Juan had said that by means of discipline it is possible for anyone to bring the energy body closer to the physical body. Normally, the distance between the two is enormous. Once the energy body is within a certain range, which varies for each of us individually, anyone, through discipline, can forge it into the exact replica of their physical body — that is to say, a three-dimensional, solid being. Hence the sorcerers’ idea of the other or the double. By the same token, through the same process of discipline, anyone can forge their three-dimensional, solid, physical body to be a perfect replica of their energy body — that is to say, an ethereal charge of energy invisible to the human eye, as all energy is…
This sounds almost as though don Juan was describing energy bodies that relate to the separated hemispheres of the brain. The unification of the two sounds like the activation of the Divine androgyne.
Don Juan explained that sorcerers see infant human beings as strange, luminous balls of energy, covered from the top to the bottom with a glowing coat, something like a plastic cover that is adjusted tightly over their cocoon of energy. He said that that glowing coat of awareness was what the predators consumed, and that when a human being reached adulthood, all that was left of that glowing coat of awareness was a narrow fringe that went from the ground to the top of the toes. That fringe permitted mankind to continue living, but only barely. … To his knowledge, man was the only species that had the glowing coat of awareness outside that luminous cocoon. Therefore, man becomes easy prey for an awareness of a different order, such as the heavy awareness of the predator.
Is the “heavy awareness of the predator” the “imaginary beliefs of mankind” that are thrust upon us by our state of reduced knowledge?
…this narrow fringe of awareness was the epicenter of self-reflection, where man is irremediably caught. By playing on our self-reflection, which is the only point of awareness left to us, the predators create flares of awareness that they proceed to consume in a ruthless, predatory fashion. They give us inane problems that force those flares of awareness to rise, and in this manner they keep us alive in order for them to be fed with the energetic flare of our pseudoconcerns. … what we have against us is not a simple predator. It is very smart, and organized. It follows a methodical system to render us useless. Man, the magical being that he is destined to be, is no longer magical. … There are no more dreams for man but the dreams of an animal who is being raised to become a piece of meat: trite, conventional, and imbecilic. …
All we can do is discipline ourselves to the point where they will not touch us. How can you ask your fellow men to go through those rigors of discipline? They’ll laugh and make fun of you, and the more aggressive ones will beat the shit out of you. And not so much because they don’t believe it. Down in the depths of every human being, there’s an ancestral, visceral knowledge about the predators’ existence. … Discipline is the only deterrent. But by discipline I don’t mean harsh routines. I don’t mean waking up every morning at five-thirty and throwing cold water on yourself until you’re blue. Sorcerers understand discipline as the capacity to face with serenity odds that are not included in our expectations. For them, discipline is an art: the art of facing infinity without flinching, not because they are strong and tough but because they are filled with awe.
Sorcerers say that discipline makes the glowing coat of awareness unpalatable to the flyer [predator]. The result is that the predators become bewildered. An inedible glowing coat of awareness is not part of their cognition, I suppose. After being bewildered, they don’t have any recourse other than refraining from continuing their nefarious task.
If the predators don’t eat our glowing coat of awareness for a while, it’ll keep on growing. … The sorcerers of ancient Mexico used to say that the glowing coat of awareness is like a tree. If it is not pruned, it grows to its natural size and volume. As awareness reaches levels higher than the toes, tremendous maneuvers of perception become a matter of course.
The grand trick of those sorcerers of ancient times was to burden the flyers’ mind with discipline. They found out that if they taxed the flyers’ mind with inner silence, the foreign installation would flee; giving to any one of the practitioners involved in this maneuver the total certainty of the mind’s foreign origin. The foreign installation comes back, I assure you, but not as strong, and a process begins in which the fleeing of the flyers’ mind becomes routine, until one day if flees permanently. A sad day indeed! That’s the day when you have to rely on your own devices, which are nearly zero. There’s no one to tell you what to do. There’s no mind of foreign origin to dictate the imbecilities you’re accustomed to. This is the toughest day in a sorcerer’s life, for the real mind that belongs to us, the sum total of our experience, after a lifetime of domination has been rendered shy, insecure, and shifty. Personally, I would say that the real battle of sorcerers begins at that moment. The rest is merely preparation. …
When one is torn by internal struggle, it is because down in the depths one knows that one is incapable of refusing the agreement that an indispensable part of the self, the glowing coat of awareness, is going to serve as an incomprehensible source of nourishment to incomprehensible entities. And, another part of one will stand against this situation with all its might.
The sorcerers’ revolution is that they refuse to honor agreements in which they did not participate. Nobody ever asked me if I would consent to be eaten by beings of a different kind of awareness. My parents just brought me into this world to be food, like themselves, and that’s the end of the story.” (Castaneda, 1998, emphasis added)
The Cassiopaeans say that it is awareness that protects, but awareness is only possible with knowledge of the truth of our reality. I am not talking about your reality as opposed to my reality, or your illusion as opposed to my illusion or any such thing. It is that sort of nonsense that is referred to by don Juan as “the epicenter of self-reflection, where man is irremediably caught”. Most of the propagation of the you-create-your-own-reality ideas amount to the Predator “playing on our self-reflection, which is the only point of awareness left to us”. If your reality is significantly different from mine, then one or both of us is not seeing the objective reality. The truth.
What is the objective reality?
Well, we cannot know without a full field of awareness; we cannot have a full field of awareness without bringing to a halt the process of our awareness being devoured; we cannot bring this to an end without knowledge; and we cannot have knowledge without discipline. With discipline, knowledge and awareness, we become unpalatable to the Predator. The Cassiopaeans have said it this way:
Q: (A) There are those who are happy in the STS mode; and there are those who are trying to get out of the STS mode…
A: STO candidate.
Q: (A) These STO candidates cannot just simply BE, even theoretically, because then, STS would eat them.
A: No.
Q: (L) Why not?
A: STS does not eat according to protocol. STS “eats” whatever it wants to, if it is able.
Q: (L) That’s what we said. If you are STO in an STS world, you are basically defenseless and they eat you.
A: No.
Q: (L) Why? What makes STO unavailable or “inedible”?
A: Frequency resonance not in sync.
Don Juan said that discipline makes the glowing coat of awareness unpalatable to the flyer. The result is that the predators become bewildered. An inedible glowing coat of awareness is not part of their cognition. That is precisely what the Cassiopaeans have said when they termed it not being in sync. They echoed don Juan’s remark about “grabbing onto the vibrating force that holds us together,” i.e., frequency resonance. The end result is: via knowledge we can learn to use discipline, which then enables us to grow back the awareness. Don Juan said: “As awareness reaches levels higher than the toes, tremendous maneuvers of perception become a matter of course.”
It seems that it is here, at this higher level of awareness, that one is able to have some ability to create their own reality. Naturally, everyone who has been hypnotized to believe they are a magician will think, “That’s me, Baby! I’m there already!” And that may be true. But we do have a clue as to what is entailed when one has achieved higher awareness: “Facing odds that are not included in our expectations” and, “facing infinity without flinching … filled with awe.” That suggests some stupendous realizations that might cause a weak-willed person to want very desperately to take the Blue Pill as it was allegorized in the movie, The Matrix.
A concrete example of the many contexts in which the Predator plays on our epicenter of self-reflection is exemplified in the Nexus Seven “Top Secret/Demon” document, which says at the end:
Mommy Goddess and Daddy God are coming into direct contact with us in a new radical fashion — not as physical ETs like the government or evil ETs would have us believe, but as personalized loving, forgiving and powerful spiritual energies and entities from beyond this physical universe. They are returning, big time, in nonphysical terms, to reconnect and co-create with their original soul substance in this universe, located in (guess what?) human hearts.
This Human-Spiritual heart reconnection is feared by the ‘fallen’ Luciferians mindsets — their game is up. Because once the true reconnection happens, it makes individual human beings hundreds of times more powerful than our high yield hydrogen bombs, in terms of potential spiritual influence. Remember the power of our historical Messiahs? They did not show what they were really capable of, despite the wonders they did demonstrate. And remember how all Messiahs claimed that any human was capable of the same as they?
It was all only ever about growing love in the human heart. It was about growing the capacity for caring and intimacy, the incorruptible means for humanity not falling this time for well-laid traps. The alien-human alliance engineered fail-safe awareness traps on the human evolutionary experiment. And they work.
The ETs just hope we humans as a whole species learn our lessons before we get so much power. Since most of us wouldn’t trust anyone we know with too much power, and treat other species on our planet like chattel without feelings, that ought to help explain to you why ETs have us under a form of embargo and quarantine.
The idea presented above makes it seem that love or emotions are the answer rather than direct knowledge of the Cosmos. We are told repeatedly, “You are God!” and “Mommy Goddess and Daddy God are coming … to reconnect and co-create with their original soul substance … located in … human hearts” and on and on. Do we not see a similar pattern here? “You could have this! You could do this!” And the focus is placed on emotion that is stimulated by an idea or a concept, not direct knowledge via observation and experience. By propagating these twisted lie sandwiches, which do include partial truths, and getting people worked up to do things they have no understanding about, “the predators create flares of awareness that they proceed to consume in a ruthless, predatory fashion.”
You see, the thing that they so cleverly leave out of the equation is that, if one would become like God, one must know like God. Or, to put it the other way: “If one would know God, one must become like God.” That means that one must connect the hemispheres of the brain, not the emotions. Yes, it is true that emotions are observed by the right-brain, but they are created by the left-brain through thought—imagination. The Corpus Hermeticum (XI) says:
If then you do not make yourself equal to God, you cannot apprehend God; for like is known by like. To realize this state of being requires a radical transformation of consciousness and perception, a change in the way in which we know and perceive, “for all things which the eye can see are mere phantoms and unsubstantial outlines; but the things which the eye cannot see are the realities…”
Now, of course, there are those who claim that to know God, and to become Godlike, one must access the blissful states of Godlike Love. So they work all their lives to achieve this emotional ecstasy of God using an image or a concept. They have missed the key that becoming Godlike consists of observing and experiencing the Cosmos directly, which results in knowledge. Knowledge leads to awareness of what is out there. Awareness of what is out there gives one the ability to think with the left-brain in concord with what the right-brain observes. This merging of the two halves of the brain — observation and thinking/formulating — is the thing that can discipline emotions so that there is no negative expression that can feed the Predator.
Q: (T) Who talks to me when I am having conversations with myself in my head?
A: You.
Q: (L) Am I talking to other beings?
A: Have.
Q: (T) Can you tell me who they are?
A: Lizards.
Q: (T) Why are they talking to me?
A: Trying to convert you. Remember, T, your chronic depression represents a “battle” zone.
Q: (T) I no longer am depressed and they are talking to me more.
A: Watch out!
Q: (T) Can I turn them off?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Who is “Sing”?
A: Leader of forces assigned to influence you.
Q: (T) Forces, as in many are assigned to me personally?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) How many are in this force?
A: Seven.
Q: (T) Do they do this because of the implants that are in me?
A: All part of process.
Q: (T) These implants are what they use to control my emotions and amplify them so that they can feed off of them?
A: Not control, influence.
Q: (T) No, not to control, influence. But when, say, I get angry, then I’m angry for a short time but then I’m angry for a long time because they have used this technology to amplify and extend this; is this what they do?
A: Yes. Knowledge protects, ignorance endangers.
Q: (T) Can I feed back through their equipment what I choose?
A: Not necessary.
Q: (T) In other words, if I get angry and realize that I am being more angry than I should be, and I change that to something positive, and feed that back to them while they have their amplifiers wide open, will that affect them? Sour their milk, so to speak?
A: Now you are “fighting fire with fire.”
Q: (T) Well, is that something that we are supposed to be doing?
A: Open. But what does phrase imply?
Q: (L) What they are saying is, I think, when you feel yourself getting angry, the only way to stop the whole thing is to stop being angry and be happy or at peace. When you are happy and at peace there is not in you the desire to send anything back.
A: Bingo.
Q: (T) What I am getting at is, is it possible to do that, to change the emotional state to something more positive than what they are expecting and feed that back to them? Is that a possibility?
A: Why? How effective is a light socket without a plug in it? How effective is a motor that is never turned on? Implants are ineffective if not used.
Q: (J) The power source has to be on for the implant to work for them to get the juice and the power is negative thoughts and emotions. (T) But I am still a third density being. I have all the emotions of a third density being, the whole gamut, and that is part of what makes me a third density being. Therefore I can’t turn one emotion off without upsetting the balance of the other emotions, emotions are almost an analogy to the light and the dark.
A: No. If you choose, you may have only positive emotions.
Q: (T) Now, if I have only positive emotions, which is a nice thing to have and I’d like to have that, what does that do to the sensor equipment of the Lizzies?
A: Cancels them.
Q: (T) So they are tuned to negative frequencies?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Having positive feelings cuts off the implants. If I cut off the sensors by having positive feelings, what will the Lizards do?
A: Go elsewhere.
Q: (L) Be aware, though, that when you first start turning this off that they may increase their efforts for a period and then finally they realize that you are really in charge here and then they go away.
A: Exactly.
Q: (L) So, when you first get a clue and you start getting a grip on your emotions and dealing with everything that happens to you with acceptance and knowledge that all is a manifestation of your own creation and for your ultimate good, for a period of time they may try ten times harder to get you back as a food source, but then once they realize they can’t, then they do finally let loose?
A: You and Frank are experiencing this right now.
Q: (L) This is true. (F) We have both been under massive attack. Just doing this work has been a struggle to keep at it with everything coming from every direction. (L) The hardest has been to stay in a frame of mind to do it.
Q: (T) Is the attack I have been under the past few months the first assault?
A: Yes. Only first assault.
Q: (T) So, the more positive I become, the more they are going to continue trying, and I am assuming that because you said I have seven beings of some kind assigned to me, that they find something interesting in me that they want to keep?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Should it make me happy that they think I am important enough to have seven beings assigned to me personally? Should I take that as a compliment?
A: No.
Q: (J) Is T’s level of negativity what makes him attractive to them? His capability for strong negativity?
A: Vice versa.
Q: (J) Please explain. What makes him attractive to them?
A: Not attractive, a threat.
Q: (L) I think there are a lot of people they start working on very early in life because they do like a scan and determine that a person has potential for great light so they start working on them when they are young and defenseless to try and take them out of the game, so to speak. (F) Not only great good, but also potential for knowledge. (L) Is this the case here?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) It isn’t your potential for negativity; it is your potential for good. (F) Right. If you look around you then you will see the mainstream of society, and they just seem to move through life and enjoy wallowing in materiality, these people don’t seem to suffer as much. (L) There seems to be two classes of people the Lizzies like to go after, extremely weak ones and those they haul off and eat or experiment on; and those who have potential strength and positivity. (F) The people they don’t attack are those who they already have and they don’t have to work on them. If you have the potential to rise above the Service-to-Self orientation, then you are a threat. (T) Okay. Where were we? Just by being positive will shut off the Lizzies desire to mess with me?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) That’s all there is to it? But the implants will still be there?
A: So what?
Q: (T) Do the implants do anything besides transmit the frequency?
A: No.
Q: (T) And, as long as I am being negative it is transmitting and they can track me that way?
A: Close.
Q: (T) If I shut them off by being positive, they can’t track me any longer?
A: Can track but not influence.
Q: (T) I am not buying into the victim line. (L) The major point here is that knowledge breeds awareness which gives you the ability to detect it when they try to influence you in very subtle ways so that you can begin to control your mind and resist early on and that is the key.
A: Close enough.
Q: (L) And you have to be disciplined and persist with positive thoughts and feelings sometimes in the face of incredible adversity. No one said it was going to be easy, but it is worth it.
The Cassiopaeans have said that what we are here to do, what we must “be about” in terms of preparation to graduate to the next level, the level of true self-creation is to learn the lessons of this density. This is related to the idea of being able to correctly discern what is in the reality and how it is working and if it is part of the control process. Awareness can help a person avoid situations that will lead to pain and suffering and negative feelings. Awareness of the reality behind events that would ordinarily be perceived as either frightening or painful can greatly facilitate the maintenance of positivity.
A: You see, my dear, when you arrive at 4th density, then you will see.
Q: (L) Well, how in the heck am I supposed to get there if I can’t “get it”?
A: Who says you have to “get it” before you get there?
Q: (L) Well, that leads back to: what is the Wave going to do to expand this awareness? Because, if the Wave is what “gets you there”, what makes this so?
A: No. It is like this: After you have completed all your lessons in “third grade”, where do you go?
Q: (L) So, it is a question of…
A: Answer, please.
Q: (L) You go to fourth grade.
A: Okay, now, do you have to already be in 4th grade in order to be allowed to go there? Answer.
Q: (L) No. But you have to know all the third density things…
A: Yes. More apropos: you have to have learned all of the lessons.
Q: (L) What kind of lessons are we talking about here?
A: Karmic and simple understandings.
Q: (L) What are the key elements of these understandings, and are they fairly universal?
A: They are universal.
Q: (L) What are they?
A: We cannot tell you that.
Q: (L) Do they have to do with discovering the meanings of the symbology of third density existence, seeing behind the veil… and reacting to things according to choice? Giving each thing or person or event its due?
A: Okay. But you cannot force the issue. When you have learned, you have learned!
Q: (L) I just want to make sure that I am doing the most I can do. I don’t want to have to come back to third density. If I can accelerate things a little…
A: You cannot, so just enjoy the ride. Learning is fun!
Notice that I specifically stated the possible answer: “Discovering the meanings of the symbology of third density existence and reacting to things according to choice; giving each thing its due” and the Cassiopaeans responded: “But you cannot force the issue. When you have learned, you have learned!” So, I am not going to force the issue on anyone! Everyone who reads this book is free to accept or reject any or all of what is said here.
Our Nexus Seven guys complain:
We need a language of hyper-dimensional symbols that codify human relationship with nature. Symbols and ritual that codify the elements and forces of nature codify the life processes of nature, from the little insects all the way up to the supposedly angelic and demonic ETs. Without this language there is no means for intelligent contact to have a basis for occurring. And it could be that some symbols from history have their basis in being received alien communications.
I would like to point out that we do have such a language. It is called Nature. Nature is going to teach us quite a bit. The more one contemplates Nature, the more awe one must feel regarding the creation. The problem is, for some people, the more they learn, and the more miserable they are. The person who learns, for the first time, that the cat toys and tortures the mouse before killing and eating it, is stunned that such cruelty exists in Nature. It is seen as evil. Such people then seek to construct imaginary worlds of spirit where no cat ever tortures the mouse before eating it. They quote the scripture where it says, “The lion lies down with the lamb”, assuming that they will all eat grass, I suppose. Well, what about the grass? Isn’t it alive also? So, in creating such fantasies, they cheat themselves of the truth about the natural world, which is the organ of the Prime Creator’s expression.
This distortion grows and extends to all that they learn and consider. When they discover something that is not nice, or of the darkness, or negative, they recoil in fear and horror. What’s more, they immediately begin to plan how to fix it, because obviously in their minds such a reality is broken.
The plain fact is the evil which we read into the world and all the imperfections which we believe we have discovered are simply a result of the limits of our understanding. The narrower the point of view from which we look upon, view or observe things, the more evil and the more imperfections we see.
There are many who have written to me about the “fear based” information in my books and online writings. They assume, automatically, that because we talk about reality in pretty plain terms, including all aspects of it, that I must be sitting here at my desk, quaking and quivering in terror with every word I type. Nothing could be further from the truth. I have to state right here and now that I have never been in a state of fear once I have learned the true nature of what energies are behind the manifestations of our world.
For all the many years that I have studied evil and darkness in an attempt to reconcile its existence to the idea of a perfect, loving God, it was the perception of the darkness as an error or mistake or flaw that made me afraid. What is more terrifying than to think that your soul and life can be subject to either an accident or a trick of temptation? What is more terrifying than to think that an accident or error can exist ontologically in the universe that is supposed to be God’s creation? The only conclusions I could ever come to with that thinking was that humankind was either a sick joke or a plaything of God — and neither of those ideas are conducive to love and faith.
As I gained more and more knowledge about the world, my point of view broadened. And, as my perspective expanded, the more the evils disappeared. Now, don’t get me wrong. When I say they disappeared, that does not mean they went away or were transformed. Not at all. I just stopped seeing them as evil. Not only that, I began to see the incredible humor in the situation. When I became aware of a Control System maneuver in my life, I almost laughed with glee at the challenge of a worthy opponent.
No indeed. I still can see demons in the world and at work; I still see the creeping darkness shadowing the souls of humankind, blotting out their access to their creative potential. I still see war and genocide and famine and plague as part of our reality. Not only that, I see these things as part of the reality that are not going to change into something that we call good by the powers of concentrated love and light. It is not a good idea to send love and light to the negative forces because they don’t want it. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t love them! Semantics? No. Subtle but important distinction? Yes.
And even though for convention, I use terms such as dark and light, and good and evil and positive and negative in order to talk about things in a practical way, I no longer see these things as an essential error or that which must be done away with or transformed in order for humankind to grow and ascend from this vale of tears. The fact is, most of humankind is not done with the lessons in this school and to try to change it for those who aren’t finished with the lessons would be to violate their free will, not to mention their whole cosmic plan and purpose.
What I see now is that all of these things exist, the light and the dark, the good and the evil, the positive and the negative, the STS and STO beings, as part of the superb framework of the infinite Creator or Prime Source.
What is more, I see the reason for it to be this way, above and beyond just the simple choice of humankind to experience learning at a faster rate. That issue is not relative to our particular Group Soul only; there are a potentially infinite amount of other souls and Group Souls and beings in the Cosmos who partake of the same conditions as we do, at different levels. There is far more to this state than that.
In one sense, you could say that it is a vast and glorious self-regulating organism that is One; but it is One in Manyness. It is only when we perceive this actual Unity as already existing, and not as something that one has to imagine or pretend will come into being, (which means excluding all that one finds unpleasant or not of love and light), will the literal fact of this state manifest in one’s life.
But, I am getting ahead of myself here. Let’s look at nature in some interesting contexts and discover our spiritual beloved in all the many moods and faces that will be shown to us.
1 After a great deal of research in an effort to discover if the above comment about the dating of Stonehenge could possibly — in any remote configuration — be correct, I came to the startling realization that the “dating of Stonehenge” is based on little more than assumption. Excavations in 1966 and 1988 uncovered burnt bone and charcoal in several substantial pits which were dated to the Mesolithic. The results suggest that timber was used in the area for 300 to 1600 years, between 8500-7650 cal B.C. and 7500-6700 cal B.C. The early date and longevity of activity prompted researchers to question the quality of the charcoal samples (typical!). Researchers say they aren’t related to the Stonehenge monument because they are simply too early, a clear assumption. Material suitable for radiocarbon dating is scarce, and yet evidence of early activity as always rejected as “residual”. (See: http://www.eng-h.gov.uk/stoneh/start.htm#methods and http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/prince.htm)
STO and STS
In 1999, a document started making the rounds online called “Top Secret/Demon” by an individual or group calling themselves The Nexus Seven.1 The document attempts to convey an assessment of the current alien/UFO phenomena culled from both strictly “3D” analytical thinking and apparently channeled material from a variety of sources. I was very interested to read this document because it very usefully creates a platform from which to discuss some of these issues more thoroughly, as I did in Stripped to the Bone. On the subject of the prime duality within both creation and humanity, the Nexus Seven write:
The notions of Service-to-Self and Service-to-Others in popular use in channeled Ufology today are outrageous, but apt simplifications of the real intricacies of the matter. As the definitions change of exactly what ‘self’ encompasses these notions map across a wide variety of different orientations, and it is appropriate to introduce the dialectic, the triad pattern that is really involved beyond the dualistic notion. Although merely extending the differentiating metaphor into three classes is hardly as far as it can be taken.
In this remark, the Nexus Seven make it clear that they are falling under the influence of the damping effect of Service-to-Self (STS) deception. There is no clearer or more fundamental understanding of the reality of creation than to grasp the concept of Being vs. Non-being, creation vs. entropy, as is often exemplified in the yin-yang symbol. That’s the bottom line. The One that is Two in One. It is only in the dynamic between them that there even is a “third man.” The third man (Gurdjieff’s third force; tertium quid), the supreme barzakh of Ibn al-’Arabi, or Nature, is the created cosmos: the matter of entropic, sleeping consciousness enlivened with creative, awakening consciousness. As the Cs put it:
Q: (L) But, just a clue: how does thought become matter?
A: Bilaterally. Dual emergence.
Q: (L) Emergence into what and what?
A: Not “into what and what,” but rather, “from what and to what.”
Q: (L) What emerges from what?
A: The beginning emerges from the end, and vice versa.
Q: (L) And what is the beginning and what is the end?
A: Union with the One. Seventh density, i.e.: all that is, and is not.
The two fundamentals of all that is: the most important concept to grasp in order to know how to grow or ascend to higher realms. The thing is, since all of creation is cycles within a grand cycle, this means that not everyone is ready at any one time. Those who are ready have a profound sense of mission, and for some, that mission is to assist those who are very close to awakening to be able to do so. But, even those with a mission must awaken to it:
Q: (L) But, just exactly what is the mission?
A: You are awakening to it just fine, thank you!
Q: (L) Are you saying that all this constant discussing and taking things apart and talking about them and thinking about all these things is actually getting us somewhere?
A: Absolutely!!!!
Q: (L) Is some mode of sharing this information we are receiving part of this “mission?”
A: When you have learned, you have energized yourself. Lead by the hand? No way, Jose!
Q: (L) So, we have to make that choice ourselves. OK, we discussed a name that would sort of symbolize this mission and we came up with — and who knows how — Aurora to symbolize the dawn, waking up … that sort of thing. Where in the world did this come from?
A: Refer to the previous answer.
Q: (L) So, we have to choose everything here. And there are no comments?
A: No need, you are doing just fine by yourselves.
Q: (S) What did you expect them to say? “Atta girl!?” [Laughter] Will we be able to find some way to support this mission?
A: We are not going to answer that, as it would violate level one directive.
Q: (L) What is a “level one directive”?
A: Refer to last answer.
Q: (L) Well, fine! I want to know! Is there some place that gives out orders up there?
A: You will know when it is right, and not before!
Q: (L) I want you guys to know that I sometimes feel a wee tiny bit like a pawn on a chessboard!
A: You should, you inhabit third density STS environment.
Q: (L) I was at least hoping that if I was a pawn, that some of the players were good guys. Is that asking too much?
A: Yes. The “Good guys” don’t play chess.
Q: (L) But there have been so many strange events, so many synchronous events. Is that the good guys helping or the bad guys leading me astray?
A: Neither. It is Nature running its course.
Q: (L) OK. One of the sensations I have experienced is that I have had it up to the eyebrows with the negative energies and experiences of third density, and I have thought lately that this feeling of having had enough, in an absolute sense, is one of the primary motivators for wanting to find one’s way out of this trap we are in. I want out of it. Is this part of this “nature” as you call it?
A: Yes. When you see the futility of the limitations of third density life, it means you are ready to graduate. Notice those who wallow in it.
Q: (L) Some people obviously wallow in extreme materiality. And there seems to be another kind that is more subtle, which has to do with saying that you want to grow and become enlightened, and yet such a person is unable to pierce the veil of their own illusions about how to become enlightened, and then they wallow in the illusion that they are really making progress …
A: Wallowing takes many forms. More often, the sign of wallowing is someone who does not feel alienated by the obvious traps and limitations of third density.
So, we know that the obvious traps and limitations of third density produce a sense of alienation in the person who is in the process of awakening. But then, awakening is not precisely the same thing as growing to fit fourth density. We know we have to awaken in order to choose our polarity, but then comes the matter of amplification through forced oscillation.
It is in this matter of choosing orientation and amplification that the terms of Service-to-Others (STO) and Service-to-Self (STS) become the most important ideas presented to humans in the present time. They are not “outrageous, but apt simplifications of the real intricacies of the matter,” as the Nexus Seven suggest.
In practical terms, how do we grow stronger in our polarity? If it is to be of the STO alignment, isn’t it just necessary to give? Isn’t that the only key? And don’t the STS polarized beings just take? Well, it is that simple, and it is more complex, as well. From one perspective, it would seem that the most accepting and loving thing to do would be to love all — to surround all those of the STS alignment with “love and light” so that they would be enclosed and permeated with this love which would then transform them to the STO alignment.
But note immediately that, in these terms, the sending of love is intended to change, to transform, to deny free will to the being on the receiving end. And thus, by simply doing this, one is aligning with the very orientation that seeks to deny free will, i.e. STS! The result is that the very love energy being sent is STS-oriented forced oscillation. What will it then do? It will amplify the STS frequency in the person or situation it is being sent to transform. It will do the opposite of what is wanted by the sender, but exactly what is intended.
Service-to-Self seeks to dominate and take all in order to stuff its black hole of fear. To send love (or to give anything) with the intention of changing, transforming, or making anything different than what it is, is to seek domination. For the Service-to-Others polarity to allow itself to be manipulated by deceptive teachings of “sending love and light to transform the world” amounts to the ipso facto acceptance of dominance, the damping of its own frequency, the loss of amplitude. Service-to-Others seeks to give all of self to others, but, because the chief thing it wishes to give is free will, it only gives when asked. Sounds like a marriage made in heaven, yes? One side wants to take; one side wants to give. Go for it, right?
The idea that those of the STO frequency must not give without being asked is a subtle thing. The concept inherent in asking is that of willing exchange. The asking is the giving of the one who asks. The response is the giving of the one who is asked. If there is anything in either of them that expects any change other than the explicit asking and giving, the interaction falls into STS and not STO. (And one must consider, just what is asking? Some people may verbally ask, but the intention is manipulative, designed for the exact opposite of what they appear to be asking. Others may not ask verbally, but it is clear that they are asking with their actions or their very situation. This is where knowledge becomes so valuable.)
However, if one can ask, and one can give without expectation of any change of any kind in the receiver, the STO dynamic is operational. If there is even a hidden motive that anything will be changed by the exchange, the result is damping of the STO frequency. When you give in response to manipulation, which is a domination dynamic, you are also giving from a position of STS, which is further self-damping to STO-orientation and amplifying to STS. And then, on top of self-damping, you are losing energy, because there is no willing exchange.
The end result of giving love energy to the STS polarity is to gradually deplete the STO polarity in the self as well as in the grander scheme of things, and eventually, to deprive all those of that polarity from shared, symbiotic sustenance. One has then, by default, become part of the STS hierarchy and has lost any usefulness in terms of STO. If you are seeking to polarize in the STO mode, you must gain energy by alignment and amplification to move out of the STS realm into an STO dynamic where all give to each other and there is multiplication of force in the act, rather than depletion. Because of the primacy of matter at our level of existence, STS is the default state in which we find ourselves as beings with all kinds of physical and emotional needs.
Another way of saying it is that the true object of the STO dynamic is to give to the free will function of the Cosmic Mind (God) in all its myriad forms of creative manifestation; to establish frequency resonance in this dynamic. The true object of the STS dynamic is to give to the Cosmic Mind in its role of death and the destroyer — the Thought of Non-being — to deny free will to create or be. The STS side wants to induce or manipulate enslavement. The STO side must refuse in order to retain their strength and purity and ability to actualize free will for all.
The essence of creation is the fact that, beneath the empirical, observable “real world” is the realm of underlying potentials, out of which our physical world is manifested by our perspective, our awareness. The gift of free will of God is our ability to choose our perspective: is the glass half-empty or half-full? We can choose “living water” that becomes a spring of water welling up continually within, to eternal life, or we can choose the water from the “well of Jacob the supplanter,” which will leave us thirsty again and again. It is in this choice that we come to the remark of Carlos Castaneda’s don Juan from The Active Side of Infinity: “As awareness reaches levels higher than the toes, tremendous maneuvers of perception become a matter of course.”
Such a choice is a maneuver of perception, though it is only in retrospect that I can even say this, having been as ignorant of what was happening to me in my own life as a person could be. Further maneuvers of perception amount to the ability to make every choice based on seeing the unseen. Every time we choose, based on knowledge and love2, rather than chemical-emotional love or love based on assumptions and wishful thinking, we are giving a push to the swing of amplifying our Frequency Resonance Vibration (FRV), our vibratory signature. Such amplification increases our polarization and we grow.
The problem is, in the beginning, when we begin to use discipline to try to see the unseen, we are like a blind man stumbling through a maze. We are Theseus in the lair of the Minotaur, guided only by the thread of Ariadne. Our ability to perceive the noumenal world,3 which can reveal to us the activities of fourth density, requires great attention, great discipline, and an ability to “face with serenity odds that are not included in our expectations.” We have to learn the art of “facing infinity without flinching.” And it is this process that the Cassiopaeans are facilitating. What they tell us about the noumenal world, the fourth density realm, is not supposed to terrify us in the end, it is supposed to wake us up to the odds facing us that do not accord with our expectations.
And, as we begin to learn to really see, we begin to make some experimental choices based on what we are seeing. Some of them work, some of them don’t. We adjust our course gradually, learning what amplifies our polarity and what damps our polarity.
I recently received some correspondence from members of our online group who have been experimenting with awakening and seeing the meanings behind the reality as outlined by the Cassiopaeans. One of them wrote:
One thing I am finally realizing in spite of decades of religious and social training to the contrary, is that we all have only one decision to make, just one. At any specific moment, we are all faced with the opportunity to invoke an STS or an STO approach to the specific lesson at hand. By placing focus on this specific choice of the moment instead of fretting about a lifetime of “wrong” choices and carrying the weight of redemption/salvation via an outside source who demands that you pay them money so they will “speak nicely about you to their lord in an afterlife,” coupled with the Cassiopaeans’ insistence that there is no “right or wrong,” just lessons, makes the “task” of being an STO candidate sooooooo much easier…
And another member of the group responded:
Doesn’t it seem like a choice made in the present moment that brings deep clarity and understanding of a lesson, changes the nature of all choices ever made? And that is the essence of the matter. A choice made in the present moment — ANY present moment — excluding all the outside influences, with only the consideration of whether it allows Free Will to all involved, changes the nature of all choices ever made!
Every choice that supports free will for any being, whether that being is using their free will to choose to deny free will to either themselves or others and must be blocked from accomplishing that aim, to the extent free will is maintained for all involved, is a choice for free will at the deepest levels of existence. But notice the key: to support free will of others to choose and fully experience their own path — and that does not mean to support the choice they have made by participating in their lesson. To participate in the choice of orientation of another is to make it your own. It can then act as a damper to your own amplification.
This means that the ability to support free will in others, which lies in the STO pathway, must remain pure and must not be subsumed into the STS alignment. Otherwise free will for all could cease to exist in our present reality, which would create an imbalance of such awesome proportions that I shudder to consider the consequences. In fact, it could even be said that learning the true dynamics of STO and free will in the cadres of those who have the internal inclination, and to begin to practice it, might considerably ameliorate any predicted cataclysms. One thing that is certain, however, to continue to violate free will by all the “love and light” efforts to change the world, to transform the darkness into light, will result in nothing but worsening conditions on our planet by the very fact that they amplify the STS polarity.
It is for God — the Divine Cosmic Mind — for all — including the STS polarity, that the STO candidates must refuse to support, sustain and feed the STS dynamic. If you feed the STS polarity, it grows stronger (and it has already been in charge here for over 300,000 years, according to the Cs) and the STO presence will grow weaker, which will erode free will for all.
So, we return again to one of the main themes of the Wave series: the peeling of the onion of illusion, the constant reiteration of the point that you are asleep, the necessary shocking of your sensibilities over and over again with the idea that unless you awaken, your position is hopeless — you are “food for the gods.” By taking away every hope and dream of outside salvation you ever thought you could cling to, I am stripping your bones bare. Not only am I stripping your bones, I am boiling your flesh. And, to those who are truly asking, it is an essential function I am performing for you. It is the shamanic initiation. You cannot be reborn unless you die, and unless a man be born again, he can have no “eternal life”. A man cannot be reborn unless he die first.4
In the broadest sense, the human being who has mastery over his own life is a shaman, and those of you who resist this process most strenuously are most likely the ones with the greatest shamanic capacity. Will is will. It just needs to be married to knowledge. It cannot be married until is has matured and it cannot mature unless it has been born, and it cannot be born until the false personality dies.5
It has been observed that the desire of the human being to enter into ecstatic contact with the divine is in direct conflict with the fear of being obliged to renounce the simple human condition. We can see, from our discussion above, that this is, essentially, the conflict between Service-to-Others and Service-to-Self. The work to gather the knowledge and become humble and face the deep inner truth about the self is the price, and not everyone is able to pay it. This is the human dilemma. There is nothing cozier than to be a human being. We can live forever behind veils of illusion, suffering our blindness, and dying in our ignorance; and, until some aspect of that human has had its fill of suffering and death, there will be no desire to venture into the unknown to seek the cure for the human disease. Only the soul that is ready for this definitive journey is willing to risk the soul-chilling fear of traveling into the enchanted forest of the cosmos in order to experience the unspeakable joy of finding the Grail — the choice for free will service to others that serves all.
A shaman is, as Mircea Eliade describes, a “technician of ecstasy.” This is an essential qualification and result of contact with the divine. More than that, in order to be in direct contact with the divine, a human being must be able to see the unseen. This seeing is the capacity of human beings to enlarge their perceptual field until they are capable of assessing not only outer appearances, but also the essence of everything. They can then access the level of being that enables them to make choices that are capable of initiating new causal series.
Of course, problems arise when an individual attempts to be a shaman without knowledge. A recent correspondent sent us some information about a popular channeled source that claims to be teaching a new perspective on physics.
Dear Ark and Laura,
I don’t know much about Scalar Waves, certainly not enough to know whether or not the below site’s information on Scalar Waves is useful, but I pass the information along to you. I have heard Anna Hayes speak on the Jeff Rense radio show, and she made a good impression as an apparently calm and knowledgeable person.
J***
Ark went to the site in question and began to read. After a period of study, he responded as follows:
Hi J***,
While reading:
“Dimensions are interwoven layers of scalar waves that serve to direct the flow of consciousness/energy into multiple patterns of refraction through which the hologram of matter density, linear time and manifest objectification of reality can be experienced. Dimensions exist in precise relationship to each other creating a 90-degree difference in Angular Rotation of Particle Spin between dimensional bands. Scalar Waves are points of Standing Waves, composed of quantities of consciousness, that emanate out of fixed points of vibration which form ultra-micro-particle units called Partiki, Partika and Particum. Scalar Waves exist within a fixed Scalar Field that forms the Universal Unified Field of consciousness/energy. Fixed scalar waves appear to move due to a perpetual action of internal fission and fusion, through which series of scalar standing wave points ‘flash on and off’ creating perpetual rhythms of motion called ‘flash-line sequences’ through which continual manifestation and de-manifestation of matter occurs.”
I can’t help thinking that it is a pity that a person that evidently knows nothing about waves, dimensions, particle spin etc. chooses to “teach” others on these subjects. But, on the other hand, creating more confusion is what the Lizzies must have on their mind. And they seem to be successful. On the other hand, we are in a Free Will Universe — it is up to each person to choose the path and the “teacher.” Thanks for the link — it helps me.
Best,
ark.
As it happened, Ark’s response was also sent to a promoter of the above channeling who then responded:
Hi:
One doesn’t need to know anything on a specific topic when the information isn’t coming from oneself but from a higher source.
Love, Light, and Joy
Dee Finney
Aside from the fact that actually reading that nonsense is an energy drain, such a perspective does not resonate with the Cassiopaean information, in which independent study and gaining of knowledge is urged as the only means by which we can be protected from being led into traps. Ark replied:
Dear Dee,
Sure, but to check whether the information comes from a higher source or lower source, it is always necessary first to check whether the information makes any sense or is just a mumbo-jumbo. There are lot of dead dudes and other entities that are more than ready to pour all kinds of nonsense into our heads.
Real research is always necessary. How else can we know we are not being disinformed? You must never rely on what the entities tell you. You always have to check and keep critical! Unless you want to live in an illusion. Many people do.
Best,
ark
Anyone can be a channel. However, it takes knowledge and will to be able to choose to do the work to access expanded states of consciousness. Gurdjieff addressed this very topic in the following exchange recorded in Ouspensky’s In Search of the Miraculous:
“How can we recognize people who are able to come to the work?” asked one of those present.
“How to recognize them is another question,” said G. “To do this it is necessary to a certain extent ‘to be.’ But before speaking of this we must establish what kind of people are able to come to the work and what kind are not able.
“You must understand that a man should have, first, a certain preparation, certain luggage. He should know what it is possible to know through ordinary channels about the ideas of esotericism, about hidden knowledge, about possibilities of the inner evolution of man, and so on. What I mean is that these ideas ought not to appear to him as something entirely new. Otherwise it is difficult to speak to him. It is useful also if he has at least some scientific or philosophical preparation. If a man has a good knowledge of religion, this can also be useful. But if he is tied to religious forms and has no understanding of their essence, he will find it very difficult. In general, if a man knows but little, has read but little, has thought but little, it is difficult to talk to him.
“If he has a good essence there is another way for him without any talks at all, but in this case he has to be obedient, he has to give up his will. And he has to come to this also in some way or other.
“It can be said that there is one general rule for everybody. In order to approach this system seriously, people must be disappointed, first of all in themselves, that is to say, in their powers, and secondly in all the old ways. A man cannot feel what is most valuable in the system unless he is disappointed in what he has been doing, disappointed in what he has been searching for. If he is a scientist he should be disappointed in his science. If he is a religious man he should be disappointed in his religion. If he is a politician he should be disappointed in politics. If he is a philosopher he should be disappointed in philosophy. If he is a theosophist he should be disappointed in theosophy. If he is an occultist he should be disappointed in occultism. And so on.
“But you must understand what this means. I say for instance that a religious man should be disappointed in religion. This does not mean that he should lose his faith. On the contrary, it means being ‘disappointed’ in the teaching and the methods only, realizing that the religious teaching he knows is not enough for him, can lead him nowhere. All religious teachings, excepting of course the completely degenerated religions of savages and the invented religions and sects of modern times, consist of two parts, the visible and the hidden. To be disappointed in religion means being disappointed in the visible, and to feel the necessity for finding the hidden and unknown part of religion. To be disappointed in science does not mean losing interest in knowledge. It means being convinced that the usual scientific methods are not only useless but lead to the construction of absurd and self contradictory theories, and, having become convinced of this, to begin to search for others. To be disappointed in philosophy means being convinced that ordinary philosophy is merely … as it is said in the Russian proverb … pouring from one empty vessel into another, and that people do not even know what philosophy means although true philosophy also can and should exist. To be disappointed in occultism does not mean losing faith in the miraculous, it is merely being convinced that ordinary, accessible, and even advertised occultism, under whatever name it may pass, is simply charlatanism and self-deception and that, although somewhere something does exist, everything that man knows or is able to learn in the ordinary way is not what he needs.
“So that, no matter what he used to do before, no matter what used to interest him, if a man has arrived at this state of disappointment in ways that are possible and accessible, it is worthwhile speaking to him about our system and then he may come to the work. But if he continues to think that he is able to find anything on his former way, or that he has not as yet tried all the ways, or that he can, by himself, find anything or do anything, it means that he is not ready. I do not mean that he must throw up everything he used to do before. This is entirely unnecessary. On the contrary, it is often even better if he continues to do what he used to do. But he must realize that it is only a profession, or a habit, or a necessity. In this case it is another matter, he will then be able not to identify.
“There is only one thing incompatible with work and that is ‘professional occultism,’ in other words, professional charlatanism. All these spiritualists, healers, clairvoyants, and so on, or even people closely connected with them, are none of them any good to us. And you must always remember this and take care not to tell them much because everything they learn from you they might use for their own purposes, that is, to make fools of other people.
“…In the meantime remember one thing only: A man must be sufficiently disappointed in ordinary ways and he must at the same time think or be able to accept the idea that there may be something … somewhere. If you should speak to such a man, he might discern the flavor of truth in what you say no matter how clumsily you might speak. But if you should speak to a man who is convinced about something else, everything you say will sound absurd to him and he will never even listen to you seriously. It is not worthwhile wasting time on him. This system is for those who have already sought and have burned themselves. Those who have not sought and who are not seeking do not need it. And those who have not yet burned themselves do not need it either.”
“But this is not what people begin with,” said one of our company. “They ask: Do we admit the existence of the ether? Or how do we look on evolution? Or why do we not believe in progress? Or why do we not think that people can and should organize life on the basis of justice and the common good? And things of this sort.”
“All questions are good,” said G., “and you can begin from any question if only it is sincere. You understand that what I mean is that this very question about ether or about progress or about the common good could be asked by a man simply in order to say something, or to repeat what someone else has said or what he has read in some book, and on the other hand he could ask it because this is the question with which he aches. If it is an aching question for him you can give him an answer and you can bring him to the system through any question whatever. But it is necessary for the question to be an aching one.” (Ouspensky 1977, 242—244)
One of the hardest things for anyone to acknowledge is their own susceptibility to suggestion, manipulation and external control. No one wants to admit that their awareness can be manipulated. Yet, without exception, all of the Mystery Teachings tell us that the first order of business in expanding awareness is to overcome the hypnosis, or “sleep state” in which man exists. Without exception, all of the mystery teachings tell us that this is so formidable a task that only one in ten thousand can achieve it.
Think about this for a moment. Nine thousand, nine hundred ninety-nine people will react to this statement by thinking: “I am the one in ten thousand!” The Great Masters will tell you that if you think this, then you are not.
It is the one who realizes that all of his perceptions must be minutely scrutinized, doubted, tested, examined and challenged who has the smallest hope of escaping the hypnosis. To realize this is but the first in a long series of steps to awakening. But, remember, awakening is not the same thing as seeing. Many can see in expanded awareness, but immediately go back to sleep. What they saw is then interpreted by the standards of the hypnotic sleep state of ordinary awareness. This is what happens to most of those who claim to channel with no need to check their sources. As Ark wrote above, “to check whether the information comes from a higher source or lower source, it is always necessary first to check whether the information makes any sense or is just a mumbo-jumbo. … Real research is always necessary. … You must never rely on what the entities tell you. … Unless you want to live in an illusion.”
From my perspective, the main reason such “seers” do not doubt, test, examine and challenge their so-called guides is due, purely and simply, to ego. They have been told that they are special or chosen or are the messenger of this or that council or the heavenly host. It is far easier and more comfortable to believe this and the further instruction that “all you need to do is listen to us!” than to exert the enormous efforts required to acknowledge, and extirpate the ego’s weaknesses, the chief one being, of course, susceptibility to manipulation by forces far more devious than the human mind can fathom.
Don Juan says that seers must be paragons of virtue by their will and intent in order to override the nearly invincible laxness of the human condition and programming. To say, “One doesn’t need to know anything on a specific topic when the information isn’t coming from oneself but from a higher source,” is so astonishing an example of this laxness and manipulation that it is difficult to understand how a person can write it without having their conscience immediately assaulted by the insanity of such a view. In The Fire from Within, Carlos Castaneda writes that one of the necessary conditions of learning to truly see is to:
… bring [one’s] mind to focus on anything with uncommon force and clarity. Yet, an inherent quality of heightened awareness is that it is not susceptible to normal recall. (Castaneda 1984, xi—xii)
Obviously, great polarized strength is necessary here. Seeing is to witness the unknown and to glimpse the unknowable. The unknown is veiled from man but is within the reach of man’s reason if he is sufficiently polarized and amplified. The unknowable is the indescribable, the unthinkable, and the unrealizable. It is something that may never be known to us in our human state, but seers who are in the grip of laxness and programming don’t let that stop them. Castaneda’s don Juan states:
“… there have certainly been attempts to imbue eagles [the ineffable unknown or faces of the Divine Cosmic Mind] with attributes they don’t have. But that always happens when impressionable people learn to perform acts that require great sobriety. Seers come in all sizes and shapes. … There are scores of imbeciles who become seers. Seers are human beings full of foibles, or rather, human beings full of foibles are capable of becoming seers. … The characteristic of miserable seers is that they are willing to forget the wonder of the world. They become overwhelmed by the fact that they see and believe that it’s their genius that counts. A seer must be a paragon in order to override the nearly invincible laxness of our human condition. More important than seeing itself is what seers do with what they see.” [emphasis added] (Castaneda 1984, 41—42)
Apparently the effort required to bring this learning to normal consciousness is staggering and impossible for most people because they have no “vessel of knowledge” prepared to receive it. Castaneda further tells us, and this is corroborated in other teachings, that to interact with the unknown — but that which is ultimately within the reach of knowing through great work — is energizing, exhilarating and fulfilling even when it is also full of apprehension and fear. It seems that one of the effects of enlargement of the perceptual field is a combination of sheer joy combined with a frightening feeling of sadness and longing. This is apparently because a full field of awareness includes all the opposites in perfect balance.
But, even on the level of the unknown that is ultimately accessible to human perception, seers who truly see often go to pieces upon finding out that existence is incomprehensibly complex and that our normal awareness distorts all and perverts with its limitations. Don Juan remarked that:
… in the life of warriors it was extremely natural to be sad for no overt reason. … whenever the boundaries of the known are broken. A mere glimpse of the eternity outside … is enough to disrupt the coziness of our controlled inventory [i.e., awareness]. The resulting melancholy is sometimes so intense that it can bring about death. … the best way to get rid of melancholy is to make fun of it. (Castaneda 1984, 97)
However, to interact with the unknowable is to become drained or confused, open to oppression and possession. The bodies of such seers lose tone, their reasoning becomes flawed, and their sobriety wanders aimlessly. The Cassiopaeans have said:
The bottom line is this: You are occupying third density. You are by nature, STS. You can be an STO candidate, but you are not STO until you are on fourth density. You will never grasp the meaning of these attempted conceptualizations until you are at fourth and above.
To make this point a little clearer, let me add that, before the Fall,6 human beings were third density STO, which means that they were aligned with fourth density STO. In Stripped to the Bone, I discuss what this reality must have been like in terms of the megalith builders who were able, by their interaction with celestial forces, to manifest all that was needed without assault on the environment of Earth.
Don Juan tells us that the seers of ancient times were “men capable of inconceivable deeds. They were powerful sorcerers, somber and driven, who unraveled the secrets” of existence at our level. They were able to “influence and victimize people by fixating their awareness on whatever they chose.” This is an important key in terms of Frequency Resonance Vibration that cannot be overstressed.
There are two positions in the study and understanding of awareness: the sorcerer vs. the warrior who sees. They both practice the same seeing, but the difference is in their intent. The sorcerer practices to control others. The warrior practices to become free. Sorcerors attempt to manipulate and interact directly with higher levels — the unknowable — and end up being manipulated in the process.7 Warriors act on their own level — the knowable — in harmony with higher levels. The Cassiopaeans designate these two positions as STO and STS. Those who wish to control others are serving self; those who wish to become free and help others who wish to become free are serving others. One must be aware that a desire to be of service combined with ego and false personality is a deadly mix because such an individual is so easy to manipulate and made to believe they are doing good when, in fact, they are only serving the “dark side”.
“Shaman” is another term to describe the warrior who practices to be free. A shaman is not a magician or a sorcerer although he can play those roles if he chooses. He is not a healer, though he can play that role also. A shaman is far more; he is a psychopomp, a priest, a mystic, and a poet. Shamanism is not a religion, it is a function, a role, a magico-religious phenomenon specific to certain individuals who have ecstatic capacity permitting “magical flight” to higher realms, descent into the underworld to battle dark forces, mastery over fire, matter, time and space. Unfortunately, as don Juan noted, in the present time, the shamanic acts are acts of great laxity, distortion and aberration.
The word shaman comes to us through Russian from the Tungusic saman. The word is derived from the Pali samana (Sanskrit sramana), through the Chinese sha-men (a transcription of the Pali word). The word shaman may be related to sarman. According to John G. Bennett:8
The pronunciation is the same for either spelling [sarmoung or sarman] and the word can be assigned to Old Persian. It does, in fact, appear in some of the Pahlawi texts … The word can be interpreted in three ways. It is the word for bee, which has always been a symbol of those who collect the precious ‘honey’ of traditional wisdom and preserve it for further generations.
A collection of legends, well known in Armenian and Syrian circles with the title of The Bees, was revised by Mar Salamon, a Nestorian Archimandrite in the thirteenth century. The Bees refers to a mysterious power transmitted from the time of Zoroaster and made manifest in the time of Christ.
“Man” in Persian means “the quality transmitted by heredity and hence a distinguished family or race.” It can be the repository of an heirloom or tradition. The word sar means head, both literally and in the sense of principal or chief. The combination sarman would thus mean the chief repository of the tradition … And still another possible meaning of the word sarman is … literally, those whose heads have been purified. [emphasis added] (Bennett 1992)
Those whose heads have been purified. What an interesting idea! Especially when you consider the concept of Frequency Resonance Vibration and orientation. As already stated, the difficulty of adjusting one’s frequency is a matter of dealing with programs and false personality. One of the reasons this is so difficult is because it is also a brain chemistry issue. Barbara Oakley writes in her book Evil Genes:
A recent imaging study by psychologist Drew Westen and his colleagues at Emory University provides firm support for the existence of emotional reasoning. Just prior to the 2004 Bush-Kerry presidential elections, two groups of subjects were recruited — fifteen ardent Democrats and fifteen ardent Republicans. Each was presented with conflicting and seemingly damaging statements about their candidate, as well as about more neutral targets such as actor Tom Hanks (who, it appears, is a likable guy for people of all political persuasions). Unsurprisingly, when the participants were asked to draw a logical conclusion about a candidate from the other — “wrong” — political party, the participants found a way to arrive at a conclusion that made the candidate look bad, even though logic should have mitigated the particular circumstances and allowed them to reach a different conclusion. Here’s where it gets interesting.
When this “emote control” began to occur, parts of the brain normally involved in reasoning were not activated. Instead, a constellation of activations occurred in the same areas of the brain where punishment, pain, and negative emotions are experienced (that is, in the left insula, lateral frontal cortex, and ventromedial prefrontal cortex). Once a way was found to ignore information that could not be rationally discounted, the neural punishment areas turned off, and the participant received a blast of activation in the circuits involving rewards — akin to the high an addict receives when getting his fix. In essence, the participants were not about to let facts get in the way of their hot-button decision-making and quick buzz of reward. “None of the circuits involved in conscious reasoning were particularly engaged,” says Westen. “Essentially, it appears as if partisans twirl the cognitive kaleidoscope until they get the conclusions they want, and then they get massively reinforced for it, with the elimination of negative emotional states and activation of positive ones.” …
Ultimately, Westen and his colleagues believe that “emotionally biased reasoning leads to the ‘stamping in’ or reinforcement of a defensive belief, associating the participant’s ‘revisionist’ account of the data with positive emotion or relief and elimination of distress. ‘The result is that partisan beliefs are calcified, and the person can learn very little from new data,’” Westen says. Westen’s remarkable study showed that neural information processing related to what he terms “motivated reasoning” … appears to be qualitatively different from reasoning when a person has no strong emotional stake in the conclusions to be reached.
The study is thus the first to describe the neural processes that underlie political judgment and decision making, as well as to describe processes involving emote control, psychological defense, confirmatory bias, and some forms of cognitive dissonance. The significance of these findings ranges beyond the study of politics: “Everyone from executives and judges to scientists and politicians may reason to emotionally biased judgments when they have a vested interest in how to interpret ‘the facts,’” according to Westen. (Oakley 2007, 189—190)
Obviously, this understanding was available to ancient scientific cultures now long gone and have come down to us in greatly distorted versions. We already suspect that these ideas are far older than Zoroaster, and for those who have supposed that the concept of the shaman was stimulated by Buddhism, I will point out that other studies have shown that even before the intrusion of Buddhism into Central Asia there was the cult of Buga, god of the sky, a celestial worship that antedates Sun and Moon worship.
The central theme of shamanism is the ascent to the sky and the descent to the underworld. In the former, the practitioner experiences ecstasy; in the latter, he battles demons that threaten the well-being of humanity. There are studies that suggest evidence of the earliest practices are to be found in the cave paintings of Western Europe — Lascaux and others — with representations of the bird, the tutelary spirits, and the ecstatic experience (ca. 25,000 bce). Animal skulls and bones found in the sites of the European Paleolithic period (before ca. 50,000—30,000 bce) have been interpreted as evidence of shamanic practice.9
The ecstatic experience is the primary phenomenon of shamanism and it is this ecstasy that can be seen as the act of merging with the celestial beings. Merging results in forced oscillation, which changes frequency. Continued interaction with celestial beings is a form of Frequency Resonance Vibration. Such an individual is one who “walks between two worlds” almost constantly.
The idea that there was a time when man was directly in contact with the celestial beings is at the root of the myths of the Golden Age that have been redacted to the Grail stories of the eleventh and twelfth centuries. During this paradisical time it is suggested that communications between heaven and earth were easy and accessible to everyone. Myths tell us of a time when the gods withdrew from mankind. As a result of some happening (i.e. the Fall), the communications were broken off and the celestial beings withdrew to the highest heavens.
This is exactly what the Cassiopaeans have told us regarding our former alignment with fourth density STO and our present alignment with fourth density STS, and which we have examined to some extent in other volumes of the Wave series.
But, the myths also tell us that there were still those certain people who were able to ascend and commune with the gods on the behalf of their tribe or family. Through them, contact was maintained with the guiding spirits of the group. The beliefs and practices of the present day shamans are a survival of a profoundly modified and even corrupted and degenerated remnant of this archaic technology of concrete communications between heaven and earth. And, again, the Cassiopaeans suggested this perspective, which was confirmed in later studies.
Let me speak for a moment about a current-day trend to experiment in drug-induced shamanic experiences. There are a number of proponents of this approach, starting with Timothy Leary who, I should mention, died of a brain tumor. If people can’t get the symbolic message of that fact, there’s not much hope for them! In any event, among the proponents of this approach are a few authors with high profiles in alternative knowledge circles such as Colin Wilson, Graham Hancock, and others. I recently read Hancock’s book Supernatural and Mr. Hancock certainly thinks he is talking about the “spirit world” and acknowledging its existence, reality, and so on, but the fact is, so far as I can tell based on research, reason and experience, he has only helped with the process of degrading the perception of it.
Up through page 8, Hancock announces that he is going to take hallucinogenic plants, talks about shamanic use of plants, how widespread it is, and then, on pages 7—8 he tells why he did it:
My primary motive, unabashedly, was research. I had deliberately submitted myself to this ordeal as part of a wider, longer-term investigation into a mysterious “before and after moment” that took place in human prehistory, perhaps as recently as 40,000 years ago. Before it, other than a very few widely-scattered and isolated examples, there is nothing in the archaeological record left by our ancestors that we would instantly recognize as modern human behavior. After it, the signs that creatures exactly like us have arrived are everywhere, most notably in the first definite evidence for beliefs in supernatural realms and beings — evidence, in other words, for the birth of religion. ….
An ingenious explanation for the bizarre appearance of these beings…. has been put forward by a prestigious group of anthropologists and archeologists. The essence of their argument is that the cave art expresses mankind’s first and oldest notions of the supernatural, of the “soul,” and of realms of existence beyond death — notions that took shape in “altered states of consciousness” most likely brought on by the consumption of psychoactive plants. Although not to the liking of some scholars, this has been the most widely-accepted theory of cave art since the mid-1990s. It is therefore an embarrassment that none of the experts currently advocating it have ever actually consumed any psychoactive plants themselves; nor do they have any first-hand ideas of what an “altered state of consciousness” is, or any desire to experience one. To give fair consideration to their arguments, and to the views of their critics, I felt I needed to be able to judge on the basis of personal experience whether plant-induced visions could be made of strong enough stuff to have convinced early humans of the existence of supernatural realms and of the survival after death of some essence of deceased ancestors.
This, in a nutshell, was why I had taken ibogaine — for sound, solid, common-sense research reasons. But I have to acknowledge that there was another, much more personal motive as well. It had to do with my own father’s painful death from bone cancer the previous autumn and my inexcusable failure to be at his bedside during the last few days of his life. Part of the appeal of this slightly risky experiment with ibogaine was undoubtedly its promise of “encounters with the ancestors,” and — however tenuous — the possibility of closure and quietus that it seemed to offer. (Hancock 2007, 7—8)
Now, let me give my perspective on these many assumptions he is making. First of all, I understand his intense curiosity about the alleged shamanic hallucinations. The issue of the very existence and survival of the soul occupied my mind for many years. However, while I had all the shamanic signs and symptoms and experiences — beginning when I was a child — I also had a powerful, logical, skeptical mental apparatus.
I, too, was drawn to experiment in my own way as a consequence of the loss of loved ones. In the case of my grandfather, who died when I was 22, I had a classic contact experience at the time of his death that was actually witnessed and partly experienced by a third party, so there was a certain conviction in my mind that there is more to life than the body. But exactly what it was, what it meant, was still unproven to my very active rational mind. Nevertheless, this was a stimulus to my work and experiments with hypnosis through the years. In that work, I developed shamanic techniques where I both traveled with the subject, and remained guardian of the experience in this reality.
Why didn’t I decide to experiment with drugs? Let me include here an extract from a letter I wrote back in the 1980s to a friend who was advocating a particular meditative technique that was guaranteed to enlighten one where I explain why.
December, 1987 — […]
About the ‘Journey Into the Light’ tape you sent — it was very interesting and not unfamiliar or dissimilar to previous personal experiences of my own. But, I want to comment that, years ago, I interviewed a number of people who had taken mescaline [and LSD]. It seems they had all experienced fantastic “inner voyages”. It is, it seems, a total alteration of perception; they ‘see’ sounds and ‘hear’ colors and movement. Most of them described, laying over the whole experience, ‘waves of reality.’ They traveled into ‘other realms’ and perceived other beings — even very frightening areas of darkness and despair. They describe a disintegration of reality that includes the self. For most of them, this ‘loss of identity’ is terrifying.
In my own experiences with meditation, I have experienced ‘transfer of information,’ most of which is kept buried and which I have never shared with anyone. Until I can find confirmation of it in some other source, I will continue to hold it inside.
The point is: the mescaline experience — including other hallucinogens — is purely chemical — or, at least, chemically induced. Since the brain is capable of such incredible ‘voyages’ as a result of chemicals, how can we assert with absolute certainty that similar self-induced ‘flights’ or even acts of ‘channeling’ are not also merely chemical reactions within the physical brain? How do we know we are not merely manifestations of the imagination of some slumbering Cosmic Being? Or the toys or whatever of a group of celestial adversaries? (For I cannot doubt some foundation for our existence other than mere accident).
Now, I suppose that what has happened to me is that my faith — once so strong and impervious to external assault — has succumbed to a sort of ‘devil’s advocate’ mode of thinking. For so long I maintained the ‘proper’ attitudes — performed the proper acts — to ‘create’ a reality more in line with what I felt would provide the environment for creative productivity and simple happiness …
Well, hope springs eternal, as they say. I will continue to do those things which should lead to ‘enlightenment.’ I will water the shriveled plant of my faith and withhold judgment. But I cannot lie and pretend all is at peace in me or that I find my life, up to this point, at all what I would have hoped.
I am now at the age you were when I met you. You are now past 50 — and so little time has passed! I thought we would be young and adventurous and carefree forever, or at least until we died. As Rose said: I expect to be dead someday, but I don’t plan to spend any time dying. Yet, my mortality has never weighed so heavily upon me as now. Maybe I’m going through “the change”. I feel crazy as hell sometimes.
The reason I felt “crazy as hell” sometimes is due to the fact that I had embarked on my own experiment, though it had nothing at all to do with drugs. As I have written elsewhere, my grandmother’s death, ten years after my grandfather’s passing, really knocked the wind out of me. And six months later, I was bedridden after the birth of my fourth child. This was in 1985 and it was during this period of enforced stillness (typical event in the life of the shaman) that I turned to inner journeys in order to cope with the depth of my agony. You could say that what happened to my body was a physical expression of what was going on inside. I could no longer sit up or walk internally or externally. I needed to know with some certainty, what it all meant.
Even in my state of doubt, I continued to meditate. I had the idea that if I could produce the required changes in myself — even if it was only acceptance of my suffering and the sufferings of others — that would enable me to pass through this rough period. Most particularly, I wanted a change in my marriage. I needed my ex-husband’s acceptance of me as a questioning, intelligent human being — not merely a cook, housekeeper, sex object, baby-sitter and doormat. I knew that he had been wounded, that he had insecurities, that perhaps his behavior was simply designed to drive me away, to manifest some self-fulfilling prophecy he had about himself that no woman could love him or stand by him. I knew that, if anybody could do it, I could. And the goal was, of course, to heal myself so that my ex-husband would be healed. Then, if we were both “en rapport,” our children would benefit, and all would be right with the world!
My meditation practice rapidly progressed. After only a few months of practice, I found myself “zoning out” while remaining conscious in another way simultaneously, for up to three hours at a time, coming to myself feeling as though no time at all had passed. The only problem was: I never seemed to bring anything back with me. I had no idea what had been going on, where my mind had been. I did note that I was far more peaceful and able to cope with the difficulties of my life, but it was still frustrating not to obtain something a bit more concrete from all of this endeavor.
As a matter of practicality I generally meditated lying on the bed. Some people cannot do this because they tend to fall asleep, but that was never a problem for me. I could zone out in meditation, come to some time later, and then go to sleep easily at night. I was generally so uncomfortable in any position, that getting to sleep was problematical if I didn’t meditate first.
So, I went to bed one night and began my breathing exercises. This part of the process I had borrowed from my hypnotherapy training and was extremely useful. Of course, I later learned that it had been borrowed for hypnotherapy from certain meditation systems.
At this point, I don’t know what happened. All I remember is starting the breathing phase, which came before the contemplative phase of the exercise. But then I made some kind of big “skip”.
The next thing I knew, I was jerked back into consciousness by a sensation that can only be described as a boiling turbulence in my abdomen. It was so powerful that, at first, it felt actually physical — like there was a boiling agitation in my organs that was going to erupt upward in some way.
I was frantically holding my throat, because I could feel a tightening of the muscles in the throat area, as wave after wave of energy blew upward like the precursors of steam blasts from a volcano before it erupts. I struggled out of the bed, holding the wall with one hand and my throat with the other, clenching my teeth so whatever it was would not come gushing out of me and disturb my family. For all I knew, I was just going to be violently sick!
I rushed outside to the porch where there was a lawn sofa, and collapsed onto it just as the outpouring began.
I wish I could describe this in better words, but there are simply none that apply other than to use ordinary descriptions that don’t come close to the essence and intensity of the event. What erupted from me was a shattering series of sobs and cries that were utterly primeval and coming from some soul-deep place that defies explanation. Accompanying these cries, or actually, embedded in them, were images — visions — complete scenes with all attendant emotional content and implied context conveyed in an instant. It was like the idea of your life passing before your eyes only it was many lifetimes and many levels of experience. I was experiencing myself at multiple levels of reality, in multiple lifetimes, interacting with multiple beings, in scenario after scenario. There was a whole lot of communication going on in ways that are impossible to describe.
And the tears! My god! The tears that flowed. I had no idea that the human physiology was capable of producing such copious amounts of liquid so rapidly!
Now, if this had been just an hour-long crying jag or something like that, it would have to pass into history as “just one of those things,” maybe like PMS. But, this activity had a life of its own! It went on, without slowing or stopping, for more than five hours! If I attempted to slow it down, stop it, or “switch” my mind in another direction, the inner sensation of explosive eruption rapidly took over, all the muscles in my body would begin to clench up and I was no longer in control. I could only sit there as a sort of instrument of grief and lamentation and literally sob my heart out for every horror of history in which I had seemingly participated or to which I had possibly been a witness from whatever level of existence I occupied at that “time”. I think that there were even some that I was simply aware of without my direct participation. And some were truly horrible scenes.
Plague and pestilence and death and destruction. Scene after scene. Loved ones standing one moment, crushed or lying in bloody heaps the next. Rapaciousness, pillaging, plundering; rivers of blood and gore; slaughter, carnage and butchery in all its many manifestations passed before my eyes; holocaust and hell. Rage and hot anger, bloodlust and fury, murder and mayhem, all around me, everywhere I looked. Evil heaped on evil like twisted, dismembered bodies. And the grief of centuries, the unshed tears of millennia, the guilt, remorse and penitence, flooded through me; melting, thawing and dissolving the burdensome shell of stone that encased my petrified heart; washing away the pain with my tears; an ocean of tears.
As this release of the worlds of accumulated guilt and grief of many lifetimes went on, the “voice-that-was-not-a-voice” in the background, ever soothing, ever calming, repeated:
“It’s not your fault. There is no blame. It’s not your fault. You didn’t know.”
I came to understand something very deep: I understood that there is no “original sin”. I understood that the terrors and suffering mankind experiences here in life on earth is not caused by some sort of “flaw” or “error” or aberration from “within”. It is not punishment. It is not something that one can be “saved” from. I understood that every scene of terrible suffering and heart-rending cruelty was the result of ignorance. And each experience was the gaining of knowledge.
It is easier to see this idea when you consider the Crusades or the Inquisition. You can trace the path of twisted reason, leading from the idea of the Love of God to imposing that view on others “for their own good”, ending in torture and mass murder. Forget for a moment about those who just viciously used such philosophies for their own gain and political maneuvers. Think for a moment only about the sincerity of the philosophies behind such events. But it is based on ignorance.
Many of those who were seemingly out for gain and self-aggrandizement were operating out of ignorance — fear and hunger of the soul that cannot be satisfied. It is only a matter of degrees, but in the end, it is only ignorance.
When the flow of energy, images and tears finally began to subside, I felt a sensation of warm, balmy liquid, almost airy in its lightness, and so sweet that to this day, I can still remember the piercing quickening of the fire of love for all of creation. It was ecstatic, rapturous and exultant all at the same time. I was lost in wonder, amazed and at the same time bewildered at this vision of the world.
The result of this event was a state of prolonged “elevation,” or “loving peace” that persisted for a very long time. You could even say that the effects reverberate to the present. Never again was I able to condemn (act against with intent to destroy what they choose to believe) another, no matter how wicked their deeds. I could see that all so-called “evil” and “wickedness” was a manifestation of ignorance. No person, no matter how holy and elevated they may think they are in this life, has not reveled in the shedding of another’s blood in some other time and place. And no person who chooses ignorance and wickedness and destruction in this life is wrong. Yes, I had the right to avoid them, to defend myself against them, to understand what they were doing. But it was not my place to go on a campaign to forcibly change their mind.
The significant point is: Ignorance is a choice, and one made for a reason: to learn and to grow.
That realization led to another: that one needs knowledge to learn how to truly choose; the point of this existence is to be able to learn, at this level of reality, what is and isn’t of ignorance, what is of truth and beauty and love and cleanliness. I understood the saying of Jesus that some things are bright and shining on the outside, but inside they are filthy and full of decay. And I don’t mean that I was seeing this negativity as something to be judged. I clearly understood its reason and place as modes of learning, but I was deeply inspired to seek out all I could learn about this world to best manifest what was of light.
With this comparison of my non-drug induced shamanic experience to the drug-induced ones that Hancock describes in the book, I think that the attentive reader can see the difference. It seems that drug induced experiences do indeed open the door to other realms, but they are generally lower realms, where one would not wish to remain for any period of time. I should also add that this was only the beginning of the initiatory process. It proceeded by stages for years. I’m not sure it ever ends, either. But with each step of progression, your perception changes and with the change of perception comes the change of the reality you live in. My life now is so vastly different from the life I was leading then that it is literally a Cinderella story. Yes, I have paid a high price for my knowledge and awareness; I am subjected to vicious attacks from those who seek to keep humanity ignorant and in chains. But let me say at this point that, in my personal life, I experience happiness that few have ever known, and there is a peace that passes all understanding10 in doing what is right simply because it is right.
The shaman, in his ability to achieve the ecstatic state inaccessible to the rest of mankind, was regarded as a privileged being. More than this, the myths tell us of the “first shamans” who were sent to earth by the celestial beings to defend human beings against the “negative gods” who had taken over the rule of mankind. It was the task of the first shamans to activate, in their own bodies, a sort of transducer of cosmic energy for the benefit of their tribe. This was expressed as the concept of the world tree, which became the axis or the Pole of the World, and later was co-opted and corrupted to mean the royal bloodlines.
There is a specific relationship between the shamanic function and certain bloodlines. But, as with everything that has been provided to help mankind, this concept has been co-opted by the forces seeking to keep mankind in darkness and ignorance. The true and ancient bloodlines of the first shamans have been obscured and hidden by the false trail of the invented genealogies of the Hebrew Old Testament supposedly leading to certain branches of present day European royal and noble families, which seek to establish a counterfeit kingship that has garnered a great deal of attention in recent times. These families are, for the most part, carriers of genetic psychopathology.
In this present time, there are indications that cosmic changes of monumental proportions are in the wind. There are also indications that a particular time element is involved and all the forces of darkness seek to deceive and obfuscate at levels never before achieved in order to distract, confuse, dilute and defuse the abilities of those who may be the bearers of the circuits of change for all humanity.
The Sufis have kept the technician of ecstasy concept alive in their tradition of the Poles of the World. The kutub or q’tub (pole of his time) is an appointed being, entirely spiritual in nature, who acts as a divine agent at a certain period in time. Each kutub has under him four awtads (supports) and a number of abdals (substitutes), who aid him in his work of preserving and maintaining the world. The interesting thing about this idea is that the individual who occupies the position does not even have to be aware of it. His life, his existence, even his very physiology, is a function of higher realities extruded into the realm of man. That this has a very great deal to do with bloodlines as promulgated in recent times is true, but not necessarily in the ways suggested.
Q: (L) But isn’t the nature of a person determined by their soul and not the physical body?
A: Partially, remember, aural profile and karmic reference merges with physical structure.
Q: (L) So you are saying that particular genetic conditions are a physical reflection of a spiritual orientation? That the soul must match itself to the genetics, even if only in potential?
A: Yes, precisely.
Q: (L) So a person’s potential for spiritual advancement or unfoldment is, to a great extent, dependent upon their genes?
A: Natural process marries with systematic construct when present.
Preparing this text for publication, I see so many things that were clues of things yet to come even from the time of writing the Wave in 1999 and 2000. You could say that the experiences that resulted from publishing this material were initiatic in a very significant way. It’s one thing to be a mystic in private, it is altogether another thing to put your knowledge to work, to exist in that state where your understanding leads to action.11
In the present time, it seems that many of those with the “bloodline” are awakening. It is no longer feasible to be a Pole of the World who is asleep, because, as we will soon examine, there are some very serious matters of choice and action that may be incumbent upon the awakened shaman. The first order of business seems to be to awaken and accumulate strength of polarity. A man may be born, but in order to be born he must first die, and in order to die he must first awake. When a man awakes he can die; when he dies he can be born.
Shamans are born and made. That is to say, they are born to be made. But, the making is their choice, and from what I have been able to determine, the choice may be one that is made at a different level than the conscious, third density linear experience. Those who have made the choice at higher levels, and then have negated that choice at this level because they are not able to relinquish their ordinary life, pay a very high price, indeed.
A shaman stands out because of certain characteristics of religious crisis. They are different from other people because of the intensity of their religious experiences. In ancient times, it was the task of the shamanic elite to be the “specialist of the soul,” to guard the soul of the tribe because only he could see the unseen and know the form and destiny of the group soul. But, before he acquired his ability, he was often an ordinary citizen or even the offspring of a shaman with no seeming vocation (considering that the ability is reputed to be inherited, though not necessarily represented in each generation). At some point in his life, however, the shaman has an experience that separates him from the rest of humanity. The Native American vision quest is a survival of the archaic understanding of the natural initiation of the shaman who is called to his vocation by the gods.
A deep study of the matter reveals that those who seek the magico-religious powers via the vision quest when they have not been called spontaneously from within by their own questing nature and feeling of responsibility for humanity, generally become sorcerers; those who, through a systematic study, obtain the powers deliberately for their own advantage. This can be done, of course, but the price is that the individual eventually, in this life or the next, must cut himself off from all true love and caring whether for parent, spouse or child. Apparently, some are willing to pay that price, and still more are not aware that this will eventually be demanded of them.
The true shamanic initiation comes by dreams, ecstatic trances combined with extensive study, and hard work: intentional suffering. A shaman is expected to not only pass through certain initiatory ordeals, but he must also be deeply educated in order to be able to fully evaluate the experiences and challenges that he will face. Unfortunately, since ancient times until now, there have been precious few who have traveled the path of the shaman, including the practice of the attendant skills of battling “demons,” who could teach or advise a course of study for the awakening shaman. In my own case, over thirty years of study, twenty years of work as a hypnotherapist and exorcist, and the years of calling to the universe that constitute the Cassiopaean experiment stand as an example of how the process might manifest in the present day.
The future shaman is traditionally thought to exhibit certain exceptional traits from childhood. He is often very nervous and even sickly in some ways. (In some cultures, epilepsy is considered a mark of the shaman, though this is a later corrupt perception of the ecstatic state.) It has been noted that shamans, as children, are often morbidly sensitive, have weak hearts, disordered digestion, and are subject to vertigo.12 There are those who would consider such symptoms to be incipient mental illness, but the fact is that extensive studies have shown that the so-called hallucinations or visions consist of elements that follow a particular model that is consistent from culture to culture, from age to age, and is composed of an amazingly rich theoretical content. It could even be said that persons who “go mad” are failed shamans who have failed either because of a flaw in the transmission of the genetics, or because of environmental factors. At the same time, there are many more myths of failed shamanic heroes than of successful ones, so the warnings of what can happen have long been in place. Mircea Eliade remarks that:
The mentally ill patient proves to be an unsuccessful mystic or, better, the caricature of a mystic. His experience is without religious content, even if it appears to resemble a religious experience, just as an act of autoeroticism arrives at the same physiological result as a sexual act properly speaking (seminal emission), yet at the same time is but a caricature of the latter because it is without the concrete presence of the partner. (Eliade 2004, 26—27)
Well, that’s a pretty interesting analogy! It even suggests to us the idea that one who attempts to activate a shamanic inheritance within the STS framework of wishful thinking, has an illusory partner as in the above-described activity, with similar results. In other words, sorcery is like masturbation: the practitioner satisfies himself, but his act does no one else any good. And, by the same token, a shaman who operates without knowledge is like the proverbial “three minute egg”: he gets everybody all excited, and then leaves them hanging! In both cases, such an individual has satisfied only themselves, and it could be said that, in the latter case, it is actually worse because another individual has been used for that satisfaction.
But, such amusing vulgarities aside (even if they do make the point remarkably well) the thing about the shaman is that (s)he is not just a sick person, but a sick person who has been cured, or who has succeeded in curing himself. This point can’t be overemphasized. Those who aspire to mysticism, to the shamanic path, and who still remain frail or sickly in physical, material or spiritual terms, may not yet have been presented with the initiation, or, if they have, may have failed to pass. The possibility of achieving the shamanic powers for Service-to-Self also exists, so great care has to be used in trying to see the unseen.
In many cases, the election of the shaman manifests through a fairly serious illness which can only be cured by the “ascent to the sky.” After the ecstatic vision of initiation, the shaman feels much better. After the response to the calling of the gods, the shaman shows a more than normally healthy constitution; they are able to achieve immense concentration beyond the capacity of ordinary men; they can sustain exhausting efforts and, most importantly, they are able to keep a cool head in the face of experiences that would terrify and break an ordinary person.
Another point that should be emphasized is that the shaman must be able to be in full control of himself even when in the ecstatic state. (Trance channeling or mediumship with no memory of what transpired is not the activity of a true shaman.) This ability to “walk in two worlds” simultaneously demonstrates an extraordinary nervous constitution. It has been said that the Siberian shamans show no sign of mental disintegration well into old age; their memories and powers of self-control are well above average.
Don Juan calls this state of being “impeccable.” This idea is also reflected in the archaic systems of the Yakut, where the shaman must be “serious, possess tact, be able to communicate effectively with all people; above all, he must not be presumptuous, proud, ill-tempered.” The true shaman emanates an inner force that is conscious, yet never offensive. At the same time, it should be noted that a true shaman might evoke very negative responses from those who are aligned with the STS polarity.
Getting back to the infirmities, nervous disorders, illness of crisis and so forth that are the signs of election, it is also noted that sometimes an accident, a fall, a blow on the head, or being hit by lightning are the signs from the environment that the shaman has been elected. But, being called is not the same as being chosen, or, more precisely, choosing. Many are called; few choose to respond. This choosing is a process and it is a process of struggle and pain and suffering because, in the end, what is required is that the unhealthy ego, the false personality, must be killed.
My goal for the Wave series, particularly Soul Hackers and Stripped to the Bone, has been to take you, the reader, through many of the stages of this process vicariously, and I know that it has affected you in many of the same ways it affected me, judging by the mail I have received. Many of you have been through some of the stages of initiation already. Many of you are struggling with the process of death of the ego and striving for rebirth as the shaman — he whose head has been purified. In any case, many of you know that this can be a process of many years and many stages, sometimes including many illnesses, many accidents, and many assaults to the physical body as well as the soul.
The pivotal initiation of the shaman occurs after a long period of preparation. In retrospect, I can see this was the process in my life, but as I was going through it, I had no idea that this was what was happening. I was just struggling through the illnesses, the accidents, the suffering, the trials, the tribulations, the lessons that seemed to just be the path of my life in generic terms. I didn’t see them as tests, or that they manifested in my life as the call. It was only after the choice that I began to make the discoveries that explained the process of my life, and which I am now sharing with you.
For many of you, reading these books has had a similar effect — initiatory — though the present series was not begun with that intention. It just, more or less, took over and began to write itself. So, for those that want “just the facts, ma’am!” I apologize. I’m not going to change it, but I acknowledge your right to want something different.
Returning to my “descent into Hell” and the sensation of being stripped of everything, yes, there had been other steps in the process, other choices, visions and experiences. But none of them were like the moment of being completely stripped to the bone of all belief in anything and everything I ever held as true, including all my beliefs and illusions about my personal life and relationships and my very self.
The pathology of the shamanic path seems to be part of the means of reaching the condition to be initiated. But, at the same time, it is often the means of the initiation itself. These pathological conditions have a physiological effect that amounts to a transformation of the ordinary individual into a technician of the sacred. However, if such an experience is not preceded and followed by a period of theoretical and practical instruction, the shaman becomes a tool for those forces that would use the shamanic function to further enslave mankind as we have already noted.
Now, the experience that transforms the shaman is constituted of the well-known religious elements of suffering, death and resurrection. One of the earliest representations of these elements is in the Sumerian story of the descent of Ishtar/Inanna into the underworld to save her son-lover, Tammuz. She had to pass through seven gates of Hell and, at each door or gate, she was stripped of another article of her attire because she could only enter the underworld naked. While she was in the underworld, the earth and its inhabitants suffered loss of creative vigor. After she had accomplished her mission, fertility was restored. I’m sure that the attentive reader can see how this idea has been corrupted.
The most well known variation of this story is the myth of Persephone/Kore, the daughter of Demeter, who was kidnapped by Hades/Pluto. In her grief for her daughter, Demeter denied fertility to the earth. An agreement to have her daughter with her for part of the year resulted in the manifestation of seasons. We can see that this has been interpreted as a representation of a very ancient account of the cyclical nature of time. But, even more, we can now see that it is a shamanic tale of descent of the “daughter” of the greater soul unit into third density where it is entrapped by the forces of darkness, and the searching of Demeter for her daughter is the calling of the higher self to the shamanic path. Of course, we also note that in the Sumerian versions, it was the separation of the goddess from her consort, which would indicate the separation of the dual energies and the hemispheres of the brain that we discuss in Stripped to the Bone.
The shamanic visions represent the descent as dismemberment of the body, flaying of the flesh from the bones, being boiled in a cauldron, and then being reassembled by the gods and/or goddesses. This, too, is well represented in myth and legend, including the myth of Jesus: suffering, death, and resurrection. I can also attest to the fact that this is exactly what it feels like at various stages of the process.
… a Yakut shaman, Sofron Zateyev, states that as a rule [during this visionary initiation] the future shaman “dies” and lies in the yurt for three days without eating or drinking. … Pyotr Ivanov, gives further details. The candidate’s limbs are removed and disjointed with an iron hook; the bones are cleaned, the flesh scraped, the body fluids thrown away, and the eyes torn from their sockets. After this operation all the bones are gathered up and fastened together with iron.
According to a third shaman, Timofei Romanov, the visionary dismemberment lasts from three to seven days; during all that time the candidate remains like a dead man, scarcely breathing, in a solitary place. [emphasis added] (Eliade 2004, 36)
According to another Yakut account, the evil spirits carry the future shaman’s soul to the underworld and there shut it up in a house for three years (only one year for those who will become lesser shamans). Here the shaman undergoes his initiation. The spirits cut off his head, which they set aside (for the candidate must watch his dismemberment with his own eyes), and cut him into small pieces, which are then distributed to the spirits of the various diseases. Only by undergoing such an ordeal will the future shaman gain the power to cure. His bones are then covered with new flesh, and in some cases he is also given new blood.
According to another account, the devils keep the candidate’s soul until he has learned all of their wisdom. During all this time the candidate lies sick. There is also a recurring motif of a giant bird that hatches shamans in the branches of the World Tree, which is an allusion to an Avian bloodline that is opposed to a Reptilian heritage. The following excerpts are from the available accounts obtained in field research and should be read with the awareness that we have now entered a world of pure symbolism:
… the candidate … came upon a naked man working a bellows. On the fire was a caldron “as big as half the earth.” The naked man saw him and caught him with a huge pair of tongs. The novice had time to think, “I am dead!” The man cut off his head, chopped his body into bits, and put everything in the caldron. There he boiled his body for three years. There were also three anvils, and the naked man forged the candidate’s head on the third, which was the one on which the best shamans were forged. …
The blacksmith then fished the candidate’s bones out of a river, in which they were floating, put them together, and covered them with flesh again. … He forged his head and taught him how to read the letters that are inside it. He changed his eyes; and that is why, when he shamanizes, he does not see with his bodily eyes but with his mystical eyes. He pierced his ears, making him able to understand the language of plants. …
… The Tungus shaman Ivan Cholko states that a future shaman must fall ill and have his body cut in pieces and his blood drunk by the evil spirits (saargi). These … throw his head into a caldron where it is melted with certain metal pieces that will later form part of his ritual costume. …
… before becoming a shaman the candidate must be sick for a long time; the souls of his shaman ancestors then surround him, torture him, strike him, cut his body with knives, and so on. During this operation the future shaman remains inanimate; his face and hands are blue, his heart scarcely beats. …
… A Teleut woman became a shamaness after having a vision in which unknown men cut her body to bits and cooked it in a pot. According to the traditions of the Altaian shamans, the spirits of their ancestors eat their flesh, drink their blood, open their bellies and so on. …
… in South America as in Australia or Siberia both spontaneous vocation and the quest for initiation involve either a mysterious illness or a more or less symbolic ritual of mystical death, sometimes suggested by a dismemberment of the body and renewal of the organs.
“… they cut his head open, take out his brains, wash and restore them, to give him a clear mind to penetrate into the mysteries of evil spirits, and the intricacies of disease; they insert gold dust into his eyes to give him keenness and strength of sight powerful enough to see the soul wherever it may have wandered; they plant barbed hooks on the tips of his fingers to enable him to seize the soul and hold it fast; and lastly they pierce his heart with an arrow to make him tender-hearted, and full of sympathy with the sick and suffering. …
… If the alleged reason for the renewal of the organs (conferring better sight, tenderheartedness, etc.) is authentic, it indicates that the original meaning of the rite has been forgotten. …
Then the master obtains … the disciple’s “lighting” or “enlightenment,” for [this] consists “of a mysterious light which the shaman suddenly feels in his body, inside his head, within the brain, an inexplicable searchlight, a luminous fire, which enables him to see in the dark, both literally and metaphorically speaking, for he can now, even with closed eyes, see through darkness and perceive things and coming events which are hidden from others …
The candidate obtains this mystical light after long hours of waiting, sitting on a bench in his hut … When he experiences it for the first time “it is as if the house in which he is suddenly rises; he sees far ahead of him, through mountains, exactly as if the earth were one great plain, and his eyes could reach to the end of the earth. Nothing is hidden from him any longer; not only can he see things far, far away, but he can also discover souls, stolen souls, which are either kept concealed in far, strange lands or have been taken up or down to the Land of the Dead.”
… the experience of inner light that determines the career of the Iglulik shaman is familiar to a number of higher mysticisms. … In the Upanishads, the “inner light” … defines the essence of the atman. In yogic techniques, especially those of the Buddhist schools, light of different colors indicates the success of particular meditations. Similarly, the Tibetan Book of the Dead accords great importance to the light in which, it appears, the dying man’s soul is bathed during his mortal throes and immediately after death; a man’s destiny after death (deliverance or reincarnation) depends on the firmness with which he chooses the immaculate light. …
… the essential elements of this mystical vision are the being divested of flesh … in all these cases reduction to the skeleton indicates a passing beyond the profane human condition and, hence, a deliverance from it.
… bone represents the very source of life … To reduce oneself to the skeleton condition is equivalent to re-entering the womb for a complete renewal, a mystical rebirth. …
[It is an expression of] the will to transcend the profane, individual condition, and to attain a transtemporal perspective.
… the myth of renewal by fire, cooking, or dismemberment has continued to haunt men even outside the spiritual horizon of shamanism … The myth of rejuvenation by dismemberment and cooking has been handed down in Siberian, Central Asian, and European folklore, the role of the blacksmith being played by Jesus Christ or other saints. [emphasis added] (Eliade 2004, 41—44, 53, 57, 58, 60—61, 63—64, 66)
I would like to add that these same ideas of death and re-birth are well represented in alchemical literature as the various processes of chemical transmutation. As Boris Mouravieff observes in Gnosis, Book Two:
[I]n order to respect the principle of hermetism adopted by the Tradition, … these warnings [esoteric teachings] are given in a sibylline form. This is why St Isaac the Syrian points out that: “The Holy Scriptures say many things by using words in a different sense from their original meaning. Sometimes bodily attributes are applied to the soul, and conversely, attributes of the soul are applied to the body. The Scriptures do not make any distinction here. However, enlightened men understand.” (Mouravieff, 1992, pp. 196—197)
A couple of important things to note are the ideas that the candidate must be under the control of demons or beings that torture and torment him in order that he may learn their wisdom, and that this process confers greater powers on the initiate.13 A present day experience that is so similar to this initiation is the alien abduction scenario. Unfortunately, just as was reported among the shamanic stories of failed initiates or those who chose the dark path, there are many who have embraced the tormentors and become possessed by them to one extent or another. In a deeper sense, we can observe that the very fact of our existence in the STS third density reality — “the world inside the devil” — constitutes an initiation over many, many incarnations. We must suffer the lies before we can perceive the truth.
So now, perhaps, the reader can see what I am doing. I am sharing with you the knowledge of the process of initiation which many of you have experienced with no contemporary context; I am assisting those who have asked, in the process of being stripped to the bone; of suffering, dying and, hopefully, being resurrected; of becoming a shaman; of becoming one whose head has been purified.
All of what follows from here on out must be understood to apply only to those who have accepted the call. If your life has not followed the shamanic pattern, none of the following can be construed to apply to you. If, on the other hand, you do think that your call is to be one whose head has been purified, then you should study a great deal more until you arrive at your own initiation, at which point your choices will be clear to you. But, for the sake of those who are already there, the following remarks are being made as generalities to be applied only if or when they fit.
As I said, after the initiation that I passed through in my descent into Hell, the world changed for me in profound ways. The profundity of the change was at a level I could not fully fathom in my waking consciousness, but it bore fruit almost immediately. My view of all my relationships, all my actions and interactions with the world changed in incalculable ways. I could literally see the unseen dynamics of every exchange between myself and other people in all situations. And by seeing, I was able to choose that reaction that was truly expressive of unconditional love, of truth, of ultimate beauty in cosmic terms. I no longer saw with my human eyes nor was I ruled by my human emotions. However, this does not mean that I did not feel them. I had already made a choice of the greatest magnitude in terms of putting aside all human egoic need for comfort and illusion, and I was simply not able to ever view anything the same way again.
Certainly, I have come under intense criticism from various quarters because making the choice to have no close relationships based on lies, or that permit lying, makes it imperative that such relationships either be corrected, and if that is not possible, relegated to a distance.
One of the first acts of application of this new state of being was, as I have chronicled, the reordering of my personal life which included divorcing my husband and bringing to a halt all manipulative interactions between myself and my children, close friends and associates.
Many people saw these actions as unfeeling or as showing a certain coldness or lack of love and caring. But, the truth is I knew that as long as I participated in these dynamics, I was feeding the STS forces. I understood my position: that I needed to gain strength. I also knew that I needed to be strong in my polarization for the sake of others, not just those immediately in my life. It wasn’t easy. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I was devastated at the thought of hurting anyone. But, I also realized from looking back over my life that I was particularly vulnerable to having people placed close to me who were there for the express purpose of draining my life force because it was very potent, and by manipulating me to give in to the STS dynamic, I was a powerful feeding machine to amplify those energies. So it is with many women (and men) who are in relationships with manipulative, psychopathological people.
I also understood that those who are not awake are completely subject to engaging in this type of manipulation, even subconsciously. More than this, I understood that I must battle for the souls of those I loved and that this could even mean saying no to them literally, or spiritually, so as not to amplify the STS frequency in them. I knew that if I continued to act as their buffer, I was making it almost impossible for them to overcome their own predatorial natures. Such a price was so high that I couldn’t bear to consider it. That higher spiritual value took precedence over my own human emotions that sought only ease and peace and to make things nice. As Jacob Needleman writes in Lost Christianity:
Egoism, too, can in its way “see” the suffering of man, but it is a “seeing” mixed with illusions and fear, leading to impatience, faulty action and, finally, infliction of yet more suffering upon others, even in the name of love. … To [truly] love my neighbor is to assist the arising and the unfolding in him of that which can harmonize the real elements of his nature. … To transmit the truth is … to nurture the growth, in my neighbor, of the soul. … the transmission to another of conditions of living, thinking and experiencing that foster the growth of the intermediate principle in human nature: the soul. (Needleman 2003, 218—221)
Yes, I realize the love that I felt for my children which made me think that we could or would travel into the higher levels together might be a trap, but at least I knew for sure that, if it was their soul choice, they needed to wake up and do it fast, and they would never do it with me there allowing myself to be manipulated into giving amplification to their STS tendencies. I understood that it was not love to do anything that prevents another from learning a lesson that they are here to learn, no matter how hard it is to watch when someone you love is suffering.14 You must love another as they are in order to be able to allow them to learn their own lessons, and this is the bitterest lesson of all for the human part of one who chooses to serve others in the cosmic sense.
That does not mean I stopped being kind or giving, nor does it mean that I stopped being a parent and imposing necessary discipline that is part of the parent-child soul agreement, it simply means that I knew that if I was acting a certain way to persuade someone to fulfill my idea of how they should be, without considering their choices and lessons, that I was not helping them. I also knew that if I allowed them to manipulate me by intimations that it would produce some result favorable to me, it was the wrong reason to do it. I also knew that when they did things that required a disciplinary response, they were asking me to discipline. Most asking takes place in action, not words.
In the case of my ex-husband, I realized that, by continuing to support him emotionally in his choices which, most of the time, if not all of the time, happened to be in direct opposition to my own, as well as opposed to the well-being of the family, I was either expecting this support to convert him to my view, or I was simply giving up my free will. I understood that his choices were his and fully worthy of his pursuit. They just weren’t mine. And, by the same token, my choices were not his and he had made that clear so that I could no longer be angry when he behaved in passive-aggressive ways about things I wanted or needed, making it clear that he only did things for me grudgingly, and to keep the peace. Not only that, I understood that, by his behavior, he was asking me to release him. Even if it was neither conscious nor part of his social and religious programming. At a very deep soul level, he was being guided to behave in ways that were subtle, yet definite asking for release. To refuse such asking, would not be love.
In the case of the husband and wife relationship, this is a most difficult thing to assess because it is a relationship based on commitment to similar goals and ideals and intimate interactions of assimilation and identification with one another. When you fully realize that the giving of energy to the STS alignment in any respect is to help it grow while you are diminishing your own possibilities of increasing the STO dynamic, you are faced with very difficult choices at the most intimate level. It is actually in and through these choices and their activation that you are marrying your knowledge to your will. If you perceive, make the correct choices for a true STO dynamic, implementation will powerfully amplify your frequency. And, the closer the relationship, and the harder it is to do it, to overcome the illusions of programming, the more profound the effect it can have on the amplification.
In terms of a marriage partner, yes, of course, you can still have similar goals of raising your children, of paying your bills, of building a nest egg for retirement. Can’t we say that serving others might constitute giving of support to such mundane human pursuits while the other aspects of our lives, our spiritual pursuits, are kept separate? Not only that, but when one looks at divorce, one is looking at possibly losing one’s own financial, physical, and emotional support system which may be detrimental especially when children are involved, so isn’t that very self serving?
In the case of a marriage, this is where the rubber hits the road in terms of applying one’s knowledge and choices. It all depends on your idea of what marriage is supposed to be and what your life goals are, and whether or not they can harmonize.
For most of us, marriage constitutes a commitment to support and sustain another person physically, emotionally and financially “for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.”
Note the key words: support and sustain.
Now, if it becomes clear that the marriage partner is at a level or position on the learning cycle that is different from the individual who is waking up, what is the level of responsibility? One might think that it is their responsibility to stay in the marriage because they simply are married or committed. In this case one then has to think very carefully about the term “response-ability.”
How are you going to respond to a person who makes choices to act as “food” in the STS hierarchy? How are you going to respond to a person who is still lost in the illusion that he has free will and the power to choose his destiny, and is completely unaware of the forces that dominate our world? How are you going to support a person who makes choices to not expand his or her knowledge base to the same extent that you have, a person who is content to stay in the locked room and doesn’t care that it may be locked. He or she has not even arrived at the point of checking the door! If you have left your own “locked room,” are you then going to move into the locked room of another person?
Well, you can continue to support them, in which case your energy amplifies their own STS frequency and feeds the STS dynamic through them.
OK. That’s cool. You can think that this is something you are willing to do as an act of love and giving because loving and giving are your ideals. But there is something far more important here and that is: if, at the soul level, they have set up lessons so as to be eventually brought to a crossroads, a choice, your continued support and sustenance prolongs the period of time it will take them to do it. It may even be that, by your support, the individual will not learn what they incarnated to learn in this life and will be obliged to do a whole additional life (or more than one), over again. If you are trying to “save” them you are doing far more harm than good.
I am reminded of a case Edgar Cayce dealt with. A couple had a baby and obtained a reading for the child shortly after birth. They were told how special the child was and how many lessons he was going to learn, and what great things he would do as a consequence.
His parents only heard the “special” and “great things” part and ignored the “lessons” part. They began a lifetime of protecting the boy so that he would be ready to do his great work. Every time there was a problem, they stepped in and “fixed” it or helped him find the way out, and so on and so on.
Then, in his early 20s, the boy was killed in an auto accident. The parents were devastated. They went to Cayce and asked him, “Why? He was so special, you told us he had a great work to do!” And Cayce gave them another reading that pointed out the fact that the boy had a life plan before he was born, and that included getting some karma out of the way and learning some specific things by making certain mistakes and having to pay for them. It was all set up in a graduated way so that he would never have to deal with more than his skills could handle at any one time.
However, due to the interference of the parents, it was clearly seen by his higher self that the lessons were not being learned, that the parents were not being truly loving toward the soul and its plan, and in order to prevent more and greater karma, as well as to get the lesson out of the way in the most expeditious way possible so that, at least, he would have time to return quickly for the next stage of his series of life plans, he would have to “check out.”
Naturally, reading about this was quite a revelation to me. I began to understand my relationship with my children in a very different way. I also began to think of the lessons that my kids had to learn as blessings even though some of them were very hard for me to live through, standing by and doing nothing to help. It’s like watching a child learn to ride a bicycle, and watching them fall again and again, and not rushing over every time to pick them up. Instead, you smile and help them to see the scrapes and bruises as badges of victory even though you want to pack them in cotton wool. On the soul level, this is much more difficult because the lessons can be quite painful.
A friend of mine recently wrote to me about a clue he was given about this very matter:
I don’t think that we can `save` anybody BUT we can help many others in SAVING THEMSELVES (well, I guess you could call that a form of saving if you want, it’s only semantics). When I went to sleep last night, I sort of asked: if there is anything to us `saving` others, show me how it’s done. And I had this dream, just before waking up… Basically, I was facing someone of the `other camp`, we were in a sort of fight/discussion, until he said: please, release me, help me out of this. It was said in all honesty, sincerely. Then, `something` of me or something `came out` of me, sort of melted with this individual and HE CHANGED COMPLETELY, IN A SORT OF MORPHING WAY. VERY STRANGE!!!
And the key was in what the soul of the other was crying: please release me! And this is, indeed, the way. To release that soul to enter fully into the lessons they have chosen without your interference or support except to love them as they are — even if at a distance — and to give to them only when they truly ask, without manipulation. The something that “came out” and “melted with the individual” was this unconditional love that allowed them to be as they are, at their level, fully and completely so that they could grow out of it. He gave free will and discontinued his feeding of the STS frequency, thereby releasing the soul to change in its own way and time.
So, in the cosmic scheme of things, which is true love and giving? To support and sustain a person in lies and illusion with all the attendant “food” that is implicit in the marriage relationship, to continue to amplify their STS frequency, or to release them to their lessons — the giving of what is truly appropriate to their actions which demonstrate clearly what the soul is asking — that may eventually facilitate their own growth and initiation, if not in this life, in the next?
Of course, the question then becomes: can you withdraw support from the dynamic and still support the person? The fact is, in terms of soul choices, it is impossible to intimately support a person who is aligned to a certain soul choice without also supporting that person’s choices. In other words, how can you sleep with someone who has different goals than your own? Each time you do, an energy transfer takes place, and it amounts to your energy going to feed their goals, so you might as well decide that the goals are your own, because certainly, your energy is advancing them.
But, it is here that a very hard look has to be taken at the self to inquire why you would want to continue to support and sustain a person who is part of a dynamic that you have chosen not to feed any longer? (Again, I repeat that what I am saying here is only for those who have taken the step toward full initiation.)
Are you staying in the relationship because of financial considerations? Is it “for the children”? Or because you don’t see how you could continue your path of learning without the financial backing of the marriage? If it is for financial considerations relating to yourself, it is easy to see that you are the vampire. You are offering an illusion of love and support in order to obtain something that you want or need. If you are staying for the sake of the children, you need to be very careful how you think this is going to benefit them.
In the first place, at some soul level these children are learning by observing and experiencing. If they observe and experience a vampire dynamic between their parents and themselves, that is what they will grow up to emulate in their own lives
Is that what you want for your children? That they should marry for financial considerations? Or that they should marry someone who does not really love them for themselves, but then find that they have to stay in the marriage for the sake of the children, further perpetuating the dynamic to the next generation? Is that what you want for your children and your children’s children? Can you look at your own life and say, with deepest honesty, that this is what you would want for someone you love very much?
In another sense, if you are in a relationship where there is feeding going on, one or both of the marriage partners is going to have to obtain energy from somewhere, and the most likely sources are going to be the children. Is that what you want?
Another key is, can you stay in the relationship without expectation of anything being changed or made better by your presence and support?
The essential thing about the STO shamanic path is to give only when asked. And then, to give all that is asked. Most love relationships consist of one person asking another (implicitly or explicitly) to give them their ideal partner. This may have nothing at all to do with who the person really is. And certainly, most relationship partners will try to fulfill this role, at least for a time. But when the energy of pretending to be something you are not runs out, what is left? An even deeper issue is: what if the pretense of who or what you are is so programmed into you by the role you were taught to play by your own upbringing, and you find one day that this just isn’t you, but you can’t stop doing it because if you stop, you have no idea what you would do?
In any event, giving only when asked pretty much excludes giving to those of the STS orientation because they never ask. They manipulate, they demand, they beg, they even ask with their words but not their actions. And so, the only real thing a person seeking STO alignment can give to one who is still firmly embedded in the STS path is a no.
This issue of asking is a thing you can often only see by seeing the unseen. Perhaps one way to think about it would be that you could tell if someone is really “asking” if there is no anticipation on their part that you will give to them what they are asking and there is no condition placed upon you as to whether or not you say yes or no. In other words, if you say no, (because you cannot say yes for whatever reason) you are certain that there will be no break or decline in your relations. And the same thing applies to the self. If you “ask,” are you really asking? Or, is there some string attached such as “if you love me you will say yes,” or “see what I have done for you; now it’s your turn,” whether implied or not?
Since I often refer to Christianity in this discussion, perhaps it would be useful to take a small side-trip to consider that topic?
The Christian religion, and its New Age offshoots, is the chief proponent of the many End of the World scenarios with which we are most familiar. Scenarios about the end times originate mostly in the body of apocalyptic, eschatological writings of the New and Old Testaments. It is in the final book, Revelation, that most striking and symbolic representations about the end of the world are said by many to be depicted.
It is a difficult work to comprehend. Probably no other piece of writing in history has been examined more thoroughly and interpreted more widely. It is the end-of-the world legend, a doomsday tale on moldy bread with virtual reality special effects in abundance. It is the inspirational fountainhead for mad prophets, spittle spewing pulpit-pounders, apocalyptic Enochian magicians, fanatical true believers, grade-B moviemakers, and knaves and snake-oil salesmen of every form and sort.
Does this mean that we can just discard Revelation and the other prophecies altogether? It would be nice to think so, but as we have already noted, even though the Control System is always stepping in to do damage control, they do it oh, so carefully! While the above is rather accurate in terms of the many and varied interpretations that have been given to this Mother of all End Time Prophecies, there is no point in throwing the baby out with the bathwater. Anybody with eyes and ears can perceive that there is something amiss in our world, in our reality, and once that is seen, and once the questions are asked, which then leads to research, we come to the idea that something is really going to happen!
But what?
What seems to be true is that the writers of both the Old and New Testaments couldn’t just toss out the oral traditions. They used them in a very special way. It often seems that whatever was positive was twisted and turned backward. With an awareness of how history can be mythicized and then historicized, and any combination thereof, we can look at the scriptures with a different eye. We can theorize that there must have been a real person around whom the legend of Jesus — the mythicized history — was wrapped. Or, there could have been a real tradition that someone taught in those times and the myths that are now called history were ways of preserving that tradition. We can theorize that he was teaching something important and dramatic for it to have made such an impact. We can also theorize that this “impact” — the fact that so many people were interested in this new way of seeing the world — was seen as dangerous and needed to be co-opted so as to be utilized as the centerpiece of a Control System, while at the same time burying, twisting or distorting the teachings themselves. The very nature of the reality itself and our current-day observations, as well as a broad historical review, suggest that whatever he was really doing and saying, it was most certainly twisted, corrupted, and emphases shifted in fairly predictable ways.
Early Christians are said to have believed that the end of the world and the reappearance of their Messiah were imminent. We are told that, from the earliest days of the organized church, anticipation of the millennium — the thousand-year reign of the returned Christ — was in conflict with ecclesiastical policies that were growing apace in the new church hierarchy.
In what is today Turkey, a man named Montanus claimed to have experienced a vision of a heavenly New Jerusalem about to descend to the earth. Montanus and his idea were perceived as a threat to ecclesiastical authority. Hippolytus, writing in 215 CE, accused the Montanist believers of heresy, including listening to revelations from female seers. Montanism continued to spread, especially after Tertullian — the brilliant legal scholar who had been born in Carthage and converted to Christianity in 196 CE — joined the movement. He too reported a vision of this heavenly city descending from the sky, a metaphor that has persisted for centuries.
The ubiquity of this vision is interesting for a lot of reasons, most particularly when one considers the possibility that these early Christians may have been interacting with hyperdimensional realities. While some Gnostic groups “spiritualized” the events foretold in Revelation, there were still those who insisted that this paradise was quite real and physical and could exist on earth. This idea became known as chiliasm, a form of apocalyptic vision that depicted the millennium as a physical and material period.
A Gnostic prophet named Cerinthus said that there would be an earthly kingdom of Christ, and that the flesh of human beings again inhabiting Jerusalem would be subject to desires and pleasure. He added, “The kingdom of Christ would … consist in the satisfaction of the stomach and of even lower organs, in eating, and drinking and nuptial pleasures.” One writer described Cerinthus and his followers by noting, “there was great enthusiasm among his supporters for that end …”
No doubt.
Many chiliasts believed that in the millennium all manner of physical craving would be satiated, that men would find all women beautiful and willing to partake in carnal delights. Others taught that women would bear many children, but without the pain of childbirth or even the inconvenience of sex. It can be noted that there is a thread of sexual allusions in the millennialist vision that — through the centuries — has emerged again and again.
It is fairly simple to see in the “seed” of the primitive chiliasm of the early Christian ideas the concept of Time Loops and hyperdimensional realities as well as the idea of cyclical catastrophes signaling both the end and the beginning of “worlds.” However, there seems to have been something else about this early Christianity that created problems for church fathers who were busy codifying dogma and constructing a far-flung ecclesiastical empire. Since end time fever would not go away, it was codified as “believe in our dogmas, and you will go to heaven at the End Time. It will only happen once, and we are the agents of the god who is going to destroy everybody who does not belong to our club.”
The question is: if the early Church fathers eliminated “primitive chiliasm” from Christianity, what else did they eliminate?
What is most revealing is the fact that the only writings contemporary to the times of early Christianity which mention it specifically, remark that it was a “vile superstition.” Yet, what we have as Christianity today is nothing more or less than the same religious practices of the peoples who branded it a “vile superstition.” Tacitus tells us that in the time of Nero:
There followed a catastrophe, whether through accident or the design of the emperor is not sure, as there are authorities for both views, but it was the most disastrous and appalling of all the calamities brought on this city through the violence of fire. …A rumor had spread abroad that at the very time when the city was burning, Nero had mounted on his private stage and sung of the destruction of Troy, comparing the present disaster with that ancient catastrophe….
In order to put an end to these rumors Nero provided scapegoats and visited most fearful punishments on those popularly called Christians, a group hated because of their outrageous practices. The founder of this sect, Christus, was executed in the reign of Tiberius by the procurator Pontius Pilatus. Thus the pernicious superstition was suppressed for the while, but it broke out again not only in Judaea, where this evil had its origin, but even in Rome, to which all obnoxious and disgraceful elements flow from everywhere in the world and receive a large following.
The first ones to be seized were those who confessed; then on their information a vast multitude was convicted, not so much on the charge of incendiarism as because of their hatred of humanity. (Leon 1952)
Pliny the Younger, who lived c. 62 to 113 CE, was sent by Emperor Trajan as a special representative to the Roman province of Bithynia in Asia Minor. His task was to keep the peace. When he had trouble dealing with Christians, Pliny wrote to the emperor asking how he should proceed against them describing what he knew about their religion:
However, they asserted that their guilt or mistake had amounted to no more than this, that they had been accustomed on a set day to gather before dawn and to chant in antiphonal form a hymn to Christ as if to a god, and to bind themselves by a pledge, not for the commission of any crime, but rather that they would not commit theft nor robbery nor adultery nor break their promises, nor refuse to return on demand any treasure that had been entrusted to their care; when this ceremony had been completed, they would go away, to reassemble later for a feast, but an ordinary and innocent one. They had abandoned even this custom after my edict in which, following your instruction, I had forbidden the existence of fellowships. So I thought it the more necessary to extract the truth even by torture from two maidservants who were called deaconesses. I found nothing save a vile superstition carried to an immoderate length.
The contagion of the superstition has pervaded not only the cities but the villages and country districts as well. Yet it seems that it can be halted and cured. It is well-agreed that temples almost desolate have begun to be thronged again, and stated rites that had long been abandoned are revived; and a sale is found for the fodder of sacrificial victims, though hitherto buyers were rare. So it is easy to conjecture what a great number of offenders may be reformed, if a chance to repent is given. (Heironimus 1952)
So we have these clues:
1. Christians were hated because of their outrageous practices.
2. Their beliefs were described as a pernicious superstition.
3. The pernicious superstition had its origin in Judaea.
4. Christians were convicted because of their “hatred of humanity.”
5. Pliny describes their practices as benign, but that the core belief was a “vile superstition carried to an immoderate length.”
6. This “vile superstition” was pervasive and apparently led to the temples and ancient rites including sacrifice being abandoned.
The question that comes to mind is: what would the peoples of that time have considered a “vile superstition” or “outrageous practices” when one is aware of what they considered normal religious practice which included dying god myths and gnosticism and sacrifice and all the other accoutrements of Christianity as we know it today? The only real clue we have is the remark: “not so much on the charge of incendiarism as because of their hatred of humanity — a vile superstition carried to an immoderate length.”
Their what?
“Their hatred of humanity.”
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Boris Mouravieff’s trilogy Gnosis is an attempt to recover and describe, in terms understandable to modern man, a particular Tradition handed down over the centuries, in a sometimes broken line, but one that still exists today in the Eastern Orthodox Church. This tradition could be said to be the Christian equivalent of Yoga, Zen, and the other inner traditions of the far Eastern religions, disciplines which have each existed as specializations within the religion of which they are a part. It is not one man’s system or invention, but has its roots far back in the history of Christianity — revealed in certain statements of St. Paul and in the Q gospel — the foundational material of modern Christianity as extracted by scholars such as Burton Mack. It is said that the development of this tradition in its current form can be traced through formative figures of the early churches, and it clearly relates to the doctrines expressed in the key texts of Eastern spirituality such as the Philokalia.15 It clearly relates the oral tradition known as the Royal Way that survives to this day in the main centers of monasticism in the Eastern church, though that appears to be a corruption of the original teachings. The tradition explicated by Mouravieff does not claim to be a work of Orthodox theology, nor to reinterpret Orthodox doctrine.
Mouravieff admits that the survival of this tradition within the church is tenuous, that the doctrine does not appear to survive in full or has not been collected together in full. Monks on Athos admit the existence of the Tradition but say that it has never been fully spelled out in writing. The importance of Mouravieff’s work is the effort he has made to collect that dispersed information and to make it accessible in practical form. He has written extensively on this subject and I will quote some of his material here that comes at the problem from a slightly different angle. In his introduction to book one of Gnosis, Mouravieff observes that we confuse moral progress with technical progress, “so that the development of science continues in dangerous isolation.” Despite all our technological achievements, the human condition has not changed “in the slightest,” and will not change, because it focuses only on external things, whereas the essential is found within. One result of this is that we have completely ignored the study of our own death, and all it entails. He writes:
Homo Sapiens lives immersed in his everyday life to a point where he forgets himself and forgets where he is going; yet, without feeling it, he knows that death cuts off everything.
How can we explain that the intellectual who has made marvelous discoveries and the technocrat who has exploited them have left outside the field of their investigations the ending of our lives? How can we explain that a science which attempts everything and claims everything nevertheless remains indifferent to the enigma revealed by the question of death? How can we explain why Science, instead of uniting its efforts with its older sister religion to resolve the problems of Being — which is also the problem of death — has in fact opposed her?
Whether a man dies in bed or aboard an interplanetary ship, the human condition has not changed in the slightest.
Happiness? But we are taught that happiness lasts only as long as the Illusion lasts … and what is this Illusion? Nobody knows. But it submerges us.
If we only knew what Illusion is, we would then know the opposite: what Truth is. This Truth would liberate us from slavery. (Mouravieff 2002, xxiii)
This last remark seems to me to be important. Very often people write to me and say that the Cs material is too “scary” and that we talk too much about the illusion, why aren’t we talking about positive things or concentrating on “escaping” or whatever.
Well, the fact seems to be that what Mouravieff has said above is the key: If we cannot map the illusion, we have no hope of getting out of it. It is in mapping the illusion that we are able to distinguish between what Mouravieff calls the A influences and the B influences. We call it seeing the Theological Reality behind the symbolic things and events of our world. Mouravieff points out that the more we collect or perceive the B influences, and act on them, the more we “magnetize.” And naturally, “seeing” the A influences, or discerning the lies of our reality, consists in an ongoing series of shocks that seem to be necessary to change our center of gravity.
The point is that it seems that until a person fully SEES the illusion — the layers and layers of it — they have no hope of becoming free of it. Until we are trained, step by step, to discern the lies from the truth, we have no internal consistency and are subject to the whims of the Control System at every turn. And it seems to be that this patient, time-consuming, taking apart of our reality and extracting the Truth or B influences is what literally grows the soul.
Many people simply can’t do it. They can’t stand the bloody mess of the birth of the higher self which takes place on the bodies of all the sacred cows that were held so close for so long. They want to hear nice stories about how their breathing and spinning tetrahedrons are going to just fix them right up. They want to hear how the “Guardian Alliance” is going to help us out of the soup. They want to hear how the Zetas are warning us that we are in danger of being smacked by a rogue planet and if we ask real nice, we might get a seat on the airlift out.
As Mouravieff has just said: “If we only knew what Illusion is, we would then know the opposite: what Truth is. This Truth would liberate us from slavery.”
And it seems that the only way we have of discovering truth in this reality, is to first of all strip away all the lies. And Lord! There’s a raft of them!
After describing our confusion regarding progress, Mouravieff writes that with the Cartesian spirit which had destroyed scholastic philosophy itself now becoming obsolete, “The logic of history demands a new spirit.”
The divorce between traditional knowledge, of which religion is a trustee, and acquired knowledge, the fruit of science, threatens to make sterile [our] civilization … Yet it is an aberration to believe that Science by its very nature is opposed to Tradition, and it must also be firmly stressed that Tradition does not include any tendency opposed to Science. (Mouravieff 2002, xxiv)
In St. Paul’s formula of “Faith, Hope and Love” Mouravieff sees the first two as temporary, specific to Paul’s time and culture and the limits placed on what was then possible to achieve, but now to be replaced by “Science and Knowledge.” But even though science replaces hope, it isn’t the final stage, either.
[Paul] adds that “When that which is perfect is come, that which is incomplete disappears.” The perfect is Love, which unites in itself the accomplishment of all virtues, of all prophecies, of all mysteries, and of all Knowledge. … It is by the joint efforts of traditional science, based on Revelation, and of acquired Science, the domain of positive knowledge, that is, on “Faith and Hope,” that one can hope to fulfill the programme traced out by St. Paul, and finally attain Love in its integral meaning. (Mouravieff 2002, xxiii—xxiv)
Mouravieff talks about the degrading of women to “living merchandise” and how Jesus (as a Gnostic teacher, though Burton Mack has identified a strong Hellenic Cynicism in the Q gospel) taught “reciprocal choice in love” which established the idea of “romance” between men and women. I have already noted that this seems to be philosophy of the Golden Age, transmitted down through the ages via archaic shamanism, the Eleusinian Rites, and then later the true teachings of Jesus, not to be confused with the Egyptian mythical overlay that is known as Christianity today.
“Reciprocal choice in love” is certainly a theme of the Grail stories with their emphasis on romance and it has long been a mystery as to what, precisely, this allegory was supposed to convey. If what Mouravieff is saying is true, then it will all begin to make perfect sense, even including the possible survival of the Cathar teachings in the Grail stories and the lays of the minstrels and Troubadours.
But even if the romance of the Middle Ages remains the ideal of our society, relations between the sexes hardly live up to that ideal. Mouravieff offers a vision of a new kind of Love:
Liberated from servitude to procreation, this romance of tomorrow is called on to cement the indissoluble union between two strictly polar beings, a union which will assure their integration in the bosom of the Absolute. As St. Paul says: “Nevertheless, neither is the woman without the man, nor man without the woman in the Lord.”
The vision of such a romance has haunted the highest minds for thousands of years. We find it in platonic love, the basis of the singular romance in the myths of Androgyne man; of Orpheus and Eurydice; of Pygmalion and Galatea … This is the aspiration of the human heart, which cries in secrecy because of its great loneliness. This romance forms the essential aim of esoteric work. Here is that love which will unite man to that being who is unique for him, the Sister-wife, the glory of man, as he will be the glory of God. Having entered into the light of Tabor, no longer two, but one drinking at the fount of true Love, the transfigurer: the conqueror of Death.
Love is the Alpha and Omega of life. All else has only secondary significance.
Man is born with the Alpha. It is the intention of the present work to show the path which leads towards the Omega. (Mouravieff 2002, xxv—xxvi)
However, we still have to deal with the problems facing us, the human condition which hasn’t changed at all, despite our technical progress. There’s a lot that stands in our way between our current ideas about love and the type which Mouravieff is speaking about. Observing the problems the average person living under “the constant pressure of contemporary life” has when it comes to self-observation — the ever-shifting fog and obscurity that characterizes their inner landscape — Mouravieff writes:
Everything is in fact continually changing within us. A minor external shock, agreeable or disagreeable, happy or unhappy, is sufficient to give our inner content a quite different appearance. … As this impression becomes more defined we begin to become more aware that it is not a single being who lives within us but several, each having his own tastes, his own aspirations, and each trying to attain his own ends. If we proceed with this experience, we will soon be able to distinguish three currents with that perpetually moving life: that of the vegetative life of the instincts, so to speak; that of the animal life of the feelings; and lastly that of human life in the proper sense of the term, characterized by thought and speech. It is as though there were three beings within us, all entangled together in an extraordinary way. (Mouravieff 2002, 4)
When we really take a look at ourselves, we can see that we are not complete, whole, stable, everlasting. How can we profess to Love when this is the case? If we are ever to Love, ever to enter into ourselves fully, we must know ourselves. And in order to do that, we must first observe ourselves. As Mouravieff points out, at first all we will notice is fog and obscurity. He uses an analogy of a vase full of iron filings to describe our inner content. Each external shock shakes up the vase and rearranges the filings. Without “conscientious and sustained effort,” we have no way of knowing how and when we will react to a shock and our inner life will be disturbed. We are at the mercy of external forces…chance…and left only to “patch up” after each emotional flare-up.
Esoteric science indicates the possibilities and the means of freeing oneself from this law. … But to begin effectively in this way, one must first clearly see the situation as it is. … Introspection carried out relentlessly results in enhanced internal sensibility. This improved sensibility in its turn intensifies the amplitude and frequency of movement whenever the iron filings are disturbed. As a result, shocks that previously were not noticed will now provoke vivid reactions. These movements, because of their continuous amplification, can create friction between particles of iron so intense that we may one day feel the interior fire igniting within us. … If it continues in this way [a steady, burning fire], our state can change: the heat of the flame will start a process of fusion within us.
From this point on the inner content will no longer behave like a heap of iron filings: it will form a block. Then further shocks will no longer provoke interior change in man as they did previously. Having reached this point he will have acquired a firmness; he will remain himself in the midst of the tempests to which life may expose him. … to reach this state … we must from the beginning rid ourselves of all illusions about ourselves, no matter how dearly held; an illusion, if it is tolerated at the start, will grow en route, so that suffering and additional effort will be necessary in order to rid ourselves of it at a later date. (Mouravieff 2002, 6, 5—6)
So in order to truly live, and to truly Love, we must triumph over lies. Just as a culture of Love (the “Cycle of the Spirit” in Mouravieff’s Christian gloss) necessitates living wholly in the true, a person in Love…a true individual…must be free from all lies. But our mechanical nature causes us to lie constantly, to others and ourselves. Mouravieff devotes some time to lying, and the long struggle against it. I recommend readers interested in this valuable line of work to get the books and study them as an adjunct to the work of Gurdjieff. They offer much food for thought. For example, “useless lies” to others are easier to master, according to Mouraveiff, than the lies we tell ourselves.
We can therefore begin it [i.e. stopping automatic lies in ordinary conversation] without delay, as long as we do it discreetly so as not to draw attention to ourselves, and so do not provoke increasing pressure from the General Law [i.e. The Predator’s mind/Matrix, which will try to circumvent these efforts.] … As for efforts at suppressing lies to oneself, they entail quite different and important consequences. Such lies grow deep roots. In this domain, paradoxical situations sometimes arise, some of them of such psychological subtlety that it is difficult to draw them out of the shade. (Mouravieff 2002, 167, 168)16
He then applies this to the love relationship:
Here we must mention the question of marriages where one of the partners, having realized that this union is an error, persists in trying to convince him or herself of the contrary. If he is of an affectionate nature, he will redouble his amiability towards his partner as if truly toward his polar “other.” The absurdity of the situation reaches its limits if the other partner reacts by adopting a corresponding attitude — without any sincere or spontaneous glow of tenderness.
The danger from the esoteric point of view is that, by mere force of habit, such a situation takes on for one of the partners, or even for both of them, the value of true love. This kind of lying to oneself can go on for dozens of years with people who are amiable and of good faith, and they entail tragic disillusions in the end. (Mouravieff 2002, 168)
The process of rooting out these lies to the self is a struggle, but essential. As our cherished beliefs and “beautiful dreams” vanish, it is painful and can bring up feelings of profound regret and disillusionment. But as we mourn the loss of our illusions, an atmosphere of truth within us develops and we begin to feel liberated. In other words, the Truth will set you free, free from slavery to self-lies. The elimination of lying — the state of inner freedom — is the prerequisite for self-development and work on the “lower centers” of thought, emotion, and action. An inner observer develops, which sees the self as it is, observing and judging impartially. This part desires to be free, to rid the self of the baggage of our past. But we must be consistent and pure in our efforts. “Everything false within him will be burnt by the flames of this blazing sword.” The self progressively “merges” with the higher self, or as Mouravieff puts it, “the Individuality becomes progressively integrated with the higher cosmos” (Mouravieff 2002, 231, 233).
He then goes on to distinguish between reincarnation and what is called the “film” of our life. This film, along with each individual’s own script, is the “field of action” in which we can learn to apply conscious choices in our lives. According to the Tradition, this film repeats. In the realm of all possibilities and probabilities, it represents the paths of least resistance, the mechanical “playing out” of thoughtless action which characterizes normal life. Feelings of déjà vu are actually “temporary surges of fine energies in the organism” — the “Present” in which we experience life temporarily — expanding to bring future aspects of this film into our consciousness. According to Mouravieff, in many cases, the feeling of having lived before is just an expanded awareness of the mechanical course of our everyday actions, the mechanical unfolding of the “film” of our life. But to be conscious, is to act consciously within this film.
As long as man lives in the wilderness, self-satisfied and immersed in lies and illusions, the film will unfold with mechanical inflexibility, and the Personality will remain entirely unchanged. These circumstances start to change the moment man crossed the first Threshold. This passage can be compared to the conception of the future Individuality. The Staircase symbolizes the period of gestation, and the crossing of the second Threshold represents the second Birth, the birth of Individuality. … [As man becomes more and more integrated with his “I”, growing his Individuality,] he progressively participates in real, objective existence … This is … liberation from the bonds of the film. (Mouravieff 2002, 256—257)
Only then does true reincarnation become possible, as it is done consciously, usually with a mission to accomplish.
In theory, the film in which man is born and in which he lives can go on until the end of the world, on condition that he is happy, satisfied with himself, attributing his virtues to himself, and blaming others for his mistakes and misfortunes. Properly speaking, this kind of existence cannot be considered as human; it could be described as anthropoid. This term is justified in the sense that exterior man, immersed in self-satisfaction, represents the crowning achievement of millions of years of evolution of the species from its animal ancestors, yet from the point of view of esoteric evolution, he is a possibility which has not yet been realized.
If we envisage the problem of esoteric evolution from the point of view of the film and the different parts man can play in it, it is clear that this kind of evolution is impossible as long as the film can always be considered as turning in the same circle. People who perform in such a film are those we have called anthropoids, puppets, the dead who, in the words of Jesus, “believe themselves to be alive.” Esoteric evolution starts when man, by his conscious efforts, proves capable of breaking the circle and transforming it into an ascending spiral. … In a film which unfolds in a spiral in this way, the contents of the play change; they change in two ways: first in each life, that is, during each revolution, and also from spiral to spiral. The composition of the cast, the circumstances, and the scenery all change. Two elements however remain permanent: first, the general aim, to reach and cross the second Threshold; then the absolute condition for crossing this Threshold, that all the karmic debts which have been accumulated in the present life, as well as during previous spirals, must be neutralized and liquidated. Before the Second Threshold … every drama must be played out to its denouement. (Mouravieff 2002, 234—236)
Following the spiral, or “climbing the Staircase,” is reserved for those who have already made some headway in absorbing B influences and developing their magnetic center through work on the lower centers. Those on the path are observed by other STO beings who then step forward, offering assistance when asked. But this doesn’t mean that (s)he can stop working and making conscious efforts, and the nature of the assistance offered means that it is often not seen or grasped. For that, one must be well-versed in reading the symbols of reality. In other words, it’s not yet a done deal!
If we could avoid all errors and complications in this new experience, produced as a result of free movements, esoteric evolution would then occur in a harmonious rising curve. Generally, this is not the case. … man most often comes to this idea of evolution after he has already complicated the film to which he belongs. But true evolution cannot occur except on the basis of the original film — after all artificially added elements have been eliminated. The latter is conditional on a return to the purity of the centers, especially the emotional center which — at least at the start — is the sole receptacle of ‘B’ influences, and the seat of the magnetic centre. The heart must therefore be pure, and if not already pure, it must be purified. This is the sine qua non condition of success. All the information [regarding] ‘lying’ in all its aspects was given to emphasize the absolute need for purifying the heart, and for beginning to re-educate the emotional center in a positive direction.
This necessity explains the meaning of the words of Jesus: “Except you turn, and become as little children, you shall in no wise enter into the kingdom of heaven.” (Mouravieff 2002, 238)
This refers specifically to the emotional life. Many have interpreted this as a restriction on the development of the intellect. This is a huge mistake. Intelligence and intellect must be developed and stimulated. The admonition to “become as little children” only points to the need for purity of the centers, and not the idea of keeping them in a primitive state. Paul wrote: “Brothers, be not children in that which concerns judgment, be children in what concerns malice, but as to judgment, be fully grown men.”
But how do recognize our mission? The true meaning and intent of our film?
Man must proceed with an impartial analysis of its contents: the role that each of the actors plays in it — and the value of this role — must be passed through a sieve. Gradually, as this stripping work progresses, the positive or negative character of different roles emerges more and more clearly. After this, inappropriate elements tend to disappear from the scene. At the end of this analysis, the film will contain only a reduced number of actors. But all of them are organically bound together, and with the hero, by the contents of the play, as it was conceived from the beginning of these experiences … which are pursued by the real “I” through centuries or even millennia. The play must then be played out to its resolution or denouement.
The basic task of man, once he has crossed the first Threshold, is to shelter himself from the karmic influences which are the effects of errors committed in his free movements, either in the present life or in the past. [In the past,] workers used to go to some monastery or … hermitage … and this enabled [them] to concentrate on … introspective work. … Our times require energetic and rapid methods. (Mouravieff 2002, 244)
The last sections of Gnosis bring us back to our discussion on relationships. Mouravieff writes that work as a couple can facilitate quick movement between thresholds, but only on the condition that the two partners are “integrally polar.” Such a partner can be found either by the long path, where “by successive elimination based on long and minute analysis of his film, and after new errors and new failures, man may end by finding his legitimate spouse,” or by the short path, whereby such a partner is consciously sought after. They can then work on their film together.
A man alone is incomplete. But just where he is weak, his polar being is strong. Together, they form an integral being: their union leads to the fusion of their Personalities and a faster crystallization of their complete subtle bodies, united into a common second Birth. This is the redemption of “original sin.”
The system of films is conceived in such a way that polar beings will necessarily meet in life, in certain cases more than once. Only the confused ties contracted in this life by each of them, as a result of their free movements, combined with the karmic consequences of one or more previous experiences, can divert the man or woman from the only being with whom they could form a Microcosmos.
If there were no karmic debt, everything would go wonderfully: two young people would meet in the most favorable family and social atmosphere, and their union would represent a true fairy-tale. But this is not reality. Obeying the principle of Imperfection, and moved by the action of the General Law, the two predestined beings will commit errors. Deeply buried in lies, they do not generally know how to appreciate the gift they are given. Often, they do not even recognize each other.
If this is the case, then an agonizing question is put: is there one or more means to detect our polar being, and if so, what are these means? To meet that person, to do so without recognition, to let our polar being pass by, is the worst mistake we could possibly make: because we would remain in our factitious life, without light. Must not everything be sacrificed in favor of a union which is the only chance of our life: the promise of return to paradise lost?
Nevertheless we should beware of the last trap, one we can fall into just at the moment when ineffable happiness seems to smile upon us. We have just said: all must be sacrificed; we have not said: all must be broken. If, having recognized one another, the two polar beings triumph over this last ordeal or test, often the most painful, the new life, will open in front of them, as they are then called to be One on earth and in heaven. (Mouravieff 2002, 245)
Now, let me make it clear at this point that the “polar opposite” concept is a dangerous one because there is a tendency for people to see it as the solution to all their problems, that, if they can only find their “soul mate” they can then sail off into the sunset and spend the rest of eternity in blissful “oneness” together. This would appear to be a significant twisting of the concept, a trap if you like, that would lead only to further immersion in service to self. Based on long observation and research, it seems that those who are truly granted the gift of finding their polar opposite are few and far between. Ark and I found each other only after 30 years of hard work and suffering. Being joined to your polar opposite is the Universe saying that you have work to do: work for others. Finding one’s “polar opposite” is not about either of the people, but rather about the service that they can offer to others as a result of their coming together. The process involved in preparing a person to be able to convey these understandings is very demanding in terms of stripping away of the myriad personal lies and illusions. It seems that the extent of a person’s conscious suffering is relative to their ability to understand the deeper aspects of the human condition and by that understanding be able to transmit them to another. If you understand Gurdjieff’s description of conscience and “conscious suffering,” then you have some idea of what the price is because in order to be in the state necessary for the PO relationship, one must have an awakened conscience and be conscious.
It was shortly after Ark and I met that I came across a passage in Linda Goodman’s Love Signs where she mentions, in passing, the idea of “Twin Flames.” This idea apparently arose out of her astrology research. She writes:
Wandering through the millions of couples on Earth who are attempting to achieve (of have achieved) satisfying contentment and fulfillment together — and those who are still struggling through heavy sexual karmic testing — are those rare ones esoterically called “Soul Mates” … or “Twin Souls.”
It sometimes happens that a man and a woman meet and instantly recognize the other half of themselves behind the eyes of each other. The eyes have been rightly called “the windows of the soul.” (Goodman 1991, 3)
Unfortunately, Linda didn’t seem to be aware of psychopaths who, with their empty eyes, can perfectly mirror a person’s soul back to them and thereby deceive them.
Even their voices are familiar to each other’s ears, like a remembered chord of music. These are two who immediately sense the unalterable fact that they have been, are — and must always be One; even though they might have fought against their fate for centuries and struggled in vain to escape their linked destiny. Almost from the first moment they meet and gaze upon each other, their spirits rush together in joyful recognition, ignoring all convention and custom, all social rules of behavior, driven by an inner knowing too overwhelming to be denied. Inexplicably, often without a word being spoken, they know that only through each other can they hope to find Wholeness — only when they’re together can they both be Complete in every way.
Somehow, they feel Immortal, and they are… for this level of love can bestow the beginning knowledge of the attainment of several centuries longevity in the same flesh body on the Earth plane, as well as the accomplishment of changing flesh bodies (The Temples of the Soul) in a fully conscious state, without the “coma” called death. The solution to the problem of the “over-population” which rises to the mind as the result of such achievement by everyone on Earth must wait till a forthcoming book for a detailed discussion.
Neither will I attempt to detail the origin and ultimate destiny of Twin Souls here, since I’ve done so in another forthcoming book, called Goobers, to be published in the near future. But there is so much burning curiosity concerning the subject of Soul Mates or Twin Souls, it bears some explanation here, however incomplete.
A man and a woman who are Soul Mates hardly need to speak the words “I love you,” kowing as surely as they do that they must belong to each other whether in this present incarnation (lifetime) — or (due to karmic complications) at the end of many more centuries. The words in the marriage ceremony “those which God hath joined together, let no man put asunder” refer to such as these. Yet this warning is unnecessary, simply symbolic ritual, for no man can break the tie between Twin Souls, not even themselves. Nor can any energy in the Universe. The Force that created them is all-powerful and indestructible. The bond may be weakened, their final union and consummation delayed, but they cannot be separated permanently. There can be no end to the kind of happiness they may claim — when they wish to do so — on a timetable dictated by the Free Will choice of the Higher Angels of their own selves. (The Superconscious or Supraconscious of each.)
This kind of instant magnetic attraction is often called “love at first sight,” which is no accident of fate, but very real. It’s more than curious coincidence that Twin Souls, out of the whole huge world, should be drawn together at the appointed time. The crossing of their paths has been predestined on a Higher Level of Awareness. Certain spiritual energies are at work to bring about their meetings, as surely as the migration of birds and the return of comets are governed by a similar Universal Law. Their coming-together is controlled by the workings of Karma, which is but the sum total of Causes set into motion in the Past — and these determine infallibly the conditions of the Present. When the time comes for Twin Souls to incarnate, they are sent to Earth clothed in flesh (again, the bodies being the Temple of the soul) through particular Time-Energy Forces, at the moment in Earth Time when certain planetary configurations create the proper conditions. These Time-Energy Forces are electro-magnetic in nature, yet more complex than this.
None of us can control the eventual results of the Causes we’ve initiated or set into motion in our past lives, although we can control our reactions to the results such past Causes bring into the present lifetime. The “Free Will” to change these karmic events is possessed by the Higher Self, and we many attain such power by learning to tune into or communicate with the Higher Self (Supraconscious). But “Free Will” on a conscious level can only be realized in the Future — since, in the ever-moving stream called the Present, we are setting into motion, through actions we currently initiate and through our reactions to past Causes — the future conditions we will inevitably meet.
As for which particular planetary influences in the nativities (horoscopes or birth charts) of two people reveal to an astrologer the indication that these are Twin Souls, they are too intricate to comprehensively explain in this book, in their entire scope — and must await another volume planned concerning this and related subjects. But assuming that such planetary influences are present in the respective charts of lovers, a destiny is revealed in which the two will meet involuntarily — and cannot be separated, even through the experience of death — except for temporary intervals of Earth Time in the present life, for the purpose of karmic soul-testing. During these periods of being apart, however brief or however extended, both persons are lonely, empty and incomplete. Yet even throughout any such temporary spaces in their togetherness, there’s a constant, pulsing astral communication between them — for even then, they are linked by a cord that connects them over the miles. …
During the weary search for one’s own Twin Soul, there will be many side trips, many relationships that at first appear to be genuine, then fade into disinterest and boredom. Even when the Soul Mate is at last discovered, there are often many complications and testings of worthiness which cause temporary pain. …
Sometimes, it seems that the problems of two people who love each other are hopeless, the wall that separates them too high to ever surmount. …
The fabled search for the Holy Grail is a dual quest. …
On a higher mystical level, the successful conclusion of the search for the Holy Grail is reached, for each human, at the time of reunion with the Twin Soul. For only when all lonely and separated Twin Souls are at last joyously reunited, will the pieces of Life’s jigsaw puzzle form themselves into a whole and complete picture within the Universe.
Legend whispers that it shall be during the dawning of the Age of Aquarius when the fourteen pieces of the soul of Osiris — scattered when his body was cut into fourteen pieces by his brother, Set — will come together in one man, “with all his scattered pieces whole.” One man, who will be reunited with his own Twin Soul, Isis, after millions of years of searching, and countless uncomprehending incarnations spent together in the past.
At the same time, the long ago sundered Twin Souls of Set and his Nepenthys will be rejoined, to fulfill their destiny of discovering together the Grail of the Nazarene, through the blending of their auras. Then, says legend, through the miracle of mutual forgiveness for that long-ago crime, Set and his brother, Osiris — along with Isis and her sister, Nepenthys, will in some way, together, find the lost records of Atlantis … as well as the burial place of Osiris, which contains the records of the building of the Great Pyramid of Gizeh by Osiris… When these great and holy events manifest themselves, following the recognition of these four (and one other) of the true identity of their own Higher Selves — many more Twin Souls will suddenly recognize each other. Then we shall at least begin to realize our blessed birthright, as supplicated in those singing lines of the Lord’s Prayer: “Thy Kingdome come, Thy will be done, on Earth, as it is in Heaven,” (as above, so below), changing the pattern of the Trinity of Solar, Stellar and Lunar energies in the cosmos.
Those who love deeply and who are truly mated with the other half of themselves, have no desire to initiate wars, or to dominate others. As the devotion of Romeo and Juliet, even in death, had the power to dissolve the enmity and reconcile the difference between the warring Capulets and Montagues, so shall the ecstatic blending of all Twin Soul lovers have the same power to unite mankind and womankind, all Earthlings in permanent Peace and Good. It’s not a coincidence (nothing is) that the man who initiated at least a beginning gesture toward Peace in the Middle East, Anwar Sadat, is a genuinely happily mated man, with a woman by his side who reflects the goals of his Higher Self — as is Menachem Begin, of Israel, who at least initially welcomed the gesture in an equal spirit of good will and sincerity. Nor was it coincidence that Hitler was a lonely, unloved man. (Goodman 1992, 3—4, 5—6)
This was obviously written before the assassination of Sadat; Goodman also, obviously, did not know the history of the Irgun, the group to which Begin belonged. Indeed, after he came to power, the first thing he did was to negotiate the Camp David Accords, and this may be evidence of the power of the love he had for his wife, but Goodman, again and again, seems to be just a bit naive.
Linda Goodman died before she could product the promised volume on “Twin Souls”.
In any event, she gave no sources for her claims of a “legend” of Twin Flames reuniting at the end of the Age. When you search on the net, all you find is a lot of New Age nonsense that seems to be derived from Linda Goodman!
Barring that, it seems that the “oldest” source we have for the seed of the idea is Mouravieff’s “Polar Opposite” concept. Mouravieff claims that his information comes from the Eastern Orthodox Oral Tradition. As we have noticed in other areas where he decides to take off on his own and expand on an idea, he falls miserably short of having a real clue about what he was talking about. But we also notice that he doesn’t seem to create ideas out of thin air, so there must be some source for this idea that may be truly ancient.
We can certainly see echoes of the idea in ancient myths, though very few of them tell a story of a successful “Twin Soul” or “Twin Flame” union. Most of them fail, tripped up on pride and ego. The only really successful couple in the Greek Myths that I can think of right off-hand is the union of Perseus and Andromeda who, after being united, went off to fight against evil and right wrongs.
Then, there is the echo of the theme in the extremely ancient idea of the Shaman — the union of the divine male and female — keeping in mind, that the most ancient idea of the shaman was that of a warrior against the forces of darkness which is the same theme found in the story of Perseus and Andromeda.
So, we really don’t have much to go on.
Since Nature is always abundant, it may be that there are many “Twin Flames” provided in any period of history because it is understood that a certain percentage of them will be defective or failures for one reason or another. Twin Flame possibilities that are present but defective, lacking the drive for Truth and stopping at the first convenient enterprise that they consider “service” and going no further. It could also be a manifestation of lying to the self; after all, who wants to engage in a work where the possibility of real spiritual warfare exists? Better to stick to the warm and fuzzy half-truths and not make waves … even if that means compromising, which spells death to the Twin Flame relationship.
My thought is that the Polar Opposite idea that was presented along with the other ideas mentioned above is accurate, though with some distortions and a Biblical gloss. And that is not to mention the nonsense that Mouravieff picked up from the European occultists of his time as well. Those same occultists are the ones who are probably behind the New Age nonsense being propagated. Going back to the shamanic tradition, it seems that the Twin Soul/Twin Flame purpose is primarily that of the champion of the people, the warrior against the darkness.
So, I guess we have some idea of why Polar Opposites might be formed and why they might be born at particular times in any historic cycle, and what their role might be. I’m not even sure if we dare to assume that there might be 2 such or 3 such pairs in any cycle as Goodman suggests, or if we dare to go further and consider that there might be 14 such pairs, as the number in the Osirian myth might suggest. Or, if numbers are irrelevant?
We also have the idea that there are “soul mates,” which is probably an altogether different thing than a “Polar Opposite,” and probably more common.
When Ark entered my life, it was at a point that I no longer felt the need for a partner. That had been burned out of me by suffering. I was content to be alone in truth rather than with anyone where there was the slightest compromise of truth on either side. I didn’t want to be with anyone who had to make any “adjustments” to “get along” with me, and I didn’t want to make any adjustments to get along with anyone else. I just simply wanted to be me, as I was, in full Truth. And since, at that point, I had concluded that there was no possibility of such a perfect union in this reality, I decided that I must be this alone. And then, the Ark appeared.
Ark and I knew from the very beginning that in all things there is balance in the universe. If there is great happiness in one place, in another there must be great sadness. Also, if an individual experiences great happiness, they will also, most assuredly, cycle down into abyssal despair.
We first of all did not want our happiness — which can’t be described so I won’t even try — to be the cause of misery anywhere else. We also did not want our happiness to decay in a normal cyclic way. The only option seemed to be to make a sacrifice, to consciously suffer to balance the Cosmic Gift that had been given us.
We analyzed what we had, what we wanted, what our assets were, our natures, and so on, and came to the conclusion that we must give our lives in service to the Universe and sacrifice that one thing that still calls to us like a siren: a private, peaceful life doing just the things we like together.
Oh, what a joy it would be to have a little cottage by the sea with a library and a piano and a garden … To shut out the world, to close the door to the suffering and madness, to never have to wake up in the morning and wonder what vile and evil lie is being spread about us today simply because we are standing against the darkness.
I hope that the reader can really understand the horror and suffering we have been through as a result of our decision to give back to the Universe all our efforts, all our being, as payment for our happiness. Can you imagine, for a few moments, being a home-body type of person who likes to cook and sew and is sensitive to a fault, having to stand up in public and essentially strip naked in all aspects of my life in order to circumvent the wiles of evil? And then, once your life is laid bare as clearly and honestly as you can present it, to have it slimed and degraded and to have abuse and scorn poured on you; to have every evil thought and motive imputed to you; to be described in terms that are sickening if they are true, and ten times more sickening because they are not?
Do you actually think that you can have such happiness and not pay such a price? You will only get what you pay for, you know; there is no free lunch.
The essential thing to know is that Service-to-Others is the path of spiritual love, which is entirely distinct from the love of the world and self-love. The whole secret of true magic lies within the laws of the divine proximity. As you grow closer to love as God the creator expresses it, you grow closer to God. And God loves everything exactly as it is. That is why it is. There are other, deeper and crucial considerations in this matter of relationships. In Gnosis Book Three, Mouravieff further discusses the difference between what he called true men and anthropoids, mentioned in the discussion above:
The Scriptures contain more than one reference to the coexistence on our planet of these two humanities — which are now alike in form but unlike in essence. We can even say that the whole dramatic history of humanity, from the fall of Adam until today, not excluding the prospect of the new era, is overshadowed by the coexistence of these two human races whose separation will occur only at the Last Judgment. … The human tares, the anthropoid race, are the descendants of pre-adamic humanity. The principal difference between contemporary pre-adamic man and adamic man — a difference which is not perceived by the senses — is that the former does not possess the developed higher centers that exist in the latter which, although they have been cut off from his waking consciousness since the fall, offer him a real possibility of esoteric evolution. Apart from this, the two races are similar: they have the same lower centers the same structure of the Personality and the same physical body, although more often than not this is stronger in the pre-adamic man than in the adamic; regarding beauty, we must not forget that pre-adamic man and woman were created by God on the sixth day, in His image and after His likeness, and that the daughters of this race were beautiful. (Mouravieff 1993, 107, 108—109)
The adamic race came to identify with the “I” of their personality, losing their higher state of consciousness, and thus coming to resemble the pre-adamic race, with whom they have mingled and coexisted in competition. In fact, the adamics are generally in an inferior position due to this fall of consciousness due to their maladjustment to a world better suited to pre-adamics. Appearing the same as pre-adamics by all external measures, adamics still have higher centers, and thus the possibility for esoteric evolution, which pre-adamics can gain in what Mouravieff calls the “Era of the Holy Spirit.” But these centers remain inaccessible until work is done on the lower centers, developing a magnetic center which acts as a bridge between the lower and the higher.
Pre-adamics cannot individuate in the sense that adamics can. According to the Tradition, they are placed under the “low of collective Individuation,” governed by the Thought Center of Non-being, and directed by the “spirits” under its hierarchical authority. The do not reincarnate in the terms discussed above because they lack this development of an individuality. Despite this, they are not prevented from entering “the evolutionary field that forms the films of adamic man in great numbers, and as adamics suffer from a lack of discernment because of their corrupt state, this disturbs and sometimes slows their evolution” (Mouravieff 1993, 134).
The two races counterbalance each other and are thus necessary because of the principle of equilibrium. From the perspective of the General law, they maintain the stability of organic life and allow adamics to pursue esoteric development.
Jesus confirmed this when he spoke about the End in the following terms: ‘Then, shall two be in the field; one shall be taken, and the other left. Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left.’ … tares grow without having to be cultivated. Good seed, on the other hand, demands a great deal of care if it is to bear fruit … (Mouravieff 1993, 108)
Humanity is always divided into these two equal parts, and the equilibrium is constantly maintained to allow for fluctuations in the incarnative patterns of adamic souls. The danger exists, however, that by denying its divine nature, the balance will be broken in favor of the “tares.” This is the danger we face, against which Gurdjieff also warned.
Jesus foresaw this possibility of such a degeneration — where the servant buried the one talent entrusted to him and, on returning it to his master without having made it multiply, was told: ‘Thou wicked and slothful servant … and cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.” Is there any need to emphasize the esoteric meaning of this terrible penalty? (Mouravieff 1993, 134)
After the Fall, adamic man “kept only a dim consciousness of his higher self in spite of the almost complete obstruction of his channel of communication with the higher centers.” However, “If he hears the Voice of the Master [the higher intellect] and resolutely steps onto the Staircase, and if he reaches the Fourth Step and resists the Trial by Fire, then, when he crosses the Second Threshold, he will be welcomed as a Prodigal son.” This is an event that will be understood only by those who have accomplished it. Mouravieff continues, with my comments in brackets:
If the adamic humanity en masse abandons the combat that leads to Redemption [the restoration of their former estate — Ascension], and if this desertion goes beyond the tolerances [of balance], the good seed could be progressively stifled by the tares … The world will then go straight toward catastrophe … a Deluge of Fire … On the other hand, if the equilibrium, which is already jeopardized, were reestablished, then, with the integral and simultaneous incarnation of adamic souls, the Time of transition would enable adamic man to enter the Era of the Holy Spirit [a reality in constant touch with the creative principle, fourth density]. Then would follow a thousand years consecrated to the perfecting of the two races, and after a second millennium, the reign of the Androgyne, the Last Judgment would definitively separate the tares from the good seed. [At this point, adamic man would begin an] even higher evolution, and would at last attain the Pleroma [sixth density]. [At this point, and only at this point, will] the Tares of yesterday cease to be tares. Promoted to the rank of good seed, they would begin their own long evolutionary course that the adamics would have already achieved. Then they in their turn would receive the higher centers of consciousness which, given them in potential, would be the talents they must make fruitful. … the adamics who had previously degenerated into pre-adamics would [also] have the possibility of taking up their abandoned evolution again, while an equal number of the most able pre-adamics would receive the talents that were initially given to the former, and this would help them leap forward on the road of esoteric evolution. They may be compared with gifted, hardworking students who get a double promotion while the incapable and lazy ones do another year in the same class. …
Meanwhile, the two races are totally mixed: not only nations, but even families can be, and generally are, composed of both human types. This state of things is the belated result of transgressing the Biblical prohibition against mixed marriages … The dominant position of the pre-adamics that is a result of the esoteric failure of the adamics is now creating a critical situation of unprecedented gravity. The remainder of the Time of transition offers the last chance for humanity to reestablish the threatened equilibrium and so avoid a general cataclysm.
If we do not take this opportunity, the tradition of ‘Solomon’ will finally overcome the tradition of ‘David’ [Perseus] … Then, deflected from the [goals of Ascension], and even going beyond the limits of what is necessary and useful [to feed the Control System], the false prophets and their followers, thinking that they are right, will hurl pre-adamic humanity — the children of this world — against the adamics — the children of light — and will provoke a final frightful and useless struggle.
If this should happen, [if the adamic humanity] does not manage to quell the revolt against the Love [of the Son] … a resistance that would ensure victory, the balance will finally be broken, and humanity will be destroyed in the Deluge of Fire. (Mouravieff 1993, 134—135, 136)
Mouravieff’s description of the Fall of the adamic race also follows the same lines as the description given to us from the Cassiopaeans where we see that this is a symbolic version of the Fall of our consciousness unit. In the following excerpt, note that our term “Lizzies” is a short-hand notation for those theorized denizens of hyperdimensional realities whose essence is read as reptilian:
August 28, 1999
Q: Well, this is one of the problems I am dealing with in trying to write this history of mankind. As I understand it, or as I am trying to figure it out from the literature, prior to the Fall in Eden, mankind lived in a fourth density state. Is that correct?
A: Semi/sort of.
Q: Please be more specific.
A: Fourth density in another realm, such as time/space continuum, etc.
Q: OK, so this realm changed, as a part of the cycle; various choices were made: the human race went through the door after the gold, so to speak, and became aligned with the Lizzies after the female energy consorted with the wrong side, so to speak. This is what you have said. This resulted in a number of effects: the breaking up of the DNA, the burning off of the first ten factors of DNA, the separation of the hemispheres of the brain …
A: Only reason for this: you play in the dirt, you’re gonna get dirty.
Q: (T) What were we before the Fall?
A: Third density STO.
Q: (T) We are STS at this point because of what happened then?
A: Yes. […]
Q: (T) We were third density STO at that time. Was this after the battle that had transpired? In other words, were we, as a third density race, literally on our own at that point, as opposed to before?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) The battle was through us as to whether we would walk through this doorway … (L) The battle was fought through us, we were literally the battleground. (T) Was the battle over whether or not we walked through that door?
A: Close.
Q: (T) OK, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh Terry, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts! […]
Q: (T) This must tie into why the [aliens] keep telling people that they have given their consent for abduction and so forth. We were STO and now we are STS.
A: Yes, … “When” you went for the gold, you said “Hello” to the Lizards and all that that implies.
Q: (T) … By going for the gold, we became STS beings because going for the gold was STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And, in doing so, we ended up aligning ourselves with the fourth density Lizard Beings…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Because they are fourth density beings and they have a lot more abilities than we at third density …
A: You used to be aligned with fourth density STO.
Q: (T) And we were third density STO. But, by going for the gold we aligned ourselves with fourth density STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And by doing so we gave fourth density STS permission to do whatever they wish with us?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, when they tell us that we gave them permission to abduct us, it is this they are referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (J) Go back to what they said before: “Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.” (T) We, as the human race, used our free will to switch from STO to STS. (L) So, at some level we have chosen the mess we are in and that is the super ancient Legend of the Fallen Angel, Lucifer. That is us. We fell by falling into that door, so to speak, going after the pot of gold, and when we fell through the door, the serpent bit us!
A: But this is a repeating syndrome.
Q: (L) Is it a repeating syndrome just for the human race or is it a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation?
A: It is the latter.
The adamic race with its full set of DNA, with its connection to the higher centers in place and functioning, is what the Cs describe here as third density STO living in a “semi/sort of” fourth density state aligned with fourth density STO. That sounds very much like a Golden Age when man “walked with the gods.”
In making the choice to experience greater physicality, the consciousness unit fractures and “falls” from the STO state, loses its connection with the higher centers, and finds itself more or less at the same level as the pre-adamic race, those who have no possibility of reaching the higher centers because the DNA hardware isn’t in place. However, because this new third density STS existence was not the natural habitat for a body with the potential to reach the higher centers, the fallen race is at a disadvantage compared to the pre-adamics.
Q: In book three of his Gnosis, Mouravieff discusses what he calls pre-adamic humanity and adamic humanity. As I read this I could see that the thing I was struggling to understand in terms of psychopathy as discussed in the Adventures series,17 was exactly what Mouravieff was describing. However, he was using the Bible to explain it, and that just didn’t quite work. Nevertheless, the basic idea is that pre-adamic human types basically have no soul, nor any possibility of growing one. This is certainly shocking, but there have been many recent scholarly discussions of this matter based on what seems to be clinical evidence that, indeed, there are human beings who are just mechanical and have no inner or higher self at all. Gurdjieff talked about this and so did Castaneda. Are Mouravieff’s ideas about the two basic types of humans — as far as they go — accurate?
A: Indeed, though again, there is a “Biblical Gloss.” The pre-adamic types are “organic” portals between levels of density.
This, of course, raises the issue of whether or not trying to help or save such individuals is a waste of time. This is a major clue as to why the early Christians were charged with holding a “vile superstition” and “hatred of humanity.”
Q: Is it a waste of time to try to help or “save” such individuals?
A: Pretty much. Most of them are very efficient machines. The ones that you have identified as psychopaths are “failures.” The best ones cannot be discerned except by long and careful observation.
Q: Have any of us ever encountered one of these “organic portals” and if so, can you identify one for the sake of instruction?
A: If you consider that the population is equally distributed, then you will understand that in an ordinary “souled” person’s life, that person will encounter half as many organic portals as souled individuals. But, when someone is in the process of “growing” and strengthening the soul, the Control System will seek to insert even more “units” into that person’s life. Now, think of all the people you have ever met and particularly those with whom you have been, or are, intimate. Which half of this number would you designate as being organic portals? Hard to tell, eh?
Q: (B) Is this the original meaning of the pollution of the bloodline?
A: Yes.
This certainly gave a whole new meaning to the experiences I have described in Petty Tyrants and Facing the Unknown. It also became clear that the work of discerning these “organic portals” from souled human beings is crucial to the so-called ascension process. Without the basic understanding of conservation and transformation of energies, there is no possibility of making any progress in such a pursuit. This means that the understanding of organic portals vis a vis human beings of the “bloodline” (diffused though it may be throughout all of humanity), is the deepest and most crucial of esoteric secrets.
During the session quoted above, one of the attendees stated that there was a member of her family who she was certain was one of these organic portals. The Cs jumped to respond:
A: Now, do not start labeling without due consideration. Remember that very often the individual who displays contradictory behavior may be a souled being in struggle.
Q: (L) I would say that the chief thing they are saying is that the really good ones — you could never tell except by long observation. The one key we discovered from studying psychopaths was that their actions do not match their words. But what if that is a symptom of just being weak and having no will? (A) How can I know if I have a soul?
A: Do you ever hurt for another?
Q: (V) I think they are talking about empathy. These soulless humans simply don’t care what happens to another person. If another person is in pain or misery, they don’t know how to care.
A: The only pain they experience is “withdrawal” of “food” or comfort, or what they want. They are also masters of twisting perception of others so as to seem to be empathetic. But, in general, such actions are simply to retain control.
Q: (A) What does having a soul or not having a soul have to do with bloodline?
A: Genetics marry with soul if present.
Q: Do “organic portals” go to fifth density when they die?
A: Only temporarily until the “second death.”
Q: (V) What is the “origin” of these organic portal human types? In the scheme of creation, where did they come from?
A: They were originally part of the bridge between second density and third density. Review transcripts on the subject of short wave cycles and long wave cycles.
Ark had been reading the transcripts and noted that the Cs had said that sleep was necessary for human beings because it was a period of “rest and recharging.” They had also said that the soul rests while the body is sleeping. So, the next logical question was “what source of energy was tapped to recharge both the body and the soul?”
A: The question needs to be separated. What happens to a souled individual is different from an organic portal unit.
At this point, we stopped and discussed the possibility that the life force energy that is embodied in organic portals must be something like the soul pool that is theorized to exist for flora and fauna. This would, of course, explain the striking and inexplicable similarity of psychopaths, that is so well defined, that they differ from one another only in the way that different species of trees are different in the overall class of “Tree-ness.” So, we divided the question and asked first:
Q: Where does the energy come from that recharges organic portals?
A: The pool you have described.
Q: Does the recharging of the souled being come from a similar pool, only maybe the “human” pool?
A: No — it recharges from the so-called sexual center which is a higher center of creative energy. During sleep, the emotional center, not being blocked by the lower intellectual center and the moving center, transduces the energy from the sexual center. It is also the time during which the higher emotional and intellectual centers can rest from the “drain” of the lower centers’ interaction with those pesky organic portals so much loved by the lower centers. This respite alone is sufficient to make a difference. But, more than that, the energy of the sexual center is also more available to the other higher centers.
Q: From where does the so-called sexual center get its energy?
A: The sexual center is in direct contact with seventh density in its “feminine” creative thought of “Thou, I Love.” The “outbreath” of God in the relief of constriction. Pulsation. Unstable Gravity Waves.
Q: Do the “centers” as described by Mouravieff relate at all to the idea of “chakras”?
A: Quite closely. In an individual of the organic variety, the so-called higher chakras are “produced in effect” by stealing that energy from souled beings. This is what gives them the ability to emulate souled beings. The souled being, in effect, perceives a mirror of their own soul when they ascribe “soul qualities” to such beings.
Q: Is this a correspondence that starts at the basal chakra which relates to the sexual center as described by Mouravieff?
A: No. The “sexual center” corresponds to the solar plexus. Lower moving center — basal chakra. Lower emotional — sexual chakra. Lower intellectual — throat chakra. Higher emotional — heart chakra. Higher intellectual — crown chakra.
Q: (V) What about the so-called seventh, or “third eye” chakra?
A: Seer. The union of the heart and intellectual higher centers. This would “close the circuit” in the “shepherd’s crook” configuration.
Q: (V) What about the many ideas about twelve chakras, and so forth, that are currently being taught by many new age sources?
A: There are no such. This is a corrupted conceptualization based on the false belief that the activation of the physical endocrine system is the same as the creation and fusion of the magnetic center. The higher centers are only “seated” by being “magnetized.” And this more or less “external” [unseated] condition of the Higher Centers has been perceived by some individuals and later joined to the perceived “seating” locations, in potential. This has led to “cross conceptualization” based on assumption!
Q: Are the levels of initiation and levels of the staircase as presented by Mouravieff fairly accurate?
A: Yes, but different levels accessed in other so-called lives can relieve the intensity of some levels in “another” life.
And so it is, summing up, that according to the most ancient secret tradition, there are two types of humans on our planet. In the above quoted session, the Cassiopaeans confirmed that, once the biblical gloss was removed, Mouravieff’s description was accurate. The most important thing about the Cassiopaean comments is, however, that they were able to deepen our understanding by situating the pre-adamic race within hyperdimensional reality and the Control System. Let’s look at four points they raised:
The pre-adamic race serve as portals between levels of density.
They are very efficient machines and the best ones cannot be discerned except by long and careful observation.
They steal energy from souled beings so as to emulate them.
They make up one half of humanity.
One half of humanity. Stealing energy from souled beings. Think about it. Sure does sound like what most people would consider a “vile superstition” and a “hatred of humanity.” Not just then, but now as well.
But, if it is true, it explains why the teachings of Jesus say what they do. It also explains why it had to be covered up. Because, if it is true, it means that the two races have been interbreeding for a very, very long time.
It is extremely important to understand that the two races have been interbreeding for thousands, if not tens of thousands of years. It is impossible to look at the races on the earth today, the Red, the White, the Black, the Brown, or the Yellow, and argue that one or the other is this “pre-adamic” and soulless race. We cannot speak of groups, nations, tribes, or peoples who are members of the soulless race as a group. The DNA of the two races is completely mixed, and this is the real meaning of the pollution of the bloodline. Only those with the appropriate genetic makeup are actually able to accommodate a soul and therefore pursue esoteric work, which means that no color or ethnic group is either excluded or has an advantage.
Consider this further: According to the ancient tradition revealed by Mouravieff, the DNA of these two races is so mixed that both can be found within the same families. Jesus pointed out that he would turn a husband against his wife, a child against the parent, and so on. And we now begin to really understand what this might have meant, again, assuming this information to be accurate.
We wish to insist on this point so that the hard of thinking will not take this idea and use it to underpin any racist attitudes. The two races are so intermingled that it is a question of the individual genetics of each person on the planet. This is suggested in these comments from the Cassiopaeans:
Q: (L) I want to get back on my question that you have not answered … I want to know who, exactly, and why, exactly, genetically engineered the Semitic people, and why there is such an adversarial attitude between them and the Celts and Aryans.
A: It is not just between the Jews and Celts, if you will take notice. Besides, it is the individual aural profile that counts and not groupings or classifications. But, to answer your question: there are many reasons both from on and off the planet …
Q: (L) So, the creation of the Germanic “master race” was what they were going after, to create this breeding ground?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, getting rid of the Jews was significant? Couldn’t a Germanic master race be created without destroying another group?
A: No.
Q: Why?
A: Because of fourth density prior encoding mission destiny profile.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: This means encoding to activate after elevation to fourth density, thus if not eliminated, negates Nephalim domination and absorption. Jews were prior encoded to carry out mission after conversion, though on individual basis …
You will notice that the Cs are pointing us in the direction of individuals and away from groups. It is not groupings or classifications, it is the individual aural profile. And this coincides with Mouravieff’s statements on the issue, as he remarks here:
But the mixing of chromosomes was already an accomplished fact, so that the hormonal symmetry of the adamics has naturally diminished through the generations until it has become stabilized at the point it has now reached. … certain indications in the Gospel lead us to believe that the two human races that coexist on the earth are numerically equal … (Mouravieff 1993, 130)
We repeat: The DNA of these two races is so mixed that both can be found within the same families. Your brother, sister, mother, father, daughter or son. Not somebody “other” across the world or across the street worshipping a different god or with a different skin color. It may be somebody you live with every day of your life, and if so, they have but one reason to be here, to drain, distract and deflect souled beings from evolving. And it is important also to note that this cannot be conscious. Such individuals are as little aware that they do not have higher centers as those who do, except, perhaps, that the latter may feel something is missing in their lives.
The way back to the activation of the DNA necessary to attain the contact with the higher centers is not through genetic manipulation, which is seeing the question through the lens of Control System influences. The way back is through the ancient spiritual science, the shamanic initiation, the real work of the alchemists, which through the heating of the crucible, the neo-cortex, rewires the brain so that the ancient and broken connection with the higher centers can be reestablished. It is the fusing of the magnetic center, the “birth of the holy child,” the real “I.” This is natural genetic modification in terms of enhancing the feedback loop between the Thought Center of Being rather than the Thought Center of Non-being. Big difference.
Q: (A) Which part of a human extends into fourth density?
A: That which is affected by pituitary gland.
Q: (L) And what is that?
A: Psychic.
Q: (A) Are there some particular DNA sequences that facilitate transmission between densities?
A: Addition of strands.
Q: (L) How do you get added strands?
A: You don’t get, you receive.
Q: (L) Where are they received from?
A: Interaction with upcoming wave, if vibration is aligned.
Q: (L) How do you know if this is happening?
A: Psycho-physiological changes manifest. […] STO tends to do the process within the natural flow of things. STS seeks to alter creation processes to fit their ends.
1 It can be read online here: http://soulresonance.110mb.com/demon.html
2 To love is to seek knowledge of the beloved. To know is to love. “For now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. And now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.” First Corinthians, 13:12, 13.
3 The Platonic idea of a thing is referred to in some philosophical systems as noumena. In Kantian philosophy, this is an “object reached by intellectual intuition without the aid of the senses.” It is the essence of the thing, independent of the mind, the thing-in-itself.
4 There was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews. This man came to Jesus by night and said to Him, “Rabbi, we know that You are a teacher come from God; for no one can do these signs that You do unless God is with him.” Jesus answered and said to him, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.” Nicodemus said to Him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?” Jesus answered, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Do not marvel that I said to you, ‘You must be born again.’ The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.” John 3:1-8.
5 We are born with body and Essence. As we begin to grow we develop personality through learning and imitation. Personality is necessary. We need a strong personality in order to meet the demands of our material life. However along with personality we also develop false personality. False personality is made up of ‘I’s in ourselves that are totally unreal. False personality is all that we imagine ourselves to be. It is the imaginary picture that we have of ourselves that we try to live up to. It is the false face that we put on to meet the other false faces that we meet. http://hubpages.com/hub/False-Personality-and-Chief-Features
6 The Fall is described in more depth in Riding the Wave.
7 Exactly as given in the example presented above of “Keylontic Science” where the channel and her followers are convinced that human knowledge and reason are unimportant.
8 I generally hold Bennett’s ideas somewhat suspect because he was one of Gurdjieff’s students who seems to have missed many of the main points of what Gurdjieff was trying to say and do. For example, see William Patrick Patterson’s The Struggle of the Magicians.
9 See David Lewis-Williams’ The Mind in the Cave.
10 And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds… Philippians 4:7.
11 I discuss the events surrounding this process in Petty Tyrants and Facing the Unknown.
12 It seems that bloodline physiology is much more sensitive to environmental toxins, which cause a great number of autoimmune diseases. The biggest toxins are heavy metals (e.g. mercury), gluten, and dairy. See, for example, Dr. Sidney Baker’s Detoxification and Healing and Sherry Rogers’ Detoxify or Die.
13 This may translate in real life to being tormented or attacked by pathological individuals, psychopaths, etc. and thereby learning all the ways of deception and destruction so as to be able to spot them and warn others. This is an integral part of the shamanic initiation in the modern day.
14 Do not misunderstand me, I do not mean standing by when someone is sick, or needs help for any real reason in the course of daily life.
15 An anthology of texts that were written between the fourth and fifteenth centuries by mostly monastic writers of the Christian hesychast tradition. It was compiled by St. Nikodemos of the Holy Mountain and St. Makarios of Corinth, two monks of the Greek Orthodox Church and first published in 1782. The book is a principal spiritual text for all the Eastern Orthodox Churches — in the last century its popularity has spread to include Western Christians, due to the growing interest in contemplative prayer.
16 Recall the study by Westen et al. cited by Barbara Oakley in her book Evil Genes quoted above.
17 Published as Petty Tyrants, Facing the Unknown, and Almost Human.

A Walk In Nature Among
The Names of God Where We Have
An Interview With the Vampire
And Discover a Cosmic Egg
At this point, I want to share with you the fact that, like many of you who write to me, coming to understand the whys and wherefores has been a process that has had its moments of extreme frustration and rebellion against what is. Even if our observations of reality are constantly telling us things that are true, we all tend to want to stay asleep and dreaming in the Matrix-like illusion. In the following excerpt, I only wish I could reproduce in writing the frustration and puzzlement in my voice. The words that are capitalized were practically shouted:
Q: (L) I am in a little bit of a quandary here because, here we are talking to you guys who are supposed to be “us” in the future; here we are in this period of time on this planet, where things are in a very strange state; there is some kind of huge transition going on, and I am just wondering what is the whole point? Why are we talking to you? What’s the point?
A: It is the lesson. Do you not understand still? The lesson, the lessons, that is all there is. They are all immeasurably valuable.
Q: (L) Okay, we are having these lessons. You have told us what is going on. We see it going on around us. I am convinced that what you have said is so from a LOT of other evidence as well as the research of others who have come to the same conclusion and, DAMN IT, IT’S UGLY! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?! IT’S UGLY!
A: That is your perspective.
Q: (L) Well, as C** said on the phone the other day, what are we supposed to awaken to? Are we supposed to just awaken to the fact that we can SEE all this stuff going on?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, once we wake up and SEE it, why can’t we just check out at that point? If you know what the script is, you don’t have to watch the movie!
A: But then you miss out on the experience.
Q: (L) So, we are all here to experience being munched and crunched…
A: No.
Q: (L) Imprisoned, controlled, being treated like rats in a cage in a laboratory…
A: Ecstasy, remember?
Q: (L) Ecstasy?! WELL SWELL! We can just ALL be BURNED AT THE STAKE! I understand that is QUITE an ECSTATIC experience! I’m sure William Wallace felt perfectly ecstatic when they castrated him and removed his bowels and burned them in a brazier in front of his face!
A: Not so long ago, your face smashed upon the pavement… 1
Q: (L) Was that an ecstatic experience?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, when you say “ecstatic” you could just be talking about jumping out a window and croaking? You gotta understand here! The perspective here on third density! You don’t have faces to smash on pavements!
A: Neither will/do you/us.
Q: (A) You say knowledge protects. It protects against what?
A: Many things. One example: post transformational trauma and confusion.
Q: (L) So, knowledge is going to protect us against post transformational trauma and confusion. You are implying that this transition to fourth density is going to be traumatic and confusing. Do you mean transformation from third to fourth density, or third to fifth density, i.e., death?
A: Both.
Q: (L) So, if one does not have the shock and trauma and the confusion and so forth, one is then able to function better?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, you said “both”. That implies that persons can transition directly from third to fourth density without dying. Is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How does that feel? How is that experience…
A: Alice through the looking glass.
Q: (A) Okay, you say that knowledge is supposed to protect from trauma and confusion. On the other hand, all is lessons, so trauma is a lesson. Why are we supposed to work to avoid a lesson?
A: You are correct, it is a lesson, but if you have foreknowledge, you are learning that lesson early, and in a different way.
Q: (L) So, if you learn the lesson in a different way, does that mitigate the need or the way or the process of the way of learning at the time of transition?
A: Yes. Smoother.
My beloved grandmother always said to me, “A wise man learns from his mistakes; a genius learns from the mistakes of others.” (I wonder if there is a special school that grandmothers attend to learn all these clever sayings?) But her point is exactly what we are dealing with here. We need to learn not only from the mistakes of others, but from our own mistakes, and from applying our greatest assets, our minds, to the matter. If “all there is is lessons”, then it seems only logical to think that we can infer some principles from the world around us, from our studies, and from direct observation.
Many occult teachings state that one can learn all of the secrets of creation by studying nature. The alchemists say that the truth is hidden in plain sight. As I quoted in the last section, the Nexus Seven guys think that we need “a language of hyper-dimensional symbols that codify human relationships with nature. Symbols and ritual that codify the elements and forces of nature codify the life processes of nature, from the little insects all the way up to the supposedly angelic and demonic ETs.” And I respond that we already have it. It is nature itself.
The only problem is, you cannot obtain knowledge and understanding of nature by simply reading about it or wandering around in the garden. You have to think.
A: You see when you speed too quickly in the process of learning and gathering knowledge; it is like skipping down the road without pausing to reflect on the ground beneath you. One misses the gold coins and the gemstones contained within the cracks in the road.
We cannot rush the process. Nature’s greatest secrets are always close to us. In nature, God manifests in all his many faces. Nature is the organ which proclaims the creator. It is important to learn everything you can about the physical world before you begin to investigate the spirit world because, as Chittick writes, “there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world.”
Once you have learned about the physical world many things about the spiritual world, which have previously been inexplicable to you, will then be understood.
A: All there is is lessons. This is one infinite school. There is no other reason for anything to exist. Even inanimate matter learns it is all an “illusion”. Each individual possesses all of creation within their minds. Now, contemplate for a moment. Each soul is all-powerful and can create or destroy all existence if [they] know how. You and us and all others are interconnected by our mutual possession of all there is. You may create alternative universes if you wish and dwell within. You are all a duplicate of the universe within which you dwell. Your mind represents all that exists. It is “fun” to see how much you can access.
Q: (L) It’s fun for whom to see how much we can access?
A: All. Challenges are fun. Where do you think the limit of your mind is?
Q: (L) Where?
A: We asked you.
Q: (L) Well, I guess there is no limit.
A: If there is no limit, then what is the difference between your own mind and everything else?
Q: (L) Well, I guess there is no difference if all is ultimately one.
A: Right. And when two things each have absolutely no limits, they are precisely the same thing.
Now, notice that the Cassiopaeans have said, “It is fun to see how much you can access”. What we are supposed to be accessing is universal creative powers that exist within our own minds — the zero point energy as suggested by David Bohm. But that coy little remark about fun also tells us something very important. It tells us that there are constraints in place to make the game more interesting.
The very idea that the whole of creation is a game or a challenge that God has set up for him/herself is totally repugnant to some people, and, admittedly, when any one of us is in the midst of many of the various challenges, it is hard to see the humor. Does the mouse see the humor of God when the cat toys with it before eating it? Is it a monstrous blasphemy to reduce the sufferings of humankind throughout millennia to a cosmic round of hide and seek? The following will certainly illustrate my point:
Q: (L) What is the meaning of the number 666 in the book of Revelation?
A: Visa.
Q: (L) You mean as in credit card?
A: Yes. Isn’t just credit, also debit.
Q: (L) Are credit cards the work of what 666 represents?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Should we get rid of all credit cards?
A: Up to you. How are you going to do this? World will soon have nothing but credit and debit. Have you not heard of this new visa debit cards this is the future of money as controlled by the world banking system, i.e., the Brotherhood, i.e., Lizards, i.e., antichrist.
Q: (L) If I don’t have a credit card then I don’t have to belong to this system?
A: No. You will have no choices: belong or starve.
Q: (L) What happened to free will?
A: Brotherhood AKA Lizards AKA antichrist has interfered with free will for 309000 years. They are getting desperate as we near the change.
Q: (V) It has always been my nature to rebel against that which I did not feel was good for me. Is rebellion against this system possible?
A: If you are willing to leave the body.
Q: (L) Leave the body as in death, croak, kick the bucket?
A: Yes. Changes will follow turmoil; be patient.
Q: (L) We would like to move into the country. Will it be possible to get along without this credit/debit card leading that kind of life?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are they going to have the kind of capability of controlling everything and everybody no matter where they are?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Even if we moved to Guyana and built a log hut in the rain forest and didn’t bother anybody, we’d still get sucked into this thing?
A: Laura you will feel the effect of the Lizard beings desperate push for total control no matter where you go.
Q: (L) That is inexpressibly depressing. Do you understand?
A: Why? Change will follow. Refer to literature Bringers of the Dawn. Challenge will be ecstasy if viewed with proper perspective, which is not, we repeat: not of third level reality, understand?
Q: (L) In the reference cited, Joan of Arc is described as feeling ecstatic while burning at the stake. Is that what you mean?
A: Sort of, but you need not burn at the stake.
Q: (L) That’s small comfort. There are other ways to die.
A: We are not speaking of death, Laura. If you listen to those who are firmly rooted in 3rd level this is when you run the risk of slipping in your knowledge learned no matter how good the intentions.
Q: (L) What do you mean, “Challenge will be ecstasy”? What sort of challenge?
A: Living through the turmoil ahead.
Q: (L) Several books I have read have advised moving to rural areas and forming groups and storing food, etc.
A: Disinformation. Get rid of this once and for all. That is 3rd level garbage.
Q: (L) We feel pretty helpless at the mercy of beings who can come in and feed off of us at will. Do we have someone on our side, pulling for our team, throwing us energy or something?
A: Whom do you think you have been communicating with?
Q: (L) Are you going to be able to assist us through this turmoil?
A: Yes. All you have to do is ask.
Q: (L) Will we go through any periods when we may be cut off from help?
A: You are never ever cut off.
Q: (L) Oh, I don’t want to suffer!
A: You need not suffer. Stop thinking 3rd level.
Q: (L) I don’t want anybody I love to suffer either. I don’t want any pain. I’ve suffered enough!
A: You are stuck at 3rd level tonight.
I guess you can tell that I was feeling pretty desperate and sorry for myself with all of this. So desperate, in fact, that I didn’t really pay attention to the important things. Notice a couple of keys above: “Change will follow”, and the challenge of living through the turmoil will be “ecstasy”.2
As human beings, it seems that an essential part of our nature is to feel that there is more to life than the immediately apparent material world. We don’t like to think that our lives are a game of chance played by the gods. Yet, we can observe that the heartless randomness of the world is at odds with the religious views of a loving, caring God.
It seems, upon observation, that the only constant factor of the physical universe is change. As the Sufis say, “Every day God is upon some different task”. However, we can also observe that change operates in a sequential and progressive manner manifested as patterns recognizable to human consciousness. These patterns take shape as the forms inherent in the nature of the instant of time when they are observed. They are manifestations of the present state of cosmic being and have much to tell us of the nature and potential development of that state. Even those things that seem to be random, according to chaos theory, conform to certain mathematical principles of randomness. We also have synchronicity, which tells us that all things are in some way linked to each other.
The eighteenth century Icelandic mystic, Jon Jonsson said, “God plays at Forkjaering with man in this world”. Forkjaering is a dice game. Later, Albert Einstein said, “God does not play dice” with the universe. I think the truth is somewhere in between. We are pawns in a game, only the players are, in some sense, ourselves. And we are pawns as long as we don’t know the rules of the game. Once we have served our apprenticeship as playing pieces, we are then able to take our place with the players.
The important thing is that we have to gain a perspective on our existence that is not third density in order to fully enter into third density with the “proper perspective”. This is reflected in the saying of Jesus that we are to be “in the world, but not of it”. The Cassiopaeans have reiterated this point by saying:
A: You would not exist if someone didn’t “dream you up”.
Q: (L) Who dreamed me up?
A: You literally are the “figments” of someone’s imagination, and nothing more!!! Remember, “God” is really all existence in creation, in other words, all consciousness. This is because all existence in creation is consciousness, and vice versa.
Q: (L) Then what is the explanation for the “manyness” that we perceive?
A: Perception of 3rd density.
Q: (L) The problem is accessing it, stripping away the veils.
A: That is the fun part.
Well, ha ha ha! Aren’t we having fun? It reminds me of a passage from the book of Romans that used to just make me foam at the mouth!
What shall we conclude then? Is there injustice upon God’s part? Certainly not! … It is not a question of human will and human effort, but of God’s mercy. … So then he has mercy on whomever He wills (chooses) and He hardens — makes stubborn and unyielding the heart of — whomever He wills. You will say to me, Why then does He still find fault and blame us? For who can resist and withstand His will? But who are you, a mere man, to criticize and contradict and answer back to God? Will what is formed say to him that formed it, Why have you made me thus? Has the potter not right over the clay, to make out of the same mass one vessel for beauty and distinction and honorable use, and another for menial or ignoble and dishonorable use? (Romans 9:14-21)3
Of course, at this point, Paul diverts off into his wrathful theology and starts ranting about divine judgment and doom. But, what he was saying above is actually quite similar to the mystery teachings that were prevalent at the time, and which were preserved and expanded in the Gnostic and Sufi paths. It is in these teachings that we will find the rest of the story.
But, getting back to the Bible for just a moment: in my reading of years past, I came across several passages that really struck me as curious, considering their origins. The first is, of course, one that I quote frequently from the Book of Romans in the New Testament. It is generally attributed to Paul, and actually has been computer analyzed and the result of this analysis was that whoever wrote the book of Romans, also wrote the two epistles to the Corinthians as well as the epistle to the Galatians. Internal evidence from these documents indicates that they were written before 70 ce, probably close to 60 or even 40 ce. That is to say, they were written before the Gospels.
These epistles make no allusions to Jesus as a historical figure as depicted in the Gospels. They say absolutely nothing about the parents of Jesus, the virgin birth, a time or place of earthly existence, a trial before the Romans, an execution in Jerusalem, or any of the main characters of the Jesus story, with the exception of Peter who is referred to as a hypocrite by Paul.
If there had been a real incident such as the denial of Jesus by Peter, it is fairly certain that Paul would have brought it up and used it in his flame war against the Rock of the Church. When Paul does refer to Jesus’ death, he says repeatedly that he was crucified or delivered up but never that he was killed. And we know from many ancient sources that to be crucified meant an initiatory event rather than being nailed to a wooden cross and dying in a physical sense.
When Christianity originated, Jewish writings included a considerable body of wisdom literature that had been, to a great extent, “borrowed” from more ancient sources with which the Jews had come in contact throughout their period of formation as a national entity. A lot of this literature derived from Egyptian and Babylonian sources. Very often, this material was modified or interpreted to suit the Hebrew perspective, and was often ascribed to their god, Jehovah or Yahweh in terms of source, even though more contemporary research clearly shows it to have been more or less plagiarized. Thus, within the pages of the Bible there are many passages in which this ancient wisdom literature makes itself known.
The interesting thing is that, even though much of the wisdom literature was borrowed and redacted, it often appears to have been included with very little modification. Apparently, those who were engaged in assembling the Bible either did not understand the material fully, or they were unable to change it completely because it was so generally well known. So it happens that in some passages wisdom is not merely abstract, but personified as a supernatural being created by God before he created heaven or earth. Very often, wisdom or knowledge figured as “a breath of the power of God”. It is written that “she is the sustainer and governor of the universe who sits by the throne of God”, (Wisdom of Solomon, 8:1; 9:4) and “she comes to dwell among men and bestow her gifts on them”, but most of them reject her. Hmm. The “Mother Stone” that is rejected as the corner of the foundation?
Paul, as an educated Jew, was strongly influenced by the wisdom traditions. Paul’s Jesus, like wisdom, “assists God in the creation of all things.” (I Cor. 8:6) If we do not begin with the assumption that Jesus was a historical person as depicted in the Gospels, there is little in the writings of Paul to suggest that he was, while there is a great deal to suggest that a different explanation for the expression “Christ Crucified” must be considered. That said, our purpose here is simply to point out that in Paul’s day, the Wisdom literature did exist, and he seemed to be in the habit of musing on it and extracting meanings from it to serve his own ends. With this in mind, let’s have a look at something else Paul said:
For that which is known about God is evident to them and made plain in their inner consciousness, because God has shown it to them. For ever since the creation of the world His invisible nature and attributes, that is His eternal power and divinity have been made intelligible and clearly discernible in and through the things that have been made — His handiworks…” (Romans 1:19-20)
This remark is so similar to the following, from ibn-‘Arabi that one cannot help but think that they are obtained from the same ancient source.
Each creature is a word (kalima) of God. ‘Though all the trees in the earth were pens, and the sea — seven seas after it to replenish it — were ink, yet would the words of God not be spent.’ [Koran, 31:27]
There is nothing in existence save God, His names, and His acts.
As noted, there is much of the wisdom literature preserved in the Old Testament even if it is interspersed with plagiarized myths, mythicized histories, and entirely fabricated genealogies. Many of the Psalms have been identified as preexistent Egyptian songs and writings:
The heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament shows and proclaims His handiwork. Day after day pours forth speech, and night after night shows forth knowledge. There is no speech nor spoken word; their voice is not heard yet their voice goes out through all the earth, their sayings to the end of the world. (Psalm 19:1-4)
To every thing there is a season, and a time for every matter or purpose under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die, a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted. A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. … He has made everything beautiful in its time; he also has planted eternity in men’s heart and mind so that man cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. … That which is now, already has been; and that which is to be, already has been; and God seeks out that which has passed by. (Ecclesiastes, 3)
These passages, which reflect very ancient sources, reveal to us a very great truth: nature and the cycles of nature reveal to us the Faces and Names of God. God has many faces, not all of them pleasant to behold.
All around us in the natural world there are wonders and horrors. Mountains are not only being built but also simultaneously worn down by glaciers and rivers. Rivers clog and change their courses. Lakes fill with sediment and turn into swamps and eventually grasslands. Some creatures adapt and survive these changes, and some do not. On almost every corner of the planet, from the highest mountains to the lowest valleys, from the hottest to the coldest climates, above the oceans and within them, there are populations of interdependent plants and animals. Most of the time this term interdependence really means that they eat one another.
At the bottoms of the deepest oceans, there are enormous tube worms that feast on bacteria that consume the chemicals that result from volcanic energy of the planet. On the summits of high mountains, where nothing else can survive the most ferocious winds and lethal cold on earth, there are lichens composed of symbiotic algae and fungi. The fungus produces an acid, which etches the surface of the rock, enabling the colony to attach to the smooth surface, and the acid also dissolves the minerals into a chemical form that the alga can absorb. The fungus provides a spongy framework for the colony, which absorbs moisture from the air. The alga, with the help of sunshine, synthesizes the rock minerals, the water and carbon dioxide from the air into food substances on which both it and the fungus feed. Both plants reproduce separately and the next generations have to reestablish the liaison afresh. The partnership is not equal, however. Sometimes the fungal threads inside the lichen wrap themselves around the algal cells and consume them. And the alga, if separated from the fungus, can lead an independent life; the fungus cannot survive without the alga. The fungus seems to be using the alga as a slave to enable it to colonize these bleak areas otherwise closed to it.
In the Himalayas and the Andes, in the Alps and the mountains of the Antarctic, some stretches are as pink as a slice of watermelon. … Only with a microscope can you discover, among the frozen particles, the cause of the color — a great number of tiny single-celled organisms. These, too, are algae. Each contains green particles with which it photosynthesizes, but this color is masked by a pervasive red pigment which may well serve the alga in the same way as your snow goggles serve you — by filtering the harmful ultraviolet rays in the sunshine.
At one stage in its life, each of these algal cells has a tiny beating thread, a flagellum which enables it to move through the snow to reach a level, just below the surface where there is exactly the amount of light that best suits it. There, sheltered from the wind by the snow itself, temperatures are not as cripplingly low as they are in the open air.
These tiny plants take nothing from the world except sunlight and a minute quantity of nutrients that are dissolved in the snow. They feed on no other living thing and nothing feeds on them. They scarcely modify their surroundings except to bring a blush to the snow. They simply exist, testifying to the moving fact that life even at the simplest level occurs, apparently, just for its own sake.4
These examples of life existing in some of the most extreme conditions on our planet serve not only to frame the picture of our reality, they manifest great truths about our own state of being. Creatures of all sorts live under all kinds of conditions, from icy tundra to seething swamps, from incandescent deserts to sweltering jungles. And all of them express fundamental essences of the Names of God just as humans do, individually and collectively.
On the great Serengeti plains of Africa there are herds of many different kinds of animals. Anybody who has seen the circle of life presented in the animated movie, The Lion King, can see a colorful depiction of the play of forces that exist in our natural world. There are elephants, antelope, giraffes and zebras moving across the landscape in great herds, eating the plant life and moving on. There are lions and cheetahs on the plains, and crocodiles in the rivers, lying in wait for a young, weak, or feeble member of the antelope, zebra or giraffe herds to become available so that they can have dinner. Then there are the hyenas and vultures that eat the remains of the predators’ feasts. In the jungles, there are great serpents among the amazing varieties of predators and prey. There is also a great assortment of plant life, much of which serves as food for some of the creatures.
In the simple garden behind my house, there are birds and lizards, insects and plants of all sorts. The lizards eat many insects and the birds in turn, eat them. There are roses — beautiful but deadly — which grow in soil composed partly of plant detritus converted by earthworms into usable nutrients. There are also grubs and mole crickets that seem to do nothing but destroy what I work so hard to produce and maintain. In the evenings, the bats and mosquitoes both come out in force, the former preying on the latter (thankfully) and the night blooming jasmine opens to feed a particular species of night moth that delights in its nectar.
The earth spins around its axis bringing night to cool the planet and to provide rest for the sunlight seekers of our world. Night also provides an environment for the night creatures to come forth in their shy or sinister forays for food.
The earth, spinning on its axis, circles ponderously around the Sun, which drags all its planets in a mad dash around the outer reaches of the galaxy. The companion planets seem to have significant influence on the life forms on earth, most particularly our own satellite, the Moon. Not only that, but they mark seasons. And, according to the wisdom literature, the celestial bodies “pour forth knowledge”.
There is Spring, when I spend eight hours a day getting the garden in shape; there is Summer, when I relax and watch my efforts grow and blossom; there is Fall, when I pull up the dead annuals and prune the overgrowth; and there is Winter when everything rests and builds strength to burst forth the following Spring, to initiate a new cycle. Cycles within cycles; birth, growth, maturity, reproduction, decline, and death. To everything there is a season.
Now, imagine that you are observing the Earth with a high-powered telescope out in space. This telescope gives you detailed close-ups of any point on the planet, but you cannot hear anything. You can only see. Forget everything you think you know about the principles of biological life. Forget that you think you know anything about what living things are or how they are supposed to behave. Now, what do you see?
The first thing you notice is that the surface of the planet is teeming with activity. This includes areas under the soil and deep within the ocean. The activity on the surface of the planet consists of an immense number of different shapes and sizes of living things going about in circles eating each other.
Further, you notice that there is a whole class of these living things that are, essentially, immobile; incapable of escaping being eaten. In fact, they don’t seem to object being eaten at all. Maybe if they could run away, they would, but they can’t, so it may only seem that they don’t object. But, the fact of the matter is that these immobile beings, (call them plants) use this fact of being eaten to their advantage. By being eaten, they are often able to propagate themselves in far distant places that they would otherwise be unable to populate on their own.
However, all the other living things clearly resent being eaten. They very often make strenuous efforts to not be eaten.
By now, you have probably decided that this planet is a monstrous environment, and hideously dangerous to boot! We are already learning from nature.
Nevertheless, if you begin to examine the situation in another way, you begin to notice that many of the living things have fundamental similarities in shape and behavior and this leads you to think that maybe they all have something in common. After a bit of reflection, you come to the idea that this thing they all have in common is the faculty of assimilating a food and transmuting it. This process of transmutation of food seems to be directed at reproduction. When the living being achieves this aim, the organism begins to deteriorate and die. But this death is not an extinguishing of life in all the component parts of the being, because they are assimilated by other forms and recycled into new life whether animal or vegetable.
But, in considering the matter even more deeply, we discover that even those things that are not considered to be capable of assimilating and transmuting food are part of the cycle. Such things as minerals become part of the cycle and therefore partake of the process through various chemical reactions.
So, perhaps we are looking for an even deeper principle: that of the faculty of reaction. The vital phenomenon is that of reacting.
But, to have reaction, or life, there must be action and resistance to action.
Action + Resistance = Reaction/Life. We have learned something else from nature. There are two fundamental forces that result in a third.
So, we begin to think that all of these many living beings we are observing have a common, structurally very simple origin. We begin to think they are all not only manifestations of a single source, but that they have all been changing their shapes over an immense period of time. And we now come to the critical questions as to how and why this endless process of change has been occurring.
Of course, we can easily comprehend the question how in a general sense: all the changes occur via reproduction. These creatures we are observing, not having eternal life, begin to reproduce themselves as early in their life cycle as possible.
Now, in a static and stable environment, it might be expected that all the creatures would be exactly alike. They would reproduce copies of themselves that would be the same from the beginning to the end. But there is something else to consider. The planet is constantly bombarded by cosmic rays of various sorts that affect the “blueprints” or genetic codes, which determine the offspring’s likeness to the parent. Sometimes, these blueprints get changed in one way or another. Many of these altered copies do not survive — in fact, most of them don’t. But every once in a while, one of them does and reproduces. And sometimes the altered copies have some features which actually makes them better than the original. These individuals not only reproduce, they thrive.
So, we see a certain pattern emerging here: the variations of biological systems have to do with whether or not one variety of creature can survive the competition in the terrifying planetary game of life and death. It is clear that danger is omnipresent and only the most vigorous and adaptable survive. This is another important rule that Nature teaches us.
Many of the creatures often considered prey are equipped with elaborate sensing organs that help them to stay out of harm’s way. Many of the predators have horrifyingly efficient organs of destruction such as teeth and claws.
This terrible vista is what we see when we look at nature. So, what are we to think? Is it mindless cruelty, or purposeful activity from another level of being?
Are we to think that this is the sinful natural world that has nothing at all to do with our spirituality? Is this what we are to “change” or “lift up” or “spiritualize” so that all of this monstrous eating and being eaten is done away with or transformed into a blissful garden where the Lion lies down with the Lamb and everybody munches on, well, something?
Is this dreadful condition of nature an error? Is it the result of the sin of Adam and Eve?
Or, is there a great truth there for those who will open their eyes and look?
The secrets of nature are there for all to see. Nature is its own teacher. She initiates and shows her inner sanctum to those who search and labor in the vineyard. Even the most wholesome herb can turn into a dangerous poison, if we lack knowledge of its power. It is the nature of the moth to fly into the flame because it lacks the knowledge of what effect the flame has. It is the nature of a spider to spin a web. It is the nature of the cat to torture the mouse before eating it. It is the nature of some creatures to eat their own young. It is the nature of the black widow spider and the praying mantis to eat their mates during the act of mating.
In Hostage to the Devil, Jesuit and exorcist Malachi Martin wrote: “A bird doesn’t fly because it has wings; it has wings because it flies.” That is to say: a bird is the incarnation of “Bird-ness”, which includes flight and, in many species, song.
Taking this idea a little further, we could think of a black widow spider that kills and eats her mate right after mating as the embodiment of a certain combination of Names at that moment. Destroyer, Slayer, Devourer, and Terrible come to mind. The same would be true for a cat torturing a mouse before eating it. But, when not torturing the mouse, the cat is embodying other Names or Ideas. A cat is a Dreamer, Sensitive, Proud, and many other things. The same is true for many creatures, but it might be thought that each class of them has some essential spiritual idea that is exclusively theirs. But, in their physical nature, they are basically devourers and slayers.
Human beings, individually and collectively, are the incarnation of specific ideas as well. In fact, it could be said that they are the embodiment of all the things we see in the natural world.
Q: (L) I would like to know what is the source and nature of these nearly universal visions that occur in shamanistic practices; the various creatures including serpents and bird-headed dudes, and so forth? What is the source of these hallucinations? In these chemically induced trances, why is there the common experience of seeing these bird-headed or serpent-like creatures?
A: While you have physicality, some part of you will maintain the connection to its roots.
Q: (L) Are you saying that all these people who say that human beings have reptilian genetics, are telling the truth? Do we have reptilian genetics?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do we also have bird genetics?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And that is our physical connection or basis?
A: Yes, as third density bioengineered beings, you lead the smorgasbord parade of that which surrounds you in the physical realm.
We have a clue then that we can learn a great deal about ourselves, our reality, our destiny, and the proper response to our environment by studying that which surrounds us in the physical realm. But, it is not just observation of the outer structure that we are after; it is the discovery of the inner nature, or the idea of a thing. The Platonic Idea of a thing is referred to in some philosophical systems as noumena. In Kantian philosophy, this is an “object reached by intellectual intuition without the aid of the senses”. It is the essence of the thing, independent of the mind, the thing-in-itself.
We have already mentioned the fact that the Sufis, using Islam as their operational platform, refer to something that amounts to an inclusive principle. The Sufis refer to the qualities or essences as the Names of God. A Name is thus a principle or function. These Names include Alive, Knowing, Life Giver, Slayer, Powerful, Weak, Forgiving, Vengeful, Mercy, Compassion, and so on.
Now, an important thing to consider about this is that these Names are ordered according to a sort of essential preeminence. This means that the highest Name designates the widest specific reality, or relative relationship. It does not mean that any one of them is better than any other in terms of value. A man who is a genius is as valuable as an idiot in the scheme of the cosmos, just as a maggot is as valuable as a peacock. All are made of the stuff of God, and therefore, all are equal in those terms.
But, what we are talking about here is something akin to the Cassiopaean concept of density, or relative relationship. For example: the Names of fatherhood and sonhood are based on the relationship that the son comes into being through the father. In this sense, neither the father nor the son are more important, it is just that the son archetype is relationally an offshoot of the father archetype.
The relationships of the Names distinguish between God and the Cosmos and, according to the Sufis; the Names manifest the realities of the Divine. That is to say, the Names or faces are like templates through which the Divine creative force extrudes into being-ness, and this process of extrusion is followed by mixing and mingling the principles and functions to result in a great variety of engendered or created beings. Some of these Names have more inclusive connections than others and some make use of others; some of them are opposites, and it seems that they all occur in balance.
For example: the Name Alive designates the precondition for the existence of all the Names, and is thus at the top of the scale. It is all inclusive. The Sufis then go on to postulate that knowledge is born from Alive and that it includes awareness of all the other Names as intrinsic to its own existence. Knowledge, as an all-inclusive principle, necessitates knowledge of all.
We also know that the knowledge of the Name of Knowing is more inclusive in connections and more tremendous in compass than the Name of Powerful or Desiring, since these Names have less inclusive connections than Knowing. They are like gatekeepers for Knowing. There is a similar situation to be seen in the fact that the Name of Hearing, Seeing, Thankful, Clemency, Compassion, and other similar Names, are less inclusive in connection. All of them stand lower than Knowing.
In thinking about the Sufi concept of the Names of God, and hypothesizing that each and everything that exists is a manifestation of one or more of these Names in its essential nature, we begin to get the idea of what it is we must understand in terms of our reality. The Sufis say that we are to learn to put each thing in its proper place. That means we are supposed to learn from it so that we can name it.
Umberto Eco writes in The Search for The Perfect Language:
God spoke before all things, and said, ‘Let there be light’. In this way, he created both heaven and earth; for with the utterance of the divine word, ‘there was light.’ Thus Creation itself arose through an act of speech; it is only by giving things their names that he created them and gave them an ontological status: ‘And God called the light Day and the darkness He called Night… And God called the firmament Heaven.’
In Genesis 2: 16-17, the Lord speaks to man for the first time, putting at his disposal all the goods in the earthly paradise, commanding him, however, not to eat of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. We are not told in what language God spoke to Adam. Tradition has pictured it as a sort of language of interior illumination, in which God, as in other episodes of the Bible, expresses himself by thunderclaps and lightning.
…It is at this point, and only at this point (Genesis 2:19), that ‘out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field, and every fowl of the air; and brought them unto Adam to see what he would call them.’ The interpretation of this passage is an extremely delicate matter. Clearly we are here in the presence of a motif, common to other religions and mythologies — that of the nomothete, the name giver, the creator of language. Yet it is not at all clear on what basis Adam actually chose the names he gave to the animals. … The Vulgate has Adam calling the various animals ‘nominibus suis,’ which we can only translate, ‘by their own names’. The King James Version does not help us any more: ‘Whatsoever Adam called every living creature, that was the name thereof.’ But Adam might have called the animals ‘by their own names’ in two senses. Either he gave them the names that, by some extra-linguistic right, were already due to them, or he gave them those names we still use on the basis of convention initiated by Adam. In other words, the names that Adam gave the animals are either the names that each animal intrinsically ought to have been given, or simply the names that the nomothete arbitrarily and ad placitum decided to give to them.
From this difficulty we pass to Genesis 2:23. Here Adam sees Eve for the first time; and here, for the first time, the reader hears Adam’s actual words … ‘This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman…’ In the Vulgate the name is virago (a translation from the Hebrew Ishha, the feminine of ish, ‘man’. If we take Adam’s use of virago together with the fact that, in Genesis 2:20, he calls his wife Eve, meaning ‘life’, because ‘she was the mother of all living’, it is evident that we are faced with names that are not arbitrary, but rather — at least etymologically — ‘right’. (Eco, 1995)
Aside from the fact that in pre-biblical myths Adam was a creature formed by the Goddess of Earth from her own clay, and given life by her blood, the issue of the Nomothete, as Dr. Eco points out, is a theme common to other religions and mythologies. Nevertheless, when we consider the later Tower of Babel issue, in which the theme was the confusing of languages, we find that Names or words as a significant motif keep coming up to remind us of something crucial.
The theme of names or words as something that gave one power is brought forward again in the Bible when we are told that, after the Flood of Noah, “the whole earth was of one language, and of one speech”. (Genesis 11:1) At this point, humankind decided to build a tower. The passage reads:
“Come, let us build us a city, and a tower whose top reaches into the sky; and let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be scattered over the whole earth.” (Genesis 11:4)
Now, it is very curious that the very idea we are discussing is specifically identified here. “Let us make a name for ourselves.” What happens next is most interesting.
The Lord came down to see the city and the tower, which the sons of men had built. And the Lord said, Behold, they are one people, and they have all one language; and this is only the beginning of what they will do; and now nothing they have imagined they can do will be impossible to them. Come, let Us go down and there confound (mix-up, confuse) their language, that they may not understand one another’s speech. (Genesis 11:5-7)
Now, just what the heck happened here? We can easily figure out that it had nothing to do with language in the sense of variations in spoken speech because in Genesis 10:5, 10:20 and 10:31 we find references to the diffusion of the descendants of Noah after the flood: “…In their lands, each with his own language … their families, their languages, their lands, and their nations…” and so forth.
So again we find ourselves in the presence of a very subtle idea that needs our attention. Why is it that the tradition focuses on a story in which the confusing of speech was understood as a tragedy, as a divine malediction? If the languages of man were already numerous after Noah, why does this story of the confusion of tongues exist as an allegory of a curse upon humankind?
Ba-Bel, ‘God’s Gate’, was the Babylonian heaven-mountain of ziggurat where the god descended from the sky to the Holy of Holies, the genital locus of his mating with Mother Earth. … Babylon’s famous Hanging Gardens occupied the seven stages of the ziggurat, to create a Paradise like that of Hindu gods: ‘Seven divisions of the world… in seven circles placed one above another…’ The ziggurat was a ‘temple’ of the seven spheres of the world. … The Babel myth is found all over the world, including India and Mexico. It was familiar in the Greek story of the giants who piled up mountains to reach heaven. Hindus said it was not a tower but a great tree that grew up to heaven… (Walker, 1983; emphasis added)
We already have disclosed a little clue from the Cassiopaeans on this matter, but let’s look at it one more time and see if we can discover something more that will help us to understand:
Q: (L) What was the event a hundred or so years after the flood of Noah that was described as the confusing of languages, or the tower of Babel?
A: Spiritual confluence.
Q: (L) What purpose did the individuals who came together to build the tower intend for said tower?
A: Electromagnetic concentration of all gravity waves.
Q: (L) And what did they intend to do with these concentrated waves?
A: Mind alteration of masses.
Q: (L) What intention did they have in altering the mind of the masses?
A: Spiritual unification of the masses.
Q: (L) Who were the “gods” that looked down on the tower of Babel, at those who were building it with the intention of unification, and decided to destroy their works?
A: Lizards.
Having already talked about humankind being a “Fragmented Soul Unit”, we now have the idea that making a name as it was described in the Biblical text, had something to do with spiritual unification of the masses — possibly reassembling members of that soul unit.
We also have a clue that this action was not acceptable to the Control System because the Bible clearly says:
“And the Lord said, Behold, they are one people, and they have ‘all one language’; and this is only the beginning of what they will do; and now nothing they have imagined they can do will be impossible to them.” (Genesis 11:6)
Aside from the fact that this passage pretty much confirms the Cassiopaeans’ interpretation of the event, it suggests other possibilities that we need to consider, namely the idea that with spiritual unification “nothing they have imagined they can do will be impossible to them”.
What a concept!
But we need to note another thing about this Tower of Babel business: The Cassiopaeans also said that it was designed to function via “electromagnetic concentration of all gravity waves” and that this would accomplish the “mind alteration of masses”.
Now, let’s think about this for a moment. They said “all gravity waves”/ Plural.
Let’s go to another series of curious remarks made by the Cassiopaeans. And, it should be noted that this series of remarks was initiated by my questions about the Sufi teachings:
Q: (L) As you know, I have been studying the Sufi teachings, and I am discovering so many similarities in these Sufi “unveilings” to what we have been receiving through this source, that I am really quite amazed, to say the least. So, my question is: could what we are doing here be considered an ongoing, incremental, “unveiling”, as they call it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, from what I am reading, in the process of unveiling, at certain points, when the knowledge base has been sufficiently expanded, inner unveilings then begin to occur. Is this part of the present process?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical — I go through a depression before I can assimilate — and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process. Let it be.
Q: (L) One of the things that Al-’Arabi writes about is the ontological levels of being. Concentric circles, so to speak, of states of being. And, each state merely defines relationships. At each higher level you are closer to a direct relationship with the core of existence, and on the outer edges, you are in closer relationship with matter. This accurately explicates the seven densities you have described for us. He also talks about the “outraying” and the “inward moving” toward knowledge. My thought was certain beings, such as fourth density STS, and other STS beings of third density, who think that they are creating a situation where they will accrue power to themselves, may, in fact, be part of the “out raying” or dispersion into matter. Is this a correct perception?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Al-’Arabi says, and this echoes what you have said, that you can stay in the illusion where you are, you can move downward or upward. Is this, in part, whichever direction you choose, a function of your position on the cycle?
A: It is more complex than that.
Q: (L) Well, I am sure of that. Al-’Arabi presents a very complex analysis. Nevertheless, it almost word-for-word reflects things that have been given directly to us through this source.
A: Now, learn, read, research all you can about unstable gravity waves. Meditate too! We mean for you, Laura, to meditate about unstable gravity waves as part of research.
Q: (L) Okay. So, we are onto something with the Sufi teachings. It is clear that there is something under the surface, and, I was convinced by seeing this underlying pattern that it was possible to penetrate the veil, and that gave me the impetus to push for a breakthrough.
A: Unstable gravity waves unlock as yet unknown secrets of quantum physics to make the picture crystal clear.
Q: (L) Gravity seems to be a property of matter. Is that correct?
A: And antimatter! Gravity binds all that is physical with all that is ethereal through unstable gravity waves!!!
Q: (L) Is antimatter ethereal existence?
A: Pathway to. Doorway to.
Q: (L) So, through unstable gravity waves, you can access other densities?
A: Everything.
And we have just discovered that “Ba-Bel” means “God’s Gate”. Hmm…
Q: (L) Can you generate them mechanically?
A: Generation is really collecting and dispersing.
Q: (L) Okay, what kind of a device would collect and disperse gravity waves? Is this what spirals do?
A: On the way to. When you wrote “Noah” where did you place gravity?
Q: (L) I thought that gravity was an indicator of the consumption of electricity; that gravity was a byproduct of a continuous flow of electrical energy…
A: Gravity is no byproduct! It is the central ingredient of all existence!
Q: (L) I was thinking that electricity was evidence of some sort of consciousness, and that gravity was evidence that a planet that had it, had life…
A: We have told you before that planets and stars are windows. And where does the gravity go?
Q: (L) Well, where does gravity go? The sun is a window. Even our planet must be a window!
A: You have it too!! Gravity is all there is. Gravity is “God”.
Q: (L) [So we have our own inner “window”.] But, I thought God was light?
A: If gravity is everything, what isn’t it? Light is energy expression generated by gravity.
Q: (L) Is gravity the “light that cannot be seen”, as the Sufis call it: the Source.
A: Please name something that is not gravity.
Q: (L) Well, if gravity is everything, there is nothing that is not gravity. Fine. What is absolute nothingness?
A: A mere thought.
Q: (L) Do thoughts produce gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does sound produce gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can sound manipulate gravity?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can it be done with the human voice?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can it be done tonally or by power through thought?
A: Both. Gravity is manipulated by sound when thought manipulated by gravity chooses to produce sound which manipulates gravity.
Q: (L) Now, did the fellow who built the Coral Castle spin in his airplane seat while thinking his manipulations into place?
A: No. He spun when gravity chose to manipulate him to spin in order to manipulate gravity.
Q: (L) Does gravity have consciousness?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it ever possible for the individual to do the choosing, or is it gravity that is him that chose?
A: The gravity that was inside him was all the gravity in existence.
Q: (L) Well, I thought the Sufis were tough! (F) Well, it’s probably because of your studies that this door opened. (L) Good grief! What have I done! All right. I am confused.
A: No you are not.
Q: (L) Then, just put it this way: I am befuddled and overloaded.
A: Befuddling is fun! How many times do we have to tell you?!?! Learning is fun! The entire sum total of all existence exists within each of you, and vice versa.
Q: (L) Then what is the explanation for the “many-ness” that we perceive?
A: Perception of 3rd density.
Q: (L) The problem is accessing it, stripping away the veils.
A: That is the fun part.
Q: (L) So, the fellow who built the Coral Castle was able to access this. Consistently or only intermittently?
A: Partially.
Q: (L) According to what I understand, at the speed of light, there is no mass, no time, and no gravity. How can this be?
A: No mass, no time, but yes, gravity. Gravity supersedes light speed.
Q: (L) What would make a gravity wave unstable?
A: Utilization.
Q: (L) I feel like I am missing a really big point here…
A: You are, but you can only find it at your own pace.
Now, let’s run some of those key points by one more time:
Gravity is no byproduct! It is the central ingredient of all existence! Gravity binds all that is physical with all that is ethereal through unstable gravity waves!!! We have told you before that planets and stars are windows. And where does the gravity go? You have it too!! The entire sum total of all existence exists within each of you, and vice versa. Gravity is all there is. Gravity is “God”. Gravity is manipulated by sound when thought manipulated by gravity chooses to produce sound, which manipulates gravity.
Now, remember that the Cassiopaeans said that the Tower of Babel was designed to artificially concentrate all gravity waves and that this would result in unification, which the Control System immediately saw as a threat. From the above, we can conjecture that the remark about concentrating all gravity waves must refer to the aligning of individuals as being able to access God, considering that the “sum total of all existence exists within each” human being in the form of gravity. Sounds to me like they are describing what is known today as the zero-point energy state.
David Bohm computed the zero-point energy due to quantum-mechanical fluctuations in a single cubic centimeter of space, and arrived at the energy of 1038 ergs (a unit of energy in the centimeter-gram-second system of units). This is the energy equivalent of about ten billion tons of uranium. Joseph Chilton Pearce compares this zero-point energy proposal to the saying of Jesus that if we have the faith of a grain of mustard seed, we might move mountains. There is a little catch, however. According to David Bohm, under present conditions this energy is inaccessible in the material sense. It is merely a mathematical representation of a theoretical state. But, as we have already proposed, this zero point energy source is really the state of pure non-anticipation of the left-brain in its analysis of the observations made through the right-brain thought processes. It is the mirror of mirrors of Grail consciousness.
On the subject of alphabets, Nigel Pennick wrote:
Because they contain the potential to describe and transmit all the knowledge in the universe, alphabets have a magical quality. … Several ancient alphabets have names for each character, which are descriptive of an object or quality, and to which magical and divinatory possibilities are attached. … The Roman alphabet in use today is not usually considered to be of any magical or divinatory significance… (Pennick, 1992)
Ancient alphabets were more than a means by which phonetic symbols were put together to make words that denoted people or things. These signs had concepts associated with them. The word rune is related to the meaning to whisper (as Wisdom is described doing above) or to give indications of the nature of something. Each sign of the ancient symbol systems was a unit encapsulating a wealth of information. They represented a formless eternal reality, which is manifested in the world we experience as objects, powers, feelings and attributes.
Going back to our right and left-brain functions, we find that it is the left side of the brain that possesses the abilities needed for reading and writing in our modern sense of the words. But the ancient symbol systems represented logographic imagery that was more efficiently recognized by the right side of the brain. The key is to unify the two halves of the brain in response to a sign.
In the Prose Edda (Snorri Sturlson), Odin makes this synthesis. In the Song of Havamal (The Utterances of the High One), stanzas 138-139, we read:
“I know that I hung on the windswept tree,
Through nine days and nine nights,
I was stuck with a spear, and given to Odin,
Myself given to myself,
On that tree, which no man knows,
From which roots it rises.
They helped me neither by bread,
Nor by drinking horn.
I took the runes,
Screaming, I took them,
Then I fell back from there.”
What does this have to do with “making a name” for themselves? What can it tell us about the Names of God? How does this relate to our individual access to the zero-point energy function?
A name, in esoteric terms, is considered identical with the thing itself; it is a spiritual handle by which one becomes aware of how to deal with a person, thing or issue. Ancient Britons believed that the name and the soul were the same and there are many stories about Celtic heroes refusing to give their names to strangers. In some myths, knowledge of the name could bring destruction as is noted in the fairy tale of Rumpelstiltzkin.
From all the things we have discussed so far, it seems reasonable to assume that the oldest civilizations had some knowledge of sound as a means of creation and destruction. The belief that pronouncing a divine name could activate such forces is only a pale remnant of that knowledge. It could even be said that there was some element of this idea behind the saying of Jesus that “In my name shall they cast out devils”. It is also reflected in the idea that one could only be saved “in the name of Jesus”.
However, if we track this idea back to the wisdom literature, we find that Wisdom is the sustainer and governor of the universe who sits by the throne of God, and She comes to dwell among men and bestow her gifts on them, but most of them reject her.
Nevertheless, the tradition has been passed down that the holy names were not merely symbols because words spoken in the name of Jesus or in the name of the Father, son and holy spirit were supposed to have absolute efficacy in expelling demons. The Christian church taught that no demon could be exorcised before his own name was known, following the example of Jesus who demanded to know the names of the devils that were possessing the Gadarene.
We can see that there is a key in this shadow of truth. If these ideas are twisted perversions of the idea of knowledge and wisdom as the giver of all good things and protector of humankind, then we come face to face with the realization the naming something is to know it. And, by the same token, naming it is to separate it!
In the passage quoted from Genesis about the creation of the world being accomplished by naming things, the thing that we really need to notice here is that the “let there be light” business was essentially the fact that God separated the light from the Darkness by naming them. The One became Two. The “parent” produced the “child”. The un-manifest sea of potential contracted infinitely, leaving a void, or zero-point, and everything else, or One. Everything in the cosmos can be expressed by two figures, 0 and 1, on or off, STO or STS, creation or entropy.
This zero point function with its incredible energy potential is known in the Sufi teachings as the Breath of God. God was constricted and so breathed out to ease His constriction. This breath is the cloud, or the mirror in which God sees his reflection. And the reflection is seen in everything that comes into being through the constant fluctuation of God’s being as he looks in the “mirror”. As God looks he is activating the positive creative potential of the idea which is responded to by the zero-point energy potential of the breath, and all creation comes into being. That which is dispersed toward the periphery, the Breath of God, becomes the clay of creation. Without it, light would not shine and the cosmos would not come into existence. And, once this full outward manifestation is achieved, it is time for the unitive movement to take over, and an active and conscious participation in this movement is the prerogative of human beings.
Here, we come to another great mystery:
The root of the Breath is the property of love. Love has a movement within the lover, while “breath” is a movement of yearning toward the object of love, and through that breathing enjoyment is experienced. And God has said, as has been reported, “I was a Treasure but was not known, so I loved to be known”. Through this love, breathing takes place, so the Breath becomes manifest and the Cloud comes into being. (Koran, II 310.17)
As an aside, we deduce from the above that love serves knowledge, not the other way around.
Getting back to the matter at hand, thus breath is a vapor, relieves constriction in the breast, and is the vehicle for words. The existent things or words come into existence within the breath as the result of God’s speech. This word is described as “Be!” yet this word is addressed to each thing in its state of nonexistence. And, thereby, the thing becomes existent. The place of articulation is that which determines what comes into being. In bringing the cosmos into existence, the breath of God assumes the contours defined by the Names. Just as each word that a human speaks issues from a particular point, known as the place of articulation within the vocal apparatus, in the same way, each letter/reality of the cosmos manifests Being in a specific mode different from other modes. Each, therefore, is connected to a specific Divine Name.
According to Ibn al-‘Arabi, “The One” or the Divine Presence comprises Essence, Attributes and Acts. This embraces all that is. The Essence is God without reference to relationships. The Acts are all created things, including man. The Names are the Barzakh, or isthmus between Essence and Creation. In other words, the Names define the relationships between God and the Creation. The Names are not like the creatures of the universe, which can be noted as separate things; rather, they are relationships, attributes, ascriptions or correlations between God and the cosmos. The Created things are the secondary causes of the Names.
Once God has created the cosmos, we see that it possesses diverse levels and realities. Each of these demands a specific relationship with the Real. These names allow us to understand that they denote both His Essence and an intelligible quality that has no entity in existence. Examples of these intelligible qualities include: creation, provision, gain, loss, bringing into existence, specification, strengthening, domination, severity, gentleness, descent, attraction, love, hate, nearness, distance, reverence, contempt and so on. Every attribute manifest within the cosmos has a name known to us.
The Divine Names allow us to understand many realities of obvious diversity. The names are attributed only to God, for He is the object named by them, but He does not become multiple through them.
God knows the names in respect of the fact that he knows every object of knowledge, while we know the names through the diversity of their effects within us. (Koran, III 397.8)
The Names are also called realities. As qualities or essences they are the genetic code of the offspring of God — and it is really uncertain how many there are. Each system has its own list. Some commentators on Judaism say there are 72 Names of God. The Islamic view is that there are 99. Some esoteric literature lists the “Twelve Pairs of Twin Characteristics”. My guess is that to try to list them all would be limiting. And it should be noted that the Judeo-Christian view is that those which are not “Beautiful Names” do not apply to God, but rather are the result of sin. In this respect, they effectively judge and condemn half of creation, and seat this judgment upon half of humanity, i.e., women.
The multiplicity of relationships that can be discerned in God results in a multiplicity of relationships in the cosmos. All things in the universe manifest the effects and properties of the divine names. Even conflict, quarrel, strife, war have roots in God. The cosmos is a great collection of things, and things go their own ways, not necessarily in harmony with other things on the level where they are being considered. True knowledge of God demands knowing Him through both kinds of names. (Chittick, 1989)
Now here we come back to the same issue the Apostle Paul was working with when he was musing about why one vessel should be called to grace and the other to wrath. Paul’s view is exposed as very narrow and presumptuous when compared with the Sufi view.
The properties of the divine names, in respect of being names, are diverse. What do Avenger, Terrible in Punishment, and Overpowering have in common with Compassionate, Forgiving, and Gentle? For Avenger demands the occurrence of vengeance in its object, while Compassionate demands the removal of vengeance for the same object. So, those who look at these manifestations will think that it is Divine Conflict, or error or accident.
This conflict is because, as Al-’Arabi explains, different Names call the creatures in different directions! If the object of the call responds, he is named ‘obedient’ and becomes ‘felicitous’. If he does not respond, he is named ‘disobedient’ and becomes ‘wretched’. (Chittick, 1989)
The word demon comes from the Greek daemon, which was something like a guiding spirit or guardian angel. The medieval concept of the demon evolved from the Christian blanket condemnation of all Pagan ideas. According to St. Thomas Aquinas, all bad weather and natural catastrophes were brought about by demons. But, we can see that the archaic idea that the daemon, as a divine power, inner spirit, fate or secondary divinity is rather close to the idea of the Names of God.
Now, in this following dialogue from the writings of the Great Shaykh, Ibn al-‘Arabi, note how close to the concept of the daemon, as the ancients understood it, the Names are:
The Shayhk says: You should know that the divine call includes believer and unbeliever, obedient and disobedient. … This call derives only from the divine names. One divine name calls to someone who is governed by the property of a second divine name when it knows that the term of the second name’s property within the person has come to an end. Then this name which calls to him takes over. So it continues in this world and the next. Hence everything other than God is called by a divine name to come to an engendered state to which that name seeks to attach it. If the object of the call responds, he is named ‘obedient’ and becomes ‘felicitous’. If he does not respond, he is named ‘disobedient’ and becomes ‘wretched’.
You may object and say: ‘how can a divine name call and the [person] refuse to respond, given that [he] is weak and must accept the divine power’?
We will answer: [He] does not refuse to respond in respect of [himself and his] own reality, since [he] is constantly overpowered. But since [he] is under the overpowering sway of a divine name, that name does not let [him] respond to the name which calls to [him]. Hence there is conflict among the divine names.
However, in terms of power, the names are equals, so the ruling property belongs to the actual possessor, which is the name in whose hand the [man] is when the second name calls to it. The possessor is stronger through the situation.
You may object: ‘Then why is a person taken to task for his refusal?’ We answer: Because he claims the refusal for himself and does not ascribe it to the divine name which controls him.
You may object: ‘The situation stays the same, since he refuses only because of the overpowering sway of a Divine name. The person who is called refused because of the name.’ We answer: That is true, but he is ignorant of that, so he is taken to task for his ignorance, for the ignorance belongs to himself!
You may object: ‘But his ignorance derives from a divine name whose property governs him.’ We answer: Ignorance is a quality pertaining to nonexistence; it is not ontological! The divine names bestow only existence; they do not bestow nonexistence. So the ignorance belongs to the very self of him who is called. (Futuhat, II 592.32 in Chittick, 1989)
Here is a huge clue to our problem. First of all, we learn that each and every human being is under the call of one or more of the Divine Names. It seems as though one particular Name must be in charge at any given time, until it has finished with the person. If another Name calls to the person, it has less influence over him than the one that possesses him at a given time.
Now, we already know that there can be a great multiplicity of Names in operation at any given time and that this is the reason for the great variety of manifestations of secondary causes or created beings and situations in the cosmos. These can be macro-beings and situations or micro-beings and situations. There are universal, galactic, solar, global, national, racial, metropolitan, social, familial and personal manifestations of or dispute among the Names.
Gurdjieff talked about this problem in a somewhat different way, though we can see his Sufi roots showing through rather plainly.
‘I want you to understand what I am saying. Look, all those people you see,’ he pointed along the street, ‘are simply machines — nothing more’.
‘I think I understand what you mean’, I said. ‘And I have often thought how little there is in the world that can stand against this form of mechanization and choose its own path.’
‘This is just where you make your greatest mistake’, said G. ‘You think there is something that chooses its own path, something that can stand against mechanization; you think that not everything is equally mechanical.’
‘Why, of course not!’ I said. ‘Art, poetry, thought, are phenomena of quite a different order.’
‘Of exactly the same order’, said G. ‘These activities are just as mechanical as everything else. Men are machines and nothing but mechanical actions can be expected of machines.’ …
‘Can one stop being a machine?’ I asked.
‘Ah! That is the question’, said G. ‘…It is possible to stop being a machine, but for that it is necessary first of all to know the machine. A machine, a real machine, does not know itself and cannot know itself. When a machine knows itself it is then no longer a machine, at least, not such a machine as it was before. It already begins to be responsible for its actions. What to do? It is impossible to do anything. A man must first of all understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to acquire anything new.
‘… Man’s chief delusion is his conviction that he can do. All people think that they can do, all people want to do, and the first question all people ask is what they are to do. But actually nobody does anything and nobody can do anything. This is the first thing that must be understood. Everything happens. All that befalls a man, all that is done by him, all that comes from him — all this happens. And it happens in exactly the same way as rain falls as a result of a change in the temperature in the higher regions of the atmosphere or the surrounding clouds, as snow melts under the rays of the sun, as dust rises with the wind.
‘… Man is a machine. All his deeds, actions, words, thoughts, feelings, convictions, opinion, and habits are the results of external influences, external impressions. … To establish this fact for oneself, to understand it, to be convinced of its truth, means getting rid of a thousand illusions about man, about his being creative and consciously organizing his own life, and so on. There is nothing of this kind. Everything happens — popular movements, wars, revolutions, changes of government, all this happens. And it happens in exactly the same way as everything happens in the life of individual man. Man is born, lives, dies, builds houses, writes books, not as he wants to, but as it happens. Everything happens. Man does not love, hate, desire — all this happens.
‘But no one will ever believe you if you tell him he can do nothing. This is the most offensive and the most unpleasant thing you can tell people. It is particularly unpleasant and offensive because it is the truth, and nobody wants to know the truth. It is one thing to understand this with the mind and another thing to feel it with one’s whole mass, to be really convinced that it is so and never forget it.
‘With this question of doing, yet another thing is connected. It always seems to people that others invariably do things wrongly, not in the way they should be done. Everybody always thinks he could do it better. They do not understand, and do not want to understand, that what is being done, and particularly what has already been done in one way, cannot be, and could not have been, done in another way. … Actually everything is being done in the only way it can be done. If one thing could be different, everything could be different. … Everything is dependent on everything else, everything is connected, nothing is separate. Therefore everything is going in the only way it can go. If people were different everything would be different. They are what they are, so everything is as it is.
‘In order to Do, it is necessary to Be. And it is necessary to understand what to Be means. … Then one must learn to speak the truth. In most cases, people think they speak the truth. And yet they lie all the time, both when they wish to lie and when they wish to speak the truth. They lie all the time, both to themselves and to others. … But they cannot help lying. To speak the truth is the most difficult thing in the world; and one must study a great deal and for a long time in order to be able to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And this nobody wants to know.’ (Ouspensky, 1949)
And then, in the same vein we have don Juan telling Carlos Castaneda in The Active Side of Infinity:
‘I want to appeal to your analytical mind,’ don Juan said. ‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.’
‘But how can they do this, don Juan?’ I asked, somehow angered further by what he was saying. ‘Do they whisper all that in our ears while we are asleep?’
‘No, they don’t do it that way. That’s idiotic!’ don Juan said, smiling. ‘They are infinitely more efficient and organized than that. In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now.’
‘I know that even though you have never suffered hunger… you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.’ (Castaneda, 1998, 213-220)
All of the above sounds absolutely crazy! Here we have a Sufi mystic from hundreds of years ago, a peripatetic jack of all trades, including mysticism, from Asia Minor living in the first half of the 20th century, and a semi-mythical shaman who may have been a figment of the imagination of a peyote-eating, contemporary anthropologist, all saying something that is absolutely savage to our ideas of the Love of God, self, personal sovereignty, free will and enculturated belief systems!
They are all saying there is clearly some larger force, being or influence behind our reality about which we desperately need to become aware. Are they the only ones saying such things?
Barbara Hort, Ph.D., a Jungian psychologist is saying something quite similar. In Unholy Hungers she writes:
The Beast has always been with us. For as long as our hearts have pumped blood, for as long as our souls have glowed with life, for as long as we have yearned for love, the beast has always been there. Sneering and stalking, drooling and scheming, it licks its full, soft lips in anticipation of its next warm meal. For the beast is essentially a feeding thing. Oh, yes, it has many faces, all of them human, and it has our endearing manners as well. But those human graces are a camouflage born of necessity — they are the disguise that enables the beast to prevail. Beneath its veneer of humanity, the core of the beast is hunger, and survival is its only goal.
The beast hungers for survival, but not for life as we know it. … It has a clever mind and an insatiable hunger. To survive, the beast must appease its hunger, and it can feed only on the thing it lacks — the essence of life. So the beast must prey upon us, the living. It must suck our lifeblood and drain our force.
If we are lucky, we will merely die. If we are less fortunate, we will succumb to the deepest horror of the beast’s predation, which is that most of its victims will not die. Instead, we will become the thing to which we have fallen prey, and we will be compelled to feed in the same parasitic way. Thus the feeding frenzy spreads, swelling into a bestial legion whose progenitors haunted prehistory. The beast is ancient and global and growing. I have many stories, and shapes without number, and all are like shadows — elusive and dim. But the name that we call the beast itself is clear and cold and precise. We call the beast vampire.
The story of the vampires is as old, as tangled, and as evil as any on earth. … So many, many names, and among them lies a hard truth. The vampire stalks the living in every corner of the human world. Dracula is only a single vampire among a global horde, and what’s more, he is a young member of the clan, for he was born in the mind of Bram Stoker only one hundred years ago, and he was based on a warlord who lived less than six hundred years ago — a mere breath of time, considering it was more than three thousand years ago that the Assyrians and Babylonians described the monster ekimmu, an undead corpse who preyed upon the blood and flesh of the living in an effort to evade its own death. So it is between us and the vampire. Wherever we have lived, whenever we have lived, the beast has always been with us.
What can account for the ancient, global presence of the vampire in myth and lore? (Hort, 1996)
Well, that’s a good question. There are other Jungian psychiatrists and psychologists who have been working with the idea of archetypes who have suggested that our myths and folktales have a great deal to tell us about our reality, both apparent and that which is hidden. The plain fact is, the stories about vampires are so widespread and prevalent that trying to account for it by many of the modern theories of disease, sexual perversity, sadism, necrophilia, and people who have mental aberrations causing them to steal, drink, or bathe in human blood simply doesn’t cut the mustard.
According to Jung, every human psyche is composed of basic elements called archetypes. We can define archetypes as the constellations of energies or traits that make up our personalities. The images used to symbolize archetypes can help us comprehend the variety of psychic energies that compose who and what we are. According to Jungian theory, when our archetypes are activated, we feel as if we are moved by internal characters who are acting out gripping stories upon the stages of our lives. Sometimes we feel that we possess these powerful psychic energies, and at other times it feels as if they have possessed us. Jungian analyst Marion Woodman, quoted by Dr. Hort, writes:
When we contemplate the archetypal energies that move us, it seems as if each archetype has a distinct personality with positive and negative aspects. … The energies of our archetypes can ‘fill us with radiant light, or overwhelm us with destruction and despair. They are our gods, within, spiritually and instinctually. Relating to them [consciously] allows us to work at incarnating our angels.’ … I would add that relating to an archetype unconsciously leads us to incarnate our demons as well. … Archetypes ‘are like hidden magnets [that] attract and repel. Gods and vampires, goddesses and witches are alarmingly close in this domain. They make us or break us, depending on our conscious relationship to them.’” (Hort, 1996, 5; emphasis added)
Jung’s idea was that when an archetype was activated in a group the images of its energy would appear in the group’s stories, myths, and folktales. He also believed that any story that was widespread through space and time was an important clue to a psychological experience that was common to all. If Jung was right, then the story of the vampire, the oldest and most widespread myth of all, is more than a byproduct of ignorant people in bygone times. The vampire archetype has been with us since the dawn of history, and the fact is, it is with us in ways we are only beginning to comprehend.
I would like to draw your attention to some remarks made in the previous two sections. The first is my statement that evil is a real and cogent manifestation in our world:
I can assure you that evil insinuates itself into our lives in the guise of goodness and truth. The difficulty in talking about evil nowadays lies not in the weird or bizarre, but rather from the insistence by our culture that religious views of good and evil are outdated. … The fact is, the selves which create evil and wish to perpetuate it are those at higher density levels and against whom we have no defense except through knowledge of who they are and how they work. We must learn about the lies in order to perceive the truth.
Later, I again referred back to this evil:
As my perspective expanded, the more the evils disappeared! Now, don’t get me wrong. When I say they ‘disappeared’, that does not mean that they went away or were transformed. Not at all. I just stopped seeing them as evil. … No indeed. I still can see demons in the world and at work; I still see the creeping darkness shadowing the souls of mankind, blotting out their access to their creative potential. I still see war and genocide and famine and plague as part of our reality. … And, even though, for convention, I use terms such as dark and light, and good and evil and positive and negative, in order to talk about things in a practical way, I no longer see these things as an essential error … What I see now is that all of these things exist, the light and the dark, the good and the evil, the positive and the negative, the STS and STO beings, as part of the superb framework of the infinite Creator or Prime Source. … What is more, I see the reason for it to be this way, above and beyond just the simple ‘choice’ of humankind to experience learning at a faster rate.
Those who have read my book Soul Hackers may recall that as soon as I fully entered into the Christian Fundamentalist mindset which posits the idea that one needs to seek salvation for one’s self as well as the world at large, my reality immediately crashed around me and I did indeed need salvation!
The offshoot of this Christian Fundamentalism, the New Age idea that “you create your own reality” by excluding any thoughts about anything that is unpleasant, was also a disaster that nearly killed me. Clearly, there was some sort of relationship between my view of the world and my experiences within it, though it was not precisely that which was suggested to be true by either of these paths.
I then continued to consider the likelihood that the reason for these manifestations is that, indeed, we do create our own reality in some obscure way, but that the devil is in the details, so to speak. I then examined the idea that when one is trying to change the reality, the truly creative part of the mind understands that the reality is broken and that this is what gets created. What this really boils down to is “however you judge, you are judged”.
I would like to take just a moment here to make a point: judging, in a general sense, is something altogether different from examination, assessing, evaluating or forming an opinion. It suggests acting for or against something “other”, since a judgment generally carries with it the idea of a “sentence” or reward and punishment. This is a crucial issue since it is at the root of the you-create-your-own-reality controversy.
Joseph Chilton Pearce, in his classic, The Crack in the Cosmic Egg, wrote:
There is a relationship between what we think is out there in the world and what we experience as being out there. There is a way in which the energy of thought and the energy of matter modify each other and interrelate. A kind of rough mirroring takes place between our mind and our reality.
We cannot stand outside this mirroring process and examine it, though, for we are the process, to an unknowable extent. Any technique we might use to ‘look objectively’ at our reality becomes a part of the event in question. We are an indeterminately large part of the function that shapes the reality from which we do our looking. Our looking enters as one of the determinants in the reality event that we see.
…The procedure of mirroring must be considered the only fixed element, while the products of the procedure must be considered relative. … We represent the world to ourselves and respond to our representations. … A change of worldview can change the world viewed.
Metanoia is the Greek word for conversion: a ‘fundamental transformation of mind’. It is the process by which concepts are reorganized. … The same procedure can be found in worldview development [and] can be traced in the question-answer process, or the proposing and eventual filling of an ‘empty category’ in science. The asking of an ultimately serious question, which means to be seized in turn by an ultimately serious quest, reshapes our concepts in favor of the kinds of perceptions needed to ‘see’ the answer. … A question determines and brings about its answer just as the desired end shapes the nature of the kind of question asked.
Exploring this reality function shows how and why we reap as we sow, individually and collectively — but no simple one-to-one correspondence is implied. The success or failure of any idea is subject to an enormous web of contingencies. (Pearce, 1975)
“A change of world view can change the world viewed.” What a concept!
Most importantly, “Our looking enters as one of the determinants in the reality event that we see. … The asking of an ultimately serious question, which means to be seized in turn by an ultimately serious quest, reshapes our concepts in favor of the kinds of perceptions needed to ‘see’ the answer.”
These remarks take us, again, to the idea of Grail Consciousness, which is the “asking of the question”, and of course to ask a question with no assumption about the answer is the key to being able to more completely see the universe as it is. And here we arrive at another sticking point. Once you see something in the reality, what are you then supposed to do? What is the proper reaction? Or is it that you are not supposed to react at all? How can you tell?
This is where we find “the success or failure of any idea is subject to an enormous web of contingencies”. It is the contingencies or reactions that we will begin to explore.
First of all, let me remind the reader what we are trying to accomplish: we are learning about our present world so that we can arrive at the “simple understandings” that are supposed to be the final exam of third density reality. Those understandings apparently will not only determine if we do graduate, but will also determine how prepared we are to begin the lessons of the next grade. It seems that an important part of this preparation is the achieving of this Grail Consciousness.
The God Odin, discovering the secret spring of wisdom and poetry, asked the guardian of the spring for a drink. He was told: ‘The price is your right eye.’ … The ‘universal pool’ is as much ‘in here’ as anywhere. … Anything desired can be gotten from it, if one is willing to pay the price and has an ultimate commitment around which the process can orient. … The mirrors of reality play are brought into alignment by a non-ambiguous commitment from a conscious mind. The ‘other mirror’ is automatically unambiguous. (Pearce, 1975)
We already know the “right eye” that must be paid to drink from the spring of wisdom and poetry is our linear, conceptual thinking which defines a certain narrow scheme of things as good and designates all others as aberrant energy that is somehow amiss or at odds with the universe. With our left-brain, we pick and choose what we like to believe. We ignore and dampen and obscure what we don’t like. We invest what we like with “faith”, believing that focusing on these concepts will make them part of our reality, while forgetting that our organism, our right-brain, is observing reality in a clear and unbiased way. The possibilities and realities that are excluded from conscious acknowledgment create a mind divided, confused and robbed of power. The body will reflect this by acting as a “machine out of phase, working against itself, tearing itself up”.
Robert Frost saw civilization as a small clearing in a great forest. We have hewn our space at no small cost, and the dark ‘out there’ seems ever ready to close in again — a collapse into chaos should our ideation fail. … I shall consider the dark forest to be the primal stuff, the unconscious, the unknown potential.…
Our clearing is a worldview, a cosmic egg structured by the mind’s drive for a logical ordering of its universe. The clearing is an organization imposed by us on a random possibility.
Teilhard de Chardin saw human destiny spreading the light from our small clearing out into the dark beyond. In archaic times we feared lest the dark engulf our fragile construction of reason, and all actions were oriented toward keeping the cultural circle intact.
… We have been passionately involved in strengthening our ideation, cataloging and indexing our clearing in the forest. Some unanimity of opinion has begun to form. But the nature of the dark forest is the real problem. For our attitude toward the forest influences sharply the way we look upon our clearing, and affects the kind of new clearing we can make. (Pearce, 1975)
These words of Pearce bring our problem into focus. It is our attitude toward what is that creates our reality, because it is this attitude that determines the “center” of our consciousness. The center of our consciousness is the zero-point energy access of reality. It is in this sense that we have to look at some things in order to find what is the true source of the center of consciousness and how to shift this in order to truly change our reality.
Now it is time to form a little hypothesis in order to better analyze the situation.
1 This is an allusion to my “immediate past life” in Germany where I jumped to my death after the Nazis took my Jewish husband and children away to a camp. See my autobiography, Amazing Grace, for details.
2 This passage is a lot more meaningful after 9-11, eh?
3 All Biblical quotations are taken from Zondervan’s Amplified Bible.
4 Attenborough, The Living Planet, 1984, emphasis added.
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself. He was present originally with God. All things were made and came into existence through Him; and without Him was not even one thing made that has come into being. In Him was Life and the Life was the Light of Men. And the Light shines on in the darkness, for the darkness has never overpowered it, and is unreceptive to it.” (John 1:1-5)
The word logos means word in Greek. When it was used in archaic, esoteric terms it had a more specific meaning — that “Divine Essence” was concentrated in its Name. This theory of creation was passed from Tantrism to Neoplatonic philosophy, and was later absorbed into Christianity and from there, it was suggested to apply only to Jesus. The Christian enthusiasm for this idea may have been related to the fact that it provided exclusively male gods the means by which to give birth. They could just speak the word and that was that. Thus, it has become a widely known and popular theological construct.
However, the ability to create and destroy with words was originally the domain of the Goddess in all her many manifestations. She created alphabets, languages and secret words of power, or mantras. Every manifestation of life was brought into being by the supreme syllable and mother of all sounds, Ohm.
The Logos idea is actually almost identical to the Oriental concept of the Oversoul, which was supposed to be the essence of the Great Mother. Origen, one of the early fathers of the Christian church, wrote:
As our body while consisting of human members is yet held together by one soul, so the universe is to be thought of as an immense living being which is held together by one soul, the power of the Logos.
The doctrine of the Logos was so widespread in the ancient world that it would have been impossible for Christians to ignore it. However, not only did they appropriate its use to their own ends, they also destroyed the ancient Logoi, the sacred writings of the Orphics, mentioned by Plato and other philosophers. This was a large portion of the wisdom literature which survived in part in the Bible, and was also preserved in fragments in certain Gnostic writings discovered at Nag Hammadi in 1945. The Gospel of Truth says:
When the Word appeared, the Word which is in the hearts of those who pronounced It. … It was not only a sound, but It had taken on a body as well. (Pagels, 1978)
Christians gave the idea a very simplistic interpretation, assuming the “body” was Christ’s. The more perceptive of the ancient writers intended to say that man, the nomothete, creates all his gods from his Word.
And here we find ourselves back in the domain of the Names of God.
Q: (L) Is there only one ultimate creator of the universe?
A: All is one. And one is all.
Q: (L) How does thought become matter?
A: Bilaterally.
Q: (L) What do you mean by “bilaterally”?
A: Dual emergence.
Q: (L) Emergence into what and what?
A: Not “into what and what”, but rather, “from what and to what”.
Q: (L) What emerges from what?
A: The beginning emerges from the end, and vice versa.
Q: (L) And what is the beginning and what is the end?
A: Union with the One.
Q: (L) What is the One?
A: 7th density, i.e., all that is, and is not.
Q: (L) In terms of major STS, this may or may not be related, could you tell us the nature of a Black Hole?
A: Grand Scale STS. Black Holes are a natural force reflection of Free Will consciousness pattern of STS. Notice that Black Holes are located at center of spiral energy forces, all else radiates outward. All in creation is just that: a radiating wave.
Q: (L) Where does the energy go that gets sucked into a black hole?
A: Inward to total nonexistence. Universe is all encompassing. Black holes are final destination of all STS energy. Total nonexistence balances total existence. Guess what is total existence? “God.” Prime Creator. As long as you exist, you are of the Prime Creator.
Q: (L) Now, this stuff that goes into Black Holes, that goes into nonexistence, is that, then, not part of the Prime Creator?
A: Correct.
Q: (L) How can Prime Creator lose any part of him or itself?
A: Prime Creator does not “lose” anything.
Q: (L) Well, then, how would you describe this energy that was in existence and then is no longer in existence because it has become or gone into a Black Hole?
A: Reflection is regenerated at level 1 as primal atoms. 1st density includes all physical matter below the level of consciousness. Seventh density is union with the one… it is timeless in every sense of the word, as its “essence” radiates through all that exists in all possible awareness realms. And, remember, there is only one “God”, and that the creator includes all that is created and vice versa!
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Q: (L) Okay, who created the Cassiopaeans?
A: Your super ancient spiritual ancestors.
Q: (L) Do these beings have a name?
A: No. They are Transient passengers.
Q: (L) What is the meaning of this term and who are these beings?
A: Transient passengers are not beings. Transient passengers are unified thought form.
Q: (L) Why are they called Transient Passengers?
A: Because they transit all forms of reality. And they spring forth from the Unified form of existence.
Q: (L) Well, are these Transient Passengers Realms?
A: Yes. So are you.
Q: (L) Are the sixth density Orions, also known as Transient Passengers, are they the same Transient Passengers that have been referred to as the ones who genetically engineered us or put us here?
A: Close. They are Wave riders.
Q: (L) Is “riding The Wave” part of the definition of Transient Passengers?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they like to ride this wave?
A: Is it “fun” for you to live on earth?
Q: (L) Well, I like living on earth a great deal, but I don’t like pain and suffering, and I don’t like man’s inhumanity to man and I don’t like to see other people suffer.
A: Do you live on earth for amusement?
Q: (L) I would like to live on Earth for amusement but I haven’t had a whole heck of a lot of laughs since I have been here this time. I would like to have a life on the planet where things were pleasant…
A: You misunderstood.
Q: (L) I see what you are saying. That’s where they live because that’s where they live.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are there Service-to-Self beings at sixth density that some call the sixth density Orions?
A: These are only reflections of individuals, not unified entities. These reflections exist for balance. They are not whole entities, just thought forms.
Q: (L) Are these sixth density beings what the Bible describes as a “gathering” of angels as in the story of Job where “Lucifer” came in before the Lord…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in addition to STO, there are STS at sixth density which balance? And they are just there, they exist?
A: Reflection for balance.
Q: (L) Is there any kind of hierarchy to this thing? Do these beings come before some kind of “Grand Council” and make plans and discuss things, and make decisions and implement them?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, how do things happen? Do things just sort of happen as a natural interaction of things and energies?
A: Yes.
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Q: (L) You say that you are unified thought forms in the realm of knowledge.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Ibn al-’Arabi describes unified thought forms as being the “Names of God”. His explication seems to be so identical to things you tell us that I wonder…
A: We are all the names of God. Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance.
Q: (L) What do you mean? Does this mean that we are a part of this?
A: Yes. Don’t deify us. And, be sure all others with which you communicate understand this too! Remember: 1st density includes all physical matter below the level of consciousness. 6th density is uniform in the level pattern of lightness, as there is complete balance on this density level, and the lightness is represented as knowledge. 7th density is union with the one… it is timeless in every sense of the word, as its “essence” radiates through all that exists in all possible awareness realms. The light one sees at the termination of each conscious physical manifestation is the Union, itself. Remember, 4th density is the first that includes variable physicality!! Ponder this carefully!!! And, remember, there is only one “God”, and that the creator includes all that is created and vice versa!
Now, let’s form a little hypothesis here — a working model. Let’s say that Unified Thought Forms at sixth density are the Names of God. This is a level of pure consciousness; the Platonic level of ideas, or essences or noumena.
The sixth density level of knowledge of all would be just “below” the One at seventh density. We would call this the Name of Knowledge; it is the logos or “word” that engenders all existence. It could be symbolized by the ancient yin-yang symbol since it includes all of the Names. It could also be symbolized as the universal hermaphrodite or androgyne. It is the “Two in One” where the work of generation begins. It is the first manifestation of the eternal parent and is a bisexual universal being. It combines within itself the elements and principles of both masculinity and femininity. However, we have to note the distinction between knowledge of all and the Wrathful and Beautiful Names.
In trying to think through this idea, I wanted to have a visual image. I struggled for months to think of a way to present it with little success. Finally, it occurred to me that the Cabalistic Tree of Life might be a useful form to work with. I found an image in a book and it didn’t seem quite the thing, but I thought I could play with it a bit, modify it, and get it to do what I wanted, so I scanned it onto the computer. When I did, the way the scanner was sitting forced me to place the book upside-down. When the image came up on the screen, upside-down, I immediately recognized that this was useful! So here is my little modification of the Tree of Life that represents the cosmos, or body of God.
Now, I want you to notice first of all that the vertical axis has seventh density union with the One at the top, and first density matter at the bottom. If I were able to present this in a hyperdimensional manner, the position at the top would include Being and Non-being that serves as a sort of möbius connection between first density and seventh. In other words, they are not really separate — they connect in an endless cycle. “The beginning emerges from the end and vice versa.” It might be useful to think of a tesseract so as to realize this is a three-dimensional representation of something that is not three-dimensional!1
Now, the next thing we want to consider about this vertical axis is the placement of the sixth density level of Knowledge on the vertical axis as a mirror image of the placement of second density as the realm of nature, that is, flora and fauna. There is an important key here that we must realize. If sixth density is “uniform in the level pattern of lightness, as there is complete balance on this density level, and the lightness is represented as knowledge”, then we must think of the realm of nature as being the physical reflection of this principle. That is to say, nature — all of creation — is a reflection of all of consciousness.
We also notice that second density is only able to recycle through fifth density in order to graduate to any of the other densities, and this is reflected in our observations of nature. We do not ever see any creatures from the animal kingdom suddenly developing self-consciousness in the sense of the nature of human consciousness.
Actually, we don’t necessarily have any hard evidence that it is possible for humans to graduate to the higher densities which might be indicated by the lateral axes in the figure that show direct channels between third, fourth and sixth densities. Yet we have been told that this is possible; there is circumstantial evidence in esoteric literature that this has occurred.
We do have some idea that certain divine beings who have appeared throughout history have a more or less human form. So we might assume that, generally speaking, there is not so great a barrier between our third density state and the higher densities as there is between second density and the densities that are reflected in human self-consciousness and awareness.
So, second density is shown without a direct conduit to the higher densities except through fifth, the “recycling zone”.
One thing that occurs to me as I look at this little modification of the Tree of Life is that it sure seems to model and define in pretty simple and precise terms the relationships we are coming to understand about our reality, as well as the potentials for moving from one point on the Tree to another. But, don’t think that I have even begun to analyze and think of all the possibilities. I am hoping that the reader will see things that have not even occurred to me.
It should be understood, again, that the conduits of connection are actually hyperdimensional in nature and not really separated as they appear on the model. Not only that, but the two lateral axes identified as STS and STO represent literally infinite dimensions in number. These dimensions can represent different Names of God and their extensions down through the densities either as single individuals or as groups of individuals. However, there is always balance, so for every STO axis there is an equal and corresponding STS axis.
Another thing that occurs to me as I examine the relationships is that from any of the lateral axes, by accessing nature/knowledge one is also aligning with the vertical axis of Being which could be defined as the axis of gravity within each of us. Perhaps by aligning with this axis, one could theoretically open a doorway into this axis. Once one was in this axis, one could then open a doorway into any of the other positions of either the lateral or vertical axes. Of course, talking about it and doing it are two different things! Apparently this is one of the aspects of the great Work of alchemy. And in studying alchemy we find some warnings that would do us well to heed.
The alchemists wrote that the study and contemplation of the metaphorical philosopher’s stone along with the chemical work was a necessary component to elevate the mind and prepare the soul for transmutation.
By invigorating the Organs the Soul uses for communicating with exterior objects, the Soul must acquire greater powers not only for conception but also for retention, and therefore if we wish to obtain still more knowledge, the organs and secret springs of physical life must be wonderfully strengthened and invigorated. The Soul must acquire new powers for conceiving and retaining. … That this has not been the case with all possessors was their own fault. … Those who study only the material elements can at best discover only half the mystery… alchemy is a mystery in three worlds — the divine, the human and the elemental… alchemy in the hands of the profane becomes perverted…
Man’s quest for gold is often his undoing, for he mistakes the alchemical processes, believing them to be purely material. He does not realize that the Philosopher’s Gold, the Philosopher’s Stone, and the Philosopher’s Medicine exist in each of the four worlds and that the consummation of the experiment cannot be realized until it is successfully carried on in four worlds simultaneously according to one formula.
Furthermore, one of the constituents of the alchemical formula exists only within the nature of man himself, without which his chemicals will not combine, and though he spend his life and fortune in chemical experimentation, he will not produce the desired end [which is] the subtle element which comes out of the nature of the illuminated and regenerated alchemist. He must have the magnetic power to attract and coagulate invisible astral elements. (Eugenius Philalethes, quoted in Hall, 1988; emphasis added)
The alchemical literature includes stories of alchemists who blew themselves up, who suffered horrible diseases, who came under the power of demonic influences because their technical abilities surpassed their spiritual development, or who shot to stardom like a meteor, and then crashed and burned in ignominy.
But, we are gathering more clues here. We have a remark that “alchemy is a mystery in three worlds”, and that the work takes place in four worlds simultaneously. The three worlds are defined as “divine, human and elemental”. The Cassiopaeans have also talked about these three worlds:
October 5, 1996
A: Each soul has its own patterning, which is held in place by the three bodies of existence “thought center, spirit center and physical center”. There are specific methodologies for adjusting these, and traveling into or out of other planes of existence. When one does not properly utilize these, one tears the fabric of their trilateral continuum when they seek to travel. This can be very problematic, and may lead to the soul being unable to reconnect with the body, thus causing the physical center to perish!!!
They have also spoken of the “four worlds”.
October 10, 1998
A: And remember, your consciousness operates on four levels, not just one! [They are] Physical body, genetic body, spirit-etheric body, and consciousness. [These are] the four composites of the human manifestation in 3rd and 4th densities.
Now, as I pondered these things, it occurred to me that this modified Tree of Life could be used to represent each individual human being since, as the Cassiopaeans have pointed out, all of creation exists within each and every one of us. When we align with the central axis, we are aligned with seventh density, which is the origin of all other engendered beings, and we thereby have access to all of Creation in very literal terms.
However, since man is a mirror image of God, we now need to reverse the image as the Cabalists constructed it with, again, my little modifications.
Now, look at this Tree. Note that, on the vertical axis, below the level of Union with the One, or seventh density, there are four positions. If this is the relationship we are looking for, then we see that the physical body relates to first density matter, the genetic body relates to second density, the spirit-etheric body relates to fifth density, and consciousness relates to sixth density knowledge. At the same time, we always retain our connection to seventh density, so that must be considered the pivot or “true dimension”.
Q: (L) Physicists talk about multi-dimensional universes. The idea is that our three-dimensional space and one-dimensional time is an illusion of plane beings, while the true universe has more dimensions perpendicular to the above ones. Physicists have different guesses here: 5, 6, 7, 11, 256. How many dimensions does the true universe have?
A: Not correct concept. Should be: How many universes does the “true” dimension have?
Q: (L) All right, then. I think that from a previous session we were told that the number of universes was not countable. Is that correct?
A: Infinite, maybe, but more to the point: variable and selective.
Q: (L) Explain variable and selective, please?
A: For those who know how, universes can be created at will in order to transmodify reality merge.
Q: (L) What is a reality merge?
A: What does it sound like?
Q: (T) Merging of realities from one universe into another? A creating of a new reality which is then merged with the old to create a new universe. (L) Maybe it means the realities of different people merge to create a sort of “mutual universe”? Like the idea “you create your own reality”?
A: T is closer; Laura is playing “left field”.
Q: (T) A structure of the universe that holds the levels together… everything is connected. The consciousness of sixth density is perfectly bonded and balanced with third density, and the quasi-physical level of fourth density, and the totally physical levels three through one, and the total One of seventh, and whatever fifth is. (L) We have four levels of physical expression, so to speak, going from the really solid, minimal consciousness level one to…
A: Yes, but the Terran scientists have been programmed to believe that nothing can exist unless it can be measured, estimated, calculated and represented in some way in the physical material plane. Not true!!!!!!! For example: We are in no way physical.
Q: (L) Well, I also want to know why you refer to a technological device that supposedly transports someone from one density to another, as a “Trans-Dimensional Atomic Remolecularizer”?
A: In order to reconstruct 3rd density into 4th density physical, other dimensions must be utilized in the process. Remember, we are talking about exact duplicates which are merged.
Q: (L) But, a little while ago you said there was a single dimension and many universes, and now you are saying utilizing another dimension, so the terminology is getting to be a little bit confusing… (T) It is like a program loading onto a computer. Some programs just load straight in. Others need to create a space on the hard drive to put files that they need to load the program, but are not part of the program, and when it is finished loading, it erases all the “loading instructions”. The hard drive is still the hard drive, but for a time, the program used a sector of the hard drive, and created a temporary dimension, let’s say. (L) Is this what we are looking at here?
A: Close. And remember, we said “true” dimension!
Q: (L) So, it is like one hard drive, many programs, loading instructions for new programs that are then erased, etc. If there is one “true dimension”, and infinite universes within it, does one particular universe exist, of and by itself, at any given time, until it is merged into a new one, or is there within this one true dimension, multiple universes as real as ours is, to which we could go, and could be there alongside ours, so to speak?
A: Yes to the latter.
Q: (L) And, can infinite numbers of “dimensions” exist within each level of density, even if temporary?
A: Yes. If you want to go back and change “history”, either for individuals or for universal perception, you must first create an alternate universe to do it. Your 4th density STS “friends” have been doing this a lot.
Q: (L) If you, being a general term, create an alternate universe, does the former one continue to exist, or does the former one merge into the new one?
A: Both.
Q: (L) If the former one continues to exist, does it exist and evolve on its own, disassociated with the second one, or this offshoot?
A: Clarify.
Q: (T) The universe you are in: you are going along and say, “I think I will create a new Universe”. You do it, and move to it, and you bring your universe with you. That is the merging of realities. But, when you move to the new universe, you are no longer in the original one, which continues along on its own. The pattern of the old universe, you bring into the new one, and when you become part of the new universe you have just created, you are no longer part of the old one you just left which just goes along with everybody else there, only without you. Is this possible?
A: Sort of… remember, one can create all ranges of types of alternate possibilities.
Q: (L) So you could create a new universe with a new “past”, even?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in that way, both actually occur and you can change the whole thing?
A: When merged, the former never existed.
Q: (T) Not for the person creating the new universe, but the former will continue for everybody else.
A: Close.
Q: (L) So, for the person creating a new universe, the former never existed, but the other beings who are satisfied with that old universe, and “go” with it, are still continuing along as though…
A: Your 3rd density mind restrictions limit the scope of your comprehension in this area.
Q: (L) If you decide you don’t like your present universe, and you work like crazy to learn how to create a new one, and you do it, do you, essentially, forget that you did this? And why you did this? And forget the other universe?
A: If you wish.
Q: (L) So you can or you can’t… (T) Going by what you just said: “an unhappy universe” exists maybe because you’re perceiving the universe you are in as being unhappy because that is the way you are and where you are at, in terms of learning, and by creating a new universe, you are simply wishing to change the way the universe is around you, and really it’s not the universe that has a problem, but you…
A: Off track. [So much for that version of “you create your own reality”!]
Q: (L) So, the universe you are in, is what it is, and you are in it for some reason… (T) You’re in it to learn lessons… just to change the universe because you don’t want to learn the lessons you’ve chosen to learn… (L) Or, you have learned them and thereby can change the universe… (T) When you learn, you just move on automatically, you don’t have to change the universe. The universe will change for you.
A: Deja vu comes to you compliments of 4th density STS.
Q: (L) Is deja vu a result of some sensation of the universe having changed?
A: Or… some sensation of reality bridging.
Q: (L) What is reality bridging?
A: What does it sound like?
Q: (T) A bridge is something you put between two things…
A: You wish to limit, wait till 4th density, when the word will be obsolete!
Q: (L) That still doesn’t help me to understand deja vu as a “sensation of reality bridging”. Is deja vu because something comes into our reality from another?
A: One possibility.
Q: (T) Didn’t we talk about this? That it is a bleed through from other dimensions… that when we think we have been someplace before, it is because in another dimension we have…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If you are now in a particular universe that has been created and merged by fourth density STS, and there is still the old universe existing, and you feel a connection, or a bridging, because some alternate self is in that alternate universe, living through some experience… or a similar thing?
A: No limits of possibilities.
Q: (L) So it can be any and all of those things, and bridging realities of “past” and “future”, as well. Is it possible to change the past within a discrete universe, or does every change imply a new or alternate universe?
A: Discrete does not get it.
Q: (L) Well, within a particular, selected one of the universes, can you go back in time, within that universe, change the past, and have it change everything forward, still within that selected universe, like a domino effect?
A: In such a case, yes.
Q: (L) But, you said that if you want to change the past, you have to create an alternate universe… (T) No, you asked about changing the past, and they said you have to create a temporary place to work from, a position from which you can manipulate the reality…
A: That is for specialized activities. What was described is not the same as an “alternate universe”.
Q: (L) It is a temporary file that will go away when you are finished loading the program. And that is not creating an alternate universe, but rather a temporary dimension…
A: Close.
Q: (L) In our particular universe, what is the primary mode? Are we constantly shifting and merging universe to universe, or is our past being changed and reacting like the domino effect… at least in the past few years… (T) But, we wouldn’t know if the past has been changed because we wouldn’t see it…
A: Measurements are inadequate.
Q: (L) Is it that any and all possibilities will and do take place?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) Are the words “universe” and “dimension” synonymous?
A: Yes and no. For you, these are “gray” areas, and no matter how hard you try, until your perception shifts fundamentally, you ain’t gonna get it!
Q: (L) Okay, there are four physical densities…
A: No, three.
Q: (L) Okay, there are three physical densities, and the fourth is…
A: One is variable. Three ethereal.
Q: (L) Okay, three that are physical, three ethereal, and one in between that is both.
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is awareness the only thing that determines what density one exists in?
A: No. Awareness is the bond that unites the reality.
Q: (L) You have said that gravity is the binder of all reality.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And now you talk about perception bonding.
A: Yes. Now, try to picture how gravity is the binder of all reality!!!
Q: (L) If gravity is the binder, is gravity consciousness?
A: Not exactly. Did you know that there is no “right” or “left” in 4th density through 7th density? If you can picture this exactly, then you may be able to understand the responses to all the questions you are asking. If not, best “give it a rest”. Because it will only be productive learning when you ponder and reflect/review “later”.
Regarding the three worlds, divine, human and elemental — or, as the Cassiopaeans put it, the soul’s three bodies of existence: thought center, spirit center, and physical center — we look again at the tree and note that each of the lateral axes has three positions: sixth density, fourth density, and third density. In other words, our third density physical body is directly connected to our spirit center at fourth density, which emerges from the sixth density thought center, which is the level of the Names of God.
However, in keeping with our mirror image of the cosmic tree, we have designated the two axes as STS (entropic) and STO (creative). On the STS axis, beings that graduate become more and more “encapsulated” until, at fifth density, they exist completely in entropic thought with no activity whatsoever. At some point, these contractile energies gain sufficient “weight” to graduate to sixth density, at which point, in contact with knowledge of all, they perceive their true function which is to regenerate at level One as primal atoms. They become matter. This occurs at the same instant that STO energies have gained weight on an opposing axis, and rise to union with the One. In short, a constant cycling.
Q: (T) Now, another force in what we term as the past, defeated you and used the power of the light in order to alter us in different ways, is this correct?
A: Yes. Now understand this: It is all part of natural grand cycle.
Q: (L) You say it is a natural thing or part of a natural grand cycle. Is this natural grand cycle just part of the interaction between light and darkness, which just simply must be?
A: Yes. We are at “front line” of universe’s natural system of balance. That is where one rises to before reaching total union of “The One”. 6th level.
Q: (T) Now, the battle you had with the other side…
A: Are having.
Q: (T) This battle goes on… do you have the light power back?
A: Never lost it, you did.
Q: (T) Okay, I guess that for us the Lizzies are the main force even though they have others on their side…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) They took our light, not yours?
A: Not against you. Currently in union with you.
Q: (T) So we are but one battle in the universe in an overall, ongoing struggle?
A: Yes. Balance is natural. Remember, it’s all just lessons in the grand cycle.
Q: (T) When we put out energy as positive or negative energy, there are beings on other levels that feed on this energy. Is this true?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Okay, and you said that the Lizzies feed on the negative energy?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Who feeds on the positive energy?
A: You do.
Q: (T) How do we feed on the positive energy?
A: Progression toward union with the one, i.e., level 7.
Q: (L) In other words, you fuel your own generator instead of fueling someone else’s. (T) You are at level six, what do you feed on?
A: You have the wrong concept. We give to others and receive from others of the STO. We feed each other.
Q: (L) So, by feeding each other you move forward and grow but those of the STS path do not feed each other so must feed off of others. (T) Now, you are talking to us now. This is considered STO?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) We are providing energy for the channel also, does that provide you with energy?
A: No.
Q: (L) What do you want from us?
A: We don’t want when pure STO. We came because YOU wanted. But that is STS until you share with others.
Q: (S) Why are you choosing Laura and Frank to transmit this information?
A: Because balancing fields are correct.
Q: (B) Is this channeling going to go beyond the primitive method of one letter at a time, or is it going to go into the method of writing or typing or direct channeling consciously or unconsciously?
A: Can now, less danger of corruption through this method.
Q: (B) What is the purpose of this contact?
A: To help you to learn, thus gain knowledge, thus gain protection, thus progress.
Q: (B) What do the Cassiopaeans gain from this contact?
A: By helping you, we are moving toward fulfilling of our destiny of union with you and all else, thus completing the Grand cycle.
Q: (B) Is this the only probability open to you or is this the best probability open to you?
A: Both.
Q: (B) Are you a great distance from us in light years?
A: Distance is a 3rd density idea.
Q: (B) Light years is third density?
A: Yes.
Q: (B) What do you mean by traveling on The Wave?
A: Traveling on thoughts.
Q: (L) Whose thoughts are they?
A: Thoughts unify all reality in existence and are all shared.
Q: (S) You travel on a wave of energy created by all thought forms?
A: Thought forms are all that exists!
Q: (B) Have those that are STS acknowledged that those that are STO are going to win in this race or conflict?
A: No, absolutely not! In fact, the STS cannot conceive of “losing” but instinctively feel pressure building upon them, that is the reason for the impending turmoil.
Q: (B) What happens to them when they lose, does this mean that they are degaussed, or does that mean that they have to go back and do the whole evolutionary process all over again on the other polarity?
A: Latter.
Q: (B) So, there is a nexus point coming up?
A: Close. When we said “close” we meant concept was “close” to reality. Not close in terms of time or distance.
Q: (B) At that point do they experience the pain that they have caused?
A: No, that is what happens on 5th level only.
When considering thought centers, a particular remark of the Cassiopaeans may give us another clue for our quest:
August 12, 1995
A: Remember, most all power necessary for altering reality and physicality is contained within the belief center of the mind. This is something you will understand more closely when you reach 4th density reality where physicality is no longer a prison, but is instead, your home, for you to alter as you please. In your current state, you have the misinterpretation of believing that reality is finite and therein lies your difficulty with finite physical existence. We are surprised that you are still not able to completely grasp this concept.
This suggests to us that the way to change our reality is to access something called a thought center or “belief” center. The only problem is, it seems that by aligning ourselves with the fourth density Service-to-Self reality, we have also come under the domination of the STS thought center or control center. Let’s have a look at some of the references to thought centers to determine if we can sort out the matter:
Q: (L) Who created the Lizzies?
A: Ormethion.
Q: (L) And who is this individual?
A: Thought center.
Q: (L) Located where?
A: Everywhere.
Q: (L) Can you give us a little more of a clue?
A: Another sector of reality.
Q: (L) Is this a sentient, self-aware being that created the Lizzies?
A: Yes and no.
Q: (L) And who created this Ormethion?
A: Not being. Thought center.
One thing we notice is that thought centers are slightly different from unified thought forms that are identified as transient passengers. This is another clue that our Tree of Life model is set up correctly, since the unified thought forms would exist at the sixth density level of knowledge, which contains the thought of STS for balance, but no STS unified thought beings, so to say. But, the thought center realm is apparently a sixth density level of being in a relative sense. The difference is easily identified by looking at the tree. The sixth density thought center for STS does not transit all densities and realities — it is restricted to the STS realm. The same is true for the purely STO thought center level — it is restricted to the STO realm. However, the sixth density unified consciousness level is located on the central, vertical axis as the logoic offspring of seventh density.
Q: (L) Where does gravity emanate from?
A: Thought center.
Q: (L) You have mentioned thought centers of many occasions. Is there more than one?
A: All are one and all.
Q: (L) If you have a thought center, how do thought centers relate to seventh density, the One?
A: Exactly!
Q: (L) Are thought centers seventh density?
A: All is.
Q: (L) All is thought centers?
A: No. All is 7th density. We have told you before that gravity is the foundational force of absolutely everything!!! This means at all density levels, all dimensions… It is the “stuff” of all existence. Without it, nothing would exist. Your thoughts are based in gravity, too!!
On the occasion of the board photograph discussed in Riding the Wave and Secret History, thought centers were also mentioned in a way that gives us another clue to their significance:
Q: (L) What is this geometric figure?
A: Was a visual representation of the conduit, indeed!!! The reason for such clear luminescence is that thought centers were clear and open in you at the moment of the photograph. In other words, there was an imbalance of energy coming from 6th density transmission point.
This suggests that I was in a state of total non-anticipation at the moment of the photograph, which allowed a sort of “zero-point energy” function to activate in a psychic way. But, more importantly, it suggests the idea that we are connected via some sort of conduit to these archetypal thought centers as depicted in our Tree of Life image.
Another remark about thought centers demonstrates again that our Tree of Life figure is going to take us somewhere:
A: First of all, confusion abounds here due to incorrect interpretations of the last subject discussed. Dimensions are not densities!!!! Dimensions are strictly the result of the universal consciousness as manifested in the imagination sector of thought. Density means level of development as measured in terms of closeness to union with the one…
We might think, then, that the lateral axes represent dimensions resulting from various thought centers. And, again, we cannot limit them to just two, since they may be infinite even if they do fall under the general categories of STS and STO or the Wrathful and Beautiful Names of God.
In trying to understand the relationships of our given position at the third density level to the vertical lateral axes, or the densities three, four, and six, to which we are connected in a direct way, we might look at this bit of information as a clue:
Q: (A) Which part of a human extends into fourth density?
A: That which is effected by pituitary gland.
Q: (L) And what is that?
A: Psychic.
Q: (A) Are there some particular DNA sequences that facilitate transmission between densities?
A: Addition of strands.
Q: (L) How do you get added strands?
A: You don’t get; you receive.
Q: (L) Where are they received from?
A: Interaction with upcoming wave, if vibration is aligned.
Q: (L) How do you know if this is happening?
A: Psychophysiological changes manifest.
Q: (A) When you speak of an upcoming wave, it is a wave of what?
A: Think of it as a wave of reflection from the beginning and end point.
Q: (A) But what vibrates? Energy? Aether?
A: Energy and aether are directly symbiotic. “Aether” is Terran material science’s attempt to address ether. The trouble is, there is simply no way to physicalize a plane of existence, which is composed entirely of consciousness. It is the union of perfect balance between the two “states” or planes that is the foundation and essence of all creation/reality. You cannot have one without the other!
Q: (L) When you say the two states or planes, you are saying the physical state and the state of consciousness…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you can’t have one without the other. And the state of consciousness and the state of material existence are so completely connected, that both are infinite? One cannot exist without the other…
A: Yes, connected, intertwined, bonded… Merged.
Q: (A) When this aether-energy-matter vibrates, then in which dimension does it do this?
A: The densities three and four at transition junction.
Q: (A) If not in linear time, then in what?
A: Cyclical “time”.
Q: (A) What measures the distance between one crest and another?
A: Ending/beginning of cycle.
Q: (A) Is DNA acting as a superconductor?
A: Yes!!! But variably.
Q: (A) I am trying to understand the universe in terms of a triad: matter — geometry — information. Is it the right idea?
A: If one thinks of matter as “living” rather than “dead”. And now, when you merge densities, or traverse densities, what you have is the merging of physical reality and ethereal reality, which involves thought form versus physicality. When you can merge those perfectly, what you realize then, is that the reason there is no beginning and no end is merely because there is no need for you to contemplate a beginning or an end after you have completed your development. When you are at union with the One at Seventh density, that is when you have accomplished this and then there is no longer any need for difference between physical and ethereal forms.
This brings us back in a curious way to the study of nature — all of Creation — as a means of drawing closer in alignment with the central, vertical axis.
By invigorating the Organs the Soul uses for communicating with exterior objects, the Soul must a acquire greater powers not only for conception but also for retention, and therefore if we wish to obtain still more knowledge, the organs and secret springs of physical life must be wonderfully strengthened and invigorated.
In a previous segment, the pituitary connection was mentioned, and now, it becomes more significant:
Stones were once utilized to provide for all needs, as the energies transmitted connected directly with the pituitary gland to connect spiritual realities with the material realms of 3rd and 4th densities. So you see, the ‘stone’ was viewed as Matriarchal indeed!
And the alchemists say:
The study and contemplation of the metaphorical “Philosopher’s Stone” along with the chemical work was a necessary component to elevate the mind and prepare the soul for transmutation.
The Cassiopaeans relate the alchemical transmutation to fourth density:
Q: (L) Were the beings involved in this type of activity third density, fourth density or bi-density?
A: Originally 4th when home was in other locators.
Q: (L) Could it be said that the pituitary gland itself is the body’s own “mother stone”?
A: If you prefer.
Q: (J) What exactly is the function of the pituitary gland in your references to Stonehenge?
A: This gland is your uplink.
Q: (L) Is it possible that the pituitary can be stimulated by external sources such as radio waves, waves from a supernova, or other frequencies in the environment?
A: Yes and experiments have ensued.
Q: (L) Would it be beneficial for us to experiment with such things?
A: Not wise. You could fry yourself in your zeal.
Regarding the strictly physical aspects of our being, we look again at our Tree of Life and note specifically the arrangement of third, fourth and sixth densities on the lateral axes. The third density position is directly connected with fifth density contemplation zone, as are all the other densities. The Cassiopaeans once remarked about the chakras that:
A: First of all, “chakras” are a little understood and nonproven phenomenon. Now, it just so happens they do exist, but in different form than reported by many in the so-called “psychic” community.
Q: (L) What, exactly, is a chakra?
A: An energy field that merges density one, two, three or four with five. You are all connected with level five when you are on a short wave cycle. Chakras are the connection with physical imprint locator.
Getting back to our hypothesis about archetypes, centers, and Names of God, let me propose that fourth density is a realm where the archetypes are embodied in group souls. These group souls then have extensions of themselves into the third density reality in the same way a hand has five fingers. Only in these projections, each finger is a different lifetime of an individual soul, which lifetimes are not limited to sequential experience; and we cannot limit the number of hands or fingers. In this sense, it could be said that third density is a projection of sixth density through the “lens” of fourth density.
Q: (D) When fourth density beings communicate it’s telepathic, right?
A: Yes.
Q: (D) Okay, since time doesn’t exist, how do you communicate about happenings? If you’re communicating telepathically on fourth density, and time doesn’t exist, how do you communicate about events as one happens now, as opposed to later, and the next thing happens, and the next thing happens? (J) How is it sequential?
A: Translate.
Q: (D) Okay, let me explain what I mean. I mean, we talk about 1907 something happened…
A: That is how it is done.
Q: (T) You translate the experience?
A: From 4th density to 3rd density. And vice versa.
Q: (L) So, in other words, it’s almost like making movies. So, in other words, if you’re a fourth density being, everything is more or less happening, excuse the term happening, everything is simultaneous, and if you wish to discuss or communicate or have any focus upon any particular aspect of this unified dimension, then what you do is you kind of extract it out, project it into third density like a movie…
A: Close. But you will not understand fully until you get there.
Now, each of these archetypal qualities or Names of God manifest on fourth density in archetypal dramas. This relates us back to Mircea Eliade’s concept of the archetypal gesture — illud tempus — from the beginning.
Every hero repeated the archetypal gesture, every war rehearsed the struggle between good and evil, every fresh social injustice was identified with the passion of a divine messenger, each new massacre repeated the glorious end of the martyrs. … All religious acts are held to have been founded by gods, civilizing heroes, or mythical ancestors. … Not only do rituals have their mythical models, but any human act whatever acquires effectiveness to the extent to which it exactly repeats an act performed at the beginning of time by a god, a hero, or an ancestor. (Eliade, 1954)
This expresses the idea that the world in which we live is a form, or reflection or double of another cosmic world that exists on a higher level. These were celestial archetypes.
Q: (L) Earlier Eva and I were talking on the phone about mythological figures possibly representing group souls. That is, on our level of third density, groups of individuals who are separated by flesh, might be extensions of group souls at a higher level…
A: Whom does Zeus represent?
Q: (F) The father of the gods?
A: And the implication is…?
Q: (L) Does Zeus represent seventh density?
A: Or does Zeus represent the grasping for 7th density?
Q: (L) Are we saying grasping in ways that are not suitable?
A: No grasping is “not suitable”.
Q: (L) Okay. Are we all pieces of… are there groups and groups and groups that are pieces of a larger whole, or larger wholes, and they can only graduate when they assemble?
A: More to the point would be that that makes the progress speed up for most of those involved in such a process.
Q: (C) Are we part of a group soul or group entity?
A: What do you think?
Q: (C) Yes.
A: And…
Q: (C) I think that we are part of a group soul… whatever that means, we have a purpose; I think we have a similar interest, and that is to discover the truth. And it is also to advance us.
A: And…
Q: (C) When one group advances, then it filters down to others…
A: How does it “filter down”?
Q: (C) Because I believe that all are connected.
A: How so?
Q: (L) I get it! The Zeus thing. The whole Zeus thing, the bearing of children, the moving out in all these various ways, manifestations or patterns as defined by the “children of the gods” through all the various levels, so that it eventually all comes back around to seventh density.
A: and what does it mean when it “comes back around”?
Q: (L) Union with the One. And it all just keeps going around and around.
A: And C*** says…
Q: (C) If we are patterned after the myths of Zeus, and we have gone forth, and there are lots of smatterings of fragments upon the earth having many experiences, and as we grow and advance, we come to the truth and the full meaning, we merge back together again with all of the wisdom of all of these experiences.
A: Yes, but is not just the “Earth”.
Q: (C) They are in the same process.
A: Yes.
Q: (C) Do they have different myths?
A: They have different everything… But, in the final analysis, it is really just the same!
Q: (C) Then I would say that when everyone graduates from their finite, physical existence, then they occupy the same space at a different vibration, and go onto other lessons and experiences and advances that I cannot conceive of at the moment.
A: But what is “the moment”?
Q: (C) The moment? I haven’t thought that far ahead yet!
A: Or have you, but you simply do not perceive it as such?
Q: (C) Probably so. How many people are in this particular group that Laura and I are in, for the purpose of this work?
A: Up to you to discover.
Q: (C) Well, I thought I’d give it a shot! Thinking is electrical. Does a person leave an electrical echo and can certain combinations produce harmony which is cumulative and exponential, thereby certain groups thinking can produce more than others, or individually?
A: Close. Now, Suggestion: Combine frequencies to witness the development of a directed wave effect; packs a potent “punch”.
Q: (LC) I’m really curious. I feel like all of us here have been drawn together for a reason. We had a hell of a time getting here, every one of us, but we did, and I’m just wondering what is this all about? Why did all of us feel so drawn that we just had to be here?
A: You are not wondering so much as you are seeking confirmation.
Q: (LC) I don’t know. I just feel something powerful.
A: Every one here thinks on more than one level. This already puts everyone into a different category than the status quo. You all have quite well developed senses, a more difficult task is learning to trust the messages. Remember, you all have received negative programming at the third density level, which is designed to derail your higher psychic awareness. You by now know that this is false programming, but we realize that the subconscious centers are more difficult for you to overcome. Patience will pay off for you big time!!!
Q: (P) This is my feeling about the whole thing: us coming together, the energy created by each of us being in each other’s presence is a key; it’s unlocking something that we agreed to come together at this time, though it may not be apparent now, it’s going to be. That’s the way I have felt about this whole thing. (LC) Okay, another question, and this is a kind of selfish one I am thinking about…
A: Wait a minute, remember, your plane of existence is STS by its very nature and that is okay, because you’re all where you are for a reason… Now L***, fire away and be just as selfish as you please, dear. [Laughter]
Q: (LC) Well, if that’s the case! I want to ask about past life relations between us. I’m sure there is. Are there any specific past life connections between any of the women in this room?
A: Before we answer that, we wish to hear from you what you perceive a past life circumstance to be. How do you perceive the reincarnation process to be?
Q: (LC) I perceive it as you come back with people you choose to come back with, and that you choose people that you are karmically connected to. (I) I see it a little bit differently than that…
A: Aha! We have a variance!
Q: (I) I think that when we die and go to fifth density, that we make pacts with people in each incarnation, so when you come back, it is coming back to fulfill that pact. (LC) Yes, that is the way my line of thinking is going. But, when they asked that question, I was thinking that you have people you come back with because of closeness. Somebody may be your mother in one life, and there is a love bond, and then there are other people that you come back with because you have to resolve something to let go of that person rather than to get closer.
A: This is partially correct. But, there is more to it than this. For example, one can incarnate on various planes of existence, not just the one you perceive currently. And, one may actually reincarnate on more than one plane concurrently, if one is advanced enough to do this.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that that we are all part of the same soul unit here?
A: Yes, we are! To an extent, but you may not yet understand what exactly a “soul unit” is in that sense. And of course, there is more than one sense for this as well. The “trick” that 3rd density STS life forms will learn, either prior to transition to 4th density, or at the exact juncture, is to think in absolutely limitless terms. The first and most solid step in this process is to not anticipate at all. This is most difficult for you. We understand this, but this is also why we keep reiterating this point. For example, imagine if one of your past lives is also a future life?
Q: (P) Now, I just want to say that I think that we have all of us here traveled back in time to change the way things are now. We inserted ourselves into this time period to wake up and see what is really happening. This is third density thinking, I know, but it is the only way I can describe it. We looked back on the way things happened, the way the world is now, and we have come back to change things. We have come from the future, to wake up now, because we didn’t wake up before. Because the world is going in this direction, and something had to be done. That’s what I see. Not just that, things happen to keep us from waking up period! We’ve all been bombarded with stuff all our lives.
A: That is surprisingly close to the truth. Now just a moment… reflect please.
Q: (L) P*** was saying that we have come back from the future and inserted ourselves into this timeline…
A: Yes. That is close to being totally correct!
Q: (L) In terms of reincarnation, which we were talking about a few minutes before that, we are possibly incarnations of ourselves incarnated at different levels. This just happens to be one of the levels of reality that we are occupying, but there are other selves at other levels thinking and doing other level stuff, and these other levels are perceived by us as the future…
A: Maybe for some of you, but let us not get ahead of ourselves.
Q: (P) The Cs say that they are us in the future. So, we, being them in the future, some of who they are in the future, have come back as us, to do what we are doing, to undo what is happening on Earth…
A: Close, but more complex than that. It would be difficult for you to completely understand at this point, but let us just say that you are close. You should reflect upon all that is in the reflection!
Q: (L) What is the reason for the use of the term “reflection”?
A: “Alice through the looking glass.”
Q: (L) When she went through the mirror, she was in an alternate reality. (I) Are we in an alternate reality?
A: Yup. But then again, are not all realities “alternate”?
Q: (P) I think we are creating a possibility that would not have existed if we had not come together here.
A: Yes, but that is generally true in most similar circumstances. The question is the degree to which there is significance.
We encounter in these myths the idea that man only repeats the acts of the gods; his calendar commemorates, in the period of a year or other longer cycles, all the cosmogonic phases which took place in the beginning or which take place repeatedly at another level of reality.
Myths are only a much later formulation of an archaic content that presuppose an absolute reality, or levels of reality that are extra-human. If we begin to think that our reality is but a sort of slide show projected from a hyperdimensional realm, we have to begin to think about the archetypal dramas themselves. If we come to the idea that we are extensions of our higher selves, fulfilling the purposes of the great cosmic dramas, we come up against a couple of important concepts.
The first of these concepts is free will. Going back to what the Shaykh Ibn al-‘Arabi had to say about it:
You should know that the divine call includes believer and unbeliever, obedient and disobedient. … This call derives only from the divine names.
One divine name calls to someone who is governed by the property of a second divine name when it knows that the term of the second name’s property within the person has come to an end.
Then this name which calls to him takes over. So it continues in this world and the next.
Hence everything other than God is called by a divine name to come to an engendered state to which that name seeks to attach it.
If the object of the call responds, he is named ‘obedient’ and becomes ‘felicitous’. If he does not respond, he is named ‘disobedient’ and becomes ‘wretched’.” (Futuhat, II 592.32, Chittick, 1989)
This gives us a clue as to the true extent of our so-called free will. Basically, it amounts to the fact that we can identify which archetypal drama we are living and acknowledge it, witness it in our mind, and accelerate or extend the concluding of it. We accelerate by our obedience to the call or we extend it by our rejection and disobedience. In the first case, the outcome can be felicitous if we are careful to finish the drama within the archetype, even if only symbolically, which is often the wisest choice in the event of being caught in a drama of great negative potential. In the second case, we can refuse to acknowledge the drama, continue to struggle against it like a bug striking a window over and over again, and be wretched as a result.
Of course, the problem many people have is in understanding they don’t have to remember their past lives in order to learn. The soul has a memory of its own.
Q: (L) Okay, let me ask this question. In talking about time, I would like to ask, in relation to time, what is memory? Some understanding of time refers to it as the “now”, the ever-present now. Well, a lot of people remember a lot of other “nows”, some people don’t remember any “nows” at all, and it seems like memory is almost like a reverse function of anticipation. Anticipation being almost like a memory of the “future” and memory being like a reverse anticipation into the past. So, what I would like to know is if time is merely a “now”, what is memory?
A: Conscious and subconscious record of perceptions.
Q: (L) Okay. If memory is subconscious or conscious recording of perceptions, when one accumulates a sufficient amount of memory, does one then become “timeless”?
A: One is always timeless.
Q: (L) Okay, but does one then become aware of one’s timelessness?
A: In 4th density.
Q: (L) Okay. Does an electron have a memory?
A: Electron is borrowed unit of 7th density.
Q: (L) All right, in the picture of the crop circle you designated as being “Atomic Structure”, there was the concentric circles and then these three things on the outside corners of the triangle, one being zigzag, one being plain and round, and the other one kind of like a wheel, it had like little divisions. Would the zig-zaggy one be the electron?
A: Not correct concept atomic structure unifies elemental atoms.
Q: (L) What is an elemental atom, as opposed to an ordinary atom?
A: Elemental defines singular body of structure. Within, as in: “element of”. Electron is element of atomic structure.
Q: (L) Is there anything about an atom that holds memory?
A: Memory is subjective, atom is not.
Q: (L) Well, some atoms seem to be somewhat subjective.
A: No, it is your interpretation.
Q: (L) If memory is conscious and subconscious record of perception, as you have stated, and there occurs a “reality merge”, as you also described previously, some sort of time manipulation, does this automatically change individual perceptions?
A: Perceptions “leap” into place according to markers in the eternally present continuum.
Q: (L) What are these markers?
A: Experiential breaks in the perceptual realm of continuance.
Q: (L) Markers are experiential breaks. So, one experiences breaks and they become markers… perceptions leap into place… Is this saying that, when there is a perception of a break, that some part of the psyche seeks to bridge this break by leaping into some sort of…
A: The definition of the previous responses will become clear for you only after some reflection, my dear!
Q: (L) Okay, you said that memory is subjective and an atom is not. If memory is subjective, what you have just been describing means that each and every person has a slightly different perspective, even if they are involved with the same incident or the same time sequence.
A: Of course! That is the treasury of learning.
Q: (L) Who is the treasurer?
A: The learner.
Q: (L) But still, what you said still implies that an atom has an objective existence. Is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Would you please tell us what constitutes objectivity?
A: The effort on the part of the observer to leave prejudice “at the door”.
Q: (L) How does the effort on the part of the observer to leave prejudice at the door relate to the objective existence of an atom?
A: An atom, as with absolutely everything else, cannot exist without an observer.
Q: (L) So, in the case of the objectivity of an atom, if the human observers are not objective, where is the observer who makes the atom objective, or does the atom not exist if there is no observer?
A: Yes to the latter comment.
Q: (L) So there must be an observer. Must the observer be human?
A: The observer must be a consciousness.
Q: (L) If you say that an atom has an objective existence, yet it only exists if it is perceived by a consciousness, then an atom does not have an objective existence, correct?
A: No.
Q: (L) Okay, what is the distinction? You say that objectivity is the attempt on the part of the observer to leave prejudice at the door.
A: Without consciousness, there is neither objective nor subjective!!
Q: (L) So the crux is the attempt to leave prejudice at the door in the same manner as one would be non-anticipatory in order to create?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, that is a very tricky… (A) Is consciousness objective?
A: Consciousness is objective, until it has the capacity to choose to be otherwise.
Q: (L) What is the stimulus for the change, for the giving of the capacity to choose?
A: The introduction of prejudice.
Q: (L) In a cosmic sense, cosmic consciousness, in the sense of The One Unified Consciousness, what is the stimulus there for the ability to choose?
A: When the journey has reached union with The One, all such lessons have been completed.
Q: (L) But, that doesn’t answer the question.
A: Yes, it does!
And this is where the study of nature comes in. In our quotes about nature as a source of knowledge, there was a passage from Psalms:
The heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament shows and proclaims His handiwork. Day after day pours forth speech, and night after night shows forth knowledge. There is no speech nor spoken word; their voice is not heard yet their voice goes out through all the earth, their sayings to the end of the world. (Psalm 19: 1-4)
The Alchemists tell us:
In order to respect the principle of hermetism adopted by the Tradition, we must understand that esoteric teachings are given in a sibylline form. St Isaac the Syrian points out that: The Holy Scriptures say many things by using words in a different sense from their original meaning. Sometimes bodily attributes are applied to the soul, and conversely, attributes of the soul are applied to the body. The Scriptures do not make any distinction here. However, enlightened men understand.
This is the point at which we begin to understand our reality. The Celestial myths are the archaic representations of the archetypes. In studying these stories and their characters we can have access to very deep knowledge about any human situation or drama in which we may find ourselves. We can also identify which character, or part, we are being activated to play. Once we have identified the drama of the moment (which may extend over years or even an entire lifetime, or merely be a mini-drama of a few minutes, hours or days’ duration), we can fully activate our participation with some degree of control.
By recognizing the play, by acknowledging our part, we have formed a link between ourselves and the director, producer and writer of the production at higher densities. We are psychically linked to them in a real and symbiotic way. And, by being linked, we can have access to a free will that is not ordinarily accessible.
Joseph Chilton Pearce was aware that there was something deeper and more involved in our reality than many suppose, and he called it the Cosmic Egg. Well, he may have been more right about this than he ever suspected. If thought centers are cosmic eggs laid from sixth density into fourth density via fifth density, and hatched into third density, then we have only one issue to deal with at this density, and that is which egg is ours?
More than that, if we don’t like the present egg, can we crack it and get out?
Well, here we come up against the ever-present problem of the “Catch 22”:
Q: (L) When we are talking about dimensional curtains we are talking about divisions at the same level of density, is that correct?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Can dimensional curtains be between dimensions at the same level of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are dimensional curtains also something that occurs between levels of density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, a dimensional curtain is a point at which some sort of change takes place… what causes this change?
A: Nature.
Q: (L) What defines this change?
A: Experience.
Q: (L) Is it in any way related to atomic or quantum physics or the movement of atoms?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay. An atom is in third density. What distinguishes it from an atom in fourth density?
A: Reality.
Q: (L) What distinguishes one realm from another?
A: Assumptions.
Q: (L) Okay, what you assume or expect is what you perceive about that atom depending upon which reality you are in, is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) What determines your assumptions?
A: Experience. Every thing that exists is merely a lesson.
Q: (L) Okay, so once we have learned certain lessons, as in experience of certain things, then our assumptions change?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, is this wave that is coming our direction going to give us an experience that is going to change our assumptions?
A: Catch 22: One half is that you have to change your assumptions in order to experience The Wave in a positive way. All is merely a lesson, and nothing, repeat nothing, more.
How do we get the experiences that will change our assumptions? Well, let’s look at our Tree of Life again. We notice that in both versions, the cosmic and the human mirror, the different densities “recycle” through fifth density on the central axis. There does exist a sort of conduit between the centers, but these conduits do not have an exchange point on the central axis that would facilitate a shift of thought centers or assumptions. From this we can conjecture that it’s somewhat difficult to change polarity without some sort of facilitator. This is why the way of the Monk, the Yogi and the Fakir are so difficult. They attempt to bridge the gap without a facilitator on the Central axis.
We notice that, on the cosmic tree, the position of knowledge is a facilitator for the cycling of sixth density energies to move into union with the one which is, in effect, an instantaneous (or timeless) Being and Non-being. This then initiates a new cycle of consciousness that regenerates as dense matter and consciousness that emerges bilaterally into the Beautiful Names and Wrathful Names of God to initiate the drama all over again.
When we look at the human Tree of Life, which is the mirror image, we see that the position of knowledge is now held by the genetic body, which is on the central axis. We then realize that this is our facilitator.
The genetic body is the control center for the physical body since it transduces the central axis energies, so whichever thought center is dominant will control the physical experience. Not only that, but we can see another possibility — namely, that knowledge and genetics are directly interactive. At the third density level, genes are the logos.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself. He was present originally with God. All things were made and came into existence through Him; and without Him was not even one thing made that has come into being. (John 1:1—3)
Sounds like cosmic chromosomes! It is through our genetics that we have the potential of aligning with the central vertical axis and changing thought centers. And, just as second density nature is a reflection of sixth density Knowledge in the cosmic tree, so is our genetic code the second density reflection of all that exists as potential within us as human beings. It could even be said that all of nature exists within us.
A: As third density bioengineered beings, you lead the smorgasbord parade of that which surrounds you in the physical realm. Each individual possesses all of creation within their minds. Each soul is all powerful and can create or destroy all existence if know how. You may create alternative universes if you wish and dwell within. You are all a duplicate of the universe within which you dwell. Your mind represents all that exists. It is “fun” to see how much you can access. Challenges are fun. Where do you think the limit of your mind is? If there is no limit, then what is the difference between your own mind and everything else? And when two things each have absolutely no limits, they are precisely the same thing.
Is that so? You see, our genes are more or less encoded copies of all the possible dramas of which we can be participants. Much of this information is like closed books, stored in a room that is never opened. We have the potential, via knowledge and exercising certain functions, to open these books and link up with the central axis and thereby make a shift in the essence or Name by which we are dominated. And in doing this we have the possibility of participating in a different drama, myth or fourth density movie being projected into third density.
Q: (SV) I want to ask one question: If there is no time, there is no past and no future; there are no past lives and no future lives, there is no such thing as reincarnation, then how can you be us…
A: Yes, there is reincarnation. You are getting ahead of yourself there. We never said there is no reincarnation.
Q: (SV) But, if there is no time? (L) It is all happening simultaneously. We are having all of these lifetimes at once. (SV) Is there a way that we can connect ourselves with all our other selves?
A: Picture it this way: we will access some of your memory banks and give you another reference… you know what a slide projector looks like? To give you some feeling of what this expanded nature of reality really is, picture yourself watching a big slide presentation with a big slide wheel on the projector. At any given point along the way you are watching one particular slide. But, all the rest of the slides are present on the wheel, are they not? And, of course, this fits in with the perpendicular reality, which fits in with the circles within circles and cycles within cycles, which also fits in the Grand Cycle, which also fits in with what we have told you before: All there is is lessons. That’s all there is and we ask that you enjoy them as you are watching the slide presentation… and, if you look back at the center of the projector, you see the origin and essence of all creation itself, which, is level seven where you are in union with the One.
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Q: (V) Do I feel this despair due to past life issues or due to this life?
A: Both. Like another “slide” in the slide projector carrousel.
Q: (V) What? (L) In the carrousel of many lifetime issues?
A: Close.
Q: (V) One of my biggest despairing things right now is my disgust with humanity and what they are doing, and how nasty it is… but that’s probably just another slide in the carrousel. I don’t think I can hear anymore…
A: Yes you can, and it would be wise if you did. You see, V***, there is nothing preventing you, or anyone else for that matter, from falling into the correct slot of their balanced contentment learning profile, but simply advancing that carrousel until the correct slot aligns, then just falling, or “sliding” into place!
Q: (L) You use this allegory; what would consist of advancing the carrousel?
A: Discover… because learning is fun!
Q: (L) Is there a physiological relationship to this carrousel, or is it just strictly psychic, psychological, or learning related?
A: Hide and seek, locate and retrieve.
Here we have one of the major clues to how it will help us to study nature. If our genetics are the physical interface between us and the vertical axis, if they are the physical manifestation of the thought centers through which our existence is extruded, then we might very much want to examine nature and the creatures within it in order to be able to determine just exactly what potentials we may be enacting, what potentials we can activate that may not be activated, and how to suppress those potentials that belong to thought centers that we do not choose to be the arbiters of our destiny.
By invigorating the Organs the Soul uses for communicating with exterior objects, the Soul must a acquire greater powers not only for conception but also for retention, and therefore if we wish to obtain still more knowledge, the organs and secret springs of physical life must be wonderfully strengthened and invigorated. The Soul must acquire new powers for conceiving and retaining…
We can study nature and discover what archetypes are manifested in our lives and, if we don’t like the script, we can discover the ways and means to change the selection, so to speak. That means that we can create our own reality in the sense of changing channels in terms of which thought center is in control of our lives. It also means that we can have a choice as to which face of God we behold!
Like attracts like. When a candidate has developed virtue and integrity acceptable to the adepts, they will appear to him and reveal those parts of the secret processes which cannot be discovered without such help.
Those who cannot progress to a certain point with their own intelligence are not qualified to be entrusted with the secrets which can subject to their will the elemental forces of Nature.
In the study of nature, we have been given a tool, a means of assessment that, if used rightly, can lead us to make felicitous decisions that activate our DNA in ways that align the three worlds of our soul centers with the four worlds of our bodies of existence.
In reference to the 353535 code discussed in The Terror of History, I asked the Cs:
Q: (L) What does this code relate to?
A: Infinite power.
Q: (L) How is infinite power acquired by knowing this code? If you don’t know the correspondences, how can you use a numerical code?
A: Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely for which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity.
Q: (L) And that is the meaning of the number 33? Well, that is a round robin… a circle you can’t get out of!
A: And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
Well, that particular session nearly drove me nuts trying to figure it out. We came back to the subject again and this time around it was even stranger:
Q: (L) Okay, let me jump over to this other subject of the number 33 and the number 11. Is there anything beyond what was given on 11-11-95, that you could add at this time, about any of the mathematics or the use of these numbers?
A: Prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics.
Q: (L) What do you mean, “prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics”?
A: Self-explanatory, if you use the tools given you.
Q: (L) How can a number be a dwelling?
A: Figure of speech. [Planchette spirals several times, vigorously] And how interesting that we have a new “cell” phone company called: “Primeco”.
Q: (L) And how does a cell phone company called “Primeco” relate to prime numbers being dwellings of mystics?
A: Not for us to answer.
We stopped at this point and did a little exercise in word association. Some of the words we came up with were: encryption, cells of monks, prisons, prime number divisible by one or self.
Q: (L) Is encryption the key?
A: Oh, there is so much here. One example is: “Snake eyes” is not so good as 7, 11, eh?
Q: (T) They are all prime numbers, too; seven and eleven. (L) What kinds of documents or writings… or what would be applicable…
A: No, Laura you are trying to focus, or limit the concept, my dear. Think of it, what is the Judaic Christian legend for the creation of a woman?
Q: (L) That woman was taken from the rib of Adam. That Eve was created from the rib of Adam.
A: Ever heard of a “prime rib”?
Q: (L) [Groans] (T) I hate being in kindergarten and not knowing what the subject is. Okay, prime rib. We have a prime rib, so…
A: What happens in a “Primary”.
Q: (L) An election. You narrow down the candidates. What happens in a primary?
A: Who gets “picked” to run?
Q: (L) Okay, keep on…
A: “Prime Directive”? “Prime time”?
Q: (L) The first, the best… and…
A: Not point.
Q: (L) I know that’s not the point! Is what we’re saying here, is that we can use these prime numbers to derive something out of something else?
A: We told you about the mystics.
Q: (L) So, mystics… the mystics, the mystical secrets… dwell in the prime numbers if used as a code.
A: Name the primary mystical organizations for key to clue system.
We named: Catholicism, Christianity, Judaism, Cabalism, Sufism, Mysticism, Jesuits, Masons, Knights Templar, Rosicrucians…
Q: (L) All right. With our little list that we’re making, are we on to something or are we completely off track?
A: Yes, now check out those crop circles photos… any prime number combos there?
Q: (L) Do you mean in terms of dimension, or do you mean in composition?
A: Composition and dimensions… anything you can find.
We stopped again and discussed sacred geometries and the fact that all the sects listed use prime numbers. We also noted that in Genesis 2:22 it says “rib taken from the man and made woman”. We also noted that 2 is the only even prime number and that it was referred to as “snake eyes”. In Genesis 3:5 (the 3/5 code in mind) it says “your eyes shall be opened and ye shall be as the gods”, referring to the temptation of the serpent in Eden — a serpent that may very well represent the coiling DNA.
Q: (L) Are we thinking in any of the lines of something we ought to follow, or are we drifting?
A: All are lines you ought to follow.
Gurdjieff addressed the issues of this chapter as well, showing that the source of his information was very similar to the “Q source” of Jesus’ alchemical teachings. This is evident in the answer he gave to Ouspensky when the latter asked, “Can it be said that man possesses immortality?” Gurdjieff replied:
“Immortality is one of the qualities we ascribe to people without having a sufficient understanding of their meaning. Other qualities of this kind are ‘individuality’, in the sense of an inner unity, a ‘permanent and unchangeable I’, ‘consciousness’, and ‘will’. All these qualities can belong to man, but this certainly does not mean that they do belong to him or belong to each and every one.
“In order to understand what man is at the present time, that is, at the present level of development, it is necessary to imagine to a certain extent what he can be, that is, what he can attain. Only by understanding the correct sequence of development possible will people cease to ascribe to themselves what, at present, they do not possess, and what, perhaps, they can only acquire after great effort and great labor.
“According to an ancient teaching, traces of which may be found in many systems, old and new, a man who has attained the full development possible for man, a man in the full sense of the word, consists of four bodies. These four bodies are composed of substances which gradually become finer and finer, mutually interpenetrate one another, and form four independent organisms, standing in a definite relationship to one another but capable of independent action.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
Gurdjieff’s idea was that it was possible for these four bodies to exist because the physical human body has such a complex organization that, under certain favorable conditions, a new and independent organism can actually can develop and grow within it. This new system of organs of perception can afford a more convenient and responsive instrument for the activity of an awakened consciousness.
“The consciousness manifested in this new body is capable of governing it, and it has full power and full control over the physical body.
“In this second body, under certain conditions, a third body can grow, again having characteristics of its own. The consciousness manifested in this third body has full power and control over the first two bodies; and the third body possesses the possibility of acquiring knowledge inaccessible either to the first or to the second body.
“In the third body, under certain conditions, a fourth can grow, which differs as much from the third as the third differs from the second, and the second from the first. The consciousness manifested in the fourth body has full control over the first three bodies and itself.
“These four bodies are defined in different teachings in various ways. The first is the physical body, in Christian terminology the ‘carnal’ body; the second, in Christian terminology, is the ‘natural’ body; the third is the ‘spiritual’ body; and the fourth, in the terminology of esoteric Christianity, is the ‘divine’ body. In theosophical terminology the first is the ‘physical’ body, the second is the ‘astral’, the third is the ‘mental’, and the fourth the ‘causal’.
“In the terminology of certain Eastern teachings the first body is the ‘carriage’ (the body), the second is the ‘horse’ (feelings, desires), the third the ‘driver’ (mind), and the fourth the ‘master’ (I, consciousness, will).
“Such comparisons and parallels may be found in most systems and teachings which recognize something more in man than the physical body. But almost all these teachings, while repeating in a more or less familiar form the definitions and divisions of the ancient teaching, have forgotten or omitted its most important feature, which is: that man is not born with the finer bodies. They can only be artificially cultivated in him, provided favorable conditions both internal and external are present.
“The ‘astral body’ is not an indispensable implement for man. It is a great luxury which only a few can afford. A man can live quite well without an ‘astral body’. His physical body possesses all the functions necessary for life. A man without ‘astral body’ may even produce the impression of being a very intellectual or even spiritual man, and may deceive not only others but also himself.
“When the third body has been formed and has acquired all the properties, powers, and knowledge possible for it, there remains the problem of fixing this knowledge and these powers. Because, having been imparted to it by influences of a certain kind, they may be taken away by these same influences or by others. By means of a special kind of work for all three bodies the acquired properties may be made the permanent and inalienable possession of the third body.
“The process of fixing these acquired properties corresponds to the process of the formation of the fourth body.
“And only the man who possesses four fully developed bodies can be called a ‘man’ in the full sense of the word. This man possesses many properties which ordinary man does not possess. One of these properties is immortality. All religions and all ancient teachings contain the idea that, by acquiring the fourth body, man acquires immortality; and they all contain indications of the ways to acquire the fourth body, that is, immortality.” (Ouspensky, 1949; emphasis added)
1 Tesseracts are 4D analogs of cubes and are discussed in Riding the Wave.
Stripped to the Bone
The Shamanic Initiation
Of The Knighted Ones:
Technicians of Ecstasy
It may seem to you, the reader of these pages, that I have been hitting very hard on the concept that man is asleep and it is almost impossible to awaken. For some of you, this may evoke a sense of despair, or helplessness. Some of you feel confident that Love is the answer, and that everyone will be saved (which is to assume that somebody is damned) if they just have love, so we needn’t worry about it anyway. Others very likely will outright reject such an idea. Some of you are definitely certain that you are not asleep.
In a general sense, to almost everyone and including yours truly, the very idea of time traveling, mind marauding, hyperdimensional beings with full power to create and maintain a reality of illusion and restriction in which we are confined like sheep, waiting daily to see which of our number will be taken for their wool, skins, or flesh, is so horrifying a concept that accepting it as a real possibility is tantamount to being stripped of all hopes, dreams and comfort.
Like many of you, I began this work full of frustration with teachings that don’t work or don’t make sense when compared with honest observation of reality and experience. There was such a labyrinth of contradictions everywhere I searched, and I knew it was necessary to go beyond everything hitherto known or tried. I did have the idea that this knowledge had been available in ancient times, judging by the evidence of the megaliths and other incomprehensible structures all over the globe, but whether or not it would be possible to rediscover this path was uncertain.
It was very clear that there was a serious discrepancy between the observable reality and some deeper reality from which, presumably, ours derives something of its form and structure, but I knew there was something that separated “us” from “them”. Also, when searching for answers, it always ended in a maze of insupportable assumptions and irreconcilable facts. Yes, to all of you who have written to ask me if I have checked “this” source or “that” source, it is very likely I have, and more. And I repeat, when you read all of them, you find, as Blaise Pascal said:
I reject equally the religion of Mahomet, of the Chinese, of the Romans, and of the Egyptians, for this simple reason that since one has no greater marks of truth than another, my reason cannot be disposed to receive any one in preference to the rest. (Pensées, Chapter XI)
You can add a hundred other sources to Pascal’s list on my behalf. They all end in a maze of assumptions and irreconcilable “facts”.
But when the Cassiopaeans began to communicate, to say things that did explain the problems I was finding in science, religion and philosophy, and those things they told us were not part of my expectations, I became furious and railed at such a bleak picture of our existence.
I had already gone through some of this process in earlier years while reading Gurdjieff and Ouspensky, but I found that what the Cassiopaeans were saying was far more dispiriting than I was prepared to receive.
I rejected ideas that suggested our fairy tale beliefs just might be imposed on us to keep us asleep and unaware because I didn’t like them either. As time went by and evidence from other sources mounted, I raged at lessons that drove home these points in my personal life; and I have wept oceans for the loss of my innocence. So, believe me when I say to those of you who write to me struggling to grasp this, trying to reason and rationalize some way to hang on to the old, false belief systems — I do understand!
But, when all is said and done, I think I wept even more for all the years wasted in stupidity and blindness. After a time, I realized that we are only stupid and blind exactly as long as we need to be stupid and blind, and not one second longer. I am enormously grateful for all those experiences because they did teach me in a very deep way.
Now, a curious thing about the teachings of both Gurdjieff and Castaneda, both of which claim that man is food for something “other”, is the lack of really specific information about this other. Yes, Castaneda goes further than Gurdjieff in telling us some of the history of the flyer, or the Predator, but it is still somewhat vague and amorphous.
We have often speculated as to whether Gurdjieff knew the truth the way the Cassiopaeans have explicated it and just simply could not bring himself to tell anyone; or if he did tell some of his students, was this something that only those on the inside knew, and held back?
My husband, Ark, met with Henri Tracol, one of Gurdjieff’s students, in Marseilles back in July of 1986. It was a brief meeting in an airport restaurant, lasting about two hours at most. His interest was in determining if joining with such a school as the Gurdjieff Foundation in Paris would be helpful to his own awakening. He asked many questions, most particularly relating to this idea of “being eaten” by “something”. His assessment (which is highly developed from many years as both a scientist and an instructor) of Mr. Tracol’s reaction to this question was that the man was afraid to answer.
As he recalls it, Mr. Tracol glanced about nervously as though he might be overheard, though there was clearly no one to overhear, and made a somewhat vague allusion to “interdimensional beings”.
Since it is over 15 years since this meeting, it is hard for Ark to remember exactly what was said, but the entries in his journal in the days the following the meeting reflect his state of mind at the time:
Marseilles, July 21, 1986
I am an energy transformer and a converter. That is the essence of my existence. That is my only possible goal. I can choose to serve this goal or not. I can serve only as an energy transformer. So it seems to not make much difference what I do. The result will be the same.
Or, I can serve as a channel. This is the choice between self-will and discipline. What “I” do, that is “I-Personality”, is self-will. What acts through me is not self-will. Thus I wish to allow, “that which can act through me” that is not self-will. For this end I need to eliminate self-will. But, God forbid, not to eliminate control!
So I wish to eliminate self-will. I wish to eliminate identification. Eliminating identification is most important. I wish to self-remember. I wish to plan to account for each and every hour. I wish to get rid of my hump. To cease being a camel.
How? Through elimination of identification. I want to listen. And to consider internally.
July 23, 1986
All this world is vanity. A vanity which will pass. The sky will pass, earth will pass, trees will pass, and people will pass too. Human aspirations will pass. Science will pass. All that keeps me together — will pass. A goal — at this level — does not exist. To set a goal — at this level — is to lie to oneself.
Humanity, truth, knowledge — these are empty words. Words surrounded by suffering which is meaningless. When I say I want to “help humanity” — these are empty words. When I say “science”, “knowledge”, “truth”, “cognizance” — these are phantom words.
I am an energy transformer, and I need to serve as such. And that is what I can do.
Where is the way out?
Nothing will remain of what I am doing. I might as well not exist at all. To think that I am “different”? That I am “exceptional”? That I can accomplish things that no one has succeeded in accomplishing — but I will because I will have the luck? Oh Lord, that it is possible to believe these vain illusions! I will die and nothing will be left. Nothing will succeed. Nothing will remain. No goal will be reached. Only one goal seems possible — that when the end is near, suffering will be so great that I will pass with relief.
Where is the way out? What purpose do humans serve? This is an experiment! What originates in me does not count. The only thing I can do is to allow something more powerful to speak through me. To allow something more knowledgeable to talk to me and through me. To allow something more powerful to act through me. To allow something more powerful to use me. I am just a shell, I am a machine. I am a device. I am a means to an end. I am a possibility for something more powerful to be in me and to act through me. I am a place that waits to be filled. I am a carriage without a driver and without a master. True, there is brain, there are body members, there are senses. But I am just a carriage. With no driver and no master. A personality that pretends to have rights. Which play the roles — sometimes of a driver, sometimes of a master — which says “I” continuously. Yet I am just a carriage, which goes nowhere, and is doomed to crash in some ditch.
My aspirations, my ambitions, my wants — all these belong to an empty carriage and horse that is left without control. All that I am doing means nothing. All that I am doing is personality. And that comes from personality is ballast. All that comes from personality is a camel’s hump.
How to pass through a needle’s eye while carrying a hump? Personality must be left aside. Aspirations and whims — that is not me. Blessed are those who are meek. To be meek — that is what I need. Nonattachment. Eliminating unnecessary things. And also being conscious of the fact that every moment is a branching of the universe.
So, this was the state of mind produced by a single two-hour talk with Henri Tracol.
But what is it that “acts through” or controls humankind or creates the conditions of this sleep as Gurdjieff taught? Ark and I have discussed this, combing through the available resources, trying to determine if this was one of the big secrets of the Gurdjieff work, but with little result.
At the same time, I have long pondered the possible true teachings of Jesus. What we know, factually, from the available ancient documents that are generally assessed to be contemporary with the time of early Christianity, is that the Romans and about everyone else in the Pagan world considered Christianity to be an “abominable superstition”.
This is actually an astonishing statement. When you consider this fact alongside Christianity, as we know it today, it makes absolutely no sense. Christianity as it is today is simply a conglomeration of archaic religious beliefs and rites that are fundamentally no different from the cultic religions of the Pagans of the time. The crucified and resurrected savior god was pretty standard. And most of the teachings from the New Testament are just plagiarized versions of what was accepted by the Romans and their subjects as “normal”.
In fact, if you think about this period of time and what was believed and practiced, including haruspicy, which was the going thing at the time, and involved killing an animal and reading the omens from its liver, you have to think that for these people to call something an abominable superstition, it must have been pretty bizarre. And yet, nothing remains of Christianity that could be considered by the ancient Romans as superstition because it is exactly what they did believe and practice in their various cults.
So, we have a real problem here in figuring out just what these ancient peoples would have considered an abominable superstition, and the only thing that fits the definition is the teaching that man is food for hyperdimensional beings. That is pretty objectionable at any time in history!
If the early Christians were talking this way, we can easily see why the Romans, who had inherited or subsumed the Greek ideas of the heavenly pantheon, would consider this to be utterly barbaric. And, if this is what Jesus understood and expounded to his disciples in private, it is no wonder that the forces came along and completely obliterated any trace of the original teaching, replacing it with the standard Pagan rites and ceremonies and beliefs. And, if I am on the right track with this, it certainly gives new meaning to the statement: “Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free!”
If it is true that humans are being bred and raised like cattle in a global stockyard and fed upon both psychically and sometimes even physically, we have a truly serious situation going on here, to put it mildly. As I have explained before, I have never seen a Lizzie except in dreamlike states or almost hypnopompic semi-sleep states. So, when the Cassiopaeans began to talk about them, it was truly Twilight Zone time, in my opinion!
I have also stated that, whenever the Cassiopaeans tell us anything, I work very hard to discover if there is any form of what I call vertical or lateral corroboration. Vertical data is that which is located in history at any point different from the present. Lateral data consists of collecting reports, witness information, and other data that amounts to circumstantial evidence from the present time. It is always better if the two types of data cross or intersect, but it is still not the same as having a smoking gun. When you are dealing with hyperdimensional realities, smoking guns are unlikely to be found.
In the case of the idea of man being food for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of all kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to hide this fact, and the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.
The point is, when don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans and others tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) “special and adored children of a loving God”; that we are or can be co-creators with God, that we can do anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue.
It is work to examine it objectively, hard work, because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to become free.
And yet, we can see that something is evolving here. With the maturation of the group mind, the stakes get higher and the deceptions deeper!
For many centuries, millennia even, simplistic religions and social dynamics were dominant over most of the world. This was possible because even when there was an intrusion by one of these hyperdimensional beings into our reality, when they did drop in for dinner, so to speak, it was easy to conceal because of the lack of communication between tribes and peoples.
When we sit in our comfortable homes and look at our reality, including that which is outside our windows, we see a stable front. Cars pass on the street, taking people to and from their homes in their varied daily activities; the sun shines; children pass by, talking and laughing. Everyone is involved in their life in an immediate and identified way, believing that this life they are involved in is what is.
But, once in a while, something bizarre happens to someone and they struggle to deal with this anomaly in the space-time continuum. Usually, it is sufficiently minor that they can dampen it and forget about it, which they must, because it is too aberrant in the normal accepted course of events. It must be shoved under the rug.
Once in awhile, bigger things happen in the reality — evidence of the hyperdimensional control system intrudes, or the screen breaks down in some way — and it becomes news and gets reported. Charles Fort spent many years collecting these types of things from the newspapers and magazines all over the world.
When this happens, the accepted belief system hurries to damp down the item so that everyone can go along in their respective and collective illusions. Since the events are localized, it is easy to cover it up. And, in the past, this was a lot easier than it is today.
When you read the collected information of Charles Fort, you see that the alien reality that is so widely reported today was just as active then as it is now. In fact, you see that it may even be somewhat cyclical. Just as we have cycles of food production, planting, growing and harvesting, so may hyperdimensional beings harvest us according to some “seasonal” rule.
In any event, before people began to become literate it was a lot easier to keep the lid on the matter. Then, books, papers and magazines were published and distributed. Travel became easier and information from around the world about these odd intrusions into our reality could be collected, giving an overall pattern that something was not right.
Before Charles Fort, there were a few people who already smelled a rat, but Mr. Fort kindly shoved it right under our noses and the reaction has been quite interesting. The cover-up machine went into full operation through the most effective vectors of mainstream science and religion.
But, the rat had been smelled and some people couldn’t just shove it back under the rug. The stench kept wafting in the open window. And so, certain people began to start searching for the source of this stinky rat. They began to gather knowledge and information.
We can even note how the cover-up machine began to do this damage control. When you study the history of social and religious movement and change, you can see the control system morphing with every discovery or realization made by human beings. As they outgrew the old religions, the simplistic explanations, new religions were put in place. At exactly the right time — the period of scientific expansion and growing knowledge of the nature of reality that brought the old religious views into serious question — the whole spiritualist movement began, leading to channeled information that was designed to patch up the holes in the control net. Newer and more elaborate explanations of the higher realms came into our reality. With each new question, the control system had a new answer to help everybody calm down, relax, and stop asking questions.
At the present time, this is even more amazingly evident. A few years ago, when we first began sharing the Cassiopaean information, many of the issues we dealt with were not even addressed by these other sources. But, with everything we release, the other side brings some new candidate forward with new explanations to patch the holes we are tearing in the fabric of their reality. And, of course, since Ark is a physicist with degrees beyond Ph.D., some of these new sources are becoming more educated and articulate as if to counterbalance and damp down what we are presenting here.
For me, the idea of connecting the dots has always consisted of using everything available to me in terms of peeling that blasted onion right down to the center. If I have to spend weeks buried in books about genetics to verify or disprove something the Cassiopaeans have said, I will do it. Not only that, I will write to known experts in the field using my husband’s cachet in the scientific world to get in the door and get the latest, most up-to-date inside information so that I can be sure what I am sharing is as accurate and balanced as I can make it.
Over and over again I come to the idea that all of these things were known long ago, and that we were sent a message in a bottle so to say, in the form of myths and archaic practices that were drilled into the participants who have long since forgotten the meaning.
Of course, it does seem that many of the ancient schools and mystical paths kept some of this information intact. But, for the most part, even that was faded on the page due to the long period of time since such things were known and acknowledged. Even then, there are those who have seen the contradictions in our reality and our beliefs and who have sought in these ancient teachings to discover what might be known. And many of them have made discoveries that, when considered with information from many other fields, assists us in this essential discovery of our true condition and purpose.
Gurdjieff was one of these.
And so, because he did it, he made it possible for others to do it.
Even though it seems that each person who makes progress in this discovery gets damped down or obfuscated by their followers, each person who blazes a trail makes it easier for the next traveler to follow in their footsteps. Of course, each trailblazer is in the position of having to cut and slash their way through the thickest and most dangerous jungle surrounding the truth, and this takes them only so far. But, having arrived at a new vantage point through this great effort, they can see more of what is ahead, in the center. Perhaps they can only get glimpses, but these glimpses at least assure them that they are on the right track. On the other hand, they may even see the whole picture and, in keeping with the maturity of the group mind in their time period, attempt to express the revelation in terms understandable to that generation.
Gurdjieff’s teachings became known as the Fourth Way as opposed to the three ways that had existed within and utilized the very religious and social structures in place to keep us imprisoned. This is what Gurdjieff meant when he said that many are hypnotized into believing they are men or magicians. The problem with these three ways, as we have already discussed, is that they concentrate on only one of the three centers in man: bodily discipline, mental development or the way of the heart — love. Gurdjieff’s way incorporated all of these through a form of conscious labor and intentional suffering.
What did Gurdjieff mean by these things? No two of his students have given the same answer. The only thing we can think about this fact is that the understanding of his students was based upon their effort, experience and level of being.
Conscious labor quite obviously does not refer to digging ditches or breaking rocks, though it could. It refers to efforts we are not accustomed to making in our ordinary lives. Intentional suffering obviously cannot be present if a person is asleep because it depends on conscience and, according to Gurdjieff, until an individual is awake, they are neither conscious nor do they have a real conscience. For Gurdjieff, conscience and consciousness cannot be separated.
There are now many Fourth Way methods scattered around the world, all of them partial and incomplete, it seems. But, the point is: Gurdjieff made a big step, he cut away a great deal of the obstructions in the path of finding ways to bring the technology back to the awareness of the group mind, and because he did, those who came after him were able to go even further in this effort.
Unfortunately, the Control System immediately put damage control into operation to patch the holes of revelation, and fences of secrecy and restriction were erected so that if anybody in the organization had the deeper knowledge, it became so hidden that it was likely the process of distortion and corruption would proceed on its normal course there as well.
Even so, we have to see each of these things as steps. We can’t leave out Sufism, Alchemy, Catharism, and other persecuted systems of knowledge that were the stepping-stones before Gurdjieff. By looking at the overall picture, we can pretty safely say that when a revelation is seen to be useful, that it helps the people who are involved in it to lead fuller, more meaningful lives, the powers that be will immediately go into overdrive to destroy or conceal it. And, if they cannot do that, they will ensure that it is distorted and corrupted by putting their own agents in place on the inside to see the job done. Witness the development of Christianity via the Catholic Church.
Yes, Gurdjieff may have achieved the level of a true sage himself, leaving us a legacy of process and application, but our job at present is to go further. And, as we do, we must expect a continuous effort to counteract, to obfuscate, to corrupt and co-opt the concepts from all quarters. Gurdjieff addressed these very problems:
“The humanity to which we belong, namely, the whole of historic and prehistoric humanity known to science and civilization, in reality constitutes only the outer circle of humanity, within which there are several other circles…
“The inner circle is called the ‘esoteric’; this circle consists of people who have attained the highest development possible for man, each one of whom possesses individuality in the fullest degree, that is to say, an indivisible ‘I’, all forms of consciousness possible for man, full control over these states of consciousness, the whole of knowledge possible for man, and a free and independent will.
“They cannot perform actions opposed to their understanding or have an understanding which is not expressed by actions.
At the same time there can be no discords among them, no differences of understanding. Therefore their activity is entirely coordinated and leads to one common aim without any kind of compulsion because it is based upon a common and identical understanding.
“The next circle is called the ‘mesoteric’, that is to say, the middle.
“People who belong to this circle possess all the qualities possessed by the members of the esoteric circle with the sole difference that their knowledge is of a more theoretical character.
“This refers, of course, to knowledge of a cosmic character. They know and understand many things which have not yet found expression in their actions. They know more than they do. But their understanding is precisely as exact as, and therefore precisely identical with, the understanding of the people of the esoteric circle.
“Between them there can be no discord, there can be no misunderstanding. One understands in the way they all understand, and all understand in the way one understands. But as was said before, this understanding compared with the understanding of the esoteric circle is somewhat more theoretical.
“The third circle is called the ‘exoteric’, that is, the outer, because it is the outer circle of the inner part of humanity.
“The people who belong to this circle possess much of that which belongs to people of the esoteric and mesoteric circles but their cosmic knowledge is of a more philosophical character, that is to say, it is more abstract than the knowledge of the mesoteric circle.
“A member of the mesoteric circle calculates, a member of the exoteric circle contemplates. Their understanding may not be expressed in actions. But there cannot be differences in understanding between them. What one understands all the others understand.
“In literature which acknowledges the existence of esotericism humanity is usually divided into two circles only and the ‘exoteric circle’ as opposed to the ‘esoteric’, is called ordinary life.
“In reality, as we see, the ‘exoteric circle’ is something very far from us and very high. For ordinary man this is already ‘esotericism’.
“‘The outer circle’ is the circle of mechanical humanity to which we belong and which alone we know.
“The first sign of this circle is that among people who belong to it there is not and there cannot be a common understanding. Everybody understands in his own way and all differently.
“This circle is sometimes called the circle of the ‘confusion of tongues’, that is, the circle in which each one speaks in his own particular language, where no one understands another and takes no trouble to be understood.
“In this circle mutual understanding between people is impossible excepting in rare exceptional moments or in matters having no great significance, and which are confined to the limits of the given being.
“If people belonging to this circle become conscious of this general lack of understanding and acquire a desire to understand and to be understood, then it means they have an unconscious tendency towards the inner circle because mutual understanding begins only in the exoteric circle and is possible only there.
“But the consciousness of the lack of understanding usually comes to people in an altogether different form.
“So that the possibility for people to understand depends on the possibility of penetrating into the exoteric circle where understanding begins.
“If we imagine humanity in the form of four concentric circles we can imagine four gates on the circumference of the third inner circle, that is, the exoteric circle, through which people of the mechanical circle can penetrate.
“These four gates correspond to the four ways described before.
“The first way is the way of the fakir, the way of people number one, of people of the physical body, instinctive-moving-sensory people without much mind and without much heart.
“The second way is the way of the monk, the religious way, the way of people number two, that is, of emotional people. The mind and the body should not be too strong.
“The third way is the way of the yogi. This is the way of the mind, the way of people number three. The heart and the body must not be particularly strong, otherwise they may be a hindrance on this way.
“Besides these three ways yet a fourth way exists by which can go those who cannot go by any of the first three ways.
“The fundamental difference between the first three ways, that is, the way of the fakir, the way of the monk, and the way of the yogi, and the fourth way consists in the fact that they are tied to permanent forms which have existed throughout long periods of history almost without change. At the basis of these institutions is religion. Where schools of yogis exist they differ little outwardly from religious schools. And in different periods of history various societies or orders of fakirs have existed in different countries and they still exist. These three traditional ways are permanent ways within the limits of our historical period.
“Two or three thousand years ago there were yet other ways which no longer exist and the ways now in existence were not so divided, they stood much closer to one another.
“The fourth way differs from the old and the new ways by the fact that it is never a permanent way. It has no definite forms and there are no institutions connected with it. It appears and disappears governed by some particular laws of its own.1
“The fourth way is never without some work of a definite significance, is never without some undertaking around which and in connection with which it can alone exist.
“When this work is finished, that is to say, when the aim set before it has been accomplished, the fourth way disappears, that is, it disappears from the given place, disappears in its given form, continuing perhaps in another place in another form.
“Schools of the fourth way exist for the needs of the work which is being carried out in connection with the proposed undertaking. They never exist by themselves as schools for the purpose of education and instruction.
“Mechanical help cannot be required in any work of the fourth way. Only conscious work can be useful in all the undertakings of the fourth way. Mechanical man cannot give conscious work so that the first task of the people who begin such a work is to create conscious assistants.
“The work itself of schools of the fourth way can have very many forms and many meanings. In the midst of the ordinary conditions of life the only chance a man has of finding a ‘way’ is in the possibility of meeting with the beginning of work of this kind. But the chance of meeting with such work as well as the possibility of profiting by this chance depends upon many circumstances and conditions.
“The quicker a man grasps the aim of the work which is being executed, the quicker can he become useful to it and the more will he be able to get from it for himself.
“But no matter what the fundamental aim of the work is, the schools continue to exist only while this work is going on. When the work is done the schools close. The people who began the work leave the stage. Those who have learned from them what was possible to learn and have reached the possibility of continuing on the way independently begin in one form or another their own personal work.
“But it happens sometimes that when the school closes a number of people are left who were round about the work, who saw the outward aspect of it, and saw the whole of the work in this outward aspect.
“Having no doubts whatever of themselves or in the correctness of their conclusions and understanding they decide to continue the work. To continue this work they form new schools, teach people what they have themselves learned, and give them the same promises that they themselves received. All this naturally can only be outward imitation.2
“But when we look back on history it is almost impossible for us to distinguish where the real ends and where the imitation begins. Strictly speaking almost everything we know about various kinds of occult, masonic, and alchemical schools refers to such imitation. We know practically nothing about real schools excepting the results of their work and even that only if we are able to distinguish the results of real work from counterfeits and imitations.
“But such pseudo-esoteric systems also play their part in the work and activities of esoteric circles. Namely, they are the intermediaries between humanity which is entirely immersed in the materialistic life and schools which are interested in the education of a certain number of people, as much for the purposes of their own existences as for the purposes of the work of a cosmic character which they may be carrying out. The very idea of esotericism, the idea of initiation, reaches people in most cases through pseudo-esoteric systems and schools; and if there were not these pseudo-esoteric schools the vast majority of humanity would have no possibility whatever of hearing and learning of the existence of anything greater than life because the truth in its pure form would be inaccessible for them.
“By reason of the many characteristics of man’s being, particularly of the contemporary being, truth can only come to people in the form of a lie — only in this form are they able to accept it; only in this form are they able to digest and assimilate it. Truth undefiled would be, for them, indigestible food.
“Besides, a grain of truth in an unaltered form is sometimes found in pseudoesoteric movements, in church religions, in occult and theosophical schools. It may be preserved in their writings, their rituals, their traditions, their conceptions of the hierarchy, their dogmas, and their rules. (Ouspensky, 1949)
As I hinted in the previous chapter, circumstantial evidence points to the existence of a secret fraternity unknown in its entirety to the human race. Other so-called “secret” groups (Rosicrucians, Illuminati, Freemasons, Modern day Templars, Priory of Zion, etc.) are generally red herrings to distract and divert the seeker. Gurdjieff points out that these groups do serve a useful function because the very idea of esotericism reaches people through the pseudo-esoteric systems that such groups promote. And so it is that I say most if not all of the great religions of antiquity were symbolic representations of the alchemical work.
During the sixteenth, seventeenth, and eighteenth centuries a considerable number of alchemical adepts traveled around Europe, appearing and disappearing at will. According to tradition, these adepts were immortal and kept themselves alive by means of the Elixir of Life, which was one of the goals of alchemy. That such mysterious men did exist there can be little doubt, as their presence is attested to by scores of reliable witnesses.
This brings us to the most interesting remark that Gurdjieff made above about the inner circle:
The inner circle … consists of people who have attained the highest development possible for man, each one of whom possesses individuality in the fullest degree, that is to say, an indivisible ‘I’, all forms of consciousness possible for man, full control over these states of consciousness, the whole of knowledge possible for man, and a free and independent will. They cannot perform actions opposed to their understanding or have an understanding which is not expressed by actions. At the same time there can be no discords among them, no differences of understanding. Therefore their activity is entirely coordinated and leads to one common aim without any kind of compulsion because it is based upon a common and identical understanding. (Ouspensky, 1949)
And we are reminded again of the alchemical maxim, “Like attracts like”.
When a candidate has developed virtue and integrity acceptable to the adepts, they will appear to him and reveal those parts of the secret processes which cannot be discovered without such help. Those who cannot progress to a certain point with their own intelligence are not qualified to be entrusted with the secrets which can subject to their will the elemental forces of Nature.
So, certainly some process must be followed to achieve the requisite level for attracting help.
When we dig as deeply into all of these matters as possible, over and over again we come upon the idea that self-knowledge is the key. It is not the end, but it is the means; the first stage in self-development and the beginning of awakening from sleep is to be able to know the self in an objective way so that the Predator’s mind can be controlled. Note very clearly that I say controlled and not merged.
Gurdjieff said that we have many “I’s” and at the same time, we have an animal and a spiritual nature. Self-observation and other disciplined efforts were taught as the means of crystallization of a single I. William Baldwin thought that the real source of these many “I’s” was the spirit attachment problem. In working with this, he found that his techniques could assist the person in eliminating this barrier manifesting the true self, in the effort to grow the will.
The downside of it is the failure to encourage the assimilation of other knowledge as a means of having a context in which to place the discoveries that the self makes in the processes.
But what good is this knowledge when it seems that all the Cassiopaeans have to say is that we are helpless in the face of so great a deception? The fact is, they have said or suggested a lot more than that. More importantly, if we understand the Cassiopaean communication properly, we see that it is truly a Fourth Way work, and that the Cassiopaeans are the teachers who appeared to reveal the parts of the secret processes that could not be discovered without help.
What is that big secret?
Gurdjieff refers to the evil magicians. The alchemists said the same thing. Eugene Canseliet, in his preface to the second edition of Fulcanelli’s Dwellings of the Philosophers, writes:
Philippe de Mallery engraved with a delicate touch: ‘Image of the World, in which Calamities and Perils are emblematically presented along with the opposition in feeling between the Love of God and that of man.’
The first emblem straightforwardly points to the original, if not unique, source of all ills of our Humanity. It is also underlined by the Latin inscription which, in the parenthesis, is another pun of phonetic cabala: ‘Totus mundus in maligno positus est’; the whole world is established inside of the devil. (Fulcanelli, 1999)
What is this world inside the devil? It is the world of lies and confusion:
“‘The outer circle’ is the circle of mechanical humanity to which we belong and which alone we know.
“The first sign of this circle is that among people who belong to it there is not and there cannot be a common understanding. Everybody understands in his own way and all differently.
“This circle is sometimes called the circle of the ‘confusion of tongues’, that is, the circle in which each one speaks in his own particular language, where no one understands another and takes no trouble to be understood.
“In this circle mutual understanding between people is impossible excepting in rare exceptional moments or in matters having no great significance, and which are confined to the limits of the given being. (Ouspensky, 1949)
To many of you, it may seem that the Cassiopaeans offer nothing but repeated statements that we are “damned no matter what we do”, as one correspondent suggested. But, that is not entirely the case. Yes, it is true that up to this point I have presented mostly the information that relates to these matters, attempting to penetrate and tear the veils of illusion under which humankind has been hidden from his higher nature or potential. But this has only been done with the intention of having a relatively clear view of what possibilities of doing we may actually have. Actually, I have been trying to accomplish something else, something deep and essential. For those who are asking, I have been trying to help you find your free will.
The point is, I am trying to shock you. I am trying to make you think about things in new ways. I am trying to get you to look at yourself, study yourself, discover your illusions and then apply yourself to becoming free of them. If humankind has any hope of surviving, it will have to have a major change of mind, or metanoia, which is incorrectly translated in the New Testament as repentance. For a change of mind to even be possible, it has to know itself.
And this brings us to that all-important remark made by a member of our group, TR:
What we have been told … is that this universe was created as a Free Will Universe. It was created specifically to allow all souls to do whatever they wish to do; they have complete choice about what they wish to do. The Grays, the Lizards, whoever they are who abduct and put implants in people, have the right to do that because it’s their free will to come here and do that to us. And, they have the right to tell us whatever they want to tell us to rationalize their behavior. Our right is to not believe what abducting entities tell us. We have free will to believe or not believe them. If they tell us in one lifetime that they have the right to do this to us, and we choose to believe them then, and then, in this lifetime, they try the same tricks and we choose not to believe them, in each case, we are exercising our free will and so are they. This is a Free Will universe. We can change our mind. They are trying to convince us that we have no choice in that, whether we believe them or not is our choice.
In the view of the monotheistic religions, as expounded by Aquinas and Descartes, free will involves the power of the will to choose or not to choose. That is, we are free insofar as we can choose among alternatives as being either good or evil.
In other words, you can choose good, or not. And if you do not choose what is presented to you as good, you have by default chosen evil. There is only one good option. You can take it or leave it. That is what constitutes your free will. It is, in the words of a Mafia Don or Nazi Officer, “an offer you cannot refuse” because the other option is clearly unpalatable and will subject you to unpleasant consequences. This view makes a mockery of the essential idea of free will.
Clearly, in our reality, we are in the face of this very teaching from one religion, philosophy, New Age channeled source or another. Once we understand that the reality itself, the illusions of what is or is not good or evil, are masks, or symbols of something deeper, we begin to realize that the two alternatives presented to us are clearly not equal. “The thirsty person chooses water, not oil; the hungry person, bread not tree bark; the poor person, the dry patch under the bridge, not the bench in the rain.”
Some choice. By this definition, free will becomes little more than a joke, a logical inconsistency. It is also the chief mode of the Service-to-Self pathway — to induce choice by “weighting” it.
This view of free-will-that-is-not-free becomes the chief mask of those seeking to deny free will.
Any religion, philosophy or teaching that sets itself up as the only way a man can be saved has immediately aligned itself with the Mafia/Nazi/STS school of free will. You can easily see that a person who chooses to love or send love and light because it might gain salvation for them, or even because it feels good, is really in the position of the thirsty person choosing water and not oil to drink. And further, if they think this is the only thing they can do because the entire social and philosophical structure has been designed to make it seem this is the only viable choice in line with God’s will, they are still in the same position. But, the chief thing about it is that they believe the illusion, the lie, that this choice is to drink water and that choice is to drink oil. In fear, they don’t even consider that they don’t have to choose either.
There are other definitions of free will that are interesting to speculate about. I am not going to engage in a lengthy monologue on the views of the philosophers because, even though some of them are quite fascinating and really make you think, that would be counterproductive to the issue at hand here.
The short version is that Hobbes and Tolstoy suggest we are free insofar as we may do as we wish without hindrance or constraint. Locke and Hume extended Hobbes’s freedom-to-do-without-restriction to the power to do or not as one wills. Spinoza’s view was that we are free insofar as we alone determine our behavior. We are not free when others dictate or hamper our decisions, or for reasons of illness or incapacity we cannot determine our actions.
When we consider being able to do what we choose without hindrance or restraint, and defining free will in this way, we have to then consider not only whether our free will conflicts with the free will of others, but also whether our free will itself may be less free because of unconscious psychological or physiological forces. And, if the issues of government mind-control programs and hyperdimensional beings enter the equation, whether we may be under the absolute control of external forces must also be taken into account. In the first case we may choose to rob and steal because of extreme poverty, a broken home, and an ineffective educational system. In the latter case, we may choose to “go postal” because some fiendish government programmer’s toast got burned that morning or because some lurking Lizard being thought Suzy Smart was getting too close to the truth, and she needed to be eliminated on her morning trip to buy stamps.
So we begin to think that we are not so free after all. In very real terms, all of us are under the influence of external forces or programming of one sort or another.
If we are free in this way, the issue of free will, in third density terms, becomes meaningless. This is a very shallow interpretation because it means that freedom is defined as whether a person can do what he chooses, not to the choosing itself. It refers to the freedom of the action, not to the choice of action, because all of your choices are programmed. Yet, whatever the individual decides to do, even if programmed to do it, it is considered that he has free will if he can do it.
What a cheap shot!
These concerns highlight the issue of the many forces that may restrain or compel behavior against one’s will, which, if one was aware of them, one might or might not choose otherwise. The point is: we are not free if our potential or actual choices are restricted. Locke makes an example of a man locked into a room in which he prefers to stay. The man desires to stay in the room, is able to do so, and is thus free by Hobbes’s definition, but the man does not have the power to leave the room and is thus not free according to Locke.
It is in exactly this sense that most people are deceived by the Control System to believe that they have free will. The room in which they are locked is the illusion that their beliefs and objectives are the full reality of creation, and their choice to remain in the room is acquiescence to beliefs imposed on them from the outside.
Most of humanity spend endless lifetimes locked in this room. But the fact is, after a period of time, the confinement of the room and the sameness of the experiences become objectionable because, all the while the prisoner is lulled into inactivity, something may be growing inside him, some urge to see what is outside the room. But, until this inclination is fully developed, he may make no effort to even check the door. And, once he does check the door and discovers that it is locked, he may not yet have sufficient drive to do anything more than return to his position and continue to wait for something to happen. After a bit longer, the drive grows, and this, with the realization that he is locked in may drive him to discover how to get out. But this process can take many lifetimes. And to attempt to open the door of the prison in which another is held when they are not ready to come out because they are not strong enough, will only frighten them, will only deprive them of the building force that is inside them that could, given time to develop, sustain the effort to emerge from the room on their own.
In such terms, whether or not a person has the power to do as he wills remains a fundamentally empirical question. He may think he has complete freedom to do or not as he wills, yet, his will, his choices which are based on his awareness, may be determined subconsciously or physically by things of which he is not aware. In this sense, any choice or act that is based upon lack of awareness, must lead us to discover the source of the lack of awareness as the causative factor, not the choice of the chooser.
In other words, if a person is programmed, whether via government experiments, alien abductors, religions created and imposed by hyperdimensional beings, then who is ultimately responsible?
Is it the programmers, or is it the person who has effectively chosen to be unaware?
Yes, the individual may be unaware due to fear of reprisals by God, demons, or his alien or government handlers. He may be afraid for his body or his soul or the body and soul of someone he loves. But these fears are beliefs that constitute the locked room in which he has chosen to remain not realizing that his own choice is the lock!
If the person is unaware, not because of fear, but simply because he is asleep is he then responsible for his lack of awareness?
According to the Cassiopaeans, yes. It is his choice. He has chosen it for a reason at some level, and he is entitled to it. He has chosen his environment; he has chosen his grade and his lessons. Perhaps chosen in the conscious sense is an inappropriate term. It is more like he is there because that is where he “fits”. He is a consciousness unit, and he is learning. Only when he reaches a certain level will he begin to wake up. Only when something has grown in him. Will.
Gurdjieff seemed to have the idea that a will could be nurtured in a man and accelerated, so to say. He made the following remarks with this in mind:
“To awaken for a man means to be dehypnotized. In this lies the chief difficulty and in this also lies the guarantee of its possibility, for there is no organic reason for sleep and man can awaken. Theoretically he can, but practically it is almost impossible because as soon as a man awakens for a moment and opens his eyes, all the forces that caused him to fall asleep begin to act upon him with tenfold energy and he immediately falls asleep again, very often dreaming that he is awake or is awakening.
“… Only a man who fully realizes the difficulty of awakening can understand the necessity of long and hard work in order to awake.
Speaking in general, what is necessary to awake a sleeping man? A good shock is necessary. But when a man is fast asleep one shock is not enough. A long period of continual shocks is needed. Consequently there must be somebody to administer these shocks. There is also the possibility of being awakened by mechanical means. A man may be awakened by an alarm clock. But the trouble is that a man gets accustomed to the alarm clock far too quickly, he ceases to hear it. Many alarm clocks are necessary and always new ones. … Alarm clocks must be wound up; in order to wind them up one must remember about them; in order to remember one must wake up often.
“… But there is very little chance of a man doing all the work of winding up, inventing, and changing clocks all by himself, without outside help. It is much more likely that he will begin this work and that it will afterwards pass into sleep, and in sleep he will dream of inventing alarm clocks, of winding them up and changing them, and simply sleep all the sounder for it.
“Therefore, in order to awaken, a combination of efforts is needed. It is necessary that somebody should wake the man up; it is necessary that somebody should look after the man who wakes him; it is necessary to have alarm clocks and it is also necessary continually to invent new alarm clocks.
“But in order to achieve all this and to obtain results a certain number of people must work together. One man can do nothing. If several people decide to struggle together against sleep, they will wake each other. It may often happen that twenty of them will sleep but the twenty- first will be awake and he will wake up the rest. It is exactly the same thing with alarm clocks. One man will invent one alarm clock, another man will invent another, afterwards they can make an exchange. Altogether they can be of very great help one to another, and without this help no one can attain anything. Therefore, a man who wants to awake must look for other people who also want to awake and work together with them.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
Clearly Gurdjieff was aware of the damage control factor of the Control System and how quickly it moves in to damp down any rips in the fabric of the illusion. His idea that we must continually invent new alarm clocks is a clear indication that he knew that his method would have to be reworked, revised, added to and expanded. His hope to accelerate the awakening of man seems to have been the driving force behind everything he did, and he was aware of what might happen to his work. It wasn’t just the idea of distortion; he knew that it had to be constantly reinvented to keep pace with the evolving Control System.
Can we accelerate the awakening?
The Cassiopaeans have indicated that, yes it is possible:
Q: (L) Is there a tool that enhances free will?
A: No tool is needed because all there is is lessons. The learning cycle is variable, and progress along it is determined by events and circumstances as they unfold.
Q: (L) So, when a person is being hypnotized and controlled from outside, because that is the matter of concern we were discussing earlier, they are hypnotized and controlled until they learn to stop it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, using the analogy of the pigsty, they just have to wallow in it and suffer until they have had enough?
A: Using your analogy of the bicycle: Is there a tool, which makes it unnecessary for the child to learn how to ride the bicycle, in order to know how to ride it?!?
Q: (MM) Don’t you get more free will by assimilating knowledge?
A: Yes!! Yes!!
Q: (L) So, in other words, knowledge and awareness makes you aware that you have free will, and also makes you aware of what actions actually are acts of free will, and therefore, when you know or suspect the difference between the lies and deception and truth, then you are in a position to be in control of your life?
A: Yes. Remember, you learn on an exponential curve, once you have become “tuned in”. This means that you become increasingly able to access the universal consciousness. Please learn to trust your increasing awareness. All who are present here are at one point or another on that cycle of progression, some further along than others. If you properly network without prejudice, you may all wind up at the same point on this cycle.
What does it mean to be “tuned in”? We return again to the issue of “Like attracts like”.
“When a candidate has developed virtue and integrity acceptable to the adepts, they will appear to him and reveal those parts of the secret processes which cannot be discovered without such help.
“Those who cannot progress to a certain point with their own intelligence are not qualified to be entrusted with the secrets which can subject to their will the elemental forces of Nature.”
The Cassiopaean transmissions are just such an “appearance”. The process is best described by Eugene Canseliet in his preface to the second edition of Fulcanelli’s alchemical masterpiece, The Dwellings of the Philosophers:
“According to the meaning of the Latin word adeptus, the alchemist has then received the Gift of God, or even better, the Present, a cabalistic pun on the double meaning of the word, underlining that he thus enjoys the infinite duration of the Now. …
“In the Kingdom of Sulphur there exists a Mirror in which the entire World can be seen. Whosoever looks into this Mirror can see and learn the three parts of Wisdom of the entire World.”
After thirty years of study and two years of dedicated experimentation, detailed in my autobiography, Amazing Grace, the Cassiopaean communications began.
“We are you in the future”, they said. “We transmit “through” the opening that is presented in the locator that you represent as Cassiopaea, due to the strong radio pulses aligned from Cassiopaea, which are due to a pulsar from a neutron star 300 light years behind it, as seen from your locator. This facilitates a clear channel transmission from sixth density to third density.”
Through this “gift of God” I have been enabled to look into the “mirror in which the entire world can be seen” from my own omnipresent self, in a state of full awareness. In short, based on all the details, the Cassiopaean transmissions are a true Fourth Way work, and exactly as Gurdjieff described, the first order of business of such a work is to network, to teach and train others.
“Schools of the fourth way exist for the needs of the work which is being carried out in connection with the proposed undertaking. They never exist by themselves as schools for the purpose of education and instruction.
“Mechanical help cannot be required in any work of the fourth way. Only conscious work can be useful in all the undertakings of the fourth way. Mechanical man cannot give conscious work so that the first task of the people who begin such a work is to create conscious assistants.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
So, learning, networking with others who are further along on the cycle of progression, and doing this without prejudice can make a difference, it seems.
What is the specific purpose of the Cassiopaean work? Let’s stop and consider that. At the beginning of World War I, Ouspensky speculated to Gurdjieff that the war was a consequence of life in the industrial age, wherein humans were becoming more mechanized and had stopped thinking for themselves because they had things too easy. Gurdjieff replied:
“There is another kind of mechanization which is much more dangerous: being a machine oneself. Have you ever thought about the fact that all people themselves are machines? … Look, all those people you see are simply machines — nothing more. … You think there is something that chooses its own path, something that can stand against mechanization; you think that not everything is equally mechanical.”
At this point, Ouspensky raised what would seem to be a most logical objection: “Why of course not! … art, poetry, thought, are phenomena of quite a different order.”
Gurdjieff replied: “Of exactly the same order. These activities are just as mechanical as everything else. Men are machines and nothing but mechanical actions can be expected of machines.” He then continued:
“[Western civilization] armed with ‘exact knowledge’ and all the latest methods of investigation, has no chance whatever and is moving in a circle from which there is no escape.
“That is because people believe in progress and culture. There is no progress whatever. Everything is just the same as it was thousands, and tens of thousands, of years ago. The outward form changes. The essence does not change. Man remains just the same. ‘Civilized’ and ‘cultured’ people live with exactly the same interests as the most ignorant savages. Modern civilization is based on violence and slavery and fine words.
“… What do you expect? People are machines. Machines have to be blind and unconscious, they cannot be otherwise, and all their actions have to correspond to their nature. Everything happens. No one does anything. ‘Progress’ and ‘civilization’, in the real meaning of these words, can appear only as the result of conscious efforts. They cannot appear as the result of unconscious mechanical actions. And what conscious effort can there be in machines? And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred machines are unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a hundred thousand, or a million. And the unconscious activity of a million machines must necessarily result in destruction and extermination.
“It is precisely in unconscious involuntary manifestations that all evil lies. You do not yet understand and cannot imagine all the results of this evil. But the time will come when you will understand.”
Again we note: Gurdjieff was speaking at the beginning of the First World War, in the opening rounds of a century of unprecedented warfare. And now, almost a hundred years later, humanity is on the edge of a precipice and no one knows what feather will plunge us into the abyss.
Wilhelm Reich wrote about the same problems that concerned Gurdjieff and Ouspensky:
“Why did man, through thousands of years, wherever he built scientific, philosophic, or religious systems, go astray with such persistence and with such catastrophic consequences? …
“Is human erring necessary? Is it rational? Is all error rationally explainable and necessary? If we examine the sources of human error, we find that they fall into several groups:
“Gaps in the knowledge of nature form a wide sector of human erring. Medical errors prior to the knowledge of anatomy and infectious diseases were necessary errors. But we must ask if the mortal threat to the first investigators of animal anatomy was a necessary error too.
“The belief that the earth was fixed in space was a necessary error, rooted in the ignorance of natural laws. But was it an equally necessary error to burn Giordano Bruno at the stake and to incarcerate Galileo? …
“We understand that human thinking can penetrate only to a given limit at a given time. What we fail to understand is why the human intellect does not stop at this point and say: ‘this is the present limit of my understanding. Let us wait until new vistas open up.’ This would be rational, comprehensible, purposeful thinking. …
“What amazes us is the sudden turn from the rational beginning to the irrational illusion. Irrationality and illusion are revealed by the intolerance and cruelty with which they are expressed. We observe that human thought systems show tolerance as long as they adhere to reality. The more the thought process is removed from reality, the more intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee its continued existence.” (Reich, 1949)
Who or what is responsible for this state of humankind is a major issue, most particularly if we assume a benevolent God and a hierarchy of benevolent beings guiding the destiny of humankind. Gurdjieff commented on this in the following way (edited for clarity):
“We must remember that the ray of creation… is like a branch of a tree… growth depends on organic life on earth. … if organic life is arrested in its development, in its evolution, and fails to respond to the demands made upon it, the branch may wither. This must be remembered.
“To this ray of creation, exactly the same possibility of development and growth has been given as is given to each separate branch of a big tree. But the accomplishment of this growth is not at all guaranteed. It depends upon the harmonious and right action of its own tissues.
“Organic life on earth is a complex phenomenon in which the separate parts depend upon one another. General growth is possible only on the condition that the ‘end of the branch’ grows. Or, speaking more precisely, there are organic life tissues which are evolving, and there are tissues which serve as food and medium for those which are evolving. Then there are evolving cells within the evolving tissues, and cells which serve as food and medium for those which are evolving. In each separate evolving cell there are evolving parts and there are parts which serve as food for those which are evolving. But always and in everything it must be remembered that evolution is never guaranteed, it is possible only and it can stop at any moment and in any place.
“The evolving part of organic life on earth is humanity. If humanity does not evolve it means that the evolution of organic life will stop and this, in its turn will cause the growth of our ray of creation to stop.
“At the same time if humanity ceases to evolve it becomes useless from the point of view of the aims for which it was created and as such it may be destroyed. In this way the cessation of evolution may mean the destruction of humanity.
“We have no clues from which we are able to tell in what period of planetary evolution we exist. We cannot know this but we should bear in mind that the number of possibilities is never infinite.
“At the same time in examining the life of humanity as we know it historically we are bound to acknowledge that humanity is moving in a circle. It one century it destroys everything it creates in another and the progress in mechanical things of the past hundred years has proceeded at the cost of losing many other things which perhaps were much more important for it.
“Speaking in general there is every reason to think and to assert that humanity is at a standstill, and from a standstill there is a straight path to downfall and degeneration.
“A standstill means that a process has become balanced. The appearance of any one quality immediately evokes the appearance of another quality opposed to it. The growth of knowledge in one domain evokes the growth of ignorance in another; refinement on the one hand evokes vulgarity on the other; freedom in one connection evokes slavery in another; the disappearance of some superstitions evokes the appearance and growth of others; and so on.
“A balanced process proceeding in a certain way cannot be changed at any moment it is desired. It can be changed and set on a new path only at certain ‘crossroads’. In between the crossroads nothing can be done.
“At the same time if a process passes by a crossroad and nothing happens, nothing is done, then nothing can be done afterwards and the process will continue and develop according to mechanical laws; and even if the people taking part in this process foresee the inevitable destruction of everything, they will be unable to do anything.
“I repeat that something can be done only at certain moments which I have just called ‘crossroads’ and which in octaves, we have called the ‘intervals’.
“The process of evolution, of that evolution which is possible for humanity as a whole, is completely analogous to the process of evolution possible for the individual man. And it begins with the same thing, namely, a certain group of cells gradually becomes conscious; then it attracts to itself other cells, subordinates others, and gradually makes the whole organism serve its aims and not merely eat, drink and sleep.
“In humanity as in individual man everything begins with the formation of a conscious nucleus. All the mechanical forces of life fight against the formation of this conscious nucleus in humanity, in just the same way as all mechanical habits, tastes, and weaknesses fight against conscious awareness in man.
“Can it be said that there is a conscious force which fights against the evolution of humanity?” Ouspensky asked.
“From a certain point of view it can be said,” said G.
“Where can this force come from?” Ouspensky asked.
“There are two processes which are sometimes called ‘involutionary’ and ‘evolutionary’. The difference between them is the following: An involutionary process begins consciously in the absolute but at the next step it already becomes mechanical — and it becomes more and more mechanical as it develops; an evolutionary process begins half-consciously but it becomes more and more conscious as it develops.
“But consciousness and conscious opposition to the evolutionary process can also appear at certain moments in the involutionary process.
“From where does this consciousness come?
“From the evolutionary process of course. The evolutionary process must proceed without interruption. Any stop causes a separation from the fundamental process. Such separate fragments of consciousnesses which have been stopped in their development can also unite and at any rate for a certain time can live by struggling against the evolutionary process. After all it merely makes the evolutionary process more interesting.
“Instead of struggling against mechanical forces there may, at certain moments, be a struggle against the intentional opposition of fairly powerful forces though they are not of course comparable with those which direct the evolutionary process.
“These opposing forces may sometimes even conquer.
“The reason for this consists in the fact that the forces guiding evolution have a more limited choice of means; in other words, they can only make use of certain means and certain methods. The opposing forces are not limited in their choice of means and they are able to make use of every means, even those which only give rise to a temporary success, and in the final result they destroy both evolution and involution at the point in question.
“Are we able to say for instance that life is governed by a group of conscious people? Where are they? Who are they?
“We see exactly the opposite: that life is governed by those who are the least conscious, by those who are most asleep.
“Are we able to say that we observe in life a preponderance of the best, the strongest, and the most courageous elements?
“Nothing of the sort. On the contrary we see a preponderance of vulgarity and stupidity of all kinds.
“Are we able to say that aspirations towards unity, towards unification, can be observed in life?
“Nothing of the kind of course. We only see new divisions, new hostility, new misunderstandings.
“So that in the actual situation of humanity there is nothing that points to evolution proceeding.
“On the contrary when we compare humanity with a man we quite clearly see a growth of personality at the cost of essence, that is, a growth of the artificial, the unreal, and what is foreign, at the cost of the natural, the real, and what is one’s own.
“Together with this we see a growth of automatism.
“Contemporary culture requires automatons. And people are undoubtedly losing their acquired habits of independence and turning into automatons, into parts of machines.
“It is impossible to say where is the end of all this and where the way out — or whether there is an end and a way out. One thing alone is certain, that man’s slavery grows and increases. Man is becoming a willing slave. He no longer needs chains. He begins to grow fond of his slavery, to be proud of it. And this is the most terrible thing that can happen to a man. (Ouspensky, 1949)
Carlos Castaneda puts the problem another way:
“You have arrived, by your effort alone, to what the shamans of ancient Mexico called the topic of topics. I have been beating around the bush all this time, insinuating to you that something is holding us prisoner. Indeed we are held prisoner! This was an energetic fact for the sorcerers of ancient Mexico. … They took over because we are food for them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in chicken coops, the predators rear us in human coops. Therefore, their food is always available to them…
“I want to appeal to your analytical mind’, don Juan said. ‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal…
“In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now…
“Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them.” (Castaneda, 1998, 213-220)
This, of course, takes us to Gurdjieff’s story of the evil magician, which we have already discussed. We should pay particular attention to this remark made by Gurdjieff:
“The evolving part of organic life on earth is humanity. If humanity does not evolve it means that the evolution of organic life will stop and this, in its turn will cause the growth of our ray of creation to stop.
“At the same time if humanity ceases to evolve it becomes useless from the point of view of the aims for which it was created and as such it may be destroyed. In this way the cessation of evolution may mean the destruction of humanity.”
In short, based on an objective assessment of the world around us, we are in deep trouble. In another place, Gurdjieff makes a rather spooky remark:
“There is a definite period”, he said, “for a certain thing to be done. If, by a certain time, what ought to be done has not been done, the earth may perish without having attained what it could have attained.”
“Is this period known?” I asked.
“It is known”, said G. “But it would be no advantage whatever for people to know it. It would even be worse. Some would believe it, others would not believe it, yet others would demand proofs. Afterwards they would begin to break one another’s heads. Everything ends this way with people.”
Gurdjieff gave other hints about this, though I expect he didn’t fully know the details since his own work was that of one who prepares the ground and plants the seeds that are crucial to us now when considering the Cassiopaean mission. In this passage, Gurdjieff returns again to the subject of evolution, which, as he pointed out, has stopped in humanity.
“Everything I have said till now I have said about the whole of humanity. But as I pointed out before, the evolution of humanity can proceed only through the evolution of a certain group, which, in its turn, will influence and lead the rest of humanity.
“Are we able to say that such a group exists? Perhaps we can on the basis of certain signs, but in any event we have to acknowledge that it is a very small group, quite insufficient, at any rate, to subjugate the rest of humanity. Or, looking at it from another point of view, we can say that humanity is in such a state that it is unable to accept the guidance of a conscious group.”
“How many people could there be in this conscious group?” someone asked.
“Only they themselves know this”, said G.
“Does it mean that they all know each other?” asked the same person again.
“How could it be otherwise?” asked G.
“Imagine that there are two or three people who are awake in the midst of a multitude of sleeping people. They will certainly know each other. But those who are asleep cannot know them. How many are they? We do not know and we cannot know until we become like them.
“It has been clearly said before that each man can only see on the level of his own being. But two hundred conscious people, if they existed and if they found it necessary and legitimate, could change the whole of life on the earth. But either there are not enough of them, or they do not want to, or perhaps the time has not yet come, or perhaps other people are sleeping too soundly.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
Gurdjieff was right that it was not the right time then. Based on observation and research, it is apparent that humanity has now reached a great historical crossroads. We have come to the end of a two thousand year history of intolerance, cruelty and stupidity, which has created our present state of global, collective madness. Humanity, as a collective whole, is arriving at a state of collective spiritual bankruptcy, or “death”. And yet, we cannot assume that this is meaningless.
Those who understand the principles of electricity will comprehend when I say that this present global estate is the way nature works and is the establishing of sufficient contact potential difference for the inflow of energy of cosmic light. But just as it is in the case of the individual, when that point is reached — that dark night of the soul — there is a choice that becomes apparent: the soul is offered the way “up” or the way “down”. In order for this coming inflow of energy to act in positive ways, to create a new reality of free will and balance, there must be a point of contact that can conduct the energy. There must be human “micro-chips” or “circuits” sufficient to sustain this energy or all of humanity will perish. This means that only the development of human beings of a certain sort — with a certain wiring, so to say — will result in the global capacity to confront the energies of the crossroads.
The only other turning point in history that can be compared with the present one is that of the Great Flood. Thus, we come to the idea that the search for the Holy Grail and the alchemical work of distillation of the Philosopher’s stone is also the building of an Ark in order to pass over into the New World.
That is the Fourth Way work of the Cassiopaeans.
With all of this in mind, we want to now return to Kant’s definition of free will.
Kant defined free will as the ability to initiate a new causal series. For Kant, freedom is independence of the influence of motivations, character, and external causes. It is more than just the power to choose. Freedom is the power to exercise will as reason directs, to be a first cause of events, regardless of physical constraints.
This means the ability to choose freely between at least two alternatives. It means that these (at least two) alternatives must not be weighted to one side or another in intrinsic terms. That is, there must be nothing that compels the chooser to choose one over the other. In fact, it seems to be that the choice is more potent if it is made in an act of deep and pure faith, in opposition to all that is evident in material terms.
Freedom, thus defined, captures the essence of the choice between STS and STO. To be thus free means we can see with our reason all or most of the influences that are imposed on us by the many forces acting in our environment, and we can then choose based on knowledge of those forces, irrespective of them.
Our physical bodies are phenomena subject to natural third density causality because we are part of the third density world and subject to its laws. Our actions, based on third density interpretations alone, are then subject to the same empirical third density causality, and because causal series are continuous in time (each event has a prior cause which is an effect of another prior cause), we have no freedom at this level of phenomena.
The totality of the fourth density field of possibilities is veiled from us and leaves us with no more freedom than the causally simple stimulus-response theories of the behaviorists. Our actions are a result of causal processes, controlled and devised at the fourth density or noumenal level of reality, and freedom at this third density level is impossible unless we access the fourth density causal level by seeing via the clues apparent in third density. If we can see the true field of options, we can choose our alignment. But, alignment choices seem to have far-reaching effects in terms of third density empirical experience.
What this means is that, as long as we do not engage in disciplined efforts to widen our perception, we appear to have little freedom within the field to behave other than we do. The more aware of the noumenal or causal realm we are, the more free will we can have. And this is because we are overcoming the damping effect of matter and the Predator’s mind. By doing this, we are increasing our polarization.
What can be, what might have been, or what should be are ideas that can be dealt with via reason even if there are no apparent manifestations of them in the reality. And this is where the mind — consciousness, awareness — comes into the picture in disciplined effort to envision what has not (apparently) existed and does not (apparently) exist, but which must exist by virtue of the fact we can conceive it.
In the deepest terms, reason is more than the domain of possibilities; it is also the realm of possible empirical worlds, of analytic constructions, of alternate conceptions, and of potential frameworks for the very conditions of experience. Because we can think about things that we have never experienced with any of our senses, and understand that reason, making use of knowledge and awareness, can be independent of the “real world”.
Therefore, it is also possible that reason, supported by knowledge and awareness and followed by choice, stands in causal relation to phenomena.
In other words, if your knowledge and awareness of the reality lead you to the conclusion, via reason, that the reality is controlled, and you are not free within it, yet you can develop or comprehend the idea of a world that is not controlled, that is not limited. You can choose to align yourself with such a possible world in a deep and conscious way. This choice of alignment then becomes your connection to a thought center. And the stronger your connection to the thought center, which is in the causal realm, the more it will manifest in your reality.
Kant is concerned only with whether an action can be both causally necessary and free at the same time. His answer is yes, if we are aware. Kant also argues that this is possible because we can have two different perspectives simultaneously on the same action.
To be free in Kant’s sense gives us the power to create a new world, to redo the old, to change ourselves and correct our deficiencies with awareness, which then puts our choices into an entirely different category. We can see it as an ordinary action, a choice brought into focus because of the forces around us, or other choices in our past; and at the same time we can be aware of all of those factors and choose from that position of awareness in a completely different “platonic reality” than the ordinary world.
We can argue that whether or not we have freedom is unprovable (Kant argues that the “how and why” of our possible freedom is unknowable), but given its possibility through reason we can presume freedom to exist. And once we presume it to exist, we can then make choices based on this presumption and observe the results empirically.
Reason is the crucial concept in Kant’s approach, and it is here that he makes the critical point. Reason is distinct from what we can know through our five senses, because it deals with the possibility and not actuality of experience.
What do I mean by that? Well, let me try to explain it this way. A correspondent recently wrote of his despair when he realized that what the Cassiopaeans were saying truly did do a better job of explaining the order of the universe and the meanings behind the experiences and symbols of reality.
[Tonight] we had a … big annual fireworks presentation that is synchronised with a radio broadcast … the whole thing is massive and hyped up. There’s lots of flashing lights (people even joined in and flashed their house lights), lots of aerial traffic and lots of flashing fireworks. All this backed by a radio broadcast that is impossible to escape since everyone is playing it. As beautiful as it is, I got immensely depressed. All that I know so far, all the knowledge in me just caused me to [be unable to] escape the awful feeling of alienation and despair.
All these people, the kids, the elderly, the mothers and grandparents — they are all screwed — most likely including me. We’re like sheep — we’ll be happy with a bunch of flashing lights and then we’ll go off to earn more money. To run the program. I think the most disturbing moment was when I saw this really gorgeous boy — five maybe seven. He had an incredibly smooth face; he was watching the fireworks and clapping his hand in happiness. Pity that Lizzies might eat him tomorrow. … It’s just too much to handle on your own!
We will be taken over with no problems at all. This is our destiny and only a small percentage of us worldwide will have any clue as to what is happening when the sky turns red. The rest will get burned in the packed-out churches. And what can I do?
Well, not much … it’s like one of those prophetic dreams — they happen and you can’t change anything. Yeah, I tried but my acts led to the dream FULFILLING it. So either way — whether you do something or not, little difference will be made. It makes no difference how many people I help. It makes no difference how many old ladies’ days I make. It makes no difference how many books I read and how many riddles I solve. It is all predestined anyway. I’m tired of giving already!
And so the night goes on. I am alone, with no one to truly see what I mean in a face-to-face conversation. All the people I’ve ever met had something wrong with them (and there’s literally thousands of them). No amount of unconditional love could turn them normal. I’m running out of possibilities here (maybe there’s something wrong with ME then). I’m tired of fighting, asking, probing, observing and not being able to share properly. It’s a doomed existence and I’m here to watch. Whatever happened to love, compassion and understanding? Where on Earth (HELL) has the internal beauty gone? Is all this bickering ever going to end? Enough already! [Name of correspondent withheld for privacy]
Indeed! And how passionately eloquent. Having been there, more than once, my heart bled for him. And, which is worse: to see what he is seeing as a young man with his whole life before him? Or to see what there is to see in middle age, with five children for whom you have given most of your life; seeing not only that you have been lying to yourself by believing lies and deception, but that you have conveyed those same lies to the people you love the most? What do you do when you realize that most of your life you have given away your free will and, at the same time, have taken away the free will of those dearest to you? More horrible still, what do you do when you realize it has all been done in the name of love?
Is there light at the end of this tunnel? Is there “Balm in Gilead”?
Yes, many times I experienced what my correspondent described so well. And it is only in the past few years that I am able to see it for what it was: a series of initiations. Step by step I was led through one level after another, stripping away all my beliefs and expectations until I had no more illusions in which to hide. And what I was being taught by the universe was the deepest and most essential thing to know — about myself.
When the last illusion was stripped away and I was left with nothing but the skeleton of my being, I reached what Kafka describes as “Von einem gewissen Punkt gibt es keineckkehr mehr. Dieser Punkt ist zu erreichen.” There is a point of no return. This point has to be reached.
When you have been stripped of all your illusions, when you have nothing left to believe in, there is no one there at all but yourself. It felt rather like falling endlessly in icy, black, meaningless space. No rhyme nor reason, no truth nor beauty, no anything that I had ever believed in could be seen anywhere. I had peeled away the layers of all the warm, fuzzy, comforting beliefs and found that it was all a lie, a deception, a mask for feeding and manipulation. And by believing the lies, I had participated in the feeding and manipulating to so great a degree that my grief and regret became an ocean in which I was drowning. No wonder we resist giving up our beliefs. Without them, we have to face the truth about ourselves. And, as much as we think we are loving, caring, giving beings, when we see the truth, when we see that most of our ideas about loving and caring and being have been manipulated to deprive us of our free will and to pass the infection on to those we love the most, it is like looking into the pit of Hell.
And when you look into the pit of Hell and realize that you have been feeding that black and bloody, sucking and gaping gore-filled maw waiting to swallow you, and that you have taught those you love to feed it as well, the horror of the realization is enough to drive you mad with grief and despair. And you search for a meaning, some little point of illumination, and there is no light anywhere, not even a single candle to dispel the darkness.
But, while falling in this dark, empty space, something begins to form inside you. In the beginning it is very small, but it catches your attention and, since it is the only thing that is different in the sucking, feeding darkness, you become riveted on it. You cannot be sure exactly what it is at first, but your attention gives it energy and it begins to grow inside you.
What you have found is your will.
And once you have found your will you see “the choice”. Choice is a function of will. Where will exists, choice comes into being. You can choose.
What you see is that you can choose the orientation of your soul.
The thought came to me as: “Well, okay, I don’t see any light or love or truth or beauty anywhere; and the universe may just blink out one day without it ever having really existed. But that would be a tragedy.” Desolation overwhelmed me and I felt so great a pity and love for what might have been — for what radiant and sublime dreams may be in the mind of God that might never be fulfilled; because the deceptions are so deep, and the reality is so monstrous — who can really see it and survive? And I became aware of the feather-like weight of my inclination, my true will to be. It was not more than an inclination, a propensity, a preference. But as I noted it and focused on it, it became firmer and more purposeful.
And I realized, “I am just one single, solitary, lone being in the darkness and there really and truly might never ever be anyone or anything in existence of real love, truth and beauty”. The sadness and despair vaulted from my soul into darkness that enveloped me. But nothing answered. And my attention was drawn back again to this small thing that was growing inside me, which had now begun to glow and give off warmth in that soul-chilling blackness. Somehow my thoughts were making it grow. My thoughts were aligning me with it. Resolution and steadfastness began to blossom. And then I realized it was connected to some greater source of light and by my penitential love for the dream of love and Truth, the light was growing.
And I understood that this darkness was also God; creation; Existence.
Disasters, misfortunes, tragedies, ruin, destruction, adversity, suffering, pain, anguish in all the varied manifestations we find them in our world are expressions of the idea of nonexistence. I understood that the idea of nonexistence exists only as an idea, and only because in a realm of infinite possibilities, even the potential of nonexistence exists as Non-being. In the two fundamental ideas of Being and Non-being, all creation is manifested. In the act of creation, the out rush of creative energy; half of the consciousness of God formed itself into a reflection of this idea of Non-being as part of the grand experience. And this reflection of Non-being is matter — it is only the half of the consciousness of God gone to sleep to offer itself as the clay from which the cosmos is formed.
I also understood that, in that eternal instant of falling asleep there was a sensation of loss in this half of God that “volunteered” for the role of matter, and that this sensation is expressed as a recoil, a contraction upon itself. It is this contraction in flux interaction with out-raying creative consciousness. This establishes the tension of polarization, which is the dynamic by which the cosmos is manifested. And, in third density terms, this recoil or contraction is the essence of STS; those who choose this mode recycle into sleeping matter.
The creative consciousness half of God uses the matter that is formed by the recoil of the other half of God to take on form, to engage in exploration of all the ideas in the mind of God. This results in an increase of its relative energy. This using of matter to increase energy is felt by the sleeping consciousness or matter as fear of loss of self. To assuage the fear, the matter-oriented consciousness must circumscribe, limit, and restrain. It must believe that the grand constructions of illusion are not only real, but also all that exists. Physicality becomes the standard, the measure, and the object of veneration. The physical universe is, in effect, God. This is the essential dynamic of all physical or partly physical realities, including the hyperdimensional fourth density STS.
And I finally understood the reason for the masks and mazes of our world: it is “The Parable of the Sower”.
A man went out to sow, and as he sowed, some seeds fell by the roadside, and the birds came and ate them up. Other seeds fell on rocky ground, where they had not much soil, and at once they sprang up, because they had no depth of soil; but when the sun rose they were scorched, and because they had no root they dried up and withered away. Other seeds fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked them out. Other seeds fell on good soil and yielded grain, some a hundred times as much as was sown, some sixty times as much, and some thirty. He who has ear, let him be listening and consider and perceive and comprehend by hearing.
… To you it has been given to know the secrets and mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given. For whoever has to him will more be given and he will be furnished richly, so that he will have abundance; but from him who has not, even what he has will be taken away.
While any one is hearing the Word of the kingdom and does not grasp and comprehend it, the evil one comes and snatches away what is sown in his heart. This is what was sown along the roadside. As for what was sown on thin, rocky soil, this is he who hears the Word and at once welcomes and accepts it with joy; Yet it has no real root in himself, but is temporary — inconstant, lasts but a little while and when afflictions or trouble or persecution comes on account of the Word, at once he is caused to stumble… and he falls away. As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the Word but the cares of the world and the pleasure and delight and glamour and deceitfulness of riches choke and suffocate the Word, and it yields no fruit.
As for what was sown on good soil, this is he who hears the Word and grasps and comprehends it; he indeed bears fruit, and yields in one case a hundred times as much as was sown, in another sixty times as much, and in another thirty. (Matthew 13:3—23)
Our reality is masked as a medium for growth. And what we are growing is our will which, when aligned with a given thought center, allows that thought center to manifest its will in our reality to the extent we are in alignment and can be amplified. To be in alignment with the STO thought centers results in an increase of spiritual consciousness and a diminishment of the sleeping consciousness of matter. To align with the STS thought centers, as we currently are by circumstance, results in an increase of the sleeping consciousness, or wishful thinking of matter, and a diminishment of spiritual consciousness.
Karl von Eckartshausen tells the tale of the Path to the Temple of Secrets:
The Temple of Secrets is located on a high mountain, and everywhere thorns are covering the path leading to the Temple. The inconceivable, mysterious height of the mountain is the reason why many people doubt the existence of the Temple of Secrets. Some think of it as a Fairy Tale, some consider it an old Myth and others believe it to be the Truth.
“At the entrance of the narrow path stands Ignorance, with her sisters Stupidity and Laziness, and they tell awful tales to the travelers and of horrible adventures the travelers will encounter if they set foot on this path. That is how lazy Human Beings and fearful Human Beings can easily be persuaded to turn back.
“There are a few Human Beings on which ignorance attempts her deceptions in vain. They climb up the first part of the thorny steep path, and when they are about half way up the mountain, they reach a plateau on which they find the Temple of Self-Love. Next to this Temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and Know it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he drinks his own Self in great gulps and thereby becomes intoxicated with himself, with his own “I”.
“These travelers then become so intoxicated with themselves that they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing, above them. The inscription on this temple, the Temple of Self-Love, reads as follows: The Sanctuary of the Wisdom of the World.
“Desires, passions and wantonness are the servants of these priests. However, those whose heart searches for the truth will not find any satisfaction with this and they will keep on searching.
“A few thousand steps from this Temple you will find a very secluded little hut, inhabited by a hermit, with the following inscription above the door: The Residence of Humility.
“The man who lives here guides the strangers to the residence of humility, which in turn leads them to Self-Recognition. This Divine Beauty becomes the traveler’s companion, and with her, he conquers the inaccessible mountain. Whosoever tries to reach the Temple of Secrets without this Divine Beauty can very easily be misled by his Self-Love, and as a result, will follow the wrong path. His greed for knowledge will lead him to the Temple of Curiosity. The inhabitants of this Temple are: fraud, seduction and deception, the founders of most of the secret societies, and those Human Beings who, in search for the Truth and for the Temple of Secrets will, if they join these Secret Societies, be robbed of the ability to see with their Soul. They are then led to the top of the mountain, where they fall into the abyss or into the labyrinth or maze, in which they will walk in circles for eternity without finding the Truth.
“Humility alone is the best guide. This alone will lead the seeker to the Master of Teachers of all secrets. This Master Teacher is the pure will.
“This pure will becomes the friend of the highest of knowledge and they enter into a bond of eternal union.
“The knowledge of the effects of the Eternal Light of godliness in all created beings is True Magic in Theory.
“The conception of this Light, or the transition from the intellect to the will, is True Magic in Practice.” (von Eckartshausen, 1788/1989)
Now, note the sequence above; those who align with the thought centers of STS manifest ignorance, stupidity and laziness in the sense that they believe awful tales and horrible adventures of travelers, and they are easily persuaded to turn back. That is to say that they are persuaded that knowledge will bring them to grief, or that asking questions is a “lack of faith” that will earn them condemnation at best, and a quick ticket to Hell at worst. The comparison between this analogy and the Parable of the Talents in which the servant who buried his talent because he was afraid and was cast into outer darkness are interesting, especially when we consider the end result of the STS alignment, which is to recycle into primal matter. I would suggest that people such as these are eaten rather quickly just as the seeds that fell by the wayside were immediately consumed by the birds in “The Parable of the Sower”.
Then, we have another class of STS alignment. They aren’t easily put off by terror tactics, so special deceptions are set up for them. They do reach the “plateau on which they find the temple of self-love. Next to this temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and Know it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he drinks his own self in great gulps and thereby becomes intoxicated with himself, with his own ‘I’.” We can see that these are the ones that achieve the higher levels of STS orientation. The key in the analogy is that they become so intoxicated with themselves that they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing, above them. This is what the Cassiopaeans have described as “ultimate in wishful thinking”. And, of course, these are the purveyors of most of the deceptions in our world today because one of the things that these individuals most wishfully think is that they are the purveyors of the wisdom of the world!
Von Eckartshausen tell us that “desires, passions and wantonness are the servants of these priests”. We know from this that these individuals may be very high in the STS hierarchy of the Control System themselves. And they use the nature of hunger within humanity, the Predator’s mind, to do their will.
Q: (L) It says here: In 1979, Project Phoenix, with the assistance of the Grays, was successful in producing a mind amplifier. This was used in conjunction with putting people with exceptional psychic or mental capabilities under drug influence, hooking them up to this machine and keeping them in a state of pre-orgasmic sexual excitation wherein they were able to create some type of physical form. They say: “The fire within man that is characterized as passion is the secret that can be utilized. The secret to all things is passion. With passion all things are possible. The amplification experiments of the Phoenix Project have been explained as having amplified brain waves. In fact, it amplified the passion of the subject. It was that ‘inner will’ of the subject that was amplified, that inner spirit within all of us is that driving force is manifested as electrical energy. Master that force and you cannot be controlled, the universe is yours. Master the inner spirit and you shall master the physical.” Comments please.
A: “Passion” does not set one “free”, quite the opposite!
Q: (L) But what if your passion is for knowledge? What is it that gives some people this drive, this steamroller compulsion that they are determined to get to the absolute bottom of everything and strip away every lie until there is nothing left but the naked truth? What is the source of this desire?
A: That is not passion, it is soul questing. It is simply that one is at that point on the learning cycle. At that point, no drive is needed.
Q: (L) So, you more or less are there because some critical mass has been reached that “jumps” you to the point where seeking truth is simply who you are? It defines the parameters of your being?
A: Yes.
However, there is a kind of person who has some sort of inner inclination for truth. They are simply unable to accept anything else. They cannot be satisfied until they have peeled the onion to the very core. And these keep their eyes on the goal of truth.
The seeker of truth continues to gather knowledge in the same way the servants in the “Parable of the Talents” continued to invest their money. Gathering knowledge without prejudice inevitably leads to humility. Humility combined with knowledge inevitably leads to self-recognition. And self-recognition becomes the companion that enables us to navigate the emotions and illusions that seek to distract us and blind us! Finally, self-recognition, which is the ultimate state of humility, leads us to pure will.
Now, notice, I didn’t say strong will, just pure. A person’s will to be is his natural frequency. And when you marry will to knowledge you have the hope of using your will in a particular way. This will is the mustard seed of the Biblical parable. Again: will to be, or orientation, is frequency.
Application of will via knowledge to choices produces frequency resonance vibration in the consciousness, which can then manifest in the individual’s experience in very particular ways, as I will try to explain.
Any given system has a natural frequency. A human being has several frequencies. They relate to the atomic signature of the cellular structure, etheric body frequency, and the frequency of the consciousness, which is a function of will or orientation.
If you record a pure tone, you can connect the output line that would normally connect to a speaker to an oscilloscope instead. In this way, you can see the sound rather than hear it. As you observe it, you will note that it oscillates. You are seeing a wave. Frequency is the number of crests of a wave in a designated unit of time. That is what determines frequency. More units in time mean higher frequency. Frequency is in inverse ratio to the length of the wave. The higher the frequency, the shorter the wave. (It is important to note here that a unit of time is an arbitrary measurement, so assigning a number to a frequency is merely a matter of convention.)
Frequency resonance vibration is directly related to what is called forced oscillation. Any wave system may be driven by a force from the “outside”. Whenever a system is made to vibrate by a periodic force, the resulting motion is called forced oscillation. An example would be the glass that shatters when an opera singer hits the right note.
Forced oscillations take place with the frequency of the driving force rather than with the natural frequency of the system. The amplitude of the response depends on how the driving frequency is related to the natural frequency. If these frequencies are nearly the same, even a very weak driving force can, in time, feed enough energy into the system to give it a large amplitude of motion. This condition is called resonance.
Everybody has probably pushed a child on a swing. What you notice is, after a series of very strong pushes to get the swing going, you can stand there and just give an occasional push or tap to keep the same swinging motion going. But, as every parent knows, it has to be given at exactly the right instant. The tap must be applied in the same direction, and at the very instant of the swinging away motion for it to work. If you give a push at intervals instead of at every return, you will find that an increase of force is necessary depending on how many times you let the swing come and go before applying another tap. If you set up a series of every other return before pushing, you will have to apply the exact same force at each of these arbitrarily determined intervals, which will be a multiple of the force you would have to apply if you pushed with every single return.
These intervals of pushing at arbitrarily designated returns are submultiples of the natural frequency. And, as you see from this example, they can also produce the same resonance. The frequency resonance vibration is the swinging that results from being pushed.
If the pushes continued and if the swing had long enough ropes and a brave enough child, a regular series of pushes could eventually launch the child into outer space!
But, you will notice that if the pushes are not given at the right moment, if they are not constantly delivered either with every swing or in a submultiple, if no periodicity is maintained, the swing will slow down and stop. You will also notice that if you do not apply the pushes in a fixed period, the motion of the swing is erratic. And you will definitely notice that if you push at the wrong moment, or against the swing direction, you will cause it to slow down. In such a case, you are taking energy away from the system.
The very same principles apply to forced oscillation of any wave, whether it is a sound wave, radio wave, light wave or whatever. In fact, it could be said that light produced is forced oscillations of atoms. All things in nature, which are a response to a stimulus, are forced oscillations.
A human being could be considered a series of forced oscillations.
And here we come to the problem:
“Besides depending on how close the driving frequency is to the natural frequency, the amplitude of response of the forced vibrations of a system also depends on the strength of the damping. The less damping there is, the greater the response of resonance. The resonance frequency is always lower than the natural frequency but gets very close as the damping is reduced.” (Freeman, 1973)
Now, as we have said, a human being is a combination of frequencies of the cellular structure, the etheric or genetic body, and the consciousness orientation. If these different frequencies operate in harmonious submultiples of a certain fundamental frequency, we say that the system is in harmony. That is to say, there is harmonious frequency resonance.
We can also say that by changing one of the frequencies and amplifying it, the others may be brought into harmony by the process of forced oscillation if the natural frequency of each is a harmonic of, or is close to, the driving frequency.
At the same time, the act of changing any of the frequencies can be accomplished by forced oscillation from the “outside”, whether in harmony or not. That is to say, if the forced oscillation is not close to the natural frequency there will be less amplitude.
Now, a human being, in general, is under the powerful influence of the matter of which his body is constructed. Matter is the result of the STS. The thought of Non-being or sleeping consciousness of God. Therefore, by being in third density, to a great extent, man is asleep. He is under the influence of the frequency of the STS polarity. His frequency resonance vibration is STS, or that of matter. The Predator’s mind.
But, man has a possibility of changing frequency, aligning with STO polarity, if he can find that part of him that is truly of Service-to-Others and amplify it through the process of frequency resonance vibration, resulting from the forced oscillation of alignment with the STO thought center. It is only his will that can do this, and it is only when it is married to knowledge so that he can truly know what his choice is and how to implement it. These choices are the pushes of the swing. If sufficient amplitude is achieved, all of his other frequencies will also gradually be forced into frequency resonance vibration.
Of course, this process is not only dependent upon the natural frequency of the individual, but also upon the dampers that may be in place that can restrict the amplitude. The fewer dampers, the greater the amplitude that can be achieved with the least application of energy.
We have to discover and remove the dampers to our systems.
Again, it is in the gaining of knowledge through which we can remove the dampers, little by little. It is hard work and it is painful. But as we do this, we come, step by step; to the position of humility and self-knowledge that enables the alignment of the will. If the natural frequency of STO is present in the moment of choice, this pure will becomes the “friend of the highest of knowledge” and they “enter into a bond of eternal union”. One is then able to connect with the eternal creative light within, which then becomes the forced oscillator that changes the frequency resonance vibration in dramatic and life changing ways. This amounts to giving up self-will to allow the greater will of the thought center to manifest. The manifestation of this in one’s daily life via choices become pushes of the swing of the etheric body and the atomic signature of the cellular structure, which then changes the entire reality.
When we finally achieve self-recognition and humility, we understand that it is implementation of our choices at this third density level that increases the amplitude of our frequency resonance vibration, which is, in actuality, our polarization. Amplitude constitutes our ripeness” fo advancement to the next density. What we are choosing is, in effect, which part we will play in the next cycle of creation. What we do now determines our course into either consciousness that creates or the intensely contractile thought of Non-being that goes to sleep as primal matter. Neither of them are higher frequencies, they are simply different.
Mass and “spring constant” are the determinants of frequency in material terms. Using the principle of “As above, so below”, we must assume that similar constructs apply to spiritual frequencies. The spring constant is the measurement of the force needed to extend the mass by an arbitrary measure. Mass, since it relates to matter, in spiritual terms is analogous to sleeping consciousness or ignorance. This means that the fundamental ignorant or sleeping nature of the STS orientation equates to greater mass and spring constant. Greater mass and spring constant require greater strength of forced oscillation to produce frequency resonance vibration even if the natural frequency is very close to the frequency of the forced oscillator. Thus, since the natural frequency of the human being is that of matter to the greatest extent, it is more inclined to be influenced by the STS polarity’s forced oscillation.
Less mass and spring constant are the result of knowledge. Knowledge is a function of consciousness and all knowledge that isknowledge and not assumption, prejudice or illusion, increases consciousness.
Q: (L) We have been discussing memories and how memories of, say, past lives are stored, and that leads to the question of what is the structure and composition of the soul? How does the soul remember? How does it carry its memories from lifetime to lifetime, from body to body, whether simultaneous or sequential? How does the soul “store” them?
A: Has to do with atomic principles. These with gravity present the borderland for the material and the nonmaterial. Which theoretical atomic particulates would you think form the basis here?
Q: (L) How about tachyons?
A: Maybe neutrons? Neutrinos.
Q: (A) Neutrinos are funny particles because they are massless. But, some people don’t believe that neutrinos exist. Do they exist?
A: Okay, we are going to throw caution to the “winds”, and say yes. [Laughter.]
Q: (L) In terms of these neutrinos and soul composition, how are memories formed or held or patterned with these neutrinos?
A: Contained within for release when and if suitable.
Q: (L) Memories are contained within the neutrinos?
A: Sort of.
Q: (L) Are they contained within patterns formed by the neutrinos?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) So, that means that if one “consciousness unit”, or soul has more memories or experiences than another consciousness unit, it would have more neutrinos?
A: No.
Q: (L) What’s the difference?
A: More data per unit, sort of.
Q: (L) Does that mean that an individual neutrino can be, in and of itself, more “dense” in data, so to speak?
A: So to speak.
Q: (L) Does this increased density of data change the nature or function of the individual neutrino?
A: Maybe it changes the function of the awareness, thus the environs.
Q: (L) Is there a specific number of neutrinos that constitutes a consciousness unit, or soul?
A: Number is not quite the right concept. Orientation is closer.
Q: (L) What are the orientational options?
A: Vibrational frequencies.
Q: (L) Do the vibrational frequencies increase or decrease with density of data?
A: Change; better not to quantify.
Note that the nature of the soul is fundamentally altered not only by a change in the orientation of the basic units, which has to do with changing frequencies. This process is also dependent on increasing the data within the basic units; vibrational frequencies change with increase of the density of data.
The increase of data changes the frequency in a natural way from the orientation of STS to that which is closer to STO. This results in a reduction in mass and spring constant, which means less energy must be input from the forced oscillator in order to produce frequency resonance vibration.
This is why it is easier to increase amplitude via the STO alignment. This is why it is easier to graduate to fourth density via the STO alignment. This is also why all the dampers and controls are held so tightly in place. The Control System does not want humans to graduate to fourth density and that is why they create beliefs and illusions and controls designed to induce us to make STS choices no matter what we do. As long as we believe lies, we are aligned with STS. As long as we are aligned with STS, our mass and spring constant make it impossible for us to increase our amplitude for graduation.
And this brings up another fact. In order to graduate to fourth density via the STS pathway, several conditions must be met. First, nearly all of the dampers to STS for the individual must be removed and all of the STO inclinations of the individual must be removed to increase the potential for amplification.
Second, the natural frequency of the individual, which we already know is a function of choice, must be so close to the pure STS frequency as to be almost identical for the forced oscillation from the higher density thought center to have any effect at all. This means that the degree and depth of depravity, malignity, malevolence, degeneration and contraction must be extremely pure in the individual.
A: We wish to review some things… The concept of a “master race” put forward by the Nazis was merely a 4th density STS effort to create a physical vehicle with the correct frequency resonance vibration for 4th density STS souls to occupy in 3rd density. It was also a “trial run” for planned events in what you perceive to be your future.
Q: (L) You mean with a strong STS frequency so they can have a “vehicle” in third density, so to speak?
A: Correct. Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.
Q: (L) So, that is why they are programming and experimenting? And all these folks running around who some think are “programmed”, could be individuals who are raising their nastiness levels high enough to accommodate the truly negative STS fourth density — sort of like walk-ins or something, only not nice ones?
A: You do not have very many of those present yet, but that was, and still is, the plan of some of the 4th density STS types.
When you “grok” the level of STS that has to be present in an individual in order to graduate to fourth density STS, the purity of the evil — the consciousness of it — well, it is a pretty horrifying thought. It’s like Ted Bundy, Albert Fish, Ed Gein, and Jeffrey Dahmer all rolled into one and amplified exponentially! Not only that, smarter!
Such beings would not have the damping effect of any STO frequencies on the STS frequency. Efforts would be made to reduce, or eliminate entirely, any residual STO inclinations that might act to expose them in their moments of STO “weakness”. That is truly scary and is something we need to keep in mind.
Such a being would be able to act in any way they chose, without glitches that give them away, and be able to disarm and deceive to get their prey exactly where they want them.
Unfortunately, a mixture of STS and STO choices do not add up to graduation to fourth density STS. All they do is damp each other, thus making it less likely for any amplification will occur. The person who wishes to pursue the STS pathway with the intent of graduating has to give up any and all thoughts of experiencing love or kindness that is freely given. Yes, they can be in love relationships and can act kind. But, at this level, it is all pure manipulation for the purpose of owning or subsuming to the self the energies of others. Yet, there are those to whom this path is attractive.
However, this is not clearly seen at the lower densities until the masks are stripped away. The deepest implications of this are hidden by many veils. And even the fourth and fifth density STS participants do not necessarily comprehend the ultimate dissolution at the end of their philosophies. This is why there are so many higher-density sources that are convinced they are teaching love and light and truth and beauty, and why so many on third density are deceived by these teachings. Those who are deceived believe in these teachings because they “feel” good, or because they “want” to. This belief that is sustained in the face of all empirical evidence to the contrary amounts to wishful thinking. It is seeing what one wants to see, rather than what is: ultimate wishful thinking.
The deepest implication of wishful thinking means that those who adopt this view of reality cannot see that they do not become God by what amounts to assimilation and control of other selves; but that the real result is a gradual compaction and implosion and dissolution into primal matter and Non-being. The negative hierarchy is a pyramidal food chain; the apex of the pyramid is comprised of the most persistent of the negative graduates, the one who has stuck it out against every evidence of diminishment, and is the ultimate example of wishful thinking.
And this is the most important point of all. It is a way home because, at the eternal moment when those that return to the light do return, those that hold the idea of Non-being, or darkness also return. In an eternally instantaneous unification and disbursement act that was, is and always will be, the energies of darkness and lightness fall into their respective roles eternally. When you realize that it is never going to end, that neither path will take you to “heaven” and “eternal bliss”, or oblivion or any of the illusions perpetrated upon humankind, it then becomes simply a matter of preference. And that preference is only an inclination. It literally has the weight of a feather.
And that, my friend, is the choice that I faced. The possibility of Service-to-Others in a realm composed of matter, which is by its nature Service-to-Self, under the control of higher density beings who are oriented by Service-to-Self. That’s where we are. That is what is in this realm.
And, by understanding that either choice ultimately leads back to God, since there really is no back to God because in real terms there is no separation from God to begin with, we find that we have an unweighted choice.
That’s it. The whole banana. That’s the choice. Either way, nothing is going to come to an end with union with God because the instant there is union with the one, it all starts over again. That’s what is. Our choice is to actualize what is in us; To choose our orientation and begin to discover how to amplify it.
Of course, that means we have some details to hammer out here. Like the fact that every single day we make choices and every one of these choices either amplifies our frequency resonance vibration, or damps it. The Control System wants to damp all our choices so that we will neither be able to polarize nor increase amplitude. They have a nice little thing going here and they will do anything to keep it going.
So, we need to get down to the nitty gritty of what is really Service-to-Others and Service-to-Self.
In the simplest of terms, Service-to-Others is a creative impulse. It is to find delight and satisfaction in variety and change. It is to serve God in others, which means to give all others the right to be what they choose, to give them the right to their own free will. It does not mean to give them your energy, your love, or any part of your creative force unless there is willing exchange. In an STO exchange, all parties give freely to all others and therefore all are sustained and grow.
Service-to-Self is, at the deepest level, just the thought of Non-being that manifests as fear of losing self in the act of creation. Thus, difference, variety, change, spontaneity, and all creative functions are feared and must be carefully controlled.
Service-to-Self naturally forms itself into a controlling hierarchy where each level is narrower and more exclusive and contractile than the level below it. It is a process of consuming conscious awareness and stuffing it into the black hole of the thought of Non-being in an effort to fill up that hole, thereby assuaging the fear evoked by the thought of Non-being. The thing that happens, though, is that a consciousness which has been subsumed into this thought is then defined by it and contracts and contracts until it becomes, eventually, primal matter.
One of the problems we face is the fact that, very often, the desire of human beings at this third level of density to experience light and love and truth and beauty; to be One in a harmony of similar goals and objectives of peace and tranquility, kindness, devotion, respect and concord, is manipulated by those beings who live in fear of losing self, twisted and distorted to mean a contraction into sameness rather than harmonious variety.
In human terms, this fear of losing self and need to become One is not always expressed by overt domination or subjugation. It is often expressed by the dynamic of absorption of other consciousnesses into a single ideal, narrowly defined by human terms of love and light. Very often the ideals of love and light are twisted to mean denying the free will of others to make their own choices.
In fact, the idea that evil is a rebellion, a fault, a thing to be done away with, is the twist in all the teachings of history that have laid the groundwork for domination and absorption by the forces of Service-to-Self. In terms of monotheism, this idea of saving the world has manifested the fruits of the many slaughters that have been instituted in the name of unity, and love. Because of this perceived need to fix or change or transform other people or situations, those whose inner inclination is actually STO are induced to damp their own STO frequency. If, in the act of giving or sending love, or any act whatsoever you deny the free will of another, you are damping your STO frequency resonance vibration.
And remember, we are not talking about free will in the simplistic terms of being able to do as one chooses without restriction. So we aren’t talking about not putting criminals in jail for breaking the law. In fact, putting a criminal in jail so that he can fully enter into his freely chosen lesson can be pure STO. It’s the old don’t do the crime if you can’t do the time cliché. By doing the crime, the individual has chosen the consequences at some level.
Each and every time we participate in wishful thinking, we are polarizing to Service-to-Self because wishful thinking is the essence of the constructed defense against the fear of Non-being. Thus, when we live in illusions we are, by default, electing to be part of the STS food chain.
The illusions in which we participate are generally projections of higher density STS beings, and are set up to produce the negative polarization energy of those on third density, which supports and maintains the fourth density STS beings so that they can continue to project the illusion. This results in the inability of human beings to see what is truly of STO, which prevents their making STO choices, which damps their frequency resonance vibration and keeps them in the cycle.
The work of developing free will is to stop believing lies. At the same time, the only way to really learn this is to try on the lies until the external evidence mounts so high that one is forced to the ultimate choice of choosing to continue with the lie in the face of the evidence that it is a lie, or to choose to see only the truth.
Such a choice is a causal act of polarization. It is an alignment of choice.
Making the choice only comes to those who are ready, those who have reached that point on the learning cycle. None of us can skip this step, and none of us can make it for others. In fact, the greatest gift we can give to save another is to release them fully into their chosen lessons.
And so, the choice comes, you are face to face with what you truly are, in the blackness of the abyss, and you choose. I realised that in terms of any action I might take in this reality, I had no free will except in terms of my response. I could choose how I responded. I could choose my frequency. That was it. In my case the thought came:
I will offer myself as one who has chosen to be this light, love, truth and beauty. By being it, I am giving it to God. I will strive for as long as I am present on this Godforsaken planet, as long as I am separated from my source, drifting in the darkness, to be as much of love and truth and beauty as I can manage to manifest.
I no longer cared whether that made me a prime piece of meat for the Control System; I didn’t care if they were going to eat me tomorrow or even if they ate everybody I loved and the whole universe ended in a bang and I was blotted out of existence for eternity.
I figured that for whatever it was worth, which may have been absolutely nothing, when it was all over and the stars all blinked out, there was going to be that one little memory in the physical universe’s brain; the memory that one person responded with love to the right of the universe to be exactly as it is, even if what it is is nothing but a dark, devouring mouth that consumes its creatures as soon as they are created, including me. My response to seeing was to sound the tone of love, beauty and truth so that it would have existence in me.
I chose to end the illusion of wishful thinking about life in the flesh and all the ways we are deceived. Finally I understood the dynamics of third density Service-to-Self. And I understood why it was that everywhere I looked there was darkness. And I understood my choice. And I made it. Yes, there is no candle to illuminate the darkness that I can see — so the only solution is to be my own candle.
I decided that whatever I had to do at this level in order to discover how to respond to life in order to do and be that truth and beauty implicit in the unconditional love of free will, I was going to keep searching until my last breath. If all my efforts failed, at least my response as one who held to the ideal of truth, love and beauty, from the very depths of my soul and in the face of whatever horror I faced in my search, would have existed.
I realized that this truly was the only thing that I had to give, and I was ready to give it. And the fact is it was everything in me — little though it might have been. But it was my all. And I chose to give this response as a pure, clear tone, to God with the full awareness that there was nothing I could expect to change it There was no anticipation that it would make any difference at all, and the greatest likelihood was that I would be drowned out or devoured rather quickly.
So, like a battered and bloody soldier on a battlefield with all the odds against him, like a Berserker who had lost all care for, or consciousness of, the weakness of the flesh, I picked myself up and set my eyes firmly on the center of the action, and started to walk in that direction. And I never looked back.
And for me, the universe changed in that instant.
In my own moment of choice, I was dealing with a possibility that was not an actuality. It is impossible to be a true STO being in an STS world. For me, it was such a pity, such a sadness that once I penetrated the illusion I found nothing but darkness.
I could see that real truth and beauty just simply could not be found in our reality once one began to peel away the layers of lies and deception and illusion. To realize that love given to someone or something in order to change it was clearly a judgment, and that nearly all love practiced in our world was clearly done because it was a manipulation designed to gain, whether it was salvation or to be loved in return or to feel good, all of which feed Non-being. This produced in me such a sensation of sadness and love for creation that, in that moment, the choice to manifest love and truth within, despite the fact I could know nothing of it through my five senses and third density experience, was a choice to make a possibility real.
I was able to see with my intellect the influences that are imposed on us by the many forces acting in our environment, but I then chose irrespective of them. I could see, after all the years of stripping away veils like flesh from my very bones, that the whole grand scheme of things in third density merely amounted to choosing the lesser of many evils. It was a system of dampers.
For me to have to choose that way was not a choice, it was a compromise. I was no longer willing to compromise. You could even say that I chose rebellion over compromise with the forces that control our environment. The reason and intent for the choice was above this control and was made with full awareness that it may be impossible to ever do anything to effectively implement the choice.
In other words, there was no weight to the choice. I was seeing that over and over again I had been told I must drink the water and not the oil because it was the only rational choice, and I was rejecting that control. I was essentially choosing to drink neither, preferring to seek further for the ideal “living water”. And it was only in myself that I found it. It was in my power to choose to continue to create rather than seek return and oblivion.
Jesus answered [the Samaritan woman at Jacob’s well], If you had only known and had recognized God’s gift … you would have asked Him and He would have given you living water. … Whoever takes a drink of the water that I will give him shall never, no never, be thirsty anymore. But the water that I will give him shall become a spring of water welling up continually within him unto eternal life. … A time will come when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in true reality; for the Father is seeking just such people as these … God is a Spirit and those who worship Him must worship Him in spirit and truth. (John 4:10—24)
The deepest realization of this choice hits home when you understand that the greatest illusions that are chosen by us are those of our closest relationships. Jesus said:
Do not think that I have come to bring peace upon the earth; I have not come to bring peace but a sword. For I have come to part asunder a man from his father, and a daughter from her mother, and a newly married wife from her mother-in-law; and a man’s foes will be they of his own household. He who loves and takes more pleasure in father or mother than in Me is not worthy of Me; and he who loves and takes more pleasure in son or daughter than in Me is not worthy of me; And he who does not take up his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Whoever finds his [lower] life will lose the [higher] life and whoever loses his [lower] life on My account will find [the higher life]. (Matthew 10: 35—39)
Every situation or dynamic in which we find ourselves demands a response. To not respond is, of course, a choice to accede to the dynamic as it is. This means that the only true response we can give is to be more fully and strongly what we have chosen. Consciously. And only by doing this do we progress to the next level.
We come then to the problem of how to do this. I realized that it was a matter of growing stronger in terms of polarity. At the level of third density, the animal man is far stronger than the spiritual man. Third density is the point at which the process of division takes place. Some will follow the unification into Oneness that leads to the “new” descent into primal matter, and some will become the consciousness that loses itself in the clay of creation for the joy of learning and experience. There are those that find the door to the inner circle of creation, and those that descend to become matter.
And on that note, I will close this volume of the Wave with the words of Gurdjieff:
“The inner circle is called the ‘esoteric’; this circle consists of people who have attained the highest development possible for man, each one of whom possesses individuality in the fullest degree, that is to say, an indivisible ‘I’, all forms of consciousness possible for man, full control over these states of consciousness, the whole of knowledge possible for man, and a free and independent will.
“They cannot perform actions opposed to their understanding or have an understanding which is not expressed by actions.
“At the same time there can be no discords among them, no differences of understanding. Therefore their activity is entirely coordinated and leads to one common aim without any kind of compulsion because it is based upon a common and identical understanding.” …
“Everything I have said till now I have said about the whole of humanity. But as I pointed out before, the evolution of humanity can proceed only through the evolution of a certain group, which, in its turn, will influence and lead the rest of humanity.
“Are we able to say that such a group exists? Perhaps we can on the basis of certain signs, but in any event we have to acknowledge that it is a very small group, quite insufficient, at any rate, to subjugate the rest of humanity. Or, looking at it from another point of view, we can say that humanity is in such a state that it is unable to accept the guidance of a conscious group.”
“How many people could there be in this conscious group?” someone asked.
“Only they themselves know this,” said G.
“Does it mean that they all know each other?” asked the same person again.
“How could it be otherwise?” asked G.
“Imagine that there are two or three people who are awake in the midst of a multitude of sleeping people. They will certainly know each other. But those who are asleep cannot know them. How many are they? We do not know and we cannot know until we become like them.
“It has been clearly said before that each man can only see on the level of his own being. But two hundred conscious people, if they existed and if they found it necessary and legitimate, could change the whole of life on the earth. But either there are not enough of them, or they do not want to, or perhaps the time has not yet come, or perhaps other people are sleeping too soundly.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
1 In my opinion, the ancient ways that Gurdjieff claimed no longer exist were, in fact, the “Fourth Way” as he described it, though more “permanent”.
2 This is certainly what happened to Gurdjieff’s work.
That there exists a soulless race, now numbering close to three billion inhabitants of this planet, certainly helps explain why the Earth is in its current state. That this soulless race are portals used by the 4D STS to maintain their control over us further explains the depth of the manipulations and why it was essential to cover up the teachings of the man we now call Jesus, but who the Cassiopaeans have said was actually named Jesinavarah, and also why a study of history is essential in order to get some idea of the dynamics that have contributed to our present condition. Organic portals are the terminal connections of a sort of geographic overseer which are sub-units of the Thought Center of Non-being. It is through our relationships with them that we feed and maintain the Control System, the STS polarity.
Organic portals are generic vehicles, in human form, open for use by a variety of forces, which is why they make excellent puppets. It just so happens that they’re being used now by 4D STS to control 3D STS, 4D STO candidates through “clapper” and “vampire” functions — keeping us locked into a behavioral pattern matching the orchestrated norm, and being physically close to us to sap our energies and to keep us from having enough escape velocity to remove ourselves from the Matrix Control System’s tug, via development of our magnetic centers. They further entrench our STS nature via forced oscillation.
Thus we see that the natural function of the OP — imitation of soul energy — assumes a specific character with the collecting of soul energy of souled individuals in order to pass it along the feeding chain to 4D STS. The principal role of the OP is now to prevent the genuine seeker from advancing along the Way. This is clear when we look at the following:
OPs collect soul energy from souled individuals.
This energy is transmitted to 4D STS.
OPs are intermixed in families with souled individuals.
When a souled individual makes the commitment to the Work, he or she needs to learn to conserve soul energy, for without it the Work cannot be done.
When one makes a commitment to the Work, one comes under attack.
This attack comes from those closest to you: family and friends.
However, the Cassiopaeans said: “when someone is in the process of ‘growing’ and strengthening the soul, the Control System will seek to insert even more ‘units’ into that person’s life.” So in many ways, the actual work of learning to adjust the lens of one’s view of reality involves learning to discern the true nature of the seeker’s relationships in order to conserve energy, so that the seeker can accumulate enough to grow and strengthen the connection to the soul. Mouravieff makes this clear when he makes the following comments about understanding the “film” of your life:
In theory, the film in which a man is born and in which he lives can go on until the end of the world, on condition that he is happy, satisfied with himself, attributing his virtues to himself, and blaming others for his mistakes and misfortunes. Properly speaking, this kind of existence cannot be considered as human; it could be described as anthropoid. This term is justified in the sense that exterior man, immersed in self-satisfaction, represents the crowning achievement of millions of years of evolution of the species from its animal ancestors, yet, from the point of view of esoteric evolution, he is a possibility which has not yet been realized.
If we envisage the problem of esoteric evolution from the point of view of the film and the different parts man can play in it, it is clear that this kind of evolution is impossible as long as the film can always be considered as running in the same circle. People who perform in such a film are those we have called anthropoids, puppets, the dead who, in the words of Jesus, ‘believe themselves to be alive’. Esoteric evolution starts when man, by his conscious efforts, proves capable of breaking the circle and transforming it into an ascending spiral. (Mouravieff 2002, 234—235)
But to do this, those secondary roles filled by the puppets, the Organic Portals, must be eliminated from the film.
As we have just said, man most often comes to this idea of evolution after he has already complicated the film to which he belongs. But true evolution cannot occur except on the basis of the original film — after all the artificially added elements have been eliminated. The latter is conditional on a return to the purity of the centers, especially the emotional center which — at least at the start — is the sole receptacle of spiritual influences, and seat of the magnetic center. The heart must therefore be pure, and if it is not already pure it must be purified. This is the sine qua non condition of success. (Mouravieff 2002, 238)
As we now know, the heart cannot be purified without great knowledge, which leads to perspicacity. Painful though it may seem to be, among those “artificially added elements” which need to be eliminated from our lives are organic portals.1
This suggests to us the possibility that the figure around which the Jesus legend was wrapped was presenting a teaching that denied everything that all of the other religions promoted. Such a concept denies the value of sacrifice to the gods; it denies the value of appeasing the gods, honoring the gods, praying to the gods, expecting to be saved by or cleansed from sin by the gods. It places the important lesson squarely upon the human being as described in the parable of the Prodigal Son.
The parable describes the son as going to a Far Country, the “Fall” as “a famine in the country.” It tells us how the Prodigal Son went to a “resident of the Far Country” to ask for help. We can easily see that this resident represents the God of this world in his three monotheistic permutations. And what did the God do? Sent the Prodigal Son to live with the pigs. And there we see the clear explication of the organic portals in our lives. We also understand the use of the term in the saying: do not cast your pearls before swine lest they turn and rend you in pieces. We begin to understand the reason that the pearl was used as the metaphor for the magnetic center, “buried” in a field, and the necessity to sell all you own to obtain the field with the pearl of great price. A pearl is formed over time, layer after layer, around a seed, a kernel, a grain of sand that is an irritant. In this world, souled beings are irritants, but in this world they have the possibility of growing a soul and ascending.
If we just learn to “make nice and get along” and suffer as nobly as possible and forgive and forget while maintaining close feeding relationships with organic portals, then we are wasting our time. Forgiveness and understanding are, certainly, important, but what is most important is to not use such as a pretext to prolong a feeding relationship. The big problem is discerning the difference between the children of the Kingdom of Heaven and the children of a lesser god.
As we have already noted, before the Fall, those human beings with higher centers had access to communication with the higher densities via the “Maidens of the Wells,”2 or the union between the right and left hemispheres of the brain and alignment with the fourth density STO. Because of their alignment, their frequency, and the lack of STS dampers, it was a simple matter to amplify Frequency Resonance Vibration.
After the Fall, it seems that a specific genetic variation was somatically induced by the incarnation of certain higher density beings who “gave their blood” for the “redemption of man.” That is to say that they changed the body and DNA by forced oscillation. It is likely that this was done through the female incarnations because of the role of the mitochondrial DNA, but I don’t want to get ahead of myself here, so we will leave that for the moment. 3
Nevertheless, the presence of this DNA, depending upon the terms of recombination, makes it very likely that there are literally millions of carriers of this shamanic bloodline ability on the earth today. And it is for all of you, that these pages are being written.
What strikes me as particularly fiendish is the way Christianity has co-opted, twisted and perverted the teaching. Christians certainly teach their followers about separating themselves from “sinners,” but their version of those from who they must be separated is based entirely on human judgments of what is or is not sinful based on their religious creed. On the other hand, the doctrine of gnosis suggests that we view all others as potentially having higher centers, real human empathy, and it is only when we begin to act, based on those higher principles, that we find ourselves being attacked, or attempts made to vector us away from the path to gnosis.
Don’t expect people to understand you when you begin to assess your lessons and your relationships and to act on those assessments. The more a person becomes assimilated to the Service-to-Others orientation, the more effective his choices become, but, at the same time, to others his existence becomes incomprehensible and even threatening.
Now, it is pretty easy to practice these terms when giving to strangers or associates that are not intimately involved in your life. It’s a lot harder to do it in close, personal relationships which is where it is most essential for the Shaman. The reason for this is the particular role the shaman plays in the cosmic dynamics of all times, and most especially the present — that of the spiritual warrior.
… shamanism is important not only for the place that it holds in the history of mysticism. The shamans have played an essential role in the defense of the psychic integrity of the community. They are pre-eminently the antidemonic champions; they combat not only demons and disease, but also the black magicians. The exemplary figure of the shaman champion is … the mythical founder of Na-khi shamanism, the tireless slayer of demons. The military elements that are of great importance in certain types of Asian shamanism … are accounted for by the requirements of war against the demons, the true enemies of humanity. In a general way, it can be said that shamanism defends life, health, fertility, the world of “light,” against death, diseases, sterility, disaster, and the world of “darkness.” [emphasis added] (Eliade 2004, 508—509)
The fundamental and universal function of the shaman is to have the force necessary for what we call the struggle against the powers of evil. This does not mean going and duking it out with a demon, arguing over which channeled information is right or wrong, praying for world peace, or sending love and light to war-torn Bosnia. It doesn’t mean doing spirit release or exorcism (though it could include such things in certain circumstances).
What it does mean is the constant and ever present need to sustain a very particular Frequency Resonance. What the shaman represents is a Pole of the World, through which the energies of creation can be transduced into third density. They are required to manifest in their bodies certain frequencies that can only be developed in relationships where the life force of the shaman is enhanced by the interaction, not drained.
The battling of demons is clearly a clue that the STO shaman must amplify the STO frequency and avoid amplification of the STS dynamic. That is where the true battle is fought.
In the stories of the ancient shamans of great power, it is often noted that, if they become a shaman at a point in their life when they have a spouse and family, very often the Shaman is given a new spirit spouse whose most important function is to prepare special food for the shaman so that (s)he can do the special work. Sometimes this spirit spouse was an actual second wife or husband, who moved in with the family. In cultures where shamanism was understood, if the original wife was not suitable, she at least understood the necessity for a special wife to fulfill the function of feeding the shaman. Of course, there are some stories of first wives who did not take well to having a second wife, even if it was only a spirit and not embodied in another woman, and the result was generally a conflict that ended in the death of the first wife (or husband if the shaman was a woman). One suspects that this idea is at the root of the many ancient myths of the battles of brothers over a woman, or a “sacrifice,” such as the story of Cain and Abel.
The point of this is not necessarily that it tells us something in a literal sense, but that it is symbolic of the shaman’s spiritual need to interact with beings that engage in an STO dynamic of mutual giving rather than manipulation and draining. A conclusion could be drawn that the STO shaman must be in direct interaction, on an intimate level, only with someone who is like him or her in the sense Mouravieff has described it. In such a case their energies will exchange, commutate, and expand from the interaction. They will “push each other’s swing,” in terms of forced oscillation, setting up a Frequency Resonance Vibration between them that is so powerful that they will naturally “grow.”
Of course we know by now that the forces of entropy that we suspect can be quite conscious, and may inhabit hyperdimensional space, will bring forward many of their own candidates for this intimate interaction who are not alike for the purpose of making sure that the shaman never gains sufficient strength. At the same time, it is also possible that the presence of such persons in the shaman’s life can serve the all-important function of assisting in the breaking down and stripping of the flesh from the bones in preparation for the initiation. But, once the initiation has occurred, it is crucial for the Shaman to act in order to immediately strengthen his polarity. It is better to be in no relationship than to be in one that both drains and damps the self and feeds and amplifies the STS frequency.
I want to go in a slightly different direction for a bit here and talk about the fact that it seems that the original shamans were women and how did things ever get so horribly mucked up that nowadays, women — especially shamanic women — are often so oppressed that they barely manage to keep body and soul together? I’m going to explain how that happened, and a lot besides, and it all started when I was asked to write an article about Halloween.
When you think of Halloween, what is the first image that comes to mind? I took a little informal poll among my friends, family and associates. Guess what image came in first? Jack-o-lanterns! Bet you thought I was going to say “witches”. Well, I sure thought it would be witches, but they only came in a close second!
When I think of Halloween, I think of grade-school art projects where we cut out silhouettes of witches to paste onto large yellow moons made of construction paper. The witch was always on a broom with her black dress flying in the wind, accompanied by a black cat sitting on the back of the broom. I wondered even then how the cat managed to stay on and why anybody would think that straddling a broomstick as a seat would be even remotely comfortable.
But, there you have it: in a significant way, Halloween is associated with witches, evil women who consort with the devil and do evil things like caging lost children to fatten them up and eat them, giving poisoned apples and setting up spinning wheels to poison abandoned or hapless princesses who are only looking for true love.
The word “witch” comes to us from the Old English wicca, which was a masculine word meaning “wizard”. The feminine version was wicce, pronounced “witch”. This came from Middle High German wicken, which meant to “bewitch”, and even older, from Old High German wÄ«h which meant “holy”. The dictionary tells us that a witch is someone who has malignant supernatural powers and practices spell casting with the aid of a devil or familiar. It also refers to an ugly old woman, or a beautiful young woman. The word “witch” is an epithet for any woman who isn’t inclined to be a doormat, flung to the floor by any individual who wants her to be subject to his or her will. Last of all, a witch is a practitioner of Wicca.
Wicca is a British construct created by an amateur anthropologist named Gerald Gardner who claimed to have had many interesting encounters and experiences with the occult and paranormal throughout his life. At one point, he claimed to have doctoral degrees from the Universities of Singapore and Toulouse, which was a lie. He claimed that he was initiated into a New Forest coven of witches which was the survival of a pre-Christian pagan witch cult. This alleged ancient coven has been shown by subsequent research to have been formed in the early 20th century and its ideas were based mainly on folk magic and the theories of Margaret Murray, so again, his honesty is rather suspect.
Gardner incorporated elements from Freemasonry, ceremonial magic, and the imaginings of Aleister Crowley and others. Most of what one sees when carefully examining these elements that combined to form modern Wicca bears no relationship whatsoever to the ancient religions as they can be discerned by deep study. Rather, these elements are likely more influenced by taking the descriptions of the persecutors of witches during the Inquisition as a guideline, instead of realizing that they were the defamatory falsifications of psychopaths. It is more likely that those accused of witchcraft during the witch persecutions were following beliefs akin to those of the Cathars — dualism — or even more ancient dualistic concepts. They also likely employed ancient knowledge handed down from Paleolithic shamanic systems which had little to nothing to do with “ceremonial magic”, spells or a “liberal code of morality”. Unfortunately, neither Gardner nor Crowley had access to modern scientific archaeological studies from which one can actually infer something about the abilities, beliefs and practices of our truly remarkable ancestors.
My work is all about following the lines of Pagan/shamanistic ideas and teachings back to the Ice Ages — the cave painters, the Northern European origins — to find the most original, fundamental, common foundation of all of them. The idea that there was a time when man was directly in contact with the Celestial Beings is at the root of many of the myths of the Golden Age. Myths tell us of a time when the “gods withdrew” from mankind. As a result of some “happening”, i.e., “The Fall”, when the communications were broken off and the Celestial Beings withdrew to the highest heavens.
But the myths also tell us that there were still certain people who were able to “ascend” and commune with the gods on behalf of their tribe or family. Through them, contact was maintained with the “guiding spirits” of the group. The beliefs and practices of present day shamans are a survival of a profoundly modified and even corrupted and degenerated remnant of this archaic technology of concrete communications between heaven and earth. This shamanism seems to have been born in Western Europe with the arrival of Cro-Magnon man and the myths seem to have been redacted repeatedly until we have numerous claims of occult secrets of various sorts revived by this or that person, including Wicca. If that is the case, then true “witchcraft” is really shamanism, aka Druidism, and even more, as we shall see. Mircea Eliade writes:
Recent researches have clearly brought out the “shamanic” elements in the religion of the paleolithic hunters. Horst Kirchner has interpreted the celebrated relief at Lascaux as a representation of a shamanic trance. … Finally, Karl J. Narr has reconsidered the problem of the “origin” and chronology of shamanism in his important study … He brings out the influence of notions of fertility (“Venus statuettes”) on the religious beliefs of the prehistoric North Asian hunters; but this influence did not disrupt the Paleolithic tradition. … it is in this “Vorstellungswelt” that the roots of the bear ceremonialism of Asia and North America lie. Soon afterward, probably about 25,000 [BCE], Europe offers evidence for the earliest forms of shamanism (Lascaux) with the plastic representations of the bird, the tutelary spirit, and ecstasy.
… What appears to be certain is the antiquity of “shamanic” rituals and symbols. It remains to be determined whether these documents brought to light by prehistoric discoveries represent the first expressions of a shamanism in statu nascendi or are merely the earliest documents today available for an earlier religious complex, which, however, did not find “plastic” manifestations (drawings, ritual objects, etc.) before the period of Lascaux.
… It is indubitable that the celestial ascent of the shaman is a survival, profoundly modified and sometimes degenerate, of this archaic religious ideology centered on faith in a celestial Supreme Being and belief in concrete communications between heaven and earth.
… The myths refer to more intimate relations between the Supreme Beings and shamans; in particular, they tell of a First Shaman, sent to earth by the Supreme Being or his surrogate to defend human beings against diseases and evil spirits.” (Eliade 1951, 503—504)
It was in the context of the “withdrawal” of the “Celestial Being” that the meaning of the shaman’s ecstatic experience changed. Formerly, the activity was focused on communing with the god and obtaining benefits for the tribe. The shift of the function of the shaman associated with the withdrawal of the benevolent god/goddess was to “battling with evil spirits and disease”. This is a sharp reminder of the work of Jesus, healing the sick and casting out demons — the shamanic exemplar “after the Fall”.
There was, it seems, another consequence of this “shift”. Increasingly, the descents into the “underworld” and the relations with “spirits” led to their “embodiment” or in the shaman’s being “possessed” by “spirits”. What is clear is that these were innovations, most of them recent. What is particularly striking in the research of the historiographers of myth, legend, shamanism, etc., is the discovery of the “influences from the south, which appeared quite early and which altered both cosmology and the mythology and techniques of ecstasy”. Among these southern influences were the contribution of Buddhism and Lamaism, added to the Iranian and, in the last analysis, Mesopotamian influences that preceded them.
… the initiatory schema of the shaman’s ritual death and resurrection is likewise an innovation, but one that goes back to much earlier times; in any case, it cannot be ascribed to influences from the ancient Near East. But the innovations introduced by the ancestor cult particularly affected the structure of this initiatory schema. The very concept of mystical death was altered by the many and various religious changes effected by lunar mythologies, the cult of the dead, and the elaboration of magical ideologies. (Eliade 1951, 506)
It is clear that shamanism, as it is known, has declined from its original unified and coherent system. One reason for thinking so is that, while there are many local terms for a male shaman, there is only one for a female shaman. Shamanism, it seems, was formerly a woman’s activity. In one Tartar dialect, utygan, the word for a woman-shaman, also means “bear”.
… the magico-religious value of intoxication for achieving ecstasy is of Iranian origin. … concerning the original shamanic experience … [n]arcotics are only a vulgar substitute for “pure” trance. The use of intoxicants … is a recent innovation and points to a decadence in shamanic technique. Narcotic intoxication is called on to provide an imitation of a state that the shaman is no longer capable of attaining otherwise. Decadence or … vulgarization of a mystical technique — in ancient and modern India, and indeed all through the East, we constantly find this strange mixture of “difficult ways” and “easy ways” of realizing mystical ecstasy or some other decisive experience. (Eliade 1951, 401)
Now, let me make a point here. The religion of the Ice Age was so satisfying to all the peoples of the Earth that it was stable for over 25,000 years, as is evidenced by the archaeological and historical data. There were shamans, women, who engaged in ecstatic ascents which brought benefits to the tribe and, later, defended the tribe against negative influences. In short, it seems that Paganism, even Druidism, was the original Christianity, and the original “Christed Ones” were women. Many researchers repeatedly point out that Christianity has pagan roots. Well, yeah; more than anybody suspects. And if the lines of research I have presented in my book, The Secret History of the World, are anything to go by, then the original “witches” were Christs.
This, of course, leads us to wonder how can things get so turned around that we actually end up believing the opposite of the truth in almost every field of endeavor? We may turn away from mainstream religions that we can see are false and contradictory, only to fall into the arms of New Age religions that are not any better, being just another variation on a control system designed to prevent us from accessing what is real.
The last day of October is a holiday that is said to be the ancient Celtic celebration of the “End of Summer”, Samhain, Halloween, or All Hallows Eve. As I mentioned at the beginning, many people think of witches when you say the word “Halloween”. One immediately wonders why October 31st should be associated with witches and celebrated as the “end of summer” when the Autumnal equinox, over a month earlier, is the actual end of summer?
Therein lies the tale!
According to British historian Ronald Hutton, the festival of Samhain celebrates the end of the “lighter half” of the year and beginning of the “darker half” and is sometimes regarded as the Celtic New Year. According to folklorist John Gregorson Campbell and archaeologist Bettina Arnold, the ancient Celts believed that the curtain separating this world from the Otherworld became thin on Samhain, allowing spirits (both good and bad) to easily traverse the otherwise sturdy barrier. They dealt with this by inviting the good spirits in — usually family ancestors — and utilizing various techniques to ward off or scare away any bad spirits. It is suggested that this is the origin of wearing costumes disguising oneself as skeletons, ghosts, and goblins, the principle being that if you looked horrible enough, you could even scare away the devil himself!
Samhain was also the time when people in the old times took stock of their food supplies, butchered cattle and pigs, and prepared grains and other foodstuffs to put up for the winter.
Bonfires were an important part of the celebrations. Hearth fires were put out, the bones of the slaughtered cattle were tossed into the bonfire, and each home re-lit their hearth fire from the coals of the bonfire. Sometimes two bonfires would be built so that people could pass between them with their livestock for “purification”. This practice may be a survival of the times when the ancient tribes purified themselves by burning alive: a) any members who were less than perfect so that the tribe could be cleansed of sinful elements, or b) those members who were actually perfect in some way and volunteered to be offered as a sacrifice to appease the gods so the rest of the tribe could live in peace for another year. This is, in fact, an interesting clue.
The name “Halloween” is an old Scottish variant of “All Hallows Eve”, or the night before All Hallows Day, or the Feast of All Saints. What is interesting to observe here are the old customs regarding this day, and especially the following two days, from around the world that were later Christianized, but obviously represent something far more ancient.
In Portugal and Spain, offerings are made on All Saints Day. In Mexico, All Saints coincides with the celebration of the Day of the Innocents, part of the Day of the Dead honoring deceased children and infants. In Portugal, children go door to door where they receive cakes, nuts and pomegranates. The holiday focuses on family gatherings where prayers for, and remembrance of, friends and family that are departed are the focus. Traditions include building altars honoring the deceased, feasting on sugar skulls (devouring death?), and the favorite foods and beverages of the departed, decorating with marigolds and visiting graves with these as gifts. Scholars trace the origins of the modern holiday to indigenous observances dating back thousands of years and to an Aztec festival dedicated to a goddess called Mictecacihuatl, the Queen of Mictlan, or the underworld. It was believed that she was sacrificed as an infant, and she is represented with a defleshed body, and her gaping jaw swallows the stars during the day.
In the Philippines, this day is called “Undas”, “Todos los Santos” (literally “All Saints”), and sometimes “Araw ng mga Namayapa” (approximately “Day of the Deceased”). This day and the one before and one after it are spent visiting the graves of deceased relatives, where prayers and flowers are offered, candles are lit and the graves themselves are cleaned, repaired and repainted. The practices are similar in most European countries.
In Brazil, Dia de Finados is a public holiday that many Brazilians celebrate by visiting cemeteries and churches. In Spain, there are festivals and parades, and, at the end of the day, people gather at cemeteries and pray for their dead loved ones. Similarly themed celebrations appear in many Asian and African cultures.
These celebrations, which occur on November 1st and 2nd, and have indigenous forms that the church assimilated, strike us as curious. It seems that what is important is that they follow immediately on the heels of October 31st. One is compelled to ask why. What happened on October 31st that turned the following day into the Day of the Dead?
The symbols associated with Halloween formed over time and, just as the medieval church assimilated the ancient death-themed images and practices, many of the customs of contemporary times have assimilated the medieval practices. In traditional Celtic Halloween festivals, large turnips were hollowed out, carved with faces and placed in windows to ward off evil spirits. The American tradition of carving pumpkins was originally associated with harvest time in general, not becoming specifically associated with Halloween until the mid-to-late 1800s.
While most Christians just think of Halloween as a secular holiday which allows kids (and big kids!) to dress up in silly costumes, eat candy, and generally make fun of everything that is normally scary in our world, some other — mostly fundamentalist — Christians ascribe a negative influence to the celebration because they feel it celebrates paganism, the occult, or trivializes it so that their members are not properly fearful of ghosts, demons and the devil. Jehovah’s Witnesses do not celebrate Halloween because they believe anything that originated from a pagan holiday should not be celebrated by true Christians. This is ironic considering what I have written above about original Christianity. How did we get from there — true spirituality that honored women, with women shamans that provided for the tribe — to here, the modern-day Christian view of women as something barely human?
Many of those who follow Pagan ways consider the season to be a holy time of year and, naturally, Wiccans feel that the whole holiday as it is generally celebrated, is offensive because it associates witches with the other list of “evil spirits” that need to be warded off. They are right about that, but most of what they consider “Wicca” is as wrong as Christianity is wrong.
This brings us back to the question this article hopes to answer: What is the origin of Halloween, what does it really commemorate, and why are witches associated with it?
The first point I would like to bring up is that I think, when we look at Halloween, we are seeing something very ancient that is filtered through many layers of interpretation. What is consistent throughout, however, is the theme of easy traversal of the border between life and death, leading mainly to death, which suggests that death on a massive scale came on Halloween a very long time ago. Whatever it was, it was so terrifying, so widespread, that cultures the world over have commemorated it, and the days following it, in ways that appear to be designed to ward it off, to prevent it from ever happening again. And along the way, things happened that turned everything around so that those individuals — real, holy, witches — who actually might be capable of knowing such things, of ameliorating such terrors, became identified with the cause of the death and destruction.
In the book, The Worship of the Dead, or the Origin and Nature of Pagan Idolatry and Its Bearing Upon the Early History of Egypt and Babylonia, by John Garnier, the author writes that the modern-day celebrations for the dead focused around All Hallows Eve, including the following few days, originated to memorialize the people who died in the Deluge brought by God on a wicked world. He bases this on Genesis 7:11. He writes:
There is hardly a nation or tribe in the world which does not possess a tradition of the destruction of the human race by a flood; and the details of these traditions are too exactly in accordance with each other to permit the suggestion, which some have made, that they refer to different local floods in each case.
The mythologies of all the ancient nations are interwoven with the events of the Deluge and are explained by it, thereby proving that they are all based on a common principle, and must have been derived from a common source.
It is clear from these remarks that one or other of the two great events in the history of the Deluge, namely, the commencement of the waters and the beginning of their subsidence, were observed throughout the ancient world, some nations observing one event and some the other.
It would also appear probable that the observance of this festival was intimately connected with, and perhaps initiated, that worship of the dead which, as we shall see, was the central principle of the ancient idolatry.
The force of this argument is illustrated by the fact of the observance of a great festival of the dead in commemoration of the event, not only by nations more or less in communication with each other, but by others widely separated, both by the ocean and by centuries of time.
This festival is, moreover, held by all on or about the very day on which, according to the Mosaic account, the Deluge took place, viz. the seventeenth day of the second month — the month nearly corresponding with our November. (Garnier 1904, 3—11)
I don’t know which of the many Jewish calendars he was using, but Garnier’s point was that holidays that bring honor to dead spirits are un-Christian because they have pagan roots (never mind all the honoring of dead saints and praying to them — they were Christian before they died, or so it is claimed) and because they are founded on honoring the deaths of the wicked people who were justifiably destroyed by God in Noah’s Flood. This “Christian” spin on all things Pagan is why, apparently, Halloween has such an emphasis on demonic images, ghosts, monsters, and gruesome things in general, because, as Garnier points out, the flood meant the death of the hybrid children of demons, the Nephilim (see Gen. 6:1—4, 13 and the Book of Enoch).
So, it seems to be just a conjecture made by a religious antiquarian of olden times; nothing to see here. But, maybe not? Maybe Garnier was onto something and didn’t really know what it was?
Regarding the alleged Flood of Noah, we can say that at more than one point in our known history civilizations and/or cultures have collapsed and/or disappeared or been destroyed by no-one-knows-what. The Akkadian Empire in Mesopotamia, the Old Kingdom in Egypt, the Early Bronze Age civilization in Palestine, Anatolia and Greece, as well as the Indus Valley civilization in India, the Hilmand civilization in Afghanistan and the Hongshan in China, all fell into ruin at more or less the same time. Not long afterward, in archaeological time (though the chronology is a mess), destruction came to the Myceneans of Greece, the Hittites of Anatolia, the Egyptian New Kingdom, Late Bronze Age Palestine, and the Shang Dynasty of China.
Researchers in the fields of archaeology and history are baffled by the lack of any direct archaeological or written explanations for the causes (as opposed to the effects), though there is a rich body of myth and folklore that very well might provide the answers if analyzed correctly. Since the “experts” in those fields have consigned myth to superstition, while simultaneously believing that the historicized myths incorporated into the Bible are history, they aren’t getting very far with their problem and usually ascribe the collapse of civilizations to invasion and warfare on a gargantuan scale.
Some decades ago, certain natural scientists became intrigued by the problem and, concentrating on the Bronze Age collapses listed above, they realized that the range of evidence suggested natural causes rather than human actions (invasion, warfare). So, they all started talking about climate change, volcanic activity, and earthquakes. At present, these types of explanations are actually included in some of the standard historical accounts of the Bronze Age period, though many problems still remain: no single explanation appeared to account for all the evidence.
Immanuel Velikovsky upset everyone by suggesting that the Exodus — but only the Exodus — was caused by a bombardment of rocks, dust, carbons, and so on, as a result of Venus running amok in the Solar System. He collected an amazing assortment of myths and legends from around the world that strongly suggested that some sort of global cataclysm was being described, but when, where and how exactly it happened was rather iffy. There were others who wrote and talked about these matters before Velikovsky, including Ignatious Donnelly, who deserves an honorable mention for ascribing the myths to the Great Flood of Noah which he claimed was actually the destruction of Atlantis as described by Plato. Whether or not there was an advanced civilization known as Atlantis is not our concern here, but whether or not there was a flood, and when it may have occurred, is.
In the late 1970s, British astronomers Victor Clube and Bill Napier of Oxford University began investigating cometary impact as the ultimate cause. In 1980, Nobel Prize winning physicist Luis Alvarez and his colleagues published a paper in Science which argued that a cosmic impact is what led to the extinction of the dinosaurs. Alvarez’s paper had immense influence, though that influence acted in different ways on the two sides of the Atlantic. In the US, there is the “wishful thinking” school which posits that only asteroid impacts are significant and they are so rare that we don’t have to worry. In Britain, further research by astronomers Clube and Napier, Prof. Mark Bailey of the Armagh Observatory, Duncan Steel of Spaceguard Australia, and Britain’s best known astronomer Sir Fred Hoyle, all led to their support of the theory of cometary impact loosely termed the “British School of Coherent Catastrophism”.
According to Clube and Napier, et al., in the same way that Jupiter was struck repeatedly in 1994 by the million-megaton impacts of the comet Shoemaker-Levy, so Earth was bombarded 13,000 years ago by the fragments of a giant comet that broke up in the sky before the terrified eyes of humanity. The multiple impacts on the rotating planet caused tidal waves, raging fires, atomic bomb-like blasts, the mass extinction of many prehistoric species such as the mammoth and sabre-toothed tiger, most of humanity, and left the world in darkness for months. (See: The Cosmic Serpent and The Cosmic Winter by Clube and Napier. See also: “The Origin of the Universe and the Origin of Religion”, Anshen Transdisciplinary Lectureships in Art, Science, and the Philosophy of Culture by Fred Hoyle.)
Some American scientists are joining the Coherent Catastrophism group. Physicist Richard Firestone and geologists Allen West and Simon Warwick-Smith write in their book, The Cycle of Cosmic Catastrophes:
In 1990, Victor Clube, an astrophysicist, and Bill Napier, an astronomer, published The Cosmic Winter, a book in which they describe performing orbital analyses of several of the meteor showers that hit Earth every year. Using sophisticated computer software, they carefully looked backward for thousands of years, tracing the orbits of comets, asteroids, and meteor showers until they uncovered something astounding. Many meteor showers are related to one another, such as the Taurids, Perseids, Piscids, and Orionids. In addition, some very large cosmic objects are related: the comets Encke and Rudnicki, the asteroids Oljato, Hephaistos, and about 100 others. Every one of those 100-plus cosmic bodies is at least a half-mile in diameter and some are miles wide. And what do they have in common? According to those scientists, every one is the offspring of the same massive comet that first entered our system less than 20,000 years ago! Clube and Napier calculated that, to account for all the debris they found strewn throughout our solar system, the original comet had to have been enormous.
Clube and Napier also calculated that, because of subtle changes in the orbits of Earth and the remaining cosmic debris, Earth crosses through the densest part of the giant comet clouds about every 2,000 to 4,000 years. When we look at climate and ice-core records, we can see that pattern. For example, the iridium, helium-3, nitrate, ammonium, and other key measurements seem to rise and fall in tandem, producing noticeable peaks around 18,000, 16,000, 13,000, 9,000, 5,000, and 2,000 years ago. In that pattern of peaks every 2,000 to 4,000 years, we may be seeing the “calling cards” of the returning mega-comet.
Fortunately, the oldest peaks were the heaviest bombardments, and things have been getting quieter since then, as the remains of the comet break up into even smaller pieces. The danger is not past, however. Some of the remaining miles-wide pieces are big enough to do serious damage to our cities, climate, and global economy. Clube and Napier (1984) predicted that, in the year 2000 and continuing for 400 years, Earth would enter another dangerous time in which the planet’s changing orbit would bring us into a potential collision course with the densest parts of the clouds containing some very large debris. Twenty years after their prediction, we have just now moved into the danger zone. It is a widely accepted fact that some of those large objects are in Earth-crossing orbits at this very moment, and the only uncertainty is whether they will miss us, as is most likely, or whether they will crash into some part of our planet. (Firestone et al. 2006)
And so we see that this new type of “natural disaster” is beginning to be regarded by many scholars as the most probable single explanation for widespread and simultaneous cultural collapses at various times in our history. These ideas have been advanced largely by astronomers and geologists, dendrochronologists, etc., and remain almost completely unknown among archaeologists and historians, which significantly hampers their efforts to explain what they may be seeing in the historical record.
The new theory posits trains of cometary debris which repeatedly encounter the Earth. We know most of these trains as meteor showers — tiny particles of cosmic material whose impact is insignificant. Occasionally, however, in these trains of debris, there are chunks measuring between one and several hundred meters in diameter. When these either strike the Earth or explode in the atmosphere, there can be catastrophic effects on our ecological system. Multi-megaton explosions of fireballs can destroy natural and cultural features on the surface of the Earth by means of tidal-wave floods (if the debris lands in the sea), fire blasts and seismic damage leaving no crater as a trace, just scorched and blasted earth. In the case of a significant bombardment, an entire small country could be wiped out, completely vaporized.
A recent example, known as the Tunguska Event, occurred in 1908 over Siberia, when a bolide exploded about 5 km above ground and completely devastated an area of some 2,000 km² through fireball blasts. This cosmic body, thought to have measured only 60 m across, had the impact energy of about 20 to 40 megatons, and was equivalent to the explosion of about 2,000 Hiroshima-size nuclear bombs, even though there was no actual physical impact on the Earth. In other words, if there were ancient, advanced civilizations, if they were destroyed by multiple Tunguska-like events, it is no wonder there is no trace, or very little, which is usually ascribed to “anomaly”.
For years, the astronomical mainstream was highly critical of Clube and Napier and their giant comet hypothesis. However, the impacts of comet Shoemaker-Levy 9 on Jupiter in 1994 led to a rather rapid turnaround in attitude. The comet, watched by the world’s observatories, was seen to split into 20 pieces and slam into different parts of the planet over a period of several days. A similar event vis-Ã -vis our planet would have been devastating, to understate the matter. In recent times, the increasing numbers of fireballs and comets, the fact that Jupiter has been impacted yet again and again just this year, suggests to us that Victor Clube and Bill Napier are correct: we are in a very dangerous period.
In Rain of Iron and Ice by John Lewis, Professor of Planetary Sciences at the Lunar and Planetary Laboratory, Co-Director of the NASA/University of Arizona Space Engineering Research Center, and Commissioner of the Arizona State Space Commission, we learn that the earth is regularly hit by extraterrestrial objects and many of the impacting bodies explode in the atmosphere as happened in Tunguska, leaving no craters or long-lasting visible evidence of a body from space.
These impacts or atmospheric explosions may produce earthquakes or tsunamis without any witnesses being aware of the cause. After all, the earth is 75% water, and any eye-witness to such an event would very likely be fried and never tell about it, so we really have no way of knowing if all the earthquakes on our planet are tectonic in nature or not.
In short, what the work of Lewis brings to the table is the idea that some well-known historical earthquakes could very well have been impact events. The dates that these researchers have given to events that can be discerned in the scientific records are 12,800, 8,200, 5,200, and 4,200 BP (“years Before the Present”). These can be adjusted as more precise dating methods are developed or applied.
The 12,800 B.P. event is the one of most interest because that is the one which, apparently, nearly destroyed all life on earth. At the very least, it destroyed the mega-fauna on all continents. Plato wrote about the catastrophic destruction of Atlantis which occurred in a day and a night about 11,600 years ago, which is pretty darn close. This event is the topic Firestone, West and Warwick-Smith cover exhaustively in their book The Cycle of Cosmic Catastrophes. They include a great many Native American myths that describe the event side by side with their own scientific work on the evidence.
As already mentioned, Clube and Napier identified the progenitor of the Taurid complex as a giant comet that was thrown into a short-period (about 3.3 year) orbit sometime in the last twenty to thirty thousand years. The Taurid complex currently includes the Taurid meteor stream, comet Encke, “asteroids” such as 2101 Adonis and 2201 Oljato, and enormous amounts of space dust. Asteroids in the Taurid complex appear to have associated meteor showers, which means that many asteroids are likely to be extinct comets. In other words, there can be more than just some dust and snow in a comet — there can be a significant rocky core and lots of poisonous gasses and chemicals as well.
We come now to the bit of evidence that may link between this comet business and Halloween. As it happens, the end of June and the end of October/beginning of November are the times when the Earth passes through the Taurid stream. That means that the event that marked the boundary between the Pleistocene and Holocene (present epoch) must have occurred at the end of October. It was a day when the boundaries between the living and the dead became very thin, because nearly every living thing on this planet perished and the memory of this event has come down to us in the “End of Summer” commemoration we call Halloween, known in the Bible as the Flood of Noah.
Where do the witches come in? Well, hang on, we are getting there. Clube and Napier write:
…Meteor streams are fossil evidence of past intersections with comet orbits… the major streams are of great antiquity…
The progenitor of comet Encke and the Taurids, supposing it to have been about 20 km in diameter, would, at its closest approaches to the Earth, have attained a magnitude -12, approaching that of the Moon and sufficient to throw shadows at night. It would have appeared as an intense yellow spot of light surrounded by a circular coma probably larger than the full Moon, with a tail stretching across a large part of the sky … graduating from bluish white near the nucleus to a deep red in colour… If the disintegration history revealed by the current debris took place within the sight of men, then there would have been occasions when subsidiary comets, perhaps even an array, would have been observed. … There would (be) greatly enhanced seasonal fireball activity, rising to enormous levels at periodic intervals corresponding to a strong commensurability between the orbital periods of Earth and Encke; and the risk of Tunguska-like impacts would have been greatest. In a periodic orbit, the close approaches would obviously have been predictable. Indeed, if, at these close approaches, the Earth ran into debris of the sort we have discussed, prediction would have been a matter of urgency…
The author of Genesis (15:17) wrote: ‘When the sun went down, and it was dark, behold a smoking furnace and a burning lamp. …’ The description appears to be that of a comet; but its representation is that of a vision of God to Abraham. Or again, in I Chronicles (21:16): ‘And David lifted up his eyes, and saw the angel of the Lord standing between the earth and the heaven, having a drawn sword in his hand stretched out over Jerusalem. Then David and the elders of Israel, who were clothed in sackcloth, fell upon their faces.’ Once more the object is seen as a divine being, and ‘angel of the Lord’, and a religious interpretation is placed on a natural phenomenon. (Clube & Napier 1982, 154, 156)
Clube, Napier, Hoyle and others make a good case for the origins of Judaism in celestial phenomena, later twisted and distorted by priests into the superstition it is today. Christopher Knight and Robert Lomas wrote a fascinating book, Uriel’s Machine, about the megalithic cultures wherein they propose that stone circles were constructed as astronomical observatories that were not for the purpose of knowing when to plant the corn, but rather to keep a watchful eye on errant comets. They make a very good case.
The beginnings of Christianity may have been the result of similar cosmic encounters. Burton Mack writes:
The story Josephus tells of the sixties is one of famine, social unrest, institutional deterioration, bitter internal conflicts, class warfare, banditry, insurrections, intrigues, betrayals, bloodshed, and the scattering of Judeans throughout Palestine. … There were wars, rumors of wars for the better part of ten years, and Josephus reports portents, including a brilliant daylight in the middle of the night! (Mack 1988)
Josephus gives several portents of the evil to befall Jerusalem and the temple. He described a star resembling a sword, a comet that “continued a whole year…”, a light shining in the temple, a cow giving birth to a lamb at the moment it was to be sacrificed in the Jerusalem Temple, armies fighting in the sky, and a voice from the Holy of Holies declaring, “We are departing” (Josephus, Jewish Wars, 6). (Obviously, the voice was apocryphal.)
Some of these portents are mentioned by other contemporary historians, Tacitus for example. However, Tacitus, in book five of his Histories, castigated the superstitious Jews for not recognizing and offering expiations for the portents to avert the disasters. He put the destruction of Jerusalem down to the stupidity or willful ignorance of the Jews themselves in not offering the appropriate sacrifices.
In short, it very well may be that the eschatological writings in the New Testament, the very formation of the Myth of Jesus, were based on cometary events of the time, including a memory of the “Star in the East”. The destruction of the Temple at Jerusalem may very well have been an “act of God”, as reported by Mark in his Gospel, though not quite as true believers think it was.
This brings us, of course, to the transition: the imposition of Christianity on Europe by Constantine. Paul K. Davis writes:
Constantine’s victory gave him total control of the Western Roman Empire, paving the way for Christianity as the dominant religion for the Roman Empire and ultimately for Europe. (Davis 1999, 78)
It is commonly stated that on the evening of 27 October, with the armies preparing for battle, Constantine had a vision which led him to fight under the protection of the Christian god. The details of that vision, however, differ depending on the source reporting it.
Lactantius, an early Christian writer of the time in question, states that, in the night before the battle, Constantine was commanded in a dream to “delineate the heavenly sign on the shields of his soldiers” (On the Deaths of the Persecutors, 44.5). He followed the commands of his dream and marked the shields with a sign denoting Christ. Lactantius describes that sign as a “staurogram”, or a Latin cross with its upper end rounded like a P. There is no certain evidence that Constantine ever used that sign, opposed to the better known Chi-Rho sign described by Eusebius, but it is certainly suggestive since it would look a bit like a mushroom cloud.
New Scientist, (178:2400, 21 June 2003, 13) reported the discovery of a meteorite impact crater dating from the fourth or fifth century CE in the Apennines. The crater is now a “seasonal lake”, roughly circular, with a diameter of between 115 and 140 meters, which has a pronounced raised rim and no inlet or outlet and is fed solely by rainfall. There are a dozen much smaller craters nearby, such as would be created when a meteorite with a diameter of some 10 meters shattered during entry into the atmosphere.
A team led by the Swedish geologist Jens Ormo believes the crater was caused by a meteorite landing with a one-kiloton impact — equivalent to a very small nuclear blast — and producing shock waves, earthquakes and a mushroom cloud. Samples from the crater’s rim have been dated to the year 312, but small amounts of contamination with recent material could account for a date significantly later than 312.
The legend of a falling star has been around in the Apennines since Roman times, but the event that it describes has been a mystery. Other accounts from the 4th century describe how barbarians stood at the gates of the Roman Empire while a Christian movement threatened its stability from within. The emperor Constantine saw an amazing vision in the sky, converted to Christianity on the spot, and led his army to victory under the sign of the cross. But what did he see?
Could the impact of a meteorite hitting the Italian Apennines, or a Tunguska-like overhead cometary explosion, have been the sign in the sky that encouraged the Emperor Constantine to invoke the Christian God in his decisive battle in 312, when he defeated his fellow Emperor Maxentius at the Milvian Bridge?
The conversion of the Emperor to Christianity certainly couldn’t change the beliefs and practices of most of his subjects. But he could — and did — choose to grant favors and privileges to those whose faith he had accepted. He built churches for them, exempted the priesthood from civic duties and taxes, gave the bishops secular power over judicial affairs, and made them judges against whom there was no appeal. Sounds like how a Fascist regime takes over, does it not?
So, let’s recap here: The god of the Jews leaped upon the stage of history — probably as a cometary event that was memorialized as the plagues in Egypt and recast as a heroic “Exodus story”. Through his priests, centuries after the event when the reality of the “god” was forgotten, this god promised his people something new and different — destruction of everybody else on the planet who were nasty to them — and only those who followed his rules carefully would survive and get to rule everybody else. Notice that this did not necessarily mean resurrection — it was to be a physical earthly kingdom with the Jews in top position.
Early Christianity had very distinct and novel ideas that were grafted onto Judaism. Christianity, in turn, retained and passed on in a virulent way certain ideals of Judaism which have produced the foundation upon which our present culture is predicated.
The main template of Christianity — received directly from Judaism — is that of sin. The history of sin from that point to now is a story of its triumph. Awareness of the nature of sin led to a growth industry in agencies and techniques for dealing with it. These agencies became centers of economic and military power, as they are today.
Christianity, promoting the ideals of Judaism under a thin veneer of the “New Covenant”, changed the ways in which men and women interacted with one another. It changed the attitude to life’s one certainty: death. It changed the degree of freedom with which people could acceptably choose what to think and believe.
Pagan cults also dealt with the issues of suffering and troubles. The big difference was that, to the pagans, troubles fell on a person because they may have failed to propitiate the appropriate god or goddess. Suffering and troubles were a consequence of the actions of the gods — who were surprisingly human-like and fickle — and were not a personal, internal “flaw” that damned the individual.
Another big difference between pagan cults and monotheistic cults was that pagans were not committed to revealed beliefs in the strong Christian sense. In other words, faith was neither endorsed nor encouraged. Pagans performed rites, but professed no creed or doctrine. The rites included detailed rituals involving the offering of animal victims to their gods, but there was nothing like the “faith” of Judaism or Christianity.
To be a “follower of pagan religion”, one did not have to accept the philosophic theology, nor did he have to belong to a “mystery cult” where myth and ritual were closely entwined. These were just “options”. What the myths actually did was confirm man’s constant awareness of the potential anger of the gods, the uncertainties of Nature. Pausanias, a Greek geographer of the 2nd century AD, did not accept the outlandish stories of mythology. But there was one thing that Pausanias was sure about: the tales of the past anger of a god which had manifested in famines and earthquakes and cataclysm. He reminds us of how fragile civilization is against the constant dangers of geology and the weather.
And so it was, to “follow pagan religion” was essentially to accept this tradition of the past anger of the gods expressed in the violence of nature, and that the gods could be appeased. And it was precisely this fear of nature itself — of the gods that expressed themselves in the forces of nature — that caused the pagans to reject the Jews and Christians for claiming that they were immune to such things because their god had power over nature and would save them from calamity.
This brings us to another difference between the ancient myths and cults and Judaism, Christianity and Islam: where the pagan cults offered myths of their gods, Jews and Christians produced a recent, living history. The pagan cults had “mysteries” to which very few — if anyone at all — had access. Monotheism offered a “revelation” direct from God. Never mind that the history consisted of the plagiarized myths of other cultures that had been dressed in historical clothing as the “History of Israel”.
Pagans had been intolerant of the Jews and Christians whose religions tolerated no gods but their own. The rising domination of Christianity created a much sharper conflict between religions, and religious intolerance — incepted by Christianity — became the norm, not the exception. Christianity brought the open coercion of religious belief. You could even say that, by the modern definition of a cult as a group that uses manipulation and mind control to induce worship, Christianity is the Mother of all Cults — in service to the misogynistic, fascist ideals of Judaism.
The rising Christian hierarchy of the Dark Ages was quick to mobilize military forces against believers in other gods and, most especially, against other Christians who promoted less fascist systems of belief. This probably included the original Christians and the original teachings. One wonders, of course, about all the stories of Christian martyrs. Is it possible that these were apocryphal stories of pagans who resisted the imposition of Christianity with the details changed just a bit?
Meanwhile, there was a third group of individuals during the transition time: the pagan Platonists. There were two paths of Platonists: one which taught that one could approach god only by contemplating their own soul and knowing themselves; the other emphasized the beauty of the world as the means by which one might know god. These two ideas became the property of the educated man of the time, including Jews and early Christians. However, it was among the intellectual Jews of Alexandria that these ideas were given a subtle twist: a man could not know himself and thereby know god, he must give up any idea of ever knowing himself and resign himself to the “grace” of god. God might choose a man and apply grace, but man must never think he could choose god and achieve grace. The Christian theologians took this idea and sculpted it to fit their new ideas of Christ and Redemption.
Many pagan ideas were adopted into Christian theology, but the chief difference was, as I have noted, the idea of sin being a personal thing, a personal fault, a sort of “scapegoat principle” writ on the human soul. The pagans never considered it necessary to die with one’s sins forgiven, and the dramatic deathbed scenes of Christianity, with all the praying for the afterlife of the individual, were novel and rapidly spread. Pagans had prayed to the dead, Jews and Christians prayed for them. Fearing their own inevitable fault and sinful nature, Christians also prayed that the dead would intercede with god on their behalf. Christians, like pagans, continued the practice of feasting and celebrating death, with the added element of “intercession” giving new meaning to the event.
Further along, there was another event in the pagan world of Europe that helped bring Christianity to dominance in the West of Europe, and brought another player onto the stage: Islam.
It was a warm, clear afternoon in the capital. The bustle of metropolitan commerce and tourism filled the streets. Small sailing vessels dotted the sheltered waters within sight of the government buildings, riding on a soft southerly breeze. The Sun sparkled on the gentle swells and wakes, lending a luminous glow to the poppies and tulips nodding in the parks along the water’s edge. All was in order.
But suddenly, the sky brightened as if with a second, more brilliant sun. A second set of shadows appeared; at first long and faint, they shortened and sharpened rapidly. A strange hissing, humming sound seemed to come from everywhere at once. Thousands craned their necks and looked upwards, searching the sky for the new Sun. Above them a tremendous white fireball blossomed, like the unfolding of a vast paper flower, but now blindingly bright. For several seconds the fierce fireball dominated the sky, shaming the Sun. The sky burned white-hot, then slowly faded through yellow and orange to a glowering copper-red. The awful hissing ceased. The onlookers, blinded by the flash, burned by its searing heat, covered their eyes and cringed in terror. Occupants of offices and apartments rushed to their windows, searching the sky for the source of the brilliant flare that had lit their rooms. A great blanket of turbulent, coppery cloud filled half the sky overhead. For a dozen heartbeats the city was awestruck, numbed and silent.
Then, without warning, a tremendous blast smote the city, knocking pedestrians to the ground. Shuttered doors and windows blew out; fences, walls, and roofs groaned and cracked. A shock wave raced across the city and its waterways, knocking sailboats flat in the water. A hot, sulfurous wind like an open door into hell, the breath of a cosmic ironmaker’s furnace, pressed downward from the sky, filled with the endless reverberation of invisible landslides. Then the hot breath slowed and paused; the normal breeze resumed with renewed vigor, and cool air blew across the city from the south. The sky overhead now faded to dark gray, then to a portentous black. A turbulent black cloud like a rumpled sheet seemed to descend from heaven. Fine black dust began to fall, slowly, gently, suspended and swirled by the breeze. For an hour or more the black dust fell, until, dissipated and dispersed by the breeze, the cloud faded from view.
Many thought it was the end of the world… (Lewis 1996)
The above quote is a reconstruction of events in Constantinople, 472 CE, extracted from Rain of Iron and Ice by John S. Lewis. According to Dr. Lewis, whose fanciful scenario of what it might be like to witness an overhead cometary fragment explosion, our Earth actually experiences these types of events rather often, even if somewhat irregularly. Explosions in the sky — some of them enormous — have, according to him and many other scientists, profoundly affected the history of humanity. One obvious prospect is the great Antioch earthquake of 526 CE which was described by John Malalas:
… those caught in the earth beneath the buildings were incinerated and sparks of fire appeared out of the air and burned everyone they struck like lightning. The surface of the earth boiled and foundations of buildings were struck by thunderbolts thrown up by the earthquakes and were burned to ashes by fire… It was a tremendous and incredible marvel with fire belching out rain, rain falling from tremendous furnaces, flames dissolving into showers… As a result, Antioch became desolate… In this terror up to 250,000 people perished. (Jeffreys et al.1986)
Strangely, historians, as a group, don’t speak about such things. But the evidence is mounting:
Analysis of tree rings shows that in 540 AD in different parts of the world, the climate changed. Temperatures dropped enough to hinder the growth of trees as widely dispersed as northern Europe, Siberia, western North America, and southern South America.
A search of historical records and mythical stories pointed to a disastrous visitation from the sky during the same period, it is claimed. There was one reference to a “comet in Gaul so vast that the whole sky seemed on fire” in 540—41.
According to legend, King Arthur died around this time, and Celtic myths associated with Arthur hinted at bright sky Gods and bolts of fire.
In the 530s, an unusual meteor shower was recorded by both Mediterranean and Chinese observers. Meteors are caused by the fine dust from comets burning up in the atmosphere. Furthermore, a team of astronomers from Armagh Observatory in Northern Ireland published research in 1990 which said the Earth would have been at risk from cometary bombardment between the years 400 and 600 AD. …
Famine followed the crop failures, and hard on its heels bubonic plague that swept across Europe in the mid-6th century.
… At this time, the Roman emperor Justinian was attempting to regenerate the decaying Roman empire. But the plan failed in 540 and was followed by the Dark Ages and the rise of Islam. (Boyd 1999)
The change of the Western world from pagan to monotheistic — Judaism, Christianity, Islam — effectively changed how people viewed themselves and their interactions with their reality. And we live today with the fruits of those changes: war without end. Constantine’s victory paved the way for the recognition of Christianity by the Roman Empire and the union of church and state that lasted for nearly 1,500 years and may, in fact, still be strange bedfellows though they have pulled up the covers to hide their relationship. An inscription quoting an ancient Hittite king informs us that a great prince needs the priests to instill the fear of the gods into the people so that they will do the will of the king, and the religion needs the protection of the ruler to impose its practice. So it has been for millennia. Astronomers Victor Clube and Bill Napier write:
…[W]ithin these last few years, it has been found that there is a great swarm of cosmic debris circulating in a potentially dangerous orbit, exactly intersecting the Earth’s orbit in June (and November) every few thousand years. More surprisingly, perhaps, it has been found that the evidence for these facts was in the past deliberately concealed. When the orbits exactly intersect, however, there is a greatly increased chance of penetrating the core of the swarm, a correspondingly enhanced flow of fireballs reaching the Earth, and a greatly raised perception that the end of the world is nigh. This perception is liable to arise at other times as well, whenever fresh debris is formed, but deep penetrations occurred during the fourth millennium BC, again during the first millennium BC, taking in at their close the time of Christ, and will likely take place yet again during the millennium to come. Christian religion began appropriately enough, therefore, with an apocalyptic vision of the past… once the apparent danger had passed, truth was converted to mythology in the hands of a revisionist church, and such prior knowledge of the swarm as existed, which now comes to us through the works of Plato and others, was later systematically suppressed. … the Christian vision of a permanent peace on Earth was by no means universally accepted, and it was to undergo several stages of “enlightenment” before it culminated with our present secular version of history, to which science itself subscribes, perceiving little or no danger from the sky. The lack of danger is an illusion, however, and the long arm of an early Christian delusion still has its effect. …
The idea of a terrible sanction hanging over mankind is not, of course, new. Armageddon has been widely feared in the past, and it was a common belief that it would arrive with the present Âmillennium… Sometimes the proponents of such ideas escape to newfound new lands where in due course they meet opposition of a homegrown kind. In the United States, for example, despite freedom of speech, old traditions of cosmic catastrophe have recurred from time to time, even in the present century, only to be confronted by Pavlovian outrage from authorities. That being the case, it is perhaps ironic that elections in the United States are generally held in November, following the tradition of an ancient convocation of tribes at that time of the year, which probably had its roots in a real fear of world-end as the Earth coincided with the swarm.
In Europe, the millennium was finally dispensed with when an official “providential” view of the world was developed as a counter to ideas sustained during the Reformation. Indeed, to hold anything like a contrary view at this time became something of a heresy and those who were given to rabble-rousing for fear of the millennium were roundly condemned. To the extent that a cosmic winter and Armageddon have aspects in common, therefore, authoritarian outrage is nothing new.
… Enlightenment, of course, builds on the providential view and treats the cosmos as a harmless backdrop to human affairs, a view of the world which Academe now often regards as its business to uphold and to which the counter-reformed Church and State are only too glad to subscribe. Indeed, it appears that repeated cosmic stress — supernatural illuminations — have been deliberately programmed out of Christian theology and modern science, arguably the two most influential contributions of western civilization to the control and well-being of humanity.
As a result, we have now come to think of global catastrophe, whether through nuclear war, ozone holes, the greenhouse effect of whatever, as a prospect originating purely with ourselves; and because of this, because we are faced with “authorities” who never look higher than the rooftops, the likely impact of the cosmos figures hardly at all in national plans. …
… A great illusion of cosmic security thus envelops mankind, one that the “establishment” of Church, State and Academe do nothing to disturb. Persistence in such an illusion will do nothing to alleviate the next Dark Age when it arrives. But it is easily shattered: one simply has to look at the sky. The outrage, then, springs from a singularly myopic stance which may now place the human species a little higher than the ostrich, awaiting the fate of the dinosaur. (Clube & Napier 1990, 11—13)
An abundance of fireballs and repeated comet sightings apparently excites a lot of “eschatological activity” — predictions that the world is going to end — that can lead to all kinds of social unrest which is, as Clube points out, highly undesirable to the ruling elites. After all, if people are thinking the world is going to end, they generally blame it on their rulers for being so corrupt and evil. The way they usually handle that sort of thing is to create an ostensible enemy who is responsible for it all, get a war going that soothes everyone’s “end of the world blues” and kills most of them in the bargain. Clever, aren’t they?
Victor Clube wrote a summary statement of conclusions based on his “Narrative Report on the Hazard to Civilization Due to Fireballs and Comets”, which he wrote under the sponsorship of the US Air Force and Oxford Department of Physics (1996, just two years after comet Shoemaker-Levy hit Jupiter), which includes the following:
Every 5-10 generations or so, for about a generation, mankind is subject to an increased risk of global insult through another kind of cosmic agency. During these epochs, broadly coinciding with the Hundred Years War, the Reformation, the Thirty Years War (including the English Civil War), the French Revolutionary Period (including the American War of Independence) and the mid-nineteenth century Revolutionary crisis in Europe (including the American Civil War), the various national authorities could do very little to restrain public anxiety in the face of the perceived danger.
Every 5 to 10 generations? That’s a pretty shocking statement. If it is true, then why don’t we know about this? Why don’t historians know about it? Why don’t average people who learn history (one is told) in school know about these things?
It is here that we are going to discover how witches came to be associated with Halloween.
The Hundred Years War covers the 116-year period from 1337 to 1453, the Black Death 1347/48—1351, and then the Renaissance, 1400 to 1600. Some really ugly stuff was going on back then. Dendrochronologist Mike Baillie, has written a book asserting (with good evidence) that the Black Death — one of the most deadly pandemics in human history, said to have killed possibly two thirds of the entire population of Europe, not to mention millions all over the planet — probably wasn’t Bubonic Plague but was rather Death by Comet(s).
Baillie has the scientific evidence to support his theory, and his evidence actually supports — and is supported by — what the people of the time were saying: earthquakes, comets, rains of death and fire, corrupted atmosphere, and death on a scale that is almost unimaginable. Most people nowadays are not really aware of what happened just 663 years ago. (Hmmm… The inquiring mind immediately wonders what might happen when we hit 666 years after? That would be 2013 …) There really is quite sufficient data presented in Baillie’s book to support the theory that the Black Death was due to localized, multiple impacts by comet debris — similar to the impacts on Jupiter by the fragments of comet Shoemaker-Levy back in 1994. As to exactly how these deaths occurred, there are a number of possibilities: earthquakes, floods (tsunami), rains of fire, chemicals released by the high-energy explosions in the atmosphere, including ammonium and hydrogen cyanide, and possibly even comet-borne disease pathoÂgens. It is worth pausing a moment to consider the numbers.
China, where the Black Death is said to have originated, lost around half of its entire population (going from around 123 million to around 65 million). Recent research into European death tolls also suggests a figure of 45% to 50% of the total European population dying during a four-year period though the figure fluctuated from place to place (which is a problem as we will see). In Mediterranean Europe — Italy, the South of France and Spain — where the plague ran for about four years consecutively, it was probably closer to 70—75% of the total population. (In the US today that would be equivalent to reducing the Âpopulation from its current 305 million to 75 million in less than four years. That would also amount to having to bury or dispose of around 225 million corpses.) In Germany and EngÂland it was probably closer to 20%. Northeastern Germany, Bohemia, Poland and Hungary are believed to have suffered less for some reason (and there are a few theories which are not entirely satisfactory).
There are no estimates available for Russia or the Balkans, so it seems that they may have suffered little, if at all. Africa lost approximately 1/8th of its population (from around 80 million to 70 million). (These figures actually highlight one of the problems that Baillie brings up: the variability of death rates according to location.) Whatever the death rate in any given location, the bottom line is that the Black Death produced the largest death toll from any known pandemics in recorded history and, as Baillie points out, nobody really knows what it was.
In “Hazard to Civilization from Fireballs and Comets” cited above, Victor Clube adds:
Confronted on many occasions in the past by the prospect of world-end, national elites have often found themselves having to suppress public panic — only to discover, too late, that the usual means of control commonly fail. Thus, an institutionalized science is expected to withhold knowledge of the threat; a self-regulated press is expected to make light of any disaster; while an institutionalized religion is expected to oppose predestination and to secure such general belief in a fundamentally benevolent deity as can be mustered.
… The Christian, Islamic and Judaic cultures have all moved since the European Renaissance to adopt an unreasoning anti-apocalyptic stance, apparently unaware of the burgeoning science of catastrophes. History, it now seems, is repeating itself: it has taken the Space Age to revive the Platonist voice of reason, but it emerges this time within a modern anti-fundamentalist, anti-apocalyptic tradition over which governments may, as before, be unable to exercise control… Cynics (or modern sophists), in other words, would say that we do not need the celestial threat to disguise Cold War intentions; rather we need the Cold War to disguise celestial intentions!
Turning to the full text of the report, on page 2, discussing potential impacting giant comet remnants, we read that “… their presence is readily enough betrayed by the zodiacal dust, which continues to accumulate in the ecliptic, and by the rather sudden encounters which the Earth makes every other century or so, for several decades… These encounters produce an overabundance of fireballs, penetrating the Earth’s atmosphere, implying both an increased probability of bombardment by sub-kilometer debris and an increased risk that the Earth will penetrate the core of a minor disintegration stream à la Shoemaker-Levy.”
The so-called “Hundred Years War” was a conflict between France and England, over claims by the English kings to the French throne. It was punctuated by several brief and two lengthy periods of peace before it finally ended in the expulsion of the English from France, with the exception of the Calais Pale. We notice that this state of conflict was already in motion about ten years before the Black Death fell on Europe.
When one studies the history of the Black Death and the Hundred Years War side by side, the thing that stands out is that whatever was going on then, there were conscienceless people taking advantage of the situation of confusion and terror. For example, we read the following:
This would be a war of devastation. Villages and crops were burned, orchards were felled, livestock seized and residents harried. On Edward’s entry into France he spent a week torching Cambrai and its environs. More than 1,000 villages were destroyed. France did what it could in England, at the war’s onset seamen ventured to the southeastern coast of England to burn and ravage there. Much plunder was taken back to England and the thought of acquiring ill-gotten gain enticed many to support the war.
Cruelty abounded. After the city of Limoges was captured and burned, Edward ordered the townsmen executed. Much of Artois, Brittany, Normandy, Gascony and other provinces were reduced to desolation (circa 1355 to 1375) and France did the same to the provinces that sided with England. Walled towns were safe during the early period of the war, but churches, monasteries, villages and rural areas were ruined.
Truce and treaty were not observed. The “Free Companies” went into action, bandits of either English, French or hired mercenaries led by captains that dominated large areas and levied tribute on towns, villages and churches. They also seized women, took clergymen as accountants and correspondents, children for servants and plundered. (Cheney 1936)
Albert A. Nofi and James F. Dunnigan tell us:
For the first few years of the war there wasn’t much happening except English raids into France and Flanders. Then, in the 1340s, England and France took opposite sides in the long-running civil war over who should be the duke of Brittany. In 1346 this resulted in a French invasion of Gascony and the shattering French defeat at Crecy. The English then rampaged through western France, until a truce was signed in 1354 (brought on by the devastation of the Plague, which hit France heavily in 1347—48)
The truce didn’t last. In 1355, the war began again. In 1356 another major battle was fought at Poitiers and the French king was captured. English raids continued until 1360, when another truce was signed.4
One wonders if all this is not history written after the fact, placing the blame of cometary destruction and social unrest on a “hundred years war”? As evidence to support this, it seems that the weather was going crazy. Clube and Napier write:
One chronicler at least reports of the most immediate cause of the plague in 1345 that “between Cathay and Persia there rained a vast rain of fire; falling in flakes like snow and burning up Âmountains and plains and other lands, with men and women; and then arose vast masses of smoke; and whosoever beheld this died within the space of half a day…” There seems little doubt also that a worldwide cooling of the Earth played a fundamental part in the process. The Arctic polar cap extended, changing the cyclonic pattern and leading to a series of disastrous harvests. These in turn led to widespread famine, death and social disruption. In England and Scotland, there is a pattern of abandoned villages and farms, soaring wheat prices and falling populations. In Eastern Europe there was a series of winters of unparalleled severity and depth of snow. The chronicles of monasteries in Poland and Russia tell of cannibalism, common graves overfilled with corpses, and migrations to the west. Even before the Black Death came, then, a human catastrophe of great proportions was under way in late medieval times. Indeed, the cold snap lasted well beyond the period of the … plague. A number of such fluctuations are to be found in the historical record, and there is good evidence that these climatic stresses are connected not only with famine but also with times of great social unrest, wars, revolution and mass migrations. (Clube & Napier 1990, 274)
It sounds surprisingly like our own era, does it not? There are differences in detail and in scale, but the dynamics of a world gone mad, incredible cruelty running rampant, and global climate fluctuations are the same as we see before us now.
Calvinism was one of the developments that came out of this period. As Clube notes, the Protestant reformation was partly due to the fact that the powers of the time, the Catholic Church, had built their control system based on the Aristotelian system of “God is in his heaven and all will be right with the world if you are a good Christian”. Obviously, they didn’t want to talk about a cosmos run amok over which their vaunted god had no control. And the fact that things were running amok and the church couldn’t do anything about it (not to mention the corruption of the church that was evident to the masses) gave ammunition to the Reformers who then were able to attract many followers just as Christianity attracted Constantine at a time when the pagan gods did not seem to be able to help in the face of cometary bombardment.
The Protestants thus were able to use the situation to their advantage, suggesting that it was “The End of Times” and that this was all part of the plan and people would be saved if they would only come over to the Protestant side.
Of course, once the Protestants had “won their place”, so to say, they too had to establish authority and adopt the Aristotelian view! “Now, God is in his heaven and all will be right and there won’t be any more catastrophic disruptions as long as everybody goes to church, tithes, and obeys the appointed authorities.”
This brings us to the topic of witch persecutions. From the early decades of the fifteenth century until 1650, continental Europeans executed between two and five hundred thousand witches (according to conservative estimates), more than 85 percent of them being women (Ben-Yehuda 1985). People of the time, and even later, really did believe in the reality of witchcraft and evil demons. Men like Newton, Bacon, Boyle, Locke and Hobbes firmly believed in the reality of evil spirits and witches. As historian and religious scholar J. B. Russell said:
Tens of thousands of [witch] trials continued throughout Europe generation after generation, while Leonardo painted, Palestrina composed and Shakespeare wrote (Russell 1980, 79).
Witchcraft and witches have existed throughout Âhistory, though in a context completely different from that which came to be understood during the crusade against witches. The Old Testament pretty much ignores the topic, except to report an encounter between King Saul and the witch of Endor, and to include a law: “Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live”. But other than that, in a way that seems to bizarrely contradict that law, stories of witches in the Bible are surprisingly neutral. There is no conceptualization or elaboration of witches, devils, or any kind of demonic world. The world of the Old Testament is, in fact, a world surprisingly devoid of anything truly spiritual.
In ancient Greece and Rome, magic was used to produce rain, prevent hail storms, drive away clouds, calm the winds, make the earth bear fruit, increase wealth, cure the sick, and so on. It could also be used against one’s enemies to deprive them of those desirable effects. These beliefs were widespread in the ancient world influenced by Pythagoras and his Northern European Druidic training, and generally, “good magic” was lawful and necessary, and “bad magic” was condemned and punished. The state even supported those who could purportedly do “good magic”. It depended on perspective whether you were a “good” magician or a “bad” one. That’s probably why the English condemned Joan of Arc for being a witch and France turned around and canonized her.
The Graeco-Roman religious universe — the supernatural world — was not divided into extreme good and extreme evil. It was occupied by every shade and combination of all qualities exactly as existed in human society. In this world, magic was simply an attempt to harness the power of the Unseen, while religion occupied itself with respect and gratitude to Nature and its representatives for results. In this way, prayers and spells could be easily combined.
The witch or sorcerer was a person who had a method — a technology — that could be used to harness and activate supernatural powers for her/himself or for others. She/he could “control” the forces of nature (at least, that is what they believed, and who are we to say that the truly ancient shamanic technicians couldn’t?).
So, two points are important here: 1) witchcraft/sorcery was a technology, and 2) there was a definite distinction between good magic and bad magic, and context was all-important.
After the disintegration of the Roman Empire and the rise of Judeo-Christianity, many missionaries, on finding that the pagans had their own spectrum of local deities and beliefs, often sought to convert them by the simple expedient of canonizing the local gods so that the native population could continue to worship them under the aegis of Christianity. They became “Christian saints” complete with invented hagiographies (as I mentioned above, possibly most “Christian Martyrs” were actually pagans killed by the church). The old temples were converted into churches so that the pagans would come to familiar places of worship to hear mass and pray to their “saints” just like always. Magical practices were tolerated because it was felt that the people would give them up naturally over time once they had become truly Christian.
Official church policy held that any belief in witchcraft was an illusion. In the famous, but mysterious, Canon episcopi, we find a few clues:
Some wicked women, perverted by the devil, seduced by illusions and phantasms of demons, believe and profess themselves in the hours of night, to ride upon certain beastes with Diana, the goddess of pagans, and an innumerable multitude of women, and in the silence of the dead of night to traverse great spaces of earth, and to obey her commands as of their mistress, and to be summoned to her service on certain nights. But I wish it were they alone who perished in their faithlessness and did not draw many with them into the destruction of infidelity. For an innumerable multitude, deceived by this false opinion, believe this to be true, and so believing, wander from the right faith and are invalued in the error of the pagans…
Wherefore the priests throughout their churches should preach with all insistence … that they know this to be false and, that such phantasms are imposed and sent by the malignant spirit … who deludes them in dreams…
Who is there who is not led out of himself in dreams, seeing such in sleeping which he never sees [when] waking?
… And who is so stupid and foolish as to think that all these things, which are only done in spirit, happen in the body?
It is therefore to be proclaimed publicly to all that whoever believes such things … has lost his faith. (Kors & Peters 1972, 29—31)
The origin of this document, that Kors and Peters date to 1140, is not clear. It has been attributed to an obscure meeting, the Council of Anquira, held possibly in the 4th century. Although there is no record of this council, the statement on witchcraft was adopted by later canonists as official policy. What it does tell us is that there were, apparently, worshippers of the Pagan Goddess Diana who had profound experiences that were declared to be delusions brought on by the Devil. Right here we see how the Goddess was replaced by Satan the deluder. It is interesting to compare the description of what these ancient witches were said to be doing with the activities of ancient Siberian shamans. One is also reminded of the Paleolithic cave paintings when reading, “in the hours of night, to ride upon certain beastes with Diana, the goddess of pagans…” This is a precious clue to the fact that the Paleolithic religion and its shamanic lines did survive for thousands of years.
In any event, for more than six centuries this was the official attitude of the church toward witches — that it was an illusion or delusion or just the product of dreams, and whoever was “so stupid and foolish” as to believe such fantastic tales was an infidel. That, apparently, applied to monks, and priests, and the general public as well. The important point here being that you had to believe in witches to persecute them, and believing in them as real was against church doctrine.
Taking into account the Black Death and the wars of the time killing off so much of the male population, one might suppose that there was an increase in unmarried women or women who had inherited estates when all other family members had perished. In short, women were becoming autonomous as a consequence. And certainly, women who had “gifts” would be more likely to survive such calamities than those who did not.
The details of exactly what happened may be forever lost to us thanks to the cover-up of history instituted by Joseph Justus Scaliger in the sixteenth century as has been suggested by Clube and revealed in some detail by mathematician Anatoly Fomenko (though Fomenko does not take catastrophic destruction of society into account). The best we can do is to speculate.
The most spectacular “witch” was Joan of Arc who was tried, condemned, and burned in 1431. Her trial and execution can clearly be seen as political, often a major, underlying motivation for such accusations.
It could be said that the witch persecutions were simply a reviving of the Inquisition that had created similar rules for dealing with the Cathars two hundred years earlier. In order to fully understand how easily this attack on “witches and sorcerers” could manifest legally and socially, we need to take a quick look at the beginnings of the Inquisition.
Many people think of the Inquisition as something that was started to eliminate witches and Devil worship, and the word conjures images of the rack and iron maidens and all kinds of bizarre and twisted torture equipment. Sure, torture was a big part of the Inquisition, but not as much as some people might think. You have to remember that the Inquisition began during a period of history when human life was treated so casually that cutting off noses or ears or hands, or gouging out eyes was not unheard of as a legal punishment for minor crimes.
The Crusade against the Cathars led to years of brutal massacres, destruction of the land, and some of the most horrible events ever to bear witness of man’s inhumanity to man. Toward the end, Pope Gregory IX decided that it was only results that counted. He intended to wipe Catharism from the face of the earth. He must have sat up at night to create the bizarre system that was put into place to deal with heresy.
First, he created special Papal legates who were granted wide powers of prosecution similar to what we have today in the DeÂpartment of Homeland Security, and sent them out all over Europe. The men chosen for this task were clearly psychopaths, and their mission was to spread terror all over Europe.
Gregory staffed the Episcopal palaces of the South of France with psychopathic bishops who offered a cash bounty to anyone who betrayed a heretic. The inducements to betray one’s neighbor were surely tempting in the best of times. But in a time when starvation and destruction was everywhere after more than 20 years of the rampaging of the Crusading armies, it was well-nigh impossible to resist. The terms were that the property confiscated from the heretic was divided between the informer, the church and the crown. Naturally, in a land that was financially devastated, where people were displaced and starving after years of being battered by this same church and crown, there were a lot of individuals offering up their neighbors for blood money. Sound familiar?
Robert le Bourgre, whose name means “the bugger” (suggesting the contempt in which he was held by the people), terrorized formerly peaceful northern France. Another legate, Conrad of Marburg found unsuspected heretics everywhere in the Rhineland. Thousands were sent to the stake, often on the same day that they were accused. Conrad rode about on his mule with two assistants, bringing terror to every village and town they approached. Apparently, even the regular clergy saw through this nonsense and finally decided to do something about it. On July 30, 1233, a Franciscan friar, driven to act in the name of justice, intercepted Conrad and murdered him.
The pope had had enough. He turned to the Dominicans. In the spring of 1233, Papal inquisitors were appointed in Toulouse, Albi, and Carcassonne. These inquisitors were succeeded in an unbroken line for 600 years.
Hundreds of people were summoned to testify before inquisitors. The questions were repetitive, designed to plant doubt in the mind of the person being interrogated as to what, exactly, the inquisitor knew, and who had told him. A person suspected of Cathar sympathies was not always informed of the charges hanging over his head. If apprised of the danger, he had no right to know who his accusers were, and if he dared to seek legal help, his lawyer could be charged with abetting heresy. Whatever the verdict of the inquisitor — who was prosecutor, judge and jury — no appeal was allowed. Anyone could be held indefinitely in prison for further questioning without cause of explanation. Nowadays, we call them “enemy combatants”.
The Inquisition destroyed the bonds of trust which hold societies together. Informing on one’s neighbor became not only a duty, but a necessary survival strategy. For 100 years, the Inquisition was a fact on the ground of life in the Languedoc. The arrival of an inquisitor in a town was the occasion for demeaning displays of moral collapse. In theory, of course, no one could be punished if no one talked because the inquisitor could not act without a writ of denunciation, but in practice, no community possessed the cohesion needed to combat the power of a secret tribunal.
The same is true in America today. Everyone has been adequately conditioned by watching “reality TV” and “Survivor”, and they know the rules: Do unto others before they do unto you. And so it was in the Languedoc, the historical model for the “witch” persecutions, for what happened in Germany under Hitler, and for what is happening in the world today vis-Ã -vis the “War on Terror”.
Upon his arrival in a town, the Inquisitor consulted with the local clergy. All males over the age of 14 and females over the age of 12 were required to make a profession of faith in the Catholic Church. Those who didn’t were the first to be questioned. Then the inquisitor would give a speech in which he invited the people to spend some days thinking very, very hard about their activities past, present and future and to come forward in the following week to give confidential depositions. After a seven-day grace period, those who had not denounced themselves would be issued a summons.
The punishments ranged from loss of property to loss of life. Aside from the capital crime of being a Cathar, punishable offenses included sheltering a Cathar or even failing to report any instance of heresy. The real proof of genuine piety toward the Catholic Church was measured by the number of people the sinner was willing to betray.
It only took ten years for the Inquisition to go from being the work of a few psychopathic fanatics to becoming a proficient bureaucracy that lasted for 600 years. It employed hundreds of individuals who interrogated thousands of people with such monotonous regularity that a regular “glossary” was established for the “workers”.
Armed with a list of proposed offenses to be considered “heretical” or “supporting heretics”, which included just knowing that a heretic had crossed one’s property and failing to report it, the Inquisition proceeded to intimidate the population of Europe on a scale that was impossible to imagine. The sheer numbers of people called to testify, and re-called to testify again and again, was staggering. In a strange twist of historical irony, the Cathars — who believed that the material world was evil and irrelevant — inspired the codification of the Police State.
A cross-referenced compendium of the confessions extracted from tens of thousands of people was compiled, creating a map of the mental landscape of the Languedoc. The more than five thousand transcripts of interrogations that survive represent only a small fraction of the work of the Inquisition.
Inquisitors’ manuals were created to serve as guides for the growing number of Papal courts in Europe. These manuals reminded the inquisitors that they were in the business of saving souls, but I think that the distinction was lost on those whose lives were lost or ruined by the judgments of the Inquisition.
Languedoc was, essentially, the laboratory for repression. The reputation of the Inquisition was enhanced by the talented Inquisitor of Toulouse, Bernard Gui, who was the villain in Umberto Eco’s The Name of the Rose.
The Inquisitors persuaded a handful of captured Cathars to convert and sell their testimony. Sicard de Lunel of Albi gave the friars an exhaustive list of Cathar sympathizers, even fingering his own parents. Anyone who had ever helped him in his life as a Cathar, whether they had just given him a bed for the night, a bit of food, or even a jar of honey, were hauled in to be punished, just on his word. He and several others like him were lodged thereafter in a castle outside of Toulouse in the medieval version of the “witness protection program”. Sicard was well paid for his perfidy and lived to a ripe old age. One wonders how peaceful it was.
The use of torture was delicately referred to as “putting the question”. In the Languedoc, successive waves of highly trained Inquisitors, aided by informers and torturers, fired by the totalitarian creed of the Catholic Church, with detailed manuals and expanding registers of “intelligence”, slowly but surely ground Catharism into oblivion. Thousands of dramas of conscience ended in the dungeons or in fires quenched with blood. By the end of the century, only the truly heroic dared to say that this world was evil.
It was not a legal system, it was a system designed to create fear. This 250-year-old Catholic system of terror was the system that was handily available at the beginning of the witch persecutions, though, curiously, the first persecutions were not ecclesiastical but rather political.
In 1397, a man named Stedelen was accused of being a witch in Simmental, Switzerland, after the harvest had failed at his village. According to his accusers, Stedelen used black magic to destroy the crops by allegedly sacrificing a black rooster on the Sabbath at a crossroad and placing a lizard under the doorway of a local church.
Peter von Greyerz, the judge, was a firm believer in witchcraft, which he believed had been introduced in Simmental by a noble man called Scavius in 1375. He was killed by his many enemies, but he had a student, who according to Greyerz had been the tutor of Stedelen.
There was no real evidence presented, of course, but Stedelen had allegedly become an expert on magic and supposedly learned to steal manure, hay and such from others’ fields by magic, create hail and thunderstorms, make people and animals sterile, make horses crazy when he touched their hooves, fly and terrify those who captured him. Greyerz also accused Stedelen of having taken the milk from the cows of a married couple in order to make the wife miscarry. After torture, Stedelen confessed to summoning forth demons as part of a pact with the Devil. His trial took place in a secular court following which he was burned at the stake.
Greyerz believed that there was a Satanic cult, whose members swore themselves to the Devil and ate children at the churches at night. He continued his persecutions and once tortured a woman to confirm this.
In 1415—1419, in the Duchy of Savoy, there was a civil war between clans of the nobility. Various noble families had rebelled against the Raron family, and the masses were drawn into the conflict. This had gone on for some time and, by 1428, the entire society in that area was in a state of great tension. No one knows who came up with the idea that all the troubles were due to witches, but on 7 August 1428, delegates from seven districts in Valais demanded that the authorities investigate alleged, unknown witches and sorcerers. Anyone denounced as a sorcerer by more than three people was to be arrested. If they confessed, they were to be burned at the stake as heretics, and if they did not confess, they would be tortured until they did so. Also, those pointed out by more than two of the judged sorcerers were to be arrested.
These accusations, trials and executions were probably seen by other elite individuals — or individuals who wished to become members of the elite by seizing the property of those they resented or envied — as a handy way to deal with many problems. The craze rapidly spread north into Germany, then to France and Switzerland. The main accusations consisted of:
From this list, we can surmise the kinds of troubles that the people were suffering: starvation leading to theft and vandalism, destruction of their livestock, widespread sickness, loss of children, and, undoubtedly, even cannibalism. It was clearly a very difficult time.
One hundred years after the Black Death had destroyed about half of Europe’s population, the Hundred Years War was coming to an end, things were still very, very difficult, and in order to restore order and control on the recovering society someone had to be blamed (definitely not cometary explosions). The problem was, of course, how to get around the Canon Episcopi. It was necessary to diminish this official church policy in order to even have a “witch craze”. So, the first attacks were made on the validity of the document itself.
In 1450, Jean Vineti, inquisitor at Carcassone, identified witchcraft with heresy, and in 1458, Nicholas Jacquier, Inquisitor in France and Bohemia, identified it as a new form of heresy — that is, contemporary witches were claimed to be different from the ones that the document was about. In 1460, Visconti Girolamo, Inquisitor Professor, Provincial of Lombardy, stated that the act of defending witchcraft (or witches) was itself heresy.
Incremental steps were being made toward establishing an official standard, but still, when Kramer and Sprenger (both members of the Dominican Order and Inquisitors for the Catholic Church) wrote the Malleus Maleficarum and submitted it to the University of Cologne’s Faculty of Theology on May 9, 1487, seeking its endorsement, it was roundly condemned as unethical and illegal. The Catholic Church banned the book in 1490, placing it on the Index Librorum Prohibitorum, and Kramer was denounced by the Inquisition. It should be noted here that, in 1484, Kramer had attempted a systematic persecution of witches in the region of Tyrol which bombed dramatically. Kramer was thrown out of the territory and dismissed by the local bishop as a “senile old man”. According to historian of the church Diarmaid MacCulloch, writing the book was Kramer’s act of self-justification and revenge.
The main thrust of the Malleus was to systematically refute the Canon Episcopi and to discredit those who expressed skepticism about the reality of witchcraft, to claim that witches were more often women than men, and to educate prosecutors on how to expose and convict them. Experts say that the Malleus was based, in part, on the Formicarius by Johannes Nider written about ten years earlier. Before Nider, magic was thought to be performed by educated men who performed intricate rituals.
In Nider’s Formicarius, the witch is described as illiterate and female. Unfortunately, Johannes Gutenberg’s printing press — a product of the Renaissance — allowed the work to spread rapidly throughout Europe. This crystallization is what resulted in the beginning of the witch craze itself. The idea that any person could harm another via magic simply by devoting themselves to the worship of Satan — especially women who had been long-viewed as helpless and somewhat less than human — was terrifying and shocking.
As the craze spread over Europe, literally hundreds of thousands of women were burned at the stake. Children and even whole families were sent to be burned. The historical sources are full of horrifying descriptions of the tortures these poor people were subjected to. Entire villages were exterminated. One account says that all of Germany was covered with stakes and Germans were entirely occupied with building bonfires to burn the victims. One inquisitor is reported to have said: “I wish [the witches] had but one body, so that we could burn them all at once, in one fire!” (Trevor-Roper 1967, 152)
In the 1580s, the Catholic Counter-Reformation became dedicated witch-hunters also, going after Protestants, mainly. In France, most witches happened to be Huguenot. In Protestant areas, most witches were Catholic. It could be said that most cases of witch burnings were either personal or political or both. One victim was a judge who was burned in 1628 for showing “suspicious leniency”. As the craze spread, the viciousness and barbarity of the attacks increased. The aforementioned judge, a Dr. Haan, under torture, confessed to having seen five burgomasters of Bamberg at the witches Sabbath, and they too were executed. One of them, a Johannes Julius, under torture confessed that he had renounced God, given himself to the Devil, and seen twenty-seven of his colleagues at the Sabbath. But afterward, from prison, he contrived to smuggle a letter out to his daughter, Veronica, giving a full account of his trial. He wrote:
Now, my dearest child, you have here all my acts and confessions, for which I must die. It is all falsehood and invention, so help me God… They never cease to torture until one says something. If God sends no means of bringing the truth to light, our whole kindred will be burnt. (Trevor-Roper 1967, 157)
Protestants and Catholics accused each other, and the early decades of the 1600s were infected by a veritable epidemic of demons! This lasted until the end of the Thirty Years” War. It is said that if the publication of the Malleus Maleficarum was the beginning of the terror, the Peace of Westphalia in 1648 was the end.
During this period, the distinction between good and bad magic vanished and witchcraft became something purely evil and almost totally female. The pluralistic conception of the supernatural world also vanished and we were left with only a very good God who was, however, seemingly impotent in the face of evil mankind in cahoots with a very evil Devil. Well, not exactly “mankind”, mostly “woman-kind”.
In recent times, the Malleus has been examined critically, though not by individuals with any awareness of the cosmic events of the time. Nevertheless, what they have observed has a bearing on our subject here. In his article, “Sexy Devils”, Dale Keiger writes:
One evening 10 years ago, Walter Stephens was reading Malleus Malificarum. The Malleus, as scholars refer to it, would not be everyone’s choice for a late-night book. Usually translated as “The Hammer of Witches”, it was first published in Germany in 1487 as a handbook for witch hunters during the Inquisition. It is a chilling text — used for 300 years, well into the Age of Reason — that justifies and details the identification, apprehension, interrogation, and execution of people accused of consorting with demons, signing pacts with the devil, and performing maleficia, or harmful magic.
“It was 11 at night”, Stephens recalls. “My wife had gone to bed, and on the first page (of the Malleus) was this weird sentence about people who don’t believe in witches and don’t believe in demons: ‘Therefore those err who say that there is no such thing as witchcraft, but that it is purely imaginary, even although they do not believe that devils exist except in the imagination of the ignorant and vulgar, and the natural accidents which happen to man he wrongly attributes to some supposed devil.’”
That convoluted sentence dovetailed with a curious line Stephens knew from Il messaggiero, a work from 1582 by the Italian poet Torquato Tasso: “If magicians and witches and the possessed exist, demons exist; but it cannot be doubted that in every age specimens of the former three have been found; thus it is unreasonable to doubt that demons are found in nature.”
Stephens, the Charles S. Singleton Professor of Italian Studies in the Hopkins Department of Romance Languages, is a literary critic, and he sensed that something intriguing was going on beneath the text on the page. Tasso, and especially the Malleus’ author, a Dominican theologian and Inquisitor named Heinrich Kramer, had in their works invested a striking amount of energy in refuting doubt about the existence of demons. What was that about?
For the next eight years Stephens read every treatise he could find on witchcraft, as well as accounts of interrogations, theological tracts, and other works (his bibliography lists 154 primary and more than 200 secondary sources). Most of the 86 witchcraft treatises he cites had been written in Western Europe in the 15th, 16th, and 17th centuries, and one after another (including the Malleus) contain accounts of sexual intercourse with Satanic spirits. Why? Were the authors’ remorseless misogynists hell-bent on portraying women in the worst possible light? Were they lurid, repressed celibates who got off by writing accounts of demon sex? Stephens Âdidn’t think so; the texts, in his view, didn’t support that reading. Elsewhere in the Malleus he had found a key reference to accused witches under torture as being “expert witnesses to the reality of carnal interaction between humans and demons”. These guys are trying to construct proofs that demons exist, he thought. They’re trying to convince skeptics. And then he thought they’re trying to convince themselves.
Stephens’ thesis profoundly revises the conventional wisdom about centuries of cruelty and injustice. The great European witch hunts, he says, were the outgrowth of a severe crisis of faith. The men who wrote books like the Malleus, men who endorsed the torture and burning of tens of thousands of innocent people, desperately needed to believe in witches, because if witches were real, then demons were real, and if demons were real, then God was real. Not just real but present and attentive. Carefully read the works composed by the witchcraft authors, Stephens says, and you will see how profoundly disturbed these educated, literate men were by their accumulating suspicions that if God existed at all, He wasn’t paying much attention to the descendants of Adam.
… The Church itself fractured, riven by massive organized heresies, and by a schism that led to as many as three men simultaneously laying claim to be the true pope. How could a world created by a watchful, benevolent, and engaged God be such a mess? (Johns Hopkins Magazine 2002; emphases mine)
The fourteenth and fifteenth centuries were a time when the forces of nature ran amok, and the powers of the time needed to save face and keep control: how was it that they, who overcame paganism by the promise that their God could protect his believers from the forces of nature, now were exposed as totally incompetent to do so? There was, undoubtedly, a resurgence of Paganism and to prevent that it was probably seen as ideal to blame the enemy — pagans — for destruction that they had nothing to do with. Protestantism was on the rise, of course, but its proponents did not see it as politic to go after the Mother Church which still held a great deal of power, so some other sin-bearer had to be found. At the end of the Hundred Years War and the Black Death, and the Thirty Years War — all of which may have been periods of cometary destruction on the earth — the Witch Persecutions were utilized to hush up completely any hint that the Earth was not securely hung in space, and history and truth was suppressed with blood and burning human flesh.
Such persecutions were a means of controlling those who uttered “heresies” against the “providential” order of the universe established by the Church and State, like pointing out that an increased number of fireballs and comet sightings may very well suggest that the planet and its inhabitants are in potential danger. This was the period of Galileo, after all, and he was accused of being a “heretic” for not supporting the potency of God Almighty.
Another point to note is that, before this period, witches were still comprehended as beings that could use a technology to control the powers of nature — shamanic; after this period, they were known as beings that only channeled evil into the world because they were under the control of the Evil One. They were all purely Satan’s puppets and no good could ever come from them. The Malleus Maleficarum specifically mentions that “witchcraft is chiefly found in women because they are more credulous and have poor memories”, and because “witchcraft comes from carnal lust, which is in women insatiable”. (Sprenger & Kramer 1968, 41—48)
The political uses of these ideas should be obvious. Sprenger and Kramer, et al., came along and wrote books describing healthy, competent, intelligent women as witches, and presto! Problem solved. All the excess women (or anybody, for that matter) can be gotten rid of; all the autonomous women with property can be done away with and their property confiscated; and, at the same time, the psychological control of men over women, re-establishing the subservience of women to the Church, can be accomplished in one fell swoop! (One also has to consider the destruction of many genetic lines of powerful women — shamanic lines — in this process, which has been ongoing, so it seems.)
One of the most distressing results of this change in attitude toward witches was the creation of witchcraft as a systematic anti-religion in the minds of its persecutors; it became the opposite of everything that Christianity — both Catholic and Protestant — stood for. Witchcraft as an elaborated system of religion was unknown before the fifteenth century (this is why modern-day reconstructions are not likely to be very accurate). This was a period in which a theory of supernatural demons was invented and crystallized as an explanation for the evils that fell upon mankind. How else to explain the Black Death which killed indiscriminately in spite of the prayers and supplications of the priests of the Christian church, both Catholic and Protestant?
It seems that the legends of gods fighting in the skies (the break-up of a giant comet 13,000 years ago) were later corrupted into certain Gnostic ideas such as the “cosmic error”. Certainly, at a certain level, there is duality, otherwise nothing would exist, but this Gnostic take on things went way too far with these ideas (see The Other God by Stoyanov for a better understanding of Gnosticism, keeping in mind the work of Victor Clube and Bill Napier).
The “witch myth” was created in the late 1400s in reaction to the Black Death — cometary destruction on an almost unimaginable scale — and this “myth” consisted of a whole, coherent system of beliefs, assumptions, rituals, and “sacred texts” that had never existed until this time and that were created by a couple of psychopathic accusers! The Dominicans developed and popularized the conceptions of demonology and witchcraft as a negative image of the so-called “true faith”, and the Protestants were just as busy!
What all this means is that being a “Witch” in the time of the witch persecutions must have meant something more akin to following a dualist belief system similar to the Cathars, being an observer of nature, astronomy, speaking truth to power; really, more like how Burton Mack described the early Jesus People. It probably also meant being able to “see the unseen” in terms of cosmic, social and human energies, to “walk between worlds” as the Paleolithic shamans did, and to use these abilities on behalf of other people. Perhaps the image of the witch flying on her broom across the face of the full moon was actually a corrupted ancient symbol of a comet with a tail personified as woman?
A comet came and nearly destroyed humanity at the end of October 13,000 years ago, and impacting debris from the same comet brought Judaism, Christianity, Islam and, later, the imposition of Christianity on the Western world. Later still, the same comet stream brought the Black Death and the persecution of witches, both male and female. This scape-goating was utilized to get rid of a lot of individuals who threatened the status quo — the control over the masses — and that included a great many strong, independent women. And so, today, we associate witches with Halloween, the end of October, and the anniversary of the destruction of nearly all life on Earth. It is just a variation on the “Eve ate the apple and brought about the fall in Eden” story, created by psychopaths who hate women and all they stand for: Creation, Nurturing and Service to Others.
Indeed. The calamities of that time — of any time — assault religious faith. And anyone who talks about such calamities in a reasonable and factual way as just what Nature does, and who backs it up with scientific data, must be silenced because they threaten the very foundation of Western Civilization: Judeo-Christianity, and Uniformitarianism, and Fascist control of humanity.
There is something else about the comet event 13,000 years ago that we need to consider. We need to understand just exactly how mankind became so fragmented; what element entered into humankind at this point in time so that all of the things I have described could have transpired?
Prior to this event by about 30,000 years, Neanderthal man held sway in the very area of the planet where we now find the most intriguing shamanic elements. But, it is clear that it did not originate there, but rather that it arrived fully formed with modern humans. Paul Mellars writes in The Neanderthal Legacy:
Perhaps the most intriguing and enigmatic aspects of the Middle Paleolithic period is how and why it came to an end, after a period of around 200,000 years of remarkable stability. From the preceding chapters it has emerged that while there were significant shifts in the precise morphology and technology of stone tool production, subsistence patterns, site distributions etc. [of Neanderthals] at different stages of the Middle Paleolithic, very few if any of these seem to reflect any radical reorganization or restructuring of technological, economic or social patterns. Most of the documented changes appear to be more cyclical than directional in character … none of these changes at present suggests more than a reshuffling of basic cultural and behavioural patterns which, in one form or another, can be traced back into the time range of the penultimate glaciation. …
The dramatic break in this pattern of behavioural stability occurs at the time of the classic Middle-to-Upper Paleolithic transition, dated in most regions of Europe at around 35-40,000 BP. (Mellars 1996, 392)
And then he asks the most important question in all of archaeology and paleontology: What is the precise character of the behavioral change and to what extent was this due to a major dispersal of new human populations? The corollary question is, of course: why should we encounter this particular combination of biological and behavioral change at this specific point in the archaeological sequence? It was, after all, a time when large parts of Europe were still in the grip of an Ice Age.
The only way to fully know how extraordinary the new type of human being was and is, is to study carefully the old types, and that is what this book does so well. You will be left in no doubt whatsoever that Neanderthals are not our ancestors though, indeed, there may have been some extremely limited genetic mixing as some recent DNA studies show. It may be significant to note that the mtDNA does not show mixing, so whatever infusion of Neanderthal genetics into modern human lines was probably a Neanderthal raping a Homo sapiens woman. A careful consideration of the characteristics of Neanderthals — what little can be discerned, but mainly their lack of creativity over 200,000 years or more of existence — along with the very small percentage of DNA mixing, may give clues to certain personality pathologies among modern humans, such as psychopathy. One has only to imagine the mixture of the non-creative, almost parasitic Neanderthal personality with the dynamic, creative, Cro-Magnon to get an image of the aggressive, dominating psychopath that is devoid of creativity, has no ability to conceive of time and space, and functions totally opportunistically. Perhaps that is the real “Neanderthal Legacy”? Just speculating.
A recent study suggests that between 1 and 4% of the DNA of modern, non-African, humans today comes from Neanderthals.
“According to our results, the ancestors of Neanderthals and modern humans went their separate ways about 400,000 years ago,” said co-author Jim Mullikin, a computational geneticist at the National Human Genome Research Institute.
The new data, however, also supports that Neanderthals and humans encountered each other again around 45,000 to 80,000 years ago in the Middle East, when humans migrating out of Africa likely met Neanderthals who were already living there.
The meeting must not have been too unpleasant, since the researchers believe the interbreeding happened at this place and estimated time. (Discovery News, May 6, 2010)
The only place where there is evidence of Neanderthals and anatomically modern humans co-existing during the time frame when this must have happened, at least 80,000 years ago, is the Middle East. It could have been as late as 60,000 years ago, but definitely not as recent as 45,000 to 30,000 years ago. “Such late European mixing cannot explain the current findings, in which Asians and Europeans are equally similar to Neandertals.” The team says that they cannot rule out that what they are seeing as “Neandertal motifs are really ancient genetic variants that Neandertals and some modern humans inherited from a common ancestor they shared before Neandertals split off.”
I think we are seeing the origins of the psychopath, which I theorize was created by the combination of Neanderthal and Cro-Magnon genetics. The mtDNA shows no mixing, but the nuclear DNA shows mixing and the figure is between 1 and 4 percent, which just happens to be the same figure given for essential psychopathy by many experts. Obviously, there is no “psychopathy” gene, but rather unfortunate combinations as a result of this admixture. There are different systems involved in what we term psychopathic behavior. And each of these systems is controlled by different sets of genes.
Many studies have shown in the last 20 years that murderers and ultraviolent criminals have a startling evidence of brain disease. For example, in one such study, 20 of 31 confessed or sentenced murderers had specific neurological diagnoses. Some of the inmates had more than one disorder, and no subject was normal in all spheres. Among the diagnoses were schizophrenia, depression, epilepsy, alcoholism, alcoholic dementia, mental retardation, cerebral palsy, brain injury, dissociative disorders and others. More than 64% of them appeared to have frontal lobe abnormalities. Fifty percent had brain atrophy and 40% had EEG abnormalities. Almost 84% of the subjects had been victims of severe physical and/or sexual abuse. The group of murderers included gang members, rapists, robbers, serial murderers, mass murderers, one subject who killed his infant son, and another who murdered three siblings.
In another study carried out in Canada in 1994, in the most violent group of 372 males imprisoned in a maximum-security mental hospital, 20% had focal temporal abnormalities of the EEG, and 41% had pathologic alterations of the brain structure in the temporal lobe. The corresponding rates for the least violent group were 2.4% and 6.7%, respectively, thus suggesting an important role of neurological damage in the genesis of violent personalities. …
Although this has been always a very controversial subject, many researchers think that there is now a compelling case for a substrate of brain disease in violent criminals; and this has very important consequences for many things, from the point of view of the law to the prospect of effective prevention and treatment of sociopathy.5
There is also the possibility that the 13KYA comet event cause mutations and there could be a psychopathy gene that is quite specific.
There is evidence for mutation collected in a book entitled The Diluvian Impact, and another, Man and Impact in the Americas, in the form of legends of mutants that began to appear after impact events. Most of these legends have to do with alterations in body size (either giants or dwarves) and raging cannibalism; the two seem to have gone together.
The slashed and butchered bones of at least eight Neanderthal people who lived 43,000 years ago were excavated from a cave called El Sidron in the Asturias region of Spain by a research team led by Antonio Rosas, a paleoanthropologist.
The remains of four young adults, two teenagers, one youngster and an infant all bore deliberate cut marks made by the crude stone tools of the era, including saw-toothed knives, skin scrapers and a single hand ax, report Rosas and his colleagues.
There is also evidence that some of the skulls of the eight Neanderthals were skinned, their leg joints were dismembered, and other long bones were broken — presumably to extract the fat and protein from the rich marrow, Rosas said.6
And:
Gory evidence uncovered in France reveals that the early humans in the region ate one another.
Cheek muscles from children were filleted out, tendons were sliced and skulls were cracked to remove brains. …
Excavations at the cave at Moula-Guercy, Ardeche, yielded 78 Neanderthal bones, from at least six individuals who lived 100,000 years ago. Remnants of two adults, two 15 or 16-year-olds, and two six or seven-year-olds were dug up as well as nearly 400 pieces of animal bone. …
All the skulls and limb bones were broken apart, presumably to remove brain or marrow. Only the hand and foot bones remained intact, which contain no marrow. Arm and leg tendons were cut, a necessary action if a limb is to be removed. Other cuts show that the thigh muscles were removed, and in at least one case the tongue was cut out.
There have been hints of Neanderthal cannibalism at other sites before but this is by far the clearest evidence and the first in Europe.7
What also strikes me as curious is the fact that red-headed individuals are noted to have been the particular objects of sacrifice in certain South American art. It is now known from the genetic mapping that Neanderthals were red-headed and pale-skinned.8 They also had long “bread-loaf shaped” heads with a “bun” at the back. It makes one wonder about the Ica skulls, skulls such as those of Nefertiti and her children, artificial cranial deformation, genital mutilation, and so on.
But, getting back to the Neanderthal idea, when you study the archaeological research, you come away with the idea that Neanderthals were more like animals than anything else; detailed examination of the sites and technology, leave you with the impression that what you have just read is pretty much like reading about the living sites of tribes of chimpanzees.
If you picture a uniform society of non-creative individuals who have poor understanding of how others feel, whose energies are all invested in daily survival, and who live in small isolated groups — such a species can exist for a long time as long as any change in conditions is within their reaction capabilities. Just look at the animal world.
Neanderthals were already rapidly declining in number by 80,000 years ago no matter where they were. This may be because they lacked some critical Cro-Magnon genetic material that gave them the behavioral flexibility.
Based on the research, the population of each band of Neanderthals was very small and were focused on survival in a rough environment. Something was lacking in Neanderthals, however: the intelligence and adaptability to function within a large, social group. This means that some of their behaviors were psychopath-like, though we can’t say that they definitely were psychopaths. Any significant population comprised only of psychopaths would be evolutionarily unstable and that may be why they died out. They were too psychopath-like and lacked adaptability.
Neanderthals, archaics, and other peoples of the Middle Paleolithic were not very smart and used simple stones for tools. In fact, they constructed and made essentially the same stone tools over and over again for perhaps 200,000 years, until around 35,000 B.P., with little variation or consideration of alternatives (Binford, 1982; Gowlett, 1984; Mellars, 1989). Neanderthals greatly lacked in creativity, initiative, imagination, and tended to create simple stone tools that served a single purpose. As neatly summed up by an ardent defender of Neanderthal cognitive capabilities (Hayden,1993, p. 139), “as a rule, there is no evidence of private ownership or food storage, no evidence for the use of economic resources for status or political competition, no elaborate burials, no ornaments or other status display items, no skin garments requiring intensive labor to produce, no tools requiring high energy investments, no intensive regional exchange for rare items like sea shells or amber, no competition for labor to produce economic surpluses and no corporate art or labor intensive rituals in deep cave recesses to impress onlookers and help attract labor.” Neanderthals tended to live in the “here and now,” with little ability to think about or consider the distant future (Binford, 1973, 1982; Dennell, 1985; Mellars, 1989, 1996). (Joseph 2003, 315)
The survival of Neanderthal genes including those that could make an individual prone to violence, aggression and lack of empathy would then require an infusion of genes from a more evolutionary stable population, one with traits of higher intelligence and adaptability in its genetic pool. This is what would seem more conducive to the creation and spread of essential psychopathy as the archaeological and historical record seems to show, hence it begins with mixing. Before that, in the Neanderthal, it was just a seed comprising aggression and lack of empathy but that is not all that makes a psychopath. The intelligence to do something with those traits, i.e., the ability to manipulate in various social situations is what the Neanderthal lacked, and that may have come from the mixture. The Cro-Magnon population with just a little or no Neanderthal genes would also be more or less stable for long periods of time even in a changing environment, while Neanderthals could be stable as long as the environment was relatively stable. As this population of Cro-Magnons grew, the regionally scattered small bands of Neanderthals were declining. In short, it is suggested by the research that the Cro-Magnon population was not psychopathic in the sense that we understand psychopathy, nor were the Neanderthals, though the latter were to some degree psychopath-like.
So, combine an animalistic emotional nature like that with the creative, active, dynamic, adventurous brain of the Cro-Magnon and what do you have? It is only the mixture that was deadly; the enormous contradiction of essences could have created what we now know as the psychopath in a number of variations.
The Neanderthal had a low forehead even though it had about the same (or even slightly larger) brain volume. The frontal lobes of the brain are associated with creativity so a low forehead might mean little or no creativity. It is also the frontal lobes of the brain that show problems/lack of development in psychopaths.
Much of the behavior which makes possible stable and adequate social relations is controlled by the part of the brain called frontal lobe, which is located in the most anterior part of the brain hemispheres. All social primates have highly developed frontal brains, and human beings have the largest one of all. Self-control, planning, judgment, the balance of individual versus social needs, and many other essential functions underlying effective social intercourse are mediated by the frontal structures of the brain (see Dr. Silvia Cardoso’s enlightening article on “The External Architecture of the Brain” in Brain & Mind Magazine’s first issue, to understand what the frontal brain is) …
Using the PET technique, American medical researchers Adrian Raine and colleagues have been studying murderers, with startling results. They found that 41 murderers have a much decreased level of brain functioning in the prefrontal cortex compared with normal persons, indicating a deficit related to violence. In other words, even when no visible pathological alteration was present, frontal damage was apparent by abnormal lower activity of the brain in that area. “Damage to this brain region,” Raine noted, “can result in impulsivity, loss of self-control, immaturity, altered emotionality, and the inability to modify behavior, which can all in turn facilitate aggressive acts.” Other abnormalities observed by the PET study of the murderers’ brain included reduced neural metabolism in the superior parietal gyrus, left angular gyrus and the corpus callosum, and abnormal asymmetries of activity in the amygdala, thalamus, and medial temporal lobe. It is probable that these effects are related to violence and criminality, because some of these structures are part of the so-called limbic brain, which processes emotions and emotional behavior (please see “Limbic System: The Center of Emotions” in Brain & Mind Magazine)
One interesting aspect of Dr. Raine’s research is that he correlated the PET brain images to the murderers’ personal history, in order to ascertain whether they were subjected to trauma, physical or sexual abuse, neglect, or poverty when they were children (a deprived environment for the development of personality). Of the murderers, 12 had suffered significant abuse or deprivation. It was discovered that murderers coming from non-deprived households had much larger deficits in the orbitofrontal area of the brain (14% on the average) than normal people and murderers coming from deprived environments. …
Indirect evidence of the role of prefrontal cortex in psychopathic behavior is coming from other experiments as well. In Canada, a team headed by Dominique LaPierre compared 30 psychopaths to 30 non-psychopathic criminals, using tests that evaluate the function of two parts of the prefrontal cortex: the orbitofrontal and the frontal ventromedial areas. The results showed that “the psychopaths were significantly impaired on all the orbitofrontal-ventromedial tasks”, but not in the function of other areas of the frontal cortex. The similarities between psychopaths and patients with prefrontal cortex damage surfaced in several areas of the study. “Both the psychopath and the orbitofrontal or ventromedial frontal patient show an exaggerated preoccupation with sexual matters, acting in a promiscuous and impersonal maladaptive way,” observed the researchers. “Both are remarkable for their lack of social and ethical judgment. Both neglect long-term consequences of their actions, choosing immediate gratification over careful planning.”9
Two Neanderthals tested had type O blood. I haven’t found a mention of the Rh factor, but I believe it was O positive, otherwise it would have been noted. It is not known if other Neanderthals that may be tested genetically will or will not have the same, but it is very likely. Early modern humans, on the other hand, were very likely O negative since the early Europeans are characterized by a high percentage of O negative blood.
After Cro-Magnon man arrived in Europe, Europe apparently achieved a sort of nirvana civilization that was peaceful for over 25,000 years. That may not be the case amongst all tribes, but we know that they were not imperialistic because they were almost unknown to the rest of the world, at least as far as modern history is concerned. They stayed there, were satisfied and stable and were, in fact, the last bastion of the hunter-gatherer way of life in the regions now known as “western society.”
Now, why is the origination and propagation of psychopathy important to our topic? Considering historically what has been done to shamanism, and the woman as shaman in particular, we must factor in the action of psychopaths in the human population. I am constantly reminded while reading the news, that the pathological types — psychopaths in particular — are so easily able to garner support and “workers” for manipulative and nefarious ends. That is, of course, because they use spell-binding (black magic, according to Gurdjieff) and prey on the ignorance and gullibility (and pathological conditioning) of the walking wounded. As a result, they charge their followers up with some cockamamie “mission to save” this or that and induce their belief in some false-front ideology.
There are a number of books about the psychopathology of Adolf Hitler and how he manipulated the sexual frustrations and inhibitions of people — calling forth their hidden desires and suggesting to them that following him would give satisfaction to the ache in their hearts and the unfulfilled needs in their bodies. That is also a fairly standard mode of operation in Christian churches, especially fundamentalist types. I wrote about this in my book, Amazing Grace, how one fundie woman explained what “getting in the spirit” felt like, that it was “almost a carnal feeling, you know?” That was, of course, what set the bells ringing in my head that there was something seriously wrong with what they were after.
But it’s not just in the public sphere, in social contexts, that psychopathology has a detrimental effect on women in general; it can be very personal and, in fact, often is. The main type of individual that the psychopath seeks out seems to be, according to therapist Sandra Brown, the shamanic type of woman. The techniques used by psychopaths that are described in her book Women Who Love Psychopaths are the same techniques that have been used for centuries to foment war and rebellion. When people are worked up into a sexual frenzy, they become fanatics and will do “whatever it takes.” They become little more than animals.
In reading Women Who Love Psychopaths, I realized that the things that a psychopath does, the things that work in baiting, capturing, and bonding women are obviously caricatures of things that ought to be manifested in positive ways. For example: a psychopath may use his eyes and words to entrance and bait a woman to his bed where he “bonds” with her via “super sex.” He uses tender, romantic words, gestures, promises, etc.
On the other hand, normal guys (and I’ll talk about guys here since most psychopaths are male) generally do not feel comfortable gazing into the eyes of their beloved, speaking romantic words, performing wildly romantic gestures and certainly, most men are sexually inhibited or downright juvenile in their sexual behavior. They also do not see sex as it ought to be seen, as one of the best opportunities for giving they have in their daily lives.
But a psychopath observes his prey, does all the things that he has learned will capture her, and then he bends her to his evil will.
Why don’t normal men observe their intended — not as prey, but as the object of devotion and giving? Why don’t they learn everything about her, what she is, what she wants, what she needs, and then give it to her as an act of love?
Well, that’s one thing that occurs to me. And the reason I bring it up is, as I said, because the interaction between the psychopath and his prey is a caricature of what seems to be an STO practice of great antiquity that we have completely lost. I think that what psychopaths do is a caricature of what normal love between spiritual people might be like, how we evolved to interact with one another emotionally. Why do I think this? Because it seems to be similar to what happens in the process of neurochemical binding.
In short, it seems to me that what psychopaths do works because they have observed women and know what to do to lure and capture them. And this works because these women have a certain “something” inside them that is looking for a real love and they mistake the caricature for the real because they are ignorant of the facts of psychopathy. They don’t realize that they have “spiritual love binding sites” that can be bound by a “drug” (i.e., the psychopath) which does not act in the way the real neurochemical would act (i.e., the true spiritual love from a man who can give and receive true love).
This idea raises a lot of issues, not the least of which is what genuinely spiritual men need to do to get over their hang-ups and learn to give on all levels: mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually; and women who need to learn how to distinguish the true from the false.
Returning now to the benefits of having this knowledge and acting on it, by acting based on the subtle clues in her environment, including her own body, the shaman’s ability to see grows as well. And when her ability to see increases, she is better able to make choices, based on seeing the unseen, that act in a beneficial way for the entire STO polarity. The more the shaman exercises free will and ensures the freedom of will of others, the more available the energy of free will becomes to the entire planet. And this has a huge implication: the more free will is available, the more the STS domination will naturally decrease. The fewer people who are available for feeding, the less the STS orientation can grow.
The shaman is a specialist in the sacred. They are able to see the spirits, to go up into the sky (interact with STO hyperdimensional realities) and meet the gods, to descend to the underworld (perceive STS hyperdimensional realities) and fight the demons, sickness, and death.
The shaman’s essential role in the defense of the psychic integrity of the community depends above all on her ability to see what is hidden and invisible to the rest and to bring back direct and reliable information from the supernatural worlds.
Regarding this “seeing,” the problem has been defined in more modern terms by Donald Hoffman, a cognitive scientist at the University of California, Irvine. Hoffman is the author of Visual Intelligence. He writes in response to a question as to what he believes that he cannot prove:
I believe that consciousness and its contents are all that exists. Space-time, matter and fields never were the fundamental denizens of the universe but have always been, from their beginning, among the humbler contents of consciousness, dependent on it for their very being.
The world of our daily experience — the world of tables, chairs, stars and people, with their attendant shapes, smells, feels and sounds — is a species-specific user interface to a realm far more complex, a realm whose essential character is conscious. It is unlikely that the contents of our interface in any way resemble that realm.
Indeed the usefulness of an interface requires, in general, that they do not. For the point of an interface, such as the Windows interface on a computer, is simplification and ease of use. We click icons because this is quicker and less prone to error than editing megabytes of software or toggling voltages in circuits.
Evolutionary pressures dictate that our species-specific interface, this world of our daily experience, should itself be a radical simplification, selected not for the exhaustive depiction of truth but for the mutable pragmatics of survival.
If this is right, if consciousness is fundamental, then we should not be surprised that, despite centuries of effort by the most brilliant of minds, there is as yet no physicalist theory of consciousness, no theory that explains how mindless matter or energy or fields could be, or cause, conscious experience.10
Here, we are going to talk about the shaman in the masculine gender because we will be referring to the stories of heroes who were men. There is an astonishing likeness between the accounts of shamanic ecstasies and certain epic themes in archaic oral literature. The shaman’s adventures in the other world, the ordeals that he undergoes in his ecstatic descents below and ascents to the sky suggest the adventures of the heroes of the great myths and epics from Gilgamesh to Perseus, from Odysseus to Perceval. It is extremely likely that most of the motifs, as well as the characters, images, and clichés of these myths and stories are of ecstatic origin. In this sense, they become essential for study to those following the Shamanic path because they are, in all likelihood, narratives of shamans describing their journeys and adventures in the superhuman worlds.
We have termed the ecstatic experience a “primary phenomenon” because we see no reason whatever for regarding it as the result of a particular historical moment, that is, as produced by a certain form of civilization. Rather, we would consider it fundamental in the human condition, and hence known to the whole of archaic humanity; what changed and was modified with the different forms of culture and religion were the interpretation and the evaluation of the ecstatic experience. What, then, was the historico-religious situation in Central and North Asia, where, later on, shamanism crystallized as an autonomous and specific complex? Everywhere in those lands, and from the earliest times, we find documents for the existence of a Supreme Being of celestial structure, who also corresponds morphologically to all the other Supreme Beings of the archaic religions. The symbolism of ascent, with all the rites and myths dependent on it, must be connected with celestial Supreme Beings; we know that “height” was sacred as such, that many supreme gods of archaic peoples are called “He on high,” “He of the Sky,” or simply “Sky.” This symbolism of ascent and height retains its value even after the “withdrawal” of the celestial Supreme Being …
Hence we must conceive of Asiatic shamanism as an archaic technique of ecstasy whose original underlying ideology — belief in a celestial Supreme Being with whom it was possible to have direct relations by ascending into the sky — was constantly being transformed by a long series of exotic contributions culminating in the invasion of Buddhism. The concept of mystical death, furthermore, encouraged increasingly regular relations with the ancestral souls and the “spirits,” relations that ended in “possession.” The phenomenology of the trance underwent many changes and corruptions, due in large part to confusion as to the precise nature of ecstasy. Yet all these innovations and corruptions did not succeed in eliminating the possibility of the true shamanic ecstasy; and we have been able to find examples of genuine mystical experiences of the shamans, taking the form of “spiritual” ascents …
… More than once we have discerned in the Shamanic experience a “nostalgia for paradise” that suggests one of the oldest types of Christian mystical experience. As for the “inner light”, which plays a part of the first importance in Indian mysticism and metaphysics as well as in Christian mystical theology, it is already documented in Eskimo shamanism. [emphasis added] (Eliade 2004, 504—505, 507, 508)
We return again to the question: in practical terms, what are we supposed to do? Let’s look at something we have brought up before and see if we cannot find a clue here:
A: First, some blockbuster stuff for the Knighted ones … Look upon a detailed map, and reflect, remember lonely journeys from long ago, and begin to unlock shattering mysteries, which will lead to revelations opening the door to the greatest learning burst yet!!
Q: You said “Knighted ones,” as though there were some significance to the name …
A: Discover …
Q: Is there some genetic engineering here?
A: No, not in the sense you are thinking. But, all are in some sense. […]
Q: (L) Well, what I really want to know is why have we had all of these crazy things happen in our lives, and all of these people ranged all around us seemingly placed there, or manipulated deliberately to affect us negatively. I mean, am I wrong, or is this not a very unusual and crazy situation?
A: Why do you think?
Q: Well, I have no idea!
A: Because you are of the extremely rare and few who have the abilities to put the puzzle together.
Q: So, what are we supposed to do? (TK) Discover.
A: Yes.
Now, even though the remark was made to me and my brother, and even considering the fact that our patronymic is Knight, the real question is: What is it to be “knighted”? We already know that, in certain terms the whole concept of the Knight possibly is derived from the shamanic function. And, if that is the case, how many more Knighted Ones are there?
The Hero of the Grail Quest is Perceval, the “Desired Knight.” He was also known as the Widow’s Son, which also happens to be an appellation of Horus the Younger, Isis being the widow of Osiris. We can easily see that the story of Isis and Osiris is a variation of the story of Demeter and Persephone and Ishtar/Inanna descending into the underworld to save her son-lover Tammuz/Dumuzi.
Perceval united many pagan and Christian myths but it is also evident that the Christian mythos was a redaction of the ancient shamanic path. Perceval was sent to cure the world’s ills and to restore the Waste Land to fertility. He was hidden, like most divine children, and raised in obscurity, but the question we are most concerned with is, Why “Perceval”? If we consider that all the names and descriptions in the Grail stories are clues, which it is evident they are, then we must think that the name of the central character is one of the biggest clues.
When we look into the name Perceval, we find the first thing that we notice is its similarity to Persephone. It is thought that the name was derived from the name of the Welsh demigod Peredur or Paladrhir whose name meant “Spearman with a Long Shaft.”11 (Don’t laugh! There’s more to this than meets the eye!) This has often been compared to an ancient appellation of Osiris, which was “Mummy with a Long Member.” So, it has been assumed that Perceval means “He Who Pierces the Valley,” in terms of sexual connotation.
I gave this matter a great deal of thought at one point and I just wasn’t satisfied with these explanations. I was puzzling over it one day and doing some searching on the Internet for any clues I could find, when it began to thunder outside. As I was hurrying to turn off and unplug my equipment (after losing two modems to lightning), a tremendous bolt of lightning struck practically right outside my window. I instantly thought about my dog that is terrified of lightning. “Poor Percy,” I thought … and instantly I realized the origin of Perceval. You see, my dog’s name is Perseus.
So, I began to think of Perseus and compare the stories in dynamic terms. You see, there are more stories of failed heroes than there are of successful ones, but Perceval and Perseus were successful. In fact, Perseus is about the most successful hero in all of epic and mythical history! He not only cut off the head of the Gorgon and killed the Sea Monster, he saved the damsel in distress, married her, and was raised to the stars. Perseus was the epitome of the hero who frees the Maidens of the Wells. By his marriage with Andromeda he achieved the shamanic ability of using the power of the head of Medusa to “balance the realm” by turning to stone all those who oppressed the people. Notice the all-important point that the shamanic knight, Perseus did not “fight” anyone; he merely held up the head of the Gorgon and those who were “tuned” to it, turned to stone.
Q: [In terms of the Quest, the search for the Grail], what is the meaning of the Widow’s Son? The implication?
A: Stalks path of wisdom incarnate. Perceval was knighted in the court of seven.
Q: The court of seven what?
A: Swords points signify crystal transmitter of truth beholden. […]
Q: (L) In studying the myths of the Golden Age, I have found that the Seven Sages are supposed to be the original celestial powers that were the benefactors of mankind before the Fall. You once said that Perceval was “knighted in the Court of Seven” and that the swords’ points signify “crystal transmitter of truth beholden.” Do these seven sages relate to this Court of Seven that you mentioned?
A: Close.
Q: (L) When you said ‘swords points signify crystal transmitter of truth beholden,’ could you elaborate on that remark?
A: Has celestial meaning.12
Q: (L) Who was worshipped by the people who built Stonehenge?
A: Complicated. Spirit, stars, energy. […]
Q: In reading the Celtic legends, I discovered that Cassiopaea was part of a Triple Goddess construct along with Andromeda and Danae, Danu, or Don, as in Tuatha de Danaan, or the court of the goddess Danu. So, in other words, the supreme goddess of the Celts was Cassiopaea. Rhys states it explicitly. Cassiopaea is found in the zodiacal area of Aries, the lamb, where Cepheus the rock and king is also found, as well as Perseus, “he who breaks” — with one of the stars in his foot being called “breaker of rocks.” The representation is of Perseus overcoming the serpent, and the ancient Celtic engravings of the horned god show him gripping two serpents by the throat. I would like to understand the symbology here …
A: You are on the right track.
Q: What is the symbology of the breaking of rocks, as in the alchemical texts, as well as related to Perseus as he who breaks?
A: Occurs at a time when rocks break, as in the electromagnetic impulses that emanate from earthbound rocks when sheared by tectonic forces, and much more importantly, the possible utilization of said forces whether naturally or otherwise induced.
Q: I have a few questions on the subject of Cassiopaea. On several occasions you have described Cassiopaea or the Cassiopaeans, the unified thought form light beings that transmit through Cassiopaea, as being the “front line of the universe’s system of natural balance.” On another occasion you said that Isis was a “vanguard.” Now, it seems to me that something that is at the front line is also a vanguard — that the definitions are interchangeable, or similar. In reading through all the various myths and legends, it occurs to me that the similarity between the imagery of Queen Cassiopaea and Isis is quite striking. What is the relationship between Queen Cassiopaea, archetypally speaking, and Isis?
A: Subliminal. For those who “see the unseen.”
Q: The other thing I noticed about the word “Isis” is that it can be slightly altered to make “I Zeus.” And, Perseus can be “per Zeus” and Persia can be made to say “per ziu.” One of the oldest etymological roots for the word “God” is “ziu” from which we get “deu.” These all represent the English translation of “for God,” with Perceval being “per ziu val” or “strong for God.” Could you comment on these relationships?
A: Interconnected by trilingual learning curve.
Q: I also noticed that the word “Osiris” could also be slightly modified to say “of Sirius.” Comment, please.
A: Sirius was regarded highly in your “past.”
Q: What was the foundation of this regard for Sirius?
A: “From whence cometh, is seen that which knows no limitation.”
Q: Could you elaborate on that?
A: Could, but will not.
Q: Why?
A: Because you can! …
Q: In the same vein, I have noticed that there are two classes of arachnids. There are scorpions and there are spiders. The zodiac was changed by taking the pincers away from the Scorpion and creating out of them the sign of Libra. This image was one of a woman holding a balance scales, usually blindfolded. This was done within recorded history, but was probably formalized through the occult traditions of Kaballah. Now, in trying to figure out who has on what color hat, if there is such a thing, I have come to a tentative conclusion that the spider, or spinner of webs, is the Rosicrucian encampment, and that the Scorpion represents the seeker of wisdom … because, in fact, the word for Scorpio comes from the same root as that which means to pierce or unveil. Therefore, the Scorpion is also Perseus, per Ziu, or “for God.” And the Rosicrucians are the “other,” so to speak. Can you elaborate on this for me? Or comment?
A: What a tangled web we spin, when we must not let you in. …
Q: OK. Tracking the Triple Goddess back to the oldest references, we get to KaliMa. There are all kinds of derivations of this name, but the thing that strikes me is the relationship to the goddess Kell, or Kella, as well as to the word kell, Celts, and how this might be transformed into the word “Cassiopaea.” Can you comment on this?
A: Do not the Celts like “kelly” green?!?
Q: Yes. So. What does green have to do with it?
A: Keep searching … learning is accomplished thusly, and learning is fun!
Q: OK. The three aspects of the goddess: in the story of Perseus, there was Cassiopaea/Danae, Andromeda, and Medusa … the three aspects, the mother, the virgin, and the crone. But, in this story, Perseus manages to cut the head off the crone. In other stories, the crone always manages to win. Is there any particular reason why Perseus cuts off the head of Medusa? Was this transposed? Was the Medusa merely another aspect of the goddess or was it something else?
A: Serpentine.
Q: What about serpentine? Representative of the serpent race or the Lizzies?
A: Eden.
Q: Ah. Medusa represents the Fall. The new standard of limitation. The alignment with the Reptoids. […]
Q: In the oldest religions, it is the Goddess, the Mother, and the endless sea of potential of unassumed experience that was the Goddess. It was a celestial concept before it was reduced to an earth concept. There was unconditional love in the beginning. But then, the patriarchal view twisted it and it became violent and ugly and restrictive. And, from the patriarchal view came the “redeeming son” when before, it was the redemption of the Goddess’ blood. So, what I want to know is: what happened to create the patriarchal system? How was the Goddess suppressed?
A: All has been distorted and suppressed, so why not this?
Q: You once mentioned “Greek Enforcers” who wrote the New Testament. Where did these Greek Enforcers come from?
A: Order of Thelon.
Q: On another occasion you called the Nephilim ‘enforcers.’ Is there any relation between this order of Thelon and the Nephilim?
A: Maybe …
Q: Where is the headquarters of this group?
A: Sicinthos.
Q: Never heard of it. OK. Next question: the White Mare Goddess image that prefigured the Omega symbol, what is the relationship of the White Mare to the symbolism of the knight? The knight on the horse is repeatedly used in alchemical symbolism.
A: Rites.
Q: One of the rites in question is that the making of the knight involves touching both shoulders with the end of a sword, which is actually a symbolic beheading. Why is the knight symbolically beheaded?
A: Blast open limitations of encasing spirit in body.
We should notice in this last remark that the “knighting” is very probably a survival of the head of the shaman being forged on an anvil or “thinking with a hammer”.
Q: When I post material on the web site, there are many who resonate to the material. I have been of the opinion that Unified Thought Form beings such as you describe yourselves, must relate to a very large group as represented in this density. I know that we are dealing with limiting terms. But, when you say “we are you in the future,” does this apply to people who choose the Cassiopaean option?
A: Maybe it is best to say it applies to those who recognize the application.
Q: So, if they recognize it, if they know it is them, they are part of it. (A) But, thinking in nonlinear terms, its up to us to work to make this precise. You are asking this question which implies that the answer exists. But, exactly what the answer is may be it is not yet chosen, and it is up to us to make it this way.
A: Lodestar is a clue for you.
Q: I guess that means a guiding star of some sort. A lodestone is magnetic, it is where the compass points so that you can find your direction. OK, in the myth, Cassiopaea, Danae, and Athena work together to enable Perseus to cut off the head of the Gorgon and kill the sea monster and rescue Andromeda. Of all the mythical heroes, Perseus stands out because he was successful. He went on the quest, he succeeded in the mission, and he freed the maiden in distress, killed a slew of Lizzie types, balanced the situation in his environment, and then even lived happily ever after. He didn’t lose his reason, he didn’t fail … it is about the only really successful myth. He did it, and did it well.
A: A quest is successfully followed one step at a time. No need to gauge the staircase.
Q: The only point I was trying to make was that maybe the only reason for the Cassiopaean connection, maybe even for the term “Cassiopaea,” is that it is the archetype of the function …
A: That is good.
Q: In this other book here, there is a Celtic word that pops up: “pryf.” What is pryf?
A: Soul.
Q: The book says here that there is a need for someone of a certain bloodline to come along and “free the dragon spawn.” “None other than she can bring the pryf up from the deep no matter how they may make the serpents squirm. If she can hold her place in the gates of time.” What are they talking about here, bringing up the dragon spawn, and how does that relate to soul?
A: You cannot see?
Q: It also says that this person with this bloodline, that it is the duty of this person to create a bridge between man and the gods, to open the doorways of time. Can you comment on that?
A: These questions have explanations which are readily apparent.
Q: Well, before, when I asked a question, you said that I would get my answer from the “trees.” This book is all about “trees,” in one way or another — ancient Druids and so forth. Was that clue given so that I would notice these things in this particular book even though it is fiction?
A: Certainly.
Now, put this last most interesting item together with the symbology of the “breaking of rocks,” related to Perseus as “he who breaks” and we might think that, at some point in the not too distant future, at a time when “rocks break, as in the electromagnetic impulses that emanate from earthbound rocks when sheared by tectonic forces,” the role of the shaman in the times ahead of us is “the possible utilization of said forces whether naturally or otherwise induced” to produce a wormhole to a different reality that can be traversed in the body.
So, perhaps we have some better idea of the function of the Shaman-Knight … the Knighted Ones: incarnations of the archetype of Perseus, a Child of God in the sense of being an offspring of the Thought Centers of STO, the hero who cut off the head of the Gorgon, who freed the spirit of limitations, those of a particular Frequency Resonance Vibration of sufficient strength and purity to be able to create a bridge between man and the gods, to open the doorways of time.
Not a bad day’s work, I think!
1 This is not to say that a person cannot have many productive interactions with OPs (assuming you even know that is what they are which is problematical in itself), you just must be aware and careful of how your energy is used. If you spend your energy lying to yourself to justify such a relationship, it can be a very difficult situation to extricate from.
2 See Stripped to the Bone for more on this symbol.
3 I discuss mitochondrial DNA further in this context in Debugging the Universe.
4 http://www.hyw.com/books/history/Hundred_.htm
5 http://www.cerebromente.org.br/n07/doencas/disease_i.htm
6 http://cas.bellarmine.edu/tietjen/Human%20Nature%20S%201999/
neanderthals_were_cannibals.htm
7 http://articles.sfgate.com/2006-12-11/news/17323158_1_neanderthals-cave-bones
8 “Ancient DNA Reveals Neandertals With Red Hair, Fair Complexions,”
http://www.sciencemag.org/cgi/content/summary/318/5850/546?rss=1
9 http://www.cerebromente.org.br/n07/doencas/disease_i.htm
10 http://www.edge.org/q2005/q05_4.html
11 If you think about it, the many icthyphallic representations of great heroes may simply represent the fact that they were “united” to their “polar mate.” The phallus may have an altogether spiritual connotation according to the “Rule of the Sybils.”
12 While comets have often been referred to as “swords of heaven,” it is not likely that this remark is in reference to that type of celestial event. My thought is that it is more likely to refer to a constellation. It could also refer to a supernova since they are the sources of metals in the universe.
I realize that some readers of these pages may wonder exactly where I am heading with this discussion, particularly that which constitutes the previous section. I only ask that you be patient and not skip any of the material because it is important to further events and revelations. What I am trying to give you is a context of what was in my mind and my environment as the “clues” were given. This environment determined not only what questions I asked the Cs, but also how I followed the hints that were given to me in their answers. Every set of questions I asked the Cassiopaeans depended on the context of what I had discovered in the time between sessions. It seems to be important, also, to keep always in mind the following:
Q: (L) How come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?
A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.
It is true that my whole life has been one long question mark and I have pursued my quest relentlessly, often at great cost to myself. Once, when a guest asked if he could just contact the Cassiopaeans himself they remarked:
Q: (BRH) Is there any way I can contact you guys directly?
A: Well, B___, only if you present yourself into the presence of these third densities here. Remember, their request was hard-earned, and one of them has been channeling throughout this incarnation, much to his detriment. Those neighborhood kids usually do not respond favorably to psychic awareness, now do they? Another one here has literally turned the world upside down in search of the greatest truths for all of humanity, much to her potential peril. And the third one here had to endure almost unimaginable hardships and tests of stamina in order to realize his destined path of bringing your third density realm to the brink of fourth density transitional adjustment. So, the path is open to you. Wanna follow?!?
So, please realize that I am working as hard as I can to enable anyone and everyone who so desires to unlock the truths they have within – and to do it perhaps a little less traumatically than I did it myself!
I can take you, the reader, along with me to a great extent, reproducing for you in these words I am writing not only the events, but the thinking processes that I followed and the discoveries that I made; but it is up to you to have the perseverance and will to accompany me, and, perhaps, to go beyond.
Yes, some parts seem to be boring or less interesting from one perspective or another; but if it were not important, and even crucially so, it would not be included here. I am excluding a lot of the “false trails” I followed and red herrings I found unless they have some bearing on what turned out to be the “right” path.
It should be said that what was the “right path” for me may not be the same for everyone. So each of you is responsible for doing your own additional work and research. If what I have done makes it go faster and easier and eliminates some of the wasted time of pursuing disinformation and futile thinking, it is worth my effort.
At this point, I am going to try to finish filling in the “mental picture” that was in my mind at a most crucial point in the Quest so that I can then begin to move forward through the sessions from 1996 onward in a more or less chronological fashion. When I finish these next few pages, the reader will have all the clues that I had as well as the context in which they were given.
As I have already noted, the presence at two sessions of the young woman (RC), who was convinced that she had been connected to me in some way in a previous life in Nazi Germany, really seemed to shift the direction of the Cassiopaean communications. In retrospect, it was also the opening of a door and the initiating of a new path in my life. After the first session she attended, I had the dream of the happy wedding where I was taken to meet the faceless bridegroom, and after the second session she attended, I had the actual hallucinatory vision of the unknown-yet-familiar-face – my future husband, Ark. RC was also the one who accelerated the project of producing a magazine as an organ for the Cassiopaean material. I had envisioned something that would be more serious and yet open-minded than the usual metaphysical or UFO publications, and a journal seemed to just fit the bill. She had been producing a magazine for a few years and wanted to give it up because she had plans to relocate, and at the same time, she didn’t want to leave her subscribers hanging. It seemed to be a perfect solution for me to take over the subscription list and carry on the work.
RC’s focus had been more astrological, though she included many articles about alien abduction and conspiracy theories, so the slight reorientation I planned didn’t seem like too great a divergence from the original format. I didn’t care for the name of the rag, but that was a minor point that could be rectified. Everything looked like it was a go and we felt that this was the key to networking in a big way.
It was also at this point – as I have already mentioned – that I began to read the entire series of Matrix books. As I was digging through this mountain of material, I kept my eye open for the possibilities of Masonic connections because everyone was very hot on the Masonic conspiracy idea. It had been connected to the Priory of Sion by virtue of the Templars, in a very interesting book entitled The Temple and the Lodge, by Michael Baigent and Richard Leigh. It was proposed that the Templars had gone to ground in Scotland and England and reappeared later as the Masons. There was also that pesky number 33 that kept cropping up all over the place.
The more I looked into the number business, the more confusing it became. Anyone who seeks to do research into conspiracy theories – who is serious and honest and fair – will eventually conclude, as Dr. Robert A. Morey (who was, by the way, an anti-Masonic researcher) wrote:
Anti-Masonic writers have generally been as unreliable as Masonic apologists. In their zeal to attack Freemasonry, they have been willing to use fantasy, fraud, and deceit. They have even created bogus documents when needed. Their writings must not be taken at face value.
Naturally, when one is considering the secret significance of numbers, Pythagorean mathematics will be among the earliest considerations.
The true key to philosophic mathematics is the famous Forty-seventh Proposition of Pythagoras, erroneously attributed to Euclid. The Forty-seventh Theorem is stated thus: In a right-angled triangle the square described on the hypotenuse is equal to the sum of the squares described on the other two sides. (Grover 2005, 2)
Everyone who has attended public school and paid the slightest attention in math class knows that one. The problem is: what does it really mean that this is the “true key to philosophic mathematics?” What does C2=A2+B2 have to tell us?
Accounts of the travels and studies of Pythagoras differ, but most historians agree that he visited many countries and studied at the feet of many masters. Supposedly, after having been initiated into the Eleusinian mysteries, he went to Egypt and was initiated into the Mysteries of Isis. He then traveled to Phoenicia and Syria and was initiated into the Mysteries of Adonis.1 After that, he traveled to the valley of the Euphrates and learned all the secrets of the Chaldeans still living in the area of Babylon. Finally, he traveled to Media and Persia, then to India where he was a pupil and initiate of the Brahmins there. Sounds like he had all the bases covered.
Pythagoras was said to have invented the term “philosopher” in preference to the word “sage” since the former meant one who is attempting to find the truth, and the latter means one who knows the truth. Apparently Pythagoras didn’t think he had the whole banana.
Pythagoras started a school at Crotona in Southern Italy and gathered students and disciples there whom he supposedly instructed in the principles of the secrets that had been revealed to him. He considered mathematics, music and astronomy to be the foundation of all the arts and sciences. When he was about sixty years old, he married one of his disciples and had seven children. I guess he was a pretty lively senior citizen! His wife was, apparently, quite a woman in her own right and she carried on his work after he was assassinated by a band of murderers incited to violence by a student whom he refused to initiate.2 The accounts of Pythagoras’ murder vary. Some say he and all his disciples were killed, others say that he may have escaped because some of his students protected him by sacrificing themselves and that he later died of a broken heart when he realized the apparent fruitlessness of his efforts to illuminate humanity.
The experts say that very little remains of the teachings of Pythagoras in the present time unless it has been handed down in secret schools or societies. And, naturally, every secret society on the planet claims to have this initiated knowledge to one extent or another. It is possible that there exist some of the original secret numerical formulas of Pythagoras, but the sad fact is that there is no real evidence of it in the writings that have issued from these groups for the past millennium. Though everyone discusses Pythagoras, no one seems to know any more than the post-Pythagorean Greek speculators who “talked much, wrote little, knew less, and concealed their ignorance under a series of mysterious hints and promises.” There seems to be a lot of that going around these days! Even Plutarch did not pretend to be able to explain the significance of the geometrical diagrams of Pythagoras. However, he did make the most interesting suggestion that the relationship that Pythagoras established between the geometrical solids and the gods was the result of images seen in the Egyptian temples. The questions we would ask are: what do geometrical solids have to do with “gods?” and “which Egypt?”3
Albert Pike, the great Masonic symbolist, also admitted that there were many things that he couldn’t figure out. Hall quotes his Symbolism, for the 32nd and 33rd degrees, where he wrote:
I do not understand why the 7 should be called Minerva, or the cube, Neptune. … Undoubtedly the names given by the Pythagoreans to the different numbers were themselves enigmatic and symbolic – and there is little doubt that in the time of Plutarch the meanings these names concealed were lost. Pythagoras had succeeded too well in concealing his symbols with a veil that was from the first impenetrable, without his oral explanation. …
This uncertainty shared by all true students of the subject proves conclusively that it is unwise to make definite statements founded on the indefinite and fragmentary information available concerning the Pythagorean system of mathematical philosophy. (Hall 2003, 207, 208)
But, of course, in the present time, there is a whole raft of folks who don’t let such remarks stop them. Any number of modern gurus claims to have discovered the secrets of “Sacred Geometry.” Not only that, they don’t seem to have even studied the matter deeply at all, missing many of the salient points that are evident in the fragments of Pythagorean teachings. Regarding this, there is a passage in Foucault’s Pendulum, by Umberto Eco, that explicates the problem:
Amid all the nonsense there are some unimpeachable truths … I invite you to go and measure [an arbitrarily selected, but specific] kiosk. You will see that the length of the counter is one hundred and forty-nine centimeters – in other words, one hundred-billionth of the distance between the earth and the sun. The height at the rear, one hundred and seventy-six centimeters, divided by the width of the window, fifty-six centimeters, is 3.14. The height at the front is nineteen decimeters, equal, in other words, to the number of years of the Greek lunar cycle. The sum of the heights of the two front corners is one hundred and ninety times two plus one hundred and seventy-six times two, which equals seven hundred and thirty-two, the date of the victory at Poitiers. The thickness of the counter is 3.10 centimeters, and the width of the cornice of the window is 8.8 centimeters. Replacing the numbers before the decimals by the corresponding letters of the alphabet, we obtain C for ten and H for eight, or C10H8, which is the formula for naphthalene. …With numbers you can do anything you like. Suppose I have the sacred number 9 and I want to get the number 1314, date of the execution of Jacques de Molay – a date dear to anyone who professes devotion to the Templar tradition of knighthood.
… Multiply nine by one hundred and forty-six, the fateful day of the destruction of Carthage. How did I arrive at this? I divided thirteen hundred and fourteen by two, by three, et cetera, until I found a satisfying date. I could also have divided thirteen hundred and fourteen by 6.28, the double of 3.14, and I would have got two hundred and nine. That is the year Attalus I, king of Pergamon, ascended the throne. You see? … The universe is a great symphony of numerical correspondences … numbers and their symbolisms provide a path to special knowledge. But if the world, below and above, is a system of correspondences where tout se tient, it’s natural for the [lottery] kiosk and the pyramid, both works of man, to reproduce in their structure, unconsciously, the harmonies of the cosmos. [emphasis added] (Eco 1988, 288–289)
The idea has been promoted with great vigor for over a thousand years that so-called Kabbalists and interpreters of mysteries can discover with their incredibly tortuous methods the Truth, completely misses the point of a truth that is far more ancient: Mathematics is the language of Nature. The Pythagoreans declared arithmetic to be the mother of the mathematical sciences. This idea was based on the fact that geometry, music, and astronomy are dependent upon arithmetic, but arithmetic is not dependent upon them. In this sense, geometry may be removed but arithmetic will remain; but if arithmetic were removed, geometry would be eliminated. In the same way, music depends on arithmetic. Eliminating music affects arithmetic only by limiting one of its expressions.
The size, form, and motion of the celestial bodies are determined by the use of geometry and their harmony and rhythm by the use of music. If astronomy is taken away, neither geometry nor music is harmed; but if geometry and music are done away with, astronomy is destroyed. The priority of both geometry and music to astronomy is therefore established and arithmetic is prior to all of them, being primary and fundamental. Playing endless games with numbers demonstrates only that which cannot be otherwise. The real secret seems to be much more profound and most, if not nearly all, seekers of truth never penetrate beyond the surface of the matter.
So, I could see that there was a lot of nonsense being propagated in the present day, mostly by people who had not bothered to study the history of metaphysical and occult matters. But, even with such an opinion in my mind, I could not help but notice the repeated occurrences of the number 33 in not only mystical literature, but also in world events of great import. Or, so it seemed. I wonder if all the many events of significance were catalogued, would we find a preponderance of these so-called mystical numbers, or would we find a spread of numbers that indicate no statistical significance? Just because some events occurred on the 33rd parallel, did that signify it was a Masonic conspiracy? How many other events of similar significance have occurred at places and times that have no “occult” significance at all? But, of course, those that do, possibly by virtue of pure chance, get all the attention while everything else is ignored.
On the other hand, the idea was growing in my mind that such synchronicities or appearances of certain numbers and characteristics of events, were a sort of clue that the veil between dimensions and densities had been breached, either accidentally or deliberately. But who or what was doing it was still an issue.
Clearly, the number 33 was being used by some occultists at various points to signify something, even if it was supposedly initiated by Bacon with his “33 cipher.” So, the only right thing to do, I thought, was to ask the Cassiopaeans about this. It seemed to be a well-established clue that was very popular and certainly did appear to be behind or related to a lot of mysterious events.
An even deeper question seemed to me to be: If the number 33 was a code indicating both the presence and action of the Secret Masters, just why was this number the one selected? If mathematics is the Language of Nature, just what was Nature saying? With the new complexity of the picture, it was pretty clear to me that all of the old explanations just were not going to hold up to scrutiny. I wanted to ask, with no prejudice or anticipation about the answer, just what did this number 33 really mean? I was interested in getting to the Pythagorean level of secrets. So, let’s look at the session:
Q: (L) Now, the main thing I wanted to ask about is the references I come across in tons of reading, that the number thirty-three is somehow significant. Could you tell us the significance, in esoteric terms, or in terms of secret societies, of the number thirty-three? There is the cipher of Roger Bacon, based on the number thirty-three, the thirty-third degree masons …
A: As usual, we do not just give you the answers; we help you to teach yourself!! Now, take 11 and contemplate …
Here we see that the Cassiopaeans have immediately diverted my attention to the number 11, which is a divisor of 33. (311=33; 3311=3; 333=11)
Q: (L) Well, three times eleven is thirty-three.
A: Yes, but what about 11?
Again, they are diverting me to the number 11. And you are about to see how totally dense I can be!
Q: (L) Well, eleven is supposed to be one of the prime, or divine power numbers. In Kaballah, 11 is the power number …
A: Yes …
Q: (L) Eleven is ten plus one; it is divisible only by itself and by one. I can’t think of anything else. What else is there to the number eleven?
A: Astrology.
And here, even though I didn’t know it at the time, was one of the chief clues they were dropping in my lap – a clue pointing towards an eleven-house astrological system. My first thought was, of course, the eleventh house of astrology: Aquarius, which happens to be my own sun sign.
Q: (L) Well, in astrology, the eleventh sign is Aquarius. The eleventh house is friends, hopes, dreams and wishes, and also adopted children. Aquarius the Water-bearer, the dispenser of knowledge. Does eleven have something to do with dispensing of knowledge?
A: Now, third house.
Note that they didn’t answer my question directly, but redirected my thinking to the third house so that we have the two elements that make up 33, i.e. 113. The idea of the “gods” of the signs, i.e. Mercury and Saturn (Uranus was a later addition after Pythagoras), did not occur to me.
Q: (L) Gemini. OK. Gemini and Aquarius. Third house is how the mind works, communication, relations with neighbors and siblings, education, local travel, how one speaks. Gemini is known as the “consummate man.” Somewhat shallow and interested in the things of material life. It is also the divine number of creation. [I should add here that originally Gemini was the “Divine children,” Adam and Eve, and only later became the twins.] So, what’s the connection here?
A: Matrix.
Q: (L) Is there something about this of importance in the Matrix material?
A: No.
Q: (L) This is a matrix. The third house and the eleventh house create a matrix?
A: Foundation.
Q: (L) Gemini is in June, Aquarius is in February. Gemini is the physical man, and Aquarius is the spiritual man?
A: Yin Yang.
Well, in retrospect, I was completely missing the obvious. The third house and the eleventh house create a foundation. And we note that, from the Cassiopaean point of view, Aquarius precedes Gemini in the elements given:
Q: (L) So Gemini is the physical man and Aquarius is the spiritual man … Yin Yang … is that the …
A: Yes …
And, of course when the Cassiopaeans indicate three dots in a row, they want me to go deeper. But, at the time, I really didn’t know how or where they could possibly be going with this.
Q: (L) So thirty-three could represent the transformation of the physical man to the divine man through the action of secret or hidden teachings … and those who have gone through this process represent themselves with the number thirty-three, which means that they started out oriented to the flesh and then became …
A: Medusa 11.
Again, in retrospect, the Cassiopaeans are interrupting my flow of assumptions with a new term.
Q: (L) “Medusa 11?” What does Medusa have to do with it? Please tell me how Medusa relates here?
A: Heads.
Q: (L) Heads. Medusa. Eleven. Were there eleven snakes on the head of Medusa or eleven heads? This is really obscure … you need to help me out here.
A: We are.
Q: (L) Do I need to read the Medusa legend to understand?
A: No.
Q: (L) Medusa. Heads. Eleven. Is there something about the mythical Medusa that we need to see here?
A: 11 squared divided by [or into?] Phi.
At this point in time, I am ashamed to admit that I had never heard of the term “Phi” (even if I did know about the common term Golden Ratio), and I assumed that the Cs had made a mistake and that they really meant to say “pi” which even I, the math idiot, had heard of! So, I framed the next question in terms of my assumption.
Q: (L) By pi. Eleven squared divided by pi. What does this result bring us to?
A: 33. Infinity.
Q: (L) Well, we don’t get thirty-three out of this … we get 3.3166 et cetera. If we divide the square root of eleven by pi. Divided by Phi … what in the heck is Phi? OK, if we divide pi into eleven, we get 3.5 infinity, but not thirty-three.
I had a calculator!
A: 1 [pause] 1
Q: (L) Oh. You weren’t saying eleven times eleven; you were saying one times one.
A: No.
And, even though they said “no” to my question, I continued on in my assumptions.
Q: (L) One times one is what? One.
I think the fact that I was just plowing along and ignoring everything the Cassiopaeans were saying must have caused some consternation. They changed tactics.
A: 5 minus 3.
Q: (L) OK, that’s two.
A: 2 minus 1.
Q: (L) I don’t get it. A math genius I am not. What is the concept here?
A: Look: 353535. Is code.
Q: (L) What does this code relate to?
A: Infinite power.
Q: (L) How is infinite power acquired by knowing this code? If you don’t know the correspondences, how can you use a numerical code?
A: Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power, which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity.
Q: (L) And that is the meaning of the number thirty-three? Well, that is a round robin … a circle you can’t get out of!
A: And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
Well, that sure described me at the moment! I was just not seeing. Even if I had the objective of asking open questions, I had come to the session with some strong assumptions about what the answers should be, and I was shooting myself in the foot with every question. Well, I sort of gave up on the number thirty-three in frustration because the answers weren’t going where I thought they ought to go and diverted off in another tangent.
Q: (L) The thought that occurs to me, as we are talking here, is that the STS pathway consists of an individual who wants to serve themselves – they are selfish and egocentric – they want to compel others to serve them; they want to enslave others; and they find ways to manipulate others to serve them. But, they end up being compelled by some higher being than they are, because they have been tricked into believing that by getting others to serve them, or some agenda that they promote, that they are either drawing power to themselves or even that they are giving power to others or some god through the teachings, including the popular religions which promote being saved by simply believing and giving up your power.
And, in the end, you have a whole pyramid of people taking by trickery and deception, from others. The taker gets taken from in the end. There’s always somebody higher than you who is over you in a hierarchy. A pyramid where all those on the bottom, the majority, have no one to take from, so they take from each other until one of them gains enough “weight” to be absorbed into the next level higher, and this process continues until you get to the apex and everything disappears.
But, in the STO mode, you have those who only give. And, if they are involved only with other STO persons who are also giving, everyone receives and no one is at the bottom or at the top or in a “void” state. But, the funny thing is that, in the end, it seems like everyone ends up serving someone else anyway, and [the only difference is] the principle of intent, which basically determines who you are giving to. But in STO, it is more like a circle, a balance, no one is left without.
A: Balance, Yin-Yang.
Q: (L) Obviously the thirty-three represents the Serpent, the Medusa, and so forth …
A: You mentioned pyramid, interesting … And what is the geometric one-dimensional figure that corresponds?
Q: (L) Well, the triangle. And, if you have a triangle point up you have three, joined to a triangle pointing down, you have three, and you have a thirty-three. Is that something like what we are getting at here?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the number thirty-three and the Great Pyramid in Egypt?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that connection? Is it that the builders of the pyramid participated in this secret society activity?
A: Yes. And what symbol did you see in “Matrix,” for Serpents and Grays?
Q: (L) You are talking about the triangle with the Serpent’s head in it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are we talking in terms of this thirty-three relating to a group of aliens, or a group of humans with advanced knowledge and abilities?
A: Either/or.
Q: (L) Is this what has been referred to in the Bramley book as the Brotherhood of the Serpent or Snake?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this also what you have referred to as the Quorum?
A: Close.
Remember that Yin-Yang circle of the previous discussion about the Quorum? The Cassiopaeans are here indicating that there is a subtle, but distinct difference between the Brotherhood of the Serpent and the Quorum. Yes, the Quorum is a group with advanced knowledge and abilities, but their objectives and intent are to preserve Free Will for all, while the objectives of the Brotherhood are to manipulate, dominate and control others.
Q: (L) So, we have a bunch of people who are playing with mathematics, and playing with higher knowledge, basically as a keep-busy activity to distract them at the human level from the fact that they are being manipulated at a higher level. Is this what is going on? Or, do they consciously know what they are doing? Is it a distraction or a conscious choice?
A: Both.
Q: (L) If I were to name some names, could you identify if named individuals were involved in this secret group?
A: It would not be in your best interests.
Q: (L) Is there anything more on this thirty-three number that I should look at now?
A: No. You need to contemplate.
Boy, did I ever! I was now completely disoriented. The idea of the Pyramid being associated with the STS-oriented faction sort of threw me off. And there was a definite suggestion here that the number thirty-three was associated with the consortium of humans and aliens who ruled the world from behind the scenes: The Brotherhood of the Serpent.4 This reminded me of something else the Cassiopaeans had said at one earlier point that distressed me because it went against the standard metaphysical and occult teachings:
Q: (L) Who was Hermes Trismegistus?
A: Traitor to court of Pharaoh Rana.
Q: (L) Who is Pharaoh Rana?
A: Egyptian leader of spiritual covenant.
Q: (L) In what way was Hermes a traitor?
A: Broke covenant of spiritual unity of all peoples in area now known as Middle East.
Q: (L) Who did Hermes betray?
A: Himself; was power-hungry.
Q: (L) What acts did he do [in this breaking of the covenant]?
A: He inspired divisions within ranks of Egyptians, Essenes, Aryans, and Persians et cetera.
Q: (L) What was his purpose in doing this?
A: Divide and conquer as inspired by those referred to as Brotherhood in Bramley book you have read.
Q: (L) Is this the Brotherhood of the Snake Hermes formed in rejection of unity?
A: Hermes did not form it; it was long-since in existence.
Q: (L) Who was the originator of the Brotherhood of the Serpent as described in the Bramley book?
A: Lizard Beings.
Q: (L) I would like to know the approximate year of the life of Hermes Trismegistus.
A: 5211 approx. (Later research showed that this was probably 5,211 years ago, not 5211 bce, i.e. around 3100 BCE)
Q: (L) Who was this Pharaoh Rana? Was he prior to the Pharaoh Menes?
A: Much prior.
Q: Was the Pharaoh Menes the same as King Minos of Crete?
A: No.
Q: What was the relationship between the Cretans and the Egyptians?
A: All were the same originally.
Q: So they were Egyptians who left Egypt and moved to Crete and set up their version of the Egyptian culture there? Is that it? Or did they develop independently?
A: Former is closest.
Q: Was Abraham of the Jews the same individual as Hermes, which some people are suggesting?
A: No.
Q: Was Akhenaten the same individual as Moses, as some other people are suggesting?
A: Only through the eyes of the themes.
We find here the idea that Abraham was a betrayer of a prior covenant when he made the covenant with Jehovah.5 But, back to the numbers.
When I asked about the number 33, I was directed to the number 11, astrology and a matrix of some sort. Not only that, but all the occult ideas, practices and teachings that I had studied for so many years were being implicated as “keep-busy activities” of manipulation from higher levels. And, when you dig into anything occult, somehow you always find yourself confronting Kaballah.
A matrix is defined as “the womb” or “that within which and from which something originates or develops.” In math, a matrix is “a set of numbers or terms arranged in rows and columns between parentheses or double lines.” More technically, it is “a rectangular array of numbers or other elements …” having application as computational devices in such widely diversified fields as economics, psychology, statistics, engineering, physics, and mathematics.
In mathematics, matrices are useful tools in the study of linear systems of algebraic equations, linear differential equations, linear mappings and transformations, and bilinear and quadratic forms. Matrices can be regarded as generalized numbers, and their utility in applications depends on the possibility of combining them in certain definite ways. The product of a matrix A and a number a is called a scalar product and is obtained by multiplying every element of A by a. The term “scalar,” in mathematics, is synonymous with “real” as in real number or real function. A vector is a directed line segment and, as such, has magnitude and direction. Many physical quantities such as velocity, acceleration and force, are vectors.
What this means is that, using a matrix, one can establish vectors, which can then be used to calculate a scalar product, which is simply a number that can mean anything depending on how it is used.
When we think about what the Cassiopaeans were saying, or trying to say, against the impenetrable thick-headedness of yours truly, we come to this, spelled out extremely slowly. It’s obvious they were trying to teach me what Phi meant:
A: 1 [pause] 1; 5 minus 3; 2 minus 1.
Q: (L) What is the concept here?
A: Look: 353535. Is code.
Q: (L) What does this code relate to?
A: Infinite power.
This “infinite power”, symbolized by phi, is then further defined by the Cs as:
Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power, which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity. … And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
In other words: Kaballah.
Basically, Kaballah developed as a way to play games with numbers and letters as described above. One school endeavors to find beneath the letters of the “sacred text,” i.e. the Torah, all references to the ten Sefirot. The Sefirot can be compared to a theory of cosmic chains or levels of reality of the emanations of God. A hierarchy of power, that is.
The Kabbalists use the Torah as an instrument. They affirm that, beneath its letters, beneath the stories and events depicted there, there are secrets waiting for the enterprising Kabbalist to discover. Thus, the text cannot be read only literally, but must also be read allegorically, hermeneutically and mystically.
Notariqon is a technique of using acrostics to cipher and decipher hidden messages. The initial or final letters of a series of words generate new words.
Gematria is based on the fact that, in Hebrew, numbers are indicated by letters and every word has, therefore, a numerical value. This allows mystical relationships to be seen between completely different words having completely different meanings. It is such relationships that the Kabbalist seeks to discover.
Temurah is the art of anagrams. Abraham Abulafia systematically combined the letter Alef with each of the four letters of the Tetragrammaton YHWH; then he vocalized each of the resulting units by every possible permutation of five vowels, thus obtaining four tables with fifty entries each. Eleazar ben Yudah of Worms went on to vocalize every unit using twice each of the five vowels, and the total number of combinations increased geometrically (see Umberto Eco, The Search For The Perfect Language).
The Kabbalists have an unlimited number of options as to how to interpret the Torah, but the important thing was that they believed that this was more than just interpretation: it was the very method whereby God created the world: understanding it would admit the practitioner to the inner circles of power and control over the forces of life.
So, we see the clue leads us to the idea of “Infinite Power.”
I hope you realize that the Kaballah has a mind-boggling array of combinations and methods. In the end, it was thought that, by these methods, along with employing certain recitations and breathing techniques, the practitioner could pass into states of ecstasy and from there, achieve the desired magical powers. Because, in the end, the objective of the Kaballah was to reproduce the same sounds with which God created the world.
The Sefer Yezirah, or Book of Creation, (written in the Dark Ages, I might add, somewhere between the second and sixth centuries), explicated this doctrine. According to the Sefer Yezirah, the “stones” out of which God created the world were the thirty-two ways of wisdom, which were formed by the twenty-two letters of the Hebrew alphabet and the ten Sefirot.
It was claimed that the primordial Torah was inscribed in black flames upon white fire and many Kabbalists denied the existence of any kind of historical development of either the Torah or Kaballah. As a result of this idea, it became widely accepted that the Kaballah was the esoteric part of the Oral Law given to Moses at Sinai. There were additional genealogies in the Kabbalistic literature which were designed to support the claim of a continuity of tradition but even Hebrew scholars note that they are faulty and misconceived, and lack “any historical value” (Scholem 1974, 5).
At first the word “kaballah” did not especially denote a mystical or esoteric tradition. In the Talmud it is used for the extra-Pentateuchal parts of the Bible, and in post-talmudic literature the Oral Law is also called “kaballah.” In the writings of Eleazar of Worms (beginning of the 13th century), esoteric traditions (concerning the names of the angels and the magical Names of God) are referred to as “kabbalah” … In his commentary to the Sefer Yezirah (c. 1130), when he is discussing the creation of the Holy Spirit, i.e., the Shekhinah, Juda Ben Barzillai states that the sages “used to transmit statements of this kind to their students and to sages privately, in a whisper, through kabbalah.” All this demonstrates that the term “kaballah” was not yet used for any one particular field. The new, precise usage originated in the circle of Isaac the Blind (1200) and was adopted by all his disciples.
Kaballah is only one of the many terms used during a period of more than 1,500 years, to designate the mystical movement, its teaching, or its adherents. The Talmud speaks of sitrei torah and razei torah (“secrets of the Torah”), and parts of the secret tradition are called m’aseh bereshit (literally, “the work of creation”) and ma’aseh merkabah (“the work of the chariot”). At least one of the mystical groups called itself yoredei merkabah (“those who descend to the chariot”), an extraordinary expression whose meaning eludes us … Historically speaking, organized closed societies of mystics have been proved to exist only since the end of the Second Temple era … [emphasis added] (Scholem 1974, 6, 10)
Kaballah is the tradition of esoteric teachings of Judaism. It is, in essence, a compilation of the different mystical movements issuing from the Second Temple in Jerusalem. One thing that has to be considered when thinking of Kaballah is the fact that its admitted purpose is to “broaden the dimensions of the Torah and to transform it from the law of the people of Israel into the inner secret law of the universe” (Scholem 1974, 5).
As I have noted in Secret History, the so-called “Second Temple” in Jerusalem may have been the First, and the forces behind its construction and the development of its theology could very well have been those very forces with designs on our freedom. So, at this point, we need to consider the roots of Kaballah, the Torah upon which it is based, as well as the “tradition.”
In The Curse of Cain, Dr. Regina Schwartz writes about the relationship between monotheism and violence, positing that monotheism itself is the root of violence. She writes that collective identity, which is a result of a monotheistic covenant explicitly narrated in the Bible, is:
… An invention, a radical break with nature and with the past. A transcendent deity breaks into history with the demand that the people he constitutes obey the law he institutes, and first and foremost among those laws is the requirement that they pledge allegiance to him, and him alone. (Schwartz 1997, 18)
This is what makes them a unified people as opposed to the “other” (as in all other people), which leads to violence. For the sake of these covenants, “in the “Old Testament,” vast numbers of [the “other”] are obliterated, while in the “New Testament,” vast numbers are colonized (converted)” (Schwartz 1997, 19). So, we are seeing a clear example of what the Cassiopaeans have explicated in their remarks:
Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity. … those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
Dr. Schwartz also writes about the idea of the provisional nature of a covenant, which the Cassiopaeans mention above: that it is conditional. “Believe in me and obey me or else I will destroy you.” Doesn’t sound like there is any choice, does there? And we find ourselves in the face of Nazi theophany. The chief thing that occurs to me in terms of the “believe in me” business in relation to religions, is that it constitutes a sort of permission, if you will, whether it is conscious or subconscious, for the deity to take the vengeful action if the agreement is broken.
Riane Eisler, an acclaimed scholar, has developed what she calls Cultural Transformation Theory, which proposes that there are two basic models of society underlying the great diversity of human culture. The first is the Dominator Model, that can be termed a patriarchy or matriarchy. It consists of ranking one half of humanity over another, in the broadest terms, but essentially can be any situation where any group dominates and any other group is considered inferior whether male or female, black or white, rich or poor, free or slave.
The second model is what Ms. Eisler calls the Partnership Model, which is based on the principle of “linking rather than ranking.” Thus, it seems that the work of Ms. Eisler is describing precisely what the Cassiopaeans call Service-to-Self versus Service-to-Others; networking versus judgment. As Ms. Eisler acutely points out:
If we stop and think about it, there are only two basic ways of structuring the relations between the female and male halves of humanity. All societies are patterned on either a dominator model – in which human hierarchies are ultimately backed up by force or the threat of force – or a partnership model, with variations in between. (Eisler 1988)
In an amazing book that should be read by everyone, When God Was a Woman, Merlin Stone reveals the sexual and religious bias of many of the scholars of the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, which have been responsible for the general lack of knowledge about these most ancient times. Most of these male scholars were raised in societies that embrace the male-oriented religions of Judaism or Christianity, and this obviously heavily influenced their opinions. One of them, Professor R.K. Harrison wrote of the Goddess religion: “One of its most prominent features was the lewd, depraved, orgiastic character of its cultic procedures.”
Despite the discovery of temples of the Goddess in nearly every Neolithic and historic excavation, Werner Keller writes that the female deity was worshipped primarily on ‘hills and knolls,’ simply echoing the words of the Old Testament. Professor W. F. Albright, one of the leading authorities on the archaeology of Palestine, wrote of the female religions ‘orgiastic nature worship, sensuous nudity and gross mythology.’ He continued by saying that ‘It was replaced by Israel with its pastoral simplicity and purity of life, its lofty monotheism and its severe code of ethics.’ It is difficult to understand how these words can be academically justified after reading of the massacres perpetrated by the Hebrews on the original inhabitants of Canaan as portrayed in the Book of Joshua, especially chapters nine to eleven. Professor S. H. Hooke, in his collection of essays Myth, Ritual and Kingship, openly admits, ‘I firmly believe that God chose Israel to be the vehicle of revelation.’
Albright himself wrote, ‘It is frequently said that the scientific quality of Palestinian archaeology has been seriously impaired by the religious preconceptions of scholars who have excavated in the Holy Land. It is true that some archaeologists have been drawn to Palestine by their interest in the Bible, and that some of them had received their previous training mainly as biblical scholars.’ But he then proceeded to reject this possibility of impairment, basing his conclusion primarily upon the fact that the dates assigned to the sites and artifacts of ancient Palestine, by the scholars who took part in the earlier excavations, were subsequently proven to be too recent, rather than too old, as might perhaps be expected. The question of whether or not the attitudes and beliefs inherent in those suggested ‘religious preconceptions’ had perhaps subtly influenced analysis and descriptions of the symbolism, rituals and general nature of the ancient religion was not even raised for discussion. (Stone 1976, xiii–xix)
In most textbooks of archaeology, the Goddess religion is referred to rather deprecatingly as a “fertility cult.” As Ms. Stone notes, the word “cult” always has the connotation of something less civilized than “religion,” and is nearly always applied when referring to the Goddess worship, while the rituals associated with that clever ET, Yahweh, are always reverently referred to as “Religion,” with a capital “R”!
Considering the extreme monotheistic, Judeo-Christian bias of the scholars who have written the words, directed the schools, published the books, and overseen our education for the past 1,500 years or so, how else can we think but that males have always played the dominant role, and that males have always been the doers, creators and “movers and shakers” of our cultural, social and technological development?
As children, most little girls of the Western world are told the story of Adam and Eve. Eve is made from Adam’s rib to be his companion and helper because he was lonely. Next they are taught that Eve was foolishly gullible and was pathetically “easy” to the wiles of the serpent. She disobeyed God Almighty, and led Adam down the primrose path, and forever after, all women bore the blame for this perfidy.
Not only that, but forever after, because of Eve’s foolishness, all women must accept men as their masters, the representatives of the omnipotent male deity, whose wisdom and righteousness they must admire and respect with reverence and awe!
Over and over again, the legend of the loss of paradise has been utilized to impress upon us the natural inferiority of women. Only Man was created in God’s image … woman came later and was a poor semblance of a human being. Everywhere in our culture this story pops up over and over again. It is the foundation of poetry, art, advertising and jokes. Everywhere you look, Eve is tempting Adam to do wrong over and over again. Women are portrayed as inherently conniving, contriving, (yet somehow also gullible and simple-minded) and most of all sexy. They clearly need a divinely appointed overseer to keep them out of trouble and there is a man around every corner just ready to do the job!
Stone quotes Joseph Campbell, who wrote about the Adam and Eve myth:
This curious mythological idea, and the still more curious fact that for two thousand years it was accepted throughout the Western World as the absolutely dependable account of an event that was supposed to have taken place about a fortnight after the creation of the universe, poses forcefully the highly interesting question of the influence of conspicuously contrived, counterfeit mythologies and the infliction of mythology upon the structure of human belief and the consequent course of civilization. [emphasis added] (Stone 1976, 7–8)
The religion of the Great Mother Goddess existed and flourished for many thousands of years in the Near and Middle East before the arrival of the patriarch Abraham, the first prophet of the dominator male deity, Yahweh. Archaeologists have traced the worship of the Goddess back to the Neolithic communities of about 7000 bce, and some to the Upper Paleolithic cultures of about 25,000 bce. From Neolithic times, at least, its existence has been repeatedly attested to well into Roman Times. Yet, Bible scholars agree that Abraham “lived” in Canaan as late as between 1800 and 1550 bce, a veritable Johnny-come-lately! How in the world has such a recent appearance on the world scene managed to push itself into such prominence and domination?
The accepted explanation for this is the “Aryan Invasion” hypothesis. It is thought that descendants of the Gravettian-Aurignacian cultures came down to the Middle East from Northern Europe, conquered the peaceful natives, and set up a dominator male religion. There has also been some conjecture that these were the descendants of the Mesolithic (15000–8000 BCE) Maglemosian and Kunda cultures of Northern Europe. Their arrival was, apparently, not a gradual assimilation – it was wave after wave of aggressive invasion. Their arrival in the Near East is attested to by 2400 BCE, but there may have been several earlier invasions.
Archaeology reveals that, after these alleged invasions from the North, the worship of the Mother Goddess fluctuated from city to city. As the invaders gained more and more territory over the next two thousand years, the male began to appear as the dominant husband or even the murderer of the goddess!
Over and over again in the studies of the ancient religions it is noted that, in place after place, the goddess was debased and replaced by a male deity after the coming of the invaders, assumed to be from the North. The transition was accomplished by brutally violent massacres and territorial acquisition throughout the Near and Middle East.
Oddly, the alleged invaders left neither tablets nor temples in their presumed homeland to explain why or how they came to choose a male deity. The invaders are described variously as the “Sons of the North Wind, Aeolus”, Nordics, Indo-Europeans, Indo-Iranians, Indo-Aryans, or simply Aryans. Their existence, once they burst upon the historical scene, is described as aggressive warriors riding two abreast in horse-drawn war chariots; or as big sailors who navigated the rivers and coastlines of Europe and the Near East. Jaquetta Hawkes writes:
On no subject have authorities differed so completely or with greater lack of objectivity than on the origins of these cultures. The reason for this partisanship lies in the one thing the authorities are agreed upon – that the battle axe cultures represent the roots of the Indo-European speaking peoples … What can be said with some certainty is that the battle axe people had a large ethnic, social and cultural inheritance from the hunter-fishers of the forest cultures such as the Maglemosian and Kunda. … Though it may not always or everywhere have been so, this character came in time to be dominantly pastoral, patriarchal, warlike and expansive. (quoted by Stone 1976, 63)
The alleged invasions of the Aryans took place in waves over a period of up to three thousand years according to standard archaeology. The invasions of the historical period are attested to by literature and artifacts, and are agreed upon by scholars. Those of prehistoric times are suggested by speculative etymological connections.
But there is something strange about this hypothesis; you see, up to this point in time, writing seems to have been primarily used for the business accounts of the temples. When Northern peoples that are attested arrived, they adopted this writing and used it for their own purposes, literature!
Professor Chiera comments: ‘It is strange to notice that practically all the existing literature was put down in written form a century or two after 2000 B.C.’ Whether this suggests that written language was never considered as a medium for myths and legends before that time or that existing tablets were destroyed and rewritten at that time remains an open question. (Stone 1976, 21)
What is most significant in the historic records is that these alleged Northern invaders viewed themselves as a very superior people. They were aggressive and continually in conflict with not only the peoples they conquered, but among themselves as well. Their coming revolutionized the art of war. They introduced the horse-drawn chariot, and the charioteer became a new aristocracy.
Historical, mythological and archaeological evidence suggests that it was these Northern people who brought with them the concepts of light as good and dark as evil and of a supreme male deity. The arrival of the Aryans, the presentation of their male deities as superior to female deities, and the subsequent interweaving of the two theologies are recorded mythologically in each culture. It is in these myths that we can discover the attitude that led to the destruction of the Goddess.
The Aryan male god, unlike the son-lover of the Goddess, was frequently depicted as a storm god, high on a mountain, blazing with the light of fire or lightning (haven’t we heard this before?!). In many of these myths, the goddess is depicted as a serpent or dragon, associated with darkness and evil. Sometimes the dragon is neuter or even male, but in such cases, is closely associated with the goddess, usually as her son.
However, in many of the older archaeological finds, the Goddess was represented by birds and wavy symbols that indicated water and/or energy. These same wavy lines are retained as the symbol of the Astrological sign of Aquarius which may be the oldest extant symbol of the Great Mother Goddess.
The Goddess religion seems to have assimilated the male deities into the older forms of worship, and survived as the popular religion of the people for thousands of years after the initial Aryan invasions. But her position had been greatly lowered and continued to decline. It was the assaults of the Hebrews and eventually the Christians that finally suppressed the religion.
And here we come to the most interesting thing of all: it is in the accounts of the Aryans that we find the origins of the religious ideas of the Hebrews.
There is the mountain-top god who blazes with light; there is the duality between light and darkness symbolized as good and evil; there is the myth of the male deity defeating the serpent; and there is the supreme leadership of a ruling class: the priestly Levites. All of these are to be found in both the Indo-European and Hebrew religious concepts and politics!
And this leads us to the obvious suggestion: The Indo-European patterns were either adopted by the Hebrews, or the original Hebrews were Indo-Europeans from the start, OR, the Jews simply copied histories and religious ideas from other peoples, historicized it, and claimed it for their own.
The Indo-Aryan attitude toward women is made clear in two sentences attributed to Indra in the Rg Veda: “The mind of woman brooks not discipline. Her intellect has little weight.” And orthodox Jewish males daily thank God that they were not born women!
An interesting fact turns up in the field of archaeology. Systematic examinations of the skulls in several Anatolian sites shows that in the third millennium BCE, most of the residents were predominately doliocephalic, or long-headed Mediterranean types, with only a minority of brachycephalic, or round-headed Alpine types. After the beginning of the second millennium, the proportion of brachycephalic skulls increases to about 50 percent. It is the brachycephalic types that came to be known as the ruling class of the Hittite empire.
The original people of Hatti became the subservient or conquered class, just as the “black-headed” people of Sumeria became “slaves” of their conquerors. The invading Indo-Europeans assumed roles of royalty everywhere they went, subjugating the indigenous populations one after the other. The Indo-Europeans were bigger, and possessed military supremacy never before seen due to their horse-drawn war chariots and iron weapons. They increased their height by wearing conical hats that appear to be about 18 to 24 inches high in depictions (these conical hats are interesting as a certain type of conical hat is representative of the alchemical initiate!).
The question is: who were they really, and where did they come from: northern Europe or … ? Covering that topic is the subject of my next book; suffice it to say for now that nothing is as it seems and never has been, historically speaking. Our history has been falsified more than once and stripping away those layers of lies to find the small seeds of truth here and there has taken me the better part of 40 years. It is complex and we wander too far afield to try to cover it here. What is important to know here is that just as there was a Dark Age surrounding the period of time in which the Old Testament came into being, during which time monotheistic Judaism – the parent of Christianity and Islam – was imposed forcibly on the Canaanites, and we have only the Old Testament itself to attest to its validity, we have a similar period of Dark Ages enveloping the development and codification of the New Testament and the imposition of monotheistic Christianity on the western world and Islam on those who were susceptible to neither of the former two.
Don’t you find that curious?
Out of this history emerged what is known today as Kaballah. And, so we come back in a circle to the remarks about the 3-5 code.
It was difficult to know what to think about all of it. I decided, at one point, to ask the Cassiopaeans directly about Kaballah:
Q: (L) What is the origin of the Kaballah?
A: Channeled truths given to early pre-Mosaic Jews to use your terminology.
Q: (L) When the Jewish commentators began setting down the teachings, was this the first time this had been put into writing?
A: No. Not even close.
Q: (L) Is the form that it is in today very close to the original form and can it be relied upon?
A: No. Corrupted.
So, again, we have the idea that there are seeds of truth but, for the most part, what we have today was corrupted so long ago that great care must be taken to compare and analyze; and most especially, before putting any of it into practice. But, just to give a clue to those who want something to mull over, remember the twenty-two letters of the Hebrew Alphabet? The ones that are supposed to be so special and magical?
Well, the Phoenician, or West Semitic, alphabet was the starting point of all the later European alphabets, as well as the Hebrew and Arabic alphabets. The definitive version of the Phoenician alphabet is the inscription on the sarcophagus of King Ahiram of Byblos, dated to about 1000 bce. It, too, was a systematized alphabet of twenty-two characters.
Hebrew script was formalized around the same time as the early Greek, but the characters took a different form. Hebrew was, and still is, written from right to left. Resh, with the phonetic value “r”, resembles the lower case Roman “r”, written the opposite way around. Both the Greek and Hebrew alphabets have parallel esoteric meanings. What, then, makes Hebrew so mystical and mysterious? Well, we have already mentioned the Sefer Yezirah, the cornerstone of Kaballah which details this doctrine.
In Kabbalistic Judaism, it is stated that the God, Jehovah, is not transcendent, but is rather subordinate to a higher form of existence, the Ain-Soph. The Ain-Soph exists beyond the realms of cause and effect, beyond desire, beyond the realms of being and non-being. And, the god of creation is only an agent of the Ain-Soph. The creation of the universe itself has come directly from the Ain-Soph through a complex process, achieved by the operation of the emanations, or Sephiroth, which are supposed to be ten in number, the same as the fingers on two hands. However, most Kabbalistic images of the Sephiroth in the tree of life diagrams include an eleventh Sephira for which various explanations are given. If we just turn off the sound and look at the picture, what we see are eleven Sephiroth, twenty-two letters of an alphabet which is a multiple of eleven. Then, if we think about the major arcana of the Tarot, which is supposed to have strong Kabbalistic relations, we find the number twenty-two appearing again. If we put those items together with the fact that the Cassiopaeans have tried to point us in the direction of examining the number eleven more closely, we may come to some interesting conclusions.
[During the Babylonian captivity] strange events occurred. Besides Ezekiel’s resurrection of Israel’s religious tradition, which urged them to return home to Jerusalem, the men responsible for the inner teaching of the Religion realised that here was a unique possibility at the second rebirth of the Nation. Hebrew, in the overriding presence of the vernacular used in Babylonia, had ceased to be a first language. So here was a chance to embed, before it became established again as a national speech, many ideas – make it a language that contained more than just an everyday vocabulary of meanings. At this point we know that the actual twenty-two letters of the alphabet were reconstructed, changed from the ancient pictograms into a more robust alphabet known as the Syrian script.
Later, long after this new Hebrew had been established (though it never quite took over from Aramaic the lingua franca of the Middle East), it became regarded as a holy language, and like Sanscrit to be used in Holy matters.
One work in particular reveals the philosophical construction of the Hebrew alphabet. This was the Sepher Yitzerah, reputed to be written by Abraham, but more likely to have been drafted in the earlier centuries of the Common Era. In this, to each letter was ascribed a planet and a Sign of the Zodiac. Herein lies our date clue inasmuch that the Sign Libra was inserted into the Zodiac circle long after Abraham died. (Halevi 1972, 18–19)
What happened to the hand of God inscribing the fire letters and all that? What are we going to do with all the mystical allusions to this most holy of languages and works? Could it be possible that we might obtain as much enlightenment by applying the Kabbalistic practices to a copy of War and Peace or The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire? I have the feeling that this is the case. Anybody game to try it?
Getting back to our story, what gradually dawned on me was the fact that all the centuries of Kabbalistic Gematria and Notariqon and Temurah might be nothing but a distraction from truth. Yes, we can see intimations of certain threads that will bear closer scrutiny, and the Cassiopaeans have suggested that we might figure out something important if we examine astrology as an eleven-house system. We also find confirmation of this number eleven as an important number by simple virtue of the numbers of letters of the alphabets along with the major arcana of the Tarot.
But then, there was the odd mention of Medusa and “heads.” What did Medusa mean in relation to this? Were the “heads” the Sephiroth of the tree of life, since there are, in some versions, eleven? It is called the “unseen Sephira” which “functions only in particular conditions.” Daat is “the veil of the bride” beyond which lies knowledge and being of the Objective Universe. One writer on Kaballah says:
In their totality the Sefirot make up “the tree of emanation” or “the tree of the Sefirot,” which from the 14th century onward is depicted by a detailed diagram which lists the basic symbols … The cosmic tree grows downward from its root, the first Sefirah, and spreads out through those Sefirot which constitute its trunk to those which make up its main branches or crown. This image is first found in the Sefer ha-Bahir … However, in the Bahir … [the tree] includes only those Sefirot from Binah downward [that is to say, only nine Sefirot in the oldest Tree of Life Image.] … Alongside this picture we have the more common image of the Sefirot in the form of a man. While the tree grows with its top down, this human form has its head properly on top, and is occasionally referred to as the “reversed tree.” The first Sefirot represent the head, and, in the Zohar, the three cavities of the brain; the fourth and the fifth, the arms; the sixth, the torso; the seventh and eighth, the legs; the ninth, the sexual organ; and the tenth refers either to the all-embracing totality of the image, or (as in the Bahir) to the female as companion to the male, since both together are needed to constitute a perfect man [!] … On the whole, however, the overall structure is built out of triangles. [emphasis added] (Scholem 1974, 106–107)
That is to say, exactly three triangles. And what was said about triangles?
A: You mentioned pyramid, interesting … And what is the geometric one-dimensional figure that corresponds?
Q: (L) Well, the triangle. And, if you have a triangle point up you have three, joined to a triangle pointing down, you have three, and you have a thirty-three. Is that something like what we are getting at here?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the number thirty-three and the Great Pyramid in Egypt?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that connection? Is it that the builders of the pyramid participated in this secret society activity?
A: Yes. And what symbol did you see in “Matrix,” for Serpents and Grays?
Q: (L) You are talking about the triangle with the Serpent’s head in it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are we talking in terms of this thirty-three relating to a group of aliens, or a group of humans with advanced knowledge and abilities?
A: Either/or.
Q: (L) Is this what has been referred to in the Bramley book as the Brotherhood of the Serpent or Snake?
A: Yes.
And we come back again to the 3-5 code, which is what we ended up with by asking about the number thirty-three. I have to admit that my first ideas about this 3-5 code were very Kabbalistic. The 3-5 code stuck in my mind as a means of finding some coded secret in some ancient text. I will admit that I followed this idea to an almost absurd degree, reading through and marking only the third and fifth words, or reading the thirty-fifth line, or the thirty-fifth word, or the third chapter, fifth word, and endless permutations thereof in a large body of occult literature. I created charts, diagrams, tables of permutation. I did Gematria, Notariqon and anagrams. It was becoming such an obsession that I had to deliberately will myself to stop counting everything all the time.
I finally gave it up. It wasn’t going anywhere. Sure, there were occasional hits, but there were also endless nonsensical combinations. When I kept notes on the results, I found that the hits were no better than chance, and I wonder if that is not the case for many so-called occultists who see only the successes of their methods, and ignore the failures. Or, they read more into the hits than are really there. As Dr. Eco says, the structure of the universe is expressed in mathematics. Is it any wonder that anything and everything relates to everything else via numbers?
Another thing that struck me were the remarks about the pyramid being associated with the hyperdimensional STS controllers. I had a lot of work invested in the Egyptian religious traditions as being of positive orientation. But, the comments about the pyramid shape being related to the negative STS hierarchy reminded me of something else the Cassiopaeans had said earlier in 1995:
Q: (L) We have some questions tonight. We were discussing earlier this evening the “abomination of desolation” as written about by the prophet Daniel and also spoken of by Jesus. What is this?
A: Disinformation.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the abomination of desolation is disinformation, or that the writing about it is disinformation?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Who, or what was the source of that information as prophesied by Daniel?
A: Illuminati.
Q: (L) The prophecies given to Daniel were disinformation?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is there an abomination of desolation?
A: There is anything, if the definitions are unrestricted.
Q: (L) Well, OK. Who were the Elohim of the Bible?
A: Transdefinitive.
Q: (L) What does that mean? Transcends definition as you just mentioned?
A: And variable entities.
Q: (L) Were the Elohim good guys?
A: First manifestation was human, then non-human.
Q: (L) Well, what brought about their transformation from human to non-human?
A: Pact or covenant.
Q: (L) They made a pact or covenant with each other?
A: No, with fourth density STS.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the Elohim are STS? Who were these STS beings they made a pact with?
A: Rosteem, now manifests as Rosicrucians.
Q: (L) What is their purpose?
A: As yet unrevealable to you.
Q: (L) OK, since he relies so heavily on this Elohim idea, what is the source of the Keys of Enoch that was written by James Hurtak. He claims that he was taken up to the higher realms and that the ‘Keys’ were programmed into him …
A: Disguised reality. Both the place he was taken to and the message.
Q: (L) What is the source of this disguised reality?
A: Research to discover explosive reality trailblazings.
Q: (L) OK. Is there coded information in this book on several levels as M suggests?
A: There is coded information all over the place. Suggest slower pace of studying in order to discover earth-shaking principles. Remember the old parable about biting off more than you can chew? It is important because it is hard to see the veins in the leaves when the car is traveling too fast to see the trees clearly. We suggest that you be more like the tortoise than the hare. Network and all falls into place. We cannot tell many things at present, because then you would not learn, and if you do not learn, you do not progress as an individual soul!
Well, I was trying. And, along with my growing obsession with numbers, a couple of very strange things happened to me in the week following the session where the 3-5 code was brought up. The first was the beginning of a long series of Out-of-Body Experiences that continued for over a year and a half, and the second was a dream accompanied by a physical trace. Interestingly, in the very next session, the Cassiopaeans seemed to be desperately trying to communicate some things to us without violating free will. Naturally, we had our own agenda and very often our questions were what limited us, but revealing the activities of some sort of Secret Masters of the world seemed to be very much on the Cassiopaeans’ mind. As usual, the door to strange things was opened by a seemingly innocuous question:
November 18, 1995
Q: (L) Is there any relationship between all of the terrorist bombings that have been taking place in Paris recently, and any stepped-up alien activity?
A: Open. USAir-194 crash; United Air crash, Colorado Springs; connection? Get voice recorder tape transcripts.
Q: (L) Is this in some way related to the question about the Paris bombing?
A: No. Strobe lights are used for third density mind control. [Now, how did strobe lights come in here when we were asking about terrorist bombings? Further, what did it have to do with a plane crash?]
Q: (L) Strobe lights located where?
A: Not a question asked with much thought! We have picked up your thought waves, which are progress-oriented, and are trying to assist you in your increased learning and progress frequency wave. You see, this increases the energy level!! It is advisable to ask questions, but be unconcerned with the nature or content of the answers beforehand.
Q: (L) OK. You mentioned the strobe lights. Are these strobe lights that are used to control minds, are these something that we would or might come in contact with on a daily basis?
A: Do you not already know? We didn’t say: some strobe lights, we said: strobe lights, i.e. all-inclusive!
Q: (T) Strobe lights come in many forms and types. TV is a strobe light. Computer screens are a strobe light. Light bulbs strobe. Fluorescents strobe. Streetlights strobe.
A: Police cars, ambulances, fire trucks … How long has this been true? Have you noticed any changes lately??!!??
Q: (F) Twenty years ago there were no strobe lights on any of those vehicles mentioned. They had the old flasher type lights. Now, more and more and more there are strobe lights appearing in all kinds of places. (L) And now, they even have them on school buses! (T) And the regular city buses have them too, now. (L) OK, is the strobing of a strobe light set at a certain frequency in order to do certain things?
A: Hypnotic opener.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of the hypnotic opener being used in this way?
A: You don’t notice the craft.
Q: (T) OK, what craft are we not seeing?
A: Opener. Is precursor to suggestion, which is auditory in nature.
Q: (T) What suggestion?
A: Put on your thinking caps. Networking is not making assumptions. Bold unilateral statement of “fact” is.
Q: (T) Oh. Phrase your statements in the form of a question! I’d like “Hypnotic Openers” for $200, Alex! Cosmic Jeopardy! (L) OK, you said the “suggestion is auditory in nature.” If this is the case, where is the suggestion coming from auditorially?
A: Where do you normally receive auditory suggestions from?
Q: (L) Radio, television … (T) Telephone … (L) Is that what we are talking about?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) If you encounter a strobe while driving, or you are sitting in front of your television, then the suggestions can be put into you better because of this hypnotically opened state? Is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What are these suggestions designed to do, to suggest? In a general sense? To not see the craft?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Do we get these signals from the radio in the car even if it is turned off?
A: Depends upon whether or not there is another source.
Q: (T) Another source such as?
A: ELP, for example.
Q: (L) What is “ELP?”
A: Extremely Low Pulse.
I should note here that, until Col. Phil Corso published his book The Day After Roswell, I had never heard the term “ELP.” And, remember, this session was in the latter part of 1995. Corso’s book wasn’t published until several years later.
Q: (T) ELF, Extremely Low Frequency, and ELP, Extremely Low Pulse – is this the same thing?
A: Sometimes.
Q: (T) This would be an external pulse or frequency?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Would it be originating from the source of the strobe?
A: No. They act in unison.
Q: (L) And this process prevents us from seeing something, such as craft flying in our skies at any given time?
A: Or maybe see them as something else.
Q: (L) Now, we have to stop for a minute because I want to tell you something. In the past few months, I have really been watching the sky carefully every opportunity I get. On three or four separate occasions I have seen what I thought was an ordinary airplane, and I would watch it carefully and then scan to the left or right, and when I looked back at the place where this plane should be, based on observable speed and direction, there would be nothing there. I have stood there and searched and searched and found nothing. These things just vanished. I knew I had seen it, I knew I wasn’t crazy, I knew it couldn’t have gone away that completely – and having it happen several times has just really unsettled me. What are the implications of this, other than the fact that we could be completely overblown at all times for any number of purposes and be, as a mass of people, completely unaware of it?
A: Yes, monoatomic gold!
Q: (L) And what does the reference to monoatomic gold mean?
A: Total entrapment of the being, mind, body and soul. Strobes use minute gold filament. What composes minute filament, do you suppose? Hint, it ain’t from Fort Knox! You see, this has extraordinary properties.
Q: (T) I’m sure it does! The thing is, if it does what Hudson says it does, the power structure would have shut him down – he wouldn’t have gotten this far with it. So, if they are letting him do it, it’s because it doesn’t do what he says it does, it does the opposite. Which is what he said. When you take the stuff for so many days, you complete the program, it restructures your genes. Isn’t that what happened to us before? Do we want to do it again? (L) And, wasn’t it said that light was used to cancel certain DNA factors? (J) Exactly! (L) OK, how do we block this kind of control?
A: You don’t.
Q: (L) Let me ask this, CD asked an interesting question. It was, if we know what he thinks we know, and if we are building the kind of strength that he thinks we are building, and getting factual information about all such things, why hasn’t somebody, either on third density or fourth density, seen fit to stop or block us? He was asking very plainly why has something physical not been done to, as he put it, “take us out?”
A: The powers that be want slow release of information.
Q: (L) Does this include the fourth density STS?
A: No, but they don’t see that which they do not wish to see. [Now notice the distinction here. They said that “the powers that be” want a slow release of information, and I asked if this included the STS factions and the answer was “no.” So that obviously means that the “powers that be” we are talking about here may be the “good guys.”]
Q: (L) They don’t see us as a threat?
A: More like an annoyance.
At this point, I wanted to ask about the strange experiences I had been having since the beginning of the inquiry into the secret societies business, the Out-of-Body Experiences. Apparently, they were not all precisely the same thing.
Q: (L) OK, I want to ask about the experience I had the other night – I had what seemed to be an OOBE the other night. Was I actually having one?
A: Was an “all-intensive ooze” of the solar realm.
Q: (L) OK, what is an “all-intensive ooze” of the solar realm?
A: Realms are compartmentalized at graduated levels, like everything else. The root basis of the study of astrology is the “unified entity realm,” which relates to the effect that local cosmic bodies have upon the body and soul of third density beings in any given locator.
Q: (L) So, what does this mean in terms of what I experienced? I felt that I was moving in and out of my body over and over, sort of like doing an exercise.
A: Solar activity occurring when your experience took place was such that, based on your “solar return,” had the effect of partially separating your soul from your body. Now, just for fun, why not check your chart for that day, and see if the aspects were a little more favorable for expiration of the body potential than usual?
Q: (L) Now that I have been able to play with it a little, will I experience it again, or can I?
A: Well, it is always experienced at least once in the lifetime of a human being, but for most people, it occurs at the conclusion.
Q: [much laughter] (L) You mean I died? Or was this what people experience when they die?
A: Yes, but you got to come back in time for dinner!
Q: (L) So, that wasn’t just an OOBE, it was a separation of the soul from the body? Is that different from astral projection?
A: No. With “astral projection” the consciousness level is not as intense because of “the silver cord” and the shroud of third density awareness.
Q: (L) You guys just don’t know how intense this experience was. I was so conscious of everything! (T) More conscious than you have ever been before, right? (L) I have to say yes. I was playing with what was happening to me and having fun. I noticed every little sensation. The separating from the body produces a sizzling sound, a sort of electrical sizzle, and it changes as you move in and out of the body. I was actually having a ball playing with the effects. (T) In astral projection, the soul is still connected to the body. In this case, was Laura’s soul completely separated from her physical body?
A: Not completely, but the part that was, was.
Q: (L) Well, I did sort of keep a toe in. (T) So, if Laura had lost complete connection, would she have died at this point?
A: Yes.
[Break]
Q: (L) Now, the next strange thing after this was that I had a safari dream. I dreamed we all went to Africa, and I got some information there from some people in some kind of an underground place, like a cave that went into rocks in the side of a mountain. There were all kinds of rooms and people and electronic equipment monitoring the planet and we were being taken on sort of a tour that seemed like a series of lessons. At one point, something was given to me, a stone, and I put it in my pocket on the right side. And then, just a few days later, still in the dream, I felt a danger, something probing in the direction of my mind and the children here in the house, and a protective device shot up out of my lower right abdomen, like a rocket. When it reached a point just above the house, it opened out like a crystal parachute and enveloped the entire house with a sort of shield. The crazy thing is, next day when I was in the bath, I noticed a small, deep, wound at that spot. What was this?
A: Energy surge. Magnetic plane weakness there.
Q: (L) So, is it beneficial to be able to do this?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Well, it seems that having the body automatically erect defenses when a threat is felt is a pretty handy talent to have.
A: Sure, in fourth density.
Q: (L) Was this a fourth density action, or ability?
A: Close.
Q: (L) OK, it was an energy surge. Did this energy surge leave the wound in my body?
A: Yes. Learn naturally as you evolve.
Though I never again had the same intense OOBE as I did just after the introduction of the 3-5 code information, I continued to have almost regular experiences with what must be fourth density reality. I could see with my eyes closed, I could sleep without being “asleep,” and be fully aware of both the present reality, including the children and all their varied activities around me, and at the same time, a whole other world was open to me in which people came and went and talked to me and I conversed with them. It was impossible to generate such experiences, but this bleed-through occurred so often that I could say that about half of my day-to-day experiences took place in a dual reality. I observed this phenomenon with curiosity and skepticism. I would project myself to where the children were to see what they were doing exactly, and then come back, make myself orient in this reality, and then physically go to check the observations. Over and over again, I realized that what I was doing was, in some strange sense, real. I didn’t know what was happening to me or even why, but it was sufficiently strange to keep me in an attentive state. I didn’t want to talk about it too much because whenever I brought such things up to the group, it seemed that even they were not quite able to grasp what I was trying to tell them. I did spend some time reading psychology texts in an effort to determine if I was losing my mind! Exactly what I was experiencing, I wasn’t sure, but some clues to the possible nature of it were given in the next session. And, again, the Cassiopaeans were using an opportunity to bring up more information about the Consortium:
November 25, 1995
Q: (L) The other day I experienced one of those extended pre-sleep states, and it seemed that I was in a class and there was someone explaining things to me. What they were telling me was that during this Christmas season, certain steps would be taken by those controlling the economy, and that after Christmas, in January and February, a whole lot of stuff was going to be put into motion to send the economy into a dive of major proportions. It was not clear that it was this year, but that it was right after Christmas. Can you tell me where this information was coming from, and what was I experiencing?
A: This is a long and complicated subject, but we will do our best to explain it. What you were seeing was one possible future. The economy of your third density world is entirely manufactured. The forces that control it are both third density and fourth density. There are conflicting opinions in the third density sector right now as to when, where, and how to institute an economic depression. This has been “in the works” for quite some “time” as you measure it. So far, the forces arguing against institution of a collapse have prevailed. How long this condition will be maintained is open to many outcomes. Also, please be aware that the state of the economy is entirely an illusion. In other words, the world economy performs solely based upon what the population is told to believe.
Q: (L) Well, that is all fine and good except for one fact that I have been observing lately, and that is that prices continue to go up, and wages for the average person do not. I watch prices, and they have been jumping in a very erratic and frightening way. I know for a fact that people simply cannot afford to live. A large segment of the population cannot, that is.
A: Nobody who obeys the “rules” can afford to “live,” but if you refuse to play the game as you are told to, you will do quite well, indeed.
Q: (L) OK. What do you mean by not playing by the rules? What rules?
A: The best way for us to answer that is for you to think out loud, and wait for our responses.
Q: (L) OK. The first rule is that you have to have a “regular job.”
A: “Trap” number one!
Q: (S) Rule number two is that you have to save your money.
A: You save your money by multiplying it, not storing it. When you store it in the bank, you are helping the Brotherhood AKA Illuminati AKA Antichrist multiply it for itself; all you get is the “crumbs” left over. And, the Antichrist can “call it in” anytime it wants to!
Q: (L) One of the most popular ways to make money by investing is in the stock market. But, it seems to me that the stock market is also part of the Antichrist system and investing there would also amount to only getting “crumbs.”
A: Yes and no. Not all stocks traded publicly are under direct control of the Illuminati. We are not suggesting anything specific, we are just laying the groundwork. With the general clues we give you, you will figure out the details yourselves, which is tantamount to learning, which is how you progress as souls.
Q: (L) You said we should multiply our money and that storing it is not making it work for you …
A: If you notice, all successful business people do this. They multiply their money; expand their horizons, continuously. They multiply their money by multiplying their output, thus their intake likewise. And the process is never-ending, because they understand instinctively that it is part of a cycle. For the intake to continue, it must not be only retained, but must increase in order to keep pace with the ever-spiraling cycle of increase and expansion. And, for this to happen, the output must be expanded accordingly. When it stops, it collapses. And this is how the Illuminati AKA The Brotherhood AKA The Antichrist creates a “Panic,” by stemming the flow, even only slightly, and then broadcasting the created impression aggressively.
Q: (S) Well, investing is fine if you have money, but Laura and Frank don’t have any money to invest. What would be a way for them to do this?
A: One example would be to share their experiences, insights, and learnings. One way to replicate such would be to publish, for example.
Q: (L) I know you are sixth density light beings and we are just third density humans, and it is hard for us to continue what we are doing when under constant attack from all directions, internally and externally. I don’t see how we can tell about all these experiences without risking further problems.
A: The work has not been stopped and will not be. You have been told that publishing all or parts of your work is merely “a phone call away,” but, as of yet, you have not had faith in that statement, and you have problems asking for what you want for fear of creating the wrong “impression,” which is in your head and also a part of the attack process. We have lead you to this position, but you know what they say: “You can lead a horse to water …” You have expended an enormous amount of energy communicating with many sources, but most of these are fruitless. We have told you to network!! This works wonders!!!
Now, aside from the interesting remarks about the economy, the significant thing for me was the remark that I was seeing “one possible future” in this semi-dream state. I wondered if that were the case for the many other instances of bleed-through. Was I at some sort of point of branching of the universe, where the energies are such that many realities are present in potential? And, again, the Cassiopaeans urged networking as something that “works wonders.” Was I networking? I thought I was. I was sure talking to a lot of people and working very hard to put a magazine together that would become an organ for the Cassiopaean material. But getting the work done alone was a crushing labor. The entire burden, it seemed, was mine.
One of the things in the Matrix books that interested me particularly, considering the comments made by the Cassiopaeans about Hitler and the creation of a master race, was the idea that it was the Nazis who were really the Secret Masters of the world. It was further suggested that they were producing the whole show, including the alien scenario, because they had been able to construct a Time Machine. There were some variations on this theory, including an evil Consortium of Nazis and American secret groups involved in mind control experiments, among other things. So, I brought it up:
December 2, 1995
Q: (L) Did the Germans construct a time machine during WWII?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) They actually did it?
A: Ja.
Q: (L) Were the German experiments in time travel carried to the U.S. after the war?
A: In splintered form.
Q: (L) Did the U.S. take possession of a time machine constructed by the Germans?
A: No.
Q: (L) Why not?
A: Was taken elsewhere. Mausenberg, Neufriedland.
Q: (L) Where is Mausenberg?
A: Antarktiklandt.
Q: (L) Who is in control of or running this machine?
A: Klaus Grimmschackler.
Q: (L) I didn’t mean a specific person, a group. Americans or Germans?
A: Deutsche.
Q: (L) Did they use this machine to transport themselves there and also in time?
A: Has been performed in Glophen in gestalt, bit, yie aire das gluppen und werstalt de vir seinderfor bidde. [Since I don’t know German, I don’t really know where to put the word breaks in this string of letters and have done it based on my best guesses.]
Q: (L) Why are you giving this so that we don’t understand?
A: Sorry, got the transmissions mixed up due to subject matter.
Q: (L) Getting back to this German time machine: did the Germans capture a crashed, or retrieve a crashed, UFO during the war?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Who was flying that craft – excuse me – operating that craft?
A: Grays.
Q: (L) Were the Germans able to back-engineer and construct other craft similar to the one they captured?
A: Did not need to. They got the information on such things from channeled sources.
Q: (L) Did the Germans get the information from the Vril Society?
A: Partly. Also Thule Society.
Q: (L) These individuals who have this time machine in Antarctica, what are they doing with it or what do they plan to do with it?
A: Exploring time sectors through loop of cylinder.
Q: (L) What is a loop of cylinder?
A: Complex, but is profile in fourth through sixth density.
Q: (L) Are there any particular goals that they have in doing this time exploration?
A: Not up to present, as you measure it.
Q: (L) Well, if they escaped and took this time machine to Antarctica, are they working with any of the so-called aliens?
A: Fourth density STS.
Q: (L) Are these Germans and their time machine, any part of the plan to take over earth when it moves into fourth density?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Are the Germans behind any of the conspiracies in the U.S.?
A: No. Fourth density STS behind both.
Q: (L) So there is a maverick German element, but to focus on that as being the foundational aspect of this phenomenon is to focus on the wrong thing?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Among the things that were discussed among the Germans in the Thule Society and the Vril Society was the “Black Sun that Illuminates the Interior.” Can you tell us what this Black Sun is?
A: Ultimate destiny of STS orientation.
Q: (L) Is this Black Sun an actual astronomical phenomenon?
A: In essence.
Q: (L) What would we know this Black Sun as? A black hole?
A: Good possibility.
Q: (L) A little off-to-the-side, but is there any Japanese connection here as suggested by a recent episode of the X-Files?
A: Only to extent of level of participation in “secret” world government.
Q: (L) Terry has a theory that the United States is so greatly in debt to the Japanese, and that they are going to default on their obligation and cause the Japanese government to fail, and that the Japanese and some others are going to be played as the “bad guys,” once again, as they were in WWII. Is this a plan in the making?
A: No.
Q: (L) Why did the X-Files have an implied Japanese experimental conspiracy blamed for the UFO/alien activity in the United States? Why are they presenting the Japanese as the Bad Guys?
A: Remember, the “X-Files” has a fictional basis.
At this point, I went off in other directions so I will omit that material. However, right at the end of this same session, I remembered something the Cassiopaeans had said almost a year earlier right as we were winding up another session. The issue of the present moment was the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze that was to be held rather soon. We were talking about attending and distributing our magazine, the Aurora Journal, and I was reminded of the fact that the Cassiopaeans had suggested going to a Gulf Breeze conference “in the spring” at a time when the Gulf Breeze conferences had always been held in the fall. The older session went as follows:
Q: (T) Any other questions?
A: Go to Pensacola.
Q: (L) Who wants to go to Pensacola?
A: I do, I do. [Laughter]
Q: (T) Is something going to happen in Pensacola?
A: Conference. Increasing activity in Florida panhandle, vortex. If you go to Pensacola you will see UFOs of all origins including yours truly.
Q: (T) Oh! It’s your conference! And we’ve been invited!
A: OK.
Q: (T) When is it that we are supposed to go. Is it that whenever we go, then will be the conference?
A: May.
Q: (T) Is there something in May? In Pensacola? (J) Project Awareness is in May but that’s in Tampa. Are you talking about the conference in May that is being put on by the Pensacola group?
A: Look and see.
Q: (T) OK, in May we should go to Gulf Breeze?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) OK, the conference in Gulf Breeze in going to be in Tampa in May.
A: Do a session and monitor the skies at the same time. Have someone posted outside with a video camera!! Let’s try to steer all these “Ufologists” in the right path.
Now, the strange thing about this UFO conference that we were talking about was that the normal schedule was for the spring conference to be held in Tampa and the fall conference to be held in Gulf Breeze. As it turned out, that very year the fall Gulf Breeze conference was nearly canceled because of a hurricane! That, in itself, was an extremely interesting event. We had been planning on attending this particular conference and T and J had already made the reservations. Hurricane Opal was spinning around in the Gulf and everyone was waiting to see where it would come ashore:
A: Review: what did we say about weather. Why do you suppose “Opal” occurred at time, place reference point?
Q: (L) To put a stop to the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze? Does this mean we ought to stay home?
A: Up to you, but, suggest deferment, we could tell you of titanic battle!!!!
Q: (L) So, hurricanes are a reflection of battles at higher levels? Did the good guys win?
A: Yes, but not concluded, and we fear for those drawn to locator because of sinister plans by fourth density STS.
Q: (L) Plans such as what? More weather phenomena or something more direct?
A: Both, several options open to them, and in works; monstrous hurricane to hit during conference, or tornado strikes Embassy Suites hotel, or bomb blast levels conference center, or mass abductions and mental controls initiated in order to cause dissension and possibly violence, followed by extreme factionalization.
Q: (L) So, there is the possibility that something really positive could come from the connections made at the conference and, to prevent this possibility, the fourth density STS are taking steps?
A: Yes, why do you suppose it has been disrupted as of now? And have you noticed that the hurricanes have been increasing in October, rather than decreasing as would normally be true?
Q: (L) Well, then, I guess we will be staying home.
A: Free will.
So, we canceled our reservations for the UFO conference. As it turned out, the hurricane did hit Gulf Breeze almost dead on, and the conference was moved to Mobile. Clearly, there was no bomb blast or tornado so if any of the above-mentioned possibilities did play out, they would seem to have been mass abductions and mental controls initiated.
As a result of this hurricane, the organizers of the conference decided to switch the schedule around so that the Gulf Breeze conference was held in the spring the following year, 1996. But, not in May. In March. So, even if the Cassiopaeans were picking up something about this specific switcheroo, it was not a bull’s-eye exactly. Another thing that has happened since that hurricane is that the organizers of the conference broke up their organization and reformed. They no longer hold UFO conferences, but rather focus on Metaphysical/New Age assemblies. So, it may be that there was a mass abduction and mental controls that initiated dissension. But, it would be difficult to make Ufologists any more fragmented and factional than they already were and are! But, getting back to the first spring UFO conference in Gulf Breeze:
December 2, 1995
Q: (L) This year the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze is in the spring. Is this the one we are supposed to go to?
A: Yes.
When I brought up the subject of going to a weekend UFO conference with my ex-husband (to whom I was married at the time of the events we are discussing), he didn’t make any real objections but, as the days passed, his sniping and complaining and finding fault (which was standard behavior for him) rose to new levels of intensity.
I was still in therapy three times a week from the automobile accident back in December of 1994, and this was one of the tools he used against me. Obviously, if I could go to a UFO conference, I didn’t need any help with the house or the children. Not only that, but he began to covertly encourage the children to not do their own chores. When I would tell them that they were grounded or otherwise restricted for not doing their work, he would override my authority and tell me sneeringly “that’s what mother’s are for – to take care of their families.” Obviously, by his definition, that meant being a hand-servant and a doormat to everyone in the house.
The situation escalated daily and I had a complete relapse from progress in my therapy. The nervous tremors in my hands increased, the various nerve pains, numbness and partial paralysis that I had begun to overcome slowly came crashing back, and I became so depressed over this that I was hardly able to function at all. Not only that, but I suddenly acquired an ear infection that made the side of my head swell out two or three inches. There was no way I could get on an airplane with an infection like that. The doctor put me on 850 mg of Augmentin four times daily, which reduced the infection, but it just wouldn’t go away completely.
But, the struggles I was having with my health did not seem to matter to either my ex-husband or, because of his attitude and manipulations, my children. During the times I was unable to even get out of bed, I would lie there listening to my husband and kids merrily watching television in the next room; knowing that they were all deliberately making as much mess and noise in the house as they possibly could; knowing that he was intentionally instigating it; and that if I said a word I would be shouted down as a woman who no longer wanted to be a wife and mother! I had been so determined to try to go to this conference, and it seemed that my will to do anything was slowly, but surely, being sapped.
I remember lying there, feeling more alone and imprisoned than I ever had in my life; imprisoned not only by the circumstances of my life, but by the deterioration of my health. My eyes would wander to the racks of guns on the walls in the bedroom (I was not allowed to decorate the room as I might like it, but had to live in a room full of gun collections and hunting gear), and I thought how easy it would be to just give him his freedom, give the children what they wanted, which amounted to a life of no rules and restrictions, and obtain peace and freedom from pain for myself.
All it would take would be one singular act of … what? Was it courage I lacked?
But then I thought about the children. Even if they were being manipulated by him, what would it mean to them, especially the baby, to hear a gunshot and run in to find their mother with half a head and her brains splattered all over the walls? I couldn’t do that to them. No matter what, I had to endure the pain and the frustration. It was a burden I had chosen, so I needed to just square my shoulders and pick it up and carry it. But, oh! How lonely it was!
As usual, I tried to find the flaw or fault in myself. Perhaps it was my attitude, or some sort of distortion of my perception. Maybe there was some simple answer – something I could do to make life more pleasant and functional for the whole family.
As it was, I went to enormous efforts to make sure that the sessions and the related work interfered as little as possible with family life, but it would have been impossible for it to have no impact. Maybe I was seeing what we were doing as important when it was not? Maybe I should just give it up or, at the very least, schedule the sessions less frequently? It seemed pretty clear that, if there were no Cassiopaeans, if there were no sessions, if I returned to the Baptist fold of my husband’s faith and became a dutiful and meek wife, all would be well.
But I couldn’t do that.
The drive to learn, to resolve the issues of my past and present were too imperative. I could no longer shove things under the rug. I could no longer lie to myself and say that “God is in his heaven and all is right with the world.” I had seen and experienced too much. Only a lobotomy might have helped at this point!
Nevertheless, I resolved to ask the Cassiopaeans about what I could do to make life a little smoother for all our sakes. I knew it meant breaking the “no personal questions” rule, but I could see no other hope for an answer. It turned out to be a very unusual session:
December 12, 1995
Q: (L) I am sorry but I have some personal questions tonight before we get started with other things. I would like to know what is the reason for this terrible depression I have been experiencing for so long now. I am sick of it.
A: It is a crushing attack.
Q: (L) Where is it coming from?
A: Fourth density STS.
But notice that the agents of the attack were the members of my family! Observation has shown me that this is most often the case.
Q: (L) What can I do to break it before it breaks me?
A: Counteract.
Q: (L) By what? How do you counteract the things that are just beyond my ability to deal with?
A: How is the attack represented in third density for you?
Q: (L) How is it represented? Well, it seems that my husband does not love me. I do not feel safe or in any way able to function as a wife and mother with this feeling, and I know that it must be a misperception on my part, but I cannot help but feel this way. How can I get over this feeling that he is constantly trying to break me into pieces? Not only do I have to bear the constant burden of the children with no support, the house, managing everything, but I also am continuously sniped at by him. None of my feelings are ever considered. I feel like I am being shoved over and buried by a bulldozer. Is that what you want to know?
A: You are diverting by secession.
Q: (L) What do you mean?
A: What is the definition of “to secede?”
Q: (L) To leave a union. To step out. To break a union.
A: Attack is not countered by following objectives of attack.
Q: (L) What are the objectives of this attack aside from crushing me?
A: Secession at an inappropriate juncture to throw plans askew.
Q: (L) What plans would be thrown askew by secession at this point?
A: Voice.
Q: (L) What?
A: And all other. Suggest ignoring “snipes” and other unpleasantness, as it is not of your being, thus should not be taken “to heart,” and when taken thusly, causes emotional disturbances which manifests as depression and related maladies. These ailments tend to grow in scope and intensity, thereby causing severe damage to plans and activities aimed at executing one’s “mission.”
Q: (L) That’s all fine and good. But, just exactly what is the mission?
A: You are awakening to it just fine, thank you!
Q: (L) Are you saying that all this constant discussing and taking things apart and talking about them and thinking about all these things is actually getting us somewhere?
A: Absolutely!!!!
One of the main reasons we wanted to go to the Gulf Breeze conference was because we were putting a magazine together, as I have mentioned. It was hoped that it would be an organ for the Cassiopaean material since I could really think of no other affordable way to make the material available. We planned to print a thousand copies and take them to the conference with us and give them away with a subscription form attached inside.
Q: (L) Well, let’s get on with the questions. Is the magazine or some other mode of getting information out part of this mission?
A: When you have learned, you have energized yourself.
Q: (L) What does that mean in relation to the question?
A: Lead by the hand? No way, Jose`!
Q: (L) Frank and I discussed a name for the magazine last night and we came up with – and who knows how – Aurora to symbolize the dawn, waking up … that sort of thing. I was researching the legend of Orion, and in the end he is cured of his blindness by the goddess of the Dawn. Is this a good name to use? I like Barbra Marciniak’s Bringers of the Dawn, but I think I like the name Aurora.
A: Refer to the previous 2 answers.
Q: (L) No comments?
A: No need, you are doing just fine by yourselves.
Q: (S) What did you expect them to say? “Atta girl!?” [Laughter] Well, since I am going broke putting out the first issue, will the magazine support itself?
A: We are not going to answer that, as it would violate level one directive.
Q: (L) What is a “level one directive?”
A: Refer to last answer.
Q: (L) Well, fine! I want to know just one thing here: is there some place that gives out orders?
A: You will know when it is right, and not before!
Q: (L) I want you guys to know that I sometimes feel a wee tiny bit like a pawn on a chessboard!
A: You should, you inhabit third density STS environment.
Q: (L) I was at least hoping that if I was a pawn, that some of the players were good guys. Is that asking too much?
A: Yes. Good guys don’t play chess.
Q: (L) But there have been so many strange events, so many synchronous events. My life is so utterly bizarre! Is that the good guys helping or the bad guys leading me astray?
A: Neither. It is Nature running its course.
Q: (L) OK. One of the sensations I have experienced lately is the feeling that that I have had it up to the eyebrows with the negative energies and experiences of third density. I have even had the thought that this feeling of having had enough, in an absolute sense, is one of the primary motivators for wanting to find one’s way out of this trap we are in. I want out of it. Is this part of this “nature” as you call it?
A: Yes. When you see the futility of the limitations of third density life, it means you are ready to graduate. Notice those who wallow in it.
Q: (L) Some people obviously wallow in extreme materiality. And there seems to be another kind that is more subtle, which has to do with saying that you want to grow and become enlightened, and yet such a person is unable to pierce the veil of their own illusions about how to become enlightened, and this illusion is the wallowing …
A: Wallowing takes many forms. More often, the sign [of wallowing] is someone who does not feel alienated by the obvious traps and limitations of third density.
Q: (L) Well, that says a lot. One of the questions on the list is: In many of the Sumerian drawings and literature, the gods, the Annunaki, are described as eating a plant that grew at the bottom of the ocean, and this plant was the source of eternal life.
A: Nonsense! The source of eternal life is existence!
Q: (L) Well, the point was that there was some sort of food that these beings ate that was unusual or different that somehow enhanced their abilities to an extreme degree …
A: Totally false and you should know it!! All so-called “special powers” come from nonphysical sources!!!
Q: (L) Well, Carlos Castaneda talks about the “Eagle’s emanations,” the Eagle being, I suppose, Prime Creator that emanates down through all the densities, and that the Nagual who can “see,” sees the Eagle as a large black-and-white object. Are they seeing the source, or are they seeing something on just another density?
A: Source? There is no such thing.
Q: (L) You mean there is no Prime Creator, no origin or source of our existence? [I was practically crying here. I sure wanted somebody “out there” to haul my buns out of the fire!]
A: You are Prime Creator.
Q: (L) But that is so esoteric … I am talking about …
A: The point is: stop filling your consciousness with monotheistic philosophies planted long ago to imprison your being. Can’t you see it by now, after all you have learned, that there is no source, there is no leader, there is no basis, there is no overseer, etc. You literally possess, within your consciousness profile, all the power that exists within all of creation!?! You absolutely have all that exists, ever has, or ever will, contained within your mind. All you have to do is learn how to use it, and at that moment, you will literally, literally, be all that is, was, and ever will be!!!!!!!!
Q: (L) That is all fine and dandy and sounds wonderful, except for one little item. You also say that the monotheistic concepts were imposed on us to prevent us from knowing this. So, if we are all that is, how can something exist that can impose something so unpleasant on us?
A: Choices follow desire-based imbalances.
Q: (L) If that is the case, why can’t any one person just turn off the lights, end the illusion, and everything becomes nothing?
A: Well, first of all, everything does not become nothing. Secondly, some have already become everything.
Q: (L) Terrific! And I understand that we are digging our way out of this particular illusion. And that is a rather profound but useless thing to say to someone still stuck in the mire! Change of subject. I have had three death dreams and Frank has had one. I would like to inquire about them.
A: No comment.
Q: (L) You said that my life would be straightened out and that this would happen through the Internet. In fact, you said that my life would change suddenly and dramatically …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Yet, all I have experienced has been the most oppressive internal and external attack imaginable …
A: Benefits follow oppressiveness, what is it that you tell to others?? The darkness always precedes the dawn!
Q: (L) Well, I don’t know which way to turn. I am not in a position to do anything about any of it just now.
A: Ask for help, silly!
Q: (L) I don’t like to ask for help.
A: You have to.
So you see what happens when you whine and complain to the Cassiopaeans! All they do is get your dander up! But, oddly, it was what I needed. Even though I desperately wanted to have somebody come and fix what was wrong in my life, I knew that it was unrealistic to expect anyone to clean up the mess that I had made. And the only way I knew to ask for help was to pray and meditate. So, that is what I did.
As a result of my prayers, I came to some ideas and conclusions. No matter how dreadful the present situation was, I could not help but feel that my life was being guided somehow (even if it was just nature taking its course), and I had only to demonstrate my faith and commitment for things to work out as they should by acceptance of the situation as it was. Of course, I had the idea that if I just had enough faith, my husband would undergo some dramatic change and the dream of the “bridegroom” would come true. Until that time, I would be a good and attentive wife, do the best I could for the sake of the children, get whatever satisfaction I could get from my work, my friends, and some little writing and sharing of information, and just not worry about what he did. A commitment is a promise, and I didn’t break my promises. I was sure God or Nature was going to fix it. I knew that, for the moment, I was essentially alone. I didn’t have a husband; he was as much a lost child as the children were, and I accepted the responsibility of them all. I believed this to be the direction the Cassiopaeans were pointing me. If I accepted the situation as it was and did the best I could, I felt sure that it would change on its own. Never mind that my idea of this change was that what was broken would be fixed!
This last session was during December. Just a few days before Christmas I was doing my Christmas baking. I remember sitting at the kitchen table, covered with dustings of flour, my girls helping me, and such an apparently happy family scene all around me. The kids didn’t know they were being manipulated by their father; they didn’t know how it was between their father and me; and I was resolved to keep it from them. They deserved happiness and stability. And, I was now trying in every way to make my husband happy as well, short of giving up my mind and my work. I redoubled my efforts to the point of absolute exhaustion so that nothing I did would interfere in the normal events of our lives so he would have nothing to complain about. But, the more I tried to juggle everything, the more demanding he became so that it was harder and harder to manage it without some sort of scene with him. Not only that, it was physically destroying me.
So, there I was in my kitchen, baking Christmas goodies with my children, and feeling utterly devastated that I could not feel the happiness that I was working so hard to create around me. The radio was playing and a haunting song caught my ear …
I could have a mansion that is higher than the trees
I could have all the gifts I want and never ask please
I could fly to Paris, oh, it’s at my beck and call
Why do I go through life with nothing at all?
But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true
I can be the singer or the clown in every room
I can even call someone to take me to the moon
I can put my make-up on and drive the men insane
I can go to bed alone and never know his name
But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true.
(Sandy Mason Theoret, Jando Music Inc.)
… And I broke down and began to cry. What did it matter if I solved the mysteries of the Universe or died in the effort? No one else would ever know … No one who really cared, that is. The forces that were driving me, the Quest seemed to be mine alone. And I was alone.
All the dreams of “Him” came flooding back and I wondered if He was somewhere on the planet wondering if I was somewhere on the planet. Again, for the millionth time I sternly reminded myself that all such thoughts were nonsense. There was no such thing as “The One.” It was only romantic fairy tales at best; pathological delusions at worst. Get a grip on your mind, girl!
The children were very concerned with my tears, and I explained that middle-aged mothers just do that sometimes. Nothing to be concerned about. And I pushed the thoughts back under the rug and told myself that I should be overjoyed with what I had and not be such a whiner and crybaby for what I didn’t have.
But, even though my mind issued the orders, something deep inside was not listening! Our preparations to attend the Gulf Breeze UFO conference continued. We thought we had experienced High Strangeness in our lives. We didn’t know how strange it can get!
1 If one keeps in mind the proposition that these locations – Egypt, Phoenicia and Syria – may not be the same as we know them today, but rather Northern European areas, i.e. Druid territory, it gives the whole story a very different perspective.
2 The issue of students that are not worthy of initiation turning against the teacher, even to the extent of violence, is covered in Almost Human. I have definitely experienced this reaction myself!
3 On this topic, Christopher Knight and Robert Lomas have proposed an excellent theory in their book: Uriel’s Machine. Even if they make a lot of factual errors and go on flights of Biblical fancy due to their a priori assumptions about the alleged history of the Jews vis a vis the Northern Europeans, their work on megalithic stone circles, geometry, etc, is outstanding.
4 See William Bramley’s book, The Gods of Eden.
5 This will prove to be very interesting in my upcoming second volume of Secret History: The Horns of Moses. It is also interesting in the context of the Merovingians as a tribe of Franks who were derived from “Chatti” which was another name for the Hittites, and Abraham was said to have been a Hittite. Those who are sharp may be able to take these clues and do their own research with interesting results. Or, you can just wait for my book…
As I mentioned in the last volume, the subject of the 3-5 Code was first brought up on 11-11-95. A lot of people have asked about this strange occurrence of double elevens and I hope to be able to provide some clues to solving that mystery as we go along. But, we will be diverting on several lateral themes as we proceed before coming back to the code, proper, and we start with this frequent need to divert right at the very beginning here.
You see, the whole problem really started with the issue of Jesus. Even though I already had experience with the fact that invoking the name of Jesus really had little (if any) effect whatsoever on the occasions that I had worked with exorcism type activities (and this was troubling, to say the least), I was still in the mode of the standard fundamentalist New Age belief that determining the attitude or teachings about Jesus from any given channeled source would be helpful in determining the orientation of that source and could save you from a lot of problems further down the road.
Like most New Age “elders,” I was still measuring everything by the standard of Edgar Cayce. So, we were asking our Jesus questions as a sort of test for the Cassiopaeans.
Q: (L) Who was Jesus of Nazareth?
A: Advanced spirit.
Q: (L) Was Jesus an individual who had psychic or unusual powers from birth?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Did he have an awareness from the earliest times of his life that he was in some way special or chosen?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Jesus born from an immaculate conception, that is, did his mother not have sex with a man in order to conceive him?
A: No.
Q: (L) She did have sex with a man in order to conceive him, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Who was the man with whom she had sex to conceive Jesus?
A: Tonatha.
Q: (L) And who was this individual, Tonatha?
A: Acquaintance.
Q: (L) Was he selected for some reason to be the biological father of Jesus by other beings or powers?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you give us any details about him? What was his lineage, where did he come from, etc?
A: He was a member of the White Sect.
Q: (L) What is the White Sect?
A: AKA Aryans. [This one slipped right by me.]
Q: (L) Was Mary a member of the Essene group?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was this man also a member of the Essenes?
A: No.
Q: (L) And this person, Tonatha, was chosen to be the biological father of Jesus?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Why did Mary not marry him? [Laura, the eternal romantic!]
A: Feelings were extremely transient. Influenced by telepathic suggestion. Hypnotized level 1.
Q: (L) What date, counting backwards in our calendrical system, was Jesus born on?
A: 01 06 minus 14.
Q: (L) What time of day was he born?
A: 6 am.
Q: (L) Was there any unusual celestial event in terms of star or planet alignments at that time?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was there an event where the Magi came to present gifts?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Who was it that came to present him gifts?
A: 3 prophets.
Q: (L) What country did these prophets come from?
A: Iran. Also known as Persia. [The Persian connection later proves to be very significant.]
Q: (L) What was the “star” that indicated to the prophets …
A: Spaceship.
Q: (L) What kind of spaceship?
A: Mother.
Q: (L) Where did this mothership come from?
A: Other realm.
Q: (L) Does that mean other realm as in dimension or density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do we know of these other realms or densities as other star systems or planets?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Jesus grew up to the age of twelve, at which point he was bar Mitzvahed. Is that correct?
A: He was bar Mitzvahed at the age of 10. Aramaic rite.
Q: (L) Did Jesus, during the course of his growing up years travel to other countries and study under other masters?
A: No.
Q: (L) Where did he receive his teaching or training?
A: Channeled to him.
Q: (L) Did he at any point in his life travel to India?
A: No. [This surprised us as many channeled sources have claimed this to be so.]
Q: (L) Did he travel to Egypt and undergo an initiation in the Great Pyramid?
A: No. [This also was a surprise in contradiction to our expectations as it was part of the New Age dogma!]
Q: (L) He lived his entire life in Palestine? [I was somewhat incredulous!]
A: Near. In that general area. The Bible is not entirely accurate.
Q: (L) When Jesus attended the marriage at Cana, whose wedding was it?
A: Did not happen.
Q: (L) Did Jesus feed thousands of people with a few loaves and fishes?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are you saying that all the miracles of the Bible are myths?
A: Remember this is corrupted information altered after the fact for purposes of political and economic gain and control.
Q: (L) Tell us what Jesus really did.
A: He taught spiritual truths to those starving for them.
Q: (L) And what was the basis of these spiritual truths?
A: Channeled information from higher sources.
Q: (L) What is the truth that Jesus taught?
A: That all men are loved by the creator and are ONE with same.
Q: (L) Did he perform any miracles?
A: Some.
Q: (L) Can you tell us about one or two of them?
A: Healing.
Q: (L) Was he able to literally heal with the touch of his hand?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he perform exorcisms?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is Reiki the method he used to heal, or something similar?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there any way to enhance the Reiki energy to make it powerful enough that one could do in a very short time what now takes quite a while? [As it seems apparent that Jesus did.]
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What can one do to enhance the Reiki energy?
A: Attain lofty spiritual purity.
Q: (L) Are the only miracles he did healing?
A: No.
Q: (L) What other kinds of miracles did he do?
A: Telekinesis.
Q: (L) Did he walk on water?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did he turn water into wine?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are these all just stories?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of the stories?
A: Control.
Q: (L) Was Jesus crucified?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was somebody crucified on a cross and represented to be Jesus?
A: No.
Q: There was no crucifixion and no resurrection after three days? Is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) OK, what is the truth on that matter?
A: He spent 96 hours in a comatose state in a cave near Jerusalem. When he awoke, he prophesied to his disciples and then exited the cave. 27,000 people had assembled because of mothership appearance and he was taken up in a beam of light.
Q: (L) When did he go into this sleep state? Did he just go in one day and go to bed and go to sleep and then a ship came and picked him up?
A: Close.
Q: (L) So he appeared to his followers to have died?
A: They thought this.
Q: (L) Did he get up and say anything to anybody before he left on the ship?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he come back to life … so to speak?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And then he told them things he had seen in his extended meditative sleep, is that what happened?
A: Close.
Q: (L) OK, what happened?
A: Told prophecies then proclaimed eventual return.
Q: (L) Was this information he got during this period of “extended sleep?”
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How long was he asleep, or in this state of semi-death?
A: 96 hours.
Q: (L) And then, a ship arrived and took him away, is that correct?
A: Yes. Upon pillar of light.
Q: (L) Is there any special power or advantage in praying in the name of Jesus?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, if he didn’t die and release his spirit into the earth plane, how is this power conferred?
A: Prayers go to him.
Q: (L) And what does he do when he hears the prayers?
A: Determines their necessity against background of individual soul development.
Q: (L) You say that when a person prays to Jesus that he makes some sort of a decision, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, how can he do that when millions of people are praying to him simultaneously?
A: Soul division.
Q: (L) What do you mean by soul division?
A: Self-explanatory.
Q: (L) Do you mean soul division as in cellular meiosis where a cell splits and replicates itself?
A: No.
Q: (L) Does Jesus’ soul divide?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How many times does it divide?
A: Endlessly as a projection of consciousness.
Q: (L) And what happens to this piece of soul that is divided or projected?
A: Is not a piece of a soul.
Q: (L) What is it?
A: It is a replication.
Q: (L) Is each replication exactly identical to the original?
A: Yes. And no.
Q: (L) In what way is the replicated soul different from the original?
A: Not able to give individual attention.
Q: (L) Are any of us able to replicate in this manner if we so desire?
A: Could if in same circumstance. The way the process works is thus: When Jesus left the earth plane, he went into another dimension or density of reality, whereupon all “rules” regarding the awareness of time and space are entirely different from the way they are perceived in your reality. A “time-warp cocoon,” if you will. At this point in space-time, his soul which was/is still in the physical realm, was placed in a state of something akin to suspended animation and a sort of advanced form of unconsciousness. From that point to the present his soul has been replicated from a state of this unconsciousness in order that all who call upon him or need to be with him or need to speak to him can do so on an individual basis. His soul can be replicated ad infinitum — as many times as needed. The replication process produces a state of hyper-consciousness in each and every version of the soul consciousness.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that Jesus is in a state of suspension, voluntarily, in another plane of existence, having chosen to give up his life on this plane in order to continuously generate replications of his soul pattern for other people to call upon for assistance? A sort of “template generator?”
A: Yes. Precisely.
Q: (L) If one calls upon him more than once, does one get a double dose?
A: Define.
Q: (L) If one repeatedly calls upon Jesus does one get repeated replications or additional strength, power or whatever?
A: No. Once one has truly made the connection, that’s all that’s needed.
Q: (L) This is an interesting concept. Has any other soul volunteered to perform this work?
A: Yes. 12 at the present “time.”
Q: (L) Can you name any of the others?
A: Buddha. Moses. Shintanhilmoon. Nagaillikiga. Others, varying degrees. Jesus is the strongest currently.
On the one hand, what the Cassiopaeans were saying about Jesus was comforting in that it explained a certain template availability that seemed to many to be very real, while at the same time returning the responsibility for soul evolution, or free will, to the individual; on the other hand, they were saying clearly and unequivocally that there was no crucifixion upon which salvation by grace was predicated.
Was Jesus crucified? Well, it is on this point that millions of people believe that they are “saved,” so it is a pretty big issue. The thing is, the fruits of this doctrine tend to demonstrate an exclusionary us-against-them mode of thinking that brings us back to the issue of free will — are we choosing because the choice is weighted, or the only good choice, or do we actually have free will?
As we have already noted, the idea of any “only way” a man can be saved is Nazi spirituality. Nevertheless, the explanation seemed to be that there certainly was an awesome event of some sort that followed a period of mysterious initiation and that this was the event that was later mythicized into the crucifixion story that followed the general lines of all the suffering savior religions of history. I didn’t know what to think about this.
It was not too long afterward that I came across the following passage in Manly Hall’s exhaustive compendium, The Secret Teachings of All Ages:
According to popular conception, Jesus was crucified during the thirty-third year of His life and in the third year of His ministry following his baptism. About AD 180, St. Irenaeus, Bishop of Lyons, one of the most eminent of the ante-Nicene theologians, wrote Against Heresies, an attack on the doctrines of the Gnostics. In this work, Irenaeus declared upon the authority of the Apostles themselves that Jesus lived to old age. To quote: “They, however, that they may establish their false opinion regarding that which is written … maintain that He preached for one year only, and then suffered in the twelfth month. [In speaking thus], they are forgetful of their own disadvantage, destroying His whole work, and robbing Him of that age which is both more necessary and more honourable than any other, that more advanced age, I mean, during which also as a teacher He excelled all others. For how could He have had His disciples, if He did not teach? And how could He have taught unless He had reached the age of a Master? For when He came to be baptised, He had not yet completed His thirtieth year, but was beginning to be about thirty years of age … and, (according to these men), He preached only one year reckoning from His baptism. On completing His thirtieth year He suffered, being in fact still a young man, and who had by no means attained to advanced age. Now, that the first stage of early life embraces thirty years, and that this extends onward to the fortieth year, every one will admit; but from the fortieth and fiftieth year a man begins to decline towards old age, which Our Lord possessed while He still fulfilled the office of a Teacher, even as the Gospel and all the elders testify; those who were conversant in Asia with John, the disciple of the Lord, (affirming) that John conveyed to them that information. And He remained among them up to the time of Trajan. Some of them, moreover, saw not only John, but the other apostles also, and heard the very same account from them, and bear testimony as to the validity of the statement. Whom then should we rather believe? Whether such men as these or Ptolemaeus, who never saw the apostles, and who never even in his dreams attained to the slightest trace of an apostle?” [emphasis added] (Hall 2003, 579—581)
Well, obviously, this “Gospel” that Irenaeus refers to as testifying that Jesus did not suffer and die has disappeared! But,
… commenting on the foregoing passage of Irenaeus, [theologian] Godfrey Higgins remarks that it has fortunately escaped the hands of those destroyers who have attempted to render the Gospel narratives consistent by deleting all such statements. He also notes that the doctrine of the crucifixion was a vexata questio among Christians even during the second century. “The evidence of Irenaeus,” he says, “cannot be touched. On every principle of sound criticism, and of the doctrine of probabilities, it is unimpeachable.” (Hall 2003, 581)
Manly Hall adds these remarks:
It should further be noted that Irenaeus prepared this statement to contradict another apparently current in his time to the effect that the ministry of Jesus lasted but one year. Of all the early Fathers, Irenaeus, writing within eighty years after the death of St. John the Evangelist, should have had reasonably accurate information. If the disciples themselves related that Jesus lived to advanced age in the body, why has the mysterious number 33 been arbitrarily chosen to symbolize the duration of his life? Were the incidents in the life of Jesus purposely altered so that His actions would fit more closely into the pattern established by the numerous Savior-Gods who preceded him? (Hall 2003, 581)
Aside from the issues of what the Cassiopaeans had said about Jesus — and this confirmation by no less than one of the early church fathers, St. Irenaeus — here is one of our mysteries, the number 33, making an appearance right in the Bible. But that was only the first of many. Manly Hall discusses the issue of numbers and secret ciphers:
The use of ciphers has long been recognized as indispensable in military and diplomatic circles, but the modern world has overlooked the important role played by cryptography in literature and philosophy.
If the art of deciphering cryptograms could be made popular, it would result in the discovery of much hitherto unsuspected wisdom possessed by both ancient and medieval philosophers. It would prove that many apparently verbose and rambling authors were wordy for the sake of concealing words. Ciphers are hidden in the most subtle manner: they may be concealed in the watermark of the paper upon which a book is printed; they may be bound into the covers of ancient books; they may be hidden under imperfect pagination; they may be extracted from the first letters of words or the first words of sentences; they may be artfully concealed in mathematical equations or in apparently unintelligible characters; they may be extracted from the jargon of clowns or revealed by heat as having been written in sympathetic ink; they may be word ciphers, letter ciphers, or apparently ambiguous statements whose meaning could be understood only by repeated careful readings; they may be discovered in the elaborately illuminated initial letters of early books or they may be revealed by a process of counting words or letters. If those interested in Freemason research would give serious consideration to this subject, they might find in books and manuscripts of the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries the information necessary to bridge the gap in Masonic history that now exists between the Mysteries of the ancient world and the Craft Masonry of the last three centuries.
The arcana of the ancient Mysteries were never revealed to the profane except through the media of symbols. Symbolism fulfilled the dual office of concealing the sacred truths from the uninitiated and revealing them to those qualified to understand the symbols. Forms are the symbols of formless divine principles; symbolism is the language of Nature. With reverence the wise pierce the veil and with clearer vision contemplate the reality; but the ignorant, unable to distinguish between the false and the true, behold a universe of symbols. It may well be said of Nature — the Great Mother — that she is ever tracing strange characters upon the surface of things, but only to her eldest and wisest sons as a reward for their faith and devotion does she reveal the cryptic alphabet, which is the key to the import of these tracings.
… Only recently an intricate cipher of Roger Bacon’s has been unraveled, revealing the fact that this early scientist was well versed in the cellular theory. Lecturing before the American Philosophical Society, Dr. William Romaine Newbold, who translated the cipher manuscript of the friar, declared: “There are drawings which so accurately portray the actual appearance of certain objects that it is difficult to resist the inference that Bacon had seen them with the microscope. … These are spermatozoa, the body cells and the seminiferous tubes, the ova, with their nuclei distinctly indicated. There are nine large drawings of which one at least bears considerable resemblance to a certain stage of development of a fertilized cell.” (See Review of Reviews, July, 1921)
… The most famous of all literal cryptograms is the famous biliteral cipher described by Sir Francis Bacon in his De Augmentis Scientiarum. Lord Bacon originated the system while still a young man residing in Paris. The biliteral cipher requires the use of two styles of type, one an ordinary face and the other specially cut. The differences between the two fonts are in many cases so minute that it requires a powerful magnifying glass to detect them. … Lord Bacon is believed to have had two Roman alphabets specially prepared in which the differences were so trivial that it is almost impossible for experts to distinguish them.
A careful inspection of the first four “Shakespeare” folios discloses the use throughout the volumes of several styles of type differing in minute but distinguishable details. It is possible that all the “Shakespeare” folios contain ciphers running through the text. These ciphers may have been added to the original plays, which are much longer in the folios than in the original quartos, full scenes having been added in some instances.
The biliteral cipher was not confined to the writings of Bacon and “Shakespeare,” however, but appears in many books published during Lord Bacon’s lifetime and for nearly a century after his death. In referring to the biliteral cipher, Lord Bacon terms it omnia per omnia. The cipher may run through an entire book and be placed therein at the time of printing without the knowledge of the original author, for it does not necessitate the changing of either words or punctuation. It is possible that this cipher was inserted for political purposes into many documents and volumes published during the seventeenth century. It is well known that ciphers were used for the same reason as early as the Council of Nicea.
… Many cryptograms have been produced in which numbers in various sequences are substituted for letters, words, or even complete thoughts. The reading of numerical ciphers usually depends upon the possession of specially arranged tables of correspondences. The numerical cryptograms of the Old Testament are so complicated that only a few scholars versed in rabbinical lore have ever sought to unravel their mysteries. …
The most simple numerical cipher is that in which the letters of the alphabet are exchanged for numbers in ordinary sequence …
Authors sometimes based their cryptograms upon the numerical value of their own names; for example, Sir Francis Bacon repeatedly used the cryptic number 33 — the numerical equivalent of his name. (Hall 2003, 552—557, 561—562)
Somewhere along the way I read that all of the manuscripts of the different books of the Bible that were being translated under the patronage of King James were deposited into the care of Sir Francis Bacon by the many translators involved in the project. Apparently he had them in his possession for a year, but there are no reports as to what he was doing with them. It was suggested that the fact that Jesus went from age 30, when he began his ministry of one year, to the age of 33 at his crucifixion at the end of this one year, was a signature of Lord Bacon. It would sure be interesting to have an original copy of the first edition of the King James Version of the Bible to peruse for possible coded information!
Later I came across the suggestion that the coded signature of Lord Bacon in the New Testament was evidence that there was a Masonic conspiracy involved in the production of the Jesus myth. Bacon was also thought to have been in on the formation of the Rosicrucians, and others suggested that he had died the “philosopher’s death.” That is to say that he achieved the Great Work of alchemy which bestows upon its successful students the gift of immortality, and that a log or box of rocks was buried in his place. Supposedly, those who fake their deaths in this manner leave some sort of clue as to what really happened, and the clue that Lord Bacon had achieved the great work was in the fact that he died from eating a spoiled rooster — the rooster being an ancient symbol of alchemy.
After the “funeral,” the new Master Alchemist, who now has supernatural powers, takes his place among the order of those who have already ascended into this new state of being, and can thereafter appear and disappear at will to those who are ready to receive deeper instruction, having proved themselves worthy by their labor, will and intent.
All of this was very interesting to me, and I read and reread books on alchemy, theories about the supposed ciphers encoded in the works of Shakespeare, purported to be a pseudonym for either Lord Bacon himself, or a cabal of alchemists whose project was to preserve their secrets for subsequent generations to decode.
In the meantime, I read many works, both pro and con, about the Masonic conspiracies to take over the world and how the number 33 repeatedly appears whenever they have a hand in something. It was suggested that even the death of JFK was part of the Masonic plan to rule the world — or, at the very least, control it from behind the scenes — and everywhere I looked there were folks making this or that wild claim or conjecture about the repeated appearance of the number 33.
In the present time we have the claims of David Icke that the death of Princess Diana was a Masonic sacrifice, and that all of the members of European nobility are secret Masons and shapeshifting Reptilian beings with bloody appetites. Meanwhile, the Masons and Shriners build children’s hospitals, do good works in general, and there are few people who don’t have a Mason or two in the family tree, including yours truly.
Well, with all the confusion, with all the “proofs” going one way and another, it was difficult to sort it all out and decide just “who was on first” here! No sooner would I become convinced that the Masons were the most evil bunch on the planet, with designs on the freedoms of everyone, than I would come across an article or book that claimed exactly the opposite with exactly as much proof. Somewhere along the way I came across a pamphlet that claimed that the New Testament was written by a “rich and powerful aristocratic Roman family, the Calpurnius Pisos,” and that all the books therein were written between the years 70 and 140 ce. This pamphlet claimed that there was an “inner circle” of those who knew this and that the group included “Boccaccio, Bacon AKA Shakespeare, Cervantes, Rabelais, Tolstoy, Milton, Spenser, Tennyson, Thackeray, Kipling, Stevenson, Poe, Oleson, Browning, Noyes, Lewis Carroll, A. Conan Doyle, Verne, Baum, Tolkien, ad infinitum.”
I have to admit that their evidence was very compelling. One thing that this pamphlet demonstrated was that the number 22 was the code for “Christos” and the number 19 was the code for “Piso.” The number 24, by their interpretation, was the code for “Jesus.” Whoever these folks were, they were seeing coded messages in everything from steamship ads to Dick Tracy cartoon strips!
Around this point in time, a friend had picked up a book in a used bookstall at a flea market and, knowing of my interests in anything that was about ancient mysteries, especially the Flood of Noah, brought the book over to me. It was entitled Lost Survivors of the Deluge, by Gerd von Hassler and translated from the German by Martin Ebon. You sure wouldn’t expect to find anything about Jesus in there, now would you? But, we need to remember the reputed remark of Jesus that the end of the age would be “as in the days of Noah,” so somehow, the two things were intertwined in my mind. As I was just reading along, I came to the following passage and the hair on my head began to stand on end:
In the Bible it says: “And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them, that the Sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose. And the Lord said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be but a hundred and twenty years.” With this Divine dictum, the golden times, when gods and their direct offspring lived to be 900 years old, and more, came to an end.
For hundreds of years, these lines have troubled religious scholars, because direct and literal translations specifically yields the term “Sons of God,” as pursuing human maidens. Accordingly, some 2,000 years were devoted to many an inspired and convoluted explanation, in order to come to terms with a notion that fits neither the concepts of the Bible, nor that of a heavenly Divine Creator, but had to be given an appropriate interpretation.
This is a fact [since the Deluge] we have lost godlike Near-Immortality and all the efforts to intensify the quality of the divine blood through incest — as both the Inca Emperors and the Pharaohs attempted — had to fail. … The Divine Blood had been diluted. But God had desired the equality of the divine with the human. The Bible tells us:
“And God said, let us make man in our image, after our likeness …”
“Let us make man in our image” is but one of the somewhat dictatorial decisions of democratic majorities within a family of gods, to be found in all the world’s myths.
This brings us to the crucial question. It is, indeed, so vital and controversial that St. Boniface, when he presented it to the Frisians during his missionary journey on June 5, 754, was put to death by the sword! Today, we may ask such a question without facing the sword; it is: Just what is the name of the God—Creator? What is the name of the god who governed the earth even before the Deluge; this God of Gods, rightly called Father of the Gods, and thus Father of all Mankind?
To put it even more simply: If a highly-developed civilization existed more than 10,000 years ago, governing the world’s then-populated regions, and if the God—King was able to aid his contemporaries in surviving the Deluge catastrophe, surely the name of this ruler must have been handed down to later generations of survivors; who was he?
We know from the Epic of Gilgamesh, of the horrible Enlil, who was responsible for the Deluge. The other gods did not think highly of him, but feared him a good deal. His influence never extended beyond Mesopotamia. His antagonist, Shamash, the Sun God, enjoyed greater prestige. He remains, notably in Asia even today, a figure of magical power, the epitome of the shaman.
But even the early Egyptians called their Sun God by a different name, Ra. This need not mean much, because Plato tells us that the Egyptians had even then developed a unique and high level of civilization hostile toward the unknown earlier culture.
The Egyptian term ‘Ra’ was integrated into the language of early Peru, where we encounter the annual sun festival Rami or Raymi. But this adaptation undoubtedly dates back only to the period following the Deluge, as does the word ‘Wotan.’
This enables us to draw a firm dividing line: we are able to eliminate all gods who emerged from the post-Deluge civilizations as creators of cultures, builders of cities, magicians or agronomists. The ONE God for whom we search has to be the father — or even ancestor — of this post-Deluge generation of gods. Just as Tuisto, father of Mannus, was the ancestor of Germanic culture.
Tuisto? Can that be accurate? Or did Tacitus fail to understand the name correctly? The curious linking of the darkest and lightest vowel in our language brings back a curious association.
Of course! It is Tiu, the god whom the early Germans recalled when they made up the calendar and named one day of the week after him: Tuesday. Otherwise, he has been overshadowed by the ever-present Wotan-Odin, as the highest Ruler of the Heavens.
This replacement took place, at the latest, during the Volkerwanderung, the Great Migration that caused a gigantic upheaval of populations on the Eurasian land mass. We may even assume that, just because Tiu (or Ziu) was removed heavenward, the very vigorous Wotan managed to take his place in human imagination and thought. It was a fate that Wotan experienced himself later on, when missionaries cut down the very oaks that had been dedicated to his divine presence.
Tiu-Ziu was just as much one of the Aesir as Wotan had been. And the Aesir had even managed to infiltrate the antagonist worlds of Egypt and Mesopotamia, representing the sun and divine wisdom. … I do think, however, that our search for the original name of the primal Creator-God should not get bogged down in such minute details. The survivors of the Deluge of whom we learn from the Bible and the earlier Gilgamesh Epic and other traditions, were themselves survivors of the earlier world of gods. … Over thousands of years, they passed on a handful of names. No doubt, precisely how much and what one name or another had originally meant may simply have been forgotten over the long, long years.
If we concentrate on the godlike of God Ziu, we discover the following points:
â–ºZius was the highest god of northern Europe
â–ºAs Zeus, he was the highest god of ancient Greece
â–ºAs Jupiter (Iu-Pitar = Tius-Pater) he was the Father God of ancient Rome
â–ºAs Deus (from which we derive ‘Deity’) he was the basic concept of the heavenly, the only Deity in the Latin liturgy of the Church, and the God in all Romance languages, as well as in the word ‘theology.’
â–ºAs Ometeotle (again, ‘theology’ is closely related) he was the highest god of the Mayan culture.
â–ºAs Cinteotl and God of Corn he is equivalent to Quetzalcoatl, the white god.
â–ºAs Tonatiuh, he was the Sun God, who provided the Aztecs with a sort of Valhalla for their war dead.
â–ºAs Xiuhtecutli, he was the Fire God of ancient Mexico.
â–ºAs Tirawa-Atius, the highest divinity of the Pawnee, he was credited with populating the world with ‘giants.’
â–ºAs Tieholtsodi, the monster who caused the Deluge and ruled all waters, he exists in the traditions of the Navajos
â–ºAs Szeu-kha, he is the son of the Creator-God whom the Pima Indians knew as floating above the Deluge
â–ºAs the falcon Tiuh-Tiuh of the Guatemaltec Indians he mixed the blood of a snake with that of a tapir, kneaded it with corn-flour and ‘thus created the flesh of man.’ This tribe says that it came from Tulan, the Place of the Sun, across the sea.
All of this narrows down to one conclusion — which nevertheless is not definitive — and that is: our old Tuesday God, Tiu, was a divine Ruler-God in primeval times and his name imprinted itself so deeply into human memory that it has survived thousands upon thousands of years. [emphasis added] (Von Hassler 1976)
What was the name the Cassiopaeans gave to the real man behind the Jesus myth? Tonatha. Amazingly similar to Tonatiuh. At the very moment that I encountered this little clue, I was contemplating the evidence as to whether or not alchemists were able to actually achieve the Great Work and immortality and how this might relate to Jesus. And so, the question that emerged from that study was whether or not the Cassiopaeans had given us a clue — in this alleged real name of Jesus — to an actual sect that had members who might be thousands of years old. Now that I had found this strange collection of the names of god, I began to wonder if, by giving us this name, the Cassiopaeans were telling us that such an immortal was the actual biological father of Jesus?
What this amounted to was an interesting thread relating to the “bloodline” of Jesus. Where will it ultimately lead? Who and what was this “Tonatha” who bears one of the oldest names of God?
Let me point out that this particular bit of information from the Cassiopaeans — this name, of which we were completely ignorant at the time — later connected to information that went back into the mists before recorded history. Yes, it is true that this was information that was known in some circles before we received it (or Von Hassler wouldn’t have been writing about it), but it was definitely unknown to us in any way.
Does this prove that the Cassiopaeans are actually who and what they say they are? No. But, if nothing else, it demonstrates a connection to some source, even if only the universal consciousness or “akashic records.”
Meanwhile, we were given some clues in another direction that ended up connecting to all of this in a bizarre way, so we have to pause and go in another direction for a moment. (I warned you this was going to be complicated!) I first heard about Oak Island when I was just a kid. My grandfather subscribed to several magazines, one of which (I think it was Argosy) published an article on the Oak Island mystery. I was completely fascinated by this account and it stayed in the back of my mind for many years.
After the Cassiopaeans came along, I was like a kid in a candy store. It was fun to go through my many books and just ask question after question about all the things that were mysterious in our world. In a sense, it was a sort of test just to see what they would say about these things, and I had no particular attachment to their remarks because, in many cases, there was no way to validate them. In terms of these mysteries, one theory was about as good as another. I was initially just curious to get a lot of material to analyze later, so I was jumping through things in a quick and haphazard way. I didn’t know what an editing headache I was creating for myself. Heck, I had no idea what an impact the Cassiopaeans were going to have on my life! We didn’t even record the first half dozen or so sessions because we didn’t think it was that important!
But, before we get to the Cassiopaean comments on the Oak Island Mystery, I believe it would be useful to briefly recapitulate what is presently known about it.
Oak Island is situated off the coast of Nova Scotia, and it is thought that the name of the island relates to the many oak trees that formerly dotted the small speck of land. There are a couple of residents who have built homes there, and in recent times, a causeway was built which effectively makes it no longer an island, but a peninsula.1
As is the case with other legends, there are a number of apocryphal versions of the discovery on Oak Island. One version of the story tells us that, in 1795, a few young lads rowed over to the island to explore as part of an adventure game or on a dare. They were attracted to the mystery of the island because it was claimed by the local Indians to be haunted, due to the fact that strange lights had reportedly been seen there.
Knowing how such stories get told and retold, it is likely that the island was considered to be haunted by the locals, and dangerously so. A Chester woman whose mother had been one of the earliest settlers reported that once when the fires and lights had been observed, a boatload of men who had gone to investigate had disappeared without a trace. This is quite similar to urban myths of today.
Whatever version of the story is told, the names of the three boys were Daniel McGinnis, John Smith, and Anthony Vaughn. As to what the boys “discovered,” again there are some variations. It was a large oak tree with either a large ship’s pulley hanging from an overhanging branch, or the “burn marks” on the branch that looked as though a heavy load had been suspended from a rope at that point. Details about the vegetation either being cleared away, or new growth in an area under and around the tree occur in different versions.
The boys apparently decided that they had discovered where pirates had buried treasure, so they went off to fetch digging tools to recover whatever must be buried there. They dug a circular shaft 13 feet in diameter and, according to the basic story found strange things — barriers — at various levels: at 4 feet, flagstones; at 10 feet, a platform of solid oak; at 20 feet another oak platform, and at 30 feet, still another oak platform.
Obviously, three boys weren’t going to dig that much. Apparently, after the initial discoveries that something mysterious was indeed indicated, they had sought help from some men of the community. But it was all in vain because the hole suddenly filled with water just at the point when they thought they were going to get to the treasure. Nine years went by. In 1804, Simeon Lynds formed a treasure hunting syndicate and digging resumed. At 40 feet, another layer of Oak covered with putty was found. Then there was a layer of charcoal. At 50 feet there was another oak platform sealed with coconut fiber. At 60, 70 and 80 feet, oak platforms; at 90 feet, a flat stone was reportedly found that measured 3 x 1 feet. The stone was said to not be native to the areas and had strange markings on it.
The story about the stone is rather confusing. It was said to have been installed at the back of a fireplace for a number of years. It was later “recovered” and exhibited to raise money for more digging. A professor of languages claimed to have cracked the code and translated the markings to say “10 feet below, 2 million pounds.” Someone else who saw the stone in the early years of this century remembered that when he saw it, there were no strange markings. It seems to have disappeared.
At 98 feet, water began to pour in, apparently channeled to the pit through a series of stone-lined, coconut fiber-filled conduits that act as wicks. In 1849, a new syndicate was formed that bored 5 holes. They found that at the 98-foot level, there was a spruce platform 5 inches thick. This was followed by a 12-inch space, then 4 inches of oak, and then 22 inches of drilling brought up bits of metal. Also retrieved were 3 metal links of a chain.
Following that event, which excited the drillers because it was claimed that the chain was gold and looked ancient (though I have never read an account by anyone who had actually seen it — it was always hearsay), the drillers kept going and encountered 8 inches of oak, another 22 inches of metal; 4 inches of oak; 6 inches of spruce; then 7 feet of clay and nothing else. At one point, it was reported that a James Pitblado found and pocketed something off the drill, but there is no firm idea as to whether this really happened, and if so, what the item was.
In 1859, another attempt was made. This was when the conduits were discovered that repeatedly filled the pit with water. The discovery of the flood tunnels convinced this horde of idiots that there was a fabulous treasure. They reasoned that it was inconceivable that anyone would go to that much trouble to conceal ordinary treasure! Of course, the more logical reason would be to think that it was never meant to be dug up and therefore, could not be treasure.
In 1865, still another attempt. This gang tunneled beside the original shaft, into it sideways, built a dam against the water, and so forth. Failure.
In 1894, a new gang dynamited the flood tunnel. They lowered a pipe into the pit and at 126 feet, they struck iron. They drilled past the obstruction and, at 151 feet, hit cement! Drilling further, after 2 more inches, they encountered 5 inches of oak and then “large metal objects,” then “loose metal,” and then more “large metal objects.”
Sounds to me like there was some kind of big machine buried down there and they were just tearing it apart with their drills. There were attempts in 1931, and in 1963, a hole 80 feet wide and 130 feet deep was dug. Nothing.
In the 1990s, a submarine TV camera revealed what looked like three chests and a severed hand. Divers were lowered to a depth of 235 feet, but found nothing. A good question to ask here is: what would a severed hand be doing down there? The bodies of the several people who have died during the 200 years of attempts to excavate this pit were all completely recovered. In any event, the lighting of the film was bad; there was nothing to provide scale. What was seen as a chest could have been a piece of wood a few inches square. The only thing this film did was more or less prove that there was a pit of some kind, but whether or not it existed prior to all the digging, it’s hard to say.
Now, what seems to me to be the obvious questions are: why would someone who buries a treasure leave such things as a marker stone, or a depression in the ground, marks on a tree, and other obvious signs of concealing said treasure? Doesn’t make a lot of sense, does it?
All the stories, legends, assumptions, beliefs and wishful thinking have been generated by treasure hunters who have an agenda: to get money to dig to get more money. Then, there are the folks who have linked this mystery to the Legends of the Holy Grail, the Ark of the Covenant, and so on. There are no artifacts in existence that have been validated reliably, and the site itself has been so obliterated by greed that no self-respecting archaeologist would even dream of attempting to sort out the mess.
With all the books and articles and supposed investigations, there is a dark shadow of greed and avarice hiding the facts of the matter. We can wishfully think all we want, but that doesn’t make a story true — as it is told, that is. And that is the crux of the matter. Where there is smoke, there is likely to be some fire, even if only a little. And, there are real questions about Oak Island that beg answers.
The first question is, naturally, was there ever a mystery to begin with? Since there exists no hard evidence of a pit on Oak Island before a newspaper article in 1862, can we rely on this first reportage as being even remotely accurate? One assumes, of course, that there was some sort of evidence to justify the article, and that it was checked.
If the initial discovery took place in 1795, that means 67 years had passed before the telling. As we review the story, we see that an awful lot of effort was claimed to have been exerted during that 67 years.
In considering the story about the boys who made the discovery, 67 years is not too long for there to be people with living memory of the events able to tell about it, so we can’t discard it on that account.
A major effort was claimed to have been undertaken in 1859, three years before the subject was publicized, and it seems that the 1865 and 1894 efforts would not have been attempted if there was not some evidence on the ground, so to say, that something was there.
Thus it seems, based on this last consideration, that there is a good probability that there is something to the story. So, let’s move on to the next questions.
If there was an original pit, as described, who dug it? Who had the capabilities to dig it? Was it a storage chamber? If so, what was stored in it? If it was not a storage chamber, what other explanations can there be for the apparent original disturbance of the landscape? How, at this late date, would it be possible to sort through all the lies and confusion?
How do we explain the burn marks or pulley on the tree and the cannon shot reportedly found during the original dig? Is this evidence of pirates and treasure? Or an ammo dump? But, if it was that, why go to such extreme measures to make the materials almost impossible to access in a rapid manner? That doesn’t make sense. And, if it was a practical joke perpetrated by some young boys, it is certainly one of the most elaborate and long-lived pranks in history!
We find ourselves in the presence of a very great mystery that has defied two hundred years of brawn and brain to solve. Now, with so great a host of words already spent on the subject, notwithstanding that the mystery has never been solved in any concrete and verifiable way, what more could I add to the matter without further muddying the waters? I can only add the Cassiopaean commentary, and many things that were learned as a result of these clues.
The first time we discussed the Oak Island mystery with the Cassiopaeans, it actually was a sort of afterthought question to a somewhat similar mystery. I had just read an account in an old Fate magazine that goes as follows: “Hidden deep within a Czech mountain is an ancient shaft and tower seemingly built by advanced technology but older than the bones of extinct beasts …”
The author, Antonin T. Horak, wrote down the cave exploration adventure of a member of the Czech resistance, which occurred in October of 1944, during WWII. Mr. Horak stated that the account was confirmed by friends of his in Czechoslovakia in 1965. The story was first printed in the March 1965 issue of National Speleological Society in an attempt to interest other speleologists in mounting an expedition. The captain of the Slovak Resistance who told the story for the speleology magazine was apparently hidden in this cave, along with a companion who was wounded, by a farmer near the villages of Plavince and Lubocna at 49.2 N 20.7 degrees E. The farmer’s name was Slavek.
Slavek moved rocks in the cranny and opened a low cleft, the entrance to this roomy grotto. Placing Martin (the wounded companion) in a niche, we were astonished to see Slavek become ceremonious: he crossed himself, each of us, the grotto, and with a deep bow, its back wall where a hole came to my attention. … Slavek begged me not to go further into his cave. … He told me that only once, with his father and grandfather, had he been in this cave; that it was a huge maze, full of pits which they never wanted to fathom, pockets of poisonous air and ‘certainly haunted.’
Well, needless to say, our captain was very curious and decided to investigate the cave that could make an illiterate farmer so superstitious.
I started my cave tour with rifle, lantern, torches, pick. After a not too devious nor dangerous walk and some squeezings, always taking the easiest and marking side passages, I came, after about one and one-half hours into a long level passage, and at its end a barrel sized hole. Crawling through and still kneeling, I froze in amazement. There stood something like a large, black silo, framed in white. … I thought that this is a bizarre natural wall or curtain of black salt, or ice, or lava. But I became perplexed, then awestruck, when I saw that it was a seemingly manmade structure which reaches into the rocks on all sides.
Beautifully, cylindrically curved, it indicated a huge body with a diameter of about 25 meters. Where this structure and the rocks meet, large stalagmites and stalactites formed that glittering white frame.
The wall is uniformly blue-blackish; its material seems to combine properties of steel, flint, and rubber. The pick made no marks and bounced off vigorously.
Even the thought of a tower-sized artifact embedded in rock in the middle of an obscure mountain, in a wild region where not even legend knows about ruins or mining industry, overgrown with age-old cave deposits, is bewildering. The fact is appalling.
Not immediately discernible, a crack in the wall appears from below about 20 to 25 cm wide, tapers off and disappears into the cave’s ceiling two to five cm wide. Its insides, right and left, are pitch black and have fist-sized, sharp valleys and crests. The crack’s bottom is a rather smooth trough of yellow sandstone and drops very steeply into the wall.
I threw a lighted torch through; it fell and extinguished with loud cracklings and hissings as if a white-hot ploughshare were dropped into a bucket. Driven to explore and believing myself thin enough to get through this upside down keyhole, I went in.
He got stuck and had to get himself unstuck, and so he gave up and went back to his companion. Returning on Oct. 24, 1944, (the notes are from a journal) the Captain tried to get through again. He took off all his clothes and covered himself with sheep fat and managed, after some difficulty, to get inside the tower. He found himself in a curved black shaft.
The Captain had come with plenty of lights — torches, lanterns etc. — and said that all the light together did not reach the ceiling. According to the journal, he leaves and comes back the next day, smears himself with sheep fat again, and goes back through the crack.
At this visit, the Captain started shooting his gun upward which nearly blew his eardrums out because of the acoustics, but he didn’t hear an impact. Then, he fired at the walls themselves, somewhat above, and noted blue-green sparks and dancing flames. He started digging in the floor and found fossilized animal teeth.
Returning again, on October 26, the Captain took a pole to make the lantern go higher, but still was not able to see the ceiling. At this point, his companion died, and he was free to rejoin his unit and that was the end of the story.
Needless to say, this tidbit about an artificial structure made out of unknown material, that was so old a mountain had “grown” around it really piqued my curiosity. Who or what in the world, could be responsible for such a thing? So, I asked:
Q: (L) In one of my Fate magazines over there I read a story about a fellow who discovered an enormous structure in a cave when he was hiding there during WWII. A shaft in the Tatra Mountains in Czechoslovakia. What was this thing this man found in this cave?
A: Magnesium wall made by Lizard beings. Constructed 309,448 years ago. It was part of a base. It was buried during cataclysms.
Well, that answered that! Couldn’t be verified, for sure, but, the word “buried” triggered a thought about my recent reading about Oak Island, so why not just settle this whole Oak Island thing at once? I didn’t have to believe what the Cs said about it, but since nobody else really had a good explanation, another one wouldn’t hurt. I didn’t know that I was getting ready to open a can of worms!
Q: (L) What is buried on Oak Island?
A: Regenerator.
Q: (L) What is a regenerator?
A: Remolecularizer.
Q: (L) Who put it there?
A: Lizard beings.
Q: (L) When did they put it there?
A: 10,000 years ago, approximately.
Q: (L) Do they use it from time to time?
A: No. [We didn’t ask if anyone else used it.]
Q: (L) Does it still work?
A: It could.
Q: (T) What is the purpose of a remolecularizer?
A: Regenerate matter.
Q: (L) Such as physical bodies?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, you just go and stand next to it or inside it or whatever and it regenerates you?
A: Any matter.
Q: (L) Well, that would be a really handy thing to have in the barn. Is there any way to get it out of there?
A: Maybe. Are you planning an expedition?
Q: (L) No, we’re just being nosy. How deep is it buried?
A: Deep.
Q: (T) Well, we can send it in to a treasure hunter’s magazine and give somebody an idea of how far they have to go. (L) Yeah, tell them what it is and they will go whole hog for it. (T) Yeah. It’s a regenerator. “What?” Well, it’s a remolecularizer. What’s wrong with you? Where have you been? You never wanted to be regenerated? You, too, can be a Time Lord! (L) Amaze your friends, confound your enemies, you can hypnotize any woman from a distance by the power of your … [Chorus] Regenerator! (T) Wow! Look at the size of his Regenerator! [Much laughter] Thank you.
A: Good Night.
As you can see, it was late and we were all getting a little silly. Little did we know that this was going to get serious!
A few months later, I was reading over the above text and decided I wanted to ask a bit more about it. The Cs had already talked about Transdimensional Atomic Remolecularization as the mode of time travel and the technology used for moving between densities and dimensions. They had mentioned that remolecularization was the mode of assembly of third density matter from fourth density and higher “thought” transduced via the effects of supernovae. So, I just assumed that TDARM was also what was buried at Oak Island:
Q: (L) When I was reading our little bit about Oak Island the other day, I noticed that we never followed up on certain things. Could we ask on that now?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) OK, you said at that time that a Transdimensional Atomic Remolecularizer was buried at Oak Island. Is that correct?
A: Yes. [So, my assumption was on target.]
Q: (L) Who buried it there?
A: Learn. [Note that they had previously answered that the Lizard Beings did, but now were suggesting that there was more to this issue than met the eye.]
Q: (L) Well, we are getting ready to learn because you are going to teach us, is that correct?
A: You already have tools.
Q: (L) What do you mean we already have tools?
A: We are trying to teach you to use your most precious commodity.
Q: (L) And that is, of course, our minds?
A: You betcha!
We were, for the first time, facing questions that we had to investigate on our own. As time has gone by, I have learned that this type of question — ones that we have to figure out — seem to be related to our “destined” mission. That may be only my own assumption and may have no basis in fact, but as the clues begin to fit together, the reader can make his or her own assessment.
I did some more reading on the subject of Oak Island in order to discover if there was any way that what the Cassiopaeans were saying could be true. The more I read from different sources, the more confused I got. There were lies, manipulations, corruption of information and artifacts, and evidence of incredible greed on all sides of this story. Seems that everybody who had anything to do with it was sure that there was a ton of money buried there and they would do about anything to be the one to dig it up. The result was a complete mess. I decided that I was never going to make any sense out of this Oak Island business.
Q: (L) OK. What I read about Oak Island was that there were legends of lights being seen there prior to 1703. [Remember that 1795 is when the boys rowed to the island and discovered the rope marks on the sawed off tree limb and the depression in the ground.]
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Prior to 1703 would put the burial of whatever is there at least prior to that time. Were those lights that were seen and reported by the local natives the lights of craft of other beings other than the humans of this planet?
A: Electromagnetic profile.
Q: (L) The thing that was noticed when the kids who discovered the pit first visited the Island in 1795, was that a limb was sawed off of a tree over the depression and there were marks of a rope as though pulleys had been utilized. (T) If someone more advanced than humans dug the pit, they wouldn’t have used chain hoists and pulleys. (L) That is what I am getting at. So, if there was evidence of this kind of stuff on the tree, it would seem to indicate that somebody had been doing something there who was a little more human or limited in their technology, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) At the same time, my thought is that, it is beyond human technology to have produced that pit at that point in history. That’s pretty evident from the diagrams of the structure.
A: Beyond known technology.
Q: (L) And yet humans may have been involved in digging something up from the evidence of the pulley activity.
A: Bingo. Some humans have always communed with “higher” powers. We are speaking of conscious communion in this and other instances.
Q: (L) OK, there was conscious communion between humans and other powers in the building of this pit. What group of humans was this?
A: It’s fun to learn.
Q: (J) How about pirates?
A: No.
Q: (L) Indians?
A: Keep going, network.
Q: (L) There were the French and the English. How about the Vikings? (F) No, the Vikings were 600 years before that. (T) Well, we don’t know how long ago the apparent pit was dug. (L) When was the pit dug that relates directly to the rope burns on the tree?
A: 1500s. Nationality is not issue.
Q: (T) Well, this remolecularizer was dug up sometime in the middle of the 1500s. Somebody was told to dig there by higher powers.
A: Access sect information.
Q: (L) So, it could have been a religious group.
A: Now, who claimed communion, Laura has in memory banks from absorption of mass reading practice.
I had to admit that I was drawing a blank. I just couldn’t think of any “sect” that was wandering around in North America in the 1500s that would have that kind of conscious communion with higher powers. Notice that the term “higher powers” was placed in quotes by the Cs, and they also said originally that the device was buried by “Lizard beings.” The same origin was given for the magnesium wall in Europe. My suggestion that humans may have been involved in digging something up from the pit was met with an affirmative answer, and it was this group that we were now discussing, not necessarily the group that buried the thing.
The question then is: are we looking for a group claiming communion that are wearing “white hats,” or “black hats?” Was the item buried by Lizard beings after being stolen? Or did it belong to them? It seemed to me that there was a clear distinction between those who buried something on Oak Island and those who were digging there in the 1500s. Or maybe not.
Q: (F) Was there a sect from that era that claimed communion?
A: Yes.
Q: [At this point I was really shooting in the dark.] (L) Maybe it had something to do with the people that later became known as the Cajuns, a French religious sect that was living there … Acadians is what they were … and they called the area Acadia … Was it the Cajuns? [Meaning, of course, the French settlers who later became the Cajuns.]
A: Maybe. [Now, we know that “maybe” is only a “you’re getting warm but still off the mark” hint.]
Q: (L) Now, this article says that it would have taken a hundred men working every day for six months to dig this pit …
A: No.
Q: (L) The article also says that it must have been dug in 1780 … [This article did not take into account the reports of strange lights on the island prior to 1703.]
A: No.
Q: (L) When they drilled into the pit, some bits of gold came up and a piece of parchment and maybe some other odds and ends. What were these?
A: Alchemy.
With this answer, the Cs gave us the most important clue to many great mysteries, though we didn’t know it at the time. Whatever had been hidden there had something to do with alchemy, and if that was the case, did it mean that it had been stolen and concealed by “Lizard beings” and their cohorts, or did it belong to them in the first place? My guess was that if it belonged to them, there would be no need for them to hide it so thoroughly. The only reason I could think of for such actions was that whatever it was, it was something that they could not use — or destroy — for some reason, but wanted to prevent anyone else from using.
Q: (L) If these people were involved in doing this, why did they do it?
A: Instructed to do it.
Q: (L) They were instructed by the higher powers they were in contact with, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What did they intend to do with it? Did someone intend to come back for it at some point in time?
A: No.
Now, the most obvious question of all was not asked: If it had been buried there by Lizzies 10,000 years ago, and these guys were instructed about it, dug it up, and then reburied it, what did they dig it up to do with it in the 1500s? Or, did they fail to dig it up at all?
Q: (T) Is it buried there in that location for a specific reason?
A: Sure.
Q: (T) Does the location itself have something to do with the purpose of it?
A: Magnetic.
Q: (T) Are there other ones buried on the planet?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Are they aligned to each other on the planet in some kind of geometric pattern?
A: Maybe.
Q: (T) Do they all work together?
A: Maybe.
Q: (J) Can you tell us where some of the other ones are?
A: Use mind. That is what it is there for.
Q: (T) We are using our minds. And, we are talking to you about this. We are friendly.
A: Shortcut city.
Q: (T) Yeah! That’s what it is all about. We are still third density! If we use …
A: It’s not nice to fool Mother Cassiopaea!
Q: [Laughter] (T) If we were to follow the coordinates where this thing is buried, would it lead us to others?
A: Try it and see.
Q: (L) OK. I want to get back to the function of this thing. You say it is buried not to be dug up. It is actually buried to stay there? Is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Then that explains a lot of things about the way it was buried. There was supposedly found, at a certain level, a rock with carving on it. It was destroyed through carelessness. I am curious as to what this said. Can you access this and tell us what it said?
A: Measure marker.
Q: (J) Could it be possible that this device was somehow related to the crystal pyramid of Atlantis?
A: In a small sense.
Q: (J) Did the pyramid have anything to do with powering this device?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this device continuously operational?
A: No.
Q: (L) What stimulates it to go into operation? That is, assuming it does.
A: Magnetic anomalies.
Q: (J) Is it affected by earthquakes?
A: Can be.
Q: (L) Are these magnetic anomalies ones that occur naturally on the planet?
A: Both.
Q: (L) So, they can occur naturally on the planet or they can be generated or stimulated by some other source?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) Is this device a doorway for entry into this dimension?
A: Can be used as such.
Q: (T) Is it a stand-alone machine or is it to be used in conjunction with others?
A: Either.
Q: (T) Are they positioned in such a way if something small happens only a couple of them kick in, but if something large happens, as many as necessary?
A: OK.
Q: (L) Who owns it? Who built it?
A: Answer for yourself, and enough, already, on this subject!!!!
Q: (J) I think I just heard a door slam!
Well, aside from the fact that I was asking a dumb question, considering that they had already told us that the Reptoids had built it and put it there originally, I guess you can see from our attempts to begin to learn to think — to really think — that it was a definite struggle. Working to get rid of assumptions and allow the creative thinking process to flow was a lot of work. But, not nearly as much work as I had ahead of me based on just a few clues.
In the end, the clues about “sect,” “Acadia” and “alchemy” and the time period of the 1500s that had been given were all I had to go on. So I hit the books again. I realized that just the normally available resources were not going to get me where I wanted to go, so I began to look for links to alchemy, and links to links. I made lists of names and dates and obscure references and began to follow them. There was a lot of material.
I obtained obscure alchemical texts full of strange coded messages and bizarre pictures that were supposed to reveal something to those who had the insight to understand. It apparently wasn’t me, and I struggled day after day to try to divine some meaning from these lunatic descriptions of experiments with sexual overtones, most of which proclaimed at the beginning that the truth was going to be given plainly!
Nowadays, our materialistic science derides alchemists as misguided mystics who followed a dream of discovering a substance that could transform base metals into gold. Yes, they admit that much scientific discovery was accomplished in these pursuits, but they toss out the objective of the alchemists as just a pipe dream.
Nevertheless, there are interesting stories there, some so deeply curious that the mind cannot grapple with the implications, and they are immediately discarded as too fantastic for serious consideration. I want to recount a few of them here so that the reader who is not familiar with the literature might be sufficiently intrigued to do research on his or her own.
But first, a short discussion of the Philosopher’s Stone. This is the goal of the alchemist; a fabled substance that can not only transmute metals into gold, but can heal any illness, banish all sickness from a person’s life, and confer an extended lifespan, if not immortality, on the body. At least, that is how it is described. That may or may not be a cover story. The stories of the Philosopher’s Stone may, in fact, describe the fourth density state of existence.
It was thought that, by a lengthy process of purification, one could extract from various minerals the natural principle that supposedly caused gold to “grow” in the earth. In an anonymous seventeenth century alchemical text, The Sophic Hydrolith, this process is described as “purging [the mineral] of all that is thick, nebulous, opaque and dark,” and what would be left would be a mercurial “water of the Sun,” which had a pleasant, penetrating odor, and was very volatile.
Part of this liquid is put aside, and the rest is then mixed with a twelfth of its weight of “the divinely endowed body of gold,” (ordinary gold won’t do because it is defiled by daily use). This mixture then forms a solid amalgam, which is heated for a week. It is then dissolved in some of the mercurial water in an egg-shaped phial. Then, the remaining mercurial water is added gradually, in seven portions; the phial is sealed, and kept at such a temperature as will hatch an egg.
After 40 days, the phial’s contents will be black; after seven more days, small grainy bodies like fish eyes are supposed to appear. Then the Philosopher’s Stone begins to make its appearance: first reddish in color; then white, green and yellow like a peacock’s tail; then dazzling white; and later a deep glowing red. Finally, “the revivified body is quickened, perfected and glorified” and appears in a beautiful purple.
This and many similarly obscure and crazy sounding texts are the bulk of alchemical literature. But, we have to remember one thing: these texts were written in code, the code of the Sybils. Remember, Mouravieff quoted St. Isaac the Syrian, saying that “esoteric teachings are given in a sibylline form”: “The Holy Scriptures say many things by using words in a different sense from their original meaning. Sometimes bodily attributes are applied to the soul, and conversely, attributes of the soul are applied to the body.” Manly Hall reproduces Dr. Sigismund Bacstrom’s commentary on the Emerald Table of Hermes:
By invigorating the Organs the Soul uses for communicating with exterior objects, the Soul must a acquire greater powers not only for conception but also for retention, and therefore if we wish to obtain still more knowledge, the organs and secret springs of physical life must be wonderfully strengthened and invigorated. The Soul must acquire new powers for conceiving and retaining … (Hall 2003, 515)
It seemed rather clear to me that these instructions had absolutely nothing to do with anything outside of the body, but what they did actually describe, I hadn’t a clue.
Nevertheless, I persisted in reading many texts of this kind and searching for clues there and in the stories of the alchemists themselves. It was in reading the anecdotes about so-called alchemists that I became convinced that there was, indeed, something very mysterious going on here. For example: In 1666, Johann Friedrich Schweitzer, physician to the Prince of Orange, writes of having been visited by a stranger who was “of a mean stature, a little long face, with a few small pock holes, and most black hair, not at all curled, a beardless chin, about three or four and forty years of age (as I guessed), and born in North Holland.”
Before I finish the story, it needs to be pointed out that Dr. Schweitzer, who was the author of several medical and botanical books, was a careful and objective observer and was a colleague of the philosopher, Baruch Spinoza. Schweitzer was a trained scientific observer, a reputable medical man, and not given to fraud or practical jokes. And yet, what I am about to describe is, in modern understanding, impossible. In fact, it was his accomplishments that “attracted” the strange man, or so the manuscript says:
After salutations ended, this new Guest, with great Reverence, asked, whether he might have freedom to come to me; because for the Pyrotechnick Art sake, he could not, nor was he willing to pass by the Door of my house; adding, that he had not only thought to have made use of some Friend to come to me, but had also read some of my little Treatises, especially that, which I published, against D. Digbies Sympathetick Powder, in which I discovered my doubt of the true Philosophick Mystery.
Therefore, this occasion being taken, he asked me, whether I could believe, that place was given to such a Mystery in the things of Nature, by the benefit of which a Physician might be able to cure all Diseases universally, unless the Sick already had a defect either of the Lungs, or Liver, or of any like noble Member?
To which I answered. Such a remedy is exceedingly necessary for a Physician, but no man knows what and how great are the Secrets yet hidden in Nature, nor did I ever in all my Life see such an Adept Man, although I have read and perused many things, touching the verity of this thing, or Art, in the Writings of Philosophers. I also enquired of him, whether he (speaking of the Universal Medicine) were not a Physician?
But he answered by denyal, professed, that he was no other than a Melter of Orichalcum, and that in the Flower of his years, he had known many things, from his Friend, rare to the Sight, and especially the way of Extracting Medicinal Arcanums by the force of Fire, and that for this very cause, he was a Lover of this so noble Science of Medicine.
Moreover, long after other discourses, touching Experiments in Metals, made by the violence of Fire, Elias the Artist spake to me thus: Do you not know the Highest Secret, when it is offered to your sight, viz. the Stone of Phylosophers, you having read in the Writings of many Chymists most excellent, touching the Substance, Colour, and strange effect of the same?
I answered, not at all; except what I have read in Paracelsus, Helmont, Basilius, Sandivogius, and like Books of Adept Phylosophers extant. Nevertheless, I think, I am not able to know the Phylosophick Matter, whether it be true, or not, although I should see it present before me.
Essentially, after something of an examination, Schweitzer was asked whether he would recognize the Philosopher’s Stone if he saw it. The stranger — Elias the Artist — then took out of his pocket a small ivory box that held “three ponderous pieces or small lumps … each about the bigness of a small walnut, transparent, of a pale brimstone colour.”
The stranger told Schweitzer that this was the very substance sought for so long by the Alchemists. Schweitzer held one of the pieces in his hand and asked the stranger if he could have just a small piece. The man refused, but Schweitzer managed to steal a small bit by scraping it with his fingernail. The visitor left after promising to return in three weeks time to show Dr. Schweitzer some “curious arts in the fire.”
As soon as he was gone, Dr. Schweitzer ran to his laboratory where he melted some lead in a crucible and added the tiny piece of stone. But, the metal did not turn into gold as he anticipated. Instead, “almost the whole mass of lead flew away, and the remainder turned into a mere glassy earth.”
Three weeks later, the mysterious stranger was at his door again. They conversed, and for a long time the man refused to allow Dr. Schweitzer see his stones again, but, at last “he gave me a crumb as big as a grape or turnip seed, saying, receive this small parcel of the greatest treasure of the world, which truly few kings or princes have ever known or seen.”
Schweitzer must have been a whiner because he recounts that he protested that this was not sufficient to transmute as much as four grains of lead into gold. At this, the stranger took the piece back, cut it in half, and flung one part in the fire, saying: “it is yet sufficient for thee!”
At this point, Schweitzer confessed his theft from the previous visit, and described how the substance had behaved with his molten lead. The stranger began to laugh and told him:
You could no more dexterously play the Thief, than apply the Tincture. I wonder, that you, so expert in the Fire, do no better understand the fuming Nature of Lead. For if you had wrapped your Theft in yellow Wax, that it might have been conserved from the Fume of Lead, then it would so have penetrated into the Lead, as to have transmuted the same into Gold.
The discussion continues, during the course of which the stranger tells Schweitzer:
The true writings of Philosophers are only understood by the truly Adept. Therefore, touching the Time, they would write nothing certain; yea, I say, no Lover of this Art, can find the Art of preparing this Mystery in his whole Life, without the Communication of some true Adept Man. In this respect, and for this Cause, I advise you, my Friend, because you have seen the true Matter of the true Work, not to forget your self, and thirsting after the perfection of this Art, to cast away your own Goods; for you can never find it out. … For unless you know the thing, from the beginning of the Work to the end, you know nothing thereof. Indeed I have told you enough, yet you are ignorant how the Stone of Philosophers is made, and again, how the Glassy Seal of Hermes is broaken, in which Sol gives forth Splendor from his Metallick Rayes, wonderfully coloured, and in which Speculum, the Eyes of Narcissus behold Metals transmutable, and from which Rayes the Adept gather their fire, by the help of which, Volatile Metals are fixed into most fixed Gold, or Silver.
The strange man leaves at this point in the story and promises to return the next morning to show Schweitzer the correct way to perform the transmutation but:
The next day he came not, nor ever since. Only he sent an excuse at half an hour past nine that morning, by reason of his great business, and promised to come at three in the afternoon, but never came, nor have I heard of him since; whereupon I began to doubt of the whole matter.
Nevertheless late that night my wife … came soliciting and vexing me to make experiment … saying to me, unless this be done, I shall have no rest nor sleep all this night … She being so earnest, I commanded a fire to be made — thinking, alas, now is this man (though so divine in discourse) found guilty of falsehood …
My wife wrapped the said matter in wax, and I cut half an ounce of six drams of old lead, and put into a crucible in the fire, which being melted, my wife put in the said Medicine made up in a small pill or button, which presently made such a hissing and bubbling in its perfect operation, that within a quarter of an hour all the mass of lead was transmuted into the … finest gold.
Baruch Spinoza, who lived nearby, came the next day to examine this gold and was convinced that Schweitzer was telling the truth. The Assay Master of the province, a Mr. Porelius, tested the metal and pronounced it genuine; and Mr. Buectel, the silversmith, subjected it to further test that confirmed that it was gold.
What occurs to me when I read this story is the fact that Schweitzer, in spite of his great learning, did not have the “right stuff,” and his attempt at purloining a bit of the “stone” was his downfall.
The philosophers taught that like attracts like and that when the disciple [or candidate] has developed a virtue and integrity acceptable to the adepts they will appear to him and reveal those parts of the secret processes which cannot be discovered without such help. … those who could not with their own intelligence discover that missing substance or process were not qualified to be entrusted with the secrets which could … subject to their will the elemental forces of Nature. (Hall 2003, 512, 513)
It seems rather clear that Schweitzer was being tested and that he failed the test. The testimony of these men survives to this day.2 Now, either all of them are lying, or Dr. Schweitzer really did have a strange experience exactly as he describes it.
The interesting thing is that other people have described similar visitations by strange men who proclaim to them the truth of the alchemical process, demonstrate it, and then mysteriously disappear. It has happened in widely enough separated places and times to suggest that it is not a collusive fraud or a delusion. Twenty years before Schweitzer’s meeting with the mysterious stranger, Jan Baptiste van Helmont, who was responsible for several important scientific discoveries, was the first man to realize that there were other gases than air, and who invented the term “gas,” wrote:
For truly I have divers times seen it [the Philosopher’s Stone], and handled it with my hands, but it was of colour such as is in Saffron in its powder, yet weighty, and shining like unto powdered glass.
There was once given unto me one fourth part of one grain [16 milligrams] … I projected [it] upon eighty ounces [227 grams] of quicksilver [mercury] made hot in a crucible; and straight-away all the quicksilver, with a certain degree of noise, stood still from flowing, and being congealed, settled like unto a yellow lump; but after pouring it out, the bellows blowing, there were found eight ounces and a little less than eleven grains of the purest gold.
Sir Isaac Newton studied alchemy until his death, remaining convinced that the possibility of transmutation existed.
The great philosophers and mathematicians, Descartes and Leibnitz, both were convinced that transmutation was a reality. Even Robert Boyle, who wrote a book entitled The Sceptical Chymist, was sure until the end of his life, that transmutation was possible. Why? These men were scientists, and the argument that their ideas or observations were less scientific than those of the present day simply does not stand up to scrutiny.
As noted, alchemists were rumored at various times to have gained immortality, and one of these was Nicolas Flamel. Flamel was a poor scribe, or scrivener and copyist. The story goes that, in 1357 he bought an old illuminated book …
The cover of it was of brass, well bound, all engraven with letters of strange figures … This I know that I could not read them nor were they either Latin of French letters … As to the matter that was written within, it was engraved (as I suppose) with an iron pencil or graver upon … bark leaves, and curiously coloured …
Reportedly, the first page was written in golden letters that said, “Abraham the Jew, Priest, Prince, Levite, Astrologer and Philosopher, to the Nation of the Jews dispersed by the Wrath of God in France, wisheth Health.” So, quite rightly Flamel referred to the manuscript as the Book of Abraham the Jew. The dedication was followed by curses upon anyone who was not either a priest or a Jew reading the book. But, Flamel was a scribe, which he must have imagined exempted him from these curses, so he read the book.
The purpose of the book was avowedly to give assistance to the dispersed Jews by teaching them to transmute lead into gold so that they could pay their taxes to the hated Roman government. The instructions were clear and easy, but only described the latter part of the process. The instructions for the beginning were said to be in the illustrations given on the fourth and fifth leaves of the book. Flamel remarked that, although these were well executed, “Yet by that could no man ever have been able to understand it without being well skilled in their Qabalah, which is a series of old traditions, and also to have been well studied in their books.”
As the story goes, Flamel tried for 21 years to find someone who could explain these pictures to him. Finally, his wife urged him to go to Spain and seek out a rabbi or other learned Jew who might assist him. So, he made the famous pilgrimage to the shrine of St. James at Compostela, carrying with him carefully made copies of the book. After his devotions at the shrine, he went to the city of Leon in northern Spain where he met a certain “Master Canches,” a Jewish physician. When this man saw the illustrations, he was “ravished with great astonishment and joy,” upon recognizing them as parts of a book that had long been believed to have been destroyed. He declared his intention to return with Flamel to France, but he died on the trip at Orleans. Flamel returned to Paris alone. But, apparently, the old Jew must have told him something for he wrote:
I had now the prima materia, the first principles, yet not their first preparation, which is a thing most difficult, above all things in the world … Finally, I found that which I desired, which I also knew by the strong scent and odour thereof. Having this, I easily accomplished the Mastery … The fist time that I made projection [transmutation] was upon Mercury, whereof I turned half a pound, or thereabouts, into pure silver, better than that of the Mine, as I myself assayed, and made others assay many times. This was upon a Monday, the 17th of January about noon, in my home, Perrenelle [his wife] only being present, in the year of the restoring of mankind 1382.
Several months later Flamel did his first transmutation into gold. Is this just a story? Well, what is true and can be verified is that Nicolas and Perenelle Flamel endowed “fourteen hospitals, three chapels and seven churches, in the city of Paris, all of which we had built from the ground, and enriched with great gifts and revenues, with many reparations in their churchyards. We also have done at Boulogne about as much as we have done at Paris, not to speak of the charitable acts which we both did to particular poor people, principally widows and orphans.”
After Flamel’s death in 1419 the rumors began. Hoping that they could find something hidden in one of his houses, people searched them again and again until one of them was completely destroyed.
There were stories that Nicolas and Perenelle were still alive. Supposedly, she had gone to Switzerland and he buried a log in her grave, and then another log was buried at his own funeral.
In the intervening centuries, the stories persist that Flamel and Perenelle defeated death. The seventeenth century traveler, Paul Lucas, while traveling in Asia Minor, met a Turkish philosopher who told him “true philosophers had had the secret of prolonging life for anything up to a thousand years …”
Lucas said, “At last I took the liberty of naming the celebrated Flamel, who, it was said, possessed the Philosopher’s Stone, yet was certainly dead. He smiled at my simplicity, and asked with an air of mirth: Do you really believe this? No, no, my friend, Flamel is still living; neither he nor his wife has yet tasted death. It is not above three years since I left both … in India; he is one of my best friends.” In 1761, Flamel and his wife were reported to have been seen attending the opera in Paris.
Well, there is an issue here regarding the supposed clue about “Abraham the Jew” which seems to point us in the direction of a Jewish fraternity of alchemists or keepers of secrets. I don’t want to go off on that thread here and now because it would add so much complexity to the issues that we might never find our way through the maze. But, to ease the mind of the reader, I will make a few remarks about this here. It’s curious that Eugene Canseliet, in his preface to the second edition of Fulcanelli’s Le Mystere des Cathedrales, apparently upon the instruction of the master alchemist, emphasized so dramatically the difference between kabbala and Cabala saying:
… this book has restored to light the phonetic cabala, whose principles and application had been completely lost. After this detailed and precise elucidation and after the brief treatment of it, which I gave in connection with the centaur, the man-horse of Plessis-Bourre, in Deux Logis Alchimiques, this mother tongue need never be confused with the Jewish Kabbala. Though never spoken, the phonetic cabala, this forceful idiom, is easily understood and it is … the instinct or voice of Nature. “By contrast, the Jewish Kabbala is full of transpositions, inversions, substitutions and calculations, as arbitrary as they are abstruse. This is why it is important to distinguish between the two words, cabala and kabballa in order to use them knowledgeably. Cabala derives from [Greek] or from the Latin caballus, a horse; kabbala is from the Hebrew Kabbalah, which means tradition. Finally, figurative meanings like coterie, underhand dealing or intrigue, developed in modern usage by analogy, should be ignored so as to reserve for the noun cabala the only significance which can be assured for it. (Fulcanelli 2000, 17)
Now, the curious bringing in of the terms “coterie,” and “underhand dealing” and “intrigue” in conjunction with what he has just remarked about Kabbalah meaning “tradition,” and Cabala being “horse,” is a most curious juxtaposition of words. It almost seems that Fulcanelli is telling us that the Kaballah, or the tradition, is a red herring. Fulcanelli himself makes a curious remark in The Dwellings of the Philosophers:
Alchemy is obscure, only because it is hidden. The philosophers who wanted to transmit the exposition of their doctrine and the fruit of their labors to posterity took great care not to divulge the art by presenting it under a common form, so that the layman could not misuse it. … That the philosophers had no other means at their disposal to steal from the ones what they wanted to expose to the others, but this confusion of metaphors, of diverse symbols, this prolixity of terms, of capricious formulas traced by the flow of the pen, expressed in clear language for the use of the greedy or the foolish … [emphasis added] (Fulcanelli, 1999)
The point of this short aside is this: don’t assume anything about Jews, Masons, or any other group when trying to solve the mystery. Nearly everything we come across will be obscured, and, when it is right out in plain view, it will be even more difficult to see.
Getting back to our purported alchemists, we come now to the year 1745 in which Prince Charles Edward Stuart, known as the “Young Pretender,” staged his Jacobite rebellion in an attempt to regain the British throne for his father the “Old Pretender.”
The Jacobite cause, for all intents and purposes, had been crushed at the battle of Culloden in April of that year, yet there was a constant fear by the British government that the Jacobites were still plotting with their French sympathizers, and being French in London was, at that time, a liability. This spy fever resulted in the arrest of many Frenchmen on trumped up charges, and most of them were later released, but it was a dangerous time for Gallic visitors.
In November of that year, one Frenchman was arrested and accused of having pro-Jacobite letters in his possession. He became very indignant and claimed that the correspondence had been planted on him. Considering the mood of the time, it is quite surprising that he was believed and released! Horace Walpole, English author and Member of Parliament, wrote a letter about this incident to Sir Horace Mann on December 9, 1745 saying:
The other day they seized an odd man who goes by the name of Count Saint-Germain. He has been here these two years, and will not tell who he is or whence, but professes that he does not go by his right name. He sings and plays on the violin wonderfully, is mad and not very sensible.
This is one of the few authentic, on-the-scene comments about one of the most mysterious characters of the 18th century.
Another acquaintance of the Count Saint-Germain, Count Warnstedt, described Saint-Germain as “The completest charlatan, fool, rattle-pate, windbag and swindler.” Yet, his last patron said that Saint-Germain was “perhaps one of the greatest sages who ever lived.” Clearly this was one of those people you either love or hate!
Saint-Germain first comes to our attention in the fashionable circles of Vienna in about 1740, where he made a stir by flaunting the fashion of the day by wearing black all the time. Everybody else was into bright colors, satins and laces, ornate patterns and designs; and along comes Saint-Germain with his somber black outfits set off by glittering diamonds on his fingers, shoe buckles, and snuff box. What an attention-getter! If you want to stand out in a roomful of robins, cardinals and blue jays, just be a blackbird. He also had the habit of carrying handfuls of loose diamonds in his pockets instead of cash!
So, there he is, garnering attention to himself in this bizarre way, and naturally he makes the acquaintance of the local leaders of fashion, Counts Zabor and Lobkowitz who introduce him to the French Marshal de Belle Isle.
Well, it seems that the Marshal was seriously under-the-weather, but his illness is not recorded so we can’t evaluate the claims that Saint-Germain cured him, but nevertheless, the Marshal was so grateful he took Saint-Germain to Paris with him and set him up with apartments and a laboratory.
The details of the Count’s life in Paris are pretty well known, and it is there that the rumors began. There is an account by a “Countess de B___” (a nom de plume, it seems, so we have to hold the information somewhat suspect), who wrote in her memoirs, Chroniques de l’oeil de boeuf, that, when she met the Count at a soiree given by the aged Countess von Georgy, whose late husband had been Ambassador to Venice in the 1670s, the old Countess remembered Saint-Germain from her days in Venice.
So, the old girl asked the Count if his father had been there at the time. He replied no, but he had. Well, the man that Countess von Georgy had known was at least 45 years old then, at least 50 years ago, which appeared to be the age of the man standing before her. The Count smiled and said, “I am very old.” “But then you must be nearly 100 years old,” the Countess exclaimed. “That is not impossible,” the Count replied. He then related some details that convinced the old lady that it was really him she knew in Venice.
The Countess exclaimed, “I am already convinced. You are a most extraordinary man, a devil!”
“For pity’s sake!” cried Saint-Germain in a loud voice heard all around the room. “No such names!” And he began to tremble all over and left the room immediately.3
A pretty dramatic introduction to society, don’t you think? But, was it real, or the ploy of a very clever con artist? Did he deliberately choose to adopt the name of someone long dead, about whom he may have already known a great deal, and then did he set out to deceive and con in a manner well known to us in the present time? Was he a snake oil salesman or a true man of mystery?
In any event, that was the beginning of the legend, and many more stories of a similar nature spread through society like wildfire. Saint-Germain apparently fed the fires with hints that he had known the Holy Family intimately and had been invited to the marriage feast at Cana where Jesus turned water into wine, and dropped casually the remark that he “had always known that Christ would meet a bad end.” According to him, he had been very fond of Anne, the mother of the Virgin Mary, and had even proposed her canonization at the Council of Nicaea in AD 325!
What a guy! A line for every occasion!
Pretty soon the Count had Louis XV and his mistress, Madame de Pompadour, eating out of his hand, and it certainly could be true that he was a French spy in England when he was arrested there, because he later did handle some sticky business for the credulous king of France.
In 1760, Louis sent Saint-Germain to the Hague as his personal representative to arrange a loan with Austria that was supposed to help finance the Seven Years’ war against England. But, while in Holland, the Count had a falling out with his friend Casanova, who was also a diplomat at The Hague. Casanova tried hard to discredit Saint-Germain in public, but without success. One has to wonder just what it was that Casanova discovered or came to think about Saint-Germain at this time?
In any event, Saint-Germain was making other enemies. One of these enemies was the Duc de Choiseul, King Louis’ Foreign Minister. The Duc discovered that Saint-Germain had been scoping out the possibilities of arranging a peace between England and France. Now, that doesn’t sound like a bad plan at all, but the Duc managed to convince the King that this was a dire betrayal, and the Count had to flee to England and then back to Holland.
In Holland, the Count lived under the name “Count Surmont,” and he worked to raise money to set up laboratories in which he made paint and dyes and engaged in his alchemical experiments. By all accounts, he was successful in some sense, because he disappeared from Holland with 100,000 guilders!
He next shows up in Belgium as the “Marquis de Monferrat.” He set up another laboratory with “other people’s money” before disappearing again. (Are we beginning to see a pattern here?)
For a number of years, Saint-Germain’s activities continued to be reported from various parts of Europe and, in 1768 he popped up in the court of Catherine the Great. Turkey had just declared war on Russia, and Saint-Germain promoted himself as a valuable diplomat because of his status as an insider in French politics. Pretty soon he was the adviser of Count Alexei Orlov, head of the Russian Imperial Forces. Orlov made him a high-ranking officer of the Russian Army and Saint-Germain acquired an English alias, “General Welldone.”
His successes in Russia could have enabled him to retire on his laurels, but he didn’t. In 1774 he appeared in Nuremberg seeking money from the Margrave of Brandenburg, Charles Alexander. His ostensible alias at this point (apparently he was no longer satisfied with being either a Count or a Marquis) was Prince Rakoczy of Transylvania!
Naturally, the Margrave of Brandenburg was impressed when Count Orlov visited Nuremburg on a state visit and embraced “the Prince” warmly. But later, when the Margrave did a little investigating, he discovered that the real Prince Rakoczy was indubitably dead and that this counterfeit Prince was, in fact, only Count Saint-Germain. Saint-Germain did not deny the charges, but apparently he felt that it was now time to move on.
The Duc de Choiseul, Saint-Germain’s old enemy, had claimed that the Count was in the employ of Frederick the Great. But, that was probably not true because, at this point, Saint-Germain wrote to Frederick begging for patronage. Frederick ignored him, which is peculiar if he had been in the employ of the Prussian king as de Choiseul thought. But, never to be discouraged as is the case with many conmen who can never quite figure out when to quit, Saint-Germain went to Leipzig and presented himself to Prince Frederick Augustus of Brunswick as a Freemason of the fourth grade.
Now, Frederick Augustus just happened to be the Grand Master of the Prussian Masonic Lodges, so this was really a stupid move on the part of Saint-Germain since it turned out that he was not a Mason. But, it is true of the pattern of all con men … their egos eventually prove to be their downfall. The Prince challenged Saint-Germain because he did not know the secret signals and sent him away as a fraud.
In 1779, Saint-Germain was an old man in his 60s who continued to claim to be vastly older. He must have learned to subdue his ego somewhat because, at Eckenforde in Schleswig, Germany, he was able to charm Prince Charles of Hesse-Cassel. At this point, part of his scam included being a mystic, for he is recorded as having told Prince Charles:
Be the torch of the world. If your light is that only of a planet, you will be as nothing in the sight of God. I reserve for you a splendour, of which the solar glory is a shadow. You shall guide the course of the stars, and those who rule Empires shall be guided by you.
Sounds rather like the buildup to another con job! Nothing like feeding the ego of the “mark” before slipping away with all his money. In this case, it didn’t work. Prince Charles made no mark on history and on February 27, 1784, Saint-Germain died at Prince Charles’ home on Eckenforde. He was buried locally and the Prince erected a stone that said: “He who called himself the Comte de Saint-Germain and Welldone of whom there is no other information, has been buried in this church.” Then, the Prince burned all of the Count’s papers, “lest they be misinterpreted.” Supposedly there is evidence that the Count did not die, and many occultists claim he is still alive for these past two centuries.
The mystery of Saint-Germain is mostly due to the uncertainty surrounding his origins. One source says that he was born in 1710 in San Germano, son of a tax collector. Eliphas Levi, the nineteenth century occultist, said that Saint-Germain was born in Lentmeritz in Bohemia, and was the bastard son of a nobleman who was also a Rosicrucian. The first theory is more likely to be correct.
It is known that he had a genuine gift for languages and could speak French, German, English, Dutch and Russian fluently. He also claimed that he was fluent in Chinese, Hindu and Persian, but there was no one about to test him on those.
We note that Horace Walpole said that he was a wonderful violinist and singer and painter, though none of his purported art has been known to have survived. Supposedly, he was able to paint jewels that glittered in a very lifelike way. There is also a great deal of anecdotal evidence that Saint-Germain was an expert jeweler — he claimed to have studied the art with the Shah of Persia. In any event, he is reported to have repaired a flawed diamond for Louis XV, who was very pleased with the result.
Saint-Germain also was said to have had an extensive knowledge of chemistry in all its branches at the time, and the many laboratories that he set up with borrowed money were all designed to produce brighter and better pigments and dyes and also for alchemical studies.
Then, there was his reputation as a healer. Not only did he allegedly cure the Marshal de Belle Isle, he also was supposed to have cured a friend of Madame de Pompadour of mushroom poisoning.
Saint-Germain never ate in company, which appears to have been part of his plan to focus attention on himself. He could sit at a table where everyone else was gorging on the most amazing array of delectable dishes, and eat and drink nothing. Casanova wrote:
Instead of eating, he talked from the beginning of the meal to the end, and I followed his example in one respect as I did not eat, but listened to him with the greatest attention. It may safely be said that as a conversationalist he was unequaled.
I can certainly think of a couple of individuals about whom I could say the same thing. In both cases, they most certainly were psychopaths, who have a reputation among experts for being well-versed in the gift of gab. Colin Wilson, author of The Occult, thought that Saint-Germain must have been a vegetarian.
So, in the end, the real mystery, aside from his origins — although the two may be connected — is, where did Saint-Germain get all his specialized knowledge? Of course, as we have noted here, not all who met Saint-Germain were impressed by his talents. Casanova was entertained by him, but nevertheless thought that he was a fraud and a charlatan. He wrote:
This extraordinary man, intended by nature to be the king of impostors and quacks, would say in an easy, assured manner that he was three hundred years old, that he knew the secret of the Universal Medicine, that he possessed a mastery over nature, that he could melt diamonds, professing himself capable of forming, out of 10 or 12 small diamonds, one of the finest water … All this, he said, was a mere trifle to him.
Notwithstanding his boastings, his barefaced lies, and his manifold eccentricities, I cannot say I found him offensive. In spite of my knowledge of what he was and in spite of my own feelings, I thought him an astonishing man …
I have to say that I thought the same thing about the two psychopaths I knew with similar talents.
Count Alvensleben, a Prussian Ambassador to the Court at Dresden, wrote in 1777:
He is a highly gifted man with a very alert mind, but completely without judgment, and he has only gained his singular reputation by the lowest and basest flattery of which a man is capable, as well as by his outstanding eloquence, especially if one lets oneself be carried away by the fervour and the enthusiasm with which he can express himself. Inordinate vanity is the mainspring driving his whole mechanism.
The ambassador’s remark that Germain was “without judgment” is interesting as this is the very symptom that emerges again and again in cases of psychopathy studied by Hervey Cleckley and written about in his book The Mask of Sanity.
It sounds like an easy thing to dismiss Saint Germain out of hand, but in the case of the Count, we have a little problem: just which of the stories are really about him?
The plot thickens!
It seems that Berthold Volz, in the 1920s, did some deep research on the subject and discovered, or so it is claimed, that the Duc de Choiseul, who was overwhelmingly jealous of the Count, hired a look-alike impostor to go about as the Count, exaggerating and playing the fool in order to place the Count in a bad light. Is this just another story, either wishful thinking or deliberately designed to perpetuate the legend? Are we getting familiar with this “bait and switch” routine yet?
Supposedly, Saint-Germain foretold the outbreak of the French Revolution to Marie Antoinette who purportedly wrote in her diary that she regretted that she did not heed his advice. I haven’t seen it, so can’t vouch for it. But, in my opinion, it wouldn’t be too hard a thing to predict, considering the political climate of the time.
It was said that Saint-Germain appeared in Wilhelmsbad in 1785, a year after he was supposed to have died, and he was accompanied by the magician Cagliostro, the hypnotist Anton Mesmer, and the “unknown philosopher,” Louis Claude de St. Martin.4 But it is hearsay and may be designed to create a link between the Martinists and Saint-Germain.
Saint-Germain was alleged to have gone to Sweden in 1789 to warn King Gustavus III of danger. Next he visited his friend, diarist Mademoiselle d’Adhemar, who said he still looked like he was only 46 years old. Apparently, he told her that she would see him five more times, and she claimed this was, in fact, the case. Supposedly the last visit was the night before the murder of the Duc de Berri in 1820.
Again, we find this to be unsupported by evidence.
Napoleon III ordered a commission to investigate the life and activities of Saint-Germain, but the findings were destroyed in a fire at the Hotel de Ville in Paris in 1871, which many people think is beyond coincidence. My thought would be that the only reason to destroy such a report would be if it had proved the Count to be a fraud. The result of this fire is that the legend is enabled to live on. Therefore, it is likely that the report would have made some difference in the legend, such as putting it to rest as a fraud. Had it been helpful to the legend, it would not have changed what is already the case, which is that people believe that Saint-Germain was something of a supernatural being. Thus, its destruction, if engineered, must only have been to protect the status quo.
One of the next threads of the legend was gathered into the hands of Helena Blavatsky who claimed that Saint-Germain was one of the “hidden masters” along with Christ, Buddha, Appollonius of Tyana, Christian Rosencreutz, Francis Bacon and others. A group of Theosophists traveled to Paris after WWII where they were told they would meet the Count; he never showed up.
In 1972, a Frenchman named Richard Chanfray was interviewed on French television. He claimed to be Saint-Germain and, supposedly, in front of television cameras, transmuted lead into gold on a camp stove!
Lest we forget, there is also the matter of the more recent “communications” of the count to the head of the Church Universal and Triumphant, Elizabeth Clare Prophet.
In the end, on the subject of Saint-Germain, we find lies and confusion. But, by now, we are getting used to it and are learning to think in different ways. If Saint-Germain was a fraud, we have to think somewhat carefully about those who claim him as their “connection” to things esoteric.
All of the confusion surrounding the subject prompted me to ask the Cassiopaeans a few questions:
Q: (L) What is the Philosophers Stone?
A: Idea center.
Q: (L) How can this idea center be accessed?
A: Many ways: meditation is the best.
Q: (L) Is there any visual image of the Philosopher’s Stone that one could use to access it in meditation?
A: Yes. Diamond or prism.
Q: (L) Was there or is there such a thing as a literal, physical, Philosopher’s Stone that can transmute lead into gold?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was anybody ever able to transmute lead into gold by any means?
A: Everybody is able.
Q: (L) How?
A: You must discover this yourself.
Q: (L) Is this knowledge written down somewhere on the planet?
A: Yes, but it will be easier in fourth level.
Q: (L) Comte St. Germain claimed to be able to transmute lead into gold.
Was this true?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) He also claimed to have discovered the secret of eternal youth, was this true?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did he die like everybody else at the regular age?
A: Yes.
During the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, alchemy lost favor with the rise of experimental science. The time was that of such stellar names as Lavoisier, Priestley and Davy. Dalton’s atomic theory and a host of discoveries in chemistry and physics made it clear to all “legitimate” scientists that alchemy was only a “mystical” and, at best, harmless pastime of no scientific value.
Organizations such as the Golden Dawn and Ordo Templi Orientis devised corrupted mixtures of snippets of alchemy and oriental philosophy, stirred in with the western European magical traditions, but these were clearly distorted imitations composed mostly of wishful thinking.
When one deeply studies the so-called adepts of these “systems,” one is confronted again and again with the archetype of the failed magician so that one can only shake one’s head and remember the warning of the great alchemists that for those who do not develop within themselves the “special state” that is required for the Great Work, only disaster can result.
There is no doubt in my mind that such groups dabble in alchemy of a sort, or “magick” of another, and there is no doubt that they may, in fact, conjure connections to sources of power on occasion. But, overall, a survey of what can be learned about them tends to point in the direction of much wishful thinking or even the possibility of domination by the forces of darkness in the guise of angels of light.
Nevertheless, in 1919, British physicist Ernest Rutherford announced that he had achieved a successful transmutation of one element into another: nitrogen to oxygen! Admittedly, his procedures and results in no way resembled the work of the alchemists; but, what he had done was refute the insistence of most scientists of the day that transmutation was impossible. In fact, it became known that radioactive elements gradually decay, giving off radiation and producing daughter elements which then decay even further. For instance one such chain starts with uranium and the end product is lead.
So, the question became, can the process be reversed? Or, if you start with another element, what might you end up with?
Franz Tausend was a 36 year-old chemical worker in Munich who had a theory about the structure of the elements that was a strange mixture of Pythagoreanism and modern chemistry. He published a pamphlet entitled “180 elements, their atomic weight, and their incorporation in a system of harmonic periods.” He thought that every atom had a frequency of vibration characteristic of that element, related to the weight of the atom’s nucleus and the grouping of the electrons around it. This part of his idea was shown to be basically correct by later research. However, Tausend further suggested that matter could be “orchestrated” by adding the right substance to the element, thereby changing its vibration frequency, in which case, it would become a different element.
As it happened, at about the same time, Adolf Hitler was sent to prison for attempting to organize an armed uprising. One of Hitler’s cohorts was General Erich Ludendorff, but Ludendorff was acquitted of the charges and ran for president of Germany the following year. He was defeated by Hindenburg, so he turned his mind to raising money for the nascent Nazi party. He heard rumors that a certain Tausend had transmuted base metals into gold, and he formed a group, including numerous industrialists, to investigate this process. Tausend gave instructions that they should purchase iron oxide and quartz, which were melted together in a crucible.
A German merchant and member of this group, named Stremmel, took the crucible to his hotel bedroom for the night so that it could not be tampered with. The next morning, Tausend heated the crucible in his electric furnace in the presence of his patrons, and then added a small quantity of white powder to the molten mass. It was allowed to cool, and then, when it was broken open, a gold nugget weighing seven grams was inside.
Ludendorff, to say the least, was ecstatic. He set about forming a company called Company 164. Investment money poured in and within a year the general had diverted some 400,000 marks into Nazi Party funds. Then, in December, 1926, he resigned, leaving Tausend to handle all the debts.
Tausend managed to continue raising money and on June 16, 1928, supposedly made 25 ounces of gold in a single operation. This enabled him to issue a series of share certificates worth 22 pounds each (10 kilograms of gold).
A year later, when no more gold had been produced, Tausend was arrested for fraud, tried, found guilty, and sentenced to four years in prison. Nevertheless, while waiting for trial, he was able to perform a transmutation under strict supervision, in the Munich Mint. This was submitted to the court as evidence that no fraud had taken place, but it was contested and did not save him from prison.
In the same year that Tausend was convicted, a Polish engineer named Dunikovski announced in Paris that he had discovered a new kind of radiation, which would transmute quartz into gold. The mineral, spread on copper plates, was melted by an electric discharge at 110,000 volts, and was then irradiated with these new “z-rays.”
Investors poured two million francs into Dunikovski’s project, but, within a few months, when no gold appeared, he was also tried and found guilty of fraud. After two years in prison, Dunikovski’s lawyer obtained an early release, and he went with his family to Italy where he again began to experiment. Rumors soon started that he was supporting himself by the occasional sale of lumps of gold. His lawyer, accompanied by the eminent chemist, Albert Bonn, went to see him. What was discovered was that the quartz being used by Dunikovski (and presumably by Tausend as well) already contained minute quantities of gold. The gold could be extracted by a usual process, producing about 10 parts per million, but Dunikovski’s technique produced almost 100 times as much. Nevertheless, he was only dealing with small quantities of gold because his equipment could only handle small quantities of quartz.
Dunikovski claimed that his process accelerated the natural growth of “embryonic” gold within the quartz. He gave a demonstration before an invited group of scientists, which attracted considerable attention. An Anglo-French syndicate formed to bring sand from Africa and treat it in a big new laboratory on the south coast of England, but WWII started at about this time and Dunikovski disappeared. It was rumored that he was co-opted by the Germans and manufactured gold for them to bolster their failing economy — but there is no proof.
Since WWII, there have been and still are, many practitioners of alchemy. Much of this activity has been centered in France, including Eugene Canseliet who was a pupil of the mysterious Fulcanelli mentioned above.
In studying alchemy and the history of alchemy and all related books I could find, I came finally to Fulcanelli and the mention of him in the book Morning of the Magicians by Pauwels and Bergier. Bergier claimed that in June of 1937 — eight years before the first atom-bomb test in New Mexico — he was approached by an impressive but mysterious stranger. The man asked Bergier to pass on a message to the noted physicist Andre Helbronner, for whom Bergier was then working. The man said that he felt it was his duty to warn orthodox scientists of the danger of nuclear energy. He said that the alchemists of bygone times — and previous civilizations — had obtained such secret knowledge and it had destroyed them. The mysterious stranger said that he really had no hope that his warning would be heeded, but felt that he ought to give it anyway. Jacques Bergier remained convinced until the day he died that the stranger was Fulcanelli.
As the story goes, the American Office for Strategic Services, the forerunner of the CIA, made an intensive search for Fulcanelli at the end of the war. He was never found.
The argument against this strange event ever having happened is that plutonium was specifically named by the mystery man, yet it was not isolated until February of 1941, and was not named until March of 1942. This was five years after Bergier’s encounter. Nevertheless, Bergier stood by his story.
The fact is, if we are talking about Master Alchemists who have achieved the Great Work, the history seems to indicate that they have time travel capabilities to some extent. So, the matter of knowing the name of the element would not have been too great a difficulty.
Nevertheless,Patrick Rivière, a student of Canseliet, says that the whole story was made up by Bergier who later identified the mysterious stranger with Rene Schwaller, who recent investigators have claimed was the “real Fulcanelli.” Reading the works of Canseliet, Fulcanelli, and Schwaller, strongly suggests that Schwaller was not Fulcanelli, nor was Canseliet the author of Fulcanelli’s books.
So, let’s look at Fulcanelli in more depth. In the early 1920s, in Paris, Eugene Canseliet was known as an alchemical enthusiast. He made many references to the fact that he worked with an actual Master of the Art. His friend and companion, a poverty stricken illustrator named Jean-Julien Champagne, who was a score of years older than Canseliet, supported these claims. The two of them lived in a run-down building, in adjacent apartments, at 59 bis, rue de Rochechouart, in the Butte-Montmartre district.
Because of their hints that they had contact with such a Hidden Master, they soon became the center of a circle of aspiring occultists. It has been claimed that both Canseliet and Champagne were frequently seen in the city libraries, the Bibliotheque Nationale, the Mazarin, the Arsenal and the Sainte Genevieve, studying rare books and manuscripts. Obviously, they were looking for something.
The story heard by those on the edges of their elite little group were to the effect that this Hidden Master Fulcanelli was old, distinguished — possibly an aristocrat — and very rich. He was also said to be an immensely learned, practicing alchemist who had either already, or almost, achieved the Great Work.
Nobody except Canseliet and Champagne apparently ever met Master Fulcanelli, and, because of this, a great deal of skepticism arose in the occult circles of Paris. That skepticism was laid to rest with the publication of Le Mystere des Cathedrales in 1926, which I have mentioned previously.
The first edition consisted of only 300 copies, and was published by Jean Schemit, of 45 rue Lafitte, in the Opera district. It was subtitled “An esoteric interpretation of the hermetic symbols of the Great Work,” and its preface was written by Eugene Canseliet, then aged only 26. The book had 36 illustrations, two of them in color, by the artist, Champagne.
The subject of the book was a purported interpretation of the symbolism of various Gothic cathedrals and other buildings in Europe as being encoded instructions of alchemical secrets. This idea, that the secrets were contained in the stone structures, carvings, and so forth, of the medieval buildings had been hinted at by other writers on esoteric art and architecture, but no one had ever explicated the subject so clearly and in such detail before. In any event, Fulcanelli’s book caused a sensation among the Parisian occultists.
In the preface, written by Canseliet, there is the hint that Master Fulcanelli had attained the Stone — that is, had become mystically transfigured and illuminated, and had disappeared:
He disappeared when the fatal hour struck, when the Sign was accomplished … Fulcanelli is no more. But we have at least this consolation that his thought remains, warm and vital, enshrined forever in these pages.
The extraordinary scholarship and unique qualities of the personality of the writer of Le Mystere drove the occultists of Paris to endless speculation about who Fulcanelli really was. About these speculations regarding Fulcanelli’s possible identity, Kenneth Rayner Johnson writes:
There were suggestions that he was a surviving member of the former French royal family, the Valois. Although they were supposed to have died out in 1589 upon the demise of Henri III, it was known that members of the family had dabbled in magic and mysticism and that Marguerite de France, daughter of Henri II and wife of Henri IV of Navarre, survived until 1615. What is more, one of her many lovers was the esoterically inclined Francis Bacon (whom many still claim as an adept to this day); she was divorced in 1599 and her personal crest bore the magical pentagram, each of whose five points carried one letter of the Latin word salus — meaning ‘health.’ Could the reputedly aristocratic Fulcanelli be a descendant of the Valois, and did the Latin motto hint that some important alchemical secret of longevity had been passed on to him by the family?
Actually, there is no proof that Marguerite de France and Francis Bacon were lovers. There is even the possibility that Marguerite, Queen of Navarre, wife of Henri, King of Navarre (who became King Henri IV of France), and daughter of Henri II and Catherine de Medici, has been confused with her great Aunt, Marguerite, wife of Henri d’Albret, King of Navarre (who was never King of France), and who was also Queen of Navarre, but was the daughter of Charles of Orleans, and sister of Francois I, King of France. In short, Marguerite, who lived during the time of Francis Bacon, was the great niece of Marguerite who lived during the time of Nostradamus and Rabelais.
Some claimed Fulcanelli was a bookseller-occultist, Pierre Dujols, who with his wife ran a shop in the rue de Rennes in the Luxembourg district of Paris. But Dujols was already known to have been only a speculative alchemist, writing under the nom de plume of Magophon. Why should he hide behind two aliases?
Another suggestion was that Fulcanelli was the writer J. H. Rosny the elder. Yet his life was too well- known to the public for this theory to find acceptance.
There were also at least three practical alchemists working in the city around the same period. They operated under the respective pseudonyms of Auriger, Faugerons and Dr. Jaubert. The argument against them being Fulcanelli was much the same as that against Dujols-Magophon: why use more than one alias?
Finally, there were Eugene Canseliet and Jean-Julien Champagne, both of whom were directly connected with Fulcanelli’s book, and both of whom had claimed to have known the Master personally. (Johnson 1992)
There was one major objection to Canseliet being Fulcanelli: he was too young to possibly have gained the knowledge apparent in the book. And, yes, a study of his preface as compared with the text of the book demonstrated distinctly different styles. So, Canseliet was excluded.
Champagne is the next likely suspect because he was older and more experienced, and it was a certainty that his work as an artist had taken him around France so that he would have had opportunity to view all the monuments described in such detail. The only problem with this theory was that Champagne was a “noted braggart, practical joker, punster and drunkard, who frequently liked to pass himself off as Fulcanelli — although his behaviour was entirely out of keeping with the traditional solemn oath of the adept to remain anonymous and let his written work speak for itself.” And, in addition to that, Champagne was an alcoholic whose imbibing of absinthe and Pernod eventually killed him. He died in 1932 of gangrene at the age of 55. His toes actually fell off. Doesn’t sound much like a Master Alchemist. (On the other hand, some of the descriptions of the transmutation of the alchemist make you wonder if the toes falling off isn’t part of the process!)
Joking aside, there are many more details and curiosities involved in the sorting out of who or what Fulcanelli may have really been. The bottom line is: more than one person has attested to Fulcanelli’s existence, his success in transmutation and to his continued existence into the present time — which would make him over 140 years old. Some theorists think he may be older than that!5
The Morning of the Magicians, by Louis Pauwels and Jacques Bergier, was published in 1963, and it was only then that English-speaking occultists and students of alchemy became aware of Fulcanelli.6 At that point in time, it was to be another eight years before Le Mystere Des Cathedrales would be translated into English. But, each of these books awoke a whole new audience of seekers to the possibility of present day miracles as well as the very real likelihood of a millennia old secret held in trust by persons unknown.
In the English edition of Mystery of the Cathedrals, Eugene Canseliet said that the Master had given him a minute quantity of the alchemical “powder of projection” in 1922 — and permitted him to transmute four ounces of lead into gold. Vincent Lang, who wrote the introduction to the book, received a letter from Canseliet, which said, in part:
“The Master was already a very old man but he carried his eighty years lightly. Thirty years later, I was to see him again … and he appeared to be a man of fifty. That is to say, he appeared to be a man no older than I was myself.”
Canseliet has since said that he has met with Fulcanelli several times since and that Fulcanelli is still living. (Johnson 1992)
The only person who claimed to have seen Fulcanelli since was Canseliet, his pupil. He said that he met the Master in Spain in 1954 under highly unusual circumstances. The late Gerard Heym, founder member of the Society for the Study of Alchemy and Early Chemistry and editor of Ambix, its journal, acclaimed as Europe’s foremost occult scholar of his day, made friends with Canseliet’s daughter and through her, had a look at Canseliet’s passport. It did in fact carry a Spanish entry-visa stamp for 1954. So, at least on this one item we have a fact. A friend of Canseliet, who wished to remain anonymous, said that this meeting was “in another dimension … a point where such meetings are possible.”
The story was that Canseliet “received a summons,” of some sort; perhaps telepathic, and traveled to Seville where he was met and taken by a long, roundabout route, to a large mountainChâteau which proved to be an enclave of alchemists — a colony! He said that Fulcanelli appeared to have undergone a curious form of transformation so that he had characteristics of both male and female — he was androgynous. At one point, Canseliet said, Fulcanelli actually had the complete characteristics of a woman. Some alchemical literature does point to this androgyny. The adept going through the transformation supposedly loses all hair, teeth and nails and grows new ones. The skin becomes younger, smoother and the face takes on asexual characteristics. This reminded me of what the Cassiopaeans had once said about transitioning to fourth density:
Q: (L) Now if, theoretically, an individual was to develop in a natural way by making all the proper choices, and was to arrive at the point in time when the major transition is to be made, would that individual’s body pass through into that heightened dimension in a physical state?
A: Of course.
Q: (L) Now suppose this theoretical person were to pass through this transition to the other side, what state would they find their body in? Would it be exactly as it is now in terms of solidity? What would be the experience?
A: The key concept here is variability of physicality.
Q: (L) Does this mean that everybody will be different or that an individual will have greater control over the substance and constitution of the body?
A: Not exactly either. Your physicality will be variable according to need and circumstance.
Q: (L) OK, does this mean that sometimes we will be more of a light body?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Does this mean that sometimes we will be more of a firm body as we have now?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Will our bodies age differently?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What will be the median lifespan?
A: 400 years
Q: (L) And will those who pass through this transition as, say, 50-year-olds, will they have an equal opportunity to live an additional 400 years?
A: Will regenerate in youthful appearance.
So, this is a fascinating idea that the alchemical transmutation is an interaction with another density. And, there was another comment made about this regarding the seeming androgyny:
A: Picture driving down a highway, suddenly you notice auras surrounding everything … Being able to see around corners, going inside little cottages which become mansions, when viewed from inside … Going inside a building in Albuquerque and going out the back door into Las Vegas, going to sleep as a female, and waking up male … Flying in a plane for half an hour and landing at the same place 5 weeks later … Fourth density frees one from the illusion of “time” as you will to perceive it. … Picture driving to reach New Mexico by car and “skipping” over and arriving in San Diego instead, or … driving to the grocery store in Santa Fe, and winding up in Moscow, instead.
It would certainly not be a stretch, in such a reality, to transmute lead into gold. The key seems to be accessing the fourth density reality, and that requires the transmutation of the alchemist.
But, returning to our discussion: After Canseliet’s visit to the enclave of the alchemists, Gerard Heym said that he only had vague recollections of his experiences in Spain, as though some form of hypnosis had been used on him to make him forget the details of what he had seen and been told. (Why are we not surprised?)
The point of this recitation is that there have been many well-attested stories of strange things about alchemy reported by reliable and reputable witnesses, and the stories continue in a sort of subculture down to this very day. There is something going on, and it has been going on for a very long time. So, the trail of Fulcanelli, which was getting very interesting, ended in Seville.
At about this point, I watched the David Hudson video about Monoatomic Gold. I was pretty excited by David Hudson’s purported discovery, though there were some elements of the story that didn’t quite fit. Nevertheless, after gathering all this data, I thought I was ready to ask the Cassiopaeans for the next set of clues:
Q: (L) OK, back when we were talking about the pit on Oak Island, and you asked me to do some research on it, the answers I came up with were that the responsible group were alchemists. Is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was one of the alchemists involved Nicholas Flamel?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is it true that there is an enclave of alchemists that live somewhere in the Pyrenees?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do these alchemists use this power as talked about by David Hudson to enhance their longevity and their physical health?
A: And to control.
Q: (L) Are there people in this enclave who live for literally hundreds, if not thousands, of years?
A: Open.
In retrospect, I understand that the Cassiopaeans were very gently indicating the opening of a certain path, a course of study and learning that was to have enormous implications. Most curious of all, the connections of “Arcadia,” “sect,” and “alchemy” would become the central motif of the Greatest Mystery of all — the search for the Holy Grail.
And it all began on Oak Island …
1 See bibliography for books and articles on Oak Island.
2 See John Frederick Helvetius, The Golden Calf, Which the World Adores, and Desires, London, 1670.
3 These accounts are compiled in Isabel Cooper-Oakley’s The Comte de St. Germain (1912), and Frank Smyth’s The Man from Nowhere: Searching for St. Germain (1992).
4 According to the Martinist Order: St Martin was born in 1743 and was trained for the legal profession but he bought himself a commission in the French Army and was stationed in Bordeaux. It was in Bordeaux he encountered Scottish Rite Freemasonry, was Initiated but eventually he became disappointed with their system and he subsequently resigned and broke all contacts with it. Shortly afterwards he became fully involved with a mystic stream or Tradition that had included such names as Court de Gebelin, Benjamin Franklin the American statesman and the English Nobleman, Sir Francis Dashwood. He travelled widely and following an invitation from the Golitzin family in Russia he went there and was Initiated into the Lineage that now runs through the British Martinist Order.
5Patrick Rivière’s book Fulcanelli: His True Identity Revealed, published by Red Pill Press, offers what I think to be the definitive investigation into Fulcanelli’s identity.
6 It has been noted by the student of Fulcanelli’s only disciple Eugene Canseliet, Patrick Riviere, that Bergier — just before he died — claimed that Schwaller and Fulcanelli were one and the same individual. Andre VandenBroeck’s AL-KEMI, A MEMOIR: Hermetic, Occult, Political and Private Aspects of R.A. Schwaller de Lubicz (1987 Inner Traditions/Lindisfarn Press) claims a clandestine collaboration between Fulcanelli and Rene Schwaller. Supposedly, Schwaller confided to VandenBroeck that Fulcanelli stole from him an original manuscript on the alchemical symbolism of the Gothic Cathedrals and published it under his own name as Mystery of the Cathedrals. VandenBroeck’s allegation seems to be supported only by VandenBroeck himself, and simply does not fit the facts or the timeline. In her work Fulcanelli Dévoilé (1992 Dervy)Geneviève Dubois suggests that Schwaller believed Jean-Julien Champagne to be Fulcanelli and that it was Champagne who took the manuscript. Champagne was quite a practical joker and was happy to let others think he was Fulcanelli.
I think that the reader is beginning to get the idea that following clues that the Cassiopaeans give is a lot of work. It is, and we are only getting warmed up here. I think you will also agree that we are having a little fun after all the grim facing of reality we have done in the other volumes of the Wave series. Once we have acknowledged that we may be in a prison, we can look on the journey out as a true adventure. And it is. Not only that, it is a lot of fun!
At this point in my research, I was still pursuing the alchemical line of thinking, certain that I had found significant clues to the Secret Masters of the world — at least in human terms. It was a puzzling pursuit. I had read reams of material on conspiracies, supposed revelations of “who was on first,” and over and over again, when I followed the trail, I found lies and confusion, shell games and obfuscation.
Yet, circumstantial evidence pointed to the existence of a secret fraternity unknown in its entirety to the human race. Other so-called secret groups such as the Rosicrucians, Illuminati, Freemasons, Templars, and so forth, seemed to be merely red herrings created and destroyed by the true Secret Masters in their masterful manipulations of humanity and seekers after truth. I came across many allusions to the idea that, from time to time, they replenish their membership from some of these groups, but that the groups themselves were not “in on the secrets,” and any one of them was as likely to be used in the next gambit of bait and switch as another.
I came to the realization that, if they existed, these Secret Masters possessed incredible knowledge and unsurpassed cunning. I realized, at one point, that the trails I was following had been followed by the greatest minds of the human race for millennia with no evidence of the truth being revealed by any of them at any given point. Who was I to think that I could accomplish what had never been done before?
Yes, over and over again this or that person claimed to have discovered the “greatest secret,” to have found the evidence that there was some group that had long-term plans to take over the world, but in the end, the evidence would not hold up to scrutiny, or would slip away like mercury. The trail would come up against a locked door. I finally understood that this was the nature of the beast. It was deliberate. These Secret Masters manipulate our lives and experiences like puppet masters. I understood something else: they also leave clues here and there to lead potential members through a complex maze for purposes of possible recruitment. And many of these clues are so convincing, so synchronous, so cunningly set up that it is easy to come to the wrong conclusions — to believe that you have arrived at the Holy City, when, in fact, you have only come across a road sign pointing the wrong way. Apparently, they only admit the most clever and sincere seekers of truth who prove themselves through years of work and dedication. In the present time when conditions seem to be conducive to breaks in the veil, there seem to be even greater efforts being put forth to further conceal and obfuscate the matter. The wild claims and rumors being propagated by agents of disinformation serve only to further conceal the truth. We are in a veritable maelstrom of a shell game!
According to some sources, the number of members of the Secret Fraternity is fixed and in order for one to pass on, another must be put in his place. Because of the frequent lack of qualified candidates, some of the members must extend their life spans for many hundreds of years. This may sound pleasant to those who are addicted to life in the flesh, but to those who possess Great Knowledge, this seems to be actually a burden.
Another curious fact was, over and over again I came across what I called the Scottish Question. Every time I hit a brick wall in my research, it seemed that the only scant thread left lying, broken and untraceable, suggested something to do with Scotland.
But, to continue with the story, as a result of attending a showing of the David Hudson video, I was introduced to a woman who later attended two sessions where several of the threads we were following all came together.
However, on the twelfth of September, before the guest just mentioned scheduled to visit us, we had a private session for the purpose of asking a few questions about the David Hudson/monoatomic gold issue.
For those of you who aren’t aware of what this is, a man named David Hudson “discovered” a substance that seemed to be exactly what many alchemical texts were talking about in terms of the “White Powder of Gold” that was not only the agent of transmutation for metals, but also for the human body. His claim was that taking this powder acted on the DNA in such a way as to effect a rapid and amazing healing and perfecting of the human body so that one was “spiritualized” to such an extent that superpowers were not only possible, but probable. At one point in his talk, he said that some people who had taken this powder over a period of time had described having “whole body orgasms” that just went on and on.
The gist of the reason for the video lecture was to raise money. That sort of bothered me, but it was awhile before I figured out exactly why. I wrote down some questions about the David Hudson work in my notes as follows:
1. Why, after spending purportedly 5.5 million dollars to isolate and attempt to patent Monoatomic Gold, has David Hudson’s obsession for knowledge suddenly stopped short of self-experimentation? (I know, he says his wife won’t let him, but that begs the question with something like what he claims to have discovered, especially if he is as convinced of what it is as he claims to be and is trying to “sell the public” on it.)
2. If David Hudson possesses the “Philosopher’s Stone” why is he asking for money? The literature tells us that one part in one hundred thousand will transmute base metals into gold. Doesn’t it work?
3. If The Secret Masters have existed these many thousands of years with the knowledge and use of this substance, and if they have kept it a continual secret, assassinating, if necessary, entire groups of people to protect the secret, why is it suddenly being allowed out now?
These were the issues in my mind on September 12, 1995, when we settled down to ask a couple questions about David Hudson:
Q: (L) OK, this David Hudson tape, about what he calls the Philosopher’s Stone, what is this substance that David Hudson has discovered? We watched the video about it; I’m sure you guys watched it with us, so, what is this stuff?
A: Watch developments there only from a distance.
Q: (L) Is taking this substance as he is talking about, is it dangerous, as I kind of think it is?
A: Possibly.
Q: (L) So, in other words, I should not get involved in that, either?
A: Up to you.
Q: (L) I know it’s up to me, but you said to watch it from a distance, so I’m assuming that is a clue …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) OK, my feeling is that there is some negative energy manipulating David Hudson, even though he may be a positive and giving person who is trying to do positive things, and that …
A: This is often true!
Q: (L) I think that taking something like that to transform your consciousness without doing the work or having it occur naturally is very much like black magic. That’s what I think. (F) It’s too easy … I read over the years bits and pieces from various different sources that all the things he described in there are possible for those who are willing to sacrifice; to exert what to us would appear to be an extreme degree of ethereal and spiritual energy … (L) I am not even sure that it is a question of sacrifice, though it may be; but it also includes desire for knowledge and the natural destiny of the soul and … (F) Well, did Jesus take this gold powder?
A: No.
Q: (L) Did Adolph Hitler take this kind of powder, or something similar?
A: Yes.
Q: (F) That paints a rather bleak picture, doesn’t it? (L) Could this powder be utilized to transform a person in a very positive way, enabling them to do great good?
A: Or could it be utilized to transform an entire race of beings into hypnotic submission!!!!!!!!!!!
Q: (F) Wow! (L) Put it in the water. (F) Or even just advertise it as the “Manna from Heaven!” I mean, remember who runs this world, and has for 309 thousand years, are they just going to sit back and say, “Oh, yeah, we’ll just let this gold powder get spread round everywhere, and get totally defeated,” just like that? I don’t think so! (L) Oh, that’s a scary thought! Well, I guess, unless you have … Do you have something you would like to tell us or communicate to us at the present time?
A: Reflect upon messages received and good-bye.
The last comment seemed, on the surface, to merely be a remark relating to the answers about monoatomic gold. And if it hadn’t been for the dream I had that night, I would never have thought anything further about this more-or-less volunteered remark.
In this dream, I was a bride and was wearing a wonderful dress with flowers in my hair and there was a limousine waiting outside to take me to my wedding. I didn’t know who the groom was, but there were a lot of people around me encouraging me to get in the car and go to meet the bridegroom. For some reason, I was filled with happiness and the joy of those around me was contagious, so, overcoming my hesitations, I went to the car, got in and was taken to the place of the wedding. I was aware that the day was a Saturday, and it seemed to be the fourteenth because something was said about Friday the thirteenth.
It turned out to be a big restaurant with a wonderful feast prepared and waiting. It was all decorated with flowers and streamers everywhere and many, many people were gathered in a happy and joyful crowd who cheered me as I got out of the car.
The bridegroom came forward to take my hand and we walked through the crowds of people to stand in front of a priest-like person who married us. I was overcome with happiness even though I could not see the groom’s face.
As soon as we were married, the music began to play, and he took me out onto the middle of the floor where everyone had cleared a space, and we began to dance. It was like flying and we whirled and spun and it was happiness such as I had never experienced in my entire life and I awoke bathed in a sensation of ecstatic joy.
Now, I have all kinds of dreams, some of them are just mundane sorting of the subconscious. This kind doesn’t leave much of an impression on me in any way, and the feel and flavor of them is pretty bland and unemotional. Some of my dreams are mundane prophetic dreams where I will dream about events that actually happen, though they are insignificant. These are a little stronger in terms of feel and flavor, but it is easy to tell from the lack of emotional content that they are not terribly important. Then, there are the dreams that warn me of actual danger wherein there is an actual drama that is unreal in terms of the actual actions and reality in which I live, but which are dynamically accurate because the actual “dangerous persons” are in the roles of the villains just to get the point across. These dreams are generally very strong in flavor and emotional content. But, only rarely have I ever had a happy dream that was so overwhelming that it shook me to the core.
This dream of the wedding had the most powerful emotional content of any dream I ever had, yet the dynamics of it were, in real terms, incomprehensible. I was already married and had five children, so I really couldn’t think of it as anything but a powerful symbolic prophecy that I would somehow find the truth or something like that. I decided that I was being given a foretaste of my success in the quest for knowledge and understanding of the human condition. There are all kinds of ways you can interpret the symbols of a marriage, being a bride, dancing and attending a party.
But, in any event, I wanted to ask about it and did at the next session which was also attended by this young woman (RC) I had met via the David Hudson thread:
Q: (L) I dreamed the other night that I got married, and there was a big party, dancing, the limousine and so on … flowers, happiness. In my dream, I heard a voice saying that the wedding would be on a Saturday the fourteenth, following Friday the thirteenth, could you tell me anything about this dream?
A: No.
Well, that was pretty final! The Cassiopaeans were simply not going to tell me anything about it and that was that. I was not yet fully conditioned to the fact that, in cases of the most important issues of my life, they will tell me nothing at all and their declining to answer was indeed most significant as the later events of my life proved.
In retrospect, I can see that this meeting and the presence of this individual was a trigger for a variety of things. She was Jewish and almost immediately began talking to me about her past life in Nazi Germany, how she had been experimented on by Dr. Mengele and had died as a result (or so she claimed). I shared with her my own belief and dreams about having committed suicide in Germany after my husband and children were taken and killed by the Nazis. My guest became very excited and was convinced that she had been one of my children. It was true that there was a strong rapport between us, but I wasn’t sure that her interpretation was the correct one. However, she wanted to ask:
Q: (RC) What is my relationship to Frank and Laura from any past life connections? Did we know each other in Germany?
A: Maybe. Discover.
Q: (L) Now, I was looking at the astrological charts, just to see what kind of matches there were and it was a lot. (RC) According to astrology, that shows a past life connection.
A: Who were you?
Q: (L) You mean me?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I was just a German woman … (RC) I was wondering about Egypt?
A: But we are still in Germany! [It was clear from this, though only in retrospect, that the Cassiopaeans had an agenda in following this line. They were not answering RC, they were talking to me.]
Q: (L) All I know was that I committed suicide, my name was Helga, I think …
A: Who was your husband?
Q: (L) I don’t know. He was Jewish. Is that what you are getting at?
A: OK. Who were your children?
Q: (RC) They asked who were the children. Was I one of your children?
A: Discover. When we say discover, we mean for you to use your given talents to learn, not to have us lead you by the hand every step of the way. If we were to do that, we would cheat you out of an opportunity to gain knowledge, and more importantly, understanding. Thus, we would be abridging free will!
Clearly there was something about my past life in Germany and my husband in that time that I was supposed to discover. Not only that, it struck me as strange for them to be directing me to think about this in this way immediately after my question about the dream of getting married which they had refused to answer in explicit terms. They were not answering my question, but they were trying to get something across without violating free will. Then, they said this:
A: We are receiving strong wave pattern surrounding subject we chose to cover, thus we interrupted inquiries! Moshe in Israel.
Q: (RC) Who is Moshe in Israel?
A: Moshe is IN Israel.
But we could get no more. They would not tell us who Moshe was or what the connection was. But, I did get to toss in a last couple of questions:
Q: (L) Is it true that there is an enclave of alchemists that live somewhere in the Pyrenees …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this the group that you referred to as The Quorum in a previous session?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Do these alchemists use this power as talked about by David Hudson to enhance their longevity and their physical health?
A: And to control.
Q: (L) Are there people in this enclave who live for literally hundreds, if not thousands, of years?
A: Open.
The Quorum had been mentioned by the Cassiopaeans almost exactly a year earlier. It happened this way:
Q: (L) I would like to know what is the origin of the Freemasons?
A: Osirians.
Q: (L) Can you tell us when the original Freemasons formed as a society?
A: 5633 BC.
Q: (L) Is Freemasonry as it is practiced today the same?
A: 33rd degree, yes.
Q: (L) So, there is a continuing tradition for over seven thousand years?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this organization with a plan to take over and rule the world?
A: Not exactly.
Q: (L) What is their focus?
A: Overseers of the status of Quorum.
Q: (L) What is the Quorum?
A: Deeper knowledge organization. Totally secret to your kind as of yet. Very important with regard to your future.
Q: (L) In what way?
A: Changes.
Q: (L) Can you get more specific? Is that changes to us personally?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Earth changes?
A: Also.
Q: (L) What is the relationship between this quorum and the Cassiopaeans?
A: They communicate with us regularly.
Q: (L) Do they do this knowing you are Cassiopaeans or …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Has there been an ongoing relationship between the Cassiopaeans and this quorum for these thousands of years?
A: For some time as you measure it.
Q: (L) Is the Quorum composed of members who are humans on this planet?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Would we know any of them as well-known figures?
A: Hidden. None you would know.
Q: (L) How do the Masons relate to the Illuminati?
A: Masons are low-level branch.
Well, this was pretty disturbing, to say the least. Here the Cassiopaeans were telling me that they were in contact with this Quorum which, as far as I could tell, were the Secret Masters of the world, and there seemed to be a lot of evidence, circumstantial though it might be, that this group did not have humanity’s best interests at heart. At least, that was the propaganda. So, I brought it up again, determined to get to the bottom of this mystery:
Q: (L) On a number of occasions we talked about the Quorum and the Illuminati. They both seem to be the highest levels of secret organizations. What is their relationship to each other?
A: Quorum mostly alien; Illuminati mostly human. Meet: two halves of whole.
Q: (L) Well the Quorum was described as being in touch with the Cassiopaeans, that is yourselves, which you have described as beneficial beings, or Service-to-Others-oriented beings, is this correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) The Illuminati has been described as being behind or with the Brotherhood of the Serpent which you have described as being connected with the Lizard beings …
A: Close. But not that simple.
Q: (L) Well, if the Quorum are supposed to be the good guys and the Illuminati are supposed to be the bad guys, and they both are at the high levels of Freemasonry, what is the story here? I do not understand!
A: Picture a circle or cycle first now, then contemplate for a moment before follow up.
Q: (L) OK, I am contemplating a cycling circle.
A: Now, two halves representing positive and negative. Two halves.
Q: (L) Well, what I am getting out of that is there are two halves and both sides are playing with the human race. Is that it?
A: No. This is complicated but if you can learn and understand, it will be a super revelation.
Q: (L) Well, go ahead and explain.
A: Ask step by step.
Q: (L) Why do we so often have to ask things step by step?
A: In order to absorb the information.
Q: (L) The Quorum is described as the good guys. The Illuminati are described as bad guys. And yet, they are both drawn from higher Masonic ranks, or so it seems. When a person in the Masonic organization reaches the higher levels, are there individuals from these two groups that are essentially recruiting Masons to one side or the other?
A: First, not exactly one side or another.
Q: (L) I am beginning to not understand something here …
A: Unblock.
Q: (L) I don’t have a block here. If the Brotherhood AKA Illuminati AKA Lizzies AKA Beast AKA Antichrist are the ones who are screwing around with human beings, planning to take over this planet, how are they related or connected to the Quorum, which is in touch with …
A: This will take time to explain; be patient, it will be worth it. Ask step by step.
Q: (L) OK. What is the nature of evil?
A: Blend.
Q: (L) I don’t understand. Are the Lizzies what we would consider to be evil or STS?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are the Cassiopaeans what we would consider to be good or STO?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Yet, do the Cassiopaeans use and manipulate the Lizzies to accomplish certain things?
A: No.
Q: (L) The Lizzies work independently and in opposition to the Cassiopaeans?
A: Independently, not in opposition. We serve others, therefore there is no opposition. Careful now. Step by step. If you do not fully understand answer, ask another.
Q: (L) Part of a whole. Part of a circle.
A: Blend. Picture a blending colored circle image.
Q: (L) Are you saying that at some levels the two halves overlap in some way?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Are you saying that some of the Quorum are good guys and bad guys and the same for the Illuminati because the two are on opposing sides of the circle but at the point of blending one is weighted more to one side and the other to the other side? And these organizations are where the interactions come together?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) Well, I don’t get it. Let’s leave it for the time being.
A: No. Now, please.
Q: (L) OK. So it is a blending. Does it have something to do with … in your case, Service-to-Others means that you even serve those who serve self, is that correct?
A: Yes; we serve you, and the Lizards have programmed your race to self-service, remember.
Q: (L) So, I am still a Service-to-Self individual, is that correct?
A: But moving slowly toward Service-to-Others. Not all humans are.
Q: (L) Does this mean that when beings who are members of the Quorum or Illuminati call for information or help, that you, because of your Service-to-Others orientation, are obliged to answer whoever calls?
A: Yes and no.
Q: (L) What is the “no” part?
A: If vibrational frequencies are out of pattern, we do not connect.
Q: (L) Is the activity of the Lizzies part of an overall grand plan or design?
A: All is.
Q: (L) Let’s go on.
A: Must answer question. You will feel ecstasy once answered.
Q: (L) OK. A blending. Yet two halves.
A: Of a circle.
Q: (L) Who designed this circle?
A: Natural frequency wave. Some near conjunction blend both service patterns and each “camp” to create perfect balance.
Q: (L) OK, so the Illuminati are the higher level on the pathway of Service-to-Self and somehow, by reaching these higher levels, may even come to the realizations or frequencies which have caused their position to be modified or blended to where Service-to-Self becomes or incorporates or moves them to Service-to-Others realizations, is this correct?
A: Continue.
Q: (L) OK, the beings in the Quorum are those who are focused on Service-to-Others and they, in their pathway of Service-to-Others begin to understand that some Service-to-Others includes refusing to give to those who are Service-to-Self?
A: Close.
Q: (L) And the whole idea is to blend both pathways no matter which direction you come to it from?
A: Service-to-Others provides the perfect balance of those two realities; Service-to-Self is the diametrical opposite closing the grand cycle in perfect balance.
Q: (L) So it is necessary to have a pathway of Service-to-Self in order for the pathway of Service-to-Others to exist?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And those who are in the Quorum and the Illuminati …
A: Blends in middle.
Q: (L) So it is necessary to have the darkness in order to have the light…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And both the Quorum and Illuminati are drawn from the higher-level Masonic organizations …
A: Freemasonry is human reflection in physical of these processes.
We begin to see that everything is not quite as simple as we might have thought. You can’t just say that the good guys wear white hats and the bad guys wear black T-shirts. There is no easy answer.
But, we knew this all along. We know it from our own natures, and from the fact that every family has black sheep and white sheep and everything in between. We can’t get on our soapbox and declare that the Masons or Illuminati are implementing a plan to control the world and take away free will. On the other hand, there may certainly be elements in both organizations and others with such plans. And, of course, the practical implication of this is the fact that the followers of the Service-to-Self pathway use their free will to violate the free will of others through lies and deceptions. And, of course, the cleverest of these lies is to blame everything that they do themselves on someone or something else while they, themselves, continue to conceal their presence and true nature.
In recent times, this shell game has become quite interesting, to say the least. So, just who is on first here? Gary Allen writes in his book None Dare Call it Conspiracy:
It must be remembered that the first job of any conspiracy, whether it be in politics, crime or within a business office, is to convince everyone else that no conspiracy exists. The conspirators’ success will be determined largely by their ability to do this. (Allen 1972)
How, precisely, is this done? Well, the chief way is through control of the media. Through the media, the most effective weapon is ridicule, satire and character assassination. These extremely potent weapons are used to redirect attention away from the issues. Even a person who doesn’t care what other people think of him will find little cachet in the minds of reasonable persons with the stigma of absurdity attached to them.
In the present time, it seems that more people are becoming aware, so the ante has been upped a bit. It is no longer so easy to just ridicule those who suggest conspiracies because conspiracy theories are just “silly.” Now it is necessary to add another ingredient to the mix. In this program, special agents are sent out to plant disinformation that expands and accelerates the conspiracy theories by overdrawing them to the point of absurdity. Gary Allen writes:
Some conspiratorialists do indeed overdraw the picture by expanding the conspiracy (from the small clique which it is) to include every knee jerk liberal activist and government bureaucrat. Or, because of racial or religious bigotry, they will take small fragments of legitimate evidence and expand them into a conclusion that will support their particular prejudice, i.e., the conspiracy is totally “Jewish,” “Catholic,” or “Masonic.” These people do not help to expose the conspiracy, but sadly play into the hands of those who want the public to believe that all conspiratorialists are screwballs. (Allen 1972)
Let me go in this direction for just a little bit longer to illustrate my point. Around the time of writing, a member of our Cassiopaea E-group discussion list, apparently a fan of David Icke, wrote:
I am noticing a serious problem here. The British Royals who are shape shifting/child sacrificing reptilians are never mentioned here. The Diana case is completely covered up. That story of “suicide” is complete crap. The Royals are alleged (I should say 100% guilty) to have ordered and been involved in the ritual Masonic sacrifice of Diana/Dodi (and allegedly the child). The Egypt Air crash has been labeled; “a gust of wind” “these things just happen.” No they do not when they have massive 33 and 19.5 symbolism, totally beyond coincidence. These are 2 major examples of Masonic ritual sacrifices that have been blatantly covered up by the Cassiopaeans or someone involved in the info distribution process. Is there a Mason/Templar among us? I have seen every other site infiltrated. Once again this is just theory. But there is reason for concern. Not to mention the biggest event occurring above your home worldwide right now; chemtrail spraying. Just a military exercise? Give me a break, this is a totally massive worldwide spray that is intended to keep down the vibrational rate of the population and kill some in the process. Remember; disinformation is sandwiched between layers of factual info. Something stinks here, and the Cs or somebody need to do some explaining.
Well, as usual, I went to the recommended sites that were presented as sources of proof. On the subject of the death of Princess Diana, I found a list of questions as follows:
In Death of a Princess, Thomas Sancton and Scott MacLeod investigate the questions everyone has been asking since Diana, Princess of Wales, and Dodi Al Fayed were killed in a Paris car crash in the small hours of August 31, 1997.
How was a drunken, drugged, nonlicensed driver allowed at the wheel of the Mercedes?
Why was the driver, off-duty Ritz Hotel assistant security director Henri Paul, called back to the hotel that night and assigned a job that was not his?
Didn’t senior officials of the Al Fayed-owned Ritz know that Paul was a chronic alcoholic and that he was drinking in the hotel that very night?
What was the role of the paparazzi that had stalked the couple all day long and pursued them in that final high-speed chase?
Why was Dodi so spooked by the photographers, to the point of changing normal security procedures and exposing himself and the princess to unwarranted risks?
What do skid marks, paint, and glass fragments tell us about the involvement of a second car?
Who was the driver of the second car, why didn’t he stop, how did he escape, and how did the police organize a nationwide manhunt aimed at tracking him down?
And so on. These are all good questions similar to “why was JFK’s parade route changed at the last minute?” And “why was he allowed to dispense with his bullet proof bubble?” And “why did the authorities not pursue the gunshots from the grassy knoll?” And on and on, ad infinitum.
If any of you have read Jim Garrison’s book On the Trail of the Assassins,1 or if you have watched Oliver Stone’s movie of the same name (and have sufficient synapses on your neurons), you will be convinced to an extreme degree of probability that there was a conspiracy to murder JFK. Not only that, you will be in agreement with a large segment of the world’s population that the Warren Report was a sham and somebody got away with murder. And it may even make you sick to think about it, but it won’t matter.
During the period of time that St. Petersburg Times journalist, Tom French, was interviewing me for his article, he attended a number of sessions. At one of them, the subject of the Stone movie and Garrison’s book came up during a discussion that I have on tape. Mr. French, an investigative reporter, opined that Oliver Stone did a terrible disservice to the American people by making his movie which was so “misleading” and was based on so much “erroneous speculation.” Needless to say, we were rather astounded by this remark and asked him what he believed. He fell back on the Warren Commission report as being the definitive conclusion!
Now, remember, this is a really nice and sincere guy who believes he is doing his job well. I have absolutely no doubts about that. But he still believes that the Warren Commission gave us the correct answer: that Lee Harvey Oswald assassinated JFK “all by his lonesome.” I wonder if he is still of the same opinion after Gerald Ford admitted to doctoring the report? Probably so. Some people have an infinite capacity for shoving the truth under the rug, and when they are journalists, we have no hope for unbiased journalism. How many more of them are exactly like that? Innocent and brainwashed. It’s “Mom, apple pie and all that!”
But, getting back to Jim Garrison’s book: the careful reader will note that Garrison reports some incidents that are described as “sheep dipping”2 of undercover agents that simply do not make sense. In order for some of the events he uncovered to happen, whoever was managing things would have had to have time travel capabilities. That is to say, for certain scenarios to have played as they were reported, well in advance of JFK being elected president, someone would have had to know years in advance that 1) Kennedy was going to run for office; 2) that he would be elected; 3) and that he would need to be assassinated. Who could know these things that far in advance?
Jim Garrison did not seem to note this problem though he did express extreme bafflement at the results of his investigation. The very fact that he was reporting what he found, what the many witnesses attested to, and which was in some cases impossible, indicates that he was not trying to promote a hyperdimensional Control System. Yet, in the end, that is the only rational explanation for the reported sequence if the facts, as presented, were accurately portrayed.
In fact, some of the items collected by Garrison actually pointed away from his suspects, yet he reported them nonetheless, so we have no logical reason to assume that he was grinding a personal ax in the writing of his book.
We find the same issues present in the above list of questions about the death of Princess Diana. For the scenario that developed to have been part of a conspiracy, it would have to have been a hyperdimensional Control System with space/time management capabilities. In such a case, whether or not Masons, Jews, Templars or anybody were implicated would be somewhat moot, because if they were, it was very likely completely unconscious and it serves no purpose to fling such accusations around other than further obfuscation of the real source of the conspiracy.
Regarding the death of Diana and Dodi, I wrote to the list member as follows:
What is decided at “higher levels” can manifest in many ways at this level. The bottom line is: nobody dies unless they have reached a “check-out” point in their “life blueprint.” Whether they agree at some level to participate in an event that leads them down a path to being murdered or otherwise …
… Now, all of you know (or should by now) that I have researched the “alien phenomenon” and have received much info about it from the Cs over the years. And, you know, if you have read the website, that it does not seem to be a very pretty picture. You also may know that I have followed many “paper trails” that relate to secret societies and conspiracies and have read many different views of these matters in an attempt to “sort out” the subject. In the end, when you delve deeply into these things, you find endless lies and confusion — layer after layer of them.
It is at this point that you have to begin to think.
What could possibly be the reason for this? And you finally realize that the very effect you have observed is the desired objective — Lies and Confusion. And that is where the rubber hits the road and you understand that if you take as truth the wrong view, you are no better than anyone who believes the most blatant and obvious lie, even if the lie you believe is far more subtle and cunningly devious. It still boils down to the fact that you have been deceived and made a fool of — if not food!
So, I understood that great caution needed to be employed in studying these matters. I also understood that the greatest minds of all time have been applied to these problems for millennia — with no real result of “waking up mankind.” So, what is the deal here? Why is it so that suddenly, at this particular point in time, different people think that they have “plumbed” the mystery — have found the “Greatest Secret” and can now expose it for the world to view and believe as true?
Well, when you consider the great machine behind these lies, the apparent (though not proven) hyperdimensional nature of the reality from which ours is manifested, you come to realize that it is not going to be that easy!
When I read David Icke’s book The Robot’s Rebellion, the main fault I found in his searches for the evidence of a global conspiracy was his reliance on what other people have said before, as well as what he was being “fed,” with very little checking of the sources or using of cerebral abilities to really think about what he was saying. I was very put off with his beginning that referred to that old hackneyed idea of the “Luciferian Rebellion” and the “out of synch” energy of evil and all that — because I had already been through that belief system and found its errors and the root of those errors. Still, I felt that this was a pretty good compilation, even if I would have liked a little less hysteria and a lot more documentation.
As it has been noted before, asking for proof of some of these things is like asking for mercury to stay between your fingers. Just isn’t going to happen. So, at best, we have “tracks” and circumstantial evidence that piles so high that it would certainly convict in a court of law, but yet the mainstream community wants the “smoking gun” or the “UFO Cadillac” on the White House Lawn. Not gonna happen.
So, when I ask for “sources,” you must understand that I mean the sources of the idea, the key to the chain of evidence that has been followed, even if that evidence is merely circumstantial. At the same time, I do realize that there are some “hard facts,” that taken together with other “hard facts,” can be connected as “circumstantial evidence” chains — and we really need to look for these things.
But, getting back to David Icke. Yes, I realized that he had followed a similar path that I did when I was researching conspiracies back in the 80’s for the writing of the Noah Syndrome. There was very little new in that book for me. But, he made rather short shrift of the “alien question.” That troubled me. He wasn’t “getting it” at the deepest level, in my opinion.
Let me explain my reasoning for this. When one deeply studies “conspiracy” theory, one comes face to face with a consortium of “Hidden Masters” who are evident in their tracks, but can never be “seen,” so to speak. We find Masons, Illuminati, Templars, Priory of Sion, Rosicrucians, Elders of Zion, and a host of other minor and major players. They come and go on the stage of history like actors playing many different parts. As soon as one “loses its force” another comes into power and holds sway for a time and then becomes “known” and obvious and is replaced.
The next thing is the “time” factor. When we consider conspiracies that have been in place for many thousands of years (and, yes, there is a pile of circumstantial evidence for this) we have to consider what I call the “pay-off” factor. We can study the lives of the various people who are supposed to have been “masters of the game” in these different secret societies that have been exposed from time to time, and determine that it is clear that they are human and that they are being used as “screens” and “red herrings” to draw attention away from something else.
The very idea of a group of people who live and die in the ordinary way being motivated to put events into motion that may benefit someone else a thousand years down the road, and who then suffer exposure and ignominious death or other unpleasant consequences would, on the one hand, bespeak someone who is devoted to serving others, yet it is clear that this is not the touted agenda. So, we can only conclude that they are serving themselves, and that leaves us with the blank as to what they get out of it!
Standard psychological theories apply here, and we realize that either these people are extremely stupid, and in that case, the whole conspiracy would fall apart rather quickly rather than having lasted for thousands of years, or we must think that these people are being used by someone or something else, for its own ends. And, in that case, we have to realize that the various proposed sources of the conspiracy, whether it is Masons or Rosicrucians or Illuminati, are merely another facet of the smoke screen.
Once we have realized that, we realize that if we jump on the bandwagon of accusations and “we have discovered the secret,” we may very well be falling for the same old Machiavellian ploy that has been used for millennia.
Well, I puzzled over this for a long time — a period in which I was not considering a hyperdimensional reality. I simply could not see the motivation for any group of men, who must be at least somewhat ordinary, to perpetrate such a plan with no apparent “payoff”. Supposedly, many of them would “put a certain action” in gear that would only bear fruit a few hundred, or many hundreds, of years in the future to their time, and then they would be exposed and killed or otherwise done away with. Again, such self-sacrifice is either a symptom of pure STO, or evidence of someone else behind the scenes.
So, David Icke found these things … so have many others. It’s been fairly common stuff for a very long time. Some may be true; some may be red herrings. Of course, putting it all together in this day and time, and tracking it through the centuries is an interesting exercise — if one is then able to see the fact that there is a “puppetmaster” that has set this whole thing up to lead astray those who are more clever than others, but not yet clever enough to see the unseen element.
Well, fine and good. He wrote this book and it made a big splash. What next? Well, his next book was a huge disappointment because I could see that “they” had gotten to him. Now, just imagine this scenario: a person discovers all these things that he wrote about in his first book … (or thinks he is “discovering” them) — very similar to what I wrote in Noah, (but was completely unable to get it published and had no resources at the time to do it myself), and he gets it published, it gets promoted, and a lot of folks begin to think that maybe nothing is as it seems.
Well, clearly, David was going in the right direction. He might even be able to figure it out once he came to a full understanding of the “hyperdimensional” factor.
What do you think the “Puppet Masters” are going to do now?
And remember, you are not dealing with human minds here… you are not dealing with ordinary logic … you have no hope of figuring out their next “move” except to pay close attention to the action. And, I only knew this because I had taken great pains to study not only the evidence, but who gathered the evidence, how and why and then what happened to them after … So, I knew that there were repercussions to speaking out. And David is a very personable and dynamic person. Not only that, I think he has a real drive for truth (even if he doesn’t have a “nose” for it).
So, here he is, David Icke on the “Truth Train,” picking up a lot of passengers, and building a lot of steam. Well, I think that if a couple guys in three piece suits knocked on his door one night and said “Mr. Icke, we are here to make you an offer …” he probably would have slammed the door in their faces. At least, I would like to think that. But, maybe something like that did happen and he invited them in.
But, what is more likely is this: Somebody knocked on his door (figuratively speaking) and said: “Mr. Icke, I see that you have a great deal of courage and you are making a lot of waves, and I came to you to tell you my story about what is behind the scenes of these conspiracies that you talk about. And, I am afraid for my life, so you must be very careful and help me … so we can reveal to the world the Greatest Secret!”
And, of course, being a person who is “dedicated to truth,” and a person who wants to “save the world,” and all that, Mr. Icke invited this person onto his “truth train.” But, he didn’t realize that this person was an agent of the Puppet Masters … and that this person would secretly be slipping nuclear bombs into the firebox of the steam plant of the engine of his train… and that this nuclear power would speed the train up so fast that not only could it no longer stop to pick up new passengers, it would eventually run off the track and crash and burn.
So, what do I mean? Well, yes, we know that the Cs have talked about underground bases, about genetic experiments and the creation of a “Master Race” breeding ground for the Nephilim — they have talked about Drachomonoid controllers of our realm and they have talked about many of the same bizarre things that David Icke talks about … the difference is in the “deeper explanations” and the “mode of response.”
I will give you an example: First of all, the “sources” of David Icke’s information about the Reptilians from “the constellation Draco” are extremely questionable. When I began to track this idea, the closest I could come to it was that it originated with folks who claimed to have been given this info by reptoids!
So, let’s get this straight: we are trying to uncover a conspiracy, and we go to somebody who we suspect is part of the conspiracy, and ask them what the whole thing is about? Or rather, they came to someone who then reported what they were told, and this became the basis for the “knowledge” about the Drachomonoids. That’s like asking Richard Nixon what was on the missing tape.
Other information he writes about relates to pedophile abuse by public figures. That sets the warning bells off immediately because accusations of sexual aberration have been used throughout millennia to smear and destroy many people and groups, most notably the Templars and Cathars. Nevertheless, the inflammatory dwelling on these kinds of things in prurient and graphic detail bespeaks an almost fiendish delight in just simply talking about it. And that is not to say that I don’t think that such things go on — god only knows the awful stuff I have had to deal with in the course of doing hypnotherapy. So, that is not the issue. What IS the issue, is the creation of the “us against them” hard-line philosophy that focuses on people and not the true hyperdimensional source of the control.
A couple of David’s sources include Cathy O’Brien and Arizona Wilder. Regarding the former, her accusations of truly bizarre sexual abuse, pedophilia, and assorted disgusting factors are well-publicized on the net, and we have already discussed them, so I won’t repeat them here. And, yes, the Cs have confirmed that there is, indeed, something along this line going on, though with modifications to the story.
The bottom line is: we have to wonder exactly why it is that Cathy O’Brien and Arizona Wilder have been allowed to “come out of the closet?”
Think about it.
Now, one correspondent wrote to me that the revelations of Cathy O’Brien made were very carefully orchestrated so that the information came out in a way that was able to protect her from the possibility of being “hit.” In other words, if she had been killed after the book came out, it would be seen as “confirmation” of her story.
So, how to do the conspirators do damage control with Cathy O’Brien?
Well, the answer is simple: Arizona Wilder!!!
Icke tells us that Wilder “conducted human sacrifice rituals for some of the most famous people on Earth, including the British Royal Family.” Arizona says (in Icke’s book, The Biggest Secret):
“The Queen — I have seen her sacrifice people and eat their flesh and drink their blood. One time she got so excited with blood lust that she didn’t cut the victim’s throat from left to right in the normal ritual. She just went crazy, stabbing and ripping at the flesh after she’d shapeshifted into a reptilian. When she shapeshifts she has a long reptile face, almost like a beak, and she’s off-white colour.
“Prince Charles — I’ve seen him shapeshift into a reptilian and do all the things the Queen does. I have seen him sacrifice children.”
“The Queen Mother is a lot older than people think. To be honest, the Royal Family hasn’t died for a long time, they have just metamorphised (sic). It’s sort of cloning, but in a different way … They looked like reptiles originally, but they look like us when they get out now … The Queen Mother is ‘Chief Toad’ of this part of Europe and they have people like her in each continent.” (Icke, The Biggest Secret, 1999)
Now, just think about what this has done here (or could do to the less subtle and informed reader). The first thing is that it has placed the focus of blame on human beings. Human beings are shapeshifting Reptilians in cahoots with “ethereal” demonic reptoid beings. And you can see where that is leading back to, can’t you? Yes, that old time religion! We have a “Luciferian Rebellion” going on here, and those pesky reptoids are really just demons in service to Satan. Of course, being demons, we have absolutely no hope of doing anything at all without help from somewhere “out there,” most likely prayers or rebukes to “get thee behind me, Satan!”
So, not only have we accomplished a huge coup in terms of hiding the true nature of the real conspirators, we have advanced the cause of disempowering human beings by reinforcing their beliefs in the same nonsense that has kept them captive for over two thousand years.
Why would that be so?
The aim of religion is to create a completely controlled artificial environment composed of thoroughly predictable human behaviors — made predictable because they have been programmed through centuries of lies and obfuscations presented in the form of a story that is actually untrue, and wholly misrepresentative of the real negative aim.
For centuries these programs have been set up through space/time manipulation. Various prophets or religious leaders have been influenced to preach, prophesy or teach philosophies designed to lay a foundation for later takeover — possibly in our present time. It doesn’t matter that the religions are essentially good or seem to be positive. What matters are the programmed responses. If a person is programmed to believe in Jesus, if a figure appears to them presenting itself as Jesus, and uses fourth density technology to stimulate the release of certain neuropeptides that can induce feelings of bliss, the individual is primed and ready to obey any command of said being whether it is to “kill them all and let God sort them out,” as was the general rule of the Inquisition, or “insult everyone who doesn’t believe that Di and Dodi were sacrificed by reptilian royals.”
Recently a parody of door-to-door evangelizing was sent around the Internet. It was so exceedingly irreverent that it probably was too shocking for many people to understand how truly enlightening it was. For those who may not have seen it, I am going to include it here because it makes very important points that need to be emphasized:
John: “Hi! I’m John, and this is Mary.”
Mary: “Hi! We’re here to invite you to come kiss Hank’s ass with us.”
Me: “Pardon me?! What are you talking about? Who’s Hank, and why would I want to kiss His ass?”
John: “If you kiss Hank’s ass, He’ll give you a million dollars; and if you don’t, He’ll kick the sh*t out of you.”
Me: “What? Is this some sort of bizarre mob shakedown?”
John: “Hank is a billionaire philanthropist. Hank built this town. Hank owns this town. He can do whatever he wants, and what He wants is to give you a million dollars, but He can’t until you kiss his ass.”
Me: “That doesn’t make any sense. Why …”
Mary: “Who are you to question Hank’s gift? Don’t you want a million dollars? Isn’t it worth a little kiss on the ass?”
Me: “Well maybe, if it’s legit, but …”
John: “Then come kiss Hank’s ass with us.”
Me: “Do you kiss Hank’s ass often?”
Mary: “Oh yes, all the time …”
Me: “And has He given you a million dollars?”
John: “Well no. You don’t actually get the money until you leave town.”
Me: “So why don’t you just leave town now?”
Mary: “You can’t leave until Hank tells you to, or you don’t get the money, and He kicks the sh*t out of you.”
Me: “Do you know anyone who kissed Hank’s ass, left town, and got the million dollars?”
John: “My mother kissed Hank’s ass for years. She left town last year, and I’m sure she got the money.”
Me: “Haven’t you talked to her since then?”
John: “Of course not, Hank doesn’t allow it.”
Me: “So what makes you think He’ll actually give you the money if you’ve never talked to anyone who got the money?”
Mary: “Well, he gives you a little bit before you leave. Maybe you’ll get a raise, maybe you’ll win a small lotto, maybe you’ll just find a twenty-dollar bill on the street.”
Me: “What’s that got to do with Hank?”
John: “Hank has certain ‘connections.’ “
Me: “I’m sorry, but this sounds like some sort of bizarre con game.”
John: “But it’s a million dollars, can you really take the chance? And remember, if you don’t kiss Hank’s ass He’ll kick the sh*t of you.”
Me: “Maybe if I could see Hank, talk to Him, get the details straight from him …”
Mary: “No one sees Hank, no one talks to Hank.”
Me: “Then how do you kiss His ass?”
John: “Sometimes we just blow Him a kiss, and think of His ass. Other times we kiss Karl’s ass, and he passes it on.”
Me: “Who’s Karl?”
Mary: “A friend of ours. He’s the one who taught us all about kissing Hank’s ass. All we had to do was take him out to dinner a few times.”
Me: “And you just took his word for it when he said there was a Hank, that Hank wanted you to kiss His ass, and that Hank would reward you?”
John: “Oh no! Karl has a letter he got from Hank years ago explaining the whole thing. Here’s a copy; see for yourself.”
From the desk of Karl
1) Kiss Hank’s ass and He’ll give you a million dollars when you leave town.
2) Use alcohol in moderation.
3) Kick the sh*t out of people who aren’t like you.
4) Eat right.
5) Hank dictated this list Himself.
6) The moon is made of green cheese.
7) Everything Hank says is right.
8) Wash your hands after going to the bathroom.
9) Don’t use alcohol.
10) Eat your wieners on buns, no condiments.
11) Kiss Hank’s ass or He’ll kick the sh*t out of you.
Me: “This appears to be written on Karl’s letterhead.”
Mary: “Hank didn’t have any paper.”
Me: “I have a hunch that if we checked we’d find this is Karl’s handwriting.”
John: “Of course, Hank dictated it.”
Me: “I thought you said no one gets to see Hank?”
Mary: “Not now, but years ago He would talk to some people.”
Me: “I thought you said He was a philanthropist. What sort of philanthropist kicks the sh*t out of people just because they’re different?”
Mary: “It’s what Hank wants, and Hank’s always right.”
Me: “How do you figure that?”
Mary: “Item 7 says ‘Everything Hank says is right.’ That’s good enough for me!”
Me: “Maybe your friend Karl just made the whole thing up.”
John: “No way! Item 5 says ‘Hank dictated this list himself.’ Besides, item 2 says ‘Use alcohol in moderation,’ Item 4 says ‘Eat right,’ and item 8 says ‘Wash your hands after going to the bathroom.’ Everyone knows those things are right, so the rest must be true, too.”
Me: “But 9 says ‘Don’t use alcohol,’ which doesn’t quite go with item 2, and 6 says ‘The moon is made of green cheese,’ which is just plain wrong.”
John: “There’s no contradiction between 9 and 2, 9 just clarifies 2. As far as 6 goes, you’ve never been to the moon, so you can’t say for sure.”
Me: “Scientists have pretty firmly established that the moon is made of rock …”
Mary: “But they don’t know if the rock came from the Earth, or from out of space, so it could just as easily be green cheese.”
Me: “I’m not really an expert, but I think the theory that the Moon was somehow ‘captured’ by the Earth has been discounted. Besides, not knowing where the rock came from doesn’t make it cheese.”
John: “Ha! You just admitted that scientists make mistakes, but we know Hank is always right!”
Me: “We do?”
Mary: “Of course we do, Item 5 says so.”
Me: “You’re saying Hank’s always right because the list says so, the list is right because Hank dictated it, and we know that Hank dictated it because the list says so. That’s circular logic, no different than saying, ‘Hank’s right because He says He’s right.’ “
John: “Now you’re getting it! It’s so rewarding to see someone come around to Hank’s way of thinking.”
Me: “But … oh, never mind. What’s the deal with wieners?”
Mary: She blushes.
John: “Wieners, in buns, no condiments. It’s Hank’s way. Anything else is wrong.”
Me: “What if I don’t have a bun?”
John: “No bun, no wiener. A wiener without a bun is wrong.”
Me: “No relish? No mustard?”
Mary: She looks positively stricken.
John: (He’s shouting.) “There’s no need for such language! Condiments of any kind are wrong!”
Me: “So a big pile of sauerkraut with some wieners chopped up in it would be out of the question?”
Mary: Sticks her fingers in her ears. “I am not listening to this. La la la, la la, la la la.”
John: “That’s disgusting. Only some sort of evil deviant would eat that …”
Me: “It’s good! I eat it all the time.” (Mary faints.)
John: (He catches Mary.) “Well, if I’d known you were one of those I wouldn’t have wasted my time. When Hank kicks the sh*t out of you I’ll be there, counting my money and laughing. I’ll kiss Hank’s ass for you, you bunless, cut-wienered kraut-eater.” With this, John dragged Mary to their waiting car, and sped off.
Did you get it? Did you really get it? And did you see how accurately it portrays the whole religious mindset? Most importantly, did you notice how good rules can be posited for the express purpose of establishing faith in rules that are not only lies, but are actually detrimental to growth and development? And did you notice how cleverly this little skit actually captured the dynamic of the true believer?
More than that, the totally illogical and nonsensical dynamic of “believe this or you will be damned, punished or otherwise left out of some exclusive club” is the essence of STS stalking wherein confusion and cross-purpose prevents a clear perception on the part of the stalkees. What is the designed objective of this stalking? It is twofold.
First, the effect of stalking is sort of like stampeding a herd of cattle so that they run into a dead-end canyon or corral and have no way out. Bit by bit, they are consolidated into an us-against-them mode. Even though, on the surface, it may seem that this mode is positive or STO (i.e. save the world because it is wrong or flawed, or blighted with original sin) the very fact that it is formed in the dominator mode of perceiving salvation outside, or from some other source, no matter how it is presented, means that it can more easily be taken over body, mind and soul at a level that is unseen and unseeable.
Many people believe they are playing out the basic antagonism and self-protection roles of Satan vs. God. They believe that sending love and light to those “in need” is appropriate, without realizing that this activity is predicated upon a deep belief that there is something wrong, in error, in rebellion, and thus becomes again us vs. them.
The primary objective of negative stalking is to persuade the free choice of the targeted consciousness to align with negative higher-density existence, through strongly influenced, but not robotic, behavior patterns. It doesn’t matter that the believer thinks he is following the teachings of Jesus, Brahma or Allah. If he is following the STS agenda, no matter how he was deceived to believe it is right, it is still the STS agenda, and by virtue of being a true believer, he can, at any time, be co-opted to the fourth density STS hierarchy by the appearance of an “angelic” being, or the receiving of a “benevolent message, prophecy, or healing.” It is only with knowledge of these conditions that anyone has any hope of being able to see through the ploys and the programs.
The second objective of stalking is to create a belief in defensive measures that are totally and completely ineffective. Then, the same beings that advise us to pray, to rebuke Satan, to just say no to abductions, take great pains to make sure that these techniques seem to work. The result is that more and more people will be deluded into thinking that they are actually protected by silly rituals and prayers such as “surrounding themselves with light” and other nonsense. Don’t be fooled. Reptoids are not demons. They are not etheric minions of Satan. They are variably physical, techno-wizards and they use our own energy to interact with us. Only knowing how to make that energy unavailable to them will provide any protection at all.
Now, yes, we know that human beings — all human beings — have reptilian genetics, and bird genetics and just the whole gamut. But by disinforming people about the true nature of the fourth density STS hierarchy and state of existence, as such people as Arizona Wilder and others do; by making humans the “physical” or “paraphysical” Reptoids, the attention is drawn away from the actual Control System of beings of hyperdimensional, variable physical capability.
In a funny, twisted way, there is some truth there. Reptoid beings can shapeshift into human appearing beings. The problem is, according to the understanding of hyperdimensional existence, they have some difficulty doing this and holding the frequency, so that even when they do it, it is a very bad imitation. Witness Men-In-Black cases. And, of course, human beings can be easily controlled by fourth density beings through their genetics, their minds, their chemistry, and by setting up dramas in which other people who may or may not be active agents of the STS hierarchy act as vectors of thinking and activity.
So, do you see the inversion in the Arizona Wilder story? That ordinary human beings can be Reptoids and we would just never know it. This amounts to loading the truth train with nuclear speed capabilities to run it off the track! Take a little grain of truth, exaggerate it all out of proportion, twist it, and toss it out there to outrage the sensibilities of the rational thinkers, and to dupe the non-critical thinker into believing a scenario that prepares him to be further manipulated. If, in the end, the whole story is discredited through associated ideas that can be proven false, a very effective screen has been dropped over the true activities of fourth density negative beings. Meanwhile, everyone is looking in the direction of something that is merely a distraction … the oldest game in the world — the shell game of reality.
Just a few days after I had written the above referenced message to the E-group, an event transpired to confirm it. There is a curious thing that I would like to note here in passing: It seems that the STS mode of manipulation includes synchronous events and or “signs and wonders” before a choice is made to do something, which, in fact, weight the choice. STO seems to refrain altogether from any kind of overt contact or demonstration, leaving the will entirely free. But then, there is always the little confirmations after the choice has been made and the action initiated.
In this case, as I was reading through my e-mail, I came across a response to our David Icke fan on the E-group, with a link to a website that was purported to expose the evil intentions of the Masons via the Denver Airport murals. What caught my eye was the remark that a particular mural had been removed. So, I clicked on the URL to have a look. The e-mail I wrote immediately after will explain:
From: “Laura Knight-Jadczyk”
Date sent: Sat, 28 Oct. 2000 16:38:18 -0400
Subject: DENVER MURALS DETAILED ANALYSIS
1st member wrote:
make sure to click on “next image” at the bottom for a Detailed Analysis of every portrait… http://www.50megs.com/bridgeoflove/simonvol10/den.html
2nd member wrote in response:
You are a little behind the times. I agree that this mural is *very* disturbing; however, it was also removed a year ago.
I responded to the exchange as follows:
It made me curious about what mural would have been removed, so I went and had a look at the picture, which, as it happens, was never one of the “Denver Murals.” It is Poussin’s painting entitled “Winter,” and we do have it on our Denver Airport page and it is explained in the text that it is Poussin’s painting …
Now, why would someone else have a picture of Poussin’s painting included as a “Denver Mural” if they had not mistakenly thought it was a Denver Mural because it was on a page of pictures of the Denver Murals, only they simply did not bother to read the text telling that it was not one of the murals????
I think I will have a look at the other images on this site … the originals from our pages are from photos taken by a close friend and member of our group at our request, and I know there are certain little glitches in her photographic technique and a couple of angles and extra features in the pictures when she did not get the picture framed properly. How much you want to bet that the pictures from this other site are stolen from ours??? (taking odds …)
As it turned out, sure enough, the pictures were stolen from our site without credit given. Ark came in to have a look at it since he had been the one who did the scans and made the catalogue. So, he followed up my post with one of his own:
Hi All,
Laura already wrote about it a while ago, but let me try to make it completely clear. This is a very good example of how disinformation connects and works.” Our former-list member (who is now unsubscribed) wrote:
Date sent: Wed, 25 Oct. 2000
Subject: DENVER MURALS DETAILED ANALYSIS
make sure to click on “next image” at the bottom for a Detailed Analysis of every portrait.. http://www.50megs.com/bridgeoflove/simonvol10/den.html
***************
Ark here: When you go there — what do you see? You see OUR pictures. I mean, really ours, because they were taken by a friend of ours on her trip to Denver, then scanned and put on our web site. We have the original photographs.
OK, so David Icke’s friends “borrowed” our material without quoting the source. But that is not all. WE have a little “Catalogue” page, which I did myself: Denver_cat.htm
On this page, together with scans of the Denver murals photos, I put an image of a famous painting, “Winter” by Poussin, because Cassiopaeans suggested that there is a hidden relation: Denver.htm
So, what did our David Icke associate do: he “borrows” also the Poussin painting (again without quoting Cassiopaean web site), but he states that this is from pictures taken at Denver!
That is how Lizzies work: least effort.
Clearly sooner or later someone will discover that his “Winter” is NOT from Denver, but an old painting. What will happen? All the story about mind control and about Denver murals will become suspect. Origin of all of that will be forgotten. Laws of sandwiching truth between lies will be at work. Baby will be tossed out with the bath water. The Denver Airport issue will be ignored because lies are connected with it.
Of course, we could start making noise about “copyrights” and about nonsensical interpretations. But is it worthwhile? Is it not better to write a web page explaining on a live example how disinformation works?
Another example is the contrail issue. The group here talked about it quite a bit and the idea being promulgated that contrails are being used to commit genocide on the human race. Well, think about that for a moment. It would sure be a lot easier to commit genocide with land-based vectors — a lot more economical and easier to hide than making such a big display of contrails and then having people connect them with sickness. That does not compute logically.
Not only that, if such things were being done from aircraft as is suggested, it is no problem at all to do it without leaving a trace: invisible vapors dispensed from low flying craft rather than clearly obvious, long-lasting contrails that get everyone excited and worked up in hysterical formation of theories and terror. So, think about that for a moment. Do you suppose that the result is the intended effect? Terror and hysterical conspiracy theories? What will happen next when these theories are exposed as nonsense, which is very likely?
Meanwhile, just what are we being distracted from observing by paying so much attention to something that is so blatant that we would have to think those boys in Black Ops were really having a bad day to come up with something so obvious? All anyone has to do is read Machiavelli to understand some of the tricks and machinations of the Control System and to see clearly that what is apparent is only the distraction from what is really being done “behind the curtain.”
Well, meanwhile, the buildup continues. Just today, November 1st, 2000, I received the following so-called “proof” of the genocidal purpose of the “chemtrails”, written by a member of the “robots-rebellion” discussion group. Before I discuss the piece, I think it’s necessary to include a short discussion on this whole “chemtrail” issue, as it’s currently getting a lot of play among alternative news communities and dissenters.
A few things that should be considered when talking about so-called “chemtrails”. Obviously, there is some “spraying” that goes on and it’s not for the benefit of humanity. I’ve heard a few stories from people about very low-flying planes dispersing stuff that lands and makes people sick. Spraying that actually affects a designated area beneath the sprayer (the plane in question) must be at a fairly low altitude otherwise what is sprayed will not come down on the area beneath the spraying. This is due to the fact that our atmosphere has a number of layers and each layer has its own temperature, wind speed and direction. Very often, things in one layer take a very long time and distance to mix or mingle with other layers, if they mix at all. Usually, the wind speeds in the upper layers are such that anything deposited there might only penetrate to lower weather layers, after many thousands of miles of travel. It’s a very nonlinear situation and highly unpredictable. So, chemical spraying that you can see above in the sky, which then falls on the area below it, must be low altitude spraying.
Therefore, trails that are very high in the sky that have no hope of interacting with the ground below them cannot properly be called “chemtrails” except, perhaps, if a chemical is being sprayed that is supposed to affect the weather (and even that is done fairly low). For example, “cloud seeding” is believed to promote condensation by dispersing dry ice crystals or silver iodide into the atmosphere using airplanes and ground-based stations. It is done to clouds, but doesn’t create them. Plus, it, too, must be done at a fairly low altitude in order for the effects to affect the area below the activity. Otherwise, the higher wind speeds in the upper layers will carry the silver iodide away, disperse it, and the desired effect will not be had.
Small private planes fly at a maximum of 12,000 feet, while passenger airliners fly from 25,000 to 45,000 feet (military and specialty planes can fly much higher, up to several hundred thousand feet). This is significant because cirrus clouds (with thin, wispy strands and tufts) form above 26,000 feet, at which altitude aircraft exhaust can freeze, forming visible trails and thus turning into cirrus clouds. High-altitude convection and turbulence can give these clouds particular appearances (e.g., “fall streaks”, cirrocumulus and cirrus uncinus clouds) and all-together cirrus clouds have a net heating effect on the Earth. Cirrus clouds can be a sign of upper air disturbance and future stormy weather or thunderstorm remnants. Additionally, they tend to develop after heavy air traffic.
Now, what is wrong with the picture presented above? The altitude of cirrus clouds is in the stratosphere, which has atmospheric conditions that allow the formation of jets flying at such heights. Yet many jetliners that crisscross the skies with trails are obviously flying much lower than the altitude designated for cirrus clouds. For example, you can search Youtube for a video called “clandestine cloud seeding at low altitude which shows a plane forming a contrail within the troposphere. This is not cloud seeding. It is evidence that the atmosphere layer that the plane is flying through is very cold. Now, whether that is a problem or not depends on where and what time of year the video was made. In some cases, cold air that low would not be out of season, so to say.
Yet the trails left by these low-flying aircraft act like cirrus clouds used to act at much higher altitudes. The most logical (and scariest) conclusion: the cold layer of the upper atmosphere has gotten lower and probably thicker and therefore, more airplanes flying at lower altitudes are forming contrails in that icy air which used to be the much higher domain of cirrus clouds.
Again, if you understand about the layers of the atmosphere, temperatures, winds, then you will realize that what is happening is not spraying of the human population or even intentional weather manipulation, it is the evidence that our planetary atmosphere has changed dramatically in the past twenty years or so (which, incidentally, is when I began noticing the changes in cloud formation).
Also notice that the trails left by planes at much lower altitudes generally dissipate quickly. What is bad news is that they leave any trail at all at those altitudes! And knowing how layers that form cirrus clouds function from the above, you can pretty well understand that they are not spraying stuff on the ground below. But certainly, there can be the natural formation of cirrus clouds by plane exhaust or fuel dumping and low level spraying of “stuff” at the same time. I would suggest that such cases are cover-ups the same way the endless “gray alien abductions” are a cover-up for what aliens are really doing on this planet.
Do these activities have any effect on the weather? Undoubtedly they do, which is the net effect of heating of the atmosphere by cirrus clouds, but that is not intentional. What seems to be happening is that the area of weather phenomena — the troposphere — seems to have been compressed by an expanding (or dropping) stratosphere and the stratosphere itself seems to have changed its characteristics. This is very concerning! These are signs and symptoms that something very unusual is going on in our cosmic neighborhood, because weather changes are taking place on other planets, too. I can guarantee you that they aren’t doing “chemtrails” on Mars or Jupiter or Saturn.
Also, if you study the work of James McCanney, you will come to the understanding that the five layers of the Earth’s atmosphere are also layers of alternating electrical charge. This is important. McCanney also discusses how these electric flows around and on the Earth interact with the sun to create our weather and climate. Piers Corbyn is becoming famous for utilizing similar principles for far more accurate weather predictions than the mainstream climatologists are able to work up. The fact that Corbyn can predict the weather as accurately as he does argues against the “chemtrails” being a weather modification activity. His method is concerned with solar activity, not so-called “chemtrails”.
Regarding these layers of electromagnetism surrounding the Earth, in 1958 some things were done that may very well have a strong bearing on the conditions of our planet in the present day. I would like for you to think about this in respect of climate change, so-called “chemtrails” and HAARP.
Between August and September of 1958, the US Navy exploded three fission type nuclear bombs 480 km above the South Atlantic Ocean, in the part of the lower Van Allen Belt closest to the earth’s surface. In addition, two hydrogen bombs were detonated 160 km over Johnston Island in the Pacific. The military called this “the biggest scientific experiment ever undertaken.” It was designed by the US Department of Defense and the US Atomic Energy Commission, under the code name Project Argus. The purpose appears to be to assess the impact of high altitude nuclear explosions on radio transmission and radar operations because of the electromagnetic pulse (EMP), and to increase understanding of the geomagnetic field and the behavior of the charged particles in it. This gigantic experiment created new (inner) magnetic radiation belts encompassing almost the whole earth, and injected sufficient electrons and other energetic particles into the ionosphere to cause world wide effects. The electrons traveled back and forth along magnetic force lines, causing an artificial “aurora” when striking the atmosphere near the North Pole. This was reported only much later, on August 13-20th of 1961 in Keesings Historisch Archief (K.H.A.). The report said that the US Military planned to create a “telecommunications shield in the ionosphere at 3,000 km height, by bringing into orbit 350,000 million copper needles, each 2-4 cm long [total weight 16 kg], forming a belt 10 km thick and 40 km wide, the needles spaced about 100 m apart.” This was designed to replace the ionosphere “because telecommunications are impaired by magnetic storms and solar flares.” The US planned to add to the number of copper needles if the experiment proved to be successful. This plan was strongly opposed by the International Union of Astronomers.
On July 9th, 1962, the US began a further series of experiments with the ionosphere. From their description: “one kiloton device, at a height of 60 km and one megaton and one multi-megaton, at several hundred kilometers height”. (K.H.A., 29 June 1962). These tests seriously disturbed the lower Van Allen Belt, substantially altering its shape and intensity. “In this experiment the inner Van Allen Belt will be practically destroyed for a period of time; particles from the Belt will be transported to the atmosphere. It is anticipated that the earth’s magnetic field will be disturbed over long distances for several hours, preventing radio communication. The explosion in the inner radiation belt will create an artificial dome of polar light that will be visible from Los Angeles”. (K.H.A. 11 May 1962). … This was the experiment which called forth the strong protest of the Queen’s Astronomer, Sir Martin Ryle in the UK.
… “On the 19th of July … NASA announced that as a consequence of the high altitude nuclear test of July 9th, a new radiation belt had been formed, stretching from a height of about 400 km to 1600 km; it can be seen as a temporary extension of the lower Van Allen Belt” (K.H.A. 5 August 1962). …
“… Starfish made a much wider belt [than Project Argus] that extends from low altitude out past L=3 [i.e. three earth radiuses or about 13,000 km above the surface of the earth].” Later in 1962, the USSR undertook similar planetary experiments, creating three new radiation belts between 7,000 and 13,000 km above the earth. According to the Encyclopedia, the electron fluxes in the lower Van Allen Belt have changed markedly since the 1962 high-altitude nuclear explosions by the US and USSR, never returning to their former state. According to American scientists, it could take many hundreds of years for the Van Allen Belts to destabilize at their normal levels.” 3
Additionally, during the 1980s, rocket launches globally numbered about 500 to 600 a year, peaking at 1500 in 1989. There were many more during the Gulf War. The Shuttle is the largest of the solid fuel rockets, with twin 45-meter boosters. All solid fuel rockets release large amounts of hydrochloric acid in their exhaust, each Shuttle flight injecting about 75 tons of ozone destroying chlorine into the stratosphere. Those launched since 1992 inject even more ozone-destroying chlorine, about 187 tons, into the stratosphere (which contains the ozone layer).
Keep in mind now that, while they are out there blowing up our atmosphere, they want to blame Global Warming on the masses of regular people! I think that I have presented more than sufficient food for thought on the topic of so-called “chemtrails” to suggest that, yes, there is something really wicked going on, but it ain’t what you think. In fact, it’s worse.
Now, with that said, the “robots-rebellion” group member wrote:
So you haven’t yet figured out the airborne conditioning-agent release program that is being operated by the government. I’ll give you some hints, but first I’ll give you a little information about myself. I’m a retired government scientist with an advanced degree in one of the health-related disciplines. I do not use my real name for fear of retaliation, either against me, or against members of my family. I always try to route my e-mail communications so that they appear to come from another source, usually from one somewhere within the government. Sometimes I use the Internet resources of the public library — whatever it takes to hide my true identity and confuse those who don’t want the sort of information I possess to fall into the public’s hands. I have a small circle of friends who are, or were, in key positions within our military and several government agencies. These are not the very top level personnel, but mid to upper mid-level people, scientists and analysts, who are in positions where they can see the day-to-day activities of what’s going on, who are charged with implementing the details, but who are never quite privy to the schemes behind the work they do. Each of my contacts has been able to supply me with a portion of the puzzle, but separately, none of them understands the whole story.
Right away we have a problem because the “source” does not identify himself except to say that he uses all kinds of methods to prevent anyone from knowing who he is. So, basically, we come down to having to take his word for everything he is saying. And, he speaks so calmly and rationally, too! He sure must be a “dinkum” guy! And how courageous he is to even speak under such threat! Aren’t we lucky to be hearing all he has to say?
This whole paragraph is so blatantly loaded with psychological “triggers” designed to induce confidence that it actually screams, “Methinks he protests too much!” But, let’s go on here:
I’ll tell you what I’ve pieced together so far. But I have to admit that this information frightens me because there is no place I can go with it. What am I supposed to do — write my congressman? I believe that would be like signing my own death warrant.
Oh, wowie zowie! He’s a guy just like the rest of us! We are scared and we feel helpless too! And again, we see how brave he is to even whisper the great revelation he is going to give us!
This whole chemtrail issue is related to the plan for decreasing the world population to around 450-500 million — and starting with the US first. Why? The people of the US are the only ones with even the remotest chance of stopping this. That is, if they knew about it. That’s why the US has to be the first to go.
Wait a minute here! He says that the people of the good ol’ U.S. of A. (stand up and salute, boy!) are the ones who have to go first because they (yer durn tootin’ pilgrim!) are the only ones who could stop this dire and dreadful plot if they knew about it! Let’s just gloss right over the fact that we are talking about an atmospheric ocean of deadly poison blazoned across the sky! So, the homies here in the land of golden grain and purple mountains have to be gotten rid of first, in great secrecy so they won’t catch on! Ooooh! I see it now! The chemtrails are just a distraction… no? They are the real thing? But, I don’t understand! I thought it was supposed to be a secret! Well, never mind…
You have to understand that the world’s elite covet the US for its geographic diversity — and they would love to return this country to its condition as it existed prior to Columbus setting foot here, but without the Native Americans this time of course.
Now that is about the lamest crock of nonsense I ever heard! You boys in Black Ops better go back to school! You are suggesting that power and greed aren’t the motivators they used to be!? And at the same time, you are pulling out the “sacred Native American” ploy!
You may have already heard how several national parks have been designated as world biospheres — that’s the plan for all of North America, a giant nature park and playground that will be devoid of annoying human beings (that would be us).
Never mind the fact that those “annoying human beings” have been and are the source of labor, wealth, and power for millennia, and it would be a lot easier to reduce the population with some well-placed anti-fertility agents in the water or the soda pop drunk by practically every man, woman and child in the country! Not only that, it would be a lot cleaner and neater because you wouldn’t have all those icky dead bodies to burn or bury!
And the people actually involved in doing the spraying, as well as those who will take part in the rest of the plans, are being duped into believing they will be spared, that is, permitted to live and remain on this continent as administrators and caretakers of this vast nature preserve.
And do you think that we are stupid enough to buy into this story, knowing that, if such a thing were actually being done, even those who are purported to be doing it at the deepest levels could have no guarantee of escaping the effects of it? Are they living in bunkers and going around wearing gas masks? For months and years? Why would they do that when there are so many other easier ways of accomplishing genocide if that was what they really wanted? Oh, I know! They have vaccines. That’s why they are so confident that only the designated ones will succumb. Stupid me! Never mind that vaccines have been found to be deplorably ineffective and the chances of them not working are about the same as the chances that you will get the disease from the vaccine!
I understand that about 150 to 200 thousand people are projected as necessary for maintenance purposes. But it’s likely these people will not be Americans. Those in charge wouldn’t want to risk the possibility of some sort of revolt, so the workers will probably be brought in from Europe and Asia.
Do you hear that, my fellow Amurrikins? Furriners in our land! Them’s fightin’ words, boy! (Another psychological ploy.)
There are rumors floating about the Internet that the chemtrails are part of some sort of secret program the government is doing to protect the US from future biological attacks. Nothing could be further from the truth. The plan is to sensitize, or condition, the US population to being wiped out by influenza A. Over the past few years, people have been encouraged to get flu shots to protect them against the generally non-lethal strains that circulate through the population during flu season. Each year the US government has guessed which strains were most likely to spread. They seem to always guess right — don’t they?
This flu season, the government protected people with a trivalent vaccine that included the A/Beijing/262/95-like (H1N1) and the A/Sydney/5/97-like (H3N2). It also contained the B/Beijing/184/93-like hemagglutinin antigens. For those not familiar with virology, the H and N refer to proteins on the outside of the virus, the hemagglutinin and neuraminidase, which are responsible for the virus attaching to, and then invading, a host cell. The public has been quite pleased with the success of the vaccines offered so far. But that will change in the future.
Now, curiously, I think our guy may be onto something. As he says, the rumor about “protecting the U.S. from future biological attacks” is just that, nonsense. But then he introduces an idea that could get us somewhere. Now just suppose, for the sake of argument, that a hellacious flu strain does erupt? And what if people who have some idea that this is related to contrail activity become hysterical and say “SEE?! We told you!” And further, what if these people begin to form groups to spread the rumor, to protest, or otherwise act in a way that could be interpreted as a “threat to the security of the peace” of the U.S.A? What a perfect opportunity to slam controls on the Internet, freedom of speech and assembly, and any of a number of other sanctions against those who might be termed insurrectionists. Are we beginning to smell a setup here?
Researchers at the US Army Medical Research Institute of Infectious Diseases (or USAMRIID) at Fort Detrick in Fredrick, MD have reconstructed and modified the H1N1 Spanish Flu virus, making it far more deadly than it ever was back when it was responsible for the 1918-1919 flu pandemic that killed over 20 million worldwide and over 500,000 here in the US. Consider that it could have killed many more, but back then, people couldn’t hop on a jet and travel from New York to LA in five hours. Now, our ability to travel will increase the spread and will be our downfall.
The flu vaccines contain killed virus and protect the body well against challenge by that particular strain, but work poorly against other strains not included in the inoculation. At some point, the vaccine stockpile will include the more lethal modification of the 1918 H1N1 in its live form. Most people receiving this vaccine will simply be renewing their annual flu shot, and the vaccine will still include the inactivated version of the more benign form of H1N1 (as was included in this year’s vaccine). The presence of the milder strain in the inoculum will slow down the progression of the more lethal H1N1 form, so people will become sick more slowly — but they will still eventually die. It will just take a few weeks longer. In the meantime, they will be carriers for the lethal form of the virus, passing it on to everyone with whom they make contact. And as people hear that others are dropping dead from the flu, they will flock to get their own vaccination. And the entire population will be more receptive to infection because their lungs will have been preconditioned to guarantee it.
Now wait a minute here! I thought we were talking about “chemtrails?” What’s this nonsense about spreading the flu via person-to-person contact? Are we talking out of both sides of our mouth now?
If you will remember back to 1968 and ‘69, the Hong Kong flu, which was influenza A type H3N2, killed over 30,000 people in the US alone. That was a fortuitous learning event for some because it taught them that the flu could still conceivably be used to wipe out a population. But at the same time, it pointed out the need to precondition the populace so that those who might normally be resistant could be rendered susceptible.
Hence the development of the vaccine program and the aerial spraying procedures to condition the population. The purpose of the chemicals in the chemtrails is to help the viral envelope fuse with lung cells, permitting easier penetration and infection.
This is nonsense. The potential fatalities from a “tweaked” virus would not even need a “conditioning agent.” I think our guy better read up on his recombinant DNA. Once again, we have serious logical inconsistency.
But what about those few individuals who don’t succumb to the flu? Probability alone demands that there will be some who survive — pockets of the population that are either not reached or somehow (and this is less likely) are resistant to the lethal H1N1 strain. At this point you must also remember that our military personnel have been immunized against a variety of pathogens, including the anthrax bacillus. For those geographically isolated areas where the flu doesn’t do its job, it’s a fairly simple matter to lay down anthrax spores and then send in what’s left of the military to take care of anyone still breathing. The anthrax spraying will probably come under the guise of a flu protection program to save those still alive after the epidemic.
Well, the story is getting so wild and absurd that my willingness to exert the energy to comment further has just succumbed to extreme boredom. Here’s the wrap-up. I think you can figure it out if you can keep from falling on the floor laughing.
And the military, having been exposed to civilians with the flu, will eagerly await their own flu shots. I should emphasize that this is a last resort scenario. Those orchestrating the plan will not want to use anthrax until all other possibilities are exhausted — this because of the long-term viability of anthrax spores. To scatter them over the countryside would mean the area would be dangerous for use by humans, at least those not vaccinated against the bacteria. And think about this for a moment. Why do you suppose agencies like Fish and Wildlife are so eager to reintroduce wolves and other species into areas of the country that haven’t seen these animals for generations? It’s all part of the plan to restore this land to what the elite envision as its early paradise-like state, with wild animals freely roaming the uninhabited plains and forests. Granted, it will take some time to clean up the place and to maybe destroy a lot of small towns that might otherwise be considered a blight on the landscape. But for the global elite it will be a small price for us to pay for their enjoyment.
Did we forget anything? Oh, yes! Egypt Air Flight 990! Another dreaded Masonic conspiracy. And, right here, direct from the casino show palace in Las Vegas, we have that paragon of scientific virtue, Richard Hoagland and his Enterprise Mission! Let’s make Star Trek REAL!
I think we all need to remember that in the late summer, early fall of last year, Mr. Hoagland and his group were predicting an imminent cometary impact based on “inside information” from a “reliable source.” We never even thought it was worth exerting our energy to ask the Cassiopaeans, but they brought it up themselves when we were asking about the prospects of a Y2K disaster (another hysteria of the very kind we are discussing):
Q: Next question, and I think this one will be quick: can you make any comments on the likelihood of this Y2K situation getting out of hand and bringing on the “New World Order” or causing the institution of Martial Law, or causing people to need to store food, guns, ammunition and take all their money out of the bank? There is an AWFUL lot of hysteria out there about this…
A: Ask them what happened on November 7th.
Q: Oh, you mean the big Hoagland prediction that something was going to strike the earth… supposedly revealed to him by a “confidential informant” who somehow proved his “reliability,” by having “inside information” and so forth. In other words, another spate of disinformation?
A: Yup!
We read at Richard Hoagland’s web site the following about Egypt Air Flight 990:
The first problem we had with the apparent crash of this flight was in the numbers. Many of our regular readers wrote to us and pointed out the excessive number of “19.5” and “33” coincidences related to this flight. According to an Egypt Air official, Chairman of the Board, Eng. Mohammed Fahim Rayan, live on CNN, the plane spent “nineteen and a half hours” in the United States on this particular series of flights. In fact the exact time (according to the New York Port Authority timeline) was specifically 19 hours and 47 minutes (!), the so-called “tetrahedral value” (see below) we have cited on so many occasions. The flight number 990 is of course divisible by three as 330, or 330 X 3 (33-3 anybody?) Add to that the fact that according to the Pentagon there were 33 Egyptian military officers on board, the plane was at 33,000 feet when it began its horrendous crash dive (down to just over 16,700 feet when transponder contact was finally lost), it had picked up 33 passengers in Los Angeles, it disappeared exactly 33 minutes after take off, and it had just over 33,000 flight hours — and we of course were very interested. [Note: all of these numbers have been reported, but not necessarily confirmed at this time].
Now, note the last line above, a disclaimer. “All of these numbers have been reported, but not necessarily confirmed at this time.”
Does it stop them from speculating and starting rumors? Does it produce in them a desire to check those “reported numbers” out before such speculation? Do they even bother to put a large notice at the top of the article stating that it is only speculation?
Nope. And the correspondent on the Cassiopaea e-group forwarded this website as proof that the crash of Egypt Air Flight 990 was a Masonic Sacrifice, and that the Cassiopaeans and yours truly were “protecting” the Masons!
Well, we have wandered very far afield, and now it is time to have some more fun! So, let’s get back to our narrative.
A year had gone by since the discussion about the Quorum and I was still buried in alchemy and secret societies, trying to figure out just what the central issue of all of these mysterious allusions could be. The dream of getting married had come on the exact day that I actually would get married some three years later, though I did not yet know this. The following week, with RC present again, I decided to pursue the Scottish Question.
Q: (L) OK, a year ago we talked about the Quorum and I did not understand. Now, what I would like to know is, is the understanding I have acquired in the past two weeks regarding this group … [I was referring to the possibility of a real human conspiracy lasting for hundreds, or thousands of years, which would be possible with the use of David Hudson’s Monoatomic Gold, or something similar. I had begun to think that, not only was it possible for purported alien beings to have space/time manipulation abilities, but that maybe some humans did as well. This certainly made some conspiracy theories a lot more plausible.]
A: You need some review. Not just about the “Quorum,” but also about many important subjects, and tonight, we intend to have some free-flowing energy, if you don’t mind. In other words, we may supersede questions, when appropriate. However, it may be necessary for you to begin the process by asking a question.
Q: (L) OK, square one: Is the Quorum composed of semi-humans who have been alchemists, who are presently in possession of a substance called “the elixir of life” and which David Hudson calls “monoatomic gold?”
A: And much, much more! Monoatomic gold is but one minor issue here. Why get lead astray by focusing upon it solely? It would be akin to focusing on the fact that “Batman” can fly! Is that the only important thing that “Batman” does in the story? Is it?
Q: (L) Of course not! (RC) Batman fights crime!
A: What we mean is that alchemy is but one minor piece of the puzzle.
Q: (L) OK, I understand. But, understanding the alchemical connection, and its potential for extending life and opening certain abilities, makes it more feasible to think of a group that has been present steadily and consistently for many thousands of years on earth.
A: They are not the only ones! Let us go to the root. Who, or what made you?
Q: (RC) The Creator. (L) Prime Creator.
A: How? And who is Prime Creator?
Q: (L) Everything, I guess.
A: You are “Prime Creator.”
Q: (RC) We are creators, but we aren’t the Prime Creator …
A: Prime Creator Manifests in you.
Q: (L) OK, so at the root is Prime Creator.
A: But… who was secondary?
Q: (RC) The Sons of God? The Elohim?
A: Who is that? Remember, your various legends are “seen through a veil.” Here comes a shocker for you … one day, in fourth density, it will be your descendants’ mission to carry on the tradition and assignment of seeding the third density universe, once you have the adequate knowledge!!! In this part of your third and fourth density universe, specifically your “galaxy” it is the region known as Orion that is the one and only indigenous home of human type beings … reflect on this! Indigenous home base, not sole locator. What you are most in need of review of is the accurate profile of “alien” data.
Q: (RC) I thought that humans originated in Lyra and then a war broke out there and they ended up in Orion.
A: Lyra is not inhabited. There have been homes in all places, but some were/are transitory, and some are not. Pay attention to Orion! This is your ancestral home, and your eventual destination. Here is the absolutely accurate profile of Orion to follow: This is the most heavily populated region of your Milky Way galaxy! This is a region that extends across third and fourth density space for a distance as vast as the distance between your locator and it. There are 3,444 inhabited “worlds” in this region. Some are planets as you know them. Some are artificially constructed planetoids. Some are floating space barges. And some are “satellites.” There are primary homes, traveling stations and incubator laboratories all in second, third and fourth densities. There are overseer zones in fifth and sixth densities. Approximately one half is STO and one half is STS. Together, along with many other colonies, located elsewhere, this is called, in translation, Orion Federation. Orions created Grays in 5 varieties, as cybergenetic beings, and installed them on Zeta Reticuli 1, 2, 3, and 4, as well as on 2 planets orbiting Barnard’s Star. The Reptilians also inhabit 6 planets in the Orion region in fourth density, and are owned by the Orion STS as slaves, and, in some cases, pets!!! The name “Orion” is the actual native name, and was brought to earth directly. Study the legend of the “god” of Orion for parallels.
I still was not getting where I wanted to go with the Scottish Question. The issue of just who was on first, and who was really trying to take over the world as promulgated by the many conspiracy theories was uppermost in my mind. One of the main tenets of these theories is that it is a Jewish conspiracy. From almost the very beginning, the Jews were seen as the enemy. Even though they were the progenitors of Christianity. It seems that the Christian antipathy was almost an Oedipal impulse to kill the father. I had a deep feeling that there was an important clue here, and that it did, indeed, relate to the Scottish Question.
Q: (L) Are the Orion STS the infamous redheaded Nordic aliens?
A: Yes, and all other humanoid combinations.
Q: (L) OK, if it started with the Nordic types, and that is where the other humanoid combinations came from, what genetic combinations were used for human beings? Black people, for instance, since they are so unlike Nordics?
A: The Nordic genes were mixed with the gene pool already available on Earth, known as Neanderthal.
Q: (L) What was the genetic combination used to obtain the Oriental races?
A: Orientals come from a region known in your legends as “Lemuria,” and are a previous hybridization from 7 genetic code structures from within Orion Union, designed to best fit the earth climate and cosmic ray environment then existent on earth.
Q: (L) OK, what about the Semitic and Mediterranean peoples?
A: Each time a new flock was “planted,” it was engineered to be best suited to the environment where it was planted. Aryans are the only exception, as they had to be moved to earth in an emergency.
Q: (L) If races are engineered on earth to be best suited, what factors are being drawn from or considered regarding the Semitic race?
A: They are not engineered on earth, but in Orion lab as all others. They were “planted” in the Middle East.
Q: (L) What genetic type were the Atlanteans?
A: They were the same as the “Native Americans.”
Q: (L) Why do some Native Americans believe they come from the Pleiades?
A: Where are the Pleiades?
Q: (L)Well, near Orion. (RC) Oh, OK. So, they are considering the Pleiades part of Orion. What about Sirius?
A: Sirius is confused as a locator because it appears in similar location in the sky in the northern hemisphere. The American Indians were confused in the translation because of similar-seeming location due to vantage point.
Q: (RC) Well, but Sirius is clearly Sirius! It’s the brightest star in the sky … it’s in all the legends! How could it be translated wrong? This is not clear! The star charts are very specific!
A: How have YOU translated YOUR legends wrong?
Q: (F) I think the point is that it is clear that we, in our present culture, are easily able to get things very wrong, even from the more recent times; so it is not a great consideration to think that the more ancient legends can also be distorted, embellished, and misrepresented.
A: Review what we said at the beginning of this session.
Q: (L) Did the Dogon come from Sirius?
A: All humanoid types originated in Orion region, there are and have been and will continue to be literally millions of colonies.
Q: (L) If a lot of the information that is being propagated these days is confusion or disinformation, what is the purpose of all this?
A: You answered yourself: Confusion and disinformation.
Q: (L) I have a theory that the truth, in any large degree, will not be known until just prior to some sort of transition …
A: You expect “truth” then?
Q: (RC) Absolutely! (L) Considering how things are from personal observation, this may be unrealistic …
A: All there is is lessons, no short cuts!
Q: (L) I want to get back on my question that you have not answered … I want to know who exactly, and why exactly, genetically engineered the Semitic people, and why there is such an adversarial attitude between them and the Celts and Aryans.
A: It is not just between the Jews and Celts, if you will take notice. Besides, it is the individual aural profile that counts and not groupings or classifications. But, to answer your question: there are many reasons both from on and off the planet.
Q: (L) Why was Hitler so determined, beyond all reason, even to his own self-destruction, to annihilate the Jews?
A: Many reasons and very complex. But, remember, while still a child, Hitler made a conscious choice to align himself with the “forces of darkness,” in order to fulfill his desires for conquest and to unite the Germanic peoples. Henceforth, he was totally controlled, mind, body, and soul, by STS forces.
Q: (L) So, what were the purposes of the STS forces that were controlling Hitler causing him to desire to annihilate an entire group of people?
A: To create an adequate “breeding ground” for the reintroduction of the Nephalim, for the purpose of total control of the third density earth prior to elevation to fourth density, where such conquest is more difficult and less certain!
Q: (L) Do you mean “breeding ground” in the sense of genetic breeding?
A: Yes. Third density.
Q: (L) Did they accomplish this goal?
A: No.
Q: (L) So, the creation of the Germanic Master Race was what they were going after, to create this breeding ground?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And, getting rid of the Jews was significant? Couldn’t a Germanic master race be created without destroying another group?
A: No.
Q: Why?
A: Because of fourth density prior encoding mission destiny profile.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: This means encoding to activate after elevation to fourth density, thus if not eliminated, negates Nephalim domination and absorption. Jews were prior encoded to carry out mission after conversion, though on individual basis. The Nazis did not exactly know why they were being driven to destroy them, because they were being controlled from fourth density STS. But, Hitler communicated directly with Lizards, and Orion STS, and was instructed on how to create the “master race.”
Q: (L) And they were going to use this as their basis to introduce a new blend of the Nephilim … (RC) And the New World Order … their version of it. (L) Meanwhile, back to the Celts: obviously if the lizard beings thought that the Aryans/Celts were a good breeding ground for this Nephilim Master Race, then it must be because there is something genetically inherent in them that makes them desirable in this sense. Is this correct?
A: No, not in the sense you are thinking. We suggest that you rephrase this question after careful reflection on the implications.
This was startling information, to say the least. And, true to form, Prince Lizard Machiavelli was in evidence in this cunning effort to make the Jews a scapegoat, all the while manipulating them through their own religion to be and act the part of the scapegoat. Oh, what a tangled web we weave!
After RC and her husband went home, I went to bed in a strangely excited state. I knew it was going to be difficult to get to sleep, so I began to practice meditative breathing exercises to relax myself. Suddenly, I saw a face right before me. It was as clear and real as if someone had entered the room. It is difficult to convey to anyone how truly solid and three-dimensional this face was. I did not know this face, but it was a man with light hair and glowing eyes and he looked at me so kindly and lovingly before he vanished like a popping balloon. I was so startled that I nearly lost my breath altogether, but with firm effort, I resumed my meditation and soon went to sleep.
I was pretty driven in the following days to try and figure out what it was about the purified Aryan genetic strain that was so desirable to the Reptoid beings. I wanted to find the exact series of questions that would bring forth the information that I needed to understand this problem. I finally thought I had figured out a way to ask the question:
Q: (L) I have thought about my question from the last session and I want to ask it this way: You have said that Hitler received instructions from higher density beings about creating a master race. Why were the Aryan genetic types seen to be more desirable for creation of this Germanic master race?
A: Both similarity and ancestral link most unblemished from Orion third and fourth density stock.
Q: (L) So they were essentially trying to breed a group of people like themselves?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, I don’t exactly understand why they had to put a lunatic like Hitler in charge of such a project and have him work at eliminating the undesirable strain …
A: Not point. How would you suggest creation?
Q: (L) OK. They were preparing this breeding ground, so to speak. Obviously this was for the introduction of some other genetic strain. What was this?
A: Nephalim.
Q: (L) Well, if the Nephilim are coming in ships, thirty-six million of them, why bother to create half-breeds here?
A: Yes, but having an “advance party” makes third density conquest much easier.
Q: (L) So, this master race was supposed to get everything ready …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) OK, what is it about the Semitic genes that was considered to be so undesirable in the creation of this master race at the third density level, excluding the “prior encoding” for fourth density activation issue?
A: Would blemish genetic characteristics inclined to ruthlessness and domination.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that there is something, some genetic tendency or set of genes in the Semitic type that would counteract this?
A: Close.
Q: (L) But isn’t the nature of a person determined by their soul and not the physical body?
A: Partially; remember, aural profile and karmic reference merges with physical structure.
Q: (L) So you are saying that particular genetic conditions are a physical reflection of a spiritual orientation? That the soul must match itself to the genetics, even if only in potential?
A: Yes, precisely.
Q: (L) So a person’s potential for spiritual advancement or unfoldment is, to a great extent, dependent upon their genes?
A: Natural process marries with systematic construct when present.
Q: (L) Well, if that is the case, and the aliens are abducting people and altering their genes, can they not alter the genes so that higher-level souls simply cannot come in?
A: Not incarnative process, natural biological processes. Incarnative involves strictly ethereal at fifth density and lower, and thus is enveloped in triple cycle “veil” of transfer which is impregnable by any means. However, any and all first, second, third, and fourth [density] processes can be manipulated at will and to any degree if technology is sufficient.
At this point, the background for my questions that led to the 3-5 code references was nearly set up. There were secret societies everywhere you looked: Celts, Aryans, Jews, Masons, Illuminati and alchemists; Rosicrucians, Templars and the Quorum. What a mess! During a discussion of all these secret societies with my guest, RC, I was informed that I must read all of the Holy Blood, Holy Grail series of books if I ever expected to understand anything.
Now, at some point in the early part of 1992 I had read an article about the book Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and I did think that the hypothesis presented by the authors, i.e. that Jesus had been married to Mary Magdalene and had children, was certainly possible, but not sufficiently interesting to me to warrant pursuing that particular line of investigation.
To familiarize the reader who has not pursued such subjects with the basic hypothesis, let me just say that when Holy Blood, Holy Grail was published in 1982, it aroused a firestorm of controversy. The local St. Petersburg Times, Florida, published a review that quoted the Rt. Rev. Montefiore as saying: “Academically absurd … howler after howler.”
This was balanced by a quote from one of the book’s author’s, Henry Lincoln saying: “Is it more plausible that a man should be married and have children, or that he should be born of a virgin, attended by choirs of angels, walk on water and rise from the grave?”
Excellent point, in my opinion.
The Duke of Devonshire who would be, according to the premise of the book, one of Jesus’ descendants, pronounced it “absolutely obnoxious.” Quoting from the Times article:
Research began with Lincoln’s preparation of a 1972 BBC documentary on a 19th century French priest, Bérenger Saunière. The cleric reputedly amassed great wealth after discovering and deciphering four parchments hidden in a hollow pillar of his church at Rennes-le-Château, a hilltop village in the south of France.
The authors say they have discovered those parchments, or facsimiles, still exist and disclose the existence of a secret society called the Prieuré de Sion, founded in the 11th century at the start of the Crusades. Its aim was to guard the Holy Grail — according to medieval legend, the cup used by Jesus at the Last Supper.
The authors claim the society remains active, and that its adherents over the years included Isaac Newton, Andre Malraux, Victor Hugo, Claude Debussy and Charles de Gaulle.
According to the authors, the words “Holy Grail” are a mistranslation of early French words for “royal blood,” and the true purpose of Prieuré de Sion is to protect alleged royal descendants of Jesus and prepare the way for their accession to world power.
To bolster their description of the society, they provide several chapters of scholarly references from legends, romances, paintings, documents and the Bible.
All this is controversial enough, but author Leigh said it led the three to reexamine the conventional interpretations of the New Testament. That study led them to propound a “hypothesis” that:
Jesus literally had a claim to being “king of the Jews” and was descended from the royal house of the Israelite King David.
He married Mary Magdalene and had at least one child by her.
He and sympathizers staged his Crucifixion and Resurrection and he survived into old age somewhere outside the Holy Land.
Mary Magdalene and her offspring made their way to southern France — then Roman-ruled Gaul.
Jesus’ bloodline mixed with that of the Franks and started the Merovingian dynasty of the early Middle Ages.
The Merovingian line extends into the modern noble houses of Europe, so Jesus’ descendants are alive today.
The book’s contentions have started a religious firestorm.
“It is a sign of the degeneracy of the times that a publisher like Jonathan Cape should take this book,” said Anglican Bishop Montefiore.
Montefiore catalogues what he calls “79 instances … of gross errors, vital omissions, gravely misleading statements or the adoption of way-out hypotheses.”
Another Anglican bishop, Rt. Rev. Mervyn Stockwood, was even less reserved. “Let them write a second book suggesting that Caesar married Boadicia and that the offspring is Ian Paisley,” he was quoted by The Times of London as saying.
The authors say they are merely making reasonable suppositions based on careful research and new evidence. They add that serious work on medieval history has been obscured by the furor over their conclusions.” (St. Petersburg Times, January 19, 1982, byline: Mark S. Smith)
As I say, I didn’t pay much attention to it other than filing it away in my mind. I was certainly never motivated to read the book. But, the subject was mentioned in a most curious way by the Cassiopaeans in our discussions about Jesus, and, like many important clues, it went right over my head. The question I asked was mainly concerned with the remarks in the Bible about the family of Jesus and I wanted to see what the Cassiopaeans would say about the purported “brothers” of Jesus, as well as the claim of the Catholic Church that his mother, the Virgin Mary, had lived her entire life as a sanctified virgin. So, I thought I would just slip the subject in there and see what came out of it:
Q: (L) Did Mary and Joseph, once together, subsequently have other children?
A: No. But Jesus did.
Q: (L) How many children were there?
A: Three.
Q: (L) Is that, as some people claim, the true meaning of the search for the Holy Grail, that it is not a cup but the “Sang Real,” or holy bloodline?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what happened to the children?
A: Survived and multiplied fruitfully.
Q: (L) Are there any descendants of Jesus living today?
A: 364,142.
There are several things about the above comments that are worthy of note. The first thing is that the Cassiopaeans volunteered the comment in response to a different question. They almost never do this unless it is something that is vital to know. At the time I was not aware of the significance of this fact. The second thing is the number of descendants. Anyone who does genealogy knows that this number, while seeming to be rather large, is actually very small. We are talking about 2,000 years of reproductive history where, if each of the three children really did multiply fruitfully, there would be a lot more than close to 400,000 descendants. But, the significance of that didn’t occur to me at the time either.
My guest, RC, told me that it was only in this book that I would find out the real key to who was on first, and in her opinion, it was the Priory of Sion! The who? The Prieuré de Sion! They were at the bottom of everything. Until I knew about them, I could not claim to know anything. Well, heck! I had hardly ever heard of them except in the article mentioned above. How come I had never come across a mention of them anywhere else? I had certainly dug pretty far and deep. Just who were these guys?
Maybe we can find out? After all, learning is fun!
1 Fletcher Prouty’s book, JFK: The CIA, Vietnam, and the Plot to Assassinate John F. Kennedy, is another must read.
2 U.S. intelligence term for camouflaging or disguising the true identity of equipment or individuals, especially for the use of military equipment or services — including personnel — in clandestine intelligence activities, generally under the direction of a nonmilitary sponsor.
3 http://www.kingsleydennis.com/Rosalie%20Bertell%20-%20Back
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The entry of the Prieuré de Sion or Priory of Sion onto the world stage occurred via the efforts of Henry Lincoln, Michael Baigent and Richard Leigh. It all began rather innocently when Lincoln, a television writer, was on an ordinary family vacation back in 1969, at which time he stumbled upon a little mystery that he had no idea was soon going to explode into the mass consciousness as a result of his curiosity. He writes in Holy Blood, Holy Grail:
…en route for a summer holiday in the Cévennes, I made the casual purchase of a paperback. Le Tresor Maudit [The Accursed Treasure] by Gérard de Sède was a mystery story — a lightweight, entertaining blend of historical fact, genuine mystery, and conjecture. It might have remained consigned to the post-holiday oblivion of all such reading had I not stumbled upon a curious and glaring omission in its pages.
The ‘accursed treasure’ of the title had apparently been found in the 1890s by a village priest through the decipherment of certain cryptic documents unearthed in his church. Although the purported texts of two of these documents were reproduced, the ‘secret messages’ said to be encoded within them were not. The implication was that the deciphered messages had again been lost. And yet, as I found, a cursory study of the documents reproduced in the book reveals at least one concealed message. Surely the author had found it. In working on his book he must have given the documents more than fleeting attention. He was bound, therefore, to have found what I had found. Moreover, the message was exactly the kind of titillating snippet of ‘proof’ that helps to sell a ‘pop’ paperback. Why had M. de Sède not published it? (Baigent et al. 2005, 10)
Lincoln goes on to say that this little omission continued to bother him “like an unfinished crossword puzzle,” so he decided to see if he couldn’t get funded to investigate it for a possible television show, thus satisfying his personal curiosity within the constraints of his work schedule which did not allow time for the investigation he would have liked to undertake.
The idea was received favorably by his employers at the BBC, and he was sent to dig deeper into the mystery so as to make a short film. Lincoln arranged to meet the author of the book, M. de Sède in Paris in 1970 and there, asked him the question, “Why didn’t you publish the message hidden in the parchments?” De Sède’s answer astounded Lincoln: “What message?”
It seemed inconceivable to me that he was unaware of this elementary message. Why was he fencing with me? Suddenly I found myself reluctant to reveal exactly what I had found. We continued an elliptical verbal fencing match for a few minutes. It thus became apparent that we were both aware of the message. I repeated my question, ‘Why didn’t you publish it?’ This time de Sède’s answer was calculated, ‘Because we thought it might interest someone like you to find it for yourself.’
That reply, as cryptic as the priest’s mysterious documents, was the first clear hint that the mystery of Rennes-le-Château was to prove much more than a simple tale of lost treasure. (Baigent et al. 2005, 10—11)
What kind of answer was that? Was Mr. Lincoln dealing with a very clever con artist, or some forces that were unknown? After all, nobody forced him to buy the book and read it; nobody forced him to be curious about the hidden message; nobody forced him to seek to investigate further. It was all a series of chance events. Or so it would seem. Nevertheless, there was the most curious fact that a number of documents, Dossiers secrets, had been “published” (i.e. deposited in the Bibliotheque Nationale of France) several years in advance of Gerard de Sède’s book and Henry Lincoln’s curiosity.
The earliest of these documents, dated August of 1965, is entitled Les descendants Merovingiens ou l’enigme du Razes Wisigoth (“The Merovingian descendants, or the enigma of Razes of the Visigoths”). Its purported author is a Madeleine Blancasall, and claims to have been translated from German by a Vincent Celse-Nazaire, and supposedly published by the Grande Loge Alpina. The document describes the descent of the Merovingians from their alleged biblical origin to the twentieth century, by way of the family of Plantard. The genealogy is signed by a Henri Lobineau.
Now, of course, M. de Sède helpfully informed Henry Lincoln in advance that he must not look under the name “Lobineau,” but instead “Schidlof.” Henry Lincoln notes that “Madeleine Blancassal” is clearly made up from a reference to Rennes-le-Château’s patron saint, Marie-Madeleine, linked with the names of the two rivers, the Blanque and the Sals which conjoin just to the south of Rennes-le-Bains, a town near Rennes-le-Château (Baigent et al. 2005, 111). And, of course, we note that the church of Rennes-les-Bains is dedicated to the two saints Celse and Nazaire. The Grande Loge Alpina, the main lodge of Swiss Freemasonry, denies all knowledge of this little work.
Nine months after the deposit of this curious genealogy, in May of 1966, another document was deposited in the Bibliotheque Nationale. It also bears the imprint of the Grande Loge Alpina and the title is Un tresor Merovingien a Rennes-le-Château. The author is Antoine l’Ermite. The grotto of St. Antony the Hermit is only a short distance from Rennes.
One month later, June 1966, another document was deposited in the Bibliotheque entitled Pierres gravees du Languedoc, and this was a purported reprint of an earlier book published in 1884 by Austrian historian, Eugene Stublein. Stublein did exist and did publish a book in 1877 entitled Description d’un voyage aux establissements thermaux de l’arrondissement de Limoux. There is, apparently, no known extant real copy of his 1884 book of which the 1966 version purports to be a copy.
Papers in the Dossiers also suggest that the author of the genealogies, Lobineau, was a pseudonym for this same Leo Schidlof, who had died in Switzerland the previous year. Schidlof’s daughter has insisted that he knew nothing of genealogy. So, we find a dead man’s name being used to give credibility to something with which he probably had absolutely no connection.
Then, in March of 1967, still another document was deposited in the Bibliotheque Nationale. It was entitled Le serpent rouge, and this one had three authors: Messieurs de Koker, Saint-Maxent and Feugere. There is some disagreement over the date on which, after the necessary red tape had been gone through, the document was considered to be officially published. The Depot legal states March 20, but Lincoln et al. gave it as January 17. This matter was investigated by another researcher, Franck Marie, who claims to have established the date of February 15. Whatever the date of deposit, it is a fact that Louis Saint-Maxent and Gaston de Koker were found hanged on March 6, and Pierre Feugere the following day.
Were these three men victims of revenge or a suicide pact as de Sède suggests? Their respective families all insist that the three were absolutely unacquainted with one another and that their deaths by hanging, so close to one another in time, are just horrible coincidence. The obvious conclusion is that someone found the names of three unrelated persons with suitable deaths in the French newspapers, put their names on this document, and then deposited it after falsifying the deposition slip, and that the date of March 20, as given by the Bibliotheque Nationale, is the correct date. Again, we have dead men being made authors of books they probably knew nothing about.
At about the same time of the publication of Gerard de Sède’s book L’or de Rennes, another document attributed to Henri Lobineau was deposited with the Bibliotheque Nationale entitled Dossiers secrets. Lincoln and colleagues say it was:
…a thin, nondescript volume, a species of folder with stiff covers which contained a loose assemblage of ostensibly unrelated items — news clippings, letters pasted to backing-sheets, pamphlets, numerous genealogical trees and the odd printed page apparently extracted from the body of some other work. Periodically some of the individual pages would be removed. At different times other pages would be freshly inserted. On certain pages additions and corrections would sometimes be made in a minuscule longhand. At a later date, these pages would be replaced by new ones, printed and incorporating previous emendations. (Baigent et al. 2005, 112)
The main thrust of this odd collection of items was the establishing of Pierre Plantard de Saint-Clair as a direct lineal descendant of Dagobert II, who was assassinated in 679 and was not known to have had any legitimate issue. It seems that the name “Lobineau,” was derived from the Rue Lobineau near Saint-Sulpice in Paris, the church that plays a significant part in the story of Bérenger Saunière.
But, before we proceed, let’s just give the story itself a general overview: In 1885, at the age of 33, Abbé Bérenger Saunière became priest of Rennes-le-Château and employed a young girl named Marie Denarnaud as his housekeeper. She became his lifetime companion and confidante. The church was terribly run down and the village was poor and it seemed that Abbé Saunière faced a life of penury and obscurity.
However, he received a serendipitous donation (though the source of this money varies from researcher to researcher) and decided to upgrade his church a bit. During the renovation work, he supposedly discovered some mysterious documents containing a coded message. He then made a trip to Paris and hung out with some fellows with connections to the Parisian occult world, purchased copies of an odd selection of paintings from the Louvre, and returned to Rennes. At this point it is said that his behavior suggested strange doings. He was reported to have been tramping around the country side collecting rocks, holing up in the church doing secretive things at night, and then, ultimately, redecorating the church in a bizarre way. At some point, he traveled a great deal and it was reported that money poured in to his housekeeper during his travels, originating, it is said, from various religious houses around Europe. Over the next twenty years, Abbé Saunière allegedly spent huge amounts of money on his building projects, entertaining lavishly, living the high life and other activities.
That’s the basic story. Of course, there were a couple of murders tossed in for good measure and an on-again, off-again friendship with another priest who was equally mysterious and clearly involved in whatever was going on.
The region already had legends of buried treasure, and now it was thought that Abbé Saunière found it or, at least, part of it. Now, the curious story of the “accursed treasure” of Rennes-le-Château was to be brought to the attention of the world by the BBC through the efforts of Henry Lincoln.
At his meeting with Gerard de Sède, Lincoln indicated that he wanted to make this short television program. De Sède agreed to assist in such a project by digging up all the information he could and sending it to Lincoln.
First came the full text of a major encoded message, which spoke of the painters Poussin and Teniers. This was fascinating. The cipher was unbelievably complex. We were told it had been broken by experts of the French Army Cipher Department, using computers. As I studied the convolutions of the code, I became convinced that this explanation was, to say the least, suspect. I checked with cipher experts of British Intelligence. They agreed with me. ‘The cipher does not present a valid problem for a computer.’ The code was unbreakable. Someone, somewhere, must have the key. (Baigent et al. 2005, 11)
In other words, whoever deciphered the documents must have also possessed the key either by virtue of being the author of the documents and key, or by having been given same.
And then de Sède dropped his second bombshell. A tomb resembling that in Poussin’s famous painting ‘Les Bergeres d’Arcadie’, had been found. He would send details ‘as soon as he had them’. Some days later the photographs arrived and it was clear that our short film on a small local mystery had begun to assume unexpected dimensions. (Baigent et al. 2005, 11)
This item, the Poussin painting, “The Shepherds of Arcadia,” had a strange effect on me at the time that I was reading the story. There was a reproduction of it in the article about the Rennes-le-Château mystery, but it was a poor copy. I was thumbing through an art book on my shelves, trying to find any scholarly commentary, and lo and behold, there was a large, full-page reproduction of it right there. I cut it out of the book and pinned it to the wall over my desk where I could see it all the time and went back to studying the matter at hand.
With the addition of such mysterious developments, Henry Lincoln decided to do more research and make a longer program. The first screening of The Lost Treasure of Jerusalem, which was the result of the first stages of research into the matter, was in February of 1972. Essentially, the conclusion was that Abbé Saunière had discovered the Temple Treasure of the Jews. Supposedly, it had been taken by the Romans and then, when the Visigoths sacked Rome, they took it and it ended up in Rennes-le-Château.
Apparently, the public was consumed with curiosity about this mystery, so a follow-up film was planned with more research. In 1974, The Priest, the Painter and the Devil was screened, and it was an unmitigated hit with viewers. More research was needed and Mr. Lincoln decided that the many complexities of the mystery were too much for one man, so Richard Leigh, a writer with graduate degrees and knowledge of history, philosophy, and esoterica was brought onboard. Richard brought in Michael Baigent, a photojournalist and researcher of Templar history. The three of them began to dig into the problem of Rennes-le-Château in a more thorough way and produced another television special entitled The Shadow of The Templars in 1979. Mr. Lincoln writes:
The work we did on that film at last brought us face to face with the underlying foundations upon which the entire mystery of Rennes-le-Château had been built. But the film could only hint at what we were beginning to discern. Beneath the surface was something more startling, more significant, and more immediately relevant than we could have believed possible when we began our work on the ‘intriguing little mystery’ of what a French priest might have found in a mountain village.
In 1972 I closed my first film with the words, ‘Something extraordinary is waiting to be found … and in the not too distant future, it will be.’ (Baigent et al. 2005, 12)
What Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent claim to have found is the secret that Jesus was a king in a long line of priest-kings, and that he had been married to Mary Magdalene, produced a child, born posthumously (after his crucifixion), and that this child had been spirited away to France to be the progenitor of the kings of the Franks, the Merovingians, and that this Holy/Royal Bloodline is the real secret contained in the mysteries of the Holy Grail stories.
How in the world did a story about a possible hidden treasure found by an obscure priest in a remote corner of rural France transmogrify itself into that?
Good question. It’s a complicated story that you will have to read on your own for all the juicy details, but intimately connected to the “how” of it, and far more important, is the “who says?” The answer: a group calling itself Le Prieuré de Sion, The Priory of Sion, and its purported agent, Pierre Plantard. Messrs. Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent write in the conclusion of Holy Blood, Holy Grail:
We were looking for answers to certain perplexing questions, explanations for certain historical enigmas. In the process we more or less stumbled upon something rather greater than we had initially bargained for. We were led to a startling, controversial, and seemingly preposterous conclusion.
…We were simply endeavouring to ascertain whether or not our conclusion was tenable. An exhaustive consideration of biblical material convinced us that it was. Indeed, we became convinced that our conclusion was not only tenable, but also extremely probable. (Baigent et al. 2005, 441)
Note that they stumbled upon, and were led to this conclusion, and it was, apparently, the idea that the Priory of Sion wanted them to believe and publish. About the latter they say:
If we cannot prove our conclusion, however, we have received abundant evidence — from both their documents and their representatives — that the Prieuré de Sion can. On the basis of their written hints and their personal conversations with us, we are prepared to believe that Sion does possess something — something that does in some way amount to ‘incontrovertible proof’ of the hypothesis we have advanced. (Baigent et al. 2005, 442)
What do they think this proof is that is in the possession of the Priory of Sion? They write:
If our hypothesis were correct, the Holy Grail would have been at least two things simultaneously: On the one hand, it would have been Jesus’ bloodline and descendants — the ‘Sang Raal’, the ‘Real’ or ‘Royal’ blood of which the Templars, created by the Prieuré de Sion were appointed guardians. At the same time the Holy Grail would have been, quite literally, the receptacle, or vessel, that received and contained Jesus’ blood. In other words, it would have been the womb of the Magdalene — and by extension, the Magdalene herself.
…But it may have been something else as well. In a.d. 70, during the great revolt in Judaea, Roman legions under Titus sacked the temple of Jerusalem. The pillaged treasure of the temple is said to have found its way eventually to the Pyrenees; and M. Plantard, in his conversation with us, stated that this treasure was in the hands of the Prieuré de Sion today. But the temple of Jerusalem may have contained more than the treasure plundered by Titus’ centurions. In ancient Judaism religion and politics were inseparable. The Messiah was to be a priest-king whose authority encompassed spiritual and secular domains alike. It is thus likely, indeed probable, that the temple housed official records pertaining to Israel’s royal line — the equivalents of the birth certificates, marriage licenses, and other relevant data concerning any modern royal or aristocratic family. If Jesus was indeed ‘King of the Jews’ the temple is almost certain to have contained copious information relating to him. It may even have contained his body … (Baigent et al. 2005, 443)
There are a few problems with this. If M. Plantard claims that the Priory of Sion holds the treasure of Solomon’s Temple, they must have a pretty empty treasury! And maybe that’s why Plantard has been known to do the “midnight flit” without paying his rent (as has been reported by a number of researchers into his past and background). You see, the Temple of Solomon1 was looted by Antiochus Epiphanes, not Titus. And, of course, this was after the Temple had been sacked by Rameses in 930 bce, and the Babylonians in 586 bce.
As I have written in my series “Who Wrote the Bible?”2 the existence of the original Temple of Solomon is problematical. There is actually no evidence that it even existed — in Israel, that is. Yet, somehow, the scribe Ezra managed to convince Cyrus, King of Persia, of the “chosenness” of his people, thereby garnering support for the return of the Jews to Israel and the “rebuilding of the temple.” I would suggest that this was not a “rebuilding,” but an original building motivated by myths and legends patched together by Ezra, extended in time by endless, fake genealogies designed to deceive. By convincing Cyrus that the Israelites had been guided and chosen by the “One God,” he would naturally think that he would be blessed by Israel’s god if he assisted this project.
According to the Book of Ezra, there was a whole slew of treasure given to the Jews by the Persians to put in their new temple. This was done approximately 516 bce and, supposedly, for the next 481 years the treasure of Solomon’s rebuilt temple just hung out there doing what treasure in a temple is supposed to do. We should note right here that the Ark of the Covenant disappeared from view and discussion between 750 bce and 650 bce, more than a hundred years before Ezra, who would have, if he had been able to do so without being caught out at lying, claimed that it was still present among the treasure.
Over and over again we read in these Rennes-le-Château books a citation from Josephus that Titus sacked the Temple in Jerusalem and made off with the treasure. However, that is not quite accurate, as I have just noted above. Here is the relevant excerpt from Josephus about the loss of the treasure of the Temple:
King Antiochus … got possession of the city by treachery; at which time he spared not so much as those that admitted him into it, on account of the riches that lay in the temple; but, led by his covetous inclination, (for he saw there was in it a great deal of gold, and many ornaments that had been dedicated to it of very great value,) and in order to plunder its wealth, he ventured to break the league he had made. So he left the temple bare, and took away the golden candlesticks, and the golden altar [of incense], and table [of shew-bread], and the altar [of burnt-offering]; and did not abstain from even the veils, which were made of fine linen and scarlet. He also emptied it of its secret treasures, and left nothing at all remaining; and by this means cast the Jews into great lamentation, for he forbade them to offer those daily sacrifices which they used to offer to God, according to the law. [emphasis added] (Josephus 1999, 403—404)
Note that Josephus clearly says that Antiochus “left the Temple bare.” Not only that, but he also “emptied it of its secret treasure, and left nothing at all remaining.” Those are strong words, and nowhere does Josephus indicate that the Temple was ever again replenished in terms of treasure.
The short version of the story is that in the year 175 bce, Antiochus IV, also known as Epiphanes, murdered Seleucus IV and took the throne. In the year 169 bce Antiochus invaded Egypt in an attempt to destroy the Ptolemaic Dynasty. Soon it was rumored back in Palestine that the king had been killed in battle. The news of Antiochus’ death was false, however, and when he returned to Jerusalem, he entered the Temple and stole a great deal of valuable treasure, an act which the pious Jews looked upon as an abomination before God.
The following year (168 bce) Antiochus renewed his campaign against the Egyptians, but he was stopped by the Roman representative Popilius Laenus, and was ordered to leave Egypt and never come back. This so infuriated Antiochus that he came back and took out his frustration on the city of Jerusalem. He tore down the city walls, slaughtered a great many of the Jews, ordered the Jewish Scriptures to be destroyed, and he and his soldiers brought prostitutes into the Temple and there had sex with them in order to defile the Temple. He also issued orders that everyone was to worship the Greek gods, and established the death penalty for anyone who practiced circumcision, or who observed the Sabbath or any of the Jewish religious feasts and sacrifices. The cruelty of Antiochus in enforcing these new laws against the Jews became legendary. The final outrage for the pious Jews of the land came when Antiochus sacked the Temple and erected an altar there to the pagan god Zeus. Then, on December 25, 168 bce, Antiochus offered a pig to Zeus on the altar of Yahweh.
Now, if the treasure was taken by Antiochus in 169 bce, that is 200 years before Titus sacked Jerusalem, and during all of this time, Jerusalem was in an almost constant state of occupation by foreign powers, oppression or revolt, such conditions were definitely not conducive to either assembling or displaying any treasure of significance, much less keeping any! Josephus never mentions any “restoration of the treasure” to the temple. What Antiochus did with it, we can only guess, but the likelihood is that it was spent wildly and wantonly.
Nevertheless, one writer on Rennes-le-Château claims that confirmation of the existence of this treasure comes from the 1952 discovery of the Copper Scroll in Cave 3, Qumran. This turned out to be a list of 64 hiding places in Jerusalem and surrounding districts, where gold, silver, Temple offerings and so forth are said to have been deposited. In modern terms, it amounts to 65 tons of silver and 26 tons of gold.
The experts are arguing over it, but the consensus of opinion is that the style of the document, i.e. dry realism, along with the fact that it is recorded on copper, a valuable metal in its own right which therefore would not have been used to record a fairy tale, all contribute to the idea that it describes a real treasure. Now, just what treasure it was describing is in dispute. Was this the treasure from the Temple at Jerusalem?
Not very likely. In the first place, the scroll was found among the Essene Qumran documents. The Essenes were, according to initial expert assessments, dedicated opponents of the Temple at Jerusalem; so the Essene community would have been a hostile environment for such a list, to say the least, if it were the Temple treasure. Besides that difficulty, it is not likely that the sacking of the Temple was foreseen so that any treasure, if it had existed by this time, could have been hidden. And, of course, hidden treasure around the time of the fall of Jerusalem to Titus contradicts the words of Josephus who has already told us that it was all plundered by Antiochus.3
There are experts who propose that the treasure listed on the Copper scroll belonged to the Essenes themselves, which is hard to understand since they were advocates of poverty, simplicity and were a relatively small community.
So, that is all that can safely be said about the “proof” of the Copper scroll. It is certainly suggestive of some group that had a treasure, but just who or what this group was cannot be determined.
In 35 bce, Herod decided to build a new Temple because, apparently, the old one was pretty run-down and must have been falling apart. It was this temple that was sacked by Titus. It is possible that Herod did some decorating and jazzed things up with a little gold here and there, but it is unlikely that he had the resources to adorn his temple in the manner of the former one. Josephus’ remarks relating to the Roman sacking of the temple of Herod are as follows:
Accordingly, the number of the high priests, from the days of Herod until the day when Titus took the temple and the City, and burnt them, were in all twenty-eight; the time also that belonged to them was a hundred and seven years. (Josephus 1999, 644)
Notice that here, Josephus made no mention of Titus making off with the Treasure of the Temple. Yet, Baigent, Leigh and Lincoln cite a record of this purported carrying off of the treasure by Titus, and everybody who has researched in Rennes-le-Château since then has referred back to this “original research” of Baigent, Leigh and Lincoln, which claims that Titus and the Romans took possession of the treasure of the Jewish Temple. It has even been said that the Arch of Titus, built in 81 ce by the senate at Rome, is proof of this because it has a bas-relief depicting the return of the triumphant General Titus, the priceless seven-branched candlestick carried on the shoulders of Jewish prisoners.
If you look at this bas-relief, you see the giant menorah and an object that can only be a stylized representation of the scroll of the Torah. I have to think that this “proof” that Titus obtained the treasure of the Temple at Jerusalem may fall under the category of artistic symbolism. How else could one express the conquest of the Jews other than depicting their main religious symbols on a bas-relief? Of course, this menorah taken by Titus could certainly have been gold, but it seems clear that the main treasure, the piles of loot that everyone is looking for, actually disappeared with Antiochus, and what he did with it is anybody’s guess. However, such a detail as that doesn’t stop the Rennes-le-Château crowd! The story continues that when the Visigoths sacked Rome, Alaric took the temple treasure of Jerusalem and it ended up in the Languedoc.
The conclusions reached by Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent are very well-presented, even if somewhat carelessly researched, and it is much easier to read them as they originally wrote them than to attempt to summarize all of them, but the main point should be that the whole thing started with Gerard De Sède’s book Le tresor maudit de Rennes, which Henry Lincoln read on his vacation in France. Also keep in mind that most of the source notes in the back of the book refer to the information supplied by the purported Priory of Sion and its agents.
The intrepid threesome was pretty busy. By the time they finish with their investigation, we have not only the treasure of the Temple of Solomon hiding at Rennes, we also have the treasure of the Templars and the treasure of the Cathars; we have all the noble families of the region connected to the Templars as guardians of the Grail; we have the Holy Grail and maybe even the Ark of the Covenant. Heck, all the mysteries of the whole blasted planet are right there in Rennes-le-Château for the enterprising treasure-seeker to discover! And the Pied Piper is the Priory of Sion.
The whole deal about the Priory of Sion boils down to this: their claim is that a secret order, the Priory, predates the Knights Templar and that the Templars were actually created as the military and administrative arm of this other group. Supposedly, the heads of this Prieuré de Sion, Grand Masters as they are called, are nearly all people whose names are famous through history.
Supposedly, even though the Templars were dissolved between 1307 and 1314, the Prieuré was untouched by this tragedy, and continues up to the present day, playing a significant part in contemporary international affairs. And, here’s the clincher: its declared objective is the restoration of the Merovingian dynasty. Why? Well, because they are supposed to be the descendants of Jesus and Mary Magdalene and the proof is in their long hair! (Just joking!)
The Merovingian dynasty issued from the Sicambrians, a tribe of the Germanic people collectively known as the Franks. Between the fifth and seventh centuries the Merovingians ruled large parts of what are now France and Germany. The period of their ascendancy coincides with the period of King Arthur — a period that constitutes the setting for the romances of the Holy Grail. It is probably the most impenetrable period of what are now called the Dark Ages. But the Dark Ages, we discovered, had not been truly dark. On the contrary, it quickly became apparent to us that someone had deliberately obscured them. To the extent that the Roman Church exercised a veritable monopoly on learning, and especially on writing, the records that survived represent certain vested interests. Almost everything else has been lost — or censored. (Baigent et al. 2005, 269)
Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent (LL&B) say that there are enigmas surrounding the origins of the Merovingians because they did not find any abrupt transition or usurpation — that they seemed already to rule over the Franks; that they were duly-acknowledged kings. Not only that, it seems that there was something special about the one who gave the name to the dynasty, Mérovée/Merovech/Meroveus. They state that he was a semi-supernatural figure.
LL&B say that according to both the leading Frankish chronicler and subsequent tradition, Meroveus was born of two fathers. When already pregnant by her husband, King Clodio, Mérovée’s mother supposedly went swimming in the ocean. In the water she is said to have been seduced or raped by a “Quinotaur.” What a Quinotaur is, we have no clue. Nevertheless, this creature impregnated her a second time and when Mérovée was born, he had a dual bloodline.
Yes, it is true that very often, behind a facade of legend lays a truth. And here LL&B suggest that the seed of truth behind this one is that there was intermarriage of some sort, a pedigree transmitted through the mother, as in Judaism, for instance. The idea is bruited that this might indicate an alliance with someone from “beyond the sea.”
The first thing we want to look at is the tradition of the origins of the Merovingians. The History of the Franks, by their chronicler, Gregory of Tours, is, in the words of translator Lewis Thorpe, “spattered with blood and festers with pus, it re-echoes with the animal screams of men and women being tortured unto death: yet Gregory never once questions this effective method of exacting confession, implicating confederates, or simply satisfying the bloodlust of Queens and Kings. … Time and time again, usually at the conclusion of some most serious passage, of some stomach-turning description, he adds an amusing comment, often a sly quip at himself” (Gregory 1974, 15).
I can assure you myself that this is not a book for the highly-imaginative or the squeamish. It’s a great read, however, and what may happen to you by the time you finish reading it is that you will think: good riddance! What person in their right mind would want those lunatics back in power? There is definitely something about the Merovingian blood — it is tainted with madness.
According to Ian Wood, author of The Merovingian Kingdoms, 450-751 a.d., the Franks were the last of the invaders of Gaul and the most successful. In spite of this, their origins are shrouded in mist. Clovis’ father, Childeric I, is the first of the dynasty who is well attested by legitimate sources, and, before him, most of the evidence for a royal dynasty is legend. The Franks were reasonably well known to the Roman emperors in the fourth century; but even they couldn’t make up their minds as to whom, exactly, they were. What Gregory of Tours says in book II.9 of his History of the Franks is:
Many people do not even know the name of the first king of the Franks. The Historia of Sulpicius Alexander [which has been lost, by the way] gives many details about them, while Valentinus does not name their first King but says that they were ruled by war-leaders. (Gregory 1974, 120)
Gregory then quotes directly from the Historia (and, further on, other historical records):
“At that time the Franks invaded the Roman province of Germania under their leaders Genobaud, Marcomer and Sunno … A few days later there was a short parley with Marcomer and Sunno, the royal leaders [whether this meant kings or merely exercising a kingly function is uncertain] of the Franks. … That same year Arbogast [general in the western Roman Empire], urged on by tribal hatred, went in search of Sunno and Marcomer, the kinglets of the Franks. … He … crossed the River Rhine and laid waste the land nearest to the bank, where the Bructeri lived, and the region occupied by the Chamavi. He did this without meeting any opposition, except that a few Amsivarii and Chatti showed themselves on the far-distant ridges of the hills, with Marcomer as their war-leader.”
A few pages further on, having given up all talk of ‘duces’ and ‘regales’, he states clearly that the Franks had a king, but he forgets to tell us what his name was.
“The next thing which happened was that the tyrant Eugenius led a military expedition as far as the frontier marked by the Rhine. He renewed the old traditional treaties with the kings of the Alamanni and the Franks, and he paraded his army, which was immense for that time, before their savage tribesmen.” (Gregory 1974, 120—123)
Gregory then quips, “So much for the information that this chronicler Sulpicius Alexander has to give us about the Franks,” and proceeds to the account of Renatus Profuturs Frigeridus, who describes the Goths’ capture and destruction of Rome:
“Meanwhile Goar had gone over to the Romans, and Respendial, the King of the Alani, therefore withdrew his forces from the Rhine. The Vandals were hard-pressed in their war against the Franks, their King Godigisel was killed and about twenty thousand of their front-line troops had been slaughtered, so that, if the army of the Alani had not come to their rescue in time, the entire nation of Vandals would have been wiped out.”
It is an extraordinary thing that, although he tells us about the kings of these various peoples, including the Franks, when he describes how Constantine, who had become a tyrant, summoned his son Constans to come from Spain to meet him, he goes on:
“ …They sent Edobech to contain the people of Germania and they themselves set out for Gaul, with the Franks, the Alamanni and a whole band of soldiery … Constantine had been beleaguered for about four months when messengers arrive all of a sudden from northern Gaul to announce that Jovinus had assumed the rank of Emperor and was about to attack the besieging forces with the Burgundes, the Alamanni, the Franks, the Alani and a large army. … “
After a few more sentences, Frigeridus goes on:
“ …The city of Trier was sacked and burnt by the Franks in a second attack.”
He notes that Asterius was made a patrician by a patent signed by the Emperor and then he continues:
“At this time Castinus, Master of the Imperial Household, was sent to Gaul, as a campaign had been begun against the Franks.”
That concludes what these two historians have to say about the Franks. (Gregory 1974, 123—124)
In other words, several mentions of the Franks and the various campaigns fought against them, but not much else. Gregory then moves on to book VII of the work of Orosius, who states that, “Stilicho took command of an army, crushed the Franks, crossed the Rhine, made his way across Gaul and came finally to the Pyrenees.” Gregory comments: “The historians whose works we still have give us all this information about the Franks, but they never record the names of their kings” (Gregory 1974, 124).
It is commonly said that the Franks came originally from Pannonia [the region of present-day western Hungary] and first colonized the banks of the Rhine. Then they crossed the river, marched through Thuringia, and set up in each country district and each city longhaired kings chosen from the foremost and most noble family of their race. … We read in the consular lists that Theudemer, King of the Franks, son of Richemer, and his mother Ascyla, were executed with the sword. They also say that Clodio, a man of high birth and marked ability among his people, was King of the Franks and that he lived in the castle of Duisburg in Thuringian territory. … Some say that Merovech, the father of Childeric, was descended from Clodio.
This particular race of people seems always to have followed idolatrous practices. … They fashioned idols for themselves out of the creatures of the woodlands and the waters, out of birds and beasts: these they worshipped … and to these they made their sacrifices.
Childeric, King of the Franks, whose private life was one long debauch, began to seduce the daughters of his subjects. They were so incensed about this that they forced him to give up his throne. He discovered that they intended to assassinate him and he fled to Thuringia. He left behind a close friend of his who was able to soothe the minds of his angry subjects with his honeyed words.
Childeric entrusted to him a token, which should indicate when he might return to his homeland. They broke a gold coin into two equal halves. Childeric took one half with him and the friend kept the other half. “When I send my half to you,” said his friend, “and the two halves placed together make a complete coin, you will know that you may return home safe and sound.”
Childeric then set out for Thuringia and took refuge with King Bisinus and his wife Basina. [After eight years] Childeric’s faithful friend succeeded in pacifying them secretly and he sent messengers to the exile with the half of the broken coin … By this token Childeric knew for sure that the Franks wanted him back, indeed that they were clamouring for him to return.
…Now that Bisinus and Childeric were both kings, Queen Basina … deserted her husband and joined Childeric. He questioned her closely as to why she had come from far away to be with him, and she is said to have answered: “I know that you are a strong man and I recognize ability when I see it. I have therefore come to live with you. You can be sure that if I knew anyone else, even far across the sea, who was more capable than you, I should have sought him out and gone to live with him instead.” This pleased Childeric very much and he married her. She became pregnant and bore a son whom she called Clovis.” (Gregory 1974, 125—129)
Nevertheless, despite the uncertainty in the historical record, the myths and legends that have been shaped around them may hold some clues. On the other hand, they may be more red herrings. Historian Ian Wood writes:
Writing in the mid-seventh century, probably in Burgundy, the chronicler known as Fredegar recorded the tradition that Priam [king of Troy] was the first king of the Franks. Friga succeeded him. The people then split up, some remaining in Macedonia, others following Friga to the Danube and the Ocean. There a further division took place. Some stayed and, ruled by Torcoth, they became known as Turks, while others followed Francio to the Rhine, where they became known as Franks. Thereafter, under the leadership of military leaders, duces, they remained undefeated.
Another version of this Trojan origin legend was written down in 727 by the [anonymous] author of the Liber Historiae Francorum. According to him or her, after the fall of Troy Priam and Antenor led twelve thousand men to the river Tanais, and then to the Maeotic swamps. From there they moved to Pannonia, where they built a city called Sicambria. Meanwhile the emperor Valentinian offered remission of tribute for ten years to any people who could drive the Alans out of the Maeotic swamps. This the Trojans did, and as a result they were called Franci, which the author thought was the Attic for ‘fierce’. When the ten years were over the Romans tried to reimpose tribute on the Franks, but the latter killed the tax collectors. As a result Valentinian sent troops against them, but they fought back. In the battle Priam was killed. The Franks left Sicambria, and moved to the Rhine. There Sunno, Antenor’s son, died, and on the recommendation of Priam’s son, Marchomir, the Franks elected Faramund as their rex crinitus, or long-haired king.
…Common to both [these stories] are Trojan and migration traditions. The Trojan story is first recorded in Fredegar, and it seems to have had some vogue in seventh and eighth century Francia, where other Trojan legends were preserved. …
Gregory of Tours seems not to have known about the Trojan origin of the Franks, but he did know an undeveloped version of their migration legend. He thought that the Franks came from Pannonia, and that they crossed the Rhine, and marched through Thuringia … [which makes no sense, geographically.] The peculiar geography involved has disturbed many, who have wanted to emend Thuringia to Tongres, and emendation already made by a scribe of one manuscript of Gregory’s Histories. … As for the fuller versions of the migration, as preserved in Fredegar’s Chronicle and in the Liber Historiae Francorum, they may have been written in response to the origin legends of the Goths, which had been developed by Cassiodorus. In fact there is no reason to believe that the Franks were involved in any long-distance migration: archaeology and history suggest that they originated in the lands immediately to the east of the Rhine.…
The Franks first appear in historical sources relating to the barbarian invasions of the third century. There they are already established in the region of the lower Rhine. … It is generally thought that they were a new people only in name, and that they were made up of tribes such as the Amsivarii, Chattuarii and Chatti, who are mentioned in earlier sources, but rarely, if at all, in later ones. At the end of the century the Franks appear in the Latin panygyrics as a maritime people, causing trouble in the Channel. As such, they were the precursors of the Saxons, who came to be more and more associated with attacks on the coasts of northern Gaul and Britain. By the late fourth century, in fact, the Saxons were said to have been involved in raids, which had previously been ascribed to the Franks.
…In the fourth century the Franks were also in close contact with the Romans, as allies and as recruits for the imperial forces. … One or two even gained the consulship.
…Sulpicius Alexander recorded conflict in 389 between Arbogast [mentioned above by Gregory], a Frank who held high military office in the empire, and two regales, or petty kings, of the Franks, Sunno and Marcomer, and he revealed that the latter was the war leader of the Amsivarii and the Chatti.
The History of Frigeridus covered events of a slightly later period. From it Gregory learnt about the activities of the Franks in the first decades of the fifth century, including their involvement in the civil wars, which followed the usurpation by Constantine III. [emphasis added] (Wood 1994, 33—36)
The fact is, nobody really knows who the Franks were or where they came from. It has been conjectured that they were barbarian tribes from the East that met and mingled with the Frisians. The areas that the Frisians originate from (from what is now the northwestern Netherlands, across northwestern Germany, and to the border of Denmark) was settled as early as 3500 bce. There were comings and goings of additional peoples as the archaeological records show, and it seems to be possible to systematically track who was who and who went where by their pottery and other artifacts.
During the period 400—200 bce, the archaeology shows that a group with its own identity developed from the Weser-Ems and Drenthe settlers. This group was called the Proto-Frisian culture by archaeologists. These Proto-Frisians lived in an area between modern Leiden and Delfzijl. Over the coming centuries, this group of Proto-Frisians expanded to fill the whole of the habitable region.
The coming of the Romans to the southern Netherlands in 12 bce prevented the Frisians from expanding their territory to the south of the Amstel and the Rhine. Around the year 150 bce, the Frisians also lost the Groningen salt-marshes to the Chatti who had advanced from East Friesland.
A list of place-names compiled in Alexandria by geographer Claudius Ptolameus (Ptolemy) c.150 ce was turned into maps by Europeans in the fifteenth century. These maps also supply the names of those tribes dwelling along the North Sea coastal regions. The evidence indicates that Saxons lived in southwest Jutland (Ribe and southwards), North Friesland and Ditmarschen — as far as the Elbe. Between the Elbe and the Weser lived the “greater” Chatti, while the “lesser” Chatti lived in East Friesland. The description given by Ptolemy agrees with what has been reconstructed from the archaeological finds.
Depopulation of the Frisian salt-marshes occurred between 250 and 400 ce due to the rising sea levels and flooding and, undoubtedly, the cometary destruction of Europe. This resulted in an almost total depopulation of the Frisians in North Holland. This depopulation not only affected Frisian areas. In the Baltic and northern European coastal regions, the population retreated to the higher areas inland during the second century ce. Where the Frisians went still cannot be stated with certainty. It is thought that some of them migrated to Flanders in the third century, and from there crossed over to Kent in England. Frisian Tritzumer pottery has been found in both regions. Kerst Huisman has theorized that the Frisians of the flooded salt-marshes migrated to East Friesland and there, together with the Chatti, formed the tribe known as the Franks. There came into being, at any rate, a new tribe bearing the name of the Franks about the year 300 ce.
The presence of the tribe known as the Chatti has been mentioned by several ancient sources. What I find to be of great interest is that the Hittites were also known as the Chatti, and Abraham, the patriarch of the Jews, was theorized by many researchers to have been a Hittite.4 That is to say, an Aryan. I began to wonder if the so-called pejorative characteristics that were historically assigned to Jews might actually be a cultural inheritance of a particular Aryan mixture? It is, after all, the “Salic Law,” from the Salian Franks, that deprived women of the rights of inheritance and the position of women was seriously degraded with the impostion of monotheism through Judaism.
Gregory could not understand how the Franks of the late fourth and early fifth centuries could be related to those led by the Merovingians in the late fifth and sixth centuries. What distressed him the most was the failure to talk about the royal lines, the kings (if Gregory had read Ammianus Marcellinus, as Wood notes, he would have known about a Frankish king called Mallobaudes). Gregory tried to make the semi-legendary Faramund (son of Marcomer), the father of Chlodio. This would have served to unite the Trojan and Merovingian families, based on the Trojan origin stories mentioning Faramund. Fredegar, on the other hand, clearly stated the Trojan origin and then, after the death of Francio, just said that they were ruled by duces, or petty kings. This was his explanation for the lack of a royal family that was so upsetting to Gregory.
Fredegar also provided an account of Merovech’s birth, which may cast light both on the origins of the Merovingians and also on the strangeness of the account by Gregory.
According to Fredegar, Merovech was conceived when Chlodio’s wife went swimming, and encountered a Quinotaur. Although is not explicitly stated that this sea-monster was the father of the eponymous founder of the Merovingian dynasty, that is clearly the impression which Fredegar intended to give. The royal dynasty, thus, was thought to have had a supernatural origin. Gregory may well have known of these claims, and have thought of them as pagan. Whereas Fredegar relates the tale of the encounter with the Quinotaur, in the corresponding section of his Histories the bishop of Tours has an outburst against idolatry.
The origin legend of the Merovingians as recorded by Fredegar is important not only for its suggestion that the family claimed to be descended from a supernatural ancestor, but also for the implications it has for the rise of the dynasty. (Wood 1994, 37)
It seems that we have a serious problem here: Chlodio was recorded by Sidonius Apollinaris as having lost a battle at the vicus Helena in Artois — an event that took place c. 448 ce. Merovech would then have to belong to the second half of the fifth century if he was Chlodio’s son. This suggests that the emergence of the family as a power should also be dated to this same period. At the same time, Faramund, who is supposed to have been Chlodio’s father, is not attested to in any early source. In other words, the Merovingians were not a significant dynasty at all before the mid-fifth century. Their origins were separate and later than those of their people.
In this respect, we can see that it is possible that Thuringia may have truly been more significant to the family of Meroveus than to the origins of the Franks themselves. If we consider the fact that Merovech’s son, Childeric, had close ties to Thuringia (remember the story of Basina from Gregory), it is altogether possible that the Merovingians originated in the east of Frankish territory. In other words, the Trojan origin story of the Franks seems to belong to the people themselves, and not the family of Merovech. The family’s own stories of its origins are peculiarly supernatural and pagan and different from the Franks themselves.
I have before me a book entitled The Plantagenet Chronicles, which is a compilation of the many contemporary documents written by various medieval chroniclers regarding the Angevin dynasty. Most of these writers were monks living in monasteries or attached to great cathedrals. They were, for the most part, members of well-established institutions who took great pride in their traditions and whose agenda was to protect their own properties and independence within the feudal system. These historians didn’t try to produce rational and detached analyses. Their intent was to demonstrate the power of God via the presence and activity of the Holy Mother Church. If they could make an example out of a saint or a king, they did so shamelessly. Nevertheless, even though they were making morality lessons out of their material, for the most part, they were still reporting facts.
In reading The Plantagenet Chronicles, we find that the Counts of Anjou were said to have come from the Devil. Gerald of Wales refers to the legend that they were descended from the daughter of Satan, a woman named Melusine, who was the wife of an early Angevin count. The problem is, this was only promulgated in much later times, probably by Richard the Lionhearted who was quoted as saying: “What wonder if we lack the natural affections of mankind — we come from the Devil and must needs go back to the Devil.”
My curiosity is piqued by this story of the origins of the Angevins, which is so similar to the story about the Merovingians. Has this story been borrowed? Or is it common to certain peoples because of some relationship to strange beings?
As to whether it applied to either group is debatable. Count Fulk Rechin de Anjou (1068—1109), admitted that he knew nothing of the first three of his line: Ingelgar (the first Count of Anjou), Fulk the Red, and Fulk the Good (941—960). Nevertheless, the twelfth century seems to have been a great time of mythmaking when many noble houses invented pedigrees in order to give themselves legendary ancestors.
In any event, because of this, Mérovée was supposed to be a supernatural being and “the Merovingian dynasty was mantled in an aura of mystery and magic.”
According to tradition Merovingian monarchs were occult adepts, initiates in arcane sciences, and practitioners of esoteric arts — worthy rivals of Merlin … They were often called ‘the sorcerer kings’ or ‘thaumaturge-kings’. By virtue of some miraculous property in their blood they could allegedly heal by the laying on of hands; and according to one account the tassels at the fringes of their robes were deemed to possess miraculous curative powers. They were said to be capable of clairvoyant or telepathic communication with beasts and with the natural world around them and to wear a powerful magical necklace. They were said to possess an arcane spell that protected them and granted them phenomenal longevity — which history, incidentally, does not seem to confirm. And they all supposedly bore a distinctive birthmark, which distinguished them from all other men, which rendered them immediately identifiable, and which attested to their semi-divine or sacred blood. This birthmark reputedly took the form of a red cross, either over the heart — a curious anticipation of the Templar blazon — or between the shoulder blades.
The Merovingians were also frequently called ‘the longhaired kings’. Like Samson in the Old Testament, they were loath to cut their hair. Like Samson’s, their hair supposedly contained their vertu — the essence and secret of their power. Whatever the basis for this belief in the puissance of the Merovingians’ hair, it seems to have been taken quite seriously, and as late as a.d. 754. When Childeric III was deposed in that year and imprisoned, his hair was ritually shorn at the Pope’s express command.
…the Merovingians were not regarded as kings in the modern sense of that word. They were regarded as priest-kings — embodiments of the divine … And they seem to have engaged in ritual practices that partook, if anything, more of priesthood than of kingship. Skulls found of Merovingian monarchs, for example, bear what appears to be a ritual incision or hole in the crown. Similar incision can be found in the skulls of high priests of early Tibetan Buddhism …
In 1653, an important Merovingian tomb was found in the Ardennes — the tomb of king Childeric I, son of Mérovée and father of Clovis, most famous and influential of all Merovingian rulers. The tomb contained arms, treasure, and regalia such as one would expect to find in a royal tomb. It also contained items less characteristic of kingship than of magic, sorcery, and divination — a severed horse’s head, for instance, a bull’s head made of gold, and a crystal ball.
One of the most sacred of Merovingian symbols was the bee; and King Childeric’s tomb contained no less than three hundred miniature bees made of solid gold. (Baigent et al. 2005, 270—272)
The remark is made after this that Napoleon not only had the miniature golden bees affixed to his coronation robes, but that he commissioned a genealogy report by someone named Abbé Pinchón, the ostensible reason being to determine if the Merovingian bloodline had survived the fall of the dynasty. Then we get the clincher for this one: much of the so-called Prieuré documents are genealogies based on those compiled at Napoleon’s request!
Now, whom do we have to thank for all of this startling information? Well, the Priory of Sion, of course. If we look to the back of Holy Blood, Holy Grail where the reference notes are assembled, we find that the whole story is based on “a comprehensive body of material … contained in L’Or de Rennes pour UN Napoleon,” which is handily made available by one of Pierre Plantard’s close associates, Philippe de Cherisey.
The enormous volume of literature that has resulted from the story of Bérenger Saunière suggests to me that the mystery of Rennes-le-Château is a staging area for a subject that is of great importance to someone. The ideas reek with the stench of having been planted and systematically released to tease and entice researchers and treasure hunters around the world. Part of the aura of the material rests on the fact that it is supposed to originate with highly privileged sources. The subjects that are all connected together in this morass of disinformation include the Cathars, the Templars, the Merovingian kings, the Rosicrucians, the Masons, the Nazis and, of course, the royal line of Jesus Christ, but, all of this may be a series of red herrings.
The majority of the so-called documentation of the events of Rennes-le-Château and the Priory of Sion nearly always turns out to be of dubious, if not untraceable authorship. Names of the dead are regularly borrowed for attribution, and when investigations ensue, inevitably prove to be false. Addresses of significance turn out to not even exist. Documents seem to appear and disappear within the Bibliotheque Nationale, appearing first in one form, then another.
The whole problem seems to stem from the fact that LL&B accepted the claims and documents of the Priory of Sion mainly due to a series of numerous strange coincidences and anomalous findings during the course of their research. Whoever was behind these events picked their publicists well because these events were experienced by people with considerable ability to influence the thinking of large numbers of people. And they did. They worked carefully and put their findings together clearly and eloquently despite a curious, blinded optimism that what they were experiencing had to be the truth because, of course, they were experiencing it; and it clearly was not being faked because there simply wasn’t anybody who could fake all the confirmations and synchronicities they encountered. It would have been a conspiracy of such vast proportions, over such long periods of time, that such was incomprehensible.
Well, without considering the Control System and space/time manipulation capabilities of fourth density beings, it is incomprehensible. We have to remember something the Cassiopaeans said here:
Beware of disinformation. It diverts your attention away from reality thus leaving you open to capture and conquest and even possible destruction. … Disinformation comes from seemingly reliable sources. It is extremely important for you to not gather false knowledge, as it is more damaging than no knowledge at all. Remember knowledge protects, ignorance endangers. Same forces spreading disinformation: Brotherhood/ Consortium/ Illuminati/ New World Order/ “Antichrist”/ Lizards. … It is no trouble at all for aforementioned forces to give seemingly individualized attention to anybody.
Notice the initial remark about disinformation diverting our attention away from reality, leaving us open to capture, conquest and even possible destruction.
Nevertheless, the idea of a royal bloodline of Christ created not only a sensation, but also a veritable industry of books. We are here in the presence of mythology in the making and it is awesome to witness. Most people never noticed that LL&B repeatedly urged caution about accepting the Priory of Sion as valid and its documents as unimpeachable, even if they, themselves, tended to believe. At the end of their second book The Messianic Legacy, they wrote:
We had endeavoured to learn more about the Prieuré de Sion today. We had sought to ascertain something definitive about its membership, its power and resources, its specific objectives. We had hoped at some point to reach the centre of the labyrinth, not necessarily to slay whatever Minotaur lurked there, but at least to confront it. At the same time, however, we could not escape the rueful recognition that we were often being outmaneuvered by individuals who contrived, with great subtlety and skill, to remain consistently one step ahead of us.
…The Prieuré de Sion is particularly well equipped to put itself forward as a vehicle for chivalric ideals. It is also particularly well equipped to put itself forward as something more. Unlike many other social, political and religious institutions, the Prieuré, as we noted … has considerable psychological sophistication. It understands the depth and magnitude of humanity’s internal needs. It understands how to manipulate archetypes — archetypal images and themes — in such a way as to invest them with maximum appeal.
One of the most resonant of archetypal symbols, for example, is that of the roi perdu, or lost king — the supernaturally aided monarch who, having completed his task on earth, does not quite die, but retires into some other dimension where he bides his time until the need of his people dictates his return. English-speaking readers are familiar with this archetype through King Arthur. In Wales, Owen Glendower conforms to the same pattern, as does Friedrich Barbarossa in Germany. The roi perdu who figures most prominently in the Prieuré de Sion’s mythos is Dagobert II, the last effective Merovingian monarch. Dagobert is presented by the Prieuré in such a fashion that his image becomes fused in people’s minds with that of the supreme lost king, Jesus himself. On a psychologically symbolic level, quite independent of any question of a blood descent, Dagobert becomes an extension of Jesus. With this psychological association established, even if unconsciously, the idea of a literal and historical blood descent becomes that much easier to propagate. It is by just such techniques that the mystery attached to Rennes-le-Château has been invested with such magnetic attraction, not only to us as authors, but to our readers as well.
The Prieuré also understands the intimate relationship between trust and power. It understands the potency of the religious impulse and knows that this impulse, if activated and channeled, is potentially as puissant a force as, say, money — so puissant, indeed, as to represent perhaps an alternative principle of power. Finally, the Prieuré knows how to sell itself, knows how to purvey an image of itself that accords with its own objectives. As we said before, it is able to orchestrate and to regulate outsider’s perceptions of itself as an archetypal cabal, if not the supreme archetypal cabal. Whatever the ultimate authenticity of its pedigree, it can convey the impression of being what it wishes people to think it is, because it understands the dynamics whereby such impressions are conveyed.
But psychological sophistication and an ability to ‘market’ itself are not the only points the Prieuré de Sion has in its favour. In 1979, M. Plantard had said to us, quite categorically, that the Prieuré was in possession of the treasure of the Temple of Jerusalem, plundered by the Romans during the revolt of AD 66 and subsequently carried to the south of France, in the vicinity of Rennes-le-Château. The treasure, M. Plantard stated, would be returned to Israel “when the time is right.” If the Prieuré does indeed possess the treasure of the Temple, and could produce it today, the implications are staggering. … It would be fraught with contemporary religious and political repercussions. What, for example, would be the implications for modern Israel, as well as for both Judaism and Christianity, if — on the basis of records or other evidence issuing from the Temple of Jerusalem — Jesus stood revealed as the Messiah? Not the Messiah of later Christian tradition, but the Messiah expected by the people of Palestine two thousand years ago — the man, that is, who was their nation’s rightful king, who married, sired children and perhaps did not die on the Cross at all. Would it not rock the foundations of two of the world’s major religions, and possibly the foundations of Islam as well? Would it not, at a single stroke, eradicate the theological differences between Judaism and Christianity, and at least some of the antipathy of Islam?
In any case, and quite apart from the treasure of the Temple, the Prieuré de Sion can promulgate a claim, which would enjoy considerable currency even in today’s world. On behalf of the families it represents, it can establish a dynastic succession extending back to the Old Testament House of David. It can establish, quite definitively and to the satisfaction of the most fastidious genealogical inquiry, that the Merovingian Dynasty was the Davidic line — and was formally recognised as being so by the Carolingians who supplanted them, by other monarchs and by the Roman church of the period. Aided by the techniques of modern public relations, modern advertising and modern political packaging, the Prieuré could thus present to the modern world a figure who, by the strictest scriptural definition of the term, could claim to be a biblical Messiah. It may seem preposterous. But it is no more preposterous, surely, than the conviction of tens of thousands of Americans who are prepared to be ‘raptured’ upwards from their cars at various points on the freeway between Pasadena and Los Angeles.
This does not mean, of course, that we expect an imminent press conference and the media circus that would follow. … The Prieuré de Sion and/or the Merovingian bloodline could never simply unmask themselves, divulge their identity and rely on popular fervour to do the rest. There would be too many skeptics. There would be too many people who were simply not interested. Even among those prepared to acknowledge the legitimacy of the Merovingian descent, there would be too many objectors — too many people who, whatever their religious affiliations, would have no greater desire to be ruled by a Messiah than by anyone else. And there would be too many people already in power, or jockeying for it, who would be hardly disposed to welcome a new challenge on the scene. …
For all these reasons, then, a pedigree cannot be used as a steppingstone to power. Rather, it is a trump card which can be played only to consolidate power once power has already been obtained. …
…Indeed, we are wary of the Prieuré de Sion. … the fact remains that any concentration of power in the hands of a small group of individuals- especially a group of individuals who function in secret — is potentially dangerous. …
And yet our age appears determined to embrace one or another form of Messianic myth in order to obtain a sense of meaning. … We question whether anyone other than the special effects department of a Hollywood studio can provide a Messiah of the sort that has come to be erroneously expected. [emphasis added] (Baigent et al. 1986, 365, 369—372, 374—375)
Well, let me suggest someone else who could provide a messiah that will literally knock the socks off the peoples of the world: denizens of hyperdimensional realities, “aliens.” From following this Priory of Sion phenomenon, it looks exactly like this is the groundwork for just such a coup. How about a little One World Religion with that New World Order? Will that be “to go?”
This small sample of details seem like strong evidence for a conspiracy of multinational individuals and groups seeking global domination, but if we consider the Hermetic maxim, “as above, so below,” we have to see that all these events and movements in our world express a more inclusive reality — that of a fourth density Control System seeking hegemony; playing the cards over centuries, melding small groups into larger and larger groups with ever greater expansion and renewal in the image of fire and light.
The new Universalism holds that mankind’s gnosis of a universal God perceived or known as the Fire or Light is central to all religions and civilizations and explains their growth and decay. (Haggar 1991)
We are at the turning point where nations all over the world are discussing political union as part of a single, universal, world-society. And it is religion that is seen as the glue to put it all together. The only problem we have when contemplating this is: who is on first?5
There are many who believe the old lie that “the boundaries that focus and protect each ‘world’ can only be traversed by beings who are psychically and morally pure.” They further promulgate the idea that “The origins of meddlers are local and terrestrial. More subhuman than Human. Atavistic. Who would propagate the conceit that they were from elsewhere, possessing great powers, and worth fearing: a well-worn bluff and ploy.” This view is promoted in Nicholas Hagger’s book The Fire and the Stones, where we find the following:
The spreading of the Fire through religions [is] the motive force which explains the genesis of civilisations. … Can there be a widespread acceptance of the rediscovery of the lost knowledge of the Fire? … Truth is now being revealed more widely than in recent years. The esoteric is becoming exoteric, and there are signs that what has hitherto been hidden among coteries is now being made more widely available to those of “the masses” who are prepared to seek. … There is evidence (largely gleaned from New Age conferences) that in our time the fire is burning in the consciousness of ordinary people. … The experience of the Fire will become increasingly available to all mankind, as it is always widespread during a civilisation’s growth.
A movement to remysticise Christendom, and other religions, is the next stage in this widening of metaphysical consciousness, and it seems that our time will see a Metaphysical Revolution. … The deepening and widening of the European Community into an integrated conglomerate can be expected to be accompanied by a revival of the metaphysical vision.
…We have seen that all our dead civilisations have died into larger groupings; can it be that those larger groupings will themselves die into one overall larger grouping, one worldwide (albeit American-created) civilisation. … All the various cultures and civilisations spring from one source and flow into one civilisation, perhaps in our time. Is this the end of the vision of the Fire — the vision of God — in history: to unify all the world’s civilisations into one?
If an American-led worldwide civilisation takes place in the 21st century, its renewal of growth will be Fire-led. In other words, its growth will be created, unified and sustained by one worldwide Fire (its Central Idea) that will be transmitted to the world’s masses through one religion. … It would use the revolution in satellite technology and world communications to promulgate its message.
…The “alternative” New Age movement of coteries has been inspired by the growing American Fire. It has also been inspired by the vision of the 1776 Illuminati, the heresy that encourages a drawing together of all world religions. … The New Age movement is both the successor to American New Thought and the forerunner of a coming Universalism … The New Age movement is full of people who have been illumined or who are on the verge of illumination. They are in New Age groups rather than within the Christian fold because they have (perhaps prematurely) seceded from a tradition they regard as having been enfeebled by three and a half centuries of Humanism and materialism and by the secularization of the traditional Christian vision of the 14th century mystics, whom they admire. … It is as if the New Age groups are groping towards the idea of an American-led worldwide religion. In fact, from the point of view of the coming American-led worldwide civilisation, the New Age groups have been doing excellent work in preparing for the worldwide culture ahead.
…Out of their efforts may grow a worldwide religion, which will unify and dominate the American-led worldwide civilisation of the 21st century as early Christianity unified and dominated the new Roman Christian and Byzantine Empires. Just as Christianity absorbed elements from the other metaphysical systems — the Druid Yesu, the Eleusinian grain, the Roman Isis (who became the Virgin Mary) and so on — so a new American-led Universalist religion of the Fire, adopted from Europe’s syncretism, may absorb … Christianity, but blend all systems, devise new forms … combine practices … [emphasis added] (Haggar 1991)
Thus we find a completely different perspective; one in which the Illuminati, which the author has connected to world-controlling banking interests that finance wars and revolutions, are the good guys because, in the end, what is being evolved is a universal religion and government. He has charted what he calls “The vision of god in twenty-five civilisations,” which he says is a “Grand Unified Theory of World History and Religion.” He defines 61 stages of civilization and sees, essentially, the lies propagated in the name of religion as acceptable if they produce “civilizational” results.
In my own studies, which seem to be more in-depth than Mr. Haggar’s, I have come to different conclusions for the very reason that such stages always end in the subsuming of one or more cultures into another, and this is almost inevitably linked to genocide.6 But, Mr. Haggar simply glosses over that fact in his drive to present the end result as a positive outcome. I wonder if he is aware that the ultimate subsumation could be the force behind his image of “Fire.” Experience — through millennia — has shown us, as LL&B write above: “The fact remains that any concentration of power in the hands of a small group of individuals- especially a group of individuals who function in secret — is potentially dangerous.” And we are again reminded of what the Cassiopaeans have said in regard to this:
A: Here is something for you to digest: Why is it that your scientists have overlooked the obvious when they insist that alien beings cannot travel to earth from a distant system???
Q: And what is this obvious thing?
A: Even if speed-of-light travel, or “faster,” were not possible, and it is, of course, there is no reason why an alien race could not construct a space “ark,” living for many generations on it. They could travel great distances through time and space, looking for a suitable world for conquest. Upon finding such, they could then install this ark in a distant orbit, build bases upon various solid planes in that solar system, and proceed to patiently manipulate the chosen civilizations to develop a suitable technological infrastructure. And then, after the instituting of a long, slow, and grand mind-programming project, simply step in and take it over once the situation was suitable. …
Q: (L) Well, since there is so many of us here, why don’t they just move in and take over?
A: That is their intention. That has been their intention for quite some time. They have been traveling back and forth through time as you know it, to set things up so that they can absorb a maximum amount of negative energy with the transference from third level to fourth level that this planet is going to experience, in the hopes that they can overtake you on the fourth level and thereby accomplish several things. 1: retaining their race as a viable species; 2: increasing their numbers; 3: increasing their power; 4: expanding their race throughout the realm of fourth density. To do all of this they have been interfering with events for what you would measure on your calendar as approximately 74 thousand years. And they have been doing so in a completely still state of space-time traveling backward and forward at will during this work. …
Q: Now, from putting the information about religions together throughout the centuries, I am coming to a rather difficult realization that the whole monotheist idea, which is obviously the basic concept of the ‘sons of the law of One,’ is the most clever and devious and cunning means of control I have ever encountered in my life. No matter where it comes from, the religionists say “we have the one god, we are his agents, you pay us your money, and we’ll tell him to be nice to you in the next world!”
A: Clever if one is deceived. Silly truffle if one is not.
Q: Well, I know! But, uncovering this deception, this lie that the “power” is “out there” is unbelievable. So, the Kantekkians were the Sons of Belial, which is not the negative thing that I interpreted it as at the time. And the Sons of the Law of One, was perverted to the monotheistic Judaism, which then was then transformed into the Christian religious mythos, and has been an ongoing theme since Atlantean times.
A: Woven of those who portray the lights.
Q: And that is always the way it has been. They appear as angels of light and, essentially, everything in history has been rewritten by this group.
A: Under the influence of others. And whom do you suppose?
Q: Well, the Orion STS.
A: Sending pillars of light and chariots of fire to deliver the message.
Most certainly, this Rennes-le-Château business is one of the clearest examples of such manipulations. It is, as Mr. Haggar suggests, “A movement to remysticise Christendom, and other religions,” designed as the infrastructure of a “one worldwide (albeit American-created) civilisation.” He also astutely points out: “from the point of view of the coming American-led worldwide civilisation, the New Age groups have been doing excellent work in preparing for the worldwide culture ahead.”
It is extremely interesting that Mr. Haggar suggests that this “New World Religion” will be American-created in light of a remark made by the Cassiopaeans:
Q: (L) Why are there more abductions by the grays in the United States than in other countries around the world?
A: Government opened channel. North America is the “capitol” of STS, currently.
Yes indeed, flocks of them will be on the tops of skyscrapers holding their welcome signs, dancing and celebrating the arrival of their saviors, those coming to serve mankind — as the main course, I should add!
In the autumn of 1996, the BBC presented another Rennes-le-Château program that essentially debunked the whole thing. They were now saying that the parchments that were supposed to have been found by Bérenger Saunière were modern forgeries. It seems that they were forged by a close associate of Pierre Plantard, the Marquis Philippe de Cherisey. Apparently, they had quarreled and one ratted on the other. Pierre Plantard was exposed as a subversive with Nazi connections and extreme right-wing political inclinations. Not only that, but M. Plantard had convictions for crimes of deception.
The so-called Secret Dossiers of the Priory of Sion that had been planted in the Bibliotheque Nationale were shown to be very clever fabrications combining a deep knowledge of history combined with masterful divergence into fantasy. And so on.
Apparently, from the research done for this program, it was learned that Gerard de Sède knew that the documents were forged either before his first meeting with Henry Lincoln, or very soon thereafter. Henry Lincoln and his associates worked for ten years unaware that they were being led down the primrose path.
Nevertheless, most of the authors who have written on the subject of Rennes-le-Château have followed the research of LL&B. They all seem to accept the validity of the Priory of Sion and the Priory documents and Secret Dossiers and all that. But let’s not toss the baby out with the bathwater. Obviously, there was something going on there in Rennes-le-Château that was very powerful to deceive so many people.
Recently, a new book was published entitled Web of Gold by a gentleman named Guy Patton. Mr. Patton contends that there is a cabal of some sort surrounding the Rennes-le-Château mystery, and they are associated with Nazi types. He makes a good case for Plantard’s association with such. More interesting is his connection of the politics of the Abbé Saunière with certain groups who were involved in the Arktos myth of Aryan supremacy. My only complaint about this book is that Mr. Patton didn’t check the sources of his sources and the book is rather shallow in terms of claiming that the whole issue of Rennes le Château is the hidden great treasure of the Jewish Temple and that this is what the Nazis and others have been after for a very long time. It is not that, I can assure you. But, it is obvious that they are definitely after something that they believe will give them ultimate power over the entire globe. It may be that the secret to this is revealed in Rennes-le-Château to those astute enough to wade through the disinformation.
It does seem pretty clear that there is a strong belief in a treasure of some sort being hidden in the region, but another book, The Horse of God, which suggests by a series of more amazing coincidences that the treasure is the Ark of the Covenant, indicates that Abbé Saunière was being paid by Abbé Boudet. Tracking the spending habits of Abbé Saunière does seem to confirm this. He did have a falling out with Boudet, his friend, and during this time, the flow of money ceased. Shortly after their reconciliation, the money began to flow again and Saunière made some ambitious building plans, but Boudet died rather soon after, and it was all brought to a halt by Saunière’s death as well. Maybe one brought about the death of the other, and then had to be gotten rid of?
Yet another recent book has come along, Rex Deus, that surpasses all the others in its absurdity and reliance on the same old assumptions. Only the fraud chronicled in this one is truly pathetic compared to the work of the Priory of Sion. In Rex Deus, the “bloodline” is that of the twenty-four elders of the Temple of Jerusalem, and the only proponent of the idea is a strange informant who mysteriously appears to the authors and tells them his story with great sincerity and conviction. Unfortunately, he was unable to provide the documents that he claimed existed because his brother sold the dresser in which they were hidden (!). How sad and how convenient. Of course, the authors claim to be extremely impressed by his manner, his story, and the subsequent verification they found in other works (most of which were based on the Rennes-le-Château business to begin with). Geez! Didn’t they learn anything from LL&B’s experiences?
The only question I have for Marilyn Hopkins, Graham Simmans and Tim Wallace-Murphy about their book, Rex Deus, is: did you ask your guy to take a blood test? If he was of the line of the priests of the Temple as he claims, that means he is a Cohen, and it has been proven scientifically that the Cohens have a very distinct set of genetic markers.
Cohanim (plural of Cohen) are the priestly family of the Jewish people, members of the Tribe of Levi. Jewish tradition, based on the Torah, is that all Cohanim are direct descendants of Aaron, the brother of Moses. The Cohen line is patrilineal, passed from father to son without interruption for 3,300 years, or more than 100 generations.
In a study, as reported in the prestigious British science journal, Nature (January 2, 1997), 188 Jewish males were asked to contribute some cheek cells from which their DNA was extracted for study. Participants from Israel, England and North America were asked to identify whether they were a Cohen, Levi or Israelite, and to identify their family background. The results of the analysis of the Y chromosome markers of the Cohanim and non-Cohanim were indeed significant. A particular marker, (YAP-) was detected in 98.5 percent of the Cohanim, and in a significantly lower percentage of non-Cohanim.
In a second study, Dr. Skorecki and associates gathered more DNA samples and expanded their selection of Y chromosome markers. Solidifying their hypothesis of the Cohens’ common ancestor, they found that a particular array of six chromosomal markers was found in 97 of the 106 Cohens tested. This collection of markers has come to be known as the Cohen Modal Hapoltype (CMH), the standard genetic signature of the Jewish priestly family. The chances of these findings happening at random is greater than one in 10,000.
In the absence of a single shred of evidence to prove the “Rex Deus” claims of their informant, it wouldn’t be too much to ask for this — a few cheek cells and you’ve got a case. Without it, you’ve done nothing but clutter the market with more of the same old nonsense.
But, getting back to the repeated incidents of “amazing synchronicities” and coincidences, and being led to this or that amazing discovery, I think that the authors of The Tomb of God (which claims that the secret is that the body of Jesus is buried near Rennes) and The Horse of God, are right up there with LL&B for weirdness. The experiences described by Martha Neyman, author of the latter work, prompted an exchange between us that I would like to share here:
From: Laura Knight-Jadczyk
Date sent: Tue, 3 Nov 1998
Dear Martha,
… I realized a long time ago that this Rennes-le-Château “business” was an “engineered” archetype. Those who have played parts in it have done so for reasons, though, most often, they did not even realize that they were being manipulated to say and do what they did by the “hidden superiors.” And, make no mistake about it, these beings DO exist and all the events of our lives and world are “managed” by them from behind the scenes. They create and destroy “secret societies” at will, including Templars, Priory of Sion, Masons, Rosicrucians, etc. These are all “covers” and “smoke screens.” And, they have existed, in a continuous line, for many thousands of years.
For this reason, the sequence of events that you have so rationally described, regarding the main players in this “drama” is most important to me. It fit with some of my own assessments, which I had already made about Saunière, Gelis, Boudet and Bigou. There is a “rule” of espionage, which goes: observe the facts, ONLY the facts, and extrapolate backwards to discover WHO benefits from a given situation, and this will give you the key to the underlying truth. Well, I have been doing this about the events of history and geography for most of my adult life, and it is a most productive exercise no matter what is being assessed.
The world, in its broadest sense, is a projection, if you will, similar to the shadows on Plato’s cave. We cannot know fully the origins of these “shadow” images unless we can overcome our fascination with the moving patterns and leave the cave. But, doing that implies that we must first be aware that we CAN leave the cave…
As I said, this business is an “engineered archetype.” Rather, it is a holographic projection of a much larger drama. But, figuring out the small-scale mystery is the key to projecting the template onto a larger landscape. It does not end, or even begin, in Southern France.
Now, there are certain “key points” on the planet which I have discovered… with strange names and numbers… and “temple” characteristics (in the original sense of the word) that are, apparently, veiled from the awareness of others thus far. There are symbolic and semiotic and philological connections of a substratum of “events” that stagger the mind.
The one thing that few people think about is “WHO IS DOING ALL THIS?” And, connected to this is: what are their capabilities? And this is most important. If I, for one instant, underestimate the capabilities of “them,” I will surely be devoured. It is in this lack of realization of who holds the secrets and the intellect behind it that causes most people to stumble and fall in their analysis. And since I am convinced it is an EPOCHAL secret, which involves the history of mankind, the moving and changing of large masses of energy on the planet itself, then I HAVE to think about the “figures” behind such a thing.
One example I will mention… you remember what you wrote about St. Anthony’s day… January 17… and the number nine… and all that. It is reasonable based on what is available … but there are meanings even older than that… and they pop up in Mayan constructs… I was in Mexico last year and came across a figure carved in what was once a bas-relief of a Mayan temple… It was a figure of a man with the flesh removed from his thighs and skull… but with the rest of his body intact… and his legs were crossed… I have an excellent photo of it which I have shared with a few people. I’m sure you recognize the symbol… And there is the ancient cult of Janus — guardian of the door — to whom January 17 was sacred… and there was the celebration of St. Augustine on the same day…. and there is the hermit in the grail stories… whose hero is Perceval… “He who pierces the valley,” or “mummy with the long member,” or “pour suivant…” and so on; take your pick.
Ms. Neyman wrote back to me:
Subject: Re: The Horse
Date sent: Tue, 24 Nov 1998
Dear Laura,
By now you might have finished reading my book, I think… As you are so well experienced in the subject of symbolism and know so much more then I do, I would appreciate it very much if you could let me have your opinion…
I found it difficult to try to explain to her that her experiences with all the coincidences, the insights, and the “magical landscape” that showed itself to her with synchronous and stunning symbols, just might be a big manipulation, but I was going to try:
I am impressed with what you have done, having started with more or less a blank screen. You have had the unique advantage of “being there,” which I have not… but, yes, there is a LOT I would like to discuss and I have been debating how open you would be to this “putting two heads together” on the subject. I know that I am like a mother about anything I write and very sensitive to what might be construed as “criticism,” so I have not wanted to say anything that would be offensive. But, at the same time, you are THERE and can answer some questions I have and I think that there are some things that need further work. If you are ready to have a little dialogue about this “Rennes etc” business, well, tell me.
What I want to do is something like what my husband does… you get a theory, you build the structure, you see how it behaves as a “working hypothesis,” and if there are problems, you tear it apart and start over. That sort of thing is what he does. He will have an idea, spend weeks on page after page of mathematical calculations and then hit a brick wall and have to start all over again. We sat up one night and analyzed, in a sort of “hard science” way the evidence of the “phenomenon” of Rennes… it was an interesting exercise with interesting “conclusions.” I was thinking at the time that it was too bad you weren’t with us as there were a lot of questions we had no answers to because we did not have the opportunity for personal investigation or observation.
I will say that some of the things you have found are fascinating and I am convinced that there is some purpose and reason, and maybe even your ultimate conclusions are correct — or pretty close… but there are some big gaps in the symbolic appreciation and historical background of same. There are many things to be gone over in a sort of “cold” and analytical way — even including this business of “synchronicity” that we both have experienced in this matter. This “amazing” confluence of “clues and artifacts” tends to convince us that our ideas are correct… but I have found that, often, the matter is much more complicated — like a chess game. Some of these “synchronous” events are like a move on the chessboard by these “unknowns” and they are waiting to see if we will see through the ruse… We can either make the mistake of “falling into the trap” of taking the piece “offered” while we are being set up for a swift and stunning mate. NEVER underestimate the cleverness and cunning of the opponent.
Your ideas are framed in much the same terms as the guys who wrote the Holy Grail series and the guy who wrote the Tomb of God… in the sense that all sorts of “synchronous” and “amazing” correspondences were found in response to the various ideas had by all. This should be taken as a warning that it can occur to just about anybody. All of you were convinced that you were “on the right track” because of these things… don’t forget that. They, as sincerely as you, were convinced of the “rightness” of their “path” and conclusions because of the SAME TYPES OF REMARKABLE SYNCHRONICITIES!!!!
Remember — NEVER FORGET — that the opponent wants us to come to false conclusions… And never forget that he/they are so much more clever and practiced at this deception that we can even imagine. This is NOT a secret of a couple hundred years duration. It is THOUSANDS of years old…
Remember, this is all “thinking out loud,” so to speak, or on paper. It is just a “scenario” to be tried and tested. I don’t pretend that it is the “bottom line.” So, here goes: On page 4 you talk about the BBC documentary where the media, which had once “touted” the “mystery,” now has pretty much squashed it. You ask a very good question: Why murder a good story?
Well, perhaps, at this point in time, they were NOT murdering a good story because there were already so many adherents to it, that it would be impossible to do so… it was just more controversy. In fact, this move could have been designed to make people ask the very question you did… sort of like the government constantly pooh-poohing UFOs… the more they did, the more people believed they were hiding something. So, this IS a valid point considering “double and triple reverse psychology” commonly in use by the media and whoever runs it. So, I think that your question goes much deeper than you think.
But, it also puts light in another area… it seems that these guys who were making money off of this business were being manipulated from start to finish. And making money was, apparently, not the objective — though for them it might have been a lure. Or it might have started for them as a lure, or a farce… and grew very serious later. Nevertheless, we may deduce that the objective of this pronouncement by the BBC was to do the exact opposite… to breathe new life into the subject by reverse psychology.
So, the question about this now is: why? Why do they WANT to keep attention on this area? Why was the attention drawn here to begin with?
Now, let’s skip to page 17 where you list the “facts” which can be substantiated and back-engineer a bit from there. The three “facts”:
Documents were found in 1886. We cannot accept this as a fact. It is only hearsay. No matter about the various arguments for, about, against, or whatever, no one, NO ONE, outside of persons whose credibility is in question has EVER SEEN any actual, ancient or even “pretty old” MSS. They have not been submitted to any kind of professional analysis because they have never been produced. To say, “The discovery of the manuscripts is the key to the mystery of Rennes-le-Château,” is a huge assumption. So, let’s set them aside for the moment. (Don’t despair, I am ruthless, but it is useful, as you will see.)
That Saunier was digging at night in the cemetery without obvious purpose, aided by his servant. Now, on this, what verification is there? I am not too clear from the various stories… but it seems that the primary source of this information was an old guy who “remembered” all this many years later… and, considering the circumstances of all the rest… well, it is hearsay. Not admissible as a fact.
Now, there is the “fact,” that Saunière spent more money than his income as a village priest allowed. At last, we are on firm footing. There are ledger books, you say, with this information recorded that can be considered “hard evidence.” And, there is the evidence of the building projects and so forth which cost more money than the guy could have made. We have a FACT. Only one, so far. Remember, our BELIEFS are not important here… our feelings, our responses to our amazing “synchronicities,” and all that. We have to clear away the fog of emotion.
Now, in order to know what other “facts” there may be, maybe you can answer the following questions?
You wrote: In 1892, Saunière is often absent without permission. What he does and where he goes, remains a secret… Says WHO? Cite the source.
You wrote: In 1894, together with Marie he makes long walks. They collect stones that are used to adorn the garden with a grotto. Says WHO? Cite the source.
You wrote: Also in 1894, aided by his trustworthy helpmate, Marie, he starts to dig in his cemetery! At night, under the cover of darkness… Says WHO? Cite the source.
Now, the tomb of Marie Negre D’Ables, that he is supposed to have destroyed, but, fantastically, it happened to have been “copied”… are you aware of the investigation into the “background” of that little book where it was supposedly reproduced? That it was, very likely, at the hands of the very same persons who deposited the “Dossiers Secrets” and all that in the Biblioteque Nationale? This is pretty shaky stuff here. The very idea that the Abbé was “searching for something” could be all rumor. But, why? Where could such a rumor come from?
The story about Marie Denarnaud, (the companion of Abbé Saunière), in her old age is highly instructive: I am sure you have a few “old people” in your family and are familiar with their little “manipulations” and feelings of “helplessness” as they age. Now, just suppose there WAS some secret of the Abbé… but it had NOTHING to do with a “treasure” at all… and whatever it was, died with him as a source of income. But, Marie, in her old age, desperate to ensure her comfort, knowing that all she has is this property that is expensive to maintain, and no money coming in anymore, hints to the people who have undertaken to care for her that there is a “secret” that she will tell them before she dies… Obviously, this is to keep her “control” over her life to what little extent she can. It sounds like the old “if you are nice to me, I’ll remember you in my will,” routine so common among old people… From the descriptions I have heard, the people who were caring for her had a hard time making ends meet. Do you think that if she had some secret that would enable access to financial aid, that she would not have acted upon it herself and thereby enabled herself to PAY for her own care in old age, rather than having to depend on strangers that she controlled with the promise of a secret? It is so typical of something an old lady would do, that I am completely struck by the likelihood of it being so.
But, what happens? She dies without telling anything! Supposedly. Well, the guy spends some time looking for a possible treasure which he hopes is there… because the old lady told him so… but, no luck… maybe he realizes that he was duped… and the story you have described, about the hints to the papers about a treasure to create business for a hotel… well, the guy was just playing with the cards he was dealt, and I believe that this is the source of the whole current explosion of the “Rennes-le-Château” cottage industry in “treasure hunting.” BUT, that STILL DOES NOT EXPLAIN THE Abbé’s’S MONEY!
OK, the guy had some bucks. Not only that, but his bishop had some bucks… and both were getting paid by another priest, Boudet… and, not only that, there was a third priest who was murdered.
These FACTS are of EXTREME interest! The rest is just rumor, smokescreen, hearsay, and all that.
Now, clearly, if what you say is true, that the cash flow came from Henri Boudet who wrote the strange book about language… (And I would very much like to get my hands on a copy of it complete!), there may, indeed, be a code in there… but not what anybody thinks, I suspect.
Now, on pages 19, 20 and 21 you give some very interesting facts OUT OF SEQUENCE. I wonder if it was a subconscious oversight? Because, placing them IN SEQUENCE makes for very interesting reading: Here they are:
1852, Saunière is born.
1878, The Abbé of Rennes, Pons, dies.
1881, Abbé Charles Mocquin is appointed, but leaves after just a few months. (Any reason given for his leaving???)
1885, May 5, Abbé Antoine Croc leaves Rennes… (How long was he there? This is curious. Any reason given for leaving?)
1885, July 1, Saunière is appointed cure at Rennes…
1886, Saunier receives a “gift of cash from Comtesse de Chambord.” (Or was it really a “first payment” from Boudet? We see that Saunière isn’t going to leave after just a few months… wonder why? What is there to keep him when the other two appointees couldn’t wait to get out of there or were deemed “inappropriate” by someone?)
1886, According to the ledgers, it was at about this time that Abbé Boudet began paying money to Saunière. Was this also the time he began paying money to Msr. Billard in Carcassonne? Any dates on this? The bishop was getting twice as much as Saunière according to the figures you gave. Was it for the same period? The bishop gave most of his to charity. (Was this because of a guilty conscience?)
1887, July, The new altar is placed in the church at Rennes. This is curious. Was this a completely NEW altar, or was it a replacing of the old one? If the former, what happened to the OLD one?
1889, Bishop Felix Billard visits Rennes for the first time… (There may have been some sort of “meeting” amongst these guys. They discuss who is to get what, who is to do what, and so on…)
1891, major restoration is begun on the church… (This does not sound too strange, since there is obviously some source of money — Saunière bargained for enough to make his church the way he wanted. If he is stuck in this out-of-the-way place, he is going to enjoy it!)
1891, Sept 21, Entry in Saunière’s diary — “letter from Granes — discovery of a sepulchral vault, rain in the evening.” (Does not sound like anything unusual since he is doing a major restoration on his church. AND, he does not seem too interested in it since he did not list it first.)
1892, Hearsay that Saunière was absent without permission. (Unless there are documents to confirm this.)
1894, Hearsay, unless documented, collecting of stones for grotto.
1894, Hearsay, unless documented, digging in graveyard.
1896, Restoration of church mostly finished. Saunière buys more land.
1897, June 6, Msgr. Billard visits and the garden is unveiled. (Perhaps another “meeting” between the “guys” takes place now.)
1897, Abbé Gelis was murdered. Reportedly tortured before his death. Was supposed to retire the next day. The magistrate found money hidden at various places in the vicarage… so, he may have been on the “payroll” as well or… He was an intimate of Saunière and Boudet and had been there since 1857. How long was Boudet in the region? Was Gelis the “source” of the money to Boudet? He had been there a long time… he was going to retire… perhaps take the secret of the source of income with him, or threatened to do something else at the meeting… or, being retired, he would have been a threat in some way. This needs more examination.
1898, Saunière buys the land on which he builds his villa.
1902, The Bishop dies.
1902, A new bishop is appointed who demands that Saunière give an explanation on the origin of his wealth… Seems that the old bishop was “protecting” the other “guys” in some way, so it does not seem that it could be a “secret” that the “church” wants hidden…
1902, Saunière argues with his friend Henri Boudet. The friendly relations between Saunière and Boudet are broken off… Funny that this comes right after the Bishop dies and the new bishop demands explanations for the money from Saunière. This is the strangest thing of all. If there is some secret between them and Saunière is under pressure to reveal it, it does not seem very wise for Boudet to break off relations with Saunière if Saunière KNOWS something about Boudet that he could tell. This point needs some consideration. Something funny here.
1910, July 23, Saunière is suspended from his official duties. Seems that if Boudet was worried that Saunière would reveal something, he would come to his rescue. What was happening to Boudet at this time? Was he getting along just fine, or was he being questioned also?
1915, Boudet sends a message to Saunière… shortly after the reconciliation, Boudet dies. This is funny, that Boudet sends this message… is it documented? Or, is it documented BY Saunière? Did he go to visit Boudet uninvited? How soon after the visit does Boudet die?
1916, Saunière decides to build on a REALLY grand scale…
1917, January 22, Saunière dies suddenly.
Now, of all the interesting facts above, the two that strike me most forcibly are the facts that, in the year following the death of Gelis, Saunière buys the land on which he plans to build his villa — but holds off the building for three years; and in the year following the death of Boudet, Saunière decides to really go “whole hog” with his building projects. So, what we have, after getting rid of the story of the parchments, treasure and all that mess, is a VERY strange story. AND, it seems to me, that once certain attention had been brought to the area due to the financial needs of Mr. Corbu and family, there was a DESPERATE need to confuse the issue — to draw attention away from the situation involving the priests — and their friendship and their finances.
The question would be WHY would this be so important at such a remove in time?
Evidence indicates that it is NOT a secret of the church; the “treasure” idea is kaput, too, as far as I can see; all the elements of the “Shepherds of Arcadia” painting as related to this area have pretty much been shown to be “cooked up.” But, there IS something going on!!!
Is there a connection between the facts that Abbé Gelis was murdered and Saunière bought land for his villa soon after? Is there a connection between the fact that Boudet died “suddenly” and Saunière made big plans to build soon after? What could be the REAL source of money being shared among these guys? Two, possibly THREE priests and a bishop… Was Saunière’s sudden death natural, considering the funny business around the deaths of the other two? What or who was it that supplied the money? Obviously, Saunière had access to it even after Boudet died, but NOT when he and Boudet were on bad terms… hmmmm? Funny? What was the connection of Gelis to the money — so that he had to die for it, as it seems? But, whatever the source, it was NOT accessible to Marie; who used the “secret” as bait to ensure her well-being until death.
So, having ripped away the entire smokescreen, we are left with a real mystery. But, that is not to say that there is not some purpose in the smokescreen, that is another subject altogether. There IS some great mystery about the Shepherds of Arcadia, but it may be far wider and more intruding than just the area around Rennes-le-Château.
Well, Ms. Neyman was not happy that I was suggesting that the Ark of the Covenant might not be the great secret. Most especially, she was not happy that I suggested that she was being manipulated to discover things to confuse the issue. And she most definitely did not want to give up the fairy tale of Rennes-le-Château!
From: Martha Neyman
Subject: Re: The Horse
Date sent: Wed, 25 Nov 1998
Of course I will answer the questions you have and I do not see this as a criticism of the work I did, because I feel, what I did was good and not done before by anyone… Even not by the writers of the Tomb of God… The book they wrote, has at first sight a “certain” resemblance with my work, but it is totally different and the “Horse of God” is not a railway, that is for sure..!
Dear Laura, do not be angry with me because I am honest to you and straight to the point… In a way, I am thinking in the same direction as you… I think, where you talk about WHY the BBC is “murdering” the story of RLC, you dig too deep. I can well imagine the US government keeping the truth about UFO’s from the people, but to believe that the respectable BBC of England is part of a plot to hide the truth of Rennes-le-Château in a sort of double psychology game, I think is going a bit too far.
You asked me a lot of questions… But… You started to ask questions about the “Preface” and the “Introduction.” Please take “This” information at “face value”..! This section is not of any importance to the rest of my book. The information in the introduction is common knowledge, mostly it came from the locals, and they are used by every book-writer…
LKJ: yes, I know that — but I want to know WHY and HOW such things were generated. I want to know if anybody ever actually documented any of these things. And these are questions that DO occur to me for whatever reason. If the only answer is “the locals said so…” well, that IS the answer. If there is an old diary where someone wrote about it, that is a different kind of answer. And, the point is: somehow, for some reason, stimulated by some “raison,” these so-called Priory of Sion fellows played on this story and the painting (which I believe is important because of the facts of Poussin’s life) got connected to this area… Is it because there was some sort of “rumor” that floated about in esoteric circles that this painting was connected to this place? Who came up with the idea in the first place?
MN: When you start writing some kind of a book, you have to start somewhere… I do not have to tell you… I did start with general information. So readers who are not so well informed, but want to know more about the whole story Rennes-le-Château, can get this general information.
LKJ: Yes, but you also did some “investigating” on your own. You observed. A lot of things you mention are not mentioned by other writers, even apart from your discoveries.
MN: That is why, in the INTRODUCTION, I wrote: Quote: At the risk of boring those readers, who know all about the history of Rennes-le-Château and its obstinate priest, I would like to repeat briefly, the “original” version, for those new to the story… Unquote. Dear Laura, those inverted commas at the word ORIGINAL were placed there on purpose… To the real initiated it means the story as it is usually told, as mysterious and uncanny as possible, without actually having completely checked out, who did what and why and who saw him doing it… This is just the “common” Rennes-le-Château story, only meant as “proof” that something weird was going on in this village and that the priest behaved strangely…
LKJ: Yes, but if none of those things are true… if they only “developed” AFTER the fact of the initial “rumor” of treasure was started, which I think you pinpointed in your description of the folks who were caring for Marie, well, then there is nothing to support the “treasure” hypothesis. Thus, if the story about treasure, the connection to the painting, which seems to have evolved from the rumors about treasure, all are “manufactured,” then one has to start looking in a different way. You are basing everything you are doing on the painting The Shepherds of Arcadia, and only because it was connected to the region by a story that turns out to be a fraud.
MN: Because as you will find out later, as you read on, you will see that Saunière’s doings have (very) little impact on the solution I found. …What I want you to comment on is symbolism…
LKJ: There are some significant symbolic images that are far more ancient and “in your face” in that painting than what you described. Every thing has multiple layers… question is: which layer do we extract from? An example is your use of the “knee” as a means of selecting “seven.” Well, the knee has some very deep meanings and is used symbolically in a rather different way in numerous sources, the oldest I have found being the Sumerian Texts… And it is not chance that “knee” is from the same root as “knead” as in bread, knight, juga, yogi, conjugal, genes, genetic, gonads, etc.
Also, the hand positions… there was in use, at the time of the painting, a “hand alphabet” which could signify either letters or numbers or both … it could also symbolize a mathematical “operation.”
MN: I started to give an explanation of the perceptible and searching for the truth in the invisible words of symbolism in “Chapter I”. So let us start from this first part… And… Do not forget I only used A SMALL part of the Christian Church symbolism to explain, sometimes “just enough” to make clear how I came to my conclusions in a logical way..! Otherwise for most of the people “absolute unknown” with this material it would have been much too complicated, long-winded and even boring.
LKJ: Agreed. But I am still trying to “connect” the painting to the area and it is difficult. And your entire book and “discovery” is based on the painting!
MN: This was only a short reply, because I feel the strong desire to write a whole day on my second book… Which has nothing to do with symbolism… It is the true story of the “Shepherds” the real “Shepherds”: the church-shepherds..! THAT is the story of the painting of Poussin… “Popes-Crusades-Templars,” it starts with the Oriental Schism in 1054 … For the “Latin Church of Rome” this was a large loss. It ended with a second huge loss: The reformation in 1618.
LKJ: “Well, if you haven’t done so already… look at the King Rene painting reproduced in the Tomb of God book alongside the “Shepherds” painting… just look at them casually and see what things you note that correspond… Note the lance and the horse head and compare it to the “horse head” and shepherd’s staff in the Arcadia painting… Note the position of the sun and the mountain peak in both paintings… note the posture of the Shepherdess and King Rene… note the ditch and flow of water exiting from the stone in the two paintings… note the funny leaning tree in the Rene painting… the funny hand gestures…. Then look at the Teniers painting and note the shape of the “window” and compare it to the “chink” in the tomb in the Shepherd’s painting… Then, have a look at Bacchus and Ariadne by Titian… half-close your eyes and see what you can see… note the funny overturned vessel on the drapery… the dog… go back to Teniers and note the vessel in the window… the bird… In the Shepherds painting, note the drapery of the figures… the crossed shins, the bared breasts of the figures… count the numbers of knees, hands displayed… Note the positions… it is not as simple as the “finger of Jupiter”, Venus or whatever…
The system of codes being transmitted via hand signals was widespread in both the Orient and the Occident. There are allusions to it in the writings of several Greek and Latin writers, such as Plutarch, who attributes these words to Orontes, son-in-law of King Artaxerxes of Persia: “Just as in calculating, fingers sometimes have a value of ten thousand and sometimes of only one, the favorites of kings may be either everything or almost nothing.”
Apuleius married a rich widow named Aemilia Pudentialla and was accused of having used magic to win her favor. He defended himself before Proconsul Claudius Maximus in the presence of Emilianus, his main accuser, who had unkindly said that Aemilia was sixty years old, when she was actually only forty. Here is the record of how Apuleius addressed his accuser: “How dare you, Emilianus, increase the real number of Aemilia Pudentilla’s age by half, or even a third? If you had said ‘thirty’ for ‘ten’ it might have been thought that your mistake came from holding your fingers open when you should have held them curved. But, forty is the easiest number to indicate since it is expressed with the hand open.”
Saint Jerome wrote: “Thirty corresponds to marriage, for the conjunction of the fingers as though in a sweet kiss represents the husband and the wife. … And the gesture for a hundred, transferred from the left hand to the right, on the same fingers, expresses on the right hand the crown of virginity.”
The Venerable Bede7 gives many examples of how the system can be used for silent communication. In Islamic religions, finger-counting and signing was used extensively (remember the “contamination” of the Templars by Sufism… which is so similar to what is known of the Cathars that one cannot help but think that there is a connection… and, also, what is known of the Druids…) There are a LOT of quotes I can cite about this “finger and hand” signaling system… but, it would get tedious.
The meanings of these things were obvious to people of the time, (which may be why the painting was hidden), and the citations from old MSS so common that it shows that such allusions were used both in paintings and in written references… otherwise, the readers could not have been expected to understand them, but it is very obscure to those of us in the 20th century who are not familiar with the method, and casually pass over such references as being “unimportant.” Thus, this may be an important consideration in evaluating the message of this and other paintings.
The mathematical angles are another thing altogether. At the time, the “Golden Mean” was a standard of Art… it was taught in all the art schools that a composition based on this ratio was more aesthetically pleasing… so, pupils were taught, and masters perfected, the art of compositional placement on the medium according to the Pythagorean principles. It meant, essentially, nothing. It can be found in thousands of paintings. Its presence in art is generally meaningless. However, your finding of the stone with the ratio figure engraved upon it … well, that requires some examination, but not necessarily in the precise terms you define. On the other hand, it may be meaningless.
This was the last of the Neyman letters … after this, she wrote and told me she did not see any point in discussing it further as she knew the truth because she had been “led” by “amazing synchronicities” and all that. She positively did not believe in any kind of conspiracy, she did not believe that there were strange beings controlling our world and manipulating our perceptions, and she most assuredly was convinced that the Catholic Church was benevolent and the “True Shepherds.” Same song, different verse.
My point is: I can see that there is something huge going on here, and it seems that everybody has had so amazing a series of confirmations of ideas, one leading to another … and work, work, work on the research and digging and all that. But, each one has come to a somewhat different conclusion and has been led down a somewhat different path. The odd thing about the whole place is a quality of self-reflection, I think. I would like to get to the very bottom of the blasted thing. I guess I have a couple of axioms I live by: one is “get results.” The other is: “when all the lies are stripped away, what remains is the truth.”
The important thing to remember, at this point, is that all of the conjecture about the Poussin painting, “The Shepherds of Arcadia,” resulted from the deciphering of the mysterious parchments purportedly found by Bérenger Saunière and reproduced in Gerard de Sède’s book. In other words, the fake parchments as described above, were the ones that gave clues that the painting was significant in some way. Additionally, there was the tombstone of a noble lady of the district that had disappeared but was supposed to reproduce the phrase “Et in Arcadia Ego” on its face, along with other suggestive symbols and encoded messages.
Out of all the things I read on the subject of Rennes-le-Château, the one thing that did stand out as interesting, as I mentioned to Ms. Neyman, was the Poussin painting. Even if I was of the opinion that there were negative forces at work in this matter, I knew enough about the ways in which they operated to know that they often used truth to conceal lies and vice versa. Out of all the mess that was going on in Rennes-le-Château, this painting seemed to be the only thing that was really out of place.
For some reason, the perpetrators of the fraud selected this painting and not another. There were any number of old masters they could have called on to do the job, but they didn’t. Why?
Traditionally and experientially, the Control System usually adheres to the truth very closely in their disinformation, diverging and twisting only certain significant issues so as to lead the seeker astray. So, what was there of truth in this story? Were they using a painting that did include a true clue system, and were they then creating relationships to distort and obfuscate the clues, or even to cause them to lead to a completely erroneous conclusion, but a conclusion that was extremely useful to them?
Painted c. 1640, “Les Bergers d’Arcadie” did have a remarkable resemblance to the tomb that was found in the Rennes-le-Château countryside, even if this tomb was later proven to have been a late addition. Art historians are certain that Poussin never visited the Rennes area and, therefore, could not have painted this tomb, even if it had existed there at the time of Poussin. But, there is a link between Poussin and the nearby village of Arques.
According to research done by Guy Patton (keep in mind that the sources of the source have yet to be verified), writing in Web of Gold, Poussin spent most of his life in Rome and, during this same time period, Henrietta-Catherine de Joyeuse and her husband, Charles de Lorraine, were in exile there at the order of Cardinal de Richelieu.
Henrietta-Catherine’s father was Ange de Joyeuse, Marshal Governor of the Languedoc, the area in which Rennes-le-Château is located. Also, Poussin was under the protection of Sublet de Noyes, the Royal Treasurer and Secretary of State during one period he was in Paris. This man’s father was financial advisor to the household of the Cardinal de Joyeuse, the uncle of Charles de Lorraine. Whether or not they ever met with Poussin, we don’t know, but it is possible that a secret was conveyed, and a painting was executed containing clues. It is my thought that, in later years, the tomb was built deliberately to lead away from this secret (we aren’t playing with amateurs here!).
In any event, Poussin’s “Les Bergers d’Arcadie” is the second version he painted. I know that artists often paint more than one version of a specific subject, but I have a book full of Poussin works, and he doesn’t seem to have been in the habit of doing this. So, it is curious that he did so with this particular subject. Especially when you look at the painting, which is, actually, quite boring.
Nevertheless, there is another hard fact that comes into play here: Nicolas Fouquet was the Superintendent of Finances to Louis XIV. He had a brother, Abbé Louis Fouquet, who visited Poussin in Rome in 1656. The Abbé sent a letter concerning this meeting to his brother. This letter is in the archives of the Cosse-Brissac family, and says, in part:
I delivered to M. Poussin the letter that you did him the honour to write to him; he evinced all the joy imaginable. You would not believe, Monsieur, either the pains that he takes in your service, or the affection with which he takes them, nor the worth and integrity that he brings to all things.
He and I have planned certain matters that I could in a little undertake to the end for you, by which M. Poussin could provide you with advantages that kings would have great pains to get from him, and that, after him, perhaps no one in the world could recover in the centuries to come; and what is more, this could be done without much expense and could even turn to profit, and these are things so hard to discover that no one, no matter who, upon this earth today could have better fortune or even so much …
Well, of course everybody and his brother immediately jumped to the conclusion that this must refer to the “accursed treasure” of either the Temple of Solomon, the Cathars or the Templars. I, on the other hand, had a quite different reaction to reading this. You see, after the months and months of reading alchemical literature, and already making the connection between Rennes-le-Château and the Pyrenees where an enclave of alchemists is supposed to exist, I saw nothing in the above letter but a clear reference to alchemy.
I tried to think about it in terms of a treasure, but it just didn’t fit. Kings have often had great treasure or access to same, and, in monetary terms, one treasure is as good as another. The remark “could even turn to profit,” sort of takes away the idea of treasure, and evokes a sense of some sort of activity.
Well, I began to really examine this painting for clues. Now, aside from the fact that I already mentioned, which is that this is a very boring piece of work, what do we note about it in particular? I was trying to look at it in an open-minded way — just taking note of any little thing that would pop into my mind.
The first thing that I noted was all the knee and elbows up front and in your face. I also noted the crossed shins of the figure on the left, which is a classic Masonic/Templar clue. Then, there was the tree growing in a straight line with the head of the woman, and that sort of general thing.
I know that lots of people have undertaken to analyze this painting by measuring angles, drawing circles, and just generally going around their elbows to get to their thumbs, but I think I have a couple of things to offer here.
The image above is a close-up of the pointing finger. What you see is that the man with the beard is pointing to the letter “R” in sequence with “RC” which is, of course, short for “Rose Cross.”
The other painting that Bérenger Saunière was purported to have purchased was Tenier’s Temptation of St. Anthony. If you look at this painting (getting a better image than I can provide here is worth the trouble) reveals an interesting thing: the crack on the painting of the tomb in the Shepherd’s painting is almost identical to the “window” opening of St. Anthony’s temptation. Not only that, but the extremely bizarre creatures that are tormenting the saint may be important.
Now, this final close-up is most interesting (see below). It also gives a better view of the crack, even if upside-down. Look very carefully at the shapes of the man’s limbs and then compare them to the shadow on the tomb, noting particularly that the shadow of the elbow is just above the crack we have already looked at. Now, does that shadow look like it matches? Well, there’s just no accounting for shadows sometimes, but this one looks compellingly like a rearing horse.
So, we have horses, knees and elbows, crossed shins and cracks/windows. Meanwhile we have three guys and one gal, and some dead person in a tomb. All three of our guys have staffs; two of them are in a position that was suggested to me to represent symbolic beheading. The other has his staff more on his shoulder, which is imagery related to the constellation, Cepheus, the consort of Cassiopeia, interestingly.
I am not even going to pretend to have the answer to this puzzle of the Poussin painting. But, I will mention that I had a dream about it one night — that it was a map that needed to be laid over Europe. And, sure enough, when I matched the bent knee of the kneeling guy to the Rhine River, all kinds of interesting associations popped up.
I should also mention that certain hand gestures indicate letters of the alphabet and numbers, and would have been understood at the time Poussin painted them. In this case, we have, from left to right, T/19, V/20, C/3, and I/9. Does it mean anything? I don’t know.
Since the writing of The Wave, I have had additional thoughts about the painting that may, actually, be the solution. The painting was done between 1638 and 1640 and in 1685 became part of the private collection of Louis XIV. Louis, it should be noted, was born in 1638. His birth came after 23 years of his estranged parents’ childlessness. Though his mother, Anne of Austria, had 4 stillborn children prior to his birth, it seems clear from the historical material that his father, Louis XIII was homosexual. Anne was treated very badly by her mother-in-law, Catherine de Medici, and humiliated by her husband and his homosexual affairs. It is likely that Anne, with the collusion of Cardinal Richelieu, who ran the French empire almost single-handedly, managed to produce an heir by another man. If one compares paintings of Anne of Austria to the woman in the “Shepherds of Arcadia” painting, a striking resemblance is immediately apparent. This all ties in with the amazing story of the Man in the Iron Mask (it was actually velvet), but we don’t have time to go into that now.
In any event, my conclusion is that the reason for the importance of the “Shepherds of Arcadia” painting is that it depicted the true parentage of Louis XIV and made a rather bold statement about it as well. The mysterious letter from Abbé Louis Fouquet to his brother, Nicolas Fouquet, the Superintendent of Finances to Louis XIV saying that certain knowledge could be turned to profit, referred to this fact as well and probably implied blackmail.
Yes, I know, not exactly an amazing or mysterious solution to the mystery, but there it is; the facts fit rather well.
So now, back to the original text after this brief insertion of added detail.
At about the same time that I was thinking about the “Shepherds of Arcadia,” I had been given a set of the Matrix books put out by Val Valerian (John Grace), volumes I through III, and was also deeply involved in reading them. For me, it was an amazing experience to find so many points of confirmation of the Cassiopaean material. But, at the same time, I was troubled by the many, many different and conflicting accounts of the purported alien realities that were all tossed in there together. Some of this material was so far out that my ability to keep an open mind was being seriously challenged. It was as though Valerian had just simply gathered everything he could get his hands on from every field and resource that approached the subjects of conspiracy, UFOs and aliens and tossed it all in together in an enormous word salad. Every conspiracy you have ever heard of or could imagine was in the pages of those books. And, there had been no effort to edit or annotate them, so that the reader was left baffled as to what to think about it all, much less what to consider as being true.
In many cases, I was sure that a large segment of this material had been presented with tongue in cheek; in other cases, I was certain that it was blatant disinformation. And, as I read through these thousands of pages of descriptions of agendas, realities, research and pseudo-research, conspiracies and counter-conspiracies, confirmations and contradictions, I would turn more and more to the Cassiopaeans to see what they would say about some of these things. I had no idea how weird it was going to get. It was during this period of time that we learned about retrieved human bodies that were being used for Transdimensional Remolecularization. It was also during this period that the Cassiopaeans talked about “robot” people and other alien types that we have discussed in the last volume of The Wave.
It was extremely difficult for all of us to both grasp and accept these truly bizarre and outlandish descriptions of our reality. Well, that is not exactly correct; it wasn’t our third density reality that was being described, but the denizens of fourth density. I was beginning to understand that it must be the reality from which religions and myths were drawn; the reality of the “watchers,” a world stranger by far than any descriptions of Alice Through the Looking Glass.
As we progressed through this period of time, it also became apparent that there was information the Cassiopaeans were trying to convey at every opportunity. It seemed that they wanted us to have as full an understanding of the World of the Secret Masters as possible. I was reminded of William James’ remark:
Our science is but a drop, our ignorance a sea. Whatever else be certain, this at least is certain: that the world of our present natural knowledge is enveloped in a larger world of some sort, of whose residual properties we at present can frame no positive idea. (James 1895/1962)
And it was going to get stranger before it was over.
1 Present day experts question the existence of the “First Temple” because there is no evidence for a kingdom of David and Solomon. See Israel Finkelstein’s David and Solomon: In Search of the Bible’s Sacred Kings and the Roots of the Western Tradition (Free Press, 2007)
2 Part of The Secret History of the World and How to Get Out Alive.
3 There are many, many problems with this history from numerous angles, according to mathematician Anatoly Fomenko, author of History: Science or Fiction?. But for the moment, we are dealing with what are generally-accepted versions, though, in the end, all of them may be falsified accounts.
4 Note in the following passage from Genesis that the “children of Heth” is just another way to say “Hittites”. “23:3 And Abraham stood up from before his dead, and spake unto the sons of Heth, saying, 23:4 I am a stranger and a sojourner with you: give me a possession of a burying place with you, that I may bury my dead out of my sight. 23:5 And the children of Heth answered Abraham, saying unto him, 23:6 Hear us, my lord: thou art a mighty prince among us: in the choice of our sepulchres bury thy dead; none of us shall withhold from thee his sepulchre, but that thou mayest bury thy dead. 23:10 And Ephron dwelt among the children of Heth: and Ephron the Hittite answered Abraham …” Emilio Spedicato (University of Bergamo) summarizes some of the data suggesting Indo-European origins for Abraham in his paper “Galactic Encounters, Apollo Objects and Atlantis: A Catastrophical Scenario for Discontinuities in Human History”, pp. 42-43.
5 The reader ought to keep in mind that this was written before September 11, 2001, and now we know just who is trying to create a One World Order.
6 This was prescient at the time it was written, 1999.
7 Historian and Doctor of the Church, born 672 or 673; died 735. Wrote “Ecclesiastical History of the English People.”
An Exercise in Seeing
At this point in this series of volumes, I find that I must change direction again. What you are going to read from here on, was not originally part of The Wave Series as it was published on the Internet beginning in spring of 2000. What happened was that writing and publishing The Wave apparently made waves in certain circles and it seems that I was marked for destruction for daring to reveal the truth about so many esoteric subjects. But, I will come to that. First, I would like to make some general background comments.
The reader who has read this far in The Wave has surely come to the conclusion that what I am saying is “nothing is as it seems and never has been,” including the many religions and methods of ascension promoted down through the ages.
But what is lacking is a clearly defined way that might give guidance to the seeker in his quest for the keys to his own salvation in whatever terms he might define it. I have worked on presenting the Way in this series by sharing my own experiences and what I have gleaned from much study and research, but some readers are put off by material that deals with all the lies and deceptions that we face in our reality and simply want to read something uplifting. It doesn’t seem to occur to them that one cannot be “uplifted” as long as one is mired in quicksand. What seems to be true is that we live in a world of lies – ruled by lies and stealing – and that human beings lie because it is impossible for them to do otherwise. Without a Way, that is.
As a result of our own searching and questing for answers, the repeated trying and testing of sources and materials, little by little we have come to the idea of what not to do. But again, there has not been a whole lot about what to do.
The Cassiopaeans have indicated certain pathways to follow, but as always, we are more or less on our own in acquiring the knowledge and learning how to apply it – and for good reason, as the reader may know.
So it was that I began to write The Wave, little knowing that the act of writing it would bring to me my most important lessons; the lessons that would enable me to see, and to describe in detail, the most important issues facing all of humanity.
One of the main things I learned through this process is that any individual who wishes to pursue esoteric studies ought to have a clean and fully functional – and most of all healthy – psyche before he goes wandering off into unknown realms. After all, if your psychological state is such that you cannot deal effectively with your everyday life, how can you possibly trust such a psychological state not to mislead you in studies where you have fewer solid landmarks or feedback mechanisms to guide you?
And so, it strikes me that the very first order of business in any esoteric work is to get psychologically healthy. That’s basically what the Gurdjieff “self-remembering” and Mouravieff “introspection” and Castaneda “recapitulation” is all about.
Sure, it can be referred to in nebulous ways such as “the work of sorcerers” and “recapturing energy” and “crystallizing a soul” and so on, but it can also be talked about in very practical, scientific, modern terminology with definite examples and techniques for accomplishing this important work of knowing your machine, cleaning and adjusting it so that it works properly, and preparing oneself for more interesting esoteric work.
Recapitulation as formulated by Castaneda was, I think, a take-off on Gurdjieff’s self-remembering. The words self-remembering as Gurdjieff used them are, however, somewhat nebulous. Boris Mouravieff states the matter in a rather more practical way:
Homo Sapiens lives immersed in his everyday life to a point where he forgets himself and forgets where he is going; yet, without feeling it, he knows that death cuts off everything.
How can we explain that the intellectual who has made marvelous discoveries and the technocrat who has exploited them have left outside the field of their investigations the ending of our lives? How can we explain that a science which attempts everything and claims everything nevertheless remains indifferent to the enigma revealed by the question of death? How can we explain why Science, instead of uniting its efforts with its older sister Religion to resolve the problem of Being – which is also the problem of death – has in fact opposed her?
Whether a man dies in bed or aboard an interplanetary ship, the human condition has not changed in the slightest.
Happiness? But we are taught that happiness lasts only as long as the Illusion lasts … and what is this Illusion? Nobody knows. But it submerges us.
If we only knew what Illusion is, we would then know the opposite: what Truth is. This Truth would liberate us from slavery.
As a psychological phenomenon, has Illusion ever been subjected to critical analysis based on the most recent discoveries of science? It does not seem to be so, and yet one cannot say that man is lazy and does not search. He is a passionate searcher … but he misses the essential; he bypasses it in his search.
What strikes us from the very beginning is that man confuses moral progress with technical progress, so that the development of science continues in dangerous isolation.
The brilliant progress that has come from technology has changed nothing essential in the human condition, and will change nothing, because it operates only in the field of everyday events. For this reason it touches the inner life of man only superficially. Yet from very ancient times it has been known that the essential is found within man, not outside him. …
Esoteric philosophy concerns man as he is: the investigator is the object of his own studies. Starting from the constatation that man is unknown, his target is to make himself known to himself – as he is, and as he might become under certain conditions. (Mouravieff 2002, xxiii)
Gurdjieff had his methods and Boris Mouravieff, as noted, wrote about these methods in a slightly different way.
As it happens, during our research into Boris M., we discovered that he was being soundly lambasted by William Patrick Patterson in his book Talking With the Left Hand in which he accuses Mouravieff of stealing his ideas from Gurdjieff. Patterson is the author of four highly praised books on spiritual development and is a longtime student of John Pentland, the man Gurdjieff chose to lead the Gurdjieff Work in America.
Just in case the reader is not familiar with Gurdjieff, let me give a little background. Dating from his first lectures in Moscow and St. Petersburg in 1912, George Ivanovich Gurdjieff attracted the attention of occultists and many Western aristocrats. His teachings (often referred to as the “Gurdjieff Work” or “Fourth Way”) became widely known through the writings and lectures of his pupil, the famous Russian mathematician and journalist Pyotr D. Ouspensky, and were later propagated by Alfred Orage, John G. Bennett, Rodney Collins, and Dr. Maurice Nicoll.
Gurdjieff himself admitted that he was utilizing “stolen” teachings from a wide range of groups that he had encountered (including the Yezidis, the Russian Orthodox Church, and Sufi “Bektashi” and “Naqshbandi” sects in the Hindu Kush and Pamir regions) in his world travels. A deep study of Gurdjieff’s work shows that he was obviously experimenting with his own ideas on how to utilize bits and pieces from these different teachings to create a system that would enable individuals to overcome ingrained cognitive defects, become more conscious, and awaken the Higher Self’s “Objective Conscience.”
At a certain point, it seems that Gurdjieff realized that he had undertaken an impossible task since nearly all of his students “heard” only what they wanted to hear. He closed his school and concentrated on putting his ideas into allegory in his book Beelzebub’s Tales To His Grandson (1950), which also incorporated and developed additional esoteric themes into his ideas.
Many of Gurdjieff’s concepts have profoundly influenced our present culture due to the fact that some of his followers were famous and wealthy and had the means to promote them to others in the upper classes. After his death in 1949, Gurdjieff’s legacy was disseminated through many people, and much of his work has been passed on through fragmentation of the many groups into something akin to secular denominations. One of the biggest problems with what happened to Gurdjieff’s work – what seemed to be a sincere attempt to help humanity – was further obscured by the formation of what can only be called personality cults and identifications with Gurdjieff at the expense of his ideas. It seems that Gurdjieff himself saw this coming at the end of his life.
Groups that are offshoots of Gurdjieff’s teachings have been known to use all kinds of things to reprogram their members, including isolation, group think, authoritarian power structures, and other psychological methods designed to unmask or break down the personal ego. But, what seems clear is that, in the case of Gurdjieff, no one group can claim the whole cheese since he was curiously selective about what he told whom, and even those who were closest to him obviously misunderstood what he was trying to convey, as evidenced by his own statements about this factor towards the end of his life.
The fact is, Gurdjieff faced great difficulties at the point in time when he sought to experiment with waking up humanity. As noted above, it was “Mission Impossible.” However, what he and his followers did manage to do was to slash a trail through a jungle of lies and disinformation. It is not appropriate for his followers to insist that this bare trail is all there is and that there is no more. Rather, it is only logical to widen the trail, to pass through the gate revealed at the end of the trail, and discover what lies on the other side.
Mouravieff certainly had his own issues and of the two, I would rely on Gurdjieff before Mouravieff, but Mouravieff did do a service by transmitting a most ancient esoteric tradition. As long as he was writing about the tradition, he was being helpful. When he began to add his own ideas or interpretations, he exposed his ignorance and failure to understand the very material he was conveying.
Castaneda either borrowed many of these ideas and re-framed them in a Southwestern shamanic context with his own spin, or actually found traces of the same ideas there. I tend toward the former supposition based on the timing and several insightful discussions with someone who knew him personally.
Our own approach, guided by the Cs, is more strictly along the lines of Gurdjieff and Mouravieff and a bit of Castaneda with a kick. Gurdjieff and Mouravieff and Castaneda all talk about a man needing to know himself, to know his “machine,” to observe it, to engage in introspection or recapitulation or self-observation and so on and so forth. We have taken this to the next logical step and utilize the terminology of modern psychology. In our searching for validation of these ideas, we have found that there are actually studies and books written about various aspects of human psychology that service these very ancient traditions remarkably.
Gurdjieff talked about “buffers” and how they are created. It’s clear that Castaneda’s recapitulation was supposed to be a means of dealing with buffers though Castaneda’s presentation of many things was sorely lacking in clarity. He tended to mystify the whole thing. That is unfortunate. A lot of people follow after the Castaneda way because of this very mystification. It sounds so – well – esoteric and they don’t want to accept the simple fact that the first order of business is to deal with your own psychology in a very basic and practical way.
Have a look at what Gurdjieff had to say about buffers and keep in mind that he is talking about the many “programs” or thought loops that become inculcated into us from childhood due to our experiences and familial and social conditioning. These programs, or thought loops, are the same thing that Castaneda refers to as the “Predator’s mind.”
You often think in a very naive way … You already think you can do. To get rid of this conviction is more difficult than anything else for a man. You do not understand all the complexity of your organization and you do not realize that every effort, in addition to the results desired, even if it gives these, gives thousands of unexpected and often undesirable results, and the chief thing that you forget is that you are not beginning from the beginning with a nice clean, new machine. There stand behind you many years of a wrong and stupid life, of indulgence in every kind of weakness, of shutting your eyes to your own errors, of striving to avoid all unpleasant truths, of constant lying to yourselves, of self-justification, of blaming others, and so on, and so on. All this cannot help affecting the machine. The machine is dirty, in places it is rusty, and in some places artificial appliances have been formed, the necessity for which has been created by its own wrong way of working.
These artificial appliances will now interfere very much with all your good intentions.
They are called ‘buffers.’
‘Buffer’ is a term which requires special explanation. We know what buffers on railway carriages are. They are the contrivances which lessen the shock when carriages or trucks strike one another. If there were no buffers the shock of one carriage against another would be very unpleasant and dangerous. Buffers soften the results of these shocks and render them unnoticeable and imperceptible.
Exactly the same appliances are to be found within man. They are created, not by nature but by man himself, although involuntarily. The cause of their appearance is the existence in man of many contradictions; contradictions of opinions, feelings, sympathies, words, and actions. If a man throughout the whole of his life were to feel all the contradictions that are within him he could not live and act as calmly as he lives and acts now. He would have constant friction, constant unrest. We fail to see how contradictory and hostile the different I’s of our personality are to one another. If a man were to feel all these contradictions he would feel what he really is. He would feel that he is mad. It is not pleasant to anyone to feel that he is mad. Moreover, a thought such as this deprives a man of self-confidence, weakens his energy, deprives him of ‘self-respect.’ Somehow or other he must master this thought or banish it. He must either destroy contradictions or cease to see and to feel them. A man cannot destroy contradictions. But if ‘buffers’ are created in him he can cease to feel them and he will not feel the impact from the clash of contradictory views, contradictory emotions, contradictory words.
‘Buffers’ are created slowly and gradually. Very many ‘buffers’ are created artificially through ‘education.’ Others are created under the hypnotic influence of all surrounding life. A man is surrounded by people who live, speak, think, and feel by means of ‘buffers.’ Imitating them in their opinions, actions, and words, a man involuntarily creates similar ‘buffers’ in himself. ‘Buffers’ make a man’s life more easy. It is very hard to live without ‘buffers.’ But they keep man from the possibility of inner development because ‘buffers’ are made to lessen shocks and it is only shocks that can lead a man out of the state in which he lives, that is, waken him. ‘Buffers’ lull a man to sleep, give him the agreeable and peaceful sensation that all will be well, that no contradictions exist and that he can sleep in peace. ‘Buffers’ are appliances by means of which a man can always be in the right. ‘Buffers’ help a man not to feel his conscience. (Ouspensky 1977, 154–155)
We have found that dealing with the issues of narcissism and psychopathology in our world is the clearest and most direct path to dealing with programs, buffers or the Predator’s mind in man. Most human beings in the world are narcissistic and most of us are raised by narcissists. The world itself – society, culture, science, religion – is heavily influenced by psychopathic influences and these influences are one of the reasons that most potentially healthy people become narcissistic – it is a defense – a system of buffers.
And so, as we are raised in a psychopathic/narcissistic world, we also grow these buffers that separate us from our true self and that force our machine to use up vast quantities of soul energy just to keep running at all.
And so, we approach the problem in a very pragmatic and practical way. A person can do nothing until they are psychologically healthy and this means removing buffers, mentally going over the machine in a careful and thorough way, cleaning it, re-wiring it and most of all, having new experiences that help with this re-wiring process in an environment where this is possible.
Then, of course, you need to really understand how the world got to be the way it is, and that involves the study of psychopathy. Studying psychopathy is useful for another very good reason: when you finally clearly see the traits of the psychopath writ large, it helps you to identify traces of such influences in your own make-up. Psychopaths are like caricatures that help you recognize something by its most pronounced features, just like the drawing known as a caricature.
Perhaps the most destructive, and thus most important, of the relationships that must be parsed is interaction with psychological deviants in our society. In the past few years, as a result of the experiences that were triggered by the writing of The Wave (which I am about to recount), we have done much research on the subject, finding such indispensable works as Robert Hare’s Without Conscience, Martha Stout’s The Sociopath Next Door, Hervey Cleckley’s The Mask of Sanity and Andrew Lobaczewski’s Political Ponerology. As we did more research we discovered just how many people are affected by these intraspecies predators. The problem is truly epidemic, and as researchers like Robert Hare and Andrew Lobaczewski demonstrate, the effect psychopaths have on normal people of conscience inevitably leads to tragic results. A person’s moral and logical reasoning abilities are numbed and distorted. They, in essence, become what has enslaved them. It is only by rigorously analyzing these dynamics that we can protect ourselves.
One of the concepts that seems to be integral to the idea that knowledge protects is that saving energy will enable us to grow and become more aware of higher levels of consciousness. It is this growth of awareness that binds us and makes us eligible to graduate as a result of the coming Wave, or Macrocosmic Metamorphosis.
According to the Cassiopaeans, our third density world consists of what we can know within third density parameters – it is our third density awareness that binds us to it. When that awareness grows, we are able to bind with higher levels of reality. Don Juan says that all that we know as humans, and can describe with words, is a very small part of what actually exists. It is an island upon which we pass the whole of our lives.
What lies beyond?
The Cassiopaeans say that it is a hyperdimensional state of existence, partly physical and partly ethereal, with a greater balance of these elements than what we have here, where the physical dominates. This physical aspect is what don Juan says is controlled by the Predator, and that we, ourselves, as physical beings are controlled by the Predator’s mind. The process by which the Predator gives us its mind has since been scientifically described in Political Ponerology as that of ponerization – the effect on normal people of the Predator’s almost-human interface: psychopathy.
From don Juan’s perspective, what lies beyond the borders of third density is an unfathomable mystery that cannot be understood verbally, but it can be witnessed, and experienced by anyone with enough energy. By integrating the known with the unknown, an integration of the self occurs. When the individual begins the process of integration, they begin to realize that the reality of the world is merely a matter of perception. And when they begin to become aware of this, one of the results is that their perception changes.
The Cs have made it clear that we are “food” for self-serving beings at higher levels, and that they feed on our energy, for the most part, but in some cases may actually feed on our flesh. Don Juan points out that they keep us in this chicken coop by controlling our thinking. The Cs say essentially the same thing. Gurdjieff talked about it in terms of being mechanical and “food for the Moon” and the movie The Matrix presented a similar idea, stating that the basis of the Matrix is “rules.”
Our bodies are fields of energy that are constantly affected by other fields of energy – from planets, to the human beings in our lives – whether they are physically present or merely connected via psychological strands of etheric energy. All of these fields affect us, and the Cs have pointed out through the many answers to my questions about my own relationships and interactions with others, that these interconnected fields are the means by which our energy is either “eaten” or augmented, depending on the nature of the interaction.
Don Juan taught Carlos that foreign energy can distort our own energy fields for years as a result of our interactions with those we encounter during our lives. By the same token, we can have a distorting effect on the energy fields of others. Don Juan said that this distorted energy holds us back, holds us under some dark spell because it interferes with our daily living by draining our energy. What is easy to see is that he was attempting to convey the fact that these distortions can create energetic links by which the Matrix, or Predator, drains our energy continuously. These ideas are a recurring theme in literature.
“Our lives are merely strange, dark interludes in the electrical display of God the Father,” or so wrote the playwright Eugene O’Neill. In its time, Strange Interlude achieved a success no other American play had ever equaled. The published play became a national best seller – the first time a drama had attained that honor – and O’Neill received his third Pulitzer Prize for the work.
The reviewers of 1928 weren’t crazy about it, calling it naïve in its use of psychological theory in an attempt to represent the point made in the title line, delivered by the heroine of the play, Nina. But to the public, it was clear that a deep chord of resonance had been struck, and they responded to this exploration of reality with enthusiasm.
Strange Interlude appeared as a work which dealt seriously with facets of human nature not yet fully explored. It attempted to establish a kind of primer of new ways of understanding human drives and motivations. O’Neill himself, in his Memoranda on Masks wrote of using masks to “express those profound hidden conflicts of the mind which the probings of psychology continue to disclose to us.” At the same time, he spoke of masks as providing “a chance for eloquent presentation, a new form of drama projected from a fresh insight into the inner forces motivating the actions and reactions of men and women – a drama of souls.”
In the context of what I am about to disclose, a series of behind the scenes views of the dynamics of channeling and the necessary human interactions, there is an echo of the ideas of Strange Interlude which O’Neill was never quite able to sufficiently delineate. In the present series, the reader will note that a tension is suggested between that which is purely psychological and that which is mystical and abstract. The astute reader will perceive a theologically oriented drama of souls. In this sense, we come to the realization that the human masks are just the surfaces of the dramas of higher levels of being, and that the psychological layer is merely the immediate subsurface. We hope that the reader will be able to see even deeper, and discover what it is that the Cassiopaeans have tried to convey to us and through us about the nature of the Matrix reality in which we live.
In fact, the movie, The Matrix, is the next level of revelations beyond that approached by O’Neill in Strange Interlude. It is also an excellent metaphor for the drama we have lived, are living, and which others live, though often unbeknownst to themselves. It is our hope that the experiences we will be describing here, our learning to see the unseen, in terms of penetrating not only beyond the masks of the physical symbols of reality to the psychological substrate, but even deeper to the theological drama of souls, will be useful to others in terms of navigating the Matrix-like reality in which we live.
In addition to providing a map for others, what I will be disclosing to the reader is also an act of recapitulation. According to don Juan, recapitulation is an exercise to recall, review, release, and recharge energy lost in this drama of souls. It rids a person of assumptions and preconceptions. It frees locked energy and restores balance. The chief thing about recapitulation that seems to not be clearly stated by the so-called Toltec teachings is that what it really does is increase awareness by increasing knowledge, and with increased knowledge and awareness, the individual is able to employ will to choose to act differently; to cut the connections between the self and those who drain us.
Life is lessons. It’s that simple. We “pass” these lessons by learning to see the hidden dynamics of our interpersonal relationships. Once we understand these dynamics we can learn to put an end to the destructive and emotionally draining ones. If what the Cs have said about the Wave is true, then it is by learning these simple karmic understandings that one can learn the lessons of third grade. Therefore, the process of recapitulation is one of great importance. By having an understanding of our past mistakes we can apply our understanding in the present, thus protecting ourselves for the future. We can truly self-remember, as Gurdjieff says, and utilize the present for whatever aim we have set for ourselves.
Carlos Castaneda’s teachings about warriors and sorcerers seem to suggest that the only option to really become free is to cut all connections, and to isolate the self psychologically and even, in some cases, physically. He did not seem to be aware that there was another option. The Cs, on the other hand, suggest that there is another way: that of networking in a manner aligned with service-to-others.
The hidden key in the teachings of the Cs, don Juan, and Gurdjieff, is that human beings may, indeed, be what they are because of genetics, but they can change this – to some extent – by what they learn. Perhaps we ought to pause for a moment to consider how this is possible.
A sea slug is a pretty basic creature. It cannot migrate, communicate, fly, or think. It exists in a life of eating and sex. That’s about it. But, if a jet of water is blown on its gill, it withdraws the gill. If the jet of water is repeatedly blown on the gill, the withdrawal gradually ceases. The sea slug stops responding to what it now recognizes as a false alarm. It habituates. This is learning. Maybe not algebra, but learning nevertheless.
If the sea slug is given an electric shock once, before water is blown on the gill, it learns to withdraw its gill even further than usual – it is sensitized. It can also be conditioned to withdraw its gill when it receives only a gentle puff of water if that puff is paired with an electric shock, after which only the puff is present, stimulating the behavior. This is associative learning.
The thing is: the sea slug does not use its brain. The changes occur in the abdominal ganglion. Since sea slugs have pretty large and simple neuron complexes, they are easy to study, and scientists were able to determine what, exactly, occurs in the process of learning. When an electrical nerve signal reaches a synapse, it must transfer to a chemical signal, like a train passenger having to catch a ferry across a sea channel before getting back on another train. Learning seems to be a change in the properties of the synapses. Either the synapse is weakened or strengthened, and the whole operation centers around a molecule called cyclic AMP.
A series of chemical reactions occurs which leads to the activation of a protein called CREB. Animals which lack the activated form of CREB can learn, but cannot remember. This is because CREB, once activated, starts switching on genes. The genes switched on are called CRE genes and are “cyclic AMP response elements.” The human CREB gene is on chromosome 2, but a crucial component is also found on chromosome 16. It now seems that a further component is on chromosome 21.
In fruit flies the cyclic AMP system seems to be especially active in brain regions called “mushroom bodies.” They are toadstool-shaped extrusions of neurons. A fly that has no mushroom bodies in its brain is generally incapable of learning. CREB and cyclic AMP do their work in these mushroom bodies. (Now, think of the mushroom imagery of the ancients! Mycenaea – the place of the mushroom. Of course, the occultists would have us believe that they were all slurping amanita muscaria, but were they?)
Deep in the base of the brain is a structure called the hippocampus (Greek for sea horse!) and a part of the hippocampus is called Ammon’s horn, or the Ram. In the Ammon’s horn, there are a large number of pyramidal neurons which gather the input of other sensory neurons. A pyramidal neuron is difficult to fire, but if two separate inputs arrive at once, their combined effect will fire it. Once fired, it is much easier to fire, but only by one of the two inputs that originally fired it, and not by another input. Thus, for example, the sight of a pyramid and the word Egypt combined, could fire the pyramidal cell, creating an associative memory. This means that things that occur together in time can “potentiate” associative learning.
What resides in and near the hippocampus is the mechanism for creating long-term memory. The cells there transmit the newly formed long-term memory to where it will reside in the neo-cortex. People with small hippocampuses can form procedural memories – that is, they can learn to do things that require skill, like reading and writing, and diagramming sentences, teaching English and literature, performing rituals and collecting data of all kinds, and even aping scholars to a sufficient extent that the non-discriminating observer is easily fooled. If, however, there are lesions in this region of the brain, or genetic malformation, the likelihood is that such individuals have no real ability to associate so as to do anything that is truly creative or new.
This means that they cannot and do not learn from their experiences if it requires the extraction of a principle and applying it to other situations in the realms of pure thought. As Gurdjieff noted, even great literature can be written altogether mechanically.
This, of course, makes me wonder if part of the STS problem is hippocampus-related, since semantic aphasia seems to be one of the chief clues that we have noticed in dealing with such individuals, and since psychopaths are remarkably inept at learning from experiences what behaviour is self-destructive in the long-term. But, I am getting ahead of myself.
Getting back to recapitulation. It seems that, when utilized correctly, it is a process of “thinking with a hammer,” and making associations. Recapitulation can be a tool by which awareness is enhanced. According to don Juan, it consists in hashing over and reliving one’s experiences. One must attempt to remember every possible, minute detail. When this is done within a group, it becomes the essence of what Paul wrote when he said “confess your sins one to the other,” keeping in mind that Gurdjieff referred to the Fourth Way as “Esoteric Christianity.” The Cs say “network” and “air it out.” The result seems to be that recapitulation increases awareness, which then enables us to apply what we are now aware of in practical ways, and thus, we are enabled to begin the process of reclaiming our energy, and making better choices about who or what we connect to, or associate with, in terms of our interactions with people and situations that we encounter in our daily lives.
The way this may work is that, by recapitulation, we are discovering principles. We are looking at an event in the real world, considering the psychological, “real” reason, and associating it to the theological reason. This means that we are firing the pyramidal cells in the hippocampus because we are coming at the issue with numerous inputs at once. This then ships the information off to the neo-cortex where more synapses are formed, and more thinking capacity results, establishing a positive feedback loop.
According to don Juan, recapitulating an event starts with one’s mind arranging everything pertinent to what is being recapitulated. Arranging means reconstructing the event, piece by piece, starting with recollecting the physical details of the surroundings, then remembering the person with whom one shared the interaction, and then proceeding to the examination of the self and one’s own feelings. This is extremely important, and the reader will recognize echoes of Gurdjieff’s self-remembering and will also see the associative properties of creating the multiple inputs for the hippocampus.
While don Juan taught that recapitulation ought to be accompanied by deep breathing and slowly moving the head back and forth, we are dealing here with a form of recapitulation that includes a network, so we have to sort of wing it and figure out the process as we go along.
As a general rule, our reality discourages recapitulation. It teaches us to “forgive and forget” and “make nice” and think in strictly third density terms. We are beginning to realize that this is a program, and it is the main reason so many of us suffer for so many years: we are trying to “make nice” when things clearly are not nice.
And how easily we are persuaded to stop seeing, to stop thinking, to stop examining, and to most definitely not make any choices based on any such perceptions. We have already mentioned the fact that we are programmed to not do post mortems on our relationships because it is considered to be gossip. We are discouraged from talking about our ongoing interactions and the clues we see, because it is “not nice” or it is “two-faced” or whatever. In hundreds of different ways, we are programmed to not examine our interactions, and most especially our own take on things at one time as opposed to another.
Those who constantly seek to understand their experiences may find themselves accused of being inconstant in their opinions. Well, heck, nobody wants to be accused of being flaky or inconstant. In this way, a “paramoralism” is used as a weapon against us, to keep us as food.
Most importantly, the Matrix, the Predator, or the fourth density STS controllers, do not want us to govern our lives by what we see when we recapitulate. They do not want us to “spot the program” and refuse to run it. They do not want us to see the small clues that our energy is being drained, and learn that it is not only okay to disengage from association with such individuals, it is required.
It is okay to figure out that somebody is not what we thought they were. It is okay to decide that we don’t have to continue in a relationship with that person because we know from our experiences, from our recapitulation, that there is so little possibility that they will change that it is almost not worth considering. It is okay to admit we were evaluating or making choices based on limited information that has now been superseded by deeper or more accurate information. It is okay to simply come to the realization that we have been slowly manipulated into making one choice after another that we didn’t really want to make, and now we have decided that we don’t want to be manipulated anymore.
We are allowed to change our minds as often as our minds change. And if our minds are open, and in tune with the infinite possibilities of the cosmos, that can be rather frequent.
At one point during the events I am about to recount, I received an email from a correspondent. In this email, he told me some really ugly things about an individual he recently realized was a psychic vampire in his own life. He described a meeting where he and this psychic vampire were having a discussion with two other men, one of them a writer and film producer, and expert on “sacred geometry” and mysticism in general. The correspondent described how this well-known man excused himself about ten or so minutes into the discussion, and left. A few days later, he called my correspondent and told him that there was something very wrong with the psychic vampire and that he would not be willing to work with my correspondent in any way as long as interactions with the psychic vampire were a part of the deal.
My correspondent said that the only reason he disregarded this warning was because “I am a man of my word. I had made a promise.” He then ended up spending several years being manipulated, drained of energy, drained of cash, suffering losses to his reputation, and finally being stabbed in the back by the psychic vampire. In fact, we were taken in by the very same psychic vampire, as I will shortly recount.
In short, he had warning. Not just his own instincts, because he confessed that he was uneasy about this collaboration, but another person clearly and plainly told him, “I can’t associate with you as long as you associate with him.” And the guy who said this was obviously somebody who knew about energy and how it is drained, and how to spot such people and decline to interact.
And that is what we need most desperately to learn.
What was it my correspondent said? “I am a man of my word. I had made a promise.” Well, guess what? This is a paramoralistic program. In this case it plays on what we have been programmed to think is “moral” and what is not. How can you consider yourself obliged to keep your word to an individual who has obtained your word by fraud? If a person obtains a promise from you that you will give him money by claiming that he is broke, and you then find out he is a millionaire scrooge, are you going to give him your money anyway? We begin to get a niggling suspicion that this was the real reason that Jesus taught that a person ought not to swear about anything; because new information can, at any moment, change the perspective, the reality, and our lives. We ought to always be free to change our direction at any moment, the same way the pilot of a ship makes constant corrections in the heading based on the different external influences such as the wind and sea currents.
Life is like that: there is wind, there are currents, and it is somewhat chaotic. If we do not examine it, stay alert to these things, we will end up far off course and never reach our destination.
Much of this book is a recapitulation. It is the performance of an act of power. But it is not just my recapitulation; it is the recapitulation of a much larger group and soul dynamic. It is the act of opening doors to other realities because, as I proceed, as I think back and study what I remember, attempting to be as accurate as possible, why I did what I did, how I felt, how the different people acted or reacted, as I search through the transcripts to jog my memory – because the transcripts are mostly a diary of my personal life and thinking – I am finding that much of the material from Cs that never made complete sense before is now beginning to fit together in a surprising way.
I am also seeing something else: In every case where I have held back telling anything, I have done so for the very reasons cited above: I was acting according to the rules, out of courtesy, or because I was “giving the benefit of the doubt,” or “turning the other cheek,” or making nice. And, as the Cs have pointed out, expecting something to turn out differently from what it is at the moment of realizing what the program is, is wishful thinking. And wishful thinking is the essence of service-to-self.
At the time that many of the attacks I am going to disclose were going on, we did not write about them, we did not share them, we tried to keep them private for the sake of giving more chances for the others involved to do something else that would heal the breach. We were always expecting them to just wake up and see that we are not their adversary, that we do not want to interfere in their lives, that we simply and only want to have the right to our own choices, even if those choices include not associating with them in any way. We wanted them to understand that we had realized that our mutual energies were obviously not in sync, so “let’s have a parting of the ways.” At each stage of the process, we waited and hoped that this realization would arise in their minds. But it seems that such things never occur to people who are filled with their own self-importance. Such individuals become furious when their self-importance is provoked. They talk themselves into a state of righteous indignation that anyone would dare to refuse to associate with them; that anyone would dare to assert the right to their own space, be it real or virtual; that anyone would dare to make them look like a fool.
And then they go out and make themselves look like fools.
And here we come to the primary issue: When we identify the fact that our energy fields are not compatible with some other individual or that there is a drain, we have the right to choose to disassociate ourselves. We have not only the right, but if we are truly seeking higher knowledge, it is a necessity.
As we have quoted don Juan, recapitulation is an exercise to recall, review, release, and recharge energy. And so it is, what we are about to recount is a series of encounters with what don Juan called “petty tyrants.” But, before we do, I would like to present don Juan’s story of his petty tyrant from Castaneda’s book The Fire from Within. It is a delightful, hilarious account of deep and important principles of awareness and energy conservation, and I recommend the reader to read the chapter in its entirety. Every time I read it I laugh with glee to see the very situation we will be discussing here so humorously depicted, petty tyrants who attempt to annoy us to distraction. As don Juan has said, “the warrior who stumbles on a petty tyrant is a lucky one … because if you don’t, you have to go out and look for one.” The objective is, of course, that if an individual can “hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of the unknowable.” In other words, we are enormously grateful for the petty tyrants in our lives. That we have them, and so many, indeed, gives me great hope that this very process of recapitulation, undertaken with self-restraint, will achieve the very pragmatic goal of serving others.
Castaneda’s chapter on petty tyrants (pp. 11–30) begins with don Juan telling Carlos Castaneda that they must go for a walk to “sit down and talk”. La Gorda, another of don Juan’s students, upon overhearing that don Juan wishes to speak with Carlos in private, assumes that they are going to talk about her behind her back. Don Juan replies that she is correct, and he and Carlos leave to talk.
When alone, don Juan tells Carlos that he “told her that just to provoke her enormous self-importance. And it worked. She is furious with us. If I know her, by now she will have talked to herself long enough to have built up her confidence and her righteous indignation at having been refused and made to look like a fool. I wouldn’t be surprised if she barges in on us here, at the park bench.” He elaborates, saying, “Self-importance is our greatest enemy. Think about it – what weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of our fellow men. Our self-importance requires that we spend most of our lives offended by someone.”
When Carlos compares ridding oneself of self-importance to the Church’s dictums on the evil of sin, don Juan replies, “Warriors fight self-importance as a matter of strategy, not principle. Your mistake is to understand what I say in terms of morality.” He explains that what Carlos perceives in him as “morality” is really his impeccability, or his proper use of energy. By properly identifying “behavioral patterns that are not essential to our survival and well-being”, like the activity of self-importance, one can eliminate what is unnecessary and draining. “One of the first concerns of warriors is to free that energy in order to face the unknown with it.”
The process of rechanneling this energy involves six interplaying elements, five of which are called the “attributes of warriorship” – control, discipline, forbearance, timing, and will. While these apply to the inner world of the warrior, the sixth applies to the external world: the petty tyrant. “A petty tyrant is a tormentor. Someone who either holds the power of life and death over warriors or simply annoys them to distraction.” Commenting on the irreverent humor with which the “new seers” classified their petty tyrants, don Juan tells Carlos:
The new seers, in accordance with their practice, saw fit to head their classification with the primal source of energy, the one and only ruler in the universe, and they called it simply the tyrant. The rest of the despots and authoritarians were found to be, naturally, infinitely below the category of tyrant. Compared to the source of everything, the most fearsome, tyrannical men are buffoons; consequently, they were classified as petty tyrants, pinches tiranos.
He said that there were two subclasses of minor petty tyrants. The first subclass consisted of the petty tyrants who persecute and inflict misery but without actually causing anybody’s death. They were called little petty tyrants, pinches tiranitos. The second consisted of the petty tyrants who are only exasperating and bothersome to no end. They were called small-fry petty tyrants, repinches tiranitos, or teensy-weensy petty tyrants, pinches tiranitos chiquititos …
He added that the little petty tyrants are further divided into four categories. One that torments with brutality and violence. Another that does it by creating unbearable apprehension through deviousness. Another which oppresses with sadness. And the last, which torments by making warriors rage …
“My benefactor used to say that the warrior who stumbles on a petty tyrant is a lucky one. He meant that you’re fortunate if you come upon one in your path, because if you don’t, you have to go out and look for one.”
He explained that one of the greatest accomplishments of the seers of the Conquest was a construct he called the three-phase progression. By understanding the nature of man, they were able to reach the incontestable conclusion that if seers can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of the unknowable.
“The average man’s reaction is to think that the order of that statement should be reversed,” he went on. “A seer who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants. But that’s not so. What destroyed the superb seers of ancient times was that assumption. We know better now. We know that nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to stand the pressure of the unknowable.”
It was only after dealing with the conquering Spaniards of the Conquest that the seers of that time were capable of facing anything. Luckily, in a time without petty tyrants of that scope, a “king-size one” found don Juan. At the time, however, don Juan found it hard to consider himself fortunate.
Don Juan then tells Carlos a story of his own petty tyrant. When barely twenty years old, he was essentially sold into slavery, although he was under the impression he was getting a well-paying job on a rich family’s land. A self-described “lowly ignorant Indian” with no immediate relatives, the foreman of the ranch on which he was to work thought him the perfect employee! Don Juan knew soon after arriving at the ranch that he had to escape, but was threatened with a gun at his first attempt to flee. He worked three weeks doing strenuous labor, with the ever-present boss bullying him under the constant threat of a number of weapons.
Upon realizing that the foreman was in cahoots with the man at the sugar mill, where don Juan had previously worked, to sell Indians into slave-labor, don Juan went on a rampage through the kitchen and out the front door. But the foreman was too fast, shooting don Juan in the chest and leaving him for dead. Luckily don Juan’s benefactor found him and nursed him back to health. As don Juan told Castaneda, “When I told my benefactor the whole story he could hardly contain his excitement. ‘That foreman is really a prize,’ my benefactor said. ‘He is too good to be wasted. Someday you must go back to that house.’ He raved about my luck in finding a one-in-a-million petty tyrant with almost unlimited power. I thought the old man was nuts. It was years before I fully understood what he was talking about.” Don Juan then tells Carlos that he did go back to the house, three years later. His benefactor “developed a strategy using the four attributes of warriorship: control, discipline, forbearance, and timing.”
Don Juan said that his benefactor, in explaining to him what he had to do to profit from facing that ogre of a man, also told him what the new seers considered to be the four steps on the path of knowledge. The first step is the decision to become apprentices. After the apprentices change their views about themselves and the world they take the second step and become warriors, which is to say, beings capable of the utmost discipline and control over themselves. The third step, after acquiring forbearance and timing, is to become men of knowledge. When men of knowledge learn to see they have taken the fourth step and have become seers.
Teaching Carlos the importance of petty tyrants, don Juan told him that “the idea of using a petty tyrant is not only for perfecting the warrior’s spirit, but also for enjoyment and happiness.” In fact, don Juan’s boss was nothing compared to the tyrants of the Conquest.
Don Juan explained that the mistake average men make in confronting petty tyrants is not to have a strategy to fall back on; the fatal flaw is that average men take themselves too seriously; their actions and feelings, as well as those of the petty tyrants, are all-important. Warriors, on the other hand, not only have a well-thought-out strategy, but are free from self-importance. What restrains their self-importance is that they have understood that reality is an interpretation we make. That knowledge was the definitive advantage that the new seers had over the simple-minded Spaniards.
After building up his strength, don Juan managed to get the same job unrecognized by his former employers.
The same routine took place. The strategy, however, called for refusing payment to the foreman from the outset [for his ‘service’ of providing the new job]. The man had never been turned down and was taken aback. He threatened to fire don Juan from the job. Don Juan threatened him back, saying that he would go directly to the lady’s house and see her. Don Juan knew that the woman, who was the wife of the owner of the mill, did not know what the two foremen were up to. He told the foreman that he knew where she lived, because he had worked in the surrounding fields cutting sugar cane. The man began to haggle, and don Juan demanded money from him before he would accept going to the lady’s house. The foreman gave in and handed him a few bills. Don Juan was perfectly aware that the foreman’s acquiescence was just a ruse to get him to go to the house. …
“As soon as we got there, I ran into the house to look for the lady. I found her and dropped to my knees and kissed her hand to thank her. The two foremen were livid.
“The foreman at the house followed the same pattern as before. But I had the proper equipment to deal with him; I had control, discipline, forbearance, and timing. It turned out as my benefactor had planned it. My control made me fulfill the man’s most asinine demands. What usually exhausts us in a situation like that is the wear and tear on our self-importance. Any man who has an iota of pride is ripped apart by being made to feel worthless. … ”
This time, instead of feeling sorry for himself, don Juan controlled himself while he worked on finding the boss’ strengths, weaknesses, and personal quirks. While his strengths were his daring and violent nature, his weakness was that he liked his job – he couldn’t kill don Juan on the compound or he might lose his position. He was also a family man, with a wife and child living near the house.
Having forbearance meant being patient for the right time to act, all the while enduring the tortures of slave labor and playing the role of ignorant worker to perfection.
He also employed his benefactor’s method of systematic harassment, by taking cover under the “higher order” of the Catholic church, as his forbears had done during the Conquest. He daily kneeled before the lady of the house, calling her a saint and asking for a medallion to pray for her. The foreman was livid upon learning that not only had she given it to don Juan, but don Juan had got the other servants to pray with him at night.
“Daily he shoved me into the stallions’ stalls hoping that I would be crushed to death, but I had a plank of heavy boards that I braced against one of the corners and protected myself behind it. The man never knew because he was nauseated by the horses – another of his weaknesses, the deadliest of all, as things turned out.”
Don Juan said that timing is the quality that governs the release of all that is held back. Control, discipline, and forbearance are like a dam behind which everything is pooled. Timing is the gate in the dam.
Don Juan found the perfect moment to neutralize the man’s violence under the cover of the watch of the other workers. He insulted the foreman by telling him to his face that he was afraid of the boss’s wife. The man went into a rage, but by then, don Juan was “solicitously kneeling in front of the lady.”
Don Juan said that when the lady went inside the house, the man and his friends called him to the back, allegedly to do some work. The man was very pale, white with anger. From the sound of his voice don Juan knew what the man was really planning to do. Don Juan pretended to acquiesce, but instead of heading for the back, he ran for the stables. He trusted that the horses would make such a racket the owners would come out to see what was wrong. He knew that the man would not dare shoot him. That would have been too noisy and the man’s fear of endangering his job was too overpowering. Don Juan also knew that the man would not go where the horses were – that is, unless he had been pushed beyond his endurance.
Don Juan jumped into the stall of the wildest stallion, hiding behind the boards he had prepared. The petty tyrant foreman charged into the stall blinded by rage and was killed with one kick of the stallion.
Don Juan told Carlos, “My benefactor explained something very interesting. Forbearance means holding back with the spirit something that the warrior knows is rightfully due. It doesn’t mean that a warrior goes around plotting to do anybody mischief, or planning to settle past scores. Forbearance is something independent. As long as the warrior has control, discipline, and timing, forbearance assures giving whatever is due to whoever deserves it.”
Carlos asked don Juan what measured defeat in an encounter with a petty tyrant. “Anyone who joins the petty tyrant is defeated,” he replied. “To act in anger, without control and discipline, to have no forbearance, is to be defeated.”
What is important about this subject is that the petty tyrant dynamic is the fundamental feeding mechanism of third density, and as such, is the real reason, or the psychological reason, that is the interface between the theological drama and the events of our lives. Don Juan has just told a story that caricatures the interaction so that we can recognize the chief features easily by association.
Just to review the classifications of petty tyrants, don Juan tells us that the primal source of energy, or the ruler of the universe, is The Tyrant. This resonates with Gurdjieff’s Sufiesque idea that our world is run by an “Evil Magician.” It also fits with the Gnostic Demiurge, and the Cs’ presentation of the STS hierarchy that dominates our world from fourth density. It is in comparison to this Matrix Control System, The Tyrant, that even the worst of the despots and authoritarians of our reality are petty tyrants. These petty tyrants would be someone such as Adolf Hitler, Josef Stalin, Torquemada, and others with the power of life and death over other people. Below them are the “minor petty tyrants” who do not have the power of life and death over others, but who do persecute and cause misery, or who are exasperating and bothersome, as Castaneda phrased it. These are “little petty tyrants” and “teensy weensy petty tyrants.”
Don Juan then tells us that the “little petty tyrants” are further subdivided into four additional categories: one that torments with brutality and violence, another that does it by creating unbearable apprehension through deviousness, another which oppresses with sadness, and the last, which torments by making warriors rage. What we will be noticing is that the same petty tyrant can, at different times, operate through any of these modes.
The purpose of the petty tyrant in our lives is to teach us detachment. It is a challenge to deal with impossible people, but by doing it, we acquire sobriety and serenity. In short, out of the fire comes light.
Don Juan described the steps of utilizing a petty tyrant to achieve a state of expanded consciousness. The first step is to consciously decide to seek Truth. As Gurdjieff noted, the question must be a “burning one.” Neo, in The Matrix, had a “thorn in his mind.” The Cs have said that it is a result of being “at that point on the learning cycle.”
The next step is to change one’s views about themselves and the world. This means to no longer accept the party line of the Matrix, and to begin the work of digging beneath the surface. This process reveals to the seeker that there is evidence everywhere of the hyperdimensional reality in which our own is embedded. Once this realization is made, the individual must decide if they wish to access that reality, or if they are simply content with the present one. The Matrix presented this as choosing whether or not one wishes to take the red pill, or the blue pill.
This is, essentially, the choice to become a warrior. A warrior, in mythical terms, is an individual who is capable of self-discipline and control over himself because this is what is necessary to take the next step of becoming a person of knowledge. This is knowledge that is only accessible by integration of the higher mind into the third density reality. This then becomes the mustard seed of the growth of the self into fourth density whereby the knowledge can be directly accessed. Unfortunately, this understanding has been seriously derailed by many New Age teachings wherein the “intelligence of the heart” has been completely twisted to mean feelings or emotions or indiscriminate “love.”
Gurdjieff describes this process as “fusion.” He remarks that inner unity is obtained by means of “friction,” by the struggle between “yes” and “no” in man. And this is where we find the usefulness of the petty tyrant. Petty tyrants produce friction in our lives. They are annoying, irritating, aggravating. They can drain our energy with their demands on our time and attention through the hooks of pity and manipulation. They can lie about us, have fits and give performances of righteous indignation that is based only on their own illusions, violate our privacy, our free will, and just a host of fun and games. But, what is important is that they are like sparring partners who teach us forbearance and timing. Of course, that is not their intention. But as Mephistopheles told Faust, “I am he who constantly intends evil, yet does good.”
The machinations of STS in our world are like that: the Matrix, the Predator, the Evil Magician, the fourth density STS Control System, entropy; by whatever name you call it, it functions by draining us of our energy, uses us for food, and manipulates us for further purposes unknown; and it is done via agents, vectors of direction, sirens: psychopathic petty tyrants.
If we practice against the petty tyrant successfully, we are enabled to take the fourth step: to become seers. And here we don’t mean a psychic who looks into a crystal ball; the meaning is one who sees what is real.
And so it is that when we discover a petty tyrant in our lives, a strategy is necessary to induce them to spar with us, a systematic harassment that not only engages them, but also causes them to expose themselves for what they are to other people. In this way, not only are they helpful in honing our skills, they are rendered unable to inflict their tyranny on others. That is, of course, another purpose of this public recapitulation.
A key fact to remember is this: in the deepest sense, we are not sparring with an individual; it is with a program, with “agents of the Matrix,” the “mechanicalness” of the world, or the fourth density controllers pushing the buttons and pulling the levers behind the scenes. As the Apostle Paul wrote: “For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood, contending only with physical opponents, but against the despotisms, against the powers, against the master spirits who are the world rulers of this present darkness; against the spirit forces of wickedness in the heavenly, supernatural sphere … ” (Ephesians 6:12)
And in the dynamic of Castaneda’s account of dealing with the petty tyrant, we discover how it is that Knowledge Protects. Give the lie what it asks for: Truth.
Our Very Own Petty Tyrant
We come now to the story of making waves by writing The Wave.
In response to many questions and requests for more information about the Cs material, which was all I had put up on the Internet, in the spring of 2000, I began to write The Wave Series. This attracted a great deal of attention, mostly positive, though it also attracted the personal attention of what seem to be some extremely dark forces.
In order to explain this adequately, we have to back up to the spring of 1999, when I was put into contact with a fellow named Vincent Bridges. He immediately showed interest in my ideas regarding the Rennes-le-Château phenomenon, and we exchanged a fair number of emails on the subject, all of which are available on our website. During our exchange, Bridges represented himself as an investigative journalist who was an expert on New Age/Occult matters, and with connections to all the big names. He was, he said, writing a book on the subject of Alchemy and Fulcanelli and he wanted to get as much information from me as possible to help with his analyses. Unfortunately, I was taken in immediately by this flattery. After all, here was a real, bona fide journalist and expert who was actually interested in what I thought about a subject that had received such wide publicity. I was a nobody! I was so happy that, finally, here was someone who was pursuing the same lines of research, and he was so charming and knowledgeable! Little did I know at the time that it was all an act.
When his book was finally finished in the fall of 1999 (and I had been waiting with baited breath to read what I was sure was going to be the best analysis of alchemy and Fulcanelli that had ever been written), to say that it was anti-climactic is an understatement. He sent me a copy and I read it with a growing sense of frustration and disappointment. Not only was it naïve and shallow, he had taken a great deal of the material I had sent him and had twisted it all out of recognition for some obscure purpose. I began to wonder if we were even talking the same language. There were a few more or less desultory exchanges for the next few months. I believed that he was sincere and even told myself that he was right not to trust the Cs – or any channeled source – without doing the research, but the issue of where and how the ancient sources he relied on got their knowledge was still not resolved.
At this point, I decided that probably the best way to explain all the ideas, experiences and material that combined in my thinking was to write it up for the website. I began a series on the subject of the Holy Grail.
I wanted to be as helpful to Vincent as possible because even though we did not agree on several issues, I did not see it as a serious thing. I believed that if he had all the data I had collected, we would be more in agreement. To that end, I found a small part in his book that I felt I could quote in my writings on the web (The Grail Quest), and did so, giving a link to his book.
Things continued on in this way for several months until I just didn’t see much point in continuing the correspondence. I was busy writing and gardening, our discussion group had begun as a result of people writing to ask questions about the website, and things were just stable, as one might say. I published my exposé of the Rennes-le-Château, then, along came a totally bizarre email that actually frightened me a bit. This prompted me to re-activate my correspondence with Vincent because I was sure that he would have some knowledge about the occult language that was being used in the email. Of course it never occurred to me that he, himself, had sent the email for that express purpose.
In the fall of 2000, “Frank Scott” (pseudonym) – a long time member – left the working group. In the same period, Vincent Bridges initiated a discussion with me in which he claimed to be a struggling new publisher needing good authors – with an offer to publish my work with his company, Aethyrea Books.
Being overwhelmed with the work of keeping up with the discussion group, answering questions, editing the transcripts, researching clues from the material, and writing articles for the site, I thought Vincent was a godsend! Having corresponded with him for almost two years, even if we did not agree on everything, I felt I could trust him, and I turned over to him unpublished material, confidential materials that he suggested he would help to edit, and believing that my life’s work was in good hands, I settled down to concentrate on getting the book ready.
We began working on this project in the early part of 2001. It wasn’t long before I invited Bridges to become a member of our discussion group. So, throughout the spring and summer of 2001, there was very intense and regular interaction.
The summer of 2001 … I’m sure that a great many people wish we could all go back to those last few weeks before 9/11 changed our world.
In any event, also in the summer of 2001, the Cassiopaeans initiated a daring plan that can only be seen in retrospect, setting up the conditions for me to experience a direct visual representation of Vincent Bridges. What I saw stunned me. His mask was so effective and convincing that I could hardly believe that what I was seeing was true. After all, this was not just a matter of deciding you didn’t like someone and didn’t want to associate with them for one reason or another. The fact was, just as I had liked Frank Scott very much, I also liked Vincent Bridges and where both of them were concerned, had spent many enjoyable hours in conversation with them. This was seeing on a whole new level and I had many, many doubts about what I was seeing. It was actually painful to contemplate the necessary response to the understanding. If knowledge really did protect – but only if applied – Ark and I had to apply what we knew.
We discussed the matter for weeks seeking hard data – evidence. It was not lacking, certainly, but it was always possible to give the benefit of the doubt and overlook the subtle clues. A hypothesis was formed, a series of tests were devised, and – once again – the Cassiopaeans were proven correct – with a twist. It seems that this experience was the opening of the door to one of the most advanced lessons of adeptship available to the ordinary human. It was also, obviously, a test of sorts.
The facts of the situation are as follows:
While Bridges and his wife were allegedly getting my book, The Noah Syndrome, ready for publication, he proposed an idea for a conference in September of 2001. Our regular policy at the time was not to do any conferences. Bridges knew this, but we agreed to do it as a favor to him, to help his “business” sell our books that he was preparing to be published (which, as it turned out, were not even ready in time for the conference, nor did Bridges even have a real publishing company as he claimed!). However, in the time leading up to the planned dates for the conference (Sept 21-23, and 9/11, had we only known it), several strange things converged on us simultaneously with the information received from the Cs about Bridges.
First of all, we received a lot of emails from readers who were concerned about our public association with Vincent’s so-called Fifth Way Mystery School. I had only read Vincent’s articles on subjects dealt with in his book, like the Grail legends, the Rennes-le-Château mystery, and Fulcanelli. Vincent himself had told me that he was an investigative journalist and repeatedly expressed doubts about the Cs, so I had been reassured that he was a rational person and certainly wasn’t into anything weird. I was wrong. After reading the emails from readers, I went and had a look for myself.
I was a little upset at what I found on the Net, considering the subject matter we had discussed. Vincent had many articles on the subject of his Enochian magick, and all the so-called workings or rituals that go along with it. Here’s a sample:
The Apocalypse working completed, perhaps for the first time since its transmission in the 16th century, the Enochian or Ophanic astral communication device. This structure included the basic forms necessary to harmonize the on-coming galactic alignments. … A little more than a year later, the Ophanic Intelligences announced that projecting the Tree of Life on the Celestial sphere on the equinox for the next ten equinoxes was the simplest way to align with the energy shift of the Great Cross. … It was indeed the OI angels that gave me the clue.
The second thing brewing in the summer of 2001 was that we were being accused of belonging to a Nazi black magic cult and, lo and behold, Vincent just happened to have pages on his website that could easily be interpreted as being such. In fact, in retrospect, it seems like a definite set-up. We in no way wanted to be associated with black magic, Nazis, or any such mumbo-jumbo. In addition, we had learned of the perceived connection between these groups and anti-Semitism. It should also be mentioned that many of Ark’s professional colleagues were – and are – Jewish.
There seemed to be two ways to look at the problem we were confronted with. The first thing was our responsibility to our readers to live what we talked about, and the second was whether we could trust what we were sure we were seeing behind the scenes even if there was no overt evidence of bad intent from the side of Vincent Bridges?
We knew that there was really no way we could continue to be associated with the ideas that Vincent Bridges was promoting; we knew we had to make that a reality if nothing else. So, we posted a disclaimer in latter part of July about our appearance at the conference on our website, stating that our presence there did not mean that we advocated the ideas of the promoters or other presenters. Since Ark has attended and organized many scientific conferences, we thought that this would be enough.
We also decided to give Vincent the opportunity to make his own position clear. We asked him, for the sake of our reputation, our work and even safety (the attacks against us relating to the charges of being associated with Nazi black magic and anti-Semitism were really getting intense to the point that we were receiving death threats), to remove the “magick” material from his website and to disassociate himself from such ideas publicly so that we could continue our work together. He refused.
So when Vincent refused to dissociate from his magick, we decided to dissociate from him and decided to cancel our attendance due to these issues. We cancelled our book publishing agreement. We obtained legal advice on how to do this since, at the time, we didn’t know that the agreement had been made with a non-existent company!
In the world of conferences, if an invited speaker cancels, for whatever reason, it is the responsibility of the organizers to find an acceptable replacement, if such is needed. At this point we discovered that the conference attendees were almost exclusively our readers and discussion group members. In short, we were the lynchpin, the attraction, the goose that was supposed to lay the golden egg. When we cancelled, nearly all attendees also cancelled and requested refunds of their deposits or payments. But keep in mind, this was still over six weeks before the dates of the conference. At that point, we had our own private 9/11, Vincent aimed for us like a jumbo jet sailing into the Twin Towers: flames and defamation, libel, and so on. That is what baffled us. We could not understand how an individual who claimed to be so esoterically knowledgeable, so psychically advanced, so full of the milk of human kindness and understanding, could behave like a low-life guttersnipe and write the filthy, disgusting, libelous things that he and his friends began to spread around the web about us. It not only baffled us, it got our attention. Since we could see quite clearly that he had no regard whatsoever for facts or truth, it made us begin to question everything he had ever said to us before this parting of the ways. And so, after suffering in silence from August until November, we finally decided to try to find out the truth.
On a practical level, my questions about the matter were put to rest when the Perseus Foundation research group undertook an investigation of Bridges – including a professional private investigator’s report – in the fall of 2001. To my chagrin, it was revealed that Bridges was little more than an ordinary con artist. Not only was his entire published resume a complete fraud, he had a history of attaching himself to individuals – to ride on their coattails, so to say – in hopes of stealing their work, their money, or both.
Even though there was a history of fraud, Ark and I were reluctant to publish the report on Bridges. However, it finally became necessary to respond publicly to the many attacks Bridges made on us in response to our attempts to simply disassociate ourselves from him. It was certainly clear that there was something very, very wrong with the interaction, and only much later was it realized that the entire dynamic was a crucial lesson.
As it turned out, learning about Vincent Bridges through personal interaction produced a question that needed an answer. And the seeking of the answer resulted in developing the necessary tools and insight to move the Cassiopaean work to the next phase – the Quantum Future School.
Mr. Bridges reacted to the data presented in the report as expected: at all costs he wanted it removed, and since he could not force us to remove it legally (truth is not libel or slander), he resorted to attempted blackmail and extortion to try to force us to remove this report.
Not only did we discover that Vincent was trying to use us to make money at a conference to promote our books (supposed to be published by his company), we discovered through the tax collector’s office, as well as the Secretary of State’s office in North Carolina, that he did not even own a legally registered company and therefore, any of his representations as being a publisher were fraudulent and misleading. His co-author, Jay Weidner, later filed the corporation papers on Aethyrea Books, LLC, and this was the first time that it had existed as a legal corporation.
At some later point, Mr. Weidner described in detail how he had been defrauded by Vincent, including the fact that Bridges claimed to have written a novel for DAW books, articles for Rolling Stone, Cream, and Newsweek magazine. Weidner felt that Vincent had made these claims in order to establish credentials and convince him that he was a legitimate writer and that Mr. Weidner could feel confident in working with him as a co-author. Vincent posted on the Internet in numerous places that we had blackmailed Jay into writing the letters that said these things.
Mr. Weidner then detailed several items relating to the hows and whys of his having been defrauded by Vincent and the fact that he had actually paid for the initial publishing of their co-authored book. He pointed out that the book was, indeed, published with the Aethyrea Books, LLC logo. He pointed out that not only had he not received repayment for the monies he spent on their research trip, but that he had also never received any monies from the sale of the books that Vincent was marketing under Aethyrea Books, LLC.
Mr. Weidner next wrote that he feared that his work was being “destroyed by Vincent Bridges’ dishonesty and misrepresentation.” He then announced that Vincent and his wife, Darlene, “commited [sic] fraud. Not just with me but with several other potential authors.” He announced that he was preparing a lawsuit against Vincent and Darlene for “misrepresentation.”
Several letters were published by us, on behalf of and at the request of Jay Weidner, in our ongoing effort to expose what we then understood to be a serious Internet predator who has a history of theft, lies and fraud.
We discovered, to our chagrin, that Vincent Bridges seems to be unable to comprehend the difference between lies and truth. The Perseus Foundation report was researched thoroughly, and by accusing it of being false, he is accusing a lot of people of being liars who clearly have no reason to lie. His story changed time and again after the truth was exposed, and never did he say a single thing that addressed the fact that his original bio and credentials were all lies.
He has since then repeatedly – for over 6 years, on dedicated websites and wherever he can obtain a dupe to believe him – accused us of “libel, slander, defamation of character, cyberstalking,” etc., in the true manner of the psychopath who always accuses their target of what they themselves are doing. When he began to accuse us of blackmailing his former co-author, Jay Weidner we should have known that he was effectively announcing his next maneuver.
At one point, Mr. Bridges declared in several places on the Internet that he was going to “publicly address the Cassiopaean Cult issue and tell the real, unedited version of the story.” He then announced that he was going into the business of distributing our copyrighted work free to anyone who wanted it. This was accompanied by nonsensical lies that only he understood how to interpret it, and the further claim that we were deceptively “altering” the text and had been doing so “from the beginning.” Well, since he is not in possession of either the tapes, or the notes, we wondered on what “facts” he based such claims.
There were other follow up posts, but I won’t bore the reader with the endless lies and nonsense. The bottom line was this: Vincent Bridges published the complete unedited transcripts without any care or concern for any of the private individuals who had attended sessions, many of whom had specifically requested that, at any point in time when the material was published, their names and identities should be disguised.
As we noted on our own page where the transcripts were available, it was the work of removing names and sensitive items that proper respect and regard for other human beings mandated, that held up the publication, along with the necessity of going back and checking the transcribed material with the notes and tapes to ensure its accuracy. It was and is an enormous job. In some cases, we have done global file replacement, which has resulted in areas of file distortion, but in no case is this intentional obfuscation. Little by little, we have been working to correct the errors in the transcripts, and this takes time. We are also entitled, as the owners of the material, to not publish those portions of it that are personal.
So, the point was not the distribution of the material, which we give away free on our own website, the point was concern for the privacy of people who had entrusted their privacy into our care, as well as our legal right to ensure that the transcripts are accurate, or to make sure that appropriate notes or comments are appended when we are not sure.
Knowing that it was futile to appeal to Vincent Bridges to have concern for other people’s privacy, we directly addressed the owners of the server where Bridges had parked the pirated transcripts via email and fax.
In response to our request to the server that the transcripts be removed, Mr. Bridges sent the following email which included a startling email from “Frank Scott”:
Date sent: Thu, 10 Jan 2002 13:06:34 -0500
Subject: FW: Permission Granted!
From: Vincent Bridges <…@ac.net>
Unless you want the entire sordid saga published, you might think of taking my name down.
Vincent
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Date: Mon, 7 Jan 2002 04:15:49 EST
To: …@ac.net
Subject: Permission Granted!
Hi Vincent:
I will now make the following statement on your behalf:
My name is [Frank Grant Scott]. I give full and complete permission to Vincent Bridges to publish in full or in part the Cassiopaean transcripts in the way that he chooses and for whatever purposes that he deems appropriate.
I participated in all of the sessions that took place between July, 1994 and November, 2000. My participation in the channeling sessions was to an extent as great as or greater than that of any and all other participants.
Thank You,
[Frank Grant Scott]
Aside from the fact that Frank’s claim that his participation in the experimental sessions was “to an extent as great as or greater than that of any and all other participants,” is an outright lie (and there were, in fact, sessions in which he did not participate), the legal fact is that the transcripts have been copyrighted by me from the day that I transcribed and printed out the first copy back in 1994. That is the legal fact.
Any and all witnesses (of which there are many), as well as the hard evidence, shows that Frank’s “permission to publish” is as valid as permission from Garfield the Cat. He does not, and never did, have any copyright rights. All of the experiments were conducted in my house, on my equipment, recorded by me personally, my voice. I own the tapes, I transcribed nearly every word, I burned the CD that Vincent Bridges pirated, that he was no longer entitled to have once we had terminated our relationship and requested return of same.
In short, Mr. Scott’s presence at the sessions was the only thing he ever contributed, and there were a lot of other people present at different times. Being a guest in our house does not constitute owning what we produce there! By Frank’s standards, any other guest would also have the right to grant permission to publish. In point of fact, dealing with Frank throughout the entire period of time, was problematic at best as those who have read Amazing Grace already know.
But what is a more serious matter, as it turns out, is the fact that Vincent Bridges has, by writing the above email, attempted to blackmail us, to extort and coerce us. Blackmail consists of two elements:
a) extortion or coercion by threats especially of public exposure or criminal prosecution
b) the payment that is extorted.
Example from a real court case: SS threatened to expose MD on the Travis Carroll & Justin Show. This exposure would have harmed Dubose’s career and most likely his future emloyeement. In return for silence, SS was trying to coerce MD into turning down one offer with the expectation that JS would accept another, thereby giving SS greater job security.
You have coercion, threat of exposure and expected payment. Vincent Bridges wrote: “Unless you want the entire sordid saga published, you might think of taking my name down.” He is threatening to publish the unedited transcripts with names and personal details, and he expects a return – payment in the form of us removing our articles about his fake bio and phony credentials, and psychological terrorism.
Even though Mr. Bridges was clearly attempting to blackmail us, and we knew it, we were only concerned about the innocent people who wished to have their identities and personal information removed. What was more, the remark about the “entire sordid saga” didn’t really apply to the transcripts alone; it didn’t make a lot of sense so we dismissed it.
As it happens, the Universe was on the alert. Later that day, another email came from Jay Weidner.
From: Jay
Date sent: Thu, 10 Jan 2002 22:24:15 EST
Subject: Re: VB again
To: Laura Knight-Jadczyk
[Vincent and I] exchanged a couple of very bitter emails. I told him he was a sociopath and that I couldn’t sue his book company because it does not [legally] exist. This is his reaction. I will not be emailing him anymore so maybe it will go away.
By the way he says that he has ‘proof’ that you attempted to murder someone. […]
Well, well, well. It all became chillingly clear. I instantly understood that it was, indeed true, that Frank had written the above letter (which I had initially doubted because I was quite certain that Frank knew enough about the law to not do something that stupid), and why.
Those readers who have read Amazing Grace will surely recall the chapter where I describe Frank’s long years of embezzling funds from his former employer which, at the end, caused his father’s death by suicide. For those of you who have not read it, you may wish to have a look at the chapter entitled “That’s Hollywood!”
The chapters subsequent to that explain how I reconciled myself to Frank’s perfidy, how I explained it away, and essentially put full confidence in Frank that he had learned a significant lesson, and that he needed to be trusted in order to be trustworthy. After all, that is what we are taught, isn’t it? So, I trusted him. And I confided in him a number of things, including the story I am about to tell.
Even though Mr. Bridges thinks that he has discovered a “major skeleton” in the closet, it just so happens that this event is something that journalist Tom French duly investigated and decided not to write about since it was essentially, not significant to the story. Some may think that he should have, because the fact that women are sexually assaulted with alarming regularity gets far too little attention as it is. But he was correct in his decision, in my opinion, because to tell it would have taken up space in a story that was, essentially, focused on different issues.
Nevertheless, when Tom interviewed me, even though I was very reluctant to talk about something so distressing, I did tell him everything. As every other woman who has ever been through a similar experience will agree, it was so unpleasant that I have spent over 30 years trying to forget it. And Tom agreed with us that it ought to just be left in the past. Because, in the end, it was proven to be a very similar event to what Mr. Bridges is attempting to do now: coercion, blackmail and extortion. As one reader has noted: “Anyone who would attempt to blackmail you with this incident falls into the same category as the person who committed the initial assault. Such people view others as prey. They assess all those that they wish to prey upon as vulnerable and methodically proceed to search for a weak point and then attack.” And sometimes they take years to do it, as is proven in the case of “Frank Scott”.
When I received the email from Vincent’s former friend and co-author remarking that Vincent Bridges “says that he has ‘proof’ that you attempted to murder someone,” along with Bridges’ simultaneous attempt to blackmail us by saying he was going to tell “the entire sordid saga,” what I realized was the utter and absolute perfidy of Frank behind it – that he was, effectively, party to yet another criminal act that is almost the same as the embezzling he did from his former employer – because only Frank could have been the one to share this information with Bridges. What was more, Frank was being touted by Bridges as the “Cs authority,” who is claiming in a libelous way that we have been “altering the texts” of the transcripts from the beginning. We find this to be more than odd, since one of the early things we noted about Frank was the fact that he never seemed to be aware of what the Cassiopaeans said, and would discourse for hours about issues in which everything he said was in complete contradiction to their messages. At one point, I provided him with a printed copy of the text so he could read it, but it became apparent that he was either not reading it, or that he could not comprehend it, because he continued to pronounce “knowingly” on many subjects from a totally opposite viewpoint. It was clear that the communications from the Cassiopaeans were not coming from Frank.
The long and short of it was that Frank claimed to be the channel, and the only channel, and repeatedly wanted us to convert the experiment from using the board to direct trance channeling with him as the only source. On the several occasions we tried it, we found that the personality and feeling of the contact was so distinctly different – and, in fact, repellant – that we realized that this suggestion was the maneuver of the STS forces to take over the work completely.
Just as it had been with his former employer, Frank did as little work as possible, and thought that he was entitled to a whole lot more than he actually earned, and just decided to write himself a weekly check. In relation to the Cs, Frank is trying to write himself another check on somebody else’s account.
Considering the evidential fact that he has now chosen a path of deliberate disregard for the legal rights of others, his participation in an attempt to blackmail, extort, and coerce us, any further statements from Frank Scott must be considered to be emanating from the same source as Vincent Bridges. Bridges has demonstrated total disregard for the truth, for the free-will rights of others, and he has clearly established that he believes that the readers are too lazy to check things for themselves. He has also made it evident that his philosophy is the bigger the lie, and the more often it is repeated, the greater the likelihood that the public will believe it. In short: they have nothing but contempt for other human beings.
If, at any point, Frank Scott becomes the “authority of dirt” to back Bridges up, promoted as the “witness who knows the truth,” caveat lector, is all we can advise.
Having this realization, and putting it together with all the odd remarks the Cs had made about Frank through the years, we realized that there were many mysterious pieces of the puzzle finally coming together. We decided to have an unscheduled session and find out exactly what was going on. And then, even though there were a dozen other tapes that still need to be transcribed and posted at the time, I decided that I had better put everything else aside, transcribe this one, and post it.
From what the Cassiopaeans told us that night, it now all begins to make sense – it’s sick, but it makes sense. I never could quite put together why the Cs would slip through those cryptic remarks about Frank, and why they would refuse to answer certain questions when it was only me and Frank at the board. It seems that there was a lot of information that could not be given with Frank present, and while I created many theories about this, it never, ever occurred to me that it was because I was being protected from Frank!
Well, all speculation aside, read what Cs said about the whole situation:
January 10, 2002
Q: (L) Hello.
A: Hello.
Q: And who do we have with us this evening?
A: Fiaage.
Q: And where do you transmit through?
A: Cassiopaea.
Q: As you know, we have become aware this evening of Frank’s extraordinary conversion to the dark side. Is that an accurate way of perceiving it?
A: Close enough.
Q: Quite a few years ago, there were several remarks made on two or three occasions regarding Frank’s battle with the dark forces, and the issue of whether or not he would be able to resist their domination. Was it always known that he would fail?
A: He is not a failure.
Q: What do you mean?
A: From the perspective of STS he is a success.
Q: Why was it that we were able to channel STO material, with Frank being so borderline regarding this ultimate choice between STS and STO?
A: He was programmed for the specific purpose of “downloading” from you secrets coded into you before birth of your present body. He failed because you were incorruptible. He is now charged with the mission, in concert with Vincent Bridges, of destroying your ability to accomplish your mission.
Q: Well, that means that there is a strong possibility that the material that came through while Frank was a participant was very likely corrupted. Is that why you gave the figure of 72 percent purity of the material regarding those sessions?
A: Yes.
Q: So, are you saying that Frank’s presence produced that 30 percent corruption?
A: Yes.
Q: What was the form that most of that corruption took? Can we identify it?
A: Predictions and terror tactics.
Q: What is the advisable course of action to take at this point in time? Shall I stop what I am doing and take time to deal with the issues that have come up as a result of this action by Frank and Vincent?
A: Good idea to deal with it A.S.A.P.
Q: Should we also pursue legal action?
A: Yes, in terms of copyright.
Q: What about the stalking, harassment, defamation, blackmail?
A: It will be handled at the proper time by you, and you will know when to do it.
Q: (A) Why isn’t ignoring them completely not the answer?
A: Because they are not affected by being ignored. And your reality is such that lies and liars have prevailed in violating Free Will for millennia. They do this most effectively by programs that are designed to perpetuate it, such as “Turn the other cheek,” and “If you ignore it, it will go away.” Give what is asked for by a lie: Truth.
Q: (L) So, it comes back to balance. In the face of a lie, balance is only restored by truth. Well, now, let me ask this: did Terry contribute positive energy at the board?
A: Most of the time.
Q: Was that the reason that you encouraged Terry and Jan to be present? To counterbalance Frank’s negative energy?
A: Yes. Frank would have killed you with his STS draining rather soon otherwise.
Q: Is that why I (and everyone else) always felt so tired after some sessions and he always felt so energized?
A: Yes.
Q: He was literally sucking my energy out of me?
A: Yes.
Q: Is that why I had so many health problems during that period of time?
A: Yes.
Q: Well, yes, the evidence was all there. The problem was, not being able to interpret it. Of course, one believes the lies, and Frank was very good at it. He was a consummate liar. And I already had the evidence of what a capable deceiver he was from observing his interactions with NE and other people, including his embezzlement of funds. But I chose to ignore it because I thought I could help him. I thought that our mutual interest in this project would help him as much as it would help me. And you are saying that the whole thing was set up, with all the synchronicities at the beginning, just for the purpose of getting me involved in this channeling experiment, to make the channeling experiment 72 percent positive, so that I would be encouraged to continue it, so that Frank could, more or less, vacuum out of me, from some level of consciousness, other information, and kill me. Is that what we are getting at here?
A: Pretty much.
Q: That’s depressing. Why do all these people hate Ark so much?
A: Because Ark won’t allow them to regard you as an object to use for their own nefarious purposes.
Q: In other words, it looks like Frank dropped out just as the time that Bridges moved in. Bridges was the new “agent.” He spent his time getting close so that he could come and attempt to extract the same information that Frank had failed to get, only the new plan was to try to use hypnosis. Is that what the plan was?
A: Yes.
Q: Who is pulling the strings behind this whole thing?
A: It is better not to know specifics. But a clue: STS Consortium.
Q: I would really like to have some knowledge that would protect in this situation. I would like to know what actions to take, some inside information, something that would help us. Here we are, these guys keep us just constantly upset. Is this the way it is going to continue to be from here on out?
A: Not to worry, reinforcements are on the way.
Q: I sure wish they would show up now! We could use the cavalry. I mean, here we are, the wagon train is drawn up in a circle, we are surrounded by outlaws, we are down to our last few silver bullets; you keep telling us that we aren’t supposed to worry, that reinforcements are on the way, and so forth, and we just keep hanging in there, working, working, working, and I don’t see anything materializing here. I think we ought to just sell the house and retire.
A: Not yet!
Q: (A) I want to ask about my theory about why walking is so important – that when one thinks while walking, one is able to evade mind control signals which are directed or reinforced when one remains static. Is there anything to this?
A: Close.
Q: (L) I want to know what caused my ear infection?
A: Stress.
Q: Should I continue to keep Frank informed in an effort encourage him to see the hole he is about to fall into? I can’t help but feel sorry for him.
A: He is going to fall in the hole anyway. So, why prolong the agony?
Q: What hole do you mean?
A: Suicidal thoughts; since he does not have the STO motivation to help others without an agenda, which gives staying power to those of the STO persuasion to survive great troubles.
Q: Well, then it seems to me that he ought to avoid getting into such troubles.
A: He can’t.
Q: Why?
A: Drives.
Q: What kind of drives?
A: Programmed in by parental abuse and neglect.
Q: Well, if you could say anything to Frank just now, would you want to?
A: No.
Q: But ought I not to feel grateful to Frank for his participation, helping me groove the channel?
A: That was not his agenda.
Q: (A) We would like to know if it is recommended that we transcribe and publish the “mirror session” with Vincent Bridges, as part of the truth that needs to be made known?
A: Yes! All Truth is beneficial and promotes balance in a world dominated and run on lies.
Q: (L) Yes, but when you start telling the truth in a world dominated and run by lies, the liars go absolutely crazy in trying to destroy you! That is the plain hard fact that we have been facing. It is unbelievable to strip away the lies; layer after layer of lies, the liars themselves, impossible to conceive how they can lie the way they do; I am just utterly astonished by it.
A: Yes. It is part of your mission.
Q: (A) Well, I am wondering if the way I am managing these attacks is the proper STO approach? For example, I have blocked his access to the website. I have removed his entries to the guestbook. I have removed him from the egroup. I am just simply making his mission of spreading lies difficult. But I am not completely sure if this is an STO approach?
A: It is.
Q: (L) Well, I think he has the perfect right to tell all the lies he wants in the places where lies are wanted and asked for. He does not have the right to trespass on our space and tell lies because we do not ask for lies, we don’t want lies, and it violates our free will to try to discover truth in our space. He has the Matrioshka list that obviously wants to hear his lies. They make no effort to discern truth in any way, and they certainly got very upset when Ark posted truth on their list, which only gave them a small sample of how it feels to have your free will violated. He can tell all the lies he wants where they are wanted. Any other suggestions?
A: Just persist and be patient.
Q: Is there anything we can do to accelerate the receiving of assistance?
A: It is on the way.
Q: [laughter] I know that time does not exist on sixth density. However, all these months dealing with these lunatics seems like six years, or six thousand years. Well, I’m just whining.
A: Either way it will come. “Miles to go before you sleep.” Keep on going. Destination will be reached.
Q: Anything else we ought to know that we haven’t asked?
A: Not for now. Goodnight. [End of Session]
Now, I am going to reproduce here an account of the incident that Vincent Bridges and Frank Scott attempted to use as blackmail. This account is the one that I wrote for Ark when we first met. Just as I told it to Tom French who was entitled to know everything about me, I also told it to Ark from the very beginning. Unfortunately, at some point, I also told Frank Scott.
When he began to investigate the matter, Tom French told me that the public records on the event are so old that they don’t even tell the disposition of the case. Tom French had to search out the attorney based on my information, to interview him and the private investigator in order to get all the details.
In order to provide the “bona fides” behind the story, I searched for an email from Tom that I thought existed, but only later remembered that, after he had talked to Joe Aloi, the investigator, and Brian Hayes, the attorney, that he had called me to tell me how glad he was that everything was exactly as I had said it was, even adding that these two gentlemen who were truly STO angels in my life, had sent their best wishes to me and were very happy to know that I was okay.
So, not having anything in writing, and knowing how difficult and costly such record searches can be, I decided to just call Brian Hayes and talk to him about the situation. In any event, Brian and Joe were very happy to provide letters about the case.
Without further ado, here is the dreadful story about how Laura Knight, at the ripe old age of 18 years and 2 months, in Vincent Bridges’ words, “attempted to murder someone.”
My mother was a bookkeeper who had contracted with several local businesses to do their books. One of these businesses was owned by a man who was also something of a local politician. He ran for a State office and was elected, so spent much of his time in Tallahassee, the State Capitol. Mother ran his business for him.
He was sort of like a local big wig who had a home in the county, and an apartment in Tallahassee. When he was in residence here, he would come to the house and discuss the business with mother and drop off and pick up the accounting and checks and deposits and so forth.
During this time, I was spending many hours a day practicing the piano. I would practice in one room while they would spread out papers on the table in the other room.
One day mother announced that this man had expressed an interest in me and wanted to send me to school in Tallahassee where he could oversee my care. She thought this was wonderful and a great opportunity!
It was agreed that this plan would be put into action, but I had to finish school first. So, I attended locally from September 1969 to December 1969. At that point, the plan was that I would go to Tallahassee and finish high school there in an accelerated class, and then be enrolled at the University. So, in January I went.
An apartment had been reserved for me in the same building this man lived in when he was there doing his legislative duties, whatever they were. Everything had been arranged. So, I went to school, met new people, and things were fine for a few months – through April. The apartment building had a nice pool, and I enjoyed studying by the pool… or, for me, at least reading. A friend of mine came to stay with me because I was lonely and her mother knew this man also and thought this would be fine for her as well.
One night he came to our apartment and asked me to come down so he could talk to me privately since he had something very special to tell me and it was a surprise.
So, in an hour, when I was done with my homework, I walked down the outside walkway and knocked on the door. He answered wearing a robe and smoking a cigar and with a glass of liquor in his hand.
To make a long story short, it became clear that the man expected payment for his help. I was so dumb that I actually thought that he was just being a nice guy with a fatherly interest in me. But that wasn’t the case.
When I said “no,” he got rough. When he got rough, I fought back. When I fought back, he became enraged and started choking me. Since we happened to be standing in the kitchen, and I was being pressed back against the counter and was starting to lose consciousness, I threw my hands back to grab the counter to keep from falling. When I did, my hand landed on a heavy object with a handle. I grabbed it and hit him with it. He loosened his hold momentarily, but then started squeezing again and I hit him again, only harder this time since I had been able to get a breath. I hit him again in the head, and it was sort of a nightmare where he was totally enraged and I was totally determined to hit him until he let go of me.
At this point, he was bleeding on me, still refusing to let go, so I hit him again. I think I must have landed about four or five good ones before he let go to try to protect his head from another, and when he did I ran like hell. I was sure that he was after me, and I made it to my apartment, banged wildly on the door for my friend to let me in. She did and was utterly horrified. We were both just hysterical.
She was hysterical at the blood all over me and we didn’t know what to do… so she made me take off my clothes and go take a shower… then, while I was in the shower, still shaking with the thought that the man could force his way into the apartment, she told me that police cars and an ambulance were in the parking lot outside. Apparently the man had gone out to the balcony and yelled “rape” or some such nonsense, and someone heard him and called the police. I was dressed and shaking violently when the knock came at the door. He had made a statement to the emergency crew that I had attacked him for no reason after coming on to him sexually!!
I told them what really happened, and they were satisfied but told me not to go anywhere for a while until they investigated further.
And, seemingly the incident was closed. But, three days later, I was called out of my English class to find a message that the police department wished to ask me a few more questions. So, after school, I took the bus to the police headquarters. When I walked in, expecting to answer questions, handcuffs were immediately place on me and I was arrested for “Assault with a Deadly Weapon with Intent to Commit Murder.” The guy had created a fantastic story in which he was the “innocent” victim of a crazed teenager.
And I was taken and locked in a cell.
There is no way to describe such a transition. None. If a person is of a nature that they deliberately break laws, there is some idea in their mind that this could be a result. But, for a person who has, essentially, done nothing wrong but be stupid and naive, someone who has been betrayed by someone she trusted, who has been viciously attacked, and then, instead of anyone realizing that I was the victim, I was put in jail on the word of a psychopath and charged with trying to murder him! All women who have suffered this way understand that such an event is in a class by itself especially when the realization comes that grandfather cannot fix it, mother cannot fix it, no one can fix it. And, when the realization came that this was a “capital crime” and just having someone come and pay money to get one out of jail was not possible, well… just imagine it.
A week later I was taken, in handcuffs, to court and stood before a judge who read the formal charges. I was just 18 years old, and I had to walk down a public street, between two policemen, in chains.
The judge asked me if I had legal counsel. I started to cry and said no. But, a man sitting in the row of attorneys jumped to his feet and came forward and said: “Yes she does, your honor! I am offering my services!” He then asked me if I would accept him as my attorney and I said yes. So that was settled. I had an attorney. His name was Brian T. Hayes. He was assisted by a cracker jack Private Investigator, Joseph Aloi, and both of them were literally Knights in Shining Armor.
What they discovered about my “benefactor” was shocking. It seems that I had been the prey of a very sharp operator who had been trying to gradually draw me into a very ugly operation. (Sounds a lot like the situation with Vincent Bridges, eh?) And only my instinctive refusal to be used had saved me. Indeed, my resistance had plunged me into a somewhat serious problem, as it has repeatedly in my life. The Powers of Darkness don’t like it when you resist their attempts to control you or draw you into their plans. It is the same now as it was then.
You see, as a minor government official, my benefactor had a little side-line: he made home movies used for blackmail. Apparently, he had plans for me. He wanted to use me as the star in movies that would be filmed by a secret camera set up in an A/C vent. These movies would then be used to extort money, favors, and probably even for a special brand of lobbying.
All of the evidence of this little “business” was discovered while the guy was in the hospital, desperately trying to lie his way out of the mess he was in. He even tried to change his claims that I had assaulted him for no reason, he was so desperate to avoid scrutiny. But it was no go. Once the State decides to prosecute, it doesn’t matter if someone who formerly claimed to be a victim has now changed his mind. The State is a juggernaut, and the trial did take place.
Well, the bloodbath in the courtroom was actually worse than the one at the time of the incident. The guy, like all true psychopaths, lied himself black in the face, even when confronted with hard evidence of his intentions, his actions, his perfidy – in his own writing – and the end result was a resounding return of the verdict of “Not Guilty by Reason of Self-Defense.” And the only reason he wasn’t prosecuted for his own crimes was that he was so pitiful and swore he had learned his lesson, and also because he still had a few people in government offices who would go to bat for him (probably because he was blackmailing them).
In short, I was acquitted of any and all charges, exonerated, proven guiltless of any crime except protecting my honor and reputation, a situation I find myself in again and again.
And in the present situation, we find almost the exact same situation. Vincent Bridges has reacted against my refusal to be psychologically raped as violently as the benefactor of my youth. He has told the same kinds of lies. He has tried the same maneuvers. In fact, the entire scenario is something of a repeat.
You’d think those guys would learn.
The Forces of Darkness don’t like Truth. They don’t like people who resist their control and manipulation. And they will do anything, use anybody, tell any lie, stoop to any degradation, to try to force their control on other people.
And it seems that, by communicating a twisted version of this incident to Vincent Bridges, Frank Scott has firmly and definitively chosen which side he is on.
It was in January 2002 that Frank Scott joined forces with Vincent Bridges to discredit the Cassiopaean experiment, to label the members of the Cassiopaea discussion list as members of a cult, obviously in a concerted effort to put an end to the experiment itself.
Even though I had kept the door open for Frank to return to the group right up to the moment of his public attacks – just as I had hoped that Vincent Bridges would demonstrate that he was not as he had been revealed to be – I had to acknowledge the fact that two people I liked very much, whose companionship I enjoyed immensely, and who I felt could have been the most marvelous of co-experimenters had they chosen to release their egos and stop trying to manipulate, control and lie, had simply chosen the other path.
I was heartbroken. My health deteriorated rapidly, and in January of 2002 I suffered a life-threatening illness. After I had recovered enough to sit at my desk, I did the only thing I knew to do with what I had learned: I sought daily to understand the dynamic I had been shown through research and then, shared it with others by writing the present volumes, an account of the events and dynamics.
Day after day I struggled to make sense of what was happening in my life. As it turned out, my act of converting my suffering to sharing led to some profound revelations regarding the nature of our reality. Seeking to understand the inexplicable perceptions and capacity for deception of Vincent Bridges, Frank Scott, and others involved in the attacks, I searched and probed and tested on the daily public stage of the Internet. The search for answers led to revelations about psychopaths, which opened the door to our understanding of Organic Portals. Without this understanding, it would be almost impossible to comprehend the events on the world stage, most particularly including the behavior of George Bush and his gang.
Once I had escaped Bridges’ clutches and foiled his plans to associate me with such material (which I later learned are typical COINTELPRO tactics), then the next level of COINTELPRO was activated: libel, defamation, fake emails, the whole nine yards.
One of Vincent Bridges’ main rants was about our books. First he wanted to publish them. He couldn’t say enough nice things about our work as long as he was trying to maneuver our books out of our control so he could make money from our labor. After he had spent so much time trying to get control of them, only to shoot himself in the foot, he then did an about-face and began ranting, “You’re just trying to make a buck on lousy books … ”
Another of the rants of the Bridges gang was the typical COINTELPRO accusation of “cult! cult!” This was actually pretty rich because becoming free of cultic thinking is one of the main objectives of the Quantum Future School, and that is exactly why Vincent Bridges was kicked out: he couldn’t let go of his cultic thinking and manipulation. In short, creating a cult was exactly what Vincent Bridges wanted to do, and most of all, he wanted to do it in the Quantum Future School, with himself as the head guru.
It is also notable that he had a Fifth Way Mystery School formed up and waiting for his cult following long before our closed discussion group came to the idea that it was a genuine anti-cult school. The problem Bridges had was that he couldn’t get a following, and wanted to subvert our readers to his own benefit. And when he was removed from the group, his main rant was that we were trying to “suppress free speech.”
Well, things just got worse and worse as time went by. More death threats. My dog (offspring of the one that had died after the UFO sighting) was poisoned and died, my oldest daughter was run off the road three times by what seemed to be road rage-infected lunatics. The third time resulted in a serious accident that totaled her car. My second daughter was poisoned at a gathering of kids and spent three days on life support – nobody thought she would live. Our names and addresses were posted on an ADL group (the anti-Semitism label was being widely used by Bridges and his cohorts), and it was suggested that anyone in our area should “take care of us,” and on and on and on. False police reports were filed against us for abusing our children (thankfully, the police chief in our town knew us and just warned us that this was being done) and so on.
Bridges even called Tom French to repeat his filth to him. Tom wrote and told me about it. We complained to the FBI, the FDLE, etc. The special agent for FDLE told me on the phone that they could do nothing because it was “out of their jurisdiction,” since it was being done from another state. He then suggested that if I didn’t like what was being done to me that I ought to stop doing what I was doing that set Bridges off!!! In other words, Bridges could do whatever he liked, including filing false police reports, stalking, harassment, defamation, libel, slander, coercion, etc., and their answer was: “Well, give in to him.”
And so it is that this volume opens on the day that I discovered that Frank Scott, former Cass group member, had made a dark alliance with Vincent Bridges, COINTELPRO psychopath.
The Matrix comparison is not only useful in describing our global reality; the story of the group who are working to circumvent the Matrix, to wake people up, is entirely synchronous with our own experiences, right down to each and every character! In the case of Frank, we find the classic role of Cypher in action. In his repeated claims that his very birth was a mistake, we hear Cypher saying: “You know, I know what you’re thinking ’cause right now I’m thinking the same thing. Actually, to tell you the truth, I’ve been thinking the same thing ever since I got here. Why, oh why, didn’t I take that blue pill!?”
We next see Cypher in a fancy restaurant sawing a steak while the voice of Agent Smith asks: “Do we have a deal, Mr. Reagan?” And Cypher tells us even more:
You know, I know that this steak doesn’t exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, do you know what I’ve realized? Ignorance is bliss. … I don’t want to remember nothing. Nothing! You understand? And I want to be rich. Someone important. Like an actor. You can do that, right?
And Agent Smith tells him: “Whatever you want, Mr. Reagan.”
From my own perspective, I understood Frank’s desperate need to be all-powerful and in control of something – anything. Throughout all of the past nine years, I hoped that if we persevered in our acceptance of him and his many quirks, that he would eventually learn by osmosis to just be himself as a part of a group of friendly souls who neither wanted to control, nor be controlled. I also thought that he wanted to know the truth more than he wanted to live in illusion. I believed that this love of truth, whatever it turned out to be, and however painful it might be to face it, even if it meant completely eliminating our own personal wants and desires, would win in the end; that Frank was as motivated as I was to discover it.
Because of the fact that I knew Frank was under almost constant internal attack, I became very protective of him, constantly looking for ways and means to encourage him to branch out a little in the real world and try something new. I wanted to see him have positive experiences, to develop a new circuit where he could regard other human beings as equal seekers on their many paths; to stop having to feel so defensive. It was this defensiveness that led to the endless hours and hours of descriptions he would give of how horribly he had been treated by this person or that person. Most of these issues had to do with what can only be described as severe homophobia. Frank was utterly convinced that people thought he was gay, and this enraged and horrified him.
While there was certainly some truth to this idea, as the reader of Amazing Grace will already know, I decided that if Frank was afraid of it, if it was a problem in his own mind, then certainly we could find a way to deal with it effectively. We had many discussions about it, all of which centered on the fact that Frank had seen himself in a video, and it had been a shock for him to realize that many of his gestures and movements were obviously feminine. Once he came to that decision, he became even more self-conscious and attempted to compensate for it, which only resulted in worsening the problem because then he became unnaturally stiff and jerky in his physical motions which was jarring to strangers. All of this contributed to his reclusive nature, the many, many hours spent alone, or watching football or videos, during which he brooded on the unfairness of his existence in the world.
I was worried. I wanted to help.
Over and over again I was being subjected to Frank’s lengthy diatribes about how cruel his life was and how abominably he was treated. The thing was, there really wasn’t much in the way of real evidence that this was so. He had all the advantages of an upper middle class family, he had been given opportunities I never had; he had most certainly never been hungry, cold, or without a home; he had never suffered the helplessness of watching someone he loved in pain or sitting up all night with a sick child, or rocking a loved one who was dying of cancer. But I pushed such thoughts away, and took his word for it that he was suffering, and gave endless support, sympathy, and suggestions.
After one particularly grueling session of complaints from Frank about how the world simply was not ready for his presence, his high spiritual nature, and how awful it was to be so spiritual in such a revolting world, I decided to ask the Cassiopaeans about it:
November 2, 1994 – Frank, Laura and V**
Q: (L) Why was Frank in such a state last night?
A: Because his life is difficult.
Q: (L) What is making his life difficult?
A: Destiny.
Q: (L) Is it his destiny for his entire life to be difficult?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Is that choice up to him?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well then, why is it open?
A: Will dark or light forces win?
Q: (L) Win what?
A: Battle.
Q: (L) Battle where?
A: All.
Q: (L) Well, I thought you said that the forces of light were definitely going to win? Is that not correct?
A: Too simplified.
Q: (L) Is there anything Frank can do in this battle to assist getting over this problem?
A: Fight.
But, as we already know, Frank was not fighting.
Nevertheless, in a sort of desperation, I gave him more and more time and support in an effort to help him fight, or to develop the will to fight. It was not lost on me that the Cassiopaeans were clearly saying that there was a very good possibility that the dark forces would triumph in Frank’s case, and I most certainly did not want that to happen.
I started reading book after book about different kinds of therapies that might be helpful for him to try. I came to the idea that all of the torment he had described as having been inflicted on him as an infant had locked up the natural flow of energies in his body, and if he could do some body work, it would free up this energy, and he would be more at ease with himself, and therefore, better equipped to interact with the real world, and be as successful as he most evidently deserved to be. He had so many gifts, it seemed quite unfair to me that he was not in a position to develop them, and have others appreciate them or benefit from them. As a result of this course of reading, I explained to Frank one night the different theories that I had encountered, and how evident it was that he most certainly could deal with this problem effectively. I didn’t realize that Frank didn’t want a solution; that the act of complaining and ranting about the unfairness of the world was what he wanted to do because it was a means of holding me captive as audience and sympathizer, and sympathy was what he wanted, because it was energy.
The end result of all of it was that since I had proposed a solution to his problem, Frank announced that his problem was not his problem. The problem was with the rest of the world, none (or few) of whom were spiritually advanced enough to understand that he was an advanced spiritual being, and that his was the body mode of the future.
Following this discussion, in which every proposal I made was countered by a reason that it would not work for him, I insisted that we ask the Cs about it. And it is a certainty that this exchange was somewhat corrupted by the working of Frank’s own prejudices:
November 6, 1994
Q: (L) Have you been listening in on our discussion?
A: As always.
Q: (L) In this particular discussion we have been talking about freeing up life energy which can be blocked by emotional traumas and so forth, and that, according to this book I read, you can tell the life energy is blocked by the way a person holds or moves their body. From this information I think that Frank’s life energy is blocked. Am I correct?
A: No.
Q: (L) Then why is Frank so ill at ease in his body?
A: Book not entirely incorrect but remember not to take anything entirely on face value.
Q: (L) Is there some part of that idea that would benefit Frank and help him to feel more at ease?
A: Frank is ill at ease because most others are ill at ease with him.
Q: (L) Well, who started out being ill at ease, him or others?
A: Others.
Q: (L) And why were they ill at ease with him?
A: Sensed differences.
Q: (L) If Frank were to do some bodywork and bring his energies into focus where his physical sensations are concerned, would this, in some way, help to overcome this particular difficulty or situation?
A: Won’t work.
Q: (L) Is there anything Frank can do to free up his energies and to become more at ease with himself?
A: He is more at ease now than before because he no longer listens to others’ criticisms.
Q: (L) Is Frank correct in saying that his body and mode is that of the future?
A: Closer. But not there yet.
I wasn’t entirely comfortable with this answer. But, since the Cs were saying so many other things that were not part of our general understanding that did prove to be accurate upon deeper inspection, perhaps this was another unknown factor that I would have to deal with? Perhaps Frank was right? Perhaps Androgyny was the mode of the future? It had certainly been hinted at by other sources from time to time. Nevertheless, we can revisit these remarks with better perspective here and see quite clearly that, even though there was an intent to corrupt and slant the meaning, the Cs still managed to get across a message for those with eyes to see and ears to hear.
At this point, I shifted gears and referred back to a comment made on October 19, 1994, where we had been encouraged to persevere through a series of financial setbacks that were creating severe stress in our lives. The Cs had said that all would be well if we kept pushing forth and if we would “coordinate each other’s input equally.”
The reason I wanted to ask about this question was quite simple: at this point, I was doing all the work and Frank was claiming all the credit. I wanted to know if this was “equal input?” Was it possible that his claim to be the channel was true, and that this meant that all other work that fell to me was “equal input.” In a sense, it was sort of a trick question that was asked suddenly and out of the blue.
Q: (L) There was a comment made in an earlier reading when we were told we needed to coordinate our input in this project. I am curious as to the exact meaning of equalize the input? Does that refer to use of the board or what?
A: Many meanings. One must not dominate decision-making. Be open all ideas and input. Once we have made financial arrangements that will be your cue to dedicate full time efforts to this endeavor.
It was comforting to think that some of the financial pressures on my life might be relieved, but I wasn’t putting anything in the bank on it!
As we continued to chat with the Cs, I was paying acute attention to every movement and sensation. I noticed that Frank often seemed to sink into a bored, half-sleeping state while the planchette moved, and that it was during those periods when the energy of the information was most comfortable. This was an awareness that only grew gradually, but I was very soon employing this knowledge in a protective way. I would begin a series of questions, about which Frank had no emotional prejudices, and once he had become completely bored with my questions (most of the time), I would ask the question that concerned me most.
November 9, 1994
Q: (L) Having you as communicants, does this protect us from the intrusion of earthbound spirits?
A: Earthbound spirits yes but others no.
Q: (L) What others do you mean?
A: Aliens.
Q: (L) So your presence protects us from earthbound spirits but other aliens can come through if they choose?
A: Not through while with this connection but around.
Q: (L) They are around?
A: Not now.
Q: (L) Have they been around on other occasions when we were communicating?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Have they ever, on any occasion, contaminated or corrupted our channel?
A: Tried but failed because you recognized it the one time.
Q: (L) When was the one time?
A: Several sessions ago.
Q: (L) Is that one of the sessions on tape? What was the name of the individual that came through that time?
A: Not named.
My intent with the question about “other occasions” was directly concerned with the issue of trance channeling as opposed to working with the board. I wanted to get a definite identification, but failed. But I did manage to get confirmation that my questioning and awareness during the trance session had gone a long way toward preventing major corruption. The important point was that others could not come “through” when working at the board, but that they were definitely around and could skew the information. And the reference to “this connection,” in the above context, was clear: as long as Frank was “connected” to me, to my intent to receive truth, the worst that could happen was skewing. On his own, he was subject to directly channeling STS. It was obvious that as I got close to the issue of the trance channeling, Frank woke up and “blocked.” I shifted gears again.
Q: (L) In this book I am reading it talks about knowledge that is only given to the elect and that certain things are passed down through secret organizations. Most people think this organization is the Illuminati and that they hold many deep, dark secrets. Is that true?
A: Close. But now there is a knowledge explosion. The Illuminati is no longer exclusive; but they still think they are.
Q: (L) Compared to the big high mucky mucks in the Illuminati, what percentage of their knowledge do Frank and I possess?
A: 2 per cent.
Q: (L) You mean they know 98 per cent more than we do? That’s depressing! How much knowledge, relative to the Illuminati, does the average college graduate have?
A: 0.02 per cent.
Q: (L) Is there any one person who holds a major chunk of knowledge on this planet?
A: By this time next year you will have 35 per cent as much.
Q: (L) That means I have to work hard!
A: No. It will flow into you. Stop listening to those that block.
Q: (L) Who in my life is blocking me now?
A: Can’t say. You must find this out.
Q: (L) Is it myself?
A: Only through others.
In response to my question about any one person holding a big block of knowledge, it was odd that their response did not designate both of us, but was predicated on the platform of one person, and that this knowledge would flow into me if I would stop listening to those that block. The only problem was: at this point in my life, the only person I was really listening to was Frank! Of course, at that point in time, I never would have believed that Frank was the block in that sense. In my mind, he was a good soul that was struggling to overcome terrible programming, terrible suffering, and even though I knew I had to work with his psychological issues and strong emotional prejudices, that he might be blocking the inflow of knowledge was a preposterous idea. And when I asked “who?” their non-violation of free will response was classic: “You must find this out.” What is funny is that I naturally took the onus upon myself, blamed myself for any shortcomings of the material, and the Cs made it clear that if I was blocking myself, it was only “through others.” And again, the only possible “other” at this point in time was: Frank.
Not too long after, an extremely curious event occurred which demonstrated this blocking. I had been reading abduction cases, trying to sort it all out and come to some idea about the nature of the interaction, how controls of abductees might be put in place and utilized, and how the emotional feeding or “uploading or downloading” of information to or from the abductee took place. I had the idea that it was partly technological through implants, but I also realized from some of the descriptions of abductees that there was something much deeper to this issue than met the eye. It was in asking this little series of questions that a very strange thing occurred.
December 3, 1994
Q: (L) In the establishing of an ongoing connection between an abductee and the abductor, what methods or techniques are used? Is it a psychic bond?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is it formed technologically?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) There are so many stories of the gazing process where the alien controls that abductee by staring into their eyes and the abductee feels full of love and harmony and thereby thinks that the experience is beneficial. This makes me wonder just exactly what is the purpose of this gazing?
A: Hypnotic.
Q: (L) Does it also form a bond?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the substance of this bond? Is there a psychic cord or connection and is it true that the same …
A: Channel wavering …. [planchette spinning around board]
Q: (L) Is that all you are going to say on that?
A: Please say good night.
It seems that I was moving into areas that the STS controllers did not want to discuss, and they exerted extra blocking energy to halt the receiving of answers. The Cs said “Channel wavering … ” Similar events occurred later on, when Ark pressed for certain information that could not possibly be construed to violate free will, but which obviously approached subject matter that was directly concerned with the control system and how it operated directly on human beings. They couldn’t send a lie through, but they could block transmission by static discharge through Frank. The “Powers That Be” clearly did not want us to learn how this process worked, and I have thought since then that if we had learned this at that point in time, it would have been indicative of how Frank himself operated in vectoring our thoughts, as well as blocking the transmissions from the Cs on occasion.
A couple of days later, a friend of mine was present for the session. There is a long story about her that goes in a direction that is not pertinent to the current issue except to say that Frank rapidly developed an extreme distaste for her presence and spent many, many hours ridiculing her simple approach to life, which included a naturally giving nature. (And here I want to note that “simple” does not relate to intellect in the case of V**, but rather the fact that she was a person who was emotionally reactive and wore her heart on her sleeve.) On this particular evening, she and I had been playing around with the board for a few minutes to see if the Cs would say anything before Frank arrived. He came in the house without knocking (as was usual), almost out of breath as if he had been in a big hurry, and he walked in on us doing this. It was evident from the look on his face that he was angry. He rapidly regained his composure and sat down at the board and the following message came out:
December 5, 1994 – Frank, Laura, V**
Q: (L) Hello.
A: Hello.
Q: (L) Celestial dudes! [Laura and V** had been trying to make contact prior to arrival of Frank and were commenting on the fact that not so much as a nudge came from the planchette.]
A: Look upon that as a sign.
Q: (L) A sign of what?
A: Kindly remove ridge from board. [adjustments made] Move board away from center of table. [further adjustments made]
Q: (L) Is that better?
A: Okay.
Q: (L) Now, look upon what as a sign?
A: Channel.
Q: (L) Channel? How is that a sign channel? I don’t get it?
A: Who? [draws large question mark]
Q: (L) Who?
A: Is.
Q: (L) OK, you mean who is the channel?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) They are trying to tell us Frank is the channel. Who do we have with us tonight?
A: Urua.
I didn’t really think about the fact that Frank was in an emotional state that could easily skew the material, I just figured that since he said it so often and with such conviction, perhaps it was so and this was just a little confirmation? In any event, we went through some personal issues, the Cs came across as rather irritated which was not inspiring to say the least, but eventually the energy of Frank’s anger dissipated, and he finally settled into his bored half-sleep. And it was at this session that the remark about getting on the Internet was made. The curious thing about it was that, even though they had insisted repeatedly that they did not wish to discuss personal matters, my question about a dream I had was not considered to be “personal!” Whatever it was that was skewing the reception at that point, melted and talking about the dream was encouraged. In retrospect, it’s easy to see that the controllers wanted to see what I had dreamed, if it was of any significance, but the result was that by removing their blocking efforts, the Cs were able to tell me something of great significance: to get on the Internet, and that my life would change suddenly and dramatically!
Q: (L) What a relief! A concession! OK, I had a dream last night, I dreamed about large mechanical flying V’s that had flapping wings like metal bat boxes. They scared me. Then, I was with my family and we were going to see my cousin who is deceased and she had just had a baby. The baby was walking and talking and quoting Shakespeare. My Aunt got very upset and said it was unseemly because the baby was illegitimate and she walked out. The baby was only 10 days old. My aunt ran out the door and said it was evil.
A: Suggestion, get on computer net ASAP.
Q: (L) In other words, I really need to take my computer down and get the A drive fixed etc. and log onto the network?
A: Yes.
Q: (V) What does that have to do with the dream? (L) I think it relates back to when Terry and Jan were here and we were talking about dreams and the suggestion was given to hook up to the network and discuss and share dreams. Like a dream forum kind of thing. Is there any significance to the ten days in this dream?
A: When you network, your entire life will dramatically improve immediately! See, sometimes we do advise when appropriate.
As the reader may have guessed, my computer really wasn’t up to doing the Internet in any big way. It was already several years old, and this was 1994, remember? It was a Packard Bell 386 with two 40 megabyte hard drives. I couldn’t install any software because the floppy drive wasn’t working.
Based on this advice, I broke down and called the repair guy who worked out of his home. He came by a day or so later, and discovered that our youngest child had inserted a business card into the floppy drive. After all, it was a nice slot just sitting there, and she knew I was always inserting things in it, so why couldn’t she? I laughed with relief that it wasn’t serious, and told him that she had also recently inserted a peanut butter sandwich in the VCR. Thankfully, there was no peanut butter on the business card!
So, there I was finally, two days before Christmas: Have computer, will travel! With an AOL free trial diskette in my hand, I was ready to rock and roll! I was going to change my life suddenly and dramatically! I was ready! Enough of this nonsense! Let’s find out what’s going on out there in cyber land!
I followed the directions (keeping in mind that my computer was, at this point, merely a glorified word-processor) and soon found myself in the world of America Online. The only thing I could figure out how to do was check out some chat room where they were discussing channeling and the paranormal. It didn’t look too promising, and I didn’t have time to do more than introduce myself and sign off. I had Christmas preparations to take care of. What was more, my best friend was in the hospital, and I wanted to spend some time with her as soon as I had the holiday matters under control.
The following day, Christmas Eve, after rushing around all day, baking and cleaning, I borrowed my ex’s truck to drive to the toy store to pick up the bicycles that they were holding for me until Christmas Eve. I was going to fetch them home and conceal them under a cover in the back yard, and then drive to the hospital to visit Sandra and take her some things to cheer her up.
While waiting at the intersection to make a left turn onto my street, I was struck from the rear at speed by a guy who said in his statement to the police that I was not there. And frankly, even though my eyes were on the big side view truck mirrors that show everything in the rear, I didn’t see him either. Since he never “saw” me, he never slowed down. The impact was serious enough that his entire car was destroyed.
It would be three years before I recovered from the injuries received in the accident. But in a way, it was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Indeed, my life changed suddenly and dramatically.
Having begun writing about the matters contained in this volume, we have received many emails from readers who have thanked us for bringing these issues to the fore. As one reader pointed out, for those who resonate strongly with most of the material, this now gives a platform from which they can “revisit the concepts with a mental filter allowing for new interpretations.” I have noted before there are many instances when the experiences behind the scenes had a great deal to do with the direction of the questions, and now we begin to understand exactly how the internal drives of the participants could act to skew that 30 percent of material that felt “off” even to the casual reader. On August 8, 1998, an interesting series of remarks were made that seem to be almost a prediction about the present events:
Q: We have been discussing the strange visitors to our website. [This referred to an extremely high number of .mil and .gov organizations. We tried to just pass it off as the fact that even people who work for the military and government have interests in channeling, but this really didn’t explain the daily visits from certain sites, and even from some sites that had IP numbers that resolved into servers where public access to information about them was restricted.] It seems that there is a lot of interest from groups that are connected with intelligence and military organizations. Can you tell us what their interest is in our material?
A: Material is largely accurate.
Notice that above, Cs are pointing out that it is only “largely” accurate, and this is the statement upon which the next comments are predicated.
Q: Do they understand that this material is largely accurate, and is this the reason for their interest?
A: Yes.
Q: Do we have to be concerned about any ramifications as a result of their interest?
A: If so, the need for concern began with your respective births!
Q: Why did the interest begin with our births?
A: Not interest we speak of; destiny.
This remark refers specifically to me (Laura) and Ark, since the question related specifically to our efforts to publicize the material on the website. The Cs repeatedly, throughout the sessions, talked about a certain “destined” activity for the two of us in concert with others we had yet to meet. I once asked specifically about this destiny and the answer was very curious, especially the reference to Frank’s role:
August 31, 1996
Q: (L) What do these guys [the folks in the underground bases and laboratories with designs on taking over the world] plan on doing?
A: This is where “The Master Race” is being developed.
Q: (L) And what is the timeframe they have planned for this activity?
A: Never mind.
Q: (L) Is Ark going to be able to help us with technology, to help other people, or to protect ourselves in some way? In this really bizarre stuff going on on our planet?
A: Too much, too soon, my dear. Curiosity killed the cat.
Q: (L) Well, satisfaction brought him back!
A: Not in this case!!!
Q: (T) You’ve got to let this go along. It’s picking up momentum every day, it seems. So, just let it roll along and let it see where it goes. (L) All right, let’s … (T) He’s coming to protect you. That’s what he said.
A: Maybe, but there is so, so, so much more in store than that!!!!!!
Q: (L) Stop! … Is that an ominous, “maybe, but there’s so, so, so much more in store?” Or is that a positive, “there is so, so, so much more in store?”
A: Why would you think it ominous?
Q: (L) Well I don’t know … because I’m scared of what I don’t know! (T) Faith, we’re back to faith again.
A: What have we helped you to discover so far? Would you rather discontinue this operation?
Q: (L) Oh, hell no! (T) After two years, you know she’s always going to ask those kinds of questions!
A: Not two years, eternity. […] We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path. By now, you should recognize the signs … Those who display thinking patterns which in many ways deviate from that which is considered ordinary. The more unusual, the more telling. They have past lives on 3rd density earth, but not recently, but for this one. And they are not oriented to the earth frequency vibrations.
The remark about being put in touch with those of “rare ability” (clearly plural) undoubtedly referred to Frank with the agenda of his controllers to extract information and destroy, and Terry with his role as protector and Ark with his role in the mission. It is quite clear that even though the agenda of those operating behind Frank was not favorable, as noted in the January 10 session, the effect was to “wake me up.” I am still somewhat uncertain about the last remark: which individuals are the Cs referring to as not having had a recent past life on third density earth? Ark, or Frank or Terry? We had started out discussing Ark’s role in the mission, and the Cs brought up the issue of their having put me in contact with those of rare ability in order to communicate, and then they came back to “recognizing signs … ” which takes us back to Ark. For the moment, my interpretation is that Ark is the only one with a recent past life on the earth, and that of the three, neither Terry nor Frank had recent past lives on earth.
Q: (T) … It is destiny for you to find out what your path was, you had to make this contact, because it was what you were supposed to do. (L) Are we not talking about Frank in terms of being put in contact with someone who enables me to communicate with you, so you can put me on my path, which is building the staircase, etc., etc.? Is that not what we’ve got going here?
A: He is one, but not the only one, just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
So my question as to whether Frank was the channel was effectively answered. The material that came through when Terry was present to counterbalance the negative agenda of Frank was obviously far more reliable, and we will encounter this factor more than once as we go along. Going back now to the prediction given in August of 1998:
Q: Well, since we have revamped the website, there has been a huge amount of interest, so we have decided that it would be a good idea to get a book out since I can already see signs of plagiarism on other sites, and they are taking whole chunks of our material and passing it around on some of the news groups. I need to put the whole thing together. Any advice about the book? Anything you would like to add or suggest?
A: Be careful to make attributions valid.
Q: I don’t think that will be a problem. Anything else?
A: Resist urge to place credit/onus on yourself. E.G. if “you know what hits the fan,” do you wish to be in the line of fire?
Now, the interesting thing about the website at this particular point in time, i.e. 1998, was that we carefully avoided any distinction of persons in talking about the work of the Group. At this point in time, we simply referred to the Cassiopaean Group, with no distinction as to persons, and certainly no hint that all of us felt funny about Frank’s claims and participation. I refused to make any one person the “source,” referring to it always as a group, and that irritated him to no end. Frank had been agitating a very long time for us to proclaim him as the channel, and to attribute all of the material to him. This process had been an ongoing theme of manipulation on his part for several years, at that point, and I strenuously resisted making the Cs a cult of personality for Frank, which he clearly resented, but attempted (ineffectively) to conceal. There were numerous instances in the transcripts where it was his agenda, or the agenda of his controllers, to proclaim him as the channel, but usually this occurred when Terry was absent, or when there were not sufficient others of positive energy present in the room to counterbalance what we now see was a very powerful STS force.
In the above excerpt, it seems that there is a hint of an accusation that we are taking credit away from Frank, and that is certainly the way Frank felt; but his view was largely constructed in his own mind and had no basis in reality. Since he did not have a computer, he did not have an opportunity to view and read the website (though we often suggested to him that he ought to do it at our house, and even write and contribute to it, which he never did because it took time away from his watching of sports on television). The facts were that no one individual was being credited with the Cs material. It was presented as a group effort. That was all. So, at one and the same time, we see a personal prejudice of Frank’s skewing the response, but the Cs managed to turn it into a save by inserting the word “onus” and giving the warning about something “hitting the fan.”
I ought to make it clear that my own view of Frank was very sympathetic. And that is one of the chief things that can be learned from this account that I am sharing. The fact is, those with powerful STS agendas can and do utilize all kinds of ways and means of manipulating emotions and perception in order to make themselves appear to be helpful, benevolent, giving, kind, and usually to evoke pity and sympathy. They can speak or channel truth in order to insert a single twist that leads the uncritical thinker off-track, and that is why we have always promoted the idea of critical channeling.
We received a post from an individual who says that telling the story of the behind the scenes dynamics “discredits the entire channeled material from beginning to end.” And such a view, of course, relates directly to the Cs remark above: “Resist urge to place credit/onus on yourself. E.G. if ‘you know what hits the fan,’ do you wish to be in the line of fire?”
By “saving” the remark this way, the Cs were warning us that there would be an operation put in motion to discredit that portion of the material that was “largely accurate,” as they put it. And this is most certainly what has been identified as the current activity of Bridges and Williams and Co. And indeed, by not telling this story of the background earlier, we have most certainly left ourselves open to these attacks.
The Cs are very precise in their use of words, and the remark included the word “onus.” This is a word that generally refers to a dirty task, or a burden or the burden of proving something. The evidence will show that we certainly were not claiming credit for the material ourselves, but we were most definitely protecting Frank by not sharing the issues that we are now discussing. In this way, we had taken upon ourselves the onus of defending corrupted material that was indefensible. And, by taking on ourselves the burden of this defense, by not dealing with the issue of what we already suspected to be a source of corruption, by continuing to keep the door open for Frank to make a different choice, even though, by that point in time, we knew that his days with the group were numbered, we still continued to protect him. This protection even extended to the point of giving him a pseudonym in Amazing Grace so that I could compromise between telling the story as accurately as possible, and still protect Frank. As one observer on the sidelines once remarked (and it incensed me greatly because I was protecting Frank), “Frank plays on your sympathy like a Stradivarius.”
As to whether our decision to try to give Frank every chance possible to make a different choice was the correct one, and whether the present “hitting of the fan” of the operation suggested by the Cs in the above excerpt will permanently damage and discredit all of the material, will have to be up to the reader. We think that telling the truth is the only way. It is then up to the reader to decide what he/she wants to credit and what not. One learn lessons, one learns truth, and one tells truth. That is how we see it. We do believe that the truth will survive the attacks.
Getting back to the August, 1998 excerpt, since I had been so careful to not make the material a cult of personality, I simply did not see what the Cs were trying to tell me. I brushed aside their remark about something “hitting the fan” if I did not make clear who was doing what in the project.
Q: I don’t think that’s a problem either.
A: Oh, but it could be!
And regarding how I ought to deal with telling the story, the Cs clearly said: “Tell the story as it happened.” This made me a little uncomfortable because I knew that I would have to tell about the many issues with Frank, and I tried to squeak out of doing that:
Q: I had thought that I would limit the story and concentrate on the material.
A: The material is part of the story. So are the participants.
And that was the thing that the Cs wanted me to tell: the whole story, and the material as part of the story, and the dynamics of the individuals in the interaction of bringing through material that was “largely accurate,” needed to be told “as it happened.” Thus I began to write the Wave series. And oh, did the stuff hit the fan. But, I am getting ahead of myself here. Let’s go back and pick up some threads that need to be discussed before we get to the events that led to the writing of this recapitulation.
As the readers who have read Amazing Grace know, I pretty much left off at the point when the Cassiopaeans first made their debut. It was my intention to continue the story in two more volumes; the second one would cover the period from the beginning of the Cassiopaean Transmission to the point in time when Ark arrived on the scene. This is a period of only two years, but it was so full of lessons and experiences that seem to have been activated by the contact itself, and some plan or destined mission, that it would take an entire book to tell it all. Jan used to joke about having to raise the bizarre bar daily to accommodate the truly weird things that happened in the lives of all of us involved in this project. The third volume was to include our many experiences, research, and what we have learned since Ark’s arrival. Again, it would take an entire volume to tell it all!
Since the present circumstances are not at all out of sync with previous attacks, and merely represent the ramping up of what has gone before, I will try to cover that period quickly, briefly, and with some links to other pages where some of the matters have already been discussed to save time.
As it turned out, interacting with the Cassiopaeans has been a lot like Neo and the cookie-baking Oracle in the movie, The Matrix. It seems that, very often, in order to not only preserve free will, but also to circumvent the activity of Agents of the Control System, many strategies must be developed and utilized, and some of them are as fun and interesting as the double and triple reverse psychology of a spy thriller. In fact, it may turn out to be the grandest spy thriller of them all because it has operated at several levels of density at once, across years into the past and future, and most certainly involving time loops, changing of the program, and a whole host of fun maneuvers to deceive and beguile the most perspicacious of Grail Questors!
Having said all that, let me go back to where I left off in Amazing Grace. At the time of the second Cassiopaean Contact, the following exchange occurred.
July 22, 1994
Q: (L) What is causing the earth changes?
A: Electromagnetic wave changes.
Q: (L) Can you be more specific?
A: Gap in surge heliographic field.
Q: (L) I don’t understand.
A: Put Frank on processor channel open.
Q: Do you mean that Frank can channel on the computer?
A: Yes. Do it now.
Considering what I already had learned about channeling, and how easily it was taken over and corrupted, I did not see this as a viable suggestion. In fact, I recognized it as one of the first attempts at corruption. Just to prove my point, we did try it and it was nonsense. In light of all that has occurred since, my conclusion that this was an attempt at sidetracking the process has proven to be correct.
A little further on in the same session, the next attempt was made:
Q: (L) What is the Zindar Council?
A: Two cycle exchangers mission.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: References vast. Use Laura channel computer.
Again the computer and direct channeling was being suggested, only this time it was specifically addressed at me. But, I wasn’t buying it. Yes, I had experienced some stupendous success with the information that had been received about Cosmic Metamorphosis that led to the research I did to write Noah, but I knew that even deeper and more accurate information was needed, and that the developing of the unconscious circuit to access those layers required time and effort and strengthening.
The issue of Frank himself was, of course, an interesting one. Having observed him for some period of time, I knew that he was emotionally arrested in his development. I’m not claiming to be a psychotherapist with this remark, and in my own description of his make-up that was written in Amazing Grace, I relied heavily on his own descriptions and assessments. His major claim was that his birth had been a mistake and that he really did not belong in this world because he was, effectively, just too sensitive and spiritual. He couldn’t have normal relations with other people because they “didn’t understand” him. The reason they didn’t understand him was because he was “spiritual” and the mass of humanity was not. At least not spiritual enough to appreciate his spirituality. He couldn’t work at a “real job” because he was “too sensitive” and he couldn’t tolerate pressure. It was unfair of ignorant, unwashed hoi-polloi to put expectations on him to perform a job, when they were so un-spiritual and did not grok his truly superior spiritual nature. His parents were horribly abusive (according to him), and he spent endless hours describing in great detail how much he despised his parents for what they had done to him. Again, this was because they did not recognize his superior spirituality.
Well, naturally, I was moved by all of this pain and suffering that he described and I was determined to make a place for Frank to express the one thing that he claimed he was good at: channeling. As he repeated over and over again, it was the one thing he could do, that he wanted to do, that he was comfortable doing, and which did not seem to require any great effort on his part. Because, in the end, it was effort that he could not tolerate. It required effort to get along with other people. It required effort to work at a job. It required effort to understand that parents generally do the best they can with what they know, and to be able to adjust our own thinking so as not to carry so much anger for the fact that they do, often, unconsciously hurt us.
As I wrote in Amazing Grace, it’s not likely that my own mother will ever wake up and figure out how her own emotional actions and reactions were so hurtful to me and other people. But I am not angry at her, I still maintain relations with her, and if she had a need I could fulfill, I would do it without question. But all of that requires effort. And Frank did not seem to have anything inside him that could result in externally directed effort. He never had a girlfriend, he never dated (he claimed to have had one experience with sexual intercourse that was so disgusting that he vowed never to repeat it), he had very few friends, and his main activity outside of his telemarketing job that he took after the embezzlement episode, was watching football on television.
I had the idea that being accepted for himself would lead to Frank being able to blossom as a human being. I was always making suggestions that he ought to become more socially active, to go back to college, or do some writing (since he had such an excellent command of language). All of these suggestions were met with, “You just don’t understand! I can’t do any of those things!” And this was followed by a monologue on how spiritual he was and why being spiritual and a highly developed being prevented one from being capable of interacting with ordinary human beings in normal ways.
At one point I asked him if he thought that a highly developed spiritual being ought to be defined as one who had mastered the lessons of this human level. He hesitantly said yes. I then asked him why, if such a being had mastered such lessons, that being would be unable to just handle ordinary life as easy as falling off a log? It seemed to me that if a college graduate knows the ABC’s, it should be so easy for them to recite them that even if it was boring, it should certainly not be stressful to do it.
He had no answer.
What was even more disturbing was his view of humanity as a whole. He had nothing but contempt for other human beings who were not as spiritual as he was. This, of course, led back to his claims that his birth was a mistake, and that then, of course, led to the idea that this mistake was easily corrected by suicide. Naturally, I was horrified and spent hundreds, if not thousands of hours, pouring energy into preventing him from doing this. I didn’t realize at the time that it was merely a means of draining my life force.
But, the suicide issue led to a series of exchanges in which I asked Frank if he thought that it could really be a mistake that he was born? And if so, how could such a mechanism operate? He described a “psychic memory” of a harsh voice commanding him to “Go!” and a pointing finger that forcefully ejected him from the delights of the higher levels of ethereal existence into incarnation in the present body.
I didn’t say so at the time, but such an image was very troubling for a lot of reasons, not the least of which was what kind of higher being would act in such a way as to forcefully eject an innocent soul from realms of bliss into incarnation? The bottom line was this: I saw Frank as a soul crying out for help, and I was going to be the one to help him. The channeling project was going to be the platform for me to do this.
There had been so many synchronicities that popped up when we met, and I naturally thought that this was a positive thing. After all, Frank’s middle name was “Grant” and that had been the name of my first boyfriend. I just ignored the fact that the boyfriend had created so much turmoil and destruction in my life. (As it happens, the “friend” with whom the first boyfriend interacted that caused me so much extreme grief had the last name “Bridges,” though it was her married name. Another item I ignored in giving people the benefit of the doubt. Those of you who have read Amazing Grace will know exactly what I am talking about.)
The first thing on my mind was to settle the issue of abduction, since Frank incessantly talked about his abductions by aliens and how his parents had never believed he was being tormented this way and failed to protect him. I truthfully didn’t see how any parent could have been blamed for such a failure since any such activity is most definitely not considered to be a reality in our culture. But, the fact was, Frank had conscious memories of many abductions. In my own case, even if there is some circumstantial evidence of possible abductions, there was most definitely no conscious memory, and to this day, I cannot say that I have ever seen an alien in any sort of conscious state, nor in any way that could not be explained as a dream, or the result of hypnagogic or hypnopompic states. Having said that, let me add that I do not subscribe to the view that just because such things can be explained in such ways, that they ought to be. There is too much evidence that something strange is going on to do that. But the point is, one has to be very careful in this kind of research.
So, dealing with Frank’s abductions seemed to be a natural issue to discuss with the Cassiopaeans. We asked about the numbers of times we each had been abducted and received different answers on different occasions. (I considered this variance to be evidence of attempts to corrupt the information.) On the first occasion the question was asked, the answer was:
July 16, 1994
Q: (L) How many times?
A: Frank-57 … Laura-12.
Over two months later, we asked about Frank again and the answer was four less than the first answer:
September 30, 1994
Q: (L) How many times has Frank been abducted?
A: 53
A week or so later, I asked again about my own purported abductions:
October 9, 1994
Q: (L) How many times have I been abducted?
A: 17
Q: (L) How many times have they abducted Frank?
A: 53
Q: (L) Why have they abducted Frank more than me?
A: You fight it.
Now, in this last instance, the number given for me is five more than previously stated, though the number given for Frank is the same as the number given the second time, which was four less than the first answer. However, even this number is suspect because two years later, more specifics were given, and in this case, they matched real life clues, so this next figure regarding myself, if it is true at all, might be the correct one.
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) Can you tell me what ages?
A: 2, 4, 7, 10, 17, 22, 44
Now, if we consider the fact that, as I described in Grace, the incident when I was four was a human abduction, and that at the time of the first answer, I was not yet 44 years old and the last figure in the above recitation would be necessarily deducted, this means that this last figure of only five instances is probably accurate regarding myself.
Regarding Frank, in all cases, whichever number we accept as the correct one, his experiences are five times as frequent then, and probably since. And the answer as to why he was abducted more frequently was very telling and disturbing: effectively, he was abducted more because he did not fight it. And that means, he either accepted it out of weakness, or agreement.
And here I want to make it perfectly clear that I am not talking about conscious agreement by any stretch of the imagination. A person can be paralyzed and brutalized (or so they say) in an abduction, and be completely helpless. There is obviously some other quality or quantity of something that makes one person more or less susceptible than another. Why else would the Cassiopaeans have made such a remark? I am certain that if I was abducted (and there is certainly circumstantial evidence that it was so), I never managed to stop it because I “fought it.” (Until, of course, the last attempt which is recounted in my book, High Strangeness). But clearly, something in me fought it at some level of which I was (and am) completely unaware. And this is most definitely something we need to research for the sake of others who have similarly fought such battles, with greater or lesser success.
Frank, of course, was certain that these abductions were what gave him his “channeling” ability. We discussed it and decided to ask if this was the case: that he had been programmed to be a channel. In the session of October 9, 1994, I asked:
Q: (L) Is Frank’s mind programmed?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) To do what?
A: To be an open channel.
Q: (L) By whom?
A: Us.
Q: (L) You said one other time that he was also programmed by the Grays.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) To do what?
A: To destroy himself.
Q: (L) Is this why it is important for him to channel?
A: Yes.
The above remarks, of course, raise the all-important question as to who was giving the answer. We certainly know from the vast body of material that the Cassiopaeans do not “program” anybody. So it seems fairly obvious that this response, due to the wishful thinking of Frank, either drew in a corrupting energy, or was answered by Frank himself.
Throughout this period I was, of course, doing all of my testing of the source, and asking of wide ranging questions on hundreds of subjects. The information was checking out and I was becoming more convinced that we had most certainly achieved a significant contact and so I asked:
October 16, 1994
Q: (L) Why did it take so long for us to get a good source through this medium?
A: Too many interactions with channel cancellers.
Q: (L) Who are the individuals who are channel cancellers?
A: It would not be our way to name names.
Q: (L) Do you mean people we have had involved in our lives?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Does it have anything to do with our activities?
A: No.
Q: (L) Does it involve other entities that have tried to come through that have blocked the channel?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are they Lizards?
A: No.
These remarks were most revealing to me though, as usual, I kept my deeper speculations to myself. When discussing it with Frank, his answer was, of course, that all “channel cancellers” were individuals he did not like or who didn’t like him because they were repelled by his disdainful and superior attitude. As usual, I always put the most positive spin on this, giving Frank the benefit of the doubt and attributing this behavior to a defense mechanism. I knew perfectly well that many people who act superior only do so because they are covering up deep inferiority feelings inside, and again, I had the idea that Frank was certainly a person with many talents and abilities and that helping him was a good thing to be doing.
Through all these months, Frank regularly repeated the claim that the only reason the Cassiopaeans were able to communicate was because of him. I was certainly open to this possibility, and the possibility of further tuning as a trance channel, since that was what he was pushing for so regularly and repeatedly. Even though I pointed out to him that trance channeling, by definition is disabling, and therefore pathological, he was anxious to work on it and presented arguments that it was not disabling if it was the only thing a person could really do in life, and if it was what they had been born to do. These were compelling arguments, so reluctantly, I agreed to the experiment.
The trance material was very good, of that there was no doubt. There were several problems, however, that were disturbing. The first one was the “air” that was emanated by Frank when channeling from a trance. There is no way to describe this other than to say it felt very uneasy, faintly repellant or “off” in some way. Even though the words were high sounding, and the information was good, the sensation that I had was unpleasant.
Another factor was a sort of resistance to freely answering questions. There was an obfuscatory action that was in play, utilizing a lot of words to avoid exactly direct answers. I had seen this in so much other channeled material that I knew that it was bordering on a source that rambles on and on with many words and little content. In short, the word density deteriorated when Frank channeled from a trance.
I decided to ask about this the next night at a board session, and this was the very first clue that Frank was not the channel.
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) Was Frank operating as a clear channel last night?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) What was the nature of the interference?
A: Static electromagnetic.
Q: (L) What was the origin of this static?
A: Various. Channels must be grooved as this one has been.
Q: (L) Is it correct that we should persist with practice for him to become a clear channel?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How often should we do this?
A: Open, but one time per week would work.
Q: (L) How long will it take to “groove” or clear the channel?
A: Open.
When the Cs said “channels must be grooved as this one has been,” it certainly could have referred to the board channeling. There is also the possibility that the “grooved channel” that the Cs were referring to was simply me, as other comments later indicated. In any event, it was already becoming clear to me that the Cs were communicating against some sort of block, and I was pretty sure it wasn’t me. And, if no one else but Frank was present, who else could it be? The one thing that was certain from these remarks was: Frank was not the Cassiopaean channel in the exclusive way that he was repeatedly trying to suggest.
At about this point in time, I visited a local lady psychic with a friend who praised her abilities to the skies. She wasn’t a professional, and didn’t charge anything, but she did have a study group and a small local following, so I was reassured that this was not going to be another psychic scam. She was very nice, and we visited around her kitchen table. She told me many accurate things about my then-current situation which I have long since forgotten. The most remarkable and surprising thing she said was that she saw a little red-haired girl following me around and she believed it was representative of the soul of the next baby in my life. The funny thing was, this was merely a reiteration of the same thing that several other psychic friends had said to me.
Well, at that point in time, having another baby was not something I wished to contemplate. My health had been so seriously compromised in that respect that I knew another pregnancy would just kill me. (Yeah, I know, a little dramatic, but the ladies will understand!) Of course, I couldn’t wait to ask the Cs about that! (And of course, I did not want to be too specific since Frank knew nothing about this visit to the psychic and I wanted to see what the Cs would say without any leading.)
October 28, 1994
Q: (L) Now, several people have told me that there is a small child who is with me constantly. Who is she and why is she here?
A: Next in line.
Q: (L) Next in line for what?
A: Birth.
Q: (L) Am I going to have another child?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) How many are there in line?
A: One.
Q: (L) Male or female?
A: Female.
Q: (L) Is this to happen within the next year?
A: Open.
Q: (L) I am 42 years old. If I were to get pregnant would I be able to have a normal pregnancy and produce a healthy infant?
A: Yes. Your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.
Q: (L) Will this be due to ingesting the Melatonin?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Is soon within a month?
A: You will know.
Q: (L) I get the feeling that this has a lot to do with trusting my own intuition.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What occurred to make my pool clear up?
A: You restored your own energy.
Q: (L) And it had nothing to do with rituals?
A: Correct. In spite of rituals but you were lucky could have gone the other way.
Q: (L) What prevented this from happening?
A: Divine intervention. [energy surge]
Q: (L) Well, my life seems to have been full of incidents of divine intervention. Is this true?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of this intervention?
A: To preserve and prepare you for work.
Q: (L) What is this work?
A: You are extremely valuable to all on your planet.
Q: (L) What particular value? Is this common to all people?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is this something meaningful? What is the mission?
A: Faith in your opening channel you will learn as you go. We cannot tell you all at once.
This bit of dialogue was very interesting and very troubling at the same time. First the Cassiopaeans were indicating that asking questions as we were at that point was only a step in a process, the end result of which would be that “your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.” Of course, I was thinking that this would be just some sort of magical “opening up of awareness,” and asked if it would be because of taking melatonin.
Because I had relied upon this intuition regarding the Green Pool affair, it was only natural to ask about it in the context of developing psychic awareness. I most certainly did not expect the answer that came about divine intervention. The energy surge that is noted in brackets related to the fact that the planchette began to move very fast and actually nearly flew off the table. It seems that opening the door to that subject by asking the question, allowed me to receive a real surge of positive energy.
I knew I was treading on thin ice when I asked why divine intervention would be activated on my behalf and frankly, I didn’t put a lot of stock in the answer that I was “extremely valuable to all on your planet.” That struck me as an ego hook, and I was really wary of such things. The only thing that restored my confidence at that moment was the fact that the Cs wouldn’t tell me the answer. How many people are led astray by being told that they are here to save the world or some such nonsense! For all I knew, the value of my life consisted in being burned at the stake or something gross like that. Nevertheless, in response to the question “what is the mission,” again the Cassiopaeans slipped something past Frank that obviated his claim to be the Cassiopaean channel: “Faith in your opening channel you will learn as you go. We cannot tell you all at once.” And I knew for certain that there was a problem in working with Frank. The Cs were declaring as clearly as they could, that they would tell me many things in bits and pieces via the current medium, and that the opening channel was something deep in me. Further, that it would only be from my own consciousness that the ultimate answers would come.
But, as was usual, I shoved it under the rug. At the same session, another very interesting series of remarks was made:
Q: (L) Since the energy is high at this time, we would like to know if you have anything to give in the form of a teaching.
A: Not ready for that yet; establish clear channel and forum first; one step at a time.
Q: (L) What is the forum?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Do you mean that we need to bring more people into this work?
A: Close.
Q: (L) We need to create a forum.
A: Yes. A direction will open if you persevere.
Q: (L) So things will be brought to us and happen for us if we just persevere?
A: Soon expect big opportunity.
Q: (L) I assume that we are not to ask what it is, we are to have faith, is that correct?
A: Yes. Danger you may misinterpret opportunity.
Q: (L) Should we all three be able to realize in congruence whether the opportunity is good?
A: Varying degrees.
Q: (L) If there is a danger we may misinterpret the opportunity, could you give us a couple of clues so that when it occurs we won’t miss it?
A: At least one of you will have instant recognition but others may not. Wait and see.
The first remark was that we needed to establish a clear channel first. This related back to the immediately previous remark about having faith in my own opening channel, that “your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.” I didn’t realize it at the time, but the Cassiopaeans certainly knew in advance how the drama would play out, and no clearer evidence of this, as well as their refusal to interfere with free will and my own need to learn things by experience, could be given. When I asked about a “forum,” naturally, I was thinking in small, local terms. A forum to me was something like a study group or a minimal number of people who would meet to discuss things. What was most curious was the remark about a “big opportunity” that there was some danger of misinterpreting on the part of all of those present except for one person.
As it turned out, this opportunity was meeting Ark. And it was certainly true that it was misinterpreted by everyone but me. I had “instant recognition” to a depth and extent that can barely be explained or expressed. Frank, on the other hand, literally spent days trying to convince me that I ought not to communicate with Ark, that he was a spy or KGB agent sent to kidnap me and use me for vile purposes. (Funny how real agents always accuse others of what they are doing themselves.) What was more, he managed to convince other members of the group that Ark was a danger to the all of us, and I basically had to stand alone against them repeating to me over and over again that I was falling into a trap.
But because the Cs had cleverly used the exact phrase that would communicate to me the essential thing to know – that there would be instant recognition – I knew that Ark was the One, and that his coming and importance to the mission had been known and predicted 21 months in advance.
But I still had 21 months of serious learning ahead of me before I would even be ready for Ark, and the Cassiopaeans must have been smiling all the while at what was waiting for me at the end of what I could only describe as a long tunnel of suffering.
Not too long after the above session, Terry and Jan became regular members of the group. The Cassiopaeans were almost overjoyed at their presence, and it is only in retrospect that the reasons become clear. Nevertheless, they willingly and readily put in many hours of labor on analyzing and collating material.
Frank continued to ask that we convert the channeling process to the trance method with him as the subject/channel. With Terry and Jan present, we experimented with it a number of times. I didn’t express my own feelings about it in advance since I wanted them to witness it without prejudice, and it turned out that their reaction was exactly the same as my own. In fact, it almost seemed that the repellant aspects of the voice and presence of Frank’s trance source was amplified with the three of us on the other side. It was this experience that prompted us to discuss at some length the role that Frank played in the process. It was also this that prompted us to devise ways and means of wording inquiries so that we could bypass Frank’s “controller” as well as whatever programming he was operating under. There are quite a number of questions in the transcripts that are asked, seemingly about someone else, when a prearranged agreement was made that these questions were inquiries about Frank himself. In some cases these questions were about Terry and in other cases, they were about other individuals. In later sessions, Ark and I used this same method. In the course of this series of articles, I will reveal where and what these questions are, what the circumstances were that prompted them, and what the coded answers meant.
But again, the bottom line was that, despite the fact that we knew we had to find ways to circumvent the corruption that was evident in Frank, we all saw Frank as a valuable human being who had been abducted and kidnapped as a child, and that his free will had been violated, and we felt that if we continued to work with him, to encourage him, that something of strength and true STO will would grow in him. I clung stubbornly to the belief that Frank was, at the core, an STO being who had just been presented with so many challenges that he needed help to meet them. It took us a long time to fully realize that when such things happen, the soul is not an infant. If I could resist or fight back as a child so could Frank; only he didn’t. And ultimately, that was an expression of his soul choice.
Over the next six years, the Cassiopaeans gave clue after clue about many things, including Frank himself, that were delivered to us based on a secret signal system that was unknown to Frank, and is only now being revealed. And this, of course, leads to another reason why we did not choose to publish all the transcripts at once, unedited, and without commentary. Without this background, without the information about the code and the questions that were asked in code and answered in code, there is no way that the casual reader can fully realize the truly amazing nature of the transmissions.
What is more: we wanted to wait for the “rest of the story.” Right up to the very last minute, we left the door open for Frank to make a different choice.
As we proceeded with our interaction with the Cassiopaeans, we slowly, but surely, came to the idea of the Matrix reality. Of course, in those early days, we had no metaphor for what we were learning, and we certainly were charting little-known territory of soul dynamics. The idea of a theological drama between the gods or higher level beings of both the positive and negative orientation was the major theme.
Certainly, this is not an entirely new idea, but it was being expressed to us in scientific terms of hyperdimensional physics and we were being encouraged to explore and perceive it for one very simple reason: awareness. The Cassiopaeans had told us that it was awareness that binds us to our reality, and by becoming aware, interactively, with the higher reality, we are stretching beyond our normal human limitations. And, when we expand our awareness, as well as act upon higher awareness, we are nurturing that part of ourselves that ultimately grows to “fit” the higher levels, and we then graduate.
Someone once said that there are two reasons a person does a thing: the reason they give, and the real reason. We had some idea that there was actually a deeper reason beyond the psychological one, and that this was, so to say, the theological reason, which manifested and utilized the real reason, and we were seeking to penetrate to that theological reality.
All the members of the group were widely read in the various subjects of metaphysics, philosophy, and even science to some extent, and all of us felt that there was some significant piece missing that would be the key to unlock our understanding. We were searching for that key. We knew that when a person views any given situation from the strictly human perspective, without considering psychological dynamics, they are subject to the pitfalls of “the real reason.” We knew that the teachings of love and light had been promulgated for a very long time, but for some reason, such ideas only seemed to lead to more and greater misery.
It was actually in terms of principles that we gradually learned to discern the theological drama, and at this point, we have certainly learned even more, and quite deeply at that. That there were psychological issues where Frank was concerned was always apparent to all of us. We didn’t think too much of this except in terms of sympathy and learning to interact with it, and our own as well. The idea that Frank’s issues were clues to his core being were just simply not part of anything we wished to consider, and in that respect, we were acting out an obsession, a refusal to see the truth.
Learning to navigate the labyrinth of human relations, to be able to discern the real reason behind the actions of those people we interacted with, was an early concern. Unfortunately, as already noted, this was often skewed by Frank’s powerful negative reactions to many people, and, for the most part, such direct questions about anyone he either disliked or favored ought to be discarded. A prime example is Richard Hoagland.
By this time, all of us had read the Ra Material, suggested very early by the Cs, though in a session that was neither recorded on tape nor in notes, so I can’t reproduce the exact remarks here. It had been indicated that this was a primer and would save a lot of time if we could grasp the essential concepts about service-to-self and service-to-others. In this seemingly simple concept, we began to discern the reason behind the real reason, or the manifestation of the theological drama.
We began to realize, slowly at first, that a person could have psychological issues, and still be oriented to service-to-others. They could also be oriented to serving self. By the same token, a person could appear to have no disabling psychological issues at all, and be completely oriented to serving the self. We began to learn that closing our ears to the words that other people use to beguile us, and observing only the actions, was the key to discernment.
These terms, “service-to-others” and “service-to-self”, are inextricably mixed up with the idea of love. On an individual basis, we may say that we love this or that person, and want to serve them, but then the question arises: which part of them are we serving? The higher part that seeks spiritual growth and union with God, or the lower part that seeks survival in the flesh? When we help someone who keeps making the same mistakes over and over again, we are clearly interfering in their lessons. What, then, are we serving? Most likely ourselves because we are then able to “feel good” that we are so “long suffering” and “patient” and “self-sacrificing,” because we can certainly see, from the evidence of our eyes, that the other person isn’t making any progress by virtue of our efforts. And, it may be a far more difficult thing to deny assistance, to refuse association with them, particularly when it is someone we love, because it “hurts us to see them hurt.” Yet, that may be the very thing needed in order for them to grow – to be left to their own suffering until they have had enough so that they will begin to see their own way out of the difficulty, thereby building soul strength and accessing their own powers and inner potentials.
But, we run into a problem of judgment here: aren’t we judging whether the person is really asking from the soul level or the level of the flesh? And, can’t we be wrong?
How do we know when our giving is violating another’s free will? Well, we do have a little bit of a clue in many ancient teachings about “asking.” The stories say: “ask and you shall receive.” But, if you study this idea, you find that what they really say is “ask and keep on asking, and it shall be given you; seek and keep on seeking, and you shall find; knock and keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.”
There are a number of Jesus’ parables that illustrate this point, particularly the “Friend at Midnight,” found in the Gospel of Luke 11:5–13. The same teaching is standard procedure among the yogis of India and Tibet. A sufficient effort must be made by the supplicant before a response is made. In some cases, it takes years of asking! So, a good general rule to follow is that true asking is accompanied by sincere effort on the part of the one asking, and they must have done all that is in their power to achieve that for which they are asking.
And so we began to learn that sometimes, serving others, in the human sense of the word, is merely the serving of the STS part of the person, the third density aspect of the flesh, and is not true STO in the sense of achieving higher balance. If you give a child candy every time they ask for it, because you “love” them, or seek to “serve them” by meeting their every request, are you truly “serving” them? Even if their constant diet of candy leads to their ultimate physical death from diabetes? If you intercede for your child every time he misbehaves in life, and prevent his experience of the consequences, how will he grow up?
Another aspect that needs to be understood is this: In third density, we are all Serving Self in one way or another. We cannot, by our very nature of existence in the flesh that must consume to survive, be pure STO beings. That’s the bottom line. And, it is in the understanding of this, the acceptance of it and then focusing on learning the lessons of this estate in which we find our being, becoming, at the very least, aware, and acting on that awareness to whatever extent possible, that we have the chance of becoming “STO candidates.”
And that is accomplished by becoming aware of the soul dynamics which express the battle between the higher-level beings of both the STS and STO orientation, and then choosing which dynamic one wishes to align with, and acting on that choice. The Cassiopaeans say knowledge protects, and from their perspective, it is not knowledge until it is applied – before that, it is merely a collection of data and facts.
And so we come to the idea that if a person is viewing this present situation we are discussing from a strictly human view, without considering the soul dynamics involved, then it certainly would seem to be merely a “tempest in a teapot” or a “petty squabble” or even a “lack of harmony.” From the human perspective, most of what occurs in interpersonal dynamical interactions is so judged. It is that very human judgment that we are being challenged to see through! It is in seeing the unseen that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the battles between the forces of STS and STO! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!
About these times in which we live, and these very matters we are discussing, Jesus said, “Be careful that no one misleads you … many false prophets will rise up and deceive and lead many into error … for false Christs and false prophets will arise, and they will show great signs and wonders so as to deceive and lead astray, if possible, even the elect. See, I have warned you beforehand” (Matthew 24:4, 11, 24–25). “Do not think that I have come to bring peace upon the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to part asunder a man from his father, and a daughter from her mother, and a newly married wife from her mother-in-law; and a man’s foes will be they of his own household” (Matthew 10:34–36).
The apostle Paul wrote in Ephesians 6:11–12: “Put on God’s whole armor, that you may be able successfully to stand up against all the strategies and the deceits of the devil. For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood, contending with physical opponents, but against the despotisms, against the powers, against the master spirits who are the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spirit forces of wickedness and the heavenly sphere.” Hebrews 4:12: “For the word that God speaks is alive and full of power; it is sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life and the spirit, and of joints and marrow, exposing and sifting and analyzing and judging the very thoughts and purposes of the heart.”
Those of you who have read Fulcanelli and other alchemical works will immediately recognize the elements of the Great Work revealed in the above quotes from “Jesus” and “Paul.”
Such passages in the Bible have generally been utilized by various Christian religions to justify murder and war. But this is exactly the problem we are dealing with here. They were read and interpreted in the STS version of physical swords and hate, giving themselves the authority to arbitrate who was saved and who was not. And of course, all of those who were “saved” and under the aegis of the church, must then subscribe only to the “peace and harmony” and “love and light” teachings: turn the other cheek, or “ignore it and it will go away,” or “it’s just a squabble.” Choosing truth means choosing to take responsibility for one’s self and one’s own actions. The ordinary human interpretation that is generally put on such things is a mechanical reaction from the why-can’t-we-all-just-make-nice-and-get-along school of thought. And that is precisely what the Matrix Control System promotes.
Since the church was promoting a religion of passivity, with themselves as the beneficiaries, it is not likely that they would have left the above sayings (and similar ones) in the Bible unless they were widely known, and people would have noticed their absence. What is certain is that they made no effort to have them be understood in their proper context of learning to be aware of the hyperdimensional realities, and to act on the clues of this higher truth.
When we understand that sword, in the terminology of Jesus, meant truth (or word of God), then it makes more sense. When we understand the hating of the father or mother in the context of refusing to be controlled or manipulated even by family members, because they may, indeed, be representatives of the forces of the STS alignment, it puts it in an entirely different context.
The Cassiopaean presentation of our reality as being a Control Matrix that keeps us in a prison, and uses us for food or energy, was naturally distressing. This was not a new idea to me, because, of course, I was entirely familiar with the teachings of Gurdjieff on the subject, but having such a clinical description of it, the pointing out of the mechanism and how it works through our very human interactions, was almost unbearable. I hadn’t yet read Castaneda, so I didn’t realize that, in his last book, he would reveal much the same thing, which he had not made entirely clear in his earlier work. I also had not read Fulcanelli and discerned his own teachings on the subject. Each of them, in their own time and context revealed this apparent truth in the best way they could, considering the dangers to which they were exposed by the very system they sought to reveal. But it was in the teachings of Jesus that I was most surprised to discover that he had most likely been saying the exact same things the Cassiopaeans were saying.
When we examine the New Testament, when we remove the obvious gloss of the Egyptian resurrection myth, we are left with the clearly gnostic teachings that the “God of this world” is an “evil magician!” When the reader is fully informed about the variations on these two themes, it is almost pathetically easy to read the New Testament and see what might be original to “Jesus,” and what was added by the creators of Christianity as we know it. I will refer the reader to chapter five of my book The Secret History of the World for a more in depth discussion of the early Christians.
The medieval Cathars appear to have been carriers of part of the original ideas taught by the man we have come to know as Jesus. Curiously, their view on marriage seems to have been that if you bring a child into the world, you are perpetuating darkness because this world is ruled by beings that can invade the mind, and thereby further entrap the soul. This idea has recently been brought forward in a most interesting way. Dr. David Jacobs, professor of History at Temple University (Dr. Jacobs wrote his Ph.D. thesis on the history of the UFOs) wrote about his extensive research into the alien abduction phenomenon. Dr. Jacobs says that now, after all of these years of somewhat rigorous research that he knows what the aliens are here for and he is afraid. David Jacobs says that producing offspring is the primary objective behind the abduction phenomenon. And we might suspect that producing offspring that are more nutritious would be similar to our own breeding of cattle to be meatier or hybridizing of plants to be more productive per acre, is a good comparison. As above, so below, in more ways than we ever suspected.
We find here a strange and frightening connection between the alien abduction phenomenon and the teachings of the Cathars. And, if it is so that the Cathars were following a form of Christianity that was closer to what the real Jesus taught, then the entire mystery begins to make sense. Apparently what “Jesus” taught was the reality of hyperdimensional beings who can travel in time, invade and control the mind, and whose primary source of nourishment is human beings – either physically or mentally or emotionally. Don Juan said: “They took over because we are food for them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in chicken coops, the predators rear us in human coops. Therefore, their food is always available to them.” And how did don Juan say they can do this and get away with it? Because they “gave us their mind.”
What is this Predator’s mind that don Juan talks about?
When you put the various pieces of the puzzle together, what you find is that the Predator’s mind, the “hypnosis” that Gurdjieff talked about, the Matrix Control System interface with our bio-cosmic computers, our bodies, is our DNA which is controlled and restricted by the generation of specific brain chemicals via the control of our emotions. This is what determines the way our brains and nervous systems are set up, which includes certain early periods of imprinting (this subject will be discussed in a future volume of The Wave), which establishes our circuitry and thinking processes at an age and under conditions over which we have no control. And once those circuits are set up in a certain way, they can almost never be changed without a major meltdown, and they determine forever after how all incoming information is categorized. Indeed, we all have reptilian DNA. But we also have avian DNA. In fact, we are a veritable smorgasbord of DNA from all that exists around us. Nevertheless, something is going on that puts the reptilian DNA in control, and it is in that context that don Juan means that the “Predator gave us his mind.”
Also, that these Control Programs, these chemicals of feeding, can be and are stimulated and perpetuated through our interactions with other human beings, most especially those closest to us, is a cold, hard fact of science.
About 50 percent of the consciousness of the All consists of the thought of not creating, non-being. In the emergence of this thought, necessitated by the definition of All, which includes all, including the thought of non-being, service-to-self becomes the pathway to “sleeping matter” with which the creative Spiritual half plays. This means that in the cycling of consciousness, some matter is “spiritualized” and some consciousness is “matterized.”
Consciousnesses that follow the path of STS and do not choose to spiritualize, have chosen to be matterized – it’s a choice, and it’s free will, and does not require our forgiveness or our judgment that it is wrong or that it needs to be fixed in that other person. However, as we already have seen, that matterizing consciousness tends to be moving in the direction of the “black hole” thought center. And it is this Predator’s mind that teaches a form of “love” that is based on the STS principles of deception, manipulation, control, and subsumption to a single individual so as to fulfill the function of the black hole reflection of regeneration of primal matter. And that is our problem. When we dance with it, there is the danger of our being matterized also. We lose virtue in such interactions … and I use the term in its original sense.
Those folks who choose the path of matterizing of consciousness become less and less conscious of what is and more and more focused on their wishful thinking and warping of reality around their own ideas. And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this world in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation.
In other words, we are not just talking about a petty dispute, we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as always – in human dynamics.
Thus, at this crucial level of existence, where the choice must be made as to whether or not the path of matter or spirit is followed, clear boundaries must be set and, in actuality, those sayings of Jesus that were quoted above relate to this problem.
It seems to be our greatest task to determine from the clues we can glean from our reality exactly who is or is not of the alignment we choose, and to act upon that knowledge. It is up to us to decide who or what we dance with because there are many invitations to dance with the devil.
It is in this sense that Castaneda discussed what he called systematic harassment of the petty tyrant. Once the individual has a small clue, or set of clues, that they are dancing with the devil, they need to really know for certain if it is so, or if it is merely another deception of the Matrix. And so, systematic harassment is the key to discovery. If an individual is, truly, of the STS persuasion, this activity, described in some detail in the book The Fire From Within, outlines the strategy for both identifying and becoming free from the feeding of the STS hierarchy acting through human beings in our dynamical relationships.
Unfortunately, just as the church misrepresented – deliberately – Jesus’ words about swords and hating one’s family members, so do very few people today fully comprehend the principle of systematic harassment as a tool for becoming free of control. They know the words in the context of matterizing, but are not able to perceive the spirit – because it is not in them. But, we will come to that soon enough in this narrative.
It is in the details that we are writing about here that the reader will learn the essence of becoming aware of the theological drama that is enacted in our lives. And it is in this awareness, and acting on the awareness of the spirit, and not the common definition of words and deeds, that we establish a bond to the higher realms, and thereby become a candidate for graduation.
Working with a board-type instrument is both a very positive thing as well as problematical. In the early sessions, as I have noted, we were not taping, so reconstructing them was done based on scribbled notes and memory. Sometimes, those notes were being written in my lap with one hand, while the other hand was on the planchette! On better occasions, there was a sufficient number of people present that one of them could devote their attention to taking notes. But this produced its own problems as the reader will see.
With a board and a moving planchette that has not yet been fully tuned, it is often difficult to determine if a stop indicates a cessation of flow in the transmission or if it is designating a letter or sign on the board. I tried to faithfully call out all apparent letters, numbers, or stops, whatever they might appear to be, and often had to cancel the call because it became apparent that it was only a pause and not an indication of a letter or number. To add to this problem, if a third party was taking the notes, they would often misunderstand what was being called out, or transpose letters, numbers, or misplace decimals if they were given, and otherwise unintentionally contribute to the loss of fidelity of the material. It was only quite a bit later in the process, after many hundreds of pages had been received, that we began to work with ways to increase our accuracy in recording both via tape and handwritten notes. As with anything, practice improved performance.
There was another curious problem that the many people who have sat in on sessions have experienced first hand. I would warn them, but they really didn’t have any idea of what I meant until they experienced it for themselves. Everybody has a tendency to want to anticipate a word or phrase – to complete it according to what they think it will be once they have heard the first couple of letters. Sometimes this is helpful and speeds up the taking of notes, but more often than not, the anticipated word ended up being incorrect, the person taking the notes would have to switch mental gears in mid-word, after having already written the wrong word, and would then entirely lose their place and fall behind, rushing madly to catch back up with the letters being called out. This would only compound the problem. Our notebooks are full of crossed out anticipated words and loss of context because the person taking the notes tried to think ahead of the Cs, made an incorrect assumption, and fell behind or rushed to catch up, leaving out entire words or letters. In some cases, a word was written in anticipation, and even though a different word was spelled out on the tape, the incorrect word was left because that is what the individual heard.
At the same time, we were very anxious to get the transcripts typed up just for the simple reason that we wanted to read them as soon as possible, and thus, many of these errors were included in the original typescript, along with standard typos, all of which require enormous work to weed out.
At the present moment, the Cassiopaean transcripts consist of 634 pages, set up in 3 columns in 10 point Ariel font. This equals 699,056 words, 122,719 lines, and 3,742,197 characters. And I can guarantee you that I typed nearly every word of it, with later help from Jan when she and Terry were finished with their project of sorting material by subject matter.
There are some people who look upon our attempts to go back and discern where these errors occurred, or even to try to discern the true intent of the earlier sessions, or obviously skewed sessions, based on later information that was clearer, more precise, and being transmitted at a point in time when the static and other difficulties were more fully understood and dealt with, as some sort of maneuver to misrepresent what the Cs have said. Nothing could be further from the truth. Aside from the fact that such critics certainly have made no years-long efforts to produce anything similar of their own, upon which foundation they might have the right to consider themselves some sort of expert.
As we have repeatedly said, it is our project, and we have the right to determine how we analyze the data, evaluate the results, retest that which does not stand up, and make those corrections and addenda that are deemed necessary based upon our long experience in translating. This is, in fact, the deeper issue concerned with channeling and doing the work necessary to penetrate to the deeper levels of understanding. I understood from the outset that what I was trying to do had seldom, if ever been done. And it must be clear from the very outset that the idea was mine, the theory behind how it worked was mine, the drive to do it was mine, and the driving force stimulating any participation from anyone else, was mine. And most of the time, I worked against enormous resistance, obstructions, and through hardships that would have stopped about anyone on the planet; and that is not an exaggeration.
Recently I came across the work of Professor Douglas Robinson at Ole Miss, a professor of English, and an expert in translation. I was surprised to discover that translation was a science, with experts and theory. But I was gratified to learn that some of the ideas I had about channeling related directly to translating, and that someone was considering these problems far more thoroughly and competently than I was. What was even more surprising was that Prof. Robinson had suggested outright that an analogy can be drawn between the function of a translator and the channel or medium. It is the work of the channel-as-translator to use every means available to convey the fullest intention of the original author to a new audience that might never hear it because they do not know the language. Prof. Robinson points out that, in the ordinary sense, translation is done merely across linguistic or cultural barriers, but when channeling is involved, it is done across temporal, consciousness, or even hyperspatial barriers.
In the present day of techno-marvels and instant gratification, the idea that anyone can just sit down and begin to channel Jesus, aliens or even the Host of Heaven seems to me to be very similar to the idea that translation can be done by machines with no human interface. This is a very subtle point and I know that it might seem that it is the reverse, but bear with me. In terms of a computer program that translates from one language to another, we see that the program attempts to execute an algorithm, or series of algorithms that consist of gathering intelligence, charting a course of action, giving a series of commands, and carrying them out. The results are only as good as the algorithms. And we see, from the literature, that the channeling phenomenon as it is widely practiced, omits reason from the algorithm. There is no feedback mechanism, and thus no possibility of accurate tuning. This means that it does not allow for an algorithm that can handle the fact that there may be competing forces inside the channel’s head – or, in the case of a group, the competing forces of different individuals and intentions. Excluding reason and the possibility of competing forces is not very professional translating. It’s like a person who attempts to translate a book on physics when his competence in the language only suffices to ensure that he can order a meal in a restaurant, get directions to the airport, and distinguish between the ladies’ room and the men’s room.
In the case of board channeling with a group, these factors become all important. The work of gathering material together that is related to a given subject, analyzing it, understanding that part of it was being translated at a stage when language competence was minimal, is the greatest part of the work we have had to do with the Cs material. And it is very likely for that precise reason, because we know the conditions under which we are working, and understand the task before us, that we are the ones receiving the material, and are charged with its conservation. If someone else were actually more capable of the task, it is a certainty that they would be receiving the material. We find, again and again, that the critics who have received no material, who have no context in which to evaluate it, and who most certainly have no experience and have not spent years studying the language, seem to be the most vocal in their criticisms. Their comprehension of the material and their understanding of the task at hand is equivalent to the mental capacity of a person who would accept a computer translation of French poetry into English and believe that it was entirely adequate.
The fact is, machine translation researchers haven’t had a whole lot of success with programming a machine to produce a good translation without human assistance. In the same way, it is likely impossible to produce channeled material of any usable quality without full consideration for the competing forces as well as the application of reason in dealing with them. Without application of knowledge and direct, rapid feedback, the material that will be produced will be about equivalent to a machine translation of a technical text. And if the reader has read any of these kinds of things, they will surely know how funny some of them can be.
As Prof. Robinson points out, in the end, those machine translation systems that do work are, effectively, cyborg translation systems: they all require a human-machine interface.
The point I am trying to make is that by the use of prosthetics, we are in a position to employ an algorithm that includes reason and feedback! According to Prof. Robinson, translators must be trained; they must not only know the other language, they must know “how to regulate the degree of fidelity with the source text, how to tell what degree and type of fidelity is appropriate in specific use contexts, how to receive and deliver translations, how to find help with terminology, and so on.” All of this suggests a long period of training and preparation, study, analysis, and correcting those translations done when competence was insufficient.
Adapting Prof. Robinson’s ideas to the subject at hand, it seems that a translator-channel is someone who has studied these things, who knows these things, and who, most importantly, governs their channeling-translating behavior in terms of this knowledge. This knowledge is ideological. It is controlled by cosmic ideological norms. To know, via reason, what those cosmic norms prescribe and act upon them is to submit the work to the intent of the original author.
If you want to become a translator-channel, you must submit to the translator’s role of learning the language in an expert way; you must submit to being directed by what the cosmic ideological norms inform you is the true spirit of the source author, and to channel that spirit into the target language, constantly utilizing research and reason in the rapid feedback loop.
For the period of training, of learning the cosmic language in an expert way, the use of a board-type instrument combined with long study and analysis of the material is essential. It is a prosthetic device that allows constant feedback between the algorithm of machine translation of the subconscious/unconscious, and the human interface of the conscious mind which must constantly employ reason for tuning. This is possible only with a board due to the fact that the channel is using both the conscious bypass for reception, while at the same time is able to maintain constant conscious integrity. By being, at all times, in full possession of their own mind and having the ability to observe, control and direct acceptance or rejection of any material or sensation at any time, reason is brought in as part of the algorithm.
Of course, as we have seen, the problem is compounded by the consideration of the effect of conflicting forces at higher levels and how they can and do utilize their human tools in our reality. This brings us back to the human dynamics themselves, the expressions of the battle between the forces of Darkness and Light.
At this point, we need to briefly visit one of the side issues between Frank and the previously mentioned individual, V** which demonstrates part of the problem. As I already mentioned, I had the idea that positive experiences in his interactions with people would reframe his view of the world, strengthen his will and potential toward serving others, and get him off the suicide rants that were draining me almost daily. With my struggles to recover from the accident consisting of therapy three days a week, five very active children, a house to run, all the transcribing and research on the subjects the Cs had covered, I was running out of energy and the demands made on me by Frank were becoming insupportable even if I refused to admit it.
For the most part, he seemed to be entirely oblivious to the effect he was having on me, but I continued to excuse it because he said all the right things about his aspirations for “doing good” or “helping others” or whatever. Besides, he had said he was a higher spiritual being so often, and had certainly demonstrated time and again that he was so different from most people, that I had come to think that it may very possibly be true. And that meant, of course, that it was doubly important for me to help such a being adjust to life in this reality where everything was so extremely difficult for Frank.
On New Year’s Eve of 1994/95, we had our standard New Year gathering in spite of the fact that I was trying to recover from the accident. I couldn’t disappoint all the people who had been planning on attending no matter how bad I felt, and the children all agreed to help with getting the house ready and managing the affair. There were about 20 people in attendance, and we decided to have a session so that the Cassiopaeans could “attend the celebration” as well. It was a festive occasion, and Frank, as the center of attention, was having a great time. I was very pleased to see it, since the past few months had been a truly dreadful series of his episodes.
Everybody took turns at the board, and at one point, it was Frank and two other men, and the planchette kept flying around faster than anyone could keep up with. Nothing that was especially “Cassiopaean” was said, and Frank became more and more expansive as the guests oohed and aaahed over his abilities as a channel. Everybody except V**. At one point she noted rather sarcastically that a comment the Cs made was strangely similar to a remark that Frank had made to her not too many days before. I jumped immediately to his defense because I most definitely did not want anything to take away from his experience of being positively received by others.
January 1, 1995
Q: (V) That kind of smacks of Frank’s “When did you ever see this in Half-Moon Bay, V**?” (L) Where do you think Frank is getting it from? (V) Aren’t we all being enlightened? (T) Is this …
A: Frank is channel. Others are grooving rapidly.
Q: (T) Others of us?
A: Yes. Forming conduit.
Terry had been carefully examining the material in the previous weeks since he and Jan had become regular members of the group. He was certain, based on the passages I have already quoted, as well as on-the-scene observation, that Frank was not the channel in the sense that Frank claimed. In the above excerpt, the reader will also note that Terry started to ask a question about this, and was interrupted by the clear statement that “Frank is channel. Others are grooving rapidly.”
The fact that this contradicted previous remarks that had been made under more controlled or balanced circumstances than a New Year’s Eve party where half the people were well on the road to inebriation was not lost on me, but I was so desperate for Frank to have some feeling of self-esteem about something – anything – that I allowed it to pass without comment. For all I knew, it was true. It was most certainly true that the speed and ease of transmission was very good with Frank present.
We also notice in the above excerpt that V** had to be ridiculed for her lack of belief in Frank as the channel. Nevertheless, she had seen something, and it wouldn’t go away.
The day following the New Year’s Party, you would think that, after his triumphant display and reception, Frank would have been exultant. But not so. Obviously, V**’s remark had embarrassed him and he launched yet again into a painful diatribe about his sufferings and how unfair the world was, and how he was simply too good to continue to exist within it. I persuaded him that we ought to talk to the Cs about it. I simply couldn’t understand, if Frank was the channel, as had been unequivocally declared the previous night, and if he was constantly channeling the Cassiopaeans, as he was now claiming, why he could not access the information that would assist him in dealing with all the issues that he dumped on me with such agonizing regularity.
January 2, 1995
Q: (L) Have you been listening to Frank talk about his woes and miseries?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What do you have in response to his woes and miseries, since he is the primary channel, it seems to me that it ought to behoove you to give him some kind of a word on this matter …
A: Open.
Q: (L) What do you mean it is open? Is he going to …
A: Is under attack, as previously described.
Q: (L) Well, would it not behoove him to not respond negatively in thought, word or deed and to take care of business as best he can and trust that it will all work out? Because, by becoming all discombobulated, he is giving off negative energy …
A: His methods accomplish the task.
Q: (L) So, in other words, it is alright for him to get all emotionally wrought up and to spout off all these violently …
A: That repels attacking forces because they thrive upon blasé passivity.
Q: (L) Well, we are not talking about passivity here. Are you sure you are a Cassiopaean? It sounds to me like you are saying he ought to be giving off … I think we are pulling in Lizzies because of your negativity …
A: Incorrect, you have your “way” of repelling attack, and Frank has his.
Q: (L) Well I just don’t see how a whole bunch of negative energy in thought and word can repel beings who thrive on negative energy. I mean, they should be just rolling in joy that they are making him so miserable that he has to carry on that way which then makes me miserable.
A: Not miserable when repelling.
Q: (L) Well, then, the problem here is that when he does this, everybody else he does it around, it makes them miserable, so, what’s the deal here?
A: Subjective, your methods can cause perception of upset too.
Q: (L) Yes, I know this, but I am working on being totally unmoved by attack, isn’t that the whole point here?
A: If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.
Q: (L) So, I should continue, when I get upset or attacked, to just rave and rant and yell and scream and carry on?
A: You don’t, you attack back, externally. Frank attacks back internally. The external manifestation is merely overflow and harmless if recognized correctly.
Q: (L) My understanding is that service-to-others involves complete lack of concern for self. Therefore, the objective is to have complete lack of concern for self, therefore one would be in such a state of lack of concern for self that when one feels oneself to be under attack, so to speak, or being baited or jabbed, one would simply utterly and entirely disregard this and continue on in a peaceful way. Now, am I misapprehending this in some way?
A: Not misapprehending, misinterpreting.
Q: (L) So, I misinterpret Frank’s lack of regard for my feelings because he spouts off and upsets me … that’s really a service-to-others activity and it is only my subjectivity that makes me get upset, therefore, I should eliminate my subjectivity as a service to him so that he can continue to spew off and therefore not upset me, is that what we are getting at here?
A: Off base.
Q: (L) Well, that is what you are saying.
A: That’s what you want to believe we are saying, but we are not we are saying all should strive to be objective.
Q: (L) Well, I don’t think it is being objective for every little sling and arrow of misfortune to throw somebody into a tailspin. I think part of the whole process is to learn how to go smoothly through all this stuff. And, what you are saying here is don’t worry about going through stuff, just dump …
A: You are all learning, including Frank.
Q: (L) Well, let’s drop it … I want to ask: the other night Frank read my palm and gave me several bits of information. When he reads palms does he direct channel this information?
A: Some.
Q: (L) Where does the other information come from when he is reading palms?
A: Varied.
I had a powerful sensation of unease about this session, though I couldn’t put my finger on it. The reader will note that even though the Cs remarks seem to be merely a defense of Frank’s extreme, virulent negativity, they were delivering a deep message about him! Nobody with any grasp of the principles of STS and STO could possibly construe the answers about Frank to be describing an STO individual. From the point of view of describing the STS reality, the answers were exactly correct! It was, indeed, a description of the STS mode of handling things, and the Cs were, indeed, communicating the message that this was Frank’s path, though I was too dense to see it at the time.
I then shifted the line of questioning to Frank’s palm-reading talents, since I was beginning to formulate the idea that he was merely downloading, and that his palm reading had nothing to do with reading palms, but with the fact that he could connect to the individual and more or less act as a speaker to their radio receiver, and that this was the correct interpretation of his function. In other words, his activity at the board was exactly similar to his activity when reading palms which was, in fact, his most amazing talent.
After the session above, and my sense of unease about it, I sat down with Frank and went over many of these clues about the channeling with him, pointing out the discrepancies in his own view, and what the Cassiopaeans had said, and how I thought the phenomenon actually operated. I also made it pretty clear that I was becoming exhausted carrying the load of my own life, and his inability to adjust to this reality as well. I urged him to make more positive efforts, to think about the many positive experiences he had had, and to try to help me by helping himself. I pointed out how much work I was doing, and how little he was doing, and that if we continued on this way, I would soon run out of gas and then nothing would get done. Terry and Jan added their input to the situation, and it seemed that, with their presence, Frank stabilized somewhat.
We knew that he had a problem with “dark forces” battling for control of his mind, and I pointed out that this was obvious evidence that he was a higher spiritual being otherwise they wouldn’t be fighting so hard to take over his mind. With this encouragement, he appeared to renew his commitment to fighting them in a more productive way.
The sessions themselves reflected this temporary defeat of the dark forces, producing material of much greater clarity and validity.
January 11, 1995
Q: (S) Why are you choosing Laura and Frank to transmit this information?
A: Because balancing fields are correct. […]
Q: (B) Is this channeling going to go beyond the primitive method of one letter at a time, or is it going to go into the method of writing or typing or direct channeling consciously or unconsciously?
A: Can now, less danger of corruption through this method.
In retrospect, the remark about balancing fields being correct is rather curious if balance means half STS and half STO. There is also the possibility that this remark reflected the presence of Terry as a member of the group, as well as the fact that I had taken steps against Frank’s continued manipulations. I was also becoming far more vigilant about potential corruption, taking greater care with framing my questions, and just generally employing reason and perspicacity in the feed-back loop.
At this point, things took an interesting turn. Tom French entered the picture. As I have written elsewhere, the story goes like this:
Back in 1995 I gave a little talk to the Clearwater, FL, MUFON group (was invited, did not solicit them) and, in the audience, was a St. Pete Times journalist, Thomas French, who was, apparently, quite taken with both myself and what I had to say. He was looking for something “new and different” to write about, and I just sort of “fit the bill.” As he described it to me, he was “falling asleep” through all the speakers before me, and when I started to talk, he “woke up, for sure!” He approached me after the meeting and pretty much pleaded with me to give him an appointment to talk to me.
I was extremely reluctant, as you might guess, knowing what kind of treatment folks who have the courage to ask questions generally get from the mass media. He promised fervently that I would have some considerable degree of input into what was published – that he would certainly go over everything with me prior to publication, and work with me on any objections and concerns. He further urged me to read some of his previous work to get a feel for how he approaches his subjects. I did, and he seemed to have a deft and sensitive touch.
After some lengthy negotiations, I agreed to let him follow me around with the intent of my story being a single thread of a 7 part series that he thought might even ultimately be a book as well. There were 7 subjects: a homicide detective, a doctor/director of an AIDS clinic, a preschool for children from Cambodia and Laos who had been rescued out of the horrors of revolution and violence, a single mother raising children in a drug- and crime-infested slum, a fundamentalist preacher, myself, and Tom French, himself, who is the grandson of a Freudian psychoanalyst.
Presented in this manner, as a single thread among many, I thought it would be a unique approach as a part of a whole work whose subject was more or less good and evil in different contexts.
Now, what I did not write about in the above passage was the effect that this event had on Frank and why there was the need for “lengthy negotiations” and why I was so reluctant, and just a whole host of interesting little things behind the scenes.
Terry and Jan, being the editors and publishers of a regional MUFON journal, had been instrumental in arranging for the little talk at MUFON. Terry was pretty excited about the Cs’ take on the alien abduction issues because it had been an area in which he had invested a goodly amount of time in hard research and where he had access to materials through MUFON that were not ordinarily available to the average person. He knew that something was going on because the Cs seemed to know things that were not in the public domain. And so, even though it was a channeled source of information, he thought that the material itself stood on its own.
But, since MUFON is mostly a nuts and bolts organization, we discussed it and agreed that we would try to limit what was said to mostly nuts and bolts events, such as the sighting of the “Black Boomerangs,” the work with abductees, and with just an aside mention of the Cassiopaean contact. We had discussed privately who ought to be the one to give the little talk and I was elected because we all were aware that Frank, even though he had a nice speaking voice, tended to be long-winded and to get sidetracked on irrelevant issues. There was also some concern that he would turn people off with their perception that his manner was “superior.” We knew that he couldn’t help acting this way, but we also knew that a lot of people weren’t as willing as we were to accept Frank as he was.
Terry and Jan both gave a short talk each, and then introduced me. I only spoke briefly; pretty much giving a report of the UFO sighting I had experienced myself, and listing some of the things that had been revealed to me by abductees under hypnosis. It really wasn’t much of a talk, for sure, and the only time I had ever spoken in public before was a speech contest in high school (which I won, though I don’t, to this day, remember what I said), and I just took Jan’s advice and found a person to the front of the audience to “speak to,” and pretended I was talking to that person alone. Aside from some difficulty breathing, I survived.
When Jan introduced me to Tom French after the meeting, and he indicated he would like to interview me, I thought that it was the group he was interested in, and I was excited for the Cs. I said something about the fact that we were all together on Saturday nights, and that would be the best time, but he insisted that he would call me and make an appointment later in the week.
Frank was, as might be expected, utterly ecstatic that Tom was interested in writing about us. He just knew that this was the door to fame for the Cs, and him by virtue of association! He told me to be sure and call him the instant the interview was scheduled. He would take time off from work, if necessary to be there.
When Tom French finally called, he made it clear that it was me he wanted to talk to – alone. I was confused and felt just a little trapped because without Frank and Terry and Jan there, what was I going to say? I certainly couldn’t make any kind of commitments for them without them being there. I even outright suggested that they ought to be present, but Tom was firm. He wanted to talk to me, and not the group. Reluctantly, I agreed.
When I told Frank that the journalist didn’t want to talk to him – at least not yet – he became very sour and critical. He spent hours and hours giving me instructions on what I was supposed to say, how I was supposed to act, and the image I must convey to Mr. French in order to make him understand just how important the Cs (and Frank, by default) were to the world. Most of his comments were aimed at undermining my confidence. He described in great detail all of the people in my position who had been interviewed by journalists and that, without exception, they had been ridiculed and made to look like fools. He outlined exhaustively the detrimental effects this would have on me, my children, and life in general and specific. And of course, the problem was that I was just simply too naive to know how to talk to a journalist and not get taken in by conniving and trickery. All journalists were the scum of the earth, and I was going to get slimed.
By the time he was done, I was ready to call Tom French and cancel the whole thing. But, before I did, I wanted to discuss it with the Cs. In their responses, it is clear that Frank’s attempts to undermine my confidence were skewing the flow. He was emoting to the max!
March 7, 1995
Q: (L) OK, there is a journalist coming here on Friday who wants to talk to me …
A: Be open in your mind regarding the flow of the situation. You have a tendency to forget that all do not share your ability to expand consciousness so easily.
Q: (L) So, you mean he is going to be a real skeptic and I am going to have to deal with validation issues?
A: That is not the point. The audience will be looking for flaws in the materialistic reference point, so you must be cautious, lest you be made to look irrational.
Q: (L) Well, then I guess I better not talk about exorcisms or anything like that.
A: Balance.
Q: (L) OK. I will try to stay balanced. I don’t want to have to leave the country.
The fact is, no one but Frank has ever suggested that I discuss metaphysics and the paranormal in any kind of irrational way. No one but Frank has ever suggested that I forget the limitations of my audience. In fact, in retrospect, it is singularly curious that as long as he thought that he was going to be interviewed, he was extraordinarily enthusiastic about the idea. The instant he realized that it was me who was going to be interviewed, it became the Titanic of ideas: doomed to hit obstructions and sink unless I listened to Frank and managed to convince Tom of how the story ought to be told, which was, of course, as Frank wanted it to be told. After his hours and hours of indoctrination, Frank was finally assured that I would do as he wanted – that I would convince Tom of the importance of writing about the Cs group, and then, being reassured, he again became enthusiastic about the idea. I would be the public relations agent, and fame was only a hop, skip and a jump into the future!
At that first interview, Tom made it pretty clear that he was not particularly interested in the Cs material – or channeling in general, or Frank in specific – he was only interested in the fact that I was interested in investigating unusual things while still being a more or less ordinary wife and mother. I admit that I tried every way I could to turn his interest to the Cs, and by default, Frank. I failed. He had an idea, a plan, and I was part of it; but most definitely he was in charge of the execution and he was confident that he knew what he was doing, how to do it, and what his audience liked and expected. In the end, he turned out to be right. But that didn’t stop me from trying regularly and repeatedly to shift the attention to the Cs, and the group, and Frank.
Aside from the shocking effect of this revelation – that anyone would be interested in my very mundane life of struggle and worrying about how to make ends meet – my very first thought was, “Oh, no! How am I going to tell Frank?!” How was I going to tell Frank that Tom French was not really interested in the channeling except insofar as it was one of the tools I was using to pursue my interests while raising a family? Frank was so sure that this was going to be the opening of the door to fame and glory! Frank was so excited that now, people would finally see that he was a force to contend with – a channel – and one that had attracted the attention of a real journalist at that! After all his excitement, after all of his hours of instruction to me about how to conduct myself in the interview so as to place him and the work in the proper light, how was I going to tell him that Tom French was more interested in an overweight, stressed-out, middle-aged housewife, than in a brilliant, highly developed spiritual being who was channeling sixth density light beings such as himself? Frank had placed so much confidence in me to be able to turn Tom French’s attention toward him, and I had failed. It was going to be a negative experience, and I just couldn’t figure out how to tell him without triggering another series of suicidal rants.
Fortunately, I didn’t have to deal with the issue the next Saturday night, because that was the day we took the Cs out of the closet for a public test drive at another MUFON meeting. It wasn’t until the following session, on March 18, that I broke the news.
The reader who is astute will notice that, up to this point in time, we had sessions very frequently – usually more than once a week, but certainly every week. However, we now encounter an anomaly: there is a break here – the next session in the file listing is April 15, almost an entire month later. And therein hangs a most interesting tale.
Because Terry and Jan had brought a guest with them to the March 18 session, they left early. Frank wanted to do what he usually did after a session which was to hold court and discourse for several hours about whatever came to mind. The rest of us had endured this a sufficient number of times that, after awhile, we had a sort of unspoken agreement to not ask a question, because asking Frank a question meant that he would talk for at least another hour. These sessions drained everyone, and no matter how many times anyone hinted that they were exhausted, Frank would brush their need for sleep or getting home before the sun rose aside with an insouciance that was completely incomprehensible. I wrote it off to his arrested emotional development, that children don’t think about the needs of others, and since I had sort of “taken Frank to raise,” I tolerated it as best I could.
The only person who seemed to be able to stand up to Frank in these late night marathons was Terry. Jan and I would sit there like zombies throughout these dialogues, voicing our quiet requests for sleep at periodic intervals, ignored by Frank, and with Terry refusing to leave until Frank had, so it was often a standoff. And for the reader who thinks that it should have been a simple matter of just asking Frank to go home, believe me – I did that over and over again. His answer to that was, “Just five more minutes! You can give me that! After all, I have listened to your problems before!” And the five minutes would turn into an hour. If I reminded him of the instant when the five minutes was up, he would suggest that I was not being a very giving person if I was not willing to listen to him when he needed someone to talk to. Never mind that it occurred over and over and over again. After a certain number of these experiences, a discussion about it came up with Terry and Jan and they agreed to not leave without helping me to launch Frank out of whatever chair he had taken possession of, and maneuver him to the door.
But, on the night of the incident we are approaching, Terry and Jan had to leave right away to take their guest home. That left Frank, S** and myself, and I knew I was in for a long night. After my explanation about Tom French’s lack of interest in the Cs (which is still his position, as he stated just the other day), Frank’s mood was brittle and artificially bright. He was behaving in a way I had never seen before, and it seemed almost bellicose. I was tired and in no mood to sit up until 4 a.m. discussing just anything and I suggested repeatedly that I was exhausted and would like to close up the house and go to bed. S** was exchanging light banter with him, also suggesting that the two of them should leave so I could go to bed, and to this day I can’t remember exactly what was said, either by the two of them, or myself, other than that it was in the light banter mode of trying to convince Frank that it was time to say goodnight – a difficult task under any circumstances. I may have teasingly threatened to turn him into a pumpkin or something equally silly. The only thing I do remember is that what he said next was so completely out of context and out of proportion to anything that I had said, that I will never, ever forget it. He said: “Well how about this: I’m going to tell [your daughter] that [her father] isn’t her real father!”
Doesn’t sound like much, does it? But the point was that, of all the private things I had ever confided to Frank, this was the one thing that he knew would hurt and upset me the most. As a mother, I am a tigress, and it is a very dangerous thing for anyone to threaten to hurt one of my children, physically, mentally, emotionally, or any way.
As those who have read Amazing Grace know, my first child was adopted as a baby by my first husband after we married. She never knew any other father, and as far as the two of them were concerned, he was her father. Of course I realized that, at some time in her life, we would have to tell her the facts, but at that particular moment, it was not the time to do it and I had made the big mistake of confiding my concerns about it to Frank.
My daughter was, at that point, in the midst of a teen-age crisis. It wasn’t unusual or overly serious in any sense, but she is a very sensitive child, and was particularly vulnerable.
Yes, I am familiar with all of the pro and con arguments about how to handle such issues with children, and in the end, I believe that it is up to the judgment of the parent who, after all, knows the child best. And in this case, I had already clearly expressed the opinion that it was not the time to tell her; that it would be a disaster because her own emotional development was at a delicate stage, and Frank knew all of this. He had gone to great lengths to inquire about what was bothering me, to pretend sympathy and interest in order to extract the details from me. And here, now, for the first time, I clearly saw why Frank spent so much time pretending interest in certain people. Indeed, with his rant about being so spiritually superior, his interest was projected like a benediction of approval, but the now obvious true motivation was revealed: he pretended interest, not because he was really interested in the person, but because it was his agenda to extract information that he could later use to control the person. He was nothing more or less than a common con-man, and I use the term in its original meaning as one who gains the confidence of another in order to get something from them.
With stunning clarity, I saw that the embezzlement episode wasn’t just a glitch in his life, an act of desperation in a difficult situation. I saw that he had not, indeed, been taken advantage of by “Dane” or anyone. I saw him clearly and without blinders or wishful thinking. He was not a pitiful, damaged soul who needed to be helped; he was a predator. Nothing more, nothing less.
And he chose to try to control and hurt me for no reason other than the fact that he believed that I had turned Tom French off to the idea of writing about the group (mainly him), and focusing on me. And it was totally untrue. He was jealous, and felt that he was entitled to what he had not worked for, and if he couldn’t have it, he would hurt me through my child.
I was almost speechless. I calmly told him that I could not believe that he was such a low-life as to do something so despicable as to hurt my daughter. He stuttered out a protest that he had only been joking, that it just jumped out of his mouth and he didn’t mean it. And I replied that it was “out of the fullness of the heart that the mouth speaks.” Obviously he would never have said such a thing if he had not already thought about it in those terms. And then I told him (rather calmly, which surprised me), that he had better go home and do it now, and spend some time thinking about what he had just said.
He left.
S** and I sat there, speechless, and just looked at each other. Neither of us could believe this revelation of Frank’s viciousness and meanness. Finally, S** tried to smooth things over by saying that Frank obviously wasn’t himself. He was under stress. He was overtired. It was late. All kinds of excuses.
But nothing could excuse the fact that, in his anger at me, justified or not, Frank had expressed the idea that he would willingly harm an innocent person I loved because he knew that this was the most direct and vicious way of hurting me. And nothing is more despicable than that. The only kinds of people I have ever heard of who consider such actions to be acceptable, are the lowest criminal types who are even despised by other criminals. Felons who hurt children are often placed in solitary confinement in prisons because the other prisoners will try to kill them. Hurting a child to hurt the parent is an unspeakable act of cowardice and depravity.
In the days following this event, I was rather startled at the view of Frank that was opened to my mind. All of the aspects of Frank that I had been ascribing to the possibility that he was, truly, a higher spiritual being who was just having a battle with dark forces – and the battle was explainable because he was a higher spiritual being – were now perceived as simply expressions of a very narrow, selfish, conniving, manipulative, and fundamentally mean character. I could see nothing positive in him at all and I marveled that this was so.
I was not as aware of the chemistry of the brain then as I am now, and I was very curious about this effect. How could it be that the mind can shift so instantaneously from one perspective to another? How completely the light had changed on my perception of him, and all of the things I had formerly excused, shoved under the rug, giving a positive spin, or taken his word for, now appeared to me in an altogether different context. Had I really been wearing the proverbial rose-colored glasses all that time? Or was what I was thinking now the distorted view?
In retrospect, I realize that I was, in fact, having a serious lesson in how our thinking is controlled or clarified by our chemistry. As I now know, when a shock is received, or a threat of danger, the mind becomes acutely clear and lucid and what is becomes evident to the extent that every nuance of reality is exposed to view with a clarity that is stunning. I suppose that this is a condition of evolutionary advantage; the creature that cannot see clearly when in danger does not survive. And I suspect that the same is true whatever the soul orientation. Any individual, when shocked, will suddenly see who is and is not “like them,” and thus a danger to their existence.
Because I was so furious, I didn’t trust myself to speak to Frank. But I certainly had plenty I wanted to say. I decided to write a letter to him, since I was still too distraught to speak to him. I still have the notes of the quotes I used in this rather lengthy missive wherein I itemized his every flaw in excruciating detail, even pointing out that I could see his disdain for normal human relations as supreme selfishness. I realize now that I was hoping that Frank would respond by saying, “Indeed, I agree with all you wrote, and I am truly all those things, it was just a momentary lapse, please accept my apology,” and so forth. Among the quotes I included in my letter:
Master K’ung said: There are three sorts of friend that are profitable, and three sorts that are harmful. Friendship with the upright, with the true-to-death and with those who have knowledge is profitable. Friendship with the obsequious, friendship with those who are good at accommodating their principles, friendship with those who are clever at talk is harmful.
Confucius: People of superior refinement and of active disposition identify happiness with honour …
Aristotle: But to die to escape from poverty or love or anything painful is not the mark of a brave man, but rather of a coward; for it is softness to fly from what is troublesome, and such a man endures death not because it is noble, but because he is afraid.
Sir Thomas Malory: Ever will a coward show no mercy.
Confucius: To see what is right and not do it is cowardice.
Montaigne: Cowardice is the mother of cruelty.
From Emerson: Persons with character are as easy to spot as if they were a different color. Self-trust and the perception that virtue is enough is the essence of character. It is the natural tendency to defy falseness and wrong. It speaks the truth, and it is just, generous, hospitable, temperate, despises pettiness, and is scornful of being scorned. Character persists when the mood has passed in which the decision to act was made. Character displays undaunted boldness and a fortitude that does not wear down or out.
When the soul is not master of one’s reactions to the world, then that soul is everyone’s dupe. The person of character is not for sale. He does not ask to dine nicely and to sleep warm. He does not need plenty; he can lose with grace. Character is persistent. The person of character makes a choice based on honorable considerations and sticks with it and, no matter what, does not weakly try to reconcile itself with the world.
Most outstanding of all is the good humor and hilarity of the person of character. The great will not condescend to take anything seriously. The heroic soul is not common nor can the common be heroic. The person of character always does what he is afraid to do. Greatness ignores the opinions of others.
The person of character knows that he is born into a state of war and his own well-being requires that he should not go dancing for peace. Knowing this, he collects himself and neither defying nor dreading the thunder, he takes both his reputation and his own life in his hand, and, with perfect calm and politeness, dares the hangman and the mob by the absolute truth of his speech, and the correctness of his behavior. Toward all external evil, the person of character affirms his ability to cope single-handedly with an infinite army of enemies. To this military attitude of the soul we give the name of heroism.
Heroism is self-confidence which ignores the restraints of prudence, because of the natural energy and power of the belief that it can repair any harms it may suffer. The hero possesses a mind of such balance that nothing can shake his will. Pleasantly and merrily, he marches to the beat of his own drum no matter what disasters or dissolutions take place around him. He is in the world, but not of it. He does what he does because it is the thing to be done at the moment and he is present and capable of doing it. There is a quality in him that is negligent of expense, of health, of life, of danger, of hatred, of reproach, and knows that his will is higher and more excellent than all actual and all possible antagonists.
His victories are by demonstration of superiority. The most violent or conniving person learns that in this person there is resistance on which both impudence and terror are wasted. This resistance is faith in fact and right. The natural power of the heroic character is like light and heat, and all nature cooperates with it. The reason why we feel one man’s presence, and not another’s is as simple as gravity. Heroic characters are the conscience of the society to which they belong.
No change of circumstances can repair a defect of character. The heroic character does not accept the conventional opinions and practices. He is a nonconformist. Acquiescence to the establishment indicates lack of character which must see the house built before they can comprehend the plan.
There is a class of individuals which are endowed with character, heroism, insight and virtue. They are usually received with ill-will by the masses. No one can use common beliefs to understand these characters. They cannot be judged from glimpses. They need perspective, as a landscape. You cannot understand them by popular ethics nor by simple observation of their actions. It is said that He who confronts the gods knows heaven. This is the nature of the person of character.
In past times of violence, every person had many opportunities to prove his worth; therefore, every name that has emerged from the masses can teach us something of heroism, character, and manners. Personal force never goes out of fashion. Persons of valor become known and rise to their natural place. In any milieu, heroes and pirates are worth more than talkers and clerks.
The heroic character perpetuates good breeding. Good manners are a spontaneous fruit of the heroic character. The heroic character is a person of truth, master of his own actions, and expresses that mastery in his behavior, not in any manner dependent and servile either on persons, or opinions, or possessions.
People of character are an energetic class, full of courage and of attempts which intimidate their paler brethren. Being up to the demands of their very nature, they can out pray saints, out general veterans and outshine all courtesy. They are comfortable with pirates and scholars. Persons of character sit carelessly in their chairs and are too excellent to value any conditions.
Money is not essential to the aristocrat, which is the true class of those of heroic character. Society among aristocrats is mutually agreeable and stimulating. By swift consent, everything superfluous is dropped, everything graceful is renewed. Good manners are a formidable defense against the common people.
The manners of the aristocrat are aped by the commoners, but never understood.
Aristocrats never do as the common people do when following fashion. They understand that “fashion” is virtue gone to seed. Aristocrats are sowers, people of fashion are reapers.
Each person’s position in life depends on some symmetry in his inner makeup. A natural aristocrat will find his way to those of his own kind. Those of good breeding and personal superiority readily find each other. A person should not go where he cannot carry his whole sphere with him. A defect in manners or character is usually a defect in perceptions. In addition to personal force and perception, an aristocrat is also good natured, generous and obliging.
Times of heroism are generally times of terror, but the day never dawns in which this element is without value. Latent inner power is what we call Character, a reserved force which acts directly by presence, and without means. It is conceived of as a certain indemonstrable force, a Familiar of Genius, by whose impulses the hero is guided, but whose counsels he cannot impart. Character is of a stellar and indiminishable greatness.
I lambasted him up one side and down the other. I told him in no uncertain terms that, if what I had seen on the night of March 18 was the real Frank, then he was not any of those things that we had discussed so many times. I wanted the real Frank to please stand up. Tell me one way or another. And if you say one thing with your words, and behave another way in your actions, how can I believe what you say?
What happens after such a “seeing” is that the chemistry of the “shock” begins to dissipate, and the normal chemistry resumes, and the ability to see and think with such clarity recedes. I began to doubt what I had seen. I began to doubt my perceptions. The rose-colored glasses of giving the benefit of the doubt went back on, and my mind began to work on the problem of how to reconcile. Because, after all, if I wasn’t there to help Frank, to make a place in the world for him, who would do it?
As I said, at the time, I didn’t know how subtly our thinking can be controlled by our chemistry. I only knew that I wanted to find out if I was making a big mistake; was I misjudging Frank because of emotion? Was I being unfair? Shouldn’t I discuss it with others and discover if my thinking was askew? It was so shocking a thing to be going along one day thinking that a person was a higher spiritual being having trouble adjusting to the real world, and in a single instant, suddenly seeing everything completely differently.
Naturally, Terry and Jan and S** were anxious for Frank and me to reconcile. While they were very shocked by the turn of events, like all of us, they encouraged forgiveness and forgetting. And truthfully, I was beginning to believe that this was the proper course of action myself. After all, it is what we are raised to believe in. The “normal” chemicals began to take over, and being reminded by my friends of all the good times we had experienced, it was easy to begin to forget that moment of clarity.
But, meanwhile, just in case, we decided to continue the sessions without Frank even though we knew we would have to go through the tuning process again to some extent. These sessions were not included in the transcripts because they were, for the most part, about Frank (naturally). And even though they were not as smooth as we would have liked, having become very accustomed to fast paced dialogues with the Cs, it was clearly evident that the ability to make the same connection was present. And again, we were confirmed in our opinion that the Cs and Frank were not one and the same.
During the course of this experimental work, we received what I perceived to be a frightening message from the Cs telling us that there was grave danger around Frank and that agents of some kind were involved. It was difficult to determine from the responses if the danger came from Frank, or if the danger was to Frank. Because of the return of my rose-colored glasses, I decided that it was most likely that Frank was in danger, that he was being stalked and/or used by agents unknown, and that his very life was in peril.
Well, that was all it took to galvanize me! Even if I was mad at him, I had spent so much time and effort keeping him alive that I wasn’t going to let anything happen to him now! I asked S** to deliver a message to him to call me since he no longer had a telephone where I could leave a message. I heard nothing for several days, and my concern mounted by the hour. I was practically frantic to make sure Frank was okay. Finally, I asked S** if she had actually even talked to Frank and after some very confusing exchanges, Frank arrived at my door and was welcomed like the Prodigal Son.
We all sat around and discussed the matter at some length, the end result being that Frank noted that S** had been the only one present at the time he acted strange. He then claimed that he had, indeed, sent a conciliatory message to me through S**. This was troubling, because I had never received it. Frank’s conclusion was that there was some controlling influence there, and the implication was, of course, that S** was to blame for the problem!
I didn’t see how it could be possible, but I wasn’t in the mood to doubt Frank now! S** was such a simple soul, always helping out and with a truly generous and giving nature. But there it was. I had sent a message, she had not delivered it as I sent it (or so Frank claimed), and he had sent one back (he claimed), that had not been delivered to me, of that I was certain. I was really becoming confused and uncertain. Just what was going on here? And naturally, we decided to ask the Cs.
April 15, 1995 – Frank, Laura, Terry and Jan
Q: (T) Good evening. Who do we have with us tonight?
A: Good evening!
Q: (L) Who do we have with us tonight?
A: Shoura.
Q: (L) And where are you from?
A: Not from, but you know as Cassiopaea.
Q: (L) Alright. Long time, no see!
A: Oh yes!
Q: (L) Did we communicate with you when it was just S**, Terry and Jan and I?
A: Fragmented.
Q: (L) But it was you, fragmented?
A: Some.
Q: (T) Not all of it was you?
A: Like conflicting signals on radio.
Q: (T) Should we continue working with changing people on the board so that we can all work on the channel so that the channel will open for all of us?
A: Vague.
Q: (J) Do you recommend switching people on the board?
A: We recommend that which you feel is best.
Q: (L) Now, the pressing question: What has been happening to us?
A: We have warned repeatedly of attack!!
Q: (L) Was this ordeal we have just gone through an attack?
A: Of course.
Q: (L) What made us vulnerable?
A: Your work.
Q: (L) Was there anything having to do with any one of us contributing to this vulnerability?
A: Open.
Q: (J) Was anything that happened conscious with anyone?
A: Is this your inquiry?
Q: (J) Yes.
A: Then answer from within.
Q: (L) That doesn’t help. A** said that, even as a kid, she could have straightened it out between us without even trying. (J) Well, maybe S** just wasn’t cut out to be a mediator.
A: Okay.
Q: (J) What were the intentions of this attack?
A: S** is insecure. Have you not noticed?
Q: (J) Yeah. (T) But insecurity is not a problem as far as that goes.
A: Problems are according to circumstances.
Q: (L) Well, that still leaves us in a bit of a quandary …
A: Do you employ a maid to fly a passenger jet?
Q: (T) So, the wrong person was doing the wrong thing. It wasn’t her fault.
A: But relaying of messages is sensitive issue.
Q: (J) There is a clue there. Who indicated that she should relay messages between you and Frank? (L) Nobody, I guess.
A: Was spur of moment “flow.” Plot course carefully, so as not to run aground.
Q: (T) We are doing Chinese fortune cookies tonight. (L) Well, I still feel a little bit hurt that everything I said was simply not understood and that the things Frank said, had they been conveyed exactly as he said them, would have brought the problem to an immediate halt. What should have been repeated was not and what should not have been repeated was.
A: True. Attack is most purposeful! Watch all portholes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, S** may have been an instrument of attack unwittingly?
A: Close. […]
Q: (L) The other night when we were working without Frank, we got some information that indicated that Frank was in danger via the government. Is that true or was that true?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) What is the source of this danger?
A: Source?
Q: (L) I mean like, the IRS, the FBI, the CIA, or what?
A: Not initialed as such.
Q: (L) Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?
A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What can be done for shielding?
A: Knowledge input on a continuous basis.
Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?
A: All and other.
Q: (L) A specific other?
A: Networking of information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with.”
Q: (T) Which two have experienced similar types of attack?
A: Up to you to identify for learning.
Q: (J) I’m pretty sure I’m one of them because I have been way down mentally and emotionally. (T) Is Jan one of the two? (J) I know I’m one.
A: Suicidal thoughts?
Q: (L) Have you had suicidal thoughts? (J) No. (T) Not me. (F) I have had them constantly. (T) Laura, did you? (L) I was pretty damn low. I wasn’t contemplating suicide, I was just thinking how nice it would be if we could just turn out the lights and end the illusion. (T) OK, so we have identified the two, you and Frank. (L) So, in other words Jan, it is going to get worse. (F) Didn’t they say two others? (L) I guess they are saying that a similar thing can happen. (T) If we don’t work together on this, we are going to lose the whole thing. (J) OK, ask about the card reading Terry did tonight? (T) Was it accurate?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Was the reading referring to the same thing you are now referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and all we have to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?
A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means!
Q: (J) Is one of the reasons why this whole thing between Frank and Laura happened to show us that we could establish, albeit a very weak and very jumbled, connection with the channel without Frank’s presence? A sort of verification of the channel’s integrity. Was that one of the byproducts of this, or one of the purposes of it?
A: Byproduct is good way of putting it. Remember, all there is is lessons.
Q: (L) The attack was more internal in terms of doubt, not only of the channel and the information, but of the very foundations of existence. I mean, the realization that we may not be at the top of the food chain was shattering. (T) That snowballed on its own once the initial conflict was established. (J) Maybe the way to look at it is: yes, we went through all this crap, and you and Frank went through all this anguish, but maybe one good thing that came out of it, and maybe wasn’t intended, was the fact that yes, we were able to see that there is a channel separate and distinct from all of us. It is not dependent on any one of us to be present. Yes, we do need to have all of us together for optimum contact …
A: All are able to channel, but practice is required to establish the same extent of grooving but be aware of ramifications!
Q: (L) What ramifications?
A: Observe Frank.
Q: (T) We are observing you. (J) Yeah. And? (F) I think what they mean is, when you can channel as I can, because I channel almost continuously, this has a good side and a bad side. Now, the good side you know. The bad side you don’t know. The bad side is very hard to live with. I cannot even describe the state of my mind. (L) I would like to have practical advice and guidance on what we can do to fend off or prevent psychic attack. We know that knowledge and awareness is important, but any words of wisdom or advance things that can be given would be appreciated.
A: Daily prayer helps. […]
Q: (L) Is there anything you wish to tell us before we shut down for the night?
A: Reread information given about attack warning and discuss amongst yourselves for strengthening of learning and knowledge base for purposes of protection and ultimately, survival!!
The fact that the responses relating to S** did not conform to Frank’s opinion of the situation, suggests that the session was uncorrupted by his emotional input. Even if we were discussing human relations which was a subject so often skewed by his emotional prejudices, he was contrite and subdued. What went right over our heads, however, was the fact that the Cs gave us the answer right there and then! They said: “Attack is most purposeful! Watch all portholes. All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with.” All are able to channel, but practice is required to establish the same extent of grooving but be aware of ramifications! Observe Frank.”
Frank had, of course, quickly identified himself as having had suicidal thoughts. But in retrospect, the context of episodes in the past, as it applied to myself, was a very long time in the past – many years previous. And in fact, as we later discussed this, it turned out that very much the same type of attack in the past had occurred to Terry. In point of fact, Frank’s claims to be suicidal were, for the most part, if not entirely, a means of controlling others.
“Attack is most purposeful. Watch all portholes. Practice is required to establish the same extent of grooving. Be aware of ramifications. Observe Frank.”
And we didn’t even see it.
It’s difficult to describe the state of my mind after the return of the “Prodigal Son.” All of my do-gooder programs had been effectively activated in a powerful way in by the perception of physical and spiritual danger to Frank. My rescue program, mother program and save-the-lost-and-heal-the-wounded program – all were on hyperdrive with one object: Frank. His plight had been so eloquently described when he said: “I think what they mean is, when you can channel as I can, because I channel almost continuously, this has a good side and a bad side. Now, the good side you know. The bad side you don’t know. The bad side is very hard to live with. I cannot even describe the state of my mind.”
I realized at this point that what had been done to Frank as an infant and a young child, was that he had been programmed or engineered to be a channel, in the sense of being almost empty inside of anything that was essentially “him.” It was almost as though he had been drilled through, like with a well digging machine, cored out and reconfigured. I began to understand that, in this sense, he was “the channel,” in the same way a pipe that is sunk into the ground is a channel for the water or oil to be extracted. I also understood that it depended entirely upon who or what he was connected to, as to what was drawn through this pipeline.
In a sense, my perception of him was that he was as helpless in his dilemma as a newborn baby.
My idea at this point was rather simple: obviously, Frank very desperately needed to be connected to me in order for the Cassiopaeans to be the well from which the information he channeled was drawn, and it was crucial to his development and survival that this connection be sustained and further developed. I had the idea that, just as a pipe is made wet by what passes through it, the more he channeled the Cassiopaeans, the more saturated he would be with the STO messages, and the more likely it was that the healing of his own soul would take place. His free will had been so violated, so decimated, that the only way to rebuild it, to restore it, to restore his soul, so to speak, was to channel with me as regularly and as often as possible. Just as a mother feeds a baby so he will grow, I committed to “feeding” Frank so that he would grow into the great soul that I was sure he was capable of becoming. Whether or not he had been a higher spiritual being who had become helpless by agreeing to be born, and who had afterward been attacked and manipulated by dark forces to create this condition, didn’t really matter. I was committed anew to “helping” him. And I was committed with full heart and soul and mind.
Frank, on the other hand, having been exposed as being something other than the higher spiritual being that he had so repeatedly claimed – having acted in a way that belied such a claim and in fact, having given evidence of very dark self – had to reorganize himself as well.
Now, it would be rather easy for me to just write it all off as having been victimized by a conscious con-man, and that is always a possibility. But the fact seems to be that in human dynamics, each participant in a drama is, at some level, firmly convinced of the rightness of their view and perceptions. The test is, of course, how closely their views align with factual data and observable evidence.
As we have just seen, chemistry can play a huge role in our perceptions. What we view for all of our lives in a certain way, can be changed in an instant of soul-shock. And most often, after the shock wears off, the programmed or accepted view, gradually displaces the clarity and we go back to sleep in our illusions and narcissistic constructs of reality. This is why the Cassiopaeans repeatedly encourage us to dig, dig, dig for facts and evidence. Don’t listen to opinions; check the facts.
We have explored, to some extent, the idea that the psychological make-up of an individual can be the real reason they do something or behave a certain way. But beyond that, what we were in the process of learning from the Cassiopaeans was that this so-called psychological dynamic was merely the tool with which battles between forces are fought in hyperdimensional realities. The significance of this point cannot be overemphasized, because until the individual fully grasps the idea that their very thoughts, emotions, and perceptions can be augmented by external forces – which can include brain chemical alteration – and how drastically this can change their perceptions, they have no possibility of developing the ability to truly act with free will.
As I have said before: any woman who has experienced PMS knows how changes in chemistry can so completely alter perception and thinking, that it is utterly terrifying to think that this might be the constant state in which we live: a bag of hormones and brain chemicals that keep us connected to the Matrix as food.
I had, of course, gone back to sleep in my narcissistic images of myself as the rescuer and do-gooder and healer of all wounds and mother to every lost child; images that had been inculcated into me from childhood, as the readers of Amazing Grace already know. That’s the real reason of the psychological substrate. The theological reason was, of course, that, utilizing such programs as the tool, I was most definitely set up to be energetic food.
The question arises at this moment as to why I would refer to such seemingly positive self-images as narcissistic? Aren’t people who rescue and do good and heal and function as mothers pursuing paths of service to others?
Indeed they are. The difference is: are they functioning from a position of truth or wishful thinking? And this is, ultimately, the difference that I was about to learn, even though it took me another year to get even the first phase of the lesson under my belt. It’s an ongoing project!
All of us here in this reality are, to one extent or another, predators or prey. The husband who is energetically fed upon by his employer cannot refuse because he would lose his job. So, he goes home and feeds on his wife. The wife is afraid to refuse because the husband might leave and she is helpless and must care for her children. But she is deficient in energy and she must get it somewhere, so she manipulatively indulges her children so that they will give her praise and love, and thereby feeds on them. She may also abuse them psychologically to feed on their suffering. She doesn’t see that she is feeding on them; she is behaving mechanically according to the programs of the Matrix which keep the whole machine complex running to constantly siphon energy off and pass it up the line to – well, to whom?
Our fourth density STS hyperdimensional Controllers of the Matrix, perhaps?
It is in this context that the theological reality becomes all important. Aside from just thinking or talking about the psychological substrate, the tools of the battle, we need to see the clear distinction between the forces. As above, so below.
In an STS hierarchy, as described above, there is an ultimate feeder, or recipient of the energy that is gathered and passed along through the interstitial spaces of our reality – the threads of consciousness that connect us to our family, friends and associates. In the case of the STS reality, this is a Thought Center of Non-being which is where consciousness goes that has been ultimately matterized. Because, consciousness that is being drawn to the idea of non-being cannot actually become nothing, or die, but it can go to sleep for a very, very, very long time. In short, consciousness that is subsumed into the STS hierarchy ultimately becomes primal matter.
In some philosophies, this truth that a certain pathway will lead to matterization is openly taught – at least in the inner circles. To achieve this “oneness of eternal sleep” is the primary objective. Exercises and tasks of almost superhuman darkness are undertaken in order to be granted this eternal rest. The problem, however, as the higher teachers of this pathway very well know, is that in order for this oneness to be achieved, as they desire it, all else in the cosmos must be brought to a halt – the eternal expansion and cycling of creation must be ended – God must be killed, or at least effectively put back to sleep.
What this means is that the idea of “being” must be destroyed. Like a snake that attempts to swallow its tail in order to end its own existence, the STS pathway seeks to swallow all of creation into the sleep of non-being.
When we wake up and realize that we feed on those below us, and are in turn fed upon by those “above us,” we naturally want to ask what is the alternative? And the Cassiopaeans have presented an alternative: STO, something that is hardly conceivable in our reality, a circle of symbiotic giving and support where no violation of free will occurs, and where the energy commutates and expands for All, instead of disappearing along an ever-narrowing, one-way street to the top of an STS pyramid.
It is in the gaining of knowledge about how our archetypal images are twisted so that we are manipulated to feed the STS pyramidal hierarchy that we have the chance to become free of it and join the STO circle of commutating, shared energy and joyful creation.
In other words, when we are locked in a dynamic that is fundamentally STS, there is no equal sharing of energy. One or the other participants is the predator and one or the other is the energy food, and the energy of both is being drawn off to some higher being who is manipulating the situation for this very purpose. And it is not always easy to discern this unless we are fully aware of the theological reality and learn to read the very small signs. The Matrix is cleverly designed to conceal itself, but as all mechanical systems, it is not perfect. With careful attention and awareness, the man behind the curtain can be seen.
What this means is that when my images of positive orientation were activated, they were activated narcissistically so that I thought I was doing all those good things for another soul that was truly asking. But the truth was, that other soul was not asking; I was being manipulated to give my energy of helping, mothering, healing, doing good, to the STS dynamic which ultimately seeks to kill all of those things by draining the energy of those who are configured that way. And I was being tricked to do it by the activation of my illusions about how these things operate rather than keeping my eyes open to the truth that I had already seen.
Frank had also experienced a shock, I am sure. I can only speculate that he may have perceived the darkness within which was revealed by his behavior. There is altogether the possibility that he was so locked in his narcissistic image of himself as a higher spiritual being who was simply too good for this earth that even this revealing event could not penetrate that shell of illusion. What is certain is that he was at least aware that the members of the group, and probably society at large (at least those members of society who ascribe to truth, honor, courage, decency), would view his little lapse as a clue to a hidden persona of darkness. There had been a serious crack in the image he presented of himself, and it had almost resulted in the complete loss of his ostensible quarry.
What was his quarry? What did Frank want?
Well, the evidence of the many clues scattered throughout the text, as well as the observations of the other participants and witnesses, was that his psychological make-up drove him to seek fame and fortune – with a strange twist: he felt he was entitled to it, that he deserved it and ought to have it, but had no intention of doing any work for it. He was, essentially, a coat-tail rider. But the Cs have said that there was another reason: “He was programmed for the specific purpose of “downloading” from you secrets coded into you before birth of your present body. He failed because you were incorruptible. He is now charged with the mission, in concert with Vincent Bridges, of destroying your ability to accomplish your mission.”
That, then, becomes the theological reason behind the real reason.
But, as we have noted, there was another dynamic at work that the Cs have identified:
Q: Was that the reason that you encouraged Terry and Jan to be present? To counterbalance Frank’s negative energy?
A: Yes. Frank would have killed you with his STS draining rather soon otherwise.
And here is where we arrive at the crux of the matter: Because of my lack of awareness of the theological reality, I had fallen victim to what is called in Jungian psychology the “feminine vampire.” This designation is not really gender oriented in the sense that a woman preys on a man. The archetype is that of the person of power or force or energy who is victimized or fed upon by an individual who seems to be completely disempowered. Allow me to quote from Jungian psychologist, Barbara E. Hort’s book Unholy Hungers, keeping in mind that the dynamic she describes is the real reason, and behind it is the theological reason. She tells the story in terms of a knight rescuing a damsel in distress, but more often than not, in our world, the opposite is true: women rescue men due to their mother instinct which is precisely the same dance.
It may seem incomprehensible that a powerful person could be victimized by a psychic vampire who seems to be completely disempowered. Yet there are few lures more potent for a powerful champion than rescuing a grateful waif in distress. How exciting it is to save someone from the jaws of tragedy, particularly if the recipient is adoring and appreciative! You, the noble champion, journey alone down the desolate nighttime road, when there appears by the wayside a sweet little mist who is weeping in loneliness and alluring despair. Ah, you think, here is a perfect chance for me to put my sword to its proper use! Here is someone to save! And how charmingly pathetic she is! Perhaps there will be some love for me at the end of the heroic rescue!
Your sword flashes up, and you dash to her aid – slaying all foes, fixing all woes, and paying each bill that she hands you. You parry and thrust, parry and thrust, cutting off hundreds of dragon heads, past the point of exhaustion, for two adoring eyes are watching and their owner must not be let down. Onward you march, beyond fatigue, beyond all means, until your every resource is spent. But still you fight on, despite your depletion, to rescue the sweet, helpless mist, for how could you let down the poor little thing? Whatever would become of the helpless mist without you and your sword to defend her against the cruel world?
The dance between an empowered masculine victim and the feminine vampire who hides under the veil of vulnerability may be the most insidious vampiric duet of them all. So many of us have gone to our physical, financial and spiritual graves never realizing that we have been duped, never relenting in the deployment of our swords, never stanching the flow of our blood, and all for the sake of a pitiable feminine vampire? How can we be so powerful and yet so blind?
But really, our gullibility is no mystery. When we embark on the path of the Champion, when we don the armor of empowerment, we expect our vampires also to be draped in the cloak of power. We never suspect that a vampire might veil itself in the guise of weakness and vulnerability. What’s more, when the Champion Archetype is active in our psyche, we strive to serve those less fortunate than ourselves, so when we come upon the sweet mist by the side of the road, is it any wonder that we bleed on its behalf? What a cruel ruse this is, for in fact the mist is a vampire who will feed on us by exploiting the very nobility of which our Championhood is based.
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In the beginning, the man was happy to rescue the pathetic damsel, who, coincidentally, had just one or two more little traumas that she hoped he would be kind enough to rectify. Thus began a long series of heroic rescues, each one of which was appreciated by the woman only long enough to resuscitate her hero before she needed his next valorous deed. …
She is Spider – the incarnation of the Terrible Mother as a devouring weaver of fate and bringer of inevitable death. …
… In A Dictionary of Symbols, J.E. Cirlot interprets the image of the spider at the center of her web to represent the Gnostic notion that “evil is not only at the periphery of the Wheel of Transformation but in its very centre – that is, in its Origin.” The image of the Great Spider on her web is symbolically synonymous with another ancient image of the negative Feminine, one that is found at the center of many web-like labyrinths. The image is that of the Gorgon Medusa …
Why is it so difficult for us, even when we are empowered, to kill the feminine vampire? One reason may be that the ethic of nobility asserts that the strong should protect the weak. …
In all cases, the empowered victim perceives that life has bestowed on him or her some opportunities that the feminine vampire never had. For the pitiful vampire’s sake, the victim strives to excel in ways that are not personally meaningful, because he is made to feel that turning aside to more meaningful pursuits is a deadly abandonment of the poor, disadvantaged vampire. Clearly, this vampiric duet is insidious and pervasive which is why a model for its deactivation is very important to our psychic health. …
Because the archetype of Medusa, like that of the feminine vampire, is as complicated as it is dangerous … the creature that best embodies the inner nature of the feminine vampire is the needle-fanged, cold-blooded, venom-spewing serpent. …
… The Medusan vampire slithers up in silent hunger behind her unwary prey, freezing her target with her stare (pitifulness and wiles of the damsel in distress), and then sinks her fangs into the petrified victim, spitting out the venom of her embittered rage, and then leaves the lifeless body behind as she gathers her sinuous coils of deceptive lethargy and sniffs the air for the scent of hot blood, waiting for the next victim who will prolong her life … The Medusan vampire relies on snakelike subtlety to capture her prey. …
[The true hero] must be able to sense the Medusan viper who lurks under the veil of imploring vulnerability … note the term “sense” rather than “see.” The myth tells us that it is extremely dangerous to look directly on the truth of this entity, for the vision will immobilize and destroy us.
This means that the key to our approach to the Medusan vampire is to do it reflectively. If we have spent time in the company of someone who is a feminine vampire, we already have some Medusan behavior on which to reflect. By engaging in reflective exercises, we can safely bring the light of our consciousness to bear on the monster we wish to deactivate, without looking her full in the face and risking petrification [by the pitifulness of her projected situation]. … Have we been pulled by our compassion to give more to this pathetic being, who seemed to be suffering unfairly? [Have we felt guilt at the thought of abandoning her when the problems seemed too great? Has she induced guilt by claiming how worthless she is, so that you, fair champion, can assure her that she is not, indeed, worthless, but merely disadvantaged or in need of rescue?] If the answer to any of these questions is yes, then we are probably dealing with a feminine cvampire [a Medusa who is slowly turning you to stone].
If [this individual] evokes your compassion, remember that Medusa’s story was pathetic, too, but that did not lessen her dangerousness. Whenever we feel the itch of the pity for a feminine vampire, we would be wise to recall the image of Perseus as he backed slowly toward the Gorgon … we must hold the image of Perseus close to our hearts and remember that if he had dropped his guard, let his attention waver for a moment, or glanced backward out of guilt or compassion, then we would have been transformed into yet another of Medusa’s yard ornaments.
An awareness of the feminine vampire’s nature is critical to her deactivation, but it is not sufficient. In the stories of Perseus and Oedipus, the call of greater deeds and a higher good kept the champion from yielding to the ruses of the feminine vampire. (Hort 1996, 113–114, 134, 136–137, 143–144, 146–147)
Where Frank was concerned, I admitted him into my life out of courtesy and compassion. He was so desperately lonely and “different” and in need of help, companionship, acceptance and true self-esteem. He used all the words at his command to produce the belief in me that he was an empathic soul, striving for resonance with other souls. He was very interested in me and my life, and I perceived this as part of his seeking of resonance.
At first, all of his questions about me and my experiences seemed to be sincere interest, and I answered them and indulged his need for information. It is also true that, at the beginning I experienced surges of uneasy suspicion. Very often, his questions were entirely too personal, too probing, too hungry for information that was private. But I was trying to be polite, to accommodate him in a courteous way, and I discarded these suspicions.
Frank made detailed inquiries about my thoughts, my health, my life, my state of affairs. It was as if he were conducting an in-depth interview with an important person. No one in my experience had ever been really interested in what I thought about anything, nor had they made me feel that anything about my life was important, and so I answered the questions about my thoughts, and soon found myself answering all the other questions as well.
The skill of guileless cross-examination is the chief tool of the feminine vampire, because information is power; when you have information about people, you have a means of exploiting them, which is, after all, the primary objective of the vampire.
I didn’t realize that my answers were like money in the bank to Frank – hoarded, to be used later for manipulation.
At the point of the almost breakup, I had come to the realization that Frank’s interviews were followed by his demand that I listen to his litany of woes and the favor of my time to the point of utter exhaustion. Since he had been so concerned about my well-being, asking such careful and detailed questions, how could I be so discourteous as to refuse to listen and comply with his need for time and energy?
The end result was, of course, that I was hit with a double whammy. Not only did I feed Frank with my energy, I also gave him information that he could use to exploit and control me.
Of course, it is true that a vampire does not become a vampire without having been bitten and infected. The Jungian psychologists would like to think that the infection is passed on from parent to child, that this condition results from early childhood victimization by the parents. It certainly seems to be true that parental programming of a child is part of the means by which the infection is spread, but it also seems that there is something far more insidious at work here: hyperdimensional beings, literally the archetype of the ancient vampire.
Frank’s conscious memories of his abductions and torment at the hands of aliens as well as the fact that he did not fight back were all clues. But there were many more clues that developed over the next couple of years.
There is, of course, in any such person, some sort of vestigial soul. It may be a soul that is growing and which will, at some point in the future – perhaps another lifetime – begin the process of spiritualizaton of its matter environment. On the other hand, it may be a soul that is diminishing, or in the process of matterization, compaction, or subsumation of consciousness to the STS hierarchy. It’s really hard to tell. My guess – and it’s only a guess – is that at this point in history, the types of souls that will be incarnated are not so much the immature kind as they are those that are potentially at the point where this all-important choice is being made – to choose the wishful-thinking, STS path of ultimate matter, or to choose the STO path of spiritualizing matter.
The STS choice is, essentially, the default choice of this density. And, by being the choice that is presented as natural by the Controllers of the Matrix, it is generally the easiest. It is the path of least resistance, most especially in terms of giving ourselves up to our emotions or intelligence of the heart, as it is being promoted nowadays. It is also, very often, the obvious choice, or the sensible choice or even the logical choice. This “obviousness” and “sensibleness” and “logicalness” are, of course, based on the rules of the Matrix that dominate our reality.
The STO choices, on the other hand, are far more difficult to see, and thus, more challenging to make and follow. We have already looked at a couple of examples of this in our little exploration of what Christianity may or may not have originally taught, as well as the fact that many individuals lack the ability to comprehend the deeper meaning of systematic harassment as Castaneda explicated it. Thus it seems that one of the symptoms of those who consistently make STS choices, is that they develop a kind of semantic aphasia. They may be able to grasp a certain, limited, literal meaning of a word or a concept, but they are simply unable to think any higher than that. I have observed certain people who certainly had the intellectual capacity to do so, but they didn’t have the drive. This is the result of the fact that as the STS mind is fed, the person becomes less and less able to grasp the deeper meanings of things, the hidden reality that is exemplified by the alchemist Fulcanelli in his exposition on cabala, or the “language of the birds.” At the same time, those who are making the STO choices become more and more able to reach into these higher realms of pure thought.
What seems apparent to me is that this is not just a single choice, it is a daily choice, a moment-by-moment choice and that once an individual wins just one little battle against the mechanical nature of the STS reality and default choices, and moves even momentarily into that STO realm, it strengthens the ability, however incrementally, to make the next STO choice that is presented. And, for the most part, these choices have to do not only with seeing what is, but in choosing how to respond to it: creatively or destructively, with truth or wishful thinking and narcissistic personal opinions.
Thus it is that a person who chooses to understand Castaneda’s term systematic harassment in a materialistic way, as opposed to the deeper perception of the theological reality behind it and the example he gave, has effectively made the choice for the default mode of STS understanding or what is “obvious, sensible and logical,” based on the rules of the Matrix-reality language structure. Such choices of perception, made over and over again, result in a sort of hardening of the categories, or being matterized. The point is that as long as there is life, there is hope, and even if the surface appearance of the events would suggest that I had been victimized by a conscious psychopath in my interactions with Frank, I tend to think that we ought to give a certain amount of the benefit of the doubt, within limitations, to anyone we encounter. There may, indeed, have been some part of him that was truly asking, and I was giving to that part as well as the part that was manipulating.
In a very real sense, the psychic vampire, or the STS feeding machine, is very well described in terms of criminal psychology. The chief traits of the criminal personality are weakness, immaturity, and self-delusion mixed with a strong desire to deceive other people. The weakness is an important factor because it seems to be the root of the inability to “think higher” beyond the Matrix reality. Such thinking requires great effort of a certain kind, and many individuals simply do not want to do it. It’s too much like work. Even people who can do enormous physical work, do not seem to have the ability to understand what work is truly valuable. They may spend days, weeks, months, looking up endless words and permutations in dictionaries, but the ability to push into the deeper reality, that comes from a certain strength of the soul, is simply not in them.
Such individuals have amazing skills at self-justification and rationalization for what they do. They are also masters at appealing to the sympathies and emotional triggers of other people. They also, most definitely, have a well-developed ability to shut off what they do not want to see or admit to. They are generally cowards, but with a twist: their greatest fear is that others will see them as weak, so they create a persona of bombastic strength and power that simply does not exist.
Criminals are also hypersensitive to what is said to them, and will become angry all out of proportion when they perceive that they are being put down, but are also completely insensitive to the feelings of others to whom they may address great cruelty. Of course, when someone can be used by them, they take great pains to pretend sympathy.
In the words of one criminologist, the criminal mind suffers from a series of faulty blocking mechanisms. In other words, in the terms of the Cs and the STS reality: wishful thinking. They are blind and deaf to anything that contradicts their view of themselves and the world. They literally see things differently.
Now, it is obvious that we are all in this condition to one extent or another. And it is this very wishful thinking that keeps us in the Matrix. As strange as it may seem, studying the criminal mind has the same effect on us that the ghosts of Christmas had on Ebenezer Scrooge – it makes us more aware of the reality we ignore.
Vampires that are not fully formed may desperately try to cover up the growing vampire seed within by doing good deeds. This isn’t done consciously, mind you. At this point, the narcissistic view of the self is so powerful that looking in the mirror and seeing the true emptiness of the soul is impossible. Such an event would result in the total meltdown of the entire personality structure, and the subconscious defense mechanisms won’t allow that.
Rather than facing and dealing with the real issues, acknowledgment of the darkness within, acknowledging mistakes and lies and manipulations of others, being truly sorry, and truly asking for help such people desperately seek to eradicate what they subconsciously suspect about themselves in any way they can. The chief method is by doing good deeds through projecting the darkness in their own soul onto someone else.
Of course, that is just the psychological real reason, and not the theological reason. The archetypal forces will use this mode of behavior – will stimulate such thinking – in order to accomplish their own goals. The individual will be persuaded in their own mind that, by following a certain course of action, they can – little by little – eradicate the dreaded shadow that haunts their mind. And of course, the darkness is “out there.” But this then becomes the tool of the head vampire at the top of the food pyramid, to both enhance feeding potentials, as well as to destroy any threat to the status quo.
Vampire lore tells us that holding up a mirror to a literal vampire is a dangerous task. In psychological terms, holding up a mirror to a person in whom the vampire archetype is active is also problematical at best. It is at such a moment that the individual can make one of three choices: denial, growth, or despair. In criminal psychology terms, they have the choice to continue their criminal behavior with the strong likelihood of ultimate destruction; to radically change; or just commit suicide and get it over with. The individual who chooses to not change and grow, to not acknowledge the emptiness of the soul, effectively chooses to become a full vampire. Such a person has no capacity for true human compassion, but they have endless forms that they may take on to pursue the goal of obliterating the threat to their survival as a vampire.
Such a person, faced with such a revelation about themselves are most often completely unable to give up their illusory perfection and celebrity status. They cannot disentangle themselves from the programmed illusion and delusion of the narcissistic self-created in a fake bio and credentials. They must believe that they are the fake self, because in the deepest recesses of their subconscious minds, they feel that they are nothing at all. And in the theological reality, that is what they are making true. By being controlled by this psychological program, they utilize their energy to manifest that archetype.
The Matrix supports such behavior. The illusion, the wishful-thinking reality in which such a person lives, consists of a firm conviction that they are, indeed, of the light – a higher spiritual being – and that they must destroy that which has mirrored back to them the horrible truth of their lies and imperfection – a truth that is backed up by evidence and witnesses. They galvanize all their energy to strike and destroy; to banish the darkness, so that they can live in the everlasting light that is promised them for their “service.”
The pernicious vampire who has had a glimpse of himself and his emptiness, and has projected this emptiness onto another, knows instinctively that he needs to utilize his “other forms” to survive and ultimately destroy the threat to his being. These other forms can consist in what may seem, initially, to be changes in behavior. This manifests, again, in the psychological belief of the individual that by doing good deeds he can vanquish the vampire “out there.” He will do favors for others, believing that this is a good, compensatory deed that will earn him salvation. But in his heart of hearts, he knows that the person he is doing the favor for is someone he has wronged. In fact, he believes that by doing something for someone he has wronged without confessing that wrong, or even acknowledging it, that it is all that much more a good deed.
The pernicious vampire will give time and energy to a group or a cause that he really holds in contempt. He will do things for people he secretly disdains, and he will do it all the more sweetly if he thinks it will strengthen his chances for survival. Such a vampire who has gone deeper under cover will patronize people who he is really, secretly, exploiting. And he will most certainly proclaim that he is a follower of beliefs that he secretly desecrates, and his actions will most ultimately demonstrate that he is not truly an advocate of such ideas in his soul.
In some cases, when the darkness in a single person becomes too great to bear, he or she will project it onto a whole group of human beings. They will then go and seek out a group of neighbors and friends with similar darkness that they want to unload, and they form an agreement about what group they want to project their multiplied lawlessness and iniquity onto. In this way, they don’t have to hide their darkness because they can join together in a public orgy of projection. They believe that if they can destroy whomever they have collectively projected their darkness onto, that they will be collectively purged and will all be fresh and new and perfect together. The only problem is: in such a dynamic, the individual and collective darkness only grows in this miasma of vampiric revelry, and as it grows, they must project more and more to cleanse themselves. What they do not realize is that they are, step by incremental step, killing their own souls. Because by feeding the vampire inside the self, that vampire archetype grows stronger and stronger, and this is a manifestation of the eating of the soul of the infected victim by the hyperdimensional vampires, and thus represents the theological reality.
Of course, as noted already, this is an incremental process.
When a con-artist deliberately deceives someone, he keeps his human feelings separate – compartmentalized. He may be, essentially, two people: a human being to his wife and family and friends, and a criminal to his victims. All psychological studies show that if he continues on such a path long enough, he ultimately becomes less and less human with everyone. Like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, each time the STS behavior or wishful thinking is indulged, each time it is not resisted and overcome, it becomes stronger and stronger. And its ultimate objective is to destroy its victim who, in the throes of his own destruction, reaches out to try to save himself by destroying others.
In the most mundane sense, this manifests in our real world as people who have no manners, who have no class, who have no nobility of soul and who are incapable of recognizing it, nor do they understand that they don’t have it. They then attempt to compensate for their lack by declaring it to be of no value, therefore not having it does not diminish their value within the structure of their wishful thinking. In addition, because it is something not possessed, they must attack it and those who possess it.
Getting back to the matter at hand, Frank tried to obliterate the darkness within by a course of good deeds, or more precisely, by curtailing some of his previously draining activities, including his regular rants about committing suicide. He became more helpful and generous in his words, to me at least. He never did – nor could he, it seems – actually overcome his lethargy long enough to do anything physical for any of the group.
But what is most important at this point is the fact that Frank had most definitely begun the process of projection. And the objects of this projection were varied, but most particularly Terry and Jan and S**, all of whom actually did a lot of work for and with the group.
And me? Well, I was as easy to manipulate as any doting mother of a brilliant, helpless child. Fortunately, as we will soon see, the Cs were not so easy to manipulate.
It is important to remember, in the telling of the present story, that what we are talking about here is where the rubber hits the road. That is: our ordinary relationships with other people. It is in the context of human behavior that we either attract or repel higher influences. It is in the reality of our daily lives that we either manifest this archetype or that one, depending on our choices.
There is a very important thing that I am trying to convey, something that I have said before, but which bears repeating: it is in the context of our ordinary lives that the Universe answers our questions. Learning to read the symbols of reality includes examining our experiences and extracting the “juice” from it so as to progress along our path of learning. If we keep making the same mistakes over and over again, can we say we are learning? And we notice that the kinds of mistakes that people make most often, the kinds of mistakes that cause the most suffering at all levels of society, are the mistakes of relationships with others.
In writing about these things, I am trying to describe the events as they unfolded and what the meaning was that I found in them, both at the time (which was sometimes right, sometimes wrong), and in retrospect. The greatest thing a person can do is to give something to another that helps them have a better experience in life. Unfortunately, the human being is not born with an instruction manual, and most of the ones we have at the present time seem to be written to deliberately obscure the matters of most concern to us: how to not suffer over and over again by making the wrong choices in relationships.
But if our energies are truly what is at stake in our relationships, and if it is true that only when we recoup a sufficient amount of energy, are we able to grow, then it becomes of paramount importance who we do or do not interact with in a close, psychologically connected way.
And that just flies in the face of the teachings of our society. We are supposed to forgive and forget, give the benefit of the doubt, compromise – “Let’s all get along,” “I love you, let’s work it out,” and so on and on. But what if all of that is designed to keep us in relationships that make us food? What if that is designed to keep us from having enough energy to grow?
Writing about most of this is very painful. Living many of these experiences was very painful. I know from direct discussions with others that they, too, have had similar painful experiences. Nearly everybody has. But for some reason, it is deemed taboo to discuss it. It is considered to be gossip or petty or “why don’t we all kiss and make up?”
The same people who give such advice are generally the ones who have had half a dozen partners who beat them up, or ran around on them, or spent the grocery money on drugs, or they are the psychiatrists or doctors whose livelihood is dependent upon us being sick either in mind or body.
We are discouraged by our culture from talking about these things. To do a post-mortem on a relationship in order to come to some idea of what kinds of clues or signs we ought to look for in order to keep ourselves from making the same mistakes over and over again; to relate the information about how brain chemicals can – and most of the time do – control our thinking, and thus our choices and consequent experiences, is verboten. And it is most especially forbidden to come to the understanding that our world is embedded in a hyperdimensional reality, and that the chief meaning of our lives seems to lie in the fact that we are not just “strange, dark interludes in the electrical display of God,” but that our relationships and interactions, personally, as individuals, and groups, and cultures, and even globally, may actually represent a projection of a cosmic drama, a drama that is essentially a representation of a battle between forces at higher levels.
In such a case, our ordinary choices take on a whole different meaning.
All alone, Susy Smart’s choice to go back to her abusive boyfriend because the Bible teaches her that forgiveness is all important, and her therapist tells her that compromise is essential, certainly can’t mean much in the Grand Scheme of Cosmic things, can it?
But when it is multiplied millions of times each day, and the end result is that Susy continues to be food in the Matrix, it becomes a matter of some concern in the global sense.
Every human being who continues to make choices based on the lies of the Matrix, continues to interact with others in ways that serve the STS hierarchy by feeding it, contributes to its existence and domination of our reality. The battle between forces for the control of our planet takes place through us! It’s that simple.
So, being able to analyze and identify these things can be thought to be quite important.
The Sufis say that “the words of God are the entities of His existent things. … Meanings, which have no form, assume forms within the reality. … The reality of an existent thing/being is not what we see of it, but its immutable entity which is seen only by God and certain of His friends. … Each creature is a word of God. The life of a single man is a book” (Chittick 1989).
It is in discovering the reality, the deep inner nature of what we experience, including our relationships and the people with whom we interact, that we reach into the realms of pure thought – the awareness that will bind us to the higher levels of being.
As human beings, it seems that an essential part of our nature is to feel that there is more to life than the immediately apparent material world. We don’t like to think that our lives are a game of chance played by the gods. Yet, we can observe that the heartless randomness of the world is at odds with the religious views of a loving, caring God.
The eighteenth century Icelandic mystic, Jon Jonsson said “God plays at Forkjaering with man in this world.” Forkjaering is a dice game. Later, Albert Einstein said “God does not play dice” with the universe. I think the truth is somewhere in between. We are pawns in a game, only the players are, in some sense, ourselves. And we are pawns so long as we don’t know the rules of the game. Once we have served our apprenticeship as playing pieces, we then are able to take our place with the players.
I once read a saying that goes: “A bird doesn’t fly because it has wings; it has wings because it flies.” That is to say: a bird is the incarnation of “Bird-ness,” which includes flight and, in many species, song. Human beings, individually and collectively, are the incarnation of specific ideas as well.
We have a clue then, that we can learn a great deal about ourselves, our reality, our destiny, and our proper response to our environment by studying our relationships and experiences. But, it is not just observation of the outer structure that we are after; it is the discovery of the inner nature, or the Idea of a thing. Here I would like to quote from volume three of this series:
In a general sense, to almost everyone, including yours truly, the very idea of time-traveling, mind-marauding, hyperdimensional beings with full powers to create and maintain a reality of illusion and restriction in which we are confined like sheep, waiting daily to see which of our number will be “taken” for their wool, skins, or flesh, is so horrifying a concept that accepting it as a real possibility, is tantamount to being stripped of all hopes, dreams and comfort.
Like many of you, I began this work full of frustration with teachings that don’t work or don’t make sense when compared with honest observation of reality and experience. There was such a labyrinth of contradictions everywhere I searched, and I knew it was necessary to go beyond everything hitherto known or tried. I did have the idea that this knowledge had been available in ancient times, judging by the evidence of the megaliths and other incomprehensible structures all over the globe, but whether or not it would be possible to rediscover this path was uncertain.
It was very clear that there was a serious discrepancy between the observable reality and some “deeper reality” from which, presumably, ours derives something of its form and structure, but I knew there was something that separated “us” from “them.” And again, when searching for answers, it always ended in a maze of insupportable assumptions and irreconcilable facts.
But when the Cassiopaeans began to communicate, to say things that did explain the problems I was finding in science, religions and philosophies, and those things they told us were not part of my expectations, I became furious and railed at such a bleak picture of our existence. I had already gone through some of this process in earlier years while reading Gurdjieff and Ouspensky, but I found that what the Cassiopaeans were saying was far more dispiriting than I was prepared to receive. I rejected ideas that suggested our “fairy tale” beliefs just might be imposed on us to keep us asleep and unaware because I didn’t like them either! As time went by and evidence from other sources mounted, I raged at lessons that drove home these points in my personal life; and I have wept oceans for the loss of my innocence. So, believe me when I say to those of you who write to me struggling to grasp this, trying to reason and rationalize some way to hang on to the old, false belief systems – I do understand!
But, when all is said and done, I think I wept even more for all the years wasted in stupidity and blindness. After a time, I realized that we are only stupid and blind exactly as long as we need to be stupid and blind, and not one second longer. I am enormously grateful for all those experiences because they did teach me in a very deep way.
If it is true that humans are being bred and raised like cattle in a global stockyard and fed upon both psychically and sometimes even physically, we have a truly serious situation going on here, to put it mildly. As I have explained before, I have never seen a “Drachomonoid” being except in dreamlike states or almost hypnopompic semi-sleep states. So, when the Cassiopaeans began to talk about them, it was truly “Twilight Zone” time, in my opinion!
I have also stated that, whenever the Cassiopaeans have told us anything, I work very hard to discover if there is any form of what I call vertical or lateral corroboration. Vertical data is that which is located in history at any point different from the present. Lateral data consists of collecting reports, witness information, and other data that amounts to circumstantial evidence from the present time. It is always better if the two types of data “cross” or intersect. But it is still not the same as having a smoking gun. When you are dealing with hyperdimensional realities, smoking guns are not very likely to be found.
In the case of the idea of man being food for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of all kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to hide this fact, and the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.
The point is, when don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans (and others) tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) “special and adored children of a loving God”; that we are or can be co-creators with God, that we can do anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue!
But it is work to examine it objectively. It is hard work because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to become free.
And yet, we can see that something is evolving here! With the maturation of the group mind, the stakes get higher and the deceptions deeper!
For many centuries, millennia even, simplistic religions and social dynamics were dominant over most of the world. This was possible because even when there was an intrusion by one of these hyperdimensional beings into our reality, when they did drop in for dinner, so to speak, it was easy to conceal because of the lack of communication between tribes and peoples.
When we sit in our comfortable homes and look at our reality, including that which is outside our windows, we see a stable front. Cars pass on the street taking people to and from their homes in their varied daily activities. The sun shines, children pass by, talking and laughing. Everyone is involved in their life in an immediate and identified way, believing that this life they are involved in is what is.
But, once in a while, something bizarre happens to someone and they struggle to deal with this anomaly in the space-time continuum. Usually, it is sufficiently minor that they can damp it and forget about it; which they must because it is too aberrant in the normal accepted course of events. It must be shoved under the rug and hidden.
Once in awhile, bigger things happen in the reality – evidence of the hyperdimensional control system intrudes, or the screen breaks down in some way – and it becomes news and gets reported. Charles Fort spent many years collecting these types of things from the newspapers and magazines all over the world.
When this happens, the accepted belief system hurries to damp down the item so that everyone can go along in their respective and collective illusions. And, since the events are localized, it is easy to cover it up. And, in the past, this was a lot easier than it is today.
When you read the collected information of Charles Fort, you see that the alien reality that is so widely reported today was just as active then as it is now. In fact, you see that it may even be somewhat cyclical. Just as we have cycles of food production, planting, growing and harvesting, so may hyperdimensional beings harvest us according to some seasonal rule.
But, in any event, in the past it was a lot easier to keep the lid on the matter. But then, people began to become literate. Books and papers and magazines were published and distributed. Travel became easier and information from around the world about these odd intrusions into our reality could be collected giving an overall pattern that something was not right.
Before Charles Fort, there were some few people who already smelled a rat. But, Mr. Fort kindly shoved it right under our noses and the reaction has been quite interesting. The cover-up machine went into full operation through the most effective vectors of mainstream science and religion.
But, the rat had been smelled and some people couldn’t just shove it back under the rug. The stench kept wafting in the window that had been opened.
And so, certain people began to start searching for the source of this stinky rat. They began to gather knowledge and information.
We can even note how the coverup machine began to do this damage control. When you study the history of social and religious movement and change, you can see the control mechanism morphing with every discovery or realization made by human beings. As they outgrew the old religions, the simplistic explanations, new religions were put in place. At exactly the right time – the period of scientific expansion and growing knowledge of the nature of reality which brought the old religious views into serious question – the whole spiritualist movement began, leading to channeled information that was designed to patch up the holes in the control net. Newer and more elaborate explanations of the higher realms came into our reality. And, with each new question, the control system had a new answer to help everybody calm down, relax, and stop asking questions!
At the present time, this is even more amazingly evident. A few years ago, when we first began sharing the Cassiopaean information, many of the issues we dealt with were not even addressed by these other sources. But, with everything we release, the other side brings some new candidate forward with new explanations to patch the holes we are tearing in the fabric of reality.
While we never had considered it as a possibility before the recent revelations, the idea that Frank was the mole from the very beginning is not really too hard to comprehend when one considers all the hyperdimensional factors. Heck, if I was one of those 4D movie-makers, I’d have thought of it myself! What a plot twist!
And so it is, regardless of how painful these events are to recount, they are presented as lessons, as ways to derive knowledge.
As I am going through my memory of the events of the past nine years, gathering the threads together that are, in truth, the pathways of some of the most important lessons we have learned from the Cassiopaeans, I keep hearing Frank’s former “employer’s” words at the time of the discovery of the years-long embezzlement operation Frank had been engaged in. In my efforts to try and determine if the man was truly as evil as Frank painted him, I discussed the matter with him, pointing out how many years of “faithful service” Frank had given him, how much work Frank must have done, and how, even just considering the time Frank gave him, he most certainly deserved some compensation!
The man snorted at my suggestion – practically choking – and when he had regained his ability to speak just said: “You have no idea about Frank. What Frank did here could not conceivably be called “work.” In fact, he was more of an annoyance. I only let him hang around out of pity. The fact is, he was about as useless as [anything.]” (Actually, the direct statement was a rather graphic reference to genitalia being useless to nuns and priests.)
I was, of course, pretty incensed that he would say something so nasty about Frank. I also took into consideration the fact that the man was generally hostile at the moment. The Frank I knew had a wonderful voice, an amazing command of the English language, and could discourse for hours on many interesting subjects, pulling all sorts of facts and figures right out of his head almost like an idiot savant who can memorize train schedules or batting averages.
But, the fact is, the man had many years of experience with Frank, and after our own experiences with Frank, looking back and recapitulating all of it here, it seems that “Dane” was not too far wrong.
It is, of course, in retrospect that we certainly are better able to piece things together and come to some better understanding of the dynamics at work, both in psychological terms as well as in the terms of the theological reality. I have said that I was “as easy to manipulate as any doting mother of a brilliant, helpless child.” But, as any such mother will tell you, even if they dote, or allow themselves to be manipulated, they are not completely blind nor are they complete fools; only partial fools!
From my own perspective, I no longer was susceptible to Frank’s claims to be a higher spiritual being in the terms he would have preferred it to be understood. I certainly never discarded it as a possibility, but it was one of those things that I held close and pondered in my heart. There was certainly awareness on his part that we were all scrutinizing him closely with this question uppermost in our minds, and we certainly discussed it at some length many times when he was not present, trying to work out a theory as to how such a dynamic could manifest. The idea we finally formulated was that if it was indeed true, then it was likely that Frank had been a soul that had received special attention from the negative forces in a very detrimental way. Of course, that led back to the idea of how important it was for us to continue to work with him, give him support, and try to make it possible for the damage to be undone.
Considering the fact that there was amplified scrutiny of his conduct and function at the board, it seems that whatever negative forces had been in domination had subsided to a great extent – at least in terms of doing anything to excite our suspicions. This was something we were to learn about as time went on: the principle of mental blocking via awareness. It seems that our heightened state of alert could literally block such energies and the sessions reflected this defense system. On the other hand, such interference may have subsided for the simple reason that the controllers were intent on vacuuming out of me some specific information they were after, using the Frank-as-a-well-pipe analogy. In this case, it could be said that unless Frank’s emotions of ego were excited, the Cs transmissions were, from here on out, mostly uncorrupted. The following excerpt, from a session where only Frank and myself were present, demonstrates this quality.
As I already mentioned, Frank had hinted that S** was the source of the energy that had caused him to act out. He suggested that she was an agent of the aliens in some sense. I argued this point since S** was really a very simple and giving person who was always being helpful and concerned about others. (And when I say simple, I mean a person who is uncomplicated and does not deceive others. It is not a reference to intelligence.) I simply could not see how she could be an agent. Because of my new awareness, I framed my questions carefully so as not to trigger any emotional response in Frank which would have skewed the reception.
April 18, 1995
Q: (L) … Is it all right if we ask some questions about the situation that has transpired here over the last month or so?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) OK, is there anyway I can access the information I need because we need to make some kind of assessment of what occurred here?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Have we ever had a person in our group or in our room here, who was sent here deliberately to break up our interaction?
A: If so, that is for you to discover for purposes of learning and growth.
Q: (L) Is that part of what has been taking place here?
A: Good chance.
Q: (L) Well, that is getting close.
A: Remember one can be manipulated by another.
Q: (L) In this case, who was the one being manipulated?
A: We mean that one can appear to be an “agent” when in actuality, control is originating elsewhere, this is especially true when the apparent “agent” is one of a good and simple and seemingly stable nature.
Q: (L) OK, you are saying the control could be originating elsewhere. Is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Would that control be third density or fourth density?
A: Either, or elements of both.
Q: (L) In this particular case, I would much prefer to think that someone was being used or manipulated by other forces. But, in that case, that could be a loose cannon, so to speak. Am I correct?
A: Up to your discretion.
Q: (L) Can we identify the source of control in this particular case?
A: We mentioned discovery and learning earlier.
Q: (L) So, we have to figure this one out?
A: Will benefit you greatly in “future” to do so.
Q: (F) Why is that?
A: In order to recognize “symptoms,” which may be common occurrence.
Q: (L) In this case, we have discussed it, and it seems that it has already become a common occurrence. Persons come in and are all excited and they put in energy or money or whatever, and they are all gung-ho, and then they become a disruption.
A: Yes. You are already learning.
What are we to make of this somewhat mysterious exchange? The first remark “Remember one can be manipulated by another,” would seem to suggest that Frank’s claim that he was acted on by an agent was correct. But the problem was obviously much more complex and the Cs added: “One can appear to be an “agent” when in actuality, control is originating elsewhere, this is especially true when the apparent “agent” is one of a good and simple and seemingly stable nature.”
This last seemed to negate the idea that S** was an agent, unless she was being utilized in some way to deliver a signal of some sort that did, in fact, affect Frank. But in that case, the signal would only have served to activate a trigger that generated a response from him that was pre-coded, so to speak. In other words, he could not have been triggered if the program was not already there. This was one of the early points when I realized that the Cs were talking to me, via the well-pipe analogy, but that they had to be extremely careful both due to considerations of free will, and the issue that for some reason, some things could not be told with Frank present. But again, I kept these thoughts to myself and just simply continued to observe.
Importantly, what never occurred to me from the above exchange was the idea that Frank could be the one doing the manipulating, that S** could be being made to look like an agent because Frank was the origin of the manipulation. And I was certainly so sure that I was aware of Frank’s little manipulations, which I considered to be just quirks of his personality and only required humor to deal with, that the idea that a far deeper manipulation was taking place was not even considered.
Terry’s presence at the board, making it a three way operation, in retrospect again, seems, to have brought a significant balance to the effort. It was certainly true that if there was any possibility that Frank was directing the planchette, it was a lot harder with the three of us. What is more, the energetic response of the movement and flow when Terry was present was truly astounding. People (including us!) were utterly amazed at the speed and precision of the delivery of the material. The planchette would run away from us, often zipping around the board so fast that I had difficulty keeping up with calling out the letters, and Jan had as much difficulty writing them down that fast. The Cs, it seemed, just loved Terry. And they also apparently had a message to convey to us about him and his role in the session about the perpendicular realities on April 29, 1995.
The first unusual thing about this session was the fact that the Cs initiated the subject matter by asking: “Terry, was it October, 1964?”
We were all rather taken aback by this opening remark. On this particular night, I was in terrible pain. The strange thing about it was that it was the other arm, and not the one that had been injured in the accident! I had received a shot of cortisone directly into the joint just a day earlier, and it was almost as though the pain had then just jumped to the other side. I was having a lot of trouble concentrating and even just sitting there at the board required a supreme effort. I didn’t want to disappoint anybody by canceling the session, but I wanted to get through the list of questions that had been prepared in earlier discussions so we could shut down early. But the Cs had something they wanted to talk about, and they pressed on.
The Cs’ agenda seemed to be to awaken a memory in Terry that would lead to a realization. The focus seemed to be his role in group activities in his youth, and that now, the training of that time was coming into play. He had been at a crossroads, and in our group, the connection was completed. In other words, the training then was being utilized now.
In working through the issue, the following exchange occurred:
Q: (T) Does it have to do with the fact that I am saying certain things to people at work, or wherever I can, when I talk about events that are happening these days and trying to raise their level of thinking on these things?
A: Yes, now, let’s explore your friends and relationships and experiences in the years immediately following the event to see if we can “dig up” something of startling significance!!!
A major clue was Terry’s remark “trying to raise their level of thinking on these things,” which was followed by an affirmative response from the Cs.
In fact, the person whose awareness Terry was trying to raise was me. And the subject of that raising of awareness was Frank! The Cs drove this point home with the remark, “let’s explore your friends and relationships … to see if we can ‘dig up’ something of startling significance!!!”
We went through a tiresome series of false clues until finally, we arrived at this:
Q: (T) Is it the fact that I am able to form relationships with vastly different types of individuals?
A: All originate from same “plane.”
Followed by another:
Q: (L) Do they all share a common origin?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that origin?
A: Neormm. […] Closest English equivalent. […]
Q: (T) Is this a star? All of us are from another star that I’ve formed relationships like that; the special ones that I would consider lasting?
A: In perpendicular reality.
The key terms in the above remark was “special relationships” that were “lasting.”
Q: (L) All right! Where are we now? We have discovered that Terry has a perpendicular reality that has been running through his life and probably is an ongoing thing, is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What is a perpendicular reality? …
A: Intersection is at realm border. […] They merge. […]
Q: (L) Well, I am just trying to understand what this whole thing is all about. What are we getting at here?
A: Then learn from what we communicate to you and what you already have “locked up” inside of you i.e. time to get the key! […]
Q: (L) In which case, what alternate reality do we share or do we share no alternate reality and are each representatives of an alternate reality different from each other and are a connection point?
A: Latter concept is exactly correct! […] What did we say about increasing power? […]
Q: (L) I have heard the concept, written or talked about, that certain people, or perhaps everybody, have locked up inside themselves pockets of energy or knowledge as in electromagnetic patterning in their fields …
A: Like putting together the pieces of the puzzle.
Q: (L) Are we ultimately going to have seven spokes?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Are the five of us here, five of those spokes?
A: Open.
Q: (T) That was diplomatic, wasn’t it? Is there more to this concept?
A: Of course!
Q: (L) Once the seven spokes are in place in terms of persons, is that going to increase our power/knowledge exponentially?
A: Explosively.
Q: (L) Is this why there has been so much attack and so many attempts to stop this process?
A: Partly.
Q: (T) OK, we have the image on the paper with seven spokes. What do we do with it next?
A: Open.
Q: (T) OK, this is just this lesson. (L) What is in the center of the circle?
A: Will fall into place, now you must ponder the significance and we must say goodnight!
Now, there are several important clues in the above passage that the Cs declared would lead to us being able to “dig up something of startling significance.” As usual, they were giving us clues that only have begun to make any kind of sense in the present time, after the learning experiences of the past couple of years. Let me just connect some other excerpts from the transcripts together for the reader to gain a deeper understanding of the information above, as well as how the Cs worked to deliver it in pieces throughout time so that, once certain lessons were learned by us, we could them begin to assemble it.
First of all, there is that most mysterious word “Neormm.” It would be two years before I came back to ask about this word. As it happens, this later question was during the period of time that Frank was most diligently seeking to demonize Terry because Terry most definitely had stopped even considering the possibility that Frank was a higher spiritual being. After a couple of years of observation of Frank, he had come to the conclusion that Frank was running some sort of operation, but he wasn’t sure what. I, of course, continued to defend Frank as I could, wanting to give him endless chances to prove himself. Since Frank was claiming that Terry was the fly in the ointment, repeatedly and tediously, and Terry was just simply fed up with Frank from long experience, and didn’t even want to discuss it anymore, at the time of the following excerpt, I had thought of a way to ask a question that might settle the issue.
June 7, 1997
Q: In a previous session where you introduced the concept of perpendicular realities, you stated that Terry was connected to a particular reality called “Neormm.” You also designated the “thought center” of STS as Ormethion. I noticed the similarity of the names. Is there a relationship?
A: The Orm is close to orimulsion. Look it up.
Q: Well, what I am asking is about the possible relationship between Neormm and Ormethion …
A: Our answers have meaning best not to presuppose!
The Cs pretty effectively shot down any such connection. And as I read over the text, I have the strange feeling that “The Orm” might have been intended to be “Theormm.” One of the problems of this type of channeling is that we have to put in the word breaks ourselves. All the letters are delivered in a rapid, endless stream, unmarked by any point where one word ends and another begins. Sentences are designated, and other punctuation is handled by the Cs themselves, but not word breaks.
But I was given a clue: orimulsion. What in the world is orimulsion? “Orimulsion is a Venezuelan boiler fuel made up of natural bitumen (70%), water, and an emulsifier.”
Now, look again at this:
Q: (T) Is it the fact that I am able to form relationships with vastly different types of individuals?
A: All originate from same “plane.” […]
Q: (L) Do they all share a common origin?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is that origin?
A: Neormm. […] Closest English equivalent. […]
Q: (T) Is this a star? All of us are from another star that I’ve formed relationships like that; the special ones that I would consider lasting?
A: In perpendicular reality.
Q: (T) What is a perpendicular reality? …
A: Intersection is at realm border. […] They merge.
And now look at this from January 10, 2002:
Q: Was that the reason that you encouraged Terry and Jan to be present? To counterbalance Frank’s negative energy?
A: Yes. Frank would have killed you with his STS draining rather soon otherwise.
And we begin to understand the symbolism of a blend of bitumen and water with the aid of an emulsifier. Frank and I were like oil and water. But there is much more than that. The Cs also made strange allusions to “digging up” something which was connected to individuals who have “secrets locked up inside them” and to a group of seven which would form, like pieces of a puzzle, which would lead to “explosive learning.” They also made reference to keys in the context of “unusual persons.”
So, we come back to this:
February 24, 1996
A: Oh Laura, my dear, seems you need a refresher course in the transcripts. Maybe suggest you read them and relax and privately listen to the ones you have not as of yet transcribed a little more. This would be extremely helpful in your many and increasing communications via the “net” as well. Remember, we help you to unlock answers that have been placed in your superconsciousness files from before the “time” of the birth of your physical body.
And this:
April 15, 1995
A: You are in pain, my dear, and when you hurt, all others do too!
In the context of the following:
August 31, 1996
Q: (L) Is Ark going to be able to help us with technology, to help other people, or to protect ourselves in some way? In this really bizarre stuff going on on our planet?
A: Too much, too soon, my dear. Curiosity killed the cat.
Q: (L) Well, satisfaction brought him back!
A: Not in this case!!!
Q: (T) You’ve got to let this go along. It’s picking up momentum every day, it seems. So, just let it roll along and let it see where it goes. (L) All right, let’s … (T) He’s coming to protect you. That’s what he said.
A: Maybe, but there is so, so, so much more in store than that!!!!!!
Q: (L) Stop! … Is that an ominous, “maybe, but there’s so, so, so much more in store?” Or is that a positive, “there is so, so, so much more in store?”
A: Why would you think it ominous?
Q: (L) Well I don’t know … because I’m scared of what I don’t know! (T) Faith, we’re back to faith again.
A: What have we helped you to discover so far? Would you rather discontinue this operation?
Q: (L) Oh, hell no! (T) After two years, you know she’s always going to ask those kinds of questions!
A: Not two years, eternity. […] We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path. By now, you should recognize the signs … Those who display thinking patterns which in many ways deviate from that which is considered ordinary. The more unusual, the more telling. They have past lives on 3rd density earth, but not recently, but for this one. And they are not oriented to the earth frequency vibrations.
[group discussion ensued on last response]
Q: (T) … It is destiny for you to find out what your path was; you had to make this contact, because it was what you were supposed to do. [And here, I had to jump in to defend Frank’s role as the channel so he wouldn’t go into a blue funk.] (L) Are we not talking about Frank in terms of being put in contact with someone who enables me to communicate with you, so you can put me on my path, which is building the staircase, etc., etc.? Is that not what we’ve got going here?
A: He is one, but not the only one, just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
Not only did they not confirm his role as the channel, which I suggested, they seemed to be deliberately minimizing his role. He was certainly never told he had “keys” locked up inside him, nor that he had “answers locked up” in his “superconsciousness” that were placed there before birth of his physical body.
Q: (L) I know this is probably not the time to ask this question; this is the kind of discover, open, find out, open – that kind of thing, but it seems to me almost that you are leading up to say something, so maybe I can help you along by asking, what is this staircase, what is this destiny?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) I knew it was coming! (T) Why don’t we ask who else is involved. (L) You ask, I’m trying to … (T) Well, if Frank is one, who else is involved?
Here, Terry is also trying to give Frank some importance so he wouldn’t go off on an emotional roller coaster. But the Cs have something most interesting to say about Frank.
A: We have given the signs, but they are not necessarily the same with each individual.
Now, how are we to understand this last remark? That the signs are not the same with each individual? Yet, they have just given the signs for recognition, so that can’t be it. The only way to understand it seems to be that the signs do not mean the same thing with all individuals with the signs. I puzzled over this a great deal trying to understand what was being hinted. But the idea that the remark, “Those who display thinking patterns which in many ways deviate from that which is considered ordinary. The more unusual, the more telling,” could be used to identify both STO and STS individuals never occurred to me. I had the idea that if a person was “not oriented to the earth plane” that it naturally meant STO.
Q: (T) Let me ask this. All this work you’ve been doing, all this nurturing you’ve been doing, is Laura a keystone to whole project that you’re working on?
A: We suggest you avoid anticipatory exercises, as realization comes after the fact.
Q: [Frank complains because Laura keeps taking her hand off the planchette and resting it in her lap.] (L) Well, I’m in pain, Frank, it’s hard for me to sit here. Appreciate the fact that I’m in pain!
A: Appreciate the fact that you have been given the keys to end all this pain.
Q: (L) When you say, “end all this pain,” it sounds a little more inclusive than just my shoulder hurting! I mean, that sounds rather suggestive.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) To end all this pain …
A: It all goes hand in hand.
The very instant that the Cs said “you have been given the keys to end all this pain,” a vision and a sensation came over me, the likes of which I had never experienced before. In ordinary slang, you could say it was a body rush, but it was far, far deeper than that. But ego is a terrible thing, and of all things, I have tried to be vigilant against the traps of ego. So I asked. We will see, further on, Ark’s “Bird’s Eye View” of such things, and our understanding of how small acts that are not based on any egoist idea of saving the world can benefit many people over time. That is still our perspective, and it is why we work so hard in our small ways. We have no desire or intent to make a big splash, or start any kind of movement. We think that incremental, nonlinear efforts that are cumulative over a long time are far more likely to be helpful.
Regarding the remark “hand in hand,” there are many things that this might allude to, not the least of which is the use of the board which is a multiple hand activity. Nevertheless, as it happens, on that particular day, Ark and I had discussed combining our efforts to discover the proper way to serve humanity/Creator, and the key phrase had been that we will work “hand in hand.” I had another body rush from this remark because it was a certainty that no one else in the room had been privy to that information. But, let’s go back to the issue of Neormm.
The first thing we notice about the word is that it is similar to the word “Neo,” as in the hero of The Matrix. We then think about this in terms of a perpendicular reality composed of seven people who originate from same plane, share a common origin, which intersects and merges at the realm border.
Which relates to an interesting exchange relating to the possible function of the “group of seven”:
June 14, 1997
Q: (C) Thinking is electrical. Does a person leave an electrical echo and can certain combinations produce harmony which is cumulative and exponential, thereby certain groups thinking can produce more than others, or individually?
A: Close. Now, for C**. Suggestion: Combine frequencies to witness the development of a directed wave effect; packs a potent “punch.”
Q: (C) And is this related to the group of seven? Seven pieces of pizza?
A: Certainly! See what letting it flow does, C**?
And of course, “packing a potent punch” takes us directly back to the role of Neo in the movie, The Matrix. And here we come to a most cryptic series of remarks. As the readers know, Ark was “looking” for me for many, many years – his entire life, in fact. He seems to have been born with an awareness that there was someone he had to find, that he had a mission to accomplish, and this person was essential both personally and to the mission itself.
At the same time that the Cs were urging me repeatedly to network on the computer, in conjunction with the remark that this would lead to an opportunity that only “one” of the group would “recognize,” Ark was thinking that the Internet might be the way to “find” what he was searching for, and was working on getting a website set up.
At the same time that the Cs were urging me to investigate unstable gravity waves, Ark was writing about them in his journal as being a key to a certain problem. At almost the same moment in time, we were both on the hunt for information about unstable gravity waves, our paths converged, and his website was instantly recognized by me, and the rest is history. But, the point was, even with the deepest knowing imaginable, that something of great significance was in process, my conscious mind continued to doubt, to try to reason, to demand answers according to the normal view of the world. I didn’t want to make a fool of myself, and I certainly didn’t want to fall into a trap as Frank was regularly and repeatedly saying was going to happen! And so, I tried to get the Cs to give me some straight answers. But, on this subject, there was only a single clue:
August 3, 1996
Q: (L) Before I give up the floor to everyone else, I would like to know if you have any comment about AJ? My experience here is so strange, and I don’t want to be caught in a trap …
A: New.
Q: (L) New what? What does that mean?
A: What it is.
Q: (T) New as in “renewed?”
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Beginning?
A: See how one simple word causes you to use your minds?
Q: (T) Yes.
A: And if we had given you a long and eloquent response, as you desired, you would not have!
Q: (L) Any more words on this subject?
A: No, thank you!
Here I would like to point out some of the ways the Universe utilizes the phonetic cabala, or Language of the Gods to send us messages if we are alert enough to pay attention. I was very deep in a study of the Rennes-le-Château mystery as introduced to the world by Henry Lincoln et al., at the very time that Ark first wrote to me. We note the most interesting fact that he goes by “Ark,” and I had already channeled the ideas of Quantum Cosmic Metamorphosis in 1985, centering around the subject of the Flood of Noah. The book was, in fact, entitled “Noah,” which is very close to “Neo,” or “New,” and the theme was discovering the true meaning of the Ark. The second interesting fact is that his full name is Arkadiusz, or the Polish variation of Arcadia, and the central mystery of the Rennes-le-Château affair happens to be a painting entitled “The Shepherds of Arcadia.”
Since Ark was back in Europe at the time of the above session, he was asking his questions via computer. He had written a little synopsis earlier in the day; what he called a “Bird’s Eye View” of the situation. He wrote as follows:
Some thoughts:
Before I go on to study all these Celts and Cathars and Templars and grails and bloodlines and dna and gold and mercury and oaks and …
Before all this let me try to formulate my present view of the situation. It will be a kind of a bird’s eye view; from a distance when details are unimportant. So I will pick up SOME themes that seem to me important. There will be several of these themes and they will be discussed separately.
1. I take it as a hypothesis which perhaps is true and perhaps not, but I take it to be true unless proven otherwise: that for you and for me nothing happens by mere accident. All that happens has a meaning and purpose. It is hard work for us to find out what is this purpose exactly and to an extent we are also the creators of this purpose.
Thus it is not an accident that you are who you are. It is not an accident that I am a physicist. It is not an accident that we are separated for a while. It is not an accident that we have had our lives the way we had. It could be little bit different, or it is a little bit different in some parallel realities, but we are now concerned about our reality, our present and our future.
2. Thus every book that you ever read was not an accident and every conversation that you ever had; even those silly books and conversations were lessons. The same with me.
3. We are both searching for something and it was clear that we would never find it in this lifetime while alone. There was ONE who you saw somehow in your imagination. There was also my thoroughly repressed idea of having an “American wife”. Somehow it was coming to my head, but I was instantly repelling it as a completely silly thought. But it was knocking. This way I was being “prepared” because otherwise I was/am very conservative.
Anyhow we have found each other and there is purpose in that. I take it as possible that you/me – we are connected to the Creator and are distant parts of it so that we are His tools and we are responsible for something, this something being the whole universe and its fate. This is not a crazy idea. It can be explained in completely plain terms. You/me – we can discover something, a formula or an idea that will change the future development of humanity – even if a little, it will magnify after years and years so that world will be “saved” by it. This is what we learned from the concepts of chaotic mechanics. There are systems, if sufficiently complex, such that a little change now leads to a dramatic change after a time.
Now the universe is not only a complex system but also it has intelligence in it. It may well be that an “intelligent” change that we do now will change completely the fate of the universe. Instead of dying a thermal death it will flourish forever …
My whole life I have lived with this feeling of responsibility. It was a recurring theme in my journal. If we accept the hypothesis that nothing happens to US by chance then there is a purpose in this feeling too.
4. So we you/me are responsible. We accept it. That is clear. Now, from Cs we know you have “all the keys”. In a sense we find it in Pleiadians or in the Bible that everybody has the keys. But in too many these keys are broken, destroyed, desynchronized, detuned and hard or impossible to make them work. We do not know how many people there are on this earth who have keys and how many of them are already using these keys or assisting other people in using them. And for a while it does not matter. All is lesson – we accept it – and we have our homework. Neither you nor me have a wish “to be told”.
5. So you have the keys and we were brought together. Now, I am a physicist and know the math which is the universal language. On the other hand you know and like all these funny stories that merge history/alchemy/whatever. These are all words while math is all logic. While physics is testable and helps us to build technologies, this stuff of grail and Templars and Rennes is somewhat unsharp and for those who have no math, can lead nowhere …
But NO! If nothing with us happens accidentally, then the fact that you are interested in what you are interested is also not an accident. So what can be a purpose of all that? A purpose can be that the KNOWLEDGE is not just math and equations but it is also intelligence and consciousness and mind and idea. Because equations DO NOTHING alone. So we need both. There were many that perhaps followed the path of technology and are working underground doing “great physics” or “great math”. But this is not what we are about. We do not want to sell our souls like Faustus. We do not serve to the dark. Therefore we need knowledge. And the more knowledge we have the more protected we are. This point is again easily understood in plain terms. Once we play not only with TDARM’s and time machines and gold making but also with ouija boards and history and templars and Arcadian shepherds and all this funny stuff – we are not considered as dangerous because we clearly are not after power. Neither do we want to take power FROM somebody.
Our goal is all different. We have our personal mission to fulfill: External dark forces being dispersed by multiplicity of our frequencies – so to say.
6. But why ARE all these Templars and Rosicrucians important? Because it is all knowledge. Pieces of knowledge from here and there. We are not gonna use or try to use this knowledge. But somehow it is necessary for us to know this so as to find out the best possible use of this knowledge.
7. I think this IS true that the only limits that we find are those imposed by our own minds and thinking habits. Thus we must be more and more bold in our thinking. On the other hand we need always to go step by step. Otherwise there is danger.
8. Is the life sufficiently long? We take it as a working hypothesis that yes, it is. Because it depends only on us how long it is gonna be. There is a great work that is in front of us and this work includes rethinking and rearranging our cellular structure. We believe it can be done even with the presently known (secret) technology. The fountain of youth, and such things, but also what we know from Cs and Pleiadians and alchemical texts etc. all point to it. It is possible. But the point is of course what purpose one is using it for. If just for prolonging one’s own life – well … But we have something different in mind because we are service-men here for the Creator, to whom we return.
9. So we continue. I do my math but also I have to learn a lot of stuff. Not only I NEED TO LEARN, BUT ALSO I NEED TO HELP YOU AND WE ARE SUPPOSED TO ACT TOGETHER!
Now, we come to the session on July 12, 1996, wherein Ark, writing from Florence at the time, wanted me to ask about this “Bird’s Eye View” of the situation. I didn’t read it aloud or share it with the group, wanting to prevent any “leading” in the answer.
Q: OK, here is Ark’s first question: if the general view of the situation that I wrote you, “bird’s view” is correct?
A: Why not? The thought would not be so “nagging” if were not so!
Q: Or, perhaps, I am missing some important point(s), and if so what is(are) this point(s)?
A: When one is on a quest for true learning and higher knowledge, there are no “missing points,” only those not yet discovered!
Q: How “long” will they still be able to use the Cassiopaean transmitter, should we start to take some steps thinking of the future when the transmission point will have to be moved? Or, perhaps, this is not something we have to worry about in advance? I would like to know … I do not like to be taken by surprise …
A: No need to worry!
Q: Is there anything that you can say to help him with his worries? He is probably gonna worry anyway …
A: “If one has the will of a Lion, one does not have the fate of a mouse!”
In the following segment from the session, the question about the event referred to a period of several hours on the 9th of July, when we experienced a break in computer communication, accompanied by several glitches in our own understanding of what the other was saying. It was as though the reality had shifted and something was not quite in sync. It had upset me and my first thought was that some sort of wave or frequency was being picked up by one or the other of us, leading to some confusion. There was a severe storm in Florence, and three mild earthquakes in the region. What we didn’t know at the time was that a flood was beginning in Poland that was going to directly affect our own affairs. Since we were at the end of our questions, before stopping for the night, I tossed in the question about the event just to see if my idea about some frequency in the air was correct.
Q: What was the influence that caused our little “event” of the past few days?
A: S waves.
Q: What is an S wave?
A: Look it up.
Q: Who was being subjected to the S waves?
A: Ark.
Q: Was this having an effect because of the events in Dijon? [He had spent a few weeks visiting University of Dijon before traveling to Florence, and had there suffered from insomnia at night, and overwhelming sleepiness in the day time. The Cs had said that there were 4D influences in operation, connected to the Max Planck Institute which was directly across the street from Ark’s office, two months before, in Göttingen.]
A: Semi.
Q: Well, what other factor is involved?
A: Arkadiusz is strong willed. Must be to be seeker of worlds. To paraphrase: “I am become ONE … Creator of worlds.” And, on that contemplative note, good night.
So, regarding Ark and his “Bird’s Eye View,” the Cs had said: “If one has the will of a Lion, one does not have the fate of a mouse!” … Arkadiusz is strong willed. Must be to be seeker of worlds. “I am become ONE … Creator of worlds.”
All of which takes us back to the perpendicular realities converging and merging at the realm border, a group of seven, “packing a potent punch” to “pierce the spider,” and Neo/Noah/New. Which brings us to this:
August 17, 2000
Q: Our little egroup discussion list is growing. Everyone is talking about the Wave: what does it mean, what is it, when is it coming, how are we going to be able to tell, and so on. I have been collecting the material and getting it in shape. I have been learning a lot as I go along as well. It isn’t finished, but as I go along, I do have some questions. We would like to have a little bit of a clue about the progress of the Wave. I would also like to know if this Wave is sort of like the recompiling of a computer program, with the universe as the program? What is the progress, and is it going to recompile the program of our universe?
A: So many questions rolled up into one. But, one way it might go is that all of a sudden, everything that ever was is new, everything that IS is new, and everything that will be is new. Programs change, oh we suppose, what an awesome event indeed!
Returning now to the present situation, the tempest in a teapot, so to say. As we are beginning to suspect, there are theological dynamics being expressed in our world via the psychological expressions of human beings across the globe. Our own piece of the puzzle is only one part of it, which may or may not be significant in the sense that Ark has described it in his “Bird’s Eye View” of the situation. Only time will tell. There are certainly forces acting to negate any such possibility of our small, local activity in the universe having any positive nonlinear effect.
We are not the only ones experiencing such attacks. We have received many emails from people who say that something very strange happened to our world on September 11. Many people feel that the universe changed in some way, exactly as it was described in the movie, The Matrix, where the controllers “change the program.” Many, many people are experiencing similar dynamics, or the struggle between forces at higher levels, manifested in their daily lives, their human interactions, their relationships, and so forth. What can all of this extreme polarization – these pockets of chaos – represent? Has the world gone mad?
In this book, I don’t intend to go through the entire transcripts to exhaustively examine each and every related reference. With what I have described thus far, the reader will probably have sufficient tools to do that themselves and draw some meaningful conclusions about the behind-the-scenes events that led to any particular series of questions. But, there is a small series of connections that I still must present before we move on to the present situation in some greater detail.
This next excerpt, from June 9, 1995, was a sort of emergency session with just myself and Frank in order to ask about an exorcism I had just recently performed which literally would have peeled the chrome off a car bumper. What was also on my mind was the fact that Frank had become so lethargic and tired since the group had gone back to regular and frequent sessions. Before our “episode,” Frank had always been charged up by the sessions, and now he was complaining regularly of being exhausted. I was concerned for his health.
Q: (L) Why is Frank so tired lately?
A: Depression.
Q: (L) Is there anything I can do to help?
A: Let it “run its course,” karmic in nature.
Q: (L) Well, Frank has such a lovely aura, how can he have such icky karma?
A: Not “icky” karma, has to do with adjustment factors.
Q: (L) As soon as he adjusts in some way, he will stop having these depressions?
A: Not point.
Q: (L) What is the point? I mean, he is suffering. It is awful to have to spend so much time suffering.
A: Adjustment process.
Q: (L) What is he adjusting from to?
A: Not to be answered at this point.
Q: (L) Edgar Cayce said you could just stop karma at any point by opening your awareness and making a decision. Why can’t Frank do that? Can anybody do that? Can you just say: “I’ve had enough,” and stop it?
A: No, because not usual circumstance.
Q: (L) Is Frank’s karma “special” karma?
A: Subjective. Different.
Q: (L) Different from the usual. Is there any thing that he could do to make it better? Any clue? Any word of encouragement?
A: Won’t change until environment does.
Q: (L) Do you mean the environment as in the whole planet, or his personal environment?
A: Former.
Q: (L) Does this mean he is going to have this until we all go to fourth density?
A: Until status quo is abridged.
Q: (L) What is the status quo?
A: Self explanatory.
Q: (L) So, it doesn’t mean going into fourth density necessarily, but until the status quo of the planet is abridged, or some change occurs in the status quo?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, when some sweeping changes in the status quo of the planet occur, Frank will “come into his own?” Is that correct?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this going to happen soon?
A: Open.
Definition of status quo: the existing state of affairs. “Temporal,” perhaps? Abridged: to lessen, reduce in scope; lessen or curtail rights or authority.
As most of us realize, the status quo of the planet was “abridged” in a big way on September 11, 2001. It was a watershed event and our lives will never be the same again. National Guard units patrol airport terminals and our nation’s Capitol, the Senate office building is closed because of the threat of anthrax. Barricades block streets leading to the White House. The FBI is detaining hundreds of suspects, the recently passed “Patriot Bill” (H.R. 3108) suspends important provisions of the Bill of Rights, the Office of Homeland Security has been established, and the The Model State Emergency Health Powers Act will soon become the law of the land. Most people accept what is happening because they’ve been told we must change our way of life and accept more government surveillance to preserve our liberty. Nothing could be further from the truth. The new measures are designed to restrict our freedom, undermine our Constitution, and usher in the New World Order.
Why did the Cs give a sort of “prediction” that Frank’s “different karma” would not be evident until the environment on the planet was “abridged?” My question as to whether Frank would “come into his own” at that point in time was answered with “Close.” So why is it that Frank’s life would change and become less difficult when the status quo is abridged? Could it be because, in some way, he is a part of the forces that are abridging the status quo?
I couldn’t figure it out. What’s more, I also missed the clues about Frank’s depression and adjustment. The Cs did not want to answer the question about what he was adjusting from and to, but it is obvious in retrospect. At this point in time, what Frank was adjusting to was the increased scrutiny of the group members regarding his claims to be the channel, and a higher being. With this added vigilance, he was obviously no longer able to use the sessions to drain energy from me. But there is a lot more in the above session than meets the eye and I am sure that the reader will catch it without me spelling it out.
Looking back at events then and currently, it is rather amazing that the Cs chose that exact word to describe Frank coming into his own, so to say. “Abridged.” A Bridge? Bridges? Again, the phonetic cabala, the Language of the Birds, or the Language of the Gods is part of the clue system. As I noted previously, the combination of a “Grant and a Bridges” in my early life (recounted in Amazing Grace) nearly drained all life force from me, resulting in my vulnerability to an attempt to take me out of the picture. This was, of course, after the attempt to remove me from the scene in many other ways had failed, including the incident in Tallahassee when I was 18. It is obvious in retrospect that all of these were deliberate setups of interpersonal relations designed to do just that. In the present moment, we seem to have another Grant and Bridges combo with a far more insidious purpose.
There are several other places in the transcripts where the word abridge is used, and it is interesting to notice that it is in the context of abridgment of free will. The Cs say: “Free Will could not be abridged if you had not obliged,” referring to the human race’s Fall from Eden. And as the Cs pointed out:
March 11, 1995
Q: (T) We were third density STO at this time. Was this after the battle that had transpired? In other words, were we, as a third density race, literally on our own at that point, as opposed to before?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) The battle was through us as to whether we would walk through this doorway … (L) The battle was fought through us, we were literally the battleground. (T) I got that, but I want to get back to this analogy to make sure where we are in the overall picture. The battle was going on when the door was opened. Was the battle over whether or not we walked through that door?
A: Close.
Q: (T) OK, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh Terry, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts!
And of course, we see that this relates directly to Frank’s choice. The Cs said that his life was hard, because his mind was a battleground, and that the question was: would the dark or light forces win? And then, at a certain point, they mentioned that he was suffering depression – anger turned inwards – because he was having “adjustment” problems. They then said that his suffering would end when the status quo was “abridged,” and we are now in that time. I am not certain that the Cs were predicting that choice, though it seems that way. As always, any of us can change our minds at any moment in “time,” as the Cs pointed out to Terry. But there may be some factor involved in this abridging of the status quo that locks a person in to whatever choice is made in this, our present period of chaos which is an expression of the cosmos asking the individual to make that choice. Everyone is currently facing this choice. The battle has been entered; it is taking place through us, at this point in time.
And that brings us back to the more recent times when the following was said:
July 15, 2000
Q: Well, Frank felt that the attack would come through Constellation, but I guess if Ark was sick, that would be sort of true, because then, he couldn’t work. Is that why Frank picked it up that way?
A: Partly, but other complications lurk … Jealousies building with one who has a name with a “B.”
Q: Any particular action to take to forestall that one?
A: Be on alert to conferences with others.
Question is: how does all of this fit together? The “abridged status quo,” the karmic destiny of a soul that would only come into his own comfort zone when forces of darkness began to rampage on the planet, the person with the letter “B” in the name, and conferences?
As it happens, there are a number of people in the drama who have the letter “B” in their names. And just “who is on first” has been a subject of some discussion. The answers may be surprising.
Knowledge Protects.
The reader should keep in mind always that when we are talking about petty tyrants, we are talking about agents of the Matrix in almost exactly the same terms described in the movie. In other words, anyone can – in an instant – receive the “download” of an “agent program” and begin to function as a petty tyrant for the very first time. By the same token, when an agent in a certain quarter is no longer needed, he/she can be turned off and the individual will go along living a peaceful life, never bothering anyone unless – and until – they are needed as an agent again. And truthfully, any of us can, at any time, be activated as a petty tyrant in someone else’s life! However, once one has entered the path of the warrior or STO candidate, as the Cs describe it, that is less likely. The reason for this is that the awareness and acknowledgment that it is always possible contributes to the warrior’s defenses against such manipulation. As don Juan suggests, one of the chief traits of the warrior is self-examination. A warrior is self-oriented, not in a selfish way, but in the sense of a total and continuous examination of the self. Warriors continuously take strategic inventories in an effort to eradicate their own self-importance which is what makes human beings vulnerable to being used as agents in the Matrix.
The story I am going to recount in the upcoming pages will seem unbelievable, I can assure you. If we had not lived it ourselves, we wouldn’t believe it either. But since we are both pack rats and save every email we have ever received, every scrap of paper, every note, and Ark has 30 years worth of journals, all of the evidence that every word is true is easily available. And as we go along, I will use excerpts from some of these sources, if not entire emails. What you will begin to see, as I describe the events, is the mechanism of the Matrix exposed. It is both frightening and liberating. What is more, you will notice certain names and connections that will pop up again and again in relation to certain activities.
When the Cassiopaeans arrived on the scene, I had no idea that this was part of what I would be learning. It’s really a good thing that I learned the principle before The Matrix came out or I would have never believed it! But, by early 1996, I had the principle in my grasp, and, as it happens, the Universe immediately challenged me to utilize what I had learned. The main petty tyrant in my life at that point was my ex-husband. Even though I had not yet even read The Fire From Within at that point, I employed a similar strategy to that outlined by don Juan, and escaped from that situation without ever wishing any ill-will toward my ex, which is, in the end, the objective: to not become like the petty tyrant – full of anger, resentment, self-righteous indignation, and other energy-draining emotions. I wasn’t much of a warrior at that point because it nearly killed me to deal with that one, and he was only a teensy, teensy, weensy petty tyrant. This may have been due to the fact that he was, and is, essentially a decent, caring person. He had his programs, and it is a certainty that my energy was nearly drained out of me to the point of death, but he was never mean or vicious. He was only unaware. But it is those who are unaware that can most easily be used as agents. Anyone who denies the possibility is a dangerous companion to one who is aware. They can be turned on or off in an instant.
Meanwhile, Ark had his own petty tyrants to deal with – far more than I ever would have dreamed of since he was an administrator at a University with a staff and a budget under his control, and a chain of command above and below him. He was also married to one of the great petty tyrants of all time, so it took some doing to strategically deal with that situation. His skills had been honed, however, by long years dealing with the tyranny of life behind the Iron Curtain, so he learned the Art of Stalking from masters. He just didn’t know about fourth density stalking.
Once the Cs had brought us into contact with one another, the Matrix, the Evil Magician, the fourth density Control System, went into hyperdrive to prevent us from ever actually joining forces. We have already noted that the role of petty tyrant can rotate and shift, and that it is merely the tool of the theological reason for the events in our lives, and here is where we are going to see this in action. Most of this had to do with the legal system in Poland, and Ark’s efforts to obtain a divorce there, which we finally gave up and he obtained his divorce in America. But there was a lot of agent activation in his life, most of which could be explained in completely mundane ways.
There are, of course, many people who would suggest that it is all a part of a vast, human conspiracy, and that the individuals involved were conscious or in contact with one another. But I am sure that the reader will see that this would pre-suppose a network of conspirators that is simply impossible to conceive. I had a vision of how it works once. In the image in my mind, I could see a fourth density controller sitting at a big computer console with buttons and levers and dials. He had a screen on which he watched human affairs, and all he had to do was sort of lock in the target on a particular person displayed on the screen, and begin pushing buttons and levers, and turning the different dials to put certain inputs into the situation. These machinations produced frequencies that stimulated certain chemicals in the bodies and brains of the individuals displayed on the screen, and there were nearly infinite possibilities of manipulation available just through this kind of activity. I laughed at this vision, of course, because it was almost like a comic strip character. But I was later to learn how much it really does seem like this is the real way it works.
At the same time, however, there were also active positive influences that seemed to be operative. It is in observing the activities of the various players in action that the theological drama reveals itself.
So, where were we? Oh yes, physicist meets channel and they each discover that the other is the One they have been looking for. However, in order for the physicist to be able to do what needs to be done, if anything needs to be done, he can’t just ditch his job, leave the country, and toss caution to the winds. He must proceed through channels. Everything must be arranged in proper order for the safety of both parties, as well as their future success.
The reader who has read Amazing Grace might recall the bizarre little episode of the “two “Wilburs.” For those who haven’t read it, let me quote that short passage from Chapter 42 here before coming back to the matter at hand which ties it together:
At this time, events began to converge rapidly in a strange synchronicity. Random threads from the past, in the space of a few weeks, began weaving together in a coherent design in ways that astonished me.
The phone rang one day with a call from my Private Investigator friend. We’d cooperated on the 1993 child murder investigation. He had a question about something unrelated to that case. At the end of our exchange, he asked me about a conversation I had with a certain law enforcement employee. Well, this conversation had never happened.
“What are you talking about?”
“I called you back in October when he was here in the office with me,” my friend said, “and one of your kids said you were in the hospital. I left his number and a message that you should call him. I was sure you had by now.”
I never got the message. The kids must have forgotten. I called the number and left a message.
I’ll call him “Marion Wilbore”. I knew that “Marion” was fairly common as a man’s name in the past, but it was unusual now, so I thought it odd. Also, Wilbur was the name of my brother and grandfather.
Two days later, Marion Wilbore returned my call. I thought it was most curious this guy should call on my Grandfather’s birthday, February 11th. Two “Wilburs”.
Then the phone rang again. This time, it was “Marion Wilson,” the owner of a local used book store, calling to tell me that she had a copy of Velikovsky’s Worlds in Collision that I could have for seven dollars. I was so excited that I told her to put a “sold” tag on it and I would be right down. I’d been searching for this book without success for two years.
It wasn’t until I hung up that I realized the pattern. “Marion Wilbore? Marion Wilson? Two Marions? Two Wilburs? What is going on here?!”
The phone rang again. I almost didn’t answer it, but decided I’d better. It was Sam, my cousin, whom I’d met for the first time at the MUFON meeting. Sam is the one whose name is my grandfather, Wilbur’s middle name. He, too, was calling to announce that he had just found a copy of Velikovsky’s Worlds in Collision in a box of books in his garage. He knew I had been looking for it, and it was mine if I wanted it!
Well, that was just TOO much! Two “Marions,” two Wilburs on Wilbur’s birthday, two last names beginning with “Wil,” two copies of Velikovsky after two years of searching, one of them from a guy who had Wilbur’s middle name as a last name.
All within about half an hour!
I mean, what were the chances of two completely unrelated people named “Marion,” with their last names beginning with “Wil” – for God’s sake! – calling me within a few minutes of each other? And what were the odds, within the same few minutes, of having two people offer me a specific book after two years of trying to locate it?
What were the odds of the whole rest of the deal?
I shook my head to clear the cobwebs, sure that I was being taken over by “magical thinking”. I knew things were getting weird, I just didn’t know how weird they were gonna get.
As it happens, I had been to see my brother, Wilbur (he goes by the name Tom), on the day Ark first read a transcript from the Cs and decided to write to me. He actually wrote the next morning, which happened to be my brother’s birthday, July 5th. That’s one Wilbur.
Then, on July 16th, eleven days later, which also happened to be the two-year anniversary of the first transmission from the Cs, a very strange thing happened.
Ark was at a conference in Goslar, Germany. He was trying to think of how to come to Florida within the parameters of the system in which he had to function. It seems that the Cs must have been active. He wrote to me:
Date sent: Tues, 16 Jul 96 08:41:24
From: “ajad@physik”
Dear Laura,
Yesterday there was a party and I met a colleague physicist from Gainesville and he will invite me to Gainesville somewhere next year for a month or two. We will see what will happen. In fact I was supposed to go there two years ago and I had even booked a plane, but then, on a hunch, I canceled all. Till recently I did not understand the reasons. Now I understand. I have now more reasons to come. It is not that far from Gainesville to New Port Richey.
I go to prepare my talk.
ark
As soon as his series of conferences that summer were over and he had returned and settled back in to work at the Institute, Ark began the process of negotiating the visit through the proper channels. It was several months before all the paperwork was done.
From: “ajad@physik”
Subject: news
Date sent: Mon, 25 Nov 1996 11:34:49 +1
All good news.
Talked to the Rector. They will help me – no problem! There will be no money problem and there will be no visa problem. And as you know by now, John will also help.
The arrangements were made between the two institutions, and a firm date was set for our first meeting. Ark would arrive in Tampa on February 11, my grandfather’s birthday. The second Wilbur. And here is when it begins to get really weird. Exactly two days later he received the following, suddenly and out of the blue.
Date: Wed, 27 Nov 1996 03:12:03 +0100
To: Arkadiusz Jadczyk “ajad@ift”
From: “L** E. S**” “****”
Subject: Space, Time and Matter
Dear Professor Jadczyk,
I have read your papers on Event-Enhanced Quantum Theory, which I liked very much. I am offering you the following: The Central European University of Budapest will hold a workshop on philosophical questions of physics. I wonder if you would be interested to participate! […] Wednesday, 22 January:
All of your expenses, of course, will be covered by the CEU.
Sincerely yours,
L****
Aside from the curious date of the conference, 1-22, Ark had never heard of the Central European University. Who were these people, and why were they writing to him all of a sudden and offering, on what is really short notice in such things, to pay him to come and sit around and talk? He wasn’t even being asked to give a talk. Just hang out. And when the specific terms later were specified, it was something of a surprise. Who were these new kids on the block with so much money to hand out?
The Central European University was established in 1989, funded by George Soros, a philanthropist billionaire with very forward-looking ideas. Much of his philanthropy is aimed at improving networking between those countries formerly behind the Iron Curtain, and the West. As it happens, Central European University is also chartered in the State of New York, and has the status of Publicly-Supported Educational Institution Granted by the IRS – 501 (c) (3), the most favorable tax-exempt status, that of a publicly-supported educational institution.
After we had researched it, we didn’t see any reason for Ark not to go. Besides, I wanted pictures of Budapest. The money wasn’t bad either. Nothing like getting paid to take a little vacation and stay in a fancy hotel.
And here we come to the strange event in Budapest. Yes, it’s already just a tiny bit strange to get the invitation two days after arrangements are confirmed to come to the U.S. for two months; it’s even stranger the circumstances under which the invitation came, not to mention the lure of the bux that was dangled, but all of that can be shoved under the rug. Who knows the ways of the Universe, right?
Ark took a train to Budapest, and when he arrived he was met and taken to a very nice hotel in the city. As soon as he had settled in, he called me and gave me the number there. The university was all the way across town, and there was no Internet access from the hotel, so there are only a few emails from this period. Most of what happened was discussed over the telephone.
Ark was already in bed on the evening of the 23rd when a call came from the hotel management. The clerk asked him, “Are you Dr. Jadczyk?” Ark said yes. He was asked several other interrogatory questions, and then asked to please get dressed and come downstairs.
When he got downstairs, he was asked again if he was Dr. Jadczyk. After saying yes, he was asked if he was missing any papers. He was sure he was not because he kept his papers, his passport and wallet and credit cards, in a belt pack when traveling.
But the clerk, after hemming and hawing around, produced both his passport and his wallet with credit cards and all. It was claimed that someone had found them in the computer lab at the University and had turned them in to the hotel management.
Well, this was so unlikely a story that Ark could hardly believe it. He retrieved his possessions, went right upstairs and called me. The whole situation was perfectly ludicrous. In the first place, if someone found the papers in the computer lab, and knew enough about to whom they belonged to convey them to the right hotel, why didn’t that person just call Ark on the phone and say they had found his papers? The hotel clerk refused to identify who had found them, and that was suspicious also.
But that didn’t even come close to explaining how his papers were removed from his belt pack. He was absolutely certain that he had the belt pack on the entire time, had not opened it in the computer lab, had not had any reason to open it at any other time before he returned to the hotel, and the only possible time it could have been removed from his person was during the ride back to the hotel on the public trolley. He had stayed behind that day to write an email to me from the computer lab at the University when all the other conference participants had been transported back to the hotel, so he had to go back alone on the public transportation. It had been crowded, so it would not have been impossible for a skillful pickpocket to have filched the papers.
But why would they return them? And why not just take them up to the room and deliver them? Why the big official drama about getting dressed and coming downstairs to identify what the hotel management must have known was his property. After all, he had checked in, they knew his name and room number.
The whole thing stunk to high heaven. I decided to ask Cs:
January 25, 1997
Q: (T) Is the government watching [Ark]?
A: Yes. […]
Q: (T) Is the U.S. government watching him? Or at least have taken note of his actions? Think about it; he was invited to the conference.
A: That may be true long before any of this!
Q: (T) They’re watching him because he’s a top-rated European scientist; they watch everybody. But, just think; he was invited to the conference, and you asked why was he invited to the conference, besides for his expertise?
A: If you beg for advice in this matter, we will say only this: perhaps best to concentrate all, and we do mean all, energies upon this matter and the seriousness therein during communications. There will be “time” for matters more akin to the “future,” and of the heart, at a later juncture. Needs to understand the dangers that lurk, and that are potentially extreme, once and for all!!!!! […]
Q: (T) The Feds, and the scientific community want to make sure that Ark’s not doing something behind their back that they should be aware of at this point. Are we right about the papers, and the passport and the credit card?
A: Partially.
Q: (L) What happened to the passport and the credit card?
A: Examination, encoding, and alteration for purposes of monitoring.
Q: (L) Where did they remove them? Where were they taken? Where was he when they were taken?
A: Seated in crowded setting.
Q: (J) When were they replaced? (L) They weren’t replaced; they were given back to him at the desk. (J) Oh, that’s right! (L) Who took them? (J) Who returned them?
A: Agent from Alpha 1.
Q: (T) Probably a government program. (J) Theirs, or ours? (L) They’re all the same.
A: Both.
Q: (L) OK, would it be advisable for him to try and have these cards replaced?
A: No!!!
Q: (T) It won’t matter. Besides, if he does that, then they’ll know he knows! Then, they’ll just give him another set that’s marked!
A: Knowledge protects and … ignorance endangers!
Q: (L) And what else was it about that whole situation that we wanted to know? Was Ark trying to communicate to me that he was in danger when he was telling me about the cards and paperwork, or that he was aware of the situation?
A: Sensed something awry, but misdiagnosed, partially.
Q: (J) Why was the phone call to him in his room so interrogatory?
A: To gauge awareness.
Q: (L) Are they monitoring my phone calls to him there, every day?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) They even monitor phone calls to Canada and back, and we’re buddies. We’re all the same country, it’s across-border, and they monitor them. (J) Are they monitoring all your phone calls? (L) Probably.
A: Sometimes “they” even monitor these communications. Long ago, we told you how technology now existent makes such things as phone taps, for but one example, totally, completely, and ridiculously obsolete.
Q: (L) Should I try to tell him anything, either by the phone, or by e-mail, about this?
A: Pointless.
Q: (T) You don’t have to. He has to be aware of it on his own, and from what you’ve already told us, he’s aware. The scientology thing has to have really blown him away … where would that come from?
A: Assumptions. Awareness needs to be increased. And, we must tell you that “secret world government” technologies are approximately 150 years in advance of anything that you have access to.
Q: (L) Why is it pointless for me to try to communicate any of this to him? Why did you reply “pointless” to that?
A: Not what we said. It is not pointless to warn him to smarten up on the vigilance and caution scales. Just pointless to try to direct him with details, or practice “subterfuge.” After all, when your mind can be read like the morning newspaper, what is the point?
And so, even though it was a small, strange incident, we had our first real in-your-face clue that somebody really was watching, and that there were, indeed, strange things going on behind the scenes. And it was going to get a lot uglier. There were petty tyrants everywhere.
The sparring match had begun.
At this point I would like to divert back into the past again for a little bit in order to discuss some of the background issues that are important to this process of recapitulation and revealing the Matrix.
Over the course of the past few days we had a meeting of members of the group, past and present, in order to discuss Frank-as-Cypher-in-the-Matrix. One of the many subjects that was put on the table was the issue of Frank’s direct channeling, as well as several instances in which group members had strong, instinctive negative reactions to the material, none of which made sense until now. In a very real way, Frank has done all of us a favor by revealing his true agenda and orientation. This has made it quite easy to spot when Frank’s controllers or Franks emotions were in motion, skewing the material.
Of course, all of us were just smacking ourselves in the forehead that we didn’t think of it before. But Frank was very, very good at it. He’s probably a lot better than his present compadres realize. After all, he spent years embezzling from a guy who is said to have been one of the smoothest operators in the business.
As I mentioned before, when Frank channeled directly, there was a repellant air that emanated from him. We discussed this at length, those who had experienced it attempting to describe it in words for those who had not. A couple of members proposed the idea that the directly channeled sessions ought to be completely disregarded as being entirely corrupted. I pointed out that, in all fairness, even if the material was subject to being skewed by Frank’s emotional or programmed agendas, he was still able to be very accurate due to the well-pipe analogy. As long as he was in the physical presence of the individual asking the questions, he could tune into that person’s mind to some extent, most particularly when the questions were personal. In this way, under hypnosis, he was quite able to channel via a sort of telepathy, the same way he was able to accurately read palms. He simply connected to the individual asking the questions and sort of vacuumed the information out and verbalized it, as long as they were physically present. At the same time, it seems pretty obvious that even if Frank claimed that he channeled “all the time,” whatever he was channeling on his own, out of our presence, was very likely being beamed from a satellite at the very least, or downloaded from fourth density STS at most.
Another point we discussed was the fact that even things that may seem to be negative occurrences from one perspective, can be very positive from another. We have already noted the fact that STS-oriented individuals have a sort of semantic aphasia – likely a consequence of wishful thinking, and even when an obvious truth is right in front of their faces, they cannot see the range, depth, or associative properties of the principle. It was in this sense that Frank was quite able to participate in the delivery of material of a very STO orientation, because he simply could not understand what it really meant.
So it is that, in the present instance, Frank’s declared alignment with the forces whose origin and activities are under discussion, we now have a much better handle on understanding some of the formerly puzzling elements from certain sessions that were so completely out of character for the Cs. As we revisit the transcripts with Frank’s exposed agenda and assignment to download, steal, drain, and then destroy, we are better equipped to recognize that activity and to literally spot Frank in action when his STS agent mode was activated! Fortunately, as the Cs themselves denoted, it was only 30 percent corruption.
It wasn’t just the direct channeling that suffered from Frank’s manipulations, or from Frank being manipulated, whichever the case may be. Even with the presence of Terry, there were instances of the bleed-through of something – either from a higher density STS source or Frank’s psychological agenda. As we have already speculated, the latter is the tool of the former, so it’s difficult to separate the two.
I would like to discuss here several session excerpts. In the first one, Terry announced at the beginning of the session that he was low on energy, and we can now recognize that this might have tended to reduce the shielding effect. If Terry was low on energy, it would mean that Frank’s negative agenda would be more able to manifest, as was, indeed, the case. What made the session even more problematical was the presence of guests – this was the first session attended by Tom French.
I was pretty happy that Tom had decided to attend a session. I was absolutely certain that he would see that the group was far more interesting than I was. I hoped that the result would be that he would then want to interview the other members and that the focus might shift to the group and away from me, individually and specifically.
When he scheduled his attendance at this session, Tom had specifically asked that we should not do anything in any way different from any other session – he just wanted to be a fly on the wall, so to speak. I promised that would I try to make everything as “normal” as possible. I decided not to notify any of the group members in advance that Tom would be at the session. I wasn’t being discourteous by springing something on them that they might not find agreeable, because all of them had already said that they hoped he would attend a session soon. As I saw it, Tom’s attendance would be a surprise, but a nice one. At the same time, I was keeping my promise not to do anything different. Now, let’s look at a few specific remarks from that session:
June 3, 1995
Q: (L) Hello.
A: Hello.
Q: (T) I’m running on low energy. […] (L) We have guests this evening; this is Tom and Cherie.
A: Hello Tom and Cherie.
The session went along rather normally, with the standard kinds of questions we ordinarily asked, and nothing particularly different in any way. Anyone can read the sessions and determine that this is so, which is what made the remark so surprising.
A: This is more complex than your queries allow.
Q: (L) In other words, our questions are not complex enough to get the answer?
A: You are “rushing it” due to company present, now please relax and just behave as always.
Q: (J) She’s trying to show off! (L) I am not! (SV) That’s what they said! (L) That’s not what they said, and I am not the only one asking questions. (T) Let’s start over with something simple. We are talking about the aura or something similar. The planet’s aura.
A: Yes.
I was more than a little stung by such a remark, followed by Jan’s declaration that I was showing off. What was more, as I pointed out at the moment, I wasn’t the only one asking questions, nor was I in any way rushing anything. A bit later, the Cs made the comment: “You are drifting and there is much too much thought fragmentation tonight.”
We can now recognize that the suggestion that the subject was too complex for the board would have lead to the suggestion for Frank to channel directly. If anything would have turned Tom French off to the Cs, that would have done it. So, even though Jan’s teasing remark focused the attention in her direction, we can now see that it was a diversion away from Frank’s agenda. The remark that there was too much thought fragmentation was a warning from Cs that something was going on, and in retrospect we think that it was a sort of “battle of forces.” What happened toward the end of the session was also rather strange:
Q: (L) Let’s go onto something else that is more simple. The other night the children saw some lights in the sky. I went out to see what they were talking about and at that point there were no moving lights, but there was a single, pulsating, red light about ten degrees to the right of Jupiter. My initial reaction to it was that it was atmospheric twinkle of a large red star or the planet Mars. There was nothing there the following night. What was it the children saw?
A: Children saw planes and a helicopter.
Q: (L) Well, what was it I saw when I saw this red, pulsating light which did not move for quite some time?
A: Mars.
Q: (L) It was not Mars because it wasn’t there the next night.
A: Clouds.
Q: (T) Yeah, there were clouds on Mars that night. (J) Well, let’s move on. (L) Well, I thought it was Mars. (J) You were right.
A: You were right.
The only problem was, it could not have been Mars. And at that moment, I knew it couldn’t have been Mars. But rather than argue the point, I decided to let it drop. I was hugely disappointed that the session had not been like so many of the others, full of fun and lively exchange and accurate information. Of course, that may have been partly due to my own wish that the group would “shine” and demonstrate that it would be far more interesting for Tom to write about all of us, than just me. But there had been a distinctly unpleasant sensation in the air at the time, and I wanted to know why. Jan had drawn attention to herself by saying, “She’s just trying to show off,” and that was very hurtful, most especially when it wasn’t true. In fact, the opposite was true. I wanted to know what had happened, why the energy had been so unpleasant. So, Frank and I had a session a few days later to ask about this. In retrospect, this wasn’t a very good idea because it gave Frank the opportunity, as occurred on many other occasions, to divert attention and suspicion away from himself, and plant it on others.
June 6, 1995
Q: (L) Hello.
A: Stop.
Q: (L) What does that mean? (F) Don’t ask me! (L) Hello!
A: Hello. Azoref from Cassiopaea.
Q: (L) Who was it that said stop?
A: Static.
Q: (L) There was static?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the source of the static?
A: Not important, static always present to some degree.
Q: (L) I want to ask some fairly quick questions.
A: Okay.
Q: (L) With whom were we communicating on Saturday night?
A: Cassiopaea.
Q: (L) Was there any corruption in Saturday night’s session?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Well, I am not looking for a maybe. I felt somewhat offended by the atmosphere that was generated. We had guests and it was important …
A: If corrupted, came from 3rd level.
Q: (L) Can you only identify the corruption that comes from your level?
A: No.
Q: (L) Was there an element of … I don’t want to lead here … my impression was that the group was in a state of tension, is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Why?
A: Jan was unhappy because of guests.
Q: (L) Why?
A: Not notified ahead. […] If there is strong prejudice by any member or members of level three channel participants it may cause messages to be altered at the point of reception.
Q: (L) […] I spent a lot of time preparing questions and it seemed that whatever was making it through the “prejudiced channel” did not even want to deal with questions that were quite similar to many we have asked in the past – so it seems that the prejudice came through toward me in a specific way.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, if people can be so easily subjected to prejudice and emotional thinking, would that not be considered psychic attack?
A: Result of. Careful not to make hasty moves based upon events which may be transitory in nature.
Q: (L) Well, I feel like we have all been under attack …
A: Attack does not emanate from Terry and Jan.
Q: (L) Well, the whole session seems ruined. Even the answer about the lights in the sky was verifiably wrong. You have said that the channel is grooved and cannot be corrupted, yet obviously wrong answers were given, and it seems that you are saying that the attack is “through” Terry and Jan and the garbled emotions they are experiencing, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, even the answer about the lights in the sky. Mars is 120 degrees away from Jupiter …
We can note a very strange thing in the above remarks: first, Jan is being blamed for the emotional prejudice that poisoned the atmosphere of the session, and at the same time, it is being said that the attack does not emanate “from” Terry and Jan, which suggests that it was “through” them rather than originating there.
And I missed the clue. It never would have occurred to me that Frank, himself, was the vector of attack, that he could possibly have been emanating the energies that affected Jan, as well as the rest of us in the room.
Nevertheless, after this incident, Frank renewed his campaign to do the direct channeling, and so the group discussed it and decided we would give it another try. I started off with my question about the session itself that had been described by me as “corrupted,” and that wrong answers had been given as a result of this corruption, to which the Cs had given assent that my analysis was correct.
June 10, 1995
Q: (L) The first question I have is concerning last Saturday night’s session, which nobody seems to have been happy with. We would like to understand why the information seemed to be so garbled and distorted and, quite frankly, incorrect.
A: What makes you feel it was incorrect?
Q: (L) Because one of the answers was that what I was seeing outside was the planet Mars. It could not have been the planet Mars because Mars was 120 degrees away from the planet Jupiter.
A: Perhaps the question was posed in such a way as to receive that response. Suggest you check the material more closely.
The reader can look at the question and response above and see quite clearly that the question was not posed in such a way as to “lead” the response. And, in fact, when I pointed out that the light could not have been Mars because it wasn’t there the next night, the answer was that I couldn’t see it because of clouds, which was also incorrect. I couldn’t see it the next night because it wasn’t there. There were no obscuring clouds.
Q: (L) It was also said that the children were seeing airplanes and helicopters. When I went out, what I saw was most definitely not a helicopter or an airplane and was only ten degrees away from the planet Jupiter, and was a red, pulsating light. Can you tell me what I saw?
A: Well, if you desire to believe that what you saw was something other than any response given, that’s perfectly acceptable. But, when inquiring upon such things as visual reference, one must be prepared for any and all answers.
Q: (L) That seems to be rather evasive.
A: Evasiveness may also indicate a desire to help one learn about oneself and one’s environment.
Q: (L) What I saw out there was not an airplane or a helicopter; it was also not the planet Mars. Whatever it was, it was not there the following night or any night subsequent to that. Therefore, it was some sort of object that wasn’t of a sort that we usually see, and it baffles me as to why it would be conducive to learning for me to …
A: May we ask a question?
Q: (L) Sure.
A: When seeking to identify visual reference, would it not be wise to be patient with the outcome of the analysis?
Q: (L) Well, sure.
A: You state that what you saw was not a plane or a helicopter. We are interested to know how you can be certain of that?
Q: (L) Because I stood and watched it for a considerable period of time and it never moved.
A: Does that indicate that it was not a helicopter?
Q: (L) Yes, because even helicopters, when they hover, there is some lateral or horizontal movement or motion, and they also have different kinds of lights on them. They don’t sit there and look like a single, large, reddish orange, glowing light that pulsates.
The subject was changed right after the above because none of us saw any point in pursuing it. All the while these words were coming out of Frank, we were all looking at each other and silently signaling each other that this was most definitely not the Cs talking. I was embarrassed for Frank. He had no idea how pompous and condescending he sounded or that he was being viewed as a poseur by the other members of the group. I continued to have faith that his “talent” could be developed, but I knew that he needed more exposure to the Cs by group channeling before we tried trance channeling again. What is more, I protected him. I didn’t want to undermine his confidence by telling him that everybody felt just plain yucky in his presence when he channeled on his own. After all, his claim to be able to channel was the only thing he had. How could I take it away from him?
Frank’s controllers’ efforts to subvert the channeling to direct channeling through him came up at sporadic intervals such as the following clip from November of ’95. At this point in time, I decided that, for Frank’s sake, I needed to gently approach the issue of the flavor of the trance channeling, in hopes that I could get the issue on the table without triggering Frank’s emotional responses based on his belief that he was the channel. I should have known that the very fact that direct channeling was being pushed indicated that the controllers were already skewing.
November 4, 1995
Q: (L) Is there anything about these bases and this subject matter that you wish to teach us further at this time?
A: Suggest direct channeling for this subject.
Q: (L) Well, you know how we feel about the direct channeling, that there is too much personal filtering involved. This way, none of us knows anything …
A: Faith must enter the picture somewhere, lest you fall behind. Some subjects are too complex to be properly discussed through this medium.
Q: (L) OK, we’ll save this discussion of the bases for a direct channeling session. The only thing is, in a direct channeling session it is … There are some things about it that are disturbing. It tends, after doing it several weeks in a row, to become, it begins to sound pompous. (SV) Let’s ask. (L) Why is it after doing it several times in a row, it begins to sound pompous, information begins to get skewed, why is that?
A: Perceptions are a fun challenge.
Q: (L) That’s easy for you to say, because, when the answer comes back that … (J) You’re not “perceptually challenged!”
A: It is easy for you to say many things.
Q: (L) Well, the thing is, when absolutely incorrect information comes out, I have a difficult time dealing with that.
A: How do you determine correctness?
Q: (L) Well in that particular instance, I was told that a certain thing that I saw in the sky was the planet Mars, and the planet Mars was so far away from that spot, that it was absolutely incorrect. I mean, the planet Mars was 120 degrees away from Jupiter. And yet, you said that they were 10 degrees apart; that what I saw that was 10 degrees away from Jupiter was Mars. Unless Mars traveled 110 degrees across the sky in one day, then that was incorrect information. There’s no two ways about it!
A: Wrong!!!
Q: (L) No, it’s not!
A: It is!!!
Q: (L) What is wrong? That Mars didn’t travel 110 degrees? Because that is exactly what you said, that it was Mars. I went back, I read over the session!
A: You were in a 4th density flap.
Q: (L) Well, fine and dandy! If I’m in a fourth density flap, that’s an easy answer for … any answer that seems to be at variance with what’s happening here. I mean, do you get my point here?
A: Yes. But you are still mistaken.
Q: (L) Why am I the one that’s mistaken? Why can’t you be mistaken?
A: We can, but not on this one! Remember, you felt strange during this experience. And besides, you asked us for the information, we must present it to you as it is.
Q: (L) You’re saying that I felt weird or strange or unusual at that occasion. I don’t remember saying that I felt strange or unusual. Are you trying to put words in my mouth?
A: Who said that? You said that.
Q: (L) OK, you didn’t say that I said that. You said that I said that I felt strange or unusual. I don’t remember that I said that. I don’t remember feeling strange or unusual.
A: OK.
The reader may want to look again at the clips from the sessions where the light in the sky was brought up to see that I most certainly did not say anything about feeling unusual during the experience, nor, more importantly, did I feel unusual during the experience. I simply saw something inexplicable. I watched it for a sufficient length of time to be certain that it was not an airplane or helicopter, and I just wanted to ask a simple question and get a simple answer. So why was this issue so touchy? Why was such a block being placed in front of it so that, under no circumstances, was I able to get a straight answer? It was pretty obvious that it had become an emotional issue for Frank, and the answer might be as simple as that.
The fact that we were not giving him acceptance and kudos as the channel seems to have begun to prey on Frank’s mind at some point. All attempts to move the channeling to that format were rejected, though we most certainly gave it a spin a few times. Our vigilance kept the material uncorrupted for the most part even when he was direct channeling. The only problem was the repellant nature of the personality that came through Frank. It was like Frank himself to an exponential power. There was such an attitude of superiority and even contempt for human understanding completely out of keeping with the kind and patient responses of the Cs that there was no comparison.
Another example of this that deals directly with Frank’s growing resentment that he was not being given top billing is the next excerpt. We had gotten into a discussion about it because he had started another of his “pity me” rants and I had just told him in a joking way that if he started on that again I was going to throw something at him. He became all upset that I had used a word describing a physical act of violence. I pointed out that the violence was only words spoken in defending myself against his words which were, effectively, doing violence to me because they were draining my energy. What was more, it was merely a metaphor, and he knew I really wasn’t going to throw anything at him. But he just wanted to argue, so I suggested that sometimes, one had to do or say something to make the point. What is interesting about this one is the fact that the following excerpt generally contradicts the information given in the session about Frank’s many rants as being his way of “fighting back.” Of course, as I have already mentioned, the truth was coming through then, though it was being skewed by Frank’s agenda. The same is true in the following:
June 1, 1996
Q: (L) Frank and I would like to have a comment on our dispute.
A: Ask.
Q: (F) I don’t know what to ask. (L) Well, Frank says that violence is never an appropriate response to words.
A: Okay.
Q: (L) I say that under some circumstances, it may be the only response.
A: Why do you say that?
Q: (L) Because there do exist situations where words are used repeatedly to harm another. One example is the Nazi propaganda machine. If someone had shot Goebbels, it might have saved a lot of people from dying.
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, of course. There would have been someone else. Still, the point is, words can be used to destroy, and words of power can be used to kill. Sometimes words can be a lot more hurtful to the soul than physical acts.
A: Not directly.
Q: (L) Well, directly, or indirectly, it still amounts to the same thing.
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, I know you are not going to agree with me.
A: This is a subject that demands further exploration, in order to bring about a definitive answer.
Q: (L) Go ahead. Explain it to me.
A: Words only have power if the receiver believes they do.
Q: (L) But, in many cases, that belief exists.
A: The power to control belief lies exclusively within the receiver.
Which, of course, begs the question of why it was okay for Frank to fight back with words, but it was not okay for me to do it! In another sense, however, if Frank was already marked as an STS individual, then the answers then and in this particular session were exactly correct, only I was seeing them from the idea that Frank was seeking to serve others.
Q: (L) Let me put it this way: Frank often says things that are not precisely soothing to the soul, to say the least. Most often, I ignore them. But, sometimes I am not in an ignoring mood, and my response is no more violent toward him than his toward me. I merely speak metaphorically. When I do, I am only saying, “Stop doing that!” in a figurative way. But, he finds this to be as irritating to him as what he says that irritates me …
A: And …
Q: (L) Well, that is about it. I have lately been verbally attacked by numerous individuals … so I am not in a mood to tolerate much in this line from those around me.
A: And if this irritates you, it is because you allow it to.
Q: (L) Fine and dandy. And it is true, and I know it. Which is why I am beginning to think that I ought to simply do nothing, because my feelings are too sensitive.
A: And do you really believe that that is an unalterable condition?
Q: (L) Well, why should I be the one who is obliged to become less sensitive, and other people are not obliged to become more thoughtful about what they say?
A: You cannot control others.
Q: (L) I don’t want to control anyone. I am just saying that the obvious thing is for me to simply withdraw into my own little world of reading and thinking and writing, and if nothing ever comes of any of it, it is utterly immaterial to me.
And here we see Frank’s powerful emotional reaction. There I was, suggesting that we give the entire project up, forget about the Cs, forget about making Frank a star, and just go back to doing what I enjoyed doing where I certainly didn’t have to put up with Frank or the various types of nastiness encountered on the Internet, from Frank, and elsewhere.
A: That is your choice, but not a wise one!!!
Q: (L) Well, you say that, but it is, as several people have pointed out to me, only since we have begun this channeling project that all these dreadful things have happened in my life. My life is a shambles!
A: “Dreadful is subjective.”
Q: (L) I would say that the physical things that have happened to me, the collapse of my marriage, the things that have happened to my children, are pretty damn dreadful, subjectively or otherwise!
A: Before these changes began to manifest, you were deeper into the “deadly illusion” than you are now. Emergence is, by its very nature, uncomfortable. But, it has and will, empower you, we promise!!!!!!!!
Q: (L) It is a very trying time now. I am having a difficult time just coping.
A: And there have been others, and will be others, but that does not mean that the rewards will be slight.
Q: (L) Well …
A: You are on a path of destiny, and there is no turning back now.
Q: (S) What happened in specific? (L) Well, I was trying to explain some of the material to several people, and the end result was that they decided that I was possessed and that the Cs were evil because they say that we have to figure things out ourselves in order to graduate to the next level. Including my husband.
A: Why does this bother you? It does not bother us. They can all decide that we are the “Queens of Satan,” if they wish. It is free will.
Q: (L) I don’t like the implied hardness … I am not a hard person.
A: It is not hardness. The “feelings” you describe are related to ego, and by relation, pride, two things that were deliberately implanted into the 3rd density human psyche by the 4th density STS 309,000 years ago, as you measure time. Refer to the transcripts with regard to DNA alteration and the occipital ridge. Believe it or not, you, Laura, will be rid of these, eventually. It is not what some individuals respond to you that matters. It is sharing the information that counts. Also, remember, these persons do not perceive your feelings and sensitivities as keenly as you do, nor do you perceive theirs, likewise.
That was all fine and good, and I certainly couldn’t argue with it in principle. However, I was having some difficulty understanding how feeling hurt after being attacked for sharing some of the Cs material was related to ego and pride. What is more, this didn’t seem like the Cs I was used to. Indeed, there comes a time when a person needs to toughen up, but considering the beating I had been taking for so long, these remarks were singularly cold.
Yes, they offered the carrot that “you are on a path of destiny,” and “rewards” that were not slight were indicated. But as a general rule, I am on guard against such lures, considering them to be ego hooks. I realize in retrospect that yes, it may be true that there is some destined activity, but the entire interaction with Frank was designed to divert that destiny to some other agenda, and to prevent the real destiny, if there is one, and whatever it may be. But it was the next segment that was so completely untrue that I was shocked. I thought that the Cs (even if skewed by Frank) were finished and I started to ask a question for someone else. I was about to find out that the Cs were not only being cold, they were being completely inaccurate and making assumptions that were untrue!
Q: (L) There is someone who wants to ask some questions …
A: We are not finished with this subject. Also, it is important to note that, in most cases in which you have suffered “attack” from those on the Internet, you were not directly conveying the information we have given to you. You were presenting thoughts that you claimed as your own, or knowledge that you have gathered strictly through your own efforts, thus, it was responded to in kind. This you must expect if you are going to plant the bulk of the credit upon yourself, then you open up yourself to direct criticism. This is not wise if you are not prepared for negative reactions. Third density beings will always perceive knowledge that is being given to them before they are ready to receive it as “preaching,” and they resent this because of the very same ego related issues we discussed earlier. So, suggestion: better to frame knowledge transference with a preamble such as, “this is what was given to me, it is up to you to decide for yourself whether or not you are comfortable with accepting it, or not.”
What was so shocking about the above remarks was that it was entirely and altogether untrue. In fact, it had always been as a direct result of presenting the raw material that I had suffered attack! I was most definitely directly conveying the information, and I was most definitely not presenting thoughts that I claimed as my own!!! And that’s a cold hard fact because I still have the emails and message board discussions from that period. There is no doubt whatsoever that this was Frank using the board to express what he believed to be true. He felt that he was not being sufficiently revered as the channel, and this led him to create wild theories in his mind that everyone was conspiring against him to “cut him out” of something, including credit for being the channel. What is more, for a very long time I presented all material as simply from the Group, with no names designated at all. I was so stunned by this attack from the C’s, that I knew it was not them at all and I terminated the session.
Q: (L) Well, that is not true, by any stretch of the imagination. I don’t want to talk about it anymore with you. You are being completely wrong! Talk about assumptions! [End of Session]
But again, let me point out to the perspicacious reader that, even though there was skewing, again, there were remarks that were made that were right on the money, most especially those comments about DNA alteration and our need to hone our skills as warriors by divesting ourselves of self-importance in the sense of being subject to offense. Indeed, when I am offended, it is an effect of self-importance. But in the above case, I was most definitely not guilty of the offenses for which I was being blamed.
By now the reader may be getting the idea that sometimes the transmissions were like trying to watch television while someone runs the vacuum cleaner (no pun intended!). The degree of interference can vary by the position of the vacuum relative to the television, as well as other factors including the strength of the broadcast signal. So, even though the picture might get very snowy or distorted, the real picture can still be seen and interpreted. The best pictures came when the vacuum was turned off, and Frank practically dozed at the board from boredom. For the most part, when I was off on my cosmic questions, my questions about history and the nature of reality, he practically went to sleep.
There is another consideration that would negate the assumption that, just because the material was delivered by Frank in trance, that we ought to just toss it out. As the Cs themselves once said when we asked a question about a similar situation:
March 18, 2000
Q: Whitley Strieber and Art Bell have published a book about a “global superstorm.” Is any of the information they have given in this book fairly accurate?
A: Derived from non-human sources known for stark accuracy, when convenient.
Q: What makes it convenient at the present time for them to be “starkly accurate?”
A: Fits into plans.
This now brings us to a particular session, one that was direct channeled via Frank when the entire group was present. This session was one that demonstrated the superior, condescending attitude so sharply that it is even obvious in the text. Many people have written to ask me if I was sure that we were talking to the Cs on this one. However, even though repellant obfuscation and avoidance of the issues by a lot of words that said little was apparent, there was so important a message conveyed in this session that it deserves attention. In this particular case, I don’t think it was the Cs, and I don’t think it was the STS controllers speaking; I think it was a simple matter of Frank tuning into me telepathically, or was acting as the well-pipe, and the information was being drawn directly from my unconscious mind. One thing I do know is that, in retrospect, the way I received the information, and the way I ultimately acted on it, was one of the keys to unlocking the destiny and changing my reality completely.
The therapy I was receiving for the injuries sustained in the accident some seven months earlier wasn’t helping me very much, to put it briefly. At some point, another X-ray was made by the chiropractor, and he noted a strange shadow that looked like a metal pin linking the 5th and sixth cervical vertebrae together. He referred me to a neurosurgeon who ordered a series of MRI’s.
On the night before I was scheduled to have these films made, I woke up suddenly, as though I had been thrown off a cliff, my heart pounding, choking and gagging on something thick in my throat. My entire mouth and throat, going deep inside, was in horrible pain. I felt as though my tongue had been torn out by the roots and I was strangling on it.
I ran to the bathroom and tried to spit out what was choking me, and it was a big clot of blood. The only explanation I could think of was that I must have bitten my tongue in my sleep. I examined my throat, and it was torn, red and swollen way in the back, beyond my teeth, slightly to one side of the back of my throat. The bleeding redness extended down into the recesses of my throat where I couldn’t see it all. There was no way I could have bitten myself there! When I tried to wake my husband up to help me, I was unable to rouse him, and he had always been a light sleeper. This disturbed me very much. My throat and the side of my face swelled up and stayed swollen for over a week and I had difficulty eating and talking, much less swallowing.
The bottom line was: whatever had been seen by the chiropractor on the X-rays was no longer there. But I did have a bulging disk that was pressing on the spinal cord and the neurologist felt that this was the source of most of the pain. He wanted me to see a surgeon. The films were sent over and I was given an appointment.
Surgery was not the best option because I have a congenitally narrow spinal canal. But the same thing that made surgery problematical, made it likely that I would suffer constant pain and occasional paralysis for the rest of my life. What was more, with the vagaries of spinal impingement, it was hard to tell where I was going to hurt or experience the paralysis from one day to the next.
Having suffered so much pain for so long, I was rather depressed by this news. I mean, what else can go wrong?
The attorneys for the fellow who hit me wanted my MRI’s to send out for a second opinion, but they had “disappeared.” All the efforts of two doctor’s staffs as well as the staff at the medical center where they were taken, were unable to produce them. It was a big mystery. The staff at the MRI unit were so upset that they undertook to do hand searches in relays to try and find them. They were under a lot of pressure to find them because, otherwise, they had to do them over again without charge, and it was a very expensive set of films. After almost two weeks of searching, the MRI staff finally admitted defeat. I was scheduled to come in to have another set made.
The night before the new pictures were to be made, I was worried about being able to go to sleep due to the strange events surrounding the loss of my films as well as other matters. After lying down, I was just trying to be still and calm down the pain, knowing I wasn’t going to be able to go to sleep. I was right in the middle of puzzling over those blasted MRI’s, when the next thing I knew there was a sort of momentary blank-spot and I came to myself, only to discover that I was being floated out of bed, feet first, by three or four spidery creatures who had me by the ankle and were “pulling” on me.
I was struggling and resisting and apparently had been doing so even while asleep because I found that my paralyzed arm was extended up over my head and was locked on the brass headboard in a death grip and the bed was shaking and bouncing with the efforts of my resistance. It was virtually a tug of war and I wasn’t going to let go!
I looked at them and the creepy little spider guys realized that I had awakened. One of them put its hand on my head and I felt a paralysis coming over me. I became very angry. I wanted to curse them. But it was impossible to resist this paralysis and that made me even madder! I was determined that, even if they had technology that could overcome all of my efforts of resistance, that at least I would give them a piece of my mind! I was going to have my say!
With enormous concentration, I was able to utter a strangled sound. It was not the defiant curse I was working on in my head, but anything was progress against the frozen sensation of my entire body. And, it had a startling effect! As soon as I uttered this incomprehensible, cave person-type sound, they dropped me like a hot potato and began sort of flitting and chattering like a nest of birds with a cat climbing the tree. They huddled together and sort of melted into a shimmery curtain thing alongside my bed. It was much like the mirage effect one sees on the road ahead when driving on a hot day.
My heart was pounding from real exertion. I can’t say that I was terrified because such a thing is beyond terror. And, I have always been a person who acts cleanly and efficiently in a crisis, so this was no different in that respect. What had been most useful was that I had the information from the Cassiopaeans because that certainly had a lot to do with not feeling terrified which is more often a reaction to the unknown. At least, to some extent, I had an idea of what I was dealing with, even if I preferred to believe that it had been a hypnagogic nightmare.
At one point, while I was fighting them, while the bed seemed to be bouncing and jerking, I was very conscious that it was not waking my husband up, and after the creatures had melted away, when I had turned to work at peeling my paralyzed hand away from the headboard, I was startled to see and feel three distinct, wave-like shudders pass through his body starting from the head and moving down. After the third one, he took a deep breath, and began to snore suddenly and loudly as though he started right in mid-snore.
What was troubling me was that he was not been moving at all, not even to breathe. It struck me with horror that he seemed to have been “turned off” in order to prevent his intervention. That he could be turned off scared me half to death! I had no protection at all! Not only that, when I tried to tell him what had happened, he thought I was imagining it. I can assure you, it was not Imagination, though it may indeed have occurred in a hyperdimensional reality, and had not been a material event as we understand them.
As I lay there, trying to figure out whether the event had really happened, or if it had just been in my own head, I realized that the evidence that something had happened was that my partially paralyzed left hand was holding the headboard. Heck, I couldn’t even lift that arm, much less hold anything with my left hand. And that I had been gripping and struggling for some time was pretty certain because of the way the hand refused to come open. I lay there trying to figure out what the heck had happened, while cradling my arm that was still screaming in pain and jerking spasmodically. What was more, I couldn’t understand how my ex-husband could have slept through all of that rather violent struggle! I was pretty sure that, even if nothing had been physically manifested in the room, at least I had been struggling.
I got out of the bed and sat up the rest of the night in a recliner, thinking and smoking. Early in the morning, the girl from the test center called, and in a shaking voice, told me that when she had come in that morning, my file with all films intact, was on the reception desk. No one admitted to finding it and placing it there, and she had been the last one to leave the office the night before and the first in the office that morning and had unlocked the doors herself. It was a mystery that has never been explained.
That gave me even more to think about, but I will leave the speculation to the reader. I can only recount what happened. Because of the exhausting, obfuscatory nature of the following session during which I wanted to ask a few simple questions about this event, I was never able to ask about the films, and never came back to the subject. Another important point: I had not discussed the event with the group before asking the questions. The reader will notice that I do not initially even describe or name the event in order to not lead the answers. Also, I have edited out the tedious rambling around of Frank and have retained only those questions and answers bearing on the event itself. The interested reader can go to the sessions page and read the entire session and see what I mean by “tedious.”
July 23, 1995
Q: (L) Toren, the first thing on my mind is an experience I had several nights ago. It seemed as though there was some sort of interaction between myself and something “other.” Could you tell me what this experience was?
A: Was eclipsing of the realities.
Q: (L) What is an eclipsing of the realities?
A: It is when energy centers conflict.
Q: (L) What energy centers are conflicting?
A: Thought energy centers. […] Therefore, energy centers conflicting involve thought patterns. You could refer to it as an intersecting of thought pattern energies. […]
Q: (L) Well, it seemed to me that something happened to me that blanked out a period of my experience, and you say this was an eclipsing of energies caused by an intersecting of thought centers. Now, this intersecting of thought centers, did this occur within my body or within my environment?
A: They are one and the same. […]
Q: (L) Alright. I was lying in bed worrying about being able to get to sleep. The next thing I knew, I came to myself feeling that I was being floated off my bed. Was I?
A: No. When you say “I” you are referring to your whole person. There is more than one factor involved with one’s being to any particular definition.
Q: (L) Was some part of my being being separated from another part of my being?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was this an attempt to extract my soul or astral body?
A: Attempt is not probably the proper term.
Q: (L) In other words …
A: It is more just an activity taking place. Attempt implies effort rather than the nature present in a conflicting of energies and thought centers.
Q: (L) I also seemed to be aware of several dark, spider-like figures lined up by the side of the bed. Was this an accurate impression.
A: Those could be described as specific thought center projections.
Q: (L) I seemed to be fighting and resisting this activity.
A: That was your choice.
Q: (L) Was I successful?
A: Now, we are back to leading again.
Q: (L) Alright, was this the ending of an abduction that had already taken place?
A: Not the proper terminology. It was the conclusion to an event, not necessarily what one would refer to as an abduction, but more what one would refer to as an interaction.
Q: (L) What was the nature of the interaction?
A: The conflicting of energies related to thought center impulses.
Q: (L) Where are these thought centers located?
A: Well, that is difficult to answer because that is assuming that thought centers are located. And, of course this is a concept area in which you are not fully familiar as of yet. So, an attempt to answer this in any way that would make sense to you would probably not be fruitful. We suggest slowing down and carefully formulating questions.
Q: (L) At what level of density do these thought centers have their primary focus?
A: Thought centers do not have primary focus in any level of density. This is precisely the point. You are not completely familiar with the reality of what thoughts are. We have spoken to you on many levels and have detailed many areas involving density level, but thoughts are quite a different thing because they pass through all density levels at once. Now, let us ask you this. Do you not now see how that would be possible?
Q: (L) Yes. But what I am trying to do is identify these conflicting thought centers. If two thought centers, or more, conflict, then my idea would be that they are in opposition.
A: Correct. […]
Q: (L) OK, you said I wasn’t abducted, that an event of some sort occurred. What was the event?
A: We have already described this, but the problem that you are having is that you are assuming that the description we are giving is more complicated than this. It is not. […]
Q: (L) OK, in the experience I felt a paralysis of my body, what caused this paralysis.
A: Yes. Separation of awareness. Which is defined as any point along the pathway where one’s awareness becomes so totally focused on one thought sector that all other levels of awareness are temporarily receded, thereby making it impossible to become aware of one’s physical reality along with one’s mental reality. This gives the impression of what is referred to as paralysis. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes. And what stimulates this total focus of awareness?
A: An event which sidetracks, temporarily, the mental processes.
Q: (L) And what event can sidetrack the mental processes to this extent?
A: Any number.
Q: (L) In this particular case, what was it?
A: It was an eclipsing of energies caused by conflicting thought centers.
Q: (L) What energies were being eclipsed?
A: Whenever two opposing units of reality intersect, this causes what can be referred to as friction, which, for an immeasurable amount of what you would refer to as time, which is, of course, nonexistent, creates a nonexistence, or a stopping of the movements of all functions. This is what we would know as conflict. In between, or through any intersecting, opposite entities, we always find zero time, zero movement, zero transference, zero exchange. Now think about this. Think about this carefully.
Q: (L) Does this mean that I was, essentially, in a condition of nonexistence?
A: Well, nonexistence is not really the proper term, but non-fluid existence would be more to the point. Do you understand?
Q: (L) Yes. Frozen, as it were?
A: Frozen, as it were.
Q: (L) Was there any benefit to me from this experience?
A: All experiences have potential for benefit.
Q: (L) Was there any detriment from this experience?
A: All experiences have potential for detriment. Now, do you see the parallels? We are talking about any opposing forces in nature, when they come together, the result can go all the way to the extreme of one side or all the way to the extreme of the other. Or, it can remain perfectly, symmetrically in balance in the middle, or partially in balance on one side or another. Therefore all potentials are realized at intersecting points in reality. […]
Q: (L) Was one of the thought centers me?
A: That is presupposing that you, what is defined as you, or how you define yourself as “me” is of and by itself a thought center.
Q: (L) Well, I am trying to find this out by asking these questions. I am not presupposing here, I am just trying to find out what is going on here!
A: Part of what is you is a thought center but not all of what is you is a thought center. So, therefore it is incorrect to say: “Was one of these conflicting energies or thought centers me?”
Q: (L) Was one of these conflicting thought centers or energies some part of me?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And was it eclipsed by interacting with a thought center energy that was part of or all of something or someone else?
A: Or, was what happened a conflicting of one energy thought center that was a part of your thought process and another energy thought center that was another part of your thought process? We will ask you that question and allow you to contemplate.
Q: (L) Was it?
A: We will ask you that question and allow you to contemplate.
Q: (L) Does it ever happen that individuals who perceive or think they perceive themselves to have experienced an abduction, to actually be interacting with some part of themselves?
A: That would be a very good possibility. Now, before you ask another question, stop and contemplate for a moment: what possibilities does this open up? Is there any limit? And if there is, what is that? Is it not an area worth exploring?
Q: (L) OK, help me out here …
A: For example, just one example for you to digest. What if the abduction scenario could take place where your soul projection, in what you perceive as the future, can come back and abduct your soul projection in what you perceive as the present?
Q: (L) Oh, dear! Does this happen?
A: This is a question for you to ask yourself and contemplate.
Q: (L) Why would I do that to myself? (J) To gain knowledge of the future.
A: Are there not a great many possible answers?
Q: (L) Well, this seemed to be a very frightening and negative experience. If that is the case, then a: maybe that is just my perception, or b: then, in the future I am not a very nice person! (J) Or maybe the future isn’t very pleasant. And the knowledge that you gained of it is unpleasant.
A: Or is it one possible future, but not all possible futures? And is the pathway of free will not connected to all of this?
Q: (L) God! I hope so. […]
Q: (L) OK, when this experience occurred, am I to assume that some part of myself, a future self perhaps, of course they are all simultaneous but just for the sake of reference, came back and interacted with my present self for some purpose of exchange?
A: Well this is a question best left for your own exploration as you will gain more knowledge by contemplating it by yourself rather than seeking the answers here. But a suggestion is to be made that you do that as you will gain much, very much knowledge by contemplating these very questions on your own and networking with others as you do so. Be not frustrated for the answers to be gained through your own contemplation will be truly illuminating to you and the experience to follow will be worth a thousand lifetimes of pleasure and joy.
To say that I was puzzled and confused is putting it mildly. But there was still something else about the event that was bothering me: the fact that my husband had been “turned off.” For some reason, I had the idea that this was connected to another event that had occurred several days previously. So, trying to be discreet, I asked:
Q: (L) OK, just a few days prior to this experience, I experienced a couple of headaches brought on by marital interactions. I would like to know what was the source of this sudden, extreme pain.
A: Have you not answered that for yourself already?
Q: (L) Not satisfactorily.
A: No. It is that you perceive it as being not satisfactory.
Q: (L) Well, I have a couple of choices and I haven’t selected one as being the one.
A: Well, then select one.
Q: (L) What if I select the wrong one?
A: You won’t.
And this brings us to the crux of the matter at this point, the very thing we have been discussing: our relationships in terms of theological realities and conflicts between forces at higher levels.
If all of existence is consciousness, if alternate universes are different individual or mass consciousness trajectories, then it must be very much like a tree.
When we look at a tree we notice that some branches start to grow, but for some reason, they become stunted and die and fall off. Others will grow for a little way before doing so. Still others grow strong and get all the “juice” and develop, and more branches grow from them, and so on.
In terms of alternate dimensions, its all too easy to use it as an excuse for any lie to be accepted as truth, and this is why I sat back to think about this idea a little more carefully.
As soon as the Many Worlds theory of physics was dropped into public awareness, the New Age grabbed it and it became the new explanation for everything weird. If a source was caught in a lie, it was easy to explain that it “happened in another dimension.”
My guess is that the real world of third density/dimensions, is a collapsed wave function reality. It is like the branch of a tree. At certain nodal points, there are other branches that have the possibility of “getting all the juice” and becoming the dominant branch, and what determines which it is depends on many factors.
But, once one bud begins to dominate, the others become smaller and smaller and fall away eventually for lack of “juice.” There is only one “real” reality. The others are only ghost or potential realities. Like a tree, with gazillions of branches, each individual’s reality grows in this way. At certain points, there are alternate realities. But, depending upon choice, attention, and other factors, those realities that are undesirable can be “pruned” or deprived of sap so that they wither and fall away.
At the same time, each individual being their own “branch,” has a slightly different reality from every other individual, and some responsibility for the way their branch grows. But it is all from the same tree, and thus has a more or less single reality. If their choices are “diseased,” their branch will grow in a way that causes it to be pruned, or wither, or face some interference even from other branches, perhaps.
So, in a certain sense, at the nodal point, many possibilities may exist, just as several buds may put out on the end of a branch, but not all of them will continue the process of branching, and at such points, we have some freedom to choose, individually or collectively, depending on the nature of the branch.
It is my thought that, at this time of eclipsing of realities, a very interesting thing had occurred: the energies of awareness I had been acquiring for almost a year had brought me to a point where the nascent Thought Centers of STO and STS each had an equal possibility of becoming the dominant branch. If the Cassiopaeans were one Thought Center of a different reality, me in the future, so to speak, but a future that was not yet “firm,” it was only a budding branch on the tree, and the abducting critters originated from a different “me in the future,” of another branch. At this moment, the energies were equal, and something tremendous hinged upon my choice. And that choice had consequences relating to my marriage.
I began to understand that our reality is masked as a medium for growth. What we are growing is our Will which, when aligned with a given Thought Center, allows that Thought Center to manifest its Will in our reality to the extent we are in alignment and can be amplified! To be in alignment with the STO Thought Centers results in an increase of spiritual consciousness and a diminishment of the “sleeping” consciousness of matter. To align with the STS Thought Centers, as we are, results in an increase of the sleeping consciousness, or wishful thinking of matter, and a diminishment of spiritual consciousness.
Every situation or dynamic in which we find ourselves demands a response. To not respond is, of course, a choice to accede to the dynamic as it is. This means that the only true response we can give is to be more fully and strongly what we have chosen. Consciously. And only by doing this do we progress to the next level.
We come then to the problem of how to do this and I realized that it was a matter of growing stronger in terms of polarity/orientation. At the level of third density, the animal man is far stronger than the spiritual man. Third density is the point at which the process of division into those that will follow the unification into Oneness that leads to the “new” descent into primal matter, and those that will follow the unification into Oneness that will be the consciousness that will “play” with this clay, losing itself in it for the joy of creation and learning and experience.
It was at this point that I began to understand the principle and purpose of the petty tyrant. Even though I hadn’t read Castaneda at this point, I knew that there was a moment in which I had received a warning that my ex-husband was draining my energy to the point of death. And after the two experiences, where I realized that he might actually be the one whose energy was utilized to interact with me – that it was through him, as a portal, that such beings were enabled to enter my reality – it was a terrible thing to face. I was seeing the theological reality, the eclipsing of realities, that my real choices in real life, regarding real people, reflected some higher realm of existence. And all the niceness in the world wasn’t enough to make this one go back under the rug.
In dealing with my ex as a petty tyrant, I had achieved a certain level of modification that allowed me to hold my own in the face of the unknown. Combined with knowledge from research and information from the Cs, I hadn’t run screaming in terror; I hadn’t collapsed in horror; I hadn’t allowed myself to be a victim. Even though I had the idea that such beings might have more power than me, I refused my permission. If they were going to do it, if I couldn’t kick and scream, I would think the loudest yells at them imaginable. And they knew it somehow. Remember what don Juan said?
He explained that … if seers can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of the unknowable.
“The average man’s reaction is to think that the order of that statement should be reversed,” he went on. “A seer who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants. But that’s not so. What destroyed the superb seers of ancient times was that assumption. We know better now. We know that nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to stand the pressure of the unknowable.”
I vociferously disagreed with him. I told him that in my opinion tyrants can only render their victims helpless or make them as brutal as they themselves are. I pointed out that countless studies had been done on the effects of physical and psychological torture on such victims.
“The difference is in something you just said,” he retorted. “They are victims, not warriors.”
And that was the key. I began to grow a branch of the tree that went in a different direction, toward a different future; a future wherein I was no longer willing to be a victim.
The branch grew slowly, of course. It would be 8 months before there was enough growth to stand the pressure of the unknowable – and then, only to a certain extent. But everything hinged on recouping my energy, and I knew that I must concentrate everything on this task.
This idea, this principle, that close association with an individual who is on a path to a certain future, a person who is growing the branch of a certain Thought Center, being united with such a person as in a marital relationship, is a crucial element of the theological reality. They may be on the same branch for a long time, but when a new bud begins to grow, there is a choice. This fact is disguised from us in myriads of ways all engendered and supported by the theories of psychology promoted by the Matrix control system.
And the same is true for all our many relationships. Each and every encounter with a petty tyrant will ultimately bring us to a point of eclipsing of realities wherein we can make choices. There are any number of futures, but they are ghost futures; potential futures; you can build up your energy and choose which branch grows. But only at those points where you have done a certain amount of work that “seeds” the new branch. And when it is ready, it will let you know.
And based on those choices, the entire universe can be changed.
The two months that Ark was here in early 1997 were packed with interesting events which slowly began to reveal a strange situation that made me rather nervous and still gives me the willies when I think back over it. The Hale Bopp comet was in the sky heralding mass suicide, UFOs were hovering over Arizona, strange people with strange agendas were trying to lure us into traps, and the Cs were dropping hints and clues all over the place.
For the first month of his research in Gainesville, we rented an efficiency apartment that specialized in providing housing for visiting professors and researchers. With the USF libraries so handy, I spent most of my time doing research on things the Cs had indicated would lead to revelations, keeping a research journal of my findings and thoughts as I worked.
Ark was assigned an office in the Mathematics building, just a hop away from the offices of the colleagues with whom he was working. One of them lent him a bicycle so as to solve the parking problem (there were generally no places to park!) and he enjoyed cycling around the campus for exercise and reflection.
The second month, we were offered a chance to share a larger house that was made available as accommodation for visiting professors. It was located in a wooded area that was very quiet, and this was the primary attraction. The apartment had been in a very noisy location.
There were several other visiting researchers in the math and physics departments, and our host very much enjoyed taking us around to the various restaurants where everyone talked physics and math, and I mostly just listened.
At one point, our host decided that we should all go canoeing on the Ichetucknee river, one of Florida’s most scenic rivers with giant Cypress and Live Oak tress, many types of water birds and turtles, and undoubtedly a few alligators lurking, though we didn’t see any. Since Ark had spent many hours kayaking when he was growing up, and canoeing had been a popular activity when I was a teen-ager, we found that we were a great team in a canoe, and I am happy to report that we didn’t capsize even once! Afterward, we all visited my aunt and uncle who have a large farm near to the river. They were happy to set a table for a phlock of physicists, and the foreign guests very much enjoyed good Southern food and hospitality. On the drive back to Gainesville that evening, we stopped on the side of a dark country road and got out to gaze at the Hale Bopp comet. It was magical.
Meanwhile, strange things were brewing. The Matrix was locked on our frequency and began firing weirdness like heat-seeking missiles.
Out of the many strange emails Ark received, among the strangest was one from something called The Institute of New Physics, which proposed to finance Ark to do research in nanotechnology. The email had been sent to his institute in Poland from an individual named Sue Brana.
March 1, 1997
Q: (L) Now, Ark got an email from some organization called the Institute of New Physics, informing him they were financiers, and was he interested in joining? Could you tell us who or what is behind this Institute of New Physics?
A: Well, perhaps it would be better to help you to tell yourselves. Where did the message come from?
Q: (L) We don’t know … (A) No, there is something, because there is, some info – GAIN – and I looked on the Web, and there are many institutions which have “Gain,” you know, in their name. And I don’t know if this is just one … (L) Well, don’t you think it’s kind of funny that it has “gain” in the name, and you’re in Gainesville? (J) Yes, that’s what I thought, too … (T) WWW dot … well, no it’s email, so it would be … (J) Oh, “gain,” and they’re financiers …
A: What do financiers do?
Q: (L) What do financiers do? They give you money. They finance you … (J) They help you “gain” … (L) Yes.
A: Do they do this for no reason … ?
Q: (L) Of course they don’t do this for no reason! They have an ulterior motive. They want something.
A: AHA HAH!
Q: (L) Ahah!? (T) Yes, they’re the money store! (L) Well, all right. We’ll play it by ear, and see what they want …
A: Do they have an agenda?
Q: (L) Of course! No doubt, they have an agenda. Everybody that’s been writing to us lately has an agenda! You know, we’ve been getting these …
A: What may this be?
Q: (L) Well, their agenda … (J) They want something from him, obviously. (A) When I get back to Poland, they said that they will have some printed material on this New Institute ready, that we could read, that they will send it to me … (T) Where is the New Institute located? They didn’t say? (A) No, they didn’t say. (J) Ohh, I think you have a right to know that! (L) Well, I’d say, just let it float, and see what they say … (J) They had to wait until you were back in Poland before they’d send you anything? (A) Well, if this is just in the stage of organization, so perhaps, it’s a big something, which until now, was working in a certain field, getting money from, I don’t know, from something, and now, they want to expand and to invest in nanotechnology, or whatever.
A: When you are getting close to something, there are always those who wish to distract, disrupt and track for later plans … Anything worth getting must be sought.
We decided that we needed to dialogue with Sue Brana a bit more. During the course of these exchanges, she revealed that one of the groups she represented had financed the writing of the book Angels Don’t Play This HAARP, by Nick Begich. It seems that this was shared in order to suggest to us that they were “good guys” and definitely open to unusual thinking and approaches.
Ark decided that openness and directness were the best policy, so he told her that he was not much interested in doing nano-tech, but that he was very interested in funding for crop circle research. She seemed to be interested in this, suggesting that it might lead to some kind of technological applications.
But having been warned by the Cs, we continued to dig. At that particular time, my daughter worked for a private investigator, so we handed what info we had over to her and she discovered some rather disturbing things about Gain Systems, the company that was supposed to be financing The Institute for New Physics. It seems that the whole company was a front. But a front for what? Indeed, the California Department of State had the corporation filings, with contact addresses, and there were several layered corporations, but all of them led back to a single individual: Sue Brana.
It became clear, after a bit, that Sue Brana may have thought that Ark was still in Poland because all of the exchanges were made through his email address at the Institute there. She wrote that she would be attending a meeting in Poland because her group was planning on investing in hemp farming, and when she was there, could they meet?
At this point, we were just simply interested in getting to the bottom of this mystery. Just because the Cs warned us about it, didn’t mean we were not going to check it out as far as we could go.
Ark let her know that he was in the States, and since she was in California, it might be easier to arrange something sooner that would be more convenient. As soon as Ark wrote that, talk about your fast backpedaling! All of a sudden the schedule was very tight. Sue Brana would only be able to meet with Ark in Poland. This struck us as singularly odd. Nevertheless, since we were trying to find our way in terms of being able to do the necessary research, we certainly did not think that we ought to discard what might be a legitimate opportunity. And, since she had brought up the fact that she had been instrumental in financing the book about HAARP, surely there would be interest in a similar research project into Crop Circles? We decided to ask some more questions:
March 29, 1997
Q: (L) All right, now, let me get my questions. The first question I want to ask tonight is about SB who has been corresponding back and forth with Ark … OK, what is the source of the funding behind them?
A: We know this, but, any guesses?
Q: (L) OK, they want us to play 20 questions. Do we have any guesses?
A: Ask Lindemann.
Q: (L) Well, we know who’s behind it now … Rockefeller! So we’re talking Rockybucks and his bunch.
A: Are we? Or, is that unsubstantiated rumor?
Q: (L) Well, yes, it could be unsubstantiated rumor, we don’t know that it’s the Rockefellers behind Lindemann. OK, let me ask this. Is it the United States government?
A: There is no such.
Q: (L) Well, let me try this another way. Is this SB a legitimate source of funding for …
A: It is “legitimate,” as it can indeed provide unlimited funds. But, the real question is: Do you want to take advantage?
Q: (J) What is the price tag attached?
A: Depends upon results of experimentation.
Q: (L) No, I asked what’s the price tag? Does it depend upon the results of our experimentation, or theirs?
A: Ours.
Q: (L) Yes.
A: If you discover something truly “earthshaking,” well …
Q: (L) In other words, if we discover something truly earthshaking, the price might be very high. Is that it?
A: Maybe. Or, you could be sequestered.
Q: (T) In other words, put out, taken away … caged and used! (A) Anybody can be sequestered away from what is necessary …
A: It is possibility.
Q: (L) OK, do you have any other comments to make about SB? What did they say now, that maybe the same funding as Lindemann was behind them also? How about, what would you call it … the Quorum. Is the Quorum behind it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) OK, is the Quorum the group we’re supposed to be looking for? (T) We have to go back and ask about the Quorum. We’ve got so many characters, it’s worse than X-Files!
A: No, more interesting.
Q: (T) Yes, it is, definitely!
A: World banking conglomerate.
Q: (T) World bank. (L) I do not wish to be “owned” in that way …
A: Not easy to avoid.
Q: (L) Well, I know it’s not easy to avoid.
A: Will become even more difficult soon.
Q: (L) Well, they didn’t say impossible … they just said difficult. But, on the other hand, I don’t know if I want to do “more difficult” … well, we’ve got so much difficult … (T) … that it’s easy now!
A: Many interesting things to happen.
Q: (L) To happen? Where, when, how, why, and to whom?
A: You. And everyone else in your realm … Expect revelations.
Jumping ahead just a bit, after Ark had left to go back to Poland, I had the idea that names might lead to some sort of understanding about people in a subliminal way, or might show some relationship to the hyperdimensional reality. Just to see if anything synchronous would turn up, I decided to search for the word “brana” on the Internet. I came across a lot of strange things, the most interesting being related to a Swedish bioengineering company that did genetics research. Other searches turned up mythical relationships to Celtic gods, an area I hadn’t studied, and that is one of the things that opened the door to my realization that the grail stories were just redacted tales about the “head of Bran.” Well, of course, I was pretty excited with this information, not realizing that anybody who was really familiar with those themes already knew it!
April 12, 1997
Q: (L) One of the things I was doing last night was a little web search on the word “brana,” because we have a particular interest in finding out if there is any significance to this. I found some very interesting things about this word. I discovered that it was an Old English word for a blackbird or crow. It can also be a name in Yugoslavia and Russia. It was also the name of a great Irish king. Anything further you can add to that list?
A: What does this tell you?
Q: Well, that maybe the source of funding is not in this country. Maybe Russia?
A: Beware of unexpected assistance.
Q: We can be wary and still utilize it, can’t we?
A: Up to you.
Q: If, in fact, there is a power mad clique running the world, what difference would it make if you got money from one country or another?
A: That is not the point: who is “running” the “power mad clique?”
Q: (L) So … (V) The Lizzies, the Lizzies …
A: Okay …
Q: So you are essentially indicating in a roundabout way that we ought to ditch this offer?
A: Not so. We are indicating in a straightforward way that you should strive for objectivity at all times, and especially at junctures such as this, and not let subjectivity or emotions or hastily thought of ideas or decisions rule you!
Q: Could it also be possible that this source, this “brana,” is in contact with the alleged Orion group?
A: Excuse us?
Q: I mean the Quorum as you have described?
A: Always be vigilant so as not to perceive a tangled web as a neatly constructed loop.
Q: The suggestion was made in another session that we need to devote some time and energy to the crop circle problem.
A: Yes …
Q: And finding funding to do this in the correct way, as in networking and so on, is difficult, to say the least.
A: Patience pays … “Haste makes waste.”
Q: Well, we would not be doing it primarily to develop technology, but for information of a more cosmic or theoretical nature. Now, whether that would lead to technology is another question.
A: Review from whence and how this offer originated before you “leap into it,” lest you become the fish that is attracted to the really shiny and tasty looking lure!
Q: Well, then …
A: Review for insight … it will come!
Just to see what would come out of it, Ark did agree to meet with Sue Brana in Poland on April 22nd. He described Ms. Brana as tall and blonde, nervous and talkative, and most definitely playing games with words. After he explained to her the needs and costs of the kind of research we were proposing, including the fact that we would not agree to a proprietary contract, Ms. Brana said she had to think about it and call him later. Ark wrote to me about the meeting:
Subject: yesterday’s talks
Date sent: Tue, 23 Apr 1997 07:35:37 +0100
Honey,
I do not like “I will call you later” – I expected to have a definite answer now. And in fact it seems to me that I was close to getting it – but it was like that: warmer, colder, warmer, colder … We will see. She brought me a book by Schnabel on remote viewing and Discover magazine. I was completely open with her – so she knows the essentials of our story. She can be a banker (most probably she is), a spook, a representative of a secret government or an alien. This I do not know. She knows surprisingly many things. Around 4th May she will be back in States and then we will know more …
As there was also talk about quantum theory – there is a chance that before (or instead…) of venturing into CC research we can get a grant for writing a book on EEQT with nice computer software … I can’t say now what will be the result …
Ah, and apparently she is investing millions into “industrial hemp” in Poland. […]
Two years ago, when I had described this little episode to some friends, one of them did a little research and found the following interesting item:
Western Producers, March 16, 2000
Little Homework Done on Hemp Company
By Roberta Rampton, Winnipeg Bureau
The hemp industry should have done more homework before doing business with Consolidated Growers and Processors Inc.
That’s the opinion of Gero Leson, an environmental consultant from Berkeley, California, who was CGP Inc.’s first president. CGP recently closed its offices in Winnipeg and announced it intends to declare bankruptcy.
Leson said he knew little about Susan Brana, the majority shareholder and chair of CGP Inc., before he went to work with her in 1997. “I’m to blame, and so is everybody else,” he said in an interview at the recent Hemp 2000 conference. Leson first became involved with industrial hemp when he helped organize an international symposium on the crop in 1995.
Brana contacted him the following year as a venture capitalist interested in funding hemp projects. She hired him to do some consulting work, and paid him for his work, Leson said. Together with Winnipeg hemp store owner Martin Moravcik, Brana and Leson formed CGP Inc. in the summer of 1997. The goal was to jump-start hemp production and processing, Leson said, and to take the company public to make money.
The emerging industry was short of capital, he said, and he thought the economies of scale Brana sought would be a good idea. But over time, Leson said he came to realize Brana was most interested in profits from company shares. She wanted to promote the company’s big vision, but Leson said he was uncomfortable with hyping too much, too quickly. “Sue Brana thought I was too negative,” Leson said.
By April 1998, Leson wanted to leave, but couldn’t agree on terms with Brana, and was fired. A difference in management philosophy and style helped lead to his departure, he said.
Brana has not responded to repeated requests for interviews. Throughout CGP’s time in the spotlight, Brana did not give interviews to reporters. Brana, 46, grew up on a farm in Ohio, and still keeps a residence in the state, according to sources. Her biography in CGP documents lists experience with several banks between 1975 and 1989.
More recently, Brana ran a stock broker/dealer firm called Alt Capital Inc. out of an office in Los Angeles. The office address and phone number were shared by Gain Integrated Systems, a shell company owned by Brana.
The same address was used for CGP Inc., along with a North Hollywood address for Dugan and Associates Construction Management Inc. The North Hollywood address was also used for Ntech Corp., a start-up nanotechnology development company with which CGP had joint venture projects.
Persuasive Personality: Brana was convincing in her vision to increase hemp acreages quickly, said Leson, even though he believed she tried to grow CGP Inc. too large, too soon. “You never quite knew if you were right, or if Sue Brana had found somebody to buy 10,000 pounds of oil,” Leson said. “You always think maybe there’s something you just don’t know.”
Since his time with CGP, Leson said he has learned about the obstacles for hemp in the pulp and paper and textile sectors. “It’s much more complicated to get into those markets.” He was alarmed when he learned last summer how much hemp CGP had contracted for 1999. “I thought it was misleading to do that.”
Leson said Brana gave the impression through anecdotes that she had considerable experience starting and running businesses. Not all her stories were rosy, said Leson, making her track record seem realistic.
Leson said he doesn’t believe CGP was a fraud or a scam. But he does think industry leaders, including himself, should have done more checking into Brana’s work experience. “I think we’re all to blame on not really insisting on seeing a résumé.”
Pretty interesting, eh? And we see that, but for the grace of the Cs, we would have been sucked into a rather embarrassing series of activities. All things considered, it seems pretty obvious that Ms. Brana was a front for somebody, otherwise she wouldn’t have been spreading so much cash around; the only question is: who? And why were we targeted for the dangling of a lure of big bucks to do something that really wasn’t an area of particular interest to us, and would most certainly have diverted our time and resources, if not resulting in being totally discredited? Another good question is: what was the deal with the HAARP book?
Yes, we found out that they did finance Nick Begich. But that begs the question: to what purpose? Who are these people and what are they trying to do? All of the current ideas about HAARP are “out there” as a result of Begich’s book, and he was paid to write it by this same group. Just like these folks wanted to pay us to do their idea of research on crop circles and possibly technology derived from it and they kept trying to plant ideas in our heads about it and point out this or that person who they thought was on the right track, and we could see that they weren’t, perhaps the same is true about HAARP as presented in Begich’s book?
Well, things proceeded on their very weird course. Jan kept joking that we had to raise the measure of bizarreness daily in order to keep up with it.
At this point, something rather strange began to occur. Right up to this point in my life, I had always been a deep sleeper. I would not only sleep deeply, I rarely moved or changed my position during the entire night. If I did become uncomfortable and needed to shift my posture, I always woke up briefly, made the adjustments, and then could go immediately back to sleep. Noises – unless they were extreme – did not bother me. Lights didn’t bother me. Once I was asleep, I was asleep and that was that. Of course, sometimes I did have trouble getting there since my thoughts were always entertaining and were often difficult to slow down so that I could go to sleep, but over the years, I had developed strategies to deal with this, and unless I was extremely stressed, I could manage to go to sleep within 20 or 30 minutes of lying down, and stay asleep through all kinds of things.
I never talked in my sleep, I never did anything unusual.
But now, all of a sudden, that changed. Within a week or so of our taking up residence in the private home in the wooded area of Gainesville, something began to disturb my sleep. I was fighting and struggling in my sleep, and Ark was having a time soothing this disturbance and getting me to wake up from these events. For about a week or so, he spent a lot of his sleep time staying awake and watching over me so that he could intervene at the first sign of stress.
Right at the point that this problem began, we brought it up at a session that was mostly taken up with discussions of subatomic particles. But, a peculiar thing happened right in the middle of this session that later connected in a funny way.
March 15, 1997
Q: So, a proton is a little manifestation of the consciousness of God?
A: No.
Q: Well, that would be what I would understand as the ultimate sense. Correct me please.
A: Too complex.
Q: (L) OK. (F) Spider! (A) Indeed! A spider! [It seems that at this precise moment, a spider descended from the ceiling on a thread.] (L) Teensy weensy spider … (A) It’s a spy! (F) Yes, but a second density one. (A) But it has a lot of protons! (F) That’s its connection with seventh density. [The spider is rescued and put elsewhere.] (L) Now, back to the questions. […] (L) The last few nights I have been having very strange things happening to me while I sleep. Waking startled or fighting or feeling something touching me … What is going on?
A: Burial ground.
Q: You mean the place we are staying used to be a burial ground?
A: 400 years ago.
Q: Swell! Just what I needed to hear! Is there anything I can do to limit this activity?
A: No.
Q: Is it particularly harmful or just annoying?
A: More the latter.
Q: (L) How come it bothers me and not Ark?
A: Sensitivity profile.
As it happened, though we were not aware of it, at precisely the time of the descent of the spider, during these same days of sleep disturbance, something strange was happening out in Arizona. There were multiple UFOs in the sky over Phoenix. The image that came to my mind when I later learned about these sightings was the part in the television movie series V, where the alien ships are approaching earth, and all the animals that are normally preyed upon by serpents were going crazy in their cages. Later still, I read a book by a woman name Marcia Schafer, wherein she promotes what amounts to a reptilian agenda. She reported a major abduction at around the same time I was having my extremely unusual sleep experiences, and I decided to bring it up at a session (though this was much later).
August 28, 1999
Q: Aside from most of the absurdities in this book, there was one thing that did disturb me: On March 19, 1997, she says that she had a major abduction. She remarks that “I recall being present at a meeting with hundreds of other humans. In retrospect, this bothers me. We were told that we were being tested to see how well we could recall specific training we had been given over our lifetimes to work their technology. Each of us had a partner and we were assigned to activate small 3-seater spacecraft. I don’t know what the other people were told, but I do recall what happened to me. They had a lot of information and it was given in pieces. I was informed that I would no longer be allowed to dismiss or repress my work with others not of this planet. They said that the time had come, and I must have complete recall. They showed me a life review. They revealed all the visits and interactions I had in this lifetime. As they were about to start this, I recall arguing heatedly with them. In fact, I remember saying, ‘No f***ing way! I’m not going through this.’ In retrospect, I find this kind of funny in a juvenile type of way, that I swore at them. I received back the telepathic response: ‘Way!’ In other words, I had no choice and this was going to happen. Generally my wishes were respected in things of this matter. But, not now; they said it was ‘time’ and I was being brought into ‘full activation’ in accordance with schedule, whatever that means.”
It just so happens that this event occurred at about the same time of the major UFO sightings out in Phoenix, and, if I remember correctly, you commented at the time that things were really getting ready to heat up, though we were unaware of these sightings then, being so busy with traveling back and forth to Gainesville. You did indicate that this had something to do with the fact that Ark and I were together, finally, and the beginning stages of some grand destiny were falling into place.
[We had a session on the night of the 15th, and I asked the question about what had made me so violently sick the previous night, and for several nights previous to this, I had awakened startled and fighting, feeling presences in the room and things touching me. Also, on the night of this session, the spider descended on the table in the middle of asking our questions about protons.] Is there any relationship between what was occurring with this Marcia Schafer, and what was occurring with us?
A: Well, best to consider this book, and the author, as an amalgamation of things read and things imagined.
That didn’t really answer my question about my own experience, though it gave us a clue about the disinformation of this “Galactic Anthropologist.” A bit later, the situation must have changed because the Cs brought up the subject again in a curious way at the end of a session.
March 29, 1997
Q: (L) Anything that you wish to convey to us, consider the question asked!
A: Energies at your Gainesville locator.
Q: (T) What about the energies there?
A: Negative.
Q: (L) Yes, it’s pretty and all, but …
A: No. The house!
Q: (T) What’s causing the negative energy at this house?
A: Poltergeist.
Q: (L) Will we be all right for the little time we have left?
A: Maybe.
Q: (A) Yes, but the last time we asked about that, they said that it was an old cemetery, but that it was not important. (J) Ask if that has changed.
A: Yes. Beware of possible leg fracture.
Q: (L) For whom?
A: Laura.
Q: (L) Well, obviously, it’s not going to be you, Ark! I’m the one that’s always falling! So, it’s obviously a good idea for me to go and stay in the office all day long.
A: It is a good idea for you to watch yourself!!
As it turned out, the man who owned the house we were staying in came one day while everyone was out and was doing some repairs. He fell and broke his leg. This was the second time that the Cs had mentioned a health issue in relation to me, that later manifested in someone else with whom I was in contact.
During the same time period, Tom French and Cherie Diez, the journalist and photographer, had been up in Ohio, I believe, doing some wrap-up interviews with the man who had been the husband and father of the three women who had been murdered several years earlier. This was one of the threads in Tom’s project – the Rogers Murders – and when he later decided to write about it separately, it won a Pulitzer Prize.
But, strangely enough, it happened to be right at this point in time, after their trek to Ohio, that they came to Gainesville to spend some time with us, and the subject of the Rogers case was discussed briefly. Both of them were somewhat overwhelmed with all the depressing information they had gathered on this story, and as he often did during this period, when the stress of the subject matter became too much, Tom would find out where we were, and visit for a sort of “recharge” of his batteries.
On that same night we had a discussion of the crop circle-type image that had appeared in my ex-husband’s driveway many years before. For some reason, I connected it to all the strange things that had happened when we lived out there in the woods. I had the idea that it was a sort of warning sign, though I was unable to formulate any clear idea about it.
One of the many synchronous things that had happened during the years Tom was gathering his material to write about us was the fact that all three of us (including Cherie) went through similar divorces at precisely the same time. It was actually sort of comical in retrospect, since Tom had been afraid to tell me that he was getting divorced. I actually dreamed about it just before Christmas of 1995, and told him about my dream. I’ll never forget the strange look on his face. But, even at that moment, he didn’t say it was true or not. It was only after I told him that I had made the decision to divorce myself that he heaved a sigh of relief and ’fessed up. I think he had the idea that I would judge him in some way, and nothing could have been further from the truth. But, after that, when Cherie also announced her intent to divorce, we all found it so odd that each of us, for different, yet similar reasons, were going through the exact same traumas at the exact same time. And all three of us had been, prior to our decisions to divorce, fully and completely committed to commitment. That is what made it so traumatic. Three people who believed in True Love, and full commitment, and who weren’t cry babies by any stretch of the imagination, facing the same hard lesson that sometimes, love isn’t love, and quite often, love isn’t enough.
So a sort of bond was formed, and we mutually supported one another through the process. It was a rough ride, but we all made it through.
Tom and Cherie attended the last session with Cs before Ark returned to Poland and some of these threads all sort of came together at that point.
Another curious thing happened in March of 1997. On March 25th, Ark and I took the afternoon off to go to a local Gainesville park and hike about for some much needed relaxation. The park’s claim to fame is something called the Devil’s Millhopper, and is a huge sinkhole surrounded by trails, and wooden walkways, and a little bridge over the stream that runs out of the enormous depression in the ground. It seems that we were there alone, and as we strolled about, we came to the bridge and I recounted to Ark some marriage customs I had been reading about where one of the requirements are that the couple must stand in water while saying their vows. Ark pointed out that we weren’t exactly standing in water, but we were standing over water, would that do? It did.
The next day there was the shocking news of the mass suicide of the Heaven’s Gate cult members, and I was just furious with all the people I knew on the Internet who had been so busily promoting the Hale Bopp affair as the precursor to a mass landing of aliens, or the harbinger of the Alien Rapture. We had been interviewed about it by a little ezine put out by a guy named Jason Dunlap, and he was not happy that we flatly stated that it was all rumor mongering and hysteria. Ark had even taken the trouble to contact a professional astronomer, a friend of a friend, for the inside scoop, and we asked the Cs about it, and repeatedly called attention to what they said about it, as well as the results of our own investigations. But we simply were fighting a forest fire of rumors with only a single bucket of water.
When we arrived home late that Friday, my daughter excitedly announced that a reporter from the New York Times had called and wanted to interview me about the Hale Bopp affair. I was completely taken aback. Why would anyone want to interview me about it? What’s more, even if somebody did, how did they get our phone number? At the time, the phone was unlisted, and the account was in my mother’s name. I asked if she had taken a number, and she said that when she offered to have me call him back, he said “no thanks,” he would call back himself.
But, that wasn’t the only mystery. At the time, our “website” consisted of just a few articles that Ark hosted on the Institute server in Poland. Every weekend he would access the server and download all the statistics logs of visitors and what they were reading. So on the weekend after the Hale Bopp suicides, we were simply taking care of business and we noticed something very startling: the visitors to our site had not just doubled, they had increased quite literally a thousand percent! What’s more, nearly every one of them was either from a .gov, .mil, or industrial aviation site, as in Boeing. There were also a large number of visitors from that very strange bioengineering site in Sweden that I had discovered when I was searching the term “brana.” But what was strangest of all was the fact that the peak had been hit the day before the Hale Bopp suicides. What’s more, the term did not even appear anywhere on our little collection of pages at that time. So we wonder, just what the heck was going on?
For Ark and me, our time together was racing by, and we avoided thinking too much about the fact that Ark would soon have to get on a plane and we would be separated for six months. The closer the day approached, the more my sleep was disturbed, only now it was happening at home. All Ark’s research was done, and we had a few days to relax before he had to leave. At this point, I had the “experience.”
I was fighting and struggling and Ark had awakened and was talking to me through my sleep, asking me to describe what was happening, what I was seeing and experiencing. I could hear his voice as though it were coming to me from the top of a very deep well. I was way at the bottom of the well, and I knew that there were important things buried at the bottom of this well, and that when I rose up out of it, I would not be able to remember since the properties of the place were necessary to comprehend what was there.
But I desperately wanted to remember, and I knew I needed some sort of device, or clue, and that if I could bring that back with me, I could follow it to the answers. I struggled with all my might to be able to speak from the depths of the well, to communicate from that place before I left it, and I managed to utter “Three Dominoes. Don’t let me forget! Three Dominoes.” And I shot up out of the well like a rocket and woke up with Ark holding me and asking what had happened.
April 5, 1997
Q: A little change of subject. Last night I had a bizarre experience, I don’t think I would call it a dream, but it was similar to what happened a couple of weeks ago. Out of this experience, I was only able to bring up two words: three dominoes, which seemed to be extremely important. But now, they make no sense at all. Could you give me some clue as to what the three dominoes means and what these experiences are that I am having?
A: One possible meaning: 3 Dominos pizza outlets in Gainesville!
Q: All right, what is another possible meaning?
A: Three dominos missing from your dominos set.
Q: OK, another one?
A: Your turn!
Q: Whatever it was, it was from a very deep level of the subconscious and I knew that if I did not get it out, I would lose it. OK, when these events occur …
A: Not an important dream, Laura.
Q: Well, maybe it was not an important dream, but it was accompanied by some very serious … what was I doing? (A) You were fighting. (L) And that was what I was doing before. Struggling and fighting. And, to my knowledge, I have never done this before in my life. I am considered a monophasic sleeper. (A) How do you know? (L) Because I have been told. I used to go to sleep in one position and wake up in exactly the same way, and not even the covers would be messed up.
A: House is “affected.”
Q: This house is affected?
A: No.
Q: The house we were in at Gainesville?
A: Yes.
Q: Did it carry over from there?
A: Yes.
Q: What is it related to?
A: Oakwood Drive.
Q: The house we used to live in out in the country …
A: Turned around in bed.
Q: That refers to the night I woke up and found myself reversed in the bed, my nightgown wet from the knees down, and there was simply no way I could have turned around because I was sleeping against the wall and there just wasn’t enough space. Are you saying I am having memories of this coming to the surface?
A: Motor memories.
Q: Memories in the body?
A: Close.
Q: Ark and I were talking the other night about the symbol that appeared in [my ex-husband’s] driveway many years ago.
A: Winged Sceptor.
Q: (A) We wanted to know why you related it to Grays, but would not say whether an abduction had taken place, and later you said that L [my ex-husband] had never been abducted. So, how does that relate? What is the connection?
A: Connections are not necessarily “time tracked.”
Q: Well, Ark remarked that it may not have related to L at all, but that was a message to us in the present. What was the message and who was it for?
A: Not a message. A marker.
Q: Is this a marker in the same sense as you described relating to memory awhile ago?
A: Close.
Q: Who was this marker supposed to affect?
A: Not correct concept.
Q: What is the correct concept?
A: All events are synchronous only when perception becomes a catalyst for learning.
Q: (TH) What is the meaning of synchronous in this context?
A: Only discovered when the lesson is completed.
Q: (TH) Do they mean that all events exist somewhere outside of time and that we just experience them sequentially?
A: Close, Tom.
Q: And why were we discussing that particular item at that house in Gainesville … [TF’s notebook computer indicates that its batteries are getting low by saying: Hasta la vista, Baby!] (TH) There’s your answer! Deus ex machina! (L) Why did the discussion of this symbol come up, and more or less synchronistically related to my battling dreams, and then you mentioned motor memory and the incident at Oakwood Drive …
A: Contemplate. Please do not leave just yet, Mr. French!
Q: Why do you not wish Tom to leave?
A: We may have some things to say to him.
Q: What?
A: Not yet.
Q: Cherie is the one who has to go. She is having allergic reactions to smoke.
A: Really? What do you feel about things, about changes we referenced for you in our last communication to you?
Q: (TF) It was necessary. Glad that it … that last year’s over.
A: It is not over.
Q: (TF) Yes, there are some more things to do …
A: There are many changes yet to come.
Q: (TF) That’s true. (L) Is Tom going to feel positive about at least 50% of them?
A: About 100%. When the conclusion is reached you see, Tom, this “struggle,” or “challenge,” relating to the perceptions of the coming ending/beginning of the millennium, was really a doorway opened by your subconscious to begin the necessary process of examining the metamorphosis of your own being.
Q: (TF) So, I had subconscious motivations of my own when I decided to follow this subject? It was for me?
A: Yes.
Q: (TF) Well, there has certainly been a lot of pain involved.
A: With pain comes renewal.
Q: (TF) What about the sickness I had at the beginning of the year?
A: Purging of built up “poisons” of an emotional/spiritual nature.
Q: (TF) I can certainly see that! Yes, that’s very true. But, you have indicated more. What more can happen?
A: Now, finally, you will be able to move ahead and make significant progress, including ways not yet imagined!
And indeed it was true. Tom didn’t know it then, but the Pulitzer was in the not-too-distant future, and I suspect that there is more to come.
The day finally came when we had to get up in the morning, knowing that every minute had to be concentrated on preparations for Ark to leave. We both knew that we were going to have a difficult time of it. Two months after a lifetime of looking just wasn’t enough. And even though we had our plans made, that it would only be a temporary separation, we both knew that many things can happen and we might very well never see each other again.
I wept as I packed for him, tears splashing on everything I put in the suitcase. I had washed all his clothes and packed them carefully. He had a tape I had made for him on which I sang some of his favorite songs. There was a large envelope full of photographs of me and the children. Some of them were the only copies in existence. I packed his current journal on top, and some papers of the correspondence between him and Ms. Brana. I packed his vitamins and whatever little things I could think of to tuck in so that when he unpacked, he would have surprises. Finally, I made sure his passport and tickets were all in order in his jacket pocket, and that he had plenty of cash for any incidentals on the way. We loaded everything into the van, everybody kissed everybody goodbye, and he drove us to the airport. I tried not to think about having to drive home alone.
I watched him through the boarding trolley until he turned one last time to look at me, and was out of sight. I rushed up to the roof of the airport to watch the plane itself and when it lifted off the runway into the air, I burst into tears right there. Finally, I was able to calm down and drive home. It was terrible, but I had promised not to cry every day, and I meant to keep my promise. I had resolved to do as much research as possible to fill my time up, and I already had a calendar set up to cross off the days. Each day had a number on it telling how many days I had to wait.
Of course, things got weird right away. Ark had to make a connection in the States to fly to Frankfurt, Germany. From Frankfurt, he made another connection to Warsaw, and from Warsaw, he was booked on a train to Wroclaw. When he arrived in Warsaw, for some reason, his luggage had disappeared.
After doing all he could to get them to locate it, he left his contact information and took the train to Wroclaw where he called me and explained the situation. I immediately got on the phone to the airline and started jacking them up from this end. Suddenly, they “located” his bags. The explanation was that they were put on the wrong flight from Frankfurt and came in on a later plane, but I didn’t buy it. They were going to fly them to Wroclaw and have a courier deliver them to Ark, and he explicitly told them to bring them to the Institute. They didn’t. They delivered them to his estranged wife. And when I say “estranged,” I do mean estranged!
I need now to give just a little background about the situation over in Poland. I can’t talk about his ex-wife because I never knew her. I only knew her by what she had done, and much of that is personal, so I won’t go into it. But the reader may have some idea of what kind of person she is by the fact that, two days after he told her he wanted a divorce, she went to the bank where all their money was and drew it all out, and it has never been seen since.
Now, we aren’t talking about just a little bit of money here. The reader should remember that Ark spent most of his career traveling and working at some of the world’s most prestigious European universities. He was well paid, and expenses in Poland were low (as was the pay). He habitually lived economically so that he could put as much money in the bank as possible, often existing on hot dogs and instant potatoes for weeks on end to save money. Because of the favorable exchange rate, he managed to accumulate what amounts to a considerable fortune. He paid for an apartment in a high-rise, had two cars, and essentially was considered to be a wealthy man. On top of all that, he was awarded a Humboldt Prize in 1995, and it was a significant chunk of cash.
And it was all gone. She didn’t say a word, simply went to the bank and took everything. When he went to the bank on his lunch hour to cash a check for pocket money, he was told that he no longer had any accounts, no CD’s, nothing. All gone.
Well, naturally he was curious and wished to know where 30 years worth of money accumulated by his self-denial and careful management had gone. She told him that she gave it all to the church to pay for masses for his soul since he was being evilly influenced to ask for a divorce. No mention was made, of course, to any of her contributions to his desire for a divorce. She had always been perfect. So I won’t describe the 30 years of entries in his journal that chronicle her behavior, except to mention the fact that she hired a private detective to follow their daughter’s husband around because she didn’t like him and wanted to discover something that she could blackmail him with in order to force him to agree to divorce her daughter so she could resume control of the daughter’s life. We’ll just leave it at that.
In any event, Ark was without money, and she worked herself up to such a state of frenzied violence that he knew (from experience) that she was going to begin mutilating herself so she could run outside and scream that he had beat her. So, to forestall that possibility, he knew that he must never, ever, be in her presence alone. He left with the clothes on his back, and went to live with his mother. From that point on, his ex-wife refused to appear in court when over half a dozen hearings were scheduled. She refused to hire an attorney. She repeatedly sent doctor’s notes that she was “unwell.”
You can’t divorce somebody you can’t get into court. And without getting her into court, nothing could be decided about the equitable division of property. Ark was advised by his attorney to press criminal charges against her because her theft of his money was a crime. Since he had announced his intention to divorce, it had been illegal for her to take anything until the court ruled on who got what. Ark couldn’t do it. As he said to me, it was worth a fortune to find me and escape from her. He had spent the entire winter before he came to the States, trudging through the snow while his soon-to-be ex-wife drove by in the new car he had bought just a few months earlier. She even refused to allow him to retrieve any of his clothes. So that is where the matter stood when he returned to Poland.
And the airline delivered his luggage to his old home address on file when the tickets were purchased.
April 12, 1997
Q: Who was responsible for the lost luggage?
A: Polish authorities.
Q: Let me go back to the luggage. The Polish authorities, as in which branch?
A: Secret police.
Q: What were they looking for? Just anything?
A: Yes.
Q: Did they satisfy themselves that there was nothing subversive in there?
A: Yes.
Q: Why, then, did they cause the luggage to be delivered where it was?
A: Honest mistake.
Q: (L) Was this mistake stimulated by the Lizzies?
A: In that vein, there is little in your STS locator that is not, ultimately.
Q: What was the reaction of the recipient of the luggage?
A: Stunned.
Q: Was I correct when I thought that there was rushing off to find someone to translate the tape?
A: Well, it was more like rushing off to “find my lawyer.”
Q: Is this information going to be used in a detrimental way against him?
A: Yes.
Q: Is the luggage going to be returned?
A: Wait and see … “Stay tuned, fasten your seat belts,” etc. …
Q: Anything further you can give to help me sleep tonight?
A: Ask …
Q: Is it going to prolong the proceedings?
A: Open.
Q: Will she show up at the hearing?
A: Will most likely ask for a delay, based upon “new information,” to be entered into evidence.
Q: Would it be a good idea for him to suggest that he can get an American divorce?
A: Good idea!!
Q: Should it be let out so that she will hear of it?
A: Why not proceed discreetly?
Q: Would it be advisable to pursue the money issue?
A: It might be advisable for A to simply concentrate upon his new beginning as opposed to the old, dead past …
Q: Does that mean that he will not be able to get the legal affairs straightened out in Poland?
A: This is a complicated situation which will unfold in a proper way if handled in a positive, forward looking manner.
Q: Forward looking would be looking to the future?
A: Yes.
Q: Does that mean looking out for some of his interests?
A: See previous response.
Q: My original thought was that he should just walk away from it, let her have it. There are other opportunities.
A: Look ahead, not back.
Q: I think that the pictures and tape will be gone when he gets the luggage back.
A: Wait and see. [I was right.]
Q: Why was she stunned at what was in the luggage?
A: Think of all that was in the luggage, and you will know the answer to that question.
Q: Was it the pictures?
A: See previous answer, obsession aideth not, my dear!
Q: I am not obsessed! I am curious.
A: Worry not, just sit back and enjoy the show!
Q: I can’t enjoy myself if I think she is going to make him suffer!
A: No more on this!
It was two days of phone tag before he discovered what had happened. He knew that he had to retrieve his luggage, and he made arrangements with another professor and friend at the institute to accompany him to get his possessions.
After an unpleasant scene, he was finally able to open his suitcase and unpack. The customs seal was intact, so it was a certainty that no one had opened the bag. Yet, the tape, the journal, the manila envelope of photographs, and the pages of correspondence with Sue Brana were all missing.
And the Cs were right on the money. The next hearing was scheduled for June 17, on the very day Ark was scheduled to leave for Dijon, followed by a stay in Gottingen, and then on to Florence. But even before that, he was scheduled to spend two weeks in Bielefeld. Meanwhile, he was working very hard on the details of the upcoming Xth Max Born Symposium that he was organizing with two colleagues, sponsored by a list of luminary organizations in Poland, Great Britain and Germany. He certainly had his hands full with such an exhausting travel schedule, and every day was an uphill battle to keep the ship of the upcoming conference on course. With 25 of the world’s most eminent physicists scheduled to speak, coordinating the schedule, arranging for their travel and accommodations, making sure everybody’s needs would be met, was an overwhelming task. Ark delegated as much as possible to his staff, but in the end, he had to make the call on the big decisions.
When the day of the hearing finally arrived, again, the soon-to-be-ex-wife did not appear. Again she sent a letter asking for a delay. However, the court was getting rather impatient with these manipulations. Ark described the event in an email:
Subject: news
Date sent: Tue, 17 Jun 1997 09:52:06
A did not appear. She sent a letter and asked for 4 months of delay because of “psychic health” reasons. The Court did not agree arguing that everybody divorcing suffers psychic tensions. Rescheduled for July 22 when the session will be held even in absence of A.
A admitted on paper that she has the Journal and tapes!
Her letter states, in part, that I have been taken over by a mind-control cult because of my “interdisciplinary interests,” i.e. anything she thinks is “strange.” She wrote:
“These interests (my interdisciplinary) in recent times, i.e. since June 1996, through the Internet, became continuous contacts with a group of people which, as they claim, have contact with extraterrestrial civilization, that is with Cassiopaeans. In this way he got to know a woman, named Laura, and he remains under her influence.
“From this time on he tells his colleagues about his love for Laura, his plans of living together with her. He says that he wants to have a child with her and also take care of her five children.
Proof: [names of witnesses]
“In his journal he describes his emotional states and his supernatural love which he feels towards Laura. He seeks advice from her, she is giving him horoscopes, sends him cassettes with “motivating” recordings. From his notes it also follows that he is financing enterprise of this Laura and the group of people contacting the Cassiopaeans.”
Proof: [journal from October-November 1996]
My God!
Bernard, his wife and two other friends will witness for A that I was proposing to give her apartment and car and half of the money if she agrees to the divorce.
Then she argued (on paper) that she stole the money to save it from being given to a “group” …
Somehow she is totally unaware that the fact that she has taken these things from my luggage makes her guilty without any doubt to everybody including her attorney. And that alone is a sufficient reason to ask for a divorce. She seems to be also totally unaware (and her attorney was not able to explain it to her) that the fact that she prevents me from spending my part of the money however I wish is another sufficient-in-itself reason to ask for a divorce.
Marek noticed these two things instantly.
I believe the judges also noticed. The main judge was very nice, flatly dismissing the demand to wait for four months.
And so the next hearing was scheduled for July 22, come Hell or High Water.
As it happened, both came.
During the course of our experiences with the Cassiopaeans in the two years before Ark’s arrival on the scene, we had many other experiences with attack that resulted from our association with individuals who were what we had begun to call agents. I have recounted some of these in the Wave Series, including the research I was doing at the time which, little by little, made me aware that something seriously interesting was going on with this communication with Cassiopaea.
Up to this point in time, there were a number of esoteric traditions that were available to seekers of higher knowledge, all of which emanated from secret societies, and groups that required oaths of secrecy, rites and rituals, or periodic or permanent withdrawal from the world in order for a person to achieve higher consciousness – which was, of course, promulgated as the means by which the ultimate goal was achieved; this goal being either power over the forces of life, or escape from life itself.
Ark and I both have investigated these paths to some greater or lesser extent through our searches, but neither of us ever felt sufficiently inspired by their exoteric cloaks to do more than give them academic interest. “Control over the forces of life” via magic and ceremony never appealed to either of us, and abdicating responsibility to life and other people also never appealed to either of us. What we had both independently recognized was that George Gurdjieff had brought to the world “fragments of an unknown teaching” that resonated deeply in our souls.
Gurdjieff’s work is evidently deeply rooted in an ancient tradition that predates all other known teachings promulgated by any of the so-called secret societies. Some have suggested that it points toward Egypt, but we believe that we clearly demonstrate in our book, The Secret History of the World, that its origins are precisely where Gurdjieff said they were: deep in Central Asia.
Even though he had received his initiations in the Tradition of the Ancients, Gurdjieff was clearly breaking with the tradition by opening it up to the world at large. No one has any clear answer as to whether he was charged with this mission, or whether he decided on his own to take the responsibility for gambling on awakening mankind at large, but the result was that he came under intense criticism and castigation by both initiates and the uninitiated.
Interestingly, in his last book, Life is Only Real Then, When I Am, Gurdjieff makes a very revealing statement. He describes certain abilities of the mind which he possessed directly relating to “the power of telepathy and hypnotism.” He voluntarily gave up the use of these abilities to manipulate others, but also “made a reservation that my oath should not concern the application of it for scientific purposes. For instance, I was very much interested then, and even now my interest has not entirely vanished, in increasing the visibility of distant cosmic centers many thousand times through the use of a medium … ” Relating this to what we have said about Thought Centers in the previous chapter, we begin to see that Gurdjieff was engaged in activities and goals very similar to our present work.
Gurdjieff seemed to be acutely aware that the conditions of life had become so abnormal that only a desperate gamble might avert a certain catastrophe. He introduced a practical esoteric method into a system of initiation that taught that life itself was the great initiator. He hoped that he would be able to stimulate enough people to undergo the adventure of self-awakening so that the world as we know it might not be destroyed.
Gurdjieff himself said that “the teaching whose theory is here being set out is completely self-supporting and independent of other lines and it has been completely unknown up to the present time.”
That does not, of course, mean that it did not exist for millennia before Gurdjieff was charged with its exposition in these times.
The significant things about what came to be known as the Fourth Way was that it was not a religion, there was no dogma, no belief system, every idea and practice was to be verified by one’s own intentional observation and experimentation. What was essential to it was not devotion or belief, but effort, self-study, self-sacrifice in the true sense of the word, and understanding. What was more, the effort had to be completely voluntary.
The central theme of Gurdjieff’s work was that the individual could awaken through special efforts, utilizing the uncertainty, shocks (to one’s beliefs, preconceived notions, and habitual ways of thinking, feeling, and behaving), suffering and negativity of real life, to produce the ability to extend intentionally the inner processes of the conscious absorption of impressions for the purpose of stimulating and enhancing awareness at multiple levels of being. This effort was aimed at developing a special quality, a wading through the processes of the psychological and organic self with a view to preparing the ground for the development of the higher self that was more than the sum of its parts. This quality that was sought was that of the higher mind that could impartially observe the self as it is – not as it was imagined to be, or wished to be – so as to “grow the mustard seed” of the essence so that a higher-being body could be formed and a soul crystallized.
Observation of the self, and the world, as it is, brings a kind of suffering that only impersonal truth can evoke. And doing it repeatedly can crack the shell of the Matrix.
Castaneda had obviously either read Gurdjieff’s work, or had tapped into a similar current either through his own psyche, or literally through the teachings of a group of seers, or Naguals, as he claimed. Dr. C. Scott Littleton, Professor of Anthropology at Occidental College, Los Angeles (author of From Scythia to Camelot), with whom I have personally discussed the issues of Carlos Castaneda, wrote to me:
Yes, I’m convinced that there was indeed a prototype of don Juan & that he was probably a Yaqui who moved rather freely between the Tucson area and northern Sonora. I also recall Carlos telling me that he never saw the guy again, at least in the flesh, after he, Nestor & Pablito jumped off the Ixtlan cliff at the climax of their initiation. He also said that his mentor died shortly thereafter.
I did hear through the grapevine that FD conned him into believing her account of her relationship with a South American shaman & managed to get him to write the foreword to her book, which, I’ve been told by persons I trust, is pure BS. Actually, this credulity on Castaneda’s part is thoroughly believable. He was a “trickster” who often tricked himself into accepting other people’s lies. …
I do know that in the late ’80s & early ’90s Carlos & his disciples, most of them Indians in the country illegally, were engaged in collective dreaming experiments from their base in the Mojave Desert. These included “voyages” to “planets in nearby star systems,” as he described it in the last guest lecture he ever gave to one of my UCLA Extension classes, ca. ’89. …
Finally, as I’ve said before, I suspect that most of the guy’s experiences reflect a UFO connection, despite the absence of clear-cut UFO imagery in his writings. … Yes, I did raise this possibility with Carlos on several occasions, and he told me that he’d “look into it.” Whether he ever did is a moot point.
In other words, hyperdimensional teachers may not be so crazy an idea. And if so, the Cassiopaeans seem to be of the same extremely ancient “Tradition” of Gurdjieff, and to some extent, Castaneda.
It is truly only in this sense that the Cassiopaeans can be understood. Their method of teaching, frustrating and trapping us in reactions, all the while urging us to not identify, to become free of our reactions, is a mode of self-development of conscience and understanding and true individuality that enables one to become free of the service-to-self hierarchy.
Gurdjieff taught that, since we are all One, what each of us does for ourselves in terms of self-development and awakening, we do for others, because when we withdraw from the feeding dynamic, we are then able to assist others to withdraw. We are the protectors of our inner life, the essence of the Divine, and as we protect it from the predations of those who would seek to devour it, to use it, to abuse us, we are protecting and defending that Divine spiritual part of us that seeks full manifestation and “birth” into this world – thy will be done on Earth, as it is in Heaven. This Divine self, this essence of God that is the seed of the soul, is hidden, buried in a shell of false personality that consists very often of “niceness” and seeing only “good” all around, when in fact, the reality is one in which very little of “goodness” is truly manifested because it is a Matrix control system that feeds on the energy of suffering that comes from beliefs in such illusions that are regularly and repeatedly violated.
The Matrix teaches us to be long suffering and to never revolt against the control system, to turn the other cheek. It teaches us to be food. Since we are all one, each time we allow ourselves to be violated, we are allowing all others and life itself to be violated. Each time we placate the Predator, we are feeding it not only with our energy, but enabling it to continue to consume others. Each time we keep silent or turn away from confronting lies, we feed the predator and we enable it to feed on others. Each time we are not truly ourselves, each time we do not choose from a position of freedom, because we are unaware, so are all others to whom we are connected and responsible deprived of free will. “Use the present to repair the past and prepare the future,” Gurdjieff said. And this is exactly what we have learned from the Cs.
For people who have a serious interest in the path of awakening and becoming free according to this most ancient teaching that has been hidden for long ages until the present time, there is no clear and explicit source of information. Because of its very nature, it has no center, no lectures, no seminars and those that have been formed since the death of Gurdjieff are, like any teaching that becomes codified, somewhat suspect. Gurdjieff himself said, “Since I had not, when in full strength and health, succeeded in introducing in practice into the life of people the beneficial truths elucidated for them by me, then I must at least, at any cost, succeed in doing this in theory, before my death.” He had dissolved his school, and devoted himself to writing. He finished the final draft of his manuscript of All and Everything before 1930, but he would not authorize its publication until 1950. Four years later Fulcanelli authorized a second edition of his Le Mystere with the added Hendaye chapter. My guess is that the two events are not unrelated.
The point here is, however, if Gurdjieff was unable to succeed in transmitting the system, or inspiring awakening by direct teaching, do we suppose that second-hand sources are doing a better job than he did himself?
That was, of course, our own dilemma. As I have noted elsewhere, Ark sought out Henri Tracol in order to determine whether or not he ought to join with such a school as those formed by some of the students of Gurdjieff. He realized after an hour of conversation that there was simply no point.
At the present moment, we have a large body of text, delivered for the most part as a direct interaction between myself and the Cassiopaeans. As I have noted, I had come to the same conclusions that Ark did, that there was no other place on the planet where the deepest teachings that fed the soul of those seeking to be free could be found. And so, I formed the theory of accessing the information directly. The theory, the drive, and the dedication to bring it into this reality was mine, and the presence of Frank was almost immaterial. If it had not been him, it would have been someone else. If it had not been done the way it was done, it would have been done another way. As the Cs themselves noted:
Q: (T) After two years, you know [Laura’s] always going to ask those kinds of questions!
A: Not two years, eternity. […] We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path. [Frank] is just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
And Frank had an agenda. His psychological agenda was to become a rich and famous New Age star, with me as the beast of burden doing all the work. The theological reality behind him was that of self-serving forces which sought to distort and corrupt, steal or destroy this work. And at the present moment those forces are active in pursuit of this goal. The Evil Magician-Matrix will do anything and everything to put the sheep back under hypnosis so he can take their skins and flesh whenever he likes, even including hypnotizing agents and convincing them that they are eagles, or channels or magicians.
We come back now to Ark in Budapest. He spent a week there and as soon as he returned to Poland, he began his final preparations to come to the U.S. As the day we would finally meet in the flesh came closer, I thought I would be a nervous wreck. But, in actuality, I was quite calm. I did have all the concerns as to whether we were making a big mistake, and all the rational excuses that the mind constructs as defenses, but the Cs had said that I had nothing to worry about, so I just didn’t worry. What I was worried about was my house being clean. I had heard that Polish ladies were outstanding housekeepers and I was terrified that my housekeeping would be found lacking. I was pushing myself daily to clean places in my house that hadn’t been cleaned since we bought it and did all the cleaning before moving in when there was nothing in the house to get in the way. As a result of this activity, I fell three times, under strange circumstances. These falls aggravated my already compromised physical condition, and I was having some difficulty functioning.
Ten days before Ark was to arrive, we had a session in which a completely strange remark was made. It was attended by the regular group, with the addition of V** who only was occasionally present due to her class schedule as well as that undercurrent of antagonism toward her from Frank. At this session, a series of rather disturbing comments were made by the Cs that only recently, with Frank’s revealed agenda, became clear in their intent.
We had been sitting around before the session discussing new information that Terry had obtained about future plans of the Secret Government for the institution of a global control system, the so-called New World Order. I was having a hard time concentrating on such topics when my whole personal life was sort of in a major transition, but the Cs evidently wanted to communicate something extremely important.
February 1, 1997
Q: Have you been listening to our discussion?
A: Yes.
Q: Do you have any commentary you would like to make on the subject?
A: Well, more specific than that, please!
Q: Well, I’m not going to ask any questions about munitions. I don’t know anything about munitions, and I couldn’t ask any intelligent questions …
A: Your conversation covered a whole lot more than just munitions.
Q: Yes, it did. Now … (T) What did they ask? What did the discussion cover? (J) … our conversation “covered a whole lot more than munitions.” (T) Yup, it did! (L) OK, well, if we’ve got these … these … well, I don’t even want to get on the subject, because I just … it … (T) Then, well, let’s talk about something else.
A: Yes, we do suggest you do get on to the subject.
Q: (L) All right, then, you guys go ahead and ask your questions, because you know what to ask … They want you to get on to the subject …
A: No, Laura, you do too!
Q: (L) Well, I don’t …
A: You don’t know anything about Illuminati? Or secret government? Or future plans to institute changes?
Q: (T) Yep, that’s what we were talking about …
A: Or, how this may, let us make that, will, affect you?!? It would be wise to learn, discuss, and network quite a bit about this, for your own good!! Especially since we have noticed a distinct change in your “tone” since Arkadiusz came into your life … you have become somewhat “euphoric” about this turn of events, and your perspective on the prospects for your future. But it would be most decidedly unwise to let your temporary feelings obstruct the bigger picture, especially since the addition of Arkadiusz will have a stunningly profound effect on the course of events and all that implies with regards to the coming of the Wave and the turmoil that will precede it!!!
This was a startling remark. How in the world could our little group, our little reality, our insignificant lives have a “stunningly profound” effect on the course of events? Oh, indeed, they had hinted about many things, but I always just took them with a grain of salt, and tried to avoid ego hooks of thinking that anything we did was so tremendously significant. As the group discussed it, we naturally tried to minimize it to merely a local significance.
Q: (T) [A]nd it’s not that we’re anchoring it in New Port Richey … (L) It’s the planet … (T) … we’re anchoring it to the planet. And, there are other groups, anchoring frequencies. Maybe different frequencies, maybe the same frequency. They alluded to that, too, they said that there were other groups … (V) Yes, that’s something I was wondering about, for the last month, was one of the first times that I sat with you and Frank, they had said, what, that there were about ten people on the planet, that they were … (L) They said about 100. And they said that 10 were getting similar … (V) I was wondering whether that’s grown in the last two or three years … (J) Good question! (T) Well, I think the Gulf Breeze Six people were hooked into it and they didn’t make it. A lot of the groups are not going to make it. (V) Well, a good way to gauge is to the interaction … (T) They can’t depend on just one group to do it. They’ve got to have a whole bunch of different groups trying to do it. That way, at least one will make a connection. The more the merrier. The more groups, the stronger it becomes. (L) The whole thing is, is to survive. I mean, after we’ve had some of the bizarre things …
A: Start the flow again, Laura.
Q: (L) Which flow?
A: You don’t know?!? They said, incredulously …
Q: (T) The frequency, the flow, what we’ve just been talking about. (L) OK … (T) Start the flow again. Is that what you’re talking about?
A: Yes.
Q: When Ark gets here, this particular group is going to increase …
A: We meant to restart questions …
Q: (L) OK, start the flow …
A: … regarding the subjects at hand.
It was definitely startling that the Cs were suggesting that the flow was dependent on me. But, it certainly fits with Frank-as-the-well-pipe analogy.
Q: (L) OK, they want me to start the flow again … (T) Start the questions … (L) All right. To start the flow of the energy, let me ask this: You have said, on a number of occasions, that somehow, some way, what we are doing is going to play some role in these upcoming changes, turmoil, etc. And then, you’ve also, on other occasions, made allusions to secret government, and to the Illuminati, and so on and so forth. And you have also said that our knowledge is going to increase to, I think it was 30 to 35% of what the Illuminati possesses, but that would be like individually, each of us individually, so added together, it would be a lot more than that. Can we think, or ask, if there’s going to be a general tendency for our activities to be more closely scrutinized in the not too distant future?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L & T) Of course! (L) Let me ask; is there going to be any attempt to further attack or harm us in any way?
A: Well, let us put it this way: the future is fluid, as you know. Knowledge protects you. But, it would be wise to picture these letters appearing on a screen somewhere, at the same moment that they are uttered!
Q: (L) Is it the uttering that … (T) Uttering, or spelled on the board? (L) … “the moment they are uttered” … is it the uttering that is the key?
A: Does not matter, in all reality. The key is what the expectation is as to how they are intended to be put to use.
And of course, we didn’t even get it. The use of the term “utter” was curious; but again, it makes sense with Frank as the well-pipe, attempting to extract information from me. The fact that it was given in response to the question about whether or not there would be any attempts to attack or harm us, the key being how the words that are “uttered” were intended to be used, suggested that now that Ark was becoming involved, we might be considered as more problematical to the “powers that be.”
Naturally, in later times Frank opined that the remark was made in reference to Terry and Jan. Since it was impossible for me to consider the possibility that it might be Frank himself, I was willing to entertain the possibility, so we decided to ask about it over a year and a half after the above remark, in August of 1998. The Cs basically nixed the idea that Terry and Jan were the monitors, and the way the answers were delivered is truly strange in light of recent events.
August 15, 1998
Q: (A) I want to ask whether this channel is being monitored, and if so, by whom?
A: Only effective monitoring so far is by direct 3rd density observation and enticing some to share data, then “spill their guts” with “shaky” correspondents.
Q: (L) So, it’s only when I get enticed to share what ought not to be shared, or when someone is present who is a monitor, that we have been monitored?
A: Close. It can be monitored in other ways, but so far, these have been only seldom necessary. All STS always seek the path of least resistance first.
Naturally, I had the immediate idea that I was the guilty party since Frank had repeatedly told me that the only reason I was ever attacked was because I shared too much of the information with others. He wanted to keep it secret so that people could be induced to pay for it and it aggravated him to no end that we were giving it away for free. What is even more amazing is the fact that there were segments of the transcripts that the Cs suggested we ought not to share for safety reasons. Yet, in recent times, Frank, claiming to be the channel, has illegally claimed that he has the right to authorize Vincent Bridges to publish all of the material, including personal names and the passages that the Cs specifically said ought not to be shared. If anything ever demonstrated that he is not in any way the channel of the Cassiopaeans, that act alone clinches it. If he were, as he claims, the “authorized representative,” one would think that the directions given by the Cs would be honored. That he has neither honored the free will of those present at the sessions to not be identified, nor the request of the Cs that certain material not be published, completely invalidates his claim to be the channel. His behavior and actions are so out of range of the Cs’ teachings that there is no longer any realistic basis on which he can stake a claim to any of the material whatsoever.
At the time, I was feeling that maybe the remark was meant for me, but we now see that the precise way the Cs described it: “Only effective monitoring so far is by direct third density observation and enticing some to share data, then “spill their guts” with “shaky” correspondents,” applies exactly and precisely to Frank in the current time. The further remark that other ways than direct third density monitoring could be used, but “so far, these have been only seldom necessary. All STS always seek the path of least resistance first,” was a dead giveaway! Since we already know that Frank’s mind was the battle where it was in question as to whether the dark forces or the forces of light would win, it’s pretty obvious that Frank was always the path of least resistance for purposes of monitoring. He had been programmed for it; specially prepared for it. And it was probably only during those few times when he was blocked by our efforts from his link to the STS forces, that other means of monitoring had been utilized.
Q: (L) You once said when Terry and Jan were here that we should imagine the words appearing on a screen somewhere as they were being delivered on the board. Now you say that this is not necessarily the lengths to which they [meaning the controllers] have gone. Was that because they were present?
A: Seldom does not mean never.
Q: (L) If such a thing was to happen, would it be because of the presence of someone, such as when you said PZ was a monitor?
A: PZ, yes definitely!
Returning to the February 1st session when the idea of a monitor being present in our midst was first proposed, we find even more clues pointing in Frank’s direction.
Q: (T) Remind me, I’ve got another observation to make about the people on the other end … (L) Is there an internal configuration or frequency level that makes it so that the persons who are selected to do this monitoring, or to be involved in any of this kind of activity, such as you have described, as in the words appearing on the screen, etc., so that they are definitely selected because of their STS orientation?
A: This process takes place naturally. Now, a warning for you. Frequency resonance modulations of vibration rate can be altered or modified from outside if one is not cautious and/or aware enough, and thus takes necessary precautions.
We were not quite sure what this last remark meant, but it was a warning clearly directed at me, personally.
Q: (L) Well, OK, we know that. So, in other words, not only the information channel …
A: Yours can, ours cannot! [tape off]
Q: … and they’re letting them go and do it, because they figure it’s going to be great, because everybody’ll think it’s just TV, it’s just phony. And they are hoping it won’t go. The whole thing all goes together. It’s all linked together. Somebody’s watching this stuff, it’s disseminated through their organization, too. (L) I want to ask a question …
A: Now, remember technology can be used to “zap” you in a number of ways. For example … beware of any episodes of sudden storminess that may occur between you and Ark.
As it happened, one of the first things Frank tried to do after Ark had arrived was to plant seeds of division between us. So, again, we see that the Cs were telling us things that we never thought to apply to Frank, yet all the time, Frank was the spider at the center of the web. At this point, I wanted to get in a quick question about my falls that were so very strange.
Q: (L) Let me ask this quick, before anything else happens, just hold everything. I want to get it in. I have had, in the last couple of weeks, three very difficult falls, almost as if something was done. Now, Ark and TA perceive this as a deliberate attack on me physically. Is it, in fact, an attack on me physically?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of these … well, it’s pretty obvious. It’s to put me out of commission. Is this the chief way that I generally get attacked?
A: Yes. And we are warning you now!!! Do not get distracted any further by worrying over details of preparations to this house for Arkadiusz’s arrival. This is ridiculously unnecessary, and furthermore, diverts your energy and awareness to such an extent that it can leave you open to even the ultimate “hit”!!!!
I was just a trifle unnerved to think that somebody out there wanted me dead.
Ark’s arrival in the U.S.A. on my grandfather’s birthday – the second Wilbur – was exactly two years to the day from the episode of the “Two Wilburs” and the two copies of Velikovsky. We had two months to be together before he had to return to Europe to fulfill a series of obligations that had long been in the planning stage. During this two months, he was required to be in Gainesville doing research. This presented certain difficulties for us since it was only natural that we wanted to spend as much time together as possible.
My mother lived with us, and this ameliorated the problem somewhat. Without her presence with the children, it would have been impossible for me to even consider spending several days a week away from home. We worked on the schedule and it was set up so that we could go to Gainesville on Monday mornings or late Sunday nights, and then drive home on Thursdays or Fridays, depending on the activity. One of the first items we had on our list of things to do was to buy my eldest daughter a car so that during any period of time that we were gone to Gainesville, there would be a car at home for the use of the family.
We had promised my daughter that she would receive a car as a graduation gift. She had worked very hard, and completing her first year of college classes at the same time that she finished her last year of high school under a special program for gifted students. She had also held down a job for the same period of time, so she had more than proven her responsibility. We went car shopping.
Since we aren’t rich, we had set a limit on how much we were going to spend, and we wanted to find the best buy for our money. We also wanted to make sure that whatever we found, we could buy it outright because I didn’t want her to be burdened with making a big car payment every month. She had worked hard enough that I thought she ought to be in a position where she could just finish college and not worry about having to work full time to pay a car loan.
We had already been looking and test-driving cars for weeks before Ark arrived and had narrowed our search down to a couple of dealers who seemed to be where the best buys were to be found. As it happened, on this particular day when we were ready to make a purchase, they had just put a nice little candy-apple red Volvo out on the lot. My daughter fell in love with it. The only problem was, after we dickered through the cash bargaining process, it was still half again as much money as I had allotted for the purchase of a car. Ark thought she ought to have it and so he paid the difference out of his own pocket.
Fine, everything was settled. And it was a good thing, because as things turned out, the attack forces began to try to hit us through the children. The Volvo saved my daughter’s life. But, we will get to that.
Having spent over two days on trains and planes to get here, Ark was totally exhausted, but we decided to have a session anyway. Ark wanted to “meet the Cassiopaeans.” It was also my 45th birthday. Frank was in rare good humor when he arrived; Ark’s presence was a confirmation that the Cassiopaeans were a valid source, and of course, this was going to contribute immeasurably to his cachet as a New Age star once everyone acknowledged him as the channel. Of course, I only see this in retrospect. At the time, I just thought he was happy that the group was expanding in such an amazing way.
Whatever Frank’s motives and agenda, the Cs themselves were happy that Ark had finally made it through the red tape to get here. Ark, on the other hand, was the scientist examining up close a new phenomenon about which he was very curious, but regarding which, he also had many doubts.
February 12, 1997
Q: (L) Alright, questions …
A: You are the one has the questions!!
Q: (L) Me?
A: Did we mean singular? Or plural?
Q: (L) Ask a question. (A) Me? I didn’t think about a question … I can’t think of one …
A: Arkadiusz, you have racing thoughts, thus making you tired and wide awake at the same “time.”
Q: (A) Yes …
A: We see those thoughts … Be not reluctant to seek relief. A question not asked leads to a problem unresolved, as all your many years of training, education, research, and networking have taught you.
Q: (A) My first question is: I want to understand what is this “predestined mission,” what it consists of?
A: It consists of following the path that has confronted you.
Q: (A) OK …
A: We do not tell you of your predestined mission, because then it is no longer “predestined.” You learn by experience, and as you sense, you are on the threshold of a rather profound experience.
Q: (L) What kind of experience? (A) Yes! What kind?
A: We could well ask you the same!
Q: (A) So, we don’t know what kind of experience …
A: Yes we do!!
Q: (L) We who? We here or we/you on sixth density?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Quit teasing me! (A) What do I think? OK … (L) Is this experience going to be something that involves interacting with external sources, an internal experience, a learning experience, can you give me a hint here? (A) Yes …
A: We would prefer Arkadiusz ask these questions … We were always most impressed with his skills in this area. Do you remember being caught in a cold rain on the “long walk,” and how through your upset, you had an insight that “opened a new door?” We remember 1966 as a turning point. Well, this is another, Arkadiusz, and the emotions feel strangely familiar, but this time you have the aid of others on 3rd density.
Q: (A) Um hmm. I would like to know if physics is of any use, or if this is something completely different. I am supposed to concentrate upon what we are supposed to concentrate on, and does this require abilities in physics or some completely different abilities?
A: Can you not combine?
Q: (A) OK. I could combine. But what are the other abilities? I have no idea.
A: Not so, my Arkadiusz. You have reluctance, much like a small child learning to walk. But no lack of ideas. Before, when fear crept into the picture, you had the wisdom not to “look back,” even though you had the temptation to do this. Look what has happened!
Q: (A) OK, I don’t believe there are any dangers because I think I know how to avoid danger; I think they are illusions. I don’t want to be … I just … I don’t believe them. I’m safe. I don’t believe that there are dangers which I do not see. Now, are there any dangers that I am not aware of? Something new?
A: It would be nice if those on third density could always be aware of all dangers which exist, but, then again, the learning would be hindered, would it not?
Q: (A) OK. It is nothing. Essentially nothing. They are just avoiding answering questions. This much I could explain myself. I asked if there was anything new, anything that I am not aware of!
A: You are presently in less danger because of your physical locator.
Q: (A) OK, so that’s new. Why?
A: Why, you ask? Well, because the grooved vectors of attack for you lie in the locators where you have established your principle connections.
Q: (A) I want to know if they can tell me what I should really do during these two months that I am supposed to be here? That I should work on this problem of phase of the wave … of whatever wave … electromagnetic or gravity or whatever … phase … phase …
A: The answers for this connection will come to you with surprising clarity, and will “unfold in front” of you with greater and greater intensity with each passing day.
Q: (A) OK. Very good. This is something that will be going on. (L) Then why did you ask? (A) Because I thought that there would be … (L) Because you thought they were going to just hand it to you on a little silver tray … (A) No, no, no! I wanted a hint! But there is no hint! (L) Well, they did say “unfold” and “in front of you.” (A) Sure! In front of me and not behind me! (L) Well, let me ask: is there a hidden meaning in those terms? Unfold in front?
A: Maybe.
Q: (A) There are clues in front of me. Waiting for me. Very good. Perhaps I should not ask any more. OK, I pass. Because there is nothing complete … I mean this was a complete question. I thought that there would be a complete answer.
A: You hold back questions which you would love to have answered. The clarity of the response is based upon the level of specificity of the question!
Q: (A) So, they are asking me what are these questions. Genes, unified field theory, relativity and time. OK, those are the questions. What else? On the one hand, it looks like that what one needs is to do something clearly spiritual, to be spiritual and one doesn’t do this by equations and mathematics. And the suggestion was, and what I understood was, that there is no use for physics or mathematics … (L) Who said that? Not the Cs! They have said that mathematics is very important! (A) Yessss … okay. This is what they said. But when I asked them what kind of mathematics … they said something which … I mean, the technical answer to this question … (F) Well, maybe if they gave you answers that did not make sense at first, you ought to examine it further and you may discover something important lying under there. It’s like a treasure hunt. Buried treasure. We don’t learn if they just give us answers. Yes, they may be very specific, and maybe more specific than we think. But, the answers in and of themselves have to be examined very closely. (A) Um-hm. (L) Let me ask a question. Earlier they said something about being on the threshold of an experience. And now they say something is going to unfold in front of you. Are the two response “threshold” and “unfold in front of you,” connected?
A: Of course!!!
Q: (L) OK, he is on the threshold of some kind of experience. Is there some way that we might identify this experience? Is it going to be so outstanding that you can’t miss it? Or, is it going to be something that you have to pay attention to or you might miss it?
A: What does “threshold” imply?
Q: (L) Well, a door. It’s a door. Does this mean he is going to go through a door, psychically, spiritually, physically? Going to someone’s house?
A: It does not just imply a “door,” but also one’s positioning, and a sense of inevitability.
Q: (L) Is there something I can do to help?
A: Have you not helped already?
Q: (L) But, I mean specifically in this “threshold” and “unfolding” experience?
A: Yes! And, by the way, Arkadiusz, science is most spiritual indeed!
Q: (L) Well, considering certain other elements, I was just wondering if our pathways are supposed to now be parallel or diverge … how they relate from this point …
A: Seems to us that your pathways are intertwining!
Q: (L) The use of the word “intertwining” is curious. You used that in regard to the relationship between EM and gravity. Is there a parallel?
A: If you wish.
Q: (L) Well, I am tired, Ark is tired, so is there anything further you would like to tell us this evening?
A: Combine energies in pursuit of answers, and the rest falls into place.
Q: (L) One last question: you say “combine energies.” Is there any reason why this will facilitate the pursuit of answers?
A: Complementary souls.
The last two answers say it all: “Combine energies in pursuit of answers, and the rest falls into place. [This will facilitate the pursuit of answers because the two of you are] Complementary souls.”
In retrospect, it is clear that this was the beginning of the implementation of the learning that would lead to the unfoldment of the mission, whatever it is and however it is supposed to manifest. It is also clear in retrospect that the Cs intended for us to understand that Frank was not a part of it, that his function of “awakening my sense of recognition” had been fulfilled, and it was time to move on.
But neither of us was wanted to do this. We continued to try to shove it under the rug and maintain the status quo. I wanted Frank to be happy with us, to have a place in our lives and work. But over the next two and a half years, the Cs repeatedly gave hints and urged us on to other things, and only in retrospect do we understand what they were trying to tell us. For example, just ten days after the first session where Ark was first physically present, the following remark was made:
February 22, 1997
A: Bio and cyber/genetic humanoid types now increasing exponentially in general population. You may have already encountered one or two during the past 10 days.
Q: (L) You, who? You, as in me, you as in Frank, who?
A: Reflect upon activities, and power and influence centers for answer.
In its context, there is no other explanation than that the Cs were referring to Frank and had used this mode of delivery to try to alert us, even if we would only realize it now. The exact number of days between the sessions was ten, and the Cs specified the ten day period. When we reflected on our activities and “power and influence centers,” there was no real-world application for this remark. But in retrospect, Frank’s behavior as a channel, in terms of the well-pipe function, acted as an agent for STS power and influence centers, and our activities in interacting with him during that period of ten days (the two sessions), is the only thing that fits. The only question in my mind is: does this mean that Frank is a cyber/genetic humanoid? As we go along, I will show where the clues were given that this is, in fact, the case. But one step at a time. We were learning, and it took time.
Little by little, step by step, the seeds of the clues were being dropped into our minds. But for the moment, we were only interested in that very short two month period that we had to be together before a six-month separation that I knew was going to seem like six years.
Any reader who goes through the Cassiopaean Transcripts with care will come to the realization that, more than anything else, the dialogues represent a personal diary of my life. They will also realize the level of trust I placed in Frank at certain points to have him present during so many very personal discussions. The reader may also realize the reticence I felt about publishing the entire transcripts, considering these factors.
Aside from the very personal element of the transcripts, as I pointed out in Chapter 41, there are many segments in there that the Cs specifically instructed us not to publish – for particular reasons. Then, there are the people who specifically did not wish for their private affairs to be aired, at least not with their names revealed. And then, of course, there were particular segments that I was not publishing out of consideration for Frank. However, having been placed in a position where full publication was necessary, we realize that it was certainly the right thing to do especially in consideration of Frank’s recent choices. Because, in point of fact, the transcripts themselves are the testimony of my life as I struggled against Frank’s losing battle with the dark forces. And now that they are published, there is no longer any possibility of protecting Frank.
The reader will notice that throughout the transcripts, against all evidence to the contrary, I continued to have faith that Frank would win the battle that the Cs had indicated was taking place in him, that he would undertake the necessary self-examination that would enable him to become free of these forces.
In addition to the fact that the majority of the over three million words of the transcripts being a personal diary of my external life, they are also a diary of my spiritual life and a record of my initiation. As the Cs said themselves, Frank was “just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.” That they were distinctly other than Frank was made clear when they noted, “We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path.”
Frank’s ability was, indeed rare. At a later point in time, an individual asked if he might contact the Cs himself. Frank’s role was clarified:
Q: (BRH) Is there any way I can contact you guys directly?
A: Well, D**, only if you present yourself into the presence of these 3rd densities here. Remember, their request was hard earned, and one of them has been channeling throughout this incarnation, much to his detriment. Those neighborhood kids usually do not respond favorably to psychic awareness, now do they? Another one here has literally turned the world upside down in search of the greatest truths for all of humanity, much to her potential peril. And the third one here had to endure almost unimaginable hardships and tests of stamina in order to realize his destined path of bringing your 3rd density realm to the brink of 4th density transitional adjustment. So, the path is open to you. Wanna follow?!?
We notice immediately the curious way Frank’s ability to channel was described as being “much to his detriment” because “neighborhood kids do not respond favorably to psychic awareness.” Again we see a clue to the well-pipe analogy. Wherever he is, whoever he associates with, to a great extent, that is what Frank channels. It is undoubtedly true that he suffered the torments of the damned as a channel.
There are a number of people currently researching the elements of the Matrix and how it utilizes individual human beings as the playing pieces in the war games of the theological reality. The following account is extracted from Amazing Grace, based entirely on Frank’s own descriptions of what occurred to him as he grew up.
I spent quite a number of years in a very close interaction with Frank, engaged in thousands of hours of conversation, and interacted with his family. Frank’s father was a physician. During his childhood, they lived in Chicago. He was brought up in an upper middle class neighborhood where he never, then or since, suffered lack or deprivation of any material sort. His family environment placed great emphasis on logic, monetary value, and scientific transactional approaches to life. In his family cerebral and academic excellence was an expression of superiority; a means to an end. And the “end” was generally to live well, be rich, or even to be famous.
Frank’s mother was the child of immigrants from a Scandinavian country. She had experienced a very unhappy first marriage which produced a daughter, and after a bitter divorce, had married Frank’s father, who was quite a bit older than she was. She was artistically gifted in a conventional way.
Frank’s father was quite set in his ways at the time he married a divorcee with a young child. As a man of scientific background, Frank’s father was steeped in the child-rearing theories of his own generation rather than the more modern conceptions of nurturing the psyche. His ideas related to hardening the body and toughening the will and cultivating the mind.
Frank’s mother, with her immigrant background, supported the same concepts since they were a part of her heritage, but she had also been brought up to serve and support the will of her husband and children. She was, in this drama, the slave to her husband, as well as the slave of her children, and that is a situation which can lead to great conflicts when the natural manipulations of children go against the will of the husband.
I don’t think that Frank was ever physically abused in any serious way, though he did claim on a number of occasions that his father “knocked me across the room.” Such incidents were, I think, rare.
What Frank complained about most was the fact that his father, finally having a son, needed so desperately for his son to be strong, to be manly and to be the All American Boy. This included not just academic and moral strength, but also athletic excellence. To this end, Frank said he was subjected from a very early age to various “programs” designed to produce this paragon of American virtue. But Frank was not the least bit inclined to want to play baseball, go camping with a scout troop, or exert himself in activities demanding interaction with the world at large.
As infants and toddlers, we all feel that we are the center of the Universe, that we are omnipotent and omniscient beings. In the beginning, we perceive our parents as merely extensions of ourselves in the sense that when we are uncomfortable in any way, these shadowy figures, the landscape of our universe, act on our behalf. Thus it is that, at the earliest stages of development, the response of the universe to our needs becomes our deepest belief about life itself – a belief inculcated before verbal skills are developed, and therefore, hardly amenable to psychiatric exploration in the ordinary sense.
If, when we are hungry or cold or too warm, or lonely and in need of touching and comfort, the Universe-as-mother responds immediately with the appropriate solution, our earliest and deepest sense of existence tells us that the Universe is safe, that it is good, that it is responsive to us. This becomes the fundamental platform from which we operate throughout our lives. We have learned that the Universe is safe, that it is good to us, that we can reach out or cry out and the Universe and all within it will provide.
When a child is treated, at the very earliest stages, as an object to be molded and shaped by regimentation, a dreadful crime against the essential self, at the deepest levels of being, is committed. A child who is left hungry because it is not the scheduled feeding time will be conditioned to believe the Universe does not provide nourishment in response to his cries. A child who is not picked up and comforted when he is frightened, startled, or simply lonely and in need of being touched, is conditioned to believe that there is no point in reaching out or interacting with the Universe in any way. So it is that a child raised according to the Cartesian “man as machine” model has no sense of safety or sufficiency.
An infant subjected to abrupt and arbitrary schedules, promoted by parents who, convinced by “medical and psychiatric theories,” believe they are doing the “right thing,” end up producing intense injuries to the infant’s tender, budding self-esteem. Such injuries can be severe and irreversible.
The empathic support of our Primary Objects, the parents, is crucial at these early stages. In its absence, our sense of self-worth and self-esteem in adulthood tends to fluctuate wildly between over-valuation of ourselves by regressing to the infantile narcissistic mode, or devaluation of ourselves as the helpless child slave of a sadistic, even if well-meaning, parent.
Such a child can grow up with a heavy sense of bitter disappointment and radical disillusionment with the Universe as a whole. They are often unable to accept self-limitations, disappointments, setbacks, failures, criticism or disillusionment with grace and tolerance. Their self-esteem is inconstant and negative. There is a tendency to believe everything that happens to them is the result of outside events, or that everything is their fault, in some way. In my own case, Larry took the former approach, and I took the latter! A child may think that if they only give more or do more, or find the flaw in themselves, they will be able to “fix everything.” Such a view is growth inducing. If they cannot tolerate the stress of the feeling of being wrong, they often choose a growth-denying mode of reversion to the narcissistic phase of infancy. This was my mother’s choice, Larry’s choice, and Frank’s choice.
Since his father, aided and abetted by his mother, worshipped the external self, how Frank appeared to others became a chief concern. The constant pressure to be a certain way, that is essentially artificial, by default convinces the child that what is inside him is not acceptable. His parents believed in a peculiar mix of the child as a blank slate and the “natural child” as a dirty and ignorant animal in need of training. In short, as a soul with specific inclinations and tendencies requiring delicate handling, Frank never had a chance.
Frank’s experiences as a child were, in many respects, similar to my own. His father, supported by his mother like a Greek chorus in the background, put him down and disregarded him and his feelings. The most poignant story he told me about his childhood concerned a time when he was left, before he was two years old, with an uncaring baby-sitter while his parents went on a two week vacation. Frank’s father was certain that a child so young couldn’t possibly have any awareness of a caretaker or any capacity to feel more than basic instinctive drives and programs. It was his father’s intention to toughen and condition Frank. Unfortunately, Frank was not only cognizant of what was being done, he never forgot it.
At the same time, Frank was being tormented by more than a “Face at the Window.” He was being regularly and repeatedly “visited” by what he came to know as aliens. He believed that he was regularly taken by them, and tortured by them, and all his efforts to communicate this to his parents were ignored and disregarded. He lived under siege with no one to turn to for protection.
He was utterly terrified to be left with strangers (not a surprise). On one occasion, he discovered that his mother had left him with a children’s play group without telling him, in a moment when he’d been distracted. He cried so bitterly that the teacher forced him to stand up in the middle of the group and “tell his name.” He was naturally paralyzed and incapable of doing so. Frank remembered all the other children staring at him in his misery, laughing and pointing at him.
The next day, when he realized he had to go back again, he resisted and delayed getting dressed and ready. Finally in the car and on the way, in desperation he grabbed the door handle and told his mother that if she didn’t stop the car and turn around and take him home, he would jump out that very instant and kill himself. He was only four years old.
Frank’s mother stopped and turned around. Frank had learned the secret of controlling others to do his will. His mother’s submission was probably the first time in his short life that he felt any power in his environment at all. This became a seed later to bear bitter fruit for all of them.
I have most definitely experienced that feeling of being paralyzed and unable to act. More than once. But in thinking these things over, I realize my own good fortune in the fact that my choice in every such situation has been to take some sort of definitive action to solve the problem, and that I am basically fearless in all cases. So, somebody must have done something right when I was an infant. Whatever it was, it wasn’t done for Frank.
In the end, it seems that Frank’s efforts to deal with the “unfriendly universe” created by his parents had failed repeatedly and consistently. My own experiences had been similar, and I was learning a different way to cope. I wanted to help Frank break out of his loop also.
The contrast between the fantasy world of the omnipotent four-year-old who threatened his mother with suicide to obtain relief from external pressures, and the real world in which he was continuously frustrated, was clearly too painful to deal with. At that age, or perhaps even earlier, this dissonance may have caused him to make an unconscious decision to live in the fantasy world where he was omnipotent and omniscient. In his private world, he felt special and entitled to things for which he had not worked nor put forth the effort expected of ordinary human beings. And it was from this platform that the next interesting phenomenon developed.
As he grew older, Frank learned a curious trick. He discovered that a sort of rhythmic dancing and creation of vibratory sounds and sensations enabled him to enter and sustain this fantasy existence to an extraordinary degree. In this trance, he was the only occupant of the universe and he was entitled to all its secrets and lore. The way he did this was to perform a sort of “crane dance” while beating the ground with a stick. He once demonstrated this for me and it was, as close as I can describe it, a shamanic performance of pure instinct.
The soothing effect of retreating into this trance state was so effective that, in the same way some people become addicted to other things, Frank became addicted to being in a trance. He had discovered the ultimate means of retreating into what was, effectively, a pre-birth state of nonexistence.
It is likely that the first time he achieved this state, it was accidental. He described it as having occurred after one of the episodes where he reached out to his parents for love and acceptance and, instead, received a lecture which included a list of all his faults and failings. He went out to the back yard and picked up a stick and began to pound the ground with it. As he did so, he became fascinated by both the vibratory sensation traveling up the stick from the impact, as well as the sound itself. He then began to experiment with different rhythms, most likely in an idle way, and then found himself entranced. At that point, the trance dancing began.
Thus he learned a trick that provided comfort.
Frank began to stimulate the trance state habitually in order to derive pleasure and gratification in a world that was not very friendly to his real self. The fact that this self-gratification was so easy to produce, rapidly conditioned him to prefer it. This, of course, produced another effect: laziness. But, this was not laziness in the ordinary sense of the word. Frank became lazy in the psychological sense because he learned that fantasy land was preferable to investing efforts in reality where failure was assured. Frank became just like a rat with an electrode implanted in the pleasure center of the brain, repeatedly pushing the button that induced ecstasy in preference to real life.
And here we have an important clue as to how and why Frank also developed highly specific abilities that enabled certain results to transpire in my interactions with him.
Frank was performing this ritual stick dance so often that his parents became concerned and, at a very early age, they labeled him as “sick” and called in a psychiatrist.
This shamed his father terribly and only added to the demands being made on Frank to “toughen up” and “be a man.” Frank reacted by intensifying his “ritualistic” behavior and time spent in a trance, though he learned to hide it better.
Frank had acquired the gift of the Crane Dance. At what cost, we can only guess.
We can surmise that the crane dance was Frank’s manifestation of soul inversion, but that the total “auric death” may not have occurred until recently. And we will eventually come to the reason for it, but for now, let’s return to the more or less chronological account of my initiation and growing awareness of the reality of the Matrix Control System, with some diversions to provide background.
In retrospect, it is obvious that the Cs’ primary objective was to initiate me into literally becoming unified with myself in the future. At the time, I didn’t spend too much time thinking about the fact that by asking the questions that were compellingly interesting to me, I was activating that “destined” activity of accessing more and more of myself. But, with the clues they gave and the events that have interacted with the clues, it is clear that this was the process.
June 22, 1996
Q: (L) How come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?
A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.
Shortly after Ark had first written to me, triggered by this contact, I found myself at the center of a maelstrom of awakening psychic awareness, memory, and recognition, and the following little exchange took place:
July 27, 1996
Q: (L) Is there anything I can ask? What is going on with me? I am an emotional wreck … Is the past life connection that I perceive part of this?
A: Do you learn when we lead you by the hand? You have all the necessary tools to discover this.
Q: (L) Well, I thought you were one of those tools! That you are here to help us …
A: But not by giving the answers to “Level One” questions.
Q: (L) Just one thing I would like to know is, what is the source of this emotional energy that is practically tearing me apart? Is it coming from outside or inside me?
A: The one thing we would like to know is: how much transcribing have you been doing?
Q: (L) I have been going through the notebooks and reading, I have been sorting things … I am getting ready to start typing …
A: The “answers” are there.
Q: (L) Well, one thing I came across was a mention almost two years ago that something would happen, and one would have instant recognition but the others may doubt. For me, it was instant recognition. But, recognition, by definition, is to know someone again. So, I think maybe that you were using the term recognition because you were talking about a person and not an event, necessarily.
A: And learning helps you in immeasurable ways.
The remark the Cs made about “transcribing” was directed at the fact that, at this point in time, I was backed up in the transcribing process, and there were about 60 tapes sitting in a box waiting to be done. Because of illness and the depression I had been going though prior to, and during, the ending of my marriage, I simply had not had the energy or motivation to transcribe.
At this point, because Ark wanted to read every word of the transcripts, I was motivated to set to work getting the job done. It was a long and agonizingly painful process. I did receive some help from Jan, but she and Terry had a business to run and many of their own projects sorting and analyzing the material that had already been transcribed, so for the most part, I had to do it all myself. Frank had already declined to help in any way, giving as an excuse that he didn’t have a computer. When I suggested that he could spell me on my computer, he didn’t have time, or he was too tired.
It was during this period of getting all the later material transcribed that I discovered the clues. But in order to explain it, let me back up and gather the threads together that will bring us back to Ark in Dijon and the realizations that followed.
On October 20, 1994, as part of my rapid fire testing questions, I threw out the following:
Q: Who built the city of Baalbek?
A: Antereans and early Sumerians. We meant Atlanteans. [Who are the Antereans?] […]
Q: What technical means did they use to cut the stones and transport them?
A: Sound wave focusing.
On October 23, 1994, in response to another question, a similar answer was given … with something added:
Q: (L) Who built Stonehenge?
A: Druids.
Q: (L) Who were the Druids?
A: Early Aryan group.
Q: (L) How did they move the stones and set them up?
A: Sound wave focusing; try it yourself; Coral Castle.
Q: (L) Who taught the Druids to use the sound waves?
A: They knew; handed down.
Q: (L) What was Stonehenge built to do or be used for?
A: Energy director.
Q: (L) What was this energy to be directed to do?
A: All things.
Q: (L) Was the energy to be directed outward or inward to the center?
A: Both.
Q: (L) Does this sound come from our bodies?
A: Learn. Laura will find answer through discovery.
Well, that was a pretty cryptic remark, that I would learn something about this through a discovery! And the comment about the Coral Castle intrigued us as well. Even though I live in Florida, I had never been to see this purported marvel and the only things I knew about it were what I had learned by watching a television program about it on Unsolved Mysteries, I believe.
As it turned out, I was invited to give a talk to a UFO group in Orlando the following February. I had no idea what I was going to say, how open this group was going to be, or anything about the participants at all.
On the drive over (about 100 miles from my home), accompanied by two of my children, my daughter asked me what I was going to talk about. I told her that I didn’t really know because I didn’t know if this group was really ready for what the Cassiopaeans were saying about the UFO phenomena and the alien presence on the planet. She replied: “Well, Mom, you don’t have time to break it to them gently!”
So, I didn’t. I talked for an hour and a half or longer about the phenomena preceding the Cassiopaean communications followed by a synopsis of the different players as described by them, particularly the Grays and Reptoids.
The reception was underwhelming to say the least! One lady in the audience came up afterward and offered to use her “contacts with the Pleiadians” to “heal me” of the injuries received in the automobile accident several months prior to this time. Another offered to interpret our reality according to his Kabalistic training, and so on. They gathered around me with faintly pitying looks on their faces! How could I be so deluded as to think that aliens were not the saviors of mankind?
However, there was a funny old man who came up to me with a big grin on his face, grabbed my hand and shook it vigorously and said to me with a faint accent, “Ya know, I’ve been studying this UFO business for over 40 years – I talked with Dr. Hynek and Major Keyhoe and all that – and you are the first person I have ever heard who has gotten up in public and described it as it really is! I have some material you might be interested in. You should come and see me some time!”
Well, I thought he was just an old guy with a lot of time on his hands who needed company and might be using this as an excuse to get it. I thanked him and edged away to the host of the event who was chatting with several other people who were, apparently, from out of town, and were inquiring about the various tourist attractions. The host was telling them about the many interesting sites, and then he said, “And you might want to go down and have a look at this Coral Castle, too!”
“What is that?” one of them asked, and the host proceeded to recap the Unsolved Mysteries presentation. Then he said, “You can ask Hilliard over there,” pointing at the old man who knew Dr. Hynek. “He was a close friend of the guy who built the Coral Castle.”
Well, needless to say, after hearing this, I remembered what the Cassiopaeans had said that I would “discover” something about this “sound-wave focusing” in relation to the Coral Castle and I eased back over to the old man and said, “I hear you knew the guy who built the Coral Castle?”
“Ayup! Sure did! Knew him for years! I was stationed over there in Homestead area after the war and got to know him pretty well.”
I asked, “Did he ever tell you how he did it?”
“Nope. He never would tell anybody. He would always say that he knew the secret of how the pyramids were built, but nobody ever saw him do it. I have some ideas about it, though, and I wrote a little book about him and my experiences and observations. You know, it’s a shame that the television program didn’t give the real story! All that nonsense about “Sweet Sixteen” and a “broken heart” and so on! What a lot of crap! Sure! If you come to visit, I can show you what I do know! Do ya know something? I am the only person Leedskalnin ever let come inside his home! Ayup! He was a real loner!”
And so on. I was already making plans for this visit! Just before the visit, the following clues were giving:
March 4, 1995
A: Enough said, remember, you have been learning slowly that personal issues hold minor significance. Terry’s dream was significant, however!!!!! And Frank has been sent same message as well.
Q: (L) Did you have a dream or message, Frank? (F) That’s true. I did have some funny feelings. Just the same kind of thing, that there is something that we are missing in all of our questions. (T) OK. We are missing a key topic or issue, here, that’s true.
A: 4th level STO! You have only thought of 4th level STS.
Q: (L) Ahhh! What S*** was talking about, we need to ask about the good guys.
A: They are the only ones who can help you defend yourselves against 4th level attack!!!! We give you information which is invaluable in nature, but remember we are 6th level STO, Beings of light, and on this density level there simply is no interference with free will no matter how detrimental to you!!!
Q: (T) Fourth-density STO beings can actually help in a meaningful way! We knew there was both sides, but we never asked. We have been concentrating on finding out about the Lizards. Who are these fourth-density STO beings that we need to contact? Obviously we need to talk to them because they can talk to us. Sixth-density “Us” can’t.
A: Orion Federation.
Q: (L) And who are the members of the Orion Federation? What can you tell us?
A: You have asked us to protect you, it is important for you to understand that we are beyond that!
Q: (T) We understand that you, at sixth density, can’t interfere with free will on either side. Well, you said that knowledge protects. You have been providing knowledge.
A: Indirectly. We are providing invaluable information which becomes knowledge, but you are under attack, therefore, you could maybe use some direct power from the same density as the attack is coming from.
Q: (L) OK, guys, what do we need to do here?
A: Find a “Nordic.” They are on Earth posing as humans.
Q: (T) They are fourth density.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) I thought that fourth density couldn’t hold the frequency that long and that is why the Lizards have so much trouble. (J) They’re STS.
A: Not STO!
Q: (T) Very good, Jan hit it as they said it. The STS can’t stay, only the STO.
A: Yes. Discover, remember these are among your protectors and Laura and Frank know what level one attack is like, Terry, Jan and S** are perilously close to finding out!
Q: (L) Well, should we wear something special like a red scarf so they can find us in the crowd?
A: Not needed at all, just be open and aware!!
A few days later, I visited Hilliard. Following this visit, on March 11, 1995:
Q: (L) I want to ask about the fellow with the Coral Castle. We went over to see Hilliard, as you know. When we were talking to Hilliard, he told us about the man who built the Coral Castle, his habits and so forth. He was very ascetic and thrifty. He didn’t have many friends and there was a part of the place that was his private residence where no one was allowed to go. Except Hilliard. According to Hilliard, this fellow had, apparently, in his private quarters, three objects: a bed, a table, and a swing made of an airplane seat suspended from the ceiling by a chain, complete with seat belts. Is this …
A: You got it right because you are learning and rebundling DNA as a result of this and other activities.
Q: (L) Well, you didn’t let me finish! OK, so the things S** and I were discussing, this mystery, the understanding of how this man performed these remarkable feats of engineering and construction, is correct?
And right here, the Cassiopaeans changed the subject!
A: Hypnotize S** if you wish. What do you suppose has happened to S** in her life, and why does she have nagging thoughts about her personal reality which she chooses not to disclose?
This was a peculiar thing to say. Well, clearly we had been pushing things a little too hard, and it was very curious that the Cassiopaeans did not want to continue to discuss Hilliard and the Coral Castle and deflected the subject to S**. But, as the reader now knows, this was just shortly before the event that revealed Frank’s hidden persona, and this was connected to the interaction with S** which later brought us back to the subject of the Nordic Covenant, as the reader will soon see.
Several months later, again as a result of people I met because of the MUFON talk, a local woman called me on the phone and said that she had heard that I was interested in starting a magazine.
This was true. I was looking for a venue for the Cassiopaean material and I had mentioned it to a local bookstore owner who often hosted various speakers and seminars in her store.
The woman on the phone said that she had been publishing a small metaphysical newsletter for over two years and was ready to give it up and I was welcome to her subscription list and various accoutrements of her project if I wanted to take it over. We decided to meet to discuss it.
When we did, it was a funny trigger for a variety of things. She was Jewish and almost immediately began talking to me about her past life in Nazi Germany and how she had been experimented on by Dr. Mengele and had died as a result. There was an instant rapport between us, and she was interested in attending a session.
Right after this meeting and before her attendance at a session, I had a dream. In this dream, I was the bride and was wearing a wonderful dress with flowers in my hair and there was a limousine waiting outside to take me to my “wedding.” I didn’t know who the groom was, but there were a lot of people around me encouraging me to “get in the car” and go to “meet the bridegroom.” For some reason, I was filled with happiness and the joy of those around me was contagious, so, overcoming my hesitations, I went to the car, got in and was taken to the place of the wedding. I was aware that the date was a Saturday, and it seemed to be the 14th because something was said about Friday the 13th having been the day before.
It turned out to be a big restaurant with a wonderful feast prepared and waiting. It was all decorated with flowers and streamers everywhere and many, many people were gathered in a happy and joyful crowd who cheered me as I got out of the car.
The “bridegroom” came forward to take my hand and we walked through the crowds of people to stand in front of a priest-like person who married us. I was overcome with happiness even though I could not see the groom’s face!
As soon as we were married, the music began to play, and he took me out onto the middle of the floor where everyone had cleared a space, and we began to dance. It was like flying and we whirled and spun. It was happiness such as I had never experienced in my entire life and I awoke bathed in a sensation of ecstatic joy!
A few days later, my new Jewish friend, RC, came to a session and several strange remarks were made by the Cassiopaeans. RC wanted to ask about the feeling of rapport between us but I wanted to get in a quick question about my dream.
September 16, 1995
Q: (L) I dreamed the other night that I got married, and there was a big party, dancing, the limousine and so on … flowers, happiness. In my dream, I heard a voice saying that the wedding would be on a Saturday the 14th, following Friday the 13th, could you tell me anything about this dream?
A: No.
Q: (RC) What is my relationship to Frank and Laura from any past life connections? Did we know each other in Germany?
A: Maybe. Discover.
Q: (L) Now, I was looking at the charts, just to see what kind of matches there were and it was a lot. (RC) According to astrology, that shows a past-life connection.
A: Who were you?
Q: (L) You mean me?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I was just German woman … (RC) I was wondering about Egypt?
A: But we are still in Germany!
Q: (L) All I know was that I committed suicide, name was Helga, I think …
A: Who was your husband?
Q: (L) I don’t know. He was Jewish. Is that what you are getting at?
A: Okay. Who were your children?
Q: (RC) They asked who were the children. Was I one of your children?
A: Discover. When we say discover, we mean for you to use your given talents to learn, not to have us lead you by the hand every step of the way. If we were to do that, we would cheat you out of an opportunity to gain knowledge, and more importantly, understanding. Thus, we would be abridging free will!
It struck me as strange for them to be directing me to think about this in this way in response to my dream of getting married. They were not answering my question, but they were trying to get something across without violating free will. Then, they said this:
A: We are receiving strong wave pattern surrounding subject we chose to cover, thus we interrupted inquiries! Moshe in Israel.
Q: (RC) Who is Moshe in Israel?
A: Moshe is IN Israel.
But we could get no more that made any sense.
The following week, with RC present, another strange series of remarks were made. I had been doing research on secret societies which included the Rosicrucians, Masons and others, and had ended up deep in a study of alchemy. The Cassiopaeans had mentioned a super-secret group once before, called the Quorum, and I was on the trail. And, we had recently been introduced to the work of David Hudson and his monoatomic gold. I was struggling to put the pieces together and find out just who was “on first.”
September 24, 1995
Q: (L) OK, square one: Is the Quorum composed of humans who have been alchemists, who are presently in possession of a substance called “the elixir of life” and which David Hudson calls monoatomic gold?
A: And much, much more! Monoatomic gold is but one minor issue here. Why get lead astray by focusing upon it solely. It would be akin to focusing on the fact that “Batman” can fly! Is that the only important thing that “Batman” does in the story? Is it?
Q: (L) Of course not! (RC) Batman fights crime!
A: What we mean is that alchemy is but one minor piece of the puzzle.
Q: (L) OK, I understand. But, understanding the alchemical connection, and its potential for extending life and opening certain abilities, makes it more feasible to think of a group that has been present steadily and consistently for many thousands of years on earth.
A: They are not the only ones!
The night of this session was very strange. After RC and her husband went home, I went to bed in a strangely excited state. I knew it was going to be difficult to get to sleep, so I began to practice meditative breathing exercises to relax myself. Suddenly, I saw a face right before me! It was as clear and real as if someone had entered the room! It is difficult to convey to anyone how truly solid and three-dimensional this face was. I did not know this face, but it was a man with light hair and glowing eyes and he looked at me so kindly and lovingly before he vanished like a popping balloon! I was so startled that I nearly lost my breath altogether, but with firm effort, I resumed my meditation and soon went to sleep.
In December of 1995, we discovered that the Gulf Breeze UFO conference was going to be held in the spring of 1996 rather than the fall. This was rather startling since, the previous February, the Cs had made a remark about going to Gulf Breeze in the spring. What was even more interesting was that this remark had come immediately following a mental question that I had asked about some thoughts I was having. I didn’t want to share those thoughts with anyone, nor did I want to ask the question aloud. However, in light of recent events, I can now tell the reader what it was after giving the background information.
As the readers of Amazing Grace know, Frank’s father committed suicide to avoid becoming a burden on his family as a consequence of declining health. Up until the time of Frank’s embezzlement debacle, he had been in extraordinarily good health for a man of his age. In fact, he didn’t look his age at all, which surprised me when I first met him because Frank had spent so many hours ranting about how terrible it had been to grow up with an “old father.” He was sure that all the neighborhood kids laughed at him behind his back because his father was not young and virile and whatever. I wasn’t terribly sympathetic to his description of how he had suffered so much because of this since I would have been happy to have such a father at any age.
Nevertheless, the old gentleman went into a sudden, precipitous decline following his arrangements to keep Frank out of jail by paying back the money that had been embezzled. Within less than six months, he went from swimming laps in his pool every day, to being unable to rise from his chair unassisted.
Frank blamed the decline on the medications his father had been given while hospitalized for an infection, and there is certainly much evidence to suggest that the American Medical system had a hand in the deterioration. I certainly agreed with Frank that a more holistic approach to the health issues might have saved his father’s life. But when we consider holistic medicine, we also have to consider the stresses that bring on illness. It certainly seems that his shame over Frank’s illegal activities contributed enormously to his vulnerability to illness which then necessitated hospitalization. The bottom line was, he was a courageous man, and he could see that his decline in health would soon lead to a drain in finances and other resources, and he chose to end his life before he became a burden on anyone else.
It was a strange event. At the exact time that Frank’s father was setting out the important papers for the convenience of his survivors to manage his affairs after he was gone, following which, he went outside and selected a spot where there would be no muss or fuss and did the deed, I was overcome with an irresistible urge to sleep. And in my sleep, Frank’s father appeared to me and we talked for a very long time. The only problem was, I couldn’t remember what was said when I woke up. I woke up to the phone ringing, and it was Frank calling to tell me what had happened.
Just a couple weeks prior to this event, Frank and I had asked a few questions about any past-life connections.
January 5, 1995
Q: (L) When was the last lifetime Frank and I were together?
A: 1700’s.
Q: (L) Who was Frank in the 1700s?
A: Bavarian landowner’s son.
Q: (L) Who was I in this lifetime?
A: Daughter.
Q: (L) I was Frank’s daughter?
A: No, sister.
Q: (L) Was this the same lifetime when I was married to G**?
A: No. Spent 3 lifetimes in what is now Germany.
Q: (L) Was my mother with me in that lifetime?
A: No.
Q: (L) In that lifetime as Bavarian landowner’s children, what was Frank’s name?
A: Heinrig.
Q: (L) What was my name?
A: Sheila.
Q: (L) What did we do in that lifetime? Argue?
A: Were sheltered.
Q: (L) Any exceptional talents or abilities?
A: Piano and harp.
Q: (L) So, all I did was sit around and play the piano and harp all the time?
A: Close.
Q: (L) And read books? What did Frank do, smoke cigars and gaze out the window?
A: Read.
Q: (L) Must have been nice, Frank. What area of Bavaria was this?
A: Muenchen near. South of there. On Braunau.
Q: (L) Was this a very large house?
A: Castle.
Q: (L) Sounds better all the time. Is the castle still standing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Would we know that castle by name?
A: No.
Q: (L) What was our last name, surname, family name?
A: Von Endersohn.
Q: (L) Did we live long and fulfilling and happy lives?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Did we experience tragedy?
A: Was turbulent era.
Q: (L) Well, how old was I when I died?
A: 43.
Q: (L) How old was Frank when he died?
A: 43.
Q: (L) Were we twins?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who was older, me or him?
A: Year apart.
Q: (L) What did he die from?
A: Heart attack.
Q: (L) What did I die from?
A: Pneumonia.
Q: (L) Did we die still living in our castle?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did either of us have any children?
A: No. Were sheltered from turbulence directed at wealthy.
Q: (L) How were we sheltered from this turbulence?
A: Kept isolated. Never married.
Q: (L) Well, I guess that is one way to shelter yourself from turbulence, just never go out. We just sat around, played the piano and harp and read books. That sounds like a pretty ideal existence to me. Did we ride horses too?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I guess we worked hard to entertain ourselves. (F) That must be why we both yearn for security, peaceful reading and so on. (L) I have always wanted to live in Europe. Would I be happy doing so?
A: Up to you.
Q: (F) Well, that is probably why you yearn to live in Europe, because you spent 3 lifetimes in that area. (L) If I used hypnosis, could I improve my piano playing? Also, would I be able to automatically play the harp?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Has it ever been done before?
A: Yes.
It’s another of those very strange synchronicities that these questions were brought up just prior to an event that seemed to trigger the memories of that life. I had no idea that my view of that period as being so simple and peaceful and sheltered was about to crash and burn. The reader of the above passage would probably not see anything strange or horrifying in the simple exchange above. But having asked the question, the door was opened, and I was about to remember. It began on the day Frank’s father committed suicide.
February 22, 1995
Q: (L) OK, I am not going to ask about things I can figure out myself, but I am going to ask about something I don’t know: as you know, Frank’s dad passed away about two weeks ago. From that day to this, everything has seemed to be different in terms of dynamics and energy, and this is not just with Frank and his family, but also with myself. I am curious as to why I feel so different. I cannot put a word to how different I feel … it is definitely a feeling, an emotional sense, why is this?
A: Let us just refer to this as a steppingstone or “milestone,” if you prefer.
Q: (L) OK, it is a milestone, but why should this … I wish I could convey to you all how strange I have been feeling … (DM) Can you specify strange? (F) See, I don’t even know … (L) Is Frank’s dad earthbound?
A: Partially.
Q: (L) Is he trying to communicate through me?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Why, on the day and at the time that Frank’s dad decided to make his transition, was I overwhelmed with the need to go to sleep?
A: Connection.
Q: (L) Connection to what? (DM) You mean he was connecting with Laura?
A: Close.
Q: (SV) She was connecting to him?
A: Close.
Q: (DM) Were they mentally entangled.
A: No, you are drifting.
Q: (F) Let Laura ask the question. (L) Did he basically come to me at another level …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) He came to me at another level. Why me and not Frank?
A: He always trusts others to be more qualified.
Q: (L) So, he was trusting me to be more qualified than Frank, to advise him in his new estate, is that it?
A: Yes.
Q: (F) Well, that certainly fits his personality. (L) What does he want from me now?
A: Nothing specific, but open channel and see.
Q: (L) Can we address Frank’s dad directly through the board?
A: Laura can meditate on an individual basis, this is the chosen mode.
Q: (F) That is probably why you are feeling so weird is that you haven’t opened to channel on your own. (L) Yeah, and it’s driving me nuts. (DM) It’s interfering with your thinking processes. (L) Does Frank’s dad need me to help him to release into the light?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Well, it has definitely been a problem, but I’ll deal with it. […] OK, anything further on this matter that you can give me to ease the situation?
A: No.
Q: (L) One of the things that has been been brought to my mind continuously and repeatedly since that time has been the memory of the lifetime that Frank and I explored before, where we were brother and sister in Bavaria, and I am wondering if there was some connection with Frank’s dad in that time, and is that why it is being continuously shoved in my face?
A: Why not check it out? You are good at that, when you want to be.
Q: (L) Obviously you want me to check it out through my own head, right?
A: Yes.
Now, first of all we have the remark that this was a “steppingstone,” and that I should “open the channel” myself. This was followed by “Laura can meditate on an individual basis, this is the chosen mode.” The reader may also note that my remark about the past life that was constantly being brought to mind was a bit negative. I described it as being “shoved in my face.”
So, what exactly was going on that I didn’t want to talk about except in allusions and veiled questions?
First of all, indeed, the channel had been blown wide open in me. The only way I can describe this feeling is that it was like having a huge opening right in the solar plexus through which emotional energy poured like water exploding through a collapsed dam. And each of these emotions was connected to a memory, and as they rushed in, the memories were activated and I re-experienced every single one of them like a concentrated, fast forward review. And I remembered every single detail of this former life with Frank.
Indeed, we were children of a powerful man, though I cannot say if there is any accuracy to the name the Cs gave. And when our father died, he left me in the care of my “brother.” However, Frank, as the “brother” of that lifetime was what was called in those days “dissolute” and self-indulgent to an extreme degree. He was weak and inconstant and the only object over which he had complete control was me. And he exercised that control with fiendish depravity.
I will spare the reader the Marquis de Sade-type scenes I was witnessing in my own head, accompanied by horror and sick revulsion, and will only say that after it was all over, I had to find some way to reconcile this truly wicked and corrupt Frank with the current Frank who repeatedly expressed extreme distaste for normal human sexuality.
Frank’s rejection of this side of himself – his complete denial of any sexual nature at all – had been something of a puzzle anyway, and now I had a perfectly reasonable theory as to why this would be so. I concluded that he had felt so much remorse in the afterlife state that he resolved to come back and atone for his sins by repressing and suppressing any such inclinations. In this way, I was able to justify Frank’s views, all the while ignoring the hints that were given here and there that he engaged in vicariously prurient activities. I was able to shove under the rug the remarks he had made on numerous occasions indicating a more-than-casual acquaintance with literature sold from behind the counter, in plain brown wrappers, as well as dark smoky dives where, as he once remarked, one had to be careful where one stepped to avoid having one’s shoes stick to the floor. When I asked what that meant, he guffawed at my ignorance and refused to explain it. It was only much, much later that someone else did.
But we believe what we choose to believe. And I chose to believe that Frank was on the road to atonement, and learning, and balancing his karma. Just because I remembered how horribly I had been treated by him, didn’t mean that I had to bring it up and blame him now.
Nevertheless, these events are what bring us to the question I asked the Cs in my mind which led to such a strange answer that contained within it an amazing prediction. Before we diverted to the story of Frank’s father, the issue was the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze that was to be held rather soon. We were talking about attending and distributing our magazine, the Aurora Journal, and I was reminded of the fact that the Cassiopaeans had suggested going to a Gulf Breeze conference “in the spring” at a time when the Gulf Breeze conferences had always been held in the fall.
Now, this is one session that I believed to be corrupted. The woman, D**, was the probable cause, but there was also a strong conflict between her and Jan. There were many peculiar things about this whole session. The whole “personality” that came through in occasional surges was D**, as we were to find out later. But, also, there was some of the Cs energy coming through. I think the first clue I had was when they abbreviated the word “Cassiopaea,” which was odd … almost as though it were a clue that I was only going to make a partial connection.
The first peculiar remark was strange – as though my mind was being read. I was most definitely concerned about the recent experiences of remembering this past life and all the terrible turmoil it was causing in my thinking and emotions.
February 18, 1995
A: Forget it, Laura, it was just only one of many, many learning experiences! They all enriched us tremendously.
Q: (L) What am I supposed to forget that was the learning experience?
A: Lifetimes of “woe.”
Q: (T) Is this one of her/your lifetimes of woe?
A: They all are if we choose to view them thusly. […]
Q: (L) Well, I just want to say something …
A: Okay, Laura, ask it if you must.
Q: (J) I want to ask about …
A: Laura first, we/she is about to jump out of her/our skin.
Q: [laughter] (T) Ask away, my dear. (L) I wanted to ask, now you guys are going to be mad at me because I am going off on a very serious tangent …
A: We know, just ask it, already!!!! […]
Q: (L) As you know, I am reading this book about Holocaust victims reincarnating and remembering their experiences at this time. The question is, on one occasion you told us that the Jewish people, as a racial group, were Atlantean descendants, is that correct?
A: Some.
Q: (L) There is some. Can you give us that some?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there some karmic element that was fulfilled by the Holocaust?
A: Of course.
Q: (L) Could you tell us what karma was being expunged in that activity, and what group the Jews represented?
A: This is not germane, but it was Atlantean overseers “expunging” guilt from that life experience.
Q: (L) So …
A: So what?
As the reader can guess, I was not very pleased with this communication. Neither were Terry and Jan, and it showed. We tried to be “light” and have a little fun with it, but the “off” flavor and texture of the contact made it clear that something was going on, and it was only right at the end that the clue was given as to what it was. The woman, D**, was feeding Frank energy that empowered the STS-force connection to him. Based on the remarks, he was obviously able to vacuum out of me many details of what was in my thoughts and experiences of the past weeks. The information given was, indeed, “starkly accurate” in that respect. And there is clear evidence that my own foreknowledge of coming personal events was being tapped. This is also one of the few sessions in which Frank was actually active.
Q: (L) Alright, I want to ask what it was that I went through about a week ago when I felt like I was getting all kinds of stuff pumped into my system that I did not seem capable of coping with in terms of emotional control. What was going on?
A: Answered about one half hour ago as you/us measure time. […]
Q: (L) What are you talking about … the past life business?
A: Yes.
This refers to the remark at the very beginning about “lifetimes of woe.” This had been brought up spontaneously, with no question asked, which was another bit of evidence that Frank was “vacuuming” a la STS.
Q: (L) Well, what precipitated that activity?
A: Ions charged by awareness opening in window of EM envelope, used to precipitate physical trauma in immediate surroundings. “Used to” refers to past tense.
Q: (L) OK, so in the past, this kind of opening of a window in the EM envelope …
A: You have elevated.
Q: (T) You made a connection with other life experiences, and you were able to experience them in another way. (L) Well, it had some damn strange effects, that’s all I’ve got to say about it! I wasn’t very happy about it. (T) Will she be experiencing more of this now that she’s made this elevation?
A: Yes. Each episode will be easier and easier.
Q: (L) Thank God! When do these guys get to enjoy that particular … (T) We haven’t gotten to that point yet, or we may experience it in a different way. Is that it?
A: Sort of, each has their own issues.
Q: (T) Well, we are all doing different things as we move forward. (J) We all have different issues to work through.
A: Why wish agony upon another?
Q: (L) I don’t wish agony upon another, I just want you guys to appreciate the utter agony … (T) They do appreciate … (J) And we do too … They went through it with you. You didn’t go through it alone! (T) They are you!
A: Why wish agony upon another, all have personal trials, would you/us like to share?
And here, there is the most curious “dig” about the event which clearly indicated some awareness of the nature of it and the memories that were revealed. Of course I was not going to share such revolting information about Frank!
Q: (L) In other words, be grateful that it wasn’t worse. (D) I would like to ask a question because you probably understand it and I do not. If we are sixth and we are also third, in the future, will we be another third and another sixth … (F) In our third-density perception, since our time is linear and we are looking at us in the future, talking back to us in the present, but it is all happening at once because there is no real time. And, probably, I guess this also means that one day, which is also today, we will be sixth looking down here … (D) We will be doing the same thing over and over? (F) Sort of yes and no … I don’t think we can quite grasp the whole thing … (T) The problem is …
A: You will grasp it when at 6th level!!! So, rejoice in the “here and now!”
Q: (T) Even at fourth we will understand more than we do now. They are giving us concepts that are beyond third level. They are working with us to prepare us so that when we move into fourth we will have a head start on what’s going on. They are bringing us up to where we already are because we came from fourth level to come here to do this originally, to set the frequency and hold it so that others can move to fourth level. We came from fourth density to do this. They are trying to give us enough information so that we will remember. It is kind of like Hansel and Gretel going into the forest and leaving a trail of crumbs so that they can find their way out. We came back from fourth to third to do what we’ve got to do and we’re going back to fourth but we’ve got to leave a trail for us to keep connected to where we came from … something similar to that, in any event. Is your mind exploding, D**? We, where we are now, don’t grasp all this because we are not supposed to at this level.
A: Learning. Laura just gained one more strand, that is why it was so painful, okay?
Q: (D) Say! Congratulations! (T) Yup, she gained another strand and made Reiki Master! (L) I am in a bear of a mood! (T) Mirth! You in sixth density are enjoying the hell out of you now. We are going to take a break. (F) You gained a strand of DNA?
In any event, after a break in which Terry and Jan and I consulted in the kitchen while Frank regaled D** in the living room with tales of his feats of channeling derring-do, we came back to the table, aware and alert, and the rest of the session was far more stable, even if there were a couple of quirky moments of skewing and a couple of attempts at “time-anchored predictions,” which was always a dead giveaway that STS forces were trying to horn in.
It is also at this point that I asked the question. After pondering the idea that the events of the past weeks had been related to DNA, I came to some sort of idea that I had been inspired to undertake the channeling project as a means of this very DNA activation that had resulted in this awakening, or quickening, and that ultimately, my entire life would completely change as a result, and I was asking mentally if this was true, and if so, how would it manifest?
Q: (L) Alright, I want to ask a question. This is a trick question. It involves mind-reading. Please answer the question I am thinking.
A: Your dreams are valid.
Q: (D) My dreams are valid?
A: No.
Q: (T) Laura’s dreams?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What dream? (D) Your dreams are valid, Laura. (T) Was that your question? (L) Well, sort of. It could apply. (T) They answered your question before you asked it. (L) Yeah. I wasn’t going to ask it out loud, anyway. (T) If we could just get them to skip the questions and go to the answers, we would make a lot better time here.
A: Have.
Q: (L) In other words, my impressions of the ultimate outcome of this DNA switcheroo is …
A: Yes!
Q: (T) Any other questions?
A: Go to Pensacola.
Q: (L) Who wants to go to Pensacola?
A: I do, I do. [laughter]
Q: (T) Is something going to happen in Pensacola?
A: Conference. Increasing activity in Florida panhandle, vortex. If you go to Pensacola you will see UFOs of all origins including yours truly.
Q: (T) Oh! It’s your conference! And we’ve been invited!
A: Okay.
Q: (T) When is it that we are supposed to go. Is it that whenever we go, then will be the conference?
A: May.
Q: (T) Is there something in May? In Pensacola? (J) Project Awareness is in May but that’s in Tampa. Are you talking about the conference in May that is being put on by the Pensacola group?
A: Look and see.
Q: (T) OK, in May we should go to Gulf Breeze?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) OK, the conference in Gulf Breeze is going to be in Tampa in May.
A: Do a session and monitor the skies at the same time. Have someone posted outside with a video camera!! Let’s try to steer all these “Ufologists” in the right path. […]
Q: […] (D) You guys, I am getting very, very weak.
A: Obvious.
Q: (L) Let’s shut down for the night, I am pooped.
Now, the strange thing about this UFO conference that we were talking about was that the normal schedule was for the spring conference to be held in Tampa and the fall conference to be held in Gulf Breeze.
As it turned out, that very year the fall Gulf Breeze conference was nearly canceled because of a hurricane! That, in itself, was an extremely interesting event. We had been planning on attending this particular conference and Terry and Jan had already made the reservations. Hurricane Opal was spinning around in the Gulf and everyone was waiting to see where it would come ashore:
October 7, 1995
A: Review: what did we say about weather. Why do you suppose “Opal” occurred at time, place reference point?
Q: (L) To put a stop to the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze? Does this mean we ought to stay home?
A: Up to you, but, suggest deferment, we could tell you of titanic battle!!!!
Q: (L) So, hurricanes are a reflection of battles at higher levels? Did the good guys win?
A: Yes, but not concluded, and we fear for those drawn to locator because of sinister plans by 4th-density STS.
Q: (L) Plans such as what? More weather phenomena or something more direct?
A: Both, several options open to them, and in works; monstrous hurricane to hit during conference, or tornado strikes Embassy Suites hotel, or bomb blast levels conference center, or mass abductions and mental controls initiated in order to cause dissension and possibly violence, followed by extreme factionalization.
Q: (L) So, there is the possibility that something really positive could come from the connections made at the conference and, to prevent this possibility, the fourth-density STS are taking steps?
A: Yes, why do you suppose it has been disrupted as of now? And have you noticed that the hurricanes have been increasing in October, rather than decreasing as would normally be true?
Q: (L) Well, then, I guess we will be staying home.
A: Free will.
So, we canceled our reservations. As it turned out, the hurricane did hit Gulf Breeze almost dead on, and the conference was moved to Mobile. Clearly, there was no bomb blast or tornado so if any of the above mentioned possibilities did play out, it would seem to have been mass abductions and mental controls initiated.
As a result of this hurricane, the organizers of the conference decided to switch the schedule around so that the Gulf Breeze conference was held in the spring the following year, 1996. But, not in May. In March. So, even if the Cassiopaeans were picking up something about this specific switch, it was not a bull’s eye exactly. Another thing that has happened since that hurricane is that the organizers of the conference broke up their organization and reformed. They no longer hold UFO conferences, but rather focus on metaphysical/New Age assemblies. So, it may be that there was a mass abduction and mental controls that initiated dissension, but it would be difficult to make Ufologists any more fragmented and factional than they already were and are!
But, getting back to the UFO conference that we learned was going to be held in the spring, right after we had made the arrangements to take over RC’s magazine:
December 2, 1995
Q: (L) This year the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze is in the spring. Is this the one we are supposed to go to?
A: Yes.
All of the strange elements came together at the UFO conference in the spring of 1996. And looking back, the answer to my silent question: “Your dreams are valid,” was directly related to this event. Not only had I had the dream about getting married immediately after meeting the woman who wanted to transfer her magazine to us, but as soon as that project was underway, I had the vision of Ark’s face. At Gulf Breeze, I had another dream, and indeed, the Cassiopaeans were there. Just not the way we expected, as we will see.
One of the main reasons we wanted to go to the Gulf Breeze conference was because of the magazine. It was hoped that it would be an organ for the Cassiopaean material since I could really think of no other affordable way to make the material available. We planned to print a thousand copies and take them to the conference with us and give them away with a subscription form attached inside.
As you might expect, the events surrounding the work on the magazine, The Aurora Journal, took on a Twilight Zone like quality. The Matrix again went into overdrive to prevent the plan from being brought to fruition.
One of the first things I wanted to do was to find a printer who would do a nice job for me at a reasonable cost since I was paying for it out of my own pocket. There was a print shop near the chiropractor I was still seeing three times a week for therapy, and I decided to stop in and find out what my options were and how much I could do myself to keep the costs low. At the same time, I had printed up a large volume of the Cassiopaean material and thought that it might be cheaper to have it copied, so I hauled it in with me.
The young lady at the counter quoted me a very reasonable price for the copying but said that she couldn’t tell me anything about doing a magazine layout because she was just there in a clerical capacity and I would have to come back. I left my material with an order for three copies, bound in a plastic spine.
Several days later I went back to pick up my copies. As the girl was getting them from the back, a woman emerged from the shop area, grinning widely, and said, “I thought that was you I heard out here!” I looked at her blankly because, frankly, I had no idea who she was! She realized that I didn’t recognize her and she said “Pam! You remember! I came to you for hypnosis!”
And then I realized who she was! She was the woman I had hypnotized back in 1993 the night the Flying Black Boomerangs were sighted over the three-county area. She had been so upset by the idea of an alien abduction lurking in her subconscious that she never came back for any further sessions. I had always wondered what had happened to her since, and it was very curious to find her in this print shop since she had told me back then that she was in real estate. It was even stranger when you consider that I had selected this print shop over any other simply because it was en route between my house and the chiropractor I was seeing every other day as a result of an accident that I was certain was a deliberate attempt on my life by hyperdimensional forces. Not only that, I was in the print shop for the very purpose of having copies made of material that related to the events in which Pam had been involved at the very beginning. Further, that I was planning on inquiring about the printing of a magazine that was an offshoot of those same events.
I was shocked. She looked like she had aged about 20 years in the almost three years since I had seen her! As it turned out, Pam had recently bought the print shop as a business venture for her kids. She invited me into the back of the shop for coffee and we brought each other up to date on what had been happening in our lives since the incident of the UFOs. That event had upset her so badly that she completely retreated into denial and the “normal life” routine. I told her how that event had done just the opposite for me – I had been catapulted into a series of learning experiences that had completely shattered my previous world, and made it seem like I was on a continual roller coaster ride. I told her, “Honey! If you had any idea of the stuff that has happened to me since you were at my house and opened the door to those damned aliens, you would not believe it!” And we both laughed.
So, we spent an hour or so catching up. Pam was fascinated by the story of how the contact with the Cassiopaeans had developed the year following her hypnosis session and wanted not only to read the material, but to attend a session. It turned out that she was very interested in mysteries, or so she claimed. It never occurred to me to wonder why she wasn’t interested in her own mystery!
I was, of course, thinking to myself how serendipitous this was for Pam to own this print shop since it just might mean that I could get my magazine printed at a really reasonable price.
As we talked, Pam began to reveal things about her past that were beyond strange. When she had come to me for hypnosis, she was working in real estate and caring for her retired and dying husband who had been a former government employee. That was basically all she had said at the time. I had never asked her if her husband worked for the post office or any other specific agency, not realizing that it might be important.
Now she was telling me that he was a physicist who had worked at various government labs, including JPL on the Mars Observer, and had spent most of his time working in an underground laboratory somewhere in Maryland or thereabouts. She was telling me so many things that I found it difficult to assimilate all of it. It was as though, in the years since the door to the idea of aliens had been opened in her mind, all sorts of associations had come together. It never occurred to me that this might be bait to attract my interest.
On top of her husband’s work, Pam, herself, had a high security clearance and had spent years working (or so she said) in certain office positions that gave her access to highly sensitive information. Finally I thought I understood why Pam may have been abducted. If her husband was a scientist and she had a security clearance, that might explain it. I shared with her that I had learned that families of government employees generally seem to be abducted more than the average person. She thought this was interesting, but still didn’t think that it applied to her specifically.
I was pretty excited by all of this. A real, potential witness to weirdness! What a find!
We discussed the magazine, finally, and she agreed that if I would come into the shop and physically help assemble it, in addition to having camera-ready copy, she would be able to give me a considerable discount. So, I left feeling like the fates were in my corner and all was going to be right. I also thought that this was a big opportunity – perhaps the one the Cassiopaeans had mentioned when they had said back in October of the previous year:
Q: (L) We need to create a forum.
A: Yes. A direction will open if you persevere.
Q: (L) So things will be brought to us and happen for us if we just persevere?
A: Soon expect big opportunity.
Q: (L) I assume that we are not to ask what it is, we are to have faith, is that correct?
A: Yes. Danger you may misinterpret opportunity.
Q: (L) Should we all be able to realize in congruence whether the opportunity is good?
A: Varying degrees.
Q: (L) If there is a danger we may misinterpret the opportunity, could you give us a couple of clues so that when it occurs we won’t miss it?
A: At least one of you will have instant recognition but others may not. Wait and see.
My first interpretation of this opportunity was the fact that RC wanted to dump her magazine. She did claim to “recognize” me as a connection from her past life, though I can’t say that I had similar recognition. A magazine was a “forum.”
The next interpretation I put on it was that Pam had “instantly” recognized me, but I hadn’t recognized her. And having an inside line to printing, especially since we were planning a journal, was definitely a “big opportunity” in terms of “creating a forum,” one would think.
Earlier, I had joined Mike Lindemann’s ISCNI forum on AOL and had been invited to chat live, online, with his group in a sort of question and answer session. I felt sure that this, also, was part of the “forum” and might be the “big opportunity.”
But, the fact that, in none of these instances had there been “instant recognition” by any of the group, with the others “doubting,” still bugged me. What other big opportunity could there be?
So, it’s funny how we anticipate things in ways that never quite fit, and yet how desperate we are to make them true.
And this is where we find me in the early months of 1996 … moving slowly and inexorably to the threshold of the unknown; my conscious mind fighting tooth and nail against the forces of my own higher self, ignorant of the Predator’s mind, ignorant of the Matrix, learning by experience and direct, painful interaction. There was the world of practical events in which this drama manifested; there was the underlying psychological drama, and there was, apparently, another reality – the theological reality – from which the energies emanated.
And learning to see this other reality and to be able to respond to it with no apparent proof seemed to be the big test.
The trip to Gulf Breeze was all Frank could talk about. I had the idea that we would drive up in my van, split the expenses three ways, and we could park the van on one of the great beaches up there and camp out with sleeping bags. Frank would have none of that! He would have a hotel room or nothing.
OK. Well, I couldn’t afford a hotel room. But Frank pointed out that S** could. She had a large inheritance from her father, and Frank decided that she ought to fund this trip. As he pointed out, S** had certainly been providing printing supplies, paper, ink, and tapes to me for the sessions and printing excerpts and copies of sessions. Why shouldn’t she pay for a trip to Gulf Breeze?
I didn’t like it, but Frank said, “If we don’t go in style, I ain’t goin’!” And I most definitely wanted Frank to go! “Just let me handle S**,” he assured me.
I didn’t want S** to have to discuss this with Frank alone, since I was already certain that she couldn’t see through his little manipulations that I generally swept under the rug when he tried them on me, and made every effort to protect other people from them. (Again, I was waiting for Frank to come into his own, and I tolerated his flaws until he did, which I was sure he would eventually!)
After Frank had made his proposal to her in a more or less direct way, which could not have been faulted, I mentioned the fact that my idea had been to drive up and camp out to save money. S** thought my idea was more fun, but Frank again interjected that he wasn’t going to go if he couldn’t stay in a hotel.
So, S** said, “Sure! That would be fun! We can just all share a double room!”
“Nope!” Frank declared. He would not go if he couldn’t have his own room. I could see the chances of going to the conference and distributing the magazine dwindling. But S** agreed. Sure, she’d pay for two rooms if that would make Frank happy.
However, that wasn’t all that Frank wanted. Now he announced that it would undoubtedly be cheaper all the way around if we were to fly up instead of drive. I could see the chances of going to the conference and distributing the magazine dwindling. But S** agreed. Sure, she’d pay for round-trip tickets for the three of us.
And Frank just beamed with delight.
At some point during the magazine preparation period, S** made an offhand remark about her relations with several people that I knew to be deeply involved with ritual magic and other unsavory activities. I was surprised. After all we had learned so far, didn’t she think it was a bit dangerous to be hanging out with those people? S** explained that she really wasn’t hanging out with them, she was being paid to do therapy with them. It was purely and simply a business relationship.
But she knew that this was the same group of people who had previously tried to harm me, and I felt a tremendous sense of betrayal. I knew I couldn’t ask her to give up a massage client in solidarity with me, but I certainly hoped she would.
Having this sudden revelation just before our trip did not make the prospects all that pleasant for me. But, I was committed to getting the magazine out, and that was that.
In addition to the storm that was brewing in regard to S**, it was becoming very evident that our involvement with Pam was far more complicated and problematical than I had ever anticipated. We had started the project at the beginning of January, and already I was becoming unwillingly embroiled in Pam’s control games with her children and her dying husband. The whole family dynamic had presented itself in the beginning as so very charming and loving. As I spent more time with them on the magazine project, more and more secrets – ugly secrets – bubbled to the surface.
It became clear that Pam had bought the print shop business in order to be able to totally dominate her children. It was also clear that her children, aged 20 and 17, were completely and totally irresponsible and undesirous of being dominated. With a dying husband and mounting medical bills, Pam had also endeavored to exert controls on her children by buying both of them expensive new cars as well as a 40K sports car for herself so that they could maintain their images as “business owners.” Patrick and Shayna, the children, thought that the print shop was their personal bank and that it was supposed to finance their every whim – even without completing the many orders that were placed by their customers. They would take initial payments on large business orders, close the shop and go out to eat and party and sometimes not return to the shop for days.
Pam laughed at this in an indulgent way for a while. But then the bills began to pile up, the investment income from her other sources began to dry up, and her husband’s pension and inherited trust fund payments were not nearly enough to keep up the car and insurance payments.
And, angry customers became more and more frequent, making Pam embarrassingly aware of what her kids were doing when she wasn’t watching.
Pam was at her wit’s end. She would be at home, caring for her husband, and would call the shop to see how the kids were managing things, and find that it was closed and they were gone. Little by little she confided to me her concern over Patrick and his apparent substance abuse problems as well as her perception of her daughter, Shayna, as a flighty, promiscuous borderline mental case. Pam was constantly dragging Patrick to doctors for mind-controlling drugs such as Prozac and other antidepressants. She was convinced that if he failed to take his medication he would turn into a monster, and he would certainly fail to take his medicine if he did not have his mother’s constant attendance.
I was unsure why she felt this until she began to reveal that he had violent tendencies and had physically attacked both his parents on occasion, even throwing his father’s oxygen tank into the swimming pool. Pam had to call the police several times, but each time, she refused to press charges when Patrick would beg her forgiveness as soon as the police were at the door. On one such occasion, he had stormed out of the house and had taken her car and disappeared for two weeks along with her credit cards. It turned out that he and a friend had been partying in New Orleans, visiting whorehouses and eating in fine restaurants. She attributed all of this behavior to his failure to take his medication, and she was determined to keep him under her thumb; thus, she bought the print shop after he had expressed interest in the printing business.
Shayna, a more-than-plain girl with little but air between her ears, was proving to be a teenaged slut of the first order. She had picked up a very sleazy boyfriend at a nightclub who glommed onto her because of her fancy car and access to fast, easy cash. More than once I observed him brazenly opening the cash drawer in the shop and taking out money for dinner and movies for himself and Shayna, who was simply gaga that such a slick guy would pay her so much attention; never mind that he was doing it with the customers’ money and no work was getting done for that money!
Pam tried to control all of them and get the print shop to run, but it was a losing battle. I was practically desperate to get the magazine finished and Pam began to manipulate me to that end. She couldn’t get to my magazine (which had been paid up front), until other, even older, backed up orders were finished so I ended up spending many nights in the shop helping her get the orders out. But, we could only do that if Patrick showed up in condition to run the presses, which was problematical at best. He would disappear for days at a time, showing up bleary eyed and sullen with no explanation for where he had been or what he had been doing.
And worse than that, he was dangling after my daughter who was completely insensible to any warnings I gave her that she was being sucked into a black hole!
It was turning into a nightmare! My dreams of producing a magazine and getting it to the Gulf Breeze conference were rapidly fading, my daughter was being drawn into the clutches of a family that I was beginning to see as Tobacco Road incarnate, and meanwhile S** and her wicked-witch mother lurking like spiders in the background. I resolved to keep my cool, navigate these treacherous waters as best I could, and try to get out of this minefield with as little damage as possible.
Meanwhile, as if things were not crazy enough, another weird element was introduced into the situation. Against all odds and opposition, I finally had all the layout done, the copy was finished on the computer (I should add that I had to learn the program by doing it!), and we were ready to print. At this point, a man came into the print shop talking big money and big print jobs. He was a huge guy, over six-and-a-half feet tall, puffing a cigar and punctuating the verbal dollar signs he was scattering through the atmosphere with smoke rings. Pam and her kids, desperate for more money, hung on his every pronouncement of how he was the answer to their prayers; they were sitting on a gold mine in their print shop, and he was just the guy to turn every ream of paper to riches. I could see my magazine being shoved to the back room with every word.
Not surprisingly, all of a sudden, Pam and her kids were no longer interested in the magazine or anything but the promises of gold and glory being spun by the “mysterious stranger.” I couldn’t get anyone to answer the phone at the print shop, no one answered the phone at Pam’s house and I was feeling desperate again at the thought of all my hard work being locked up and inaccessible to me. At least my daughter seemed to be seeing the light and was distancing herself from Patrick. I counted my blessings on that one.
Then Pam called. Something was not right with the “mysterious stranger.” Things were getting totally weird in her life also! She needed to come and talk to me and she needed to ask the Cassiopaeans some questions. Well, finally! The light was shining through and everybody was going to figure out all the issues and start acting like human beings again!
As best I could make out from the very confused tale she recounted to me, this mysterious man was taking control of her son and filling his mind with promises of big money while, at the same time, not coming up with any money of his own to back up his big words. Not only that, but the stories he recounted to all of them about his experiences as an undercover agent were getting stranger and stranger. He claimed to have been a spy against the Nazis in WWII and he also claimed to have been single-handedly responsible for bringing down the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang! (This mention of the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang was a really creepy thing and comes up again. It was just another of the many crazy connections threading through this whole drama.) He also claimed to have been forced to divorce his wife and abandon his family to do this job, which was a great and noble sacrifice on his part, though no reason was ever given as to why this had been necessary. Further, after it was all over (and all this was supposed to have taken place in Tallahassee), he had remarried her, they had a child, and this child had convinced him to give up the cloak-and-dagger life, which was why he was now looking for promising businesses in which to invest lots of money. The only problem was, the money didn’t seem to be materializing.
He promised to show up with a large check to put down on a big job for Patrick that was going to be the start of their future moneymaking enterprises; however, this event kept getting put off over and over again. So Pam was becoming suspicious and thought that they were being taken for a ride by a con artist. She expressed this opinion to her son, and Patrick was so taken in by the man that he fell out with his mother and spent more and more time away from the shop, which meant that less and less work was getting done!
I really wanted out of this mess. But, I didn’t know what to do. I knew that Pam was not in any position to pay back the money I had already paid her to purchase the paper which was sitting unused in the shop. I knew I couldn’t just take my paper to another shop and get a similar deal where I could do some of the work for a lower cost. I also knew that I didn’t have the money to just go to any print shop and get the whole thing done from scratch. What’s more, time was growing short. If we wanted to have a thousand magazines to take to the conference, it had to be done pretty soon!
As it happened, the very day that Pam called me, right after she hung up the phone, the mysterious stranger did come in to the shop to reassure her that he would be dropping off some big money in the next few days. And he had his wife with him along with the child. The only problem was, as Pam expressed it to me when she called later, the child was only about 8 or 9 years old, and the woman was clearly in her 70s or thereabouts. The man, himself, didn’t look to be much over 40, so all the numbers regarding when he was doing what just didn’t add up.
Pam was mystified.
I was disgusted with the whole thing. I couldn’t figure out why Pam just couldn’t see that the guy was a con artist from the word “go,” and why did she keep dangling after him when he hadn’t put up a single dime?
Well, she came over wanting to discuss every detail of what this man had told her, every thing he had told her son, dates and times and just the whole scenario and it was so bizarre as to baffle the cleverest mind. He couldn’t be old enough to do all the things he claimed, and his wife wasn’t young enough to be the mother of a preadolescent child! It was perfectly weird!
Well, we decided that the guy was a complete fraud and con artist. I just wanted him gone and my magazine printed. Apparently, Pam had been ashamed to call me for advice without being able to produce something of what was supposed to have already been finished, and she had prevailed on Patrick to print the inside pages. So, Frank and I were invited to the shop the next day to get all the pages of the magazine assembled. Now, all that was left to do was to print the covers.
So the next evening, there we were, in the print shop after closing and the doors were locked. The presses were running in the back, and Patrick seemed to be more stable than usual. He was working hard and doing a very good job. I was thinking that things might work.
A knock came at the door.
It was the “mysterious stranger” just “dropping by” to say that he would be there with the “big check” in the morning. He was full of all kinds of apologies for having had to “leave town on a special assignment that was an emergency.” Never mind that he was retired from cloak-and-dagger stuff. They had had an emergency that only he could handle! Now he was back, and all would be well! Then, out of the blue, in response to no question whatsoever, he began to, point by point, give explanations for all the difficulties we had found with his story, including the fact that he was from a family that just simply did not show their age, even though he was now claiming to be well into his 60s. So, naturally, that explained how he could have been a spy against the Nazi’s and still look young enough to go undercover with the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang! His wife, on the other hand, had been horribly injured because of some of “secret agent” work, and that was why he had had to divorce her – for her safety – and when they remarried, she was still undergoing plastic surgery that “went bad” and that was why she looked so old. But she was really much younger than she looked! But, they had dreamed of a regular family and had gotten help with in vitro conception, even though she was still older than she should have been to have a child, while being younger than she looked, and so on and on.
No problem. Everything was explained. The only thing was: no one had asked any questions about these things or voiced their doubts and questions; at least not to his face!
Yet, he had just stood there and, point by point, in the same order we had discussed them, answered every question we had established as important in our private conversation of the night before. My back was to him as I listened, working on collating pages, and I can tell you that my jaw dropped to the floor when he started on this subject. The hair on the back of my neck stood up and my skin felt like it was going to crawl off my flesh! I had the most bizarre sensation of time stopping and I almost froze in my rhythmic paper stacking motions; I had to force myself to keep working and to show no sign of surprise or curiosity.
Then, just as if he had done what he came to do, he gave everyone a cheerful good night and left! We all turned around and looked at each other with our mouths hanging open, our eyes as big as saucers, and said: What the heck just happened here?! The three of us could hardly speak. We could only sit and look at each other and feel like the laws of the universe had been violated somehow.
After a few minutes Pam breathed, “Jesus H. Christ! It was just like he had been listening to us talking last night!” And she was right. We called Patrick out of the press room and told him the story and he looked at all of us with disgust on his face and pronounced us paranoid. Well, maybe we were.
But maybe we had a reason to be. The next night, Frank was at his job, sitting at his desk, when he stood up to go to the water fountain. As he rose from his chair, he turned and looked at the window of the office building where he was employed, and there, standing and staring inside, was the mysterious stranger. As soon as he saw Frank stand up he began to move away as if he had just been “passing by,” but it was too late. Frank knew he was being watched.
He called me when he was home and told me. The main thing we couldn’t figure out was how did this guy know where Frank worked and what his schedule was? I called Pam to see if she had told the guy anything. It turned out that even Pam didn’t know where Frank actually worked! How did this guy know? Why was he watching Frank? Who was he and what did he want? How did he know about our private conversations at my house?! What was this deal about the Outlaws?
Pam had become so frightened by the incidents that she had called the local law enforcement offices to inquire and complain. The day after she did this, the man showed up and made vague, threatening remarks about how “traitors” were dealt with “permanently” and that guys in law enforcement always shared information with each other. He didn’t say anything specific, but was generally vague and indirect. Nevertheless, Pam nearly had a heart attack!
So, it seemed that some questions were in order. The next session was attended by a number of guests, including a friend that Lilly had brought. The Cassiopaeans were uncharacteristically sharp with S** and I was aware of all kinds of crosscurrents of energy flowing around the room. For some time, S** had been in charge of note-taking, and it was a constant struggle for me to work with her notes because she was careless and easily distracted. It seemed that the Cassiopaeans weren’t too happy with this state of affairs either, or they were trying to convey something to me through their remarks to her:
February 3, 1996
Q: (L) We have several questions tonight. Do you have any particular messages for anyone here first?
A: The need to deliver messages flows naturally, there is no way to “choreograph” it by requesting a specific “time” for this procedure. And, please tell S** to relay specifically when we place words in quotes!!!!! It is annoying to not get messages properly transmitted when it is important for each entity receiving to absorb every detail of the given messages as it is intended. We have up until now not said anything about this, in the hopes that she would learn this by herself, but alas, she has not. Therefore, we regret the necessary reprimand. Sorry S**, but now please be aware that you have been told, and do not make this error ever again!
Q: (L) Goodness! All I did was ask if there was a message for anyone!
A: But it is important for you to continue at the same steady pace.
Q: (L) Can I continue with the questions now?
A: Obviously, it is always possible to do all that you desire to attempt.
The following week I declined all requests for guest attendance. I wanted to deal with this issue of corruption of the channel, as I perceived it:
February 8, 1996
Q: (L) Last Saturday night we had a very large group of people here and I experienced very unpleasant sensations. I would like to know the source of these? Was the channel corrupted?
A: Not corrupted, diluted. Static EM discharge from two entity sectors.
Q: (L) Was this due to the presence of any one or more persons in the room?
A: One person but two entities.
Q: (L) Well you said, at the time, that Lilly had an attachment and needed spirit release, is this the same person?
A: You learn by answering, using your own learnings, not from ceaseless confirmations by us.
Q: (L) Well, I am obviously not learning too well, even if you have been telling me about my “amazing abilities” which don’t seem to be so amazing lately!
A: All who have amazing abilities must too guard against corruptive forces from within and without having to do with prejudice, assumption, and the anticipatory desires involving patterning presumption. i.e. keep an open mind, always!!! […]
A: First things first! Please, S**, try to be accurate! You were warned, S**! Please, please, please, please, when you call or cry out for help and or guidance, know that we will always, always, always answer. It is up to you to be aware and then trust and follow. If your deep seated stubbornness prevents this, it will result in nothing short of your total undoing! This is because we never give such warnings, except when Vitally necessary! This applies to all others present equally as well!!
Well, I was still trying to fit that square peg in the round hole! The Cs gave me the clue, and it was coded right into the remarks: “It is up to you to be aware and then trust and follow. If your deep-seated stubbornness prevents this, it will result in nothing short of your total undoing! This is because we never give such warnings, except when Vitally necessary! This applies to all others present equally as well!!”
Note that S**’s last name was “Vitale.”
Now, the reader has to understand the problem here. Sure, the Cs were telling us all kinds of things about agents and theological struggles between forces and that those forces act through human beings, and that people can be activated as agents and that everybody was controlled to one extent or another by a vast, bizarre system that was basically run by a sort of Evil-Magician complex; but having them tell us this, and apply it in our lives so that we made life decisions based on it was another thing altogether.
However, the situation was becoming unbearable at the time we made the trip to Gulf Breeze. I decided to closely observe S** during this time we were going to be together day and night and see if I could discover what, exactly, the problem was. I certainly did not want to jump to conclusions and exclude her if it was just a matter of personality. I have always believed that people can get along even if they have very different personalities, if they have some things in common, or at least a common goal. The question was: what was S**’s goal? What were her intentions? Why did she so eagerly seek to join our group? It had been gratifying, of course, to think that she was so excited over the material as she claimed to be; that she was truly being helped by participation; and that she was the most faithful attendee! But, was there a motive behind this that was not so benevolent?
Just prior to this trip, Frank asked me one day didn’t I think it was strange that S** had been involved with the Outlaws Motorcycle gang, and Pam’s agent had also been involved with the Outlaws?
I had never given the matter much thought. S** was adopted and really knew nothing about her biological family, but that was not the issue. At a young age, she had rebelled, as is generally considered normal, but her mode of rebellion was a little extreme: She became involved with a member of a notorious motorcycle gang!
Of course, by the time we knew her, all that was in the past. She had long been disassociated with them, had gone to school to become a massage therapist and had become actively involved in the local metaphysical community. She had experienced an “awakening” and “conversion,” and her declared form of service was to be a part of our group.
But still, as Frank pointed out, she could talk about mayhem and even murder in the most disconnected way imaginable. It was as though she had no emotion about it at all! This was very disturbing. Frank pointed out how on the several occasions when he had asked her questions about her experiences, rather than seeing them as dreadful, she talked and laughed about some of them, and she never seemed reluctant to talk about it at all! Frank drove home the point that this simply did not mesh with her reformed persona. How could someone decry the extermination of roaches, and pass off the murder of human beings as though it were nothing?
I had no answer, but Frank did. He was convinced that this was the root of any problems with the group. It was S** who was to blame for attitudes, atmosphere, strange connections that are too numerous to describe. But, most of all, it was now clear that this was the reason the Cassiopaeans would not be as forthcoming in her presence as they had formerly been. It also explained the reason they had changed the subject when I was talking about the Coral Castle and, instead, brought up the fact that S**’s background was unusual … all were clues for me to pick up on, designed to not violate my free will.
And exactly like the guy in Pam’s shop, no sooner had we discussed it, than something manifested to explain it or counteract what we were thinking and talking about. During the trip up to Gulf Breeze, all of a sudden, S** was a literal bundle of emotions. She more than made up for all the emotions she had never displayed before all in a three day period. It was as though she had been able to hear our thoughts and was now counteracting them. The thing that never, ever occurred to me at the time was the fact that Frank was the only one who was physically present at each conversation, following which the Matrix did its little two-step shift.
Tom French and Cherie Diez met us in Gulf Breeze for the conference. When we arrived after a trip that was probably more exhausting than driving up in the van would have been, we settled in our rooms and went looking for Tom and Cherie. There was a bulletin board in the hotel lobby where Tom had left a message for a rendezvous, and we made our way to the vendors to unload a stack of magazines to our friend who promised to distribute them.
Having done that, we attended a few lectures, met Tom and Cherie for lunch, attended a couple more lectures with Tom and Cherie, and at the end of the day, everyone went out on the beach for a UFO watch.
I have read that people who have visited all the most famous beaches in the world say that the beaches along the Florida panhandle are the finest in the world. I have to agree. They are absolutely gorgeous.
But, no UFOs showed up, and we finally retired for the evening, Frank to his private room, and S** and myself to our shared double room. I was soon asleep. And then, the dream.
I dreamed that there was someone far away, in a room full of people who were planning to do something to harm him, only he didn’t know it. I tried to get his attention and signaled that he should meet me in the next room. He followed me in there and I told him that I was afraid for his safety. He told me not to worry, that he would be all right, and that I should go back home and wait for him because as soon as he could make the arrangements and extricate himself from this danger, he would come to me. And then he kissed me. I couldn’t see his face clearly, but I most definitely felt that kiss.
The only thing I can say about it is that it was like being Sleeping Beauty and being kissed by the Prince, because I woke up. Not just figuratively, but literally, too. I woke up and sat bolt upright in bed with the sensation of having been kissed still on my lips. I stared around the unfamiliar hotel room in bewilderment and heard S** snoring lightly. I reached up to touch my lips with my fingers as if by doing so I could detect some trace of who had kissed me. But there was nothing, no clue. Just an incredible feeling that something amazing had just happened. I laid back down and went back to sleep. I dreamed again. This time, I was with the man who had kissed me, though again, I couldn’t see his face. In the dream, my then husband came to me to ask me to come back to him, and this other man put his arms around me protectively and said, “She belongs to me. She always belonged to me. You were supposed to protect her until I came, and all you did was hurt her. Now go!”
At breakfast I shared the dream with S** and Frank, and later told it to Tom and Cherie. I still had the sensation on my lips of having been kissed. Now, as so many years have passed and I understand more – even understanding what “We are You in the Future” really means – I realize that this dream, this kiss was the appearance of the Cs at the UFO conference!
The flight back was a real doozie. We went through a major thunderstorm that there was no way to fly under, over or around. We just had to brace ourselves and the plane bucked like a bronco. I had to laugh because this was only the third time I had ever been on a plane in my life, and Frank had spent hours before the trip recounting all his memorable flights and how much he loved to fly. And now, he was popping motion sickness pills, looking as green as a tree frog, and I was having the time of my life.
Curiously, S**, who had been so terrified of getting on a plane on the trip up to Gulf Breeze, just slept through the whole thing. And lest you think I am exaggerating, at the end of the flight, even the Captain was green as he stood there shaking everybody’s hand on their way out. They were all thanking him for still being alive!
After we were back from the trip, V** came over and we decided to ask about this situation since she was there to take notes.
March 23, 1996
Q: (L) The first inquiry I have is our situation relating to SV, and the different clues that we have received, and the different observations that I have made myself, and the discussions or the networking interactions that we have had on the subject. Can you tell us anything in a general way, or do we really have to ask specific questions about the subject?
A: SV is storehouse of vital information, clue for you was in name, but you failed to notice!
Q: (L) OK, but SV …
A: This is why the frustration is for you; nothing of value comes without a price!!
Q: (L) Number one, SV has lied to us. Number two, it seems that she began to demonstrate emotional affect after we had discussed the fact that there was a serious lack of emotional affect after you had told us that these robot people are people who spend a lot of time alone and have …
A: The price, my dear, continues …
Q: (V) By continuing the relationship?
A: The Nordic Covenant was a duality.
Q: (L) SV comes from that area where that Nordic covenant, what is it, Minnesota, she’s from Minnesota? Oh, I never made that connection! Holy Frijoles! “Nordic Covenant was a duality” … so, when you made mention of the Nordic Covenant, and the banking scandal, was that a double-layered statement to us?
A: Maybe, but you are missing the point! All persons of Nordic heritage hold secret power centers, can be of darkness, or of light … SV is of Teutonic bloodline leading directly to such super power source such as Thule Society and others, and she is aware of her powers and mission. It is of positive orientation. However, you are being tested by 4th through 6th-density forces to determine if you have the strength and wisdom for continuance!
Q: (L) The whole thing just doesn’t make sense … I mean, with that nasty red aura she has …
A: Red aura needs much further study on your part. Your sources for such information could be deceiving you.
Q: (L) Well then …
A: And we are the Cassiopaeans, but it is of your will to live as you desire.
Q: (L) Well … Then why was she told by you guys, that if she didn’t do certain things that it would lead to her total undoing?
A: Go back and study that message again, with assistance of tape, and with mind open to all angles. Check intent, however, malice is in absence. Notice the difference. The duality of covenant!!!
Q: (L) Well, Frank is of Nordic extraction. Is he a member of this covenant, also?
A: Maybe.
Q: (F) If so, it’s news to me. [laughs] (L) Do you say she is aware of her mission?
A: Some are.
Q: (L) Is her mother something in the way to block her from performing her mission?
A: Mother is inconsequential.
Q: (V) Her mother, her adopted mother … inconsequential. OK, so does …
A: Curious how background is murky, yes!
Q: (L) Yes, that is curious. (V) Something tells me that this can go further … (L) Well, yes, but they were also talking about her birth, and her adoption, and all that kind of thing in another session. Stuff that’s so unclear, she doesn’t know anything about it, and claims she doesn’t. So strange … Is SV a “walk-in?”
A: Not correct terminology.
Q: (L) Well, then what is the correct terminology? What is SV?
A: Birthright.
Q: (L) Now, what does that mean?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) Are you saying that when we make mention of the Nordic Covenant and the Thule Society, that there’s some possibility that SV has been programmed, or has layers of programs, and that some part of her program knows what she’s doing, and maybe other parts don’t?
A: Yes, but this is not a negative thing.
Q: (L) OK, now let me go a little bit deeper. Could SV be what you described as a robot person, but programmed for a positive purpose?
A: No, robot “people” do not have bloodlines.
Q: (L) So, this is something that’s programmed genetically in a bloodline?
A: Not exactly, those that have the bloodline have the corresponding soul alignment.
Q: (L) We are talking about a genetic bloodline that activates certain abilities and genes that interface with the corresponding soul that has prepared for this manifestation of the bloodline?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there any significance to the fact that SV spent all of those years living with the Outlaws Motorcycle gang and this covenant?
A: Yes, and that is what has led and is leading to the destruction of the “Outlaws,” a group associated directly with 4th-density STS.
Q: (V) Her presence there caused them to break up? This was a good thing. Is this what is meant here? That her presence was uplifting to them? (L) Well, it’s not uplifting them, it’s breaking them; they are all going to jail!
A: Yes and because of circumstances planted by “Agent SV.” This is why the perceived lack of emotion connected with that whole situation. Vitale is the bravest human you have ever known! All evidence to the contrary is veil; part of the testing process.
Q: (L) If we’re being tested, why are you telling us? (V) So that you do not fail?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is SV aware that this is going on?
A: Vital that you do not fail.
Q: (V) Is SV aware that …
A: Yes.
Q: (V) Is there a pivotal word that might break this open to a clearer understanding?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) Now, when we were flying back home, and we were flying through that storm, was that storm, which began before we left, and we flew through it on the way back, was that a byproduct or bleed through of a battle between the forces?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it trying to harm us in any way, because we had to fly through it, and couldn’t fly over it? I mean, even the pilot was worried, and he had been flying for years!
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What brought it to an end?
A: Vitale. Notice how “unaffected” she was?!?
Q: (L) I told you that the whole thing about being scared was a fake! (F) Yes, she was scared on the way up, when there was nothing to be scared of, and on the way back, when we were bouncing around like a pinball in a pinball machine, she’s sleeping, I’m getting sick, and Laura’s going “Ride ’em, cowboy!!” [all laugh] (L) OK, so how are we supposed to react to this situation?
A: Up to you.
Q: (L) OK, we knew that was coming. It wouldn’t have been a good night without it! (V) Some things never change, huh? (L) Well Frank seems to think there’s a whole lot more there in terms of background than she was letting on. Is that correct?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Well, OK, I’m going to trust you guys, and I’m going to go with the flow, and I’m going to assume that you are right, and I’m going to assume that this is for the best and for the good, and I’m going to stop my knee jerk reactions, and stop worrying about such things.
A: Suggest you look before you leap. All can be wrong in their quick judgments, whether the result be acceptance or rejection. All is not as it seems … Remember, those that come into your group, or your circle of influence can be different than you think.
Q: (L) You said we were being tested. Tested for what?
A: Continuance.
Q: (L) Continuance of what?
A: All.
Q: (L) Continuance of all. OK, and we are being tested through SV?
A: Currently.
Q: (L) Are you saying that what we have been considering attacks were just tests?
A: The ones associated with Vitale. And no, all with that name are not of this orientation, but this clue was installed for you.
Q: (L) Are you saying that SV is our fourth-density Nordic?
A: ?
Q: (V) Maybe just by the purpose of her being, she’s vital for you!
After the end of the session, I read over the notes quickly, and noted that, in response to my acquiescence to the idea that S** was a positive being exactly as the Cs were saying, the Cs had said: “Suggest you look before you leap. All can be wrong in their quick judgments, whether the result be acceptance or rejection. All is not as it seems … Remember, those that come into your group, or your circle of influence can be different than you think.”
I realized suddenly that their high praise of S** had been so exaggerated that I was supposed to catch the fact that the truth was the exact opposite of what the Cs were saying. I knew that I was so uncomfortable with the situation that I simply wanted to find a way to bring our association to an end amicably and without any ugly confrontations. With those thoughts firmly in mind, I asked for the Cs to come back and comment.
Q: Hello. Are you there? I am not comfortable with this information about SV. It seems to be contradictory to everything I can observe and feel.
A: Hiklu Cassiopaea. Worry not further! Discomfort is not necessarily danger, and is indicative of growth and learning. So, proceed and celebrate!!
Apparently, I had passed the test. But there were so many more yet to come!
I was beginning to get the idea that there was a lot being said to me that required study and contemplation. Obviously, getting the truth through the Matrix was not so easy. I was beginning to feel like a spy in enemy territory needing to decode messages that were double and triply encoded.
And it was Vital to succeed.
This section deals with my growing awareness of the Matrix that conceals the theological reality and how difficult it is to break free of the illusion that our reality is as it presents itself to be. Though I didn’t realize it as I went through it, all of the events of this period were simply the results of forces that activate to terrify the awakening individual, to convince them to go back to sleep, or if that is not possible, to wear them out, destroy their health, or otherwise make it impossible to awaken.
The important thing for the reader to remember as they go through this recapitulation of events, relations, and my thoughts regarding same, is that there was no Cassiopaea site for me to read, there was no Wave Series for me to read, and there was no real concept of the Matrix, as such, available to me by which I could evaluate my experiences. I was in uncharted territory, slashing through the jungle, and hardly able to fully grasp the nature of the beast, much less articulate it.
It is so easy, looking back, to say, “Oh, well, you should have seen that Frank was this or that,” or that “you should have known it was going to turn out that way,” or “why did you continue in the relationship so long?” and so on.
If we keep in mind the programs of family, religion and society, which are more or less the same for everyone with only slight variations, we realize that it is not so easy to go against the programs of “give the benefit of the doubt,” “turn the other cheek,” “forgive and forget,” “kiss and make-up,” “make it nice,” “if you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all,” and so forth. We are taught by our culture, via various psychological theories, to “compromise and work it out,” or to deal with our own issues so that what other people do won’t have any power over us. We are taught to heal our wounded inner child, or blame everything on our parents. We can learn to reframe our experiences and achieve rapport with anyone in three days of neuro-linguistic programming, or, as a last resort, we can solve the problem with a little Prozac or something similar.
The fact is that, even though the Cs were telling me about these theological dynamics, that didn’t necessarily mean that I was buying it. Just because the Cs said it, didn’t mean I believed it. And that still applies. Sure, there are many things the Cs have said that we have experimented with – “try before you buy” – and have observed results that indicate that they are presenting a view of our reality that is objectively testable. There are many other things that we have researched based on the clues the Cs have given us and have discovered again and again, “Damned if they aren’t right!” And very often, these have been things about which we were most skeptical.
But that doesn’t mean that everything is true, for sure, nor that we will buy anything that we haven’t checked out thoroughly.
Even though I was being given a higher-density view of human relations and dynamics as the medium through which higher-density forces engage and do battle – the Matrix Control System – I was still in it, and still controlled by it to a great extent. In this sense, the Cs were very wise in not telling me anything directly as to what I ought or ought not to do in terms of my choices and actions. They were, indeed, giving me a new perspective about higher-density affairs, giving clues about our own level of reality so that I could research these matters and determine the interaction between the two, but if they had just told me the answers or told me what to do, they would have violated my “Free Will Learning Directive.” That is to say, it seems that all of existence is for the purpose of gaining knowledge. Hopefully, the reader has read P. D. Ouspensky’s Tertium Organum, and is familiar with his writings on this subject. The point is that if we are here in this reality to learn, it doesn’t do us any good for somebody else to do our homework for us. We can’t learn to ride a bicycle by watching somebody else do it, or by reading a book about it. Indeed, we will have clues, and some idea of what we ought to do, but we cannot master it unless we get up and try it. And very often, we may think it looks easier than it is, and we discover on our first try that falling down and scraping our knees is what teaches us how not to fall down!
So it was that, in the places where discussions of the matters of the theological reality were taking place as recorded in the transcripts, that didn’t mean that I was ready to get on the bicycle just yet. Even if S** or PZ or any other given person was identified as being an agent or in a close relation with purported STS forces, didn’t mean I was going to jump up in their faces and shout, “Lizzie Lover!” or “Gray Hugger!” and ditch them as a friend or associate!
However, after the “kiss”, I woke up.
My perceptions had certainly changed, but I was not really able to say how or why. All kinds of thoughts and realizations about reality were shaping themselves in my mind, but as usual, I was keeping it to myself to observe and ponder it before I attempted to explain it to anyone. The first concrete manifestation of this awakening was right after we returned from the conference and I drove to the high school to pick up my daughter as I did every day. I was sitting there in the parking lot watching all the kids pouring out of the different doors of the building onto the school yard. There were kids who were racing to their cars or to their buses, and there were many others who were milling about, congregating in their little groups and cliques. I couldn’t hear anything anyone was saying since I was observing from a distance, but I could most definitely see certain dynamics – something like a pecking order – playing out before my eyes.
Each group consisted of about seven or eight people – maybe as many as ten. In each group there was a dominant person who was the focal point of the gathering. Watching the eye contact, the touching, the fawning behavior of the “low man” in the group, was a fascinating study. And as I watched, I noticed something else: the dominant person actually seemed to swell and grow while the submissive persons gathered around him literally seemed to shrink. Of course, this was a trick of posture and the way they were all holding their bodies, but it was definitely clear that there was a form of feeding taking place. And when the submissive persons ran out of “juice,” they were dismissed to the outer fringes of the circle and a new submissive moved in to take their place. The eye contact and touching went through the same series of gestures, and the dominant person stood taller and taller, and his or her eyes opened wider and glowed brighter, while the submissives were diminished one by one, shoulders slumped, and they often crept away.
I found myself actually holding my breath as I watched this amazing display. Of course I thought of Jane Goodall and her years of observation of chimpanzees, and I knew I wasn’t thinking anything terribly original here. The big difference was that I was seeing it not just in terms of psychological dynamics, but an actual energy transfer – the theological reality. It was this theological reality that had suddenly been opened to my perception as though I had withdrawn into space and was viewing it from a distance.
As human beings, it seems that an essential part of our nature is to feel that there is more to life than the immediately apparent material world. This is the aspect of our make-up that is played upon by religions and philosophies. The different explanations for what is “more” than the material world are what divides us into groups, and separates us one from another. Most of these religions and philosophies tell us how special we are and promise great things if we will believe this or that teaching, follow this or that teacher, or perform a certain set of “salvific” activities. What is most apparent when we examine such teachings is the fact that we don’t like to think that our lives are a game of chance played by the gods. Yet, at this moment, after all of the study and experiences of my life, most especially in light of the explanations offered by the Cs on the many and almost endless occasions when the standard teachings collapsed in the face of the hard evidence, I realized with startling clarity that heartless randomness of the world is at odds with the religious views of a loving, caring God. It was as though suddenly, my perspective was no longer that of a human being, immersed in the reality, unable to see the forest for the trees.
All around us in the natural world there are wonders and horrors. On almost every corner of the planet, from the highest mountains to the lowest valleys, from the hottest to the coldest climates, above the oceans and within them, there are populations of interdependent plants and animals. Most of the time this term interdependence really means that they “eat” one another.
I thought about the garden behind my house. There are birds and lizards, insects and plants of all sorts. The lizards eat many insects and they are, in turn, eaten by the birds or the cat, who also eats the birds if she gets a chance. There are roses – beautiful but deadly – which grow in soil composed partly of plant detritus – dead plant matter – converted by earthworms into usable nutrients. There are also grubs and mole crickets that seem to do nothing but destroy what I work so hard to produce and maintain. In the evenings, the bats and mosquitoes both come out in force, the former preying on the latter (thankfully), and the night blooming jasmine opens to feed a particular species of night moth that delights in its nectar.
There is spring, when I spend eight hours a day getting the garden in shape; there is summer, when I relax and watch my efforts grow and blossom; there is fall when I pull up the dead annuals and prune the overgrowth; and there is winter when everything rests and builds strength to burst forth the following spring, to initiate a new cycle; cycles within cycles; birth, growth, maturity, reproduction, decline and death; to everything there is a season.
Now, imagine that you are observing the earth with a high-powered telescope from a point out in space. This telescope gives you detailed close-ups of any point on the planet, but you cannot hear anything. You can only see. Forget everything you think you know about the principles of biological life or psychology. Forget that you think you know anything about what living things are or how they are supposed to behave. Now, what do you see?
The first thing you notice is that the surface of the planet is teeming with activity. This includes areas under the soil and deep within the ocean. The activity on the surface of the planet consists of an immense number of different shapes and sizes of living things going about in circles eating each other!
Further, you notice that there is a whole class of these living things that are, essentially, immobile; incapable of escaping being eaten. In fact, they don’t seem to object being eaten at all. Maybe if they could run away, they would, but they can’t, so it may only seem that they don’t object. But, the fact of the matter is that these immobile beings (call them plants) use this fact of being eaten to their advantage. By being eaten, they are often able to propagate themselves in far distant places that they would otherwise be unable to populate on their own.
However, all the other living things clearly resent being eaten. They very often make strenuous efforts to not be eaten.
I began to see a certain pattern emerging: the variations of biological systems have to do with whether or not, under specific and ever-changing conditions, one variety of creatures can survive the competition in the terrifying planetary game of life and death. It was clear that danger is omnipresent and only the most vigorous and adaptable survive.
I also saw that there was a sort of balance. Many of the creatures that are most often considered prey are equipped with elaborate sensing organs that help them to stay out of harm’s way. Many of the creatures that are the predators have horrifyingly efficient organs of destruction such as teeth and claws. If predators became too numerous, they quickly devoured all but the cleverest of prey, and then turned on each other. In this way, both populations were culled. What I also was seeing was that populations that existed in herds, where there was sharing and protection of weaker members by stronger ones, had a far better chance of survival in the presence of voracious predation.
I realized with absolute horror that this was exactly the case with human beings, though it occurred at a different level – humans were an interface between the strictly material and ethereal realms, and it was through them that the energies of prey and predator manifested at the theological level. From the strictly human perspective, such a realization was monstrous. The psychological and spiritual environment in which we live is the infrastructure of the theological reality which is accurately represented in the wild world in which animals live out similar dramas. “As above, so below,” the ancient teachings have repeated for millennia, and I realized that this was part of what they intended to convey. When they tell us that the Great Secret can be learned from Nature, they weren’t kidding!
On the one hand, I was seeing a terrible vista that shattered my illusions of “God in his heaven, and all is right with the world.” On the other hand, I could see that it wasn’t just mindless cruelty; that it was purposeful activity from another level of being.
My daughter arrived and I told her what I was observing – that the cliques were similar to Jane Goodall’s chimpanzees – and she, of course, dryly remarked, “Gee! How long did it take you to figure that out?!” The only thing was, she was thinking about it only in psychological terms and not in terms of literal life-force energy transfer.
Because of the many things the Cs had said, my mind immediately made associations. I also recalled a passage from James Redfield’s book The Celestine Prophecy.
My field is conflict, looking at why humans treat each other so violently. We’ve always known that this violence comes from the urge humans feel to control and dominate one another, but only recently have we studied this phenomenon from the inside, from the point of view of the individual’s consciousness. We have asked what happens inside a human being that makes him want to control someone else. We have found that when an individual walks up to another person and engages in a conversation, which happens billions of times each day in the world, one of two things can happen. That individual can come away feeling strong or feeling weak, depending on what occurs in the interaction.
For this reason, we humans always seem to take a manipulative posture. No matter what the particulars of the situation, or the subject matter, we prepare ourselves to say whatever we must in order to prevail in the conversation. Each of us seeks to find some way to control and thus to remain on top in the encounter. If we are successful, if our viewpoint prevails, then rather than feel weak, we receive a psychological boost. In other words we humans seek to outwit and control each other not just because of some tangible goal in the outside world that we’re trying to achieve, but because of a lift we get psychologically. (Redfield 1993, 71–72)
He then describes an unpleasant encounter between a man and woman and their daughter where the parents are pointed out as dominating the girl, and she lashes out violently in order to gain some control for herself. It is then suggested that when she grows up, she will think that she has to seize control and dominate others with the same intensity. “This same trauma no doubt happened to her parents before her. They have to dominate now because of the way their parents dominated them. That’s the means through which psychological violence is passed down from one generation to another.”
The only difference in that view and what I was seeing was that I was realizing that it was deeper than that – at the apex of the pyramid of predators, somebody was getting all the energy being passed along through something akin to etheric psychological filaments. It suddenly made sense that the Control System had been set up millennia ago, social and religious programs instituted, to produce this psychological trauma that extended over thousands of generations, in order for somebody, or some thing, to benefit; there was an “ultimate dominator” of the global clique. And guess what? Human beings were not at the top of the food chain!
As simple as this insight may seem to the reader, having access to all of the other information that has become available about these matters over the past few years, it was a stunning revelation to me.
I then began to think about S** and the “Vital information” that could be conveyed to me. The first thing I realized was that human beings at a certain point in their development reach a crossroad where they can choose which dynamic they will develop in spiritual terms: predator or prey, and it had nothing to do with material considerations. In fact, I wasn’t even sure if it was a choice and not just simply the inherent nature of an individual.
I could see that S** was, indeed, as the Cs had described her: a simple, giving soul. But in her dynamic interaction with her mother she was literally acting out the role of prey to her mother’s role of predator. As her mother grew older and less able to hunt on her own, she manipulated S** to engage in interactions whereby she became a sort of lure to induce other prey into her mother’s range of operation so that the feeding could continue. In a sense, it was very much like a weakened member of a herd that keeps wandering away into the realm of the predator, and when others would go after her to save her, they become prey as well; they leave the protection of the herd, or the network. In this sense, some individuals become a sort of predator by proxy – a lure to destruction; a decoy. On the other hand, I wasn’t too sure if that was exactly accurate either. Perhaps there were predators who stalked their prey in long, slow, silent exercises in patience and concealment?
I could instantly see that nearly all of humanity was in a terrible predicament by being unaware of this infrastructure of theological prey and predation. In the animal kingdom, who was who and what was what in terms of predators and prey was pretty easy to see because they look different and their behaviors are out in plain view. But in the human dynamic, it is masked from us. And it seemed to be masked for a reason: the masking is utilized to separate the herd, to divide and conquer.
Of course, that such a condition could be possible seemed to have no explanation in positivist terms until I thought about the culling factor, and the idea that spiritual vigor might be the objective. Using the animal kingdom as a template, it seemed obvious that those creatures that most correctly assessed and responded to their environment had the best chance of survival and reproduction. Those members of herds that remained in the symbiotic networked environment had strength and safety and numbers on their side. Those that strayed from the herd, those that exposed themselves to danger, were eaten. It was that simple.
It was at this moment that I saw myself as a cog in a vast global mechanism – a feeding machine – and I was nothing more than food. It literally made me sick to see it. What was more: I needed to understand where all this energy was really going. Who was getting it? Who was at the top of the food chain?
A day or so later, my husband came in and initiated another of the endless series of diatribes he habitually generated which always started with him picking at one of the children. I would defend the child, trying to reasonably explain to him that each of them was different, that they had a right to their own opinions, likes and dislikes, and that they were not little clones of him who existed just to reflect what he believed, or to do what he wanted. The other children would join in and try to support my reasonable remarks with examples of their own. They all loved their father and all of us knew that he had a “problem” because of his religious fundamentalism. He was bigoted and judgmental, harsh and even cruel in his judgments, and if the children did not immediately agree with him, they became outcast also, damned and doomed to perdition unless they quickly changed their ways and views – to his ways and views, of course.
As usually happened, the discussion ended up with him becoming more and more antagonistic and harsh and saying many mean things to all of us, couched in Christian theology that was for our own good, of course. As the dynamic progressed, and I tried harder and harder to soothe and make nice, trying to mediate and sustain his parental authority, even though I knew he was completely wrong, and protect the children from this psychological destruction, I saw with horror that what was really happening was that he was feeding on all of us!
I instantly stopped trying to reason with him at all, told him that he was entitled to his beliefs, and I was entitled to mine, the children were entitled to theirs, and I wasn’t going to discuss it at all with him anymore. He left in a huff with some parting shots directed at all of us that I can’t even remember.
The children were upset, I was upset, and I sat there pondering what I had just seen. As I did, one of my daughters came in to hug me and tell me that she was sorry that I had to go through such things over and over again. Then she said something that nearly knocked me over: “I don’t know how you have lived with it for so long; he’s just not like us. He’s like a cat in a house full of dogs.”
Out of the mouths of babes.
Actually, he was like a cat in an aviary of birds, but she made her point. He wasn’t “like us.” At that moment, I realized that I had to do something. The Universe had been giving me clues for years, and I had been ignoring them, stubbornly clinging to my self-sacrificing, make-everything-nice, shove-it-under-the-rug, let’s-work-it-out view of things. I had read all the pop-psychology books; I had tried all the guaranteed methods of self-help, taking the brunt of the burden of making things work on myself; I had expended untold amounts of energy in trying to compromise, to work it out, to support and sustain this man and to simultaneously protect the children and myself from his clear predation. I had done all of this for years in the firm belief that all could be made right, all could be healed, all could be worked out with sufficient devotion and giving.
But now, suddenly, I was seeing it all in a completely different way. He was a predator, and we were prey. We, the children and myself, were his sources of energy. Where his energy was being drained to, I didn’t know, but I had a pretty good idea.
What is important for the reader to understand is that I didn’t blame him for being “bad” or for being “wrong,” or for anything at all like that. I simply realized that he was not like us in terms of the theological reality, and therefore, something had to be done. It was one thing for me to be aware and willing to sacrifice myself to this energy feeding dynamic. It was something else altogether for me to pass it to my children by example and to oblige them to live in it. A mother’s primary role is as advocate and protectress of her children. And in this case, I saw that the one my children needed to be protected from was their own father.
The toughest part is the fact that I also knew that I had to do something for my husband as well. Cats that feed on pigeons have as much right to be and exist as the pigeons do. They are not bad because they are cats and because they eat pigeons if given the chance. What was even more difficult was the knowledge that even if I explained to him what I was perceiving, he wouldn’t get it; he wouldn’t believe it; he wouldn’t agree. He would insist to his dying day that his mode of being – his “catness” – was right.
In the end, I knew that I had to bear the burden of doing what was right for him – strange as it may seem – because he was neither able nor willing to see it or understand it. I remember thinking that the only way I was going to be able to get through it was to take all the blame, to completely release him from any responsibility because, on the many occasions I tried to get him to be responsible for anything he said or did that hurt me or the children, it was a dead end.
For example: if he was being a steamroller toward the children, I would spend hours explaining child psychology to him, and how damaging it was to a child to not be accepted and allowed to have their own likes and dislikes – that he would tell them “that’s stupid” or “you’ll go to hell for that” and so on was abuse. I tried to engage him in a cooperative work with raising the children. He would seem to listen and I would think I was getting somewhere, and then a glassy look would come into his eyes and he would say, “Well, if nothing I do is right, I’ll just not do anything. You raise the kids and I’ll stay out of it.”
Then, I would try to explain the importance of both parents being involved and united for the sake of the children and the glassy look would come and he would twist that around and tell me that since he wasn’t wanted, his way wasn’t accepted, he wasn’t respected … well, to heck with all of us. And that was not what I was saying! I was saying that, as parents, we had to put many of our own things aside for the sake of the children.
He simply could not think beyond himself.
So, when the time came, and it came within a day or so, I knew this and I knew that no amount of explaining would be effective in any terms other than just repeating, “I made a mistake when I married you and now I am correcting it,” and words to that effect. That put all the blame on me. My objective was not to put him down, to lay blame, to do anything but get myself and the children out of this situation.
And the war began in earnest. He was fighting to retain his position, to reclaim his feeding territory. And I was equally determined that he was not going to feed on any of us any longer.
When he said, “I knew you would do this. All women are alike. Blah blah,” I just agreed even though I knew that his view was completely twisted. It was not necessary for me to be “right” because I knew that when I was right, it didn’t matter because he was going to see it the way he saw it anyway.
I just kept remembering a funny thing that I had read about how to get proper service from a store clerk who keeps trying to sell you something you don’t want: just keep repeating what you do want, and when they say, “What about this over here?!” say, “No, I don’t want that. I want this.”
So, I knew what I wanted to accomplish, I knew I would be subjected to a “sales talk” of some kind, and I knew that I had to keep repeating over and over again what I wanted and insist that the focus stay there. Whenever he tried to engage me in a discussion, I said, “That’s fine. I know you see it that way, but I don’t and this is what I want.” Over and over.
When he started listing all the things that he had done, I just agreed that he had done them and that it was good that he did, but it didn’t change the fact that I had made a mistake, and it needed to be corrected and I was going to do it.
Then came the name-calling and accusations … and I agreed with everything. “Yes, you are right. I lied to you. I never loved you, blah blah.” I just agreed that everything he said was right, but it didn’t change the fact that I was going to do what I was going to do and that was that.
In his initial declaration of territorial rights, he made it clear that he wasn’t giving an inch. If I didn’t want to be around him, if I had decided that it was over, then I was the one who was going to have to leave. If I didn’t want to sleep with him, I would have to sleep somewhere else because he wasn’t giving up his right to sleep in the master bedroom.
I didn’t argue with him. I moved into the baby’s bedroom and slept with her. After a day or two of this, of sleeping somewhere other than on the special orthopedic mattress that had been bought after my accident, the children told their father that he was being very selfish to make Mom sleep on a bed that hurt her. Of course, he wanted to appear to be the injured party, so he immediately moved into the playroom and slept on the sofa in there, giving me the bedroom back.
After failing to change my mind with argument, insult and manipulations of the overt kind, he went into the pity-trip mode. He claimed that he had nowhere to go, that he would have to build a camper on his truck and live in the woods somewhere. He then asked for several days to make his preparations.
I just wanted him out of the house. I was hanging onto my resolve by a thread, and I knew I couldn’t take much more of the pity me trip because that had always been my weak point. I knew that, for the sake of the children, I had to win this battle. I had already spent too many years teaching my children by example how to be prey and now I needed to teach them by example how not to be prey.
It was at this point that something completely bizarre happened. I went to the kitchen to get a drink of water in the middle of the night and had to pass by the door to the playroom. As I did, I heard him talking in there. I wondered who in the world was he was talking to. In the low, ambient light of the house, I could see that he was stretched out on the sofa, alone and apparently asleep. But he was talking. I stood there very quietly and listened. He seemed to be having a long conversation with someone in a dream and I could only hear his end of it. The thing that was so amazing was that in all the years of our marriage, he had never once talked in his sleep. Not once. And now he was saying things like, “Yes, I know I failed in the mission, but I won’t fail again.” “Please don’t punish me! I won’t fail again!” There were a long series of “yes” responses as though he were receiving instructions, and the subservient nature of his end of the dialogue gave me the absolute willies. An air of evil emanated from the room and I understood that the subject of discussion was me. Somehow, he had been assigned to do something in regard to me, and the present situation was unacceptable to the overseer of this “mission” he kept mentioning.
If my resolve had been growing weak, it was increased a hundredfold by this little encounter. I made up my mind that I had to get him out of the house. His physical proximity was dangerous. He was slowly but surely wearing me down, he was playing on the emotions of the children and the situation had to end now.
I talked to my friend Sandra about it. She was a supervisor of the Child Support Enforcement Unit of the State Department of Health and Rehabilitative Services. She told me that I needed to apply for assistance and make it clear to him that he had to be out of the house or he would be subject to legal sanctions. I was already receiving a supplemental check from Social Security because I was unable to work due to my health problems, so this seemed the logical thing to do until the insurance case related to the accident was settled. I reasoned that, since our house was paid for, the children and I would be able to survive – though just barely – until he could get himself settled and the court could set a reasonable amount for him to pay as support for the children.
So, that’s what I did. I made it a legal matter, and because Sandra was behind me and he knew that he couldn’t play any games with the State legal system with Sandra watching, he packed up his things and moved back to his parents’ house.
It was at this point that something akin to physical withdrawal began to manifest. Sandra explained to me that I had to keep repeating over and over in my mind why I was doing what I was doing. She told me to make a list of all the times when we had gone through the feeding episodes, and how when I had reached the end of my rope and declared that I couldn’t take it anymore, we had gone through the same deal and all the promises that were made and not kept.
I realized that I had to just keep hitting myself over the head to stay awake.
Then there came the fear of not being loved, of being judged a “bad girl” or a “bad wife and mother.” This was the program that had kept me in the situation for so many years. It had been inculcated into me (and millions of other women) as a little girl. It is the chief program of women in general: to cover the bad things up, to shove them all under the rug, to make things nice – to be a “good girl” by being a doormat.
I had to keep reminding myself that I was Bluebeard’s wife. And Bluebeard had a secret room in the castle with the bodies of all his other wives – symbols of the fact that he was a predator, feeding on our energy because he had none of his own. And he had none of his own because he was inured in the Matrix, a source of energy in the food-chain pyramid of the theological reality of higher-level dark forces that feed on humanity. We can feel sorry for such people, as they may only become Bluebeard because of damage to them as infants or children. But they cannot be fixed, and their damage spreads like an infection to everyone with whom they are in contact.
What was ultimately important to me was the fact that I knew I had to become what I wanted for my daughters. Children do what they see, not what we tell them. And the greatest gift we can give anyone is to become what we would have others be: Free.
At this point, I brought up the matter with the Cassiopaeans:
March 29, 1996
Q: (L) In the past week I have been going through some fairly severe trauma because of certain ideas and realizations I have been forced to face …
A: Stress, yes, trauma, no.
Q: (L) Well, it has felt traumatic to me. The first question I would like to ask is: in reading and analyzing the Bluebeard fairy tale as a map of consciousness, am I correct in my understanding, that I am basically living the life of Bluebeard’s wife?
A: Close enough for now.
Q: (L) My application of this map of consciousness, so to speak, is not only in the area of my marriage, but also a number of other interactions. Is this correct as I understand it?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) What part is the maybe?
A: Learning is a complex process, answers follow study. […]
Q: (L) Well, it seems to me that I have a strong tendency to manifest my psychic and emotional state physically; not only in my own body, but also in manifestations and events around me.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Back when we first moved into this house, we had a burglar break in during the night. I have always been troubled by the fact that a strange man broke into my house, the symbology of it. The other night, I was reading about dreams of people breaking into one’s house being a warning that there is extreme danger from the deep subconscious. These dreams always have a strong physiological manifestation. Well, I had an “intruder dream,” and it was like this. But then, I thought about the actual intruder being a psychically manifested warning in the flesh.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was the fact that it could manifest in a physical way any kind of indication of the seriousness of the threat?
A: Yes. […]
Q: (L) Back to my question: the intruder dream the other night was very disturbing. In the dream, I tried to wake my husband to tell him that someone or something was in our house, I discovered that he was paralyzed. He was like my friend Keith … can you help me with this image?
A: Learning is fun!
Q: (L) Well, it was not fun! My heart was about to pound out of my chest, and I ended up sitting in a chair half the night. There was a realization that I have been being drained by a lot of people for a long time …
A: Yours to look and discover. Not ours to help you “cheat!”
Q: (L) No cheating, huh. I can’t look at the answers in the back of the book. […]
Q: (L) Well, you are not helping! I have been seeing things so completely differently lately. I even see that you have given all sorts of clues about this that just went over my head …
A: Laura, please learn just to trust your expanding insights. They will bring you to ever increasing knowledge and ability. But, you want us to lead you by the hand. All this can do is ultimately lead this channel and conduit into an STS vehicle!
Q: (L) That is not what I am trying to do here! I am trying to expand on a learning experience to help other people.
A: You have the ability to do that all on your own!! Cannot you see this yet?
Here, again, the Cs are pointing me in the direction of realizing that the entire purpose of the communication was to prepare me for the task of utilizing what I was learning through this personal initiation process so that it would be of benefit to others. Of course, at this particular moment in time, I was not feeling terribly confident about anything. I was having trouble with my eyes – an inflammation had taken hold and I had to keep medication in them that made it difficult to see.
Q: (L) I am still in the process of making major changes in my life based on such insights …
A: And, how do you feel when you make a decision to make one of these changes?
Q: (L) It hurts to make some decisions, even if I feel that it is the right thing to do. It can be painful and scary.
A: Relief?
Q: (L) Definitely relief!
A: And …
Q: (L) I have some little hope that maybe something else will happen to help with the work if I make sure that my own life is clean. I am cutting off my financial support, and that is frightening. […]
Q: (L) I am between a rock and a hard place.
A: Not really.
Q: (L) Easy for you to say.
A: Wait and see. When you get money, pay someone to transcribe.
Q: (L) I will do it myself as quickly as possible … SV was supposed to help me with this … but obviously she is fading from the picture here …
A: Maybe, maybe not, you are not completely in control of all possible factors.
Q: (L) Well, however things work, I don’t really care right now. As soon as I can see again, I will get back to transcribing. I have sent some samples out to a couple of places. I have had some very positive responses …
A: Have fun!
Q: (L) What is that supposed to mean? I don’t like the sound of that! The other day when you said “celebrate!” all I did was suffer!
A: Stop suffering!
Q: (L) I can’t help it! I feel so sorry for [my soon to be ex-husband]! He is a master at being a victim! It tears me apart! Anything I need to know about my situation? I feel pretty desperate.
A: Has it been “desperate” before?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Did you turn into dust?
Q: (L) No, but I thought I would!
A: What about your settlement?
Q: (L) God knows when that will happen! You won’t tell me!
A: If we did, you’d become a “softie.”
Q: (L) It seems that over the course of time, you have turned us more and more in the direction of learning on our own. Does this mean that it is winding down to come to a halt?
A: No.
Q: (L) Can you tell me what this means?
A: You needed more assistance earlier.
Q: (L) Well, am I correct in the MPD idea regarding SV?
A: Pursue with an open mind and cross check all analyses.
At this point, there is almost an entire month between sessions. The reason for this is the fact that my infections became so severe that I was bedridden for almost a month. My ears, eyes and lungs were infected and I had been ordered by the doctor to not read or look at a computer screen for several weeks. I had to spend several periods a day with hot compresses on my eyes. In a funny sort of way it represented my human reaction to what I was literally seeing, hearing and experiencing. I was also depressed almost beyond endurance.
During the same period, one of my elder daughters was also so depressed that she could barely get out of the bed. Even though I was struggling with my own health issues, I was more concerned about her than anything and I took her to the doctor several times to have her checked for any kind of physical illness. Our family doctor had been part of our lives for about seven years at this point, and he was intimately familiar with all of the ups and downs of our situation, and he was concerned as well. He ran every test known to medical science and finally just said that if I was patient and supportive with this most sensitive of children, that she would pull through it. Being of the “old school,” he didn’t think that medication was the right option. He knew my daughter too well.
The next disaster was that my next-to-youngest daughter broke her ankle on the trampoline in the back yard. I had been gone from the house only long enough to pick up the eldest from school, and when we returned, there was another crisis to deal with.
I struggled on, and during this month something amazing occurred. In the past year I was given a copy of a lecture of Gurdjieff which describes exactly what transpired. Had I read it before the experience, I wouldn’t have understood it at all. And I realize that anyone who has not been through it also will probably not fully understand it, which is why I am taking the time to explain the events and experiences so as to provide a platform for understanding some of the more esoteric teachings of different pathways. Ordinary Life itself, properly understood, can indeed be the means by which we are initiated, as Gurdjieff believed. He wrote about the “First Initiation” in the following way:
You will see that in life you get back exactly what you put in. Your life is the mirror of what you are, it is your image. You are passive, blind, demanding. You take all, you accept all, without ever feeling indebted. Your attitude towards the world and towards life is the attitude of one who has the right to demand and take. Of one who doesn’t need to pay or gain. You believe that all things are due to you, only because it’s you! All your blindness is there. It doesn’t catch your attention. It is however what, in you, separates a world from another.
You have no measure to measure yourself up. You live only between ‘I like it’ and ‘I don’t like it’. Which means that you have appreciation only for yourself. You do not allow for anything above you – theoretically or logically maybe, but not in reality. This is why you are demanding and keep on thinking that everything should be cheap, and you can afford to pay for anything you want. You don’t recognize anything above yourself, or outside yourself or inside yourself. This is why, I repeat, you have no measure and live only to satisfy your whims.
Yes, your ‘self appreciation’ makes you blind! It is the biggest obstacle to a new life. One has to be able to pass this obstacle, this threshold, before one can go further. It is the test that separates the ‘chaff’ from the ‘wheat’ in people. No matter how intelligent, how endowed, how brilliant a man is, if he doesn’t change his opinion about himself, he will be lost for inner development, for the work based on self-knowledge, for a real evolution. He will stay as he is all his life. The first demand, the first condition, the first test for he who wants to work on himself is to change his appreciation of himself. He cannot just imagine, or simply believe or think, but actually *see* things in himself that he did not see before, really see them. Never will his opinion about himself change as long as he will not see inside himself. And in order to see, he has to learn to see: it is the first initiation of man into self-knowledge.
Before anything else, he has to know what to look for. Once he knows it, he has to make efforts, focus his attention, look constantly, with tenacity. By maintaining his attention on it, by not forgetting about looking, one day he may see. If he sees once, he can see a second time, and if this is repeated he cannot ignore seeing. This is the state to look for in our observation; it is from this that the true desire, the desire to evolve, will be born; from cold we’re becoming hot, vibrating; we will be deeply touched by our reality.
Today we have only the illusion of what we are. We overestimate ourselves. We do not respect ourselves. To respect myself, I have to have recognized in me a part which is higher than the other parts, and to which I show respect by the attitude I have towards it. In this way I will respect myself. And my relationships with others will be ruled by the same respect.
We have to understand that all other measuring units, talent, erudition, culture, genius, are changing units, units of detail. The only true measure, never changing, objective, the only real one, it is the measure of inner vision. ‘I’ see – ‘I’ see myself – and you have measured. With a higher, real part, you have measured a lower one, also real. And this measure, defining by itself the respective roles of each part, will bring you to self-respect. But you will see it is not easy. And it is not a bargain. One has to pay a lot. For the bad payers, the lazy, the losers, no chance. One must pay, pay a lot, pay immediately and pay in advance. Pay from oneself. With sincere efforts, wholeheartedly, without expectations.
The more you will be willing to pay without reticence, without cheating, without falsity, the more you will receive. And from then on, you will meet your true nature. And you will see all the tricks, all the dishonesty it goes to in order to avoid paying cash. Because you have to pay with all the gratuitous theories, all the deeply rooted convictions, all the prejudice, all conventions, all ‘I like it’ and ‘I don’t like it’. Without bargaining, honestly, not just make believe. Trying to see while using fake money.
Try for a moment to accept the idea that you are not what you think you are, that you overestimate yourself, therefore that you lie to yourself. That you lie to yourself always, every moment, all day long, your whole life. That the lie rules you to the extent that you cannot control it anymore. You are its victim. You lie everywhere. Your relationships with others, lies. The education you’re giving, your petty conventions, lies. Your learning, lies. Your theories, your art, lies. Your social life, your family life, all lies. And what you think of yourself, lies too.
But you don’t stop from what you’re doing or from what you’re saying, because you believe in you. You have to stop inside and observe. Observe without prejudice. While accepting for a time this idea of lies. And if you observe in this manner, paying of yourself, without self-pity, by giving all your false riches for one moment of reality, maybe someday you’ll see all of a sudden something you have never seen in you before. You will see you are someone else from what you thought you are. You will see that you are two. One that is not, but takes the place and play the other’s role. And the one that is, but so weak, so inconsistent, that just brought forth it disappears immediately. It cannot stand the lies. The smallest lie kills it. It doesn’t fight, it does not resist, it is vanquished in advance.
Learn to look until you have observed the difference between your two natures, until you have seen the lies, the impostor in you. When you will see your two natures, that day, in you, the truth will be born. (Gurdjieff, quoted in Michel 1989, 34–35)
And that is what happened during that period from the dream of the Kiss in March, to the moment when I realized that everything I had ever believed in was a lie, and I was being asked by the universe if I was willing to pay everything. And pay I did; in advance. During the period following my separation, as my energy was no longer being drained daily, the manifestation in the body was the evidence of the price I was paying. Everything in my physical system cried out against this view of the world of human affairs, the view of predators and prey, and I wept tears of blood and pus from my eyes to the point that I nearly lost my sight altogether.
There, at that moment, in the middle of my life, mother to five children for whom I had given most of my life, I saw that not only had I been lying to myself by believing lies and deception, but that I had conveyed those same lies to the people I loved the most – my children.
What do you do when you realize that most of your life you have given away your free will and, at the same time, have taken away the free will of those dearest to you? More horrible still, what do you do when you realize it has all been done in the name of love?!
When the last illusion was stripped away and I was left with nothing but the skeleton of my being, I reached what Kafka describes as “Von einem gewissen Punkt an gibt es keine Rückkehr mehr. Dieser Punkt ist zu erreichen.” “There is a point of no return. This point has to be reached.”
When you have been stripped of all your illusions, when you have nothing left to believe in, there is no one there at all but yourself. It felt rather like falling endlessly in icy, black, meaningless space. No rhyme nor reason, no truth or beauty, no anything that I had ever believed in could be seen anywhere. I had peeled away the layers of all the warm, fuzzy, comforting beliefs and found that it was all a lie, a deception, a mask for feeding and manipulation.
By believing the lies, I had participated in the feeding and manipulating to so great a degree that my grief and regret became an ocean in which I was drowning. No wonder we resist giving up our beliefs! Without them, we have to face the truth about ourselves! And, as much as we think we are loving, caring, giving beings, when we see the truth, when we see that most of our ideas about loving and caring and being have been manipulated to deprive us of our free will and to pass the infection on to those we love the most, it is like looking into the pit of Hell.
And when you look into the pit of Hell and realize that you have been feeding that black and bloody, sucking and gaping and gore filled maw waiting to swallow you, and that you have taught those you love to feed it as well, the horror of the realization is enough to drive you mad with grief and despair.
You search for a meaning, some little point of illumination, and there is no light anywhere, not even a single candle to dispel the darkness.
On a humorous note, it was at this point that Tom French came to visit me one day and asked me what I really thought about the alien reality. Well, it was not a very good time to ask me this question! There I was, wrapped in a blanket to ward off the chill that I couldn’t seem to shake, constantly wiping the oozing mess that dripped from my eyes, almost unable to speak above a whisper, and that whisper sounding as much like the croaking of a strangled crow than anything, and Tom French wants to know what I think about the alien reality. Who or what did I think these aliens were? Well, that’s like asking the guy who falls out a fourth-floor window and is lying broken and dying on the pavement below, “Are ya hurt?!”
“Spawn of Satan,” I managed to croak. At that moment, I could see no light anywhere.
But, while falling in this dark, empty space, something begins to form inside you. In the beginning it is very small, but it catches your attention and, since it is the only thing that is different in the sucking, feeding darkness, you become riveted on it. You cannot be sure exactly what it is at first, but your attention gives it energy and it begins to grow inside you.
What you have found is your will – the spiritual essence of who you are – and once you have found your will you see “the choice.” Choice is a function of will. Where Will exists, Choice comes into being. You can choose. What you see is that you can choose the orientation of your soul. You cannot change the reality, but you can choose what you will personally do within it.
The way the thought came to me was, “Well, okay, I don’t see any light or love or truth or beauty anywhere; and the universe may just blink out one day without it ever having really existed. But that would be a tragedy.”
Desolation overwhelmed me and I felt so great a pity and love for what might have been – for what radiant and sublime dreams may be in the Mind of God that might never be fulfilled, because the deceptions are so deep, and the reality is so monstrous – who can really see it, and survive?
And I became aware of the feather-like weight of my inclination, my True Will to Be. It was not more than an inclination, a propensity, a preference. But as I noted it and focused on it, it became firmer and purposeful.
And I realized, “I am just one single, solitary, lone being in the darkness, and there really and truly might never, ever, be anyone or anything in existence of real love, truth and beauty.” And the sadness and despair vaulted from my soul into darkness that enveloped me. But nothing answered except that my attention was drawn back, again, to this small thing that was growing inside me which had now begun to glow and give off warmth in that soul-chilling blackness. Somehow my thoughts were making it grow. My thoughts were aligning me with it.
Resolution and steadfastness began to blossom. And then I realized that it was connected to some greater source of Light and by my penitential love and compassion for the Dream of Love and Truth, the light was increasing. And I understood that the darkness, the predatory nature of our reality, was also God!
Disasters, misfortunes, tragedies, ruin, destruction, adversity, suffering, pain, anguish in all the varied manifestations we find them in our world are expressions of the idea of nonexistence. I understood that the idea of nonexistence exists only as an idea, and only because, in a realm of all potentials, even the potential of nonexistence exists as non-being. In the two fundamental ideas of Being and Non-being, all creation is manifested. In the act of Creation, the outrush of creative energy, half of the Consciousness of God formed itself into a reflection of this idea of Non-being as part of the Grand Experience. And this reflection of Non-being is matter – it is only the half of the Consciousness of God gone to sleep to become the clay from which the material cosmos is formed.
I also understood that, in that eternal instant of falling asleep, of compression, there was a sensation of loss in this half of God that became matter, and that this sensation is expressed as a recoil, a contraction upon itself. It is this recoil and contraction in flux interaction with outraying creative consciousness that establishes the tension of polarization that is the dynamic by which the cosmos is manifested. And, in third-density terms, this recoil or contraction is the essence of service-to-self – the Predator – those who choose this mode ultimately recycle into sleeping matter.
The creative-consciousness half of God uses the matter that is formed by the recoil/contraction of the other half of God to take on form, to engage in exploration of all the ideas in the mind of God. This results in an increase of its relative energy. This using of matter to increase energy is felt by the sleeping consciousness/matter as fear of loss of self. To assuage the fear, the matter-oriented consciousness must circumscribe, limit, and restrain. It must believe that the grand constructions of illusion are not only real, but all that exists. Physicality becomes the standard, the measure, the object of veneration. The Physical Universe is, in effect, God. This is the essential dynamic of all physical or partly physical realities, including the hyperdimensional fourth-density STS reality.
The moment of true initiation. It seems that, as the great masters teach us, it is not a moment of great enlightenment. It is not someone who comes to show us reality. It is not a seeing all the world as a oneness. It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on others. It is measuring the self with truth. It is seeing that the Predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has been feeding on others and propagating the infection on to all those whom one claims to love and wishes to help. Initiation is not a glorious in-pouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness of the world.
It is sheer terror.
It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation – a foundation of spiritual verity.
And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is weighed, by the self, finally and completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been inculcated and promulgated and tended so carefully by our emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who convinces us that we are “good” and “pure” and there is “oneness.”
Indeed, one sees that there is “oneness,” but one sees that the aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of STS. One sees how little true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees that all of our illusions about goodness and truth and beauty are lies. They are masks for more feeding.
And that is so horrifying an initiation that few survive.
That is “paying everything.”
Now, reread what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to “pay in advance,” that the key is to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be able to see the interactions of the petty tyrants in our lives, the predators who prey on us in the theological reality. Then, one must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of the Predator reveals itself just as the vampire reacts with violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be kept always in mind that there are predators who are predators by choice – even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of themselves, that is not available to even their own conscious awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn’t be able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that they are right, that they are good, that they are righteous and long-suffering.
After this month of suffering, of initiation, of seeing, I wanted to try to formulate some questions to determine what I ought to do next. Even though the spiritual reality was changed, the physical reality was still in a state of near desperation. I had no idea how the children and I would survive to the extent of not knowing how I would keep food on the table.
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) I would like to deal with certain issues relating to the progress of this “mission” or “project” as you have described it. As you know, we have experienced serious disruptions and “attack” in recent months. I came to a conclusion that my husband is a robot person. But, I am not going to ask you to confirm or deny that. I came to that idea through information in the transcripts. What I do want to know is: is it likely now that much of the attack will cease since that energy has been removed from my environment?
A: Maybe, but not necessarily in the ways you think! Robot or not, all are programmed.
Q: (L) All are programmed including myself and Frank?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, considering a lot of my internal experiences, I had already come to this conclusion. What is the objective of this programming?
A: It is too complex to explain yet. […]
Q: (L) I was analyzing some of the material regarding the recent episode with SV and her mother. To this point, she still has done none of the things that you advised her to do in response to her requests for advice. I told her that I was very angry that she took so much of my time and energy and still did none of the things advised, resulting in everyone being upset. Now, I had someone call me and tell me that SV was involved in some sort of coven or very dark organization. I just have a very difficult time believing this. How can she speak so disparagingly of such things and then, be a part of such? Yet, the source of the information knew things that “clicked” and could not possibly have been said unless this was true. Is it possible that SV could have multiple personalities and one of her other “selves” is doing this? As in Greenbaum?
A: Sure!
Q: (L) Is it possible for either Frank or I to be involved in such and not be aware of it?
A: Yes, but it is not that.
Q: (L) Does that mean that there is some other thing that we are involved in, in some other aspects of our selves, that we are not aware of?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this something that happens in altered states or in sleep states?
A: Not happens, happened.
Q: (L) Something that happened in the past?
A: Laura, you need to consult a powerful, practiced, effective hypnotherapist to unlock these questions for you.
Q: (L) Is this something I could do for Frank in the meantime? Obviously Frank could have a big piece of the puzzle locked up in there …
A: Both of you and others. The locks have been installed in such a way that it is literally impossible for you to unlock them, as they were installed with full knowledge of present circumstances.
Q: (L) Who installed these locks?
A: Supremely powerful STS consortium!!
Q: (L) And what circumstances were they aware of, as you have mentioned, when they installed these locks?
A: All.
And right here we have a most interesting series of clues. Note that the reference was clearly to the fact that something was locked away from my awareness and that it had been done with full knowledge of the present circumstances. At the time, it never would have occurred to me that this could mean that Frank was working for the other side to make sure that I was not accessing the information, and if I ever did get to the point where it was possible, to attempt to derail or destroy me. At that point in time Frank was the only one I felt I could talk to freely, and he had been so supportive during the previous month that anything he had ever done prior to that time was completely forgiven.
Q: (L) You are the Cassiopaeans, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are STO?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are telling us that we have locks on knowledge installed in us, installed by supremely powerful STS consortium. Can we not, in our conscious state, reject this programming, and ask you to inform us of this information?
A: Not possible!
Q: (L) What is not possible?
A: What you just asked.
Q: (L) You mean we can’t change our minds, or you can’t inform us?
A: Incorrect analysis.
Q: (L) Give me the correct analysis.
A: You cannot unlock, and we cannot tell you details of what, or why.
Q: (L) Why can you not tell us?
A: Free will violation, and endangerment of you if done thusly.
Q: (L) Is there some way to do it that does not endanger us?
A: We have told you.
Q: (L) Is it a danger to us to not unlock these things?
A: In a sense.
Q: (L) When I was kidnapped at the age of three or four in Jacksonville, how many days was I missing. My mother simply has a blank about it, which amazes her.
A: 12 days.
Q: (L) Who was it that kidnapped me?
A: Jan.
Q: (L) Who was Jan?
A: Corps member.
Q: (L) What corps is this?
A: Select division of economic legion under control of G5.
Q: (L) Economic legion? What is G5?
A: Intel.
Q: (L) What was the purpose of this kidnapping?
A: To install self-destruct programming.
Q: (L) So, this Jan was known to us as “Cecil Brien.”
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And he more or less overwhelmed my mother and persuaded her to marry him just to get at me? I find this to be incredible!
A: It was easy at the time. She was vulnerable.
Q: (L) So, I have a “self-destruct” program. And Frank has one also?
A: Similar, but not an exact copy so as to mask.
Q: (L) Was Frank abducted in a similar fashion?
A: Close, but not exactly.
Q: (L) Was Frank’s pneumonia when he was a child, that nearly killed him, part of this self-destruct program?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Frank’s father also programmed?
A: Semi.
Q: (L) Well. I think we can safely assume that every member of our families have had some sort of program installed, if only to facilitate our programming. This whole situation is beginning to sound inexpressibly grim.
A: Grim?!? You have lived decades after these episodes! How many brethren? Multiples of millions!
Q: (L) That is why I am saying it is pretty damn grim …
A: And it is part of a natural process, do not forget.
Q: (L) Well, we need some help from the good guys. Or, is it that unless we can figure it out we are stuck?
A: No.
Q: (L) It sounds so dreadful. We need some help here. I am becoming very tired.
A: You only need knowledge. […]
Q: (L) Well, I want to have a little direction here.
A: Concentrate on settlement. This can be a problem solver if handled wisely, a curse if not so! Use some of the funds to locate a “super-hypnotherapist.”
Q: (L) Who might this person be? A clue?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there some progress that we can make on our own?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Give me a clue … I want something that will blow me off my chair and enrich my life which is so grim … produce knowledge that will protect me …
A: Won’t succeed until locks are blown off in proper way.
Q: (L) Well, I hope I survive until then.
A: Refer to previous answer.
Q: (L) If you guys were here, I’d throw something at you!
A: We’d dodge!
Q: (L) Well, you see my problem here … I guess I just want to know that there is someone out there who cares …
A: You should by now.
Q: (L) Then you guys ought to get behind my lawyer and jack him up …
A: We do, through you. […]
Q: (L) So, we have a lot of stuff locked up inside and all we have to do is find the key …
A: Yes, exactly.
Q: (L) Anything else …
A: Beware of cardiac concerns. Not what is, what may be.
Q: (L) What specifically?
A: Possible thrombosis in future.
Q: (L) What can I do to avoid such?
A: Many things, but most important is your attitude. You must decrease your anger.
As it turned out, this was the second incident in which the Cs “saw” something in connection with me that was actually related to someone I was interacting with. In this instance, it was Sandra. Within a few days of the above remark, Sandra suffered a thrombosis that stopped her heart. She was in her office when it happened, working after hours, so there was no one there to help her. She fell and a couple of people standing by an elevator out in the hall heard a crash of furniture being knocked over. After some discussion, they decided to investigate, but had to find the janitor to unlock the office. By the time the EMT folks arrived, Sandra had been dead for 20 minutes. She was revived and placed on life support, but her brain was dead.
I was devastated. I also saw it as forces “out there” deliberately depriving me of my closest friend and supporter. Even if Frank was a confidant, he was not a woman and there are things that women talk about that cannot be discussed with a man.
While Sandra was still on life support, I was unable to accept the fact that I couldn’t have a miracle. I had had a dream about the event a few weeks earlier. In the dream, I had confronted Sandra’s children in a hospital waiting room where she was lying sick. I told them that if they did not give her a reason to live, she wouldn’t. When this exact drama actually played out, I decided to ask the Cs if she would be able to be restored to health. Was she, as the doctors said, really already dead? The Cs confirmed this and agreed to step aside so that I could communicate with Sandra directly. It was an amazing conversation, and when it was over, I was convinced that I had, indeed, been talking with Sandra. Her personality had come through so strongly in her use of words, and her memory of events we had experienced together way in the past – things Frank could never have known about – that I was comforted, especially when she remarked that she was finally having some fun. I was able to let go of my hope that she would recover. A week later, after her family had all assembled to say their goodbyes, the respirator was disconnected and her body was allowed to expire.
The most stunning thing about the event was what I saw happening with Sandra’s two sons, the ones she had babied and supported all their lives. They had never been required to be responsible for any of their actions, in the same way I had acted as a buffer for my husband. Just as I had always stepped in and made nice to fix things for him, Sandra had been doing it for her sons. In her case, it was slightly different, of course, but still the result of emotional programs. We do these things thinking that it is love, and now I was seeing the result. Her sons (aged 27 and 34) were actually angry at her for dying and depriving them of access to the good money she made that supported all their many ventures, all of which ended in disaster, at which point she poured more money into the situation to get them out of the soup. Now, she wasn’t there to do it, and they weren’t sad that they hadn’t done anything for her, they were actually angry that she was depriving them of this income! I was stunned. All the love Sandra had felt for these two parasites, that she had expressed by doing so much for them, only made them want more and more and more – right up to her very life! And then they had the nerve to be angry that there wasn’t any more to get!
What, I wondered, is this thing we call “love” that is obviously not love? How do we get sucked into these traps? How come we believe that giving and helping in every way we can is Love, when it is clearly not? Those two boys were now faced with having to figure out things on their own. Their mother had “loved them so much” that she had never allowed them to learn to walk on their own, and now they were angry at her that they had to walk, that she wasn’t there to carry them anymore. And how difficult a road it was going to be for them. So, yes, they were angry, and, in a sense, rightly so. She had deprived them of the incremental lessons of experiencing the consequences of their own mistakes, and now they were going to hit the wall in a big way, starting with having to pay for her funeral!
What I wanted to know was how do we get sucked into these traps of believing something is love, of giving when it is not really giving, of thinking we are doing something good, when all we are doing is setting someone else up for a big fall by not letting them learn their own lessons.
I wanted to know why it was so physically painful to stop this activity when finally we were able to see that we weren’t really doing good when we helped others in such ways? What is it that blinds us to the truth? I already knew the answer: emotions. But I wanted to know where and how it all began. What was going on here? How did this start?
April 28, 1996
Q: (L) We had a little chat with Sandra and we thank you for that. Now, we have been discussing a lot of different things here, and the main thing that I have been focusing on is the trap of emotions. I would like to know if this trap is foisted upon us from external sources?
A: The formula is “foisted.”
Q: (L) What is the formula?
A: Set pattern, like a maze.
Q: (L) OK. And what is the most effective way to get out of this maze of emotional control?
A: Calculate.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done when one is in process of extricating oneself from an emotional trap to cut off or ease the pain of it? It quite literally hurts.
A: No need to ease.
Q: (L) Well, once you have done it and gone through it, or, more particularly, once you see that it is a trap, it doesn’t hurt anymore – or lessens. Another thing is that we all have been affected by being sucked into emotional traps, seemingly since birth. Is this common for all people?
A: All? No, most, yes.
Q: (L) Would it be a fair statement to say that people who have potential to do very positive things in terms of clearing away and understanding the reality in which we exist, might be primary targets for this emotional turmoil?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell us what might be the characteristics of a person who is not caught in the emotional trap?
A: Embracing? No. Uniting? Yes.
Q: (L) Ah! So, you are saying that people who can clear the emotional traps can unite in a higher emotional sense?
A: Emotions are chemicals only.
Q: (L) So, if emotions are chemical only, is it true that when one is in physical proximity to certain people, that perhaps their frequency vibrations cause these chemicals to be stimulated or generated within us?
A: Okay.
Q: (L) And, that it takes great force of will and mental power to counteract this physical action?
A: No, just practice.
Q: (L) OK, once you have done it a few times in small ways, you can build up to big ones?
A: Not quite correct concept.
Q: (L) I was reading this piece sent to us on the Internet where this Cosmic Awareness source talks about people who deliberately have come in because, since the good guys really can’t interfere from the outside, because it would violate free will, that many of them incarnate and thereby partake of the physical experience, and then wake up and be able to do the things that are needed on the planet. The object being to try to make sure that they will awaken to their purpose, and that emotions and emotional traps are used repeatedly and continuously to try to prevent them from awakening. What I am getting at is: what are the things that we can do to awaken? You have told us many times that we need to awaken. Obviously we are not fully awakened. We are aware of that. Is there some other thing we can do?
A: Let it happen naturally. If you are on a path, do you seek to jump up into the air and fly to the end of the path? If you did, you would regret missing the “rest of the path.”
Q: (L) A lot of very strange things have been happening … Sandra and her heart attack, [my daughter] and her ankle, the terrible sicknesses I have had in the past months, [my other daughter] talking about the things that have happened in her experiences … it seems like, to me, that the situation in terms of attack is really heating up. Can you comment on this?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, thanks a lot! Can we ask questions about it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, my eye infections, the ear problems, the loss of my voice for so long … were these part of the attack process?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) My mother also fell down and has a black eye. I am trying to find the portal? What is the portal through which all this attack is coming?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) Did we already discover it in part, i.e. SV and her mother and that situation?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are you saying that SV is not a portal?
A: People are not portals!!! They are only victims of the things that come through the portals. Otherwise, many could describe you as a “portal.”
Q: (L) Well, I never said that I wasn’t. Speaking of that …
A: When you concentrate on the people as portals, you falsely direct negative energy upon the soul units themselves. Rather like treating acne with the therapy to be found in a shotgun!
Q: (L) What is the appropriate response when you are in a situation and you know that the person is being victimized, yes, by the forces coming through the portal, but their victimization is causing you a great deal of problems? What is the appropriate response here?
A: How do you view those afflicted with disease? Do you throw rocks at them?!?
Q: (L) Well, no, you don’t throw rocks at them …
A: What do you do, then?
Q: (L) Well, a person with a disease: you send or take them to a doctor or suggest that they go to a doctor.
A: For what purpose?
Q: (L) To discover the diagnosis of the disease, to obtain medicine, to either relieve the symptoms or cure the disease.
A: Bingo!
Q: (L) We are talking about people who won’t even admit they have a disease! How do you tell someone to go to a doctor when they don’t think they are sick? Most people do not believe that they are subject to control or manipulation from other densities! You have told a number of people that they were going to be subjected to attack and manipulation and they have blithely said, “Oh, there is nothing in our lives that would permit that …”
A: Denial is not incurable until you give up. Patience combined with kind invitations to participate in the learning process eventually allows the victim to awaken, thus to be open to cure. This helps you to build the “army” you seek. Isolation cures nothing. Thereby stifling progress, as any and all will ultimately be seen as “portals.” Rather like “spinning one’s wheels,” yes??
Q: (L) So, in other words, you are saying I should remain married to my husband, I should have SV and other disruptive and destructive people over here constantly to “participate” in the learning process?
A: The point is not to rigidly adhere to specific lifestyles, nor maintain exact patterning of behavior, merely to not close doors completely and permanently.
Q: (L) OK, if a person were, say, a robot person, when a person becomes a robot person, what happens to the soul of the robot person?
A: Same process.
Q: (L) As what?
A: Death.
Q: (L) So, a person can die and leave their body, their body can be taken over and reanimated and controlled to function and do a lot of things for a long time. Meanwhile, the original soul has completely departed to fifth density ready to recycle?
A: Yes, but body is replaced, not reanimated.
Q: (L) Is this what happened to [my husband] when he had that surgery back in 1981?
A: We caution that, even though you have met 7 “robots,” in your entire lifetime, not to “see” them under every bush or around every corner. You have met so many people in your life. We gave you one, and only one!!
Q: (L) What was the source of the dream where this was stated to me quite clearly?
A: Dreams are the best forum for disinformation that exists.
Q: (L) OK. I can see that. But, at the same time they are also one of the best ways to get information from the subconscious and the higher conscious, is this not true?
A: We have mentioned dualities a lot!!
Q: (L) Skipping the disinformation part, and just getting to the analysis part, the story of Bluebeard … I am still of the opinion, robot person or not, I am doing the right thing. Is it possible that, even in this situation, that I am caught up in an emotional trap?
A: Sure. This learning thing is anything but easy!
Q: (L) Yes, that’s all fine and dandy, but we are talking about breaking up my whole life here …
A: Maybe, maybe not.
Q: (L) What good is channeling if it does not help you to make decisions once in a while? Once in a while, I say. Not all the time. Or to help clarify things! To put additional light on it instead of muddying the water!
A: We are not “muddying” the water, only you can do that!
Q: (L) Well, enough of that …
A: No, not enough of that. And a much needed pointer for you: answers to questions of global or universal significance provide for a greater personal learning than direct personal inquiries. If you disagree, check transcripts and especially un-transcribed sessions for validation! You will see, my dear!!
Q: (L) Well, that is why I said that was enough of that because I don’t want to talk about my personal stuff anymore. I did think that the thing about the robot people was pretty significant, but obviously it is not that significant or important. There’s two million of them on the planet, and I have been told that I have encountered seven. I did think that this was a pretty high ratio of robot people for one person to encounter …
A: Yes, but your life path has been unusual. And you have met 4588 people personally!
Q: (L) How many people has Frank met?
A: 2754.
Q: (L) How many were robots?
A: 3.
Q: (L) How many has PZ met?
A: 3856.
Q: (L) How many robots?
A: 1.
Q: (L) So, why seven for me – yeah, we know the path is unusual …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell me in what sense it is unusual?
A: Can’t you?
Q: (L) Well, I thought I would trick you into telling me …
A: No tricks, we only treat. […]
Q: (L) I am so tired now that I cannot formulate a legitimate, reasonable, intelligent or coherent question of global or universal significance, we will say goodnight.
So even though the Cs were telling me many things in the above dialogue, I was still not seeing how to properly connect it all. But again, we see that I was being urged to get all the transcribing done, and to search the transcripts for the clues. It was being hinted that there was an “unusual” aspect to my life, and that there was obviously something that needed to be awakened to, but what it was I couldn’t yet see. But the Cs suggested that I concentrate on questions of global and universal significance.
A week later my brother came to give me moral support, and to help with some things around the house. My soon-to-be-ex had never been one to fix anything anyway, and my brother was finally going to fix some of the things that had been driving me batty for the six years we had owned the house. We also decided to have a session, and the majority of this session was, indeed, concentrated on things of “global and universal significance.” It was only toward the end that my brother, retired from the Navy, was directed to make some inquiries about his own life situation. He revealed that he had experienced some strange things while onboard ship, the symptoms of which certainly sounded like abduction byproducts.
May 5, 1996
Q: In terms of what we understand – I know you aren’t gonna answer it that way – if Tom tries to bring up the memories and understand, the headaches ought to go away … (TK) I haven’t had any since I have been out of the Navy.
A: O’Brien is “lyin’”
Q: What is it about O’Brien?
A: Discover. Why is Tom there, of all places?!?
Q: Is there something in that area, some frequency from the earth, some electromagnetics or something, that can tend to …
A: Maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe …
Q: It keeps a person quiescent and in the dark?
A: Stalling frequency … And by the way, can anyone come up with a purpose for the existence of Camp Blanding? Well?? … First, some blockbuster stuff for the Knighted ones … Look upon a detailed map, and reflect, remember lonely journeys from long ago, and begin to unlock shattering mysteries which will lead to revelations opening the door to the greatest learning burst yet!!
Q: (F) Oh, my. A lot of questions … (L) Was there more than one journey to Camp Blanding?
A: No.
Q: Only one?
A: For you.
Q: More than one for Tom?
A: ?
Q: You said “knighted ones,” as though there were some significance to the name …
A: Discover …
Q: Is there some genetic engineering here?
A: No, not in the sense you are thinking. But, all are in some sense. […]
Q: Why did my mother marry men who kept affecting our lives in such terrible ways?
A: Ask her.
Q: She has no answer. She is baffled herself.
A: So, get her to discover. That is where the clues lie.
Q: So, the clues lie with some of these people … We remember the trip with one of them – to North Carolina – when we were taken to school …
A: Why did he insist you go to boarding school? And why did your mother acquiesce?
Q: All this comes back to the original question, why Tom is in O’Brien, near Camp Blanding …
A: EM waves curdle the mind producing complacency in the face of contrived misery. Numbs the mind through isolationist influences. Why are you there, Tom? Who begged you to stay there? EM waves emanate from?? Suggest you, Laura, go to library and research Camp Blanding. You may find a “black hole,” so to speak!!
Well, I was dense as all get out, to say the least. “Camp Blanding.” Why was this term being related to a “black hole” in relation to EM waves curdling the mind producing complacency in the face of contrived misery? Why was it being pointed out that such EM waves can “numb the mind through isolationist influences?” Why did they ask “EM waves emanate from?” Well, from whom?
In retrospect, it is easy to see that Frank’s ongoing manipulations were designed to isolate me from everyone, and in the above all the clues were given – even the term “Bland-ing” in connection with a “black hole.”
To understand the connection of the term “bland,” we need to go back to October of 1995 where we had been asking some questions about the UFO crash in 1947, near Roswell. During the course of this discussion, the Cs revealed that there were dead humans aboard the craft, and that these bodies had been retrieved for reanimation as robot-type beings. This was so unsettling an idea that I almost couldn’t take it seriously. In recent months, however, Scott Corrales has written an article about this very thing, confirming with witness testimony, that what the Cs were saying here might very likely be true. (If you are interested, read the October, 2001 issue of Fate Magazine. Funny that our discussion and Corrales’ article both appear in the month of October.)
In any event, it related to the ideas I had come to about my ex-husband, as in the April 28 session above where the Cs were suggesting that I was looking for the robot in the wrong direction. The following remarks contain the clues to the personality of the mechanical individual.
October 21, 1995
A: We gave you one for your own knowledge and protection, but cannot give you others at this juncture. [Laura’s note: Does this mean they can be given at another time, after a particular, destined interaction takes place?]
Q: (L) Is it up to me to figure out what characteristics these individuals have, in order to …
A: Based upon data given, yes.
Q: (L) OK, is one of the, I mean, I’m clicking right now, one of the characteristics I think, that these kind of individuals might have, since they have this projected emotional frequency, would be a repeating emotional pattern, that they just simply, in spite of seeming intelligence, do not seem to learn from anything, that it just repeats over and over again. Is that a clue?
A: Yes.
Q: OK, then, this same inability to get a clue about what’s going on … OK, that’s a clue, right there. Is there any kind of instinctual sensation that one would get about these types of individuals?
A: Bland. Spend inordinate amounts of “time” in solitude.
Q: (L) Well, that means Frank’s one! Well, Frank’s kind of bland! And he spends a lot of time in solitude. (SV) A lot of people do! (L) So, is Frank one?
A: No.
Q: (L) We’re teasing you, Frank! I didn’t mean it! (SV) He’s not bland, though! Frank’s anything but bland! (L) Is my husband one?
A: No. Bland is not universal in this situation, just a clue for you to identify individual.
Q: (L) OK, one is a nutritionist, one is very bland. Is that what we’re getting at?
A: No.
Q: (L) OK, bland is just part of it.
A: Not key component, more likely to be spreading of disinformation. […]
Q: Do these beings know what they are?
A: Not conscious beings!
Q: (L) They’re not conscious beings, so, they just react to you as though they are being remote controlled. (SV) So, if you told one of them what they were …
A: Are being remote controlled.
Now, the strangest thing of all is that, in the above remarks, I had the answer. Being “bland” and “spending inordinate amounts of time alone” immediately made me think of Frank, as the reader will notice. Of course, by even voicing it playfully, I felt guilty. But with recent revelations, we begin to see just how clever the Cs really are. All the clues were being given, I just wasn’t ready to see everything at once. Camp Blanding and a black hole indeed!
Anyway, I had come back to the subject again a couple months after the October session:
December 2, 1995
Q: (L) When we did the session on October 21st, we were talking about robotoid-type people, or reanimated humans, and that this is what is done rather than cloning and replacing. Then you said I had been in contact with seven of these, and we identified one of them. Then, we talked about profiles, and it was indicated that a “bland” personality might have something to do with identification. You also said that you could not identify the others right at that moment. Can you now do so?
A: Search your “files.” Learning is sometimes best accomplished by study and exploration.
Q: (L) Can I have a couple more clues as to what I am looking for? You mentioned being in a hospital …
A: Non-emotive. There are other clues which you can discover by your own study. It would not be advantageous for us to give you further information on this subject. Speculation about this particular subject will throw you off track.
Q: (L) Is the subject as important as I think it might be?
A: Ultimately, but not yet!!
And indeed, we now see how spectacularly important it was, as well as exactly where the clues were leading. Getting back to the session with my brother present in May of 1996:
Q: A black hole. OK. Well, there is sure a lot of stuff that has gone on in our lives for which there is simply no rational explanation. (TK) They sure have been giving a lot of stuff tonight without a lot of questions …
A: Visits through trees, forests, leading to a perfectly square clearing … […]
Q: (L) Well, what I really want to know is why have we had all of these crazy things happen in our lives, and all of these people ranged all around us seemingly placed there, or manipulated deliberately to affect us negatively? I mean, am I wrong, or is this not a very unusual and crazy situation?
A: Why do you think?
Q: Well, I have no idea!
A: Because you are of the extremely rare and few who have the abilities to put the puzzle together.
Q: So, what are we supposed to do? (TK) Discover.
A: Yes. And, for tonight, good night.
The important thing to note is that, throughout all of the attacks, Frank had the effect on me of numbing my mind, of “producing complacency in the face of contrived misery.” I was so depressed most of the time with his repeated rants on how deaf, dumb and blind I had been for years, that little by little, any and all confidence I had in my ability to accurately perceive anything was fading away. I figured that I was so stupid that there was simply no point in my trying to do anything at all without Frank there to guide me because, after all, he had been “right” all along about my ex-husband, right?
But the Cs were saying something different. They were suggesting that I go to the library and research Camp Blanding. I did. There was nothing significant. The result of their encouragement, however, was to stop me from thinking about my own misery, and stimulate me to think about solving puzzles. Once I had picked myself up out of the hole of the depression, lured by the carrot of a puzzle to solve, I felt better enough to undertake some further study on other issues.
There was a three-week break in sessions at this point because I was ill again. The reader ought to note that Terry and Jan were rarely present during this period, mainly because I was sick most of the time, but also due to Frank’s animosity toward them because they were not convinced that he was the channel. Added to this was my own support of Frank’s position, to my great regret. It is interesting to notice that after nearly every session when Terry was absent, I became ill again. Fortunately, Terry and Jan understood only too well what kind of game Frank was operating and also knew the stresses I was under, so their perspective is one of acceptance that I had to learn about Frank on my own. They were right, and I am grateful for their understanding.
It was at this point in time that the session (June 1, 1996) occurred where the Cs supposedly accused me of trying to take credit upon myself for the material, and that this resulted in many of the attacks I had experienced. As the reader now suspects, that was altogether untrue, and we can now view this as evidence that, after so long an absence of Terry at the board, as well as along with my deteriorating physical condition, Frank’s controllers were seeing their plans coming to fruition and in that session, had made the putsch to try to send me over the edge.
Immediately after this session, I was so depressed that I ended up sick again. As is usual, unless I am completely unable to see or function, I have always tried to make my sick time count for something useful. On this occasion, the only book in the house that I hadn’t really read was a new one that had sat on the shelf for a couple of years, untouched, which I now proposed to read. It was William Chittick’s translation of the works of the great Sufi Shaykh, Ibn al-‘Arabi, The Sufi Path of Knowledge. I struggled through the dry introduction, and gradually began to realize that the Shaykh must have been drawing his information from the same source as the Cs were. It was all so familiar, so similar, so full of synchronous passages that described in great detail the many things the Cs were telling us. I was astonished. It was third-party confirmation that what the Cs were saying was derived from a very ancient knowledge exactly as they suggested. But obviously, without the Cs more modern explication, the deeper reality was difficult to see since so much time had transpired since Al-‘Arabi had written his Futuhat. But taking the loss of understanding that takes place over time, as well as the loss that occurs when something is translated from one language to another, it was stunningly clear that the Cs communication was something more amazing than even I had suspected. I was not only strengthened, I felt that I had made some sort of inner connection to this tradition of knowledge, and I wanted to ask about it.
June 9, 1996
Q: (L) My question is: is the information we are receiving similar to what Al-‘Arabi calls an “opening?”
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You say that you are unified thought forms in the realm of knowledge.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Al-‘Arabi describes unified thought forms as being the “names of God.” His explication seems to be so identical to things you tell us that I wonder …
A: We are all the names of God. Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance. […]
Q: (L) What do you mean? Does this mean that we are a part of this?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, it has to do with …
A: Don’t deify us. And, be sure all others with which you communicate understand this too!
Q: (L) What quality in us, what thing, enabled us to make contact. Because, obviously a lot of people try and get garbage.
A: You asked.
Q: (L) A lot of people ask!
A: No they don’t, they command.
Q: (L) Well, a lot of people do ask or beg or plead, but they get all discombobulated with the answers.
A: No, they command. Think about it. You did not beg or plead … that is commanding. After J** left, purification began.
Q: (L) This recent “awakening” or period of seeing things with such clarity, as they really were, and the whole picture of the interactions between people and how truly ugly it can be. I plunged into a terrible depression. I needed to get my balance from seeing so much all at once. Can you explain to me what was going on?
A: Growth.
Q: (L) I tried to share this perception with other people, and almost without exception, when I said to people that I was finally seeing things in their true state and it was not a pretty picture, they all said, “Well, you are obviously seeing this through the eyes of some major spirit possession!” Why would they say this?
A: First of all, it is not correct to perceive “everything in such darkness and gloom, etc.” That is merely the result of a cocoon of falsehood being removed. Celebrate the balance. Don’t mourn the death of an illusion of an imbalance.
Q: (L) Where do I go from here? Where do we all go?
A: Everywhere.
Now, notice that above, I am speaking of the very same interactions that I was speaking of before when I had been accused of taking credit on myself (which was obviously Frank’s handlers in action). But in the above, the answer is completely different. In retrospect, it seems that when I began to read the Sufi material, balance was restored, and I became sufficiently strong to counteract the negative intentions of Frank and his controllers. It should also be pointed out that the remark, “Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance,” followed by the answer as to why I was able to make contact, “because you asked,” could in no way be construed to refer to Frank. Frank never asked anything. And at the point in time when the so-called aura photos were made, on January 20, 1996, the Cs had made this completely clear:
Q: (L) [looking at aura photo of self] This is very strange, guys. How come I am not in this picture and Frank shows up in his? Why have I physically disappeared?
A: Learning builds spiritual growth, and awareness “solidifies” knowledge.
Q: (L) OK, but that does not explain why I disappeared.
A: Because the energy field enclosure was unifying you with the conduit, as is usual during channeling sessions between 3rd and 6th-density level communications.
Q: [photo of board develops, and geometric figure appears to sounds of amazement from group] (L) What is this geometric figure?
A: Was a visual representation of the conduit, indeed!!! The reason for such clear luminescence is that thought centers were clear and open in you at the moment of the photograph.
Even though, at that point in time, the Cs had clearly pointed out that it was me who was unified with them during channeling, and that the learning I was experiencing was solidifying the knowledge into soul stuff, I was still not ready or able to take the responsibility for any of it, preferring to think that it had just been a sort of fluke. A large part of this was my emotional desire to not diminish Frank’s importance. I wanted him have something that was his own, and I aided and abetted him in this belief, thinking that when he became secure enough, he would be able to acknowledge the truth, let it go, and simply be part of a group seeking answers. But Frank never did seek any answers. I was too engaged in trying to save him to notice.
Nevertheless, the reading of the Sufi material and the realization that something was going on in my life that was truly amazing apparently opened some kind of door. All the little hints the Cs had been giving up to now, including the one where they said that the “ending of the attacks” would happen, but not in any way that I suspected at that point, began to coalesce at this point in time. By choosing to end the illusions, to act based on the theological reality, as imperfectly as I may have understood it at that point, I was apparently ready for the next step – and it was a big one!
June 15, 1996
Q: (L) As you know, I have been studying the Sufi teachings, and I am discovering so many similarities in these Sufi “unveilings” to what we have been receiving through this source, that I am really quite amazed, to say the least. So, my question is: could what we are doing here be considered an ongoing, incremental, “unveiling,” as they call it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, from what I am reading, in the process of unveiling, at certain points, when the knowledge base has been sufficiently expanded, inner unveilings then begin to occur. Is this part of the present process?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical – I go through a depression before I can assimilate – and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process, let it be. […]
Q: (L) Al-‘Arabi presents a very complex analysis and he probably didn’t know it all either … Nevertheless, it almost word-for-word reflects things that have been given directly to us through this source.
A: Now, learn, read, research all you can about unstable gravity waves.
Say what?! Where in the world did that come from?
Q: (L) OK. Unstable gravity waves. I’ll see what I can find. Is there something more about this?
A: Meditate too!
As usual, I tried to include Frank in everything. But the Cs made it clear that Frank was not the intended recipient of what they were saying. This was the case on many other occasions, but never had they been so clear and adamant about it.
Q: (L) Yes. Well, they have been telling us to meditate. Have you been meditating, Frank? (F) Not lately.
A: We mean for you, Laura, to meditate about unstable gravity waves as part of research. Unstable gravity waves unlock as yet unknown secrets of quantum physics to make the picture crystal clear. […]
Q: (L) I feel like I am missing a really big point here …
A: You are, but you can only find it at your own pace.
Q: (L) Well, I think I need to do some reading and research so that I can come back to this.
A: And, on that note, good night.
It was bizarre enough for the Cs to just toss in something like a nudge to do research in the field of quantum physics, but I discovered they really meant business. Sure, I did what I could, I went through the books on my shelves to see if gravity waves were mentioned, and the result was less than successful to say the least. I went on the Internet and tried to find something, which was really a pathetic attempt considering the fact that I was barely capable of doing more than operating my mail program. I didn’t have enough power in my computer to do any real web browsing, and everything was so slow that I soon became frustrated and gave up that approach.
Meanwhile, something else really strange was going on, and it wasn’t just with me – V** was experiencing it also. It seems that whenever we would begin to talk about what we now call the Matrix, we would suddenly begin to just simply burn up. It didn’t seem to matter if we were talking on the phone, or in person, or if we were talking to strangers or each other, the instant other realities were mentioned, the heat would fall on us just as if we had been suddenly shoved into an oven.
As this phenomenon developed, it also became obvious that whenever Frank walked into the house, I started to feel so much heat I could barely stand it. Of course, I was sure that this was a sign that higher levels of being were stimulated by his presence because it was a good thing. The fact that Frank never experienced it I attributed to the possibility that he was already an advanced being and didn’t need to go through these stages. It never occurred to me that it was a defensive mechanism, or a connection that was protecting me. The funny thing was that this heat never registered on a thermometer nor did it produce perspiration. But it was quite miserable. V** wanted to ask about it.
June 22, 1996
Q: (V) A few weeks ago several of us began to suffer from internal heat, insomnia, and other things. What was this?
A: Image. Deep conjunction of fibrous linkage in DNA structure.
Q: (V) Well, I want to know if it is in my mind that I get so hot, or does my body temperature actually elevate?
A: Only on 4th.
Q: (V) I don’t understand.
A: Bleedthrough, get used to those!
Q: (L) Does this mean we are actually experiencing a bleedthrough of fourth density?
A: Image.
Q: (V) Are the little flashes of light I see also a manifestation of this?
A: Maybe so, but try to concentrate on the ethereal significance, rather than the physical.
Q: (L) When you say “deep conjunction of fibrous linkage,” does this mean that we are conjoining with a linkage to a fourth-density body that is growing, developing?
A: Slowly, but surely. Now, get ready for a message: We have told you before that the upcoming “changes” relate to the spiritual and awareness factors rather than the much publicized physical. Symbolism is always a necessary tool in teaching. But, the trick is to read the hidden lessons represented by the symbology, not to get hung up on the literal meanings of the symbols!
Q: (L) You say that the symbology has to do with hidden meanings. The symbology that you used was “image” and “deep fibrous linkage” of DNA. Now, is that a physical, symbolic image?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is your definition of “image?” We have many.
A: Learning is fun, Laura, as you have repeatedly found!
Q: (L) Well, I am so hot now that I really want to know! And, how come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?
A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.
Q: (L) Image. DNA linkage. (V) “Power” was in quotes.
A: Leave that alone for now, you will know soon enough.
At this point, I was curious about the possibility that I could use acupuncture to “unlock” the secrets that had been mentioned on several prior occasions. My acupuncturist (also named Terry) had shown me a couple of points that were supposed to induce an altered state of consciousness, and I was thinking that I could combine this with self-hypnosis and do the “unlocking” myself.
Q: (L) Terry showed me a couple of acupuncture points that seem to induce an altered state. Is this, as he says, a way to open the door to the subconscious?
A: Stimulates endorphins.
Q: (L) Is there any point on the body that can be used to assist in opening the gate to the subconscious?
A: No such assistance is needed. First, we would like to suggest that you seek a “spin” doctor for your quest!!
Q: (L) Would a “spin” doctor be a Sufi master?
A: One example.
Q: (L) Yes. We are supposed to do several things involved with spinning.
A: Hilliard. Leedskalnin. Coral Castle.
Q: (L) Well, they are really pushing on this gravity thing.
Now, when the Cs gave the additional clues that a “spin doctor” was connected in some way to Hilliard, Leedskalnin, the builder of the Coral Castle, and the “discovery” process that was involved in that series of strange events, they were saying something that only became clear much later. You see, as it happens, Hilliard and Leedskalnin and Ark are all from the same area of the world, with the same ethnic background. During the second half of the 18th century the Kingdom of Poland included all of what we now call Lithuania, Belarus and half of contemporary Ukraine. As I was later to learn, all three of them were ethnic White Russians. All three of them had strong ties to Lithuania, Ukraine and Poland.
So I gathered all my “gravity” material together and posted it on Steve Wilson’s mail list. Ark was researching gravity waves in Florence, and a correspondent discovered my post, sent it to him, and this brings us around full circle to Ark, the “spin doctor,” and the “super-hypnotherapist” whose presence awakened memories and dreams and who was now, at the point where we diverted, on the “quest” with me. And it seems that this very fact – that we had joined forces – was a serious threat to someone or some thing: the Matrix.
As I have already described, the suicide of Frank’s father opened a door to past-life memories of an extremely unpleasant sort. It was almost as though the old gentleman attempted to give me a warning, and the Cassiopaeans described it as a “steppingstone” or a “milestone,” indicating that my “superconsciousness” was telling me something. Of course, as I also noted, based on standard teachings, put together with my emotional thinking that I needed to “save” Frank, resulted in the interpretation that I was intended to integrate these memories, forgive and forget. I created a wonderful theory that all of Frank’s issues in the present life were designed to act as atonement for this former life of evil depravity. It never occurred to me that he just may have graduated in terms of the evil pathway as a result of that life and was now assigned to re-institute that control in a different way!
And how often do all human beings have warnings that they disregard, explain away, and later pay a heavy price for ignoring the messages of the higher self?
In any event, the effects of this steppingstone were interesting. As I witnessed repeated scenes in my mind of being subjected to mental, emotional and physical torture at his hands, and experienced all the emotional and psychic horror and suffering all over again, I realized that I had been born with a carryover of submissiveness to the predations of others. I could now see that in my current life, I had acquiesced to domination by both my mother and my husband, and that this was very likely a result of a carryover of this program from the previous life with Frank. Of course, I further reasoned that Frank was now in my life to atone for his sins, and was “helping” me to recover from what he had done, and this was why he was so concerned that I should escape from my marriage and the manipulations of my mother. It never occurred to me that he was intent upon helping me out of the frying pan into the fire – that he might be manipulating the removal of others from the picture so that he could resume his own psychological domination which was his own carryover from the previous life!
But, as it turned out, as I came to see this issue as something that needed work and will in order to not perpetuate a karmic burden of allowing myself to be negatively dominated, I also managed to become free of Frank’s domination. All the clues that the Cs gave about a mission and a destiny, I am sure he interpreted as referring specifically to him and myself in some sick fantasy where he was again the master and I was the slave. It was another instance of semantic aphasia, wherein the Cs were delivering clues to me right in front of Frank, which he did not even understand because he was so lost in his wishful thinking, the Achilles heel of STS.
At the point in time when Ark found me as a result of the message posted to Steve Wilson’s email discussion list, I was as close to dead mentally, psychologically, and even physically, as I had ever been. I had been stripped of everything I ever believed in, my life was basically at an end as far as I could see, and all I wanted was peace for whatever time I had left. There had been a partial revival of my interest in the world as a result of the Cs’ hints about gravity waves, and I thought it would be a fairly simple matter of doing some little research, finding the clues, and voila! The Secrets of the Universe would be all laid out for mankind, and then I could die in peace and get some much needed rest. Frank, of course, was happy as a clam that I was getting a divorce. He now had the run of the house, and I was so wounded that it wouldn’t have taken much to push me over the edge. Frank’s plans are quite evident in the following session, and they included getting his hands on S**’s inheritance, and getting Tom French out of the picture. Nevertheless, in spite of the powerful emotional skewing that Frank was producing, the Cs were still able to utilize his agenda to get a message through to me.
May 27, 1996
Q: (L) Is this pool meant to be built here, on this property?
A: Up to you.
Q: (L) Well … (S) Had you planned on moving? (L) Well, I hadn’t planned on it, but that is a strange answer. I guess I will do whatever presents itself as the right thing to do. (S) Well, you have to get the money first …
A: SV, invest now!
Q: (S) What should I invest in?
A: Market.
Q: (S) Penny stocks? Should I sell my gold?
A: No.
Q: (S) I could get advances on my credit cards … What kinds of stocks?
A: All the reference materials you need are at your disposal. Magazines, newsletters, “papers,” etc.
Q: (S) I am getting an investment magazine, but I haven’t really been reading it because of everything else …
A: Is “everything else” earning you money?
Q: (L) OK guys, you gave advice before that SV did not follow, can you be more specific now that her situation is changed?
A: If we did that, she would balk.
Q: (S) I would not balk!
A: Yes you would!
Q: (S) In order to go to Argus tomorrow …
A: We did not say to go to Argus tomorrow. “Now” means without unreasonable delay. The reference materials as well as networking will provide you with all the answers you need. [This was delivered very fast and strong!] Use your mind to find low priced stocks in the areas of conservation, environmental protection and medical, telecommunication and computer technology … Also, information processing, such as software development, etc … Precious metals and related is a good area too.
Q: (S) Well, I was brought up to not borrow money and to keep all the bills paid first … then if there is anything left over …
A: SV, for heaven’s sake, why limit yourself? When you exercise your credit lines and use the capital borrowed, as long as you have a steady income, the worst that can happen is you store your money. The best that can happen is that you become wealthy … So, why sell yourself short?!?
Q: (L) Are you saying that she should extend her credit, use the borrowed capital to invest, and that she will make money?
A: Yes. Now: All three of you are uniquely oriented toward generating unearned income at a meteoric level.
Q: (L) Is this something that requires an interaction between the three of us, or is it individual?
A: Are three gold bars worth more than one? Laura! Turn over stones, sell apples, do whatever you have to do to get your computer refitted to accommodate the Internet, including the online market system, as soon as absolutely possible!!!!!!
Q: (L) Well, I am not really in a position to spend that money right now! And what do you mean to “turn over stones and sell apples?”
A: Figures of speech! Do what you have to do … take care of the mechanics, my Dear, the rest will fall into place …
Q: (L) Well, I don’t know how we got off onto this thing about making money … what is all of this making of money supposed to do for us? (S) Build the pool …
A: And other … […]
Q: (L) OK. What is going on with PZ … I am just completely baffled by this behavior …
A: She thinks you are “out to lunch.”
Q: (L) Well … why?
A: Her conditioning.
Q: (L) Well, she seems to be going down the tubes fast …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And there is nothing I can do about it … I feel sorry for her.
A: She hoped that you would be a money maker for her, and so, she put up with your “eccentricities … ”
Q: (L) Well, I sort of figured that out finally.
A: Beware! Tom French has a similar thought pattern!
Q: (L) I have been thinking that I ought to write to Tom and ask him to just write me out of the whole project …
A: Suggest you not waste “time” on your suggestion, and make certain it includes all others.
Q: (L) What suggestion? Suggest that I not waste time in contacting Tom?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Then I will just e-mail him …
A: And.
Q: (L) What do you mean by “include all others?”
A: Who else has Tom French met through you?
Obviously, the Universe had other plans. We notice that the Cs sent an urgent message in the midst of Frank’s favorite subject: stock market investing which he firmly believed would make him rich if he could only get his hands on some money to invest with. The Cs said: “Laura! Turn over stones, sell apples, do whatever you have to do to get your computer refitted to accommodate the Internet, including the online market system, as soon as absolutely possible!!!!!! … Do what you have to do … take care of the mechanics, my Dear, the rest will fall into place …”
Well, since Frank was so taken with the idea of the stock market and being in control of an investment portfolio in real time via the Internet, he persuaded S** to pay for the computer upgrade that made it possible for me to do more than just run a mail program. So we see how the Cs utilized Frank’s greed and semantic aphasia to get me online which enabled Ark and me to connect exactly 40 days later.
The initial interaction with Ark was similar in some ways to the interaction with Frank’s dad – it opened a huge door in my psyche, and again I began to remember. But it was quite different in flavor, texture and context. All of the memories of lifetimes with Ark centered around the efforts of outside agents to separate us from each other, to make us suffer for our attempts to be together, and repeating scenarios of being horribly and brutally killed for seeking to work together for the betterment and freedom of others. Hopefully, such lessons will help us to avoid similar traps in this life, though it will become clear that the same types of forces have been activated against us.
There was a strange byproduct of this remembering and integration: I began to cry on that first day of the connection with Ark, and cried almost daily for the next year and a half. It was as though an ocean of grief was locked up inside and every single instance of suffering had to be re-experienced and fully mourned in order to integrate it. As a person who seldom cried, who had always had some measure of control over emotions, this inability to stop this flow of soul-deep grief was disconcerting to say the least. But there was another interesting side-effect of this releasing of the waters of life in such copious production of tears: my eyes began to heal.
But I wasn’t the only one who was “remembering.” This “superhypnotherapist” action of the awakened superconsciousness had also apparently been activated for Ark as well. I am going to skip all the strange instances where this sort of thing manifested with each of us, simultaneously, on opposite sides of the Atlantic for the present. Suffice it to say that these incidents included visions, bilocation, synchronized dreams; effectively, so much strange activation of the inner psyche that Ark once wrote that if we hadn’t lived through these experiences, and someone else had recounted them, we wouldn’t have believed it.
Ark’s physical presence was also obviously very important in the unlocking-of-secrets process. And it wasn’t just the dreams that were stimulated, and the way he was able to assist me in bringing information up, it was also his uncanny ability to select books he thought I might be interested in reading. One of the very first he bought for me contained the key to the “3/5 code” that the Cassiopaeans had brought up on 11-11-95 in response to my questions about the true esoteric significance of the number 33. This book, John Gribbin’s In Search of the Double Helix, about the interface between quantum physics and genetics, actually had a sufficient number of code words given by the Cs that my hair stood up while I was reading it!
When we noticed the strange upsurge in visitors to our little site on the day before the Hale Bopp suicides, and found that one of the repeat visitors was an organization that did genetics research, and the later discovery of the same site while doing the web search on the word “Brana,” we really began to get the idea that the Universe was pointing us in the direction of some deep research into genetics.
So it was that the period of research in Gainesville, and Ark’s presence had opened a huge door and I could barely keep up with the flow of ideas and information that flooded into me. The “Three Dominoes Dream” led to a startling series of discoveries which I have yet to chronicle, though much of the information is included in Secret History, even if without the background of how the Cs gave the hints that I followed, and when I hit a snag, how they would offer a couple more hints that would clarify the sticking point.
Reading the transcripts directly you may be able to see some of these things from an external point of view, but without this background, you can have very little idea of what is behind the questions, or what was discovered between sessions. It is rather like watching a person who is reading hundreds of books from a distance. You can see them devouring the material on the page, and once in awhile they will talk about one or another point that they are reading, but for the most part, the drama between the reader and the book is inaccessible.
It is, of course, possible for an individual who is reading to attempt to follow the same pathway, and make the same discoveries, but not terribly likely. Because, in point of fact, many of the keys were provided by Ark who now made books and journals and papers available to me in unlimited supply. As he worked through the summer in the universities in Bielefeld, at Dijon, Gottingen, and Florence, it seemed that he was always ideally situated to search the libraries for exactly what I needed when a question arose. The synchronicities between his discoveries as he searched for clues, and my own activity thousands of miles away, aren’t always recorded in the transcripts, but are preserved in a series of email exchanges and letters that amount, at the present time, to somewhere around three thousand pages of material that we hope to arrange, edit, and publish at the proper time. This material, correlated to the transcripts is an incredible document of confirmation of not only the clues themselves, but the wisdom of giving the clues as they were delivered: in code.
In some instances, these clues consisted of the use of specific words or phrases that were part of a private discussion between Ark and myself, wherein a certain meaning had already been explored and established, and the Cs would either confirm or expand that meaning by their comments which could seem, to the outside viewer, to be either meaningless, excessively cryptic, or even construed to mean something else. The Cs made it very clear that they used words in a certain way, and that they put in quotes the words that it would help us to further examine. I have an entire notebook full of these word clues and my research findings.
But this story is about the Matrix dynamics, and not the research itself, so except for those issues that will be important in this recapitulation, I won’t go into extensive detail on all of the work we were doing. Suffice it to say, while Ark and I were working on gathering the clues pretty much every day, all day, for the next few years, Frank was merely showing up about once a week for a session, and generally managed to do as little as possible even when I repeatedly asked him for assistance. On one occasion I handed him a printed copy of the transcripts and asked him to just go over it in his spare time and highlight or circle the spelling or typographical errors so that I could go in and correct them. He wouldn’t even do that. So, because of the fact that Frank never participated in any research, any of the work of the mission, he was completely in the dark when the Cs communicated and remains so to this day.
Semiotics is the study of language or any other symbol system that conveys meaning. The Bible tells us that God spoke before all things, and in this way he created both heaven and earth. It was from the Divine Word that the Cosmos came into being.
One of the great themes of esoterica is that of the alphabet giver and namer of things. Adam is, of course, the one we think of when we think of the giving of names to things. In terms of the study of semiotics, the question is: did he name things based on what they were, in essence, or did he simply create a convention, and arbitrarily name them whatever appealed to him?
This is an important issue because conveying things in language is very much like the game in which one person whispers something to another, and on down a line of people, and at the end, the last person announces what was said, and it often bears no relationship whatsoever to the original statement. Being able to communicate the true meaning of something is of paramount importance not only in terms of the thing being said remaining as clear and undefiled as possible, but also in terms of the rapport between the speaker and the listener.
According to the Pythagoreans, the true language was mathematics, and sounds were simply a transformation of mathematical principles into an exchange medium. In this sense, the sound vibration of a word had a mathematical nature that could convey something much higher than just the ordinary understanding of the world as it applied to objects in our reality.
But this leads to a problem because there are many languages, and they utilize sounds in different ways, which then leads to the question of which language is the one that truly conveys the deepest, or widest meaning of a word?
The theories of semiotics propose that there are two levels, or planes of articulation. At the level of any given language, such as Greek, English, Chinese, or whatever, there is what they call the expression plane that consists of a lexicon, a phonology and syntax. In other words, the expression plane is the selection of words that belong to that language, the sounds that the selection of words produce, and the way they are arranged to convey meaning. That is the first plane. The second plane is called the content plane. This is the array of concepts that the language is capable of expressing. This last is rather important because, as we have all heard at least once in our lives, Eskimos have many words for snow while people who do not live in an environment where snow and ice are the dominant features, may only have one or two words for these phenomena.
So it is that the content plane of a language becomes crucial to what can be discussed in that language. Whatever a group of people experience the most becomes part of their awareness, and thus the content plane of their language is accordingly modified. In order for the sounds of speech to be meaningful, the words formed out of these sounds must have a meaning associated with them. In other words, the sounds relate to the content.
This brings us back to the example of the sea slug in which a kind of associative learning could take place when a mild shock was delivered with the puff of water. The slug learned to associate the puff with the shock and when the puff came alone, the slug withdrew. For the slug, the semiotic content of the puff of water was pain. Words are similarly learned. And, as we have also discussed, the pyramidal neurons in the Ammon’s horn gather the input of other sensory neurons and fire if two separate inputs arrive at the same time. Once fired, it is easier to fire by one of the two inputs that originally fired it, but not by another input. In this way, we also learn the meanings of words; we establish the content continuum of our understanding.
The content continuum represents the Universe or reality to which our words relate as we are capable of conceiving it. Thinking about this factor, we begin to get a glimmer of the idea that our ability to associate words, to derive deeper and broader or multilevel meaning from them in our process of understanding, is directly related to how we, ourselves, interact with the cosmos.
The words we use, individually and collectively, and the way we use them, are very deep clues to our perspective and comprehension of the Universe. Our words and the way we use them reveal the totality of our experiences – mental and physical and emotional – our sensations, perceptions, abstractions and so forth. Keeping in mind, of course, that no purely verbal system ever achieves total communication, how do you express in words the scent of a rose? We are always required to supplement words with helpers, which may include expressive gestures, or even producing a metaphoric example, or finding a basis of comparison to convey meaning. Nevertheless, in our reality, language and words are clearly divine, and are the rungs on which we may climb to the Stars.
As noted in the example of Eskimos and snow, there are experiences recognized by other cultures and capable of being expressed in their languages, which we neither recognize nor can we express. The same problem poses an even greater difficulty when we consider realms of pure thought, or the hyperdimensional reality in which our reality is embedded. In dreams we revert to using words in the universal language, a content continuum wherein the sound is still connected to the object it designates. This is a clue to the phonetic cabala, of which Fulcanelli speaks. This is also the language into which I was initiated by the Cassiopaeans.
As the Cs dropped word clues and encouraged me to search for the mosaic meaning, I discovered many amazing things. At one point, I stumbled on a little book by a gentleman named Abraham Abehsera. He points out that there seem to be two universal dictionaries in which words from all languages are grouped according to their meanings (synonyms) and sounds (homonyms). That is to say, whenever the same or a similar sound is given to different objects in two or more languages, a precise relationship between these objects is being indicated by the Universal language. He theorized that the sum total of languages forms a puzzle in which the image – the true meaning – may only be recovered through reassembling words having the same sound.
The fact that in English, for instance, morning and mourning have the same sound could have been just a coincidence. When German and English both reproduce this coincidence by using the same sound to say morgen (morning) and morgue (chamber where the dead are laid), Hebrew the same group of consonants BQR, to say morning and tomb, and Chinese the same syllable mu, to say evening and tomb, we may legitimately ask what lies behind this repetition. What have morning and evening time to do with mourning, tomb and morgue? (Abehsera 1991)
Abehsera then establishes a mathematical model for comparing words, or a “four language unit” that suggests a deep common experience between a certain period of time and death-related themes. And, as it happens, hundreds of other sound-relationships develop these themes, such as dream and drama, traum (German for dream), trauma, bed, bad, mita in Hebrew which means both death and bed, and so on. Words then become the mode of access to the right half of our brain as opposed to the flat and precise use of words typical of the left brain. Speech can then become a synthesis of the “universal content continuum” by a study of the “expression plane.”
There are, of course, many so-called “one-way words” that may seem to be sharply defined, and necessarily so for the purpose of describing events in our world. But when dealing with what are called “state vectors” in physics, or all possible events given a certain set of parameters, the phonetic cabala is a similar state vector to thinking multi-dimensionally. Like pieces of a puzzle, words have been inextricably interwoven into our reality since the dawn of human history. To find the living unity behind language, without negating diversity, is like assembling a body with all its different parts, each of which does different things, and without one of which, the body would be lacking. The greater the number of words for any given object, the more precise a definition can be made about it in terms of the content continuum. If there are a thousand ways to say apple, by knowing all the associations, we can access that higher realm of thought from whence the idea of an apple has a deeper meaning for man. In this sense, all languages are necessary because they are all complementary. They all tell us about the extraordinary wealth and diversity and limitless possibilities of the Universe in which we exist. What is more, such study of words enables us to interact dynamically with the surrounding reality itself. Word studies develop hyperdimensional awareness which binds us to higher realities.
For the reader to simply read the Cassiopaean Transcripts and to assume that they have received the information that was intended to be conveyed; to read any part of it and assume that one has a grasp of a principle, or that it means this or that in a one-way sort of context, is to miss the important process. The process of initiation consisted, in part, of the encouragement of the creation of a far vaster system of associations than normally prevails, most especially among those who have followed rigid scholastic or ritualized programs. By expanding the associative memory, the very practical result is that synaptic relationships are created in the Ammon’s Horn, and they are sensitized to perceive the reality in a multidimensional way. At another level, expanding the associations of things that occur together in time, with other things that do likewise, the perception of time changes fundamentally. And we begin to realize why the alchemist Fulcanelli insisted that word studies were the key to unlocking the great secrets.
June 21, 1997
Q: Well, I think that a huge key is in the tracking of the languages …
A: The roots of all languages are identical …
Q: What do you mean?
A: Your origin.
Q: You mean Atlantis?
A: Is that your origin?
Q: You mean Orion?
A: Interesting the word root similarity, yes?
Q: Well, the word root similarities of a lot of things are very interesting! It is amazing the things I have discovered by tracking word roots …
A: The architects of your languages left clues aplenty.
It was from these word studies as well as the above remark that I began to realize that the process of expanding associations of words was literally the process of learning the higher-density language. And it most certainly was not, as some suppose, a process of memetics or “deriving new meanings” from word associations. Oh no! It was the process of assembling words into mosaic structures through which the mind could access the original meaning that was inherent in the structure. It was a process of restoration of the original language of supernatural wisdom that was present in mankind before the Fall. Studying words and myths is a process of archaeologically excavating a marvelously ancient, prehistoric, almost extinct parent language – the language of the gods.
This process began when Ark arrived. It received a major jump start with the “Three Dominoes” dream. And the dreams continued to bring up the keys. On the night of April 15-16, eight days after Ark had returned to Poland, I had a dream. I wrote as soon as I awakened:
Date sent: Wed, 16 Apr 97 16:07:47
To: ajad@physik….”
Had a dream about the Frankenstein monster as depicted on the funny movie … he was drinking whiskey and mowing the grass!!!! It was funny! And when he was done, he hid his whiskey bottle next to another bottle, on a ledge over a window under the eaves of the roof of a bank!!! He told me “I hide it in plain view so no one will find it. This way, after many centuries, I will return and retrieve it.”
The reference to the funny movie we had watched just before Ark had left was Young Frankenstein, one of my favorites. The symbolism of Frankenstein was almost transparent: putting a body together from different parts, reassembling clues. And as we began to assemble the clues, the forces of the Matrix heaved into action like a great juggernaut of destruction. My book Secret History contains the results of putting together these clues. Here’s what I wrote Ark at the time:
Date sent: Thu, 24 Apr 97 06:39:36
[…] Perseus was the slayer of Medusa … and Medusa was mentioned by Cs in the 11-11-95 session about prime numbers and the phi and 3-5 sequence.
Not only that, but Perseus was the son of Zeus and Danae … And it was while watching the Perseid meteor shower that the UFO came over the pool … And Perseus married Andromeda, the daughter of Cassiopaea, after rescuing her from a SEA monster …
And this brings me around to my funny Frankenstein dream that is having so much meaning in the past week or so. He was mowing. i.e. mowing down opposition. Making a “level playing field. “And he was drinking whiskey while he was doing it. And telling me that this was the special fuel that made him able to mow in such a powerful way. That fuel was needed for him as much as for the mower itself.
Okay, then he put the still over half-full bottle away on the ledge over a window, next to a bottle of vodka, and indicated with a big smile that he was putting it there so he could get it when he “came back to mow again.” It was implied that it would be safe and no one would know it was there…. because it was hidden so obviously in the open. And the building that the window was in, the ledge was on, was a bank. And I understood that the period of time was very long and this coming back meant reincarnation and the two liquids were meant to be poured together…
Okay, a few days ago I described money in terms of energy, so that was already in my mind when I had the dream. Whiskey is a Scots-Irish invention, and Vodka is Russian.
The Caucasus Mountains are in Russia. This is considered to be the origin of the Celts. The two places where the Celtic influence was, and may be still, archaeologically strongest were along the Baltic coast and in the Wales…
So, the sources of “life” and “power for mowing” are symbolized by these two items. These two places are represented by these two bottles of liquor. What is liquor often called? Aqua Vitae.
And, that they are stored “in the open,” in plain view, which makes them obscure means what? “The secret is hid in plain sight.”
And why the bank? Well, it was implied in the dream that the bank was a Swiss one. They are considered to be the “bankers of the world.”
And, Switzerland is one of the areas were the Celts developed in Europe for a long time before they began to move outward. They cremated their dead, which was VERY different. They did not believe in the resurrection of the already used body, they believed in getting a new one via reincarnation. This was a far more elegant and abstract idea than any ever held by the Egyptians.
But, the liquor was different from the money in energy terms. What was in the bank was money. It may have just been to symbolize Switzerland, or it may have another meaning having to do with money. But what?
So, trying to understand if there is more to this dream is presently on my mind.
In addition, I think this relates to the issue of prime numbers, “dwellings” of the mystics, primeco, prime rib and primary elections. It has to do with the DNA because that is the “dwelling” of the soul. The more DNA a person has activated, the more of the soul energy is available. The “cellular phone company” refers to the neuron transmission modes and the “orgone” energy and the positive states as we have already discussed. So, the “dwelling” relates to the idea that the neurons are activated in the correct way, which is interrelated with the activation of the DNA, which then causes the suppressor genes to “unplug” because there is “communication” at the “cellular” level. This communication, this neuron stimulation that is similar to “voting,” this activation of DNA then activates “power” centers which are available to those with the proper genes to have them.
The 3-5 sequence was a “marker” for recognition as was the phi spiral… and there may yet be MORE to these. But, the phi spiral may also be related to the double helix configuration of the DNA… the clue about phosphorous was related to the phosphate chain which is the 3-5 sequence.
And, the remark that too much phosphorous could make a person “spontaneously combust” would mean that the person had become super-conducting … So, we can think that a certain amount of additional phosphorous might be useful.
And then we have the Percy-Perseus connection and something else that I thought of…
Did you know that a fellow named Nicolas Poussin painted a famous picture entitled “Et in Arcadia Ego?” I was giving it a lot of thought when you first wrote, which is why it seemed so strange that your name is Arkadia. […]
On May 1st, 1997, I wrote to Ark:
Date sent: Thu, 01 May 97 06:41:19
On the way home, I had a thought…. I was thinking about the 98% of DNA that isn’t used. Then I was thinking about the fact that the pancreas completely replaces itself every 24 hours. And the lining of the stomach every 8 hours or so… And, every cell has the exact same set of DNA as every other one… But, each one replicates only it’s own kind of cell….
Now, the C’s have said that the 4th density STS wanted to create a “breeding ground” for the reintroduction of the Nephilim. And that a special gene was introduced into the Jews, starting with a “symbolic” Abraham who was told he would be the “father of many nations.” The idea being that the Jews were supposed to mix with the other races because they carried a gene that prevented absorption of the Nephilim genes.
But, the bad guys came along and twisted this “specialness” of the Jews around and used it to convince them that they should keep their genes to themselves… made them feel “exclusive.” Old Yahweh and Jehovah were probably 4th density STS guys.
So, the bad guys try throughout history to eliminate the Jews. Hitler almost does it, and even starts the project for the STS in a big way. The “Master Race.”
So, here we are… they failed with Hitler… to create the “breeding ground” for the Nephilim. So, they have become more subversive…moving back and forth in time, and perhaps even manipulating it to some extent, they have created “bloodlines” so that a LOT of people are carrying these Nephilim genes.
Now, what turns on genes and turns them off? Neurotransmitters and hormones and maybe other factors.
What stimulates hormones?
It has been demonstrated that hormones can be stimulated by “frequencies,” particularly ELF. (The Navy did some strange tests that I read about.)
With the right hormone, thinking runs amok – and then there are combinations of hormones or neurotransmitters.
Okay, what if people get abducted to implant a device that will pick up a signal and stimulate production of a specific hormone? Or a thought pattern? Or, what if genes themselves respond to frequency?
Now, this is being done by getting a LOT of people to turn their free will over, thinking they are going to get saved. Through deception etc… But, on the other hand, those who turn over their free will are simply at that point where that is what they do. Eventually they will decide they don’t like it or they will contract completely for a long time until they have had enough of that… then they will start to grow.
Now, we also have been told that the 4th density STS also want new bodies for themselves because theirs no longer satisfy them. And that they want to lock the earth into 3rd density where it is easier to control… because on 4th density, it is a “level playing field…”
But, as we well know, STS simply do not see anything that they do not wish to see.
So, they are merrily abducting and implanting, the plan being to TURN ON THE NEPHILIM GENES at a certain point.
What if HAARP is being built for this purpose?
Just imagine …. 98% vs 2%. Who knows what that 98% could do. Especially if there is no Jewish suppressor gene.
Okay, genes can be turned on and off in other ways too, via freewill. And the energies of the coming wave can be utilized in a POSITIVE way also. The good guys can transform also. The only thing is, they have to do it themselves. (With help that is ASKED for…) And, it would certainly help to have the Jewish gene….
So, this is what I thought, going back to the idea that the pancreas can replace itself every 24 hours and the lining of the stomach completely replaces itself about every 8 hours – what IF a signal is broadcast that turns on a “master gene” which begins a “transformation” process that is quite literally similar to the transformation of a man into a werewolf in the movies? In other words, what if literal, material transformation of the physical body in terms of just everything about the body, could be coded into the DNA??? If the stomach lining can replace itself every eight hours, if the pancreas can replace itself every 24 hours, considering the 98 percent of DNA that we don’t know anything about at all, there is NO REASON that an entire human body could not be drastically changed in fundamental ways in a period of hours, or days at most!
Well, of course, when that thought occurred to me, I nearly had a heart attack!!
But it also means that it is possible for the “good guys” to transform also!
[…]
But, there is a LOT of evidence and stories referring to a central mystery, and to specifics like severed heads, talking heads and skulls, blood as a substance and a symbol, alchemical wonders and, most importantly, some sort of super-secret group of elders or initiates that guide the destiny of the planet. This central mystery is a LOT older than the Christ legend, because the stories in the Gospels were merely the Osirian legends with the names changed just as the Grail stories were built upon the foundation of Bran the Blessed.
Then there is the claim of Lincoln et al claim that there is a secret order that predates other secret orders […] ITS DECLARED OBJECTIVE IS TO GUARD THE LINEAL DESCENDANTS OF CHRIST.
Which may not be too far off… It just isn’t who they think it is, and the Priory of Sion is a red herring.
From the Cassiopaeans: Oct. 5, 1994
Q: Did Jesus have children?
A: Yes.
Q: How many?
A: Three.
Q: Is that, as some people claim, the true meaning of the search for the Holy Grail, that it is not a cup, but the Sang Real, or holy blood line?
A: Yes.
Q: Are there any descendants of Jesus living today?
A: 364, 142Oct. 16, 1994
Q: I would like to know the origin of the Freemasons?
A: The “Osirians.
Q: Can you tell us when the original freemasons formed as a society?
A: 5633 B.C.
Q: Is Freemasonry, as it is practiced today, the same as then?
A: 33rd degree, yes.
Q: Is this an organization with a plan to take over and rule the world via the “New World Order?”
A: Not exactly.
Q: What is their focus?
A: They are overseers.
Q: Overseers of what?
A: The Status of Quorum.
Q: What is the Quorum?
A: Deeper knowledge organization. Totally secret to your kind as of yet. This is very important with regard to your future.
Q: In what way?
A: Changes.
Q: Changes to us personally?
A: Partly. Earth Changes also.
Q: What is the relationship between the Quorum and the Cassiopaeans?
A: They communicate with us regularly. […]And then, of course, there were a LOT of other clues that simply blew my mind. But, I will have to do a LOT more work to get it organized so that they can be read sequentially.
What do you think? It is a crazy idea, but it all fits. Itis the most mind boggling series of connections imaginable.
After I had this thought about “turning on” the Nephilim genes, I started to wonder exactly what that would mean… And, by the same token, what would it mean if WE could turn on some specific HELPFUL genes???
So, I think I have found Medusa. Only now we have to figure out how to cut off her head!!!!
From the time Ark came in February of 1997, the session frequency was greatly reduced. There were several reasons for this. One of the first reasons was the fact that the Cs themselves suggested numerous times that I ought to read what had already been delivered already more carefully, contemplate, study and research on my own. As the research progressed, I began to perceive things differently. One of the things I perceived was exactly what they suggested: that I needed to do much more work on my own.
Another factor was that Terry and Jan were becoming quite irritated with Frank’s arrogance, control games, and manipulation. Terry kept telling me that Frank was not the channel, and he wanted to experiment without Frank. I couldn’t bring myself to agree which probably made the two of them irritated with me. I was having some cognitive dissonance of major proportions about this because on the one hand, I was committed to helping Frank, but on the other hand, I couldn’t deny my observations. I flipped and flopped on this issue like a fish on the dock.
Terry and Jan were excusing themselves from many sessions, and I was spending a lot of time doing research and keeping up with Ark’s travels. Frank, meanwhile, was complaining all the time that he was sick or tired from the rigors of his telemarketing job. I certainly had a lot of sympathy because that kind of work is soul killing.
At several points Ark and I offered our support to Frank if he would go back to college to get his degree. He was such a gifted mimic and “incidental linguist” that we were sure that he could have a great career as a professional linguist or translator. Frank flatly refused. He was not going to be embarrassed by going to college at his age!
Meanwhile, Frank began to play some heavy duty games with me. Because of the time difference between the U.S. and Europe, I wanted to adjust my schedule so as to be up and about during the times of the day when Ark and I could communicate either by email or phone. Frank seemed to be equally determined that I should operate on his schedule. He started pushing the envelope on this issue, arriving later and later on the nights we had sessions, making it impossible for us to get started at a reasonable hour so that I could get to bed and be up in time for a few hours with Ark. On a few occasions, I simply announced when he arrived that it was too late to have a session, we would chat for a short time, and then seeing that I really meant it, he would yawn and go home. I noticed that my energy was increasing and Frank’s was diminishing. He was also showing serious signs of jealousy that there were things I shared with Ark that I did not share with him. He would periodically try to plant seeds of dissent by suggesting I was being “controlled” by Ark, simply because I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible – considering the fact that it was so little, and he was so far away.
All of these confusing issues brought me back to the subject of just how our interactions with others might make us vulnerable to attack. What was the significance of agents and moles and who might be the mole in the group, and did it even matter? At one point, V** had been pronounced to be a mole. At another point, several other individuals whom Frank didn’t like were also pronounced to be moles. Just who was on first here? I needed to know! A visit from my brother gave me the opportunity I needed to ask these questions. We discussed the matter and agreed before Frank arrived that we would use my brother’s situation as the question model. He did, indeed, want information about his own concerns, but we agreed that I could slip in a question or two about Frank. But before we moved to that issue, I wanted to cover the issue of monitoring and energy exchange in a more open way to see what would come out.
May 3, 1997
Q: I have quite a number of questions this evening. The first one is: is it possible for a person to be used as a monitor, to monitor other people’s activities through their eyes and ears?
A: Possible, but hardly necessary.
Q: You once said that PZ was like a monitor, that wherever she went, she monitored aural frequencies for whoever had put the implant into her. Was this an unusual situation?
A: Most likely.
Q: Last week we did not have a session, but went through the notes I have been making since I was in Gainesville. Frank became very tired and went home. I was not tired. Usually, Frank is not tired, and I am the one that is exhausted. I would like to ask about this. Is there some sort of energy exchange that takes place during channeling?
A: Not in that way.
Q: Well, both Terry and Jan commented on this, and I would like to know if there is any relationship of this reversal to the fact that we did not do a session?
A: Terry and Jan’s comments in this case should be viewed with caution, as they may be nebulous in their intent.
Q: When you say nebulous … my perception was that they wanted to develop a separate channel, as before.
A: They wanted to pursue their own idea of casting doubts upon Frank.
Q: Well, not only was that going on, but I was sharing the information that I had gathered in response to clues given in the material, and I had the impression that it was not interesting to them. Yet, I thought that the fact that clues in the material had led to such discoveries was extremely important …
A: Interesting to some includes only that which casts the spotlight upon themselves.
In this last question above, the term “them” was employed deliberately with the intent of inquiring about Frank, since, as it happens, it did not apply to Terry and Jan who were, in fact, most interested in the material. Frank, however, didn’t know that since he had left early and was not present for our later discussion. In this way, I was able to ask about Frank himself. Next, I began my approach to the question through the medium of asking about my brother.
Q: Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when Tom was also here, and the issue of his being in O’Brien was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there, then there was a remark about an EM vector. The way I understood it is that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?
A: Vector means focuser of direction.
Q: Could that mean that EM waves can be vectored by a human being simply by their presence? I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight!
Q: One of the things I have learned is that these individuals seem to attach via some sort of psychic hook that enters through our reactions of pity. Can you comment on the nature of pity?
A: Pity those who pity.
Q: But, the ones who are being pitied, who generate sensations of pity, do not really pity anybody but themselves.
A: Yes … ?
Q: Then, is it true as my son said, when you give pity, when you send love and light to those in darkness, or those who complain and want to be “saved” without effort on their own part, when you are kind in the face of abuse and manipulation, that you essentially are giving power to their further disintegration, or contraction into self-ishness? That you are powering their descent into STS?
A: You know the answer!
Q: Yes. I have seen it over and over again. Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.
Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?
A: What do you think?
Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.
A: Or, at least not the important things.
Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Is L a robot type?
A: You are dealing with a no-win situation!!
Q: It is a no win situation …
A: As you know.
Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?
A: Both. One is wrapped within the other.
Q: (L) Why is it that it seems to be one of the primary things about us that prevents us from acting against such situations, is our fear of hurting another person? That was the chief thing that kept me in my marriage for so long. And, only when I knew that it was hurting the kids more to stay, did I have the power to get out. Why are we so afraid of hurting someone’s feelings if they are hurting us?
A: Not correct concept. You do not need to “act against them,” you need to act in favor of your destiny.
Q: But, when you do that, these persons make you so completely miserable that there seems to be no other choice but a parting of the ways.
A: Yes, but that is not “acting against.” Quite the contrary. In fact, remember, it takes two to tango, and if you are both tangoing when the dance hall bursts into flames, you both get burned!!!
Q: Why is it that when one tries to extricate from such a “tango,” why is there is such violent resistance to letting you go when it is obvious, clearly obvious, that they do not have any feeling for you as a human being?
A: It is not “they.” We are talking about conduits of attack.
Q: What is it that makes them susceptible to becoming conduits of attack?
A: All STS are candidates for this. There are only about 6 billion of you though.
Q: OK, all people can be conduits of attack. (L) Would just coming down and working with us on Saturdays, on a regular basis, help him to get his concentration back?
A: Making the necessary changes would.
The intent of this last question was to determine if channeling with the group was actually something that was helping Frank. The answer was somewhat ambiguous to me. What did “making the necessary changes” mean? Even though the Cs were giving pretty definitive and clear answers that would have suggested to me that Frank was definitely running the program, the pity-me thing and all that, this last remark gave me the straw to hang onto, allowing me to convince myself that it was a simple matter of Frank making the necessary changes, that he would win that battle with the darkness, and everything would be fine.
Q: Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?
A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.
Q: Where does this energy drain to?
A: 4th-density STS.
Q: They drain our energy from us and fourth-density STS harvests it from them?
A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th-density STS does it all through them!
Q: (T) Well, I would like to know what is it in us that makes us attracted to such people.
A: It was the idea of 4th-density STS.
Q: That means that they can control your thoughts and emotions, put ideas into your head, and you think it is a good idea to “save” someone. You don’t know. It is taught in our religions and culture to give until it hurts, and, in fact, to give because it hurts. The whole situation is designed and controlled from another level. Any further comment on this subject?
A: Once you have truly learned the program, just plug it in.
Q: I guess once you have truly learned what is being said here, just plug it in …
A: No. We mean that all you have to do is learn the patterns of behavior, the subtle signs, and you will always have the ability of avoiding it. Your own as well as others.
Q: So, once you have learned the program from this person, you will be able to avoid getting into another, similar one. (T) But, I should have learned it from H. I did the same thing twice. (L) Well, when you are wounded, it is hard to see clearly.
A: The signs were present, but you did not read them.
Q: You ignored it.
A: No, he did not yet know the program. Anticipate not!
Q: I guess that means that when you are thinking that you can change another person, or that changing something about what you are doing naturally will help them, you are anticipating.
A: Or that it would be different than it turned out to be.
Of course, all of the above was again interpreted by me as justification to continue to work with Frank. Don’t even ask how I managed to distort it that way. I decided that since I was “learning the program” I could deal with it effectively. I could prevent Frank from draining my energy. Ark and I had discussed the growing problem with Frank’s jealousy, and he did not want me to do anything to rock the boat until he was back in the States. He was sure that we would be able to reassure Frank that he had a place in our lives and that we could all work together.
Q: (L to T) Well, you knew that there was a lot wrong in the beginning, but you thought that it would be different. [At this point, I shifted to another subject that was on my mind. Surprisingly, the Cs continued to relate it to the issue of “attack.”] Ark’s mother is sick. Will she be better soon?
A: Wait and see.
Q: He is carrying a very heavy burden just now, and I am concerned for him.
A: Does this surprise you? Unfortunately, Ark still does not completely know this program.
Q: Are you suggesting that this sickness of his mother’s has been caused from fourth-density STS?
A: Lesson number 1: Always expect attack. Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same. Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.
Q: When a person is sick, old and one’s mother … the only thing to do is take care of it. But, I guess that it is true that anything that tends to cause interference in doing what one is here to do could be considered attack. Whether it is your mother being sick, or your kid falling off a bicycle and breaking his arm. It is all related to lack of vigilance on the part of the one who is the conduit of attack?
A: When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems …
Q: So, if there is something that can cause problems, expect it to happen.
A: But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?
Q: Protects! Is there anything I can do to help?
A: How so?
Q: Well, I don’t know. I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet – no exceptions – is a symbol of some interaction of STS versus STO energy at higher levels.
A: Yes, and that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.
Q: Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third-density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends, virtually anybody – nobody is exempt.
A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively.
Q: Well, in Ark’s case, is something going to happen for him that will give him a view under the surface, so to speak?
A: Please do not anticipate. This is a logjam of “quantum” proportions.
Q: Well, I think he is cured of thinking that certain people can be helped.
A: But he is not cured of his lack of faith in the reality of non-physical attack.
Q: Speaking of non-physical attack, I went through some things this morning that were rather unpleasant. I later discovered that at the same time I was experiencing this, there was communication from the Brana woman. Is there a connection between his correspondence with her and my feeling that an elephant is sitting on my chest? When this happens, I actually feel like my spirit is being compressed in a painful way. Is there a relationship between this and the Brana person.
A: Maybe.
Q: Is there any relationship between the Brana correspondence and the fact that Jim also wrote to him and JW, the spook, called me today?
A: Maybe.
Q: Is there any relationship between all of these portals of attack, and the things I have been discovering in the past week or so?
A: Maybe.
Q: Can you tell me anything about this at all?
A: If it does not need to be answered, that may mean that it has already been answered, simply because, though you have much still to learn, you have learned so much already, my dear. And, on that note, goodnight.
As the reader now notes, the issue with Sue Brana continued to run in the background. In the above session, I was trying to deal strictly with the issue of draining of energy or vectoring of direction by an individual who was physically close to the target. But a vague idea that some sort of subtle filament-like threads of consciousness could be strung between individuals like a network, and that this could be used to drain energy, was forming in my mind. I had noticed that shortly before each incident when Ark wrote to me that he had received communication from several individuals, including Sue Brana, I would go through a peculiar experience of feeling compressed and short of breath and even somewhat confused. After several such experiences, I was prompted to ask the above questions about this.
As I thought about it more, and observed things, I realized that when two people have a strong psychic or psychological bond, whatever happens to one of them, affects the other. It may or may not be noticed, depending upon sensitivity. In these instances, I was definitely experiencing sensitivity to those things which drained Ark, even if he wasn’t paying a lot of attention to it.
I wrote to Ark and suggested that some of these people were like psychic vampires and that maybe he ought to just stop “dancing” with them since it seemed to be draining me. He thought I was being a little bit overreactive. But all I could go by was what I observed and felt and then the ongoing confirmation that something of this sort was going on. I began to realize that it was not just who you associate with that can make you vulnerable, but who your associates associate with also!
In any event, Ark decided to put my theory to the test and wrote to the individuals in such a way that the manipulations were blocked. This resulted in a strange phenomenon: no sooner had he attempted to “stop dancing” with them, than they began to try even more intensely to sustain contact! They refused to take “no” for an answer!
May 21, 1997
Q: I have a whole bunch of questions: First, in the past week, Dimi, Jim and SJB contacted Ark. I simultaneously had another of those experiences where I felt that an elephant was sitting on me, or compressing me. I have a theory that there is some sort of frequency wave that activates “agents” and their pre-implanted programs to contact their “target,” and that the frequency is what I perceive as the “compression.” Is this possible?
A: Yes. Notice how contact intensifies post put off?
Q: What? What is “post put off?”
A: After Ark delivered message indicating declining interest.
Q: Oh, I see. Is the sensation I experience strictly related to a frequency? I mean, I was thinking that I was having this feeling because force was being taken by them from me through his bond to me, that his response to them closed the circuit. Would I have suffered whether he responded or not?
A: Waves unify significant events.
Q: Well, what does that mean?
A: It is interrelated.
Q: Would a blank wall, termination of contact, minimize my suffering?
A: Only you can tell.
Q: Well, he knows who and what they are, and there is also the view that by continuing interaction, it prevents other portals from being opened. In other words, the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t know.
A: Oh yeah?!?
Q: So, this does not prevent others from coming along?
A: Unless one prevents fires by watching only the matches.
Q: What are the matches?
A: That is not the point. Does one prevent sinking just by looking out for icebergs?
Q: No, one steers away from them. Is that what you mean?
A: Oh … We see … Then you must mean by inference that the only cause of sinking is icebergs, yes??
Q: Oh. So, there is a lot more that can cause one to sink than icebergs. Well, I was just concerned about the fact that there has been repeated events of this kind. It seems that I get the horrible feeling of being compressed even before they contact him … and then it just snowballs. And, it always seems to come at about the time I have my period, when I am most vulnerable and least capable of coping with such things.
A: When your periods cease, the contacts will not. Yes.
Q: Yes to what?
A: It is soon now. […]
Q: OK, some time ago when I had the “Three Dominoes” dream, or experience, I asked you about this, and you said it was not an important dream. Yet, it led to an incredible series of discoveries. Why did you say it was not important?
A: What was important, the dream or the discoveries?
Q: Well, of course the discoveries … and there really were no dominoes … but it gave me a teensy idea that helped with all the rest … and one thing led to another to another …
A: Dream was not important until fulfilled.
The discoveries referred to above fill three notebooks with notes. It would take us too far from the present subject to detail them, but suffice it to say that using phonetic cabala (even if I didn’t know that this was what I was learning) was becoming second nature to me and as my awareness of the hyperdimensional reality expanded, I was just simply stunned at the connections I was seeing.
Q: Does it have anything to do with the Frankenstein dream, which seemed to contain all the basic elements of the following weeks’ discoveries. Does it have something to do with putting something in a particular place in one life to come back for it in another? Or, is it that all the clues …
A: You should know by now that all this will be revealed as appropriate.
Q: OK. Now, the 64,000 dollar question … tunnels, longitude of Oak Island, leading to Pointe Perce, Mont Blanc and the St. Bernard Tunnel, and St. Bernard wrote the rules for the Templars … and then, Tenerife, the Canaries and the latitude of 28:30 connected to the spider in the King James version of Proverbs 30:28 … and that leads directly to New Port Richey. Therefore, is there some connection between the location of this house and something on the Canary Islands?
A: You have made much progress, expect more, if vigilant and persistent!
Q: Well, you know I am that! Well, at the time the question was, “could the position of my house over a tunnel be detrimental?” And the answer was “yes.” Then, the question was “how?” which led to the answer “That is the 64,000 dollar question.” So, is there any further that I can have at this time?
A: Detrimental is subjective, according to unfolding events and choices.
Q: So, it was a question at that time, the big question as to what I was going to choose to do …
A: Close.
Q: At that time, it was also said that there was a vortex here that merges levels 1, 2, 3, and 4 with density 5. And, you said that the primary issue about this was “the physical imprint locator.” What is this?
A: Forces that tune and influence participants on the various above mentioned density levels.
Q: The other night, I guess at the time that the Jim, Dimi, and SJB thing was brewing, I had a terrible dream of a person trying to break into my house … that [my youngest daughter] had followed V** out, and I had to get her back, and this put me in danger … then, I was afraid that he was going to start trying to kill us while we were in the house by shooting through the walls. Ark, Frank and Tom did not seem to be quite as alarmed as I was … I woke up with my heart nearly beating out of my chest and covered with a cold sweat, and somewhat paralyzed. I recognize this sort of dream from before. Was it just a dream, a warning, a screen memory of some other event? It was very frightening.
A: Choose selection two above. Always be aware of your significance as the possessor and potential purveyor of unusually high level knowledge store. And, what that means to those who would prefer that it not be.
Q: Is there more I could do in terms of protecting my children? That is where I am most vulnerable and I am not sure that they understand the seriousness of the situation.
A: What do signs keep telling you? Who took what positions and behaviors in the dream? Well?
Q: Yes … I realize that it was because of going out to do something ordinary … not thinking … while Ark and Tom and Frank were distracted … and I was just concerned about [my daughter] …
A: And what role did V** play?
Q: I see. Like the Pied Piper?
A: Or maybe programmed decoy, due to FRV?
Q: What is FRV?
A: Frequency Resonance Vibration.
Q: Is there any danger to [my son and daughter] with these kids and church people they have been around the past few weeks?
A: What do you think?!? It is a vulnerable age for anyone, much moreso for the children of one on path to superconsciousness, and in contact with those who provide advice and data …
Q: Well, this church group makes me very uneasy. What can I say to them to make them understand how very vulnerable I am through them?
A: Tell them the truth as you would tell others, of more mature stature.
Q: Any other advice where they are concerned? This whole situation absolutely gives me the willies.
Regarding the above dream and the role played by V**, a very important thing to consider is the fact that, as I was learning to interpret my dreams, I discovered that, very often, when there is something I don’t want to look at, the characters playing the different roles are switched in my dream. I also frequently dreamed about a person who represents a type of individual rather than a specific person. This is what the Cs seemed to be indicating; that programmed decoys could lead the children into dangerous situations. As events were later to show, this was indeed the case here. My children were in greater danger than I ever could have imagined. But it wasn’t through V**.
Ark was also in danger. By this time he was at the Institute for Theoretical Physics, University of Göttingen. He had been assigned an office overlooking the Max Planck Institut Fôr Strömungsforschung (fluid dynamics). He was having a terrible time. No sooner would he sit down to work in his office than he would begin to feel absolutely drugged and unable to hold his eyes open or keep his head upright. His brain wouldn’t function, and he was desperate to get his work done. At one point, he decided to go to the basement library just to stretch his legs, and the instant he was in the basement, the sensation just “turned off.” He said it was the strangest thing he had experienced in a long time. It was so strange that he began to experiment and observe the effect. He would go in the office, sit down and wait for the sensation and notice how long it took to initiate. It was almost instantaneous. Then he experimented with going outside for a walk, and to the basement library. In the end, he just took his laptop to the basement and worked there. It seemed to be the only solution because he could not work in that office.
May 31, 1997
Q: Change gears: Ark has been having a problem sleeping at night and staying awake in the office. The building is a number 9, but there is also the Max Planck Institute across the street. Is it the number 9, or the Max Planck Institute across the street?
A: Well, we vote for Max!
Q: So, what are they doing over there in that building that is affecting him?
A: Better question: What are “they” doing on 4th density that is affecting him?
Q: Since that is a better question, what are they doing on fourth density that is affecting Ark?
A: Guess.
Q: Is he being abducted from this building?
A: No.
Q: Are they STS or STO?
A: STS.
Q: Are they zapping him with some kind of frequency modulation?
A: Close.
Q: Why is it more effective in that building than in the basement or at his hotel?
A: Because of Max.
Q: OK, they are using whatever is going on in that building to zap Ark. Anything else they are doing there?
A: Yes.
Q: Could you tell me what?
A: No.
Q: Is there anything else they are doing to Ark?
A: Yes.
Q: Can you tell me?
A: Body chemistry alteration.
Q: In what sense is there body chemistry alteration going on?
A: Brain wave factors.
Q: Is there something he can do for protection?
A: He soon will leave the area.
Q: Well, during the time he is there, how much damage can they do?
A: Probably not much.
Q: Is there any other step he can take other than going to the library or staying in his hotel?
A: Good idea!
Q: Anything else?
A: One shot of whiskey per day will help.
Q: Well, that is a bizarre thing to say! A shot of whiskey?! That will help his brain chemistry?
A: Some.
Q: What is this altering of his brain chemistry designed to do?
A: Befuddle.
Q: Well, I think it is working. Any other suggestion? Come on, we are you in the past! Help us out here!
A: Then you will know in the “future.”
Q: Well, then, since I know in the future, why don’t I tell me in the past anything else that will help besides staying in the hotel, or the basement, and drinking a shot of whiskey a day?
A: No need.
Q: And you are not going to tell us what they are doing over there in the Max Planck Institute?
A: As Carlos Allende would say: “If you knew, you would die of shock.”
Q: That is not friendly! I don’t want to know things that are not friendly. Now, you have got me so startled that I don’t even know if the path I am following in researching the history and the other things is even worthwhile or useful.
A: Oh, you bet it is!!!!!
As it turns out, they are doing a lot of curious things in that particular branch of the Max Planck outfit; very interesting work in such things as neural networks, self-organization of neural maps, signal processing, theoretical brain research, spatio-temporal dynamics in the cortex, analysis of neural activity patterns and time series, function of the visual and auditory systems and God only knows what else!
As soon as his work was done in Göttingen, Ark had to rush back to Poland for the divorce hearing described in Chapter 43. On the day of the hearing, he had to leave for Dijon.
Date: Tues, 17 Jun 97 19:43:48
From: “flato@u-bourgogne.fr”
Subject: via Belfort
To: “ajad@physik … ”
Dear Ark,
From Belfort you have, on the 19th: Belfort 17h00 –” (regular train) Besancon 18h06 (could be the same train which takes you to Belfort). then TGV (booking required; buy ticket in advance, possibly in Freiburg) Besancon 18h13 –” Dijon 19h06.
In Dijon you either take a cab or simpler BUS 9 to Campus. The stop is next to the cinemas which you see from the station (it is one end stop), avenue Foch. It costs 5.20 FFR single ticket, and buses run until 21h.
You have a room on Campus and we shall try to get the key in advance. When you arrive we should be in the middle of Reshetikhin’s talk in a room (normally first on your left in the corridor). Get in!
If you miss that connection there is a all-regular-train connection: Belfort 18h02 -” Besancon 19h14/19h30 -” Dijon 20h29. Then you should take a cab to the hotel where we shall have dinner (we should be there around 21h; ask for Flato’s table). It will presumably be restaurant Chateau Bourgogne in Hotel Mercure next to the Palais des Congres. I’ll try to let you know tomorrow.
Have a nice trip!
Since Ark was going to be with his longtime friend and colleague, Moshe Flato, I thought I could relax. But there was a problem. Ark wrote to me:
Date sent: Fri, 20 Jun 97 09:58:04
From: “ajad@physik”
It seems we will have communication problems here and I will not be able to connect with my notebook. But we will see.
These people here close everything on Saturday and Sunday. I do not know whether I will manage to get access to e-mail.
Yesterday there was a dinner – till 2AM, and it was in a VERY FANCY restaurant, 18 people, and Moshe was paying for ALL. Funny. I told him about you, about previous lives, mention of his name, and probable trouble in Israel. He is of course interested as to why his name was being mentioned. Well, I do not remember and did not yet find the file.
Typing this from secretary office computer, and these secretaries here do not speak English so everything is really funny.
Today 5:30 I have a seminar and in fact there are seminars all the day starting 10:30. Moshe and Daniel are normally in Paris and they are scheduled to be here just for two days a week, Thursdays and Fridays.
For us, in our situation, being out of communication was devastating. I suddenly became ill after Ark arrived in Dijon and the pool turned green again against all efforts to kill the algae. Ark wrote to me:
Date sent: Fri, 20 Jun 97 20:32:04
From: “ajad@physik”
Honey,
Seminar is over. It was OK. Now Moshe wants me to go with him to a Chinese restaurant. I will go. Will take care.
In general all is awful. I am sleeping in a room where the bed is awful. But we will manage.
With the green pool and you being sick … . indeed something is in the air. But we will manage as we did it before. YOU TAKE CARE AND I TAKE CARE. You watch and I watch. We keep 1000 eyes open.
WE WILL MAKE IT WORK!
Ark was able to work out the communication problems, though we didn’t have the access we would have liked. We had another session and I announced to the Cs that they had been named as co-respondents in a divorce trial. There was also the most interesting factor that, after Ark had told Sue Brana that he didn’t have time to waste discussing endlessly with her his ideas about crop circles, that he was paid for his time, she suddenly wanted to talk turkey.
June 21, 1997
Q: OK, well I guess you know that you have been named as a co-respondent in a divorce trial! I guess that is one claim to fame that was never expected!
A: Divorce is a concept long since conquered here, as you would measure time, that is.
Q: I was just teasing you! Now, let me get Ark’s questions first so that I am sure that they get done tonight. It seems that SJB has suddenly become willing to finance crop circle research after hearing a guy on the Art Bell show say that one was a “power plant” for a UFO.
A: Really?!? Then we suggest he write back and demand in writing that there be no “strings” attached, and gauge the response accordingly.
Well, we did. Or Ark did, that is. And of course, when he said that he would not do anything if she was going to breathe down his neck, the whole thing fell flat again. But I was curious about this strange business with Moshe in Dijon:
Q: Back in 1995 when we did a session with RC present, I was re-reading this yesterday because Ark is in Dijon where this guy Moshe is, and the night of that session was when I had the vision of his face, and also when I mentioned the dream where I was getting married and this was so bizarre an idea to me at that time. RC was focused on her agenda about female gods and the Elohim, and it seems that she simply shut off any ability for you to communicate to her at all. So, in re-reading this session, it seems that you were talking on a completely different level, to me alone, and that it was almost in code. She wanted to talk about the French Revolution, and you were talking about my past life in Germany … and now Ark is in France … and there was the vision … and that was when you brought up Moshe … and Moshe is in France … is there a connection?
A: Maybe.
Q: Am I correct that you were talking to me on a level that I was not even aware of at the time?
A: Could be!
Q: Can you help me out here? I would like to know about this Moshe thing. You not only brought up the name, but you brought up a lot of other things. And it seems that this was the opening of a door of moving me in a certain direction. I don’t even know how to ask about this because it is so strange …
A: Then it should be shelved.
Q: Is this one of those things you are going to avoid?
A: Alfalfa fields in Rhineland yield as of yet undreamed of treasures.
Q: Where are these alfalfa fields?
A: Near tracks well worn.
Q: Another clue, please?
A: Nope, that is enough for now!!
Q: You guys are gonna drive me crazy! Do you mean Rhineland as in Germany proper?
A: We do not mean Rhinelander, Wisconsin … Or do we?!? Who is to tell?
Q: Who?
A: The searcher, the sepulcher, the one who carries the staff in constant search for greener pastures.
Q: Oh my! You are being very obscure tonight! Just the fun things I like, too! Now, I think I will be pretty busy this week on this, but is there anything that can be expanded, or any additional clues for me or Ark?
A: Last clue for tonight: Look for the vibratory frequency light. Good Night.
Q: Good Night.
While many of these clues only made sense recently, and are more fully described in Secret History, at that time I was finding connections between certain place names, like the Weser River (wes being the Indo-European root of “well” and “worn”), Alfeld (i.e. Alfalfa field), Leiden (i.e. light frequency) and their geographic relation to other places according to latitude and longitude. While researching Alfalfa I discovered that growers can get plants to flower at the “wrong” time by adjusting how much light they received and how this may have parallels with humans in terms of genetics and spiritual development. I asked Ark what the Polish word for light was, and he told me that it was swiatlo, from the root swiat, meaning world or universe. The verb, to shine, comes from the same root, which is similar to swiety, meaning holy, saint, or endowed with light. Interestingly, on the same latitude as Leiden was Sweibodzin.
And so we were going along just happily sorting clues and looking for more when the warnings began to come. It turned unseasonably cold in Dijon, and there were thunderstorms here. Communication by Internet was up and down – mostly down. Then it began to rain in Dijon. All the while, Ark was computing, computing, computing.
To: Laura
Date sent: Fri, 27 Jun 1997 01:31:02
So I was trying to send you a message before going to dinner but network was dead. I was worrying if it will work again, but fortunately it does.
Before going out I talked to Moshe and he was funny … He wanted to know what and how Cs were talking and he was repeating that he is “open”. I checked with him that in September 95 he WAS in Israel!
Then I told him about A and the money and that I am looking for a job in Florida … He said that if we had been for some time in the same university we would do together great things, he said several nasty things about the spook in Wroclaw and then he went on that if I will need a recommendation he will write the best possible for me and not only that he will write it but also that he will give me a copy so that I can see if it is good enough.
Then there was restaurant and funny little things there. Again 17 people and Moshe paying for all. 8 Russians including two wives one daughter and an 11 years old daughter of a French guy from the faculty who divorced his Indian wife and has custody of the girl. The children were on and off Moshe’s lap and he was making faces at them and in general the children are loved by the faculty. So this was the story in short.
The weather is awful, it is raining and your honey is rather tired after getting up at six and having seminar and now it is rather late. And tomorrow (that is today) I will discuss with Moshe some physics …
To: Laura
Date sent: Wed, 2 Jul 1997 17:09:12
Okay, Computer works again …
Notice that there are long periods when everything works and THEN there are periods when ALL crashes … even if only for a while. So we are in such a period. I do not like this Dijon anyway. The frequent noise of jet planes does not act in a positive and constructive way on the nervous system. And the base is not far away, perhaps less than two miles.
I am now thinking ONLY about the fact that SOON we are leaving and we will be on the train and we will finally be able TO REST. I am utterly(?) tired.
I am packed and ready. I have some pain in the back since a few days and am in general feeling weaker than usual. Perhaps this is the “aspect”, perhaps it was simply TOO chilly. It will be all better in Florence. It is in fact all better now once we know in three hours we will be leaving this place. […]
And so it went. My mail program crashed, my server suddenly decided to start cutting me off in the middle of sending or receiving mail. We spent days trying to work out those problems so we could continue to communicate. The rain started again in Dijon, and the computer systems were down again and again. But between some few emails and phone calls, we managed and Ark survived the stresses of Dijon. Finally, he was in Florence again.
To: Ark
Date sent: Thu, 03 Jul 97 06:59:39
WELCOME TO FLORENCE!
I so hope that you are feeling better and that Florence works its magic!
But, if you are not feeling well, you need to tell me every little detail. And you must take care of yourself and get rest and exercise and eat properly. Hopefully, Marco will cook some more while you are there and you will have some pleasant “family” type meals in the basement as you did last time!
It is still VERY breezy at night … and I understand that a volcano has erupted in Mexico now, on top of the one that has erupted in the Caribbean (Montserrat.) So, things are happening and moving all over the place! It is certainly an interesting time to be alive! […]
To: Laura
Date sent: Thu, 3 Jul 1997 18:15:47
Although last week the weather was bad here, and it was raining all the night, today is a beautiful and sunny day.
Your HB is however somewhat tired after night on the train. Indeed there were three beds on each side … rather crowdy and I could not sleep well. But now I feel COMPLETELY different than in Dijon.
And now it is okay and alright and we have a VERY nice apartment, with two big beds … in the center of Florence and, well, quite expensive, five times the price in Dijon, but Dijon was VERY cheap. And Marco claims it is impossible to find something cheaper at this period in Florence. Well … it is only slightly more expensive than the Apartment in Gainesville.
Well, it is normal that people in Florence own several apartments and rent them. Not necessarily lawyers do that. It is a good way of investing money. Sure way. And you know these rooms are HUGE rooms with high ceilings.
There is a bus. But if I want to walk it is half an hour walk. Perhaps 300 yards from the station. I though perhaps you could come but then perhaps it would not be wise, we leave it for the next year. Marco wants very much me to come also next year.
And now I am sitting in the office and you know from the photo the view outside. The sky and the hills and the little tower with a bell….
Two days later, we discussed these events with the Cs:
July 5, 1997
Q: (L) This couple of weeks that Ark spent in Dijon were miserable. What was the fundamental reason for these conditions and this misery?
A: Near ELF transmitter. Also the water supply is loaded with fluoride.
Q: (L) OK, I did some research on the Emerald Tablets and discovered …
A: Is this all you want to know about this? We suppose if we told you “Laura, a great big rock is about to fall on your head,” then you would say: “okay, now moving right along, about the Emerald tablets … ”
Q: (L) Well, that was about Dijon. He is gone from Dijon now. Whatever it was in Gottingen, you said he would be gone soon and not to worry. So … he is no longer near the ELF transmitter … he is no longer drinking the water …
A: Fluoride is toxic, and deposits in fatty tissues, and lymph system. Aside from the obvious possible negative consequences, it can make one more susceptible to electromagnetic wave frequencies that are designed to make one open to mind alteration!
Q: (L) OK. You have my undivided attention. How does he get the fluoride out of his system?
A: Recommend daily ingestion of Goldenseal root, as well as vinegar and garlic in moderation, along with up to an hour per every two days of light aerobic exercise.
Q: (L) Would half an hour per day be alright?
A: One hour every other day. Light at first.
Q: (L) Well, this sounds serious. Anything else that will help?
A: This is a good start.
Q: (L) Well, now I am all upset.
A: Arkadiusz, or as we like to call him, Arkady, is the primary target of your trio, for now. Great potential dangers lurk …
Q: (L) So this really is like the Grail hunt. He has to go through a magic forest, chop heads off dragons, keep his eyes open and not be led astray by deceptive images and tricks … the whole thing!
A: Where to get the influence for the inspiration behind that story?
Q: (L) Are you asking me?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) I don’t know. What do you mean. Talk about confused thought patterns!
A: No, not so confusing.
Q: (L) Well, that leads to some of my other questions about what we are doing …
A: Imagine how much your cause would be damaged without him? Where would your ambition for the quest go? You must be extremely vigilant when it comes to him and his safety. He still does not completely fathom the depths of the situation. Until he is here, thus more protected, and it will not be easy to get him here, danger awaits the greeting of each new day. Vigilance! Vigilance! Vigilance!!!!!
Q: (L) That is completely depressing. Help me out here!
A: Now … Calm down! No need for depression. Would you rather be left with a lack of knowledge, and in an ever increasing state of false security oriented oblivion, only to be struck by lightning?!? Of course not!!! So remember … Knowledge protects, ignorance endangers!!
Q: (L) Well, you said that it was going to be difficult to get him here. The arrangements have already been made. Are you saying difficult in a general sense, or is there going to be some major move made, some plan going on at other levels, or behind the scenes, to prevent him?
A: There always is that. Have you not seen the evidence already? Must be aware. Think of it as a war. Expect every possible move/or occurrence. Victory comes from being forewarned, and therefore, forearmed.
Q: (L) Is that, as Frank said, the key? To turn up the vigilance volume to maximum?
A: Always. Don’t be like the sentry who fell into a peaceful, pleasure filled, dreamy sleep while on watch! He did not even feel the blade as it pierced his heart!
Q: (L) Well, that is not friendly. Now I really am depressed! Tell me: is what we are doing so important that this kind of energy has to be concentrated on us?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can we quit?
A: No. Too late! Look at it this way: make it your goal to succeed, then you have not to fear.
Q: (L) Is there any connection between the dangers of Dijon, the dangers now, and the interaction with Moshe?
A: Connection? Not exactly, except that Arkadiusz must be made aware that dangers lurk everywhere, potentially. He has spent a lifetime building a strong sense of security, based upon his own natural self assured state of being. But now is the “time” to learn that this is not enough.
Q: (L) Is there any specific danger in Florence that you can point out, or back in Wroclaw?
A: No specific dangers. Just remember: there are forces “out there” that wish to see your project, and you, fail. You two have both previously felt the sting of these forces acutely. He has not so much, until now.
Q: (L) I have the feeling that this has been a recurring drama in other lives, preparing us for this period?
A: Recurrences of this type are usually intermittent in nature.
Q: (L) Anything further on this?
A: We could go on and on. The point is: warn Arkadiusz! Knowledge protects …
They weren’t kidding. And the rain began to fall in earnest.
It is now time for a reality check.
I realize that I have been bringing up the idea of “semantic aphasia” somewhat often in this little recapitulation. There is a reason for this aside from the ordinary interpretation that deals with words and our ability to access realms of pure thought via the expansion of associations. It seems that this is a model for our reality as well. In the same way that we expand our awareness of thought realms by increasing our brain capacity by mosaic word associations, so may we increase our awareness of our “hard reality” by expanding our interpretative associations of events and relationships in our lives.
But is that healthy? Is it normal? Is it not, as some might suggest, pathological?
We know that our website and books are full of some of the most far out material imaginable. We admit it freely. We also admit that we don’t necessarily believe it. For us, it is an experiment, a working hypothesis to be tested and proven or falsified. Much of what we deal with here is in the realm of pure, speculative thought. As I have said again and again, I have never seen a “Lizzie,” nor any other kind of alien except in states of altered awareness such as hypnopompic and hypnagogic sleep states. I have seen our reality in a different way more or less spontaneously when a certain “state” has fallen upon me, but as is usual with me, I always want to consider any number of things as being possibly contributory, including blood sugar levels, brain chemistry, different stresses, and so on.
We also know that there are a lot of critics out there who stop in, read a few paragraphs, shake their head in dismay, and move on. Others, with agendas, stop long enough to write and tell us that if we don’t call on Jesus, we are going straight to Hell, without passing “Go” or collecting 200 bucks. Still others feel moved to write their own websites devoted to nasty or disparaging remarks about us, in particular, rather than producing any material or theories of their own which they can test. We find this to be a curious phenomenon, but one we certainly understand.
A lot of people draw lines in the sand of their minds and establish very early on what kinds of things they will or will not consider. We have done it ourselves. Not too long ago, proposing the idea of aliens as “real” in any sense was so far outside of our own reality that it wasn’t even within hailing distance. So we know how this works. Since we had decided, a priori, that such a thing was impossible, we simply never exerted any effort really looking into it, much less examining it in a systematic way. That door was firmly closed in our minds.
But it’s a curious thing, this Universe we live in. It seems that the doors we close in our minds leave other doors in our lives wide open – and things come through those doors that are not altogether friendly. Just as a particular definition or association of a word may be unknown to an individual, leaving a sort of blank spot in their mind – a point of ignorance which may one day cause them embarrassment if they are challenged in a situation where that particular definition is the right one – so it seems that such blank spots in our awareness of the possible associations of events in our reality leave us open to their effects on us without any ability to define or understand the real meaning.
I wrote Amazing Grace for the explicit purpose of describing my life during the many years when my definitions and associations of reality were strictly circumscribed by the “dictionary of life” I was using. When things happened in my life, they were ever and always interpreted by this “dictionary” written by Christianity, and the linear, uniformitarian view of the world. If the interpretation didn’t quite fit the event, the event was either distorted in my mind, parts of it covered up, shoved under the rug, or I just ignored it. I didn’t realize that whoever writes the dictionaries that we use to understand the events of our lives have written them with only one or two basic definitions, and have left out a whole host of associations or other definitions that more fully explain the word/event. In a sense, the dictionary we use to define our lives is like a children’s dictionary where the simplest and most juvenile definition is given. This leads us to interpret our lives and the world around us in a cosmically juvenile way. Even great scholars and “experts” of all kinds continue to use the juvenile version of the cosmic dictionary when it comes to defining and interpreting the facts of their lives and the “real world.”
When the average person puts on their power clothes and goes to the workplace, or puts on their Jerry Garcia tee shirt to settle down with a brewski for the big game, intimations of mortality or immortality are not allowed to intrude. Sure, everyone has a little “strange story” to tell maybe once in their life, maybe even an ghostly encounter, and it is always whispered in hushed or embarrassed tones if it is mentioned at all. The very idea that there are layers, or depth and breadth to our reality that may not be part of the dictionary we have been brought up to use is strictly hidden. Everyone has agreed to use the “juvenile dictionary,” and anybody who proposes to use one with more definitions, more semiotic content, is attacked.
Why?
Well, because our basic reality is defined by a juvenile dictionary, of course! That means that juvenile reactions are part of the “right” definitions. People who evaluate life based on this juvenile dictionary tend to feel overwhelmed by more semiotic content. It is too much for their brains, too much to think about, too much to handle, and they begin to feel oppressed by their awareness that there may, indeed, be more to the world than they supposed. This awareness of so much unknown territory makes the person who has circumscribed their reality into comfortable zones of what is or is not right and acceptable, feel a terrifying sense of vertigo, and they want, at all costs, to close that door of awareness. So, since they can’t destroy the universe that is, they seek to get their revenge against the symbolic target of awareness – the individual who has pointed out that there are other definitions and other dictionaries.
Most of ordinary humanity – the vast majority of people – use the juvenile dictionary. They have adopted, internalized, and made real this narrow view of the world, and woe to anyone who points out that there are other languages, there are other definitions, and there is a wider semiotic content plane. But what is important is that no one is born to be forever stuck in a circumscribed semiotic content plane. They are first taught, and then they actively choose to select what definitions of their experiences they will accept and which ones they will edit out.
Gurdjieff was right: People get out of life what they put into it.
Charles Fort, an obsessive collector of anomalous events, once remarked that the only conclusions he could draw from all his research, was that earth was owned by some beings who we could neither see nor comprehend. He said: “I think we’re property.”
Barbara Marciniak’s Pleiadians say, in Bringers of the Dawn:
During Earth’s early history, there were wars in space for ownership of this planet … Skirmishes took place, and Earth became a place of duality … When this skirmish occurred, a certain group of entities fought in space and won the territory of Earth. These new owners did not want the native Earth species – the humans – to be informed of what took place. Uninformed, the species would be easier to control. This is why light is information and darkness is lack of information …
These new owners who came here 300,000 years ago are the magnificent beings spoken of in your Bible, in the Babylonian and Sumerian tablets, and in texts all over the world … Who were these gods from ancient times? They were beings who were able to move reality and to command the spirits of nature to bend to their will … The creator gods who have been ruling this planet have the ability to become physical, though mostly they exist in other dimensions. They keep Earth in a certain vibrational frequency while they create emotional trauma to nourish themselves … In order to have you believe they were Gods with a big G, they rearranged you genetically … They can do many kinds of manipulations and work with realities in many different ways … Some of these creator gods married and merged their line … The creator gods would mix one kind with another to see what they could create. Remember, they understood genetics, and all things were created by manifesting and using the life force and understanding how the life force works …
Who are these beings … the Dark T-shirts? Be kind when you speak of the forces of darkness. Do not speak as if they are bad. Simply understand that they are uninformed, and they create systems that are uninformed because that is how they believe they must operate. They fought at one time and separated themselves from knowledge, so now they desperately hold onto their existing knowledge and onto life as they have evolved it into being. It is life based on fear, life that does not honor other life, life that uses other life. Who are these beings? They are the reptiles. These space beings are part human and part reptilian. We call them Lizzies because we like to make things a little less emotional and a little humorous so that you don’t take them so seriously and get so upset. (Marciniak, 1992)
The Cassiopaean perspective is slightly different from the Pleiadian perspective, even if there are many terms and concepts that are similar, if not identical. But what I notice particularly in retrospect is the development of the ideas of Quantum Metamorphosis, cyclical time, and other concepts that originated in my mind (from where?) back in 1985 and 1986. As it happens, these are ideas on the cutting edge of physics research. Unfortunately, what physicists think about and develop theoretically is often unavailable to the public for up to 50 years, if at all, so it is not difficult to understand why the material from the Cs is not comprehensible to users of the juvenile dictionary.
One correspondent wrote his objections to the alien reality in the following terms:
Have you ever considered how difficult it would be for an alien species to land here on earth? It is bad enough just traveling from the United States to a place like Bali. The immune system is under a constant attack unless one gets the proper shots and these usually don’t help. The immune system of any alien would be under attack almost immediately.
Now, from reading the above, we might have the idea that the writer is averse to spiritual realities. But, not at all! He is, however, trying to grasp spiritual realities in juvenile-dictionary terms. He writes further:
Consider this: How about the idea that it is impossible for a human or any organism to be far removed from its home planet for very long. The organism and the planet are in a symbiotic relationship with each other. When there is a separation they die. It is all a Disneyland show out there to make sure that you are not looking in the right place. That’s why the UFO’s show up where people can see them. This is not to say that all UFO’s are fake. Many are light bodies, the bodies of the luminous ones. One does not need a tin can to get around in time/space.
I certainly would have agreed with him at a certain point in time. As I gradually added more entries to my dictionary, my view expanded into what is called the paranormal. I was open minded enough to talk about ghosts and odd experiences, to study them, to consider them as part of the expanding content plane of the realms of thought I could inhabit. But that’s where I drew the line. “Realms of Thought.” That’s far enough, don’t go one step further; I have drawn the line here, and alien realities as real realities with some sort of concrete features, are on the other side of that line! We don’t need them for a good definition. We have enough with our ideas of observer created reality.
Such a view is the result of the millennia-old program that attempts to sharply divide matter from spirit, and denies any possibility of spiritualized matter, or para-physical realities, such as the alien reality undoubtedly presents. And, in this sense, traveling from distant star systems, aided by technology that is hardly distinguishable from magic to our human understanding, as well as existing in hyperdimensional space becomes not only possible, but altogether likely. Astronomer and UFO researcher Morris Jessup wrote about this problem in the following quotation:
Flying Saucers are not new! For thousands of years men have seen mysterious objects in the skies …
Probably the oldest, and almost surely the most prolific of sources bearing on wingless flight, are the records of the Indian and Tibetan monasteries. These in themselves are almost conclusive. Records of 15,000 years ago imply wingless flight at least 70,000 years prior to that. Add this to the recorded visit of a space fleet to the court of Thutmose III, approximately 1500 BC, and we are close to paralleling the sightings of today.
In many ways, the most intriguing data of all comes from the skeptical astronomers. Their observations do tend to be quantitative, timed, and documented. The astronomical data is more than merely qualitative. In other words, the astronomers themselves, being conscientious data hounds, were not content with merely seeing things move in space. Although unaware of the true nature of what they saw, they recorded as much as time and equipment would permit, and, as a result, they have enabled us to locate the habitat of the UFO’s.
It may be difficult to see the significance of antiquity in the consideration of space flight or space inhabitance. But failure to consider the sprawling background of the UFO problem is the greatest single factor in the appalling chaos which engulfs this enigma.
Take but one small item: the little piece of meteoric iron which was found deep within a tertiary coal bed. The locale and the finding are authentic. The shape is purely artificial. It is but an inch or so square, practically a cube. Four sides are squarely faced, and the other two are convexly shaped, with complete symmetry. Around the four surfaced sides runs a groove, geometrically contrived. Here are three established facts:
1. Placement in an incipient coal bed some 300,000 years ago.
2. Made of meteoric iron, identifiable by structure and chemical content.
3. Clearly shaped by artificial means.
The number of explanations as to how it got into that coal bed may be few or several, but there is one underlying fact which cannot be scoffed into oblivion: This piece of natural steel was shaped by an intelligent instrumentation at least 300,000 years ago!
We can go on, but somebody has to make a choice, or deny and ignore the entire factual substratum. Science has ignored it. The choice is most galling to face: Was this gadget, created as it was by intelligence, placed there by man indigenous to earth, or was it dropped from space by a space traveler?
You choose to say: placed by Man? Then there was a race of men here 300,000 years ago who knew enough to shape steel, and, by inference, make machinery. If they could do that, they most likely had locomotion of some sort, and there is no good reason to deny that they could have found space flight either by research or accident. At worst there was time to develop a civilization of any pre-assigned refinement. Science doesn’t like that. Alternative to that horn of the dilemma, we must contemplate space flight of 300,000 years ago, capable of bringing this little machine part to the earth, or of bringing civilization itself and planting it here within that type of animal life judged most likely and suitable to perpetuate and develop mental capacity. It is indeed a nasty choice for inhibited minds. …
Throughout the series of modern (after Arnold) sightings of UFO’s, there is a thread of frequent references to “Mother Ships” and huge superconstructions. The vast thing chased by Mantell and the ten-mile-long thing over Kansas are examples. There can no longer be serious doubts of their existence. It seems probable that these constructions are the domiciles of the smaller-fry discs, spheres, balls of light, etc., which are so frequently seen in proximity to the earth’s surface and to our planes, rockets, airfields and cities.
It is my belief that these constructions are few in number, not many (there is some possibility, in fact, that there may be only two of them) and that they do not come from distant planets such as Venus, Mars, Jupiter or the vastly more distant stars. It is my belief that they are usually globular, sometimes spindle-like, and that they are an indigenous part of the earth-moon binary-planet system. I make this statement on the basis of hundreds of astronomical observations in which the rough determinations of parallax can be made. Parallax shows these objects to be somewhere between a few hundred miles away and a maximum of something less than the distance of the moon. …
There seems to be something of periodicity in events of celestial and spatial origin. This has been called to our attention by John Philip Bessor in the Saturday Evening Post as early as May, 1949; but no one has thus far been able to catalogue and classify enough of this data to determine for certain whether such cycles exist, much less their time period or cause. It is not particularly astonishing that these phenomena should be cyclic, for practically everything astronomical is periodic. If periodicity could be firmly established for these phenomena, that fact alone would be proof of their reality and integration with the organic world about us.
We can conclude that the UFO’s are permanent because they have been here for many centuries. That we have so suddenly become aware of them may be due in part to an increased activity, but it is more likely the result of our own slow awakening from intellectual immaturity. Exhaustive research has disclosed records of sightings covering thousands of years, and occasionally actual visits and contacts with our race. More of these incidents are coming to light constantly as research is pursued with UFO’s in mind. Now that we are aware of UFO’s and know what to look for, the uncorrelated data of our predecessors takes on a meaning hitherto lacking and becomes significant. It is now up to us to discover and analyze all the data, and to correlate it with current observations.
It is no longer necessary to explain them as visitors from Mars, Venus, or Alpha Centauri. They are a part of our own immediate family – a part of the earth-moon, binary-planet system. They didn’t have to come all of those millions of miles from anywhere. They have been here for thousands of years. Whether we belong to them by possession, like cattle, or whether we belong to each other by common origin and association is an interesting problem, and one which may soon be settled if we keep our heads.
In final summary, the UFOs have been around us for a long time and probably are a connecting link with the first wave of terrestrial civilization. The UFO’s spend most of their time at the neutral points in space. …
No other set of conclusions will serve as a common denominator for all observable facts. (Jessup, 1955, emphases added)
We further discuss Jessup and the relation of gravitation to psi and hyperdimensional realities in Chapter Four of Secret History. These ideas have been adopted by many “alternative science” writers who have related them to buildings, energy fields, light beings, earth grids and all that, and it does, indeed, seem that there may be locations on the planet where one can tap a certain energy with greater or lesser ease. But the phenomenon that these ideas speaks to more directly is that of hyperdimensional realities wherein mental energies or consciousness energies are amplified, and can be interactive with the environment in terms of specific technology. This suggests not only power for transport that is partly physical, partly ethereal, but communication that is also partly physical and partly ethereal, as well as powers of manifestation that might seem impossible to us in our present state of technology. All of these properties do belong to hyperdimensional existence, and such a state of being has been being reported for millennia as being the realm of the gods, including dragons, serpents, and critters of all sorts.
Some casual readers have the idea that the Lizzies originated with Barbara Marciniak. Well, perhaps the humorous term did – and we like it – but it is only ignorance that would suppose that these concepts only go back as far as, say, Star Trek, or other mass-media forms of promulgation. It has even been conjectured that all of the Cs material is made up out of my head based on movies and TV shows that may have influenced me. Well, it is a certainty that no one can escape the influences to which they are exposed, but since I never liked or read science fiction, and most certainly have never watched more than one or two partial episodes of Star Trek (and then only when forced to! Apologies to the Trekkies!), such an influence is not very likely. But then, perhaps individuals who would suggest such have never heard of that most interesting invention of paper and ink and glue called a “book.”
Recently, I tried to remember exactly when I first encountered the idea of Reptilian beings as actual, hyperdimensional entities whose technology was so advanced it seemed to human beings not much different from magic, as Arthur C. Clarke suggested.
My copy of Bringers of the Dawn is so full of challenges to what is being said there, jotted in the margins with exclamations, that it is a certainty that I didn’t take it all that seriously. In actuality, I thought that a whole lot of it was nonsense. At the present time, I have the idea that it wasn’t the Cs who liked Marciniak so much as it was Frank.
Nevertheless, the idea of hyperdimensional reptilian beings, even if I think that they are not represented completely accurately by the so-called Pleiadians, certainly fell into place with a bang when one considers physics, history, myth and archaeology.
I described it in my autobiography Amazing Grace:
I was, I admit, a flaming skeptic about aliens. I had spent so much time poking around in people’s heads in therapeutic ways, that, with only a cursory examination of the issue, I’d decided that sightings and claims of abductions were strikingly similar to past life dramas. After reading Whitley Strieber’s Gothic book Communion and Ruth Montgomery’s patently ridiculous Aliens Among Us, I refused to give any serious consideration to the subject. The stories were so crazy I simply could not consider them to be real in any context other than as useful metaphors. …
In short, stories of aliens and abductions seemed an archetypal drama of the subconscious mind. I called it the Millennial Disease, and saw it as a form of mass hysteria. I attributed the physical scars and traces of abduction to stigmata-like effects, or poltergeist type events. Clearly, there was very little about UFOs and aliens that couldn’t be explained by these theories.
It wasn’t until I actually began to study some of the literature about abductions in early 1993 that I even considered the issue with any seriousness. Even then, I decided that there were a lot of better answers for the reported phenomena than “aliens among us.”
There were people claiming we had been being visited by aliens since archaic times. There were others who claimed we had been visited a few times, but they were gone now, nothing to worry about! Another group claimed that we had “let them in” by setting off the atomic bomb; they were here to make sure we didn’t blow ourselves up along with the rest of the universe. Some claimed they were good guys who were just a little weird because they had followed a different path of evolution, or were further along than we were. Others claimed they were demons from Hell and we had better get ourselves back to church if we expected to survive the invasion.
Sheesh! The only thing certain was that people were seeing and experiencing something singularly strange. Secret government projects? Secret alien-in-cahoots-with-the-government? By the time I finished I was sure of one thing and one thing only: there was a lot of smoke!
But smoke obscures the source of the fire. Underneath, there might only be a smoldering mess. I wasn’t sure if this was a manipulation by the government to make people think aliens existed, or if aliens did exist and were trying to make the government look guilty.
What a morass of confusion!
It was, of course, as a result of that strangest of hypnosis sessions reported by Tom French in his article in the Times (“The Exorcist in Love”), followed by my own sighting, that I began to consider the possibility that the alien solution was the better fit by Occam’s Razor. In Amazing Grace, I speculated on this problem:
If we conjecture that this “alien phenomenon” is part of some deep government conspiracy designed to experiment on people – perhaps to make them think that they are being abducted by aliens so that they will assiduously seek greater controls and protection from “Big Brother” – we have a curious problem with this case. The problem becomes: how could such a hypothesized group engineer the response to this session that did, in fact, manifest?
I was very careful not to mention the word “alien” or “abduction” to the woman on the phone prior to the session. If phone conversations are being monitored, how did this one get selected for special attention? Such monitoring, even for key words that would trigger a need for personal attention, suggests a conspiracy of such vast and complex proportions that the logistics of it stagger the mind.
Well, suppose it is a government conspiracy. Suppose that they do have such monitoring capabilities, that they are monitoring my phone, the woman’s phone, or the phones of everybody by computer. As a result, suppose they knew I was going to hypnotize her and sent out a flotilla of stealth-type aircraft to beam some wave at her (or something like that) which would prevent her from talking to me.
Why would they go to all that trouble? [Are they really going to send several multimillion-dollar aircraft to scare the bejeebies out of a housewife/part-time hypnotherapist in Florida?]
It seems to me that it would be easier to just send one of those nice white panel trucks we see in the movies to park a block away from my house for their wave-beaming activities.
Well, okay; maybe they just thought it was a handy time to create a UFO flap at that moment for general purposes: to get everyone all excited, to reinforce the alien phenomenon scenario they are creating.
We are still looking at logistics that stagger the mind.
The next question we have to ask is this: since this woman appeared in my life at precisely the moment I had been familiarized with the phenomenon sufficiently to recognize the symptoms, how do we deal with that synchronicity? If it is a government conspiracy that was aiming at taking me in by gradual degrees, by creating a series of events in my life that would lead me to give up my rational explanations of the phenomenon, what kind of surveillance and management does that suggest?
Again, it boggles the mind.
Thinking these thoughts produced a strange feeling in me of being watched in ways hard to describe. It was so strange a synchronicity that I couldn’t help but think that the appearance of these craft related to our activities. I tried to sweep this thought under the rug, but it kept coming back.
Nevertheless, I had read so many cases by now of strange events similar to my own that were attributed to aliens. And that was the problem. Who or what were they? Were they literally visitors from deep space? Or were they the perceptions of victims of some vast government mind-control experiment? Most terrifying of all: were they demons?
I detected the signature of a malevolent intelligence working in my life and my experiences in an effort to either destroy or divert me from something. If these evil beings had the power to interfere in my life with malicious intent, even when I was deeply involved with prayer and meditation – which one would suppose should act as a defense – what protection did anyone have? Were we, the human race, defenseless against these creatures?
The words of Gurdjieff came back to haunt me. Were the belief systems of metaphysics and religion useless drivel promulgated by an Evil Magician to convince people they were Lions, Men, Eagles or Magicians instead of sleeping sheep?
What kind of madhouse had I opened my eyes to see? Was the fact that I had seen it the very source of its existence? Was I, by noticing evil, more vulnerable to attack? Surely not: the evidence of the presence of evil threaded its way through the lives of others who denied all the clues. I saw clearly the mechanical or accidental nature of the Universe that Gurdjieff talked about. But now I realized that our own programmed refusal to see reality, our ignorance, was the chief door in our lives through which Evil entered.
Was it possible, as Gurdjieff suggested, to become free of this? To awaken? To see the projector behind the slide show of our lives? And, more important, to see who was running the projector and why?
To consider the idea of malevolent beings in control of our world that could prey on us at will, behind our ordinary reality, was utterly soul shattering.
I began to see the possibility of an interpenetrating reality of more or less physical solidity that interacted with humans as we may interact with wildlife in a forest: the hunters and the hunted. …
Well, in thinking about it deeply, it does appear that these beings – whatever they turn out to be – can plunder our world, our lives and our very minds at will. But I also have observed that they seem to be going to an awful lot of trouble to conceal their activities and to confuse observers with hundreds of crazy stories of different races and groups of semi-mythological good guys and bad guys.
Many people who think they are psychic, have prophetic dreams or visions, channel “space brothers,” or who are contacted by beings who are here to “help” us or to “save us” if only we will let them, or have other psychic experiences are, in fact, being regularly visited by aliens who literally program these ideas into their minds. These stories are spread around, increasing the level of confusion. But the greatest deception of all is the idea that negative forces do not exist. And even if negative forces did exist, there’s no need to worry. If we just think nice thoughts, meditate regularly, and repeat our affirmations, nothing icky will ever enter our reality.
We are not dealing with materialistic, earth-based technology here! For God’s sake, these guys walk through walls, float people out of their bodies and control minds – the abilities we have historically attributed to angels or demons or vampires.
In the past, we dealt with ghosts and gods and demons. We are dealing with the same entities now, only we are calling them aliens. They probably always were aliens! And maybe they want to be gods again.
It was a stunning and grotesque prospect for me to consider that humanity, as a whole, has been used and cunningly deceived for millennia beyond my wildest imaginings. I realized that the UFO and alien business was truly nothing new. We have historical records of these phenomena stretching back thousands of years. If these beings could get what they want simply by moving in and taking it, would they spend so much time creating terror and confusion? Alternatively, perhaps the terror and confusion is exactly what they want to generate because they feed on it. But that makes me also wonder why they are going to so much trouble to persuade us to accept their total control if they could take it at will? These guys would not be spending so much time terrorizing us and trying to sneak in the back door if it were possible for them to walk in directly. There is something we have that they want. There is some power we have that they don’t want us to discover.
The act of facing the pattern of activity behind the events of my own life that bespoke such a hidden reality was absolutely soul searing and mind numbing. You could even say that, of all people who never wanted to know anything at all about UFOs and aliens, I deserve a place at the head of the line. Yet, there it was.
Standing back from my life in overview, there were the hints of some sort of pattern maker, and it wasn’t God in any sense that I had ever conceived of Him. Yes, I could see both positive actions and negative actions; a dynamic interplay of forces that related in some direct way to my own thinking, seeking, and growth. But exactly what it was, and precisely how it operated, I couldn’t tell yet. It was like a shadow show where the shadows are produced by certain angles of light behind objects which, when finally revealed, may bear no resemblance whatsoever to the form of the shadow. A balled-up fist could as easily be interpreted as a bird or a dog, or – when expanded to its full shape – a hand. Just what was I seeing? What’s more, why did it seem that I was being challenged to see it? Why me? I think this question is echoed by thousands, if not millions of others who have had similar experiences.
In the earliest days of my investigation into the phenomena, the enormity of the problem began to overwhelm me. From what I could determine, many, many thousands of people – a cross section of humanity – were coming forward and saying that they had experienced contact with aliens from other worlds. The general response that they get from others, including professionals who are supposed to be providing help and support, is ridicule. In reviewing the cases available to me, I noted that the typical victim was almost frantically worried about a loss of time, and some vague memory of being restrained or trapped. The person becomes almost hyperactive in their irritability, suffers from loss of concentration and short-term memory. An abductee is generally hypersensitive to loud noises, claims to hear things no one else can hear, and to see things no one else can see, including getting feelings about others that are impossible to explain or quantify in any way. No matter what the explanation for their experiences, these people needed to be taken seriously; they needed to be validated; and most of all they needed a support system.
Basically, when considering abductions, there are three choices:
1. They’re a hoax, no abduction occurs and all these people are making it up.
2. Abductions really happen, performed by persons or beings unknown.
3. No abductions happen, but all these abductees believe they do for unknown psychological reasons.
I very early gave up the idea that abduction stories were concocted for fame and glory. For most, the event was one of great shame and they most certainly didn’t want anybody to know about it. That they were so desperate for help that they overcame tremendous reluctance indicates how severely they were traumatized.
The question of the sanity of people claiming to have been abducted was answered in the negative as far as I could see. If millions of people believed that a guy, 2000 years ago, died on a cross and arose three days later, and were considered sane, then people claiming abductions, with far more direct experience and evidence, were undoubtedly sane also.
Sure, it was fine and dandy for Bob Lazar to say that he worked on alien craft at Area 51 and that endless reports of the phenomenon existed from thousands of years ago; but were the lights in the skies and the stories of fairy abductions the same phenomena that happened here and now in our world? The claims of coverup and conspiracy had a certain appeal. I really got the creeps thinking about alien critters with bug eyes and B.O. No wonder so many people flee in terror to the safety of the government-conspiracy idea. It’s a lot more comforting to think that the man behind the curtain is a man, after all, and not a hyperdimensional being who is not only physical, but can manipulate space and time at will. As Morris Jessup said so eloquently:
We can conclude that the UFO’s are permanent because they have been here for many centuries. That we have so suddenly become aware of them may be due in part to an increased activity, but it is more likely the result of our own slow awakening from intellectual immaturity. Exhaustive research has disclosed records of sightings covering thousands of years, and occasionally actual visits and contacts with our race. More of these incidents are coming to light constantly as research is pursued with UFO’s in mind. Now that we are aware of UFO’s and know what to look for, the uncorrelated data of our predecessors takes on a meaning hitherto lacking and becomes significant. It is now up to us to discover and analyze all the data, and to correlate it with current observations.
One anonymous writer claimed that until he had hard evidence that it was not the CIA or some maverick secret government experimenting on human beings, he would continue to deny that it could be aliens. This person wrote:
Until someone kills a real alien and lays its cadaver on my doorstep, I will continue to believe ‘Grey Aliens’ are USAF or CIA personnel dressed up in funny costumes. I will continue to believe that our comrades are being abducted and murdered by government agencies [and] that telepathic contact experiments are being conducted by the same government agencies. If aliens are not humans in costumes, they are at least darklings built by human DNA tinkerers in some of those secret underground laboratories.
I have a great deal of trouble accepting the story that aliens have been conducting genetic experiments on humankind for 10,000 years. That would suggest that we are really little more than their livestock, they actually ‘own’ us, just as we believe we ‘own’ beasts of the field and fish of the seas and birds of the air. It also suggests they have an extremely long attention span unless they are moving through time and aren’t really ‘going anywhere!’
We tag sea turtles in the North Atlantic and track them by satellite to see which way they go. We tag birds and fish and elephants to follow their migrations. Are we supposed to believe creatures from Zeta Reticuli are doing the same to humans?
Friends! Why would beings who can travel sixty-six zillion light years through space and time in any direction at any time, want to concern themselves with something as stupid and boring as tagging and following the migration and sexual behavior of humans (who would be the equivalent of primeval slugs to them)? What is the point?
To capture, examine, impregnate and tag human females to carry their crossbred children? If they are as wonderful and advanced as some say, they should be able to grow their children in canning jars on their own planet!
To cultivate us as food? If they are twenty billion years more advanced than we, why haven’t they figured out how to grow synthetic protein in culture dishes in their own labs on their own planet in their own star cluster?
If we are nothing more than experiments of an advanced race of beings, no more than bacteria on a cosmic glass slide, that means there is no God, no law, no rules, no leaders, no followers. … There should be no trials or punishment for “crimes” because the concept of crime and punishment would be null and void if we belong to funny-looking grey creatures from Zeta Reticuli.
If we have no more rights than a common housefly, then we’ll have to do away with ownership of property as well. If we believe that, we’ll have to do away with governments and public minions, dismantle the military and let anarchy reign supreme, laying about until one of the owners comes round to lop off an arm or leg for dinner or grind us into sausage and stir us up in a big vat somewhere in Nevada, USA.
But wait! Why would creatures who can jump from Earth to Zeta Reticuli in a heartbeat keep their food supply in Nevada? Why don’t they take it with them? If you were able to jump from one town to another or one state to another by thinking it, and you wanted to paint a house in say, Texas, would you keep the paint bucket in New York and jump back and forth every time you had to load the brush just because you could jump back and forth? If you could jump to the grocery store, would you jump forty times to buy forty items or would you get everything in one jump so you wouldn’t have to bother?
People! That’s why we have refrigerators and pantries! So we don’t have to get in the car (flying saucer) and drive to the store (Nevada) every day! I can’t believe we’re more intelligent than our grey owners! They must be humiliated.
But if all this nonsense is being orchestrated by an agency of Earthlings who wants you to believe in UFOs and funny-looking grey aliens, then it all makes sense, doesn’t it? Humans are being abducted for medical experiments. Humans are being contacted telepathically to sort out the ESPers. Human females are carrying the seeds of a future race of cosmonauts. They may be producing embryos which are sent into space aboard the shuttle to see if they live or die in a weightless environment, the evidence of which will be applied to the technology of future manned excursions to the planets of this solar system and beyond.
The above is, in a nutshell, the view of the hard-shell skeptics. Putting aside the hyperbole and evangelistic style of writing, the guy has a point. But only for those using the juvenile dictionary.
Such an argument sounds pretty reasonable at first glance. It was only when I thought about it a bit longer that I realized the chief problem with such an idea. If the government is behind all the abductions, surely they would have screwed up at least once in 45 years and we would know that fallible human beings were doing it! The fact that not one single incident, not one single abduction, not one single purported kidnapping event has ever resulted in a screw-up that led to anyone seeing the man behind the curtain, not one, should give us pause to think.
This guy expects me to believe that the U.S. government can pull off an enterprise of this kind, with evidence of worldwide activity, for thousands of years, involving millions of individuals, the logistics of which make the machinations of WWII look like the planning for a picnic? I’m sorry. I can’t buy that. And so, even though he has many points about the phenomenon that beg for explanation, I think that we have to look for a hypothesis that explains and predicts the phenomenon better than what he has suggested. And part of that hypothesis may be that the ideas he is proposing are deliberately planted in the mind of the public for the very purpose of hiding a dreadful and sinister secret.
We can also see that, even if the government is not involved, then public officials would be most interested in maintaining the coverup. As the guy pointed out: to admit certain possibilities could lead to worldwide chaos and anarchy. If we are, as Charles Fort said, “property,” if we belong to some race of advanced beings who use us for food and resources, then there is no point to anything we believe in at all. It is all a lie, a sham, a grand illusion, an enormous cosmic fraud. Who can live with that thought?
All over the world, from time immemorial, gods have been represented with scales. Most analysts have interpreted this to be a symbolic representation of the powers of the gods, or the wisdom of the serpent. But why a serpent would acquire any kind of cachet as wise simply does not compute in any way, shape or form. How do we explain the ubiquitous presence of a serpent race on earth? Perhaps it is because at one time, or at various times, and even still, they are present in our realm, but as hyperdimensional beings – the secret Control System that owns Earth.
And if the reader thinks I like such an idea, that I spend ten or more hours a day researching and writing about it because I watched a few episodes of Star Trek, or Barbara Marciniak’s work just tickled me pink, think again! Our work is devoted to bringing many, many thousands of hours of research and experience to the reader. And for those who wish to speculate wildly upon whether or not any of the ideas are derived from here or there, it might be useful to actually read our material. Then the questions might be answered.
A little Learning is a dang’rous Thing;
Drink deep, or taste not the Pierian Spring:
There shallow Draughts intoxicate the Brain,
And drinking largely sobers us again.
—Alexander Pope
Getting back to our narrative, the reader may want to remember that there were several things going on during the summer of 1997, including the necessary work to get all the details of the Xth Max Born Symposium hammered out. The Conference was scheduled for September 24th through the 27th, and Ark already had his date to return to the States scheduled for October 12th. Things had been timed so that he would be able to obtain his return visa – but that depended on him being in Poland long enough in advance to get the paper work done. The divorce hearing was supposed to be held on July 22nd. All the while Ark was working. Threaded throughout all of this was the fact that we were puzzling our way through the transcripts, searching for clues.
Back in the States, I was dealing with the daily issues of house, children, and the ongoing struggles with my health – trying to achieve some sort of stability after all the massive changes of the previous year. The children were struggling to stabilize also. My eldest daughter was being caught up in a fast crowd and was spending all her money for appearances. She was not taking the responsibility of being behind the wheel of a car as seriously as she ought, and I could not figure out what had happened to my serious, responsible child. She was involved in a small accident. She gave me one version of it, and the policeman who took the report gave an altogether different version based on witness testimony. I advised her that if she was going to drive that thing like a 747 that she ought to increase her insurance coverage. She said she would.
Daughter number two had recovered from her depression and was now enthralled with inline skating – to such an extent that her health was suffering from the endless hours she practiced. What was worse was the crowd of kids she was meeting while skating. My son was determined to break every bone in his body on a skateboard. There was a group of Christian Fundamentalists who were always stalking about where the kids were skating, handing out tracts about hellfire and damnation, scaring the kids so they would go to church and get saved, and this concerned me a great deal. This activity ultimately led to a terrible tragedy when my son’s best friend was induced to go to a revival by this group, and was in a terrible automobile accident, leaving him permanently crippled and brain-damaged. So, there were Pied Pipers everywhere, and I was trying to find some reasonable activity for the children that would engage them and keep them safe.
I was also trying to get caught up on all the transcribing. I still had a big box stacked with tapes from past sessions that had not been transcribed, and I struggled against the partial paralysis of my hands to get them transcribed so that Ark could read all of them. In this project, I received some assistance from Jan, but no help from Frank at all. It was a protracted and painful struggle, but eventually it was finished.
Even though I have decided not to include the massive numbers of emails we exchanged during this period in the narrative, there really is no way to understand the dynamics and flow of energy behind the scenes without them, so I have assembled a selection into a separate file, chronologically, for those who are patient enough to wade through that sort of thing, and who may be interested in discovering exactly what we were discussing at the precise time of the disaster. Many of the clues to the great mysteries on the planet were discussed in these exchanges, and there were a number of dreams that were significant, and later mentioned in the transcripts without being fully explained, as they are in the emails. My guess is that we were getting too close to some things to allow this exchange to continue. These emails also chronicle the beginning of the Cs website.
The main purpose of publishing this correspondence is both as a sort of map of the areas we were investigating and our thinking about them at the time of the flood in Poland – which I have the idea is sort of synchronous – and as a historical document as to what ideas were discovered at what point in time and how. It also provides some sort of idea of what was going on in our lives, which is part of the process of realizing the Matrix by experiencing it. One of the things I was learning was that anybody in our lives, our children, partners, friends, could and would be used to bring pressure to bear – to whatever level they do not realize that they can be controlled and manipulated and used as an agent of the matrix. This is a tough problem to deal with because, very often, we are very much involved with people who are not yet ready to even consider the idea much less begin the process of observing their own mind to watch for signs of manipulation. And it is particularly difficult when we deal with our children. It’s almost fatal if it is our mates or partners – because, in the Biblical sense, we are “one” with that person, and their karma sort of becomes ours.
That the flood in Poland was, most assuredly, a disaster, is without question; it was a flood of sufficient significance that it threw all our plans into confusion. Apparently, it had begun to rain in Poland early in July, and continued to rain daily until the rivers swelled to overflow, and the water was everywhere. The Polish authorities called it the Flood of the Millennium. There had not been such an event in a thousand years. It was a national disaster. The strangest thing about it was the fact that almost nothing was published about it in the U.S. Roads were washed out, railroads and communication lines were cut off. Food and water supplies weren’t getting through. There was loss of life, and significant loss of property. Ark was in Florence, and couldn’t find out what was going on – if his family was safe or not – for several days.
Obviously, under such conditions it was unsafe to travel, not to mention the fact government buildings were reported to be flooded, documents and files were floating in the streets, and there would certainly be no divorce hearing. It was even possible that he would not be able to obtain his Visa in time. Everything was turning into a disaster.
When all of this began to manifest, I called Frank for an emergency session. In this session we were given several huge clues to exactly how the Matrix illusion was maintained in our reality, as well as some hints that our mission was significant, though again, nothing specific was mentioned.
July 19, 1997
Q: As you know, there is a flood in Poland, and Ark has to go back. There is so much that must be done, but the government offices may be closed, the court session may be delayed indefinitely, God knows what is going to happen. What is the source of this dreadful disaster in Poland?
A: Sopophoric screen alterations of the magnetic belt overlay.
Q: And what is causing these screen alterations of the magnetic belt overlay?
A: Influences of Acquiim.
Q: What is Acquiim?
A: 4th density overseer.
Q: Does that mean sopophoric screen alteration?
A: Soporific/phosphorous.
Q: What is the purpose of this screen alteration?
A: Deterrence of collinear wave reading consciousness units.
Q: What is a “collinear wave reading consciousness unit?”
A: Suggest you “look in the mirror.”
Q: Well! I don’t know if I like being a collinear wave-reading consciousness unit!
A: Why not?
Q: Because I don’t like feeling responsible for all these people who are suffering in this disaster!
A: Responsible? Are you altering the weather?
Q: Well, no. But, if they will go to that extent to thwart us, is it safe for him to go back?
A: If he takes precautions.
Q: Can you suggest some of these precautions?
A: Drive not. Travel by rail only if such travel does not include the possibility of having to evacuate the train and walk on or near live electrical current conduits.
Q: Anything else?
A: Guns do exist in Poland, unlike some other European countries.
Q: What more?
A: Total awareness at all moments is hypercritical.
Q: Are the members of his family all right?
A: So far.
Q: How long will it take before this flood business has come to a halt?
A: Open.
Q: Are all the government offices going to be closed?
A: No.
Q: Will the divorce hearing proceed?
A: Eventually.
Q: How many days will we be out of communication?
A: Not point. Just remember that anticipation is the “mother of preparation,” and defense.
Q: So, anticipate or expect to be out of communication for some time …
A: No, it is for Arkady to be prepared!
Q: Are there any good guys who can come in and help? I mean, good grief! A flood no less! How come we haven’t been afflicted with that sort of thing here?
A: No need as we have told you, it is Ark who is the vulnerable link, therefore, the attack goeth there.
Q: Is there anything we can do to help?
A: Get the message through to expect the unexpected; feel vulnerable, and do not ever assume invincibility. Knowledge protects, and ignorance endangers … does it ever!!!
Q: Well, anything else?
A: Must beware of agents near.
Q: Can you give any clues about these agents near?
A: Have “look,” if one is looking.
Q: What kind of look?
A: Consult fiction for the truth.
Q: You mean like spy stories? If they look like a spy, they are one?
A: Close.
Q: Anything else? This is going to be a rough period!
A: Not if aware and prepared, and not caught up in fantasies.
Q: What kind of fantasies?
A: Energy wasted upon unnecessary communiques.
Q: So, he should not exert himself to be in contact with me if it might put him in danger? Is that it?
A: No, for the time being, suggest you cancel the “mushiness.”
Q: All right. Anything further?
A: No.
Q: I will be in a bad way through this ordeal until he gets here, so …
A: Better to be in “a bad way,” than a pedestrian on the widows walk.
Q: Is there anything that we can do for protection?
A: We have told you! Be forearmed by being forewarned! Be careful that he does not believe the message.
Q: In other words, he needs to really believe what you are saying?
A: More important: what is a false sense of security?
Q: So, if he receives a message that he is secure and that all is okay, then is when he must be most aware?
A: One must not ever feel “secure,” but think of it. When is one ever secure?
Q: Well, we notice that things are really heating up. Weather, government exposure and confessions of this and that …
A: Massive alien/UFO coverage, some fictionalized, some not.
Q: OK, I just thought of this: getting back to our earlier questions, would you suggest that Ark avoid going back to Poland altogether?
A: Avoidance may avoid objective also.
Q: OK. That is understood. I want to ask about what, precisely, this soporific/phosphorous screen of the magnetic belt overlay is.
A: And have you communicate it thus? No.
Q: When you said “collinear wave reading consciousness units,” and “look in the mirror,” was that a clue that Ark and I are mirror image consciousness units?
A: Not exactly.
Q: Well, in a previous session, you said something about being a “half soul,” and my assumption was that he was a half-soul and I was a half-soul, and together we made a whole soul. But, since that time, I have wondered about this …
A: No one is unto themselves a half soul.
Q: OK, what would give me a more clear understanding about “half soul balancing?”
A: The soul as read as a unit of completion. It is the communication which completes the whole in each.
Q: What are the potentials of collinear wave reading consciousness units?
A: Specifics.
Q: Well, if an overseer in fourth density wishes to prevent unification of same, there must be some reason; that there is something that the fourth-density STS would not like to see happen. What is it?
A: Is that not self-evident?
Q: So, does that mean that it is important for us to be physically together to do whatever this is?
A: Tis preferable.
The strange series of remarks about Ark’s safety, once again, until the events played out, did not make any sense. And, of course, it is difficult to know in retrospect whether our interpretation was correct.
Ark made the decision to return to Poland in the middle of the disaster, and it was quite a journey since what few trains were running were crowded with people trying to get back to take care of their families. It was practically standing room only. All trains to Poland were canceled and he managed to get a train to Wien. From Wien, he had to pay an exorbitant sum to a driver to get him to Poland, and he spent some time sleeping on his luggage before he finally made it. By this time, the waters were receding, and the mud and mess was everywhere. There was no safe drinking water and it had to be brought in by truck, and there were long lines to get water from the trucks. During the period of time right after he returned to Poland in the midst of the flood, there are no emails. We communicated by phone, for the most part – only after the phone lines were back in service.
One of the results of the flood was that Ark’s ex-wife began to call repeatedly to ask that he come and help her with taking care of things she had stored in the basement of the apartment building where she lived. It was full of water, and she declared that she simply was not able to manage things.
After our experience with the fact that this woman was perfectly capable of finding a way to remove and then replace a customs seal so that it looked like it had not been disturbed – an item we were never able to figure out unless she had been assisted by someone in the government – in order to steal things from his luggage, neither of us trusted her. We discussed it on the phone and I was concerned that if he went over there and was standing knee deep in water, she could very easily just toss a plugged-in electrical appliance in the water and that would be the end of everything. Whether or not she had a gun, we don’t know. But when we considered the warning, “Energy wasted upon unnecessary communiques,” and “Be careful that he does not believe the message,” this was the only thing that it could apply to – at least up to that point.
She had told Ark when he announced his intention to divorce, “I will destroy you!” and she was spending every waking hour trying to do it. Her violent and vicious acts against him seemed to be her sole reason for existence. At one point while she was claiming psychic stress, she visited the university psychiatrist and told him a complex story about how Ark had become brainwashed by “an alien cult” and was using their brainwashing techniques on her to destroy her mind. In Europe, the Church that teaches such things, but which will remain unnamed, is looked upon with a very dim eye, and this was a serious charge against a department head of a large university. In any event, the story traveled up the chain of command to the Rector of the University who confided to Ark the kinds of lies his ex-wife was spreading about him. It was easily refuted, but the fact that she had embarked upon such a path of lies and defamation gave us a good idea of what other things she might be capable of doing.
The end result was that we decided that it was dangerous for Ark to respond to her repeated requests to come and take care of the water-filled basement. Putting that together with the hint about walking on or near live electrical current conduits, and guns being obtainable in Poland, we finally decided that being “caught up in fantasies” would be to continue to think that this woman was not a direct instrument of fourth-density STS, if not an actual agent who had long ago been given the assignment of preventing Ark from ever leaving Poland to come back to the States.
Of course the divorce hearing was canceled and rescheduled to October 21, which was the date that the ex had asked for previously, knowing that Ark was scheduled to leave Poland on October 12th. What is more, the “friendly” judge who had sat through the previous hearings where the ex was a repeated no-show, was suddenly replaced! We were debating whether or not we ought to rearrange our schedule in order to accommodate this new date, postponing Ark’s departure until after the hearing, so I decided to ask the Cs:
August 22, 1997
Q: (L) OK, now, I have been thinking that since the last series of obstructions are in the process of stabilizing, maybe there are other surprises and unexpected events around the corner …
A: Maybe for Arkadiusz.
Q: What kind of surprise might this be?
A: Mount “Anna” may erupt. [Anna being the name of Ark’s ex-wife, as well as the nickname of my number-two daughter.]
Q: Very cute! And, if so, what kind of eruption?
A: Cataclysmic.
Q: Well, swell! How about another clue!
A: Just be vigilant!
Q: Is that it?
A: To be forewarned is to be forearmed.
As it turned out, we discovered via the grapevine strong indications that the ex-wife had something to do with the selection of the date as well as the replacing of the judge. After all, she had all Ark’s money and a person gets exactly as much justice as they can pay for. Ark was keeping his ear to the ground and the grapevine produced another interesting item, namely, that the judge might ask for a competency evaluation based on the ex-wife’s claims about cults and brainwashing and her claims that she was merely acting as she was to protect Ark from a mind-control cult.
With this bit of intel, we realized exactly what kind of danger he was in. Knowing that, in the past, his ex-wife had hired a private detective to get the goods on the former husband of their daughter, in order to blackmail the young man into divorcing her, Ark had no illusions that she would not also find a doctor who would write any report he was paid to write.
I once knew a woman who was married to a doctor who wanted to divorce her and marry someone else without having to split their property. She had been standing on a chair one night putting ornaments on her Christmas tree when a couple of guys in white coats, accompanied by two policemen, broke in the door and put a straitjacket on her and took her to a psychiatric hospital where she was kept drugged for weeks until she managed to get a message out to her family and friends about what was being done to her. I knew that these kinds of things happened in real life, and Ark knew it too.
After discussing it, we decided that the best course of action would be to just let everyone think that he planned to change his schedule to accommodate the new hearing date, while quietly making his preparations to get out of Poland as we had already scheduled it. We had a very sympathetic firm of international attorneys here who were ready to go into action if necessary, and we were watching for any sign of new developments on the part of whoever it was that was so determined that Ark would never make it back to the States. It seems that somebody wanted him to stay in Poland – dead or alive.
All through August and September Ark worked to get things back to normal after the flood. In addition to all of his regular duties at the University, he had to walk many miles to get to the water trucks, to the market to get food, and to manage all the necessary care for his mother, with whom he lived. He was also assisting in the cleanup effort since the basements of the University had been flooded and many documents and books had to be salvaged, dried and arrangements made for future storage. The entire Max Born Symposium had to be reorganized since the place where it had originally been scheduled to take place was a ruin from the flood. Ark went looking for a new conference center that would meet the needs of twenty or thirty physicists as well as the crowd of attendees. He finally found a resort in the mountains that seemed to suit, and most definitely was not subject to being flooded!
Finally, after two months of backbreaking labor it was all done and the speakers were arriving from around the world. Ark and his fellow organizers had to be there to monitor every detail, to meet every need, and make sure that all proceeded according to schedule. We communicated by phone every day since there simply was no time for email. He would call me just before I went to sleep which was about midnight here and 6 a.m. there. Everything was proceeding just fine – until the unthinkable happened on the last day of the Symposium. I wasn’t at home when Ark called. The email exchanges between us will explain why.
To: Ark
Date sent: Sat, 27 Sep 97 09:00:34
Honey, I am back at the house for a few minutes to change my clothes and grab some coffee and go back to the hospital. Anna is stable, but still on life support. It was VERY close for about 7 hours and truly about the most horrifying experience of my life until this point.
She was with her friends, and an older guy gave them some Vodka. Anna drank some and went into insulin shock and then a coma. She stopped breathing right when we got her to the hospital.
I am okay, but I am VERY tired mostly from terror and grief. I will tell you when I am back. She hit her face when she fell and they are doing a CT scan to make sure there is no serious damage and then she will be taken to Intensive care unit where they probably will not allow me to stay with her very long. If she seems better and sleeping okay, I will come home, but I would like to wait until she is no longer on the respirator …
So, don’t worry, Honey … the worst of it is over. It was terrible, but we just DO the things we have to do.
Take care of YOU for me, please. I told Anna you were worried and she seemed to understand what I was saying.
To: Ark
Date sent: Sat, 27 Sep 97 12:46:58
Okay, Honey, I am home now … it is about 6:20 in the morning and I left her sleeping … The nurses think she will sleep for about half a day.
I didn’t want the baby to wake up and find me not here.
So, the terrible crisis has passed … Anna has learned something about Lizzies … and so have I.
The police were there. The man who bought the liquor for the kids has been arrested and charged with aggravated child abuse, which is a serious offense. All the policemen involved came by to see her before I left to check on her and make sure that she was alright. That was very sweet.
And I survived. It was terrible – horrible – but it is over.
So, now, I think I will try to get some rest.
Good Night, Honey … I hope that all has gone well and everyone is satisfied with the conference, and that you can get some rest too, soon.
To: Laura
Date sent: Sat, 27 Sep 97 17:49:45
Honey, we knew there will be furious attacks. We could have predicted it. But there will be future and it will be good because we are not alone we do have helpers. We have had car accident one kid was involved with. It should teach us a lesson. We have another accident now; it should teach us a lesson.
The conference is over the last round table discussion was long, much longer than it was planned. It was a smashing success. I gave an overview of EEQT and all these people were happy so EEQT exists and everybody is satisfied and calling this meeting exceptional.
I am VERY tired almost unconscious but all is fine and well and okay we will make it and now REALLY SOON.
IT WAS HARD today because of what has happened to ANNA but it gave me, in fact, even more determination to find the force and energy that was necessary.
To: Ark
Date sent: Sun, 28 Sep 97 05:28:20
Oh, Honey, I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. I spent most of the day at the hospital. V** came with me and we gave Anna Reiki for hours.
Finally, in the late afternoon, she talked a little bit and seemed more like herself. So, I came home and tried to rest. But, I couldn’t. So, I went back to the hospital and sat with her while she slept. Then I cam home again. I am almost to the point that I think I can sleep.
You know, I wonder about what the Cs said about “Mt. Anna may erupt … cataclysmically … ” and, indeed this was a cataclysmic “eruption,” though more physical than anything, though I would have to say that it must represent something spiritual or psychological.
Well, I am too tired to think about it or analyze it. There are just some images that get frozen in the mind and take forever to go away, and seeing my baby like she was last night is one of them.
I have little red spots all over my legs that look like measles … they are ruptured capillaries from the hours standing with my legs and back braced, holding that child while she convulsed over and over again – trying to keep her from hurting herself, and fighting to keep her in the body. When I wasn’t trying to calm her down and keep her still, I was pleading with her not to leave me.
So, I wish I could cry just now because I think I would feel better faster if I could, but it seems to be stuck in my throat.
I won’t feel comfortable until she is home and fine.
Oh, Honey! It is absolutely incredible just now how much I need you … And so do these poor babies of ours … Thank God it won’t be long.
And, it is still raining, there are flood warnings and it is just very strange right now.
So, Honey, I am going to lie down.
To Ark:
Date sent: Sat, 27 Sep 97 19:17:17
I slept about 5 hours. The lung specialist called and said that he had been called in because Anna had inhaled vomit into her lungs and they are watching for pneumonia.
Then I went back to the hospital for awhile, and now I am back again.
She is sleeping from the medicine that keeps her from vomiting more, the oxygen is still connected, but they felt that they could remove the respirator. She has a tube that empties her stomach constantly, and a bladder catheter. Everybody at the hospital is in love with her because she is so sweet and grateful when she IS conscious. She has certainly had a serious shock, and lesson, as have we all.
You know, it is funny – they put her in the same room Sandra died in.
Well, I expect Sandra is watching out for her a little, if that is possible.
Anyway, I KNEW the conference would be such a success!
So, you sleep as much as you can. I am taking all care. We will survive this as we have all.
And, I DO believe that she lived because I was there giving her Reiki from the very beginning. It was so close. My arms and legs are very sore from bending over the bed and holding her still during the hours of convulsions. It was utterly terrifying. I just want to hold her in my arms and make it all go away.
And, funny – it is the end of September again. And the end of September always seems to be such a rough time.
I will send news when I am here. I will be in and out for the next few days. They say they want to keep her in ICU for another couple of days.
To: Laura
Date sent: Sun, 28 Sep 97 06:24:12
Honey, I was writing a long letter to you and then, at the end, it was all lost … the connection was lost. So I make it short: I love you I send kisses and you are in my arms.
I am packing now and in the evening I will be sending you kisses from Wroclaw.
Take strength from my love.
To: Laura
Date sent: Tue, 30 Sep 1997 07:37:49
Mother was very much moved by what has happened to Anna. She was praying in the night for Anna to get better. Funny is this mother of mine. Otherwise all is okay and alright.
These Lizzies must have been using the fact that I was so much busy and involved with the conference … and they have chosen to attack just then! But we must make this event to act against them. I can’t help thinking that Anna was supposed to go to school …
Well, now the most important thing is that soon we will be together and we will be doing all those things that need us being together. And then all will be different. And it’s gonna be rather soon. I am watching. You too.
I still haven’t fully recovered from the trauma of the near death of my daughter. I knew, at that point, just how down and dirty the attacks could get. The realization that an agent could appear anywhere, at any time, under any guise, had been, up to this point, something of an abstract idea. I now understood what the Cs had meant when they said:
A: Or maybe programmed decoy, due to FRV?
Q: What is FRV?
A: Frequency Resonance Vibration.
Q: Is there any danger to [the children] with these kids and church people they have been around the past few weeks?
A: What do you think?!? It is a vulnerable age for anyone, much more so for the children of one on path to super consciousness, and in contact with those who provide advice and data …
And the last remark about being “in contact with those who provide advice and data” is clearly meant to refer to Ark as much as the Cs themselves. Indeed, we had suffered attacks before Ark entered the picture, but the forces of the Matrix went into overdrive afterward – mainly to prevent us from being together. And here, an explanation for how this worked was being proposed: that certain individuals with a certain FRV, were susceptible to being programmed and utilized as decoys or Agents of the Matrix.
Over and over again we had told the children that there were forces out there that were going to be targeting them, that they needed to operate at the highest awareness level possible. We told them that they needed to examine their friends and relationships and keep always in mind that people would be brought into their lives whose intent was to do them harm. They revolted against this idea. It was unthinkable for them to hold suspicions about their “friends.” They were sure that we had just simply gone over the edge.
Within the next three months, despite my pleas for her to be more careful, my eldest daughter had two more accidents, making a total of three in an 11-month period. The third one totaled her car, and if it had not been a Volvo, she would not have survived. She was hit broadside, on the driver’s side, by a man who ran a red light. He claimed that he fell asleep at the wheel. I had been hit by so many shocks in so short a period of time that I was simply not able to assimilate and deal with all of it.
Both girls came to a hard realization that it wasn’t a joke, and they struggled with cognitive dissonance. Naturally, they wanted us to give up what we were doing so they could have a normal life like all their friends. We tried to explain to them that we loved them, and because we loved them, because we were concerned about not only their future, but the future of everyone else’s children, we could not give up our work. We told them that one day they would understand, even if they didn’t now. The real solution was for them to understand the level of vigilance that was necessary and to undertake to employ it. They resented that. They wanted to have a normal life, to have fun, to not have to worry about agents of the Matrix around every corner. And that was perfectly understandable. They were both upset with us, and later they both decided that safety lay in distance and they moved out on their own.
I made an appointment with an insurance agent and purchased large insurance policies on each of my children and announced out loud as I put them in the safe: “OK, you sons of bitches! Touch another one of my kids and every damn dime will go to expose you for what you are.” And I meant it.
Hell and High Water had come, and we had survived.
It would be very easy to just write off the series of attacks I have been describing as just the way things are. My daughters were just kids who made mistakes, and nearly died because of them. Our lives are just like anybody else’s lives in the sense that about half the time good things happen and half the time bad things happen. It’s just the nature of life, it’s the way things are. The same things happen to everybody. This last is most certainly true. And that is the point of the Cs communication: to explain to us the nature of good and evil, the nature of this reality in which we live, where bad things happen to good people, and very often, because of the fact that they are good, and are trying to do good things.
The interwoven themes of the Cassiopaean messages reflect the very things with which I was concerned for many years prior to meeting Frank and undertaking the “channeling” experiment. These two themes: the explanation for the existence of evil in a world created by a purported loving god, and the possibility of metamorphosis into a different world where there is no sting of sin or death, were expounded in the first manuscript version of The Noah Syndrome, written in 1985 and 1986. So, in a very real sense, it is altogether possible that the Cs are me at some level of consciousness, that I have made it all up to explain the things that concern me in a crucially deep way. One thing is certain: these issues never concerned Frank and his entire consciousness was focused on rejecting and reviling human existence rather than attempting to understand and explain it, and learning to live in the world as it is, successfully and effectively.
It took me years to realize that Frank’s contractile nature was not merely the result of being psychologically wounded, but was the fundamental expression of his being: self-ishness. I never realized that his almost serpentine lethargy was the way he was, because it was the way he was. With my rose-colored glasses, I thought this stillness, this lack of activity was quiet strength. I accepted all his criticisms that I was always getting attacked because I was doing and sharing things. I tried to temper my nature, my natural tendency to share everything I discovered with anyone who asked with sober reflection and caution. Indeed, I am sure that caution would have kept me out of the soup on more than one occasion. But caution should not make a person inactive. One should not be so paralyzed by the fear of attack that they do nothing! I didn’t realize that it is the one who accepts the risks of commitment that is the stronger person.
Frank was not just afraid of commitment and creativity, he was repelled by it from the depths of his nature. Commitment and creativity are acts of giving, of sacrifice. It is the Sulphur of Alchemy, the Soul Fire. The Soul Light. It is joy and delight in giving away spiritual energy. And there was no joy or delight in Frank’s soul; there was only fear, jealousy, and contempt. These are the emotions of stasis, inaction, or reckless destruction.
A correspondent who is very attached to the government-conspiracy-to-create-the-UFO-phenomenon-as-a-means-of-social-engineering theory, who yet is convinced of the existence of ethereal beings, recently wrote to me, “You are very close. There are UFO’s and there are ‘aliens.’ But the aliens are us and vice versa.”
He then went on to propose that our level of reality and the next higher level, have a “symmetry balance” which posits that we are in control of the Matrix. The Matrix reflects us and we it. What we become – it becomes. Indeed, this possibility is one that the Cs have proposed in the following exchange:
July 23, 1995
Q: (L) Does it ever happen that individuals who perceive or think they perceive themselves to have experienced an abduction, to actually be interacting with some part of themselves?
A: That would be a very good possibility. Now, before you ask another question, stop and contemplate for a moment: what possibilities does this open up? Is there any limit? And if there is, what is that? Is it not an area worth exploring? For example, just one example for you to digest: What if the abduction scenario could take place where your soul projection, in what you perceive as the future, can come back and abduct your soul projection in what you perceive as the present? Is it one possible future, but not all possible futures? And is the pathway of free will not connected to all of this?
In short, any and all of the manifestations of aliens and so forth are “us” in probable futures. We can choose which future manifests: us as the creepy reptoids and grays who abduct and violate, torture and torment, or us as beings who completely honor free will.
When we first consider this idea, the solution seems to be rather simple: we just choose to do what is good and right and everything will be fine and dandy. If we are being good, then the future will be good, and “as below, so above,” the higher “future” reality will reflect our choices of goodness and free will, right?
But here is where we arrive at the sticking point. As I have written numerous times, there is something about this that we don’t understand because such a simple solution has never worked, and I wanted to know why. Think about it. Throughout history we find one group praying to their god to protect them from the depredations of another group. The other group is praying just as fervently that their depredations will be successful. When one group succeeds in killing another, is that proof that its god is supreme? What then happens if the members of the successful group are then reincarnated into the group that was defeated? This is not a rhetorical question since a rather influential book was written about the great numbers of Jews who died in the Holocaust now being reincarnated as Christians. There has also been some suggestion that many Nazis are now being reincarnated as Jews. What then, does such an idea do to the concept of “my god is the only right one?”
I can assure the reader from my own experience as a hypnotherapist, that every single case I have worked with in terms of past-life therapy, has demonstrated a string of lives in such variety of nationality and religious orientation, that it literally makes a joke of anyone stating with absolute certainty, that their beliefs or orientation now, are the only right ones. It is evident that those who declaim against another group most vehemently will most certainly find themselves a member of that very group in the next round of incarnation. And frankly, it doesn’t matter if the reader believes this or not; there is sufficient clinical evidence that it is so, that if presented in a court of law as circumstantial evidence, it would be so overwhelming that the judge and the jury would be persuaded of the truth of it even without a smoking gun.
And that brings us back again to the factor that, for some reason, we are denied access to our greater self. And thus, people continue to kill one another for the conscious beliefs they hold, never realizing the price they may pay for these actions. This begs the question of why people cannot remember the previous lessons in past lives; why the wisdom of the soul is not available to the person. If humans have souls or spirits, why is the knowledge of past karmic cycles not part of a person’s wisdom?
What can answer the question as to why human beings engage in activities that will only trap them here for a myriad of lifetimes? Is this planet nothing more than a huge recycling bin; no-matter what people do, there will always be new and improved ways for killing other humans?
What would be the payoff for our reality to exist as such a structure that causes the soul to constantly recycle? What would be the reason for such darkness that perpetuates this vast and abyssal ignorance? What is the payoff for all this misery and suffering; the tormented souls and the deaths of innocents? What is this mysterious gap between intent, desire, and physical manifestation? What darkness exists in our subconscious minds that has created a world so hostile and uncaring? What power separates us from knowledge of the true nature of our reality and leaves us exposed to suffering and pain?
No matter how one defines reality – as a self-created manifestation, or as an accomplished fact thrust upon us – the reality of suffering must be seen as a consequence of this separation. And, if the world of matter is created and maintained by us, what brought this blindness into being?
If the world is created by God, is our suffering a consequence of willful disobedience? If so, then man’s being is a blight on the cosmos. If that is so, then what shall we do with goodness, nobility and selfless brotherly love and reverent worship? From where has this duality originated?
If we accept that, for whatever reason, some aspect of creation has manifested the limited three dimensions in which our consciousness finds itself, how would we describe this condition and its potential for change? What does it mean that the universe may leave all its options open until the very last instant? If that is the case, then what are we doing when we pray for a specific outcome, or when we believe in the End of the World? The questions about how our beliefs may shape our reality are among the most significant in all of consciousness research.
This leads to another point: it seems that we must accept the objective fact that attempts to change the world spiritually, or to regulate large-scale events, simply do not work. Yes, there does seem to be evidence that individuals or small groups of individuals can make small changes or produce effects with a limited range of influence. But for some reason the world, as it is, seems to operate based on rules or laws that we do not understand. The fundamental nature of the physical world seems to be antithetical to this spiritualization. While we all might like to think we can transform our world by praying and/or thinking positively, we must remember that there is a great deal of evidence that real transformations of the planet have repeatedly been cataclysmic. A philosophy which ignores this fact is courting disaster.
It may be that the focus upon creating a new world or a New Age quite literally contributes energy to the dissolution of the present age in a manner which follows scientific principles. This brings us back to Einstein’s remarks in his 1938 paper:
We have, therefore, to take the fifth dimension seriously although we are not encouraged to do so by plain experience. The most essential point of our theory is the replacing of rigorous cylindricity by the assumption that space is closed (or periodic). Kaluza’s five dimensional theory of the physical space provides a unitary representation of gravitation and electromagnetism. It is much more satisfactory to introduce the fifth dimension not only formally, but to assign to it some physical meaning.
In other words: time is cyclical. We live in a time loop. And here is where the Cs material is so important. Over and over again, developing the themes of my lifelong search, they have expressed concepts and ideas that are on the cutting edge of physics research.
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) What is the “ultimate secret” being protected by the Consortium?
A: You are not in control of yourselves, you are an experiment.
Q: (T) When you say this is the ultimate secret that we’re being “protected” from by the government, are we talking about the ultimate secret of humans only here?
A: Basically.
Q: (T) The ultimate secret of the human race is that we are an experiment that other humans are conducting on the rest of us?
A: Part.
Q: (T) OK, does the other part have to do with the Lizards?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Other aliens also?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) OK, so, are the humans who are running the experiment, do they know that they are part of the experiment also?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And they’re doing this willingly?
A: They have no choice.
Q: (L) Why do they have no choice?
A: Already in progress.
Q: (T) What is the experiment about?
A: Too complicated for you to understand.
Q: (J) I hate it when that happens! (T) OK, is this part of, is this about the experiment the Lizzies are doing of dominating us and sucking us dry?
A: Yes, but there’s much more than that, you will understand at level 4.
Q: (L) OK, in this Krill document there was a statement made that the Grays and other aliens use glandular substances extracted during physical exams of human beings, what they would call the gynecological and the sperm-extraction exams, that they used these glandular substances to get high or to feed on, that they are addicted to these. Is this a correct assessment?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do they use glandular substances at all?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What do they use glandular substances for?
A: Medicine.
Q: (L) And what or who do they use this medicine on?
A: Themselves.
Q: (L) And what does this medicine do for them?
A: Helps them cope with 3rd density.
Q: (T) Is this something that they use to help them stay in the third density?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Does it help them to manifest in a more solid physical manner?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, they draw glandular substances; do they also use sexual energy given off by individuals to maintain their status in 3 dimensions?
A: No. That feeds them in 4d, as we told you before.
Q: (L) Yes. OK. How “long”, and I put long in quotes, because we know, as you say, there is no time, but how long, as we measure it, have the Grays been interacting with our race? The Grays, not the Lizards, the Grays, the cybergenetic probes?
A: Time travelers, therefore, “Time is ongoing.” Do you understand the gravity of [this] response?
Q: (L) They are time travelers, they can move forward and backward in time, they can play games with our heads … (T) They can set up the past to create a future they want. (D) They can organize things so that they can create the energy that they need … (L) They can also make things look good, make them feel good, make them seem good, they can make you have an idea one minute, and then the next minute, create some sort of situation that confirms that idea …
A: When you asked how long, of course it is totally unlimited, is it not?
Q: (L) That’s not good. If they were to move back through space-time and alter an event in our past, would that alteration in the past instantaneously alter our present as well?
A: Has over and over and over. You just are not yet aware, and have no idea of the ramifications!!!
Q: (L) We’re getting a little glimmer! Yeah, I do, a little! (T) The ramifications of being able to move in and out of time and manipulate it the way you want (L) So, in other words, our only real prayer in this whole damn situation is to get out of this density level. That’s what they’re saying, that’s what it sounds like to me.
A: Close.
Q: (L) Because, otherwise, we’re just literally, as in that book, stuck in the replay over and over and over, and the Holocaust could happen over and over, and we could just, you know … Ghengis Khan, Atilla the Hun … over and over and over again. (T) We’re stuck in a time loop; they’re putting us in a time loop. (J) Are we in a time loop?
A: Yes.
Q: (D) I have a question about … Mankind has found it necessary for some reason or other to appoint time. The only reason I can see is to have a means of telling, like in verbal or written communications …
A: Control mechanism.
Q: (T) Is there a way for us to break the control mechanism? Besides moving to fourth density?
A: Nope.
Q: (D) When fourth-density beings communicate it’s telepathic, right?
A: Yes.
Q: (D) OK, since time doesn’t exist, how do you communicate about happenings?
A: Rephrase, please; clarify.
Q: (L) What she means to ask is, if time doesn’t exist, how do you communicate about events as one happens now, as opposed to later and the next thing happens, and the next thing happens … I mean, we talk about 1907 something happened …
A: Translate. That is how it is done. You translate the experience from 4 to 3. And vice versa.
Q: (L) So, in other words, if you’re a fourth-density being, everything is more or less happening, excuse the term happening, everything is simultaneous, and if you wish to discuss or communicate or have any focus upon any particular aspect of this unified dimension, then what you do is you kind of extract it out, project it into 3d …
A: Close.
Q: (L) … like a movie.
A: But you will not understand fully until you get there.
Q: (L) Is the only way of getting out of this time loop, so to speak, to move into another density, or is there a loop in the other density as well?
A: No.
Q: (L) No loop in the other density?
A: Yogis can do it. How they control their own physicality.
And so we have a few more clues. We have some idea that our reality is something of a stage upon which the dramas of fourth density are projected. In short, it seems evident that the energies of Creation emanate “downward,” and our individuality as human beings is merely an expression of these theological dramas. To attempt to exert our will or to make our voice travel “upward,” against Creation, results only in the strengthening of the forces that violate free will, because it is, in essence, an attempt to violate the free will of Creation. This is why praying, rituals designed to change reality, positive thinking with the intent to change something “up there,” in order to receive the benefits “down here,” is always doomed to produce more strife, misery and suffering.
What we can do is to prepare ourselves for the emanations that are traveling “downward” to be better received. So, indeed, my correspondent is correct: “There is a ‘symmetry balance’ which posits that we are in control of the Matrix. The Matrix reflects us and we it. What we become – it becomes.” This is the essential point of Castaneda when he wrote:
He explained that one of the greatest accomplishments of the seers of the Conquest was a construct he called the three-phase progression. By understanding the nature of man, they were able to reach the incontestable conclusion that if seers can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of the unknowable.
“The average man’s reaction is to think that the order of that statement should be reversed,” he went on. “A seer who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants. But that’s not so. What destroyed the superb seers of ancient times was that assumption. We know better now. We know that nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to stand the pressure of the unknowable.”
All around us we see the results of this error: the idea that we can exert our will and voice upward to change what is “above” us in order to change our reality. This idea is at the root of rites and rituals, demanding, pleading, visualizations, “workings,” and so forth. When people think that “meditating on compassion,” or “feeling the feelings of all beings,” is going to result in the “sonic entrainment of the heart’s rhythm [being] braided into more complex and coherent patterns,” which will then enable the person to “create a diamond imperishable body for use as a teaching vehicle down here on earth,” they have missed the point entirely. To compare such ideas to the true work of the Yogi is simply ignorant.
Yogis don’t just sit down one day and meditate on compassion or the feeling of oneness and “boom!” experience an “implosive soul force.” Before the Yogi has ever achieved the point of being able to think even momentarily about “the oneness of all beings,” or the “feelings of all beings,” he has spent many, many years in the struggle between “yes” and “no” – the struggle to master his emotions, his desires, his physicality. It is the work of making the physical vehicle “down here,” receptive to whatever may be “up there,” as opposed to trying to forcibly create something “up there,” in order to have it “down here.”
But not everybody can just drop out of life and become a Yogi.
And it seems that those nasty versions of ourselves in the future really wish to continue to exist, to become even more powerful, and as a consequence, they exert a great deal of energy attempting to ensure not only their continued survival, but their ultimate dominance over all Creation! After all, it is a time loop, and the last time it looped around, they were the outcome, the choice, the probable future that became the Now. And they want to keep it that way.
And the choice as to which reality we will cycle into for the next round, or whether or not we can step out of the loop at the nexus point, has to be made rather soon. Which is why there is so much effort to conceal, disinform, obfuscate, and disrupt the dissemination of the ideas of free will and true service to others. These future selves of the Reptilian, Gray, and other STS varieties are using time travel to go back and repeatedly change the past, to plant misleading clues, to get folks to make the choices that will strengthen their hold on this density, and consequently, fourth density. The alternate futures: us in the future as the “bad guys,” or us in the future as light beings is being decided now. The battle is now. It is through us.
It seems that one of the chief forms of disinformation that keeps humanity locked into the STS mode of existence, and which is hoped to ensure the ultimate victory of the STS forces at higher levels, is exactly what we have described above: the reversal of the natural order of achieving self-mastery. A very popular form of this disinformation is found in the so-called “Flower of Life” and related “Sacred Geometry” teachings that are very popular in the present time. The stated purpose of the system is:
Through our teachings of sacred geometry, we introduce the student to ancient esoteric teachings given around the world for thousands of years. These teachings, based on sacred geometry, illustrate for the left brain how there is truly only one consciousness, one spirit, one God, and that we are all part of that oneness. After the mind understands this concept, we then teach the student a 17-breath merkaba meditation that will allow he or she to feel and experience this unity of all life. The left and right brains suddenly awaken to this universal truth and the heart begins to put this truth into action.
Seeing and feeling this unity of life clearly within every aspect of our lives is very important. Both sides of the brain begin to move into harmony and balance, and this kind of balance aids the heart in opening. Experiencing this universal unity also integrates the heart and mind, which weaves peace and balance into all corners of our being. Harmony and balance opens windows in our mind, our heart, and our spirit. Without divine unity inside of us, these windows of inspiration are rarely available. Internal unity opens a doorway within us and allows prana or “divine balanced life force energy” to enter the innermost channels of our physical being. It begins a process of inner healing and rejuvenation that affects our physical, emotional, and spiritual bodies.
There are many variations on this theme, including “Projecting the Tree of Life on the Celestial Globe,” or utilizing the “Meta-Programming Protocol.” All of them, as the reader can easily see from the above description, constitute the idea that we can exert our will and voice upward to change what is “above” us in order to change our reality, ourselves, moving our brains into harmony, or aiding the “heart in opening,” obtaining “harmony and balance” which is then going to “open windows in our mind, our heart, and our spirit,” etc. It is then stated (quite truthfully, I should add, since good disinformation is always wrapped in a warm and fuzzy truth), that, “without Divine Unity inside of us, these windows of inspiration are rarely available.” What is left out is the cold, hard fact that this is entirely the bass-ackward way to go about achieving any of the above claimed benefits.
Sure, such activities will temporarily produce chemical changes that will feel very good, the same way a good meal satisfies hunger temporarily. It really feels good! But just as the steak and salad are digested and most of the matter excreted in a few hours, and another steak and salad is needed to fill the stomach again, so do such practices fail to so anything more than perpetuate the food chain. And, staying with the analogy, very little of the substance of such practices actually stays with the individual.
A self-proclaimed Enochian Magician of our acquaintance has described such pathways in the following terms: “The magickal training was great too. I was learning and experiencing faster than I had dreamed possible, and for a sensation junkie like me, this was heaven.”
And that is the key: sensation junkies. As I wrote in Secret History, the problem with the whole human potential/consciousness expansion movement is this: in the midst of all these mind-blowing peak experiences of drug-induced spiritual voyages, turning on and tuning in, ecstasy and encountering, many people encountered things that, perhaps, ought not have been awakened. Boundaries were breached into unseeable and terrifying realms of consciousness. Never mind that all of these products of the psychedelic mysticism of the 1960s and 70s bypassed the vital processes of reason and conscious decision making. By its very nature, the whole techno-spiritual machine operated completely without critical thinking; it tapped the bottomless pit of feeling – emotion – primal being. Never mind that much of this emotion was negative, confusing, anxious, and fearful! Let’s just get it all out here in the open and have a party with it!
So preserve yourselves, my brothers, from the calamities of this place, for distinguishing it is extremely difficult! Souls find it sweet, and then within it they are duped, since they become completely enamored of it. (Al-‘Arabi, Futuhat, III 38.23, translated by William Chittick)
Nowadays most people interested in the spirituality of the East desire the “experience,” though they may call what they are after intimate communion with God. Those familiar with the standards and norms of spiritual experience set down by disciplined paths like Sufism are usually appalled at the way Westerners seize upon any apparition from the domain outside of normal consciousness as a manifestation of the “spiritual.” In fact, there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world. (Chittick, 1989)
Thus, by the end of the decade of the ’60s, the human potential movement had become a veritable potpourri of religion, science, mysticism, magick and the occult. The drug use got out of hand, the techniques began to show serious flaws in the many tragedies that occurred in any given practice, and the whole idea of human beings becoming “psychic supermen” hit the skids. The promise of the ’60s decayed into an aimless lethargy – old hippies living in communes, braiding their gray locks and lusting after the sweet young teeny boppers while they fired up another bong and reminisced about the good old days at Esalen.
But wait! Something else happened here! Remember, this is America! The home of the Free – Market, that is. Big business saw a gold mine in the consciousness raising movement of the ’60s and we saw the development of slick, newly packaged psychoanalysis and psychodrama! There was mass-distribution and Madison-Avenue marketing of things like Mind Dynamics, Arica, Silva Mind Control, Transcendental Meditation, and on and on.
And the cults proliferated. Yes, many of the mind-wounded ran straight back into the arms of their childhood faith; but many more became victims of the many up-and-coming cults that were happy to take them in and patch the holes in their psyches, or fix them up for a few weekends of Merkaba Meditations, Equinox Workings, Mystery School Mish-mash, or Pagan Pow-wows. Many of the cults, and even the old time religions, took advantage of the new marketing strategies and polished up their images, sent their people to advertising classes and then out into the world in massive fundraising and recruitment drives. Many of them even have their own ad-men!
So, the race was on again! Only now, it was like buying Coca-Cola! The “pause that refreshes” right here in this very tape set, consciousness-raising course, or cult practice! It had become a form of spiritual masturbation where everyone was “meeting their own needs” in private. You could put on your strobe glasses, listen to your astral travel tape, channel your very own guides, confer with the Ophanic Intelligences, merge with the “Nine Neters,” and get high without ever leaving the farm! You could change your beliefs, create your own reality, indulge your inner child/ego, and become One with all Creation, by mail, by golly!
What nobody seems to be talking about, however, are the concomitant changes in our world that very well may be the direct result of this so-called shift in consciousness. Nobody wants to talk about the hard reality of what is really going on out there. One correspondent described it so well that I will reproduce his comments:
I think I am noticing a vast world of things going on that, just a few short years ago, would never have happened. Almost everywhere I look, when I see circumstances and reactions and goings-on, the thought explodes into my head – “What in the world is going on here?”
-The modern-day Roman circus spectaculars of Elians, O.J.s and Monicas
-The appeal of today’s non-music, music that appeals to the most base of human emotion and response
-The opiate of the mindless drone and flicker of constant television
-The dangled carrot of a manipulated and contrived economy
-The apathy toward the government and their meaningless platitudes
-The increase in violence and attacks from close and least expected sources, which appear to be designed by outside forces to both provide an energy feeding frenzy, as well as, divert those seeking awareness and understanding from a path of discovery
-The dark side of Tesla genius
-The easy access of Internet porn and the proliferation of cyber-sex as an option to replace “real life”
And to the above I would like to add:
-One out of every 100 Americans is living in a prison, a figure unprecedented in our history.
-The numbers of people on prescription, mind-altering drugs is even higher than the number of people in physical prisons.
-We are now diagnosing and drugging even our children for behavior that was once considered to be “normal” for a child!
-Gang proliferation throughout all levels of society, where once such things existed only among the very poor and disadvantaged.
-Violence among children who are becoming violent at younger ages than ever before.
-Mass killings have become so common they aren’t even reported on the front page anymore!
And, while I have your ear: what’s up with the way kids dress nowadays? Well, it’s not even just kids – it’s ubiquitous! It seems that human beings, under the influence of Madison Avenue and the motivation masters of greed and degradation, get up real early in the morning in order to figure out how to dress themselves, arrange their hair, and decorate their bodies in as repulsive a way as possible!
I am continuously revolted by clerks in stores with multiply pierced body parts, tattoos that look more like dirt smudges or bruises than art, hair that looks like it was arranged by Atilla the Hun or Torquemada, the Grand Inquisitor; make-up that looks like it was applied by Vlad the Impaler. Young people wear clothing that makes them look like rejects from the Oklahoma dust bowl days. Chains and chunks of metal clank from every part of their person as they saunter about displaying their “cool” to their peers, looking more like a combination of an ancient Mongol warrior and survivor of a death camp than anything else.
And it’s not what they claim – personal expression – because it is more of a uniform than anything else! The demand to have the same look, the same brand of clothing, the same body parts pierced, or to think of new and more bizarre ways to do it, is overwhelming every parent I know. I have had to draw the line in my own house, telling my kids that they won’t eat at my table if the way they look makes my stomach churn!
Who or what is inspiring these manifestations of purely barbaric behavior? Who is turning humanity into beings who accept what used to be the trappings of slavery as if it were the latest style? And what’s more, to convince them that it is “expressive” or “attractive?” What, in the name of God, is going on when physical self-mutilation and self-defacement, mind-numbing and body-jarring sounds, and things that are just plain ugly are considered normal?! And, not just normal, but attractive, for God’s sake!
Those who have bought into the New Age bonanza seem to have shut off their minds and the effect on their offspring is frightening. They have become part of a reality that is ripe for being taken over by the first “strong man” who comes along with “signs and wonders.”
However, based on the information from the Cs, we now have some idea that the fourth density (equivalent to the fifth dimension in mathematical terms), is a para-physical realm of archetypes, and that these archetypal groupings may be the arbiters of human, societal, and national interactions as conceived, and created by mass thought or vice versa! We may merely be the actors in an archetypal play that is written, cast, directed and produced from some other layer of reality. It may be that there are set pieces we each play, and perhaps these cumulative events of humans in this world are the energies that express the balance or imbalance of forces or beings at higher levels.
And this brings us to the problem of frequency-resonance vibration. Why did the Cs make a remark about a Pied Piper-type of person as being “programmed decoy, due to FRV??” How does this relate to the Matrix? As it happens, the subject of FRV was brought up on a number of occasions by the Cs, in several contexts that need to be carefully examined.
August 5, 1995
Q: (L) There was a discussion the other day and it made me curious. It seems that some people simply do not have the capacity to understand certain concepts. Is this a function of vibrational frequency?
A: That is not quite hitting at the subject matter in the way in which you desire to answer the question. In other words, it is a parallel understanding pattern. It is not vibrational frequency that determines ability to conceive of any particular notion. Vibrational frequency involves the groove, or pattern, that one has chosen in general terms.
But, to give you an example, there are those who are of very LOW, as you would measure, vibrational frequency, who are able to conceive of extremely complicated issues and have also discovered extremely precise, complicated, and intricate answers to very complex notions and problems from your standpoint in the illusion.
But, the frequency vibrational level has more to do with the emotional path that leads either to Service to Self at its greatest possible expression, or Service to Others at its greatest possible expression, not with intellectual capacity. So it is possible for a completely STS individual at any density level to be completely cognizant of all existence, just as it is possible for a completely STO individual to be completely cognizant of all existence. It has nothing to do with vibrational frequency because that is the emotional pathway.
Think, if you will, in your lifetime have you ever met either a) an individual that you did not perceive to be particularly intellectually developed, who was, nevertheless, of a very kind and loving and giving nature; or b) an individual whom you perceive to have great intellectual capacity who was, nevertheless, extremely selfish and non-giving and not generous and not concerned about anyone’s well being but their own?
Naturally, [lesser intellectual capacity] itself, can lead to all sorts of emotional entanglements and frictions. The greater the intellectual capacity, the greater the chance that each and every facet of intellect will be available for use, growth and stimulation. The lesser the intellectual capacity, the greater the chance that some will not be available. [However], it does not require a differential in vibrational frequency level to produce the types of symptoms that you describe. It is merely intellectual capacity that is inferior rather than the vibrational frequency level. Again, this vibrational frequency level involves nature of being and emotion, not intelligence.
The remark the Cs made about FRV, which suggests that a person is amenable to being programmed because of their FRV, or, as we understand it now, the “emotional path that leads either to service-to-self at its greatest possible expression, or service-to-others at its greatest possible expression,” seems to be related to abductions. The reader will remember the discussion we have already had about frequency of abductions:
Q: (L) Why have they abducted Frank more than me?
A: You fight it.
This was later connected to Frequency-Resonance Vibration in an interesting way. In the following short excerpt, the discussion was about mind programming, in specific, what is referred to as Greenbaum programming, a sort of Nazi/Satanist/Secret government Manchurian Candidate-type of thing. Everyone was asking “what about me?” and reference was made to me:
October 5, 1996
A: Laura had more advanced work done on her.
Q: (V) That opens up a whole new can of worms. (L) And what do you mean by that?
A: Not now.
Q: (L) Who did this work, can I have that? Can I know that?
A: Consortium.
Q: (L) Is there any possibility, to some extent, that I have overcome this influence at the present time?
A: No. Was partial, then aborted, leaving fragments of trigger response programs that have been in remission.
Q: (L) Why was it aborted?
A: Because STO forces intervened.
Q: (L) And when was this?
A: Mid ’fifties.
Q: (L) So it was when I was three or four years old.
At a later time, when there were not so many people present, I came back to the subject, and it was here that the remark about frequency-resonance vibration was inserted which, when taken in conjunction with the remark about fewer abductions because “you fight it,” begins to give us some idea of how these things may be related:
October 12, 1996
Q: (L) Well, was I mind programmed? You said once that I was not Greenbaumed, but that something else was done. What was this?
A: The work that was attempted was more intense, but it was aborted because it turned out that your frequency resonance vibration was not proper for that particular type of “experimental” programming.
Q: Does this mean that there was something about my vibrations that caused what they were trying to do to result in positive things?
A: Possibly, in an offhand way.
My thought at the time I asked the last question above was that perhaps the fear and trauma I had experienced as a child was what motivated me so powerfully to seek for answers. That would be a positive result from a negative event. In the same way, I think that many of the difficulties we all face, some of us more than others, tend to make us stronger. Of course, the real test that we have learned from our difficulties seems to be not so much that they no longer happen, but that they no longer have any ability to control our responses – we have disconnected from the reaction machine.
Nevertheless, the fact that what was done to me as a child included a major attempt to gain physical control of me – that was obviously an act of desperation or so many risks of exposure would not have been taken – seems to suggest that my life was certainly in danger to the point that protective intervention was necessary.
August 1, 1998
Q: (L) I was also reading in some of the transcripts as I have been going through them getting them ready to print, that you once said that “supremely powerful” STS forces were responsible for kidnapping and programming me. My question is: if they had me, why did they bring me back?
A: Would you expect otherwise?
Q: (L) Well, you said that they tried to do some programming and that it didn’t work and that STO forces intervened. So, I am just a little confused. If I was such a threat to them, why did they bring me back. Under the circumstances, I could have just disappeared forever and that would be that!
A: No.
Q: (L) What prevented that?
A: Occlusion.
Q: (L) Occlusion of what?
A: Best to research through meditation and hypnosis.
Occlude: to block or stop up (a passage or opening); obstruct. 2. (tr.) to prevent the passage of. To be occluded is to be veiled, or to be hidden behind a blocking wall or frequency envelope. Apparently, there are parts of myself that do things that the rest of me knows nothing about!
We come back now to that most interesting series of comments about the monitoring of the sessions:
February 1, 1997
Q: (L) Let me ask; is there going to be any attempt to further attack or harm us in any way?
A: Well, let us put it this way: the future is fluid, as you know. Knowledge protects you. But, it would be wise to picture these letters appearing on a screen somewhere, at the same moment that they are uttered!
Q: (L) Is it the uttering that … (T) Uttering, or spelled on the board? (L) … “the moment they are uttered” … is it the uttering that is the key?
A: Does not matter, in all reality. The key is what the expectation is as to how they are intended to be put to use.
In short, as long as it was just me and a few friends talking about physics and the Matrix reality, there was really nothing terribly threatening to the Control System. But at this point in time, apparently something significant had changed, and that was the fact that Ark was on his way to join us.
Q: (L) Is there an internal configuration or frequency level that makes it so that the persons who are selected to do this monitoring, or to be involved in any of this kind of activity, such as you have described, as in the words appearing on the screen, etc., so that they are definitely selected because of their STS orientation?
A: This process takes place naturally. Now, a warning for you. Frequency resonance modulations of vibration rate can be altered or modified from outside if one is not cautious and/or aware enough, and thus takes necessary precautions.
I know that my question above is really worded in so confusing a way that it is hard to know what I am asking. I had the idea that what was being described was a sort of techno-implant that was used for such monitoring. I realized that the Cs were suggesting that someone in our group was a monitor, and I most definitely wanted to find some excuse for this. Surely it could not be because the person was fundamentally STS. I thought that maybe some people are involved in some of these activities are innocent of any ill intent. Or, maybe they are forced to do things against their will. I was looking for an out for that person.
And the Cs didn’t give it to me. They said: “This process takes place naturally.” In other words, if somebody is doing it, it is because that is what they are since “the frequency vibrational level has more to do with the emotional path that leads either to service-to-self at its greatest possible expression, or service-to-others at its greatest possible expression,” and this was followed by a warning that “Frequency resonance modulations of vibration rate can be altered or modified from outside if one is not cautious and/or aware enough, and thus takes necessary precautions.” This is the big humdinger of the thing we are concerned with here. Very STO-oriented individuals can be switched onto a different track if they are not constantly on the alert and if they do not take the necessary precautions! Sometimes, those precautions include divorcing oneself from association with individuals who are vectors if it is realized that continued association will expose one to things that can alter or modify frequency. This was the approach we took with Vincent Bridges. There is also another very important factor relating to FRV: Earth Changes.
February 22, 1997
Q: (J) What causes the change in the axis?
A: By slow-down of rotation, Earth alternately heats up and cools down in interior.
Q: (L) Why does it do that? What’s the cause of this?
A: Part of cycle related to energy exerted upon surface by the frequency resonance vibrational profile of humans and others.
July 4, 1998
Q: (A) I understand that the main disaster is going to come from this comet cluster …
A: Disasters involve cycles in the human experiential cycle which corresponds to the passage of comet cluster.
Keep the above in mind in relation to both the death of Princess Diana (discussed in the next chapter), as well as the September 11 disaster.
The idea of frequency-resonance vibration is intimately connected to what the Cs have referred to as an “EM vector,” or “focuser of direction.”
May 3, 1997
Q: Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when Tom was also here, and the issue of his being in O’Brien was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there, then there was a remark about an EM vector. The way I understood it is that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?
A: Vector means focuser of direction.
Q: Could that mean that EM waves can be vectored by a human being simply by their presence? I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight!
Q: One of the things I have learned is that these individuals seem to attach via some sort of psychic hook that enters through our reactions of pity. Can you comment on the nature of pity?
A: Pity those who pity.
Q: But, the ones who are being pitied, who generate sensations of pity, do not really pity anybody but themselves.
A: Yes … ?
Q: Then, is it true as my son said, when you give pity, when you send love and light to those in darkness, or those who complain and want to be “saved” without effort on their own part, when you are kind in the face of abuse and manipulation, that you essentially are giving power to their further disintegration, or contraction into self-ishness? That you are powering their descent into STS?
A: You know the answer!
Q: Yes. I have seen it over and over again.
What this seems to suggest is that the individuals with whom we associate can vector our direction in terms of thinking as well as emotional pathway. This relates back to the remark about the possibility that “frequency resonance modulations of vibration rate can be altered or modified from outside if one is not cautious and/or aware enough, and thus takes necessary precautions.” This is, in fact, something we have had to deal with on a number of occasions, as the reader will soon see.
What all of this seems to signify is that frequency-resonance vibration can be amplified or damped which can have a powerful impact on whether the individual is ready to graduate to the next level or not. The levels of density have been described by the Cs as “slots,” and consciousness energy as “marbles.”
May 31, 1997
Q: Now you have mentioned these “slots.” What are these slots, and how does one move from one slot to another?
A: Picture this: you have 7 sizes of marbles. You have 7 widths of slots. Where do the marbles “fit in.”
Q: Do the marbles represent units of consciousness?
A: Close. Or, divisions of consciousness level energy resonance profiles.
Q: Do these divisions of consciousness grow and change?
A: Yes.
Q: And they grow and change through acquiring knowledge; is that correct?
A: Basically.
Q: And acquiring knowledge is akin to acquiring energy? Or light? Light energy?
A: Not exactly. That would be like saying that “filling up” at the gas station is akin to acquiring speed.
Q: So, knowledge and light are like the gas for the car, but speed comes from utilization?
A: Yes.
Q: And utilization means …
A: Knowledge application which generates energy, which, in turn, generates light.
Please notice that utilization of knowledge is what generates light. The Cs have already pointed out that “it is possible for a completely STS individual at any density level to be completely cognizant of all existence, just as it is possible for a completely STO individual to be completely cognizant of all existence.” It has nothing to do with vibrational frequency because that is the emotional pathway, and the difference seems to lie between individuals who are of a very kind and loving and giving nature, as opposed to individuals who are extremely selfish and non-giving, and not generous and not concerned about anyone’s well being but their own.
August 28, 1999
Q: (A) There are those who are happy in the STS mode; and there are those who are trying to get out of the STS mode …
A: STO candidate.
Q: (A) These STO candidates cannot just simply be, even theoretically, because then, STS would eat them.
A: No.
Q: Why not?
A: STS does not eat according to protocol. STS “eats” whatever it wants to, if it is able.
Q: That’s what we said. If you are STO in an STS world, you are basically defenseless and they eat you.
A: No.
Q: Why? What makes STO unavailable or “inedible?”
A: Frequency resonance not in sync.
This last remark takes us back to utilization of knowledge. In order for knowledge to protect, it must be utilized. By becoming aware of the theological reality that utilizes the psychological substrate, we are enabled to make choices based on this invisible reality, which greatly enhance our possibilities of avoiding being “eaten” by STS forces. Notice that the Cs said that STS “eats” whatever it wants to, if it is able. And what makes STO inedible is frequency resonance of true STO, and not STS masquerading as STO which is the majority of what passes for love and light. This leads us to another most enlightening series of remarks:
April 14, 2000
Q: (A) What is interesting is how do those who are trying to get these people, to abduct them, how do they spot them? How do they get the information? By following the bloodline, or by some kind of monitor you can detect from a long distance – and they can note that “here is somebody of interest” or “here is somebody dangerous” or “let’s abduct this one” or whatever. How do they select? Do they search the genealogies or is it some kind of remote sensing?
A: Now this is interesting Arkadiusz, as it involves the atomic “signature” of the cellular structure of the individual. In concert with this is the etheric body reading and the frequency resonance vibration. All these are interconnected, and can be read from a distance using remote viewing technology/methodology.
Q: (L) Can it be done in a pure mechanical way without using psychic means?
A: At another level of understanding, the two are blended into one.
Q: (T) Computerized psychic remote viewing, maybe. Like artificial intelligence. Maybe a mind connected to a computer?
A: That is close, yes.
This takes us back to a much earlier remark about the reason that the aliens have been doing their abducting and genetic meddling.
October 7, 1995
Q: (L) But isn’t the nature of a person determined by their soul and not the physical body?
A: Partially, remember, aural profile and karmic reference merges with physical structure.
Q: (L) So you are saying that particular genetic conditions are a physical reflection of a spiritual orientation? That the soul must match itself to the genetics, even if only in potential?
A: Yes, precisely.
Q: (L) So a person’s potential for spiritual advancement or unfoldment is, to a great extent, dependent upon their genes?
A: Natural process marries with systematic construct when present.
Q: (L) Well, if that is the case, and the aliens are abducting people and altering their genes, can they not alter the genes so that higher level souls simply cannot come in?
A: Not incarnative process, natural biological processes. Incarnative involves strictly ethereal at 5th density and lower, and thus is enveloped in triple cycle “veil” of transfer which is impregnable by any means. However, any and all 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th processes can be manipulated at will and to any degree if technology is sufficient.
Which then leads us to the following:
July 22, 2000
A: We wish to review some things first. The concept of a “master race” put forward by the Nazis was merely a 4th density STS effort to create a physical vehicle with the correct frequency resonance vibration for 4th density STS souls to occupy in 3rd density. It was also a “trial run” for planned events in what you perceive to be your future.
Q: (L) You mean with a strong STS frequency so they can have a “vehicle” in third density, so to speak?
A: Correct. Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.
Q: (L) So, that is why they are programming and experimenting? And all these folks running around who some think are “programmed,” could be individuals who are raising their nastiness levels high enough to accommodate the truly negative STS fourth density – sort of like walk-ins or something, only not nice ones?
A: You do not have very many of those present yet, but that was, and still is, the plan of some of the 4th density STS types.
August 5, 2000
Q: OK, last session you brought up the subject of frequency-resonance vibration. You suggested that there are certain STS forces who are developing or creating or managing physical bodies that they are trying to increase the frequency in so that they will have bodies that are wired so that they can manifest directly into third density, since that seems to be the real barrier that prevents an all-out invasion, the fact that we are in third density and they are in fourth. Now, I assumed that the same function could be true for STO individuals. It seems that many individuals who have come into this time period from the future, coming back into the past via the incarnational cycle so as not to violate free will, have carefully selected bodies with particular DNA, which they are, little by little, activating so that their fourth-density selves, or higher, can manifest in this reality. Is it possible for those energies to manifest into such bodies which have been awakened or tuned in third density?
A: STO tends to do the process within the natural flow of things. STS seeks to alter creation processes to fit their ends.
Q: This Top Secret document and the Anna Hayes material to some extent, both talk about many abductions being “ourselves from the future” who have come back to the past, or what is for us, the present, to abduct their own bodies to make genetic adjustments so that they can advance and not make the mistakes they made in another timeline. Is that, in fact, part of the scenario?
A: Very close to the truth!
Q: Can you abduct yourself in an STO manner and help yourself in this way? Can that be STO?
A: It is not, because that is not STO.
Q: So, when that is happening, and if it is happening, it is occurring in the STS parameter?
A: Yes.
Q: How do the STO manage?
A: They do not concern themselves with such things.
Q: Well, if the STS guys are genetically tweaking themselves to have some kind of different outcome for some reason that we do not perceive, don’t you think there should be a balancing action on the STO side of some sort?
A: You are thinking in STS terms. But that is natural, since human 3rd density is STS.
Q: You say they don’t concern themselves with that. What do STO individuals coming back from the future into the past concern themselves with?
A: Answering calls for assistance with knowledge.
Q: What do these STS individuals coming back into the past hope to do by genetically tweaking their ancestors? What happened that they want to have happen differently?
A: Infinite number of possible answers to that question.
Q: So, they are coming from all different timelines with all different kinds of agendas – all designed to serve themselves.
The important thing to think about in all of the above review is the fact that we are talking about emotional pathways when we talk about frequency-resonance vibration. Indeed, as the Cs noted, intellect can serve us well in avoiding emotional traps and entanglements but intellect, in and of itself, is not FRV.
“Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in third density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.”
We come closer to understanding what the Cs meant when they mentioned “programmed decoy, due to FRV,” and we have a much better idea of how others can be activated as programmed decoys because of their STS FRV. Apparently we were posing a significant threat to the Matrix’s agenda, because once Ark and I joined forces, the attack became almost unrelenting.
With all of the above clues, the reader is going to be able to spot them coming in the remainder of this account. But keep in mind, we were learning as we went. As I said at the beginning of this chapter: it would be very easy to just write off the series of attacks I have been describing as just the way things are. My daughters were just kids who made mistakes, and nearly died because of them. Our lives are just like anybody else’s lives in the sense that about half the time good things happen and half the time bad things happen. It’s just the nature of life, it’s the way things are. The same things happen to everybody. And this last is most certainly true. That is the point of the Cs communication: to explain to us the nature of good and evil, the nature of this reality in which we live, where bad things happen to good people, and very often, because of the fact that they are good, and are trying to do good things.
And things were about to get very weird, and even very scary.
Coming back now to our narrative, I think I will mention that, at the same time that I was dealing with the near death of my daughter, my year-old, super-duper, large-capacity, top-of-the-line washing machine broke down and the Sears repairman delivered the unpleasant news that it would cost almost as much to fix it as to buy a new one. It was, in fact, only about a week past the end of the warranty, and I was absolutely devastated by the news. Fortunately, my neighbor who worked for the appliance department at Sears also agreed with me that a washer that was so completely dead within a week of warranty end, obviously ought to be replaced, and she made sure that Sears replaced it with a new one at no charge. But, even before that item had been accomplished, my water heater also died – completely – and I was faced with needing to have a new one installed.
The point of this is that when the Matrix begins to shift, all kinds of mechanical things also go kaflooey. My best guess about this factor is that when the program is changed, and the reality is merged, any electronic or electrical devices within the sphere of the targeted individual that have a weakness simply cannot survive the reality bridge. The same conditions seem to apply to plumbing. Noting these things over time, I began to have a deeper understanding of what Gurdjieff, Sufis, Alchemists, and others meant about watching the environment for small clues and messages. Things can be lost or found; objects fall and break for no apparent reason; new batteries go dead; pets can suffer in various ways, even including death; and just a whole host of signals manifest to get our attention, which we normally sweep under the rug and say, “Oh, that’s Murphy’s Law.”
At this point, I want to back up to the end of August. There was a very strange event at the time of the death of Princess Diana that taught me something about the Matrix even if there were many other clues emerging at that time that I missed or ignored. The reader who has perused the series of emails from our July exchanges, prior to the flood in Poland, will see that not only were we coming to some idea of the trans-millennial manipulation of our reality in our digging around the issues of Rennes-le-Château, but it was at this point that the Cassiopaean website was actually born.
Prior to this period, we had a few pages – very condensed – that were posted on Ark’s website hosted by the server at the University of Wroclaw. During the month of July, along with everything else, the Internet service I had been using started to get greedy and objected to the fact that I was online so much of the time. So, they decided to change their unlimited access to very limited access, and I was constantly being cut off in the middle of transmissions. Of course, they swore they weren’t doing anything, and maybe they weren’t – maybe it was something else. But, the end result was that I canceled that provider and signed up for Internet service with the local phone company. As part of the sign-up package, we were notified that we had reserved webspace. Ark decided that it was time to put the Cassiopaean material on the web in a dedicated way. We hoped that it would help bring us into contact with others who also had pieces of the puzzle.
It was ten days before we could come back to this idea, between the time Ark left Florence, and by degrees and a circuitous route, made his way back to Poland. After he had returned and was able to assess the situation there, we decided that we would also use our webspace to try to generate interest in the flood-relief effort. There was over a million dollars in damages to the University of Wroclaw, and Ark was spearheading the drive to obtain funds for repairs and restoration.
So, we had started to work on the dual project of getting some publicity for Flood Relief in Poland as well as getting the Cs material on the Internet. I was working practically night and day to assemble excerpts into chronological subject files. It was right at that moment that Princess Diana was killed.
Frank had come over that night and announced almost gleefully that Princess Diana had been in an auto accident and was not expected to live. “She could be dying as we speak!” he intoned ponderously. I didn’t want to believe it, so I quickly logged onto the Internet and went to CNN and discovered that the announcement that she had died had almost that instant been posted. I was too upset to do anything, so I sent Frank home after a short discussion and a cup of coffee. Several thoughts were niggling at the back of my mind, so after Frank had gone, I started digging.
As I dug, I began to get the strange feeling that somehow this event actually related to our own activities, though I was unable to figure out how or why. I found a couple of references in Nostradamus that could have been construed to connect Diana’s death to the Flood in Poland as if they were interactive events. If the Cs were correct that the Flood in Poland was directly connected to efforts to thwart our mission, then somehow, everything was part of a huge, global plan, which included the activation of certain archetypes.
I knew how easy it was to fall into the trap of ego, however, so I brushed that absurd feeling aside, and just synopsized my findings in a series of emails to Ark. In the end, I assembled the text of these emails and added a few additional comments, and they became the first “Diana Page.” I had the idea that if I was correct, my posting of these ideas would send a signal, and someone would signal back. On my mind was the strange comment the Cs had made the previous May:
May 21, 1997
Q: OK, some time ago when I had the “three-dominos” dream, or experience, I asked you about this, and you said it was not an important dream. Yet, it led to an incredible series of discoveries. Why did you say it was not important?
A: What was important, the dream or the discoveries?
Q: Well, of course the discoveries … and there really were no dominos … but it gave me a teensy idea that helped with all the rest … and one thing led to another to another …
A: Dream was not important until fulfilled.
Q: Anyway, I found at the same longitude as Oak Island, a place with the name “Percee.” This led to Fontainebleau, Chartres, and Coll du Perche and Moulins la Marche. Then, the “blue waters and white skies” led to lake Geneva and Point Perce. And this was the third “Percy” …
A: Devour newspapers for any recent news re: Percy.
Q: OK. So, then I had the thought that “Percy” was the center of an incredibly complex web. It was like what you had described for me before: mosaic consciousness. I could see connections no matter which way I looked. I mean, literally everything connects … alchemy, Rosicrucians, Masons, physics, genetics, eschatology, Cassiopaea, prime numbers, Medusa, Perseus … I mean, it is the most incredible thing I have ever seen in my life …
A: So far …
Q: OK. But, that led to the idea of the universe being like a sort of spider web, with the spider being at the center … kind of an expanded and more complex “perpendicular reality” idea. All the levels connected by the threads, or conduits … the gravity binder from the spider in the center … am I onto something here?
A: Stay tuned …
The following is the text of the original version of my “Diana Page” as bait that was posted later that day, September 2, and was removed five days later on the seventh and replaced with something that was more “vanilla” in flavor.
To Ark
Date sent: Tues, 02 Sep 97 06:44:07
Here is my text:
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While it is still too early to make a comprehensive esoteric analysis of the death of Princess Diana, lacking certain details and developments; it is obvious that there are certain factors that deserve to be mentioned. And, it is with a heavy heart that I have decided to discuss this subject at the present moment.
Like everyone else, the all too human heart in me grieves at the loss of one so beautiful, young and gracious, in such a tragic and unexpected manner. And, I grieve for those who loved her in a more personal and familial way. Most of all, I grieve for her children. If the love of humanity in general, and the sadness at such a loss were to be counted as legal tender in the next world, Princess Diana would be one of the richest women in the etheric realms. Because, as Edgar Cayce once said: “The only luggage you can take with you out of this world, is the love you have given away.” (Words to that effect, in any event.) So, Diana had a LOT of luggage. Being as fashion conscious as she was, she would SMILE at that!
But, she seemed to know the difference between the clothes of the body and the clothes of the soul – and was a shining example of a class act in any milieu. She was, indeed, “The People’s Princess.”
Like nearly everyone else, even though I never met her in person, I felt that I knew and loved her. But, there are now other, very significant reasons, why I mourn her passing. I am going to present a few things here that are FOR THOSE WHO KNOW.
At the time of the death of the Princess, I was (and still am) deeply interested in trying to generate interest in relief efforts for Poland, which has suffered a flood of cataclysmic dimensions, in almost a media vacuum. The disaster is truly remarkable for the LACK of attention given to it by the press. My interest in this flood is related, in large part, to my work with the Cassiopaeans, and their successful efforts to bring me into contact with my “complementary soul,” who is now my fiancé – in Poland.
Nevertheless, in the middle of trying to generate some interest and support in a relief effort for the Polish Flood, I learn that Diana has been in an automobile accident, and later, that she has died.
One of the first things I thought about was the astrological aspects that might surround such an event. Having dabbled in astrology for over 30 years, naturally, I had done her chart along with any number of other well-known persons, for the sake of study. I pulled out the file, and entered the data into the computer. I had heard rumors that Diana employed either a psychic or an astrologer to guide her decisions, and I simply could NOT understand how such a set of likely aspects could be missed or ignored.
Yes – indeed – there were some rather dramatic and interesting aspects! But, as expected, they could not be taken as a direct clue to dying in a car crash … though, it was apparent that there could be troubles while traveling, and her Sun was conjunct the ascendant in direct opposition to the Moon on the descendant, which was a pretty dramatic aspect. But, it DOES look like, if she had been at home, this would have passed without serious physical harm. But, her chart for NEXT month was also VERY disturbing … so, whatever it was, it was REALLY some powerful energy coming against her.
My experience has taught me that astrological aspects are merely “doorways,” if you will, and the energy that enters is more or less like pressing icing through a cake decorating tip on a pastry tube. It has a certain configuration, but HOW it shapes depends on the surface it is being extruded to, either receptive or opposing energy.
Because of certain researches I have been involved in for the past several years, I regularly check numerous sources for implications of connections to other, very mysterious, and unnamable (at this time) situations and activities going on here on Earth. One of these is the Liturgical calendar of the Catholic Church.
Frank had commented on the severe headache I had on the morning of the crash that killed Diana. I often have them before plane crashes and other such things, but I hardly see how the death of just three people could be counted in the same category. On the other hand, I did think that this particular death could have some rather far-reaching ramifications which I will discuss in a general way.
One thing I noted right away was that Diana died in August. For THOSE WHO KNOW, this is immediately significant. Not only in August, but on the feast day of Saint Raymond Nonnatus. And, the page of the mass for this date is 1233! Nonnatus means 9 and 1233 add up to 9 and Diana was 36, which is also a 9!
This was even more significant due to the recent researches I have been doing into the alterations of the Zodiac as well as the changing of the numbers of the degrees on the circle. This action was taken by certain organizations under the influence of beings at higher densities, in order to further conceal certain knowledge and confuse and obfuscate those on the “Quest.” Additionally, the actuality of the frequency effect of certain numbers on the essential nature of our reality makes this a particularly nasty event, because the dominant number of our realm is “9,” which is the number of sickness, endings, decay and destruction and death. Nothing EVER prospers under the influence of the number 9. And, for the Questors, note that the number 666 adds up to a 9.
So, we have a powerful influence of the number 9 surrounding the death of the Princess. This is, as far as I can determine, the signature of the 4th density beings of STS.
Anyway, this Saint Raymond (c. 1204-40) was a pioneer member of the Order of Our Lady of Mercy for the redemption of Christians enslaved by the Mohammedans! And, she died in company of an Egyptian whose father was named Mohammed. I think that this connection of things present with things past is a little more of the signature of the 4th density.
Another thing that struck me as odd was that Diana is descended from a family which had important players in certain events of history that were very significant in terms of present day speculations about secret societies and bloodlines, though the current literature does not even come close to the solution to the problem. That may be deliberate misleading, or it may be that the authors simply do not know. (See Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent’s Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and The Messianic Legacy.)
Nevertheless, I and my fiancé in Poland also had ancestors involved in these dramas. In fact, my ancestor probably murdered hers if some of the genealogists are correct and her line of Spencers descends from the Despensers. What I do know is that the Spencers and Percys later connected, and by virtue of that connection I am something like 13th cousin to Princess Diana. But then, so are a WHOLE lot of other people – probably half the people in the U.S.! So, if there is anything to the idea that DNA can communicate with other DNA, then it is no wonder that there is so much grief over Diana’s death. Probably a lot of people feel it in their very bones because of their literal genetic connections.
But, what is most curious is, Roger de Mortimer, my ancestor, was the lover of Isabella of France, daughter of Philip the Fair who ostensibly brought down the Templars! Searching for the roots and fate of the Templars has become something of a popular pastime in recent years, though it is being done by persons who have little, if any idea, of the true nature of reality and the nature of the manipulations from higher densities. Thus, for every answer they THINK they have, three new questions emerge. So, this is a peculiar thing – even that Diana should die in France, in Paris, in August, the month of the Perseid Meteor Shower, which has played so important a part in all of these mysteries, including the relationship of the name of Perseus to Perceval to Percy, and that a Mortimer married the Granddaughter of Henry III, and their daughter married a Percy! The bloodlines that came together in Henry Percy and Elizabeth Mortimer included all five of the so-called “lines of Odin,” including the blood of the last of the Welsh kings, the line of Llewelyn the Great.
And, of course, we notice that, although 4 people were in the vehicle, only 3 died. The dead included an Egyptian, a Spencer, a Frenchman, and ONLY THE WELSHMAN LIVED.
Well, the next thing that I noted was that Diana’s accident was immediately compared to the one that killed Princess Grace, whose death was purportedly described by Nostradamus. Just recently the Cs had urged me to be on the lookout for any mention of the name “Ranier,” also – in any context, including volcanic! So, I immediately made the connection that Grace was married to Prince Ranier. The Nostradamus quatrain reads:
With blood and famine even greater calamity;
seven times it approaches the seashore.
Monaco, from hunger, captured in captivity.
The great golden one caught, in an iron cage.
The author of The Further Prophecies of Nostradamus, Erika Cheetham, comments:
“Princess Grace, of the Golden Movies, the golden hair and golden life died in the iron cage of her crashed car. However, whether she could really be described as “great” I feel to be in question. Monaco, after all, is a very minor principality, and she achieved nothing that could be honestly called of international worth except for the few films she made in Hollywood. … But since the death of the Princess, I have received such a remarkable number of letters from readers who were convinced of its meaning, that I include it for the readers’ interest, if nothing else.” (Cheetham, 1985)
Well, if anything, I would say that Diana would fit more the criteria of the “Great Golden One caught in an iron cage,” particularly since she died in a tunnel, supposedly pursued by seven photographers! But, if this is anything, I would think it was a prediction that this event may be the “marker” of the beginning of that which is described in the first three lines. On the other hand, I think it is stretching to apply it to either of these events! However, while flipping through these things, I did note another interesting reference, which may be the reason I was stimulated to search through Nostradamus. The quatrain reads:
Seven times the British nation will be seen to change,
Soaked in blood in two hundred and ninety years.
Not at all free through German connections
Aries fears for the protectorate of Poland.
We have now two quatrains that talk about “seven times” and “blood” and that struck me as curious. Cheetham writes:
“The great problem for this verse is to find the date from which to calculate the 290 years and the seven great changes which affect Britain. If the year 1603 is taken as the starting point, quite arbitrarily, the whole verse fits including the last line which clearly links Poland with Britain in some manner connected with a war.” [This is assumption on her part] …
“Nevertheless, Nostradamus indicates that there will be a critical state of affairs in Poland at the same time as Britain faces a great crisis connected with Germany. It also implies that the royal family on the throne at that time will be the last British dynasty of any note. This may mean that Prince Charles, a Battenberg by origin, will be the last king on the English throne.”
It almost seems as though these repetitions of the number seven in the quatrain about the “Golden One,” as well as this one that connects the end of the domination of the British nation under the German Usurpers of the British throne (the current royal family) after 290 years, in conjunction with fears for Poland that are connected to Aries, are all part of the same piece of the puzzle. Well, this made me curious. So, I did a little rapid calculation and discovered that 290 years ago from 1997 was 1707. Did anything of note happen then that ties all of these elements together?
As it happens, it does fit! Queen Anne, in 1707, the last Stuart Sovereign, sealed the Act of Union between England and Scotland, thus forming Great Britain, which was immediately given to George I, the first of the German Hanoverian dynasty, which is the origin of the present royal family. This act deliberately passed over the superior hereditary rights of the Stuarts (whose rights were inferior to the rights of the Mortimers and Percys), and gave Great Britain to those who had no real claim to the throne other than statutory. Because Anne signed it over!
So, we have the passage of exactly 290 years from the beginning of the German domination of Britain, to some event that is connected to Poland. Well, as I was flipping through more of Nostradamus, I noted this:
Salon, Mansol, Tarascon of six arches
Where is still standing the pyramid,
Shall come to deliver the Prince of Denmark,
A shameful ransom shall be paid into the temple of Artemis.
Well, Nostradamus is funny. It seems to be written in code. But this one again connects us back to the 290-years-ago Act of Union, because Queen Anne was married to the Prince of Denmark, and “Artemis” is another name for Diana. Also, we note the names and the “arches” of the tunnel in which she died. Most interesting is the mention of the “pyramid,” or something very like a pyramid – the Eiffel Tower. And, significantly, she was in the company of an Egyptian! Was Diana’s life paid to ransom England from the action of Queen Anne almost three centuries ago?
If it is so, as it seems to be, that Nostradamus foresaw a connection between the tragic death of Princess Diana as a crisis in the British Monarchy, and the flood in Poland, about which we have heard almost nothing in the media, perhaps there is a deeper reason into which we ought to inquire? It is most peculiar that both the Pope and President Clinton paid visits to Poland just prior to this disaster. There was no lack of coverage for those events! At this point we cannot know what Nostradamus may have intended, but we can know that there is a symbolic connection.
What about the “Aries fears for the protectorate of Poland” reference? The constellation of Cassiopeia is one of the side-pieces of the zodiacal sign, Aries. The earliest associations we can find are that Cassiopeia is associated with the Celtic Goddess Danu, and also the Goddess Danae, the mother of Perseus. And, as it happens, the Cassiopaeans have made most curious remarks about the flood in Poland!
Well, it is all connected. The truest thing I ever read was something that Franklin Roosevelt was quoted as saying: “Nothing in politics ever happens by accident. If it happens, you can bet it was planned that way.” And, it is amazing what a different view one can have of things if this is taken as a postulate. It causes one to look at things quite creatively. However, the problem is always assuming that the planners of such events are human … if one also does away with that restriction, then things actually begin to make sense.
This is where so many have a problem. They do not know or understand the different levels of density, and how the events in our world are but a reflection of manipulations at other levels. One who labors under this delusion will never find the connections between the clues!
What does the death of Diana, the Beloved Princess of Wales tell us? In my opinion, by her death, she has guaranteed the beginning of the downfall of the British monarchy. Nothing Charles ever does will redeem him now.
None of us can know what the relationship truly was like. So, we cannot judge. The only thing that is certain is, had there been no divorce, Diana would not have been being hounded to quite the same extent by the paparazzi while in the company of an Egyptian playboy. Thus, it is possible that she would still be alive. And, the point is, a lot of people will see it this way. They will think: no divorce, no trip to Paris and riding in fast cars with drunken drivers, therefore, no crash, no death. No matter what he does now, he will never be able to fully redeem himself. Both his public and private lives will play out to the end, in the shadow of a dead princess, forever young and beautiful.
I read a remark in one of the news reports that someone had said that Di was saintly, so I thought that we can expect a lot of miracles to soon be attributed to her, and there will be a cult, and probably demands for canonization! And, this leads to the problem of the present dynasty. I am going to quote at some length from the work of Lincoln, Leigh and Baigent, so I humbly request the indulgence of same. No one else has put the subject so clearly.
“For the past century and more, organized religion has suffered increasingly severe blows to its credibility. But the religious sense of ‘the sacred,’ of ‘the numinous,’ of a coherent pattern transcending one’s personal experience – remains, for a great many people, essentially intact. The traditional custodians of ‘the spiritual’ may have been compromised or have compromised themselves. … And yet, for a great many people, ‘the spiritual’ remains a reality, even if organized religion no longer speaks on its behalf.
“There is an entire facet of twentieth century thought and culture which reflects an aspiration towards meaning and the ‘spiritual’ outside the context and framework of institutionalized religion. … Thus, more and more individuals, recognizing the bankruptcy of prevailing systems, have sought one or another valid means of synthesis for reintegrating a fragmented reality.
“[Carl] Jung’s overriding concerns were ultimately religious in nature. His concentration on universal experience and his use of the crucial instrument of synthesis, rather than analysis, springs from his desire to reassemble the world, to imbue it again with meaning. What is more, he sought to do so not in purely theoretical (or theological) terms, but in terms which might be directly experienced rather than merely accepted as articles of faith – which translated into psychological dynamics, might be practically viable not just on Sundays, but throughout the individual’s life. …
“Jung did not see psychology and religion as incompatible. On the contrary, he saw them as complementary, each aiding the other to generate a renewed sense of meaning and coherence. And Jung understood religion in its broadest, most profound and most valid sense – not as a mere edifice of conceptual dogma, not as one particular denomination or creed, but as something encompassing all of them, a basic element in the make-up of the human psyche. In consequence, Jung proceeded to synthesize, to compare and establish common sources, common denominators, common psychological dynamics, shared patterns – not only in the world’s major religions, but in much of man’s other activity as well. The result was something that could indeed function as a viable religious principle for the modern age – a mode of thought and understanding which did indeed confer meaning, while at the same time fostering tolerance, flexibility and humanity.
“Are there any established institutions … that are genuinely archetypal, that impinge even if only subliminally on the collective unconsciousness and thereby function, at least in some measure, as a repository for meaning? In some of its aspects, at least, monarchy can be seen as such an institution.
“At its worst, as exemplified by numerous autocratic regimes of the past, monarchy can be synonymous with tyranny. At its best, however, monarchy can indeed be seen as a repository of meaning – which, albeit in a circumscribed way, does perform at least a semi-religious function. Certainly monarchy rests on an archetypal basis. Kingship in itself is an archetype. … Whatever the form of government under which one lives, the psyche, from childhood on, will still be populated by kings and queens, princes and princesses. However ‘republican” one may be, such figures are part of a collective cultural heritage, with a psychic validity of their own. In the absence of genuine dynastic royalty, we will endeavour to create a surrogate royalty from, say, film stars, pop singers or from families such as the Kennedys. Yet such surrogates are always pale imitations of the originals on which, deliberately or otherwise, they are based. …
“The essence of such a monarchy is that it rests on the basis [that] the king ruled but did not govern. In other words, he was ultimately a symbolic figure. To the extent that he remained unsoiled by the tawdry business of politics and government, his symbolic status remained pristine. … In other words, his currency resides in what he embodies as a symbol, rather than in anything he does, or in any real power he might or might not exercise. The most potent symbols always exert an intangible authority, which can only be compromised by the more tangible forms of power.
“During the German occupation of Denmark in the Second World War, all Danish Jews were ordered to wear yellow stars on their coats, thus facilitating the process of identification and deportation to concentration camps. In contemptuous defiance of the power occupying his country, King Christian took to wearing a yellow star himself, as a gesture of sympathy and solidarity with his Jewish subjects. In support of their king, thousands of non-Jewish Danes followed suit. The effect of the gesture was more than symbolic. Anti-semitism and denunciations of Jews dwindled and countless lives were saved.” (Baigent, Leigh, Lincoln, 1986)
This echoes the Arthurian legends, the Grail stories, and, ultimately – the Alchemical Quest for the unveiling of Isis and the restoration of Osiris. But here, in considering Charles and Diana, we have an archetype of a man who may never be king because he has “killed” the queen. And the queen symbolizes the source of knowledge, light and life. Whether it is conscious or not, this is the essential imprint that will form in the minds of the people; to the destruction of the institution of the monarchy in England.
Thus, we see from the clues, the signs, the synchronicities, that the death of the Princess of Wales, Diana-Artemis – was undoubtedly chosen by her before the birth of her soul into the body of Diana Spencer. It was only a potential – but became a reality as each decision was taken by those around her. It is part of a Grand Pattern – a symbol of the stupendously complex Mystery, designed to awaken those who know. We are grateful. We wish her God Speed in her flight to the Stars to become a member of the Court – Tuatha de Danaan.
Ark, of course, had his own theory about the death of Princess Diana.
To: Laura
Date sent: Tue, 2 Sep 1997 14:56:13
And after Mother told me the news version of the Diana death I am more convinced that the “Scorpio’s theory of Diana death is true”.
Scorpio’s theory is this: there was a little plot to replace the chauffer by a security man. This security man was totally controlled and chemicals were injected before suggesting he was drunk at the time of the crash. Mind control devices were used to brainwash the car passengers. Who was behind the plot? Perhaps it is better not to know and not to want to know. Why? Too many reasons. Will it cause decline of British monarchy? That I do not know. There are many factors and it is hard to guess which option will win. This is what comes to mind. That there is such a possibility.
To: Ark
Date sent: Tues, 02 Sep 97 16:51:33
> I am more convinced that the “Scorpio’s theory of Diana death is true”.
Well, I think I agree, now that you put it so plainly. Especially considering the stuff in this book I am reading The Messianic Legacy. Also, there was a lot in the Bramley book. Seems that there are a LOT of people who might be interested in the elimination of the British royal family – for varied reasons.
> Who was behind the plot? Perhaps it is better not to know and not to want to know. Why? Too many reasons.
I agree. The point is, I think, that this death is a “marker.” It is symbolic and archetypal. I am not exactly sure of the precise dynamics, but it is very deep. And, once again we have an example of how “knowledge protects, ignorance endangers.” This poor girl is dead and her poor children are without their mother. And that cowardly nincompoop she was married to simply doesn’t have a clue!
> Will it cause decline of British monarchy? That I do not know. There are many factors and it is hard to guess which option will win. This is what comes to mind. That there is such a possibility.
I think it is almost a certainty. Why? I am not sure either. There is whoever is behind the creation of the “Prieure de Sion,” which is more of a “front” organization designed to lead people astray; and there is that bunch of Lunatics that Bill Mann is hanging out with – the Sinclairs – who have their agenda which is to say that they think that one of THEM ought to be king …
I think that the archetypal “Priest-King” is an important concept, but I don’t think that it can necessarily be hereditary. The Tibetans have a good idea with the Dalai Lama. He is just a symbol, more or less, but they replace him by searching for the “incarnation.” The British royal family has produced so few – if any – significantly beneficial monarchs, that it is almost like a family of idiots. They have been, in general, morally bankrupt and intellectually deficient as a whole, not to mention arrogant and absurd in their eccentricities! The whole concept is, in my opinion, a joke. I even had a dream one night about Queen Elizabeth – I told her that I could not allow my children to play with hers because her children were corrupt!!!
So, this poor Diana was drawn into this nasty mess and it certainly killed her!!!
Anyway, I am still reading this book. Seems these guys came to much the same conclusion about the Prieure de Sion that I did … though there are some FUNNY elements to the story. Seems they have had a couple of similar experiences to mine, only they know NOTHING about other density manipulation, so they are only baffled and impressed! I see immediately that they are being led astray by this confusion!
Now, I hope you can get our Diana page up today. Now it is a HOT topic and will bring a LOT of people to the Cs pages. If you don’t have time, tell me what to do the make a header, change the color … add a counter and link back to the main page … etc. I do think we ought to put the Percy Lion on there … offset the header to the left and put the image of the lion on the right …
Because, as I am reading this book, the “Scorpio Theory” is making a LOT of sense. Only I can’t see the objective yet. I think that we can believe Roosevelt when he said that “nothing happens by accident.” And just see things as intended, and then try to extrapolate backwards.
I am even wondering if this Sinclair bunch that Mann is connected to is involved? Even if as only another “false clue” to lead people astray. This is what MOST of this stuff is!
To: Ark
Date sent: Tues, 02 Sep 97 19:26:52
Honey, Do you notice the tail of the Percy lion is like a “spear?”
Very funny. And, I think this is a MUCH better image to use … for THOSE WHO KNOW. I am not sure who they might be. But, I think this is a somewhat subtle signal to the “others.”
Also, the building in the background is Alnwick Castle in Northumberland where the 62 alchemical manuscripts are stored that nobody seems to know anything about.
And green IS the appropriate color for the subject.
There is the Celtic legend of the “Green Man,” which was also the “Head of Bran,” and the origin of the Holy Grail. The picture of Danae is funny too, if you take any time later and examine it. Note the rose by her hand which is entwined with a fabric … indicating the concept of the “weaver” or “tentmaker” which is related to the Cathars as well as gnosticism in general. And, the “platter” or “grail” that is raining gold down upon her and that it is spilled about her thighs showing the “transdimensional atomic remolecularization” properties of the genitive organs as well as the creative act itself.
The image is supposed to represent Zeus impregnating Danae with a “shower of gold” or “light” from other densities.
Also, the rose has TWO blooms, note the condition of the two.
This “Green Man” makes me wonder about the mention of “chlorophyll” that they made when I was asking about the “blessing” given to Esau by Jacob. “The leaves of wrath.” And the idea that the elimination of the chlorophyll … means that the harvest is near.
Laura responds to Ark
Date sent: Wed, 03 Sep 97 20:45:14
> Marek told me that there is a theory propagated by Kadaffi that it was a murder because her fiancee was an Arab.
Yes, I heard that in the Sunday paper … the Iranians are calling her wicked, too. (They will find themselves COMPLETELY without friends if they keep THAT up!)
Anyway, I think the Scorpio theory is the correct one. And, I read some things in this book last night where Poland is STRONGLY connected to this secret society business … so, I decided to add a couple of things to the page … just hints and questions!!! But, hopefully, will start people thinking!
In reading all this history of these dynastic battles … it seems that it is simply an ongoing reflection of the same dynamics over and over again. There seem to be 3 main players and the representatives at the present time could be seen as: 1)The Sinclair/Jacobite group 2)The Hanoverian/Windsor group and 3)The silent Percy/Mortimer group.
One thing I have noticed is: when a person dies by being pierced in the eye, it is almost a certainty that he has been symbolically killed by the “Assassini.” So, all these other people are simply on the wrong track with this one! I found another with this symbolic death: William Rufus, the son of William the Conqueror.
And, the time period when the Templars were “destroyed” is the key event that gives the clues to the present dynamics. I have GOT to make a timeline chart so that it will show this. It is all in my head, and I can see it … but it needs to be demonstrated visually. The series of events at that time are so incredible that no intelligent person would ever deny the “controlling” element from higher densities after having seen it.
And then, the death of Mother Theresa? Two of three of the Triple Goddess image?
To: Ark
Date sent: Sat, 06 Sep 97 07:18:14
I think I caught a fish …
There was an editorial in today’s paper by an English journalist. There are a couple of paragraphs he writes that sound like they were lifted almost verbatim from our Diana page.
But then, he says this: (About Prince Charles) “Both his public and private lives will play out, forever, in the shadow of the dead princess, forever young and beautiful. Imagine a circle of deadly sharp, inward pointing daggers: in the center is Charles.”
In this, the quote from our page is almost word for word!!! Is it a message???
Now, this guy’s name is Rupert Cornwell, and he writes for the “Independent” in London.
This paragraph made the hair on my head stand up because he also used the “buzz words” about circles, daggers etc.
Is it possible that this guy read my piece, and – perhaps this is some sort of message … or is he just reacting unconsciously?
And, the name “Cornwell?” All the references to “corn,” goddesses of the corn, harvest, the woman being the source of the corn, spikenard being like corn … picking ears of corn on the Sabbath … and then, “well,” and Hagar at the well, the “springs” etc. …
Well, it was just TOO strange … So, we will see. I’ll see what the Cs have to say.
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September 6, 1997
Q: We would like to know if there is any significance to the fact that Mother Theresa and Princess Diana both died within a week of each other?
A: Vague.
Q: Why didn’t you tell us that Princess Diana was going to get killed in an auto accident? That’s pretty big news!
A: You would not have benefited, and, besides, it was not predetermined. Just one possible future.
Q: Why was this particular future the one that manifested?
A: Because it was chosen.
Q: Why?
A: No escape any other way.
Q: For whom?
A: Diana.
Q: Escape from what or who?
A: Judgment.
Q: Judgment by whom?
A: You pick. She was damned if she did and damned if she did not.
Q: (T) Let me ask: is she dead?
A: Yes.
Q: Was there any factor involved in her death that could be connected to any secret groups on the planet that wish to bring down the monarchy?
A: No.
Q: So, this wasn’t part of a plot to bring down the monarchy?
A: Soul mates.
Q: She and Dodi were soul mates?
A: Yes.
Q: And they decided to leave together …
A: Yes, at another level.
Q: Is there any special significance to the fact that they were soul mates?
A: No, only way out, and valuable lessons learned by everyone else.
Q: So, this was a gift?
A: And STO. And the same with Mother Theresa who waited for the proper timing, so that others would notice what you did.
Q: (T) Well, things usually happen in threes … who is next?
A: Usually threes is an old wives tale.
Q: So, from one perspective, the death of the Princess is nothing more than a tragic accident?
A: We did not say that.
Q: So, she chose this because it was the only way out … (T) Was she helped along? Was there more to it than choosing the time and the way?
A: There always is.
Q: Can you list some of the other factors involved?
A: Lessons, that is all there is!!
Q: (T) Was she murdered?
A: Would murderer agree to be crushed to death?? What future is there in that line of work?
Q: Well, there are some Middle Easterners who think there is a lot of future in that line of work … suicide bombers and so forth as well as persons programmed to do that sort of thing … Was anybody or any other thing behind this?
A: No.
Q: Was the driver drunk?
A: Yes.
Q: (AH) Would she like to tell us something?
A: Statement as such would not benefit this work.
Q: Did Dodi give Diana the purported ring as an engagement ring?
A: Yes, but that is incidental to the “bigger picture.”
Q: What is the bigger picture?
A: STO.
Q: You are saying that this was an STO act? (T) That’s what they said …
A: No.
Q: That’s not what they said. They said that this act would make others realize what we did and would start thinking about STO.
A: Yes.
Q: Are you saying that this was done by Diana as a service to others?
A: Part.
Q: I get the feeling that there is something we are not getting here …
A: Maybe we are waiting for you to figure it out on your own!
Q: When I read the article by Rupert Cornwell and there was a paragraph that was identical to what I had written on the original web-page, and then he made the remark about the circle of daggers surrounding Prince Charles, that he was in the center of a circle of sharp daggers … that struck me as a rather bizarre thing to say. With all the theories going around about the various families and bloodlines killing each other off from time to time … and this is connected with all this other underground business, CIA, KGB, God knows what else … Is the way the press plays the event a capitalizing on a circumstance on behalf of such conspiratorial groups?
A: If so, that is nothing new.
Q: Was this Cornwell saying in this article that the “dagger men” are gathered around Charles and that they are going to use this event to bring him down?
A: No.
Q: (T) Were the deaths, in addition to generating feelings of STO, also to speed up the process of the changing of the systems, the entering the new realms …
A: Close.
Q: There is still something we are not getting. And, they are waiting for me to figure it out – OK. But, give me a clue!
A: You will do so when it is appropriate.
Q: OK, there is an issue here and it is just not the appropriate time to address it. Jan asked about the significance of the circle of daggers …
A: Circles are always significant.
Q: (T) Well, the only way out of a circle of daggers is through the center … (L) Or up … (T) The daggers may not be pointed at him to take him out but to limit him … or to move him to the center … (L) Once before you told …
A: Seven.
Q: Seven what?
A: Ask your question.
Q: Well, I was going to ask … once before you told us that the monarchy in England was going to come to a halt and that Charles would never be king … what are the probabilities that one of the sons will?
A: Are you trying to coerce a response?
Q: No, I’m just trying to be sneaky! [My mental question that was asked when the Cs said “seven” was “how long before the end of the monarchy?]
A: Well, forget it!!!
Q: (T) Does this have to do with getting Charles … is this whole thing designed to get Charles to take charge the way he is supposed to … to get his center back …
A: You are making a mountain where the universe sees a molehill.
Q: OK, change gears: I read the other day that the word “Iscariot” means “from Sikarios,” and this connects the Jesus story directly to my Paran Sikarios … the Percys, piercing, PS, etc. Could you comment on the fact that Judas Iscariot was “from Sikarios.” Was he a member of the Paran Sikarios, the Assassini, a dagger man?
A: You are not to be told some things yet, because of your tendency to share before realizing the ramifications it can bring to your doorstep.
I realized that I had found my “Percy” in the newspapers. I also understood that maybe I had gone too far. I had “tested” the Matrix, and found that it was, indeed, paying attention. Or somebody was. No point in waving a red cloth in front of the Bull.
I took the Diana page down.
But it was already too late. Within ten days the first attempt was made on my eldest daughter’s life, and 20 days later, my second daughter nearly died. And in both cases, it’s pretty clear that FRV modulation was at work – that the Matrix had downloaded agent programs and had gone to work.
In response to the original online publication of this material, I received a number of communications from readers who wanted to know how they could develop the ability to see the unseen in terms of perceiving the activity of the fourth-density reality. They wanted to know how to expand the semiotic content of their perceptual reality. I also received messages from those who just didn’t get it. But by far, the majority of communications have been from people who have been having “Ahah!” experiences right and left.
One reader wrote to me regarding the used-soap clue of the previous chapter, which was the key that unlocked my understanding about many puzzling things over a long period of time. She described a very similar event in her own life which is not pertinent here. What was so interesting was the way she described how it feels when these connections are made, when one finally realizes that the Universe does speak to us in these little connections that are so small that, if we were not on the lookout for them, if we did not have some idea that there is a different dictionary, we would miss them altogether – we would sweep them under the rug. She described the realization that the Universe interacts with us dynamically in a way that is truly stupendous, as a feeling that is rather like shooting down a tall water-slide. She wrote:
You slide so slick, so fast, straight to the bottom and you sit there for a moment collecting yourself from the ride. Don’t you think this is the part that makes most people smile even if they’re grimacing and gritting their teeth on the way down due to the gravitational plunge, the extreme sensation of near free-falling, landing, finally, intact; a whole new sensation … And no longer speaking metaphorically, at the end of the slide there is a whole new reality/perception, or maybe, finally, the acceptance of the para-perception that was being avoided.
I was, of course, concerned with the deception I had seen through; but more than that I was overjoyed at my ability to cope with watching the truth manifest right before my very eyes! My para-perception was no longer para, it was a full bloom perception. I had no doubt about manipulating forces.
I have learned that the narratives of these types of incidents, when related to people who haven’t experienced it, only provokes a rolling of the eyes and a demeaning comment about our sanity or grip on reality.
I know nothing new has been uncovered here, we’ve all had these experiences before. But it seems important to talk about it. But, doesn’t it seem to be so that these experiences of direct interaction with the Universe seem to get bigger and more obvious with time? Maybe the sharing of these types of stories builds solidarity, and this energy of solidarity helps more and more people to pierce the veil.
Funny, when I think about it, the energy of the word solidarity is something I have longed for in my life – familial, personal, global, universal. It is like impenetrable strength of truly cosmic proportions. Solidarity.
As noted above, we have, of course, received a few complaints from folks thinking that the “Adventures Series” would “never end,” and who found the subject of dealing with petty tyrants as a means of learning to stand in the presence of the Unknown and Unknowable to be tedious, or even petty. One person suggested that it is a “very large tale of pain and suffering” which is going to take “a long time to process,” implying that such time would be wasted. At the same time, another reader said, “Please, keep it coming hard and fast. You’re on a roll (once again) with many excellent insights and some of your deepest, most personal material.”
Of course, the critics always make me stop and reexamine my process and ask myself just exactly what am I doing, and why am I doing it? And, as usually happens whenever I am involved in writing anything, the Universe continuously responds to my requests for answers with additional clues and information and directions. In this particular instance two things came along that were particularly significant in view of the subject matter of this series: the hyperdimensional reality as a Matrix Control System, and how we can become free.
The first item that came along was the most recent issue of Fortean Times magazine which is devoted to the Mothman of John Keel fame, and the second is a SETI article shared by one of the egroup members on the same day. The Mothman articles were very timely contributions to the subject of unmasking the Matrix as a hyperdimensional reality, and the SETI article is an example of how the Matrix operates to control people. In a funny sort of way, they are related, and I want to make some comments about them both, starting with the SETI article.
The article, by a Mr. Doug Vakoch of the SETI Institute, says that “alienated people are more likely to think that ET will be hostile.” Conversely, of course, anyone who thinks that ET will be hostile is “alienated!” The article then goes on to tell us that “When someone is confronted with ambiguous information, what he or she makes of the information can sometimes say a lot about the person.” He then suggests that this connection demonstrates that people who hold a dim view of extraterrestrials have negative feelings about how meaningful life is. Right at this point, there is a problem. It seems that it has been arbitrarily decided that seeing life as meaningful can only be possible if an individual believes in the idea that “everything is beautiful and God is in his heaven and all is right with the world.” The article tells us:
We tested the hypothesis that if people feel like the world is cold and cruel, they’re more likely than other people to imagine extraterrestrials as being cold and cruel as well. Thus, we set up the survey so we could measure two things. First, to what extent do people feel “alienated,” and second, how hostile do these people imagine extraterrestrials would be?
Now, notice one very important thing: neither of these criteria have anything to do with the conclusion drawn as to the meaningfulness of the world. In fact, it is very likely that the exact opposite is true. But we are witnessing an example of the use of the juvenile dictionary in defining reality, as well as the establishing of an authority-base from which to attack anyone who has the idea that the world, as it is, is not just peachy keen and strawberry bright. For example, let us have a look at the statements that establish whether a person is alienated or not. This little test, we are told, was described by Robert Travis in the journal Social Indicators Research, and is called “The Margins of Society Alienation Scale.”
I feel all alone these days.
My whole world feels like it’s falling apart.
I wish I were somebody important.
It’s hard for me to tell just what is right and wrong these days.
I don’t like to live by society’s rules.
I often feel discriminated against.
I’ll never find the right person to care enough about me.
What a loaded test! Notice how slyly the statements are mixed. Nearly everybody on the planet who is sitting up and taking nourishment will answer “yes” to all except statements 3 and 5, and possibly the last one. But those two are inserted in there to justify the definition of the test as something that establishes an alienated person as an antisocial one as well! Based upon how strongly the participant agreed or disagreed with each statement, they were identified as people who were feeling very alienated, those who didn’t feel alienated at all, and those who fell somewhere between those extremes. And based on their identification as alienated, they were judged as viewing life as more or less meaningful.
Another way of putting it is: if you notice the things that are wrong with our reality, that means you view the world around you as cold, cruel and hostile, which then means that you just aren’t seeing objectively! You are not giving proper value to this marvelous world in which we live! You aren’t fully appreciating the wars and plagues and disasters and man’s inhumanity to man properly! You are not giving the proper spin on cosmic catastrophes, military onslaughts, social injustice, personal and familial misfortunes, and a host of assaults too numerous to list.
In short, if you are not living in the warm and fuzzy illusion that the Control System wants you to erect as your personal myth, or at least pretending that you do, then you are clearly deficient and incapable of perceiving meaning to life. Because, note that most important assumption in the study cited above: those who are alienated are being judged about their feelings as to how meaningful life is. In other words, “how meaningful” is a quantitative judgment that is replacing the qualitative value of what the meaning of life might be.
As the great Historian of Religion, Mircea Eliade pointed out, the study of history, through its various disciplines, offers a view of mankind that is almost insupportable. The rapacious movements of hungry tribes, invading, conquering and destroying in the darkness of prehistory; the barbarian invaders of the civilized world during medieval times; the bloodbaths of the crusades of Catholic Europe against the infidels of the Middle East; the stalking noonday terror of the Inquisition where martyrs quenched the flames with their blood; and the raging holocaust of modern genocide. Wars, famine, pestilence; all produce an intolerable sense of indefensibility against what Mircea Eliade calls the Terror of History.
As I have written elsewhere, when man contemplates history, as it is, he is forced to realize that he is in the iron grip of an existence that seems to have no real care or concern for his pain and suffering. Over and over again, the same sufferings fall upon mankind multiplied millions upon millions of times over millennia. The totality of human suffering is a dreadful thing. I could write until the end of the world using oceans of ink and forests of paper, and never fully convey this terrible condition in which mankind finds his existence.
The beast of arbitrary calamity has always been with us. For as long as human hearts have pumped hot blood through their too-fragile bodies and glowed with the inexpressible sweetness of life and yearning for all that is good and right and loving, the sneering, stalking, drooling and scheming beast of real life has licked its lips in anticipation of its next feast of terror and suffering. Since the beginning of time, this mystery of the estate of man, this Curse of Cain has existed. And, since the Ancient of Days, the cry has been: “My punishment is greater than I can bear!” But if you find yourself saying this, you are “alienated,” antisocial, and incapable of finding any meaning in life. You are just simply not with the program, according to the SETI study cited above.
One of the authorities trotted out is astronomer Frank Drake, the father of SETI. Drake argues that ET will very likely be altruistic, rather than malevolent because if extraterrestrials are hostile, then their civilizations won’t last very long, and we’re unlikely to make contact with them. Only extraterrestrials with a long-lasting, stable society will be around long enough to be detected by our SETI programs.
Unfortunately, Drake’s views are those of an astronomer who must not have read much history or many anthropological studies about what really happens when a superior culture encounters an inferior one, or even why superior cultures begin to expand and spread out, and seek new lands to conquer and dominate. Drake probably forgot Hitler’s idea of Lebensraum as well as the ancient archetypal story of the Trojan Horse. In short, Drake’s hypothesis is all wet.
With that idea in mind, let’s look at the questions that were asked of the participants in the SETI study as to how we ought to respond to the receiving of a signal from an extraterrestrial civilization.
ETs are probably looking for planets they can take over for themselves.
We should not reply to the message from ETs because they might be hostile.
ETs would probably look at humans like we are nothing more than animals that belong in their zoos.
Humans would probably not be able to understand the message from ETs because humans and ETs are just too different.
If we reply to the message from ETs, they might come to Earth and take over our world.
We should not believe what the message says, because the ETs may be lying.
ETs would probably want to make humans their slaves.
The message from ETs may contain a hidden message that could be harmful to humans.
Aside from the fact that nearly all of the above statements are redundancies, most of them are based on the idea of suspecting that ETs might be liars. For some reason, that strikes me as peculiar. It’s almost as though the issue that is really being tested is a person’s gullibility index. Nevertheless, if a person has thought long and hard about history – as it is – and has made some assessment about it based on the objective facts, then he may, indeed, extrapolate those facts into considerations of ET civilizations that may contact us. This then will lead him to the objective speculation that any ET civilization that goes out looking for New Worlds to conquer does not have our best interests at heart!
The SETI study has told us, “The pattern is clear: people who feel alienated are much more likely to be concerned that ET has evil intentions.” You’re darn skippy!
But the SETI study has attempted to establish that such an objective assessment is pathological. The SETI folks are suggesting that the relationship between alienation and the perception that ET might not be friendly is evidence of a personal prejudice, as opposed to an objective perception of the world. The study suggests that alienation is a personal bias, that is not in synch with reality. Reciprocally, this means that they are suggesting that our world is just hunky dory; that two billion people meeting their deaths in a century of wars and famines is just the cost of doing business in this reality.
Most of our problems as a species come from an inability to agree on our conclusions which are generally based on a misinterpretation of the basic events of life. For this reason we are always fighting over symbolism and definitions, the very things that are supposed to help us understand each other better. It seems that the ability to see reality without any illusions is a very difficult perspective to acquire. It consists of viewing the world without the denial that plagues our understanding of basic events, as opposed to the illusory values imposed on it by society.
As we might suspect from the cited work of Robert Travis in the journal Social Indicators Research, entitled “The Margins of Society Alienation Scale,” society has a very dim view of alienation. The fact is, however, that where alienation occurs, feedback loops exist between the individual resistance to a system and the system’s response. Overall this resistance is very costly for the system. A good example of this is the varying persecutions which have been instituted to chase down relatively harmless people chosen as scapegoats for the cause. Any time one or another group is being labeled as “alienated,” you can be sure that it is a smokescreen for other activities. And when there is smoke, there is usually a war; if there’s a war, someone is making money churning out weapons or medical care or news or insurance against fear in another form.
The questions “what is an alienated person?” and “what is the philosophical significance of alienation?” are two entirely different orders of questions, and a failure to recognize this fact breeds confusion. What is this thing that SETI is calling alienation? How does it come about? What is its constitution, origin and history? What is the importance of alienation?
First of all, we want to exclude what may be truly pathological alienation, which expresses itself as destructive acts undertaken against the shortcomings of our culture. These destructive acts can include felonious behavior as well as self-destructive processes, including self-medicated escape into drugs and alcohol, magical thinking, etc. Here, we are interested in alienation as a process of expanding the dictionary of reality from the juvenile one that defines our environment. Do we view reality as a Cartoon World where all the characters suffer all kinds of dreadful experiences which are instantly erased from view and memory in the next frame, or, have we acquired a more spiritually adult perception of the realities of life that tell us that when a huge boulder is dropped on the character, he will be crushed and will not reappear in the next frame without a wrinkle or a bruise. Are we living our lives as comicbook characters, or as response-able perceivers of a broader reality?
The answer to the first question – what is an alienated person – amounts to an existential judgment. How a person becomes alienated can simply be a matter of historical fact. We can learn the facts of that person’s life, and we can learn what that person thinks from what they say or write. Based on this information, we may decide that they are alienated because they have suffered trauma.
The answer to the second – what is the philosophical significance – is a proposition of value; in other words, a spiritual judgment. What alienation ultimately means in this sense can only be deduced in terms of the record of the inner experiences of the soul wrestling with the crises of fate.
Neither judgment can be deduced from the other! They proceed from different perspectives, and it is entirely arbitrary to add them together as the cited SETI study has done. As a matter of fact, there are many people who have had alien encounters who do not qualify as alienated. The individuals who tend to view the alien reality in a positive way, those who think that aliens are here to help mankind, would naturally score very positively on the SETI test.
As I described in the High Strangeness, Kenneth Ring discovered what seems to be a direct relationship between people reporting “positive” alien interactions and dissociative personality disorder. While the skeptics used these findings to debunk “paranormal experiences” as simply fantasies and daydreams, it may be that people who are not alienated in the terms in which we are discussing the word (like those subjects in Ring’s study), might very well be viewing reality in a dissociated state: dissociated from the objective world. Whether they are promoting the alien reality as a positive experience, or the SETI reality, or any other reality that does not take into account the broadest range of observable facts, such individuals may be operating in pathological states of dissociation. In this sense, the idea that “God is in heaven and all is right with the world” is as much a fantasy as the idea that mankind is the result of mindless evolution.
A very simple way of looking at it is in terms of what is popularly called Stockholm syndrome. A person who is not alienated from a world run amok, a system that is clearly operating based on manipulation and terror tactics has dissociated and identified with the oppressor; he or she has sold out in order to survive. The dynamics of Stockholm syndrome directly address the issue of those who view life as meaningful in the terms described in the SETI study as “desirable.” Victims have to concentrate on survival, becoming highly attuned to the approval or disapproval of the social norms and requiring avoidance of direct, honest reaction to destructive treatment.
But the alienated person is one who does not succumb to the system, the terrorists, the Matrix. To be alienated, in the terms of the SETI study, is to be free of Stockholm syndrome. And this, of course, poses its own set of problems.
There can be no doubt that the alienated person, when they actively pursue the “lights” of alienation, do become exceptional and even eccentric. Most people follow rules that are made for them by others, communicated to them by traditions, shaped into fixed forms by imitation, and continued by force of habit. The alienated person does nothing of the kind. For the alienated person, the perception of the world is not according to the rules of the Control System. And there is indeed something singularly feverish about such individuals that can be perceived as nervous instability. They are generally geniuses and are often commemorated – posthumously, I should add – even though they generally have led discordant lives; and most likely they have suffered melancholy at some point in their career. As a result of their struggles against the system, driven by their inner light of resistance against external controls that they assess – most often objectively – as hostile, alienated people often suffer a great deal and in many ways. This suffering, instead of breaking them, builds in them a single-pointed focus that would be viewed by the people who have sold out as obsessions and fixed ideas. This suffering may induce chemical changes in their physiology; they can fall into trances, hear voices, see visions, and manifest all kinds of peculiarities that are commonly classed as pathological.
We cannot ignore these so-called pathological aspects. We must describe and name them. Even if the psyche recoils from such a laying bare of the causes from which a thing originates, we must still consider our passions and their properties. However, as with everything else, there is a process of naming involved, and this naming relates to the dictionary we use.
It is all too easy to utilize the juvenile dictionary and say that Vinnie believes in magic because he is overly emotional; Nellie is overly conscientious because she is obsessive-compulsive, and that is due to congenital hypertonic nerves; Bertha is melancholy because she suffers from liver problems; Jojo is attracted to religious groups because she is a histrionic personality; Geoff wouldn’t be so worried about his soul if he would go to the gym more often, and so on and on.
After spending some time attempting to prove that the ET hypothesis was essentially a psychic contagion, a meme, a “Millennial Disease,” and failing, I came to the realization that the reality of the phenomenon of psychic contagion was an important part of the process, but in a completely opposite way of what was being suggested by the “experts.” What I noticed was the fact that it seemed to be significantly present in the context of obscuring the issue. What seems to happen is that false ideas about what is really happening spread from core “authorities,” such as the SETI report cited above, and this is seemingly designed to create attitudes, perceptual controls, reinterpretations of personal experiences by the act of implanting doubts about oneself and about the nature of experiences which, due to their hyperdimensional nature, are ambiguous. In short, memes are the essence of societal Stockholm syndrome!
Just as with the alienated people who begin to view the world as it is, defying the memes that are generated and released on society like a form of bio-semiotic warfare, we find that the same types of juvenile explanations are used to reduce or macerate those who suggest a reality to the UFO phenomenon as were typically used historically against anyone who perceived a higher reality, including great saints and mystics of all kinds. In this way, a connection between the physical or sexual life and religious emotions is often drawn; conversion is a “crisis of puberty,” St. Paul had an epileptic seizure on the Road to Damascus, Saint Teresa was a hysteric, George Fox suffered a disordered colon, Carlyle had an ulcer. When you dig to the bottom of alienation, you will find all sorts of disordered glandular functions, and voila! All spiritual verities will be successfully disposed of and skepticism and the Blind Watchmaker will reign supreme! By now, we are becoming rather familiar with the tactics of discrediting states of mind that produce nonlinear shifts in the psychic landscape.
The problem with these reductionist explanations is this: even if it is true that St. Paul had epilepsy, and that is the existential account of his vision on the road to Damascus, does that then negate the spiritual significance of the event? Because, in point of fact, every single spiritual condition – positive or negative – probably does have an expression in physiology.
We would also like to note that the hard-core skeptic is as likely to be skeptical because he suffers liver disease as the born again Christian is likely to be converted because his ulcer drives him to seek relief. The evil magician can have a dirty colon and the psychic vampire can have false teeth. In short, raptures and rants can be equally represented by organic conditions. And if this is taken as the model of verity, then none of our ideas, our thoughts, feelings, scientific doctrines, beliefs or disbeliefs, have any value at all. If such an idea is the theory upon which we are to evaluate our reality, then we must theorize that every idea emanates from the state of the body of the originator. What is sauce for the goose is sauce for the gander.
On the other hand, we can take these existential clues and apply the “adult dictionary” to them and utilize them as stepping stones to higher knowledge! We can see them as part of the clue system. We can understand them as part of a wider semiotic content plane.
The scientific/psychological theories do, of course, have favored states of mind that are considered to be inwardly superior to others and which reveal to us more truth than others. Unfortunately, there is no physiological theory of the production of these favored states – such as a peripatetic pancreas, a limpid liver, a static stomach, or genial genitals.
How often do we hear it said that a scientist won a Nobel prize because he was neurotic as all get-out? Or that an Enochian magician is successful due to the fact that his sexual desire is sublimated in reaction to the fact that his first girlfriend laughed at the miniscule size of his genitalia? Do we dare to suggest that the author of the SETI article cited above suffers from Stockholm syndrome? And, of course, it could all be due to the fact that he has suffered all his life from the heartbreak of psoriasis!
The point is: the value of the theory of the scientist and the value of the ideas of those who are alienated can only be evaluated based upon philosophical reasonableness, moral helpfulness, and immediate luminosity. Saint Paul could have been an Olympic Ironman champion and it wouldn’t mean a thing if his ideas were beneath contempt.
In the end, we are thrown back again to the fact that any and all ideas about truth must be evaluated based on principles, and principles can only be discerned by thinking as objectively as possible, and by gathering as much data as possible. We would all like to be insured against making mistakes in evaluating what we take as true or not. We would like to have some basic criteria that will protect us immediately from such errors. We would like to know the origin of an idea, and thereby be able to accept it or discard it either because we have decided the origin is intuition, the authority of the pope, supernatural revelation, direct communication via a spirit, or any of several sources that are variously determined to be true sources. In this sense, the materialists who attempt to reduce any such phenomena to pathological states simply invalidates their own position by using origin as a destructive criterion.
“What right have we to believe Nature is under any obligation to do her work by means of complete minds only? She may find an incomplete mind a more suitable instrument for a particular purpose. It is the work that is done, and the quality in the worker by which it was done, that is alone of moment.” (Maudsley, 1886, pp. 256-257)
In other words: “By their fruits you shall know them.” The roots of a person’s virtue are inaccessible to us.
The alienated person has extraordinary emotional susceptibility. His conceptions tend to pass immediately into action; and when he gets a new idea, he has no rest until he either tells it, or works it off. The ordinary person asks, “What shall I think of this?” The alienated person asks, “What must I do about it?” Such people are not critics and commentators; their ideas take hold of them, and they do something.
In the alienated person, we find the emotionality that is the condito sine qua non of moral perception; there is intensity and a tendency to emphasis which are the essence of moral vigor and virtue; and we find the love of mysticism and metaphysics that lift the person beyond the surface of the ordinary world of the five senses. In short, the alienated temperament furnishes the chief condition of receptivity to higher states of being.
Cassiopaeans: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in 3rd density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.
Charles Fort was an eccentric, alienated personality. After receiving an inheritance from his family which meant he didn’t have to work for a living, he devoted his life to an idea: he traveled to the major metropolitan libraries where he would read through the various scientific journals of the day, looking for “damned data.”
Damned data includes strange phenomena and experiences such as reports of falls of strange things from the sky, strange things seen in the heavens, and strange disappearances. Fort was not just critical of the efforts of science to explain our reality, he was downright contemptuous of it. He would gleefully and fiendishly mock astronomers, meteorologists, and other scientists and their efforts to either deny or explain away anomalous occurrences. He derided their pompous attempts to deny what they could neither understand nor explain. His notes were published as The Book of the Damned.
Fort’s condition of alienation was expressed frequently in his repeated remarks that the more dogmatic and authoritarian a system, the more likely it is to be wrong. What was more, the ideas that he formulated after years of collecting data are quite expressive of the Cassiopaean description of densities especially in the idea that our real world is more or less a projection of an intermediate, “excluded-middle” realm of existence that was partly physical and partly ethereal.
I conceive of one inter-continuous nexus, in which and of which all seeming things are only different expressions, but in which all things are localizations of one attempt to break away and become real things, or to establish entity or positive difference or final demarcation or unmodified independence—or personality or soul, as it is called in human phenomena—…
Our general expression [is that] the state that is commonly and absurdly called “existence,” is a flow, or a current, or an attempt, from negativeness to positiveness, and is intermediate to both.
By positiveness we mean Harmony, equilibrium, order, regularity, stability, consistency, unity, realness, system, government, organization, liberty, independence, soul, self, personality, entity, individuality, truth, beauty, justice, perfection, definiteness—
That all that is called development, progress, or evolution is movement toward, or attempt toward, this state for which, or for aspects of which, there are so many names, all of which are summed up in the one word “positiveness.” …
I conceive of one inter-continuous nexus, which expresses itself in astronomic phenomena, and chemic, biologic, psychic, sociologic: that it is everywhere striving to localize positiveness: that to this attempt in various fields of phenomena—which are only quasidifferent—we give different names. We speak of the “system” of the planets, and not of their “government”: but in considering a store, for instance, and its management, we see that the words are interchangeable. It used to be customary to speak of chemic equilibrium, but not of social equilibrium: that false demarcation has been broken down. We shall see that by all these words we mean the same state. As everyday conveniences, or in terms of common illusions, of course, they are not synonyms. …
So then: That all phenomena in our intermediate state, or quasi-state, represent this one attempt to organize, stabilize, harmonize, individualize—or to positivize, or to become real: That only to have seeming is to express failure or intermediateness to final failure and final success; That every attempt—that is observable—is defeated by Continuity, or by outside forces—or by the excluded that are continuous with the included: That our whole “existence” is an attempt by the relative to be the absolute, or by the local to be the universal.
In this book, my interest is in this attempt as manifested in modern science: That it has attempted to be real, true, final, complete, absolute: That, if the seeming of being, here, in our quasi-state, is the product of exclusion that is always false and arbitrary, if always are included and excluded continuous, the whole seeming system, or entity, of modern science is only quasi-system, or quasi-entity, wrought by the same false and arbitrary process as that by which the still less positive system that preceded it, or the theological system, wrought the illusion of its being.
In this book, I assemble some of the data that I think are of the falsely and arbitrarily excluded.
The data of the damned.
I have gone into the outer darkness of scientific and philosophical transactions and proceedings, ultra-respectable, but covered with the dust of disregard. I have descended into journalism. I have come back with the quasi-souls of lost data. …
We substitute acceptance for belief.
Cells of an embryo take on different appearances in different eras.
The more firmly established, the more difficult to change.
That social organism is embryonic.
That firmly to believe is to impede development.
That only temporarily to accept is to facilitate.
But: Except that we substitute acceptance for belief, our methods will be the conventional methods; the means by which every belief has been formulated and supported: or our methods will be the methods of theologians and savages and scientists and children. Because, if all phenomena are continuous, there can be no positively different methods. By the inconclusive means and methods of cardinals and fortune tellers and evolutionists and peasants, methods which must be inconclusive, if they relate always to the local, and if there is nothing local to conclude, we shall write this book.
If it function as an expression of its era, it will prevail. …
We conceive of all “things” as occupying gradations, or steps in series between positiveness and negativeness, or realness and unrealness: that some seeming things are more nearly consistent, just, beautiful, unified, individual, harmonious, stable—than others.
We are not realists. We are not idealists. We are intermediatists—that nothing is real, but that nothing is unreal: that all phenomena are approximations one way or the other between realness and unrealness.
So then: That our whole quasi-existence is an intermediate stage between positiveness and negativeness or realness and unrealness.
Like purgatory, I think.
But in our summing up, which was very sketchily done, we omitted to make clear that Realness is an aspect of the positive state.
By Realness, I mean that which does not merge away into something else, and that which is not partly something else: that which is not a reaction to, or an imitation of, something else. By a real hero, we mean one who is not partly a coward, or whose actions and motives do not merge away into cowardice. But, if in Continuity, all things do merge, by Realness, I mean the Universal, besides which there is nothing with which to merge. …
So, then, in general metaphysical terms, our expression is that, like a purgatory, all that is commonly called “existence,” which we call Intermediateness, is quasi-existence, neither real nor unreal, but expression of attempt to become real, or to generate for or recruit a real existence.
Our acceptance is that Science, though usually thought of so specifically, or in its own local terms, usually supposed to be a prying into old bones, bugs, unsavory messes, is an expression of this one spirit animating all Intermediateness: that, if Science could absolutely exclude all data but its own present data, or that which is assimilable with the present quasi-organization, it would be a real system, with positively definite outlines—it would be real.
Its seeming approximation to consistency, stability, system—positiveness or realness—is sustained by damning the irreconcilable or the unassimilable—
All would be well.
All would be heavenly—
If the damned would only stay damned. (Fort, 1974)
And all would be well if “alienated people” would get with the social Stockholm syndrome program and quit thinking that ET might not have our best interests at heart!
Now, we come to the second line of information that has popped up in the past few days. The new movie, The Mothman Prophecies is out now, and there is a great deal of commentary being made in various metaphysical/paranormal research circles. Both Fortean Times and Fate magazines have articles on Mothman. John Keel, the original investigator of the Mothman case writes in the recent issue of Fate (Jan–Feb 2002):
In 1966–68, over 100 people in Point Pleasant, West Virginia, and the surrounding area reported seeing a giant, winged creature. This critter was usually described as being taller than a big man, with blazing red eyes and a wingspan of only ten feet. Yet it was able to fly faster than a speeding car.
Yet the creature failed to leave footprints, feces, or other physical evidence. After a flurry of sightings over a two-year period, it seemed to vanish forever. This proved once again that eyewitness testimony is of little value when you are dealing with fortean events. A thousand people could all see the same thing at the same time and it still isn’t proof that the object or entity is a real, physical, corporeal resident of our dimension. (Fate Magazine, pg 8)
The most fascinating article in the present offerings is about journalist Rick Moran’s 1978 investigation of the Mothman phenomenon. Mr. Moran points out in his article that the protocols of “writers,” in generic terms, and “journalists” are not the same. He had the idea that “field researchers looking into cases of the unexplained should adopt the tenets of investigative journalism; to look at the human stories together with the unvarnished facts (insofar as they could be discovered). This might better help us understand strange events than either the logical data and natural skepticism of scientists or the effort of so-called paranormal researchers looking for proof of their pre-existing beliefs.”
We couldn’t agree more. The Cs’ comments on Mothman connected it to a broader phenomenon-base which, as we will see, is supported by lateral evidence:
June 9, 1995
Q: (L) I read in a book about a monster called the Beast of Gevaudan which appeared first in 1764 and was supposedly done away with in 1767. Who or what was this beast?
A: Other dimensional “window faller.”
Q: (L) You mean it fell into our dimension from another through a dimensional window?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, that would explain a lot of things about it. What about the creature known as “Spring Heel Jack” who terrorized England some time ago?
A: Same.
Q: (L) What about the Mothman in West Virginia?
A: Same.
Q: (L) So, windows to other dimensions are the explanation for a whole host of strange things?
A: Yes.
Which leads to a related series of questions:
November 19, 1994
Q: (L) In the Ann Haywood case which is supposed to be a case of demonic possession or obsession, who or what are the beings that are afflicting this woman and her family?
A: 3rd density section “B” energy anomalies same as “poltergeist.”
Q: (L) The case that is described in the book The Haunted, about the Smurl family, with quite a bit of phenomena occurring in their house including the sighting of a big-foot-type creature, what is the source of the phenomena in that case?
A: Same.
Q: (L) So, neither of those cases are “alien” related?
A: Correct.
Q: (L) Why are there such marked similarities between those two cases and the case described by Karla Turner and other alien abductions?
A: Similarities are open to interpretation. Turner household was opened to multiple types of phenomena due to interaction with Grays and others.
Q: (L) Does that occur frequently in interactions with Grays?
A: When there is excessive activity of this sort it leaves open channels or “windows” which allows all sorts of things to come through.
After reading John Keel’s Mothman Prophecies, Moran just assumed that Keel had followed the protocols of the author of popular books and not the more stringent journalistic rules. He was warned that he ought not to compare Keel with other writers because he was a good researcher and not prone to hyping his subject.
Rick Moran decided to put this to the test. Ten years after the Mothman incidents, he went to West Virginia and retraced as many of John Keel’s steps as he could. He tells us:
I was hoping to find a witness who might further embellish their testimony as reported in the book, or even recant. The deeper our questions got, the more we were convinced that the witness had indeed seen or interacted with something. Nearly everyone I spoke to remembered ‘the year of the UFOs’ and had a theory about it. Most seemed to know someone directly connected to the phenomenon and were willing to vouch for their veracity. Most residents had seen something, whether it was strange lights in the sky or ‘abnormal’ activity on the outskirts of town during that period. Even the more spectacular claims, they said, were made by people who were not otherwise prone to telling tall tales. (Fortean Times 156, April 2002)
Mr. Moran was quite impressed by the fact that even the police department and local newspaper staff verified the sincerity and veracity of those who had experienced the phenomena. Many of the reports are part of the public record, in police reports, and they became so frequent that the newspaper actually stopped reporting them due to overabundance of material. “The entire community became desensitized to the phenomenon and spoke matter-of-factly about nightly sightings of UFOs or the latest news on the creature” (Moran, FT 156).
Then, along came the Men in Black. They passed themselves off as government investigators, and the stories about those encounters are the strangest parts of the book. Here, Mr. Moran makes a rather interesting observation:
Unlike Mothman, the MIBs sent a shockwave of fear through their contactees. Their aura of menace was combined with an absurd fascination for quite mundane objects. They asked questions about common food items and their speech seemed somehow odd and disjointed. Most importantly, witnesses noticed the MIB had no ears, or seemed to talk without moving their lips. You’d think the witnesses would be terrified, having seen such obvious warning signs, but a strange calm prevailed until after the visitors left; only then did people realize how odd, even horrifying, their visitors were.
Our team conducted interviews, looked for deviations from the original stories and then departed. One witness told us, as we were leaving her home, that she believed the MIBs veiled threats were very real and that anyone looking seriously into the phenomenon was placing themselves in harm’s way. (Moran, FT 156)
These remarks about the sinister nature of MIBs is quite telling in light of what the Cs had to say about them:
November 6, 1994
Q: (L) All the UFO sightings in Gulf Breeze, are these aliens or government experiments?
A: Some are and some are projections.
Q: (L) And who is responsible?
A: Multiple sources.
Q: (L) Positive or negative?
A: Both.
November 19, 1994
Q: (L) Who or what are the individuals called Men in Black?
A: Lizard projections.
Q: (T) Does that mean that they are just projecting an image of a being?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) The MIBs are not real, then, in our physical terms?
A: Partly correct. You do not understand technology but we will describe it if you like.
Q: (L) We like. Please describe this.
A: Okay. Get ready. First we must explain further time “travel” because the two concepts are closely related. The first step is to artificially induce an electromagnetic field. This opens the door between dimensions of reality. Next, thoughts must be channeled by participant in order to access reality bonding channel. They must then focus the energy to the proper dimensional bridge. The electrons must be arranged in correct frequency wave. Then the triage must be sent through realm “curtain” in order to balance perceptions at all density levels.
Q: (L) Information in the event that has to be balanced or taken into consideration as to importance so that the program runs correctly. Is this the correct interpretation of triage as you have used it?
A: Sort of. Triage is as follows: 1. Matter, 2. Energy, 3. Perception of reality. That is it folks. […]
Q: (L) Several times I have heard reference to big flying rectangular boxes. I would like to know who these belong to?
A: Lizard projections.
Q: (L) Why do they have so many different types of craft?
A: Not all are theirs. […]
Q: (L) What or who are the South American aliens I have read about who are described as being gray with thick lips, rudimentary features, gray uniforms, and are called by the South Americans “Malos”?
A: Lizard projections.
Q: (L) Were these also the clay-like beings seen by Betty Andreasson only she saw them wearing blue suits?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where was Betty Andreasson taken to when she saw the Phoenix in her abduction?
A: Another dimension of reality.
Q: (L) Is Betty Andreasson correct in believing that her experiences are positive and are bringing her closer to God?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is Betty Andreasson deluded?
A: No. She is a victim.
January 11, 1995
Q: (B) What is the proper protocol when meeting a Lizard?
A: Up to you!
Q: (F) I don’t think I’ll repeat that, Barry. (L) Did he use the “F” word? (F) No, he referred to a part of the anatomy. (B) Are Lizards shape shifters?
A: All on 4th level of density have that ability.
Q: (B) Do they have the ability to block their true appearance?
A: Yes.
Q: (B) Are they walking around amongst us now?
A: Infrequently, they use “agents” to do most of their tasks on 3rd level.
Q: (B) Are these agents the Men in Black or are they the Grays?
A: Both and many others. Men in Black are often Lizards cloaked as human types, and can remain on 3rd density level for limited periods called short wave cycle. Men in Black claim to be government in order to have excuse to have direct contact with selected humans.
Q: (B) Have these Men in Black killed humans?
A: No.
Q: (F) They just threaten?
A: Yes.
Q: (B) Have the Lizards killed humans?
A: Oh yes!!!
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) OK, that’s good enough. Who are the oriental-appearing personnel that have been seen manning the helicopters and the white vans that have been sighted all over the country?
A: MIB. And government copycats. Copy, in order to throw off investigation. They do it to protect the public from knowing that which would explode society if discovered. […]
Q: (L) OK, I want to ask this one, because this is one I haven’t hit lately. Wendelle Stevens, who was associated with Billy Meier, and also Genesis 2 or 3, put out the Billy Meier book on the Billy Meier sightings …
A: Some too, are projections. This phenomenon is multifaceted.
July 23, 1995
Q: (L) I also seemed to be aware of several dark, spider-like figures lined up by the side of the bed, was this an accurate impression.
A: Those could be described as specific thought center projections.
October 23, 1998
Q: (L) Keel also talks about Serpent people integrated in our society with holographic images superimposed over their faces. Is this ever the case?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) As in Men in Black?
A: Maybe.
November 21, 1998
Q: (M) He says: I’ve had three experiences with aliens, who kindly provided me with silicone beads of some kind. Were these physical abductions or just projections?
A: One begets the other. A projection involves trans-dimensional atomic remolecularization.
At the end of their investigation, Moran’s team discussed the evidence, concluding reluctantly that the only explanation that had a broad enough theoretical base for the entire situation was the UFO-as-ultraterrestrials hypothesis proposed by John Keel, Jacques Vallee, et al. Their conclusion was that they had failed to find a chink in the Mothman armor. In short, they didn’t have an investigative journalism exposé to publish. And there the matter would have remained if not for a series of frightening interference-type events that began to occur in Rick Moran’s personal life right after his return to New York. These occurrences more or less pushed him off the fence.
The reader is going to have to get a copy of FT to read this account which accurately represents the very kinds of weirdness so many other people experience when delving into these matters, including ourselves and many members of our discussion group. The question is, of course, how to view it: in terms of Stockholm syndrome, or as an “alienated” individual?
In the week following truly bizarre, threatening phone calls, the involvement of the phone company in tracing these calls with startling results that served only to unnerve the journalist even more, Mr. Moran was scheduled to be a guest on Joel Martin’s talk show on WBAB on Long Island. The topic had nothing at all to do with UFOs or anything weird; it was about Agent Orange and its use in Vietnam. When Moran arrived at the station, the DJ met him in the lobby, obviously shaken. He, too, had received a visit from a MIB who warned him against doing shows on the subject of UFOs. After a brief “war council,” Mr. Moran and the DJ both agreed that when a journalist feels threatened, the best response is to put everything he knows before the public because, once it is public knowledge, there is no longer any reason to threaten the source. He was right. Neither he nor the DJ were ever threatened again.
What is most interesting is the fact that Mr. Moran points out that throughout his career of reporting on criminals, the mob, and other questionable elements of our society, neither he nor his family had never, ever been threatened before this diversion into the world of Mothman. And this begs the question: what is it about such investigations into hyperdimensional matters that invites a response that seeks to repress, twist, suppress, and otherwise employ Stockholm syndrome to shove everything back under the rug? Moran speculates in retrospect that the entire Mothman phenomenon had the flavor of an experiment.
And here we come to an item that ties it all together here. Colin Bennett brings to our attention the ancient magical connections between Mind and Landscape which is in opposition to the sterile materialist view of reality. The only question, of course, is whose mind? Bennett writes:
Forster’s Marabar caves, Hamlet’s castle at Elsinore, and Thomas Hardy’s Egdon Heath are all aspects of crypto-geographic personalities; they live and breathe as huge animated forms and penetrate human awareness the way ivy weaves through an old house. These suprahuman forms are quite conscious, aware, and active. In West Virginia, Keel found the local ‘system-animal’ had its own agenda; it ‘spoke’ through simulacra and weather, atmosphere and geology, coincidence and dream. Before the coming of Christianity and science, such forms as Keel describes were a fully understood part of an integrated world image that linked Mind to sacred sites, landscape, ideas and evolving culture. We might have to return to the ancient Greek view that the truth is scandalous beyond all belief, and the gods are neither respectable nor sensible entities at all.
In the fortean sense, scientific objectivity has ‘banned’ our recognition of any participants in our conscious life other than fellow humans. Shakespeare shows that there are unnamed dramatis personae implicit in the human situation, showing that humans are not lords of creation but part of an evolving chain of being, shading from ‘solid’ to almost nothing. This chain consists of animal, vegetable and mineral domains, all of which have dynamic anthropomorphic elements that we ignore at our peril. Like Shakespeare’s The Tempest, The Mothman Prophecies depicts humans as poised between the animal kingdoms and the realms of the gods. The Greek Tragedians understood completely such connections between environment and social character, motivation and supra-human agendas. Meantime, fallen moderns grate their teeth on the mechanical and wonder that they cannot explain events in Dallas 1963, the assassination of Princess Diana, or the murder of little Jon Benet.
Like many who return from the magic landscape of Magonia, Keel, as wounded initiate, is sick and exhausted. Occult initiation is always a near-death experience. (Bennett, FT 156, my emphases)
I hope the reader remembers the remark about “gritting of teeth” from my correspondent quoted at the beginning of this chapter. Put that together with this last remark of Mr. Bennett about “fallen moderns” who “grate their teeth on the mechanical,” as well as the mention of the death of Princess Diana and my perception of it as part of a fourth-density, time-looped clue system, and the comments I wrote in the previous chapter about Frank’s dental problems, and we have a perfect, living example of a semiotic content plane that is expanding exponentially.
We also begin to see that the so-called “scientific objectivity,” including that of the SETI study quoted at the beginning, may actually be more subjective than they would like to think, and “alienated” people do not, in fact, assign less meaning to life; because they are more truly objective, they assign more meaning; and this more meaning indicates, objectively, that ET does not have our best interests at heart.
At the end of this little episode of the revealing of a wider semiotic content plane, of connections to our “living landscape,” the action of the crypto-geographic personalities, the huge animated forms that penetrate human consciousness, the suprahuman forms that are quite conscious, aware, and active, we become even more acutely aware of the fourth-density Matrix Control System in real time. And when it reveals itself to us, when it touches us, it can be stunning. As my correspondent wrote:
You slide so slick, so fast, straight to the bottom and you sit there for a moment collecting yourself from the ride. Don’t you think this is the part that makes most people smile even if they’re grimacing and gritting their teeth on the way down due to the gravitational plunge, the extreme sensation of near free-falling, landing, finally, intact; a whole new sensation … And no longer speaking metaphorically, at the end of the slide there is a whole new reality/perception, or maybe, finally, the acceptance of the para-perception that was being avoided. …
I know nothing new has been uncovered here, we’ve all had these experiences before. But it seems important to talk about it. But, doesn’t it seem to be so that these experiences of direct interaction with the Universe seem to get bigger and more obvious with time? Maybe the sharing of these types of stories builds solidarity, and this energy of solidarity helps more and more people to pierce the veil?
Are the “alienated” beginning to build a Network of Freedom?
All would be well.
All would be heavenly–
If the damned would only stay damned.
In the two weeks following the end of the Xth Max Born Symposium, Ark undertook the process of cleaning out his office at the University of Wroclaw, the institution that had been a home to him for thirty years. He began to pack his books and papers into large mail sacks of about one hundred pounds each, hauling them on foot, one by one, to the post office, and shipping them to me. When the process was complete, eleven big canvas bags had been mailed, but after five years, only three of them ever arrived. We were, of course, devastated at this loss, and many forms were filled out, and letters exchanged with the Polish and American postal service in an attempt to locate these bags. We could understand the loss of one or two, but to “misplace” eight out of eleven has just simply never been satisfactorily explained. We suspect that this “loss” was similar to the “loss” of the luggage on the return to Poland.
Apparently, someone was noticing the activity. On the day before he was to leave, Ark received a message from his attorney that his ex-wife had sent word that he could come and she would hand over his property that she had stolen from the luggage. Neither one of us believed it; it was a trap. So Ark left instructions for his attorney to inform her attorney that she must turn it over to him, and he would see that Ark got it. She never did.
After his return, Ark spent four months doing research sponsored by the Kosciuszko Foundation. During this period we drove to the University of Florida in Gainesville, the affiliated institution, once a week for a couple of days of meetings, but most of the work was done at home. There were a number of strange “accidents” during these drives, but nothing that couldn’t be explained in normal terms. On one occasion, a truck swerved in front of us, and a huge steel baker’s rack just jumped off the back of it and came bouncing violently in our direction with us going 70 mph. We managed to swerve and avoid being hit head on by it, but the tractor trailer just behind us and in the lane to the right wasn’t so lucky. In our rearview mirror we witnessed what was almost a multi-car pileup. We had two blowouts of brand new tires, and for some reason, the van suddenly developed an undiagnosible heat regulation problem. This led to a couple of strange incidents.
We were just tooling along and all of a sudden the temperature gauge shot up. Fortunately, an exit was just ahead, and we pulled off into a gas station. We parked to the side to wait for the engine to cool, and as we stood outside, stretching our legs, a tall young blond guy in a mechanic’s uniform came strolling up with his hands in his pockets and asked us out of the blue, “Seen any aliens lately?”
I was rather taken aback, to say the least. I had no idea what to say. I was reminded of Terry’s experience with the guy who pulled in his driveway with an overheated engine and started talking about electronic ignitions as tracking devices right at the time that he had been discussing it with a friend. Even though the event was probably set up to scare us, all it really did was make us more acutely aware of the truth of what the Cs had said at that time:
November 11, 1994
Q: (T) Can our movements be tracked through the electronic ignition systems in our cars?
A: Not necessary. You are not yet aware of the extent to which humans have been “aided” in technological advancement.
Q: (T) By whom?
A: This requires long and complicated response.
Q: (T) The object behind using the electronic ignitions, from what I have heard, whether the source is true or not I can’t say, but I had a strange confirmation of part of it.
A: Beware of disinformation. It diverts your attention away from reality thus leaving you open to capture and conquest and even possible destruction.
Q: (L) Is the information about the electronic ignition systems correct?
A: Disinformation comes from seemingly reliable sources. It is extremely important for you to not gather false knowledge as it is more damaging than no knowledge at all. Remember knowledge protects, ignorance endangers. The information you speak of, Terry, was given to you deliberately because you and Jan and others have been targeted due to your intense interest in level of density 4 through 7 subject matter. You have already been documented as a “threat.”
Q: (L) Can you tell Terry what event occurred [referring to “confirmation” of electronic ignition subject] …
A: Remember, disinformation is very effective when delivered by highly trained sources because hypnotic and transdimensional techniques are used thereby causing electronic anomalies to follow suggestion causing perceived confirmation to occur.
Q: (T) Who was the guy in the Camaro?
A: Diversion.
Q: (T) About two weeks after I saw the video tape where I heard this information, a guy pulled up out of nowhere driving a souped up Camaro … (Jan: No! It was the night we were watching it!) We had watched it before and we were talking about it and decided to watch it again. So, Gary and I had decided to go outside to take the dog around the block and we had just gotten back and put the dog on the porch and we were standing outside smoking a cigarette when the guy in the Camaro pulls into the driveway with steam coming out from under the hood. He asked to use the hose. I told him yes. He gets out wearing jeans, tee shirt and scraggly blond hair. He says, “I overheated. I’m coming back from Gulfport and was going back to Ocala and was on the interstate” when his car overheated. Now, 275 is a little ways from my house and he came all the way, passed a gas station and convenience store, turned off the main drag and then onto my street to get water … then he started talking about how the new electronic ignitions are designed to shut down when the car exceeds a certain speed so he had installed a special racing ignition but ever since his car had been overheating … we had just finished watching this movie about electronic ignitions and we were flabbergasted … What I want to know is who has the power and ability to set up these kinds of “confirmations” or synchronicities?
A: Same forces spreading disinformation: Brotherhood/ consortium/ Illuminati/ New World Order/ “Antichrist”/ Lizards.
Q: (T) But I’m just a nobody. Why would they go to all trouble to send somebody in a Camaro to drive up on my lawn …
A: Several answers follow: Number One, Nobody is a “nobody.” Number two, it is no trouble at all for aforementioned forces to give seemingly individualized attention to anybody. Number three, Terry has been targeted and so has Jan and others because you are on the right track. Number four, this area is currently a “hot bed” of activity and extremely rapidly expanding awareness.
But more than anything we marveled at the machinations of the Matrix.
During this period of time, we had a number of discussions with the Cs about the invitation we had received to travel to Mexico. We were becoming more and more aware that the children had become targets – most especially when they felt that extra caution was hampering their social life. The Mexican Gravitational Society was sympathetic to the fact that we could not attend their meeting and leave the children at home, and they graciously agreed to include them in the arrangements. We took the two most vulnerable of the children with us, and following the Cs’ advice, managed to have a safe trip even though my eldest daughter’s second auto accident occurred while we were gone.
Ark accepted an offer to teach at the University in Gainesville, starting in January and since this meant that he had to be there five days a week, we decided to schedule some planned remodeling of the house during this time. As might be expected, this turned into a nightmare of truly monumental proportions, and we ended up discovering that the contractor we had hired was not licensed and had a police record an inch thick for cocaine abuse and fraud.
It is too horrible and tedious to even describe what this lunatic tried to do to us, how he destroyed our house, and how it took six months to get it put back together. It took quick thinking and work to recover our money from this guy, and I had to negotiate with the bank to take over the job of contractor myself. This meant, of course, that I had to be there every day to estimate, price, and order materials, supervise the work, pay the subcontractors, submit the bills to the escrow agent, and just a whole host of fun activities that made me aware that a good contractor is worth his weight in gold.
I drove Ark to Gainesville every Monday morning, and went to pick him up to come home for the weekend every Friday night. The schedule and workload was crushing, but we managed to have our sessions no matter what room in the house we had to use, though some of them were rather short and personal.
There were a couple of incidents with the van during these long drives down lonely back roads, one of which resulted in a very strange glitch in the time sequence, which we discussed at the session the following night.
I had been driving along State Road 121 that runs between US 19 and Gainesville. It’s a two-lane, mostly straight shot through a planted pine forest, with almost no traffic except loggers and hunters. It’s a nice drive in the daytime, even if it tends to be a little creepy; but I sure wouldn’t want to drive it alone at night! I was just driving along when the temperature problem suddenly kicked in, and I pulled off to the side to let the engine cool and check the coolant level. By this time, we knew that there was nothing wrong with the system, the thermostat had been replaced, and it was just a “personality problem” the van had developed, and we coped as best we could.
I opened the hood to let the air circulate around the motor and the instant I did, the radiator cap exploded off, and boiling green coolant shot into the air. I was lucky to be able to jump out of the way of being scalded.
After a period of cool-down, when not a single car passed, I replaced the coolant from a jug we had gotten in the habit of carrying, and went looking for the cap. It was nowhere to be found. At this point, a truck came along the road and the guy just stopped and got out and found my radiator cap under the middle of the van. Don’t even ask me how it got there! He then got back in his truck, turned around and went back in the direction he had come! Even though it seemed like just an ordinary incident, this act made it clear that he wasn’t just “passing by.”
I then continued on my way, figuring that I had lost about half an hour. In fact, however, I had lost an hour and a half.
May 16, 1998
Q: We have been talking about this funny incident. Do I really have a problem with the time issue on the way to Gainesville, or was I just simply that late and not aware of it?
A: Awareness is the key to all learning.
Q: What caused my radiator cap to pop off the van?
A: Simply search through the “archives” for the answer.
Q: Well, what do the archives have to do with … uh … all the way up to that point, the temperature needle was fluctuating, though it never overheated exactly. Can you tell me anything at all or am I going to exhaust myself over it? If you are not going to tell me anything, just say so!
A: See the truth recorded.
Q: What do you mean? Recorded where?
A: Look.
Q: Look where? The psychomantium?
A: Archival record.
Q: What archives? And what am I looking for?
A: Clue in response.
Q: What about the guy who stopped to help?
A: How dressed?
Q: He was dressed in work clothes. He had on jeans and a long sleeved shirt – cuffs and buttons – and it seemed like he had on a vest. A hunting vest. Padded.
A: All important events reveal themselves in their construction.
Q: Well … okay. (A) Does it mean that the event was important?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Was there also something unusual on our way back?
A: Maybe other, look for clues from which to compare.
Q: Alright, when we were leaving, we had to pull over and stop for that machine to be moved. We had to sit on the side of the road …
A: Search and research until “light” goes off.
Q: Off? Remember, when we stopped, there was the strobe on top of the vehicle? Maybe they were not moving farm equipment … maybe it was a UFO!? (A) Which light?
A: That is part of the clue.
Q: Did having to stop for that farm equipment – was that part of the important event? Was it a cover for something? Was it not as we perceived it?
A: No.
Q: That was just ordinary?
A: No.
Q: Well, what was it?
A: What is “ordinary?”
Q: Well, that was as it seemed to be? They were moving an irrigator across and down the road?
A: Maybe.
Q: This is not the time to be cagey! Are you talking about stopping at a traffic light?
A: ?
Q: Well, you are gonna have to help me out here … there are a million tiny details and we could go through every one of them!
A: Not necessary to be that thorough.
Q: (A) The archival record. Is there something in the van that can be recorded? (L) The light on the tape recorder?
A: No.
Q: A light in the van?
A: Not necessarily.
Q: Not necessarily, but it could be. (A) Something in the van?
A: Or around.
Q: (A) What do we have around? A tape recorder? Around here or around the van? (L) The taillights?
A: In magnetic “sphere” of the van.
Q: (A) Are we talking about the way in or way back?
A: Both and others as well.
Q: So, what is the deal with the van here? I want you to know that I am so tired and it is utterly impossible with such a tired brain to figure this out! Help us out here!
A: We are. But you need not know answers today. If you search as usual, they will become apparent.
Q: I know! The van is a time machine!!!! It is a traveling psychomantium, complete with mirrors!!!
A: All is a “time machine.”
Q: So, when we get in the van … and that is funny, when I drive the van, it never has that bumpy business. So, when Ark drives the van it must become a time machine! Does this have something to do with the van?
A: Its occupants.
Q: Well, when the light goes out … search and research until light goes off … part of the clue … something about the occupants … search and research …
A: Take “time” to study.
Q: Do you have another clue? (A) There is no point of departure. (L) What is the point of departure for the clue?
A: Look for it.
Q: Is it in what you have given?
A: Yes.
Fortunately, in July, Ark received an offer to work for a Defense Contractor, and we were able to settle down to a more stable level of activity. During this period, I was busy creating files of material to post on the website, each of which was an assembly of text that dealt with a given subject. It seemed more logical to publish it this way because so many follow-up questions had been asked about any given subject at different intervals, that I realized it would be difficult for most readers to have the patience to read through all of the text and connect the dots, so to say.
But still, at this point, I was just posting the material, and was not even attempting to explain any of it, except just briefly with an inserted paragraph here and there to set up the background. Doing this made me acutely aware of how much more research I needed to do, and I began to follow the clues given by the Cs in a more dedicated way.
With Ark home and available to help me with the HTML programming, the website was growing and changing. I experimented with a number of formats, designs, and had a little fun at one point including musical selections on each of the pages. Bit by bit I was learning to make the site as easy to navigate for the reader as possible, considering the complexity of the material we were trying to publish, and I removed all the bells and whistles out of consideration for those who may have had less powerful computers because it took up too much space and required long loading times. I experimented with different size fonts and appearance, trying to find the right look and feel. Readers offered feedback and advice, and I tried to accommodate their requests.
Meanwhile, the readership was growing apace. In the earliest days, we were happy to have 50 visitors in a 24-hour period. At the present, we have a steady stream that averages 5,000 page hits per day. The increase in visitors presented a new problem: correspondence. We were being deluged with email from readers who recognized the truth of the Matrix-reality explanation presented by the Cs. They all had questions, and what’s more, they all felt isolated and in need of knowing that they were not alone or crazy for being able to see the unseen. What was most encouraging was the realization that most of our readers – those who got it, so to say – were highly intelligent, articulate, stable and productive members of society. We do, of course, get a few messages from lunatics and people who are clearly unstable. But for the most part, those people who contact us are people who have a well-defined work ethic, a history of success in dealing with “real life,” and a questing nature that motivates them to look deeper into our reality because, all the while they have been living their “normal lives,” they have also experienced things that suggest to them there is more to this world than meets the eye. Also, a significant number of them have spent their lives battling an ongoing series of attacks that seemed designed to wear them out, discourage them, and generally prevent them from having sufficient time and energy to actually do the research they would like to have done on these matters of the soul.
But, they all had questions, and they all felt isolated. I felt then, and continue to feel, that each person who writes is special and their concerns are very likely the concerns of others, so all deserve whatever I can give in response to their asking. But, I also knew that I couldn’t spend every waking moment answering all of these emails individually. Ark and I, and the website, were the one point of contact that all of them shared, so I decided that a good thing to do would be to create a discussion group where all of them could be introduced to one another and they could then discuss these many subjects with like-minded people. And so, our egroups were born, though in the beginning, they were just a list of addresses that each person had to paste in, and it was often inconvenient and produced double messages, or someone’s address would be omitted.
At this point in time, I was still trying to get Frank to be more involved in this work. I would print stacks of email from readers to share with him before the sessions, and he would avidly read those that praised the Cs, pointing out that he was the one to thank for such glowing letters since he was “the channel.” I was happy to just let him go on about it in this way since I felt so sorry for him because he had no computer and was out of touch other than what we were able to do for him on Saturday nights.
But when any readers posed questions, or presented problems for discussion, especially if they were questions that posed doubts about the material itself, he would toss those emails aside with contempt and remark that I ought not to waste my time trying to answer such questions. This was a very disturbing thing to observe and I tried to explain to Frank that our philosophy was that sharing what we had learned when we were being asked was one of the more important things we could do as service to others. It was somewhere at this point that Frank began to drop hints to us that we ought to be paying him to attend the sessions because, obviously, he was the channel and if there was going to be public attention, he deserved to be compensated as well as given star billing on the website! I didn’t agree. I referred to all of us on the website as “The Group.” I did think that it would be alright to have a little page of bios of the different members of the group, and I asked Frank to write whatever he wanted to say about himself, and I would type it up and post it. Month after month I would ask him, “Did you write your bio yet?” And he would deliver the list of excuses as to why he hadn’t, and then suggest that I should write it. At this point, since Ark and I were doing literally everything else, I began to resent the fact that Frank did so little, complained so much, and expected to be carried like a baby to fame and glory. I refused to write his bio for him. I told him to come a couple of hours early on one of the session nights, or any other time during the week, and sit down at my computer and write it. He never had time.
The fact that Frank was so resistant to making any kind of contribution was really starting to bother me. All the while he was proclaiming what a high spiritual being he was, that he was most definitely the most STO being on Planet Earth, there was simply no evidence to support it. The Cs had said that an STO being was one who “gives to those who ask.” Well, I was asking Frank to help with organizing the material, with spell-checking, with writing a little bio, with answering questions for readers, with editing, and other things that certainly would have taken only an hour of his time a day. But he stubbornly and steadfastly failed to do one single thing. When I would point out that his excuses didn’t hold water, he would just laugh and point out that by now, I ought to realize that this was just the way he was, and I had better get used to it.
As a result of all this, I was becoming less and less sure of Frank’s exact role in the process. Since I had finally caught up in the transcribing, and was in the process of going through all the sessions and trying to get spelling errors cleaned up, cross-checking them with the notes and sometimes the original tapes, I was becoming more and more aware of just how clever the Cs were in their communications to us. With a broader overview, I was able to begin to see that Frank was not the channel in the sense that he “was the Cs.” I also realized that the Cs had been gently agitating for a long time for me to disengage from Frank and undertake a more direct form of communication, which excluded trance channeling (which I knew to be iffy at best), one which suited my particular make-up far better – the psychomantium.
The subject of the Psychomanium was first bruited by the Cs, right out of the blue, on January 17, 1997, exactly 25 days before Ark came to the States for the first time. It is always interesting to go back over the sessions and see what the general discussion and flavor is that sets the tone for what sorts of things come out later. Somehow, it always seems to be interconnected.
On this particular evening, we began the session with a discussion of an individual who had been present the previous week. This woman is described in volume two of The Wave; the one who experienced the “reptoid rape,” and who was later to behave in so strange a way that it was absolutely frightening. The entire group witnessed her bizarre behavior on more than one occasion, and Terry was extremely concerned that she was programmed to be physically violent. The Cs had warned of “grave, grave, danger” when she was present, and we had all thought that it referred to her. In was only later, during the week, after we had a chance to discuss it, that Terry pointed out quite logically that the Cs were warning us of danger in this woman’s presence.
Q: (L) Also, I am very tired. This has been a very long day.
A: Time to consider construction of psychomantium.
Q: (L) What is a “psychomantium?”
A: Use Latin knowledge. [group discusses possible definitions]
Q: (L) Is it something that you use your mind to direct or control or power?
A: Chamber for viewing other realms, possible futures and entities residing in other densities. Need clear depth … such as large polished mirror on stand, which can be adjusted as to angle … walls must be completely covered in black, so as to eliminate reflection … soft, low, indirect lighting.
Q: (L) Wasn’t it Dr. Moody that did the life-after-death thing? (T) He’s got a room with the mirror with the black velour walls and the comfortable chair that you can look in the mirror without seeing yourself …
A: Yes, and it is real and it works. In the clear depths, you can even see us, on occasion!
Q: (L) Didn’t we ask once about what this guy was doing, having people staring into a mirror, that it was opening them up to attachment, and was that not confirmed?
A: Attachment is merely a function born from a lack of knowledge … something you have enough of now so as not to worry.
Q: (T) This psychomantium, isn’t it in essence a way of opening up a doorway to other realities and other levels and densities?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Is that something you really want to do?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Why?
A: Because you are ready now … and besides, what do you think you are doing here?!?
Q: (L) Is it a doorway that can be as Castaneda described it, where something can walk in, or walk out?
A: Possible … but … if you recall, what was the missing factor with Castaneda’s story?
Q: (L) He didn’t have knowledge. Is that it?
A: Not enough.
Q: (L) Is this something that can or ought to be done as a group, or singly … what’s the deal?
A: Both.
Q: (T) So we’re going to really construct one of those here? (L) Do we really want to do this at this house? Don’t we want to buy something out in the country, where people won’t be watching our bizarre behavior? (T) It doesn’t really matter, we’re watching everybody else’s bizarre behavior, how bizarre can it be?
A: They won’t watch, unless you invite them in.
Q: (L) OK, we’ve got all of these little things that need to be done; we’ve got a hole in the cellar that needs to be dug, that’s still sitting there, we’ve got a pool that’s supposed to be built, now we’re supposed to build a psychomantium.
A: This is not a daunting or costly project … materials: felt of the type you used for your charts, mirror and soft light, or candles. [TR describes a portable version that can be set up when using, and taken down when not needed.]
Q: (L) Is this basically the way that it is done, as TR has described it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How long is it necessary to sit and stare into the mirror before one experiences …
A: Varies, but not long.
Q: (T) It’s going to vary from person to person … (L) OK, what advantage is there to using a psychomantium to using the board, I mean, is it going to replace the board?
A: No. Visualizations clarify and unite images.
Q: (L) OK, what images would we wish, or would be suggested to unite and clarify, and particularly in the term unite? You’ve used the term “unite” on a number of occasions, and in unusual ways.
A: Anything and everything in transcripts, for example … and all else.
Q: (L) OK, so we would be able to see all of the things told about in the transcripts. Would we also be able to, by seeing a fourth-density reality, be able to generate some sort of unification between ourselves, in some sense, and this new reality ?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this part of the way and means of bonding oneself to fourth-density reality.
A: Helps.
Q: (L) Can one also use this to visit other parts of the globe in real time?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Visit the past and the future?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) There’s other things on the other side. Can they come through?
A: Only if used ignorantly.
Q: (L) Is it the mental blocking technique that we are familiar with what prevents entry of something else?
A: Close.
Q: (J) “Knowledge protects!” (T) Well, this is easier than digging out under the pool, and building a reflecting pool, and finding 75 square feet to build a labyrinth. (L) It sounds like a damned amusement park! (J) Yeah, “LauraWorld!!!” (T) It would give a whole new meaning to an “E” ticket ride!
A: “Amusement” denotes fun!
The most significant points about the above remarks were 1) the use of the mirror would clarify all the things in the transcripts that had remained unclear to this point, which obviously meant that there was something about the present process that was unsatisfactory; 2) the use of the mirror would strengthen the bonding with the higher reality, which, as we already knew, would “hasten the receiving of assistance;” and 3) there was no need to be concerned any longer with the possibility of negative experiences because the knowledge energy field had been solidified in me and was, essentially, impenetrable; 4) Frank was not being proposed as the individual who ought to do the work. He was, effectively, excluded.
But, by now, the reader knows me. I had resisted all other suggestions to change the mode of the channeling up to this point, so just because the Cs suggested it, didn’t mean I was going to do it! Besides, it wasn’t brought up again until that ill-fated August after the flood, and just before the death of Princess Diana. But, the reader may recall that odd remark in the session about the flood, during July of ’97:
Q: What is a “collinear wave reading consciousness unit?”
A: Suggest you “look in the mirror.”
In retrospect, of course, it is easy to see that once I had been “awakened,” to some extent, and once Ark had been brought into the picture, the process of changing gears, advancing the process, and eliminating Frank from the picture had begun. That it was intended to be utilized by Ark and myself was strongly hinted in the following, which included the “carrot” that answers of a personal nature would also be obtainable by this method.
August 9, 1997
Q: OK, I was reading something that related to mirrors. What was said was: “Negative existence is the silence behind the sound, the blank canvas beneath the painting, the darkness into which light shines. Emptiness is the stillness against which time moves. Negative existence enables a man to be what he is. It is the mirror of mirrors. Non-anticipation is non-interference, and allows the most perfect reflection of creation.” I thought that this was a nice way to express it. Could you comment on that and how it applies to other things you have told us?
A: Build a psychomantium.
Q: We are going to. As soon as Ark gets here …
A: Answers re: divorce, career, et cetera, come through that medium, as they are personal and thought center reflective.
Q: So, maybe I will build it before he gets here …
A: Or, use the mirror, and Ark too.
Q: Ark could also use the mirror?
A: In a darkened room, mirror pointed away from your reflection, indirect light, preferably candle, meditate …
Q: Anything further? I can just do it in my room?
A: To start.
Q: How long will I have to meditate?
A: Open.
Q: Approximately? Day after day, or the first time?
A: Try it.
What was hinted at, but not clearly stated, was that the answers regarding the mission would also be “seen” in the mirror. And later in the session, the parameters of the mission itself were somewhat defined. Again, the flavor and texture of the question that was the platform for the introduction of a certain topic is interesting to consider.
This session was right at the point in time that I was still digging into the Templars, the relation of the Templars to my own ancestors, as well as the discovery of the possibility that the first Knight in my line had been the illegitimate offspring of Roger de Mortimer and Isabella of France, the daughter of Philip the Fair, the French King who brought down the Templars.
At this point, I knew only that the child had suddenly appeared in Winchester with a surname that was, at that point in history, a function and not a name. I assumed that he could have been born in France. It was only later that I discovered some documentary evidence that the child had been born in the Tower during the year that Isabella was in residence there, at the same time that Roger was a prisoner. Roger later escaped, being the only person (or one of the few) to ever escape from the Tower of London. It was pretty obvious that he had been helped, very likely by Isabella and Adam Orleton, who was later made Bishop of Winchester in 1333. It is even thought that Adam was ultimately the one responsible for having Edward II murdered, so it is evident that his loyalties were with the ancient Welsh bloodline.
So, of course, with all the strange bits and pieces of the puzzle floating around this issue of Perceval of Wales, the Mortimers as the carriers of the Welsh royal line, the Templars as guardians of the Grail, and Adam Orleton being clearly in the camp of the Templars, and right on hand to take charge of an infant born of such a union, I was naturally curious if there was any significance to these clues as being a possible template for present events. I had the idea that Edward II, the first “English” Prince of Wales had been murdered for symbolic reasons as much as anything. So, that is the doorway that was opened which resulted in the following remarks about the mission.
Q: Next question: is there any relationship between the fact that Roger de Mortimer, the carrier of the last of the line of the Welsh kings, was the lover of Isabella of France, who was the daughter of Philip the Fair, the destroyer of the Templars, and the murder of Edward II, the first of the English Prince of Wales?
A: Templars are a setup, insofar as persecution is concerned. Remember your “historical records” can be distorted, in order to throw off future inquiries, such as your own.
Q: I know that. I have already figured that one out! But, it seems that no one else has made this connection. I mean, the bloodlines that converge in the Percys and the Mortimers are incredible!
A: You should know that these bloodlines become parasitically infected, harassed and tinkered with whenever a quantum leap of awareness is imminent.
Q: Whenever a quantum leap …
A: Such as “now.”
Q: Did Isabella and Mortimer have a child while they were in hiding in France?
And it is at this moment that the most bizarre shift of subject took place.
A: No. Here is something for you to digest: Why is it that your scientists have overlooked the obvious when they insist that alien beings cannot travel to earth from a distant system???
Q: And what is this obvious thing?
A: Even if speed of light travel, or “faster,” were not possible, and it is, of course, there is no reason why an alien race could not construct a space “ark,” living for many generations on it. They could travel great distances through time and space, looking for a suitable world for conquest. Upon finding such, they could then install this ark in a distant orbit, build bases upon various solid planes in that solar system, and proceed to patiently manipulate the chosen civilizations to develop a suitable technological infrastructure. And then, after the instituting of a long, slow, and grand mind programming project, simply step in and take it over once the situation was suitable.
Q: Is this, in fact, what has happened, or is happening?
A: It could well be, and maybe now it is the time for you to learn about the details.
Q: Well, would such a race be third or fourth density in orientation?
A: Why not elements of both?
Q: What is the most likely place that such a race would have originated from?
A: Oh, maybe Orion, for example?
Q: OK. If such a race did, in fact, travel to this location in space-time, how many generations have come and gone on their space ark during this period of travel, assuming, of course, that such a thing has happened?
A: Maybe 12.
Q: OK, that implies that they have rather extended life spans …
A: Yes …
Q: Assuming this to be the case, what are their life spans?
A: 2,000 of your years.
Q: OK, assuming such a bunch have traveled …
A: When in space, that is …
Q: And what is the span when on terra firma?
A: 800 years.
Q: Well, has it not occurred to them that staying in space might not be better?
A: No. Planets are much more “comfortable.”
Q: OK … imagining that such a group has traveled here …
A: We told you of upcoming conflicts … Maybe we meant the same as your Bible, and other references. Speak of … The “final” battle between “good and evil … ” Sounds a bit cosmic, when you think of it, does it not?
Q: Does this mean that there is more than one group that has traveled here in their space arks?
A: Could well be another approaching, as well as “reinforcements” for either/or, as well as non-involved, but interested observers of various types who appreciate history from the sidelines.
Q: Well, swell! There goes my peaceful life!
A: You never had one!
Q: Well, I was planning on one! Is this one of those items we should not put on the Net, or are you addressing it because you want it on the Net?
A: We will leave that until a bit later.
Q: Any other comment?
A: You chose to be incarnated now, with some foreknowledge of what was to come. Reference your dreams of space attack.
Q: OK, what racial types are we talking about relating to these hypothetical aliens?
A: Three basic constructs. Nordic, Reptilian, and Greys. Many variations of type 3, and 3 variations of type 1 and 2.
Q: Well, what racial types are the “good guys?”
A: Nordics, in affiliation with 6th density “guides.”
Q: And that’s the only good guys?
A: That’s all you need.
Q: Wonderful! So, if it is a Grey or Lizzie, you know they aren’t the nice guys. But, if it is tall and blond, you need to ask questions!
A: All is subjective when it comes to nice and not nice. Some on 2nd density would think of you as “not nice,” to say the least!!!
Q: That’s for sure! Especially the roaches! Maybe we ought to get in touch with some of these good guys …
A: When the “time” is right.
Q: Speaking of time – any further comments?
A: Just pay attention to the signs, please! It is not helpful to place yourself in a vacuum of awareness.
Q: I don’t think I am in a vacuum of awareness. Now, this Jason Dunlap is printing a lot of stuff that reminds me of the Hale Bopp incident. There is a lot being said about the sightings out in the Southwest area. They are saying that this is the “new” imminent invasion or mass landing. Can you comment on this activity?
A: Prelude to the biggest “flap” ever.
Q: And where will this flap be located?
A: Earth.
Q: When is it going to begin?
A: Starting already.
Q: Is this biggest flap going to be just a flap, or is it going to be an invasion?
A: Not yet.
Q: Not an invasion?
A: Yes.
Q: So, it will just be inciting people to frenzies of speculation …
A: Invasion happens when programming is complete …
Q: What programming?
A: See Bible, “Lucid” book, Matrix Material, “Bringers of the Dawn,” and many other sources, then cross reference …
Q: Well, if something is fairly imminent, we are not gonna have time to do all the things you have suggested that we do!
A: Yes you will, most likely.
Q: Well, we are supposed to build a pool, a maze, a psychomantium, to build a database, get a Nobel Prize … a lot of things in the works here … This just sort of takes the heart right out of me!
A: Not so!
Q: Well, are we going to have time to do all these things?
A: All these things were suggested for this reason, among others.
Q: So, all the things you have suggested are to get us ready for this event?
A: Yes.
Q: Well, we better get moving! We don’t have time to mess around!
A: You will proceed as needed, you cannot force these events or alter the Grand Destiny.
Q: I do not like the sound of that! I want to go home!
A: The alternative is less appetizing.
Q: Sure! I don’t want to be lunch!
A: Reincarnation on a 3rd density earth as a “cave person” amidst rubble and a glowing red sky, as the perpetual cold wind whistles …
Q: Why is the sky glowing red?
A: Contemplate.
Q: Of course! Comet dust! Sure, everybody knows that! Wonderful!!! Anything further?
A: Stay tuned for all pertinent information.
The question, of course, is why did the consideration of the events of that period in history open the door to information about a group of beings who had traveled here to “patiently manipulate the chosen civilizations to develop a suitable technological infrastructure. And then, after the instituting of a long, slow, and grand mind programming project, simply step in and take it over once the situation was suitable”?
I was already getting the idea that time loops were somehow important, and that there were big loops and sub-loops, and that there were periods of history that gave evidence of manipulation by virtue of their connections to other periods in history, but how it all connected I wasn’t sure. All of this thinking went back to the three-dominoes dream. I could see that, at certain points in history, an event had been changed or manipulated in some way, and this change acted liked a domino in a long chain of events. I had even discovered that there was some sort of mathematical law that related to the third domino. This law posits that in a row of dominoes where the first one is knocked over to hit the second and third and so on, that no matter how fast or slowly the first domino falls, the rate of fall of the third domino is the same as the rate of fall of all the rest. Somehow, I had the emerging idea that this was connected to three periods in history that were the “dominoes.” But there were many other connections as well, that was just the one that worried me.
I started to think a bit more about the psychomantium, though obviously not a whole lot. I remembered that Nostradamus had used a similar method, looking into a bowl of water or something, that Jakob Boehme had used a polished brass bowl, and that Dr. John Dee had utilized a polished stone. I read a magazine account of this event and my question was based on the information in this account.
November 22, 1997
Q: John Dee supposedly had a vision of the Angel Uriel who gave him a highly polished black stone which was convex, and into which he gazed to communicate with other realms. This sounds very much like a psychomantium. OK, these beings would appear on the surface of the stone and reveal all the secrets of the future. This was not an imaginary stone because it now resides in the British Museum. However, he later hooked up with Edward Kelley who was, apparently, a complete con artist. What kind of beings did Dee and Kelley conjure through their polished stone?
A: Fourth Density.
Q: STS or STO?
A: Both.
I wasn’t particularly interested in following this up because the history of the contact was such that it was pretty clear that the STS entities were dominant. John Dee was led on a merry chase by these beings, and the fact that the material was later used by MacGregor Mathers and Aleister Crowley was sufficient to indicate to me that the fruits of the work weren’t what I would consider positive by any stretch of the imagination. Interestingly, much later the issue of Dr. Dee was brought up in a most unusual way. Vincent told me that he believed he was the reincarnation of Dr. Dee and it was his job to finish Dee’s work, which Crowley and later Mathers were was unable to do. However, at that point, I did take the trouble to read his material and realized that poor Dr. Dee was as duped by Edward Kelley as I had been by Frank and later, others. But, we will come to that.
The next mention of the psychomantium (the Cs were really hitting it hard, considering the fact that they kept coming back to it again and again), was at the time I have described above, when we were in the midst of the house renovation disaster which had followed directly on the heels of my daughter’s third auto accident, the one that had totaled her car. It was another shock and, after having had so many in so short a time, I wasn’t sure how much more I could tolerate. On top of the psychological trauma of the very fact that my child had been in an automobile that was now completely destroyed, but which she had walked away from, thank God, was the fact that she had not increased her insurance coverage as she said she would, and we were faced with absorbing the loss. Curiously, again the date was January 17, exactly one year after the psychomantium had first been mentioned.
January 17, 1998
Q: First question: why are we in the middle of such a horrible mess? Things were supposed to get better?!
A: Do you not expect there to be turmoil in accompaniment with a level one quantum life change?
Q: A level-one quantum life change? Do you mean the change we have already effected, or the change we hope to effect?
A: Both and transition between.
Q: So, this is a level-one quantum life change of some sort. […]
Q: Now, on Ali’s car. What happened to this guy who hit her car? It destroyed her car and thereby her life.
A: Did no such thing.
Q: Well, I know that! But she is crying and thinks her life is over. We are completely lucky, in my opinion, to have her still with us. Why three accidents in a year’s time?
A: The dark forces always attack the weakest, or most vulnerable, links in the chain.
Q: Did the guy actually fall asleep?
A: Close. Hypnotic state.
Q: Alright. What can I do, any of us, Ali, or whoever, to derive the proper lesson from Ali’s car being totaled?
A: Refer to standard response.
Q: Knowledge Protects.
A: Yes.
Q: OK, anything in particular about the line of attack through this construction project?
A: No.
Q: Well, when I fire this guy, is he gonna give me a hard time?
A: Some. […]
Q: OK. Any advice on how to go about getting the permits I need?
A: Look at easement.
Q: What?
A: Reexamine courthouse records for interesting anomalies which should work in your favor.
As it turned out, the Cs were right. The guy had no license, and had a criminal record.
At this point, Ark wanted to ask about the “work” we were supposed to be doing. It was pretty clear that all we were doing was spending our time keeping our balance in the face of repeated assaults from every quarter. While teaching at the University was a blessing, it also took up a lot of Ark’s time, and we were so tired from the constant traveling back and forth, that what little time we did have was spent trying to catch up, and we were getting very little sleep!
Q: (A) When I was coming here I hoped that I will do some work and you guys will be helping us and that we will doing things that are important, and, until now, with all this teaching that I have, the fact is that all the forces work in such a way that I can do just nothing. Is there any hope?
A: Yes, of course. But you must accept that it will unfold step by step, and you will not have the luxury of knowing well ahead of time what will happen. All is lessons. You may choose to look upon it as adventure or as torture … Have faith and get more sleep!! The lack of this is breeding a chemical imbalance within, thus leading to depression.
Q: (A) Well, I always like to be sure, and maybe I should take some steps before the end of life happens?
A: Sarcasm becomes you not! All will work out well for you, and we would not say this if we did not know it to be so.
Q: There is a meaning and a purpose in this attempt to integrate this into physics, and because the concept of density seems to have something to do with psychic and consciousness, I cannot find, until now, how to put it, how to relate it …
A: It has to do with perception, and the ability to perceive, which is in larger measure determined by genetic makeup. Your realm is created by your ability to understand it. The Wave comes as so many seek “graduation.”
Q: Are you saying that we are actually, in a sense, creating the Wave?
A: And vice versa.
Q: Are these densities something that can be defined in terms of physics, as in divisions of reality that some significant change occurs at, say, the boundary of one density that signifies the beginning of the other?
A: This, as with so much else is so difficult for you to understand because of your limited view point. Remember, you see the densities below yours perfectly well. But they don’t perceive you as what you are.
Q: (A) They said that, in physics, we have one seventh of the equation … (L) When they said that, he was talking about matter and the direction in time of an anti-particle, which was referred to as the one-seventh. (A) But, what I mean is, animals, minerals, they are described by just one physics that we learn in school. We do not see that this is a different density.
A: Only because you know it is there. You cannot measure that which is above your level of perception, when you are using measuring tools which only can measure that which you perceive.
Q: (A) We are the form makers. I mean it’s not Nature that is creating, it is us seeing order in potential disorder. And we see more order than animals, so it seems. Is this what is meant by higher density, being able to see more order?
A: Well, close, maybe, but you are attempting to employ a mirror to see outside.
Q: What we are trying to understand is: you have described seven densities. Three physical densities, three ethereal densities, and the one in the middle, the variable density. What we are trying to find out here is some way to express this mathematically. Some way to understand this in the universal language of mathematics. Because, if we could do that, mathematically speaking, that would help our understanding and perceptual abilities.
A: Yes, but first you must unravel the part of the puzzle which has nothing to do with mathematics. You would have your best luck finding the mathematical formula while in a “dream state,” or under hypnosis, or in meditation before a psychomantium.
Again, it was made clear that the mission could not proceed until the two of us began to employ the psychomantium. And again, Frank was being excluded. It seems that the true “meeting with the Cs” could only proceed without Frank. But I was still not ready to make so drastic a change. What happened next was very curious.
[At this point a low-flying helicopter apparently begins to circle overhead and this sound continues until the end of the session.]
Q: (A) Now, I want to come back to physics. We have this paper from the French guy who speaks about anti-gravity and relates it to a double structure of the universe; that antimatter is just located, not in our universe, but in another universe … [sound anomaly on tape for the next few seconds]
A: The two are exchangeable, much like an ion exchanger.
Q: (A) The two are exchangeable, but it’s about us. We are apparently made of matter rather than antimatter, or there is another us that is made of antimatter? I don’t think that we are exchangeable. We are apparently living in a universe of matter rather than antimatter.
A: Exchangeable.
Q: (A) The loop dimension of Kaluza-Klein … when I was asking about extra-dimensions, the answer was that there were no “extra” dimensions, but forget terminology, there is this theory of Kaluza-Klein that there is this loop dimension, this fifth dimension and the question is: this is a way toward UFT, and I would like to have a hint if adding this loop, or cylinder dimension, is the right step?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) OK, that is enough.
A: Okay, we sense probing of you now, or interference, so must go, Good Night.
Again and again, the deeper questions were denied in Frank’s presence, and we were being urged to undertake a different mode of communication.
The next reference to the psychomantium was, again, in response to questions relating to physics. Over and over again, the idea was being brought back to the original statement about gravity waves: “We mean for you, Laura, to meditate about unstable gravity waves as part of research.” It didn’t matter how many times I attempted to include Frank in the processes and projects, the Cs kept blocking it.
January 31, 1998
Q: (A) I want to ask about monopoles. Do monopoles exist?
A: Yes.
Q: My thought was that if monopoles exist, the only way they can exist is that if somewhere, under some conditions, the opposite of the pole exists … I mean they cannot exist in third density without being a duality … (A) Yes …
A: And third density cloaks so many truths.
Q: Do you say cloaks in the sense that it cloaks the monopoles from our observation?
A: Measurability.
Q: Cloaks them from our measurability.
A: Psychomantium.
Q: OK, is a psychomantium something that utilizes monopoles? When you use the mirror are you seeing the other “half” of them?
A: Window to many vistas.
Q: Well, I am working on it! I have to get the house put together first! (A) And to get the house put together first we gotta work on these monopoles, get the Nobel Prize for these monopoles …
A: Spreading yourself too thin.
Q: I know I am spreading myself too thin.
A: But, you are happier now. […]
Q: (A) Long ago you advised that I should return to something that I was doing long ago, and that I abandoned, like many other things. Monopoles was one of the things, and recently I discovered another, automata. The universe is like a computer and, in the beginning, there was the “word.” Should I just do the monopoles temporarily and finish, or is it something that is worthwhile to pursue? Help, please.
A: You need study time.
Q: What is the clue to be derived from “study time?”
A: Both efforts bring results when pursued simultaneously. Weekends provide this, so do evenings soon to be in new environment, if pursue correctly. Basically on the right track, just have patience and faith. Now, we suggest that future sessions delve more fully into matters of universal importance, then personal problems dissolve, or at least ease!
So it seems that study time and the psychomantium were the pathway. But our lives were, at that moment, so disordered that it would have been impossible. The house didn’t even have a roof on it at that moment and all our furniture was piled in the centers of all the rooms, covered with plastic sheeting. The walls were torn out, the electrical wiring and A/C ductwork was dangling everywhere, and so on. It was so bad that it had become the final straw that motivated the older girls to move out on their own. Ali had told me, “Mom, I can’t work and go to school in this environment.” And I knew she was right. Even if that was only part of her reasons, it was hard on me when the first chick left the nest. Yes, she was 20 years old already, but to me she was a baby. Everything was a disaster and we were struggling just to survive it, and Ali blamed the whole mess on the Cs. If there had been no Cs, there would be no disasters. From her perspective, the Cs were to blame for the loss of her beloved red Volvo.
Well, not having a roof on the house was a serious issue since it continued to rain in impossible amounts. I brought the strange weather up the following month, and again the issue of the psychomantium is related to some future events of significance.
February 28, 1998
Q: (L) I want to know something about this weird weather. There have been a lot of sightings in Gulf Breeze and falling fireballs out in Colorado, strange weather, but, to open the door to this, is there any more to be said about the increased UFO activity and the weather and all the other things going on at present?
A: Review early transcripts and predictions, leaving aside “time” frames.
Q: One of the earlier sessions made the statement “space invasion in 4 to 6 years.” That was said in 1994, which is 4 years ago. What is the deal on the space invasion situation?
A: Lessons are to be learned by observation closely.
Q: So, you are not going to give us any more on this idea of the space invasion?
A: See last answer, then wait and see.
Q: Well, I just keep wondering: are we supposed to be doing something?
A: What you are doing … Carefully reread transcripts in regard to questions about special efforts and whether they should be undertaken or not.
Q: Well, if you try to force things, you just mess it all up. You are supposed to be patient and let things fall into place …
A: Close.
Q: Well, we are getting close to getting the house ready so we can have our psychomantium in the other room. Hopefully we won’t be invaded and wiped out before that happens.
A: Major dramatic change comes with addition of psychomantium.
Q: Well, okay, we are pushing for it. I gotta really get this house finished!
A: Will be finished smoothly now … and on that note, Good Night.
The Cs were oh, so right, that a major change would come with the addition of the psychomantium. We just had no idea that it would be the means of revealing the unseen in ways we hadn’t yet considered.
The universe gave me a great gift at this point: Danny. This guy was a construction genius. All I had to do was describe what I wanted, point in the direction I wanted it, and he executed it perfectly. He was a master craftsman. Gradually the house started coming back together.
A few days later I found a wonderful cheval mirror in a specialty store that had a ding in the frame and was marked down less than half price! I brought my find home in triumph. In our bedroom, I set up a backdrop of black felt that I could roll up and down like a window shade, placed the mirror so that it reflected the felt, and dragged a chair into place. Voila! Instant psychomantium! But I still didn’t have a clue about what I was supposed to be doing with it!
March 13, 1998
Q: And we have purchased the psychomantium mirror. I practiced last night. How long is it gonna be before I see something?
A: As soon as you are content to see or not to see.
Q: Yes, I know that I have to get there – non-anticipation. I was getting close. I was seeing little flashes of light and movement, almost like looking at something going on in a fog. (A) How does one get information using this medium? (L) I don’t know! Should you do it with a question in your mind, or just wait to see what comes without direction?
A: Best to experiment for stronger learning.
Q: I don’t like the sound of that! My strongest learning comes when I really do something stupid!
A: Not always, and on that note, Good Night.
I wasn’t able to really motivate myself to do it, however. I was always so busy, there was so little time, and besides – as long as we were continuing to use the board, I didn’t really feel that I needed to apply more than occasional effort to the project. I was gripped by channeling inertia! If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it!
March 21, 1998
Q: Now, I have tried the psychomantium. So far, no luck. I don’t think it is gonna work.
A: Head must be clear, has not been so far.
Q: Well, how can my head be clear when you won’t give me the answers about how to take care of this Noah guy and all the other things going on so that I can clear my head?! I have all these worries! I know! I’m just joking!
A: Good!
Q: (A) In my opinion, this mirror is too narrow, it is not the right shape and it will not work even if the head is clear … (L) I love this mirror! (A) I know that you like this mirror …
A: Mirror is fine.
Q: (L) See?! (A) So, the problem is in the head! Too wide a head?! You must narrow the head!
At this point, some strange effects began to manifest. The instant I would sit in the chair before the mirror, I would begin to feel very hot, and a sensation of tremendous pressure – like the barometer was falling – would come over me. I knew something was going on.
April 4, 1998
Q: Alright, I have been practicing with the psychomantium. I once had a little flash of light. Another time there was the sensation of pressure and of course the rising heat. Are there any actions that I can take that will optimize the process?
A: Blacken the room.
Q: So, it will help to be in a completely blackened room?
A: Oh yes!!
Q: So, that will make a difference. You did say that there would be a dramatic change once the psychomantium was in place. Now, I haven’t seen any dramatic changes and I am almost afraid to ask because the last time you said something like that I was in an automobile accident!
A: That was not the change we were speaking of … We suggest you direct your gaze ahead and a little to the left!
At this point, Danny came to the rescue. He built me a large closet to use as a psychomantium. I had decided that Terry’s idea of a sort of box lined with felt might work, and I needed closets anyway. So while Danny was building closets, I had him build me a special L-shaped affair around a corner of one of the downstairs rooms that would accommodate a mirror offset to the left, and space for a reasonable chair. I purchased sufficient black felt to completely line the little room (there was no way I was gonna paint any walls in my house black!), and voila again! Psychomantium!
The next few occasions when it was brought up were effort to establish some sort of protocol.
May 2, 1998
Q: We have our psychomantium built. I am of the opinion that the candle must be obscured completely and you should only be able to see the black depth of the mirror. If you put the candle in front, all you see is the candle … you see the candle light on the walls. You said very plainly: clear depth, indirect lighting only, that nothing ought to be seen, no walls, no reflection, nothing. Frank says that we should put the candle in front.
A: Must be able to distinguish mirror.
Q: OK, that is gonna be difficult.
A: Try the swivel mirror.
Q: Well, Ark says that it is not wide enough – it is too narrow. He didn’t like it.
A: Try it. If straight on, and tilted upward, should work.
Q: How long is it gonna take me … can you give me an estimate? Say, a theoretical person like myself, in my position, condition, and all things considered, how long would it take that person to see something?
A: As soon as their psyche is clear of anticipation/prejudice.
Q: With me, that could be a long time!
A: Or it could be a short time.
Q: Yes, but you have given me such a build up over the last couple of years – that seems impossible …
A: No.
Q: Well, it is gonna be hard …
A: No.
May 14, 1998
Q: Can you give me any advice about the psychomantium? I try to not try and it is pretty hard. I mean, my eyeballs fall out of my head. Should I change my breathing?
A: Meditate, do not anticipate.
Q: When you say that, do you mean that I should not anticipate being able to see something?
A: Yes.
Q: Well, I feel pretty stupid doing that. I mean, the obvious reason one goes into a dark room with a mirror and a candle is to see something! It’s kind of hard to sit there and not think about seeing something when you are in a room that is obviously designed to see something!
A: No. Meditate; clear head.
May 30, 1998
Q: So, it is not altogether as he is saying. Ark wants to use the psychomantium. Are there any suggestions for him to follow that would be different from instructions for me? But, then I am not an example to follow because I haven’t been having a whole heck of a lot of success!
A: Keep experimenting with an open mind … do not anticipate.
Q: Well, I am really trying to get rid of this anticipation business. (A) I want to know whether this light is important – whether there must be a light or whether it must be total darkness?
A: Must be some light.
Q: (A) Should something be seen in the mirror … (L) I asked whether I would see something in the mirror or in my mind’s eye and they said both …
A: Yes.
Q: Yes, I didn’t know whether it would be a holograph or something in my own head … any special technique for Ark to use? (A) Yes, because I think that I do everything different from other people. Must I just go into some kind of a trance state, or can I do it my way?
A: Yes, just keep up the experimentation. You will see …
June 27, 1998
Q: One final question: I have to start scheduling time for the psychomantium. Can you suggest the optimum time or optimum schedule?
A: Mid-evening and nearer to full moon and new moon.
Now, I want to add in this next little clip, even though it is off the subject of the psychomantium. I had been reading Dr. David Jacobs’ book, The Threat, and based on many clues in there, Frank fit the profile of an alien hybrid. He had always claimed to be special, and this book seemed to confirm that claim. The only problem was, according to Jacobs, these hybrids were not positive beings at all, even if they could produce that impression.
August 1, 1998
Q: (L) I want to ask about Frank’s type B-negative blood. Is Frank an alien hybrid?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Well, that’s real encouraging!
A: Best to discover.
Q: (A) What is the test of being an alien hybrid. One is this blood type, what is another?
A: No criteria, but subjects of this nature seem “off-center” by terrestrial standards. However, the truest nature of this subject is as of yet undiscovered.
In this last remark, I wasn’t quite sure if the Cs meant the subject of alien hybrids in general, or if they were referring to Frank when they said “this subject.” But, since they said “subjects of this nature,” meaning individuals that are hybrids, it stands to reason that the following remark, “the truest nature of this subject,” was referring to Frank specifically. The instant this was transmitted, a shiver traveled through my body, though I immediately shoved the warning sensation under the rug. In point of fact, I had thought many things about Frank, but the one thing I had never thought was that he had been deliberately sent into my life to harm me. The above remark is completed with the remark made on January 10, 2002:
A: He was programmed for the specific purpose of “downloading” from you secrets coded into you before birth of your present body. He failed because you were incorruptible. He is now charged with the mission, in concert with Vincent Bridges, of destroying your ability to accomplish your mission.
Getting back to the psychomantium, finally, after months of trying with no real success, being stuck in a claustrophobic little closet that became hotter than an oven in a very short time with just a single candle, I decided that this was not going to work. There was no way I could even get comfortable, much less survive such an ordeal a sufficient number of times for anything to manifest!
August 8, 1998
Q: (A) OK. Now, I want to ask a question about the medium. We have been repeatedly told that we should get a better medium which can convey more information. We were experimenting with psychomantium without success …
A: Because you did not do it correctly.
Q: I thought I was doing everything that had been suggested.
A: Light must be placed properly so as to illuminate black depth sufficiently. Also, chamber must be large enough to stimulate relaxed meditative state. And no seams or ripples must be evident in reflection. Lastly, patience must reign supreme, with as little anticipation as possible.
Q: So, you are saying that the closet we are using is not large enough …
A: We never suggested a closet.
Q: How large should the chamber be?
A: 10 by 10 by 8.
Q: (L) Well, that’s almost a whole room!
A: Yes. One room idly sits …
Q: (A) I have the idea that one should go with a given question and then come out with an answer instead of waiting and waiting …
A: My dear Arkadiusz, by now, you know imagination is the bridge to the Akashic.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that his idea is a bridge to the Akashic, and when he gets such ideas, they are important clues?
A: Good!
Well! How about that? Nothing like letting me spin my wheels doing all that closet business when, all the while, it was obvious that it wasn’t going to work. But heck, by now I knew that the Cs very often let me do such things just to make a point. And yes, there was an idle room in my house. But I darn sure wasn’t going to paint a whole room in my house black! Also important to note was the comment about imagination being a “bridge” to the Akashic records.
In the second half of 1998, after the house was put back together, and our sessions were held in a little more comfort, there was a building tension with Frank. Ark was paying very close attention to his behavior in regard to me, and was noting that any prolonged contact with Frank generally resulted in negative effects on my health. This was not something I had previously paid any attention to, because I had been in such poor health for so many years. The definite relationship between Frank’s presence and my physical condition had never been noted. But Ark noticed, and watched for several months before he even mentioned it to me. He began to take action to limit this draining, making sure that Frank was not able to focus his attention on me, redirecting conversations and interactions in a subtle, but firm way.
This cutting off the flow of energy from me to Frank had the most interesting result in the fact that Frank began to become quite rude and obnoxious toward Ark in an attempt to overtly manipulate me to “take his side.” At the time, I excused his behavior with the idea that he was just simply so socially backward that he didn’t realize that he was being offensive. One night he began a long monologue about Ark’s accent. Pontificating at great length about his own masterful command of the English language, he ended his spiel by saying to Ark, “If you ever want to amount to anything in this country, you had better learn to speak English!”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Not only was it rude beyond enduring, but Frank seemed to have completely forgotten the fact that he was employed as a telemarketer, and Ark was employed as a defense subcontractor. Accent or no, Ark’s income was much above Frank’s. Even more, Ark had endured struggles and attacks that Frank had never even dreamed of, succeeding in his chosen field against many obstacles. Frank couldn’t even go through a book and circle spelling errors for me.
Nevertheless, we continued to make nice, and ignore Frank’s ever increasing personal attacks on Ark that were becoming less subtle by the day. Ark decided to bring up the issue of monitoring again.
August 15, 1998
Q: (A) I want to ask whether this channel is being monitored, and if so, by whom?
A: Only effective monitoring so far is by direct 3rd density observation and enticing some to share data, then “spill their guts” with “shaky” correspondents.
Q: (L) So, it’s only when I get enticed to share what ought not to be shared, or when someone is present who is a monitor, that we have been monitored?
A: Close. It can be monitored in other ways, but so far, these have been only seldom necessary. All STS always seek the path of least resistance first.
Q: (L) You once said when Terry and Jan were here that we should imagine the words appearing on a screen somewhere as they were being delivered on the board. Now you say that this is not necessarily the lengths to which they have gone. Was that because they were present?
A: Seldom does not mean never.
Q: (L) If such a thing was to happen, would it be because of the presence of someone, such as when you said PZ was a monitor?
A: PZ, yes definitely!
In the above remarks, naturally, I felt very guilty because I was always sharing what I was learning with correspondents and on the website. And Frank was constantly telling me that I ought not to be sharing the material so freely because I was going to bring fire down on our heads. It never occurred to me that he was the one doing the monitoring. Since Frank was so certain that any monitoring was from Terry and Jan, I decided to ask about the comment that had been made when they were present about the “words appearing on a screen.” The answer was noncommittal enough to be taken either way. But what was most significant was the fact that they said that extreme methods of monitoring had not been necessary; that STS seeks the path of least resistance. It completely eluded me that this meant that the reason extreme methods of monitoring had seldom been necessary was because we had our own, built-in mole. In a strange sort of way, this almost suggested that Terry and Jan’s presence was what had necessitated other methods of monitoring because Frank’s monitoring activity had been blocked by their presence.
Getting back to the psychomantium, a new plan evolved: a tent that was the exact dimensions, that could be suspended inside the room like a liner, and taken down when not in use. I went to the fabric store and checked out the felt. I drew my design on paper, figured my cuts and yardage, and ordered two bolts of heavy black felt. I had designed rod pockets into which I could insert rope for suspension, so I purchased that. Then I went to the hardware store for window weights to put at the ends of the ropes at each corner, to be hung over hooks drilled into the ceiling. They didn’t have any, so I improvised by using PVC pipe filled with sand and capped.
August 22, 1998
Q: Now, we are in the process of constructing a psychomantium tent, a 10 by 10 by 8 foot tent, to suspend from the ceiling in the bedroom. After what you suggested about the time and mode of meditation, and the fact that “one room stands idle,” I thought that trying to use it in the early evening in the back room would be almost impossible. However, setting it up in the bedroom, it will be better all the way around. Lying on the bed to meditate makes for much more comfortable conditions. I would like to know if this is going to be … I know that you don’t want to tell me, but it just seemed to be the ideal place to put it, in the bedroom – for comfort and quiet and a lot of different reasons. Can you comment?
A: Good.
Q: Well, would it be better in the back room? There are a lot of reasons why that would be unpleasant …
A: Trial leads to realization.
Q: Any further advice about the psychomantium? I am getting kind of excited about trying it this way. It is going to be so much better and more comfortable …
A: Yes.
It took a couple of months to get it finished. I don’t know how many people have ever tried to assemble a rather large tent sewn out of heavy felt, but the fact is, as each panel is added, it sort of grows like the blob in the old Steve McQueen movie. It gets larger and heavier, and more difficult to manage. On top of that, I realized that all of the seams would have to be triple stitched with reinforcement just to support its own weight. I also came to the idea that this was not going to be something that would be easily put up and taken down. It was just too big and unwieldy. So, I made it with overlapping flaps on all four sides, joined in the corners, so that the flaps could be tied up when not in use. As the thing began to acquire its final form, Ark had to gather it up and hold it off the floor while I ran the seams through the machine. In the end, it sort of looked like a medieval tent with a peak in the center.
We erected it in the bedroom, and fell in love with it. It was the neatest sleeping tent imaginable. It was like being in the Arabian Nights. Only thing was, sleeping in a black felt tent, with a mirror standing at an angle in the corner, led to some strange events.
One night, some time after we had gone to sleep, I was awakened by an electrical-like explosion. Since it woke me up, I couldn’t be exactly sure from which direction it had come. I opened my eyes and stared into the blackness, listening. Again, there were popping and crackling noises just like you hear when an electrical cord is shorting out, snapping and sparking and buzzing. The next thing I knew, an Egyptian guy had stepped out of the mirror, walked around to my side of the bed and kissed my cheek, and then walked around to the other side of the bed and sort of merged with Ark. The incident was so weird that I could hardly credit my senses. Ark woke up right then and I told him what I had seen and he asked me who did I think it was. Well, I told him that I had no idea, and we went back to sleep. I didn’t want to talk about this event too plainly in front of Frank.
October 3, 1998
Q: (L) OK, I have been hearing funny popping and crackling sounds in the psychomantium at night. The other night I even saw an Egyptian guy walking back toward the mirror along the side of the bed where I was. He looked exactly like one of those carved images with the funny perspective. It seemed that he must have come out of the mirror, interacted with me in some way, and I was awakened by his presence as he was going back … We have been sleeping regularly in the psychomantium and there is a huge increase in frequency and clarity of dreams. There is an interesting energy in the tent. Who or what was this being I encountered?
A: Find out.
Q: (L) Is there anything we can do to enhance this process? We sleep in it and are trying to just be used to it being there without expectation.
A: Good.
Q: (L) Is it a doorway that can be used while we are sleeping?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do we use it while we are sleeping?
A: Probably.
Q: (L) Anything you want to add about the psychomantium?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is everything progressing as it ought to?
A: Oh, Laura!
Q: (L) What does that mean? Are you just frustrated with me for asking a silly question?
A: Close.
I wasn’t the only one having remarkable dreams sleeping in the psychomantium. Ark had one so intense one night that he woke me up to tell me about it. In his dream, he had even heard angelic music, and he had been amazed at these celestial sounds. Again, neither of us wanted to describe the dream to Frank. With the growing awareness that the Cs were communicating in code, that there were things that Frank could not know for some reason, we were being ever more careful what we did talk about in front of Frank. So Ark asked his questions about it in a veiled manner.
October 10, 1998
Q: (A) I want to ask about the meaning of my dream, which was so vivid … about Elohim and Seraphim. What was the meaning of this dream?
A: Peace torch.
Q: (A) What is peace torch? From whom?
A: Not from. All considered before decision on judgment.
Q: (L) That makes no sense at all.
A: Yes it does.
Q: (A) Who were the Elohim?
A: Elohim refers to past, as a connection to future as envisioned in your dream. It is the connector that counts, see?? Ruling council of Od; Odiem.
Q: (L) What about the Seraphim?
A: Council in clouds … We are speaking of advanced insight here.
Q: (L) Why were there 300 Elohim and 301 Seraphim?
A: Who is the odd one out?
Q: (A) Who is the odd one out?
A: Check your roots. Od, odiem, odd, could we spell it out any clearer for you? Not without abridging free will!
Q: (L) Who is Sara?
A: Roots.
Q: (L) Who is the “King of the Angels?”
A: No more spoon-feeding. Gerber’s is out of stock!
The “odd one out.” The dream had been about me, and my name was Sarah, and Ark had added his presence to the 300 Seraphim, becoming my husband, which had resulted in the defeat, or displacement of the Elohim. I knew that the message was that Frank was the “odd man out,” and I was beginning to get a glimmer about the “Third Man Theme.”
July 19, 1997
Q: Well, I found some connections between some tombs in Rome, Nicolas Poussin, and some tombs in England, the processions of “angels” on the Canary Islands. The connection seems to be these funny lights, or Candles, with “peculiar wicks,” as they are described, which are “eternal flames.” I am wondering if this is what you meant by connecting them by the frequency of light?
A: “Eternal flame” adorns the tomb of JFK. Connection?
Q: Yes. I also found the Solloi priesthood and the priestesses called Peleiades. They seem to be involved with urns, birds, tinkling bells, urns that can be struck and which then set up a particular resonance in other urns, oak trees, and some other peculiar references that relate to laurel trees …
A: Siren song.
Q: What about the siren song?
A: Greek mythology.
Q: I know that. What about it? What do the sirens represent?
A: Laura, my dear, if you really want to reveal “many beautiful and amazing things,” all you need to do is remember the triad, the trilogy, the trinity, and look always for the triplicative connecting clue profile. Connect the threes … do not rest until you have found three beautifully balancing meanings!!
Q: So, in everything there are three aspects?
A: And why? Because it is the realm of the three that you occupy. In order to possess the keys to the next level, just master the Third Man Theme, then move on with grace and anticipation.
The Third Man is a classic film noir. The action is set in Vienna’s bombed out buildings and underground sewers. Post-war Austria was politically divided into different sectors controlled by the U.S., England, France and Russia. Holly Martins (Joseph Cotten), an American author, arrives in Vienna where he has been promised work by his old school friend Harry Lime (Orson Welles). Upon his arrival, Martins discovers that Lime has been killed in a suspicious car accident, and that his funeral is taking place immediately. At the graveside, Martins meets a Major Calloway (Trevor Howard) and an actress, Anna Schmidt (Alida Valli), who is weeping copiously. When Calloway tells Martins that the late Harry Lime was nothing more or less than a thief and a murderer, the loyal Martins is at first outraged. Gradually, he not only discovers that Calloway was right, but also that Lime faked his own death and is still very much alive (he was the mysterious “third man” at the scene of the fatal accident). Calloway wants help from either Anna or Holly to flush out Lime. Blindly loyal, Anna refuses. Martins does likewise, until Calloway shows him the tragic results of Lime’s black market in diluted penicillin. Arranging a rendezvous with Lime at the huge Ferris wheel in the centre of Vienna, Holly listens in barely concealed disgust as Lime casually dismisses his heinous crimes. Feeling particularly brazen, Lime offers not to kill Holly if the latter will go into business with him. Thus the stage is set for the famous climactic confrontation in the sewers of Vienna – and the even more famous final shot of The Third Man, in which Martins pays emotionally for doing the right thing.
It’s another of those bizarre things that the plot of this movie so accurately represented our real life dynamics right down to my loyalty to Frank, and Ark’s arrival on the scene and his initial refusal to see what Frank was really doing at the deepest levels. Even though Ark and I were now at the point where we knew that something was seriously amiss with Frank, we continued to want to try to find ways to help him adjust to the fact that he was valued and accepted, but that he was not going to be allowed to willfully manipulate either of us, and control games were not going to be tolerated. Frank had issues – deep ones – and we knew it. I had always known it. But now we were coming to the realization that the only one who could fix Frank was Frank.
We tried to approach the problem in terms of behavior modification. On all the occasions when I would have been inclined to let rudeness pass, or to make nice when Frank was clearly in the wrong, to agree for the sake of peace even when I knew he was twisting things, Ark was undertaking the process of letting him know when he was rude and behaving unacceptably, as well as clearly pointing out the fallacies in his logic. Frank had been accustomed to dazzling everyone with his fine voice and big words. Frank used words as others use algebraic signs. He was meticulous and precise, sculpting the emotions of the listener with finely tuned reverberations of pain and love and fear.
Over the years, I had noticed that he watched other people carefully while he talked to them, and I often caught him actually peeking to see what effect he was having. If the effect was satisfactory, he continued on a given approach. If the effect was not what he wanted – and I wasn’t sure what it was – then he would adjust his word choices until they achieved the desired effect. His ability to mimic was obviously very useful in this way because he could make his words and vocabulary resemble that of his target so that they were very quickly entrained. There were only a very few people he was not able to manipulate this way. He did it to me, but I knew he was doing it to some extent, and because I cared for him, I allowed it.
The only emotions that seemed to be really “real” to Frank, the only emotions he expressed, were rage and hurt and inordinate humiliation and fear, which he expressed in reaction to slights and injuries, real or imagined. I guess it could be said that his emotions were reactive, and not active. The curious thing about it was that even though he could rant for hours in rage at his parents, someone who had insulted him when he was a child in school, a stranger who had offended him, his sister (one of his favorite rants), he disdained feelings and emotions in other people. He pronounced anyone with healthy emotions to be “weak” and therefore to be derided. He would pontificate for hours about how superior his own approach to life was because he, only he, was completely free of petty human emotions!
Frank was obsessively afraid of sickness and pain. For Frank, any experience of pain brought on an onslaught of memories of every other pain he had ever experienced, and the listener was forced to endure hours of recitation of the multiple levels of agony he had experienced at all the different points in his life. This subject of his pains was an inexhaustible source of verbiage, and I had been subjected to it for years. And now, Ark would no longer allow it. When Frank would start on such subjects, Ark would ask him: why are you so focused on your pains of the past when you can see that Laura is so exhausted she can barely sit up?
As much as I hated to admit it, I was slowly beginning to realize that Frank was not just a poor wounded bird; he was overtly pompous, grandiose, repulsive and contradictory. There was a huge discrepancy between who he thought he was, and claimed to be, and what he really was. He didn’t just think he was superior to everyone else, it was an accepted fact in his mind, an all-pervasive reality that made him certain that he was entitled to special treatment and outstanding consideration because he was the most unique human being on the planet. He knew this to be true just as he knew that he was surrounded by air. This superior identity was more him than his body. And as long as I allowed myself to be controlled by him, I was allowed to breathe this superior air. But when the control was broken, when Ark exerted his protective influence over me, an abyss opened between me and Frank that grew wider every day.
Frank was quite brilliant at insulating himself from the truth about himself versus what he thought he was. His brilliant rhetoric was used to isolate him from the pain of facing reality. It allowed him to continue to inhabit the fantasyland where he was the ideal of perfection and brilliance. Frank wasn’t, and isn’t evil in any strict sense. In point of fact, what we call the dark side, or STS for the sake of convention, ought not to be reviled. It just simply is. Most people on such a pathway consider themselves to be good and compassionate people. They even help people professionally or voluntarily. But they only do it to gain something, to get attention, adulation, admiration, money, power or whatever.
But Ark wasn’t going to let him get away with it anymore. Frank was certainly entitled to be any way he wanted to be, or to just be. But when it created physical, psychological, or psychic problems for us, he wasn’t going to be allowed to do it in our house. He had more than met his match, and he didn’t like it one bit.
As we became more aware of the problem, we naturally discussed if we ought to do something more about it, what it might be, and came to the conclusion that the simplest solution was to work with the psychomantium for the deeper questions, and continue the board work as the group channel, for simple questions and issues that did not require complex answers. Frank seemed to be aware of this and several times accused us of planning to ditch him. The fact is, that wasn’t true, since we hoped that he was going to stabilize so that we could continue on both levels. But it seemed that the more paranoid he became about it, the more he behaved in ways to make it a self-fulfilling prophecy.
As Ark continued to block Frank’s attempts to drain energy from me, his health began to deteriorate. Frank had always been a hypochondriac and a germophobe, but now he was having what seemed to be acute gallbladder attacks. He thought it was his heart and his mother paid for him to go and have a complete cardiac work-up. Nothing was found. The next was a complete gall bladder check, including the most advanced testing available. Again, nothing was found to be wrong with him. At the same time, all his teeth were rotting away visibly week by week. Not just one or two of them, but all of them.
I have been a fan of Louise Hay for many years, finding her little book, Heal Your Body, to be an invaluable resource. The Cs had confirmed on a number of occasions that physical disease does not manifest unless there is a psycho-spiritual cause, and I knew that these causes could be very deep, often relating to past life experiences. I had used Louise Hay’s book to examine my own mental and psychological state, and had spent a great deal of the previous four years in physical therapy, including deep tissue massage, acupuncture, and several other Oriental modalities. I knew how valuable this multifaceted approach was for identifying and helping to release deeply buried issues in order to aid the healing process. My own health had been steadily improving as a result of this work, and with the cessation of energy draining I was feeling better than I had felt in 25 years or more.
I wanted Frank to be fixed. I wasn’t ready to give up on him. I wanted him to feel good too. I wanted him to stop this grandiose “I am so special; I am the Channel; I am the answer to the world’s prayers!” nonsense. I wanted him to just, for God’s sake, get real! I was sick of nurturing, giving, feeding him, with no evidence that anything was ever going to change. I thought he could heal all of this; he could heal his body as well as his soul. So I pointed out what Louise Hay had written about dental problems and gallbladder disease. I then suggested a variety of therapies that would have helped to release the blocked energy or psychic trauma that was certainly to be found at the root of his various problems.
He was highly offended that I would think that there was any comparison between him and ordinary mortals! How could I even suggest that he get on a massage table and allow anyone to touch his hallowed person? Had I lost my mind? Had I learned nothing in all my years of association with him? Wasn’t I yet fully convinced that he, above all people, was not like anyone else on the planet, and none of the rules applied to him!
Well, if you are so damned superior, how come your teeth are falling to pieces in your mouth, and how come you are suffering from that most common of all mortal ailments, gall bladder attacks? We will ask the Cs, I told him! Then you’ll see!
October 10, 1998
Q: I would like to ask if there is any significance to the fact that Frank is being afflicted in the area of his gallbladder, considering the relation to the word “gall?”
A: Only significance is that this is an unnecessary organ, much like the appendix.
Q: You say it is unnecessary. Was it ever necessary?
A: In earlier models … When one receives message of pain there, could it be symbolic of advancement of neo-physicality?
Q: Are you asking me? I have known a lot of people who had pain there who are just unhappy people.
A: But why unhappy? Think, my dear … And remember, your consciousness operates on four levels, not just one!
Q: And what are these four levels?
A: Physical body, consciousness, genetic body and spirit-etheric body.
Q: Are those the four composites of the human manifestation in third density?
A: 3rd and 4th. One leads oneself, through physical actions, as well as psychic ones, to develop these “problems” when one is preparing to “bump it up” a notch.
Q: Very interesting …
A: Now, a gentle warning: soon you too, Laura, will experience something similar!
Q: How similar?
A: Exactly similar!
Q: Is Ark going to be sick too?
A: Not likely, as his chemistry bypasses it. In other words, his gallbladder is functionally obsolete, it is comatose, as a result of diet and psychic nature.
Q: Alright now, anymore on this before we go in another direction?
A: Well, what do you think of that?!?
Q: I think that he must have bumped up a notch or two already.
A: Maybe … but you are all advanced … Why do you suppose you have adopted the dietary practices you have?
Q: Because they seem to be the only ones that work to keep me from being sick. I can’t eat like other people … never have been able to.
A: It will be interesting to see what happens post removal …
Q: After the removal of Frank’s gallbladder?
A: Yes, and …
Q: Now, listen here! I don’t want to go in the hospital! I’m scared of hospitals! I’m scared of doctors. I don’t want needles stuck in my veins. I don’t want to be put to sleep, and I don’t want anybody cutting on me! I swore I would never do it again!
A: That will change when nature starts singing her song. We suggest you start now to concentrate on weight-loss, as this will make the process much easier on you!!!
Well, that was interesting. As it happens, I have had no gallbladder problems, and probably won’t. However, the Cs certainly confirmed that Frank was unhappy. They were also conveying some deep information about Frank when they said that he was preparing to “bump it up a notch” that meshes exactly with what was later said on January 10, 2002:
Q: Quite a few years ago, there were several remarks made on two or three occasions regarding Frank’s battle with the dark forces, and the issue of whether or not he would be able to resist their domination. Was it always known that he would fail?
A: He is not a failure.
Q: What do you mean?
A: From the perspective of STS he is a success.
We had been told on enough occasions that advancement could be made as STS or STO. So we may assume that the higher self in STS terms was activating his program for success. Another thing that strikes me in retrospect was the remark about Ark: it seems that the Cs were indicating that he was already operating from neophysicality. We can certainly see the Cs giving warnings in the above, wrapped in Frank’s wishful thinking which directed a warning at me. He was indeed advancing to his new state of being. It just didn’t happen to be STO.
We moved onto other subjects and he settled down; until Ark began pressing the physics questions again.
Q: (A) When I was asking about UFT, you said I should go back to 1969. I went back to 1969, but I don’t have any notes from then, so the only thing I can remember that I was doing then which could relate, was that I was thinking about certain algebraic machinery which tells us that there is a kind of perfect symmetry between matter and antimatter. Was this the clue?
A: Yes!
Q: (A) I was looking for the connection between the square root of 13 and phi, and I couldn’t find any. So, my question is, when you say square root of 13, do you mean an ordinary square root, or using one of these p-adic number fields?
A: Latter.
Q: (A) But, if so, then last time I took the calculator and computed the ordinary square root of thirteen; yet you did not stop me at this point, but ask me to subtract from this ordinary square root, the number phi. So, if it is not an ordinary square root, as you suggest, I would expect that you would not ask me to subtract from the wrong number!
A: We did not ask you to subtract from the “wrong” number. Besides, you did what you are supposed to do; think!! This quest is for you. Our prime channel is becoming weak and fatigued, so we must now go!
“This quest is for you!” And the instant that had been transmitted, Frank “woke up” and we see the manipulation of his wishful thinking. Again, we see the fact that the real answers were not to be delivered in Frank’s presence. The answers to such questions, locked away from him and his vacuum operation, only came when Ark and I were working alone. And somehow, since he could not access them, he realized that he was not the “Prime Channel,” though he had to maintain the fiction right to the end.
A couple of weeks after this, I had a dream. Keep in mind that, at this point, we are sleeping in the psychomantium. The dream was very disturbing. As you read this, just remember the dream about V** where it turned out that my subconscious was sending my conscious mind a message, but my conscious mind didn’t want to hear it, so the characters were switched. Of course, in this following discussion, the reader ought to also keep in mind that it is likely that some of Frank’s prejudices against Terry and Jan were present. But still, the Cs managed to do a pretty good job telling me something in code. And pay very close attention to the mention of the “used soap.” It was the key.
October 31, 1998
Q: I would like to address a couple of things before Ark gets on to his questions if any. First of all, I had a dream the other night about Terry and Jan. In the dream, Terry was at my house and it was the old house up in Hudson. He was going through the house claiming that I had things that belonged to them, such as books, which I did not have. In fact, they do have books which belong to me. Nevertheless, since he could not find anything that was theirs, and I spent some time allowing him to look through everything to prove the point, he began collecting all sorts of little things such as bars of soap, even used soap, cosmetics, and an old book that he claimed because I could not identify it as mine, and it was damaged by water and useless. He kept going around the house saying, “Isn’t that mine? Isn’t that mine?” and on and on. Finally, I got mad at my time being endlessly wasted and the fact that he did not believe me, and I ordered him to leave my house and never come back. He left reluctantly and soon was back with Jan. Jan was then trying to placate me and being all sweet and huggy and said, “I heard you had a little tiff with Terry,” and she did not realize that it was not a little “tiff,” I had simply had it with both of them. I was boiling mad, and she was saying, “I know you have stuff that belongs to us,” and she started poking around here and there, and they even went to the opening to the attic and started pulling down the insulation in the roof to see if I had hidden stuff that belonged to them up there! They just couldn’t find anything, but they kept saying that they were sure that I had something that belonged to them, and it seemed to be mainly books. Could you tell me what this dream represents?
A: Your reflection of them.
Q: My reflection of them?
A: Yes.
Q: In what sense? I don’t understand what you mean?
A: Your view.
Q: So, my view of them is that they are trying to take something from me that doesn’t belong to them and insisting that it does?
A: Close. Maybe something you do have.
Q: Trying to take something from me that is mine by claiming that it is theirs?
A: Yes.
Q: Any other comment on this dream? This was rather threatening to me and I thought I ought to examine it because it was so realistic.
A: There is a karmic “twist” between you and them.
Q: What is the karmic twist?
A: Just as it is … Unresolved issues, like kids playing in the sand box.
Q: Is there any indication from this dream that they are going to swoop back into our lives?
A: Well, they probably will, will they not?
Q: I don’t know. I thought it was singularly unpleasant.
A: You fascinate and frustrate them.
Q: It is pretty bizarre. Now, the other night, in front of the psychomantium, I did not exactly have a vision, but something came into my head, and the idea was that prime numbers are important because the principle that they are only divisible by themselves and by one is indicative of the fact that they are direct links, channels, or conduits to seventh density, or first density, or something …
A: How about all densities?
Q: OK, that is sort of what I mean, that they are, in a sense, gateways – would that be a good term?
A: Close.
Q: How does one utilize the energies inherent in prime numbers in this respect? Do they represent frequencies or frequency relationships?
A: Verities.
Q: Is there any formula, or any thing about prime numbers that makes it easier to find them … anything about them that is unique?
A: Pyramidal.
Q: Pyramid relationships would help one find prime numbers?
A: Graph.
Q: A pyramid-type graph. OK, anything else about prime numbers? When you said that they were the “dwellings of the mystics” I had an idea that a prime number could be a dwelling of a mystic because the individual would express in some manner a frequency that related in some way to a prime number. Is that somewhere along the line … ? That mystics can traverse all densities because of frequency?
A: Something like that.
Q: My next thought was that it could indicate actual places or locations in space-time on the planet that would be represented by coordinates.
A: Zuber.
Q: What does that mean?
A: Research. [Die Zauberflöte – the “magic flute” by Mozart. So perhaps it is related to sound and “magic”.]
At this point, because I was still disturbed by my dream, I decided to come back to the subject of Terry. After the months and months of Frank’s repeated derogatory remarks about Terry, and now with the dream on top of it, I just wanted a straight answer. Was Frank right? Was Terry the bad guy? After all, the dream had been about Terry, right?
Q: Now, I have long wondered about something you said to Terry, about him being connected to a thought center called Neormm, and that it was related to orimulsion, and this is some kind of a fuel. I wonder if you could clarify that remark. What is Neormm?
A: Not yet.
Q: You also made a remark to Terry once, “Oh Terry, the battle is always, it’s when you choose that counts.” What do you mean by “when you choose.” I thought that time did not exist, so why did you make this remark to him?
A: Remark was for him.
Q: Did that indicate that he was not choosing something, or that he ought to choose? I know I am poking into his business.
A: Yes, you are.
Q: But in the sense of his interaction with us, it would be useful to know if he was a robot person, programmed to disrupt, a psychic vampire, or something other.
A: The issue here is not him per se, but the blend in a karmic sense. Obviously, these people hold an inordinate level of your consciousness. So why is this? If you seek answers, it is wise to not leave doors unopened.
Q: What kind of doors? Leave the door open to Terry and Jan?
A: No, it is the quest we speak of. One cannot find clues without understanding the interpreter.
Q: Could you be a little bit clearer? I am just not grasping this!
A: Why do Terry and Jan enter your dreams? Do you suppose it is because you have no interest?!? We think not!
Q: What doors … am I leaving some doors closed?
A: Yes.
Q: What could I do to open these doors in a practical sense?
A: Look within.
Q: Is there something I can or should do to disconnect?
A: Explore the issues.
“Obviously, these people hold an inordinate level of your consciousness. So why is this? If you seek answers, it is wise to not leave doors unopened.” In fact, the only issue that had been left unexplored was the idea that Frank could have been deliberately sent into my life to vacuum information out of me and drain me of my life force. Every single other possibility had been considered. I had gone from thinking that Frank was a sixth-density STO being sent to help me, to thinking he was a wounded fourth-density STO being, to thinking that he was just a guy with problems, and those problems made him uniquely suited to be a well pipe in a channeling experiment. The Cs couldn’t have said it any plainer when they said, “One cannot find clues without understanding the interpreter.” Without having the understanding of what Frank really was, I was unable to see so many, many things that later became crystal clear. I was refusing to open the door to the possibility that Frank was just simply on the STS path, and that it was his free-will choice, and none of the fixing I was trying to do was going to work.
Fortunately, however, with Terry so nicely disposed of, Frank’s control issues went quiescent and we managed to continue in a reasonable way.
Q: (A) I was trying meditate and I have discovered that I don’t think it will work for me. I don’t know how to do it …
A: Remove ripples, adjust light.
Q: Do we need to move the light backward, forward, or dim it?
A: Back it up and dim.
Q: In general, is the structure as we have it adequate? It seems to have really good energy.
A: Getting there.
Q: Well, it has the size, and the lines of the structure seem to concentrate energy, and there have been a few interesting experiences in there …
A: Sparks, yes, but no flame yet.
Q: (A) I was thinking that for me it will not work at all unless I can write something down, because otherwise, it is not recorded … (L) I think that is a good idea to take a pad and pen and write whatever comes to you …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You don’t have to see what you are writing …
A: Writing has always worked for Ark.
Q: (A) Well, if it is true that writing has always worked for me, is it also true that this psychomantium environment will help?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Just write in bed, in the tent, every night before you go to sleep. (A) Is there any way we can improve or change the way we are having our sessions with the board?
A: Room.
Q: We are working on changing the room.
A: Okay.
Q: I know that back room is a better room, and maybe I should just clean it out so we can use it. (A) Why is the other room better?
A: Energy vector.
Q: (A) Why is the energy vector in the other room better than in this room?
A: It is conduit.
Q: Where does the conduit extend from, above or below?
A: Both. Like static electrical charge.
Q: (A) What about conduit in the bedroom where we have put this psychomantium?
A: Psychomantium utilizes one’s own psychic body, thus is portable to a greater extent. But, if you were to place the structure there, it would enhance things …
Q: It would enhance things psychomantium-wise or board-wise?
A: Each.
Q: Well, the only problem with putting the psychomantium there is there is nothing to sit in as comfortable as it ought to be …
A: As of now.
Q: What are we supposed to do? Have a whole complete room for it?
A: That is how it is generally done. Just ask Michel de Notredame.
Q: Then, I just need a different house! I need a dining room and new kitchen!
A: Have you had this since 1990?
Q: No, and it is a real pain!
A: Oh, the pain, the pain.
Q: So, what you are saying is that you want me to take the psychomantium, set it up in the back room, put the table back there, get some comfortable chairs …
A: We don’t “want” anything. Suggest? Oh yes, we do this. […]
Q: (A) Now, apparently, everything is going well, and for a while, I think I will have more time to start some real research, and I would like some advice because we don’t know how long I will have this time. What would be the first priority for me to work on for now?
A: The journal, to start with. One’s objectives should be outlined. The scientist usually begins with this for “fine tuning.” We see more opportunities coming though. We led you to the garden, and you planted the beanstalk. Now watch it grow, Jack!
For those who keep writing to me saying, “I’m Jack!” please notice that the Cs were addressing Ark in this last remark.
Q: (L) That doesn’t mean there is going to be a giant going around saying “fee, fie, foe, fum” does it?
A: The giant is in the meaning.
Q: You mean we gotta kill a giant?
A: No.
Q: (A) I also wanted to ask if I should be more active and ask more questions in future sessions, or to ask less questions and work more on my own?
A: Questions open the doors, Arkadiusz.
Q: (L) I want to go back to this beanstalk!
A: Well, what of the fable?
Q: (L) Well, Jack got these beans and planted them and they grew. He climbed the beanstalk and figured out how to transform or kill the giant, and got the treasure, and ran away and chopped the beanstalk down so the giant couldn’t get him. (F) I remember that he used the beanstalk to get to the same level with the giant. (L) Well, which does it mean? Does he use the beanstalk to rise to the level of the giant, get the treasure and live there, or does he run away with the treasure and chop down the beanstalk?
A: Take your pick.
Q: (L) Well, the essence of the story is that Jack was successful. He planted these magic beans and they really grew, like overnight! He woke up the next day and the beanstalk reached all the way to the clouds – that is how fast it was. I guess that what you have been doing in this job is planting magic beans that are gonna take off and grow like crazy and be a ladder you can climb to some giant success! If I remember correctly, there was a harp involved.
At this point, Ark decided to try and get the subject right out in the open.
Q: (A) I want to ask if these sessions we are having are affecting Frank’s health in a negative way?
A: No, but as always, the channeling is a wee bit draining. No harm done, but the following hours provide a needed regeneration sequence.
Q: (A) It seems to me that I notice that when I ask some difficult or mathematical question, that Frank becomes instantly very tired. Is there anything to this? How should I ask these questions to get answers and not to make Frank sick?
A: This does not make Frank sick.
Q: (L) We notice also that when we hang out without doing the channeling. The last couple of weeks when we did not do a session, we all became very tired, so that even the next day, it was like being completely drained. Was this because of his recent sickness, or because we weren’t channeling and we were supposed to … (A) Or because there were some energies around?
A: A, B, C.
Q: What were the other energies?
A: There are always other energies near you because your work attracts them.
Since the Cs had suggested that the energy in the back room was better, and since I was having trouble staying awake in the psychomantium, we decided to move it, and that way, we could just have our regular sessions inside it, though without dropping the side panels. I had the idea that it would accumulate energy this way.
Now, I love thrift shops. I stalk bargains the way big game hunters stalk their prey. When I find a good one, I am sure that no successful stalker on safari is more ecstatic than I am. So, what happened was that I found a really fine old organ in a thrift shop for practically nothing. I bought it, and after the shop manager and helper loaded it in the van, I drove home in triumph with my great buy.
Ark looked at it, looked at me and asked the obvious question, “Where are we going to put it?” Well, we already had a piano and a big electronic keyboard. We have wall-to-wall book cases, and there was just nowhere to put this thing but in the back room where the psychomantium was. So, that’s where it went.
Not too long after, we bought a treadmill and it ended up in the back room also. (This room used to be a dining room and we call it the back room because it is in the back of the house.) A few days later, Tom French came to visit and wanted to know if I had finished my psychomantium. “Indeed!” I proudly told him. After all the trouble it took to make the blasted thing, I was enormously proud of it! I started to lead him to it, and as I reached the door I realized that I had a room in my house where there was a 10-by-10-foot black felt tent, a six-foot cheval mirror, a silver candelabra on a pedestal behind the mirror, an organ, a treadmill, and a table in the middle with a spirit board on it covered with plexiglass. It did not look good!
Tom took one look at the set-up and burst into hilarious laughter. As it happened, there were also Barbie dolls, clothes, furniture, and other signs of the girls taking over the room to play, along with the vacuum cleaner standing on the treadmill with the cord dumped in a pile beside it.
“I know you aren’t doing anything weird in here,” Tom gasped out. “There’s a vacuum cleaner!” And he collapsed into laughter again.
November 14, 1998
Q: (L) OK, you notice that we have the psychomantium up. Do you have any suggestions for improvement of this marvel of engineering?
A: Try it.
Q: (L) Well, of course we are. Are we supposed to do it all together, or what? What’s the deal on this thing?
A: When needed.
Q: (L) What would be the clue that one needs it?
A: Pangs of psychic hunger. […]
Q: (L) Let me insert another question here. If part of the use of this psychomantium is to bring the earth to the point of fourth-density transitional adjustment, is part of that project also an opening of a doorway for Jesus, who is in the state of suspended animation as you have previously described, to reemerge into the world?
A: Or reemerge into the consciousness.
Q: (L) Of who or what?
A: All 4th density inductees.
Q: (L) Well, you once said that he was actually in a flesh body in this “time warp” in a state of suspended animation, so to speak, or a place of no time …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is something going to happen where this singular individual, Jesus, is going to …
A: No need for that.
Q: (L) So, at the point of this fourth-density transitional adjustment, what will Jesus, in his state of suspended animation be doing? Will he continue in that state forever, or will he make some shift of his own?
A: The shift is yours. Afterwards, you can see that which you cannot yet see.
Q: (L) Sure! But, the big problem seems to be getting to the point of that shift! That seems to be the mission, the quest, the objective of all of this … or am I off base here?
A: Not “objective,” just is.
Q: (L) Why does it seem that you indicate from time to time that the three of us here, and perhaps others, play some sort of role in this activity? Is that not true for many people?
A: Not true for most.
The astute reader of the session files will note that we faithfully held our sessions once a week all through 1998. In spite of our awareness of the Frank issue, we were willing to maintain the schedule in hopes that the regular contact would be of benefit to him. But in 1999, the frequency was reduced to once a month. We almost terminated the sessions altogether because something very strange happened.
Remember the dream about Terry and Jan, the searching for books, and the bar of used soap?
Well, Frank arrived one evening for the regular session, and he began to examine the books in the bookcases. He was pulling out one book after another saying, “Isn’t this mine? Didn’t I lend this to you? I had this exact book and now I can’t find my copy. Are you sure this is yours?” and so on and on.
I nearly froze with the sensation of déjá vu. Now, one thing I am very faithful about is returning other people’s books. In fact, I would prefer to buy my own copy than borrow a book. Unfortunately, not everyone is this way and I have many, many books that are still missing because I will lend them out to someone who swears that they will return them, and then I forget who has them, and until I look for the book later, I don’t even realize that it was never returned.
Every single book Frank pulled off the shelf and suggested was his, was not. And in fact, most of them had stickers on them from the two or three used book stores I like to sweep through now and again to pick up copies of things that I think will be useful for research, and if they are good, an extra copy to give away.
Well, Frank finally found an old tatty book that he insisted was his. By this time, his rudeness had just simply gone beyond endurance and I just said, “Sure! It might be yours! Keep it.” He seemed satisfied, and gave up the hunt. I was disturbed by this little display that was so like my dream. But I brushed it aside, and we settled down for the session.
January 2, 1999
Q: (A) My first question is: I was thinking about what could be the optimal situation for us, for me to work and to proceed, and I decided that the best situation is to have a lot of money, so that we are independent. So, I started to think about how to make a lot of money, and it came to me that the best thing is to get the Nobel Prize next year. So, I started to think about how to get a Nobel Prize, and the best possibility is through computing this Fine Structure Constant. This is in my reach, and it can be done in one year, and it is safe to get a Nobel Prize for this. Am I hallucinating here?
A: Your goals are reachable, but the Nobel Prize is politically charged.
Q: (L) Yes, but it gives sufficient influence that one can do what one likes, and it certainly is not the money that you get as the prize that is so significant, as it is the offers you get after you have it that are significant. I don’t think that, in and of itself, it is such a huge amount of dough. It is a chunk of change, but not to set one up for life unless one is very frugal and careful. (F) One bar of soap every nine months.
Right when Frank made the above remark, after the whole scene of searching my bookcases for anything that he could claim as his own, and now the mention of the used soap, the hair stood up on my head and I knew.
Q: So, my view of them is that they are trying to take something from me that doesn’t belong to them and insisting that it does?
A: Close. Maybe something you do have.
Q: Trying to take something from me that is mine by claiming that it is theirs?
A: Yes.
But I didn’t want to believe it.
The dream was not about Terry and Jan; it was about Frank.
As I have already noted, after the used-soap clue played out, Ark and I were so shocked that we almost decided upon the instant to entirely terminate any future interactions with Frank. We realized at that point what the many clues throughout the years had meant, and that the Cassiopaeans were communicating with me directly in my dreams, and providing me with a series of green-language clues about future actions of Frank that would enable me to “see through.” However, there was still sufficient blocking from my conscious mind so that the drama of the dream had to be expressed in terms of Terry and Jan rather than Frank. In this way, a partner at the board was emphasized, only the future event was actually played out by Frank, the point being to show me from the dream Frank’s true role. But, at the time of the dream, I was simply not ready to consider the idea that Frank was a mole.
Of course, at the present time it relates to the fact that Frank is illegally and fraudulently trying to claim ownership of the Cs material based on his claim that there would have been no Cs without him. That is clearly not true, as the Cs themselves have made clear. Frank never was the channel. The Cs were not connected to him in any way; the overwhelming evidence is that he was actually incidental to the process, the channeling was done on enough occasions without him present to make this clear, and has continued without him. But for a long time, in my ongoing effort to try to give to Frank some sense of accomplishment, to try to use positive reinforcement to stimulate activity on his own, I would post material with the header: “Channeled by Frank Scott and [myself].” I always put myself in second place and tried to give Frank the honors because he was always ranting about how completely he had been ignored and pushed into a corner by his parents. I never dreamed that this simple act of courtesy, of effort to help him feel better about himself, would be seen by him as proof that he was the channel. But, as the Cs had already confirmed, any “energy of giving” that is given to those of the STS persuasion only fuels their descent into STS. It never converts them to STO. Never.
After many long discussions about the “Frank problem,” Ark and I both saw rather plainly that any continued interaction with him would be under the exact same conditions as we had each continued in our respective marriages even after realizing that there never was and could never be any real meeting of the mind or colinearity of souls with our former partners. The Cassiopaeans had told us over and over again that there was a mission of some sort, even if only that of sharing our information, and that it could not move to the next level as long as Frank was involved. We had observed evidence and clues galore that Frank’s path was not just different, but rather diametrically opposed to our own. It was, indeed, a real twist.
The fact is, as one reader has pointed out, manipulation and betrayal of trust is a constant in human dynamics. But in another sense, it is our choice to experience it. The Cs have said we were lured to the threshold, and once we had gone for the gold of third-density experience, we, in some sense, agreed to have our genes altered. But, in the end, it still comes down to the fact that free will cannot be abridged unless we oblige.
This then brings us to the point where we are required to address the unresolved issues in ourselves that make us vulnerable to manipulation and betrayal of trust. Indeed, as innocent children, we are programmed to feel unworthy, and because of this unworthiness programming, we repeatedly accept manipulation and betrayal of trust as our due. Another reader has written so eloquently:
I noticed very early in my life that people seemed to experience the same emotional entanglements the world over. Over and over again. (I was also painfully aware of how miserable I was on this earth at a very early age.) I wanted to know why, what was at work, how it occurred, and if there was a way out of going through such a meaningless-seeming, endless-seeming loop myself.
Naturally, I had to first experience most of these “set patterns of emotional entanglements” myself, so I could understand them from the inside-out, I suppose. Abuse of every kind, serious and life-threatening traumas, intimate relationships wrought with difficulties and codependency, etc. These were the main course of my earlier life.
Anyway, from that dark and painful abyss I learned and grew beyond what seemed possible to my woeful child imaginings, and I couldn’t be more tickled in my pleasant surprise of that. I’ve come to see that the “dark and self-serving” actually serve the “light and other-serving” quite beautifully, and in ways nothing else likely could. If, of course, one chooses to heed the call and learn from the experiences.
The Cassiopaeans have said: all there is is lessons, and until we go deep within and clear these issues, we will continue to face these lessons, and they generally escalate in order to get our attention. But again, it is our own unresolved issues that make us open to these predations. At the point when we replace our feelings of unworthiness with self-worth, we will then understand Don Juan’s remarks about right use of energy.
This right use of energy has to do with don Juan’s description of a division of seers into two categories:
“The first one is made up of those who are willing to exercise self-restraint and can channel their activities toward pragmatic goals, which would benefit other seers and man in general. The other category consists of those who don’t care about self-restraint or about any pragmatic goals. It is the consensus among seers that the latter have failed to resolve the problem of self-importance.”
At the present time, there is a gang of petty tyrants who are so overwhelmingly concerned with their own self-importance, that they seem to have no life other than to spend inordinate amounts of time and energy attacking what we are doing, trying to steal our work for their own twisted purposes, and thereby demonstrating in the clearest of terms that they are unable and unwilling to exert their energy toward pragmatic goals designed to benefit other seers or humanity.
They have no apparent interest in creating their own website where they can share useful information that they have produced themselves. Rather than spending their lives studying, creating a theory, implementing it by doing the actual work, and then publishing something original and helpful to others, they spend their time violating free will by riding on the coattails of others, stealing the fruits of other people’s work and money, plagiarizing other people’s work, falsifying credentials, and then attacking anyone who calls them on it.
As don Juan says, “Impeccability is nothing else but the proper use of energy. … To understand this, you have to save enough energy yourself.” Here we aren’t talking about just ordinary energy such as is used to run around the block or cut the grass. The energy being discussed is something different, though it can be expressed in the physical body. The energy don Juan is talking about is the energy of awareness.
As I have previously written, the most important principles that the Cassiopaeans have given us are free will and “knowledge protects.” These two concepts are inseparable. The more knowledge you have, the more awareness you have; and the more awareness you have, the more free will you have as to whether or not you will receive and disseminate lies or truth. With increase of knowledge, there can be an increase in awareness, but not always. A person can have a great deal of knowledge, but since he defines what he knows with the juvenile dictionary, he only can have “juvenile awareness.”
Knowledge is understanding of or information about a subject which has been obtained by experience or study, and which is either in a person’s mind or possessed by people generally. Awareness is a bit different. It is the fact or state of being aware, or conscious, especially of matters that are particularly relevant. So, we can understand that relevance in the present context depends upon one’s knowledge of the universe, and/or beliefs about same. A person can have a great deal of knowledge based on what is generally accepted by society at large, and based on this, he decides what is relevant and what is not. As we have already seen, this can even lead to Stockholm syndrome.
Acquiring even more and deeper knowledge of the universe, that which goes beyond what is commonly accepted, depends upon openness of the mind to observe reality, to forebear forming hypotheses until a sufficient number of facts become evident, and to then be constantly open to change the hypothesis based on new facts and evidence, rather than trying to force the facts or evidence to fit the hypothesis. In this way, relevance can change dramatically. We can become aware, or conscious, of matters that are relevant to a higher sphere of existence even if it is not part of the knowledge that is possessed by people generally. One reader pointed out a very important point about knowledge and awareness:
The two words are similar but are not of the degree of intensity. For example, I could have awareness of aliens, but not “direct” knowledge. I could be aware of physics (in my case, true) but not have knowledge of physics. If I have knowledge, I have awareness. However, one could have awareness, but not knowledge.
I know this may seem like hair splitting to some of you, but I think this is an important distinction of just how we can be led astray. Many of us – once we are aware – stop our quest for knowledge because we think we know and that is all that is necessary.
So, even though I had awareness of the higher levels of being, and some knowledge of same, as well as the workings of psychic vampires and petty tyrants, it is clear that I still did not have sufficient knowledge at the time of the realization about Frank. We knew that we had to conserve our energy, but we did not yet know that there would come a point when we would actually begin to understand impeccability in a much deeper way. “Impeccability is nothing else but the proper use of energy. … To understand this, you have to save enough energy yourself.”
We come back again to the idea that it is our own lessons that we are experiencing; that we are, in a sense, open to the predations of a petty tyrant because we feel, in some sense, that we deserve it. And yes, we may be programmed to feel that we deserve it due to simple, social and familial programming – no alien interference is necessary here. Even more, we may be carrying programs from past lives, as I was, and probably most other people as well. All of that is the bad news. The good news is this: the instant you come to the full awareness of these factors, you have the right to change your mind. You have the right to stop, right there and then, being used and subjected to manipulation and betrayal. As Clarissa Pinkola Estes writes:
Dark man dreams are wake-up calls. They say: Pay attention! Something has gone radically amiss in the outer world. … The threat of the ‘dark man dreams’ serves as a warning to all of us – if you don’t pay attention, something will be stolen from you! The dreamer needs to be initiated so that whatever has been robbing her can be recognized, apprehended, and dealt with.
In the Bluebeard story we see how a woman who falls under the spell of the predator rouses herself and escapes him, wiser for the experience. The story is about transformation through knowledge, insight, voice, decisive action. We must unlock the secrets and use our abilities to be able to stand what we see. And then, we must use our voice and our wits to do what needs to be done about what we see. When instincts are strong, we intuitively recognize the innate predator by scent, sight, and hearing … We anticipate its presence, hear it approaching, and take steps to turn it away. In the instinct-injured (i.e. nuts and bolts person) the predator is upon them before they register its presence. We have been taught to be nice, to behave, to be blind, and to be misused.
The young and the injured are uninitiated. Neither knows much about the dark predator and are, therefore, credulous. But, fortunately, when the predator is on the move, it leaves behind unmistakable tracks in dreams. These tracks eventually lead to its discovery, capture and containment.
Wild Ways teaches people when not to act ‘nice’ about protecting their souls. The instinctive nature knows that being ‘sweet’ in these instances only makes the predator smile. When the soul is being threatened, it is not only acceptable to draw the line and mean it, it is required. (Estes, 1997)
The remark about using one’s voice struck me and I did a search of the transcripts with this term and found several most interesting things:
February 22, 1995
Q: (L) Any information for us in general?
A: Listen: Now is point where all can learn more information by searching within more, rather than from without. One or two of you are already very adept at this, this way you access universal truths directly, where there is less likelihood of corruption if done properly, see?
Q: (L) Does this mean you want us to start using a direct channeling method? (DM) Do you want us to use one of us as a voice?
A: All.
Q: (DM) Do you mean simultaneously?
A: As you wish.
Q: (L) Do you mean that you want us to, for example, gather as a group, meditate together …
A: Just ask yourselves questions, and receive answers.
Q: (L) In other words, no hypnosis, just sit and discuss and ask back and forth among ourselves and let the energy of the group interact?
A: Or in solitude as well. Then network and exchange lessons, one does this often.
The above is obviously the Cs trying, very early in the process, to move me to channeling without Frank, as well as strongly hinting that this would be the mode of less corruption. It was clearly directed at me because of the remark about doing it in solitude, and then network and exchange lessons. Then, as now, my chief activity has been networking and sharing. It’s just what I do naturally. What was also clear was the remark about “ask yourselves questions and receive answers.” That was already happening, the only problem was, as the Cs were hinting, with Frank at the board, the likelihood of corruption was ever present.
And then, another very strange reference to voice: I was discussing the dreadful situation that existed in late 1995, during which time the pressure of my ex-husband to simply give up the whole experiment was becoming unbearable. He was using every means at his disposal to make me absolutely as miserable as possible, and I was sorely tempted to just throw in the towel and go back to sleep.
December 9, 1995
Q: (L) What are the objectives of this attack aside from crushing me?
A: Secession at an inappropriate juncture to throw plans askew.
Q: (L) What plans would be thrown askew by secession at this point?
A: Voice.
Q: (L) What?
A: And all other.
The strange way the word “voice” was used made absolutely no sense to me at the time. But later, another hint was given:
June 13, 1998
Q: This Medusa idea, as I have recently learned, is part of a triad of female figures. And in this triad, the other two female figures are Cassiopeia and Andromeda, or Cassiopeia and Danae. I don’t know which set to select.
A: Select that which fits.
Q: I think that Danae and Cassiopeia could be the same entity in the mythical sense …
A: Who speaks for Andromeda?
Q: Cassiopeia … or Perseus? What do you mean who “speaks” for her?
A: If you do not know, you need more pieces before you can advance. You see, ask the mathematics teacher what happens if students fail to maintain the progression of study? But why?
Q: Because, if you fall behind, you miss a piece and can never catch up because other pieces don’t fit, so you have to find the piece that fits.
A: Is this true Arkadiusz?
Q: (A) What happens is just that they stop understanding what follows next. (L) OK, the story says that Perseus has slain Medusa and he is on his way back and came to Ethiopia. He found that a lovely maiden had been given up to be devoured by a horrible sea serpent, and her name was Andromeda. She was the daughter of a “silly, vain woman named Cassiopeia.” She had boasted that she was more beautiful than the daughters of the Sea God. The punishment for the arrogance of Cassiopeia fell not on her, but on her daughter, Andromeda. The Ethiopians were being devoured in huge numbers by the serpent – sounds a little bit like what the Lizzies are doing today – and learning from the oracle that they could be freed from the pest only if Andromeda could be offered up to the beast – they forced Cephus, her father, to offer her up. So, her mother got her into the soup and her father turned on the heat. Anyway, Perseus arrived and the maiden was chained to a rocky ledge waiting for the monster. He saw her and fell instantly in love. So, he waited beside her until the great snake came and cut off its head. They sailed away and lived happily ever after. So, who spoke for Andromeda, her mother and father, is that what you mean?
A: It is a beginning.
Q: OK, so what is the point of who spoke for Andromeda? What does that have to do with the 1/3 of 33?
A: Your searches sooner or later “net” results.
I know that many of the readers instantly see the connection, and I know that many of you are frustrated to read some of these transcripts that demonstrate how totally dense I can be. And I realize that there has probably never been so reluctant a channel, who spent so much time trying to give her power and energy away to others because she was always putting everyone else first, even to the point of personal harm. But those of you who have read Amazing Grace will have some understanding of why I have always been reluctant to attribute any special ability or quality to myself. I apologize for frustrating the reader this way. I was certainly programmed to not protect myself, and to be “nice” and I was definitely bait for the Sea Monster. But, as the reader quoted above points out: “I’ve come to see that the ‘dark and self-serving’ actually serve the ‘light and other-serving’ quite beautifully, and in ways nothing else likely could. If, of course, one chooses to heed the call and learn from the experiences.”
Right use of energy, or impeccability, is learning when not to act nice about protecting our souls. It is learning that when the soul is being threatened, it is not only acceptable to draw a line and mean it, it is required.
In the Bluebeard story, as soon as Bluebeard realizes that his wife has discovered his dark secrets, he informs her that he is going to kill her. She pleads with him for time to make her confession, to pray for her soul, and to generally prepare to die. This is, of course, a ruse. Secretly, she has sent word to her brothers that Bluebeard is going to kill her, and she is buying time until their arrival.
This is an allegory of the need to recoup one’s soul energy. Once one has become aware of the secrets of Bluebeard, one has to acquire energy to deal with him. The arrival of the “brothers” on the scene is nothing more than the reviving of the psychic, warrior energies. It is with the energy, skill and forbearance of the warrior aspect of the soul that we deal with petty tyrants – when the time is right.
At the same time, we must be aware that there can be a distinction between the persona of Bluebeard and the actual human being who is playing the role. As Ms. Estes has pointed out, “the young and the injured are uninitiated. Neither knows much about the dark predator and are, therefore, credulous.” This is an important point because it might indicate that one is dealing with a soul that is simply in the process of learning the same lessons, but is at a different point on the learning cycle. Perhaps such a soul has not chosen as many incarnations, or a different lesson path has been followed. Perhaps such a soul is one that is “new” in human form, though it has spent other incarnations in other forms. In such a case, it is wise to consider this, and to realize that such a soul may not have any evil intent – they are just learning about the predator by experiencing control by it. And it may require many lifetimes for them to come to that moment when they realize that they have been manipulated and betrayed by their own choices, and they can then change their mind and begin to conserve their own energy for escape.
In other cases, a different dynamic may be in play: an apparent human being may quite simply be an incarnated natural predator. Such an individual may look human, smell human, speak as a human, and have access to the storage capacity of a human brain which allows them to collect data and facts, assemble them, and even to present a very scholarly front. But initiated awareness sees that such a being acts in human form as an animal, twisting human principles and potentials, because such a being has no multiple assemblage points, to use Castaneda’s terminology.
There seems to be still another type of human: an extension of a higher-density negative crypto-geographic being. As the Cassiopaeans have pointed out, fourth density most often acts through its human agents, and sometimes these are like dedicated phone lines – there is no human potential present. Don Juan speaks about such petty tyrants: “According to the new seers, a perfect petty tyrant has no redeeming feature.” We will discuss these almost-humans in more depth further on in this series.
Nevertheless, whatever factors are in play, the most useful approach to these lessons about predators is a combination of right use of energy, as well as clearing the unworthiness programming. We know that the program is clear when there is no more self-importance left in us, when we are no longer personally offended by their actions. This, of course, does not mean that we no longer seek to discover, capture, and contain such predators when they appear in our lives. We are still aware that there are always going to be instances where we know that acting nice is not going to protect our souls. We must always be on guard against threats to the soul, theft of energy or free will, and just because we are no longer personally offended, it does not mean that we do not draw the line and mean it. But, as Castaneda points out, when self-importance is effaced, all of this can be done with a sense of joy and in a spirit of humor.
When our unworthiness issues are clear, we can look upon petty tyrants with compassion, we can understand that it is quite possible that they have become petty tyrants because they have suffered their own torments and programming. We can thank them for teaching us, and joyfully release them from such an agreement. And, of course, if it is a human soul that we are dealing with, they will go on their way, and both will be the richer for the experience.
However, if the achieving of understanding, the psychic releasing of the contract, has no effect, we have to consider that we may be dealing with either a natural predator incarnated into a human body, or an extension of a fourth-density STS being.
But still, even in such a case, at some level we have asked for the experience in order to learn the lesson that our soul was seeking. So we find that, again, having some compassion for robotic or predatory beings is a deeper level of healing the self. We need to understand that even fourth-density robots and predators in human form are only trying to survive by feeding on us. It is all “nature,” and it’s not our job to fix them. It is, however, our job and our right to protect ourselves.
“The instinctive nature knows that being ‘sweet’ in these instances only makes the predator smile. When the soul is being threatened, it is not only acceptable to draw the line and mean it, it is required.
“Warriors take strategic inventories,” he said. “They list everything they do. Then they decide which of those things can be changed in order to allow themselves a respite, in terms of expending their energy.” … Don Juan said then that in the strategic inventories of warriors, self-importance figures as the activity that consumes the greatest amount of energy, hence, their effort to eradicate it.
“One of the first concerns of warriors is to free that energy in order to face the unknown with it,” don Juan went on. “The action of rechanneling that energy is impeccability.”
And we come back to the present recapitulation. Is it a right use of energy? Or is it a distraction, as some would suggest? Don Juan has explained what he called a “three-phase progression.” This is the mode of approach to becoming a warrior who is free. This three-step program consists of:
1. Holding your own in facing petty tyrants.
2. Facing the unknown with courage.
3. Standing in the presence of the unknowable.
“The average man’s reaction is to think that the order … should be reversed,” he went on. “A seer who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants. But that’s not so. What destroyed the superb seers of ancient times was that assumption. We know better now. We know that nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to stand the pressure of the unknowable.”
“The seers of [the Conquest] couldn’t have found a better ground. The Spaniards were the petty tyrants who tested the seers’ skills to the limit; after dealing with the conquerors, the seers were capable of facing anything. They were the lucky ones. At that time there were petty tyrants everywhere.”
As we have written in our online article, “The Taste for Things That Are True”:
There is another factor involved here: the Internet as both a boon and a bane to mankind.
On the one hand, the world wide web is a marvelous opportunity for open exchange of ideas, experiences, growth and harmony. On the other hand, it is a mask behind which some of the most atrocious predation I never hoped to witness takes place.
In recent weeks, we have heard many remarks from readers and members of our egroup about other groups that have been “invaded” by these predators. A fruitful and worthwhile discussion among a hundred or so people from around the world, taking place in almost real time, can be utterly destroyed by one or two bad apples. We have watched one discussion group after another close its doors and fade into oblivion because of this factor, and we simply cannot understand what drives a person to behave like pure embodied hate.
Would these people behave this way if they met each other in the flesh? Does the Internet just simply enable psychosis and neurosis to thrive and multiply? Is it going to become the den of cyber-mafia and virtual vampires? Are decent, hardworking, honest people going to be driven off the Internet?
Or is it just because we are engaged in paranormal research? Is it only in the effort to bridge science and metaphysics that we find ourselves the objects of abuse by cyber-trash?
During the past week or so, we have had to sit down with our children, show them the terrible, hurtful lies that are being written about us by these contemptible, solipsistic, malignant, and lawless people. We have had to show them that these people have no compunction about writing about the children themselves, using their names, possibly endangering them, certainly embarrassing them, and most definitely hurting them psychologically and emotionally. We have had to explain to them about people who choose conscious evil; people who are malicious, evil-minded, envious, obnoxious, and loathsome. We have had to explain to them about people who are so twisted that they derive gratification from deceiving other people and hurting other people. And we have had to explain to them that these people pose as “good and helpful and friendly” when they meet you and when you have something they want, or something they wish to destroy, whether they are being directed by some nebulous Control System, or their own internal deficiencies and general failure at life. What is more, we have had to explain it to ourselves.
And of course, the children have asked us: Why do you even do it? Why not just walk away from the world such people inhabit? Why not just go back to “normal life,” and forget about it. Let the world do what it wants to do, let everybody just go away and leave us alone?
And frankly, as I write this, I am hard pressed to answer that question. Why, indeed?
I was most certainly giving a lot of energy to my own self-importance. My emotions were in motion, my programs were running amok, and more than anything I was just purely and simply hurt that people could behave in such vicious and manipulative ways. Not only was I asking myself “why?” I was asking, “What is the proper action to take?” The standard teaching is to “ignore it, rise above it, turn the other cheek, don’t waste your energy on such trash.” But as members of our e-group combed the Internet, as we read messages from readers of the site, we realized that there was, indeed, a concerted effort being made to connect the word “Cassiopaea” to “doomsday cult” in such a way that many people who might be helped by reading these pages would not venture to even visit the site because of this vicious propaganda. And, in fact, one reader made this crystal clear by writing that she had almost decided not to have a look based upon such rumors, but was now glad she had the second thought to just take a peek, because she found that not only was the rumor not true, but that she had never before experienced such a profound relief to realize that others were spiritually skeptical, and bringing powers of reason and research to issues of the soul.
At that moment, I picked up and reread Castaneda’s passage about petty tyrants and I knew the answer: why indeed? Because this lesson is going to keep coming until you learn to hold your own. I knew also that the right use of my energy at this point would be to not only explore the lesson for myself, but to share it with others. In this way, I could fully activate my choice of what kind of seer I wish to be. Remember, don Juan said there are two kinds: those who are willing to exercise self-restraint and can channel their activities toward pragmatic goals, which would benefit other seers and man in general, or those who don’t care about self-restraint or about any pragmatic goals.
In short, by exercising self-restraint, by refusing to engage in a flame war or giving any direct energy or response to the petty tyrants, and by re-channeling this energy into sharing of my recapitulation, my taking of inventory, recounting the events, the people, the thoughts, the facts, all the while attempting to remove my subjective judgments – or at the very least, clearly identifying them when they were present – I could transform the entire situation into something pragmatically useful to not only other seers, but humanity at large.
At the same time that one exercises restraint, one must also draw the line and mean it. In dealing with petty tyrants and predators, one has to learn not to act nice, to forget about being sweet, and to discover, capture and contain the predator.
And so it is that the present strategy is that I am using my energy in a very pragmatic way, designed to rid myself of my own self-importance, and to share the process with other seers who are on the same path of becoming free. Don Juan tells us that utilizing this strategy is not only crucial for getting rid of self-importance, it also prepares us for the final realization of impeccability. And in the end, that is what counts. Impeccability is simply another term for respecting free will.
As don Juan suggested, the present series is also a “deadly maneuver.” The petty tyrants are “like a mountain peak” and the attributes of the warrior – control, discipline, forbearance, timing – are the climbers who meet at the summit.
Finally, I’m having a lot of fun writing this series! When don Juan wrote about his own experience with the petty tyrant, and how the maneuver was directed by his benefactor, he made some rather amazing remarks:
“I’m sure that I could have done it myself, although I have always doubted that I would have carried it off with flair and joyfulness. My benefactor was simply enjoying the encounter by directing it. The idea of using a petty tyrant is not only for perfecting the warrior’s spirit, but also for enjoyment and happiness.”
“How could anyone enjoy the monster you described?”
“He was nothing in comparison to the real monsters that the new seers faced during the Conquest. By all indications those seers enjoyed themselves blue dealing with them. They proved that even the worst tyrants can bring delight, provided, of course, that one is a warrior.”
And this was another of my realizations about my hurt feelings. I wouldn’t be having hurt feelings if it wasn’t for the fact that I was just simply taking myself too seriously. Because, of course, when we take ourselves too seriously, we also have to take the petty tyrant seriously as well. We worry all the time about saying this or doing that because it might hurt their feelings, or it isn’t nice, or isn’t love and light, or it doesn’t look compassionate!
Notice that all of these concerns are actually based on our worries about how someone else will perceive us!
We worry about someone else’s hurt feelings because if we hurt their feelings, they will think we are bad. We worry about just simply speaking honestly from the greatest truth we know, because they might think we are not “nice” or “sweet” or “Christian” or “compassionate.” And all of that is related to self-importance!
We may be having the strongest instinctive reaction of our lives that just screams that someone is a predator, but we shove it under the rug because it’s “not nice.” And then, when they are poking a stick directly into our eye, we are constrained to say, “Please, I’d like to bring it to your attention, if it is not too much trouble, that you have a stick in your hand, and somehow (and I am sure it is not intentional), the stick has managed to find its way into my eye. It is causing me considerable difficulty – even pain – but I have tried to restrain myself from pointing it out because I am sure that you are just being yourself and have every right to be yourself, and if in the course of being yourself, you have accidentally poked a stick in my eye, perhaps it is my fault for having my eye annoyingly in your way. Having said all of that, the fact remains that the stick is in my eye, and if it wouldn’t be too much trouble, would you kindly see if it would be possible to withdraw it – assuming that it doesn’t violate your right to be yourself, that is – because I am, naturally, very compassionate toward others, and being yourself is okay by me … but still … the stick … my eye … ”
Acting from natural instinct, the instant the stick begins to approach our eye, we would slap it away and be damned to the niceties. And so it should be in matters of the soul.
Don Juan explained that the mistake average men make in confronting petty tyrants is that they do not understand that reality is an interpretation we make, and that interpretation is based on knowledge and awareness. The plain fact is: petty tyrants interpret reality according to the juvenile dictionary. Petty tyrants take themselves with deadly seriousness while warriors do not. Warriors interpret reality according to the theological dynamic, and utilize the psychological substrate as the instrument of implementation of the four attributes: control, discipline, forbearance, timing.
What always exhausts a petty tyrant is the wear and tear on his self-importance. He is so full of it, and false pride, that he is internally ripped apart by being made to feel worthless, which he only feels because of his self-importance and his need to feed and sustain it. It is self-importance that will drive a man to falsify his credentials, to claim knowledge and experience he doesn’t have; and it is self-importance that will drive such a man to fight to his last gasp to preserve that false self.
And this last is the clincher. The petty tyrant is so concerned about what other people think that they will spend endless energy trying to maintain a false image, to continue to act the role, to attack that which threatens their self-importance either violently or with subtle viciousness.
The object of the warrior is, of course, to utilize whatever is necessary to stand against such attacks, to draw the line and hold it, and – if necessary – to strategically and systematically harass the petty tyrant until they are drained of energy, and with their last, desperate burst, they do something so stupid, so destructive, that finally, due to the forbearance of the warrior who knows the nature of the predator, the petty tyrants receive their due – generally at their own hands. And thus the dynamic ends.
One of the chief things I am realizing about self-importance, with each grueling confession about my own ignorance and stupidity that I must make in public, is that we are controlled by our fear of admitting that we have made stupid mistakes, that we allowed ourselves to be used and manipulated – whether at a human level or from a hyperdimensional level – that we are in the process of learning. We are ashamed to discuss these things publicly. We are exhausted by trying to keep it quiet or shove it under the rug or trying to find a way to rationalize it, to think that we deserve it, that we are not free to simply change our mind, and learn a new strategy for dealing with such things. We are programmed to be so concerned about our self-aggrandizing feelings, and the self-aggrandizing feelings of others that we commit the fatal flaw – we take ourselves too seriously! We think that our emotional reactions to the cruelties of others is evidence of our spiritual nature. We think that our concern for the feelings of others who are hurting us is evidence of our superior spirituality. We think that saying something like, “Well, consider the source and ignore it,” or “One should not get the messenger and the message mixed up,” is some sort of pronouncement of great spiritual wisdom.
We are so terrified by our fear of taking the bull by the horns, that we exhaust ourselves trying to think of ways not to do it.
And it is really quite simple: just do it.
At the present moment, the above mentioned gang of petty tyrants, consisting of Vincent Bridges, Jeff “Storm Bear” Williams, Frank Scott, and a support team of clappers, as well as assorted others with whom we have had no significant interaction, but who, nevertheless, feel moved to contribute their energy to the activity, are engaged in many and varied activities designed to provoke our self-importance.
In a very real sense, this is a Tempest in a Teapot in global terms, but in another sense, understanding nonlinear dynamics, to refuse to draw the line and hold it could have far-reaching effects. As don Juan pointed out, to act in anger, without control and discipline, to have no forbearance, is to be defeated, and the most important thing of all is to feel joy throughout the exercise.
And so it is, this present series that consists of recapitulation, sharing the process with others, and utilization of the strategy of the warrior, is one of the most effective uses of my energy I could ever have dreamed of – and I certainly cannot take the credit for having thought of the unique combination of features myself – well, at least not myself in the present. And I will certainly admit here and now that it is astonishingly effective in rooting out any of my own self-importance, which has resulted in an enormous feeling of true joy!
But now, we must return to that period of time when I was still in the process of acquiring the knowledge about this process: the period of time when there was the realization that Frank was, indeed, a petty tyrant, albeit a very teensy weensy one.
I was, of course, extremely upset about this realization. I was very attached to Frank – at least I was attached to the image of Frank I had created in my mind – and I began to go through a grieving process that was exactly as painful as if Frank had died. Because, in truth, my illusion had died. For so long I had done so much to make it easy for him to blossom as the great soul-friend I wanted him to be; and that was the problem: I “wanted.” I wanted him to be on the same path we were on; I wanted him to have similar goals and aspirations; I wanted him to be a part of our work and our lives as we rode off into the sunset, so to say. And I was facing the realization that this would never, ever be possible.
As I struggled with my emotions about the loss of Frank, my mind kept trying to find ways and means to rationalize his behavior over the years; to make excuses; to understand what was the proper response; to find my way. I knew that even though it was very much like the illusion of my marriage, at least Frank was not someone I had to interact with every day, and that did put a different slant on the matter. When a person is “one” with another human being, it is crucial that this oneness be of similarity of mind and soul and goals. When there is no colinearity, it is almost impossible to interact intimately without severe draining of energy. But without the complication of intimacy, there did seem to be a possible solution: we would simply severely limit the contact, meanwhile we would begin to work on the new mode of communication: the psychomantium.
Along with the realization about Frank – after putting together of all the clues – there was the realization that Frank was not, and never had been the channel. He was just another body occupying a chair at the table, just as dozens of other people had done. At that point, I realized why it was really pointless to continue channeling with Frank in any serious or significant way: his presence was only blocking the full flow of the Cassiopaean communications.
That led to an even more startling realization: the only reason it seemed to work well with Frank was because he would almost literally go to sleep during the sessions, and that meant that only Terry and I had been active in the motion of the planchette. Frank was as inert as a mannequin. The Cassiopaeans were me; they were also Terry; but they never were Frank and that was why there was almost zero interaction between him and the process. That is why he wasn’t interested in the questions. That is why he had almost never asked any questions, and that was why he wasn’t interested in any other aspect of the work. He wasn’t interested in networking; he wasn’t interested in sharing. He wasn’t interested, because it wasn’t part of him.
Of course, that meant I had to ask myself if I was just making it all up? Obviously, the answers that were being spelled out on the board were coming from me, in response to my own questions. But why would I be so suspicious of channeled information from myself in the future, if I was willing to entertain the idea, even only occasionally, that Frank was the channel? Why, if it was supposed to be Frank, was it “channeling,” and if it was me, then I had to think I was “making it up?” Why did I have such serious doubts about the level of the contact on the occasions when it had been just Terry and myself at the board? Had Frank managed to brainwash me into believing that we could only channel when he was present? Unfortunately, that seemed to be the case. He had proclaimed it so loud and so often that I had come to think it might be true in the face of all the evidence to the contrary. Terry had never believed it, and had expressed this opinion to me time and again. I had found myself in the position of having to defend Frank, when Frank was actually indefensible. I was like a kid who is being told by a parent that hanging out with unsavory persons was not a good thing, and the kid knows it somewhere inside, but because their “friend,” who has attached to them via sympathy, is being “attacked,” they feel that they have to defend them too, and close their mind and eyes to the truth. And now I saw that Terry had been right all along. (In fact, the clarity and level of coherence of the communication without Frank is dramatic evidence that Frank never was the channel, as the reader will see when I present the relevant 2001 and 2002 sessions in the course of this series!)
And then there were the cases where Frank’s emotional overlay was involved and I remembered with startling clarity what the Cs had said on April 18, 1995 when I had suspected SV of being the source of the attack:
Q: (L) Have we ever had a person in our group or in our room here, who was sent here deliberately to break up our interaction?
A: If so, that is for you to discover for purposes of learning and growth. … Remember one can be manipulated by another. … We mean that one can appear to be an “agent” when in actuality, control is originating elsewhere, this is especially true when the apparent “agent” is one of a good and simple and seemingly stable nature.
I realize only now that Frank was an FRV pied piper. He was an EM vector. He was a focuser of direction in the sense that he probably sat there in his semi-sleep state at the board, basking like a reptile in the warm energies that he was absorbing, and emitting signals all the while that befuddled the minds of everyone present, unless, of course, they were of the same type, in which case, their energy augmented his, and the corrupting effect was amplified.
May 3, 1997
Q: Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when Tom was also here, and the issue of his being in O’Brien was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there, then there was a remark about an EM vector. The way I understood it is that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?
A: Vector means focuser of direction.
Q: Could that mean that EM waves can be vectored by a human being simply by their presence? I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight!
Q: One of the things I have learned is that these individuals seem to attach via some sort of psychic hook that enters through our reactions of pity. Can you comment on the nature of pity?
A: Pity those who pity.
Q: But, the ones who are being pitied, who generate sensations of pity, do not really pity anybody but themselves.
A: Yes … ?
Q: Then, is it true as my son said, when you give pity, when you send love and light to those in darkness, or those who complain and want to be “saved” without effort on their own part, when you are kind in the face of abuse and manipulation, that you essentially are giving power to their further disintegration, or contraction into self-ishness? That you are powering their descent into STS?
A: You know the answer!
Q: Yes. I have seen it over and over again. Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.
When considering how to deal with Frank, we discussed whether or not we ought to just tell him how we felt, what we had noticed, and why we were concerned. We agreed that this would be the most logical thing to do since it would give him a chance to “explain” himself, or to adjust, if possible. So, we decided that we would try to approach the subject a little at a time and gauge his reaction before going the next step. I tried to talk to him about it, and soon found that there was no possible way to do it. Every approach to the subject that I tried, he blocked with his sympathy ploys, resurrection of his suicide ideas, and general energy-draining tactics.
In short, he was poking a stick in my eye, and I was trying to politely ask him to remove it. And when he began to manipulatively assert his right to poke a stick in my eye, I subsided and withdrew my request.
At the same time this was transpiring, the website was growing, and the correspondence was increasing. I was finding myself spending almost every waking moment answering questions from readers, and this usually involved having to research the subjects they were asking about and quoting the long pieces of text that I would find, along with further information on the subject from the Cs.
At this point, the answer of how to deal with Frank became apparent: there was no way we could do the research, get the material posted, and be drained every week at the session. So, we just simply informed Frank when he called and asked if we wanted to do a session that we had decided to cut back to one session a month in order to have time for research and handling the questions of the readers of the website.
We thought that we could balance things by allowing Frank only limited opportunities to poke the stick in our eyes. Yes, I know, that is really stupid, but there it was. That was the program, and that is what we are all taught to do: to compromise, to see free will as a sort of balance of permitting the free-will choice of another to abuse you to continue, but only occasionally!
I continued to want to give Frank opportunities to contribute out of a sort of despairing hope that we were wrong. I would print letters from readers with questions and ask him to do a little research, or write a reply. His uncaring attitude about other human beings in difficulty, people who were writing and asking for help, repeatedly shocked me. I continued to ask him to write a bio for the site. Every month throughout 1999 when we had our monthly session, I would ask him, “Did you get your bio written?” And he never did. At one point, I even thought that I would give the who-is-receiving-the-Cs question a sort of blind trial. I asked Frank to please begin to experiment with channeling on his own, to write his results, that I would type them up and post them. He never did.
This went on month after month in the background of 1999.
Now, I want to go back for a moment to the “used soap” session of January 2, 1999. This comment was made in reference to our thought that a Nobel Prize might provide the necessary cachet to enable us to do the research that the Cs were urging, to share our results widely, and not worry so much about either money or attack. We had the idea that we must always fund everything we did ourselves, and that the only true sharing was if we could just give everything away for free. So, in order to be able to make enough money to do this, we decided that increase of income-potential ratio per hour was advisable. That way, Ark could work fewer hours for the necessary money to provide enough for us to live on, maintain the website, buy all the books and materials we needed, and maybe even pay someone to help us with keeping track of everything. He would then have free time for the research itself instead of spending every waking moment trying to meet company deadlines in order to keep the bills paid.
It was pretty obvious by this time that we were not going to get the help we needed from Frank, and Terry and Jan had already bought their longed-for home in Tallahassee and had opened their long-dreamed-of antique business. Jan finished the job of formatting the transcripts through 1998, but at this point, they were too busy to continue to give the time to the material that it required. I was swamped with the work, Ark was swamped with his work just to keep the bills paid, including in books and materials needed to deal with the research questions from readers. We wanted to be able to make the material available to as wide an audience as possible, and that required money – a lot of money.
We did not want to try to publish the material through a regular publishing house where some whacked-out editor who didn’t have a clue would cut the Cs to ribbons. We wanted to make any printed copies available at cost, and we knew that in order to do this, we would have to make more money, make it faster, and have more time to do all the editing and cleanup work on the transcripts that was needed. It was an enormous job, and we were simply overwhelmed.
And we weren’t getting any help from Frank. He wouldn’t even go over the text and correct spelling errors or add personal notes.
As I read through the “used soap” session, I see that there is another very strange remark:
January 2, 1999
Q: (A) Are we on the right track with our public activities? […]
A: Be careful about being overeager to share the information you receive in this communication too widely.
Q: (L) We are being careful. Where this communication is concerned, we have only shared some philosophical things. I don’t think we have …
A: It is you, my dear, that gives us some concern. This will not be a pathway to “fame and fortune,” unless and until it is balanced.
Q: (A) Which communication are we not supposed to share? Cassiopaean?
A: Yes, but we did not say: do not share. We mean to be careful. Snakes in the grass lurketh.
Again we are faced with a conundrum. This was not the first warning to be careful not to share too much, too widely. Such warnings are scattered throughout the text. Yet, at the present time, Frank has declared that he is the channel, and has illegally issued permission to Vincent Bridges to freely publish and distribute the unedited transcripts, in direct contradiction of what he has claimed to channel!
There is also the odd remark that the material would not be a “pathway to fame and fortune unless and until it is balanced.” This remark is especially strange since neither Ark nor I had any ideas of fame and fortune for any reason at all other than to be able to better perform our perceived mission of researching hyperdimensional realities, and sharing the Cs material and whatever research we had that contributed to the expansion of knowledge. The reader ought to know that, for both of us, interacting with the public is an act of service that constitutes a form of conscious suffering which, all things being equal, we would certainly choose to do otherwise.
So, the question is: why was this remark made? Is it an overlay of Frank’s desires? Or, on the other hand, is it another clue the Cs were giving about the fact that Frank was the odd man out and that nothing would proceed until he was out of the picture altogether? Considering the way things have played out, I tend to the latter interpretation, especially considering the added remark about “snakes in the grass.” One automatically thinks of “nurturing a serpent in one’s bosom,” and that certainly seems to be what we were doing with Frank, and later, others.
Another factor in the early months of 1999 was my concern about my two eldest daughters who were completely unhappy about the whole Cassiopaean thing. It was a source of deep embarrassment to them that their mother was publishing the material on the Internet, not to mention their awareness, followed by denial, that there might be something to what the Cs were saying. They just wanted a normal life. Well, I could certainly sympathize with that. I wanted a normal life too.
I just wanted to be able to read and study, and write a little when I felt like it, work in my garden, take care of my beloved husband and children, my house, and for God’s sake, have a little peace after all the years of bone-grinding struggle. I didn’t want to think about aliens or ultraterrestrials being at the top of the food chain. I didn’t want to have to deal with the fact that anybody with a brain could see that something strange and predatory was moving on our planet. I didn’t want to have to wake up in the morning and think about all the suffering of humanity for millennia, and that it was very likely only a precursor to what was to come in the not-too-distant future, whether it was due to ultraterrestrial manipulation, or simply human greed and ignorance. I just wanted to dig in the dirt, arrange flowers, comb through thrift stores for rare or unusual books and odd things that I liked, take the girls to the hairdresser or dance class or sewing lessons, and live like a normal human being. Was that too much to ask?
I wept for the world that I would like to live in. I wept for my daughters and the certain pain they felt in facing this same question. I wept for all the others I knew who had faced it as well.
But weeping is not the way of the warrior. Beware of those who cannot stop weeping when they realize their true condition, for they have realized nothing. As don Juan and Gurdjieff tell us, there are untold dangers in the path of knowledge for those without sober understanding. Seers have to be methodical, rational beings; paragons of sobriety and yet free and open to the wonders and mysteries of existence.
“It is natural to be scared and to control fear is wrong and senseless,” don Juan tells us. Fear is the opposite of Love and to be truly balanced one must experience, on a continual basis, equal manifestations of both. True contact with expanded awareness can bring on unspeakable melancholy. It is a mixture of pure longing for the depths of perception plus an absolute fear of their chilling solitude.
Don Juan remarked that in the life of warriors it was extremely natural to be sad for no overt reason. … Whenever the boundaries of the known are broken, a mere glimpse of the eternity outside is enough to disrupt the coziness of our controlled awareness. The resulting melancholy is sometimes so intense that it can bring about death. … The best way to get rid of melancholy is to make fun of it.
I realized that there is nothing lonelier than eternity. And this is the human dilemma. There is nothing cozier than to be a human being. We can live forever behind veils of illusion, suffering our blindness, and dying in our ignorance. And, until some aspect of that human has had its fill of suffering and death, there will be no desire to venture into the absolute loneliness of eternity. It is only the soul that is ready for this definitive journey that becomes a warrior, willing to risk the soul-chilling fear and the unspeakable joy of traveling into the unknown. If you can’t handle the fear, you cannot know the love at the “higher” levels.
Now, in the next several chapters, we will enter the world of counter-intelligence operations both of the human variety as well as the cryptogeographic, hyperdimensional type. I will begin listing the dramatis personae of the years 1999 to the present. The reader will see the “circles within circles” of the Matrix Control System.
In the very earliest days of my Internet experience, I had encountered a web personality who went by the handle of Density 4, and signed all his messages “Blue Resonant Human.” It was sort of a humorous dig at those who followed the Mayan calendar. Blue, as I began to call him, and I hit it off immediately, and I have entire disks full of email discussions we carried on through the years 1996 to 1999. In the very early days, when I was attacked by the crowd on Mike Lindemann’s ISCNI discussion board for daring to suggest that aliens might not have our best interests at heart, Blue jumped to my defense, and I witnessed words being used in a way I had never thought possible – literally like swords. The Lindemann harpies fled in terror, and I decided that participating in their discussions was a waste of time and energy. But Blue and I chatted on, and I have him to thank for many, many enlightening posts. I was naive in the extreme, and he undertook to protect me and educate me in matters that were crucial to my survival.
Blue was very interested in the strange twists and turns of my life, and when Ark first made contact with me, he was naturally concerned that I was going to be hurt by an Internet predator. We had a number of long phone conversations, and Blue attended a few sessions with Cs via telephone.
During 1997 and most of 1998, Blue was intensely involved in building a massive website, a hub for information on secret government projects, mind control, aliens, secret societies, and all of their connections to black magick and satanism. Very early on, Blue had stumbled on the connections written about in Picknett and Prince’s book The Stargate Conspiracy, and he was putting all the information together. We discussed his finds at great length, as well as his plans to try to get inside and find out who was really on first. The folks that Blue was particularly interested in included numerous members of what is popularly known as the “Aviary.”
The Aviary has been described by Dan Smith and Rosemary Ellen Guiley, directors of the Center for North American Crop Circle Studies, in their article, “The Aquarium Conspiracy,” as “An important link in the communication chain between the civilian population and the intelligence community in regards to UFO matters … This is the final link next to the public network, and so it must be heavily disguised by its own surrealistic smoke screen. The Aviary functions best by amplifying people’s own misconceptions about the paranormal. It does this by helping to over-inflate individual pieces of the puzzle so that particular investigators get pushed further into their own blind alleys.”
According to the popular mythos, this organization was said to hand out disinformation on UFO research. It consisted of various ex-spooks and military types and the following is a general list of those who were claimed to be the interface with the public:
THE SPARROW – Richard Doty – AFOSI agent.
CONDOR – Robert M. Collins – Former Captain USAF.
OWL – Dr. Harold Puthoff – Parapsychologist/Director of Psi-tech.
FALCON – C. B. Jones – Parapsychology/psychotronics, Navy Intel, DIA, MUFON (1989), as a consultant.
PENGUIN – John Alexander – Former Army Intel on the board of Psi-tech.
PELICAN – Ron Pandolphi – CIA.
BLUEJAY – Dr. Chris Green – CIA.
NIGHTINGALE – Dr. Jack Verona – Liaison between Capitol Hill and Los Alamos.
SEAGULL – Bruce Maccabee – Photographic expert, MUFON consultant, MUFON state director 1975.
UNKNOWN – Bill Moore – Alleged intelligence agent.
PARROT – Jacques Vallee, Ph.D. – Formerly an astrophysicist working with Paris Observatory and the Space Committee (nothing to do with UFOs), later moved to U.S. as principal investigator with Defense Department computer network projects; worked with famed astronomer and dear friend Dr. J. Allen Hynek who left and denounced the military’s Project Blue Book as a disinformational smokescreen; prolific author on UFO subjects.
The rumors suggested that the Aviary was an actual organization, financed by the U.S. Government or Lawrence Rockefeller who was rumoured to be throwing a lot of money at UFO research. This organization was supposed to be infiltrating UFO groups such as MUFON and spreading disinfo, which, as we will discover, is true – though not in the way that is supposed. The Aviary-inspired disinformation was not (as some suggest) to create the UFO mythology out of whole cloth as a distraction (i.e. UFOs don’t really exist except as a government mind control experiment). Rather, it was to cover up what the UFO/alien reality is really doing.
Blue, as a growing Internet presence, sought out many of these individuals to interview them, chat with them, and seek answers to the burning questions we both had about who was who and what was what.
I was naturally concerned that he was going to get into some kind of trouble doing these things. The one thing we had never quite agreed on was the nature of the alien presence. He was having a really hard time grasping the hyperdimensional nature of it, and he wanted very much to find that it was all just a mind-control, social-programming experiment. At the very most, if there were any aliens involved, they must be physical creatures like us, and any weird stuff had to be consigned to the etheric realms of spirit possession.
The following clip was the Cs’ answer to Blue’s questions about several of the above individuals. I’ll let the reader guess who is who:
November 7, 1998
Q: (BRH) What about Phil?
A: Try not to be misled.
Q: (BRH) I mean more specifically about his alleged interstitial hoodlums. (This is in reference to a description of aliens that Blue was fond of quoting, Ephesians 6:12, the idea being that the aliens were demons, or strictly ethereal beings. Apparently, this was the theory of someone on the “inside” whose name was Phil.)
A: “Hoodlums” are not leading, they are led.
Q: (BRH) Anything you can tell me about Ron, John and Victoria and Dr. V that would be good for me to know?
A: We see one with a plight. One secretly holds the light. Why not run with his program? Because it is missing some data. But, who supplies the data? Someone reaches out, but if this one grasps your hand, they will not let go.
After a period of very close interaction with some of these people, Blue came to a certain conclusion and posted on his website the opinion that the Aviary was merely an “ad-hoc dysfunctional family of disparate military/intelligence spooks who share an interest in UFOs and parapsychology yet often work at cross-purposes and frankly don’t even get along with each other all that well. Extremely weird birds.” There were, of course, a few of them he really liked, and considering what was to happen later, one has to wonder if this “liking” was not manipulated.
On December 25, 1998, Blue forwarded an email to me for Ark (see Appendix B). Ark was certainly intrigued at such a discussion and did some websearches on the participants. I was pretty intrigued to see that there were a number of members of the so-called Aviary on board, including Ron Pandolfi, John Alexander, Bruce Macabbee and Hal Puthoff. Also on the Sarfatti discussion list were Joe Firmage, Uri Geller (Involved with Puthoff, Targ and Ingo Swann in SRI research), Stan Krippner, Russel Targ (SRI remote viewing with Puthoff and Swann), Ed Mitchell (Astronaut and Founder of The Institute of Noetic Science), Eric Davis and, of course, Blue.
The reader may also be interested in doing a little research on their own to discover that there are other links between some of these individuals and other organizations. For example, John Alexander and Jacques Vallee work for Billionaire Robert Bigelow who created an organization called the National Institute of Discovery Science (www.nidsci.org/personnel.html) or NIDS for short.
Segue to the present: Additional research by our research team reveals to us that there is a curious New Age/science crossover organization called the Axiom Visiting Faculty (www.greatmystery.org/ visitingfaculty.html). Here we find the following:
Drunvalo Melchizedek,
Mitchell (NIDS, Sarfatti),
Castaneda followers,
Deepak Chopra,
Fred Alan Wolfe,
Greg Braden,
Joe Firmage (Sarfatti, on the Institute of Noetic Sciences board),
John Mack (Rockefeller sponsored NDE and Alien abduction hypnosis researcher),
Laurie Monroe (Monroe Institute),
Rabbi Michael Lerner,
Peter Russel (Institute of Noetic Science/Mitchell’s (NIDS) private organization),
Russel Targ (Remote Viewing pioneer along with Puthoff and Ingo Swann at SRI in the ’70s and ’80s),
Steven Greer (Rockefeller funded UFO researcher),
Zecharia Sitchin.
As the reader can see, there is a loose sort of network emerging with some players figuring prominently. What is even more interesting is the fact that there is a link between the Axiom Faculty and something called the Sangraal School of Sacred Geometry.
Back to the past: There were a couple other interesting members of the Sarfatti discussion group: Ira Einhorn and Hank Harrison, father of grunge diva Courtney Love. Hank claims to be the world’s expert on the Holy Grail, and he played an interesting part in the drama that year, but not to get ahead of myself, we will leave him for now.
Our own little discussion group was busily discussing the clues the Cs had given about the Grail Quest, a subject which bored Frank to tears, and on February 6 I found that there were several websites devoted to the subject of Rennes-le-Château. By following several links, I found myself on a page about “ancient wisdom.” There was a semi-scholarly discussion group that was closed – you had to submit a sort of little résumé to be accepted – so I figured it would be better if I signed up both of us, which I did. A few days later, we were accepted for membership, and I had my first taste of a real Internet egroup.
Meanwhile, on Sarfatti’s mail list, all the guys were just tearing poor Ira Einhorn apart. I didn’t really know anything about him, or the crime he was accused of committing, or why he was hiding in France, but when he wrote a long explanation that he was set up to take the fall because he had learned “too much” from the insiders, I certainly knew that this was something that was easy enough for regular humans to engineer, not to mention hyperdimensional beings. I expressed these ideas briefly, and found myself having a private chat with the guy on the side. We will also come back to Ira in the next volume.
In mid March, Ark and I took the kids on a little vacation to the Pensacola UFO conference where we attended lectures by Whitley Strieber, Michael Lindemann, Lloyd Pye, and Linda Moulton Howe. We purchased copies of Howe’s books, and I have described the events of this conference briefly in volume two of The Wave.
After the conference, when we were at home, I had a brief exchange with Lloyd Pye about his strange skull, and the possibility that it could be evidence of an alien presence on the planet. I was doubtful because it did sort of look like the skull of a hydrocephalic child. But I was most interested in any results he obtained by testing.
Right around this time, I received a threatening series of emails from one of the multiple personalities of the woman discussed in the Reptoid-rape chapter of book two of The Wave, but she subsided rather quickly.
Now that I was turned on to this e-group discussion thing, I joined a couple of other lists, thinking that this was the correct way to network and share information. One of them was discussing the history of Atlantis, another was devoted to researching the Priory of Sion (or so they claimed, but really all they wanted to do was talk about drinking Merovingian blood – I unsubbed pretty quickly!).
Meanwhile, I was busiest on the Ancient Wisdom list. Well, it wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be, but I found a few opportunities to share some of the Cs information there and to do it exactly the way the Cs had suggested – you know, “Here is what we received, make of it what you will.” Of course, I was hoping that this would inspire others who might have pieces of the puzzle to contact me, and we could get down to business solving this problem of why things were the way they were, and what kind of a mess were we in, and how do we get out of it! Mostly, however, I got slammed for even daring to mention channeled material. It was definitely not welcome among academic discussions!
Nevertheless, quite a number of people from these various lists began to correspond with us privately, and it was getting to be just a regular circus!
At this point, I noticed that Nick Herbert was on the Sarfatti discussion list, and I thought that this was really synchronous. Back in 1985, when I was doing the research for the first version of Noah, I had read Herbert’s book Quantum Reality. He seemed to be someone who might be able to answer my questions about Cosmic Metamorphosis, so I had written to him, and we exchanged several enlightening letters via snail mail. Several years later, due to my relationship with Keith Laumer, I had occasion to chat with a well-known fantasy writer whose books cover entire walls of book stores. We engaged in a long correspondence that covered all the years prior to, during, and after the Cassiopaean contact, right up to the time of my divorce, at which point I stopped answering his letters because I was just too depressed. Shortly after, Ark found me, and I was too busy to write. At the time of the Santilli session, I wrote to the fantasy author and shared this info with him, and a couple of physics questions came up in our debate. I decided that since Nick Herbert had been so kind as to answer my naïve questions several years before, that he might be a good one to ask to settle the hash. So, I dashed off a letter to him, mentioning the discussion I was having with the writer.
As it happened, Nick was a real fan of this writer, and he was more than happy to help with my questions if only I would help him get an autographed copy of a book to give as a gift! I was more than happy to introduce him to my writer friend, and they had a nice little correspondence, I assume.
So, here was Nick on Sarfatti’s list. What a coincidence!
Well, Ark and I were both a bit curious about Jack Sarfatti and just exactly what this list was supposed to accomplish. I figured that Nick wouldn’t BS me, and he sort of owed me a favor, so I wrote to him to ask for the inside scoop on Sarfatti, as well as to discuss some other interesting items that had come up in his remarks to the list. Nick wrote back:
On 18 Apr 99, at 16:50, nick herbert wrote:
First: I have been associated with Jack Sarfatti for a very long time. In my opinion he is a third-rate physicist with a tremendously overvalued sense of his own worth plus a lot of passion. He is indeed a con man but one that fervently believes in his own con – hence very persuasive to those who know little physics. I do not think that there is any deeper conspiracy behind him (Jack would like to think so). He is just a childish bozo – charming in short doses, boring after a while. I stay in touch with him because I am in love with novelty and he has sometimes turned me on to new paths I would not otherwise have traveled – including perhaps this one.
Second: thank you for your part in connecting me with [name deleted]. It enabled me to give one of my Muses a unique “magic” gift for her birthday.
Third: My basic general hunch about psychic experiences of the sort you mention is that the self and the environment are not as separate as we usually assume.
I have also had uncanny experiences where the (conventionally) “outside world” seemed to reflect what was going on “inside my mind”. Jung writes about similar events under the name of “synchronicities” and by providing such a label perhaps encouraged us to pay more attention to the possibility of such self/other indistinguisabilities. A very good book on this topic (with lots of examples of synchronicities) is “Science, Synchronicy & Soul-Making” By Victor Mansfield.
Fourth: I believe that the really New Science of the 21th century will truly begin when we learn how to AMPLIFY the magnitude and extent of these accidental connections with nature. I call this new science Quantum Tantra and fancy myself its prophet much as Frances Bacon was a forerunner of Newtonian physics.
Fifth: I have not yet written a book on alchemy (tho I believe it features the same assumption as quantum tantra – that the chemist is not separated from the chemistry: are there reactions that only work if you pray?). Perhaps this book is waiting for us somewhere in the future.
Sixth: Some of my work is alluded to on my website. I will be giving a presentation of Quantum Tantra at Henry Dakin’s Lab in San Francisco on May 25 Sponsored by the long-running Psychic Research Group. This work is so new and so far removed from conventional notions of science that I mostly keep to myself and my favorite Muse – the Pacific Ocean – trying not to contaminate my thinking with too many old notions.
Let’s keep in touch. I’m sure we all have parts of the puzzle but I fear that a very large piece (or pieces) is still missing and at present NO ONE can make a coherent picture – let alone a science of what we know now.
At this point in time, I had finished reading Linda Howe’s books, and there were several things in there that I shared with our little discussion group of which Blue was now a member:
Therein lies the rub: knowledge. The “Photon Belt Phiasco” is a prime example. Somebody came up with this idea and it spread like wildfire to channel after channel … became all the rage, incorporated with the “Mass Landing” theory and the “Alien Rapture” hypothesis, then interwoven with Hale-Bopp … resulting in a mass suicide as well as a HUGE amount of energy.
When I first read it a number of years ago, in a magazine … all laid out in pseudo-scientific terms … I nearly had a gag attack! I mean, if the folks promulgating the idea as well as the ones reading it, had a CLUE about what the intrinsic nature of a photon was, they would not have fallen for this one … and NEVER MIND about all the “psychic technobabble” about these “special photons” and how the sources had to use terms that were “close” to something we poor ignorant humans could grasp or that were available in the vocabulary of the channel … the whole thing was poppycock! I said so then, repeatedly, the Cs backed me up when they came along, and so far, the knowledge of what photons are and what they do has held up! I mean, don’t these guys know that the earth is bombarded with TONS of photons every day … it’s called LIGHT … and if there was an increase such as they suggested … it would REALLY transform the planet … to a CINDER!
But, on the other hand, on the low side of probabilities, maybe a photon belt DID hit and all the “good folks” WERE airlifted off the planet! Then, I guess we are all in trouble!
So, it is a VERY good idea to have an extensive knowledge base when dealing with this stuff … BUT, there is a point at which even this sort of “runs out” because we are dealing with levels of reality about which we have no clue whatsoever. Many times the Cs have told me something that just completely and totally OFFENDED what I thought I knew … I would be outraged with them! And then, some few months down the road, something would come out in “mainstream science,” or some new author who had been working on a specific problem, or some work that I had not yet examined would come along verifying to the last comma everything they said. That sort of thing just gives you the “chills” and so forth.
I have to admit that I was completely offended by the idea of aliens “eating” human beings, either emotional energy-wise or literally … but then, I came across research and documentation of at least a strong circumstantial kind that pretty much supported this.
Also, I was pretty hot on the Velikovsky ideas and I was pretty much unhappy that the Cs did not admire this theory as much as I did.
Most often, with channeled material, one finds that the answers are sort of “confirmations” of what the channel him or herself believe or WANT to hear … But, in this instance, we can frankly say that the Cs don’t seem to care much what we believe or want to hear. They don’t coddle us … but they DO become VERY VAGUE when a person is present or asks a question who is unable to bear the blunt truth. I did an analysis of the “vague” answers once and discovered that there was a direct relationship between the number of them and the personalities of the people present including their pre-formed belief systems.
So, the bottom line seems to be: if a person is EMOTIONALLY tied up with what they WANT to hear … they are respected and will not be told anything that they cannot handle …
There is SO MUCH GARBAGE out there … and much of it is written to evoke and appeal to the emotions, and it is CLEAR that emotions are chemical. Yes, there ARE “soul” emotions, so to speak, but they are so radically different from what one experiences when “interfaced” with the body that there is almost no comparison.
And this is my idea … to raise awareness of this “battle,” so that people can be objective and non-anticipatory and be able to SEE CLEARLY without emotion, thereby reducing the amount of “food” the aliens can milk from us. Each one of us who wakes up and smells the coffee, so to speak, makes it that much easier for others … Hundredth Monkey Syndrome and all that … and THEN, there is the possibility of effecting a change. Cs repeatedly say that the future is “open.” But, unless one knows what the present conditions are and where they can lead, probabilities and so forth, they have no hope whatsoever of contributing to a group effort to direct our future.
Linda Howe writes:
“An Air Force intelligence officer once told me about an elderly colleague, a Colonel, who supposedly spent time with an extraterrestrial biological entity retrieved from a crashed silver disc in New Mexico. The Colonel said the being explained telepathically that this is not the only universe. He said, ‘Imagine a large island of white sand and that each sand grain is a different universe separated from the others by an electronic membrane. And surrounding the island is a cold, dark, sea.’
“I asked the intelligence officer what the dark sea was and he answered, ‘You don’t want to know. It would change you forever.’”
Now, this may seem “upsetting” to hear, but one has to consider the perspective of the “intelligence” conveying this information. If we take as a given what the Cs said about the STS perspective, that they “worship the physical universe,” then we understand that the “cold dark sea” perceived by the being is “non-delimited consciousness,” and, to them it IS SCARY! Unlimited creative potential! Pure Creative Consciousness. And this is how they view it … as a “cold dark sea.”
Col. Corso writes in The Day After Roswell, “These creatures weren’t benevolent aliens who had come to enlighten human beings … ” Linda Howe asks, “What do other intelligences want from humans and our planet? One government agent told me his superiors hoped to be dead before the ‘true story’ erupted … ” (Howe, 2001) Then, she received a letter via an intermediary, purportedly from some DOD guys which said, in part:
“Our misguided program directors cling to the false belief that we can control or manipulate the [aliens], when in actuality, the reverse is occurring – we are the ones being manipulated and deceived.
“ … forces being utilized by [aliens] to interact with us in a bizarre, confusing manner, designed to divert us and draw our attention from the true purpose of their actions: manipulation and deception.
“People are now busy chasing ‘secret-government’ projects, satanic cults, and UFOs, while the actual perpetrating agents go unsuspected [i.e. beings from other densities].
“[There are those] within the government hierarchy who [have] convincingly fed [to Linda Howe] the false ET scenario propagated as disinformation by those who are in charge of the [alien] projects. Many variations of this exist, and all who are privy to a particular variation are convinced they have ‘the answer.’ With our society as it is now, the core truth of the situation is such that the public really could not handle it.
“The ultimate diversionary tactic to this point (and diversions will begin to increase in frequency, degree of strangeness, and in a more overt fashion, visible to greater numbers of observers) is the UFO abduction scenario.
“The concept of these events, real though they are, being the result of extraterrestrial beings, is a masterful piece of disinformation to divert attention away from the real source of the [aliens]. Our information as to the true nature of these events does not negate the possibility of extraterrestrial life, but, the causal source of the UFO and UFO abduction phenomena is NOT EXTRATERRESTRIAL.
“The aliens being dealt with in our psi “mind control” weapons development, and who are apparently allowing themselves to be used for a time, are neither benevolent nor neutral. It was our feeling that very few could understand this concept.
“Your comments and thoughts concerning ancient civilizations and their contacts with the [aliens] need to be considered in light of the bigger picture of the deception of mankind as a whole. If this grand deception is taking the course it seems to be, then it makes sense to analyze the false gods of ancient civilizations in light of the current level of deception. It is only logical that, given their non-human, other-dimensional nature, the [aliens] would be able to foresee the need to establish a foundational base, the facts of which could be slightly twisted, or distorted by the fog of antiquity and forgotten cultural distinctiveness, to seemingly establish themselves as the bringers of all good things to humanity.
“Explore Jacques Vallee’s ‘Passport to Magonia’ again, for more close parallels between the ‘faerie’ manifestation of the [aliens] and current events. And look very closely at ‘Messengers of Deception,’ Dr. Vallee was so close to the truth of the situation, with the exception that the ultimate manipulators are not human.”
On the 4th of May, a fellow named Ray Flowers posted to the aforementioned Ancient Wisdom discussion list:
Alchemy, Fulcanelli and the Great Cross
A Monument to the End of Time reveals the truth behind the mystery of Fulcanelli: The alchemical transmutation of the soul and the most dramatic event in human history – the end of time as we know it. A Monument to the End of Time unveils the greatest alchemical secret of all – that history is an initiatory process. And the final stage of that initiation is about to occur.
Check out Vincent Bridges and Jay Weidner’s new research from Southern France.
http://www.sangraal.com/AMET/index.html
Well! Talk about your major Doomsday pronouncement! I wandered over there and had a look. There was a whole lot of historical research, and I read through the ideas of the book and wrote back to the Ancient Wisdom list:
I wonder if this “new research” was in any way stimulated by the most interesting book “Refuge of the Apocalypse: Doorway Into Other Dimensions; Rennes-le-Château, The Key” by Elizabeth Van Buren ??? Certainly a MUST read for anyone “into” the R-L-C business.
This book begins with a discussion of the Cross of Hendaye …
“There is a small town in the Basque country of the Pyrenees called Hendaye. A stone cross stands there, displaying curious symbols which the famous alchemist Fulcanelli states relate to ‘millenarianism.’ This is the doctrine of belief in the millennium and the cataclysms that are preordained to precede it.
“On the transverse arm of the equi-armed cross is an inscription which consists of two lines of raised letters. These spell out words which are joined together: OCRUXAVES PESUNICA.
“If the ‘S’ at the end of the first line is taken as the first letter of the second line, the following phrase can be read: ‘O CRUX AVE, SPES UNICA’ ‘HAIL, O CROSS, THE ONLY HOPE.’
“Fulcanelli points out that the rules of Latin grammar have been ignored, for ‘pes’ is masculine, and therefore requires the adjective ‘unicus’ which is the masculine, and not ‘unica,’ the feminine form of the word.
“Because of the misplaced ‘S’, the inscription can be read as a secret message. By reading the Latin words as phonetic French, and rearranging the words to form another sentence, the following strange statement is arrived at: ‘IL EST ECRIT QUE LA VIE SE REFUGIE EN UNSEUL ESPACE’ or ‘IT IS WRITTEN THAT LIFE TAKES REFUGE IN A SINGLE SPACE.’
“Fulcanelli tells us that this message refers to a place of safety at the time of the terrible catastrophe, a Noah’s Ark where death cannot touch one. He told the alchemist Canseliet, ‘The time will come, my son, when you will no longer be able to work in alchemy, when it will be necessary for you to search for some country rare and blessed, privileged without doubt, and situated towards the south, beyond the frontiers.’ To others, Fulcanelli indicated that the place was Rennes, in the Aude.
“ … Fulcanelli points out that the letter ‘S’ which has been misplaced, corresponds to the Greek khi (key) (X) and has the same meaning esoterically. Is this the ‘key’ to the mystery? Can we read the message as ‘Spes unice,’ or the ‘key’ is the one-and-only (feminine) foot? Does the ‘X’ symbolize this ‘foot?’” (Van Buren)
I think that it is interesting to note that the name “Plantangenet” is derived from a root meaning “foot” … and “platter” is similarly related … the “foundation” of a thing connected to “gene” which goes to the same root from which we get yoga, yogi, joint, jugular, conjugal, knee, and even knight … the “Desired Knight” of the Grail Stories, Perceval.
And, if no one has ever noticed it, in the Shepherds of Arcadia, there is a rather prominent display of knees and elbows … JOINTS.
Martha Neyman says that the shadow of the arm on the tomb, when looked at upside down, is the image of a horse … but it also looks like a heart when taken WITH the arm itself … but either view is interesting.
It is also interesting that the legends surrounding the origins of the Plantagenets are almost identical to the legends of the Merovingians …
Merovee is an interesting word in itself … going back to Mer which can mean both Sea and Horse …
So, I guess I shall order this book and see what these guys have to say.
Laura
On May 7th, I received an email from one of the guys doing the above mentioned book, Vincent Bridges:
Date sent: Fri, 7 May 1999 11:49:03 -0500
Subject: RE: Hendaye
Dear Laura,
What a nice comment on our AMET website, and so perceptive too!
Yes, we are aware of E. Van Buren’s fascinating book, and, as you supposed, are deep into the RLC thing. However, our starting point was Fulcanelli’s book Le Mystere des Cathedrals and his chapter on the Cyclic Cross of Hendaye, which EVB quotes at great length in her preface to Refuge. In fact, EVB does little but quote Fulcanelli, giving only one piece of new information. “He told the alchemist Canseliet, ‘The time will come, my son, when you will no longer be able to work in alchemy, when it will be necessary for you to search for some country rare and blessed, privileged without doubt, and situated towards the south, beyond the frontiers.’ To others, Fulcanelli indicated that the place was Rennes, in the Aude.”
You just don’t know the anguish that little teaser has caused us in the past year or so. The problem is that Canseliet, as far as we can determine, never said that in print, so it must be a private conversation between EVB and Canseliet. When and how did they know each other? And who could the “others” be to whom Fulcanelli identified Rennes in the Aude as the refuge? Did EVB know Fulcanelli?
There is of course nothing else in the text of Refuge to indicate that EVB understood the monument at Hendaye or its symbolism in any direct way. But whoever told her about it and gave her the information on the Serpent Rouge and the Rennes zodiac certainly did. But why put the information in such a distorted form, why the insistence on Rennes?
Frankly, none of it made any sense. I had been working on RLC for a long time before the Fulcanelli stuff came along. I was interested in King Rene as far back as Grad school in the mid seventies; I thought he was the prime candidate for the author of the classic tarot deck. Still do, even more so with 25 years of research behind me. But EVB and the Fulcanelli connection threw everything that I thought I knew about RLC into a whole new perspective. (Lest ye doubt that I am indeed an RLC freak, let me just note that I own a piece of the original church, circa Bigou’s reconstruction.)
So we knew that RLC was important and connected somehow to Fulcanelli and Hendaye, we just didn’t know how, exactly. Then another friend, Bill Buehler out in Crestone CO showed me a piece of landscape geometry linking Hendaye, RLC, St. James de Campostella and Edinbourgh Castle in a big T. Hendaye was at the cross point of that T. Wow, things began to click after that.
See, Hendaye is like the loose thread in the Kmart tapestry of history. Keep tugging on it long enough and the whole damn thing unravels right before your eyes. We had already unraveled the astro-alchemical secrets of the Cross, but suddenly there was another whole pattern coming into view. We had always joked about the Cross being the Holy Grail, we just didn’t know how close we were to the truth.
On the base of the Cross are four images, reading from west around to north, the sun, the 4 A’s, the eight-rayed star and the moon-boat. We found that they also pointed to four locations in southern France directly connected to the true history of the grail family. By simply locating these spots, the story unfolds, if you know what to look for. Going back to Fulcanelli, we found a very sly series of references that supported our theory, and strangely enough, led us directly to Michel Nostradamus, the Seer of Provence, and that renaissance genius, Leonardo di Vinci.
So with the Fulcanelli book 90% done in first draft, we headed out to France to find some answers. The result is our second book, which I am working away on while my co-author, Jay Weidner, is finishing the final draft of the first book.
Without going into the whole story, here is what we feel the truth is about RLC.
Let’s work backward. What did Saunier find? He found conclusive proof of the survival of a group of early Christians related to the Holy family whose Christ was another St. John, the son of Mary Magdalene and Jesus. This information had been passed to local families in the early fourth century CE when the refugees from the Jewish Christian province of Glanum Livii arrived in the Aude. Glanum Livii is the Blue Fruit, or Blue Apples of the cypher, and the Mort epee is also a pointer to Glanum through the Black Sword of Tristan and Jason the Argonaut. Glanum, of course, turned out to be the home town of Nostradamus, who alludes to his ancient bloodline in several quatrains.
Why did this make Saunier rich? There seems to have been an ancient treasure, perhaps the gold of the Visigoths or the Merovingians, because Saunier did antiquities deals all over Paris. This supplied some money, but most seems to have come from the Hapsburg-Lorraine heirs, who interestingly enough, would have the best claim to descent from any Provencal connection through King Rene. In the wake of WWI, everything fell apart, until some group in the 1950’s revived the mystery of RLC as a way of revealing or deflecting attention from the bigger picture.
Sigisbert IV did return to Rennes and probably was the lost Merovingian heir, so that part of the story is true. We also know that the legend had currency in the Middle Ages, hence Godfrey de Boullion and the Grail legends, but exactly how it all relates together is a carefully obstructed mystery.
But, your guess about the Plantegenets is right on the money. Your word play would make you right at home with Fulcanelli, that old master of the Green Language. The Plantegenet’s rise to power was aided by unseen political forces that correspond to the early Priory of Our Lady of Sion, the precursor to the Templar Priory, founded by Pope Sylvestor II and the mad Caliph Hakim in Jerusalem in 1002. Henry II was a Templar, in the sense of Wolfram’s Parsival, that is a man of unknown, or at least unspoken, heritage who ruled through a combination of modern power and ancient right. Henry’s interest in the legends of King Arthur is no accident, but an attempt to legitimize and [sic] ancient heritage that was essentially heretical. No wonder their origins, Merovingian and Plantegenet are so similar. They were clues for those in the know as to the true heritage of these kings.
But enough obscure medieval history. If you really want to figure this out, I would suggest that, while waiting on our second volume, you find a good translation of Wolfram von Eschenbach’s Parsival and read it through a few times. Then take a map of southern France and map out the places he mentions, taking him at his word about time and distances, and you will find that whoever Guy of Provence was, he truly knew the story of the Grail. It’s all there, and the story itself turns out to be somewhat true and datable to the ninth century.
Well, I’ve probably confused you worse by trying to hint and condense things. Sorry, I am working on the complete version and I hate to give to much away to soon. But I found your e-mail interesting in that I haven’t found to many folks who have even heard of Hendaye, much less make such provocative connections.
Stay tuned to the website. We will be putting more stuff up from time to time and will be announcing the first book in June for a July ship date. Hope you like it, and if you want to chat further on this, just e-mail back.
Thanks
Vincent Bridges
Wow! Was I ever excited! Thank God! At last there is someone who isn’t a whacko, someone who could answer all my questions! Somebody who was not only a scholar (must be a scholar, he went to grad school!), but open-minded! Somebody who had done all that research posted on the Sangraal site! I’d better get back over there quick and download all of it and study it!
And so I did. Every scrap, every word, printed and bound in a cover, sitting there on the bookshelf, a monument to my wish that somebody would come along and give me the answers.
Life gives back to you exactly what you put into it.
There is no free lunch.
Now, just to keep the sequence of events fresh in the readers mind, Vincent Bridges first wrote to me in May of 1999, after one of my posts to the Ancient Wisdom list had been forwarded to him by Ray Flowers of SanGraal.com, a website connected to the Axiom Visiting Faculty, which lists Drunvalo Melchizidek and a few others who can be shown to have links – even if nebulous – to the Aviary. The Aviary was a subject of investigation by Blue, who was on Sarfatti’s email group. Blue introduced us to Sarfatti in late 1998, and Ark joined this discussion in February of 1999. Now, remember the strange invitation to the January 1997 conference at the Central European University in Budapest that I have already described in an earlier chapter? Remember the funny event I described where Ark’s documents were stolen, and returned under such a bizarre circumstances?
Well, the reader may wish to do some research into something called the United Religions Initiative (URI). This is a project funded by the same Foundations that have been intimately involved with the funding of the CEU in Budapest. Barbara Marx Hubbard, a “futurist,” is one of their spokespersons, making many appearances at New Age-type events. In addition to being a member of the Axiom Visiting Faculty, she has a lot of other interesting connections, as we later discovered. For the past couple of months, several members of the egroup have been researching pretty heavily into these areas, and as we go along, we hope that we will be able to present some of their findings. But just now, the atmosphere is pretty heavy, and we feel the hot breath of something rather vicious breathing on our heels.
The very act of writing these pages, exposing these connections, puts our work, our website, and perhaps even our lives, in grave peril. At the present moment, the attacks have escalated, both in the psychic spheres, as well as from the agents of the Matrix through various avenues, including financial institutions.
To understand what we’re dealing with here, let me tell you what happened to Blue. Blue was a really tough skeptic, and gleefully tore just about everything and everybody apart, but for some reason, he really loved the Cs and would call to ask a question now and again during a session. His skepticism prevented him from following a couple of pieces of very sharp advice from the Cs and he was ultimately taken out. And I do mean that literally. The dissolution of his marriage and loss of everything he held dear seems, in retrospect, to have been arranged and then, a love bite situation seems to have been set up to entrap him on the rebound, in his misery. This woman who “gave him tea and comfort” during a terrible time also gave him heroin.
In June of 2002, he sent me an email with an attached photograph showing him in a condition that was absolutely shocking. He was totally skeletal. At that point, he was in a halfway house, I believe, but he was later incarcerated and his great work came to an end.
Getting back to the story, at the point in time I am describing, none of the connections that are now apparent were part of our awareness. We had a vague understanding of fourth-density manipulations, and how agents could be activated and used, but we were actually pretty naive about it. I would like to call the readers attention back to the email I wrote to our own little discussion group which, at the time, consisted of only about a dozen members – not even large enough to run it on a regular egroup list. The part I would like to emphasize is the letter I quoted from Linda Moulton Howe’s book, Glimpses of Other Realities:
“Your comments and thoughts concerning ancient civilizations and their contacts with the [aliens] need to be considered in light of the bigger picture of the deception of mankind as a whole. If this grand deception is taking the course it seems to be, then it makes sense to analyze the false gods of ancient civilizations in light of the current level of deception. It is only logical that, given their non-human, other-dimensional nature, the [aliens] would be able to foresee the need to establish a foundational base, the facts of which could be slightly twisted, or distorted by the fog of antiquity and forgotten cultural distinctiveness, to seemingly establish themselves as the bringers of all good things to humanity.
“Explore Jacques Vallee’s ‘Passport to Magonia’ again, for more close parallels between the ‘faerie’ manifestation of the [aliens] and current events. And look very closely at ‘Messengers of Deception,’ Dr. Vallee was so close to the truth of the situation, with the exception that the ultimate manipulators are not human.”
And that was precisely what the Cassiopaeans were telling us, though they were giving details of this other reality that we had never before encountered. There were, of course, researchers who had come to very similar conclusions, as we were later to discover, but somehow they never quite made it to the idea of a realm of para-physical existence that was capable of both physical and ethereal manipulation of consciousness. This is the real Stargate Conspiracy.
What about Lizzies, or Reptilian type beings? When we search through the transcripts, we discover that this term first appears on September 30, 1994, after we had read Barbara Marciniak’s book Bringers of the Dawn. It was introduced by me as a sort of test question. I decided to use it to discover if the Cs would confirm or deny it as a reality. But, the fact was, I had met Reptilian types even before this – before reading Bringers of the Dawn.
In a hypnosis session with an abductee on August 3, 1994, the subject was describing her experiences during an abduction that had started out with the standard Gray aliens, but after she was taken to the place of examination, things began to get just a bit stranger:
Q: Is there anybody there with you?
A: Um-hmm.
Q: How many?
A: Oh God, this is weird. [sigh] It’s almost like I see a dinosaur or something. With little short arms … and it’s, um … it’s got funny skin … it’s like, it’s like … brownish, slickish … it’s got a real funny face … it’s like a skull but the front of the skull is like going out, real far out …
Q: Like a snout?
A: Yeah. […] It’s gone now …
Q: How tall was it?
A: Um …
Q: Taller than you?
A: Oh yeah, it looked bigger than me. It’s just funny.
Q: What’s funny?
A: Nothing, it’s gone.
Q: Where did it go.
A: I don’t know. It disappeared.
Q: What do you mean it disappeared?
A: I don’t know, it’s almost like an image. And then it just vanished.
Q: How many other beings are there with you?
A: Um … they’re all busy all over.
Q: About how many are there?
A: Um … five or six.
Q: What do they look like? Do they all look the same?
A: Oh, they’re funny looking … they’re almost like, um … they remind me of the baby dinosaur … how puffy his face was with the eyes were like … smaller … not big eyes like him … like squinty eyes …
Q: What color are their eyes?
A: Um … I don’t know … when I look at their eyes I see a green circle that keeps swirling …
This same glimpse of dinosaur- or reptilian-type beings in the background, who obviously went to great lengths to conceal their presence in abduction scenarios, was to occur a number of other times. I realized that there was something behind the Grays, that there was a higher level of authority, and it was hiding itself to a great extent. I went on a search for information about this matter, calling everyone I knew who had done any research in UFOs and abductions, asking for information about the dinosaur-type creatures. Apparently, I wasn’t the only one with clues about their existence, and there were other cases here and there that had described these critters long before Barbara Marciniak wrote her book of messages from Pleiadians.
And, so it was that, after reading Marciniak, even if I was not convinced of the way the Reptilian beings had been presented there, I certainly thought that “Lizzie” was a handy moniker for referring to what most certainly could have been terrifying creatures.
But, as noted, I had been reading a lot of literature that suggested that the Reptilian-type creatures were just a product of our perception, that had been foisted on us by ethereal beings, and that so-called aliens were strictly an ethereal manifestation of demonic-type beings. Many researchers write about them this way, and they write about prayers or rituals that can cast them out or banish them, none of which makes any sense if these beings are real in some sort of biophysical sense. I had, as the Cs pointed out, been drifting toward this ethereal-only understanding, and that is when the Cs pulled me up short to declare that there was, indeed, a real nuts-and-bolts aspect to this matter.
December 19, 1998
Q: If, at fourth density, there is variability of physicality, and the Lizzies, as you have previously said, are engineering new bodies for themselves to occupy in some sort of mass transition at the time of this realm-border crossing; in this state of variability of physicality, why do they need to engineer new bodies for themselves? Why, in point of fact, are Lizzies, Lizzies?
A: Too many questions.
Q: Why do they look like Lizards?
A: They do not.
Q: Well, why do we call them Lizard Beings? I mean, you named them that?
A: We label in accordance with your familiarity. If we had called them “Drachomonoids,” what would be your point of reference??
Q: What do they really look like?
A: You can figure as needed.
Q: You said they resemble upright alligators with humanoid features, six to eight feet tall …
A: Yes.
Q: So, why do they look like that?
A: Biology.
Q: Does biology exist at fourth density?
A: Yes.
Q: Yet, it’s a variable physical density, right?
A: Yes, but what is your assumption here?
Q: I don’t know what my assumption is. I guess that I am assuming that if it is a variable state, they could have a different biology very easily. Isn’t that the case?
A: No.
Q: Can they appear as something else? Change their physicality?
A: Temporarily.
Q: When you say “temporary,” what exactly do you mean? Temporal relates to time.
A: We have explained before that the biggest single factor regarding densities is the awareness level.
Q: The awareness level. OK, how does that relate to them only being able to temporarily change their appearance? Is this because they can control our awareness?
A: Closer. Are you not yet aware that absolutely everything, we repeat: everything is an illusion?!?
Q: At some level, yes. So, still I ask, why, in the illusion in which we exist, or in which they exist … (A) They say here that everything is an illusion, and on the other hand they say there is consciousness and matter. Everything is an illusion? Even this?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) God is also an illusion?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Illusion to whom?
A: To those not on level 7. Your learning naturally dictates your experiences. Once you no longer require something, you naturally move beyond it. However, you retain it as a function of understanding.
Q: (A) And I am also an illusion! And understanding is also an illusion! (L) Back to my question: who created Lizzies as Lizzies? (A) Our illusion …
A: Everything is real, therefore, illusion is reality.
So, there they were: Drachomonoid beings, similar to the creatures of Arthur Clarke’s Childhood’s End. There they were, the scaley or fish gods of the ancient civilizations. And there was an “insider” telling Linda Moulton Howe that “ancient civilizations and their contacts with the [aliens] need to be considered in light of the bigger picture of the deception of mankind as a whole.” This man was telling her almost exactly what the Cs were telling us: that the gods of the ancient civilizations were false gods, that the aliens, or, more precisely, ultra-terrestrials, having time-travel capabilities, had established our religions as the foundational basis for a grand deception, a takeover of humanity, that was scheduled to be finalized in the not-too-distant future. Linda Howe had written, “One government agent told me his superiors hoped to be dead before the ‘true story’ erupted … ”
Meanwhile, Linda Howe’s informant told her that there are egotistical groups among our leaders who continue to wishfully think that they can control or manipulate the so-called aliens, when in fact, the opposite is what is really taking place. The Cs had stated precisely the same thing. The Cs had made it absolutely clear the there were forces of which we were completely unaware, and that these forces were being utilized in a “bizarre, confusing manner, designed to divert us and draw our attention from the true purpose of their actions: manipulation and deception.” What is more, the Cassiopaeans had also made it absolutely clear in their remarks about Vincent Bridges that the theories he was propagating – whether deliberately or simply because he hadn’t fully grasped the nature of the phenomenon – were part of the deception. This, too, was confirmed by Linda Howe’s informant when he stated, “People are now busy chasing ‘secret-government’ projects, satanic cults, and UFOs, while the actual perpetrating agents go unsuspected.”
At the present time, of course, we realize clearly why we have experienced so much disruption and attack from so many sources, including the Williams/Bridges gang with their nebulous connections to the same groups that are known to promote disinformation. It is because we are regularly and repeatedly pointing out that aliens are not extra-terrestrials in the sense that it is normally understood, and we are focusing on the hyperdimensional nature of the phenomenon as a real reality that has nothing to do with demons in any ethereal sense of the word. We are pointing out, again and again, the main problem in research into these matters is that there are those in the government hierarchy who are convincingly propagating false ET scenarios. In addition to the satanic-cult and government-mind-control projects variations, actively and vociferously promoted by Vincent Bridges et al., there are many others, all designed to conceal the actual perpetrating agents and deceive the public. And, of course, as noted, the ultimate diversion is the UFO abduction scenario.
Indeed, abductions are taking place. And the Cassiopaeans have given much information about these events, all of which suggest that aliens-as-extraterrestrials is extremely misleading.
And so it was that, with a growing awareness of the deceptive nature of not only our religions being created as foundations for some sort of takeover at some point in the future, I was beginning to realize that such things as the purported Holy Blood, Holy Grail secrets of Rennes-le-Château were part of this very disinformation process. How else was it possible to explain the synchronous way such a story took the world by storm? How else to explain why the obviously manufactured scenario of some sort of search for the Ark of the Covenant or the Holy Grail focused on this little French village had become the object of such frenzied speculation? It was clear that it was part of the project designed to lay the foundation for something else …
At the point in time that Vincent Bridges wrote to me, declaring himself the expert on the subject, I was utterly ecstatic to have someone to talk to about Rennes-le-Château; someone who was approaching the matter in a scholarly way, was a certified open-minded academic, author of an upcoming book on the subject, and who had responded so positively to the little clues I had put on the Ancient Wisdom egroup discussion list. I have assembled the correspondence through the next few months on the subject into separate files for the perusal of the interested reader.
When I was first introduced to this Rennes-le-Château business by RC in the fall of 1995 – though I didn’t dig into it a great deal until later – I didn’t realize what an impact it was going to have on my life. But, after the strange events of 1996 when I was so focused on the idea of an enclave of alchemists in the Pyrenees, the relationship of alchemy to the Oak Island Mystery and time travel, antigravity, and the “Shepherds of Arcadia,” at which point Ark found me (keeping in mind that he had the image of Magritte’s “Le Chateau des Pyrenees” on his website, the name Arkadiusz, and the connection of gravity waves), I sat up and paid attention. I ordered every book on the subject that I could find.
After the later strange things that emerged at the time of the Hale Bopp Flopp that turned into a mass suicide, including the bizarre increase in visitors to our little webpage, the connection between Brana and Bran and the Holy Grail, the DNA issues, the genetics research organizations, a strange connection with someone or something at Boeing coming to our site repeatedly, I also began to order and read everything on the subject of the Holy Grail that I could get my hands on.
As I have written elsewhere, like just about everybody, I enjoyed stories about knights in shining armor rescuing damsels in distress, King Arthur, and that sort of thing, as much as the next person – when I had been very young. But as I became an adult, I consigned all those things to the realm of myth and fairy tales, and had thought very little about it in the intervening years.
I had also done some research in alchemy, scrutinizing alchemical texts, but had come to the conclusion that it was just a bunch of guys who were dreaming about transmuting lead into gold, and they kept everybody going with their mysterious instructions that sounded more like the ravings of lunatics than anything else.
Now, for some reason, through the remarks of the Cassiopaeans, I was being encouraged, led, nudged, or whatever, to connect all these dots together. So, from early 1996, literally right up to the present moment, I was digging through massive amounts of research, catching up with scholars who had studied these matters all their lives rather quickly, and then leaving many of them in the dust due to the fact that the Cs were giving me clues.
To the reader who is not familiar with these subjects, much of the Cassiopaean material will make no sense at all since many of my questions are related to this mystery. The reader familiar with alchemy will be interested to note the many alchemical suggestions in relation to our mission, whatever it turns out to be:
August 31, 1996
We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path. By now, you should recognize the signs … Those who display thinking patterns which in many ways deviate from that which is considered ordinary. The more unusual, the more telling. They have past lives on 3rd density earth, but not recently, but for this one. And they are not oriented to the earth frequency vibrations.
The staircase is an alchemical symbol. And it was to be brought up a time or two again, even in the symbolism of Jack and the Beanstalk, a ladder to heaven if ever there was one!
I, of course, assumed that the Cs meant Frank when they said “we have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us.” But the Cs not only did not confirm that assumption, they suggested quite otherwise.
Q: (L) Are we not talking about Frank in terms of being put in contact with someone who enables me to communicate with you, so you can put me on my path, which is building the staircase, etc., etc.? Is that not what we’ve got going here?
A: He is one, but not the only one, just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
In fact, it almost seems that they were suggesting that Terry was more important because, as was later revealed, without Terry’s presence, according to the Cs, Frank would have soon killed me with his draining. Considering the fact that the further remarks of this session related to being “hand in hand” with Ark, and that this was just a little over a month after Ark found me, it is pretty obvious that the Cs were also referring to him. In other words, the fullest communication would only occur with myself and Ark at the board. And that has proven to be stunningly correct as the reader will see when we present material from the more recent sessions in this series.
In the course of my searching of libraries and bookstores and the Internet for every scrap of information I could find on the subject of Rennes-le-Château, I came across a book entitled The Horse of God, by a Ms. Martha Neyman, a lady living in Belgium, who had devoted herself to the Rennes-le-Château mystery. She was so dedicated to it that she was even spending all her vacations there, and making friends with the residents so that they revealed to her things that might not be revealed to other people. Naturally, I was pretty excited, and inquired about her book right away. I discovered that it was only available on CD and that I would have to print it myself if I didn’t want to read it online. I sent off the money to Belgium, and a short time later, the CD arrived. In the meantime, we had kept up a lively chat by email, and I restrained myself from asking questions about the material in the book until I had a chance to read it.
All of this was in the late fall of 1998, and I only bring it up now because immediately after Vincent Bridges wrote to me, I decided that the clearest way I could explicate the development of my views on the subject of Rennes-le-Château would be to forward what I called the “Neyman Letters” to him. I figured this would save both of us time. If he thought my ideas were nuts, as Martha Neyman had, then there would simply be no further reason to discuss the matter. On the other hand, if he read the Neyman letters and thought what I had written was worth discussing, then on with the show!
So, here are the Neyman letters in order:
To Martha Neyman
Date sent: Tue, 3 Nov 1998 12:43:56 -0500
Dear Martha,
The CD arrived yesterday, but I didn’t get it until this morning and it is still printing. I was reading as I was printing and am well through the first section and have sort of scanned through the other sections.
Having spent so many years studying mythology, symbolism, comparative religion, ancient history (particularly of the Celts and the Arabs because there IS a connection between these “sons of Hagar” and the “refugees from Troy”), philology and semiotics, I can appreciate all the work you have done.
But, for me, the most significant is the fact that you have gone about and observed things and noted them down. This is important, as you know, because one must go “in the field” to get the feel.
I realized a long time ago that this Rennes-le-Château “business” was an “engineered” archetype. Those who have played parts in it have done so for reasons, though, most often, they did not even realize that they were being manipulated to say and do what they did by the “hidden superiors.” And, make no mistake about it, these beings DO exist and all the events of our lives and world are “managed” by them from behind the scenes. They create and destroy “secret societies” at will, including Templars, Priory of Sion, Masons, Rosicrucians, etc. These are all “covers” and “smoke screens.” And, they have existed, in a continuous line, for many thousands of years.
For this reason, the sequence of events that you have so rationally described, regarding the main players in this “drama” is most important to me. It fit with some of my own assessments which I had already made about Saunier and Boudet and Bigou.
There is a “rule” of espionage which goes: observe the facts, ONLY the facts, and extrapolate backwards to discover WHO benefits from a given situation, and this will give you the key to the underlying truth.
Well, I have been doing this about the events of history and geography for most of my adult life. The world, in its broadest sense, is a projection, if you will, similar to the shadows on Plato’s cave. We cannot know fully the origins of these “shadow” images unless we can overcome our fascination with the moving patterns and leave the cave. But, doing that implies that we must first be aware that we CAN leave the cave …
As I said, this business is an “engineered archetype.” Rather, it is a holographic projection of a much larger drama. But, figuring out the small scale mystery is the key to projecting the template onto a larger landscape. It does not end, or even begin, in Southern France.
Now, there are certain “key points” on the planet which I have discovered … with strange names and numbers … and “temple” characteristics (in the original sense of the word) that are, apparently, veiled from the awareness of others thus far. There are symbolic and semiotic and philological connections of a substrata of “events” that stagger the mind.
The one thing that few people think about is “WHO IS DOING ALL THIS?” And, connected to this is: what are their capabilities? And this is most important. If I, for one instant, underestimate the capabilities of “them,” I will surely be devoured.
It is in this lack of realization of who holds the secrets and the intellect behind it that causes most people to stumble and fall in their analysis.
And since I am convinced it is an EPOCHAL secret which involves the history of mankind, the moving and changing of large masses of energy on the planet itself, then I HAVE to think about the “figures” behind such a thing.
One example I will mention … you remember what you wrote about St. Anthony’s day … January 17 … and the number nine … and all that. It is reasonable based on what is available … but there are meanings even older than that … and they pop up in Mayan constructs … I was in Mexico last year and came across a figure carved in what was once a bas relief of a Mayan temple … It was a figure of a man with the flesh removed from his thighs and skull … but with the rest of his body intact … and his legs were crossed … I have an excellent photo of it which I have shared with a few people. I’m sure you recognize the symbol …
And there is the ancient cult of Janus – guardian of the door – to whom January 17 was sacred … and there was the celebration of St. Augustine on the same day … and there is the hermit in the grail stories … whose hero is Perceval … “he who pierces the valley,” or “mummy with the long member,” or “pour suivant … ” and so on; take your pick.
Well, let me get back to having a look at this business.
Laura
After reading Martha’s book, which began in so promising a way, I was depressed to discover that she had fallen into the same trap as every other researcher. She was certain that she had discovered something new, but so were all of the other researchers who had written books on the subject. They would arrive on the scene, full of the information they had collected from the written sources, they had a theory, and yep – sure enough – their theory would be confirmed by amazing new discoveries. Over and over again this scenario played out, in book after book, with each investigator certain that his was the answer to end all answers. I immediately recognized the high strangeness factor of the UFO/alien abduction phenomenon. There was hyperdimensional manipulation going on here, for sure. And a careful reading of Henry Lincoln’s book, The Key to the Sacred Pattern, will reveal this most clearly.
Seeing that Martha had done the same thing, that she had used the same types of sources, that she had been led through a series of hyperdimensional hoops, I didn’t really know how to tell her that I could instantly see that she had been manipulated by those time-traveling, mind-marauding controllers of our reality. I didn’t want to rain on her parade, and I knew that it would be almost impossible for me to discuss it with her because, like everyone else who is hot on the trail of a bunch of synchronicities, there is nothing you can tell them that will convince them that they might be being manipulated by hyperdimensional forces. It’s a damned unpleasant thought for anyone, much less someone who hasn’t probed into the belly of the beast.
But Martha wrote again and asked, and I tried to break it to her gently:
To: Martha Neyman
On 24 Nov 98, at 17:33, Martha Neyman wrote:
> I never heard from you again, I hope everything is fine … ?
Yes. Thank you for asking. We are preparing for the big “Thanksgiving” holiday … second only to Christmas in its excessive consumption of calories and fat! I have a 22 pound turkey in my refrigerator and stacks of ingredients for pies and cakes … ready for the baking tomorrow. I swore I wasn’t going to do this anymore, but the children would be devastated if I didn’t. Ark is happy to eat yogurt and be done with it … and I don’t need anything at all except to stop eating for about a year …
> By now you might have finished reading my book, I think …
Yes. And lots of marginal notes …
> As you are so well experienced in the subject of symbolism and know so much more then I do, I would appreciate it very much if you could let me have your opinion …
I am impressed with what you have done, having started with more or less a blank screen. You have had the unique advantage of “being there,” which I have not … but, yes, there is a LOT I would like to discuss and I have been debating how open you would be to this “putting two heads together” on the subject. I know that I am like a mother about anything I write and very sensitive to what might be construed as “criticism,” so I have not wanted to say anything that would be offensive. But, at the same time, you are THERE and can answer some questions I have and I think that there are some things that need further work.
> How is the weather in your country … ? Here in Belgium temperature is minus 13° centigrade … However that was not too bad, because the sun was shining and the cold itself was not unpleasant … But the weather is changing tomorrow, rain is expected and the streets will turn into skating-rinks … We stay indoors, that is much safer I think and in any case good for a whole day of writing …
My husband has been invited to Brussels by some company that is probably connected to NATO … they want to pay expenses and all that … we don’t yet know how we will respond. As he says, it makes the drama of our life a little more interesting even if we don’t follow the “script.”
If you are ready to have a little dialogue about this “Rennes etc.” business, well, tell me. What I want to do is something like what my husband does … you get a theory, you build the structure, you see how it behaves as a “working hypothesis,” and if there are problems, you tear it apart and start over. That sort of thing is what he does. He will have an idea, spend weeks on page after page of mathematical calculations and then hit a brick wall and have to start all over again.
We sat up one night and analyzed, in a sort of “hard science” way the evidence of the “phenomenon” of Rennes … it was an interesting exercise with interesting “conclusions.” I was thinking at the time that it was too bad you weren’t with us as there were a lot of questions we had no answers to because we did not have the opportunity for personal investigation or observation.
I will say that some of the things you have found are fascinating and I am convinced that there is some purpose and reason, and maybe even your ultimate conclusions are correct – or pretty close … but there are some big gaps in the symbolic appreciation and historical background of same. This is something of a specialty of mine. I have spent so much time buried in these “old times” that I can “shift” into them and think like them.
And, there is also what I call my “Grail File,” which consists of all the remarks and clues given via channeling on this specific subject. It was pretty astonishing that, just a few days before your CD arrived, I had been pressing the subject and was given some information that was right there on your pages … I nearly dropped my teeth! though I don’t think you were aware of the significance of certain things you found … you were focused in another direction!
So, the result is that I am convinced, like you, that there is some great mystery to be solved … but I am not as sure as you are that your answers are the “right ones.” There are many things to be gone over in a sort of “cold” and analytical way – even including this business of “synchronicity” that we both have experienced in this matter.
This “amazing” confluence of “clues and artifacts” tends to convince us that our ideas are correct … but I have found that, often, the matter is much more complicated – like a chess game. Some of these “synchronous” events are like a move on the chess board by these “unknowns” and they are waiting to see if we will see through the ruse … We can either make the mistake of “falling into the trap” of taking the piece “offered” while we are being set up for a swift and stunning mate.
NEVER underestimate the cleverness and cunning of the opponent.
Your ideas are framed in much the same terms as the guys who wrote the Holy Grail series and the guy who wrote the Tomb of God … in the sense that all sorts of “synchronous” and “amazing” correspondences were found in response to the various ideas had by all. This should be taken as a warning that it can occur to just about anybody. All of you were convinced that you were “on the right track” because of these things … don’t forget that. They, as sincerely as yourself, were convinced of the “rightness” of their “path” and conclusions because of the SAME TYPES OF REMARKABLE SYNCHRONICITIES!!!!
And, for an “outsider” who has not been there … one is left with a welter of “confusing” and contradictory ideas.
So, this is why I think that it is at this point that all must be torn apart and looked at with a somewhat different and more “playful” idea. Remember – NEVER FORGET – that the opponent wants us to come to false conclusions … And never forget that he/they are so much more clever and practiced at this deception that we can even imagine. This is NOT a secret of a couple hundred years duration. It is THOUSANDS of years old …
Anyway, enough of this rambling. If you like, if you are prepared to play with it, to tear it apart with me for the sake of possibly solving it … admitting in the beginning that your solution may turn out to be correct or not … but maybe for different reasons … then maybe there is some hope of solving it. With material results.
Do you want to begin?
Laura
After I had sent the above, I realized that I really needed to be more open about what was on my mind. I didn’t want to have the poor woman thinking I was critical of her writing, which was not the case.
To: Martha Neyman
Date sent: Tue, 24 Nov 1998 22:03:37 -0500
Dear Martha,
Perhaps it will give you a better idea of how I am thinking if I address some of your book before you decide if you want to “discuss” it.
Remember, this is all “thinking out loud,” so to speak, or on paper. It is just a “scenario” to be tried and tested. I don’t pretend that it is the “bottom line.” So, here goes:
On page 4 you talk about the BBC documentary where the media, which had once “touted” the “mystery,” now has pretty much squashed it. You ask a very good question: Why murder a good story?
Well, perhaps, at this point in time, they were NOT murdering a good story because there were already so many adherents to it, that it would be impossible to do so … it was just more controversy. In fact, this move could have been designed to make people ask the very question you did … sort of like the government constantly pooh poohing UFOs … the more they did, the more people believed they were hiding something.
So, this IS a valid point considering “double and triple reverse psychology” commonly in use by the media and whoever runs it.
So, I think that your question goes much deeper than you think.
But, it also puts light in another area … it seems that, these guys who were making money off of this business were being manipulated from start to finish. And making money was, apparently, not the objective – though for them it might have been a lure. Or it might have started for them as a lure, or a farce … and grew very serious later.
Nevertheless, we may deduce that the objective of this pronouncement by the BBC was to do the exact opposite … to breathe new life into the subject by reverse psychology.
So, question about this now is: why? Why do they WANT to keep attention on this area? Why was the attention drawn here to begin with?
Now, let’s skip to page 17 where you list the “facts” which can be substantiated and back engineer a bit from there.
The three “facts” – Documents were found in 1886.
We cannot accept this as a fact. It is only hearsay. No matter about the various arguments for, about, against, or whatever, no one, NO ONE, outside of persons whose credibility is in question has EVER SEEN any actual, ancient or even “pretty old” MSS. They have not been submitted to any kind of professional analysis because they have never been produced. To say that “The discovery of the manuscripts is the key to the mystery of Rennes-le- Chateau,” is a huge assumption.
So, let’s set them aside for the moment. (Don’t despair, I am ruthless, but it is useful, as you will see.)
Third fact (we will save the second for last, as it is the most interesting.) – That Saunier was digging at night in the cemetery without obvious purpose, aided by his servant.
Now, on this, what verification is there? I am not too clear from the various stories … but it seems that the primary source of this information was an old guy who “remembered” all this many years later … and, considering the circumstances of all the rest … well, it is hearsay. Not admissible as a fact.
Now, there is the second “fact,” that Saunier spent more money than his income as a village priest allowed.
At last, we are on firm footing. There are ledger books, apparently, with this information recorded that can be considered “hard evidence.” And, there is the evidence of the building projects and so forth which cost more money than the guy could have made. We have a FACT. Only one, so far.
Remember, our BELIEFS are not important here … our feelings, our responses to our amazing “synchronicities,” and all that. We have to clear away the fog of emotion.
Now, in order to know what other “facts” there may be, maybe you can answer the following questions?
You wrote: In 1892, Sauniere is often absent without permission. What he does and where he goes, remains a secret …
Says WHO?
You wrote: In 1894, together with Marie he makes long walks. They collect stones that are used to adorn the garden with a grotto.
Says WHO?
You wrote: Also in 1894, aided by his trustworthy helpmate, Marie, he starts to dig in his cemetery! At night, under the cover of darkness …
Says WHO?
Now, the tomb of Marie Negre D’Ables, that he is supposed to have destroyed, but, fantastically, it happened to have been “copied” … are you aware of the investigation into the “background” of that little book where it was supposedly reproduced? That it was, very likely, at the hands of the very same persons who deposited the “Dossiers Secrets” and all that in the Biblioteque Nationale?
This is pretty shaky stuff here.
The very idea that the Abbe was “searching for something” could be all rumor.
But, why? Where could such a rumor come from?
The story about Marie in her old age is highly instructive: I am sure you have a few “old people” in your family and are familiar with their little “manipulations” and feelings of “helplessness” as they age.
Now, just suppose there WAS some secret of the Abbe … but it had NOTHING to do with a “treasure” at all … and whatever it was, died with him as a source of income.
But, Marie, in her old age, desperate to ensure her comfort, knowing that all she has is this property that is expensive to maintain, and no money coming in anymore, hints to the people who have undertaken to care for her that there is a “secret” that she will tell them before she dies … Obviously, this is to keep her “control” over her life to what little extent she can. It sounds like the old “if you are nice to me, I’ll remember you in my will,” routine so common among old people … From the descriptions I have heard, the people who were caring for her had a hard time making ends meet. Do you think that if she had some secret that would enable access to financial aid, that she would not have acted upon it herself and thereby enabled herself to PAY for her own care in old age, rather than having to depend on strangers that she controlled with the promise of a secret?
It is so typical of something an old lady would do, that I am completely struck by the likelihood of it being so.
But, what happens? She dies without telling anything! Supposedly. Well, the guy spends some time looking for a possible treasure which he hopes is there … because the old lady told him so … but, no luck … maybe he realizes that he was duped … and the story you have described, about the hints to the papers about a treasure to create business for a hotel … well, the guy was just playing with the cards he was dealt, and I believe that this is the source of the whole “Rennes-le-Château” cottage industry in “treasure hunting.”
BUT, that STILL DOES NOT EXPLAIN THE ABBE’S MONEY!
Okay, the guy had some bucks. Not only that, but his bishop had some bucks … and both were getting paid by another priest … and, not only that, there was a third priest who was murdered.
These FACTS are of EXTREME interest! The rest is just rumor, smokescreen, hearsay, and all that.
Now, clearly, as you have revealed to me, the cash flow came from Henri Boudet who wrote the strange book about language … (and I would very much like to get my hands on a copy of it complete! There may, indeed, be a code in there … but not what anybody thinks … )
Now, on pages 19, 20 and 21 you give some very interesting facts OUT OF SEQUENCE. I wonder if it was a subconscious oversight? Because, placing them IN SEQUENCE makes for very interesting reading: Here they are:
1852, Sauniere is born.
1878, The abbe of Rennes, Pons, dies.
1881, Charles Mocquin is appointed, but leaves after just a few months. (Any reason given for his leaving???)
1885, May 5, Antoine Croc leaves Rennes … (When was he appointed? How long was he there? This is curious. Any reason given for leaving?) Two priests in a short time, appointed, and then leave??? Did anybody ask why???
1885, July 1, Sauniere is appointed cure at Rennes …
1886, Sauniere purportedly receives a “gift of cash from Comtesse de Chambord.” (Or was it really a “first payment” from Boudet? We see that Sauniere isn’t going to leave after just a few months … wonder why? The previous two priests left pretty quick.)
1886, According to the ledgers you cite, it was at about this time that Abbe Boudet began paying money to Sauniere. Was this also the time he began paying money to Mrs. Billard in Carcassonne? Any dates on this? The bishop was getting twice as much as Sauniere according to the figures you gave. Was it for the same period? The bishop gave most of his to charity. (Was this because of a guilty conscience?)
1887, July, the new altar is placed in the church at Rennes. This is curious. Was this a completely NEW altar, or was it a re-placing of the old one? If the former, what happened to the OLD one?
1889, Bishop Felix Billard visits Rennes for the first time … (There may have been some sort of “meeting” amongst these guys. They discuss who is to get what, who is to do what, and so on … )
1891, major restoration is begun on the church … (This does not sound too strange, since there is obviously some source of money – Sauniere bargained for enough to make his church the way he wanted. If he is stuck in this out of the way place, he is gonna enjoy it!)
1891, Sept 21, entry in Sauniere’s diary – “letter from Granes – discovery of a sepulchral vault, rain in the evening.” (Does not sound like anything unusual since he is doing a major restoration on his church. AND, he does not seem too interested in it since he did not list it first.)
1892, hearsay that Sauniere was absent without permission. (unless there are documents to confirm this)
1894, hearsay, unless documented, collecting of stones for grotto.
1894, hearsay, unless documented, digging in graveyard.
1896, restoration of church mostly finished. Sauniere buys more land.
1897, June 6, Mgr Billard visits and the garden is unveiled. (Perhaps another “meeting” between the “guys” takes place now.)
1897, Abbe Gelis was murdered. Reportedly tortured before his death. Was supposed to retire the next day. The magistrate found money hidden at various places in the vicarage … so, he may have been on the “payroll” as well or … He was an intimate of Sauniere and Boudet and had been there since 1857. How long was Boudet in the region? Was Gelis the “source” of the money to Boudet? He had been there a long time … he was going to retire … perhaps take the secret of the source of income with him, or threatened to do something else at the meeting … or, being retired, he would have been a threat in some way. This needs more examination.
1898, One year after the death of Abbe Gelis, Sauniere buys the land on which he builds his villa. Doesn’t anybody find this odd?
1902, the Bishop dies.
1902, Sauniere was told to give an explanation on the origin of his wealth to the new bishop … Seems that the old bishop was “protecting” the other “guys” in some way, so it does not seem that it could be a “secret” of the church or the church would continue to preserve it …
1902, Sauniere argues with his friend Henri Boudet. The friendly relations between Sauniere and Boudet are broken off … Funny that this comes right after the Bishop dies and the new one demands explanation. This is the strangest thing of all. If there is some secret between them and Sauniere is under pressure to reveal it, it does not seem very wise for Boudet to break off relations with Sauniere if Sauniere KNOWS something about Boudet that he could tell. This point needs some consideration. Something funny here.
1910, July 23, Sauniere is suspended from his official duties. Seems that if Boudet was worried that Sauniere would reveal something, he would come to his rescue. What was happening to Boudet at this time? Was he getting along just fine, or was he being questioned also?
1915, Boudet sends a message to Sauniere to meet and reconcile … shortly after the reconciliation, Boudet dies. This is funny, that Boudet sends this message … is it documented? Or, is it documented BY Sauniere? Did he go to visit Boudet uninvited? How soon after the visit does Boudet die? Five years of no contact, then Boudet sees Sauniere and dies right after????
1916, Sauniere decides to build on a REALLY grand scale … Exactly one year after the death of Boudet. Strange that he has done this twice … A year after the death of another priest, Sauniere embarks on more building projects.
1917, January 22, Sauniere dies suddenly.
Now, of all the interesting facts above, the two that strike me most forcibly are the facts that, in the year following the death of Gelis, Sauniere buys the land on which he plans to build his villa – but holds off the building for three years … and in the year following the death of Boudet, Sauniere decides to really go “whole hog” with his building projects …
So, what we have, after getting rid of the story of the parchments, treasure and all that mess … is still a VERY strange story …
AND, it seems to me, that once certain attention had been brought to the area due to the financial needs of Mr. Corbu and family, there was a DESPERATE need to confuse the issue … to draw attention away from the situation involving the priests … and their friendship and their finances.
The question would be WHY would this be so important at such a remove in time? Evidence indicates that it is NOT a secret of the church … the “treasure” idea is kaput, too, as far as I can see … all the elements of the “Shepherds of Arcadia” painting as related to this area have pretty much been shown to be “cooked up.” But, there IS something going on!!!
Is there a connection between the facts that Abbe Gelis was murdered and Sauniere bought land for his villa soon after?
Is there a connection between the fact that Boudet died “suddenly” and Sauniere made big plans to build soon after?
What could be the REAL source of money being shared among these guys? Two, possibly THREE priests and a bishop …
Was Sauniere’s sudden death natural, considering the funny business around the deaths of the other two?
What or who was it that supplied the money? Obviously, Sauniere had access to it after Boudet died, but NOT when he and Boudet were on bad terms … hmmmm? Funny? What was the connection of Gelis to the money – so that he had to die for it, as it seems?
But, whatever the source, it was NOT accessible to Marie … She only used the suggestion of a “secret” as bait to ensure her well-being until death …
So, having ripped away all the smokescreen, we are left with a real mystery. But nothing at all like what all the “researchers” suggest.
But, that is not to say that there is not some purpose in the smokescreen, that is another subject altogether. There IS some great mystery about the Shepherds of Arcadia, but, it may be far wider and more intriguing than just the area around Rennes-le-Château.
But, this is enough for now.
Laura
Along with the last of the Neyman letters that I forwarded to Vincent Bridges, I wrote some comments:
To: Vincent Bridges
Date sent: Fri, 7 May 1999 17:01:33 -0400
This is the last of the Neyman letters … after this, she wrote and told me she did not see any point in “discussing” it further as she KNEW the truth because she had been “led” by “amazing synchronicities” and all that. Same song, different verse.
My point is: I can see that there is a HUGE thing going on here … and it seems that everybody, including yours truly, has had so amazing a series of “confirmations” of ideas – one leading to another … and work, work, work on the research and digging and all that … BUT each one has come to a somewhat different conclusion and has been led down a somewhat different path.
I want to get to the very bottom of the blasted thing!
I have some pieces to this pie, I think … and Martha found some interesting things … and I am still waiting for my printer to finish your pages so I can settle down and read and see what pieces you have found …
Anyway, this will give you SOME idea of how I am looking at it. I am a strange mixture of “intuitive” and ruthlessly scientific – even toward myself. And, when I get emotionally attached to my ideas, my husband straightens me out pretty quick!
I guess I have a couple of axioms I live by: one is “get results.” The other is: “when all the lies are stripped away, what remains is the truth.”
To Martha Neyman
Date sent: Wed, 25 Nov 1998 13:23:49 -0500
On 25 Nov 98, at 16:26, Martha Neyman wrote:
> You are a busy lady … When is the big “Thanksgiving” day..? I thought this was the 14th of November, but I am not sure and you know better..!
In USA it is the last Thursday in November – whatever that happens to be. Don’t know why they picked a Thursday … all sorts of symbolic things about Thor and all that could come to mind, but …
> Sounds great and finger-licking good that turkey of yours … Today for us; a bit sliced cabbage will do, we have to watch our diet …
So do we … which is why it is going to be difficult … I will be sick if I eat things that I ought not to eat!
> Of course I will answer the questions you have and I do not see this as a criticism of the work I did, because I feel, what I did was good and not done before by anyone … Even not by the writers of the Tomb of God … The book they wrote, has at first sight a “certain” resemblance with my work, but it is totally different and the “Horse of God” is not a railway, that is for sure..!
Precisely. It is such a vast subject, that it is difficult to get into without writing reams. The very important thing you were doing was just going about with an open mind and observing and checking things out.
Yes, the railway part nearly had me laughing off my chair. And those poor guys missed some of the most amazing clues …
> Dear Laura, do not be angry with me because I am honest to you and straight to the point … In a way, I am thinking in the same direction as you …
Only way it can all be solved …
> I think, where you talk about WHY the BBC is “murdering” the story of RLC, you dig too deep. I can well imagine the US government keeping the truth about UFO’s from the people, but to believe that the respectable BBC of England is part of a plot to hide the truth of Rennes-le-Château in a sort of double psychology game, I think is going a bit too far.
Possibly. It is all too easy to get into a conspiracy mind-set. But, you DID ask the question, and I could see that there was another answer besides these guys just tossing the whole thing out the window.
> You asked me a lot of questions … But … You started to ask questions about the “Preface” and the “Introduction”.
Yes. There are certain foundational facts that I think are necessary. You gave quite a few that I have not noticed in other works … so, I am asking for more about the “basic story.”
> Please take “This” information at “face value”..! This section is not of any importance to the rest of my book. The information in the introduction is common knowledge, mostly it came from the locals, and they are used by every book-writer …
Yes, I know that – but, I want to know WHY and HOW such things were generated. I want to know if anybody ever actually documented any of these things. And these are questions that DO occur to me for whatever reason. If the only answer is “the locals said so … ” well, that IS the answer. If there is an old diary where someone wrote about it, that is a different kind of answer.
And, the point is: somehow, for some reason, stimulated by some “raison,” these so-called Priory of Sion fellows played on this story and the painting (which I believe is important because of the facts of Poussin’s life) got connected to this area … Is it because there was some sort of “rumor” that floated about in esoteric circles that this painting was connected to this place? Who came up with the idea in the first place?
> When you start writing some kind of a book, you have to start somewhere …
Oh, indeed. And getting from point A to point B is very difficult because there are so many corollary paths that might need to be included that it becomes an agony deciding how to choose what to include and what to leave out – or it could become so lengthy and confusing that no one could understand it! Believe me, I KNOW.
> I do not have to tell you … I did start with general information. So readers who are not so well informed, but want to know more about the whole story Rennes-le-Château, can get this general information.
Yes, but you also did some “investigating” on your own. You observed. A lot of things you mention are not mentioned by other writers, even apart from your discoveries.
> That is why, in the INTRODUCTION, I wrote: Quote: At the risk of boring those readers, who know all about the history of Rennes-le-Château and its obstinate priest, I would like to repeat briefly, the “original” version, for those new to the story … Unquote.
Yes, but hopefully, you checked some of these things???? After all, the previous writers may have had an agenda … and it seems that they did not check things out as thoroughly as one might wish.
> Dear Laura, those inverted commas at the word ORIGINAL were placed there on purpose … To the real initiated it means the story as it is usually told, as mysterious and uncanny as possible, without actually having completely checked out, who did what and why and who saw him doing it … This is just the “common” Rennes-le-Château story, only meant as “proof” that something weird was going on in this village and that the priest behaved strangely …
Yes, but if none of those things are true … if they only “developed” AFTER the fact of the initial “rumor” of treasure was started, which I think you pinpointed in your description of the folks who were caring for Marie, well, then there is nothing to support the “treasure” hypothesis. There is nothing to look for … at least not in that sense.
Thus, if the story about treasure, the connection to the painting, which seems to have evolved from the rumors about treasure, all are “manufactured,” then one has to start looking in a different way.
> Because as you will find out later, as you read on, you will see that Sauniere’s doings have (very) little impact on the solution I found.
But, Sauniere’s doings seem to be the very thing that the “story” masks … My point is that the story seems to be a smokescreen for what was going on with those priests.
I can see that I am going to have to start telling you about some of the things I discovered … in much the same way you discovered things … in this way you will understand that I am saying that there is SOMETHING HUGE going on here, because what I have discovered dovetails with your “findings” only there are some other implications and correspondences that make the picture a lot larger …
> I hope you do not mind, I am so straight to the point..?
No. This has got to be analyzed to pieces I think.
> What I meant by writing : You are so well informed is: Experienced in symbolism …
We will get to that later. I cannot formulate without data. There are some significant symbolic images that are far more ancient and “in your face” in that painting than what you described. Every thing has multiple layers … question is: which layer do we extract from?
An example is your use of the “knee” as a means of selecting the number “seven.” Well, the knee has some very deep meanings and is used symbolically in a rather different way in numerous sources, the oldest I have found being the Egyptian Pyramid Texts … And it is not chance that “knee” is from the same root as “knead (as in bread), knight, juga, yogi, conjugal, genes, genetic, gonads, etc.)
Also, the hand positions … there was in use, at the time of the painting, a “hand alphabet” which could signify either letters or numbers or both … it could also symbolize a mathematical “operation.”
> I started to give an explanation of the perceptible and searching for the truth in the invisible words of symbolism in “Chapter I” … So let we [sic] start from this first part … And … Do not forget I only used A SMALL part of the Christian Church symbolism to explain, sometimes “just enough” to make clear how I came to my conclusions in a logical way..! Otherwise for most of the people “absolute unknown” with this material it would have been much too complicated, long-winded and even boring.
Agreed. But I am still trying to “connect” the painting to the area and it is difficult.
> So my dear if you are ready for it … I am … But no hurry, take your time..!
Well, it is going to take some time because the “rest of the story” is yet to be told. And, by that, I mean certain other correspondences that no one knows, I don’t think, but myself.
> This was only a short reply, because I feel the strong desire to write a whole day on my second book … Which has nothing to do with symbolism … It is the true story of the “Shepherds” the real “Shepherds”: the church-shepherds..! THAT is the story of the painting of Poussin … “Popes-Crusades-Templars”, it starts with the Oriental Schism in 1054 … For the “Latin Church of Rome” this was a large loss. It ended with a second huge loss: The reformation in 1618.
Well, if you haven’t done so already … look at the King Rene painting reproduced in the “Tomb of God” book alongside the “Shepherds” painting … just look at them casually and see what things you note that correspond … Note the lance and the horse head and compare it to the “horse head” and shepherd’s staff in the Arcadia painting … Note the position of the sun and the mountain peak in both paintings … note the posture of the Shepherdess and King Rene … note the ditch and flow of water exiting from the stone in the two paintings … note the funny leaning tree in the Rene painting … the funny hand gestures …
Then look at the Teniers painting and note the shape of the “window” and compare it to the “chink” in the tomb in the Shepherd’s painting …
Then, have a look at Bacchus and Ariadne by Titian … half-close your eyes and see what you can see … note the funny overturned vessel on the drapery … the dog … go back to Teniers and note the vessel in the window … the bird …
In the Shepherds painting, note the drapery of the figures … the crossed shins, the bared breasts of the figures … count the numbers of knees, hands displayed … Note the positions … it is not as simple as the “finger of Jupiter, Venus or whatever … ”
The system of codes being transmitted via hand signals was widespread in both the Orient and the Occident. There are allusions to it in the writings of several Greek and Latin writers, such as Plutarch, who attributes these words to orontes, son-in-law of King Artaxerxes of Persia: “Just as in calculating, fingers sometimes have a value of ten thousand and sometimes of only one, the favorites of kings may be either everything or almost nothing.” (Hmm … a connection to Persia again?)
Apuleius married a rich widow named Aemilia Pudentialla and was accused of having used magic to win her favor. He defended himself before Proconsul Claudius Maximus in the presence of Emilianus, his main accuser, who had unkindly said that Aemilia was sixty years old, when she was actually only forty. Here is the record of how Apuleius addressed his accuser:
“How dare you, Emilianus, increase the real number of Aemilia Pudentilla’s age by half, or even a third? If you had said ‘thirty’ for ‘ten’ it might have been thought that your mistake CAME FROM HOLDING YOUR FINGERS OPEN WHEN YOU SHOULD HAVE HELD THEM CURVED. But, forty is THE EASIEST NUMBER TO INDICATE, SINCE IT IS EXPRESSED WITH THE HAND OPEN.”
Saint Jerome wrote:
“Thirty corresponds to marriage, FOR THE CONJUNCTION OF THE FINGERS AS THOUGH IN A SWEET KISS REPRESENTS THE HUSBAND AND THE WIFE. […] AND THE GESTURE FOR A HUNDRED, TRANSFERRED FROM THE LEFT HAND TO THE RIGHT, ON THE SAME FINGERS, EXPRESSES ON THE RIGHT HAND THE CROWN OF VIRGINITY.”
The Venerable Bede gives many examples of how the system can be used for silent communication.
In Islamic religions, finger counting and signing was used extensively (remember the “contamination” of the Templars by Sufism … which is so similar to what is known of the Cathars that one cannot help but think that there is a connection … and, also, what is known of the Druids … )
There are a LOT of quotes I can cite about this “finger and hand” signaling system … but, it would get tedious.
The meanings of these things were obvious to people of the time, (which may be why the painting was hidden), and the citations from old MSS so common that it shows that such allusions were used both in paintings and in written references … otherwise, the readers could not have been expected to understand them, but it is very obscure to those of us in the 20th century who are not familiar with the method, and casually pass over such references as being “unimportant.”
Thus, this may be an important consideration in evaluating the message of this and other paintings.
The mathematical angles are another thing altogether. At the time, the “Golden Mean” was a standard of Art … it was taught in all the art schools that a composition based on this ratio was more aesthetically pleasing … so, pupils were taught, and masters perfected, the art of compositional placement on the medium according to the Pythagorean principles. It meant, essentially, nothing. It can be found in thousands of paintings. It’s presence in art is generally meaningless.
However, your finding of the stone with the ratio figure engraved upon it … well, that requires some examination, but not necessarily in the precise terms. Or, on the other hand, in the precise terms …
Well, I have some transcribing to do for my husband who is impatiently pacing about – and I have baking to do this afternoon. Children won’t let me NOT do it!
It will take a while to talk about all of these things and I am going to begin to try to describe to you some of the other things that may be significantly related …
Laura
As noted, Martha Neyman didn’t want to discuss it anymore. Because she had begun with assumptions about where to look – in Christian symbolism – and because she found an “answer” based on her assumptions, and the landscape more or less cooperated with her in the same way it had cooperated with so many other people, the idea that there may be something going on in this morphing landscape-treasure story as a means of screening something else, or distracting the attention of the researcher, was not a welcome idea to her at all.
What was more, the very idea that the BBC might have been manipulated rankled with her, and I knew that the idea of manipulation of reality was simply beyond her grasp. She wasn’t asking my opinion because she really wanted it; she was asking for confirmation of what she already firmly believed to be true.
I was almost too excited to wait for this Mr. Bridges to declare his opinion. I was so looking forward to discussing the issues with someone who had deeply investigated it, who had been there, and who wasn’t subject to the manipulations of the disinformation program that was evident to me. Finally, I received a response to my posts, and thank the Lord! Vincent Bridges wrote encouragingly:
Does seem as if we are working in similar directions. The stuff up on the web is actually smoke and mirrors. We haven’t released the good stuff yet either. Very little on the web about some of our discoveries, for obvious reasons. Was very interested in your Neyman letters, and yes EVB is still alive and living in the town next to RLC, but her story is truly bizarre. She was Canseliet’s lover, self identified, in the ’60s and he told her the whole story which became Refuge. It gets stranger from there. Let me know what you think and we will talk more. Fulcanelli is hard to find, but Brotherhood of Light has now published both Mystery and Dwellings of the Philosophers in English.
What startled me more than anything was learning that Fulcanelli had written a second book entitled Dwellings of the Philosophers. My mind flashed back to the Cs remark:
December 14, 1996
Q: (L) OK, let me jump over to this other subject of the number 33 and the number 11. Is there anything beyond what was given on 11-11-95, that you could add at this time, about any of the mathematics or the use of these numbers?
A: Prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics.
Obviously, Mr. Bridges was the right one to talk to because he had pronounced the secret word! Certainly he would be able to help me to figure out the exact details of the many things the Cs had said on these subjects. I already had figured out that the alchemical transformation, or the Great Work, was simply the activation of DNA that elevated the human being to fourth density. But exactly what the precise process was, I was not yet quite sure. I figured that all I would have to do would be to just send him the excerpts of the transcripts that related to these mysterious matters, and he would be able to fill in some of the blanks. And so, I did. I sent off huge segments of the text for his review and I was gratified to receive confirmation that we were on the same track. He wrote back, “Had time to read your notes more carefully, and yep you are hot! In fact you are so close that I’m gonna tell you a couple of things that haven’t left the ‘family’ circle yet.”
He also wrote reassuringly regarding my declaration that the matter must be approached ruthlessly and scientifically:
My point of view exactly. If you knew how many true believers of all kinds I infuriate, well, as the Sufis say you can’t be a saint until 400 wise men have reviled you! I ‘believe’ I am the center of the universe, but, if I seek to prove it, then I am certifiable. Intuition must be backed up by rigorous analysis or it is just wishful thinking, like believing I’m the center of the universe.
So, all through the end of May and early June I was happily posting all my research to Vincent Bridges, and we were just having a great time. The more we discussed it, the more convinced I became, based on his comments, that he was exactly the right person to discuss these things with, and that he would have other pieces of the puzzle. Vincent wrote back about the Cs material such remarks as:
Cassiopaea as a symbol carries a very significant energy; it is the M or W in the sky and therefore is sort of a cosmic icon for the whole mystery. Is it possible that you are talking to the head masters themselves, here on earth?
I designed a true channeling check list. It’s an eleven point test, that most of the best channelers score around 3 or 4. From what I have seen of your stuff, you are around 8 or 9.
Baphomet; Do you grok what the Cs are telling you here? “Seer of the passage indeed!”
Wow, the Cs have given you the big secret and pointed out the main “treasure” to be found at RLC.
I can’t believe what I’m reading! The Cs are giving you the secret! I read this to my partner, Jay, and he freaked. I don’t think anybody but us knows this part of the secret, and to have it being broadcast psychically is a little unnerving. Combined with the alfalfa clues given earlier, you are on top of the wave. I can’t help but wonder if this is for you or for us.
Q: Did the Templars discover the secrets of the Ishmaelis, the Assassini, and is this what they carried into Europe, and then underground?
A: Buried in Galle.
OK, this one made my hair stand on end. Galle is the old word for the region around Glanum and Provence in general. We think we found just what was buried in Glanum, but it older than the Templars.
Q: Has this person also been pursuing the secret?
A: Pour suivant.
OH, boy, the real name of the Order. Whom does the Grail serve? It serves those who follow; for, to follow, is to partake of the nature of the Quest.
Jesus Laura, I can’t begin to keep up with all this stuff you are sending me! I haven’t hit a lick all week on my own work for chewing on yours. But it is so interesting!
As far as I can tell, the Cs are leading you to the same exact conclusions that we have reached. This is spooky. The session about light is plain in terms of the neuro-chemistry involved. I’m just not sure that it is getting through to you, but maybe that’s effect of spreading these clues out over time.
The interested reader may wish to peruse the correspondence for this material. There was a lot more going on in other areas at this exact time. I didn’t realize it but I was like a frog in a pan of water being slowly heated, and Vincent Bridges was one of the tools whether he knew it or not, then or since.
Let’s talk about death now. Sure, I know, nobody wants to talk about death; but I have in mind some very interesting deaths that ought to be talked about for a lot of reasons.
The first death I want to talk about is the apparent suicide of Morris K. Jessup. The problem with Morris Jessup’s suicide is that it was too obvious. He was found in his station wagon in a Dade County Park, Florida, on the evening of April 29, 1959. A hose had been attached to the exhaust pipe of the station wagon and looped into the closed interior. The whole set-up had been accomplished during daylight hours, in a public park. Ever since, researchers have said that Jessup’s death was the price he paid for getting too close to the truth. You see, Jessup’s death is so apparent a suicide, everyone just knew that it was not a suicide. Of course, as a consequence, an entire mythos was born about something called the Philadelphia Experiment having to do with time travel.
There has always been an element of high strangeness to the UFO mystery that has been the subject of endless debates among researchers. Anyone who has seriously begun to delve into such matters, or who has experienced certain manifestations, is aware of the weird guys who dress in black, big-foot-type critters, strange, hooded figures, poltergeist-type events, and crazy electronic glitches in telephones, televisions and radios. Often, the type and level of such experiences can become quite frightening, or at the very least, disorienting. Very often, these effects are trotted out as proof that the UFO phenomenon is nothing other than the product of the spirit realm. Others will suggest that this proves that it is observer-created reality flux.
There are cases where UFOs have appeared in conjunction with all kinds of violent and frightening phenomena, and often, those who experience such things run screaming into the arms of anything that will offer protection – usually religion of one sort or another, drugs, or psychiatry.
Anybody, under the best (or worst) of such circumstances, may come to the idea that there is some bizarre sort of conspiracy directed at them as an individual, and, according to the Cassiopaeans, they won’t be far wrong. As they have said, “nobody is a nobody,” and it is “no trouble at all for such forces to give seemingly individualized attention.” After all, a single, small group of so-called aliens, with mastery over time, could be responsible for all such phenomena. All they would have to do would be to return to the same time over and over again, selecting only a different place and a different individual to harass, and all of the victims, being in time, would have their experiences simultaneously.
In reading cases of abduction, one becomes aware that there are many instances wherein the individual has no missing time, no memory of anything unusual, but has developed something like a phobia and goes to a therapist for help. One case involved a man who suddenly began to experience a serious reaction to a lonely stretch of road he had to travel every day to and from his job. It was a complete mystery to him why he was having panic attacks every time he approached this section of the highway, and he was quite shocked to have a roadside abduction come back to his memory under hypnosis. In other cases, the individual thinks they have experienced a ghostly encounter, or for no apparent reason they have suddenly begun to manifest psychic abilities. (The reader might wish to have a look at Nick Pope’s interesting book The Uninvited for elements of such cases from UK, along with some astute commentary.)
What this means is that anybody could be an abduction victim and they might never suspect it. Additionally, as Jacques Vallee points out, the numbers who do have awareness of an unusual event who do not report it, when extrapolated from those who do report encounters, could run into the multiple millions. And of course, there are still those who want us to believe that this is a government mind-control experiment. Yeah, right!
It is possible, of course, with the electronic technology of the present time, that multiplied millions of people could be – in certain respects – programmed via television, radio, music, video games, and so forth; that their subconscious could be taught a binary-code language of electronic signals that are inaudible to the normal range of hearing; and that they could thereby be constantly picking up signals of some sort that are unpacked in their subconscious mind and emerge into their conscious mind as their own thoughts. We have even studied some specific technology of this type, and it is frightening in its implications. Using a binary code, speeding up the signal, entire books of information can be transmitted in almost no time at all, and the percipient would be certain that they were just “thinking it.” It can even be individually directed with the addition of a personal activation code. In this way, even memories could be introduced into the mind which would be accepted as the person’s own experiences.
So, it is certainly true that human technology could produce a major phenomenon of belief-system modification by simply broadcasting an inaudible signal over the globe, assuming that the recipients know the language and have been involved in activities whereby the code can be subliminally taught.
This does not, of course, address the historical issue of other-worldly beings, and we notice a large effort to distract attention away from those cases, as though there is a program to gradually cover them up and induce belief in the idea that this is an extraterrestrial phenomenon in strictly material terms. We have already mentioned the function of memes as mass-mind viruses introduced by the Matrix in an effort to distract attention away from the true source of the phenomena. In short, all kinds of possibilities exist, even including mass hypnosis via such coded signals. And there are many, many people who prefer such an explanation to that of hyperdimensional realities and mind-marauding, time-traveling critters with B.O. and questionable fashion statements.
I would suggest, of course, that such an explanation, placing the blame on human beings, leaves a lot to be desired since very often the effects of poltergeist-type phenomena can be photographed, leave physical traces, and no one has yet seen the man behind the curtain. I find it hard to believe that the field work of such a conspiracy could be carried out so effectively that no mistakes have been made, and nobody has ever caught any government agents toting Susy Smart out the back door in a state of drug-induced insensibility, nor can any explanation be found for how such a program could operate logistically over such vast areas of space and time without a single leak of insider info. And when people “escape” from mind programming projects, or so they claim, we have to ask why? When we consider the capabilities and ethics of such programmers, the very idea that they would allow such escape and release of “inside info” raises serious questions about its authenticity. Anybody who has read any serious literature on the subject realizes how easy it is to put a period to the existence of a squealer. Karen Silkwood was only ratting on safety in a nuke facility and she conveniently had an accident on a lonely road.
Having said all of that, there does seem to be a major human interface to the matter, with certain agencies or individuals of agencies, acting in strange ways that suggest either they know what they are doing, or they are some sort of robotoid-type of individual who can be activated at will to perform various functions. The so-called Greenbaum Program (see Wave 2) is a case in point. Then, of course, there are cases such as the Cathy O’Brien situation. Did she really escape, or was she allowed to escape? Was her escape designed to emphasize the human elements of the Matrix and distract attention away from the hyperdimensional players? Is her story supposed to suggest that there are glitches in the program that give us an inside view of human mind-control projects that suggest a vast social engineering program?
In September of 1953, Albert K. Bender claimed that he had received certain information that provided the missing pieces for a theory concerning the origin of UFOs. He wrote it all down and sent it to a trusted friend. Shortly after, he received a visit from three men. One of them held the letter he had written in his hand. They told him that he had, indeed, stumbled on the answer, and then they purportedly filled him in on the details. He became so ill he was unable to eat for three days. A couple of other UFO researchers, Dominick Lucchesi and August C. Roberts, tried to persuade Bender to talk. He would only repeat, “I can’t answer that.”
Finally, in 1962, Bender declared that he would tell the story and wrote a book entitled Flying Saucers and the Three Men. It described astral projection to a secret base in Antarctica inhabited by male, female and bisexual creatures. Researchers were perplexed and wondered if the whole thing was just contrived to hide something more sinister. Lucchesi said that Bender was a changed man after the three men had visited him. He said, “it was as if he had been lobotomized.” Bender was obviously frightened, and suffered from extreme headaches whenever he even thought about speaking about his experiences and what the three men had told him. He withdrew completely from UFO research, and went to work managing a hotel, refusing to discuss anything about such matters ever again.
Not too many months after Bender’s silencing, Edgar R. Jarrold, organizer of the Australian Flying Saucer Bureau, and Harold H. Fulton, head of Civilian Saucer Investigation of New Zealand, had received similar visits and disbanded their organizations. While writing a previous chapter, I was informed of a fascinating case where another UFO discussion group was broken up by the arrival on the scene of a psychopathic “contactee” who later involved the leader of the group and several members in a murder.
Broadcaster Frank Edwards, who wrote a best selling book, Flying Saucers, Serious Business, was a highly successful radio host. He was warned to abandon the subject of UFOs, and refused. He was fired. In spite of thousands of letters in protest of his dismissal, his ex-sponsor, the American Federation of Labor, stood firm. George Meany, then president of the AFL said Edwards had been dropped, “Because he talked too much about flying saucers!” It was later suggested that the Defense Department had put pressure on the AFL.
Edwards was only temporarily silenced. He soon had a syndicated show that dealt almost exclusively with UFOs and related phenomena. Shortly after, the news of the sudden death of Frank Edwards on the anniversary of the Kenneth Arnold UFO sighting near Mt. Rainier, Washington was announced. Some people claimed that Edwards had been ill, was overweight, and so forth. Those closest to him said he had never been ill. The obituary said that death was apparently due to a heart attack, and we wonder how many other researchers have died of an apparent problem that had never before been apparent?
This brings us back to the problem of Morris Jessup’s apparent suicide. One of the most pervasive UFO–human conspiracy stories is that of the Philadelphia Experiment which explicates that, in 1943, the U.S. Navy secretly accomplished the teleportation of a warship from Philadelphia to a dock near Norfolk by successfully applying Einstein’s Unified Field Theory.
The story tells us that the experiment began in an attempt to develop radar invisibility, but something unexpected happened: the ship became invisible, and when it returned, several of the crewmen burst into flames, and others had portions of their bodies melded into the steel structures of the ship. Of those who survived, most of them spent the rest of their lives in psychiatric hospitals. That’s handy. I had a guy kidnap me when I was four years old who was conveniently shielded in a Navy psychiatric hospital. Any connection? Possibly.
The Navy denies the reality of the Philadelphia Experiment, but the rumors persist – and they are very powerful rumors. Researchers continue to hear accounts from eyewitnesses or purported family members of those who died or went insane. I was even told a story about the Philadelphia Experiment by my ex-husband who swore he had heard it from a guy in Key West when he was young. And this was long before I ever knew anything about the mythos of the Philadelphia Experiment proper!
It was the death of Morris Jessup that gave credibility to the rumors of the Philadelphia Experiment. In fact, the details of the experiment all began with the series of letters Jessup was purported to have received from a Carlos Allende. When you try to track the story back to its beginnings, you discover that even the story about the purported annotated copy of Jessup’s book emerged only after his death, as a rumor in Washington social circles. The fact that Allende mentioned sodium pentothal in his letters is quite telling. That he was aware of the existence of sodium pentothal at that early date suggests that he was aware of mind-control research being conducted by the Navy during the war, which suggests that he was a victim, or a handler of such projects.
Gray Barker, editor of The Saucerian Bulletin, loved a good mystery. He was author of They Knew Too Much About Flying Saucers and The Silver Bridge. Barker had become involved in UFOlogy around 1950 when a strange creature with glowing eyes appeared in front of several eyewitnesses, floating about the ground, and giving off a terrible odor. Barker later discovered that there were physical marks in the nearby soil, and became convinced that an alien craft had landed in rural Flatwoods, West Virginia.
Barker tells us that his first contact with Morris Jessup was when he received a letter from him on November 5, 1954. Barker had sent Jessup a copy of his magazine, The Saucerian. This was just shortly before Jessup’s first book was published. We discover from Jessup’s letter that Barker was apprised of his existence and work by John Bessor who was, apparently, a subscriber to the magazine. Jessup wrote:
Yes, I’m doing a book. It is far along in the final draft stages, and we are hoping to get it in the hands of the publishers sometime next week. It is rather conservative as compared to some of the wild things so far printed, but I have tried to keep it factual, and have confined it to phenomena in the pre-Arnold era – particularly around 1875-1885. Altogether it makes quite a formidable array of proof and background.
Gray Barker describes Jessup as “a most cordial person, and greatly enthusiastic about finding some solution to the UFO mystery – though he indicated that in his professional writing he felt it necessary to take a more conservative approach. This conservative, scientific attitude, demonstrated in his first two books, may have been the reason that his writings were not popular with many saucer ‘fans.’”
Jessup wrote to Barker on December 16, 1954:
There is so damned much nonsense being put out by silly people that one gets disgusted with a lot of it. I do feel that we are in a remarkable phase of human experience and that the waters should not be muddied by stupidity – the problem is tough enough without any Adamski’s in the picture.
And then on December 20th, along with two articles he sent to Barker, Jessup wrote:
The Mexican craters are real – I found them myself, and I’ve seen the air force negatives. … The extension of the motive-power theme to include some jolts to religion are rather obvious. This space race COULD be our GOD. They COULD have left the Earth millennia ago. Our book will hint at how Sun-worship may be connected with the space denizens.
I read your report regarding Albert K. Bender with great interest. Looks like SOMETHING did happen. He probably did stumble onto the truth. I will be glad of any additional information you may uncover.
In my humble opinion, you are absolutely correct in your thought that the power source is the key to the whole UFO deal. I am convinced of it from my own introspection and reading.
Jessup’s reference to Bender was made before Bender told his story. Jessup’s little book The UFO and the Bible did not sell well and is now out of print. It was originally part of his book The Expanding Case for the UFO, but the publisher rejected that section. Jessup himself did not complete the final drafts for his books, such as UFO Annual. His agent simply took files of clippings and organized them into book form. A short story from a magazine happened to be among the clippings, and the agent included it as fact, resulting in Jessup’s critics pointing this out to discredit him.
From the beginning of his research, Jessup evidently thought that UFOs were propelled by antigravity applications. Regarding the early developments of the factors that contributed to the emergence of the myth of the Philadelphia Experiment, Gray Barker tells us:
According to Riley Crabb, the annotated copy [of Jessup’s book] was addressed to Admiral N. Furth, Chief, Office of Naval Research, Washington 25, D.C., and was mailed in a manila envelope postmarked Seminole, Texas, 1955. In July or August of that year the book appeared in the incoming correspondence of Major Darrell L. Ritter, U.S.M.C., Aeronautical Project Office in ONR. When Captain Sidney Sherby reported aboard at ONR he obtained the book from Major Ritter, Captain Sherby and Commander George W. Hoover, Special Projects Officer, ONR, indicated interest in some of the notations the book contained.
I first learned of the annotated copy when I was talking to Mrs. Walton Colcord John, director of the Little Listening Post, a UFO and New Age Publication in Washington. Speaking over the telephone, Mrs. John told me of a strange rumor going around to the effect that somebody had sent a marked-up copy to Washington, and that the government had gone to the expense of mimeographing the entire book, so that all the underlinings and notations could be added to the original text. This was being circulated rather widely, she told me, through military channels.
She had not, of course, seen a copy of it, and didn’t know too much about it, but somehow she seemed to connect it with an alleged Naval experiment wherein a ship had completely disappeared from sight. I couldn’t make too much out of all this until later I also heard about the strange Allende Letters, which told of such an experiment in a most horrifying way.
The publication of the mimeographed edition is established, but I have been unable to confirm whether or not it was actually paid for by the government. It is established that the Varo Manufacturing Company, of Garland, Texas, actually produced the mimeographed edition. I have been unable to find out much about this company, except that it has been said that it engaged in “secret government work.”
Apparently, Mr. Crabb in some way came into possession of a copy. … In his correspondence with me of September 24, 1962, Crabb clears up the mystery of how he happened to obtain a copy of the original Varo edition. It was the copy that the Navy originally gave to Jessup, and apparently was given to Crabb by Jessup. This copy, however, rather mysteriously disappeared in April, 1960, when Crabb mailed it to himself from Washington, and apparently he no longer possesses any copy at all.
Crabb tells us: I understand that 25 copies were reproduced … Michael Ann Dunn, the stenographer who did the editing, explains why in the introduction. She’s married now, living in Dallas, and won’t answer her phone. … Varo, by the way, is a small manufacturing firm in electronics and up to its neck in space age business. Apparently it has succeeded in developing some kind of a death ray gadget, judging from a guarded press release of last fall when a group of Congressmen visited there for a demonstration.
Now, first of all, we notice that Gray Barker is apprised of the existence of the book via a rumor that is supposed to be coming down from military circles. Jessup never told him about it, and apparently, it was only after Jessup’s death that the rumor began to be circulated. We notice that Riley Crabb claims to have had a copy – that this copy was the one the Navy gave to Jessup – but conveniently, it has disappeared in a weird mailing exercise.
Ivan Sanderson had been a close friend of Morris Jessup, and Barker tried to get some information from him when he ran into him in New York sometime later. He tells us that Ivan would not discuss the suicide at all, but he was more than willing to talk about the Varo edition of Jessup’s book. Barker asked Sanderson why Jessup had never publicized the matter of Allende and the annotated book. (It seems that the only evidence we even have for this story is hearsay after Jessup’s death!) Sanderson apparently told Barker that Jessup was “just dumbfounded” to be called to Annapolis and shown the annotated edition.
The story from Ivan is that six months before his death, Jessup had visited him bringing along the annotated edition of his book that had come from the Navy. Ivan claimed that, during the course of the evening, Jessup had requested Ivan to bring three other persons (never identified) into Sanderson’s private office where Jessup showed them the Varo edition, to which he had added his own notes. He asked them to read it and then lock it up in a safe place “in case something should happen to me.” Sanderson never said what the notes were, remarking only that “after having read this material, all of us developed a collective feeling of a most unpleasant nature. And this was horribly confirmed when Jessup was found dead in his car.”
What happened to this annotated copy? Sanderson told Gray Barker that it was left in his keeping. Sanderson is dead now, and no one has ever located such a copy in his effects. Yet Riley Crabb also claimed to have been the recipient of Jessup’s very own annotated copy.
I smell a rat.
In the years following Jessup’s “suicide,” almost everyone in the UFO field had forgotten him. During his life, Jessup was not a best-selling author. He was mentioned in Charles Berlitz’s book Without a Trace, and this revived a bit of interest. As a result of this book, Gray Barker received a phone call from a woman in Miami who had the idea that Jessup did not commit suicide. He sent her a copy of the annotated edition which he had acquired by then (as have a lot of other people, though I am not sure how anybody can assume that it is authentic!) along with The Strange Case of Dr. M.K. Jessup. This woman, Ann Genzlinger, became obsessed with the matter, and undertook to investigate. Surprisingly, she found “doors eagerly opened for her” and the utmost in cooperation by both the staff and Examiner of the Medical Examiner’s office in Dade County. Ordinarily, medical records aren’t available to the public, yet she was allowed complete access to them, and was permitted to voice copy them onto tape. Strangely, after ten years, when the records should have already been moved to storage, they were right there in the “current section.”
The Medical Examiner himself seemed to be interested in Jessup’s death since he had written to Barker inquiring if he knew of any instances of the use of hallucinogenic drugs as techniques in UFO investigations. This convinced Barker that the examiner might have thought that Jessup had been made to commit suicide.
As it happened, no autopsy had been performed. The body had been donated to the University of Miami School of Medicine, which was in violation of the Florida State Code that lists instances in which autopsies are mandated. Apparently, even if the examiner was “interested,” he wasn’t interested enough to obey the law and perform an autopsy.
The homicide officer who investigated the death, Sgt. Obenchain, commented:
The job was too professional. And I’ve been on homicide a long time and I feel I can make such a judgment. For example, the ordinary suicide by monoxide poisoning doesn’t take the time to wet down all the articles of clothing and to stuff them in the back window to make it more airtight. Most suicides use an ordinary garden hose. But the hose used in Jessup’s car was larger in diameter, and similar to one on a washing machine. It was not just shoved into the car’s exhaust pipe. It was wired on. And all this had been done in broad daylight, just off a well-traveled road, at the height of the rush hour when traffic was leaving the park. The water could hardly have been applied to the rags at the scene, or some second party had removed the evidence. The closest body of water was 200 yards away. There were no containers for carrying water to the car. Jessup’s clothes were not wet, yet the rags used for stuffing the window were saturated with water.
While the police were trying to revive Jessup, a Dr. Harry Reed just strolled into the park, though it was after closing time, examined Jessup, and pronounced him dead. There was no Dr. Reed in the Miami telephone book, and none listed in the state licensing records.
Jessup’s wife, Rubye, refused to view the body because she was so certain that her husband would not have committed suicide. Homicide Sgt. Obenchain’s wife stayed with Rubye for three days after the death, and during this time Rubye told her about unusual telephone calls Jessup had been receiving right before his death. She said that these calls upset him, though he would not tell her what they were about. If Jessup was out and she answered the phone, the caller would hang up. The calls ceased immediately upon the death of Jessup. After three days of repeating over and over again that it was not her husband, suddenly Rubye Jessup asked Mrs. Obenchain to leave, stating that she no longer wanted to talk about the matter.
The person who did, eventually, identify Jessup’s body was a fellow named Leon A. Seoul who claimed to be a friend of the family. Unfortunately, none of the family ever heard of him.
So, what do we have? We have someone who purportedly sent some weird letters to Morris Jessup, about which he was reportedly curious, but not terribly excited. All the impressions that are attributed to Jessup regarding these letters are from hearsay, after his death. We have a story about the Varo edition of his book, that only emerged as a rumor after his death. The rumor was claimed to be from military circles, as though this would give it credibility. The only people who seem to claim any inside info are Riley Crabb and Ivan Sanderson, both of whom claimed to have been in possession of the copy given to Jessup, on which he had made notes of his own. But this copy disappeared, and somehow, there are copies circulated from somewhere because I have two of them. The end result is that, due to this series of rumors, which seem so obviously concocted after Jessup was no longer alive to refute any of it, we have people declaring that Jessup was silenced because he was on the verge of proving that the Philadelphia Experiment really did take place exactly as Carlos Allende described it!
Every detail and element of the Allende story, the Varo edition of Jessup’s book, and the purported strange events preceding his death just reeks of manipulation; all of it propagated after he was no longer present to deny any part of the story. After looking into the matter carefully, one gets the strange impression that a dead man was used to create a myth. Or at least, the “right” version of the story – the version that the powers-that-be want everyone to believe. At the center of the myth we find Ivan Sanderson and Riley Crabb, who seem to be responsible for spreading the whole story. Later, as a most telling coincidence, a longtime associate of Sanderson, Al Bielek, comes along and breathes new life into the story by creating “Montauk,” followed by Phil Schneider, and others.
We come back again to the death of Jessup: a suicide that was so obviously set up to look like suicide, that everyone knows it was murder by persons or agencies unknown. Ann Genzlinger concluded: “I was motivated by a strong feeling that Dr. Jessup did not take his own life. But after my long investigation, I have concluded that he did – but not while in possession of his faculties. He was under some sort of control.”
That, of course, does not explain the problem of the wet rags stuffed in the back window of the station wagon.
Nevertheless, the result of all of this is that the Philadelphia Experiment, as explicated by the Carlos Allende letters, and the story about the Varo edition of Jessup’s book, is now firmly ensconced as fact in the minds of many people.
On January 17, 1996, Phil Schneider was found dead in his apartment. He had been dead for about a week. After a lot of fooling around by the medical examiner, it was decided that Phil had committed suicide by strangling himself with a rubber hose of the medical type. Yeah, right!
Phil was a well-known speaker on the patriot and UFO lecture circuit. His main shtick was underground base activities. As a geologist, he claimed to have been involved in the construction of secret government bases, including Area 51 and the base at Dulce, New Mexico. As it happened, for two years before his death, Phil had stated in his lectures that there were constant attempts being made on his life. These attempts were described as staged accidents, running gunfights, loosened lug nuts on his vehicle and so forth. Phil further claimed that his father was a German U-boat captain who had been captured by the Allies and inducted into the U.S. Navy under the CIA’s Operation Paperclip program in which Nazis were given new identities and became U.S. citizens.
Loosened lug nuts?
I read that part to my kids – movie buffs all – and they looked at each other, then at me and said, “Yeah, right! The Secret Government according to Homer Simpson.” The reader may wish to read Alexandra Bruce’s well-researched book The Philadelphia Experiment Murder, for the many confusing details of Schneider’s background and claims that were brought to light which cast doubt on his stories, but still raise confusing issues.
In the end, the question is: was Phil Schneider a crank who took his own life because of paranoid hallucinations, or was he murdered by agents of the government for giving out classified information? Was he murdered to shut him up? Or, could there be another reason: the same reason Morris Jessup was murdered? Were they both murdered to give credibility to stories that were, in fact, false?
Phil’s death is seen by conspiracy buffs as proof that what he was saying was true. In the same way, Jessup’s death is seen as proof that the claims of Carlos Allende about the Philadelphia Experiment are true. And in both cases, what seems to be an obvious murder poorly disguised as a suicide is the common factor of conviction that persuades the many believers in the stories surrounding the two figures.
The problem is that we all know that those boys in Black Ops can do better than that when they want to! If they want a death to look perfectly natural, if they want to just shut you up, you can be sure that they can do it. By the same token, if they want a death to look like a murder disguised as a suicide, they can do that, too. It is patently absurd for Schneider to have announced on numerous occasions that the secret government had made over a dozen attempts on his life. Such agencies do not make “attempts” on a person’s life. They do the deed, and it looks exactly the way they want it to look. Don’t delude yourself by thinking otherwise. There are occasional leaks and embarrassing stories about such agencies, but I can just about guaran-damn-tee that they are planned. Nothing like creating a reputation for being a bumbling bunch to cover up the fact that, at the deepest levels, very little bumbling takes place.
What this means is that the deaths of Jessup and Schneider were very likely engineered for the express purpose of promoting disinformation to inspire belief in something connected to them either after their death, or promoted by them before their death. And if that is the case, then we have to seriously suspect the stories that are propagated in connection with their deaths, and assume that they may be disinformation.
There is another interesting death of recent times: Stefan Marinov. Marinov was a colleague of Ark’s with whom he had corresponded on a number of occasions. Around the time that Ark learned of the flood in Poland described in a previous chapter, apparently Stefan was jumping off a fire escape in Graz, Austria. As it happens, Stefan was a political and scientific dissident. He did, indeed, have a history of protest against suppression of truth and the Scientific Thought Police. He did have a history that would suggest that suicide was not unbelievable in his case. His friend and colleague, Panos Pappas wrote:
I knew Stefan Marinov over 20 years. He used to say I am his oldest scientific co-fighter and fellow friend. Stefan was with me in Athens repeating his last experiments, just 15 days before he died. At that time, nothing could make me suspect his early death, two weeks later.
Adopting the Police explanation that Dr Stefan Marinov killed himself, on July 15, 1997, jumping from the University of Graz Bibliotheque (Library) building, I would like to ask: Why there was no official press or news release?
I was the first to inform his son, Marin Marinov two weeks later, on 31/7/1997 in Sophia for the death of his father who asked me a similar question. “Why the police still did not inform me, for two weeks, after the death of my father?”
Stefan Marinov was known all over the world, half of the citizens of city of Graz knew him. Stefan Marinov’s death, jumping off a public building, should have been the first news for the city of Graz, for half the people there will now look for Stefan and many more from all over the world. Is it true that there is no press release in this case for the city of Graz? Does it look like a cover up? Even, Mr Deisting who first informed us, found out accidentally about Stefan’s death from the librarian on 25/7/1997.
Stefan had attempted unsuccessfully to kill himself in the past, in Paris, in an attempt to make a protest against scientific censorship and the indifference of the scientific community.
Assuming that Stefan had chosen for himself, a public building, as the Library of the University of Graz, instead of his own high elevated balcony, apparently he did so for the same protest, however, not particularly for the University of Graz. He did so to protest against all universities and position-occupying, indifferent-for-the-truth scientists and salary receiving professors.
The authorities of the University, knowing Stefan and his continuous efforts to answer unanswered scientific questions for the last 20 years, apparently managed to cancel an annoying press conference or press release by the police, which they thought would have caused students all over the world to ask more questions which their Professors could not answer and Editors would not publish, like the lists of questions and problems Stefan used to send and never got an answer – other than the typical “Professor’s” answer: “I am not a Specialist”, “Do not get me involved”, “I have no time … ”, quoting only the most recent responses to his questions, just one month before his Last Protest.
Whoever controls knowledge for humanity and tries to stop human evolution by confusing the masses and public media should know that whatever they call Stefan Marinov’s death – suicide or killing, they committed another killing for Stefan Marinov killed himself, in order to protest against the control of scientific knowledge.
Just before the end of the last century the authority of the USA patent office issued a direction: “No more patents on electromagnetism will be accepted, for whatever is to be invented in electromagnetism, has already been invented!”.
At the dawn of the airplane revolution, scientific authorities, like the Academy of Science in France or the Royal Society with Lord Kelvin made the aphorism: “Machines heavier than air may not fly!”, presumably based on mathematical proofs!
At the last part of our century for ten years (decade of 1970), scientific institutions and public media were making repetitively clear via all means: “We are facing a disaster, petroleum is coming to an end before the year 2000!” Now, they say “conservation of energy” is perfect!, even they cannot prove this “conservation” better than the degree of error present day technology introduces – at least 1 ppm masking error, remaining in all experiments, which is huge for planetary and astronomical scale. Instead, they want to say: Energy was violated only once in the past, at the beginning, only at the “Big Bang”, and that this conservation will never be violated again in the future by all means! (not to allow humans to step to the next scientific evolution). They say the “Perpetual Mobile” is not possible, only a crazy scientist may attempt it, even, they have no scientific proof for its nonexistence, only the assumption that it has not yet been invented. This attitude is not science!
Apparently the sense and politics, for the next step of civilization is coming, dictates these actions in order to stop or delay scientific evolution.
However, it was the Teslas, the Wrights, the Marinovs who did not listen to these politics, and science advances despite the intentionally spread confusion.
Stefan spent a big portion of his life to fight confusion and misinformation in Physics. Theories reducing the Physics of experiments into the Physics of gendaken utopia, such as the relativity theory with observers moving with constant velocity (non-existing). Stefan, however, soon realized it was a waste of his time fighting a dead horse and the politics behind the Physics.
Stefan Marinov was also a strong believer in the non-conservation of energy as the underlying principle of the universe, creation, and life. Soon, the big passion and mission of his life became to prove the non-conservation of energy and to offer it to humanity, as a mechanism of supplying abundant energy for every one, terminating third world starvation and poverty below all elementary living standards and elevating humanity to its next due stage. Stefan Marinov considered, during the last fifteen years of his life, the construction of a self-sustaining energy producing device, the so called “Perpetual Mobile”, as the only mission of his life given to him and purpose of living.
When the noble man (correctly or wrongly) believed could not accomplish this last mission of his life, decided to offer his life against his first noble goal, fighting misinformation, censorship and deliberately spread confusion in Physics. He decided his Last Protest.
Stefan you may not have been able (and you would not be able) with your short resources to give us an effective Perpetual Mobile, producing energy out of nothing and sustaining itself, however, you left us many principles and knowledge. You were unable because of another non-conservation Perpetuum that has long been discovered outside the world of Physics and is in operation in human society – the Perpetual Money Machine, producing (issuing and printing) money out of nothing and sustaining itself.
For as long as the second Perpetuum (even unknown to many, but very well known to a few) is in existence, the first is not allowed to exist. For the big truth is (without entering into details for the effective mechanisms): The one Perpetuum excludes and will exclude the other Perpetuum, … and yours, Stefan, really happens to be the second.
Stefan you left us, though you could work, dig into forgotten and forbidden research, and produce more. However, you considered your Last Protest more important. Be sure, we do not listen, too, to politics and economics. It is only a matter of time. Your example will give more energy to us. It was the best Perpetual Mobile you made – that of energy and knowledge.
Sincerely,
Professor P. T. Pappas
Markopulioti 28, Athens 11744, Greece.
e-mail pappasp@ibm.net
However, there was one tiny little glitch in what might have been a perfect suicide. Panos was so distressed about this sudden “suicide” of his friend, colleague and current research partner, that he went personally to investigate and wrote the following email. Look for the very startling feature that Professor Pappas mentions.
Update on Stefan Marinov’s death .
On 18 to 20 of August, I and Dr. Paul LaViolette visited the city of Graz to investigate the accident.
We visited the University of Graz at the back of the Bibliotheque at Universitatsplatz 2, A 8010-Graz, where Stefan Marinov presumably jumped off from the top of the four level outside emergency staircase to the street. According to the librarian only one student show [sic] Stefan actually jumping off. The name of the student is not known to us. The body of Stefan was found lying on the street below the staircase by Professor Ernst Ebermann. Stefan was not bleeding and initially Professor Ebermann thought he was sleeping there. He was still alive. Stefan left no cry or cries. The ambulance was called and Stefan died on his way to the Hospital. The bicycle with which Stefan presumably arrived there, is still there, locked and unnoticed (at least up to 19/9/1997). No body else noticed the accident, except first the assumed student and later Professor Ebermann, and perhaps a few other people later.
According to Professor Ebermann, a brightly visible fluorescent spot, about the same size and in the same exact position with the body, was left on the asphalt of the street, for 3 days, after the removal of the body, without an apparent cause for the spot, or without being due to any bleeding of blood or another liquid coming from Stefan’s body.
The Police has made no official announcement today. Apparently, they did not investigate the case obviously in depth, since the bike is still by the place of accident, locked and unnoticed. The apartment of Stefan is sealed by the police and nobody is allowed to enter, except for his son Marin Marinov who entered for a brief time on 6 or 7 of August 1997. His belongings were not allowed to be taken and are still sealed there.
Stefan left various letters typed over his typewriter and bearing his signature. In a particular letter, he was asking me to be notified immediately and a few others. The police never made the notification to anybody.
The authorities of Graz refuse any value for the letters and to his last will, for it bears only one signature without witnesses. The case of Stefan Marinov and his letters were given to the city Advocate: Dr Egbert Sprenger, Joanneuming 11, A-8010 Graz.
In the morning of 19/8/1997, we, together with Mr. Jeorg Deisting visited the offices of the city advocate Dr E. Sprenger. The said case and letters were there, but, we were refused of any information. We strongly protested against the refusal, but, eventually, we had to leave without getting any information.
The son of Stefan Marinov, Marin Marinov is currently Deputy Minister of Industry of Bulgaria and is in a delicate situation with respect to the death of his father.
No one knew or was told about the intended and assumed suicide of Stefan Marinov, even his brother who talked to him on the phone one hour before Stefan’s death. Stefan had visited his son in Bulgaria 20 days before, myself in Athens 15 days before, had written a letter to me 3 days before, and had written letters to various other people, making appointments or suggesting various future collaborations (to Professor Selleri for example). 10 days before Stefan’s death, Stefan had made a Hotel reservation for me and himself for an International Physics Conference to take place in Koln, Germany, on August 25, 1997.
Professor P. T. Pappas
Markopulioti 28, Athens 11744, Greece.
e-mail pappasp@ibm.net
When I read the above description of what Professor Pappas had discovered in his personal investigation of the death of his friend and colleague, the mention of the fluorescent spot on the sidewalk literally made my hair stand up. I immediately thought of a very strange remark made by an abductee under hypnosis:
A: Umm … You know, that’s funny! I don’t remember getting out of the truck! I see us getting out of the truck … For some reason … I see the lights of the truck on … I see something over the top of the truck … I see a flash of light … I see us getting out of the truck … I see us walking in the woods.
Q: Where are you going in the woods?
A: I don’t want to go in there. Um … I see almost like I’m fighting … like fighting going or something … I’m afraid …
Q: Take a deep breath, let’s go deeper … begin to describe what happened. You said you are fighting and resisting …
A: Um-hmm …
Q: What are you fighting? Who are you fighting?
A: No, I don’t … I … It’s like I’m … nobody’s around me but we’re all three like walking into the woods … I’m afraid … I don’t want to go … there’s like a fear somewhere … It’s like I know there’s something there …
Q: OK, what happens next?
A: It’s like I fall … I’m asleep …
Q: OK, well the subconscious mind continues to record even when you are asleep … What happens next?
A: I’m being carried …
Q: By who or what?
A: Umm … I see this large hairy thing with huge hands …
Q: OK. Where is it taking you?
A: It’s taking us to a place … I don’t know how we get there … I don’t know how we get there … but I see this place, and I see … what I see is a cave-like thing but I see at the top of the cave are these yellow lights …
Q: Yellow lights?
A: Big yellow lights … its almost like, um, not bright lights … like covered yellow lights … like, huge … as big as, um … like small swimming pools … they’re big … and they are up in the ceiling … and they’re yellow …
Q: Up in the ceiling and they’re yellow?
A: Yeah, they’re in the cave … boy! this is a strange place!
Q: OK. Describe everything. What do you see?
A: Um, I’m just going to tell you what I see … this is strange … I see a cart … almost like a little golf cart …
Q: What is the cart doing?
A: Um … I see it there … I almost see us, um … this is like a conveyor belt-type thing … It’s almost like we’re put on a silver disk, or like a silver stretcher-type thing …
Q: What happens next and what do you see around you?
A: Umm … I see myself on a table … [signs of distress]
Q: What’s the matter?
A: I see this face I don’t like.
Q: What face don’t you like?
A: Umm …
Q: Describe the face …
A: Let me see it … can’t see it … it flashed and then I can’t see it …
Q: What feeling do you get from those faces?
A: I don’t like them … they are angry …
Q: Why are they angry …
A: ’Cause somebody’s snooping around.
Q: Who’s snooping around?
A: They’re mad about the hypnosis.
Q: Which hypnosis?
A: The one you did before.
Q: OK. What do they propose to do about it? How did they find out about it?
A: They know everything.
Q: OK. What do they propose to do about it?
A: Change things.
Q: What are they going to change and how?
A: It’s almost like I’m hearing them say that, um, change the programming.
Q: Whose programming are they going to change?
A: I guess, mine.
Q: OK, what happens next.
A: Too intense, too fast. Knew something like this was gonna happen … then I hear them say that they’re behind schedule … running out of time …
Q: Can you tell what they are behind schedule for and what they are running out of time for?
A: Umm … It’s funny, I hear them saying that the cleansing time is almost here … something like that …
Q: Why don’t you like them?
A: They scare me.
Q: Why do they scare you?
A: Umm … [distress]
Q: What do you see?
A: It’s almost like they’re pinching me …
Q: Where are they pinching you …
A: My arm …
Q: What are they doing to your arm?
A: Like they are running a tube up my arm … like at the crease of my arm they’re running a tube … into my arm.
Q: Alright, now what are they doing?
A: I don’t know what the hell they’re doing with my arm … Umm … what was that?
Q: What was it?
A: I see a flash …
Q: And then what?
A: I don’t know, it’s really hard to see …
Q: What color flash? Just a flash of light?
A: Like a green light or something.
Q: Now what … what do you feel … what do you sense … ?
A: I feel like they’re putting stuff in my veins …
Q: And what is this stuff doing to you?
A: Changing me …
Q: How is it changing you?
A: I don’t know … its funny … its almost like they’re putting something in my blood … something that glows …
The hypnosis session above was conducted in August of 1994, three years before Marinov’s death. The remark about something that glowed being introduced into the subject’s arm had stuck in my mind as an extremely curious detail for which I had no explanation. I tried to contact several other people who were working with abductees to inquire about it, but no one seemed to have the slightest idea what it could mean.
When Professor Pappas wrote about the glowing spot on the pavement where Stefan Marinov’s body had fallen, I wondered if there was any connection. Pappas was an academic, not interested in UFOs or aliens or the paranormal. He had no evident agenda in these areas to promote. In November of 1997, we discussed the matter with the Cs. One thing we first wanted to know was if Stefan was really dead, or had the whole scenario been faked.
November 15, 1997
Q: (A) Alright, I would like to know something about the death of this guy, Marinov. Is Marinov dead?
A: Yes.
Q: Did he commit suicide?
A: No.
Q: Was he physically pushed from the fire escape?
A: He was a victim of highly sophisticated post hypnotic suggestion/mind control.
Q: Who was responsible for installing the post hypnotic suggestion?
A: Chain of Command.
Q: OK, the STS chain of command. In human terms, who was involved?
A: M1.
Q: What’s M1?
A: British Intelligence.
Q: (A) What was the main reason for his death?
A: Revelations too “sensitive,” would cause “instabilities.”
Q: Instabilities in what?
A: Power structure/control.
Q: What kind of revelation?
A: Theoretical physics.
Q: In what specific area?
A: “Unified Field Theory.”
Q: (A) I am not aware that he was working in this direction. He was more experimental than theoretical, but he was collaborating with other guys. In particular, I would like to know if this Pappas knows the same as Marinov did?
A: Not completely, or he would be dead, too.
Q: (T) What was this guy’s breakthrough in Unified Field Theory? I know they are not gonna tell us, but maybe they can point us in the right direction. (L) Well, they put that in quotes, so I don’t know …
A: Merger.
Q: (A) I want to know if it is safe for me to contact this Pappas and ask questions?
A: Up to a point. Better to use faculties you possess for your own discoveries.
Q: (T) Did the gentleman who just passed away learn something about the merging of Unified Field Theories? (L) Or merging of factors …
A: The problem is that these scientists are often too eager to share and reveal. Remember: it is most difficult to win a Nobel Prize when one’s residence is a tomb.
Q: Is it true that there was a luminous spot on the pavement where Marinov died?
A: Yes.
Q: Why?
A: Residue of substance used in mind control procedure.
Q: What was this substance? And what was it used for?
A: Phosphorescent Sulphate Ammonia Chloride. Ammonium Chloride with correct formulation, can be injected intravascularly in order to induce a state of super-suggestibility when utilized in conjunction with pre-existant hypnotic programming.
Q: Alright, a subject I hypnotized some years ago described being abducted, taken to an underground facility nearby, and having some sort of glowing green fluid introduced intravenously. Was this a similar substance?
A: Close.
Q: I think that I remember something similar being described by Karla Turner.
A: Obviously, the residual on the sidewalk was there as a result of blunt trauma to the skull.
Q: He jumped because of the programming and the blunt trauma was the result of his head hitting the sidewalk …
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Are these ideas, the programming that is carried on this way that is described here, that was described by Laura’s subject, that is described in the Karla Turner book, and that is making something of a stir in other arenas, is this within the realm of the military abduction scenario, or covert operation abductions. Are these all related to human abductors rather than alien?
A: Yes, to some extent.
Q: Yes, well S** described her abductors as being military guys and not aliens … (T) Yes, and she was taken out there by Anclote to the little base …
A: No coincidence, the former Stauffer Chemical plant nearby!
Q: (A) There was another guy who was in contact with both Marinov and Pappas, and with whom I was also in contact; his name is Assis, does he know essentially the same as Marinov?
A: Close.
Q: (A) The guy whose book we have, Graneau, it seems to me that he knows more than any of them?
A: Ask specifics.
Q: (A) Does Graneau know the details of the Unified Field Theory that is hidden from the rest of us?
A: More …
Q: He knows more … Why don’t you guys just quit messing around and give us the UFT?
A: No. Because, then somebody would kill you.
Q: Alright, then, I don’t want to know! Sorry I asked!
A: You will discover on your own, when you are ready.
The difference – or similarities – between Marinov’s death and the death of Morris Jessup, or even Phil Schneider, have to be carefully considered. In the case of the former two, they were actually working on very similar subjects. Jessup and Marinov were both interested in sources of free energy, and they were both talking about things in ways that drew attention to certain ideas that, apparently, are very dangerous to consider. The case of Schneider is more difficult. His “murder” seems to be set up to discredit him in general, or to confirm the Montauk mythos.
But what about this “M1?” Well, have a look at another curious excerpt from the Cs:
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) When I was kidnapped at the age of 3 or 4 in Jacksonville, how many days was I missing? My mother simply has a blank about it, which amazes her.
A: 12 days.
Q: (L) Who was it that kidnapped me?
A: Jan. […] Corps member. […] Select division of economic legion under control of G5. […] Intel.
Q: (L) What was the purpose of this kidnapping?
A: To install self-destruct programming.
Morris Jessup’s death can be directly connected to ideas about UFT. “Carlos Allende” begins his initial letter by jumping on Jessup for requesting the public to demand research into UFT. The letter was received on January 13, 1956, with the return address: RD #1, Box 223, New Kensington, Pennsylvania, but which was postmarked Gainesville, Texas:
My Dear Dr. Jessup,
Your invocation to the Public that they move en Masse upon their Representatives and have thusly enough Pressure placed at the right & sufficient Number of Places where from a Law demanding Research into Dr. Albert Einstein’s Unified Field Theory May be enacted (1925-27) is Not at all Necessary. It May Interest you to know that The Good Doctor Was Not so Much influenced in his retraction of the Work, by Mathematics, as he most assuredly was by Humantics.
These claims about Albert Einstein’s UFT were made by Carlos Allende exactly 8 months after the death of Albert Einstein on April 18, 1955 at 1:15 a.m. Not only was Morris Jessup not alive when claims were made about what he was up to, Einstein was similarly conveniently dead.
As it happens, the UFT that Einstein developed in 1925–27 was the wrong one. It was the first “homemade UFT” and, at the time, Einstein publicly expressed optimism that UFT would soon be solved. Einstein realized soon after the publication of the 1925 paper that the results were not impressive. This has been repeatedly checked, and is a mathematical fact, contrary to the assertion of Carlos Allende.
Einstein continued to hammer away at the problem, corresponding with friends and colleagues about his ideas, so there is no lack of source material about his thinking, his efforts, his frustrations. Of course, these papers were not published until long after the propagation of the Allende letters. In his paper of 1927, Einstein wrote that the Weyl, Eddington, Einstein road “does not bring us closer to truth.” He then returned to consideration of the Kaluza theory, only he discovered that his own work was identical to that of Klein, and Klein did it first.
In 1928, the New York Times carried a story headlined: “Einstein on verge of great discovery; resents intrusion,” followed by another: “Einstein reticent on new work; will not ‘count unlaid eggs.’” These stories erroneously state that Einstein was preparing a book on a new theory. In fact, as his correspondence shows, and his colleagues confirmed, he was at work on a short paper trying out a new version of UFT by means of distant parallelism. At the time, Einstein’s name was as magical as a rock star is today and considering the impending stock market crash, it is very likely that these were merely distractions for the public.
Einstein’s friend Eddington wrote to him saying, “You may be amused to hear that one of our great department stores in London has posted on its window your paper (the six pages pasted up side by side), so that passersby can read it all through. Large crowds gather around to read it!” So great was the public clamor for a hero that Einstein had to go into hiding. As it turned out, it was much ado about almost nothing. His attempt to derive his equations from a variational principle had to be withdrawn.
But, in 1929, Einstein was again sure he was on the right track. Wolfgang Pauli wrote scathingly: “[Einstein’s] never-failing inventiveness as well as his tenacious energy in the pursuit of [unification] guarantees us in recent years, on the average, one theory per annum … It is psychologically interesting that for some time the current theory is usually considered by its author to be the ‘definitive solution.’”
When he finally gave up the “distant parallelism” approach, Einstein wrote to Pauli, “Sie haben also recht gehabt, Sie Spitzbube,” or “You were right after all, you rascal!”
August 17, 2000
Q: (A) OK. UFT. This is one of these things that I don’t know what it is good for, because the Wave will erase everything and make everything new. Yet, it is in me, so let me ask. I don’t know what it is good for, but I want to do it. Einstein was working on his UFT for like 30 years. Maybe more. He was changing his methods. At some point, did he realize that he found a solution? During all these thirty years, was there a point where he came upon the right solution?
A: Yes, but sadly, his solution for UFT largely erased TOR [Theory of Relativity].
Q: (A) Once he found this solution, did he reject it because it erased TOR?
A: No. His progenitors sealed it, in order to keep intact the status quo.
Q: (L) His progenitors? Isn’t that your parents?
A: Other definitions apply. [A source from which something develops. Possibly Einstein’s 4D “controllers” or his Zionist connections, e.g. Chaim Weizmann.]
Q: (A) Can we have an idea of which year Einstein found the solution that erases TOR?
A: Sure, it was 1938.
Q: (A) According to what I know, between ’35 and ’38 there was a period in which Einstein published nothing. In ’38, he published a paper with Bergman which was a revival of Kaluza-Klein theory. That was exactly 1938. So, I guess that was the paper that was close.
A: Can you obtain a copy?
Q: (A) Yes, I have a copy.
A: Good!!! Clues abound within.
Q: (A) What I do not understand is why, a few years later, he completely abandoned that and started working very hard on a completely different solution. If he knew …
A: Was under control.
Q: (A) Can you control somebody and make him spend years … Oh! Mind control! They got him!
A: Why do you think he emigrated to the United States in the first place?
Q: (A) Well, that is not a surprise. He was a Nobel Prize winner and America was getting together every possible Nobel Prize winner, and also there was the persecution of the Jews, so it was natural.
A: More to it than that. What about Freud?
Q: (L) I guess they didn’t want Freud! He didn’t know anything about UFT! (A) Now, apparently Von Neumann was also involved in application of UFT. But, Von Neumann was, as far as we know, doing a completely different kind of mathematics. He didn’t even really know geometry, differential geometry. He was doing completely different things. So how come the UFT that was discovered by Einstein, involved Von Neumann. What did Von Neumann contribute to this project?
A: Von Neumann was one of three overseers at Princeton with level 7 security clearance, and a clear budget request permittance.
Q: (L) My question is, about Von Neumann, as I understand it, Von Neumann was supposed to have been involved with the creation of a time machine, right?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he succeed in such a project?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, why was it that, when he developed a brain tumor and realized he was going to die – and I read that he screamed and yelled like a baby when he knew there was no hope – if he was somebody who had access to a time machine, why wasn’t he able to do something about it instead of carrying on like a madman? The stories about his screams echoing all over the place, are horrible. He realized that his great mind was going to soon be still; if he had access to a time machine, one would think that he would have used it, would have pulled every string he could, to forestall his own death.
A: No Laura, it does not work that way. And besides, if you had a brain tumor, you could be forgiven for a few mental peculiarities too!
Q: (L) I just don’t understand why, when he knew he was sick, that he didn’t just use the time machine to go forward in time for a cure, or backward in time to correct something in his past …
A: The time machine was not his property.
Q: (L) So, they got what they needed from him and let him die. (A) It is not clear. He got this cancer so suddenly, it may even have been induced. (L) Well, that’s a thought. (A) It is said that when he was dying, his brain was working perfectly and that was his tragedy. He could think, he could produce, he was a genius. […]
Q: (A) Now, Einstein’s 1938 paper is a Kaluza-Klein paper – on torsion. What is the story about torsion?
A: Clues hidden in the text.
Of course, we dug out the 1938 paper and began to read and discovered to our amazement that this was the paper where Einstein proposed to take Kaluza’s fifth dimension as real.
We now come back to the fact that someone wrote some letters to Morris Jessup about his book on UFOs, including specific mention (in the very first paragraph) of a particular paper of Albert Einstein, which, as it happens, is the wrong paper to follow, and as soon as Dr. Jessup was discovered to have been “mysteriously killed,” the story was off and running! And all the researchers have been misled ever since, following the wrong paper. And it’s all about free energy, so to say. This should give everyone pause when they read the claims of the many purveyors of New Age Free Energy devices. If you really discover it, you’re dead.
When the Philadelphia Experiment story began to lose its appeal because none of the research was panning out, along came the Montauk experiments and the many handy expositors of that scenario, creating new Grail stories to lead the researchers off into wild, endless, and erroneous speculation.
After studying the Grail question itself for a period, I came to the realization that the comparison between the two situations is not just idle speculation. As we have seen and will see repeatedly, the motivations for the coverup seem to relate to the same issues: free energy leads to concepts of time and time travel, or space-time manipulation and shaping.
As it happens, it was at the time of the propagation of the Grail stories that the three major monotheistic religions took over, and the chief thing about all of them is that they seem to be highly motivated to create the taboo on thinking of time as cyclical. Scientific materialism has carried this tendency to ultimate heights. “The world must have been born, therefore, it must die.” And scientific materialism claims nothingness before birth and nothingness after death.
Scientific philosophies refer to the accidental mechanicalness of the universe and teach us that the only meaning to life is no meaning at all. “Eat, drink, and be merry for tomorrow you may die,” and then – oblivion.
Mircea Eliade’s opinion is that the religious myths of man were created as a “defense against the Terror of History.” And we find that, at the deepest level, these defenses against history have to do with Time. The religious myths are numerous and varied, but, when all the trappings are stripped away, the chief point of argument is which conception of time is being utilized as the foundation of the myth: cyclical or linear?
There are those who say that the mythical/religious formulas and images through which the “primitives” expressed their reality seem childish and absurd. Eliade, however, sees in religious myths a “desperate effort not to lose contact with being” (justification of existence in the face of the cruel world) and to find meaning – an archaic ontology.
The Axis Mundi, or Center, was a point where Heaven, Earth and Hell met and where passage to one region or another was possible. At any point where there was a convergence of the three realms, a temple was considered to exist whether one was constructed there or not. This center was the zone of the sacred – of absolute reality – and was symbolized by trees, fountains, ladders, ropes, and so forth. Interaction with these symbols was considered initiatory and took place in a timeless state. Thus it is thought that religious rituals were developed in an attempt to connect to this Divine Model or archetype.
One of the most interesting aspects of this archaic ontology was the Abolition of Time through imitation of the archetypes. In this way, a sacrifice was not only an imitation of the original sacrifice of the god, it somehow was seen to be an energetic alignment of the three realms, the creating of a passage of some sort along the Axis Mundi. So, for a moment, during the ritual or sacrifice, the supplicant was identifying him or herself with the primordial gesture and thereby abolishing time, and regenerating him or herself and all the related participants.
All religious acts are held to have been founded by gods, civilizing heroes, or mythical ancestors. … Not only do rituals have their mythical models, but any human act whatever acquires effectiveness to the extent to which it exactly repeats an act performed at the beginning of time by a god, a hero, or an ancestor.
We encounter in these myths and rites the idea that man only repeats the acts of the gods; his calendar commemorates, in the period of a year or other longer cycles, all the cosmogonic phases which took place in the beginning or which take place repeatedly at another level of reality. (Eliade, 1954)
Everywhere there is a conception of the end and the beginning of a cyclical temporal period; and, coincidental to this idea is the expulsion of demons, diseases and sins. These ideas are demonstrated by the ubiquitous celebrations of the New Year.
In the last analysis, what we discover in all these rites and all these attitudes is the will to devaluate time. … All the rites and all the behavior patterns … would be comprised in the following statement: ‘If we pay no attention to it, time does not exist; furthermore, where it becomes perceptible – because of man’s sins, i.e., when man departs from the archetype and falls into duration – time can be annulled.’ (Eliade, 1954)
This is, of course, Eliade’s interpretation. However, what we begin to think when we consider the work of Morris Jessup and Einstein’s 1938 paper, is that these myths are all speaking about a hyperdimensional reality that is para-physical and can be accessed via technology. I would like to suggest that these rites represent a pale reflection of an ancient technology of transcending time, of building an Ark that permits passage through the destruction cycle of Time without loss of internal integrity. They also tell us that Time is not linear; it is cyclical. Further: It will be renewed as it was in the days of Noah!
We postulate that the original worship of the goddess and of the principle of cyclical time – which represented this technology in allegory and metaphor – was progressively vilified and destroyed in favor of introducing a male deity and a linear eschatology, what we have come to call global pathocracy. Uranus, the father of the Titans, appears to have originally been the Mother, Ur-Ana. It would be pointless just now to track all the changes, inversions, corruptions, and adaptations of the myths since the primary thing we are concerned with is that the worship of the goddess was based upon a concept of cyclical time, and a literal, ancient technology. All of the symbology of cycles, of birth, death and renewal, belonged to the goddess. But it is very difficult to penetrate to the original rites, the original technique.
Eliade, of course, posits that these rituals are based on the idea of abolishing time only ritually. He proposes that the participants in the rites believed that, by imitating the act of creation, they could absolve themselves from sin, turn away the wrath of the gods, and call down a new beginning for all the people. What is significant in this ideation is the fact that such rituals are predicated upon levels of reality that are extrahuman.
In all of these myths there is the idea of the cyclical temporal period from a realm where time does not exist. The New Year celebrations take place at the end of the old year so that the New Year can be born free of sin. What is even more interesting is that such rites act out in very precise terms the conditions of the Days of Noah.
For the most part, the beginnings of these rites comprise a series of dramatic elements that represent a condition of universal confusion, the abolition of order and hierarchy, and the ushering in of chaos. There is a symbolic Deluge that annihilates all of humanity in order to prepare the way for a new and regenerated human species.
In numerous myths and rites we find the same central idea of the yearly return to chaos, followed by a new creation. The chaos that preceded the rebirth was as essential as the birth itself. Without chaos there could be no rebirth. “As it was in the days of Noah.”
In many of the more modern ritual versions, the Deluge and the element of water are present in one way or another as either libations or baptism. Baptism is the subjective, microcosmic equivalent of a macrocosmic-level deluge: a return to the formless state! This formlessness, this chaos, was exemplified in many ways: fasting, confession, excess grief, joy, despair or orgy – all of them only seeking to reproduce a chaotic state from which a New Creation could emerge. This suggests to us that the chaos of Carnival is essential for renewal. The ancient science revealed in these myths is telling us that the conditions of disorder on our planet are not leading us to the End of the World, they are the dissolution of structure preparatory to the Renewal of Time!
I would like to ask the reader to take particular note that the ideas of “exhaustion of physical resources, invasion by the souls of the dead, and sexual excess” are part of this archaic model in the sense that they are signs of the approaching suspension and renewal of time. In my reading of esoteric literature, I have come across the proposal that such a dissolution was merely symbolic of an ideological new beginning. It has even been proposed that anarchy in political terms is what is being represented here. Some theorists propose a deliberate descent into revolution is the way to bring about a New Age. Certain magical schools even have the idea that they are supposed to perform rituals to invoke the gods of destruction as a means of helping the process along. I think that all of them are missing the point.
A recent discovery in science suggests that this may not be just an archaic idea. On August 15, 2001, an article in the New York Times was headlined: “Cosmic Laws Like Speed of Light Might Be Changing,” by James Glanz and Dennis Overbye. It said, in part:
An international team of astrophysicists has discovered that the basic laws of nature as understood today may be changing slightly as the universe ages, a surprising finding that could rewrite physics textbooks and challenge fundamental assumptions about the workings of the cosmos …
If confirmed, the finding could mean that other constants regarded as immutable, like the speed of light, might also have changed over the history of the cosmos …
Scientists who have examined the paper have not been able to find any obvious flaws. But because the consequences for science would be so far-reaching and because the differences from the expected measurements are so subtle, many scientists are expressing skepticism that the discovery will stand the test of time, and say they will wait for independent evidence before deciding whether the finding is true.
On the other hand, the finding would fit with some theorists’ new views of the universe, particularly the prediction that previously unknown dimensions might exist in the fabric of space. Even scientists on the project have been deliberately cautious in presenting their result. Describing the implications of what his team observed, Dr. Webb said, “It’s possible that there is a time evolution of the laws of physics.” …
Dr. Steinhardt said most theorists would have expected those changes to have occurred in the first seconds of the universe’s life and be virtually unobservable by astronomers today. Still, he pointed out that several years ago, other astronomers unexpectedly found that the present universe is apparently filled with a mysterious kind of energy that counteracts gravity on large scales. Perhaps the two effects are somehow related, Dr. Steinhardt said …
But a few physicists, like Dr. Jacob D. Bekenstein of Hebrew University in Israel, noted that some theories have long been predicting a change in some of nature’s apparent constants. Dr. Bekenstein called the findings “potentially revolutionary” and said he was inclined to believe them.
In light of this small, but possibly significant finding, we think that it is most interesting that such an idea as the cosmos decaying and changing in very real terms, was part of the archaic ontology. Where did they get such an idea? Where and how did they come up with the concept that the running down of the cosmic clock brought about a return to chaos, including an infestation of demons and souls of the dead just prior to a deluge?
This may be a very important clue since it seems that, in our present time, there is a veritable invasion of otherworldly visitors masquerading as aliens as well as a rapid descent of morality into a veritable frenzied return to chaos, as it were! Again we see, “as it was in the days of Noah.”
Now, what we need to remember about these postulations is the inherently optimistic character of them; the consciousness of the normality of the cyclical catastrophe, the certainty of its meaning, and, above all, that it is never, ever final! The ideas communicate to us that, just as three days of darkness preceding the rebirth of the Moon are necessary, so is the death of an individual and the periodic death and rebirth of humanity necessary. Any material form, by the mere fact of its existence in time, loses vigor and becomes formless if only for an instant. It must return to chaos, to orgy, to darkness, to water; it must be reabsorbed into the primordial unity from which it issued to be reborn. The King is dead; long live the King!
But something changed the world view. Somehow, the perception of the End of the Time became a terrible punishment. Somehow, a god entered the world stage who destroyed the peace of Eden, and tempted man to place his trust in him, and him alone. “I am the Lord your God, and I am a jealous God!” Time became linear and with a prophesied end that was going to be final and complete. And woe to those who were not on the side of the right god who claimed to be the only one who could offer salvation.
The concept of the end being a precursor to a rebirth was lost with the introduction of monotheism. At that point, the End of Time became the End of the World – for everyone except those special chosen ones who were to be saved by a single, specific god to live in some mystical City of God with streets paved with gold, and almond-eyed houris serving dates and wine on every street corner. This single, specific god, has pretty much run the show ever since in any number of disguises. Until this appearance of monotheism, a myth was annually enacted that described a condition of life that was accepted as the way things were: Time was cyclical. The world might end, but if it did, it was only because it had run down and needed to be wound up again. All of the elements of the story of Noah are found in these myths: “As it was in the days of Noah.”
In order to maintain this control in the present day, if, indeed, anyone thinks about space-time manipulation seriously, they must be misled to look in the wrong direction. Obviously, control would be lost if people were aware of the true nature of time and the fifth mathematical dimension, i.e. fourth density. So we must understand that this is a very great secret. It cannot be allowed to be scientifically revealed and proven.
July 18, 1998
Q: (A) Can we have a UFT which unifies EM and gravity and does not include the concept of other densities? In other words, can we put in a textbook all about the gravity and electromagnetics, and a student could learn all of this and still know nothing about other densities?
A: No. Other densities become apparent when …
Q: (A) So, it means that Einstein and Von Neumann knew about these other densities?
A: Yes, oh yes!!!
Q: (T) Just a thought: having UFT and being able to manipulate different fields within it, creates different effects. So, as we understand it in the apparent present state of science, we have to spin something in space in order to create gravity. But, with the UFT, one small offshoot is that one could create real gravity without spinning anything. So, the problem of weightlessness is really already solved …
A: Elementary my dear Terry, elementary.
Q: (T) So, this whole thing with the space station and all the trouble they are having readapting to gravity when they come back, is all a game …
A: When you “let the cat out of the bag,” you create an entire feline “nation.”
Unfortunately, anybody who gets close, anyone who is not misled, generally ends up dead. And that’s a fact. They die with great regularity. Another half-dozen or so physicists of our acquaintance, working in similar directions, have died in the past few years, in the prime of life, suddenly and unexpectedly. Heart attacks and cerebral hemorrhages seem to be the affliction of choice – never mind that these are healthy guys for the most part, who generally don’t smoke, walk a lot and eat moderately.
There’s another curious thing: did the reader notice that Paul La Violette was hanging out with Panos Pappas when he went to investigate Marinov’s death? As it happens, La Violette has some interesting friends such as Willis Harman, President of the Institute of Noetic Sciences, staffed also by folks with more of those strange, nebulous links to the Aviary. In fact, La Violette, Edgar Mitchell, and Hal Puthoff are listed as witnesses in the Disclosure Project. The reader might be interested in noting connections between La Violette and Tom Bearden, as well as noting that Col. Bearden has been very active in promoting false leads to the free energy ideas for some years now. Strange bedfellows. We would also like to refer the reader to the most interesting fact of that Vincent Bridges has vociferously promoted La Violette’s ideas.
September 25, 1999
Q: There is also a theory of Paul La Violette, that there is a wave that comes from explosions in the galactic core, and that this is what is behind this increased activity.
A: Such waves exist.
Q: Are these waves part of the cataclysmic double catastrophes that are predicted to be “on the way?”
A: Who says?
Q: Well, Paul La Violette and Vincent Bridges, and Jay Weidner, for example.
A: You are not capable of predicting such things yet.
Q: (A) We are not able to predict many things. You are able to predict better than us.
A: Maybe so, but we do so oh so discreetly.
As we have already noted in several places, there were numerous instances when the Cassiopaeans gave instructions that we not publish certain material related to our research because it was dangerous. We can see from just the short examination of the subject above, that this isn’t a joke. People really do die when they get too close to things. And often, their deaths are utilized to give credibility to a corrupted variation of what they were actually thinking or doing so as to keep the rumor-machine going, and to lead others off the track.
Karla Turner is another one who was onto the hyperdimensional nature of the UFO phenomenon and she suddenly developed a particularly virulent form of cancer. The Cs even sent a warning, which I duly delivered. She didn’t take it seriously. I really valued our Internet friendship, and when she wrote me for the last time, telling me that she was too weak to continue her correspondence, I wept.
There is another death that still bothers me. The old man I have written about elsewhere who was the insider to the Coral Castle story: Hilliard. He was in an auto accident the day after I first went to visit with him and talk about the Coral Castle. In December of 1996, he came to visit me here, and it was during that visit that he revealed his origins as Polish/Lithuanian when I shared with him the fact that Ark would soon be coming to America. He asked specifically that once Ark had arrived, I was to bring him to visit because he had something important to tell us together. We made the plans, and on the morning we were going to make the drive over to Orlando, I called to let him know we were leaving the house so he would know when to look for our arrival. His neighbor answered the phone and informed me that the old man had just suffered a stroke and was en route to the hospital as we were speaking. He died shortly after. Whatever he wanted to tell Ark, he never got the chance.
So, if all of this is so dangerous to talk about, why am I talking about it?
As many of you know, the current activities of the Bridges/Williams gang consist of the fact that Frank Scott suddenly, after eight years of the existence of our legal copyright on our research material, has been cranked up to falsely claim rights of joint authorship simply because he was present, as a guest-participant at most of the early sessions. At first, this truly insane behavior puzzled me because Mr. Scott doesn’t have the chance of a snowball in Hell of prevailing in court, assuming that suit is filed. His attendance at the sessions for eight years after the publishing of the copyright notice is sufficient evidence of his intent to accept that it was and is solely authored and owned by me, that the likelihood of a summary judgment against him is a certainty – again, assuming that suit is filed.
After I gave the matter some more thought, it seemed pretty clear that by pirating the Cassiopaean Transcripts and posting them on the Internet unedited, the Williams/Bridges gang are deliberately and intentionally putting us in grave danger. And again, it’s not a joke. Both Vincent Bridges and Frank Scott knew what was in the transcripts before they committed this outrageous act, violating not only our legal rights, but our privacy, the privacy of dozens of guests, and putting our children in peril by revealing personal information about them. They both knew of the numerous instances of information that the Cs urged us not to publish or share with “snakes in the grass.” So, again, if there was ever any doubt about who is the channel, and who has negative intentions toward humanity as a whole, this effort to not only put our lives in grave danger so that it is possible that we will never be able to accomplish whatever it is we are supposed to do to “let the cat out of the bag”, that fact ought to clinch it. It’s very similar to the story of Solomon and the infant claimed by two mothers: Scott is clearly not the “mother” because he is not only willing to destroy the material itself, he is willing to destroy us.
However, our review of the above cases indicates that it is not quite so simple. Indeed, we have been attempting to make progress in UFT with some shielding in order to simply survive long enough to do it. If we don’t survive, we can’t do it. If we don’t do it, we can’t share it and, as the Cs described it, “let the cat out of the bag,” producing an “entire feline nation,” so to say.
So we see, of course, that in our case, just offing us in such a way that it would look perfectly natural, with the material published as it is would not be sufficient to cover up what we have been working on. Oh, no! It is necessary to put Mr. Scott in place as the channel in order to twist, distort, and corrupt the material, with the able assistance of Vincent Bridges, Jeff “Storm Bear” Williams, and the rest of the gang. It would not be enough to just get us killed – there must be preparation to “fill the void.” There must be an ongoing effort to defame and diminish any true understanding of the material which is the major part of our work on the website here, and the ongoing channeling, including that which occurs in the very act of writing.
September 23, 2000
Q: OK, I want to find out about this Jack and the Beanstalk and the “giant meaning” you have talked about in the recent past. Not only that, but you have continuously hinted that something is just around the corner, and we are getting to the point where we are thinking that there is just simply not going to be enough time to do anything. Ark’s got 800 pages of Maxwell to go through; he can’t stop working to do that; 800 pages of equations is a lot of work – like months of hard work – and, time is passing – four years have gone by, and zip! I’m not getting impatient here, but time is going and you guys are sixth density and it means nothing to you … but we’re getting older. What we are supposed to do, if we are supposed to do something to make the connection for things to move?
A: You are so anxious. Perhaps you should examine the ground covered, or were you just as close 10 years back?
Q: Well, ten years ago I didn’t wear glasses. I didn’t need ’em either! I could thread a needle! I mean, this thing called time has a profound effect on physiology whether you guys notice it or not! I know, it’s the soul that counts, but my thought is that we are in these bodies, and it has been subtly suggested that we are in these present vehicles to do something.
A: But is it not a great adventure?
Q: Well, lately it has been a lot of working and slaving. Working to pay the bills. Then we had to survive this period when the company wasn’t paying our invoices, so we had to borrow on our credit cards, now we have to pay that back and live at the same time. So, boom! Work, work, work!
A: So maybe you should return to the way things were when we first contacted you?
Q: No! I’m not complaining!
A: Yes, you are, though in a gentle way.
Q: Well, I mean you did so much, you brought us together, did all these things … and …
A: And you think there is no more?
Q: Well, no … but …
A: But what?!?
Q: Well, we’re together and we are happy. And because we are together and happy we feel like we should be getting things accomplished … that there are …
A: And you are not?
Q: Not in a big useful way.
A: So say you. Thank goodness you ain’t an expert in this judgment arena!
Q: So, you are saying that, even though it appears to us on the surface that nothing is happening, that at some level, something is happening?
A: Oh, yeah!! So … Quit yer bitchin.
Q: Is it too much for me to ask for you to give me just one teensy tinesy little hint about what is going on at these other levels that we are not aware of that is so important?
A: You may ask.
Q: Well, I did. Just give me a little bitty hint … a three-word clue … Something to calm me down. Something to make me sleep well at night and that will let me know that all is right with the world …
A: RAM.
Q: That’s the clue?
A: Yes.
Q: Was that an abbreviation or a word?
A: Seek and ye shall find.
Q: (A) RAM. Random Access Memory.
A: Yes.
Q: How does that relate to what is going on at higher levels? Does everything we do, or does the movement of the project, depend upon my pursuit of the psychomantium project?
A: A little.
Q: Is part of this waiting process the completion of the Wave series since that has been consuming my life since May.
A: Yes.
Q: I have to say that the writing of this series has been one of the most educational projects I have ever undertaken. Because, in the writing, I have had to comb through the transcripts and have had to explain it to other people and before I can do that, I have to explain it to myself. It has become a profound mind expansion thing …
A: Good.
Q: It’s almost as much fun to be learning the things I am having to assemble as if I were reading it. And I’m the one writing it. It’s really quite amazing.
A: In part you are.
March 18, 1995
Q: (L) Is there anything anyone can do to release persons stuck in these parallel realities and bring them back into the reality of origin?
A: Yes, but the technology is a closely guarded secret.
Q: (L) Do you know the secret?
A: Yes, but you do too!
Q: (L) I do too? […]
A: Philadelphia Experiment.
Q: (L) Since you mentioned the Philadelphia Experiment, could you tell us in specific detail, how this was done? What kind of machines were used and how can we build one? [general uproar and laughter]
A: Do you intend to sit here for a day or two? […] In short, build an EM generator.
February 24, 1996
A: Oh Laura, my dear, seems you need a refresher course in the transcripts. Maybe suggest you read them and relax and privately listen to the ones you have not as of yet transcribed a little more. This would be extremely helpful in your many and increasing communications via the “net” as well. Remember, we help you to unlock answers that have been placed in your superconsciousness files from before the “time” of the birth of your physical body. Also, false information is worse than no information at all.
June 7, 1997
Q: In reading the Celtic legends, I discovered that Cassiopeia was equated with Danu, or Don, as in Tuatha de Danaan, or the court of the goddess Danu. So, in other words, the supreme goddess of the Aryans was Cassiopeia. And, Cassiopeia is found in the zodiacal area of Aries, the “lamb,” where Cephus the “rock” and “king” is also found, as well as Perseus, “he who breaks” and serpentarius. The image is of Perseus overcoming the serpent, and the ancient Celtic engravings of the horned god show him gripping two serpents by the throat. I would like to understand the symbology here …
A: You are on the right track.
Q: What is the symbology of the “breaking of rocks,” as in the alchemical texts, as well as related to Perseus as “he who breaks?”
A: Occurs at a time when rocks break, as in the electromagnetic impulses that emanate from earthbound rocks when sheared by tectonic forces, and much more importantly, the possible utilization of said forces whether naturally or otherwise induced.
Q: Before we take our break, can you say any more about this ubiquitous “she” of the Celts, Cassiopeia, and the relationship to the Aryans?
A: Better continue your search, as this is how you learn and build power!
Q: When you said I needed to find a “superhypnotist” to break the locks on the knowledge placed in my superconsciousness, and then you suggested a “spin” doctor, and now Ark’s actions while I was sleeping brought out some of the keys to large pieces of the puzzle and the connections, am I on the right track when I think that the actions we are taking in searching out these pieces of the puzzle, putting them together, and the amazing discoveries that have taken place as we go along, is the action of the “breaking” of these locks?
A: Likely.
Anyone who reads the transcripts can see the focus of the material. Knowing the focus, and realizing that the Williams/Bridges gang are working very hard to both claim and discredit the material, the objective becomes obvious.
Cassiopaeans: [Frank] was programmed for the specific purpose of “downloading” from you secrets coded into you before birth of your present body. He failed because you were incorruptible. He is now charged with the mission, in concert with Vincent Bridges, of destroying your ability to accomplish your mission.
When you let the cat out of the bag, you create a whole Feline Nation.
RAM.
There are several curious issues raised by the material in the previous chapter that I would like to review. One of them is that strange remark of the Cassiopaeans that Stefan Marinov was programmed and it was the triggering of this mind-control program that caused him to take the dive from the fire escape of the University library in Graz. The item of interest was the reference to the human agents of this programming as being part of British Intelligence, a section the Cassiopaeans designated as “M1.”
MI5 and MI6 are the world’s oldest secret intelligence agencies. They began in 1909 with the formation of a military section (MOT, which became MI5) and a naval section (M1-1C, later MI6).
In July 1942, MI5 played a major part in the creation of the American Office of Strategic Services (OSS). The OSS was modeled on MI6/SOE; American personnel received training and instruction from British agents. OSS later came to concentrate predominantly on armed subversion and guerrilla warfare and was the forerunner of the CIA.
Stefan Marinov was a dissident for many years. I have before me volume II of his work entitled The Thorny Way of Truth, or “Documents on the invention of the perpetuum mobile, on the centurial blindness of mankind, and on its frantic perseverance in it.” Included in this book is a section entitled “Calvario,” or Calvary, as a biographical sketch of Marinov. It is illustrated by reproductions of 12 paintings of Cenni, which Marinov declared in his introduction to be “the unique true and exact reflection of the existing social and political reality.” These very disturbing images portray humanity as a prisoner of obviously fascist soldiers, refused help by the Church, proceeding through the Stations of the Cross, so to say, to the final image of crucifixion.
We cannot comment on Marinov’s psychological state. He was clearly alienated to an extreme degree. We can only point out that his views reflect a reality that no one seems to want to either acknowledge or address. It is the same reality that caused psychiatrist Wilhelm Reich to write, “Why did man, through thousands of years, wherever he built scientific, philosophic, or religious systems, go astray with such persistence and with such catastrophic consequences?” He then goes on to ask:
Is human erring necessary? Is it rational? Is all error rationally explainable and necessary? If we examine the sources of human error, we find that they fall into several groups:
Gaps in the knowledge of nature form a wide sector of human erring. Medical errors prior to the knowledge of anatomy and infectious diseases were necessary errors. But we must ask if the mortal threat to the first investigators of animal anatomy was a necessary error too.
The belief that the earth was fixed in space was a necessary error, rooted in the ignorance of natural laws. But was it an equally necessary error to burn Giordano Bruno at the stake and to incarcerate Galileo? … We understand that human thinking can penetrate only to a given limit at a given time. What we fail to understand is why the human intellect does not stop at this point and say: “this is the present limit of my understanding. Let us wait until new vistas open up.” This would be rational, comprehensible, purposeful thinking. What amazes us is the sudden turn from the rational beginning to the irrational illusion. Irrationality and illusion are revealed by the intolerance and cruelty with which they are expressed. We observe that human thought systems show tolerance as long as they adhere to reality. The more the thought process is removed from reality, the more intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee its continued existence …
The search for truth is closely connected with the natural organization of the human animal. Hence, we may conclude that the evasion of truth and the adherence to the surface of phenomena must also have a certain connection with the structure of the human animal. The function of natural research must be buried somehow if the tendency to evade obvious facts is that powerful.
With this thought, I found the key to the riddle of why man could err so consistently, so cruelly, for so long, and so much to his own disadvantage: needless human erring is a pathological quality of human character …
I know human erring from my own experience. I, too, have joined in shouting “Guilty! Guilty!” … I began to err when I held religion alone responsible for human suffering. I did not know that the error of religion was a symptom, not the cause, of human biopathy. I persisted in my error when I held the personal interests of a social group – parents or educators – responsible for suppressing human love life. I did not know that the suppression of love life is no more than a mechanism …
When I was under the spell of the great socialist movement and worked for years, as a physician, among the underprivileged strata of the people, I fell into the gross error of thinking that “the capitalist was responsible for human plight.” It took the brutal experience of the deteriorating Russian Revolution to free me from this error. They had killed the capitalists, but misery continued to grow; diplomatic intrigues, political maneuvering, spying and informing on others, all of which they had set out to eradicate, were more powerfully at work than ever …
For years, and in harmony with Freud’s doctrine, I committed the error of thinking that the unconscious was “evil” and “responsible for all misery.” It took a full decade of hard, clinical work among the emotionally ill to free me from this error. This earned me the bitter enmity of many psychiatric businessmen, who enriched themselves at the expense of human emotional misery …
The answer lies somewhere in that area of our existence which has been so heavily obscured by organized religion and put out of our reach. Hence, it probably lies in the relation of the human being to the cosmic energy that governs him. (Reich, 1949)
Reich was moving dangerously close to describing the hyperdimensional reality. He observed and experimented, and devised gadgets, the usefulness of which may or may not be objective. We do know that Reich was an honored and respected scientist who met his death in a strange drama of persecution and defamation, and that what is left of his work is obviously not all he wrote or thought since there was an extraordinary effort to burn his books, as ordered by the United States government.
What is most interesting to us here is Reich’s comments about intolerance and cruelty. He noted that “Irrationality and illusion are revealed by the intolerance and cruelty with which they are expressed. … The more the thought process is removed from reality, the more intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee its continued existence.”
We have certainly been subjected to such intolerance and cruelty. This activity has taken many forms both public and private, and in every case, enormous amounts of time could be spent going over the cruel lies, twists and distortions, the intolerant libel and defamation about us, that are presently being promulgated by Vincent Bridges, Jeff Williams, and others, but it would be simply wasted effort in terms of their own understanding, as well as the understanding of those individuals who are of a similar make-up, and who choose to believe their lies in the face of hard evidence that they are liars. As Reich has pointed out: “we may conclude that the evasion of truth and the adherence to the surface of phenomena must also have a certain connection with the structure of the human animal. The function of natural research must be buried somehow if the tendency to evade obvious facts is that powerful.”
And, as Reich pointed out, the very fact that anyone would occupy their time attempting to destroy the work of others – the fact that they operate from a position of intolerance and cruelty – is clear evidence of their irrationality and illusion; their distance from reality. As Reich said, “needless human erring is a pathological quality of human character.”
In exposing the cruelty and intolerance of society, religion, and science itself, perhaps Stefan Marinov was closer to reality than we might suspect. The only difference between Marinov and say, philosophers or teachers of various paths to enlightenment, was the fact that he was a scientist and could, conceivably, produce evidence of that deeper reality that it is forbidden to discuss or know about. The same was true of Reich and possibly even Jessup; also of many other unknown and unsung heroes of the quest for the truth who may have gotten too close, or had too much cachet to allow them to continue to work in such directions. Because, as the Cassiopaeans pointed out, Marinov’s ideas might lead to instabilities in the power structure and ability of that power structure to control humanity.
November 15, 1997
Q: (A) What was the main reason for his death?
A: Revelations too “sensitive,” would cause “instabilities.”
Q: Instabilities in what?
A: Power structure/control.
Q: What kind of revelation?
A: Theoretical physics.
Q: In what specific area?
A: “Unified Field Theory.”
This suggests to us that the material that was left behind by Marinov, the material to which attention was directed by his final farewell, is the wrong material.
As we have already discovered, good disinformation consists of a lot of truth with the twist at a crucial point. Considering the Carlos Allende letters, which we now suspect to have been produced within disinformation circles, and promulgated on the foundation of Morris Jessup’s death, we come to the idea that the Philadelphia Experiment was very likely a real event, and it was realized that because there were leaks, the only way to do damage control was to produce a version of the story based on the facts, but with the crucial element switched. And we realize that the crucial element was Einstein’s attempts at formulating a Unified Field Theory. Regarding the Carlos Allende letters, I asked:
May 31, 1997
Q: Here is this purported letter from a Carlos Allende to Dr. Jessup. Now, whether Carlos was a real person or not, what I want to know is if the information is somewhat accurate. Is it a reliable source of information?
A: Is that not obvious?
Q: I thought it was. He said that Einstein did computations on cycles of human civilization and progress, compared to the growth of man’s general character and development, and that this horrified him. Now, this is the very thing you suggested I do to find clues. And, I am doing it. It says here that Einstein was doing the same thing. Is this correct?
A: Yes.
Q: What horrified him?
A: The discovery of variability of physicality, and all that that implies, when one knows all that Einstein knew up to that point.
Q: So, 4th density blew him away!
A: And the other density levels. One begins with the premise that the material realm is the “whole shooting match,” discovers it is not, must rethink everything.
Q: So, it hit Einstein like a ton of bricks.
We notice from Reich’s comments above that he was very concerned with what he had noted about the cycles of human history. Marinov was also concerned with these matters. We know that, in 1941, Reich met with Albert Einstein and they talked for five hours. However, this was after Einstein’s 1938 paper in which he proposed to take the fifth mathematical dimension as real. Einstein declined to become involved in Reich’s research which dashed Reich’s hopes. This was actually very strange considering the other efforts Einstein was making in public regarding his search for UFT. However, if it is true that Einstein had already been coopted as the Cs suggest, then it only makes sense. What also seems to be true is that many physicists and mathematicians have been involved in attempts to utilize mathematics to create pictures of human dynamics in historical and cultural terms, with strange results (e.g., Morozov and Fomenko, whose work I discuss in Secret History).
August 17, 2000
Q: Einstein was working on his UFT for like 30 years. Maybe more. He was changing his methods. At some point, did he realize that he found a solution? During all these thirty years, was there a point where he came upon the right solution?
A: Yes, but sadly, his solution for UFT largely erased TOR [Theory Of Relativity].
Q: (A) Once he found this solution, did he reject it because it erased TOR?
A: No. His progenitors sealed it, in order to keep intact the status quo.
Q: (L) His progenitors? Isn’t that your parents?
A: Other definitions apply.
At an even earlier time, when Prof. Roger Santilli was present at a session, the Cs commented to him:
A: What is your knowledge quotient regarding following: electromagnetism, Einstein’s “unified field theory.” And did he ever complete said theory, or was it completed under the supervision of consortium, and suppressed. And if so, what are the ramifications!!! Also, Roger, are you capable of “filling in the blanks,” we think so!
At the time of reviewing the transcripts, I made a note in the text that I didn’t think that the remark about “filling in the blanks” had to do with the theory itself, but rather the ramifications. The question becomes: what exactly are the ramifications of research in this direction? As the Cs pointed out in our discussion of Stefan Marinov:
Q: (T) Did the gentleman who just passed away learn something about the merging of Unified Field Theories? (L) Or merging of factors …
A: The problem is that these scientists are often too eager to share and reveal. Remember: it is most difficult to win a Nobel Prize when on’s residence is a tomb.
In terms of Marinov’s death, again we notice the presence of Paul La Violette, the darling of the Club of Rome, hanging out with Pappas, Marinov, et al. The problem here is, again, the ability of the Control System to use innocent people, as we have already described – at the simplest level – via broadcasting signals that are unpacked in the subconscious and emerge as the person’s own thoughts.
If the reader has ever seen the movie The Lady from Shanghai, they will realize that what we are dealing with here is similar to the hall of mirrors sequence at the end of the film. Rita Hayworth is caught in a house of mirrors with a man who is trying to shoot her. She sees him and he sees her, but what they see are all just reflections. No one is sure what is real and what isn’t. This is the world of science and research into the deeper nature of our reality. As Kevin Costner said in JFK: “Everything is exactly the opposite of what you think it is. Black is white, up is down. Is what you are examining a reflection, or is it real?”
Paul LaViolette seems to have an instinctive understanding of our galaxy as a higher-dimensional object. He seems to be one of the few experts – even if his field of expertise does not make him an expert in those things he wishes to study and write about – who has even considered the hyperdimensional aspects of our reality. Regarding La Violette, Marinov, and others, it seems that the human agents of the Control System find such people, fund them just enough to be able to get their ideas out of them, and then, when they have extracted as much from them as they can, they bottle them up with mind programming. And that is how it operates. Researchers need funding to work. And in providing the funding, in creating the research environment, the links are established that enable the total takeover of the individual that eventually results in their ideas being corrupted and distorted.
And this brings us to that most curious remark that the Cassiopaeans made about my own physical kidnapping at the age of four:
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) When I was kidnapped at the age of three or four in Jacksonville, how many days was I missing? My mother simply has a blank about it, which amazes her.
A: 12 days.
Q: (L) Who was it that kidnapped me?
A: Jan. […] Corps member. […] Select division of economic legion under control of G5. […] Intel.
Q: (L) What was the purpose of this kidnapping?
A: To install self-destruct programming.
Economics? What the heck does economics have to do with anything?
I have to tell the reader that this remark really baffled me for a very long time. In fact, until I was in the act of writing the previous chapter, the relationships that are behind the scenes here didn’t really dawn on me. As we will discuss more fully further on, we were visited by an eminent economist in the late summer of 2000, a Professor Emeritus of Economics at a well known University, who was extraordinarily interested in certain aspects of the Cs material. This visit seemed to be the trigger point of a whole host of strange subsequent events. There was, in fact, a veritable all-star cast of players brought in to act their necessary parts in the drama; all of whose appearances on the scene closely followed this visit. It’s really amazing that we didn’t see the connections earlier. So, keep that in mind for later, but for now, let’s continue our review of the whole scenario and what the Cs told us at various points that relate to those matters that seem to get a lot of people killed or locked up in insane asylums.
At the point in time that I finally, really and truly, grasped the nature of fourth-density reality, it nearly killed me. It’s no wonder that people flee in terror from the work on this website. At that point in time I became so ill that it is truly a miracle that I didn’t die. My ears, eyes and lungs were besieged by a terrible infection simultaneously and I could neither see, hear nor speak for almost a month. This is why there was no session from the end of March in 1996 until almost the end of April. And finally, I was asking for help. I knew I could not survive much longer. What I didn’t know was that if I were given the answers then, I would have already been dead.
April 24, 1996
A: Laura, you need to consult a powerful, practiced, effective hypnotherapist to unlock these questions for you. […] The locks have been installed in such a way that it is literally impossible for you to unlock them, as they were installed with full knowledge of present circumstances.
Q: (L) Who installed these locks?
A: Supremely powerful STS consortium!!
Q: (L) And what circumstances were they aware of, as you have mentioned, when they installed these locks?
A: All. […]
A: You cannot unlock, and we cannot tell you details of what, or why.
Q: (L) Why can you not tell us?
A: Free will violation, and endangerment of you if done thusly.
Q: (L) Is there some way to do it that does not endanger us?
A: We have told you.
Q: (L) Is it a danger to us to not unlock these things?
A: In a sense.
Of course, the question at the time was how would it endanger me to know these things if the only other person present was Frank?
But even more pressing are the questions about why locks were placed on something in my superconsciousness, and why did that threaten the “supremely powerful STS consortium” so that they would take the risk of physically kidnapping me as a child in order to make sure that these locks were put on in the most thorough way possible? We already realize that attempts were made via the standard alien abduction and that didn’t work because, as the Cs said, “you fight it.” So it seems that the physical abduction and direct work via psychological programming was necessary. Of course, another question is: why didn’t they just kill me if I was such a threat to them in the future?
August 1, 1998
Q: (L) I was also reading in some of the transcripts as I have been going through them getting them ready to print, that you once said that “supremely powerful” STS forces were responsible for kidnapping and programming me. My question is: if they had me, why did they bring me back?
A: Would you expect otherwise?
Q: (L) Well, you said that they tried to do some programming and that it didn’t work and that STO forces intervened. So, I am just a little confused. If I was such a threat to them, why did they bring me back? Under the circumstances, I could have just disappeared forever and that would be that!
A: No.
Q: (L) What prevented that?
A: Occlusion.
Q: (L) Occlusion of what?
A: Best to research through meditation and hypnosis.
Occlusion obviously has something to do with being shielded, as well as the operation of the STS Achilles Heel itself: wishful thinking. STS always takes the path of least resistance, and their confidence that they could do some programming and that would fix the whole problem is apparently part of this occlusion process. It also suggests some sort of rules about violation of free will between densities. It seems that, without some sort of agreement, even if at a deep subconscious level, such things as ongoing abductions, physical harm and violations, cannot occur. If there was no agreement to that at the higher levels of which my subconscious mind and superconscious mind were aware, then the only way to access me was through physicality, while a child, before full seating of consciousness had taken place.
In fact, this is probably why so many abductions do take place at early ages: it is to condition the physical brain to resist the seating of higher consciousness so as to prevent the expression of soul and will that would enable the individual to fully activate free-will choice and refuse violation. And such conditioning can also take place via very ordinary social and familial programs as well. It’s altogether likely that individuals with great potential for full activation of higher consciousness and honoring of free will are primary targets of childhood abduction. And apparently, from the literature, it is a very effective program.
The Ra Material, which the Cassiopaeans have suggested as a primer for understanding our basic reality, has some interesting things to say about these matters. Ra describes the hyperdimensional mind-control activity as being effected in our reality by first controlling certain human beings who act as their agents. Ra describes people as being of two types: those people on our planet who do exercises and perform disciplines (i.e. rituals) in order to seek contact with negative sources of information and power, and those whose frequency resonance vibration is such that direct contact with total negative energies is accomplished with no training and no controls.
For the most part, it seems that through telepathy the philosophy of manipulating others is promulgated. The individuals who are receptive to this information are then assisted in achieving positions of power and control. This relates back to our discussion of Stockholm syndrome and how, by being in a captive situation, the prisoners learn to love their captors, and then will begin to align with them, and act on their behalf to manipulate still others. Ra points out that there are “many upon your so-called inner planes which are negatively oriented and thus available as inner teachers or guides and so-called possessors of certain souls who seek [to control or manipulate others].”
In addition to the philosophy of manipulation, the negative hyperdimensional controllers also pass technical information to their third-density agents. This technology includes various means of control or manipulation of others. Through this technology, the Controllers of the Matrix began to set up conditions in our world whereby the masses of people will be enslaved by their free will.
This is an important point. In the hyperdimensional realms, the name of the game is Consciousness. This simply means that the higher realms of existence, whether positive or negative in orientation, all recognize that the business of all being and existence everywhere is always that of Consciousness – becoming more and more aware.
The positive guys seek to increase awareness by the activities of networking and interdependence and sharing and giving. This is a natural function of creativity and empathy. Empathy is that quality of being that allows us to connect to another person’s thinking, feeling, experiences, and so forth, as if they were our own. It is that quality that enables us to deeply care about the pain and suffering experienced by others because, in fact, when we are aware of it, it causes us pain, too.
The negative guys, on the other hand, play the game in terms of domination, subjugation and absorption of other consciousnesses with total disregard for the pain and suffering they cause. In fact, they deliberately cause pain and suffering in order to induce the other to choose their domination in order to bring the pain and suffering to an end. Again, we are reminded of Stockholm syndrome. At the hyperdimensional levels of being, negative entities understand certain rules which are that, in order for them to be able to dominate truly, the other must choose to be dominated. In Stockholm-syndrome terms, it is more energy efficient if the prisoner is persuaded to cooperate, and even to help with his captivity, if he is doing so by choice and the captor does not have to spend endless amounts of energy keeping an eye on him, checking the locks on the doors, torturing him, or whatever. It is a simple matter of economics.
Ra has some interesting remarks to make about something that may relate to this. He describes something called a quarantine. I am not certain that I agree with this planetary-quarantine idea as it is described here, since historical research into the alien phenomenon rather contradicts it. It sounds rather like wishful thinking; a desire for a global protector. But, what it does suggest is the existence of hyperdimensional “future selves” as guardians that sort of protect free will. Ra says that “These guardians sweep reaches of your Earth’s energy fields to be aware of any entities approaching. An entity which is approaching is hailed in the name of the One Creator. Any entity thus hailed is bathed in love/light and will of free will obey the quarantine due to the power of the Law of One.”
Q: What would happen to the entity if he did not obey the quarantine after being hailed?
Ra: To not obey quarantine after being hailed on the level of which we speak would be equivalent to your not stopping upon walking into a solid brick wall.
My guess is that this idea is fairly accurate but that it may not apply planetarily, so to say, but rather individually. I am reminded of the Cs’ statement that knowledge protects, and that knowledge is love is light. So it would make sense that a future self of the positive variety would have the potential for protecting its “past self” in this way to whatever extent that is accepted by the past self in its conscious or subconscious mind. This also reminds me of the idea of thought centers and eclipsing of realities, wherein the Cs remarked:
Whenever two opposing units of reality intersect, this causes what can be referred to as friction, which, for an immeasurable amount of what you would refer to as time, which is, of course, nonexistent, creates a nonexistence, or a stopping of the movements of all functions. This is what we would know as conflict. In between, or through any intersecting, opposite entities, we always find zero time, zero movement, zero transference, zero exchange. … Was what happened a conflicting of one energy thought center that was a part of your thought process and another energy thought center that was another part of your thought process? […] What if the abduction scenario could take place where your soul projection, in what you perceive as the future, can come back and abduct your soul projection in what you perceive as the present? … [I]s it one possible future, but not all possible futures? And is the pathway of free will not connected to all of this?
What we seem to derive from all of this is that there is some kind of law of gravity, so to say, in the hyperdimensional realms, and this law has to do with free will. The logical extension of this idea is that if the true negative agenda is to dominate our reality, the only way they can really do it from those realms, where this law is the law of gravity, is to manipulate the mass consciousness of our planet to choose this domination à la Stockholm syndrome. This also explains clearly why there has not been an overt takeover or invasion – and never will be in the terms we think of it – up to this point in time. If the people of earth were to be fully aware of an invasion or a takeover in literal, physical terms, that would mean that the veil would be lifted and all people would see the man behind the curtain and would instantly reject the domination! In short, just as in the Wizard of Oz, those Ruby Slippers have to be obtained very carefully!
We now begin to see the agenda and mode of operation of the hyperdimensional Controllers of the Matrix. It is to create a completely controlled artificial environment composed of thoroughly predictable human behaviors – made predictable because they have been programmed to respond to cues of conditioning inculcated through centuries of lies and obfuscations presented in the form of religions, and all of this revolves around a “story” that is actually untrue, and wholly misrepresentative of the real negative aim.
For centuries these programming signals have been being set up – either because of time travel capabilities, or because of actual historical presence. Various prophets or religious leaders have been influenced to preach, or teach or prophesy philosophies designed to lay a foundation for later takeover – possibly in our present time. When people begin to get wise, the Negatives simply go back into the past, add something more to the soup to cover up the new awareness. This then acts as a domino effect and influences our present – time loops and all that. A lot of people think that the alien invasion scenario is a ruse concocted by the government to create the impression that there is a forming threat, thereby enabling the institution of a New World Order. But, this idea is based on a misrepresentation of the process just described.
The important thing to remember is this: there is not a unified conspiratorial activity going on here in the hierarchy of our visible governments. The divide and conquer effect is also manifest at this level and suits the alien purposes to a “T.” Such activity at all levels is consistent with their program, in which confusion and cross-purpose prevent a clear perception on the part of the victims.
At some deep level there is a direct conspiratorial interaction between the secret government and the negative aliens; but it is unlikely that any name of those involved would be recognized by anyone, no matter how “in the know” regarding the subject. These secret superiors are just that: secret. Any organizations you can name, or about which you are aware, are merely outer circles.
It seems that the process of this takeover is exactly that of Stockholm syndrome. Little by little, different groups are consolidated into a negative mode which, on the surface, may seem to be very positive or STO (i.e. save the world because it is “wrong” or flawed, or blighted with original sin or whatever). But, the very fact that it is formed in the dominator mode of perceiving salvation “outside,” means that it can more easily be taken over body, mind and soul at a level that is unseen and unseeable. In other words: Satan can and most often does appear as an Angel of Light!
It is only at the lower levels of the power structure that many still believe they are playing out the basic “antagonism” and “self-protection” roles. They believe that sending love and light to those “in need” is appropriate, without realizing that this activity is predicated upon a deep belief that there is something wrong, in error, in rebellion, and thus becomes us vs them.
There is evidence that extensive implant technology may be used to ensure influenced obedience; yet, a degree of freedom must be conserved through the consciousness due to the essential fact that the valued commodity is consciousness. A totally drugged, surgically altered and thoroughly programmed psyche is only good for robotic slave-service (and this may also be going on, by the way). It is in this understanding that we find our way out of the trap. It isn’t easy, but it is a way.
The primary mode of inducing Stockholm syndrome is, obviously, to persuade through strongly influenced, but not robotic, behavior patterns, the free choice of the targeted consciousness to align with negative hyperdimensional existence. Because, in the long run, the economics of dominating functioning units of consciousness by the negative hierarchy, is a major concern, because the defining element of true consciousness is the irreducible value of free will. Free will is what distinguishes consciousness as consciousness. A simple way of thinking about it is: what has more value, to achieve domination and control of an animal, or a human being? A pauper or a king? Thus, we can also see that the level of free-will consciousness of the victim is also important. It is far more gratifying to hyperdimensional beings to co-opt someone with greater will and positive potential, than someone who is weak.
Just remember Renfield in Bram Stoker’s book Dracula. He was dominated so easily, and therefore, was contemptible in the eyes of the Count. However, the virtuous and noble Mina was seen as a highly desirable target. And, those who give in so easily to such manipulations ought to notice the fate of Renfield – he was promised much in order to use him as a tool, but in the end, he was discarded like a used tissue.
In hyperdimensional spheres, a consciousness that has acceded to domination has agreed to be absorbed. This means that it is effectively food for the negative hierarchy. It does not matter one whit if the agreement is a result of being lied to, if the agreement has come because a grand deception has been played out, such as a negative being appearing as the Virgin Mary and demanding that an altar be built, or penance be done, or it the chosen deception is the goddess Sekhmet. The instant compliance is given by the worshipper, they are “eaten” as consciousness. It’s that simple. And the same is true in our human relationships. When we allow another to manipulate us or deceive us into being dominated, no matter how subtly, we become part of the chain of domination to whomever, or whatever is dominating them, and on up the line.
The modes of persuasion are many and varied. Inducing choice is the objective, and it is immaterial whether or not this is done via deception, persuasive misrepresentation, or other conditioning. Confusion, physical and/or emotional/mental pain, exhaustion, blackmail, and even forms of torture are legitimate modes of persuasion. Exhausting or terrifying a person so that they will run screaming to the arms of that Old-Time Religion is a favored ploy. Of course, the more subtle the means used, the more free will value is retained. A tortured consciousness is the equivalent to being overcooked. Many higher-level Beings of Darkness are veritable connoisseurs! They particularly relish the subversion of those who are truly pure and strong willed by clever employment of great truths with only a small lie embedded about a crucial element such as we find in most religions.
Ra tells us, and the Cs have repeatedly confirmed this, that much channeled information is distorted in exactly this way. This happens because the channels are internally oriented toward STO, but become confused and self-destructive in their desire for proof. The seeking of proof makes an individual open to lying information, and once they have oriented themselves this way, their effectiveness as a positive channel is neutralized.
February 24, 1996
Q: (L) Mike Lindeman has proposed that we submit the channeling to “rigorous testing.”
A: Mike Lindemann does not channel, now does he? What sort of rigorous testing does he propose?
Q: (L) He didn’t say. I guess they want short-term predictions and all sorts of little tests …
A: Precisely, now what does this tell you?
Q: It tells us that he wants proof.
A: Third density “proof” does not apply, as we have explained again and again. Now, listen very carefully: if proof of that type were possible, what do you suppose would happen to free will, and thusly to learning, Karmic Directive Level One?
Q: (L) Well, I guess that if there is proof, you are believing in the proof and not the spirit of the thing. You are placing your reliance upon a material thing. You have lost your free will. Someone has violated your free will by the act of proving something to you.
A: If anyone CHOOSES to believe, that is their prerogative!
Q: (PZ) [unintelligible remark]
A: You did not completely understand the previous response, Pat. And what would constitute proof?
Q: (L) Predictions that came true, answers that were verifiable about a number of things.
A: Those would still be dismissed by a great many as mere coincidences. We have already given predictions, will continue to do so, but, remember, “time” does not exist. This is a 3rd density illusion. We do not play in that sandbox and cannot and never will. The primary reason for our communication is to help you to learn by teaching yourselves to learn, thereby strengthening your soul energy, and assisting your advancement.
Q: (L) Are you saying that your primary reason is just to teach us? This small group?
A: Because you asked for help.
Q: (L) So, you came through because we asked. Is this material being given to others, or is it designed to or intended to be shared with others?
A: If they ask in the necessary way. Otherwise, the sharing of the messages we give to you will teach millions of others.
In addition to disseminating their own negative philosophy directly to those whose internal nature is naturally STS, the greater work of the hyperdimensional controllers seems to be the distortion and corruption of positive information. This takes numerous forms, but the most general is that confusion is induced in the conscious mind, or emotional triggers are utilized to produce “proof” that certain information is – or must be – true.
Ra tells us about “wanderers,” or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity without violating free will. This “service to others” is described as a “dispassionate attempt to share information without concern for numbers or growth among others.” The attempt to make the information available is the service. There are no shortcuts to enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be achieved with rituals or formulas. The only thing that can be shared is information, stories of inspiration, love and mystery, and experiences that may spark another person to reach out and begin seeking on their own.
Ra warns that the challenge and danger of the wanderer is that he or she will forget the mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom. The question here is, of course, how does one become karmically involved? Ra answers: By acting in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings.
As the readers have discovered, what is or is not “love” is a huge issue. And it is in this subject that the most intensive disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems.
Ra describes wanderers as possessing certain qualities of what might be seen as foolhardiness or bravery, depending on the orientation of the perceiver. He adds that they also have a certain purity of mind. This purity of mind presents a certain set of problems that are evident in our experiences, as well as the experiences of many of the readers who have been corresponding with us as we present this series of articles. We aren’t the only ones who are dense and have difficulty seeing the games and manipulations of those with negative agendas.
William March wrote in The Bad Seed:
[G]ood people are rarely suspicious: they cannot imagine others doing the things they themselves are incapable of doing … Then too, the normal are inclined to visualize the [psychopath] as one who’s as monstrous in appearance as he is in mind, which is about as far from the truth as one could well get …
These monsters of real life usually looked and behaved in a more normal manner than their actually normal brothers and sisters; they presented a more convincing picture of virtue than virtue presented of itself – just as the wax rosebud or the plastic peach seemed more perfect to the eye, more what the mind thought a rosebud or a peach should be, than the imperfect, original from which it had been modeled.
So, indeed, this series – in fact, my whole life – is a veritable soap opera of events wherein I am perceived as dense, and even a little slow, because, in fact, I still have difficulty attributing negative intentions to anybody. I cannot imagine anybody doing anything to me that I would not do myself. I cannot predict the actions of evil people. Sure, I write about it, I research it, I seek to examine and understand it so as to find the means of protecting myself and others, because this seems to be crucial information for all of us to get, but damned if it isn’t so that no matter how hard I try, I still cannot fathom deliberate deception, manipulation, cruelty, and insensitivity to the feelings of others.
Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with them. Then, very often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own benevolent motives and perceptions.
Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for reasons to excuse bad behavior.
As the reader might guess, Ra and the Cs both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers. And this bears on the issue of the physical kidnapping at the age of four that I have described in Amazing Grace. Ra was asked if wanderers ever had “close encounters” with the hyperdimensional controllers. I am assuming that the question implied an abduction.
Ra’s answer was interesting. He noted that such abductions are, first of all, rare. But, when it does occur it is generally for one of two reasons: either the abducting entities made a mistake in failing to perceive the deeply positive nature of the individual, in which case they suffered a loss of polarity, or they are fully aware of the nature of the individual but are willing to risk it in order to attempt to remove this positive being from this plane of existence.
Which, of course, brings us back around to such individuals being high-priority targets. Obviously, they can’t abduct them so freely as they would like, and therefore, must make other arrangements or seek other methods to accomplish their aims in order to prevent the loss of polarity, or the “hitting of a brick wall” upon attempting to violate the powerful will of a guardian, or superconsciousness, as Ra described it above. Thus it seems that human agents have to be used in such cases because it seems that the negative hyperdimensional beings often come off badly in these encounters.
As the Cs commented when I asked why I had only been abducted a few times: “you fight it.” And we see the nature of that fighting in the eclipsing of realities comments. We also have a glimpse of the “guardian” as the self-in-the-future concept.
Just to finish off these remarks before we move on, Ra also points out that wanderers, due to the extreme variance between the vibrations of third density and those of the density of origin, often have some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. He remarks that the most common effect is a reaction against the planetary vibrations through what are commonly known as personality disorders, generally “alienation.” He also suggests allergies as a common problem, and the Cs have added to the list by including dietary and nutritional deficiencies. My guess is that the soul complex of a higher-density being that incarnates in third density will produce all sorts of strange glitches. Many of them tend to be overweight, as though the physical body is seeking to accommodate a more intense soul manifestation. They also seem to have unusual nutritional imbalances and blood sugar problems due to the possible greater energy needs perceived by the physical body in its attempt to accommodate higher energy output.
So, I think we now have a much better understanding of some aspects of “occlusion” which the Cs gave as the answer as to why I wasn’t just killed outright, either by human agents or hyperdimensional agents. What is more, this discussion will help us to understand the nature of many other manipulations involving other people and other situations that we will be looking at further on. It also makes us aware that there are rules to the game, though they may not necessarily follow the rules of logic of the material reality. It also seems that learning these rules of hyperdimensional constructs, from which our own reality is mirrored and in which it is embedded, is crucial to finding one’s way through the maze of mirrors.
Now, let’s go in a slightly different direction and see if we can come to some idea of why I was physically kidnapped. Of course, just sharing information as many others are also doing doesn’t seem to warrant having such special attention, now does it? This brings us to the repeated remarks by the Cs about answers that are locked up inside me. Just to review, we already noted that, according to the Cs, one of these secrets is the technology employed in the real Philadelphia Experiment:
March 18, 1995
A: Yes, but the technology is a closely guarded secret.
Q: (L) Do you know the secret?
A: Yes, but you do too!
Q: (L) I do too? […]
A: Philadelphia Experiment.
Another clue to this matter, and the essence of Frank as an agent who was present to divert the information to STS uses, was delivered in the following excerpt in which a question was asked for someone else, but the answer was directed at me:
February 24, 1996
Q: (L) Well, what can she do to maximize the STO presence and minimize the STS use of the conduit?
A: Oh Laura, my dear, seems you need a refresher course in the transcripts. Maybe suggest you read them and relax and privately listen to the ones you have not as of yet transcribed a little more. This would be extremely helpful in your many and increasing communications via the “net” as well. Remember, we help you to unlock answers that have been placed in your superconsciousness files from before the “time” of the birth of your physical body. Also, false information is worse than no information at all.
The very fact that the Cassiopaeans suggested that this be done in private, excluding Frank, was a telling remark when we remember that this information had been locked up by the STS Consortium with full knowledge of the present circumstances, which included the process of communication with the Cassiopaeans.
This produces an interesting conundrum. If Frank was a mole sent in to vacuum the information out of me, why would it be locked so that he couldn’t get it, assuming that his controllers are the same ones who placed the locks?
Looking back over the relationship with Frank and the many discussions between us regarding channeling, it’s pretty obvious now that his primary agenda was to induce me to agree to his role as “the Prime Channel,” and to interact with him while he was under hypnosis in such a way that he could have accessed this information. Very soon, I will give a most fascinating example of another similar individual and his own vacuum operation and how it got him a Nobel Prize!
In short, if I had given in to Frank’s repeated manipulations, I would have been in a state of Stockholm syndrome, and at some deep level, this might have permitted the accessing of the locked information. In fact, it may have been part of the plan for Frank to channel, via trance, entirely different information from what is presented by the Cs. Based on small clues that can be connected to corrupting static, he had some sort of save-the-world agenda in certain terms that were later to be more fully explicated in the manipulations of Vincent Bridges along a similar line. (These manipulations became apparent during and after the mirror session and discussion included in Appendix C.)
It is obvious that the locks were put in place to prevent me from accessing whatever information is buried myself. But, naturally, if I were convinced by corrupted information channeled by Frank that I needed to do something to save the world, I would be far more likely to allow my psyche and subconscious to be manipulated. It is even possible that, given Frank’s status as an empty pipe, a sort of black-hole consciousness, he could have accessed the information in my deep subconscious while he was under hypnosis, without me even being aware of it – providing a period of bonding had been gone through in this mode of communication.
So, we conclude that, 1) by refusing to be manipulated into the Frank-as-the-Prime-Channel ruse, I avoided the manipulations of the forces controlling him; 2) by insisting on utilization of the board as a means of accessing deep levels of consciousness, I grooved a channel through the first layer of locks in my own subconscious – as the Cs described it, “awakening self-recognition;” 3) the Cassiopaeans endeavored to make it clear that communicating in this way, with Frank present, was not the way to the deeper information. Repeatedly they gave clues and made non-directive suggestions including coming right out and saying:
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) Well, I want to have a little direction here.
A: Concentrate on settlement. This can be a problem solver if handled wisely, a curse if not so! Use some of the funds to locate a “superhypnotherapist.”
Of course, the immediate thought about such a statement is to think of somebody who quite simply is a hypnotherapist! You know, the guy with the swinging watch and the deep voice intoning, “You vill go deeper!” But it is obvious that the Cs had something altogether different in mind. There was also the additional clue about the “net,” which clearly indicates that the Cassiopaeans knew that Ark was going to find me via the Net exactly 72 days following the above quoted remarks about the retrieval of answers placed in my superconsciousness files. What is more, the need for funds was directly related to the fact that my computer needed serious upgrading before I could even connect to the Internet effectively.
May 27, 1996
A: Laura! Turn over stones, sell apples, do whatever you have to do to get your computer refitted to accommodate the Internet, including the online market system, as soon as absolutely possible!!!!!!
Q: (L) Well, I am not really in a position to spend that money right now! And what do you mean to “turn over stones and sell apples?”
A: Figures of speech! Do what you have to do … take care of the mechanics, my Dear, the rest will fall into place …
Funny that they used the words “stones” and “apples,” considering the part they play in the Rennes-le-Château affair as well as mythical and alchemical matters! The point was, at that moment in time, I was only 29 days away from my husband, Ark, finding me via the Internet. The nexus point was moving inexorably, and the Cs were most anxious that I not miss the rendezvous!
What is totally bizarre is that Ark’s colleague in Florence sent him an email just two days before the Cs’ remarks about the superhypnotherapist, which included the words “spin” and “stones.”
Date sent: Mon, 22 Apr 1996 15:54:23 +0100 (MET)
From: M*** M****
Subject: spin spin
To: ajad@ift….
Dear Arkadiusz,
Did you receive my form? did you return it with your signature? do you commute or do you still anticommute? how is your harmonic attitude? I am looking forward to receiving good news of a new life full of positive energy and precious little stones for your feet. […]
Ark replied on the day after the above-mentioned session with the following banter that revealed his state of desperation:
From: “Arkadiusz Jadczyk”
To: m****
Subject: Re: spin spin
Date sent: Thu, 25 Apr 1996 11:06:34 +1
Dear M*****,
I received your form. I signed it and I am sending it back to you.
I am afraid I am still fermionic. Anti-commuting nilpotent (www-home.univer.kharkov.ua/duplij/susy/susy2000.htm). Being alone means in this case being linear. Being linear means being flat. Being flat excludes being sharp. Mio mondo e fragile.
Ciao,
ark
On June 15th, 19 days later, the issue of gravity waves was brought up, dangled like a carrot to my inquisitive mind, with the suggestion that I research it. Of course they knew I would find nothing in local sources, and that I would realize that the Internet was the logical place to search for answers.
Another suggestion/clue about the nature of this “super hypnotherapist” who was supposed to help me access this knowledge of gravity waves and UFT was given 7 days later, as I continued to struggle to find the answers, or to find a way to access them:
June 22, 1996
Q: (L) Is there any point on the body that can be used to assist in opening the gate to the subconscious?
A: No such assistance is needed. First, we would like to suggest that you seek a “spin” doctor for your quest!!
So, we have a whole series of clues building until finally the Cs practically give the whole thing away! Putting the word “spin” in quotes indicated that a very special meaning was intended. Then they added: “Hilliard. Leedskalnin. Coral Castle.” These were additional clues to what they meant by “spin” doctor, and they all related back to gravity, antigravity, moving stones with sound, and those matters having to do with physics. “Spin,” of course, with these additional clues, indicated a physicist – or a “doctor of gravity.” And as it turned out, Ark shares his roots and origin with Hilliard and Edward Leedskalnin.
So, we come to some idea that Ark, as a physicist, was part of the circumstances of which the Supreme STS Consortium was aware when they placed locks on the knowledge files in my superconsciousness. And that raises the all-important question: what is there about the relationship between a channel and a physicist that such efforts must be undertaken to prevent their meeting and all that would naturally follow from such an association?
Somehow, I don’t think that it’s just sharing information.
When Ark finally did find me, when the connection with the spin-doctor was finally made, I did attempt to discover in advance what was going on. As usual, the Cs would not give me the answers since it was absolutely essential for my choices to remain fully free to preserve the STO dynamic. However, they did make a very strange remark that is a huge clue to the idea of the locks placed on the knowledge in my superconsciousness. Now, with the connection to Ark established, they begin to talk about keys:
July 27, 1996
Q: (L) Well, you have answered this kind of question before! You have told me about so many other people! How come you won’t answer me about him?
A: It is not appropriate.
Q: (L) Why is it not appropriate? I am just trying to understand! I am in such a whirlwind inside … pleeeeeease …
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Does that mean good or bad?
A: It means what is Anna doing with those keys?
Q: (L) What are you talking about? Anna doesn’t have any keys!? I am exhausted, and you are being too obscure.
Now, the strange thing about this remark is the fact that Ark’s ex-wife’s name is Anna. It is also a nickname we use for one of my daughters, so the remark about “keys” was, at the moment, so ambiguous that it only caused confusion. Since my daughter didn’t have any “keys,” and since the question was about Ark, the only conclusion that could be drawn was that the “keys” that the Cassiopaeans were referring to was Ark himself. What was his ex-wife “doing with those keys?” It was pretty simple: she was trying to destroy him. For thirty years, he recorded this struggle in his journals. His desperation to find his way reached a crescendo in 1989 when he wrote:
April 10, 1989
I am losing my life (…)
A year later, after intensive work on himself:
Marseille, March 15, 1990
Lord, help me. Lord, please help me. I am only a channel. I do not know why, I do not know for how long I am sent here. What else remains than to serve you, oh Lord. (…)
Marseille, April 1, 1990
My plan for life.
First of all I realized that in the sun I see quite well. If I relax myself, then I see quite well. Which is wonderful. I have no problems with even the smallest letters.
Ergo – look into the sun. Ergo – take care about a proper lighting.
On the other hand – this is a sign!
If I see in the sun, that means I need the sun to see clearly what I am doing.
What is this “sun”?
Sun is light which does not come from me. I cannot bring the sun here. I must GO FOR IT. I must find a source of light. (…)
What is this light? Is it FAITH? Is that YOU LORD? (…)
Ark shared his journal entries with me almost immediately. These words were so like my own lifelong search for the light that would show the way that they actually acted like “keys” unlocking something inside me. I understood that such light, if found, may never illuminate anything more than one’s own family or friends; but in the grand scheme of things, even such a small effect can have long-term results over vast eons of time. Ark and I both understood this, but we also understood that there was potential for some truly valuable contribution to humanity, if only in the realm of discovery and sharing those discoveries. With these thoughts in mind, I continued the questioning, trying not to reveal too much about our private discussions:
Q: Is there some clue as to how to conduct myself? Is he in any danger by talking about coming here?
A: No more than usual.
Q: (L) He believes that we can do things, that they can be done, that we can have a positive effect.
A: Then focus on that! […]
Q: (L) Well, I don’t want to put him in any danger.
A: There are ways.
Q: (L) Is there anything we can do with this gravity-wave business? He is also very interested in this.
A: Then work on that with him!! Review the transcripts and that which has not yet been transcribed.
With every answer, the Cassiopaeans were confirming our private discussions on these things, this dream of leaving some legacy to others that would make some positive difference in the world.
Perhaps the reader who is familiar with my own story in Amazing Grace, as well as some parts of Ark’s story, and how he struggled against growing up under a suppressive political regime that threatened his career because he refused to cooperate with scientific controls and suppression, as well as a control-freak drama-queen wife at home, will have some idea of how amazing it was for us to finally meet our other half, and also how difficult and painful it was to realize that it needed slow and careful preparation in order to ensure that our future together would be stable. Neither of us could just jump on a plane and fly over to meet with the other. Neither of us was of a nature to abandon our responsibilities or to give into emotion without thinking and due caution.
Since our main mode of contact was via the computer in Ark’s office, when he went home at night, which was usually around nine o’clock his time, and three in the afternoon my time, both of us would experience a momentary loss of equilibrium at the apparent termination of communication. After so many long and painful years of being alone, we had so little – just words on a screen – and it never was easy to say goodnight. We developed strategies for being together at a distance, including imagining that we were together throughout the day, each of us viewing our activities through the eyes of the other. When he went home at night, to ease the momentary panic, we would both pretend that I was there with him, walking home hand in hand.
On one particular day, we discussed our ideas of possibilities, the questions to be answered, the research to be done, the contribution to humanity that we both had dreamed of making. We discussed the fact that we both had the same dreams, the same ideals, the same drive to serve others at the highest level of which we were capable. We analyzed why it had never been possible to achieve any of these things in the fullest way, and we realized that it was because of the fact that we were alone; our fundamental natures require total sharing to be fully functional. We had both given up hope, but now hope was renewed, and we thought that it was likely that all of our lives up to that point had been just the preparation for combining our energies, sharing the burden, symbolized by being “hand in hand.”
That night, at the session, the Cassiopaeans again brought up the “keys” issue with the “secret handshake” as if to confirm our private discussions:
August 31, 1996
A: Appreciate the fact that you have been given the keys to end all this pain.
Q: (L) When you say, “end all this pain,” it sounds a little more inclusive than just my shoulder hurting! I mean, that sounds rather suggestive.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) To end all this pain …
A: It all goes hand in hand.
It was quite a while before the realization of these things began to dawn on me. Not only was Ark the spin-doctor, he was the superhypnotherapist with the keys:
June 7, 1997
Q: When you said I needed to find a “superhypnotist” to break the locks on the knowledge placed in my superconsciousness, and then you suggested a “spin” doctor, and now Ark’s actions while I was sleeping brought out some of the keys to large pieces of the puzzle and the connections, am I on the right track when I think that the actions we are taking in searching out these pieces of the puzzle, putting them together, and the amazing discoveries that have taken place as we go along, is the action of the “breaking” of these locks?
A: Likely.
Which, of course, brings us back to why the locks were put there to begin with, and what specific situation was in their awareness when they did this.
If we speculate that there are time-traveling, mind-marauding, controllers of our reality who exist at a frequency that is blocked from our perception via genetic manipulation of our wave-reading faculties, i.e. our brains, and they have an agenda to produce a certain outcome at a certain point in “time,” and there is something or someone whose activities or work acts in a nonlinear way to prevent that outcome, it would be only natural for them to attempt to manipulate events by traveling into the past and changing something in some way that stacks the cards in their favor.
But time traveling is an iffy business, according to Ra. There are rules to the game.
As I have been collecting together the evidence – or the chronological reminders from emails and such – for the events of the past few years, the one thing that stands out is that a lot of very strange people have been after us – contacting us repeatedly – for the primary purpose of obtaining information about time travel.
This started almost immediately as soon as we had gotten the Cs site up and running. There were emails from dabbler types who were just curious, and we didn’t think too much about it; there were emails from folks who claimed that they had invented a time machine, and wanted some scientific support to get funding for their ideas; there were hotshot physics students gunning for a showdown at high noon so they could prove they had figured the whole thing out, and then … then there was “Greg.”
Greg wrote to us, and worked very hard to present a major case for why we should work with him on time travel. I was bleeding all over myself in sympathy until Ark tracked his visits to an IP in Langley, VA. Well, based on the many glitches in the story, we just figured he was a minor spook. We also figured it was a warning of sorts. But, I patiently undertook to address replies to his emails, and they became part of the website, on some of the earlier discussion page archives.
No sooner had we dealt with Greg, along came a couple from “South Africa” with a similar story. The whole set-up was designed to push all our sympathy buttons and get us to focus on the time-travel issue. As we discussed their terrible story with them (I was really sorry for this woman who claimed to have lost her two children in an auto accident), certain glitches began popping up and when we asked questions about these confusing elements, suddenly the correspondence stopped. We realized that we were being toyed with – that the story was bait.
Not long after this, Greg had another go at it under a different name, though it was the same IP he was posting from. The story was slightly different, but essentially it was designed to lure us into giving him information out of sympathy. You know, “Oh, if I had only done thus and so, my beloved (girlfriend, wife, child, pet schnauzer) would be here today! Please help me go back in time and save a life!”
Then, along came the above-mentioned economist, who came to visit us, and, during the course of two days of talks, revealed that his agenda was time travel. He also revealed very interesting other connections, as we will discover further on.
One after the other, an almost endless parade of folks trying one way or the other to wring from us, trick from us, coerce from us, manipulate or even force from us, the “secret” of time travel. A secret we don’t have – at least not consciously.
So, there we are trying to figure out what the heck is going on. Why are all these people interested in time travel? Why are they focusing their attention on us, one way or another?
It took me a long time to put the pieces together. After all, we just assumed that they had all the Aces. But, apparently not. You see, it seems that they are all looking for something.
The question then arises: Why, if they have time travel, are they looking for something? Did they lose something?
The next thing we discussed was the issue of why they were so desperate that they were willing to physically kidnap me when I was four years old? Sure, all kinds of weird stories of abductions are out there, but apparently that was not the option here. And apparently, something was so important that they literally risked exposure by doing this.
So, we came to the idea that the STS forces, lost in their wishful thinking, had somehow screwed up and lost the artifact: Something that is crucial to their plans – something that they are desperately trying to retrieve – and maybe something that they are convinced I can find for them.
And as it happens, during a recent session the Cs said that realms are “Frequency Resonance Envelopes”, which made total sense based on certain computer simulations the research team have done. And this leads us to: “why me?”
One hypothesis is that the controllers, those who are deep in the STS Frequency Envelope, literally can’t see the artifact due to frequency-resonance problems. The simulations the research team have done with Ark’s EEQT make this clear, since it seems a wave can be deconstructed into parts that may or may not be in phase (but this only becomes apparent if you view the wave using all available information about the wave, and Ark says that pretty much no one does that). If they are out of phase, resonance forces the parts to come into phase, seemingly because that’s the only stable state of the system. Standing waves are the two-dimensional projection of stable rotating spirals, i.e. the only motion is rotation.
What this means is that only individuals who are resonating (literally, not the New Age concept) with it, can see it. And things finally began to make sense. They need me to find it, because they cannot see it.
But note: as a member of the research team said: “This is one of the current ideas anyway, and I guess time will tell how on the mark we are.”
So we come back to the circumstances surrounding the locks being “put on knowledge in my superconsciousness” by a “supremely powerful STS consortium,” with full knowledge of the present circumstances. We begin to understand that it was crucial to lock it away from me, and then, at some point in time to retrieve the information. Frank failed because the Cs were too shrewd, and because of this failure, he was taken out of the project. Vincent Bridges was sent in to make a more direct attempt to retrieve the information, and an entire drama was set up to drive me into an emotional corral – a state of belief that he was part of the mission – and that it would be safe to allow him to attempt to retrieve the information about the object. And he damn near did it, except that, again, the Cs nudged the situation sufficiently so that this attempt failed. (See Appendix C for the full account.)
Of course, we recall that STS always takes the path of least resistance, and rather than waste a couple of perfectly good agents, they just changed their programs, and voila! Energizer Bunny Attack-bots.
January 10, 2002
A: [Frank] was programmed for the specific purpose of “downloading” from you secrets coded into you before birth of your present body. He failed because you were incorruptible. He is now charged with the mission, in concert with Vincent Bridges, of destroying your ability to accomplish your mission.
And we find ourselves again considering kidnapping done by a “select division of economic legion under control of G5.” What does economics have to do with it?
You might be very surprised to learn that “economics” of a very special kind is the template for controlling the world. But for that vast subject, we continue in the next volume …
Until recently, impacts by extraterrestrial bodies were regarded as, perhaps, an interesting but certainly not important phenomenon in the spectrum of geological processes affecting the Earth. This has only been the case since Lyell, Laplace and Newton put a period to such speculations. What seems to have happened is that, through repeated cataclysms, man has been brought low, relegated to darkness regarding his history, and at the very point when he began to study and analyze his environment objectively, religion stepped in and put a period to such ideas. Velikovsky’s work was vilified by the scientific community, and shortly after, there came an onslaught of ideas promoting extraterrestrials as the source of civilization anomalies; and then, of course, Zecharia Sitchin’s infamous “10th Planet” hypothesis to explain away planetary disruptions that could not be adequately concealed.
The question is, why? What, in the name of all things reasonable, would prompt anyone to wish to hide these matters? What kind of sick mind would divert the attention of humanity away from what is evident all over the planet to those with open eyes, and promote so assiduously ideas that mislead, misguide, and generally placate the populace with an assurance that either nothing is going to happen, or if it does, it will be preceded by a long period of approach by a body that is well organized and clearly seen, and that the government can probably “fix it?”
Well, the clue is right there: “Placate the populace.” Control.
But, heavenly days! What kind of lunatics would want to keep everything under control in that sense if they have some idea that they, themselves, might be destroyed by the very processes they are concealing?
Obviously, they don’t think so. Obviously, they think they have a plan. That suggests that, obviously, they know a lot more about what’s going on, what the possibilities and probabilities are, than the rest of us. One of the “official views” of the subject that is available to the public tells us:
Our concept of the importance of impact processes, however, has been changed radically through planetary exploration, which has shown that virtually all planetary surfaces are cratered from the impact of interplanetary bodies. […] The Earth, as part of the solar system, experienced the same bombardment as the other planetary bodies.
Most of the terrestrial impact craters that ever formed, however, have been obliterated by other terrestrial geological processes. Some examples, however, remain. To date, approximately 150 impact craters have been identified on Earth. Almost all known craters have been recognized since 1950 and several new structures are found each year.
Meteorite fragments are found only at the smallest craters and they are quickly destroyed in the terrestrial environment. […] Although the number of known impact craters on Earth is relatively small, the preserved sample is an extremely important resource for understanding impact phenomena. They provide the only ground-truth data currently available and are amenable to extensive geological, geophysical and geochemical study. […] In some cases, the large size of terrestrial impact craters, up to approximately 300 km in diameter, requires orbital imagery and observation to provide an overall view of their structure and large-scale context. […]
The tendency to discount impact processes as a factor in the Earth’s more recent geologic history was severely challenged by the interpretation in 1980 that Cretaceous-Tertiary (K-T) boundary sediments worldwide were due to a major impact event, and that impact was the causal agent for a mass extinction event. The acceptance of the K-T impact hypothesis by the more general terrestrial geoscience community was not instantaneous and considerable controversy and debate was generated. Today, there are few workers who would deny that there is abundant diagnostic evidence that a major impact event occurred at the K-T boundary. It is fair to say, however, there is less consensus on the role of impact in the associated mass extinction event, with some workers still having difficulty in accepting impact-related processes as the cause.
The impact signal of the K-T event is recognizable globally, because large impact events have the capacity to blow out a hole in the atmosphere above the impact site, permitting some impact materials to be dispersed globally by the impact fireball, which rises above the atmosphere. These materials do not require atmospheric winds for dispersal and have the capacity to encircle the globe in relatively short time periods, before eventually returning to the surface. Model calculations indicate that it does not require a K-T-sized event, which produced the buried 180 km diameter Chicxulub impact structure in the Yucatan, Mexico, to result in atmospheric blowout. Relatively small impact events, resulting in impact structures in the 20 km size-range can produce atmospheric blowout. […]
From estimates of the terrestrial cratering rate, the frequency of K-T-sized events on Earth is of the order of one every 50 to 100-million years. Smaller, but still significant impact events, occur on shorter time scales and will affect the terrestrial climate and biosphere to varying degrees. The formation of impact craters as small as 20 km could produce light reductions and temperature disruptions similar to a nuclear winter. […]
The most fragile component of the present environment, however, is modern human civilization, which is highly dependent on an organized and technologically complex infrastructure for its survival. […] There is little doubt that if civilization lasts long enough, it will suffer severely or may even be destroyed by an impact event. […]
[A]n impact anywhere in the Atlantic Ocean by a body 400 m in diameter would devastate the coasts on both sides of the ocean with wave run-ups of over 60 miles. The 1960 tsunami, generated by a magnitude 8.6 Chilean earthquake, is thought to have been the largest this century. An impact-generated tsunami ten times more powerful will occur with a typical recurrence time of a few thousand years.
Small impacting bodies release their energy in the atmosphere as an air burst. The threshold size at which this is exceeded depends on the strength of the impacting body. For example, iron impacting bodies up to 20 miles will deposit their energy in the atmosphere and not reach the surface; whereas, comets as large as 200 miles will deposit their energy in the atmosphere. Such air-burst explosions, fortunately, are not efficient at delivering their energy to the ground, because some of initial energy is blown into space. The Tunguska event in 1908 was due to the atmospheric explosion of a relatively small, approximately few tens of meters, body at an altitude of 10 km. The energy released, has been estimated to be 10-100 megatons TNT equivalent. Although the air blast resulted in the devastation of 2000 sq. km of Siberian forest, there was no loss of human life due to the very sparse population. Events such as Tunguska occur on a time-scale of hundreds of years. […]
The next large impact with the Earth could be an “impact-winter”-producing event or even a K-T-sized event. To emphasize this point, in March 1989 an asteroidal body named “1989-FC” passed within 700,000 km of the Earth. This Earth-crossing body was not discovered until it had passed the Earth. It is estimated to be in the 0.5 km size-range, capable of producing a Zhamanshin-sized crater or a devastating tsunami. Although 700,000 km is a considerable distance, it translates to a miss of the Earth by only a few hours, when orbital velocities are considered. At present, no systems or procedures are in place, specifically for mitigating the effects of an impact. [This author’s emphases]
The conclusion that I have reached after the research that went into Secret History is that the inner solar system experiences swarms of comets/asteroids on a fairly regular schedule. One major swarm comes at 3,600-year intervals, and there are minor swarms at other intervals; and these cycles are sub-cycles of even larger swarms, at intervals of hundreds of thousands of years, and even millions of years. The massive bombardment of the East Coast of the U.S. around 12,000 to 12,500 years ago, resulting in the Carolina Bays, is evidence of the great number and relatively small sizes of many of these bodies, indicating that they released their energy into the air above the ground, similar to the Tunguska event. Keep in mind, of course, that the air blast of a single small body over Tunguska resulted in the devastation of 2000 sq. km of Siberian forest. This pretty much confirms the Cassiopaeans’ remark about this, made on August 22, 1998:
Q: (L) Okay, we would like to know, what was this famous explosion in Tunguska?
A: Comet fragment.
This would also explain many other discontinuities in history that have destroyed centers of civilization without necessarily leaving any impact craters. Such events would also be viewed by uneducated peoples as “the wars of the gods.” Of course, larger asteroid type bodies are also well represented in the geological record with impact craters being discovered every day.
At present, the Carolina Bays (discussed in Secret History) are numbered at somewhere around 500,000. I want the reader to just stop and think about that for a minute. Think about 500,000 Tunguska-like events. Forget movies like Armageddon or Deep Impact where there is a single “big one” and the government can save us. Instead, go rent the movie Asteroid, and watch the rain of rocks on New York City for a much better idea of what we are talking about. The effect will be similar, only it may occur over the entire globe. Then just think about the fact that the Carolina Bay phenomenon covers several states. Put that together with the evidence of “nuclear” explosions in the great lakes regions, as well as other areas, dated to about the same time, and then consider a most interesting fact reported in the news quite recently: That one of the largest asteroids known to have approached the Earth zipped past about 450,000 km away on March 8, 2002 — but nobody recorded it until four days later. Yes, a miss is as good as a mile, but these “near misses” have been occurring with greater and greater frequency in recent years. This could be seen as a result of increased observational ability, or it could be because we are already experiencing the first influx of a swarm of such bodies entering the inner solar system.
On March 15, 2002, New Scientist magazine said that the object was “hard to spot because it was moving outward from the innermost point of its orbit, 87-million km from the Sun. When it passed closest to the Earth — just 1.2 times the distance to the Moon — it was too close to the Sun to be visible. Asteroids approaching from this blind spot cannot be seen by astronomers. If a previously unknown object passed through this zone on a collision course with Earth, it would not be identified until it was too late for any intervention.”
How many other “blind spots” are there?
How many other “objects” are out there zipping this way? How many of them are in “swarms” where any single one of them might not produce a “global” event, but taken together, could destroy our civilization and leave almost no trace of their activity other than the widespread destruction?
With just the brief review we have presented, it seems obvious by now that human civilization very likely has had a very different history than the standard teachings will admit. Here and in other volumes, we have presented only a tip of the iceberg of evidence. This evidence is available to the researcher who is diligent, thorough, and refuses to accept the material propagated in popular, mass-market books written by authors who either have not searched widely and deeply enough, or who have an agenda. Yes, it may be a bit harder to get, because it seems that the numerous government-sponsored scientific studies on the periodic rains of comets/asteroids are concealed behind obscure titles in technical journals, or on microfiche in university libraries. But with persistence, the material can be gathered together, examined, and extrapolated upon.
Again, we come back to the question as to why this topic is — at the very least — subjected to such extreme prejudice that it amounts to concealment? Why are there so many books about things like the 10th Planet, precessional alignments related to world ages, Stargates, Galactic Core Explosions, and so forth, that pass with only mild criticism; yet Velikovsky’s proposal of rains of cometary bodies was so viciously vilified? This brings us back to that most interesting passage written by Wilhelm Reich:
Why did man, through thousands of years, wherever he built scientific, philosophic, or religious systems, go astray with such persistence and with such catastrophic consequences?” […] Is human erring necessary? Is it rational? Is all error rationally explainable and necessary? If we examine the sources of human error, we find that they fall into several groups: Gaps in the knowledge of nature form a wide sector of human erring. Medical errors prior to the knowledge of anatomy and infectious diseases were necessary errors. But we must ask if the mortal threat to the first investigators of animal anatomy was a necessary error too.
The belief that the Earth was fixed in space was a necessary error, rooted in the ignorance of natural laws. But was it an equally necessary error to burn Giordano Bruno at the stake and to incarcerate Galileo? […] We understand that human thinking can penetrate only to a given limit at a given time. What we fail to understand is why the human intellect does not stop at this point and say: “This is the present limit of my understanding. Let us wait until new vistas open up.” This would be rational, comprehensible, purposeful thinking. (Reich, 1949)
The only problem here is that we have discovered that the material is available! There are many vistas of understanding that are open in our world to those with eyes to see! We have listed our sources. There are photographs and images of the proof that our planet has been repeatedly bombarded with showers of comets/asteroids; there exists stacks of evidence — recorded in books, papers, monographs, theories — that civilizations of greater advancement than our own have existed on the earth, and have been repeatedly destroyed. There are piles of evidence that attest to a far greater age of mankind than is presently accepted or taught by mainstream science. In every case, this evidence is ignored, marginalized, explained or argued away, and those who wish to make such information publicly available to a wider audience, are similarly marginalized and dealt with. What is even more interesting, as we noted previously, is the fact that the “mainstream occultists” have jumped on the uniformitarian bandwagon and are vigorously promoting reams of disinformation. Our own experience has been that our attempts to talk about this sort of thing have resulted in coordinated attacks from certain so-called “occultists,” who have even sunk so low as to spend inordinate amounts of time roaming the internet, denouncing our research group as a “cult,” writing libelous, defamatory public postings about us personally; and most importantly, attempting to destroy the Cassiopaeans’ material as a source of clues to our reality. Reich notes this problem and writes:
What amazes us is the sudden turn from the rational beginning to the irrational illusion. Irrationality and illusion are revealed by the intolerance and cruelty with which they are expressed. We observe that human thought-systems show tolerance as long as they adhere to reality. The more the thought process is removed from reality, the more intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee its continued existence. (Reich, 1949; this author’s emphasis)
Here is where we have to begin to really think about things in a reasonable and objective way. If there is so much evidence available — and there is — why is it so rabidly attacked and dismissed? Why is it necessary to defame, libel, crush, and destroy those who bring up these matters, and who also produce the evidence? Most especially, why is this so, when we know that there are groups — such as the government and certain academics — who do study these things, who do commission reports on them, who collect the data? Just what they heck is going on? Why do they permit — no, actually encourage — the crazy ideas about 10th Planets or galactic explosions or precessional clocks of world ages, when the simple truth is so evident?
Reich proposed that the “adherence to the surface of phenomena” was related to “a certain connection with the structure of the human animal.” He thought that the function of seeking the truth must be somehow “buried” since the tendency to “evade the obvious” was so powerful. In this idea, we are, of course, reminded of Castaneda’s “Predator.”
“We have a predator that came from the depths of the cosmos and took over the rule of our lives. Human beings are its prisoners. […] You have arrived, by your effort alone, to what the shamans of ancient Mexico called the topic of topics. I have been beating around the bush all this time, insinuating to you that something is holding us prisoner. Indeed we are held prisoner! This was an energetic fact for the sorcerers of ancient Mexico. […] They took over because we are food for them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in chicken coops, the predators rear us in human coops. Therefore, their food is always available to them.” […]
“I want to appeal to your analytical mind,” don Juan said. “Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.” […]
In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now. […] Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. (Castaneda, 1998, 213-220; this author’s emphases)
Reich, of course, decided that the cause of “needless human erring” was due to the “pathological quality of human character.” In fact, this fits quite well with what Castaneda has written: “The Predators gave us their mind.” Reich also pointed out, quite reasonably, that religion, education, social mores, suppression of a true understanding of love, and so on, were merely symptoms of this fact. This is what led Reich to conclude: “The answer lies somewhere in that area of our existence which has been so heavily obscured by organized religion and put out of our reach. Hence, it probably lies in the relation of the human being to the cosmic energy that governs him.”
As we have mentioned, Reich was moving dangerously close to describing the hyperdimensional reality. And, as a result, he, too, was subjected to overt intolerance and cruelty. He rightly noted: “Irrationality and illusion are revealed by the intolerance and cruelty with which they are expressed. […] The more the thought process is removed from reality, the more intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee its continued existence.”
It is in this last remark that we come to some clue about the matter: Intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee the “cover-up.” A certain kind of “human being” acts on behalf of this cover-up. A certain kind of human being acts as the playing pieces in the “Secret Games of the Gods.” The Cassiopaeans have said that this has something to do with economics.
This brings us to other strange matters, something called “Alternative 3” that is somehow mixed up with this cover-up of the ideas of the Holy Grail, the Ark of the Covenant, and the true history of mankind, including cyclic cometary destruction. Let me just insert here a couple of very strange little exchanges with the Cassiopaeans that I would like the reader to have in mind as we go along:
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Q: OK, where is the Ark of the Covenant currently located?
A: “Alternative 3.”
Q: (L) “Alternative 3” is the plan to take all the people, all the smart guys, all the elite, off the planet and leave everybody else here to blow-up, isn’t it?
A: Maybe. Maybe not. [This “maybe not” was delivered in the midst of the next question and was originally included with the nest answer. But it rightly belongs here, and so I have moved it to retain the proper context.]
Q: (L) Where is it currently located?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) We’re trying to discover, through our interaction with you. How else can we discover something as obscure as this? I mean, that’s a pretty darned obscure question, I would think. (SV) Who’s in charge of “Alternative 3,” Laura? (L) That’s too complicated…. (SV) Well, maybe they have it, who ever is in charge of it. (L) Well, are you going to tell us anything about it?
A: Study “Alternative 3” to find answer!
Curiously, as we will discover, the very next question relates to the subject of “Alternative 3,” though I did not know it at the time:
Q: (L) OK, the Matrix material says that Henry Kissinger is the current head of MJ-12. Is this correct?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is he just a red herring, so to speak?
A: Yes. MJ-12 is no longer MJ-12.
Q: (L) What is MJ-12 now known as?
A: Institute of Higher Learning.
Q: (L) Are you talking about Brookings Lab, or Brookhaven?
A: Not really.
Q: (L) Is it a specific institute of higher learning?
A: Yes.
We will soon discover that “Alternative 3” has a lot to do with HAARP as well:
February 17, 1996
Q: (L) Some people on the net want me to ask about this HAARP thing… seems to be some sort of antennae thing….
A: Disguise for something else.
Q: (L) What is that something else?
A: Project to apply EM-wave theories to the transference of perimeters.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: If utilized as designed, will allow for controlled invisibility and easy movement between density levels on surface of planet as well as subterranially.
Q: (L) Who is in charge of building this thing?
A: More than one entity.
Q: (L) What groups?
A: INVELCO is one guise as well as UNICON and banking interest.
Q: (L) Who is in disguise as INVELCO and UNICON? Are they just dummy companies for cover?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you tell us if this is a human organization, or aliens, or a combination?
A: Human at surface level. […]
Q: (L) Is there more you can tell us about this?
A: It has nothing to do with weather or climate. These things are emanating from 4th density, as we have told you before. […]
Q: (L) So, HAARP has nothing to do with the weather?
A: And also, EM [electromagnetic] associated with same as reported.
Q: (L) So, when is this HAARP thing scheduled to go into operation?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Is it currently in operation?
A: Experimental.
Q: (L) How long have they been working on this thing?
A: Since the 1920s.
Q: (L) What?! The 1920s?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, that certainly is strange.
So what is “Alternative 3”? On Monday, June 20, 1977, the UK’s Anglia Television broadcast the last program in a series of serious science documentaries called Science Report. All of the shows were produced by highly-respected science reporters and it was simulcast in UK, Australia, New Zealand, Canada, Iceland, Norway, Sweden, Finland, Greece, and Yugoslavia. The title of the segment was “Alternative 3,” and it was never broadcast in the United States. Some say that the “powers that be” prevented it from being screened here.
The documentary presented the following purported “facts”:
There is a secret joint US/USSR space program that has gone far beyond what the public sees. Astronauts landed on Mars in 1962. It has been discovered that there is other intelligent life in the universe. The earth is dying. We have polluted it beyond repair. The increasing “greenhouse effect” will cause the polar ice caps and glaciers to melt and flood the Earth.
There are three possible solutions for mankind:
Alternative 1: Stop all pollution immediately and blow two huge holes in the ozone layer. This would allow excessive UV light to reach the earth and millions would die of skin cancer.
Alternative 2: Immediately begin digging underground cities for the elite [the “New World Order”?] — the lucky ones deemed worth saving — and let the teeming billions perish on the polluted surface.
Alternative 3: Build spaceships and get the elite off the planet — to the Moon and Mars. Kidnap and take along some “ordinary” people for use as slave labor. Use “mind control” techniques to control them. Leave the remainder of humanity to wallow in its own filth.
After the television show was aired, a book was published with three authors listed: Leslie Watkins, Christopher Miles and David Ambrose. Christopher Miles, who also directed and co-wrote the documentary, is the brother of actress Sara Miles. The actual author of the book version, Leslie Watkins, was a writer of thrillers even before writing Alternative 3. Fortean Times later published an article in which Nick Austin, then editorial director of Sphere Books, revealed that he commissioned Leslie Watkins to write the book version for literary agent Murray Pollinger.
The question is, however, whether there was any fact behind that fiction. Bill Cooper, killed in a shoot-out with the law, incorporated many of the “Alternative 3” elements into his conspiracy theories. The stories came fast and furious, and “Alternative 3” was grafted onto the mythos of the Philadelphia Experiment that became the Montauk Experiment as promulgated by Al Bielek and others. What is most interesting are the comments of the author of the book about the correspondence she received after its publication:
In fact, the amazing mountains of letters from virtually all parts of the world — including vast numbers from highly intelligent people in positions of responsibility — convinced me that I had ACCIDENTALLY trespassed into a range of top-secret truths.
Documentary evidence provided by many of these correspondents decided me [sic] to write a serious and COMPLETELY NON-FICTION sequel. Unfortunately, a chest containing the bulk of the letters was among the items which were mysteriously LOST IN TRANSIT some four years later when I moved from London, England, to Sydney, Australia, before I moved on to settle in New Zealand. For some time after Alternative 3 was originally published, I had reason to suppose that my home telephone was being tapped, and my contacts who were experienced in such matters were convinced that certain intelligence agencies considered that I probably knew too much.
It would be a mistake to file Alternative 3 away too cozily with Panorama’s spaghetti harvest and other hoaxes. Suppose it were fiendish double-bluff inspired by the very agencies identified in the program, and that the superpowers really are setting up an extraterrestrial colony of outstanding human beings to safeguard the species?
I think that Leslie Watkins is onto something in saying that this story may have something to do with “top-secret truths,” but when we consider the modes of disinformation, we have to realize that the “truth” may not be necessarily the story that is promoted, as it is promoted. It may have little to do with the setting up of an extraterrestrial colony of “outstanding human beings in order to safeguard the species,” as Watkins suggests.
Looking at the first “fact,” and considering it as an item of disinformation, can we speculate about what it is designed to cover up or distract attention away from?
There is a secret joint US/USSR space program that has gone far beyond what the public sees. Astronauts landed on Mars in 1962. It has been discovered that there is other intelligent life in the universe.
The first part is the “joint US/USSR space program” that is concealed by political posturing and maneuvers. Keeping in mind that disinformation is generally composed of “truth wrapping a lie,” we can suppose that there is, indeed, a “One World Government” at some level, where the US and Russia are unified in some effort. But it seems sort of transparently obvious that the statement is promoting the idea that it is a human government. The statement seems designed to distract our attention from the highly advanced technological capabilities of hyperdimensional existence, and focuses it on a somewhat advanced human technology. The next part of the disinformation above seems to be that there is a space program that is far beyond what the public sees. How else to cover up UFO and extraterrestrial activity? It’s too evident to deny, so give a different “reason” for its existence.
The next item: “Astronauts landed on Mars in 1962 and there is other intelligent life in the universe.”
We see here the program of Richard Hoagland, Zechariah Sitchin, Courtney Brown, and many others. If it is suggested that this intelligent life is “Martian,” or even related to a “10th Planet,” it is a lot easier to accept its existence. It is, after all, more or less “like us” in the idea that it exists in our reality. Again, this distracts our attention away from the hyperdimensional nature of this “intelligent life,” and conceals its true capabilities. We can all go back to bed and get some rest if “aliens” are more or less physical beings as we are, with the same limitations and the same reliance on human-oriented technology. What’s more, it covers the fact that there may be anomalies on Mars or the Moon that are difficult to explain. If too many people start looking at the history of the Earth, they may discover something frightening, and we can’t have that happening. Let’s attribute everything to the “Martians” and then we won’t have to deal with the ongoing, multi-millennial manipulation of human beings here on our own planet. After all, a tall blonde Martian or Annunaki is socially acceptable; hyperdimensional beings who manifest a form truer to their intrinsic nature are not invited to the best parties! As the Cassiopaeans pointed out when the existence of rocks from Mars on Earth was announced:
08-11-97
Q: (L) OK, what’s the scoop on this Mars rock? […] Is this rock from Mars?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) How long have they known that rocks from Mars are on the planet?
A: 12 years.
Q: (T) About the same length of time it took them to analyze the soil samples that they got from Mariner probes. (L) OK, Why all of a sudden are they revealing or releasing this information about this Mars rock in such a big and manipulative way? (T) You just said it!
A: You have already figured it out yourselves. […]
Q: (L) Well, OK, but is this Mars rock, and is this opening of the doors concept, is this leading up to some definite, overt interaction with aliens?
A: Gradually. […] Notice how you heard nothing about the Mars Probes until the rock announcement?
Q: (T) This is the new stuff? […]
A: The excavation robot spacecraft. One Probe is already on its way, another to follow. No further explanation about “loss” of Mars Explorer.
Q: (L) What did happen to the Mars Explorer?
A: Blacked out. You see, “too risky.” And too much too soon, due to pressure from Hoagland and others.
Q: (T) My own opinion is that they’ve already been there, and they know what’s there.
A: No. Microbes are easier to swallow than humans in togas! […]
Q: (T) OK, you just mentioned that somebody from this planet already launched a Mars Probe. A new Mars Probe, that no one in public knows about. Because it’s never been talked about. So, it’s a secret probe. Who does it belong to?
A: Was secret US government. […]
Q: (T) What is the purpose of these probes?
A: Excavation to display living organisms.
Q: (T) Display? (L) Yes, for public consumption. In other words, not only do we have a rock now, that shows evidence that there was…. (T) Oh, “display,” as when they find it and dig it up, they’re going to show it on camera! (L) Yes! (T) Connie Couric will interview it! (L) Right! (F) First they said they found no evidence, then they said it was inconclusive…. Now, who the hell knows what they found! In revealing things, we’ll start with fossilized life, and then move on.… (L) So, they’re going to display the discovery of living organisms on Mars to take the next step to acclimate.…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, this process is going to be something of an ongoing thing, and all of these people who are cranking around about, you know, alien landings.…
A: No faces, though.
Q: (L) There’s not going to be any “Faces On Mars?” They are not going to show us.…
A: Won’t be revealed, what do you think happened with Mars Explorer?
Q: (L) Well, what did happen with the Mars Explorer? (T) Now, now, now, let me….
A: Hoagland forced their hand.
Q: (T) What do we think happened to the Mars Explorer? I think they switched channels. They just moved it from one communication post to another, and it’s doing exactly what it’s supposed to be doing. And they did it in such a way, that the NASA people really didn’t know what happened, so that when they were asked, they could say, “We don’t know what happened to it!” Because they really don’t know what happened! (L) When we’re talking about attack, as we were before, as in plane crashes, the Olympics, all these different things — this dealing with these Mars Explorers — is all this stuff, or most of this stuff, coming from the 4th density manipulations of human minds, rather than.…
A: Yes.
Q: (L) …rather than actual, physical entry [into our plane of existence] and doing of deeds? Is that it?
A: Yes. […]
Q: (T) I have a question. They’re going to display live organisms, like… how did they put that…? “Living organisms”? How big are these living organisms going to be? How advanced?
A: Teeny-tiny.
Q: (T) So, we’re still talking about microscopic organisms here?
A: Yes.
Q: (J) So, they won’t wave at us!
A: But these will be alive. Can’t you see the progression here? Don’t want to scare Grandma Sally Bible Thumper/Stockmarket Investor!
Again there is a reference to economics as the means of control. But getting back to the next purported fact in “Alternative 3”: “The earth is dying. We have polluted it beyond repair. The increasing ‘greenhouse effect’ will cause the polar ice-caps and glaciers to melt and flood the Earth.”
It is an obvious fact that there is most definitely something going on in terms of weather. What we see here is the effort to divert attention away from hyperdimensional manipulations. At the same time, what this manipulates us to feel is that we are in deep doo-doo and we need Big Brother to haul us out of the soup.
Some time ago I wrote about Climate Change as being probably the most pressing problem facing humanity today. It is so pressing that I am convinced that possibly 90% of the human race — over 6-billion people — could be at risk of certain death in the very near future, perhaps within ten years, if this matter is not addressed adequately and appropriately very, very soon by our “glorious leaders,” who seem to have little on their mind other than blowing up innocent people.
But then, that war-mongering has a hidden agenda behind it: To grab and hold resources. However, rest assured that the intent is not to grab and hold those resources for you and me; it is to get them for the “elite,” that 6% of humanity that is on the top of the heap and intends to stay there, regardless of the fact that those genes should never be passed on.
Well, the Climate Change confusion factor is heating up.
The U.K.’s Channel 4 recently broadcast a special on the “Climate Change Swindle,” that was intended to “expose the myths about climate change that have been promulgated in order to hoodwink the world into accepting the man-made theory of Global Warming.”
As far as it went, this special wasn’t too bad. However, it didn’t really tell the whole story, which is that, yes, Climate Change is real and a serious threat, but not for the reasons given.
Keep in mind that this is really just a distraction, something to keep the masses busy so that they don’t see the real agenda — that it is intended that they should be “left out in the cold,” because they didn’t act to get rid of corrupt leaders in time to do anything to prepare for what is coming.
How many of you have seen the movie “The Day After Tomorrow,” based on the book by Art Bell and Whitley Strieber? If you haven’t, the thesis of the movie is that Global Warming causes large areas of the Arctic to melt, so that the northern Atlantic Ocean is diluted by large amounts of fresh water, which changes the density of the water layers causing a disruption of the Thermohaline current. This then leads to a rapid and unnatural cooling of the northern hemisphere which triggers a series of anomalies, eventually leading to a massive “global superstorm” system consisting of three gigantic hurricane-like superstorms, which suck up heat and drop the super-cold upper atmospheric air down onto the planet, resulting in an “Instant Ice Age.”
This idea is nothing new and it didn’t really originate with Art Bell and Whitley Strieber. A NASA report from 2004 tells us “Andrew Marshall, a veteran Defense Department planner, recently released an unclassified report detailing how a shift in ocean currents in the near future could compromise national security.”
In a 2003 report, Robert Gagosian cites “rapidly advancing evidence [e.g., from tree rings and ice cores] that Earth’s climate has shifted abruptly and dramatically in the past.” For example, as the world warmed at the end of the last ice-age about 12,500 years ago, melting ice sheets appear to have triggered a sudden halt in the Conveyor, throwing the world back into a 1,300-year period of ice-age-like conditions called the “Younger Dryas.” It is also now known that the Gulf Stream weakened in that “little ice age.”
On December 6, 2005, Michael Schlesinger, a professor of atmospheric sciences at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, leading a research team, said: “The shutdown of the thermohaline circulation has been characterized as a high-consequence, low-probability event. Our analysis, including the uncertainties in the problem, indicates it is a high-consequence, high-probability event.” See also: “Failing ocean current raises fears of mini ice age.”
There is another danger that comes with Global Warming: release of huge amount of methane from the methane clathrates buried in the arctic seabed, and even from other subterranean sources as the Earth struggles to shift around and balance itself. Methane can contribute to Global Warming, but it is a highly unstable gas. Mostly it just stinks, and can kill. Consider a September 2006 report (“Methane gas leak kills miners in Ukraine”) which says: “Emergency Situations spokesman Ihor Krol said ‘an unexpected eruption of a coal and gas mixture’ — later identified as methane — ‘occurred early this morning at a depth of 3,500ft’…”
We learn from further research that a high number of mining accidents are the result of methane pockets igniting or poisoning miners.
In short, if big bubbles of methane gas are released from the ground and a flock of birds happen to be in the area, they could very easily die and fall to the ground within a few minutes. Now, of course, methane itself is odorless, but it is a byproduct of organic decomposition and, as a consequence, is often associated with hydrogen sulfide, and a “rotten egg” smell. If you can smell it, the level is probably unsafe.
Of course, there is tremendous dispute about this, with a whole raft of critics (some of them scientists with questionable loyalties) pooh-poohing the idea and continuing along the line of “It’s all Global Warming, and if we concentrate on cutting emissions, over time, things will stabilize.”
Not very likely.
Why do we think so?
In December 2006, for almost a week, the Gulf Stream ceased to flow northward to Europe. Now, keeping those dates in mind, let’s look at some headlines selected from the SOTT Weather Archive from the days during and after the temporary reversal of the Thermohaline current:
December 14, 2006: “Duck die-off in Idaho sparks fears”
December 19, 2006: “Lewiston residents unnerved by dead crows”
December 21, 2006: “Colorado reels under blizzard”
December 26, 2006: “Christmas storm brings devastation”
January 2, 2007: “Sections of Colorado Remain Buried in Snow”
January 3, 2007: “Cherry Blossoms Bloom In Brooklyn”
January 3, 2007: “Record snowfall buries Anchorage”
January 4, 2007: “Warm winter wreaks havoc”
January 4, 2007: “Scientists Say 2007 May Be Warmest Yet”
January 5, 2007: “2 dead after strong storms, tornadoes rip through southern Louisiana”
January 8, 2007: “Gas-like odor blankets Manhattan”
January 8, 2007: “Ducks die en mass in Vietnam’s southern province”
January 8, 2007: “Dead birds shut down Austin”
January 8, 2007: “Outgassing: The environmental ‘surge’ you’re not hearing anything about”
January 8, 2007: “NY gas smell shuts trains, forces evacuations”
January 8, 2007: “Wacky warm weather throws birds and bees off balance”
January 9, 2007: “Warm December Pushes 2006 to Record Year”
January 10, 2007: “Are the dead porpoises on Scottish beaches more evidence of Global Warming?”
January 10, 2007: “Freak tornado-like storm hits Barbados”
January 12, 2007: “Storm Warnings Across UK”
January 13, 2007: “Icy Weather Hits U.S. Midwest”
January 13, 2007: “Record Cold, Snow in Southern California!”
January 13, 2007: “Smelly Outgassing in Louisiana”
January 13, 2007: “Staten Island: More Bad Smells — Outgassing?”
January 14, 2007: “Powerful storm dumps ice and rain on central U.S.”
January 14, 2007: “Ice storm lashes much of U.S. — 20 dead”
January 15, 2007: “Near Hurricane Force Storm Batters Baltic States, 2nd time in 2 years for ‘once in a lifetime’ event”
January 17, 2007: “Schwarzenegger seeks disaster aid for freeze ruined crops”
January 17, 2007: “Ice plays havoc with U.S. power grid”
January 17, 2007: “Thousands shiver as storm death toll hits 51”
January 17, 2007: “Big freeze hits $1bn crop”
January 17, 2007: “Wildfires burn in southern Australia”
January 17, 2007: “Scores killed, crops devastated in harsh U.S. winter weather”
January 17, 2007: “Storms forecast to batter UK”
January 17, 2007: “Warm spell in Russia wakes up the bears”
January 18, 2007: “Snow in Malibu!!!”
January 18, 2007: “Severe storms batter northwestern Europe”
January 18, 2007: “Travel in Europe disrupted by wild storm”
January 19, 2007: “Hurricane force winds rip into eastern Europe”
January 19, 2007: “Storm kills 27 in northern Europe”
January 19, 2007: “Germany limps back to life after storm claims 10 lives, wind gusts up to 202kph”
January 19, 2007: “Killer of 29, Kyrill Hurricane approaches Russia: ‘The Day After Tomorrow’?”
January 19, 2007: “Experts can’t find source of mysterious NYC odor”
January 19, 2007: “Okla., Mo., and Texas brace for storm”
January 19, 2007: “Icy storm blamed for 65 deaths in U.S.”
January 19, 2007: “Germans told to stay indoors as hurricane nears”
January 20, 2007: “Europe counts cost of storms as stricken freighter is beached”
January 20, 2007: “New winter storm stalks southern plains”
January 21, 2007: “Snow storm rolls across plains; 8 dead”
January 25, 2007: “Getting colder in U.S. northeast, polar plunge underway”
January 25, 2007: “Anchorage hit with twice normal snowfall”
The $64,000 question: Is there a connection between the reversal of the Gulf Stream in December, the numerous reports of birds falling dead from the sky, and the wild and deadly weather during the first half of January?
The next question is: Does this small example suggest what might happen if the now highly unstable Gulf Stream finally and completely stops flowing North to Europe?
Meanwhile, on January 23, President Bush told the American Congress “we must confront the serious challenge of global climate change.” However, the main thrust of his speech was to ask that Congress and the American People give his war escalation plan yet another chance.
Now, even though Senator Jim Webb (D-VA) responded to this nonsensical speech in a very appropriate way, telling Bush that “the majority of the nation no longer supports the way this war is being fought; nor does the majority of our military, nor does the majority of Congress,” Senator Webb himself is probably not aware of the truly great danger that may be looming over all of us, rich and poor, in every country of the world. Just as Nero fiddled while Rome burned, the leaders of our world are acting as though they have unlimited time to play their political games.
The question is, will any of us survive the threat to our civilization that is inherent in a Global Warming that can turn into an Ice Age in an instant while Bush and other world leaders engage in endless arguments about wars and economics? The real enemy is not “over there,” it is “out there,” in terms of changes to our environment that we all need to understand as fast as possible. We mean all people. When the sword falls, the billionaire oil tycoons will suffer just as much, if not more, than the Third World subsistence farmer.
Over the past few years, we have been saying repeatedly that there is something up in the Cosmos, and it isn’t going to be just business as usual for the next few years. We have even speculated that whatever it is, the Powers That Be are somewhat more aware of it than the general public, and that, in fact, they are hiding a lot of things from the masses of humanity.
What seems to me to be true about this line of thinking is that it is a layer of “disinformation” that has been promulgated to even many of the outer circle of the “insiders” in order to induce them to put forth effort to deal with the human population issues as well as the “survival” of the elite. How better to induce scientists to work on such projects than to convince them that the future of the planet depends on it? This means that they will be busy building shelters, seeking technology to “transcend” the problem, and just generally creating an infrastructure of control that they think is designed to solve this problem, but which is actually intended for something else altogether.
One of the primary problems of dealing with a large human population in such terms seems to be economics and most particularly “Game Theory.” This brings us to John Forbes Nash and his time at Princeton, which is where he came up with his ideas about Game Theory. Keep in mind, of course, what we discussed in a previous volume about the “economics” of Stockholm Syndrome — it’s a lot more energy efficient to get the victim to like his captivity and to even help you to use and abuse him or her. It’s all a matter of economics.
It was a curious set of “coincidences” that led me to the subject of John Nash, and the insights of his life story and how it relates to our subject of “economics” and the mysteries behind our apparent reality.
For me, the issue right after finishing Chapter 55 (in the previous Wave volume, Facing the Unknown) was how to move back into the past — the recapitulation — and I did as I usually do when preparing to write, I sort of pace around the house, looking at things, doing a little cleaning here and there, maybe cook a little, do a little gardening, or whatever attracts me in an instinctive way. After some time of allowing my mind to lie fallow, the flow begins again and I get an “urge” to do something that opens the door to the clues.
During this process, I remembered having read some things that would be useful in explicating this deep-level reality, since grasping 4th density is what seems to be the big chasm over which so many people simply cannot cross. The book was Nigel Pennick’s Secret Games of the Gods.
I pulled it out and put it on my desk. A bit later, Ark and I were discussing several other individuals we were aware of who met unusual ends — either through death or insanity — while engaged in research on the boundary of physics and mathematics. One case in particular that always intrigued us was the story of Armand Wyler. Ark also mentioned that Hugh Everett (who first proposed the “many worlds” interpretation of quantum physics) mysteriously dropped out of academic physics, and later died rather young.
As I was thinking over Chapter 55, I kept coming back to this issue of M1 and G5, and the “economics” reference. This, in concert with the recent Enron debacle and several discussions on the e-group, kept popping up in my head. What the heck did “economics” have to do with anything? Was Enron involved? Are all of these things occurring at the present time simply the moving of the playing pieces in the ‘Secret Games of the Gods”?
I mused over the fact that the guy who visited us, just before Vincent Bridges entered our lives in a direct way and Frank Scott exited, was an economist. He had done his Ph.D. under Milton Friedman, the 1976 Nobel Laureate in economics.
One thing that bothered me was the fact that Bridges had pretended not to know this guy when I first wrote and told him about the impending visit. Bridges had, in fact, been planning to visit and attend a session, and after I wrote and suggested he might enjoy meeting this man, there was about ten days of no response. The guy came and went with no news from Bridges about whether he was coming, and if not, why. Then, what was more puzzling was the fact that it was just a few days after this visit that Bridges wrote to inform me that whatever I was doing, it was “hot,” and he had been under severe attack from dark forces — both physical and ethereal — for even talking to me! But, not to worry! He was so determined to help me that he would manage somehow. Of course, it was obvious to him that I needed help — and fast! At this point, Bridges began “winding me up” to think that I needed his services as a hypnotherapist and specialist on government/Satanic mind control programs.
Seven months later, when I mentioned this economist again to Bridges, with the idea of identifying who was or was not part of a COINTELPRO operation — though I didn’t call it that then — Bridges suddenly revealed that he had met him in Egypt in 1995 when they were in the same “tour group.” He effectively deflected my suspicions by describing the economist as just a “harmless New Age groupie,” and I was not to worry about him!
The reader should keep in mind that this was at a point in time when Bridges was working very hard to convince me that everybody in my environment was an “agent” out to get me, and the only one I could trust was Bridges himself. Meanwhile, there was a whole series of truly bizarre behaviors being manifested by people in our e-group, so that everything Bridges was saying seemed to be backed up by evidence in the environment.
So, the question becomes: Why did he wish to deflect my attention away from this economist whose presence at our house was immediately followed by serious maneuvers by Bridges to gain our confidence, control of our material, and me? What does this have to do with the almost simultaneous sudden defection of Frank Scott for the most absurd reason that anyone can imagine? Also, how was this connected to the sudden appearance of several people who wanted to join our e-group, to get inside the research group, and who later turned on us viciously and became, effectively, clappers for the Williams/Bridges gang? Was this entire scenario set up and scripted and controlled from higher levels in order to “herd” me into a corner where Bridges would be able to accomplish certain aims on behalf of these forces? Even if there was the possibility that he and the other players were unconscious of the maneuvers?
After the research team and e-group had investigated the matter, after we had assembled any private emails that any of us had received from the various parties involved, the “scripting” became even more evident. Each individual involved seemed to have been scripted to write and act in certain ways designed to “trigger” certain responses in myself and the group at large. The chronological assembling of the emails and comparison of one thread to another demonstrated clearly that there was a concerted, unified intent behind them. However, unless it could be determined that they all knew each other prior to joining our e-group, or that they had connections to some human COINTELPRO operation — and that did not seem likely — then the only conclusion that could be drawn was that each of them was, more or less, an “alien reaction machine,” or a playing piece on the board of the “Secret Games of the Gods.”
Most interesting of all, the one theme that they all had in common was “time travel,” the search for the “deepest secrets,” which they all sought to extract from me by emotional button pushing, manipulation, and later, intimidation and threat.
However, even when Bridges wrote about his connection to the economist, the lightbulb did not go on in my head. It was to be many more months before we even had the idea to investigate the many links between some of these people, coming to the realization of what we call the Cosmic COINTELPRO operation. Could it be a human-orchestrated operation? Well, sure; it’s possible. We have certainly found enough links, nebulous though some of them are, to suggest that all the “players” know each other at the human level. But I am still inclined to think that most of the parties are being manipulated hyperdimensionally and that some of them are even unaware of the fact that their actions are “agent oriented.” Perhaps that is my failing, that I cannot conceive of all of them being deliberately evil and manipulative to the extent that the evidence will show. But I will leave it to the reader to make their own assessment.
Among the things that this economist who visited us revealed about himself was a close relationship with Drunvalo Melchizedek, as well as certain members of what we now know of as “The Aviary” (discussed in Book Six, Facing the Unknown). He also claimed that he had worked under a security clearance at Wright Patterson Airforce Base, famous for the “Hanger 18” legend. He regaled us with stories about the underground storage facilities there — under a golf course, he said — and confirmed the rumor that there were “alien craft” stored there. We were suitably impressed that an individual with such credentials and obvious intelligence was giving such open credibility to some of the stranger stories of UFO mythology. He was also a past president of the American Cybernetics Society, a group with a very interesting membership.
At the time he was telling his stories, it never occurred to me to ask what in the world an economist was doing at Wright Patterson. What the heck did they want an economist for?
After posting Chapter 55 online, I brought up these questions to Ark. He agreed that there was something strange about all this that we ought to think about. Right after placing the Nigel Pennick book on my desk, I had an overwhelming urge to go to Sam’s Club and see if I couldn’t find my son a new shirt to wear to a webmasters’ conference he was going to attend with his employer. I could have gone the next day. But, for some reason, I wanted to go right then. I had that “antsy” feeling that I just had to do something.
We went, and after finding a shirt, we strolled through the book aisle and Ark noticed Sylvia Nasar’s book A Beautiful Mind, about John Nash. (All subsequent quotations relating to Nash are taken from Nasar’s book.) He picked it up and read the blurb on the back — which tells how the guy spent most of his life as a schizophrenic who thought that aliens were communicating with him, and how he had been awarded a Nobel Prize in economics for his contribution to Game Theory — and had the idea that perhaps I ought to read this book for clues. We bought the book. The history of the rise of Princeton as the “mathematical center of the universe,” and Nash’s interactions with Johnny von Neumann and Einstein was most revealing. CNN published an article on March 18, 2002, which began:
The makers of A Beautiful Mind (which has just won a couple of academy awards), have objected to what they say is a whisper campaign to hurt the Oscar chances of their movie, which is up for eight Academy Awards including best picture.
In a CBS 60 Minutes interview, Nash and his wife, Alicia, denied allegations that he was gay, anti-Semitic or a poor father. And Sylvia Nasar, author of the 1998 biography, A Beautiful Mind, on which the film was based, wrote a commentary in the Los Angeles Times last week that accused many media outlets, including The Associated Press, of misstating details of Nash’s life. […] Both Nash and Nasar said his anti-Semitic remarks were made while he was suffering from paranoid schizophrenia.
“I did have strange ideas during certain periods of time,” Nash, 73, said on 60 Minutes. “It’s really my subconscious talking. It was really that. I know that now.”
Other aspects of his life not mentioned in the movie were a son he fathered by another woman before he married Alicia, and the fact that Nash and Alicia later divorced. The divorced couple lived together for many years and eventually remarried in 2001. […] Nasar also criticized some reports that said Nash was a homosexual. Despite a 1954 indecency arrest and allusions in her book to his flirtatious behavior with men, she said he is an avowed heterosexual. The indecency charge was later dropped, she said.
I nearly choked when I read that both Nash and his wife denied that he was “gay, anti-Semitic or a poor father,” when the book is full of evidence that Nash was all of those things, and his wife was certainly an enabler. Nash’s quoted remarks above — “I did have strange ideas during certain periods of time. It’s really my subconscious talking. It was really that. I know that now” — raises the important issue of how such things “arrived” in his subconscious mind. There is, of course, the ever popular “my parents damaged me as a child” routine that he could adopt to back this one up — after all, his parents are conveniently dead. And, if he is going to denigrate his “strange” subconscious ideas about some of the “politically incorrect” subjects, what are we going to do with the ideas he claims came from the same source for which he won a Nobel Prize? An interesting exchange between Nash and Harvard professor George Mackey is described in the prologue of the book:
“How could you, how could you, a mathematician, a man devoted to reason and logical proof… how could you believe that extraterrestrials are sending you messages? How could you believe that you are being recruited by aliens from outer space to save the world? How could you…?”
And Nash answered: “Because the ideas I had about supernatural beings came to me the same way that my mathematical ideas did. So I took them seriously.” (Nasar, 1998)
The entire time I was reading A Beautiful Mind, I kept wondering when we were going to get to the part where the mind became beautiful. Everything in the book describes something repellent and cold and barely human. John Nash’s brain was brilliant, oh, indeed! But at the end of the book there had not been a single thing of “beauty” about either his thinking or his life. In fact, as I read, my skin crawled with the realization that I was reading about a person whose life story was identical to that of Frank Scott.
John Forbes Nash was big and brainy, handsome and arrogant. He had virtually no social graces or redeeming qualities despite the fact that he was carefully brought up in an environment that one would have thought would have inculcated some human values. He was, indeed, a star of the mathematical scene that promoted human rationality as the supreme virtue, and for ten years he was viewed as a kind of wunderkind who was going to push the mathematical boundaries of Games of Strategy, economic rivalry, computer architecture, the shape of the inverse and geometric space, number theory and more. Some commentators suggested that Nash had that “extra-human spark.” But reading his story, one comes to the idea that he had very little human about him at all. It wasn’t a beautiful mind, it was a deadly efficient machine; unnatural and mysterious.
Then, curiously, at the age of thirty or thereabouts, he suddenly manifested “paranoid schizophrenia,” psychotic delusions, and was in and out of mental hospitals for a period. After his wife divorced him and his mother died, and his sister could no longer cope with his psychosis, he became a “phantom,” haunting the halls and corridors of Princeton for twenty years as the resident idiot savant. If any of the readers have watched the very funny movie Sheer Genius, they will remember the strange character of Laszlo, the “burned-out genius” who used a closet in a dorm room as an entry to a vast underground laboratory, a secret world hidden from the eyes of the university authorities. It’s rather a somewhat sympathetic and idealized portrait of Nash during his psychotic years at Princeton.
In the 1990s, Nash’s “illness” more or less went into “remission.” The question has been raised: Did he really suffer from schizophrenia? Psychotic symptoms do not necessarily, as psychiatrists now agree, make a schizophrenic. And, absence of overt evidence of psychosis does not mean a person is cured of whatever afflicted them. They can most certainly still be suffering, but having learned to cope with it, able to conceal it. Nash himself described his long illness as a persistent dreamlike state with bizarre beliefs not unlike those of other people diagnosed with schizophrenia. Mostly, however, he noted that his illness consisted in being unable to reason. Despite claims of recovery, Nasar quotes him as telling several people that he is still having “paranoid thoughts” and still hears “voices,” though the noise level is greatly modulated. He has compared his “recovery” to simply learning how to police his thoughts, to recognize paranoid ideas and to reject them.
“Gradually I began to intellectually reject some of the delusionally influenced lines of thinking […] the rejection of politically-oriented thinking as essentially a hopeless waste of intellectual effort. […] A key step was a resolution not to concern myself in politics relative to my secret world because it was ineffectual. […] This in turn led me to renounce anything relative to religious issues, or teaching or intending to teach.” (Nasar, 1998)
Nash’s son has also been diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic. His illness became apparent when he “disappeared” one day. When he reappeared, he had shaved his head and become a born-again Christian. He began to read the Bible obsessively and had fallen under the influence of a fundamentalist cult called “The Way.” Not too long after, it was clear that he was hearing voices and believed that he was a great religious figure who had to save the world. Reportedly, he occasionally talked about extraterrestrials, and once threatened a history professor. But, somehow, in spite of his illness, he managed to get a Ph.D. Despite his lack of a high school or college diploma, he was admitted to Rutgers on a full scholarship. That fact raises questions of its own.
Let’s leave Nash for the moment, and come back to Armand Wyler. There is, in physics and mathematics, something called the “Fine Structure Constant.” The Fine Structure Constant has a value very near 137, and many physicists think that this indicates fundamental characteristic of space, time and matter. Armand Wyler came along and suggested that it is a geometrical property of a suitably defined seven-dimensional space-time, and that the correct theoretical value is 1/137.03608. He then related this to proton-electron mass ratios.
Although the numerical values Wyler derived were close to experimental data, the physical reasons he gave for using the particular volumes he chose were not clear. Freeman Dyson invited Wyler to the Institute for Advanced Study in Princeton for a year to see if Wyler could explain what he was thinking in clearer terms. The general story told about what happened at Princeton was that, because Wyler was primarily a mathematician, he was unable to rise to the task. And, naturally, since he couldn’t explain what he was doing and why, his results were dismissed as “numerology.”
12-26-98
Q: (A) It came to my mind that perhaps Einstein, when you spoke about variable physicality, that Einstein was afraid when he understood that in his work. I thought about this and I think that Einstein determined that the future must be determined from the past and present, and when he found that he had a theory where the future was open, he dismissed it and was afraid. Is this a good guess that variable physicality, mathematically, means a theory where there is a freedom of choosing the future when past and present are given?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Is it related to the fact that we should use higher-order differential equations, not second-order?
A: Yes. Einstein found that not only is the future open, but also the present and the past. Talk about scary!!
Q: (A) All you have said so far points to an idea by a Swiss guy named “Armand Wyler.” This Wyler found a way to compute from geometry so-called Fine Structure Constant, which is a number and can be found experimentally. Then, of course, he was invited to Princeton to explain how he did it, and apparently he failed to explain himself, and he ended in an asylum for the mentally deranged. The question is: If I follow his way of thinking, can I succeed in deriving and understanding the nature of this Fine Structure Constant?
A: Yes.
Q: (A) Well, if I do it, should I keep it a secret so that I won’t end up in an asylum?
A: The problem with Wyler was with the audience, not the speaker.
Q: (A) What does that mean? (L) I guess it means that the people he was talking to couldn’t grasp it, not that he couldn’t explain it. Did he really lose his mind, or was he sort of ‘helped’ to go crazy?
A: He suffered a “breakdown.”
The fact that Wyler was locked away in an institution for the insane is not widely known. We only learned it directly from a fellow Swiss physicist who was in Geneva at the time and had direct knowledge of the event. He told us over lunch one day that Wyler had “lost it” while at Princeton, and was sent home and institutionalized.
The question that occurred to me at this point was: What was Nash working on when he went bonkers? In Nash’s biography, we discover an interesting passage:
He apparently had devoted what little time he spent at the Institute for Advanced Study that year talking with physicists and mathematicians about quantum theory. Whose brains he was picking is not clear; Freeman Dyson, Hans Lewy, and Abraham Pais were in residence at least one of the terms. […] Nash made his own agenda quite clear. “To me one of the best things about the Heisenberg paper is its restriction to the observable quantities,” he wrote, adding that “I want to find a different and more satisfying under-picture of a non-observable reality.”
It was this attempt that Nash would blame, decades later in a lecture to psychiatrists, for triggering his mental illness — calling his attempt to resolve the contradictions in quantum theory, on which he embarked in the summer of 1957, “possibly overreaching and psychologically destabilizing.” [This author’s emphasis]
One might also conjecture that such a program would attract certain attention. We also notice the presence of Freeman Dyson mentioned in reference to both Wyler and Nash, and both men went mad upon probing too deeply into hyperdimensional physics.
After we had discussed Wyler, we moved on to Everett.
Everett’s name may be familiar because of what is called the “Everett-Wheeler” interpretation of quantum mechanics, a rival of the orthodox “Copenhagen” interpretation of the mathematics of quantum mechanics. The Everett-Wheeler theory is also known as the “many worlds” interpretation.
Hugh Everett did his undergraduate study in chemical engineering at the Catholic University of America. Studying von Neumann’s and Bohm’s textbooks as part of his graduate studies under Wheeler, in mathematical physics at Princeton University in the 1950s (at the same time Nash was there), he became dissatisfied with the collapse of the wave function. While he was at Princeton, during discussions with Charles Misner and Aage Peterson (Bohr’s assistant, then visiting Princeton), he developed his “relative state” formulation. Wheeler encouraged his work and preprints were circulated in January 1956 to a number of physicists. A condensed version of his thesis was published as a paper for “The Role of Gravity in Physics” conference held at the University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill, in January 1957.
Not long afterward, Everett flew to Copenhagen to meet with Niels Bohr and discuss his ideas, but Bohr gave him the bum’s rush and brush off, and this was the general response he received from physicists in general. Everett left physics after completing his Ph.D., going to work as a defense analyst at the Weapons Systems Evaluation Group at the Pentagon, and later becoming a private contractor. He was very successful, becoming a multimillionaire. In 1968 Everett worked for the Lambda Corporation, now a subsidiary of General Research Corporation in McLean, Virginia. His published papers during this period cover things like optimizing resource allocation and maximizing kill rates during nuclear-weapon campaigns.
With the steady growth of interest in the “many worlds” theory in the late 1970s, Everett began to make plans to return to academia in order to do more work on measurement in quantum theory. In the late 1970s, he visited Austin, Texas, at Wheeler’s or DeWitt’s invitation, to give some lectures on quantum mechanics. Not long afterward, he died of a heart attack in 1982. He was only 52 years old.
I was curious about Everett’s work for Lambda. A recent search of the literature turns up a paper written by Joseph George Caldwell entitled “Optimal Attack and Defense for a Number of Targets in the Case of Imperfect Interceptors.”
This article is an extraction, with some amplification and minor notational changes, of portions of the report: Caldwell, J. G., T. S. Schreiber, and S. S. Dick, “Some Problems in Ballistic Missile Defense Involving Radar Attacks and Imperfect Interceptors,” Report ACDA/ST-145 SR-4, Special Report 4, prepared for the US Arms Control and Disarmament Agency by the Lambda Corporation (subsidiary of General Research Corporation), McLean, Virginia, May 1969. […]
These results were also published as Appendix F of the report, Caldwell, J. G., “Theater Tactical Air Warfare Methodologies: Automated Scenario Generation,” Final Report Contract No. F33657-88-C-2156 prepared for the USAF Air Force Systems Command, Aeronautical System Division by Vista Research Corporation, July 1989.
The summary of the paper tells us:
This article describes the optimal defense of a set of targets against an optimal attack, in the case of imperfect interceptors. This solution is obtained from a mathematical representation of strategic nuclear warfare as a two-sided resource-constrained optimization problem. The attacker and defender are assumed to know each other’s total force sizes, and it is assumed that the attacker “moves last,” i.e., the attacker allocates his weapons to targets after observing the defender’s allocation of interceptors to targets. A one-on-one (or fixed salvo-to-one) firing doctrine is assumed. The attacker’s goal is to maximize the total damage to the targets, and the defender’s goal is to minimize this damage. It is assumed that damage on any single target can be adequately described by the “exponential” damage function defined below.
Aside from the fact that we see evidence of the use of pure mathematics — Game Theory, in fact — in matters of warfare strategy, which includes source notes connecting this work to Wheeler, we find Joseph George Caldwell to be a bit interesting for other reasons. He has a website where he promotes the following idea:
What is the sustainable human population for Earth? I propose that a long-term sustainable number is on the order of ten-million, consisting of a technologically advanced population of a single nation of about five-million people concentrated in one or a few centers, and a globally distributed primitive population of about five million. I arrived at this size by approaching the problem from the point of view of estimating the minimum number of human beings that would have a good chance of long-term survival, instead of approaching it from the (usual) point of view of attempting to estimate the maximum number of human beings that the planet might be able to support. The reason why I use the approach of minimizing the human population is to keep the damaging effects of human industrial activity on the biosphere to a minimum. Because mankind’s industrial activity produces so much waste that cannot be metabolized by “nature,” any attempt to maximize the size of the human population risks total destruction of the biosphere (such as the “sixth extinction” now in progress). [This author’s emphasis]
Let’s stop right here and ask the question: Is this “sixth extinction” something that is generally “known” in the circles that do this kind of research? Is this why they are doing it? What do they know that the rest of us don’t? Or better, what do they think that they aren’t telling us? Caldwell writes:
The role of the technological population is “planetary management”: to ensure that the size of the primitive population does not expand. The role of the primitive population is to reduce the likelihood that a localized catastrophe might wipe out the human population altogether. The reason for choosing the number five-million for the primitive population size is that this is approximately the number (an estimated 2-20 million) that Earth supported for millions of years, i.e., it is proved to be a long-term sustainable number (in mathematical terminology, a “feasible” solution to the optimization problem). The reason for choosing the number five-million for the technological population size is that it is my opinion that that is about the minimum practical size for a technologically advanced population capable of managing a planet the size of Earth; also, it is my opinion that the “solar energy budget” of the planet can support a population of five-million primitive people and five-million “industrial” people indefinitely. (www.foundationwebsite.org; this author’s emphases)
Mr. Caldwell’s ideas are a techno-representation of synarchy, a clue to the real “Stargate Conspiracy.” It seems that there is, indeed, something very mysterious going on all over the planet in terms of shaping the thinking of humanity via books, movies and cultural themes, but at this point we understand that most of what is promulgated is lies and disinformation. We hope to come to some idea of what the “insiders” know that they aren’t telling us, and perhaps we will find some clues as we continue our investigation here.
Princeton is often referred to as the “mathematical center of the universe.” But it wasn’t always that way. Until the Rockefeller family endowed scientific research in the mid-1920s (keep in mind that the Cassiopaeans referenced the mid-1920s as the beginning of certain “projects” related to HAARP, that this was connected to “Alternative 3” and the “Ark of the Covenant”), a student could learn little more than what amounts to high-school math and science there. Here I am not going to go into any background on the Rockefellers because there are enough researchers already who are doing that. I urge the reader to do his or her own research in those areas. Again, whether or not there is a conscious conspiracy I cannot say.
Nevertheless, when thinking about conspiracies, it is extremely difficult to conceive of these activities in strictly human terms. Yes, humans carry them out, but the real question is “Why?” What drives them?
Practically next door to Princeton is the Institute for Advanced Study. This ivory tower of academia was the result of a “synchronous” act of philanthropy. The Institute was founded in 1930 with a gift from Mr. Louis Bamberger and his sister, Mrs. Felix Fuld, under the guidance of the famous educator Abraham Flexner, who originated the concept from which the Institute took its form. The Bambergers originally thought of endowing a dental school, which is probably why they consulted Flexner when they decided that they wanted to give away some of their fortune.
Flexner was a high-school principal who wrote a report on American Colleges. Based on this report and the recommendation of his brother (a pathologist with connections to existing medical schools), he was chosen by the Carnegie Foundation to do a study of American medical education just after the turn of the century. Flexner visited medical schools across the nation on a schedule that barely allowed him a whole day each for the evaluation of some schools. His efforts were closely linked with the American Medical Association, which provided resources. Although purporting to be objective, the report actually established guidelines that were designed to sanction orthodox medical schools and condemn homeopathic ones and alternative therapies. In short, it was biased toward allopathy and the A.M.A.
Is this evidence of a conspiracy to gain control of medical education, doctors, and therefore the entire population by means of promotion of certain drugs designed to control human beings, or to modify their behavior? I can’t say. All I notice is that there seem to be so many “coincidental” threads that weave together, bringing the inhabitants of our planet to the present state, that it is truly difficult to not see some “grand design” behind it. But can it be a human design? It doesn’t seem so. When you track such conspiracies back in time and space, you discover that there is so much historical evidence that the groundwork for the present conditions was laid long, long ago — back in the mists of prehistory even — that conceiving of it as just human activity, or the results of human nature, is extraordinarily difficult.
In any event, Flexner’s report had a tremendous impact on American medicine, and it was to him that the Bambergers turned for advice regarding the founding of their proposed dental school. Who knows, maybe they suffered from frequent toothaches?
Flexner had a better idea: Why not found a research institution with no teachers, no students, no classes — only researchers, shielded from the cares of the real world so that they could just hang out and produce great thoughts?
Believe me, I think it was a great idea! The only problem is: Who’s on first? Just who might be “influencing” those thoughts? Just what thoughts might be being encouraged and rewarded? This is not a rhetorical question, as we will see.
One of the more curious things about Flexner’s idea was that he initially thought that a school of economics ought to be at the core of the Institute, but decided on mathematics since it was more “fundamental.”
Once the Institute was set up, Flexner set about finding talent. This “just happened” to coincide with Hitler’s takeover of the German government and the mass expulsion of Jews from German universities, which had until then been the seats of higher learning in mathematics and science. Negotiations were begun to get Einstein, who finally agreed to become the second member of the Institute’s School of Mathematics. Kurt Godel came, followed by Hermann Weyl, who wanted Von Neumann. In short, overnight Princeton became the new Gottingen.
08-17-00
Q: (A) What I do not understand is why a few years later [Einstein] completely abandoned [UFT in terms of Kaluza-Klein theories] and started working very hard on a completely different solution. If he knew….
A: Was under control.
Q: (A) Can you control somebody and make him spend years…. Oh! Mind control! They got him!
A: Why do you think he emigrated to the United States in the first place?
Q: (A) Well, that is not a surprise. He was a Nobel Prize winner and America was getting together every possible Nobel Prize winner, and also there was the persecution of the Jews, so it was natural.
A: More to it than that. What about Freud?
Q: (L) I guess they didn’t want Freud! He didn’t know anything about UFT! (A) Now, apparently Von Neumann was also involved in application of UFT. But Von Neumann was, as far as we know, doing a completely different kind of mathematics. He didn’t even really know geometry, differential geometry. He was doing completely different things [Game Theory, to be precise]. So how come the UFT that was discovered by Einstein involved Von Neumann? What did Von Neumann contribute to this project?
A: Von Neumann was one of three overseers at Princeton, with level-7 security clearance and a clear budget-request permittance.
Q: (L) My question is about Von Neumann; as I understand it, Von Neumann was supposed to have been involved with the creation of a time machine, right?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he succeed in such a project?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, why was it that, when he developed a brain tumor and realized he was going to die — and I read that he screamed and yelled like a baby when he knew there was no hope — if he was somebody who had access to a time machine, why wasn’t he able to do something about it instead of carrying on like a madman? The stories about his screams echoing all over the place are horrible. He realized that his great mind was going to soon be still; if he had access to a time machine, one would think that he would have used it, would have pulled every string he could, to forestall his own death.
A: No Laura, it does not work that way. And besides, if you had a brain tumor, you could be forgiven for a few mental peculiarities too!
Q: (L) I just don’t understand why, when he knew he was sick, that he didn’t just use the time machine to go forward in time for a cure, or backward in time to correct something in his past.…
A: The time machine was not his property.
Q: (L) So they got what they needed from him and let him die. (A) It is not clear. He got this cancer so suddenly, it may even have been induced. (L) Well, that’s a thought.
What we are basically seeing in the above recitation of the endowment of Princeton as a mathematical center, and the luring of scientific talent to America, is part of the truth of one of the ideas of “Alternative 3.” It was effectively a “brain drain” on Europe. All the geniuses who were capable of certain specific things were being brought to America and settled in Princeton. This produced an almost immediate scientific earthquake. Of course we see that the scientific revolution in America did not begin after WWII, as many conspiracy theorists would like to believe, but rather before — in the 1920s, to be exact.
Something happened to stimulate this activity. In the 1920s, during which time the Rockefellers and other monied groups made enormous contributions to “education in America,” and during which the preparations for the Hitler drama were underway, another event that may or may not be connected took place. In Mark Hedsel’s book The Zelator, we discover the “intimations” of this event. In Chapter Five of the referenced work, Hedsel informs us that:
At the end of the last century an astounding revelation was, as a result of dissent among members of Secret Schools. Information, hitherto guarded jealously by the most enclosed of the Inner Orders, was made public. The secrets disclosed pertained to a far deeper level of knowledge than has hitherto been made exoteric by the Schools — even in this enlightened age.
Our purpose here is not to document how so deep an esoteric idea was made public — or even to assess whether it was wise for this idea to be brought out into the open. All this has been dealt with in the literature.… (Hedsel and Ovason, 2000; this author’s emphasis)
The speaker in Hedsel’s book, his teacher, promises to provide titles via which this most curious item might be researched, but dies before doing so. He later mentions A.P. Sinnett, and Hedsel himself speculates that it is the Theosophical ideas of A.P. Sinnett and Helena Blavatsky. I don’t agree, because of what the teacher says next:
In a nutshell, what was made public during this conflict in the Schools was the truth that our Moon is a sort of counterweight to another sphere, which remains invisible to ordinary vision. This counterweighted sphere is called in esoteric circles the Eighth Sphere.
The truth is that this Eighth Sphere does not pertain to anything we are familiar with on the physical plane, yet we must use words from our own vocabularies whenever we wish to denote its existence. Were we to use a word which fits most appropriately this Sphere, then we should really call it a vacuum. Certainly, Vacuum is a more appropriate term than sphere, for the Eighth Sphere sucks things into its own shadowy existence. [This author’s emphases]
The reference to the Moon brings us back in a loop to the so-called Philadelphia Experiment which was promoted on the platform of the death of Morris K. Jessup. What the Philadelphia Experiment distracted attention away from was Jessup’s ideas about the gravitational neutral zone of a three-body system which we have also identified as being connected to the Chandler wobble-cycle of 18.6 years, which then connects to the “dancing of the god” at Stonehenge every 19 years, which is called the Metonic Cycle. Of course, we are beginning to realize that all of this connects to the ideas of the Holy Grail, the Ark of the Covenant, and certain periods — cyclical in nature — in which transfer of perimeters is most easily accomplished! Remember what Jessup wrote:
While I believe that these space islands probably use both earth and moon for their own convenience, I suggest that their most natural and permanent habitat is at the gravitational neutral of the earth-sun-moon three-body system which is well within the orbit of the moon.
It has been postulated that gravitation need not be considered as acting with uniform continuity, from the center of the attracting body outward, even if subject to the inverse square law. Such a concept, today, would be especially horrendous to physics and astronomy. […]
Refinements of Bode’s law indicate nodes in the gravitational field, at which planets, asteroids, and possibly comets and meteors tend to locate themselves. An extension of the theory to the satellite systems of the major planets indicates a similar system of nodes on smaller scales, where planets, rather than the Sun, are gravitational centers. […] It might well be that these gravitational nodes are occupied to some degree by navigable construction. […]
Many researchers have extended the law so as to establish nodes right down to the surface of the central bodies, and in so doing the nodes become closer and closer together so that there may be many of them at short distances from the parent body. Thus, if the law or its derivatives have significance, there could be a number of these orbital nodes between the moon and the surface of the earth. […]
There may even be hints available to us regarding gravity. For instance, no final settlement has ever been made of the argument over the opposed wave and corpuscular theories of the propagation of light. An assumption that the ether, a necessary adjunct to the wave theory, is identical with the gravitational field, whatever that may be, would reconcile the opposing theories and a quantum of light would then be merely a pulsation or fluctuation in the gravitational field. Intense studies of the movements of space-navigable UFOs might furnish vital clues to such problems. (Jessup, 1955; this author’s emphases)
Let us stop right here and consider the above remarks. Jessup has suggested that a “quantum of light would then be merely a pulsation or fluctuation in the gravitational field.” This connects us directly to several remarks made by the Cassiopaeans, curiously in the context of questions about Sufism:
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A: Now, learn, read, research all you can about unstable gravity waves. […] We mean for you, Laura, to meditate about unstable gravity waves as part of research. […] Unstable gravity waves unlock as yet unknown secrets of quantum physics to make the picture crystal clear. […]
Q: (L) Gravity seems to be a property of matter. Is that correct? […]
A: And antimatter!
Q: (L) Is the gravity that is a property of antimatter “antigravity”? Or is it just gravity on the other side, so to speak?
A: Binder. […] Gravity binds all that is physical with all that is ethereal through unstable gravity waves!!! […]
Q: (L) Is light the emanation of gravity?
A: No.
Q: (L) What is light?
A: Gravity. […] If gravity is everything, what isn’t it? Light is energy expression generated by gravity. […]
Q: (L) According to what I understand, at the speed of light, there is no mass, no time, and no gravity. How can this be?
A: No mass, no time, but yes, gravity.
Q: (L) A photon has gravity?
A: Gravity supersedes light speed.
Returning now to Jessup’s comments:
There is increasingly strong evidence that gravity is neither so continuous, so immaterial, nor so obscure as to be completely unnamable to use, manipulation and control. Witness not only the documented movements of UFOs in the form of lights, discs, nebulosities, etc., but the many instances of stones, paper, clothes baskets and many other things which have been seen to leave the ground without apparent cause. The lifting of the ancient megalithic structures, too, must surely have come through levitation. […]
It is my belief that something of the sort was done in the antediluvian past, through either research or through some fortuitous discovery of physical forces and laws which have not as yet been revealed to scientists of this second wave of civilization…
It is my belief that the possibility of gravity control, or at least gravity reactance, has been strongly indicated by the phenomena listed in this book.
There seems to be something of periodicity in events of celestial and spatial origin. This has been called to our attention by John Philip Bessor in the Saturday Evening Post as early as May 1949; but no one has thus far been able to catalogue and classify enough of this data to determine for certain whether such cycles exist, much less their time period or cause. It is not particularly astonishing that these phenomena should be cyclic, for practically everything astronomical is periodic. If periodicity could be firmly established for these phenomena, that fact alone would be proof of their reality and integration with the organic world about us. […]
It is no longer necessary to explain [aliens] as visitors from Mars, Venus, or Alpha Centauri. They are a part of our own immediate family — a part of the earth-moon, binary-planet system. They didn’t have to come all of those millions of miles from anywhere. They have been here for thousands of years. Whether we belong to them by possession, like cattle, or whether we belong to each other by common origin and association is an interesting problem, and one which may soon be settled if we keep our heads.
In final summary, the UFOs have been around us for a long time and probably are a connecting link with the first wave of terrestrial civilization. (Jessup, 1955; this author’s emphases)
Now, the question is: Who was it who revealed this “great secret of secrets” at the end of the last century, as Hedsel’s teacher has remarked? We have been directed to think about Sinnett and Blavatsky, but we are already wise to such tactics. It is important to know who the “revealer” was in order to know what was revealed. This will then lead us to understand what was done with that knowledge and how it affects us today.
We have also been directed to look at a certain time period that would correspond to the activities of such sources, and so we might wish to look at the vast array of literature for internal clues. In reviewing all of this literature, in casting our net far and wide, there is only one source that “fits” the description: Gurdjieff’s metaphor of “Food for the Moon.” There is, in fact, a singular remark made by Gurdjieff in conversation with P.D. Ouspensky, recorded by the latter in his book, In Search of the Miraculous, which confirms that the information revealed by Gurdjieff was, in fact, related to the cyclic catastrophes and their relations to hyperdimensional realities. It also confirms that he was the one who really “knew” something:
“The intelligence of the Sun is divine,” said Gurdjieff. “But the earth can become the same; only, of course, it is not guaranteed and the earth may die having attained nothing.”
Gurdjieff’s answer was very vague. “There is a definite period,” he said, “for a certain thing to be done. If, by a certain time, what ought to be done has not been done, the earth may perish without having attained what it could have attained.”
“Is this period known?” I asked.
“It is known,” said Gurdjieff. (Ouspensky, 1949)
As we note from the remarks of Hedsel’s teacher, the idea that there is “ancient wisdom” guarded by hidden custodians or Masters is often attributed to Helena Blavatsky. In fact, her disciple Annie Besant wrote a book about it. Thirty years later The Mahatma Letters — supposedly written by two of these “Masters” to A.P. Sinnett — was published. A careful investigation of the matters surrounding Blavatsky and Sinnett will bring the thoughtful person to the conclusion that they were either taken in by “wishful thinking,” or were themselves part of some sort of disinformation campaign. Unfortunately, most so-called “occultists” have either knowingly or unknowingly relied upon the Blavatsky/Sinnett interpretations as foundations for their own ideas.
Joscelyn Godwin, in his books Arktos and The Hermetic Brotherhood of Luxor, attempted to trace the threads of these ideas to the original sources. Geoffrey Ashe, in his book The Ancient Wisdom, made a similar attempt with much better results. Ernest Scott, in The People of the Secret, states the problem as a legend that the ebb and flow of history are subject to purposive direction from a higher level of understanding, the process being manipulated by a hierarchy of intelligences, the lowest level of which makes physical contact with humanity.
We come now to Gurdjieff’s comments about “planetary evolution,” “secret schools,” esoteric and exoteric teachings, in relation to our present subjects of “Alternative 3” and the “Secret Games of the Gods.” In these remarks we will find, I believe, the Terrible Secret, the astounding revelation, the information hitherto so jealously guarded by the most enclosed of the Inner Orders, the secrets pertaining “to a far deeper level of knowledge than has hitherto been made exoteric by the Schools, even in this enlightened age.” Read it slowly; ponder it; reread it; and consider the implications of how the denizens of the Eighth Sphere might react to this revelation, how their “agents” among humanity might be manipulated to deal with it in order to conceal it, to cover it up, to distort it, to nullify it, and most of all, to make it come to naught.
Gurdjieff noted that standard scientific teachings tell us that life is “accidental.” Such ideas fail to take into account the idea that there is nothing accidental or unnecessary in nature, that everything has a definite function and serves a definite purpose of Cosmic Consciousness. Gurdjieff then says:
“It has been said before that organic life transmits planetary influences of various kinds to the earth and that it serves to feed the moon and to enable it to grow and strengthen. But the earth also is growing; not in the sense of size but in the sense of greater consciousness, greater receptivity. The planetary influences which were sufficient for her at one period of her existence become insufficient, she needs the reception of finer influences. To receive finer influences a finer, more sensitive receptive apparatus is necessary. Organic life, therefore, has to evolve, to adapt itself to the needs of the planets and the earth. Likewise also the moon can be satisfied at one period with the food which is given to her by organic life of a certain quality, but afterwards the time comes when she ceases to be satisfied with this food, cannot grow on it, and begins to get hungry. […] This means that in order to answer its purpose organic life must evolve and stand on the level of the needs of the planets, the earth, and the moon.
“We must remember that the ray of creation, as we have taken it, from the Absolute to the moon, is like a branch of a tree — a growing branch. The end of this branch, the end out of which come new shoots, is the moon. If the moon does not grow, if it neither gives nor promises to give new shoots, it means that either the growth of the whole ray of creation will stop or that it must find another path for its growth, live out some kind of lateral branch. […]
“If organic life on earth disappears or dies, the whole branch will immediately wither. The same thing must happen, only more slowly, if organic life is arrested in its development, in its evolution, and fails to respond to the demands made upon it. The branch may wither. […]
“General growth is possible only on the condition that the ‘end of the branch’ grows. Or, speaking more precisely, there are in organic life tissues which are evolving, and there are tissues which serve as food and medium for those which are evolving. Then there are evolving cells within the evolving tissues, and cells which serve as food and medium for those which are evolving. In each separate evolving cell there are evolving parts and there are parts which serve as food for those which are evolving. But always and in everything it must be remembered that evolution is never guaranteed, it is possible only and it can stop at any moment and in any place.
“The evolving part of organic life is humanity. Humanity also has its evolving part. […] If humanity does not evolve it means that the evolution of organic life will stop and this in its turn will cause the growth of the ray of creation to stop. At the same time if humanity ceased to evolve, it becomes useless from the point of view of the aims for which it was created, and as such it may be destroyed. In this way the cessation of evolution may mean the destruction of humanity.[…]
“[E]xamining the life of humanity as we know it historically, we are bound to acknowledge that humanity is moving in a circle. In one century it destroys everything it creates in another and the progress in mechanical things of the past hundred years has proceeded at the cost of losing many other things which perhaps were much more important for it. Speaking in general there is every reason to think and to assert that humanity is at a standstill and from a standstill there is a straight path to downfall and degeneration. […]
“[W]e see that a balanced process proceeding in a certain way cannot be changed at any moment it is desired. It can be changed and set on a new path only a certain ‘crossroads.’ In between the ‘crossroads’ nothing can be done. At the same time, if a process passes by a ‘crossroad’ and nothing happens, nothing is done, then nothing can be done afterwards and the process will continue and develop according to mechanical laws; and even if people taking part in this process foresee the inevitable destruction of everything, they will be unable to do anything. I repeat that something can be done only at certain moments which I have just called ‘crossroads.’[ …]
“Of course there are very many people who consider that the life of humanity is not proceeding in the way in which according to their views it ought to go. And they invent various theories which in their opinion ought to change the whole life of humanity. […] All these theories are certainly quite fantastic, chiefly because they do not take into account the most important thing, namely, the subordinate part which humanity and organic life play in the world process.
“Intellectual theories put man in the center of everything; everything exists for him. […] And all the time new theories appear evoking in their turn opposing theories; and all these theories and the struggle between them undoubtedly constitute one of the forces which keep humanity in the state in which it is at present. […]
“Everything in nature has its aim and its purpose, both the inequality of man and his suffering. To destroy inequality would mean destroying the possibility of evolution. To destroy suffering would mean, first, destroying a whole series of perceptions for which man exists… and thus it is with all intellectual theories.
“The process of evolution… which is possible for humanity as a whole, is completely analogous to the process of evolution possible for the individual man. And it begins with the same thing, namely, a certain group of cells gradually becomes conscious; then it attracts to itself other cells, subordinates others, and gradually makes the whole organism serve its aims and not merely eat, drink, and sleep. This is evolution and there can be no other kind of evolution. In humanity as in individual man everything begins with the formation of a conscious nucleus. All the mechanical forces of life fight against the formation of this conscious nucleus in humanity, in just the same way as all mechanical habits, tastes and weaknesses fight against conscious self-remembering in man.”
“Can it be that there is a conscious force which fights against the evolution of humanity?” [Ouspensky] asked.
“From a certain point of view it can be said,” said G[urdjieff].
“There are two processes which are sometimes called ‘involutionary’ and ‘evolutionary.’ The difference between them is the following: An involutionary process begins consciously in the Absolute but at the next step it already becomes mechanical — and it becomes more and more mechanical as it develops; an evolutionary process begins half-consciously and conscious opposition to the evolutionary process can also appear at certain moments in the involutionary process. From where does this consciousness come? From the evolutionary process of course.
“The evolutionary process must proceed without interruption. Any stop causes a separation from the fundamental process. Such separate fragments of consciousnesses which have been stopped in their development can also unite and at any rate for a certain time can live by struggling against the evolutionary process. After all, it makes the evolutionary process more interesting.
“Instead of struggling against the mechanical forces there may, at certain moments, be a struggle against the intentional opposition of fairly powerful forces though they are not of course comparable with those which direct the evolutionary process. These opposing forces may sometimes even conquer. The reason for this consists in the fact that the forces guiding evolution have a more limited choice of means; in other words, they can only make use of certain means and certain methods. The opposing forces are not limited in their choice of means and they are able to make use of every means, even those which only give rise to a temporary success, and in the final result they destroy both evolution and involution at the point in question. […]
“Are we able to say for instance that life is governed by a group of conscious people? Where are they? Who are they? We see exactly the opposite: that life is governed by those who are the least conscious, by those who are most asleep.
“Are we able to say that we observe in life a preponderance of the best, the strongest, and the most courageous elements? Nothing of the sort. On the contrary we see a preponderance of vulgarity and stupidity of all kinds.
“Are we able to say that aspirations towards unity, towards unification, can be observed in life? Nothing of the kind of course. We only see new divisions, new hostility, new misunderstandings.
“So that in the actual situation of humanity there is nothing that points to evolution proceeding. On the contrary when we compare humanity with a man, we quite clearly see a growth of personality at the cost of essence, that is, a growth of the artificial, the unreal, and what is foreign, at the cost of the natural, the real, and what is one’s own.
“Together with this, we see a growth of automatism.
“Contemporary cultures require automatons. And people are undoubtedly losing their acquired habits of independence and turning into automatons, into parts of machines. It is impossible to say where is the end of all this and where the way out — or whether there is an end and a way out. One thing alone is certain, that man’s slavery grows and increases. Man is becoming a willing slave. He no longer needs chains. He begins to grow fond of his slavery, to be proud of it. And this is the most terrible thing that can happen to a man.
“[A]s I pointed out before, the evolution of humanity can proceed only through the evolution of a certain group, which, in its turn, will influence and lead the rest of humanity.
“Are we able to say that such a group exists? Perhaps we can on the basis of certain signs, but in any event we have to acknowledge that it is a very small group, quite insufficient, at any rate, to subjugate the rest of humanity. Or looking at it from another point of view, we can say that humanity is in such a state that it is unable to accept the guidance of a conscious group.”
“How many people could there be in this conscious group?” someone asked.
“Only they themselves know this,” said G[urdjieff].
“Does it mean that they all know each other?” asked the same person again.
“How could it be otherwise?” asked G. “Imagine that there are two or three people who are awake in the midst of a multitude of sleeping people. They will certainly know each other. But those who are asleep cannot know them. How many are they? We do not know and we cannot know until we become like them. It has been clearly said before that each man can only see on the level of his own being. But two hundred conscious people, if they existed and if they found it necessary and legitimate, could change the whole of life on the earth. But either there are not enough of them, or they do not want to, or perhaps the time has not yet come, or perhaps other people are sleeping too soundly.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
Now, interestingly, this idea has repeatedly surfaced in UFO research and lore: the idea of mankind being “lunch” for the aliens. It is not quite that simple, but the Cassiopaean source indicates that there is an energy that is released when the soul separates from the body and this is ostensibly the reason that higher-density beings are often noted at times of great disaster and during wars; they are feeding on this awareness. Now, note, they are not feeding on the soul, but the energy of awareness! And, we have to look at the ideas of cyclic catastrophes in this light.
The Book of Revelation says:
Then I saw a single angel stationed in the Sun’s light, and with a mighty voice he shouted to all the birds that fly across the sky, Come, gather yourselves together for the great supper of God, that you may feast on the flesh of rulers, the flesh of generals and captains, the flesh of powerful and mighty men, the flesh of horses and their riders, and the flesh of all humanity, both free and slave, both small and great! […] And all the birds fed ravenously and glutted themselves with their flesh. (19:17, 18 and 21, Amplified, Zondervan)
We now realize, of course, that we have found the answer to the questions we posed at the beginning of this chapter:
The question is, Why? What, in the name of all things reasonable, would prompt anyone to wish to hide these matters? What kind of sick mind would divert the attention of humanity away from what is evident all over the planet to those with open eyes, and promote so assiduously ideas that mislead, misguide, and generally placate the populace into an assurance that either nothing is going to happen, or if it does, it will be preceded by a long period of approach by a body that is well organized and clearly seen?
Well, the clue is right there: “Placate the populace.” Control.
But, heavenly days! What kind of lunatics would want to keep everything under control in that sense if they have some idea that they, themselves, might be destroyed in the very processes they are concealing?
Obviously, they don’t think so. Obviously, they think they have a plan. And that suggests that, obviously, they know a lot more about what’s going on, what the possibilities and probabilities are, than the rest of us.
We begin to have a glimmer of understanding of how economics and Game Theory fit into the picture. It is by means of Game Theory strategies that control of economics is obtained. Since in our reality, Money is Power, those who control the economy control the world.
We begin to understand why members of the “elite” on our planet, having been apprised of this fact, immediately went to work to discover the ways and means for their own escape. We understand why they funded Princeton and other institutions of higher learning, and why they imported all the brains on the planet, to put them to work to devise a method that could be activated at a certain point in time to transfer perimeters. We also begin to understand why they have made so concerted an effort to keep the masses of humanity deaf, dumb and blind: they are the sheep who will be the “Food for the Moon” while the “Masters of the Game” escape.
On September 11, 1977, Paul Herre heard a very loud thumping on the ceiling of his apartment — “like somebody being bounced against the floor.” This was instantly followed by a “blood-curdling scream.” Since he lived in a “college neighborhood,” and such things were not terribly uncommon, and since the “uproar” did not continue, he did nothing and thought no more about it. After all, the upstairs neighbor, Guru Ira Einhorn, always had strange visitors and activity in his apartment. He was also always fighting with his girlfriend, Holly Maddux.
Later, the same day, Ira went for a drive with Jill and Sharon, two young women, just out of high school, who had been given Ira’s name as a contact in the world of the paranormal. Ordinarily, they came to his apartment for sessions in which Ira supposedly taught them “psychic arts” such as meditation or astral travel. But, on this particular day, instead of having a “session” in Ira’s apartment at 3411 Race Street, Ira suggested a drive in Jill’s car to the West River Drive along the Schuylkill River in Philadelphia. According to Jill, Ira “seemed like he had a sense of urgency. He said he wanted to ask us something.”
“I’m in some really, really deep trouble,” Ira told them. “I’ve got a steamer trunk that has some very, very valuable documents in it. They’re documents that belong to the Russians, and I need to get rid of it.”
He wanted them to put the trunk in Jill’s car and take it and dump it in the river.
“He almost had us convinced to get this thing [and do it]. Sharon and I were looking at each other, like, this is really weird. I mean, why did he want to get rid of something like this?”
As it turned out, the trunk wouldn’t fit in Jill’s car, so the project was abandoned.
The next day, September 12, Bea Einhorn, Ira’s mother, received a call from Ira saying: “Mom, I’m upset. Holly didn’t come home last night. She didn’t take anything. She didn’t have any money. Where is she?” Bea ran through the list of places he ought to have checked such as hospitals, friends and so on, and Ira assured her that he had made all such inquiries. According to his mother, Ira was panic stricken and as emotional as she had ever heard him.
As it happens, Ira had not called any of Holly’s friends. He had not even called her place of employment — her “destination,” according to him, when he last saw her. And while he was not calling her friends to express concern about her, some of her friends were calling him and Ira was telling them not to worry, there was nothing unusual about Holly’s disappearance!
On September 14, one of Holly’s friends, Saul Lapidus, who had expected her in New York, asked Andrija Puharich, a mutual friend of his and Ira’s, to intercede and try to get information from Ira about Holly’s possible whereabouts or plans. Puharich reported that “[Ira] didn’t want to talk about Holly, and he shut me off. He was very terse. He wasn’t trying to be communicative at all. He just said she left. So I told Saul, and Saul said, ‘My God, I bet she’s been killed.’ At this point I said, ‘Come on, Saul. You know Ira wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
Several hours later, Ira told friends of his and Holly’s that he had received a call from Holly, affirming that she was fine and that she wanted to be left alone. She would call in a week, he reported. He asked them to pass this information on to Holly’s friend, Saul, in New York.
However, Ira didn’t share this purported message with his mother, who he had already upset greatly with his “concern.” Nor did he share this information two weeks later when he described his worry and concern about Holly’s whereabouts to two friends. Sitting in a restaurant, Ira told them that Holly had left, and that he had never heard a word from her since!
So, which was it? Was Ira upset and worried? Or was he in touch with Holly and assured in his own mind that she was fine? It seemed that it was only the people who were concerned about Holly and inclined to try to find her who were treated to the story that she had called and was okay, so as to put them off from looking. Those who were willing to accept her disappearance as just the way things were, were treated to the story that Ira was concerned and in need of sympathy.
That autumn of 1977, Paul Herre and Ron Gelzer, the occupants of the apartment beneath Ira’s, were about to start their senior year at university. Paul went away on September 20 to attend a wedding, and it was that weekend that Ron Gelzer first noticed the odor. It came from a closet in the kitchen. Gelzer, a biology student, reported that his first impression was that it “smelled like blood.” He tried to track the source of the odor, and lifting a transom in the ceiling in the closet, saw what looked like water. He went outside to view the upper story and try to determine what was directly above the closet that could be possibly be leaking. It was Ira Einhorn’s porch. Gelzer went to Ira and asked him if he knew of anything that could be leaking on his porch. An unruffled Ira said that there was nothing as far as he knew.
On September 26, after Paul Herre had returned from his trip, he instantly was assailed by the “gross smell” that pervaded his and Gelzer’s apartment when he walked in the door. It was sickening and overwhelming in the kitchen. He described is as being much stronger and a lot less tolerable than the smell of human excrement.
Unable to long endure the stench, Herre went to the elderly property managers who lived in an apartment behind the building to complain. They told him that they were suffering from the smell also. It was so bad they couldn’t even eat in their own kitchen. They suggested that if Herre could find the source and clean it up, they would reimburse him.
Herre, Gelzer and a friend, Stephanie DeMarco armed themselves with cleaning supplies and ventured into the kitchen on a search and destroy mission. By now, even going in there was an act that required a strong stomach. DeMarco joked around that it smelled like a dead body, but Paul Herre scoffed at the silliness of such an idea. Herre was elected to enter the closet. He looked up at the transom and pulled it open. In the space between the floors he saw a brownish stain that had come through a crack in the ceiling plaster. It was almost dry. He determined that it was the source of the odor and he attacked it with ammonia. After everything had dried, the odor was still there. He tried pure Lysol, straight chlorine bleach, and nothing killed the odor. Finally, he painted the area to try to seal the odor. That didn’t work either. The trio realized that they needed to get creative, and so they just simply stuffed the area between the floors with Odor Eaters. Problem solved for the time being.
A month later, a heavy rain fell and the ceiling began to leak. The odor returned, but by now they had the drill down. Cleaning, painting, stuffing with Odor Eaters. Eventually, after many months, the odor faded, even if it was still faintly detectable in or near the closet as long as Herre and Gelzer lived there.
The property managers opined that the problem was rotting wood. Herre convinced himself that it must be a squirrel that had been trapped and died between the floors. He even went outside with a tape measure on one occasion to determine exactly where the carcass might be lodged. What he discovered was that a closet on Ira Einhorn’s screened porch was exactly above the closet in his kitchen.
The following summer, for the first time in Einhorn’s seven years of residence at this apartment, he did not sublet the apartment for the summer when he went on his travels.
In September of 1978, after more complaints about the persistence of the odor, the owner of the building ordered some work done over Ira Einhorn’s porch to fix the possible leaks that might be contributing to the problem. The roofer hired to do the work reported that the roof over the porch had originally been tarred in early 1977. It was a year later that he received the complaint from the owner about the odor. He thought it might be stagnant water that had leaked in through a crack in the tar. The firm re-tarred the roof. As soon as he learned that work was to be done, Ira contacted the owner and complained about the repairs that might possibly disturb his things. The owner, accustomed to Einhorn’s demands for privacy, didn’t think the complaint too unusual. Ira specifically instructed the repairmen not to go near the closet on his porch.
Meanwhile, the family of Holly Maddux, worried by the lack of regular contact which had always been her habit, called Ira on October 4, to try to find out what might be wrong. Ira reportedly said: “I was about to call and ask you.” Ira told Mrs. Maddux that Holly had been in Philadelphia for a few days in early September, and then just “took off.” Holly’s mother mentioned that it was her understanding that Holly was going to move into a new apartment, and had given them the address, but she was not responding to the mail that they had sent her there. Ira told Mrs. Maddux that he wished she would stop that because he was “tired of collecting Holly’s mail.”
Whoa! That was COLD!
Two weeks went by, and other members of Holly’s family who normally heard from her regularly began to call the Madduxes to try and find out what was going on, since they had not heard from Holly. On October 20, Liz Maddux called Ira Einhorn again, with a list of questions in hand so that she would not be sidetracked by Ira’s diversionary tactics.
Mrs. Maddux: When did she leave Philadelphia?
Ira: Three or four weeks ago. She went to the store and didn’t come back. Actually, I was in the bathtub when she left. When she didn’t return, I called everyone we knew and checked with the police and the hospitals, but no one knew anything. I talked to a friend of hers.…
Mrs. Maddux: Joyce Petschek?
Ira: Yes. You know, she has houses all over so I had a hard time getting in touch with her, but I finally did. She told me not to worry, that I might not hear from Holly for three or four months. I don’t know if she meant Holly might just go off for a while or if she knows where she is and won’t tell me. I’m the last one she’d tell.
The Madduxes didn’t get much from Ira, but we notice that, again, the story has morphed. Now it is not that Holly called Ira, but that he called a third party who told him that she had heard from Holly, who said “not to worry.” Did he really think that no one would ever check it out and compare these stories? Obviously he didn’t consider that as a possibility.
The Madduxes tried several approaches to discovering what happened to Holly, finally contacting one of Holly’s friends, Lawrence Wells, in Tyler, Texas, Holly’s home town. He was an assistant U.S. attorney, and the one who officially reported Holly missing to the authorities in Philadelphia after a check of the hospitals and morgues produced nothing. He also alerted Interpol that she was missing, and then called Ira Einhorn himself. He was given the same story about the bathtub scene. Wells didn’t buy it, and called the Philadelphia police directly and spoke to a detective who promised to look into the matter.
Detective Lane conducted a few interviews, speaking to Holly’s doctor (Holly was diabetic), as well as her therapist, Marian Coopersmith, who assured him that Holly was not suicidal. Holly had $21,000.00 dollars in the bank that had been untouched since her disappearance.
The police detective paid a visit to Einhorn, where Ira told him the bathtub story. However, he also told him the “Holly called me” story, stating that she had told him “I’m okay. Don’t look for me. I’ll call you once a week.” He then said that when she did not fulfill this promise, he began to get worried. His explanation to the detective, as to why he did not report her missing to the police, was that he had been told that since she was an adult, she didn’t qualify. This was correct, and the police investigation ended.
In January 1978, the Madduxes contacted R.J. Stevens, the former chief of the Tyler FBI bureau, who had just retired to open his own private investigation business. Stevens contacted Joyce Petschek, who replied by letter stating that she did not know where Holly was, and suggested that the Madduxes contact Marshall Lever, about whom she said: “He is a transmedium and perhaps could do a transmission for you as to Holly’s whereabouts.”
Yeah, right.
The Madduxes did not want to leave any stone unturned, so they did contact Lever. He told them that he was about to go on a trip and he would get back in touch. But, he never did. Some “transmedium.”
Stevens decided that he needed somebody in Philadelphia, so he contacted another former FBI guy who also was now working as a private investigator: J. Robert Pearce. Pearce did not normally deal with missing persons cases, but as a favor to another former FBI guy, he agreed to take the Holly Maddux case.
Stevens flew to Philadelphia in March of 1978, and the two of them reviewed what they had and made plans to interview Ira face to face. They called to make an appointment. Ira declined. He was too busy organizing Sun Day, an environmental “event.” Stevens was persistent and Einhorn just told him that he had no love for Holly’s parents — and that, in fact, getting away from her parents was the main reason she had disappeared! (Standard psychopathic trick! Blame the victims.)
Stevens pointed out to Einhorn that Holly had not just cut off contact with her parents, but with all her friends and Ira himself. Ira acknowledged this, and said that Holly simply wanted to transform her life by cutting all her ties.
Stevens argued that her parents did not intend to interfere in her life, they merely wanted to know that she was alright. Ira replied that he still would not cooperate since Holly did not want to be found. However, he did tell Stevens the bathtub story with the “Holly called me and said she was alright” variation.
Stevens and Pearce, experienced “G-men,” discussed Ira’s evasiveness and his unwillingness to assist. They could see no reason for someone who had been so close to Holly, someone who claimed to love her, to be so reluctant to help an investigation for the purpose of merely assuring her parents that she was alright. The fact that Ira refused to help, even while admitting that he knew no one who was in touch with Holly, including himself, was highly suspicious. At that moment, as Steven Levy recounts in his book The Unicorn’s Secret, Ira Einhorn became a suspect.
Stevens had to return to Texas, so R.J. Pearce continued the investigation in Philadelphia. He decided to approach the whole matter as if it were a “fugitive” case, develop contacts with people who knew her, and find out who saw her last and when and under what circumstances. After interviewing Ira’s parents, who were baffled that Ira would not cooperate with helping to establish that Holly was alright, Pearce interviewed the property managers at 3411 Race Street. They loved Holly, but didn’t like Ira, saying that he was strange. They weren’t sure what he did for a living, saying that he was a guru/consultant about UFOs or something. When Pearce asked if they thought that Einhorn would harm Holly, they admitted that they had thought of this and discussed it, but had discarded it since Ira had such a widespread reputation as an advocate of nonviolence.
Walking back to the front of Ira’s building, Pearce rang Ira’s bell and was buzzed in. Before he had climbed the stairs, Ira came to the door and wanted to know who the visitor was. Pearce described the encounter in a report reproduced in Steven Levy’s book:
He appeared to be dressed in a kind of silk kimono affair. He didn’t completely open the door, and I couldn’t see how he was attired completely. His eyes are noticeably blue, he has a stocky build, full beard, light brown in color, and rather long hair matching in color. He appeared calm. From what little I could see into the apartment, I didn’t think it was heavily furnished, but it did appear orderly. Ira Einhorn was emphatic that he would not “help Holly’s parents.” He did say he did not know where Holly is but claimed that if he did know, he would tell [me]. (Levy, 1988)
Pearce next spoke to a number of Philadelphia officials in law enforcement, one of whom was George Fencl, who knew Einhorn and had recently been in contact with him as a consequence of the Sun Day shindig. Pearce asked him to have a chat with Ira, and Fencl did so. The result of this talk was that Ira again made it clear that he had no desire to help anyone find Holly. He also commented to Fencl that this matter was getting an unusual amount of attention for a routine missing persons case — a detective, and ex-FBI man, and now a police inspector. The implication was, of course, that the attention was focused on Ira, and not simply because Holly was missing. Fencl asked him to just help straighten it out and Ira promised he would. A few weeks later he called Fencl and told him that, after discussing it with all his friends, it seemed that Holly was “out of the country.” He said he would do some checking himself when he was abroad later in the upcoming weeks.
George Fencl relayed this promising information to Pearce who then asked him: “Would Ira Einhorn harm Holly Maddux?” Fencl admitted that Ira was strange. “He would write you a letter to set up a meeting and a week later just walk in your office unannounced. But everyone knew Ira Einhorn advocated and practiced nonviolence and the police inspector had no evidence to the contrary.”
As Pearce developed leads, he talked to an acquaintance of Holly’s who had chatted with her while she was at Joyce Petschek’s house on Fire Island, in the weeks before she disappeared. In late August of 1978, this individual told Pearce that Holly had told him that she had broken up with Einhorn permanently and there was a new man in her life, Saul. He then told Pearce about Andrija Puharich.
R.J. Pearce, an ex-FBI guy, knew nothing about the “colorful history” of Puharich. As it happened, Puharich’s three-story house in Ossining, New York, the headquarters for his “mind-blowing experiments of the Space Kids,” had just recently burned down. The police had ruled the case arson.
Pearce dispatched another former FBI agent, Clyde Olver, to investigate the burning of Puharich’s house, in order to determine if there might be any connection between that and Holly’s disappearance. Puharich was rumored to have fled to Mexico, but the neighbors had plenty to say about the “strange goings on” at Turkey Farm. They said there were people coming from all over the world for “unspecified, and possibly unnatural experiments.”
Olver tracked down three of the “Space Kids” who had been living at Puharich’s before the house burned down. They were, apparently, feeling pretty badly treated by Puharich because he had just up and disappeared, abandoning them. However, they did know Ira. In fact, they mentioned that they had seen him quite recently: A day or two after the fire, Ira had appeared out of nowhere, promising to recruit an investigative reporter to look into the fire.
I must admit that reading this item raised a huge question in my mind. I started to wonder exactly when Ira Einhorn began to propose the idea that someone was out to get him, that the work he was doing was dangerous? When, exactly, did the assembly of obviously gullible people with whom Ira hung out, begin to think that they were all playing some kind of exciting and dangerous “cat and mouse” game with the “shadow government?” Who came up with that idea? Who promoted it? It occurred to me that it would be very handy for all of that group who hung around with Puharich to think that somebody was really after them — which they would naturally think if Puharich’s house had been torched. That idea, of course, would lend great credibility to Einhorn’s own claims that he was “framed.” It would be a very convincing emotional shock to all his friends and would incline them to believe Ira and support him.
In fact, that is a standard ploy of the psychopath: To actually instigate sabotage of some sort so as to create the image of being attacked, stalked, or in some kind of danger, so that they can engender sympathy and support by their “brave and stoic endurance” of their troubles. But again, the clue is that the words and actions are out of sync.
Did Ira Einhorn burn down Andrija Puharich’s house in order to put Puharich’s supporters in a shocked and confused frame of mind, so that they would be more susceptible to believing his claims about being framed? After all, it was in March that Ira was first approached by Stevens and Pearce. It was after that when Fencl talked to Ira and Einhorn made his comment about the unusual amount of interest Holly’s missing status was attracting. Did he then begin to build up the tension of the idea of being stalked by nefarious groups, and did he then begin making plans as to how he would “confirm” this impression? Was the burning of Andrija Puharich’s house part of his plan to convince the people of “wealth and taste” who had supported their “paranormal” interests, that the experiments undertaken by Puharich were “dangerous,” and that Ira was also in danger? Could Ira have burned down Puharich’s house to create the impression that he was “next on the list” of those to be stalked and dealt with? Could he have been influential in convincing Puharich himself of these ideas, so that he would promote them to his supporters? Was this also designed to set their backs up against the authorities who might later wish to ask questions about Holly’s disappearance? Such as “ex FBI agents” who Ira already knew were asking questions? And after the burning of Puharich’s house, Ira shows up one or two days later and promises to recruit an investigative reporter?
The rumors about Puharich and his possible government-connections-turned-sour had run rampant for years. But was any of that really true?
Clyde Olver contacted the arson investigator for the insurance company with the policy on Puharich’s house. The investigator had concluded that a would-be psychic researcher, spurned by Phuarich, was the main suspect. This suspect had once left a statement on Puharich’s answering machine such as, “I don’t know what’s happening to me! I’m going crazy!” He had appeared at the Turkey Farm one day and demanded that everyone listen to his personal problems. One of these problems was, as he explained it, harassment by extraterrestrials. (Levy, 1988)
The insurance investigator had interviewed Puharich on August 15. He confirmed that Puharich was, indeed, a “medical doctor who had authored several books, an expert in paranormal phenomena.” Puharich had also provided to the insurance company the necessary information about his income sources: a $10,000 grant from a Baron DePauli, $15,000 from Dell Books as advance on a book about Tesla; $50,000 for the rights to a movie about Uri Geller, and between 50 and 70 grand for his scheduled lectures.
The insurance investigator thought that Puharich was a nutzoid. “It is noteworthy to mention that Puharich stated he has observed numerous UFOs and has communicated with extraterrestrial beings.” Puharich was in Los Angeles when the fire occurred, but he suggested to the insurance investigator that the strange behavior of the guy ranting about being harassed by UFOs was not unusual; instead, he pointed out that the fire was very likely started by the CIA as a “warning” to him because he (via Einhorn) had been circulating evidence of Soviet experiments in psychic warfare.
Now, let’s stop and think about this for a minute. I want to get this straight: Puharich, Einhorn, and many others since, have promoted the idea that the CIA is after them because they are circulating information about the Russian threat in terms of psychotronic warfare. Here we have Puharich talking to an insurance investigator, for God’s sake, who might just as likely have thought that Puharich himself was crazy and burned down his own house based on such loose talk. Why in the world would anybody who was truly rational talk to an insurance investigator this way?
It reminds me of the time I had an insurance appraiser come to the house after we finished some construction work. I was having the fidgets worrying about this person coming in my back room where the psychomantium was. How was I going to explain a black tent to an insurance appraiser? What if they decided we were so weird that we had to pay higher insurance premiums? After all, nobody really knows all the secrets of how actuaries come up with insurance rates. Everybody who has had experience with insurance companies knows that you want to seem as “normal” and “in the middle” as possible. Well, since I also used the room for my microfiche viewer, I just moved it to a prominent position in the middle of the room and didn’t say anything. The appraiser asked what kind of stuff I was viewing, and I just told the truth — genealogy records. That was “normal.”
So, back to Puharich: Here he is talking to an insurance investigator, the person who has the power to authorize or withhold payment on his claim, and he was saying things like that? I’m sorry. Puharich may have been a genius, but this single incident makes me question his grip on reality.
I’m having a hard time with another thing here: What happened to the fact that, during that period of time, the US government was pretty busy promoting the idea of the “Russian Threat?” If that is the case — and it is, historically speaking — why in the world would the CIA object to the circulation of ideas that the Russians were doing us dirty by turning our brains to jello with their psychic experiments and ELF waves? I mean, after all, that would fit right in with their own view. Why would Ira Einhorn claim that the CIA and the Russians were mad at him? Oh, of course. Because they would not be expected to show up at his trial and deny the charges. With psychopathic lies, everything has to be so double and triple reversed-covert that nobody will ever be able to get to the truth of the matter. You know, “This tape will self-destruct in five seconds, if you are caught, the State Department will deny all knowledge of your mission” type of thing.
How handy.
Well, just some things to think about. Now, back to Ira and Holly.
After interviewing many witnesses and writing up the report, Pearce was convinced that Holly Maddux had been murdered by Ira Einhorn. From January 3 of 1979 until March, Pearce tried to get action from the Philadelphia police. The detective assigned to the case, Kenneth Curcio, was singularly unresponsive. J. R. Pearce went over his head and spoke directly with the Police Commissioner on March 7, 1979. A new detective was then assigned to the case, Michael J. Chitwood.
Chitwood was a controversial “Dirty Harry” kind of guy who never even carried a gun, yet had been castigated as a “brutal inquisitor of homicide suspects” by a journalist for the Philadelphia Inquirer, resulting in his removal from the homicide division. In a plot right out of a movie, the Einhorn case was his first homicide assignment after being reinstated in the good graces of the department, because of his work in recent hostage negotiations. Chitwood read Pearce’s reports and also knew: Ira Einhorn was a murderer. He went to work to verify the information so he could draw up a search warrant.
Chitwood visited the city coroner and described to him the problem of the odor coming from Einhorn’s closet. The coroner, Halbert Fillinger, told Chitwood, “When you go to Einhorn’s apartment, you’re going to find a body there.” Chitwood simply could not believe such an idea. Nobody in his right mind would keep the body on the premises. He was convinced that blood had been spilled, that it had soaked through the floor during a short period of time when the body may have been temporarily concealed in the closet, but that surely the body would be gone by now! After all, it had been 18 months. All he wanted was a search warrant to go in and take out the floor and submit it for testing to determine the presence of human blood and proteins. That was the most he was hoping for in the way of evidence.
On March 28, three weeks after being handed Pearce’s findings, Michael Chitwood, Captain Patterson, three men from the Mobile Crime Unit, and two techs from the chemical lab, armed with crowbars, power tools, cameras, and a warrant, rang Ira Einhorn’s buzzer at 3411 Race Street.
It was ten minutes to nine o’clock and Ira Einhorn was still sleeping. He grabbed a robe and pressed the button to unlock the outside door. Chitwood and company were still climbing the stairs when Einhorn opened the door to his apartment and peered into the vestibule. He stood there in his opened robe, naked and exposed, exuding the repellant body odor for which he was notorious. (Ira believed he was a “godlike” being, and therefore, mere mortals ought to drink in, savor, and appreciate his bodily secretions.)
Detective Chitwood identified himself and told Ira that he had a search-and-seizure warrant. Einhorn laughed. “Search what?”
Chitwood was meticulous. There were going to be no mistakes here that could later invalidate the search warrant. He handed it to Einhorn and asked him to please read it carefully. It was 35-pages long. It basically said that the police had permission to search Einhorn’s apartment for any evidence relating to the disappearance of Helen (Holly) Maddux.
Einhorn told the policemen his much repeated story, that he hadn’t seen her since September 1977, when she went out to do some shopping and didn’t return. Einhorn was very calm and just asked if he could get dressed. “Certainly,” he was politely told by Michael Chitwood.
A few days later Einhorn told a reporter:
My reaction was, what is this all about. And of course, I have very good control of myself. I immediately gave myself an autohypnotic command — just … cool it. Cool it and watch this as carefully as possible, which is what I did. Which to them translated into as my being nonchalant, but I was just being totally observant. Because I’ve been through [tough situations], I’ve faced guns, I’ve faced the whole thing. So if you don’t act quickly, you can make a mess. I was not about to do anything. So I observed, literally, when they marched to the closet on the back porch.
The team of policemen had no real interest in the rest of the apartment, though Chitwood noted he had never seen a place with so many books. They went straight for the closet. The closet had a thick Master padlock on it and the detective asked Einhorn if he had a key to the closet. Ira said he didn’t know where it was.
“Well, I’m going to have to break it [the lock],” Chitwood said.
“Well, You’re going to have to break it,” Ira responded.
The photographers from the Mobile Crime Unit photographed the locked door. Then Chitwood broke the lock with a crowbar, and the door was photographed again.
The closet was 4.5-feet wide, 8-feet high, and just under 3-feet deep. The two-foot-wide shelves were jammed with boxes — some of which were marked “Maddux” — bags, shoes and other odds and ends. On the floor was a suitcase with the name “Holly Maddux” on it. Behind the suitcase was a black steamer trunk.
The interior of the closet was photographed before Detective Chitwood began removing the items one by one. As they were taken out, they were individually photographed and then examined. The boxes contained such things as kitchen items, clothing, schoolbooks, papers, etc. The suitcase contained clothing, and several letters to Holly Maddux that were more than two years old. Holly’s handbag was in a box sitting on the trunk. Inside the bag was her driver’s license and social-security card.
Detective Chitwood noted an unpleasant odor as he continued to remove the items from the closet one by one, pausing for the photographers to record every move, every article. Ira had been walking back and forth between the main room of the apartment and the closet repeatedly while all this was taking place, and Chitwood later said that he thought he could sense fear rising in Einhorn. Einhorn himself would later say that he was merely in a “meditative state” — observing — and that he was coming to the idea that this intrusion was connected to his “efforts to disseminate crucial information about top secret things like psychotronic weapons.”
At this point, Michael Chitwood was ready to open the trunk. It was sitting on a piece of dirty, folded-up carpet. It measured 4.5-feet long, 2.5-feet wide, and 2.5-feet deep. It was locked. Again, Ira was asked for the key, and again he said he didn’t have one. The trunk was photographed before and after the lock was broken. The odor assailed Chitwood as he opened the lid of the trunk. He asked for rubber gloves.
On top, inside the trunk, were newspapers. The latest date on them was September 15, 1977. Underneath the newspapers was shredded foam-rubber packing material and wadded-up plastic shopping-bags. Chitwood began to scoop out the shredded foam. After three scoops he saw something — a wrist and five fingers — shriveled and dark like rawhide.
The coroner had been right. Detective Chitwood followed the hand down the arm to a cuff of a plaid flannel shirt, and then he backed away from the trunk. Pulling off his rubber gloves, he instructed one of his men to call the medical examiner. He went to the kitchen to wash his hands, and standing there was Ira Einhorn, maintaining his cool.
“We found the body. It looks like Holly’s body,” he told Ira.
“You found what you found,” said Einhorn.
At that moment, Detective Chitwood noticed some keys hanging from hooks on the wall in plain view. “What are these for?” he asked Ira. Ira said, “Maybe they fit the locks that you just broke.” Chitwood took them and tried them in the locks. They fit.
Going back to the kitchen, Chitwood asked Ira, “Do you want to tell me about it?”
“No.”
Chitwood read Ira his Miranda rights. When he came to the part about the right to remain silent, Ira said, “Yes, I want to remain silent.”
By this time, the medical examiner, an assistant district attorney, more homicide detectives, and J.R. Pearce had arrived. Cameras were flashing, power tools were being revved up to cut out the floor where the trunk had stood, and more search warrants were arriving authorizing more areas to be searched and more evidence to be retrieved. Through it all, Ira Einhorn was in a state that has been described as “eerie languor.” He gave no resistance.
In deference to his prominence as a public figure, he was not handcuffed before he was escorted to the official car for transportation to the holding facility, where he was booked for the murder of Helen (Holly) Maddux, aged 31-years old.
The medical examiner described the cause of death as “cranio-cerebral injuries to the brain and skull. There are at least ten or twelve fractures and maybe more.” Her skull was broken under the left eye-socket; there were a series of breaks in the skull on the left side, and several broken and depressed broken places in front of her right ear; the right frontal bone of her forehead was smashed; and there were more breaks around the orbit of the right eye. Holly’s lower jaw was broken so badly that part of it was driven into her mouth. According to the medical examiner, “the holes in the skull are so big you can’t define how many times one area had been struck,” presumably with a blunt object such as a lamp or a bottle. Six was the minimum number of blows, but there were likely more than twice that many.
In other words, Holly Maddux was probably already dead while Ira continued to vent his rage on her, like a crazed 270-pound gorilla stomping on a rival and beating its chest. (No insult to gorillas intended. They are probably far more civilized than Ira Einhorn.)
The reader, having read the facts of the case — the report of the thud and scream, the attempt by Ira to dispose of a trunk, the terrible odor coming from his apartment for many months, his contradictory claims and statements to friends and family, his concerns about the closet where the body was found (of which there were many other notable examples in Levy’s book), his failure to follow his habit to sub-let his apartment in the summer, even his little obstructive lies about the keys, and finally, the fact that the body was in his closet — knows that Ira Einhorn murdered Holly Maddux, stuffed her body in a trunk and, when one feeble attempt to get rid of it failed, returned it to the closet no later than September 15.
Anybody with two neurons in contact with one another would come to the same conclusion.
But, that is not what happened. Droves of people — public figures, people of wealth and taste, intellectuals — came to support Ira and declare that it was utterly impossible to even consider that he would harm a fly, much less Holly, whom he loved with all his heart.
Nobody seemed to pay attention to the curious fact that Ira was not the least upset that the body in the closet might be Holly’s. Interviewed in jail by Howard Shapiro for the Philadelphia Inquirer, Einhorn went on the record saying:
“I have been outspoken all my life, but never have I been violent. I want to be very direct about this. I did not kill whoever was supposed to be in there. I am not a killer. I do not know if a body got in there — if it was a body.”
Then he declared that he “still loved Holly.”
I want the reader to stop for a moment at this point and think about all of the above. Imagine that there is someone you love, someone who you have said is the “love of your life.” Maybe even imagine it is your child, if it is easier to get the proper “feeling” that way. Now, imagine that this person has just disappeared. Keep imagining. Imagine that you are innocent of any harm to the person. You can even imagine that you are convinced that certain nefarious groups may be “after you” for some reason, so you already have the idea that you could be a target for any number of “arranged problems.” Forget any other details about Ira’s case, the scream, the horrible smell of rotting flesh, the odd behavior about the trunk and the closet. In your scenario, none of that happened. You are a target of evil organizations and your loved one just disappeared, and you are worried. Really worried. What would you do? What actions would naturally result from such a situation?
If you suspected that you had been targeted by some secret gang, what kinds of actions would you take to discover if harm had come to your loved one? Would you refuse to cooperate with the investigator hired by the family of the one you love? Even if you didn’t like the family? In such a situation, even people who don’t really like each other generally will unite in the common goal of assuring the well-being of someone they both love. What kind of investigations would you undertake on your own?
I bet you can think of all kinds of things that Ira never did. In fact, there are a number of movies and stories about people in exactly such situations who have made heroic efforts to find a loved one at great risk to their personal safety and reputation. Because of love.
Well, for whatever reason, in spite of the fact of his declared great love for Holly, Ira did nothing. Oh, sure, he claimed he took certain steps, but no one supported his claims. None of the people who he would have been expected to contact to find out Holly’s whereabouts were ever asked by him if they had any ideas or had heard anything. His story about a call from Holly was only used to obfuscate those who suspected foul play. He said he loved her, but his actions did not match his words.
But, getting back to our hypothetical scenario: Imagine that you are just sleeping in your bed, after two years of worry and searching for your lost loved one, and the police show up at your door suggesting that the solution to the problem might be in your closet. (Yeah, I know, this is stretching our imagination a bit, but keep trying.) Anybody who really loves somebody, who has really worried about that person, even if they are incredulous at the mere suggestion that their own closet may hold the answer, is certainly not going to obfuscate the issue of the keys. You are going to want to know why anybody would think that the answer is in the closet. Heck, maybe you haven’t looked in the closet for years. And, as Ira claimed, maybe you do suspect that something might be arranged by shadowy groups to set you up because of your “radical work.” Is that going to diminish the feeling you have for your loved one? Is that going to interfere with your desire to leave no stone unturned that may lead to a solution of where the loved one may be found? Of course not.
Okay, next imagine that the trunk has been opened and — to your complete astonishment — a body has been found. A trustworthy individual who would be considered to know what he was saying when he announced that a body has been found, has just told you that a body is there, and that it looks like your beloved one. Keep in mind, the suggestion has been made that this is someone you love with all your heart. Someone that you have been trying desperately to find for almost two years. Keep in mind that you suspect that someone may have been after you, to harm you, and it may be that this harm was done to your loved one in order to get to you. As much as you don’t want to think that your loved one is dead, you have to know! Are you going to just stand there after a detective has said, “We found a body, it may be your loved one,” and just answer “You found what you found”?!
Then, even if you are not allowed to rush madly to the closet to see with your own eyes, but instead, are arrested for murder, are you going to just say, “Yes, I want to remain silent?”
Now that your beloved has at last been found, are you going to immediately grant an interview with a journalist in which you tell the journalist that you know who murdered your loved one, but that you aren’t going to say who did it to “set you up.” Are you going to follow this with: “I did not kill whoever was supposed to be in there. I do not know if a body got in there — if it was a body”?!
Excuuuuse me!
What we are looking at is a classic display of the psychopathic personality. He claimed to “love” Holly, yet in all the material I have reviewed about the case, other than repeating that he “loved Holly,” there is not a single expression of grief or anguish. He knew the word “love,” but clearly did not know what it meant. Oh, sure, he knew how to “act out” love in ordinary ways, but he had never had anyone to observe who was in the situation he found himself in, so he had no “model” to ape in order to produce the appropriate responses. This is the weakness of the psychopath. All their “emotions” are “acting,” and they can only act based on what they learn from others. Even if they have produced, momentarily, an appropriate display, something about the way their mind works makes them unable to sustain it. They are so focused on themselves, that they simply cannot abide attention being diverted to anyone or anything else, and will unconsciously give themselves away.
Oh, indeed, others noted Ira’s coldness, and Ira explained it as being his great “control” — that he had faced so many difficult situations that he gave himself an “auto-hypnotic suggestion” so he would be calm. But that was only after it was pointed out how odd his behavior appeared to others.
Those who doubted him had their doubts thrown back in their face on the platform of his public persona. The very idea that they would doubt him became an implied moral failing on their part!
“This is a time of testing. I try to learn from every situation. Now I’m going to see if my friends believe in me. I think that they do. I know that many people will help. I know that many will refuse to believe what’s being said. These people know me. They’ll stand by me. I’m sure of it.”
And, of course, with such a challenge thrown out there, they did.
Curiously, Einhorn’s choice of legal counsel was Arlen Specter, the strategist who conceived the controversial “single-bullet/lone assassin” theory regarding the death of John F. Kennedy. Einhorn was a very vocal critic of the Warren Report and held the single-bullet theory in complete contempt. A mutual friend of Einhorn and Specter suggested Specter as counsel, and Einhorn tossed aside his previous scruples and said “Yes!” If Specter could convince the world that a single assassin had murdered JFK, he could convince the world that Holly got into Einhorn’s closet along with all her things, completely unbeknownst to Ira.
The first objective was to secure a low bail. Bail hearings are held to determine whether or not the suspect should be considered reliable enough to be released on bail until tried. Witnesses are brought in who will attest to the fact that the accused is of such good character that they will abide by the law and show up for their trial.
The first character witness for Ira Einhorn was Stephen J. Harmelin, an attorney with a prestigious law firm. He had known Ira since high school, and he described his character and reputation as “excellent.”
The assistant district attorney, Joseph Murray hoped to uncover indications that Einhorn might leave the country rather than face a trial. His first concern regarding this was Einhorn’s income. There had been years of speculation about just how Einhorn did make his money, even though it was obvious that he lived very frugally and didn’t need much. He did, however, travel a great deal and engaged in activities that might be thought to require goodly sums from time to time. Where was it coming from?
“What does he do for a living?” Murray asked.
His long time friend from high school wasn’t precisely sure. “My understanding is that he acts as a consultant for various institutions in Philadelphia.”
“Like what?”
“My recollection is that he was doing some consulting work for the Bell Telephone Company. Mr. Einhorn seemed to be able to bring to the attention of corporate executives a kind of broad spectrum of information which they otherwise wouldn’t generally have available to them.”
“Like what?”
Edward Mahler, a vice-president of personnel relations at Bell, was called upon to explain the relationship:
“We wish to be responsive to the needs of the community. In that context I was introduced by a friend to Ira, and we started our relationship. I became, as it were, the contact with Mr. Einhorn. I think I would dare to say we would meet two to three times a month.… We talk fundamentally about things related to the community. I would discuss with him things we were proposing, and he would respond to them. Then we’d talk, of course, about myriad things that had nothing to do with the telephone company.”
“And did Mr. Einhorn have contacts with other key executives at Bell Telephone?”
“Yes, he did from time to time.”
“Such as?”
“Such as our president and former president.”
“How much was he paid as a consultant?”
“Nothing in cash.”
“What? In check?”
“No, nothing like that. No money changes hands.”
The judge, William M. Marutani, was so curious about this bizarre series of remarks that he proceeded to question the witness himself.
“Do I understand, Mr. Mahler, that you meet Mr. Einhorn say, two or three times a month?”
“Yes.”
“And what would these be — you would happen to bump into each other?”
“No, no, no. Excuse me, Your Honor. Ira represented a group in the community that we did not hear from. Where it seemed to us he could represent their point of view. It was not one we could [otherwise] be aware of.… And at least that was the reason for maintaining regular contact.”
“Was this a public relations venture by Bell Telephone?” the judge asked.
“Oh, okay, community relations, Judge.”
“And Bell Telephone, with all its wealth, never gave him a dime?” The judge was obviously incredulous that the phone company even took Ira seriously.
“No sir, no sir. We did do one thing for him. I feel I should mention it to explain in part what went on. It seems that Ira represented the people in the community, like the professor you heard, the lawyer, the physicist, the futurist, and so on. [We] would reproduce articles that Ira would find, or others would find, and mail them to members of the group.… It was a service we performed, you could say, for Ira. He was very appreciative of it. But again, it was in line with our communicating with this broader network, Judge.
“What would be in it for people such as Ira to go to all this trouble?”
There was no answer that was obvious. Mahler knew that Ira had never wanted money. It was his declared purpose to just be a “networker.” Money did not motivate him. He claimed that he operated on a higher and grander system; he worked without pay for Planet Earth! That’s who Ira was.
Mahler was excused.
The parade of character-witnesses was long and illustrious, but the prosecutor pointed out that none of their protestations of Ira Einhorn’s “good character” made any difference. “This is a very serious case. A case that indicates planning, intention, all the earmarks of a very serious first-degree murder case,” he said. He then stated that Einhorn’s contacts, habits, access to money, and many travels, all might suggest that Ira would jump bail and disappear. He wanted bail set at $100,000, of which only ten percent needed to be posted.
Arlen Specter argued that this amount was excessive, claiming that the State had no direct evidence that Ira had killed Holly.
Say what?
The judge made a classic series of remarks:
“Isn’t it a little unusual to have a dead body… in a trunk in one’s own residence? Doesn’t that raise some eyebrows…? Remember, I am not determining his guilt — indeed, I want to be candid with you. I think the Inquirer quoted him as saying he was framed. He well may have been as far as I am concerned. I mean, he’s not in his apartment twenty-four hours a day and somebody… who knows, strange things happen in life… you know, I wouldn’t want somebody to find my wife’s body in a trunk in my home, particularly if I lived alone. I think I’d be in hot water.”
That was the point. Anybody else, under just about any other circumstances, would have really been in the soup if a dead body were found in their closet, and the circumstances we have recounted were present. It would have been a sure thing that everybody would have thought they were guilty. In fact, there have been judges, doctors, attorneys, politicians, millionaires, and high-society ladies of the very type who were testifying to Ira Einhorn’s good character, found in far less incriminating circumstances who were not presumed innocent either by their friends, peers, or the public.
So why was Ira?
Why did Barbara Bronfman, wife of Seagram heir Charles Bronfman, step forward with the paltry four-grand necessary to post the remainder of Ira’s bail, after Judge Marutani had finally set it at $40,000? (Ira’s parents assumed the liability for the remainder.)
This is a very crucial question. We might assume that all of the witnesses to Ira’s character had a few neurons firing there in the old brain pan. We will allow that they probably did not know all the details that came out in the investigation. After all, the case had not yet been tried. All they really knew was that Holly’s body had been found in the trunk in Ira’s closet, and he was claiming he had been framed because his networking had made enemies.
I should like to point out that this “explanation” — that Holly had been killed to frame him — completely obviates Ira’s former claim that he had received a phone call from Holly saying that she didn’t want to be found. It also begs the question: If he really thought that there were “agents” out to get him, and he really was innocent, why didn’t he suspect that they might be responsible for Holly’s disappearance? And, if he thought that, why didn’t he make it his business to find out what had happened to her? After all, he loved her so much that two nights before she disappeared, he was on the phone to her repeatedly trying to get her to reconcile with him. When she told him she didn’t want to see him again, he threatened to throw all her possessions in the street. It was only in order to collect her things that Holly even went to see Ira.
Another question is: If there were agents of some dark conspiracy who were after Ira, and they were able to kill Holly, plant her body in his apartment under the noses of the neighbors in order to frame him, and do it so easily — why didn’t they just snuff Ira? After all, it was six of one and half-dozen of the other for him to be martyred by his own death, or martyred by imprisonment because he was framed. Surely, such agents — if they existed — didn’t think he would be quiet about being framed — if he was framed — and surely, if he was really framed, such agents would have assumed that he would blab whatever he knew that they didn’t want spread around, and therefore, framing him would have been seen as too costly. Because surely, if such agents really existed, they knew that by framing Ira, whatever information he was supposed to have possessed would have become a matter of public record in an ensuing trial.
The “Ira was framed to silence him” story just doesn’t cut it no matter which way you look at it. We already know, from our look at other cases, that when it is desirable to shut somebody up, it can be done so quick, so clean, so completely, that all this nonsense about “the CIA burned my house down,” or “the CIA tried to kill me 16 times,” or “the CIA killed someone else and planted her body in my closet to frame me so I wouldn’t talk about what they are doing,” is a complete load of hooey.
But this cock-and-bull story was believed by many, and everybody’s ethics were put on the line with Ira announcing to the press that “now he would know who his friends really are.” They showed up and got in line, and did the Einhorn dance, and forked over the bucks Ira needed without a single question.
So why? Why did seemingly intelligent and articulate people find it so impossible to think that Ira Einhorn could murder Holly Maddux?
Could it be, as some suggest, that his defenders were also part of some sort of conspiracy? Did they all know that Ira murdered Holly, but they were being instructed to get him out of jail and out of the country?
Nice try. But that would make a plain old liar and murderer out of Ira, which would then negate his “frame up” story, based on the whole deal about being involved in things that others wanted hushed up enough to frame him! Again, simple logic cuts through the confusion spread by Ira.
No, I am afraid the answer, on the psychological level, is far more prosaic than that: Ira Einhorn was quite simply a psychopath, a con-artist, a grifter, and all those people who lined up to cast their lot in support of him, intelligent and articulate though they might have been, were simply duped. They were suckers. They were victims of a psychopath.
Remember the guy described by Dr. Robert Hare, the psychopath who was on his way to public prominence and was then exposed as a fraud? The amazing thing about that case, which has elements that exactly mesh with the Einhorn case, was the fact that the very people he was duping jumped to his defense, one of them declaring that “I assess his genuineness, integrity, and devotion to duty to rank right alongside of President Abraham Lincoln.”
What many people do not seem to fully grasp is the fact that psychopaths are such good impostors that they can live their entire lives as phonies and never get caught. I am reminded of several cases where the evidence of the “secret” of the psychopath wasn’t revealed until after their deaths, in their papers and effects. Naturally, the friends and families were devastated and the repercussions weren’t too savory either. But, for the most part, except for a few people who have had certain experiences with the psychopath, who have seen the “man behind the curtain,” a psychopath dupes nearly everyone — and does it successfully.
Another important thing is the fact that a psychopath may spend years building up to a “coup.” Some of them display almost preternatural cunning in the way they stalk their objective. They can certainly make a big display of working very hard. They can be meticulous and scrupulous about fulfilling certain obligations, “keeping their word,” doing all the things that create a certain “image” of benevolence or kindness, or generosity. But there is always a pay-back. The smarter ones have learned to delay the “pay-back.” Some of them don’t ask for an “obvious” pay-back, rather they will use a connection to make another “hit.” They will associate with one “target” in order to get to another. When we say that psychopaths make their way by conning people into doing things for them, obtaining money, prestige, power for them, or even standing up for them when others try to expose them, it must be emphasized that this activity can be so subtle that only the most acute observer can detect the “glitches” in the program, so to say. They always have a “secret life” that is hidden from the public, and maybe even hidden from every single person in their “regular life.” In some cases, they may have revealed themselves only when they were very young, before they “learned” that their way of being is “different.”
The man in the case cited by Hare said: “These trusting people will stand behind me. A good liar is a good judge of people.”
Ira Einhorn said: “This is a time of testing. I try to learn from every situation. Now I’m going to see if my friends believe in me. I think that they do. I know that many people will help. I know that many will refuse to believe what’s being said. These people know me. They’ll stand by me. I’m sure of it.”
In both cases, and thousands upon thousands of others, exactly the same conditions prevail. A psychopath lies, and people believe him — on a scale that is almost impossible to imagine. The reason they are able to do this is very, very significant: They are able to do it because most people are gullible, with an unshakable belief in the inherent goodness of man.
But it goes even deeper. Not only do people believe them and take them at their word, when another person points out the “glitches in the program,” the believer will not just refuse to acknowledge it, they will refuse to investigate on their own! If the proofs are handed to them, and all they have to do is read them and think, they won’t do it! In some cases, they will read them, but will trust the psychopath who is lying when he is saying that the proof is all lies.
Just to give a concrete example of this fascinating phenomenon — a real-life example — let me describe this curious aspect as it has been observed in our own experience. In the case of Vincent Bridges and his coterie of followers, it has not occurred to them, for example, that six people who all know Frank Scott personally — some of them for as long as ten years — all have the same opinion of him. None of the Bridges gang have ever met him and have no long experience upon which to base an opinion. Nevertheless, they believe Bridges’ opinion, his claims that all of these six people are lying, because only he can possibly know the truth of the situation! Why? Because he has so repeatedly declared himself an “expert” that they must actually believe he is! The fact that every single one of his “expert credentials” was proven to be false makes absolutely no difference in the world. What is even more shocking is the extent to which the defenders of the psychopath will go, even committing illegal and unethical acts in his defense. In fact, this item might even be a key to identifying the psychopath: The extent to which people will go, acting in opposition to their own welfare, their own professed standards of ethical behavior, and even to their own detriment, in order to defend a psychopath. This may be a clue that the psychopathic reality is “communicable,” like some sort of disease.
A concrete example of this behavior is the fact that the very person who was obsessively checking Bridges’ credentials, Dr. Nellie Oleson (pseudonym) — the one who first brought to our attention the fact that there were serious questions to be asked about Vincent Bridges’s background — is now one of his staunchest supporters!
The fact is that even after we had expressed no real desire to pursue any serious questions about his background — we merely wished to have the free will to “not associate,” and that was that — Dr. Oleson repeatedly brought it up, adding one find to another, in what now can be seen as an obvious attempt to “stir the pot.” Not only that, but she was writing private emails to other members of our e-group, casting doubt on Bridges as an “expert” of any kind, seemingly in an effort to put pressure on us to — what? To investigate him? Or simply to be more and more antagonistic? It’s hard to tell. Nevertheless, what is crazier still, as soon as we had arrived at the opinion that Bridges was doing some serious “credential padding,” and we began to discuss Bridges privately in terms of Dr. Oleson’s findings about his lack of credentials; as soon as she was assured that we all had the idea firmly planted in our minds that Bridges was a liar and a cheat, she then flipped over to Bridges’ side and started doing the exact same thing with him!
What power did he exert over her? Because the fact is, Dr. Nellie Oleson did some things that not just violated our rights, and the rights of our group, but which were also ethically self-destructive and legally actionable!
Dr. Oleson, as a member of the Perseus Foundation, signed a confidentiality agreement that anything relating to any of our investigations that was discussed or shared in person, by phone, or email, that was designated “private,” was private. This was a clear necessity for a foundation that is set up to investigate backgrounds of other people and possible frauds on the internet, etc. Journalists cannot work without confidentiality. A confidential source has to be assured that they are dealing with a group that will hold the information private, even including their identity. This is a legal right of investigative journalism based on the necessity of being able to assure that information will be available even in cases when the informant has reason to fear the release of that information.
Now, keep in mind that Dr. Nellie Oleson is a professor of English at the University of Wisconsin, Platteville, and would certainly be expected to be very familiar with how journalists work. However, after being ejected from our e-group for disruptive and aggressive behavior, to garner favor with Vincent Bridges, Oleson forwarded to him numerous private emails that had been copied to her from a confidential informant, as part of the beginning investigation into the Bridges matter. The informant had given his permission for her to read them, since she was a member of the Foundation with a confidentiality agreement on file. When they had been forwarded to her, they were marked as “private.”
However, not only did Dr. Nellie Oleson violate the confidentiality of a third-party confidential informant, she violated her signed confidentiality agreement with the Perseus Foundation. She also betrayed over 200 other people in our e-group and research team.
As an instructor at an institution of higher learning in this country, who not only claims to be informed about such matters, but is also hired to teach them — to set an example — we find that her behavior was not only irresponsible, it was highly unethical and illegal. I certainly would not want such an individual (especially considering other aspects of her “story”) teaching one of my children. What is more, in the world in which she proposes to operate — the world of journalism — this act has put her beyond the pale of serious journalists and writers. In short, she has shown that she cannot be trusted in a field where trust is paramount. Without journalistic confidentiality, no truth would ever be known.
She did this to “defend” Vincent Bridges. We see here a real live example of how people will even do things that are illegal under such an influence. If nothing else, the fact that this woman, with so much to lose, would commit so unethical, irresponsible, and morally reprehensible a series of actions proves the power of the psychopath to confuse and influence.
This brings us to another aspect of the psychopath: The obsessive need to force their delusions on others and to force association. Mr. Bridges literally is consumed with the fact that we have refused to associate with him. He spends days and nights obsessing about us, our website, and every single thing we do or say. I’ve never seen anything like it! It’s like he has no life at all except the life he draws from his followers in their endless feeding frenzy on each other’s opinions of the Cassiopaea Experiment, about which they know almost nothing! Bridges and Dr. Nellie Oleson will produce endless pages of text about their analysis of me, or about what we say or do, using either my own writings or Tom French’s article to diagnose my “psychosis,” or “megalomania,” or whatever is the personality glitch du jour. He intimates that he has had long and friendly talks with Tom, and suggests that they are “hermanos,” that they “both know” how “dangerous” I am. What he never mentions is the remark about Frank (and what may have been behind it) that Tom made in his article: “He was very excited, and when F*** got excited, he could be a little pushy. Laura did not mind. She adored F***; besides, the unwritten contract of their relationship allowed great leeway for pushiness.”
It certainly was that way. Pushy. Great leeway for pushiness, by the way. Noted in print by Tom French, who could not fail to note it, and who also could not fail to note that I was most definitely tolerating a lot from Frank. I truly adored Frank, and that was and is the only reason he continued with the group for as long as he did. This factor has also been noted in remarks by the six other active members of the group, some of which have been made public, others of which are reserved for legal and/or privacy reasons.
But this comment of Tom’s is ignored by Vincent Bridges, all the while he “uses” Tom based on a phone call during which conversation he attempted to convince Tom that I am a raving megalomaniac trying to start a cult — because we simply do not want to associate with him. Bridges tried to elicit from Tom French a “new opinion” of me, after filling him in with the sordid details of my life according to Vincent the “expert.” I guess he thinks Tom was born yesterday.
As it happens, Tom usually calls me on my birthday, as he has for the past seven years. We had a most interesting discussion this last birthday, you may be sure.
So, on the one hand, we have six respectable people, none of whom has ever even “fudged” their credentials offering information that is direct and factual — along with supporting evidence — about a situation, and the individuals involved.
On the other hand, we have a proven liar and manipulator declaring that everything we say and do is directed towards some sinister, nefarious purpose. He has nothing on which to base his statements other than just his say-so. So what we see is a very strange phenomenon that is quite similar to the situation surrounding Ira Einhorn. Not only is our “sin” the same as Holly’s — she refused further association with Einhorn — many of the people around them believed him and not the evidence. People didn’t just refuse to look at or consider the facts, they were quite simply unable to believe them. For Barbara Bronfman, it wasn’t until years later — and after she had given many, many thousands of dollars to support Ira in exile — that she suddenly was able to “see” him, and recoiled in horror at how she had been used and manipulated and deceived. So it seems that there is some possibility that some victims do eventually wake up. But many don’t, and I would like to know why.
Over and over again I think about those remarks of Leon Festinger about cognitive dissonance:
Suppose an individual believes something with his whole heart; suppose further that he has a commitment to this belief, that he has taken irrevocable actions because of it; finally, suppose that he is presented with evidence, unequivocal and undeniable evidence, that his belief is wrong: what will happen? The individual will frequently emerge, not only unshaken, but even more convinced of the truth of his beliefs than ever before. Indeed, he may even show a new fervor about convincing and converting other people to his view. (Festinger, 1956; this author’s emphasis)
But essentially, what we are talking about here is not anything like religious belief, or belief in Santa Claus or the Tooth Fairy — or are we? What is it about the psychopath that makes them able to induce belief so strongly that people will even undertake to do illegal things for them, to lie for them, steal for them, join them in libel, and cruel and hurtful activities against others? Is it a psychological weakness that drives people to prefer lies over truth? Or is it some power in the psychopath? Is there something going on at levels we do not perceive?
In the previous chapter we presented some of the ideas of psychology as to why such a phenomenon manifests, most of which relate in some way to the idea that people will go along with and support a psychopath, in the face of evidence that they have and are being conned, because their own ego structure depends on being right, and to admit an error of judgment would destroy their carefully constructed image of themselves.
I don’t think that’s necessarily the best explanation. I think that it has more to do with Hare’s remark that most people are gullible with an unshakable belief in the inherent goodness of man, and it is that which makes them vulnerable. Because they don’t lie, they cannot conceive of the level to which a psychopath will go to lie and create support for his lies. They have feelings and would never do such things themselves, and cannot conceive of a creature that does not have feelings. They just don’t get it that the psychopath is not a real human being.
But it has to go deeper than that, because not only do such people continue to support the psychopath, they become quite active in doing so. Even criminally so. This brings us to that remark of a victim of psychopathy we previously quoted: “The essential feature of Psychopaths is a Pervasive, Obsessive-Compulsive desire to force their delusions on others. Psychopaths completely disregard and violate the Rights of others, particularly the Freedom of Association which includes the right not to associate.”
The person must always, always keep in mind that “forcing” a delusion in the context of the psychopath may have nothing at all to do with what we consider to be force. For the psychopath, the issue is to get the person to believe a lie by using his cleverness, his inborn ability to “sniff out” weaknesses and play on them to gradually turn his victim around just like a masterful horseman. This brings us to the crux of the matter: Psychopaths view any social exchange as a “feeding opportunity,” a contest or a test of wills in which there can be only one winner. Here we have found a clue.
Not all victims of psychopaths suffer as Holly Maddux did. Not all “secondary” victims suffer as Holly’s family has. But as long as psychopaths continue to operate unrecognized, there is going to be suffering; if not you, then maybe someone you love. On what would have been Holly Maddux’s 50th birthday, her sister wrote:
“It has been a very long and painful 20 years since Holly’s disappearance and death, an emotional place that is not frequently visited despite the multitude of ways that my life was forever changed with Ira’s simple, selfish act. My siblings, their families and I miss Holly. Even though they can hear stories about her, Holly’s nephews and nieces will never get to know her as this absolutely wonderful and caring person. I hope no one else has to explain to children how and why someone much loved in the family is dead- trust me, it’s not easy and it forces young ones to face fear more intimately than they would ever dream of, and so early in their lives.
“I am now much older than Holly ever was, and I have no older sister to compare notes on life and growing up with, like we had just started to do when she was killed. My own philosophy on life, something to do with the grace of God and the beauty of life and the peace that comes with all of that, is continuously challenged when I hear of a similar situation — don’t think for a minute that the OJ Simpson trial was easy to be around! Bottom line, someone is killed and their beautiful life is a memory that it is now up to you — and the hundreds of others whose lives that one special person touched — to remember. Something is just not fair here.”
Holly Maddux had made a decision to no longer associate with Ira Einhorn. She said, “No thanks, I don’t want to hang out with you anymore.” She refused his delusion, and he completely disregarded and violated her right to choose who she would or would not associate with. He furiously and repeatedly bashed away at her head — the seat of the idea of refusal.
But such behavior does not just appear out of nowhere. If Ira was guilty of this, unless he just had a sudden fit of temporary madness, there must have been signs. How come nobody noticed? If there were signs, how come they were not remembered at the crucial moment when Holly’s body was found in Ira’s closet? What was the power Ira had over the minds of other people? How did it manifest? Again and again we come to that question: What is it about seemingly intelligent and articulate people that makes them subject to the delusions of the psychopath? Is it something in the person being duped, or is it some power the psychopath has that other people don’t?
We are going to look at that question. We want to know why. As Einhorn himself said during a 1971 mayoral campaign speech, “Psychopaths like myself emerge when societies are about to change.”
We come now to a subject of immense importance: Psychopaths as “alien reaction machines,” which directly relates to what we have all been learning from the activities of Frank Scott, Vincent Bridges and others we will meet as the series progresses. As noted in the previous chapter: intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee the “cover-up.” A certain kind of “human being” acts on behalf of this cover-up; a certain kind of human who is a playing piece in the Secret Games of the Gods.
Allow me to bring your attention back to certain remarks of Gurdjieff that point out to us the danger, both from the activities of these “automatons,” as well as our own reactions to them:
“So that in the actual situation of humanity there is nothing that points to evolution proceeding. On the contrary when we compare humanity with a man, we quite clearly see a growth of personality at the cost of essence, that is, a growth of the artificial, the unreal, and what is foreign, at the cost of the natural, the real, and what is one’s own.
“Together with this, we see a growth of automatism. Contemporary cultures require automatons. […] One thing alone is certain, that man’s slavery grows and increases. Man is becoming a willing slave. He no longer needs chains. He begins to grow fond of his slavery, to be proud of it. And this is the most terrible thing that can happen to a man.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
In the process of coming to some understanding of how such individuals operate, based on the latest research, as well as our own experiences, I hope to clarify some of the “rules” they play by so that the reader will be better equipped to spot them and deal with them. It is clear from the correspondence we have been receiving that this sort of encounter is a lot more frequent than any of us would like to think, and it is only going to get worse in the coming years, as the reader will soon see.
But before we begin to analyze the playing pieces themselves, let me give a little outline of what seems to have been the emergence of “games” in the sense that we are coming to understand them: That they are part of the process of preventing humanity from having the knowledge needed to effectively deal with our reality, and that the moves of this game have been made over millennia in cyclic time-loops very likely via time-travel.
Shamanism, as we have noted in Secret History, seems to be the closest we can get to the clues about hypothesized archaic technology. We may be certain that it is corrupted by millennia of changes, and it is important to remember that they are only clues; we cannot take any of the activities at face value.
Let me try to give an example: In the myths of Hermes, we find a “god” who has sandals that enable him to fly. He also has a helmet of invisibility. The question we ought to ask is: Why would ancient peoples have suggested that a god needed to put something on his head to be invisible or something on his feet to fly?
Remember, other gods didn’t need these things — they were “gods,” after all, and could do as they liked. So, where the heck did these objects come from? That is not to say that we ought to think that sandals were what did it, nor a helmet. The point is, the myth tells us that some sort of object conferred the ability. It was technology.
I thought about that for a long time. The objects, as they were, didn’t make any sense; but what did make sense was that the concept of some sort of device was vaguely remembered and was being conveyed in these objects.
In reference to our Grail Hallows, we think of the sword/lance and the cup/platter. A sword is a death dealing instrument, right? Well, so is a gun. So is a “death ray.” A gun makes a big noise, so maybe guns or similar items that made noise and flashes of light were converted by ancient peoples who had lost their understanding of technology into lightning bolts or something noisy. But a sword, in the terms of the Grail Hallows, is obviously something different. In fact, a sword, a lance, and a shepherd’s crook, all somewhat resemble antennae. Just imagine Grandpa describing to the grandchild antennae that pick up signals and transmit them. “Well, Junior, it was a long narrow thing… it had a base… it was made of metal… sorta like that knife over there, only longer… well, like a sword.”
What about the dish? How about a satellite dish? Something that collects energy? A cup or cauldron? The oldest representations are “wells” and the “cauldron of regeneration.” How about a chamber into which the energy is directed which heals or rejuvenates or even enables one to travel in time?
How much plainer do the myths have to make it?
In the most ancient of tribal societies, postdiluvian we must assume, the shaman was an extremely important figure. He combined the function of diviner, medicine-man, and mediator between the worlds of humans and transcendental powers. What is important is the fact that the shaman held this position long before the creation of established priesthoods and colleges of “magical technicians,” such as astrologers, geomants, and augurs.
Another important thing to remember was that the shaman’s role was hereditary. There are more recent local variations, but the most ancient remnants of shamanism demonstrate that, in archaic times, it was wholly hereditary. There are examples of Siberian shamanism found throughout the world, including many examples of Native American shamanism being of the same type. The features include a separation from normal society and powers that enable the shaman to see beings and events beyond the boundaries of normal space and time.
In shamanic variations where inheritance is no longer of main importance, there is an element that gives us a small clue to the processes of corruption. In these types of shamanism, the shaman is “initiated,” instead of born. In most such instances, the prospective shaman is led up a local holy mountain or goes to some desolate place. At the appropriate place and time, he is given his clothing of office, drum, and stick, and then swears an oath to the elder shaman responsible for his instruction. The elder reveals to him the secrets of his shamanic calling, and teaches him rituals, and at the end, he is sprinkled with blood from a sacrificial animal, and often dons the skin of the flayed beast.
In the oldest and purest forms, there was no initiation. Shamanism was handed from father to son or mother to daughter, with instruction being given from birth. Initiation was of almost no importance, and bloodline was supreme. The Altai shamans received their “initiations” spontaneously from higher sources, without ceremony.
We also note the connection between this hereditary shamanism and the Vatis or “shaman-diviner” of Britain. Here, too, there was no initiation. Bards and Druids were initiated, the Bard being the recipient of transmitted discipleship, and the Druid being the recipient of transmitted priesthood. The Vatis, however, was outside this initiatory activity. The Vatis was “born.” He was not a traditionalist or a fundamentalist. He was a person who was open to everything new that might be worthwhile, and thereby improved and increased his art in response to the changing environment.
The shaman was also known to journey out of the body. These travels were said to be both physical as well as astral. In this way, he was able to become personally familiar with the many landscapes of the physical and ethereal worlds. While on these travels, the shaman was able to converse with the denizens of the non-material worlds and to gain knowledge and accumulate energies that were valuable to themselves and to the tribe. Because of his ability to travel “into the air,” so to say, the shaman was often represented as a bird. The bird symbolized the “out of body” experience or “flight.” We should note that among the most ancient depictions of the Mother Goddess are statuettes that portray her with the head of a bird.
The direct communication with other realms of existence is the oldest form of divination. It was later corrupted to formalized systems in an attempt to give the same “powers” to people who were not of the shamanic bloodline. Divination stands in an uneasy relationship with formalized religion as we know it. The reason for this is the fact that religions of our experience are based on the concept of Divine Providence and stability of our world. Divination cannot be tolerated by such a system because of its elements of uncertainty and the possibility of a result that contradicts the wishes of the priesthood.
As formal religion was established, divination was transferred from the bloodline seers of other realms to that of the Divine, accessible only by the approved priesthood. It was at this point that the grid, or checker board, became the symbol of the diviner. This grid is found in association with ancient representations of many gods and saints. The stag-gods of Mesopotamia, central Asia, and Europe, all represent the conversion from the hereditary shamanism to the priestly shaman as intermediary between the people and the god who, by this symbol of the grid, had dominion over space and time. The Urim and Thummim of ancient Judaism is a case in point.
Whether hereditary or priestly, divination assumes that hyperdimensional powers express themselves, or control our reality. This viewpoint was criticized as early as the first century AD, by the Roman statesman, Seneca, who wrote: “The difference between us and the Etruscans is the following: Whereas we believe lightning to be released as the result of the collision of clouds, they believe that clouds collide to release lightning; for as they attribute all to the deity, they are led to believe not that things have meaning in so far as they occur, but rather that they occur because they must have a meaning.”
The Cassiopaeans have given some fascinating clues about these matters, which I will insert at this point. I expect the reader will be able to make all kinds of connections.
06-21-97
Q: Change of subject: I am tracking the clues through the various languages and alphabets. I would like to know which of these alphabets — Runic, Greek, or Etruscan — preceded the others, and from which the others are derived?
A: Etruscan.
Q: Well, who were the Etruscans?
A: Templar carriers.
Q: What does that mean?
A: Seek and ye shall find.
Q: Well, how am I supposed to do that? I can’t find anything else on the Etruscans!
A: No.
Q: What do you mean “No”? You mean there is more out there on the Etruscans?
A: Yes.
Q: Okay. What are “Templar carriers”?
A: Penitent Avian Lords.
Q: What does that mean?
A: For your search. All is drawn from some more ancient form.
08-16-97
Q: We have the phoenix, cranes, herons, doves, ravens, and all are related somehow to speech or writing. Why are all these birds related this way?
A: Pass the test.
Q: What do you mean “Pass the test”?
A: Discover.
Q: Well, writing is related to the words for cutting and inscribing and even shearing and sharks. You called the Etruscans “Penitent Avian Lords,” who were also “Templar Carriers.” Is this related to these bird images? Then related to speech, writing, and shearing?
A: Pass the test.
Q: So, if you are writing, and you pass the test, then you can be a phoenix, dove, or whatever?
A: Discover.
Q: Ark suggested that the Etruscans may have gotten their alphabet as a mirror image. Could it be that they lived on the “other side” of the mirror?
A: Latter is closer.
We see in the above the amazing juxtaposition of “Avian” or “birdlike” with “Templar.” The Templars were designated in certain of the Grail legends as “Guardians of the Grail.” So again we find a connection between the Holy Grail and a thread that travels back in time to Central Asia and Stonehenge.
The flight of a bird was often seen as a shaman in an out-of-body state or as a guardian spirit in bird form. The myths of farseeing messenger birds have been preserved in many traditions, including the birds released by Noah and Odin’s ravens. The imagery of birds was later transferred to arrows, and from there to sticks or staves, and then to runes.
But coming back to Seneca’s negative view of hyperdimensional realities: He was critical of the idea that transcendental powers expressed themselves through bolts of lightning, storms, earthquakes, strange celestial phenomena, the flight of birds, or through human beings themselves. However, Seneca and many others were quite willing to accept the determination of meaning in life based on that which was pronounced as true by a formalized system of augury, such as a priesthood.
In the earliest shamanic practices, as we have seen, it seems that the people conceived of the gods as benevolent and communicative; interested and participatory in all aspects of their lives. The “adorable Maruts” as shamans “danced,” and the heavens delivered blessings. The god danced with the people, and there was peace and plenty.
Somewhere along the way, this changed drastically and the gods became fearsome and vengeful, and potentially very dangerous. At this point, the idea that a correct relationship between human beings and the hyperdimensional beings was important took an interesting turn. In the days of the old shamans, if there were dangerous gods, the shaman was empowered to fight them, to defeat them, and to protect the people from their depredations. However, at this point, the idea that the shaman could battle dark forces was replaced with the concept of propitiation via sacrifice. This coincided with the creation of shamans by external initiation, which then led to formalized priesthoods. With the coming of the priesthood the only propitiation was that effected by the priest according to well-defined rules and regulations. In this respect, the correct relationship was achieved when the prescribed rituals and taboos were observed at the appropriate places and times. We see the earliest example of this idea in the “star clocks” of the ancient Egyptians, which were observed so that the proper rituals could be performed at the right hour of the night.
The priest, or “chief of the observers,” was concerned with the observation and interpretation of signs in the heavens. These signs were observed from a location called a templum, which was an outdoor viewing mound. The sky was divided into squares viewed through a lituus, a ceremonial staff which, when held at arm’s length, divided the horizon into sections. By the use of this staff in relation to known direction markers on the horizon, the chief of the observers could determine in which section of the sky the observed phenomenon manifested itself. This was also related to the time of day or night, and the day of the lunar calendar. All of these provided the material by which the omen was to be interpreted, and we might guess that it very often suggested more sacrifices or gifts to the priesthood in order to propitiate the gods. The squares were later transferred to the ground, and divinatory methods were devised to take the place, or to augment, the observing of signs in the skies.
And so, with this brief review we come to the idea that the emergence of “games” or game boards, is a “sigil” of the dark, mechanical forces. Most of what we call “games” were originally developed as means of formalized divination by priests, as opposed to natural shamans. The chessboard originated as a “locator” in space time. The gods were known as “those who measure,” and we see this symbolism of the Secret Games of the Gods in the checkerboard floor of Masonic lodges, and in other “occult” lore.
What is less apparent is the identity of the players: The shamanic bloodline of the benevolent goddess vs. the ritual priesthood of the vengeful god. This brings us back to a comment I made in the previous chapter: What seems to have happened is that, through repeated cataclysms, man has been brought low, relegated to darkness regarding his history, and at the very point when he began to study and analyze his environment objectively, religion stepped in and put a period to such ideas.
Over and over again we come up against that little problem — religion and belief systems that have to be defended against objective evidence or the beliefs of others. “Why did man, through thousands of years, wherever he built scientific, philosophic, or religious systems, go astray with such persistence and with such catastrophic consequences? […] The answer lies somewhere in that area of our existence which has been so heavily obscured by organized religion and put out of our reach. Hence, it probably lies in the relation of the human being to the cosmic energy that governs him.” (Reich, 1949).
Please note Reich’s use of the term “catastrophic consequences.” Anyone familiar with the history of religion, and looking at the matter with objectivity, will affirm that the introduction of, the spreading of, the enforcing of, religion is the cause of nearly all the evils on our planet. It’s that simple. Jesus said: “By their fruits you shall know them.” That’s a pretty bitter fruit. Carlos Castaneda brings our attention to the very same matter in a far more direct way:
Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed, and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.
In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. […] Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. (Castaneda, 1998; this author’s emphases)
In Book One of The Wave, I quoted the purported remarks of an entity that presented itself as a “demon,” but which gave strong indications of being similar to what we are calling “aliens.” This “creature” said something that was rather astonishing to me at the time I read it; but later, after I had learned so much more, I realized that it might in fact be true. I was so fascinated by this case that I contacted the author of the book to see if I could determine if any part of it was confabulated or sensationalized. What I learned was that, in fact, much of the more disturbing parts of the book had been cut by the editor. And, in fact, the author had suffered some serious psychic backlash when she insisted on leaving in the part I found so interesting. The creature was known as the “Lady,” and the individual who was interacting with her (in the same way that many abductees interact with cute little Gray aliens) was Ann Haywood. In an interview with a member of the press, Ann was trying to explain how the Lady transported her in time to distant places:
“She puts the robe around me and then my mind separates from my body. I can look back and see it lying there. Then we go up through the ceiling, pop out the roof, and fly into space. One night the Lady took me back in time. We were in a foreign country and the people wore old-fashioned clothes. The Lady took on the appearance of a beautiful woman in a blue robe. She performed miracles for them.”
Suddenly Ann’s face turned ashen and she asked to be excused. Her scream of pain was heard from the bathroom where she had taken refuge. When Ann came out, she was sniffling and holding her abdomen. The Lady had savagely attacked her for revealing that down through history, creatures like the Lady have taken the form of saints. They then use the gullibility of humankind to misguide and misinform people so that they believe they are seeing miracles performed. Ann begged the newsman to delete that portion of the interview. (Osborn, 1982)
The fact is, when we study religions, religious visions, the appearance of new religions, they nearly always occur in a context that is not much different from so-called “alien” interactions. This is what led Carl Jung to propose his ideas of UFOs as being representations of an archetype, and the clues to the creation or revivification of a grand myth of sorts.
However, since we also have the idea that the alien phenomenon is a hyperdimensional one, and that hyperdimensional capabilities include mastery of space and time (perhaps within certain limits, but we don’t know for sure), then it seems only logical to consider the possibility that any religion could be “created” by the appearance of such beings masquerading as benevolent performers of miracles.
And, in fact, that seems to be something that is suggested by Gurdjieff’s remarks about the so-called “Secret Masters” and whether or not they can or cannot help us.
“[T]he life of humanity to which we belong is governed by forces proceeding from two different sources: First, planetary influences which act entirely mechanically and are received by the human masses as well as by individual people quite involuntarily and unconsciously; and then, influences proceeding from inner circles of humanity whose existence and significance the vast majority of people do not suspect any more than they suspect planetary influences. […]
“Can it be that there is a conscious force which fights against the evolution of humanity?” [Ouspensky] asked.
“From a certain point of view it can be said,” said G[urdjieff].
“Instead of struggling against the mechanical forces there may, at certain moments, be a struggle against the intentional opposition of fairly powerful forces though they are not of course comparable with those which direct the evolutionary process. These opposing forces may sometimes even conquer. The reason for this consists in the fact that the forces guiding evolution have a more limited choice of means; in other words, they can only make use of certain means and certain methods. The opposing forces are not limited in their choice of means and they are able to make use of every means, even those which only give rise to a temporary success, and in the final result they destroy both evolution and involution at the point in question.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
This reminds us of the all-important point of free will. Those forces that guide evolution cannot violate free will. This seems to be the “limitation” that Gurdjieff intends in the above paragraph. However, we notice that the opposing forces, the forces of STS (Service to Self) or “darkness,” are not limited in their choice of means. Lying and tricks and miracles, and every kind of imitation of what is “positive” is not only allowed; it is considered to be a better “game” if they cheat and stack the cards in their own favor. When one considers the ideas of Machiavelli in the deepest sense, it is only logical — actually mandatory — that such forces would be behind the creation of religions.
“The humanity to which we belong, namely, the whole of historic and prehistoric humanity known to science and civilization, in reality constitutes only the outer circle of humanity, within which there are several other circles… consisting so to speak of several concentric circles.
“The inner circle is called the ‘esoteric’; this circle consists of people who have attained the highest development possible for man, each one of whom possesses individuality in the fullest degree, that is to say, an indivisible ‘I,’ all forms of consciousness possible for man, full control over these states of consciousness, the whole of knowledge possible for man, and a free and independent will. They cannot perform actions opposed to their understanding or have an understanding which is not expressed by actions. At the same time there can be no discords among them, no differences of understanding. Therefore their activity is entirely coordinated and leads to one common aim without any kind of compulsion because it is based upon a common and identical understanding.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphasis)
In the paragraph above, we see that Gurdjieff was describing exactly what the Cassiopaeans talk about in terms of a “network” and “colinearity” of understanding. It also reminds us of their remarks about Stonehenge:
12-08-96
Q: (L) Well, we talked about Stonehenge before, that it was an energy transducer, so to speak. So, was Stonehenge put there because of the location, or did Stonehenge create…… (T) Why don’t you just ask what it is about Stonehenge? (L) Okay, what is it about Stonehenge?
A: Location attracted those spirit types on the proper frequency, who in turn, placed stones in proper location to receive the coded communications in code telepathically, in order not to have to chase around the countryside reading encoded pictographs.
Q: (L) What was the technique used within the circle to receive the information telepathically? [Planchette spiraled in, and spiraled out.]
A: Transcendent focused thought-wave separation. […] The spiral serves to translate message by slowing down the wave and focusing thought-wave transference energy. Utilizes/transduces electromagnetic waves, the conduit, by breaking down signal from universal language of intent into language of phonetic profile. This is for multiple-user necessity.
Q: (L) Multiple-user necessity implies that a number of people must do the spiral. Is that correct?
A: No. Must hear and feel and understand precisely the same thing. The molecular structure of the rock, when properly sculpted, sing to you.
Please note that most important remark: “Multiple user” means a number of people must “hear and feel and understand precisely the same thing.” That is exactly what Gurdjieff is talking about in his discussion of the inner circle of ascended masters.
“The next circle is called the ‘mesoteric,’ that is to say, the middle. People who belong to this circle possess all the qualities possessed by the members of the esoteric circle with the sole difference that their knowledge is of a more theoretical character. This refers, of course, to knowledge of a cosmic character. They know and understand many things which have not yet found expression in their actions. They know more than they do. But their understanding is precisely as exact as, and therefore precisely identical with, the understanding of the people of the esoteric circle. Between them there can be no discord, there can be no misunderstanding. One understands in the way they all understand, and all understand in the way one understands. But as was said before, this understanding compared with the understanding of the esoteric circle is somewhat more theoretical.
“The third circle is called the ‘exoteric,’ that is, the outer, because it is the outer circle of the inner part of humanity. The people who belong to this circle possess much of that which belongs to people of the esoteric and mesoteric circles but their cosmic knowledge is of a more philosophical character, that is to say, it is more abstract than the knowledge of the mesoteric circle. A member of the mesoteric circle calculates, a member of the exoteric circle contemplates. Their understanding may not be expressed in actions. But there cannot be differences in understanding between them. What one understands all the others understand.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
We see in the above paragraph what seems to be a description of what we might think are “ascended masters,” such as great yogis, saints, healers, and so on. Obviously, our understanding of such things is very limited.
“In literature which acknowledges the existence of esotericism humanity is usually divided into two circles only and the ‘exoteric circle’ as opposed to the ‘esoteric,’ is called ordinary life. In reality, as we see, the ‘exoteric circle’ is something very far from us and very high. For ordinary man this is already ‘esotericism.’
“The outer circle is the circle of mechanical humanity to which we belong and which alone we know. The first sign of this circle is that among people who belong to it there is not and there cannot be a common understanding. Everybody understands in his own way and all differently. This circle is sometimes called the circle of the ‘confusion of tongues,’ where no one understands another and takes no trouble to be understood. In this circle mutual understanding between people is impossible excepting in rare exceptional moments or in matters having no great significance, and which are confined to the limits of the given being. If people belonging to this circle become conscious of this general lack of understanding and acquire a desire to understand and to be understood, then it means they have an unconscious tendency towards the inner circle because mutual understanding begins only in the exoteric circle and is possible only there. But the consciousness of the lack of understanding usually comes to people in an altogether different form.
“So that the possibility for people to understand depends on the possibility of penetrating into the exoteric circle where understanding begins.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
In the following remarks, what Gurdjieff seems to be saying is that, in addition to the “three ways” whereby an individual can penetrate to the inner circles of humanity — from the outside in — there is something called the Fourth Way which, by implication, is the result of direct communication from the inner circle of masters to one or more individuals in the outer circle of general humanity — from the inside out, producing the necessary “work” that results in the finding of the gate.
“If we imagine humanity in the form of four concentric circles we can imagine four gates on the circumference of the third inner circle, that is, the exoteric circle, through which people of the mechanical circle can penetrate.
“These four gates correspond to the four ways.
“The first way is the way of the fakir, the way of people number one, the people of the physical body, instinctive-moving-sensory people without much mind and without much heart.
“The second way is the way of the monk, the religious way, the way of people number two, that is, of emotional people. The mind and the body should not be too strong.
“The third way is the way of the yogi. This is the way of the mind, the way of people number three. The heart and the body must not be particularly strong, otherwise they may be a hindrance on this way.
“Besides these three ways yet a fourth way exists by which can go those who cannot go by any of the first three ways.
“The fundamental difference between the first three ways, that is, the way of the fakir, the way of the monk, and the way of the yogi, and the fourth way consists in the fact that they are tied to permanent forms which have existed throughout long periods of history almost without change. At the basis of these institutions is religion. Where schools of yogis exist they differ little outwardly from religious schools. And in different periods of history various societies or orders of fakirs have existed in different countries and they still exist. These three traditional ways are permanent ways within the limits of our historical period.
“Two or three thousand years ago there were yet other ways which no longer exist and the ways now in existence were not so divided, they stood much closer to one another.
“The fourth way differs from the old and the new ways by the fact that it is never a permanent way. It has no definite forms and there are no institutions connected with it. It appears and disappears governed by some particular laws of its own.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
In this last remark, we find a reflection of the definition of the work of the Vatis, “having his degree under the privilege of genius; discipleship shall not be required in respect to him.” Strabo (IV, 4) quoting Poseidonius: “Among all the tribes, generally speaking, there are three classes of men held in special honor: the bards, the vates and the druids.”
“The fourth way is never without some work of a definite significance, is never without some undertaking around which and in connection with which it can alone exist. When this work is finished, that is to say, when the aim set before it has been accomplished, the fourth way disappears, that is, it disappears from the given place, disappears in its given form, continuing perhaps in another place in another form. Schools of the fourth way exist for the needs of the work which is being carried out in connection with the proposed undertaking. They never exist by themselves as schools for the purpose of education and instruction.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
As I read the above paragraph, I thought of the work of the now unknown man who lived in the Middle East, who did a great work for humanity, and whose true life has been obliterated by the myths of a man named Jesus, after the Egyptian religion. Right there I pause and consider the Secret Games of the Gods. When one side makes a move, the other moves in with full capabilities of cheating and deceiving. Never has that been more evident than in the myths compiled into that document we call the Bible.
“The work itself of schools of the fourth way can have very many forms and many meanings. In the midst of the ordinary conditions of life the only chance a man has of finding a ‘way’ is in the possibility of meeting with the beginning of work of this kind […]
But no matter what the fundamental aim of the work is, the schools continue to exist only while this work is going on. When the work is done the schools close. The people who began the work leave the stage. Those who have learned from them what was possible to learn and have reached the possibility of continuing on the way independently begin in one form or another their own personal work.
But it happens sometimes that when the school closes a number of people are left who were round about the work, who saw the outward aspect of it, and saw the whole of the work in this outward aspect. Having no doubts whatever of themselves or in the correctness of their conclusions and understanding they decide to continue the work. To continue this work they form new schools, teach people what they have themselves learned, and give them the same promises that they themselves received. All this naturally can only be outward imitation.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
Again I am reminded of the work of the original “Jesus”:
“When we look back over history it is almost impossible for us to distinguish where the real ends and where the imitation begins. Strictly speaking almost everything we know about various kinds of occult, Masonic, and alchemical schools refers to such imitation. We know practically nothing about real schools excepting the results of their work and even that only if we are able to distinguish the results of real work from counterfeits and imitations. […]
The idea of initiation, which reaches us through pseudo-esoteric systems, is also transmitted to us in a completely wrong from. The legends concerning the outward rites of initiation have been created out of the scraps of information we possess in regard to the ancient Mysteries. The Mysteries represented a special kind of way in which, side by side with a difficult and prolonged period of study, theatrical representations of a special kind were given which depicted in allegorical forms the whole path of the evolution of man and the world.
Transitions from one level of being to another were marked by ceremonies of presentation of a special kind, that is, initiation. But a change of being cannot be brought about by any rites. Rites can only mark an accomplished transition. And it is only in pseudo-esoteric systems in which there is nothing else except these rites, that they begin to attribute to the rites and independent meaning.
It is supposed that a rite, in being transformed into a sacrament, transmits or communicates certain forces to the initiate. This again relates to the psychology of an imitation way. There is not, nor can there be, any outward initiation. In reality only self-initiation, self-presentation exist. Systems and schools can indicate methods and ways, but no system or school whatever can do for a man the work that he must do himself. Inner growth, a change of being, depend entirely upon the work which a man must do on himself.” (Ouspensky, 1949; this author’s emphases)
If we consider certain of the remarks of the Cassiopaeans that I have included in this series, in the context of what Gurdjieff has said above, we come to the idea that the Cassiopaean material is a work of the True Fourth Way. And, as such, it is naturally constrained by certain principles and understandings. However, we also realize that the forces of the “other side” are not so constrained. It is becoming more and more evident why I was kidnapped as a child in an attempt to install self-destruct programming and locks on knowledge, by an individual who was identified as being connected to an “economic legion.” We realize now why Frank Scott was sent to destroy and/or derail me, and why when he failed, an economist was sent to “scope me out”; and why, immediately thereafter, Vincent Bridges was sent in along with a supporting cast of players, to make the next move in the Secret Games of the Gods: Attempt to either destroy the Cassiopaean work, or us.
Now, let’s talk about Game Theory and what kinds of minds develop and operate with these “rules.” To me, that has been the most interesting question. What kind of person would think up something like that?
John von Neumann first wrote about Game Theory in the late 1920s. Since this issue of economics and its relation to Game Theory came up, I have been reading many of the original sources, and I was quite taken aback to read what Von Neumann actually proposed in his famous seminal work:
The purpose of this book is to present a discussion of some fundamental questions of economic theory which require a treatment different from that which they have found thus far in literature. … They have their origin in the attempts to find an exact description of the endeavor of the individual to obtain a maximum of utility, or … a maximum of profit. […]
We believe that it is necessary to know as much as possible about the behavior of the individual and about the simplest forms of exchange. […] It does not seem to us that these notions are qualitatively inferior to certain well established and indispensable notions in physics, like force, mass, charge, etc. That is, while they are in their immediate form merely definitions, they become subject to empirical control through the theories which are built upon them — and in no other way. […]
The individual who attempts to obtain these respective maxima is also said to act “rationally.” But it may safely be stated that there exists, at present, no satisfactory treatment of the question of rational behavior. There may, for example, exist several ways by which to reach the optimum position; they may depend upon the knowledge and understanding which the individual has and upon the paths of action open to him. […]
We hope, however, to obtain a real understanding of the problem of exchange by studying it from an altogether different angle; this is, from the perspective of a “game of strategy.” […] Let us look at the type of economy which is represented by the “Robinson Crusoe” model, that is an economy of an isolated single person or otherwise organized under a single will. […] The problem is to obtain a maximum satisfaction. […] Crusoe is given certain physical data (wants and commodities) and his task is to combine and apply them in such a fashion as to obtain a maximum resulting satisfaction. […] Thus Crusoe faces an ordinary maximum problem, the difficulties of which are of a purely technical — and not conceptual — nature. […]
Consider now a participant in a social exchange economy. His problem has, of course, many elements in common with a maximum problem. But it also contains some, very essential, elements of an entirely different nature. He too tries to obtain an optimum result. But in order to achieve this, he must enter into relations of exchange with others. If two or more persons exchange goods with each other, then the result for each one will depend in general not merely upon his own actions but on those of the others as well. Thus each participant attempts to maximize a function of which he does not control all variables. This is certainly no maximum problem, but a peculiar and disconcerting mixture of several conflicting maximum problems. Every participant is guided by another principle and neither determines all variables which affect his interest. […]
A particularly striking expression of the popular misunderstanding about this pseudo-maximum problem is the famous statement according to which the purpose of social effort is the “greatest possible good for the greatest possible number.” A guiding principle cannot be formulated by the requirement of maximizing two or more functions at once.
Such a principle, taken literally, is self-contradictory. […] The general theory must cover all these possibilities, all intermediary stages, and all their combinations. […] Every participant is allotted a set of variables, “his” variables, which together completely describe his actions, i.e. express precisely the manifestations of his will. (Von Neumann and Morgenstern, 1953; this author’s emphases)
In short, Game Theory as applied to economics is all about gaining control of the free will of others. It is, of course, “disguised” as “economics,” but as we all know, Money rules our world. As I continued to read, I couldn’t help but recall: “Also he compels all, both small and great, both the rich and the poor, both free and slave, to be marked with an inscription on their right hands or on their foreheads, so that no one will have power to buy or sell unless he bears the stamp of the beast or the number of his name.”
But isn’t that from the Bible? Isn’t that a prophecy of God? Isn’t that a warning from the “good guys”? The reader who is familiar with our book, Secret History, may already be formulating certain ideas. Others may have decided that even if we can analyze the Bible and determine how it was assembled and when, it doesn’t detract from their beliefs in God as presented in the Bible. After all, God is more than the Bible, right? And faith in God is not dependent on the Bible, right?
What if that Bible, that system of understanding, was planted via time travel as a strategic move in the Secret Games of the Gods? When we asked the question in the previous chapter about what a powerful elite under the control of mechanical forces would do if they discovered what Gurdjieff revealed to be the truth. Of course, covering it up comes immediately to mind. But, more than that, they would want to ensure that the “event” goes down in their favor. That means that they have to line up about six-billion other people and get them to behave in a certain way at a certain point in time.
But manipulating vast masses of people is not as simple as organizing a croquet game. What is more, it’s a one shot deal, and with that kind of money they can buy all the brains they need to figure out how to make it stick. And so, we come to time travel. You have to manipulate the past to control the future. That reminds me of something very significant that Gurdjieff said:
Shortly before his death, one of his students asked him: “Mr. Gurdjieff … the ‘I’ which I am trying to develop … is this the soul that survives after death?”
He waited a long time before he asked “How long have you been with me?”
“Almost two years.”
“Too short the time. You are not able yet to understand. Use the present to repair the past and prepare the future. Go on well; remember all I say.” (Patterson, 1998)
What would be the objective of time travel into the past in order to control the future? Well, the simplest way to do it would be to create a religion, do some miracles to make sure it “took,” and maybe help your new believers out in destroying the opposition. But there is a more insidious reason for creating religions, as we will see in the following description of certain mind control procedures. When I first read the following segment, I had a huge “aha!” moment in realizing that it was a model of how people are “driven” into the “religious fold” via hyperdimensional manipulation. Forget the use of religion for control by top secret organizations — that’s just the disinformation designed to distract our attention away from the hyperdimensional realities and blame everything on human agencies — and just think about the life pressures, the emotional manipulations from hyperdimensional beings, that can be brought to bear on a person to convince them that being “born again” is the answer and “faith” is the key. Read my own story, Amazing Grace, to see how these pressures were brought to bear on me, and how, at a certain point, I “followed the program”; only in my case, the inner nature of questioning brought me out of it on the other side, wiser for the experience. But how many people do not have the courage to escape such controls?
So, keeping in mind that it is very likely a disinformation model of hyperdimensional control agendas, have a look at how religion is used as a mind control, social programming tool:
1. The NSA’s behavioral modification process starts with identification and qualification of the subject. The NSA used to choose subjects based on the subject’s net present value to the agency in public visibility, financial resources, political clout, or other intelligence and counter-intelligence reasons. Additional considerations are given to minimizing security risks of exposure, the subject’s post-hypnotic suggestibility index, the subject’s intelligence and reasoning ability, moral and superstitious beliefs, and the subject’s social status and the weakness of the subject’s primary support groups (family). Now a recent report referenced in the March 26th Business section of the Orange County Register from the National Sleep Foundation reports that 40% of Americans are experiencing sleeping problems. This news could indicate that the NSA is broadening its influence to the greater public. As explained below in this document, the NSA always starts its behavioral modification process with REM Deprivation.
2. After selection, the subject is subjected to long periods of REM Sleep Deprivation and reinforced torturing post-hypnotic suggestions that will breakdown the subject’s will, confidence, self-reliance, and moral values. Meanwhile, the subject is increasingly isolated from their familiar and trusted peer groups causing the subject to experience depression, apathy, and ultimately social and financial failure.
3. Typical posthypnotic induced delusions reported by subjects are tingling in various areas of the body, which are thought to be resulting from microwave beams. Hearing ticks, thumps, or cracks from walls, ceilings, clocks, lights, etc. Beliefs that the subject’s neighbors are conspiring against them, or that the subject is being followed. Sometimes subjects believe that the various perceptions, feelings and experiences are the result of “Implants” in their body. It is important for the subjects to understand that the NSA controls this technology from nuclear hardened underground shelters and the neighbors next door have nothing to do with the subject’s experiences. Nobody has the time or inclination to follow a subject around with a microwave gun to tickle various parts of the body.
We are saturated with microwaves all the time from television stations, communication satellites, etc. and yet we do not have any symptoms because microwaves do not have the ability to trigger localized synaptic responses in our brains. Furthermore, when the subject is in a room surrounded by several people, and the subject is the only one experiencing the “thoughts,” tingling feelings, etc., then obviously a delivery method is being employed that affects only the subject; high-speed acoustic delivered hypnosis.
4. After a while, the subject has an emotional breakdown and a new support group is built around the subject. The new support group is typically a church with doctrines centered in the Bible but the NSA also uses cults and other social groups. The NSA prefers Christian churches because the doctrines allow “God or Jesus to speak directly to the subject” and the negative reinforcement can be attributed with Satan and the positive rewards can be considered to be blessings from God thereby masking the NSA’s technology and processes. When the NSA uses other relationships within which the subject experiences a religious awakening and “Gives their Life to Christ” and the NSA achieves total control of the subject.
5. The subject is slowly released from the damaging uncomfortable hypnosis and it is replaced with positive rewarding hypnosis as “God and Jesus works in their life.” Soon, the subject has complete loyalty to Jesus (AKA: NSA) and will do anything on command from Jesus (NSA).
6. The subject is required to give daily status reports in the form of prayers in the privacy of their home, office, or car where the NSA’s electronic surveillance system captures and sorts the prayers by “Keywords.” The NSA then delivers additional hypnosis in the form of punishments or rewards or directs the subject accordingly to “God’s will.” If the subject resists the NSA’s instructions, additional punishments are inflicted on the subject.
7. The subject is institutionalized in this system where any nonconformances committed by the subject are watched, critiqued, and reported on through prayer by other “Christians” to the NSA. Thus, the new church peer group acts as a behavioral reinforcing mechanism that will bring any of the subject’s problems to the NSA as they have been trained themselves (this is similar to the Nazi Gestapo of World War 2 and other fascist approaches).
8. A subject that has successfully completed the NSA’s behavioral modification program lives out the rest of their mediocre life in service to Jesus (NSA) and never causes any waves in the church or news media for fear of reprisal from the NSA. The subject’s lives are relatively unproductive because their focus is on their “Life after Death” and not what they accomplish while they are alive. They avoid “worldly activities,” and usually are confused and disjointed in rational thoughts and concepts. For instance, they don’t believe in anything that is not in the Bible, i.e. dinosaurs, evolution, space travel, even though they ride on airplanes and watch television both of which are not referenced in the Bible. (Bamford, 1982; this author’s emphasis)
If such information has been “allowed” to be leaked suggesting that religion is used by such groups, again using the rules of disinformation, we might think that the issue that is being concealed is that religions are created by hyperdimensional being via time travel. We cannot exclude the human factor as well.
At this point, I want to present a short and selective list of books and papers on Game Theory so that the reader will have some idea of how this theory is being used, by reading the titles of the articles. Keep in mind, this is only what is allowed to be published:
1928, John von Neumann: “Zur Theorie der Gesellschaftsspiele.”
1930, F. Zeuthen: “Problems of Monopoly and Economic Warfare.”
1944, John von Neumann and Oskar Morgenstern: Theory of Games and Economic Behavior.
1950–53, John Nash wrote four papers: “Equilibrium Points in N- Person Games” (1950); “Non-cooperative Games” (1951); “The Bargaining Problem” (1950); and “Two-Person Cooperative Games” (1953).
1953, H. W. Kuhn: Extensive Games and the Problem of Information; includes the formulation of extensive form-games which allow the modeller to specify the exact order in which players have to make their decisions and formulate the assumptions about the information possessed by the players in all stages of the game.
1954, L. S. Shapley and M. Shubik: “A Method for Evaluating the Distribution of Power in a Committee System.” They use the Shapley value to determine the power of the members of the UN Security Council.
1954–55, “Problems of forming and solving military pursuit games.” Rand Corporation research memoranda, by Isaacs, RM-1391 (November 30, 1954), RM-1399 (November 30, 1954), RM-1411 (December 21, 1954), and RM-1486 (March 25, 1955); all entitled, in part, “Differential Games.”
1955, R. B. Braithwaite: “Theory of Games as a Tool for the Moral Philosopher.”
1959, Martin Shubik: “Strategy and Market Structure: Competition, Oligopoly, and the Theory of Games.”
1960, Thomas C. Schelling: The Strategy of Conflict.
1961, R. C. Lewontin: “Evolution and the Theory of Games.”
1962, D. Gale and L. Shapley: “College Admissions and the Stability of Marriage.”
1965, Rufus Isaacs: “Differential Games: A Mathematical Theory with Applications to Warfare and Pursuit, Control and Optimization.”
1966, John Harsanyi: A General Theory of Rational Behavior in Game Situations. A game is cooperative if commitments — agreements, promises, threats — are fully binding and enforceable. It is non-cooperative if commitments are not enforceable.
1967–68, John Harsanyi: Games with Incomplete Information Played by ‘Bayesian’ Players, Parts I, II and III. This laid the theoretical groundwork for information economics that has become one of the major themes of economics and Game Theory.
1972, John Maynard Smith: “Game Theory and The Evolution of Fighting.”
1973, John Maynard Smith and G. Price: The Logic of Animal Conflict.
1973, Gibbard: “Manipulation of Voting Schemes: A General Result.”
1974, R. J. Aumann and L. S. Shapley: Values of Non-Atomic Games. It deals with values for large games in which all the players are individually insignificant (non-atomic games).
1976, Robert Aumann: Agreeing to Disagree. An event is common knowledge among a set of agents if all know it and all know that they all know it and so on ad infinitum.
1981, R. J. Aumann: Survey of Repeated Games. This survey firstly proposed the idea of applying the notion of an automaton to describe a player in a repeated game.
1985, J.-F. Mertens and S. Zamir: Formulation of Bayesian Analysis for Games with Incomplete Information. Shows that it is not possible to construct a situation for which there are no sets of types large enough to contain all the private information that players are supposed to have.
1988, Tan and Werlang: The Bayesian Foundations of Solution Concepts of Games. Formally discusses the assumptions about a player’s knowledge that lie behind the concepts of Nash equilibria and rationalizability.
As it happens, the economist who visited us, and who left with the Cassiopaean transcripts in hand, was an expert in Bayesian Logic.
Strategic behavior arises when two or more individuals interact, and each individual’s decision turns on what that individual expects the others to do. Incomplete information is the central problem in Game Theory. Control of what information is available and whether it is or is not utilized amounts to “stacking the cards” in favor of the one in control of the information. People make choices based on “pay-offs.” They are “rational” in the sense that they consistently prefer outcomes with higher pay-offs to those with lower pay-offs. People make decisions based on their beliefs about what others will do. When we come to the problem of beliefs, we begin to enter the arena that is controlled by what is known as Bayesian Logic. This solution builds on the idea of positing the knowledge and/or beliefs of the various players.
In Game Theory, the best way to know what knowledge or beliefs the players have or believe is most easily controlled by creating the beliefs that assist in the covering up of information that would assist the player in formulating a winning strategy.
It is as likely that those who are creating the New Age religion and/or running the New Age COINTELPRO operation are part of this Game Strategy of making sure that humanity is limited in terms of information, and are able to be manipulated in terms of belief. In such a way, the Control System can play their “Dominant Strategy” with assurance that the other players will respond in a very precise way.
Religion is the Devil’s greatest achievement. In the guise of religion he has pulled off his most audacious coup. He has flagrantly masqueraded as God. He has had us bow down and worship him. He has had us commit every type of evil in the name of holiness. He has passed off his bigotry as God’s opinions. He has had us segregate humanity into the “ins” and the “outs,” believers and non-believers, the saved and the damned. He has convinced us that God likes us but not them. And convinced them that God likes them but not us. And then, in a stroke of dark brilliance, he warns his faithful flock of sheep: “Be sure you do not pay heed to anyone but me, for the Devil is a wily wolf and he will surely trick you.” (Freke and Gandy, 2001)
World War II was known as the “scientists’ war.” After the Rockefeller and Bamberger money had set things up to make Princeton the center of the mathematical universe here on Earth, Princeton mathematicians were involved in ciphers and code breaking, the science of ballistics, statistical analysis of enemy positions, and so on. The scientists from Princeton made breakthroughs in radar, infrared detection, bomb-delivering airplanes, long-range rocketry, torpedoes and other instruments of destruction. Mathematicians were needed to evaluate assessment of the effectiveness of weapons, efficient use of weapons, how many tons of explosives were needed to kill the most people, and so on.
Then, of course, there was the A Bomb.
At the end of WW II, there was no longer any doubt in the minds of those running the American government that mathematics was the king of sciences. New theories and sophisticated math gave them the needed edge to win the war, and mathematicians — mainly those at Princeton — partook of the prosperity that followed. What’s more, mathematics was no longer the activity of gentlemen of leisure — it was a wide-open field for anyone with talent. Being Jewish, foreign, or from the streets of Brooklyn, no longer mattered. If you had talent, Princeton wanted you and would foot the bill. At this point, there was nothing they couldn’t get money for: topology, algebra, number theory, computer theory, operations research, and, of course, Game Theory.
Naturally, they wanted Nash. Again we ask, “Why?”
I read Sylvia Nasar’s well-researched biography of John Nash with enormous interest. What I found most fascinating was the section about his childhood. As far as I can tell from the reference notes, Ms. Nasar went to original sources — including Nash’s sister, teachers, childhood acquaintances, school records, local newspapers, and so on — for her information. She did an extremely thorough job of gathering the information, but made little attempt to interpret it. She was simply recounting what she was told and what she discovered. It was an excellent job of pure reporting. And, as I noted in the previous chapter, I realized that I was reading an almost verbatim description of the childhood of Frank Scott, as described to me by Frank himself.
Because of all of the recent research we had done on psychopathy (a.k.a “antisocial personality disorder”), as I read I recognized the psychopathic personality being described in detail in Nasar’s account, right down to Nash’s admission to another mathematician at MIT that, as a child, he “enjoyed torturing animals.”
By the time I had finished the book, I had the idea that psychopathy and “mind control” activity was a better explanation for Nash’s so-called “paranoid schizophrenia,” which was somewhat mysterious in terms of onset, symptoms and later remission. As I was reading, I kept thinking about another article I had read describing psychopaths as “alien reaction machines” (Horne, 2000). Several other connections were made, as the reader will see, and whether it is a conscious conspiracy or not, I will leave to the reader’s judgment. I just know that the picture that is being revealed is frightening.
Of course, I am not a psychiatrist nor a psychologist. I am a very good “technician” in terms of hypnotherapy, but I have always advocated following the therapeutic models of professional clinicians, which I studied, implemented and observed in order to come to some ideas about what did or did not work. And so, again, rather than just make a bold statement that “I think this is what the problem is,” since I am neither trained nor qualified to diagnose mental conditions, I will just present the information I have gathered on the subject and leave it to the reader to judge.
Based on the research I have read, the importance of psychopathy in the present day cannot be overstated. Simply put, it is a growing phenomenon and it is going to impact every single one of us individually and collectively in the not-too-distant future. It is also extremely important to understand psychopathy in order to be able to fully understand Game Theory and how it is the underlying dynamic being used at the present time to move all the pieces into place for the Secret Games of the Gods. There is so much literature on the subject, that what I am going to include here will only skim the surface. I will, however, urge every single reader to do their own research on this subject at the soonest possible opportunity. As the Cassiopaeans say, “Knowledge protects” — and the knowledge of the functional modes of the psychopath could save your life.
After reading through a slew of books and papers, reviewing in my mind the many experiences I have had with other people, searching for clues and assessing interactions, my personal preference is for the work of Dr. Robert Hare. Because of my own life experiences, it is my opinion that his professional opinion and presentation is the most concise and to the point, and also most realistic with practical hands-on understanding conveyed in simple language. One of the most important things about his work is the fact that he makes it quite clear that we cannot excuse psychopathy based on environment. The “Nature vs. Nurture” argument is overwhelmingly answered as “nature.” The implications this has for all of us are deep and profound. Something, or somebody, seems to have set things up so that these kinds of genes will propagate widely and produce many “offspring” at this point in our history. When we have a look at Nash, something of an “experiment” in their program, we will have a much better idea of what we are facing.
Psychopathy is a personality disorder defined by a distinctive cluster of behaviors and inferred personality traits, most of which society views as pejorative. It is therefore no light matter to diagnose an individual as a psychopath. Like any psychiatric disorder, diagnosis is based on the accumulation of evidence that an individual satisfies at least the minimal criteria for the disorder. (Hare, 1999)
Notice that Hare says that the only thing that can really be said about the psychology of psychopaths is inferred from a “cluster of behaviors.” This is one of the big problems of the subject. Psychopaths just simply do not ever consider that there is anything wrong with them, and as a result, they do not ever willingly seek psychiatric help — unless it is part of a plan to deceive or con someone, or if they are incarcerated and obliged one way or another to submit to psychiatric examination. Even then, because of the nature of the psychopath, it is highly questionable that what they reveal in such interviews is an accurate representation of what really goes on inside them. And so, having a real live psychopath turn himself in and tell the truth about what goes on in his head just isn’t part of the reality. However, there have been a number of recent studies of psychopathic prisoners, using advanced brain study technology, and this has helped to sort out the “real” from the “fake” to a great extent.
Many people think that all psychopaths are dangerous criminals like Ted Bundy or John Wayne Gacy, and this is due to the fact that the only psychopaths we know about are criminals. The important point to make here is that not all criminals are psychopaths, and it seems to be so that most psychopaths are not adjudicated criminals. The facts seem to be that the only ones who ever get studied are the ones who are “less successful,” shall we say, and who therefore get caught and incarcerated. The really good ones aren’t in prison. That ought to scare us to death! It is very difficult to estimate the numbers of true psychopaths in the population, but one thing seems certain: the numbers are increasing rapidly.
In spite of more than a century of clinical study and speculation and several decades of scientific research, the mystery of the psychopath still remains. Some recent developments have provided us with new insights into the nature of this disturbing disorder, and its borders are becoming more defined. But the fact is, compared with other major clinical disorders, little systematic research has been devoted to psychopathy, even though it is responsible for far more social distress and disruption than all other psychiatric disorders combined. (Hare, 1999)
That is a startling statement — that psychopaths have a more detrimental effect on our society than all other psychiatric disorders combined. So few people are even aware of this fact. They may know all about schizophrenia, or bipolar disorders, or ADHD, because all of those things can be medicated and controlled to one extent or another. Also, they are disabling to the individual. Conversely, the chief thing about psychopathy is that it is not disabling to the individual unless certain other factors are present. In general, psychopaths always manage to do very well for themselves. People ask: “Isn’t psychopathy maladaptive?” The terrifying answer is: It may be maladaptive for society, but it is adaptive for the psychopaths themselves.
The hallmark of the psychopath is a stunning lack of conscience and their objective of self-gratification at the expense of others. Psychopaths are possessed of a cold, calculating rationality combined with an inability to even conceive of others as thinking, feeling beings. To witness such incomprehensible behavior produces a feeling of bewilderment and helplessness. What is important, however, is that most of us never “witness” such an “inside” view, unless we have been burned a sufficient number of times to develop an acute awareness that all is not as it seems on the surface. To actually identify one of these people, we must become very, very aware, and make certain “tests” of the behavior — “systematic harassment,” as Don Juan calls it — of those we suspect may not have our best interests at heart because their acts don’t match their words. Through such tests, psychopaths can be “flushed out” into the open, fully displaying their true nature. However, even when in full display, most people simply cannot believe what they are seeing. Only the victims know the truth, and their insights are generally discounted, as we will see.
[G]ood people are rarely suspicious: they cannot imagine others doing the things they themselves are incapable of doing; usually they accept the undramatic solution as the correct one, and let matters rest there. Then too, the normal are inclined to visualize the [psychopath] as one who’s as monstrous in appearance as he is in mind, which is about as far from the truth as one could well get. […] These monsters of real life usually looked and behaved in a more normal manner than their actually normal brothers and sisters; they presented a more convincing picture of virtue than virtue presented of itself — just as the wax rosebud or the plastic peach seemed more perfect to the eye, more what the mind thought a rosebud or a peach should be, than the imperfect original from which it had been modeled. (William March, The Bad Seed, quoted by Hare, 1999)
Only by reading the literature on the subject can the average person truly begin to grasp the nightmare of living with or dealing with a true psychopath. Lying, deceiving, and manipulation are their natural talents. They have vivid imaginations that are focused entirely on themselves and getting what they want, and they are unbelievably unconcerned with the possibility — or, in some cases, the certainty — of being found out. When caught in a lie, or challenged with the truth, they are almost never embarrassed at all! They simply shift the attention of the questioner, change the story, or rework the facts to be more consistent with the original lie. The end result is that the listener is confused, and they are then vulnerable to being convinced that the confusion is their own fault!
Psychopaths also tell lies that are so liberally sprinkled with emotional trigger-words that the listener is completely taken in. Even sophisticated psychologists and psychiatrists are very often hornswoggled by psychopaths! One case cited by Hare is really funny in a horrible sort of way because the psychologist wrote such things about the subject as: “very impressive; sincere and forthright,” “possesses good interpersonal skills,” “intelligent and articulate,” and so on. He was later humiliated to discover that virtually none of what was told to him by the psychopath was true. He had fallen for every word — hook, line and sinker!
Studying the words used by psychopaths to convey emotion is revealing. As Sylvia Nasar wrote about John Nash:
But, as in so many other relationships in his life, Nash’s intentions weren’t always matched by the emotional means to carry them out satisfactorily. Even as he tried to draw his son closer, he said and did things that could only be called insensitive and alienating. […] [At present] the self-deprecating humor suggests greater self-awareness. The straight-from-the-heart talk with friends about sadness, pleasure and attachment suggests a wider range of emotional experiences. The daily effort to give others their due, and to recognize their right to ask this of him, bespeaks a very different man from the often cold and arrogant youth. (Nasar, 1998)
What we surmise from the above is that now that he is old and finds that he must look to others to survive, Nash has again “adapted” like the true psychopath. Psychopaths very often talk at great length about their “feelings” and they claim to experience strong emotions. However, a careful listener or interrogator will discover, if they are clever in their questioning, that the psychopath is unable to describe the subtleties of various emotional states. They will equate love with sexual arousal, or sadness with frustration. The conclusion of researchers is that the emotions of the psychopath are so shallow as to be little more than “proto-emotions,” or primitive responses to self-centered needs.
For “normal people,” it is our awareness of emotional consequences — fear of being hurt or of hurting someone else — that guides our choices of actions in life. The “inner voice” that tells us “how things are done” when one is involved with other beings who have rights and feelings is developed via a complex system of socialization. We can call this our “conscience.” It acts as a sort of “inner policeman” to regulate our behavior, even in the absence of external controls. It is a sort of inner self that presents a series of perceptions about what others expect of us, as well as what we expect of ourselves. Psychopaths do not seem to have this “inner guidance” system. They may calculate coldly what could or could not happen, but they act primarily based on achieving immediate satisfaction, pleasure, or relief of some sort.
Please note: The psychopath does not act based on a consideration of the rights and feelings of others. They do not have a conscience, and it is our conscience that makes us prey! It is our perception of them as human beings with feelings, that restrains our actions, that makes us “consider” them in the way we would like to be considered; but all the while, they are not so constrained! In terms of Game Theory, they have a Dominant Strategy that takes into account this very weakness of conscience that they know will prevent their victims from responding in kind.
Psychopaths consider the rules and expectations of society to be inconvenient and unreasonable impediments to what they want or need. But, as noted, they don’t always break the law so as to land in jail. They are generally too smart for that. Instead, they do things that are unethical, immoral and harmful to others, but in ways that are not illegal. The problem with behavior of this sort is that it is cruelly destructive to all around them, but almost impossible to document or explain to outsiders.
Obligations and commitments mean nothing to the psychopath. They don’t honor formal or implied commitments to people and organizations, or even principles. They are also irresponsible parents. They may insist that they love their children, but typically, they will leave them for extended periods of time either alone, or with unreliable or inappropriate people. The story of Nash’s behavior toward his mistress (with whom he had a child that he suggested she ought to “give up for adoption”), as well as his son by his wife (who went for a year without a name, and who was shuttled back and forth between his mother and his grandparents for most of his life), demonstrate clearly that Nash most definitely was not merely an “irresponsible parent” — he was cruelly neglectful. Of course, the excuse is made that he was “psychotic.” But it is most curious that his psychosis began just shortly before the birth of his second son and within a marriage, where societal expectations of care and responsibility would be most likely brought to bear on him. It was almost as if the very idea of actually being expected to give something of himself to another human being was sufficient to drive him to self-destruction.
Nash suggested to Eleanor that she give John David up for adoption. […] It was a cold-blooded suggestion, and it all but killed any remaining love Eleanor felt for Nash. One only hopes that among Nash’s considerations in putting it forward — apart from eliminating any financial responsibility he might face for his child, which prompted Eleanor to say that Nash “wanted everything for nothing” — might have been a genuine belief that John David’s chances in life would be greater with some middle-class couple than with his single, working mother. […] He doubtless behaved selfishly, even callously. His son and others later attributed his acknowledgment of paternity and desire to maintain a bond, even while failing to protect his child from poverty and periodic separation from his mother, to a pure narcissism. (Nasar, 1998)
We note above that Nash obviously was saying the words, but that those words were contradicted by his actions — one of the signs of the psychopath.
Psychopaths are extraordinarily successful in talking their way out of trouble. They will say over and over again, “I’ve learned my lesson,” or “You have my word that it won’t happen again,” or “It was all just a big misunderstanding, can’t we forget it and go forward?” Usually this works, and one wonders how many times it had worked for Nash before he found an instance in which it did not work and, in fact, ended in the withdrawal of his top-secret security clearance and loss of a lucrative consulting contract.
In 1950, Nash was hired as a consultant for RAND Corporation, a secretive civilian think-tank funded by the Air Force. This was where the big brains worked out problems of nuclear war and Game Theory. The RAND ideal was a militarized worship of the rational life, geopolitical obsession, paranoia and megalomania. Its mission was to apply rational analysis and the latest quantitative methods to the problem of how to use nuclear weapons most effectively — as instruments of destruction or deterrence. Nasar suggests that RAND may have been the model for Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series about hyper-rational social scientists or psycho-historians, who think it is their job to save the galaxy from chaos.
Nash was initiated into the secret world of RAND along with a host of other mathematicians. After World War II, many of the mathematicians and scientists recruited for the war continued to be employed by military research organizations. And, of all the ideas that had come along during the war, Game Theory was seen as the most sophisticated tool. RAND was privy to the military’s most highly guarded secrets.
Nash stood out as the oddest of the bunch at RAND. It seems that, on a number of occasions, the maintenance crew reported that Nash was observed to be “tiptoeing exaggeratedly along the avenue, stalking flocks of pigeons, and then suddenly rushing forward to try to kick them.”
Sounds like a real swell guy. Early cruelty to animals is almost a dead giveaway to the psychopathic personality. When they become adults, they may even tell others about their childhood cruelty as an “ordinary event” of growing up. They will describe it as having been “enjoyable,” and possibly assume that it is a common feature of maturation. The fact that Nash continued to regard living creatures as something to stalk and hurt is seriously disturbing.
In 1954, Nash was arrested in Palisades Park. He was charged with “indecent exposure.” Richard Best, RAND’s security manager, was informed of the arrest, and was reported to have said that Nash went into a public restroom and came on to another man by taking out his penis and masturbating; the only problem was, the man was a cop.
Nash had a top-secret security clearance. The security guidelines forbade anyone suspected of homosexual activity to hold a security clearance because, at the time, vulnerability to blackmail was an issue. Aside from that, the reckless nature of Nash’s act indicated poor judgment. When Best confronted Nash with the news that his security clearance had been canceled, that he would have to go right then — that very minute — Nash was neither shaken nor embarrassed. Another sign of the psychopath. They don’t have feelings, so they can never be embarrassed!
Nash didn’t take it all that hard. He denied that he had been trying to pick up the cop and tended to scoff at the notion that he could be a homosexual. “I’m not a homosexual,” Best quotes Nash as saying. “I like women.” He then did something that puzzled Best and shocked him a little: “He pulled a picture out of his wallet and showed us a picture of a woman and a little boy. ‘Here’s the woman I’m going to marry and our son’….”
Best ignored the obvious psychopathic ploy and asked Nash for his version of the “event.” Nash kept repeating that he was “merely observing behavioral characteristics.” Yeah, right. That and a buck will get you a cup of coffee!
Sylvia Nasar writes about the incident, asking questions about Nash’s possible internal reaction to this event. She asks:
What was going through Nash’s mind in that interval? Was he angry? Depressed? Frightened? […] Did he try to have RAND’s decision reversed? Generally, of course, people did not. Fearful of scandal and aware of the contempt with which any hint of homosexuality was viewed, people in Nash’s shoes were usually only too happy to slink away without murmur or protest.
In the end, Nash did what he had learned to do in less extreme circumstances. He acted, weirdly, as if nothing had happened. He played the observer of his own drama, as if it were all a game or some intriguing experiment in human behavior, focusing neither on the emotions of people around him nor on his own, but on moves and countermoves. […] At some point he told his parents he’d had trouble with his RAND security clearance, blaming it on the fact that his mentor at MIT, Norman Levinson, was a former communist who had been hauled before HUAC that year. (Nasar, 1998; this author’s emphasis)
A more typical description of the behavior and actions of a psychopath could hardly be imagined. But Nasar, like the rest of us, sought answers to Nash’s behavior by assuming that he was like other people. She wondered about him being afraid of scandal or contempt. She just didn’t get it that Nash did not have a conscience. Those things simply were not part of his make-up.
Conscience seems to depend on the ability to imagine consequences. But most “consequences” relate to pain in some way, and psychopaths really don’t understand pain in the emotional sense. They understand frustration of not getting what they want, and to them, that is pain. But the fact seems to be that they act based solely on a sort of Game Theory evaluation of a situation: What will they get out of it, and what will it cost? These “costs” have nothing to do with being humiliated, causing pain, sabotaging the future, or any of the other possibilities that normal people consider when making a choice. In short, it is almost impossible for normal people to even imagine the inner life of the psychopath.
This leads us to what psychopaths do have that is truly outstanding: An ability to give their undivided attention to something that interests them intensely. Some clinicians have compared this to the concentration with which a predator stalks his prey. This is useful if one is in an environment with few variables, but most real life situations require us to pay attention to a number of things at once. Psychopaths often pay so much attention to getting what they want that they fail to notice danger signals.
For example, some psychopaths earned reputations for being fearless fighter pilots during World War II, staying on their targets like terriers on an ankle. Yet, these pilots often failed to keep track of such unexciting details as fuel supply, altitude, location, and the position of other planes. Sometimes they became heroes, but more often, they were killed or became known as opportunists, loners, or hotshots who couldn’t be relied on — except to take care of themselves. (Hare, 1999)
Nash demonstrated this quality to an extreme degree in the field of mathematics. However, Nash wasn’t interested in mathematics for the sake of mathematics itself — the problem had to be important in the opinion of others, and thereby likely to garner attention and glory to himself. Nash wouldn’t work on a problem unless he was assured that it was sufficiently important to “deserve” his attention. But, once he had decided, his “attention” was prodigious.
His tolerance for solitude, great confidence in his own intuition, indifference to criticism — all detectable at a young age but now prominent and impermeable features of his personality — served him well. […] The most eloquent description of Nash’s single-minded attack on the problem comes from Moser:
The difficulty [that Levinson had pointed out], to anyone in his right mind, would have stopped them cold and caused them to abandon the problem. But Nash was different. If he had a hunch, conventional criticisms didn’t stop him. He had no background knowledge. It was totally uncanny. Nobody could understand how somebody like that could do it. He was the only person I ever saw with that kind of power, just brute mental power. (Nasar, 1998)
Again, it should be emphasized that psychopaths are interesting as all get out — even exciting! They exude a captivating energy that keeps their listeners on the edge of their seats. Even if some part of the normal person is shocked or repelled by what the psychopath says, they are like the mouse hypnotized by the torturing cat. Even if they have the chance to run away, they don’t. Many psychopaths “make their living” by using charm, deceit and manipulation to gain the confidence of their victims. Many of them can be found in white-collar professions, where they are aided in their evil by the fact that most people expect certain classes of people to be trustworthy because of their social or professional credentials. Lawyers, doctors, teachers, politicians, psychiatrists and psychologists, generally do not have to earn our trust because they have it by virtue of their positions. But the fact is, psychopaths are found in such lofty spheres also!
At the same time, psychopaths are good impostors. They have absolutely no hesitation about forging and brazenly using impressive credentials to adopt professional roles that bring prestige and power. They pick professions in which the requisite skills are easy to fake, the jargon is easy to learn, and the credentials are unlikely to be thoroughly checked. Psychopaths find it extremely easy to pose as financial consultants, ministers, psychological counselors and psychologists. That’s a scary thought.
Psychopaths make their way by conning people into doing things for them; obtaining money for them, prestige, power, or even standing up for them when others try to expose them. But that is their claim to fame. That’s what they do, and they do it very well. What’s more, the job is very easy because most people are gullible with an unshakable belief in the inherent goodness of man.
Manipulation is the key to the psychopath’s conquests. Initially, the psychopath will feign false emotions to create empathy, and many of them study the tricks that can be employed in the “empathy” technique. Psychopaths are often able to incite pity from people because they seem like “lost souls,” as Guggenbuhl-Craig writes. So the pity factor is one reason why victims often fall for these “poor” people.
Hare cites a famous case where a psychopath was “Man of the Year” and president of the Chamber of Commerce in his small town. (Remember that John Wayne Gacy was running for Jaycee President at the very time of his first murder conviction!) The man in question had claimed to have a Ph.D. from Berkeley. He ran for a position on the school board, which he then planned to parlay into a position on the county commission, which paid more.
At some point, a local reporter suddenly had the idea to check up on the guy — to see if his credentials were real. What the reporter found out was that the only thing that was true about this up-and-coming politician’s “faked bio” was the place and date of birth. Everything else was fictitious. Not only was the man a complete impostor, he had a long history of antisocial behavior, fraud, impersonation and imprisonment. His only contact with a university was a series of extension courses by mail that he took while in Leavenworth Federal Penitentiary. What is even more amazing is the fact that before he was a con-man, he was a “con-boy.” For two decades he had dodged his way across America one step ahead of those he had hoodwinked. Along the way he had married three women and had four children, and he didn’t even know what had happened to them. Now, he was on a roll! But darn that pesky reporter!
When he was exposed, he was completely unconcerned. “These trusting people will stand behind me. A good liar is a good judge of people,” he said. Amazingly, he was right. Far from being outraged at the fact that they had all been completely deceived and lied to from top to bottom, the local community he had conned so completely — in order to accrue benefits and honors to himself that he had not earned — rushed to his support!
I kid you not! It wasn’t just “token support.” The local Republican Party chairman wrote about him: “I assess his genuineness, integrity and devotion to duty to rank right alongside of President Abraham Lincoln.” As Hare dryly notes, this dimwit was easily swayed by words, but was blind to deeds.
We understand this phenomenon from direct personal experience. The above case is almost an item-by-item mirror of our interaction with Vincent Bridges. After questions were raised about his credentials —side by side with our observation of his many activities, including vociferously blaming the victims (us) for refusing to be further victimized — we became acutely aware of his capacity for lying. It was, in fact, his publicly posted lies, as well the lies of both him and others in his gang, witnessed by ourselves and many others, that clued us in to his true nature. Had he behaved otherwise, he would be well on his way to more and better con-jobs with our blessings, given out of ignorance. However, our observation of the deceitful nature of his written discourses — the endless lies stacked on lies — naturally led to the idea that maybe everything he said was a lie, including his credentials. This idea turned out to be correct, but it didn’t seem to matter. Surprisingly (to us, at least), there was no lack of people who were willing to compare Bridges to Abraham Lincoln because of his “genuineness, integrity and devotion to duty.” That factor, of course, is what contributes to the success of the psychopath.
We observed this for some months, shaking our head in wonder at how many people seem to want to be duped, to be made fools of, and that is partly why we undertook to study the phenomenon more deeply. We wanted to know what kind of psychological weaknesses drive people to prefer lies over truth.
This may have something to do with what is called “cognitive dissonance.” Leon Festinger developed the theory of cognitive dissonance in the 1950s when he apparently stumbled onto a UFO cult in the midwest. They were prophesying a coming world cataclysm and “alien rapture.” When no one was raptured and no cataclysm occurred, he studied the believers’ response and detailed it in his book, When Prophecy Fails. Festinger observed:
A man with a conviction is a hard man to change. Tell him you disagree and he turns away. Show him facts or figures and he questions your sources. Appeal to logic and he fails to see your point.
We have all experienced the futility of trying to change a strong conviction, especially if the convinced person has some investment in his belief. We are familiar with the variety of ingenious defenses with which people protect their convictions, managing to keep them unscathed through the most devastating attacks.
But man’s resourcefulness goes beyond simply protecting a belief. Suppose an individual believes something with his whole heart; suppose further that he has a commitment to this belief, that he has taken irrevocable actions because of it; finally, suppose that he is presented with evidence, unequivocal and undeniable evidence, that his belief is wrong: what will happen? The individual will frequently emerge, not only unshaken, but even more convinced of the truth of his beliefs than ever before. Indeed, he may even show a new fervor about convincing and converting other people to his view. (Festinger, 1964)
It seems that part of the problem has to do with ego and the need to be “right.” People with a high need to be “right” or “perfect” seem to be unable to acknowledge that they have been conned. “There is no crime in the cynical American calendar more humiliating than to be a sucker.” People will go along with and support a psychopath, in the face of evidence that they are being conned, because their own ego structure depends on being right, and to admit an error of judgment would destroy their carefully constructed image of themselves.
Even more amazing is the fact that when psychopaths do get exposed by someone who is not afraid to admit that they have been conned, the psychopath is a master at painting their victims as the “real culprits.” We have experienced this first hand also with both Frank Scott and Vincent Bridges, as well as others, as will be seen further along. We were, indeed, interested to discover that we weren’t the only ones. Hare cites a case of the third wife of a forty-year-old high-school teacher:
“For five years he cheated on me, kept me living in fear, and forged checks on my personal bank account. But everyone, including my doctor and lawyer and my friends, blamed me for the problem. He had them so convinced that he was a great guy and that I was going mad, I began to believe it myself. Even when he cleaned out my bank account and ran off with a seventeen-year-old student, a lot of people couldn’t believe it, and some wanted to know what I had done to make him act so strangely!”
Psychopaths just have what it takes to defraud and bilk others: they can be fast talkers, they can be charming, they can be self-assured and at ease in social situations; they are cool under pressure, unfazed by the possibility of being found out, and totally ruthless. And even when they are exposed, they can carry on as if nothing has happened, often making their accusers the targets of accusations of being victimized by them.
I was once dumbfounded by the logic of an inmate who described his murder victim as having benefited from the crime by learning “a hard lesson about life.” (Hare, 1999)
The victims keep asking: “How could I have been so stupid? How could I have fallen for that incredible line of baloney?” And, of course, if they don’t ask it of themselves, you can be sure that their friends and associates will ask: “How on earth could you have been taken in to that extent?” The usual answer — “You had to be there” — simply does not convey the whole thing. Hare writes:
What makes psychopaths different from all others is the remarkable ease with which they lie, the pervasiveness of their deception, and the callousness with which they carry it out.
But there is something else about the speech of psychopaths that is equally puzzling: their frequent use of contradictory and logically inconsistent statements that usually escape detection. Recent research on the language of psychopaths provides us with some important clues to this puzzle, as well as to the uncanny ability psychopaths have to move words — and people — around so easily. (Hare, 1999)
Here are some examples:
When asked if he had ever committed a violent offense, a man serving time for theft answered, “No, but I once had to kill someone.”
A woman with a staggering record of fraud, deceit, lies, and broken promises concluded a letter to the parole board with, “I’ve let a lot of people down.… One is only as good as her reputation and name. My word is as good as gold.”
A man serving a term for armed robbery replied to the testimony of an eyewitness, “He’s lying. I wasn’t there. I should have blown his fucking head off.” (Hare, 1999)
From an interview with serial killer Elmer Wayne Henley:
Interviewer: “You make it out that you’re the victim of a serial killer, but if you look at the record you’re a serial killer.”
Henley: “I’m not.”
I: “You’re not a serial killer?”
H: “I’m not a serial killer.”
I: You’re saying you’re not a serial killer now, but you’ve serially killed.”
H: “Well, yeah, that’s semantics.”
And so on. The point that the researchers noted was that psychopaths seem to have trouble monitoring their own speech. What is more, they often put things together in strange ways, such as this series of remarks from serial-killer Clifford Olson: “And then I had annual sex with her.” “Once a year?” “No. Annual. From behind.” “Oh. But she was dead!” “No, no. She was just unconscientious.” About his many experiences, Olson said, “I’ve got enough antidotes to fill five or six books — enough for a trilogy.” He was determined not to be an “escape goat” no matter what the “migrating facts.” (Hare, 1999)
Those of us who have had experiences with psychopaths know that the language of the psychopath is only two-dimensional. They are, as someone once said, as “deep as a thimble.” An analogy is given of the psychopath as a color-blind person who has learned how to function in the world of color by special strategies. They may tell you that they “stopped at a red light,” but what it really means to them is that they knew that the light at the top means “Stop,” and they stopped. They call it the “red” light like everyone else, but they have no experience of what “red” really is.
A person who is color-blind and has developed such coping mechanisms, is virtually undetectable from people who see colors. I was shocked when my brother told me, when we were in our thirties, that he had been refused certain flight-related training in the Navy because he was color-blind. All I could think of was the many model cars he assembled when we were kids, and how he carefully selected the colors to paint them; all the while he was saying to me, “Isn’t that a pretty red?” he had no idea what “red” really was. It was only in the Navy, when the tests were administered, that even he learned that he was color-blind. He still doesn’t know what “red” is, though we have discussed endlessly his perceptions of color.
Psychopaths use words about emotions the same way people who are color-blind use words about colors that they cannot perceive. Psychopaths not only learn to use the words more or less appropriately, they learn to pantomime the emotion. But they never have the emotion.
This quality of the mind of the psychopath has been extensively tested with word-association tests while the subjects are hooked up to an EEG. In normal individuals, words that have emotional content evoke larger brain responses than do neutral words, which is apparently a reflection of the large amount of information that can be packed into a word. For most of us, the word cancer can instantly bring to mind not only the description of the disease, but also fear, pain, concern, or whatever, depending upon our experiences with cancer, whether we or someone we love has had it, or if it had some impact on our lives, and so on. The same is true with many words in our collective and individual vocabularies. And, unless we had a traumatic experience with it, a word such as box or paper will be neutral.
Psychopaths respond to all emotional words as if they were neutral. It is as if they are permanently condemned to operate with a Juvenile Dictionary. Hare writes:
Earlier I discussed the role of “inner speech” in the development and operation of conscience. It is the emotionally charged thoughts, images, and internal dialogue that give the “bite” to conscience, account for its powerful control over behavior, and generate guilt and remorse for transgressions. This is something that psychopaths cannot understand. For them, conscience is little more than an intellectual awareness of rules others make up — empty words. The feelings needed to give clout to these rules are missing. (Hare, 1999; this author’s emphasis)
What is more, just as the color-blind individual may never know he is color-blind unless he is given a test to determine it, the psychopath is unable to even be aware of his own emotional poverty. They assume that their own perceptions are the same as everyone else’s. They assume that their own lack of feeling is the same for everyone else. Make no mistake about it: You can not hurt their feelings — because they don’t have any! They will pretend to have feelings if it suits their purposes or gets them what they want. They will verbalize remorse, but their actions will contradict their words. They know that “remorse” is important, and “apologies” are useful, and they will give them freely, though generally in words that amount to blaming the victim for needing to be apologized to.
This is why they are so good at using Game Theory, and unless we learn the rules of how they think, they will continue to use it on us with devastating results. Normal people hurt when treated cruelly and insensitively. Psychopaths can only feign being “hurt” in the way that most people experience it — because they can only perceive “hurt” as not getting what they wanted, and tried to get by manipulation!
In the book Violent Attachments, women and men have noted the particular stare of the psychopath: It is an intense, relentless gaze that seems to precede his destruction of his victim or target. Women, in particular, have reported this stare, which is related to the “predatorial” (reptilian) gaze; it is as if the psychopath is directing all of his intensity toward you through his eyes, a sensation that one woman reported as a feeling of “being eaten.” They tend to invade peoples’ space either by their sudden intrusions or intimidating look-overs (which some women confuse for sexuality).
Another extremely interesting study had to do with the way psychopaths move their hands when they speak. Hand movement can tell researchers a lot about what are called “thought units.” The studies indicate that psychopaths’ thoughts and ideas are organized into small mental packages. This is handy for lying, but makes dealing with an overall, coherent and integrated complex of deep thoughts virtually impossible.
Most people are able to combine ideas that have consistent thought themes, but psychopaths have great difficulty doing this. Again, this suggests a genetic restriction to what we have called the Juvenile Dictionary. Not only are they using extremely restricted definitions, they cannot, by virtue of the way their brains work, do otherwise. Virtually all of the research on psychopaths reveals an inner world that is banal, sophomoric, and devoid of the color and detail that generally exists in the inner world of normal people. This goes a long way to explain the inconsistencies and contradictions in their speech.
“The situation is analogous to a movie in which one scene is shot under cloudy conditions and the next scene — which supposedly takes place a few minutes later — is shot in brilliant sunshine. […] Some moviegoers — the victims of psychopaths — might not notice the discrepancy, particularly if they are engrossed in the action.” (Hare, 1999)
Psychopaths are notorious for not answering the questions asked them. They will answer something else, or in such a way that the direct question is never addressed. They also phrase things so that some parts of their narratives are difficult to understand. This is not careless speech, of which everyone is guilty at times, but an ongoing indication of the underlying condition, in which the organization of mental activity suggests something is wrong. It’s not what they say, but how they say it, that gives insight into their true nature.
But this again raises the question: If their speech is so odd, why do smart people get taken in by them? Why do we fail to pick up the inconsistencies?
Part of the answer is that the oddities are so subtle that our general listening mode will not normally pick up on them. But my own experience is that some of the “skipped,” oddly arranged words, or misused words are automatically reinterpreted by our brains in the same way we automatically “fill in the blank” space on a neon sign when one of the letters has gone out. We can be driving down the road at night and ahead see “M_tel,” and then mentally put the “o” in place and read “Motel.” Something like this happens between the psychopath and their victim. We fill in the “missing humanness” by filling in the blanks with our own assumptions, based on what we think, feel and mean. And, in this way, because there are these “blank” spots, we fill them in with what is inside us, and thus we are easily convinced that the psychopath is a great guy — because he is just like us! We have been conditioned to operate on trust, and we always try to give the “benefit of the doubt.” So, when there are blanks, we “give the benefit of the doubt,” and we are thereby hoisted on our own petard.
“Psychopaths view any social exchange as a ‘feeding opportunity,’ a contest or a test of wills in which there can be only one winner. Their motives are to manipulate and take, ruthlessly and without remorse” (Hare, 1999).
One psychopath interviewed by Hare’s team said quite frankly: “The first thing I do is I size you up. I look for an angle, an edge, figure out what you need and give it to you. Then it’s pay-back time, with interest. I tighten the screws.” Another psychopath admitted that he never targeted attractive women; he was only interested in those who were insecure and lonely. He claimed he could smell a needy person “the way a pig smells truffles.”
The callous use of the old, the lonely, the vulnerable, the disenfranchised, the marginalized, is a trademark of the psychopath. When any of these victims wake up to what is happening, they are generally too embarrassed to complain.
One of the chief ways psychopaths prey on others is to make use of the normal person’s need to find meaning or purpose in life. They will pose as grief counselors, or “experts” of various sorts that attract followings of people who are looking for answers. They are masters of recognizing the kind of “hang-ups” and self-doubts that most people experience, and they will brazenly pander to them to gain a “follower” to use later. Hare tells of a staff psychologist in a mental hospital whose life was destroyed by a psychopathic patient. He cleaned out her bank account, maxed out her credit cards, and then disappeared. How did he get to her? She said that her life had been “empty” and she had just simply succumbed to his sweet words and verbal caresses. As we already know, such words are cheap legal-tender to the psychopath. They can say “I’ll pray for you,” or “I love you,” just to create an impression. It really, really doesn’t mean a thing. But some people are so lonely and so desperate that even imitations are better than nothing.
Then, of course, there are people who are just simply so psychologically damaged themselves that the psychopath is the obvious choice for a partner. They may have a need to be treated badly, excited by danger, or to “rescue” or “fix” somebody whose soul is in obvious peril.
“In a book about Richard Ramirez, the Satan-worshipping ‘Night Stalker,’ the author described a young coed who sat through the pretrial hearings and sent love letters and photographs of herself to Ramirez. ‘I feel such compassion for him. When I look at him, I see a real handsome guy who just messed up his life because he never had anyone to guide him,’ she is reported to have said” (Hare, 1999).
Sadly, as we see, psychopaths have no lack of victims, because so many people are ready and willing to play the role. In many, many cases, the victim simply refuses to believe the evidence that they are being victimized. Psychological denial screens out knowledge that is painful, and persons with large investments in their fantasies are often unable to acknowledge that they are being deceived, because it is too painful. Most often, these are women who rigidly adhere to the traditional role of the female, with a strong sense of duty to be a “good wife.” She will believe that if she tries harder or simply waits it out, her husband will reform. When he ignores her, abuses her, cheats on her, or uses her, she can simply just decide to “try harder, put more energy into the relationship, and take better care of him.” She believes that if she does this, eventually he will notice and will see how valuable she is, and then he will fall on his knees in gratitude and treat her like a queen.
Dream on.
The fact is, such a woman, with her fierce commitment to such a man, her dedication to being a proper wife, has allowed such fairy tales to distort her sense of reality. The reality is that she is doomed to a lifetime of abuse and disappointment until “death do us part.”
One of the basic assumptions of psychotherapy is that the patient needs and wants help for distressing or painful psychological and emotional problems. The psychopath does not think that they have any psychological or emotional problems, and they see no reason to change their behavior to conform to standards with which they do not agree. They are well-satisfied with themselves and their inner landscape. They see nothing wrong with they way they think or act, and they never look back with regret or forward with concern. They perceive themselves as superior beings in a hostile world in which others are competitors for power and resources. They feel it is the optimum thing to do when they manipulate and deceive others in order to obtain what they want.
Most therapy programs only provide them with new excuses for their behavior, as well as new insights into the vulnerabilities of others. Through psychotherapy, they learn new and better ways of manipulating. What they do not do is make any effort to change their own views and attitudes.
One particular psychopath studied by Hare and his team of researchers was in a group-therapy program in a prison. The prison psychiatrist had written in his record: “He has made good progress.… He appears more concerned about others and to have lost much of his criminal thinking.”
Two years later, Hare’s staff member interviewed the man. At this point it ought to be made clear that, in order to make the research more accurate, the terms were that nothing said by the subjects to Hare or his staff could or would be repeated to the prison authorities; and they kept to their agreement in order to insure that the subjects felt free to talk to them. Psychopaths, if they know that they won’t be penalized for what they express, are very happy to boast about their prowess in deceiving others. The man, assessed above by his prison psychiatrist as having made such remarkable improvement, was described by Hare’s staffer as “the most terrifying” offender she had ever met and that he openly boasted about how he had conned the prison staff into thinking that he was well on the road to rehabilitation. “I can’t believe those guys,” he said. “Who gave them a license to practice? I wouldn’t let them psychoanalyze my dog! He’d shit all over them just like I did.”
Psychopaths are not “fragile” individuals, as Robert Hare reminds us after years of research. What they think and do is produced from a “rock-solid personality structure that is extremely resistant to outside influences.” Many of them are protected for years from the consequences of their behavior by well-meaning family and friends. As long as their behavior remains unchecked or unpunished, they continue to go through life without too much inconvenience.
Some researchers think that psychopathy is the result of some attachment or bonding difficulty as an infant. Dr. Hare has turned that idea around, after all his years digging into the background of psychopaths: “In some children the very failure to bond is a symptom of psychopathy. It is likely that these children lack the capacity to bond readily, and that their lack of attachment is largely the result, not the cause, of psychopathy” (Hare, 1999). In other words: They are born that way and you can’t fix them.
To many people, the idea of a child psychopath is almost unthinkable. But the fact is, true psychopaths are born, not made. Oh, indeed, there are psychopaths that are “made,” but they are generally different from the “born psychopath” in a number of ways.
The fact is, clinical research clearly demonstrates that psychopathy does not spring into existence in adulthood, unannounced. The symptoms reveal themselves in early life. It seems to be true that parents of psychopaths know something is dreadfully wrong, even before the child starts school. Such children are stubbornly immune to socializing pressures. They are “different” from other children in inexplicable ways. They are more “difficult,” “willful,” or “aggressive,” or “hard to relate to.” They are difficult to get close to, cold and distant, and self-sufficient.
One mother said: “We were never able to get close to her even as an infant. She was always trying to have her own way, whether by being sweet, or by having a tantrum. She can put on a sweet and contrite act.…”
The fact is, childhood psychopathy is a stark reality, and failing to recognize it can lead to years of vain attempts to discover what is wrong with a child, and the parent blaming themselves. Hare writes:
As the signs of social breakdown grow more insistent, we no longer have the luxury of ignoring the presence of psychopathy in certain children. Half a century ago Hervey Cleckley and Robert Lindner warned us that our failure to acknowledge the psychopaths among us had already triggered a social crisis. Today our social institutions — our schools, courts, mental health clinics — confront the crisis every day in a thousand ways, and the blindfold against the reality of psychopathy is still in place. […]
The last decade has seen the emergence of an inescapable and terrifying reality: a dramatic surge of juvenile crime that threatens to overwhelm our social institutions. […] Children under the age of ten who are capable of the sort of mindless violence that once was reserved for hardened adult criminals. […] At this writing, a small town in a western state is frantically searching for ways to deal with a nine-year-old who allegedly rapes and molests other children at knife point. He is too young to be charged and cannot be taken into care because “such action may only be taken when the child is in danger, not his victims,” according to a child protection official. (Hare, 1999)
Why does it seem that we have a veritable epidemic of psychopaths? Sociobiologists are suggesting that increasing psychopathy is an expression of a particular genetically-based reproductive strategy. Simply put, most people have a couple of children and devote a lot of time and effort to their care. Psychopaths systematically mate with and abandon large numbers of women. They waste little of their energy raising children, and in this way, psychopathic genes are being propagated like wildfire. The sociobiologists aren’t saying that the sexual behavior of people is consciously directed, only that “nature” has made them a certain way so that it will happen effectively.
The behavior of female psychopaths reflects the same strategy. “I can always have another,” one female psychopath coldly replied, when questioned about an incident in which her two-year-old daughter was beaten to death by one of her many lovers. When asked why she would want to have another child (two had been taken into protective custody), she said “I love children.” Again we see that the expressed emotion is in contradiction to the behavior.
Cheating skills seem to have an adaptive value in our society. The fact is, psychopaths often end up on the top of the heap — John Forbes Nash, for example.
At the present time, there is something very scary going on in the metaphysical community: Talk about the so-called “Indigo Children.” One of the chief promoters of this idea, Wendy Chapman, writes:
Indigo Children are the current generation being born today and most of those who are eight years old or younger. They are different. They have very unique characteristics that set them apart from previous generations of children. […] These are the children who are often rebellious to authority, nonconformist, extremely emotionally and sometimes physically sensitive or fragile, highly talented or academically gifted and often metaphysically gifted as well, usually intuitive, very often labeled ADD, either very empathic and compassionate or very cold and callous, and are wise beyond their years. Does this sound like yourself or your child?
Indigos have come into this world with difficult challenges to overcome. Their extreme levels of sensitivity are hard to understand and appreciate by parents who don’t share this trait. Their giftedness is unusual in such high numbers. Their nonconformity to systems and to discipline will make it difficult to get through their childhood years and perhaps even their adult years. It is also what will help them accomplish big goals such as changing the educational system, for instance. Being an Indigo won’t be easy for any of them, but it foretells a mission. The Indigo Children are the ones who have come to raise the vibration of our planet! These are the primary ones who will bring us the enlightenment to ascend.
Sounds like a severe case of denial and wishful thinking, in my opinion. But, as we already understand, the psychological reality is merely a tool for the “theological reality.” I suspect that the reader already has jumped ahead of me here and realizes what a big snow-job this “Indigo Children” deal is. Ms. Chapman has kindly provided a check-list to determine an “Indigo Child.” After learning what we have about psychopaths, let’s have a look at her list:
Have strong self esteem, connection to source.
Know they belong here until they are told otherwise.
Have an obvious sense of self.
Have difficulty with discipline and authority.
Refuse to follow orders or directions.
Find it torture to wait in lines, lack patience.
Get frustrated by ritual-oriented systems that require little creativity.
Often see better ways of doing things at home and at school.
Are mostly nonconformists.
Do not respond to guilt trips, want good reasons.
Get bored rather easily with assigned tasks.
Are rather creative.
Are easily distractible, can do many things at once.
Display strong intuition.
Have strong empathy for others or no empathy.
Develop abstract thinking very young.
Are gifted and/or talented, highly intelligent.
Are often identified or suspected of having ADD or ADHD, but can focus when they want to.
Are talented daydreamers and visionaries.
Have very old, deep, wise-looking eyes.
Have spiritual intelligence and/or psychic skills.
Often express anger outwardly rather than inwardly and may have trouble with rage.
Need our support to discover themselves.
Are here to change the world, to help us live in greater harmony and peace with one another and to raise the vibration of the planet.
What we see above is a list that includes certain definitive psychopathic behaviors along with behaviors of gifted children. We have to wonder at the attempt to weave the two together.
Where did this idea of “Indigo Children” come from? The phrase “Indigo Child” was coined by Nancy Ann Tappe in her book, Understanding Your Life Through Color (1982), and refers to the color in these children’s auras. Ms. Tappe was interviewed by Jan Tober for her book The Indigo Children (1999), and said: “These young children — every one of them I’ve seen thus far who kill their schoolmates or parents — have been Indigos.”
That didn’t stop Tober from writing her book and declaring that these children are “Spiritual Masters, beings full of wisdom, here to teach us a new way of being.” The way the followers of her ideas justify the fact that “not all Indigo children are filled with unconditional love, tolerance and non-judgment,” is by declaring that they require “special” treatment, handling with kid gloves because they are so special and delicate and sensitive.
In a pig’s eye. They are psychopaths and they are here for an altogether different reason. Somehow, some force is trying to make sure that its offspring are well cared for, and that a lot of psychopaths grow up without being identified for what they are.
Nevertheless, there is no explaining the extremes that “true believers” will go to in order to find excuses for inexcusable things. Elizabeth Kirby, a businesswoman in southern California, who has “studied and practiced metaphysics for the last 21 years,” writes:
In hearing about the school shootings, I knew Indigo children were pulling the triggers. The Columbine High School shooting was so horrific it caught everyone’s attention. At the time my eldest daughter said to me, “Because they (Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold) were Indigos they wanted to do it, so they just did it. No remorse, no guilt, they just went ahead and shot all those people because they wanted to and felt they needed to.” Indigo children don’t have guilt to keep them in check and because they balk at authority they don’t believe they have to follow the rules.
Writers in mainstream America like Jonathan Kellerman are lumping the Indigo school shooters with the psychopaths; the dark entities who are bullies, con-men, stalkers, victimizers, serial killers and those who kill for thrills. I don’t believe these Indigo children who have taken weapons to school to harm other children are psychopaths. They have been bullied and teased and have an avenger attitude seeking justice for injuries inflicted on them. They aren’t killing just for the thrill of killing. These kids know changes have to be made within the school system and they chose violence to make their statement, to give us a wake up call. Some of these metaphysical Indigo children are not hesitant about using violence to bring about change, and to bring us to enlightenment.
Indigo violence is here and it will continue, at least with this present generation of Indigo children. We are seeing with the current Indigo violence how the school system needs to be changed and how imperative it is to address the issues of bullying and intimidation in school. As the Indigo children grow to adulthood, their agendas will move out of the school system into our other systems, our social, political and judicial systems. Timothy McVeigh, the Oklahoma City bomber, is an Indigo.
Amazing, huh? Did you catch the remark, “Some of these metaphysical Indigo children are not hesitant about using violence to bring about change, and to bring us to enlightenment”? Don’t we find that just a tiny bit contradictory? Aren’t we stretching a bit? How about diving straight into denial?
Oy.
At the present moment in history, the appeal of the psychopath has never been greater. Movies about psychopaths are all the rage. Hare asks: “Why? What accounts for the terrific power that the personality without conscience has over our collective imagination?” One theorist proposes that people who admire, believe, or identify with psychopaths, are partly psychopathic themselves. By interacting with a psychopath, even peripherally, they are able to voyeuristically enjoy an inner state not dominated by the constraints of morality. Such people are enabled to enjoy aggressive and sexual pleasures at no cost.
For normal people, such movies may serve to remind them of the danger and destructiveness of the psychopath. They will shiver with the sense of something cold and dark having breathed on their neck. For others, people with poorly-developed inner selves, such movies and glorification of psychopathic behavior only serves as a role model for serious acts of violence and predation against others.
That brings us back to Nash. Remember Nash? Sylvia Nasar proposes some small rationalizations for Nash’s psychopathic behavior, suggesting that he was just an “inward looking child” who reacted to “intrusive adults by withdrawing further into his own private world.” Funny, I thought the same thing about Frank Scott. Nasar does admit that, based on the fact that there is no evidence of any trauma, any abuse, and only the most loving and educational environment, that Nash’s temperament must have been “one that he was born with.”
Well, no surprise there! However, the only difference that family background seems to make is how the psychopath expresses himself. A psychopath who grows up in a stable family and has access to positive social and educational resources might become a white-collar criminal, or perhaps a somewhat shady entrepreneur, politician, lawyer, judge or other professional. Another individual with the same traits and a deprived background, might become a common con-artist, a drifter, mercenary or violent criminal.
The point is, social factors and parenting practices only shape the expression of the disorder, but have no effect on the individual’s inability to feel empathy or to develop a conscience.
In Nash’s case, he became a mathematician. The story of how this happened is extremely interesting. I would like to suggest the exercise of reading Robert Hare’s book, Without Conscience, followed immediately by Sylvia Nasar’s book about John Nash. It will soon become apparent how a psychopath could make such a contribution to science and win a Nobel Prize in economics.
Robert Hare once submitted a paper to a scientific journal. The paper included EEGs of several groups of adult men performing a language task. The editor of the journal returned the paper saying, “Those EEGs couldn’t have come from real people.” But they did. They were the EEG’s of psychopaths.
Some people have compared psychopathy to schizophrenia. However, there is a crucial distinction, as we will see:
Schizophrenia and psychopathy are both characterized by impulsive, poorly planned behavior. This behavior may originate from a weak or poorly coordinated response inhibition system. We tested the hypothesis that schizophrenia and psychopathy are associated with abnormal neural processing during the suppression of inappropriate responses.
The participants were schizophrenic patients, non-psychotic psychopaths, and non-psychotic non-psychopathic control subjects (defined by the Hare “Psychopathy Checklist, Revised”), all incarcerated in a maximum security psychiatric facility. We recorded behavioral responses and event-related potentials (ERPs) during a Go/No-Go task.
Results: Schizophrenic patients made more errors of commission than did the non-psychopathic offenders. As expected, the non-psychopathic non-psychotic participants showed greater frontal ERP negativity (N275) to the No-Go stimuli than to the Go stimuli. This effect was small in the schizophrenic patients and absent in the psychopaths. For the non-psychopaths, the P375 ERP component was larger on Go than on No-Go trials, a difference that was absent in schizophrenic patients and in the opposite direction in psychopaths.
Conclusions: These findings support the hypothesis that the neural processes involved in response inhibition are abnormal in both schizophrenia and psychopathy; however, the nature of these processes appears to be different in the two disorders. (K. A. Kiehl, A. M. Smith, R. D. Hare, P. F. Liddle, “An event-related potential investigation of response inhibition in schizophrenia and psychopathy,” Biological Psychiatry, 2000, vol. 48, no 3, pp. 173-183 (2 p.), pp. 210-221. This author’s emphases)
“More and more data are leading to the conclusion that psychopathy has a biological basis and has many features of a disease,” says Sabine Herpertz, a psychiatrist at the RWTH-Aachen University in Germany (Nature, 410, March 15, 2001).
The brain imaging techniques of positron emission tomography (PET) and magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) provide the opportunity to investigate psychopathy further. They might allow researchers to discover whether psychopaths’ physiological and emotional deficits can be pinned down to specific differences in the anatomy or activation of the brain.
Among researchers who are starting to explore this area, there are two main theories of psychopathy. One, championed by Adrian Raine of the University of Southern California in Los Angeles and supported by the work of Antonio Damasio of the University of Iowa, gives a starring role to a brain region called the orbitofrontal cortex. This is part of an area of the brain, known as the prefrontal cortex, involved in conscious decision-making.
The other theory, promoted by James Blair of University College London, holds that the fundamental dysfunction lies within the amygdala, a small almond-shaped structure that plays a critical role in processing emotion and mediating fear. Recently, using PET scanning, Blair has shown that activation of the amygdala in normal volunteers is involved in responding to the sadness and anger of others, and he hypothesizes that amygdala dysfunction could explain the lack of fear and empathy in psychopaths.
Blair points out that the two theories may not be mutually exclusive, as the orbitofrontal cortex, which does the “thinking”, and the amygdala, which does the “feeling,” are highly interconnected.
Following widespread concern that the criminal justice and mental health systems are failing to deal effectively with dangerous psychopaths, there is a movement in several countries to instigate fundamental legal reform. The most controversial suggestion is to make it possible for individuals who have severe personality disorders to be detained in secure mental institutions, even if they have been accused of no crime. Although these particular provisions have alarmed civil-liberties campaigners, the raft of measures also includes a major initiative within the prison service to improve the handling of those with Antisocial Personality Disorder (APD) — including psychopaths.
According to one individual who suffered at the hands of a psychopath: “The World has only one problem, Psychopaths. There are two basic types of Psychopaths, Social and Anti-Social. The essential feature of Psychopaths is a Pervasive, Obsessive-Compulsive desire to force their delusions on others. Psychopaths completely disregard and violate the Rights of others, particularly the Freedom of Association which includes the right not to associate and the Right to Love.”
We have come full circle. Over and over again we come up against that little problem: Religion and belief systems that have to be defended against objective evidence or the beliefs of others. We have to ask ourselves where these belief systems came from that so evidentially are catastrophic. Then, we have to think about the fact that now, in the present day, when many of these systems are breaking down and being replaced by others that similarly divert our attention away from what is, it becomes necessary to “enforce” a certain mode of thinking. That is what psychopaths do best.
Psychopaths dominate and set the standard for behavior in our society. We live in a world based on a psychopathic, energy-stealing food chain, because that’s just the way things are. Most people are so damaged they no longer have the capacity to even imagine a different system, based on a symbiotic network.
They are not only damaged by others, but also by the thousand little evils they have done to others to survive. For them to see the system for what it is would require them to see the part they have played in perpetuating it. That is a lot to ask of a fragile ego. Also, those who are not psychopaths, still want to make human connections but are afraid to, for fear of being taken advantage of and stolen from energetically speaking. [Thank you S.M. for such a clear explication!]
With the brief historical review we have examined, we are acutely aware that this is not a phenomenon confined to our present “time.” It is a trans-millennial program that, step by step, has brought us to our present position. What emerges in the present day is just Machiavellian diversion that focuses the attention of those who are easily deceived. This is reinforced by the “clappers” in the audience, and there seems to be an entire army of psychopaths among us whose job it is act as vectors of attention and direction. We hope that the readers of these pages will give themselves permission to imagine, research and implement a different way of being, and to stand up for themselves while doing it.
12-14-96
Q: (L) Along the lines of some of the things that I have been working on recently, I’d like to ask if there’s any more information you can give to us about the hypnotic-opener strobe-effect, and what it is preventing us from seeing. Is this one of the things that keeps us from expanding into the next density, in terms of awareness?
A: Not related to that. You see, the souls that are affected by all these “cloaking” techniques are vibrating on a low level anyway. The point is to block those who are blockable.
Q: (T) We’re not blockable? (L) Is there anything we can do to avoid this blocking? (T) We’re not being blocked.…
A: You are not blockable.
Q: (T) We are not being blocked. We’re beyond the blocking.
A: If you were, would you be doing this?
Q: (T) That type of blocking technique doesn’t work on us. There may be other blocking techniques, but that particular stuff doesn’t work. We either see or don’t see stuff, because we are either meant or not meant to see it. We don’t see UFOs anymore, because we don’t need to.
A: Not necessarily true.
Q: (L) OK, what is not necessarily true? Why don’t we see them any more?
A: “Don’t” does not equal “won’t.” If a Buick does not go by, you don’t see that, either! And if you are inside doing the laundry when Mr. Jones decides to take the old “Electra” for a spin, you do not see him, or his precious car, do you?
Q: (L) I don’t care, I’ve seen enough!
A: Oh, yes, you do care!!!
Q: (L) OK, yes, I care, but I’ve seen enough. I believe, I believe!!!
A: It is not up to you whether you want to see them or not. If they want you to see them, you will!
Q: (T) So, if they want us to see them, we’ll see them!
A: Yes, and they will, and you will!
Q: (T) They will and we will… yes, but, there’s a blocking technique being used on people to lower the vibrational frequency to prevent them from seeing them, right?
A: The blocking technique is for many things.
Q: (T) So that people do not understand what’s going on around them.
A: Yes. […] That is it, in a nutshell. See and know and think or… see, know and think that which is desired.
05-03-97
Q: The way I understood it is that a person can be an EM [electromagnetic] vector. Is that possible?
A: “Vector” means focuser of direction.
Q: Could that mean that EM waves can be vectored by a human being simply by their presence? I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]
Q: One of the things I have learned is that these individuals seem to attach via some sort of psychic hook that enters through our reactions of pity. Can you comment on the nature of pity?
A: Pity those who pity.
Q: But, the ones who are being pitied, who generate sensations of pity, do not really pity anybody but themselves.
A: Yes…?
Q: Then, is it true, as my son said, when you give pity, when you send love and light to those in darkness, or those who complain and want to be “saved” without effort on their own part, when you are kind in the face of abuse and manipulation, that you essentially are giving power to their further disintegration, or contraction into selfishness? That you are powering their descent into STS?
A: You know the answer!
Q: Yes. I have seen it over and over again. Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity, so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.
Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy sure is drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?
A: What do you think?
Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.
A: Or, at least not the important things. […]
Q: (L) Why is it that one of the primary things about us that seems to prevents us from acting against such situations, is our fear of hurting another person? […] Why are we so afraid of hurting someone’s feelings if they are hurting us?
A: Not correct concept. You do not need to “act against them,” you need to act in favor of your destiny.
Q: But, when you do that, these persons make you so completely miserable that there seems to be no other choice but a parting of the ways.
A: Yes, but that is not “acting against.” Quite the contrary. In fact, remember, it takes two to tango, and if you are both tangoing when the dance hall bursts into flames, you both get burned!!!
Q: Why is it that when one tries to extricate from such a “tango”… why is there is such violent resistance to letting you go when it is obvious, clearly obvious, that they do not have any feeling for you as a human being?
A: It is not “they.” We are talking about conduits of attack. […]
Q: Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?
A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.
Q: Where does this energy drain to?
A: 4th density STS.
Q: They drain our energy from us, and 4th density STS harvests it from them?
A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them!
Q: (T) Well, I would like to know what it is in us that makes us attracted to such people.
A: It was the idea of 4th density STS.
Q: That means that they can control your thoughts and emotions, put ideas into your head, and you think it is a good idea to “save” someone. You don’t know. It is taught in our religions and culture to give until it hurts, and, in fact, to give because it hurts. The whole situation is designed and controlled from another level. Any further comment on this subject?
A: Once you have truly learned the program, just plug it in.
Q: I guess once you have truly learned what is being said here, just plug it in.…
A: No. We mean that all you have to do is learn the patterns of behavior, the subtle signs, and you will always have the ability of avoiding it. Your own as well as others. […] Lesson number 1: Always expect attack. Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same. Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same. […] When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems. […] But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?
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“Why did man, through thousands of years, wherever he built scientific, philosophic, or religious systems, go astray with such persistence and with such catastrophic consequences? […] The answer lies somewhere in that area of our existence which has been so heavily obscured by organized religion and put out of our reach. Hence, it probably lies in the relation of the human being to the cosmic energy that governs him.” (Reich, 1949)
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“I want to appeal to your analytical mind…. Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.
“In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver — stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. […] Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them.” (Castaneda, 1998)
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“So that in the actual situation of humanity there is nothing that points to evolution proceeding. On the contrary, when we compare humanity with a man, we quite clearly see a growth of personality at the cost of essence, that is, a growth of the artificial, the unreal, and what is foreign, at the cost of the natural, the real, and what is one’s own.
“Together with this, we see a growth of automatism. Contemporary culture requires automatons. […] One thing alone is certain, that man’s slavery grows and increases. Man is becoming a willing slave. He no longer needs chains. He begins to grow fond of his slavery, to be proud of it. And this is the most terrible thing that can happen to a man.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
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Intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee the “cover-up.” As we’ve already repeated: A certain kind of “human being” acts on behalf of this cover-up. In this sense, psychopaths, as Alien Reaction Machines, are the playing pieces in the Secret Games of the Gods.
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Note: Since writing the chapters on John Nash, we have discovered the work of Polish psychologist Andzrej Lobaczewski, author of Political Ponerology. According to Lobaczewski, Polish psychologists had a highly developed understanding of psychopathy that was suppressed and destroyed by the communist regime. A reading of his book shows that their understanding of psychopathy was way ahead of its time. They had already determined that psychopathy was an inherited (not behavioral, and thus not “curable”) personality type that shows itself in a spectrum. The obvious psychopaths (like those described by Cleckley and Hare) play a lesser role in mass social problems, while the “socially-compensated” psychopaths are much harder to identify. Their “masks of sanity” are more consistent. Just recently, Robert Hare and Paul Babiak wrote a book on this type, called Snakes in Suits.
This science also included an understanding of various different types of inherited “psychopathies.” These include various “personality disorders,” known to Westerners as “borderline,” “schizoid,” “obsessive-compulsive,” “histrionic,” “dependent,” etc. However, Lobaczewski points out that the Western “types” often overlap and are imprecise. As such, various disorders (like frontal brain damage) are often confused with psychopathy, which Lobaczewski calls “essential psychopathy.”
One such psychopathy is “schizoidal psychopathy,” which seems to better describe John Nash. Lobaczewski describes schizoidal psychopathy in the following terms (this author’s emphasis in italics):
From the beginning, [schizoidia, or schizoidal psychopathy] was treated as a lighter form of the same hereditary taint which is the cause of susceptibility to schizophrenia. However, this latter connection could neither be confirmed nor denied with the help of statistical analysis, and no biological test was then found which would have been able to solve this dilemma. […] Carriers of this anomaly are hypersensitive and distrustful, while, at the same time, pay little attention to the feelings of others. They tend to assume extreme positions, and are eager to retaliate for minor offenses. Sometimes they are eccentric and odd. Their poor sense of psychological situation and reality leads them to superimpose erroneous, pejorative interpretations upon other people’s intentions.
They easily become involved in activities which are ostensibly moral, but which actually inflict damage upon themselves and others. Their impoverished psychological worldview makes them typically pessimistic regarding human nature. We frequently find expressions of their characteristic attitudes in their statements and writings: “Human nature is so bad that order in human society can only be maintained by a strong power created by highly qualified individuals in the name of some higher idea.” Let us call this typical expression the “schizoid declaration.”
Human nature does in fact tend to be naughty, especially when the schizoids embitter other people’s lives. When they become wrapped up in situations of serious stress, however, the schizoid’s failings cause them to collapse easily. The capacity for thought is thereupon characteristically stifled, and frequently the schizoids fall into reactive psychotic states so similar in appearance to schizophrenia that they lead to misdiagnoses.
The common factor in the varieties of this anomaly is a dull pallor of emotion and lack of feeling for the psychological realities, an essential factor in basic intelligence. This can be attributed to some incomplete quality of the instinctive substratum, which works as though founded on shifting sand. Low emotional pressure enables them to develop proper speculative reasoning, which is useful in non-humanistic spheres of activity, but because of their one-sidedness, they tend to consider themselves intellectually superior to “ordinary” people. […]
A schizoid’s ponerological activity should be evaluated in two aspects. On the small scale, such people cause their families trouble, easily turn into tools of intrigue in the hands of clever and unscrupulous individuals, and generally do a poor job of raising children. Their tendency to see human reality in the doctrinaire and simplistic manner they consider “proper” — i.e. “black or white” — transforms their frequently good intentions into bad results. However, their ponerogenic role can have macrosocial implications if their attitude toward human reality and their tendency to invent great doctrines are put to paper and duplicated in large editions.
The reader now knows a whole lot more than I did in the spring of 1999 when Vincent Bridges first wrote to me, after Ray Flowers forwarded to him my post to the Ancient Wisdom discussion list. And, as the reader who has read the emails will note, I was sending him a lot more information than I was receiving. Until this period of recapitulation, I never connected the interaction with Bridges to the things that followed immediately after, but looking back, it all seems very strangely synchronous, in the same way as the black cat walking by twice in the movie The Matrix.
In early June of 1999, a correspondent wrote and asked if I would like to join a discussion group on the subject of UFOs and aliens. For the most part, I steered clear of such things because I didn’t see too much fruitful research being done, and I had also been “burned” by my interaction with the Gray-hugging crowd at Mike Lindemann’s ISCNI (“Institute for the Study of Contact with Non-human Intelligence”). Nevertheless, because I was asked, I went over and had a look at the discussion board, and decided to make one “trial post.” Since I was crusading on behalf of Karla Turner, I thought that I would include a quote from her writings about abductions in an effort to make more people aware of some of her conclusions.
Looking back, of course, it’s easy to see that Karla’s death on January 9, 1996, is a perfect example of how “forces” might deal with someone who was getting entirely too close to the truth. She wasn’t “martyred,” in the obvious way of Jessup and Schneider and others, she was just quietly “disposed of.” In 1995, Karla contracted a very dangerous form of breast cancer immediately following an abduction experience. She died at the age of 48. Karla’s husband, Elton, had published the following remarks, which are more timely today than ever (the first portion of this article is quoted in book one of The Wave):
We, as a race, have never been free to discover our own true identity. Every social advance we attempt is thwarted by some maniac who springs up with almost divine grace to lead us into madness. Saint Paul, for instance, seems to have taken the real message of Jesus and his earliest followers and distorted it into something that we kill, lie and cheat for. And, in spite of all that, we still aspire for redemption of our souls. The followers of that doctrine — Christians, they call themselves — are not the only ones who behave in such a manner. Every major religion has managed to find an excuse in its teachings to destroy non-believing fellow human beings. A part of me shudders every time I hear of yet another killing based on 2,000-year-old hatreds.
What law allows us to continue with such atrocities? What influence keeps such hatred and fears alive? Why are we abductees so afraid to ask for real help from our own society?
We have been INVADED — but I do not yet believe that the battle is over. Invasion with sticks, knives or guns is a human reality, not necessarily a universal one. There are very sophisticated mechanisms being used in the invasion of our world. Why should our invaders use pointed sticks against us when they can get us to sharpen sticks and use them against each other? We provide them with everything they want from us, and they take none of the blame for our misery. They just zip around in their wonderful flying machines, dazzling us with their magical abilities and filling us with awe at their insight.
Can there be a more successful military campaign than one in which no shot is (apparently) fired and in which the conquered populace gladly and openly welcomes their enslavers? We are being programmed mentally and socially to accept our invaders as saviors, not a conquering force. I truly believe we are being deceived by smoke, mirrors and sleight-of-three-fingered-hand movements. Are we going to sell our birthright to some sneaky beings who appear on our shores in marvelous ships and offer us a few glitzy baubles?
The researcher asked if I personally knew of harm that has come to anyone at the hands of, or because of, the aliens. Yes, harm has come. My early youth was damaged severely by the unconscious knowledge that I was being used by some non-human agency. It took me 40 years to recognize that the fears which guided me daily were not of my own making and that the rebellion I constantly felt was engendered by my contempt for the powerful invisible agents that forced me to do things that I knew were wrong, even as I was doing them.
For example, I did not want to marry the person who became my first wife, yet I had no control over the decision. Before we were married, we were jointly abducted and subjected to severe programming. The results brought no happiness to either of us. We both starved for love and companionship, even though we tried with all our might to find them. My son (now 25) was also one of their subjects, and is miserable and lost. He is an artistic person with so many unknowable fears that he is paralyzed. I know of abductees MURDERED by mutilations (reports of which are suppressed immediately and completely), by cancers that no physician has ever seen before, and by madness that has led to suicide. In my opinion, these acts were not caused by “brothers” of any sort.
I do not believe that all is lost, however. I have felt a guiding hand that helped me to discover happiness and inner peace amid all this chaos and misery. What I have come to understand is that that hand is only there when I take responsibility for my own happiness and do something about whatever is bothering me.
Reality left in the hands of the invaders is neither what we need nor what we want. It is time that we think hard about ourselves and what we have on this gem of the universe, our home — our planet. There are laws governing the actions of our invaders, rules guiding their actions and patterns of behavior we can discover if we will make a concerted effort to discern them. We humans have something valuable that is desirable to, and usable by the alien forces acting on us. I feel it is time we take back that which is ours, that we use all our resources to discover the laws that govern reality and become the beings that we intrinsically know we are. (Turner, 1994)
The post I made to the UFO discussion board brought about an amazing flood of correspondence from abductees desperate for more rational information. I was overwhelmed with the realization that there were so many people looking for answers, and so much nonsense being propagated.
Apparently, one of the members of that discussion forwarded my post to a woman named Eve Lorgen, who had been working on a book titled The Love Bite, about the very types of situations described above by Elton Turner, wherein people are “programmed” to marry the wrong people, and then, because of the religious programming we receive from infancy, remained in marriages that were quite simply designed to diminish their capacity to grow as human beings. This is where we encounter a problem.
Over the years, as I had read about many instances of “personal growth” and “self-realization,” accompanied by a complete breakdown and restructuring of the life of the individual, most often including divorce, the idea nagged at the back of my mind that “if this is a good thing, how come so many people are getting hurt by it?” Until I had faced my own realization that “love” (as human beings think of it and try to manifest it) really has nothing to do with real spiritual love at all, I was stuck in the idea that a manifestation of enlightenment ought to confer on a person the almost magical ability to “fix” anything or anybody! If they were married to a monster, their “enlightenment” ought to enable them to “soothe the savage breast.” If they were in a state of some kind of suffering for financial or health reasons, their enlightenment ought to show them the way out and back to physical and fiscal health. And, of course, it ought to all be accomplished without anybody getting hurt! There should be no divorce, no breaking of promises and commitments, and most of all, they ought to all be just dancing around the Maypole and gazing into one another’s eyes in mutual admiration and delight.
By this time, I already knew that didn’t work. In fact, continuing to support those on the STS pathway only fueled their descent into deeper STS, drained the energy of the “codependent STO” person so that they had nothing to share with those who were like them, which prevented the establishment and growth of an STO dynamic, and effectively only continued to feed and perpetuate STS energy in our lives and our world. But Eve was now talking about “alien-orchestrated human-bonding dramas.” In short, she was saying that a lot of what we call “falling in love” is merely being chemically manipulated for nefarious purposes.
So, Eve wrote to me and wanted to talk shop. We did, extensively. She described her work, and her forthcoming book (www.alienlovebite.com), and I was very interested to discover that there were some few — very few — people who had a handle on some of these things, and were putting some of the pieces of the puzzle together in interesting ways.
A few days later, seemingly out of the blue, I received the following:
From: REngelm@….
Date sent: Tue, 15 Jun 1999 22:46:02 EDT
Subject: Being a guest on my radio program
My name is Ron Engelman.
I do a four-hour radio program on the Talk Radio Network from 2-6AM PDT, Monday through Friday, in 29 markets across the country. I have read small portions of your web site and I would be interested in having you as a guest on my show. I would be more than happy to allow you to promote any publications you may have, your web site, or any books you have in publication.
I look forward to hearing from you.
Ron
I wasn’t too sure I wanted to do such a thing. I had the idea that just putting the material on the website, letting those who were actively looking to just “find it,” and leave it at that. I wasn’t interested in any kind of promotion or hoopla (still am not), and even if I had been told that I had a talent for public speaking, it wasn’t among my favorite things to do. Yes, radio isn’t exactly “public,” but I had done it and all that had resulted in was Frank pouting and criticizing for weeks afterward, apparently because he hadn’t been asked to be a guest on a radio show. I didn’t see it as part of our “mission,” whatever that was, and I didn’t want to offend him.
Yes, I know, I was being manipulated by such emotional pressures, but it just seemed easier to “keep the peace” than to explain to Frank that nobody invited him to do anything because he didn’t do any work, had nothing interesting to say, and when he did start talking, rambled so much that everyone in the room was soon fidgeting and wishing to be somewhere else. When you feel sorry for somebody who is constantly complaining that everyone has always been mean to them, and no one has ever listened to them, it’s kind of hard to tell them that maybe there is a reason for it. Of course, you always think that if you just tolerate all the glitches, help them build up their self-esteem, that eventually they will become that dynamic and interesting person they say that they have always wanted to be.
But, rather than just say “No,” in the event that the Universe was in favor of this radio interview, I decided to leave it open, but still register my reservations. Maybe if I acted hesitant, the guy would say “Forget it,” and the decision would be out of my hands anyway? I wasn’t even sure how he thought I could do this. Did I have to travel somewhere? If so, never mind. Funny how we play these mind games with ourselves. I wrote back to Mr. Engelman:
To Ron Engelman:
Date sent: Wed, 16 Jun 1999 19:51:28 -0400
Hi!
Thank you for your interest. I would like to know what the format is and the general “trend” of the subjects you cover. I would also like to know exactly HOW such an “appearance” would be engineered?
I don’t really have anything to “promote” except my website, which is a total mess today after I was making changes.… And, I don’t really think there is much of a market for my husband’s latest book: Conference Proceedings of the Xth Max Born Symposium, “Quantum Future.” It’s not exactly gonna be a best seller!
And, I ought to tell you that I DID a talk show once in Tampa… WFLA…everyone agreed that it was a tremendous success… lots of callers and all that… but the Deejay was “terminated” very soon after and has never worked in radio again. He is now selling real estate. Of course, it COULD be unrelated… but he had a good “following.”
And then, there was the television appearance… the newscaster who decided that I would be an interesting person to interview for a “human interest” segment on the evening news ALSO is no longer employed in the media. The only one who has survived interviewing me is a St. Pete Times journalist who has not finished the writing project, so nothing is yet in print. And may never be.…
I would like to think about it after I have some more information, if that is okay.
Best,
Laura Knight-Jadczyk
I feel guilty to this day for Johnny Dollar getting canned from WFLA in Tampa back in 1995. The way it all happened was that I had a hypnosis client who came for the standard “relaxation” therapy. He turned out to be an executive at the corporate offices of a radio station conglomerate that owned, at the time, most of the radio stations in the area. It now owns all of them, or so I understand. In any event, this client, in addition to having a lot of fun with hypnosis, was very interested in all the other things we were doing and asked many questions. Over time, he came to know the full range of the material and the Cassiopaeans’ perspective, and he just decided one day I ought to talk on the radio. I told him I didn’t think I could do it, and he said he was sure I could, and he would set me up with a real pro who would manage everything so smoothly that I wouldn’t have to do a thing!
Since Tom French was still hanging out with us, and I had been pretty much sworn to secrecy about his project, I thought I had better ask him what he thought about it, since I didn’t want to have anybody “scoop” him, so to say. I had committed to his project, and if that meant I had to turn down other things, that was fine with me.
Well, Tom, of course, didn’t want me to mention his research, but he was excited about the idea of me doing a radio show. He wanted to be there.
Frank, as usual, started a major program of instructing me on what to say and not say; it was pretty clear from everything he was saying that he must have been convinced I was an idiot. I think he still thinks so. But, at the time, I figured that he was just feeling threatened, and being in the “save Frank” mode, I was more inclined to try to find ways to appease him than anything else. I said that I would only do the radio show if the whole gang could go with me. Frank beamed. He was already dreaming of radio stardom. I decided, if that is what makes him happy, I’m going to try to finagle it so he can talk on the radio. I was told that the space in the room that the broadcast was done was limited, so with Frank, another group member, Tom French and Cherie Diez, the Times photographer, it was going to be pretty tight; and, as my friend in the business confided to me: Better keep Frank off the air or he would make all of us look stupid. I was a little bit offended on Frank’s behalf, but I knew exactly what he meant. Frank had to be protected even from himself. But, I didn’t have to tell him that. He could still go and be there for the show and have a little fun. Terry and Jan agreed to listen and tape the show from home.
When we arrived at the station to do the show, I was surprised to discover that Johnny Dollar had made a sort of “event” out of it. He had made arrangements for Mike Lindemann and some other woman to be participants via telephone, and it somehow ended up being a debate over whether or not aliens were here to help us or not. A good segment of the show was devoted to the subject of the alien autopsy film, and at the end of the debate, the consensus was that I had made a very respectable presentation. I was just glad that I hadn’t gotten all tongue-tied and hadn’t made a fool of myself. The main thrust of my comments were that the alien reality was a hyperdimensional one, and it seemed, based on the evidence so far, that humanity was not at the top of the food chain. Even Johnny Dollar was convinced.
And the next day, without warning, he was fired.
My friend, the executive at the station offices, still stays in touch and visits occasionally. He is still convinced that Johnny was fired because of that show, and both of them still talk about it on the occasions when they have lunch together. The only way my friend managed to keep his own job was because he arranged for Johnny to invite me himself, and he was never “connected” to the event.
But back to the story. Summer of 1999: Eve Lorgen had suggested that I might want to get in touch with the fellow who was publishing her book, a Mr. Hank Harrison, to inquire about publishing the Cassiopaeans’ material. I wrote to him, and he wrote back giving me a website address. I checked his site and noticed that he had published a book or two on the subject of the Holy Grail. I was intrigued. After a few more exchanges, I ordered his book. He then suggested we talk via telephone and sent his number. We played phone tag for a few days and finally connected for a discussion.
Meanwhile, Ark and I were watching the fascinating parade of sometimes-crazy antics of guys-with-brains on the “Sarfatti” list. There was a guy on the list named Dick Farley, who I had been introduced to some years ago by my friend Blue. Blue had told me that Dick Farley (a.k.a. “Cloudrider”) was as close to “Deep Throat” as anybody in the UFO community could get, and that his “take” on subjects connected to same, as well as covert intelligence, was very insightful. I had my doubts about anybody who would talk about such things openly really being an “insider,” but I usually did find Cloudrider’s commentary to be interesting, if not downright entertaining on occasion. At this point in time, Dick made some remarks that qualified as both:
Date sent: Mon, 21 Jun 1999 10:28:25 -0700
Subject: Re: Tabloid disinformation, but a question about context…anybody?
Dr. S,
The supermarket tabloid “Weekly World News” (WWN) has long played an easily demonstrable role in disinformation, often government-related, and with excellent timing disclosing or obfuscating pending releases of previously secure information, for deflections. “UFOs,” parapsychology, psi-spying and exotic physics are routine.
The current issue has an uncharacteristically interesting “disclosure” related to the topics frequently discussed on your list. I’m just tossing it out for informal assessing by anybody interested. It suggests “time travel,” with the usual WWN chaff & fluff.
The story claims the FBI is holding a “time traveler” from our future at a remote farm, apparently in New England. The story, ostensibly reported by “Australian journalist Theodore Dumane,” claims that a male, age 47, “appeared” on 24 Jan 1999 next to a dumpster at a supermarket parking lot in Woburn, MA. His “time machine” had had a breakdown, and his appearance in our time was “an accident.” He was stuck here.
The guy reportedly showed up at “a Harvard research facility,” where security people believed he could be a spy and called in the Feds. The FBI is said to have located the guy in Boston, where he was taken into custody and remains today, WWN says.
Of course, the WWN story suggests the FBI is grilling the guy and learning all sorts of cool stuff about the next 423 years, since the fellow reportedly came back from Year 2422. Although not up there with the “Bat Boy” and “Hillary has alien baby,” the piece is fascinating in terms of content analysis in context with previous WWN stuff which later related accurately to eventual “mainstream” disclosures. (Lockheed’s “stealth ship” is one example; Dr. Leo Sprinkle, UFO/abduction therapist in Laramie, Wyoming being “outed” on WWN’s cover, in 1988, is another, as was CIA “psi/spy” story breaking in WWN disinformation context to deflect mainstream “retail” news.)
Some of you folks on this list are apparently ready to “do the math” that establishes the theoretical basis for what WWN is suggesting and confabulating, so if past is prelude to the future, somebody might be getting “too close,” or stumbling into areas where “mad scientists” from contraband programs are institutionalized and, in this case, one may have “gotten loose.” Hey, it’s happened before. (And then there were the Marconi “suicides” in the U.K., and last week’s “suicide” of Australia’s topmost intelligence official in this country…but those are other stories, for other times.)
If you have any insights into this, or contextual information, it would be appreciated. Thanks, Dick Farley.
P. S. — The issue of WWN of which I speak is easy to find. The cover story this week is that somebody “dug up” Elvis, and the body in the grave at Graceland wasn’t his!!!
P. P. S. — Personally, I wondered whether the “time traveler” might not have been a Dan Smith clone, sent back from the future to locate the “real” Dan Smith now-time. But seeing that someone at least using Dan’s identity is still transmitting messages, that theory will have to fall to one perhaps somebody on your list will put forward. DF
The initial reaction of the physicists on the list was that the story was probably false, but that the idea ought to be investigated. Jack Sarfatti wrote:
This is an interesting story. Probably fiction. If true FBI and or CIA should have me and my people interview the guy ASAP. But consider the source. It’s probably not true. It may be part of a disinformation effort to debunk what I am doing in which case we should expect such things to really happen with increasing frequency. This is part of what Dan Smith calls the “Eschaton.” Jacques Vallee has described it more scientifically in his books.
Dick Farley wrote back in response to Jack’s comments:
Dr. S.,
I agree that it’s most likely false, but your sensitivity to the possibility that it may be indirectly targeting the spheres in which you’re exploring is an excellent reflex. Back in 1988, when some friends (and benefactors) and I were approached by Linda Howe about funding a video on the “Mars Face,” we had an encounter with the WWN.
Linda arranged for us (three, including myself) to accompany her to The Analytical Sciences Corporation (TASC), near Boston, where Dr. Marc Carlotto was working on image analysis, and where the “Mars Face” photo-interp had been done. Our team had interest in something scientifically balanced, at least raising the questions but at the same time including Marc’s “caveats” about the image density and uncertainties.
Even more interesting, to us and to Marc at that juncture (August 1988), was what he was exploring about fractal analyses when applied to the larger Mars field of view. He had just identified several other possible anomalous formations. That in itself was scientifically intriguing for any movie…but Linda and her cadre of handlers didn’t see it that way, apparently. Even though “our team” had agreed already to fund half of the $95,000 Linda had said she’d need to do the film, the deal “fell through.” Seemed to me that she and her handlers preferred the “sensationalized pseudo-science” of Dick Hoagland and other disinformationists, feeding into the more bizarre and mystical of theories as we’ve seen promulgated in the intervening eleven years.
Jump to WWN!
A few short weeks after our visit to TASC, when it appeared that the “Mars Face” in context would get a viewing in the video WE were interested in helping to get made, the WWN launched a series of cover stories about the “Mars Face Talking to Earth!” Imagine the impact of that on mainstream interest? My sense has been that Linda is part of the cadre which spins such yarns, acting either as an asset for “intell” or she is a dupe. She was too good of a reporter to fall for the whole thing, at least initially. But she is now well hooked, if her behaviors at Rockefeller’s JY Ranch symposium (which I’d had a hand in organizing when I was with the Human Potential Foundation, 9/13/93) are any indication. Since then, she’s worked for Bigelow and with Art Bell?
So, the WWN has an uncanny sense of timing when it comes to highlighting REAL scientific breakthroughs or potentials therefore, in areas which touch on the sensitive.
Heads up!
Regards,
Dick Farley
My head was certainly up and I was definitely paying attention to that thread! Time travel? Linda Howe being co-opted? And, of course, we see some of the early hints about the Stargate Conspiracy. The next couple of posts were somewhat confusing, however. Obviously, a conversation was taking place over my head:
Date: Tue, 22 Jun 1999 16:14:04 EDT
From Ira Einhorn
Dick wrote:
As for Jacques and Colin, both of whom I respect immensely and in Jacques’ case, whom I’ve had the pleasure of meeting and exchanging information with for a time, it must be remembered that both of them play for the same team.
Ira wrote:
What team? I can’t speak for Jacques [Vallee] any more, BUT we were real close back then and he played for no team to my knowledge.
Colin [Wilson] and I are still close and TEAM? Please define the parameters better.
Thanks for the info. on Linda whom I know not at all and not a line of her work. I know she got screwed; that is all. She has spent time with my closest friend who felt she was an alien.
ira
Who was this Ira guy? What did he know, having been “close” to Jacques Vallee and still close to Colin Wilson, a writer whose work I admire? The response from Dick Farley to Ira’s post was puzzling in the extreme:
From: Dick Farley
Date: Tue, 22 Jun 1999 16:14:04 EDT
Ira,
So, what’s an “alien” THESE days, eh? An honest American?
Regarding Linda being “an alien.” Having read the book “about you” (The Unicorn’s Secret, albeit with caveats to you that as a writer, I could see through the chaff and half-told stories, glosses, etc.) and some of your remnant stuff still in circulation, I’d suggest that while you’re whiling away your time in France, you consider a new front of consideration. Kind of the “poetic” side of the quantum-entity thing, which is not a far cry from Vallee’s and Wilson’s thoughts about this.
From Jacques I learned about Phyllis Schlemmer and her earlier experiences with monks, who used her gifts to aid in their (monks) discernments about whether certain folks coming to the monastery for help (“personality” problems) were maybe “possessed” (i.e., resident entities).
Vallee’s published stuff has led the UFO discussion in this direction for thirty years, and it is what attracted me to him and caused me to solicit his participation in the early aspects of Laurance Rockefeller’s “UFO Disclosure Initiative” to the Clintonista White House, which I staffed from October ‘92 until I departed on my own accord in April of ‘94, information which I provide only for chronological context.
Jacques came east and consulted a couple of times, then met with Rockefeller (and John Mack), but then told us (me, personally, etc.) he was uncomfortable with the direction those other folks wanted to take it…i.e., they were taking it like “true believers.” I’ve not shared that “online” as my CloudRider persona, but what we were and are dealing in, as you WELL know, is “something that’s real,” (although pushing the definitions of reality), and which powerful oligarchs and their court wizards are desperate to control or at least be the interlocutors of planetary and interdimensional contact. That would be spelled “P-R-I-E-S-T-H-O-O-D” if we were having a cultural anthropology chat, eh?
What the primary “trap” is for those who engage interdimensionality as an operant or contextual paradigm for scholarship and analysis, is that we can “handle it” with our three-dimensional egos and a dash of creativity and intellectual “wild west” bravado.
I suggest your own experiences, even as described by your friends interviewed and I acknowledge undoubtedly selectively quoted or misquoted by the author with a bias, describe someone essentially “out of control” and tumbling through hyper-space with no gyroscope to point the way to “consensus reality” where there WAS none to find. Add in the psycho-cybernetics and pharmacological enhancement experimentation, and to use a sailing phrase, you were sailing downwind in a full gale also in full sail.
When I got to the same place, albeit without the pharmacological component at that juncture, I “reefed” my sails, hove to and let the storm blow itself out.
And my family and I almost didn’t make it, anyway. We took a lot of “green water over the bow,” as the Dark Side did its damnedest to derail and destroy us. We’ve survived thus far, still right side up and pointy end going first…which is about the barest one needs to still be considered “sailing” and not shipwrecked.
Personally, I could have been you, not to paraphrase Linda Tripp, but in all seriousness. I identified considerably with your excesses and ego-overdrive as you confronted and became enmeshed in a “reality” that is excruciatingly enthralling and exciting when compared to “standard 3-D now.”
And the sensual overloads, the powerful intuitive and “psycho-sexual” components (which seem to be an “occupational hazard” for certain male types exploring in these realms…I mean in all seriousness, which ought to be explored and is rather well so in Janet & Chris Morris’s “The Stalk,” which I’ve mentioned in past postings), all of these are consistent with my own experiences and not a few other men I’ve known.
Without the discipline of a philosophical and psycho-physical context, we Westerner types were tumbling in that interdimensional milieu like a cat in a clothes dryer. It’s all warm and fuzzy, but terrifyingly so…and we can’t make it stop when we’re scared.
Others, like Leary, Murphy and now-aging “counter-cultural” explorers who now are “the Establishment” New Agers and marketers of “alt.lifestyle,” got off the elevator at “ladies lingerie” or “sporting goods.”
Guys like you kept pushing, climbing, seeking up and up, above the tree-line, as it were. Eventually, you were rock-climbing onto the highest Himilayan ledges and ridges, looking for God or whoever it is the Dalai Lama and others are communing with as they seek guidance and carry out orders of the “King of the World,” (spelled “priest-kings”) and following threads in a tapestry all but invisible to the rest of us uninitiated. Power untamed and undisciplined is deadly!
Which brings me to something that helped me develop a working vocabulary, albeit one which is heavily loaded with semantic and cultural baggage…but which once I’d worked it though, proved helpful. A dentist-turned-hypnotherapist-cum Ph.D., a man with great compassion and keen insight, plus a lot of inherent integrity (at least in the early stages of his work, and still so for the most part now), took a clean, fresh look at some of the stuff Roger Woolger and others were doing. His name is Dr. Bill Baldwin, and he developed his doctoral thesis into a “Spirit Releasement Therapy & Past Life Regression Manual,” which is available. He and his wife Judith do the usual trainings and teaching sessions, but have avoided the “cult-like” self-adulatory styles of so many others who come upon useful operational paradigms. You may find Bill’s book interesting, perhaps helpful, as there is a rather extensive, well-indexed series of clinical and anecdotal narratives, session transcripts and contextual information. It goes where Vallee and Wilson have pointed, is consistent with a lot of what “The Nine” and variants have described, but it remains VERY “human centered” and solid.
Bill’s approach is, “Hey, it doesn’t matter whether you ‘believe’ this or not, it’s simply my clinical experience.” And some of the results he’s achieved were independent of the client’s “belief system” or theological context, actually in most of his cases are.
The point? Linda Howe’s perhaps being “an alien” is not a joke, in the sense that she may have…indeed, my sense after spending various amounts of time with her over the years, in very different contexts spanning now twelve years…opened herself to a kind of “attachment” of the sort Baldwin describes, especially in the “E.T. context.”
Baldwin puts phraseologies into this context that transcend all of the old Catholic or “demonic” biases, although he’s very clear about the right of humans NOT to have to be manipulated or have energy drained by attaching or embedded entities of various energies and intentionalities.
With your encyclopedic background, I recommend this. Baldwin’s book is most readily available from Headline Books, Inc., which took over publishing of it after the Human Potential Foundation Press foundered at the demise of that foundation. Publisher Bob Teets also has a couple of other books you ought to have, if you don’t already: “UFOs and Mental Health,” (1997), to which I and Walt Bowart contributed in addition to Bob’s breezy but focused narratives; and “West Virginia UFOs: Close Encounters in the Mountain State” (1995), an excellent, very readable journalistic style narrative of various stories…mostly firsthand, not the old rehashes of Gray Barker’s and John Keel’s stuff (although Keel liked the book and is complimentary of Bob’s (et al.) work… and which has more than just UFO stories in it.
Bob’s (and my) experiences working with Bill Baldwin color his approach to what he wrote in “West Virginia UFOs,” and the mix is a fascinating exercise in what we called, “Applied Jacques Vallee.” In short, Baldwin’s approach is “good armament.”
Give it a try. Give Bob a shout, or have somebody stateside do it:
Headline Books, Inc.,
P. O. Box 52, Terra Alta, WV, 26764.
Order 1-800-570-5951.
Tell ‘em Dick sent you. Ask for some back issues of “The American UFO Newsletter,” also. It’s NOT your average “UFO rag.” Bob’s read a lot of your stuff also, and knows I was tracking “their” tracking of you since at least 1988. Why? Because of what I described to you in the preceding…I recognized some of what happened to you, then and subsequent.
There but for the grace of The Force, God or whoever, could have gone I. Maybe still. One must keep up one’s discernment and screen for “dark ones,” wherever it may be that “they” germinate…i.e., in the provinces of the mind…or “someplace else.” Keep up your guard…Guard your mind!
And remember, humor is a sign of “sanity” yes? It all goes toward the “weird” elements reported variously as happening to Kit Green & Pat and those guys, at the fringes. And it’s what the “debunkers and skeptics” are perhaps well-intentionedly working so hard to keep from being considered seriously.
“Who” killed Holly? Perhaps the answers reside somewhere “in there,” as described. Baldwin’s work with Vietnam-era veterans is “worth the price of admission,” and I’ve heard his audio tapes he uses in his training sessions, (one of which I’ve completed).
Whatever is going on, and something IS going on, if you explore without considering what Bill’s developed for protections and appreciations of the “dangers,” it’s like free-climbing a sheer face. It may be a macho thrill, but it’s a VERRRRY long way down.
As noted, I was somewhat confused by all this. I didn’t “get it” that Dick was suggesting to Ira that he was possessed. There were references being made that were obscure to me, but the one thing I was certain about was that I agreed with Dick’s assessment of the UFO/alien reality as having something of the “flavor” of demonic possession, though I wanted to emphasize to them that it would be dangerous to think that this was all there was to it. I wrote back to Dick privately with these concerns, and then, since this fellow “Ira” seemed to be connected in some way, I copied to him also. I quoted some of the Cassiopaean material on the para-physical nature of the hyperdimensional reality, and thought that would be that. A day or so later, I received a private communication from Ira to me, via Ark.
From Ira Einhorn
Subject: Re: For laura
Date sent: Thu, 24 Jun 1999 14:23:52 -0400
I would to be happy to dialogue with you, after going through your comments more carefully, as I think we are essentially in agreement.
I lived through years of the most fantastic phenomena without ever buying the mythology attached to them. The phenomena were very real and of almost daily occurrence; the myth attached to them was pure projection, BUT the unknown frightens people and living in vanilla reality forces people to project, so when the paranormal becomes the daily reality the desire to have an explanation grows exponentially.
It began almost 30 years ago in a very different social climate, and the intell. groups were initially freaked. If that different context is not understood, the rest becomes very confusing.
There is so much noise about that the signal tends to get lost which is unfortunate for those who establish real connections with sources: a byproduct of our particular moment in time, alas.
ira
Meanwhile, I had received an email from Ron Engelman who assured me that, since he had stayed online with David Koresh during the Waco event — and that the government hadn’t shut him down over that, though they tried — I could be certain that he was not easily intimidated, and if he wanted me on his show, I didn’t have to worry about him losing his job. The show was scheduled for July 2. I wrote back to Ron that the info about Waco was interesting, maybe he would like to read the Cassiopaeans’ comments on it. I enclosed them, including the subsequent comments about O.J. Simpson, just because they had proven to be correct and were of general interest.
10-05-94
Q: (L) Did the United States government deliberately murder the Branch Davidians at Waco?
A: Close. Led them to destroy themselves.
Q: (L) How?
A: Psychological warfare tactics.
Q: (L) Did the US government set their compound on fire?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who set the compound on fire?
A: Branch Davidians. Drove them crazy.
Q: (L) Were ELF or subliminals used?
A: Yes. As well as other means.
Q: (L) Did OJ Simpson kill his wife?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he take the murder clothes and weapon to Chicago and leave it there in a bag as some people are saying?
A: No.
Q: (L) Where is it?
A: L.A. dump. One of them.
Q: (L) Is OJ Simpson going to be found guilty?
A: No.
Next, I finally connected with Hank Harrison to discuss publishing matters. During the course of the conversation, I brought up the subject of hyperdimensional realities, and he snorted something about “Ira Einhorn.” I was taken aback, and asked him did he know the guy, and if so, what was the story?
Hank proceeded to enlighten me about Ira, and claimed to have spent time with him while Ira was in hiding in Ireland. Hank went on to talk about his close friendship with Jack Sarfatti, which surprised me; and Ira was, it seems, a convicted murderer on the lam and, as far as Hank was concerned, he was guilty and no amount of claiming “the CIA set me up” was sufficient to ameliorate that guilt.
I pointed out that Eve’s ideas about “alien orchestrated dramas” might lend credibility to Ira’s theory, and Hank went off about Eve’s book in a very negative way, which surprised me since he was supposed to be publishing it. At the end of the discussion, I was sure of one thing and one thing only — Hank Harrison was not the person to handle the Cassiopaean material, and I wondered why Eve was letting him handle hers. But, more than that, having all of these strange things connecting in some kind of crazy circle was disconcerting, to say the least.
I went on a search for information about Ira Einhorn, and after discovering the details of his crime, I was pretty shocked. I was also really curious: He was declaring vociferously that he didn’t do it, that he was set up. I could certainly admit to such a possibility even if the evidence in his case really made him look guilty. I decided to just leave that alone and wait and see what happened if he ever wrote back to me.
The very next thing that happened was that Ron Engelman called to tell me that for some strange reason the time he had slotted for a show had been canceled — the whole schedule had been switched around and he had no idea what was going on. I just said: “I told you so!” Ron said: “I’ll tell you this, you will be on the air, and soon. I promise.”
Meanwhile, Eve wrote about a whole series of disconcerting events in her life related to her book. Her computer crashed, she started getting the “bum’s rush” from some former supporters, and just a general melee was going on in her life. I decided to ask the Cassiopaeans about this very strange series of oddly connected events. Why was it that the instant Eve and I began comparing notes, all of these strange little “connections” popped up? Why did it all circle around Ira Einhorn?
07-03-99
Q: I would like to find out what was the deal with this radio show? Ron Engelman invited me to be on his show, and the day before it was scheduled, he called telling me his schedule had been changed and I had been canceled. Why was it canceled?
A: Maybe others complained.
Q: Who were these others who might have complained
A: Others scheduled to appear.
Q: What did they complain about?
A: Your purported agenda.
Q: What agenda did they object to?
A: Us, my dear.
Q: Well, that does seem to be true. We do get more than our share of attack. I just want you to know that, for the most part, it is a thankless task.
A: Which means you are on the right track.
Q: [Laughter] Well, if the Gray Huggers don’t bomb us, or the scientific types don’t bomb us, then somebody else does! Okay, recently there were some serious questions being brought up on one of the mailing lists about Linda Howe being ‘co-opted’ for disinformation purposes. A number of seemingly reputable people have pointed out coincidences in clear disinformation and her work. I have always felt that, of all the people out there doing research, she was truly sincere and clear headed. Could you comment on that possibility?
A: Linda is not co-optable.
Q: Why is she hanging out with folks who do seem to definitely be co-opted and promulgating such clear disinformation?
A: The “modus” is not to be confused with the “operandi.”
Q: There was a strange little series of events last week involving Ron Engelman, Eve Lorgen, Hank Harrison, Dick Farley, and Ira Einhorn who wrote me a couple of e-mails. I would like to know, what is the deal with Ira? Either this guy is completely crazy to have lived for 18 months with a dead body in his apartment, completely egotistical, and believes nobody else is as smart as he is, or the whole deal was planted to shut him up, or he was Greenbaumed. Now, did I miss any possibilities, is it one of these, or is it something else altogether?
A: Maybe he did what he did, and then convinced himself that he did not a la O.J. Simpson.
Q: In this whole situation, who or what was the portal connecting all of these things?
A: To find portal, retrace steps until you find the ray peeking through the blinds.
Q: (A) Was it coming through me?
A: No.
Q: Well… it all started when I began to communicate with Eve.
A: No. It was not Eve. She is under attack for her revelations.
Q: (L) Can you give me another clue? “The ray peeking through the blinds…”
A: Yes.
I was a bit startled at the mention of O.J. Simpson, since I had included the Simpson clip in the email to Ron. But, more than anything, I wanted to know what was the “connector.” The Cassiopaeans said to “retrace steps until you find the ray peeking through the blinds.”
I was completely baffled. The whole thing seemed like so improbable a series of odd connections that I knew there was something at play here. I just couldn’t figure out what. And, in fact, until I began to analyze things in terms of the chronology, I just didn’t get it. The “ray” peeking through the blinds?
Of course: Ray Flowers and Vincent Bridges. The “portal” connecting all of these things.
Now, if my brain had been firing on all cylinders at the time, I would have immediately known the “connecting principle.”
Another odd connection that occurs to me as I write all of the above is the fact that I had my last communication with Karla Turner at about the same time as I did the radio show with Johnny Dollar. In the above series of events, it was a post about Karla Turner’s work that led Eve Lorgen to write to me, followed almost immediately by the email from Ron Engelman about another radio show. Then, there was the Ira Einhorn thing right in my face, connected to time travel and co-opting and people being manipulated by other forces. Oy. The Universe speaks to us in oh, such mysterious ways!
Again, I want to make it clear that it is impossible for me to say whether or not human beings are “conscious” in these Theological Dramas. In many, if not most, cases, I think that everybody is just doing what they have to do according to how their internal circuitry is laid out. And, some people love light, while some people love the darkness.
So, in order to freely explore this strange connection that only today begins to make sense, in terms of the activation of the crypto-geographic being in the Secret Games of the Gods, let’s have a look at the Unicorn. We will see that there may indeed be an archetypal connection between Ira Einhorn, Vincent Bridges and the entire subject of psychopathy that we have been exploring.
September 11, 2001: Attack on America. I am sure that it is not lost on the reader that it was exactly 24 years to the day, on 9/11/77, that Holly Maddux was brutally murdered. Ira Einhorn was tried in absentia, all the evidence was presented, and a jury of his peers decided that Ira did it. It seems clear from the medical examiner’s report that Ira must have been in such a frenzy that, even though the first one or two blows probably killed her, he continued slamming her delicate skull over and over again until there was nothing left recognizable of her former beauty or identity as a human being.
Forensic psychologists tell us that when a person is murdered by repeated bashing of the head, it is invariably done by someone who knows them and is enraged with them, who seeks to destroy the source of their thinking and words which the killer cannot tolerate. As the Cassiopaeans said: “Maybe [Einhorn] did what he did, and then convinced himself that he did not, a la O.J. Simpson.”
In short, Holly Maddux was sacrificed on the altar of Ira Einhorn’s ego. He had lost control of Holly, and Ira Einhorn was all about control — control of others.
Many of the principals involved in the case are also now dead. Holly’s father, unable to come to terms with the brutal death of his beloved little girl, committed suicide in 1988. Her mother died two years later of emphysema — no longer able to breathe the air of a world in which something so horrible could occur without any hope of justice. R. J. Pearce, the former FBI agent turned private-detective who doggedly pursued the “Unicorn,” has also passed on, along with Ira’s buddy from his heydays, Jerry Rubin.
Right up to the present moment, Ira Einhorn insists that he did not murder Holly Maddux, that he was “framed” by shadowy organizations because of his “studies” and associations with those doing experiments in psychotronics (see “Einhorn” section of bibliography). Andrija Puharich is also dead, and most interestingly, before he died he had come to some very different ideas about the entire situation: He scoffed at the idea that studies and information about psychotronics could ever lead to a plot to frame Ira for Holly’s death. It is remarkable that so conspiracy-minded an individual as Puharich eventually evaluated what Ira was doing as not sufficiently important to attract attention from any intelligence agency, whether CIA, KGB or some other nefarious strike force. And, of all people, Puharich was most familiar with the nature of the information Einhorn was dealing with since, for the most part, it came from Puharich himself. This also suggests a significant change in Puharich’s mind about what he himself was doing, that he might now believe that the information about “psychic warfare” was false, or that it was disinformation.
In the months following his arrest, Ira Einhorn looked many people straight in the eye and said “I did not kill Holly.” The famous intensity of his gaze engaged the doubter and, for the moment he was focused on them, their doubts were cast aside.
Do you know me as a violent person?
Why would I kill Holly Maddux, a woman I loved?
Even if I did kill her — and I didn’t — would I really be so stupid as to leave the body in the trunk in my apartment for so long?
For many of Ira’s friends, this last point was compelling evidence that he was framed. Somebody who would keep a corpse in his closet, just a few feet from his bed, was not the Ira they knew, who was clear-thinking and practical. Ira pushed the point by reminding everyone that all during the time that Holly’s body was “supposedly” stuffed in his closet, he was entertaining friends, women, and so forth. If he really had a body in the closet, would he be so stupid?
His friends kept saying: This is not “classic Ira.”
Ira would go through the list of contradictions between the actual situation and what other people knew about him based on his “public persona”; and the way he presented those “facts,” it always seemed weighted in his favor. He was so cunning that, in his presence, listening to him talk, the majority of people would come away believing he was innocent.
There were a couple of people who had seen Holly with bruises that she admitted were a result of fights with Ira. But Arlen Specter argued that no one had witnessed Ira striking Holly, so the testimony that Ira had ever previously struck Holly was “hearsay.” The judge did not agree.
Jerry Rubin told Ira that he could do a great deed for the world by admitting he had killed Holly, and then proclaim himself an example of an overdose of male domination, one of the problems in our world. Then, after paying his debt to society, Rubin went on, Ira could found an institute to study the problem of male violence.
Ira said it was an “interesting idea but irrelevant,” since he didn’t kill Holly.
Arlen Specter thought that Ira’s best hope was in an insanity defense. But Ira flatly refused. There was nothing wrong with his mind, and there was no way he was going to go along with any such idea. To him, claiming insanity was as much a disaster as admitting killing Holly — both actions would “discredit his lifetime work.” His credibility would be in ashes, and nobody would believe that his ideas were legitimate ever again. The psychopath knows that admitting a lie is the end. Once they have done so, they have lost the one power over others on which they depend: The ability to lie with such flair that gullible, well-meaning people can always be found to believe them.
As the weeks went by, Arlen Specter realized the negative political implications of being associated with Einhorn, and turned the defense over to Norris Gelman. Ira kept boasting that he was going to expose the frame-up. His attorneys certainly hoped he had something along that line to produce, but apparently he didn’t. “You think the Russians came… and threw a beam on him?” Gelman, who was privy to Ira’s best information, mocked in derision of the very idea.
Gelman didn’t urge Ira to cop insanity. “The most brilliant defendant that ever hit City Hall, and I’m going to claim he was insane? No way!” Instead, Gelman’s hopes were pinned on just a careful refuting of the evidence, point by point, and minimizing what could be minimized in that which was out-and-out damning. If he could just establish a “reasonable doubt,” that was the best that could be expected.
Needless to say, Ira wasn’t happy with that plan.
Ma Bell dropped Ira like a hot potato. Many of Ira’s friends (see bibliography), as they learned more about the case, began to drop him and withdraw. One friend who did maintain ties walked down the street with him one day, and Ira noticed that people no longer came up to him to hug him, happy to be seen in his presence. Instead, they avoided eye contact, or even crossed the street to avoid him. “I’m not going to be able to be Ira Einhorn now”, he complained. “And I realized he was a selfish, arrogant bastard,” the friend reported.
Ira decided that hanging out in Pennsylvania while waiting for his trial was a bummer, so he went to California. He met a friend there and spent some time on her houseboat in Sausalito. Then he wandered to Esalen, where he had spent so much time in the sixties. He met psychic Jenny O’Connor there, a woman who channels “The Nine.” Nothing significant came up.
He also met a young woman while there who, while high on MDA, claims that she looked into his soul and knew that “this was an extraordinary being, scandalously charged with a crime he did not commit.” So much for MDA insights. He had lunch with Jacques Vallee, a conference with Mike Rossman, and then went on to visit physicist Jack Sarfatti. Over and over again he was telling his story and finding sympathetic listeners. Sarfatti even organized a public meeting for Ira. Sarfatti marveled at how calm and “together” Ira was. Saul-Paul Sirag, another physicist, agrees. “The thing that impressed me was his incredible nonchalance, considering the enormity of what he’d been charged with… he seemed to be in great spirits.”
Jack Sarfatti and Saul-Paul Sirag were unknowing witnesses to the amazing lack of conscience of the psychopath.
However, an odd event occurred that confused Sirag: “I had gone to the meeting with my girlfriend at the time… and we walked off in one direction and he went in another. I guess Barbara and I were arguing mildly, and Ira turned back and heard us bickering, and he said — as if this were a joke, but it was still weird — ‘Beat her up.’”
Ira returned to Philadelphia fully charged from all his energy gathering in California. He had hoped that his lawyer’s motion to declare the search warrant invalid would succeed and he would be able to retrieve his journals. The judge ruled that it was valid. Michael Chitwood had made sure of that. But, when the trial was postponed for other reasons, Ira went traveling again. Ira was spreading his “rap” everywhere he went.
According to Ira, he was doing stuff that ‘They’ didn’t want done. They — the CIA — didn’t want Ira to connect together Tesla, psychic discoveries behind the Iron Curtain, and remote viewing.
Even though his passport had been taken when the things in his apartment had been confiscated, Ira managed to get another and flew to England to drum up support there. But the folks in England were already having doubts due to press coverage. Playwright Heathcote Huffer asked Ira if he did it. “He looked me straight in the eye and said no.” Yet again, people were troubled by Einhorn’s confidence and nonchalance. “I got the feeling that the whole thing was an inconvenience to him. That the work was important and this was kind of a nuisance.”
After his return to Philadelphia, Einhorn took a new approach. He backed away from his hammering of the KGB-CIA theory and began to suggest that there was some sort of headquarters of the Nazi party in Tyler, Texas and that Holly’s father was involved in the frame-up!
Oh, yes indeedy! Blame the victim! Classic psychopath.
The means of setting this idea in motion included asking his friend, George Andrews, to check out the possibility that Frank Maddux was a high officer in the American Nazi Party, and that the Nazis were somehow involved in planting Holly’s body in his closet. Andrews was understandably shocked at Ira’s implication, but he dutifully set about checking it out. He was unable to establish any validity to such ideas.
As time passed, the “blame game” became more and more vague. After awhile, he just would refuse to address the issue or answer any penetrating questions at all, saying only that he knew who the guilty parties were, and would reveal them at the proper time.
In November 1979, the FBI lab report on the floorboards from Ira’s closet were disclosed. The tests showed no blood and/or human protein. Ira crowed that this proved that Holly’s body had not been in his closet since September of 1977. He began to declaim loudly and vociferously that he was now vindicated!
In an interview with Claude Lewis of the Bulletin, Ira said:
There’s no blood in the apartment, they found no blood in the entire apartment! How can you fracture somebody’s skull twelve, thirteen times, and no have any blood? It’s crazy.… The skull was supposedly fractured, six to twelve — multiple times. You can’t tell me blood didn’t squirt all over the place. And no matter how careful you are, you wouldn’t be able to get it all up! […] With this new data, the ball is in my court. […] What this has given me is a new lease on life. I feel totally free. I feel like a citizen of the world. I can go settle anyplace. Because I’m going to do a book on all this.” (Levy, 1988)
Yes, indeedy. Ira was gonna write a book. His book proposal said: “I intend to write a book directed to a mass audience, for it is obvious that my case has enormous mass appeal. […] An inside view of someone who lives on the edge of thought, but I will never become overly abstract or philosophical.”
The proposal was rejected because Ira made it clear that, even though he would talk about the murder, he would not speculate on who actually did kill Holly. “This ambiguity will not detract from the value of the book, for so much of the public interest in this case hangs upon the ambiguity of my present public persona.”
In short, the book was going to be all about Ira, and how Ira so heroically dealt with a nasty murder charge. Holly’s life and experiences, who may have killed Holly and why, was not important. The only thing that was important was “the public interest… [which]… hangs upon … my public persona.”
Ira wasted no time sending the FBI results around to everyone in his network. He wrote:
It took a court order to [get it]. You may draw your own conclusions from this behavior. It is what I have struggled against during the last 8 and 1/2 months of difficult uphill battle.
I was conspired against in the most hellish way; so many of my friends could not grasp the conspiracy for it is beyond normal ken. [Read: Of course I understood, but that is because I am so speshul!] For this there can be no blame or recriminations as the press played right into the hands of those who wished to silence me. [Read: All of you who doubted me, I forgive you, I will let you kiss my foot if you ask nicely!] This is not the time to name them who are guilty of murder — that will come.
And so on. It was basically an appeal for money to pay his lawyers to defend him against the “hellish conspiracy” that was now an established fact, in his mind, because he had the evidence of the FBI report. Ira promoted this item as “pivotal,” and continues to do so to this very day. What he doesn’t talk about — because psychopaths never address the things that cannot be addressed without exposing them for what they are — is the fact that a negative result on the floorboards and plaster did not preclude the possibility that blood or human protein might have been in the materials at an earlier point, having dissipated in the 18-month interval between the murder and the discovery of the body.
Ira also continues to avoid the fact that a second test, using newer and more comprehensive methods, later showed that there was human protein in the floorboards and plaster! Those who knew Ira said that he took this information very hard and that this was what prompted him to flee. He knew he was nailed.
As of April 17, 2000, Ira posted a statement that somehow managed to mention the two FBI chemical analyses as though they both said that there was no evidence of blood or human protein:
After almost two years of pre-trial manoeuvring, which included much judicial misconduct: Foreshortening of Xeroxed pages so that the damaging pages of a now unnumbered report could be removed from the information due to us; information that included a public sighting of my former girl friend by three bank employees six months after I am supposed to have killed her; and most significantly, a failure to accept two lab reports, issued by the FBI and a nationally known laboratory, National Medical Services, which did all the work on the O.J. Simpson case; reports made at the instigation of the prosecution, which indicated that there was no blood or human protein in the supposed leakage from the body and that material found outside the trunk did not correspond to material found inside the trunk. This was a stiff blow to the prosecution’s contention about the murder; the response: The most prestigious local magazine published an article with blood on every page. Such behavior was repeated no matter where I turned, and fearing the death penalty, I left Philadelphia for a life underground.
Oddly, in the above remarks, a single person, a bank employee, who thought she saw Holly in the bank (identified by a photo) after the time the murder was supposed to have been committed, has now become three people. This identification has always been regarded as mistaken because, in fact, there is no record of any bank transaction by Holly after September 11, 1977. Why would she be in the bank if she did no banking while there?
Einhorn also quotes, as proof that he knew of a building threat, a letter from Stafford Beer, about which Ira tells us, “This conversation quoted verbatim from Stafford’s letter took place in the summer of 1977 about two months before the murdered woman, Holly Maddux, disappeared.”
One day I looked up from my desk and saw that someone was approaching down the path. This was most unusual, because hardly anyone knew yet of my whereabouts, which I was keeping virtually secret, and the place is eight miles from the nearest village. I could hardly believe my eyes: it was Ira. But yes — he would have been one of the very few who would know my new address, because I wanted to keep up the flow of packages from Bell.
Ira and I became locked in a fascinating discussion of very sensitive matters. They concerned monumentally important scientific discoveries, and their possible impact on human life and society. I have not to this day disclosed what Ira told me, and I do not know whether what he told me can be substantiated. I am sure that Ira believed what he said, and I could without difficulty accept that it might be the case (that is, “no alien life forms”). What followed is indelibly fixed in my mind, and I shall get as near as I can to the ipsissima verba:
Ira: “I am making a special visit to you, and to a few other friends who have the knowledge to understand what I have found out, because my situation is dangerous.”
Stafford: ‘I can believe it. Are you worried about your own government or ‘the competition’?”
Ira: “Your call.”
Stafford: “Well, are you saying that you think you might be bumped off?”
Ira : “The trouble is, that wouldn’t do. It would provoke a whole lot of investigation, and the truth might get out. No, I think that I have to be in some way discredited.”
Stafford: “Aren’t you in some way discredited already? Plenty of people think you are a nut case. And plenty think you are immoral — a bad influence. That lot got Socrates after all.”
Ira: “And the ideas survived. Just my point. No, it has to be a lot stronger to count.”
Stafford: “Any Ideas?”
Ira: “None. I don’t know what I need to protect myself against.”
I can swear to this testimony. That’s exactly what happened. It made me apprehensive for my friend. (Levy, 1988)
Aside from the fact that Stafford Beer is interesting in his own right, the fact is, Holly Maddux left Ira Einhorn in Europe in the midsummer of 1977. When she left, it was already clear that Holly would be moving into her own place. In other words, at that point in time, Ira already knew that Holly had rejected him, and at that point in time, he began to plan her demise. At that point in time, he began to plant the seeds of his “frame-up theory” and his first “target” of this campaign was Stafford Beers.
His later “morphing of the story” was more elaborate, but again, casts the blame on Holly for engineering her own death. This variation was given to journalist Russ Baker, who chronicles his experience with Einhorn in Esquire (see bibliography).After much back-and-forth maneuvering, Einhorn finally lays out the new theory as follows:
It is a tale that begins in the mid-1970s, with Ira penetrating deeper and deeper into an understanding of the evil work of his government, chiefly regarding psychic warfare and UFOs, and continues with Ira’s growing determination to expose the truth as he saw it.
This tale involves a former CIA man, a current CIA man, a prominent ufologist, shadowy figures, and psychic, Uri Geller. This tale involves the scurrilous rumor that the former CIA official, who at the time was head of the Weird Desk at the CIA, had an affair with Holly Maddux. It is Ira who calls this rumor scurrilous, but he brings it up repeatedly, and this rumored affair is clearly the basis of Ira’s theory of the crime.
[According to Ira], [T]here was a great, roiling debate within the secret agency, it seems, that centered on Ira. One faction favored the release of top-secret data on the UFOs, the other did not. Ira was the loose cannon who was going to blow the lid off the story. The CIA had to frame Ira for Holly’s murder, and to facilitate this, one of its men arranged an amorous liaison with her. And Ira says that the former official’s successor at the agency is in “constant e-mail contact” with him, confirming parts of this story.…
“They’re using my case to fight over the CIA stuff. I’m convenient.”
Ira is the teller of the story, and Ira is the wronged hero of it, too. It is a story that takes you on a tour of the interior of Ira’s head. [According to Ira], [T]his story is the defense that Ira might have offered at trial had he been there. It is impossible to tell whether he has actually brought himself to believe it. (Russ Baker, “A Touch of Eden,” Esquire, December 1999, Contributors Page)
Russ Baker was aware that Ira was “different” when he went to interview him. However, what Russ didn’t realize, and what so many, many people do not understand, is the power of the psychopath. Russ comments on this in some amazement:
I could not have imagined this a couple days ago, but after almost thirty hours of Ira, I have to get away from him. Although I’m constantly aware, on some level, of his manipulation, I also know that he is exceptionally good at it. I suppose that I was not entirely prepared for this, at least not to this extent. This is humbling. I do not know what a clinical diagnosis of him would be, but he is masterful at manipulation. He is a professional. There’s a reason that he succeeded so spectacularly on the lam for so long. I realize that I’m fighting to maintain perspective. (Baker, 1999; this author’s emphases)
It is, indeed, humbling, to realize that with all our powers of observation, all our intellect, all our knowledge and awareness, we can still be captured and manipulated. Any of us who think that we have a real handle on it, that we cannot be fooled, or we assume that we are not being deceived by a psychopath, better think again, apply some tests, and watch closely.
In the end, the safest thing to do once one has the suspicion or feeling that something is not quite right, that something is confusing, that something just doesn’t mesh, is to just get away! There is no way you can interact with or converse with or debate with a psychopath without getting slimed. None. Zip. Zilch. Nada.
From our perspective, there is no doubt that Ira Einhorn killed Holly Maddux, but that then leads us back to the problem of why, for a full year and a half, did he make no effort to dispose of her body and the other evidence that would ultimately indict him? This, of course, is a clue to the deep nature of the psychopath as a truly predatory being, whose behavior can only be understood in terms of comparison to the hunting behavior of beasts.
We believe that Einhorn’s dissembling after the murder, his cruel cunning employed in hiding his crime, demonstrates a specific type of cold-blooded, conscious thinking consistent with the psychopath, and that it also suggests that Ira was planning for months in advance to murder Holly Maddux. During these months, he carefully and cunningly prepared the ground of the minds of his followers and associates, planted clues about conspiracies, shopped for a trunk with the express intention of using it to store Holly’s remains, for the same reason that a predator in the wild keeps the carcass of his kill nearby — in order to savor the kill again and again.
At the same time, there are very deep implications here in terms of the Theological Reality. Ira Einhorn was closely identified with helping establish what has become known as the New Age Movement. With the benefits of education and a brilliant mind, he had created a sphere of influence among people who stand above the common man. His world was a reality of scientists, educators, intellectuals, occultists, and some folks with seriously big bucks. He brought them all together and almost single handedly, through the cognitive dissonance resulting from the murder of Holly Maddux, created a mythos that still grips the minds of modern day researchers in those fields.
Am I suggesting that there is no conspiracy? Well, the readers know me better than that! Indeed, we cannot but notice the terrible significance of the dates: September 11, and the fact that the brutal barrage of blows to Holly Maddux’s beautiful head occurred precisely 24 years before the brutal barrage of blows to the beautiful World Trade Center towers, the “head” of the illusory American way of life and sovereignty. Both cases signaled a significant change in the perceptions of the American people. In both cases, huge disinformation projects were launched as a result of the events, and both cases, the events are what the CIA and other intelligence agencies term a “sideshow.” They create a distraction away from what is really going on. The ideas born from these sideshows are being vigorously promoted right up to the present day. Tom Bearden, in a recitation of the various persecutions suffered by “truth tellers” of his acquaintance, wrote that:
Ira was suddenly confronted with a decomposed body in a trunk in his apartment. He is now awaiting trial, charged with the alleged murder. And that is so totally incredible, so out of character with the high consciousness and attunement of my friend, that I for one don’t believe it for an instant. Particularly since he was working on Tesla material, directly in contact with the Yugoslavian government, and trying to get information out to the public on Tesla-weapon effects. At any rate, it appears suspiciously as if the psychotronics investigators/researchers are slowly being eliminated or nullified. (Levy, 1988)
Bearden then went on to claim that a whole series of “unusual deaths” were related to this particular cause: psychotronics and remote viewing, etc. He listed the arson of Puharich’s house; the plane-crash death of Itzhak Bentov, author of Stalking the Wild Pendulum (also a crony of Einhorn); and the fatal-stroke death of Wilbur Franklin, an Ohio scientist studying Uri Geller. At the present time, the list is expanded by “theatrical physicist” Jack Sarfatti:
Was Jan Brewer telling the truth about the Fourth Reich using Arica to influence the New Age? Brewer was part of the original Esalen group of forty that went to Chile for the first Arica training with Oscar Ichazo. Arica was big at Esalen at the same time that the Soviets were soaking in the hot tubs. Was I pulled out of the operation by George Koopman because in his opinion I was unpredictable and uncontrollable? Or is the truth still even stranger than even I can imagine? Was Michael Murphy a brilliant Puppet Master or merely a lucky charming “useful idiot,” a Forrest Gump character like me? Was Ira Einhorn framed? Was Jean Nadal murdered? Was Francois Trauffaut murdered? Was Harold Chipman murdered? Was George Koopman murdered? Is this all my paranoid exaggeration? What do you think?
Please note that the one person who seems to have stood by Ira Einhorn all the way down the line is Tom Bearden, who shared many of the Unicorn’s conspiracy theories regarding the use of psychotronics to monitor and control human behavior and modify weather patterns. This, along with the fact that Tom Bearden is closely connected to Richard Hoagland and the Stargate Conspiracy, ought to give us pause.
It’s all a sideshow. People are really being killed in this theater of the macabre. As we have seen in our discussion of the deaths of Morris K. Jessup, Phil Schneider, and Stefan Marinov (discussed in Book Six, Facing the Unknown), such events are engineered to create these sideshows, and generally the ideas and beliefs that emerge from them are disinformation. Just as Marinov may have been programmed to jump off the fire escape of the library at the University at Graz, so it is likely that Ira Einhorn was “programmed” to kill Holly Maddux, so that in the ensuing media circus, certain disinformation or “memes” could be promulgated.
One crucial difference to consider is the fact that many of those who are dead were either murdered or driven to take their own lives. Einhorn, on the other hand, brutally took the life of another. That point is significant. It seems that programming can only be done within the parameters of the basic consciousness frequency resonance. That is to say: The innate tendencies of the individual can be amplified. A positive person may not be programmable to harm another, but they can certainly be programmed to self-destruct. No, indeed! A very special kind of person is needed to do what Ira was “assigned” to do, whether he was conscious of the assignment or not.
More importantly, it doesn’t even have to be in the context of some super-duper-secret government laboratory where white-coated Fourth Reich scientists wearing coke-bottle glasses gleefully hook electrodes to their helplessly drugged subjects, and then giggle fiendishly while they pull levers and turn dials to send torturous electrical currents into brains and genitals. No, indeed, it can be done far more globally and subtly than that, as we have already noted. We have already noticed the curious thread of connections that, when we begin to tug on them, lead us back to Princeton; and we are going to find that Ira Einhorn is also connected, even if indirectly. What do we think these connections indicate? Well, certainly not that which has been widely promulgated in the “Sideshow of the New Age,” led by such ringmasters as Tom Bearden, et al.
Dick Farley, whom we have met before, writes:
By its nature and by design of those on Earth who have been and still are involved in these murky areas of “almost science,” the applications of “Anomalous Phenomena” for political, psychosexual and biowar non-lethal spacewarfare paranoia-seeding counterintelligence for global fascism, a battle for the minds (some say the “souls”) of humanity and our future on our home planet (if it really IS our home planet 😉 is underway. Billy Graham, a friend of Mr. Rockefeller’s, who has funded much of what is described in [The Stargate Conspiracy], is “in the loop.” Likewise some former presidents, world leaders and “who knows who” now.
What is going on is a battle for “control of the bridge of Spaceship Earth.” At the level where this stuff may be or may not be “real,” as we objectively may define reality, it’s all just an academic exercise. But beliefs kill, as events of September 11 have shown us.
Reliance on yet another set of “revealed truths” from “hidden sky gods” is unlikely to advance humanity’s collective intelligence sufficiently or in time for us to avoid, or resist, the planned depopulation and global takeover the oligarchs who have funded this clearly have planned for “the rest of us.”
Mr. Rockefeller is said to believe (because one of the channelers of the Nine told him so) that he has been born again on Earth, reincarnated into his position of wealth and global influence, because he was once a Pharaoh, and before that a ruler of Atlantis. The “search” underway for artifacts of ancient Egypt, which these people believe is descended from the Lost Continent of Atlantis, which reputedly had contacts with ETs and in some fashion may have been caught up in a “War in the Heavens,” as Billy Graham and others have called it (in print, variously), is the oligarchs’ quest for “legitimacy.” They believe they were sent “back down here” to help Earth correct and avoid the mistakes of the long distant past, revealed to us now only in the fogs of myth and legends. Shamanically, using hallucinogens secreted from Nazi Germany before the end of the Second World War, these men (mostly men, at the beginning) believed that Hitler was on the right path, but his own megalomania corrupted and sunk him in his efforts to impose a Teutonic resurgence to world rule. This is what THEY believe!
To them, having stumbled into their “nest” and subsequently researched their own literature, doctrine and in literally thousands of hours of research and conversation with them, I have said. “Your plan will not work. You will have to ‘show your talons’ in order to impose your rule over humanity, because of core traits in human character. We love freedom; without it we die. But not all of us. You will never conquer us all.”
And to them, and to you, I add this: “The degree of tyranny necessary to govern Earth in the future is inversely proportional to how effective we (and “They”) can be as teachers.” By their fruits, shall ye know them. Let’s be careful “Out There.”
As we have noted again and again, this is precisely the conspiracy that the Cassiopaeans have repeatedly pointed out. We can certainly surmise that The Nine have an agenda, and that this whole gang of Big Bucks Oligarchs are just the tools of the Hyperdimensional Control System, who have been pumped up to think that they are doing some grand and glorious and heroic work to “correct” something. But we notice the big differences in this perspective and the Cassiopaeans’ perspective; they have made it pretty clear that the present situation is a replay of the Atlantean deal. The Atlanteans tried to take over the world and were defeated by the “Athenians.” We see from Farley’s astute analysis that these people are trying to “correct and avoid the mistakes of the long distant past.” That is to say, they want to set things up so that the Atlanteans will win, and rule the world.
We also notice the use of drugs and hallucinogens as a characteristic of the negative agenda. As the Cassiopaeans have repeatedly suggested, and even said outright:
Accessing the higher levels of psychical awareness through such processes [as mescaline, peyote, LSD, etc.] is harmful to the balance levels of the prime chakra. This is because it alters the natural rhythms of psychic development by causing reliance on the part of the subject, thus subjugating the learning process. It is a form of self-imposed abridging of free will. […] The other substances mentioned are, at least in part, synthetic, with the exception of peyote. But even that is not a natural ingredient of the human physiological being.
Of course, Farley also points out that these folks are really “looking for something.” This something is supposed to be able to tip the balance in their favor, help them “correct the mistake” of the past, when they lost the war and lost control of the Earth.
So, how does Ira Einhorn fit in here? The “medium is the message,” as Einhorn himself proclaimed, and Ira Einhorn was the medium and the message. In an attempt to come to some understanding of what that message was, what Einhorn was promoting, what changes occurred in our society as a result of his presence and his “spider web of contacts,” again we have to look behind the veil to the man behind the curtain, pulling the levers and creating the entire sideshow of smoke and mirrors.
How did Ira Einhorn become such a truly efficient alien reaction machine?
Ira: “My mother lavished a tremendous amount of attention on me before I started school. She fed my curiosity and was teaching me at the third-grade level before I went to kindergarten at five. Aside from giving me a strong ego, this tutoring just made me a freak in my milieu when I entered school.”
Bea Einhorn: “He read incessantly. He’d come to dinner, a book would be in his hand. He’d go on his vacation, he’d take so many books, you wouldn’t know what would be up. I don’t think he slept more than three, four hours a night, ever. Five would be the top. I would get up in the morning to call him, and he would be reading.”
Because he was intellectually advanced, Ira was bored in school. Going to school was so repellent to him that he threw up every morning before starting off to his classes. Once he was in class, he was disruptive, yelling out in a rude and taunting way and refusing to stay in his seat. He made good grades academically, but had consistently poor marks for conduct.
After transferring to another school where he was told that he would not get good marks in his class work if he did not also get good grades for conduct, he apparently modified his behavior. His mother notes, however, that the new school made an effort to keep him busy. “They realized what they had in his mentality,” she says proudly. One of his friends remembers him, at the age of 13, playing with rhymes and strange words. “What are you doing?” Ira would answer, “I’m practicing.” The friend remarked: “His flow of language was exquisite. He could mesmerize people through language. He had the most incredible vocabulary that ever came down the pike. Ira could talk constantly, without hesitation, without pause.”
Because Ira made top grades in junior high school and had high scores in the standardized intelligence tests, he was admitted to a prestigious college prep high school. His IQ, according to Ira, was “upwards of 140.”
He was said to be an independent thinker by the time he got to high school, having so strong an ego that he dared to violate the standard dress of his peers, wearing shorts when no one else did. He also continued his disruptive behavior. He was reported to have repeatedly challenged his instructors, breaking up assemblies with loud behavior and indulging in general-nuisance activity. But, because he continued to get good grades, this behavior was tolerated.
Regarding his personal relations at this time, one of his friends from high school reported: “Ira was really a force to be reckoned with. He would attempt to be dominant in conversations, yet when he was in the presence of somebody whom he knew to have more knowledge than he, he would listen intently and respectfully, and find out where it was they got that information.” He would then seek it out on his own. Ira apparently fantasized about himself as a member of the European, intellectual, philosophic elite, and not just a suburban Jewish kid in America.
Steven Levy, author of The Unicorn’s Secret, reports a curious item: One of Ira’s high school friends said that quite often when he would visit Ira at home, Ira’s mother would direct him to the bathroom, where he would find Ira ensconced in the bathtub with an open book in front of him. The friend thought this was extremely odd, but Ira was oblivious to the discomfort of his visitor. He would basically “hold court” in the bathtub, discoursing on whatever he was reading at the time. The reason I find this interesting is the fact that Ira claimed to have been in the bathtub when Holly Maddux supposedly left his apartment for the last time, never to be seen again. Because there has been some conjecture that Ira may have drained Holly’s body of blood and fluids for several days after changing his mind about disposing of it, I cannot help but wonder if his story may hold a partial truth: that he was in the bathtub when “Holly left,” in the sense that the image of Ira bathing in Holly’s blood flashed unbidden into my mind. Such an act, as the reader will see, would be entirely in keeping with the psychopathic personality.
But, back to Little Ira. He was a larcenous lad, no doubt. His friend reported that he would repeatedly send away for batches of books given away in book-club advertisements in magazines. When asked how he was going to pay for them, or the required subsequent orders, Ira would reply: “Don’t worry! They’re not going to get me — I’m a minor. If they’re dumb enough to send it to me, they’re not going to prosecute me.” His friend noted wryly that Ira saw himself as a sort of Robin Hood, robbing the world to give to a good cause — Ira.
At one point in his high school career, Ira spent the summer lifting weights and doing push-ups to bulk up his body. He became, in the words of his friends, a “hulk,” with an accompanying macho attitude. Unfortunately, he was never able to do anything about his spindly legs, and he was plagued by acne.
One very curious item is the fact that Ira boasted to his friends that he didn’t feel pain. He demanded that they test him by stubbing a cigarette out on his hand and, sure enough, Ira held his hand steady and never flinched.
Ira started smoking marijuana in 1956, when it was still quite rare in American high schools. He graduated in 1957 with a scholarship to the University of Pennsylvania. Interestingly, he refused to let his picture be included in the yearbook, didn’t want a high-school ring, and attended the prom in jeans. This was so shocking that the high school threatened not to graduate him, but a sympathetic English teacher intervened saying, “I ought to wring that boy’s neck, but I cannot deny the world Ira.”
In college, Ira was contemptuous of the idea that one could learn by attending classes. He did, of course, continue to read, but generally, he refused to fulfill the requirements of his classes. Again, his behavior was tolerated because of his evident intellect. Also, Ira’s professors probably passed him just to get rid of him, because he would intimidate and challenge them by citing obscure works that contradicted their own opinions.
So far, in general, we have described a very bright, very precocious, very independent kid. Except for vaguely troubling items that could be insignificant, we are not alarmed. I bet that most of the readers can identify with Ira, most especially his insistence on his own way of being, his resistance to authority.
I can identify with Ira myself. I was reading when I was three; I was often, though not always, bored in school; and in later years I was somewhat resistant to authority that I perceived as unfair or unreasonable, most particularly my mother. I also resisted the authority at school a few times. I remember one occasion when I deliberately baited a teacher who I had seen use her authority cruelly on another student. I reduced her to tears in front of the class. At my 30-year class reunion, I was reminded of that incident, much to my embarrassment. What was a surprise to me was that it was seen as sort of heroic. At the time, and in my own recollection, I was just simply being obnoxious like any other kid who is too full of themselves. I deeply regretted having made another person cry. Even if some still perceive it as justified, I don’t. I don’t excuse her behavior, and I don’t excuse my own.
I am certain that many readers also remember little “tests of courage” or games of “chicken” played with other children. (The only one I ever remember playing was one in which the object was not to blink, or some such thing.)
I was similarly not interested in the minutiae of classwork. However, unlike Ira, I often made poor overall grades because, even though I scored very high on all the tests, I rarely turned in the daily homework because I was too busy reading. In fact, I generally was hiding the book I was reading inside the textbook so that I could read undisturbed through classes. I thought that was a much better use of my time than listening to some dry old lecture about something that I already had learned through my reading. I also was generally too involved in my reading to “act up” in classes. I was called down for talking to the pupils on either side of me — whispering and not paying attention — and was even once sent out to stand in the hall by the classroom door for this. Heck, if I’m going to confess, yes, I smoked in the bathroom, and once instigated a conspiracy to shoot jelly beans at the Spanish instructor while the classroom was in darkness during one of her endless slide presentations of her summer vacations. She flipped the light switch on and glared at all of us — and informed us that the slide presentation would not continue until the guilty parties confessed. With a sigh of relief, the entire class became amnesiac.
Yes, I read under the covers with a flashlight because I was required to turn off the light in my room at a certain hour. I would often read all night and feel like death warmed over when I had to get up and go to school. But, except for the fact that I was something of a social semi-geek, I didn’t mind going to school until about 11th grade. At that point, I was just simply tired of it. It was boring.
The point is: Regarding Ira as a child, we haven’t really seen anything in the record assembled by Steven Levy from his interviews with all the principals of Ira’s early life, that would indicate anything truly abnormal, except perhaps, his conscious, premeditated larceny, his lack of consideration for the feelings of others, and maybe the “I feel no pain” episode.
But now we come to that most interesting of times in Ira’s life, when new players enter the stage. One of these was Morse Peckham, “the prize and pariah of Penn’s English department.” Morse Peckham was a “Renaissance Man.” He was a polymath whose depth of knowledge was matched by its breadth.
For Peckham, the life of the mind was the only life. This had been the case since childhood. He has described his parents as imbued in nineteenth-century culture; his mother read Tennyson to him before his naps. At ten, he was using chess pieces to emulate the stage movements of Shakespeare’s characters. He was the first University of Rochester student to take graduate English work at Princeton, where he earned a doctorate, but not before serving in World War II, where he spent his European tour writing the official history of the Ninth Bomber Command. […] [He was a] large man, more than six feet tall, with fine features and a beard. […]
A lifelong bachelor, Peckham dressed elegantly, and smoked cigarettes in a long white holder. […] The thrust of his work was transdisciplinary scholarship. […] He saw the culmination of [the romantic era] in the writings of Friedrich Nietzsche, and his book on romanticism, Beyond the Tragic Vision, would be hailed in academic circles as a masterpiece. By the early sixties, Peckham was starting a more ambitious project that would use his cultural knowledge to go beyond criticism of art, music, and literature and probe the essence of humanity itself. […]
At the time Ira Einhorn found his way into one of Morse Peckham’s classes, Peckham was working in virtual isolation, living alone, sharing his intellectual theories and discoveries on a daily basis with no one. […] [T]here was some heavy intellectual bonding between Ira Einhorn and Professor Peckham. While most of the students were gasping for breath at Peckham’s hairpin intellectual turns, Ira would ostentatiously be keeping pace with the master, providing verbal footnotes or suggesting esoteric comparisons to the point under discussion. It was no secret that this mental jam session continued outside of class as well. […] Inevitably, some of Ira’s peers wondered how close the relationship really was. […] There is no reason to surmise that the speculation of homosexuality was in any way founded. […]
[Peckham] considered his mental life intense and thrilling, but it precluded any emotional life outside of the pursuit of ideas. “In Ira,” he says, “I found someone whom I could try these ideas on. Because I didn’t have anybody else.” (Levy, 1988; this author’s emphasis)
What were Peckham’s “ideas”? Some of his early work includes a study of various editions of Charles Darwin’s Origin of the Species. As already noted, he was interested in romanticism. In 1951 he published Towards a Theory of Romanticism, in which he wrote:
Shift away from thinking of the universe as a static mechanism, like a clock, to thinking of it as a dynamic organism, like a growing tree. […] For those who make the shift, the values of static mechanism — reason, order, permanence, and the like — are replaced by their counterparts in an organic universe — instinct or intuition, freedom, and change.
Romantic thought is relativistic and pluralistic; it rejects absolute values, formal classifications, and exclusive judgments; it welcomes novelty, originality, and variety. It is less interested in distinctions than in relationships, particularly in the organic relationship which it posits between man and nature, or the universe, and (less often) between the individual and society. The great chain of being is replaced by an indefinitely extended and complicated live network of connecting filaments, as in the vascular system of a plant or in a mass of animal nerve tissue, by which every phenomenon is tied by countless direct and indirect contacts to every other.
When a new fact appears, it is not just another link in the chain or cog in the machine; it is an evidence of organic growth and development, and its emergence changes every previously existing aspect of the universe. A new characteristic is evidence of a totally new and different world. Therefore a romantic artist will strive, not to imitate an ideal perfection of form which has always existed, but to originate a form which has never existed before and which will uniquely express what he alone feels and knows. To do so, he will rely more on imagination than on logic, more on symbols than on signs or allegories, more on unconscious than on conscious powers. He will believe that he is creating a genuinely new thing and thereby changing and renewing the whole of his organic universe. (Peckham, 1951)
He also wrote Explanation and Power: The Control of Human Behaviour in 1986, wherein his Darwinistic approach to cultural development is made clear:
For human beings, the world consists of signs, and it is impossible for human beings to consider the world, or themselves, from a meta-semiotic point of view or position. The world is an immense tapestry of innumerable threads, emerging and disappearing in the presentation and evanishment of indefinably innumerable designs, and human beings themselves form some of those same threads and patterns. We are figures in the tapestry we observe, and respond to, and manipulate. The old notion that the world is an illusion is sound, for no sign (configuration) dictates our responses. But it is sound only up to a point, because the physical character of the world limits the range of our responses. We can do lots of things with water, but as yet we have no way to build a skyscraper out of it, though the possibility has its charms; nor can we walk on it without doing something either to ourselves or to the water. Or to use another notion, the world is Idea, our Idea, but it is also Reality, Actuality, Factuality. The mind transcends the world, but then it does not transcend the world. Plato’s demiourgos did not create the reality he set about ordering; he set about ordering a chaos, a recognition that human behavior works on material that is really there. Or, to put it in somewhat newer terms, the world is object, and man is subject, and the subject is different from the object but, nevertheless, somehow the same. (Peckham, 1986; this author’s emphasis)
Morse Peckham theorized that it was only through “cultural vandalism” — the aggressive undermining of established values through random, mindless acts of destruction — that social innovation was stimulated. He theorized that humans needed to push themselves to such disruptive extremes; otherwise there was no hope of matching the insects’ astonishing ability to adaptively alter their physiology and behavior in a relatively brief time. Peckham theorized that our mammalian talents for memory and self-reflection serve largely to oppress us with the dead weight of the past. Unburdened by mammalian scruples, insects effortlessly practice the Nietzschean virtue of active forgetting: The adult fly doesn’t remember anything the maggot once knew.
In short, Peckham was glorifying psychopathy, and in Ira Einhorn we see Peckham’s glorified psychopath in action. About Ira Einhorn, Morse Peckham said: “Ira stood out because of his really wide reading and his ability to understand what he read.”
However, after spending some time out of Ira’s direct presence, Peckham began to realize that something was wrong in the interaction. He had the odd feeling that Ira was parroting his own words back at him. “I was still very interested in him and very friendly with him, but I began to feel that talking to him was like being in an echo chamber, just my own ideas being fed back to me without any modification or any thought on his part.”
Just like Ross Baker, Morse Peckham had fallen under the sway of the psychopath. But he had also analyzed the problem, and in his analysis he put his finger on one of the clues to identifying the psychopath. They are parrots, apes, echo chambers. But, as Baker pointed out, it was humbling to realize that, after a period in Einhorn’s presence, he was having difficulty with his mental clarity. Morse Peckham, as brilliant as he was, took some time to come to this realization because he was, indeed, dealing with a brilliant psychopath.
As sympathetic as we may be for Morse Peckham and the fact that Einhorn duped him, there is something else crucially interesting about Morse. Let’s go back to that most interesting remark about Morse Peckham: He did his Ph.D. where? At Princeton. When? Oh, in the same general time period as when Nash was there. Peckham was, as some have described him, an “intellectual raider.” He advocated that in order to be a “cultural historian,” one had to “know everything.” He would read so extensively in a field that he soon could think in the way the professionals in that discipline thought. From looking at his work, we suspect that Morse Peckham was powerfully influenced by Game Theory.
What do we conclude? That Morse was part of a conspiracy? That he consciously was interacting with Ira, preparing him for his future role? Or do we think that Morse was just simply who he was, and Ira was who he was, and maybe there was some “tinkering” with the Matrix to ensure that the two of them would come together so as to pump all those theoretical ideas into Einhorn’s head, with the surety that he would put his own spin on them?
There is nothing simple about any of this. When you start pulling on these threads, you just never know what is going to spring out of the closet. What we discovered is a connection linking Peckham to the telephone company which later “utilized” Ira Einhorn as described by the Bell executive at Einhorn’s bail hearing. “AT&T’s Experiment In Humanistic Education, 1953-1960,” by Mark D. Bowles (The Historian, vol. 61) suggests that Ira’s “network,” was designed to counteract a previous experiment in social engineering that hadn’t turned out quite the way the experimenters wanted it:
The unexpected Soviet detonation of an atomic bomb in 1949 triggered a wave of paranoia and anxiety in the United States. As historian Vincent LaFeber wrote, “Few American officials had expected the Soviet test this early.” The result was a new era of “nuclear fear” that spread throughout the culture.…
One of the central reasons for instituting liberal arts training was to preserve the American way during the Cold War, yet the Viteles data indicate that the participants became more tolerant of non-capitalistic political ideologies. After training, the number of participants who believed that liberty and justice were possible in socialist countries nearly tripled (Question 1), and significantly fewer participants believed that democracy was dependent upon free business enterprise (Question 3). Clearly, this represented a threat to AT&T’s corporate leaders; no longer could they continue to support a training program that might undermine America’s own economic system…. English professor Morse Peckham designed the program. (Bowles, 1998)
Again, economics rears its ugly head. The one thing this report tells us is this: Those guys in charge of all this aren’t omniscient. But it was clear that, at the point in time when Ira Einhorn was in close association with Morse Peckham, the program that Peckham had designed, obviously with a particular agenda that supported the economic theories that were being developed around the work of John von Neumann and John Nash, was now known to be a failure. Plan B was obviously going into effect, and Ira Einhorn was central to this plan: Restore paranoia! Restore belief in Russian superiority or Russian evil experiments on mankind!
So we wonder just what kinds of cerebral jamming Ira was doing with Morse Peckham?
In the fall of 1959, when Ira was a junior, he met Michael Hoffman. Hoffman was just entering grad school in English and the two soon became close friends. Hoffman soon married and had a child, and Ira regularly urged him to toss the “normal life,” to ditch his wife and child and really “live.” This gives us some clue to the effect Morse was having on Ira.
Ira had already decided that earning a living was not for him, so when Morse Peckham urged him to attend grad school, even offering to pay his tuition (!) he thought that was as good a way to develop an occupation for himself that was more to his liking. However, since he had been the resident “Falstaffian figure” at Penn, and had spent most of his time in reading, talking, sex, and doing drugs, as well as traveling extensively, he had to really scramble to convince his professors to accept his final papers as proof that he had successfully mastered his courses. Most of them did, but one gave him a failing grade, which meant that Ira would have to repeat the course. He refused.
Ira’s friends and family campaigned vigorously to get him to change his mind. His mother went to talk to the professor, who said, “Look, Mrs. Einhorn, I don’t even know what your son looks like — how can I pass him?”
Levy says that Ira finally changed his mind, suggesting that Ira could see that his own well-being was enough reason to bend to the dominance of the institution. He fulfilled his obligation under duress and with many complaints, and received his degree in 1961. However, considering the influence of Morse Peckham, we wonder about this uncharacteristic change of mind.
In 1962, Morse Peckham was in Europe traveling, and Ira’s friend Michael Hoffman took a teaching job in Maryland. Ira wrote to him regularly, so there is something of a record of his thinking through this period. He also was writing in his journals. On December 14, 1999, 2:53 p.m., Ira Einhorn wrote in an email about these journals:
On the morning of March 28, 1979 … a slew of Philadelphia police armed with a search warrant entered my small apartment. When they left, they carried away evidence, a partially decayed body, that effectively ended my life, as a social activist. They also carried away, for no apparent reason, all of my papers, including 63 volumes of personal journals and all the information that I had been collecting and distributing for years on my international information network.
I have never seen any of this material again. I probably never will. The private diaries were later turned over, as mentioned above, to a journalist who quoted from them extensively and often out of context in a book that painted me in totally black terms as a murderer. This use of my private work is of course illegal, but my situation does not allow me to do anything about it. It is part of the pattern that has characterized all official action in my case. Action that continues to this day.
When reading the above remarks, I was so astonished I practically choked. Notice that, the finding of the “partially decayed body” of Holly Maddux, the woman he was supposed to have loved dearly, was described by Ira as having inconvenienced him, as she “effectively ended my life as a social activist”!! Not one thought for the fact that the “partially decayed body” was once a living, breathing woman whose life as anything at all was effectively ended in a way that Ira simply does not grasp. No pity for Holly, nothing but self-pity for Ira.
He then goes on to feel sorry for the loss of his diaries. Oh, lord! How sad it is! “For no apparent reason,” too! Never mind that the dead body of a woman he claimed to love was found in his house, there was “no reason” to take Ira’s journals away from him. Poor widdle Ira. He’s gonna cry now! More so, because of what was in those journals, which he complains are illegal to use because he is just so innocent and pathetic and abused and mistreated by those nasty people who think that it’s not nice to bash people’s heads in!
Levy quotes from these journals and from letters Ira wrote extensively. The reader may wish to obtain the book The Unicorn’s Secret and read it a time or two to get the full impact of Ira Einhorn in all his psychopathic glory. But the book is far more than just the story about Einhorn, it’s a history of the politics and pop-culture of the 1960s and 1970s, the platform on which the New Age was constructed. There is no way to understand what is going on now without understanding what preceded it, and the part Ira Einhorn has played in creating the great “Sideshow of the New Age” — to distract attention away from the real Stargate Conspiracy.
Getting back to Ira and psychopaths, and Ira whining about how the police (for just no reason!) stole his journals and how Levy was “plagiarizing” them to write about him; he has given us some interesting clues to the perceptions of the psychopath:
Eibl-Eibesfeldt (1970) and Konrad Lorenz (1966) proposed mechanisms that limit aggression in social animals. They noted that in animals such as dogs, who bare their throats when attacked by a stronger opponent, this display of submission results in a termination of the attack. James Blair, in 1995, proposed a model of psychopathy based on this idea: that there is a functionally analogous mechanism in humans: a violence inhibition mechanism (VIM) that is activated by nonverbal communications of distress — emotions, for example, or expressions of pain or suffering. Blair suggests that having a violence inhibition mechanism is a prerequisite for the development of three aspects of morality:
1. the moral emotions (such as sympathy, guilt, remorse and empathy),
2. the inhibition of violent action, and
3. the moral/conventional distinction.
Blair proposes that psychopaths lack a functional VIM and this is why they are not affected by distress cues from others. Blair made some predictions based on his model:
(1) that psychopaths will not make a distinction between moral and conventional rules;
(2) that psychopaths will treat moral rules as if they were conventional; that is, under permission conditions, the psychopaths will say that moral as well as conventional transgressions are OK to do;
(3) that psychopaths will be less likely to make references to the pain or discomfort of victims than the non-psychopath controls. [Blair & Morton, 1995, p. 13]
Using subjects identified by Hare’s Psychopathy Checklist Blair’s research demonstrated that:
…while the non-psychopaths made the moral/conventional distinction, the psychopaths did not; secondly, and in contrast with predictions, that psychopaths treated conventional transgressions like moral transgressions rather than treating moral transgressions like conventional transgressions; and thirdly, and in line with predictions, that psychopaths were much less likely to justify their items with reference to victim’s welfare.
(Pitchford, 2001; this author’s emphases)
Now, this little discovery of Blair’s may be very significant: Psychopaths treat conventional transgressions like moral transgressions. In short, what this may reveal is that the psychopath perceives something that another person does to them that they don’t like as a “moral transgression.” They may even see a disagreement with another person as a “moral” reason to cause them harm. This then leads to the idea that the psychopath perceives their own wants and desires as being “godlike,” so to say. Anything done to the psychopath — for whatever conventional reason — any disagreement with the psychopath, is a “sin,” so to say, and their responses to that “sin,” are to complain about it as though something terribly and immorally wrong has been done to them. This gives us a clue that the psychopath will seek to justify their truly immoral behavior as “moral,” or on “moral grounds, all the while unable to see any moral justification of the other at all, in any way, shape, form or fashion.
This then leads us to the issue of ego. As Steven Levy wrote, Ira Einhorn had the Gibraltar of self images. The root of this ego is easy to trace: his mother. She had instilled a tremendously strong self-image in her son by her pride, her boasting of his mental prowess, her constant attention to developing his “superior” mentality, and her protecting him from consequences of his behavior because of his “genius.”
So, as a genius, as a “mythic, godlike being,” Ira Einhorn could do no wrong in his own eyes. And so, he is not even embarrassed at what his journals reveal about him, even though it makes a lie of everything he ever claimed to stand for in his carefully nurtured public image. As long as Ira himself never admits a lie, he can continue to maintain his image, completely unaware of the effect of utter amazement he is having on those who know he is lying! The psychopathic liar also knows that there are plenty of people who will believe lies over truth, even against the evidence; and he will cling, to the very end, to that group, that source of “food,” knowing instinctively that if he ever admits a lie, he has lost his position as the “alpha male,” that he believes himself to be. Loss of that position represents annihilation. And, as we have already seen, playing “semantic games” is the psychopath’s solution to answering direct questions.
So, what was in the journals?
The years in question are described by Ira as simply “two years of continuous reading.” This was his version of what was going on in the strange writings of that period. He also said that he was taking a bath when Holly Maddux left, never to be seen again.
Steven Levy, the journalist Einhorn described above as having “quoted from [my journals] extensively and often out of context in a book that painted me in totally black terms as a murderer,” didn’t just quote from the journals. He talked to the people described in the journals. So, in addition to letters to Hoffman, the journal entries, there is actual witness (or should I say “victim”?) testimony. Ira doesn’t have a leg to stand on. He’s a liar, pure and simple. But like all psychopaths, he is not embarrassed to lie. He is not embarrassed by the facts that prove he is lying. He continues to lie out of an ego the size of Gibraltar, and simply does not feel the shock and horror of those who know that he is lying and who would, themselves, be mortified to be caught in such lies, and because they are capable of embarrassment and mortification, have a conscience, and therefore do not lie!
So, on to 1962: Ira was doing a lot of traveling. He went to Ohio, Chicago, New York, and goodness knows where else. He also spent time in Bennington, Vermont, with a girlfriend he’d met while an undergrad. Around this time he wrote to Hoffman:
I’m trying to resolve my future, but at present all I see is chaos — boy do I love it. […] At present I can’t even dream of teaching before thirty. The more I read about the background of great scholars in various fields the more I realize the great importance of long years of careful preparation.… I must learn to wait and be patient — the moment will arrive and then I will be able to bring to bear all I have read on the problem that confronts me. Americans just don’t know how to ripen — they all want to produce, produce, etc. We must learn to wait and be silent. (Levy, 1988)
Then he wrote the exact opposite to the above ambitions to be silent: “I’ve talked a blue streak of late. All have listened — few understand.” He then told Hoffman a story about a woman who was so shaken by what he had to say that she returned to her dormitory “hysterical and on the verge of a breakdown.”
The question is, was the above an “Ira version” of something quite different? Is this similar to his story: “I was taking a bath when Holly left, and she never came back?” Or “I spent two years reading”?
This brings us to something of the crux of the matter. Ira Einhorn was at the center of promoting ideas of personal freedom, resistance to repressive government, ecological action, and bringing attention to the paranormal and UFOs.
Many have suggested that a giant ego ought not to reflect badly on the message. Just because the guy is a psychopath, can’t he still do good — even if by accident? Didn’t Ira do a lot of good? The only problem is, as Ira so repeatedly promoted from the works of Marshall McLuhan: “The medium is the message.”
William Irwin Thompson said: “There are some people whose auras I don’t like, and I didn’t like to be around him.” Another critic called Ira a “social psychopath… I think the definition of that is someone who believes that he can make up his own rules. His idea about society was that he had a special role to play. He probably would manipulate anyone for anything. He just happened to find the right niche at the right time.”
There were always a few people like Thompson who saw through Ira and considered him to be just a left-wing con man. The important thing that a lot of people miss is the fact that, even though he rose to prominence on the platform of the antiestablishment counterculture, his main accomplishment was to promote the very paranoia that is counterproductive to a movement for peace. If we consider the fact that the ultimate message that Ira Einhorn was promoting was to pit one group of humans against another, and to suggest that some alien gods — i.e. “The Nine” — were the only ones who could come in and straighten out the mess we are in (by their manipulations, I might add), then we need to look at his message in a different light.
In short, “the medium is the message” says more than we might suspect. Since Ira was the medium, to know Ira is to know the forces inside and behind him.
The cognitive dissonance produced by Ira’s “predicament” over the murder of Holly Maddux was related to not only his private life, which obviously was a complete contradiction of his public persona, but also the earthquake it produced in a general sense: The visual shock of seeing someone who was a representative of the idealistic “make love, not war” shtick being exposed as a complete phony. Ira was a visual image of a fraud, mouthing the platitudes of the sixties while secretly flouting every single ideal of that generation. It was almost as shocking as the realization that a sitting president could be assassinated in broad daylight in front of his people, and nobody could stop it or do a damn thing about it. It produced a feeling of helplessness, the loss of the father, so to say.
Ira’s murder of Holly Maddux produced similar sensations of helplessness. Who can you trust? You can’t even trust people who claim to be dedicated to love and ecology? After all, in a world where our Big Brother Ira Einhorn murdered Holly, and Elvis Presley died of drug use, what was the counterculture really about? The parade of activism was stampeded over a cliff into irrational paranoia, and in reaction, the era of the 1980s — the mature stage of the post-WWII baby boom — withdrew into a cocoon to metamorphose. As noted, many of them produced babies that were conceived as a result of the “free love” ideas of the times; and that is certainly a condition in which those who are the most aggressively sexual and rampantly promiscuous will spread their genes like wildfire — psychopaths, in fact.
In 1964 Ira was described as a “collector of books and women, somewhat more a connoisseur in the first instance… [he] professes to believe that it is normal for boys of his age to have slept with 200 or 300 different women.” The interviewer commented: “Whether this is rationalization for a compulsive Casanova syndrome, whether he is trying to prove something to himself, I cannot say, but I am certain [he is] not average. He is exceptional both in intellectual capacity and the capacity for what I would be tempted to term sexual excesses.”
For Ira Einhorn, it was one woman after another. He participated in “gang bangs” though his tastes did not run in that direction. Too much dividing of attention, no doubt. Even though Ira gave lip service to having outgrown his exploitation of women, his descriptions of his “techniques” and methods of seduction give evidence of actions that don’t match the words. He remarks, at one point, “Because of our heritage of a two-faced attitude towards sex, very few people are capable of healthy promiscuity, enjoying sex as you would a good meal and then forgetting about it.” This is classic psychopathy; it implies, of course, that Ira is among those elevated few who can enjoy “healthy promiscuity.”
Reading Levy’s book, recounting Ira’s own words and actions, paints a portrait of not merely a raging sexist, but a sexual predator of the worst kind. How can it be that always being on the prowl for quick and anonymous sex, “enjoying sex as you would a good meal, and then forgetting it,” is an “unselfish” act?
Though some of Ira’s partners in these types of relationships claim that they were satisfied, many of the hundreds of women which he claimed he had conquered and satisfied, gave quite a different version of the story. According to them, Ira’s style was perfunctory and disappointing. “To hear Ira talk about sex, he’s made their elbows have orgasms. When it came right down to it, the four or five women I knew [who had slept with him] didn’t think so. You didn’t really get the feeling that a sexual experience was taking place. It was like there was nobody home there. It was something like territory conquered and then done with.”
One supporter of Ira’s reputation, having heard these stories being circulated, decided to set up a test. The test was that he called on a very attractive woman who “agreed to meet Ira for the experiment.” Here’s the clincher: The friend was in the bedroom as an observer and reported that Ira performed “royally.”
Well, you idiot! What did you think? The psychopath is a performer. You didn’t think he was going to show his true self to an audience, did you?
One of the clues by which one can identify a psychopath is revealed by a woman who knew Ira for years. When they first met, she had an affair with him.
He wanted to know me, and he wanted to know how I felt about everything, but I never remember him ever talking about his own feelings. He’s an extremely controlled person, everything he did was thought out and calculated. He liked having the upper hand and doing something for others, and not feeling like he was dependent on anybody. I thought that got to be weird. I even said, Don’t you ever get angry, or sad, or express any kind of emotions? Don’t you really have feelings for things you do and for people? He didn’t even want to talk about that. He was very, very closed. (Levy, 1988; this author’s emphasis)
The fact is, Ira did have four “intense relationships” that amounted to more than idle dalliance or one-on-one anthropological interviews. In each of these four relationships, Ira fancied himself “in love.” The truth is, except for having a woman to serve him, his only interest in them seemed to occur when he became obsessively fixated on a woman who would not submit her will to him, and who eventually rejected him. For Ira, “love” was “lust for power over another.” In three of those instances, when Ira did not achieve mental and emotional submission from his “objects,” Ira responded to this rejection with violence. One of those women was Holly Maddux. In his journals, Ira Einhorn is exposed for the stalking beast of prey that he is.
Ira Einhorn met “Rita Siegal” in early 1962. Their relationship was more a function of what he imagined it to be than what it actually was.
Rita was a Bennington girl from Long Island, smart and direct in her speech. She was a dancer.… At the time she met Ira… she was having trouble with her self-esteem.… “If anyone would pay me a good word, or pat me on the head, I would just lap it up,” she recalls now, with the perspective of a quarter-century of reflection. “So I was real needy. So that’s where the relationship came from, he patted me on the head and showed me some interest. And then I respected his intelligence, he seemed very intelligent to me.” But never, according to Rita Siegal, did she consider it a towering relationship, the key union in her life. This contrasts to Ira Einhorn’s perception at the time:
“I hope that the beauty of Rita’s love will be able to sustain me in all the agonies of those restless days ahead. When I’m with her, all disappears — and no matter how she acts the calm of ‘knowing’ descends upon me — all becomes joy and light. Long live love!” (Levy, 1988)
Apparently, Rita didn’t feel the same. Ira was doing what the psychopath does so well: viewing his reality as some fictional construct, projecting himself onto the others. His literary-inspired romantic ideas were imposed on Rita, and he thought he could control the entire drama the way a writer controls the development of a novel. Rita explained: “Eventually he got into all these fantasies. But I never really took it very personally somehow, because he was so far removed from reality. The, quote, great romance of the century, was what was in his head and he was fantasizing, but that wasn’t what was happening at all. I never got the feeling that this was a love relationship. I got the feeling it was a sick relationship.”
In short, the words didn’t match the action — the clue to the psychopathic personality. Like the rest of us might be, Rita was probably reluctant to end the relationship because she was afraid she would “hurt” Ira’s feelings. After all, when somebody declares that the Sun and Moon rise and set in your eyes, you sort of think that they have real emotions, right? With all his reading, Ira undoubtedly had some really good lines!
Rita allowed the relationship to continue through the spring and into the summer. She took a summer job in Hanover, New Hampshire, and even though she already had the idea that Ira was a really strange person, she allowed him to move in with her.
Ira’s lack of direct contact with Peckham or Hoffman seems to have released him from any restraints that might have modified his behavior, and his reading was gradually taking over his entire reality. He was reading Nietzsche, Lawrence, Henry Miller, Marquis de Sade — and some of his ideas frightened Rita. She said: “It was as if somebody were talking about something, and dreaming about something, and fantasizing about something, and all of a sudden he would become the thing itself. And he would start glaring at you, and leering at you.”
Rita reports that at such times she felt that Ira would actually do harm to her if she didn’t get away from him. “I could see when he’d be clicking into crazy, and I’d just run, physically get out of there. I was fast… he couldn’t catch me. Who knows what he would have done if he’d caught me. It was like that.”
As the days passed, Ira continued poring over texts, and Rita became more and more uncomfortable with his presence, though she was also afraid to leave. At the point he began to experiment with torturing cats, she realized that he was really quite capable of terrible things.
Yes indeed, our esteemed guru of “make love, not war,” our guide to “save the planet,” the guy who keeps saying “I did not kill Holly,” was torturing helpless animals. Here we have found the last piece of the psychopathic puzzle. Of course, Ira is outraged that his journals were handed over to Levy, because what Ira was writing in his journals in late June of 1962 happens to correspond to Rita’s descriptions of her experiences, with the added factor that we begin to see just how sick this turkey really is:
Sadism — sounds nice — run it over your tongue — contemplate with joy the pains of others as you expire with an excruciating satisfaction. Project outward the vision of inward darkness. Let no cesspool of inner meaning be concealed. Reveal the filth that you are. Know the animal is always there.… Beauty and innocence must be violated for they can’t be possessed. The sacred mystery of another must be preserved — only death can do that. (Quoted in Levy, 1988; this author’s emphasis)
Whoa! You don’t have to be Siggy Freud to figure that one out! But what is crucial is that Ira has told us here why he kept Holly’s body in a trunk. That was who he really was. The attempt to dispose of it was merely a thin veneer of humanness that was quickly overridden with the small frustration of failure. What is more, Ira has told us more than we wanted to know about what went on at, or after, the time Holly was beaten to death. I’m not sure if people who get their cookies from hurting other people are also likely to be necrophiliacs, but I’ve read a few cases that would turn your stomach. I keep hearing Ira say: “I was in the bathtub when Holly left,” and the image that brings is a nightmare. Not only that, but the date of the last newspaper in the trunk where Holly’s body was found was four days after the murder. What was Ira doing with Holly for four days?
Back to 1962: Rita figured that her summer job would soon be over and she would return to school. She hoped that this would create the opportunity to extricate herself from Ira’s clutches gracefully. She had tried to be honest and deal with him like a normal human being. She made it clear that when September came, she did not wish to continue the relationship. What is interesting is that her expression of her wish to break up took on the form of a “moral failure” in Ira’s mind. He, of course, was perfect and long-suffering. On July 28, he wrote in his journal:
Rita and I have come to an impasse — I can no longer tolerate either her selfishness or lack of faith. To give and give some more is my desire, but not to one so unthinking as her. My dreams are realizable and will not be snuffed out by the fear of anyone — I too have a right to a life of my own and to that I will dedicate myself. She lacks faith and the ability to respect another: Without these qualities, no matter what she is, she is as nothing. Come September and all is over. The pieces will be picked up and all started anew. The progress of my soul must not be crushed by the failings of a selfish young woman. So good-bye my love and good luck to my replacement — may he be more willing to be taken advantage of. (quoted in Levy, 1988)
In the above remarks, what catches my eye is Ira’s remark, “my dreams are realizable and will not be snuffed out by the fear of anyone.” Just exactly what “dreams” did he wish to realize that Rita was afraid of? Why did he later relate this to the “progress of my soul” that was “crushed by the failings of a selfish” woman? What, exactly, did he want to do that she refused to participate in? What “progress” of soul was he thinking about since he was also writing, “let no cesspool of inner meaning be concealed. Reveal the filth that you are. Know that the animal is always there.…”?
On July 30 Ira had just read Venus in Furs, a sadomasochistic classic. As soon as he finished the book, he wrote in his journal:
We so carefully hide the blackness of our soul from all those around us (even ourselves) we forget so easily the impulses of power which unconsciously control so many of our actions! A book like Venus in Furs reminds us of what we are — blackness and light. To beat a woman — what joy — to bite her breasts and ass — how delightful — to have her return the favor in our sensitive areas. How is life to be lived? That is what the book asks unknowingly. Should we subjugate or be subjugated. Realize our darkness or at least become aware of it. Can I love Rita as she is or must I break her spirit. Does she provide me with what I want. Often I think not. Investigate — plunge deeply — leave no stone unturned. You are one of the rare free spirits do not be saddled by one who isn’t. Life to be lived at its full must be lived freely. Let nothing stand in your way to getting what you can — not even the illusion of love which you know to be so transitory. (quoted in Levy, 1988)
Were there marks on Holly’s body that Ira knew could identify him? Is that a reason he decided it was too risky to just dispose of it?
Rita had returned to Bennington at this point. Ira went after her and found her in her dormitory room, and she made it clear that he ought to leave, that she did not want him there. Here we find what may have been the model of the story about the girl who fled to her dormitory in terror of what Ira had said to her:
“I probably said, ‘We need to end this thing.’” she says. It was then that she perceived that silent click that told her that Ira had shifted into a darkly determined being. The shift was difficult to explain. It wasn’t like he lost his reality,” she says. “He totally knew what he was doing. He just went over and locked the door. It was quiet, premeditated. It wasn’t a rational buildup of temper at all. It was almost like, you watch one of those supernatural movies on television, and eyes change. Like a werewolf. It was like that truly. And so I knew then when that happened I was in the room with a madman.”
The room was not large, and there was only one door. “I could have gotten out if I had been a more assertive person,” says Rita, thinking back to when she was nineteen years old and young Ira Einhorn was approaching her with madness in his eyes. “I could have screamed. But I didn’t. I suppose I could have jumped out the window, but I was afraid of getting cut. The man was strong.”
Ira Einhorn moved steadily toward her. He did not rush his movements. For a brief while, Rita Siegal tried to fight him off, but then she let go. Ira Einhorn’s hands were around her neck, choking her. And then she passed out.
On July 31, 1962, Ira Einhorn wrote: “To kill what you love when you can’t have it seems so natural that strangling Rita last night seemed so right.” (Levy, 1988)
Apparently, Ira shared the incident with his friend, Michael Hoffman. “He talked about how, watching the color of her face change, something clicked at the last minute and he looked up, he let go.”
Ira later tried to convince Rita that he made sure she was still alive. She awoke to find his finger-marks still visible on her throat and spent the night at the school infirmary. She did not press charges against Ira, but she did talk with school authorities, who banned Ira from the campus.
Steven Levy comments about Ira’s “strange” reaction to the incident. After all, this event could have ended his career before it even started. He suggests that Ira “tried to will it to insignificance.” But we know better by now. The psychopath does not have to “will” anything to insignificance. Everything but their own will is insignificant. His reaction to it also reminds us of Nash and his arrest in California for trying to come on to a cop in a public restroom. Sylvia Nasar was similarly puzzled by Nash’s “non-reaction.”
Others may have sought help after almost killing a woman, but Ira seemed to regard it as a step in a struggle for self-realization. He did not even seem to think that it need affect his relationship with Rita, and a full month after the incident he wrote that “I want to love Rita (my entire being cries and needs the love we could have) but it is so difficult to anticipate the shifting of her unstable sands. Afraid, trapped, unsure, insecure… but beautiful in the desire which entirely grips her (even though she can’t admit it to herself) to realize what she has.…” (Levy, 1988)
Say what? The woman told him to get lost. He tried to kill her. Now he is saying that her fear of him is the “shifting of her unstable sands”?! She is gripped by desire for Ira, only she just doesn’t know it?
In your dreams, buddy!
What really bugs me is the fact that Ira’s friend, Michael Hoffman, knew about this for years.
Ira later said, “I think people should be able to hit each other occasionally within the context of a structured situation where the violence is understood and accepted.”
The end of Ira’s one-sided relationship with Rita was a thorn in his flesh. He wrote to Michael Hoffman: “The melancholy that had plagued me like a silent specter ever since Rita left for good… I still love Rita but my spirit does not brood over lost glory or rage about with a fine frenzy; it has learned to sit and wait — to care and not to care and to be assured of others who will pursue the mystic union of flesh with the same ardor as the one I lost.”
Is the reader thoroughly sick of this guy yet? Is your stomach churning? Do you feel like you don’t want to eat anything at the thought of somebody like that being out there in New Age Land, pretending to be an all-wise, all-knowing, caring and huggy-bear type of guru?
Remember what Gurdjieff said about the activities of these “automatons,” and our reactions to them; also, what Reich said about the intolerance and cruelty with which irrationality and illusion are expressed and our relationship with cosmic energy.
This brings us back to Alternative 3, of which one of the main premises is the “joint US/USSR space program that is concealed by political posturing and maneuvers.” Keeping in mind that disinformation is generally composed of truth wrapping a lie, we can suppose that there is, indeed, a “One World Government” at some level, where the US and Russia are unified in some effort. But it seems sort of transparently obvious that the statement is promoting the idea that it is a human government. The statement seems designed to distract our attention from the extremely advanced technological capabilities of hyperdimensional existence and focus it on a somewhat advanced human technology.
We have asked the question: What kinds of minds develop and operate within these “rules.” We have looked at John Nash and Ira Einhorn.
Game Theory is all about gaining control of the free will of others. In Game Theory, the best way to know what knowledge or beliefs the players have is most easily controlled by creating the beliefs that assist in the covering up of the information that would assist the player in formulating a winning strategy.
Are you offended by reading about Ira Einhorn? Do you feel that it doesn’t belong on a site that deals with the development of knowledge and skills designed to set man free?
Please allow me to remind you that, based on the research I have read, the importance of psychopathy in the present day cannot be overstated. Simply put, it is a growing phenomenon and it is going to impact every single one of us individually and collectively in the not-too-distant future. It is also extremely important to understand psychopathy in order to fully understand Game Theory, and how it is the underlying dynamic being used at the present time to move all the pieces into place for the Secret Games of the Gods. As the Cassiopaeans say, “knowledge protects,” and the knowledge of the functional modes of the psychopath could save your life.
In order to understand why it is necessary to learn these things about our reality — unpleasant though they be — consider the fact that a physician must study diseases in order to be able to heal them. In this way, Ira Einhorn is a gift. Indeed, it is true that many, if not most, psychopaths never commit heinous murders. But Ira Einhorn did, and the fact that he did, all the while presenting a carefully nurtured public image as a teacher of “spiritual principles” is a goldmine of knowledge. Because Ira also kept journals, which have given us a rare look inside the mind of the psychopath.
As we have noted, psychopaths have a more detrimental effect on our society than all other psychiatric disorders combined. So few people are even aware of this fact. They may know all about schizophrenia, or bipolar disorders, or ADHD, or whatever, because all of those things can be medicated and controlled to one extent or another. Also, they are disabling to the individual. Conversely, the chief thing about psychopathy is that it is not disabling to the individual unless certain other factors are present. In general, psychopaths always manage to do very well for themselves. People ask, “Isn’t psychopathy maladaptive?” The terrifying answer is: It may be maladaptive for society, but it is adaptive for the psychopaths themselves.
Why does it seem that we have a veritable epidemic of psychopaths? Sociobiologists are suggesting that increasing psychopathy is an expression of a particular genetically based reproductive strategy. Simply put, most people have a couple of children and devote a lot of time and effort to their care. Psychopaths systematically mate with and abandon large numbers of women. They waste little of their energy raising children, and in this way, psychopathic genes are being propagated like wildfire. The sociobiologists aren’t saying that the sexual behavior of people is consciously directed, only that “nature” has made them a certain way so that it will happen effectively.
We have come full circle. Over and over again we come up against that little problem: religion and belief systems that have to be defended against objective evidence or the beliefs of others. We have to ask ourselves, “Where did these belief systems come from that so evidentially are catastrophic?” Then, we have to think about the fact that now, in the present day, when many of these systems are breaking down and being replaced by others that similarly divert our attention away from what is, it becomes necessary to “enforce” a certain mode of thinking. That is what psychopaths do best.
Psychopaths dominate and set the standard for behavior in our society. We live in a world based on a psychopathic, energy-stealing food chain, because that’s just the way things are. Most people are so damaged they no longer have the capacity to even imagine a different system based on a symbiotic network.
With the brief review we have examined, we are acutely aware that this is not a phenomenon confined to our present “time.” It is a trans-millennial program that, step by step, has brought us to our present position. What emerges in the present day is just Machiavellian diversion that focuses the attention of those who are easily deceived. This is reinforced by the “clappers” in the audience, and there seems to be an entire army of psychopaths among us whose job it is to act as vectors of attention and direction.
“Contemporary culture requires automatons. … One thing alone is certain, that man’s slavery grows and increases. Man is becoming a willing slave. He no longer needs chains. He begins to grow fond of his slavery, to be proud of it. And this is the most terrible thing that can happen to a man.” (Ouspensky, 1949)
Intolerance and cruelty are needed to guarantee the “cover-up.” A certain kind of “human being” acts on behalf of this cover-up. In this sense, psychopaths, as alien reaction machines, are the playing pieces in the Secret Games of the Gods.
Let’s now talk about Game Theory. I don’t profess to be an expert, and I have to admit some difficulty in dealing with the “jargon,” but after wading through a number of texts on the subject, I have enough of a grasp to realize just how these ideas are being used on every one of us here and now, on a global level.
Some of you have wondered why I have lingered so long over the subject of psychopaths. Well, there is a reason for it, and it isn’t just personal. You see, it has been through interactions with them, while being guided by the Cassiopaeans, that I have been able, step by step, to come to some understanding of psychopathy. The way the entire dynamic unfolded made it clear to me that there was a deep lesson here. Of course, I didn’t get it all at once. It was only when I was able to put the John Nash piece into the puzzle that I comprehended that this lesson is a microcosmic view of the entire STS reality.
It was with deep shock that I understood that the basic mode of the psychopath is that of Nash’s contribution to Game Theory, and that Game Theory is the means by which a trap is being closed on humanity. It was then that I came to the idea that if we can really get this one, if we can really wrap our minds around the psychopath, we can then use that knowledge to “see through” the games at the many different levels. I also came to the idea that, by understanding Game Theory, we could learn the strategies, and learn to avoid being entrapped.
Aside from the prosaic reason of wanting to avoid the pain and suffering that is the ultimate end of any relationship with a psychopath, there is also a deeper reason: conservation of energy for transition. See Appendix B for some excerpts from the Cassiopaeans that will make this objective clear.
There are a couple of remarks from the provided excerpts that particularly struck me. The first ones are the two remarks about dancing, which I would like to compare: “In fact, remember, it takes two to tango, and if you are both tangoing when the dance hall bursts into flames, you both get burned!!!” and “You are dancing on the 3rd density ballroom floor. Alice likes to go through the looking glass at the Crystal Palace. Atlantean reincarnation surge brings on the urge to have a repeat performance.”
The first remark was given in the context of what could be described as personal interactions or relations with psychopaths, or other 4th density STS “conduits of attack.” The second remark was made in reference to the global control grid, which suggests that our present state is a mirror image of the conditions that existed at the time of the destruction of Atlantis. In both cases, it is suggested that failure to identify and disengage from the dynamic is a de facto choice for the STS dynamic. And, as noted by the Cassiopaeans: When you play in the dirt, you get dirty.
On other occasions, the Cassiopaeans have mentioned that much of the “secret activity” — i.e. the “Alternative 3” ideas — that is really going on is related to the implementation of the Atlantean crystal principles — i.e. total control of humanity as we have described in Chapters 57 and 58. That it might be essential for certain “automatons” or “psychopaths” to be sprinkled liberally throughout the population in order to “play the game” is a logical conclusion.
05-04-96
Q: (L) You once said that HAARP was something that was to be used to “transfer perimeters.” I am assuming that this means to manipulate space, time and density.
A: Yes.
Q: Is it possible that they are planning to use this to bring up the Atlantean crystals to utilize.
A: Not so much to “bring up,” as to utilize.
06-09-96
Q: (L) Once before you said that the HAARP assembly was a continuation of the Montauk project, and was being used to “transfer perimeters.” I guess this meant space/time travel, correct?
A: Yes. And resurrect Atlantean crystal principle.
Q: (L) Do they plan to actually attempt to bring up the Atlantean crystals?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do they plan to use this for mind control?
A: And other uses.
In the very first session with the Cassiopaeans on July 16, 1994, the seriousness of our situation was described, and we were appalled. After all the many “love and light” messages of other sources, being told that we were in a real fix here was disconcerting, to say the least. I was horrified and asked:
Q: Why is this happening to us?
A: Karma.
Q: (L) What kind of Karma could bring this?
A: Atlantis. […]
Q: (L) What can protect us?
A: Knowledge.
Q: (L) How do we get this knowledge?
A: You are being given it now.
Q: (L) What knowledge do you mean?
A: You have it. […]
Q: (L) How do we get this knowledge?
A: Deep subconscious.
Q: (L) When did we get it?
A: Before birth.
Q: (L) Is there anything else we can do for protection?
A: Learn, meditate, read.
Q: (L) Are we doing what we need to be doing at the present?
A: So far. Need awaken.
The item about Atlantean karma being the dynamic that is being currently replayed in our time-loop existence has been discussed already to some extent. The factor that many people do not realize is that the United States is the “Reincarnation” of Atlantis. According to Edgar Cayce, Atlantis was destroyed in “three stages.” The Cassiopaeans have connected the Nazi agenda to some future event, and we can even suggest that WWI and WWII were the dynamic replays of the first two “stages” of the destruction of Atlantis. We are now approaching the third stage, and psychopaths are major players in the drama.
07-25-98
Q: (L) I read the new book [The Threat] by Dr. David Jacobs, professor of History at Temple University, concerning his extensive research into the alien abduction phenomenon. [Dr. Jacobs wrote his Ph.D. thesis on the history of the UFOs.] Dr. Jacobs says that now, after all of these years of somewhat rigorous research, that he knows what the aliens are here for and he is afraid. David Jacobs says that producing offspring is the primary objective behind the abduction phenomenon. Is this, in fact, the case?
A: Part, but not “the whole thing.”
Q: (L) Is there another dominant reason?
A: Replacement.
Q: (L) Replacement of what?
A: You.
Q: (L) How do you mean? Creating a race to replace human beings, or abducting specific humans to replace them with a clone or whatever?
A: Mainly the former. You see, if one desires to create a new race, what better way than to mass hybridize, then mass reincarnate. Especially when the host species is so forever ignorant, controlled, and anthropocentric. What a lovely environment for total destruction and conquest and replacement… see?
Q: (L) Well, that answered my other question about the objective. Well, here in the book, Dr. Jacobs says that there is ongoing abductions through particular families. I quote: “Beyond protecting the fetus, there are other reasons for secrecy. If abductions are, as all the evidence clearly indicates, an intergenerational phenomenon in which the children of abductees are themselves abductees, then one of the aliens’ goals is the generation of more abductees. Are all children of abductees incorporated into the phenomenon? The evidence suggests that the answer is yes. If an abductee has children with a non-abductee, the chances are that all their descendants will be abductees. This means that through normal population increase, divorce, remarriage and so on, the abductee population will increase quickly throughout the generations. When those children grow and marry and have children of their own, all of their children, whether they marry an abductee or non-abductee, will be abductees. To protect the intergenerational nature of the breeding program, it must be kept secret from the abductees so that they will continue to have children. If the abductees knew that the program was intergenerational, they might elect not to have children. This would bring a critical part of the program to a halt, which the aliens cannot allow. The final reason for secrecy is to expand the breeding program, to integrate laterally in society, the aliens must make sure that abductees mate with non-abductees and produce abductee children.”
A: We have told you before: The Nazi experience was a “trial run,” and by now you see the similarities, do you not? […] Now, we have also told you that the experience of the “Native Americans” vis a vis the Europeans may be a precursor in microcosm. Also, what Earthian 3rd density does to Terran 2nd density should offer “food for thought.” In other words, thou are not so special, despiteth thy perspective, eh? And we have also warned that after conversion of Earth humans to 4th density, the Orion 4th density and their allies hope to control you “there.” Now put this all together and what have you? At least you should by now know that it is the soul that matters, not the body. Others have genetically, spiritually and psychically manipulated/engineered you to be bodycentric. Interesting, as despite all efforts by 4th through 6th density STO, this “veil remains unbroken.”
But back to the items that attracted my attention in the excerpts given above: The comments about dancing, given in terms of personal and global connections, suggest to us that “engagement” with those who are acting as STS conduits is designed to drain our energy. The Cassiopaeans clearly remarked to my brother that interaction with such persons drains one’s energy and prevents the accomplishment of what is important.
The next item was, of course, that which relates to Frequency Resonance Vibration (FRV). The Cassiopaeans said: “Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.” Putting this together with my questions about STO “ascension,” the Cassiopaeans said that “STO tends to do the process within the natural flow of things. STS seeks to alter creation processes to fit their ends.” Putting that together with the all-important clue…
Q: (A) Are there some particular DNA sequences that facilitate transmission between densities?
A: Addition of strands.
Q: (L) How do you get added strands?
A: You don’t get, you receive.
Q: (L) Where are they received from?
A: Interaction with upcoming wave, if vibration is aligned.
…we come to the realization that identifying and disconnecting from psychopaths and other conduits of attack is crucial to our Frequency Resonance Vibration. As Don Juan pointed out, we have to “grow” our awareness, and this is not an easy task. Discerning the predator’s mind in ourselves and others and refusing to be its food is the all-important task of work on the self. It is, in fact, the path to enlightenment. If we cannot accomplish this, we cannot achieve sufficient awareness to be able to even see the next step on the journey. Which reminds us of that curious series of remarks:
08-16-97
Q: Well, I am lost in a sea of puzzle pieces and I have not even begun to try to assemble them!
A: Step by step.
Q: We have the phoenix, cranes, herons, doves, ravens, and all are related somehow to speech or writing. Why are all these birds related this way?
A: Pass the test.
Q: What do you mean “pass the test”?
A: Discover.
Q: Well, writing is related to the words for cutting and inscribing and even shearing and sharks. You called the Etruscans “Penitent Avian Lords,” who were also “Templar Carriers.” Is this related to these bird images? Then related to speech, writing and shearing?
A: Pass the test.
Q: So, if you are writing, and you pass the test, then you can be a phoenix, dove or whatever?
A: Discover.
Those of you who are familiar with alchemical literature would have instantly understood the above reference to the Conference of the Birds by Farid Ud-Din Attar. At the time of the questions, I was not acquainted with this work. But I was familiar with a previous “test” that had been identified by the Cassiopaeans, though I was not yet fully aware of all the implications. As it happened, it was through the activity of “SV” that Frank first “revealed” himself, as I have already described in an earlier volume. When the time came to ask questions about this, the deeper clue about Frank himself just went right over my head:
03-23-96
A: SV is storehouse of vital information, clue for you was in name, but you failed to notice! […] This is why the frustration is for you; nothing of value comes without a price!!
Q: (L) Number one, SV has lied to us. Number two, it seems that she began to demonstrate emotional affect, after we had discussed the fact that there was a serious lack of emotional affect, after you had told us that these robot people are people who spend a lot of time alone and have.…
A: The price, my dear, continues.…
Q: (V) By continuing the relationship?
A: The Nordic Covenant was a duality.
The remark “the price, my dear, continues” puzzled the heck out of me, because I had pretty much made up my mind that I would terminate any relations with SV. The Cassiopaeans pulled me up short by saying:
A: All persons of Nordic heritage hold secret power centers, can be of darkness, or of light.… SV is of Teutonic bloodline leading directly to such super power source, such as Thule Society and others, and she is aware of her powers and mission. It is of positive orientation. However, you are being tested by 4th through 6th density forces to determine if you have the strength and wisdom for continuance! […]
Q: (L) Is there any significance to the fact that SV spent all of those years living with the Outlaws motorcycle gang and this covenant?
A: Yes, and that is what has led and is leading to the destruction of the “Outlaws,” a group associated directly with 4th density STS.
Q: (V) Her presence there caused them to break up? This was a good thing. Is this what is meant here? That her presence was uplifting to them? (L) Well, it’s not uplifting them, it’s breaking them; they are all going to jail!
A: Yes and because of circumstances planted by “Agent SV.” This is why the perceived lack of emotion connected with that whole situation. Vitale is the bravest human you have ever known! All evidence to the contrary is veil; part of the testing process.
Q: (L) If we’re being tested, why are you telling us? (V) So that you do not fail?
A: Yes. […] Vital that you do not fail.
Q: (V) Is there a pivotal word that might break this open to a clearer understanding?
A: Discover.
The “test” in the above case was to determine if I was able to see “through” the words of the Cassiopaeans themselves and to realize that, in order to preserve free will, the choice had to be totally mine, based on my own examination of the data and my own conclusions about what that data implied. They couldn’t tell me directly, and so chose the opposite course of contradictory statements to challenge my awareness. For example, connecting SV to the Thule society, which the Cassiopaeans had already identified as part of the STS consortium, and then pronouncing it a “positive” mission, was so contradictory that I was being challenged to think about the whole thing very carefully. I came to the realization that this was what the Cassiopaeans were doing, telling me something deep and important in code:
Q: (L) Well, OK, I’m going to trust you guys, and I’m going to go with the flow, and I’m going to assume that you are right, and I’m going to assume that this is for the best and for the good, and I’m going to stop my knee-jerk reactions, and stop worrying about such things.
A: Suggest you look before you leap. All can be wrong in their quick judgments, whether the result be acceptance or rejection. All is not as it seems.… Remember, those that come into your group, or your circle of influence, can be different than you think. […]
Q: (L) You said we were being tested. Tested for what?
A: Continuance.
Q: (L) Continuance of what?
A: All.
Q: (L) Continuance of all. OK, and we are being tested through SV?
A: Currently.
Q: (L) Are you saying that what we have been considering attacks were just tests?
A: The ones associated with Vitale. And no, all with that name are not of this orientation, but this clue was installed for you.
Of course, the major attack that was “associated with Vitale” was the incident when Frank’s true nature was revealed, as described in a previous volume, but which I “shoved under the rug” in favor of my programming to “turn the other cheek.” It was after the termination of the session that the realization fully dawned on me about what I was supposed to be “getting.” I understood in a flash the “coded” nature of what the Cassiopaeans had been saying, and the resolve formed in my mind that I was not going to accept the identification of SV as a “positive” person, and that I was even being challenged to consider Frank as the individual who needed to be observed and learned about in order to “pass the test.” With this resolve in my mind, I asked for the Cassiopaeans to come back and comment on my “internal” questions and conclusions, though I didn’t want to voice them as they were formulated in my mind.
Q: Hello. Are you there? I am not comfortable with this information about SV. It seems to be contradictory to everything I can observe and feel.
A: Hiklu Cassiopaea. Worry not further! Discomfort is not necessarily danger, and is indicative of growth and learning. So, proceed and celebrate!!
So, apparently, I passed that test. But, of course, the Cassiopaeans did say that I was only “currently” being “tested” through SV. This meant that there were more such “tests” to come. Indeed, that is the case, and it is precisely the type of “testing” that ultimately leads us to the goal: The Conference of the Birds.
The Conference of the Birds is a philosophical-religious poem in prose written by a twelfth-century Persian poet and Sufi mystic. The story starts with all the birds of the world, known and unknown, assembled together and discussing the quest for a king. The Hoopoe addresses the gathering of birds, urging them to set out on the quest for the Lord of Creation, the Simurgh. The journey consists of many trials and tests. Of all the thousands of birds who start on the journey, only thirty make it to the end.
It was, of course, only after reading this wonderful little book that I understood the nature of the tests that the Cassiopaeans referred to. It is this that I am trying to convey, share and make available to those who “resonate.”
For the individual who wrote to complain that this subject is not going to bring “enlightenment,” think again. I hardly think that the Cassiopaeans would have so subtly guided me through these learning experiences, which are often protracted and painful, if it were not for a reason. If I have benefited from it — and I can assure you it has been remarkably freeing to come to this understanding — perhaps I can share it to the extent that when any of readers encounter it who haven’t already done so, you will be armed with the prior knowledge that will make the process “smoother,” as the Cassiopaeans say. Also, thanks to those who have written of similar successes in becoming free! Your stories are inspiring, and reassuring that our opinion of the importance of this subject is not overstated!
Now, back to games. Game Theory stands on two theorems: von Neumann’s “min-max theorem” of 1928, and Nash’s equilibrium theorem of 1950. Von Neumann’s ideas are the cornerstone of games of pure opposition, or “two-person zero-sum games” as they call them in mathematical terms. As it happens, two-person games have no real relevance in the real world. It wasn’t until Nash came along that the distinction between cooperative and non-cooperative games was introduced.
Cooperative games are games in which players can make enforceable agreements with other players. That is to say, as a group they can fully commit themselves to specific strategies. Non-cooperative games posit that collective commitment is impossible. There are no enforceable agreements. By expanding the theory to include games that involve a mix of cooperation and competition, Nash opened the door to applications of Game Theory to economics, political science, sociology and even evolutionary biology. We have noted that Morse Peckham must have been seriously influenced by the ideas of games in his role as a “social historian.”
In general, the outcome of a game for any one of the players depends on what all the other players choose to do and vice versa. This means that such games are “interdependent.” Games like tic-tac-toe, hangman and chess involve one kind of interdependence, because each of the players moves in turn and has a chance to be aware of the moves of the other and to analyze them before making his or her own move. In such cases, each player will look ahead to possible moves and how they will affect him, he will try to assess the likelihood of these various moves by the other player, and will then reason “back” to his current situation and pick a move based on these analyses. In such games, the players have to anticipate and assume not only the strategy of the other player, but how that other player will respond to his next move, and so on. The player’s best strategy can be determined by looking ahead to every possible outcome. In chess, these calculations are too complex, so the players only look ahead a few moves at a time and constantly adjust their strategy based on their experience of the other player.
Games like poker, on the other hand, consist of simultaneous plays wherein the players are ignorant of the other player’s current state or possible actions. They are forced to think, “I think he thinks that I think that he thinks that I think…” and so on. Each must figuratively put himself in the place of the other player and try to calculate the outcome, including his own move.
Such games, where there is a lack of information which leads to a logical circle that just goes around and around, are what is dealt with by Nash’s concept of equilibrium wherein each player picks his best move based on the idea that each of the other players will also pick a “best move,” or will have a “best situation” from which to play.
The problem is: The way the theorem is described is very confusing because of the jargon. Nash defined equilibrium as “a situation in which no player could improve his or her position by choosing an alternative available strategy, without implying that each person’s privately held best choice will lead to a collectively optimal result.” But the bottom line is this: Nash’s equilibrium states that each player ought to assume that the other player is out to screw him royally and is probably in a position to do so, and therefore he must use the strategy that is optimal — which is either to submit completely, because he knows he doesn’t have a good position or a good move available and the other guy is going to decimate him, or — assuming his position is such that he just can’t lose — to screw the other player firstest and mostest.
Today, Nash’s concept of equilibrium from strategic games is one of the basic paradigms in social sciences and biology. He got a Nobel Prize for coming up with the idea.
Nash, Shapley, Shubic and McCarthy, along with another student at Princeton, invented a game involving coalitions and double-crosses. Nash called the game “Fuck You, Buddy.” It was later published under the name “So Long, Sucker.” Nash and the gang created a complicated set of rules designed to force players to join forces with one another to advance, but ultimately to double-cross each other in order to win. The point of the game was to produce psychological mayhem, and apparently, it worked. Sylvia Nasar records that McCarthy remembers losing his temper after Nash cold-bloodedly dumped him on the second-to-last round, and that Nash was absolutely astonished that McCarthy could get so emotional. “But I didn’t need you anymore,” Nash kept saying over and over again.
Keep this game in mind because it is the essence of Nash’s ideas: To force cooperation to advance, followed by a big double cross in which only one player is the winner.
Sounds a lot like the current-day craze of “survival” shows, yes? Which of course, leads us to wonder what kind of “programming” or “example” such things are setting up as models for human behavior. More importantly: Why?
Nash’s Game Theory was all the buzz at RAND even before he arrived there under contract. RAND had been, prior to Nash’s ideas, preoccupied with games of total conflict between two players, as defined by von Neumann, since that seemed to fit the problem of nuclear issues between two superpowers. However, as weapons got ever more destructive, the idea of all-out war was seen as a situation in which both players might have a common interest. Bombing the enemy back to the Stone Age no longer made any sense because it could lead to a war of complete extermination on both sides.
Von Neumann had long believed that RAND ought to focus on “cooperative games.” That is, games that ought to be played “sequentially.” Such games should involve “moves” based on information, such as in chess or tic-tac-toe. Players ought to communicate and discuss the situation and agree on rational, joint action. In such games, there is cooperation and collaboration, and an umpire around to enforce the agreement.
Economists, however, did not like Von Neumann’s ideas. They said that it was like saying that our only hope for preventing a dangerous and wasteful arms race lay in appointing a world government with the power to enforce simultaneous disarmament. As it happens, a “One World Government,” composed of member nations, was a very popular idea among mathematicians and scientists at the time.
But the social scientists —the economists —were doubtful of the idea that any nation, much less the Russians, would cede sovereignty to such an organization. In other words, in Cooperative Game Theory, who’s going to force the other side to cooperate?
But Nash came along and solved the problem. He demonstrated that non-cooperative games could have stable solutions. In short, one “player” could have a strategy in which they “force players to join forces with one another to advance, but ultimately to double-cross the other players in order to win.”
To put this in practical terms: A One World Government might be advocated by a major player, promoted, set up, and all the other players might follow the rules — but that one player has every intention of being the One World Government and overthrowing the powers of all the other players at the last instant.
Now, just what government in the world today seems to be playing Nash’s strategy? Take your time. There’s no hurry.
Nash’s theory inspired the most famous game of strategy of all social scientists, called the “Prisoner’s Dilemma,” which goes as follows: Imagine that the police arrest two suspects and interrogate them in separate rooms. Each one is given the choice of confessing, implicating the other, or keeping silent.
No matter what the other suspect does, each suspect’s outcome — considered alone — would be better if he confessed. If one suspect confesses, the other ought to do the same and thereby avoid the harsher penalty for holding out. If one of them remains silent, the other one can confess, cut a deal for turning state’s evidence, and the one who remains silent gets the whammy. Confession — or “cooperation” — is the “dominant strategy.” Since each is aware of the other’s incentive to confess, it is “rational” for both to confess.
Here we come to the realization of the power of the psychopath, and how Game Theory is being “used” against us. You see, the psychopath, having no conscience, does not have the ability to “imagine” the consequences of non-cooperation in terms of being able to “feel” it. Without this ability to imaginatively feel the consequences, he is virtually fearless, and can therefore direct his behavior according to his own fantasized outcome with no regard whatsoever to reality, remembered experiences, the imagined experiences of others and so forth. That is to say, for the psychopath, rationality is determined by virtue of the idea that it is self-serving to the max. “Rationality” is the assumption that everyone else is looking out for Number One, and to hell with everybody else.
Never confessing thus becomes the psychopath’s “dominant strategy.”
The reader will probably immediately see the dynamic of human relations involving a psychopathic personality and a “normal” human. Psychopaths, having no conscience, always play their dominant strategy, which is totally “rational” without the influence of emotions conjured up by imagination. They do not modify their behavior or choices based on emotion or consideration for the feelings or motivations of others. They will implicate the normal person in the Prisoner’s Dilemma, and will refuse to confess their own guilt, because they simply have no ability to perceive hurting another as morally reprehensible. This is the psychopath’s “dominant strategy.” They will never, in such a situation, consider cooperation.
Normal people, on the other hand, having conscience and emotion, will make choices based on imagination reinforced by emotion. In some cases, in the Prisoner’s Dilemma, they will refuse to confess out of loyalty to the other, never realizing that the other might be a psychopath who has not only refused to confess his own guilt, but has undertaken to make a deal for himself by implicating the other. Some people may even confess in order to “save” the other person from suffering pain, never realizing that they have been manipulated into this role by a psychopath who is all the while saying, “Yes, he did it! I am innocent!,” and when, in fact, the truth is the exact opposite.
It’s easy to see that in any interaction between a psychopath and a normal person with full range of emotions, the psychopath will always “win.”
Two of the scientists at RAND set up some experiments using a couple of other scientist-contractors as “guinea pigs.” They wondered if real people playing the game would be mysteriously drawn into the “equilibrium strategy.” They ran the experiment 100 times. Nash’s theory predicted that both players would play their “self-serving” strategies, even though playing their “cooperative” strategies would have left both better off. As it turned out, the results of these trials did not turn out according to Nash’s theory. Why? Because the two scientists tended to choose cooperation more often than cheating. Once they had realized that players ought to cooperate to maximize their winnings, that is the strategy they chose.
When Nash learned of the experiment, he wrote: “The flaw in the experiment as a test of equilibrium point theory is that… there is too much interaction. […] One would have thought them more rational” (quoted by Nasar, 1998). In short, the players had consciences, and this contributed to their choice of maneuvers.
At RAND, Nash devised a model of negotiation between two parties whose interests neither coincide nor are exactly opposed. It is a classic example of what we see taking place in our world today:
Stage One: Each player chooses a threat and says “This is what I’ll be forced to do if our demands are incompatible and we can’t make a deal.”
Stage Two: The players inform each other of the threats.
Stage Three: Each player chooses a demand that he thinks is worth agreeing for. If the deal doesn’t guarantee him that, at least, no deal.
Stage Four: If the deal is made (under threat, mind you), both players get what they want. If not, the threats must be executed. This means, don’t threaten what you really can’t deliver, and always deliver what you threaten.
Nash showed that each player has an “optimal threat,” or the threat that ensures the deal no matter what the other player chooses. Again, do we see this style of play in operation today? Either in terms of politics, or in terms of the relations between government and the people?
Now, coming back to psychopaths: It is fairly easy to see that they often manipulate others to join forces with them in order to help them to advance, but ultimately, when they don’t “need them” anymore, they double-cross the others in order to win. The result is deliberate psychological mayhem.
In short, it isn’t even necessary for a grand and logistically complex government mind-control program to be in operation in order to produce the conditions necessary to ultimately enforce total controls on humanity. It is only necessary to have strategically placed psychopaths in the population, to train and influence selected ones in particular ways through what would be seen on the surface as “ordinary means,” and simply calculate the fact that they will always operate with their dominant strategy — serving self.
I expect that the reader is beginning to make all kinds of connections regarding how Game Theory may be being utilized to bring the world to heel.
In December 1994, Vice-President Al Gore announced the opening of the “greatest auction ever.” What was being auctioned was “thin air.” Billions of dollars were bid for licenses to broadcast airwaves for things that employ wireless communications. (Think about Ma Bell and her connection to Morse Pinkham, Ira Einhorn, Uri Geller and others.) When the auction finally closed in March 1995, the winning bids totaled more than seven-billion bucks, making it the biggest sale in American history. It was, in fact, the sale of public assets. By the late spring, another three-billion dollars had been raised in Washington in similar auctions. The press and the politicians were ecstatic. The corporate giants had been able to protect themselves from competition, and they all called it a “triumph for Game Theory.” Governments from Australia to Argentina have used Game Theory to sell scarce public reprocess to buyers “best able to develop them.”
Enron.
Now, let’s come back to Ira Einhorn. As I noted in the previous chapter, we have a unique situation with Einhorn: a psychopath who kept a journal. As we have also previously quoted (but it bears repeating until we all really get it): “In spite of more than a century of clinical study and speculation and several decades of scientific research, the mystery of the psychopath still remains. Some recent developments have provided us with new insights into the nature of this disturbing disorder, and its borders are becoming more defined. But the fact is, compared with other major clinical disorders, little systematic research has been devoted to psychopathy, even though it is responsible for far more social distress and disruption than all other psychiatric disorders combined.” (Hare, 1999)
Everyone who has written to me about this subject has repeatedly confirmed that you just simply do not know that you are in the clutches of a psychopath until it is almost too late! The individual who wrote complaining that he was not being “enlightened” by studying psychopathy, mentioned that he had been “ripped off” for ten grand and he just “got over it and moved on.” So, naturally, he had decided that this was the correct approach. Don’t try to learn anything from the experience; don’t try to share it so as to help others to avoid future entrapments; just “get over it!”
Well, what if the “psychopath” is a gang of hyperdimensional beings trying to take over the world, rather than just a single guy getting ripped off to the tune of ten grand? What if the “payoff” that you must “get over” is the loss of your soul, or your opportunity to grow beyond the limitations and controls of this reality?
Learning to identify the psychopath by analysis, by finding clues that will aid our tracking, is most definitely an essential tool of enlightenment. As the Hoopoe was described in The Conference of the Birds: “On her breast was the ornament which symbolized that she had entered the way of spiritual knowledge; the crest on her head was as the crown of truth, and she had knowledge of both good and evil.”
What is even more significant is that the mystic writer of this famous series of clues to the achievement of the ultimate quest of the soul has told us that the first words out of the mouth of the Hoopoe are: “I am one who is engaged in divine warfare, and I am a messenger of the world invisible.”
That is, ultimately, the foundation principle of these volumes. We are talking about “Divine Warfare” in practical terms. We are talking about invisible worlds. That means that we must have knowledge of both good and evil. Based on the condition of the world, there is a serious lack of the latter. There is far too much of the “get over it and move on” syndrome, which allows the psychopaths to continue to operate undetected in our reality. We desperately need to find some series of definitive identifiers, some “mark” that we can “see” in the realm of the unseen that will serve as warning. We need to remember that “psychopathy is a personality disorder defined by a distinctive cluster of behaviors and inferred personality traits… [and] diagnosis is based on the accumulation of evidence that an individual satisfies at least the minimal criteria for the disorder.” More importantly, once we have some clue, or warning, we have to understand the strategy of the psychopath, and then we must find within the strength to act in favor of our own destiny, realizing full well that the psychopath, as one who seeks to force his delusions on others, will perceive the choice to “not associate” as being “attacked” in a “morally reprehensible” way, and will use every ploy in the book to reestablish his control by these means.
Since we know that the only things that science can tell us about the psychology of psychopaths are those things which are inferred from a “cluster of behaviors,” we realize that truly seeing inside the mind of a really good psychopath — as he sees himself and the world around him — is something that is hardly likely to happen.
However, with Ira Einhorn, that is exactly what we are presented with. A gift. A window into the soul of the psychopath.
“You know my method. It is founded upon the observance of trifles,” said Sherlock Holmes in Conan Doyle’s The Boscombe Valley Mystery.
It made me almost physically sick to write about Ira Einhorn. It is making me sicker yet to observe the dynamics of the political/economic scene, and to realize fully what maneuvers have been set into motion and what the ultimate objective is. Game Theory reveals to us a scheme that has been mathematically defined, so that it can be utilized to set up the dominoes to fall into place for the purposes of instigating control over the entire world.
Psychopaths like John Nash, Ira Einhorn and others, give us insight into the inner workings of this scheme, without which we are helpless to defend ourselves or even — possibly — to stand firm as anchors of a different outcome. In short, the activities of psychopaths are the microcosm of the macrocosmic service-to-self reality and plan.
As we have noted, part of the disinformation campaign of Alternative 3 includes the idea that “There is a secret joint US/USSR space program that has gone far beyond what the public sees. Astronauts landed on Mars in 1962. It has been discovered that there is other intelligent life in the universe. The earth is dying. We have polluted it beyond repair. The increasing ‘greenhouse effect’ will cause the polar ice caps and glaciers to melt and flood the Earth.” And so on.
All of these ideas — most of them emanating from movements of the 1960s and the spiritualist interests of Andrija Puharich and the Stanford Research Institute (SRI) — coalesce in Ira Einhorn’s “work.” These ideas, having been “adopted” by Einhorn to use in his psychopathic maneuvers, naturally became the keystone for his “I didn’t kill Holly” rant. We must suspect that these are precisely the concepts that were deliberately “planted” in his reality to be utilized in his psychopathic “dominant strategy” of fearless self-preservation. What is less obvious, is whether or not someone — or something — had the awareness that he would eventually commit murder?
The Tyler, Texas issue is going to become most interesting further along. As we have noted, Vincent Bridges has identified himself with Ira Einhorn — and his attempts to further the claims of Einhorn’s finger pointing at Tyler, Texas naturally suggests to us that he chooses to believe Ira’s rant that he did not kill Holly (see Appendix C).
Nevertheless, Einhorn did commit murder and this act could be seen as a “breakdown” in one sense, though this lapse in his camouflage was the natural outcome of his personality structure. Again, was that understood at some level? Was it part of a deliberate manipulation?
Ira Einhorn was a “sensation junkie” who thrived on chaos. He “came to his full powers” on the destruction of the old way of being. As the traditions of the establishment (which were certainly arbitrary and repressive) crumbled, Ira saw his advantage and seized the day. In summer 1964, Ira divided his time between Berkeley and Palo Alto, where he instantly recognized what was happening in the launching of the counterculture. At a party given by Ken Kesey, Ira dropped acid and wrote: “I was so high and the experience was so strange that I must have more distance.”
Obviously, that trip made him a bit nervous for some reason. He later claimed that he had first used LSD in 1959, and that he subsequently took “trips” about twice a month for over two years. He considered acid to be the key to self-exploration. As a side note, his acid use preceded his assault on Rita Siegal by two years. Could there be a connection?
In the fall of 1964, Ira, probably through the influence of Morse Peckham, was hired to teach a literature course at Temple University. He came to class in rumpled clothes and with his tie cut in half. He would have his class spend entire sessions pondering the difference between eroticism and sexuality. He utilized Morse Peckham’s technique in his discussions of poetry — the second line could not be discussed until the first was fully understood. He made it clear to his classes that his lifestyle was daring and different and free. Rumors flew that his apartment contained nothing but a bed and books. This was heady stuff to the kids of 1964.
Ira was interviewed at some point, telling a journalist that “I dress like the students. If they ask about marijuana and LSD I give them straight answers about the delights and the dangers. I make no bones about my contempt for the academic world. I’m very popular with the kids. I wouldn’t say I was with the administration.”
He constantly talked about being a writer, finishing his novel; but the fact is, he simply wasn’t a very good writer. His efforts in those directions were repeated failures. Bernie McCormick, writer for Philadelphia magazine, said that Ira “was a terrible writer. It was Ira’s frustration.”
However, in the true style of the psychopath, by virtue of the ignorance of his audience, he was able to engender an illusion of literary proficiency by his raiding of the writings of the best minds of civilization (see Appendix C). That personal charisma was the power that enabled him to mesmerize people and to climb to a sort of counterculture fame and glory. The word “love” became Ira’s instrument of aggression.
He began to assemble a small network of “revolutionary seers” and sharpened his vision of “dire apocalypse” and spiritual transformation. He got in touch with his “personal power,” and formed a public persona based on his personal charisma.
Just like Hitler, Ira believed that he was the supreme judge of what was good and what was not in just about every field of endeavor. And, like Hitler, he functioned as an “amplifier” of the secret desires, least permissible instincts, resentments over sufferings, personal revolts against pressures to behave responsibly, anger at the hard reality of work and misery, and repressed and suppressed shadow sides of young people in revolt against their parents and the demands placed upon them, giving it voice and permission to exist, as well as justification.
Just as Germany was “ripe” for Hitler, the young people in America were ready to be plucked by Ira Einhorn. The social, economic and political situation engendered by the Vietnam War was a bomb just waiting for a detonator, and Ira sought to provide it. Like all psychopaths, Ira had the ability to sense what people wanted him to give them — a reason to do and be — and he was then able to manipulate these themes so as to arouse their emotions of esteem and adoration for him. He flattered and cajoled, built up straw men and knocked them down, and he always managed to say what the majority of his audience was secretly thinking but could not verbalize — because they were dark, violent and unacceptable thoughts, thoughts and feelings born and reared in the chaos of the psychological traumas of their parents, most of whom had suffered through WWII.
Of course, Ira always presented his ideas in the guise of “daring to speak the truth and to defy the authorities and oppressors of the evolution of mankind, the oppressors of the human spirit!” Ira’s inducement to chaos appealed to the most primitive and basest instincts and inclinations, and cloaked them with the image of nobility and high ideals. He was thus able to justify all actions — no matter how revolting and antisocial — as the means to the attainment of these “high ideal goals.” Those who knew him said that he was a “goal justifies the means” kind of person.
We should note that psychopaths would not be successful in society if there were not conditions of oppression and inequality in that society to begin with. In this sense, we ought to remember that we are probably dealing with Game Theory applied to social engineering: Machiavellian ploys of producing a deplorable situation, raising up an “enemy” to blame for it, and then producing “saviors” who claim to be able to lead people to the “right solutions.”
What is even more important than just our own personal interactions with psychopaths (painful lessons though they may be) is the work of the psychopath in larger arenas — the sideshows of social, spiritual and political activities that grab and hold our attention, form our impressions, and generally mold our awareness into something that has little at all to do with what is really going on. There are, of course, very serious spiritual implications that we will address at some point. But for now, it is crucial to fully understand this dynamic. Because the fact is: There is no possibility of awakening without first becoming aware of what keeps us in sleep, and how it is done. And, of course, since we know from the partial information that has been obtained about psychopaths that one of the chief things about them is their ability to ape, to imitate, to camouflage their true nature, discovering the clues that will help us identify them is crucial.
Ira Einhorn is, in fact, a goldmine. We have before us a real live New Age-type guru who manipulated a lot of very smart people. Ira Einhorn was a symbol of nonviolence for over a decade. Even the people who were troubled a bit by his rough treatment of Holly overlooked his little “glitches.” Ira had created a carefully nurtured public profile that made it almost impossible for others to rationally assess the small clues. His supporters felt that he was an “extraordinary being scandalously charged with a crime he did not commit,” because their impressions had been so thoroughly “shaped” by the carefully nurtured public image. What is more significant is the fact that his careful image making extended even to his closest friends. Even they only had brief glimpses of his dark side, so be assured that uncovering a psychopath is an art of great subtlety, necessitating what Don Juan has called “systematic harassment” accompanied by close and careful observation of the “trifles” of the reactions of the individual. Do not think for a moment that they will reveal themselves easily! So, we are indeed handicapped, and all we really have to learn from is “failed” psychopaths. But that’s better than nothing.
It is truly difficult to appreciate just how different the functioning of the psychopaths is compared to that of normal people. After killing a waiter who had asked him to leave a restaurant, Jack Abbott denied any remorse because he “hadn’t done anything wrong”; because “there was no pain, it was a clean wound” and the victim was “not worth a dime” (Hare, 1999, 42-3). John Wayne Gacy murdered thirty-three young men and boys, but described himself as the victim because he had been “robbed of his childhood.” Kenneth Taylor battered his wife to death and then couldn’t understand why no one sympathized with him in the tragic loss of his wife! A female psychopath allowed her boyfriend to rape her five-year-old daughter when she was too tired for sex, and then was outraged that social services took the child away! Diane Downs shot her three children, then wounded herself to create “evidence” of an attack by a stranger; asked about her feelings regarding the loss of her children on The Oprah Winfrey Show (September 26, 1988), Downs replied, “I couldn’t tie my damned shoes for about two months… the scar is going to be there forever. […] I think my kids were lucky” (Hare, 1999). Hare remarks:
Another psychopath in our research said that he did not really understand what others meant by “fear.” However, “When I rob a bank,” he said, “I notice that the teller shakes or becomes tongue tied. One barfed all over the money. She must have been pretty messed up inside, but I don’t know why. If someone pointed a gun at me I guess I’d be afraid, but I wouldn’t throw up.” When asked to describe how he would feel in such a situation, his reply contained no reference to bodily sensations. He said things such as, “I’d give you the money;” “I’d think of ways to get the drop on you;” “I’d try and get my ass out of there.” When asked how he would feel, not what he would think or do, he seemed perplexed. Asked if he ever felt his heart pound or his stomach churn, he replied, “Of course! I’m not a robot. I really get pumped up when I have sex or when I get into a fight.” (Hare, 1999, 53-4)
One of the truly scary things about psychopaths is the fact that most psychotherapies actually seem to make psychopaths more likely to further violate the rights of others on even grander scales, probably because psychopaths use psychotherapy to hone their skills in psychological manipulation. In no case has it been confirmed that such therapies have ever helped a psychopath, even if they will use the fact that they have had therapy to con people, because inside the psychopath sees no need to change their admirable personalities.
One researcher, Linda Mealey, describes psychopaths in terms of “cheaters.” This suggests to us that our study of psychopaths might be helped along by considering them in terms of “card sharks”:
Human cheaters would not be detectable by instruments routinely available to his or her conspecifics… [and] should be very mobile during their lifetimes. The longer a cheater interacts with the same group of conspecifics the more likely they are to recognize the cheater’s strategy and to refuse to engage in interactions with him or her. There will be costs of mobility, since the mobile cheater will have to learn a new social environment after a move, and he or she will need to be skilled at it. A third prediction is that human cheaters would be especially facile with words, language, and interpersonal empathy… Human male and female cheaters should exhibit very different patterns of cheating, reflecting the obligate mammalian dimorphism in reproductive strategy and potential. A male cheater should be especially skillful at persuading females to copulate and at deceiving females about his control of resources and about the likelihood of his provisioning future offspring. Females, on the other hand, should feign lack of interest in copulation in order to deceive males about their paternity confidence. They should also exaggerate need and helplessness in order to induce males to provide them with more resources and support than they might otherwise provide. Finally, female cheaters might abandon offspring as soon as they perceived that the chance of offspring survival exceeded some critical value. (Harpending and Sobus, 1987)
Mealey distinguishes between congenital or primary sociopaths who are “born cheaters,” and secondary psychopaths who become cheaters, in order to enhance their “mating and acquisition” possibilities. Her model suggests that primary psychopaths can be recognized at an early age — as toddlers — and that secondary ones manifest their psychopathic nature somewhat later — possibly around the age of puberty. The primary psychopath seems to be more prevalent among well-to-do, well nourished and well nurtured classes, and the secondary psychopath tends to emerge from disadvantaged backgrounds.
In this sense, I think that the terms psychopath and sociopath might be useful to distinguish the two. Mealey’s “secondary psychopaths,” which we will refer to as sociopaths, are generally of low socioeconomic status; have low intelligence and poor social skills; experience parental neglect, abuse, inconsistent discipline, and punishment; and their antisocial behavior is a response to social pressures.
According to Mealey, primary sociopaths are “designed for the successful operation of social deception and… are the product of evolutionary pressures which… lead some individuals to pursue a life strategy of manipulative and predatory social interactions” (Mealey, 1995). In short, they are designed to be the vectors of our reality. Game Theory.
Not every indulged child becomes a psychopath. However, we have to wonder at the indulgent, hothouse-nurturing approach that is “prescribed” for the “special Indigo children,” which is precisely designed to do precisely that.
The many people interviewed by Steven Levy generally agree that Ira was able to manipulate the emotions of others in such a way as to numb their critical faculties to the point where they were willing to believe anything he said. He was able to manipulate them to believe that he was the noble David of the counterculture against the Goliath of “the establishment.” His listeners were ready to believe anything about him that he said, because they wanted to — even if the facts indicated the exact opposite. This emotional bond he created in his audience was not easily dissolved, and its chief effect was to rob people of their critical-thinking functions. They did not want to be confused with facts, they did not want to have to think, they only wanted Ira to give voice to their own feelings of anger and resistance.
With his enormous intellect, Ira was able to pull up facts and figures about just any topic you could name or mention, which gave an impression of infallibility. He had a talent for repeating things he had heard in such a way that the listener was led to believe that the ideas and insights were his own, that he was very clever — an intellectual, even a genius. He was a consummate “poseur.” His inability to produce or “give” anything truly creative in terms of writing, was evidence that his “powers” had to do strictly with interactions wherein subtle manipulation was geared toward eliciting emotional responses from his audience.
It is said that, in any room, Ira Einhorn commanded attention to himself. He would routinely unleash a dazzling fusillade of powerful or well-known names he was in contact with, inside information he had access to, and the elevated means of understanding that he had attained. He had an odd way of twisting his apocalyptic vision so that he could speak of the world’s inhabitants in the first-person plural, yet somehow be personally exempt from the category. Things are happening so fast that people don’t know how to deal with the situation, he’d declaim, with the implicit understanding that Ira Einhorn himself had no difficulty comprehending the disorienting complexity of the world around him.
The very unspokenness of this superiority could make it more infuriating, because you could not put your finger on it. Ira had a way of appropriating the high ground for his opinions and attitudes, simply because they were Ira’s, and by that measure correct. He would borrow your vacuum cleaner, and if you asked him, months after the loan had passed, if he might see fit to return the vacuum cleaner, he would casually reply that, oh, the vacuum cleaner was broken, and change the subject. If you persisted, tried to elicit at least some clarifying comment on the missing vacuum cleaner, he would regard you with some disappointment — you actually care about a vacuum cleaner? And you, bound in your material possessions, would shrink a little, thinking of course vacuum cleaners are but dust in the great mandala of existence. And if you resented the fact that you were out one vacuum cleaner, you kept it to yourself.
Ira Einhorn handled formal rejection in much the same spirit. It was seldom his failing, but the inadequate qualities of the rejecter that led to those problems. Once, writer William Irwin Thompson refused Einhorn permission to attend sessions at Thompson’s New Age conversation pit, Lindesfarne. In fact, as Thompson recalls, “I told him he was full of shit.” And what did Einhorn do? “His way was to become patronizing and condescending,” Thompson recalls. “To [imply] I was a benighted person with neurotic hang-ups, a gifted person with blocks, who would never amount to much because he had all these strange blockages to the evolutionary momentum of the human race. That I was beyond salvation.”
“Ira always lived as if the rules didn’t apply to him, and for an extraordinary amount of time he got away with that,” says Ira’s friend Mike Hoffman. “He got away with it because he convinced people of his very special quality. Which he had. The intensity he put into all the reading and thinking and the willingness to go out there farther than anyone else to follow some train of thought.” […] Ira really was [to himself] the center of the universe, says his friend Ralph Moore, who ran the Christian Association at Penn. “He would have an ‘ends justifies the means’ attitude that says, ‘My agenda is the legitimate one here.’”
“Ira psychologically had no superego,” says Stuart Samuels. “One of the reasons that his smell was so bad, despite people literally telling him about it, was that it didn’t matter, because as far as he was concerned, he was larger than the world. So it didn’t matter if he smelled. Ira was totally egocentric, so anything you said would always turn back on his knowledge of it, his point of view. It was always from his perspective.”
“What I saw Ira do most was take over, wherever he was,” says Jeff Berner, a [friend of] Ira’s. “Dominate every social scene, take over every room use, every environment, and every space fully as his own. He was one of the few people I’ve allowed to do that in my own home. And I didn’t mind because by the time he left, I was richer.” Thus friends and associates accepted Ira’s ego as part of a package which, on balance, was marvelously entertaining, intellectually provocative, and righteously motivated. Best of all, if you joked about it, Einhorn would be the first to laugh with you. […] He would rail about macrobiotics for half an hour, and you could, as one friend did, finally interrupt him by saying, “Great, Ira, now let’s go and get a hamburger,” and Ira would say, “Sure,” without missing a beat.” (Levy, 1988)
Einhorn assiduously promoted drug use and frequent, promiscuous sex among young people. He would call for “open forums where people will listen, instead of shoving drugs under the rug.” Ira passed out DMT and hash to students and friends, and taught classes entitled “Analogues to the LSD Experience.” This maneuver was designed to create even more controversy about himself. Even though LSD was being discussed by everyone in private, Ira was the first in Philadelphia who dared to publicly proclaim acid’s “virtues.” He encouraged and participated in “sexual encounters” (otherwise known as orgies) and his reputation as a “cocksman” was, as we have already noted, legendary, if somewhat misleading. Ira had quantity, not quality, it seems.
Keep in mind, he began his public “ascent” in 1964-66.
At the same time that Ira was creating his public role as a counterculture hero, freeing mankind from the oppression of the establishment which didn’t want to allow them unlimited drug-induced and sex-induced spiritual ascent, he met a student at Penn named Judy Lewis and became obsessed with her. Judy was seven years younger than Ira, and was, according to her own report, experiencing some emotional stress. Ira’s friend, Michael Hoffman, said: “Ira was so intense that when you got involved with him, he would get inside your head. You would have that kind of relationship — inside of one another’s heads. He was particularly that way with women because he needed to dominate. [With Judy], it was not a placid relationship, it was obviously a very passionate one, and at a certain point I think she wanted out. Because I think like a lot of other people, she finally felt mind-fucked by the guy.”
Said another observer of the relationship, a friend of Judy’s: “She was very interested in him, because of his mind, basically. And he got more and more possessive. […] She was not allowed to do anything except be with him, and I think that she wasn’t the kind of dependent female that he was used to or that he needed. I remember she used to talk about how he would insist on staying up all night long and talking, and if you wanted to go to sleep that was disloyal. She began to get a sense of his intensity, and his emotional violence. He was grasping and tenacious and nuts.”
Again, Ira had created a fantasy that he projected onto a woman. He completely ignored the fact that the longer the relationship continued, the less interested the other party was in continuing in it. Ira produced reams of writing about Judy’s beauty, her depth, and her selfish refusal to give everything to him: “Joy would erupt if Judy could only learn the simple acceptance of the magic which flows between us.”
Here we come to the crux of the matter. Ira wrote in his journals that Judy could, if she could be persuaded to be willing, provide Ira with the “absolute trust my mother’s strong relationship imposed on my psyche. Do I wish to master a woman sufficiently so that she will take care of me as my mother did?”
At this point in time, Ira was suffering from excruciating headaches (possibly symptomatic of dopamine deficiency). Something was definitely going on. Ira wrote: “I have a strange lightness about the head which is beginning to frighten me. There seems to be a strong possibility that I may eventually be permanently psychotic!”
Just as Rita Siegal had, Judy became terrified of Ira. She also discovered, as Rita had, that leaving Ira was not a simple matter. You didn’t just walk away from Ira. It was months before Ira finally “got it” that Judy wanted to end their relationship. He disregarded her words and constructed fantasies where her wishes to not see him were just “vacillation.” He would create scenarios in which he perceived her wishes as evidence that she really wanted to continue and expand the relationship. He also created scenarios of what would happen if that turned out to not be true. In November 1965 Ira wrote in his journals:
The violence that flowed through my being tonight… still awaits that further dark confirmation of its existence which could result in the murder of that which I seem to love so deeply. The repressed is returning to a form that is almost impossible to control.… There is a good chance that I will attempt to kill Judy tomorrow — the rational awareness of this fact brings stark terror into my heart but it must be faced if I wish to go on — I must not allow myself to deviate from the self-knowledge which is in the process of being uncovered! (Quoted by Levy, 1988)
There was no violence the following day, but a week later Judy again tried to become free of Ira. Ira seemed to know that he was “deviant.” He made a note in his journals to ask his mother about his behavior as an infant, with the comment: “So much of my deviancy could be explained in terms of an impotent, uncompleted rage.”
Meanwhile, of course, in public Ira was marching on to fame and glory as the manifestation of the benefits of drug and sex-expanded awareness and spiritual superiority. He wrote in his journal in March 1966:
I feel as if things are about to culminate in the creation of an involvement that will allow me to do the work that will enable me to become more of what I am or as a result of this partial madness I will bring my world crashing down about me.
The struggle to deal rationally with what he clearly understood was a “game plan” that was not to his advantage, does nothing to suggest that there was any real emotion involved. To Ira, it was simply “moves” in a game. He was essentially attempting to impose cerebral and strategic rationality on his fundamentally predatory nature. On March 14 he wrote:
How ridiculous the thought of killing Judy appears, yet I held it in my mind just four short hours ago — this particular ability of man is both his horror and his joy. Violence creeps over my body as I reach toward the destruction of Judy, a hopeless victim in this infernal entanglement which seems to be draining the life’s blood of both of us… the foolish ambivalence of our desires still tosses us beyond the recall of reason to a point of suspension on which we hang in perilous balance threatening to destroy or be destroyed in an instant or reckless action — we must come together or die.
To that I say: What do you mean we?
In any event, three days later Ira’s predatory nature overwhelmed his “rational” thinking and the “event” occurred that was recounted by Judy to Detective Michael Chitwood thirteen years later. The situation, as she described it, centered around the fact that Ira had insisted on a meeting. She agreed as long as he just came by for coffee and nothing else. Ira, of course, arrived full of confidence that he could mesmerize Judy with his ideas and words about why the relationship should go on. Their discussion was interrupted when Judy went out briefly to get milk for the coffee and donuts. Ira himself recorded the event in a poem entitled “An Act of Violence.” The poem describes Judy returning with the items and serving the coffee; and as she does so, Ira is mustering up the wherewithal to commit some, as yet, unnamed act. He discards the idea and writes that, as he is putting on his jacket to leave, “suddenly it happens.”
Judy’s back is turned and Ira moves toward her with a coke bottle in hand. “Bottle in hand I strike/ Away at the head….”
The bottle broke, however, and Judy began to bleed. Ira wrestled her down to the floor, holding her by the neck. She hit her head against the table as she fell, and Ira was strangling her. Like Rita Siegal before her, she went limp and lost consciousness. Ira wrote: “In such violence there may be freedom.”
Judy recounts that the neighbors had heard the uproar and had come into the room. She told them to call the campus police. By this time, of course, Ira had disappeared. He went home to write in his journal:
Where am I now after having hit Judy over the head with a coke bottle, blood on my jacket and pants — then making some feeble attempts to choke her. She wanted to live that has been established.… I’ll be able, if she does not have me arrested, to go back to living a normal life. Violence always marks the end of a relationship. It is the final barrier over or through which no communication is possible.
As was the case with Rita Siegal, and so many other women who seek only to forget such violence perpetrated against them, Judy did not press charges against Ira. Ira was, however, informed that if the assault were repeated, he would face serious legal action.
Ira admitted that his action was “ridiculous.” However, instead of a single instant of remorse, he seemed to think that his action was a “liberating response” to a woman who was “too selfish” to agree to indulge his perversions. He saw his violence as something that contributed to his growth, something that freed him from depression and moping about Judy’s wish to leave him. Effectively, the reality that he had again almost killed a woman who simply wished not to associate with him, was completely lost on Ira.
Ira’s friend, Michael Hoffman, was again in his confidence. By this time, however, he was appalled and tried to gain some understanding about it from his friend by questioning him at length about the event.
He would sort of disengage himself from himself when he talked about these things. He didn’t take responsibility. He didn’t have the same kind of guilt that you or I would have, in that he didn’t say “Jesus Christ, how could I have done that terrible thing?” He would talk about how it had grown out of the nature of the relationship. How it’s not really possible to have that kind of full, rich, sharing relationship that a man and a woman needed to have. And somehow that would be part of the explanation. He probably had the most elaborate defense structure I’ve ever seen in anybody. He would literally walk in after doing something like that and want to discuss the reasons for its having been done from a psychoanalytic point of view, a sociological point of view, its place in history… so that he immediately had a very elaborate structure to put it in. (Levy, 1988)
You see, Ira didn’t think that he needed help. He thought of his violence as evidence that he was some sort of romantic hero. He knew he was “deviant,” but he saw it as just who and what he was, and that his way was right. He wrote to Hoffman from California a few months later: “Rita and Judy practically destroyed, Peckham unable to go any farther! I need the confrontation of my monsters lodged in some external being — to meet and see what haunts me — to face it and fight it every day without it disappearing.… I live quietly and calmly with real joy on the edge of a volcano that might explode into nova-like being at any moment… when it happens, beware!”
Ira despaired of finding a woman who could satisfy his lusts in terms of the violence and pain he desired. He wrote:
I’m slowly beginning to realize the enormity of the problem which my development has created in respect to women. The interaction with Rita is just an example of how difficult, even at that age and with such a magnificent partner, any final linking is to be. Judy provided in her striking beauty a repository for always wandering projections, and the strength of our deathlike struggle is a good indication of how impossible my quest is to be. I refuse to admit the inevitable — that I can live without a woman (my mother). Until I accept this my productivity will be intense, like my countless infatuations, but sporadic. I’m faced with a hell that is somewhat relieved by my incredible energy which is so capable of constantly creating that joy which is deeper than sorrow. (quoted by Levy, 1988; this author’s emphasis)
What, exactly, did Ira mean by the above? What kind of “hell” was he living in? A “hell” that denied his impulses. What kind of joy was he desirous of “creating” by indulging those impulses? A joy that was “deeper than sorrow”? Take note of his reference to Rita and the fact that she was unable to complete the “final linking.” Earlier, about Rita and this desired “linking,” Ira had written:
Sadism — sounds nice — run it over your tongue — contemplate with joy the pains of others as you expire with an excruciating satisfaction. Project outward the vision of inward darkness. Let no cesspool of inner meaning be concealed. Reveal the filth that you are. Know the animal is always there.… Beauty and innocence must be violated for they can’t be possessed. The sacred mystery of another must be preserved — only death can do that. […] My dreams are realizable and will not be snuffed out by the fear of anyone — I too have a right to a life of my own and to that I will dedicate myself. […] The progress of my soul must not be crushed by the failings of a selfish young woman. […]
We so carefully hide the blackness of our soul from all those around us (even ourselves), we forget so easily the impulses of power which unconsciously control so many of our actions! […] We are — blackness and light. To beat a woman — what joy — to bite her breasts and ass — how delightful — to have her return the favor in our sensitive areas. How is life to be lived? […] You are one of the rare free spirits, do not be saddled by one who isn’t. Life to be lived at its full must be lived freely. Let nothing stand in your way to getting what you can, not even the illusion of love which you know to be so transitory. (quoted by Levy, 1988)
I hope that the reader has noticed the references to his mother in Ira’s comments. This is, as noted, a clue — the crux of the matter — as we will eventually see when we examine more closely the Negative Macrocosmic Reality that seeks to overtake and dominate our own reality via the machinations of the psychopath. And, interestingly, it appears in the “breakdown” of John Nash, as we will cover in the next chapter.
During the early months of 1996 the Cassiopaean sessions were often quite personal. This was a consequence of the tremendous changes going on in my life, many of which were occurring at some other level of reality and could be sensed only dimly and “through a glass darkly.” When I look back over the events, the transformations, I can see the pattern. But, at the time I could see nothing but the desperate struggle to normalize and stabilize my world, which was growing more bizarre by the day.
With hindsight, I understand that I was playing out a drama – a timeless vision – that is derived from the mythology of ancient times that is everywhere the same. And, having passed through this initiatory “script,” I write these pages in an effort to convey what these stories teach us.
During my research into the origin and meaning of my experiences with the Cassiopaeans, I have delved into the work of many who have gone before in the effort to solve the great mystery. Today, we have archaeologists digging up evidence all over the globe; ethnologists are recording stories from peoples East and West; and a generation of Orientalists have revealed to us the sacred writings of the archaic peoples that gave birth to our religions and cultures. Meanwhile, scholars are organizing and analyzing material relating to the psychological bases of language, myth, religion, art and ethics. And, quite remarkably, the revelations of the mind emerging from the field of psychology and biology are offering clues to the ancient technology depicted in myth and legend. Because, in the end, it is becoming increasingly clear that the logic, the heroic gestures, and the deeds of myth are with us today.
My own experiences, in this sense, could even be compared to an enacting of the cosmic archetype of the Renewal of Time.
In the myths of archaic peoples, the rites and beliefs surrounding the idea of the renewal of time vary from group to group and place to place. But the themes are still fairly consistent in that before time can be renewed, there are certain phases of chaos that must be endured. Of course, I didn’t know all this at the time; I just suffered and acted the part in complete ignorance of what was taking place. And it may be so that my ignorance of the hold the archetype had on me was essential to its work.
The energies of our archetypes can “fill us with radiant light, or overwhelm us with destruction and despair. They are our gods within, spiritually and instinctually.” (Woodman 1992)
Archetypal energies can be activated in a variety of ways. A specific archetype can be activated in the psyche of one individual, or in the collective psyche of a group or a culture. The danger lies in not understanding the nature of the archetype – in believing ourselves to be the archetype itself and thereby confusing our personal values with some absolute and exclusive version of the truth. The crucial point that must be understood is the difference between allowing the archetypal energies to act through the self, as opposed to believing that one has become the deity. This distinction is the difference between hubris and humility. One must realize that one is a simple and sacred soul who has, for unfathomable reasons, been graced by the gods. Any attempt to alter the drama, any idea that one is the archetype, and therefore has the right or ability to choose to act other than according to the divine script, can end in disaster.
So, it’s really a good thing that, at the time and at that level of knowledge, I had no idea what was happening!
The essential part of the Renewal of Time archetype is the idea of the end and the beginning of a temporal period based on bio-cosmic rhythms and forming part of a larger system. The purging and expulsion of sin was the chief drama before the New Year could be born. Mircea Eliade writes:
[T]his annual expulsion of sins, diseases, and demons is basically an attempt to restore – if only momentarily – mythical and primordial time, “pure” time, the time of the “instant” of the Creation. Every New Year is a resumption of time from the beginning, that is, a repetition of the cosmogony. The ritual combats between two groups of actors, the presence of the dead, the Saturnalia, and the orgies are so many elements which … denote that at the end of the year and in the expectation of the New Year there is a repetition of the mythical moment of the passage from chaos to cosmos.
… [I]n each of these systems we find the same central idea of the yearly return to chaos, followed by a new creation. …
… (Baptism is equivalent to the ritual death of the old man followed by a new birth. On the cosmic level, it is equivalent to the deluge: abolition of contours, fusion of all forms, return to the formless.) …
… [A]ll the rest is only the application, on different planes answering to different needs, of the same archetypal gesture: the regeneration of the world and life through repetition of the cosmogony. (Eliade 1954, 54, 58, 59, 62)
The Hermetic maxim: “As above, so below” may be a key to understanding the events and experiences of the Cassiopaean communications. Joseph Campbell remarks, “myth is the secret opening through which the inexhaustible energies of the cosmos pour into human cultural manifestation.” (Campbell 1949, 1)
Of course, at the time, I had no idea that I was acting out an archetype. The very thought would have filled me with horror. I remember that, back in the ’80s, when I was wrestling with the problem of why I had been born with such a huge question mark in my mind with no apparent outlet for this questing energy, I knew that I must begin to do something. At the time, meditation seemed the right answer, and I began the practice with some hesitation. I was hesitant because I was afraid of change.
On the one hand, meditation might change my perceptions and perspective enabling me to be calm and accepting about the restrictions of my life. As much as I needed this calm, that scared me. What if I accepted the restrictions and I was supposed to do otherwise? Would contemplating my navel turn me into a mindless zombie, fit only to stand on street corners and sell pencils?
On the other hand, meditation might actually elevate the dissatisfaction I was already feeling with my life, in which case I might take steps to change it; and that scared me. I wanted things to change, but only a little, and only the way I wanted them to change.
I had my life set up and organized; I was married and had children and I had a fairy tale idea of how marriage and raising children was supposed to turn out. Anything that threatened that vision was to be rejected, pushed away and denied.
But there was the ever-increasing problem that the fairy tale was not happening according to plan, so something had to be done about that. I was really between a rock and a hard place; and for lack of any other alternative, I began to meditate. When you are between a rock and a hard place, the only way out is up.
And as we know, that decision led, step by step, to communication with the Cassiopaeans. And all through the process, for over ten years, I struggled to have my cake and eat it too. I was determined to grow and learn and expand my spiritual horizons as far as was possible; and I was going to keep on living my regular life too, damn it!
I had read and heard about, and even had seen, many instances when one partner in a marriage would grow and change and the other would either remain static or go exactly the other direction, and the marriage would end up on the rocks as a result of the widening gulf between the partners. My opinion of this phenomenon was rather narrow and judgmental. How could something that was spiritual lead to so much pain and heartache? If these people were really as spiritual as they claimed to be, wouldn’t they be able to use their spirituality to preserve their marriages and contribute to the growth of their spouses? Doesn’t charity begin at home? It seemed to me that the problem was a lack of communication. Surely if the partners made the effort to communicate, to share all that was happening inside them, to support and encourage the other to remain at their side, such problems would not develop.
So, from the very beginning of my quest, I was talking, talking, talking. I explained the way I saw the problems. I explained what I had learned about people with similar problems. I explained the solutions that were possible. I explained my plan to seek solutions so that our fairy tale could manifest.
I sent away for books and tapes for meditation, for mind reprogramming, for every aspect of changing one’s reality that seemed to be a problem in our lives. I wanted to help my husband overcome his negative view of the world so that his family could follow his lead into happiness and prosperity. I wanted to gently and subtly encourage a new vision that he could embrace that would enable him to manifest his dreams, thereby setting an example for the children and becoming the true, knowledgeable and fearless head of the household of my fairy tale. I wanted open communication and true intimacy of thought, emotion and soul in my marriage. I was ready and willing to strip my soul naked in order to break the ice and make my husband comfortable in doing so as well. I had been called, and I chose to follow the call. I didn’t want to go and leave him. I desperately wanted him to come with me. If he did, I was sure that he would then manifest as the One.
I understood, in a sense, what I was seeking: I was looking for the Ark, for redemption, for the hero whose existence would liberate me. Joseph Campbell writes:
The hero is the man of self-achieved submission. But submission to what? That precisely is the riddle that today we have to ask ourselves and that it is everywhere the primary virtue and historic deed of the hero to have solved. (Campbell 1949, 11)
I didn’t realize that:
… schism in the soul … will not be resolved by any scheme of return to the good old days (archaism), or by programs guaranteed to render an ideal projected future (futurism), or even by the most realistic, hardheaded work to weld together again the deteriorating elements. Only birth can conquer death – the birth not of the old thing again, but of something new. Within the soul … there must be … a continuous “recurrence of birth” … (Toynbee, quoted by Campbell, 11–12)
I didn’t understand that in beginning the process, by answering the call, I had begun the work of the hero myself.
… [T]he first work of the hero is to retreat from the world scene of secondary effects to those causal zones of the psyche where the difficulties really reside, and there to clarify the difficulties, eradicate them in his own case (i.e., give battle to the nursery demons of his local culture) and break through to the undistorted, direct experience and assimilation of what C.G. Jung has called “the archetypal images.” This is the process known to Hindu and Buddhist philosophy as viveka, “discrimination.”
The archetypes to be discovered and assimilated are precisely those that have inspired, throughout the annals of human culture, the basic images of ritual, mythology, and vision. These “Eternal Ones of the Dream” are not to be confused with the personally modified symbolic figures that appear in nightmare and madness to the still tormented individual. Dream is the personalized myth, myth the depersonalized dream … in myth the problems and solutions shown are directly valid for all mankind.
… Such a one’s visions, ideas, and inspirations come pristine from the primary springs of human life and thought. Hence they are eloquent, of the unquenched source through which society is reborn. The hero has died as a modern man; but as eternal man – perfected, unspecific, universal man – he has been reborn. His second solemn task and deed therefore … is to return to us, transfigured, and teach the lesson he has learned of life renewed. (Campbell 1949, 12, 14–15)
And what is this lesson? Ah! Let’s not jump ahead! We are still in the past of this narrative. But, Joseph Campbell has defined the heroic journey as follows:
A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow man.
… [T]he adventure of the hero normally follows the pattern of … a separation from the world, a penetration to some source of power, and a life-enhancing return. … the really creative acts are represented as those deriving from some sort of dying to the world …
The return and reintegration with society, which is indispensable to the continuous circulation of spiritual energy into the world, and which, from the standpoint of the community, is the justification of the long retreat, the hero himself may find the most difficult requirement of all. … there is danger that the bliss of this experience may annihilate all recollection of, interest in, or hope for, the sorrows of the world; or else the problem of making known the way of illumination to people wrapped in economic problems may seem too great to solve. And on the other hand, if the hero, instead of submitting to all of the initiatory tests, has, like Prometheus, simply darted to his goal (by violence, quick device, or luck) and plucked the boon for the world that he intended, then the powers that he has unbalanced may react so sharply that he will be blasted from within and without – crucified, like Prometheus, on the rock of his own violated unconscious. Or if the hero, in the third place, makes his safe and willing return, he may meet with such a blank misunderstanding and disregard from those whom he has come to help that his career will collapse. …
The composite hero of the monomyth is a personage of exceptional gifts. Frequently he is honored by his society, frequently [he is] unrecognized or disdained. He and/or the world in which he finds himself suffers from a symbolical deficiency. In fairy tales this may be as slight as the lack of a certain golden ring, whereas in apocalyptic vision the physical and spiritual life of the whole earth can be represented as fallen, or on the point of falling, into ruin.
Typically, the hero of the fairy tale achieves a domestic, microcosmic triumph, and the hero of myth a world-historical, macrocosmic triumph. Whereas the former – the youngest despised child who becomes the master of extraordinary powers – prevails over his personal oppressors, the latter brings back from his adventure the means for the regeneration of his society as a whole. …
The cosmogonic cycle is presented with astonishing consistency in the sacred writings of all the continents, and gives to the adventure of the hero a new and interesting turn; for now it appears that the perilous journey was a labor not of attainment but of re-attainment, not discovery but rediscovery. The godly powers sought and dangerously won are revealed to have been within the heart of the hero all the time. [Laura’s note: the Ruby Slippers!]He is “the king’s son” who has come to know who he is and therewith has entered into the exercise of his proper power – “God’s son,” who has learned to know how much that title means. From this point of view the hero is symbolical of that divine creative and redemptive image which is hidden within us all, only waiting to be known and rendered into life.
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The effect of the successful adventure of the hero is the unlocking and release again of the flow of life into the body of the world. …
The torrent pours from an invisible source, the point of entry being the center of the symbolic circle of the universe, the Immovable Spot of the Buddha legend, around which the world may be said to revolve. Beneath this spot is the earth-supporting head of the cosmic serpent, the dragon, symbolical of the waters of the abyss, which are the divine life-creative energy and substance of the demiurge … The tree of life, i.e., the universe itself, grows from this point. It is rooted in the supporting darkness; the golden sun bird perches on its peak; a spring, the inexhaustible well, bubbles at its foot. [The tree of life is also] the figure of the cosmic man or woman … for the hero as the incarnation of God is himself the navel of the world, the umbilical point through which the energies of eternity break into time.
… Wherever a hero has been born, has wrought, or has passed back into the void, the place is marked and sanctified. A temple is erected there to signify and inspire the miracle of perfect centeredness; for this is the place of the breakthrough into abundance. Someone at this point discovered eternity. …
… [A] temple can be established anywhere. Because, finally, the All is everywhere, and anywhere may become the seat of power. …
The World Navel, then, is ubiquitous. And since it is the source of all existence, it yields the world’s plenitude of both good and evil. Ugliness and beauty, sin and virtue, pleasure and pain, are equally its production. “To God all things are fair and good and right,” declares Heraclitus; “but men hold some things wrong and some right.” (Campbell 1949, 23, 28, 29–31, 32, 35)
Well, all of that is fine and good. But what does it really mean in practical terms? It is my intention to make it comprehensible for those who are here to perform the heroic gesture. It is only in this way that the work of the hero can be done, for he is many.
The way it seems to happen (and the reader will surely want to ponder Joseph Campbell’s insightful analysis for connections and examples of their own quest) is that something that seems to be an ordinary chance encounter reveals another world of archetypal forces.
If I had to pick a single event that hinted a door was about to open, it would be the night I hypnotized Pam, the hypnotherapy client I wrote about in my book High Strangeness, with the intention of proving the alien abduction scenario was merely repressed childhood trauma, and realizing a few days later that something remarkable had happened. But, in a much broader sense, the strange events had been happening since I was born. Perhaps it could even be said that the quest proper began when I started to actively seek answers in a systematic way, resulting in my writing a manuscript I entitled “The Noah Syndrome” which was later absorbed into my book,The Secret History of The World. From that point on, the synchronous events in my life multiplied until I was no longer even able to talk about them in an ordinary way for fear of being considered completely bonkers!
Of course, according to Freud1 and Jung, such ordinary chance encounters are not ordinary at all. Freud saw them as the result of suppressed desires and conflicts, ripples on the surface of life produced by some deep spring from which reality wells up. Jung coined the term “synchronicity” to describe what physicists prefer to call the “acausal connecting principle.” The nature of synchronicity is that it has meaning, and most especially it is evidence of a profound activation of energy deep within the psyche. It is as if the formation of patterns within the unconscious mind are accompanied by physical patterns in the outer world. Nevertheless, in some cases, such a chance event can open the door to destiny. Or, it can be shoved under the rug and forgotten.
The next event is what Campbell calls the “herald.” Heralds issue challenges and announce the coming of significant change. They can make their appearance anytime during a journey, but often appear at the beginning to announce a Call to Adventure. The herald is a crisis of something completely supernatural and manifests powers that are not ordinary to the real world. For me, this was the actual seeing of the flying black boomerang-shaped object in the sky above my house. Such an event lifts the curtain on a particular drama which, when complete, amounts to dying and rebirth. It is something that is beyond the familiar categories of one’s life; it is outside the concepts, ideals and emotional patterns by which one has ordered one’s existence; its occurrence causes everything else to no longer fit.
But then again, the first event of the flying black boomerangs, being synchronous to the encounter with Pam, was part of this crisis. They were four months apart, but the entire period was a crisis for me. Facing the possible fact that there was another reality controlling or interacting with our own was a world shattering event for me. As I tell people in a sort of joking way: of all the people who never wanted to know anything about aliens and UFOs, I deserve a place at the head of the line. Few people really comprehend how deeply serious this remark is.
In many fairy tales and myths, the herald is a frog, a dragon, a serpent or some other manifestation of the demiurgic powers of the abyss. In stories, this event produces anxiety, shortness of breath, painful tightening of the chest, and other unpleasant symptoms. For me, this was certainly the case because I was attacked by the same terrible symptoms night after night after night at exactly the same time that I had seen the winged object in the sky on August 16, 1993. It is thought that these symptoms symbolize passage across a threshold, a trial akin to birth.
But, it is the birth into our world of the reality of the serpent, the representative of the deep unconscious, the realm from where our world manifests, in which are found unfathomable depths of the rejected, the unacknowledged, the unrecognized, the unknown and undeveloped elements of our existence.
So it happens that the herald, the announcer of the adventure, is dark, terrifying, painful and seen as evil by the world. And right here is where most people stop. They don’t realize that if they can follow the herald through the darkness, the veiled and mysterious unknown, the way would open into the light of day. People do not realize that, in order to diminish darkness, they must focus on it. The notion that we may find God only by entering the pit of darkness is antithetical to our views of good and evil, which, we imagine, must inhabit opposite poles that can never be joined. And yet the name Lucifer is derived from lucem ferre, or “bringer of light.” When the herald calls us into the place of nightmares, if our hearts are pure, we may discover a vision of divinity. Mephistopheles described himself to Faust as “a living part of that power which perpetually thinks evil and does good.”
How can this be?
Remember Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings? It was a journey made by an elf, a dwarf, a wizard, two men and four hobbits, who made their way across a perilous landscape in order to destroy the power of the Lord of the Rings. In Tolkien’s story, as in the real world, a war between the forces of Knowledge (love) and Ignorance (exploitation) is being waged.
Unfortunately, many people who have these encounters with the herald, believe that it is the God, and do not understand that the role of the alien encounters is initiatory in a real sense. Those who are taken in by them and believe the lies have already failed the first test of the hero. They do not realize that the alien drama will disappear from their lives once they have adjusted the alignment of forces within their soul and have become consciously aware of the precise nature of the drama.
Synchronicities are associated with periods of transformation. It is as if this internal restructuring produces external resonances like a burst of mental energy propagating outward into the physical world. The task is, as the Sufis say, to keep a cool head. And to be able to accommodate an expansion of awareness into the unseen while still keeping one’s feet on the ground, maneuvering in the real world of secondary effects and causes perceived at higher levels.
So it is that for each of us who journeys through the realm of darkness and finds his or her way home, we make the path clearer and wider for others to follow. It’s a dirty job, but somebody’s gotta do it!
And there I was: I had heard the summons; the herald had arrived and beckoned me to the threshold.
Whether in dream or myth, in these adventures there is an atmosphere of irresistible fascination about the figure that appears suddenly as guide, marking a new period, a new stage, in the biography. That which has to be faced, and is somehow profoundly familiar to the unconscious – though unknown, surprising, and even frightening to the conscious personality – makes itself known; and what formerly was meaningful may become strangely emptied of value … Thereafter, even though the hero returns for a while to his familiar occupations, they may be found unfruitful. A series of signs of increasing force then will become visible, until … the summons can no longer be denied. (Campbell 1949, 46)
How I had struggled to make life normal. How I struggled to return to the old days. How I railed at the events surrounding me and assaulting me at every turn.
[The “call to adventure”] signifies that destiny has summoned the hero and transferred his spiritual center of gravity from within the pale of his society to a zone unknown. This fateful region of both treasure and danger may be variously represented: as a distant land, a forest, a kingdom underground, beneath the waves, or above the sky … but it is always a place of strangely fluid and polymorphous beings, unimaginable torments, superhuman deeds … (Campbell 1949, 48)
For me, it was the big banana of all of these – and possibly the true source of all the legends about the same: the world of fourth density inhabited by Lizard beings, insect beings, and assorted other terrifying and fabulous creatures impossible to comprehend as real in the terms of our world.
And it was at this point that the relationship between myself and my now ex-husband really ended. You see, it is always a choice. A person can refuse the call. “Many are called; but few choose to answer … ”
Refusal of the summons converts the adventure into its negative. Walled in boredom, hard work, or culture, the subject loses the power of significant affirmative action and becomes a victim to be saved. His flowering world becomes a wasteland of dry stones and his life feels meaningless – even though, like King Minos (of Greek mythology), he may through titanic effort succeed in building an empire of renown. Whatever house he builds, it will be a house of death: a labyrinth of cyclopean walls to hide from him his Minotaur. All he can do is create new problems for himself and await the gradual approach of his disintegration.
The myths and folk tales of the whole world make clear that the refusal is essentially a refusal to give up what one takes to be one’s own interest. The future is regarded not in terms of an unremitting series of deaths and births, but as though one’s present system of ideals, virtues, goals and advantages were to be fixed and made secure. (Campbell 1949, 49)
That is to say, in response to my experiences, in response to his own experiences of the miraculous, my ex-husband dove into the deepest river in the world: denial. He grabbed hold of his Baptist religion for dear life and began to read the Bible daily to block out thinking and seeing and hearing of anything that didn’t fit his programmed system of ideals, virtues and so forth. And it was clear to me that the Bible and the religions of our childhoods had no answers for these issues. In fact, it was clear to me that they had been programmed into us as the very veils over truth past, which we must penetrate in order to move beyond and grow into the true spiritual beings we could become.
It was impossible for him to emerge from the controls of the emotional relationships of his childhood. His parents and their inculcated ideas and programs stood as guardians at the door, terrifying him with the fear of terrible punishment if he stepped outside the bounds of his religion, and he simply was unable to be born again. Like Lot’s wife in the story of Sodom and Gomorrah, he was turned to stone because he couldn’t stop from turning back, even though he’d received the call to come forth from destruction.
But, again, I did not realize this at the time.
The next stage in the archetypal heroic adventure is the appearance of supernatural aid. In some stories it is a crone, a protective figure, who provides amulets against the dragon forces.
The helpful crone and fairy godmother is a familiar feature of European fairy lore; in Christian saints’ legends the role is commonly played by the Virgin. The Virgin by her intercession can win the mercy of the Father. Spider Woman with her web can control the movements of the Sun. The hero who has come under the protection of the Cosmic Mother cannot be harmed. The thread of Ariadne brought Theseus safely through the adventure of the labyrinth. This is the guiding power that runs through the work of Dante in the female figures of Beatrice and the Virgin, and appears in Goethe’s Faust successively as Gretchen, Helen of Troy, and the Virgin. … What such a figure represents is the benign, protecting power of destiny.
Having responded to the call, and continuing to follow courageously as the consequences unfold, the hero finds all the forces of the unconscious at his side. Mother Nature herself supports the mighty task.
… Protective and dangerous, motherly and fatherly at the same time, this supernatural principle of guardianship and direction unites in itself all the ambiguities of the unconscious – thus signifying the support of our conscious personality by that other, larger system, but also the inscrutability of the guide that we are following, to the peril of all our rational ends.
The hero to whom such a helper appears is typically one who has responded to the call. The call, in fact, was the first announcement of the approach of this initiatory priest. But even to those who apparently have hardened their hearts the supernatural guardian may appear; for, as we have seen: “Well able is Allah to save.” (Campbell 1949, 59, 60–61)
Well, having the Cassiopaeans come along precisely eleven months to the day following the appearance of the Herald, (in the personification of the Flying Black Boomerangs), I was well on the path of the hero’s adventure, even if I had no idea at all that this was what I was doing. And it was to be twenty months before I arrived at the Crossing of the First Threshold.
With the personifications of his destiny to guide and aid him, the hero goes forward in his adventure until he reaches the Threshold Guardian at the entrance to the zone of magnified power. Such custodians bound the world in the four directions – also up and down – standing for the limits of the hero’s present sphere, or life horizon. Beyond them is darkness, the unknown, and danger.
… The usual person is more than content, he is even proud, to remain within the indicated bounds, and popular belief gives him every reason to fear so much as the first step into the unexplored. …
The folk mythologies populate with deceitful and dangerous presence every desert place outside the normal traffic of the village. …
The regions of the unknown … are free fields for the projection of the unconscious content. …
The Arcadian god Pan is the best known Classical example of this dangerous presence dwelling just beyond the protected zone of the village boundary. Sylvanus and Faunus were his Latin counterparts. … The emotions that he instilled in human beings who by accident adventured into his domain was “panic” fear, a sudden, groundless fright. … in the frantic effort to escape from his own aroused unconscious the victim expired in a flight of dread. Yet Pan was benign to those who … properly approached his shrines of healing. Also wisdom, the wisdom of Omphalos, the World Navel, was his to bestow; for the crossing of the threshold is the first step into the sacred zone of the universal source.
… [There are stories that] illuminate the ambiguities of this perplexing pass and show how, though the terrors will recede before a genuine psychological readiness, the overbold adventurer beyond his depth may be shamelessly undone. (Campbell 1949, 64, 65, 66–67, 68)
As described in volume five, this is where we find me in the early months of 1996. Moving slowly and inexorably to the threshold of the unknown; my conscious mind fighting tooth and nail against the forces of my own essential being. There was the world of practical events in which this drama manifested; and there was, apparently, another reality from which the energies emanated. And learning to see this other reality and to be able to respond to it with no apparent proof seemed to be the big test.
As you might expect, the events surrounding the work on our new magazine, The Aurora Journal, took on a Twilight Zone-like quality. One of the first things I wanted to do was to find a printer who could do a nice job for me at a reasonable cost since I was paying for it out of my own pocket. There was a print shop near the chiropractor I was still seeing three times a week for therapy, so I decided to stop in and find out what my options were and how much I could do myself to keep the costs low. At the same time, I had printed up a large volume of the Cassiopaean material and thought that it might be cheaper to have it copied, so I hauled it in with me.
The young lady at the counter quoted me a very reasonable price for the copying but said that she couldn’t tell me anything about doing a magazine layout because she was just there in a clerical capacity and I would have to come back. I left my material with an order for three copies, bound in a plastic spine.
Several days later I went back to pick up my copies. As the girl was getting them from the back, a woman emerged from the shop area, grinning widely, and said, “I thought that was you I heard out here!” I looked at her blankly because, frankly, I had no idea who she was. She must have noticed that I didn’t recognize her, because she said “Pam! You remember? I came to you for hypnosis!”
And then I realized who she was. She was the woman I had hypnotized back in 1993 the night the Flying Black Boomerangs were sighted over the three county area. She had been so upset by the idea of an alien abduction lurking in her subconscious that she never came back for further sessions. I’d always wondered what had happened to her since then, and it was very curious to find her in this print shop since she’d told me back then that she was in real estate. It was even stranger when you consider that I’d selected this print shop over any other simply because it was en route between my house and the chiropractor, of whom I was seeing every other day as a result of an accident I was certain was a deliberate attempt on my life by alien forces. Not only that, I was in the print shop for the very purpose of having copies made of material that related to the events in which Pam had been involved at the very beginning. Further, that I was planning on inquiring about the printing of a magazine that was an offshoot of those same events.
I was shocked. She looked like she had aged about twenty years in the almost three years since I had seen her. As it turned out, Pam had recently bought the print shop as a business venture for her kids. She invited me into the back of the shop for coffee and we brought each other up to date on what had been happening in our lives since the incident with the UFOs. That event had upset her so badly that she completely retreated into denial and the “normal life” routine. I told her how that event had done just the opposite for me – I had been catapulted into a series of learning experiences that had completely shattered my previous world, and made it seem like I was on a continual roller coaster ride. I told her: “Honey! If you had any idea of the stuff that has happened to me since you were at my house and opened the door to those damned aliens, you would not believe it!” And we both laughed.
So, we spent an hour or so catching up. Pam was fascinated by the story of how the contact with the Cassiopaeans had developed the year following her hypnosis session and wanted not only to read the material, but to attend a session. It turned out that she was very interested in mysteries, or so she claimed. It never occurred to me to wonder why she wasn’t interested in her own mystery.
I was, of course, thinking to myself how serendipitous this was for Pam to own this print shop since it just might mean that I could get my magazine printed at a really reasonable price.
As we talked, Pam began to reveal things about her past that were beyond strange. When she had come to me for hypnosis, she was working in real estate and caring for her retired and dying husband who had been a former government employee. She told me that he was a physicist who had worked at various government labs, including JPL on the Mars Observer, and had spent most of his time working in an underground laboratory somewhere in Maryland or thereabouts. I had never asked her what agency her husband currently worked for, not realizing that it might be important.
She was telling me so many things that I found it difficult to assimilate it all. It was as though, in the years since the door to the idea of aliens had been opened in her mind, all sorts of associations had come together. It never occurred to me that this might be bait to attract my interest.
On top of her husband’s work, Pam had a high security clearance and had spent years working (or so she said) in certain office positions that gave her access to highly sensitive information. Finally I thought I understood why Pam may have been abducted. If her husband was a scientist and she had a security clearance, that might explain it. I shared with her my learning that families of government employees generally seem to be abducted more than the average person. She thought this was interesting, but still didn’t think that it applied to her specifically.
I was pretty excited by all of this. A real, potential witness to weirdness. What a find!
We discussed the magazine, finally, and she agreed that if I would come into the shop and physically help assemble it, in addition to having camera ready copy, she would be able to give me a considerable discount. So, I left feeling as though the fates were in my corner and all was going to be right. I also thought that this was a big opportunity – perhaps the one the Cassiopaeans had mentioned when they’d said back in October of the previous year:
October 28, 1994
Q: (L) We would like to know if you have anything to give in the form of a teaching?
A: Not ready for that yet; establish clear channel and forum first; one step at a time.
Q: (L) What is the forum?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Do you mean that we need to bring more people into this work?
A: Close.
Q: (L) We need to create a forum.
A: Yes. A direction will open if you persevere.
Q: (L) So things will be brought to us and happen for us if we just persevere?
A: Soon expect big opportunity.
Q: (L) I assume that we are not to ask what it is, we are to have faith, is that correct?
A: Yes. Danger you may misinterpret opportunity.
Q: (L) Should we all be able to realize in congruence whether the opportunity is good?
A: Varying degrees.
Q: (L) If there is a danger we may misinterpret the opportunity, could you give us a couple of clues so that when it occurs we won’t miss it?
A: At least one of you will have instant recognition but others may not. Wait and see.
My first interpretation of this “opportunity” was the fact that my friend, RC, wanted to dump her magazine. (See volume five of The Wave for the whole story.) A magazine was a “forum.” The next interpretation I put on it was that Pam had instantly recognized me, but I hadn’t instantly recognized her. And having an inside line to printing, especially since we were planning a journal, was definitely a “big opportunity” in terms of “creating a forum” one would think.
At the same time, I had joined Mike Lindemann’s ISCNI forum on AOL and had been invited to chat live, online, with his group in a sort of question and answer session. I felt sure that this also was part of the “forum” and might be the “big opportunity.”
But the fact that in none of these instances had there been instant recognition by any of the other members of our group, with the others doubting, still bugged me. What other “big opportunity” could there be?
It’s funny how we anticipate things in ways that never quite fit, and yet how desperate we are to make them true.
I brought the subject up with the Cassiopaeans:
December 30, 1995
Q: (L) We have a number of questions we want to cover tonight. The first thing is, in the early stages of this channeling process we talked about what it was we were supposed to be doing. We were told that the first thing we needed to do was “establish a clear channel.” Obviously, it has taken about a year to do that. The next thing that was identified that we must do was to establish a forum. What is this forum supposed to be in?
A: These are all questions to which you must discover the answers by learning, therefore, no further discussion is now beneficial.
Q: (L) Now the next thing was that a direction would open and that there was something amazing and wonderful just around the corner that I would recognize instantly and which would help me to know what to do. Has this already occurred and did I miss something?
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) I was recently invited to give a talk to the ISCNI, that is, the Institute for the Study of Contact with Non-human Intelligence, which is headed by a guy named Mike Lindemann. I am rather curious as to the reaction from some of these people.
A: Lindemann and the others would best serve the “cause” if they loosen any rigidities that they may have found themselves “grooving into,” as this is an area that definitely does not lend itself to manifestations of rigidity in any way, shape, or form, whatsoever!!!
Q: (L) I think they are getting a little rigid because they feel they are under pressure from the scientific community to prove something. But, observable elements of the phenomena of aliens have progressed to such a stage, that trying to prove anything scientifically becomes moot. We don’t have time for double-blind experiments. We don’t have time to wait for FDA approval!
A: Persist and express the same thoughts you did here! Help Lindemann and others to see that they are dealing with a phenomenon that is better studied in a way that stresses an open learning forum, not a “scientific” study methodology. In all its forms, not just the “physical” agenda that is primarily sought by some and in fact, it is through the ethereal plane and methodologies that the clues and some of the answers lie for physical as well as ethereal factors. Tell Michael this verbatim: “You once had a more open mind, Michael, what happened?” Some of his most frustrating recent events in his life relate directly to this!! Trust your insights, they are assisting learning matrix.
So, I didn’t get any answers to my assumptions about the “big opportunity” that was supposed to happen “soon”, dating from the time of October of 1994. I had begun to wonder just what the Cassiopaeans meant by “soon”. For me, “soon” was a few weeks. Here, we had gone over a year with no real or definite “big opportunity” for establishing a “forum.” Further, there had been no “instant recognition” of anything by any of us.
As we have already discussed in these pages, the serendipitous meeting with Pam, at just the time I needed it, was also intertwined with the very strange kidnapping case of the young girl who so strongly resembled the murdered child from just prior to the time I’d first met Pam. I won’t get too side-tracked with that, but the session below was very much related to the overall situation at that moment, particularly relating to Pam:
January 9, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, Pam will be here on Saturday, so we will leave a lot of my questions for then. I don’t quite know how to ask this. It has become increasingly obvious to me that there is some sort of connection where JO [an unsolved murder of a local girl] was concerned, some synchronous connections between that murder and my so-called awakening, if you want to call it that. And I also noticed a connection between the life pattern, or change in life pattern, of Ted Bundy and certain UFO sightings, and cattle mutilations that were in his area of the country. Now, we have another girl who has come up missing at the very same time – in fact, the very day – that Pam and I were discussing the JO case. This new case has a lot of things that seem to be common to that old case, the most striking being the amazing resemblance of the two girls to each other. Did my involvement with the JO case [I was asked by law enforcement official to try to come up with some clues or hints through astrology and psychic impressions] have anything to do with opening the door of my mind to other phenomena, particularly UFOs and aliens?
A: Possible.
Q: (L) You can’t give me a clear answer on that?
A: Learn!
Q: (L) Okay. I had dreams about it. The work that I did on the case astrologically, the dreams I had about it, as well as certain impressions I received, convinced me that a particular individual was the killer. Was that an opening of my instinctual awareness in some way?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Was there some connection between JO’s murder and alien activity?
A: There is always this connection in one way or another, at one plane convergence or another.
This is actually a pretty startling remark when you think about it. Remember, of course, that the conventional definition of “alien” that we had grown to understand is not third density visitors from outer space, but hyperdimensional beings who are part of the control system of our world.
Q: (L) Was the murder of JO a mini-plane convergence?
A: What did we just say?
Q: (L) It seemed to me that was what you said, and I was trying to clarify it. Is that in fact a plane convergence can be defined as where one person’s plane of reality converges with another person’s plane of reality, and one or the other gets annihilated?
A: 4th, 5th and 3rd density is involved.
Q: (L) Is this true with all murders?
A: Discover and yes.
This sort of gives a different perspective to the subject of crime, most particularly crimes of violence. I was beginning to formulate the idea that each and every human being is a part of one or another of the cosmic archetypes and that their lives, their actions, their “scripts” could be identified with sufficient examination of their experiences.
Q: (L) Was my interaction into that reality a sort of entering into a point of plane convergence?
A: Flirting with the edges.
Q: (L) So, when a person is working on a murder investigation, or thinking about it, or applying thoughts, talents, instincts or whatever to the solving of this kind of puzzle, they are interacting with a plane convergence?
A: This represents one manifestation of the always present desire to return “home” to 5th density.
Q: (L) Okay. Well. Now, I want to get to the 64,000 dollar question. In the JO case, was my conclusion correct?
I was pretty obsessed with knowing the answer to this one, or at the very least having the answer I had come up with confirmed.
A: “Correctness” takes many forms and provides a window to many conventions.
Q: (F) What does that mean? (L) I don’t know.
A: Learn.
Q: (L) Was the man who killed JO known to her?
A: We recall advising a cautious approach, in order to insure that your lessons are learned not only accurately, but painlessly as well.
If I was correct, it was a very dangerous thing to know!
Q: (L) Could you suggest, just to get me on track here, a form of question that would be a cautious question? Then I can frame subsequent questions on that model.
I really wanted that confirmation! I was really stretching to find a way to get the Cassiopaeans to give me a final answer.
A: The issue here is not how to “frame” a question in such a way as to lure us into answering in the way you desire, but for you to learn most effectively. Do not have prejudice that there is only one thing to be learned from each response. “You never know what there is to be learned when you inquire with innocence and freedom from supposition.”
Since Frank and I were working alone, there was no one present to take notes. I had to stop and play the tape back to get the words from the above response, which had been delivered too rapidly to follow mentally. And, when I did, there was that blasted static that would roar on and drown out the important words, but would be completely absent in other portions.
Q: (L) I just played the tape back and it is all muddy. Could you tell us why we are having this problem with the tape?
A: Telekinetic wave transfer.
Q: (L) What is this telekinetic wave transferring?
A: Evolving energy.
Q: (L) Given off by us?
A: Both to and from.
Q: (L) From us to you?
A: You and others, not us.
Q: (L) Who are these others?
A: 4th density eavesdroppers, Pam’s involvement should “heat things up.”
Q: (L) Is Pam’s involvement going to be beneficial to this work?
A: Yes, but also expect anomalies.
And one has to remember that “beneficial” does not necessarily mean that I was going to like it. But, I was pretty focused on this murder thing. Sometimes I really have a one-track mind.
Q: (L) That is interesting. Are you going to tell me who killed JO? I am willing to give up my conclusion if necessary.
A: Learn. Review our previous response.
Well, the issue of Ted Bundy and the UFO sightings that occurred in the area of the country where he lived at the time he was purportedly beginning his murderous career had recently attracted my attention. I had thought it was strange that murder had been synchronously connected to UFOs in our own experience. I thought this might be a path to follow so that I could get the answer I was after.
Q: (L) Okay. Learn. Was there something about Ted Bundy, and the fact that his life seemed to disintegrate at the same time a lot of UFOs were sighted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy abducted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy programmed to do what he did?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the purpose behind that programming?
A: We must withhold answer for the present.
This is an issue that went right over my head at the time.
Q: (L) Okay. Bundy described his murdering urges as a “pressure building inside” him that he couldn’t overcome, and it seemed to cause him to stop being “human,” as we think of it. That seems to me to be an example of an implant being able to overcome a person’s social behavior, or controls over anti-social tendencies. Is this also what happened to the person who killed JO?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the newly missing girl, CB, and JO?
A: You are doing well in your probing of the knowledge within on this issue, we suggest continuance, after all, learning is fun!
Q: (L) So, it seems to me that there was a connection between the [physical] appearance of CB and JO. Could it be that the individual who killed one or both of them [we didn’t know if the second girl was dead or not] was programmed to respond to this particular type of facial features? Could that be part of the programming?
A: End subject.
Q: (L) What do you mean?
A: We have helped you all that is necessary for now on this matter. It is beneficial for you to continue on your own for growth.
Clearly there was an issue here and I was flirting dangerously close to it.
Q: (L) Can I ask just one or two more little questions in a different direction? I mean, this is like walking away and leaving me in the dark!
A: No it is not!
Q: (L) I would like to be able to solve this because the families are in pain and have asked for help.
A: Why don’t you trust your incredible abilities? If we answer for you now, you will be helpless when it becomes necessary for you to perform this function on a regular basis, as it will be!!!!
Q: (L) Well, frankly, I don’t want to be involved in any more murder investigations. It is too upsetting. Am I supposed to do this sort of thing regularly?
A: Not same arena.
Q: (L) Well, then how do you mean “perform this function?”
A: No, seeing the unseen.
Q: (L) Okay, shift gears. There are some issues with my son and the school. He wanted to attend regular school because he was of the opinion that he needed a break from home schooling. This has led to a number of incidents involving what can only be called gangs in the school. I am completely shocked by what goes on there over which the school seems to have absolutely no control. I mean, they have to keep policemen on campus because of the threat of guns and knives, and these kids today are actually dangerous! I think my son is miserable and even frightened in this violent environment, but he does not want to give up or be viewed as a quitter, or a baby. He is torn between his misery and disgust with the system, and his desire for peace. I would like to know why those kids attacked him the other day?
A: Attack.
Q: (L) You mean stimulated through fourth density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there anything I can do to help protect him?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Well. I don’t know what to think.
A: Don’t avoid the issue, it is of paramount importance!
Q: (L) Yes, I think I ought to take Jay out of school. There is just too much attack going on from all directions at the present time, and that is one portal of attack that I can close off.
A: Instincts preserve third density experience.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that there is some threat to his existence in third density if I don’t do something right away?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this threat from outside sources?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So I need to pull him out of school now.
A: Follow instincts.
Q: (L) That’s clear enough for me. I have the feeling Jay is here for a purpose and that is why he has so much difficulty interacting with persons who are not as concerned about things as he is.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, I want to ask about the Sheldon Nidle channeling?
A: Suggest you not waste energy on this.
Q: (L) There are a lot of people who are convinced by Sheldon Nidle that there is going to be a photon belt and a mass landing of UFOs in the fall of this year. Is this, in fact, going to occur?
A: People are very convinced by Bo and Peep.
The following week, Pam attended her first session. Since the Cassiopaeans had said that her presence should “heat things up a bit” and that her involvement would be “beneficial” to our work, I had the idea that she might be good for the reception. Since she had been present when the Black Boomerangs appeared, I reasoned she must have some special psychic tuning of her own. I was also extremely curious to see if the Cassiopaeans would finally answer the question about the appearance of these craft on that night in more detail. But, the sessions never go the way we think they will go; they take on a dynamic and life of their own just like any conversation that begins with weather and ends with the price of tea in China. The only difference was, we were having conversations with the Cassiopaeans, so there was some sensation of oceans of information lying in wait to be accessed if only we could formulate or stumble upon the right question.
January 7, 1996
Q: (L) We have Pam with us tonight …
A: Hello Pam.
Q: (L) Now, with all of us here, we would like to ask why the black, flying boomerangs showed up on the night Pam first came for hypnosis?
A: Examine issue carefully.
Q: (L) The first thing we thought about it was that this was a, if not necessarily rare, at least rarely observed type of craft, and the event itself was rare … is this correct?
A: It is rare.
Q: (L) Since the hypnosis session was not advertised in any way, and no mention of aliens or anything like that was ever made, it seems that it might have happened in response to this hypnosis session by knowledge obtained in ways with which we are not familiar. And, if that is the case, then it must mean that there was something or someone of interest at that hypnosis session. I have thought about it two ways: either the interest was in myself, and what I might uncover about aliens; or the interest was in Pam for some other reason – perhaps that she should NOT uncover anything about her own experiences. Which person were the UFO’s particularly interested in?
A: It was not a person, but information that is hidden in the subconscious memory of Pam.
Q: (L) Were they wanting to get this information?
A: No. To monitor what would be revealed.
Q: (L) Does this mean that Pam has information programmed into her before birth that she needs to access as you said I did?
A: No. Abductions.
Q: (L) They wanted to see if anything would be revealed about their abductions of her?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, who abducted her?
A: Grays. 4 times. Snow scene was only 3rd density abduction. Abduction which occurred there was strictly physical. The others were 4th density. 3rd density abduction only occurs rarely, and is of great import.
Q: (P) Was my son abducted?
A: Frozen.
Q: (L) Why did they want Pam so bad that they would take her physically?
A: Do you have any ideas?
Q: (L) Maybe Pam has knowledge that she could access to work against these beings?
A: But real reason is more fundamental. Exposure.
Q: (L) Oh, they fear that she will act in some way to expose them …
A: Government proximities!
Q: (L) Oh! Well, Pam has pointed out that just because she was married to a scientist who worked at JPL doesn’t mean she knew anything. Does she know something that she doesn’t know she knows?
A: [It’s] not what she knew. [It’s] because of [her] proximity to consortium activity. [She was] implanted for possible future activation.
Q: (P) Was this related to what was going on under the mountain? (L) What mountain? (P) Just ask.
A: Not locator, personnel are factored.
Q: (L) Okay, it is not where she was so much as who she was in contact with?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it her husband?
A: Perhaps.
Q: (L) Maybe that is why there is a higher rate of abduction among family members of government employees, so that they can be activated or controlled for some reason if needed. (P) But my husband wasn’t really working on anything secret.
A: He had access to sensitive facilities.
Q: (L) So, Pam had an implant put in. An actual, physical implant. Where is it?
A: Behind sinus cavity.
Q: (L) What is this implant designed to do?
A: Activate behavioral control reflex and thought pattern generation and alteration.
Now, just stop and think about this remark. Implants that can “activate behavioral control” reflexes and that can generate thought patterns or alter thought patterns are pretty scary concepts. This suggests that, without conscious attention to our patterns of thought and behavior, we may be controlled in ways we have always thought were just our personality.
Q: (P) Is that why I can’t remember anything?
A: Some.
Q: (P) No, but I do have this memory problem in a big way. (L) So, can I say that this UFO appeared over my house on the night Pam was under hypnosis, to …
A: To monitor.
Q: (L) If Pam had revealed the details of her abduction, would there have been any repercussions?
A: Not in this case.
Q: (L) So, if Pam had gone to anyone for hypnosis, these craft would have appeared?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You have already told us that this is extremely rare.
A: 3rd density abductions [are rare].
Q: (P) Does this have anything to do with Camp David?
A: Not the issue, it’s personnel! [Pam interacted with] many others!
Q: (L) Well, there seems to be an issue here that we need to get to. (P) Do the planes have anything to do with it?
A: It is up to Pam, the extent she wishes to retrieve and divulge, the many unusual experiences that were met, by Pam, with unusual indifference.
And here we have more of a clue about control of behavior and thought patterns. I had no idea at the time of the significance of this remark.
Q: (P) The first thing unusual was the geographic location of our house. Directly West of us was the mountain that housed all the communications to be used in the event of nuclear war. We were 13 miles north of Camp David. And, while we lived there, many, many things took place at Camp David that were of global significance. And we built a barn in 1982 and had bought the house in 1976 and never, in all the years that I lived there, did I ever notice these planes until we built the barn. If I had a stick in my hand, I could have touched them, that’s how low they flew. Right over my barn! The same days every week, and there was always two of them, and they never had a single marking on them; and they were propeller planes. And I wondered: what in the hell is this country doing flying planes, unmarked, propeller driven, and so low, over this area? This continued until we moved from that house. So, these planes came twice a week from 1982 until 1989. Well, after the first couple of times, I sort of just said: “Well, there are the planes.” So, what else is new?
A: Indifference.
Q: (P) I thought the planes had something to do with the mountain. Did they?
A: Maybe.
Q: (P) We knew they were flying under radar. Now that I am thinking about this, nobody else ever talked about these planes. It was like we were the only people that ever saw them, or only people who were at our house saw them too. My best friend who lived right up the road never saw them. I asked her: “Did you see the planes?” and she said, “What planes?” I mean, she was seven acres away and nothing in between!
A: Unusual experiences mount!
Q: (P) My husband also noticed these things and he would always say – he was less indifferent than I was – he would say: “What in the hell are those planes, and what are they doing?” (L) Why was Pam so indifferent? (P) Well, it didn’t affect my life, except that I was damn mad that it upset my horses. But then, the horses got used to them too, and they became indifferent! [Laughter.] Well, they came so often, twice a week. “It’s Wednesday, the planes will be here!”
A: More … continue probing …
It is clear, in retrospect, that the Cassiopaeans wanted Pam to talk so that I would get a clue here. But I was, sad to say, blissfully unaware!
Q: (P) The planes came from east to west, and in the west was the mountain …
A: Catoctin.
Q: (P) [Amazed] That is the name of the mountain! (L) What is it? [I had never heard this word before.] (P) The tunnel where all these facilities were … under Catoctin Mountain. Camp David is near, too.
A: And MUCH ELSE! Mount Weather, Virginia. And why did you live in area … helicopters? What brought you to Maryland?
Why did they say, “helicopters? What brought you to Maryland?” It went right over my head.
Q: (L) What does Mount Weather mean? (P) The underground tunnel – everybody in town called it “the tunnel” – but there was nothing around there to ever give anybody the slightest clue as to what it was. In fact, I lived there for quite a long time before I knew it existed. And, on top of the mountain there was a weather station. My husband was doing electron microscopy – cancer research.
A: REALLY?
Q: (P) It was a photographic lab.
A: So what? Helicopters, Pat? We are asking you!
And they brought up the helicopters again.
Q: (P) Well, the helicopters in Fredrick went over our house every time the president was at Camp David. But, that was our house in Walkersville not in Emmetsburg. When we first moved to Maryland. Sometimes the helicopters were unmarked.
A: You see, Pam is resistant due to experiences, things don’t “phase” her easily, programming, etc.
Q: (L) So, all of these things happening around her, the planes, the mountain, the helicopters … (P) But the helicopters, I knew it was the President either going to or coming from Camp David.
A: Resistant, not resisting.
Q: (L) Is the term “resistant” a clue?
A: All is a clue here!
So, there was something important about the helicopters and it was connected to what brought Pam to Maryland. But none of us were picking up on this. Pam kept diverging from the subject, and the Cassiopaeans indicated that she was “resistant due to experiences.” Then, they made the curious remark that “things don’t ‘phase’ her easily” and that this was related to programming. Well, nobody can say that the Cassiopaeans weren’t doing everything they could to make a point! I just wasn’t paying attention. Later experiences were to suggest strongly that Pam was, indeed, programmed and that this programming had deprived her of normal human feelings of compassion and empathy.
Q: (P) Isn’t that just my personality, that if it doesn’t affect me I don’t bother with it?
A: Yes. Shoot somebody in front of P, and she says: “Oh well, that’s life” so, to discover spectacular things, one must be patient and probe carefully, no hasty assumptions, please!! There is much to be retrieved, revealed, studied. Let Pam digest it, and report back later.
This extremely odd remark, “shoot somebody in front of Pam and she says: ‘Oh well, that’s life,’” was certainly the last desperate effort to get me to pay attention; but I was just too convinced that Pam and her print shop were the answers to my prayers that I didn’t want to hear it.
Q: (L) At the time there were all those sightings around here on the night we did the hypnosis session with Pam, why did so many other people see them?
A: Window was “blasted.”
Q: (L) Okay, we have the magazine ready to go out and the articles are somewhat controversial. Can we have an indication as to whether there will be a positive response to this issue or not? I don’t want to turn people off by being too radical.
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Pam is having some serious problems at the present time; can you help her with these?
A: Networking works!!!
Q: (P) Is there a light at the end of the tunnel?
A: Networking works!!!!!
Q: (P) I would like to know about the apparitions of the Virgin Mary at Conyers, GA, as well as this book “Mary’s Message to the World” and all the other messages about the End Times that are coming out all over?
A: The forces at work here are far too clever to be accurately anticipated so easily. You never know what twists and turns will follow, and they are aware of prophetic and philosophical patternings and usually shift course to fool and discourage those who believe in fixed futures.
And that was that. In retrospect, it is easy to see that the Cassiopaeans were trying to get me to see something about Pam in their exchange with her, but I was too excited about getting the magazine printed to care about anything else. They had said “network,” and I was networking like crazy! Or so I thought.
Pam decided that she wanted to become a regular member of the group. We thought that her energy was pretty compatible, and she was a lot of fun to be around with her dry and witty comments, so we agreed. The most curious thing happened, however. This session that Pam attended was made almost unintelligible due to static on the tape. The only other time this had happened was just a few days previously, after meeting with Pam, though she was not present. After a couple of earlier experiences with different glitches with our recording equipment, we had certain procedures we followed prior to the session to make sure that everything was in order. We had performed all the checks, and everything was working. But still, the static was there, most often when Pam was speaking. In fact, the next session with Pam, we used two tape recorders and both tapes were nearly impossible to decipher. In the six years of working with the Cassiopaeans, this only happened during the time we were interacting with Pam. Fortunately, we take a fairly good set of notes even while recording, so I was able to reconstruct the sessions from the notes.
At this point, I need to go in a slightly different direction in order to explain the first question in the session below.
In January 1995, the Reiki master the Cassiopaeans had directed me to in Wave 2 (the right Reiki master, that is!) had presented me with copies of the now infamous KRLL papers. They had been given to her and she passed them on to me, knowing of my interest in UFOs. I was perfectly amazed to discover threads of the same material that the Cassiopaeans were delivering woven throughout this purported communication from an EBE (Extraterrestrial Biological Entity).
We had heard about the KRLL papers from some people at MUFON, and we asked the Cassiopaeans about them even before we had read them. This extract will give the reader some idea of the great amount of discussion and commentary that went on amongst the group during the sessions. Sometimes it was a colorful melee of comments and differing opinions.
January 14, 1995
Q: (L) Now, I want to ask about these KRLL documents that my Reiki teacher, SB, has told me about and is sending to me in the mail. Tell us what is the background and validity of the KRLL papers. Terry knows more about them than I do. Supposedly it is some kind of exposition written by an alien being, revealing the government conspiracy. Were the KRLL papers valid? (T) KRLL was supposedly a prisoner of the United States. (L) Was there really such a being as KRLL?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Is there any validity to the KRLL papers?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Was it dictated by this alien being?
A: Maybe.
Q: (T) Was it put together by a human?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Is this in the same area of UFO lore as the Cooper and Lear and Lazar and Bennewitz stuff?
A: We have told you many times … Laura, pay attention … Listen!
Q: (L) Well, you say “semi.” Semi means half-way. Is it half true or half-way true?
A: Whoa! Calm down! Patience! We are trying to tell you something important, and you keep asking questions. We have told you many times to communicate with each other and network and share ideas, because that is how you LEARN and PROGRESS! But, you are beginning to rely on us for all your answers, and you do not LEARN that way!!!!!!! Now, try this, you will be thunderstruck with the results: Each of you has stored within you unlimited amounts of factual and “Earthshaking” information. This information was put into your consciousness in order for you to retrieve it in order for you to learn. Now just start by holding a discussion about the last series of questions you were trying to ask us, and “let it flow.”
Q: (L) Well, if John Lear and William Cooper are saying basically the same thing the KRLL document is saying, where did they get their information?
(T) One of the rumors going on was that Moore or Lear or Bennewitz, one of these, was the one that had written the KRLL papers. There was some talk that KRLL may have been an acronym used by the government to identify this being who gave the information, which is the basis of this document.
(L) To your knowledge, would Lear or Cooper ever have been in a position, or did they ever at any time claim to have been in a position, to observe any of this activity written up in this document themselves?
(T) I don’t believe that either of them have ever claimed to have been in a position to have physically observed any of this or to have been in the underground bases. They were working with information they claimed to have gotten from other sources.
(L) And what do they claim their other sources are? Unnamed?
(T) A lot of them are unnamed. Moore and Cooper claim they have inside government sources. I believe Cooper is the one who claims that he at one time worked for the military.
(L) Is he the one who claims that he was the intelligence analyst for the Admiral of the Pacific Fleet or something like that?
(T) Yes. There are several versions of the Cooper papers as he modifies and updates them. He didn’t change anything really, he just cleaned them up, re-edited them and added to them.
(L) Okay, if this is the case, it would seem to me that a person would have a much better chance of having something believed if they presented it as coming from a human source who either observed or saw it. Why would they say that this is an alien dictating this when that is so far and away more unbelievable? It seems to me that if they were making it up they would have far better chance if they said a human extracted this information from documents rather than that it is what the alien said. That would almost tend, in a backward sort of way, to make you think that maybe this KRLL dude, maybe it was true. But, the only thing about that is, if it was an alien, especially if it was an STS alien, how much of it was true? That’s the question.
(T) Well, KRLL was supposed to be one of the standard Grays.
(L) Well, then, maybe we can’t rely on anything he says. We can rely on the fact that it is possible that it was an alien who gave this information, but if it was one of the standard Grays, then we have been informed as to who and what they are and we have to look at the information itself as being unreliable, not necessarily the human who revealed the scenario.
(F) Well, it is not necessarily unreliable even if it is an STS source.
(L) Yes, but as STS they would undoubtedly only give information that would tend to service their position.
(F) That would seem to be the case if you look at it from the obvious angle. But, that is not necessarily true. Just because it is an STS alien, and, in fact, a cybergenetic being, that does not mean that the information is necessarily inaccurate for several reasons. For those of us who have reached a certain level of understanding, our first assumption would be that it is inaccurate, so it could be a reverse psychology ploy. Give accurate information, get those who are at a higher level of understanding to think it’s inaccurate, when in actuality it is accurate.
(L) Well, do you know what it said? From what SB tells me, it says, basically, what we have been getting from the Cassiopaeans.
(F) Well, then it is accurate.
(L) We can’t make that assumption!
(T) If this is a standard cybergenetic Gray, the question is how much biological is he? Is he biological enough to pass a dissection?
(L) Sure, I think. There are purported reports of autopsies of these guys, and they just can’t figure out how they feed because they are reported to have dead-end alimentary canals. [Strieber, Majestic, 1990]
(F) They are cybergenetic, but they look and function exactly like a biological being. If you go inside of them you will find blood and fibers and tissue and microscopic evidence …
(L) The microscopic exams, from what I have heard, reveal that they’re more in the line of a plant …
(T) Yes.
(F) Which, of course, would indicate that they have been grown!
(L) Yes. Imagine chromosomal linking of human genetic information with that of the plant kingdom!
(T) You could literally grow hundreds of them easily.
(L) And plant them like seeds … and, apparently that is what they have done. People have come back who have been taken to these ships and have seen walls of containers growing these things. Like a room in a hot house.
(F) Well, there you go. We have gotten information which indicates that the Grays have access to both dimensions because they are probes of the Lizzies. And this gives us a further clue as to what a strange place fourth level is if such probes can be grown like plants. And, what level must fully souled fourth density beings be when we are fooled into believing their cybergenetic constructions are the real thing!
(T) Does this mean that the abilities of the Lizzies, since they have to create probes to enter our density, would not be any more advanced than, say, your everyday spirit [soul]? Without the Grays, would they be able to interact with us at all?
(F) Yes.
(L) Yes, they are, they have, they will and they do from all reports I have studied.
(F) But, there are several problems. One is their appearance is very, very alarming …
(J) They would garner a lot of attention if they walked down the street.
(T) It depends on how they dress themselves! [Laughter]
(L) They can shape-shift.
(F) They can shape-shift, but only for a limited period of time.
(L) Because it takes third density energy to do that.
(F) That brings up something, when we were talking to Susy on the phone the other night, Susy and Barry mentioned the Men In Black. The Cassiopaeans said that the Men In Black were Lizard beings. In many reports of Men In Black, they have been described as very strange in numerous ways. Their voices have been described as sounding like they come from an echo chamber, and …
(T) Well, when we asked about the Men in Black in one of the sessions, what did the Cassiopaeans say? That they are “projections.”
(J) Exactly, maybe that is a clue, maybe that is how they come into our reality: as projections from fourth into third.
(F) But, there is one case that always sticks in my mind, and it took place relatively recently, on April 28, 1978, a guy in Maine who had been doing UFO research, was accosted by a single Man in Black. He said the guy was very strange in many ways. He had pink … his face looked like it was covered with make-up, and, in fact, when he touched himself at one point and his face started to smear as if it was completely covered. And then, he suddenly got up and said: “Have to go now … run-n-n-ing out of e-ner-gy.” Then he walked out of the house and staggered down the drive. They guy said that at that point he became somewhat disoriented as he watched the Man in Black start to stagger …
(L) He was not the Energizer Bunny! [Laughter.]
(F) And then the man saw a light that he at first thought was the headlight of a car, but the Man in Black walked into the light and was gone.
(J) Projections! That’s how they move from fourth to third!
(L) They [the Cs] said they project as a “triage.” Remember. It was something like travel in space/time.
(T) Well, we have gotten off the discussion of KRLL, but we have certainly been led into some pretty amazing conclusions about fourth level.
(F) All of what we have worked with over the years – the ideas of it being a nuts and bolts phenomenon, which I originally thought too – and it’s clear if one has been following the whole phenomenon closely, it has evolved, actually, from a nuts-and-bolts perspective, and I am not knocking nuts-and-bolts, but those who are really looking with an open mind are seeing that this is far more.
(L) Alright, here it is guys … [had been looking for references to Men In Black]Q: Who or what are the Men in Black?
A: Lizard projections.(T) We got onto that because we were asking about the projection of the guy in the Camaro that showed up in my driveway.
Q: Does this mean that the Lizards are just projecting an image of a being?
A: Yes.
Q: The Men in Black are not real in our physical terms?
A: Partly correct. You do not understand technology but we will describe it if you like. First we must explain further “time travel” because the two concepts are closely related. The first step is to artificially induce an electro-magnetic field. This opens the door between dimensions of reality. Next, thoughts must be channeled by participant in order to access reality bonding channel. They must then focus the energy to the proper dimensional bridge, the electrons must be arranged in correct frequency wave, and then the triage must be sent through realm curtain in order to balance perceptions at all density levels. Triage is as follows: 1. Matter; 2. Energy; 3. Perception of reality.(L) In other words they send through …
(J) Holographic images.
(T) They transmit energy that takes matter here and creates what we perceive, and what we perceive depends on what they expect to see, which the Lizzies have to tap into first before they do the triage … that is the “reality bonding channel.” If you are open to see Men in Black, even if you don’t know what they are, then at some level of consciousness …
(L) It is like doing a back-flip through the realm curtain.
(F) But I think this is not just limited to Men In Black.
(L) Listen to this! [Reads from transcript.] Several times I have heard references to big rectangular boxes, I would like to know who these belong to?
A: Lizard projections …(L) What are they doing, projecting their whole damn reality into our world?
(F) Well, apparently part of the whole process of going from fourth density to third density is the projection process itself. This also, of course, explains much of what we have read and heard about in terms of higher phenomena. You cannot ground it at all. So many people have fallen off the track by expecting to capture metallic craft and dissect them, and, while that does happen … that is where material science falls apart. It is stuck in a vicious cycle.
(J) Yes, and it is using its own rules to make itself obsolete!
(F) Right!
(T) So, the bottom line is, we have simply gone beyond the KRLL stuff, the Cooper and Lear stuff, and so on.
(F) Which is one of the reasons why the Cassiopaeans keep telling us to stop asking these stupid questions.
(T) There’s another thing that is even more interesting and that is that we are not alone in this density, there are other beings on other planets also. And, it just may be that some of them are coming here just to throw some more stuff in the soup to keep us confused as to which or who is what.
(F) I have a feeling though that probably everything that we have experienced in the UFO area over the many years is a passage from higher levels of density to this one. I don’t think that we have ever experienced a third to third transfer. That is just my feeling. And, it is only just now that people are beginning to realize that. In other words …
(T) Well, that is what Vallee thinks, along those lines, so he is just looking at interdimensional, because …
(F) But Vallee is also a material scientist so he is examining it in a scientific way. He is a little more open-minded than some who would just say it is impossible because we haven’t discovered it yet … but he is doing it in a very careful way.
(L) Well, have we done enough with KRLL?
(T) Yeah, I think we have done more than enough with KRLL.
At that point, we turned to other subjects.
In February 1995, when I was invited to visit Hilliard, the elderly gentleman who told me about the Coral Castle, I first became aware of the Matrix books, which were assembled and published by Val Valerian. Hilliard showed me his library, which contained the Matrix books. I saw them on the shelf but did not actually have time to open the covers. He assured me they were full of interesting information. At the time, I had no idea of how they would connect to the KRLL papers.
A week after the above session in which the KRLL papers were discussed, I had received them from SB and had read them by the time of the next session. I decided to ask a couple of follow-up questions. This session was in January of 1995, a year before the time we are discussing in our chronology.
January 21, 1995
Q: (L) Okay, give me a quick yes or no answer on this: Dr. Paul Bennewitz – reliable [source]?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is his statement, as it is recorded in the KRLL papers, falsified?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is any of that statement true?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Who is O. H. KRLL?
A: No one.
Q: (L) Is O. H. KRLL a group?
A: Symbolism. For documentary purposes only, your government likes code names.
This last remark seems to indicate that the individuals responsible for the KRLL papers may be government related.
Q: (L) Are you implying that this piece of work was put out by the government for dissemination of the subject matter? (J) Is it disinformation?
A: Complex.
Q: (L) Give us a percentage of factual information in this document.
A: 43%
Q: (L) Are you saying that 43% is factual?
A: Close enough.
Q: (L) Okay, so, in other words, this has been planted by the government. Was it put out with the intention of giving out some factual information …
A: No. Planted? No.
Q: (L) You are saying it was not planted? (T) It was leaked purposely?
A: Your government is operating on many cross-purposes, very complicated!
Again note the government reference and the implication that there may be elements in the government who are interested in informing the public along with those interested in misinforming the public and various combinations of both activities.
Q: (T) Even the simplest things are very complicated with them. Okay, question: The U.S. government …
A: On purpose!
Q: (T) Very true. Question: the government, our government, the U.S. government, according to what you said earlier, is holding thirty-six craft of one kind or another that they have gotten in one way or another. How many other governments have alien craft?
A: All is one.
Q: (L) We already have a one-world government is what they’re saying. (T) Yes, they’re just waiting to make it official somehow.
A: Has been so for long time, as you measure time.
Q: (L) Let me ask this one before the tape runs out and we take a break. What is the “ultimate secret” being protected by the Consortium?
A: You are not in control of yourselves, you are an experiment.
In any event, as I was reading the Matrix books through the month of October 1995, I noticed that the KRLL papers were actually part of the Matrix books. I was also pretty overwhelmed with the material itself, as anyone who has read the first three volumes one after another with very little stopping to eat or sleep, will understand.
There was an address in the books and I decided to write to Val Valerian and send him some of the Cassiopaean material – the raw transcripts from the first few sessions – and query him about his sources. I figured that if I expected him to answer any of my questions, I needed to share what we had quid pro quo. I included my phone number and was surprised when, a short time later, he called me on the phone.
Val was very curious about the Cassiopaean contact and mentioned the fact that it was really disconnected and a mess in terms of needing editing, suggesting that he would be interested in doing it and publishing it in an upcoming Matrix book.
Since I was interested in getting opinions from other people on the Cassiopaean material, I thought that this was a golden opportunity to network with other like-minded people. I agreed to send Val everything we had received up to that point. But, before I took that step, I tried to find out what I could about Val Valerian. RC, the young Jewish woman who lent me the Matrix books, (I was later given a set), told me that his name was really John Grace and that he was a retired Major in the Air Force. That made me even more nervous about sending our files.
In November, he called again. During the course of this follow-up conversation, whereupon Val was urging me again to send the files, I told him I had figured out his real identity and that I had been thinking about what the Cassiopaeans had said about the KRLL papers and his own connection with the military, and that I had concluded that he was the author of the KRLL papers.
There was a long, pregnant silence before he recovered and evaded the issue adroitly, leaving me with the impression that, since he was the author, I should be even more inclined to trust him because we were on the same side, so to speak. I again agreed to send him the files, including the discussion about KRLL as recorded above, and the session about the 3-5 code discussed in volume four.
After, I didn’t hear from Val. On December 2, 1995, I asked about this:
Q: (L) Now, tell me about this guy Val.
A: Learn through active pursuit of contact and observation.
But Val was not responding to the several letters I sent. I didn’t have a phone number, and I was not aware of an e-mail address at this point, so I didn’t know what else to do.
On December 16, 1995, I again asked why I had heard nothing:
Q: (L) Why haven’t I heard from Val?
A: “Push buttons” more. Ask for more contact.
Well, I did, but I was beginning to suspect that the “learning through active pursuit of contact and observation” might not be such a positive thing in this particular case.
But then, he called in twice in late December, and again in January to ask follow-up questions about the material I had sent him. I had the distinct feeling that I was being probed for something, but could not identify what. He asked me to send him everything as it came through. I agreed to do so and sent the files up through mid-December.
Then silence again. Now, with the background necessary for the following session, this brings us back to our chronology:
January 13, 1996
Q: What is going on with Val Valerian? He was calling every week, and I have not heard from him in almost a week.
A: He lost track of time.
Q: Why did he lose track of time?
A: Busy with many projects. You must contact him because we see his desk topped with mounds of “stuff.” He is interested, but just not for some period. [Short pause.] Isis has uterine or cervical abrasion from birth process. [Isis was my dog who had recently produced five puppies, two of which died a short time after birth because Isis was too ill to care for them. It had been several days, and the whole family had been moved into the kitchen for warmth, and so we could hand-feed the babies. This comment was volunteered with no question asked.]
Q: What can I do to help her?
A: Vitamins A, D, E and a solution of Goldenseal root to be placed in food.
We took a break from the session to carry out these instructions. They were, apparently, effective because Isis showed marked improvement over the next two days, and was completely normal at the end of about ten days. After tending to the little canine family, we returned to our session.
Q: Next question: How does one determine if they are channeling a third-density dead dude, or a higher-density being?
A: Corrections and clarifications needed: “Dead Dudes” are 5th density beings. Either they are stuck in 3rd density, or they are communicating from 5th density, not 3rd density!! They are not 3rd density [beings]! 1st density includes all physical matter below the level of consciousness. 6th density is uniform in the level pattern of lightness, as there is complete balance on this density level, and the lightness is represented as knowledge. 7th density is union with the one … it is timeless in every sense of the word, as its “essence” radiates through all that exists in all possible awareness realms. The light one sees at the termination of each conscious physical manifestation is the union, itself. Remember, 4th density is the first that includes variable physicality!! Ponder this carefully!!! And, remember, there is only one “God,” and that the creator includes all that is created and vice versa!
Q: [Three names were given of scientists who worked for the U.S. government, asking if they were part of the reason Pam had been abducted and implanted as was described in the previous session. All three names were lost in static bursts, but the response to all three names was “yes.” The last name was recorded in the notes and was Bob Nathan at JPL. Then, the following remark was made.]
A: Big involvement there! Microwave technology has many applications. Laser, ELF, electromagnetic.
Q: (P) Was my husband’s last assignment … [remainder of question lost in static]?
A: Was used, but not consistently.
Q: (P) Was what my husband was told about the job he was doing a complete lie, or was it the truth?
A: Close, but a few details off.
Q: Was it because he was too strong willed to be controlled by an implant, that he was retired?
A: He was trained in applications, not reversal of command instructions.
Q: Does that mean that he wouldn’t have sold out to the ones who put in the implant, that he was loyal to his employer?
A: Not quite correct concept, it means that he could not be relied upon to reverse “course” upon activation of subliminal instructions.
These last two remarks are extremely interesting in that they suggest that there are individuals who are implanted and/or programmed to “reverse course” of command instructions upon activation of subliminal instructions! Now that’s a scary thought!
Q: (P) How could I be used to monitor personnel when I never noticed anything as being unusual?
A: Very complex, in fact, parallel subject. Pam is “locator probe” for the purpose of monitoring those in her midst. Telling is not important, reading is. Besides, most of the work performed did not involve conscious awareness.
Q: (L) Is this still going on?
A: Partly, but also, Pam could be used as a probe to monitor all events taking place at JPL and other laboratories by examining aural imprints of her husband and others with whom she was acquainted. All events leave permanent imprints upon aural energy fields. This explains, for example, some sightings and apparitions. “Ghosts” are sometimes merely spontaneous activations of the aural records of the natural surroundings.
And, of course, it just never occurred to us that Pam or Sandy might be being used in this capacity in our group.
Q: [Question lost in static burst, but apparently about her third-density abduction in 1987, at the beginning of which she saw a “blue-white light” ahead on the road in the snow. She had been convinced that the incident was a “ghostly encounter” with her recently deceased aunt.]
A: No, Pam, the “blue thing” you saw was not an aural imprint reading, it was a 4th density craft partially transferred into 3rd density. Your deep subconscious memory remembers much, much more.
Q: (P) Does the knife incident have anything to do with it? The memory of my son cutting his thumb with a knife, immediately after the blue light incident?
A: Yes. Screen memory.
We had many guests at the next session. This was the session where the “aura” photographs were taken of all the participants as well as our hands on the board. Since that portion has already been discussed in Wave 1, I will exclude it here and only insert the remainder of the session. Most of the questions were Pam’s, and covered a number of subjects of health topics with interesting answers that might be considered to be of general interest. However, since most of the session time had been taken up with the photo session, we were all tired and the asking of personal questions is always extremely draining, so it’s a very short segment.
January 27, 1996
Q: (P) I would like to know what I can do to improve my memory?
A: You have sleep disorders that are “short circuiting” what would ordinarily be utterly spectacular psychic and mental abilities. When you were very young, your senses were 10 times sharper. But then, the “interferences began.”
Q: (P) That is absolutely true. I have had a sleep problem for years. Is there anything I can do to overcome this? Physically or otherwise?
A: Cleansing of a very intensive nature; hypnotic regression; spirit release and dietary adjustments. Also, stress inducing life circumstances of a very “ordinary” nature must all be deviated! Ordinary, in this instance, means not of an ethereal nature directly.
Q: (P) Well, I have taken several steps in that direction.
A: Some, but it is like putting a “Band-Aid” on a gunshot wound.
Q: (P) What is the implant I have made of?
A: Silicon based micron definitive construct.
Q: (P) Is this why I have this scar?
A: Scar is manifestation of scar in being.
Q: (S) I have been having some serious problems with joint pain in my fingers and I would like to know what to do to make this better because I think that taking pain pills is something that hides the symptoms and does nothing for the cause.
A: Not true, S, sometimes pain killers cure cause as well as symptom. This is simply reversal of therapy. The symptom dies, thus cutting off the energy flow of the causative problem. Then the root cause dies if its “fuel supply” is interrupted for an adequate duration.
Q: (L) Will this work on me?
A: You need to utilize herbal therapies and nerve or neural blocking techniques, such as self hypnosis and acupuncture.
Q: (L) Well, I have been having such horrible pain in my leg that I am unable to walk without a cane. What is causing this pain?
A: Tissue nodular grains passing through vascular region affected by mild thrombosis. Try spirulina, for starters.
This last session, which was also the one when the aura photographs were taken, was the beginning of another simultaneous thread of weirdness of that time period as I have already detailed in the story of Lilly and Sandy and the Reptoid Rape, in Wave 2.
The next day, Lilly called to inform me that Sandy was involved with a coven of some sort. I was sure that, even if it had been true in the past, Sandy was a reformed person. There was just no way she could participate in something like that one night a week and then sit in on our sessions on another. And she had been so devoted to helping me recover from my accident that I simply could not believe she was still connected to any of those people.
But, of course, this was also the same time period that I had been sent the information about the Greenbaum programming and I was somewhat concerned with Lilly’s revelations about Sandy and the remark under hypnosis that she and Sandy had been part of the same programming set, which I took to be a group. Not only that, but there was the receipt of the Elaine and the Sisters of Light material at precisely the time that Lilly made her revelations to me about Sandy. Was I looking at another aspect of the hidden control mechanism? The whole thing was so unlikely and so crazy that I was really stretching my credulity to even deal with it on a rational basis. But heck! When you talk to sixth-density light beings via a ouija board on Saturday nights, how unlikely and weird can anything be?
In retrospect, I can see that I was being taught to see the unseen by the assembly of all these people around me.
The adventure of the hero is always a passage beyond the veil of the known into the unknown. The powers that watch at the boundary are dangerous. To deal with them is risky, yet for anyone with competence and courage the danger fades.
In the Banks Islands of the New Hebrides, if a young man coming back from his fishing on rock, towards sunset, chances to see “a girl with her head bedecked with flowers beckoning to him from the slope of the cliff up which his path is leading him; he recognized the countenance of some girl of his own or a neighboring village; he stands and hesitates and thinks she must be a mae; (an amphibious sea snake) he looks more closely, and observes that her elbows and knees bend the wrong way; this reveals her true character, and he flies.” (Campbell 1949, 68)
Within just a few days of this last session, I was nearly on the verge of total physical collapse. The ear infection had exploded again; my eyes were inflamed and oozing sero-sanguinous fluid constantly, and I was pushing myself to get the magazine finished no matter how sick I was. The final straw was when the infection dropped into my lungs.
Q: (L) If you will bear with us tonight, we would like to ask a couple of health related questions.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) First, is this sickness that I am experiencing part of an attack?
A: As always.
Q: (L) Is there anything I can do to terminate this kind of attack?
A: No. Prevent? Yes!
Q: (L) What can one do to prevent these kinds of attack?
A: Always watch all portals! Those around you are all portals always!
Q: (L) So, there are portals all around. If that’s the case, it seems that you could spend all your time watching all of them and never get anything else done!
A: Incorrect, when portals are activated, you will know if you are watching!!! Your problem has been “falling down on the job,” especially not being aware of the danger presented by those closest to you. You tend to expect attack to always come from more or less disassociated parties, and you frequently confuse issues: mode and source!
So, the Cassiopaeans were taking their gloves off and plainly telling me that my health was deteriorating due to my associations with certain people. I am ashamed to admit how dense I was and that I just could not conceive of how innocent and friendly and seemingly helpful people could be instruments of attack. I mean, what was I supposed to do? Lock myself away from human interaction altogether? How could anyone in their right mind believe that there was anything dangerous or negative in any of them? They were just average people like me, trying to function in their own, personal, dysfunctional ways, just like me and everybody else on the whole blasted planet!
Q: (L) Well, is this especially true as we are on the verge of getting the magazine out and getting some things out on the Internet?
A: Of course, that should be obvious.
Q: (L) Does that also include Pam suddenly developing aches and pains every time we try to get the work done?
A: Yes, and expect more.
Q: (L) Well, I am so sick that I am ready to throw in the towel.
A: Throw in the towel?!? It’s too late!! And besides, your life will dramatically improve if you persevere, as we have told you.
Another issue at the time was Sandy and her problems with her mother and sister. Her mother was in a retirement home and Sandy was constantly stressed because her mother was complaining that she was being mistreated at the home, that she was missing meals and so forth. I knew that Sandy had been adopted by a well-to-do older couple – pillars of the community – and I also knew that Sandy had spent many of her early years as a Motorcycle Mama with the Outlaws motorcycle gang.
As I have already discussed, I knew there were skeletons in Sandy’s closet, and I felt that she had been horribly abused in some way, even if she would never talk about it, and even if she had been involved in gang-type murders with the Outlaws, I was sure that it was only on the periphery and not by choice. I knew from things other people had told me that once one is inside one of these gangs, it is almost impossible to get out.
But now Sandy was a reformed person. She had experienced an epiphany when her boyfriend had died, had given up her old ways, enrolled in massage school so that she could help people, and I had met her at the Reiki group. After my accident, knowing that she was a masseuse, I had called her for therapy. During the course of therapy, we had discussed the Cassiopaeans and she had been very excited to attend a session. After her first, she was so enthusiastic and full of helpful ideas and actions that she became a regular part of the group.
My own mother, who had taken the home nursing course as described in Wave 2, was asked by Sandy to take on the case of her mother in preference to the assorted cases she was handling for the home health nursing agency she worked for. The pay would be the same, and we discussed it and felt it would be preferable for my mother to care for someone who was close rather than a continuous series of assorted strangers as was the case in agency directed work.
So, a lovely little house was obtained and set up for the care of Sandy’s mother, and the two ladies were moved in. Little by little, very dark things about Sandy’s mother were revealed. She proved to be one of those manipulative, vicious and self-centered old people who really need to be in a retirement home because no one else can possibly deal with the demands they make. And that was just the third-density perception.
My mother was complaining daily to me about how it was just not worth it to try to care for this woman because she simply needed round the clock nursing and refused to do anything for herself. To ice the cake, Sandy’s mother, even though she was not able to take herself to the bathroom or feed herself or move at all, demanded to be made up every day, have her hair done professionally, and to be dressed fashionably at all times, including spike heels! And just one person, who was herself elderly, was supposed to do all of this twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week.
But, there seemed to be something much darker going on, though I could not put my finger on it. After enjoying very good health for all her life, my mother began to have serious health problems. She couldn’t sleep at night because Sandy’s mother rang her bell every two or three hours to be taken to the bathroom and refused to wear an absorbent undergarment at night because it was not “aesthetic.” Well, I can understand that, but I also was thinking about the fact that this woman apparently had no regard for any other human being on the planet other than herself.
I tried to talk to Sandy about it. I realized that we had made a mistake setting this situation up. But Sandy couldn’t speak to her mother, it seemed. She could see the problems when she was away from her, and would resolve to do something about it; but the instant she was in her mother’s presence, a change came over her and she was afraid to say anything that would upset her mother because she was so needy for her mother’s approval.
At the same time, Sandy herself didn’t seem to have any wish to take any responsibility for her mother herself.
I asked Sandy to take her mother on weekends, but she was always unable to do so for one reason or another. She would say that she was coming to take her to lunch, or to her own home for the day, or just to administer meds and get her mother to bed so that my mother could have an hour’s rest. But she always managed to not do any of these things and to have endless excuses as to why she couldn’t. Yet, for some reason, I had nothing but sympathy for Sandy. I really thought that Sandy ought to be able to manage these things herself like anybody else, but she was so pitiful and seemingly grateful for every minute of my time that I felt guilty for resenting the many demands placed on me.
I was, of course, caught in the middle. My mother had given up her very nice apartment to undertake this job, and, in a surprising switch, Sandy was claiming that the costs of the house and utilities ought to be considered part of the payment, so that my mother rapidly arrived at a point where she had very little funds in the bank to make a change even if she wanted to.
The whole situation was rapidly drawing to an explosion and I knew it. I pleaded with Sandy to speak to her mother and let her know that if she could not have consideration for the fact that she was very well cared for to have a full-time day nurse to attend to her needs in the environment of her own home, with comforts and advantages that were simply not available in the retirement home setting (it was a very depressing place with tiny cubicles for rooms, and no privacy), that she would have to go back to the home and give up her freedom altogether.
Sandy just couldn’t do it.
And I began to think more and more about the coven that Sandy was supposed to belong to, according to Lilly, and the Greenbaum programming, especially in terms of her mother being one of the powerful women who ruled said cult behind a facade of ordinary life. Could it be possible that Sandy had been adopted by these people, well-to-do pillars of their community, and that her parents had been a part of this cult or some sort of coven? Could it be possible that Sandy, herself, had been subjected to Greenbaum and or cultic programming as a child, and that she had multiple personalities, one of which acted for the cult, and the other of which was just ordinary Sandy?
These were absolutely crazy ideas!
Now, the curious thing about the whole Sandy episode was that Sandy had originally been a member of the Reiki group that I have already discussed in Wave 2. She was very close to those Metaphysical Church people who, in the end, tried to kill me.
But, Sandy had become very close to me. Not only did she attend all the sessions and contribute financial support to the recording materials and computer materials necessary to produce our little printed extracts, she was also readily available for the therapy sessions that the doctor prescribed three times a week. I had chiropractic and massage on alternate days so that I was actually receiving therapy six days a week – with very little improvement.
Now, in short, here is the curious chain of events: because my child was ill and I needed to find work that I could do at home, I met Frank. Because of the investigation into the murder of the twelve-year-old girl on the East side of the county, I was laid up in bed and read the UFO books brought by Frank. This connected to Pam and the incident with the Flying Black Boomerangs. This was followed by the major deterioration of my health. The health problems led to the Reiki group through my mother. At the Reiki classes I met Louise, Candy, Trudy, Reverend Ruth, Sandy and that whole crew that tried to kill me.
Through Candy I also met MT, a woman who owned a metaphysical book store, who introduced me to RC, who referred Lilly to me. And through RC I fell heir to the magazine of which sent me to the print shop to reconnect with Pam. So, I had been being passed around, or so it would seem, in a large circle.
Of course, my mind was working overtime to explain all of these things in a rational way. I did not want to fall into the trap of “believing and thereby making real” in terms of the Greenbaum, and maybe if I hadn’t been doing that, I would have noticed things sooner.
Little by little I started to get the idea that something was not quite right with this scenario. Every interaction with Sandy and her mother resulted in a serious draining of energy or sickness. My mother was constantly sick after undertaking the care of Sandy’s mother. And, at this point, a new scenario began to develop. Every interaction with Sandy in the group resulted in an argument or misunderstanding. On several occasions, these disagreements almost led to the giving up of the project altogether.
I think the reader may be getting some idea of how truly complicated and strange this whole time period was. Anyway, this was the situation at the time of the next session. I had not mentioned anything to Sandy about the things Lilly had said. I was beginning to watch things, however, and was keeping my own council. But, apparently, Sandy had something on her mind.
A few days after the session Lilly had attended, which Sandy had left early because of a headache, and after Lilly had conveyed to me the information about Sandy and the cult activity, Sandy had confided to me that she believed she was soon going to die because of several disturbing dreams she had experienced. Naturally, my sympathies were engaged and I put aside everything to deal with her concerns.
Q: (L) Sandy has had several dreams about a storm coming and having to batten down the hatches and relocating …
A: Sandy must inquire.
Q: (S) In my dream, it was either a physical move, or a moving on to something. Am I moving out of town in a physical way, is it a spiritual moving on, or am I moving in a different direction in terms of my path?
A: That is four questions at once.
Q: (S) Am I going to be leaving the area?
A: Do you desire to?
Q: (S) No, I don’t.
A: Then why would you expect that you would?
Q: (S) Well, that’s what the dream was, but I know it’s symbolic. Do you think maybe I could be moving on, hopefully spiritually? What does it mean, my moving on or relocating?
A: Vague.
Q: (S) Well, I just wonder in what way … [At this point, I became impatient with Sandy being unable to simply voice her worries and I jumped in.] (L) Sandy has said that she thinks this dream means she is going to die …
A: Sandy, ask your questions directly, please! If you “beat around the bush,” we will also!
Q: (S) Will I be moving into fifth density soon?
A: What is “soon?”
Q: (S) Will it be sometime this year?
A: Only if you do something that might best be described as “ill advised.”
The next question in this session relates to an odd comment the Cassiopaeans had made about a year previously, which I will insert here so that the next parts of the session will make sense:
Q: (L) I would like to know how many lifetimes I have had as a human being?
A: That is open to definition.
Q: (L) Well, on planet Earth.
A: Including Neanderthal?
Q: (L) No, let’s skip those.
A: Okay, then it is 79 in broken sequence.
Q: (L) Broken by what?
A: Other planes.
Q: (L) The same question for Frank?
A: Same exactly.
Q: (L) How many for Sandy? Same?
A: No. Not correct definition of answer.
Q: (L) What would be correct for her?
A: Not same exact sequence. 72 plus 4 as special learning channel “hold back” on contemplative plane AKA 5th density level.
Q: (L) Sandy is a fifth-level soul?
A: No. Spent 4 sequence hold-overs there.
Now, back to Sandy’s question in the chronological sequence:
Q: (S) Because of all these dreams about me moving on, could it have something to do with, like, in an earlier session you said that I was a, umm, I was held over in fifth density as a learning channel. Now, I must have been learning something important to be held over as many times as I was. Will whatever I was learning in fifth density come in handy in this lifetime, maybe?
A: What do you think you have been doing for the past year, as you measure “time?” And, what is “moving on?”
Q: (S) Progressing?
A: Yes!!
Q: (S) You mean that what I am learning here, the knowledge I am getting here?
A: That is beside the point, somewhat.
Q: (S) The only other thing is therapy … is it the channeling?
A: Both, and more to come.
Q: (S) Well, I feel like I am just wasting my time in doing the therapy …
A: Let it flow, Sandy, don’t worry about what all the twists and turns along the way mean … it is the destination that matters, and that is not for you to know yet.
Q: (S) In all these dreams, I am repeatedly packing up to move. I have never had dreams that repeated over and over. This is a first for me …
A: Have you ever had other “firsts?”
Q: (S) Yes …
A: Did you panic over those?
Q: (S) Sometimes.
A: And what happened?
Q: (S) I survived.
A: So … ?
Q: (S) I just learn from them and grow from them … (L) And don’t we just answer our own questions?
At this point, Patrick, Pam’s son, who was also present, had been bouncing in his chair in his impatience to ask a question:
Q: (PK) I have a question … the lady who took the aura pictures the other night told me that I can astrally project. Is this true?
A: Everyone can.
Q: (PK) America has a flag, does Cassiopaea have a symbol?
A: We have given two.
Q: (PK) I want to know if they can put something directly in my subconscious. I need proof.
A: Proof, what is that?
Q: (PK) What is proof? Never mind. I’m afraid to ask.
A: Ask, what do you think we will do? Disintegrate you where you sit?
Q: (PK) The rumbling … does everybody have this … the rumbling sound in my head?
A: Vague, but we will answer if “everyone” were to choose to have it, then everyone would have it.
Q: (L) What is it that Patrick perceives as a rumbling in his head? Apparently, when he turns it on, it has a pronounced effect on his aura.
A: Turn on a radio between channels, and what do you hear?
Q: (L) Static.
A: That is not the issue. Turn on a radio that has its tuner between channels, and what do you hear???
Q: (L) You hear sort of a roaring sound. And this would imply that the radio could be tuned.
A: Yes.
Q: (PK) And that is what I need to work on?
A: If you wish.
Q: (L) I don’t know too many people who can turn this on and off …
A: But you know people who have it “on” all the time, and always tuned.
Now, before we continue with the session, let’s go in another direction for a moment to investigate this most interesting remark about sounds in the head. As I was working on this particular segment, the new issue of Nexus magazine arrived (Vol 8, No. 1), in which there was a most interesting article by Gavin Dingley, ParaSETI, ET Contact via Subtle Energies. As I was reading through this article, I came across the following information, which I have condensed somewhat, so the reader may wish to read the original article. I should also note that no specific notes were attached to the information in the article, and we have written to Mr. Dingley for footnote sourcing, so the accuracy of the information has not been confirmed. So, having said all that:
Thomas Townsend Brown is a guy who is known in some circles for his work in antigravity propulsion. Supposedly, Brown discovered a link between gravity and electricity based on the electrical condenser or capacitor. Brown hypothesized the existence of something he called “radiant energy”, which he thought was present throughout the universe and that it might be gravitational in nature, though it was undetectable by instruments.
He was told by the experts that such a wave was impossible because it would require gravity to be bipolar – to be able to repel as well as attract. Later in his life he worked with Alfred Biefeld, a former classmate of Albert Einstein who was also very interested in gravity.
Biefeld had already considered the possible gravitational effects of charged electrical capacitors after studying the work of Faraday, the “Father of Electricity.” Faraday is being quoted to say, “Electrical capacity is to gravity, as inductance is to magnetism.”
It is well known that when current flows through a coil of wire, a magnetic field is generated. The coil is able to store electrical energy within the magnetic field generated. An electrical capacitor is something that is made up of two sheets of metal separated by a dielectric insulator. When an electrical potential is applied to the two plates, it causes the molecules of the dielectric to align with the electric field.
So, perhaps, the energy stored in a capacitor is a gravitational field in the same way electrical energy is stored in the field of a coil.
In 1930, Brown entered the U.S. Navy and was on staff at the Naval Research Laboratories in Washington. While investigating different substances for use as dielectric material, Brown noticed a curious phenomenon: the resistivity, or insulation ability of some materials would change over time.
He next noticed that this phenomenon followed sidereal and diurnal changes; that is to say, it was influenced by solar and lunar cycles. He also noticed that some material would generate spontaneous radio frequency bursts. He also found many granitic and basaltic rocks to be electrically polarized, which is to say they acted like batteries. And, again, the amplitude of these rock batteries were influenced by solar and lunar cycles.
A station was set up to monitor the changes in the electrical self-potential of these rocks and it was thought, for various technical reasons, that the effect was gravitational in nature.
After World War II, Brown was working in California when he made another interesting observation: he found that the patterns of the rocks’ electrical potential did not match the ones recorded in Washington. The rocks used in the Washington experiments were different to those used in California – that is, from different deposits, not different in terms of type. So from this observation, Brown concluded that different rocks are tuned to different bands of this radio frequency energy.
Brown concluded that this energy is the radiant energy he had hypothesized earlier. He thought that this energy was a high-frequency gravitational radiation, which was being constantly emitted from astronomical objects in outer space. While some dielectric materials would pick up the radiation and convert it directly into electrical energy, others would convert the energy into DC electricity. Not only that, but these rocks were tuned to only a portion of the total radiated energy present throughout the universe. This means that your average lump of basalt is a natural gravity wave AM receiver, tuned to only a few specific radio stations.
Another researcher named Gregory Hodowanec was working on developing a sensitive electronic scale and noticed slight differences in the weights he was using. He found that putting a capacitor in the right part of the scale circuit counteracted these variations. After investigating further, he discovered that the Earth’s gravitational field was the problem because it was not stable, it fluctuated. His scale was so sensitive that it picked up these variations as changing values in his weights. He then concluded that his capacitor, which had been an inspired attempt to solve his problem, was able to pick up the gravitational variations and convert them into an electrical signal.
Hodowanec then went on to develop an amplifier wired to a current to voltage converter, which was connected to the sensing capacitor, while its output was fed into a standard voltage amplifier that in turn drove a loudspeaker. The signals received by this simple circuit were described as being similar to whale song. This is not conclusive, but it is remarkable that structured audio signals were received by this simple device.
Hodowanec thought that his device received monopole gravity waves, different from quadrapole waves described in Einstein’s general theory of relativity. Also, while the gravity waves theorized by Einstein were limited to the speed of light, these monopole waves described by Hodowanec were alleged to reach any point in space in one Planck second. (10E-44 sec.) Hodowanec also suggested that electronic equipment had been receiving this gravitational radiation for a very long time, but it had been mistaken for 1/f noise. It is similar to what you get when your radio is not tuned to a station, which is a sort of rushing water sound. However 1/f noise has a deeper sound that some describe as roaring. Technically speaking, it is a whole spectrum of random frequencies which have equally random intensities, but for the most part, the lower frequencies are higher in intensity than the higher frequencies, which is why it has the lower or roaring sound.
Hodowanec hypothesized that the universe is filled with this radiation and that the detected isotropic microwave background radiation that is supposed to be the echo of the Big Bang is actually gravity wave emissions. Hodowanec also found that Auriga and Perseus in the Milky Way were the sources of many natural, yet unusual, audio signals. He suggested that the general background noise can be altered, or modulated, by the passing of large astronomical bodies, which cast a shadow over these emissions. This means that when such radiation is demodulated, one would hear the movements of planets, stars and galaxies. Much of the high-frequency radiation is generated by astronomical processes such as stars going supernova, star quakes and even to tectonic movements within nearby planets.
So, it seems that there are many signals throughout the universe. Many of them are natural and high in frequency. There may also be transmissions of higher intelligence among them, waiting for a tuned receiver to read them. (Dingley, 2000.)
And, speaking of transmissions, let’s get back to our interrupted session:
January 27, 1996
Q: (L) Okay, next question from the list: Sheldon Nidle has written a book called Becoming a Galactic Human. He has said that the Earth is going to go into a photon belt sometime this summer, that there is going to be three days of darkness, and the poo poo is going to hit the fan, so to speak, the aliens are going to land in the late summer or the fall, and they are all coming here to help us. Could you comment on these predictions?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is a fleet of aliens going to land on Earth and be announced by the media in 1996?
A: No.
Q: (P) In 1997?
A: No.
Q: (L) Could you comment on the source of this book, Three days of Darkness, by Divine Mercy?
A: Source?!?
Q: (L) Well, is there going to be three days of darkness in 1998 like it says?
A: Why does this continue to be such a popular notion? And, why is everyone so obsessed with, are you ready for this, trivia … ? Does it matter if there is three days of darkness?!? Do you think that is the “be all and end all?” What about the reasons for such a thing? … at all levels, the ramifications? It’s like describing an atomic war in prophecy by saying: “Oh my, oh my, there is going to be three hours of a lot of big bangs, oh my!!”
Q: (L) Well, you didn’t say it wasn’t going to happen in the fall of 1998. Is it?
A: First of all, as we have warned you repeatedly, it is literally impossible to attach artificially conceived calendar dates to any sort of prophecy or prediction for the many reasons that we have detailed for you numerous times. [Note: the fluid nature of the future. Probability, etc.] And we have not said that this was going to happen.
Q: (L) I know that you are saying that this three days of darkness is trivial considering the stupendous things that are involved in realm crossings. But, a lot of these people are interpreting this as just three days of darkness, then wake up in paradise. I would like to have some sort of response to this question.
A: You should already know that to attempt to apply 3rd density study and interpretations to 4th density events and realities is useless in the extreme … this is why UFO researchers keep getting 3 new questions for every 1 answer they seek with their “research.” If you ask without anticipation, we will always give you not only the most correct answers to each and every inquiry, but also the most profound answers.
Q: (L) Previously you told us about the Southwest region of the United States becoming fourth density. Will the people who live there become fourth-density beings? Or will they be third-density beings in third density?
A: Some of both bleed-in and bleed-out.
Q: (L) Recently Frank had an experience where he heard me calling him as he was going in his door. Then, he heard Jason talking to him here in my kitchen when Jason was up in bed. He was worried that it meant something had happened, but it was apparently nothing of the sort. So, what was it?
A: Increased awareness of ethereal imprints.
Q: (L) When I was standing at the washer the other night, I heard someone clap their hands very loudly right behind me. Nobody was there.
A: Same.
Q: (L) You said earlier that if I just persevere that my life will improve dramatically and immediately. It’s getting pretty hard to hang in here. So, when you say this, do you mean really sudden and in a big way?
A: Open.
Q: (L) Are you going to give me any clues on this?
A: No.
Q: (PK) Do you ever laugh?
A: Yes.
Q: (PK) Do you miss being in third density?
A: Do you miss being in 2nd? Or first?
Q: (PK) Are you laughing at us?
A: Yes. And no, Patrick, we were 3rd density beings in fact we are you in the “future!” We were you, and we are you, and we were 3rd density. Do you understand the significance of the last statement, or would you rather just brush it off? We are you and we were you and we were 3rd density but we are not now 3rd density and you are not yet 6th density.
Q: (L) How do you spend your time?
A: Teaching, sharing, assisting.
Q: (L) What do you do for fun?
A: That is fun!
Q: (P) With each other?
A: No.
Q: (P) With who?
A: Densities 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.
Q: (P) Do we all have a guardian angel? Each and every one of us? One to a person?
A: Not correct concept.
Q: (L) How do we get assistance from higher realms?
A: By asking and …
Q: (L) What is the limit to the kind of assistance we can receive?
A: Limit?!? We live within a realm that includes no such thing!!!
Q: (L) Well, the angel thing is pretty big nowadays. There are an awful lot of angels running around. My first thought was, ‘What better way for the bad guys to deceive than to appear as angels.’
A: Not true!!! STS CAN appear as entities incorrectly perceived as “angels,” but if it is really a sixth density being, incorrect perception is not possible.
Q: (L) I don’t understand. There are a lot of beings who deceive people. They produce phenomena, they do any number of things including making people feel good, have dreams, and all that. What do you mean that incorrect perception is not possible? It happens all the time!
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, what is the story here?
A: Your perception abilities are short-circuiting due to vibrational interaction.
Q: (L) Are you saying that, if there is anywhere in you a question about what you are perceiving, then the very existence of that question is an indication that all the rest of what you are perceiving could be false?
A: Part of the equation.
Q: (L) So, if it is really a sixth-density being, it will blow you away to such an extent that there is no question in your mind?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, what is the other part of the equation?
A: Well, why do you question us? First of all, you question us because the communication is limited at this point … you are not yet prepared for stronger envelopment.
Q: (P) So, I should continue to pray?
A: All goes to 6th density.
Q: (P) Okay, let’s say that I have a little child who is dying of leukemia, and I am praying with everything in me, and the child dies anyway. I don’t get it. What’s the deal here?
A: Wrong. If child dies, that is your lesson profile.
Q: (P) Well, why isn’t my lesson profile with this particular situation that is going on in my life right now, why isn’t it continuing? I thought that maybe I need to …
A: Is it over yet, Pat?
Q: (P) No, it isn’t over yet, but …
A: So, what is your question, if it is not yet concluded?
Q: (P) Can you feel what I am thinking?
A: Yes.
Q: (P) So, why do I need to ask?
A: Because we never interfere with free will.
Q: (P) If I continue to pray, things will continue to get better?
A: Things will stay on their intended course.
Q: (P) Are you telling me that my life has been predestined?
A: No. If you continue to pray, there is no chance of your lessons being interrupted or deferred. Clarify.
Q: (P) Well, that sounds like it is going to continue, it is not going to stop.
A: No, clarify means to solidify your understanding of the answer.
Q: (P) Well, I don’t understand. (L) I think it is pretty clear that the things you are experiencing are part of the lessons.
A: Whatever that is … i.e.: que sera sera.
Q: (P) But then, we are back to pre-destiny?
A: No, lessons.
Q: (P) Well, how many damn lessons do you have to get?
A: As many “damn” lessons as you need!
Q: (S) What about the prayers that are directed to Jesus?
A: Jesus is one of us in “special service” sector.
Q: (L) Like a Green Beret?
A: No, more like a “beige beret.”
Q: (L) What is a beige beret?
A: Just our term.
Q: (P) Well, I have just always wondered if this praying business is a bunch of malarkey. If I pray a rosary, I am praying to the Virgin Mary. Who is she? Where is she?
A: “She” is here too.
Q: (P) Does that prayer go directly to her and does she then send you out to do whatever?
A: She is not really a she. And when you write to “Ann Landers,” does she really see it? And Good night.
As well as the brewing storm in regard to Sandy, it was becoming very evident that our involvement with Pam was far more complicated and problematical than I had ever anticipated. We had started the project at the beginning of January, and already I was becoming unwillingly embroiled in Pam’s control games with her children and her dying husband. The whole family dynamic had presented itself in the beginning as so very charming and loving. As I spent more time with them on the magazine project, more and more secrets – ugly secrets – bubbled to the surface.
It became clear that Pam had bought the print shop business in order to be able to totally dominate her children. It was also clear that her children, aged 20 and 17, were completely and totally irresponsible and undesirous of being dominated.
With a dying husband and mounting medical bills, Pam had also endeavored to exert controls on her children by buying both of them expensive new cars as well as a forty-thousand-dollar sports car for herself so that they could maintain their images as business owners.
The children, Patrick and Shayna, thought that the print shop was their personal bank and that it was supposed to finance their every whim – even without completing the many orders that were placed by customers. They would take initial payments on large business orders, close the shop and go out to eat and party and sometimes not return to the shop for days.
Pat laughed at this in an indulgent manner for some time. But then the bills began to pile up and the investment income from her other sources began to dry up, and her husband’s pension and inherited trust fund payments were not nearly enough to keep up the car and insurance payments. And, angry customers became more and more frequent, making Pam embarrassingly aware of what her kids were doing when she wasn’t watching.
Pam was at her wit’s end. She would be at home caring for her husband and would call the shop to see how the kids were managing things, only to find that it was closed and they were gone. Little by little she confided to me her concern over Patrick and his apparent substance abuse problems as well as her perception of her daughter, Shayna, as a flighty, promiscuous borderline mental case. Pam was constantly dragging Patrick to doctors for horribly toxic and mind controlling drugs such as Prozac and other anti-depressants. She was convinced that if he failed to take his medication he would turn into a monster, and he would certainly fail to take his medicine if he did not have his mother’s constant attendance.
I was unsure why she felt this until she began to reveal that he had violent tendencies and had physically attacked both his parents on occasion, even throwing his father’s oxygen tank into the swimming pool. Pam had to call the police several times. Each time when the police arrived, Patrick would beg her forgiveness. And each time she would refuse to press charges.
On one such occasion, he had stormed out of the house and had taken her car and disappeared for two weeks with her credit cards. It turned out that he and a friend had been partying in New Orleans, visiting whorehouses and eating in fine restaurants. She attributed all of this behavior to his failure to take his medication, and she was determined to keep him under her thumb; thus, she bought the print shop after he had expressed interest in the printing business.
Shayna, a more-than-plain girl with little but air between her ears, was proving to be a teenage slut of the first order. She had picked up a very sleazy boyfriend at a nightclub who glommed onto her because of her fancy car and access to fast, easy cash. More than once I observed him brazenly opening the cash drawer in the shop and taking out money for dinner and movies for himself and Shayna, who was simply gaga that such a slick guy would pay her so much attention; never mind that he was doing it with the customers’ money and no work was getting done for that money!
Pam tried to control all of them and get the print shop to run, but it was a losing battle. I was practically desperate to get the magazine finished and Pam began to manipulate me to that end. She couldn’t get to my magazine,which had been paid up front, until other, even older, backed up orders were finished so I ended up spending many nights in the shop helping her get the orders out. But, we could only do that if Patrick showed up in condition to run the presses, which was problematical at best. He would disappear for days at a time, showing up bleary eyed and sullen with no explanation for where he had been or what he had been doing.
And worse still, he was hitting on my daughter and she was completely insensible to any warnings I gave her that she was being sucked into a black hole.
It was turning into a nightmare. My dreams of producing a magazine and getting it to the Gulf Breeze conference were rapidly fading, my daughter was being drawn into the clutches of a family that I was beginning to see as Tobacco Road incarnate, while Sandy and her wicked witch mother lurked like spiders in the background. I resolved to keep my cool, navigate these treacherous waters as best I could, and try to get out of this minefield with as little damage as possible.
Meanwhile, as if things were not crazy enough, another weird element was introduced into the situation. Against all odds and opposition, I finally had all the layout done, the copy was finished on the computer (I had to learn the program by doing it), and we were ready to print. At this point, a man came into the print shop talking big money and big print jobs. He was a huge guy, over six and a half feet tall, puffing a cigar and punctuating the verbal dollar signs he was scattering through the atmosphere with smoke rings. Pam and her kids, desperate for more money, hung on his every pronouncement of how he was the answer to their prayers; they were sitting on a gold mine in their print shop, and he was just the guy to turn every ream of paper to riches. I could see my magazine being shoved to the back room with every word.
Not surprisingly, all of a sudden, Pam and her kids were no longer interested in the magazine or anything but the promises of gold and glory being spun by the mysterious stranger. I couldn’t get anyone to answer the phone at the print shop; no one answered the phone at Pam’s house and I was feeling desperate again at the thought of all my hard work being locked up and inaccessible to me. At least my daughter seemed to be seeing the light and was distancing herself from Patrick. I counted my blessings on that one.
Then Pam called. Something was not right with the mysterious stranger. Things were also getting weird in her life. She needed to talk to me and ask the Cassiopaeans some questions. Well, finally! The light was shining through and everybody was going to figure out all their issues and start acting like human beings again.
As best I could make out from the very confused tale she recounted to me, this mysterious man was taking control of her son and filling his mind with promises of big money while, at the same time, not coming up with any money of his own to back up his big words. Not only that, but the stories he recounted to all of them about his experiences as an undercover agent were getting stranger and stranger.
He claimed to have been a spy against the Nazis during World War II and he also claimed to have been single-handedly responsible for bringing down the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang. (The mention of the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang was a really creepy thing since Sandy had spent so many years in that environment. It was just another of the many crazy connections threading throughout this drama.)
He also claimed to have been forced to divorce his wife and abandon his family to do this job, which was a great and noble sacrifice on his part, though no reason was ever given as to why this had been necessary. Further, after it was all over, and all this was supposed to have taken place in Tallahassee, he had re-married her, they had a child, and this child had convinced him to give up the cloak and dagger life, which was why he was now looking for promising businesses in which to invest lots of money. The only problem was, the money didn’t seem to be materializing.
He promised to show up with a large check to put down on a big job for Patrick that was going to be the start of their future money-making enterprises; however, this event kept getting put off over and over again. So Pam was becoming suspicious and thought that they were being taken for a ride by a con artist. She expressed this opinion to her son, and Patrick was so taken in by the man that he fell out with his mother and spent more and more time away from the shop, which meant that less and less work was getting done.
I really wanted out of this mess, but I didn’t know what to do. I knew that Pam was not in any position to pay back the money I had already paid her to purchase the paper, which was still sitting unused in the shop. I knew I couldn’t just take my paper to another shop and get a similar deal where I could do some of the work for a lower cost. I also knew that I didn’t have the money to just go to any print shop and get the whole thing done from scratch. What’s more, time was growing short. If we wanted to have a thousand magazines to take to the conference, it had to be done pretty soon!
As it happened, the very day that Pam called me, right after she hung up the phone, the mysterious stranger came in to the shop to reassure her that he would be dropping off some big money in the next few days. He had his wife and child with him. The only problem was, as Pam expressed it to me when she called later, the child was only about eight or nine years old, and the woman was clearly in her seventies or thereabouts. The man, himself, didn’t look to be much over forty, so all the numbers regarding when he was doing what just didn’t add up.
Pam was mystified.
I was disgusted with the whole thing. I couldn’t figure out why Pam just couldn’t see that the guy was a con artist from the word go. And why did she keep hanging on his every word when he hadn’t put up a single dime?
Well, she came over wanting to discuss every detail of what this man had told her, every thing he had told her son, dates and times and just the whole scenario and it was so bizarre as to baffle the cleverest mind. He couldn’t be old enough to do all the things he claimed, and his wife wasn’t young enough to be the mother of a pre-adolescent child.
Well, we decided that the guy was a complete fraud and con artist. I just wanted him gone and my magazine printed. Apparently, Pam had been ashamed to call me for advice without being able to produce something of what was supposed to have already been finished, and she had prevailed on Patrick to print the inside pages. So, Frank and I were invited to the shop the next day to get all the pages of the magazine assembled. Now, all that was left to do was to print the covers.
So the next evening, there we were, in the print shop after closing and the doors were locked. The presses were running in the back, and Patrick seemed to be more stable than usual. He was working hard and doing a very good job. I was thinking that things might work.
A knock came at the door.
It was the mysterious stranger just dropping by to say that he would be there with the big check in the morning. He was full of all kinds of apologies for having had to leave town on a special assignment that was an emergency. Never mind that he was retired from cloak and dagger stuff. There was an emergency that only he could handle! Now he was back, and all would be well! Then, out of the blue, in response to no question whatsoever, he began to point by point give explanations for all the difficulties we had found with his story, including the fact that he was from a family that just simply did not show their age, even though he was now claiming to be well into his sixties. So, naturally, that explained how he could have been a spy against the Nazis and still look young enough to go undercover with the Outlaws Motorcycle Gang.
His wife, on the other hand, had been horribly injured because of some of secret agent work, and that was why he had had to divorce her – for her safety – and when they remarried, she was still undergoing plastic surgery that “went bad” and that was why she looked so old. But she was really much younger than she looked, apparently. However, they had dreamed of a regular family and had gotten help with in vitro conception, even though she was still older than she should have been to have a child, while being younger than she looked, and so on and on.
No problem. Everything was explained.
The only thing was: no one had asked any questions about these things or voiced their doubts and questions; at least not to his face.
Yet, he had just stood there and, point by point, in the same order we had discussed them, answered every question we had established as important in our private conversation of the night before. My back was to him, listening as I worked on collating pages, and I can tell you that my jaw dropped to the floor when he started on this subject. The hair on the back of my neck stood up and my skin felt like it was going to crawl off my flesh. I had the most bizarre sensation of time stopping and I almost froze in my rhythmic paper stacking motions; I had to force myself to keep working and to show no sign of surprise or curiosity. Then, just as if he had done what he came to do, he gave everyone a cheerful good night and left.
We all turned around and looked at each other with our mouths hanging open, our eyes as big as saucers, and said, “What the heck just happened here?” The three of us could hardly speak. We could only sit and look at each other and feel like the laws of the universe had been violated somehow.
After a few minutes Pam said, “Jesus H. Christ! It was just like he had been listening to us talking last night!”
And she was right.
We called Patrick out of the press room and told him the story. He looked at all of us with disgust on his face and pronounced us paranoid.
Well, maybe we were.
But perhaps we had a reason to be. The next night, Frank was at his job, sitting at his desk, when he stood up to go to the water fountain. As he rose from his chair, he turned and looked at the window of the office building where he was employed, and there, standing and staring inside, was the mysterious stranger. As soon as he saw Frank stand up he began to move away as if he had just been passing by, but it was too late. Frank knew he was being watched.
Frank called me when he was home and told me. The main thing we couldn’t figure out was how did this guy know where Frank worked and what his schedule was? I called Pam to see if she had told the guy anything. It turned out that even Pam didn’t know where Frank actually worked.
How did this guy know? Why was he watching Frank? Who was he and what did he want? How did he know about our private conversations at my house? What was this deal about the Outlaws that connected him in a strange way to Sandy?
Pam had become so frightened by these incidents that she had called the local law enforcement offices to inquire and complain. The day after she did this, the man showed up and made vague, threatening remarks about how traitors were dealt with permanently and that guys in law enforcement always shared information with each other. He didn’t say anything specific, but was generally vague and indirect. Nevertheless, Pam nearly had a heart attack!
So, it seemed that some questions were in order. The next session was attended by a number of guests, including a friend that Lilly had brought. The Cassiopaeans were uncharacteristically sharp with Sandy and I was aware of all kinds of cross-currents of energy flowing around the room. For some time, Sandy had been in charge of note-taking, and it was a constant struggle for me to work with her notes because she was careless and easily distracted. It seemed that the Cassiopaeans weren’t too happy with this state of affairs either, or they were trying to convey something to me through their remarks to her:
February 3, 1996
Q: (L) We have several questions tonight. Do you have any particular messages for anyone here first?
A: The need to deliver messages flows naturally, there is no way to “choreograph” it by requesting a specific “time” for this procedure. And, please tell Sandy to relay specifically when we place words in quotes!!!!! It is annoying to not get messages properly transmitted when it is important for each entity receiving to absorb every detail of the given messages as it is intended. We have up until now not said anything about this, in the hopes that she would learn this by herself, but alas, she has not. Therefore, we regret the necessary reprimand. Sorry Sandy, but now please be aware that you have been told, and do not make this error ever again!
Q: (L) Goodness! All I did was ask if there was a message for anyone!
A: But it is important for you to continue at the same steady pace.
Q: (L) Can I continue with the questions now?
A: Obviously, it is always possible to do all that you desire to attempt.
Q: (L) First question: there were rumors on the internet that a respected scientist described a ship in orbit around the planet Saturn, which was said to be as large as the planet Earth. And, supposedly, he said that the photographs from the space probe that sent back the pictures of Saturn’s rings, showed this ship clearly with portholes in it. Is this thing seen in orbit around Saturn, described by this NASA scientist on television, which I cannot confirm because I did not see it, is it, in fact, an artificially constructed craft of some sort?
A: No. It was an artificially constructed tale.
Q: (L) Okay, there is a fellow, TF, who has been hanging around Pam’s print shop, who has a very strange story about his past and present. The funny thing is, all the odd things about his story that we were discussing recently, he explained point by point the following day as though he had been listening to our conversation and knew of our doubts and suspicions. Who is this guy and what are his objectives where Pam is concerned?
A: Best not to discuss issues which threaten to interfere with free will directive. Suggest you stay “on your toes” with this one!
Q: (L) Is there anything about this that you can tell us that does not interfere with free will?
A: Have you not thought to gently inquire of the individual in question? And if not, why not? Generally, those involved in a ruse, be it simple or complex, are uncomfortable with graduated incremental disclosure!
Q: (L) Is one of the reasons you cannot discuss this more freely because we have such a large group this evening?
A: Who says we are not discussing it freely? Subtle answers that require effort to dissect, promote intensified learning.
Q: (L) Okay. I made the observation that if the fellow was a government spy, he would certainly have had a better cover story that the one presented. Am I on the right track?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) And, sometimes it seems that alien programmed or controlled individuals do not have stories that make sense, or are consistent, because maybe there is some lack in their understanding of human culture. Am I on the right track here?
A: Sometimes is not all times.
Q: (L) Well, the guy is really huge and has size 17 feet … he looks like a Nephilim to me! Am I on the right track?
A: It would be more fun if he had size “35” feet!
Notice the curious reference to the 3-5 code! What were they trying to tell us?
Q: (L) Who has size 35 feet?
A: If you meet them, “give us a call!”
Q: (L) Are you joking with me? All kidding aside …
A: You need to be aware of all “guys.”
Again, a warning to be aware.
Q: (L) Does Pam have anything to be afraid of?
A: What have we told you about knowledge as opposed to ignorance?!?
Q: (L) Pam wants to know what his intentions are.
A: Review answer two. [Answer two of this series would have been: “Generally, those involved in a ruse, be it simple or complex, are uncomfortable with graduated incremental disclosure!”]
Q: (P) Was he paranoid about the questions we were asking a week prior to tonight?
A: What happens to those who become uncomfortable?
Q: (L) Well, they get out of the situation. So, start grilling him …
A: Not “grill.” We suggest subtle approach, or grill him “rotisserie” style.
Q: (P) Do I have any reason to be concerned about my actions regarding him, that I called to check on him with the police and reported him to the State Attorneys office?
A: Possibly.
Q: (P) Is it possible that there are moles in the tiny little police department here?
A: Open.
Q: (P) Do I need to get a bodyguard?
A: You are straying, please review.
Q: (P) Patrick seems to believe everything he says.
A: Ask Patrick.
Q: (L) What do you think, Patrick? (PK) I think he does a little bit of double-talk, but not as much as everybody thinks.
A: That is not the issue.
Q: (L) Is the specific issue whether this guy has any alien connections …
A: No, that is not it.
Q: (P) Is he monitoring us?
A: Review answer two. Now, ask yourself Pam, how likely is it that anyone with a tremendous ability to supposedly create such massive amounts of income, would just “walk in the door” and offer you a partnership in an endeavor that is going to produce such riches, as the person in question has described to you? If this individual has such tremendous acumen, why would he want to share the “bounty?” Remember the old saying: if something sounds too good to be true …
At this point, the discussion veered off onto El Chupacabras. Since we have already discussed that in its own context, I am going to omit it here and continue with the material from the last part of this session in the chronology.
Q: (Lilly) I would like to know if the Cassiopaeans are familiar with the entity that was on the three-dimensional level known as Paramahansa Yogananda?
A: Third density, not three dimensional. And yes, but this entity had many aliases: Thorn, Christian, Mobson Singh, etc.
Q: (Lilly) Where is Paramahansa now?
A: Fifth Density.
Q: (Lilly) Is he the Avatar?
A: That is a subjective, artificial concept of the self-styled variety.
Q: (Lilly) Who came up with the concept?(Wilma) I don’t know. I read it in a book somewhere.
(L) So, someone said he is now an Avatar?
A: Is Debbie a “shaman,” is Billy a “hero,” is Oscar a “blade runner?”
Q: (L) I read Yogananda’s book and it seemed that he might be a very holy person. He seemed to have very loving concepts and practices in his life.(Lilly) I just wanted to know where he is now. Does fifth density have anything to do with Venus?
A: That is not a proper conceptualization.
Q: (L) Fifth density is the contemplation and recycling ‘zone.’ (Lilly) Well, at the centers, the ashrams and shrines, people swear that he appears to them. I was curious also about the entity in my home.
A: This is a hanger-on from visit with Wilma at her domain. It is an energy seeking renewal.
Q: (L) Is Lilly’s critter an STS or STO entity?
A: Open.
Q: (L) How does it make you feel? (Lilly) I am tired all the time. (L) How can she get rid of it?
A: Spirit release.
Q: (Lilly) Was it attached to Wilma first?
A: Yes.
Q: (Lilly) Is this what set off my fire alarm?
A: Energy there from. [Break]
Q: (L) Sandra [not Sandy] wants to know about her uncle who just died in January. (Sandra) Where is he?
A: He is at 5th density.
Q: (Sandra) Is he having a hard time adjusting?
A: No, but remember, there is no “time” there.
Q: (Sandra) Many members of the family have reported having visions and dreams of him. What are these caused by?
A: Various processes.
Q: (Sandra) Are any of these caused by Uncle Andrew himself visiting?
A: That is too simplified. We meant that your comment was too simplified. The question is: are any of these manifestations Uncle Andrew?
Q: (Sandra) He appeared to his oldest daughter …
A: The concept is faulty.
Q: (Sandra) So, the appearances are all their own expectations?
A: No, not always, but we are trying to teach.
Q: (Sandra) Is he at peace?
A: Yes. Do you want to learn, or would you prefer to assume?
Q: (L) What are these kinds of manifestations?
A: They are 5th density thought projection energy waves. There is no time on 5th density. All event sequences happen eternally and for an instant only at once.
Q: (L) How does that relate to the question?
A: Because Sandra asked if he was at peace, and if he was “adjusting.” Do you not see that by the “time” you realize someone is “dead,” they have already, in essence, experienced their entire 5th density incarnation recycling, learning and contemplative experience in “zero time?!”
Q: (L) Sandra wants to know how many times she has been ‘recycled’ as a human being?
A: 84.
Q: (Sandra) I knew it! That’s why this body is breaking down in pieces! [Sandra, herself, would be dead within months of this session.] (P) What about me?
A: 73.
Q: (P) Have Shayna and I known each other in another life?
A: Yes, all have and do. Number of incarnations does not predetermine schedule for graduation. And you, my dear, are too fatigued, so Good Night.
This last was addressed to me. It was true, I was having a lot of trouble staying with the program. There was something about this particular session that was unpleasant. The energy was not right, and I wanted it to end. Apparently, the Cassiopaeans felt the same.
The following week, I declined all requests for guest attendance. I wanted to deal with this issue of “corruption of the channel,” as I perceived it:
Q: (L) Last Saturday night we had a very large group of people here and I experienced very unpleasant sensations. I would like to know the source of these? Was the channel corrupted?
A: Not corrupted, diluted. Static EM discharge from two entity sectors.
Q: (L) Was this due to the presence of any one or more persons in the room?
A: One person but two entities.
Q: (L) Well you said, at the time, that Lilly had an attachment and needed spirit release, is this the same person?
A: You learn by answering, using your own learnings, not from ceaseless confirmations by us.
Q: (L) Well, I am obviously not learning too well, even if you have been telling me about my “amazing abilities” which don’t seem to be so amazing lately!
A: All who have amazing abilities must too guard against corruptive forces from within and without having to do with prejudice, assumption, and the anticipatory desires involving patterning presumption. i.e. keep an open mind, always!!!
Q: (L) Well, this leads me to the situation with the mothers: can you give us any immediate advice on this. A clue as to how to settle this situation.
A: Advice was given; not followed! Transposed by Sandy!!!
Q: (L) Do you mean the advice Frank gave Sandy?
A: First things first! Please, Sandy, try to be accurate! You were warned, Sandy! Please, please, please, please, when you call or cry out for help and or guidance, know that we will always, always, always answer. It is up to you to be aware and then trust and follow. If your deep seated stubbornness prevents this, it will result in nothing short of your total undoing! This is because we never give such warnings, except when Vitally necessary! This applies to all others present equally as well!!
Q: (L) This is a tough subject, any more on it?
A: Up to you. The situation will resolve naturally as all situations do …
Q: (L) Is our involvement with Pam fortuitous or potentially disastrous?
A: Either.
Q: (L) You said before, that when we got things going that everything would improve suddenly and dramatically, and immediately. We understood that to mean getting online dialogs going and also getting the magazine out. Are we going to be able to do this soon?
A: As soon as needed.
Well, I was still trying to fit that square peg in the round hole! Many of the events from this time relating to my own “hero’s journey” were recounted in volumes five and six. However, there was so much going on at the time that I will continue my narrative at a later time.
As the reader might guess, a person who has no fear of consequences because they cannot imagine them — or even if they do have the intellect to do so, has no emotion associated with those consequences which would tend to enforce them as behavioral choices — is the ideal vehicle for the violation of the free will and rights of others.
It also means that such a person is free to choose to do things that are potentially self-destructive, without giving a single indication to another “player” that his or her choice is based entirely on a delusion. Very often, they “win” because the sheer boldness of their action is unrestricted by conscience, which is a construct of emotions. But, interestingly, this also has the potential to leave the psychopath open to total destruction.
It’s like a poker player who has absolutely nothing in his hand, but because he is so intent on winning and is so unmoved by the possibility of losing, and because lying produces absolutely no internal emotional reaction of fear of being discovered or the potential shame or disaster inherent in such an event, is able to bluff so convincingly that the other players, any of whom might have a winning hand, fold and walk away — because they are convinced by the psychopath’s confidence that he must have the winning hand of all time. Only he doesn’t, and this means that the psychopath’s strength is also his Achilles Heel. Once he has been spotted, identified and understood, he no longer has the power to bluff. Once knowledge enters the game, the psychopath is exposed, and has no more ability to “con” the other players. The sad part is: He also has no ability to learn from this experience anything other than how to make his bluff better and more convincing next time. The psychopath never gets mad because he is caught in a lie; he is only concerned with “damage control” in terms of his ability to continue to con others.
Such was the case with Ira Einhorn when he boldly and arrogantly decided to keep Holly’s body in the trunk in his closet. It wasn’t an act of stupidity; it was the act of a psychopath. The plain fact of the matter is, if Holly’s family hadn’t had enough money to pay a private investigator to keep digging, Ira would have gotten away with it forever.
So it is in our world: Economics very often provides major payoffs to those who are psychopaths, and penalizes those who are not.
Of course, the reader will also easily be able to see how and why “dumbing down” a society is useful to the psychopathic manipulation of that society. A population that does not have knowledge, or the inclination to obtain knowledge (or even the awareness that they can), is much more easily bluffed by the “losing hand” of its leaders. But, there is something far more insidious at play here: Game Theory, law and economics. The earliest applications of economic reasoning about legal structures were done with an eye toward how legal rules affect societal behavior. The simplest of strategic problems will serve here to highlight the current situation.
When two individuals interact with each other, each must decide what to do, without knowledge of what the other is doing. Imagine that the two players are the government and the public. In the following model, each of the players faces only a binary choice: to behave ethically either in making laws or in obeying them.
The assumption is that both players are informed about everything except the level of ethical behavior of the other. They know what it means to act ethically, and they know the consequences of being exposed as unethical. There are three elements to the game. 1) The players, 2) the strategies available to either of them, and 3) the payoff each player receives for each possible combination of strategies.
In a legal regime, one party is obliged to compensate the other for damages under certain conditions, but not under others. We are going to imagine a regime wherein the government is never liable for losses suffered by the public because of its unethical behavior; instead, the public has to pay for the damages inflicted by the government due to its unethical behavior.
The way the payoffs are represented is generally in terms of money. That is, how much investment does each player have to make in ethical behavior, and how much payoff does each player receive for his investment?
In this model, behaving ethically according to standards of social values that are considered the “norm,” costs each player $10. When law detrimental to the public is passed, it costs the public $100. We take it as a given that such laws will be passed unless both players behave ethically.
Next, we assume that the likelihood of a detrimental law being passed, while both the public and the government are behaving ethically, is a one-in-ten chance.
In a legal regime in which the government is never held responsible for its unethical behavior, and if neither the government nor the public behave ethically, the government enjoys a payoff of $0 and the public is out $100 when a law detrimental to the public is passed.
If both “invest” in ethical behavior, the government has a payoff of minus $10 (the cost of behaving ethically) and the public is out minus $20 which is the $10 invested in being ethical plus the $10 of the one-in-ten chance of a $100 loss incurred if a detrimental law is passed.
If the government behaves ethically and the public does not, resulting in the passing of a law detrimental to the populace, the government is out the $10 invested in being ethical and the public is out $100.
If the government does not behave ethically, and the public does, the government has a payoff of $0 and the public is out $110 which is the “cost of being ethical” added to the losses suffered when the government passes detrimental laws. Modeled in a Game Theory bi-matrix, it looks like this (with the two numbers representing the “payoff” to the public being the left number in each pair, and the two numbers representing the “payoff” to the government being the right number in each pair):
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Government |
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No Ethics |
Ethical |
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Society/Public |
No Ethics |
-100, 0 |
-100, -10 |
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Ethical |
-110, 0 |
-20, -10 |
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In short, in this game the government always does better by not being ethical, and we can predict the government’s choice of strategy because there is a single strategy (no ethics) that is better for the government no matter what choice the public makes. This is a “strictly dominant strategy,” or a strategy that is the best choice for the player no matter what choices are made by the other player.
What is even worse is the fact that the public is penalized for behaving ethically. Since we know that the government will never behave ethically, because behaving with “no ethics” is the dominant strategy, we find that ethical behavior on the part of the public actually costs more than unethical behavior.
In short, the public is being manipulated to make choices that are unethical.
The public, as you see, cannot even minimize their losses by behaving ethically. It costs them $110 to be ethical, and only $100 to not be ethical.
Now, just substitute “psychopath” in the place of “government” and “non-psychopath” in the place of “public,” and you begin to understand why the psychopath will always be a psychopath. If the “payoff” is emotional pain of being hurt, or shame for being exposed, in the world of the psychopath that consequence simply does not exist; just as in the legal regime created above, where the government is never responsible for unethical behavior. The psychopath lives in a world in which it is like a government that is never held responsible for behavior that is detrimental to others. It’s that simple. The form game above will tell you why psychopaths in the population, as well as those in government, are able to induce the public to accept laws that are detrimental. It simply isn’t worth it to be ethical. If you go along with the psychopath, you lose. If you resist the psychopath, you lose even more.
Erosion of ethics and responsibility are the objective. Economics is the weapon. “I think the essence of being an economist… has to do with learning to turn off all your emotions and say, ‘Let’s think abstractly about adoption or crime.’ We have a name for people who are innately really good at this. They’re psychopaths, people who are incapable of feeling guilt, or remorse, or any emotional reaction. So there’s a good reason, I guess, why one looks with a degree of nervousness at people who are really good at this activity [economics]” (Romer, 1983).
In America, a great many households are affected by the fact that work, divorce, or both, have removed one or both parents from interaction with their children for much of the day. This is a consequence of economics. When the parents are absent, or even when one is present but not in possession of sufficient knowledge or information, children are left to the mercies of their peers, a culture shaped by the media. Armed with joysticks and TV remotes, children are guided by South Park and Jerry Springer, or Mortal Kombat on Nintendo. Normal kids become desensitized to violence. More susceptible kids — children with a genetic inheritance of psychopathy — are pushed toward a dangerous mental precipice. Meanwhile, the government is regularly passing laws, on the demand of parents and the psychological community, designed to avoid imposing consequences on junior’s violent behavior.
As for media violence, few researchers continue to try to dispute that bloodshed on TV and in the movies has an effect on the kids who witness it. Added to the mix now are video games structured around models of hunting and killing. Engaged by graphics, children learn to associate spurts of “blood” with the primal gratification of scoring a “win.”
Again, economics controls the reality.
The psychic stresses of our world are right in the home. There they can easily act on any kid who believes that “the world has wronged me” — a sentiment spoken from the reality of existence, a reality created by economic pressures instituted via Game Theory.
Is there a solution?
The obvious solution would be a world in which, at the very least, the psychopath — in government or in society — would be forced to be responsible for unethical behavior. But game-theory modeling demonstrates that selfishness is always the most profitable strategy possible for replicating units. It seems that, over centuries, this has been one of the agendas of the hyperdimensional control system — to encourage the reproduction of genetic psychopaths — so that in this day, in this present time, all their pieces are on the board for the Secret Games of the Gods.
Could it ever be an evolutionarily-stable strategy for people to be innately unselfish?
On the whole, a capacity to cheat, compete and lie has proven to be a stupendously successful adaptation. Thus, the idea that selection pressure could ever cause saintliness to spread in a society looks implausible in practice. It doesn’t seem feasible to out-compete genes which promote competitiveness. “Nice guys” get eaten or out-bred. Happy people who are unaware get eaten or out-bred. Happiness and niceness today is vanishingly rare, and the misery and suffering of those who are able to truly feel, who are empathic toward other human beings, who have a conscience, is all too common. The hyperdimensional manipulations are designed to make psychopaths of us all.
Nevertheless, a predisposition to conscience and ethics can prevail if and when it is also possible to implement the deepest level of altruism — making the object of its empathy the higher ideal of enhancing free will in the abstract sense, for the sake of others, including our descendants. In short, our “self-interest” ought to be vested in collectively ensuring that all others are happy and well-disposed too; and in ensuring that children we bring into the world have the option of being constitutionally happy and benevolent toward one another.
In short, if psychopathy threatens the well-being of the group future, then it can only be dealt with by refusing to allow the self to be dominated by it on an individual, personal basis. Preserving free will for the self in the practical sense, ultimately preserves free will for others. Protection of our own rights as well as the rights of others, underwrites the free will position and potential for happiness of all. If mutant psychopaths pose a potential danger then true empathy — true ethics, true conscience — dictates using prophylactic therapy against psychopaths.
It seems certain from the evidence that a positive transformation of human nature isn’t going to come about through a great spiritual awakening, socioeconomic reforms, or a spontaneous desire among the peoples of the world to be nice to each other. But it’s quite possible that, in the long run, the psychopathic program of suffering will lose out because misery is not a stable strategy. In a state of increasing misery, victims will seek to escape it; and this seeking will ultimately lead them to inquire into the true state of their misery, and that may lead to a society of intelligent people who will have the collective capacity to do so.
So it is that identifying the psychopath, ceasing our interaction with them, cutting them off from our society, making ourselves unavailable to them as “food” or objects to be conned and used, is the single most effective strategy that we can play.
There is, of course, a deeper reason, and that brings us back to the clue of “The Mother.”
*
In 1958, at a New Year’s Eve party, John Nash was apparently being his slightly weird, slightly off-center-from-normal self, known and accepted by his family and friends as just who he was. Many allowances were made for his behavior because he was so brilliant. However, by the last day of February 1959, John Nash would undergo a terrifying and bizarre change.
Just prior to that complete breakdown, Nash appeared at the New Year’s party dressed in a diaper as the “Infant New Year.” Well, maybe that’s not so weird. But what made it even stranger was the fact that Nash spent most of the evening curled up in his wife’s lap. This was very disturbing to the other guests who later commented on the discomfort that this behavior evoked in them. The sensation of being “ill at ease” in the presence of certain people is often just swept under the rug, explained away or ignored by most of us. But in this case, it was most definitely a sign that something was wrong — seriously wrong — with John Nash.
Those who have looked at it in retrospect suggest that long before the New Year’s party, Nash had “crossed some sort of threshold.” However, the deterioration of his mental state was disregarded because he was a known eccentric to begin with. According to those who knew him, his social discourse had always been odd because he never seemed to know when to speak out or stay quiet. He seemed to be unable to participate in an ordinary give-and-take conversation. He was prone to telling lengthy stories with cryptic or off-center endings.
In the months before the party, Nash had been teaching a course in Game Theory. His students noted that he paced a great deal and fell into trance-like states in the middle of lecturing or answering a question. Just before Thanksgiving that year, Nash confided to his assistant and a student that there were “threats to world peace” and “calls for a world government.” He hinted that he was to play a significant role in some upcoming drama. It was after classes resumed following New Year’s that Nash asked his assistant to teach a couple of his classes because he needed to go away. Then he disappeared.
As it happened, Paul Cohen, the mathematician who had become famous for solving a logical puzzle posed by Gödel, also disappeared at the same time. After a few days, people began to notice the absence of both of them, though Cohen was eventually found to be visiting his sister. Nash had “driven south,” ultimately ending up in Roanoke at his mother’s house, but no one knows any other details. It is thought that he may also have gone to Washington, DC.
A couple of weeks later, Nash, holding a copy of the New York Times in his hand, walked up to a group in the faculty common room and pointed to a story in the paper, saying that “abstract powers from outer space, or perhaps it was foreign governments,” were communicating with him through the paper. He claimed that the messages were meant only for him and were encrypted. Only he could decode them and he was being allowed to share the information with the world.
Nash began to say that radio stations were sending messages to him. He gave one of his students his expired driver’s license, telling him that it was an “intergalactic driver’s license.” He told the student that he was a member of a committee and that he would put the student in charge of Asia.
Nash recalls that period as one of mental exhaustion accompanied by a growing series of images and sense of revelation regarding a secret world that others around him were not privy to. He started noticing men in red ties and thought that this was a signal to him. He thought it had something to do with the communist party, or so he claimed in 1996.
At this point in time, Nash was still working on the Riemann hypothesis. He became paranoid and thought that other people were conspiring against him or stealing stuff from his trash can. In France, mathematician Claude Berge received a letter from Nash, written in four colors, complaining that his career was being ruined by aliens from outer space.
“One day, Nash wandered into someone else’s office. He drew ‘a set that resembled a large, wavy baked potato. He drew a couple of other smaller shapes to the right.’ Then he fixed a long gaze on his audience of one, pointed to the baked potato and said: ‘This is the universe. This is the government. This is heaven. And this is Hell.’” Nash began writing strange letters. They were addressed to ambassadors of various countries and Nash attempted to mail them via interdepartmental mail. The department secretary put them aside to show to the department head, Ted Martin. Martin panicked and tried to retrieve the letters (not all of which were addressed, most of which were not stamped) that had been dropped in mailboxes all around the campus.
Now, we really need to stop for a moment and consider this situation. Here we have a guy who thinks that aliens from outer space are ruining his career; he obviously had severe problems, and all anybody can think about doing is trying to cover it up! The department head, in all his three-piece-suit administrative glory, is out there frantically pawing through mailboxes to find letters posted by Nash, in order to prevent others from knowing that the guy is going over the edge.
One would think that, for at least medical reasons, these letters would have been preserved for psychiatric review. However, Sylvia Nasar tells us that none of them have survived. I find that astonishing. Just what the heck did those letters say?
Some of the people interviewed by Nasar reported that Martin told them that Nash was writing that he had been put in charge of “forming a world government.” At another point, Nash wrote in a letter to Adrian Albert, chairman of the math department at the University of Chicago, that he was unable to accept a position there because he was “scheduled to become the Emperor of Antarctica.”
The deterioration was swift following the New Year’s party. On February 28, John Nash stood before 250 mathematicians to give a lecture. At first what he said seemed like just a series of cryptic, half-formed mathematical remarks, which was not too unusual for Nash. But, halfway through the lecture something happened: “One word didn’t fit in with the other. […] Everybody knew something was wrong. He didn’t get stuck. It was his chatter. The math was just lunacy. […] It was horrible” (Donald Newman, quoted by Nasar, 1998).
The audience, according to another witness, “heaped scorn” on Nash and he was “laughed out of the auditorium.”
In his private life, Nash was complaining to his wife that he was “bugged,” that something was going on. He stayed up most nights writing his endless letters to heads of state. One night, he painted black spots all over their bedroom walls.
The details of Nash’s first involuntary commitment are vague. Nasar and others conjecture that the president of MIT intervened in some way and Nash was “picked up.” After his admission to the psychiatric unit at McLean Hospital, an injection of thorazine calmed him down, but did not stop the flow of ideas that were coming into his head. He told Arthur Mattuck that he believed that there was “a conspiracy among military leaders to take over the world, and that he was in charge of the takeover.” The bizarre and elaborate nature of Nash’s psychosis, his beliefs that were simultaneously grandiose and persecutory, and other symptoms, all resulted in a diagnosis of schizophrenia.
In the hospital, Nash quickly learned to stop acting crazy. He wanted out of there, and so he applied himself to learning the rules of the game. Even though he reported that his symptoms had disappeared, his psychiatrists agreed that he was very likely just concealing them. Nash told whoever would listen that he was a “political prisoner.”
After much to-do, Nash fled to Europe. In Paris, he was frequently visited by Alexander Grothendieck who, ten years or so later, founded a survivalist organization, dropped out of academia, and disappeared into the Pyrenees. Another interesting item from that time consists of the fact that Nash apparently told mathematician Shiing-she Chern that “four cities in Europe constituted the vertices of a square.” Which cities they were, and what the implications of this fact are, was apparently not recorded.
Through it all, Nash was talking about numerology, dates, world affairs, and something going on in the Gaza strip. He believed that there were magic numbers, dangerous numbers, and that it was his job to save the world. He lived in constant fear of annihilation: Armageddon, the Day of Judgment, etc. The date May 29 was ominous to him. Eventually, he was hospitalized again and subjected to “insulin therapy.” As Nasar reports, “good firsthand accounts of this therapy are difficult to obtain because it destroys large blocks of recent memory.” Why are we not surprised?
Nash shuffled in and out of hospitals, back and forth across the Atlantic, fluctuating between various degrees of madness for years. Overall, his condition and symptoms certainly fit his diagnosis: paranoid schizophrenia. And, as is usual with schizophrenics, the delusions were disconnected bits and pieces of the individual’s actual reality.
My question is: Knowing the “brute force” of Nash’s mind, did he actually do what he claimed he wanted to do — to “find a different and more satisfying under-picture of a non-observable reality”? Did he penetrate the veil; and did he, in the act, encounter something so dark, so dreadful, that it overloaded his all-too human circuits and triggered his descent into schizophrenia?
What do John Nash and Ira Einhorn have in common besides brilliant minds and a fascination with the game “Go?”
Well, they both had “dominating mothers” who constantly sought to push them forward in the world through assiduous training of their minds, pride in their accomplishments, and a serious lack of allowing them to experience the consequences of their behavior — if their mothers were even aware of their “glitches.” It actually seems to be so that very good psychopaths learn very early to conceal their true nature.
But coming back to the issue: psychopathy and schizophrenia. In all the research I have done on the subjects, there are two things that keep coming up in both conditions: the lack of emotional “connection,” and unusual word usage. Psychopaths, however, seem to seek to “engage” others for the purpose of getting what they want, to materially fulfill their fantasies. Schizophrenics, on the other hand, withdraw from others into their fantasies, as though the fantasy was more real than the outside world. To adapt the punch line of an old joke: Psychopaths build castles in the air and try to sell them to others; schizophrenics build castles in the air and move into them.
Over and over again, in reading cases of both disorders, we find that “disharmony between the content of patient’s words and his emotional expression was striking.” However, in the case of the schizophrenic, it has gone to an extreme, in that there is no longer any attempt to fake anything for the sake of deceiving other people. For example, one patient giggled constantly while describing, in sympathetic words, an acute illness suffered by his mother. One schizophrenic talked about his child’s death with a broad smile on his face. Another patient reacted with rage to a simple question about how he slept at night. Clinically, the degree of emotional inappropriateness is often used to indicate the severity of the schizophrenic’s condition. But, far from being able to consciously “pretend” appropriate emotions, as the psychopath does for the purposes of deception, the schizophrenic exhibits a huge discrepancy between what he says and the emotional tone associated with his verbal communications. The emotions attached to what the schizophrenic talks about are inappropriate and arbitrary, and rarely — if ever — concealed.
Nevertheless, it is clear that both schizophrenics and psychopaths operate largely based on fantasy or delusion.
Does this suggest that psychopathy is a variation of schizophrenia that is outwardly directed in some sense, and which manifests certain coping mechanisms in order to obtain “satisfaction”? Are schizophrenics individuals who have somehow shifted into a mode of being wherein outside stimulation or sources of satisfaction are not only no longer needed, but perceived as completely undesirable? If we think of psychopaths in terms of upright “predators,” is it appropriate to think of schizophrenics in terms of upright “prey,” even if the predator is in their own mind?
The curious thing about the two cases, Nash and Einhorn, is that both of them exhibited very similar “independence” and “antisocial” behaviors when they were growing up. There was similar aggression and resistance to authority. However, there are most certainly schizophrenics who have been described by their families as very “together” and outgoing, dutiful and giving, before the onset of their symptoms. Many, if not most of them, are shy and introverted as children — seemingly “too sensitive.” But that is not always true, and it certainly wasn’t true in the case of John Nash.
Mealey has proposed two different aetiologies for sociopathy, but in her framework those displaying chronic antisocial behaviour are placed in the same functional category. This implies that they have similar or identical psychological mechanisms. On the other hand, Blair [Blair, R.J.R. (1995), “A cognitive developmental approach to morality: investigating the psychopath,” Cognition, 57: 1-29] concentrates on the mechanisms subserving psychopathic behaviour, but concludes that psychopaths have a dysfunctional psychological/neurological mechanism and are disordered in comparison to other members of society.…
In one significant study it was found that the Psychopathy Checklist could not distinguish between psychopathic and schizophrenic offenders in 50 consecutive male admissions to an English Special Hospital. [Howard, R.C. (1990), “Psychopathy Checklist scores in mentally abnormal offenders: A re-examination,” Personality & Individual Differences, 11: 1087-1091] This may indicate that some schizophrenics with a history of antisocial behaviour are suffering from what could be called state-dependent psychopathy.…
What is most outstanding about psychopaths is that they appear extremely at ease with themselves. They can be articulate, are often highly intelligent, and are regularly described as “charming,” and “convincing.” Psychopathy is not associated with low birth-weight, obstetric complications, poor parenting, poverty, early psychological trauma or adverse experiences, and indeed Robert Hare remarks “I can find no convincing evidence that psychopathy is the direct result of early social or environmental factors.” [Hare, R.D. (1993), Without conscience: The disturbing world of the psychopaths among us, New York, NY: Simon and Schuster]
No sound evidence of neuroanatomical correlates for psychopathic behavior has been found, though an interesting (and highly significant) negative correlation has been found in 18 psychopaths between the degree of psychopathy as assessed by the Checklist and the size of the posterior half of the hippocampi bilaterally. [Laakso, M.P., Vaurio, O., Koivisto, E., Savolainen, L., Eronen, M., Aronen, H.J., Hakola, P., Repo, E., Soininen, H., & Tiihonen, J. (2001), “Psychopathy and the posterior hippocampus,” Behavioural Brain Research, 118: 187-93] Lesions of the dorsal hippocampus have been found to impair acquisition of conditioned fear, a notable feature of psychopathy, but it is not clear whether this neuroanatomical feature is the cause of, or is caused by, psychopathy. A study of 69 male psychopaths identified by the revised edition of Hare’s Psychopathy Checklist found no support for the hypothesis that psychopaths are characterized by verbal or left hemisphere dysfunction. [Smith, S.S., Arnett, P.A., & Newman, J.P. (1992), “Neuropsychological differentiation of psychopathic and non-psychopathic criminal offenders,” Personality & Individual Differences, 13: 1233-1243]
One particularly striking feature of psychopathy is that extremely violent and antisocial behaviour appears at a very early age, often including casual and thoughtless lying, petty theft, a pattern of killing animals, early experimentation with sex, and stealing. [Hare, op. cit.] In a study of 653 serious offenders by Harris, Rice, and Quinsey, childhood problem behaviors provided convergent evidence for the existence of psychopathy as a discrete class, but “adult criminal history variables were continuously distributed and were insufficient in themselves to detect the taxon.” [Harris, G.T., Rice, M.E., & Quinsey, V.L. (1994), “Psychopathy as a taxon: evidence that psychopaths are a discrete class,” Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology, 62: 387-97]
In a recent study psychopathic male offenders were found to score lower than non-psychopathic offenders on obstetrical problems and fluctuating asymmetry, and in fact the offenders meeting the most stringent criteria for psychopathy had the lowest asymmetry scores amongst offenders. [Lalumière, M.L., Harris, G.T., & Rice, M.E. (2001), “Psychopathy and developmental instability,” Evolution and Human Behavior, 22: 75-92] As the authors note this study provides no support for the idea that psychopathy results from developmental instability of some kind, but does give partial support for life-history strategy models.
An evolutionary game-theoretic explanation for the low but stable prevalence of psychopathy has been modeled successfully [Colman, A.M., & Wilson, J.C. (1997), “Antisocial personality disorder: An evolutionary Game Theory analysis,” Legal & Criminological Psychology, 2: 23-34], and though this provides some tentative support for Mealey’s suggestion that psychopathy is a frequency-dependent strategy, cross-cultural work using reliable measures will be needed to establish whether there is a stable proportion of sociopaths in traditional societies. [Archer, J. (1995), “Testing Mealey’s model: The need to demonstrate an ESS and to establish the role of testosterone,” Behavioural & Brain Sciences, 18: 541-542] Given the paucity of evidence in favour of developmental instability and brain damage in psychopaths the suggestion that psychopathy is an adaptation is worthy of further exploration. Particular attention should also be paid to the probability that child psychopaths are mislabeled as suffering from Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, Conduct Disorder, or Oppositional Defiant Disorder. [American Psychiatric Association (1994), Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM IV) (4th ed.), Washington, DC: American Psychiatric Association] According to Hare “none of these diagnostic categories quite hits the mark with young psychopaths. Conduct disorder comes closest, but it fails to capture the emotional, cognitive, and interpersonal personality traits… that are so important in the diagnosis of psychopathy.” [Hare, op. cit.]
(Pitchford, 2001; this author’s emphases)
As noted above, we have an interesting problem before us: There seems to be some extraordinary correlation between psychopathy and schizophrenia that is, as yet, quite mysterious to researchers. Ian Pitchford has proposed that “some schizophrenics with a history of antisocial behaviour are suffering from what could be called state-dependent psychopathy.”
Now notice: This is not saying that schizophrenics are psychopaths. I am personally aware of several people suffering from the horrors of schizophrenia who have never, ever, manifested any psychopathic characteristics. On the contrary, they were gentle, loving, shy and giving until the disease manifested. And, even after, such natures still manifest through the fog of the delusions in numerous ways. No, indeed, we are talking about something else altogether.
As I have noted earlier, when I read the biography of John Nash, it was with a sickening sense of horror that I realized I was reading a vivid description of Frank Scott’s life, as he had recounted himself — only without the “pity poor me” spin he had put on it. He had spent so much time lambasting his parents for abusing him, that I was quite shocked to meet them and to immediately sense that there was no way possible that these people had ever abused anyone. At a later point in time, I closely questioned his sister about these things and she assured me that Frank had never been abused. She did acknowledge that he had repeatedly claimed that he had suffered at their hands, and even at her own hands, and that perhaps, since he was so “sensitive,” he may have been handled too “roughly” for his delicate sensibilities. The best psychopaths are able to convince another person that they have done something bad, even when they are the one who did it, and they know it wasn’t bad — or certainly not as bad as portrayed! As it happened, Frank’s sister’s versions of events he had recounted as being horrible and violent were just simply not convincing enough to support his claims. It should also be noted that, because she was not “in agreement” with him over many issues, Frank viewed his sister as morally deficient. He also spent a great deal of time interpreting her behavior to his parents as such, even though it was obvious that she was simply an individual who had ideas about living her life that were different from theirs. Frank assiduously “fed” this difference of opinions, ultimately achieving his goal of convincing his parents that his sister was, if not morally deficient, at least psychologically impaired to the point of being incompetent. Heck, until I met her, I was convinced, too! Even after that, for a long period of time, Frank managed to interpret everything she had said and done in my presence in the worst light, so that I was left with nothing but confusion about her.
In any event, as we have noted, the “tests” referred to by the Cassiopaeans on a number of occasions, were obviously related to the ability to “see” something that was not apparent to ordinary vision. Interestingly, this point is emphasized by the fact that the essence of the many learning exercises I was being led through was identified in the course of a discussion about Ted Bundy — a classic psychopath!
01-09-96
Q: (L) I don’t quite know how to ask this. It has become increasingly obvious to me that there is some sort of connection where [an unsolved murder of a local 13-year-old girl, with absolutely no clues] was concerned, some synchronous connections between that murder and my so-called “awakening,” if you want to call it that. And I also noticed a connection between the life pattern, or change in life pattern, of Ted Bundy and certain UFO sightings and cattle mutilations that were in his area of the country. Now, we have another girl who has come up missing at the same time P and I were discussing this case, and this new case has a lot of things that seem to be common to that case. I see that there is an issue here that I would like to get to the bottom. […] Did my involvement with that case [I was asked by law enforcement official to try to come up with some clues or hints through astrology and psychic impressions] have anything to do with opening the door of my mind to other phenomena, particularly UFOs and aliens?
A: Possible.
Q: (L) You can’t give me a clear answer on that?
A: Learn!
Q: (L) Okay. I had dreams about it. The work that I did on the case astrologically, the dreams I had about it, as well as certain impressions I received, was that an opening of my instinctual awareness in some way?
A: Maybe. […]
Q: (L) Was there some connection between murder and “alien” activity?
A: There is always this connection in one way or another, at one plane convergence or another.
Q: (L) Was the murder of this child a “mini-plane convergence”?
A: What did we just say?
Q: (L) It seemed to me that was what you said, and I was trying to clarify it — is that, in fact, a plane convergence, where one person’s plane of reality converges with another person’s plane of reality, and one or the other gets annihilated?
A: 4th, 5th and 3rd density is involved.
Q: (L) Is this true with all murders?
A: Discover, and yes.
Q: (L) Was my interaction into that reality a sort of entering into a point of plane convergence?
A: Flirting with the edges.
Q: (L) So, when a person is working on a murder investigation, or thinking about it, or applying thoughts, talents, instincts or whatever to the solving of this kind of puzzle, they are interacting with a plane convergence?
A: This represents one manifestation of the always present desire to return “home” to 5th density.
Q: (L) Okay. Well. Now, I want to get to the 64,000-dollar question. In the JO case, was my conclusion correct?
A: “Correctness” takes many forms and provides a window to many conventions.
Q: (L) (F) What does that mean? (L) I don’t know.
A: Learn.
Q: (L) Was the man who killed her known to her?
A: We recall advising a cautious approach, in order to insure that your lessons are learned not only accurately, but painlessly as well.
Q: (L) Could you suggest, just to get me on track here, a form of question that would be a “cautious” question? Then I can frame subsequent questions on that model.
A: The issue here is not how to “frame” a question in such a way as to lure us into answering in the way you desire, but for you to learn most effectively. Do not have prejudice that there is only one thing to be learned from each response. “You never know what there is to be learned when you inquire with innocence and freedom from supposition.”
Q: (L) I just played the tape back and it is all muddy. Could you tell us why we are having this problem with the tape?
A: Telekinetic wave transfer.
Q: (L) What is this telekinetic wave transferring?
A: Evolving energy.
Q: (L) Given off by us?
A: Both to and from.
Q: (L) From us to you?
A: You and others, not us. [The only other person present was Frank.]
Q: (L) Who are these others?
A: 4th density eavesdroppers, P’s involvement should “heat things up.”
Q: (L) Is P’s involvement going to be beneficial to this work?
A: Yes, but also expect anomalies.
Q: (L) That is interesting. Are you going to tell me who killed the child? I am willing to give up my conclusion if necessary.
A: Learn. Review our previous response. […]
Q: (L) Okay. Learn. Was there something about Ted Bundy, and the fact that his life seemed to disintegrate at the same time a lot of UFOs were sighted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy abducted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy programmed to do what he did?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the purpose behind that programming?
A: We must withhold answer for the present.
Q: (L) Okay. Bundy described his murdering urges as a “pressure building inside” him that he couldn’t overcome, and it seemed to cause him to stop being “human,” as we think of it. That seems to me to be an example of an implant being able to overcome a person’s social behavior, or controls over antisocial tendencies. Is this also what happened to the person who killed JO?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the newly missing girl, CB, and JO?
A: You are doing well in your probing of the knowledge within on this issue, we suggest continuance, after all, learning is fun!
Q: (L) So, it seems to me that there was a connection between the appearance of CB and JO. Could it be that the individual who killed one or both of them was programmed to respond to this particular type facial characteristic? Could that be part of the programming?
A: End subject.
Q: (L) What do you mean?
A: We have helped you all that is necessary for now on this matter. It is beneficial for you to continue on your own for growth.
Q: (L) Can I ask just one or two more little questions in a different direction? I mean, this is like walking away and leaving me in the dark!
A: No it is not!
Q: (L) I would like to be able to solve this because the families are in pain and have asked for help.
A: Why don’t you trust your incredible abilities? If we answer for you now, you will be helpless when it becomes necessary for you to perform this function on a regular basis, as it will be!!!!
Q: (L) Well, frankly, I don’t want to be involved in any more murder investigations. It is too upsetting. Am I supposed to do this sort of thing regularly?!
A: Not same arena.
Q: (L) Well, then how do you mean “perform this function”?
A: No, seeing the unseen.
And, regarding the issue of schizophrenia:
10-25-94
Q: (L) Are Lizards responsible for paranoid schizophrenia?
A: Some.
Q: (L) In a general sense, in the majority of cases, what is the cause of paranoia or schizophrenia?
A: Lizard manipulation of energies.
Q: (L) Why?
A: To feed off the negative results.
Q: (L) So it isn’t necessarily attachments?
A: No.
Q: (L) Do Lizards use attachments of dark energies to effect their purposes?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) In a lot of cases of paranoid schizophrenia are attachments used?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are they perpetuating schizophrenia through genetics?
A: Can. Or mental and emotional. Environmental life experiences.
Q: (L) Why does it not usually show up until adolescence? Is this because adolescents are being abducted and having implants put in?
A: Not necessarily.
Regarding the next excerpt, there were several sessions at this point in time that were held without Frank’s presence. They have never been included in the general transcripts because they were primarily about Frank himself, and we thought it was a kindness to protect him from the shock of certain knowledge, all the while encouraging positive interactions in an effort to help him. In the session just prior to this one, we were told that there was danger around Frank. We were not entirely sure if the remarks meant that Frank was in danger because of his being unconsciously manipulated by other forces, or if he was a danger to us. This was the event that motivated me, once again, to try to save Frank. In this excerpt below, he had just rejoined the group and I wanted to inquire about this information with him present, so that if there was anything he needed to do to protect himself he would be made aware.
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Q: (L) The other night when we were working without Frank, we got some information that indicated that Frank was in danger via the government. Is that true, or was that true?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) What is the source of this danger?
A: Source?
Q: (L) I mean, like, the IRS, the FBI, the CIA, or what?
A: Not initialed as such.
Q: (L) Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?
A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What can be done for shielding?
A: Knowledge input on a continuous basis.
Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?
A: All and other.
Q: (L) A specific other?
A: Networking of information. Now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with.”
Q: (T) Which two have experienced similar types of attack?
A: Up to you to identify for learning. […] Suicidal thoughts?
Q: (L) Have you had suicidal thoughts? (J) No. (T) Not me. (F) I have had them constantly. (T) Laura, did you? (L) I was pretty damn low. I wasn’t contemplating suicide, I was just thinking how nice it would be if we could just turn out the lights and end the illusion. (T) Okay, so we have identified the two, you and Frank. (L) So, in other words, Jan, it is going to get worse. […] (T) So, we have the knowledge and all we have to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?
A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means!
Q: (J) Is one of the reasons why this whole thing between Frank and Laura happened to show us that we could establish, albeit a very weak and very jumbled, connection with the channel without Frank’s presence. A sort of verification of the channel’s integrity. Was that one of the byproducts of this, or one of the purposes of it?
A: Byproduct is good way of putting it. Remember, all there is is lessons.
Q: (L) The attack was more internal in terms of doubt, not only of the channel and the information, but of the very foundations of existence. I mean, the realization that we may not be at the top of the food chain was shattering. (T) That snowballed on its own once the initial conflict was established. (J) Maybe the way to look at it is: Yes, we went through all this crap, and you and Frank went through all this anguish, but maybe one good thing that came out of it, and maybe wasn’t intended, was the fact that, yes, we were able to see that there is a channel separate and distinct from all of us. It is not dependent on any one of us to be present. Yes, we do need to have all of us together for optimum contact.…
A: All are able to channel, but practice is required to establish the same extent of grooving, but be aware of ramifications!
Q: (L) What ramifications?
A: Observe “Frank.”
Q: (T) We are observing you. (J) Yeah. And? (F) I think what they mean is, when you can channel as I can, because I channel almost continuously, this has a good side and a bad side. Now, the good side you know. The bad side you don’t know. The bad side is very hard to live with. I cannot even describe the state of my mind.
It is notable that Frank indicates that his “constant channeling” was so negative, that he thought about suicide constantly. One has to wonder about what he called the “bad side” of channeling that was so “very hard to live with.” It is also notable that the Cassiopaeans indicated that this state that Frank was calling “constant channeling” was actually “mind attack,” and that the cure was “knowledge input” on a continuous basis, which obviously was not happening in his so-called “constant channeling.” This implies that, when he was not working with the group, he was not networking to the “knowledge base” which the Cassiopaeans have numerous times described as “light.” In short, the many things that can be inferred from the above series of remarks merely confirms the ideas regarding Frank Scott already presented in these pages. It was this test, this seeing through the enormously successful deception perpetrated by Frank, that I was being challenged to “pass.”
We have already had a look at the fact that interactions with a psychopath are, as the Cassiopaeans describe it, a “dance” that can be extremely dangerous. It was this “dance” that I was being challenged to discern by “seeing the unseen.” One could say that being under the control of a psychopath is rather like dancing with the devil. What most people don’t realize is exactly how serious this is in the hyperdimensional sense. To allow oneself to be conned or used by a psychopath is to effectively become part of his “hierarchy” of feeding. To believe the lies of the psychopath is to submit to his “bidding” (he bids you to believe a lie, and you acquiesce), and thus, to relinquish your free will.
In strictly material terms, this doesn’t seem to be much of an issue, right? After all, somebody lies to us and who really cares? Is it going to hurt us to just let them lie? Is it going to hurt us to just go along with them for the sake of peace, even if we know or suspect they are lying? After all, checking the facts and facing the psychopath with truth, and telling them “no,” is generally very unpleasant. Remember, the game is set up so that we pay a lot for being ethical in dealing with the psychopath. In material terms, it really doesn’t seem to be worth it because we suffer all kinds of attack — verbal, psychological, and even physical abuse — so it’s just easier to let sleeping dogs lie, right? This is where we again enter the realm of hyperdimensional realities.
It may not seem to mean much in the material world whether or not we let things slide, accommodate a psychopath or two, or engage with them thinking that we are well able to “draw the line,” or that when things get “out of hand,” we can just walk off the dance floor. We may wish to think that making decisions about our associations with others based on only probable hyperdimensional realities is an “iffy business.” After all, we cannot see any of the things that the Cassiopaeans talk about when they discuss 4th density realities. We cannot see “emotional feeding” that is “draining” us or depriving us of the ability to raise our awareness. We cannot see any “tenuous filamentary connections” between ourselves and others that are part of a “hierarchy of control.” At best, we can only really penetrate to the level of the psychological reality, observed behavior that is discordant or self-destructive. We are thoroughly programmed to help by giving until it hurts, or trying to fix or make nice.
All of these things, all of these accommodations of psychopathy, on just a practical level, can be seen to “select for psychopathy” in terms of the gene pool. But on the hyperdimensional level, considering the great amount of evidence we have that there is something very mysterious going on that has to do with “controlling the minds of humanity,” and covering up something that may affect every single human being on this planet, we find that the issue is crucial. Refusing to accommodate the manipulations and maneuvers of the psychopath may, indeed, be critical to the positive transformation of our planet. In fact, this matter has already been extensively discussed by Michael Topper in his “Precis on The Good and The Evil,” published in the now defunct Thunderbird Journal. Most interestingly, he discusses it in terms of economy! We thus see the Hermetic connection: As above, so below, and vice versa. We can surmise the agenda above, by observing the dynamics below! (The following excerpts from Topper’s article have been edited for clarity and brevity, though it’s hard to edit Topper since his word usage is so dense.)
In the case of both Positive and Negative beings of 4th density, the negotiable currency of their transactions is a bio-psychic energy; the mode of both is accumulation, in the sense of storing and putting such bio-psychic energy-capital to work in powering or transforming the centers toward deeper integration and functional unity.
Due to the character of our traditional spiritual and esoteric teachings, we may have a conceptual difficulty understanding how a being of a higher density manages to acquire its status without benefit of any basic heart-development.
Positive beings at 4th density have achieved the necessary intensity and developmental alignment through conscious decisions based on recognition of the abstract propriety of identifiable divine law. […] Such beings display a recognizably “scientific” approach to spiritual considerations; they openly regard Divine Light as a mensurable magnitude. […] Their apparent “coldness” or objectivity is only apparent. They register the distress of others and modify their approach accordingly. […] One need only compare the behavior of truly Negative beings to appreciate the difference. In the famous account of Whitley Strieber [there is] an adequate example. […]
In Strieber’s account, we witness the astonishing effort to transmute those horrific experiences into a positive outline. Thus Strieber, with almost excruciating transparency invokes the standard “humanistic” saw to the effect that dichotomies of good-and-evil are too simplistic and medieval, truth always being some “gray” blend of opposites; in this way he shields from himself the obvious implications of his ongoing ordeal.
But more importantly, he demonstrates to perfection the procedure of how one “falls into the hands” of the Negative beings and, by the denial mechanism of 3rd density psychology, creates the belief that “good” things, developmental things, positively proceed from such ordeals. […]
His conclusions, his distillates of what he’s learned, insist almost schizophrenically that these entities must in some way have the “good of mankind” at heart, but that through the apparent terrorism of their utterly unworldly appearance and vile behavior they function something on the order of “cosmic zen masters,” taking a stick to our stubborn skulls. […] As “proof” of the actually liberating work they’re performing, Strieber invokes the fact that owing to his jarring experiences he’s “come loose” and is able to sample in waking consciousness the phenomenon of astral travel.
Strieber’s inventory of “positive side effects” on the whole describe a definitive list of what would be characterized as distinct inroads in the Negative program of conquest and ultimate Soul-capture. Like diabolical chessmen, Strieber inadvertently shows that the “space beings” have maneuvered and bullied his thoroughly beleaguered psyche into actively choosing the hypothesis with which they’ve implicitly enveloped him.…
In further “defending” his tormentors and interpreting their tactics as a strict but ultimately benevolent discipline, Strieber helpfully displays for us one of the common vulnerabilities on which the Negative tactics count, a kind of hook upon which the Soul is sure to be snagged: the persistent intellectual pride which refuses to be counseled when the counsel seems to touch too close to truth; for any suggestion that his entities are plain evil — that he might be being deceived — seems to cause him to clutch his experiences the more covetously, and guard his interpretation jealously from any who might have a revealing word. He proclaims over and again that no one can explain his experiences to him since they’re uniquely his, that anyone with another interpretation ipso facto has an ax to grind; and finally, his intellectual superiority makes him uniquely qualified to pioneer this field which he acknowledges sharing with other “abductees,” inferentially not so well qualified. [In other words, he invokes the ever popular “it’s my truth!”]
It is this type of rationalization and self-protective recoil upon which the Negative design counts. It is these psychological properties of 3rd density consciousness which serve all too predictably to convert scenarios of coercion into full volitional acceptance [Stockholm syndrome]. [Strieber] accepts and defends in full Will, like a snapping terrier protecting its bone against all comers; and that is too bad, because by his own account and according to his public history he is a man of gentle instinct and kind, overtly benevolent traits. […]
The natural question to ask is how, considering factors such as “karma” and psychic “laws” of like attracting like, etc., that an apparently positively-inclined personality such as Strieber should be caught up in the net of Negativity which he details? Isn’t his tendency toward “goodness” enough? Is there some unknown element involved in all this which accounts for the seeming collapse of protection that ought to surround a “good man” ? […]
In Transformation Strieber recounts the otherworldly interdiction whereby a “voice” bade him refrain forever from sweets, his one true vice. Addicted as he was, Strieber couldn’t stop, even though the “beings” engineered circumstances so as to bombard him with dire implications. As a result, one evening he is visited by a malevolent presence which he himself — as always — describes best, i.e. as “monstrously ugly, so filthy and dark and sinister. Of course they were demons. They had to be.” Again, “the sense of being infested was powerful and awful. It was as if the whole house were full of filthy, stinking insects the size of tigers.” The entity, rising up beside his bed like a “huge, predatory spider,” places something at his forehead and with an electric tingle he is “transported” to a dungeon-like place where his attention is fixed upon a scene of excruciating torture. The victim, a normal looking though quite naked man, is being whipped to shreds amidst agonized screams by a cowled figure. His “entity” explains to him that “he failed to get you to obey him and now he must bear the consequences.” This disclosure is followed by a very interesting and significant “assurance” that “it isn’t real, Whitty, it isn’t real.” […]
The purpose of soothing Strieber with such assurance as to the ultimate unreality of the convincing scene experienced, should be familiar to anyone who’s heard of the torture tactics employed in any good Banana Republic (i.e. those in which the victim is subjected to excruciating pain on the one hand while being simultaneously stroked and reassured on the other, often by the same party). The object is to elicit the full cooperation of the victim under duress, by making him instinctively gravitate toward the implicit salvation extended through the “motherly” touch demonstrated in that schizoid Grasp. […]
Indeed, Strieber proves himself the compliant guinea pig; even having been told that it’s all a thought form, his compassion for the unsuccessful “bidder” persists so that finally he collapses into repentant love for the very roaches that bedevil him. “Again, though, I felt love. Despite all the ugliness and the terrible things that had been done, I found myself longing for them, missing them! How was this possible?” Again, “I regretted the contempt I had shown for its [the other reality’s] needs and its laws and felt a desperate desire to make amends. […] I had felt a pain greater than the pain of punishment. It was the pain of their love.… I had the sense that they had on my behalf turned away from perfect love, and that they had done this to help me. […] I suspect that the ugliness I had seen last night was not them, but me. I was so ashamed of myself that I almost retched.”
Giving Love to such a being is a yielding to the Negative requirements.
Should there remain any reluctance to grasp this point, or some desire to conserve the liberal-humanistic proposal to which Strieber often turns (i.e. to call such things truly Negative or Evil is “simplistic,” you know) we find a passage in the Ra Material that anticipates Strieber’s account by years and furnishes a framework before the fact, which not only fits the Strieber-entities’ behaviors like a key in a lock, but gives us a needed perspective of evaluation.
On page 21 of Volume III, The Law of One, the Ra entity characterizes a prototypical tactic of the [4th density STS], that of “bidding.” “Bidding” is described in such a way to make it clear that Strieber’s experience represents a concrete instance of the phenomenon.
“Bidding” is a contest of will, rendering the consciousness that obeys into enslavement through its own free will. It is a command of obedience, precisely such as that issued without explanation against Strieber’s lust for sweets. Its sole purpose is to bend the subject into accepting the command, the actual content of the order being largely beside the point. […] To possess a legion of servants in this way is an actual nourishment to the centers and systems of 4th density; a kind of “food-chain pyramid.” […]
Thus we find the Strieber entity virtually paraphrasing the earlier Ra recitation of the modus operandi that identifies the Negative beings — the failure to exact obedience bears punishable consequence. It is a continuing illustration of the way in which the Negative polarity extorts the desired obedience — and thus soul capture — through manipulation of Love. [This author’s emphases]
The higher-density Positive entities are Light beings. The higher-density Negative entities are “Light eaters.” Love is Light is knowledge. When they induce belief against what is objectively true, they have “eaten” the Light-knowledge of the person who has chosen blind belief over fact! When you believe a lie, you have allowed the eating of your energy of awareness! When you do not take the time and trouble to check things out for yourself, to do the research, to compare, to network, to get a consensus, you have given away your power. You have failed in the creative act of learning.
Such beings are associated with darkness because the Light-knowledge is drawn into the cavernous “black hole” of their congenital emptiness. […] All the massive, cosmic project they are engaged in, in full consciousness and on the grand scale, is ultimately a means of “cornering the market” on energy, monopolizing all the known fields of Light or Light potential. The expanding order they attempt to impose, the totalitarian control over increasingly large numbers they attempt to exert, is the fantastical and internally self-contradictory project of coercing everything in creation to work for them, to cultivate and keep the fields of their energy-reserves and to furnish self-replenishing “herds” of emotional source-nutriment which can be converted into useful energy or Light-capital. Since the Negative beings can’t generate an important Light-energy source themselves, they use the reserves of the beings effectually harnessed in thrall to them. […]
There is an immediate psychic bond produced by belief. There is an instantaneous linkage and interpenetration with the individual who has chosen to believe a lie. The higher-dimensional beings have subtle, vertical filamental axes fixed on human beings. Those subtle nerve-networks process radiant-energy values, drawn in through the etheric “chakras” of the higher-dimensional systems, represented by the pineal/pituitary glands.
The network of the STS hierarchy extends in myriad psychic webs of specialized powers, forces and functions like a voracious net flung across the heaven of stars, the sum energy comprising the group consciousness of that net redounds to the basic benefit of the Being at the Apex of the control pyramid. This apex is composed of the most persistently Negative being — the one who has stuck it out against all evidence of progressively-diminishing returns. This being can be described as the Desolate One, a being who most directly embodies and promotes the ultimate Negative objective.
The consciousness of that being is literally fed and magnified by the number and relative strength of the subordinate souls who have been voluntarily subsumed to the network. The greater the development of the psychic potentials of the individual who has been co-opted, the more “energy” he contributes to the whole system. The more psychic energy available to the “Commander” of the Negative soul hierarchy, the greater his effective power to co-opt even more potent and more difficult-to-capture souls.
The “contributions of consciousness” consist effectively of the energy a soul would otherwise utilize to encompass objective knowledge. Each time they choose a lie over the effort required to dig down to the truth, or the effort required to adjust their own psyche to adapt to Truth, that “Love” energy is effectively transferred to the individual who is producing the lie in which they are believing without effort on their part to ascertain its truth for themselves.
Since the flow of contributions is a vertically-hierarchic flow, it may be seen that development of the mechanical psychic “food pump” — the opening and development of the vital-psychic powers of the field troops — contributes energy-sums upwardly to the “cortical” station occupied by the Commander, and serve to literally amplify the Intelligence, the effective Presence of Wisdom (negatively influenced in this case). The use of chemicals to achieve higher states of awareness, especially those related to the Pineal gland — the “outflow valve,” are emphasized in the teachings of the Negative hierarchy.
The subordinates of the Negative hierarchy are all connected like tiers of an immense structure, functioning as regimented extensions and mind/body “parts” — organs and processes serving the Negative agenda from their respective levels — of the Overarching Apex, the “Eye of the Pyramid.” The beings at the different tiers do not perceive the object of the Ultimate Objective because it is a characteristic of the Negative hierarchy to deliberately mask and distort that which is higher and more comprehensive from that which is lower and more “specialized.”
In the Positive realms, it is more intrinsically possible for the lower levels to perceive the objective and functions of the higher levels with a minimum of distortion because of the characteristic of the Positive realms to share and exchange rather than producing a one way channel of energies to the top, so to say.
As far as the beings of the lower levels of the STS hierarchy are aware, their objective is to crystallize, under artificial pressure of economics, a global power elite structure of indigenous and alien beings that will completely dominate the earth and its inhabitants, thus making it a captured negative resource to “feed” the hierarchy.
This is what the 4th density STS beings perceive. This is their goal. This is all they know: ruthlessness and domination, power and control. The real objective is, of course, concealed from them. The even higher density tiers of the Negative hierarchy deliberately distort and mask the character of their objectives from the lower planes of “subordinate functionaries” that are viewed by them as a regimented machinery of beings serving as expendable cogs in an Engine of Conquest.
At the highest levels, the objective is to convert all energies and specialized powers of the Negative troops into potable information patterns of a far-flung Matrix contributing to the knowledge amplification and awareness of the pyramidal generals, commanders, and overlords. The fruits of those energies and powers of the “pawns” in terms of actual ground gained, real elements subdued, contributes to the progressive compounding of highly integral control for the very topmost echelon of the Negative hierarchy, enabling them to even further expand the field that comes under their regulatory jurisdiction, thereby ensuring progressively more voluminous “farms” of energy-nutriment on which to vampirically suckle.
There is a consequence to this one sided intake of Light energy, and that consequence is only progressively manifested in the higher densities.
At 3rd density, the process of perception is a continuous two-way circulation of Light values transmitting noetic patterns of the environment through the locus corresponding to the pineal-pituitary glands. Coded Light values charged with the psychic imprint of Nature come in and are “mixed” with the radiant energy substances taken in through food and other sensory impressions. These Light values generally are taken in via the sensory system and are transmitted out via the Pineal gland with the “charge” of the “identity impressions” of the individual. As a rule, there is a lot of waste because of the comparatively low body/mind integration.
In order to move to the higher order of circulating and incorporating Light with greater efficiency, purer impressions are required. “Purer” means more objective. The less “twist” or “spin” put on the Light impression by the receiving entity, the purer it is. This purity or objectivity of impressions is optimized in correspondence to a deep, unitive apprehension of consciousness.
This term “unitive” does not mean that the “other” is perceived exactly as self, but rather that all others are perceived as Light-energy units to be conserved, aligned, balanced, as part of a whole structure, rather than something to be consumed in a one-way discharge to a single typology. This “unitive consciousness” promotes the cognitive field of the Whole-being, as being wholly of value through all patterns and forms. It perceives the sum of the different identities as possessing an axis of Conscious Identity, expressed by endless forms of existence/creation. It is thus an ecstatic, celebration of the congruence of Love without any desire or need to “possess” or “eat” or force a “one way flow” of being. The Positive forces, the STO beings at higher levels are actively working to sustain the Creative fields toward achievement of the Positive Logoic purpose which is the realization of Absolute Consciousness under all conditions and in all forms.
However, the Negative hierarchy is oriented toward the consuming of radiant Light energy in a one way flow. The progressive power that devolves from the “capture” and incorporation of radiant Light sources serves to feed and enhance an exclusive subjectivity of consciousness since the effort is toward the subordination of all things to the magnified narcissism belonging to devout ego consciousness.
At the higher levels, the absorptive framework of self-enhanced ego consciousness takes on a severe functional contraction and effective withdrawal from interest/involvement in the created fields of being, maintaining a minimalist interaction with only its closest contacts in the pyramid.
Thus, the Negative being of higher densities takes on the configuration of a forebodingly lonely presence, lurking in caves and desolate grottos of the astrophysical realms. It becomes a fiercely mental entity of 5th density power-knowledge, possessing the proverbial basilisk gaze and only turning the stream of its attention “away” from that intensified/contractile self-absorption toward the created worlds in token deference of the need to canalize the funneling food source — sucking vitality from the extravagances and pastimes comprising the follies of the created worlds, imbibing the “Light units” to insure the uninterrupted power that it needs, the inconceivable “wattage” required, to maintain that monumental self-absorption and narcissistic self-luminance of the Negative Ego-Postulate — the Anti-Logos, the Selfness of Consciousness.
So it is that the Anti-Logos cannot simply withdraw from the worlds of creation — it must absorb them into itself — it feels the necessity of undoing creation — it needs that energy to fuel its infinite self-contemplation.
This is the Ultimate Objective of the Being at the Apex of the pyramidal food chain. And this is why its agenda is masked in the lower levels of the hierarchy. Until such lower level Negative beings have consumed sufficient energy — a sort of critical mass — to trigger the implosion of such extraordinary self-concentration, they are only interested in destroying that which resists their domination and preserving a vital minimum of captured resources so as to possess an ongoing supply of nutriment. They wish to control, or freeze the rate of planetary destruction and disintegration so as to technically conserve the intelligent life-form in a tractable state so as to render it a good “servant.” [This author’s emphases]
This is where Game Theory is so important. It is also a matter of economics, as the reader will have noted. The 4th density STS beings and their human cohorts perceive that there is no advantage in total destruction, because there can be no profit. They seek to establish an optimum ratio that is just a delicate balance between diminishing returns and unbridled death — Alternative 3 and the Sixth Extinction.
The objective — the ultimate total destruction that is desired by the Being at the Apex — the total consumption of even its minions — is masked from the higher density Negative beings below it. The lower levels may “feel” or “sense” the looming black hole of absolute annihilation as they mount through the hierarchy, but the immediate pleasures of their feeding-frenzies keep them occupied, reinforcing the discouragement of the idea of looking any deeper into the Heart of Darkness, which has no qualms about making food out of even them!
Because the STO contingent honors and conserves the realization of consciousness in all forms and under all conditions, it has greater resources to sustain creation. It has access to an even more powerful allegiance of unified conscious resolve and collective intent, so that the Negative hierarchy is met with resistance at every turn. This STO resistance is a great deal more in harmony and alignment with the Logoic pattern, so that it possesses the sum value of the Creative as its enforcement.
The Negative hierarchy, however, because of its intrinsic nature, must “borrow” the creative extensions and waking tools-of-being as much as anything or anyone else, while at the same time being antagonistic toward them! In short, its intrinsic nature is that of self-loathing, from which it must continually flee, requiring more and more energy to protect itself from its own “truth.”
However, all of this is the Theological Reality of the hyperdimensional game of chess being played on our planet. When the Negative hierarchy succeeds in conquering a planet or even a galaxy — as it occasionally does — it only accomplishes this by a long cerebral tournament of moves and counter-moves, plays of the most subtle and surreptitious type in which the idea is always to draw on the given Positive elements and attributes of the game board and progressively co-opt them, slyly compromising their positive effectiveness and gradually integrating their characteristic moves to deviant patterns, secretly optimizing the Negative potential — either by neutralizing their Positive effectiveness, or actually “taking them over” by progressive, imperceptible distortions of the straight-and-true alignment until they add their own dimension of deliberate of conscious negativity to the overall strategic setup.
The Negative forces can demonstrate remarkably far-sighted restraint. If one group has been effectively captured and could be completely annihilated, instead, the game will be preserved with the conquerors holding their positions intact, poised to parlay their gains into even greater Negative glory of “galactic conquest.” This is just superior strategy, trying to include as much as can be included at once so that a comparatively larger portion of the multidimensional cosmos can be wiped out in the twinkling of an eye.
What we find, at the end, is that the STS consciousness must subtract Love from the equation. It is only through a lack of Love that an individual is moved to suppress or control or convert another person. Love expresses the eternal condition that, within the unqualified identity of the Absolute, all qualifications are allowed by largesse of Unlimited Potential. Love is the Power of the Absolute that makes it Absolute and unqualified, by permitting even the apparent antithesis of the STS hierarchy.
Reality in its fullness, by its very nature, surpasses the STS hierarchy in an ultimate sense. The STO perspective pairs Love with Infinite Potential — the endlessly proliferating properties of Creation in all its forms and varieties. The STO perspective celebrates differences in form, while acknowledging identity in consciousness. It is for this reason that the STS hierarchy is “bitter” toward Love — because Love allows and accepts that attention can be shared, and STS craves exclusivity.
Love is that which moves out into the multiplying streams of Creative potential, all the while retaining that awareness of the dawn state of infinite possibility — non-anticipation. Love is that which knows that no matter how many times the Logos is subdivided or multiplied, it remains intact. Love is consciousness that knows it may be provisionally focused on chosen delimiting attributes, but it also knows that it is never diminished.
But the STS hierarchy sees this Creative Expression as a “flirtatious wanton” whoring after other “gods.” It sees its job as “arresting” the indiscriminate proliferation and freedom-granting bounty of Love. It wishes to “capture” the Mother, to keep her under lock-and-key, to utilize her power by appropriating her means, mimicking her actions and functions while strategically altering them and incorporating them into a restricted simulacrum suited to its own ends.
STS forces, remember, have no power of Creativity; they cannot generate work of their own. They need the power of the Mother to do that. That is why they capture women with power, keep them half-alive so as to maintain a minimal continuity of creative interaction and the suitable production of form.
It is through tailored regulation of Love’s forms that STS intelligence derives the means of coercing soul-energy into converting abstract-conscious capital to specific psychic and emotional coinage. It is through the cumulative psychic and emotional energy that the STS forces hope to obtain the energy-keys to timelocks and spatial corridors of even richer and still-virgin terrains, portions of the cosmos intact with creative life, ripe for plunder and privileged profit.
The absolute trust my mother’s strong relationship imposed on my psyche. Do I wish to master a woman sufficiently so that she will take care of me as my mother did?
I’m slowly beginning to realize the enormity of the problem which my development has created in respect to women. The interaction with Rita is just an example of how difficult, even at that age and with such a magnificent partner, any final linking is to be. Judy provided in her striking beauty a repository for always wandering projections, and the strength of our deathlike struggle is a good indication of how impossible my quest is to be. I refuse to admit the inevitable — that I can live without a woman (my mother). Until I accept this my productivity will be intense, like my countless infatuations, but sporadic. I’m faced with a hell that is somewhat relieved by my incredible energy which is so capable of constantly creating that joy which is deeper than sorrow. (Ira Einhorn, quoted by Levy, 1988; this author’s emphasis)
We see that the ultimate aim of the psychopath, as living representatives of the STS hierarchy, is to master creative energy. To assimilate it to the self, to deprive others of it by inducing them to believe lies. Because, when you believe the lie of the psychopath, you have given him control of your free will — the essence of creativity.
The planetary entity is the focal point of a specific density of mind/body interaction. At certain cosmic moments, or “crossroads,” such a planetary entity may be scheduled to polarize into a higher density. The Negative hierarchy sees this as a “ripe moment” to induce that polarization to take place negatively, so that the planetary entity will participate wholly in the Negative 4th density reality rather than the Positive reality. Negatively polarized beings require a negatively-polarized planetary base from which to function, just as higher-density Positive beings need positively-polarized planetary bases.
The Hermetic maxim again: economics of Light energy above, and economics of control of minds and will below. They want to use humanity’s own creative energy to “lock” our planet under their domination.
What we see now in terms of the diminishing resources of our planet is that the intensified UV bombardment of our atmosphere is not an “unfortunate but inevitable byproduct of industrialization”, it is part of the deliberate, covert effort of the Negative hierarchy to prepare the biochemical and electrical composition of this planet for Negative polarization.
There are such things as “evil planets” and dark stars. The real question at this time is: Is Mother Earth about to become one?
See also: Meteorites, Asteroids and Comets: Damages, Disasters, Injuries, Deaths and Very Close Calls
As the Wave advances, a number of very interesting dramas have been enacted. So interesting and so relevant that we shall jump away from the present story for the remainder of this volume to explore this further. And trust me, it will be worth it!
As you might recall, during our discussion of the number 11 and the 3-5 code in volume four, I brought forward some unusual exchanges between myself and the Cassiopaeans regarding an 11-house zodiac. The very idea of such a thing is almost a heresy because the 12-house zodiac, the 12 tribes of Jacob, the 12 disciples, and all the other examples of the sanctity of the number 12 are so entrenched in our thinking that it is almost impossible to break away from it and think in different terms.
After I had written about it, the matter of an 11-house zodiac was discussed on the Cassiopaea e-group, and one of the members, an extremely erudite student of arcane matters and a professional academic, made mention of a reference to an 11-house zodiac carved by an obscure eleventh century monk in an Italian monastery that he had come across in his reading.
A member of our research team made an inquiry and the source of this reference was revealed to be a book: Zelator: A Modern Initiate Explores The Ancient Mysteries by Mark Hedsel.
I checked Amazon.com to see if it was available, and read a couple of the reviews, none of which inspired me to think that I ought to have it right away. But I ordered it and wrote to the research team:
You ought to check out the reviews on Amazon. I ordered it just so I can track down that damn monk, but I don’t have too much hope since I discovered that this is probably Golden Dawn/ritual magick nonsense for the most part.
And as you, the reader, are likely aware by now that the Cassiopaeans are not big fans of rituals and magick. So, naturally I really expected the book to be a waste of time and money. I wasn’t even sure there’d be sufficient notes and references to tell me what I wanted to know. But, since I had been combing through an endless array of material for a number of years, looking for references to an 11-house zodiac, the promise of a single clue was enough to galvanize me to action.
The book arrived. Rather soon, even for Amazon.com I should say, and was added to the ever-growing pile of “to be read when I get the time.”
Meanwhile, a significant drama was developing. It was not significant in that it was a big deal – it wasn’t – but because of the way it opened certain doors. My plan for this chapter was to continue with the chronology of sessions, including the background events as I went along in a more or less linear fashion. It is a crucial period in which I learnt the deepest lesson of my life: how we are controlled and programmed by our culture, our families, and everything around us through our very physiology. It was a lesson which drove home for me in an unequivocal way, how it can be that humans are asleep or hypnotized. Until you have awakened, you simply cannot know the difference between being asleep and awake. It was also the period of time that led to the writing of the continuation of the Wave series, entitled “Further Adventures with the Cassiopaeans”.
Well, telling this part of my story is, to say the least, painful. To talk about my own programming, and how difficult it was to even come to the awareness that I was as programmed as everyone is, and what was required to overcome it, is not a subject that I relish. But there is no other way to give an exact meaning of what it means to be asleep. It’s all fine and good for Castaneda to write about how the Predator gave us its mind; for Gurdjieff and Ouspensky to write about the Evil Magician who hypnotizes his sheeple; for the Cassiopaeans to tell us that we are all programmed and hypnotized; but until you have experienced awakening, or at the very least, have had a graphic description of the state before and after, you simply cannot grasp it. And, I had an ace in the hole.
Not only was I planning to talk about this most basic and cunning of programs, I was planning to present some of the latest and most amazing scientific research on the subject from the fields of psychology, psychiatry, neurophysiology and neurochemistry that would give you, the reader, a huge edge on dealing with these issues in your own life and mind. Basically, the Cassiopaeans had pointed me in the right direction, I did the research, found the smoking gun that proved the case of the aeons of social programming and manipulation that has served to make human beings slaves, and I was going to tell! (i.e. the writing of the Wave and Adventures series.) It’s pretty hot material because I am sure that the Control System does not want this kind of information right out there in plain view. Because, in fact, this information is at the heart of the Alchemical transformation process. Awareness and application of these matters will enable any individual who truly and deeply seeks transformation in a literal sense, to achieve it.
Of course, as usually happens, the Control System went into overdrive to try to stop me. And in this instance it very nearly did it.
Curiously, the entire episode (recounted in volumes five and six) was a graphic demonstration of the very matter I was seeking to ameliorate. Not only that, it made me painfully aware that, even though I have passed through a number of tests, have been tried by fire, have been initiated; I am still a work in progress. In response to the very kind of programming I was planning on describing and exposing, emotions were in motion and even I was very nearly sucked into the pit. I was ready to delete the website, delete the e-group, never write another word; and basically throw in the towel.
And then I realized that this would be acting as programmed. Everything that was being said and done was designed to excite emotions, to shut down thinking, to block higher understanding, and to feed the Predator. Remember what Castaneda said about the Predator’s mind?
In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now. … “I know that even though you have never suffered hunger … you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.” (Castaneda 1998, 213–220)
So, with this in mind, let’s have a look at specific examples of the activation of the Predator’s mind. It began with the following post to the Cassiopaea e-group, from which I have removed the identity of the individual posting it:
Greetings, I’m new to the list, I have a tireless appetite to sort out the truth of things and after reading most of the C’s material a few things really bother me. I’m not a supporter of the “it’s all love and peace” approach to the universe either, but at the end of all my reading of the C’s I get a pretty sickly feeling message that Earth/3rd dimension is a place to get out of ASAP because it’s purely STS nature is bad, bad bad if you find yourself in disagreement with their description of STS behavior. But I read NOTHING about the joys and absolute beauty and wonder of this earth and being alive.
Since reading C’s I’ve been going around especially noticing the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, the incredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies, the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together. And it feels so right and so good to LAUGH and play with my children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around me.
I think something is terribly wrong when all of this is dismissed and ignored within the message. I think it’s easy to forget that if these are beings literally and intelligence-figuratively light years ahead of us with an awareness and intelligence we cannot begin to really fathom, they see right through us, know what makes us tick and know how to lead us in a direction they want. I sense somewhat of a game to gain some trust with accurate historical and scientific references, and then often ‘knowledge’ is flat out GIVEN and in the next sentence some further “knowledge” is WITHHELD with the excuse of not violating our “free will”. The most striking thing to me is their direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians – and the gigantic discrepancies, contradictions and completely different slant on it all between the two sets of info.
Of particular significance to me is that they state in the Marciniak books to not trust them either! – that just as all the other beings they describe have somewhat sinister agendas contrary to their front, they clearly state they have an agenda too! My question to this list is, if we put on our thinking caps and tried to imagine what a C’s non-altruistic agenda might be, what could it be??? I’m still trying to clarify my gut feeling, but it lies somewhere in the realm of leading us to look outside ourselves rather than inward for answers. But why? And possibly that you CAN be both STO and 3rd D. Again, why deter us from that? Jumping in with a thud …
Now, I know that many, even most, of the readers will not recognize in the material what this individual has extracted from it. And this is one of the chief effects of the very kind of programming I was planning on talking about. And just to give you some idea, I have put in bold text some of the clues to the programming of the writer. These words tell us something of the mode, or circuit, from which she operates and views the world. And being able to detect, interpret, and master these circuits and programs is part of the Alchemical work of transformation.
Now, the first thing we note about her missive is that, as a result of reading the Cassiopaean material, she had a reaction. This reaction actually, if she had taken the time to notice, was to feel more alive, and to find more meaning in the world. It was a shock, no doubt, but as Sartre was noted to have said, he never felt so free as when he was in the French Resistance and might be arrested and shot at any moment.
Thus, even though she was not fully appreciating what had taken place in her psyche, this reader was actually flirting with the early stages of awakening.
Gurdjieff taught himself to seek crisis consciously, as a means of shaking himself awake. He wrote:
“I had to forgo any limits, emotional, perceptual or knowable, that I had formed in myself, or had accidentally been formed in me by previous experience. I quickly recognized that any objective shock to the system could be used, provided it were safe enough to stop short – in some cases just exactly short – of total disruption of the life force in the body.”
Gurdjieff’s method included keeping his students in a perpetual state of alertness in order to solidify and grow the higher organs of perception. Only in this way can we achieve objective states of consciousness.
But, what happened to our reader? Well, the Predator’s mind, “baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now,” drove her to retreat in terror from this objective consciousness. Even though it was awakened by the very shock she had received, her interpretation of this effect was that it was dangerous, which is a rather graphic illustration of the contradictory nature of the Predator’s mind.
But, what is this Predator’s mind exactly? It is the way our brains and nervous systems are set up – as delineated by our DNA – which includes certain early periods of where our circuitry and thinking processes are established at an age and under conditions over which we have no control.
This is called imprinting. Human beings are born with certain basic behavior patterns built in their DNA. Just as a flower will follow a certain series of steps from the emergence of the seedling to the stage of producing a flower, human beings also develop certain characteristics only at certain times in their growth process. These sequences are something over which we have no control.
Konrad Lorenz illustrated this principle with his famous ducks. Ducks (and humans) are programmed at a certain time in their lives to accept a mother figure. If the proper mother figure is not there at that moment of imprinting, whoever or whatever is there will be the mother image in the mind of the duck. That is to say, when the appropriate (or inappropriate) object of need is presented to the duck at the correct time in its development, the object is labeled “mother” somewhere in the brain, and this label is next to impossible to erase.
Experiments were conducted with ducks which demonstrated that there is a critical age in hours at which a duckling is most responsive to obtaining and labeling a mother.
Similar studies were done with monkeys. These studies demonstrated that if a monkey has not received motherly stimulation before he is a certain number of weeks old, he will grow up to be cold, aloof, and unfriendly to his own offspring. The curious thing about the monkey experiments was that the sense of touch was more important than the feeding. A fuzzy surrogate with no milk was preferred over a wire surrogate with milk. This demonstrates a high-level need for touching and caressing. It also suggests the mode of this imprint – sensory. Kinesthetic.
Evidence that there is a critical period for the mother imprint in the higher animals was emphasized in the monkey experiments. In one instance, the experimenter was not prepared for the arrival of a new baby monkey and had to create a makeshift surrogate mother using a ball for the head. This was provided to the baby, while the experimenter worked on a better model with a face. But, it was too late. The baby monkey had already bonded to the faceless mother and turned the face of the new model around so that it was blank. A mother with a face was simply not acceptable because the imprint had already been made.
Joseph Chilton Pearce writes:
Occasionally we hear of people found chained in attics and such places from infancy. Their world view is either scanty or different for they are always feeble minded at best. In 1951 a child was found in an Irish chicken-house, having somehow survived there with the chickens, since infancy. The ten-year old’s long hair was matted with filth; he ate at the chicken trough; roosted with the flock; his fingernails had grown, fittingly, to semicircular claws; he made chicken-like noises, not surprisingly; he had no speech and showed no promise of learning any in the time he survived his rescue.
Forty years ago there was interest in two feral children found in India. They had apparently been raised by wolves. They were taken from an actual wolf den along with some cubs, the older wolves scattering or being killed. One of the children, Kamala they called her, survived for nine years. Only with difficulty was she taught table manners and such niceties as walking on the hind legs. Nevertheless she exhibited a growing awareness of the reward system of her new group, and displayed a strong drive toward such orientation. As with the chicken-child, however, she had missed the formative period of human infant development, and there was no easy or complete going back to retrace the steps. Kamala had formed according to the pattern eliciting response around her during her mirroring [imprinting] period. For her first two years of captivity – or rescue – she howled faithfully at ten, twelve, and three at night, as all Indian wolves do. She would also, in spite of precautions, manage to get at the chickens, rip them apart alive and eat them raw. Only when the new social reward system grew strong enough to outweigh the earlier rewards did she abandon her early training. (Pearce 1971)
We are all Kamala. We are all divine children raised by wolves.
But how can this be?
We are all programmed. Our programs are written in the circuits of our brains by those around us in our formative years, just as their programs were written during their formative years, and so on back into the mists of time. Each generation just adding a few more lines of code.
It is our ideas that shape our children. We provide what we may consider to be the ideal environment for the child, but our own programming determines what we may consider to be the proper environment. Once we have provided the environment, we then want our children to like it, to approve of it, to agree with us that it is right. And our ideas come from our culture. And our culture is created by … what? A Control System?
There is considerable evidence that agreement is also in the genes. There seems to be a genetic drive toward communion with others, for speech and preferences and disposition. As newly born human beings, it seems we come into the world with intent to be in agreement with others. But the details of how we go about being agreeable is related to the imprints we receive at the various stages of childhood development.
Everyone carries in their genes, it seems, deep archetypes that are very much like a database program just waiting for someone to input data. The thing is, this database is only open to input for a limited period of time, and whatever data is entered during that time determines how all other data will be evaluated forever after. It will produce over and over again the same response to any set of stimuli that have one or more items that have been organized by the database. Anything that is not found in the database is discarded. If the database is not utilized and no data is entered during the period of readiness, or imprinting, that possibility goes dormant and diminishes.
The higher thinking functions, laid over the deep-level archetype database, can be viewed as a kind of software that is linked to the database, and must constantly check with it in order to operate. You could think of it as a word processing program with a fixed dictionary and set of templates, and you can only write in it according to the templates, and you can only use the words that are in the already fixed dictionary. Since our brains are genetically designed to accept imprint conditioning on its circuits at certain crucial points in neurological development, these critical periods are known as times of “imprint vulnerability”. The imprint establishes the limits or parameters within which all subsequent conditioning and learning will occur. Each successive imprint further complicates the matter, especially if some of these programs are not compatible with others.
Different schools of thought describe these circuits as “stages of development.” Some of the earliest work in these concepts has passed into our culture to such an extent that they have become slang terms such as “Oh, he’s just anal-retentive,” with very little actual understanding of what is meant by such expressions.
It seems that, according to research, the older brain structures – those necessary for basic survival, such as the brain stem – are imprinted in the earliest stages of development, and that the newer structures, such as the mid-brain and cortex develop superimpositions upon the more primitive imprints. However, the earlier parts of the brain and their imprints form the foundation for how later imprints are responded to and continue to function after the higher thinking modes are developed.
In other words, if you are traumatized as an infant at a crucial point of imprint perceptivity, it doesn’t matter if you grow up to be the President of the United States, you will still be ruled by the imprint.
And, of course, we have a classic example in Bill Clinton. It didn’t matter that he was behaving in ways to destroy his marriage and the emotional well-being of a well-loved child; it didn’t matter that his behavior was destructive to the point of practically bringing the entire country to chaos; his inner emotional drives, determined in infancy by his imprinting, ruled his behavior. His Rhodes scholar intellect had nothing to do with it. And, sadly, this is actually exactly how everyone operates in principle, though not necessarily in specific. A lot of men do have the same imprint Bill has; only they aren’t President of the United States. But then, women also have their own variations on this theme.
The first stage, or circuit, is the oral-passive-receptive, and is imprinted by what is perceived to be the mother or first mothering object. It can be conditioned by nourishment or threat, and is mostly concerned with bodily security. Trauma during this phase can cause an unconsciously motivated mechanical retreat from anything threatening to physical safety.
In recent times I have given a lot of thought to this particular circuit because of the matter of circumcision. Having come to the tentative idea that the whole Judeo-Christian monotheistic rant was a major control program, I came face to face with the question: how and why has it worked so well for so many thousands of years? More than that, how was it imposed in the first place?
I puzzled over this for weeks. I thought about several things that Friedrich Nietzsche had said that struck me like thunderbolts of truth once I was able to really step back and look at the matter:
The Jews are the most remarkable nation of world history because, faced with the question of being or not being, they preferred, with a perfectly uncanny conviction, being at any price; the price they had to pay was the radical falsification of all nature, all naturalness, all reality, the entire inner world as well as the outer. They defined themselves counter to all those conditions under which a nation was previously able to live, was permitted to live; they made of themselves an antithesis of natural conditions – they inverted religion, religious worship, morality, history, psychology, one after the other, in an irreparable way into the contradiction of their natural values.
… Christianity has waged a deadly war against the higher type of man. It has put a ban on all his fundamental instincts. It has distilled evil out of these instincts. It makes the strong and efficient man its typical outcast man. It has taken the part of the weak and the low; it has made an ideal out of its antagonism to the very instincts which tend to preserve life and well-being … It has taught men to regard their highest impulses as sinful – as temptations.
… What is Jewish, what is Christian morality? Chance robbed of its innocence; unhappiness polluted with the idea of “sin;” well-being represented as a danger, as a “temptation,” a physiological disorder produced by the canker worm of conscience. (Nietzsche 1888)
But, that’s not to say that Nietzsche was any paragon himself, with his mysogynistic, misanthropic rants. He was in fact declared insane in 1888. As the Encyclopedia Britannica (11th ed.) put it, “Revolt against the whole civilized environment in which he was born is the keynote to Nietzsche’s literary career.”
Nevertheless, he had a point about Judaism and Christianity (and any and all other monotheistic, dominator religions.) So, there I was, pondering this and trying to figure out how and why people could be so completely taken in by this utter nonsense. How can educated members of the human race, in this day and age, with all the resources of knowledge and awareness available to those who have the desire and energy to search for truth, possibly buy into such myths?
It just staggered my mind to think about it.
I went back in my thinking to the whole Jehovah-I Am deal; the Moses story and all that; and went over the details as they are presented in the Bible for clues. And I came up against that most interesting demand of that crafty Jehovah/Yahweh: circumcision. On the eighth day, no less.
What better way to ensure a deep, subconscious, distrust of women – not to mention an overwhelming terror at the very mention of the pain and suffering that might ensue from breaking the monotheistic covenant – than whacking a guy’s penis when he is interested only in being warm, cozy, and filling his tummy with warm, sweet milk from mother?
Talk about your basic abyssal cunning there!
The first circuit is concerned with what is safe and what is not safe. In our society, money is one of the primary items that is intimately tied to survival and biological security. Money represents survival. In addition to that, people who have been traumatized during the imprinting phase of the first circuit tend to view other people in an abstract way. It is “us and them.” They also tend to be very easily threatened by disapproval of any sort because disapproval suggests the idea of extinction or loss of food supply. And, finally, those who have been negatively imprinted at this stage tend to have a chronic muscular armoring that prevents proper, relaxed breathing; they are uptight.
One of the main characteristics of people who are heavily controlled by this circuit, or are stuck in this oral phase, is that when they sense danger of any sort, whether actual or conceptual, all mental activity comes to a halt. Such people are chronically anxious and dependent – mostly on religion. They are not able to really understand what other people are feeling or what can happen in the future in regard to relationships, given a certain present situation. They only understand what is happening now, and they can only feel what they feel. They cannot accurately grasp what others feel because they relate to others only as sensory objects.
And, how many men are circumcised? A lot, I can tell you – 30% of males, globally, according to the World Health Organization, and approximately 56% are circumcised as infants in the U.S. And, besides the Jews, for years, the American Medical Association advocated and urged circumcision of American babies for hygienic reasons. Hmm.
As a side note, trauma or failure to bond at this oral phase tends to also lead to weight issues – either overweight or underweight. The expression of healthy growth through this phase is the ability to retain the state of consciousness of the natural child who will feel safe in the world no matter what they encounter.
I would say that, in terms of the negative imprinting of this circuit, we have pretty well described William Clinton. I wonder if he is circumcised? I suppose you could ask Monica.
The second stage, or circuit, the famous “anal phase,” is concerned with keeping or letting go of experiences in interactions with others. This second circuit determines how an individual will expand their identity to include others. The drive of the second phase is to interact with other selves. It is this drive that either brings about the congregation of groups, or results in paranoid withdrawal from anyone who is different. Trauma in the formation of this circuit (generally from 12 months to 24 months) can result in a lack of social feeling, a tendency to manipulate and exploit others for one’s own gain, and cruelty to others, whether conscious or unconscious. This is generally a result of a feeling of non-acceptance, that one is missing out on something that others have, the need for approval from others and basic lack of self-esteem.
It is during this phase that the Matrix – a conditioning system of sorts – forms as a semantic universe of verbal structures. Language is conceptual, as we have discussed previously, and is one of the things that distinguishes third density from second density. Our concepts are a sort of framework of perception that we learn as we learn words. As we are learning our language, things such as hot and cold, we are also learning that one thing is good or another is bad. We can either handle things freely because they are good, or we don’t touch because they are bad. There is, in this phase, a tremendous drive in a child to create order. This drive is aimed at grouping, identifying, correlating and naming everything. And, as this is being done, there is a constant check with the parents and others interacting with the child as to whether this is bad or good or real or not real. What the child is doing is defining not only himself, but his entire world. It is at this stage that most of our complex belief systems are formed. Everything that surrounds him is raw material for the child. The matrix is created by the guiding actions and responses from the other minds around him. This matrix is, in reality, a gigantic conditioning system. And we insert our children into it through our own actions.
The mind of an infant is said to be:
… Autistic, a rich texture of free synthesis, hallucinatory and unlimited. His mind can skip over syllogisms with ease, in a non-logical, dream-sequence kind of “knight’s move” continuum. He nevertheless shows a strong desire to participate in a world of others. Eventually his willingness for self-modification, necessary to win rapport with his world, is stronger than his desire for autonomy. Were it not, civilization would not be possible. That we succeed in moulding him to respond to our criteria shows the innate drive for communion and the flexibility of a young mind.
Maturity, or becoming reality adjusted, restricts and diminishes this “knight’s move” thinking, and tends to make pawns of us in the process. … If we believe our social view sacred and made in heaven, we tend to shut off a deep potential in which many of the terrors and shortcomings of our logic and reason might be averted.
… We force our children, consciously and unconsciously, to selectively ignore certain phenomena and look for and nourish other phenomena.
… To take part in society we must accept the social definitions and agreements that make up the society’s reality picture. Our definitions outline the socially acceptable framework for what shall be considered real. This network of definition changes from culture to culture and period to period. It is arbitrary to an indeterminable degree, but is always the form for the only reality available.
… The stage of this development lasts throughout infancy and early childhood. The word and the concept become fused in that early period of development and grow up together.
If language is not built in during this formative period, it cannot be built at all.
… The emerging mind will have mirrored whatever model it had during that formative period. The pattern formed in this plastic stage becomes firm. It hardens into the functional system of representation-response we call a world view.
… The infant’s dream-like association of ideas is slowly won over to an agreement of what should constitute reality. By the time our reasoning has developed enough to reflect on the process by which our reasoning has formed, we are part and parcel of the whole process, caught up in and sustaining it. By the time the young rebel reaches the age of rebellion his is inevitably that against which he would rebel …
… Whitehead [wrote of fundamental assumptions] … But people do not know that they are assuming, for no other way of putting things has ever occurred to them; they are always merely responding to “obvious facts.”
… We are limited by our agreements on possibility. Agreement is a common exclusion of alternate possibilities. Agreement is the cement of social structure.
… The condition called reality exists as an ever-current sum total of our representations and responses. Whatever we see is what reality is for us …
… We used to think of the nervous system as a simple telephone switchboard, bringing in messages from outside. We now know … that the system is every bit as much an “editorial hierarchy” – a policy-making device determining what is perceived.
… The visual world is what we practice day by day. (Pearce 1971)
Now, I want you to keep in mind the idea that an infant “shows a strong desire to participate in a world of others. Eventually his willingness for self-modification, necessary to win rapport with his world, is stronger than his desire for autonomy.” It is very important, and we will come back to it.
Those with strong positive second circuits imprints are able to feel for others in terms of a sense of concern or identity by association. They are willing to reach out and acknowledge the being of another.
However, due to the most common imprinting of our society, which is negative, most of this reaching out is in the context of territory, which involves emotional con games, pecking order, rituals of domination or submission. It has been noted that a lot of people with negative second circuit imprinting can be found in military or hierarchical organizations where there is constant striving to please someone in order to maintain or rise in status.
This second circuit is generally most powerfully imprinted by the nearest alpha male or the earliest perceived dominant male figure in a person’s life. This circuit is also very often referred to as the ego because it mistakes itself for the whole self.
Individuals who are ruled by negative second stage imprinting generally use a lot of anal expressions or language relating to excretory functions and parts of the body. They have inveterate potty mouth. Very often those with heavy imprints in the second stage are either very concerned about physical fitness and body structure as a mode of power or just simply power over others in general. They fear thinking and feel that the best response to a problem is to frighten it away.
The reality structure of the second circuit is the prevailing mode of modern society, which is why most issues end in confrontations that bring out both bullying and cowardliness – hallmarks of second circuit trauma.
The third circuit is charmingly referred to as phallic. Don’t ask me why this term has been selected over all others but it has to do with the fact that the imprinting stage is associated with the child’s discovery of his or her genitals and this period also seems to partly determine gender role identification as well as one’s later attitudes toward the body and sex. It is also called the Oedipal or Electra stage.
This circuit continues to be imprinted and conditioned by symbol systems, i.e. words and concepts, however with subtle conceptual complications. The child is beginning to be able to understand complex symbolism and such things as now and later and soon and never. These concepts are intimately connected to the ability to tolerate separation, as well as to mourn if the idea of grief is introduced and demonstrated by a role model.
So, essentially, we find that the third stage has to do primarily with time and spatial concepts – with what is the real world and what is not.
The part of the brain that is developing during this phase is the cerebellum and it is supposed to coordinate the lower brain functions with possible action. This part of the brain and its imprinting determines our ability to change and adapt. This is what makes us able to discriminate and compare with logic and comparative analysis. Its functions operate like a computer; it scans, categorizes and selects by cross-referencing and coding information. It is this part of the brain that makes us able to weigh choices and make decisions.
In most people, however, due to traumatic or too early potty training during the anal phase, this part of the brain becomes a slave to the emotions of the second and first circuits. That doesn’t mean that it cannot work and do its work well in terms of scanning, categorizing and coding information; but if there is trauma, depending on the severity, it can be very difficult for this part of the brain to function as the coordinator it is meant to be. The intellectual function can be scholarly as all get out, but there is no possibility of development of higher emotions. Such a condition can lead to a ruthless intellectual who tortures or kills others in the name of religion. These people have packaged their environment in terms of heavy sanctions; taboos, rules, laws, prohibitions, faith and dogmatism. Much of this will be unconscious and will pass as common sense or common decency or “it’s right, and that’s all there is to it!” Anyone who challenges such a person is a heretic, a traitor or a lunatic. They also use a lot of language that refers to sexual functions.
Those who are dominated by the third circuit respond to problems by reasoning it out, even if their reason is being directed by the emotions of the first or second circuits. When this is the case, they could be called a third circuit robot because they simply cannot break free of the emotional content of their rules and dogma. For such people, the rest of the nervous system has, for all intents and purposes, stopped growing.
There are two curious manifestations of this circuit. If the first and second circuits are basically healthy, and the third circuit is not traumatized in any notably serious way, but no effort to develop higher faculties is made, the normal conscious mind has two basic tracks. The first is the desire to use the intellect to prove that much of human experience, even including the reality itself, is delusion or illusion. Everything is mysterious and hallucinatory. The second is to use the intellect to prove that nothing exists but the material world and anything mysterious is viewed as hallucination, coincidence or sloppy research. Gurdjieff talked about these things in great detail, and clearly his understanding of the problem was deep and profound. Not only that, we will soon see how closely Gurdjieff’s view is to very modern research in neuropeptides – the Molecules of Emotion. Gurdjieff writes:
It is possible to think for a thousand years; it is possible to write whole libraries of books, to create theories by the million, and all this in sleep, without any possibility of awakening. On the contrary, these books and these theories, written and created in sleep, will merely send other people to sleep …
There is nothing new in the idea of sleep. People have been told almost since the creation of the world that they are asleep and that they must awaken. How many times is this said in the Gospels, for instance? “Awake,” “watch,” “sleep not.” Christ’s disciples even slept when he was praying in the Garden of Gethsemane for the last time. It is all there. But do men understand it? Men take it simply as a form of speech, as an expression, as a metaphor. They completely fail to understand that it must be taken literally.
… The question of will, of one’s own will and of another man’s will, is much more complicated than it seems at the first glance. A man has not sufficient will to do, that is, to control himself and all his actions, but he has sufficient will to obey another …
I mentioned before about fate and accident in man’s life. … Fate exists, but not for everyone. Most people are separated from their fate and live under the law of accident only. Fate is the result of planetary influences which correspond to a man’s type. A man can have the fate which corresponds to his type but he practically never does have it. This arises because fate has relation to only one part of man, namely to his essence.
It must be understood that man consists of two parts: essence and personality. Essence in man is what is his own. Personality in man is what is “not his own.” “Not his own” means what has come from outside, what he has learned, or reflects, all traces of exterior impressions left in the memory and in the sensations, all words and movements that have been learned, all feelings created by imitation – all this is “not his own,” all this is personality.
… A small child has no personality as yet. He is what he really is. He is essence. His desires, tastes, likes, dislikes, express his being such as it is.
But as soon as so-called “education” begins, personality begins to grow. Personality is created partly by the intentional influences of other people, that is, by “education,” and partly by involuntary imitation of them by the child itself.
In the creation of personality a great part is also played by “resistance” to people around him and by attempts to conceal from them something that is “his own,” or “real.”
Essence is the truth in man; personality is the false. … As personality grows, essence manifests itself more and more rarely and more and more feebly and it very often happens that essence stops in its growth at a very early age and grows no further. It happens very often that the essence of a grown-up man, even that of a very intellectual and … highly “educated” man, stops on the level of a child of five or six. This means that everything we see in this man is in reality “not his own.” What is his own in man, that is, his essence, is usually only manifested in his instincts and in his simplest emotions. There are cases, however, when a man’s essence grows in parallel with his personality. Such cases represent very rare exceptions especially in the circumstances of cultured life. Essence has more chances of development in men who live nearer to nature in difficult conditions of constant struggle and danger.
… Culture creates personality and is at the same time the product and the result of personality. We do not realize that the whole of our life, all we call civilization, all we call science, philosophy, art, and politics, is created by people’s personality, that is, by what is “not their own” in them
The element that is “not his own” differs from what is man’s “own” by the fact that it can be lost, altered, or taken away by artificial means.
… In Eastern schools ways and means are known … to separate man’s personality from his essence. For this purpose they sometimes use hypnosis … if personality and essence are separated by one or another means, two beings are found who speak in different voices, have completely different tastes, aims, and interests, and one of these two beings often proves to be on the level of a small child. … And it happens that a man full of the most varied and exalted ideas, full of sympathies and antipathies, love, hatred, attachments, patriotism, habits, tastes, desires, convictions, suddenly proves quite empty, without thoughts, without feelings, without convictions, without views. Everything that has agitated him before now leaves him completely indifferent. Sometimes he sees the artificiality and the imaginary character of his usual moods or his high-sounding words, sometimes he simply forgets them as though they had never existed. Things for which he was ready to sacrifice his life now appear to him ridiculous and meaningless and unworthy of his attention. All that he can find in himself is a small number of instinctive inclinations and tastes. He is fond of sweets, he likes warmth, he dislikes cold, he dislikes the thought of work, or on the contrary he likes the idea of physical movement. And that is all.
… As a rule a man’s essence is either primitive, savage, and childish, or else simply stupid. The development of essence depends on work on oneself.
… [I]n order to enable essence to grow up, it is first of all necessary to weaken the constant pressure of personality upon it, because the obstacles to the growth of essence are contained in personality.
…
As has been said earlier, in the case of less cultured people, essence is often more highly developed than it is in cultured man. It would seem that they ought to be nearer to possibility of growth, but in reality it is not so because their personality proves to be insufficiently developed. For inner growth, for work on oneself, a certain development of personality as well as a certain strength of essence are necessary. … An insufficiently developed personality means a lack of … knowledge, a lack of information, a lack of the material upon which work on oneself must be based. Without some store of knowledge, without a certain amount of material “not his own,” a man cannot begin to work on himself, he cannot begin to study himself, he cannot begin to struggle with his mechanical habits, simply because there will be no reason or motive for undertaking such work.
It does not mean that all the ways are closed to him. The way of the fakir and the way of the monk, which do not require any intellectual development, remain open to him. But the methods and the means which are possible for a man of developed intellect are impossible for him. Thus evolution is equally difficult for a cultured or an uncultured man. A cultured man lives far from nature, far from natural conditions of existence, in artificial conditions of life, developing his personality at the expense of his essence. A less cultured man, living in more normal and more natural conditions, develops his essence at the expense of his personality. A successful beginning of work on oneself requires the happy occurrence of an equal development of personality and essence. Such an occurrence will give the greatest assurance of success. If essence is very little developed, a long preparatory period of work is required and this work will be quite fruitless if a man’s essence is rotten inside or if it develops some irreparable defects. Conditions of this kind occur fairly often. An abnormal development of personality very often arrests the development of essence at such an early stage that the essence becomes a small deformed thing. From a small deformed thing nothing else can be got.
Moreover, it happens fairly often that essence dies in a man while his personality and his body are still alive. A considerable percentage of the people we meet in the streets of a great town are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead.
It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror. And indeed people often do go mad because they find out something of this nature without the proper preparation, that is, they see something they are not supposed to see. In order to see without danger one must be on the way. If a man who can do nothing sees the truth he will certainly go mad. Only this rarely happens. Usually everything is so arranged that a man can see nothing prematurely. Personality sees only what it likes to see and what does not interfere with its life. It never sees what it does not like. This is both good and bad at the same time. It is good if a man wants to sleep, bad if he wants to awaken. (Ouspensky 1949, 144, 161–164)
So, having all of this to think about, let’s go back to the message of the e-group member. She has a “tireless appetite to sort out the truth of things.” Truth is something to be eaten. In every sentence about “beauty and wonder” and the goodness of physical life, the writer has used the expression “I feel.” Everything that has to do with the material world is “awesome” or “incredible” or another superlative. In every remark about the Cassiopaeans, which is singularly suspicious and negative, she has used the term “I think.” Thus we suspect that this is an individual who is very suspicious of thinking and this is further emphasized by the suggestion to “put on our thinking caps.” Thinking cannot be abstract, it must be felt. The general tone of the letter is to retreat from thinking into feeling. That is one of the biggest clues that the Predator’s mind is operative. Her first circuit imprint was active.
This writer claims to have read something that is simply not true, i.e. that the Cassiopaeans have made a “direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians.” This is a clear example of twisting the text and inference of that which was never implied. It is, in fact, a very clear example of what Neuro Linguistic theories refer to as a kinesthetic dominant mode of cerebral processing. This person was being shocked into thinking and retreated in terror from the threat to what felt safe.
Let’s take a look at what the Cassiopaeans actually said:
September 30, 1994
Q: (L) How many members are there in the Orion/Lizzie group?
A: 16.
Q: (L) Who are the good guys? You say the Cassiopaeans are the good guys. Who else?
A: Pleiadeans and many others.
Q: (L) How many?
A: 16.
Q: (L) Are the sides equally balanced?
A: Yes.
Here we have the idea that there is a distinction between the Cassiopaeans and Pleiadians. In fact, we have a more or less sorting and enumeration of groups.
October 5, 1994
Q: (L) Who were the original creator gods?
A: Us. Sixth Density.
Q: (L) The Cassiopaeans? Were the Pleiadeans also the original creator gods?
A: Same. Sixth Density.
Here we have an idea that the “creator gods,” (not to be confused with the Prime Creator) are all at the level of sixth density. This is not the same as saying that each group is exactly the same. It’s comparable to me saying to an alien that I am the same as Barbara Marciniak because we are both from Earth.
November 26, 1994
Q: (T) Are you also the Pleiadeans?
A: No.
Q: (T) Are you connected to the Pleiadeans?
A: Yes and so are others.
Q: (T) You are all the family of light?
A: Yes. Exactly. You have been “doing your homework”.
So the remark, “direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians,” was a sign off remark. As I have noticed on many occasions, when the Predator’s mind is activated, it seems always to need, due to ego, to give some sign of its presence. And, as the reader will also note, I adhere to the Sherlock Holmes School of Research.
“You know my method. It is founded upon the observance of trifles.” —“Sherlock Holmes” in Doyle’s “The Boscombe Valley Mystery”
The trifle in this case was the remark, “Jumping in with a thud.” This phrase triggered the insight of what was happening to this reader. She was being overwhelmed by the forces that act on a person when they are confronted with truth and the possibility of awakening. Castaneda was to experience it in a more direct manner:
I fought a nearly invincible desire to fall asleep. I succeeded, and found myself looking at the bottom of the valley from an impenetrable darkness around me. And then, I saw something that chilled me to the marrow of my bones. I saw a gigantic shadow, perhaps fifteen feet across, leaping in the air and then landing with a silent thud. I felt the thud in my bones, but I didn’t hear it.
‘They are really heavy,’ don Juan said in my ear. He was holding me by the left arm, as hard as he could.
I saw something that looked like a mud shadow wiggle on the ground, and then take another gigantic leap, perhaps fifty feet long, and land again, with the same ominous silent thud. I fought not to lose my concentration. I was frightened beyond anything I could rationally use as a description. I kept my eyes fixed on the jumping shadow on the bottom of the valley. Then I heard a most peculiar buzzing, a mixture of the sound of flapping wings and the buzzing of a radio whose dial has not quite picked up the frequency of a radio station, and the thud that followed was something unforgettable. It shook don Juan and me to the core – a gigantic black mud shadow had just landed by our feet.
‘Don’t be frightened,’ don Juan said imperiously. ‘Keep your inner silence and it will move away.’
‘I was shivering from head to toe. I had the clear knowledge that if I didn’t keep my inner silence alive, the mud shadow would cover me up like a blanket and suffocate me. Without losing the darkness around me, I screamed at the top of my voice. Never had I been so angry, so utterly frustrated. The mud shadow took another leap, clearly to the bottom of the valley. I kept on screaming, shaking my legs. I wanted to shake off whatever might come to eat me.” (Castaneda 1998, 231–233)
And notice this last remark by Castaneda. It is clearly the feeling evoked in the writer who was “jumping in with a thud.”
Well, at the time this posting was made, I had a choice to make: should I take the several days necessary to address each and every point that was made by this writer, detailing the material I was already working on for the website, thereby putting off the publishing of the page for all the other readers, or should I just ignore it, thinking that the other, more developed members of the group could deal with it and I could continue working?
I opted to ignore it and keep working. But I didn’t realize how great a hold the Predator has even on those of us who can see through most of the most obvious manipulations and maneuvers. This was, indeed, a subtle attack and it fed the Predator in many other members of the e-group. In fact, it woke up the Predator in people I had thought were well past this kind of subtle manipulation. As I read the many responses to this post, I knew that the present work, which dealt with these very issues was the very key that needed to be given to the readers in order to unlock the prison of their own minds.
Ark took time out from his work to respond to the above writer so that I could keep working:
E-group member wrote:
But I read NOTHING about the joys and absolute beauty and wonder of this earth and being alive. Since reading C’s I’ve been going around especially noticing the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, theincredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies,the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together. And it feels so right and so good to LAUGH and play with my children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around me.
Dear Reader,
You missed completely the most important point of the Cassiopaean message. This is, in fact, almost exactly the same as in the teachings of Gurdjieff. Except that Gurdjieff thought that people are not yet ready to accept the naked truth, so he was using allegories. Here is one – it is repeated in the Abduction Series:
“There is an Eastern tale which speaks about a very rich magician who had a great many sheep. But at the same time this magician was very mean. He did not want to hire shepherds, nor did he want to erect a fence about the pasture where his sheep were grazing. The sheep consequently often wandered into the forest, fell into ravines, and so on, and above all they ran away, for they knew that the magician wanted their flesh and skins and this they did not like.
“At last the magician found a remedy. He hypnotized his sheep and suggested to them first of all that they were immortal and that no harm was being done to them when they were skinned, that, on the contrary, it would be very good for them and even pleasant; secondly he suggested that the magician was a good master who loved his flock so much that he was ready to do anything in the world for them; and in the third place he suggested to them that if anything at all were going to happen to them it was not going to happen just then, at any rate not that day, and therefore they had no need to think about it. Further the magician suggested to his sheep that they were not sheep at all; to some of them he suggested that they were lions, to others that they were eagles, to others that they were men, and to others that they were magicians.
“And after this all his cares and worries about the sheep came to an end. They never ran away again but quietly awaited the time when the magician would require their flesh and skins.”
And here is another one, also from In Search of Miraculous:
“Man contains within him the possibility of evolution. But the evolution of humanity as a whole, that is, the development of these possibilities in all men, or in most of them, or even in large number of them, is not necessary for the purposes of the earth or of the planetary world in general, and it might, in fact, be injurious or fatal. There exist, therefore, special forces (of a planetary character) which oppose the evolution of large masses of humanity and keep it at the level it ought to be. For instance, the evolution of humanity beyond a certain point, or, to speak more correctly, above a certain percentage, would be fatal for the moon. The moon at present feeds on organic life, on humanity. Humanity is part of organic life, this means that humanity is food for the moon.”
You may ask “What is this moon?” in Gurdjieff teachings? Read our Abduction series [High Strangeness] and you will know.
So, what is this main message from Cassiopaeans? The message that must be always, always, kept in mind?
Here it is: We are food!
Here it is again: We are sheep!
There is a moon! It is real and powerful. There is a magician. Real and powerful. We are hypnotized sheep. The magician, the moon, feed on us. You can either accept it as a viable possibility, or you reject it as nonsense. If you reject it as nonsense – you are free to go to laugh and play with your children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around you, read Marciniak and trash Ouspensky.
But if you think that you can admit that there are signs here and there that we might be hypnotized sheep (or something equivalent), then you will want to learn how to escape yourself, and to teach, at least your own children, the art of escaping – if there is such an art.
If you think that sending love and light is the way – this is not what Gurdjieff and Ouspensky were talking about. You miss the point completely. The New Testament is also using allegories (but, notice, the Magician also took part in producing the New Testament). Here is one, the shortest one that is relevant and worth pondering:
“Enter through the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and spacious and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who are entering it.”
Now read again Ouspensky:
“The evolution of humanity beyond a certain point, or, to speak more correctly, above a certain percentage, would be fatal for the moon. The moon at present feeds on organic life, on humanity. Humanity is part of organic life, this means that humanity is food for the moon.”
Now replace moon with aliens (as in “alien abductions”). Then think again if it feels so right and so good to laugh and play with your children, or is it, perhaps, “the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who are entering it.”
“He hypnotized his sheep and suggested to them first of all that they were immortal and that no harm was being done to them when they were skinned, that, on the contrary, it would be very good for them and even pleasant; secondly he suggested that the magician was a good master who loved his flock so much that he was ready to do anything in the world for them; and in the third place he suggested to them that if anything at all were going to happen to them it was not going to happen just then, at any rate not that day, and therefore they had no need to think about it.”
Does it sound like your “laugh and play?” It does!
And this is what Cassiopaeans are talking about. But who wants to enter through the narrow gate when there is a wide and spacious and a broad one: “the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, the incredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies, the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together.”
Here it is again: “the magician suggested to his sheep that they were not sheep at all; to some of them he suggested that they were lions, to others that they were eagles, to others that they were men, and to others that they were magicians.”
The choice is yours. But please, notice, you are also responsible for your children. They are small, so your choice of the gate is, by necessity, also their choice … until they grow enough.
ark
But in counterpoint to my realization of the need to keep working, to get the information out as soon as I could, the drama escalated. Another member of the e-group posted. I have placed in bold text the words that provide clues to the circuit dominance in the above writer.
Hello A, B here-
You write: “The most striking thing to me is their direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians – and the gigantic discrepancies, contradictions and completely different slant on it all between the two sets of info.”
B: May I inform you that the Pleiadeans have been characterized by Michael Topper as “the bad guys pretending to be the good guys”, i.e. precisely the wolf in sheep’s clothes. And in fact if we carefully analyze their (Pleiadians’) shapeshifting story-board like messages, we can clearly see they’re not here to teach us first-hand principles (which ought to be true and helpful under any circumstances) – we clearly see that their blind stories are nosing us around into a mess. No common sense, no carry-through-logic anywhere. Yet this is exactly the way the pleiadeans want it!!!! That’s very revealing, isn’t it?
If you still don’t get the clue, let us look what sort of info Laura gets from their ostensibly “benign” Cassiopaeans: She gets a shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it. We must think about the possibility that the Cs deliberately wanted to drive Laura mad. How “benign” could that be???? Not benign at all!! All we need to know is: from what sort of background are the Pleiadeans giving their advice, or stories?
Why, these Pleiadans come from a self-admitted future probability-wave wherein the evil Reptilians have taken over the Earth, and over the rest of the universe on top of it!! That is the reality they want to draw your attention to, as a sort of extra-reinforcement to “weave the future probability-waves strong enough”! Enough said? My advice: Drop all channeling, and get in touch with a walking, talking, and really benign incarnated Master. One that you can see, feel, smell, touch, and, last but not least, trust, because he’s teaching verifiable first-hand principles that are helpful under any circumstances. Verily, Topper comes to mind. Indeed, but Topper only. Enough said. B
This is an individual who is dominated by the third circuit and is under the control of the second! In Neuro Linguistic theories, it is called “visual.” Notice the preponderance of terms relating to eyes and seeing or blindness. The third circuit is also the circuit in which the concepts of time are dominant – linear time – and he evinces fear when he mentions the references to probability and future.
The third circuit is the thinker, the creator of the semantic universe, as we will discuss further on, and it tends to categorize everything in the strictest terms of black and white, and wants very much to use its abilities: to think, analyze, inform, consider and teach. This individual fears audition, as well as anything that is not hard and material, or powerfully based in linear thinking, as is indicated in the below mentioned remark “shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it.” His remedy for this is: “We must think … ”
The problem with the third circuit is that it very often is dominated by damage to the second circuit and produces what in psychological parlance is referred to as a “second circuit robot.” There is good development of the cerebral function, and a desire to use it as the dominant mode. But the anal phase overlay on the phallic phase development is evident in the fact that the above writer has needed constant monitoring and requests to not use profanity on the list.
He is, in fact, one of the main reasons we opted to enforce a rule on the moderated list that no profanity is allowed. There is a higher reason for this, which involves the creation of an environment in which the elements of the higher circuits can develop, but that’s another matter. The fact is, the above post arrived with profanity in the title, which was deleted before it was forwarded to the group. I then responded to it:
Hello E-group member, Laura here:
You write:“If you still don’t get the clue, let us look what sort of info Laura get’s from their ostensibly “benign” Cassiopaeans: She gets a shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it. We must think about the possibility that the C’s deliberately *wanted* to drive Laura mad. How “benign” could that be ???? Not benign at all!!
Laura: Well, you are not going to bait me with this into telling you what has been discovered as a result of this clue before it is in sequence. Indeed, it drove me nuts in colloquial terms, but the result was like stoking the firebox in a train to fuel it to achieve a certain destination … and what many people seem to forget is this: the Wave series is being written as a chronological piece … what drove me nuts then, past tense, was the seed of what I know now – in the present. And we are not there yet in the story.
As to whether or not it was benign. Well, that will be for the reader to decide once they have all the same clues that I have … . as well as the evidence that resulted from these clues, which will certainly put every single person in a position to actually do something from a position of true free will – to the extent possible in this density. Which, of course, brings up the present discussion.
As I have noted in the past, very often when I am writing about certain things that most assuredly will give the reader insight into the Control System and how it works on a daily basis; things that will go far to set people free; it seems that those individuals most easily disturbed or manipulated to create diversion and discord – which distracts me from the work at hand so that I must divert time and energy to handle what masquerades as pressing issues rather than dealing with the revelation of crucial evidence – are activated more or less simultaneously.
I am not the only person who sees a pattern in this. Every page I have produced has been preceded by a chaotic uproar to one extent or another. Of course, at this point, I can almost validate the truth of my conclusions by the extent to which the control system will go to manipulate the thinking and emotions of those who seek to create discord and disruption. And I can tell you that I am on a hot subject now.
E-group member: Why, these Pleiadans come from a self-admitted future probability-wave wherein the evil Reptilians have taken over the Earth, and over the rest of the universe on top of it!! That is the reality they want to draw your attention to, as a sort of extra-reinforcement to “weave the future probability-waves strong enough”!
Laura here: But that directly contradicts the teachings of Michael Topper [who argues that we have no participation in the creation of our reality.] You are suggesting that we “create our own reality” by what we think. I tell you that we create our own reality by what we believe. And what we believe very often directs our thoughts in exactly the opposite direction [of that we wish to manifest] in order to create balance. Those who believe the world is broken seek to focus only on “love and light” in order to fix it. Those who cannot look at it as it is, in all its terrible aspects as well as those realities of ineffable beauty, and accept it as it is; as perfect; will experience all the problems that make them desperate to change the world. And once you believe the world is perfect, deep inside, once you let go of fear, once you can look and see and not judge anything as being wrong, though it may not be desirable or preferred by you, then your reality will change to the most perfect for you.
E-group member: Enough said?
Laura here: Indeed. More than enough. The rules of the list include one that excludes profanity. I have edited the subject field of this post accordingly. And the rules of the list will be applied as a result of the profanity used.
Egroup member: My advice: drop all channeling, and get in touch with a walking, talking, and really benign incarnated Master. One that you can see, feel, smell, touch, and, last but not least, trust, because he’s teaching verifiable first-hand principles that are helpful under any circumstance. Verily, Topper comes to mind. Indeed, but Topper only.
Laura here: Okay. You got it.
And he was removed from the list. His antics had been reprimanded numerous times both on list and privately. And the final thing was: his proposal to “drop all channeling” was a clear indication that he did not belong on a list whose premise was stated in the list rules, that it is a group formed to discuss channeling.
Naturally, I wasn’t happy to delete a person from the list, most particularly one who was so evidently capable of work in the third circuit. But, there are other matters to consider that will be seen as we proceed here.
All of this drama was acting on my own programming. It is said that the true High Initiate is one who can no longer cry. They feel compassion, but it is cosmic and non-attached. I’m not there yet. I still cry. And, I am always reminded of the shortest verse in the Bible where it says: “Jesus wept.” (John 11:35. How’s that for your 11 and 3-5 code?) He had not yet been fully initiated, after which he left the planet, so I expect that, as long as I remain, I will weep. And, as the drama continued on another front, I did.
A message was posted to the unmoderated CassChat e-group, of which I am not a member, but another member on that group forwarded it to me privately. It was written by a former member of the Cassiopaea e-group who had been the first to be removed because, well, you will see why:
Casschat egroup member here: If you read the Cassiopaean material, when the Cs mention to Laura about luck. Read this section and Laura is basically stating that Ark is a fourth density Nordic. This ego on this guy is hilarious. He is on such a power trip it is absurd. Ark I would love to meet you in person, and really see how much of a man you are. You’re a typical Reptilian coward with NO BALLS. He has taken me off the Cassiopaea list because I said I would not have my future dictated by higher beings. Can you believe this guy? He is supposed to be an STO candidate? He is the most close minded and censoring person I have ever met on any board. Laura; can you honestly say he is a truly compassionate and understanding guy?? The Cassiopaeans must be truly proud of you Ark. You kick people off your boards without even a warning. Who actually likes you or thinks you are a positive influence on anyone? Everyone on [another e-group] thinks you’re a total jerk. Do you realise everyone on your boards sends me letters telling me I have brought up great subjects and activity on your board. If you did not notice your board is usually pretty dead when I do not post. Are you such an egomaniac that you cannot have someone more stimulating than you on there? I knew you would be looking to get rid of me with all the actual stimulating conversations I have created on your board recently. I really hope Laura is beginning to realise you are an evil person. WAKE UP: HE IS AN AGENT OF THE REGRESSIVES.
I think that the reader will now be able to go through this message and determine which circuits are dominating.
Now, this individual is one who began writing to me privately some time ago, and I spent many hours patiently answering his questions, which seemed to be honest and sincere. However, no sooner would I deal with one issue by directing him to the pages where it was already addressed, he would bring up others that were also already addressed on the site. And most of his questions were quite similar to the “twisting” phenomenon we have seen in the first post reproduced here, where the writer either did not read the words carefully, or did not consider the context carefully, or simply could not receive what was being said. What she mirrored was not what was viewed. So, I realized that this was an individual who was also very much stuck in the second circuit, only his trauma must have been severe. I wanted to ensure that he, as anyone else, had the opportunity to work with others to undo this programming, since he was asking for help, or so it seemed. I sent him to the e-group so that I could get back to work. By this time, I had given him several days of my time with no end in sight. I needed to get to those issues with which he was dealing, and the only way I could do it was to continue working and not be distracted.
The only problem was, as soon as he had an audience, something strange began to occur. He used many nom de plumes or email handles, and was apparently active on several other groups because many people found his posts here and there and forwarded them to me. I filed them away and kept working.
Finally, as the archives on the Cassiopaea e-group will show, he became so disruptive that dozens of people were writing to us privately asking to have him removed. And it was as a result of this that we realized that to preserve the higher-circuit-thinking environment of the e-group we must begin to moderate it and give it more time and attention than we had up to that point.
Naturally, the announcement that the group would henceforth be moderated raised a hue and cry about censorship and what might be dark motives. There were no intentions to censor. All subjects were still open to discussion; it was just that the objective of the e-group had been, from the beginning, a forum to aid in the mutual uncovering of truth and programming and sharing of knowledge and experiences. And the free will of those who were there in congruence with that intent was of paramount importance.
But, many of the members could not see that the very emotional reaction they were having was their own emotional programming. Free will means free will for all, which often requires the refusal of control by someone who wishes to deprive others of free will. In this case, one or two individuals wanted, and attempted, to impose their will and thoughts on the other members of the group. And, when this control was refused, they then accused us of the very thing they were attempting to do. And, naturally, those who shout the loudest get heard, and it definitely pushes all the buttons that turn on the Predator’s mind.
And the very thing that I want people to realize is that we are programmed, and one of the biggest controls on our lives and minds and our very fate is our own emotions. As the Cassiopaeans have remarked: “Vibrational frequency level involves nature of being and emotion, not intelligence.”
And then at a later session:
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) So, you are saying that the path to illumination is knowledge and not love?
A: That is correct.
Q: (L) Is it also correct that emotion can be used to mislead, that is emotions that are twisted and generated strictly from the flesh or false programming?
A: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in third density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.
Q: (L) What about love?
A: What about it?
Q: (L) There are many teachings that are promulgated that love is the key, the answer. They say that illumination and knowledge and what-not can all be achieved through love.
A: The problem is not the term “love,” the problem is the interpretation of the term. Those on third density have a tendency to confuse the issue horribly. After all, they confuse many things as love. When the actual definition of love as you know it is not correct either. It is not necessarily a feeling that one has that can also be interpreted as an emotion, but rather, as we have told you before, the essence of light which is knowledge is love, and this has been corrupted when it is said that love leads to illumination. Love is Light is Knowledge. Love makes no sense when common definitions are used as they are in your environment. To love you must know. And to know is to have light. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.
Notice particularly the remark: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in third density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.
Now, I have underlined the remark about the natural necessity of emotion for progress so that those who will tend not to see it won’t be able to miss it. Nobody is saying that emotions are bad or that we should not have them. They are natural and necessary.
But, the crucial point is that emotion which limits you is an impediment to yours progress. Think about that long and hard. Then, think about the process of separating limiting emotions based on assumptions from those that limit, and the fact that this opens one to unlimited possibilities, you may begin to get a glimmer of the point we were trying to make when we reorganized the e-group.
Nevertheless, to satisfy everyone, we created the CassChat e-group that is completely unmoderated, and of which I am not even a member. This was to enable everyone who had found each other via the website to be able to stay in touch and to do whatever they liked, whether it was exchanging recipes or trashing Ark and Laura.
There were many members of CassChat, the majority of whom were becoming very adept at spotting these very things. They could, for the most part, coolly and objectively look at their own Predator’s mind. But, even some of these – including yours truly – are subject on occasion to certain triggers. And the next event really pulled mine!
There was something in the above post that caught my eye:
Casschat member: Everyone on Mashtrioka [another e-group] thinks you’re a total jerk. Do you realise everyone on your boards sends me letters telling me I have brought up great subjects and activity on your board. If you did not notice your board is usually pretty dead when I do not post.
I had no idea what this other e-group was. And the button that was being pushed was, of course, an attack on my husband. Even if the reaction in me was very mild, because I have learned to tolerate an almost infinite amount of abuse, I was curious as to what was meant by the remark “Everyone on Mashtrioka thinks you’re a total jerk.” Who were these people who thought my husband was a jerk?
I decided to have a look.
Ark didn’t think it was a good idea because he knows better than others that I still cry. But I insisted. I’m a big girl now, I can take it. Bring it on!
Famous last words.
We subscribed to this group and I noticed that a direct quote from the Cassiopaeans was on the main page, and that was nice. Even if it was not sourced, that was okay. My general attitude is to give the material away anyhow, so no big surprise. But then I started to read some of posts. And a very deep and primal program was activated. The program called “betrayal.”
And the bomb went off.
After reading several of the posts, I could read no more. I scanned the list of names and saw some of my friends there. I could not help but think that they were participants in a tremendous deception and betrayal, writing one thing to me on the Cassiopaea e-group, and here in this other group participating in what is to me the most hideous of acts: betrayal and deception. The essence of STS.
And, for a brief moment, I wanted all of them to know that I now knew who they were and what they were doing. I forwarded one of the posts that was most revealing to the Cassiopaea e-group. Knowledge protects, right? But this was actually a more or less combined activation of the first and second circuits in myself. Not only was I retreating, I was going to scare away the threat!
These circuits had been turned on inside me. The only thing is, I knew what was happening. I could feel the neuropeptides rushing out of these brain centers, flooding my system and binding to the receptors all over my body. Anyone who has ever been in this position will know what I am talking about.
The difference is: I know that it is chemical. I know that it is a result of a circuit activation that connects elements of a present experience to something deep in the past; infantile responses. I know that the reaction is encoded in the brain, and that the chemicals are released according to a single trigger.
If you have a negative experience as an infant in a room painted blue, you will be programmed to react negatively to blue, and whenever you are in a blue room your brain will release the same neuropeptides that were released at the very time of the infantile experience. You won’t know why you feel frightened or panicky or sad or whatever the negative experience produced, and you will think it is something to do with whatever else is going on in that room, or who you are interacting with, without even being aware that you are being triggered by the memory of the negative experience as an infant in a blue room. Your mind will seek to rationalize the feeling by blaming it on anything or everything, because the idea that the color of the room could be the cause is too illogical.
Sure, maybe you avoid blue. You don’t like it, but you surely will never admit that it can control your emotions and your experiences. It will be rationalized as a preference. No reason, just is. Well, there are a lot of things in our lives we think are us, and they are not. They are programs.
Suppose you have a very positive experience as a small infant with someone wearing a blue baseball cap. When you are grown, you meet someone wearing a blue baseball cap. You are flooded with the same neuropeptides that were released in the pleasurable experience of your infancy and you are sure that you just really like this person. Never mind that they turn out to be the worst enemy you ever had. As long as they are wearing that blue baseball cap while giving their explanations for why they did rotten things to you, you will believe them because the same neuropeptides will be flowing in response to the cap, and you will be rationalizing in your mind why you should forgive and forget. Even if they are not wearing the cap, the fact that you met them wearing the cap has already formed a matching circuit to the original one. It has been augmented and strengthened.
People fall in love and marry the most damaging people for these reasons. Maybe they have the same nose, or eyes, or hair as someone who provided a very pleasurable experience as an infant. Those traits will trigger the neuropeptides of the memory, flood the entire body and, voila! You are in love.
Never mind that the person turns out to be a lout. Every time you argue with them, the same signals are being sent that bring on the neuropeptides of pleasure and your brain will rationalize forgiveness. How can it be bad if it feels so good? How can they be lying? I feel such love and truth in them!
The most interesting thing about this is that neuropeptide receptors are found all over the body; you have a whole body sensation! You can actually feel it flooding like a rush through your system. But I can guarantee to you that it is chemical. It has nothing to do with higher emotion. And it most definitely has nothing to do with objective reality. Your imprinting creates your very own subjective view of the world and maintains it. And it is in this way that we all live in wishful thinking.
The neuropeptide receptors are also clustered in the gut in very high concentration. We receive gut reactions according to programs set up in the imprinting stages of infancy. It has nothing to do with the exact circumstances of the present moment. It has everything to do with the program and the response to a particular cue that turns on the neuropeptides of pleasure or trauma. The receptors are also arranged in clusters along the spine. With the proper cues that may or may not be from benign sources, they can be felt as the “raising of kundalini”. This can also be a real initiatory event, but in that case it would be activated from a different center and with different chemicals.
The most loving and ideal of mates, in terms of mind and soul, will be rejected if the nose or ears or hair or clothing, or some other aspect that was imprinted, is that of someone who hurt you when you were an infant. The most horrific abuse and tragedy will continue in your life if the person who is the source of this just happens to have all the right triggers for your pleasure neuropeptides.
And, until you have read the studies of how potent these chemicals are, and how powerfully they control us, you simply have no idea of what you are dealing with. You will rationalize until the cows come home that it is “really my higher understanding” or “it is really love, this is an exception to the rule” or “I am in touch with my higher mind” in the face of the evidence that will repeat over and over again.
And this behavior is, of course, reinforced by our cultural programming, our religious programming, and all the lies and half-truths delivered to us along with the painful or pleasurable experiences that produce neuropeptides during the time of infancy when these circuits are created. To go against your own programming, to do the opposite of what you feel because you have truly assessed the evidence objectively, is exactly like going through drug withdrawal. And in the throes of withdrawal, the individual will do almost anything to get the neuropeptide fix he needs. That’s why so many people go back, again and again, to an abusive partner. That person has some feature that triggers neuropeptide binding in the pleasure centers of the brain and body.
We are made addicts inside our own skins.
And I knew what was happening.
So once I realized that people with programs switched on were sucking me and others into their black hole of distorted emotions, I understood that the only thing to do when you realize emotions are in charge of thinking is to do exactly the opposite of what you want to do. To go against the program. And that was my program. I wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out again. I couldn’t believe that people could misunderstand so completely and be so cruel.
My first circuit wanted to withdraw to safety and comfort. These people were not being cruel, they were merely programmed. My feelings of hurt and betrayal made me want to just stop everything, pull the plug on 35 years of labor, and group all of humanity as one big threat to my well-being. I was making a judgment. The Predator went “thud” in my gut’s neuropeptide receptors like a lump of cold lead. I wrote a post to some of my friends, who at this point were also somewhat suspect. It said:
After glancing through some of what they had written – a sufficient amount to make me want to lose my dinner – an overwhelming sense of isolation came over me. I realized why people who for whatever reason become ‘public property’ tend to end up isolating themselves completely.
Naturally, when I began the website, it was simply a labor of love – what I had to give. And the e-group was a place for all the walking wounded who wrote to me for help and relief from their feelings of isolation. Everyone on this list has come from those ranks. I naively thought that I could just write and give it all away, and those who found something there would take what they liked and be polite and if they didn’t like it, would simply demur with equal politeness.
I struggled daily to answer questions from hundreds upon hundreds – actually moving into the thousands – of people. Not because I thought I had the answers, but because I had certainly found some things that seemed to work universally if applied, and nobody else seemed to be doing much in really taking the clock apart to see how it operates. I work sometimes 10 to 16 hours a day trying to keep up with everything. And for what? For that kind of crap? And even from people who pretend to be my friends or at least pretend to be something other than what they are on the group?
My naive idea that people could actually begin to really emerge from their programming – and act in unison with the idea of giving to one another freely and openly and honestly – had just died. I saw no point in continuing to write. I saw no point in continuing the e-group. I saw no point in anything. And I didn’t think a pat on the head and a “Good Laura! Good doggie! You helped me!” was going to make an ounce of difference. Frankly, I didn’t think I could believe anybody anymore.
Of course, looking at the sequence of events, it is clear that this state was a trap. The very fact that the active principle in operation happened to be the very thing I was working on exposing, that it was set up in time for one person to trigger emotions in another; the second person’s emotions were set off and he went off like a hand grenade; and I was then lured into reading remarks made at an earlier point in time, which set off the bomb in my own physiology, could not have been more cunningly designed.
It took several hours for me to master my emotions, and my husband, Ark, advised against taking any action until I was in a cooler state. It’s a good thing he did or there would be no Cassiopaea website or forum today. I turned off my computer and went to read a book. Zelator. Right on top of the pile.
By the next morning, I determined to continue writing because I realized that stopping The Wave series had been an objective of the Control System since the series had started. Unfortunately, my computer would not boot.
Not a surprise. I’ve burned bigger computers with less energy than I blew off with this one.
Without going into all the technical details, suffice to say that after two days of diagnostics a new computer was thought to be the best solution. The computer was purchased, and it took another two days to retrieve and transfer all my files and install all my programs. Four days altogether, in which I read Zelator off and on between managing what I could from Ark’s computer and getting caught up with the house and kids.
And that brings me to the book itself.
If I had not fried my computer (most likely by getting upset), I would not have read Zelator before writing this. And I would not have fully understood exactly what I was doing or why. So, once again, the efforts of the Control System to do damage ended up doing just the opposite. We are handed lemons and we make lemonade.
I had wept. I had dried my tears and decided that it didn’t matter if I was an object of attack and ridicule and cruelty. I would continue. But even with this commitment, there was the question: Why? Is anything I am doing worthwhile?
And there was the book. Sitting there on the stack. I had gotten up to resume my labor, knowing only that it was what I was committed to do; but not really knowing why. And the computer would not work, and there was the book.
I began to read, and as I read, I understood. And I felt the care and comfort of the vast and limitless Universe reaching hands out to dry my tears and send me words that told me what I needed to know.
Zelator is a book written by Mark Hedsel, a seeker on what is known in arcane parlance as the Way of the Fool. The Way of the Fool is apparently an initiatory path of those who set out on their own and, from time to time, encounter a teacher who they interact with for a period, and then move on. As David Ovason, Mark Hedsel’s scribe, describes it:
The Way of the Fool is the way of the independent traveller on the Path of Initiation. Such a traveler may study under a variety of Masters, yet will strive always to preserve his or her own identity, and rarely undertakes vows of silence which will bind his or her being to a particular school or teaching. … The most enduring arcane image of this wandering Fool is that found on the early Tarot cards … (Hedsel 2000, 20, 23)
In the monastery of Santa-Maria-la-Real, Najer, La Rioja, there is a 15th century carving of a Fool. He has two dogs at his feet similar to the Fool in the Tarot deck. But, the interesting thing about him, as Mr. Hedsel points out, is that he wears a robe that is so designed to fall open at both front and back. In this way, his private parts are always visible. He is a naked fool.
‘… His nakedness is a sign that the true Fool is prepared to show those things that others prefer to hide. Those Fools who show the way to that higher vision arising from initiation are often seen by the Sleepers as foolish.’ (The Sleepers are those who have not elected to follow a spiritual path. They are content with the realm of appearances, and want only to be left alone, to sleep.) …
‘… A man or woman’s life reveals the archetypes they have followed. That’s why the Fool is prepared to go through life naked to the world, knowing that the lower is nothing more than a reflection of the higher.’
‘… the Fool progresses only by means of the questions he asks.’
‘… A Teacher can indicate the Way, but he cannot show the Way. There are the two Ways – the Way Up and the Way Down – and among the ways up is the Way of the Fool. The zero marks the intersection between the Way Up and the Way Down, where there is neither Up nor Down. …’
… ‘To what purpose, we must ask, would anyone wish to follow the Way of the Fool? It is no easy role to play. The Way of the Fool is so open to misunderstanding and mockery. To the casual glance – which is the glance of most people – it does not even appear to be a Way at all. … Yet there is such a Way, even if it is only one followed by men and women striving to establish a Spiritual identity for themselves, divested of outer trappings.
‘On this way, the Fool is sensitive to symbols. Indeed, if the Fool is alert enough, sufficiently progressed along the Path, then everything becomes a symbol. …’
… ‘The keyword for all the paths is commitment. … when you have committed yourself to an action, then the whole cosmos will conspire to help you.
‘… the cosmos recognizes commitment, which is in itself a kind of prayer. If you commit yourself, then you will find that the angels are ranged on your side.
‘And so, make a commitment. Remember it. Stick to it. And if you choose the Way of the Fool, do not fear appearing to be a Fool in the eyes of the world, for, if you do not stray too far from the ancient road, in the eyes of God, you will always remain the beloved Fool. …
‘… Yet, this is certainly no mystical injunction to forget the world, for the hermeticist is trained never to forget the world – as it is his or her forging ground. The hermeticist is ever prepared to burn in exchange for gnosis, or to peel away the onion which wrap up the world’s Mysteries and himself. …
‘… For every faltering step taken by Man, God in his stillness bounds towards Man a hundred steps.’
‘… Initiation is an art, a Spiritual performance which can last a lifetime, and then pour into subsequent lifetimes …’
… ‘There is only one complete initiation for one who dwells in the body. Then, at that marvelous moment of initiated insight, you will see that life itself is art: it is the art of the gods. The art of Man merely reflects the shadow of this creative exuberance. Initiation is the ultimate art of the gods, practised with more or less imperfection by men.’
‘… the Fool is prepared to reveal more than ordinary people, if only to lay bare the basic structure of the Spiritual world. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 11, 13, 348–351, 353–354 310)
Zelator devotes some considerable discussion to an 11-house zodiac that was found in the Sagrada di San Michele, which overlooks the Val di Susa. Even though we will not go into that subject in detail, I would like to include some of remarks about this curious thing:
The climb to the first courtyard is by way of a flight of steps called the Scala dei Morti, the Staircase of the Dead. There are tombs near the bottom, but at the top is an archway set with images of the stars: the stairs are a parable of Spiritual ascent from Earthly death to stellar life. The symbolism is simple and perfect, yet it was not quite the symbolism intended by the architects. The archway was translated to this place some centuries after the monastery was built: it was carried, stone by stone, from the baptistry, which had once been outside the monastic enclave, and which is now all but destroyed.
The bas-relief images of the stars, through which one must pass to gain access to the monastery, are among the most fascinating in Europe. They probably date back to the 11th century, and show signs of being derived from Arabic astrological lore. (Hedsel 2000, 72)
I would like to note that the rich astrological tradition of the Arabs was funneled, by way of translations, into Europe from as early as the 10th century, but did not reach its full momentum until the 11th and 12th centuries. It was at this time that astrological symbols were assimilated into Christian architecture. See, for example, F. Gettings, The Secret Zodiac: The Hidden Art in Mediaeval Astrology.
To the left of the portal are 11 images of the zodiacal constellations. There are 11, rather than the statutory 12, because Scorpius and Libra are merged as one, in the image of a scorpion grasping in its chelae, or claws, the balance of Libra. In this form, the ancient Greek images of the zodiac were manumitted from the writings of the Alexandrian-Roman astronomer, Ptolemy, to the architects of the first Romanesque cathedrals. (Hedsel 2000, 73)
Yes, you read right: manumitted.
My first thought about the use of this word was that the guy made an error. Or somebody made an error. In fact, I was entirely prepared for this book to be a complete waste of my time. I was not only prepared for it to be a waste, I expected it. But there was that word.
There were several exchanges with the Cassiopaeans and myself on this subject back in 1997:
August 9, 1997
Q: Okay. Now, next question: I understand that Libra was added to the zodiac and broke Scorpio and Virgo apart. Were there originally 10 or 11 signs in the zodiac?
A: Originally?
Q: You know what I mean!
A: There have been many combinations.
Q: Well, when did the present 12-sign zodiac begin to be established as it is?
A: 1302 AD
Q: And how many signs were there before that?
A: 11
Q: That’s what I thought. What is the source of the oldest zodiac available to us?
A: Atlantis.
Q: Well, fine, what is the oldest extant source in terms of writings?
A: Egypt.
It is important to note the specificity of the questions and answers. The date is given in response to a specific inquiry that includes the qualifier “as it is”. Further, the Cassiopaeans are not saying that an 11-house zodiac is the right one, merely that it is one of many.
Now, there is more to this than meets the eye, so have a look at the following:
November 7, 1994
Q: (L) Does the Catholic Church have in its possession actual original texts of the Bible that have not been corrupted?
A: No.
Q: (L) Were there ever such texts in existence?
A: No.
Q: (L) Who wrote the book of Matthew?
A: Greek enforcers.
Q: (L) What are Greek enforcers?
A: Like your FBI.
Q: (L) Who wrote the book of Mark?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Luke and John?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Acts?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Are any books of the New Testament written by who they claim to be written by?
A: No. Remember this is 70% propaganda.
Q: (L) Is 30% then the truth or the actual teachings?
A: Close enough. You must decipher from instinct through meditation.
Well, doesn’t that just dip your cookies? Greek Enforcers? FBI?
Not long after this, I was reading Edith Hamilton’s Mythology. Something she wrote struck me quite forcibly:
Greek and Roman mythology is quite generally supposed to show us the way the human race thought and felt untold ages ago. Through it, according to this view, we can retrace the path from civilized man who lives so far from nature, to man who lived in close companionship with nature; and the real interest of the myths is that they lead us back to a time when the world was young and people had a connection with the earth, with trees and seas and flowers and hills, unlike anything we ourselves can feel. When the stories were being shaped, we are given to understand, little distinction had as yet been made between the real and the unreal. …
But a very brief consideration of the ways of uncivilized peoples everywhere and in all ages is enough to prick that romantic bubble. Nothing is clearer than the fact that primitive man, whether in New Guinea today or eons ago in the prehistoric wilderness, is not and never has been a creature who peoples his world with bright fancies and lovely visions. Horrors lurked in the primeval forest, not nymphs and naiads. Terror lived there, with its close attendant, Magic, and its most common defense, Human Sacrifice. Mankind’s chief hope of escaping the wrath of whatever divinities were then abroad lay in some magical rite, senseless but powerful, or in some offering made at the cost of pain and grief.
This dark picture is worlds apart from the stories of classical mythology. …
We do not know when these stories were first told in their present shape; but whenever it was, primitive life had been left far behind. The myths as we have them were the creation of great poets. … The tales of Greek mythology do not throw any clear light upon what early mankind was like. They do throw an abundance of light upon what early Greeks were like … [we] are their descendants intellectually, artistically, and politically, too. Nothing we learn about them is alien to ourselves.
People often speak of “the Greek Miracle.” What the phrase tries to express is the new birth of the world, with the awakening of Greece. “Old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” Something like that happened in Greece. Why it happened, or when, we have no idea at all. We know only that in the earliest Greek poets a new point of view dawned, never dreamed of in the world before them, but never to leave the world after them. With the coming forward of Greece, mankind became the center of the universe, the most important thing in it. This was a revolution in thought. Human beings had counted for little heretofore. In Greece man first realized what mankind was.
The Greeks made their gods in their own image. That had not entered the mind of man before. Until then, gods had no semblance of reality. They were unlike all living things. In Egypt, a towering colossus … a woman with a cat’s head suggesting inflexible, inhuman cruelty. Or a monstrous mysterious sphinx, aloof from all that lives. In Mesopotamia, bas-reliefs of bestial shapes unlike any beast ever known, men with bird’s heads and lions with bull’s heads and both with eagles’ wings …
These and their like were what the pre-Greek world worshiped. One need only place beside them … any Greek statue of a god, so normal and natural with all its beauty, to perceive what a new idea had come into the world. With its coming, the universe became rational.
… In Greece alone in the ancient world people were preoccupied with the visible; they were finding the satisfaction of their desires in what was actually in the world around them. …
Human gods naturally made heaven a pleasantly familiar place. The Greeks felt at home in it. …
That is the miracle of Greek mythology – a humanized world, men freed from the paralyzing fear of an omnipotent Unknown. The terrifying incomprehensibilities which were worshiped elsewhere, and the fearsome spirits with which earth, air and sea swarmed, were banned from Greece. … no matter how wild and fantastic the stories are, anyone who reads them with attention discovers that even the most nonsensical take place in a world which is essentially rational and matter-of-fact. Hercules, whose life was one long combat against preposterous monsters, is always said to have had his home in the city of Thebes. The exact spot where Aphrodite was born of the foam could be visited by any ancient tourist; the winged steed Pegasus, after skimming the air all day, went every night to a comfortable stable in Corinth. … If the mixture seems childish, consider how reassuring and how sensible the solid background is …
The terrifying irrational has no place in classical mythology. Magic, so powerful in the world before and after Greece, is almost nonexistent. There are no men and only two women with dreadful, supernatural powers. The demoniac wizards and the hideous old witches who haunted Europe and America, too, up to quite recent years, play no part at all in the stories. Circe and Medea are the only witches and they are young and of surpassing beauty – delightful, not horrible. Astrology, which has flourished from the days of ancient Babylon down to today, is completely absent from classical Greece. There are many stories about the stars, but not a trace of the idea that they influence men’s lives. Astronomy is what the Greek mind made out of the stars. Not a single story has a magical priest who is terribly to be feared …
The world of Greek mythology was not a place of terror for the human spirit. It is true that the gods were disconcertingly incalculable. One could never tell where Zeus’s thunderbolt would strike. Nevertheless, the whole divine company, with a few and for the most part not important exceptions, were entrancingly beautiful with a human beauty, and nothing humanly beautiful is really terrifying. The early Greek mythologists transformed a world full of fear into a world full of beauty.
This bright picture has its dark spots. The change came about slowly and was never quite completed. The gods-who-became-human were for a long time a very slight improvement upon their worshipers. They were incomparably lovelier and more powerful, and they were of course immortal; but they often acted in a way no decent man or woman would. … There are traces of a time when there were beast gods. The satyrs … the centaurs … There are also stories that point back clearly to a time when there was human sacrifice. … the mythical monster is present in any number of shapes … but they are there only to give the hero his meed of glory. What could a hero do in a world without them? They are always overcome by him.
But what is astonishing is not that bits of savage belief were left here and there. The strange thing is that they are so few. (Hamilton, 3, 4, 7–12)
When I read the above, it gave me chills and made the hair stand up on my arms. I understood that I was in the presence of a significant mystery. The main thing I was interested in was the reference to astrology. Since most of our astrological signs are representations of Greek mythology, how could it be that they, themselves, did not practice astrology? This was a serious discontinuity in history. There was the practice of astrology before the Greeks, and after the Greeks. And, in fact, the whole Greek pantheon was adopted. What’s the deal here? I decided to ask the Cassiopaeans:
July 26, 1997
Q: Why was astrology absent from the myths of ancient Greece?
A: Not absent, “Stalinized.”
Q: What does that mean?
A: Soviets removed Stalin from the history books when he fell from popularity. So, Greeks, Astrology … “Stalinized”…
Q: Why?
A: Deadly secrets would be revealed.
Q: Revealed to whom?
A: You. [My take on this is not just me, personally, but humanity.]
Q: If we could find the pieces and put them together, they would show us the drama and the connection between third and fourth density?
A: You would have to use the original astrology, before cosmic changes of a planetary nature; there was no Venus, for one example, and Earth was oriented differently axially speaking.
Q: And the destruction of Kantek. This was a whitewash. The writings of Homer and so forth were put in place … is there any source where we can get closer to these myths that will help us to figure out who is really on first?
A: Check the Isle of Man.
Q: You once said that the Bible was written by Greek enforcers, and now you have just said that the myths were Stalinized. It also struck me that there were no ghosts or spirits in the Greek texts. These texts portray the Greeks as worshippers of the physical world. They were astonished at Pythagoras’ belief in reincarnation …
A: You have been reading altered texts.
Q: Well, I know that. I have copies of some of the oldest known documents on the planet. Where am I going to get something that is remotely accurate?
A: The Hague.
Q: Where did these Greek enforcers come from?
A: Order of Thelon.
Q: Never heard of it. On another occasion you called the Nephilim “enforcers.” Is there any relation between this order of Thelon and the Nephilim?
A: Maybe …
Q: Where is the headquarters of this group?
A: Sicinthos.
Q: Is that a place? Never heard of it.
A: Yes.
The above excerpt was published in a previous segment of the Wave (in volume 4) and elicited some interesting information from an Italian reader:
Where is Sicinthos? This word recalled in my mind something I studied at the Liceo: the poet Ugo Foscolo, born in Zante or Zacinto, the Italian word for the Greek island Zàkynthos, a 400-square-km island in the Ionio Sea, northwest from the Peloponneso Greek peninsula. In ancient history this is the first known “Achei” colony and then an Athens colony in 455 B.C.
In the legend, the first man on that island was Zacinto, son of Dardano (Dardanus). Achei people seem to have founded a colony also in northern Spain, at Sagunto (maybe that little town called Sahagun south-east of Leon).
Zakynthos and Sicyon were Achaeans colonies. Perseus was an Achaean, and Dardanus, Zacinto’s father, was known in the Greek mythology as a “religious civilizator” and the alleged “Greek Enforcers” have something to do with religion too. He was born in Toscana, Italy (ancient Etruria), in Cortona, an Etruscan city. He founded the Palladium, Samotracia’s mysteries and goddess Cyibele cults. He was the king of the Dardanians and the city of Troy (Troia). In Homer’s Iliade the Achaeans were fighting against Troians. The Spanish colony Sagunto was the ancient Zakantha. The Palladiums were supposed to have been three cube-like objects made of wood that had fallen from the sky. They were lucky objects and there were many in the Greek myths. Robert Graves in Greek Myths writes (translated): “Also Zacinto received a Palladium after a prayer to Zeus.”
I can’t find anything about “The Order Of Thelon”. But maybe it’s all buried and decomposed from a long time ago. Don’t know about Scythia. Maybe the Sciiti had a link with Troy and the Dardanus people?
Maybe all the known civilizations are linked to Scythia and so to Sumer and Mesopotamia, but I always keep in mind the fact that the Cs answer related principally to Greece. The final phoneme “thos” of Sicinthos is typical of the Greek vocabulary and their answer related principally to that “Greek Enforcers” issue. … The root SIK, SIC seems to mean growing, fertility, prosperity. Sicily was the land of fertility according to Carl(o) Pascal studies. (Personal correspondence, 2000)
Well, that was very interesting, and something of a clue, because there are some dynamic connections to later clues, but I plan to get into all that at some point in the future. Now, going back to our Zelator, remember the most interesting remark:
To the left of the portal are 11 images of the zodiacal constellations. There are 11, rather than the statutory 12, because Scorpius and Libra are merged as one, in the image of a scorpion grasping in its chelae, or claws, the balance of Libra. In this form, the ancient Greek images of the zodiac were manumitted from the writings of the Alexandrian-Roman astronomer, Ptolemy, to the architects of the first Romanesque cathedrals. (Hedsel 2000, 73)
To “manumit” means to “set free.” In specific, it means “to let go from the hand, to free from slavery.”
Claudius Ptolemaeus was a celebrated 2nd century CE Greco-Egyptian mathematician, astronomer, and geographer of the Roman-dominated world. He made his observations in Alexandria and was the last great astronomer of ancient times.
He systematized and recorded the data and doctrines that were known to Alexandrian men of science. … The mathematical and astronomical systems developed by the Greeks are contained in his 113 volume work, Almagest. With credit to Hipparchus as his chief authority … (Columbia Encyclopedia)
And, while I am on the subject of Greeks named Ptolemy, I ought to mention that Ptolemy II, or Ptolemy Philadelphus, the Greek king of Egypt from 285 to 246 BCE, “continued his father’s efforts to make Alexandria the cultural center of the Greek world. He encouraged the translation of the Pentateuch into the Greek Septuagint.” (Columbia Encyclopedia) So we see a very early connection of the Greeks to the control system of monotheism. Maybe what the Cassiopaeans were saying wasn’t so crazy after all.
But, even more than the idea of just setting free the images of the zodiac from the writings of Ptolemy, there is another idea suggested in this remark about manumission – the curious use of this particular word that relates specifically to hands I’d already thought about, and which we had discussed with the Cassiopaeans:
October 4, 1997
Q: In reading the transcripts, I came across a reference to a “pact” made by a group of STS individuals, and it was called “Rosteem,” and that this was the origin of the Rosicrucians. In the book The Orion Mystery, it talks about the fact that Giza was formerly known as RosTau, which is “Rose Cross.” Essentially, I would like to understand the symbology of the Rose affixed to the Cross. It seems to me that the imagery of Jesus nailed to the Cross is actually the Rose affixed to the Cross. How does Jesus relate to the Rose?
A: No, it is from the Rose arose the Cross.
Q: What does the cross symbolize?
A: The symbology is not the issue. It is the effect.
Q: What is the effect of the cross?
A: All that has followed it.
Q: In the same vein, I have noticed that there are two classes of arachnids. There are scorpions and there are spiders. The zodiac was changed by taking the pincers away from the Scorpion and creating out of them the sign of Libra. This image was one of a woman holding a balance scales, usually blindfolded. This was done within recorded history, but was probably formalized through the occult traditions of Kaballah. Now, in trying to figure out who has on what color hat, if there is such a thing, I have come to a tentative conclusion that the spider, or spinner of webs, is the Rosicrucian encampment, and that the Scorpion represents the seeker of wisdom … because, in fact, the word for Scorpio comes from the same root as that which means to pierce or unveil. Therefore, the Scorpion is also Perseus, per Ziu, or “for God.” And the Rosicrucians are the “other,” so to speak. Can you elaborate on this for me? Or comment?
A: What a tangled web we spin, when we must not let you in.
Q: So, the Rose is the Spider?
A: Different objective.
Q: So, the Rose, with its thorns … can you help me with this Rose image … is the Rose the Scorpion?
A: No. Different objective … Rose is a standalone symbol.
Q: So, the Rose can be used by either side, is that it?
A: Maybe.
Q: Another derivation of the word root of Scorpio is “skopos,” or “to see.” You said that the human race was seeded on a planet in the constellation Scorpio, and, therefore, when the zodiac was set up and the clues were laid out, it seems to me that the insertion of the sign of Libra was designed to take power away from human beings, to take their hands away, to prevent them from seeing, to make them defenseless. Is this imagery close?
A: On track.
Am I crazy to see in this message from Zelator something that is being “guided”? I looked at the passage again: “the image of a scorpion grasping in its chelae, or claws, the balance of Libra. In this form, the ancient Greek images of the zodiac were manumitted …”
Why use the term “chelae” in addition to claws? Chelae means claws, so it is redundant. So, not only do we have a word that doesn’t fit, in the term “manumitted,” which means to set free from the hands, we have a redundancy in the same paragraph; and both in a book that is exceptionally grammatical and precise in terminology.
What else do we know about chelae? Well, it is related to chelate and that is a chemical compound resembling or having chelae. The central atom – usually a metal ion – is attached to neighboring atoms by at least two bonds in such a way as to form a ring structure. It is also to cause a metal ion to react with another molecule to form a chelate. (Think of the carbon atom.)
Well, there is more about this issue of Scorpio having no hands:
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) Well, then how did mankind come to be here?
A: Combination of factors. Numerous souls desired physical existence then was altered by three forces including principally Lizards through Grays, Nephalim and Orion union.
Q: (L) Tell us again who are the Nephilim?
A: Enforcers. Slaves of Orion. From Planet 3C, or 3rd star, 3rd planet.
Q: (L) You said the other night that the Nephilim came from some area around the constellation Scorpio, is that correct?
A: Originally seeded there but you were too.
Q: (L) We were originally seeded somewhere else? Where? Orion? What is the name of that planet?
A: D’Ankhiar. Ankh is ancient symbolism of this planet. Is female symbol. Stands for mother planet. [Which suggests that this is the source of all human mitochondrial DNA.]Q: (L) You indicated that we should study the legend of Orion, and I looked it up in several sources, and basically the legend is of the perfect man who fell in love with a woman, and her jealous father caused him to be blinded. The only cure was to gaze at the light, the goddess Aurora, to regain his sight. Can you tell us how this relates to the idea that Orion was the indigenous home of humans?
A: It is up to you to look for answers.
Q: (L) There was an interesting reference in one of the books I was reading of the relationship of Orion to Scorpio, that Orion’s bow is drawn at Scorpio. And, at one other point, you said that the physical bodies of mankind were molecularized, and are being molecularized, on a planet called D’Ankhiar, which is in the constellation Scorpio.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is the relationship of Orion to Scorpio? The Orion “bad guys” shooting at Scorpio, which is the place of origin of the physical manifestation of the human race …
A: Bad guys?
Q: (L) Forget I said bad guys. “Shooting at Scorpio.” Is there any relationship, symbolically, to the fact that the human bodies …
A: It is all interrelated.
Regarding the 11-house zodiac that he had discovered in the Val di Susa, Mark Hedsel adds:
To the right of the portal are 15 [3–5!] images of the constellations. Most of them are named on the marble in a lapidary script. As sculptural images, these may well be unique in European lapidary art. Perhaps the architect had them copied from an Arabic edition of the Phaenomena – a poem about the constellations – of the third-century BC poet, Aratus. The original manuscript prototype drawings seem to be lost, but there is no doubt that these bas-reliefs may be traced back into the loam of classical antiquity. (Hedsel 2000, 73)
Note: The constellation names on the bas-reliefs are Aquila, Delfinus, Pegasus, Deltoton, Orion, Lepus, Canis, Anticanis, Pistrix, Eridanus, Centaurus, Cetus, Nothius, Ara and Hidra. (See: Giovanni Gaddo, La Sacra di San Michele in Val di Susa, 1977.)
… we rarely met anyone with whom we could discuss the arcane symbols, or the esoteric ideas they embodied. … few seemed to be interested in the cosmic images of the archway, and none I met ever had the slightest intimation of the challenge they offered. This was not surprising: the symbols were designed by a Masonic Mystery School, and exhibited an arcane knowledge which removed them from the understanding even of scholars.
… We had put a great deal of our time into the study of the astrological images in the Sagrada, but we could find no answers to the important questions which they raised in our soul. We could not find out why, or for what purpose, these images had been carved, and why they were not all absorbed into the artistic repertoire of Romanesque architecture. These images of the constellations were not found in other monasteries, churches or cathedrals: they seemed to be unique to the Sagrada.
No Romanesque architect seems to have seen the arcane implications in these images of the stars, and, as a consequence, these constellation images seem to have been lost to the stonemasons of the West. Few, if any, European specialists had studied these images, and there was a dearth of scholarly material dealing with them. The only possible clue was … the tantalizing manuscript in a secret code.
In our search for the origins of these images, we had found, hidden in the archives of the Vatican Library, a single manuscript which seemed to illuminate our search. It was a document which confirmed the name of the sculptor as Nicholas. … it was clear that this Nicholas had been an initiate, for the whole arrangement of the cosmic images – albeit no longer in their original setting – was redolent with esoteric symbolism and power. …
… In the manuscript which confirmed his name was a long and enigmatic sentence in mediaeval dog-Latin, which we could just about read, yet not grasp its inner meaning. The text seemed to encode something which defied our understanding. (Hedsel 2000, 73–75)
The uneasy dog-Latin, with its alchemical, astrological and even cabbalistic undertones, reads:
Dilexi secreta loca qui in arbore erant hostic factus est luminosus lapis cibus ante animalis et recedens de suprema rami arbor radicibus evulsa in terra quod ita domus ipsa fumabat.
Now, the point I want to make here is that this book, published not long before I began writing this, came to me because the issue of the 11-house zodiac was published on the website. Someone had read it and mentioned it. At that particular time, the drama described above began to manifest, which not only distracted my attention from following this clue but it almost brought the whole project to a halt.
Yet the fact is even if the distractions were an overt attempt to distract and stop me, what actually happened was that affairs were arranged so I was diverted to read this book out of sequence. In reading the book, I found many passages that spoke directly to me; the most astounding of which is this discussion of the 11-house zodiac. And I find it difficult to believe there are a lot of people on the planet thinking about 11-house zodiacs in the terms I have described above; most specifically who have the idea that there is some powerful symbolism in the addition of the sign of Libra; and that, contrary to what may seem to be the case, that Libra – with its blinded eyes so similar to the god Orion – is really a clue to the Control System that dominates humankind, which was known in the ancient past, and which knowledge was “Stalinized” by “Greek Enforcers.”
In our most recent session with the Cassiopaeans, on January 22, 2000, the subject of the “Moon” was reiterated over and over again. Curiously, this was just a day or so after Ark had written his response to the E-group member about Gurdjieff’s description of the Control System as being the fact that humans are “food for the Moon.” (See chapter 65)
As it happened, the subject of the Moon was also brought up repeatedly in Zelator, and I was beginning to wonder what was the big deal with the Moon.
Going back a bit, let me remind you that we began by asking some questions about the Shepherds of Arcadia, and the symbolism of Rennes-le-Chateau. After I had published this page, I received an email from a reader with whom I have corresponded for a period, and who described experiences that lead me to believe that she is one of those who is “suffering” a lot of cognitive dissonance due to her own ability to perceive glimpses of fourth density. She wrote:
I just read the wave 13b. Interesting stuff.
This is regarding the “treasure of Rennes le chateau”.
I have a few friends who are occultists whom I respect. One day one I was talking with one of them; he’d just been on a visit to the “Winchester Mystery House” … I think. This house is a weird house built by Sarah Winchester (of Winchester Rifles), supposedly on the advice of a psychic or something.
Well, my friend thought that the story was made up, was a cover story to explain why Sarah Winchester had built such a strange house. He thought that in reality, the house was built to be a “memory palace”. Not knowing what this was, I asked my friend. Apparently a memory palace (and I guess this is esoteric but known among those who know esoteric stuff, hah, like students of the occult) is a physical building that functions as a sort of a database in physical matter.
A memory palace is supposed to, apparently, mimic in physical matter, the structure of the mind of the person who builds it. The idea, I suppose, is that the person can then enter into the building and call up memories by handling or looking at/etc. the things in the palace. The things in the memory palace supposedly trigger something within the mind …
What exactly can it trigger within that mind? I don’t know … I guess these structures could be constructed to do different things.
Now, could Rennes Le Chateau be a memory palace of some sort? It could be that it is constructed to “work with” a particular kind of mind … a mind that is of a certain bloodline, or soul-line (I am thinking that some humans actually *do* have, in addition to their physical parents, “non-physical” parents who provide the genetics (speaking metaphorically here) for the “non-physical” bodies (the etheric bodies, etc.) of these people.
So … it could be that when a person of this certain physical and/or non-physical “genetic line” stood within Rennes Le Chateau, it would “trigger” something within their mind … trigger “what”? A process of transformation? Memories? I don’t know. A particular reaction on the part of someone visiting this place, Rennes Le Chateau, might even “mark” them as one of this “genetic line”. This might be the secret and the treasure of Rennes Le Chateau – that it is a kind of transformation structure or something.
Also, I have had intuitions that there are certain women in the world … who have a consciousness of a particular type that can be used to influence the world around them by unscrupulous black ship (the term that I use for those you’d probably call “lizards”) beings.
They may have particular and very interesting abilities that would certainly be of interest to anyone who wants to engage in manipulation of the masses. Are these women of the “genetic type” (both physical and non-physical) that “used” to incarnate in the Jesus/Mary bloodline? Rennes Le Chateau may have something to do with this as well, maybe.
Also, I had a kind of waking dream that somebody told me, regarding the Bloodline of the Holy Grail – “Yeah, there is such a bloodline and some royal families may be part of it, but the soul families that ‘used’ to incarnate into that physical line, really no longer do anymore.”
As a result of my research into the Rennes-le-Chateau matter, which brought up the Shepherds of Arcadia issue, I came across a book by Elizabeth Van Buren entitled Rennes-le-Chateau: Refuge of the Apocalypse.
Now, remember that my off-the-wall question about Oak Island led to the subject of alchemy and Fulcanelli. And the questions about Jesus led to the Rennes-le-Chateau matter. I found that all three of them converged into the word “Arcadia.” Oak Island is in the area of northeastern North America that was formerly called Arcadia (although the name was later fixed to “Acadia”); the Rennes-le-Chateau matter circled around a painting with that word in the title.
Fulcanelli was an alchemist who, it was claimed, was last seen in the Pyrenees, and Rennes-le-Chateau is in the foothills of the Pyrenees. The Templars were connected to Rennes-le-Chateau, and when the Templars were supposed to have been destroyed, the Rosicrucians all of a sudden appeared. It was rumored that it was no coincidence. Alchemy was supposedly brought to Europe from the Arabs, and the Templars had a long relationship with Arab potentates and affairs, so were, by deduction, associated with alchemy. And, the alchemical lore of the Rosicrucians is legendary.
Well, all of these are clues, but none of them tell us who’s on first. So, here is Elizabeth Van Buren writing about Rennes-le-Chateau, and she weaves all through her book remarks about Fulcanelli. Not only that, she has ideas very similar to my own about “dimensional doorways” and the “true Ark.”
Nevertheless, the fact still remains that the truly secret schools, if they exist, guard their secrets carefully. And it is not likely that they would reveal a relationship to hyperdimensional beings if they had made vows of secrecy as the Cassiopaeans have defined it:
Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity. … And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.
So, the fact remains that if the Cassiopaeans are giving out information that is clearly related to these “secrets of initiation,” that some credence may be thought to lie in the wider scope of their information regarding the Control System.
No matter where you stand, no matter in what direction you look, you find the web of the spider. It doesn’t matter if you start with metaphysics, if you freely follow the tracks, you may end up in paleontology, or astrophysics or psychiatry or mythology or geology, and on and on. There is no element of human culture that has not been manipulated in order to trap and feed.
I have spent a number of evenings debating with myself the planned content of this next chapter. On the one hand, the information is crucial; and on the other hand, there are some parts that are so extremely disturbing that when I examine them I have difficulty dealing with the images they conjure. So, the question became: how much do I really need to tell to make the point? Ought I just record the results of research and leave out how these results were obtained? Or does the reader have a right to know precisely how various researchers come to their conclusions?
As I was pondering this issue, something the Cassiopaeans once said came to my mind:
July 14, 1996
A: 3rd density STS orientation includes the thought of “dominion” over 2nd density, and this is merely a continuation of the energy buildup of the approach of the wave … some of the lessons are interesting indeed. When you assume that capture and imprisonment of those of lesser capacity than you is for “the good,” why should not you expect those of greater capacity than you to assume the same regarding you?!
This then led me to think about the Hermetic maxim, As above, so below; and certain implications that had never dawned on me began to shape themselves into a framework of understanding. I would like to share this with you.
In our world, we have many classes of people; many segments of the population that are engaged in many different pursuits, occupations, and fields of endeavor. All of these are more or less compartmentalized so that, very often, what one group is aware of and what they do is unavailable to other groups. There is a large, broad based group of your average Mr. and Mrs. Citizen, who are for the most part unaware of almost everything. They are born, live their lives in a normal way with all the normal accoutrements of an average life, including their normal allotment of momentous events such as school, graduations, the first job, marriages, births, deaths, football games, vacations to the seashore or mountains, friends, movies, and on and on. For the most part, it is all struggle to keep in step with the times and expectations of society.
In recent years, many polls have been conducted that ask the question: Are you happy with your life? A surprisingly high percentage of citizens respond: Yes. Why is this surprising? Because statistics show that mood disorders such as depression and anxiety are on the increase, becoming more widespread all the time. Depression related suicides are also on the rise. So, we have to ask the question: if everyone is so happy, why is depression at near epidemic proportions in our society?
It is clear that a huge segment our society is in denial. People cling to what they believe is the cultural norm, what is socially expected, and then pronounce themselves happy if they can come anywhere close to meeting it.
Twenty or more years ago, the individual who was on anti-depressant drugs was a rarity. Sure, they took an occasional Valium or Librium during times of crisis, but those are relatively harmless relaxants. Nowadays, practically every other person you talk to is either taking, or has a family member who is taking, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, Serzone, Tofranil, or any combination thereof. This is the ubiquitous medical solution to the epidemic of depression.
The psychosomatic network operates through a series of delicately balanced chemical interactions and feedback loops. The question of how drugs – legal or illegal – enter the network and affect the natural homeostatic balance is seldom addressed.
Drugs go to work at the level where brain cells are communicating with each other across synapses. Natural chemicals are squirted out by one or another cell and taken up by another. If there is too much of the chemical, the body has a mop up operation called a “re-uptake mechanism” by which the cell reabsorbs the excess. Many anti-depressants are used to block the re-uptake mechanism, allowing excess chemicals to flood the body. It is suggested that this corrects the imbalance.
The problem is, this Band-Aid approach does not measure what else may be going on in the body at the many other sites where these chemicals are also taken up by cells. One example is Prozac. Prozac works because it allows the body to be flooded with serotonin. It is now known that the intestines are loaded with serotonin receptors and that people on anti-depressants very often have gastrointestinal problems. The epidemic of digestive disorders is evidenced by the amazing number of television commercials advertising antacids.
I’m sure you’ve all seen the nice little drama of the young family at the circus with their excited children, only the family fun is about to be spoiled because the parents are suffering from – dare we say it – acid indigestion! And, of course, the fatherly pharmaceutical company in their infinite wisdom and mercy have just the solution.
Now, this is not to say that everyone who has acid indigestion is on anti-depressants, but the point is that such commercials normalize this. Just what are they trying to cover up? I wonder.
Nonetheless, it seems that for the most part even the medical professionals who are prescribing these drugs are not even asking questions. It’s easy to say that there is a conspiracy of doctors to drug the populace; but as most of us know, our physicians and nurses are mostly interested in healing, and they work with the system that is promoted by our culture as being the right method. They learn what they practice in medical schools, taught by professors who learned it from their teachers. The research that leads to the different concepts of healing is funded by – well, here we hit a curious thing – pharmaceutical companies. And, of course, pharmaceutical companies have a vested interest in making money from selling pharmaceuticals.
So, shall we blame the drug companies? Is it merely greed?
When we begin to examine this issue, we find that most of those doing this research are truly convinced that the approach they are taught is the proper methodology. They are convinced, in their own minds, that it is for the good of humankind.
If we think for a moment about the knowledge available to any given scholar or scientist in the many fields of study, and compare that to what the average citizen may know about any of this, we come to the idea that there are many things known by these scholars to which most people are oblivious. When we think about the meetings that may take place between leaders of nations or diplomats; or operations that may be undertaken by any intelligence organization, we are again confronted with the ignorance of the majority of people. We may read books by people claiming to be in the know, and we may hear stories and watch movies, and come to some idea of the many areas of our world in which we can only participate vicariously, fictitiously, or not at all; but can only suspect. And even at those rarefied levels, we find that each and every one of them, with few exceptions, believe that what they are doing – even if it entails secrecy – is for the good of humanity.
And, of course, each and every different group has its own idea of what is good for humanity, and some of these opinions are diametrically opposed to one another. When we step back from the picture, we see that something crucial is being missed. And this crucial thing seems to be the ability to observe the world objectively – empirically, if you will – and to use the mind to assess the fruits of the ideas in an objective manner.
I once was told that in China, (and I can’t verify that this is true), at a certain time in its history, doctors were required to post above their doorways a list of all their patients who had died. Not only that, the custom was that the patient did not pay the doctor until he was cured. This had the effect of motivating doctors to figure out what really worked in terms of healing therapies.
In Western medicine, it seems that this motivation to find a real cure or solution, on an individual basis, is lacking. Not only that, but this motivation factor is missing from all other areas of our lives.
For but one example: our governments are composed of individuals who seek office not to serve the people – even if they give lip service to that idea – but for money and power. If the payoff of money and power were removed from the sphere of government, if our elected officials were required to post the number of patients who had died above their doors, and were only paid if they were successful in solving the problems of the public sector, you can be sure that there would be a mad rush by many to get out of government, and the field would be left to those who were really capable of solving our problems.
In 1974, my grandfather died because he was killed by the medical profession. His diagnosed problem was high blood pressure. He was treated by administering the standard medications indicated by the medical profession at the time, and died when his potassium levels plunged and his heart stopped. Ten years later, I watched an expose on a news magazine TV show. The show exposed the fact that this standard treatment had killed so many people and doctors were finally questioning the selection of drugs they were using to treat high blood pressure. It was a scandal of national proportions. And it wasn’t the first one.
I grew up next door to a child who was a Thalidomide baby. We were best friends for many years, until I moved away. Sammy had no arms and one leg was a vestigial flipper. The other leg was normal. Sammy was a genius with a delightful personality and an assertive, no-nonsense, ambitious nature. There was no question that he was in charge of our relationship and I spent a lot of time executing his wishes: building things, setting things up, fetching, carrying, and just generally being his arms and legs. I’ll never forget the year he decided that Christmas trees ought to have a use after Christmas, and we were going to create a “magic forest.” It was my job to go up and down the streets of our neighborhood and retrieve all the trees set out for the trash collectors. I had to drag them back – many of them bigger than I was – and set them up according to Sammy’s specifications. In the end, we had about 50 of them.
I never thought much about the fact that Sammy was different when we were growing up. I was four and he was two when we were first plopped into a sandbox together, and all of his development took place before my eyes and seemed natural. He could do just about everything with his feet that I could do with my hands, including using scissors and playing the organ. When he came over to my house to play, and we had a snack, a special stool was available for him to sit on at the table that was the same height as the table so he could use his feet to eat. Once he was situated, my grandmother would wash his feet for him. When I would go out with him and his family on a trip to a store or a movie, I was aware that other people stared and moved away from him, and so I knew that he was different, but I never gave much thought until I grew up. It was then that I learned that Sammy was the way he was because a doctor gave his mother some pills for morning sickness.
I never, ever forgot that a doctor – acting in good faith – had done this.
Now, if our own third-density world has so many layers and compartments and secrets and agendas, do we think that it is possible that the same could be true for the fourth-density STS reality?
As above, so below.
In the present time, there are all sorts of communications with higher beings and sources of all kinds taking place. When we look at this, we find that there is the same problem apparent as we find in our own world. Can it be that there are fourth-density beings – or higher – who communicate with humans by various means, who are simply as ignorant of the doings in their realities as we are in our own? Or, that their agendas – even if framed to seem for the good of humanity – could be less than positive?
And if our own scientists will experiment on our little second-density companions in ways that you will soon discover, do we for one minute think that scientists at fourth density would not feel justified doing the same with us?
I don’t know about you, but the very thought of it produces in me a sensation that I prefer not to extend for any period of time, and my mind hastily closes the door on such a thought. But, at the same time, I understand clearly that I must be knowledgeable about these things, just as I must educate myself about health care in order to prevent myself or those close to me from being used as guinea pigs by the medical profession.
Yet, it is a thought that we must consider. And consider well.
Not only do we have to consider people we come into direct contact with who, even with the best of intentions, can destroy our lives through ignorance, we also have to consider those who are exploiting this. In our own recent times there was such activity, rooted in the idea that it was “for the good of mankind.” And those who closed their eyes to it became victims in spirit if not in fact. I am reminded of an account by Elie Wiesel where he tells how his father refused to believe that the Nazis would ever do anything uncivilized, and constantly put off taking his family to safety. Of course, it was too late. He was warned, he was urged, he was entreated – but he steadfastly refused to believe any evil of anyone.
In the present time, we have many who are taking this stand; believing that love is the answer and the open heart is the way. Over and over again in history we see this approach leading to massacre and bloodbath. Darkness falls upon the land and it’s a long time before balance is reestablished.
Such individuals claim that their knowledge comes from higher sources and that they are sure it is truth because it feels good. They are sure that love can only beget love, and if they have an open heart that is full of love, that nothing that is not of that frequency can ever pass such a barrier.
The problem here is much the same as the problems we find within our own world. As the Cassiopaeans noted, “When you assume that capture and imprisonment of those of lesser capacity than you is for ‘the good,’ why should not you expect those of greater capacity than you to assume the same regarding you?!”
We learn from Michael Topper, in simplified form here:
We well know the law of 3rd density: No two objects can occupy the same space at the same time. It should be obvious that this is a function of perception. … Perception determines the outline of what’s to stand as an object. In 3rd density, objects are mutually exclusive and define one another by contrast – by their differences. … Perception of unity … is a function of higher density cognition. It requires the use of faculties that are presently recessed in our being, and only occasionally accessed.
When, through spiritual practice or discipline performed on this plane, we perceive the luminous wholeness of separate objects, we are experiencing a momentary coordination with energies belonging to other densities and drawn into our frame of reference.
… 3rd density is the level where consciousness awakens to itself by a process of modeled approximations of things out there. That is to say that the internal dialogue of the soul is verbalized by the symbols of the world – the reality in which we live and move and have our being.
… The potential of 3rd density is pure awareness of consciousness itself without the need for descriptions or models out there. This is why the 3rd density level of consciousness is a critical threshold. Its potential clarity about its own existence is what aligns it with higher density consciousness. If it can correctly read the symbols of reality and align itself with them, even though they are a mask, the currents of being become stronger.
Thus we see that this is a very decisive stage in soul-realization. And we understand that the soul development is in the hands of the consciousness unit itself; dependent upon its accuracy in reading the symbols and aligning properly. This is the process of polarization.
The problem is: the soul is conditioned by inbuilt patterns of survival, ritual, reproduction and power-acquisition developed on the basis of lower density influences, i.e. the material world, i.e. the Predator’s mind. These are enforced through the basal-brain lobes of the Reptilian complex and the correlating abdominal centers of the autonomic currents in the mind/body.
What beckons the 3rd density consciousness is the intimations of the higher densities of intelligence and life. These intimations can be received in varying strengths and levels based upon the level of congruence or alignment of the individual with the symbols of their life which are there to inform them of what is really being said at the higher levels of their being.
So, we see that the lessons of 4th density are these simple understandings relating to correctly reading the symbols of our reality and aligning ourselves with them by application of our knowledge and awareness. This involves constant work in adjusting, shifting, and realigning ourselves in experimental feedback maneuvers, which generate an ongoing adventure in God seeking.
… We may understand the business of the densities by analogy with Rubik’s Cube. The minimal threshold level of 3rd density consciousness is like being at the center of the Cube, which represents our self-reflection in the outer world, which is given to us in a maximum state of disorder. This means that everything we perceive is received through distorted patterns of a maze.
We must keep in mind that this distorted pattern of our reality is for purposes of catalyst, or forced choices. Being in a maze generates the necessity of choice. Since Unity is not perceived in this reality, the consciousness unit, or soul, is confronted with the requirement of assessing the implications of all interaction with other beings and situations, and of choosing an orientation on the basis of that personal assessment.
… Given a full complement of rational and intuitive faculties (which self-aware consciousness develops by trial and error in the beginning), the soul may learn to function in alignment with an underlying principle of unity; it sees difference as many aspects of one; and each is valued. This learning is accomplished by either experimental reflection and analysis of consequences, or it may reject the evidence of the objective reality and choose instead to cling to its own version of truth, seeking ever to impose this on the reality, choosing to see that unity can only be by elimination of difference, the arbiter of what is the right way, being, of course, the subjective view of such a consciousness. [As the Cassiopaeans describe it, “wishful thinking.”]
… The work of crystallizing these two extremes of polarization is the real and underlying business of 3rd density. We live our myriad rounds of incarnation through this density, preserved between incarnations as a memory record of these identification patterns coded in the soul matrix, in order to produce this polarization to one side of the self equation or the other.
The inference is, of course, that the balancing mechanism of karma does not merely serve the rectification process of our many spiritual teachings, but actually serve to harmonize the soul in objective understanding of unity of all, or to consolidate a contractile soul that refuses repeatedly to see difference as many aspects of the One, and chooses instead to seek to make all One by eliminating differences.
The level of the soul’s ability to align in one way or the other via will, is the measure of it’s harvestability to 4th density at the end of each master cycle which, according to many sources, is the period in which we live at present.
Harvestability is the ripeness of the soul to proceed by virtue of the intensity with which it holds its view of reality. This means that subjective, one-pointed devotion to Love of Self – manifested as preference of the self’s view of reality over and above whatever the objective reality may actually manifest – is capable of achieving a dedicated integration. It is as though such a soul makes absolutely no attempt to sort and work with the confused faces of Rubik’s Cube; it makes no effort to learn how to work with the symbols, but steadfastly recoils in the center of the cube, believing that the faces of the cube are aligned and that it’s belief makes it an objective fact.
[This is the essence of Love of Self. And such a consciousness backs its choice by godly justifications. It seeks to be saved, i.e. have the cube aligned for it by an outside agency that will come rushing to its aid if it manifests enough love and faith with its open and bleeding heart. And this is where we come back to the remark made above by the Cassiopaeans: “When you assume that capture and imprisonment of those of lesser capacity than you is for ‘the good,’ why should not you expect those of greater capacity than you to assume the same regarding you?!”]
Such a soul, persisting in its love and faith against the clues and hints of the symbol system of reality, is wide open for subsumation into a hierarchy of beings who are firmly convinced that what they are doing is “for the good of humanity.” (“Will, Being and Well Being”)
And it is in this context that such beings have created and disseminated such spiritual and religious beliefs such as “suffering will earn you a place in heaven,” or “turn the other cheek,” or “give until it hurts,” or “your faith will make you whole,” and on and on.
Now, notice that I did not include such things as “love your enemy, bless those that persecute you,” because, in the larger sense, the soul that chooses to serve others, that chooses to see unity in difference will naturally love the enemy and bless persecutors. He will just see them as one face of the cube, part of the whole, and not necessarily the face that he wishes to align with or give energy to.
So, once the orientation is chosen – ipso facto by repeated actions through many incarnations – the soul is then graduated to fourth density where the lessons have to do with love and understanding. It is there that this is distilled and purified according to orientation. At fourth density, the nature of the density is love of the creator in terms of either one’s subjective view, or the objective reality. The general rule of loving God reaches all densities. It is at third density that everything is masked so that the soul must choose based on how it develops – and how it develops is based on how it chooses. As these choices add up, the soul becomes ripe in loving God as Self, or loving others as both God and Self.
At fourth density, the purpose of both polarities is the same: to seek a degree of intensification and alignment with their chosen version of love. The difference is, the STS polarity seeks to absorb or eat love energy. The very atmosphere of fourth density is that of love. And when any third-density being establishes contact with the higher densities by intensification of subjective faith, the natural inflow of energies will be perceived as overwhelming love.
They seek to promote the “open heart and love” approach because this is what feeds them. Their own choice of Love of Self and imposition of this subjective view is a form of projection that requires massive amounts of energy to maintain.
This idea will be disturbing to those individuals who believe that their challenges to spiritual or higher-density beings, or their open hearts are a kind of talisman or a universal sign of the cross that will automatically repel negativity and send it fleeing. But if the evidence shows that higher-density beings are not so constrained. The STS beings of fourth density rely on this to confuse the issue, to fool the bedeviled mind into taking psychological refuge in such a premise that will actually serve to further encourage the acceptance of the idea that they have the “good of humanity” at heart. What is felt in the presence of any fourth-density being, whether it is Serving Self or Others, is the informing quality of the density through which they function. This love and feeling of unity is the pervasive property of that density, not the personal expression of the beings.
We then come to the problem of why otherwise STO [Service To Others] sources will say that nothing negative can graduate to the higher levels of being and development. Are they lying?
This conforms to a certain belief pattern prevalent in New Age circles. It is also used and supplemented by many channeled sources which take the “see no evil” approach. This doctrine posits that where there is no knowledge of negativity, negativity does not exist. This in turn links to the corollary that “you create your own reality” by what you admit to exist.
We quickly see that this takes us back to the recoiled soul in the middle of the Rubik’s Cube of awareness, willfully refusing to see the jumble of patterns, and demanding that the universe, or God, or whoever, come and fix the blasted thing according to his belief that it ought to be all nicely arranged so that all the colors are together on each side. Never mind that the universe or God doesn’t actually do this, the soul deliberately works to grow his belief so strong that he will see it as fixed, and by doing this will have crystallized his will to the point of being harvested to fourth-density STS.
As mentioned above, it is unlikely that any of us would ever be fooled again by another Hitler. But, curiously, we are blind to such things in spiritual terms. When it comes to negativity of a spiritual nature, or what we might call evil, many people assume that things of the spirit and principles of the material world have different roots and are, therefore, not comparable as we have been told in the Hermetic maxim, As above, so below.
The idea that higher-density beings can be as compartmentalized and varied in their perspectives and objectives – only to a degree of greater intensity and ability – is positively not part of the perspective of many people who simply refuse to admit such a possibility.
The very idea of this makes many people experience such a hollow and heavy sensation in the pit of their stomach that they’re sure their gut feelings are showing it to be a lie. It’s bad enough to be transparent to the eyes of a benevolent being at higher levels; it is quite another kettle of fish to have to confront the idea of an incredibly concentrated malevolent intelligence possessing a predatory wisdom that is more than a match for any third-density mentality. And worse yet, such beings can move through our reality, unseen and unfelt, to whisper hemlock sweet words into our defenseless ears while at the same time manipulating with subliminal ease our complex chemistry and thinking, so that they can effectively breach the barriers of our crude subjective focus without so much as registering a blink in our warning systems. (Cf. Topper)
So unacceptable is this prospect to the third-density ego, ruled by anxiety, that it panics and pushes the veto button, foaming at the mouth in denial, reaching in frenzy for every holy word of whatever denomination was inculcated in childhood that clearly states “only the good” pass on to the higher worlds.
When faced with such an idea, even if we have given up Churchianity, we will flee to the sources that tell us negative values and thoughts of warfare can’t be brought along to the higher realms. Such sources would have us believe that the common denominator of higher levels compels conscious conformance to the value of unity.
For some, the very fact that a higher being would even speak about anything negative in any context, is proof that they are a negative being or a Satanically deluded lower astral spirit. Because, of course, all higher beings are so purified that such words cannot pass their ephemeral lips without choking them. Yeah, right!
Such a doctrine has no idea of what to do with an evil that isn’t simply relative to cultural context or evil by comparative definition, or is evil due to ignorance, but is, on the contrary, very conscious, very intentional, very malevolent and cunning to a level that cannot be plumbed by third-density awareness.
Does that scare you? It ought to. But not so that you will run and hide or live in terror, or dive into denial. It ought to galvanize you to do what is appropriate to the situation: learn all you can so that you are better equipped to utilize reason and analysis and observation in order to make your choices more congruent with your internal alignment.
Does it scare you to think that the medical system in the Western world may be approaching healing in the wrong way; that your doctor, despite his best intentions, may have been educated and brainwashed into a system that does not promote health? If you are ill and need treatment, and you know that your doctor might kill you or do irreparable harm to you, do you just go into denial about your sickness and sit there and die? Or do you begin to learn all you can about your illness, the many varied treatment methods that might be available in other forms of healing, and possibly take responsibility for your own wellness by making some decisions as to what treatments you will implement in your own life? And, if you are stymied or blocked in this endeavor, will you just give up and take the only medicine available and possibly die?
Now, in our works, we have never asked anybody to believe anything. We simply have the idea that human beings worldwide have a right to know what may be going on, and a possible interpretation of things that have puzzled human beings for a very long time.
We also wish to observe that the greatest minds of history have sought to work through and explain these issues for millennia with little success. And, for the most part, they have taken the route of “faith in the goodness of higher beings who will take care of us if we pray and are long-suffering.” While we think that such efforts are laudable, we also think that they are bound by their own self-defined limitations and that they are thereby prevented from disseminating information that can make a real difference. Their track records speak for themselves if the individual will take the time to stop listening to the propaganda and look at the “fruits.”
When we began to share this information, very few people took it seriously. Now it seems that many others are jumping on the bandwagon and approaching it with the idea of generating fear for its own sake. That has never been the objective of the Cassiopaeans. They say knowledge protects. And it is in this present work that it will become clear, in the most exact terms, how this is true to a level hardly imagined by the reader up to this point.
Here at Cassiopaea we have accumulated information that suggests the human population on this planet has been subjected for many thousands of years to intense manipulation by “alien” forces through human agents, if not directly. The Cassiopaeans do not take the view that these aliens are of the third-density type; i.e. that they are necessarily travelers from different star systems who are more or less as physical as we are and with whom we can engage on any kind of equal footing in our terms. However, they have been teaching us that we can generate our own protection in higher-level terms, and that this protection is a kind of awareness that is generated as knowledge and is applied. How and why this works is going to become evident to the reader as we examine the inner workings and hidden mechanisms of the Matrix Control System.
The ancient Sumerians claimed that the human race was created to be a slave race, a food source, and a genetic pool for higher beings, the Annunaki. The Cassiopaeans confirm that we were altered for this purpose, having been created or embodied for altogether different reasons that did not include being food.
October 7, 1994
Q: (L) The Sumerian story of the creation of human beings involves a story where they say they killed a god and mixed his blood and parts to mix with mud and then planted it in these female gestation goddesses and that this is where the human race came from. Now, this sounds an awful lot like what the Grays are doing at the present time. Did someone actually kill a God, break his soul in pieces, and thereby make the human race?
A: Symbolism and not correct event sequence. Lizard beings genetically altering the human race after battle for their own feeding purposes.
Q: (L) When did these events that these Sumerian stories are talking about take place?
A: 309000 years ago, approx.
Q: (L) So, it happened so long ago that these stories have lost the truth?
A: Reflection passed down through psychic memory channel.
However, the Cassiopaeans have made it clear that this is not total control:
October 22, 1994
Q: (L) At one point in a previous transmission it was stated that the Lizard beings altered the human race after a battle for their own feeding purposes. Could you clarify this?
A: It would not be possible for these beings to completely control your existence. If it were, you would not be able to do the things your race has done. There has been interference by the Lizard beings in the physical structure of the human beings for their own benefit. Remember what we told you before. They have been interfering with the time cycle experienced on this plane, for quite some time as you measure it. For 74 thousand years they have been interfering in a backwards and forwards time reference manner in order to set up circumstances that they perceive to be beneficial for them in the measure of time that you would consider to be forward, that is, in the future. They have been going backwards and forwards in time to do this. They are suspended in the time cycle as they do this. So what they perceive as being your equivalent of one hour could be as long as 74 thousand years.
Q: (L) So they haven’t been here for 300 thousand years?
A: They originally set up circumstances for their benefit 309 thousand years ago, however, they have been using the particular bracketed period of the 74 thousand year period alter things in all the various ways mentioned earlier.
The idea of a battle having been fought over the human race is a very ancient idea expressed in many religious parables:
Q: (L) What was the true event behind the story of the mark of Cain?
A: Advent of jealousy.
Q: (L) What occurred to allow jealousy to enter into human interaction?
A: Lizard takeover.
Q: (L) Wasn’t the Lizard takeover an event that occurred at the time of the fall of Eden?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was this story of Cain and Abel part of that takeover?
A: Symbolism of story.
Q: (L) This was symbolic of the Lizzie takeover, the advent of jealousy, and the attitude of brother against brother, is that correct?
A: Partly. The mark of Cain means the “jealousy factor” of change facilitated by Lizard takeover of Earth’s vibrational frequency. Knot on spine is physical residue of DNA restriction deliberately added by Lizards. See?
Q: (L) Okay, Jan is going to move her hand up my back and you tell her when to stop at the knot.
A: Okay.
Q: (L) You mean the [area of the] occipital ridge?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the configuration of the spine and skull prior to this addition?
A: Spine had no ridge there. Jealousy emanates from there, you can even feel it.
Q: (L) Do any of these emotions that we have talked about that were generated by DNA breakdown, were any of these related to what Carl Sagan discusses when he talks about the Reptilian brain?
A: In a roundabout way.
Q: (L) Okay, at the time this mark of Cain came about, were there other humans on the planet that did not have this configuration?
A: It was added to all simultaneously.
Q: (L) How did they physically go about performing this act? What was the mechanism of this event, the nuts and bolts of it?
A: Are you ready? DNA core is as yet undiscovered enzyme relating to carbon. Light waves were used to cancel the first ten factors of DNA by burning them off. At that point, a number of physical changes took place including knot at top of spine. Each of these is equally reflected in the ethereal.
Q: (L) Well, the question I do have is, how many people were there on the planet and did they have to take each one and do this individually? … There were [however] many people on the planet, how did they effect this change on all of them?
A: Light wave alteration.
Q: (L) And light waves, actual light waves, affect DNA?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) What was the origin of the light waves?
A: Our center. … Our realm. STO.
Q: (L) So, how did the Lizzies use the light from the Service to Others realm …
A: They used sophisticated technology to interrupt light frequency waves.
Q: (L) Well, what I am getting out of this that you are saying from what you are not saying is that it was almost like, well, was there a battle and you guys lost?
A: Yes.
[…]
Q: (T) Now, another force in what we term as the past, defeated you and used the power of the light in order to alter us in different ways, is this correct?
A: Yes. Now understand this: It is all part of natural grand cycle.
Q: (L) If this is all a part of a natural grand cycle, and correct me if I am wrong here, it almost seems as if you guys, the good guys, and the other bad guys, that you just really kind of go at it just for fun, is that true?
A: No.
Q: (L) But you say it is a natural thing or part of a natural grand cycle. Is this natural grand cycle just part of the interaction between light and darkness which just simply must be?
A: Yes. We are at “front line” of universe’s natural system of balance. That is where one rises to before reaching total union of “The One”. 6th level.
[…]
Q : (T) Now, the battle you had with the other side …
A: Are having.
Q: (T) This battle goes on … do you have the light power back?
A: [We] Never lost it, you did.
Q: (T) Okay, I guess that for us the Lizzies are the main force even though they have others on their side …
A: Yes.
Q: (T) They took our light, not yours?
A: Not against you. Currently in union with you.
Q: (T) So we are but one battle in the universe in an overall, ongoing struggle?
A: Yes. Balance is natural. Remember, it’s all just lessons in the grand cycle.
Q: (L) I am really curious … when you guys and the Lizzies go to it, what do you do? I mean, you obviously don’t shoot guns at each other and you don’t have tanks …
A: Too complicated for you to possibly understand because you are not at 4th level yet.
Q: (J) When you are fighting, is it any way at all possible for us to detect the battle?
A: First: We don’t “fight.” Second, yes; it’s nature as in meteorology and earth changes.
Q: (T) Your form of confrontation takes the form of physical changes in the atmosphere and environment of the planet?
A: And in space.
Q: (T) But that is how we detect it? The more activity, the more conflict is going on?
A: Remember, we are the light. They are the dark. We are both high level thought forms reflected at all levels of reality.
Q: (T) So, what we perceive, then, is what comes through to third density, which is not what we would perceive if we were looking at it from fourth or fifth or sixth.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Isn’t it a little unfair for you guys, at sixth level, to take on the Lizzies at only fourth level?
A: The “Lizzies” are the 4th level representatives of the forces of the darkness not the 6th level, and you are 3rd level representatives.
Q: (L) Is there a sixth-level representative of the forces of darkness?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what is this sixth-level representative known as, or called, or look like or whatever?
A: Orion in your “neighborhood.”
Q: (L) The Orions are sixth-level STS beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are they like you, thought forms?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they ever appear in physical matter?
A: Can.
Q: (L) And they are the driving force that controls the Lizzies?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is there some intermediary between the sixth level Orions and the fourth-level Lizzies, such as a fifth-level force or being?
A: 5th level is contemplation zone for both “sides”.
Q: (L) Does that mean that at the contemplation level that there is no activity? (J) Is it like a “time out?”
A: Close. Balancer.
Q: (L) Is there a third-level representative of the forces of the light?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Who or what are they?
A: Don’t exist on your planet.
Q: (L) Do they have a planet of their own?
A: Have quadrillions of them.
Q: (L) Well, this is beginning to sound like we are in pretty bad shape here. This is like the Siberia of the universe as Gurdjieff said.
A: The Universe is infinitely huge.
Q: (L) If there are planets with STO beings …
A: Some look like you.
So we see that thinking about the takeover and manipulation of humanity in third-density terms of a battle is not quite the issue in the cosmic terms of warfare. And it is in these terms that we need to begin to think. It is in fourth-density terms that we will come to understand how truly knowledge protects.
March 11, 1995
Q: (L) At one point we were told that time was an illusion that came into being at the time of the fall in Eden, and this was said in such a way that I inferred that there were other illusions put into place at that time …
A: Time is an illusion that works for you because of your altered DNA state.
Q: (L) Okay, what other illusions?
A: Monotheism, the belief in one separate, all powerful entity.
Q: (T) Is “separate” the key word in regard to monotheism?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is another one of the illusions?
A: The need for physical aggrandizement.
Q: (L) What is another of the illusions?
A: Linear focus.
Q: (L) Anything else at this time?
A: Unidimensionality.
Q: (L) The veil … (J) The perception of only one dimension … (L) Were these illusions programmed into us genetically through our DNA?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Can you tell us a little bit about how these illusions are enforced on us, how they are perceived by us?
A: If someone opens a door, and behind it you see a pot of gold, do you worry whether there is a poisonous snake behind the door hidden from view, before you reach for the pot of gold?
Q: (L) What does the gold represent?
A: Temptation to limitation.
[…]
Q: (L) So what you are saying to us is that the story of the temptation in Eden was the story of humankind being led into this reality as a result of being tempted. So, the eating of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil was …
A: Giving into temptation.
Q: (L) And this was a trick …
A: No! Tricks don’t exist!
Q: (T) Okay, no trick, a trap?
A: No! Traps don’t exist either. Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.
Q: (T) What were we before the “fall?”
A: 3rd density STO.
Q: (T) We are STS at this point because of what happened then?
A: Yes.
[…]
Q: (T) We were third-density STO at that time. Was this after the battle that had transpired? In other words, were we, as a third-density race, literally on our own at that point, as opposed to before?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) The battle was through us as to whether we would walk through this doorway … (L) The battle was fought through us, we were literally the battleground. (T) Was the battle over whether or not we walked through that door?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh Terry, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts!
[…]
Q: (T) This must tie into why the Lizards and other aliens keep telling people that they have given their consent for abduction and so forth. We were STO and now we are STS.
A: Yes, … “when” you went for the gold, you said “hello” to the Lizards and all that that implies.
Q: (T) … By going for the gold, we became STS beings because going for the gold was STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And, in doing so, we ended up aligning ourselves with the fourth-density Lizard Beings …
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Because they are fourth-density beings and they have a lot more abilities than we at third density …
A: You used to be aligned with 4th density STO.
Q: (T) And we were third-density STO. But, by going for the gold we aligned ourselves with fourth-density STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And by doing so we gave fourth-density STS permission to do whatever they wish with us?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, when they tell us that we gave them permission to abduct us, it is this they are referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (J) Go back to what they said before: “Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.”(T) We, as the human race, used our free will to switch from STO to STS.
(L) So, at some level we have chosen the mess we are in and that is the super ancient legend of the fallen angel, Lucifer. That is us. We fell by falling into that door, so to speak, going after the pot of gold, and when we fell through the door, the serpent bit us!
A: But this is a repeating syndrome.
Q: (L) Is it a repeating syndrome just for the human race or is it a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation?
A: It is the latter.
Q: (L) Is this a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation simply because it is the cyclic nature of things? Or is it as the Indians call it, Maya?
A: Either or.
So, we find that there is a huge element of free will involved in making the choice to “fall.” The only problem is, the consequences of this choice were not understood due to a lack of knowledge. Another thing that is generally misunderstood is the possibilities of living in a state of third-density STO. It is clearly not the same as living in third-density STS in a lot of ways! The problem seems to have been that the effects of the material universe – entering into a third-density physical body for purposes of learning and more rapid development – is the pot of gold that humanity reached for.
October 22, 1994
Q: (L) Can a spiritual being become entrapped in physical matter?
A: It’s possible but very unlikely.
Q: (L) Are human beings entrapped in physical matter?
A: By choice.
Q: (L) Why did they make this choice?
A: To experience physical sensations. It was a group mind decision.
Q: (L) Who was in charge of the group?
A: The group. […] Everything that exists in all realms of the universe can experience existence in one of only two ways. That would be defined as a long wave cycle and a short wave cycle. Going back to your previous question about why humans are “entrapped” in physical existence, which, of course, is voluntary and chosen, this was due to the desire to change from the long wave cycle experience of completely – what you would call – ethereal or spiritual existence, to the short wave cycle of what you call physical existence. The difference is that a long wave cycle involves only very gradual change in evolution in a cyclical manner. Whereas a short wave cycle involves a duality. And this is the case with souls in physical bodies as is experienced on this earth plane because the soul experiences an ethereal state for half the cycle and a physical state for the other half of the cycle. While these halves are not measured in time the way you measure time, the totality of experience is equal in each half. The necessity to form the short wave cycle was brought about through nature through the natural bounds of the universe when the group mind of souls chose to experience physicality as opposed to a completely ethereal existence.
The key term in the above remarks is “desire.” The group desired to change to a cycle that includes physical existence. Now, the question becomes: why would this be seen as desirable? The Cassiopaeans have said that this was because the physical life experience of duality was seen to provide:
An increase in relative energy which speeds up the learning process of the soul and all of its one dimensional and two dimensional interactive partners. In other words, flora and fauna, minerals, etc. All experience growth and movement towards reunion at a faster rate on the cycle through this short wave cycle physical/ethereal transfer.
So, we see that this desire for the gold was also a desire to change the rate of movement towards reunion with the One. Of course, it was thought that this could be done in a safe and moderated manner. The dangers of physical existence were not fully appreciated:
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) Did, at any time, the human race live for a long time in an Edenic state, where they were able to use bodies and still have a spiritual connection?
A: Yes. But not long. No addiction takes long to close the circle.
Q: (L) So, mankind was addicted to pleasuring the self?
A: Became quickly.
But that this was a progression over aeons is made clear in the following:
June 24, 2000
Q: (L) A reader writes: “I can’t reconcile the idea of our being trapped or lured – by sensuality – into a physical state with the idea that we have progressed through the vegetative and animal states.” This is a good question. It seems that the energy of creation has progressed through the vegetative and animal states, that animals can graduate to third density and become human, just as humans can graduate to fourth density. How do we reconcile this with the idea that human souls were entrapped into third-density bodies from fourth density, by the Lizards? Are we talking about two different functions? Two different groups?
A: Humans were not entrapped by the “Lizards.”
Q: (B) We volunteered!(L) Well, they did say that the Lizards were waiting for the right soul matrix to “step in.” So, we were the right soul matrix and we stepped into these engineered bodies that the Lizards created. That’s what you said. So, how do we reconcile us stepping into these engineered third-density bodies with soul evolution through the vegetative and animal states?
A: If you look more closely at the material, it was not stated that the consciousness levels currently represented by humans and many others “stepped into” anything in particular but PHYSICALITY. Individual consciousness units stepped into different physical forms. Some “stepped” in as humans right off the bat, and some chose otherwise. It is simply that the “choice” to experience physicality in many forms, was simultaneous, though different “units” have participated in different ways at different stages, rather than in a linear progression.
This same idea has been expressed by the Cassiopaeans in terms of the Big Bang as being this emergence of consciousness into physicality rather than the beginning of the physical universe in Darwinian terms.
October 18, 1994
Q: (L) Is there only one ultimate creator of the universe?
A: All is one. And one is all.
Q: (L) From the one what was the first division?
A: Mass division and disbursement.
Q: (L) Was this simultaneous?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was this what we refer to as the Big Bang?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there any reference to this event in terms of time?
A: Always.
Q: (L) Can we say that all that exists in the material universe is, say, “x” number of years old?
A: No. It is the eternal now. Not only did happen, is happening and going to happen. The expanded presence.
We can also think of this process of stepping into matter in terms of the story of the Prodigal Son. In this story, the young man took his inheritance and went to a distant country where he wasted his fortune in reckless and loose living. And, it just so happened that at the same time that he ran out of money, a terrible famine came upon the land and he was unable to make his way by working. He then attached himself to a citizen of that country who set him to work tending the pigs, and he ended up eating with the pigs. Then, he came to himself and realized that even his father’s servants were better off than he, and he decided to go home and beg his father’s forgiveness and offer to be a servant.
So, he went home. But, while he was a far way off, his father saw him and ran to meet him, and embraced him with pity and tenderness, made the feast, and so forth. You know the story: the fatted calf and all that.
Well, what we are learning here is that the human race is a fragmented soul unit and this story is about us. We are the Prodigal Son, we are Lucifer, the fallen angel, we are Toto and Dorothy carried to Oz by the tornado because we desired to speed things up. And, the image of the son wasting all his wealth is the description of the fragmenting of the being of which each of us is a part.
But Oz, the distant country, the realms of physical reality – they exist as part of the cyclical nature of the Cosmos and is represented in the many ancient depictions of God as a two-faced being. The word matter is related to mother, and the physical universe is the great womb of the cosmos, or Prime Creator. Into which the sperm or creative consciousness of the Prime Creator is disbursed, and from which can be born the sons of God. Matter is not evil, though from our perspective we may view our experiences here as evil.
These ideas are not new; in the past, many have suggested them in one form or another. The outline of these stories is that during the times before humankind on Earth, there was much experimentation with forms that could be used for the development of consciousness. As this activity proceeded, many souls became fascinated by their own thought creations. They wished to better understand the three dimensions they had manifested and there was a rush to inhabit these physical expressions.
Many souls entered into plants and animals for the sheer joy of experience. As they did so, they found that their force was drawn within and concentrated in the periphery of the inhabited body. This created a uniquely intense experience so that it was sought and repeated over and over again. As this was repeated, it caused a reaction in the spiritual energies of the souls that crystallized in three dimensions. This crystallization became a sort of veil between consciousness and soul energy. As these souls forgot their source, they created energy imbalances by acting in ways that completely disregarded the free will and choice of others.
This was Earth prior to modern man. And here is where the story gets interesting. The result of the imbalance created by separation of consciousness and soul energy was the cycle of reincarnation. It is revealed by certain esoteric sources that a group of beings not engaged in this activity of physical existence sought to create a means to heighten the energies and perceptions of those who were entrapped in this cycle.1 A physical form was directly manifested to accommodate this purpose, and this physical form was modern man. And here, of course, is where it gets tricky as well due to all the inversions and distortion of the events by those with less than our best interests at heart. Apparently, this directly manifested creation is the one that was taken over and altered. This resulted in the legends of the Fall.
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) Well, then how did mankind come to be here?
A: Combination of factors. Numerous souls desired physical existence then was altered by three forces including principally Lizards through Grays, Nephalim and Orion union.
[…]
Q: (L) You said numerous souls desired physical existence. When the numerous souls did this, how did physical existence come to be?
A: First was apelike.
Q: (L) And then what happened? Did these apelike beings just pop into the air? What did the souls do with these apelike beings?
A: Souls altered them by transfer.
Q: (L) Transfer of what?
A: Souls into seeded bodies. Orion Union was first [to put souls] into Neanderthal. … Put humans there for incubation process.
Q: (L) Were altered ape embryos put back into ape females for gestation?
A: No. Souls only.
Q: (L) They put the souls into the ape bodies?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Did the soul’s presence in the ape body cause its genetics and DNA to change?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) They entered into living creatures on this planet to experience 3D reality and by entering in caused mutation?
A: Yes.
[…]
Q: (L) Where did the souls come from that entered into the bodies on the planet Earth? Were they in bodies on other planets before they came here?
A: Not this group.
Q: (L) Were they just floating around in the universe somewhere?
A: In union with the One. Have you heard the super ancient legend of Lucifer, the fallen angel?
Q: (L) Who is Lucifer?
A: You. The human race.
Q: (L) Are the souls of individual humans the parts of a larger soul?
A: Yes. Close. The One. All who have fallen must learn “the hard way.”
Q: (L) Are you saying that the act of wanting to experience physical reality is the act of falling?
A: You are members of a fragmented soul unit.
Q: (L) What is it about wanting to be physical is a fall?
A: Pleasure for the self.
At a later time, we came back to this in more detail:
August 28, 1999
Q: Well, this is one of the problems I am … trying to … understand is, prior to the Fall in Eden, mankind lived in a fourth-density state. Is that correct?
A: Semi/sort of.
Q: Please be more specific.
A: 4th density in another realm, such as time/space continuum, etc.
Q: Okay, so this realm changed, as a part of the cycle, various choices were made: the human race went through the door after the gold, so to speak, and became aligned with the Lizzies … This resulted in a number of effects: the breaking up of the DNA, the burning off of the first ten factors of DNA, the separation of the hemispheres of the brain …
A: Only reason for this: you play in the dirt, you’re gonna get dirty.
Q: What was the motivating factor for playing in the dirt? What essential thing occurred? You said once that it was “desire based imbalance.” What was it a desire for?
A: Increased physicality.
Q: What was the objective sought for in this desire for increased physicality?
A: Sensate.
Q: How was sensate experienced so that these beings had an idea that they could get more if they increased their physicality?
A: Not experienced, demonstrated.
Q: Demonstrated how, by who?
A: Do you not know?
Q: It was demonstrated by the Lizzies?
A: Basically.
Q: Demonstrated in what way? Did they say: “Here, try this!” Or did they demonstrate by showing or doing?
A: Closer to the latter.
Q: They were doing, experimenting, playing, and saying: “Look, we are doing this, it’s so great, come here and try it.”
A: Not really. More like: “You could have this.”
Q: What seemed to be so desirable about this increased physicality when they said “You can have this?”
A: Use your imagination!
Q: Was there any understanding or realization of any kind that increased physicality could be like Osiris lured into his own coffin by Set? That they would then slam the lid shut and nail him in?
A: Obviously, such understanding was lacking.
Q: Sounds like a pretty naive bunch! Does the lack of this understanding reflect a lack of knowledge?
A: Of course. But more, it is desire getting in the way of …
[…]
Q: Okay. The Fall occurred. It seems like, and some of the archaeological studies indicate, that for many thousands of years there was a peaceful existence and a nice agrarian society where the goddess or female creative forces were worshipped. At least, this is what a lot of present-day books are proposing …
A: No. These events took place 309000 years ago, as you measure it. This is when the first prototype of what you call “modern man” was created. The controllers had the bodies ready, they just needed the right soul matrix to agree to “jump in.”
[…]
Q: So, was there any kind of worship of God, or religious activity in this pre-Fall state; this Edenic, semi-fourth-density state?
A: No need when one has a clue.
Q: … Okay, we had these guys, they fell from Eden, but they were still fairly close to the original concepts, in some terms. Once they jumped into the physical bodies, as you put it, what was their level of conceptualization regarding the universe? Did they still retain some understanding at that point?
A: Kind of like the understanding one has after severe head trauma, vis a vis your normal understanding in your current state.
Q: So, they were traumatized; they may have had bits and pieces of ideas and memories, but they may also have lost a great deal altogether. There may have even been a sort of coma state of mankind for many millennia. But, after they woke up, with the bits and pieces floating around in their heads, they may have begun to attempt to piece it all together. So, they started putting it all back together. What was the first thing they put together regarding the cosmos around them?
A: Sex.
Q: What did they decide about sex? I mean, sex was there. They were having sex. Is that it? Or, did they understand the cosmos as sex?
A: More like the former. After all, that is what got you guys in this mess in the first place! Just imagine the sales job if you can: “Look how much fun this is! Want to try it?!? Oops, sorry, we forgot to tell you, you cannot go back!”
Q: I really fail to understand – and I know it is a big issue that has been hinted at and alluded to, and outright claims have been made regarding sex in all religions and mythologies – but I fail to understand the mechanics of how this can be the engineering of a fall. What precisely are the mechanics of it? What energy is generated? How is it generated? What is the conceptualization of the misuse of this energy, or the use of the energy?
A: It is simply the introduction of the concept of self-gratification of a physical sort.
Q: On many occasions you have said that the ideal thing is to have perfect balance of physicality and ethereality. This has been said on a number of occasions. Now, I don’t understand how it can be that gratification of a physical body can be the mechanics by which one is entrapped? Is it not gratifying to look at something beautiful? Is it wrong, sinful, or a form of a fall, to look at beauty, to hear something beautiful such as music, or to touch something that is sensually delightful such as a piece of silk or the skin of a loved one? These various things that the human being derives pleasure from very often elevate them to a spiritual state.
A: Possession is the key. In STS, you possess. … If you move through the beautiful flowers, the silk, the skin of another, but do not seek to possess …
Q: It seems to me that it is possible to experience all of these things, including sex, without the need or desire to possess; only to give. In which case, I still don’t understand how it can be a mechanism for a fall.
A: If it is desired, then the mechanism is not to give. Do you eat a piece of chocolate cake because it is good to give to the stomach?
Q: Well, you could!
A: No, in STS, which is your realm do not forget, one gives because of the pleasant sensation which results.
Q: Could it not be said that, if everything that exists is part of God, including the flesh, that if one gives to the flesh, without being attached to the giving, that it could be considered a giving to the all?
A: Explain the process.
Q: For example: there are some people who like to suffer, because they believe that the flesh is sinful. That is a big thing that the Lizzies have instituted. For centuries they have wanted people to suffer, and they have made this big deal about sex and anything that might be considered pleasant or desirable should be denied, and that a person should suffer, and revel in their suffering. And, actually, making a person …
A: If one seeks to suffer, they do so in expectation of future reward. They desire to possess something in the end.
Q: What I am saying is: if a person can simply be, in the doing and being of who and what they are, in simplicity; to become involved in doing everything as a meditation, or as a consecration, whether they are walking down the street and being at one with the air, the sunshine, the birds and trees and other people; in this state of oneness, doesn’t that constitute a giving to the universe as giving oneself up as a channel for the universe to experience all these things?
A: Not if one is “feeling this oneness.”
Q: We are what we are. Nature is nature. Progression is progression. And if people would just relax and be who and what they are in honesty, and do what is according to their nature without violating the free will of others, that this is a more pure form of being than doing things out of any feeling of expectation, or desire. To just be, not want … just be?
A: Yes, but STS does not do that.
Q: (A) From which I draw conclusions: if there’s STS around us, we cannot just …
A: You are all STS. If you were not, you would not be where you are.
Q: (A) There are those who are happy in the STS mode; and there are those who are trying to get out of the STS mode …
A: STO candidate.
Q: (A) These STO candidates cannot just simply be, even theoretically, because then, STS would eat them.
A: No.
Q: Why not?
A: STS does not eat according to protocol. … STS “eats” whatever it wants to, if it is able.
Q: That’s what we said. If you are STO in an STS world, you are basically defenseless and they eat you.
A: No.
Q: Why? What makes STO unavailable or inedible?
A: Frequency resonance not in sync.
Q: (A) But then, that would mean that all these people who are saying that we need just to love everything and everybody, are right. They just be, and love, don’t do anything, just give everything to the Lizzies … they are right!
A: No, because motivation is STS.
Q: How is the motivation to love everything and everybody, and to just give, STS?
A: Feels good.
Q: So, they want to do it because it feels good?
A: Want is an STS concept.
Q: So, you seem to be suggesting that the real trick is to just become non-attached to anything and anybody, do nothing, and just dissolve into nothing? No thought, no want, no do, no be, no anything!
A: If you are STS, that does not fit, but, if you did exactly that, you would reincarnate in an STO realm, where such energy does fit.
Q: But, if you have become nothing, how do you reincarnate? And, when you say reincarnate, that implies being in a body!
A: You do not become nothingness.
Q: But, being incarnated means being in a body?
A: No.
Q: You mean moving into a realm that does not necessarily mean being in a body?
A: Close. But 4th density STO is partially physical. Does not consume nor possess.
[…]
Q: So, prior to this time, this prior Edenic state …
A: Was more like 4th density.
Q: But that implies that there was some level of physicality. Was there physicality in the sense of bodies that look like present-day humans?
A: Not quite.
Q: What did these pre-fall …
A: Cannot answer because it is too complex for you to understand.
Q: Does this mean that the bodies we possibly would move into, or morph into, as fourth-density beings, assuming that one does, would also be too complex for us to understand? You are saying that this sort of fourth-density pre-Fall state, in terms of the physical bodies, is too complex to understand. If going back to fourth density is anything like coming from fourth density, does that mean that what we would go back to is something that is too complex to understand? This variability of physicality that you have described?
A: Yes.
Now, I hope that you noted all the references to “feeling” that were put in italics. These are all clues that I am setting in the background for the reader to keep in mind as we move along. But, there is one more thing I want to bring in before we get down to business.
We note that the Cassiopaeans have said the first prototype of modern man was created or engineered 309,000 years ago by genetic mixing with Neanderthal types. The right soul matrix was found, jumped into, thereby altering the DNA with its presence. The reader may enjoy having a look at The Neanderthal Enigma (by James Shreeve 1995), which investigates the strange mystery of the Neanderthals, of whom suddenly disappeared during the appearance of modern man. What happened to them and why is a very great mystery and the terms of understanding this enigma change almost daily. This event is generally dated, by various dating processes, to have occurred 35,000 years ago. However, in the above referenced work there are mysterious appearances of modern type man in several places and times long before this date that are yet to be explained. As soon as you have finished The Neanderthal Enigma, you might want to then read Shattering the Myths of Darwinism by Richard Milton for a better perspective on the issues, though I am not saying that either of them have the answer.
We need to note that there is a difference between what the Cassiopaeans are talking about in terms of a modern type man on Earth, and their story about the appearance of the survivors of the destruction of the planet Kantek (the so-called Aryan-Nordic types).
It is clear, from what the Cassiopaeans have indicated, that the “out of Africa” hypothesis is correct, as far as it goes. Earth may have been populated from the South, but it was “enlightened” from the North – at least in the most recent cycle, of which we are a part.
Everyone agrees that we evolved from more primitive ancestors represented by fossils and traditionally called Homo erectus. The disagreement erupts over where, when, and how. From the critical time period, roughly 400,000 to 100,000 years ago, there is an ambiguous clutter of bones that people have reluctantly agreed to group together and call archaic Homo sapiens, because they don’t know what else to call them. Some scientists also keep a separate bin for the more us-like fossils in the group, producing the exquisite oxymoron “archaic moderns.”
Then Allan Wilson and another Berkely scientist Vincent Sarich got it into their heads to look for clues to the human past not out on the African savanna but among the proteins of living people and primates. … [They claim] that the mutations occur across the millennia at a steady rate, like the ticks of a molecular clock. If this is true, the difference in a given protein in any two species would indicate not only how related they were, but also how much time had elapsed since they shared a common ancestor. …
… The first efforts to create such a genetic history of humanity focused on blood chemistry. Every person alive bears a gene that determines whether his or her blood will be type A, B, O, or AB. Human blood also contains an antigen to destroy invading toxins, which comes in two forms, Rh-positive and Rh-negative. …
… American Indians are virtually all type O. Rh negative blood is found almost exclusively among Europeans and is most prevalent in the Basque people of the Western Pyrenees. Since blood groups are determined by specific, known genes and do not seem to be related much to environmental pressures, they are far more useful in judging the relationships of populations than superficial anatomical characteristics like skin color. If you were to judge by skin color, Africans and Australians would appear to be closely related. When you look at their blood chemistry, however, they turn out to be about as far apart as two human populations can be; their dark skins are merely a shared adaptation to living under a tropical sun. …
… Caucasians and Negroids are more closely related to each other than either is to the third major population grouping, the Mongoloids … [which contains] Australians and American Indians as well as Asians …
… Mitochondrial genes … are inherited only from your mother, who received them from her mother, who got them from her mother, and so on back through a chain of mothers. … If you are male, your mitochondrial lineage will die out no matter how many children you have, unless you have a sister who gives birth to a daughter and continues the line into the future. Unperturbed by the genetic reshuffling going on inside the nucleus with every generation, mitochondrial DNA [lodged in the cellular structures outside the nucleus] serves as a sort of genetic tracer bullet, lighting up the route to the past.
… The only reason one person’s mitochondrial DNA differs from another’s is simply the passage of time [since they had a common ancestor.]
… There [is] very little difference between any two people’s mtDNA, suggesting that everyone’s common ancestor had lived surprisingly recently. … the pattern of variation in mtDNA among the five populations often corresponded to geographic and ethnic origin. … the Old World populations sorted out into two distinct groups: African and non-African, with the African mtDNA types showing much more variation than the non-African ones.
Taken together, [these] results suggested that there had been a recent, single point of origin for the modern human race. There were two ways of determining where that origin had been, and these came in conflict. If the mutations in human mitochondria occur steadily through time, and if more mutations have accumulated in Africa than anywhere else, then Africa should be the homeland whence all populations have spring. [It was] found, however, that the type of human mitochondria most closely related to that of other primates popped up in Asians more frequently than in other populations, suggesting instead that the point of origin was somewhere in Asia. … (Shreve 1995, 57, 58, 59–60, 63, 65)
More research was done and it was shown that:
… A European woman’s mtDNA might resemble an African’s more closely than that of another European. … Humans all over the world are amazingly similar, genetically more alike … than two subspecies of gorilla in Africa that are separated by only a few hundred miles.
… The simplest explanation is that all human races had originated in Africa … The ultimate point of convergence was the same for everyone: a single African woman whose mitochondria gave rise to all existing human types. …
… [I]t would have taken between 140,000 and 290,000 [estimated] years of steadily accumulating mutations to account for the number of variations they found among living Mitochondrial types. …
When Eve was supposed to have lived … the Homo erectus migration out of Africa was already very ancient history … The common ancestor of all non-African people [e.g. white] would be younger still. [This genetically isolated population] remained there [in Africa] for thousands of years … Later, perhaps as recently as 50,000 years ago, this one group must have left Africa, pushing north and east.
On this point the latent conflict between the geneticists and the anthropologists erupted into open war. Unlike the earlier erectus migrants, Eve’s descendants would not have arrived in a humanless landscape. By one estimate, some 1.3 million members of our genus were living on earth 50,000 years ago, a good many of them spread throughout Eurasia. These ancient Eurasians were not demi-apes living in trees; they were our trusted European familiars, the Neandertals, along with other large-brained folk in Asia … And, of course, these older Europeans and Asians were passing Mitochondrial genes down through the generations, spinning on through their daughters and their daughters’ daughters. Then suddenly, all of the lines stopped. … there is no trace of them in modern people. They have simply vanished from the genetic legacy of the human species. …
“If populations representing the earlier inhabitants of Eurasia had contributed to the living human gene pool, we’d expect to find Mitochondrial types around today that are five times more variable,” Stoneking told me. “They just don’t seem to be there.”
…
“The best explanation for why you don’t see these ancient non-African mitochondria is that they are not part of the modern human lineage in the first place,” Stoneking concluded. “In other words, the African people replaced the residents without interbreeding with them.” (Shreeve 1995, 66, 67–68, 69)
Allan Wilson wrote in Science magazine, “Some people don’t like our conclusions.” As Shreve observed, in this case, some people “happened to include the majority of anthropologists alive (p. 70).2
At about the same time the above book was being written, the Cassiopaeans had this to say about the subject:
September 24, 1995
A: Who, or what made you?
Q: (RC) The Creator. (L) Prime Creator.
A: How? And who is Prime Creator?
Q: (L) Everything, I guess.
A: You are “Prime Creator.” Prime Creator manifests in you. But … who was secondary?
Q: (RC) The Sons of God? The Elohim?
A: Who is that? Remember, your various legends are “seen through a veil.”
Q: (L) … Are the Orions these secondary creators?
A: Here comes a shocker for you … one day, in 4th density, it will be your descendants mission to carry on the tradition and assignment of seeding the 3rd density universe, once you have the adequate knowledge!!!
Q: (L) If the Orion STS brought the Celts here, were the Celts, while they lived on Kantek, in the form they are in now?
A: They were lighter in appearance.
Q: (RC) Well, I read that it was the Pleiadians. And the Hebrews were originally the Hoovids who came from Sirius … (L) You have told us on other occasions that the Semitic peoples were remnants of the Atlanteans, and yet they are quite unlike …
A: Whoa!! Wait a minute, let’s not get ahead of ourselves. First things first. What RC said was not entirely factual. Remember, there is much disinformation to weed through.
Q: (RC) What did I say that was not factual?
A: In this part of your 3rd and 4th density universe, specifically your “galaxy” it is the region known as Orion that is the one and only indigenous home of human type beings … reflect on this! Indigenous home base, not sole locator. What you are most in need of review of is the accurate profile of “alien” data.
Q: (RC) I thought that humans originated in Lyra and then a war broke out there and they ended up in Orion.
A: Lyra is not inhabited. There have been homes in all places, but some were/are transitory, and some are not. Pay attention to Orion! This is your ancestral home, and your eventual destination. Here is the absolutely accurately accurate profile of Orion to follow: This is the most heavily populated region of your Milky Way galaxy! This is a region that extends across 3rd and 4th density space for a distance as vast as the distance between your locator and it. There are 3,444 inhabited “worlds” in this region. Some are planets as you know them. Some are artificially constructed planetoids. Some are floating space barges. And some are “satellites.” There are primary homes, traveling stations and incubator laboratories all in 2nd, 3rd and 4th densities. There are overseer zones in 5th and 6th densities. Approximately one half is STO and one half is STS. Together, along with many other colonies, located elsewhere, this is called, in translation, Orion Federation. Orions created grays in 5 varieties, as cybergenetic beings, and installed them on Zeta Reticuli 1, 2, 3, and 4, as well as on 2 planets orbiting Barnard’s Star. The Reptilians also inhabit 6 planets in the Orion region in 4th density, and are owned by the Orion STS as slaves, and, in some cases, pets!!! The name “Orion” is the actual native name, and was brought to Earth directly. Study the legend of the “god” of Orion for parallels.
Q: (L) Are the Orion STS the infamous redheaded Nordic aliens?
A: Yes, and all other humanoid combinations.
Q: (L) Okay, if it started with the Nordic types, and that is where the other humanoid combinations came from, what genetic combinations were used for human beings? Black people, for instance, since they are so unlike Nordics?
A: The Nordic genes were mixed with the gene pool already available on Earth, known as Neanderthal.
Q: (L) What was the genetic combination used to obtain the Oriental races?
A: Orientals come from a region known in your legends as “Lemuria,” and are a previous hybridization from 7 genetic code structures from within Orion Union, designed to best fit the earth climate and cosmic ray environment then existent on Earth.
Q: (L) Okay, what about the Semitic and Mediterranean peoples?
A: Each time a new flock was “planted,” it was engineered to be best suited to the environment where it was planted. Aryans are the only exception, as they had to be moved to Earth in an emergency.
Q: (L) If races are engineered on earth to be “best suited,” what factors are being drawn from or considered regarding the Semitic race?
A: They are not engineered on Earth, but in Orion lab as all others. They were “planted” in the Middle East.
Now, notice this last phrase: “Human types are genetically engineered in Orion labs.” This means that they must use the same mitochondria as the basis, changing and recombining only the nuclear DNA. If this is so, then it would explain why all humans have the same mother. It would also explain why this mother is so recent. But, of course, without admitting to the interference possibility from a quasi-physical higher density – fourth density – these problems may never be understood. The Cassiopaeans did have something to say about the Neanderthal enigma.
February 11, 1995
Q: (L) What happened to Neanderthal man?
A: Removed by Lizzies to other planets.
Q: (L) Is that removed as in taken off the planet physically?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What planet were they taken to?
A: Others.
[…]
Q: You said that Neanderthal man had been taken by the Lizzies to another planet, now, I don’t want to know what other planet, but I would like to know what state, evolutionary speaking, is Neanderthal man in at present, as we measure time?
A: No progress, still the same.
[…]
Q: When did the Aryans invade India?
A: 8243 years ago.
Q: Who was there before that?
A: Asian tribes and number 3 prototype.
Q: What is a number 3 prototype?
A: Known as Neanderthal man.
Q: And what are we?
A: Number 4 types c and d. Translation into English comprehension.
[…]
Q: (L) Now, you said that the Nephilim were seeded on a planet called D’Ankhiar, as were human beings. When you said we were seeded there, what did you mean?
A: Was proper environment for molecularization.
Q: (L) Are you saying that the physical bodies on planet Earth, the various types of mankind such as Neanderthal, Cro-Magnon, Australopithicus etc., were generated on that other planet and then brought here?
A: Yes.
[…]
Q: (L) Okay, I had a question I wanted to get in: you said that Neanderthal man was taken off the Earth, and Cro-Magnon man suddenly appeared. Is this Cro-Magnon man really Kantekkian man?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Well, they supposedly existed side by side on the Earth for some time. Did they intermix or intermarry?
A: Marriage?!
Q: (L) Well, you know what I mean! Genetic intermixing.
A: Can you picture a Neanderthal marriage?
Q: (L) Yeah! The old club ‘em and drag ‘em off by the hair ceremony! (T) It was a ritual … handed down father to son along with the club …
And, of course, the arrival of Cro-Magnon – and his amazing cave art and the sudden impetus to civilization will never be understood either without this perspective though obviously, from the above remark, there is something even more strange about Cro-Magnon.
Clearly, the issue of what kind of man was man before the Fall comes to mind. We already have an idea that he was not precisely fully physical in third-density terms, but was yet somewhat physical. Apparently, being a third-density STO being in alignment with fourth-density STO is an altogether different experience than being a third-density STS being with the concomitant compartmentalization and contraction of being that results in separation and conflict. But, at one point, when discussing these matters with the Cassiopaeans, some clues were given:
April 8, 2000
Q: Now, I have this book entitled Arktos. He [Joscelyn Godwin] says something here that echoes a remark you once made. He writes: “It is a very remarkable thing that enlightenment seems to have come from the north against the common prejudice that the Earth was enlightened as it was populated from south to north. The Scythians are one of the most ancient nations; the Chinese descend from them. The Atlanteans themselves, more ancient than the Egyptians, descend from them.” You said that the civilizing influence came from the north to the south. Of course, all the standard texts claim that civilization came from south to north, starting in Mesopotamia. Now, getting …
A: Okay, just a minute here. Thinking Mesopotamia is the beginning is like thinking that the beginning starts at the 12th chapter.
Q: I know that! The problem is: finding artifacts. I’ve been searching and digging, and I find a little bit here and there, but my God! Either nothing survived …
A: Artifacts have a limited shelf life!
This remark could be taken a couple of ways, though I didn’t notice it at the time. On the one hand, it could refer to the fact that few organic artifacts survive the ravages of time; on the other hand, it could refer to the fact that, even if such artifacts are found, they disappear rather quickly, as has been noted time and again, due to academic denial that they can exist. And, in some cases, it seems that direct action has been taken by the academic community to remove from the shelf what does not fit their theories.
Q: Exactly! The problem is that they’ve got specimens of humanoid types from 100 to 200 thousand years ago, and even further, but no specimens of modern man that are that old. Why is this so? Are they just looking in the wrong places?
A: Specimens survive by sheer luck.
Q: So, they are lucky that they have any specimens at all. Who knows, when they find a very ancient specimen of a modern type human, they won’t believe it – it will be called an anomaly! There are artifacts that are extremely ancient, which give evidence of the presence of modern type man, and they just simply argue themselves to death over them.
A: Yes.
Q: But, during the time Neanderthal man was on the Earth, did he live alongside modern man?A: Yes. Except modern type man was different then.
Q: In what ways?
A: DNA and psycho/electrical frequencies.
Q: Does this mean that their physical appearance was different from what we consider to be modern man?
A: Radiance.
Q: What do you mean “radiance?”
A: You find out!
Q: Oh, that’s interesting. Well, there are legends that the Northern people had light in their veins. Very ancient belief. Is this what you are referring to?
A: Maybe.
Q: Was this light related to the hemoglobin level, the iron level in the blood?
A: Maybe.
Q: Did they have a much higher iron level in their blood?
A: Possibly … .
Q: Okay, part of the ancient legend of Arktos was that, in very ancient times the Earth was different because it had a vertical axial orientation. This contributed to the Golden Age or the Edenic condition. Is this, in fact, one of the conditions that existed in the Golden Age?
A; Well, yes, but still some puzzle pieces needed.
Q: I noticed also that there are several ballpark type figures given for the precessional cycles. Apparently there is not a whole lot of agreement as to how long this cycle is, exactly. I notice that, if you divide 309,882 years by 12, you come out right in the ballpark of 12 precessional cycles. Is this the reason that the zodiac was set up with twelve signs or houses?
A: Related, yes.
Q: Now, since all the recent conjecture about the precessional cycle has really gone all over the place, it is my thought that the real reason for the ancient clues about this cycle are to inform us that the length of 12 of these cycles is a grand cycle, and that this is the big clue.
A: Needs some study by you.
Q: One of the interesting things about this Northern civilizational factor is that one of the hallmarks of the Aryan attitude is the male dominated religion. When did the masculine religion take over? Was this always the tendency or leaning of the Aryan group?
A: Involves more than religion. Religion is the facilitator.
Q: Facilitator of what?
A: Customary psycho/social habitué.
Q: Customary to whom?A: Those whom you refer to as Aryans.
Q: Where did they acquire the habit of a masculine oriented religion? Everybody else was worshipping the goddess in one form or another. But this male dominated theology was the distinguishing characteristic of the Northern peoples. Where did they come up with this?
A: Originated on home planet.
Q: Kantek?
A: For all intents and purposes.
Q: Okay, when they were on their home planet, why did they develop a masculine religion as opposed to a feminine one, considering the fact that women are the source of life, in certain terms?
A: In your density, masculinism/feminism is essentially a roll of “the dice.” Remember, at higher levels gender is nonexistent.
Q: Well, the problem I am having here is this: the masculine religion is monotheistic, essentially.
A: In your references.
Q: The Aryans always thought they were better than everybody else …
A: They were more advanced than the company they found themselves amongst.
Q: But then, as far as I can tell, the Hebrew monotheism is also derived from the Aryan, monotheistic, male dominated religion. It then fathered Christianity, and that has been the whole patriarchal, kill-’em-all-and-let-God-sort-’em-out war mongering thing under which we have lived for over 2,000 years. This is the Western, European mind … it came from the Aryans, from the North; it was the so-called civilizing influence in nearly every respect that you can track. The cohesiveness and dominance of this type of thinking was able to civilize, but then civilization involves dominance, killing, war, territory, the Hitler scene, the whole nine yards. All of this is antithetical to all that you promote as far as being desirable. Yet, you have said that you were in contact with the Northern peoples for millennia. Yes, Cassiopeia is a northern constellation, and probably figured in the early myths of these peoples in ways we cannot know, but the whole thing is that they represent all that is STS.
A: But so do you, so then why did we contact you?
Q: Well. I don’t buy into that whole monotheistic, dominator, warmongering, make everybody conform to one way of thinking head-trip!
A: So, you think all individuals conformed then, or is it the soul that counts in the final analysis?
Q: Okay, obviously all individuals are different, and some did not conform then, either.
A: And neither do you.
Q: Point taken. I am just having a hard time with this. I wish you would just tell me! Who interacted with these Aryans to give them this male dominated monotheistic idea that they then sought to impose on every other human being on the planet – and are still trying!
A: Interactions were transdensity.
So, having gone through this brief history of mankind, and why we are here in the first place, we come back again to that most interesting remark: desire based imbalance led to material existence. It seems that it was an okay desire, because it was based on wanting to accelerate the process of reunion with the One. But we see that this wanting to grow up so fast was like the Prodigal Son who wanted to take his inheritance and travel to a far country.
Things in the far country were not quite what the Son thought they were. Everything had a price, and he soon spent all his inheritance – lost his original status – and found himself enslaved to live with and care for the pigs.
This reference to living and eating with pigs has a deep esoteric significance. The pig is the animal of Set. It is said to represent the darker side of mankind that does not strive toward the light. These are those “soul units” who choose to remain as matter and never seek to wake up (see the discussion of psychopathy in volume 7). More than this, the pig represents what was desired in a very deep way, as we will soon discover. You see, the pig is one of the few animals that sweats. This characteristic of the pig – that it exudes water through its skin as humans do – represents an esoteric symbol that is an amazing disjecta membra of long vanished scientific knowledge. And this knowledge relates to the very thing we are going to be discussing: feelings.
Remember, it was the desire to feel, in a very specific sense, that led to the Fall. And it is this that we are going to carefully examine to determine if such an idea can be true.
Read again the following, carefully:
Q: (L) Did, at any time, the human race live for a long time in an Edenic state, where they were able to use bodies and still have a spiritual connection?
A: Yes. But not long. No addiction takes long to close the circle.
Q: (L) So, mankind was addicted to pleasuring the self?
A: Became quickly.
In the previous section I made the remark that we are made addicts inside our own skins. This might have sounded like hyperbole to some readers, and a mere analogy to others. I would like to make it clear that it is neither. It is a cold, hard fact. We are addicts to the molecules of our emotions and, by extension, to those things and people who provide our fix by stimulating the chemicals to be released.
Terry Burnham and Jay Phelan write in Mean Genes:
Most of us would feel cheated if we bought a car or a microwave and it came without instructions. But our most important possessions – body and mind – come with no such guide, leaving us searching haphazardly for satisfaction: a dollop of exercise, thirteen minutes of sex, a Happy Meal, a cocktail, and a sport-utility vehicle. …
When we drive a car or operate a microwave, our orders are carried out exactly as we command. The machine doesn’t talk back or have an agenda of its own – at least not yet. On the other hand, if we tell our brain, as part of a New Year’s resolution, to cut down on fatty foods, it most likely will let out a hearty laugh and continue to set off bells and whistles of approval when the dessert cart rolls around.
Our brain, for better or worse, is not an obedient servant. It has a mind of its own. Imagine that you are two things: a personality who has likes, dislikes, desires, and dreams. But inside your body there is also a “machine,” your brain, that processes commands and acts on those likes, dislikes, desires, and dreams. It fights you all the time. And it usually wins.
… Why do we have battles over controlling our own behavior? And why are these battles so hard to win? Are cats and dogs obsessed with fighting addictions, controlling their weight, and remaining faithful to their mates? Do chimpanzees regularly resolve to be less selfish?
In a creepy campfire legend, a baby-sitter alone in a house receives increasingly menacing phone calls. Terrified, she contacts the police, who put a tap on her phone. After the boogieman calls again, the cops frantically phone her, screaming, “We’ve traced the call. It’s coming from inside the house! Get out!”
Similarly, the source of our self-control problems lies within us … but we can’t get out or leave them behind. Manipulative media, greedy businesses, and even our friends and family play roles in nurturing our demons. Still, most of our self-control problems stem from our impulses to do things that are bad for us or for those whom we love.
A visit to any bookstore reveals the nature of our struggles. Glancing at the bestsellers, we can see what’s on people’s minds. There are dozens of books on finding love, losing weight, and creating wealth. Conspicuously absent are a host of other topics. Where are the books entitled How to Build a Bigger Beer Gut, Ten Steps to Frivolous Spending, or Nurturing the Infidel Within? (Burnham & Phelan 2000, 1–2)
Even though they are writing in a lighthearted way, these guys aren’t kidding. And it’s even worse than they let on. If the reader will recall the movie The Matrix, they will surely remember the scene of the vast warehouse of human beings suspended in pods filled with a gelatinous fluid, connected to a vast energy storage system by many feeder lines embedded deep in their flesh. These were the humans in the Matrix. Their reality was totally illusory, created and maintained by a giant computer that coordinated all the individual realities so that their dreams were, in a sense, as One. And through the experiences that were being fed to them, they generated in their bodies various amounts of power that fed the system itself.
Though this was an allegory – and where the writers came up with the inspiration we don’t know – it is very close to the truth based on what the Cassiopaeans have told us, and supported by corroboration from many sources.
Can we prove it? Nope. But the fact is, no other view of the reality of cosmic connections can be proven either. And this has one thing that the subjective views do not have: empirical evidence. If the reader will take the time to study the matter deeply, to not be afraid to look at the patterns of Rubik’s Cubes and see how chaotic they are, and to work with trying to align the colors into coherent patterns, the evidence will gradually lead to a perspective that is objective, not based on faith and feelings.
We see some of the more terrible things the Cassiopaeans have told us, and which we have read about in various reports and exposés of underground bases and truly revolting mind control experiments, in Michael Topper’s (admittedly dense) work:
In the conscious domain of the higher densities, light indeed becomes the overt mediating term, the common coinage and efficient aim – and that both for positive and negative realms. Yet whereas in the positive realms the [mode] is to draw the developing soul toward deep degrees of expansion into light, in the corresponding negative realms the object is, rather, a … development of appropriate mind/body mechanical means of devouring more light, stuffing the light-energy into the voracious hole or constitutional void of emotional lack comprising the negative state of the ego-soul altogether.
The work of the negative being is to determine the formulae, extort and coax the technical keys of force-opening the internal mind/body centers and corresponding energy fields. The negative’s business is to plunder the rich beds of energy-nutriment – the various treasure-troves of the vast creative domains where “loosh” or psychic energy-food is manufactured in abundance.
… Light isn’t inimical to the negative orientation, as is portrayed in our superstitions and folklore; like its positive counterpart, the negative recognizes and overtly values light as sustenance; food for producing integral reactions toward progressively higher alignments. Just as all matter – the food of this dimension – is intellectually understandable as a kind of packaged “light-value” woven in phosphates of the ATP molecule, so light is overtly valued as the energy-essence/lunchbox of the higher densities.
So, whereas higher-density positive entities might be considered light beings, higher density negatives are more like … light eaters.
They are the light eaters, the devourers of light. That’s why they’re associated with darkness, because the light is lapped up into the cavernous black hole of their congenital emptiness, their persistent lack. Light is sucked into the abyss where their heart should be, in order to try to compensate or fill in for the love that isn’t there.
All the massive operations they undertake [throughout the universe] are just a means of “cornering the market” on energy, monopolizing all the known fields of light or light potential. The expanding order they attempt to impose, the totalitarian control over increasingly large numbers of people, is the fantastical and internally self-contradictory project of coercing everything in creation to work for them, to cultivate and keep the fields of their energy reserves and to furnish self-replenishing herds of emotional source-nutriment which can be converted into useful energy or light-capital. Since the negative beings can’t generate an important light-energy source themselves, i.e. the emotional range of energy-values belonging to the heart, they steal the manipulated and artificially regulated emotional reserves of the beings harnessed in thrall to them …
This [relates to] the rumors circulating around about the underground Dulce facilities where aliens have been reported to take infernal baths in vats of liquid stewed with human and animal parts, a kind of diabolic broth of enzymes and hormones they’re supposed to absorb for nutriment through their skin.
… Hormones of the human ductless systems and various kinds of human and animal enzymes, neurotransmitters, lymphocytes and extract of digestive chyle furnishes variable measures of a radiant energy-value; especially the human reproductive system – the specific cells of reproduction are just saturated with subtle energy-charge …
There are in fact multiple uses to which these natural resources of the human system may be put. As grim as it might seem, the aliens perceived to indulge that hormonal baptism are generally biobot replicants, hybrid forms created from genetic tissue of humans, animals and even plants; they have vestigial digestive systems, virtually inoperative because these types of biobot-form follow the general template of the higher dimensional negative beings only in more grounded and stabilized, physical terms.
The higher-dimensional beings in their own context have subtle, vertical filamental axes attached to the subtle nerve-networks of [both the biobots and human beings]. [In humans], these filamental, ethereal straws are drawn into the body through the etheric chakras that connect the body to the higher-density systems. These chakra systems correspond to the clusters of neuropeptide receptors, and it is the objective of the STS forces to stimulate the production of vast amounts of high light energy values contained in these peptides so that they can feed on the energy rich extracts of the human reproductive and glandular structures …
Tremendous concentrations of desirable energy-values, laced with the emotional juices that generate them, are involved in neurotransmitters such as serotonin and dopamine, and in epinephrine/norepinephrine, and other hormones of the sympathetic systems. Chemicals of psychic stress are very charged [whether they are of a blissful nature, or pure unmitigated terror.]
The 4th density consciousness, connected to [the physiology of numerous human beings] by these astro-etheric threads and plexiform webs of control, can send signals to its 3rd density marionettes, generating emotions that force choices that result in any number of activities resulting in enriched feeding. (“Précis on the Good, The Bad, and What Curls Up Under a Rock”)
Now, this idea is most definitely “out there.” Certainly none of us would wish to contemplate such a control system as is allegorized in The Matrix. It’s good Hollywood, but we can leave the theater and go home and be secure in the belief that it is only movie magic. Or can we?
Well, it seems that this is not even a new idea. There are numerous sculptures in medieval churches that are said to represent sinners being punished in Hell or Purgatory. It is thought that they are “visual exhortations to renounce sin.” However, we find that there’s another explanation for these images, given by the teacher of Mark Hedsel in Zelator, which I shall include here with following remarks.
| From the west front of Saint-Pierre, Moissac. 14th century, after Witkowski.Left:Wood engraving of demon grasping a woman.Right: Wood engraving of demons riding on the back of a beggar and a miser. |
‘The first thing we must realize is that the sculptors were not, as we might imagine, portraying a future state in Hell or Purgatory. The images are portrayals of ordinary human beings – of ordinary sinners in life. The woman attacked by reptiles, is a libertine. This is why her private parts and breasts are receiving such attention from the monster-toads, and why the demon who grasps her is being so sexually explicit with the snake.
‘The pair carrying demons piggyback are intended to reveal the sin of Avarice: the seated figure, clutching his moneybags, is a miser, refusing to give alms to the beggar.
‘However, these people are not in Hell: they are portrayals of Etheric and Astral forms. They reveal people as they would be seen by someone with developed clairvoyant vision, able to perceive on the spiritual planes. … A true clairvoyant would be able to see the hideous reptiles and possessing demons.
‘ … The truth is that, as a consequence of the libertine woman’s predisposition to sin in a particular way, her soul is constantly being devoured by monstrous forms. No matter how beautiful or alluring her physical body may be, her Etheric body is – as an immediate consequence of sin – darkened by demonic forms that devour her. I repeat – this is not a picture of punishment in Hell, but of an unhealthy Etheric body, in life. …
‘ … The nakedness of her body is intended as in indication that it is her etheric body only – what the Moissac artists would have described as the ens venenei, or the vegetabilis. This explains why she is lifting her arms, grasping at her hair. This is the gesture of the Etheric soul. The same gesture is found in the Christian images painted and scratched on the walls of the catacombs in Rome, and has been called the “orans”, or praying gesture. In fact, such images are derived from the Egyptian hieroglyphic for the ka.
‘These hints leave us in no doubt that the woman is alive, and that we are being privileged to look into the state of her Etheric body. … This … is an example of the use of an occult blind.
‘Now, turn your attention to the second engraving … The person gifted with clairvoyant vision will see the beggar approaching the miser on the Astral plane. He will see the demons directing this transaction: the demons are, so to speak, bypassing the Ego of the men. This is no human transaction, but a demonic one. The demons sit above the heads of the men to show that they are gripping on to their Egos. Do not forget that our word possession is derived from a Latin word meaning literally “sitting on.” …
‘Now, in contrast to the nakedness of the woman, the miser and the beggar are clothed. This may be explained in terms of the need to indicate their ranks – the beggar is in torn clothing with only one trouser leg. We may judge from the clothing of the seated man that he is a person of some substance. However, there is another reason why the pair are clothed: this covering indicates that they are being depicted on the next level up from the Etheric – that is, on the Astral plane – on what in the days when this sculpture was made would have been called the animalis, or the ens astrale.
‘We may have little doubt that the clothing is meant as a kind of Astral mask, for neither man wears shoes. This is an arcane technique for showing that neither is standing on the physical Earth. The most “Earthy” element in this portrayal is the heavy moneybag: this appears to be tied around his neck, as a punishment, weighing down his soul. …
‘The demons who possess the couple are Astral beings: the wings of the one on the left indicate that it can “fly” on the Astral planes. The horns of the other, crescent in form, remind us that the demons are linked with the Moon. However, just as the woman does not know that her Etheric body is being devoured by monstrous forms, so the miser does not know that his Astral body is being weighed down by his riches, and by the demon which grips its legs around his neck. This is not so much symbolism as a direct portrayal of what can be perceived on the spiritual plane, by those with eyes to see.’ (Hedsel 2000, 62–63)
We note right away that there is a sort of righteous flavor to this interpretation. It is given in archaic terms of sin and demons and possession. We already have the idea that the ancient stories of demons and lesser gods were actual descriptions of encounters with fourth-density denizens; beings we now refer to in the modern day as aliens. Descriptions of these things were given in languages that are not technical, much like modern English, which constantly reinvents itself, creating and adding new terms as science progresses in its understanding.
Later, occultists, or those seeking for answers in these representations created by those who had received this information, were not privy to the inside information and did not understand the literal nature of these images, nor the true reality they portrayed. They began to interpret them in terms of astral and etheric entities, rather than what they really were: energy symbols of the interaction with fourth-density STS beings.
Having the understanding of fourth-density reality, we can see that the woman described as a sinner and a libertine, may not be either of those at all – merely an ordinary human who is asleep in the Matrix and whose sexual energies are providing nutriment to those levels. That the creatures are attached to her indicates the fibrous network of the energy conduits, and it is clear that the monster-man holding the snake as though it were a phallus while at the same time gripping the arm of the woman, is meant to show us that there is a being at another level who is behind this activity. And, in addition to the upraised arms being a symbol of the ka, the hair is also a symbol of virility or virtue and the woman is hanging onto it for dear life, battling the loss of her life force.
In the second image, I don’t think that we are being shown a beggar approaching a miser. I have a slightly different take on this for a couple of reasons. The rolled up pants leg is one of the accoutrements of the Masonic initiation, and other than that I do not perceive that the man is dressed in rags. The seated figure has crossed legs – a Rosicrucian symbol – and the bag of unknown contents is suspended around his neck by a cord – yet another occult symbol. The position of his hands as well as the hands of the demon on the left figure are also symbols.
My immediate reaction to these figures is that they represent a body of occultists in high positions. The man on the left may represent the social and educational aspects of control, as he is a traveler seeking wisdom, hampered or directed by the being on his shoulder. The man on the right seems to be a ruling figure, representing governments controlled by the creature on his shoulders. That these two creatures are in cahoots is clear by their communication with each other, but it is also clear that they are of two different types, and that the men are not having any interaction between them (their respective creatures) of a human nature. That they are barefoot has an even deeper significance: they have given away the ruby slippers. They are sold out; co-opted; part of the STS hierarchy.
So, in effect, we are seeing a graphic portrayal of ancient knowledge, clinched by the reference to the Moon – a base of fourth-density activities. And in the present time there are many individuals who are seeing the shape-shifting or “overshadowing of humans by Reptilian creatures. The mind produces symbols for what the eyes, and even the clairvoyant eyes, see. These events of shape shifting, or overshadowing that many are taking to be an astral demonic possession in archaic terms, are more likely a development of trans-density awareness that is still being interpreted in the mind in a symbolic way. It is very likely not a spirit possession but a clairvoyant seeing of the Control System, imaged in ways the mind is set up to operate.
Returning now to Topper’s suggestion that there is a substance produced by the human sensorium that is an addictive drug for fourth-density STS, this was a subject mentioned by the Cassiopaeans at one of the very earliest contacts. According to Topper, this substance can only be generated through the psychic pattern of terror, and can only be catalytically effective when obtained from a still living though on-the-verge-of-death-from-terror subject. I will admit that I was so horrified by this information, so much so that my project very nearly ended right then and there.
Like everyone else, I had the idea that only the good things (by human – or my – definition) could exist at higher levels. It was only later when I read the comment of Ra: “The All blinks neither at the darkness nor at the light,” that I realized there was a very deep truth being presented in such a comment. And to truly understand this remark in the most important way, is to understand that this “not blinking” at anything is the true measure of the level of contact. Truth is the only value at the highest levels, and human judgments of what is nice or not nice does not even figure in to the equations. So, a communicating entity that makes a judgment as to whether this or that information is useful or not, is blinking and gives away his level in that act. And, I suppose it could also be inferred from this that the individual who filters is also blinking, and thereby judging.
But, getting to what the Cassiopaeans had to say:
July 16, 1994
Q: (L) Bob Lazar referred to the fact that aliens supposedly refer to humans as containers. What does this mean?
A: Storage for later use.
Q: (L) Used for what?
A: 94 per cent of all population. All are containers; 94 per cent will be used.
Q: (L) Used for what?
A: Consumption.
Q: (L) You mean eaten?
A: Total consumption.
Q: (L) What do you mean by consumption? Ingested?
A: Consumed for ingredients.
Q: (L) Ingredients for what?
A: New race. Important. 13 years approximately when project will be finished.
Q: (L) Why are humans consumed?
A: They are used for parts.
Q: (L) We don’t understand. How can humans be used for parts?
A: Reprototype. The vats exist. Missing persons often go there and especially missing children.
Q: (L) Do we have any protection?
A: Some.
Q: (L) How can we protect ourselves and our children?
A: Inform them. Don’t hide the truth from children.
Q: (L) How does truth protect us?
A: Awareness protects. Ignorance endangers.
Q: (L) Why tell children such horrible things?
A: They need to know.
Q: (L) What is the purpose of this project?
A: New life here.
Q: (L) Are the aliens using our emotions and energies?
A: Correct; and bodies too. Each Earth year 10 percent more children are taken.
Q: (L) Do they suffer?
A: Some. Bits of children’s organs removed while they are wide awake. Kidneys first; then next feet; next jaw examined on table; tongues cut off; bones stress tested; pressure placed on heart muscle until it bursts.
Q: (L) Why are you telling us this awful stuff?
A: You must know what the Consortium is doing. This is done mostly to Indian children.
Q: (L) Why are things like this being done?
A: There is a big effort on behalf of Orions and their human brethren to create a new race and control it as well as the rest of humanity.
Q: (L) What happens to the souls? Is this project physical only?
A: Physical; and souls recycled.
Q: (L) Where do the souls go?
A: Back here for the most part.
Q: (L) Do some go elsewhere?
A: Some go to other planets.
Q: (L) Who is responsible for this project?
A: Consortium.
Q: (L) This is sick!
A: Sick is subjective.
Q: (L) But this whole thing is so awful.
A: We understand your feelings, but all does not conform to your perspective.
Q: (L) Why is this happening to Earth?
A: Karma.
Q: (L) What kind of karma could bring this?
A: Atlantis.
Q: (L) What can protect us?
A: Knowledge.
Q: (L) How do we get this knowledge?
A: You are being given it through this source now.
Q: (L) How does the knowledge of what you have told us help us?
A: Gives great defense. … Just knowing about it gives psychic defense.
[…]
Q: (L) Is there any way we can prevent Orion abductions?
A: No.
Q: (L) Why?
A: It would interfere with universal law of free will and service to self.
Q: (L) But we don’t want to be abducted. Can’t we stop it?
A: Not likely. They have more power than you.
Q: (L) Well then, why can’t you help us?
A: Would interfere in natural progression of your race and theirs. The Jews called upon us to save them and we could not. And, natives of your land called upon us and we could not save them from your race; we could not stop that either. It is natural progression, see?
Q: (L) Are we going to be wiped out by aliens as part of this natural progression?
A: Maybe. What makes you think you are special?
Q: (L) Jesus told us God loves us. Is this true?
A: Yes. But it is the soul that matters, not the body. The body dies not the soul.
Q: (L) Well, this whole thing just gives us the creeps.
A: You are energy. There is an energy that comes from the soul and body connection; later the body is used for parts.
Q: (L) What are they using our energy and bodies for?
A: To create a new race. Theirs is fading out.
Q: (L) Well, do they just take people and kill them and do what with them?
A: They slice them up.
Q: (L) Do they die?
A: Maximum matter and energy transfer occurs during this type of transition.
Q: (L) In other words, you are saying that a slow painful death gives them the most of what they want? This is totally sick.
A: You asked for truth. You say it is sick but it is merely the ultimate form of service to self.(At this point A___ described reading a passage in a book which stated that Native Americans believed a slow torturous death of an enemy gave them more power.)
A: What about your lab animals? Is that not service to self as well? What about unwanted insects et cetera?
Q: (L) We were here first!
A: So were the insects. Grays now want your planet.
Q: (L) That is sick.
A: Is natural progression sick?
Q: (L) Is what is happening something like what Jesus described in the parable of the wheat where the workers come in to take out the weeds first?
A: Close.
Q: (L) What kind of people is this being done to?
A: Low level humans.
Q: (L) What happens to the high-level humans?
A: Some will survive.
And, as Topper so delicately puts it: “I leave the rest to your imagination.”
It also seems to be very probable that much of the more horrific stuff that is being reported by various escapees from various mind control programs, or from underground bases where they have witnessed unparalleled scenes of horror, may have been deliberately exposed to projected and controlled thought forms. These individuals have been selected to escape from their captors or programmers, to be returned to the regular world so as to begin circulating their fearful and depressing stories. This is calculated to induce an atmosphere of terror, the cumulative energies of which will, of course, serve admirably as food for fourth-density STS. Another aim, suggests Topper, is to instill an overall atmosphere of depression, despair and ultimate defeatism before they even surface on any large scale to the daylight of general mass perception. In this way, they can devitalize any potential resistance or anger before the fact.
There is an observable tendency of fourth-density STS beings to continuously move in relentless stages of materialization that begin with the playful nightmare of the dream state, into waking reality. And this brings us back again to the idea that knowledge protects.
We can pretty well surmise that there are experiments taking place with human beings similar to those that will be described in the next section. And every other range of experimentation that humans undertake in the various compartments of our world likely have a counterpart in fourth-density reality. It’s not much different from the image of the newborn baby being plugged into the Matrix in the movie to become a source of energy for the system.
It seems to be that the nature of the far country of the Prodigal Son, the reality on which we have spent our inheritance or energy, is the Matrix.
The aforementioned session was a watershed experience for me. I had the option of jumping back into safe and cozy denial, or I could look at the information that was being given and evaluate it based on whether or not there was any corroboration, i.e. was it true?
And then, of course, even if it was true, what could be the possible motivation behind the Cassiopaeans even telling me this? I can guarantee you that if you had been present, you would have realized that every question I asked was framed from a state of near hysteria.
But, what has been the result of knowing these things? What is the fruit of facing the truth? For me, the result has been to ignite a drive for information in order to discover first of all, whether such things could be true, and second of all to acquire the knowledge and awareness that can protect. And, what is more, being exposed to what is has a tendency to condition the mind to not blink at anything.
Am I telling you this to scare you? Are the Cassiopaeans pulling back the curtain to reveal the machinations behind the curtain to terrify you into a state of paralysis?
Well, that’s up to you.
If you are paralyzed by it, you are welcome to go back to the center of your Rubik’s Cube and believe with all your heart and soul that the chaotic colors are arranged as you would like them to be. You are welcome to open your heart to any being that will come along and support you in your delusion, soothing your terror with honeyed words that it’ll be alright. “Just have faith and that nasty real world out there will fade away”, which you can cling to, thereby attaching you to such a consciousness for its own feeding purposes.
If, on the other hand, you begin to understand that knowledge can be applied to moving the colors on the cube into real alignment so that your polarization toward freedom and truth is amplified, thus leveling the playing field; then let us proceed.
Knowledge protects.
As you know, I began the Wave with a sort of set and finite plan – I was going to just talk about the Wave. There were going to be about ten chapters, each about 20 pages, and that was that. But, as it happened, the process of writing turned into channeling. I am very often surprised myself at what comes from my fingers.
There was another reference to an 11-house zodiac in a curious remark by Chester Starr, who writes regarding the earliest Sumerian ceremonials:
In the spring of each year occurred the greatest religious festival of the land, known as the Akitu in later Babylonia. This was the New Year’s feast, an 11-day (yes, you read right, eleven) ceremony of gloom and purification and then of joy, which ended as the gods “set the lots of mortal men during the coming year.” On the fourth day of the festival the priests recited a myth of creation, called from its opening words Enuma Elish. (Private correspondence)
His footnote was Ancient Near Eastern Texts Relating to the Old Testament by J. B. Pritchard.
The only other reference to the 11-house zodiac was one from a lecture given in the late 1880s by Rosicrucian, Golden Dawn co-founder, and medical examiner for the City of London, Dr. W. Wynn Westcott titled “Flying Roll VII”, attributed to “S.A.” He tells us that alchemy “is never taught in so many words. It may dawn on any one of you – the magic event may occur when least expected.”
Westcott begins his lecture by saying that alchemy means “the Higher Chemistry, treating of the essential nature of the elements, metals and minerals.” In the paragraph that followed this, Westcott says something very odd: he quotes a fourth century astrologer, Julius Firmicus Maternus, who says that skill in alchemy depends on having the Moon in the House of Saturn. Even more confusing, Westcott then asks: “what house does he [Firmicus] mean? The Day (Aquarius) house or the Night (Capricorn) house of Saturn?” And then further confuses everyone by wondering if this fourth century astrologer could have meant the attribution as referring to Uranus. This would be odd since the planet Uranus was not discovered until 1781.
Now, note that Westcott deliberately left out Virgo and Libra. In ancient times, Scorpio and Virgo were a double sign. Libra did not exist. Libra was later created and inserted to break up the double sign, which occupied a double space in the zodiacal wheel, so we are not talking about what would be broken down to merely a 10-equal house system here. What was called Scorpio was understood to include Virgo. Thus, it was an 11-sign system, with ten houses, one of them being double in its number of degrees.
But, back to the story. These were the only two references that I knew to exist, and I had been looking and asking for several years. I had a dream about it at one point. A high priest appeared, wearing a many-tiered skirt that resembled the Cretan depictions of the goddess – only this was a man. He showed me how the different tiers could be rotated so that certain symbols aligned, which then gave a message. The symbols were zodiacal and the star names were of great significance. The trick was, to align them properly.
The same dream then morphed. I was holding a vase that appeared to be onyx or something like that. Others had tossed it on a junk heap and I picked it up and was examining scratch marks all over it. I could see that it was engraved, but that all the grooves were filled with dirt and it was coated with grime. I began to clean it with cotton swabs and water very carefully, going into all the little cracks and tracing out the lines. As I did so and the dirt came away, I was awestruck at the beauty of this vase. It was not only cunningly worked with some great mythical scene being enacted, but it was inlaid with amazing veneers of various colored stones. And, it was also translucent so that the black turned out to be really a deep, translucent purple.
The dream morphed again: Ark and I were walking and it seemed to be a park or recreation area of some sort with mountains and cliffs and outcroppings of rock. We were walking around, looking at all the rock formations and shrubbery. The landscape was very dry and obviously in need of rain. As we were following a path I decided to hide in a bush and see how long it took for Ark to notice I was missing, as a joke. And then I suddenly found myself standing on the path ahead of him.
“How did you do that?” Ark said.
“Well, I ducked into this bush and there was a cleft in the rock, and I started to squeeze into it and something happened and here I am!” I said.
He insisted that I go back and show it to him. So, we went back and there was a small cave entrance, looking rather like the broken cleft of the tomb in the Arcadian Shepherds painting. He said it was impossible, too small.
“Try it,” I said.
So, he stooped down and easily entered the cave. He was in there a long time. Meanwhile, I decided to stay busy by cleaning all the cracks in the rocks around the cave entrance. There was a trickle of water coming out of the cave and I was using some sort of cloth. As I did, the water kept increasing its flow until it was a fountain.
At this point, Ark came stumbling out of the cave, holding his eyes, crying tears and laughing at the same time.
“I believe! I believe!” he said. “I’ve seen it with my own eyes!”
We decided to leave the park. As we were walking out the entrance, I glanced up at the cliff face and there was a huge mosaic set in the rock. On the right were seven sharks, the bottom one paler than the others. They got darker as they went up, stacked identical images. On the left of the mosaic was a large whale whipping around, its mouth open, eye on the sharks, poised to devour them in a single bite. I told myself I needed to remember this dream. Then I woke up.
Well, of course I slipped in a quick question about this series of dreams:
Q: I had a dream the other night. As Ark and I were leaving the park in my dream, I looked up and saw a mosaic on the side of the mountain. It had seven sharks, one above the other, the lowest being pale almost to the point of transparency, and the highest being very dark and intense in color. There was a huge sperm whale to the upper left. He was in the posture of whipping around, his eye had caught the sharks, and his mouth was open and he was going to swallow them all in a single gulp. What was the meaning of the whale and the sharks?
A: Logic says to you: examine!
Q: The other part of the dream was that I disappeared and reemerged from a cleft in a rock. I was cleaning … he went to investigate … and he returned and was crying and all this water was flowing out of there like a spring. At another part of the dream, I was cleaning a vase … all this cleaning. What was the significance of this?
A: Trace minerals interact with deeply held secrets.
And that suggests the Alchemical transformation. Which brings us back again to Zelator.
I finally understood why the style of the Cassiopaeans was so different: it was the very model of the high-level adept working with a neophyte, helping them step by step to develop the inner circuits that would bring about the transformation. And I also understood why the Cassiopaeans took so long to tell some things and had no hesitation about others. It was clearly an initiatory exercise understood only by the adept. Never mind that the adept who is doing the teaching is doing it through a board and not in person or in some secret school. This reminded me of something I had asked the Cassiopaeans very early on:
November 9, 1994
Q: (L) Is the Sufi path a good one to study?
A: Up to you. We don’t want to judge that for you.
Q: (L) What percentage of truth is in that path.
A: In one sense all teachings are truths.
Q: (L) Can’t you just tell me?A: Subjective. Would you like us to judge Reiki?
Q: (L) Well, yes before I spend any money on it. Will I waste my money?
A: Not if you go to right source. Now we have led you to answer we want you to continue to exercise your mind. That is how you progress.
Q: (L) So you want me to study Sufi for the exercise?
A: Yes. If we answered all your questions you would not learn.
Q: (L) In this book I am reading it talks about knowledge that is only given to the elect and that certain things are passed down through secret organizations. Most people think this organization is the Illuminati and that they hold many deep, dark secrets. Is that true?
A: Close. But now there is a knowledge explosion. The Illuminati is no longer exclusive; but they still think they are.
Q: (L) Compared to the big high mucky mucks in the Illuminati, what percentage of their knowledge do I possess?
A: 2 per cent.
Q: (L) You mean they know 98 per cent more than I do? As hard as I have worked for these many years? That’s depressing! How much knowledge, relative to the Illuminati, does the average college graduate have?
A: 0.02 per cent.
Q: (L) Is there any one person who holds a major chunk of knowledge on this planet?
A: By this time next year you will have 35 per cent as much.
Well, I guess 35 percent was better than 2 percent! But it made me painfully and acutely aware of how little I actually knew.
So here is this book, Zelator, and it is like reading about my own experiences with the Cassiopaeans. The big difference was that the author spent his entire lifetime gathering this information, and I am sure he only wrote what he felt he could safely divulge, concealing things in metaphors and allusions. Not only that, but it is also clear that obtaining his information via human filters, who have obtained their information through other sources which may or may not be closer to a real source has greatly colored or even clouded some of the matters covered in this book.
But, this book comes right out and says more truth about some of the secrets than any other book that has, to date, been published. And, as I read it, I was able to fill in the blanks from what I knew. There were certainly a number of crucial keys that I was looking for that Mark Hedsel revealed in his book for others on the Path of the Fool.
Which brings us back to the Moon. Chapter Seven of Zelator quotes at the beginning an excerpt from Ovid’s Metamorphoses:
I am the same Perseus who conquered the snaky-tressed Gorgon, the man who dared to travel through the airy breezes on beating wings. (Ovid, Metamorphoses, IV. 697)
This connects us back to our number 11 and the 3-5 code, if you will recall. The Cassiopaeans tossed Medusa into that discussion as a clue. And here we find it bearing some serious fruit. Not only that, the chapter begins with Fulcanelli. Hedsel writes:
Among the most remarkable of modern initiates who were prepared to reveal hermetic secrets to the profane was the mysterious Fulcanelli. In keeping with the secret Green Language, which he studied and practised with great accomplishment, he used a pen-name to disguise his real identity. ‘Fulcanelli’ meant ‘little Vulcan’ … As a pseudonym, this name seems to have worked very well, for no one has been able to determine with any certainty just who Fulcanelli was …
As we have seen, this mysterious alchemist paid especial attention to the alchemical images which are still found in the sculpted fabric of the French Cathedrals. In particular, Fulcanelli dealt with the secrets within the alchemical imagery of Notre Dame in Paris, and the cathedral at Amiens.
Among the most arcane of the many arcane stone quatrefoils on the western facade of Amiens cathedral which intrigued Fulcanelli is a curious image of a heavenly rain. The sheet of water streams like a veritable Niagara from the clouds which, for the mediaeval mind, symbolized heaven. It streams down to the Earth, where, in defiance of natural laws, it gathers into a ball of water which seems to pulsate and tremble, as though it were a ball of flame, rather than a magical liquid.
In the quatrefoil, an alchemist looks upon this cascade in awe, pointing with his right hand at the ball of water as though to show that it is a miracle, or something of profound importance. Could he be pointing to this water-ball to indicate that it is something dangerous? The phenomenon is portrayed in distinctly unnatural terms to show that this is no ordinary dew.
All the arcane images of the west front of Amiens are contained in quatrefoils. This in itself is a significant thing, for the quatrefoil is made up of four crescents – symbolic of the four phases of the Moon throughout the month. In the quatrefoil which contains the Niagara of water, the heavens open in the uppermost crescent, as if to indicate that this is a lunar Heaven (or sphere), and the magic water it dispenses is a lunar dew. In fact, it is the ‘philosophical dew’ of the alchemists – one of the great Mysteries of this mysterious art. It is not straining ancient mythology too far to see in this cascade the dual streams of the tears of the ‘weeping sisters’, the Egyptian goddesses, Isis and Nephthys, the combined influence of the light and dark Moons.
In Latin, this dew is Ros. … some hermetic experts argue that the three letters form the beginning of the word Rosicrucian, a word which pertains to the most important secret brotherhood in late mediaeval Europe. These initiates, who united the secret of the lunar dew with the cross (crucis, the genitive of the Latin crux), were practising Christians … The Ros dew was subjected to the directional organization of the cross (crucis). (Hedsel 2000, 296–297)
Now, remember what we have already covered about the spider, the scorpion, and the Rose? That the Rose or Ros is a standalone symbol and the two groups represented by the spider and the scorpion have “different objectives”? Here’s a quick refresher:
October 4, 1997
Q: In reading the transcripts, I came across a reference to a “pact” made by a group of STS individuals, and it was called “Rosteem,” and that this was the origin of the Rosicrucians. In the book The Orion Mystery, it talks about the fact that Giza was formerly known as RosTau, which is “Rose Cross.” Essentially, I would like to understand the symbology of the Rose affixed to the Cross. It seems to me that the imagery of Jesus nailed to the Cross is actually the Rose affixed to the Cross. How does Jesus relate to the Rose?
A: No, it is from the Rose arose the Cross.
Q: What does the cross symbolize?
A: The symbology is not the issue. It is the effect.
Q: What is the effect of the cross?
A: All that has followed it.
Q: Could you list some of these to give me a clue?
A: You know these.
I do, indeed.1 And even though Mr. Hedsel may intimate that the Rosicrucians are the good guys, in colloquial terms, it is clear from other things he is writing that he knew better. They are not. They are the Spiders who entrap and devour. Remember this:
October 4, 1997
Q: In the same vein, I have noticed that there are two classes of arachnids. There are scorpions and there are spiders. The zodiac was changed by taking the pincers away from the Scorpion and creating out of them the sign of Libra. This image was one of a woman holding a balance scales, usually blindfolded. This was done within recorded history, but was probably formalized through the occult traditions of Kaballah. Now, in trying to figure out who has on what color hat, if there is such a thing, I have come to a tentative conclusion that the spider, or spinner of webs, is the Rosicrucian encampment, and that the Scorpion represents the seeker of wisdom … because, in fact, the word for Scorpio comes from the same root as that which means to pierce or unveil. Therefore, the Scorpion is also Perseus, per Ziu, or “for God.” And the Rosicrucians are the “other,” so to speak. Can you elaborate on this for me? Or comment?
A: What a tangled web we spin, when we must not let you in.
Q: So, the Rose is the Spider?
A: Different objective.
Q: So, the Rose, with its thorns … can you help me with this Rose image … is the Rose the Scorpion?
A: No. Different objective … Rose is a standalone symbol.
Q: So, the Rose can be used by either side, is that it?
A: Maybe.
Q: Another derivation of the word root of Scorpio is “skopos,” or “to see.” You said that the human race was seeded on a planet in the constellation Scorpio, and, therefore, when the zodiac was set up and the clues were laid out, it seems to me that the insertion of the sign of Libra was designed to take power away from human beings, to take their hands away, to prevent them from seeing, to make them defenseless. Is this imagery close?
A: On track.
Now, just to confirm our suspicions about the Rosicrucians let me add this most interesting series of questions and answers with the Cassiopaeans:
December 21, 1996
Q: (L) I have been digging around about the Templars and have, more or less, come to the conclusion that the whole deal about the destruction of the temple was just a smoke screen, and that something else was going on at the time that was important. I also think that they have been resurrected from time to time and dusted off and blamed for for all this secret knowledge that is supposedly lost … am I on to something here?
A: Close.
Q: Who or what brought about the end of the Knights of the Temple?
A: Rosicrucians move as a “thief in the night.”
This last most interesting remark suggests that the Rosicrucians were behind the destruction of the Templars! The “thief in the night” of the Bible is defined as “sudden destruction.”
December 21, 1996
Q: (L) But, as I understand it, the Rosicrucians did not come into being until after the end of the Templars … the Rosicrucians were the Templars…
A: No.
Q: (L) Do you mean that the information that came out, that pamphlet about “Christian Rosenkreutz,” that is a purported fable, might be correct, even if disguised?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, goodness sake! The Rosicrucians advertise in magazines! Is this worldwide organization that promotes itself so blatantly …
A: Well, the “worldwide” order is not all inclusive.
Q: (L) Is there an inner circle of this order that is unknown?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Are the Rosicrucians connected to the Masons?
A: In a roundabout away. [Which suggests to us that they may not necessarily be “in cahoots.”]
Q: (L) Are the Illuminati connected to the Rosicrucians in any way?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Do the Rosicrucians have writings in their keeping that they, themselves, do not understand?
A: Yes. So do the Masons.
Q: (L) The Priory of Zion, that has been purported to be the progenitor or inheritor of the Templar tradition, is that a mystical organization of great secrecy and import?
A: It is a cover for.
Q: (L) Another smoke screen.
A: Yes.
Did you ever notice how the Masons get blamed for so many things of a conspiratorial nature, and nobody ever blames the Rosicrucians or the present day Templars? Don’t you think that is a bit peculiar? Everything is a Masonic conspiracy, but nothing is ever a Rosicrucian conspiracy!
Now, lets get back to that most interesting item: heavenly rain; sheet of water. When I read those words, I had to whip out my hairspray to keep the hair from standing up! Note the following exchange with the Cassiopaeans dated, amusingly, 04-04-98 (keeping in mind that Hedsel keeps mentioning the word “quatrefoil.”):
April 4, 1998
Q: In the studies of the Triple Goddess, I came across some interesting things. You suggested that I should research the Third Man theme. I have discovered that the origin of the word “man” originally meant a female – the goddess. The Moon. The oldest word for the male of the species was “wer”, as in “werewolf.” So, the Third Man theme could mean actually, the Triple Goddess. Am I correct?
A: Close, if viewed through “sheets of rain.”
Q: Okay. Tracking the Triple Goddess back to the oldest references, we get to KaliMa. There are all kinds of derivations of this name, but the thing that strikes me is the relationship to the goddess Kell, or Kella, as well as to the word kell, Celts, and how this might be transformed into the word “Cassiopaea.” Can you comment on this?
A: Do not the Celts like “Kelly” green?
Q: Yes. So. What does “green” have to do with it?
A: Keep searching … learning is accomplished thusly, and learning is fun!
Now, let me just mention that when the Cassiopaeans first said this, I was completely baffled, so I came back to it in a later session:
January 2, 1999
Q: I once asked about the Third Man theme and that perhaps you meant that the imagery was that of the Triple Goddess relating to the Isle of Man … and you said, “if viewed through sheets of rain.” So, in this book that I am reading, it talks about the fact that the Celts of Gaul worshipped the Rain as the manifestation of the Goddess, and the Celts of Scotland worshipped the Sun … the male God. Does this relate in any way to this remark you made about sheets of rain?
A: In an offhand way.
Q: Anything further you can tell me in terms of a clue about “sheets of rain”?
A: Not for now, when you get there, you will find the chalice.
Q: Where and what chalice?
A: Wait and see!
Going back to one of the other threads we have been following, the bloodline theme, a chalice was mentioned in another context that may be related:
October 3, 1998
Q: (L) What were the names of the children of Jesus?
A: You have the clues, and your quest has been admirable so far, why stop now?
Q: (L) So, I will find them! Okay.
A: Could be like the Holy Grail.
Q: (L) What could be like the Holy Grail?
A: Chalice.
Q: (L) What does the chalice represent?
A: What is its root?
And we find in the dictionary that the root of chalice, in terms of words, is a Latin word, calix, which means a cup. When we look at the word calix, we find that its root is the Indo-European word Kel. Funny that the Cassiopaeans gave me the answer and I didn’t see it when they said “kelly green”.
Now, let’s get back to Zelator: skipping over a most interesting discourse on the Moon, in which he conceals with one paragraph and reveals with another, we come to this:
We had assumed that Jacques Bergier, who claimed to have met Fulcanelli in 1937, had probably – to put it kindly – imagined this meeting. … However, a remark, made by a friend in Florence in the May of 1978, pulled us up short, and made us call into question what we knew about this mysterious alchemist. …
‘… [Florence] is not a place of old ghosts but of old love. One does not need great powers to break through the veil in this place – to reach into a different time.’ On this occasion, however, we were standing on the generous pavement which frames the huge square of the Piazzale Michelangelo. We were leaning on the balustrade, overlooking Florence. As we talked, our eyes skimmed like swallows over the trees towards the lovely ponte vecchio. (Hedsel 2000, 303)
Reading this made me pull out the hairspray again. I have on my wall above the desk a photograph of Ark standing almost in this very spot with his arm outstretched, “showing me Florence.” In fact, Ark was on his way to Piazzale Michelangelo, a further ten-minute walk from where he was standing.
The date on the photograph is 07-07-96. This was two days after we “met.” Ark was in Florence at that time, working in an ancient monastery. He had taken this walk to think. On the same walk, he went to a nearby gift shop and purchased a postcard to send to me. It was Botticelli’s “Birth of Venus.” So, again, Hedsel is saying things that are personally significant, like markers.
We were talking about symbolism. … we decided to leaf once again through Fulcanelli’s masterpiece [and then] to put the problem to our Florentine friend. [He said,] ‘You may not have found the answer in Fulcanelli, yet I assure you that the clue is there, nonetheless. You understand, sometimes even Fulcanelli wraps his mysteries in mysteries, for he knows that some things may not be spoken, even today. … Look again at what he writes of Saturne as an anagram of natures.’ (Hedsel 2000, 304–306)
Now we understand the inside joke of Westcott’s lecture! Saturn is an anagram for Nature. And we also begin to have an inkling of the Saturnian influence of Nature!
‘Fulcanelli is far wiser than most of his readers know. He sets down less in words than he could, and delivers parables in parables. In this there is real wisdom. The alchemists insisted that one should heat the retort many times before making the final distillation. This is an emblem of true thought: one must pass one’s thinking through the furnace many times, to be sure. One should think with a hammer, rather than with a brain, as one shapes our thought from dross matter.’
Fulcanelli may well be a great initiate into the hermetic lore, yet he is an infuriating Teacher. He teaches, or enlightens, by means of hints and guesses, demanding all the while the full cooperation and attention of his reader. Fulcanelli seems to practise the sol lente, the ‘slow-heat’ method of the alchemist, for he recognizes that a more fierce heat, which may be raised with the bellows, would kill the germinating life within the vessel.
A word or a phrase by Fulcanelli can do two things. Either it will spark off unconnected links in one’s mind, yoking together unsuspected words or ideas, and thereby engendering enlightenment. Or, it can have one scurrying in ignorance to the old alchemical and occult books, or resorting to the active contemplation of symbols, which he so often recommends. Both these methods of learning are conducted through the slow inner heat, so beloved by alchemical teachers.
For the student, it is an infuriatingly slow method. All too often even the alchemical books prove too obscure for elucidation, and the questioning soul is left without answers to the questions raised by Fulcanelli. In some cases, years may pass before one arrives at the answers one seeks. We have to admit that, more than once, we have encountered great difficulties in following some of the indications left by Fulcanelli as he skipped along the Way of the Fool, juggling with words, occasionally allowing one to fall to the floor for the benefit of his followers. (Hedsel 2000, 306, 318–319)
Even though the Cassiopaeans have repeatedly told us that certain things must be given in a measured way and that phases must pass, I had never thought of this as the actual alchemical process of being transformed directly. But, here we have the clue that the retort must be heated many times. And we also begin to understand better the alchemical process itself.
‘You know, one day, some scholar will claim that they have finally discovered who Fulcanelli was. But that scholar will be wrong, for he or she will not know of how initiates really work. They will not know of how casually an initiate may change his clothing. They will not even be able to identify an initiate from his words, or from his eyes. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 306)
I had to laugh at this one! I am quite sure that this was addressed directly to all of those who read Fulcanelli and think that rituals are the answer, or that Kaballah is the path.
‘… Fulcanelli is alive. Fulcanelli is even older than me, yet he is still alive. He lives here in Florence.’ (Hedsel 2000, 307)
At this point, the old man who is speaking to Mark Hedsel tells him that there is a small group that meets in Florence, and invites him to join them. At this little gathering the old man speaks, and here we come back to the Moon:
‘In the arcane tradition there are two Moons. These pairs have very many names. Such names are usually derived from mythological personifications – yet all these pairs relate to the idea that one Moon is a reflector of sunlight, while the other, if not always in darkness, is invisible. …
‘From the very beginning of civilization, the Moon has been a mystery, because it has always stared down upon the Earth with one single face. As the Moon circles the Earth, it keeps one side of its globular face presented towards humanity. …
‘… Western occultism have tended, until comparatively recent times, to emphasize only the light side of the Moon. Even so, hints of the dark Moon are encapsulated in even the most overt-seeming symbolism.
‘… the archangel Gabriel is the ruler of the Moon – that is, of the light side of the Moon. His role as messenger at the Annunciation is well established, even if his arcane role (symbolized by the white lilies) is only imperfectly understood outside the secret Schools. The lilies of Gabriel are very profound symbols indeed. They are recognized, in the Mysteries, as symbols of the descent of a God. [Laura’s note: Notice that he does not say “the descent of God,” but of “a God.”]
‘Furthermore, in the same Christian tradition, images of the Assumption of the Virgin show the lunar crescent beneath the feet of the Virgin.
‘In these two different symbols, we have a clue to how the Virgin of Light is linked with the angelic ruler of the Moon at the conception of the Child, and with the lunar crescent at her own translation from Earth to Heaven – at her death. It is as though this symbolism was designed to show …’ He paused ‘… to show that the very same lunar forces which announced her destiny as the Mother of God were also lifting her to Heaven, at the end of her life.
‘Now, Gabriel is the Christian equivalent of the personified light Moon. The name is, of course, Hebraic, and we must look to the same language in our search for the name of the Christian dark Moon. This name is Lilith, the mother of the lilin, or brood of demons. We see, then, that it is no great mystery that the angel Gabriel should carry lilies at the Annunciation. There is rarely such a thing as accident in the confluence of sounds in arcane symbolism.’ (Hedsel 2000, 310–311)
So is the old man, the teacher of Hedsel, telling us that Christianity is a religion of demons? It seems so, yet he will not come right out and say it. He gives with one paragraph, and takes away with another. He goes on to emphasize this point by saying:
‘… the early Christian church was embarrassed by the vast numbers of demonologies which prowled around the cosmologies of the pagan religions. These demons were especially numerous in the Gnostic tradition which the Church felt proper to dismiss. It seems to me that this rejection of the Gnostic tradition was part of a peculiar programme adopted by the early Church. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 311)
And then he said another thing that brought out the hairspray again:
‘… the lunar Isis is not a single goddess, but dual. Her sister, Nephthys, was the dark Moon: in the ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead, Nephthys is portrayed standing opposite her sister, like a shadow-neter (opposite). In addition to being sister of Isis, this black virgin Nephthys was sister and wife of the dark Set. … The pair – Isis and Nephthys – were called the weeping sisters. Their tears stream to Earth, just as the tears of sleeping humanity stream towards the Moon in the Tarot card. This, it is said, was because they both wept at the death of Osiris, though, as we shall see, there may be a far deeper reason for this description.’ …
‘I said that much of the ancient lore pertaining to the dark Moon was lost with the emergence of Christianity … The initiates who guided the transfer of some of the ancient teachings of the Egyptians to Rome, that they might serve the new Mysteries of Christ …’
In the Greek and Roman epics, it is a commonplace for the poets to visualize the gods spinning fate around a man, as though his body were nothing more than a spindle, the inner core being wrapped in the threads from which his destiny was being spun. This notion was extended into the fatalistic activities of the Moirae. The Greek word moira, which meant ‘portion’, was eventually applied to the fate apportioned to an individual, and the three Moirae were adopted as personifications of the notion of allotted destiny.
The myths of Selene and the Moirae are not really too far removed from the ancient hermetic view which traced a link between the Moon and Fate. In early cosmologies, it was the Moon who was regarded as the controller of human destiny. …
… The Greek name Hecate means ‘worker from afar’, and captures perfectly the notion of an influence cast from a distant satellite. It would seem that Hecate is the tutelary lunar goddess of the Sleepers, of those who have not yet found their way to a Path. (Hedsel 2000, 312, 314, 316, 233)
Here I would like to point out that the Cassiopaeans have repeatedly said that the Moon is a “base” for the fourth-density control system. And we might also want to remember the writings of Morris K. Jessupon this matter, most particularly his theory of “null zones” that enable the activation or opening of windows or portals between densities, though he did not express it in those terms.
In modern times, most people tend to think of space as being empty of living beings: it is ‘empty space’ – save, of course, for the stars, planets and cosmic dust. This soul-less vision is however quite modern. In previous ages, there was never much doubt that the heavens were filled with Spiritual beings. …
… the Way Up and the Way Down, the Way Out and the Way In … marks a cross in space and time. …
… the ancient hieroglyphic for the Place of the Horizon, which eventually turned into the modern sigil for Libra, is that which separates the infernal from the celestial.
‘… the glyph indicates that Mankind – even that small part of Mankind that seeks initiation … must, at some time or another, descend into the Well of Ordeal. …’
‘… In some ways, the Moon is the greatest problem of esoteric lore. The Moon is not at all what it appears to be.
‘At the end of the last century an astounding revelation was made, as a result of dissent among members of secret Schools. Information, hitherto guarded jealously by the most enclosed of the inner Orders, was made public. The secrets disclosed pertained to a far deeper level of knowledge than has hitherto been made exoteric by the Schools – even in this enlightened age.’ (Hedsel 2000, 233, 239, 242)
Here, Hedsel’s teacher is suggested to be referring to A. P. Sinnet and his connection to Theosophy and certain revelations that were made in 1932 via the Brotherhood of Luxor, but I think that this was a deliberate misdirection. Gurdjieff was talking about mankind being “food for the Moon” before 1914. Here we find the probable cause for some of the distortion of information in the Way of the Fool. Blavatsky claimed to have inside information, but it seems likely that what she was given was intentionally mixed with half-truths and some lies.
‘In a nutshell, what was made public during this conflict in the Schools was the truth that our Moon is a sort of counterweight to another sphere, which remains invisible to ordinary vision. This counterweighted sphere is called in esoteric circles the Eighth Sphere.
‘We must be careful with these words, for, in spite of what I have said, this region is not itself a sphere, nor is it a moon. Even to locate it behind the physical Moon is not correct, for in the Spiritual realm spaces and distances are different. The truth is that the Eighth Sphere does not pertain to anything we are familiar with on the physical plane, yet we must use words from our own vocabularies whenever we wish to denote its existence. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 242)
Here we find that the Cassiopaeans have gone much further in trying to describe what this teacher is saying (and I am assembling these remarks from all through the book, since they are not in order, probably on purpose). The Cassiopaeans call the idea that this man is struggling to express “fourth density.” Again we see that the clarity of the Cassiopaean materials serves us well in understanding what have for millennia been arcane matters.
‘… Were we to use a word which fits most appropriately this Sphere, then we should really call it a vacuum. Certainly, vacuum is a more appropriate term than sphere, for the Eighth Sphere sucks things into its own shadowy existence. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 242)
You don’t say? You mean like: man is food for the Moon?
‘… It acts as as sort of demonic conduit to suck into its maws certain degenerate Spiritual forms on the Earth. It is a shadow Sphere, controlled by shadow beings. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 243)
Like maybe Lizzes and Grays? Here, again, we have the advantage of the Cassiopaean explanations of these “shadow beings.” We can easily see how, without understanding of hyperdimensions and densities, those who were not directly inside the “secret schools” would have the idea that these beings are shadowy or even in some way simply spirits. The same misunderstanding is prevalent today among those alien/UFO interpreters who have decided aliens are merely spirits or demons with no physical reality. This has led to such nonsense as believing that they can possess humans in an interpenetrative spiritual way, like climbing in or out of a body and bringing on shape shifting in the human being.2
‘… However, the fact that they are shadow beings should not lead us to demote or underestimate their capabilities and intelligence. In many respects they are more intelligent than Man, for they are not limited by the power of love, as is Mankind. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 243)
Again either this man doesn’t know how truly deep the mystery is, or he is afraid of scaring his pupils to death!
‘The operation of the Eighth Sphere is complex. Its denizens – those shadowy beings for whom it is home – wish to people their Sphere with humanity … Towards this end, it has erected what we might call terminals on the Earth: these terminals are soul-conduits, which will suck into the lower Sphere a certain form of materialized energy that is engendered on the Earth plane. …’ (Hedsel 2000, 243)
The teacher then goes on to say that the most usual place where this vacuuming of energy happens is among people engaging in spiritualist activities, particularly those having to do with communication with the lower etheric planes, i.e. talking to dead dudes.
While I am in agreement with him, for the most part, I think that it is too great a generalization, and the evidence that there is an alien reality that clearly matches what he is talking about in terms of the Moon or the Eighth sphere, should take us far in realizing the true nature of this energy sucking. In fact, the Cassiopaeans are light years ahead of this, even if it is interesting to get a little corroboration from another source. And there may be something very deep in what he says here, considering the plethora of New Age trance channeling, or conscious channeling, and contacts with space brothers going on nowadays.
‘… Certain spiritualist activity is coloured by the erroneous belief that the realm of the dead is accessible to the living. In truth, mediumistic activity cannot penetrate through into the true realm of the dead: it is therefore dealing only with shadows. In so doing, it is creating fodder for the nourishment of the Eighth Sphere. This sucking of certain forms of human soul-matter into the Eighth Sphere is not, by any means, intended for the benefit of humanity. The aim of the denizens of this world is to enhance and populate a world which may truly be described as the realm of the damned. The efforts of these denizens, or demons, is contrary to the evolutionary development which has been planned for the world. …
‘It is less than on hundred years since this knowledge of the Eighth Sphere was made public. At first there was an outcry at this breach in initiate knowledge, but now we can see that it has proved something of a blessing that the demonic threat has been brought out into the open. In some ways, it is easier to deal with a visible enemy. Those who dabble in the supposed communications with the dead, and with that spirit-land which they fondly imagine lies beyond the veil, have not gone unwarned. (Hedsel 2000, 243)
And now, finally, we come to one of the greater blessings of this book that indicated to me how I must view what I am doing. In this excerpt, Mark Hedsel is in conversation with an old man who has been on the Path of the Fool for a very long time.
MH: ‘I set out to learn how to be a Fool.’
OM: ‘No, you set out the follow the Way of the Fool. There is a difference. And what is the result of such a journey? The result is a wise Fool. A fool is the one who gives up everything for an idea. The wise Fool is the one who knows that he never had anything to give up in the first place. Is that Foolish? … What is the difference between an old man and a young man, if they are both fools?’ …
MH: ‘Is it commitment? The old man has committed himself, while the young one has not?’
OM: ‘Yes, exactly so. The old man has committed himself. He has made a stand. Life has made him do that. He has drawn a circle around himself, and said, “This is where I stand, this is what I must do.” He has committed himself to an action. Because he has drawn a circle around himself, others can see where he stands. He can be attacked by others. His position is weak. Those who have not committed themselves can mock, if they are so inclined. The one who has committed himself appears to be in a weak position. Yet the Spiritual truth is quite otherwise. It is the one who accepts commitment who is strong. The true commitment is the artistic one. This is why artists are so often attacked. They are attacked for their morals, for their ideas – even for their work. Yet their essence – their commitment – is the secret which is unassailable. The true artist knows that creativity is its own reward. Ordinary people fear commitment, you see. Ordinary people fear creativity. They know that if they allow that seething cauldron of yellow liquid to boil over within themselves, then their whole lives will be changed. People fear change. People do not wish to be creative and artistic in any real sense. They wish to decorate, perhaps, and to make things around themselves pleasant – but this has little to do with creativity. … All spiritual paths should be creative. Creativity is involved with sacrifice. That stew of yellow liquid which boils in everyone is a sacrificial broth …’
MH: ‘The sulphur?’
OM: Yes, the sulphur. The first of the Three Principles. It is in a sacrificial cauldron. It is an excess. Creativity is Spiritual delight, and overpouring of sulphur. … Some time ago you asked me about the word sulphur. We both agreed that Fulcanelli was right, and alchemical sulphur is the equivalent of the sexual energies in man and woman. The sexual energies may come out in a selfish way or in a creative way. Jakob Boehme … saw the division in the word sulphur in a slightly different way. He divided the word itself, and said Sul was the soul of a thing, the oil. The sulis born of the phur, the light. … Have you ever looked at spilt oil? Under certain conditions it can look like a thin filament of a rainbow. This is the light imprisoned in the oil. The light rises upwards. It liberates the rainbow. It is as simple as that. …’
MH: ‘Then all creative activity must be foolish? In which case, thinking must be foolish?’
OM: … ‘Perhaps thinking is foolish. Certain forms of thinking undoubtedly are foolish. After all, most people are vulnerable in their ideas: they fear to think for themselves. The Fool learns to think for himself: he or she makes it an exercise of the soul. Others refuse that Way. This is why our civilization is so under threat. We are living in a world where every effort is being made to ensure that the body is comfortable, yet little is done for the growing soul. …’
MH: ‘… creativity is itself a form of selflessness?’
OM: ‘Exactly so. Creativity is the giving away of Spiritual energy. Creativity is the soul in the expenditure of a bottomless purse. One gives sulphur away – initially perhaps through an excess of joy – for that is the foolishness of young men. Later, one gives away energy through commitment to an idea.’
MH: ‘Creativity is the ultimate deed of unselfishness?
OM: ‘Yes. … When a man knows that creativity is its own reward … well, then he is ready to work with people. …you think of yourself as a loner. You do not see how much you are needed. You are needed to point the way.’
MH: ‘But I know nothing.’
OM: ‘… You do not really believe that when you sit before a group you do so alone? You are there as a representative of the spiritual world. … Fools like myself become teachers, because we find suddenly that there is no one else. It’s as simple as that. … You realize how great is the gulf between you and others. There is a curtain between you. And you understand that this curtain is good for neither of you. The house out there is burning. You can see the flames, but those others cannot see the flames. … Now the question is, can you leave those people in the flames? Would it not be the act of a Fool to snatch one, or perhaps two, out of the conflagration?’
MH: ‘If that is what they want.’
OM: ‘They cannot see the flames, but they do not wish to be burned. You see. You know that there are two sorts of flame. There is the soft and slow flame of the inner heat, and that terrible burning flame which consumes, and which feels no human pain. … You cannot continue widening the gap between yourself and the world. … What for others is light is for the Teacher an old light – another word for darkness. … We live in a foolish paradox, for while we have forever, we do not have much time. (Hedsel 2000, 325–329)
And that was my answer. The house is burning, and I am a Fool who seeks to snatch as many as possible from the flames. And it is an act of creativity – a commitment to an idea. And, just as I finished reading this book, I received a message from a friend who wrote:
Laura,
Sharing your life and trials and fiery initiations through your pages is a raw fire walk on this planet. I know how lonely it feels in the moment of retelling each drama, re-experiencing even the sensory memory that served to strip another layer off your (by now) Zen flesh and Zen bones. Yet at this stage, it is also a refreshingly cool wind that passes through awareness to allow ourselves to be that thoroughly exposed … as if that wind of the exposure is blowing off a little more residual bits of flesh still clinging to our bones.
And yet, in reading those truths (those of us who know and can relate), the storytelling is understood to be a beautiful performance art of your soul’s expansion under the tutelage of our future selves. Such a spectacular display of universal love and timelessness and beauty and truth and cosmic humor it is.
Yes, when the truth (as lessons and dramas) hit us here in 3rd density in the matrix, we process it as painful (because of our programs) … but after a while, if we learn to relax, life in the matrix is doable. Like anything painful (childbirth, for example) relaxing is the way to avoid the worst of it (and minimize scarring … which is to carry pain into future time).
So I see this dance of your posts and the stimulation they provide as an exercise in networking that seems to have a wonderful cosmic purpose. That cosmic purpose is that networking in the matrix is a group lesson that can greatly accelerate both individual and group awareness. Many times I have found this group energy fascinating … for example, a dream of a friend seems to act as a preview of coming attractions of a meditation insight that comes to me, and that is mirrored in the life movie of another friend, etc.
… It is my theory that we are moving towards this understanding of group mind and interconnectedness in this coming year. I am feeling we are all going to become much more aware of this networking synchronicity. One of the lessons of duality is to understand we are not really separate beings, but suspended together in one mind. Playing there with telepathy and other ways to explore expanded awareness is a birthright we can claim and enjoy with like-minded others.
Thanks, Laura, for being a scout and going out and expanding our playing field comfort zone so we can all expand together. You rock, girl. Can’t wait for the next pages!
M.
Thank you, Michele. From one Fool to another.
2 Interestingly, John Keel gets very close to these ideas with his notion of “ultraterrestrials” in his book The Eighth Tower. His interpretations of alien/UFO phenomena and their ultimate agenda match up fairly consistently with our own and get even closer to the heart of the matter than Zelator.
I know that the very idea of being in an actual Matrix as depicted in the movie is a difficult pill to swallow. We have been taught so many things from so many sources throughout history that tend to blame humanity itself – in the human state exclusively – for all the ills of mankind. Now, yes, it may be so that this state was chosen by a group mind, but the fact is, as the Prodigal Son who wanted to visit the far country, we now find ourselves more or less in the pigsty. In the grand cosmic scheme of things, we probably did it just to enrich our soul with experience and knowledge, and that is all fine and good; but here at this level, where we are still experiencing the far country individually and collectively, we need to go about assessing our condition and coming to some understanding here.
The exact wording of the parable may give us some clues. We read in Luke, Chapter 15, Verse 11 (!):
There was a certain man who had two sons; and the younger of them said to his father, “Father, give me the part of the property that falls to me.” And he divided the livelihood between them. And not many days after that the younger son gathered up all that he had and journeyed into a distant country, and there he wasted his fortune in reckless and loosed-from-restraint living. And when he had spent all he had, a mighty famine came upon that country, and he began to fall behind and be in want.
So, he went and forced (glued) himself upon one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed hogs. And he would gladly have fed on the carob pods that the hogs were eating, but they could not satisfy his hunger and nobody gave him anything better.
Then, when he came to himself, he said, “How many hired servants of my father have enough food and to spare, but I am perishing here of hunger! I will get up and go to my father, and I will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hired servants.’”
So he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was moved with pity and tenderness for him, and he ran and embraced him and kissed him fervently.
And the son said to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son – I no longer deserve to be recognized as a son of yours!” But the father said to his bond servants, “Bring quickly the best robe – the festive, honor robe – and put it on him, and give him a ring for his hand and sandals for his feet; and bring out that fattened calf and kill it, and let us revel and feast and be happy and merry; Because this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found!”
… But his older son was in the field, and as he returned and came near to the house, he heard music and dancing. And having called one of the servant boys to him, he began to ask what this meant. And he said to him, “Your brother has come, and your father has killed that fattened calf, because he has received him safe and well.
But the elder brother was angry – with deep-seated wrath – and resolved not to go in. Then his father came out and began to plead with him, But he answered his father, “Lo, these many years I have served you, and I have never disobeyed your command; yet you never gave me so much as a little kid, that I might revel and feast and be happy and make merry with my friends; but when this son of yours arrived, who has devoured your living with immoral women, you have killed for him that fattened calf!”
And the father said to him, “Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. But it was fitting to make merry, to revel and feast and rejoice, for this brother of yours was dead, and is alive again! He was lost and is found!”
There is marvelous and rich implication in this story, but we are not going to analyze it completely here. We want to look at that crucial part of the story where it says:
And when he had spent all he had, a mighty famine came upon that country, and he began to fall behind and be in want. So, he went and forced (glued) himself upon one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed hogs. And he would gladly have fed on the carob pods that the hogs were eating, but they could not satisfy his hunger and nobody gave him anything better.
This describes the conditions of the Matrix, and it is most curious to me that the word that is translated from the Greek as forced (or joined in the King James Version), kollaw, is derived from kola, which means, literally, glued. He glued himself to a citizen of that country. I can’t help but think of all the many people who glue themselves to belief systems.
Suffice it to say that this gluing suggests a bond of some sort exactly as described by Topper in his “ethereal filaments.” It is also very reminiscent of the medieval figures from the woodcuts in the last section.
But, the fact is, the story tells us that this solution – this gluing or faith – did not work. In fact, he ended up in the deplorable state of having to eat with the pigs. “And nobody gave him anything better.”
So, in this condition, finally coming to the realization that he was not going to get anything better living with the pigs and eating with the pigs, he comes to some very hard realizations:
Then, when he came to himself, he said, “How many hired servants of my father have enough food and to spare, but I am perishing here of hunger! I will get up and go to my father, and I will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hired servants.’ ”
Now, what we would like to know is this: what does it mean, “when he came to himself … [he realized] ‘I have sinned against heaven and in your [his father’s] sight?’”
The clue is given to us in the figure of the pig. So, keep that in mind as we go along here. Remember that the condition of being with the pigs (what we have now come to know as “ponerized” individuals) was a result of gluing himself to the citizen of that country (a psychopathic ruler, i.e. STS dominance).
I’m going to insert some more material from the Cassiopaeans out of the chronology that I have been attempting to establish. No matter, we can get back in linear mode soon. But since the reader is now in a position to understand some elements of the alchemical process of initiation, the slow heat method, it will be easy to see that the Cassiopaeans were heating the crucible in this one. And, curiously, it is also part of the 3-5 code. If, as one individual suggested, I was being “driven mad” by this material, it sure did lead to some astounding discoveries. So, maybe there is method in the madness of the Cassiopaeans.
On December 14, 1996, the following strange conversation with the C’s took place:
Q: (T) [So], there’s a blocking technique being used on people to lower the vibrational frequency to prevent them from seeing, right?
A: The blocking technique is for many things.
Q: (T) So that people do not understand what’s going on around them.
A: Yes. That is it, in a nutshell. See and know and think or … See, know and think that which is desired.
Q: (L) OK, let me jump over to this other subject of the number 33 and the number 11. Is there anything beyond what was given on 11-11-95 that you could add at this time, about any of the mathematics or the use of these numbers?
A: Prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics.
Q: (L) What do you mean, “prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics?”
A: Self-explanatory, if you use the tools given you.
Q: (L) How can a number be a dwelling?
A: Figure of speech. [Planchette spirals several times, vigorously] And how interesting that we have a new “cell” phone company called: “Primeco.”
Q: (L) And how does a cell phone company called Primeco relate to prime numbers being dwellings of mystics?
A: Not for us to answer.
The Cassiopaeans have repeatedly identified our minds as our greatest tool for advancement, so at this point, we stopped to discuss among ourselves, using our minds, to try to figure out just what might be meant by this most mysterious remark that “prime numbers are the dwellings of the mystics” and what it might have to do with cells and phones.
We tried a little word association on the term cells – with the concept of dwelling superimposed on it. What we came up with were: cells of monks, prisons, prime number divisible by one or self. We also thought of encryption because prime numbers are often used in encryption codes.
Q: (L) Is encryption the key?
A: Oh, there is so much here. One example is: “Snake eyes” is not so good as 7, 11, eh?
Q: (T) They are all prime numbers, too; seven and eleven. (L) What kinds of documents or writings … or what would be applicable …
A: No, Laura you are trying to focus, or limit the concept, my dear. Think of it, what is the Judaic-Christian legend for the creation of a woman?
Q: (L) That woman was taken from the rib of Adam. That Eve was created from the rib of Adam.
A: Ever heard of a “prime rib?”
Q: [Groans from the group] (T) I hate being in kindergarten and not knowing what the subject is. OK, prime rib. We have a prime rib, so …
A: What happens in a “Primary.”
Q: (L) An election. You narrow down the candidates. What happens in a primary?
A: Who gets “picked” to run?
Q: (L) OK, keep on …
A: “Prime Directive?”
Q: (L) OK.
A: “Prime time?”
Q: (L) The first, the best … and …
A: Not point.
Q: (L) I know that’s not the point! Is what we’re supposed to see is that we can use these prime numbers to derive something out of something else?
A: We told you about the mystics.
Q: (T) They’re using prime numbers to … (L) Oh, OK, I get it. So, mystics … the mystics, the mystical secrets … dwell in the prime numbers if used as a code.
A: Name the primary mystical organizations for key to clue system.
Q: (L) … Key to clue system?
A: Yes.
We named: Catholicism, Christianity, Judaism, Cabalism, Sufism, Islam, Ancient Mysteries, Jesuits, Masons, Knights Templar, and Rosicrucians.
Q: (L) All right. With our little list that we’re making, are we on to something, or are we completely off track?
A: Yes, now check out those crop circles photos … any prime number combos there?
Q: (L) Do you mean in terms of dimension, or do you mean in composition?
A: Composition and dimensions … anything you can find.
Group discussion: sacred geometries; all sects listed use prime numbers; Genesis 2:22, “rib taken from the man and made woman” – 2 is the only even prime number; Gen. 3:5, “your eyes shall be opened and ye shall be as the gods”; eating from the tree of knowledge, etc.
Q: (T) … To find a way of decoding it to get an answer, to get something, to get a message, to get something from it … (L) Are we thinking in any of the lines of something we ought to follow, or are we drifting?
A: All are lines you ought to follow. Now, look at the photos on the wall! [Referring to large photocopy of a number of crop circles we had pinned to the wall.]
Q: (L) OK, we’re looking at them: point out something …
A: Count the large spheres in photo three.A: Yes.
Q: (L) And what does that photo represent?
A: Not yet.
Q: (T) OK, there are seven large circles; a large central one, and then six outer ones that are smaller. Each of the six smaller circles is connected to the larger circle by a shaft, or a line, or a conduit of some kind.
A: Add large and small spheres.
Q: (L) OK, there’s seven. Add the large to the small and there’s seven; add the little teeny ones, there’s thirteen; and then even the little teeny-teeny, the little knobs on the ends, there would be six more, so that would be nineteen.
A: Yes …
Q: (T) So, that’s another prime. (L) OK, they’re prime numbers. And … (T) Are they … just as an offshoot here, do the six circles, the first set surrounding the large circle, are those the sixth density attached to the seventh density?
A: No comment.
Q: (T) OK now, and then, outside of that are smaller spheres, each one connected one to the next, in a line. We’re looking at prime numbers here. What are we looking at? We’ve got a central one, six outer: large, six outside of that: smaller, six outside of that: tiny … could, and I’m just thinking off the top of my head here, nothing cast in concrete, is this a representation of … a sphere, getting smaller and smaller … going that way. Or, coming in, this way. Or that way and this way. Like the infinity mirrors …
A: If you three dimensionalize.
Q: (L) It would be like balls, like spheres. (T) Ohhh, it’s an axis, an x-y-z axis! A three dimensional axis. Three-dimensionally, it would be like this. [Holds up hand, forefinger pointed up, thumb pointed to himself, third finger at the horizontal.] Larger, smaller, smaller … a three-dimensional axis. Are we going somewhere with this, or am I out in left field again?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) I’m going somewhere with this?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Ahhhh, I now see this as a three-dimensional object as opposed to a flat circle.
A: Do that to the others too.
Q: (L) OK, we’re trying to three-dimensionalize them. Now, tell us where we’re supposed to be going here … (J) Well, this first one is a spiral going out … or a DNA molecule … (T) There’s got to be more to it …A: You do not have to figure this all out tonight, just some food for thought. … Ark may be able to three-dimensionalize by computer program already.
Q: (L) Yes, well, let us get back to this. The crop circles, as I understand you, are related to the code or the mystical prime numbers, the mystical dwellings, and that somehow putting all of these things together, these different pieces of this puzzle from so many different directions, will enable us to perceive or learn or conceive something that will enable us to do something. Is that correct?
A: Close.
Now, if that session wasn’t enough to drive a person bonkers, I don’t know what is. But, as we go through the following material which I dug into as a result of these clues, I think that the perspicacious reader will see just exactly where the Cassiopaeans are pointing us.
Deepak Chopra, M.D. writes about Candace B. Pert, Ph.D., discoverer of the opiate receptor in the early 1970s, in the introduction to her book The Molecules of Emotion:
Her pioneering research has demonstrated how our internal chemicals, the neuropeptides and their receptors, are the actual biological underpinnings of our awareness, manifesting themselves as our emotions, beliefs, and expectations, and profoundly influencing how we respond to and experience our world. (Pert 1999, 9)
The human brain is probably the most complex structure in the universe; in a sense, it might be thought of as a universe in itself. At birth, the infant brain contains about 100 billion nerve cells, or neurons. This number is comparable to the number of stars in the Milky Way galaxy. Now, just think about what a huge electrical potential such a number implies! Yet it is not the number we want to think about just now, but what these neurons actually are doing in this microcosm of our head.
Unlike your average body cell, such as a cell in your stomach or pancreas or the fat in your love handles, the neurons constantly carry complex conversations with one another. Each neuron has, on the average, several thousand contacts with other cells. Some neurons can have as many as 200,000 connections. Can you imagine talking on a phone line connecting to that many other individuals and keeping track of all the conversations? (And yes, that is exactly the analogy that scientists use: a phone company. And a cell phone company at that.)
Dr. Steven Hyman, director of the National Institute of Mental Health, writes:
… Whether we are awake or asleep, our brain cells are doing the neuronal equivalent of a mass phonathon, sending and receiving chemical messages triggered by electrical impulses. They do this by means of specialized appendages. Each nerve cell has a single long fiber called an axon for transmitting information and a fine filigree of fibers called dendrites for receiving information. The length of a given neuron’s axon varies. Some are quite short, but others may extend up to three feet, carrying an electrical impulse from, say the base of the spine to the tip of the big toe. Three feet may not sound like much until one imagines the nerve cell as a kite three feet across – with an axon tail that’s forty miles long. (Hyman 1999, 12)
A neuron sends an electrical pulse down its myelin-insulated axon to the axon terminals where chemicals called neurotransmitters are released to float across the synapse to the dendrites of the receiving neuron. If the sum of all incoming signals is sufficient, the receiving neuron will fire, sending an electrical pulse along its own axon to the next neuron in line. This adding of impulses to decide whether or not the neuron fires is a kind of voting. So, we have a clue to the Cassiopaeans’ use of the term primary, or who gets picked to run.
Now, it is at the terminal of the axon that the electrical impulse is converted into a chemical, the neurotransmitter, which sort of floods the area around the receivers, or dendrites, of the adjacent neuron. The thing that is important here is the fact that the receiver neuron has many little fibers for reception of neurotransmitter signals, but it can be in communication with literally thousands of other neurons. So, how does it decide which one to listen to? And why does it matter?
Well, here is where it gets interesting. Back in the early days of the 20th century, it was realized that a drug must work in the body because they could attach themselves to something in the body. They decided to call this place of attachment a receptor. Nobody really knew how this attaching worked, or why it led to a whole cascade of changes in the body, but there it was. You take a drug, and all kinds of things happened in the brain or other areas of the body.
It is now known, after long years of research, that the receptor is actually a single molecule. Not only that, but it is singularly complicated. Keep in mind that a molecule, by definition, is the smallest possible piece of something that can still be identified as a specific substance.
A molecule is composed of atoms. Atoms seem to form bonds with one another in accordance with certain rules. These rules have to do with the number of electrons in the highest energy shell of the particular atom. An atom is what is by virtue of how many electrons it has, and these electrons are arranged in shells like the orbits of planets around the sun. The only thing is, they can’t be thought of as round planetary bodies, but as a sort of cloud of energy. Full shells are particularly stable so that atoms seem to like to arrange themselves so they can get their outer shells filled. Electrons also come in two flavors, which are referred to as up and down. An up electron likes to pair with a down electron. This refers to the spin state of the atom. And, depending upon the number of electrons in the outer shell of the atom, and how many electrons it would like to have in its outer shell, it can bond to one or more other atoms. Carbon, for example, has a valence of four because it has the ability to make four bonds. Hydrogen has a valence of one because it can only make one bond. This means that a carbon atom, with four connectors, can bond with four hydrogen atoms, each with one connector. This produces molecules of methane, or CH4. Oxygen has valence 2, which means that one carbon atom with valence 4 can bond with each of two oxygen atoms in a sort of double yoke. This produces carbon dioxide, or CO2.
Of course, there are some interesting combinations such as carbon monoxide, which leaves two of the carbon valences dangling, and ozone, which is composed of three atoms of oxygen and leaves two valences dangling. They both lurk about, just waiting to glom onto something.
This next image shows two ways of representing molecules. The method on the right probably more closely represents the reality, in terms of shape, though it is still stylistic.
The most important atom in biology is carbon. It has been discovered that, in the case of carbon, the four bonds extend out from the central atom toward the four corners of a regular tetrahedron. As we noted, carbon has valence 4, and it happens that the most stable configuration of an atom is a filled outer shell of eight electrons. This is, normally, the largest valence any atom can have.
I know that some of you are noticing right away the significance of these numbers and thinking about all of the mystical terms in the world of metaphysics that somehow never manage to make much sense; and now we are beginning to look at these things and realize that such numbers may have a very deep meaning, though not in the ritual and magickal sense. We are getting an idea that perhaps all the myths and so-called secrets that are veiled so heavily in analogy and allegory may just be real science. As Jessie Weston remarked, we may be dealing with the “disjecta membra of a vanished civilization.” And even if it is not garbled information from some ancient peoples who were technically more advanced than we are, it could be information from legitimate higher sources that has been hidden in allusion and mystery. It may be that all the hoo-doo stuff that has been passed down to us is just the mythicization of significant scientific information. And, if that is the case, we need to peel off all of the ritual, the religious nonsense, the hoo-doo stuff, get down to business and discover this science of the soul in real terms.
Getting back to our subject here, this is a very curious puzzle about the carbon atom – the basic atom of our existence. When carbon bonds, the result has been shown by Linus Pauling to be completely symmetrical. That is, the four bonds align towards the corners of a regular tetrahedron. It was deduced that, in addition to the atom liking to have its outer shell filled, the electrons like to be as far apart from each other in the bonded state as possible, which results in this arrangement.
Carbon atoms are very happy to form bonds with other carbon atoms. That is the basis of the famous benzene ring structure. The benzene ring is a particularly stable molecular form because the natural angles made by the four bonding carbon orbitals comfortably fit a six-sided structure – a hexagon!
Now, we could go on for a long time describing bonding and doing diagrams and all that. But, the essential thing to know here is this: the resulting molecules that are brought together in these chemical bonding processes have a particular shape. The carbon bonds have plenty of flexibility, allowing bending, and there can be tangling and doubling back and forth to form very complex and very specific shapes. This bending and tangling brings different atoms of one side group into contact with others, providing all kinds of opportunities for complex bonding. The natural angle between the carbon bonds also makes the benzene ring shape particularly favored and in a long carbon chain, the same natural angle can make the chain tend to loop round and round on itself. In such a case, however, the carbon atoms are not joined to close the ring, but can continue the polymer chain like the coils of a snake.
Carbohydrates, for example, are a group of substances based on the benzene ring structure. In carbohydrates, most of the carbon atoms are joined to two other carbon atoms but have each of their other two bonds used in combination with other atoms or groups, OH on one side and H on the other. Together, without the carbon in the middle, OH and H would make H2O, or water. So, the term carbohydrate means, literally, watered carbon.
The simpler carbohydrates, or watered carbons, are called sugars. If the sugar is a one-ring system, it is a monosaccharide. If it is a double ring structure, it is a disaccarhide. More complex sugars are polysaccharides. Glucose is a monosaccharide. Maltose is a disaccharide. A chain of glucose units can be combined to make a polysaccharide called starch. A slightly different arrangement is another familiar biological substance, cellulose.
Now, there are six carbon atoms in your basic monosaccharide. But, some monosaccharides contain only five carbon atoms, four of which are connected to one oxygen atom in the form of a 5-sided ring. The fifth carbon atom is part of a side group, CH2OH. These compounds are called pentoses. One of them, exactly like glucose except for the missing carbon atom and its associated side groups, is called ribose. Another, similar to ribose except that one of its OH groups has lost the oxygen atom, leaving a simple CH bond behind, is called deoxy-ribose. This means that it is ribose from which one of the oxygens has gone. Deoxy-ribose is the basic unit that provides the name for deoxyribonucleic acid, or DNA, the fundamental molecule of life. Sound like a prime rib-ose?
Getting back to the single molecule receptors on cells, we can understand from the bonding principles we’ve discussed that these receptors have very particular shapes that define precisely what chemical will be attracted to them, or vice versa. We can understand there are atomic forces that cause one molecule to be attracted to another. Receptor molecules on the cell respond to these energies by wiggling, shimmying, vibrating and even humming as they shift back and forth from one favored shape to another. Receptors are attached to a cell, floating on its surface, like a lotus flower on the surface of a pond, with roots extending into the interior of the cell. This lotus flower reference brings to mind the four sons of Horus, sometimes represented as a lotus.
There are many types of receptors on the surface of the cell, and if they were color coded, the cell surface would look like a wild mosaic made up of at least 70 different colors. The numbers of tiles in the mosaic are staggering – 50,000 of one kind, 10,000 of another, 100,000 of still another, and on and on. A typical neuron can have millions of receptors on its surface.
Another interesting analogy that scientists use to describe neurons and receptors is that they are like a tree with buds. In fact, the visual correspondence is so striking that the terms used by scientists for the growth of neurons include branching and arborization. Using this analogy, the bark of the tree is analogous to the neuronal cell membrane, the skin of the cell. However, unlike the bark of a tree, which is hard and static, the cell membrane is a fatty, flexible boundary that keeps the cell as an entity.
Tree of life, anyone?
Now, what do these receptors do? Well, we already know that they attract other molecules and respond to the atomic forces of various kinds of bonds. Dr. Pert writes in her book:
Basically, receptors function as sensing molecules – scanners. Just as our eyes, ears, nose, tongue, fingers, and skin act as sense organs, so, too, do the receptors, only on a cellular level. They hover in the membranes of your cells, dancing and vibrating, waiting to pick up messages carried by other vibrating little creatures, also made out of amino acids, which come cruising along – diffusing is the technical word – through the fluids surrounding each cell. We like to describe these receptors as “keyholes,” although that is not an altogether precise term for something that is constantly moving, dancing in a rhythmic, vibratory way. (Pert 1999, 23)
All receptors are proteins … and they cluster in the cellular membrane waiting for the right chemical keys to swim up to them through the extra-cellular fluid and to mount them by fitting into their keyholes – a process known as binding.
Binding. It’s sex on a molecular level!
And what is this chemical key that docks onto the receptor and causes it to dance and sway? The responsible element is called a ligand. This is the chemical key that binds to the receptor, entering it like a key in a keyhole, creating a disturbance to tickle the molecule into rearranging itself, changing its shape until – click! – information enters the cell. (Pert 1999, 23)
So, again we have our cell phone analogy. And, I don’t think it is taking the analogy too far to say that a ligand is the cellular equivalent of a phallus. Ligand comes from the Latin ligare, or that which binds. The same word is also the root of religion. Curious, yes? But we will leave speculation on that matter to a later time, also.
Receptors are the first components of emotion.
A ligand is any natural or man-made substance that binds selectively to its own specific receptor on the surface of a cell. The ligand bumps onto the receptor and slips off, bumps back on, slips back off. When it is bumping on, it is binding, and each time it does this it transfers a message by its molecular properties to the receptor.
Dr. Pert writes:
Though a key fitting a lock is the standard image, a more dynamic description of this process might be two voices – ligand and receptor – striking the same note and producing a vibration that rings a doorbell to open the doorway to the cell. What happens next is quite amazing. The receptor, having received a message, transmits it from the surface of the cell deep into the cell’s interior, where the message can change the state of the cell dramatically. A chain reaction of biochemical events is initiated as tiny machines roar into action and, directed by the message of the ligand, begin any number of activities – manufacturing new proteins, making decisions about cell division, opening or closing ion channels, adding or subtracting energetic chemical groups like the phosphates – to name just a few. In short, the life of the cell, what it is up to at any moment, is determined by which receptors are on its surface, and whether those receptors are occupied by ligands or not. On a more global scale, these minute physiological phenomena at the cellular level can translate to large changes in behavior, physical activity, even mood.
… As the ligands drift by in the stream of fluid surrounding every cell, only those ligands that have molecules in exactly the right shape can bind to a particular kind of receptor. The process of binding is very selective, very specific! In fact, we can say that binding occurs as a result of receptor specificity, meaning the receptor ignores all but the particular ligand that’s made to fit it. The opiate receptor, for instance, can “receive” only those ligands that are members of the opiate group, like endorphins, morphine, or heroin. The Valium receptor can attach only to Valium and Valium-like peptides.
… Ligands are generally much smaller molecules than the receptors they bind to, and they are divided into three chemical types. The first type of ligand comprises the classical neurotransmitters, which are small molecules with such unwieldy names as acetylcholine, norepinephrine, dopamine, histamine, glycine, GABA, and serotonin. These are the smallest, simplest of molecules, generally made in the brain to carry information across the gap, or synapse, between one neuron and the next. …
A second category of ligands is made up of steroids, which include the sex hormones testosterone, progesterone, and estrogen. All steroids start out as cholesterol, which gets transformed by a series of biochemical steps into a specific kind of hormone. …
… My favorite category of ligands by far, and the largest, constituting perhaps 95 percent of them all, are the peptides. … Like receptors, peptides are made up of strings of amino acids …
[Peptides are tiny pieces of protein and the word protein is derived from proteios, which means primary. Proteins are recognized as the fundamental materials for life. A peptide consists of a string of amino acids joined together like beads on a string. The bond that holds the amino acids together is made up of carbon and nitrogen. This bond is so strong that it takes hours, and in some cases, days of boiling in strong acid to break it apart! When there are approximately 100 or more amino acids in such a protein, it is called a polypeptide. After it reaches 200 amino acids, it is then known as a protein. (p. 64)]
… If the cell is the engine that drives all life, then the receptors are the buttons on the control panel of that engine, and a specific peptide (or other kind of ligand) is the finger that pushes that button and gets things started. (Pert 1999, 24, 25)
Amino acids are strung together to make peptides in a little factory called a ribosome, which is found in every cell. The ribosome is, itself, composed of many different proteins in addition to three molecules of ribonucleic acid. Following instructions, part of the DNA will unwind and make a working copy of RNA which then floats over to the ribosome. Every amino acid has a triplet code that causes a given amino acid to be transferred and joined to the growing chain of the peptide on the Ribosome.
Another prime rib?
Now, remember what we started with here: chemists came up with the idea that drugs worked in the body by attaching themselves to something in the body. And now we know about receptors and that they are receptive to chemicals manufactured by the body itself. More than this, we find that, in addition to the electrical based transmission of nerve impulses, the telephone system – the ligand-receptor system – represents a second nervous system. And it seems that this chemical-based system is far more ancient and more basic to the organism.
Until this new cell phone company was brought into focus in the 1970s, most scientific attention had been given to the neurotransmitters and the little jump they facilitated across the synaptic cleft. The basic neurotransmitters seemed to carry a basic message of either on or off.
The peptides (remember, this word is related to the number 5, and there are 3 basic types of chemical messengers, so we are actually looking at one part of the 3-5 code here) can act like neurotransmitters, diffusing across the synaptic cleft, but their primary function seems to be to move through extra-cellular space, flowing with the blood and cerebrospinal fluid, traveling great distances in the body, and stimulating complex and fundamental changes in the cells when they lock onto the receptors.
In 1984, breakthroughs in biochemistry enabled science to understand the receptors as a bodywide network of information; the biochemical basis of emotions. More research has demonstrated that the receptors and ligands are the information molecules of a language used by cells throughout the organism. This communication connects areas of body function that include the endocrine systems, neurological, gastrointestinal, and most importantly the immune system.
… [T]he musical hum of the receptors as they bind to their many ligands, often in the far-flung parts of the organism, creates an integration of structure and function that allows the organism to run smoothly, intelligently. (Pert 1999, 27)
I think that the reader may already be realizing that unified states of consciousness, or the dwelling of the mystics, is related to what sort of receptors and ligands are binding, and that frequency resonance has a lot to do with which song is being sung by the cells, and that this is clearly the understanding that the Cassiopaeans wished to convey in their mysterious remarks about prime numbers and cell phones. But, of course, the question is: what are the precise desirable chemicals one might wish to produce, and exactly how might this be done?
It is in answering these questions that we find our way out of the trap of the Predator’s mind.
Remember that no drug can act unless fixed. This means, that if a drug works, it is because there is a receptor for it in the body. This, then, suggests that the receptor is there because it binds to a ligand produced by the body itself, which suggests that the body can produce its own drugs, stimulating its own healing, under the proper circumstances.
Looking in another direction, when we consider drugs that change behavior, such as heroin, marijuana, Librium, angel dust, PCP, and so on, precipitate radical changes in emotional states and must also be able to bind because there are receptors for similar substances produced by the body. LSD and other hallucinogens, which produce changes in cognition, must do so because there are receptors specific to them; suggesting again, that under proper circumstances such chemicals may be produced by the body itself.
It is unfortunate that Dr. Pert has taken the position that a change in emotional state relates to a change in consciousness, because it is clear that drugs produce many temporary emotional changes and result in a general decline of overall consciousness; whereas what we are looking for is the connection to produce lasting changes in consciousness – true consciousness – and not the imitation of the Predator’s mind, the addiction to emotion that keeps us asleep in the Matrix Control System, the lunchbox of fourth-density STS.
After an accident that put her in hospital, Dr. Pert was given first hand experience with a drug that alters emotion:
There was no doubt that the drug’s action in my body produced a distinctly euphoric effect, one that filled me with a bliss bordering on ecstasy, in addition to relieving all pain. The marvelous part was that the drug also seemed to completely obliterate any anxiety or emotional discomfort I had as a result of being confined to a hospital bed and separated from my husband and young child. Under its influence, I’d felt deeply nourished and satisfied, as if there weren’t a thing in the world I wanted. In fact, I liked the drug so much that, as I was ending my stay at the hospital, I very briefly toyed with the idea of stealing some to take with me. I can see how people become addicts!
… I remember marveling at how there were tiny molecules on my cells that allowed for that wonderful feeling I’d experienced every time the nurse had injected me with an intramuscular dose of morphine … (Pert 1999, 33)
Dr. Pert supplies the example of rats in bliss:
… One of my favorite slides … three rats, rolled over on their backs, limbs floppy, eyes closed, obviously in a deep swoon. … You can tell by their body language that they are totally satisfied and don’t have a care in the world – the result of injecting our furry friends with a substance called endorphin, the body’s own natural morphine …
A shocking, but exciting fact revealed by the opiate receptor findings was that it didn’t matter if you were a lab rat, a First Lady, or a dope addict – everyone had the exact same mechanism in the brain for creating bliss … (Pert 1997, 63)
Unfortunately, Dr. Pert again mistakes this mindless bliss as expanded consciousness. As it happens, the brain’s own morphine consists of a pair of peptides, each five amino acids in length, and we are reminded of what the Cassiopaeans said: “Oh, there is so much here. One example: ‘Snake eyes’ is not so good as 7, 11, eh?”
Another peptide, cryptically named “Substance P,” was partially isolated from horse brain and intestines in 1931 by Ulf von Euler. He won a Nobel Prize for his feat, even though Substance P remained a chemically undefined powder for forty years, until Susan Leeman determined its eleven-amino-acid structure in 1971. Susan Leeman, at this writing, has yet to win a Nobel Prize; in fact, she was denied tenure at Harvard, where, after she defined Substance P’s structure, she discovered that the peptide’s activities went beyond those we knew about … (Pert 1999, 67)
The first peptide to be synthetically replicated was oxytocin. Oxytocin is released from the pituitary gland during childbirth and binds to receptors in the uterus where it causes the contractions that expel the baby. It was later learned that oxytocin is not only released during labor, but that it is also responsible for the uterine contractions of the female orgasm. It also binds to receptors in the brain, producing thinking changes that we refer to as maternal behavior. Oxytocin is an eight-amino-acid peptide. It is the active ingredient of the Pituitary gland.
The synthetic creation of peptides includes experimental substitution of one or more of the amino acids in the chain, which can make a drug that is more potent, longer-lasting, and more resistant to decay than the body’s own substance. And this, of course, suggests a sort of breakfast of champions for the cosmic lunch bunch.
As time went on in the mad rush to discover all the peptides and what they might do, it was thought that they were all produced in the brain, and sent out to do their jobs all over the body, as in the instance of localized pain relief on-site, so to speak. It was not until later that it was discovered each and every peptide can actually be made all over the body.
Although the structure of peptides is simple, their effects are complex. This is why they are subcategorized as hormones, neurotransmitters, neuromodulators, growth factors, gut peptides, interleukins, cytokines, chemikines, and growth-inhibiting factors. But, in the end, they are all doing a single thing – conveying information to the body cells. They are a cell phone system composed of protein, or prime substances. Light, if you will.
Peptide receptors were once thought to be confined to the hypothalamus. The discoveries and mapping experiments of Dr. Pert demonstrated that they exist also in the cortex, the part of the brain where higher functions are controlled, and in the limbic system, or emotional brain.
In gathering data to show the map of the opiate receptors, it was discovered that they exist in the lowliest of creatures, right up the evolutionary ladder. This suggested that this molecule had been conserved over time, through eons of evolution. As it turned out, the opiate receptors are most concentrated in the limbic system, or the classical emotional circuit. The opiate receptor has a lot to do with the organism’s pleasure and pain continuum, which programs the body for survival.
Back in the 1950s, behavioral psychologists had discovered that by electrically stimulating certain centers of the brains of rats, the creatures would behave in ways that indicated they were in pain. They also found that other points in the brain processed pleasure, and if the rat was wired to be able to self stimulate this pleasure area, it would do so for hours until collapsing from exhaustion.
There is an area in the brain called the periaqueductal gray, located at the juncture of the third and fourth ventricle in the midbrain. It is a nodal point where many nerves converge for information processing. Although it was not considered in classical terms a part of the limbic system, it has neuronal pathways that hook it into the limbic system. This is an area where opiate receptors are highly concentrated – it is also the area of the brain where pain thresholds are set.
If you’re squeamish, you’re welcome to skip the next few paragraphs and pick up where I mention Expression of the Emotions in Man and Animals.
As the research progressed, it was realized that for a drug addict the first intravenous injection of heroin hits the brain like a sexual orgasm. From this observation, it was thought that the pleasure experienced during orgasm was accompanied by a surge of endorphins into the bloodstream. Experiments were undertaken to measure the levels of endorphins in the blood relating to different behaviors.
Hamsters were used for one study because they are very predictable in sexual terms. As Dr. Pert baldly phrases it:
… [T]wo minutes of licking this or that, three minutes of humping, etc., and the act was complete. The males … ejaculate about twenty-three times per cycle. (Pert 1999, 103)
The animals were injected with a radioactive opiate before copulation, and then, at various points in the cycle, decapitated. The brains were removed and autoradiography was used to see where the endorphins were released during orgasm, and in what quantity. It was found that blood endorphin levels increased by about 200 percent from the beginning to the end of the sex act.
Well, I was pretty green to learn how science discovers things in this particular instance. So, let us hope that if any good comes from this horrible work, that it will in some way bless the sufferings of those poor hamsters. And, let us also keep in mind that similar experiments might be taking place on human beings.
Dr. Pert continued her experiments with the chemistry of emotions for many years. She developed a conceptual understanding based on her assessment that “these biochemicals are the physiological substrates of emotion, the molecular underpinnings of what we experience as feelings, sensation, thoughts, drives, perhaps even spirit or soul.”
In Expression of the Emotions in Man and Animals, naturalist Charles Darwin wrote about the fact that people everywhere have common emotional facial expressions, some of which are also shared by animals. A wolf baring its fangs uses the same muscles of the face that a human does when angry or threatened. It seems that the same physiology of emotions has been preserved and used over and over again throughout eons of time and across species. On the basis of this observation, Darwin theorized that emotions must be a key to the survival of the fittest.
There is clear scientific experimental evidence that the facial expressions for anger, fear, sadness, enjoyment, and disgust are identical whether an Eskimo or an Italian is being studied. Facial expressions that register other emotions such as surprise, contempt, and guilt are likely also pancultural. This suggests that emotions have inborn genetic mechanisms for their expression.
There are other distinctions made in these studies relating to distinguishing between emotion, mood, and temperament. Emotion is the most transient; moods can last for hours or days; and temperament is that which lasts for life. Temperament has been shown, experimentally, to be genetically based, and it is likely that the parameters for mood and emotion are similarly based in our genes.
When talking about emotions in this way, it has to be understood that it includes all the familiar human experiences of anger, fear, sadness, joy, contentment, courage; as well as the sensations of pleasure and pain, and the drive states such as hunger and thirst. All of these are measurable in chemical terms.
However, Dr. Pert, as I have already noted, goes even further and refers to more intangible states, or subjective experiences, such as spiritual inspiration, awe, bliss and other states of consciousness. I think she has failed to make the distinction between chemicals that produce states and states that produce chemicals.
Getting back to our opiate receptors and the limbic system: it has been shown that core limbic brain structures such as the amygdala, hippocampus, and limbic cortex, believed to be involved in emotional behavior, contain 85 to 95 percent of the various neuropeptide receptors. Wilder Penfield, working in the 1920s, experimented during open-brain surgeries undertaken to control severe epilepsy. He found that when he electrically stimulated the limbic cortex over the amygdala (the two almond-shaped structures on either side of the forebrain, about an inch or so into your brain from your earlobes), he could elicit a whole gamut of emotional displays. His patients gave powerful reactions of grief, anger, joy and more as they relived old memories. Their bodies would shake with rage or laughter, they would weep copious tears, and their blood pressure and temperature would fluctuate appropriately in accordance with whatever was being experienced.
NIMH researcher Paul MacLean popularized the idea that the limbic system was the seat of the emotions. His triune brain theory held that there are three layers to the human brain, as we have already discussed in psychological terms of imprinting. MacLean proposed that these three layers represent different stages of humanity’s evolution. The brain stem, or first circuit, is called the reptilian brain (isn’t that interesting?). This is the seat of autonomic functions, including the fight or flight response. It is here that safety of the organism is monitored and, if certain threats are perceived, it will trigger an automatic cascade of responses designed to preserve life of the organism.
The limbic system, or second circuit, encircles the top of the brain stem and is, as we have already discussed, the seat of the emotions. The cerebral cortex, or third circuit, the forebrain, is the seat of reason. But it can also manifest emotions!
This leads us to the fact that opiate receptors are also very dense in the frontal lobes of the cerebral cortex of the human brain, and this part of the brain shares many connections with the amygdala, one of the limbic structures, or part of the seat of emotions.
The frontal cortex, theoretically the most newly evolved, the most human, of the brain structures must forge pathways between itself and the rest of the brain to enable humans to learn to control their emotions and act unselfishly. Although the capacity to learn this is present to some extent in even the simplest of creatures, willpower is the uniquely human element. And, it is thought that it resides in the frontal cortex.
Psychologist and philosopher William James theorized that emotions originate in the body and are then perceived in the head, where we invent a story to explain them. Writing in 1884, he concluded that the source of emotions is purely visceral, originating in the body and is not cognitive, and that there is very likely no brain center for emotions. He thought that we perceive events and have bodily feelings, and after the perception, which jogs our memories and imagination, we label our physical sensations as one or the other emotion. He believed that there is simply perception and bodily response based on memory of other events that relate to the present experience. He thought that their immediate sensory and motor reactions that occur in response to the perception, such as a pounding heart, a tight stomach, tension and perspiration, are emotions.
Physiologist Walter Cannon posited that they originated in the head and trickle down to the body. Writing in Wisdom of the Body, he explained the workings of the sympathetic autonomic nervous system. A single nerve called the vagus (wandering) nerve exits the back of the brain through a hole in the bottom of the skull called the foramen magnum. There, it splits to run down the bundles of nerve cells, or ganglia, along either side of the spinal cord to send branches to many organs, including the pupils of the eye, the salivary glands, the heart, the bronchi of the lungs, the stomach, the intestines, the bladder, the sex organs, and the adrenal glands.
When Cannon stimulated the vagus through electrodes implanted in the hypothalamus in the bottom of the brain just above the pituitary gland, he demonstrated physiological changes in all these organs consistent with what would be needed by the body in an emergency. Cannon was able to measure how much time it took from the moment the hypothalamus got the jolt to the moment the bodily changes in blood flow, digestion, and heartbeat began to occur as a result. The conclusion was that these changes were too slow to be the cause of emotions rather than the effect. Not only that, but animals whose vagus nerve had been cut, and presumable were incapable of sympathetic visceral bodily changes, still seemed to behave just as emotionally when placed in a threatening situation.
It took over a hundred years to realize that both James and Cannon were correct.
Biofeedback is demonstrative of this fact because it is a technique that can enable a person to gain conscious control over physiological processes previously thought to be autonomic and not susceptible to volitional modification.
Elmer Green, a pioneer of biofeedback stated, “Every change in the physiological state is accompanied by an appropriate change in the mental emotional state, conscious or unconscious, and conversely, every change in the mental emotional state, conscious or unconscious, is accompanied by an appropriate change in the physiological state” (Pert 1999, 137).
And it is in this idea that we find a key. If it is true that our physiological state can be manipulated, causing a change in our mental and emotional state, then what we must do is learn to control the emotional and physiological state by conscious will.
There is a tiny cluster of cell bodies in the hindbrain called the locus coeruleus. It projects its norepinephrine-containing nerve endings into the forebrain, and it seems that all the norepinephrine in the forebrain comes from this one source. It was discovered that the pleasure center – the area that, when electrically stimulated, will cause rats and humans to ignore the need for food and sleep in a frenzy of pleasure – is contained within this locus coeruleus.
It seems that, unbeknownst to the earlier researchers, the electrical stimulus for pleasure had worked by causing the release of norepinephrine from the nerve endings along the pathway. Amphetamines and cocaine also work by amplifying this same pleasure pathway by blocking the re-uptake of the body’s own norepinephrine, and thereby increasing the ligand binding to the norepinephrine receptors.
The problem with this idea was that, if peptides and their receptors were only communicating across synapses, they should be only very tiny distances apart. But, the evidence indicated that many of the receptors responding to this were located too far away to be part of specific synaptic gaps. The conclusion was that the greatest source of control of information in the brain – that which determines its state – is the specificity of the receptors and their ability to bind with only one kind of ligand.
In other words, it seems that less than two percent of neuronal communication actually occurs at the synapse. It was seen that the way in which peptides circulate through the body, finding their targets all over the place, makes the brain’s communication system itself more like an endocrine system. As Dr. Pert baldly puts it, the brain is like a bag of hormones!
Yeah. A lunch bag!
And what is being communicated by these peptides is crucial to everything in the body. For example, receptors for sex hormones were identified as the means by which, if testosterone or estrogen is released into the fetus during pregnancy, determines the neuronal connections in the brain and permanently affects the sexual identity of the child. Females fetuses exposed to testosterone like steroids aberrantly produced by their pregnant mothers adrenal gland are more likely to become tomboys. Conversely, excessive estrogen can orient a male fetus to more feminine pursuits in later life.
One very interesting discovery made by Rita Valentino of the University of Pennsylvania showed that the nucleus of Barrington in the hindbrain, formerly believed to control just the emptying of the bladder, has axons continuing the neuropeptide CRF that extend through the vagus nerve all the way to the most distant part of the large intestine, the anus. It has been proven that the sensation of colonic distention, or the feeling of needing to empty the bowels, as well as genital arousal is carried back to the nucleus of Barrington. From that point, there is a short neuronal pathway that connects to the locus coeruleus, the norepinephrine source of the pleasure pathway, which is also loaded with opiate receptors. Once again, Dr. Pert says plainly:
The pleasure pathway hooks up to the control area of these bathroom functions, which is located in the front of the brain. Goodness, is it any wonder … that toilet training is loaded with emotional stuff! Or that people get into some unusual sexual practices involving bathroom behaviors! …
If we accept the idea that peptides and other informational substances are the biochemicals of emotions, their distribution in the body’s nerves has all kinds of significance … the body is the unconscious mind! Repressed traumas caused by overwhelming emotion can be stored in a body part, thereafter affecting our ability to feel that part or even move it. The new work suggests there are almost infinite pathways for the conscious mind to access – and modify – the unconscious mind and the body … (Pert 1999, 141)
As I have already mentioned, it has also been discovered that other areas of the body have high concentrations of almost every neuropeptide receptor known to exist. These areas include the dorsal horn, or back side of the spinal cord in a pattern analogous to the chakras. In fact, in virtually every location where information from any of the five senses enters the nervous system, there are high concentrations of neuropeptide receptors. They are called nodal points. The already mentioned nucleus of Barrington is a nodal point and, depending on what neuropeptide is occupying its receptors, feelings related to sexual arousal or bathroom functions can be switched or modified, made unconscious, or made a priority. Thus, emotions and bodily sensations are intricately intertwined in such a way that each can alter the other – usually at the level of unconsciousness. It can also emerge to consciousness spontaneously, or be deliberately brought to consciousness.
All sensory data coming into the body goes through a filtering process that may or may not reach the frontal lobes. It is in the frontal lobes that the sensory input enters our consciousness. The efficiency of the filtering process, which chooses what stimuli we pay attention to at any given moment, is determined by the quantity and quality of the receptors at these nodal points. The quantity and quality of these receptors is determined by many things, one of the most important being your experiences.
In other words, biochemical changes wrought at the receptor level is the molecular basis of memory. When a receptor is flooded with a ligand, it changes the cell membrane in such a way that the probability of an electrical impulse traveling across the membrane where the receptor resides is facilitated or inhibited, thereafter affecting the choice of neuronal circuitry that will be used. This principle is important not only for understanding how memories are stored in the brain, but that they are also stored in a psychosomatic network extending into the body itself. It is also the underlying principle of imprinting. Just like a printed circuit is embedded in a computer chip, so are our brains and bodies programmed by chemistry and electricity. The decision about what becomes a thought, rising to consciousness, and what remains an automatic circuit pattern, is buried in the body and mediated by the receptors. And memories are stored with their respective emotional content. The emotion can bring up the memory, and conversely a single cue element of the memory can bring on the emotion – even if the memory itself never becomes conscious.
What this means, in the clearest of terms, is this: many memory processes are emotion-driven and unconscious; but they can sometimes be made conscious.
Donald Overton of Temple University documented a widespread phenomenon in animals which was later shown to be equally true in human beings: a rat that learns a maze or receives a shock while under the influence of a drug – which you now know is merely a synthetic ligand – will remember how to solve the maze or avoid the shock most efficiently if it is re-tested under the influence of the same drug. Dr. Pert elaborates:
When we consider emotions as chemical ligands – that is to say, peptides – we can better understand the phenomenon known as dissociated states of learning, or state-dependent recall. Just as a drug facilitates recall of an earlier learning experience under the influence of that same drug for the rat, so the emotion-carrying peptide ligand facilitates memory in human beings. The emotion is the equivalent of the drug, both being ligands that bind to receptors in the body. …
… Clearly, just as drugs can affect what we remember, neuropeptides can act as internal ligands to shape our memories as we are forming them, and put us back in the same frame of mind when we need to retrieve them. This is learning.
… Emotional states or moods are produced by the various neuropeptide ligands, and what we experience as an emotion or a feeling is also a mechanism for activating a particular neuronal circuit – simultaneously throughout the brain and body – which generates a behavior involving the whole creature … (Pert 1999, 145)
What this translates into is that you will automatically run the maze when the emotion-ligand is present. Or, if you find yourself in the maze, and the chemical was one produced by your own body when you first learned the maze, you will produce the same chemicals again – repeatedly.
What this also means in the plainest of terms is that you can feel love when the right ligand bonds to the right receptor stimulated by whatever you are programmed to be stimulated by; you will feel it in all the areas where these receptors are clustered; and you will be certain that it is a positive experience because it feels really good. It doesn’t matter if the ligand is being stimulated by a logically consistent experience or by an illogically inculcated program. And until the element of knowledge and logical analysis are brought into the picture, it’s anybody’s best guess where the feelings come from.
And, that is all fine and good if it is a positive experience. But statistics of our world in practically every arena of life clearly demonstrate that it is very likely that most of humanity do not experience real love when their love ligands are binding. Just take a look at divorce, child abuse, and neglect statistics to get an idea about how terribly wrong we human beings can be about our assessments. And, if we are really paying attention we will take a long hard look at our own lives and experiences and try to determine what our personal track records are. If they aren’t good; if we spend more time being unhappy than happy; if we keep making the same open-hearted mistakes over and over again, we need to take a good look at how our programs are being activated and used to keep us in the lunchbox of the Matrix.
More frightening than that is the fact that higher-level negative beings can most definitely control our emotions by controlling our chemistry, as described. This means they can cause us to feel love or hate or aversion or attraction based on their agenda, not our own.
Going back to the filtering of reality, it seems that most of our body-mind attention shifts are directed subconsciously by our ligands and receptors. They direct our attention by their activities and we are not consciously involved in deciding what gets processed, remembered, or learned. But we do have the possibility of bringing some of it to awareness with the help of various types of intentional training. But, of course, no one undertakes intentional training until the system is so bogged down and there is so much suffering that a cure is sought. And for the most part the cures are sought in pharmacology, which merely exacerbates the problems. As the prodigal son sought to glue himself to a citizen of the far country, we seek our cures in religions of all kinds, including the religion of the American Medical Association. This amounts to being sent to feed and live and eat with the pigs. And only when we have suffered that condition a sufficient period of time will we come to ourselves.
Clearly, based on research, we can see that repressed emotions are stored in the body via the circuit creation effected by the release of neuropeptide ligands. It is also proposed that when the soul finally seats in the body, the soul’s wounds or scars will energetically affect the body, producing any number of neuropeptide stimulating frequencies that then lay circuits of their own that cannot be related to present life experiences. Hypnosis, yogic practices, deep tissue bodywork, can all be methods used to heal or change the circuits without the conscious mind ever figuring out what is going on. The drawback to this is that, not knowing what is going on prevents the conscious mind from avoiding recurrence. My Éiriú Eolas program avoids these drawbacks by healing these circuits while simultaneously working to utilize the conscious mind.
Emotions constantly regulate what we experience as reality. The research suggests that the nervous system scans the outer world for material that it is prepared to find by virtue of its already laid circuits, its internal patterns of past experience including early imprinting in infancy. The superior colliculus in the midbrain, another nodal point, controls the muscles that direct the eyeball, and controls which images are permitted to fall on the retina. This means that an emotional center of the brain literally controls what we see.
For example, when the tall European ships first approached the early Native Americans, it was such an “impossible” vision in their reality that their highly filtered perceptions couldn’t register what was happening, and they literally failed to “see” the ships. Similarly, the cuckolded husband may fail to see what everyone else sees because his emotional belief in his wife’s faithfulness is so strong that his eyeballs are directed to look away from the incriminating behavior obvious to everyone else. (Pert 1999, 148)
I have recently witnessed a great deal of this activity in various people reading The Wave who simply read what they are programmed to read, and not what is really being said. One of the chief clues of STS control is that a person twists what they read. In the past, before I understood the nature of fourth-density control, when I witnessed this phenomenon I would think that the person was deliberately twisting my words. Now, I realize clearly that it is not deliberate. They have not yet come to themselves and overcome the Predator’s mind and admitted the possibility that their very thoughts may be manipulated or controlled. Until they do, they are not ready to admit they “have sinned against heaven”. Because Heaven is the essence of the Creator within, and sinning against it is to allow it to be used as a transducer for food for the STS lunch bunch.
The fact is, we read and understand what we are programmed to believe, regardless of what we are actually reading. Like the alcoholic who finally admits he is an alcoholic, we must admit that we are an addict to our emotional beliefs.
Now, what we have been talking about in terms of these chemical systems of the body is plainly and simply information transmission systems. Information can be unconscious, occurring below the level of awareness. We see this happening all the time in the autonomic nervous system.
The mind is not material, yet it has an interface system with the body, and this is the neurochemical network. The mind of the body is the Predator’s mind, connected to strings like a marionette, with the strings in the hands of the fourth-density puppet masters – the Control System.
For the Darwinists, the body is nothing but energy and matter with hardwired reflexes caused by electrical stimulation; it operates in a more or less mechanical, reactive fashion with little option for change. Intelligence is merely the byproduct of the survival of the fittest genes. The concept of the body as an unintelligent bundle of cells run on electricity as the pinnacle of mindless evolution is a product of an ultimately godless, mechanical universe peopled by clock-like organisms.
Unfortunately, this happens to be the way it is for most human beings. They are computers running programs controlled by someone or something other than themselves. We can no longer think of emotions as necessarily of the soul. While it is likely that the consciousness can enter into the emotional process, for most people this never happens. Their emotions are simply cellular signals involved in the process of translating information into physical reality – generally an unpleasant one which can include all kinds of illnesses, aches, pains and transpersonal suffering.
Neuropeptides and their receptors are in constant communication with the immune system and there are many studies that show a powerful link between emotions and illness, even to a specificity of emotion-disease link. Immune cells constantly squirt out peptides that either increase or decrease the buildup of plaque in coronary blood vessels. Viruses use the same receptors as neuropeptides to enter a cell. Depending on how much of the natural peptide for a particular receptor is available to bind, the virus that fits that receptor will have more or less difficulty getting into the cell. This clearly indicates that the state of our emotions even plays a part in whether or not we contract a viral infection.
I’m sure that most readers have heard of some of the amazing feats of yogis of the East who have achieved control over not only their conscious minds, but also over what are considered to be solely autonomic systems of the body. Various disciplines are used, and we have already talked about the way of the Yogi, the Fakir and the Monk, so we know the basic principles involved. And, we are going to take this principle and apply it in a new way here. Taking just one example of what yogis and fakirs can do, i.e. consciously control pain, let’s look at what might be happening.
As mentioned above, there is an area in the brain called the periaqueductal gray, located around the aqueduct between the third and fourth ventricles of the midbrain. It is filled with opiate receptors, making it a control area for pain perception. It is also loaded with receptors for virtually all the neuropeptides that have been studied.
What seems to happen when yogis and fakirs learn to control their perception of pain is that they are able to gain access to this area of the brain with conscious intent and to reset the pain threshold. That is to say: reframed by conscious expectations and subconscious beliefs, pain can be abolished by being interpreted as either a neutral experience or even pleasant.
And this is our Ace in the hole. We can make ourselves unavailable as food; we can change our systemic responses so that the Matrix unplugs us and dumps us out of the system just like Neo was unceremoniously plucked from his pod when he “woke up.”
But, more importantly: we can train ourselves to not blink. With knowledge and awareness of what is, and what might be, we can never be confronted with a situation, either in the body or out, that will cause us to fall into a negative state.
It seems from all the studies that are done that an elevated mood – one of happy expectation of the possibility of adventure – is the greatest protection against illness. Perhaps it is also the one that makes one inedible to the Matrix?
In 1990, scientist Howard Hall demonstrated that the immune system could be controlled. He instructed his subjects in cyber-physiologic strategies. The word cyber comes from the Greek kybernetes (kubernetes), which means to steer or the navigator. It is interesting that one of the names for the goddess Isis is “the navigator.” And the process of unveiling Isis is that of acquiring knowledge.
In the 1940s, psychologist and psychoanalyst Wilhelm Reich proposed that cancer is a result of the failure to express emotions, especially sexual emotions. Reich was not only ridiculed by the scientific community, he was persecuted in the most reprehensible way. One of the most shameful acts of the United States government was when they called for all copies of Reich’s life’s work to be rounded up by the FDA and incinerated. An official book burning in the land of the free! I rather suspect that Reich was onto something.
Another study showed that cancer patients who failed to release their anger had slower recovery rates. Another trait common to cancer victims was self-denial; this amounts to unawareness of their own, basic, emotional needs. It seems that emotions that are generated or suppressed due to lack of knowledge can be deadly. Since emotional expression is always tied to a specific flow of peptides in the body, the constant generation and suppression of emotions results in massive disturbances of the psychosomatic network. Many psychologists have said that depression is really suppressed anger or even anger redirected against the self.
Identifying, releasing and expressing emotion that has been suppressed is a significant step in the direction of taking charge of your ship and learning to navigate it. But at the same time it is essential to learn to transform emotions.
In the East, part of the training of many paths of yogic wisdom includes meditating in graveyards. Now, a graveyard in the East is quite different from a graveyard in the West. In the East, it is the custom to expose the bodies to the elements so that they will be devoured by birds and other predators. To meditate in such a place is to be confronted by physical horrors that Westerners may find difficult to contemplate. At the same time, there is the superstitious fear of specters and demons that the meditator must deal with. In Tantra yoga, one practice is to make love in a graveyard.
In both cases, the object is to train the consciousness to achieve higher states of mind in the face of the cold, hard facts of life in the material world; to gain mastery over the physical, programmed emotions; to become the navigator.
It is in this sense that the Cassiopaeans teach us that knowledge protects. To have a full field of awareness is to be in control of your ship no matter what may erupt into your life. Information is the bridge between consciousness and matter and without this bridge, matter and its programs – the Predator’s mind – will dominate. The body-mind of the Predator is like the whirlpool of Charybdis and the temptation of the Sirens of ancient myth put together. Like Ulysses, we must lash ourselves to the mast of our ship, stuff the ears of our rowers with wax, and call upon knowledge (nymphs) to help guide us through the dangers.
Information transcends time and space. It is, as Gregory Bateson has said, “the difference that makes a difference.” Consciousness exists prior to the physical realm which is, literally, an out-picturing of consciousness. Denying the realities of the real world – denying the reality of the naturalness of the existence of darkness, is the same as being manipulated to have negative emotions while, at the same time being taught to suppress them. It will still exist and it will back up in your system and become the chief part of your reality because, like blocked emotions, it cannot be released so that positive emotions can take its place.
Now please note: I am not saying that we are to have, express, or embrace negative emotions; just as I have never said, nor have the Cassiopaeans ever said that we are to “embrace the darkness.” Those who want to assure themselves of this fact need to go back and reread “Stripped to the Bone” in Wave 3 while making sure that their manipulated emotional beliefs are set aside. That whole chapter is about the fact that we must choose an orientation that includes seeing the darkness and giving it the free will right to exist, since it is the free will choice of darkness to be darkness. However, to graduate to STO 4D, one must increase their STO polarization by choosing to divest themselves of darkness, even while allowing others the choice to embrace it.
And, in the same way, we must find appropriate ways to divest ourselves of the manipulated negative emotions that are backed up in our systems, as in practicing Éiriú Eolas, and learn how to use our reason and will to make sure that we only have positive emotions.
With an increase of information, the navigator steers the ship by constantly adjusting the tiller in response to the information. Constant feedback is required for the navigator to do the job and that is why knowledge must be combined with self-monitoring so as to have a more intelligent grasp of what is happening in your physical system and in its relation to the reality that you are experiencing. The faster and tighter the feedback loop, the more intelligence is available to your system. The body itself is a metaphor of your unconscious state. As more of it becomes conscious, there are fewer and fewer unexpected elements cropping up in your life. The body is a battlefield for the wargames of the mind. And these games are, very likely, planned and executed from higher densities. As above, so below. To think otherwise is to suffer the stress of separation from our source, to experience lack of unity. And what is it that flows between us all, linking and communicating, coordinating and integrating all of the cosmos?
Knowledge.
Just as neuropeptides flow among the cells of the body, causing all the receptors to vibrate in response to information, so does knowledge act on our consciousness the way the strings of a resting violin will vibrate when another violin is played. Knowledge produces resonance among different people who are unique, but unified in their diversity. With knowledge we can truly feel what others feel – not just assume that they feel what we feel. The oneness of life is based on the simple fact that with knowledge, we are all vibrating together.
Knowledge protects.
And now, let’s learn about the strategy of some of these wargames.
Addiction.
I have made the statement that we are made addicts inside our own skins. And I am fairly certain that most people reading that remark are quite certain they are not! Especially if they are careful of their diet and habits of mental and physical hygiene.
But, I say again: we are made addicts inside our own skins. And what’s more, we are addicted to our emotions. Curiously, the ones who resist that idea most strenuously are very much like an alcoholic who vigorously and vehemently declares that they are not an alcoholic.
Alcohol.
It’s everywhere. Tens of millions of human beings experience the consequences of alcohol addiction, from decreased job performance to liver damage to spouse and child abuse, to total breakdown of social concepts and constraints ending in the proverbial skid-row bum looking every day for his MD 20–20 – or even a can of Sterno. And that is just alcohol. We aren’t even going to list the statistics for other drugs as it would be tedious and pointless. You get the idea.
Alcohol and other drugs have the ability to do what they do in our systems because they are fixed. They are synthetic ligands, they bind to our receptors and in various ways produce their effects. It is the nature of these specific effects that we now want to examine.
When an ovulating female boar is exposed to a pheromone from a male boar’s saliva, the scent travels along the olfactory nerve directly into the amygdala, stimulating the release of neurotransmitters, the result is that she becomes immediately and completely paralyzed in a spread–legged mating posture. Naturally, this fact has led to the marketing of a number of pheromone based men’s colognes designed to produce the same effect in the human female. (Nice try, guys.)
If you give rats in a cage access to food and cocaine, the rats will consume the cocaine and ignore the food. And they will end up starving themselves to death, despite the limitless supply of available food. And of course that makes us think of the alcoholic who has gin for breakfast, bourbon for lunch, and brandy for dinner – ending up in the hospital with a severe case of malnutrition.
Caffeine is the most frequently used drug of all. In his Coffee Cantata of 1732, J.S. Bach wrote: “Ah! How sweet coffee tastes! Lovelier than a thousand kisses, sweeter far than muscatel wine!” A couple of centuries later, Isak Dinesen wrote: “Coffee … is to the body what the word of the Lord is to the soul.”
Caffeine has a strong effect on nearly every animal species. Rats being taught to navigate through mazes learn their lessons faster after being given coffee. Not only that, but they remember better. Competitive cyclists have discovered that they can pedal twenty per cent longer if they drink caffeine an hour before racing. Some of them even go to the extreme of using caffeine suppositories before racing – sort of a time release kick in the behind!
Following ingestion of caffeine, even sperm get a kick. They swim faster and wiggle more vigorously increasing their ability to hit the spot.
What we want to know here is, how does caffeine work?
As our neurons process information, they produce cellular waste including a buildup of molecules of adenosine. Adenosine is a ligand that binds with the adenosine receptor, sending a message deep into the cell that it is time to sleep. As the production of adenosine continues throughout the day, as a byproduct of cerebral activity, more and more adenosine is produced, binding with more and more receptors, sending more and more sleep messages into more cells. And little by little our brain cells become more and more sluggish until we simply must go to sleep. We literally cannot remain conscious. We yawn, our eyes may water and try to close and we just want to curl up and let the lights go out.
So, we have a cup of espresso. The caffeine molecule just happens to be the right shape for the adenosine receptor. It hops on and binds, thereby blocking the real adenosine that sends the sleep message. Apparently, caffeine sends a different message, or at least prevents the sleep message from being sent. It interrupts the sleep signal.
This is just a small example of how dramatically chemicals can affect the brain.
We have already mentioned the rats who were implanted with electrodes for self–stimulation and would push the button until they were exhausted. Well, there were additional experiments done along this line. It seems that if the electric reward is doled out only when the rats learn a new trick – such as navigating a maze. The little critters would go to work like crazy to get the job done so that they could get their buzz. As long as the rewards keep coming, the rats will keep working, even mastering incredibly complex and seemingly impossible mazes that humans would find nearly impossible.
But it’s not the learning they love. We already know that, given the opportunity, they will forget everything – food, mates, friends, whatever – to push that button until they collapse in mindless ecstasy.
Now, in the human being, as in other creatures, the sensation that is experienced as orgasm is the same release of chemicals that stimulate the same part of the brain that makes the rats so happy. Some scientists refer to this in technical jargon as the “do it again” center. (Cf. Burnham and Phelan.) When this center is stimulated, whatever activity is associated with it will be sought again and again.
We have, it seems, a lot of “do it again” chemicals with a lot of “do it again” receptor sites all over our bodies. Certain foods in different people act in this way. Some people feel euphoria when they achieve victory over a rival in some sort of competition. Aside from the most obvious example of sex, these are examples of other things that can cause the secretion of these “do it again” chemicals.
By having such a pleasure system in our bodies, we have a built in reward system by which we can be manipulated to pursue any number of activities that may or may not be good for us; mostly based on – you guessed it – early imprinting. And, we are generally unaware of it; we simply engage in certain behaviors because it feels good and we want to do it again. We were rewarded for them as infants and small children, and we constantly seek that programmed behavior in order to receive the reward. Never mind that our early programming may have been for behaviors that completely block the true expression of our essence, or that they are based on fairy tales or unrealistic perceptions of life.
Now, drugs short circuit these centers. The ways that drugs work are interesting, but in our context here we just want to look at them as a sort of path to understanding the body’s own chemicals. When we take certain drugs, our brain acts as if the natural neurotransmitter was flooding the system. The brain thinks we have done something really great such as finding food or warmth while, in reality, we may be hunkered down in a flophouse with a hypodermic of heroin in our arm. Our pleasure centers know only that they are bathed in chemical bliss. Never mind that the first time we tried it, we were disgusted and repelled by the setting, the process, all the external elements. Once we have received that reward, we are convinced that this nasty setting, this ignominious behavior that is clearly damaging to the self, is okay and desirable for the reward we are going to get.
Now, let’s take a look at this in a practical way. Psychologist Barbara De Angelis writes in her book Are You the One for Me?:
Falling in love is a magical and powerful experience. Each kiss, each conversation, each moment in the beginning seems so right, so perfect. But soon attraction and infatuation become a “relationship,” and we are brought down to earth with the challenging realities of sharing our life with another human being. And as those first enchanted weeks turn into months, one day we find ourselves asking: “Is this person right for me?”
… Since my first serious relationship at seventeen, and, until recently, I fell in love without giving serious consideration to whether the person was right for me, let alone whether they loved me enough. Someone showed up, and if he had something lovable about him, I would start a relationship. I’d convince myself he was “the one,” only to find out that we were incompatible and watch the relationship fail. …
After too many heartbreaks, I was forced to face the sad truth: in spite of my experience, education, and my intense desire to be happy, I continually chose partners who were not right for me. I was falling in love with the wrong people for the wrong reasons. (De Angelis 1992, 3, 4)
Have you ever thought or said the following about one of your relationships?
“How could I have been so blind? Why didn’t I see what he/she was really like?”
“I felt so sure that, this time, it would work. Where did I go wrong?”
“He seemed so wonderful when we first met. I can’t figure out why he changed into someone I can’t stand.”
“All the signs were there from the beginning that she didn’t feel the way I did. I guess I just ignored them and convinced myself things would get better.”
“We loved each other, but we couldn’t agree on anything, and all we did was argue.”
“I was so sure he was different from the other men I’d been with. It took me almost two years to find out that I’d picked the same type of guy all over again! How could I have wasted so much time?”
“I remember feeling really in love with her at the time, but the truth is, I never told anyone we were together because I was embarrassed to admit I was even involved with a woman like that.”
“Everything about him seemed so perfect; I kept telling myself that I should be happy with him, but there just wasn’t any chemistry.” (De Angelis 1992, 5)
Such situations arise because of the fairy tales we are taught as children. The examples of lying to ourselves about our true feelings, which are set because we are told and shown that rewards only come when we suppress our true feelings and follow the rules. Dr. De Angelis continues:
Ask most people why they fell in love with their partners, past or present, and you’ll probably hear answers like this:
“I met Kathy at the gym where I work out. Something about the way she got so into that aerobics class and gave it so much energy really appealed to me.”
All Kathy’s boyfriend knows about her is that she has a lot of physical energy. [He is programmed by his particular socio–cultural system to believe that physical energy is very good and will be rewarded. Thus, somebody who has a lot of physical energy is “lovable.” He may also have had very positive experiences with someone in his childhood who had a lot of physical energy, and who regularly made him feel loved.]
“Donna was a bridesmaid at my cousin’s wedding. She looked so beautiful in this pink strapless dress – I knew on the spot I was going to fall in love with her.”
All Donna’s boyfriend knows about her is that she looked good in pink chiffon. [We might think that the color pink has powerful associations in his amygdala.]
“Jo Anne and I knew each other since we were kids. Everyone always said we’d probably get married when we grew up, and I guess I never even questioned it – it seemed like the right thing to do.”
Jo Anne’s husband has been so influenced by what his friends and family think that he doesn’t even know why he loves her. [We might think that “obedience to the family” has received some very positive reinforcement in his life. Conversely, thinking for himself may have received a great deal of negative reinforcement.]
“Alex and I were assigned to work together on a project in our office. I think it was watching him problem-solve – he is so creative – that attracted me to him.”
Alex’s girlfriend is enthralled with his business skills but has no idea what his emotional skills are. [Creativity in solving problems may have been well rewarded in her home environment as a child. She may also have been exposed to highly creative “problem solvers” as male role models, receiving regular rewards from them. Thus, she associates these skills with love.]
“I’ve always been a sucker for music, so when I heard Frank play the guitar at a friend’s house, I knew he was the one for me.”
Frank’s partner has fallen under a musical spell – she knows nothing about him except for the romantic personality she assumes all guitar players have. [And why does she assume this? Because it is programmed into her amygdala.]
“This sounds terrible, but I always had this fantasy of a tall, dark-haired man with a mustache. Dennis looked exactly like that, and nothing else really mattered.”
Dennis’s girlfriend likes the way he looks – she is attracted to a fantasy, but doesn’t know anything about the person underneath. [And where did she get the fantasy? A program.]
None of these people thought they were making the wrong decision. They all sincerely believed that they were making intelligent, sensible choices in their partners. But the frightening truth is that many of them will discover in a month, or six months, or six years that they are in a relationship with the wrong person.
Most people put more time and effort into deciding what kind of car or video player to buy than they do into deciding whom to have a relationship with. (De Angelis 1992, 7, 8)
As De Angelis writes, “Love myths are beliefs many of us have about love and romance that actually prevent us from making intelligent love choices. … Consciously and unconsciously, we base our decisions in relationships on these love myths.” (p. 12) For example:
If I love my partner enough, it won’t matter that:
He drinks
Our sex life isn’t great
She criticizes me all the time
We fight constantly over how to raise the children
He is a strict Catholic and I am Jewish
I’m not really sexually attracted to her
He doesn’t have a job and hasn’t worked in two years
She has a terrible temper and blows up all the time
She constantly flirts with other women
I don’t get along with her children
He has a hard time telling me how he feel
His family doesn’t accept me
I want children and he doesn’t
She still hasn’t gotten over her ex–boyfriend (p. 14)
One way to tell if your relationships are simply running the program is to examine how you prove to yourself that you are really in love. Do you dwell on the intense connection of chemistry in the beginning, trying always to recapture this, and fail to examine the rest of the relationship?
Have you ever convinced yourself that you love your partner to justify continuing to have sex with them, even though the fire has gone out long ago? Conversely, have you ever been in a relationship where the only place you got along together was in bed?
When we believe the love myths, we inevitably become involved with people we are not really compatible with. We feel constantly empty and none of our needs are fulfilled. And at the same time, even if we are trying to fulfill their needs, we know it’s an effort to get them to fulfill our needs, and the relationship has nowhere to go but down.
And then we are faced with the next love myth problem: we stay in the relationship longer than we should and have trouble letting go of a partner who, in moments of cold clarity, we realize are not right for us. We do this because we are taught to. We see the examples set for us as children; we are rewarded for not being a quitter, and are inculcated in the belief that a promise is a promise, and keeping promises, at whatever cost to us, is rewarded, while breaking them will result in dire consequences. The family pressures of our social and cultural beliefs strongly come into play here, and we are convinced that we must always sacrifice our wants and needs for those of others. We must suffer to be good, and to be rewarded. We live our lives like Dicken’s Oliver, saying: “I want more.” And we want more because we are starved and drained, and manipulated to suffer so as to be food for the upper echelons of the Control System: fourth-density STS.
Now, let’s look at a real life situation that plays out the drama exactly as the theorists have predicted. Some time ago I received correspondence from a reader who wrote to me describing her years of suffering; her dreadful childhood, her marital unhappiness, suicidal feelings, and on and on. She described her father as “a highly intelligent and spectacularly manipulative individual, endowed with psychic energies and a very heavy ‘presence’,” and her mother as “beautiful, clever, unhappy, terrorized by my father – as was I – and learned to like alcohol.”
She described her first marriage, children and divorce, increasing health problems and finally meeting her present husband who “was the first person I knew who was willing to accept me and my children. I was not ‘in love’ with him, though I found him attractive. I thought love would come later. … Later we had two children of our own.”
The next remark is particularly telling considering the description of her father as “highly intelligent and spectacularly manipulative individual, endowed with psychic energies and a very heavy ‘presence’ … ” She wrote:
My husband also has strong intuitive and psychic abilities … my husband and I bickered almost from the start, and it only grew worse. Not a day has gone by in over 30 years of marriage that we have not been at each other’s throats, or without raised voices. Our life together has been chaotic, moving constantly, no coherent thread to my life, though it doesn’t seem to affect him much. He loves to travel, and I did too at first. Now I am numb. Our misadventures along the way would make a saga. I have always turned them into comedies, but underneath there is a great waste of a life. My life.
But notice: even though she describes her husband as psychic, reflecting the programmed imprint of the father, and clearly she is looking for a father because she was not in love, but she married him because he accepted her and her children, she does not ascribe to her husband the same heaviness of the father, nor the spectacular ability to manipulate. She made a conscious effort to not marry the father. And yet, she did. Not only that, she had become her mother. No, she was not terrorized by her husband, not in the overt way her father terrorized, but the result was exactly the same. You could even say that it was a form of unconscious manipulation through poverty, as is clear in the following remark:
And strangely he once said he wondered if I brought him my “bad luck,” for our life together has been an unending series of bad choices, bad decisions, financial catastrophes. Even our friends over the years have shaken their heads in mystification.
Apparently, this husband is a far better manipulator than her father was – mainly because he seems to be not even conscious that he is manipulating. One of the clearest clues to being manipulated is feeling guilty.
I am consumed by guilt, which has been my overriding emotion for all the years of our marriage. Guilt over what I can’t imagine. The failure to make another happy? But why can’t he see I am dying by inches? … I have not accomplished what I need to in this life, and I never will as things are. … Why had I always put off my own path and tried to please everybody else and live up to their own agendas?
So, even though we read in these words the fact that this woman clearly has all the answers to her problems right there in her own psyche, she cannot see them. The soul inside her is dying to live. But her programs are too strong. The belief in the love myths is dominating, and the clear and present danger of the predator is not even suspected.
I have lost all interest in anything except the natural world I see on my daily walks. I must have wept gallons of tears in the past several months. Anything will trigger me off. I look at a cloud and start weeping. Yet my husband notices nothing. Nothing at all, save for the fact I am a little … undemonstrative. I long for solitude, for inner freedom, for tranquility. The thought of saying this to my husband is terrifying. … Every day I fade a little more.
Why is it terrifying to tell her husband what she is feeling? Remember, she has married someone who is not terrifying, someone she can fight with and talk back to … not someone like her father who terrorized her mother. Yet, she is no less terrorized!
Two of my children – who love their father, by the way – agree with my assessment of him as an overbearing human “steamroller.”
But, even with the agreement of her children, it seems this is a burden to be borne because of love. Nevertheless, it is a certainty that this spectacularly manipulative husband of hers senses that he is losing his grip on her, and the manipulation takes a new turn: health. You can’t abandon a sick man, for sure, or society and everyone else will punish you and reject you and you definitely won’t get your emotional fix by being a good girl.
Last fall my husband was diagnosed with Hodgkins’ Lymphoma. He almost died. He was away in the hospital for three months and I was here alone. For the first time in 30+ years I felt lighthearted, as if a weight were lifted off me. I was totally happy. I knew I could never tell him so. My mind became sharp again and I actually gained weight (I had grown gaunt). Now he is back and ending his chemotherapy. And I have become deeply depressed, talk myself out of it for several days, then once more think of death – and hope my body will respond to my wish.
And here we have the greatest clue of all as to the machinations of a typical feeder line of fourth-density STS: it must be in proximity to work. With the absence of the husband, everything changed. And, of course, it was an absence that was not due to her actions – at least not apparent to her, though it is exactly as likely that he is suffering inside as much as she is, with less ability to articulate it. Her proximity to him stimulates the chemicals of suffering in him that makes him a good meal; and conversely, his proximity to her stimulates the release of the chemicals that make her a good meal. It’s a two-way street. But, of course, this period of respite helped her to come to a realization:
I know I must leave him, though it will hurt him terribly. He has always loved me, and never understood why I am not more demonstrative. I have tried, but my heart is nowhere.
And the problem here is the fact that, just as she is living in a love myth, so is he. Her myth says that he will suffer terribly if she leaves; and his myth says that he will suffer terribly if she leaves. Problem is, they are both myths. She ended her letter with:
If the Cs can shed any light on this issue, or point out for me what I do not see clearly, it might save my life – if not in the physical sense, certainly in the greater sense. … I leave it up to you.
Well, as the reader has probably already figured out, it didn’t take the Cassiopaeans or even a rocket scientist to figure this one out. I did think about one woman who advised me against my own divorce by telling me, “the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t know.” The idea was, that if I divorced, I might make the same mistake again, and be in an even worse situation. But, my response to that was that the devil I knew was well enough known that I didn’t need to learn anymore about him to know that being alone was a better option.
I was, of course, hesitant to give advice. That’s always a dangerous path to tread, even if the person really seems to be asking. More often than not, they are looking for something that will bring on a shakedown in their lives, which they can then blame on you. Nevertheless, it seemed pretty desperate and heartfelt a plea, and I responded:
I saw your situation completely when you first wrote to me. It was very much my own with slight variations, and yours has lasted longer.
What is the difference?
Everything you have said, I could have said myself in one way or another. The same descriptions of the husband, the same descriptions of the relationships etc. What is the difference?
I started to read the clues. And you have the same clues I had. I noticed that my health improved and my mind was clear when my ex was absent. I noticed that fortunes improved when and only when I was in charge of what happened. I noticed that he was also declining in health and that was a clue that I was as bad for him as he was for me. And by these small, subtle clues put alongside all the lessons I was being led through by the Cs and my life, I made a decision that went against everything that had ever been taught to me by my religion, my culture, my philosophy and so forth.
I knew that there was no way to do it easy and that a clean, complete break was the only answer for both of us and that can’t be done in the slow and gradual way. I knew that he would want an explanation, and the one I saw that would make the break the cleanest and fastest was to tell him that I never cared for him, that I made a big mistake, and everybody was suffering from my mistake, including him. And it was all my fault. And I let him lambaste me and say all the terrible things he wanted to say, and said, “Yes, you are right – I’m a lousy person.” And I held my ground no matter how painful it was.
So, that is what is different. I stopped living in the illusion that I could make anything better or different than it was. What is more, I chose to see it as it was, coldly, clearly, without emotion. Then, I did something about it. And the whole universe changed.
That is the power of such as we are. If we only access it. It isn’t easy. It flies in the face of all our human programming and all the emotional vectoring we live under. But the bottom line is: you cannot be unequally yoked. If you are, the effect is that of two mules harnessed ass to ass, pulling in opposite directions – spiritually, karmically, and even literally. Your life, your environment, your experiences reflect the state of your soul. Poverty, illness, instability, and so on. All are reflections of what is being done to you spiritually by your choices. And your choices are being manipulated and influenced by early damage, which was done for the very purpose of [making you food.] That’s the bottom line.
But again, what I am saying is something that has to be tested. There is no proof. I had no proof, just the small clues – all of which I was clever enough to explain away for many years; most of which explanations had to do with the idea that I could do more, I could try this; I could cut off another arm or open my figurative veins and give more of my blood to fix it, so to speak.
Well, I finally stopped making excuses. I stopped blaming myself for anything except that I had made the wrong choice and now I needed to make a different one – a life changing choice based on clues that were so subtle I couldn’t even explain them to anyone.
Well, that isn’t true. My friend Sandra gave me a gift. She told me that I must make a list of the clues. I must never forget them. When I felt weak, when I felt like I wanted to go back, when I started to forget why I was doing what I was doing, I should take out my list and remember all the horror, all the pain, all the suffering and that I should remind myself over and over again until it sank in that all of this was the biggest part of my marriage and my life. The little happiness or good time was few and far between and never sufficient to balance the negative.
So, I hope this helps. As the Cs once told us: if you have the courage of a lion, you don’t have the fate of a mouse.
This poor woman truly made my heart bleed. And, it seemed that, perhaps, my words had helped her. She wrote back:
Thank you. I don’t want the fate of the mouse. There is a lion somewhere in the back of the cave, it has been sleeping for many years.
The next day, she wrote again:
I woke up the lion this morning, and what you described is in full process. I don’t need to give you a picture. Perhaps the difference is that we have been together 33 years, and there is a very strong bond between us. However it is like an umbilical cord that has to be cut for further growth to happen, and he cannot see it. For once I am being totally selfish, and my only pain is to see the pain he is undergoing. Thank you for giving me the impetus to go through with this.
Her description of her view of the process told me that she didn’t really get it. She was still living in the myth. She was already excusing the difficulty of the situation by the length of time together. Then, she described the connection in nurturing terms as an umbilical cord, instead of what it was: a fourth-density STS feeding tube. And, finally, she described her actions as totally selfish, resulting in pain from seeing what he was going through. She just simply didn’t realize that both of them were experiencing withdrawal, and that it was purely physical and based on associations in the amygdala. She didn’t get that, in the deepest of terms, what she was doing was as much for him as it was for herself. He was as much an addict as she was.
Well, a couple of days went by and I was inclined to think that she was not going to make it, but I was leaving it open as a possibility. She finally wrote back:
For 36 hours I created hell for myself and everybody around me (my husband) and within telephone reach. By that time I was so exhausted I forgot the reason I wanted to leave and went to bed, as did my husband, and we both slept a long, long time. We have reached a new understanding and to my surprise he respects my courage and realizes he must take me more seriously than in the past. He is now being supportive of my goals, and the constant tension and resentment between us has dissolved.
This was not a surprise. And, it should not have been a surprise to her, either. I am sure that she went through a minor version of this scenario with every fight and argument they had over the years, all ending in agreement to continue the addiction. And, we also see an example of what I already described: an addiction to the whole reward system of fighting and making up. People are programmed to suffer because it feels so good when it’s over. It is almost a deliberate creation of risk so that the rush of dopamine can come when the danger has passed.
Now, the most interesting thing is that it was clearly not apparent to this woman that her very life and relationships had also programmed her children to the same behavior, i.e. manipulation and addiction. The programs kicked in big time:
The next day I called back my daughter who was sleeping off a drunk from not being able to bear the thought of her mom and dad separating. Then I called her brother who likewise had a bad hangover for the same reason, and was mighty relieved to hear I had changed my mind. Then I called my other son who was happy he didn’t have to come pick me up with my considerable belongings. Then I emailed several friends to whom I had announced the sad news. By then I was tired again, but calm.
And here is the program:
The point is that I discovered I am part of a family network, not just a solitary item responsible only to myself. I had never looked at it that way. Perhaps it’s a combination of things: economic (I have literally no money of my own), the logistics of it all, and last but not least the fact that it tears me apart to give such pain to so many people. I seem to be divided into many selves all of which are a part of someone else. My strongest motive was perhaps the desire to find someone with whom I would feel more sexually/spiritually compatible. It is possible to achieve the former with my husband but not both together. … Am I chickening out? … Probably. But then is it all worth the upheaval? … My husband now knows I am capable of what I never seriously threatened to do before, and he greatly respects my frankness. I was astonished at his reaction. I will tell you that he was my first husband/mate/whatever in my first life on this Earth, and we have been together for many, many lifetimes. I also know this is the last one, for we have taught each other all the lessons each needs to receive. I think my next life will be a more harmonious one, for in this one I have lived several lifetimes.
So, we see an enormous number of rationalizations coming together here. Will any of them change the situation? Not likely. For the moment, the control is in the hands of my correspondent; and perhaps this is what she was really looking for: a way to manipulate the situation herself. Perhaps this was a repeating dynamic on a lesser scale throughout their lives; I don’t know.
And, in the end, it reminds me of certain remarks from the movie The Matrix:
The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us; even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work; when you go to church; when you pay your taxes; it is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth: that your are a slave. Like everyone else, you were born into bondage; born into a prison that you cannot smell or taste or touch; a prison for your mind.
… The Matrix is a system … that system is our enemy.
When you are inside [the Matrix] you look around; what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters; the very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy.
You have to understand: most of these people are not ready to be unplugged; and many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.
… We never free a mind once it’s reached a certain age – it’s dangerous – the mind has trouble letting go.
Now, even though the movie is an allegory that portrays the Matrix as a computer program, there are many things about this that can be highly instructive. For example, when Neo is being introduced to the Matrix, he touches a chair and asks, “This isn’t real?” Morpheus replies:
What is real? How do you define real? If you are talking about what you can feel, what you can smell and taste and see; real is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain. … [the Matrix reality] is a neural interactive simulation … a dream world created in order to change a human being into …
And, I insert in place of the battery that Morpheus holds up, food.
Let me quote it one more time: the Matrix is a neural interactive simulation.
It is in this way that we are programmed to engage in damaging behavior via the Control System. If our chemicals are stimulated while we are being led down the primrose path in any of a number of situations, the brain will set a circuit to repeat this behavior in order to feel the pleasure chemicals released at the end of the behavior, regardless of the painful process by which the chemicals are ultimately obtained.
Now, let’s go back to synthetic ligands: drugs, to see if we can glean any more clues.
When cocaine is snorted up the nose, it heads straight for the dopamine re-uptake sites and blocks them. The feel good sensation is not, however, from the drug; but from the fact that dopamine is flooding your cells, binding with the dopamine receptors like crazy, unable to be reabsorbed. And the brain only knows one thing: this feels great! Crack cocaine reportedly produces a more intense sensation of pleasure than any natural act, including orgasm. And, take note that it is from the body’s own chemical that this pleasure is experienced!
Morphine and heroin work in a slightly different way. They mimic endorphins, which trigger the release of dopamine. So, instead of the sensation occurring because the natural flow of dopamine is not reabsorbed, it occurs because there is too much dopamine to be absorbed.
But, there is something very curious about this: it seems that with repeated use of cocaine, heroin or morphine, the fake endorphin that binds with the opiate receptor and sends a signal into the cell body to release more dopamine, the body reacts by reducing the number of receptors. With fewer receptors, the effects of the drug – as well as the body’s normal ability to bind dopamine that is naturally present – plummets. And, without the normal flow of dopamine into a normal number of receptors, the brain experiences withdrawal, which is interpreted quite literally as pain. It is the agony of a mind that can feel no pleasure at all. Clinicians describe it as:
Abrupt discontinuation of cocaine, heroin or morphine leads to a state of dopamine depletion, which can cause the intense depression and agitation experienced during the crash phase as well as the subsequent anhedonia, dysphoria, lethargy, somnolence and apathy that can be present for six to eighteen weeks after discontinuation of cocaine. (Daly & Salloway 1994)
But, more serious than that is the fact that dopamine plays an important role in controlling movement, emotion and cognition. Dopamine dysfunction has been implicated in schizophrenia, mood disorders, attention-deficit disorder, Tourette’s syndrome, substance dependency, tardive dyskinesia, Parkinson’s disease and so on. Of course, the situation is a lot more complex because at least seven types of dopamine receptors have been identified.
The dopamine cells of the hypothalamus project to the anterior pituitary. In this area, dopamine acts directly to inhibit the release of prolactin. Prolactin possesses a myriad of effects with the most noticeable being lactation.
Now, going back to our programs and body chemicals, we begin to see how it is possible that anything which causes more dopamine to be released into the system will very likely manifest the same result as cocaine, heroin and morphine: we will go back to the behavior over and over again because the imprint of the way that pleasure is to be achieved has been set in the mind of the child.
Now, I have not been able to find any studies which suggest that the more dopamine secretion a person experiences from the body’s own chemicals in the normal way, that the number of receptors diminishes. However, the very fact that the high of cocaine is the body’s own chemical might suggest that this is so. This means that each time a person succeeds in some way in attaining that feel good moment – no matter how it is achieved – the more will be required to experience that same level of feeling again. This may be why love states will so rapidly diminish and turn into battles to produce threat of loss so that it can be averted and thereby produce the rush of dopamine. That is to say: the more that is experienced, the less it can be experienced; so it becomes a physiological and psychological carrot on a stick.
But, even in such situations, the point arrives when the body simply can no longer meet the demand and nothing works anymore. How soon this point is reached depends on many factors, and I am sure the reader can think of any number of situations of their acquaintance that will demonstrate the great variety of ways these scenarios can play out.
Another feel good body chemical is serotonin. The antidepressants, Prozac and Zoloft, block serotonin re-uptake sites causing the brain and body to be flooded with serotonin. People are happy because serotonin is lighting up the “do it again” center like a Hollywood Marquee.
In the early 1980s, clinical investigators discovered a link between serotonin and eating disorders. Richard and Judith Wurtman (Massachusetts Institute of Technology) had already implicated serotonin in eating disturbances. They theorized that dietary starch is converted to sugar, sugar stimulates the pancreas to release insulin, insulin raises brain levels of the amino acid tryptophan, tryptophan is a precursor of serotonin, and serotonin regulates mood, producing a sense of well-being. Therefore, obese people load up on carbohydrates to elevate mood.
According to the National Institue of Diabetes and Digestive and Kidney Diseases, 68% of adult Americans are overweight.1 Those who are trying to lose weight have a good reason: obesity is severely stigmatized in our society. The health hazards of being moderately overweight are exaggerated (excess mortality is not seen until body weight is more than 40% above tabulated weights on life insurance tables), but it is a definite social no–no to be fat.
Anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa are psychiatric syndromes whose underlying pathology has been described as the relentless pursuit of thinness. The two diseases are separate entities, although there is considerable overlap; about 50% of anorectics binge and purge. Both diseases occur primarily in adolescence and young adulthood, they run a long and protracted course, and they interfere with normal development such as social maturation, separation from family of origin, and career decisions.
Anorexia has been described in psychiatric literature for more than a century, but bulimia has only been recognized as a clinical entity in the last 16 years. Patients are challenging and difficult to treat. Indeed, it seems that to be effective, any treatment must ultimately produce thinness. In other words, if a bulimic could achieve thinness without having to vomit, then that patient would be cured of bulimia. If an anorectic can get slim without having to starve, that patient could be cured of starvation.
The typical patient with anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa is female, young, single, and of middle-to-upper socioeconomic status and has previously shown a tendency to obesity. Depressive and obsessional symptoms are common, as are a strong family history of affective disorder. Depression is sometimes attributed to the starvation, which can produce the same psychological profile as that seen in mild to moderate major depression. However, true major depression (either before or after the emaciation) is far more prevalent in anorectic patients than in the general population. Although anorexia and bulimia are more often seen in females, both disorders also occur in males. Sharp et al. described the clinical features of 24 men with anorexia nervosa. Bingeing and vomiting were common (50%, the same as in females). Also remarkably common were depressed mood, early wakening, obsessional symptoms, and a family history of affective disorders and alcohol abuse. Age at onset (18.6 years) and at presentation (20.2 years) was older than in females. The men were mostly single and of higher socioeconomic status and had a premorbid tendency towards obesity. Laxative abuse was less frequent in males than has been reported in females, and excessive exercising was more frequent. (Sharp et al. 1994)
And, as it turns out, increasing the serotonin bath in the brain by administering serotonin reuptake inhibitors seems to help in controlling symptoms of bulimia. Increasing the serotonin in the brain also seems to produce improvement in depression, carbohydrate craving, and pathological eating habits. The only problem with this is that these reuptake inhibitors have been seriously implicated in both valvular heart problems and primary pulmonary hypertension.
Prozac is a serotonin reuptake inhibitor that produces many side effects, including: nausea, headache, nervousness, insomnia, drowsiness, diarrhea, weight loss, dizziness, and anxiety. It also causes a side effect that we need to think about for a moment after learning what we have about the reduction of dopamine receptors with repeated use of drugs. You see, one of the side effects of Prozac is an inability to have an orgasm.
The street drug “ecstasy” is the common name for MethyleneDioxyMethAmphetamine, or MDMA. Ecstasy is a central nervous system stimulant and it is thought to work by boosting the levels of serotonin and dopamine.
Immediate effects of ecstasy can include increased feelings of self confidence, well-being, and feeling close to others; a rise in blood pressure, body temperature and pulse rate, jaw clenching, teeth grinding, sweating, dehydration, nausea and anxiety. Higher doses of ecstasy can produce hallucinations, irrational behavior, vomiting and convulsions.
Now, since we already know that using such drugs reduces our dopamine and possibly our serotonin receptors, it’s not surprising that ecstasy also produces tolerance.
Ecstasy is known as the love drug and commonly makes users feel warm and loving, even towards people they may not know well. Ecstasy can also heighten sexual desire and intensify the sexual experience, as well as decreasing inhibition. Lab results with animals have suggested possibilities of long-term brain damage arising from the reduction of serotonin and dopamine receptors and the ultimate failure of the brain to produce serotonin at all.
So, in a roundabout way, we have come to the fact that our addictions to our own chemicals may ultimately lead to permanent inability to feel any pleasure at all. And we all know that as we age our ability to be amused by simple things diminishes.
I am torn between being shocked and amused by the spate of recent commercials for sexual stimulants that promise to “revive the love nature.” I think the funniest one is promoting a product called “Top Gun.” But the problem it suggests is not very amusing. It seems that in our sexually permissive society, where for the past 20 or 30 years everyone has been encouraged to claim their natural right with more orgasms, better orgasms, extended, multiple and repeaters, and so on may be at the source of the present problem with achieving any orgasm at all for so many people.
The bottom line seems to be: if it feels good, you will want to do it again and again and more and better. And if you do you will be less and less able to do it at all; and in the end the imbalances will lead to more pain and suffering and feelings of inadequacy. And we know what all that is: lunch!
Now, nicotine is a most interesting drug. Nicotine mimics one of the body’s most significant neurotransmitters, acetylcholine. This is the neurotransmitter most often associated with cognition in the cerebral cortex. Acetylcholine is the primary carrier of thought and memory in the brain. It is essential to have appropriate levels of acetylcholine to have new memories or recall old memories.
Now, let’s go off to the side here for a moment. I cruised the net for sources on acetylcholine and the results were positively amazing, as you will see from the following excerpts:
Acetyl–L–Carnitine (ALC) is the acetyl ester of carnitine, the carrier of fatty acids across Mitochondrial membranes. Like carnitine, ALC is naturally produced in the body and found in small amounts in some foods. … Research in recent years has hoisted ALC from its somewhat mundane role in energy production to nutritional cognitive enhancer and neuroprotective agent extraordinaire. Indeed, taken in its entirety, ALC has become one of the premiere “anti-aging” compounds under scientific investigation, especially in relation to brain and nervous system deterioration.
ALC is found in various concentrations in the brain, and its levels are significantly reduced with aging. In numerous studies in animal models, ALC administration has been shown to have the remarkable ability of improving not only cognitive changes, but also morphological (structural) and neurochemical changes. … ALC has varied effects on cholinergic activity, including promoting the release and synthesis of acetylcholine. Additionally, ALC promotes high affinity uptake of choline, which declines significantly with age. While these cholinergic effects were first described almost a quarter of a century ago, it now appears that this is only the tip of the ALC iceberg. (Gissen 1995)
It turns out that Alzheimer’s, a veritable epidemic in our country, is directly related to low levels of acetylcholine. In Alzheimer’s disease, the neurons that make acetylcholine degenerate, resulting in memory deficits. In some Alzheimer’s patients it can be a 90 per cent reduction! But, does anyone suggest smoking and exercising the brain as a possible cure? Nope.
Another interesting little snippet found in a doctoral dissertation by Galen Knight says:
Thyrotropin is the single most important modulator of thyroid function. However, several of its effects are mimicked by neurotransmitters, acetylcholine and catecholamines … 2
Which suggests to us that low thyroid function can be partly ameliorated by nicotine as the Cassiopaeans have already stated in so many words.
The next excerpt is the most interesting. It is a from a Bioelectromagnetics Research Laboratory paper, first presented at a workshop to discuss possible biological and health effects of Radio Frequency Electromagnetic waves. The workshop was held by the Department of Bioengineering at the University of Washington, Seattle. The paper was later presented to “Mobile Phones and Health, Symposium,” October 25–28, 1998, University of Vienna, Austria. What they are talking about here is the effects of cell phone towers and the use of cell phones and pagers, etc:
We carried out a series of experiments to investigate the effect of RFR exposure on neurotransmitters in the brain of the rat. The main neurotransmitter we investigated was acetylcholine, a ubiquitous chemical in the brain involved in numerous physiological and behavioral functions.
We found that exposure to RFR for 45 min decreased the activity of acetylcholine in various regions of the brain of the rat, particularly in the frontal cortex and hippocampus. Further study showed that the response depends on the duration of exposure. Shorter exposure time (20 min) actually increased, rather than decreasing the activity. Different brain areas have different sensitivities to RFR with respect to cholinergic responses [Lai et al., 1987b, 1988b, 1989a,b].
In addition, repeated exposure can lead to some rather long lasting changes in the system: the number of acetylcholine receptors increase or decrease after repeated exposure to RFR to 45 min and 20 min sessions, respectively [Lai et al., 1989a].
Changes in acetylcholine receptors are generally considered to be a compensatory response to repeated disturbance of acetylcholine activity in the brain. Such changes alter the response characteristic of the nervous system. Other studies have shown that endogenous opioids are also involved in the effect of RFR on acetylcholine [Lai et al., 1986b, 1991, 1992b, 1996.]
Since acetylcholine in the frontal cortex and hippocampus is involved in learning and memory functions, we carried out experiments to study whether exposure to RFR affects these behavioral functions in the rat. Two types of memory functions: spatial “working” and “reference” memories were investigated.
Acetylcholine in the brain, especially in the hippocampus, is known to play an important role in these behavioral functions. In the first experiment, “working” memory (short-term memory) was studied using the radial arm maze. This test is very easy to understand. Just imagine you are shopping in a grocery store with a list of items to buy in your mind. After picking up the items, at the check out stand, you find that there is one chicken at the top and another one at the bottom of your shopping cart. You had forgotten that you had already picked up a chicken at the beginning of your shopping spree and picked up another one later. This is a failure in short-term memory and is actually very common in daily life and generally not considered as being pathological. A distraction or a lapse in attention can affect short-term memory.
This analogy is similar to the task in the radial arm maze experiment. The maze consists of a circular center hub with arms radiating out like the spokes of a wheel. Rats are allowed to pick up food pellets at the end of each arm of the maze. There are 12 arms in our maze, and each rat in each testing session is allowed to make 12 arm entries. Re-entering an arm is considered to be a memory deficit. The results of our experiment showed that after exposure to RFR, rats made significantly more arm re-entries than unexposed rats. [Lai et al., 1994.]
This is like finding two chickens, three boxes of table salt, and two bags of potatoes in your shopping cart.
In another experiment, we studied the effect of RFR exposure on reference memory (long-term memory) [Wang and Lai, submitted for publication]. Performance in a water maze was investigated. In this test, a rat is required to locate a submerged platform in a circular water pool. It is released into the pool, and the time taken for it to land on the platform is recorded. Rats were trained in several sessions to learn the location of the platform. The learning rate of RFR-exposed rats was slower, but, after several learning trials, they finally caught up with the control (unexposed) rats. However, the story did not end here. After the rats had learned to locate the platform, in a last session, the platform was removed and rats were released one at a time into the pool. We observed that unexposed rats, after being released into the pool, would swim around circling the area where the platform was once located, whereas RFR-exposed rats showed more random swimming patterns.
To understand this, let us consider another analogy. If I am going to sail from the west coast of the United States to Australia, I can learn to read a map and use instruments to locate my position, in latitude and longitude, etc. However, there is an apparently easier way: just keep sailing southwest. But, imagine, if I sailed and missed Australia. In the first case, if I had sailed using maps and instruments, I would keep on sailing in the area that I thought where Australia would be located hoping that I would see land. On the other hand, if I sailed by the strategy of keeping going southwest, and missed Australia, I would not know what to do. Very soon, I would find myself circumnavigating the globe.
Thus, it seems that unexposed rats learned to locate the platform using cues in the environment (like using a map from memory), whereas RFR-exposed rats used a different strategy (perhaps, something called ‘praxis learning’, i.e., learning of a certain sequence of movements in the environment to reach a certain location. It is less flexible and does not involve cholinergic systems in the brain).
Thus, RFR exposure can completely alter the behavioral strategy of an animal in finding its way in the environment.
… What is significant is that the effects persist for sometime after RFR exposure. If I am reading a book and receive a call from a mobile phone, it probably will not matter if I cannot remember what I had just read. However, the consequence would be much serious, if I am an airplane technician responsible for putting screws and nuts on airplane parts. A phone call in the middle of my work can make me forget and miss several screws. Another adverse scenario of short-term memory deficit is that a person may overdose himself on medication because he has forgotten that he has already taken the medicine.
Lastly, I like to briefly describe the experiments we carried out to investigate the effects of RFR on DNA in brain cells of the rat. We [Lai and Singh 1995, 1996; Lai et al., 1997] reported an increase in DNA single and double strand breaks, two forms of DNA damage, in brain cells of rats after exposure to RFR. DNA damages in cells could have an important implication on health because they are cumulative. Normally, DNA is capable of repairing itself efficiently. Through a homeostatic mechanism, cells maintain a delicate balance between spontaneous and induced DNA damage. DNA damage accumulates if such a balance is altered. Most cells have considerable ability to repair DNA strand breaks; for example, some cells can repair as many as 200,000 breaks in one hour. However, nerve cells have a low capability for DNA repair and DNA breaks could accumulate. Thus, the effect of RFR on DNA could conceivably be more significant on nerve cells than on other cell types of the body.
Cumulative damages in DNA may in turn affect cell functions. DNA damage that accumulates in cells over a period of time may be the cause of slow onset diseases, such as cancer. … Cumulative damage in DNA in cells also has been shown during aging. Particularly, cumulative DNA damage in nerve cells of the brain has been associated with neurodegenerative diseases, such as Alzheimer’s, Huntington’s, and Parkinson’s diseases.
Since nerve cells do not divide and are not likely to become cancerous, more likely consequences of DNA damage in nerve cells are changes in functions and cell death, which could either lead to or accelerate the development of neurodegenerative diseases. Double strand breaks, if not properly repaired, are known to lead to cell death. Indeed, we have observed an increase in apoptosis (a form of cell death) in cells exposed to RFR (unpublished results).
However, another type of brain cells, the glial cells, can become cancerous, resulting from DNA damage. This type of response, i.e., genotoxicity at low and medium cumulative doses and cell death at higher doses, would lead to an inverted-U response function in cancer development and may explain recent reports of increase [Repacholi et al., 1997], decrease [Adey et al., 1996], and no significant effect [Adey et al., 1997] on cancer rate of animals exposed to RFR.
Understandably, it is very difficult to define and judge what constitute low, medium, and high cumulative doses of RFR exposure, since the conditions of exposure are so variable and complex in real life situations.
Interestingly, RFR-induced increases in single and double strand DNA breaks in rat brain cells can be blocked by treating the rats with melatonin … [Lai and Singh, 1997]. Since it is a potent, free radical scavenger, this data suggest that free radicals may play a role in the genetic effect of RFR. [Lai and Singh, 1998].3
Well, isn’t that just fine and dandy!
What did the Cassiopaeans have to say about the use of cell phones and cell–phone towers?
August 15, 1998
Q: (L) Can you give me an approximate number of aliens currently interacting with, or on, or under our planet as a whole?
A: “Aliens?” What constitutes such?
Q: (L) Okay. Well then, non-human beings. Extra-terrestrials, ultra-terrestrials, and so forth.
A: These bases have naturalized the inhabitants. Anomalies occur as much because of where the bases are chosen to be located as any other factor. Magnetic faults and their inherent portals, you know!
Q: (L) This [source on the Internet] thinks that there is a rather limited number of aliens, and that people ought to get together and resist this threat because our numbers are greater. Is that, in fact, correct?
A: Not point. The question of the hour is: what is the motive? Build a house step by step, and when it is finished, you can move into the neighborhood and out of the motel.
Q: (L) Oh jeez. So, these are a bunch of aliens hanging out in motels waiting for their house to be built. That does not sound good.
A: Many of you have recently become “bedazzled” by the “information superhighway,” and its accompanying computer hardware. Gee, we wonder why?
Q: (L) Well, you told us to network. We have been networking like crazy, digging up information, reading and comparing. Yes, there is a ton of garbage out there, but if we don’t ask, how will we know?
A: Point was: who is manipulating thee? Not so much you specifically, but the others? So many kids and kids-at-heart are thunderstruck by techno-sensory toys. Those cellular phones, those pagers and the Christmas toy computers … they are like, so cool!
Q: (L) So what are you implying about these techno toys?
A: Ponder.
Q: (L) Give me a clue.
A: Fuzzy jello-brained kids.
Q: (L) Are you saying that pagers and cell phones, and techno toys that kids get for Christmas can have effects on them that turn their brains to jello?
A: In a figurative sense. All this technology represents a Brave New World. Like Huxley said: Woe is to those who have been led to eat their brains for lunch.
Q: (L) My kids have pagers. Are pagers, in particular …
A: What do you think comprises the signal content?
Q: (L) I don’t know. What does comprise the signal content?
A: Microwaves.
Q: (L) What do these microwaves do to the individual?
A: Contour brain cell structure.
Q: (L) Do they emit a signal continuously, or only when they are being used?
A: Wave cycle low to high.
Q: (L) Well, that’s not good. How close does the pager have to be to you to have this effect?
A: Four meters. Cell phones too and television and computer screens can be transmitted through thusly.
Q: (L) When you say “contouring brain cell structure,” what would be evidence or results of such effects?
A: Increasingly narrow outlooks and being unable to employ discriminatory thinking.
Q: (L) Confusion?
A: No. Just lack of depth and breadth to one’s mental and psychic abilities.
Q: (A) Now, about pagers … we were told that pagers emit some radiation, which can be detrimental up to a distance of four meters. As far as I understand a pager is a passive device, a receiver. It is not emitting anything. How can a pager be detrimental?
A: Microwave “bounce effect.”
Q: (A) So, they bounce from the receiver … I see.
A: Cell phones too.
Q: (L) Is there any kind of device that we can build or purchase that can emit a blocking signal?
A: Knowledge protects.
And it is here and now that we are learning how true that statement is in just about every sense of the word! So, let’s get on with it.
Work in the Laboratory of Neurochemistry at the Barrow Neurological Institute principally concerns molecules critically involved in such signaling called nicotinic acetylcholine receptors (nAChR). nAChR act throughout the brain and body as molecular switches to connect nerve cell circuits involved in essential functions ranging from vision and memory to the control of heart rate and muscle movement.
Defects in nAChR or their loss cause diseases such as myasthenia gravis and epilepsy and can contribute to Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s diseases and schizophrenia.
nAChR also happen to be the principal targets of tobacco nicotine. … Nicotine-like medicines show promise in the treatment of diseases such as attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) and Tourette’s syndrome and in alleviation of anxiety, pain, and depression, suggesting involvement of nAChR in those disorders.
… We have shown that numbers and function of diverse nAChR subtypes can be influenced by many biologically active substances, ranging from steroids to local anesthetics, and by agents acting on the extracellular matrix, the cytoskeleton, on second messenger signaling, and at the nucleus. We also have shown that chronic nicotine exposure induces numerical upregulation of many diverse nAChR subtypes via a post-transcriptional process that is dominated by effects on intracellular pools of receptors or their precursors.
Some current studies are testing our hypothesis that chronic nicotine exposure, as occurs with habitual use of tobacco products, disables nAChR and the nerve cell circuits they subserve, thereby contributing to long-lasting changes in brain and body function. [Lukas, 1999.]4
Now, notice in the above account how tricky they were when they said that “nicotine exposure induces numerical upregulation of many diverse nAChR subtypes via a post-transcriptional process that is dominated by effects on intracellular pools of receptors or their precursors.” That is jargon for “it increases the number of receptors” as well as the amount of acetylcholine. But, of course, the AMA wouldn’t let them get away with any of their work if they weren’t adding that they have a hypothesis that “habitual use of tobacco products … disables acetylcholine.” Never mind that in the beginning they are proposing it as a therapeutic drug for some of the very problems that have risen to almost epidemic numbers in the present time.
Let’s say it again: research shows, however, that daily infusions of nicotine actually increase the number of acetylcholine receptors by up to 40%. Some researchers, such as the above, brush this finding off by saying “regardless, their function diminishes.” But that is not empirically observed. Most people who smoke find a set point, and once they have reached this, it does not take more and more and more to satisfy it.
How does nicotine act?
There are two major types (or classes) of acetylcholine receptors in the body, and they are commonly named by the other drugs which bind to them: nicotine and muscarine. Muscarinic acetylcholine receptors (mAChRs) can bind muscarine as well as ACh, and they function to change the metabolism …
Acetylcholine acts on nicotine acetylcholine receptors to open a channel in the cell’s membrane. Opening such a channel allows certain types of ions (charged atoms) to flow into or out of the cell. … When ions flow, there is an electrical current, and the same is true in the nervous system. The flowing of ions, or the passing of current, can cause other things to happen, usually those things involve the opening of other types of channels and the passing of information from one neuron to another.
Nicotinic AChRs are found throughout the body, but they are most concentrated in the nervous system (the brain, the spinal cord, and the rest of the nerve cells in the body) and on the muscles of the body (in vertebrates).
We say that nicotine acts like ACh at the receptors to activate them, and both substances are called agonists. The opposite type of drug, something that binds to the receptors and does not allow them to be activated is called an antagonist.
… When a substance comes into the body that can interfere with ACh binding to muscle nAChRs, that chemical can cause death in a relatively short time (because you use muscles to do things like breathe). A class of chemicals in snake and other poisonous venoms, neurotoxins, do exactly that. If you are bitten by a krait or a cobra, for example, and enough venom gets into the blood, there will be enough of their neurotoxin in your body to shut down the diaphragm muscle that expands your lungs. Without that muscle functioning, the person ceases to breathe and dies of asphyxiation.
One of the reasons we know so much about these receptors is precisely that – plants and people have used substances [acetylcholine antagonists] that cause paralysis and asphyxiation for a long time. Plants use them to prevent being eaten by herbivores. Animals use similar substances to paralyze their prey. At least one human neuromuscular disease is related to nAChRs, and that is myasthenia gravis …
So, as you can see, nAChRs are important to life. … All known nicotinic receptors do share some common features. They are composed of 5 protein subunits which assemble like barrel staves around a central pore. … When the ligand (ACh or nicotine) binds to the receptor, it causes the receptor complex to twist and open the pore in the center. [Pugh.]5
Now, aside from noting that acetylcholine has our magic number 5, did you notice that it says, “animals use similar substances [acetylcholine antagonists] to paralyze their prey?” We have to wonder about the oft-reported conditions of paralysis associated with alien interactions. Keep acetylcholine in mind because we will be coming back to it repeatedly!
Now, let’s go back to alcohol. Alcohol is a great pretender and can fool at least four types of receptors. It blocks the acetylcholine receptors. However, unlike nicotine, which also binds to the acetylcholine receptors, alcohol doesn’t do anything useful while it is there. It simply sits there and blocks the ability to think. It also acts like cocaine in that it blocks the dopamine reuptake, flooding the brain with “feeling good.” Alcohol stimulates the release of endorphins, thus resembling morphine and heroin to a greatly lessened extent, and it modifies and increases the efficiency of the serotonin receptors.
All of that in one brew. It almost makes you want to go and have a few beers!
And, if you could just have a few once in awhile, or a glass of wine with dinner or a single cocktail in the evening, it would not be as damaging. But for some people, it doesn’t work that way with alcohol.
Generally mammals – from monkeys to dogs and cats – avoid alcohol. If you give them a choice, they will drink water instead. In some human beings, there is a genetic variation that results in decreased desire for alcohol. Scientists, however, have managed to breed rats with a taste for liquor. Rats that like to drink also, interestingly, produce abnormally low amounts of serotonin. And, recent research has indicated that human beings who are alcoholic have fewer dopamine receptors genetically. A large percentage of smokers also have an unusual copy of a gene called D2, which causes their bodies to make about a third fewer dopamine receptors. They get their buzz from acetylcholine.
Just saying no to drugs clearly is not going to work, considering our understanding of how they operate in our bodies. And, more importantly, we have to think about the fact that these drugs only work because they imitate natural substances that produce the same states of mind. That emotions or feelings can be so easily imitated chemically should give us pause when we say “I feel it”. Do you really feel it? Or is the feeling being stimulated in you by some signal from your environment. And what kind of signal, how it was programmed, and where it might come from are open to all possibilities.
Our inability to control our emotions is as difficult as saying no to drugs. And it lies not in personality defects, but in the sheer strength of the physiology – the Predator’s mind. The golfer, John Daly, was willing to pay three million dollars for a drink. A crack addict who had been arrested 31 times, who had been subjected to repeated fines and imprisonment, said, “Once that compulsion is there, it doesn’t matter what the penalty or threat is.”
Subtle differences in the way our brain is wired make us more or less susceptible to chemical manipulation. Most of us don’t go to the extremes of paying three million dollars for a drink, nor are we willing to risk prison for drugs, but our inner cravings for the fix of emotions leave us helplessly at their mercy.
Because our internal chemicals are used to stimulate the genetic pleasure pathway, the battle we fight is within. When our neurons experience the euphoria of a dopamine bath, our brain is in heaven. Never mind that whatever it is we are doing will lead to disaster or, at the very least, another day of heartbreak and misery in a miserable relationship; or a faith that takes our money, gives us promises, and leaves us unable to cope with real life, we come back for more.
How can we stop the behaviors that provide our brain’s highest reward?
Neuroscientist, Dr. Joseph LeDoux, professor of Science at New York University Center for Neuroscience, has examined the way the brain shapes our experiences and our memories. His studies have unraveled the workings of emotions in general. He discovered that many neural pathways bypass the higher thinking parts of the brain.
The brain mechanisms that generate a given mental state, or what we choose, for the sake of convenience to call emotion, also give rise to certain measurable physiological states, such as pulse rates or brain waves, as well as observable behaviors such as running away or smiling. Feelings, by contrast, are a conscious, subjective labeling of the individual’s state. One person may say, “I feel excited,” and another may say, “I feel afraid,” and both will exhibit the same physiological symptoms and characteristic brain waves. So, trying to work backward is problematical. Dr. LeDoux writes:
… [F]ear is pervasive. … fear is a good emotion to study [because] it’s at the root of many psychiatric problems. The so-called anxiety disorders – panic attacks, obsessive-compulsive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder – make up about half of all the psychiatric conditions that are treated every year, not including substance-abuse problems. …
… [T]he brain system that generates fear behavior evolved to help animals stay alive and has been preserved for millions of years, across a variety of species. The way that we act when we’re afraid – the way the body responds – is very similar to the way that other animals act when they’re afraid, even though we aren’t reacting to the same things. A rat would never be sent into a panic attack by the news that the stock market had crashed, and a human is not, ordinarily, afraid of a cat. But the way our body responds to the news of a stock market crash is very similar to the way the rat’s body responds when it encounters a cat. This is critically important, because it means that we can study the behavior of other animals, and the processes in their brains, to learn how the human fear system works.
… [We study fear with behavior tools] techniques and methods for studying such specific behavior … and we also need good neuroscience tools, method that allow us to study what is going on in the brain when the animal is behaving in a fearful way.
One important behavior tool is known as classical fear conditioning, which is a version of what Pavlov described as the conditioned reflex. The process of classical conditioning involves pairing, or associating, an innocuous stimulus – a sound or a flash of light, something that is essentially meaningless in itself – with something that is meaningful to the animal. In the case of Pavlov’s dogs, the meaningful stimulus was food; the meaningless stimulus was the bell. Food is not a useful stimulus if we’re interested in studying fear, however. So, using laboratory rats as subjects, we might pair a sound with, for instance, a mild foot shock. (We keep the shock as weak as possible to allow the experiments to be performed, and we administer it as infrequently as is feasible.) (LeDoux 1999, 126–127)
I don’t know about the reader, but I don’t believe this last remark for one minute. Not after reading about Candace Pert decapitating orgasmic guinea pigs. But, even if we are repelled by what they are doing, we need to realize that this is the knowledge that the other side has and uses; and the only way we are going to deal with our situation on this planet is to learn what they know. Meanwhile, back to Dr. LeDoux:
On the basis of these kinds of pairings, the sound becomes something that the rat learns is associated with danger. Thus when the rat hears the sound, it reacts immediately: It freezes in anticipation of danger. This is a conditioned reflex, as is Pavlov’s dogs’ salivating at the sound of the bell, in anticipation of food.
An animal in the wild usually doesn’t have the luxury of trial and error in learning what’s dangerous; it doesn’t get to practice until it gets things right. If it’s lucky enough to escape once, it had better remember the sight of the predator, the smell of the predator, the sound of the predator, and so forth. In the laboratory, we need to apply the shock with the sound only once if it is sufficiently aversive.
When something like this occurs – the sound that’s been paired with the shock – it activates a variety of responses that are identical to those that would occur in a real-life situation. Television tapes of the bombing during the 1996 Olympic Games in Atlanta, for example, reveal that when the bomb went off the first thing that happened was that everyone flinched; this was the startle reflex. But then the next thing they did was freeze: they just hunkered down and held still for about two seconds. That’s evolution buying us a little time … predators respond to movement … so we freeze when we’re in a dangerous situation, because our old evolutionary fear system detects danger and responds to it in an automatic way.
… In a situation of danger, a variety of physiological responses occur. Blood is redistributed to the body parts that are most in need (the muscles). This results in changes in blood pressure and heart rate. In addition, the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal, or HPA, axis is activated, releasing stress hormones. In addition, the brain activates the release of natural opiate peptides, morphine-like substances that block the sensation of pain. Called hypoalgesia, this reaction is an evolutionary carryover that allows a wounded animal to keep going. It’s often seen in wartime, where wounded soldiers don’t react to their injuries until they’re off the battlefield. All of these things happen in the rat when it perceives a natural threat such as cat, or when it hears the sound that’s been paired with the shock. And all of these fear responses are easily measured.
In addition to behavioral tools, we also need the tools of neuro-science to understand how the brain’s fear system works. … One is called a brain lesion, a small hole made in brain tissue to interrupt the flow of information between neurons. (pp. 127–129)
Well, we knew it was coming. He went from “mild shocks” to poking holes in rats’ brains. Next he is going to be decapitating them …
By blocking the flow of information in a given pathway with a lesion, we can determine whether that pathway is involved in the behavior we’re studying. That is, lesions in some areas will have no effect on the behavior, and lesions in other areas will interfere with the behavior, thus implicating that area. People with strokes or tumors have natural lesions, which typically are not very precisely localized. (p. 129)
And we are sure there are some folks who are certainly studying humans with precisely localized lesions – to use the jargon. Knowledge protects!
Considerable research has produced precise maps of the brain of the rat, and of many other animals as well. (p. 129)
No doubt. And I expect that some of those animals stand on two feet.
As a result, we can go into a specific region of the rat brain on the basis of three coordinates – left/right, up/down, and front/back – and make a lesion by releasing a small amount of current or injecting a chemical.
The brain maps are also useful when we want to measure the electrical activity of a particular region. Because communication between neurons is based on electrical activity, we can insert electrodes attached to amplifiers to record responses in a given area of the brain. … If neuron A activates neuron B, neuron B will fire … which tells us that neuron B is part of the brain circuitry involved in the behavior we’re studying.
Finally, we can trace actual connections in the brain – determining whether area X sends its axons to Area Y or to Area Z – by tracking chemical activity. … We inject a tracer substance into Area X … The tracer is taken up by the neurons in the area injected, then hitches a ride on molecules that are being shipped down the axon. We can then stain or dye the brain to see where the substance appears next; the region will stain brightly enough so that we can see it under the microscope. This tells us which areas Area X talks to.
Once we have conditioned the animal to respond to a sound – or that the sound produces freezing behavior, changes in blood pressure, heart rate, and so forth – the next step is to trace how the sound, coming into the ear, reaches the parts of the brain that produce these responses in the body. The strategy is to make a lesion in a certain part of the brain to determine whether damage to that area interferes with the fear conditioning. If it does, we then inject the tracer substance there to see which areas that part of the brain communicates with. Then we systematically make lesions in each of those downstream areas to see which one interferes with the fear conditioning, inject tracer substance at that point, look to see where it goes, and so on. We can then record electrical activity to see how cells in the area respond. In this way, we can walk our way, point by point, through whatever pathway of the brain we want to study.
… Years of research by many workers have given us extensive knowledge of the neural pathways involved in processing acoustic information, which is an excellent starting point for examining the neurological foundations of fear. The natural flow of auditory information – the way you hear music, speech, or anything else – is that the sound comes into the ear, enters the brain, goes up to a region called the auditory midbrain, then to the auditory thalamus, and ultimately to the auditory cortex. Thus, in the auditory pathway, as in other sensory systems, the cortex is the highest level of processing.
… Does the sound have to go all the way to the auditory cortex in order for the rat to learn that the sound paired with the shock is dangerous? When we made lesions in the auditory cortex, we found that the animal could still make the associations between the sound and the shock, and would still react with fear … since information from all our senses is processed in the cortex … the fact that the cortex didn’t seem to be necessary was both intriguing and mystifying. We wanted to understand how something as important as the emotion of fear could be mediated by the brain if it wasn’t going into the cortex, where all the higher processes occur. So we next made lesions in the auditory thalamus, and then in the auditory midbrain. … What we found was that lesions in either of these subcortical areas completely eliminated the rat’s susceptibility to fear conditioning. If the lesions were made in an unconditioned rat, the animal could not learn to make the association between sound and shock, and if the lesions were made on a rat that had already been conditioned to fear the sound, it would no longer react to the sound.
But if the stimulus didn’t have to reach the cortex, where was it going from the thalamus? Some other area or areas of the brain must receive information from the thalamus and establish memories about experiences that stimulate a fear response. To find out, we made a tracer injection in the auditory thalamus and found that some cells in this structure projected axons into the amygdala. This is key, because the amygdala has for many years been known to be important in emotional responses. So it appeared that information went to the amygdala from the thalamus without going to the neocortex.
We then did experiments with rats that had amygdala lesions … we found that the amygdala lesion prevented conditioning from taking place. …
So the amygdala is critical to this pathway. It receives information about the outside world directly from the thalamus, and immediately sets in motion a variety of bodily responses. We call this thalamo-amygdala pathway the low road because it’s not taking advantage of all the higher-level information processing that occurs in the neocortex, which also communicates with the amygdala.
… say that a hiker is walking through the woods and sees something on the ground. The image gets to the thalamus, which sends a very crude template to the amygdala; the amygdala, in turn, activates the heart rate, gets the muscles tense and ready to go. At the same time, the stimulus is making its way through the cortex, which is slowly building up a complete representation of – a snake. Now, the thalamus doesn’t know if it’s a snake or just a stick that looks like a snake, but as far as the amygdala is concerned in this situation you’re better off treating the stick as a snake than you are treating a snake as a stick. The subcortical brain is over generalizing for the opportunity to stay alive in the presence of the snake. By getting the amygdala going instantly, it buys you time. If the object turns out to be a stick instead of a snake, nothing’s lost; you can turn the fight-or-flight system off. But if it turns out to be a snake, you’re ahead of the game: you’ve activated the amygdala, and your body is ready to respond effectively.
The low road, or the thalamo-amygdala pathway, is a quick and dirty system. Because it doesn’t involve the cortex at all, it allows us to act first and think later. Or, rather, it lets evolution do the thinking for us, at least at the beginning, buying us time.
The cortex – the high road – also processes the stimulus, but it takes a little longer. You need the cortex for high-level perception in order to distinguish one kind of music from another … or to distinguish between two speech sounds. But you don’t need the cortex to carry out some of the emotional learning involved in the fear system. Thus we can have emotional reactions to something without knowing what we’re responding to – even as we start responding to it. In other words, we’re dealing with the unconscious processing of emotion. This is a neurological demonstration of at least part of what Freud was trying to get at when he talked about the unconscious emotions.
… what we’re saying is that unconscious emotions are probably the rule rather than the exception.
We all know that there are many times in normal, day-to-day experience when we don’t understand where our emotions are coming from – why we feel happy, sad, afraid. For example, let’s say you’re in a restaurant having a meal with a friend and you have a terrible argument at the table, which happens to be covered with a red and white checkered tablecloth. The next day you’re walking down the street and you have this gut feeling that the person walking toward you is someone you don’t like. You’ve never seen the person before, but you know you don’t like him. We often hear about gut feelings and people say, “You have to trust your gut.” But maybe in this case the reason you feel you don’t like this person is simply that he’s wearing a red and white checkered tie. This visual input is going in through your low road, activating your amygdala and causing you to have an unpleasant reaction to the person. You might attribute your reaction to the way this person looks or walks or acts, but in fact it’s just the low road … the unconscious activation of the amygdala.
Some of the time … these low road reactions are useful. Certainly that was the evolutionary goal: to protect us from danger. But these can also be harmful, or at least counterproductive. As in the case of the red and white checkered tie/tablecloth, an unconscious response may not be revealing some sort of inner truth but may instead be doing nothing more than reviving past emotional learning. “Listening to your gut” … might simply mean you are responding to past learning.
… Other areas of the brain provide input to the amygdala as well. Information about what we might call sensory objects – visual objects such as apples, or complex sounds like music or speech – come from the sensory cortex.
Other parts of the cortex are involved in higher cognition. For example, a cortical area called the hippocampus is involved in such higher order aspects of cognition as long-term memory and the processing of the context of events, that kind of information that allows us to say where and when something happened, along with other elements of the scene, such as whether it was raining. If you damage or remove the hippocampus in rats, for instance, the animals are no longer able to recognize a familiar place; they are unable to distinguish whether the test chamber they’re in is the one where they’ve been conditioned to mild foot shocks. As a result, they express fear responses in all similar chambers.
Let’s say, for example, that you regard all snakes as dangerous, but you know that you needn’t fear a snake in the zoo as much as you might a snake that you happened upon in the woods. Ordinarily, your hippocampus and cortex would recognize the context (are you in the woods or at the zoo?), and you would react appropriately to the sight of a snake. But if you had a hippocampal lesion, you might have trouble suppressing a strong fear reaction even at the zoo.
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Another important player in the fear response is the prefrontal cortex. In rat studies, as well as in human experiments, when you give the sound over and over again, without the unpleasant event occurring, it eventually loses its ability to elicit the emotional fear reactions. This process is called extinction. But if the medial part of the prefrontal cortex is damaged, emotional memory is difficult to extinguish. So, for example, a rat that has a lesion in the prefrontal cortex tends to continue to respond to the sound as if it were still associated with the unpleasant event; the learned response is resistant to extinction
However, it’s important to know that even without damage to the prefrontal cortex, fear memories are hard to extinguish completely. Many studies show, for example, that weeks after a rat has ceased to react to a sound that had been paired with a shock, it might suddenly react fearfully to the sound again. Or if the animal goes back into the chamber where it had the conditioning experience, the fear behavior can be reactivated. Stress can reactivate extinguished fears in humans as well. A patient with a phobia can be treated, apparently successfully; then something happens – say the patient’s mother dies – and the phobia comes back.
What certain types of therapy can do – and what the extinction process does – is train the prefrontal cortex to inhibit the output of the amygdala. This training doesn’t eliminate the unconscious fear; it simply holds it in check.
Therapists find this both depressing and informative; they now understand that fear memories can’t be completely eliminated, but at least they know what battle they’re up against. …
… I don’t know of any animal that can’t be conditioned … and in any animal that has an amygdala, that structure seems to be involved in fear conditioning. The fear system, therefore, is probably a very basic, fundamental learning mechanism that’s built into the brain.
In this sense then, we’re emotional lizards. We’re running around with an amygdala that’s designed to detect danger and respond to it. This system is very efficient, and it hasn’t changed much in terms of how it works. What has changed, of course, are the kinds of things that will turn it on, the things that humans have learned [taught and conditioned] to respond to that have the same effect on us that seeing a cat has on a rat.
… the hippocampus is involved in the system whose job is to create the memories we mean when we say, “I remember.” You remember your first day at school, your vacation last year, Sunday dinner last week, and so on. These are your memories and they involve the hippocampus. (pp. 129–140)
LeDoux then gives an example. Suppose you’re driving down the road and you are involved in an accident. The horn gets stuck and is blasting while you are suffering pain and thinking that you might die. Sometime later, a horn sounds and stimulates you to remember the accident. The whole scene of where you were and the series of events parade through your mind as a series of facts. It happened. But these facts are cold and hold no emotion. This is a memory about an emotional experience, but it is not the emotion.
However, it is very unlikely that this will happen in this way because the sound of the horn will also go through the amygdala which will, at the same time that you are remembering from the hippocampus, cause the autonomic system to crank into action; your muscles will tense up and you may re-experience the whole gamut of “fight or flight” right there and then.
The important thing to understand is that these two memory systems are separate, even if they generally operate in tandem.
Patients in whome the hippocampal system is damaged have poor conscious memory. [There is a] famous case of a woman who had severe amnesia. Each day when her doctor walked into her room, he would have to reintroduce himself because the woman never remembered having seen him the day before. In fact, if he left the room for even just a few minutes, she wouldn’t remember him when he returned. One day the doctor walked in and extended his hand to shake hers. But this time he held a pin in the palm of his hand. When their hands met, hers was pricked and she withdrew it immediately. The doctor left the room, and when he came back a few minutes later … she wouldn’t shake hands with him. She had no conscious memory of being pricked by the doctor, but … her amygdala remembered [to] protect herself.
By contrast, patients whos hippocampus is intact but who have amygdala damage are unable to do this kind of pinprick learning, this kind of fear conditioning. They know all the details – that the doctor was in the room, that they were pricked – but they don’t withdraw their hand when the doctor tries to shake. … the amygdala and the hippocampus systems mediate different kinds of memory. Normally, they work together so that emotional memories … and memories of emotion … are fused in our conscious experience so immediately and so tightly that we cannot dissect them by introspection. …
A traumatic [or stressful] situation … has separate consequences for these two memory systems. When … stress hormones [are released] into the body, the hormones (especially cortisol) tend to inhibit the hippocampus, but they excite the amygdala. In other words, the amygdala will have no trouble forming an emotional, unconscious memories of the event – and, in fact, will form even stronger memories because of the stress hormones. But these same hormones can interfere with … and prevent formation of a conscious memory of the event. (pp. 140–142)
This has a strong bearing on our early childhood programming. It is thought that the hippocampus is not fully formed and functional in early childhood, and, as a result, we are unable to develop long-term, conscious memories before that time.
Yet, the amygdala is fully formed and functioning. And it is for this reason that abused children form very strong emotional memories that cause them to react strongly to many things, while having no access at all to any conscious understanding of why they feel as they do. Unconscious emotional memories affect us all our lives, powerfully, and it is extremely difficult to work through them without conscious recall. The mere sight of anything that is associated with an early traumatic or stressful event can activate the emotional response, whether it is of a positive or negative nature.
More than this, these unconscious memories can generalize as we have already described in an earlier section.
Now, all animals have the fear-learning mechanism that enables them to survive. They can detect danger and respond to it appropriately. However, they do not have fearful feelings, the way we do when our basic “fear program” is activated in a brain which also has self-consciousness. Here, a new phenomenon occurs: subjective feelings.
Feelings of fear … are what happen in consciousness when the activity generated by the subcortical neural system involved in detecting danger is perceived … by certain systems in the cortex, especially the working memory system …
A conscious feeling of fearfulness is not necessary to trigger an emotional fear response. The low road can take care of this just fine. That is, we can produce responses to danger without being consciously afraid, as when we jump back up onto the curb to avoid being hit by a car. In a situation like that, as people so often say, we don’t “have time to be afraid.” … At other times we will first have some kind of response in our body and only later be able to name what the feeling was: anxious, sad or angry. In many cases, though, even if we can say that we feel anxious, we don’t know what generated those feelings. Indeed, we see this again and again in the various disorders of the fear system, such as panic attacks and phobias. …
Why is it so difficult to eliminate such fears? Once the amygdala is turned on, it can influence information processing in the cortex from the earliest stages onward, but only the later stages of cortical processing affect the amygdala. In other words, even though communication goes two ways, it’s not equally effective in both directions. In general, the projections from the amygdala to the cortex are much stronger than vice versa. If we think of the routes from the amygdala to the cortex as superhighways, then those from the cortex to the amygdala are narrow back roads. Once the emotions are activated, they can influence the entire working of the cortex, whereas the cortex is very inefficient at controlling the amygdala. So, using thinking to overcome emotion is like using a back road or side street from the cortex, while the amygdala is bombarding the cortex with input via the superhighways. (LeDoux 1999, 144–145)
But thinking with the cortex, it turns out, is basically a way to rewire your brain. It is like working on the back roads to develop them into the commanding interstate system of the brain they were meant to be. Research shows that changes in the brain are the result of learning experiences, and it seems that learning – acquiring knowledge – is the path of rewiring the synaptic connections in the brain.
The key to this is the fact that learning, hard thinking and pondering, requires that certain brain chemicals – usually acetylcholine – be squirted out at just the right place and in the right quantities. It is becoming clear that the molecules of memory are blind to the kind of memory – whether it is conscious or unconscious – that is occurring. What determines the quality of different kinds of memories is not the molecules that do the storing but the systems in which those molecules act. If they act in the hippocampus, the memories that get recorded are factual and accessible to our consciousness. If the chemicals are acting in the amygdala, they are emotional and mostly inaccessible to conscious awareness.
So, even if we don’t know what has triggered a given emotional response until after the fact, we do have an awareness that we are feeling a certain way. This awareness is called our “working memory.”
Working memory, or awareness, involves the frontal lobes of the brain just above and behind the eyebrows. This is what we use when we want to remember a new phone number just long enough to dial it, or to remember what we went to the kitchen for long enough to get it. It is also the place where many different kinds of information are held simultaneously while we are comparing one thing to another. We can have all kinds of things going on there at once. We can look at something and hold this image in working memory along with the memory of something we have pulled from long-term memory that we wish to compare it to. Sounds, smells, and even the ongoing physiological input from our system. And while we do this, we are considering: does it make us feel peaceful, happy, sad, afraid?
All of these elements come together simultaneously. However, this working memory can only do one thing at a time, even if that one task is multi-factored. A classic example is when you try to remember a new phone number and someone asks you a question before you get to dial it. The number flies out the window as you answer the question and you have to go back and look it up again.
It seems that this “working memory” or awareness is – if not consciousness itself – at least a window to it. It is in working memory that conscious feelings occur. In working memory, three things come together to create conscious feeling: present stimuli, activation of the amygdala in some way and activation of conscious memory in the hippocampus.
Present stimuli might include standing inside a church. This would arouse the amygdala so that the unconscious memories of the many experienced in church – the flooding of the receptors with neurochemicals; and this would activate conscious memory of the last time you were in church, or several memorable times will pass through the mind. When all these things come together in working memory, with the body now activated with chemistry and past history, this is perceived as “feeling.”
The same thing can occur in any kind of encounter as we have already described. Something that is present now will turn on the chemicals, which will arouse conscious memories that are related to those chemicals, and then the present moment will be interpreted in those same terms.
Since what we are looking at here is the fact that unconscious, chemical imprints have a much greater ability to influence thinking than vice versa, we realize that we are face to face with an age-old debate between reason and emotion, logic and passion, knowledge and faith.
When you are aroused emotionally, whether by fear or pleasure or sexual attraction, it is a cold hard fact that emotion dominates thinking.
Philosophers going all the way back to Plato have endlessly analyzed this fundamental schism. The body fills us with passions and desires and fears and fancies and foolishness and fairy tales made up to justify these chemical reactions. Plato opined that the true philosopher was one who could master his emotions by the use of reason. Socrates said, “Know thyself,” by which he meant that we had to understand our emotions in order to be able to control them.
The vast majority of philosophers and philosophical writers throughout man’s recorded history have believed that in order to be truly human – as opposed to just an animal – we must activate reason. Descartes didn’t say, “I feel, therefore I am.” Thinking seems to be the distinctly human thing that humans do which separates them from animals. But, as Theodore Dreiser said, “Our civilization is still in the middle stage, scarcely beast in that it is no longer guided by instinct, scarcely human in that it is not yet wholly guided by reason.”
The prime example of this is, of course, Star Trek’s Dr. Spock. Captain Ahab, the hero of Melville’s Moby Dick was just the opposite. Melville wrote: “Ahab never thinks, he just feels, feels, feels.” Perhaps the mindless pursuit of a white whale is a good metaphor for the result of living by emotion.
However, I am not advocating domination of cognition; merely balance. There is, at present, such an imbalance between the amygdala’s input to the cortex and the very sparse control of the cortex over the amygdala. Even though thoughts can readily trigger emotions by activating the amygdala, it is very difficult to willfully turn off emotions.
As it happens, the cortical connections to the amygdala are actually far greater in primates than in other animals. It seems that more balanced cortical pathways are the evolutionary trend. It is my opinion that we will develop them or perish. A more harmonious integration of emotion and thinking would allow us to both know our true feelings, and why we have them, and to be able to use them more effectively.
The key is in learning. Knowledge protects. And if you haven’t already begun to put the pieces of the puzzle together with the advantages of expanding and working the frontal cortex, perhaps what we are going to look at next will finally make the whole thing clear.
Let’s take a walk into the back roads of the frontal cortex
1 Source: CDC/NCHS, Health, United States, 2008, Figure 7. Data from the National Health and Nutrition Examination Survey. (http://www.win.niddk.nih.gov/statistics/ index.htm#overweight)
Now, I would like to make some other comments before we move on. I would like to talk a little bit about “love.”
Many readers seem to have grossly misunderstood the Cassiopaean remarks about love, mainly because they don’t play the game of exciting your “feel good” brain chemicals with their words. They have said, “real love is not strictly hormonal”. I subsequently remarked:
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) There are many teachings that are promulgated that love is the key, the answer. They say that illumination and knowledge and whatnot can all be achieved through love.
A: The problem is not the term “love,” the problem is the interpretation of the term. Those on third density have a tendency to confuse the issue horribly. After all, they confuse many things as love. When the actual definition of love as you know it is not correct either. It is not necessarily a feeling that one has that can also be interpreted as an emotion, but rather, as we have told you before, the essence of light which is knowledge is love, and this has been corrupted when it is said that love leads to illumination. Love is Light is Knowledge. Love makes no sense when common definitions are used as they are in your environment. To love you must know. And to know is to have light. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.
Now, please stop and ponder these words carefully.
When the Cassiopaeans use the term knowledge, they are using it in the deepest sense of the word. To have facts, to be able to remember things, or to relate things to one another, or to creatively utilize what one remembers or relates, has absolutely nothing to do with knowledge in the Cassiopaean sense of the word. They have asked us to consider this word carefully, asking:
October 22, 1994
A: Where is there any limitation in the concept behind the word “knowledge”? Being that there is no limitation, what is the value of that word? Infinite. Can you conceive of how that one concept, that one meaning frees you from all limitation? Use your sixth sense to conceive of how the word, the term, the meaning of knowledge can provide you with all that you could possibly ever need. If you think carefully you will begin to see glimpses of how this is true in its greatest possible form.
… Can you think of how it would be that simply with one term, this one word can carry so much meaning? We sense that you are not completely aware. You can have glimpses of illumination and illumination comes from knowledge. If you strive perpetually to gain and gather knowledge, you provide yourself with protection from every possible negative occurrence that could ever happen. Do you know why this is? The more knowledge you have, the more awareness you have as to how to protect yourself. Eventually this awareness becomes so powerful and so all encompassing that you do not even have to perform tasks or rituals, if you prefer, to protect yourself. The protection simply comes naturally with the awareness.
… Knowledge has all substance. It goes to the core of all existence. … It includes adding everything to one’s being that is desirable. And also, when you keep invoking the light, as you do, truly understand that the light is knowledge. That is the knowledge which is at the core of all existence. And being at the core of all existence it provides protection from every form of negativity in existence. Light is everything and everything is knowledge and knowledge is everything. … If you simply have faith [in the concept of seeking knowledge], no knowledge that you could possibly acquire could possibly be false because there is no such thing.
That is, knowledge, by the Cassiopaean definition, is not false. Facts that later prove to be false, were never knowledge to begin with, even if they were erroneously counted as “knowledge.”
Anyone or anything that tries to give you false knowledge, false information, will fail. The very material substance that the knowledge takes on, since it is at the root of all existence, will protect you from absorption of false information, which is not knowledge.
This suggests that each level of knowledge that we acquire prepares us for the next level, and the next, and so on. Those who seek to know things that they have no preparation to receive are subject to obfuscation. There is no need to fear the absorption of false information when you are simply openly seeking to acquire knowledge.
This last remark is crucial: “when you are simply openly seeking to acquire knowledge.” I know that everyone who is seeking thinks that they are open, but if you carefully examine your thoughts, you will discover that you have a lot of beliefs and assumptions that you expect your seeking to confirm. The following comments elaborate on this:
October 22, 1994
A: And knowledge forms the protection – all the protection you could ever need. … [People who claim to be receiving knowledge by faith who later find that they have received false information] … are not really gathering knowledge. These people are stuck at some point in their pathway to progress and they are undergoing a hidden manifestation of what is referred to in your terms as obsession. Obsession is not knowledge, obsession is stagnation. So, when one becomes obsessed, one actually closes off the absorption and the growth and the progress of soul development which comes with the gaining of true knowledge. For when one becomes obsessed one deteriorates the protection therefore one is open to problems, to tragedies, to all sorts of difficulties. Therefore one experiences same.
Taking this key literally, if a person has problems or feels attacked or is suffering in any way, they have only to search their own mind to discover that they are holding on to a belief or an assumption that is an obsession. I have found this to be true in my own life, as well as the lives of others. If there are problems, illness, difficulties of all kinds, then one is obsessed in some way with a false belief. No exceptions.
The third density application of knowledge is, of course, awareness. And the Cassiopaeans have commented on this as well:
September 2, 1995
As we have told you, there are seven levels of density which involves, among other things, not only state of being physically, spiritually and etherically, and materially, but also, more importantly, state of awareness. You see, state of awareness is the key element to all existence in creation. You have undoubtedly remembered that we have told you that this is, after all, a grand illusion, have you not? So, therefore, if it is a grand illusion, what is more important, physical structure or state of awareness???
… Now, when we go from the measuring system, which of course has been nicely formulated so that you can understand it, of density levels one through seven, the key concept, of course, is state of awareness. All the way through. So, once you rise to a higher state of awareness, such things as physical limitation evaporate. And, when they evaporate, vast distances, as you perceive them, become nonexistent. So, just because you are unable to see and understand has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on what is or is not possible. Except within your own level of density. And this is what almost no one on your current level of density is able to understand. If you can understand it and convey it to them, you will be performing the greatest service that your kind has ever seen. Think about that for a moment. Let it seep into your consciousness. Analyze it. Dissect it. Look at it carefully and then put it back together again.
Q: (L) What is it that limits our awareness?
A: Your environment. And it is the environment that you have chosen. By your level of progress. And that is what limits everything. As you rise to higher levels of density, limitations are removed.
Q: (L) What creates this environment of limitation?
A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of learning.
Now, let’s stop right here and consider this a moment. A recent post to one of our e-groups stated:
If you’ve been duped into believing that there is anything in life more important and powerful than love then you had best get back to basics. It is the fabric of everything and it is never wrong. Granted, for many love is not really love but more about attachment and control, but if you go through this life without learning what love really is and how to become an instrument for it to flow through then you have sold yourself way short! … Until you love yourself with every fiber of your being you will never be able to love another and you will never be capable of serving anything or anyone but your illusion of your self.
Know yourself … Realize yourself! And then you will have something of value to offer. “Love is Light is Knowledge”? I suppose you could get away with saying it like that but a much more accurate statement would be. From love comes light, comes knowledge. See the difference?
This writer has just said that learning what love really is and learning how to become an instrument for love is the object of existence. He then follows with “know yourself,” (which you must do in order to love yourself), and that this knowing of self is equal to realizing the self. And then he turns everything he has just said completely around and says that you start with love in order to progress to light, which leads to knowledge. I don’t think he was even aware that his passionate declaration about learning and knowing and realizing was exactly what the Cassiopaeans said, as quoted below: “To love you must know. And to know is to have light. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.”
He spent some time in commentary on the Cassiopaean remarks about sex, without realizing that he was describing one part of the elephant. Just as the Cassiopaean comments on love have been twisted and misunderstood, so have the remarks about sex. Suffice it to say that making love, as I have already intimated in this series, is different from having sex. And just as a lot of people think they are in love, or being loving when in fact they are not, a lot of people think they are making love and they are not. As the writer above commented, this process the Cassiopaeans advocate has to do with “learning what love really is and how to become an instrument for it to flow through [you.]” And, he is absolutely correct that you must “know yourself … Realize yourself! And then you will have something of value to offer.”
And that is what it’s all about. As the Cassiopaeans have said:
September 2, 1995
Q: (L) And who put the illusion into place?
A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so is everything else.
Q: (L) Is the key that it is all illusion?
A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be patient just a moment, the universe is merely a school. And, a school is there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. There is no other reason. Now, if only you understood the true depth of that statement, you would begin to start to see, and experience for yourself, all the levels of density that it is possible to experience, all the dimensions that it is possible to experience, all awareness. When an individual understands that statement to its greatest possible depth, that individual becomes illumined. And, certainly you have heard of that. And, for one moment, which lasts for all eternity, that individual knows absolutely everything that there is to know.
Q: (L) So, you are saying that the path to illumination is knowledge and not love?
A: That is correct.
Q: (L) Is it also correct that emotion can be used to mislead, that is emotions that are twisted and generated strictly from the flesh or false programming?
A: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in 3rd density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.
“You shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free”. It’s a seemingly simple statement, but it’s loaded with all sorts of explosive questions and ideas that have often led to, historically speaking, mayhem, murder and mass destruction. The problem seems to lie with differing definitions of what is or is not to be known, how to know it, and why.
The word know is derived from the Latin root gnoscere, which is “to know, have a clear perception or understanding of, be sure of or well informed about.”
But truth is more difficult. It is actually derived from the same root as tree, and the problems immediately become apparent with this word. The first definition is “that which accords with reality or fact.” But, it can also mean a “particular belief or teaching regarded by the speaker as the true one.” And some trees are sturdier than others!
The problem with the first definition is related to our definitions of reality. And what is a fact? It seems that facts about our world change from one generation to the next. Many years ago it was a fact that it took weeks to cross the Atlantic by the fastest means; now it only takes hours. So it could be said that facts define our reality. But facts are not reality nor are they absolute. It seems that facts are based on knowledge, and knowledge seems to be predicated on what kinds of questions are being asked and how open the seeker is to receive answers.
Yet we come back to the statement, “You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” Those who think that truth is what is believed or taught by their particular religion or philosophy fail to note that the vast number of differing and often opposing beliefs suggest that either everybody is right, some are right, or there is something about this reality-making business we need to learn.
The Cassiopaeans have essentially said that there is no limit to knowledge, which suggests that all that can be conceived by the human mind, and even more, is not only possible, but probable. Nevertheless, we come back to that small problem that we are dealing with here: we happen to be on this planet, swinging through space like a seat on a Tilt-a-Whirl, perched upon the arm of the Milky Way galaxy, and whether we like it or not there are many of the people on said planet suffering mightily in ways too numerous to mention. I don’t know about you, but that bugs me. And when something bugs me, my natural inclination is to find out what it is and why it is bugging me. And once I find out something about it, I do something. Can’t help it, I’m a doer.
There are thousands upon thousands of people who advocate different views of what the answers to life’s problems are. They operate much as the previously quoted writer who presents a logical series for the case, establishing knowledge as the basis of the answer, and then confounds his premise by reversing his conclusion based on an emotional belief rather than the highly developed cognition process of which he is obviously capable. This is why their answers do not seem to be leading to any active pursuit of specific measures that might serve to ameliorate the problem, much less lead to a universe changing solution. If they were clear and coherent in their own souls and minds, the result of this would be action. They would become doers, too.
Going back to complex systems, remember the idea that, by using nonlinear models, it is even possible to locate potential critical pressure points in such systems. At these critical points, which probably relate to what Gurdjieff called “semitones” or “stopinders” in Law of Octaves, a small change can have a tremendous impact.
It’s now. It’s here. It’s happening.
Because it so happens that, at this particular point in history in this particular reality, there are these communicants from somewhere who call themselves the Cassiopaeans, who just happened to arrive on the scene after a lifetime of searching for the way back to God by yours truly.
And, as it happens, yours truly, like many others, possesses certain inner characteristics that include a powerful will and drive to serve others without violating their free will. She also speed reads, has a near photographic memory and picked up the skill of typing fairly rapidly along the way. Sounds pretty much like the ideal person for said beings to contact, right? If you want to get the message out, hook up with a walking-encyclopedia-workaholic-blabbermouth. And they did.
At the same time that this was happening, a world-class physicist of similar characteristics was searching the globe for the same answers in a different yet complementary mode. So, at this particular moment in history, scientist and walking-encyclopedia-workaholic-blabbermouth meet. They find extraordinary similarity of being, from their respective internal drives right down to skin tone and eye color. It is almost as if they are two halves of the same being.
Not only that, but she is quite taken with the idea of metamorphosis of Earth and he knows the intricacies of nonlinear dynamics and complex systems. She is looking for the spiritual ark and he is Ark. He is looking for the essence of existence, the aether, and she is L’aura, or the air. He’s in Florence; she’s in Florida. He’s working on gravity waves; she’s looking for explanations of gravity waves. He decides to create a webpage with an image of Magritte’s Le Chateau des Pyrenees; and she is looking for secret masters in the Pyrenees, led on by a painting of Arcadian Shepherds, urged by said Cassiopaeans who tell her that her life will change suddenly and dramatically once she gets hooked up to the Internet. And his full name is Arkadiusz.
Can those guys get any funnier?
And what is even more important, both of these individuals are constitutionally incapable of taking anybody’s word for anything. And if they don’t like the way something is, they find out why, and then do something about it. In a nonlinear way.
And we come back to why the Cassiopaeans tell such awful things about our reality to us. Why would they teach us that there are horrors we don’t even want to contemplate, existing not only in our world, but also at levels we can’t even perceive? Never mind that they are probably true, they are scary! Why are they scaring us?
Remember the jaguar? When you encounter the jaguar, your life changes forever.
And remember the most important element: they are telling these things to people who are thinkers and, more importantly doers. Of all the many people on the planet with ideas about how to find the way out of the maze, many of them standing in criticism of what we are doing here, how many of them are doing anything about what they think will make a difference? How many of them are acting as local debugging units with knowledge of nonlinear dynamics and complex systems?
How many of them are spending ten or more hours a day gathering material and writing and producing something that might help, even if it may not be perfect or even the right answer? How many of them are working to produce a nonlinear change in this complex system of our individual and collective realities? We already know that the present reality isn’t the one we want. We can already figure out, if we have one neuron in contact with another, that the old religions and philosophical systems don’t work because they have been tried with little or no success for thousands of years. How many of these obsessed critics are building up out of a sense of hope and – dare I say it – even faith in themselves?
I would like to see every single individual who spends a single moment of time and energy attacking what we are doing here, take that exact amount of time each day and create your own website where you can give your information away too. Please put your money where your mouth is, and spend $10,000 a year on books and journals, computers and Internet access, as we do, so as to be informed about the things that may actually help others. And then, inform them! But don’t try to violate my free will to do it the way I see fit. You have your faith, now show me your work.
So we find ourselves at that point on the jagged edge of the two crustal plates where there is a moment of critical energy influx, and we know that there is going to be an explosion. And the results are unpredictable.
Now, let’s go back to this idea that seeking knowledge is the seeking of truth.
We do have a small key to this problem: the idea of being free. If it is truth, it will set one free.
But, what is it to be free? This word is derived from the Indo-European base prie, which means “to be fond of, to hold dear.” It is related to the Sanskrit priya, or desired. It is from the same root that we get friend.
So, we might think that to be free means that we are full of friendliness and loving kindness and holding all we behold and experience as dear. To be free means that no power can take these feelings from us, that we have reached a level of knowing that is open and accepting of all we know. And that by knowing, we are capable of loving without conditions.
The idea of friend being related to freedom and knowledge is found in many ancient teachings. Sufi masters are called the “Friends of God.” So we might think that to be free is to be a friend of God. But, the most important thing about a friend is that it is someone you know by virtue of being open to and accepting of without limitations. So, we have come around in a circle. And we might say that the thing that we need to know in order to be free is God.
The apostle, Paul wrote, “For that which is known about God is evident … his nature and attributes … have been made clearly discernible in and through the things that have been made …” (Romans 1:19–20).
Which clearly indicates that study of the world and all within it is a pathway to God available to all. This is also a precise statement that all that exists is God, and therefore worth knowing and being open to without conditions. Paul further comments on those who substitute beliefs, “vain imaginings, foolish reasoning and stupid speculations,” for true knowledge of God that can be obtained through study and observation of creation. He remarks that such people do not “see fit to consider Him worth the knowing.” And we find ourselves facing the idea that refusing to learn, refusing to gather knowledge, to learn, to grow, is equivalent to refusing God! Paul remarks, “in posing as judge and passing sentence on another you condemn yourself.” And what is it to judge and pass sentence? To limit one’s openness to knowledge, to ask questions with pre-formed opinions, assumptions and answers.
These seed ideas are more clearly explicated in the Sufi teachings of Ibn al-‘Arabî. There we find exactly what Paul has said in the first chapter of Romans, which can be reduced to the idea that everything that exists, by the fact of existing, manifests something of the divine presence, which by definition embraces all that exists. Therefore, God can be found everywhere, in everything, and all knowledge is knowledge of God.
Understanding the principles of creation tells us that the dynamic activity “to know” is expressed in creation by the desire of God to know Himself through creation. As the Sufis say, God was alone and desired a friend to love and be loved by. And from this desire, Creation came into being. Therefore, any limitation or assumption we make about the cosmos and all within it is a limitation placed upon God.
In the Sufi texts, finding is identical to consciousness and self-awareness, or with knowledge. Knowledge is a great bounty to be gathered, but it is obvious that everyone cannot have it equally. This is clearly described in the Parable of the Talents. In this story, Jesus describes knowledge as “riches” given to three servants. Two of the servants utilize their talents, or riches, to obtain even more. In fact, the exact description is that they invest, or take a risk by giving up what they have been given to multiply it. And the servant who clings desperately to his little bit of knowledge or riches, burying it in the ground from fear that his master is hard and demanding, loses even the little that he has. He closed his mind to more knowledge. He assumed that what he had was sufficient and stopped seeking. He denied himself by denying knowledge.
It may seem unfair, but the point is obvious that letting go of fear and wanting more knowledge to the extent of taking risks and working to get it, even if one must temporarily give up one level to gain another, is the key to being a friend of God. God wants Friends, not groveling, fearful slaves. And how can God have friends with whom he can communicate if they have no knowledge?
According to Ibn al-‘Arabî’s revelation, God says, “I was a Hidden Treasure, and I Loved to be known …” Which tells us that the love of God is love for the sake of knowledge. To know and be known. True love is love with knowledge. Without knowledge love loses its direction. It becomes diversified, split, a wasteland, like water losing itself in the desert. The love of the Sufi is directed toward God. And this is only possible with knowledge of Him.
So, we might think that one of the objectives of obtaining knowledge is to know how to be a friend of God. And here is where so many stumble and fall into assumptions. Every attribute or quality that we find in the cosmos must be an attribute or quality of God. The Sufis call this the “Names of God.” And God has many names. Each name denotes a pair of opposites. God the Merciful can be known through Forgiveness and God the Wrathful is known through Vengeance. And these are just two examples. The variety of relationships that can be discerned in God is the reason, the primary cause, of the multiplicity of relationships in the cosmos. All things are manifestations and effects of the divine names or attributes in myriad combinations. God has many faces, not all of them pleasant to behold.
All beings are, in one way or another, seeking God. And the manner in which we seek determines the type of friendship we have. God is a friend to us in the same way we are a friend to the cosmos. The importance of this statement cannot be overestimated. It is only through knowledge of the meanings behind our experiences and the material world that we can truly discern and divide the essential attributes of any given manifestation so that we can exercise our free will in the direction of those who are known as the “Beautiful Faces of God.” These are the archetypes, or points of focus on the Wave.
How does one obtain truth? How does one cast off the illusions? How does one differentiate between knowledge of light and knowledge that leads to darkness?
This comes from a combination of factors. The first is gaining and gathering knowledge of every form and sort. All sciences and arts are of value in increasing knowledge if they are approached with the intention of preparing a vessel for divine knowledge. For, in truth, all knowledge is divine. The more knowledge you have of the matters of your world, the greater the vessel you have prepared for receiving divine knowledge.
The word that is a stumbling block in many ways for many people comes in here: faith. But is faith, after all, so difficult? It is, in a pure sense, feeling secure in your knowledge by virtue of experience and testing.
But, how can you experience and test faith if you have no knowledge with which to experience and test faith? If your faith is small, you must establish it through knowledge. If you were given proof and the proof gave you faith, then everyone would have faith and then the virtue of faith, which is the building and brightening of the light within through knowledge combined with faith would have no value in moving you further along the upward path. Faith is self-evident knowledge of the inner light. It is light that grows within through effort to know truth and God by acquiring knowledge.
And it all begins by asking without belief, yet with absolute openness to receive an answer. Because, in the end, this openness of seeking without assumption or pre-formed answers is the essence of faith.
And, it seems that the asking or not asking of these questions establishes the difference between consciousness and unconsciousness. Of course, there are those who claim to ask, but really do not; they already have their answer formed by a belief system that has taken up residence in their minds. But those who ask, who really ask, are faced with moment-by-moment decisions, choices they must make to navigate the labyrinth, hoping that those choices will take them either to the center or the exit, depending upon their direction. Thus, if one asks with a completely open mind and heart, each moment they are open is a moment that they are conscious. Those who do not ask are unconscious; they exist in a state of fear.
Therefore, a practical plan, a mode of perception is needed by which we can understand the answers to our questions; each of us, individually, without giving our power away to some other external, dominating religion or philosophy. We need to learn to interact directly with the cosmos in a personal way. Because it is only in direct interaction with this creative force of existence that we truly are our authentic selves. When we are navigating the maze under our own power, by our own choices, we are experiencing true freedom of being. We are able to see that one way does not achieve our destination, and we are free to turn around and try another. We are not forced to march in place, against a brick wall, not knowing that we are getting nowhere because we have allowed ourselves to be blindfolded by faith in some external source of power, be it material or philosophical or religious. We are free to be.
How?
We come back to learning. We are here to learn. If just finding the exact shade and tone of love would do it, there really wouldn’t be any point in being here. But, as our correspondent above pointed out, we are here to learn how to love. The only difference is, instead of putting the cart before the horse, leading to failure and frustration in the student, the Cassiopaeans have undertaken to teach us the basics that seem to be sorely lacking in most of the teachings promulgated down through the millennia, perhaps by design. How can we learn the calculus of love, if we cannot do the arithmetic of awareness?
Naturalist and author Diane Ackerman writes:
When I set a glass prism on a windowsill and allow the sun to flood through it, a spectrum of colors dances on the floor. What we call “white” is a rainbow of colored rays packed into a small space. The prism sets them free. Love is the white light of emotion. It includes many feelings which, out of laziness and confusion, we crowd into one simple word. … Everyone admits that love is wonderful and necessary, yet no one can agree on what it is. …
Love. What a small word we use for an idea so immense and powerful it has altered the flow of history, calmed monsters, kindled works of art, cheered the forlorn, turned tough guys to mush, consoled the enslaved, driven strong women mad, glorified the humble, fueled national scandals, bankrupted robber barons, and made mincemeat of kings. … the Sanskrit lubhyati (“he desires”) [is the root of our word love]. … Love is an ancient delirium, a desire older than civilization, with taproots stretching deep into dark and mysterious days.
We use the word love in such a sloppy way that it can mean almost nothing or absolutely everything. … It is a universally understood motive for crime. “Ah, he was in love,” we sigh, “well, that explains it.” In fact, in some European and South American countries, even murder is forgivable if it was “a crime of passion.” Love, like truth, is the unassailable defense. (Ackerman 1994, xvii, xviii)
What can we say about this thing we call love which has so many effects in our lives, but which we still group together under the same term? One of the most famous writings on the subject of love, is that of the apostle Paul in the thirteenth chapter of his letter to the Corinthians:
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
And if I have prophetic powers – that is, the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose; and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if I have faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love I am nothing – a useless nobody.
Even if I dole out all that I have to give food to the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy; is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.
It is not conceited – arrogant and inflated with pride; it is not rude, and does not act unbecomingly. Love does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it – pays no attention to a suffered wrong.
It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.
Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstance and it endures everything without weakening.
Love never fails – never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end. As for prophecy, it will be fulfilled and pass away; as for tongues, they will be destroyed and cease; as for knowledge, it will be superseded by truth.
For our knowledge is fragmentary and our prophecy is fragmentary.
But when the complete and perfect comes, the incomplete and imperfect will vanish away – become antiquated, void and superseded.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; now that I have become a man, I am done with childish ways and have put them aside.
For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim reflection of reality as in a riddle or an enigma, but then, when perfection comes, we shall see in reality and face to face! Now I know in part; but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly, even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly known and understood by God.
And so, faith, hope, love abide; these three, but the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1–13)
As I said, Paul’s discourse on love is one of the most famous and most quoted passages in the literature of love, and it is also one of the most poorly understood!
Why is this so? In the King James Version, the word that is translated above as “love” is given in Elizabethan English as “charity.” So, it was “Faith, Hope and Charity” for hundreds of years. Generations of Christians engaged in acts of charity, believing this to be what was required of them. And this conceptualization of love as charity became inculcated into our consciousness. Why the translators chose charity, over some other available term, I don’t know. But, the root of the word charity is the Indo-European base karo, which means, “to like, desire.” It later became the Gothic term hors, which meant an adulterer.
Anyway, charity was used to express the Greek word agape, which actually means “love feast.” It was described as “a meal that early Christians ate together.” There have been many glosses and later interpretations of this love feast, none of which adequately explain exactly what Paul is talking about here. Clearly he had some idea about something extraordinary that is veiled from us.
So, we can right away get rid of the idea that this essay on love had anything to do with what has been made of it. But still, the standards of love in our society are, essentially, based on this chapter in the New Testament. Take note of this portion in particular: “Even if I dole out all that I have to give food to the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.”
Clearly love is something other than giving to the poor, whether they are poor in fact, or just spirit. There has sure been a lot of giving to the poor and “surrendering of the body to be burned” in the course of Christian history, and most of it done to manipulate and control.
August 28, 1999
Q: For example: there are some people who like to suffer, because they believe that the flesh is sinful. That is a big thing that the Lizzies have instituted. For centuries they have wanted people to suffer, and they have made this big deal about sex and anything that might be considered pleasant or desirable should be denied, and that a person should suffer, and revel in their suffering. And, actually, making a person …
A: If one seeks to suffer, they do so in expectation of future reward. They desire to possess something in the end.
And, of course, in regard to:
Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy; is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.
It is not conceited – arrogant and inflated with pride; it is not rude, and does not act unbecomingly. Love does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it – pays no attention to a suffered wrong.
There is sure a lot of behavior modification by those who think that cultivating an external demeanor of humility, patience, kindness, self-sacrifice and so on will get them to heaven. And again we find, “If one seeks to suffer, they do so in expectation of future reward. They desire to possess something in the end.”
Unconditional love. This is touted by religions and philosophies of all kinds, and most especially in the present time by New Age purveyors of wisdom. It is supposed to be the panacea, the solution to all our problems – if we can only love unconditionally, all barriers in our lives will fall aside and we will climb unhindered to the mountaintop of cosmic consciousness!
Paul’s remarks above indicate that all of the qualities we usually associate with unconditional love, such as giving to the poor, surrendering our bodies to be burned, being humble, selfless and so on are nothing without this love he is talking about. So, clearly, those things that we define as love are not love, according to Paul’s definition.
We can make the assertion that he considers doing it on the outside without the true feeling inside to be the problem; but I don’t think it is that simple or that this was what he meant. And we find the answer in the aforementioned remark:
Love never fails – never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end. As for prophecy, it will be fulfilled and pass away; as for tongues, they will be destroyed and cease; as for knowledge, it will be superseded by truth.
Here, Paul has said love never fades out or comes to an end. And then he lists those things that do come to an end, and follows this with the remark that knowledge will be superseded by truth. In other words, love and truth are the same thing.
But isn’t knowledge truth? It depends on your definition of the word. Paul says:
For our knowledge is fragmentary and our prophecy is fragmentary. But when the complete and perfect comes, the incomplete and imperfect will vanish away – become antiquated, void and superseded.
Many people interpret this passage to mean that when Jesus comes, the incomplete and imperfect will vanish away. But, in the preceding paragraphs Paul has already told us what is coming: truth. Fragmentary knowledge and fragmentary prophecy will be superseded by truth. So, Paul is talking about completion and perfection of knowledge and prophecy. It should also be noted that the manner in which he uses the term prophecy, indicates a knowledge of the divine will and purpose, so that it is really only another level or type of knowledge. In short, what Paul seems to be describing is the fourth-density state of existence. He says:
For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim reflection of reality as in a riddle or an enigma, but then, when perfection comes, we shall see in reality and face to face! Now I know in part; but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly, even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly known and understood by God.
First he says that our knowledge of our reality is fragmentary – a dim reflection in a mirror, a riddle, an enigma; and that “when perfection comes,” that is, truth as he has defined above, then and only then can we see “in reality and face to face!” He further amplifies this by saying, “Now I know in part; but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly … as I have been fully and clearly known and understood by God.”
So we can see that what Paul is striving to convey to us is that love and truth are the same things, intertwined, inseparable. And this is the definition of knowledge as the Cassiopaeans have explained it: “To love you must know. And to know is to have light [i.e. truth]. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.” I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known, so I created man in order that I may be known.
Philosopher P.D. Ouspensky wrote:
There is no side of life which does not reveal to us an infinity of the new and the unexpected if we approach it with the knowledge that it is not exhausted by its visible side, that behind this visible side there lies a whole world of the invisible, a whole world of new and incomprehensible forces and relations. The knowledge of the existence of the invisible world is the first key to it. (Ouspensky 1922)
In certain aspects of our lives we come into a more direct contact with this invisible nature of God than in others. Love and death are two of these.
In Hindu mythology, love and death are the two faces of the One. Shiva, the god of the reproductive forces in nature is also the god of violent death, murder and destruction. His wife is Parvati, the goddess of beauty, love and happiness, while also being Kali, the goddess of evil, misfortune, sickness and death. Together, Shiva and Parvati/Kali are gods of wisdom, knowledge, good and evil.
“Love and Death move through this world of ours like things apart – underrunning it truly, and everywhere present, yet seeming to belong to some other mode of existence.” —Carpenter, The Drama of Love and Death, 1912
There have always been those who claim to know or teach philosophies of death – that we die once and are either saved or damned, that we die and are reincarnated, or that we die and become nothing. In fact, it could be said that all religions are just ways of teaching about death.
The problem is love. It is usually accepted by us that love is a given; it is already understood and known. The different systems of religion and philosophy are pretty much the same in their teachings about love. Yet, the fact remains that love is as great a mystery as death!
As Diane Ackerman says:
There are countless studies on war, hate, crime, prejudice, and so on. Social scientists prefer to study negative behaviors and emotions. Perhaps they don’t feel as comfortable studying love per se. I add that ‘per se’ because they are studying love – often they’re studying what happens when love is deficient, thwarted, warped, or absent. (Ackerman 1994, xxii)
But, is that really the case? P. D. Ouspensky writes:
In reality love is a cosmic phenomenon, in which people … are merely accidental; a cosmic phenomenon as little concerned with either the lives or the souls of men as the sun is concerned in shining so that, by its light, men may go about their trivial affairs and use it for their own ends. If men could understand this, be it only with one part of their consciousness, a new world would open up before them and it would become very strange for them to look at life from all the usual angles. They would understand then that love is something quite different, and of a different order from the small events of earthly life.
Perhaps it is a world of special spirits which at times take possession of men, subjugating them, making tools of them for the accomplishment of their own incomprehensible aims. … Perhaps it is the alchemical work of the Great Master, in which the souls and bodies of men play the part of the elements out of which is evolved the philosopher’s stone or the elixir of life, or some special electricity, necessary to someone for some mysterious purpose.
… Men strive to subjugate love to themselves, to force it to serve their aims, both spiritual and material. But love cannot be subjugated to anything and it wreaks merciless vengeance on the puny mortals who strive to subjugate God to serve their own ends.
… Mistaken about the origin of love, men are mistaken about its result. … The propagation of species. But this objective result, which may or may not happen, is in any case only the result of the external, objective side of love, or the material fact of impregnation.
… But if we regard love from this standpoint, we shall have to admit that there is more of this force than is necessary, infinitely more! In reality, for the purposes of the propagation of species only a small fraction of one per cent of this force of love inherent in humanity is utilized.
Where then, does the main part of the force go?
Let us take an ordinary candle. It should give light. But it gives much more heat than light. Light is the direct function of the candle, heat is the indirect function, but there is more heat than light. In order to give light, the candle must burn. Burning is the necessary condition for obtaining light from a candle; burning cannot be done away with. But this same burning produces heat. It seems, at the first glance, that the heat produced by a candle is wasted unproductively and is, at times, even superfluous, unpleasant and hindering: if a room is lit by candles, it becomes too hot. But the fact of the matter is that light is obtained from a candle only owing to its burning – the evolution of heat and the incandescence of the gases evolved.
The same applies to love. We say that only an insignificant part of the energy of love goes to create progeny; the greater part seems to be spent by fathers and mothers on their personal emotions.
In springtime, with the first awakening of the emotions of love, birds begin to sing and to build nests. Naturally, a materialist will say that the singing is to attract the females or the males and so on. But even a materialist will not be able to deny that there is much more of this singing than is necessary for the propagation of the species. For the materialist, the singing is only accidental, only a byproduct. But, in reality, the singing may be the main function of the given species, the meaning of its existence, the purpose which nature had in view in creating this species. And this singing is needed not to attract the females, but for some general harmony of nature we only sometimes vaguely feel.
Thus, we see that what appears to be a collateral function of love, from the point of view of the individual, may serve as a principal function of the species.
Love has evoked a thirst for activity. Instinct governs this thirst for activity … at the first awakening of love – work starts.
We see the same thing in men. Love is a creative force. And the creative force of love manifests itself not in one but in many varied directions. Perhaps it is precisely by this force of love, Eros, that mankind is incited to fulfill its main function: all the creative activity of mankind is the outcome of love.
If creation, the birth of ideas, is the light which comes from love, then this light comes from a great flame. In this everlasting flame, in which all mankind and the whole of the world are burning, all the forces of the human spirit and genius are developed and refined; and perhaps it is precisely from this flame, or with the help of it, that a new force will spring into being which will lead those who follow it away from the shackles of matter.
I have dwelt so long on the question of the understanding of love because it is of the most vital importance; for the majority of people approaching the threshold of the mystery, it is precisely from this side that much becomes opened or closed and because for many precisely this question constitutes the greatest obstacle.
The most important thing in love is that which is not, which is completely nonexistent from an ordinary, everyday, materialistic point of view. In this sensing of that which is not, in the contact thus reached with the world of the miraculous, i.e. the truly real, lies the principal meaning of love in human life.
… All life by all its facts, events and accidents, agitations and attractions always leads us to the knowledge of something. The strongest emotion in man is a yearning for the unknown. Even in love, the strongest attraction to which everything else is sacrificed, is the attraction of the unknown, the new – curiosity.
… Man realizes his existence and the existence of the world of which he is a part. His relation to himself and to the world is called knowledge. The broadening and deepening of the relation to oneself and the world is a broadening of knowledge.
All the mental faculties of man, all the elements of his inner life – sensations, representations, concepts, ideas, judgments, conclusions, feelings, emotions, even creation – all these are the instruments of knowledge which we possess.
… Evolutionists will say that the struggle for existence and the selection of the fittest have created the mind and feeling of the modern man – that mind and feeling serve life, protect the species, and apart from this, can have no meaning.
The opposing argument is that, if intelligence exists, then nothing exists except for intelligence. The struggle for existence, and the survival of the fittest, if they in truth play such a role in the creation of life, are also not accidents, but products of an intelligence we do not know. And, like everything else, they serve knowledge.
But we do not, as a rule, see the presence of intelligence in the phenomena and laws of nature. This happens because we always study the parts and not the whole. By studying the little finger of a man, we cannot know the intelligence of the man. We always study the little finger of nature. If we realize this and understand that every life is the manifestation of a part of some whole, only then a possibility opens of knowing that whole.
Every separate human life is a moment of the life of the great being which lives in us. The intelligences of these higher beings do not exist independently of the lower lives. They are two sides of one and the same thing. Each single human mind, in some other section of the world may produce the illusion of many lives.
Life and mind seem to us different and separate from one another because we do not know how to look, how to see. And this in its turn is due to the fact that it is very hard for us to get out of the framework of our divisions. We see the life of a tree, this tree. And if we are told that the life of the tree is a manifestation of some mind, we understand it to mean that the life of this tree is a manifestation of the mind of this tree.
This, of course, is an absurdity resulting from our three-dimensional thinking, the Euclidean mind. The life of this tree is a manifestation of the mind of the species or the variety, or perhaps, of the intelligence of the whole vegetable kingdom.
In the same way our individual lives are the manifestations of some great intelligence. Proof of this is found in the fact that our lives have no meaning whatsoever apart from the process of acquiring knowledge. And a thoughtful man ceases to feel painfully the absence of meaning in life only when he realizes this and begins to strive consciously in the direction he was unconsciously following before.
Moreover, this acquisition of knowledge, which constitutes our function in the world, is achieved not only by our intellect, but by our whole organism, all our body, all our life and the whole life of the human society, by its organizations, institutions, the whole culture and the whole civilization, by all we know in humankind and even more so by what we do not know. And we get to know that which we deserve to know.
If we say about the intellectual side of man that its purpose is the acquisition of knowledge, this will not evoke any doubt. All are agreed that man’s intellect, with all its subordinate functions, exists for the purpose of acquiring knowledge, although very often the faculty of knowledge is regarded as subordinate. But as regards the emotions: joy, sorrow, anger, fear, love, hate, pride, compassion, jealousy, as regards the sense of beauty, aesthetic sense and artistic creation, as regards moral sense, as regards all religious emotions, faith, hope, veneration and so on, as regards all human activity, things are not so clear. As a rule, we do not see that all emotions and all human activity serve knowledge.
Usually the emotional is opposed to the intellectual: “heart” is opposed to “reason.” Cold reason or intellect is placed on one side, and on the other side: feelings, emotions, artistic sense; then, again quite separately, moral sense, religious feeling, ‘spirituality.’
The misunderstanding here lies in the interpretation of the words intellect and emotion.
Spirituality is not something opposed to “intellectuality” or “emotionality.” It is only their higher flight. Reason has no bounds.
… In a man the growth of reason consists in the growth of the intellect and in the accompanying growth of higher emotions: aesthetic, religious, moral – which, as they grow, become more and more intellectualized; moreover, simultaneously with this the intellect becomes impregnated with emotionality and ceases to be “cold.” Thus, “spirituality” is the merging together of the intellect and the higher emotions; the emotions are spiritualized from the intellect.
… Theoretically all emotions serve knowledge; all emotions arise as a consequence of the cognition of one or another thing. … Undoubtedly there are relations which can be known only through fear. A man who has never experienced fear will never understand many things in life and in nature.
The sign of the growth of emotions is their liberation from the personal element and their transition to higher planes. The liberation from personal elements enhances the cognitive power of emotions, because the more personal elements there are in an emotion, the more capable it is of leading into delusion. A personal emotion is always biased, always unfair, if only for the reason that it opposes itself to everything else.
Thus the problem of right emotional knowledge is to feel in relation to people and the world from a point of view other than the personal. And the wider the circle for which a given person feels, the deeper the knowledge which his emotions give.
Christ driving the moneychangers out of the temple or expressing his opinion of the Pharisees was not at all meek or mild. And there are cases where meekness and mildness are not a virtue at all. Emotions of love, sympathy, pity are very easily transformed into sentimentality, into weakness. And in this form they naturally serve only absence of knowledge, i.e. matter.
There exists a division of emotions into pure and impure. We all know this, we all use these words, but we understand very little what this means.
Ordinary morality divides emotions, a priori, into pure and impure according to external traits. All carnal desires are relegated into the category of the impure. However, carnal desires are as pure as everything else in nature.
An impure emotion is exactly the same as a dirty glass, dirty water or an impure sound. An emotion which is not pure contains foreign matter or echoes of other emotions. It is mixed. A pure emotion gives a clear, pure image of the knowledge which it is intended to transmit.
If we discard the usual moral framework, we shall see that the matter is much more simple, that there are no emotions impure in their nature.
There may be pure sensuality, the sensuality of the “Song of Songs,” which passes into the sensation of cosmic life and enables one to hear the beating pulse of nature. And there may be impure sensuality, mixed with other emotions, good or bad from the moral point of view, but equally making sensuality turbid. There is sensuality with anger that causes pain; there is sensuality with guilt that seeks pain.
There may be pure sympathy – and there may be sympathy mixed with calculation to receive something for one’s sympathy. There may be pure desire to know, a thirst for knowledge for the sake of knowledge, and there may be a pursuit of knowledge led by considerations of profit and gain.
In their external manifestations pure and impure emotions may differ very little. Two men may play chess and be quite alike in their outward behaviour, but one may be driven by ambition, desire of victory, and he will be full of unpleasant feelings towards his opponent – apprehension, envy of a clever move, vexation, jealousy, animosity, or anticipation of his winnings; but another may simply try to solve the complicated mathematical problems before him, without giving a thought to his opponent.
Examples of such a division of outwardly similar emotions may be constantly seen in artistic, literary, scientific, social and even in spiritual and religious activities of men. In all domains, only complete victory over the self-element leads man to a right knowledge of the world and himself. All emotions coloured by the self-element are like concave, convex or distorting glasses which refract the rays incorrectly and so distort the image of the world.
Thus the problem of emotional knowledge consists in a corresponding preparation of the emotions which serve as instruments of knowledge.
“Become as little children … ” and “Blessed are the pure in heart … ” These words speak about the purification of emotions. It is impossible to know rightly through impure emotions. Therefore, in the interests of a right knowledge of the world and oneself, the work of purification and elevation of emotions should go on in man.
There are emotions through which we gain knowledge, and there are emotions by which we are led astray. (Ouspensky 1922)
All of these things discussed by Ouspensky are the very things we are trying to clarify in our study of the biophysical basis of emotions. Emotions that are programmed are impure, as he terms it. The self element is highly invested in these emotions, and they are for the most part the unconscious controllers of our behavior. What we are trying to do here is establish a basis for the overcoming of the Predator’s controlling mind, and the experiential establishment of the higher emotions of the soul. As Ouspensky says above, “Spirituality is not something opposed to ‘intellectuality’ or ‘emotionality.’ It is only their higher flight. ‘Spirituality’ is the merging together of the intellect and the higher emotions; the emotions are spiritualized from the intellect.”
Remember: meeting a jaguar can change one’s way of looking at the world. And once we have met the jaguar, once we have understood that we “will do what we will do,” let’s remember the words from Ark’s journals:
So, let’s state the hypothesis. The only reasonable hypothesis that I can state is that one which comes from the unknown system taught by Gurdjieff. This system tells us that the world has a certain purpose. It tells us that not everything works well. It tells us that there are certain bugs in the construction.
It is quite possible that using the meta-language one can prove that any program on that scale must have bugs. So, the Universe is a program, a program which has bugs, but which has the built-in capacity for self-improving.
There are, therefore, certain units that are brought to existence with this specific purpose: to self-evolve to a degree high enough to be able to find out the methods of debugging.
So what do we do now? We debug the Universe, of course. Starting with our minds.
Nobel Laureate Murray Gell-Mann writes in The Quark and the Jaguar:
I have never really seen a jaguar in the wild. In the course of many long walks through the forests of tropical America and many boat trips on Central and South American rivers, I never experienced that heart-stopping moment when the powerful spotted cat comes into full view. Several friends have told me, though, that meeting a jaguar can change one’s way of looking at the world.
… [Arthur Sze writes] “The world of the quark has everything to do with a jaguar circling in the night.” …
The jaguar stands for the complexity of the world around us, especially as manifested in complex adaptive systems. … the quark and the jaguar seem to me to convey perfectly the two aspects of nature that I call the simple and the complex: on the one hand, the underlying physical laws of matter and the Universe and, on the other, the rich fabric of the world that we perceive directly and of which we are a part. … the jaguar is … a possible metaphor for the elusive complex adaptive system, which continues to avoid a clear analytical gaze, though its pungent scent can be smelled in the bush. (Gell-Mann 1994, 3, 11)
In the last few chapters, we have met the Jaguar. We have described a reality out of your worst nightmare. Some of you have been able to actually see the Jaguar, and some of you have smelled its pungent scent, and some of you have covered your eyes and held your nose and have fled in terror to the safety of more congenial belief systems. These latter have concluded that the Cassiopaeans are presenting “just another of those the-world-is-damned and only a few are gonna be saved” rants. In regard to this, let me quote British novelist Donald James (aka Dresden James), who wrote:
A truth’s initial commotion is directly proportional to how deeply the lie was believed. It wasn’t the world being round that agitated people, but that the world wasn’t flat. When a well-packaged web of lies has been sold gradually to the masses over generations, the truth will seem utterly preposterous and its speaker a raving lunatic.
In either case, whether you have seen or smelt the jaguar, or have denied its existence, holding the perfumed handkerchief of well-packaged lies to your nose, I think it is time to talk a few minutes about current realities. On July 16 1994, the information about the “project to create a new race” was given with a completion date of 13 years in the future. That would put it right around the year 2007. We should either be running for cover, or on our knees praying, right? Nice linear thought pattern.
Well, 2007 has come and gone. Around the time of editing this volume for print, we had a session that was relevant to his topic:
July 22, 2010
A: Remember we once told you that people would unite against the “invasion” at the time just before the earth changes?
Q: (L) Well, yeah. We were talking about the Nephalim and their stun guns and that sort of thing. But it looks like psychopaths are the new Nephalim, and they’re already using stun guns – tasers. And then we asked if they were going to try to stage a fake alien invasion. All of this disclosure business is trying to point people in the direction of alien invasions, trying to get them prepared for some kind of fake alien invasion. Then you said yes, but a real invasion might take place first or earth changes would happen. Now, it’s just been pressing on my mind, becoming more and more clear, that we don’t need an alien invasion with psychopaths ruling this world as their transdimensional agents. And it has occurred to me that when you said that way back when, that basically the invasion has already occurred! It’s here, now. It’s psychopaths in power!
Everybody is looking and waiting for some kind of aliens; well, aliens are a supernatural phenomenon. Yeah, there is a certain physicality to it, but it strikes me that that physicality doesn’t have … what do I want to say? Endurance? It doesn’t “vibrate” right in our reality. It can come and go, but it doesn’t stay here. So they need agents. They’ve always needed agents. They’ve always needed human-looking beings to control, to manipulate, or to even “download into” in a funny sort of way, like a possession or an activation. It’s like they’re sitting at some control console in some hyperdimensional place controlling their agents the way we control remote control toys.
So anyhow, this is what I’ve been thinking. Everybody’s waiting for something to happen, like disclosure, or after disclosure. But it’s already happened. It’s here NOW! Any so-called “disclosure” will be a fraud unless they come out and say that it is a supernatural or hyper-dimensional phenomenon, which they are NOT going to say because that completely counters their entire world view that worships the physical universe. That’s where the whole Darwinism, material science, exclusion of scientific study of the paranormal, and so forth, comes from. That sort of thing can NEVER be studied honestly because it would destroy their reality construct.
(Perceval) That’s a great screen.
(L) Yeah, they’re trying to prepare people for physical, material aliens – “Disclosure” – because they’re going to TRY to pull the alien invasion trick or the “alien god” trick and they’ll say, “Worship the alien god! Join behind us! We’re his high priests!” But it’s not going to work.
(Perceval) It’s almost like that’s been held in reserve if it’s necessary. They’ve prepped people with the idea of aliens.
(L) It’s like this gigantic counterintelligence program. And the main thing that I’ve seen them working to counter is the idea, the concept, the understanding that this phenomenon is a supernatural one. To make that clear, what we have always called supernatural, which is not necessarily “supernatural”, is really just hyperdimensional. We’ve been aware of these things – this other reality – for millennia. They come and go. It’s like the finger in Flatland. We’re Flatland! Am I on to something with this?
A: About as accurate as you can get without making direct predictions.
Q: (L) Who was it, this scientist guy… Was it Werner von Braun who said they were going to create this illusion about an alien invasion, and that it was all a big lie and a big fraud? And the real reason he said it was that he knew that it was a paranormal or a hyperdimensional phenomenon. Is that what he meant?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Because that fits. We’ve already been invaded. It’s already a done deal. (Perceval) An invasion of psychopaths. (L) Yeah.
(Ailén) It’s a perfect excuse for not taking responsibility as human beings. They can blame it on aliens, and say, “We’re all equal, we’re all victims! We didn’t know!”
The question has been asked: if the Cassiopaeans are the nice guys who serve self by serving others, as they claim, why in the world would they tell us about a reality that is so horrible? Is it their objective to create such a reality by planting it in our minds and convincing us it is real and that we have no hope? Doesn’t making people afraid provide a wonderful feast of fear for those nasty old fourth-density STS controllers? Isn’t that just what they want? And, if so, then the Cassiopaeans must be one of “them” in disguise, providing themselves with a feast of fear!
At the same time, when the Cassiopaeans suggest that the many sources of information or systems of belief that make you feel safe, saved, warm and fuzzy, could really be setting you up for a fall, aren’t they driving us away from the real sources of peace and harmony in which we must have faith in the face of any other evidence?
Well, let me ask you a question: would you go hiking in the wilderness without proper clothing and equipment? If somebody told you about all the dreadful things that can happen on a hike in the woods, would it stop you from the hike? Would you be so terrorized by the prospect of encountering a bear or a snake or a jaguar that you would stay home? Or would you equip yourself properly, with both knowledge and tools, and go enjoy your hike in safety?
Well, this analogy goes only so far because, as it happens, we are already in the middle of the wilderness and there are a lot of teachers around who are repeatedly telling us, “There’s nothing out there that can harm you! If you aren’t afraid, no grizzly bears or snakes will appear! And, even if they do, if you don’t feel fear, they won’t bother you.”
Well, on the occasions when just such a philosophy might seem to have worked, the survivor of the encounter is firmly convinced that it was just this quality of “see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil” that preserved them. The only problem is, we have no way of knowing if the grizzly bear, the snake, or the jaguar declined to attack them simply because they weren’t hungry at the moment, or they were distracted by other, more tasty prey. And a more compelling question is this: did they act in a manner so as to convince the person that their belief system worked, so that they would return and proclaim the gospel of faith and ignorance, thereby assuring their continued concealment? And, naturally, those who practice this philosophy and do not survive, we never hear about. Freud wrote that religion was “a system of wishful illusions together with a disavowal of reality, such as we find … nowhere else … but in a state of blissful hallucinatory confusion.”
And, of course, the Cassiopaeans have identified the essence of Service to Self as “wishful thinking.”
Now, let me propose another interpretation of what the Cassiopaeans have told us. One that is actually contained within their words for those who have eyes to see and ears to hear. Could it just be possible that they are, as they have said, probable future selves whose reality as sixth-density beings is increased in direct proportion to our level of knowledge, and subsequent application? In other words, are we not dealing with probable futures, and the only way of determining which future we experience is to choose based on accurate knowledge of the present?
Suppose that the information the Cassiopaeans disseminate is true and we ignore it, are we then possibly subject to the very reality they tell us about? Conversely, if we accept it as true, or possibly true, and then act based on this information, are we not then capable changing the reality? That is, assuming that the reality is a result of mass mind non-awareness, and that a critical mass of awareness can be achieved?
In short, does it not seem reasonable that our probable future selves – given increasing probability by the awakening of a few people – are capable of interacting in our reality to help us only because some of us accept the role of being contact points to receive and disseminate the information necessary to wake people up in order to change the future?
Ouspensky, quoting Gurdjieff, writes:
Furthermore no one can escape from prison without the help of those who have escaped before. Only they can say in what way escape is possible or can send tools, files, or whatever may be necessary. But one prisoner alone cannot find these people or get into touch with them. An organization is necessary, nothing can be achieved without an organization. (Ouspensky 1949)
Remember the most important principles the Cassiopaeans have given us: free will, and knowledge protects. These two concepts are inseparable. The more knowledge you have, the more awareness you have; and the more awareness you have, the more free will you have. And the only way to understand the advanced information from the Cassiopaeans that evolved as we interacted with them is to understand nonlinear dynamics and complex systems.
On this issue, my husband Ark speculates: one day we will have a smart gadget that will allow us to measure the “level of awareness”. Then the term “the more awareness you have” will have a technical meaning, like blood pressure, cholesterol level or, less precisely, IQ quotient.
First of all, it is important to note that the law of free will contains within it the explicit condition of non-linearity. And for those who wish to take issue with my remarks here, claiming that the Cassiopaeans have said that we are controlled by fourth-density STS, and therefore this implies that there is no free will, keep in mind that we have as much free will in relation to fourth density as second-density creatures have in relation to us. The more awareness a second-density creature obtains about a third-density person, the more likely it is to avoid being captured and eaten. So, let’s not slip into tetraphyloctomy on that point. (A term coined by Umberto Eco in Foucault’s Pendulum; means “the art of splitting a hair four ways”.)
Implicit in non-linearity is the fact that the future is, as the Cassiopaeans have said a thousand times, open. Not only is it open, it is multiple in probability. In their own words, there is an uncountable infinity of quasi-quantum propensities.
Even if they often oppose one another, belief in reductionism and mechanism go hand in hand with religious faith. God or Darwin are in heaven and all is right with the world. Phenomena are orderly and everything can be explained with some sort of cause and effect scheme represented by differential equations. Either God started things at some point in space-time, to follow a single linear path, at which point He will bring it to an end, saving some people and not others, according to survival of the fittest in terms of who has obeyed his commands; or everything began with the Big Bang and has followed the linear path of evolutionary survival of the fittest in terms of natural selection. Same song, different verse.
Newton introduced us to these ideas through his famous laws of motion which relate the rates of change of momentum to various forces. Very quickly science, and religion, came to rely on linear differential equations. Phenomena such as the flight of a baseball or the end of the world (which necessitates the damning of certain souls on a particular trajectory, and the saving of others) could be described by differential equations. You throw the ball a certain way with a certain force, and there are certain conditions, and it will land at a specified place. If you have faith in a certain system, and hold firm to that faith, or conversely, deny that faith, you will end up in heaven or hell; or you will die in a pole shift, or be translated to the great new pie-in-the-sky. In such systems, small changes produce small effects and large effects are obtained by summing up many small changes.
This reductionist thinking held sway over nearly all the world until the 1970s when mathematical advances and the advent of the high-speed computer enabled scientists to probe the complex interior of nonlinear equations. (Note: the new trend started earlier, in 1950s in Los Alamos, with simulations of Fermi-Ulam-Pasta model on the then state-of-the-art computer Maniac 1.)
Nonlinear equations are math from the Twilight Zone where the normal mathematical landscape can suddenly become an alternate reality. In nonlinear equations, a small change in one variable can have a disproportionate impact on other variables. This can be catastrophic or serendipitous.
Now, the Cassiopaean material that explicates these things, that I am in the process of trying to present, will be offered in due time, and in context. But, in direct response to the many attempts to block this presentation, I am taking a shorter route here by explaining this in advance of presenting the material itself in a future volume.
It seems that it has not been without some sort of definite plan in the mind of the Cassiopaeans that before coming to the US, Arkadiusz Jadczyk was heading a division of nonlinear dynamics and complex systems. You may have deduced that there was an essential need for the participation of a physicist of exactly his background in this plan. It might even be further conjectured that he and I both were aware of this plan prior to incarnating and that our different pathways, brought together by the direct intervention of the Cassiopaeans, were necessary experiences set up by our future selves in order to prepare the ground, as it were, for the seeds that are now bearing fruit in this present series.
Getting back to nonlinear systems: nonlinear equations can be used to model the way an earthquake erupts when two tectonic plates shove against one another, building up irregular pressure along a fault line. The equation can show how for decades this jagged pressure mounts as the subsurface topography squeezes closer until in the very next millimeter of movement a critical value is encountered. At this value, the pressure pops suddenly and one plate slips, riding up on the other and everything shakes, rattles and rolls in the aftershocks of instabilities. Sure gives new meaning to the expression, “The straw that broke the camel’s back.”
Now, while scientists can model how such complex events manifest, they cannot predict exactly where or when the next quake will happen. This is because in the nonlinear world – which includes most of the real world – long term prediction is both practically and theoretically impossible. Nonlinearity dashes the reductionist dream of science, and an open future dashes the dream of the faithful in standard religions and philosophies based on prophecy and determinism.
By crunching different numbers in the nonlinear equations, systems theory scientists are able to model the effects of various policies and strategies on such things as the evolution of cities, the growth of a corporation, the firing of neurons, photon emissions, the economy, and so on. Using nonlinear models, it is even possible to locate potential critical pressure points in such systems. At these critical points, a small change can have a tremendous impact.
The teachings of the Cassiopaeans are based on a nonlinear, complex, self-referencing and self-organizing cosmos. That is to say, when they answer our questions at any given moment, the answers are correct for that moment in space-time, for that branch of the Universe in which the question is asked. However, that information, if it is utilized, changes the complex system via a process of back-propagation or feedback, and the Universe can branch and change in a nonlinear way. That this has happened will become evident as I proceed with the narrative. And maybe it has happened more than once, depending on our actions, or feedback into the system. What kind of feedback, you ask?
Nonlinear equations include feedback that repeatedly multiplies by themselves. But, there are two types of feedback. An example of a simple feedback loop is the thermostat in your home. The room cools down below a certain temperature set on the thermostat. The thermostat responds by switching on the heat pump, which then heats up the room. As the room warms up to the set temperature, the thermostat signals the heat pump to shut down. The action of the thermostat affects the heat pump and the activity of the heat pump affects the thermostat. The thermostat and heat pump are bound in what is technically called a negative feedback loop.
Negative feedback loops have been in used since as early as 250 bce, when they were used to regulate the height of water in water clocks. In the 1930s, feedback loops were used to model the relationship between predators and prey. In the 1950s, scientists (mainly in cybernetics and control theory) began to take conscious note of positive feedback loops.
The ear splitting screech you hear in a PA system is an example of positive feedback. (Yeah, I know, that sounds weird because there is nothing positive about those noises, for sure!) But what this means is that output from the PA amplifier is picked up by the microphone and looped back into the amplifier where it is then emitted by the speakers in greatly amplified volume. The chaotic sound is the result of the output of one stage of the process adding to the input in another stage of the process.
So, calling it positive just means it amplifies, just as negative feedback is a system of control. Think carefully about these two systems of feedback. These two types of feedback are everywhere in our world. And nonlinearity is everywhere a potential.
If you think about our reality in terms of feedback loops, you can see how it might be possible to control us by pumping a measured amount of heat or teachings into the system when it gets too cool; when people begin to get restless and ask questions. This has been the state for millennia. Each time human beings have begun to awaken, it could be likened to the room becoming too cool. The control system then adds some heat in the form of a new variation on the old teachings that serve to stabilize the system. As soon as enough heat has been added, the feeding shuts down. We will come back to some practical examples of negative feedback loops in terms of standard religions of the past, and the new religion of the “alien rapture theory” soon.
Positive feedback loops are a bit more problematical, and are the stuff of nonlinear dynamics. The key to positive feedback in terms that we are concerned with relates directly to the teachings of the Cassiopaeans. Their communications could be likened to the output from an amplifier, “us in the future,” which is picked up by the microphone, or “us in the past”, which is then looped back into the amplifier – us in the past (the present, from our frame of reference) again is then emitted by the speakers in a greatly amplified volume – or nonlinear change of the reality. This point is made clear in the following:
June 9, 1996
Q: (L) al-‘Arabî describes unified thought forms as being the “names of God.” His explication seems to be so identical to things you tell us that I wonder …
A: We are all the names of God. Remember, this is a conduit. This means that both termination/origination points are of equal value, importance. … Don’t deify us. And, be sure all others with which you communicate understand this too!
Q: (L) What quality in us, what thing, enabled us to make contact?
A: You asked.
Q: (L) A lot of people ask!
A: No they don’t, they command.
Q: (L) Well, a lot of people do ask or beg or plead, but they get all discombobulated with the answers.
A: No, they command. Think about it. You did not beg or plead … that is commanding.
And this is an important point. Until an individual realizes that having faith is a form of commanding, they have no hope of truly asking the Universe for answers. The fiction writer, Ann Rice, gave eloquent voice to this problem in The Vampire Lestat:
Very few beings really seek knowledge in this world – few really ask. On the contrary, they try to wring from the unknown the answers they have already shaped in their own minds – justifications, confirmations, forms of consolation without which they can’t go on. To really ask is to open the door to a whirlwind. The answer may annihilate the question and the questioner. (Rice 1997, 332–333)
To emphasize the above point, let me say that the most formidable difficulty I have found in sharing the Cassiopaean information is the fact that many people are incapable of esoteric understanding. There are many who say that they would very much like to inquire into the nature of reality and being, but their curiosity is ephemeral – they are dilettantes who will only reach the portal of the outer circles of understanding. The fearful “Dweller on the Threshold,” nowadays manifesting as Grays and Reptoids, will block their path and they will find themselves too attached to their linear modes of thinking to enter the temple, so to speak.
This idea goes against the democratic egalitarianism of popular spiritual thinking, but the fact is:
To those people who simply pry into the occult from mere curiosity, we have nothing to say. They will obtain just as much as they deserve, and nothing more. “Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you” is equally as true today, in relation to esoteric knowledge, as it was 2000 years ago. … It invariably presupposes that the supplicator and the knocker are in real earnest, and that they seek only to satisfy the deep yearnings of the immortal soul. The doorkeeper, or guardian of the temple of truth is as mute as a granite rock to all others. They may supplicate, they may shout and bawl until they are hoarse, they may knock and buffet the door until they rouse a nation with their clamour, and if they approach in any other spirit than [earnest desire to satisfy the deep yearnings of the immortal soul], it is all to no purpose. We can never take the Kingdom of Heaven by storm.
Those students who are unable to comprehend the sublime import of the mighty system of cycles and periods … would preferably be occupied in eschewing occult studies for the adoption of others adapted to their sphere of thought. … They must remain contented until the time arrives when conditions are evolved in the scale of the succeeding human races, conditions which will permit of the expansive budding and blossoming of their soul’s now latent attributes.
… There is no such thing in the entire cosmos as equality. There is, instead a hierarchy, not as something tyrannical, and especially not based on birth, riches, or the power of the stronger, but as a “sacred authority” sanctioned by the nature of things. There is only one royalty, one aristocracy: that of intelligence. … This alone can lead to cosmic equilibrium and happiness.
… There are also numerous students who, although being in a condition suitable for the perception of truth, and for the true significance of nature’s grand mysteries, are yet totally unqualified for the perception of this knowledge, owing to their natural but terrible elemental affinity. The result of this fearful psychical condition is … that the occult powers which they might develop, would be used for purposes of a purely selfish and worldly nature …
It is quite a minority of this class who can grasp any actual power, for upon the contrary they frequently become the very dupes and slaves of the powers they so ardently seek to control.
To all such we fervently and solemnly say: abandon all thoughts of spirit-intercourse, flee from occultism, and spiritualism, as you would from a pestilence, and may the divine guardians of the human race preserve your souls from the bottomless abyss, upon the brink of which you may possibly have been unconsciously reposing. (“Axioms of the Hermetic Brotherhood of Luxor”, quoted by Godwin et al. 1995)
The Cassiopaeans have said about this same matter:
November 16, 1994
Q: (L) Is there any kind of hierarchy to this thing? Do these beings come before some kind of grand council and make plans and discuss things, and make decisions and implement them?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, how do things happen? Do things just sort of happen as a natural interaction of things and energies?
A: Yes.Q: (L) If the Lizzies have been feeding off of us frequently and are planning to come and take over our planet, why, when they achieved their domination 300,000 years ago, did they not just move here and take up residence and be in charge?
A: No desire to inhabit same realm. … You are 3rd level they are 4th level.
Q: (L) Why are they planning to now?
A: They want to rule you in 4th density.
Q: (L) If the mother planet that the human race was seeded on originally, is burned up, or turned into a cinder, I would like to know how it burned up.
A: Star expanded.
Q: (L) Well, if the star expanded, it must have expanded recently, is that correct?
A: Time does not measure that way in that realm.
Q: (L) What realm is that?
A: Time/space warp. […]
Q: (L) So, the star expanded and the mother planet was turned into a cinder. If this was the case, it means that it must have turned into a cinder very close to the point, using time loosely, when human beings were created.
A: You can’t even use it loosely. … Okay. Now: “shocker” for you. It hasn’t become a cinder yet.
Q: (L) Okay. What is it? You told us it was a cinder … burned up … what is the real story here?
A: It will be at the same “time” that you go to 4th density. The human race is currently being formed on D’Ahnkiar. … That closes realm grand cycle.
Q: (L) Are you saying that there are human beings being created on that planet at this current time …
A: Yes, you are. Your race is forming there. … Realm crossing understand?
Q: (L) Are you saying that there are fourth-density bodies being formed there …
A: No. 3rd.
Q: (L) There are third-density bodies … are we going to leave the bodies we are in and go into other bodies?
A: You are drifting … think carefully. Realm is derivative of reality. Cycle.
Q: (L) So the human race is being formed on this other planet at the present time …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And at the time of the realm border crossing, this other planet will then become cindered … burned up …
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Where will the human beings go that are being formed on that planet at the time of the realm border crossing?
A: Ancient Earth. … There is no time as you know it; its all just lessons for the collective consciousness.
Q: (L) So at the closing of this grand cycle everything will just start all over again?
A: Not exactly; you see, there is no start.
Q: (L) Are a lot of souls on the earth going to recycle into these new bodies coming onto the earth?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) As ancient mankind?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And do the whole thing all over again?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, in other words, a lot of people are going back to square one?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this punishment?
A: No. Nature.
Q: (L) Are some of the souls, at that point, going to move into a higher density level?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Could you give us a percentage on this?
A: No. Open at this point.
Q: (L) Now, getting back to the planet, if at some point in the cycle, bodies were generated on this planet and brought to earth, who brought them?
A: Realm crossing.
Q: (L) It was not a who, it was a what, is that correct?
A: All is who and what. … What is chosen? Only you can choose. The choice comes by nature and free will and looking and listening. Where you are is not important. Who you are is and also what you see.
So we begin to have an inkling that linear thinking must be tossed out the window and that we must turn to nature with all the powers of both our intellect and our intuition in order to weigh and measure the forces at work here, in which we figure as points of nonlinear confluence.
French mathematician Henri Poincare first blew the whistle on the closed system thinking of Newtonian mechanics. According to classical physics, Newtonian physics, a closed system is perfectly orderly and predictable. A pendulum in a vacuum, free of friction and air resistance, will conserve its energy. The pendulum will swing back and forth for all eternity. It will not be subject to the dissipation of entropy, which eats its way into systems by causing them to give up their energy to the surrounding environment. Planets, like pendulums, cannot be disturbed unless by outside chance, and they must be unvarying in their perambulations around the sun.
But Poincare asked a question about the stability of the solar system. Why he asked this question, we do not know, but he did. And the reaction to his question was the standard linear-faith brush-off, “Of course they are stable! They’ve been stable for a long time. Heck, we can predict eclipses years in advance!” It was a tenet of the scientific faith that knowing the law of force and mass of the bodies, any good scientist could predict the interactions with Newton’s equations. The law of force, the inverse square of the law of gravitation, was all wrapped up in a nice, neat package.
But Poincare had been doing some math on the side, and he knew that there was a small difficulty here: for a system containing only two bodies, Newton’s equations work. For an ideal two-body system, the orbits are stable. The problem arises when going from two to three bodies, such as including the Sun in the equations, Newton’s equations actually become unsolvable. For formal mathematical reasons, the three-body equation cannot be worked out closer than an approximation.
Well, one would think that an approximation might be okay. We can live with that. It’s nothing to keep one awake at night, right? Well, Poincare knew that the approximation method appeared to work for the first few bodies added, but when that number increased, if you add more and more bodies to the system, even including a few spare asteroids and their very minute perturbations of the system, over long periods of time, at some point the orbits shift and the solar system begins to break apart under its own internal forces.
Mathematically, this problem is nonlinear and nonintegrable. When you add a term to a two-body system it increases the nonlinear complexity, or feedback of the system. Poincare did this, and was satisfied that a three-body system remained pretty stable. Small perturbations, but so what? With just the Sun, the Earth and the Moon, we can sleep safely in our beds at night. Right?
Wrong. What happened next was a shock. Poincare discovered that with even the very smallest perturbation, some orbits behaved in an erratic, even chaotic way. His calculations showed that a minute gravitational pull from a third body might cause a planet to wobble and weave drunkenly in its orbit and even fly out of the solar system altogether!
One will be struck by the complexity of this figure which I do not even attempt to draw. Nothing more properly gives us an idea of complication of the problem of three bodies and, in general, of all the problems in dynamics where there is no uniform integral. (H. Poincare quoted by Schroeder 1991)
Poincare had discovered that chaos is the essence of the nonlinear system. He revealed that even a completely deterministic system like our solar system could do crazy things with the least provocation. The smallest effects could be magnified through positive feedback and a simple system can explode into shocking complexity.
This is quite a different matter from the negative feedback control mechanism that controls the temperature of our reality.
Now, let’s go in a slightly different direction. For a long time, matter and motion were accepted as the basis of reality and, to a great extent, continue to be. The Big Bang or Cosmic Firecracker theory is explained in these terms. A primal atom (matter) of incredible density exploded into motion. Where the primal atom came from, how the space it exploded into came into being, and where the impetus for this event originated, are still on the drawing board. Nevertheless, from this purported event, our Universe and the life within it just sort of accidentally happened. Man is the amoral end of a deadly biological evolution. The mind and soul are inexplicable byproducts of the struggle for survival. The Bible says, “In the Beginning, God created the heaven and the earth.” Neither the Bible nor science has much to say about what happened before the beginning. St. Augustine was once asked the question, “What was God doing before He created the world?” The Bishop’s rejoinder: “Creating Hell for those who ask that question!” put a period to such inquiries. Few have asked since.
However, physics, the study of the deeper realities of existence, has failed to support the matter-motion theory. To the average person, a table, a chair, an orange, are real objects. They have dimension – three, to be exact – they are real. But are they? The physicist (and the knowledgeable layperson) knows that the object is composed of atoms. And there lies the rub! The dissected atom (quantum particles) often displays some very disturbing properties.
Physicist Nick Herbert writes in Quantum Reality:
Despite modern attempts to split it into finer bits, using energies a hundred billion times greater than those that hold the atom together, the electron remains steadfastly elementary. An electron, so it seems, simply doesn’t have any parts. (Herbert 1985, 58)
One experiment shows that electrons are particles. Another demonstrates wave properties. The bottom line seems to be that, having pursued reality to its farthest limits within human capability, man finds that his real world is made up of particle–waves, which do not exist except as a mathematical object. Danish physicist Niels Bohr even put forth the theory that there is no deep reality.
So, just what is this estate in which we find our existence? Does reality run out when it becomes invisible? Obviously not as we cannot see electricity and other forces in the Universe measurable only by their effect upon matter. Do these forces run out when they become undetectable by our senses or by our instruments? Do the things we detect with the subtle mechanisms of our mind and organs of sensation not exist simply because we cannot see or measure them? And, as Ark dared to ask in his 1994 paper, published in a peer reviewed physics journal, Annalen der Physik, (the same journal in which Einstein published his famous 1905 paper), “Who are ‘we’, anyway?”
This is the crisis in physics and the crisis in our world, for the prevailing cosmic view in the ivory towers of physics and cosmology eventually filters down and influences our domestic, social and political patterns.
But, if science has failed us, how much more so has religion?
Some religions say that the only meaning to life is in having faith that our suffering is creating a better future in the afterlife or in future lives. Other religions say that the meaning to life lies in working to dissolve the ego into nothingness. One philosophy states that the true purpose of life is to align our self-created realities so that they become as one in love and light, thereby we may achieve a unified race, which will survive beyond predicted cataclysms for a thousand years before things wind down a bit into the usual state of decay. Naturally this effect can only be initiated and maintained by a group effort to dominate the thinking of the world by bombing them all with positive thoughts. There are other ideas and combinations of ideas similar to these – all leading where?
“A religion contradicting science and a science contradicting religion are equally false.”
Surely there must be some way to reconcile the two.
Are we, in fact, an accident of evolution in an accidental Universe, on a race to nowhere except oblivion? Or, worse still, are our very minds – our desire for knowledge – our enemies; damning us for our lack of belief? The choice seems to be between a sick joke and a mistake, neither of which is conducive to faith.
But, help is on the way. In 1966, theoretical physicist John Stewart Bell constructed a proof that has since become known as Bell’s Theorem. (Reprinted in Speakable and Unspeakable in Quantum Mechanics.) This theorem tells us that, if quantum theory is correct, reality must be non-local. That is to say, anything happening anywhere whatsoever in the Universe, can, instantaneously affect everything else everywhere else in the Universe. He demonstrated that, if we take the lesson of the quantum theory seriously, an atom’s measured attributes are determined not just by events happening at the actual site of being, but by all events occurring in the entire Universe simultaneously and instantly.
Notice the key word above – instantaneous. This means superluminal or faster than the speed of light. But, assuming that no signal can travel faster than the speed of light, this must mean that there is no actual distance separating events. Bell’s theorem can be interpreted as demonstrating the idea that all that exists – past, present, and future – should be combined into a single entity whose farthest parts are joined in an immediate manner. In other words, the world we perceive – the stars and planets, the land and seas, the trees, animals, buildings, people – are all manifestations of a single unmitigated process.
January 11, 1995
Q: (B) What is the purpose of this contact?
A: To help you to learn, thus gain knowledge, thus gain protection, thus progress.
Q: (B) What do the Cassiopaeans gain from this contact?
A: By helping you, we are moving toward fulfilling of our destiny of union with you and all else, thus completing the grand cycle.
Q: (B) Is this the only probability open to you or is this the best probability open to you?
A: Both.
Q: (B) Are you a great distance from us in light years?
A: Distance is a 3rd density idea.
Q: (B) Light years is third-density?
A: Yes.
Q: (B) What do you mean by traveling on the wave?
A: Traveling on thoughts.
Q: (F) Our thoughts or your thoughts?
A: Not correct concept.
Q: (L) What is the correct concept?
A: All is just lessons.
Q: (L) Whose thoughts are they?
A: Thoughts unify all reality in existence and are all shared.
Q: (S) You travel on a wave of energy created by all thought forms?
A: Thought forms are all that exists!
But, we are three-dimensional, are we not? Aren’t the table, the chair, the dog and the steak we had for dinner solid objects with length, depth, height and existence in time? What exactly are these objects we perceive as existing solidly in space for varying periods of time? What is the space we define as separating the objects? How are they connected in time? If physics seems to indicate to us that all is one, then what is it – what characteristic do we possess – that separates us from this deeper reality? And, what is the true nature of this reality?
Space, as we perceive it, has only three dimensions; length, width, and height. We define this condition as three independent directions – that is, each measurement lies at right angles to the others simultaneously. But, again, if we take quantum theory seriously, then our space is merely an aspect of another space, possibly of infinite number of dimensions.
If space is infinite, then it must possess an infinite number of lines perpendicular and not parallel to one another. Is infinity, then, a foolishness and does space necessarily have a limit? If it does have a limit, in what space does our space exist?
Now, if space does possess an infinite number of lines perpendicular to one another, then we must ask why we can only perceive three. If we exist in a condition of mind that perceives only three dimensions, this can mean that the properties of space are created – or differentiated – by certain attributes within us. For some reason or another, the whole is inaccessible to us. The Cassiopaeans have said this is a choice that followed a “desire based imbalance,” and that the desire was to accelerate our unification with the all.
For a very long time, materialist science has recognized the existence of two important concepts, matter and motion. Matter is that which moves and motion is changes in matter. However, Bell’s theorem seems to show us that “all” simply is. Therefore, the changes must originate within ourselves.
There are no comparisons we can carry over from our real world into the world of quantum mechanics, so we must just plunge in and tell it like it is. The central mystery is described in what is called the Double-slit Experiment,1 which goes something like this:
Imagine a barrier of some sort, such as a concrete wall, with two tiny holes in it. They can be elongated or round. On the one side of the wall is a screen with sensitive detectors on it that are sensitive to whatever we are going to send through the holes. On the other side of the holes is a device that shoots quantum things – photons of light, electrons, or whatever.
In our everyday world we can observe how waves diffract through a wall by working with a similar setup in a tank of water. A wave-making machine sends waves toward the concrete wall. The waves pass through the two holes and set up two identical little wave patterns on the other side. The intensity of each individual wave pattern, taken alone with one or other of the holes closed off, is expressed as H2, or height (amplitude) squared. But, with both holes open, there is a very large peak intensity exactly in line with the two holes, which can be expressed as I=(H+J)2. This means that the sum of the two wave intensities is not H2+J2. At the points where the two daughter wave patterns touch each other, they set up an interference pattern. So, the extra term added into the equation is the contribution due to interference and accounts for all the energy whether negative or positive. For a water tank the amplitudes are real numbers, for quantum waves” they are complex numbers, and what is squared is the magnitude, thus interference patterns are somewhat different in the two cases, but the idea is the same. So much for waves.
Now, if we take solid things, such asbullets being fired from a machine gun2 at the concrete walls, we would not find the interference term. We would find a lot of bullets close to one spot (some can ricochet from the interior of the hole) on the other side of each hole. Period.
Now, what do you think is going to happen when we shoot quantum things through the holes? It is natural to believe that each individual electron or photon must go through one hole or the other, like bullets, particularly since we have slowed down our quantum gun to shoot one electron at a time. Guess again.
When we block off one hole or the other, we get the usual pattern for single-hole experiments – that is, a whole bunch of electrons hit the same spot. But, when we open up both holes, we do not get the pattern we would get for bullets. We get the wave diffraction pattern. And, if we do the experiment a thousand times with only one electron released in each experiment, adding them all together we still get the wave diffraction pattern. A single electron or photon, on its way to the wall, knows whether or not the other hole is open and that it must obey the statistical laws.3
When we try to observe which of the holes the electron goes through, we always see the electron at one hole or the other, never both at once. And, if we continue to watch, the pattern built up on our detector is exactly that as for the bullets. So, we can only conclude that the electron knows not only which hole is open, it knows if we are watching it.4
When we try to observe the electron, it collapses into a particle, but when we are not looking, it seems that it goes through both holes. It is as though the world keeps all its options open until the very last instant of observation. So, from an array of ghost – or potential – electrons, our observation crystallizes one and collapses the wave.
So what are we seeing and experiencing with our five senses? Could it be that each moment of reality is like a slice of the “all”, similar to a slide on a carousel slide projector?
When we look at the table, the chair, the salad and the dog, they seem to be solid and stable – but the physicist can assure us that they are a dance of atoms ever moving into and out of being – the atoms making up the table a minute from now being perhaps an entirely different group from the atomic constitution a moment before.
So, we might say that reality is a continuous flow or invisible something passing momentarily into a focused object, much like a light shining through a slide creates an image upon a screen. What is the screen? you ask. We will come to that when we discuss the nature of matter itself. But for now, let us say that the slide is our mind and the source of light is our consciousness. But the ultimate source of this consciousness is problematical, as will be seen in the following excerpt from the Cassiopaean transcripts:
June 17, 1995
Q: (L) I would like to ask a little bit about synchronicity. I would like to know what is the source of synchronous events. Is it a multiple source or is it something that comes out of the percipient’s own mind or … (J) Is it random?
A: It involves aspects in every imaginable state of reality merging together in what could best be described, if seen visually, as a massive mosaic in perfect balance. But, that is not adequate to a response for your question, however, hopefully, maybe you can contemplate the visual image presented and help yourself to learn a more complete answer.
Q: (T) Several sessions back when we were discussing perpendicular realities you were talking about something that happened to me and that I had to look back over my life and analyze my relationships with other people from a certain point up until now and you said that this was a perpendicular reality. What is the definition of a perpendicular reality?
A: The perpendicular reality primarily, though not exclusively, refers to one’s life path and how one’s life path fits together in the cycle or in a wheel when connected with those of a similar life path. And, oddly enough, relates very closely to the previous question involving synchronicity. If you can picture an inlaid wheel formed by a circle within a circle, and adjoining partitions in a perfect balance, that would be the best representation of perpendicular reality for it does not completely involve one individual’s experience, but rather a group of individual’s experience for the progression of a greater purpose, if you understand what we mean. This is what we mean when we say: perpendicular reality. Picture again, a circle within a circle adjoined by equally spaced partitions in a perfect cycle. That is perpendicular reality.
Q: (T) You had us draw this symbol and put seven spokes or partitions between the two circles.
A: Correct.
Q: (T) Is seven the optimal number?
A: Seven is always the optimal number. There are seven levels of density. This reflects through all phases of reality.
Q: (T) You also said that each of us in this group came from a different perpendicular reality.
A: That is correct.
Q: (T) Is it at this point where we merge our different perpendicular realities in order to learn from each other’s experiences?
A: That could be described as correct.
Q: (L) It was said at the time that the inner circle was the connection with this reality and that the outer circle and connecting segments were where the perpendicular reality is “joined with the Wave.” Is it implied in that statement that the forming of this conduit through these perpendicular realities is instrumental in bringing forth this wave, bringing forth this change, this dimensional shift, or density shift, and is that something that is being done in other places?
A: We wish to congratulate you for asking six questions in one.
Q: (T) One more question and you would have a perfect perpendicular question! Mirth! (L) Are we connected in some way with the Wave, individually and as a group?
A: Well, of course. Everything is connected to the Wave.
Q: (L) Are we, by connecting into this wheel, so to speak, activating the wave in some way?
A: We are not clear about your interesting interpretation there, but it is true that you have an interactive relationship with the Wave. As stated before, you are in an interactive relationship with the Wave in a sense, in that the Wave is a part of your reality, always has been and always will be. And, of course, it does involve your progress through the grand cycle. And the perpendicular reality, again is, of course, an advancement from the core outward which is yet another reflection of all reality and all that exists. Now, we wish to return to the visual representation as mentioned previously. If you notice the core circle connects with all seven sections to the outer circle. Now, picture that outer circle as being an ever expanding circle, and each one of the seven segments as being an ever expanding line. Of course, now, this will expand outward in a circular or cyclical pattern. Please picture visually an expanding outer circle and a non-expanding inner circle. Contemplate that and then please give us your feelings as to what that represents.
Q: (L) Does it represent an expansion of our knowledge and consciousness?
A: That’s part of it.
Q: (L) Does it represent also expanding influence of what and who we are on the reality which is around us?
A: That is correct.
Q: (L) Does it also represent a more …
A: Oop! We detected a slippage of your visual representation! Contemplate, if you will, the ever-expanding outer circle and the non-expanding inner circle, and, of course, the seven partitions also moving outwardly. What type of shape does that form in your mind’s eye?
Q: (L) A wheel?
A: Is that all?
Q: (T) A pie?
A: Keep going.
Q: (L) An eye.
A: Now we are starting to turn it into a sphere! Why would it turn into a sphere?
Q: (L) How can it turn into a sphere?
A: How can it not!
Q: (SV) It is going in all directions; it’s not just flat …
A: Is a straight line a straight line or a … ?
Q: (L) Oh, you’re not talking about a circle?
A: We are talking about a circle. What becomes of a circle if you expand it outward forever?
Q: (T) The outer circle is used to encompass more and more.
A: And what shape does it begin to take on? I want you to look at this outer circle expanding outward!
Q: (J) Are we to assume that the seven spokes remain the same size in relation to the circle?
A: Well, answer that question for yourself.
Q: (L) Okay, we are looking at it as a plane representation. As a flat surface.
A: Well, what happens to a flat surface if you extend it outward forever?
Q: (L) Well, we don’t know. That, that … (SV) It keeps on going.
A: It keeps on going?
Q: (L) Yeah, bigger and flatter!
A: It does? What happens to a line if you extend it forever and ever?
Q: (L) It keeps on going.
A: It does?
Q: (L) Um hmmm!
A: Where does it go to?
Q: (SV) Forever. (J) Back to itself. (L) We don’t know that.
A: Oh, someone said “back to itself.”
Q: (J) Like a snake taking hold of its own tail.
A: Why don’t we know that?
Q: (L) Because we don’t. It is conjectured that space is curved …
A: “Because we don’t know.” Now, why don’t we know?
Q: (L) Because we haven’t been there.
A: Had Columbus been outside of Italy and Spain?
Q: (L) Okay, we are going to assume that if it keeps on expanding it will eventually come back to itself …
A: No, no, no wait! We asked a question!
Q: (L) Well, of course Columbus had an idea that there was something but he hadn’t been there, no. But he went and checked it out.
A: Did he have just and idea?
Q: (L) Well, pretty much, I guess.
A: Hmmm. That’s not the way we remember it. The way we remember it is that he had instinct and imagination and when he married his instinct with imagination, it became reality. And, when it became reality, he had created a reality which he was fully confident would be manifest in the physical third density reality. It wasn’t that he was confident. He knew it to be so. He didn’t stop himself by adding prejudice to the equation which is what you are doing when you say: “Well, we don’t know what happens because we have never been there!” Think logically, please. We have told you so many times that everything is a grand cycle. If it’s a grand cycle, we have told you about circles within circles. We have told you about cycles. We have told you about short wave cycles and long wave cycles. Now, after all this information that you have asked of us, which we have more than happily given to you, would you expect that a straight line would just go out forever and ever and ever as a straight line? How could it possibly do that? What happens, if you draw on you third density earth a straight line to the East or to the West or to the North or to the South?
Q: (J) It comes all the way back to itself.
A: Right …
Q: (L) Okay, so we’re living in a big globe!
A: Are we?
Q: (L) Well, that is what it sounds like, a big circle?
A: Oh, my, my, my. You need more study and learning, my dear. Need more study. Even your Albert Einstein had a theory about what happened.
Q: (L) Yes, but that was just a theory.
A: Oh, well we guess then it must be dropped. We’ll never know. It’s just a theory. Well, we’ll just forget about it.
Q: (T) I’m still expanding the circle … (SV) Me too.
A: Very good, that was the idea. It keeps going and going and going.Q: (L) Well, mine does too, but it hasn’t come back and met anything. So, what’s the point?
A: Does there need to be a point?
Q: (L) Of course!
A: Who says? We are trying to help you learn. When do you expect to shut down this process?
Q: (J) Never.(L) Gee, I hope never.
A: Then there never is a point!
Q: (J) Point taken! (L) There is no point. [Laughter.] Well, if you expand the circle outward and continue expanding it in all directions, it pulls the seven spokes with it which encompasses more and more space in a cross section, and then turn that circle, you have a sphere.
A: Precisely. But Laura says that means we are living in a big globe. And, maybe we are.
Q: (T) Well, it wouldn’t be a big globe, so to speak, it would only be a big globe within the circle. If the circle continues to expand, it would just continue to go outward and outward and the globe would become bigger and bigger and bigger … (L) You’re making me nervous … (T) But it goes outward forever … cause there is no end to going out …
A: There isn’t?
Q: (SV) Nope.
A: Well, then maybe there’s no beginning. If there’s no end and no beginning, then what do you have?
Q: (J) The here and now.
A: The here and now which is also the future and the past. Everything that was, is and will be, all at once. This is why only a very few of your third density persons have been able to understand space travel, because even though traveling into space in your third density is every bit as third density as lying on your bed at night in your comfortable home, the time reference is taken away. Something that you hold very close to your bosom as if it were your mother. And, it is the biggest illusion that you have. We have repeatedly told you over and over that there is no time, and yet, of course, you have been so brainwashed into this concept that you cannot get rid of it no matter what you do, now can you? Imagine going out into space. You’d be lost when confronted with reality that everything is completely all at one? Would you not? Picture yourself floating around in space!
Q: (T) Does the sphere keep expanding … as the circle expands and you turn the circle 180, you get a sphere. As the sphere continues to expand it, you take a point on the outer edge of the sphere in order to take the sphere about itself, you get a donut, an ever expanding inner tube. If you take that and twist it, you get an even larger inner tube. It just continues to expand and encompasses more space …
A: And now, when you merge densities, or traverse densities, what you have is the merging of physical reality and ethereal reality, which involves thought form versus physicality. When you can merge those perfectly, what you realize then, is that the reason there is no beginning and no end is merely because there is no need for you to contemplate a beginning or an end after you have completed your development. When you are at union with the One at seventh density, that is when you have accomplished this and then there is no longer any need for difference between physical and ethereal forms.
Q: (L) On the subject of time as we discussed the other day: we talked about the fact that at the constant of light there is no time, there is no matter, there is no gravity, but that any unit, infinitesimally small to the downward side of the constant of light, suddenly there is gravity and suddenly there is matter. And we asked what is it that congeals this matter out of the energy of light, so to speak, and I believe that the answer we received was that it was consciousness from seventh level. From our perspective, would it be possible to achieve this constant and move through to the other side of it, or at least stay fixed with it, without dematerializing? Is the speed of light interconnected with the state of no time and no gravity?
A: No in an absolute sense, in a third density sense.
Q: (L) Okay, if you are in fourth density, for example, does everything move at the speed of light and is that why there is no time there and no gravity?
A: No. That is an incorrect concept …
Q: (T) There is no speed of light, light is everywhere.
A: Precisely. There is no speed of light in fourth density because there is no need for any “speed.” Speed, itself, is a third density concept. You remember, all there is is lessons. That’s it! There’s nothing else. It is all for your perception. For our perception. For all consciousness. That’s all there is.
Q: (L) Well, I am still trying to get a handle on what it is, what is the source of this gravity, this state of time because they seem to be so intimately connected.
A: Let us ask you a question now: do you remember going to school?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: What did you do in third grade?
Q: (L) A lot of things. I learned cursive writing. I learned to multiply and divide.
A: Do you remember what you did in first grade?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Please name one.
Q: (L) Learned to count in several ways. Learned to read and write.
A: Okay. When you were in the process of learning to multiply and divide, did you drop your pen or pencil and steadfastly return in your mind to first grade and try and figure out why you had to learn the alphabet?
Q: (L) No.
A: Why not?
Q: (L) Because I already knew it.
A: You already knew it. In other words, you did not need to learn the alphabet because you already knew it. Correct?
Q: (L) Yes.
A: Are you going to need to learn about the speed of light when there is no longer a speed of light?
Q: (L) Well, that is what I am trying to do. Once you learn it, maybe you are not subject to its lessons anymore. I mean, you get concepts presented, you absorb them, practice them, they become part of you and then you go to the next thing.
A: Yes, but you are asking about the speed of light as relates to fourth density and above density levels and we are telling you that there is no speed of light there because there is no need for that, because once you reach fourth density level, you have learned the lessons of third density level.
Q: (L) Well, if a person on third density gets into some kind of vehicle and achieves light speed, does that automatically translate them into fourth density?
A: Could you please point out one of these vehicles?
Q: (L) Well, we don’t have any … yet.
A: Do you expect to have any before you go to fourth density?
Q: (L) No.
A: Then the lesson is learned, yes?
Q: (L) Sort of.
A: If you trust in what we are saying, which is in response to what you are asking, then the lesson is learned. Now, contemplate, because all there is is lessons.
Q: (L) Well, you talk about time being an illusion, time being something we hold dear to us like a mother, and that sort of thing, and I would be perfectly happy to let go of time …
A: You do! Let go!
Q: (L) Well, it is one thing to want to do it in your mind and another thing altogether to do it in your system, your internal operating system.
A: Your internal operating system?
Q: (T) Is that DOS or WARM?
A: Could you please explain what an internal operating system is?
Q: (L) I guess it is the subconscious mind.
A: It is?
Q: (L) Maybe.
A: My, my.
Q: (T) The subconscious mind has no idea of time.(J) Time is an artificial constraint … (L) For example: a person can have a belief about prosperity in their conscious mind and can talk about it and say affirmations and all kinds of positive things for themselves, and yet, for some reason that individual continually lives on the edge of poverty because something keeps happening that they keep screwing up to keep themselves at the level of poverty. And, when you start digging around in their subconscious mind you find out that somewhere there is the belief in poverty or there is a past life connection where they feel they need or deserve to be poor, so, their internal operating system takes precedence over their conscious beliefs and thoughts. That is what I am talking about here.
A: Yes, but what is your point?
Q: (L) The point is that you may say that you would like to get rid of time and you may understand it conceptually, but something internal keeps you tied to it. How do you get rid of that internal connection?
A: Something internal keeps you tied to it?
Q: (J) Like circadian rhythms, it’s physical.
A: We feel you are missing the point.
Q: (L) Well, maybe I am.
A: You see, we speak to all of you when we say this. It’s now time for you, as individuals, to try to move away, as much as possible, not to force yourselves, of course, but to try and move away at your own pace as much as possible, from the constraints of third density. You have all learned lessons to the level where you are more than ready to begin to prepare for fourth density. Third density involves a level of physicality and restriction and restraint and all of the things that go along with those, that you no longer need. So, therefore, even though we understand that at times it may feel comfortable to cling to this, there is time for you, and there is that word again, it is time for you to consider moving ahead and get ready for fourth density and not to be concerned with such things as time or how to free yourself from the illusion of time. That really is not important. That’s like the third grade student delving into mathematics and stopping everything to go back and contemplate the ABCs and why it isn’t CBA or BAC. There really is no point. It is what it is. They are what they are.
Q: (L) That is what I want to know, what is it?
A: Why do you need to know this?
Q: (L) Because I am curious. What is time?
A: We have already told you that it is a nonexistent, artificial creation of illusion for the point of learning at the level where you are at or were, and once you have left that level, you no longer need it.
Q: (T) Maybe one of the lessons is to learn not to worry about time. Once you learn that time is not real … (SV) Tell that to your boss!
A: If something is not real, is there any concern in worrying about what it is? Imagine a conversation between two people: Billy and Gene. Billy says to Gene, “There is no such thing as time.” Gene says, “Oh, really? But I want to know what it is.’ Billy says, “But I just told you there is no such thing. Time does not exist. It is not real in any form, in any frame of reference, in any form of reality, any level of density. It simply does not exist.” And, Gene says: “Oh, that’s interesting. Now, again, what is this time?”
Q: (L) Point taken. (T) Do you wear a watch? (L) No. (SV) I have to because of my schedule. (T) But, you wear the watch because other people believe in time? (SV) Yes. (T) And that is out of courtesy for their belief, not your belief.
A: That is precisely correct. While you are still in this third density it is still necessary for you to conform, to a certain extent, to the ways of others who are more comfortable within the realm of third density. But, as we have stated previously, perhaps it is “time” for you to begin preparing for fourth density and not concern yourself any more than is absolutely necessary with all the where’s and why’s and what for’s of third density reality. This truly is behind you, now, and we know that because we can see from all levels six through one and back again in full cycle.
Q: (L) Going along with that statement, not too long ago I asked a question about the purpose of this group and the answer was that if we knew, or, more specifically if I knew, I would become “unglued.” Was that meant literally?
A: Oh, yes certainly. Every single bone in your body is going to unglue itself from every other.
Q: (L) Well, since you are saying that it is time for us to begin preparing for fourth density, maybe it is time to deal with that question?
A: Well, perhaps you are trying to steer us, now. This is amusing because, of course, you sought our help, now we guess you are going to put us in your place and vice versa. But, actually, in a way, that is what is already happening, because, again, we must remind, that we are you in the future and we have already experienced all that you are experiencing. And, of course, we are experiencing as it is always being experienced. But, it is important to note that you have been making progress despite our occasional chidings, and we are very proud of the progress you have been making. Also, we want to remind you again not to worry about the extent of the progress or the direction it is taking. Just let it happen. All knowledge that it is absolutely necessary for you to gain to sustain this progress will be gained at the appropriate point in … [chorus] time. Therefore, not to worry as it will all fall into place, as we have told you. Now, we do not feel that you are ready, as yet, to know what your ultimate purpose is, nor is it necessary for you to know, and it certainly would not be helpful in any way, so we ask again that you please not worry about that because when the “time” comes for you to know, you will.
Q: (SV) I want to ask one question: If there is no time, there is no past and no future; there are no past lives and no future lives, there is no such thing as reincarnation, then how can you be us …
A: Yes, there is reincarnation. You are getting ahead of yourself there. We never said there is no reincarnation.
Q: (SV) But, if there is no time? (J) It is our perception of it. (L) It is all happening simultaneously. We are having all of these lifetimes at once. (SV) Is there a way that we can connect ourselves with all our other selves?
A: Picture it this way: we will access some of your memory banks and give you another reference which, interestingly enough, fits very closely with the perpendicular reality wheel that we described earlier. You know what a slide projector looks like? To give you some feeling of what this expanded nature of reality really is, picture yourself watching a big slide presentation with a big slide wheel on the projector. At any given point along the way you are watching one particular slide. But, all the rest of the slides are present on the wheel, are they not? And, of course, this fits in with the perpendicular reality, which fits in with the circles within circles and cycles within cycles, which also fits in the Grand Cycle, which also fits in with what we have told you before: All there is is lessons. That’s all there is, and we ask that you enjoy them as you are watching the slide presentation …
Q: (J) In that analogy, the light that shines through the slide, as it projects it upon the screen, is our perception.
A: And, if you look back at the center of the projector, you see the origin and essence of all creation itself, which, is level seven where you are in union with the One.
If the origin of the light of consciousness is at seventh density, and it projects through consciousness units, or individual perception, we come to the idea that archetypal images may be extremely important. Archetypes are the patterns of human, societal, and national interactions as conceived, and created by beings of higher densities. And, it may be that these archetypal images are viewed or perceived by those who we have come to know as prophets.
In more recent times I discovered a curious reference to the above remark by the Cassiopaeans about becoming unglued. Author Ira Friedlander writes in The Whirling Dervishes:
Everything in the world is invisible except that which we make semi-visible. By the introduction of awareness, all things can become visible. The aim of the dervish is to open the eyes of the heart and see infinity in eternity. His goal is to loosen himself from the earth’s glue which binds him and become one with God, to become a channel for His Light. (Friedlander 1975)
It must be noted that in Sufi terms, the eyes of the heart do not refer to emotion or love in any sense that Western minds have tended to interpret it. In fact, the term heart in Eastern mysticism refers more to the consciousness of the soul – awareness – than to the many corruptions of this term that pass in New Age teachings as “the way of the heart.” Mystic, revolutionary writer and Sufism teacher, Mansur al Hallaj, has said: “When truth has overwhelmed a human heart, it empties it of all that is not truth. When God loves a being, He kills everything that is not Him.”
And that brings us back to the remark of the Cassiopaeans:
A: The perpendicular reality primarily, though not exclusively, refers to one’s life path and how one’s life path fits together in the cycle or in a wheel when connected with those of a similar life path. And, oddly enough, relates very closely to the previous question involving synchronicity. If you can picture an inlaid wheel formed by a circle within a circle, and adjoining partitions in a perfect balance, that would be the best representation of perpendicular reality for it does not completely involve one individual’s experience, but rather a group of individual’s experience for the progression of a greater purpose. [Columbus] had instinct and imagination and when he married his instinct with imagination, it became reality. And, when it became reality, he had created a reality which he was fully confident would be manifest in the physical third density reality. It wasn’t that he was confident. He knew it to be so. He didn’t stop himself by adding prejudice to the equation which is what you are doing when you say, “Well, we don’t know what happens because we have never been there!” … The core circle connects with all seven sections to the outer circle. Now, picture that outer circle as being an ever expanding circle …
Q: (L) Does it represent an expansion of our knowledge and consciousness?
A: That’s part of it.
Q: (L) Does it represent also expanding influence of what and who we are on the reality which is around us?
A: That is correct.
And here the question must be asked: why have we created a world in which material extinction is a real possibility? Where has the human race gone wrong? Are we truly on the edge of an abyss, losing our balance, preparing to fall into a hole so deep and dark that we shall never come out of it?
What is this mysterious gap between intent/desire and physical manifestation? What darkness exists in our subconscious minds that has created a world so hostile and uncaring? What power separates us from knowledge of our inner creative selves and leaves us exposed to suffering and pain?
For, no matter how one defines reality – as a self-created manifestation, or as an accomplished fact thrust upon us – the reality of suffering must be seen as a consequence of this separation. And, if the world of matter is created and maintained by us, what are we doing about it that is new and different?
For millennia we have worked with the idea that pain and suffering is a consequence of willful disobedience. If this is so, then man’s being is a blight on the cosmos, and this is certainly the core belief system that is inherent in all philosophies and teachings that promote faith in this or that savior or mode of salvation. And we have to note, because our lives may depend on it, that it simply hasn’t worked.
If we accept that, for whatever reason, some aspect of creation has manifested the limited three dimensions in which our consciousnesses find themselves, how would we describe this condition and its potential for change?
We usually consider the past as no longer existing. The future does not exist either and the present refers to the momentary transition of nonexistence into nonexistence. How absurd that seems, but trying to understand it in linear terms, that’s what you end up with.
Physicist John Archibald Wheeler, who takes the lesson of quantum physics seriously, writes:
The point is that the Universe is a grand synthesis, putting itself together all the time as a whole. Its history is not a history as we usually conceive history. It is not one thing happening after another. It is a totality in which what happens “now” gives reality to what happened “then,” perhaps even determines what happened then. (Wheeler 2000, 338)
But, if it is true that only now exists, then the problem is our concept of time. We regard time as linear, long or short, an endless line, a progression from past into future. But this creates an insurmountable problem. On a line, now is a mathematical point of infinitesimal smallness – it has no dimension. By scientific logic, it does not exist!
Russian philosopher P.D. Ouspensky, in his Tertium Organum, illustrates this for us using the example of a snail on a journey:
We know nothing about its inner life, but we may be sure that its perception is very different from ours. In all probability a snail’s sensations of its surroundings are very vague. It probably feels warmth, cold, light, darkness, hunger, and instinctively (i.e. incited by pleasure/pain guidance) it crawls toward the uneaten edge of the leaf it sits on, and draws away from a dead leaf. Its movements are governed by pleasure/pain. It always advances toward the one and retreats from the other. It always moves on one line, from the unpleasant towards the pleasant. And, in all probability it senses and knows nothing except this line. This line constitutes the whole of its world. All the sensations entering from the outside are sensed by the snail on this line of motion. And, these come to it out of time – from potentiality they become actuality. For a snail, the whole of our Universe exists in the future and the past, i.e., in time. (Ouspensky 1920)
The snail is probably not self-aware – that is, aware that it is surging across so vast a landscape, all of which exists simultaneously, of which the snail could be aware if it were possible to expand its awareness through some process of metamorphosis and lift it high above the garden to expand its scope. But, it only perceives the various phenomena – the leaf, the grass, the twig, the sand, the walkway – at the moment it interacts with them. They are events of long or short duration, past and future, which “come to pass” as the snail inches along.
In the same manner do we experience our world, our five sense organs are merely feelers by means of which we touch and interpret the world through the mathematical constructs of our brains and in the limited terms of three-dimensional consciousness. Scientific gadgetry only lengthens our feelers a bit.
Imagine a consciousness not limited by the conditions of sense perception. Such a consciousness can rise above the plane on which we move; it can see far beyond the bounds of the circle illumined by our ordinary consciousness; it can see that not only does the line along which we move exist, but also all the other lines perpendicular to it which we cross (in our series of nows). Rising above the plane, this consciousness will be able to see the plane, make sure that it actually is a plane and not only a line, then it will be able to see the past and the future living side by side and existing simultaneously.
The past and future cannot be nonexistent. They must exist together somewhere, only we do not see them. … We must admit that the past, the present and the future do not differ from one another in any way, that the only thing that exists is the Eternal Now of Indian philosophy. (Ouspensky 1920)
The Alpha and Omega. But we do not see this – at least very few of us do – and then we only see imperfectly, “through a glass darkly.” We are snails crossing the landscape of the Universe, aware only momentarily of the earth, the leaf, the flower, or the raindrop before us. At any given moment we are only aware of a small fragment of the Universe and we continue to deny the existence of everything else – namely the coexistent past and future and the possibility of perceiving it. The Cassiopaeans refer to it as a state in which a person merges densities, or traverses densities. It is the merging of physical reality and ethereal reality, which involves thought form versus physicality. In other words, superluminal communication with the self in the future.
January 14, 1995
Q: (L) You have told us in the past that you are us in the future and that you are [traveling on the Wave], moving this way to merge with us.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) As we measure time, how far in the future are you us?
A: Indeterminate as you measure time.
Q: (L) Does this mean that at the point in time when the Wave arrives on the earth in this upcoming event that you have given us the information to plot the ETA, is that the time at which you will merge with us and become us in the future?
A: No, that is not the correct concept.
Q: (L) You have said that when the Wave arrives that you will merge with us. Is this the same thing that you are talking about when you say that you are us in the future?
A: No. You are again slipping into trying to apply 3rd density logic to higher levels of density reality. We are trying to help everyone to advance.
Q: (L) So, we are not talking about the same event …
A: What is “future,” anyway?
Q: (L) The future is simultaneous events, just different locales in space/time, just a different focus of consciousness, is that correct?
A: Yes, so if that is true, why try to apply linear thinking here, you see, we are merging with you right now!
Q: (T) So, what you are trying to say is that when the Wave comes it is going to take us to fourth density, if we are ready, but we are not actually going to merge with you in sixth density at that point, but we may experience a merge at that point because all points of focus merge during transition from one density to another?
A: Partly correct, partly way off.
Q: (J) What part is right and what part is wrong?(T) The Wave is going to take those of us who are, at that point ready, to move us into fourth density, is this part correct?
A: Open.
Q: (T) Which part of it is open?
A: You are a 4th density candidate.
Q: (T) So, we are fourth density candidates but that doesn’t necessarily mean that we will make it into fourth density, true?
A: Partly.
Q: (T) As fourth density candidates, anyone that is, when the Wave comes, if they have reached the correct frequency vibration, and have raised themselves up to the point that the Wave will take them, they will, at that point, move into fourth density, true?
A: Close enough.
Q: (T) Now, when those who move into fourth density make the move, will they experience a completeness or merge with all other densities of their being, at that point, even if it is for a short time?
A: For one immeasurably small instant, this is what is meant by “illumination”!
Q: (T) But, for that small instant, because there really is no time, maybe an instant or an aeon, depending on how any individual might measure it, we might experience oneness with ourselves?
A: It may seem to last “forever.”
Q: (L) Is this what is known as the “rapture?”
A: Some have attempted to explain instinctive thought patterns this way.
There are two main theories of the future – that of a predestined future and that of a free future. The theory of predestination asserts that every future event is the result of past events and if we know all the past then we could know all the future. The idea of a free future is based on quantum probabilities. The future is either only partially determined or undetermined because of the varied interactions possible at any given point.
This idea of free will says that quite deliberate volitional acts may bring about a subsequent change in events. Those who support predestination say that so-called voluntary actions are actually the results of incompletely understood causes that have made them imperative acts. In short, nothing is accidental. On the one hand we have the cold predestination – come what may, nothing can be changed – and on the other hand we have a reality of which is only a point on some sort of needle we call the present, surrounded on all sides by the gulf of nonexistence: a world that is born and that dies every moment.
Ouspensky unifies these views:
At every given moment all the future of the world is predestined and existing, but it is predestined conditionally, i.e., there must be one or another future in accordance with the direction of events of the given moment, if no new factor comes in. And a new factor can come in only from the side of consciousness and the will resulting from it. (Ouspensky 1920)
In other words, the snail can choose to change his direction by overcoming his instinctive urge for pleasure and avoidance of pain. But this can only come about by becoming aware of the probable course he is on. If his natural tendencies are leading him to an abyss that will plunge him into a blazing inferno below, then it would behoove him to learn exactly what it is he must do to avoid it.
In the past, what is behind us lies not only in what was, but also in what could have been. In the same way, in the future lies not only what will be but also what may be. (Ouspensky 1920)
All exists simultaneously – it is only we who, singly and collectively, can change the focus of our consciousness. And we can only make this change if we have objective awareness of the true state of our reality.
Now we must ask the question: Why can we not perceive reality as it is? Why can we not enlarge our perception – why are we chained in this painful existence we call reality? Can our consciousness get beyond the conditions of three dimensions without fundamental alterations in material existence? How long can we sustain it there? In order to live in that state of expanded consciousness is it necessary for the fundamental nature of our individual reality to change dramatically? I believe it is.
Quantum theory may demonstrate that all that exists, past, present, and future, is combined into a single entity whose farthest parts are joined in an immediate manner. No field mechanism is required for this oneness. Perhaps this entity carries the Wave. But, as the Cassiopaeans have pointed out:
December 10, 1994
A: The Wave is transport mode.
Q: (L) Is that transport mode for many beings?
A: Yes. Wave is “crowded.”
Q: (L) Are you coming to invade us?
A: No, merge.
Q: (L) Are others coming with the intention of invading us?
A: Yes.
Q: (T) So, everybody out in the whole Universe who want a piece of the earth action are on this wave?
A: At realm border crossing. … Huge wave of UFO activity. All manner and origins. Just you wait, it will give you chills and that feeling in the pit of your stomach. Many aliens will appear and we will be visible too. Think of it as a convention. All must awaken to this. It is happening right now. The whole populace will play individual roles according to their individual frequencies. This is only the beginning …
Q: (L) How do you relate to the Pleiadians?
A: Pleiadians are communicating with many others; we are bursting upon the scene with you, but we are essentially the same, just at slightly different focus points on the realm border.
Q: (L) Well, why is all this activity happening now?
A: The grand cycle is about to close presenting a unique opportunity.
Q: (L) Does this mean that this is a unique opportunity to change the future?
A: Future, past and present.
Q: (L) Well, that sort of makes me think that if things are not changed somewhat at this point on the grand cycle that things could get really direfully screwed up, is that correct?
A: But they won’t. You have not grasped concept.
Q: (L) Yeah I have, I got you, I understand. It’s just part of the cycle. It’s all a cycle. I mean their being here is part of us being here …
A: You do??? [giant question mark inscribed on board]
Q: (L) Do what?
A: You said you understood concept. Really? Learn.
Q: (V) I am just concerned about the previously mentioned “convention” …
A: Convention is because of realm border crossing.
Q: (L) And why is there a convention attending this realm border crossing? I mean, is it just a “really big shew”?
A: It is an opportunity.
Q: (V) As in the windows are all opening at one time so that all these beings can get in at one time?
A: As in an opportunity to affect whole Universe. Picture cosmic playing of “Pomp and Circumstance” AKA “Hope and Glory.”
Q: (L) So, do realm borders have something to do with location?
A: Realm borders ride waves.
Q: (L) And where do these waves come from?
A: They constantly cycle.
Q: (L) Does it have something to do with the movement of the planet Earth into it or does it move onto us?
A: Either or.
Q: (F) Does this convention or convergence have something to do with the fact that there are living beings on the earth?
A: Yes. And because you are at critical juncture in development.
Q: (L) Are the sixth density Orions, also known as Transient Passengers, are they the same TPs that have been referred to as the ones who genetically engineered us or put us here?
A: Close. They are Wave riders.
Q: (L) Are those groups that ride the Wave, is riding the wave part of the definition of Transient Passengers?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Do they like to ride this Wave?
A: Is it “fun” for you to live on Earth?
Q: (L) Well, I like living on Earth a great deal, but I don’t like pain and suffering, and I don’t like man’s inhumanity to man and I don’t like to see other people suffer.
A: Do you live on Earth for amusement?
Q: (L) I would like to live on Earth for amusement but I haven’t had a whole heck of a lot of laughs since I have been here this time. I would like to have a life on the planet where things were pleasant …
A: You misunderstood.
Q: (L) I see what you are saying. That’s where they live because that’s where they live.
A: Yes.
What is of particular interest in the above discussion of the Wave is the fact that different sources of information apparently come from different focus points on the Wave. Putting that together with the idea of perpendicular realities, or the connection of certain human beings with the Wave in an interactive way, or merging, as well as the idea of archetypes as slides through which the consciousness of 7th density projects itself into consciousness units, we come to the idea the Cassiopaeans mentioned above, which is that “the whole populace will play individual roles according to their individual frequencies.” This must mean that each individual is a manifestation of the frequency with which they connect to the Wave.
The study of wave motion is a precise science and all waves follow the same fundamental rules, which are clearly demonstrable both practically and mathematically. One of these rules states that a wave takes its character from what is doing the waving. Also, waves go through exactly determined cycles, which have phases that can be known or estimated. Since this is the case, what we perceive as reality is nothing more than the myriad oscillations of the primeval waveform, or 7th density. It is implied in physics that a wave usually has a waver, so we may assume that our reality has a waver also.
We must perceive that man is an oscillation of the absolute and, as such, has the potential of being augmented by other waveform expressions of energy and thus expanding, so to speak, his own awareness. Just as certain mechanical aids can augment the perception of certain ranges of light such as infrared, ultraviolet, x-rays, and radio waves, so might personal energies be synchronized by psychic means, or even, at the very deepest level, move into phase with the primal wave itself.
This is what I believe happens during mystical states of being which bring about enlightenment or during which information is received from Higher Sources. This brings us to ask the question: Who or what is doing the waving?
The descriptions of the greater reality beyond time and space are, of necessity, beyond words. In many instances, the individual receiving such information indicates the impossibility of explaining what they have experienced. So, I think we can assume that the finite nature of our physical brains is self-limiting in a certain sense. But they can certainly do much, much more than what we consider to be normal.
The brain is an instrument devised to focus reality in mathematical constructs – interpreting waveforms as material objects. The abilities of certain individuals to achieve such higher states of consciousness in the realms of physiological science is being documented by fantastic examples every day. We should understand that these abilities might extend even into the realms of perceiving the motions of the vast primal wave in other ways. These individuals might be able to perceive the effects of other waveforms and, depending upon the amplitudes and energies, predict the outcomes of certain motions, even, perhaps, in very precise terms based upon the direction which consciousness is taking.
The new research in physics sounds provocatively like ancient mystical teachings, yet I believe that the true nature of the reality behind our world is beyond quantum mechanics and field theory. We may find that much truth was known by the peoples of the past and that they did, in fact, express deep, mysterious, realities in their poetic and obscure messages. Mystics and seers perceive quantum-like states, which are demonstrably difficult to translate into language. Additionally, with the passage of time and changes in word usage, we find a very great barrier to understanding.
There are numerous instances in literature and history when individuals have claimed to achieve just such an elevation of consciousness – at least for periods of time. There is much information pertaining to how this state may be achieved, which involves great self-discipline and extended preparation, but under certain circumstances may occur spontaneously.
The experience of viewing simultaneous, cause/effect reality may be extremely difficult to maintain when one is constantly being bombarded by three-dimensional interpretation and the difficulty of translating this into linguistic expressions may be even more difficult.
Imagine the difficulty of explaining to a snail the expanse of an acre of ground! Mystics and Seers have attempted to do just that for millennia with the result that the vast majority of humankind have absolutely and totally misunderstood these concepts. And, there is no worse lie than a truth misunderstood by those who hear it. The greatest lies are the dark and evil systems of religion created by those who do not understand. (Of course, that is not to say that a religion based on Truth could not be created by those who do understand, as seems to have been the case in the religion of Paleolithic civilzations.)
Until quite recent times, science has lumped all psychic or mystical states under the heading of pathological or unhealthy conditions of the mind. Many scientists still hold this opinion. There are conditions of pseudo-mystical perversion, purely psychopathic states and conscious deceit that are often manifested in churches and cults around the globe and have been so for centuries.
How do you separate the true from the false?
If a mystical state can be defined as cognition under conditions of expanded consciousness, what may the results be? William James, in Varieties of Religious Experience gives a checklist:
1. Mystical states give knowledge, which nothing else can give
2. Mystical states give knowledge of the real world with all its attributes
3. The mystical states of men belonging to different ages and different peoples show astonishing similarity and at times complete identity
4. The results of mystical experience are totally illogical from our ordinary point of view.
I would like to pose another question: maybe we ought to look at our reality here on this Earth in a different fashion? In the human being, the pre-birth life of the fetus is as different from the afterbirth life of the human as life, perhaps, is from death. Does death mean annihilation? Surely not since we know that our material world comes into being from that which can be neither seen nor measured. And, if the real deeper reality of the world passes into three dimensions as a phase, might we not assume that the reality, itself, could do the same? That is, if our observation of the life of an individual human is a microcosm, perhaps the material world is a gestational state – a preparation for an existence of an entirely different order in quantum terms. Preparation for a fundamental transformation of matter itself?
Although there is a great movement toward transcendentalism, this movement cannot transform due to the fact that the fundamental forces of the world are antithetical to this physical reality. While we all might like to think we can transform our world by thinking positively, we must remember that there is a great deal of scientific evidence that transformations of the planet have repeatedly been cataclysmic. A philosophy that ignores this fact is courting disaster.
It may be that their focus upon a New Age quite literally contributes energy to the dissolution of the current age in a manner that follows scientific principles. To think that the transition will occur by thought alone ignores certain very important scientific factors. We are looking to find the threads of identity – the points of agreement in science, philosophy and religion.
Matter, as we experience it, seems to be opposed to spirit, otherwise we would easily be able to manifest and ascertain our spiritual natures from our present state of existence. Research will show that this is possible, but only on a very limited level, to very few people who work very hard and devote their lives to this pursuit (or experience severe trauma).
Therefore, in order to manifest the prophesied or projected unity of spirit and matter, either the spiritual estate must become grosser and more material, or the material estate must become finer and less dense and material. And, in order for either of these events to occur, macrocosmic quantum changes must occur according to the observable processes of microcosmic quantum mechanics.
In any event, it is my thought that the idea of the end of the world is essentially correct from many points of view – but the result is as unknown to us as adult life is to an unborn child. The obvious thing to conclude is that the fundamental three-dimensional nature of the Universe is that which must be altered in order for any of the prognosticated eschatological scenarios to manifest.
But, the understanding of this concept, if it is true, reveals a cataclysmic holocaust so soul-chilling that the psyche reels into mindless denial. Prophetic truth, revealed when the time for fulfillment draws near, gives birth to visions of primeval destruction beyond the most gripping and searing nightmare; concepts that make the obscenity of nuclear war seem like child’s play.
But, maybe not. Maybe it depends on which archetype on the Wave the mind of humanity aligns with?
The Cassiopaeans are asking us to look at the concepts of doomsday – admittedly a violent and horrendous prospect – in an entirely new light. The end may indeed be the end; the end of the world as we know it. And I mean that in a very basic sense.
But, more than that, they are asking us to understand that it is not just the end of a civilization – though it will be that, too. It is not just the beginning of the New Age – it will be that, also. But we are looking at a possibility that we may manifest the end of matter as we presently know it, and the quantum alteration of the Universe according to observable scientific principles, which will enable the earth, life and the cosmos to manifest in a new way: restoration of perfection and the Edenic state – the harmony of spirit and matter. The end that is the beginning.
Palle Yourgrau writes in Gödel Meets Einstein: Time Travel in the Gödel Universe:
Adopting … an ontological … point of view, we pose the question: where do we come from? (And where are we going?) That babies come from the womb is a familiar biological fact concerning our early bodies, but it is of no help with the present question. I thus lay down my … alarming proposition: We don’t really know where we (as babies) came from. … [Gödel wrote] “the idea that the world and everything in it has meaning and reason, and in particular a good and indubitable meaning … it follows immediately that our worldly existence, since it has in itself at most a very dubious meaning, can only be means to the end of another existence. … Since we came into existence one day in this world without knowing how-so and whence, the same can happen again in the same way in another world.” …
Birth and death, then, are changes (with respect to existence) … living … is a process that takes place in time, and … birth obviously precedes death. And that is, of course, why we naturally fear death but not our prenatal nonexistence …
… Gödel … views our embodied existence, in this world, as at best a confused and cloudy preparation for something more meaningful – in our postnatal nonexistence (i.e., nonexistence after death in this world). “Without a next life,” he writes, “the potential of each person and the preparations of this life make no sense for what would be the point of bringing forth an essence (the human being) that has so wide a range of possible (individual) developments … but is never allowed to realize one thousandth of them? … Mind, in its use, is not static but constantly developing … there is no reason why the number of mind’s states should not converge to infinity in the course of its development. … The greater part of learning will take place in the next world, and we could very well be born into the next world with latent memories of our experiences in this world.” (Yourgrau 1999, 188–192)
Now, let’s look at this idea of nonlinear dynamics in terms of specific human beings enacting an archetype, and their thoughts and actions in this world. The following excerpt is from Ark’s journals. It was written at a turning point in his life, shortly after he had spent some time in Florence. A few years earlier he had nearly died of pneumonia while in Göttingen, during which time he experienced a vision, and The Call to Adventure. When he began to return to health, he knew that he must begin to wake up, though he was not sure what this call meant for him to do. It was written in Bielefeld, Sunday, May 25, 1988:
Determination is needed. Thinking in terms of weeks and months instead of years. What is needed is setting a goal and striving to achieve it. Because as it is, I am in no way different from other people. I am drifting the same way they are drifting. My only chance is to find a different way.
Thus, I want to change my priorities. I want to change my way of living. To change to what?
I have ideal conditions. It could not be better. I am, in principle, absolutely free. So what?
I see no other way than setting and realizing goals. Setting and realizing goals. Setting and realizing. Setting and realizing.
Otherwise, there is drifting. “Life is real only when I am.” If I am living consciously, then I know that I am.
If we set goals and are not conscious, if we are not attentive, if we are not wise – then we are drifting. And, sooner or later there is a reversal in direction. I want to avoid this. But first, I need to understand what is:
Drifting.
Days and years are passing. I am drifting. Again I am drifting. I am thinking back. What was good and what was bad? It was good when I knew where I was going. When from my depths I designed a goal and when I was striving to get it. What is my goal today? Where do I go? Where do I want to get to? Have I reconciled myself with life? Has a crystallization occurred? Am I satisfied with it? What is my way?
I have ideal – best of the best – conditions to answer this question. What do I choose? And then, how do I want to realize this choice?
I am drifting. Again I am drifting because first, I was supposed to understand “drifting.”
No, it is better without planning. It is better if it will be based on free association until the subject is exhausted.
Bielefeld, West Germany. Europe. Earth. Solar System. The Galaxy. The Universe. That’s me in this perspective. The New Age is coming. Do I need a greater scale of things? No, this is enough. So, here I am, on the planet Earth, in the Solar System. I know nothing of other living beings in the Universe. The purpose of my existence: unknown. So, a hypothesis is necessary. A working hypothesis to be falsified or confirmed. A kind of a compass. An axiom, a postulate to be verified by developing a system based on this postulate and by checking if it is useful, if it leads somewhere and does not drift in a circle.
And it seems that the only reasonable hypothesis is one that comes from the unknown system taught by Gurdjieff. This system tells us that the world has a certain purpose. It tells us that not everything works well. It tells us that there are certain bugs in the construction. It is quite possible that using the meta-language, one can prove that any program on that scale must have bugs. So, the Universe is a program, a program that has bugs, but which has the in-built capacity for self-improving.
There are, consequently, certain units that are brought to existence with this specific purpose: to self-evolve to a degree high enough to be able to discover the methods of debugging. These repairs can only be done on a local scale, therefore local units are created. Of course, there are ways to act non-locally, but for that, one has to have some knowledge of the operating system. Thus, this is the allegory.
I am such a unit. I am alive, and I am endowed with some inputs and outputs and peripherals; with some modems for communication. The computer allegory. So, potentially, I have everything necessary for self-development. Of course, during my life certain things went wrong, therefore certain connections are wrong, certain others are even deadly wrong. But these defects can and must be circumvented by closing certain channels and by opening of others. Anyway, I can only do what I can do – no more.
This is a general perspective. From this general perspective, my aim is to save the Universe. Or, rather: to help save the Universe. And this I have to do, whatever the future might be. Independently of the fact that there may be an immortal soul that can be developed by conscious effort and intellectual suffering, I have no other choice but to help to debug the Universe.
“In the beginning was the Word … ” Only today do I understand this message. This means we are entering into an important era. In a sense into a final era: when to decide to be of or not of the Universe. This is the general perspective.
Now my role in this opus: I am a worker; I have a mission that is to be fulfilled. I have been sent here; sent into this time, this place, in this and not in some other form. The first thing to do is to find and read the designated task. But there is more. There are, namely, information channels with which I can communicate with those that sent me here and that are controlling the mission. Because the higher intelligence must have some control, but it cannot do the work which only I can do. So, there are certain information channels.
Of course, I am not able to make free use of them. I cannot use them until there is a guarantee that using of these channels will not bring harm.
Summary:
Universe is a Computer ProgramSelf organizing, Self evolving Units, some of these are
Debugging Local Units on a
Mission. There is a
Higher Intelligence and
Communication Channels.
Of course, all this process is based on the law of big numbers. That is: not everything can be programmed. Statistical fluctuations must be allowed. Otherwise nothing will evolve by itself. Otherwise there will be no self-evolution!
It follows thus that probabilistics, that stochastics, that elements of uncertainty, elements of choice, are at the base of the construction of the Universe. This is interesting and I want to work on this. This is very important.
I want to return to this point later on. But now, I want to proceed further: What is my aim, what is my goal, what is my task? What kind of work am I to perform? What kind of work do I want to perform?
The Universe may be a deterministic automaton, nevertheless, with such a complex action that there is no other method of predicting than running the Universe to see what will happen. In this sense, therefore, we must be satisfied with a statistical description when we want to foresee the future. Let us say that this is a rough picture. But then, where is free will? The ability to choose? For precognition? Something is therefore lacking in this picture.
Workings of the Universe.
The problem of determinism and indeterminism. The problem of free will and the problem of chance. All this relates to the problem of time and to the problem of other dimensions. Therefore I must not discuss these things on too simple a level. So, we have the following circle of problems:
Time – Causality – Determinism – Chance – Phase – Other Dimensions – Quantum and Classical – Complementarity – Information – Organization.
What is important here is that these are general laws – these are objective. There are statistical laws that are valid on average, and there are laws that concern each individual case. But these laws leave a certain rather big freedom. Within this freedom there is what is and within this freedom we are given [a] free hand. Thus, not everything is determined and predictions for the future have the form: if this, then this; if not, then that.
I am living in the world based on technology. I am using this technology. We have computers. We know something about computer programs. Only now we understand what it means, “In the beginning was the Word.” Therefore we should not alienate ourselves from this technology. Our cognizance goes through technology – which does not exclude the fact that for some so-called “chosen” people, there are other possibilities of gaining knowledge. These are possibilities which are not, however, saving all of humanity.
Thus, I am aware of the fact that I am not developing for myself. I am not working for salvation or immortality. I am sent here with a mission and my task is to add to the saving of the Universe. I can do it by helping humanity. But in order to do it, I need knowledge, I need to be able to discern. So, the goal appears:
To discover the workings of the Universe, to learn about human beings, about myself.
To learn to help the Universe means to help the Creator. To be of some help to the Creator of everything. Everything-that-is is a great thing. So, this is my ultimate goal. The goal from which all other goals stem.
Now, come back to the beginning. If this is my goal, then there should be no time for drifting, no place for pleasures. Somebody told me that I need to rest, but I do not need to rest when there is work to be done. At each moment I can choose. At these moments I have to be careful not to let things just go their way.
So, the ultimate goal is clear. Now must come realization. It is clear, psychologically, that the goal is difficult. And there are all kinds of obstacles, there are phantoms that can delude … all of mythology is full of temptation stories!
The goal is high and right and good, but for some reason, it cannot be obtained by just anybody who can see it. There is some sort of filter in action, there is a selection criteria. The goal can be reached only by some chosen ones, some who can pass a test, who can oppose temptations, who can prove to have enough strength, who can show that the Gods have them under their care. Otherwise, I will perish. (Arkadiusz Jadczyk, Research Journals, 1988)
I have tried to reproduce the actual setup of this journal entry above because it is important. What this tells us is that, as early as 1988, Ark was “in contact” with the Cassiopaeans. While I was living in the woods, meditating in my garden and wrestling with God about my own purpose, or trying to read impossible physics texts, he was already formulating ideas that have a powerful bearing on the present subject; debugging the Universe; local “debugging units” that produce nonlinear changes. And it is in these present pages that the dynamics of debugging are being presented. For every mind that is unplugged and debugged, the potential effects on the Universe are literally staggering.
Now, notice very carefully the following remark: predictions for the future have the form: if this, then this; if not, then that. If the situation, as it is, is not known, no one will take any action and the predictions for the future will be set. However, if there is a change, perhaps even so small a change as just what we are doing here in sharing this information, it can change everything in a nonlinear way. And it is this that the Cassiopaeans have endeavored to teach us. Yes, they will answer our questions objectively and clinically as to the state of the Universe in which we live at the moment the question is asked. And then they will tell us that we have free will if we have knowledge. And then, when we ask them what we ought to do, if anything, they say, “You will do what you will do.”
You will do what you will do.
Physicist Julian Barbour writes in The End of Time:
Anyone committed to science has difficulty with free will. In The Selfish Gene, (2nd edition, pp. 270–71), Dawkins asks, “What on earth do you think you are, if not a robot, albeit a very complicated one?” From personal introspection, I do not believe that my conscious self exercises free will. Certainly I ponder difficult decisions at length, but the decision itself invariably comes into consciousness from a different, unconscious realm. Brain research confirms that what we think are spontaneous decisions, acts of free will, are prepared in the unconscious mind before we become aware of them.
However, the many-instants interpretation puts an intriguingly different slant on causality, suggesting that it operates in nothing like the way we normally belief it to. In both classical physics and Everett’s original scheme, what happens now is the consequence of the past. But with many instants, each Now “competes” with all other Nows in a timeless beauty contest to win the highest probability. The ability of each Now to “resonate” with the other Nows is what counts. Its chance to exist is determined by what it is in itself. The structure of things is the determining power in a timeless world.
The same applies to us, for our conscious instants are embedded in the Nows. The probability of us experiencing ourselves doing something is just the sum of the probabilities for all the different Nows in which that experience is embedded. Everything we experience is brought into existence by being what it is. Our very nature determines whether we shall or shall not be. … We are because of what we are. Our existence is determined by the way we relate to (or resonate with) everything else that can be. … One day the theory of evolution will be subsumed in a greater scheme, just as Newtonian mechanics was subsumed in relativity without in any way ceasing to be great and valid science. … I do not think that we are robots or that anything happens by chance. That view arises because we do not have a large enough perspective on things. We are the answers to the question of what can be maximally sensitive to the totality of what is possible. (Barbour 1999, 324–325)
What are you going to do?
3 Ark’s note: Physicist Alfred Landé came with another idea: that it is the wall rather than the electron that knows whether one or two holes are open, and scatters the electrons according to this knowledge. Both interpretations are possible, the effect and the algebra of interference patterns remains the same.
4 Ark’s note: this process of diffraction pattern formation by shooting of single electrons, their path being watched or not, can be modeled by a nonlinear quantum dynamics. Simultaneous observation of several non-commessurable physical characteristics, like, for instance, position and velocity vectors, can lead to chaotic and fractal patterns.